LOST:
TWO MOONS
Something
had thrown Earth's scientists into an uproar—or rather, nothing had. Because suddenly there
was absolutely nothing where something very
definitely should have been.
Phobos and
Deimos, the two moons of Mars, had disappeared.
And
that was just the start of it. Before long, more of the solar system's moons
were gone . . . people on Earth were sinking out of sight into the ground . . .
and Earth's telepaths kept having strange dreams, full of foreboding. .. .
DR.
KOMETEVSKTS DAY is just one of the exciting, imaginative stories in this great
collection of stories by the Hugo-award-winning master of science-fiction,
Fritz Leiber. You'll also meet Elven,
the last of the Wild Ones, who carried his entire race in a locket; the varied
and strange creatures from all the stars, who walked silently across a strange
desert; Helen, the girl who was too beautiful and loving to be human—and
wasn't; and many more, all fascinating and wonderfully, frighteningly real. . .
.
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FRITZ
LEIBER attributes his
personal literary style to the influences of such diversified talents as Poe, Machen, Freud, Whitehead, Ibsen, Lovecraft, and Dunsany. A
former resident of Chicago, where he was for many years editor of Science Digest, he is currently residing in Los Angeles and
writing, among other things, the script-continuity of a leading science-fiction
comic strip.
His
stories have appeared in just about all the leading fantasy magazines, and he
has had several books to his credit, beginning with the 1947 short-story collection,
Night's Black Agents (Arkham House). Of
his own writing, he ended an article on the subject recently as follows:
"Writing for strangers is like an actor
being plunked down stage center in a baby spotlight, the theater otherwise
dark, and told to put on his act. He doesn't know what city he's in. He doesn't
know a thing about that audience out there in the shadows. He can't even be sure
they're human. Behind him the scrim rustles, there are footsteps in the second balcony, someone coughs hollowly in the wings, the draperies
flap in the box reserved for the Phantom.
"Sometimes I think I'm
writing for Martians.'*
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Table of Contents
DR. KOMETEVSKY'S DAY
THE BIG TREK
THE ENCHANTED FOREST
DEADLY MOON
THE SNOWBANK ORBIT
THE
SHIP SAILS AT MIDNIGHT
DR.
KOMETEVSKY'S DAY
BUT it's all predicted here! It even names this century for the next
reshuffling of the planets."
Celeste
Wolver looked up unwillingly at the book her friend Madge Camap
held aloft like a torch. She made out the ill-stamped title, The Dance of the Planets. There was no mistaking the time of its
origin; only paper from the Twentieth Century aged to that particularly nasty
shade of brown. Indeed, the book seemed to Celeste a brown old witch resurrected
from the Last Age of Madness to confound a world growing sane, and she couldn't
help shrinking back a trifle toward her husband Theodor.
He
tried to come to her rescue. "Only predicted in the
vaguest way. As I understand it, Kometevsky
claimed, on the basis of a lot of evidence drawn from folklore, that the
planets and their moons trade positions every so often."
"As if they were playing Going to
Jerusalem, or musical chairs," Celeste chimed in, but she couldn't make it
sound funny.
"Jupiter
was supposed to have started as the outermost planet, and is to end up in the
orbit of Mercury," Theodor continued. "Well, nothing at all like that
has happened."
"But
it's begun," Madge said with conviction. "Phobos
and Deimos have disappeared. You can't argue away
that stubborn little fact."
That
was the trouble; you couldn't. Mars' two tiny moons had simply vanished during
a period when, as was generally the case, the eyes of astronomy weren't on
them. Just some hundred-odd cubic miles of rock—the merest cosmic
fly-specks—yet they had carried away with them the security of a whole world.
Looking
at the lovely garden landscape around her, Celeste Wolver felt that in a
moment the shrubby hills would begin to roll like waves, the charmingly aimless
paths twist like snakes and sink in the green sea, the sparsely placed
skyscrapers dissolve into the misty clouds they pierced.
People
must have felt like this, she thought, when
Aristar-ches first hinted and Copernicus told them
that the solid Earth under their feet was falling dizzily through space. Only
it's worse for us, because they couldn't see that anything had changed. We
can.
"You
need something to cling to," she heard Madge say. "Dr. Kometevsky was the only person who ever had an inkling
that anything like this might happen. I was never a Kometevskyite
before. Hadn't even heard of the man."
She
said it almost apologetically. In fact, standing there so frank and
anxious-eyed, Madge looked anything but a fanatic, which made it much worse.
"Of
course, there are several more convincing alternate explanations . . ."
Theodor began hesitantly, knowing very well that there weren't. If Phobos and Deimos had suddenly
disintegrated, surely Mars Base would have noticed something. Of course there
was the Disordered Space Hypothesis, even if it was little more than the chance
phrase of a prominent physicist pounded upon by an eager journalist. And in any
case, what sense of security were you left with if you admitted that moons and planets might explode, or drop through
unseen holes in space? So he ended up by taking a different tack:
"Besides, if Phobos and Deimos
simply shot off somewhere, surely they'd have been picked up by now by 'scope
or radar."
"Two
balls of rock just a few miles in diameter?" Madge questioned.
"Aren't they smaller than many of the asteroids? I'm no astronomer, but I
think I'm right."
And of course she was.
She
swung the book under her arm. "Whew, it's heavy," she observed,
adding in slightly scandalized tones, "Never been microfilmed." She
smiled nervously and looked them up and down. "Going to a party?" she
asked.
Theodor's
scarlet cloak and Celeste's green culottes and silver jacket justified the
question, but they shook their heads.
"Just
the normally flamboyant garb of the family," Celeste said, while Theodor
explained, "As it happens, we're bound on business connected with the
disappearance. We Wolvers
E |
Tactically
constitute a sub-committee
of the Congress for the liscovery of New Purposes.
And since a lot of varied material comes to our attention, we're going to see
if any of it correlates with this bit of astronomical sleight-of-hand."
Madge
nodded. "Give you something to do, at any rate. Well, I must be off. The
Buddhist temple has lent us their place for a meeting." She gave them a
woeful grin. "See you when the Earth jumps."
Theodor
said to Celeste, "Come on, dear. We'll be late." But Celeste didn't
want to move too fast. "You know, Teddy," she said uncomfortably,
"all this reminds me of those old myths where too much good fortune is a
sure sign of coming disaster. It was just too much good luck, our
great-grandparents missing World III and getting the World Government started
a thousand years ahead of schedule. Luck like that couldn't last, evidently.
Maybe we've gone too fast with a lot of things, like space-flight and the Deep
Shaft and —" she hesitated a bit—"complex marriages. I'm a woman. I
want complete security. Where am I to find it?" "In me," Theodor
said promptly.
"In you?"' Celeste questioned, walking slowly.
"But you're
just one-third of my husband. Perhaps I should look for it in Edmund or
Ivan."
"You angry with me
about something?"
"Of course not. But a woman wants her source of security whole. In a crisis like this,
it's disturbing to have it divided."
"Well,
we are a whole and, I believe, indivisible family," Theodor told her
warmly. "You're not suggesting, are you, that
we're going to be punished for our polygamous sins by a cosmic catastrophe? Fire from heaven and all that?"
"Don't
be silly. I just wanted to give you a picture of my feeling." Celeste
smiled. "I guess none of us realized how much we've come to depend on the
idea of unchanging scientific law. Knocks the props from
under you."
Theodor
nodded emphatically. "All the more reason to get a line
on what's happening as quickly as possible. You know, it's fantastically
far-fetched, but I think the experience of persons with Extra-Sensory
Perception may give us a clue. During the past three or four days there's been
a remarkable similarity in the dreams of ESPs all over the planet. I'm going to
present the evidence at the meeting."
Celeste
looked up at him. "So that's why Rosalind's bringing Frieda's
daughter?"
"Dotty
is your daughter, too, and Rosalind's," Theodor reminded her.
"No,
just Frieda's," Celeste said bitterly. "Of course you may be the
father. One-third of a chance."
Theodor
looked at her sharply, but didn't comment. "Anyway, Dotty will be
there," he said. "Probably asleep by now.
All the ESPs have suddenly seemed to need more sleep."
As
they talked, it had been growing darker, though the luminescence of the path
kept it from being bothersome. And now the cloud rack parted to the east,
showing a single red planet low on the horizon.
"Did
you know," Theodor said suddenly, "that in Gullivers Travels Dean Swift predicted that better telescopes
would show Mars to have two moons? He got the sizes and distances and periods
damned accurately, too. One of the few really startling
coincidences of reality and literature."
"Stop being eerie," Celeste said
sharply. But then she went on, Those names Phobos and Deimos—they're Greek,
aren't they? What do they mean?"
Theodor
lost a step. "Fear and Terror," he said unwillingly. "Now don't
go taking that for an omen. Most of the mythological names of major and minor
ancient gods had been taken—the bodies in the Solar System are named that way,
of course—and these were about all that were available."
It was true, but it didn't comfort him much.
1 am
a God, Dotty was dreaming, and I want to be by myself and think. I and
my god-friends like to keep some of our thoughts secret, but the other gods
have forbidden us to.
A
little smile flickered across the lips of the sleeping girl, and the woman in
gold tights and gold-spangled jacket leaned forward thoughtfully. In her
dignity and simplicity and straight-spined grace, she
was rather like a circus mother watching her sick child before she went out for
the trapeze act.
I and my god-friends sail off in our great
round silver boats, Dotty
went on dreaming. The
other gods are angry and scared. They are frightened of the thoughts we may
think in secret. They follow us to hunt us down. There are many more of them
than of us.
As Celeste and Theodor entered the committee
room, Rosalind Wolver—a glitter of platinum against darkness—came in through
the opposite door and softly shut it behind her. Frieda, a fair woman in blue
robes, got up from the round table.
Celeste turned away with outward casualness
as Theodor kissed his two other wives. She was pleased to note that Edmund
seemed impatient too. A figure in close-fitting black, unrelieved except for
two red arrows at the collar, he struck her as embodying very properly the
serious, fateful temper of the moment.
He
took two briefcases from his vest pocket and tossed them down on the table
beside one of the microfilm projectors.
"I
suggest we get started without waiting for Ivan," he said. Frieda frowned
anxiously. "It's ten minutes since he phoned from the Deep Space Bar to
say he was starting right away. And that's hardly two minutes walk."
Rosalind instantly started
toward the outside door.
"I'll
check," she explained. "Oh, Frieda, I've set the mike so you'll hear
if Dotty calls."
Edmund
threw up his hands. "Very well, then," he said and walked over,
switched on the picture and stared out moodily.
Theodor
and Frieda got out their briefcases, switched on projectors, and began silently
checking through their material.
Celeste
fiddled with the TV and got a newscast. But she found her eyes didn't want to
absorb the blocks of print that rather swiftly succeeded each other, so, after
a few moments, she shrugged impatiently and switched to audio.
At
the noise, the others looked around at her with surprise and some irritation,
but in a few moments they were also listening.
"The two rocket ships sent out from Mars
Base to explore the orbital positions of Phobos and Deimos—that is, the volume of space they'd be occupying if
their positions had remained normal—report finding masses of dust and larger
debris. The two masses of fine debris are moving in the same orbits and at the
same velocities as the two vanished moons, and occupy
roughly the same volumes of space, though the mass of material is hardly a
hundredth that of the moons. Physicists have ventured no statements as to
whether this constitutes a confirmation of the Disintegration Hypothesis.
"However,
we're mighty pleased at this news here. There's a marked lessening of tension.
The finding of the debris-solid, tangible stuff—seems to lift the whole affair
out of the supernatural miasma in which some of us have been tempted to plunge
it. One-hundredth of the moons has been found.
"The rest will also bel"
Edmund
had turned his back on the window. Frieda and Theodor had switched off their
projectors.
"Meanwhile,
Earthlings are going about their business with a minimum of commotion, meeting
with considerable calm the strange threat to the fabric of their Solar System.
Many, of course, are assembled in churches and humanist temples. Kometevskyites have staged helicopter processions at Washington,
Peking, Pretoria, and Christiana, demanding that instant preparations be made
for—and I quote—'Earth's coming leap through space.' They have also formally
challenged all astronomers to produce an explanation other than the one
contained in that strange book so recently conjured from oblivion, The Dance of the Planets.
"That about winds up the story for the present. There are no new reports from Interplanetary
Radar Astronomy, or the other rocket ships searching in the extended Mars
volume. Nor have any statements been issued by the various groups working on
the problem in Astrophysics, Cosmic Ecology, the
Congress for the Discovery of New Purposes, and so forth. Meanwhile, however,
we can take courage from the words of a poem written even before Dr. Kometevsky's book:
This Earth is not the steadfast place
We landsmen build upon;
From deep to deep she
varies pace,
And while she comes is
gone.
Beneath my feet I feel
Her smooth bulk heave and
dip;
With velvet plunge and soft
upreel
She swings and steadies to
her keel
Like a gallant, gallant
ship.' "
While the TV voice intoned the poem, growing
richer as emotion caught it up, Celeste looked around her at the others. Frieda, with her touch of feminine helplessness showing more than
ever through her businesslike poise. Theodor leaning forward from his
scarlet cloak thrown back, smiling the half-smile with which he seemed to face
even the unknown. Black Edmund, masking a deep uncertainty with a strong show
of decisiveness.
In short, her family. She knew their every quirk and foible. And yet now they seemed to her a
million miles away, figures seen through the wrong end of a telescope.
Were
they really a family? Strong sources of mutual strength and security to each
other? Or had they merely been playing family, experimenting with their notions
of complex marriage like a bunch of silly adolescents? Butterflies taking
advantage of good weather to wing together in a glamorous, artificial
dance—until outraged Nature decided to wipe them out?
As
the poem was ending, Celeste saw the door open and Rosalind come slowly in. The
Golden Woman's face was white as the paths she had been treading.
Just
then the TV voice quickened with shock. "News! Lunar
Observatory One reports that, although Jupiter is just about to pass behind the
Sun, a good coronagraph of the planet has been obtained. Checked and rechecked,
it admits of only one interpretation, which Lunar One feels duty-bound to
release. Jupiter's
fourteen moons are no longer visible!"
The
chorus of remarks with which the Wolvers would otherwise have received this was
checked by one thing: the fact that Rosalind seemed not to hear it. Whatever
was on her mind prevented even that incredible statement from penetrating.
She
walked shakily to the table and put down a briefcase, one end of which was
smudged with dirt.
Without
looking at them, she said, "Ivan left the Deep Space Bar twenty minutes
ago, said he was coming straight here. On my way back I searched the path.
Midway I found this half-buried in the dirt. I had to tug to get it out—almost
as if it had been cemented into the ground. Do you feel how the dirt seems to
be in the leather, as if it had lain for years in
the grave?"
By
now the others were fingering the small case of microfilms they had seen so
many times in Ivan's competent hands. What Rosalind said was true. It had a
gritty, unwholesome feel to it. Also, it felt strangely heavy.
"And see what's
written on it," she added.
They
turned it over. Scrawled with white pencil in big, hasty, frantic letters were
two words:
"Going
down!"
The other gods, Dotty dreamt, are combing the whole Universe for us. We
have escaped them many times, but now our tricks are almost used up. There are
no doors going out of the Universe and our boats are silver beacons to the hunters.
So we decide to disguise them in the only way they can be disguised. It is our
last chance.
Edmund rapped the table to
gain the family's attention.
"I'd
say we've done everything we can for the moment to find Ivan. We've made a
thorough local search. A wider one, which we can't conduct personally, is in
progress. All helpful agencies have been alerted and descriptions are being
broadcast. I suggest we get on with the business of the evening— which may
very well be connected with Ivan's disappearance."
One
by one the others nodded and took their places at the round table. Celeste made
a great effort to throw off the feeling of unreality that had engulfed her and
focus attention on her microfilms.
"I'll
take over Ivan's notes," she heard Edmund say. "They're mainly about
the Deep Shaft."
"How
far have they got with that?" Frieda asked idly. "Twenty-five
miles?"
"Near
thirty, I believe," Edmund answered, "and
still going down."
At
those last two words they all looked up quickly. Then their eyes went toward
Ivan's briefcase.
Our
trick has succeeded, Dotty
dreamt. The
other gods have passed our hiding place a dozen times without noticing. They
search the Universe for us many times in vain. They finally decide that we have
found a door going out of the Universe. Yet they fear us all the more. They
think of us as devils who will some day return
through the door to destroy them. So they watch everywhere. We lie quietly
smiling in our camouflaged boats, yet hardly daring to move or think, for fear
that the faintest echoes of our doings will give them a clue. Hundreds of
millions of years pass by. They seem to us no more than drugged hours in a
prison.
Theodor
rubbed his eyes and pushed his chair back from the table. "We need a
break."
Frieda agreed wearily.
"We've gone through everything."
"Good
idea," Edmund said briskly. "I think we've hit on several crucial
points along the way and half disentangled them from the great mass of
inconsequential material. I'll finish up that part of the job right now and
present my case when we're all a bit fresher. Say half an hour?"
Theodor
nodded heavily, pushing up from his chair and hitching his cloak over a
shoulder.
"I'm going out for a drink,"
he informed them.
After
several hesitant seconds, Rosalind quietly followed him. Frieda stretched out
on a couch and closed her eyes. Edmund scanned microfilms tirelessly, every now
and then setting one aside.
Celeste
watched him for a minute, then sprang up and started toward the room where
Dotty was asleep. But midway she stopped.
Not
my child, she
thought bitterly. Friedas her mother, Rosalind her
nurse. I'm
nothing at all. Just one of the hus-bancfs
girl friends. A lady of uneasy virtue in a dissolving
world.
But then she straightened
her shoulders and went on.
Rosalind didn't catch up with Theodor. Her
footsteps were silent and he never looked back along the path whose feeble
white glow rose only knee-high, lighting a low strip of shrub and mossy treetrunk to either side, no more.
It
was a little chilly. She drew on her gloves, but she didn't hurry. In fact, she
fell farther and farther behind the dipping tail of his scarlet cloak and his
plodding red shoes, which seemed to move disembodied, like those in the fairy
tale.
When
she reached the point where she had found Ivan's briefcase, she stopped
altogether.
A
breeze rustled the leaves, and, moistly brushing her cheek, brought forest
scents of rot and mold. After a bit she began to hear the furtive scurryings and scuttlings of
forest creatures.
She
looked around her half-heartedly, suddenly realizing the futility of her quest.
What clues could she hope to find in this knee-high twilight? And they'd
thoroughly combed the place earlier in the night.
Without
warning, an eerie tingling went through her and she was seized by a horror of
the cold, grainy Earth underfoot—an ancestral terror from the days when men
shivered at ghost stories about graves and tombs.
A
tiny detail persisted in bulking larger and larger in her mind—the
unnaturalness of the way the Earth had impregnated the corner of Ivan's
briefcase, almost as if dirt and leather co-existed in the same space. She
remembered the queer way the partly buried briefcase had resisted her first
tug, like a rooted plant.
She
felt cowed by the mysterious night about her, and literally dwarfed, as if she
had grown several inches shorter. She roused herself and started forward.
Something held her feet.
They
were ankle-deep in the path. While she looked in fright and horror, they began
to sink still lower into the ground.
She
plunged frantically, trying to jerk loose. She couldn't. She had the panicky
feeling that the Earth had not only trapped but invaded her; that its molecules
were creeping up between the molecules of her flesh; that the two were becoming
one.
And
she was sinking faster. Now knee-deep, thigh-deep, hip-deep,
waist-deep. She beat at the powdery path with her hands and threw her
body from side to side in agonized frenzy like some sinner frozen in the ice of
the innermost circle of the ancients' hell. And always the sense of the dark,
grainy tide rose inside as well as around her.
She
thought, he'd just have had time to scribble that note on his briefcase and toss
it away. She
jerked off a glove, leaned out as far as she could, and made a frantic effort
to drive its fingers into the powdery path. Then the Earth mounted to her chin,
her nose, and covered her eyes.
She
expected blackness, but it was as if the light of the path stayed with her,
making a little glow all around. She saw roots, pebbles, black rot, worn
tunnels, worms. Tier on tier of
them, her vision penetrating the solid ground. And at
the same time, the knowledge that these same sorts of things were coursing up
through her.
And still she continued to sink at a speed
that increased, as if the law of gravitation applied to her in a diminished way.
She
dropped from black soil through gray clay and into pale limestone.
Her
tortured, rock-permeated lungs sucked at rock and drew in air. She wondered
madly if a volume of air were falling with her through the stone.
A glitter of quartz. The momentary openness of a foot-high cavern with a
trickle of water. And then she was sliding down a black basalt column,
half inside it, half inside gold-flecked ore. Then just black basalt. And always faster.
It
grew hot, then hotter, as if she were approaching the mythical eternal fires.
At first glance Theodor thought the Deep
Space Bar was empty. Then he saw a figure hunched monkeylike on the last stool,
almost lost in the blue shadows, while behind the bar, her crystal dress
blending with the tiers of sparkling glasses, stood a grave-eyed young girl who
could hardly have been fifteen.
The
TV was saying, "... in addition,
a number of mysterious disappearances of high-rating individuals have been
reported. These are thought to be cases of misunderstanding, illusory apprehension,
and impulse traveling—a result of the unusual stresses of the time. Finally, a
few suggestible individuals in various parts of the globe, especially the
Indian Peninsula, have declared themselves to be 'gods' and in some way
responsible for current events.
"It is thought-"
The
girl switched off the TV and took Theodor's order, explaining casually,
"Joe wanted to go to a Kometevskyite meeting, so
I took over for him." When she had prepared Theodor's highball, she
announced, "I'll have a drink with you gentlemen," and squeezed
herself a glass of pomegranate juice.
The
monkeylike figure muttered, "Scotch-and-soda," then turned toward
Edmund and asked, "And what is your reaction to all this, sir?"
Theodor recognized the shrunken
wrinkle-seamed face. It was Colonel Fortescue, a military
antique long retired from the Peace Patrol and reputed to have seen actual
fighting in the Last Age of Madness. Now, for some reason, the face sported a
knowing smile.
Theodor
shrugged. Just then the TV "big news" light blinked blue and the girl
switched on audio. The Colonel winked at Theodor.
".
. . confirming the disappearance of Jupiter's moons.
But two other utterly fantastic reports have just been received. First, Lunar
Observatory One says that it is visually tracking fourteen small bodies which
it believes may be the lost moons of Jupiter. They are moving outward from the
Solar System at an incredible velocity and are already beyond the orbit of Saturnl"
The Colonel said,
"Ah!"
"Second,
Palomar reports a large number of dark bodies approaching the Solar System at
an equally incredible velocity. They are at about twice the distance of Pluto,
but closing in fast! We will be on the air with further details as soon as
possible."
The Colonel said, "Ah-hal"
Theodor
stared at him. The old man's self-satisfied poise was almost amusing.
"Are you a Kometevskyite?" Theodor asked him.
The
Colonel laughed. "Of course not, my boy. Those
poor people are fumbling in the dark. Don't you see what's happened?"
"Frankly,
no."
The
Colonel leaned toward Theodor and whispered gruffly, "The Divine Plan.
God is a military strategist, naturally."
Then
he lifted the scotch-and-soda in his clawlike hand
and took a satisfying swallow.
"I
knew it all along, of course," he went on musingly, "but this last
news makes it as plain as a rocket blast, at least to anyone who knows military
strategy. Look here, my boy, suppose you were commanding a fleet and got wind
of the enemy's approach—what would you do? Why, you'd send your scouts and
destroyers fanning out toward them. Behind that screen you'd mass your heavy
ships. Then—"
"You don't mean to
imply—" Theodor interrupted.
The girl behind the bar
looked at them both cryptically.
"Of course I do!"
the Colonel cut in sharply. "It's a war between the forces of good and
evil. The bright suns and planets are on one side, the dark on the other.
"The
moons are the destroyers, Jupiter and Saturn are the
big battleships, while we're on a heavy cruiser, I'm proud to say. We'll
probably go into action soon. Be a corking fight, what? And
all by divine strategy!"
He
chuckled and took another big drink. Theodor looked at him sourly. The girl
behind the bar polished a glass and said nothing.
Dotty suddenly began to turn and toss, and a
look of terror came over her sleeping face. Celeste leaned forward apprehensively.
The
child's lips worked and Celeste made out the sleepy-fuzzy words: "They've
found out where we're hiding. They're coming to get us. No! Please, no!"
Celeste's
reactions were mixed. She felt worried about Dotty and at the same time almost
in terror of her, as if the little girl were an agent of supernatural forces.
She told herself that this fear was an expression of her own hostility, yet
she didn't really believe it. She touched the child's hand.
Dotty's eyes opened without making Celeste feel she
had quite come awake. After a bit she looked at Celeste and her little lips
parted in a smile.
"Hello,"
she said sleepily. "I've been having such funny dreams." Then, after
a pause, frowning, "I really am a god, you know. It feels very
queer."
"Yes, dear?" Celeste prompted uneasily. "Shall I call Frieda?"
The
smile left Dotty's lips. "Why do you act so
nervous around me?" she asked. "Don't you love me, Mummy?"
Celeste
started at the word. Her throat closed. Then, very slowly, her face broke into
a radiant smile. "Of course I do, darling. I love you very much."
Dotty nodded happily, her
eyes already closed again.
There
was a sudden flurry of excited voices beyond the door. Celeste heard her name
called. She stood up.
"I'm
going to have to go out and talk with the others," she said. "If you want me, dear, just call."
"Yes,
Mummy."
Edmund rapped for attention. Celeste, Frieda,
and Theodor glanced around at him. He looked more frightfully strained, they
realized, than even they felt. His expression was a study in suppressed
excitement, but there were also signs of a knowledge that was almost too
overpowering for a human being to bear.
His voice was clipped, rapid. "I think
it's about time we stopped worrying about our own affairs and thought of those
of the Solar System, partly because I think they have a direct bearing on the
disappearances of Ivan and Rosalind. As I told you, I've been sorting out the
crucial items from the material we've been presenting. There are roughly four
of those items, as I see it. It's rather like a mystery story. I wonder if,
hearing those four clues, you will come to the same conclusion I have."
The others nodded.
"First,
there are the latest reports from Deep Shaft, which, as you know, has been sunk
to investigate deep-Earth conditions. At approximately twenty-nine miles below
the surface, the delvers have encountered a metallic obstruction which they
have tentatively named the durasphere. It resists
their hardest drills, their strongest corrosives. They have extended a
side-tunnel at that level for a quarter of a mile. Delicate measurements, made
possible by the mirror-smooth metal surface, show that the durasphere
has a slight curvature that is almost exactly equal to the curvature of the
Earth itself. The suggestion is that deep borings made anywhere in the world
would encounter the durasphere at the same depth.
"Second, the movements of the moons of
Mars and Jupiter, and particularly the debris left: behind by the moons of
Mars. Granting Phobos and Deimos
had duraspheres proportional in size to that of
Earth, then the debris would roughly equal in amount the material in those two duraspheres' rocky envelopes. The suggestion is that the
two duraspheres suddenly burst from their envelopes
with such titanic velocity as to leave those disrupted envelopes behind."
It was deadly quiet in the
committee room.
"Thirdly,
the disappearances of Ivan and Rosalind, and especially the baffling hint—from
Ivan's message in one case and Rosalind's downward-pointing glove in the
other—that they were both somehow drawn into the depths' of the Earth.
"Finally,
the dreams of the ESPs, which agree overwhelmingly in the following points: A
group of beings separate themselves from a godlike and telepathic race because
they insist on maintaining a degree of mental privacy. They flee in great boats
or ships of some sort. They are pursued on such a scale that there is no hiding
place for them anywhere in the universe. In some manner they successfully
camouflage their ships. Eons pass and their still-fanatical pursuers do not
penetrate their secret. Then, suddenly, they are detected."
Edmund
waited. "Do you see what I'm driving at?" he asked hoarsely.
He
could tell from their looks that the others did, but couldn't bring themselves
to put it into words.
"I
suppose it's the time-scale and the value-scale that are so hard for us to
accept," he said softly. "Much more, even, than the
size-scale. The thought that there are creatures in the Universe to whom
the whole career of Man—in fact, the whole career of life—is no more than a few
thousand or hundred thousand years. And to whom Man is no more than a minor
stage property—a trifling part of a clever job of camouflage."
This time he went on, "Fantasy writers have at times hinted all
sorts of odd things about the Earth—that it might even be a kind of single
living creature, or honeycombed with inhabited caverns, and so on. But I don't know that any of them have ever
suggested that the Earth, together with all the planets and moons of the Solar
System, might be ..."
In a
whisper, Frieda finished for him, "...
a camouflaged fleet of gigantic spherical spaceships."
"Your guess happens to be the precise
truth."
At
that familiar, yet dreadly unfamiliar voice, all four
of them swung toward the inner door. Dotty was standing there, a
sleep-stupefied little girl with a blanket caught up around her and dragging
behind. Their own daughter. But in her eyes was a look
from which they cringed.
She
said, "I am a creature somewhat older than what your geologists call the Archeozoic Era. I am speaking to you through a number of
telepathically sensitive individuals among your kind. In each case my thoughts
suit themselves to your level of comprehension. I inhabit the disguised and jetless spaceship which is your Earth."
Celeste swayed a step
forward. "Baby . . ." she implored.
Dotty
went on, without giving her a glance, "It is true that we planted the
seeds of life on some of these planets simply as part of our camouflage, just
as we gave them a suitable environment for each. And it is true that now we
must let most of that life be destroyed. Our hiding place has been discovered,
our pursuers are upon us, and we must make one last effort to escape or do
battle, since we firmly believe that the principle of mental privacy to which
we have devoted our existence is perhaps the greatest good in the whole
Universe.
"But
it is not true that we look with contempt upon you. Our whole race is deeply
devoted to life, wherever it may come into being, and it is our rule never to
interfere with its development. That was one of the reasons we made life a part
of our camouflage—it would make our pursuers reluctant to examine these
planets too closely.
"Yes,
we have always cherished you and watched your evolution with interest from our
hidden lairs. We may even unconsciously have shaped your development in certain
ways, trying constantly to educate you away from war and finally
succeeding—which may have given the betraying clue to our pursuers.
"Your planets must be burst asunder—this
particular planet in the area of the Pacific—so that we may have our last
chance to escape. Even if we did not move, our pursuers would destroy you with
us. We cannot invite you inside our ships—not for lack of space, but because
you could never survive the vast accelerations to which you would be subjected.
You would, you see, need very special accommodations, of which we have enough
only for a few.
"Those few we will take with us, as the
seed from which a new human race may—if we ourselves somehow survive— be
born."
Rosalind and Ivan stared dumbly at each other
across the egg-shaped silver room, without apparent entrance or exit, in which
they were sprawled. But their thoughts were no longer of thirty-odd mile
journeys down through solid earth, or of how cool it was after the heat of the
passage, or of how grotesque it was to be trapped here, the fragment of a marriage.
They were both listening to the voice that spoke inside their minds.
"In
a few minutes your bodies will be separated into layers one atom thick, capable
of being shelved or stored in such a way as to endure almost infinite
accelerations. Single cells will cover acres of space. But do not be alarmed.
The process will be painless and each particle will be catalogued for future
assembly. Your consciousness will endure throughout the process."
Rosalind
looked at her gold-shod toes. She was wondering, urill they go first, or my head? Or will I be
peeled like an apple?
She
looked at Ivan and knew he was thinking the same thing.
Up in the committee room, the other Wolvers
slumped around the table. Only little Dotty sat straight and staring,
speechless and unanswering, quite beyond their reach,
like a telephone off the hook and with the connection open, but no voice from
the other end.
They
had just switched off the TV after listening to a confused medley of denials,
prayers, Kometevskyite chatterings,
and a few astonishingly realistic comments on the possibility of survival.
These
last pointed out that, on the side of the Earth opposite the Pacific, the
convulsions would come slowly when the entombed spaceship burst forth—provided,
as seemed the case, that it moved without jets or
reaction.
It would be as if the Earth's vast core
simply vanished. Gravity would diminish abruptly to a fraction of its former
value. The empty envelope of rock and water and air would begin to escape from
the debris because there would no longer be the mass required to hold it.
However, there might be definite chances of
temporary and even prolonged survival for individuals in strong, hermetically
sealed structures, such as submarines and spaceships. The few spaceships on
Earth were reported to have blasted off, or be preparing to leave, with as many
passengers as could be carried.
But
most persons, apparently, could not contemplate action of any sort. They could
only sit and think, like the Wolvers.
A
faint smile relaxed Celeste's face. She was thinking, how beautiful! It means the death of the
Solar System, which is a horrifying subjective concept. Objectively, though, it
would be a more awesome sight than any human being has ever seen or ever could
see. It's an absurd and even brutal thing to wish—but I wish I could see the
whole cataclysm from beginning to end. It would make death seem very small, a
tiny personal event.
Dotty's face was losing its blank expression,
becoming intent and alarmed.
"We
are in contact with our pursuers," she said in the familiar-unfamiliar
voice. "Negotiations are now going on. There seems to be—there is a change in them. Where they were harsh and vindictive
before, they now are gentle and conciliatory." She paused, the
alarm on her childish features pmching into anxious
uncertainty. "Our pursuers have always been shrewd. The change in them may
be false, intended merely to lull us into allowing them to come close enough to
destroy us. We must not fall into the trap by growing hopeful
.. ."
They
leaned forward, clutching hands, watching the little face as though it were a
television screen. Celeste had the wild feeling that she was listening to a communique from a war so unthinkably vast and violent,
between opponents so astronomically huge and nearly immortal, that she felt
like no more than a reasoning ameba . . . and then realized with an explosive
urge to laugh that that was exactly the situation.
"Nol" said Dotty. Her eyes began to glow. "They have changed! During the eons in which we lay sealed away and hidden from
them, knowing nothing of them, they have rebelled against the tyranny of a
communal mind to which no thoughts are private . . . the tyranny that we
ourselves fled to escape. They come not to destroy us, but to welcome us back
to a society that we and they can make truly great!"
Frieda collapsed to a chair, trembling
between laughter and hysterical weeping. Theodor looked as blank as Dotty had
while waiting for words to speak. Edmund sprang to the picture window, Celeste
toward the TV set.
Climbing
shakily out of the chair, Frieda stumbled to the picture window and peered out
beside Edmund. She saw lights bobbing along the paths with a wild excitement.
On
the TV screen, Celeste watched two brightly lit ships spinning in the
sky—whether human spaceships or Phobos and Deimos come to help Earth rejoice, she couldn't tell.
Dotty
spoke again, the joy in her strange voice forcing them to turn. "And you,
dear children, creatures of our camouflage, we welcome you—whatever your
future career on these planets or like ones—into the society of enlightened
worlds! You need not feel small and alone and helpless ever again, for we^hall always be with you!"
The
outer door opened. Ivan and Rosalind reeled in, drunk-enly
smiling, arm in arm.
"Like
rockets," Rosalind blurted happily. "We came through the durasphere and solid rock . . . shot up right to the surface."
"They
didn't have to take us along," Ivan added with a bleary grin. "But
you know that already, don't you? They're too good to let you live in fear, so
they must have told you by now."
"Yes,
we know," said Theodor. "They must be almost godlike in their
goodness. I feel . .*T calm."
Edmund
nodded soberly. "Calmer than I ever felt before. It's
knowing, I suppose, that—well, we're not alone."
Dotty
blinked and looked around and smiled at them all with a wholly little-girl
smile.
"Oh,
Mummy," she said, and it was impossible to tell whether she spoke to
Frieda or Rosalind or Celeste, "I've just had the funniest dream."
"No,
darling," said Rosalind gently, "it's we who had the dream. We've
just awakened."
THE
BIG TREK
I didn't
know if I'd got to this
crazy place by rocket, space dodger, time twister—or maybe even on foot the way
I felt so beat. My memory was gone. When I woke up there was just the desert
all around me with the gray sky pressing down like the ceiling of an enormous
room. The desert . . . and the big trek. And that was enough to make me stop grabbing for my memory and take a quick look
at my pants to make sure I was human.
These,
well, animals were shuffling along about four abreast in a straggly line that
led from one end of nowhere to the other, right past my rocky hole. Wherever
they were heading they seemed to have come from everywhere and maybe everywhen. There were big ones and little ones, some like
children and some just small. A few went on two feet, but more on six or eight,
and there were wrigglers, rollers, ooz-ers,
flutterers and hoppers; I couldn't decide whether the
low-flying ones were pets or pals. Some had scales,
others feathers, bright armor like beetles or fancy hides like zebras, and
quite a few wore transparent suits holding air or other gases, or water or
other liquids, though some of the suits were tailored for a dozen tentacles and
some for no legs at all. And darn if their shufHe—to
pick one word for all the kinds of movement—wasn't more like a dance than a
lock-step.
They
were too different from each other for an army, yet they weren't like refugees
either, for refugees wouldn't dance and make music, even if on more feet than
two or four and with voices and instruments so strange I couldn't tell which
was which. Their higgledy-piggledy variety suggested a stampede from some awful
disaster or a flight to some ark of survival, but I couldn't feel panic in
them—or solemn purpose either, for that matter. They just shuffled happily
along. And if they were a circus parade, as a person might think from their
being animals and some of them dressed fancy, then who was bossing the show and
where were the guards or the audience, except for me?
I
should have been afraid of such a horde of monsters, but I wasn't, so I got up
from behind the rock I'd been spying over and I took one last look around for
footprints or blast-scar or time-twister whorls or some sign of how I'd got
there, and then I shrugged my shoulders and walked down toward them.
They
didn't stop and they didn't run, they didn't shoot and they didn't come out to
capture or escort me; they kept on shuffling along without a break in the
rhythm, but a thousand calm eyes were turned on me from the tops of weaving
stalks or the depths of bony caverns, and as I got close a dusky roller like an
escaped tire with green eyes in the un-spinning hub speeded up a little and an
opal octopus in a neat suit brimful of water held back, making room for me.
Next
thing I knew I was restfully shuffling along myself, wondering how the roller
kept from tipping and why the octopus moved his legs by threes, and how so many
different ways of moving could be harmonized like instruments in a band. Around
me was the murmuring rise and fall of languages I couldn't understand and the
rainbow-changing of color patches that might be languages for the eye—the octopus
dressed in water looked from time to time like a shaken-up pousse-café.
I
tried out on them what I seemed to remember as the lingoes of a dozen planets,
but nobody said anything back at me directly—I almost tried Earth-talk on them,
but something stopped me. A puffy bird-thing floating along under a gas-bag
that was part of its body settled lightly on my shoulder and hummed gently in
my ear and dropped some suspicious-looking black marbles and then bobbed off.
A thing on two legs from somewhere ahead in the trek waltzed its way to my side
and offered me a broken-edged chunk that was milky with light and crusty. The
thing looked female, being jauntily built and having a crest of violet
feathers, but instead of nose and mouth her face tapered to a rosy little ring
and where breasts would be there was a burst of pink petals. I gave my
non-Earth lingoes another try. She waited until I was quiet and then she lifted
the crusty chunk to her rosy ring, which she opened a little, and then she
offered the chunk to me again. I took it and tasted it and it was like brick
cheese but flaky and I ate it. I nodded and grinned and she puffed out her
petals and traced a circle with her head and turned to go. I almost said,
"Thanks, chick," because that seemed the right thing, but again something
stopped me.
So
the big trek had accepted me, I decided, but as the day wore on (if they had
days here, I reminded myself) the feeling of acceptance didn't give me any
real security. It didn't satisfy me that I had been given eats instead of being
eaten and that I was part of a harmony instead of a discord. I guess I was
expecting too much. Or maybe I was finding a strange part of myself and was
frightened of it. And after all it isn't reassuring to shuffle along with
intelligent animals you can't talk to, even if they act friendly and dance and
sing and now and then thrum strange strings. It didn't calm me to feel that L
was someplace that was homey and at the same time as lonely as the stars. The
monsters around me got to seem stranger and stranger; I quit seeing their
little tricks of personality and saw only their outsides. I craned my neck
trying to spot the chick with the pink petals but she was gone. After a while I
couldn't bear it any longer. Some ruins looking like chopped off skyscrapers
had come in sight earlier and we were just now passing them, not too close, so
although the flat sky was getting darker and pressing down lower and although
there were distant flashes of lightning and rumbles of thunder (I think that's what they were) I turned at
a right angle and walked away fast from the trek.
Nobody
stopped me and pretty soon I was hidden in the ruins. They were comforting at
first, the little ruins, and I got the feeling my ancestors had built them. But
then I came to the bigger ones and they were chopped-off
skyscrapers and yet some of them were so tall they scratched the dark flat sky
and for a moment I thought I heard a distant squeal like chalk on a giant
blackboard that set my teeth on edge. And then I got to wondering what had
chopped off the skyscrapers and what had happened to the people, and after
that I began to see dark things loafing along after me close to the ruined
walls. They were about as big as I was, but going on all fours. They began to
follow me closer and closer, moving like clumsy wolves, the more notice I took
of them. I saw that their faces were covered with hair like their bodies and
that their jaws were working. I started to hurry and as soon as I did I began
to hear the sounds they were making. The bad thing was that although the sounds
were halfway between growls and barks, I could understand them.
"Hello, Joe."
"Whacha
know, Joe?"
"That so, Joe?"
"Let's blow,
Joe."
"C'mon Joe, let's go,
go, go."
And
then I realized the big mistake I'd made in coming to these ruins, and I turned
around and started to run back the way I had come, and they came loping and
lurching after me, trying to drag me down, and the worst thing was that I knew
they didn't want to kill me, but just have me get down on all fours and run
with them and bark and growl.
The ruins grew smaller, but it was very dark
now and at first I was afraid that I had lost my way and next I was afraid that
the end of the big trek had passed me by, but then the light brightened under
the low sky like the afterglow of a
sunset and it showed me the big trek in the distance and I ran toward it and
the hairy things stopped skulking behind me.
I
didn't hit the same section of the big trek, of course, but one that was enough
like it to make me wonder. There was another dusky roller, but with blue eyes
and smaller, so that it had to spin faster, and another many-legged
creature dressed in water, and a jaunty chick with crimson crest and a burst of
orange petals. But the difference didn't bother me.
The
trek slowed down, the change in rhythm rippling back to me along the line. I
looked ahead and there was a large round hole in the low sky and through it I
could see the stars. And through it too the trek itself was swerving, each creature
diving upward toward the winking points of light in the blackness.
I
kept on shuffling happily forward, though more slowly now, and to either side
of the trek I saw heaped on the desert floor spacesuits tailored to fit every
shape of creature I could imagine and fly him or her safely through the
emptiness above. After a while it got to be my turn and I found a suit and
climbed into it and zipped it snug and located the control buttons in the
palms of the gloves and looked up. Then I felt more than control buttons in my
fingers and I looked to either side of me and I was hand in hand with an
octopus wearing an eight-legged spacesuit over his water-filled one and on the
other side with a suited-up chick who sported a jet-black crest and pearl-gray
petals.
She
traced a circle with her head and I did the same, and the octopus traced a
smaller circle with a free tentacle, and I knew that one of the reasons I
hadn't used Earth-talk was that I was going to keep quiet until I learned or
remembered their
languages, and that another
reason was that the hairy four-footers back in the ruins had been men like me
and I hated them but these creatures beside me were my kind, and that we had
come to take one last look at the Earth that had destroyed itself and at the
men who had stayed on Earth and not got away like me—to come back and lose my
memory from the shock of being on my degraded ancestral planet.
Then
we clasped hands tight, which pushed the buttons in our palms. Our jets
blossomed out behind us and we were
diving up together out of this world through the
smoothly rounded doughnut hole toward the stars. I realized that space wasn't
empty and that those points of light in the blackness weren't lonely at all.
THE
ENCHANTED FOREST
The darkness was fusty as Formalhautian
Aa leaves, acrid as a Rigelian brush fire, and it still shook faintly, like one
of the dancing houses of the Wild Ones. It was filled with a petulant, low humming, like nothing so much as a wounded Earth-wasp.
Machinery
whirred limpingly, briefly. An oval door opened in
the darkness. Soft green light filtered in—and the unique scent, aromatic in
this case yet with a grassy sourness, of a new
planet.
The green was imparted to the light by the
thorny boughs or creepers crisscrossing the doorway. To eyes dreary from deep
sub-space the oval of interlaced, wrist-thick tendrils was a throat-lumping
sight.
A
human hand moved delicately from the darkness toward the green barrier. The
finger-long, translucent thorns quivered, curved back ever so slowly, then
struck—a hairbreadth short, for the hand had stopped.
The hand did not withdraw, but lingered just
in range, caressing danger. A sharp gay laugh etched itself against the woundedly-humming dark.
Have
to dust those devilish little green daggers to get out of the wreck, Elven thought. Lucky they were here though. The thorn
forest's cushioning-effect may have been the straw that saved the spaceboat's back—or at least mine.
Then
Elven stiffened. The humming behind him shaped itself
into faint English speech altered by centuries of slurring, but still
essentially the same.
"You fly fast, Elven."
"Faster
than any of your hunters," Elven agreed softly
without looking around, and added, "FTL—meaning Faster Than
Light.
"You
fly far, Elven. Tens of lightyears,"
the wounded voice continued.
"Scores," Elven
corrected. "Yet I speak to you, Elven."
"But
you don't know where I am. I came on a blind reach through deep sub-space. And
your FTL radio can take no fix. You are shouting at infinity, Fedris."
"And
fly you ever so fast and far, Elven," the
wounded voice persisted, "you must finally go to ground, and then we will
search you out."
Again
Elven laughed gayly. His
eyes were still on the green doorway. "You will search me out! Where will
you search me out, Fedris? On which side of the
million planets of the sos? On which of the hundred million planets not of
the sos?"
The
wounded voice grew weaker. "Your home planet is dead, Elven.
Of all the Wild Ones, only you slipped through our cordon."
This
time Elven did not comment vocally. He felt at his
throat and carefully took from a gleaming locket there a tiny white sphere no
bigger than a lady beetle. Holding it treas-uringly
in his cupped palm, he studied it with a brooding mockery. Then, still handling
it as if it were an awesome object, he replaced it in the locket.
The wounded voice had sunk
to a ghostly whisper.
"You
are alone, Elven. Alone with the
mystery and terror of the universe. The unknown will find you, Elven, even before we do. Time and space and fate will all
conspire against you. Chance itself will—"
The
spectral FTL-radio voice died as the residual power in the wrecked machinery
exhausted itself utterly. Silence filled the broken gut of the spaceboat.
Silence that was gayly shattered when Elven laughed a last time. Fedris the
Psychologist! Fedris the Fool! Did Fedris think to sap his nerve with witch-doctor threats and
the power of suggestion? As if a man—or woman—of the Wild Ones could ever be
brought to believe in the supernatural!
Not
that there wasn't an uneartnliness
loose in the universe, Elven reminded himself
somberly—an unearthly beauty bom of danger and
ultimate self-expression. But only the Wild Ones knew that unearthliness. It could never be known to the poor tame hordes of the sos, who would always revere safety and timidity as most
members of the human sos—or society—have revered them—and
hate all lovers of beauty and danger.
Just as they had hated the Wild Ones and so
destroyed them. All save one.
One,
had Fedris said? Elven
smiled cryptically, touched the locket at his neck, and leaped lightly to his
feet.
A short time later he had
what he needed from the wreck.
"And
now, Fedris," he murmured, "I have a work
of creation to perform." He smiled. "Or should I say
recreation?"
He
directed at the green doorway the blunt muzzle of a dustgun.
There was no sound or flash, but the green boughs shook, blackened—the thoms vanishing—and turned to a drifting powder fine and
dark as the ashes carpeting Earth's Moon. Elven
sprang to the doorway and for a moment he was poised there, yellow-haired,
cool-lipped, laughing-eyed, handsome as a young god—or adolescent devil—in his
black tunic embroidered with platinum. Then he leaned out and directed the dustgun's ultrasonic downward until he had cleared a patch
of ground in the thorn forest. When this moment's work was over, he dropped lightly down, the fine dust puffing up to his knees at the
impact.
Elven snapped off his dustgun,
flirted sweat from his face, laughed at his growing exasperation, and looked
around at the thorn forest. It had not changed an iota in the miles he'd made.
Just the glassy thoms and
the lance-shaped leaves and the boughs rising from the bare, reddish earth. Not
another planet to be seen. Nor had he caught the tiniest glimpse of moving
life, large or small—save the thorns themselves, which "noticed" him
whenever he came too close. As an experiment he'd let a baby one prick him and
it had stung abominably.
Such
an environment! What did it suggest, anyhow? Cultivation?
Or a plant that permeated its environs with poison, as
Earth's redwood its woody body. He grinned at the chill that flashed along his
spine.
And,
if there were no animal life, what the devil were the thorns for?
A
ridiculous forest! In its simplicity suggesting the enchanted
forests of ancient Earthly fairy tales. That idea should please witch
doctor Fedris!
If
only he had some notion of the general location of the planet he was on, he
might be able to make better guesses about its other life forms. Life spores
did drift about in space, so that solar systems and even star regions tended to
have biological similarities. But he'd come too fast and too curiously, too
fast even to see stars, in the Wild Ones' fastest and most curious boat, to
know where he was.
Or for Fedris
to know where he was, he reminded himself.
Or
for any deep-space approach-warning system, if there were one on this planet,
to have spotted his arrival. For that matter he hadn't foreseen his arrival
himself. There had been just the dip up from sub-space, the sinister black
confetti of the meteorite swarm, the collision, the wrecked spaceboat's
desperate fall, clutching at the nearest planet.
He
should be able to judge his location when night came and he could see the
stars. That is, if night ever came on this planet. Or if that
high fog ever dispersed.
He consulted his compass. The needle of the
primitive but useful instrument held true. At least this planet had magnetic
poles.
And it probably had night and day, to support
vegetable life and such .a balmy temperature.
Once he got out of this forest, he'd be able
to plan. Just give him cities! One city!
He
tucked the compass in his tunic, patting the locket at his neck in a strangely
affectionate, almost reverent way.
He
looked at the iaced boughs ahead. Yes, it was exactly
like those fairy forests that cost fairy-book knights so much hackwork with
their two-handed swords.
Easier
with a dustgun—and he had scores of miles of cleared
path in his store of ultrasonic refills.
He glanced back at the
slightly curving tunnel he'd made.
Through
the slaty ashes on its floor, wicked green shoots
were already rising.
He snapped on the duster.
The boughs were so thick at its edge that the
clearing took Elven by surprise. One moment he was
watching a tangled green mat blacken under the duster's invisible beam. The
next, he had stepped out—not into fairyland, but into the sort of place where
fairy tales were first told.
The
clearing was about a half mile in diameter. Round it the thorn forest made a
circle. A little stream bubbled out of the poisonous greenery a hundred paces
to his right and crossed the clearing through a shallow valley. Beyond the
stream rose a small hill.
On
the hillside was a ragged cluster of gray buildings. From one of them rose a
pencil of smoke. Outside were a couple of carts and some primitive agricultural
implements.
Save
for the space occupied by the buildings, the valley was under intensive
cultivation. The hill was planted at regular intervals with small trees
bearing clusters of red and yellow fruit. Elsewhere were rows of bushy plants
and fields of grain rippling in the breeze. All
vegetation, however, seemed to stop about a yard from the thorn forest.
There
was a mournful lowing. Around the hillside came a half
dozen cattle. A man in a plain tunic was leisurely driving them toward the
buildings. A tiny animal, perhaps a cat, came out of the building with the
smoke and walked with the cattle, rubbing against their legs. A young woman
came to the door after the cat and stood watching with folded arms.
Elven drank in the atmosphere of peace and rich
earth, feeling like a man in an ancient room. Such idyllic scenes as this must
have been Earth's in olden times. He felt his taut muscles relaxing.
A
second young woman stepped out of a copse of trees just ahead and stood facing
him, wide-eyed. She was dressed in a greenish tunic of softened, spun, and
woven vegetable fibers. Elven sensed in her a certain
charm, half sophisticated, half primitive. She was like one of the girls of the
Wild Ones in a rustic play suit. But her face was that of an awestruck child.
He
walked toward her through the rustling grain. She dropped to her knees.
"You
. . . you—" she murmured with difficulty. Then, more swiftly, in perfect
English speech, "Do not harm me, lord. Accept my reverence."
"I
will not harm you, if you answer my questions well," Elven
replied, accepting the advantage in status he seemed to have been given.
"What place is this?"
"It is the
Place," she replied simply.
"Yes, but what
place?"
"It
is the Place," she repeated quakingly.
"There are no others."
"Then where did I come
from?" he asked.
Her
eyes widened a little with terror. "I do not know." She was redhaired and really quite beautiful.
Elven frowned. "What planet is this?"
She looked at him
doubtfully. "What is a planet?"
Perhaps
there were going to be language difficulties after all, Elven thought. "What sun?" he asked.
"What is sun?"
He pointed upward impatiently. "Doesn't
that stuff ever go away?"
"You
mean," she faltered fearfully, "does the sky ever go away?"
"The sky is always the
same?"
"Sometimes it
brightens. Now comes night."
"How
far to the end of the thorn forest?"
"I
do not understand." Then her gaze slipped beyond him, to the ragged
doorway made by his duster. Her look of awe was intensified, became touched
with horror. "You have conquered the poison needles," she whispered.
Then she abased herself until her loose, red hair touched the russet shoots of
the grain. "Do not hurt me, all-powerful one," she gasped.
"I
cannot promise that," Elven told her curtly.
"What is your name?"
"Sefora,"
she whispered.
"Very well, Sefora. Lead me to your people."
She
sprang up and fled like a doe back to the farm buildings.
When Elven reached
the roof from which the smoke rose, taking the leisurely pace befitting his
dignity as god or overlord or whatever the girl had taken him for, the
welcoming committee had already formed. Two young men bent their knees to him,
and the young woman he had seen standing at the doorway held out to him a platter of orange and purple fruit. The Conqueror of the Poison Needles
sampled this refreshment, then waved it aside with a curt nod of approval, although he found it delicious.
When
he entered the rude farmhouse he was met by a blushing Sefora
who carried cloths and a steaming bowL She timidly indicated his boots. He showed her the trick of
the fastenings and in a few moments he was sprawled on a couch of hides stuffed
with aromatic leaves, while she reverently washed his feet.
She
was about twenty, he discovered talking to her idly, not worrying about
important information for the moment. Her life was one of farm work and rustic
play. One of the young men—Alfors—had recently become
her mate.
Outside
the gray sky was swiftly darkening. The other young man, whom Elven had first seen driving the cattle and who answered to
the name of Kors, now brought armfuls of knotty wood,
which he fed to the meager fire, so that it crackled up in rich yellows and
reds. While Tulya—Kor's girl—busied herself nearby
with work that involved mouthwatering odors.
The atmosphere was homey, though somewhat
stiff. After all, Elven reminded himself, one doesn't
have a god to dinner every night. But after a meal of meat stew, fresh-baked
bread, fruit conserves, and a thin wine, he smiled his approval and the
atmosphere quickly became more celebratory, in fact quite gay. Alfors took a harp strung with gut and sang simple praises
of nature, while later Sefora and Tulya
danced. Kors kept the fire roaring and Elven's wine cup full, though once he disappeared for some
time, evidently to care for the animals.
Elven brightened. These rustic folk faintly
resembled his own Wild Ones. They seemed to have a
touch of that reckless, ecstatic spirit so hated by the tame folk of the sos. (Though after a while the
resemblance grew too painfully strong, and with an imperious gesture he
moderated their gaiety.)
Meanwhile,
by observation and question, he was swiftly learning, though what he learned
was astonishing rather than helpful. These four young people were the sole
inhabitants of their community. They knew nothing of any culture other than
their own.
They
had never seen the sun or the stars. Evidently this was a planet whose axes of
rotation and of revolution around its sun were the same, so that the climate
was always unvarying at each latitude, the present
locality being under a cloud belt. Later he might check this, he told himself,
by determining if the days and nights were always of equal length.
Strangest
of all, the two couples had never been beyond the clearing. The thorn forest,
which they conceived of as extending to infinity, was a barrier beyond their
power to break. Fires, they told him, sizzled out against it. It swiftly dulled
their sharpest axes. And they had a healthy awe of its diabolically sentient
thorns.
All this suggested an
obvious line of questioning.
"Where are your
parents?" Elven asked Kors.
"Parents?" Kor's brow wrinkled.
"You
mean the shining ones?" Tulya broke in. She
looked sad. "They are gone."
"Shining ones?" Elven quizzed. "People like yourselves?"
"Oh no. Beings of metal with wheels for feet and long, clever
arms that bent anywhere."
"I have always wished
I were made of lovely, bright metal," Sefora
commented wistfully, "with wheels instead of ugly feet, and a sweet voice
that never changed, and a mind that knew everything and never lost its
temper."
Tulya continued, "They told us when they went
why they must go. So that we could live by our own powers
alone, as all beings should. But we loved them and have always been
sorry."
There
was no getting away from it, Elven decided after
making some casual use of his special mind-searching powers to test the veracity
of their answers. These four people had actually been reared by robots of some
sort. But why? A dozen fantastic, unprovable
possibilities occurred to him. He remembered what Fedris
had said about the mystery of the universe, and smiled wryly.
Then it was his rum to answer questions,
hesitant and awestricken ones. He replied simply, "I am a black angel from
above. When God created his universe he decided it would be a pretty dull place
if there weren't a few souls in it willing to take all risks and dare all
dangers. So here and there among his infinite flocks of tame angels, sparingly,
he introduced a wild strain, so that there would always be a few souls who
would kick up their heels and jump any fences. Yes, and break the fences down
too, exposing the tame flocks to night with its unknown beauties and
dangers." He smiled around impishly, the firelight making odd highlights
on his lips and cheeks. "Just as I've broken down your
thorn fence."
It
had been pitch black outside for some time. The wine jar was almost empty. Elven yawned. Immediately preparations were made for his
rest. The cat got up from the hearth and came and rubbed Elven's
legs.
The first pale glow of dawn aroused Elven and he slipped out of bed so quietly that he wakened
no one, not even the cat. For a moment he hesitated in the gray room heavy with
the smell of embers and the lees of wine. It occurred to him that it would be
rather pleasant to live out his life here as a sylvan god adored by nymphs and
rustics.
But
then his hand touched his throat and he shook his head. This was no place for
him to accomplish his mission— for one thing, there weren't enough people. He
needed cities. With a last look at his blanket-huddled hostesses and hosts— Sefora's hair had just begun to turn ruddy in the
increasing light—he went out.
As
he had expected, the thorn forest had long ago repaired the break he had made
near the stream. He turned in the opposite direction and skirted the hill until
he reached the green wall beyond. There, consulting his compass, he set his
course away from the wrecked spaceboat. Thea he began to dust.
By
early afternoon—judging time from the changing intensity of the light—he had
made a dozen miles and was thinking that perhaps he should have stayed at the
wreck long enough to try to patch up a levitator. If only he could get up a
hundred feet to see what—if anything—was going to happen to this ridiculous
forest!
For
it still fronted him unchangingly, like some wizard growth from a book of fairy
tales. The glassy thorns still curved back and struck whenever he swayed too
close. And behind him the green shoots still pushed up through the slaty powder.
He
thought, what a transition—from ultraphotonic flight
in a spaceboat, to this worm's-crawl. Enough to bore a
Wild One to desperation, to make him think twice of the simple delights of a
life spent as a sylvan god.
But
then he unfastened the locket at his throat and took out the tiny white sphere.
His smile became an inspired one as he gazed at it gleaming on his palm.
Only one of the Wild Ones had escaped from
their beleaguered planet, Fedris had said.
What did Fedris know!
He
knew that before Elven reached his spaceboat, he had escaped in disguise through the
tremendous cordons of the sos.
That in the course of that escape he had twice been searched so thoroughly that
it would have been a miracle if he could have concealed more than this one tiny
tablet.
But this one tiny tablet
was enough.
In it were all the Wild
Ones.
Early
humans had often been fascinated by the idea of an invisible man. Yet it hadn't
occurred to them that the invisible man has always existed, that each one of
us begins as an invisible man—the single cell from which each human grows.
Here
in this white tablet were the genetic elements of all the Wild Ones, the
chromosomes and genes of each individual. Here were fire-eyed Vlana, swashbuckling Nar, soft-laughing Forten—they,
and a billion othersl The identical twins of each
last person destroyed with the planet of the Wild Ones, waiting only encasement
in suitable denucle-ated growth cells and nurture in
some suitable mother. All rolling about prettily in Elven's palm.
So
much for the physical inheritance.
And as for the social
inheritance, there was Elven.
Then
it could all begin again. Once more the Wild Ones could dream their
cosmos-storming dreams and face their beautiful dangers. Once more they could
seek to create, if they chose, those giant atoms, seeds of new universes, because
of which the sos had
destroyed them. Back in the Dawn Age physicists had envisioned the single giant
atom from which the whole universe had grown, and now it was time to see if
more such atoms could be created from energy drawn from sub-space. And who were
Fedris and Elven and the sos to say whether or not the new
universes might—or should—destroy the old? What matter how the tame herds
feared those beautiful, sub-microscopic eggs of creation?
It must all begin again, Elven resolved.
Yet
it was as much the feel of the thom
shoots rising under bis feet, as his mighty resolve,
that drove him on.
An
hour later his duster disintegrated a tangle of boughs that had only sky behind
it. He stepped into a clearing a half mile in diameter. Just ahead a bubbling
stream went through a little valley, where russet grain rippled. Beyond the
valley was a small, orchard-covered hill. On its hither side, low gray
buildings clustered raggedly. From one rose a thread of smoke. A man came
around the hill, driving cattle.
Elven's second thought was that something must have
gone wrong with his compass, some force must have been deflecting it steadily,
to draw him back in a circle.
His first thought, which he
had repressed quickly, had been that here was the mystery Fedris
had promised him, something supernatural from the ancient fairy-book world.
And
as if time too had been drawn back in a circle—he repressed this notion even
more quickly—he saw Sefora standing by the familiar
copse of trees just ahead.
Elven called
her name and hurried toward her, a little surprised at his pleasure in seeing
her again.
She
saw him, brought up her hand and swiftly tossed something to him. He started to
catch it against his chest, thinking it a gleaming fruit.
He jerked aside barely in
time.
It was a gleaming and
wickedly heavy-bladed knife.
"Sefora!"
he shouted.
The
red-haired nymph turned and fled like a doe, screaming, "Alfors! Kors! Tulya!" Elven raced after her.
It
was just beyond the first out-building that he ran into the ambush, which
seemed to have been organized impromptu in an ancient carpenter's shop. Alfors and Kors came roaring at
him from the barn, the one swinging a heavy mallet, the other a long saw.
While from the kitchen door, nearer by, Tulya rushed
with a cleaver.
Elven
caught her wrist and the two of them reeled with the force of her swing.
Reluctantly then—hating his action and only obeying necessity—he snatched out
his duster for a snap-shot at the nearest of the others.
Kors staggered, lifted his hand to his eyes and
brushed away dust. Now Alfors was the closest. Elven could see the inch-long teeth on the twanging,
singing saw-blade. Then its gleaming lower length dissolved along with Alfors' hand, while its upper half went screeching past his
head.
Kors
came on, screaming in pain, swinging the mallet blindly. Elven
sent him sprawling with a full-intensity shot that made his chest a small
volcano of dust, swung round and cut down Alfors,
ducked just in time as the cleaver, transferred to Tulya's
other hand, swiped at his neck. They went down together in a heap, the duster
at Tulya's throat.
Brushing the fine gray ashes frantically from his face, Elven looked up to see Sefora
racing toward him. Her flaming red hair and livid face were preceded by the three gleaming
tines of a pitchfork.
"Seforal"
he cried and tried to get up, but Alfors had fallen
across his legs. "Sefora!" he cried again
imploringly, but she didn't seem to hear him and her face looked only hate, so
he snapped on the duster, and tines and face and hair went up in a gray cloud.
Her headless body pitched across him with a curious little vault as the blunted
pitchfork buried its end in the ground. She hit and rolled over twice. Then
everything was very still, until a cow lowed restlessly.
Elven dragged himself from under what remained of Alfors and stood up shakily. He coughed a little, then
with a somewhat horrified distaste raced out of the settling gray cloud. As
soon as he was in clean air he emptied his lungs several times, shuddered a
bit, smiled ruefully at the four motionless forms on which the dust was
settling, and set himself to figure things out.
Evidendy
some magnetic force had deflected his compass needle, causing him to travel in
a circle. Perhaps one of the magnetic poles of this planet was in the immediate
locality. Of course this was no ordinary polar climate or day-night cycle;
still, there was no reason why a planet's axes of magnetism and rotation
mightn't be far removed from each other.
The
behavior of his last evening's hosts and hostesses was a knottier problem. It
seemed incredible that his mere disappearance, even granting they thought him
a god, had offended them so that they had become murderous. Ancient
Earth-peoples had killed gods and god-symbols, of course, yet that had been a
matter of deliberate ritual, not sudden blood-frenzy.
For
a moment he found himself wondering if Fedris had
somehow poisoned their minds against him, if Fedris
possessed some FTL agency that had rendered the whole universe allergic to Elven. But that, he knew, was the merest morbid fancy, a
kind of soured humor.
Perhaps
his charming rustics had been subject to some kind of cyclic insanity.
He
shrugged, then resolutely -went into the house and prepared himself a meal. By
the time it was ready the sky had darkened. He built a big fire and put in some
time constructing out of materials in his pack, a small gyrocompass. He worked
with an absent-minded mastery, as one whittles a toy for a child. He noticed
the cat watching him from the doorway, but it fled whenever he called to it,
and it refused to be lured by the food he set on the hearth. He looked up at
the wine jars dangling from the rafters, but did not reach them down.
After
a while he disposed himself on the couch Kors and Tulya had occupied the night before. The room grew dim as
the fire died down. He succeeded in keeping his thoughts away from what lay
outside, except that once or twice his mind pictured the odd little vault Sefora's body had made in pitching over him. In the doorway
the cat's eyes gleamed.
When he woke it was full day. He quickly got
his things together, adding a little fruit to his pack. The cat shot aside as
he went out the door. He did not look at the scene of yesterday's battle. He
could hear flies buzzing there. He went over the hill to where he had entered
the thorn forest last morning. The thorn trees, with their ridiculous
fairy-book persistence, had long ago repaired the opening he'd made. There was
no sign of it. He turned on the tiny motor of the gyrocompass, leveled his gun
at the green wall, and started dusting.
It
was as monotonous a work as ever, but he went about it with a new and almost
unsmiling grimness. At regular intervals he consulted the gyrocompass and
sighted back carefully along the arrow-straight, shoot-green corridor that narrowed
with more than perspective. Odd, the speed with which those thorns grew!
In
his mind he rehearsed his long-range course of action. He could count, he must
hope, on a generation's freedom from Fedris and the
forces of the sos. In that
time he must find a large culture, preferably urban, or one with a large number
of the right sort of domestic animals, and make himself absolute master of it,
probably by establishing a new religion. Then the proper facilities for
breeding must be arranged. Next the seeds of the Wild Ones pelleted
in the locket at his throat must be separated—as many as there were facilities
for—and placed in their living or nonliving mothers. Probably
living. And probably not human—that might present too many sociological
difficulties.
It
amused him to. think of the Wild Ones rebom from
sheep or goats, or perhaps some wholly alien rooter or browser, and his mind
conjured up a diverting picture of himself leading his strange flocks over
hilly pastures, piping like ancient Pan—until he realized that his mind had
pictured Sefora and Tulya
dancing along beside him, and he snapped off the mental picture with a frown.
Then
would come the matter of the rearing and education of
the Wild Ones. His hypothetical community of underlings would take care of the
former; the latter must all proceed from his own brain—supplemented by the
library of educational micro-tapes in the wrecked spaceboat.
Robots of some sort would be an absolute necessity. He remembered the conversation
of the night before last, which had indicated that there were or had been
robots on this planet, and lost himself in tenuous speculation—though not
forgetting his gyrocompass observations.
So
the day wore on for Elven, walking hour after hour
behind a dustgun into a dustcloud,
until he was almost hypnotized in spite of his self-watchfulness and a host of
disquieting memories fitfully thronged his mind: the darkness of sub-space;
the cat's eyes at the doorway, the feel of its fur against his ankle; dust
billowing from Tulya's throat; the little vault Sefora's body had given in pitching over him, almost as if
it rode an invisible wave in the air; an imaginary vision of the blasted planet
of the Wild Ones, its dark side aglow with radioactives
visible even in deep space; the wasplike humming in
the wrecked spaceboat; Fedris'
ghostly whisper, "The unknown will find you, Elven—"
The break in the thorn
forest took him by surprise.
He stepped into a clearing half a mile in
diameter. Just ahead a stream bubbled through a little valley rippling with
russet-grain. Beyond was a small, orchard-covered hill against whose side low,
gray buildings clustered raggedly. From one rose a ribbon of smoke.
He
hardly felt the thorns sting him as he backed into them, though the stimulus
they provided was enough to send him forward again a few steps. But such
trifles had no effect on the furious working of his mind. He must, he told
himself, be up against a force that distorted a gyrocompass as much ai a magnet, that even distorted the visual lines of space.
Or
else he really wag in a fairy-book world where no matter how hard you tried to
escape through an enchanted forest, you were always led back at evening to—
He
fancied he could see a black cloud of flies hovering near the low gray
buildings.
And
then he heard a rustling in the copse of trees just ahead and
heard a horribly familiar voice call excitedly, "Tulyal
Come quicklyl"
He began to shake. Then his hair-triggered
muscles, obeying some random stimulus, hurled him forward aimlessly, jerked
him to a stop as suddenly. Thigh-deep in the grain, he stared around wildly.
Then his gaze fixed on a movement in the twilit grain—two trails of movement,
shaking the grain but showing nothing more. Two trails of movement working
their way from the copse to him.
And
then suddenly Sefora and Tulya
were upon him, springing from their concealment like mischievous children,
their eyes gleaming, their, mouths smiling with a wicked delight. Tulya's throat, that he had yesterday seen billow into
dust, bulged with laughter. Sefora's red hair, that
he had watched puff into a gray cloud, rippled in the breeze.
He
tried to run back into the forest but they cut him off and caught him with
gales of laughter. At the touch of their hands all strength went out of him, and it seemed to him that his bones were turning to an
icy mush as they dragged him along stumblingly through the grain.
"We won't hurt you," Tulya assured him between peals of wicked laughter.
"Oh, Tulya, but he's shy!"
"Something's made him
unhappy, Sefora."
"He
needs loving, Tulya!" And Elven
felt Sefora's cold arms go round his neck and her wet
lips press his. Gasping, he tried to push away, and the lips bubbled
more laughter. He closed his eyes tight and began to sob.
When next he opened them, he was standing
near the gray buildings, and someone had put wreaths of flowers around his neck
and smeared fruit on his chin, and Alfors and Kors had come, and all four of them were dancing around him
wildly in the twilight, hand in hand, laughing, laughing.
Then
Elven laughed too, louder and louder, and their
gleaming eyes encouraged him, and he began to spin round and round inside their
spinning circle, and they grimaced their joy at his
comradeship. And then he raised his dustgun and
snapped it on and kept on spinning until the circle of other laughers was only
an expanding dust ring. Then, still laughing, he ran over the hill, a cat
scampering in swift rushes at his side, until he came to a thomy
wall. After his hands and face were puffing with stings, he remembered to lift
something he'd been holding in his hand and touch a button on it. Then he marched into a dust cloud, singing.
All
night he marched and sang, pausing only to reload the gun with a gleeful
automatism, or to take from his pack another flashglobe
of cold light, which revealed the small world of green thorns and dust motes
around him. Mostly he sang an old Centaurian Healer that went:
We'll fall through the
stars, my Deborah,
We'll fall through the
skeins of light, We'll fall out of the Galaxy
And I'll kiss you again in
the night
Only
sometimes he sang "Sefora" instead of
"Deborah" and "kill" instead of "kiss." At times
it seemed to him that he was followed by prancing goats and sheep and strange
monsters that were really his brothers and sisters. And at other times there
danced along beside him two nymphs, one red-haired. They sang with him in high
sweet voices and smiled at him wickedly. Toward morning he grew tired and
unstrapped the pack from his back and threw it away, and later he ripped
something from his throat and threw that away, too.
As
the sky paled through the boughs, the nymphs and beasts vanished and he remembered
that he was someone dangerous and important, and that something quite impossible
had truly happened to him. But that if he could really manage to think things
through—
The thorn forest ended. He stepped into a clearing a half mile in diameter. Just ahead a stream
gurgled through a small valley. Beyond was an orchard-covered hill. Russet
grain rippled in the valley. On the hillside low gray buildings clustered
raggedly. From one rose a thin streamer of smoke.
And toward him, striding lithely through the
-grain, came Sefora.
Elven screamed horribly and pointed the dustgun. But the range was too great. Only a ribbon of
grain stretching halfway to her went up in dust. She turned and raced toward
the buildings. He followed her, gun still pointed and snapped on at full power,
running furiously along the dust path, taking wild leaps through the gray
clouds.
The
dust path drew closer and closer to Sefora, until it
almost lapped her heels. She darted between two buildings.
Then something tightened like a snake around Elven's knees, and as he pitched forward something else
tightened around his upper body, jerking his elbows against his sides. The dustgun flew from his hand as he smashed against the
ground.
Then
he was lying on his back gasping, and through the thinning dust cloud Alfors and Kors were looking down
at him as they wound their lassos tighter and tighter around him, trussing him
up. He heard Alfors say, "Are you all right, Sefora?" and a voice reply, "Yes. Let me see
him." And then Sefora's face appeared through
the dust cloud and looked down into his with cold curiosity, and her red hair
touched his cheek, and Elven closed his eyes and
screamed many times.
"It
was all very simple and there was, of course, absolutely nothing of the
supernatural," the Director of Human Research assured Fedris,
taking a slip of mellow Magellanic wine from the cup
at his elbow. "Elven merely walked in a straight
line."
Fedris frowned. He was a small man with a worried
look that the most thoroughgoing psychoanalysis had been unable to eradicate.
"Of course the Galaxy is tremendously grateful to you for capturing Elven. We never dreamed he'd got as far as the MageUanics. Can't say what horrors we may have
escaped—"
"I
deserve no credit," the director told him. "It was all sheer
accident, and the matter of Elven's nerve cracking.
Of course you'd prepared the ground there by hinting to him that the
supernatural might take a hand."
"That
was the merest empty threat, born of desperation,'* Fedris
interrupted, reddening a bit.
"Still,
it prepared the ground. And then Elven had the
devilish misfortune of landing right in the middle of our project on Magellanic 47. And that, I admit, might be enough to
startle anyone." The director grinned.
Fedris looked up. "Just what is your project?
All I know is that it's rather hush-hush."
The
director settled back in his easy-chair. "The scientific understanding of
human behavior has always presented extraordinary difficulties. Ever since the
Dawn Age men have wanted to analyze their social problems in the same way they
analyze the problems of physics and chemistry. They've wanted to know exactly
what causes produce exactly what results. But one great obstacle has always
licked them."
Fedris nodded. "Lack of
controls."
"Exactly,"
the director agreed. "With rats, say, it would be easy. You can have
two—or a hundred—families of rats, each family with identical heredity, each in
an identical environment. Then you can vary one factor in one family and watch
the results. And when you get results you can trust them, because the other
family is your control, showing what happens when you don't vary the
factor."
Fedris looked at him wonderingly. "Do you mean
to
The director nodded. "On Magellanic 47 we're carrying on that same sort of work, not
with rats, but with human beings. The cages are half-mile clearings with
identical weather, terrain, plants, animals—everything identical down to the
tiniest detail. The bars of the cages are the thorn trees, which our botanists
developed specially for the purpose. The inmates of the cages—the human
experimental animals—are identical twins—though centuplets
would be closer to the right word. Identical upbringings are assured for each
group by the use of robot nurses and mentors, set to perform always the same
unvarying routine. These robots are removed when the members of the group are
sufficiently mature for our purposes. All our observations are, of course, completely
secret—and also intermittent, which had the unfortunate result of letting Elven do some serious damage before he was caught.
"Do
you see the setup now? In the thom
forest in which Elven was wrecked there were
approximately one hundred identical clearings set at identical intervals. Each
clearing looked exactly like the other, and each contained one Sefora, one Tulya, one Alfors, and one Kors. Elven thought he was going in a circle, but actually he was
going in a straight line. Each evening it was a different clearing he came to.
Each night he met a new Sefora.
"Each
group he encountered was identical except for one factor—the factor we were
varying—and that had the effect of making it a bit more .grisly for him. You
see, in those groups we happened to be running an experiment to determine the
causes of human behavior patterns toward strangers. We'd made slight variations
in their environment and robot-education, with the result that the first group
he met was submissive toward strangers; the second was violently hostile; the
third as violently friendly; the fourth highly suspicious. Too bad he didn't
meet the fourth group first—though, of course, they'd have been unable to
manage him except that he was half mad with supernatural terror."
The direcfor finished his wine and smiled at Fedris. "So you see it all was the sheerest accident. No one was more surprised than I when, in taking
a routine observation, I found that my 'animals' had this gibbering and
trussed-up intruder. And you could have knocked me over with a molecule when I
found out it was Elven."
Fedris
whistled his wonder. "I can sympathize with the poor devil," he said,
"and I can understand, too, why your project is hush-hush."
The
director nodded. "Yes, experimenting with human beings is a rather hard
notion for most people to take. Still it's better than running all mankind as
one big experiment without controls. And we're extremely kind to our 'animals'.
As
soon as our experiment with each is finished, it's our policy to graduate
them, with suitable re-education, into the sos."
"Still—" said Fedris doubtfully.
"You
think it's a bit like some of the ideas of the Wild
Ones?"
"A bit," Fedris admitted.
"Sometimes I think so too," the director admitted with a
smile, and poured his guest more wine.
While deep in the thom forest on Magellanic
47, green shoots and tendrils closed round a locket containing a white tablet,
encapsulating all the Wild Ones save Elven in a green and tiny tomb.
DEADLY
MOON
Almost a quarter of a million miles above the earth,
the moon rode east in her orbit around the larger sphere at the cosmically gentle
speed of two-thirds of a mile a second, though to those on the eastward
spinning planet below, completing 27 turns for the moon's one, she seemed to
move west each night with the stars.
A
globe of almost airless, sun-blanched rock two thousand miles wide, Luna hung
now beside the earth but moving out beyond her, away from the sun. The only
face of her that earthlings ever saw was now half in the full glare of raw sunlight,
half in darkness. It was the night of the half moon, or first quarter as it is
commonly called.
But
on this night of the half moon, Luna at last had two moons of her own, though
they were as invisible to earth-side viewers as the two tiny moons of Mars.
Free-falling around her at almost a mile a second in tight orbits a few score miles
above her cratered surface with its "seas" (mares) of darker rock, were two small manned ships,
one of the
American
Space Force, one of the Russian Space Force. Making a swift circuit of the
moon every two hours, the pilots of these ships were each rushing through
independent surveys of the moon's treacherous pumice-powdered surface, in preparation
for actual landings of larger exploration ships in the near future.
So more people than ordinarily were looking up at the moon from earth's
evening side. But
most of them were looking up rather more in fear than wonder. The past decade
had been one of increasingly angry bickering between the leaders of the two
great nations. The long-dreaded Third World War seemed very close and the
neck-and-neck race to establish the first military base on the moon seemed only
one more move bringing it closer.
Nor
had the war-heavy atmosphere been improved by the recent suggestion, made
almost simultaneously by a Russian scientist and an American military expert,
that the moon would be an ideal spot for the testing—particularly in deep
underground bursts—of atomic bombs, a research activity theoretically banned on
earth itself.
At
the moment the Pacific Coast of America was moving into earth's shadow under
the half moon. The towering evergreen forest on the western slopes of the
Cascade Mountains was dipping and darkening into night.
On a
lonely hilltop that lifted out of the forest toward the center of the state of
Washington, not far east of Puget Sound, two men and a girl were tensely
watching the moon "rise"—Luna was already quite high in the southern
sky-over the peaked roof of a white-walled Cape Cod style home.
The
younger man could hardly have been more than a few years older than the girl—in
his mid-twenties at most—yet he gave the impression of a matured thoughtfulness
and poise. He was dressed for the city with the conservative elegance of a
successful professional man.
The
older man looked about fifty, though his mustache and eyebrows were still dark
and his whole face strongly virile with its deep asymmetric vertical furrows
between the brows. His rough sports clothes suited him.
He had an arm clasped around the shoulders of
the girl, who likewise was dressed for the country. Her face was beautiful,
but now although the evening was chilly, it was beaded with perspiration and it
showed the taut, barely controlled terror of a woman who forces herself to
watch an excruciating or deadly sight.
"Go
on, Janet," the older man prompted harshly. "What does the moon make
you think of?"
"A
spider," the girl answered instantly. "A bloated
white spider hanging just over my head in an invisible web. You see, I
have a horror of spiders too, doctor." The last remark she shot as an
explanation to the younger man. "Or a re-volverl
Yes, that's itl—a nickle-plated
revolver with mother-of-pearl grips pointed at my chest—pointed at all of us!
-by a drooling, giggling old mad-woman whose face is white with powder and
whose cheeks have circles of violet rouge and whose yellowed lace dress—"
"I
think that's enough demonstration, Professor McNellis,"
the younger man interrupted. "Now if we could go inside with your
daughter—"
"No!
I first want to prove to you, Dr. Snowden, that it's only the nightmares that
are any real trouble to Janet, that this moon-fear hasn't in any way seriously
cracked her waking nerves."
"No,
and we don't want it to, either," the younger man retorted quietly.
"Go
on, Janet," the older man repeated, ignoring the implied criticism.
"What else do you see in the moon."
"A
man, a rabbit, a clown, a witch, a bat, a beautiful lady," the girl
answered in rapid sing-song. She seemed to have lost some of her terror, or at
least some of her submis-siveness, during the
interchange between the two men. She chuckled uneasily and said, "Dad,
anyone would think you were the psychiatrist, the way you're using
the moon for a Rorschache test!" Then her voice
went grave with insight. "The moon is the
original Rorschach inkblot, you know. The mares are the faded ink. For thousands of years it's been hanging up there
identically the same and people have been seeing things in it. It's the only
solid thing you can look at in the heavens that has any shape or parts."
The older man's arm dropped away from the
girl a little.
That's
quite true," he said in an odd voice. "Yet I never thought of it just
that way. In a lifetime of astronomical work I never had just that
thought."
The
younger man moved in, put his own arm around the girl's shoulders and turned
her away from the moon. The older man started to oppose him, then
gave way.
"And now, Miss McNellis, since you've
made an original contribution to the science of astronomy," the younger
man said lightly, "I think that will be enough lunar observation for
tonight."
"You're
the doctor," the girl told him, managing a little smile. "The Moon Doctor."
"That
title's a gross exaggeration, Janet, hung on me by one silly newspaper
story," he assured her, smiling back. "Actually I wouldn't go near
the place. I'm afraid of space."
"Just
the same, Dad got you because you're the Moon Doctor."
"He
knows a million times more about the moon than I do. And I'm sure he also knows
that it's perfectly normal for a girl whose boyfriend is orbiting around the
moon to feel frightened on his account and to view the place he's exploring—or
surveying—as an almost supernatural enemy."
"Janet's
fear of the moon goes back a lot further than her engagement to Tom Kimbro," the older man put in argu-mentively.
"Yes, Dad, but I am frightened on Tom's account."
"You
shouldn't be. Dr. Snowden, I've pointed out to Janet that she's no worse off
than a girl engaged to one of the early polar explorers. Better, because polar
explorers were away for years."
"Yes,
Dad, but their girlfriend couldn't go out in the yard and see Antarctica or the
northern icecap hanging in the sky and know that he was up there, invisible, but moving across it." The
edge-of-hysteria note had returned to her voice and she started slowly to turn
around. "I think the moon looks as if it were made of ice," she said
with eerie faintness. "Dirty ice with lots of bubbles in
it."
"Janet,
that's a crackpot theory!" her father said
angrily. "How you could even start looking at those Welt-Eis-Lehre pamphlets when your father's a legitimate astronomer—"
"It's
getting cold out here. We can continue inside," Dr. Andreas Snowden said
firmly. This time Professor McNellis did not protest.
The
living room was quite livable in spite of the way it was crammed with books and
glass-fronted shelves of small meteorites and other items of astronomical
interest. After they had settled themselves and Prof. McNellis
had poured coffee at Dr. Snowden's suggestion, the latter fixed the professor's
daughter with a friendly grin for a few moments and then said, "And now I
want to hear all about it, Janet. Ordinarily I'd talk to you alone, and
tomorrow I will, but this way seems comfortable now. Let's see, your mother
died when you were a little girl and so you've spent your life with your
father, who is a great student of the moon, although his specialty is meteoritics—and just recently you've become engaged to
Lieutenant Commander Tom Kimbro, pilot and crew of
America's first circumlunar survey ship and infinitely more the Moon Man than
I'm the Moon Doctor."
"I've
known Tom for years, though," the girl added, smilingly at ease herself
now that there was a roof overhead. "Dad's always been mixed up in the
Moon Project."
"Yes.
Now tell me about this moon-horror of yours. And please, Prof. McNellis, no professional interruptions no matter what
comes up, even Cosmic Ice Theory."
He
said it jokingly, but it sounded like a command just the same. The professor,
less tense now that he was playing host, took it with good grace.
His
daughter glanced gratefully at the young doctor, then
grew thoughtful. "The nightmares are the worst part," she said after
a bit. "Especially after they got so bad two months ago.
I'm afraid of going crazy while I'm having them. In fact, I think I do go crazy
and stay that way for ten minutes or so after I wake up. That was what happened
two months ago when I reared out of bed and got Dad's revolver and shot off all
the bullets in it through the bedroom window straight at the moon., I knew at
the time that it was some sort of gesture I was making—I knew I couldn't hit
the moon, or at least I was pretty sure I couldn't—but at the same time I knew
it was something I had to do to save my sanity. The only other thing I could
have done would have been to dive in our bomb shelter and never come out. You
know, it was like when something's broken your nerve and made you cower, and if
you don't strike out right away, no matter how convulsively ..."
"I
understand," the doctor said soberly. There was approval in his voice.
"Janet, what happens in these dreams?"
"Nightmares,
you mean. Nightmare, really, for it's always about the same. It repeats."
Janet closed her eyes. "Well, I'm standing outside and it's
night and then the moon comes across the sky very fast, only it's much bigger
and brighter. Sometimes it almost seems to brush the trees. And I squinch down as if it were a big silver express train come
out of nowhere behind me and I'm terribly frightened. It plunges out of sight
and I think I'm safe, but then it comes roaring up over the opposite horizon,
even lower this time. There's a hot smell as if the air were being burnt by
friction. This keeps on over and over again, faster and faster, though each
time I think it's the last. I begin to feel like Poe's man in 'The Pit and the
Pendulum,' tied flat on the floor and looking up at the gleaming pendulum that
keeps coming closer each whistling stroke until the knife-edge is about to
slice him in two.
"But
finally I can't help myself, I get curious. I know it's positively the worst
thing I can do, that there's some dreadful law against it, that I'm defying
some fantastically powerful authority, but just the same I reach up—don't ask
me how I manage when the moon's going so fast, I don't know, and don't ask me
how I reach so far when it's still in the treetops —sometimes it seems to press
its cratered face down into the yard and sometimes I grow an arm long as the
magic beanstalk—but anyway I reach up, knowing I shouldn't, and I touch the
moon!"
"How
does the moon feel to your fingers when you touch it?" Dr. Snowden asked.
"Hairy,
like a big spider," Janet answered rapidly. Then she opened her eyes
wonderingly. "I never remembered that before.
The moon is rock. Why did I say it, doctor?"
"I
don't know. Forget it." Then, "What happens next?" he asked
matter-of-factly.
Janet
hugged her elbows and held her knees tight together. "The moon breaks
up," she whispered. "It cracks all over like a white plate. For a
moment the fragments chum around, then they all come
hammering down at me. But in the instant before I'm destroyed and the world
with me, while the fragments are still streaking down at me like bullets or an
avalanche of rocks or a jack-in-the-box upside down, growing mountain-size in a
moment—in that instant I feel this dreadful guilt and I know I'm responsible
for it all because I touched the moon. That's when I go crazy." She let
out a breath.
Dr.
Snowden smiled. "You know, Janet, I can't help thinking how two or three
thousand years ago your dream would have been regarded as a clear warning from
the gods not >to land on the moon—plus a prevision of the dreadful things
that would happen to us if we kept on meddling sacrilegiously with the
heavenly bodies. No, Prof. McNellis, I
don't mean a word of that seriously," he added quickly as he noted that
the astronomer's expression had become aggressively disapproving. "It's
just that I make it a habit at a session like this of saying whatever comes
into my head. I believe in bringing even superstitious thoughts out and looking
at them. By the way, I'd say Janet's dream shows some elements of Cosmic Ice
Theory, wouldn't you? See, I break my own rules as soon as I make them."
"If
you dignify it with the name Theory," the professor replied sardonically.
"A Viennese engineer named Hoerbiger started the
whole Welt-Eis-Lehre business—a man with no astronomical training.
His weird and wonderful notion was that the moon is made of ice and mud, that
it came spiraling in from the infinite and will soon get so close to earth that
it will cause floods and earthquakes and then break up, showering us with a
fiery frigid hail. What's more, according to Hoerbiger
earth has had six previous moons, which all broke up the same way. This one
we've got now is the seventh. Incidentally, the break-up of the sixth moon is
supposed to have accounted for all legends of universal floods, fire-breathing
dragons, falling towers of Babel, the Twilight of the Gods, and what have you.
"It's all nothing new, by the way. In
the last century Ignatius Donnelly, who even got to be a member of Congress,
wrote it all up in his book Ragnarok, except he used comets instead of moons—in those days they thought of
comets as more massive. And now Velikovsky's done it
again—gone over Hoerbiger once lightly, with comets. Took in some allegedly smart people, too.
"Hoerbiger developed one great
set of followers at any rate —the Nazis. Most of them were suckers for
pseudo-science. Cosmic Ice suited the Nordic superman perfectly.
"Of
course, Janet knows all about this—she's read the junk, haven't you,
dear?"
The
doctor cocked his head and asked quickly, "Am I mistaken, Prof. McNellis, or isn't there nevertheless some shadow of a real
scientific theory behind this notion of moons breaking up?"
"Oh
yes. If a satellite with a plastic core gets close enough to its mother planet,
the tidal action of the latter tears it apart. That's what's supposed to have
produced the rings of Saturn—the break-up of a moon of Saturn that got too
close. The crucial distance is called Roche's limit. In the case of earth it's
only six thousand miles above the ground—Luna would have to be that close, even
if she had the right kind of core, which she hasn't. It has been suggested—by George Gamow—that if everything worked out just right
this situation might actually come about—in one hundred billion years!"
The professor chuckled. "You can see that none of this stuff applies to
our present situation at all."
"Still,
it's interesting." The doctor looked back from father to daughter and
asked casually, "Janet, do you believe in this Wek-Eis-Lehrer
She
shook her head while her father snorted. "But it's interesting," she
added with a nervous, almost impish smile.
"I
agree," Dr. Snowden said, nodding. "You know, Hans Schindler Bellamy,
Hoerbiger's British disciple, had a very vivid
childhood dream almost exactly like yours, that later helped convert him to Hoerbiger."
"Then
you already knew what I was telling you about the Cosmic Ice farrago?"
Prof. McNellis said accusingly.
"Only
a bit here and there," the doctor assured him. "One or two of my
patients were converts." He did not pursue the point. "Janet,"
he said, "I gather your own moon dreams go back to childhood, but they
weren't so frightening then?"
"That's right. Except for one time when
Dad took me on an ocean cruise just after mother died.
I'd see the moonlight dancing on the water. The dreams were very bad
then."
Prof.
McNellis nodded. "We went to the Caribbean. You
were just seven. Almost every night you'd wake up whimpering and blurry-eyed.
Naturally, Dr. Snowden, I assumed Janet was reacting to her mother's
death."
"Of course. Tell me, Janet, where is the real moon when you have these dreams? I
mean, do they tend to cluster around the time of the full moon?"
The
girl bobbed her head vigorously. "Once—just once— I remember having the
nightmare in the daytime and when I woke up I saw the moon out of the window,
faint silver in the pale blue afternoon sky."
Again
Prof. McNellis nodded confirmation and said,
"For years I've kept a record of Janet's dreams. In every instance the
moon was above the horizon when the dream occurred. There were none during the
dark of the moon—none of the hundred and seventeen Janet reported to me, at any
rate."
The
doctor frowned quizzically. "That's a rather astonishing circumstance,
don't you think? To what do you attribute it?"
The
professor shrugged. "I don't know. Maybe moonlight is the stimulus that
triggers the dream, or was to start with."
"Yes,"
Janet said rather solemnly. "Doctor, isn't it an old theory that the moon
causes mental upsets? You know, Luna and lunacy. And isn't there supposed to be
something very special about moonlight?—something affecting growth and women's
monthly cycles and the electrical pressures in the blood and the brain?"
"Don't get off on that track,
Janet," her father said sharply. "Another real possibility, Dr.
Snowden, is that Janet has a moon-clock in her brain and that her subconscious
only sends the dream when the moon is topside. I'm just telling you the
facts."
Janet raised her hand. "I just
remembered," she said excitedly, "that the exact position of the
moon in the sky had a lot to do with my Caribbean dreams being so bad. Dr.
Snowden," she continued anxiously, "you know that up north here the
moon is never exactly overhead, that even when it's at its highest in the sky
it's still south of the zenith?" "Yes, I know that much," he
grinned.
"Well,
when we sailed to the Caribbean I remember Dad explaining to me that now we
were in the Tropic Zone the moon could be directly overhead. In fact, on one
night of the cruise it was directly overhead." She shivered.
"I
think I remember telling you about that," her father said, "but I
don't recall it making any impression on you at the time. At least you didn't
say anything to me."
"I know. I was afraid
you'd be angry."
"But why? And why should the moon being in the zenith frighten you
especially?"
"Yes,
Janet, why?" Dr.
Snowden echoed.
She
looked back and forth between the two men. "Don't you see? If the moon
were straight overhead, it could fall straight down on me. Anywhere else, it might
miss me. It's the difference between being in the mouth of a tunnel that may
collapse at any minute and being in the
tunnel."
This
time it was the professor who chuckled. "Janet," he said, "you
certainly did take this thing seriously when you were a tyke."
"I
still take it seriously," she flared at him. "My feelings take it
seriously. What holds the moon up? A lot of scientific Iawsl
What if the laws should be repealed,j>t broken?"
"Oh
Janet," was all her father could say, still chuckling, while Dr. Snowden
commented, "Your feelings take it seriously—that's a nice phrase, Janet.
But your mind doesn't take it seriously, does it?"
"I guess not,"
she admitted unwillingly.
"For
instance," he pressed, "I don't know if it's possible, but suppose
there should be a volcanic eruption on the moon, you know that the chunks of
rock thrown up would fall back to the moon, don't you? That they couldn't hit
the earth? Even if they were shot out toward the earth?"
"I suppose you're
right," she agreed after a moment.
"No,
you're not, Dr. Snowden—not exactly," Prof. McNellis
interjected, getting up. He was grinning with friendly maliciousness.
"You say you're a man who believes in speaking his thoughts and settling
for nothing less than reality. Good!
Those
are my own sentiments." He stopped in front of one of the glass-fronted
cases. "Come over here, I've got something to show you. You too, Janet—I
never told you about these. After your nightmares started, I always believed in
playing down the moon to you, until Dr. Snowden convinced me of the superior
virtue of always speaking all the truth."
"I
didn't exacdy say—" Dr. Snowden began and cut
himself short. He went over to the case. Janet McNellis
stopped just behind him.
Prof.
McNellis indicated some specimens of what looked like
blackish glass neatly arranged on white cardboard. Most of them seemed to be
fragments of small domed disks, but a few were almost perfect buttons a half
inch to an inch across.
Prof.
McNellis cleared his throat. "Meteorites of this
sort are called tektites," he explained. "They are found only in the
Tropic Zone or near it—in other words, under the moon. The theory is that when
large meteorites hit the moon, some fragments of the moon's siliceous—glassy
or sandy—surface are dashed upward at speeds greater than the moon's low escape
velocity of a mile and a half a second. Some of these fragments are captured
by earth's gravitational field. During their fall to earth they are melted by
the heat of friction with the air and take their characteristic button shape.
So right here, in all likelihood, you are looking at bits of actual moon-rock,
tiny fragments of—Janet,
what is it?"
Dr.
Snowden looked around. Janet was leaning tautly forward, her gaze hypnotically
fixed on the tektites. She was trembling visibly. ". . . like spiders," he heard her say faintly.
Suddenly
her face convulsed into a mask halfway between panic and rage. She lifted her
fists above her head and lunged at the glass. Dr. Snowden grabbed her around
the waist, using his other arm to block her descending fists, and in spite of
her struggles wrenched her around so that she wasn't looking at the case. She
continued to struggle and he could feel her still shivering too.
The
professor hesitated, then went out in the hall and called, "Mrs.
Pulaski!"
The girl stopped struggling but the doctor
didn't release her. "Janet," he whispered sharply, "what do you believe causes your dreams?"
"You'll think I'm
crazy," she whispered back.
His
arms hugged her a little more tightly. "Everyone's crazy," he assured
her with great conviction.
"I
think my dreams are warnings," she whispered. "1 think
they're somehow broadcast to my mind from a station on the moon."
"Thank you,
Janet," the doctor said, releasing her.
Prof.
McNellis returned with a stout
motherly women. Janet went to her. " 'Scuse me, everybody, I was goofy," she said.
"G'night, Dad, doctor."
When
the two women were gone the two men looked at each other. The doctor lifted his
empty coffee cup. As the professor poured for both of them, he said ruefully,
"I guess I was the goofy one, shocking Janet that way."
"It's
almost impossible to tell in advance how something like that will work
out," the doctor consoled him. "Though I'll admit I was startled by
those tektites myself. I'd never heard of the things."
The
professor frowned. "There are a lot of things about the moon that most
people don't know. But what do you think about Janet?"
"It's
too soon to say. Except that she seems remarkably stable, both mentally and
emotionally, for whatever it is she's going through."
"I'm glad to hear you
say that."
"You
mustn't worry about her cracking up, professor, but I also advise you not to
put her in any more test situations."
"I
won't!—I think I've learned my lesson." The professor's tone grew
confidential. "Dr. Snowden, I've often wondered if some childhood trauma
mayn't have been the cause of Janet's moon-dread. Perhaps she believed that my
interest in astronomy—to a child, the moon—was somehow responsible for her
mother's death."
"Could
be," the doctor nodded thoughtfully. "But I have a hunch that the
real cause of Janet's dreams has nothing to do with psychoanalysis or Welt-Eis-Lehre or her anxiety about Tom Kimbro."
The professor looked up. "What else
then?" he asked sharply.
The doctor shrugged.
"Again it's too early to say."
The
professor studied him. "Tell me," he said, "why are you called
the Moon Doctor? The Moon Project recommended you—I didn't investigate any
further."
"I
had luck treating a couple of Project executives who had
nervous breakdowns—but that isn't the main reason." The doctor held
out his cup for more coffee. After taking a swallow, he settled back.
"About two years ago," he began, "I had a run of private patients
who had a horror of the moon mixed up with their other troubles. It seemed too
much of a coincidence, so I sent out feelers and inquiries to "other
psychiatrists, lay analysts, mental hospitals, psycho wards, and so on. The
answers came in fasti—evidendy there were dozens of
doctors as puzzled as I. It turned out that there were literally thousands of
cases of mental aberration characterized by moon-dread, hundreds of them
involving dreams very similar to Janet's about the moon breaking up—exploding,
suffering giant volcanic eruptions, colliding with a comet or with earth
itself, cracking under tidal strain, and so on."
The
professor shook his head wonderingly. "I knew Project Moon had touched off
a bit of a panic reaction, but I never dreamed it went that deep."
The
doctor said, "In hundreds of cases—again like Janet's —there was a history
of mild moon-fears going back to childhood."
"Hmm—sounds
like the onset of the mass neurosis, or whatever you'd call it, coincided with
the beginnings of high
"Apparently. But then Tiow do you explain this? For about
four thousand dreams of moon break-up I got dates—day, hour, approximate
minute. In ninety seven percent of those instances the moon was above the
horizon when the dream occurred. I've become convinced that some straight-line
influence traveling from the moon to the dreamer is at work-something that,
like short radio waves, can be blocked off by the curve and mass of the
earth."
"Moonlight?" the professor
suggested quickly. "No. These dreams occur just as often when the local
sky is heavily clouded as when it's clear. I don't think light or any other
part of the electromagnetic spectrum is responsible. I think it's an entirely
different order of waves."
The
professor frowned. "Surely you're not suggesting something like
thought-waves? You know, doctor, even if there is such a thing as telepathy or
extrasensory perception, the chances are it takes place instantaneously,
altogether outside the world of space and time. The notion of thought-waves
similar to those of light and sound is primitive."
"I
don't know," the doctor said. "Galileo thought that light moved instantaneously too, but it turned out that it was just too fast
for him to measure. The same might be true of thought-waves—that they go so
much faster than light that they seem to
move instantaneously. But only seem—another century mayTefine
techniques for measuring their speed."
"But
Einstein—" The professor shrugged. "In any case the notion of
telepathy is completely hypothetical."
"I
don't know," the doctor repeated. "While you were calling the nurse,
Janet quieted and I took the opportunity to ask her what she thought was
causing her dreams. She said, 'I think my dreams are broadcast to my mind from a station on the moon.'
Prof. McNellis, that is by no
means the first time a patient with moon-horror has made that suggestion to
me."
The
professor bowed his head, massaging his brow as if it were beginning to ache. "I
guess I don't know either," he muttered.
The
doctor's eyes brightened. "But perhaps you do," he said softly. He
leaned forward. "Professor McNellis," he
continued, "what is it that's really happening
on the moon? What is it that you Project people have been observing on the
moon's surface that you won't reveal to outsiders, not even to me? What is it
that Tom Kimbro may be glimpsing now?"
The
professor didn't look up, but his hand stopped massaging his forehead.
"Professor
McNellis, I know you've
been observing something strange on the moon. I got unmistakable hints of it
from one of my Project patients, but even in his condition he let himself be
gagged by security regulations. What is it? You don't suppose I came way out
here only to treat Janet, do you?"
For several seconds neither man moved or
spoke. It was a contest of wills. Then the professor looked up shiftily.
"For
centuries some astronomers, usually the less dependable ones, have been
observing all sorts of 'strange' things on the moon," he began evasively.
"One hundred and fifty years ago Gruithuisen
reported seeing a fortress near the crater Schroeter.
One hundred years ago Zentmayer saw mountain-size
objects marching or moving across the moon during an eclipse. Bright spots have
been seen, black spots, spots like giant bats—Charles Fort's books of
newspaper-science are crammed with examples! Really, Dr. Snowden, strange
things seen on the moon are an old, many-times-exploded story.5' His
voice had grown loud and assertive, but he did not meet the doctor's eyes.
"Professor
McNellis, I'm not interested in past observations of
strange appearances on the moon," the doctor pressed on insistently.
"What I want to know is what's being observed on the moon right now. It's
my guess that it has nothing to do with Russian activities—I've heard through
European colleagues that there's been a sizable outbreak of some kind of
moon-psychosis, plus moon-dreams, in the Soviet Union too —so you don't have that reason for making security regulations sacrosanct. Please tell me,
Professor McNellis—I need the information if I'm to
treat Janet successfully."
The
professor twisted in his chair, finally said miserably, "It's been made
top secret. They're mortally afraid of setting off a major panic, or having the
whole Project canceled."
"Professor
McNellis, a panic is being set off and maybe the Project should be canceled, but that's nothing to me. My interest is solely
professional—my own profession."
"Even
when you were recommended to me as a psychiatrist, I was warned against
telling you about the observations. And if Janet ever heard a word of them, she
would go mad."
"Professor
McNellis, I'm a grown man. I'm reasonably responsible.
I may need that information to save your daughter's sanity."
The
professor looked up hollow-eyed, at last meeting the doctor's gaze. "Ill chance it," he said.
"Two months ago our moon telescope in the 24-hour-satellite, where the
seeing isn't blurred by atmosphere, began to observe activity of an unknown
nature in four separate areas of the moon: near Mare Nectaris,
in Mare Foecunditatis, north of Mare Crisium, and in the moon's very center by Sinus Medii. It was impossible to determine the nature of the
activity. At first we thought it -was the Russians secretly got there ahead of
us, but Space Intelligence disposed of that possibility. The observations
themselves mounted simply to a limited and variable darkening in the four
areas—shadows, you might say, though one viewer described what he saw as
'towers, some moving.'
"Then
two days ago the survey ship went into orbit—purposely an orbit that would
take it over Nectaris and Foecunditatis.
On his first pass Tom Kimbro reported glimpsing at
both sites—here I quote him verbatim—spiderlike or skeletal machines, towering thin creatures not men, and
evidence of deep shafts being dug."
The
professor jerked to his feet. "That's all," he said with a rapid
shrug. "Since that first report, the Project's cut me off from information
too. Whatever else Tom's seen—either confirming or negating those first
glimpses—and whatever's happened to him, I haven't been told."
The hall door opened. "Professor McNellis," Mrs. Pulaski said, "isn't Janet here?
She said she wanted to speak to you, but the outside door's
open."
The
professor looked guilt-struck at the doctor. "Do you suppose she was
listening from the hall? That she heard me?" The doctor was already moving
past Mrs. Pulaski.
He
spotted Janet at once. Her quilted silk dressing gown stood out like white
paint. She was standing in the center of the lawn, looking up over the roof.
Motioning Mrs. Pulaski back and gripping the
professor's arm for silence, he moved out beside the girl.
She
did not seem to notice their approach. Her lips were working a little. Her
thumbs kept lightly rubbing her fingertips. Her gaze, wide-eyed, staring, was
fixed on the moon.
The
doctor knew that his first concern should be for his patient, but now he realized
that, even before that, he too must look at the moon.
Half black and merged with space, half
faintly mottled white, Luna hung starkly, her glow blanking out all but the
most brilliant nearby stars. She looked smaller to the doctor than he'd been
thinking of her. He realized, with irrelevant guilt, that although he'd been
thinking a lot about the moon in the past two years, he hadn't bothered to look
at her often and certainly hadn't studied her.
"The four sites?"
he heard himself ask softly.
"Three
of them are near the curving outer edge of the illuminated half," the
professor answered as quietly. "The fourth is right in the middle of the
shadow line."
Janet
did not appear to hear them. Then, with no more warning than a gasp of indrawn
breath, she screamed.
The
doctor shot his arm around her shoulders, but he did not take his gaze off the
moon.
Two
seconds passed. Perhaps three. The moon did not
change.
Then,
by the curving edge, he thought he saw three tiny smudges. He asked himself
what they could be at a quarter of a million miles. Giant cracks many miles
across? Huge sections lifting? He blinked his eyes to
clear them.
Then
he was looking at the violet stars. There were four of them, brighter than
Venus, although three were in the illuminated half disk at the same spots where
he'd seen the smudges. The fourth, brightest of all, was dead denter, bisecting the straight boundary between the bright
and dark halves of the disk.
He
kept looking—it would have been completely beyond his power not to—but the
psychiatrist-section of his mind, operating independently, made him say loudly,
"I'm seeing it too, Janetl We're all seeing it.
It's real!" He said that more than once, gripping her shoulders tightly
each time he spoke.
He
heard Professor McNellis croak, "Ten
seconds," and realized he must mean the time since the smudges appeared.
The
violet stars were growing less glitteringly bright and at the same time they
were expanding. They became violet balls or round spots, still brighter than
the moon, but paling, as big at the moment as pingpong
balls if you thought of the moon as a basketball, but they were growing.
"Explosion
fronts," the professor whispered, continuing at intervals to croak the
time.
Two
of the spots, near the edge, overlapped without losing their perfect
circularity. The central spot was still brightest, especially where it expanded
into the dark half. The spots were big as tennis balls now, big as baseballs.
"Atomic charges. Have to be. Huge beyond imagining. Set hundreds of miles deep." The professor was still
speaking in a whisper.
The
doctor found he was hunching his shoulders in expectation of a shattering
blast, then remembered there was no air to carry sound
from the moon. Some day he must ask the professor how long it would take sound
to get from the moon to the earth if there were air to carry it. He glanced at Janet and at the same moment she looked
around at him question-ingly. He simply nodded once, then they both looked up again.
The
four spots all overlapped now, each grown to half the moon's diameter, and they
were getting hard to see against the bright half—just a thin violet wash edged
with deeper violet. Soon they were indistinguishable except for the one
spreading from the moon's center across the dark side. For an eerie moment it
outlined the dark edge of the moon with a violet semi-circle, then vanished too.
"One
minute," croaked the professor. "Blast-front speed 17 miles a
second."
Where
the first smudges and violet stars had been were now four dark marks, almost
black. The central one was hardest to see—a jag in the shadow line. They were
just large enough to show irregular edges to keen eyes.
"Blast
holes. One hundred, two hundred miles across. As deep, probably deeper." The professor maintained his
commentary.
Then they saw the chunks.
The
ones blasted from the Crisium and Foecunditatis
holes were already clear of the side of the moon and gleaming with reflected
sunlight themselves. Three were large enough to show their jagged shape.
"The biggest. One twentieth moon diameter by eye. One hundred miles across. Big as the
asteroid Juno. New Hampshire cubed."
It almost seemed possible to see the movement
of the chunks. The doctor finally decided he couldn't quite. It was like trying
to see the movement of thé minute hand of a watch.
Yet every time he blinked and looked back, they seemed to have fanned out a
little farther.
"Four minutes."
It
became clear that the chunks were moving at different apparent speeds. The
doctor decided it might be because they had been thrown up at different angles.
He wondered why he so wanted to keep watching them—perhaps so as not to have to
think about them? He glanced at Janet. She seemed to be watching them with an
almost relaxed interest. He probably need worry no more about her mind. Now
that her fears had become something real and shared, she would hardly aberrate. No neuroses in wartime. One thing seemed likely
about Janet, though—that she'd sensed the explosions telepathically. She'd
screamed two or three seconds before he'd seen anything, and it takes light a
second and a half to make the moon-earth trip.
There
were some lights gleaming now on the dark side of the moon, near its center,
one of them large enough to have an irregular appearance. Those must be chunks
from Sinus Medii, the doctor told himself. He
shivered.
The
fastest moving Crisium chunks were now the moon's own width beyond the side of the moon.
"Eight minutes."
The professor's voice was almost normal
again, though still hushed, as he calculated aloud, "One moon diameter in
eight minutes. Round off to two thousand miles in five hundred seconds. Gives a chunk velocity of four miles a second. Needn't worry about the stuff from Crisium,
Foecunditatis, even Nectaris.
Won't come anywhere near us—miss earth by hundreds of thousands of miles. But
the chunks from Medii are headed here, or near here. Starting near moon escape speed of a mile and a half a
second it would take the chunks four days for the trip. But
starting at around four 'miles a second, figure about one day. Yes,
those Medii chunks should near-miss or hit us in
about 24 hours—or at least close enough to that time so that we'll be on the
impact side of earth."
When
he finished he was no longer talking to himself and for the first time since
the catastrophe began he had taken his eyes off the moon and was looking at his
daughter and the doctor.
That
he should be doing so was nothing exceptional. All over earth's
evening side people who had been looking up in the sky were now looking around
at each other.
The
British Isles and West Africa missed the sight. There the moon, setting around
midnight, had been down for a good hour.
In Asia and most of the Soviet Union it was
day. But all the Western Hemisphere—all the Americas—had a clear view of it.
The first conspicuous consequence was the
rumor, traveling like a prairie fire, that the
communist Russians were testing planet-killer bombs on the moon, or that World
War Three had already started there. This rumor persisted long after Conelrad was on the air and the National Disaster Plan in
effect. In the Eastern Hemisphere it metamorphosed into the rumor that the
capitalist Americans, ever careless of the safety of the human race and
invariably wasteful of natural resources, were ravishing Luna, ruining earth's
only moon to satisfy the lusts of mad stockbrokers and insane artillery generals.
Less
conspicuously, but quite as swiftly, the telescopes of the west began to sort
out the Sinus Medii chunks and make preliminary
estimates of their individual trajectories. Organized amateur meteor watchers
rendered significant aid, particularly in keeping up to date, minute by
minute, the map of the expanding chunk-jumble.
Very
fortunately for the world, clear weather prevailed, cloud-cover everywhere was
at a minimum—though in any case clouds could not have interfered with probably
the most important telescope involved—that on the 24-hour satellite hanging
22,100 miles above the Pacific Ocean south of Mexico.
First observations added up to this: headed
toward earth was a jumble of chunks ranging down in size from a planetoid
ninety miles in diameter, a dozen fragments ten or more miles across, some
three score of mass of the order of one cubic mile, and presumably any number
of smaller chunks plus a thin cloud of moon-gravel and dust. They would reach
the immediate vicinity of earth in almost exactly one day, conforming
remarkably to Professor McNellis' rough estimate.
Those that entered earth's atmosphere would do so at a speed low for
meteorites, yet high enough to bum up the very smallest and to ensure that the
large chunks, little slowed by the air because of their great mass relative to
cross-section, would strike the ground or the seas with impact speeds around
six miles a second. The strike would be almost completely confined to the
Western Hemisphere, clustering around the 120th meridian.
As
soon as this last item of news was released, transocean
airlines were besieged by persons loaded with money for tickets and bribes, and
many did escape to the other side of the earth _before most commercial planes
were gone or grounded. Meanwhile numerous private planes took off on
fantastically perilous transocean flights.
It
was good that the telescopes of the Americas got to work swiftly. In six hours
the earth's rotation had carried them out of sight of the moon and the Sinus
swarm. First the Soviets and Asia, then Europe and Africa, moved into night and
had their view of catastrophe hurtling down.
By
that time the chunks from the three explosion sites on the moon's western rim
had moved out far enough to be almost inconspicuous among the stars. But the
Sinus swarm, steadily growing in apparent size and gradually fanning out,
presented a brilliant spectacle, those against the dark half of the moon
pocking it with points of light, those against the bright half more difficult
to see but the largest visible as dark specks, while those that had fanned out
most made a twinkling halo around Luna.
Asian
and Russian, then European and African telescopes took up the task of charting
chunk trajectories, ably supplementing the invaluable work of the moon 'scope
in the 24-hour satellite, which kept up a steady flow of observation except
for the two hours earth's intervening bulk cut it off from sight of the Sinus
swarm. The satellite 'scope was especially helpful because, observing at
radio-synchronized times in tandem with an earth 'scope, it was able to provide
triangulations on a base some 25,000 miles long.
With
incredulous shivers of relief it gradually became apparent that the 90-mile
planetoid and many of the other large members of the swarm were going to shoot
past earth on the side away from the sun. At first they had seemed to be the ones
most on target, but since at a right angle to their explosion-velocity they all
also had the moon's own orbital velocity of two-thirds of a mile a second, they
drifted steadily east. A few might ruffle the top of the atmosphere, glowing in
their passage, and all of them would go into long narrow elliptical orbits
around earth, some of them perhaps slowing and falling in the far future, but
that was now of less than no consequence.
It
was in the chunks that had seemed sure to miss earth widely to the west that
the danger lay. For these inevitably drifted east too—onto target.
With
maddening but unavoidable delays the major bulls-eye chunks were sorted out and
their points of impact approximated, approximated more narrowly,
and finally pinpointed. Once given, an evacuation order cannot be effectively
rescinded, and an error of twenty miles in calculated point of impact would
mean many evacuees fleeing to certain death.
By
nightfall in London it was clear that a plus-ten-mile-diameter chunk would hit
somewhere in the South Pacific and a plus-one-mile chunk in the American
northwest or British Columbia.
These
two chunks were of special interest because they were the ones that the
Russians and American moon-survey ships elected to ride down last.
Both
survey ships had the good fortune to escape the blasts, and both had large fuel
reserves since it had originally been planned that each should shift orbits
several times during the survey. As soon as they became aware of the blasts
and their effects each pilot independently decided that his greatest usefulness
lay in matching trajectories with the Sinus swarm and riding it down to earth.
Accordingly they broke out of their circumlunar orbits and blasted toward the
twinkling jumble of moon-rock between them and the gleaming skyblue semicircle of earth, for them in half phase. As
soon as, risking collisions with tailenders, they
were able to report that they had caught up with the swarm, their radio signals
were of unique service in determining the trajectory of the swarm,
supplementing telescopic observations.
But
the self-imposed task of the survey ships was to become even more perilous. By
exactly matching trajectories with a large chunk—a matter largely of eyework and finicky correction blasts—and then holding that
course for a matter of minutes, the survey ship's radio signals gave earth
stations an exact fix on that chunk and its course, though at first there were
confusions as to which
chunk, judging by 'scope,
the survey ship was matching orbits with. Thereafter it was for the pilots a
matter of blasting gingerly over to the next major chunk, risking collision
with minor fragments every second, and matching trajectories with that.
In
its final trajectory-matching, the Russian ship satisfied earth stations that
the plus-ten-mile chunk would land in the open Pacific midway between Baja
California and Easter Island and between the Galapagos and Marquises. Warnings
of giant waves had already gone out to the Pacific islands and and coastal areas, but were now followed up with more
specific alarms.
Immediately
thereafter the Russian ship went out of radio contact 30,000 miles above the
equator, possibly broached by one or more chunks while blasting sideways into a
circum-terran orbit. Its exact fate
as a piece of matter was never known, but its performance was enshrined in
men's hearts and helped raise the framework of the International Meteor
Guard.
Twenty-two minutes later the 24-hour
satellite had its own "curtain raising"
encounter with the western edge of the swarm. It was twice holed, but its
suited-up personnel effected repairs. A radarman was
killed and the moon 'scope smashed.
Meanwhile
both Americas had an unequa'led
sight of the Sinus swarm as earth's own shadow line moved from Recife to Quito
and on from Halifax to Portland. As it
approached its "comfortable" 15,000-mile miss of earth, the 90-mile
"Vermont-cubed" chunk attained the apparent size of the moon— a jagged moon, shaped like a stone arrowhead. Fierce soot-painted
Indians discharged barbed arrows back at it from the banks of the Orinco, while at Walpi and Oraibi white-masked Hopi kachinas
danced on imperturbably hour after hour.
Everywhere
in the United States families sat outdoors or in their cars, listening to Conelrad, ready to move if advised. Already some were
filing out like dispossessed ants from known danger points, crowding highways
and railways, jamming the insides and clinging to the outsides of coaches,
buses, and private cars, many simply legging it with their portable radios
murmuring—most refugees tried to follow the insistently repeated advice from Conelrad to "keep listening for further possible
revisions in your local impact points."
In a
few cities there was a fairly orderly movement into bomb shelters. Stampedes,
riots, and other disturbances were surprisingly few—the amazing spectacle in
the night sky appeared to have an inhibiting effect.
Bizarre
reactions occurred scatteredly. Some splinter religious
and cultist groups gathered on hilltops to observe God's judgement
on Sodom and Gomorrah. Others did the same thing simply for kicks, generally
with the assistance of alcohol. A Greenwich Village group conducted solemn
rooftop rites to propitiate the Triple Goddess in her role of Diana the
Destroyer.
During
the last hour several airports were invaded by sur;
vival-gangs and mobs convinced that only
persons in the air when the swarm struck would survive the shock of the impact,
and a few overloaded planes, some commandeered, took off laboredly or crashed in the attempt.
Tom Kimbio rode the U.S. survey ship down along the final
course of the plus-one-mile chunk, keeping about a quarter mile west of its
raw gray side. While his ranging radio pulsed signals,
he spoke a message over the voice circuit: "Ship's losing air. Must have sprung a seam on the last bump. But I'm safe in my
suit. As I came from behind the moon on my last circuit, heading for the shadow
line and Nectaris and just before I spotted the
violet front and the Sinus chunks rising south, I think I saw their ships blasting away from the sun. There were five of them—skeletal
ships—I could see the stars through them—with barely visible greenish jets.
They set off those blasts like you'd set off firecrackers to scare dogs. I
don't know. Give my love to Janet."
Immediately
after that he successfully swung west into a braking orbit and brought down the ship safely next day on the Utah salt
flats. His final trajectory-matching had helped pinpoint the exact spot near
the center of the state of Washington where the Big Chunk would land.
The
moon is made of rock that averages out a little more than three times as heavy
as water. The Big Chunk had a mass
of rather more than a thousand million tons. Its impact at almost
six miles a second would release raw energy equivalent to
about 1500 nominal atomic bombs (Hiroshima type), nothing unimaginable in an era of fusion bombs. There would
not be the initial chromatic electromagnetic flash (heat, light, gamma rays) of
an atomic weapon. A typical mushroom cloud would be raised, but the fallout
would be clean, lacking radioactives. The blast wave
would be the same, the earth shock heavier.
The
Big Chunk would be only one of several almost as large hitting the Western
Hemisphere along with almost countless other moon meteorites, many of them
large enough to produce impact energy in the atomic-bomb range.
As
the Sinus swarm traveled the last few hundred miles to impact or by-pass,
gleaming with reflected sunlight in earth's night sky like so many newborn
stars, a few showing jagged shapes, there was a breathtaking transformation. Beginning
(for North American viewers) with those to the south, but rapidly traveling
north across the sky, the lights of the Sinus swarm winked out as the chunks
plunged into earth's shadow. To watchers it was as if the chunks had vanished.
Some persons fell on their knees and gave thanks, believing that they had
witnessed a miracle—a last-minute divine intervention. Then, again starting
toward the south, dark red sparks began to glow almost where the Sinus lights
had been and in the same general pattern, as the chunks entered the atmosphere
and were heated toward incandescence by friction
with air molecules.
*
Beginning in southern California, but swiftly fanning out north and east, every
state in the Union had its own Great Sinus Shower. Dazzling ribbons and trails,
ionization glows, heat glows, strange radio hissings and roars that came from
the ground itself (energized by massive radio emanations from chunk trails in
the ionosphere), explosions in the air as a few chunks tortured by heat blew
apart, then the walloping deafening blast waves of the impacts, meteor-booms
as their roar of passages finally caught up with the chunks, dust clouds
spurting up to blanket the stars, wildly eddying winds, re-echoing
reverberations. Then, at last, silence.
Every state in the Union had its casualties,
heroisms, and freaks. Seven hundred deaths were subsequently verified, grimly
settling once and for all the niggling old dispute as to whether a human being
had ever really been killed by a meteorite, and it was assumed that at least
three hundred more perished unrecorded. The city of Globe, Arizona, was
destroyed by a direct hit after a commendably orderly and thorough evacuation.
Three telephone girls at a town near Emporia, Kansas, and four radarmen at an early warning station north of Milwaukee
stayed phoning Get-Out warnings and making last-minute observations until it
was too late to escape physically from their point-of-impact posts. The
inhabitants of a Saskatchewan village took a road 9 to death instead of a road
5 to safety, victims of someone's slovenly articulation. A Douglas DC-9 was
struck and smashed in midair. A strike in the Texas Panhandle released a gusher
of oil. A 25-square-block slum on Chicago's south side, long slated for
clearance, was razed meteoritically.
Except
within miles of major impact points, ground shock was surprisingly slight, less
than that of a major earthquake, seismograph recordings nowhere indicating
energy releases higher than 5 on Richter's logarithmic scale.
The
giant waves did not quite live up to expectations either and although according
to some calculations the Pacific Chunk should have raised the water level of
earth's oceans by four hundredths of an inch, this increase was never verified
by subsequent measurement. Nor was any island of moon rock miles high created
in the Pacific—only the Sinus Shoal, formed by the break-up of the Pacific
Chunk on impact and the distribution of its fragments across the bottom. At the
time of the impact several fishing boats, private yachts, and one small steamer
were never heard from again and presumably engulfed. Another steamer had its
back broken by the first giant surge and sank, but its crew successfully
abandoned ship and survived to a man, as did three persons on a balsa raft.
These last claimed afterwards to have seen the Pacific Chunk at close range
"hanging in the sky like a redhot
mountain." Hours later, California, Mexican, and South American beaches
were impressively slopped over and there was some loss of life in the Hawaiian
Islands, though the inhabitants of the 50th state were by then far more
interested in the volcanic eruption that had been touched off by the odd chance
of a sizable moon-chunk falling into one of the craters of the volcano Mauna
Loa.
Alaska,
eastern Siberia, and most of the Pacific Islands reported daytime meteor roars
and some scattered impacts-including the spectacular spray plumes of ocean
strikes-while by an almost amusing coincidence the widely separated cities of
Canberra, Yokohama, and the town of Ikhotsk were each
simultaneously terrorized by a daytime meteor that glowed and roared miles
(some said yards!) above the rooftops and then reportedly departed into space
again without striking anywhere.
Janet McNellis, her
father, and Dr. Snowden rode out the Washington blast with no great discomfort
in the Professor's bomb shelter, though the doctor always afterwards looked a
bit sourly at people who spoke of the "trivial" earthquake effects of
the Great Sinus Shower. By dawn the dust had cleared sufficiently, the great
mushroom cloud blowing away east, so that they had a clear view from their
hilltop of a considerable segment of the blast area, on the margin of which
they had survived.
The
house behind them had its walls and roof buckled somewhat, but had not
collapsed. The glass had been blown out of all the windows, although they had
been left open before impact. Everywhere the white paint was smoothly shaded
with green, as though by a giant airbrush—the great fist of the blast wave had
worn a green glove of leaves and pine needles.
The
naked trees from which the latter had been stripped marched disconsolately down
the hillside. About a mile away these standing wooden skeletons began to give
way to a limitless plain of bare-trunked fallen trees that the blast had
combed as neatly as straight hair. As one studied them it became apparent that
the fallen trunks radiated out from a blast center beyond the horizon and some
fifteen miles away.
"Precisely
like Kulik's photographs of the impact site of the
Great Siberian Meteor of 19081" Professor McNellis
commented.
Janet
sighed and snuggled her coat a little more warmly around her. "You
know," she remarked, "I don't think I'm going to have any more moon
nightmares."
"I
don't imagine you will," Dr. Snowden said carefully. "Earth has now
received the warning of which your telepathic dreams, and those of many
others, were a prevision."
"You
think they really were telepathic?" she asked half skeptically.
He nodded.
"But why a warning?" the professor demanded. "Why such a warning? Why not at least talk to us
first?"
He seemed to be asking the questions more of
the bare treetrunks than of his daughter or the
doctor; nevertheless the latter ventured a speculative answer.
"Maybe
they don't think we're worth talking to, only
worth scaring. I don't know. Maybe they did talk
to us—maybe that's what the dreams were. They might be a telepathic race, you
know, and assume the same means of communication in others. Maybe they only
set off their intimidation-blasts after we didn't answer them, or seemed to
answer insanely."
"Still,
such a warning."
The doctor shrugged. "Perhaps they
thought it was exactly what we deserve. After all, we must seem a menacing
species in some respects—reaching out for the stars when we're still uncertain
as to whether it wouldn't be best for one half of our race to destroy the other
half." He sighed. "On
the other hand," he said, "maybe some
of the creatures with whom we share the universe are simply not sane by our
standards. Maybe if we knew all we could know about them with our limited
minds, we'd still judge them maniacs. I don't know. What we do know now is
something we should have known all the time: that we're not the only
inhabitants of the galaxy and obviously not—yet—the most powerfull"
THE
SNOWBANK ORBIT
The pole stars of the other planets cluster around Polaris
and Octans, but Uranus spins on a snobbishly
different axis between Aldebaran and Antares. The Dull is her coronet and the Scorpion her
footstool. Dear blowzy old bitch-planet, swollen and pale and cold, mad with
your Shakespearean moons, white-mottled as death from Venerean
Plague, spinning on your side like a poisoned pregnant cockroach, rolling
around the sun like a fat drunken floozie with green
hair rolling on the black floor of an infinite barroom, what a sweet last view
of the Solar System you are for a cleancut young
spaceman . . .
Grunfeld
chopped off that train of thought short. He was young and the First
Interstellar War had snatched him up and now it was going to pitch him and
twenty other Joes out of the System on a fast curve breaking around Uranus—and
so what! He shivered to get a little heat and then applied himself to the
occulted star he was tracking through Prosperous
bridge
telescope. The star was a twentieth planetary diameter into Uranus, the crosslines showed—a glint almost lost in pale green. That
meant its light was bulleting 1600 miles deep through the seventh planet's
thick hydrogen atmosphere, unless he were seeing the star on a mirage
trajectory—and at least its depth agreed with the time since rim contact.
At
2000 miles he lost it. That should mean 2000 miles plus of hydrogen soup above
the methane ocean, an America-wide layer of gaseous gunk for the captain to
play the mad hero in with the fleet.
Grunfeld
didn't think the captain wanted to play the mad hero. The captain hadn't gone
space-simple in any obvious way like Croker and Ness. And he wasn't, like
Jackson, a telepathy-racked visionary entranced by the Enemy. Worry and
responsibility had turned the captain's face into a skull which floated in Grunfeld's imagination when he wasn't actually seeing it,
but the tired eyes deep-sunk in the dark sockets were still cool and perhaps
sane. But because of the worry the captain always wanted to have the last bit
of fact bearing on the least likely maneuver, and two pieces of evidence were
better than one. Grunfeld found the next sizable star
due to occult. Five-six minutes to rim contact. He floated back a foot from the
telescope, stretching out his thin body in the plane of the ecliptic—strange
how he automatically assumed that orientation in free fall! He blinked and
blinked, then rested his eyes on the same planet he'd been straining them on.
The
pale greenish bulk of Uranus was centered in the big bridge spaceshield
against the black velvet dark and bayonet-bright stars, a water-splotched and
faded chartreuse tennis ball on the diamond-spiked bed of night. At eight
million miles she looked half the width of Luna seen from Earth. Her whitish
equatorial bands went from bottom to top, where, Grunfeld
knew, they were spinning out of sight at three miles a second—a gelid waterfall
that he imagined tugging at him with ghostly green gangrenous fingers and
pulling him over into a hydrogen Niagara.
Half as wide as Luna. But in a day she'd overflow the port as they whipped past her on a new
miss and in another day she'd be as small as this again, but behind them, sunward,
having altered their outward course by some small and as yet unpredictable
angle, but no more able to slow Pros-pero and her sister ships or turn them back at
their 100 miles a second than the fleet's solar jets could operate at this
chilly distance from Sol. G'by, fleet. G'by, C.C.Y.
spaceman.
Grunfeld looked for the pale planet's moons. Miranda
and Umbriel were too tiny to make disks, but he
distinguished Ariel four diameters above the planet and Oberon a dozen below. Spectral sequins. If the fleet were going to get a radio
signal from any of them, it would have to be Titania,
occulted now by the planet and the noisy natural static of her roiling
hydrogen air and seething methane seas—but it had always been only a faint hope
that there were survivors from the First Uranus Expedition.
Grunfeld relaxed his neck and let his gaze drift down
across the curving star-bordered forward edge of Prospero's huge mirror and the thin jutting beams of the
pot lattice arm to the dim red-lit gages below the spaceshield.
Forward
Skin Temperature seven degrees Kelvin. Almost low enough for helium to crawl,
if you had some helium. Prospero's
insulation, originally
designed to hold out solar heat, was doing a fair job in reverse.
Aft
(sunward) Skin Temperature 75 degrees Kelvin. Close to that of Uranus'
sunlit face. Check.
Cabin Temperature 43 degrees Fahrenheit. Bit! The Captain was a miser with the chem fuel remaining. And rightly ... if it were right to drag out life as
long as possible in the empty icebox beyond Uranus.
Gravities
of Acceleration zero. Many other zeros.
The
four telltales for the fleet unblinkingly glowed dimmest blue—one each for Caliban, Snug, Moth, and Starveling, following
Prospero in the astern on slave automatic—though for
months inertia had done all five ships' piloting. Once the buttons had been
green, but they'd wiped that color off the boards because of the Enemy.
The
gages still showed their last maximums. Skin 793 Kelvin, Cabin 144 Fahrenheit,
Gravs 3.2. All of
them hit almost a year ago, when they'd been ace-ing
past the sun.
Grunfeld's gaze edged back to the five bulbous pressure
suits, once more rigidly upright in their braced racks, that
they'd been wearing during that stretch of acceleration inside the orbit of
Mercury. He started. For a moment he'd thought he saw the dark-circled eyes of
the captain peering between two of the bulging black suits. Nerves! The captain
had to be in his cabin, readying alternate piloting programs for Copperhead.
Suddenly
Grunfeld jerked his face back toward the
space-shield—so violently that his body began very slowly to spin in the
opposite direction. This time he'd thought he saw the Enemy's green flashing
near the margin of the planet-bright green, viridian, far vivider
than that of Uranus herself. He drew himself to the telescope and feverishly
studied the area. Nothing at all. Nerves
again. If the Enemy were much nearer than a light-minute, Jackson would esp it and give warning. The next
star was still three minutes from rim contact. Grunfeld's
mind retreated to the circumstances that had brought Prospero (then only Mercury One) out here.
II
When the First Interstellar War erupted, the pioneer
fleets of Earth's nations had barely pushed their explorations beyond the
orbit of Saturn. Except for the vessels of the International Meteor Guard,
spaceflight was still a military enterprise of America, Russia, England and the
other mega-powers.
During
the first months the advantage lay wholly with the slim black cruisers of the
Enemy, who had an antigravity which allowed them to hover near planets without
going into orbit; and a frightening degree of control over light itself.
Indeed, their principal weapon was a tight beam of visible light, a dense
photonic stiletto with an effective range of several Jupiter-diameters in vacuum.
They also used visible light, in the green band, for communication as men use
radio, sometimes broadcasting it and sometimes beaming it loosely in strange
abstract pictures that seemed part of their language. Their gravity-immune
ships moved by reaction to photonic jets the tightness of which rendered them
invisible except near the sun, where they tended to ionize electronically
dirty volumes of space. It was probably this effective invisibility, based on
light-control, which allowed them to penetrate the Solar System as deep as
Earth's orbit undetected, rather than any power of travel in time or
sub-space, as was first assumed. Earthmen could only guess at the physical
appearance of the Enemy, since no prisoners were taken on either side.
Despite
his impressive maneuverability and armament, the Enemy was oddly timid about
attacking live planets. He showed no fear of the big gas planets, in fact
hovering very close to their turgid surfaces, as if having some way of fueling
from them.
Near
Terra the first tactic of the black cruisers, after destroying Lunostrovok and Circumluna, was
to hover behind the moon, as though sharing its tide-lockedness—a
circumstance that led to a sortie by Earth's Combined Fleet, England and Sweden
excepted.
At
the wholly disastrous Battle of the Far Side, which was visible in part to
naked-eye viewers on Earth, the Combined Fleet was annihiliated.
No Enemy ship was captured, boarded, or seriously damaged—except for one which,
apparently by a fluke, was struck by a fission-headed antimissile and proceded after the blast to "burn," meaning that
it suffered a slow and puzzling disintegration, accompanied by a dazzling
rainbow display of visible radiation. This was before the "stupidity"
of the Enemy with regard to small atomic missiles was noted, or their allergy
to certain radio wave bands, and also before Terran
telepaths began to claim cloudy contact with Enemy minds.
Following
Far Side, the Enemy burst into activity, harrying Terran
spacecraft as far as Mercury and Saturn, though still showing great caution in
maneuver and making no direct attacks on planets. It was as if a race of
heavily armed marine creatures should sink all ocean-going ships or drive them
to harbor, but make no assaults beyond the shore line. For a full year Earth,
though her groundside and satellite rocketyards were
furiously busy, had no vehicle in deep space—with one exception.
At
the onset of the War a fleet of five mobile bases of the U.S. Space Force were
in Orbit to Mercury, where it was intended they take up satellite positions
prior to the prospecting and mineral exploitation of the small sun-blasted
planet. These five ships, each with a skeleton five-man crew, were essentially
Ross-Smith space stations with a solar drive, assembled in space and intended
solely for space-to-space flight inside Earth's orbit. A huge paraboloid mirror, its diameter four times the length of
the ship's hull, superheated at its focus the hydrogen which was ejected as a plasma at high exhaust
velocity. Each ship likewise mounted versatile radio-radar equipment on dual
lattice arms and carried as ship's launch a two-man chemical fuel rocket
adaptable as a fusion-headed torpedo.
After
Far Side, this "tin can" fleet was ordered to bypass Mercury and,
tacking on the sun, shape an orbit for Uranus, chiefly because that remote
planet, making its 84-year circuit of Sol, was currently on the opposite side
of the sun to the four inner planets and the two nearer gas giants Jupiter and
Saturn. In the /empty regions of space the relatively defenseless fleet might
escape the attention of the Enemy.
However,
while still accelerating into the sun for maximum boost, the fleet received
information that two Enemy cruisers were in pursuit. The five ships cracked on
all possible speed, drawing on the solar drive's high efficiency near the sun
and expending all their hydrogen and most ,material capable of being vaporized,
including some of the light-metal hydrogen storage tanks—like an old steamer
burning her cabin furniture and the cabins themselves to win a race. Gradually
the curving course that would have taken years to reach the outer planet
flattened into a hyperbola that would make the journey in 200 days.
In
the asteroid belt the pursuing cruisers turned aside to join in the crucial
Battle of the Trojans with Earth's largely new-built, more heavily and wisely
armed Combined Fleet— a battle that proved to be only a prelude to the decisive
Battle of Jupiter.
Meanwhile
the five-ship fleet sped onward, its solar drive quite useless in this twilight
region even if it could have scraped together the needed boilable ejectant mass to slow its flight. Weeks became months. The
ships were renamed for the planet they were aimed at. At least the fleet's
trajectory had been truly set.
Almost
on collision course it neared Uranus, a mystery-cored ball of frigid gas 32,000
miles wide coasting through space across the fleet's course at a lazy four
miles a second. At this time the fleet was traveling at 100 miles a second.
Beyond Uranus lay only the interstellar night, into which the fleet would
inevitably vanish ...
Unless, Grunfeld
told himself . . . unless the fleet shed its velocity by ramming the gaseous
bulk of Uranus.
This idea of atmospheric braking on a grand scale had sounded possible at first
suggestion, half a year ago—a little like a man falling off a mountain or from
a plane and saving his life by dropping into a great thickness of feathery
new-fallen snow.
Supposing
her solar jet worked out here and she had the reaction mass, Prospero could have shed her present velocity in five
hours, decelerating at a comfortable one G.
But
allowing her 12,000 miles of straight-line travel through Uranus' frigid soupy
atmosphere—and that might be dipping very close to the methane seas blanketing
the planet's hypothetical mineral core—Prospero would
have two minutes in which to shed her velocity.
Two minutes—at 150 Gs.
Men had stood 40 and 50 Gs
for a fractional second.
But
for two minutes . . . Grunfeld told himself that the
only surer way to die would be to run into a section
of the Enemy fleet. According to one calculation the ship's skin would melt by
heat of friction in 90 seconds, despite the low temperature of the abrading
atmosphere.
The
star Grunfeld had been waiting for touched the hazy
rim of Uranus. He drifted back to the eyepiece and began to follow it in as the
pale planet's hydrogen muted its diamond brilliance.
III
In the aft cabin, lank hairy-wristed Croker pinned
another blanket around black Jackson as the latter shivered in his trance. Then
Croker turned on a small light at the head of the hammock.
"Captain
won't like that," plump pale Ness observed tranquilly from where he
floated in womb position across the cabin. "Enemy can feel a candle of our light, captain says, ten million miles away." He rocked his elbows
for warmth and his body wobbled in reaction like a pollywog's.
"And
Jackson hears the Enemy think . . . and Heimdall
hears the grass grow," Croker commented with a harsh manic laugh.
"Isn't an Enemy for a billion miles, Ness."
He launched aft from the hammock. "We haven't spotted their green since
Saturn orbit. There's nowhere for them."
"There's
the far side of Uranus," Ness pointed out. "That's less than ten
million miles now. Eight. A bare
day. They could be there."
"Yes,
waiting to bushwack us as we whip past on our way to
eternity," Croker chuckled as he crumpled up against the aft port,
shedding momentum. "That's likely, isn't it, when they didn't have time
for us back in the Belt?" He scowled at the tiny white sun, no bigger a
disk than Venus, but still with one hundred times as much light as the full
moon pouring from it—too much light to look at comfortably. He began to button
the inner cover over the port.
"Don't
do that," Ness objected without conviction. "There's not much heat in
it but there's some." He hugged his elbows and shivered. "I
don't remember being warm
since Mars orbit."
"The sun gets on my nerves," Croker
said. "It's like looking at an arc light through a pinhole. It's like a
high, high jail light in a cold concrete yard. The stars are highlights on the
barbed wire." He continued to button out the sun.
"You
ever in jail?" Ness asked. Croker grinned.
With
the tropism of a fish, Ness began to paddle toward the little light at the head
of Jackson's hammock, flicking his hands from the wrists like flippers. "I
got one thing against the sun," he said quiedy.
"It's blanketing out the radio. I'd like us to get one more message from Earth.
We haven't tried rigging our mirror to catch radio waves. I'd like to hear how
we won the battle of Jupiter."
"If we won it,"
Croker said.
"Our
telescopes show no more green around Jove," Ness reminded him. "We
counted 27 rainbows on Enemy cruisers "burning.' Captain verified the
count."
"Repeat: if we won it." Croker pushed off and drifted back toward
the hammock. "If there was a real victory message they'd push it through,
even if the sun's in the way and it takes three hours to catch us. People who win, shout."
Ness
shrugged as he paddled. "One way or the other, we should be getting the
news soon from Titania station," he said.
"They'll have heard."
"If
they're still alive and there ever was a Titania
Station," Croker amended, backing air violently to stop himself
as he neared the hammock. "Look, Ness, we know that the First Uranus
Expedition arrived. At least they set off their flares. But that was three
years before the War and we haven't any idea of what's happened to them since
and if they ever managed to set up housekeeping on Titania—or
Ariel or Oberon or even Miranda or Umbriel. At least
if they built a station could raise Earth I haven't been told. Sure thing Prospero hasn't heard anything . . . and we're getting
close."
"I
won't argue," Ness said. "Even if we raise 'em,
it'll fust be hello-goodby
with maybe time between for a battle report."
"And a football score and a short letter
from home, ten seconds per man as the station fades." Croker frowned and
added, "If Captain had cottoned to my idea, two
of us at any rate could have got off this express train at Uranus."
"Tell me how,"
Ness asked drily.
"How?
Why, one of the ship's launches. Replace the fusion-head with the cabin. Put
all the chem fuel in the tanks instead of divvying it
between the ship and the launch."
"I haven't got the brain for math
Copperhead has, but I can subtract," Ness said, referring to Prospero's piloting robot. "Fully fueled, one of
the launches has a max velocity change in free-fall of 30 miles per second. Use
it all in braking and you've only taken 30 from 100. The launch is still going
past Uranus and out of the system at 70 miles a second."
"You
didn't hear all my idea," Croker said. "You put piggyback tanks on
your launch and top them off with the fuel from the other four launches. Then
you've 100 miles of braking and a
maneuvering reserve. You only need to shed 90 miles, anyway. Ten miles a
second's the close cir-cum-Uranian velocity. Go into
circum-Uranian orbit and wait for Titania
to send their jeep to pick you up. Have to start the maneuver four hours this
side of Uranus, though. Take that long at 1 G to shed it."
"Cute,"
Ness conceded. "Especially the jeep. But I'm glad
just the same we've got 70 per cent of our chem fuel
in our ships' tanks instead of the launches. We're on such a bull's eye course
for Uranus—Copperhead really pulled a miracle plotting our orbit—that we may
need a sidewise shove to miss her. If we slapped into that cold hydrogen soup
at our 100 mps-"
Croker
shrugged. "We still could have dropped a couple of us," he said.
"Captain's
got to look after the whole fleet," Ness said. "You're beginning to
agitate, Croker, like you was Grun-feld—or the
captain himself."
"But
if Titania Station's alive, a couple of men dropped
off would do the fleet some good. Stir Titania up to
punch a message through to Earth and get a really high-speed
retrieve-and-rescue ship started out after us. If we've won the War."
"But
Titania Station's dead or never was, not to mention
its jeep. And we've lost the Battle of Jupiter. You said so yourself,"
Ness asserted owlishly. "Captain's got to look after the whole
fleet."
"Yeah,
so he kills himself fretting and the rest of us die of old age in the outskirts
of the Solar System. Join the Space Force and See the Stars I Ness, do you know
how long it'd take us to reach the nearest star—except we aren't headed for
her—at our 100 mps? Eight thousand years!"
"That's a lot of time to kill,"
Ness said. "Let's play chess."
Jackson
sighed and they both looked quickly at the dark unlined face above the cocoon,
but the hps did not flutter again, or the eyelids.
Croker said, "Suppose he knows what the Enemy looks like?"
"I
suppose," Ness said. "When he talks about them it's as if he was
their interpreter. How about the chess?"
"Suits. Knight to King Bishop
Three."
"Hmm.
Knight to King Knight Two, Third Floor."
"Hey, I meant flat
chess, not three-D," Croker objected.
"That
thin old game? Why, I no sooner start to get the position really visualized in
my head than the game's over."
"I
don't want to start a game of three-D with Uranus only 18 hours away."
Jackson
stirred in his hammock. His lips worked. "They ..." he breathed. Croker and Ness instandy
watched him. "They . . ."
"I
wonder if he is really inside the Enemy's mind?"
Ness said.
"He
thinks he speaks for them," Croker replied and the next instant felt a
warning touch on his arm and looked sideways and saw dark-circled eyes in a
skull-angular face under a battered cap with a tarnished sunburst. Damn,
thought Croker, how does the captain always know when Jackson's going to talk?
"They
are waiting for us on the other side of Uranus," Jackson breathed. His
lips trembled into a smile and his voice grew a little louder, though his eyes
stayed shut. "They're welcoming us, they're our brothers." The smile
died. "But they know they got to kill us, they know we got to die."
The
hammock with its tight-swathed form began to move past. Croker and he snatched
at it. The captain had pushed off from him for the hatch leading forward.
Grunfeld was losing the new star at 2200 miles into
Uranus when he saw the two viridian flares flashing between it and the rim.
Each flash was circled by a fleeting bright green ring, like a mist halo. He
thought he'd be afraid when he saw that green again, but what he felt was a
jolt of excitement that made him grin. With it came a touch on his shoulder. He
thought, the captain always knows.
"Ambush," he
said. "At least two cruisers."
He
yielded the eyepiece to the captain. Even without the telescope he could see
those incredibly brilliant green flickers. He asked himself if the Enemy was
already gunning for the fleet through Uranus.
The blue telltales for Caliban and Starveling
began to blink.
"They've
seen it too," the captain said. He snatched up the mike and his next words
rang through the Prospero.
"Rig ship for the snowbank orbit! Snowbank orbit
with stinger! Mr. Grunfeld, raise the fleet."
Aft,
Croker muttered, "Rig our shrouds, don't he mean? Rig shrouds and
firecrackers mounted on Fourth of July rockets."
Ness
said, "Cheer up. Even the longest strategic withdrawal in history has to
end some time."
IV
Three quarters of a day later Grunfeld
felt a spasm of futile fear and revolt as the pressure suit closed like a
thick-fleshed carnivorous plant on his drugged and tired body. Relax, he told
himself. Fine thing if you cooked up a fuss when even Croker didn't. He thought
of forty things to recheck. Relax, he repeated—the work's over; all that matters
is in Copperhead's memory tanks now, or will be as soon as the captain's suited
up.
The
suit held Grunfeld erect, his arms at his sides—the
best attitude, except he was still facing forward, for taking high G, providing
the ship herself didn't start to tumble. Only the cheekpieces
and visor hadn't closed in on his face—translucent hand-thick petals as yet
unfolded. He felt the delicate firm pressure of built-in fingertips monitoring
his pulses and against his buttocks the cold smooth muzzles of the jet
hypodermics that would feed him metronomic drugs during the high-G stretch and
stimulants when they were in free-fall again. When.
He
could swing his head and eyes just enough to make out the suits of Croker and
Ness to either side of him and their profiles wavy
through the jutting misty cheekpieces. Ahead to the
left was Jackson—just the back of his suit, like a black snowman standing at
attention, pale-olive-edged by the great glow of Uranus. And to the right the
captain, his legs suited but his upper body still bent out to the side as he
checked the monitor of his suit with its glowing blue button and the manual
controls that would lie under his hands during the maneuver.
Beyond
the captain was the spaceshield, the lower quarter
of it still blackness and stars, but the upper three-quarters filled with the
onrushing planet's pale mottled green that now had the dulled richness of
watered silk. They were so close that the rim hardly showed curvature. The
atmosphere must have a steep gradient, Grunfeld
thought, or they'd already be feeling decel. That
stuff ahead looked more like water than any kind of air. It bothered him that
the captain was still half out of his suit.
There
should be action and shouted commands, Grunfeld
thought, to fill up these last tight-stretched minutes. Last orders to the
fleet, port covers being cranked shut, someone doing a countdown on the firing
of their torpedo. But the last message had gone to the fleet minutes ago. Its
robot pilots were set to follow Prospero and imitate, nothing else. And all the rest was up to
Copperhead. Still . . .
Grunfeld wet
his lips. "Captain," he said hesitantly. "Captain?"
"Thank you, Grunfeld."
He caught the edge of the skull's answering grin. "We are beginning to hit
hydrogen," the quiet voice went on. "Forward skin temperature's up to
9 K."
Beyond
the friendly skull, a great patch of the rim of Uranus flared bright green. As
if that final stimulus had been needed, Jackson began to talk dreamily from his
suit.
"They're
still welcoming us and grieving for us. I begin to get it a little more now.
Their ship's one thing and they're another. Their ship is frightened to death
of us. It hates us and the only thing it knows to do is to kill us. They can't
stop it, they're even less than passengers . . ."
The
captain was in his suit now. Grunfeld sensed a faint
throbbing and felt a rush of cold air. The cabin refrigeration system had
started up, carrying cabin heat to the lattice arms. Intended to protect them
from solar heat, it would now do what it could against the heat of friction.
The
straight edge of Uranus was getting hazier. Even the fainter stars shone
through, spangling it. A bell jangled and the pale green segment narrowed as
the steel meteor panels began to close in front of the spaceshield.
Soon there was only a narrow vertical ribbon of green—bright green as it narrowed to a thread—then for a few seconds only blackness
except for the dim red and blue beads and semicircles, just beyond the
captain, of the board. Then the muted interior cabin lights glowed on.
Jackson
droned: "They and their ships come from very far away, from the edge. If
this is the continuum, they come from the . . . discontinuum,
where they don't have stars but something else and where gravity is different.
Their ships came from the edge on a gust of fear with the other ships, and our
brothers came with it though they didn't want to . . ."
And now Grunfeld
thought he began to feel it—the first faint thrill, less than a cobweb's tug,
of weight.
The
cabin wall moved sideways. Grunfeld's suit had begun
to revolve slowly on a vertical axis.
For
a moment he glimpsed Jackson's dark profile—all five suits were revolving in
their framework. They locked into position when the men in them were facing
aft. Now at least retinas wouldn't pull forward at high-G decel,
or spines crush through thorax and abdomen.
The
cabin air was cold on Grunfeld's forehead. And now he
was sure he felt weight—maybe five pounds of it. Suddenly aft was up. It was as if he were lying on his back on the spaceshield.
A sudden snarling roar came through his suit
from the beams bracing it. He lost weight, then regained it and a little more
besides. He realized it was their torpedo taking off, to skim by Uranus in the
top of the atmosphere and then curve inward the little their chem fuel would let them, homing toward the Enemy. He
imaged its tiny red jet over the great gray-green glowing plain. Four more
would be taking off from the other ships—the fleet's feeble sting. Like a bee's,
just one, in dying.
The cheekpieces and foreheadpiece of Grunfeld's suit began to close on his face like layers of
pliable ice.
Jackson
called faintly, "Now
I understand. Their
ship—" His voice was cut off.
Grunfeld's ice-mask was tight shut. He felt a small
surge of vigor as the suit took over his breathing and sent his lungs a gush of
high-oxy air. Then came a tingling numbness as the suit field went on, adding
an extra prop against decel to each molecule of his
body.
But
the weight was growing. He was on the moon now . .. now on Mars . .
. now back on Earth . . .
The
weight was stifling now, crushing—a hill of invisible sand. Grunfeld
saw a black pillow hanging in the cabin above him aft. It had red fringe around
it. It grew.
There
was a whistling and shaking. Everything lurched torturingly,
the ship's jets roared, everything recovered, or didn't.
The
black pillow came down on him, crushing out sight, crushing out thought.
The
universe was a black tingling, a limitless ache floating in a large black infinity.
Something drew back and there was a dry fiery wind on numb humps and ridges—the
cabin air on his face, Grunfeld decided, then
shivered and started at the thought that he was alive and in freefall. His body
didn't feel like a mass of internal hemorrhages. Or did it?
He spun slowly. It stopped. Dizziness? Or the suits revolving forward
again? If they'd actually come through-There was a creaking and
cracking. The ship contracting after frictional heating?
There
was a faint stink like ammonia and formaldehyde mixed. A few Uranian molecules forced past plates racked by turbulence?
He
saw dim red specks. The board? Or last flickers from
ruined retinas? A bell jangled. He waited, but he saw nothing. Blind? Or the
meteor guard jammed? No wonder if it were. No wonder if the cabin lights were
broken.
The
hot air that had dried his sweaty face rushed down the front of his body.
Needles of pain pierced him as he slumped forward out of the top of his opening
suit.
Then
he saw the horizontal band of stars outlining the top of the spaceshield and below it the great field of inky black,
barely convex upward. That
must, he realized, be the dark side of Uranus.
Pain
ignored, Grunfeld pushed himself forward out of his
suit and pulled himself past the captain's to the spaceshield.
The
view stayed the same, though broadening out: stars above, a curve-edged velvet
black plain below. They were orbiting.
A
pulsing, color-changing glow from somewhere showed him twisted stumps of the
radio lattices. There was no sign of the mirror at all. It must have been torn
away, or vaporized completely, in the fiery turbulence of decel.
New Maxs showed on the boardr Cabin
Temperature 214 F, Skin Temperature 907 K, Gravs 87.
Then
in the top of the spacefield, almost out of vision, Grunfeld saw the source of the pulsing glow: two
sharp-ended ovals flickering brightly all colors
against the pale starfields, like two dead fish
phosphorescing.
"The
torps got to 'em,"
Croker said, pushed forward beside Grunfeld to the
right.
"I did find out at the end,"
Jackson said quietly from the left, his voice at last free of the trance-tone.
"The Enemy ships weren't ships at all. They were (there's no other word
for it) space animals. We've always thought life was a prerogative of planets,
that space was inorganic. But you can walk miles through the desert or sail
leagues through the sea before you notice life and I guess space is the same.
Anyway the Enemy was (what else can I call em?)
space-whales. Inertialess space-whales from the discontinuum.
Space-whales that ate hydrogen (that's the only way I know to say it)
and spat light to move and fight. The ones I talked to, our brothers,
were just their parasites."
"That's crazy," Grunfeld
said. "All of it. A child's picture."
"Sure it is,"
Jackson agreed.
From
beyond Jackson, Ness, punching buttons, said, "Quiet."
The
radio came on thin and wailing with static: "Titania
Station calling fleet. We have jeep and can orbit in to you. The two Enemy are dead—the last in the System. Titania
Station calling fleet. We have jeep fueled and set to go—"
Fleet? thought Grunfeld. He turned back
to the board. The first and last blue telltales still glowed for Caliban and Starveling.
Breathe a prayer, he
thought, for Moth
and Snug.
Something else shone on the board, something Grunfeld knew had to be wrong. Three little words: SHIP ON
MANUAL.
The
black rim of Uranus ahead suddenly brightened along its length, which was very
slightly bowed, like a section of a giant new moon. A bead formed toward the
center, brightened, and then all at once the jail-yard sun had risen and was
glaring coldly through its pinhole into their eyes.
They looked away from it. Grunfeld turned around.
The austere light showed the captain still in
his pressure suit, only the head fallen out forward, hiding the skull features.
Studying the monitor box of the captain's suit, Grunfeld
saw it was set to inject the captain with power stimulants as soon as the Gravs began to slacken from their max.
He
realized who had done the impossible job of piloting them out of Uranus.
But the button on the monitor, that should
have glowed blue, was as dark as those of Moth and Snug.
Grunfeld thought, now he can rest
THE
SHIP SAILS AT MIDNIGHT
This is the story of a beautiful woman. And of a monster.
It
is also the story of four silly, selfish, culture-bound inhabitants of the
planet Earth. Es, who was something of an artist.
Gene, who studied atoms—and fought the world and himself.
Louis, who philosophized. And Larry—that's my name—who
tried to write books.
It
was an eerie, stifling August when we met Helen. The date is fixed in my mind
because our little city had just had its mid-western sluggishness ruffled by a
series of those scares that either give rise to oddity items in the newspapers,
or else are caused by them—it's sometimes hard to tell which. People had seen
flying disks and heard noises in the sky—someone from the college geology
department tried unsuccessfully to track down a meteorite. A farmer this side
of the old coal pits got all excited about something "big and
shapeless" that disturbed his poultry and frightened his wife, and for a
couple of days men tracked around fruitlessly
with shotguns—just another of those "rural
monster" scares.
Even
the townfolk hadn't been left out. For their imaginative
enrichment they had a "Hypnotism Burglar," an apparently mild enough
chap who blinked soft lights in
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eople's
faces and droned some siren-song outside their ouses
at night. For a week high-school girls squealed twice as loud after dark, men
squared their shoulders adventurously at strangers, and women peered uneasily
out of their bedroom windows after turning out the lights.
Louis
and Es and I had picked up Gene at the college library and wanted a bite to eat
before we turned in. Although by now they had almost petered out, we were
talking about our local scares—a chilly hint of the supernatural makes good
conversational fare in a month too hot for any real thinking. We slouched into
the one decent open-all-night restaurant our dismal burg possesses (it wouldn't
have that if it weren't for the "wild" college folk) and found that
Benny had a new waitress.
She
was really very beautiful, much too exotically beautiful for Benny's. Masses of
pale gold ringlets piled high on her head. An aristocratic bone structure (from
Es's greedy look I could tell she was instandy thinking sculpture). And a pair
of the dreamiest, calmest eyes in the world.
She
came over to our table and silently waited for our orders. Probably because her
beauty flustered us, we put on an elaborate version of our act of
"intellectuals precisely and patientiy
explaining their desires to a pig-headed member of the proletariat." She
listened, nodded, and presently returned with our orders.
Louis had asked for just a cup of black
coffee. She brought him a half cantaloup also. He sat
looking at it for a moment. Then he chuckled incredulously. "You know, I
actually wanted that," he said. "But I didn't know I wanted it. You
must have read my subconscious mind."
"What's that?" she asked in a low,
lovely voice with intonations rather like Benny's.
Digging into his cantaloup,
Louis sketched an explanation suitable for fifth-graders.
She disregarded the explanation. "What
do you use it for?" she asked.
Louis,
who is something of a wit, said, "I don't use it It
uses me."
"That the way it
should be?" she commented.
None
of us knew the answer to that one, so since I was the Gang's specialist in dealing
with the lower orders, I remarked brilliantly, "What's your name?"
"Helen," she told
me.
"How long have you
been here?"
"Couple days,"
she said, starting back toward the counter.
"Where did you come
from?"
She spread her hands.
"Oh—places."
Whereupon
Gene, whose humor inclines toward the fantastic, asked, "Did you arrive
on a flying disk?"
She glanced back at him and
said, "Wise guy."
But
all the same she hung around our table, filling sugar basins and what not. We
made our conversation especially erudite, each of us merrily spinning his
favorite web of half-understood intellectual jargon and half-baked private opinion.
We were conscious of her presence, all right.
Just
as we were leaving, the thing happened. At the doorway something made us all
look back. Helen was behind the counter. She was looking at us. Her eyes
weren't dreamy at all, but focused, intent, radiant. She was smiling.
My
elbow was touching Es's naked arm—we were rather
crowded in the doorway—and I felt her shiver. Then she gave a tiny jerk and I
sensed that Gene, who was holding her other arm (they were more or less
sweethearts), had tightened his grip on it.
For
perhaps three seconds it stayed just like that, the four of us looking at the
one of her. Then Helen shyly dropped her gaze and began to mop the counter with
a rag.
We were all very quiet
going home.
Next
night we went back to Benny's again, rather earlier. Helen was still there, and
quite as beautiful as we remembered her. We exchanged with her a few more of
those brief, teasing remarks—her voice no longer sounded so much like
Benny's—and staged some more intellectual pyrotechnics for her benefit. Just
before we left, Es went up to her at the counter and talked to her privately
for perhaps a minute, at the end of which Helen nodded.
"Ask her to pose for
you?" I asked Es when we got outside.
She
nodded. "That girl has the most magnificent figure in the world," she
proclaimed fervently.
"Or out of it,"
Gene confirmed grudgingly.
"And an incredibly
exciting skull," Es finished.
It
was characteristic of us that Es should have been the one to really break the
ice with Helen. Like most intellectuals, we were rather timid, always setting
up barriers against other people. We clung to adolescence and the college,
although all of us but Gene had been graduated from it. Instead of getting out
into the real world, we lived by sponging off our parents and doing academic
odd jobs for the professors (Es had a few private students). Here in our home
city we had status, you see. We were looked upon as being frightfully clever
and sophisticated, the local "bohemian set" (though Lord knows we
were anything but that). Whereas out in the real world we'd
have been greenhorns.
We were scared of the world, you see. Scared
that it would find out that all our vaunted abilities and projects didn't
amount to much—and that as for solid achievements, there just hadn't been. any. Es was only a mediocre artist; she was afraid to learn
from the great, especially the living great, for fear her own affected little
individuality would be engulfed. Louis was no philosopher; he merely cultivated
a series of intellectual enthusiasms, living in a state of feverish
private—and fruitless—excitement over the thoughts of other men. My own defense
against reality consisted of knowingness and a cynical attitude; I had a
remarkable packrat accumulation of information; I had a line on everything—and
also always knew why it wasn't worth bothering with. As for Gene, he was the best
of us and also the worst. A bit younger, he still applied himself to his
studies, and showed promise in nuclear physics and math. But something,
perhaps his small size and puritanical farm background, had made him moody and
contrary, and given him an inclination toward physical violence that threatened
some day to get him into real trouble. As it was, he'd had his license taken
away for reckless driving. And several times we'd had to intervene—once
unsuccessfully—to keep him from getting beaten up in bars.
We
talked a great deal about our "work." Actually we spent much more
time reading magazines and detective stories, lazing around, getting drunk, and
conducting our endless intellectual palavers.
If
we had one real virtue, it was our loyalty to each other, though it wouldn't
take a cynic to point out that we desperately needed each other for an
audience. Still, there was some genuine feeling there.
In
short, like many people on a planet where mind is wakening and has barely
become aware of the eon-old fetters and blindfolds oppressing it, and has had
just the faintest glimpse of its tremendous possible future destiny, we were
badly cowed—frightened, frustrated, self-centered, slothful, vain,
pretentious.
Considering
how set we were getting in those attitudes, it is all the more amazing that
Helen had the tremendous effect on us that she did. For within a month of
meeting her, our attitude toward the whole world had sweetened, we had become
genuinely interested in people instead of being frightened of them, and we were
beginning to do real creative work. An astonishing achievement for an unknown
little waitress!
It
wasn't that she took us in hand or set us an example,
or anything like that. Quite the opposite. I don't
think that Helen was responsible for a half dozen
positive statements (and only one really impulsive act) during the whole time
we knew her. Rather, she was like a Great Books discussion leader, who never
voices an opinion of his own, but only leads other people to voice
theirs—playing the part of an intellectual midwife.
Louis
and Gene and I would drop over to Es's, say, and find
Helen getting dressed behind the screen or talcing a
cup of tea after a session of posing. We'd start a discussion and for a while
Helen would listen dreamily, just another shadow in the high old shadowy room.
But then those startling little questions of hers would begin to come, each one
opening a new vista of thought. By the time the discussion was finished—which
might be at the Blue Moon bar or under the campus maples or watching the water
ripple in the old coal pits—we'd have got somewhere. Instead of ending in weary
shoulder-shrugging or cynical grousing at the world or getting drunk out of
sheer frustration, we'd finish up with a plan—some facts to check, something to
write or shape or try.
And
then, peoplel How would we
ever have got close to people without Helen? Without Helen, Old Gus would have
stayed an ancient and bleary-eyed dishwater at Benny's.
But with Helen, Gus became for us what he really was— a figure of romance who
had sailed the Seven Seas, who had hunted for gold on the Orinoco with twenty
female Indians for porters (because the males were too lazy and proud to hire
out to do anything) and who had marched at the head of his Amazon band carrying
a newborn baby of one of the women in his generous arms (because the women
assured him that a man-child was the only burden a man might carry without
dishonor).
Even Gene was softened in his attitudes. I
remember once when two handsome truckdrivers tried to
pick up Helen at the Blue Moon. Instantly Gene's jaw muscles bulged and his
eyes went blank and he began to wag his right shoulder— and I got ready for a
scene. But Helen said a word here and there, threw in a soft laugh, and began
to ask the truck-drivers her questions. In ten minutes we were all at ease and
the four of us found out things we'd never dreamed about dark highways and
diesels and their proud, dark-souled pilots (so like
Gene in their temperaments).
But
it was on us as individuals that Helen's influence showed up the biggest. Es's sculptures acquired an altogether new scope. She
dropped her pet mannerisms without a tear and began to take into her work
whatever was sound and good. She rapidly developed a style that was classical
and yet had in it something that was wholly of the future. Es is getting
recognition now and her work is still good, but there was a magic about her
"Helenic Period" which she can't recapture.
The magic still lives in the pieces she did at that time— particularly in a nude
of Helen that has all the serenity and purpose of the best ancient Egyptian
work, and something much more. As we watched that piece take form, as we
watched the clay grow into Helen under Es's hands, we
dimly sensed that in some indescribable way Helen was growing into Es at the
same time, and Es into Helen. It was such a beautiful, subtle relationship that
even Gene couldn't be jealous.
At
the same time Louis gave over his fickle philosophical flirtations and found
the field of inquiry for which he'd always been looking—a blend of semantics
and introspective psychology designed to chart the chaotic inner world of human
experience. Although his present intellectual tactics lack the brilliance they
had when Helen was nudging his mind, he still keeps doggedly at the project,
which promises to add a whole new range of words to the vocabulary of
psychology and perhaps of the English language.
Gene
wasn't ripe for creative work, but from being a merely promising student he
became a brilliant and very industrious one, rather to the surprise of his
professors. Even with the cloud that now overhangs his life and darkens his
reputation, he has managed to find worthwhile employment on one of the big
nuclear projects.
As for myself, I really
began to write. Enough said.
We
sometimes used to speculate as to the secret of Helen's effect on us, though we
didn't by any means give her all the credit in those days. We had some sort of
theory that Helen was a completely "natural" person, a "noble
savage" (from the kitchen), a bridge to the world
of proletarian reality. Es once said that Helen couldn't have had a Freudian
childhood, whatever she meant by that. Louis spoke of Helen's unthinking social
courage and Gene of the catalytic effect of beauty.
Oddly,
in these discussions we never referred to that strange, electric experience
we'd all had when we first met Helen—that tearing moment when we'd looked back from
the doorway. We were always strangely reticent there. And none of us ever
voiced the conviction that I'm sure all of us had at times: that our social and
psychoanalytic theories weren't worth a hoot when it came to explaining Helen,
that she possessed powers of feeling and mind (mostly concealed) that set her
utterly apart from every other inhabitant of the planet Earth, that she was
like a being from another, far saner and lovelier world.
That
conviction isn't unusual, come to think of it. It's the one every man has about
the girl he loves. Which brings me to my own secret
explanation of Helen's effect on me (though not on the others).
It
was simply this. I loved Helen and I knew Helen loved me. And that was quite
enough.
It
happened scarcely a month after we'd met. We were staging a little party at Es's. Since I was the one with the car, I was assigned to
pick up Helen at Benny's when she got through. On the short drive I passed a
house that held unpleasant memories for me. A girl had lived there whom I'd
been crazy about and who had turned me down. (No, let's be honest, I turned her
down, though I very much wanted her, because of some tragic cowardice, the
memory of which always sears me like a hot iron.)
Helen
must have guessed something from my expression, for she said softly,
"What's the matter, Larry?" and then, when I ignored the question,
"Something about a girl?"
She was so sympathetic about it that I broke
down and told her the whole story, sitting in the parked and lightless car in
front of Es's. I let myself go and lived through the
whole thing, again, with, all its biting shame. When I was finished I looked up
from the steering wheel. The streetlight made a pale aureole around Helen's
head and a paler one where the white angora sweater covered her shoulders. The
upper part of her face was in darkness, but a bit of light touched her full
lips and narrow, almost fennec- or fox-hke chin.
"You
poor kid," she said softly, and the next moment we were kissing each
other, and a feeling of utter relief and courage and power was budding deep
inside me.
A
bit later she said to me something that even at the time I realized was very
wise.
"Let's keep this between you and me,
Larry," she said. "Let's not mention it to the others. Let's not even
hint." She paused, and then added, a trifle unhappily, "I'm afraid
they wouldn't appreciate it. Sometime, I hope—but not quite yet."
I
knew what she meant. That Gene and Louis and even Es were only human—that is,
irrational—in their jealousies, and that the knowledge that Helen was my girl
would have put a damper on the exciting but almost childlike relationship of
the five of us. (As the fact of Es's and Gene's love
would never have done. Es was a rather cold, awkward girl, and Louis and I
seldom grudged poor, angry Gene her affection.)
So
when Helen and I dashed in and found the others berating Benny for making Helen
work overtime, we agreed that he was an unshaven and heartless louse, and in a
little while the party was going strong and we were laughing and talking unconstrainedly. No one could possibly have guessed that a
new and very lovely factor had been added to the situation.
After
that evening everything was different for me. I had a girl. Helen was (why not
say the trite things, they're true) my goddess, my worshipper, my slave, my
ruler, my inspiration, my comfort, my refuge—oh, I could write books about
what she meant to me.
I guess all my life I will
be writing books about that.
I
could write pages describing just one of the beautiful moments we had together.
I could drown myself in the bitter ghosts of sensations. Rush of sunlight
through her hair. Click of her heels on a brick sidewalk. Light
of her presence brightening a mean room. Chase of
unearthly expressions across her sleeping face.
Yet it was on my mind that Helen's love had
the greatest effect. It unfettered my thoughts, gave them passage into a far
vaster cosmos.
One minute I'd be beside Helen, our hands
touching lightly in the dark, a shaft of moonlight from the dusty window
silvering her hair. The next, my mind would be a billion miles up, hovering
like an iridescent insect over the million bright worlds of existence.
Or
I'd be surmounting walls inside my mind—craggy, dire ramparts that have been
there since the days of the cave man.
Or the universe would become a miraculous
web, with Time the spider. I couldn't see all of it—no creature could see a
billionth of it in all eternity—but I would have a sense of it all.
Sometimes
the icy beauty of those moments would become too great, and I'd feel a sudden
chill of terror. Then the scene around me would become a nightmare and I'd half
expect Helen's eyes to show a catlike gleam and slit, or her hair to come rustlingly alive, or her arms to writhe bonelessly,
or her splendid skin to slough away, revealing some black and antlike form of
dread.
Then
the moment would pass and everything would be sheer loveb'ness
again, richer for the fleeting terror.
My
mind is hobbled once more now, but I still know the taste of the inward freedom
that Helen's love brought.
You
might think from this that Helen and I had a lot of times alone together. We
hadn't—we couldn't have, with the Gang. But we had enough. Helen was clever at
arranging things. They never suspected us.
Lord
knows there were times I yearned to let the Gang in on our secret. But then I
would remember Helen's warning and see the truth of it.
Let's
face it. We're all of us a pretty vain and possessive people. As individuals,
we cry for attention. We jockey for admiration. We swim or sink according to
whether we feel we're being worshipped or merely liked. We demand too much of
the person we love. We want them to be a never-failing prop to our ego.
And then if we're lonely and happen to see
someone else loved, the greedy child wakes, the savage stirs, the frustrated
Puritan clenches his teeth. We seethe, we resent, we hate.
No,
I saw that I couldn't tell the others about Helen and myself. Not Louis. Not
even Es. And as for Gene, I'm afraid that with his narrow-minded upbringing,
he'd have been deeply shocked by what he'd have deduced about our relationship.
We were supposed, you know, to be "wild" young people,
"bohemians." Actually we were quite straight-laced—Gene especially,
the rest of us almost as much.
I
knew how I would have felt if Helen had happened to become Louis's or Gene's
girl. That says it.
To tell the truth, I felt a great deal of
admiration for the
Gang,
because they could do alone what I was only doing with Helen's love. They were
enlarging their minds, becoming creative, working and playing hard—and doing
it without my reward. Frankly, I don't know how I could have managed it myself
without Helen's love. My admiration for Louis, Es, and Gene was touched with a
kind of awe.
And
we really were getting places. We had created a new mind-spot on the world, a
sprouting-place for thought that wasn't vain or self-conscious, but concerned
wholly with its work and its delights. The Gang was forming itself into a kind
of lens for viewing the world, outside and in.
Any
group of people can make themselves into that sort of lens, if they really want
to. But somehow they seldom get started. They don't have the right inspiration.
We had Helen.
Always,
but mostly in unspoken thoughts, we'd come back to the mystery of how she had
managed it. She was mysterious, all right. We'd known her some six months now,
and we were as much in the dark about her background as when we first met her.
She wouldn't tell anything even to me. She'd come from "places." She
was a "drifter." She liked "people." She told us all sorts
of fascinating incidents, but whether she'd been mixed up in them herself or just
heard them at Benny's (she could have made a Trappist
jabber) was uncertain.
We
sometimes tried to get her to talk about her past. But she dodged our questions
easily and we didn't like to press them.
You don't cross-examine
Beauty.
You
don't demand that a Great Books discussion leader state his convictions.
You don't probe a goddess
about her past.
Yet
this vagueness about Helen's past caused us a certain
uneasiness. She'd drifted to us. She might drift away.
If
we hadn't been so involved in our thought-sprouting, we'd have been worried. And if I hadn't been so happy, and everything so smoothly perfect,
I'd have done more than occasionally ask Helen to marry me and hear her answer,
"Not now, Larry."
Yes, she was mysterious.
And she had her
eccentricities.
For
one thing, she insisted on working at Benny's although she could have had a
dozen better jobs. Benny's was her window on the main street of life, she said.
For
another, she'd go off on long hikes in the country, even in the snowiest
weather. I met her coming back from one and was worried, tried to be angry. But
she only smiled.
Yet,
when spring came round again and burgeoned into summer, she would never go
swimming with us in our favorite coal pit.
The
coal pits are a place where they once strip-mined for the stuff where it came
to the surface. Long ago the huge, holes were left to fill with water and their
edges to grow green with grass and trees. They're swell
for swimming.
But Helen would never go to our favorite,
which was one of the biggest and yet the least visited—and this year the water
was unusually high. We changed to suit her, of course, but because the one she
didn't like happened to be near the farmhouse of last August's
"rural monster" scare, Louis joshed her.
"Maybe
a monster haunts the pool," he said. "Maybe it's a being come from
another world on a flying disk."
He
happened to say that on a lazy afternoon when we'd been swimming at the new
coal pit and were drying on the edge, having cigarettes. Louis' remark started
us speculating about creatures from another world coming secretly to visit
Earth—their problems, especially how they'd disguise themselves.
"Maybe they'd watch from a
distance," Gene said. "Television, supersensitive
microphones."
"Or clairvoyance, clairaudience,"
Es chimed, being rather keen on para-psychology.
"But to really mingle with people . .
." Helen murmured. She was stretched on her back in white bra and trunks,
looking deep into the ranks of marching clouds. Her olive skin tanned to an odd
hue that went bewitchingly with her hair. With a sudden and frightening
poignancy I was aware of the catlike perfection of her slim body.
The creature might have some sort of
elaborate plastic disguise," Gene began doubtfully.
"It
might have a human form to begin with," I ventured. "You know, the idea that Earth folk are decayed interstellar
colonists."
"It
might take possession of some person here," Louis cut in. "Insinuate
its mind or even itself into the human being."
"Or
it might grow itself a new body," Helen murmured sleepily.
That
was one of the half dozen positive statements she ever made.
Then
we got to talking about the motives of such an alien being. Whether it would
try to destroy men, or look on us as cattle, or study us, or amuse itself with us, or what not.
Here
Helen joined in again, distant-eyed but smiling. "I know you've all
laughed at the comic-book idea of some Martian monster lusting after beautiful
white women. But has it ever occurred to you that a creature from outside might
simply and honestly fall in love with you?"
That was another Helen's
rare positive statements.
The
idea was engaging and we tried to get Helen to expand it, but she wouldn't. In
fact, she was rather silent the rest of that day.
As
the summer began to mount toward its crests of heat and growth, the mystery of
Helen began to possess us more often—that, and a certain anxiety about her.
There
was a feeling in the air, the sort of uneasiness that cats and dogs get when
they are about to lose their owner.
Without
exactly knowing it, without a definite word being said, we were afraid we might
lose Helen.
Partly
it was Helen's own behavior. For once she showed a kind of restlessness, or
rather preoccupation. At Benny's she no longer took such an interest in
"people."
She
seemed to be trying to solve some difficult personal problem, nerve herself to
make some big decision.
Once
she looked at us and said, "You know, I like you kids terribly." Said
it the way a person says it when he knows he may have to lose what he likes.
And then there was the business of the
Stranger.
Helen had been talking quite a bit with a
strange man, not at Benny's, but walking in the streets, which was unusual. We
didn't know who the Stranger was. We hadn't actually seen him face to face.
Just heard about him from Benny and glimpsed him once or twice. Yet he worried
us.
Understand,
our happiness went on, yet faintly veiling it was this new and ominous mist.
Then one night the mist took definite shape.
It happened on an occasion of celebration. After a few days during which we'd
sensed they'd been quarreling, Es and Gene had suddenly announced that they
were getting married. On an immediate impulse we'd all gone to the Blue Moon.
We
were having the third round of drinks, and kidding Es because she didn't seem
very enthusiastic, almost a bit grumpy—when he came in.
Even
before he looked our way, before he drifted up to our table, we knew that this
was the Stranger.
He
was a rather slender man, fair haired like Helen. Otherwise he didn't look like
her, yet there was a sense of kinship. Perhaps it lay in his poise, his wholly
casual manner.
As
he came up, I could feel myself and the others getting tense, like dogs at the
approach of the unknown.
The
Stranger stopped by our table and stood looking at Helen as if he knew her. The
four of us realized more than ever that we wanted Helen to be ours alone (and
especially mine), that we hated to think of her having close ties with anyone
else.
What
got especially under my skin was the suggestion that there was some kinship
between the Stranger and Helen, that behind his proud, remote-eyed face, he was
talking to her with his mind.
Gene apparently took the Stranger for one of
those unpleasant fellows who strut around bars looking for trouble— and
proceeded to act as if he were one of those same fellows himself. He screwed
his delicate features into a cheap frown and stood up as tall as he could,
which wasn't much. Such tough-guy behavior, always a symptom of frustration and
doubts of masculinity, had been foreign to Gene for some months. I felt a pulse
of sadness—and almost winced when
Gene
opened the side of his mouth and began, "Now look
here, Joe—"
But
Helen laid her hand on his arm. She looked calmly at the Stranger for a few
more moments and then she said, "I won't talk to you that way. You must
speak English."
If
the Stranger was surprised, he didn't show it. He smiled and said softly, with
a faint foreign accent, "The ship sails at midnight, Helen."
I
got a queer feeling, for our city is two hundred miles
from anything you'd call navigable waters.
For
a moment I felt what you might call supernatural fear. The bar so tawdry and
dim, the line of hunched neurotic shoulders, the plump dice-girl at one end
and the tiny writhing television screen at the other. And against that
background, Helen and the Stranger, light-haired, olive-skinned, with proud
feline features, facing each other like duelists, on guard, opposed, yet
sharing some secret knowledge. Like two aristocrats come to a dive to settle a
quarrel-like that, and something more. As I say, it frightened me.
"Are you coming,
Helen?" the Stranger asked.
And
now I was really frightened. It was as if I'd realized for the first time just
how terribly much Helen meant to all of us, and to me
especially. Not just the loss of her, but the loss of things in me that only
she could call into being. I could see the same fear in the faces of the
others. A lost look in Gene's eyes behind the fake gangster
frown. Louis' fingers relaxing from his glass and his
chunky head turning toward the stranger, slowly, with empty gaze, like the
turret-guns of a battleship. Es starting to stub out her cigarette and
then hesitating, her eyes on Helen—although in Es's
case I felt there was another emotion besides fear.
"Coming?" Helen
echoed, like someone in a dream.
The Stranger waited. Helen's reply had
twisted the tension tighter. Now Es did stub out her cigarette with awkward
haste, then quickly drew back her hand. I felt
suddenly that this had been bound to happen, that Helen must have had her life,
her real life, before we had known her, and that the Stranger was part of it;
that she had come to us mysteriously and now would leave us as mysteriously.
Yes, I felt all of that, although in view of what had happened between Helen
and me, I knew I shouldn't have.
"Have
you considered everything?" the Stranger asked finally.
"Yes," Helen
replied.
"You
know that after tonight there'll be no going back," he continued as sofdy as ever. "You know that you'll be marooned here
forever, that you'll have to spend the rest of your life among ..." (he looked around at us as if
searching for a word) ". . . among barbarians."
Again
Helen laid her hand on Gene's arm, although her glance never left the
Stranger's face.
"What
is the attraction, Helen?" the Stranger went on. "Have you really
tried to analyze it? I know it might be fun for a month, or a year, or even
five years. A kind of game, a renewal of youth. But
when it's over and you're tired of the game, when you realize that you're
alone, completely alone, and that there's no going back ever— Have you thought of that?"
"Yes,
I have thought of all that," Helen said, as quietly as the Stranger, but
with a tremendous finality. "I won't try to explain it to you, because
with all your wisdom and cleverness I don't think you'd quite understand. And I
know I'm breaking promises—and more than promises. But I'm not going back. I'm
here with my friends, my true and equal friends, and I'm not going back."
And
then it came, and I could tell it came to all of us—a great big lift, like a
surge of silent music or a glow of invisible light. Helen had at last declared
herself. After the faint equivocations and reservations of the spring and summer,
she had put herself squarely on our side. We each of us knew that what she had
said she meant wholly and forever. She was ours, ours more completely than
ever before. Our quasi-goddess, our inspiration, our key to a widening future;
the one who always understood, who could open doors in our imaginations and
feelings that would otherwise have remained forever shut. She was our Helen now,
ours and (as my mind persisted in adding exultingly) especially mine.
And we? We were the Gang again, happy, poised, wise
as Heaven and clever as Hell, out to celebrate, having fun with whatever came
along.
The
whole scene had changed. The frightening aura around the Stranger had vanished
completely. He was just another of those hundreds of odd people whom we met
when we were with Helen.
He
acted almost as if he were conscious of it. He smiled and said quickly,
"Very well. I had a feeling you'd decide this way." He started to
move off. Then, "Oh, by the way, Helen—"
"Yes?"
"The
others wanted me to say goodby to you for them."
"Tell them the same and the best of luck." The Stranger nodded and
again started to turn away, when Helen added, "And you?" The Stranger
looked back.
"Ill be seeing you once more before
midnight," he said lightly, and almost the next moment, it seemed, was out
the door.
We
all chuckled. I don't know why. Partly from relief, I suppose, and partly—God
help usl—in triumph over the Stranger. One thing I'm
sure of: three (and maybe even four) of us felt for a moment happier and more
secure in our relationship to Helen than we ever had before. It was the peak.
We were together. The Stranger had been vanquished, and all the queer unspoken
threats he had brought with him. Helen had declared herself. The future stood
open before us, full of creation and achievement, with Helen ready to lead us
into it. For a moment everything was perfect. We were mankind, vibrantly alive,
triumphantly progressing.
It was, as I say, perfect.
And only human beings know
how to wreck perfection.
Only
human beings are so vain, so greedy, each wanting everything for himself alone.
It
was Gene who did it. Gene who couldn't stand so much happiness and who had to
destroy it, from what self-fear, what Puritanical self-torment, what death-wish
I don't know.
It was Gene, but it might
have been any of us.
His face was flushed. He was smiling, grinning rather, in what I now realize was an
oafish and over-bearing complacency. He put his hand on Helen's arm in a way
none of us had ever touched Helen before, and said, "That was great,
dear."
It
wasn't so much what he said as the naked possessive-ness
of the gesture. It was surely that gesture of ownership that made Es explode,
that started her talking in a voice terribly bitter, but so low it was some
moments before the rest of us realized what she was getting at.
When we did we were
thunderstruck.
She was accusing Helen of
having stolen Gene's love.
It's
hard to make anyone understand the shock we felt. As if someone had accused a
goddess of abominations.
Es
lit another cigarette with shaking fingers, and finished up.
"I
don't want your pity, Helen. I don't want Gene married off to me for the sake
of appearances, like some half-discarded mistress. I like you, Helen, but not
enough to let you take Gene away from me and then toss him back—or half toss
him back. No, I draw the line at that."
And she stopped as if her
emotions had choked her.
As I
said, the rest of us were thunderstruck. But not Gene.
His face got redder still. He slugged down the rest of his drink and looked
around at us, obviously getting ready to explode in turn.
Helen
had listened to Es with a half smile and an unhappy half frown, shaking her
head from time to time. Now she shot Gene a warning, imploring glance, but he
disregarded it.
"No,
Helen," he said, "Es is right. I'm glad she spoke. It was a mistake
for us ever to hide our feelings. It would have been a ten times worse mistake
if I'd kept that crazy promise I made you to marry Es. You go too much by pity,
Helen, and pity's no use in managing an affair like this. I don't want to hurt
Es, but she'd better know right now that it's another marriage we're announcing
tonight."
I
sat there speechless. I just couldn't realize that that drunken, red-faced poppinjay was claiming that Helen was his girl, his wife to
be.
Es didn't look at him. "You cheap little
beast," she whispered.
Gene went white at that,
but he kept on smiling.
"Es
may not forgive me for this," he said harshly, "but I don't think
it's me she's jealous of. What gets under her skin is not so much losing me to
Helen as losing Helen to me."
Then I could find words.
But Louis was ahead of me.
He put his hand firmly on
Gene's shoulder.
"You're
drunk, Gene," he said, "and you're talking
like a drunken fool. Helen's my girl."
They
started up, both of them, Louis's hand still on Gene's shoulder.
Then, instead of hitting each
other, they looked at me.
Because
I had risen too.
"But ..." I began, and faltered.
Without my saying it, they
knew.
Louis's hand dropped away
from Gene.
All
of us looked at Helen. A cold, terribly hurt, horribly disgusted look.
Helen
blushed and looked down. Only much later did I realize it was related to the
look she'd given the four of us that first night at Benny's.
". . . but I fell in
love with all of you," she said softly.
Then
we did speak, or rather Gene spoke for us. I hate to admit it, but at the time
I felt a hot throb of pleasure at all the unforgivable things he called Helen.
I wanted to see the lash laid on, the stones thud.
Finally he called her some
names that were a little worse.
Then
Helen did the only impulsive thing I ever knew her to do.
She slapped Gene's face. Once.
Hard.
There are only two courses a person can take
when he's been rebuked by a goddess, even a fallen goddess. He can grovel and
beg forgiveness. Or he can turn apostate and devil-worshipper.
Gene did the latter.
He
walked out of the Blue Moon, blundering like a blind drunk.
That broke up the party, and Gus and the
other bartender, who'd been about to interfere, returned relievedly
to their jobs.
Louis
went off to the bar. Es followed him. I went to the far end myself, under the
writhing television screen, and ordered a double scotch.
Beyond
the dozen intervening pairs of shoulders, I could see that Es was trying to act
shameless. She was whispering things to Louis. At the same time, and even more
awkwardly, she was flirting with one of the other men. Every once in a while
she would laugh shrilly, mirthlessly.
Helen
didn't move. She just sat at the table, looking down, the half smile fixed on
her lips. Once Gus approached her, but she shook her head.
I
ordered another double scotch. Suddenly my mind began to work furiously on
three levels.
On
the first I was loathing Helen. I was seeing that all she'd done for us, all
the mind-spot, all the house of creativity we'd raised together, had been
based on a lie. Helen was unutterably cheap, common.
Mosdy, on that level, I was grieving for the
terrible wrong I felt she'd done me.
The
second level was entirely different. There an icy spider had entered my mind from
realms undreamt. There sheer supernatural terror reigned. For there I was
adding up all the little hints of strangeness we'd had about Helen. The
Stranger's words had touched it off and now a thousand details began to drop
into place: the coincidence of her arrival with the flying disk, rural monster,
and hypnotism scare; her interest in people, like that of a student from a far land; the impression she gave of possessing concealed
powers; her pains never to say anything definite, as if she were on guard
against imparting some forbidden knowledge; her long hikes into the country;
her aversion for the big and yet seldom-visited coal pit (big and deep enough
to float a liner or hide a submarine); above all, that impression of
unearthliness she'd at times given us all, even when we were most under her
spell.
And now this matter of a
ship sailing at midnight. From the Great Plains. What sort of ship?
On that level my mind shrank from facing the
obvious result of its labor. It was too frighteningly incredible, too far from
the world of the Blue Moon and Benny's and cheap little waitresses.
The
third level was far mistier, but it was there. At least I tell myself it was
there. On this third level I was beginning to see Helen in a better light and
the rest of us in a worse. I was beginning to see the lovelessness
behind our idea of love—and the faithfulness, to the best in us, behind Helen's
faithlessness. I was beginning to see how hateful, how like spoiled children,
we'd been acting.
Of
course, maybe there wasn't any third level in my mind at all. Maybe that only
came afterwards. Maybe I'm just trying to flatter myself that I was a little
more discerning, a little "bigger" than the others.
Yet
I like to think that I turned away from the bar and took a couple of steps
toward Helen, that it was only those "second level" fears that slowed
me so that I'd only taken those two faltering steps (if I took them) before—
Before
Gene walked in.
I remember the clock said
eleven thirty.
Gene's face was dead white,
and knobby with tension.
His hand was in his pocket.
He
never looked at anyone but Helen. They might have been alone. He wavered—or
trembled. Then a terrible spasm of energy stiffened him. He started toward the
table.
Helen
got up and walked toward him, her arms outstretched. In her half smile were
all the compassion and fatalism—and love—I can imagine there being in the
universe.
Gene
pulled a gun out of his pocket and shot Helen six times. Four times in the
body, twice in the head.
She
hung for a moment, ihen pitched forward into the blue
smoke. It puffed away from her to either side and we saw her lying on her face,
one of her outstretched hands touching Gene's shoe.
Then,
before a woman could scream, before Gus and the other chap could jump the bar,
the outside door of the Blue Moon opened and the Stranger came in. After that
none of us could have moved or spoken. We cringed from his eyes like guilty
dogs.
It wasn't that he looked anger at us, or
hate, or even contempt. That would have been much easier to bear.
No,
even as the Stranger passed Gene—Gene, pistol dangling from two fingers,
looking down in dumb horror, edging his toe back by terrified inches from
Helen's dead hand—even as the Stranger sent Gene a glance, it was the glance a
man might give a bull that has gored a child, a pet ape that has torn up his
mistress in some inscrutable and pettish animal rage.
And
as, without a word, the Stranger picked Helen up in his arms, and carried her
silently through the thinning blue smoke into the street, his face bore that
same look of tragic regret, of serene acceptance.
That's
almost all there is to my story. Gene was arrested, of course, but it's not
easy to convict a man of murder of a woman without real identity.
For
Helen's body was never found. Neither was the Stranger.
Eventually
Gene was released and, as I've said, is making a life for himself, despite the
cloud over his reputation.
We
see him now and then, and try to console him, tell him it might as easily have
been Es or Louis or I, that we were all blind, selfish fools together.
And
we've each of us got back to our work. The sculptures, the word-studies, the
novels, the nuclear notions are not nearly as brilliant as when Helen was with
us. But we keep turning them out. We tell ourselves Helen would like that.
And
our minds all work now at the third level—but only by fits and starts, fighting
the jungle blindness and selfishness that are closing in again. Still, at our
best, we understand Helen and what Helen was trying to do, what she was trying
to bring the world even if the world wasn't ready for it. We glimpse that
strange passion that made her sacrifice all the stars for four miserable
blind-worms.
But
mostly we grieve for Helen, together and alone. We know there won't be another
Helen for a hundred thousand years, if then. We know that she's gone a lot
farther than the dozens or thousands of light-years her body's been taken
for burial. We look at Es's
statue of Helen, we read one or two of my poems to
her. We remember, our minds come half alive and are tortured by the thought of
what they might have become if we'd kept Helen. We picture her again sitting in
the shadows of Es's studio, or sunning herself on the
grassy banks after a swim, or smiling at us at Benny's. And we grieve.
For
we know you get only one chance at someone like Helen.
We know that because, half an hour after the
Stranger carried Helen's body from the Blue Moon, a great meteor went flaming
and roaring across the countryside (some say up from the countryside and out
toward the stars) and the next day it was discovered that the waters of the
coal pit Helen wouldn't swim in, had been splashed, as if by the downward blow
of a giant's fist, across the fields for a thousand yards.
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