The conquest of space had carried man to the
rim of our galaxy—and there was nothing left but to step over that rim.
Only
one man had ever survived a flight into the depths of deep space between the
galaxies and he came back with a deranged mind. He said there was something out
there, something capable of warping a man's souL But he refused, even in the face of death, to reveal what it
was that he had seen.
When Derek Calver,
master of the spaceship The
Outsider, had
heard the story he became obsessed with the desire to discover for himself the
secret of intergalactic space. Nothing would stop him—even if it meant bargaining
his soul for a glimpse of that terrible unknown.
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CAST
OF CHARACTERS
Derek
Calver
He was aö excellent
navigator until it came to charting a human soul.
Sonya
Verrill
Love in free-fall was her specialty.
Jane
Calver
Space was her home—until she went off the deep end.
Bill
Maudsley
He had knowledge of the unknown—and it
destroyed him.
Levine
His psionic powers
could span galaxies, but he refused to read the mind of a dead man.
THE SHIP FROM OUTSIDE
by
A.
BERTRAM CHANDLER
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the ship from outside
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I
It
was on Stree
that Calver, Master of the star-tramp Rimfire, received the news. He was in his day cabin at the time and he and Jane Calver, who was both his wife and his Catering Officer,
were trying to entertain the large, not unhandsome lizard who acted as Rim
Runners' local agent. It had been heavy going; the saurians
of Stree are avid for new knowledge and delight in
long-winded and woolly philosophical discussions. Both Jane and Calver tried hard not to show their relief when there was a
sharp rapping at the cabin door.
"Excuse me, Treeth," Calver said.
"Most certainly, Captain," replied
the agent. "Doubtless one of your officers bears tidings of great
import."
"I doubt it," said Jane Calver, with a slight shrug of her shapely shoulders.
"It'll be no more than some minor problem of stowage, or something."
"Or something," agreed her husband.
He raised his voice. "Come in."
The agent, who had been sitting on the deck, rose gracefully to his
feet, his long tail skimming the afternoon tea crockery on the low coffee table
with a scant millimeter of clearance. Jane, when the expected crash failed to
eventuate, heaved an audible sigh of relief. Treeth
looked at Calver and grinned, showing all his needle
teeth. Calver said nothing but wished that a childish
sense of humor did not, as it so often and too often does, go hand in hand with
super intelligence.
Levine, the little Psionic Radio Officer, bounced into the cabin. For a moment
Calver thought that the man had been drinking, then
rejected the idea; Levine was well known for his abstemious ways. But there are
other euphoriacs than alcohol.
"Captain," he babbled, "I've picked up a message. An important one. Really important.
Donaldson, the P.R.O. at Port Farewell, must have hooked up every telepath and
every dog's brain amplifier on the whole damn planet to punch it through at
this range."
"And what is this news?" asked Calver.
"The Thermopylae salvage case," cried Levine. "It's
been settled at last."
"So Rim Runners get their new
ship," said Calver. "So
what?"
"To hell with Rim Runners!" exploded Levine. "We get our whack—all of us who were in the poor old Lorn Lady at the time."
Treeth sat down again. He showed that he was
interested by forgetting to repeat his infantile joke with his tail and the tea
things. He said, in the well-modulated voice that held only the suggestion of a
croak, the merest hint of a hiss, "I trust that you will forgive my
curiosity, Captain. But we, as you know, were utterly ignorant of commercial
matters until your Commodore Crimes made his first landing on our planet. What
is salvage?"
"Putting it briefly," Calver told him, "roughly and briefly, it's this. If
you come across another ship in distress you do all that you can to save life
and property. The lifesaving is, after alL it's
own reward. It's when property—the other vessel, or her cargo, or both—is saved
that the legal complications creep in. There are so many interested
parties—the owners of the ships involved, the owners
of the cargo and, last but not least, Lloyds of London, who carry the insurance.
. . ."
"Last but not least," corrected
Jane, "the crew of the ship that carries out the act of salvage, the
people who've done all the work."
"Anyhow," went on Calver, "the whole mess is dumped on the lap of an
Admiralty court. The court decides who gets paid how much for doing what."
"And this Thermopylae?" asked Treeth.
"We heard something about her from Captain Vickery, of the Sundowner. It happened shortly after Lorn Lady's last visit here, if I remember rightly. I
shall be obliged if you will apprise me of the relevant facts."
"All right," said Calver. "Thermopylae was—and, so far as I know, still is—one of the Trans-Galactic Clippers,
a large passenger liner. She was making a cruising voyage out along the Rim.
She got into trouble off Eblis. . . ."
"A most unpleasant world," said Treeth. "I have seen pictures of it."
"As you say, a
most unpleasant world. Anyhow, Thermopylae was
putting herself into orbit around Eblis so that her
passengers could admire the scenery and—things always seem to happen at the
worst possible times—she blew her tube linings. As a result of this she was
doomed to make a series of grazing ellipses until such time as she crashed to
the surface. We, in Lorn
Lady, picked up her
distress calls and just about bust a gut getting there in time. We tried to tow
her into a stable orbit. We succeeded—but wrecked our own ship in the process.
Then Thermopylae used our tube linings to make temporary
repairs to her own reaction drive units. As you can see, it was the sort of
case that brings joy to the hearts of the lawyers and large wads of folding
money into their pockets; in addition to the straightforward salvage there was
the sacrifice of one ship to save the other."
"And you have, at last, been rewarded by
the owners of Thermopylae?"
asked Treeth.
"So it would appear," answered Calver.
"And howl" cried Levine, who had
been waiting for a chance to get a word in. "And by Lloyds! A cool three quarters of a million
to Lorn Lady's crew! I haven't got the individual figures
yet, but . . ."
"This," said Jane, "calls for
a celebration. Luckily we're well stocked with liquor...."
The agent got to his feet again. "And
now I must depart," he said gently. "For me, a stranger, an outsider,
to be present at your thanksgiving would not be fitting. But there is one thing
about you beings that never ceases to mystify me—the need that you feel to
deaden the effects of the exhilaration that comes with good news by the
ingestion of alcohol. ..." He
paused. "Good afternoon to you, Captain and Captain's
lady, and to you, Mr. Levine. I am sufficiently familiar with your
vessel to be able to find my own way ashore.
"Good afternoon—and my sincere
congratulations."
There was Calver,
tall and gangling, and there was Jane Calver who, as
"Calamity Jane" Arlen, had been Catering Officer of the lost Lorn Lady. Calver sat at the head of the table in Rimftre's saloon and Jane, tall and slim, and with the silver streak in her glossy
dark hair gleaming like a slender coronet, sat at his right hand. Very much
Captain and Captain's lady they had been when the other officers had been with
them, the officers who had not served in Lorn Lady. But now these others had retired to their several cabins and the party
was for Lorn
Lady's people only.
There was the painfully thin Bendix, with the
few remaining strands of black hair brushed carefully over his shining scalp,
who had been Interstellar Drive Engineer in T.G. Clippers before coming out to
the Rim for reasons known only to himself. There was
Renault, the Rocket King, swarthy, always in need of depilation, Reaction Drive
Engineer^he, like Jane and Calver,
was out of the Interstellar Transport Commission's ships. There was little
Brentano, in charge of Electronic Radio Communications, highly competent and
capable of standing a watch in the control room or in either of the two engine
rooms should the need arise. There was Levine, another small ■ man and
also competent—extremely so—but only in his own field. There was old Doc
Malone, looking like a jovial monk who had, somehow, put on a uniform in mistake
for his habit.
The decanter was passed around the table.
"A toast," said Bendix
harshly. "A toast. Well drink to you, Calver. It's thanks to you that this good fortune has come
our way."
"No," demurred
the Captain. "No. Well drink to us, to all of us. We were all in it
together, and we all of us did our best." He raised his glass. "To
us," he repeated quietly.
"And to hell with the
Rim!"
Brentano almost shouted. "To hell with Lorn and
Faraway, Ultimo and Thule and the whole damned Eastern Circuit!"
"And are you going home, Brentano?"
asked Doc Malone. "And are you going home? To the warm
Cluster Worlds, to the swarming suns and their attendant planets? Won't
you feel confined, shut in? Won't you miss the empty sky, the call of it, the mystery of it? Won't you miss this freemasonry of
ours?"
"And what about you, Doc?"
countered Brentano. "Aren't you going home?"
The old man was silent for what could have been only seconds, but it
seemed longer. He said at last, very softly, ". . . and home there's no returning."
Tm afraid he's right," murmured Bendix, breaking the sudden silence.
"He is right," Renault said.
And Calver remembered how he and Jane had
stood in the Captain's cabin aboard Thermopylae, and
how her hand had found his, and how he had said, "But we belong on the
Rim."
He said it again.
"So we belong on the
Rim," said Jane briskly. "We seem to be in complete agreement on that
point, with the exception of friend Brentano. . . ."
"Why make an exception of me?"
demanded the Radio Officer plaintively. "I'm as much a Rim Runner as any
of you."
"But you said—." began Jane.
"What I say isn't
always what I think, or feel." His face clouded. "Old Doc put it in a
nutshell. And
home there's no returning—not unless we want to face what we ran away from, not unless we want to
reopen old wounds. All the same, there must be more in life than running the
Eastern Circuit."
"What if we ran it on our own behalf?" aksed
Calver.
"You mean . . . ?" queried Renault.
"What I said. With what we've got we
shall be able to buy an obsolescent Epsilon Class
tramp and have enough left over for the refit. We know the trade, and there's
quite a deal of goodwill on the Eastern Circuit planets that's ours rather than
the Company's."
"The Sundown Line didn't last long," quibbled Levine.
"Perhaps not," said Bendix, "but they didn't lose any money when Rim
Runners bought them out."
"It was never in my thoughts," said
old Doc Malone, "that I should be a shipowner in
the evening of my days."
"You aren't one yet," remarked Brentano.
"Perhaps not. But the idea is not without its charm. Now,
just supposing that we do buy ourselves a ship, what do we call
ourselves?"
"The Outsiders," said Calver.
II
Calver
was relieved that it was
not necessary to make a voyage all the way to Terra to pick up a suitable ship.
The return to Terra would have brought back too many memories—for Jane as well
as for himself. When he had come out to the Rim he had said goodbye to Earth,
and he liked his farewells to be permanent.
It was Levine who, spending his watches gossiping with his opposite
numbers in ships within telepathic range, learned that
the Commission's Epsilon
Aurigae had been delivered to Nova Caledon for sale to a small local company,
and that the sale had broken down. It was Levine who succeeded in getting in
touch with the P.R.O. at Port Caledon and persuading him to pass word to the
Commission's agent there that buyers would shortly be on the way.
The
stickiest part of it alL of course, was the mass
resignation of all Rimfire's senior officers when she set down at Port
Faraway. Commodore Grimes—back in harness as As-tronautical Superintendent
after his exploratory jaunts-stormed and blustered, threatened to sue Calver and the others for breach of contract. Then, when he
saw that it was hopeless, he softened.
"You're all good men," he said.
"Yes—and one good woman. I don't like to see you go. But, with all that
money coming to you, you'd be fools to stay on the Rim."
"But we are staying on the Rim, sir," said Calver
quietly.
"What? If you intend to live on the
interest of your salvage money, Captain, there are far better places to do
it."
"Commodore," said Calver, "you're an astronaut, not a businessman. I'm
talking to you now as one spaceman to another, and I'll be grateful if you
respect the confidence. We intend to set up shop as shipowners.
You've often said yourself that there's a grave shortage of tonnage on the
Eastern Circuit."
Grimes laughed. "You know, Calver, if I were in your shoes I'd probably be doing the
same myself. But I warn you, there won't always be a shortage of ships, Rim
Runner ships, out here."
"But there is now," said Calver.
"There is now. We may be willing to
charter you. But when there's no longer a shortage. . . ."
"You'll run us out of space," finished Calver.
"Too right," promised Grimes. "We will. . . . Meanwhile, Calver,
the best of luck. Let
me know when you're due back out here and 111 see what I can do for you—provided
that it doesn't conflict with Rim Runners' interests, of course."
"Thank you, sir," said Calver,
shaking hands.
So they booked passage for
Nova Caledon, all of them, making the lengthy, roundabout voyage that was
inevitable in this poorly serviced sector of the Galaxy. From Faraway to
Elsinore they .traveled in the Shakespearean Lines' Miranda, and from Elsinore to van Diemen's Planet in
the (^mmision's Delta Sagittarius. On van Diemen's Planet they were lucky enough
to find that the Waverley Royal Mail's Countess of Arran had been delayed by engineroom
repairs, otherwise they would have been obliged to wait a month on that world
for the next connection.
At last they dropped down through the
inevitable misty drizzle to Port Caledon. Calver, as
a shipmaster, could have enjoyed the freedom of the Countess's control room, but he preferred to stay in the
observation lounge with his own officers and, of course, with Jane.
There was, they saw, only one other ship in
the port-obviously an Epsilon
Class vessel.
"Ours," Jane murmured.
"Ours," repeated Bendix.
"She looks a mess," said Brentano glumly.
"No more a mess than the poor old Lorn Lady was," said Bendix.
"She's a ship," said Calver.
"She'll do. She'll have to do."
"She's our ship," stated Jane firmly. "Of
course she'll do."
Conversation lapsed as they settled down into the acceleration chairs,
adjusting their seat belts. Calver felt the apprehension
that he always felt when he was traveling as passenger, knew that the others
were feeling it too. It was not that he was a better ship handler than Countess of Arran's
Captain, it was just that unless he knew what was
happening he was acutely unhappy.
There was the usual slight jar and quiver,
the subdued creaking and whispering of the shock absorbing springs and
cylinders. There was the usual spate of instruction and information from the
bulkhead speakers. And, shortly thereafter, there were the dragging customs
and immigration formalities, the filling in of forms and the answering of
questions. And then, when this was finished, there was the problem of the
disposal of their not inconsiderable baggage. The Master of the Countess was very helpful and introduced Calver to the Deputy Port Captain who, in his turn, arranged
temporary stowage in the spaceport's gear store and also put through a call to
the Commission's agent.
When
the agent arrived, Calver and his people were already
aboard the ship and had commenced their inspection of her instruments and
machinery. And she was, Calver had decided, a good ship.
She was overage, and obsolescent, but the Commission looks after its vessels
well. After the weeks of neglect at Port Caledon there was much to be done
before she would be habitable, but there was no doubt as to her spaceworthiness.
Finally Calver stood
with the agent and Jane in the control room.
"You're getting a good ship here, Captain," said the agent.
"It was lucky for you that Caledonian Spaceships folded before they ever
got off the ground."
"I know," said Calver.
"There's
one thing that I don't like about her," said Jane. "And what is that,
Mrs. Calver?"
"Her name. As you know, most ships have fancy names and
their crews are able to twist them round into something amusing and
affectionate. But EpsUon Aurigae . . ."
"Don't listen to
her," said Calver. "In any case, we shall
be changing the name."
"Of course," agreed the agent.
"And what are you calling her?"
"The Outsider," said Jane.
"And how in the galaxy can you twist that into something affectionate and amusing?" asked the puzzled agent.
So The Outsider she was.
When
the new, shining, golden letters of her new name had been welded to the sharp
prow—a romanticizing of the drab legalities involved in changing name and port
of registry—Jane went up in the cage to the top of the scaffolding and there,
with the others watching from below-smashed a bottle of champagne over the
gleaming characters. And then, with this last ritual performed, The Outsider was ready for space. She was fueled and
provisioned. Hydroponic tanks and yeast and tissue culture vats were
functioning perfectly. She had, even, already begun to earn her keep. Her cargo
compartments were tightly stowed with casks of whisky and bales of tweed for
the Rim Worlds.
Manning the ship had been the biggest problem.
There is no shortage of spacemen at the Centre; neither, oddly enough,
is the shortage really acute out on the Rim. It is on halfway worlds such as
Nova Caledon that it is hard to find qualified personnel. In the end, however, Calver was able to engage a Chief Officer of sorts, a
drunken derelict who had missed his ship on Nova Caledon. He found a Second Officer—a Nova Caledonian who, tired of space, had come ashore to
raise sheep and who now, tired of sheep, was willing to make the voyage out to
the Rim provided that repatriation was guaranteed. Then there were two junior
professors—one of physics and the other of mathematics—from the University of
Nova Caledon who wanted to see something of the Galaxy and who were willing to
sign on as junior engineers. There were no pursers available—but Jane and the
two communications officers would be able to cope with that side of things
quite easily.
After the brief christening ceremony Jane returned to ground level and
the scaffolding was wheeled away. Slowly, with dignity, a parade in miniature, The Outsiders people marched up the ramp to the airlock, Calver in the lead. Once inside the ship, they dispersed to
their stations. Spaceport Control gave the final clearance, the conventional
good wishes. Renault's rockets coughed and sighed gently, then gave tongue to
the familiar, screaming roar. The Outsider lifted,
slowly at first, delicately balanced atop the lengthening column of her
incandescent exhaust. Faster and faster she climbed through the misty skies of
Nova Caledon until the pearly overcast was beneath her and ahead of her was the
star-spangled blackness of space.
Once she was well clear of the atmosphere Calver put her through her paces. She was a good ship and
responded sweedy to her controls. She was a good ship
and, with one exception, she had a good
crew to serve her. The two scientists made up in intelligence and enthusiasm
for what they lacked in practical engineering experience. The ex
sheepman demonstrated that he had forgotten very
little about ships in his years ashore. Of the capabilities of the old crew of Lorn Lady there was, of course, no doubt. The Mate was the weak link in the chain;
his reactions were painfully slow and he seemed to have no interest whatever in
his duties. Calver decided to have Brentano rig up
duplicate, tell-tale instruments in the Master's cabin at the first
opportunity. There is little risk of mishap to a well-found, well-organized
ship in deep space—but on the rare occasions that mishaps do occur they are
liable to be disastrous unless the officer of the watch is alert. Calver also made up his mind to instruct Jane to keep Maudsley's liquor ration to the bare minimum and to impress
upon old Doc M alone not to give the Mate any of his
homemade Irish whisky. Furthermore, he would read the Riot Act to the Mate on
the first suitable occasion.
The first thing to be done, however, was to
set course for the Rim. Her rocket drive silent, The Outsider rotated around her humming gyroscopes to the
correct heading, checked and steadied. For the last time the rockets flared and
she pushed off into the black infinity, the pale-gleaming sphere that was Nova
Caledon dwindling astern of her. There was free fall again as the Reaction
Drive was cut, there was the familiar—yet never familiar—gut-and-mind-wrenching
twist, the uncanny feeling of déjà
vu as the Mannschenn Drive built up its temporal precession fields.
And then, outside the control room ports, the
hard, brilliant stars flickered and faded, and were replaced by the
hypnotically coiling whorls of luminosity, the shifting colors known only to
those who have made the Long Drop, who have ridden to the stars on a crazy
contraption of pre-cessing gyroscopes through the
warped fabric of the continuum.
III
Time—objective and subjective—passed.
It
passed fast and not unpleasantly for most of The Outsider's people. There was much to do, many things
that were not quite right and that could be, and were, tinkered with until they
were brought to the state of perfection that gladdens the heart of an efficient
officer—especially an efficient officer who is also an owner. Cappell, the Second Mate, and Lloyd and Ritter, the two
junior engineers, had no shares in the ship but were infected, nonetheless, by
the general enthusiasm. Maudsley was the odd man out,
the malcontent. He refused to mix with the others, bolting his meals in silence
and then retiring immediately to his own cabin.
Calver discussed him with Jane. He said, Tm sorry
that we had to ship that unsociable bastard. Unluckily, Cappell
has only a Second Pilot's ticket, and Maudsley's a
Master Astronaut. Even so. . . ."
"We
were stuck on Nova Caledon until we could find two certificated officers,"
said Jane. "We had to take what we could get. In any case, Maudsley's improving."
"Is he?" asked Calver.
"Is he? I can't say that I've noticed it. He's as much a mournful
bloodhound walking on two legs as he was when we signed him on. More so, in fact. Then he was able to maintain the normal
alcoholic blood content, and it did give hifn a
little sparkle."
"But he is improving," insisted Jane. "He's looking healthier. He's
putting on weight."
"All right, all right. We know that you're a good cook. It's his manner that I don't
like."
"And I didn't like yours when I first
met you. Remember? There you were, an ex-Chief Officer
out of the Commission's big ships, joining a scruffy little Rim Runners' tramp
as Second Mate and hating every moment of it. After alL
Derek,
Maudsley has come down in the world too. He has sailed as Master. . . ."
"And he lost his ship, and was very
lucky not to lose his Certificate."
"You lost your ship."
"In rather different circumstances, my
dear. And
nobody—neither Rim Runners nor ourselves—lost out on the deal."
"What about Lloyds' and Trans-Galactic
Clippers?" quibbled Jane.
"They can afford it," Calver told her. He carefully filled and lit his pipe.
"Anyhow, we shall be getting rid of our Mr. Maudsley
as soon as we make Port Faraway."
"Even though you are Master and part owner," she flared,
"there's no need to be so hard. With the exception of Cappell
and Lloyd and Putter—and, I suppose, Levine—we're all of us outsiders here,
throw-outs from the Centre and the big ships, outsiders on the Rim. Maudsley's like us—or, if you prefer it, like what we used
to be. He's had his troubles, and he's running away from them, and he's just
about hit rock bottom. This is his chance of rehabilitation. Would you deny it
to him?"
"This," said Calver
evenly, "happens to be a shipping
company—even though it is only a one ship company—not a charitable
organization. When and if Mr. Maudsley stops behaving
like a first trip cadet with a bad fit of the sulks and starts behaving like a
Chief Officer, I'll consider keeping him on. Until then. . . ."
"I still think that you're far too harsh," she told him.
"And I still think," he said, "that I have the best interests of the ship
and her owners at heart."
That
was all that was said then—but more, much more, was said later. That was when Maudsley—who possessed other attributes of the bloodhound
beside the appearance-discovered old Doc Malone's secret cache of whisky and
drank himself into insensibility. Calver's first
reaction was annoyance, his second was disgust. He did not start to get worried
until Malone came to' see him in the control room where, because of the
incapacitation of the Chief Officer, Calver was
keeping a watch.
"Captain,"
said Malone, "we've a very sick man on our hands."
"Doctor,"
said Calver coldly, "we have a drunken, irresponsible
wastrel on our hands and I, personally, shall see to it that he is first out of
the airlock when we reach port."
"Hell be first out of the airlock all right," said Malone,
"but it'll be long before we reach port."
"What do you
mean?"
"I
mean that he's dying. He was as weak as a kitten
when we pushed off from Port Caledon and this last bout, coming as it did after
a period of enforced abstinence, has been too much for bis
system."
"In this day and
age?" scoffed Calver.
"Yes.
In t-hfa day and age.
In any day and age all that the physician has ever done has been to help the
patient to recover. When there's no will to live, what can any doctor do?
Jane's with him now, but I think that you'd better come along yourself."
"Wait
till I call Brentano up to Control," said Calver,
reaching for the telephone. And then, when the indispensable little Radio
Officer was in charge of the watch, he followed Malone to the officers' flat.
Maudsley's cabin reeked of vomit and decay and stale
liquor. Maudsley was strapped in his bunk and Jane,
quietly and efficiently, was cleaning the air of the disgusting globules of
fluid with an absorbent cloth. She looked around as her husband and the doctor
entered. She said, "He's unconscious again." She grimaced.
"Just as well—although I'm sure that there's nothing left in his stomach
now."
Calver looked at Maudsley.
The man no longer resembled a bloodhound.
He no longer resembled anything living. His head was a skull over which dirty
white parchment had been stretched. The rise and fall of his chest was barely
perceptible.
"He talked," said Jane briefly.
"He had a lucid moment, and he talked. He told me that he was running
away. But— and this was the odd part—he said that he was running from the Rim."
Calver saw Maudlsey's
eyes flicker open, saw the dry lips twitch, heard the
creaking, almost inaudible whisper. "Yes, damn you all. From
the Rim, and from the Outsiders. If I'd been sober, I'd never have
signed on aboard your stinking ship. You're taking me back, you bastard, but
I'll not go." His voice rose to a shriek. "I'll not gol You can't force me." He
laughed then, wildly and frighteningly, and his voice dropped again, to a low,
confidential whisper. "There's wealth there, and power and knowledge, and
it was almost in my grasp, but I was afraid. I'm still afraid. If you take me
back to the Rim I shall know, all the time, that it's out there, waiting for
me, and 111 be afraid to go and find it again, and that will be the worst of
all, knowing that it's there. . . ." He looked at Calver
and Jane and Malone with burning, pleading eyes. "You must see that. Even
you must see that. . . ."
"What is it that's out there?" asked Calver
quietly.
A cunning expression flickered over Maudsley's ravaged face. "I'll see you in hell before
I tell you. It's mine, mine!
If I told you, you might
get past the Outsiders and then it would be yours. It wouldn't be fair. I lost
my ship, and I lost my commission. I lost the Polar Queen and that was the price I paid. Yes I paid,
and I paid too much, and I'm still paying. But I shall go back to the Rim when
I'm ready, and not before, and I'll go back Outside to find again what I've
paid for, but I shan't go until 7 want to go. You can't carry me back against
my will. You can't. Doctor, tell him that he can't. Tell him!"
"You'd better leave him to me," said
Malone to Calver. "He's frightened of you, and
he hates you."
"What about getting Levine in here?" whispered Calver.
"I'd like to, but the little man's too
bloody ethical. He takes his oath too seriously. He'd never enter the mind of a
non-telepath unless invited. . . ." He took Maudsley's
limp wrist in his hand. "And now you'd better leave him to me. Both of you."
IV
They sat in The Outsider's saloon, their seat belts giving the not very
convincing illusion of gravity. Calver was there, and
Jane, and Doc Malone. And Renault, who kept no watch in deep space, and Bendix, who had no qualms about leaving his Mannschenn Drive in the competent hands of a Doctor of
Physics. And little Brentano was there, and Levine.
Calver waited until pipes and cigars and cigarettes
were under way and was amused to note that the ever
efficient Brentano watched the drifting eddies of smoke until satisfied that
the air circulation system was working properly.
He said, "As you all know, we have made a deviation from our
trajectory. The doctor advises me that only by landing Mr. Maudsley
at the first convenient port can we save his life, that
his psychological condition will grow progressively worse as we near the Rim.
So we shall put him ashore at Dunsinane in the
Shakespearean Sector.
"However, let us forget the
technicalities of navigation, let us forget that we are spacemen and regard
this as a shareholders' meeting. We don't own this ship just for the fun of
it—well, I suppose that in a way we do, but skip that—but to make money. Our
present intention is to run the Eastern Circuit on Time Charter to Rim Runners
and then, eventually, to compete with our late employers on the same trade. I
don't think that any of us are really happy about the prospects of competing
with a company that is, after all, as near as, dammit,
government owned. Some trade of which we should have the monopoly would be the
ideal set-up."
"That," said Bendix, "is a blinding
glimpse of the obvious. But what trade?"
"Outside," suggested Calver quietly,
"But there's nothing Outside,"
objected Bendix. "Nothing.
Not until some genius comes up with an intergalactic drive."
"There's something," said Calver.
"There's something. There're the odd artifacts that drift in from time to
time.
You've
seen the one in the museum at Port Farewell. A ship's boat—or it could be a
ship's boat, or a life raft. Whatever it is, or was, it could have been made by
none of the spacefaring races in this galaxy. We've
got intelligent fluorine breathers—but none with the physical characteristics
of an oversized flatworm. . . ."
"And so what?" asked Bendix. "There's bound to be intelligent life in the
next galaxy, and in the one after that, and in the one after that. If we could
make contact with 'em, we'd trade with 'em. But it's one helluva big if."
"It is that," agreed Calver. "However," he went on, "let's start
at the beginning. As we all know, our Chief Officer was dead drunk when we
signed him on at Port Caledon, so much so that he could hardly have cared less
where the ship was bound. He did sober up, after a fashion, but something was
eating him. And then he managed to find old Doc's private stock of what he
calls Irish whisky. . .
"And ye'd never tell the
difference!" interjected Malone.
"That's a matter of opinion. Anyhow, our
Mr. Maudsley hit the bottle again to drown his fears,
and the more he tried to drown them the worse they got. What he's frightened of
is something, or somebody
called the Outsiders. When
we picked him up he was running away—just as we all have done. But he was
running from
the Rim, not towards
it."
"Something threw a scare into him," agreed the doctor.
"It's likely that 111 have to keep him under sedation all the way
to Dunsinane."
"Jane?" said Calver.
"I've been nursing him," she said.
"I felt sorry for him from the very start. I feel even sorrier for him
now. I've listened to his ramblings, his ravings. His ship was the Polar Queen, one of those odd tramps that drifts out to the Rim from time to time. He was Master of
her. He lost her, smashed her up when making an incredibly bad landing at Port
Farewell. Then he was with Rim Runners for a while; the Court of Enquiry
suspended his Master's Certificate for six months but granted him a First
Pilot's one for that period. When the six months were up he reclaimed his
Certificate, left Rim Runners and has been trying to make his way back to the
Centre Worlds ever since."
"I've heard of him," said Bendix. "He was Second Mate of the Rimstar. They called him Windy Maudsley. He used to be
in a state of near panic from blast-off to
touch-down. Everybody thought that it was the aftermath of the loss of the Polar Queen."
"And what about the rest of Polar Queens crew?" asked Brentano.
"It was a bad crash," said Bendix.
"I remember old Captain Engels telling me about it. He was in Port
Farewell in horn
Lady when it happened. It
seems that Maudsley was in the Control Room and
escaped with only slight injuries. His Chief and Second Officers weren't so
lucky. They weren't killed outright but they died in the hospital without
recovering consciousness. The rest of the crowd were .
. . mashed."
"Can you remember anything else, Bendix?"
asked Calver.
"No. After all, I only got the story at second hand."
"I was just a kid when it
happened," contributed Levine. "But I was crazy to get into space, and anything about spaceships or spacemen in the news
I just lapped up. As I remember the reports, Maudsley's
breath stank of whisky when they dragged him out of the wreckage. Luckily for
him, the investigation proved that a tube lining had burned out, otherwise he'd
have lost his ticket instead of getting away with a six months'
suspension."
"And
you've managed to get in touch with Port Farewell?" asked Calver.
"Yes,
Captain. There are ways and means of stepping up the psionic
amplifier, you know, although I fear that I shall have to indent for a new
dog's brain when we arrive. Anyhow, I got in touch with Donaldson. He looked
up the records for us. He tells me that Polar Queen was
making a relatively short hop between Ultimo and
Thule, and that at the time of her arrival at Port Farewell she was well overdue.
Maudsley said at the Enquiry that the Mannschenn
Drive
had been giving him trouble. He was, of course, the only witness from the ship.
. . ."
"And now, Levine, what do you know
of the Outsiders?"
"You know as much as I do, Captain. . .
." The telepath paused and grinned. "Sorry, you don't. Even if we
leave my . . . talent out of it, I was bom and
brought up on the Run, and none of you were. So 111 just assume that you know
nothing.
"Well, they've always been a sort of
legend out on the Rim, these Outsiders. Some say that they're supernatural beings, even that they're the old gods of mankind, and of
other intelligent races, driven outside the galaxy and waiting there to come
back when, at last, faith and belief return. And others say that they're
intelligent beings, not unlike ourselves, that have
made the voyage across the gulf from some other galaxy. There are the wild
tales about strange ships in the sky—and there have been the strange artifacts
found on some of the Rim worlds and in our sector of space. . . .
"But I haven't heard the Outsiders as
much as mentioned for years now."
"Just suppose . . ." murmured Calver.
"Just suppose . . . Just suppose that there's a big ship hanging out
there, somewhere ... A ship that
made the crossing. . . . Just suppose that her crew discovered intelligent life
on the Rim worlds—but discovered that life in the anti-matter systems. . . .
Or, perhaps, our systems are anti-matter to them. . . . Just suppose that
they've assumed that our entire galaxy is composed of anti-matter. . . ."
"People
with enough curiosity and know-how to make the crossing wouldn't give up that
easily," said Jane sharply.
"I
don't suppose they would, my dear. I was just playing with ideas, feeding them
into the computer to see if two pairs of them made four. But I've this strong
hunch that there is something out there, and that Maudsley
stumbled on it. I've got this hunch that it, whatever it is, is worth finding
again."
"There is something out there,"
said Jane. "Maudsley found it, and it drove him to
drink, ruined his career. Whatever it is, it's dangerous."
"Not necessarily. As far as we know, Maudsley's ship was undamaged until the crash. All his crew
were accounted for, and they were all alive until the
smash-up killed them. I grant you this—there is something out there that's
frightening. But. . . How shall I put it?
"I was raised on Earth, a country boy,
in a farming district. Earth, as you know, is very old-fashioned and doesn't
believe in using tanks of chemical nutrient to grow food when there's good,
honest dirt on hand. So there were the crops out in the open, cereals, and
there were the birds that regarded the fields as huge free lunch counters. And
there were the scarecrows . . ."
"What are they?" asked Levine.
"A rough figure of a man, mansized, made
of old clothing stuffed with rags or straw, held erect by a post. If it's so
constructed that the arms will wave in the wind, so much the better. The birds
take it for a man and sheer off. Oh, some of the smarter ones spot the
deception after a while and dig in, but the majority stay
clear.
"Well, 111 get back to this hypothetical
ship of mine. For some reason she's been abandoned. Her owners, however, have
set up some sort of scarecrow that was good enough to scare off poor Maudsley, but not good enough—or bad enough—to do any
actual physical damage to Polar Queen and
her people. But we, expecting a scarecrow and, furthermore, possessing the
right psychological and emotional make-up for life on the Rim, are far less
liable to be scared off and just might find something worthwhile.
"This, then, is my proposal. We pump Maudsley of all he knows about the Outsiders, using every
means of persuasion short of actual torture. We pay him well for what he tells
us. Then, when our present cargo is discharged, we go hunting Outside to find whatever it was that Maudsley
found."
"Derek," said Jane firmly,
"you may be Master, but you are also no more than one of the shareholders.
In all matters pertaining to the actual running of the ship your word is
law—but in all matters pertaining to her future employment toe, all of us, the owners, decide."
"Then," asked Calver
stiffly, "what do you propose?"
"That we put the matter to the vote. I
move that we do not set off on any wild goose chases and that we put the ship
on the Eastern Circuit on the Rim Runners time charter. We've been into all
this before, and we all agreed that, the way things are at present, we shall
need Rim Runners' repair, office and agency facilities. When we're well enough established we can set up our own shoreside
organization."
"I second that," said Brentano.
"A show of hands," said Bendix.
"As you please," said Calver. "A show of hands. All in favor of Jane's motion?"
His own hand was the only one not raised. He looked
rather ruefully at the others around the table.
"Derek," said Jane, "we must
be sensible. We've all rehabilitated ourselves to an extent that, not so long
ago, would have seemed impossible. Are we to throw it all away for a wild
dream?"
Calver filled his pipe again carefully, used one of
the old-fashioned matches that he affected to light it. He said slowly,
"Even so . . . how shall I put it? I came, out to the Rim as all of us
did—because of the mess I'd made of my life in the Centre. But there was more
to it than that, much more. After all, you can drink yourself to death anywhere
in the Galaxy where there are human vices—even those communistic bumble bees,
the Shaara, make and use alcohol. I came out to the
Rim because it was, I thought, the last frontier. Now I've learned that it's
not, that there's still another one beyond it."
Bendix puffed a cigarette into glowing life. He
said, "I see what you mean, Calver. And I think
that it applies, to a greater or lesser degree, to all of us. But Jane is
right. We must consolidate. We must make the ship pay for herself before we
think of anything else. But," he turned to Jane, "we must face the
fact that Rim Runners will just be making a convenience of us until such time
as their own fleet is built up, and then they'll lose no time in nmning us off the Eastern Circuit and the Shakespearean
Sector trade. But if we have some sort of ace up our sleeve."
"If you can call it an ace,"
grumbled Brentano. "Old legends, with no basis of fact,
the ravings of a drunken derelict."
"There's something out there," said old Doc Malone.
"And I, for one, would like to find out what it is before I'm dragged off
the stage. But there's no rush, no hurry at all, at all. It, whatever it is,
will keep. After the ship has paid for herself, after the Time Charter's
expired and we're on our own, will be time enough."
"All right," said Calver. "So that would seem to be that Meanwhile, we
must find out all that we can from Maudsley. I don't
suppose that you could help, Levine?"
"I could, Captain," said the
telepath, "but I won't My oath . . ."
"If you'd agreed," said Jane, "I'd have lost the rather great respect that
I hold for you."
"Bless you, my children," murmured Calver sardonically. "So it's up to you, Doc."
"Yes," said Malone, "it's time
that I had another look at the patient."
He left the saloon with the peculiar,
unhurried grace of a fat man in free fall. He returned with more speed than
grace. He reported that Maudsley must have more or
less recovered, had left his cabin and found, somewhere, a bottle of cleaning
alcohol. Drifting in the air of his cabin were mingled globules of the crude
intoxicant—what was left of it—and blood from his slashed throat
V
So, on
charter to
Rim Runners, they ran the .Eastern Circuit—Tham, Grollor, Mellise and Stree, with occasional side trips to the Shakespearean
Sector. Cappell—the spaceman turned sheep herder
turned spaceman—stayed with them, and, after intensive coaching by Calver, managed to scrape through the examination for his
First Pilot's Certificate and was promoted to Chief Officer, replacing in that
rank yet another drunken derelict whom Calver had
been obliged to sign on in Dunsinane. And both Lloyd
and Ritter liked the life and, with their already high academic qualifications,
found no trouble in adding engineers' Certificates of Competency to them. Bendix, to everybody's surprise, married, and Julia, his
wife, was a highly efficient secretary who became, in a very short time
indeed, a highly efficient Purser. And Brentano married—a biochemist who was
able to take over the care of the hydroponic tanks, the yeast and algae vats
and the tissue cultures from Doc Malone. Tanya Brentano was of Slavic stock
and, in the opinion of everybody but the doctor, her vodka was far superior to
Malone's "Irish" whisky. Brentano, as well as changing his marital
status, changed his rank, sitting for and passing, without any trouble, the
examination for his Second Pilot's Certificate, thus making room for Elise
Renault, who was a qualified radio technician.
They ran the Eastern
Circuit for two years, for twenty-four busy, happy months. The Outsider was a home
rather than a ship, her people a family rather than a crew.
Maudsley had been forgotten, Calver
often thought, by everybody but himself. He had not forgotten. He still felt
the lure of Outside, the magnetism of the unsolved
mystery out there in the darkness. He tried to tell himself that this was
romantic foolishness, that when the Time Charter expired The Outsider could make a stab at running in competition
with Rim Runners and, should this be unsuccessful, could go tramping through
the galaxy. He tried to tell himself this, but failed to convince himself.
Every voyage he brought with him old books and records, and carefully went
through them all to try to find some sort of a clue.
So, for two years, they ran the Eastern
Circuit, and then the Charter expired. For six months they tried to function as
a private company and learned, the hard way,
that good will is all very nice as long as there is no financial loss involved.
Calver's friends on Tham
would have liked to have shipped their cargoes in The Outsider—but, with Rim Runners' freights only sixty
percent of those asked by Calver they did not feel
justified in spending money on carriage that would be better spent on imports.
The drably efficient humanoids of Grollor were
without sentiment They had worked out for themselves
the principle of buying in the cheapest market and selling in the dearest long
before Commodore Grimes' survey expedition had landed on their planet. For a
little while there was trade to be done with both Mellise
and Stree—but even the happy amphibians and the
philosophical lizards had begun to acquire, from contact with humanity, a
sordid commercialism.
At the end of six months of independent trading—the
ship was at Port Forlorn, discharging a pitifully small consignment of Mellisan dried fish and a smaller one of parchment rolls
from Stree—there was a shareholders' meeting. All
hands were present. (CappelL Lloyd and Ritter had
been offered, and had taken, the opportunity of
receiving some of their pay in shares, and the new wives had been given shares
as wedding presents.)
"Julia?" said Calver from his seat at the head of the saloon table.
The Purser rose to her feet.
"You all know how things have been going
lately," she reported in her cool, pleasant voice. "You'll not be
surprised when I tell you that we're in the red. I have the figures for the
last half-year. . . ."
"You needn't bother with them,
dear," said Bendix. "Even I can see that rurining costs have been far in excess of income."
"I take it," said
Calver, "that we're all in agreement on that
point. Thank you, Julia." The Purser resumed her seat. "As I see it,
we have little control over what happens next, as long as we stay on the Rim. I
have a letter here from Commodore Grimes. It seems that Rim Runners are
prepared to buy the ship from us, the price to be determined after a survey.
Alternatively, they'd offer us a one
way charter to Nova Caledon, the implication being that it's as good a way of
getting us out of their hair.
"Of course, if we sell the ship we shall
do more than break even."
"But we don't want to sell," stated Jane firmly.
"Then there's the old business of Maudsley and his Outsider." went on Calver.
"No," said Jane. "No. We're shipowners, not explorers. I propose that we accept the
Nova Caledon charter and play by ear from then on."
"Let me finish," Calver told her. "This Outsiders business has stuck in
my mind, if not in yours. I've been doing a deal of research on it. I managed
to get hold of a pile of back numbers of the Port Farewell Argus covering the Polar Queen disaster and the subsequent enquiry. At last
I found what I was looking for. It was a typical Sunday Supplement article,
written with his tongue in his cheek by some journalist who'd passed a few
hours getting drunk with Maudsley. It was mainly a
rehash of all the old legends about the Outsiders and it contained the
statement, alleged to have been made by Maudsley,
which I'll quote: 'Put Macbeth and Kinsolvings' Sun
in line, and keep them so. That's the way that we came back. Fifty light years,
and all hands choking on the stink of frying oil from the Mannschenn
Drive . . .'
"It's a lead."
"Is it?" queried Jane. "And, if so, to what? Rut tell
me, why didn't Grimes follow it when he made his last survey voyage in Faraway Quest?"
"Because Grimes, as I
shouldn't have to tell you, is apt to be pigheaded. He's made up his mind that there's nothing—
and I mean nothing—Outside. He was one
of the assessors at the Court of Enquiry before which Maudsley
appeared, and said that in his opinion all Maudsley's
talk of the Outsiders was no more than deltrium tremens."
"As it probably was," said Jane.
"I don't think so," said Doc Malone.
"And neither do
I," said Calver. He paused. "Well ladies
and gendemen, we own a ship. The ship is temporarily
out of employment. We can sell her, and show a good profit on our venture. We
can accept the one-way charter and then go tramping—and, as you know, quite a
few tramps still get by on the leavings of the big lines and the various govem-ment-owned services. Or we
can push off from Port Forlorn as soon as the cargo's out and the stores are
aboard, and run west until we have Macbeth and Kinsolving's
Sun in line, and then.
"The
Nova Caledon charter," said Jane. "Show hands." And Carver's
hand was the only one not raised.
VI
"Where are you going?" asked Jane.
"Ashore," said Calver.
"If youll wait
a few minutes it won't take me long to get
ready."
"I'm sorry," he told her. "But
I'd rather go by myself." "Sulking?" she demanded.
He favored her with a wry grin. "Sort of.
But I want to get off the ship, by myself, to have a few drinks and think
things out."
"Things," she told him, "have
already been decided." "Not everything," he said.
"Derek," said Jane quietly, "listen to me. Please. I know that this Outsider business has
become something of an obsession with you, and I can, to a certain extent,
appreciate the lure of it all. To a certain
extent. But remember that women are different from men—and, after all,
it was the women's vote that decided in favor of the Nova Caledon charter. Bendix and Renault and Brentano voted along with their
wives."
"And the others? Doc Malone and Cappell and Lloyd and Ritter?"
She
shrugged. "They're realists, I suppose. Just as we women are realists.
Even though we're accepted in space, even though we take the same risks as you,
we have that basic longing for security. We'd hate to see the security that
we've achieved thrown away on a wild goose chase."
"Security . . ." repeated Calver. "What security is there in tramping from star to star, hungry for
the crumbs that fall from the tables of the rich corporations?"
"And what security," she countered,
"is there in blasting off into the utterly unknown, into that illimitable
expanse of sweet damn all?"
He said, "There's something there."
"Is there?"
"Yes. Maudsley
found it. And he managed to convince you at the time."
"A Rim ghost," she said.
"That's what it must have been. Remember the one that we saw, in. Lorn Lady, all those years ago?"
"I do," he agreed. "But ..."
"Oh, go" ashore," she told
him. "Go ashore and have a few drinks, or too many drinks if you like. It
will do you good, help you to get over your
sulks."
He said,-"All right. I'll do that."
He kissed Jane perfunctorily, then took his cap and his uniform cloak from their hooks. He
left his quarters and clattered down the spiral staircase in -the axial shaft,
feeling a little better after'the physical exercise.
Outside the airlock it was cold, with a bitter breeze that stirred the gritty
dust that lay, as always, on the fire-scarred apron, and drove before it a
rustling flurry of dead leaves and old newspapers.
Calver tried to wipe a speck of grit from his eye, then looked around him with distaste at the untidiness and
decrepitude revealed by the glare of the spaceport floodlights. He thought, After all, I shan't be sorry to leave the Rim
worlds for good.
He asked himself: But shall I?
He shrugged, pulling his cloak more tightly
about his body, then walked rapidly to the main
entrance. As he approached the edge of the field, away from the bright lights,
he could see the sky—the black emptiness, with the faint, far and few nebulosities that made it seem so much emptier and, low in
the west, the pale-glowing arc of the Galactic lens. But it was the distant
nebulae that caught and held his attention. From which one had the Outsiders
come? If there were any Outsiders.
"Shall I call you a
cab, Captain?" asked the gatekeeper.
"No,
thank you," Calver told him. "It's not far
into town, and the walk will do me good."
"I
hear that you'll be leaving the Rim shortly," said the man.
"Yes," said Calver.
He
walked on briskly, along the shabby street with the tall warehouses on either
side. He went into the first tavern— The Jolly Rocketeer—sat at the bar and ordered a pink gin. There were
a few spacemen—from Rim Galleon
and Rim Caravel, as both vessels were in port—in the place,
but nobody whom Calver knew. There was the foreman
stevedore who was in charge of the loading of The Outsider's cargo for Nova Caledon. Calver
bought him a drink and had another one himself. He decided after the second gin
that he was hungry, and decided, too, that nothing on display in the tavern's
snack bar looked very tempting. He said goodnight to the stevedore and went
out.
He
had heard that the food at the newly opened Rimrock
Hilton was good and decided to put it to the test. He doubted if the hotel's
chef would be as good as Jane, but a change, after all, would be refreshing.
And he did not want to return to his ship for a while yet.
Twenty minutes' brisk walk brought him to the
floodlit tower of the hotel. He returned the salute of a doorman whose stylish
livery made his own uniform look like that of an Apprentice Spaceman Third
Class. In the foyer another obsequious Galactic Admiral asked his pleasure. Calver said that he would like a meal. The Galactic Admiral
recommended the Captain's Cabin. Calver said that he
had come ashore to get away from ships and that he would prefer to eat in
surroundings that some ingenious interior decorator had not tried to make as
much like a ship as possible.
Then, sir," said the functionary,
"might I suggest the Chop House?"
"The Chop House?" queried Calver.
"Chinese?"
"No sir. Strictly
period. Nineteenth Century Anglo-Terran.
Sawdust on the floor, rough wooden tables and benches . . ."
"Real sawdust?"
asked Calver sardonically.
"Of course, sir . . . Confidentially, for reasons of hygiene, we
did use synthetic sawdust, but it hasn't the aroma."
"You could have used a
synthetic aroma too," said Calver.
He allowed himself to be guided to an elevator whose pilot, a mere
Commodore, delivered him to the correct floor. He went into the Chop House. It
looked, as far as he could judge, authentic enough. There was the sawdust, as
promised. There were the rough tables and benches and, overhead, genuine
seemingly oaken rafters. On the walls were ancient sporting prints and from the
walls protruded flaring gas jets.
A waiter in a rusty black dress suit, over which he wore a stained,
once-white apron, guided Calver to a table. Calver wondered if the man's mutton chop whiskers were
synthetic or genuine, almost asked and then thought better of it. He sat down
and studied the menu which, in keeping with the decor, was scrawled on a slate.
He made his decision, ordered his meal.
It was not a good one.
"I thought that I
should be playing safe by having something simple," murmured a hauntingly
familiar voice. "Steak
Diane . . . that
wasn't asking too much, was it?"
"One would think not," admitted Calver, turning to look at the woman at the neighboring table.
"I saw you making faces over your dinner," she said.
"Mixed grill," he told her.
"My guess is that the various animals contributing their bits and pieces
to it must have died of old age."
"Last time," she
said, "it was Lobster
Thermidor, wasn't it? Perhaps this breaking of the pattern is a good omen."
"For what?" he countered.
He
thought, She
hasn't changed. Except that she's dyed her platinum hair green. But she's still
damned attractive. Too attractive.
She shrugged. "Well, the last two times
we met were rather disastrous, weren't they? The first time was on Faraway,
wasn't it? And your girlfriend turned the local cops on to me. And the second
time was on Grollor, and there was that most
unfortunate clash between the Federation Survey Service, Intelligence Branch,
and the Rim Worlds Naval Reserve. . . ."
Calver got up and joined the girl at her table.
"Still playing Olga Popovsky, the
Beautiful Spy?" he asked.
"And are you still playing Lieutenant
Commander Calver, R.W.N.R.?" she countered.
"I had to resign my commission," he told her.
"Were you a naughty boy, or
something?" she asked lightly. "No, don't tell me. After all, I'm
still in Intelligence, so I may as well use some." She started to tick off
points on her slim fingers. "One: You've risen in the world. You're a big,
fat Captain. Two: Those buttons on your uniform aren't Rim Runner buttons.
Three: That pretty badge on your cap isn't the Rim Runner badge. Intriguing
design, isn't it? A gold ring with silver stars inside it,
and a conventional silver rocket outside. May I ask which company's
uniform it is?"
"M.O.B.C.," said Calver.
"M.O.B.C.?"
"My own bloody company."
She laughed, and there was still that
tinkling quality to it. "All right, Derek, I'll come clean. I know about The Outsider, and what you've been doing and how you've
been doing. As a matter of fact I was going to call on you, officially, tomorrow."
"Were you, now? Wouldn't that be rather risky?"
"Not this time. I wouldn't say that your
local cops are wildly in love with me, but they've nothing against me. The
Federation has bowed to the inevitable and has recognized the right of the Rim
Worlds Confederacy to go its own sweet way. As far as we're concerned you can
make whatever alliances and treaties you please. I'm here by permission of
your government—who, also, has promised to help me in my investigations."
"And what," asked
Calver, "are you investigating this time?"
"To begin with," she told him,
"the psychological breakdown and eventual suicide of one of our
people."
"Did it happen here?" he asked. "On the
Rim?"
"No," she said, "in deep
space. Between Nova Caledon and Dunsinane."
"Between Nova Caledon and Dunsinane." echoed Calver,
shivering slightly with a premonitory chill.
"Yes. His name was Maudsley. Commander Maudsley."
VII
They adjoubned
to Sonya Verrill's suite where the girl, producing her own
percolator, brewed coffee. There was brandy too, the authentic product of far
away France, in fragile inhalers. There were soft lights and, after Sonya had
adjusted the controls of the hotel's playmaster,
sweet music. But the atmosphere was not one of seduction, despite the fact that
Sonya Verrill had, in her own words, changed into
"something more comfortable." Calver
realized, with something of a shock, that the flimsy semi-transparency that
did little to hide her lovely body was failing to register.
He
thought, Blast
the Outsiders. When I'm more interested in them than in a beautiful woman,
there's something wrong with me.
He said, "So Maudsley was one of your
people."
"He was," said the girl. "He was a good man. He found
that being a tramp Master was an excellent cover for his real activities.
Frankly, he was running a sort of economic and political survey of your Rim
Worlds Federation when he became interested in the Outsider legends."
"He found something," said Calver. "I'm convinced of that. He found something—and
it ruined him"
"He wasn't a coward," said the
girl. "He'd never have risen to the rank of Commander in Intelligence if
he had been. But did,he give
you any clues? Did he drop any hints at all as to what it was that he'd
found?"
"Hints,"
said Calver. "Hints—but that was all. There was
something out there. Something important. Something that could make its discoverer rich, or powerful, or
both. Something that terrified him."
"But
why didn't he report?" asked Sonya, as much of herself as of Calver. "Why didn't he report to H.Q.? God knows we've
enough specialists loafing around to be able to handle anything."
"How
loyal was Maudsley to your Service?" asked Calver. "I could be wrong, but my own analysis is
this. He found this thing—and he wanted it for himself. It was too big for him
to handle—but he clung to the hope that sooner or later he'd be big enough to
handle it. Of course, the way that he was going he
never would be—but, after all, many men allow completely illogical hopes to
dominate their lives."
"And
what about you, Derek?" she asked. "Do you think that you could
handle it?"
"I
don't know," he told her. "I don't know. If I knew what it was, I'd
be able to give you an answer. But I just don't know."
"But would you want to
try?"
He
said, "Sonya, that's been my ambition ever since I first heard of Maudsley's Outsiders. As you know, I'm a shipowner—but, unluckily, I don't own the ship outright.
When our Time Charter expired I wanted to go exploring, wanted to find whatever
it was that Maudsley found. But the others voted me
down. Now, as you've probably learned already, we're loading a cargo for Nova
Caledon and it's unlikely that we shall ever return to the Rim. ..." He sipped his brandy. "But
it would be so easy to find . . . it. Macbeth
and Kinsolving's Sun in line, and push out for fifty
fight years. . . . But I shall never do it now. And I suppose that your people
will have a survey vessel out here shortly, and they'll find the Outsiders
while I'm tramping from system to system, picking up cargoes when and where I
can."
He realized that she was sitting on the arm of his chair, felt the
warmth of her lightly clad body. Her fingers were gently stroking his head,
disarranging his hair.
She said, "At the moment we can't spare
any ships. They're all tied up in Wilkinson's Cluster."
"What's happening there?" he asked.
"There's a dispute between our colonies
and the Shaara ones. It's very complicated. The
humans are objecting to the subjection of a native humanoid race by, I quote, a
bunch of communistic bumble bees. And the Shaara
Regent has been trying to stamp out alcoholism in the worlds under her control
and is objecting, not unreasonably, to the large scale bootlegging being
carried out by certain humans. There's been shooting, and one or two minor
invasions. Both the Survey Service and the Royal Shaaran
Navy are trying to sort things out before they develop into a large scale
war."
"Interesting," he said.
"Yes. And rather
dangerous. Although we've always gotten along reasonably well with the Shaara Empire, there's still the hostility that must always
exist between the mammal and the arthropod."
"We mammals must stick together,"
said Calver—and wondered if it were the brandy or himself talking. Not that it mattered.
"Not so fast, spaceman, not so
fast," admonished Sonya Verrill. She disengaged
herself, was back in her own chair before Calver
realized what was happening. She went on, "I admit that there's unfinished
business between us—and this time, now that politics aren't in the way, we may
just get around to finishing it. But there's other business as well."
"Such as?" asked Calver.
"The future employment
of your ship. You
have the one way charter out to Nova Caledon, and then you're on your own.
Isn't that so? Well, I can offer you a charter."
"Go on."
"It would mean that you and your people would have to accept temporary
commissions in the Survey Service, and that one of our people—possibly
myself—would have to travel aboard. You would have to sign an agreement to the
effect that anything found—any artifacts, any new knowledge—would be Survey
Service property."
"I'm sorry," said Calver, "but I'm still a Rim Worlder,
and I think that this . . . this thing is
Rim World property."
"But your own
government isn't interested. They know what I'm out here for. I've even tried
to persuade your Commodore Grimes to recommission his
Faraway Quest, but he regards the Outsider legend as just a
legend, and nothing more. He regards poor Maudsley as
no more than a hopelessly unreliable alcoholic who's better off dead."
"Thanks for the offer," said Calver. "I appreciate it. Perhaps I'm selfish, but I
want the discovery, when it's made, to be my discovery,
or our discovery . . ."
"You mean . . . ?" she murmured.
"I'm sorry, Sonya. I don't. When I1
said our, I meant our in the sense of belonging to The Outsider and
her people. "
"It seems to me," she said,
"that I'm the outsider as far as you're concerned. I must be slipping.
Where's the fatal charm before which Admirals, Generals, Prime Ministers and
Dictators have fallen?" Her wry grin sat oddly on her perfect features
but was far from unattractive. "And now here's a mere tramp Captain
turning me down."
"I'm not turning you down," said Calver, "only your kind
offer of a charter."
She said, "Then all is not lost."
She was standing now, facing him, and her hands were fluttering at the
fastenings of her robe. It fell from her, slowly, a lacy froth that slipped
down her golden body, exposing breasts and gendy
rounded belly and full thighs, collapsing at last to a
gossamer foam about her slender ankles.
She said simply, "There are no strings,
Derek. This is just us, the two of us, and nothing to do with your ship or the
Survey Service. . . ."
His jacket was off, thrown carelessly to the
floor, but he was having trouble with his necktie.
"Let me," she said, helping him.
Jane stirred uneasily in
the double bunk in the darkened cabin.
"So you're back," she muttered.
"Yes."
"Have a nice evening?"
"Yes, thank you. I ran into an old
shipmate," he said, not too untruthfully, "and we had dinner and a
few drinks together."
"What is that smell?" she asked
sharply. "What smell?" he countered.
"Flew de floosie. A
somewhat expensive version, I admit ..."
He said, "Sydney—Sydney Small, that is,
he's in Rim
Galleon now—was
showing me a bottle of perfume that he'd picked up from the Captain of some tramp
whom he met at Port Fortinbras. Some got
spilled."
"Oh," he said. "Oh. It
reminded me, somehow, of that little tow-haired trollop that you got entangled
with years ago. That spy wench, whatever her name was."
"Odd," said Calver.
He went through to his bathroom and showered carefully and thoroughly.
VIII
The
Outsider, her
holds stowed to capacity, lifted from Port Forlorn, climbed slowly through the
cloud strata and, clear of the atmosphere, turned on her humming gyroscopes
until the cartwheel sight built into the transparency of her stem was centered
on that portion of the Galactic Lens in which lay the Empire of Waverley.
"Goodbye to the Rim." said Brentano, a little glumly.
"We shall be back," Calver told him.
"Perhaps," admitted the Second Mate. "Perhaps.
I suppose that there'll be the odd charter or so to bring us out this
way."
"Goodbye
to the Rim," said Jane. "And goodbye to . . ." "To
what?" asked Calver. "Or to whom?" she
countered. "Well, then, to whom?" he demanded.
"To your dear shipmate Sydney Small," she sneered. "The one with the expensive but somewhat vulgar taste in
perfume. Remember?"
Calver ignored this. He gave the necessary orders,
saw to it that with no waste of time his ship was falling down her long trajectory,
her Mannschenn Drive unit whining softly, the
Galactic Lens ahead distorted like a Klein flask produced by a drunken glass
blower in a moment of extreme mental aberration. Then, when there was nothing
further that he could do, he went down to his quarters, leaving the watch to
Brentano.
Jane was not there, but he thought nothing of
this. She would be in the galley, probably, preparing the next meal, or in the
pantry making a fresh brew of coffee in the percolator. And then, with more
than a slight shock, he noticed a certain bareness
about the cabin. The little clock—its case a beautiful example of the Aldebaranian metal workers' art-was gone from its usual
position on the bulkhead. And the sphere of transparent crystal in which was
embedded a Vegan moonflower was missing from the desk, as was the elaborate
little silver mobile from Tham. Calver slid open the
wardrobe doors. All of Jane's clothes were gone from their stretchers.
"Jane!"
he called irritably. "Jane!"
Her reply came faintly from somewhere outside.
"There's no need to shout."
He went out into the alleyway. He was not
surprised to find that his wife had moved into the spare cabin. He followed
her inside, shut the door firmly.
"What's
the big idea?" he demanded.
"In the circumstances," she told
him coldly, "I thought that I'd like to sleep alone."
"What circumstances?"
She said, "I suppose you thought that
you were quite safe when you told me about the mythical Sydney Small, especially
since Rim Galleon blasted off the same morning that you came
back reeking like a whore's garret. But,, when I had
occasion to go to the shipping office on some business of my own, I saw the
copy of Rim
Galleons Articles
lying on the desk. I browsed through it. I need hardly tell you that there's
nobody by the name of Sydney Small in the crew."
"So?"
"So. So I decided to make a few more
investigations. I rang the Rimrock Hilton. (I was going to ring all the hotels but,
knowing the style in which these Federation spies seem to live, I thought I'd
save time by ringing the most expensive ones first.) The girl at the desk was
most obliging. "Yes, there was a Miss Verrill
staying there. A Miss Sonya Verrill.
A Terran citizen."
"But . . ." began Calver.
"No, Derek. It's no use trying to explain—and
it's certainly no use trying to lie again. You know that I'm not possessive
and that I've never tried to keep you in a cage. If you'd spent the night with
some little casual pick-up it wouldn't have mattered, it wouldn't have really
mattered. But Sonya Verrill, of all
people. Are you incapable of learning? The first time that she got her
claws into you, you almost fell foul of the police,
and that would have been the end of your career in Rim Runners. The second
time, on Grollor, was even worse, and Captain Engels
had to risk his ship and all our lives to get you out of the stupid jam you
were in. Can't you learn, won't you leam that as far
as you're concerned, that woman is poison."
"Even so," said Calver.
"Even so my left foot. You're behaving like some spotty-faced
adolescent who's got his ideas about women from the most meretricious so-called
stars of the most inanely juvenile tri-do shows."
"Even so," said Calver
coldly, "Miss Verrill and I talked business. She
made me an offer, and I turned it down."
"Like hell you did!"'
"I did," stated Calver
virtuously. "But I can change my mind. And I'm sure that the other
shareholders will back me up, even though it will mean having Miss Verrill along as an observer." He added unkindly,
"That will mean, of course, that she'll have to bunk in the spare cabin,
unless she cares to . . ."
"And what was this famous offer?"
she sneered. "I don't mean the one that you so obviously didn't turn down,
but the other."
Calver pulled himself into a chair and adjusted the
belt. He filled and lit his pipe, said nothing until it was drawing to his
satisfaction. He watched the play of emotions on Jane's face—hurt anger,
wounded pride and, finally, curiosity. He could not help but feel that he had
behaved and was still behaving shabbily. But he could see, now, a way whereby he could get what he wanted.
He said, "Miss Verrill
and I enjoyed a very interesting conversation."
She flared, "I'm sure you did!"
Calver fiddled with his pipe and relit it.
She said, "Go on, damn you. Go on."
"It seems," said Calver slowly, "that our Mr. Maudsley
was really the Survey Service's Commander Maudsley. Intelligence, of course."
"Where in the galaxy do they get their
officers from?" marvelled Jane.
"Nymphomaniacs, alcoholics . . ."
Calver played with his pipe again.
"Well?" she demanded.
"Maudsley
wasn't an alcoholic until after he'd found the Outsiders. It seems that he
wanted to keep the knowldege to himself; in any case,
he made no reports back to his H.Q. Understandably,
his superiors want to know just what's been happening. So they sent Miss Verrill . . ."
"They must think a lot of her. All the
ships and people at their disposal, and they send her."
"There's a spot of bother in Wilkinson's
Cluster—practically a state of war between human and Shaara
colonists."
"That accounts for it," said Jane.
"There'll be no demand for her peculiar talents there. She wouldn't get
very far trying to seduce a Shaara drone."
"Will you shut up," exploded Calver,
"and let me finish? The Survey Service is convinced that there's something
in the legends about the Outsiders. They can't spare any ships to make an
immediate investigation. But they'd like to charter a ship, no doubt on very
advantageous terms to the owners concerned, and I've had the offer. I've no
doubt that if and when I tell the other shareholders they'll be all in favor of
accepting the charter. It won't matter to them that there'll be a Survey
Service observer travelling with us. And I've already told you who the observer
will be."
"No," said Jane. Her face was white. "No."
"But why not? A charter's a charter."
"No," she said again.
"Then can you suggest any future
profitable employment, my dear?"
"Can you?" she countered.
"Perhaps," he said. "Perhaps. It
will be a risk, a gamble. We might lose everything, the ship and our lives. But
we might be rich beyond the dreams of avarice."
She said, "I admire this melodramatic line of speech. You must have
caught it off some of the charming people you know—these cloak-and-dagger
types."
"Melodrama," he
said, "is often much more true to fife than understatement. Anyhow, this
is my proposal—that we carry out my original plan, of trying to find the
Outsiders, for ourselves and not for the Survey Service."
"And how do you propose to persuade the others?"
He said, "That's where you will help.
You'll have to talk the women into going."
"And if I don't?"
"Then I tell them about the offer of the
Survey Service charter."
She looked at him with cold hostility. She
said softly, "You bastard."
IX
Calver
never found out how his
wife talked the other women around to the idea of a private expedition in
search of the Outsiders—but talk them into it she did. Her manner with him
remained cold, hostile—and he knew that this hostility was as much the
consequence of his blackmail as of his brief affair with Sonya Verrill. But he did not care, he told himself. He hoped
that he would soon be in a position to achieve his real ambition, would soon be
able to lead his crew out and away from the galaxy, to fame (perhaps) and fortune
(possibly). But it was neither fame nor fortune that was the real lure. He
would repeat to himself two lines of archaic poetry that, somehow, had stuck in
his memory, that somehow, during these last few days
had come to the surface!
For lust of knowing what should not be known We
take the Golden Road to Samarkand . . .
But the voyage, he knew,
would be no golden journey. It would be a long, sickening drop into the
Ultimate Nothingness, a protracted faU through the
Night, away from warmth and light and humanity. It would be a weary search for
the unknown, possibly the unknowable. And when it—whatever it was—was found, would anybody be the better off? Mauds-ley
had found it—and it had destroyed him.
But Maudsley, thought Calver,
was a weakling. . . .
But Maudsley, Calver told himself, daring at last to admit doubt, was
not a weakling. The Survey Service does not promote weaklings to Commander's
rank.
But Maudsley, Calver insisted, must have been a weakling. Not overtly,
but in some subtle way. There must have been some fatal flaw in his character.
And
what guarantee, Calver
asked himself, have
I that there is not some fatal flaw in my character?
But his doubts were passing ones and his
determination to see the thing through remained. While Jane, whom he rarely saw
now, did her work with the women, he worked on tie men. He did not tell them
about the offer of the Survey Service charter, but he did hint that he had
learned that the Survey Service was interested, and that it would be a feather
in The Outsider's cap if her people beat the Survey Service to
the discovery. Old Doc Malone was his first convert, and an easy one. Said the
old man, "Believe it or not, Calver, I've never
been a one for tossing my bonnet over the windmill. But I'd like to be doing it
just once."
"Now's your chance, Doc," Calver
told him.
"Could be, could be. But the rest of you
. . . You're young, all of you, and you run the risk of losing both the ship
and your lives."
"And don't we," countered Calver,
"every time that we push off into deep space, every time that we make a
landing?"
"Yes, but . . ." Then the doctor
grinned. "As far as the ship's concerned, she's
covered by Lloyds."
"And as far as our lives are
concerned," said Calver, "we shall be doing
something useful with them."
"You hope," said Malone. "We hope."
"We hope," agreed Calver.
"But the others." persisted the
Doctor.
"Lloyd and Ritter are both scientists.
They're coming round to my way of thinking. Levine will follow the
majority."
"And Renault and Brentano and Bendix?"
"I trunk they'll vote the way their wives tell them."
"And just what the hell is going on, Calver?" demanded the doctor. "I always thought
that I had my fingers on the pulse of this ship, but now I'm not so sure. There's
some sort of trouble between you and Jane—but then, all marriages pass through
the My-God-how-the-hell-did-I-ever-get-shackled-to-this? stage.
And yet this same Jane is doing her damnedest to persuade the other wives that
we should drop everything and push off for Outside."
"I
am not without influence," said Calver
carefully.
"It seems not. And Cappell?"
Carver's face clouded. "Now that we're nearing his home planet he's
feeling the call of the land again. He's already worked out that with his back
pay and the resale of his shares to us he'll be able to buy and stock a sheep
run. This was before the Outsider business was mentioned. I'm afraid that we
shall have to let him go."
"H'm. And
Brentano has only a Second Pilot's ticket and hasn't got his time in yet to sit
for First. And the Port Authorities on any of the Empire of Waverley planets
are sticklers for regulations. Whatever we do after Nova Cale-don—tramping
or our own private venture—we shall strike a snag there."
"There's bound to be somebody," said
Calver, "with either a Master's or a First
Pilot's Certificate."
"Is there? And if there were, would you
ship another one like Maudsley on what could well be
a hazardous voyage?"
"If I have to, yes. As long as we have the minimum number of
tickets shown on the Articles we shall be able to blast off, and after that I
can stand a watch myself if I have to."
"We shall see," said the Doctor.
"We shall see. And it's not beyond the bounds of possibility that we shall
be able to get a permit, in any case."
"There's bound to be somebody,"
said Calver, "with either a Master's or a First
Pilot's Certificate."
"Is there? And if there were, would you
ship another one like Maudsley on what could well be
a hazardous voyage?"
"If I have to, yes. As long as we have the minimum number of
tickets . . ."
Calver looked at the doctor, and the doctor looked
at Calver. Both men knew what was wrong. Both men,
now, could hear the irregularity in the whining note of the Mannschenn
Drive and knew that the temporal precession fields were fluctuating wildly. And
then, to confirm their fears, the alarm bells started to ring.
Slowly, carefully, Calver
unbuckled his seat belt and rose to his feet. It would not be wise to try to
hurry. On such occasions in the past he had, now and again, tried to move fast
and, as he put it later, finished up not knowing if it were breakfast time or
last Thursday. Slowly, carefully, he left his cabin and went out into the
alleyway and carefully, slowly, climbed the short ladder to the control room.
Brentano was on watch. There was nothing that he could do but sit there
and watch the unreliable instruments. He saw Calver
and said, his words coming at carefully spaced intervals, "This does not
make sense."
"And what does not?" queried the Master.
"Interference effect. No other ship should have passed closely
enough to us to cause it. But one has."
"Opposite trajectory?" asked Calver.
"No."
Bendix's voice came over the intercom speaker.
"Captain, we must shut down. We must shut down and restart."
"Then
shut down," ordered Calver. He said to Brentano,
"It's a good thing that we aren't in a hurry."
Two objective weeks overdue, The Outsider dropped through the drizzle to Port Caledon.
She fell gently through the steam generated by her flaring exhausts and
grounded with a faint jar on the apron. Calver rang Finished With Engines then stared out through the big viewport and
watched the beetle-like groundcar, from the bonnet of
which fluttered the Port Administration flag, making its way over the wet
concrete to the ship. Cappell unbuckled himself from
his chair and went down to the airlock to receive the officials.
Calver left Brentano to make all secure and then
followed his Chief Officer from the control room. In his own day cabin he found
that Jane—although she was no longer in evidence—had laid out all that would
be required, the decanters and glasses, the box of cigarettes and the box of
cigars, the folder containing Manifest, Bill of Health and the clearance from
the last port, and the crew list.
Calver sat down at his desk, filled and lit his
pipe. He got to his feet again when Cappell ushered
in the Customs and Immigration boarding officers and motioned them to chairs
after shaking hands with them.
"Ye're
late, Captain," said the Customs official. "Ye should ha' been here
afore Rim Caravel. She's a'ready
discharged an' loaded an' oot again."
"Mannschenn
Drive ♦rouble," said Calver.
"But I'm sorry that Rim-Caravel's away.
I'd have liked a word or two with her Master."
"An' whyfor, Captain?"
"The Drive trouble was due to
interference. It's stretching the long arm of coincidence rather much when two
ships pass closely enough for interference effect." He paused. "In
any case, I didn't think that Rim Caravel was
all fast, although she was Delta Class
when she was under the Commission's flag."
"She's no' a' that fast," admitted
the Customs man. "But her Captain—a verry
.pleasant wee man—was sayin' that there was some urrgency ..."
"And how was it that he didn't have to
shut his Drive down?"
"Ah'm no' an
engineer, Captain, an' ah ken little aboot such
matters. But mebbe his Drive's a later model, or mebbe his engineers were a' ready to adjust their controls.
. . . But ah'm no' a technician."
Grimes,
thought Calver.
The
old bastard. He
must have given Rim
Caravel's Master
instructions. It wouldn't be all that hard for his navigator to work out our
trajectory and to follow it, although it must have been rather risky to push
the Drive to the limits of safety. . . . But what the hell has he gained by it?
He's inconvenienced us, but it's done no good to either Rim Runners or himself.
Remembering his hostly
duties, he poured drinks and offered cigarettes.
X
"The
meeting," said Calver,
"is called to order."
The buzz of conversation around the saloon
table ceased and his officers—and fellow shareholders—turned to look at him.
Jane's regard was cold, but the others, he could see, were all prepared to be
friendly.
He said, "I have no need to tell you
that discharge will be competed at ab^ut noon
tomorrow. M'. Bendix ?nd Mr. Renault have assured me
that their machinery is in perfect working order. There is the question of
stores."
"What little we require in the way of
preserved provisions can be loaded tomorrow before noon. As you know, we have
not found it necessary to touch our present stocks," reported Jane.
"Thank you. Well, once again we are
faced with the problem of future employment. I have made enquiries, but there
are no cargoes offering out of Port Caledon in any direction. And as far as Rim
Runners are concerned we're just a nuisance."
Julia Bendix
removed the spectacles from her high bridged nose and used them as a signal to
attract and hold his attention. She said, "I understand that the Skoda
Corporation on Carinthia is chartering tonnage to lift ore from the Sokolsky System to their smelters at New Prague."
"That is correct," confirmed Levine.
"I have given the matter some
thought," said Calver, ^but have come to the
conclusion that every tramp with a halfway efficient psionic
radio officer will already be homing on New Prague."
"And that is correct, too," said Levine.
"Carinthia is quite a way from
here," went on Calver. "And we're liable to
be making a long voyage and getting nothing for our pains at the end of
it." He said, after a pause, "And I don't think that that's sound
economics."
"It is not," agreed Julia,
"but I thought it right that all of us here should be informed of the only
faint hope of possible employment."
"Thank you," Julia," said Calver. "Now, all of you have been thinking me rather
a monomaniac on the subject of the Outsiders. Rut I
think you will agree that our late Mr. Maudsley did
find something out there—something with which he was unable to cope. But I have
faith in you, and myself, and am quite sure that we shall be able to handle it.
And knowledge is not only power, it is also money."
"And
knowledge," said Lloyd, "is worth acquiring for its own sake."
"Definitely," grunted Ritter.
"But how can you be sure that there is
something?" quibbled Elise Renault. "Oh, I know that Jane's made it
all very convincing—she nursed Mr. Maudsley during
his final illness and had to listen to his ravings. But hallucinations are not
unknown."
"Especially after too much alcohol," added her husband.
"I think that I can recognize the truth
when I hear it, Elise," said Jane coldly.
"Yes, Jane. But an
hallucination is real to the person concerned."
"Let's put it this way," said Calver. "We have two choices— a wild goose chase to
Carinthia, where we shall find a traffic jam of star tramps scrambling for
charters by the time we get there. Or, even more probably, the scramble will
already be over and we shall just have thrown away time and fuel for sweet damn
all. The second choice is another wild goose chase to Outside—but
at least there'll, be no cut-throat competition."
"And that's rather strange," said
Renault. "Maudsley's story must be well
circulated by now. How is it that nobody else has thought of investigating it?
Why hasn't Grimes re-commissioned Faraway Quest and
pushed off on another of his wild goose chases?"
"As far as I can gather," Calver said, "the Commodore has some sort of a bee in
his bonnet about the Outsiders. He's made up his mind that there ain't no such animals—so, as far as he's concerned, there
just ain't no such animals.
But I've kept my ear to the ground and, while exploring every avenue, have left
no stone unturned."
"I'm
sure that you've explored some fascinating avenues, Derek," commented his
wife, rather too sweetly.
He favored her with a forced grin.
"Anyhow, I've kept my ears flapping. I know for a fact that the Survey
Service people are very interested in Maudsley's
story."
"Then why don't they
send a ship?" demanded Renault.
"Because, at the moment, they have no
ships to spare.
Their entire force, except for vessels required for essential guard duties
elsewhere, is tied up in Wilkinson's Cluster. There's some sort of a squabble
between the Federation and the Shaara Empire. No doubt,
when things simmer down, they will be sending a ship. But it would be rather
nice if we got there first."
"Agreed," said Lloyd.
"Speaking as scientist, I have often deplored the way in which the Survey
Service classifies practically every discovery made by its own people as Top
Secret, To Be Destroyed By Fire Before Reading."
"You can say that again," grunted Ritter.
"So I can take it that nobody has any
real objections to the search for the Outsiders?"
"It's a wild goose chase," said old Doc Malone. "Ye're all of you callin' it that,
an' ye're all of you right. But that's what I like
about it."
"I suppose we have to go
somewhere," contributed Bendix. "I just
supply the motive power."
"I thought that I did," argued
Renault. "You just put the clocks back."
"Brentano?" said Calver.
"Frankly, Captain, the idea appeals to
me. We shall, at least, be getting off the tramlines."
"But the tramlines give at least an
illusion of security," his wife objected, although not very strongly.
The little man grinned, "But our
tramlines have been torn up, now, anyhow."
Julia Bendix went through heliographing
motions with her spectacles again. She said, "We may as well put the
matter to the vote, although I don't think there's much need. We've all of us
talked it over among ourselves, and I think I'm right in saying that we've all
agreed to let Derek have his own way for this once. After all, we can afford
it. It's a gamble—but we have to be in to win. But. . ."
"But. . . P" echoed Calver.
"There's this small matter of a replacement for Cappell."
"All part of the gamble," said Calver airily. "I think it will be a calculated risk
if we just lift without clearance. We shall be breaking all manner of laws,
both local and galactic, but if we find what we hope to find, what will it
matter? After all, we've done our best. We've tried to find an officer with the
right qualifications, but there are none available. We've tried to get a permit
to sail shorthanded, and if the local Shipping Master won't play, that's not
our fault. After all, this is our ship and we're quite capable of taking her
anywhere with the people we have."
"Up the rebels!" cried Doc Malbne.
"I'm sure that I like it," said Julia.
Somebody was rapping sharply on the saloon door. "Come in!"
called Calver irritably, expecting that the intruder
would be a stevedore or a port official. But it was not. It was a kilted giant who strode into the compartment with a certain arrogance, the three gleaming, silver
chevrons of a Sergeant of Police prominent on his sleeve.
He was followed by four constables and by two men in blue overalls.
He said, "Captain, ye'll
excuse me for breakin' up this meetin',
but ah've a job o' work tae dae."
"Indeed?" said Calver coldly.
"There's rumors, Captain, an' Rumoour's a lyin'
jade, although she could be speakin' the truth the
no. Yon Port Captain's been told that ye're thinkin' o' liftin' ship wi'oot clearance. An' that, on this planet, is classed as a crime."
"Indeed?" said Calver.
"Indeed, Captain. But we, the Police
Force o' this world, tak' pride in the way in which
we can prevent crime afore its commission. An' that is what we are here
for."
"Indeed?" said Calver.
"Ay. An' so if yer
Chief Interstellar Drive Engineer will lead the way, yon laddies
..." he waved a huge hand towards
the boiler-suited men, "will removed the governor
from yer Mannschenn Drive
Unit."
Calver looked at the policemen. They were armed,
and his people were not. They were trained in unarmed combat, and his people
were not. Furthermore, there were probably reinforcements outside the ship.
He said tiredly, "All right, Mr. Bendix."
XI
Calveh
stormed into
the Port Captain's office, ignoring the nervous receptionist who tried to ask
him his business.
"Captain MacLaren,"
he demanded, "what is the meaning of your high-handed action?"
MacLaren looked both embarrassed and apologetic. He
said, "Sit down, Captain. Just listen to me long enough for me to tell you
that it was no action of mine. I'm a spaceman, and I'm quite sure that your
ship would be better off with her present crew than with some stranger,
probably an incompetent soak, added to make up the number. If it rested with
me, I'd give you clearance with my blessings."
"So you're a little woolly lamb,"
sneered Calver, "and there's someone else behind
it."
"Calver,"
said MacLaren, "regulations are regulations. You
and I, as practical spacemen, know that they're made to be broken. But you and
I both know that there are certain people connected with the shipping industry
who, while they are able to quote regulations by the yard, know no more about
ships than that fire comes out of one end."
"The Shipping Master," suggested Calver.
"Yes. Old Paul."
"But the way he was
talking earlier I thought that I should have no trouble in getting a
permit."
"And then," went on the Port
Captain, "there are Mr. Paul's superiors."
"What? You mean the Department of Navigation?"
"Yes. Paul and myself
may be big frogs in a small puddle in Port Caledon, but as far as the
Department's concerned we're very small frogs in a big puddle. When Ministers
of the Crown say, 'jump,' we jump."
"But all these bloody
policemen clumping in their big boots all over my ship. . . . And immobilizing the
ship."
MacLaren smiled thinly. "Come, now, Captain,
would you have paid any attention to a writ tacked to the tail fin? For all I
know, you have some venture in mind that would enable you to pay, without
feeling it, the fine imposed for unauthorized departure—if you ever return to
this or any other Empire of Waverley planet, that is. And both Mr. Paul and I
were instructed—instructed, not requested—to make sure that you did not make an
unauthorized departure."
"Or any other sort of departure?" asked Calver
suddenly. "There was that funny business of Rim Caravel. We didn't see her—she wasn't in phase with
us—but she overtook us and passed so close that our Drive was thrown out of
kilter. Who wanted to make sure that we were delayed?"
"I know nothing about that, Captain," said MacLaren.
"And what sort of pull has Grimes got
out here? I didn't think that the Rim Confederacy was on more than speaking
terms with your Empire, but I must have been wrong. Why does Grimes want us
delayed still further?"
"Grimes?"
"Commodore Grimes, then."
"Oh, yes. Your Astronautical
Superintendent and commanding officer of your Naval Reserve. . . . But I can
assure you, Calver, that Grimes has no standing here. I don't know much about
politics, but our Government has always leaned more towards the Federation than
to your Confederacy and, furthermore, recognized the Rim Confederacy only with
extreme reluctance."
"Something stinks," said Calver.
"Yes. I admit that. As far as I'm concerned
you could have blasted off from here, with my blessings, as soon as your port
dues were paid. I'm sorry, Calver,
but I tell you again that this is none of my doing."
Calver was ready to clutch at straws. "Your
assistants," he said. "They all possess qualifications. Would either
of them be willing to ship with us as Mate? I'd pay well, considerably above
regular rates."
"Not a hope," MacLaren
told him. "Not a hope. As a matter of fact I've already sounded them on
the subject, but they're newly married, both of them, and prefer all night at
home in bed to watchkeeping aboard an interstellar
tramp."
"I could," said Calver,
"even go so far as to sign on an extra woman in some capacity."
"A pregnant woman?" countered the Port Captain.
"Oh." Calver
got to his feet. "Well, thanks for what you've told me. I think I'll go
and have a word with Mr. Paul."
"He doesn't bully easily," MacLaren told him. "The more you bully him, the less
likely you are to get your permit."
Perhaps a small monetary gift, tactfully
offered, thought
Calver, but he did not say it. He said goodbye to MacLaren and went out into the passage. The Shipping
Office was in the same building as the Port Captain's office, but at a lower
level. A fast and smoothly running escalator carried him to his destination.
There were the usual clerks behind the long counter doing nothing in
particular. One of them looked up. "Oh, it's Captain Calver,
isn't it? Mr. Paul would like tae see ye, sir. He'll
be in his office."
Calver went into the Shipping Master's little
cubicle.
"Sit ye doon, Captain," said Paul
jovially. He raised a warning hand. "No, afore ye lose what
little temper ye have I'll tell ye that I've guid news for ye. Ay. Verra guid news."
"You're letting me have my permit?" asked Calver.
"Permit, Captain. Tis
better news than that. Yell no be wantin' a permit the no."
"Indeed?
So you've found a Mate for me?" He added, "Some drunken bum, I
suppose, but as long as he holds at least a First Pilot's license he'll
do."
"No, not a drunken bum, Captain—but a maist
effeecient officer. Some captains wouldna
approve, but the way that ye a'ready ha' the ship
manned it'll mak' nae deefference."
"You mean . . .
p" asked Calver.
"Ay.
A wumman. She came oot here as passenger in Rim Caravel on her way back to the Centre Worlds. But
she's in nae hurry, an' when she heard ye were held
up wi' crew shortage she
volunteered." "A woman." repeated Calver.
"Ye've plenty a'ready. What's yin mair? An' she
holds the qualifications. No' a certificate pairhaps,
but she has her Commission as Lieutenant Commander in the Survey Service,
Executive Branch . . ."
"And her name," said Calver coldly,
"is Sonya Verrill."
"Ye a'ready
ken the lass, Captain? That makes tbings
easier."
"Doesn't it?" said Calver.
He was waiting for her in
the Shipping Office when she arrived from her hotel. She was wearing a severe
business suit that accentuated rather than hid her femininity. She smiled
enticingly at Paul and his clerks and even more seductively at Calver. She murmured, "Aren't you going to say,
"Welcome aboard,' Derek?"
He said, "You aren't aboard yet."
"But I shall be—otherwise you don't lift ship."
He said, "I'd like to see this commission of yours."
"But of course." She pulled out the
document from her handbag. "Here."
"I thought you were Intelligence," he said.
"I am—but all of us hold commissions in
the Executive Branch. We have to be able to handle ships should the need
arise."
"I see." He handed the paper back to her.
Mr. Paul had the ship's
Articles open on the counter. He coughed to attract attention. "If yell let me have some details, Miss Verrill
. . . Year o' birth." She told him, adding, "Earth
Standard." Calver tried to work out her age but
failed. He had been so long on the Rim that he had lost touch with Terran measurements of time. Paul's stylus scratched
busily. "Address of next of kin?"
"Still
your brother?" asked Calver before she could
answer.
"Yes, Derek. I'll give him your regards
when next I write." She gave Paul the full details.
"Rank or rating . . . ? Pay . . .
P" These questions Cal-ver answered. "Number and grade of certificate or commission?"
Then it was over and Calver
was looking at his new Chief Officer with something short of enthusiasm. He
said, "There's a bar on the next deck down. Could you use a drink?"
"I'd rather like to get myself and my gear on board, sir."
"I'm in no hurry," said Calver, with a short, apprehensive laugh. "Come on. A drink first. That's an order."
"And will it be poisoned?" she asked.
"Unfortunately," he said,
"it's all at rather short notice. Had I been warned I might have arranged
it." He laughed again. "I'd better warn you, while we're on the
subject of poisoning, that my wife's the Catering Officer."
Old Mr. Paul chuckled tolerantly.
"Anyone can see that ye're old shipmates,"
he said.
"Yes," admitted Calver. "We
were once. Briefly."
He remembered his kidnaping
on Grollor by Sonya Verrill
and her brother, and the subsequent destruction of the space yacht Star Rover. That had been a sticky situation— but not one
half so sticky as this one promised to be.
XII
"Name
your poison,"
he said, as though the words were to be taken literally.
"Scotch on the rocks," she said.
"The local variety isn't too bad."
He said, "111 have the same," and gave
the order to the barman.
When the drinks had been
placed before them he raised his glass but was at a loss for a suitable toast.
Finally he muttered, "Mud in your eye."
"And in yours," she responded.
They sipped in silence.
She said, "You don't like me, Derek."
He looked at her, finally
admitting, "That's not altogether true, Sonya, but . . ."
"But you like to keep your wives and
your popsies^ in airtight compartments."
"Too right," he
admitted. "And furthermore ..."
"Furthermore?"
"I certainly don't
like what you've been doing."
"What have I been
doing?" she asked sweetly.
"What haven't you been doing?" he
exploded. "You traveled out here iri Rim Caravel. You persuaded her Master to calculate our
trajectory and to follow it, knowing that interference effect would throw our
Drive out of kilter and knowing, too, that his engineers, being ready for it,
would be able to make the necessary adjustments to their own Mannschenn Drive Unit. So Rim Caravel beat us to Port Caledon by a handsome margin,
leaving you to make all your arrangements. Come to that, I suppose that you got
at Cappell before we shoved off from Port
Faraway."
"No," she told him. "I didn't.
Although I must confess that I considered Cappell the
weak link in your chain."
"And the rest?" he persisted.
"Could be." She shrugged. "Could
be not. I'm not saying."
"It doesn't much matter." He
shrugged in his turn. "I know that you were behind it all. What I do
object to is being used as a cat's paw by your blasted Survey Service."
She said, "I suppose that it does rankle
more than somewhat. But try to look at it sensibly, Derek.
Oh, I know damn' well that your ship is staffed by a team of exceptionably
competent spacemen and spacewomen, but none of you has Survey experience. I
have."
"Yes, that's all very well. But
if—when—we find the Outsiders, for whom will you be
working? For the ship, or for the Federation? Will you
be Miss Sonya Verrill, Chief Officer of The Outsider, or will you be Lieutenant Commander Verrill, Federation Survey Service, Intelligence
Branch? That's what I want to know. That, both as Master and as Chairman of the
Board, I have every right to know."
"You have," she admitted. "You have, Derek. And it's only right that all this should be ironed out before I set foot inside
your airlock."
"It should have been ironed out before I
let you sign," he growled.
"It should," she grinned. "You
slipped up there. But if I hadn't been allowed to sign you'd have had a long,
long wait for either a Chief Officer or a permit to sail shorthanded. However,
I'm prepared to be quite honest with you. Cards on the table
and all that. And if you aren't satisfied well go back to Mr. Paul and
I'll tell him that I've changed my mind and that you've agreed to pay me off by
mutual consent. I shan't even claim the day's pay to which I shall be entitied. And I promise you, too, that you'll be getting
your permit within a couple of days at the outside."
"Fair enough," he grunted. "Fair enough. All right, Sonya, go ahead and satisfy
me."
"I've already raised the point,"
she said, "about my being experienced in exploration and survey
work."
"It's a good one," he conceded.
"It is. But I think
that what really worries you is my ambiguous status. In more
ways than one." "You can say that again," he told her.
"Let's skip the personal side of
it," she said. "For the time being, anyhow. . . . All right—I'm a
commissioned officer of the Federation's armed forces. As such, I'm bound by
oath to make a full report on anything discovered. But, as you already know,
it will be some little time before we, the Survey Service, are able to release
any ships for exploration, and whatever claim you may make on whatever is found
out there will be valid. The Service has always honored the old principle of
finders are keepers. But they like to know just what has been found, and it
will be up to me to keep them informed."
"H'm," he grunted.
"And always bear in mind, Derek, that
I'm bound just as much by my signature on your Articles as by my oath to the
Service. I'm on your books as Chief Officer, and I'll do the job to the best of
my ability. Should I be required to draw upon my experience as a Survey Service officer on your behalf, I shall do so cheerfully. I'll
earn my keep. Have no doubts about that."
"I haven't," he said. "But. . ."
"All right." She gestured as though throwing playing cards down to the polished surface of the bar.
"Here's the rest of my hand, such as it is. This business is personally
important to me. Very important."
"That," he said glumly, "is what I was most afraid
of."
She laughed rather bitterly. "Men!" she flared. "The supreme egotists! And you, my dear, are no
exception to the rule. Oh, I like you, Derek, make no mistake about that. But
please give me credit for enough intelligence to be able to refrain from
throwing your beloved ship into a state of turmoil. You can tell your everloving wife that, as far as I'm concerned, the policy
will be strictly hands off." Her face clouded. "But this is a
personal matter. Rather more years ago than I care to remember, Bill Maudsley and I were lovers. We broke up, but we shouldn't
have done it. There were faults on both sides—as aren't there always—but we . .
. matched. And it was in the cards that we'd be coming together again; there
was no hurry, but the first feelers had already been put out. And then the
reports came in about his disgrace—I wanted to come out here then, but I
couldn't be spared—and then, eventually, about his death. . . .
"And I want to find out what killed him."
He
killed himself, thought
Calver. But did he? But doesn't any man, no matter how he dies, kill himself?
"You can't blame me," Sonya Verrill was saying. "You can't blame me for wanting to
know."
"I can't," he
said.
As they approached the ship, following the
truck upon which Sonya's baggage was loaded, they saw that it was almost ready
for space. Gantries and conveyor belts had been withdrawn, and on its slender
mast, an extension of the needle-pointed stem, the intensely brilliant red
light, the socalled Blue Peter, was blinking. The
only side port remaining open was that at the airlock.
"You have good officers," commented
Sonya.
"We have good officers," he corrected her.
"So you've accepted me," she said.
"What choice had I?" he countered,
grinning.
There was somebody standing in the airlock. Calver
could see who it was, and his brief mood of cheerfulness abruptly departed. At
first, when he had seen the state of readiness of his ship, he had berated
himself for indulging in two stiff drinks almost immediately prior to
blast-off, now he was sorry that he hadn't taken three.
"So you're back," said Jane coldly.
"We're all ready for space."
"Formalities can't be hurried," he
replied, with equal coldness.
"But I thought that
you'd found and signed on a Chief Officer," she said. "I did,"
he said. "Where is he?" she demanded.
"Jane," he said, "meet Miss Sonya Verrill—or
Lieutenant Commander Sonya Verrill—who'll be shipping
with us as Mate."
"The word
'Mate'," she said, "is capable of several interpretations."
"Mrs. Calver,"
said Sonya, "I assure you that I'm qualified for the job."
"Which job?" asked Jane.
"Miss Verrill,"
ordered Calver, "will you get aboard,
please?" He saw the Second Officer fidgeting behind Jane. "Mr. Brentano,
will you please attend to the Chief Officer's baggage and show her to her
cabin? And Mrs. Calver, I shall be obliged if you
will go to your blast-off station."
"Is
this how you keep your word, Derek?" she asked quietly.
"Circumstances beyond my control . .
." he began. "You should learn to control yourself," she told
him.
"Jane,"
he said, "go to your station. Please. I'll
explain
everything as soon as we've got this bitch
upstairs." "I hope that you can," she said.
Inside the ship intercom speakers had come to life. It was Sonya's
voice, crisp, authoritative with a real Survey Service crackle t;> it. "Secure all! Secure all for space! Secure all!"
"Doesn't
waste much time, does she?" asked Jane bitterly.
XIII
So The Outsider fell through the twisted blackness, the
warped infinity, out from the Empire of Waverley towards the Rim. But it was
not only the continuum that was warped and twisted. There was warping and
twisting in the personalities of her people, hostilities and jealousies and
frustrations. There was Calver, leading a lonelier
life than he had ever led before as Master, keeping to himself, living alone
and not liking it. There was Sonya Verrill, given the
respect that was due to her by virtue of her rank, no less but no more. There was Jane, discharging her duties with a
certain bored efficiency but determined not to mingle socially.
There was the rest of the
crew, all of whom knew, by now, how things stood and all of whom were
determined, even old Doc Malone, to keep their own yardarms clear. They resented
Sonya's presence aboard the ship and resented still more that machinations that
had resulted in her being signed on as Chief Officer—but, as Malone put it,
they would give her a fair crack of the whip. She was Mate and she was doing
her job as such. And Calver was Master, and he was
doing his job. And Jane was the Catering Officer, and nobody was going hungry.
As long as things did not blow up between the three of them, the ship would
run, would arrive, in the fullness of time, at her destination. Malone said
cynically, "I don't give a damn who does what to
whom as long as I don't have to pay."
But nobody was doing anything to anybody. Calver
kept himself to himself, and Sonya Verrill kept
herself to herself, and Jane, in her off-duty hours was unapproachable. And the
ship functioned as well as she had ever functioned, watch succeeding watch in
control room and engine room, seemingly independent of the tangled lives of her
senior officers. Until . . .
It was Sonya Verrill's
watch and Calver had occasion to visit the control
room to make a routine check of the ship's position. The girl watched him as he
stood before tke big chart tank, as he set up the
extrapolation of the trajectory from the latest fix.
She said, "Derek, this can't go on."
Calver adjusted the controls until the luminescent
filament had firmed, looking like a fine, incandescent
wire in the blackness of the tank. Then he looked up and around. He asked,
"What can't go on?"
"This," she said. "This situation. Damn it all, I shouldn't mind all the
disapproval so much if we were doing something. But we aren't. You're leading
the life of a monk, and I might as well be in a nunnery. So, come to that,
might your wife." She grinned wryly. "There's nothing so annoying as being punished for uncommitted crimes."
"But we aren't being punished," he said.
"Aren't we? I've sailed in taut ships, Derek, really taut ships,
commanded by the more notorious martinets of the Survey Service. But none of
them could hold a candle to this one. Everybody growled, but, compared to this
set-up, everybody was happy. The game's crooked and
you know it."
"So the game's
crooked," he agreed. "But what can we do about it?"
"You're Master," she told him.
"So I'm Master. And you, my dear, are
Mate—and, as such, responsible for the smooth running of the vessel."
She said, "But she is running smoothly. That's the worst part of it
all. She's running too smoothly. I'd welcome some sort of a blow-up."
"No ship can run too smoothly," he said stiffly.
"But too much is being bottled up,"
she said. "The longer it's bottled up the worse it will be."
"And what do you expect me to do?"
he asked. "Give the order, 'All hands unbottle'?
What was the orthodox technique in the Survey Service in situations such as
this?"
"In the Survey Service," she told
him, "such situations would never be allowed to arise."
"No? Well, I suppose when you have a
large pool of officers you can make sure that incompatibles aren't allowed to
ship together. But you, my dear, made sure that we had no large pool of
officers to pick and choose from."
She said, "I suppose that we, you and I, are incompatible."
He said, "That's just the trouble. We
aren't, and everybody knows it."
She said, "Why the hell can't you and Jane make it up?"
"Jane doesn't like you," he told
her. "She never has, not from the very start. And that was when she and I
were just getting acquainted."
"Spare me the details. She didn't like
me when you and she were no more than casual shipmates. She dislikes me still
more now."
"She has her reasons," said Calver.
"All right, she has reasons. But I, as
you know, have my reasons for being aboard this rustbucket
of yours. I'm not here for love of you."
"Thank you. And I never asked to have
you here. All I wanted was a permit so that I could get the hell off Nova
Caledon without delay."
"But I am here," she said.
"Too right you are," he agreed. "Too
bloody right."
"Well," she demanded, "what are you doing about it?"
"I suppose," he said slowly, "that I coul
1 push Jane out through the airlock without a spacesuit—although I doubt if the
others would back me up. Or I could do the same to you. Or, better still, to
both of you."
She told him, "You are a sadistic bastard, you know."
He said, "That's the way that I feel just now."
"Then why don't you do something about it?"
"About what?"
"About
this bloody absurd situation, you fool." He said, "I just might, at
that." "What, master mind?"
"We can, at least,
take the strain off ourselves. To hell with everybody
else." "Including Jane?" "Including
Jane."
She said, "I'm a woman, and what you
suggest runs counter to the rules of the lodge to which all women belong. But
if she won't see reason . . ."
"She
won't," said Calver.
"All right."
"You come off watch at twenty-hundred
hours," said Calver, "and there's no reason
why the Chief Officer shouldn't have a quiet drink with the Master in her watch
below."
"There's not," agreed Sonya.
"But . . ." She went on after a pause, "Oh, damn the stinking
atmosphere aboard this ship! There are so many people, interesting people,
charming people, whom I'd love to meet and to talk with. But all of them treat
me as though I were an ambulatory case of Ven-usian
Purple Rot. And I know whose fault that is."
"Not altogether," objected Calver, trying hard to be fair. "After all, just bear
in mind that everybody is scared of getting involved in a nasty mess. They just
refuse to take sides."
"Could be. But that's all the more reason why we untouchables
should stick together."
"Twenty-hundred
hours, then," said Calver, leaving the control
room.
It was good, thought Calver,
to be able to enjoy female company in his cabin once more, even though it was
not Jane. He looked at Sonya as she sat in her chair, as she contrived to
convey the impression of graceful relaxation even though she was, perforce,
strapped into the piece of furniture by her seat belt. He handed her another
bulb of his prized lacrissa brandy and took another for himself from his wine locker.
"Well, Captain," she said,
"the voyage progresses. It will not be long before we're on the
leads—Macbeth in line with Kinsolving's Sun. And then . .
He said, "That will be the hardest part.
The leads might have been, by sheer chance, dead accurate when Maudsley brought Polar Queen back
to the Rim from Outside—but they won't be so accurate now. There's galactic
drift, you know."
She said, "I'm a navigator. I know."
"But a few simple calculations," he
went on, "combined with a search pattern."
"Yes." She sipped from her bulb.
She said suddenly, "I wish that your clever Mr.
Brentano had this cabin bugged. I wish that your wife could overhear this
conversation."
"Keep her out of it," said Calver
sharply.
"Why? She's probably assuming the
worst—and here we are, quietiy swigging brandy and
talking shop."
He said, "That's why I invited you here."
She said, "You're a bloody liar, Derek,
and we both of us know it."
Calver said, "So I'm a bloody liar. So what?"
"I like to be frank," she told him.
"But can't you see," insisted Calver, "that it would be quite impossible, here, in
this ship? Things are bad enough now; let's not make them worse."
"They couldn't be worse," Sonya
said practically. "Everybody knows that the new Mate is the Master's
mistress. We might as well be hung for sheep as lambs."
"I'd prefer not be
hung," he said, then corrected himself
pedantically. "Hanged, I mean."
"Hanged or hung—what's
the difference? You still get a sore throat."
"Have some more gargle," suggested Calver.
"Thank you, dear. But isn't this
domesticated? Remind me next time to bring my knitting."
"Ill do that," promised Calver.
"Seriously, Derek, what's wrong with us?"
"You know. It just wouldn't be decent to
do anything here and now."
"My good man," she said patiently,
"we've been over all that before. Furthermore, your everloving
wife won't let you sleep with her. She's applying sexual sanctions. If she were
here, in this cabin, as she should be, I should not be here. Nature abhors a
vacuum—and that applies to human nature as well as to physics."
"But ..."
"Fellow shareholders or no fellow shareholders, you're still the
Master. You're the law and the prophets. For example, if you were to say to me,
'Miss Verill, take off your shirt,' I should obey the
order."
He said, "Sonya, I didn't say anything of the kind."
"You've been thinking it," she told
him. "I've been watching you eying the cleavage ever since I parked my
fanny in your best armchair."
She unfastened the last button and shrugged
herself free of the garment. She made no attempt to hide her breasts—and,
thought Calver, it would have been criminal to have hidden them. She said,
"Well?"
"I spent a few weeks on Hygea," he told her carefully. "You know it, no
doubt. Nudism, vegetarianism, total abstinence."
"And we aren't vegetarians," she
said, "neither are we total abstainers. So any incidental nudism doesn't
count. Or does it?"
Calver unstrapped himself from his chair and pushed
away from it so that he floated gently towards the door. He snapped the catch on
the lock. When he turned he saw that Sonya was divesting herself of her shorts.
He felt absurdly— or not so absurdly?—guilty as he started to throw aside his
own garments.
But
if he was going to be blamed for something he might as well do whatever it was
he was being blamed for. And, in any case, he wanted to do it. Badly.
"It's
been too long." whispered Sonya. "Too long." he whispered.
"We . . . We needed this . . ."
The intercom phone was buzzing irritably.
Reluctantly, Calver let go of the girl, drifted away
from her, reluctant to let his attention wander from the pale, lovely body
floating there in the semi-darkness. He fumbled along the bulkhead until his
hand closed on the instrument. He pulled it from its clip and raised it to his
mouth.
"Captain here."
"Acting Third Officer here," said
Elise Renault stiffly. "There is an emergency."
"Well,
what is it?" demanded Calver sharply.
"It's your wife. She's locked herself in
the Mannschenn Drive Room."
Calver cursed bitterly as he fumbled for his shorts
and sandals. He pulled them on and rushed out into the alleyway.
XIV
Calver
dared to hurry to the Mannschenn Drive Room; as yet there were no indications
that the gyroscopes had been tampered with, that the temporal precession field
was fluctuating. He hurried, pulling himself hand over hand along thé guide rails, kicking off from bulkheads, swimming
through the air, through shafts and alleyways, with the speed possible only to
an experienced spaceman. He hurried—and yet there were long pauses, too long,
the drifting from bulkhead to bulkhead, during which he was able to think, to
worry and to blame himself. He had heard stories of what happened to people
when they were in too close a proximity to a misbehaving Mannschenn
Drive Unit, and they were not pretty stories. Even when turned inside out,
literally, a human being will survive for a while, too long a while.
He realized that Sonya was following him. He
paused, half turned his head, snarled, "You'd
better keep out of this."
"But, Derek, as Chief Officer."
"As Chief Officer you should be in the
control room in an emergency—especially when the Master is required elsewhere."
"All right," she said. "You know where to find me."
Calver continued his nightmare fall through the
free falling ship, the ship that, at any moment, might fall through and into a
nightmare beyond all imagination. No, thought
Calver, not a nightmare, not a bad dream, but an evil reality of hopelessly
twisted space and time. . . .
But outlines were not wavering yet, and
colors were not sagging down the spectrum, and there was, as yet, no insane
repetition of words and thoughts and actions. There was still time. Almost as
clearly as though he were in the Interstellar Drive Room liimself
he could visualize Jane standing before the gleaming intricacy of spinning and
ever precessing gyroscopes, hypnotized by their
uncanny motion, mind and will drawn from her, dragged from her and sent
whirling down the dark infinites. . . . Or, perhaps, at this moment she was
selecting some heavy tool from the rack, some spanner or the like, to send
crashing into the heart of the weird, shimmering complexity.
Bendix was there in the alleyway outside the Mannschenn Drive Room, and with him were Renault and Lloyd.
Lloyd was stammering, "But, Mr. Bendix, I just
slipped out for a couple of minutes to the toilet. . .
> How was I to know . . . ?"
"You should have called me," growled his chief.
"But Mrs. Calver
had just looked in. . . . She said that she'd stood an occasional M.D. watch in
other ships."
"That's true," said Calver. "She knows enough to be able to shut it down
in a hurry if things go wrong.".
"Oh," grunted Bendix.
"You're here at last, Calver. Well, this is your
ship, and that's your wife locked in there with my tame gyroscopes—although how
long they're going to stay tame I shouldn't like to say. What are you doing about
itr
"Cut off the power supply at the
mains," said Calver promptly.
Bendix swore disgustedly then said, "And do
you think I never thought of that? Oh, it'd work all right-as long as there was
somebody there able—and willing—to do all the right things. Jane might be
able—but is she willing? You know what will happen if the gyroscopes start
toppling, don't you?"
Calver knew.
He knew as much as anybody—although that was not
much. He had heard the stories of ships lost in time rather than in space, had
himself visited planets that must have been colonized by human beings millenia before man sent his first clumsy rockets climbing
painfully towards Luna, let alone despatched his
first ships to the stars. He had heard and read the stories, and had seen some
of the evidence supporting them.
The intercom speaker on the bulkhead crackled
sharply and the men heard Jane's voice, "Is my
husband there?"
Silently Renault handed Calver
a microphone. Calver said quietly, "Yes, I'm
here, Jane. Will you come out of the Mannschenn Drive
Room, please, and let Mr. Lloyd resume his watch?"
"No," she said.
He asked coldly, "What do you intend doing in there?"
She replied, "I'm not quite sure yet, my
dear." She made the term of affection sound like an epithet. "I'm not
quite sure. I'm leafing through the manual at the moment. Who knows what ideas
I may get from it? But I can tell you one thing I shall do—if there are any
attempts to break down or to bum open this door, then
I shall take a heavy spanner to the governor."
"This is mutiny," said Calver
coldly.
"So it is, my sweet, so it is," she
agreed. "And mutiny's a crime, isn't it? And adultery isn't. Unfortunately."
He snapped, "Jane, don't be so absurdly
possessive."
"Possessive, is it?" she laughed.
"Do you remember how you carried on, Derek, when I went out for a few
drinks at Port Tham with the captain of Rim Wyvern? Or was that, somehow, different?"
"Courtney,'* said Calver,
"is one of the more notorious wolves in the Rim Runners fleet."
"But
you," she pointed out, "can carry on with one of the more notorious
bitches in the Intelligence Branch of the Survey Service."
Calver was silent.
"The
double standard," she went on, after a pause. "Convenient, isn't it,
for men like you." She paused again. "Of course, it wasn't the
blackmail that I minded so much. I know you well enough to realize that you'll
stop at nothing to get what you really want. The blackmail was bad enough, but
it was the broken promises afterwards that were just a little too much. You
forced me into helping you to attain your crazy ambition—and then, then, you work things so that your tow-headed trollop sails in this ship—our
ship."
"That,"
said Calver without expression,
"was none of my doing."
"Wasn't
it?" She laughed without mirth. "Wasn't it? Whom do you think you're
fooling, Derek Calver? Not I, for a start."
"It was none of my
doing," repeated Calver.
"Oh,
you poor, little, innocent woolly lamb, helpless in the jaws of the big, bad,
bitch wolf. My heart bleeds for you. Or it would, if I didn't despise you so
much."
"I
would suggest," said Calver,
"that you leave all this name calling until later and tell us just what
the hell you are playing at."
"But
there may not be a later," she told him. "There won't be if I manage
to bring back yesterday—or the day before, or the decade before or whenever.
What period do you wish to return to, Derek? That sort of honeymoon
of ours on Mellise, just before the hurricane?
Although the hurricane itself wasn't bad. It was
better than this. Or would you prefer that time on Grollor
when you got entangled with the commissioned popsy
again and were stashed away aboard Star RoverP Play the scene over again—and then you can
make a few changes. You can sell out to the Survey Service then instead of
waiting until now. It will save quite a deal of trouble and ill feeling."
Bendix was whispering, "Keep her talking,
Captain, and I'll get the cutting and burning tools along."
She said lightly, "That's a very sensitive microphone you have
there, Derek. Not that it matters. As soon as you tried to break in, I'd
know—and then we'd all find out what happens when a really heavy spanner is slung
into the works."
Calver turned to the Interstellar Drive Chief.
"And what will happen if a spanner is slung into the works, Bendix?"
Bendix said, "I'd sooner not find out,
Captain."
"These big, strong men," scoffed
Jane. "All of you wanting to push out into the unknown, the unknowable—but
when you have the unknown on your very front doorstep you shy away from it.
This is it, Derek. You wanted the unknown so very, very badly, my dear. Now you
shall have it, served up on a silver tray and trimmed with parsley."
"Jane!" roared Calver.
"That's enough of this tomfoolery. Stop whatever you're doing and come out
of there. At once."
"Ay, ay, Captain. Ay, ay, my left foot.
But what will you promise if I agree to come out? What will you promise this
time? And how long will you keep your promise?"
"She's enjoying making you squirm, Calver," said Bendix, not
without a certain glum satisfaction. "The trouble is that she's making us
all squirm."
"That's all very well," put in
Renault, "but it's time that somebody did something about something."
"You
could remember to use your depilatory cream each morning," suggested Jane.
"Just for a start, that is." She started to giggle, and Calver felt the beginnings of hope. "Oh, there's so much, so very much that could be done to clean this ship up.
You're all of you lazy, untidy. . . ." She giggled again. "How would
it be if we went back in time to the Stone Age? Don't you think that you'd all
be much happier scratching around on a kitchen midden?
Or just gnawing your mamoth bones more or less clean
and tossing them out of the cave to fall where they might? Men," she went
on, "are quite impossible, really. Untidy,
undisciplined, lecherous." She added confidentially, "You
know, they drink too. Boozing and wenching—the
male's idea of paradise. Slurping up anything that
tastes like liquor and carrying on with little blonde trollops. It
wouldn't be so bad if they weren't married, of course. But when they are, it's
rather much. It's rather too much." There was quite a long silence, and when
she resumed her voice betrayed the beginnings of hysteria. "But I'm
changing all that. Or punishing it. I'm sending this
ship full of swine back to some pigsty in the past. ...HI can ... If ... I ..
. can . . . Damn thish
print! Why musht the barshtardsh
make it sho shmall? An' all theshe blashted
shwitchesth an' dialsh an' metersh . . . But why worry? There'sh shpanner,
ishn't there? Where'sh
bloody thing got to? Ah, here. Shpanner, one number,
chrome plated, coming up . . . Coming . . ."
. . . down!
thought Calver with sick
desperation.
And nothing happened. The four men, their
faces white and tense, stared at each other, but nothing had happened, nothing
was happening. The thin, high whine of the Mann-schenn
Drive, from behind the locked door, did not vary.
Sonya
Verrill came along the alleyway. There was a smugness in her expression that Calver
did not like. She said briskly, "Mr. Bendix, you
can break in now."
"Not
so fast," snapped Calver. "Miss Verrill, what have you done?"
"S.O.P. in the Survey Service," she
told him airily. "The procedure worked out to deal with situations such as
this. It's not unknown for people to go round the bend in the Mann-schenn Drive Room—and if we have time we pump anaesthetic gas through the ventilating system. I called
out Dr. Malone to supply the anaesthetic, and Mr.
Brentano to lend a hand with the isolating valves."
"She's not hurt?" asked Calver anxiously.
"Not phsically. She'll not even have a hangover."
"There
are more and deeper hurts than the physical." whispered Calver.
"And if she isn't hurt," growled Bendix, "it will be no thanks to either of you."
They waited in silence while Lloyd went to
fetch the cutting torch.
XV
Calver
kept to his own quarters,
seeing nobody unless required to do so on ship's business. He was thinking too
much and he was drinking too much. He hoped that the drinking would inhibit his
thought processes, but it did not. He was thinking too much and he was
remembering too much, harking back to the old days before the skein of his
life became so hopelessly tangled. He could not blame Jane for this, but
neither could he blame Sonya. He tried to blame himself, but even this he found
difficult. He had acted as he had acted because he was himself, Derek Calver, his personality the resultant of his years of
experience both in deep space and on various planetary surfaces. He had reacted
to external stimuli as surely as the dogs—still famous after how many
centuries?—which had been the subjects of the experiments made by the ancient
Russian Pavlov. Old Doc Malone came to see him.
"Derek," said the ship's physician,
his usually jovial face grave, "we have to land Jane."
"Where?" asked Calver, sipping from
his bulb of brandy.
"You're the navigator."
"It will mean delay," said Calver.
The doctor exploded. "For the love of
all the odd gods of the galaxy, man, snap out of it! The Outsiders—if there are
any Outsiders—have been waiting for centuries, or millenia.
There's no urgency. A few weeks, or months, are neither here nor there. If you
keep- Jane cooped up aboard this ship a minute longer than you have
to, I'll not answer for the consequences."
Calver squeezed out the last of the brandy from the
bulb and toosed it towards the disposer. It missed
and drifted aimlessly in the air of the cabin, a tiny, deflated, crumpled balloon. The doctor looked at it and looked at a half dozen or so of its predecessors. He said, "This was a happy
ship. Now she's bound to hell in a handbasket."
"Is she?" asked Calver, without much
interest.
"Damn it all, you're the Master. Take charge, can't you?"
"I am in charge. And all my officers are highly efficient."
"Your Catering Officer is not. If it's
of any interest at all to you—which I'm beginning to doubt—she's been suspended
from her duties, and Tanya Brentano's taken over."
"That explains the Slavic flavor to the
cuisine," murmured Calver. "I was rather
wondering. But why?"
"Because, Captain, none of us want to
wake up in the morning to find ourselves dead of poisoning. You may be
surprised to learn that it's neither you nor your popsy
that's being blamed for the present state of affairs, but your wife. If she'd
taken a kitchen knife to either you or Sonya everybody would have said that
she was quite justified, but she didn't. Instead she tried to hit at you
through the ship, thereby hazarding the lives of all on board. So nobody loves
poor Jane, and poor Jane loves nobody. All of which makes any sort of cure
quite impossible as long as she remains in this tin coffin."
"Cure for what?" asked Calver. "You assured me that the anaesthetic
gas you used was perfectly safe."
"And so it is safe. It did no harm at all to her, either physically
or mentally, What did the harm was the period of
emotional stress which, under the circumstances, is continuing, and then
staring too long into those damned, uncanny gyroscopes. I've always been scared
of the bloody things myself."
"Have a drink," offered Calver, extending a long arm to his locker.
"I'd like one, but I'm not having one
with you, Derek. Not now. I'll not encourage you. Alcohol's a good staff, but a poor crutch, and you're making too much of a crutch of it."
"Am I?"
"You are. Now, just leave that bulb in the cabinet and talk things
over sensibly. We have to deviate from our trajectory, and it's up to you to
decide where we deviate to. We have to land Jane so that she may receive proper
treatment and attention."
"Of course," Calver
pointed out, "if we deviate and make for the nearest port, it might be
better to keep Jane on board and pay off Sonya."
"It would not. The ship holds too many
memories, unhappy ones, for Jane. Furthermore, I haven't the drugs and the apparatus,
even if I knew how to use them. You know as well as I do that ship's doctors
are never able to keep up with the latest advances in any field of medicine.
Too, I'll admit that I want to get to the bottom of this Outsider mystery as
much as you do and I realize that Sonya, with her Survey Service experience,
will be very useful indeed."
"I thought," said Calver, "that everybody hated her guts, everybody but
me, that is."
"That might have been the case at
first," admitted Malone. "But she's a good Chief Officer, and now
that she's keeping out of your hair—or are you keeping out of hers? She's
proving herself to be a good shipmate. She's got the women eating out of her
hand now, and that helps a lot."
"So she's poisoned their minds against Jane," said Calver.
"She has not, Derek. She's frank and
honest, and has made it quite plain that she operates according to her own code
of morals and that she's never been in the habit of picking anything up unless its been cast aside by its
rightful owner."
"I suppose I was cast aside," interjected Calver.
Malone ignored this. He went on, "One
result has been, of course, that all the wives have made it quite plain that
each of them considers her husband to be the most marvelous man in the
universe. Which hasn't been at all a bad thing for the
husbands."
"That's what Jane
should have done," said Calver.
"Precisely. That's what Jane should have done, and then we shall all have been
spared a lot of trouble. But Jane is Jane."
"Jane is Jane,"
agreed Calver, "and I wouldn't want her
changed."
"Wouldn't you,
now?"
"H'm. I
suppose I could suggest a few improvements. . . . If she were
a little less possessive, for example. I'm inclined to think that her
possessiveness has been the real cause of most of the trouble."
"Go on," urged Malone. "Go on."
"It's a pity that we haven't a couch in here," said Calver wryly, "although it's not really required in
free fall, is it? But 111 go on. Yes, she's very possessive. And I think she
was jealous—is jealous—of the Outsiders as much as of Sonya. Women who get
married and become domesticated when they're past their first youth often are
that way."
"Go on," said Malone. "Go on.
And just study in your spare time and work for a degree or so in medicine and
you'll be able to go ashore as a psychiatrist."
Calver grinned. "That's far, very far, from my
intentions. But you know as well as I do that anybody who has served for a long
time in passenger ships is bound to acquire a rough and ready working knowledge
of psychology."
"Then why the hell haven't you used
it?" demanded Malone.
"Because," admitted Calver, "I've been too lazy, or too cowardly, or both,
to use this knowledge in my dealings either with myself or with my nearest and
dearest."
"But there's hope for you yet," encouraged Malone.
"Thank you."
"Now,
Derek, listen to me. I know you're the Captain and I'm only the ancient, barely
competent quack. I admit that I couldn't take a ship from Point A to Point
B—come to that, neither could you without the help of your assorted
technicians—but I've knocked around the galaxy for rather more years than you
have. And there's one firm conclusion I've come to; slinging blame around never
serves any useful purpose. No, not even when you blame yourself. But . . . but
you should know yourself, and, as far as it is possible, know others. And the
more you know, the less youTl be inclined to
blame."
"I have been thinking along those lines," admitted Calver.
"Good. Then you've made a start. And I
hope that you'll be able, now, to land Jane to a hospital without feeling too
much of a heel about it. And if you want to sleep with your blonde popsy, do so, as long as the ship doesn't suffer. Just be
yourself. You're not a bad sort of a bastard, when all's said and done."
"But it's all so ... so
callous." objected Calver.
"I suppose it is. But remember this—in
all the millenia of man's recorded history it's been
the sentimentalists, the nobly self-sacrificing types, who've done the most
damage. Sonya's selfish and honest about it, but she's done far less damage to
this ship and this enterprise than you have done."
"I'll do some more thinking on those
lines," promised Calver.
"Do just that, but don't brood. And now,
if you don't mind, I'll be taking that drink. I've earned it."
"I'll have one with you," said Calver, "and then I must get up to Control to see
about this deviation."
XVI
Slowly, slowly, The Outsider dropped down to her berth at Port Forlorn. It
was unfortunate, thought Calver, sitting glumly in
the captain's chair in the control room while Sonya Verrill
handled the ship, that Lorn
had been the most suitable planet to which to deviate, in terms of both
distance and medical facilities. It was unfortunate, he thought, and then
reproved himself for his egocentricity. He knew how he was feeling, but how was
Jane feeling? It must be worse for her.
For Lom held so
many memories, too many memories. Lom was the world
upon which it had all started: his entering the Rim Runners' service, his
signing on the Articles of Forlorn Lady, his
first meeting with Jane. And now the ship was gone, lost off Eblis during her attempt to salvage the Trans-Galactic
Clipper Thermopylae—and MacLean, who had been her Mate, was
gone—killed in a drunken brawl on Tharn. And Captain
Engels was gone, his tired old heart having ceased to beat during the hurricane
on Mellise.
And now Jane was going.
Sonya was saying something.
"Yes?" asked Calver,
snapping out of his morbid reverie. "Do you wish to take over now,
Captain?" "No thank you, Miss Verrill.
You've done a good job so far."
And
hasn't she just? he
thought. Then—No, that's
unfair. She's been no more than the catalyst, happening along at the right
moment—or the wrong one. If I hadn't been so willing to be
led astray. . . . And if Jane had tried to hold me in
a more intelligent manner.
He stared out through the viewports to the uninviting scene below, to
the vista of barren hills and mountains scarred by mine workings, to the great
slag heaps that were almost mountains themselves, to the ugly little towns,
each one of which was dominated by the tall, smoke-belching chimneys of
factories and refineries, to the rivers that, even from this altitude, looked
like sluggish streams of sewage.
He heard Sonya swear, heard her mutter, "A cross wind, blast
it."
He said, "It's always windy on Lom, and the wind is always cold and dusty and stinking
with the fumes of burning sulphur."
Brentano said, "What a pity we have to
leave Jane on a world like this."
"Doc assured me,"
Calver told him stiffly, "that the facilities here
for dealing with any form of space neurosis are as fine as those anywhere in
the galaxy."
Port Forlorn was close now, too close for
further conversation, the dirty, scarred concrete apron rushing up to meet
them. The Outsider dropped through a swirling cloud of
coruscating particles, the dust raised by her back-blast and fired to brief
incandescence. She touched, sagged tiredly, her structure creaking like old
bones. The sudden silence, as the rockets died, seemed unnatural.
Sonya Verrill broke it. "Secure all,
Captain?"
"Secure all," he said.
"That looks like the ambulance," stated Brentano.
"Will you go down to the airlock, Mr. Brentano, to see to the
arrangements?" said Calver.
The others left the control room. He was alone with Sonya
She said, a little bitterly, "I suppose you're blaming me."
He said slowly, "No. I'm not sure that I
blame myself, even." He shrugged. "Life's a mess, really. You can
want too much, and when you get it it's no use to you. No use at all."
She told him, "If you like, Derek, I'll drop off here."
"That will solve nothing, Sonya."
He grinned wryly. "After all, we still have to find the Outsiders. And as
you pointed out, some time ago, you have Survey Service experience." More
to himself than to her he added, "Might as well
save something out of the wreck."
"There are times," she whispered,
"when I hate you. And this is one of them. You know that I want to find
whatever's out there as much as you do, for my own reasons. But . . ." She
flared suddenly, "Damn it all, there are decencies."
The intercom phone buzzed. Calver picked up the instrument. "Yes," he said
after a pause. "Yes. I'll be right down " His
face, when he turned back to Sonya, was old and strained.
Sonya said, "Derek, if it will help at
all, tell her that I'm leaving here."
He demanded, "What
will that solve? The Mannschenn Drive is as much
responsible for her state as any emotional strain. She has to have proper
attention, ashore. It is quite out of the question for her to remain on
board."
"But for her to know that the ship has
blasted off from Port Forlorn, with myself still a
member of the crew."
"We need you," said Calver. "And we need your experience. This isn't an
ordinary commercial voyage, as you have already pointed out."
The telephone buzzed again.
"Are
you afraid to say goodbye to her?" asked the girl.
"No," he snapped. He spoke sharply
into the instrument. "Yes, Mr. Brentano. I'm on my way."
He left the control room and took the elevator down to the after
airlock. Brentano was there, and Doc Malone, engaged in conversation with the
Port Doctor. And there were two white-coated orderlies standing by the
stretcher upon which was the blanket-shrouded form of Jane. Calver
knew that she was drugged and wondered if she were conscious. He found himself
hoping that she was not, and hated himself for his cowardice.
Her eyes opened and her white face turned to him.
"Derek," she said in a dull voice.
"Jane," he said.
She said, "I'm . . . sorry . . ."
She formed her words with an effort, her voice seeming to come from very far
away. "But you can . . . find the Outsiders ... It means so much ...
to you . . . more than . . . me . . . more than . . . Sonya . . ."
"No more than you," he lied.
"But ...
it does . . . otherwise . . She managed a brief
flicker of a smile. "Well, my dear . . . good luck . .
He said, "Sonya is willing to leave off here."
"No . . ." she murmured. Then, in a stronger voice, "No. You must have ... a good . . .
Mate . . . We've all put so much into this . . . expedition ... It must have ... a chance of . . . success ..."
"Derek," Malone broke in,
"this is doing my patient no good at all. See her again in hospital,
before we blast off. But I insist that she be taken ashore without further
delay."
Calver took Jane's hand in his. She did not return
the pressure. He said, "We'd better do as Doc says. But I shall be seeing
you before we shove off."
"If . . . you want to . . ." she whispered.
"Jane," he said inadequately.
And then he had to relinquish her hand, and the white-coated attendants
were wheeling the stretcher down the ramp to the waiting ambulance.
XVII
As soon
as the formalities
consequent upon the ship's unscheduled arrival had been dealt with, Calver hurried ashore, taking a cab from the spaceport to
the hospital. He had not wasted time by changing out of uniform, which made
things easier for him as a visitor arriving after official visiting hours. But
his visit did little to allay his fears, the anxiety that was increasing as the
hour set for departure approached. He was allowed to see Jane, but she could
not see him. He could look at her through the thick glass of an observation
window, could stare through into the cold chamber in which her motionless body
was stretched on the white bed, and that was all.
"Narcotherapy,
Captain," the overly cheerful ward Sister told him. "The best cure
for any form of space neurosis, even Recession Cafard.
When your wife wakes up she'll be as healthy and happy as ever."
"And when," he asked, "will that be, Sister?"
"That's entirely up to Dr. Wilcox. He's
taken full charge of the case. He wants to see you before you leave."
"I want to see him," said Calver.
He gazed through the icy glass at Jane. Her face was as white as the
sheet that covered her. He could detect no respiratory motion. And he wanted
desperately, absurdly, to bring her to life with a kiss, to warm her body with
his own. But until matters were resolved, one way or another, there would be
little point in restoring her to consciousness.
He looked long and longingly at Jane and
then, suddenly, realized that he was envying her. But ...
He asked abruptly, "Do they dream?"
"Do who dream?" said the Sister.
"The patients. The people who're undergoing this narcotherapy . . ."
"I ...
I don't know." She looked archly up into the face of the tall spaceman.
"It could be rather . . . pleasant."
"Perhaps," said Calver.
He quoted:
To sleep, perchance to dream, Ay, there's the rub . . .
"What was that, Captain?"
"Just something that a
Prince of Denmark was supposed to have said once."
"Denmark? Where's that? As far as I
know, the only human royalty in the galaxy is in the Empire of Waverley."
"It doesn't matter," said Calver. Then, "Thank you, Sister. And do you think
that Dr. Wilcox will see me now?"
"I'll take you right up," replied the girl.
The doctor was too professional, too . . .
inhuman. He was, decided Calver, a biological
engineer rather than a physician, far too prone to regard a sick man or woman
merely as a malfunctioning machine. It's just as well, thought Calver, that in space we get only the relative
failures of the medical profession. This man would be as efficient as all hell,
but he'd be a lousy shipmate.
The stiffly white-clad man looked coldly at Calver across the gleaming expanse of his desk top and
said, "Please be seated, Captain." He pulled upon a drawer, brought
out a folder, and glanced at its contents. "Yes. Your medical officer told
me something of the background of the case. Mrs. Calver
looked too long at your Interstellar Drive Unit while it was in operation, and
as a result her mental balance is upset."
"And how long will the cure take?"
asked Calver. "How long will she be sleeping? As
you may have heard, this is not a commercial voyage that we are making, and I
can hold the ship."
"I'm sorry, Captain. I cannot give you a
definite answer. The data has yet to be processed and evaluated." Calver said, "Surely you can give me some idea."
The doctor regarded the spaceman over his steepled
fingers. "Captain," he said, "I take it that you contemplate
being by the patient's bedside when she is awakened." "Too
right," Calver told him.
"Has it never occurred to you, Captain,
that there are times, even in marriages in which both partners have led
strictly moral lives, when loathing ousts love? And in your case. . . ."
He picked up the folder, looked at it with a certain distaste. "Your
Medical Officer, I fear, is too loyal to his captain ever to make a good
doctor. However, I was able to obtain all the background details from Mrs. Calver before she was put into the deep sleep—although she,
too, evinced what, in my opinion, was an unearned loyalty."
"You used drugs, of course," said Calver.
"Of course. And, frankly, I was shocked by what I
learned. However," he went on, "morals are no concern of mine."
He did not add the word "unfortunately," but Calver,
watching the cold, narrow face, knew that he was thinking it.
"So?" asked Calver.
"So in my opinion, Captain, it would do
little to improve my patient's chances of complete recovery if she awoke to see
you."
"You don't approve of my conduct, I take
it?"
"No/'
"Are you married, Doctor?" asked Calver. "Your impertinent query has no bearing upon
the case, Captain."
"But
it has on your attitude." Calver got to his
feet. "I take it, then, that you can give me no definite date."
"That is so."
"I suppose I can take a second
opinion?" "And a third if you wish, Captain. And a fourth. And a good day to you."
Malone was waiting for Calver
in the entrance lobby of the hospital. He said, "I knew you'd be seeing
Wilcox, so I hung on until you were through."
"I've been seeing Wilcox," said Calver grimly.
"A good man,"
Malone told him. "One of the best in his field. Brilliant. But ..."
"But what?" demanded Calver.
"Look, Doc, I've no intention of leaving Jane in his hands if there's any
doubt—"
"There's always doubt," said
Malone. "But there's less of it with Wilcox than with anybody else. He's
so damn' competent that everybody wonders what he's doing here, on this one
horse planet away to hell and gone on the edge of the ultimate night. But he
likes the Rim worlds. And he hates people—as people. Patients, as far as he's
concerned, are no longer people." He laid his hand on Calver's
sleeve. "But this is no place to talk. Too drafty
altogether. And the sun's well over the yardarm."
"I should be getting back to the ship," said Calver.
"What for?" demanded the old
doctor. "You've a bunch of good officers; they can see that she's all
buttoned up for deep space without your hovering over them and getting in their
hair."
Calver allowed himself to be steered across the
road to the nearest bar. He relaxed a little in the form-fitting chair by the
low table and allowed Malone to dial the order. With the glass of whisky in his
hand he relaxed a little more.
He said, "I'm still thinking of holding the ship here until Jane's
recovery. If the other shareholders are willing, that is."
Malone said, "What do you take me for, Derek? That was the first
point that I raised with Wilcox, and he, as you know, advises strongly against
it. And he has something there. When we return, loaded with honor and glory,
things might be different. Better."
"Honor and
glory." Calver laughed mirthlessly. "You know, Doc, now that
we're on the last lap I wonder if it's been worth it."
Malone dialed again. He said, "Somebody,
some time, had to find out what was behind all the Outsider legends. And it
might as well be us."
Calver looked at his watch. "After this drink
we'd better be on our way back to the ship."
"But
what's the hurry, Derek? This may be our last chance for a drink ashore for one
helluva long time, and we may as well make the most
of it. I always maintain that no liquor tastes as it should out of a drinking
bulb in free fall. And grown men were never meant to take their alcoholic
nourishment out of feeding bottles."
Calver ignored this. "Doc," he said abruptiy, "now that you've seen Wilcox and know what
the treatment is, what do you think of Jane's
chances?"
"Very good. I'll even go so far as to say
excellent."
"You mean that?"
"Have you ever known
me to lie to you, Derek? Even white lies?"
"No."
"Then let's have another drink to Jane's recovery."
Calver looked at his watch again. "And then we
must go."
"But what's the hurry, man? It's quite
pleasant here, and you and I haven't had a real chance to talk things over,
away from the ship, for quite some time. And by things I'm not meaning your own
somewhat involved personal muck-up. Let's talk shop."
"Yours or mine, Doc?"
"Yours, of course. After all, I'm the layman who's being
shanghaied away on this wild goose chase. I'd still like to know just how you
intend to find Maudsley's Outsiders."
"All we can do, Doc, is follow his sailing
directions. Put the two leading stars in fine, exactly astern, and then run for
fifty light years out."
"And there the Outsiders will be, waiting for you."
"There they will not be. As a spaceman
you should know, by this time, that everything is in motion relative to everything
else—and out here, on the Rim, the mathematicians still haven't been able to
plot the relative motions. And the Outsiders themselves are an unknown
factor."
"So if they aren't waiting for us at the
end of our fifty light year extension of radius, what then?"
"A search pattern, of
course. A three dimensional search pattern."
"Radar should help."
'Of
course. But
the trouble is that radar is useless while the Drive's in operation. I'll try
to put it into words of one syllable for you. The principle of radar is no
more—and no less—than the accurate measurement of time, the interval between
the emission of a radio pulse and its reception after it's been bounced back by
the target. But the Mannschenn Drive does funny
things to time, as we all know. Its principle is Tempora
Precession. So, putting it crudely, the two don't mix."
"H'm ... I think I can see that. But surely
there's some sort of gadget, some sort of detection device that can be used
while the Drive's running."
"There is, the Mass Proximity Indicator. It was developed by the
Survey Service. Its use isn't restricted to the Federation naval forces, but
the Federation high brass has made sure that it's very, very expensive."
"What about Faraway
Quest?" asked
Malone.
"Yes. She's got one. I don't know what
strings Grimes pulled to get it. As a matter of fact, the last time we were
here, I tried to persuade him to hire me the thing—it's in Rim Runners' store
now, gathering dust—but he conveyed the impression that he'd be willing to let
me have his right arm, but not the M.P.I. Oh, well, if the late Mr. Maudsley managed without one, we can."
"It would be a handy thing to have, all
the same," said Malone.
"Too right it would." Calver made as though to stop Malone as he dialed for
another round, then changed his mind. "I'll not say that it would wash out
the necessity for a search pattern entirely, but it would help a lot. The most
annoying part of it all is that Grimes flatly refuses to admit that there's any
substratum of truth in the Outsider legends. If he thought that we should find
something, he'd play."
"He can be very pigheaded," said Malone.
"You're telling me." Calver looked at his watch again. "And after this
drink we'll pay our bill and go."
When, at last, they boarded a cab for the
return to the ship, Calver was beginning to feel
suspicious. The effects of the alcohol were wearing off, and it seemed to him
that Malone was fighting a strong delaying action. The doctor had thought of all
sorts of last minute shopping and was insisting on making his purchases in
out-of-the-way establishments. But eventually, Carver's patience having worn
dangerously thin, they were driving through the spaceport gates.
And—"What the hell's been going on?"
exploded Calver as the vehicle rounded the comer of a
tall warehouse and the ship came into view.
There was the giant traveling crane in
position, the end of its jib feet clear of The Outsider's stem. High on the hull, at control room
level, there was the flaring blue incandescence of welding torches. Clustered
around the vaned landing gear was a small fleet of
Rim Runner maintenance and repair trucks.
"What the hell's been going on?" he
demanded again. "You'll find out," said Malone smugly.
The cab pulled up at the airlock ramp. A
young man marched smartly down the incline and saluted with a flourish. He was
wearing a Chief Officer's uniform, but the badge on his cap bore the winged
wheel of Rim Runners.
"Vickery, sir," he snapped. "Miss Verrill's relief. Everything's
in hand, and we shall be ready for space as soon as
the welding's been completed and tested."
"Mr. Vickery," said Calver coldly, "report to me in my cabin please."
"Derek," broke in Malone, "I
suggest that you let Mr. Vickery cany on with his
job, for the time being. I'll do the explaining."
XVIII
"Well,
Doctor?" asked Calver stiffly, officially.
"This
will come as rather a shock to you, Captain," said Malone.
"Rather a shock? Really, Doctor, you
excel at the art of masterly understatement. I return on board expecting to
find my ship buttoned up for space, and I'm met at the airlock by a brand new
Chief Officer whom I wouldn't know from a bar
of soap, and I find that all sorts of unauthorized repairs have been put in
hand during my absence."
"No repairs," Malone told him. "Just an addition. A farewell gift
from Sonya."
"Yes. Sonya. Miss Verrill. Why did she leave, and by whose
authority?"
"The Purser made up her wages and, quite
legally, the Second Mate signed her discharge."
"All right. I'll be having a word with Mrs. Bendix and Mr. Brentano later. But why did she leave?"
"Because she's a
woman.
Because she's a member of the oldest trade union, the oldest
lodge of all. When it came to a real
showdown she was on Jane's side—more than any of us men were. She talked
matters over with me, and we agreed that if Jane learns, when she breaks
surface, that Sonya did not accompany you, it will do much for Jane's state of
mind. It could easily make all the difference." He paused. "And even
now that the Rim worlds are independent of the Federation, the Survey Service
still draws a lot of water out here. She was able to talk
Commodore Grimes into releasing young Vickery for the expedition."
"An inexperienced Chief Officer."
"He's not. And he's had far more
experience on this class of vessel than Sonya ever had."
"Even so, Sonya's got Survey Service
experience. Exploration . . ."
"And so has young Vickery," went on Malone patiently.
"Not actually in the Survey Service, the Federation Survey Service—but he
was Second Mate on Faraway
Quest the last time that
Grimes took her out on his own survey work. He's experienced all right. Make no
mistake about that. And he'll be able to look after Sonya's farewell gift to
you."
"What the hell do you mean?" demanded Calver.
The old doctor gestured towards the Captain's
desk. "There's a letter waiting for you. From Sonya.
You'd better read it before you start ramping through the ship blowing your
top. I'll leave you to it." He got to his feet. "And I think that it
will put you in a somewhat better frame of mind."
When Malone was gone Calver picked up the envelope. It was addressed to him in
Sonya's bold, almost masculine hand. He tore it open and extracted the folded
sheets of paper. He hesitated before reading the letter. What had Sonya to say
to him, and what was the mysterious farewell gift about which Malone had been
blathering? And there was the faintest suggestion of the perfume that the girl
had always worn hovering around the paper. . . . Calver
shrugged. And so what? Everything, it seemed, was over
now, and he was glad, and he was sorry. But Jane's recovery was all that there
was of any importance now, and he would always be grateful to Sonya for doing
what she could to ensure it.
He opened the letter. He read:
"Dear Derek,
"I'm sorry that I wasn't around to see
your expression when you returned to the ship, to find me gone and all sorts of
mysterious works in progress around the sharp end. Frankly, I'm sorry that I
wasn't around. Period. But you can see, you must see that it had to be this way. I want happiness,
and that knowledge would have poisoned everything for us. With all her faults
Jane is far too fine a person to be handed the dirty end of this particular
stick. As a woman, I can imagine all too well what it would have been like for
her to be revived from that deep freeze to the knowledge that you and I were
out beyond the stars together, with all that that implies. As things are, I
shall make sure that she is told that I left the ship here, in Port Forlorn.
Just one last thing I ask of you—that you write to me and tell me what it is
that you find. You know why it's important to me.
"But I have made one last contribution
to the venture. I went to beard Commodore Grimes in his den. He's not a bad old
bastard—a bit gruff, but susceptible to feminine charm.
And I turned on the charm, believe me. Olga Popovsky the Beautiful Spy, in person, singing and dancing.
And I got what I wanted. "For you.
"As you know, this Faraway Quest of his is his real sweetheart. The best
isn't too good for the bitch. She's got gear that's not all that common in the
Survey Service. She's got a Mass Proximity Indicator. Or, to be more precise,
she had one. If all has gone according to plan, by the time you're able to read
this the instrument will already have been installed in your control room—and
an officer who's conversant with the workings of the brute will have taken my,
place. The way I was able to swing things, the Indicator was never purchased
outright by Rim Runners, was only on hire from the Survey Service. And as the
Service's senior (and one and only)representative in
Port Forlorn I was able to bring just a little pressure to bear.
"But I was just kidding as far as that's
concerned. It was sales talk more than pressure. I told him that the Survey
Service is interested in the Outsider legends, and after I'd proved to him that
poor Bill Maudsley was one of our officers he was
willing to admit that there might be something in the stories after all. And
then I really went to town. The Outsiders,' I said, 'are, after all, on the
back doorstep of the Rim worlds. And yet you're letting private interests
investigate something that might be of vital importance to you.'
"By this time he was toying with the
idea of commissioning Faraway
Quest, but she's in the
throes of quadrennial survey and refit. I mentioned the Quest's Mass Proximity Indicator, and he said that
even if he were willing to let you have it, it was far too expensive and
delicate a piece of equipment to be handled and maintained by untrained personnel.
I told him that the solution was obvious—to lend you an officer as well as the
instrument. That way, I pointed out, the Rim worlds would have a representative
along on the expedition. And so, after a lot more talk on this and that, it was
decided. My last official act as Chief Officer was to sign, in the absence of
the Master, the contract. It's not a bad one. You hire the Indicator for a
nominal fee of $1.00 (Rim currency) per mensem
(Galactic standard) and Mr. Vickery is directly responsible, to Commodore
Grimes, for its operation and maintenance. On the other hand, you are to allow
Mr. Vickery to make full observations of anything worth observing and to make
his report to the Commodore. But don't forget that the Federation Survey
Service, as represented by myself, has now pulled out, so you're no worse off
than you were before. Anyhow, Julia has the contract with all the other ship's
papers, so you'll be able to check it all for yourself when you get around to
it. "And so much for business.
"You needn't worry, Derek. I'm not going
all slushy on you. Perhaps in one of the alternative universes we're shipmates
forever and all the rest of it, but not in this one. This, as far as we're
concerned, is the end of the penny section. Please don't think that I'm not
sorry. I am—more so, perhaps, than you will ever know. But, things being as
they are, this is the only way. You see that, don't you? This is the only way.
"So,
darling, look after yourself. And all the best of luck, always.
Your Sonya."
So,
thought Calver, this is it. She's right, of course. She's
right. But . . .
He
sat there, staring at the letter. He started to crumple it up, intending to
throw it into the disposal chute. Then he changed his mind and carefully
smoothed the sheets out again, stowing them in the top drawer of his desk. As
he was doing so Malone, after briefly rapping on the door, entered the room.
"So you know
now," he said.
"Yes. I know."
"She was a good Chief
Officer," said Malone.
"Yes," agreed Calver.
"She's good." In
many ways, he
thought.
"I shall rather miss her," said
Malone. "And I," said Calver.
"But Vickery's a good lad," went on
the doctor. "He's taken charge quite well, and at short notice."
Somebody was tapping at the door. "Come
in," called Calver.
It was the new Mate. He stood there at
attention, his cap under his arm. He reported, "New installation
completed, sir. Hull airtight. Vessel
ready for deep space in all respects."
"I hope you're right, Mr. Vickery," said Calver
tiredly.
In his somehow deflated mood he did not feel
like making any personal inspections.
XIX
And so The Outsider lifted from Port Forlorn, climbed on her
thundering jets through the smog-filled sky to the cleanliness of outer space.
In her control room the Captain and his officers made their calculations, independently
feeding data into the computor, checking and
rechecking, then put the ship on to the trajectory that would bring them to
within half a light year of Kinsolving's Sun. They
ran under Interstellar Drive, with the warped, convoluted lens of the galaxy
on their port hand and the Outside emptiness to starboard. They wondered,
inevitably, what that aching nothingness held and they talked, often, of the
drunken, frightened Maudsley and of the stories and
legends that were part of the culture of the Rim worlds. Vickery, at first, had
been skeptical but Calver could tell that after only
a few days he was as eager to participate in the solution of the mystery as the
rest of the crew.
At the appointed time the ship re-entered
normal space and time and the navigators congratulated themselves on the
accuracy of their work. Clear and distinct against the hazily glowing lens were
the lead stars, almost in line. A carefully calculated hop of only minutes'
duration, demanding—and getting—the utmost skill on the part of the Mannschenn Drive engineers, put The Outsider into position.
Directional gyroscopes whined and slowly the ship swung about her short
axis. The lens was directly astem of her now. Calver and Vickery and Brentano checked and double checked,
even went out through the airlock in spacesuits to make visual observations.
Renault and Bendix stood by in their respective enginerooms, and Levine concentrated his mental powers on
the task of punching a message across the light years to his telepathic colleagues
in the Rim world spaceports.
The great rockets rumbled and flared,
building up acceleration and velocity, roared and flared and suddenly died.
And the singing, spinning, gleaming wheels of the Drive blurred and faded,
blurred and faded as they resumed their time-twisting precession. Astern of the
ship the Galactic Lens took on the appearance of an oddly crumpled Mobius Strip.
Ahead of her the Outside looked as it had
always looked— a great, wide expanse of sweet damn all.
For fifty light years they ran, but not, as Maudlsey had put it, with all hands choking on the stink of
frying lubricating oil from the Interstellar Drive Unit; Bendix
was too good an engineer for that. For fifty light years they ran, and then,
with the Drive shut down, fell outwards through the emptiness. Neither radar
nor the Mass Proximity Indicator gave warning of anything at all in their
vicinity. Levine, shut up in his cabin with his organic amplifier, reported
hearing only faint, routine signals from Rim world shipping and shore installations.
Elise Renault, who was at least as good an electronic technician and
communications officer as Brentano, was picking up nothing of greater interest
than signals that were, at latest, half a century old.
Ten light years west they ran, ten light
years in, twenty light years east and another twenty out. North they ran and
south. There were still no results, and Calver
ordered the volume of the search pattern increased. In the tank of the plotting
chart the glowing, skeletal cube expanded slowly— hour by hour, day by day,
week by week—and still there was nothing.
And, for the first time, Calver
was beginning to doubt, although he would not admit it. And with the doubt was
a growing bitterness. He had paid so heavily, and others had paid, for the
privilege of being able to lead this expedition. Because of his ambition Jane
had suffered, was suffering. And Sonya had suffered. And
himself. It would be the supreme irony if nothing was found.
But, he told himself unconvincingly, there
must be something.
The legends could not be
laughed off. Neither could the weird, ancient artifacts found, from time to
time, on the Rim worlds. And there was Maudsley, and
the manner of his dying. . . .
But. . .
The stars are jading, he thought. The stars are fading, and the caravan Starts
for the dawn of nothing. . . .
And Calver, sitting
alone in his cabin, grinned wryly at that oddly retentive memory of his, the
memory that could and would always dredge up tags of verse apposite to any and
every occasion.
And then—it was during the running of their
fourth search pattern—they found it. It was
a pulsing light and a flickering needle on the panel of the Indicator. It was a sense of vague unease in Levine's mind that worsened as the range
decreased. It, at last, was a growing blip on the radar
screen, but that was not until the Mannschenn Drive
had been shut down and the ship proceeding cautiously under rocket power.
They saw it at last, stared at it through the high powered telescope in the control room. It was faintly
self-luminous, and it was big, and seemingly metallic, and of far too irregular
of shape to be a ship—or to be a ship built by any race with a passion for
symmetry.
Cautiously, with carefully timed and
calculated rocket blasts, Calver nosed The Ovctsider in towards the . . . the wreck? . . . the derelict? He obtained readings of the mass of the thing
and gasped his disbelief. But his instruments were not lying, and he was able
to throw his ship into a tight orbit about it. Then, with the others, he stared
out through the ports at the fantastic structure—the domes and turrets, the
battlements and crenelations. It was like a huge castle. It was like a castle where no castle had any right to be.
"Levine," he called into the
telephone. "Levine, can you pick anything up? Is anyone there? Is anything
there?"
"There's something there . . ." The
Psionic Communications Officer's voice sounded
uneasy, frightened. "There's something there. Something.
But it's not human."
"We didn't expect it to be," said Calver.
"But . . . It's not alive, even . . ."
"Do you believe in ghosts?" asked Brentano suddenly.
"Look at the instruments," ordered Calver sharply. "That thing's too solid and has too
much mass to be a Rim ghost."
Vickery's voice was awed, subdued.
"Sir," he asked, "a boarding
party?"
"Yes, Mr. Vickery."
"Then
I'll call for volunteers, and get suited up myself."
Calver said, "I'm sorry, but you'll not be
going. You're the second in command. You will stay here,
standing by to render aid—or to get the hell out if you have to." He
added, more to himself than to the others, "I want to see what it is that
I've paid for."
Brentano said, "I'd better come with
you. You'll need somebody who knows something about electronics."
"And I," said Tanya Brentano.
"There may be work for a biologist."
"You'd
better stay here," her husband told her, "until we know whether or
not the thing is safe." "Like hell I will," she said.
Calver let them fight it out. He felt very lonely.
He should have been having a similar argument with Jane. Or
with Sonya.
XX
The boarding party did not leave, however, until after a great
deal of discussion, some of it acrimonious. Calver
argued that its composition was the concern of the Master, not that of a
meeting of shareholders. He managed at last to convince the others of the
legality of his stand, and made the point that it would be criminal folly to
leave the ship without a large enough crew to take her back to the Rim. He was
taking Brentano, he said, because of that officer's known versatility. He was
taking Tanya because she was not indispensable. If anything should happen to
her, Julia was quite capable of adding the Catering Officer's duties to her
own, and old Doc Malone had, more than once in the past, done duty as
Biochemist. Even so, he did not like having a woman along, but knew that Tanya
would prefer to face any risk side by side with her husband. •
Suited up, laden with equipment, the three of them left the airlock
together. Together they stood on The Outsider's pitted
shell plating, waiting for the circular door to close. The curve of the hull
hid the control room ports from them, but they knew that the little compartment
would be crowded, that all their shipmates would be waiting there to watch them
jet across the emptiness to the faintly glowing enigma hanging in the black sky.
"Captain to Chief
Officer," said Calver into his helmet microphone.
"We are outside."
"Chief Officer to
Captain. I
hear you, sir. Are there any further orders?"
"No, Mr. Vickery. You have my
instructions. Captain to boarding party. Are you
ready?"
"All ready," they replied.
"Then follow me."
He kicked the magnetic
soles of his boots clear of the plating and activated his suit reaction units.
He allowed himself briefly to wonder what it would be like to be lost out
there, alone in a suit and with the darkness, unbroken by the friendly stars,
all around him. He told himself at it would be no different from being lost
anywhere else in interstellar space; the chances of survival would be just the
same-infinitesimal.
The bulk of the . . . the thing loomed ahead of him. It had
seemed huge from the ship, but there had been no
yardstick for comparison. He had his yardsticks- now—the
spacesuited figures of Brentano and Tanya. If this
giant
construction were indeed a ship, then an Alpha Class
liner would serve as one of its smaller lifeboats. '
Skillfully using their
personal rockets, Calver and his two companions made
a feet first landing on a flat area of hull that was not cluttered with turrets
and sponsons and enigmatic antennae. Calver expected
the soles of his boots to take hold by their built-in magnetism, but they did
not. There was none of that odd stickiness experienced when a magnetic field is
employed as surrogate for gravity. And yet he did not bounce back into space
after the impact of the landing, but was maintained in place by a field that
could only be gravitational. It was even stronger than those wildly improbable
readings taken in the ship's control room.
"Captain to The Outsider." he called urgently. "This thing has some
sort of artificial gravity that's just been switched on. Adjust orbit
accordingly."
"What do you think I'm doing?" came Vickery's aggrieved reply. Calver
saw the flare of rocket drive at the stern of his distant ship. He waited for
the Chief Officer to get things under control. Then, "Sorry, sir,"
said Vickery in a more even voice. "That sudden gravitational surge took
me by surprise."
"And me," said Calver.
"Something," remarked Tanya
Brentano quietly, "is looking at us."
Calver turned, saw that two of the antennae, like
slender, flexible masts, had bent so that they were pointing at the boarding
party, and were following their movements.
"Mr. Vickery," said Calver,
"put Mr. Levine on the phone." There was a brief delay. As soon as Calver heard Levine's voice he said, "There's something
here, something intelligent. Are you sure that you can't pick up anything
definite?"
"Yes . . ." said Levine slowly.
"Yes . . . It's less vague now. . . . The uneasiness is still there. But
there's more now. There's curiosity, but it's unemotional .
, . And there's a sort of a hope."
"Is there any animosity?"
"No."
"Can you get through to . . . if?"
"I'm trying, Captain. I'm . . .
trying." Levine chuckled suddenly. "It's . . . like . . . Have you
ever tried to make love to a robot?"
"Have you, Derek?" asked Tanya Brentano.
He laughed, and heard the laughter of the
others. Levine's outrageous simile had broken the tension. Then he said
briskly, "It knows we're here. If it were hostile it could have dealt with
us by now. We're assuming that it's not, anyhow, and we're trying to find a way
in."
"Service," said Tanya. "With a
smile?"
With no betraying vibration
a circular doorway had opened. The three from the ship approached it
cautiously. They looked down into what was obviously an airlock. A short ladder
ran from its rim to a level deck below.
"Will you come into my parlor, said the spider to the fly?"
quoted Brentano in a dubious voice.
"To judge from what happened to Maudsley,"
said Calver, "the worst that can happen to us is
to be driven to drink. And it's happened to us before." He saw through the
transparency of the girl's helmet her expression of protest. "Sorry,
Tanya," he amended. "It's never happened to you." Mentally he
added, yet.
"Ill take the
risk," she said.
One by one, Calver in the lead, they dropped
into the chamber. Suddenly, smoothly, the door slid shut above their heads.
There were no visible controls for reopening it, but Calver
was not unduly worried. He and the others carried equipment that could bum or
cut through any known metal or alloy. What did worry him, however, was that
with the shutting of the door they had been cut off from radio communication
with the ship.
"The chamber's being filled with some
sort of atmosphere," said Brentano.
"And I've a hunch," Calver told him, "that it's our sort of atmosphere.
But we'll not risk taking off our helmets . . . But there's another door
opening. Shall we . . . ?"
"Of course," said Tanya Brentano.
"What did we come here for?"
"The lighting." whispered her
husband. "It's . . . odd. Not a globe or tube along that great long
alleyway, and yet it's like broad daylight. How do they do it?"
"That," said Tanya,
"is for you to find out. You're the electronics expert. Remember?"
Calver was only half listening to their amicable
bickering. He began to stride along the seemingly interminable alleyway.
Although the deck was of burnished metal—as were the sides and the deckhead—his booted feet made no sound. And even had he
been walking in a vacuum there should have been vibration, but there was none.
He looked down and saw his reflection, as clear as in a mirror. He looked to
the side and saw his reflection, with those of the others, in the walls,
stretching to infinity, an endless series of diminishing images. It was like
one of those mirror mazes found in amusement halls—but it was not amusing.
He walked, and the others walked with him.
Accustomed as they were to free fall they found the exercise tiring. Twice they
stopped, sitting down to rest and sipping water from their suit tanks. On the
second occasion they made a careful check of their air supply gauges, found that it would be all of six hours before it
would be necessary to connect up the spare bottles that they had brought with
them. Calver was tempted, even so, to sample the air
in the alleyway, but decided against it.
They walked, and they came at last to a door. Like everything else it was of
highly polished metal. For lack of any visual evidence to the contrary it could
have been no more than a bulkhead, but Calver knew that it was not. He knew that the alleyway had to lead to somewhere, and
that to have it leading to a blank wall would make no sense whatsoever.
"But why should it make sense?" he
whispered, puzzled. "Why should it make sense? Why should we assume that
our logic is the only logic, that our way of doing things is the only way of
doing things?"
But he was not surprised when the door opened.
Stiffly, like a robot, he walked into the
huge chamber beyond the door, the compartment that was more like a great cave
than any space aboard a ship, and . . .
XXI
7 hate her, thought Derek Calver.
7 hate her. His mother was out of the room, busy in the
kitchen. The boy glared at his baby sister gurgling happily in her cot, at the
little, drooling monster that had robbed him of the love and affection that
were his right. I hate
her, he thought again. He
got up from his chair, walked over to the cot, and struck the infant across the
chubby face with the magazine that he had been reading. He was back in his seat
before the first outraged wail broke the silence.
"Derek," demanded his mother,
picking up the bawling child, "what happened?"
"I don't know," he said. "I was reading."
"What are those marks on her face?"
"Where? Oh, I suppose she must have jumped around
and hit her face on the side of the cot." He went on in what he now knew
to be an insufferable manner, "In any case, mother, most parents send
their babies to the robot nursery."
"Bumble
beel Bumble bee! Fly back to your stinking hive,
bumble bee!" yelled the children.
The Shaara drone,
who had wandered away from his ship, away from
the spaceport environs, and who had imbibed sufficient whisky in several
taverns seriously to affect his powers of locomotion, tried to ignore them. But
he could not ignore the ill-favored mongrel dog, belonging to one of the boys
that, egged on by its master, faced the unhappy extra-Terrestrial, its ugly
face creased in a vicious snarl. The drone swiped the dog with one clawed
foreleg and then clumsily took to the air, flying only a few yards before
tumbling to the ground. He tried to walk, but the movements of his six legs
were ridiculously unco-ordinated. The dog nipped a
piece out of one trailing wing. He turned to defend himself, and this time
inflicted a wound so painful that the mongrel fled, yelping.
"He's hurt my dog!" screamed Derek Calver.
He picked up a stone and threw it. The others
followed his example. But the police arrived before any serious damage was
done.
"Cadet Calver," asked the Captain Commandant of the Academy
gently, "do you swear on your honor, as a probationary officer and as a
gentleman, that you played no part in last night's race brawl?"
"I
so swear," said Calver solemnly, thinking, After all, I was on the outskirts of the
crowd and I never even got a chance to kick the block bastard. ...
"You'll come back, Derek," pleaded the girl.
"Of course, darling," lied Fourth
Officer Derek Calver, secure in the knowledge that he
was to be promoted and transferred at the end of the voyage and that with any
luck at all he'd never be on the Polaris Sector run again.
"Mr. Calver,"
ranted the notoriously irascible Captain Jenkins, "never in all my days
in space have I had to push such a sloppily loaded
ship up through an atmosphere. You were in direct charge of the distribution of
mass. What have you to say?"
"There must be
something wrong with the Ralston, sir," said Second Officer Derek Calver. And there soon wiU be, he thought, if 1 can get my hands on it before the old
bastard makes his personal check.
"So you're quite
determined," whispered Dorothy Calver.
"Does this home I've made for you mean nothing to you? Do I mean nothing
to you? Don't you care what happens to the children?"
"No," replied Calver.
"I should have
realized," said his second wife bitterly, "that you can't make a silk
purse out of a sow's ear."
Calver tried to keep his temper under control. He
said, "I was Chief Officer of one of the Commission's big ships. I was
happily married with a family. I threw all that away so that I could marry you.
But I'm not, repeat not, going to be made over to please you. I'm a spaceman,
not one of those planet-bound puppies that you're always running around
with."
"Happily married?" she laughed.
"That wasn't what you told me. And you told me, too, that you were sick
and tired of deep space and that you'd be happy to stay on the one planet the
rest of your life, as long as you had me there with you. . . .
"Your trouble, Derek, is that you're
selfish. I've changed, in lots of ways, just to try to make you happy. You must
grasp the fact that adjustments by both partners are essential to a happy
marriage. But you won't adjust You'll never
adjust."
"I try to," he said.
"You say that you try to. You say this,
and you say that, you promise this and you promise that, but that's as far as
it ever goes. You're so conceited that you're quite convinced that Derek Calver is the end product of evolution, with no room for
improvement. . . . And let me tell you, my dear, that my father is getting just
a little restive and wondering why he should be paying an executive's salary to
a glorified office boy."
"My nose bleeds for your father,"
said Calver nastily. Then, "Where are you
going?"
"It's no business of
yours. If you must know, I've been asked to the Sandersons'.
And if you must know something more, Sylvia pleaded with me not to bring—I
quote— 'that drunken oaf of a spaceman'."
"What courteous friends you have,"
said Calver. "As courteous as you are,
darling."
"Get out!" she flared. "Get out!"
Both Calver and his
wife ignored the tawdry, frightened, little blonde who was struggling hastily
into her clothing. Calver, getting slowly out of the rumpled bed, said, "This is my
home."
"This," said his wife,
"was your home. But it's my apartment. And unless you're out of here
within half an hour, I'll call the police to have you evicted."
"If I had known," he said, "that you'd be home so
early."
"Get out, you no-good swinel" she said with cold vicious-ness.
Captain Derek Calver, with Jane Arlen at his side, stood in the Master's
cabin aboard the Trans-Galactic Clipper Thermopylae.
"Captain Calver,"
said Captain Hendriks, "my thanks are
inadequate."
"I did what I could, Captain," said Calver.
"At least," said Hendriks, "I shall do what I can, too. Sometimes,, in wrangles over salvage awards, the owners of the ships
involved are remembered and their crews, who have done all the work, are
forgotten. But I am not without influence."
"That aspect of the matter had never
occurred to me," said Calver.
"You must hate it out here," said Hendriks. "But you'll be able to return now, to the
warmth and light of the Centre."
"So we shall,"
said Calver with a mild amazement. "So we
shall."
And I shall be a rich man, he thought. 1 shall be rich, and no longer dependent on
the charity of Jane's father and perhaps, if she has not remarried, or even if
she has.
He turned his head slightly to look at the
other Jane, at Jane Arlen, his lover and loyal shipmate.
She'll
manage, he
thought. She'll
have her share of the salvage money. But perhaps money's not everything. . . .
His hand found Jane Arlen's and closed upon
it, and felt the answering warmth and pressure. "But I belong on the
Rim," he said. "We belong on the Rim."
And he despised himself for the smug nobility
with which he had made the gesture.
And as it went on he despised himself the
more. On the stage of his memory there were scenes played with Jane, and scenes
played with Sonya, and scenes played with both. And yet he was able to stand
outside and watch, and to pity as well as to despise, and, towards the end, to
understand. He was the creature of heredity and of environment. He was cruel at
times, and clumsy most of the time, but he had tried to act with a certain
bumbling honesty, had not been all bad all the time. . ..
To despise was wrong, and to pity was wrong. ...
Somehow he knew that.
Understanding was the goal, the only goal. He
would endeavour to understand his own behaviour, and Jane's behavior, and perhaps he would .be
able to bring her out here, and perhaps, when she had learned to face herself,
a fresh start could be made.
To understand, to face and to understand . .
.
To face, without fear, without contempt and
without pity ...
They were standing in the huge chamber, with
its oddly flowing lines and fantastic perspective—Calver
and Brentano and Tanya. Calver could see the faces of
the others through the transparencies of their helmets, pale and with lines of
strain that had not been there before, with the lines of strain still evident,
and yet at peace. Their eyes were the eyes of those who had looked at too much
in too short a time. Yet they both essayed a tremulous smile, and Calver smiled in answer. He saw how they were holding each
other tightly and he was briefly envious.
"I assume," he said, "that we
all went through the same experience."
"I always had rather a high opinion of
myself," whispered Brentano. "Until now."
"But what did it all mean?" murmured his wife.
"I think I know," said Calver. "I think I know—or I can guess. Or I can
remember. I can remember a story I read once—it was when I was passing through
a phase of reading every twentieth century author I could lay my hands on. This
was by a man called Wells, and its title was A Vision of Judgment. Wells imagined a judgment day, with all
living and all who had ever lived on Earth called by the last trump to face
their maker, to be tried and punished for their sins or, perhaps, to be
rewarded for their good deeds. Everyone had his session of hell as his naked
soul stood in full view of the multitude and the Recording Angel recited the
long, long catalogue of petty acts of meanness and spite. All the trivial (but
not so trivial) shabby things, all the things in which even the most perverted
nature could take no pride, no matter how much pride he took in some quite
spectacular wrong-doing."
"So you think that we have been
judged?" said Tanya slowly. "By whom, Derek?
And why?"
"And how?" demanded Brentano.
"There
are other doors opening," said Tanya. "There is machinery beyond them
. . . Apparatus . . ." "Dare we?" asked Brentano.
Yom dare, said the voice in their minds. You dare. The secrets are yours for the asking, to use as you will.
Soon, now, you will cross the gulf, and you will be welcome.
XXII
They,
the members of the
boarding party, were back aboard The Outsider, and
were discussing their experiences with their shipmates.
"From Bernhardt's
Nebula it must have come," said Cal-ver. "How long ago? I don't know,
but we shall be finding out. It's an intergalactic spaceship and, at the same
time, an electronic brain that makes anything built by ourselves
no more than a glorified abacus.
"And it's a quarantine station."
"A quarantine station?" echoed Vickery.
"Yes. And it's far more logical than any of ours. Ours are used
after travelers arrive at their destination, this one
is used before they set out. That's the idea I got, anyhow, and Tanya and
Brentano gained the same impression. And truly alien entities need not fear
biochemical infections; the destructive idea is the only one really
communicable disease of intelligent life. So this quarantine station screens
for that. Perhaps when Levine goes across with the next boarding party he may
be able to establish better rapport with the mind of the thing than we did, and
learn more than we have done. There's an utterly alien way of thought behind
their machines, for example, and what we take to be the Intergalactic Drive
Unit is altogether outside—outside, not
beyond—our technology.
"But the quarantine station . . .
"The way I see it is this. There's
intelligent life, highly intelligent life, on the worlds of Bernhardt's Nebula.
It could well be that their manned ships have already visited this galaxy from
time to time; after all, there is evidence. It could be, it seems to me, that
the people of the Nebula want to make contact with us; for trade, perhaps, or
cultural exchange, or just neighborliness.
^But. . .
"It could be that our
neighbors in this next galaxy are, to
all external appearances, horrible monsters,
some utterly alien life form, something so different as to be frightening, or
sickening, yet something that still has, under the repulsive surface, a very
real and warm humanity. After all, we've come across nothing yet in our own
galaxy on those lines. Every race with which we've come into contact has run
very much to one or another of the standard patterns— mammalian, saurian, arthropodal."
"But the quarantine station?" demanded the Mate again.
"I was coming to that, Mr. Vickery.
Please give me time. It was left here, out beyond the Rim—there may be
others—in the hope that with the development of interstellar flight it would be
discovered. It was left here to test the fitness of its discoverers to use the
treasures of scientific knowledge and technical know-how that it contains, to
build the ships capable of making the big crossing. We, the three of us, passed
the test without cracking. Had we cracked, there is litde
doubt that we should have been bundled outside as unceremoniously as Maudsley must have been—bundled outside with the memories
of the fear and the horror and some sort of post-hypnotic inhibition to stop us
from ever talking about it. It's possible that some of Maudsley's
crew did pass the test—but they died with Polar Queen.
"It is possible," he said,
"that some of you will not pass." He added, with a new humility,
"But if I did, there is little likelihood that any of you will fail.
"It's an ingenious test, and amazingly simple. It's . . . It's a mirror that's held up to you, in which you see . . . everything. Yes, everything. Things that you've forgotten and things that
you've wished for years that you could forget. After all, a man can meet any alien monster
without fear, without hate, after he has met and faced the most horrible
monster of all. . . .
"Himself."
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