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"What do I do first?" I demanded.

"What do you mean?

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So then I had to laugh. "All right, you got me. All I had was an opening, I didn't know where you would go from there, so I couldn't be there ahead of you.

"That's very interesting," Stem said. "Do you usually figure everything out in advance?"

'Always. "How often are you right?"

"AH the time. Except—but I don't have to tell you about no exceptions.

He really grinned this time, "I see. One of my patients has been talking."

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"What are you here for?'*

"To listen."

"I don't have to pay somebody no day's wage every hour just to listen."

"True. But you're convinced that I listen selectively."

"Am I?" I wondered about it.

**I guess I am. Well, don't you?" "No, but you'lf never believe

that."

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that was for. I said, "You're not

calling me Sonny."

"Not you." He shook his head slowly^ He was watching me while he did it, so his eyes slid in their sockets as his head moved. "What-is it you want to know about yourself, that made you worried I might tell people?"

"I want to find out why I killed somebody," I said right away.

It didn't faze him a bit. "Lie down over there."

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"What's the caption?"

'I got trunks full of 'em'." Very good," he said quietly.

I looked at him carefully. I knew then he was the kind of guy who laughs way down deep when he laughs at all.

He said, "I'll use that in a book of case histories some time. But it won't include yours^ What made you throw that in?" When I didn't answer, he got up and moved to a chair behind me where I couldn't see him. "You

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I clenched my jaw so hard, my back teeth hurt. Then I relaxed. I relaxed all over. It was wonderful. "All right," I said, "I'm sor-ry." He didn't say anything, but

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"Uh—fifteen."

"Uh—fifteen," he repeated. "What does the W mean?"

"Nothing. I'm fifteen."

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I got mad again. "There wasn't any other number! What do you want to go pry in' my grunts apart for, trying to plant this and that and make it mean what you think it ought to mean?"

He was silent.

"I'm fifteen," I said defiantly, and then, "I don't like being only fifteen. You know that. I'm not trying to insist I'm fifteen."

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"Gerry." I got up on one elbow, twisting my neck around so I could see him. He had his pipe apart and was sighting through the stem at the desk lamp. "Gerry, without no 'uhl' "

"All right," he said mildly,

making me feel real foolish. I leaned back and closed my

eyes.

Eight, *I thought. Eight.

"It's cold in here," I com-plained.

Eight. Eight, plate, state, hate.

I ate from the plate of the state and I nate. I didn't like any of that and I snapped my eyes open. The ceiling was still gray. It was all right. Stern was somewhere

behind me with his pipe, and he was all right. I took two deep breaths, three, and then let my eyes close. Eight. Eight years old. Eight, hate. Years, fears. Old, cold. Damn it! I twisted and twitched on the couch, trying to

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I GRUNTED and with my mind I took all the eights and all the rhymes and everything they stood for, and made it

all black. But it wouldn't stay black. I had to put something

there, so I made a great big luminous figure eight and just let it hang there. But it turned on its side and inside the loops it began to shimmer. It was like one of those movie shots through binoculars. I was going to have to look through whether I liked it

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I was dying in that ditch. Last night it was as good a place as any to sleep, and this morning it was as good a place as any to die. Just as well. Eight years old, the sick-sweet taste of pork-fat and wet bread from somebody's garbage, the thrill of terror when you're stealing a gunnysack and you hear a footstep. * And I-heard a footstep.

I'd been curled up on my side. I whipped over on my stomach because sometimes they kick your belly. I covered my head with my arms and that was as far as I could get.

After a while I rolled my eyes up and looked without moving. There was a big shoe there. There was an ankle in the shoe, and an-other shoe close by. I lay there waiting to get tromped. Not that I cared much any more, but it was such a damn shame. All these months on my own, and they'd never caught up with me, never even come close, and now this. It was such a shame I started to cry.

- The shoe took me under the armpit, but it was not a kick. It rolled me over. I was so stiff from the cold, I went over like a plank. I just kept my arms over

my face and head and Jay there with my eyes closed. For some reason I stopped crying. I think people only cry when there's a chance of getting help from somewhere.

When nothing happened, I opened my eyes and shifted my forearms a little so I could see up. There was a man standing over me and he was a mile high. He had on faded dungarees and an old Eisenhower jacket with deep sweat-stains under the arms. His face was shaggy, like the guys who can't grow what you could call a beard, but still don't shave.

He said, "Get up."

I looked down at his shoe, but he wasn't going to kick me. I pushed up a little and almost fell down again, except he put his big hand where my back would hit * it. I lay against it for a second because I had to, and then got up to where I had one knee on the ground.

"Come on," he said. "Let's go."

I swear I felt my bones creak, but I made it. I brought a round white stone up with me as I stood. I hefted the stone. V I had to look at it to see if I was really holding

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my grasp. I started to cuss at him, but he just turned his back and walked up the embankment toward the tracks. He put his

chin on his shoulder and said, 'Tome on, will you?"

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E didn't chase me, so I didn't run. He didn't talk to me, so I didn't argue. He didn't hit me, so I didn't get mad: I went along after him. He waited for me. He pufT out his hand to me arid I

spit at it. So he went on, up to the tracks, on^ of my sight. I clawed my way up. The blood was beginning to move in my hands and feet and they felt like four point-down porcupines. When I got up to the roadbed, the man was standing there wait-ing for me.

The track was level just there, but as I turned my head to look along it, it seemed to be a hill

that was steeper and steeper and turned over above me. And next thing you know, I was lying flat en my back looking up at the

cold sky.

The man came over and sat down on the rail near me. He didn't try to touch me. I gasped lor breath a couple of times, „and suddenly felt I'd be all right if I could sleep for a minute—just a Mttle minute. I closed my eyes. The man stuck his finger m my ribs, hard. It hurt.

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He said, "You're frozen stiff and weak with hunger. I want to take you home and get you warmed up and fed. But it's a long haul up that way, and you won't make it by yourself. If I carry you, will that be the same to you as if you walked it?"

"What are you going to do when you get me home?" I told you." All right," I said.

He picked me up and carried me down the track. If he'd said anything else in the world, I'd of laid right down where I was until I froze to death. Anyway, what did he want to ask me for, one way or the other? I couldn't

of done anything.

f stopped thinking about it and dozed off.

I woke up once when he turn» ed off the right o£ way. He dove into the woods. There was no path, but he seemed to know where he was going. The Aext time I woke from a crackling

noise. He was carrying me over a frozen pond and the ice was

giving under his feet. He didn't

hurry. I looked down and saw the white cracks raying out under his feet* and it didn't seem to matter a bit. I bleared off again.

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place. There was an old auto battery on a shelf opposite, with two yellowing electric light bulbs dangling by wires from it. There was a table, some boxes and a couple of three-legged stools. The air had a haze of smoke and such a wonderful, heartbreaking, can-dy-and-crackling smell of food that a little hose squirted inside my mouth.

' The man said. "What have I got here, Baby?"

And the room was full of kids. Well, three of them, but somehow they seemed to be more than three kids. There was a girl about

my age—eight, I mean—with

blue paint on the side of her face. She had an easel and a palette

with lots of paints and a fistful of brushes, but she. wasn't using the brushes. She was smearing the paint on with her hands. Then there was a little Negro girl about five with great big eyes who stood gaping at me. And in

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The girl said, "His name's Gerry. He's mad."

"What's he mad at?" the man asked. He was looking at the baby.

"Everything," said the girl, "Everything and everybody."

"Where'd he come from?"

I said, "Hey, what is this?" but nobody paid any attention. The man kept asking questions at the baby and the girl kept answering. Craziest thing I ever saw. ,

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Janie looked at me. One of the three-legged stools sailed across to me. It hung in midair and turned on its side. It nudged me With its flat seat. I jumped back and it came after me. I dodged to the side, and that was the corner. The stool came on. I tried to bat it down and just hurt my hand. I ducked and it went lower than I did. I put one hand on it and tried to vault over it, but it just fell and so did I. I got up

again and stood in the corner, trembling. The stool turned right side up and sank to the floor in

front of me.

The man said, "Thank you, Janie." He tutned to me. "Stand there and be quiet, you. Ill get to you later. You shouldn'ta kicked up all that fuss." And then, to the baby, he said, "He got anything we need?"

And again it was the little girl who answered. She said, "Sure.

He's the one."

"Well," said the man. "What do you know!" He came over. Gerry, you can live here. I don't come from the school. I'll never turn you in."

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into the* bassinet. "Feed him.** The man nodded and began fiddling around the fire.

Meanwhile, the little Negro girl had been standing in the one spot with her big eyes right out on her cheekbones, looking at me, Janie went back to her painting and the baby just lay there same as always, so I stared right back at the little Negro girl. I snapped, What the devil are you gawking at?"

She grinned at me. "Gerry ho-

ho," she said, and disappeared. I mean she really disappeared, went

out like a light, leaving hqir

clothes where she "had been. Her little dress billowed in the air and fell in a heap where she had been, and that was that. She was gone.

"Gerry hee-hee," I heard. I looked up, and there she was, stark naked, wedged in a space

where a little outcropping on the

rock wall stuck out just below the ceiling. The second I saw her she disappeared again.

Gerry ho-ho," she said. Now she was on top of the row of boxes they used as storage

shelves, over on the other side of

the room.

"Gerry hee-hee!" Now she was under the table. "Gerry ho-ho!" This time she was right in the corner with me, crowding me.

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Janie said, "It's really twins."

"Oh," I said. Then another girl, exactly the same, came from somewhere in the shadows and stood beside the first. They were identical. They stood side by side and stared at me. This time I let them stare.

"That's Bonnie and Beanie,** said the painter. "This is Baby and that—" she indicated the man- "that's Lone. And I'm Janie." v.

I couldn't think of what to say, so I said, "Yeah."

Lone said, 'Water, Janie. ,? He held up a pot. I heard water trickling, but didn't see anything. "That's enough," he said, and hung the pot on a crane. He pick-* ed up a cracked china plate and brought it over to me. It was full of stew with great big lumps of meat in it, and thick gravy and dumplings and carrots. ''Here, Gerry. Sit down;"

I looked at the stool. "On that?"

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I ate even faster than before. I was almost finished when I threw it all up. Then for some reason my head hit the edge of the stool. I dropped the plate and spoon and slumped there. I felt real bad.

Lone came over and looked at me. "Sorry, kid," he said. "Clean up, will you, Janie?"

Right in front of my eyes, the mess on the floor disappeared. I didn't care about that or anything else just then. I felt the man's hand on the side of my neck. Then he tousled my hair.

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I felt the blanket go around me, and I think I was asleep before he put me dpwn.

I don't know how much later it was when I woke up. I didn't know where I was and that scared me. I raised my head and saw the dull glow of the embers in the fireplace. Lone was stretched out ©n it in his clothes. Janie's easel stood in the reddish blackness like some great preying insect. I saw the baby's head pop'up out of the bassinet, but I couldn't tell whether he was looking straight at me or away. Janie was lying on the floor near the

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JL went back to Janie, She just looked up at me. She wasn't scared. I told her, "I got to go to the John."

Oh," she said. "Why'n't you

say so?

Suddenly I grunted and grabbed my guts. The feeling I had I can't begin to talk about. I acted as if it was a pain, but it wasn't. It was like nothing else that ever happened to me before.

"Okay," Janie said. "Go on back to bed."

"But I got to—"

"You got to what?"

"Nothing." It was true. I didn't have to go no place.

"Next time tell me right away. I don't mind."

I didn't say anything. I went back to my blanket.

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I told you. I don't .do any*

thing here. You do it." "You hypnotized me." "I did not." His voice was quiet, but he really meant it.

"What was all that, then? It was . . .*it was like it was happening for real all over again." Feel anything?" Everything." I shuddered. u Every damn thing. What was

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me in years. I chewed on it and then asked, "If I did it by myself, how come it never happened before?"

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"Well, then, that's all that mat-ters. Is that where you live, with those people?"

I bit off a fingernail that had been bothering me. "Not for a long time. Not since Baby was three." I looked at him,_ "You remind me of Lone."

"Why?"

"I don't know. No, you don't," I added suddenly. "I don't know what made me say that." I lay down abruptly.

The ceiling was gray and the lamps weft dim. I heard the pipe-stem click against his teeth. I lay there for a long time.

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"What did you expect to happen?"

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Baby talked all the time. He was like a broadcasting station that runs twenty-four hours a day, and you can get what it's sending any time you"tune in, but it'll keep sending whether you tune in or not. When I say he talked, I don't me£n exactly that.

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JANIE showed every picture she painted to Baby, before she cleaned the boards and painted new ones. She had to clean them because she only had three

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or nve a day. Lone and the twins were kept hopping getting turpentine for her. She could shift the paints back into the little pots on her easel without any trouble, just by looking at the picture one color at a time, but turps was something else again. She told me that Baby remembered all her pictures and that's why she didn't have to keep them. They were all pictures of machines and gear-trains and mechanical linkages and what idbked like electric circuits and things like that. I never thought too much about them.

I went out with Lone to get some turpentine and a couple of picnic hams, one time. We went through the woods to the railroad

track and down a couple of miles to where we could see the glow of a town. Then the woods again,

and some alleys, and a back street.

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and he went up and looked at the

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stood in the shadows by the door.

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We found a pair of fine hams and a two-gallon can of -turpentine. I took a bright yellow ballpoint pen and Lone cuffed me and made me put it back.

-We only take what we need/* he told me.

After we left, Beanie came back and Rocked the door and went home again. I only went with Lone a few times, when he had more to- get than he could carry

easily.

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"Nothing's the matter. This isn't getting me any place."

"You said that when you'd barely started. Do you think you've accomplished anything since then?"

"Oh, yeah, but

"Then how can you be sure you're right this time?" When I didn't say anything^ he asked

me, "Didn't you like this last stretch?"

I said angrily, "I didn't like or not like. It didn't mean nothing.

It was just—just talk."

"So what was the difference between this last session and what happened before?"

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He just shook his head. "I'm not telling you anything. Go on, < leave if you want to. I'll give you back your change."

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had the place soundproofed.

I said, "Why do you suppose Lone let me live there so long when I couldn't do any of the things that the other kids could?* 1 '

"Maybe you could."

"Oh, no," I said positively. "1 used to try. I was strong for a' kid my age and I knew how to keep my mouth shut, but aside from those two things I don't think I was any different from any kid. I don't think I'm any different right now, except what difference there might be from living with Lone &nd his bunch.'*

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Baby is three. Baby is three. I •went up to a big house with a winding drive that ran under a sort of theater-marquee thing. Baby is three. Baby . . ."

"How old are you?"

"Thirty-three," I said, and the next thing you know I was up off that couch like it was hot. and heading for the door. -■, "Don't be foolish," Stern said. "Want me to waste a whole afternoon?"

"What's that to me? I'm pay-irtg for it."

"All right, it's up to you."

I went back. "I don't like any part of this," I said.

"Good. We're getting warm then."

"What made me say "Thirty-three ?' I ain't thirty-three, I'm fifteen. And another thing . . ."

"Yes ?"

"It's about that. 'Baby is three." It's me saying it, all right. But when I think about it—it's

not ray voice."

"Like thirty-three's not your age?"

"Yeah," I whispered.

"Ger»y," he said warmly, "there's nothing to be afraid of."

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somebody else's voice."

head-shrinking business, as you called it a while back, isn't what most people think. When I go with you into the world of your mind when you go yourself, for that matter—what we find isn't so very different from the so-called real world. It seems so at first, because the patient comes out with all sorts of fantasies and

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"Everywhere we go, everything we do, we're surrounded by sym-

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see them if we do look. If anyone ever could report to you exactly what he saw and thought while walking ten feet down the street* you'd get the most twisted, clouded, partial picture you ever ran across. And nobody ever looks at what's around him with any kind of attention until he gets into a place like this. The fact that he's looking at past events doesn't matter; what counts is that he's seeing clearer than he ever could before, just because, for once, he's

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"All right." I felt sick. I felt tired. And I suddenly realized that being sick and being tired was a way of trying to get out of

it.

"Baby is three," he said. Baby is maybe. Me, three,

thirty-three, me, you Kew you.

"Kew!" I yelled. Stern didn't say anything. "Look, I don't know why, but I think I know how to get to this, and this isn't the way. Do you mind if I try something else?".

"You're the doctor," he said.

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I walked up the drive' in my shoes. I'd had to wear shoes and my feet couldn't breathe. I didn't want to go to the house, but I had to.

I went up the steps between the

big white columns and looked at

the doer. I wished I could see through it, but it was too white

and thick. There was a window

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crudded up with colored glass. I hit on the door with my hand and left dirt on it.

Nothing happened, so I hit it again. It got snatched open and a tall, thin colored, woman stood there. "What you wa*t?"

I said I had to see Miss Kew.

"Well, Miss Kew don't want to see the likes of you," she said. She talked too loud. "You got a dirty face." "*

I started to get mad then. I was already pretty sore about having 'to come here, walking around near people in the daytime and all. I said, "My face ain't got nothin' to do with it. Where's Miss Kew? Go on, find her for me."

She gasped. "You can't speak to me like that!"

I said, "I didn't want to speak to you like any way. Let me in. I started wishing for Janie. Janie could of moved her. But I had to handle it by myself. I wasn't do-

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So I started kicking on the

door. For that, shoes are great. After a while, she snatched the door open agah&so sudden I al-most went on my can. She had a broom with her. She screamed at me, "You get away from here, you trash, or I'll call the police!

She pushed me and I fell.

I got up off the porch floor and

went for her. She stepped back and whupped me one with the broom as I went past, but anyhow I was inside now. The woman was making little shrieking noises and coming for me. I took the broom away from her and then somebody said, "Miriam! in a voice like a grown goose.

I froze and the woman went into hysterics. "Oh, Miss Kew, look out! He'll Jrill us all. Get the police. Get the—"

"Miriam!" came the honk, and Miriam dried up.

There at the top of the stairs was this prune-faced woman with

a dress on that had lace on it. She looked a lot older than she was, maybe because she held her mouth so tight. I guess she was about thirty-three— thirty-three.

She had mean eyes and a small

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The maid said, "I'll get the police."

Miss Kew turned on her. "There's time enough for that, Miriam. Now, you dirty little boy, what do you want?"

"I got to speak to you by yourself," I told her.

"Don't you let him do it, Miss Kew," cried the maid.

"Be quiet, Miriam. Little boy, I told you not to say 'Got to/ You may say whatever you have to say in front of Miriam."

"Like hell." They both gasped. I said, "Lone told me not to."

"Miss Kew, are you goin' to let him—"

"Be quiet, Miriam! Young man, you will keep a civil Then her eyes popped up real round. "Who did you say

"Lone said so."

"Lone." She stood there on the stairs looking at her hands. Then she said, "Miriam, that will be

all." And you wouldn't know it was the same woman, the way she said it.

The maid opened her mouth,

but Miss Kew stuck out a finger that might as well of had a rifle-sight on the end of it. The maid beat it.

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SHE made me go ahead of her into a room as big as our swimming hole. It had books all

over and leather on top of the tables, with gold flowers drawn

into the corners.

She pointed to a chair. "Sit there. No, wait a moment." She

went to the fireplace and got a newspaper out of a box and

brought it over and unfolded it on the seat of the chair. "Now sit down."

I sat on the paper and she dragged up another chair, but didn't put no paper on it. " "What is it? Where is Lone?"

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She pulled in her breath and

went white. She stared at me until her eyes started to water.

"You sick?" I asked her. "Go

ahead, throw up. It'll make you*

feel better."

"Dead? Lone is dead?"

"Yeah. There was a flash flood last week and when he went out

the next night in that big wind, he walked under a old oak tree that got gullied under by the

flood. The tree come down on him.

"Came down on him," she whispered. "Oh, no . • . it's not true."

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"Stop!" She covered her face

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"Ill be all right in a moment,"

she said in a low voice. She went and stood in front of the fireplace with her back to me. I took off one of my shoes while I was waiting for her to come back. But instead she talked from where she was. "Are you Lone's little boy?"

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"Oh, my dear child!" She came running back and I thought for

a second she was going to pick me up or something, but she stopped short and wrinkled up

her nose a little bit. "Wh-what's your name?"

"Gerry," I told her.

"Well, Gerry, how would you like to live with me in this nice big house and—and have new clean clothes—and everything?"

"Well, that's the whole idea* Lone told me to come to you. He said you got more dough than you know what to do with, and he said you owed him a favor/*

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"What did he tell you about that?" She'd got her honk back by then.

"Not a damn thing/'

"Please don't use that word,"

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ded her head. "I promised and I'll do it You can live here from

now on ? If—if you want to.**

"That's got nothin' to do* with it. Lone told me to."

"You'll be happy here/' she said. She gave me an up-and-down. "I'll see to that."

"Okay, Shall I go get the other kids?"

"Other kids—children?"

"Yeah. This ain't for just me.

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"Don't say 'ain't.' ■" She leaned back in her chair, took out a silly little handkerchief and dabbed her lips with it, looking at me the whole time. "Now tell me about these—these other children."

"Well, there's Janie, she's elev-en like me, And Bonnie and

Beanie are eight, they're twins, and Baby. Baby is three." "Baby is three," she said.

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SCREAMED. Stern was kneeling beside the couch in a flash, holding his palms against my cheeks to hold my head still; I'd been whipping it back and forth. "Good boy," he said. "You found it. You haven't found out what it is, but now you know where it is."

"But for sure," I said hoarsely. "Got water?"

He poured me some water out of a thermos flask. It was so cold it hurt. I lay back and rested, like I'd climbed a cliff. I said, "I can't take anything like that again."

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"What about you?"

"I'll go on as long as you want me to."

I thought about it. "I'd like to ;o on, but I don't want no thumping around. Not for a while yet.

If you want another of those inaccurate analogies," Stern said, "psychiatry is like a road map. There are always a lot of different ways to get from one place to another place."

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I never thought ©f that. I figured I had to do the whole thing, every inch."

'Maybe you won't have to, maybe you will, but the bridge will be easy to cross when you've covered everything else. Maybe there's nothing of value on the bridge and maybe there is, but you can't get near it till you've looked everywhere else."

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somehow.

"Mind a suggestion?"

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4 All right."

He waited, then said quietly, **In the library. You told her about the other kids."

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In the library. The leather, the table, and whether I'm able to do with Miss Kew what Lone said.

What Lone said was, "There's a woman lives up on the top of the hill in the Heights section, name of Kew. She'll have to take care of you. You got to get her to do that. Do everything she tells you, only stay together. Don't you ever let any one of

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you get awa*y from the others, hear? Aside from that, just you keep Miss Kew happy and she'll keep you happy. Now you do what I say." That's what Lone said. Between every word there was a link like steel eable, and the whole thing made something that couldn't be broken. Not by me it couldn't.

Miss Kew said, "Where are your sisters and the baby?"

"I'll bring 'em."

"Is it near here?"

"Near enough." She didn't say anything to that, so I,got up. "I'll be back soon."

"Wait," she said. "I—really, I haven't had time to think. I

mean—I've got to get things ready, you know."

I said, "You don't need to think and you are ready. So long."

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I yelled back at her, "Okay,

okay!" and went out.

The sun was Warm and the sky

was good, and pretty soon I got

back to Lone's house. The fire

was out and Baby stunk. Janie

had knocked over her easel and

was sitting on the floor by the door with her head in her hands. Bonnie and Beanie were on a stool with their arms around each other, pulled up together as close as they could get, as if it was cold in there, although it wasn't. I hit Janie in the arm to snap

her out of it. She raised her head.

She had gray eyes—or maybe it was more a kind of green—but now they had a funny look about them, like water in a glass that had some milk left in the bottom of it.

I saidV "What's the matter around here?"

"What's the matter with what?" she wanted to know.

"All of yez," I said.

She said, "We don't give a damn, that's all."

"Well, all right," I said, "but we got to do what Lone said. Come on."

N*o." I looked at the twins.

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"Well, why not give 'em something?"

She just shrugged. I sat down. What did Lone have to go get himself squashed for?

"We^can't blesh no more," said

Janie. It seemed to explain everything.

"Look," I said, "I've got to be Lone now."

Janie thought about that, and Baby kicked his feet. Janie looked at him. "You can't," she said.

"I know where to get the heavy food, and the turpentine," I said. "I can find that springy moss to stuff in the logs, and cut wood, and all."

But I couldn't call Bonnie and Beanie from miles away to unlock

doors. I couldn't just say a word to Janie and make her get water and blow up the fire and fix the battery. I couldn't make us blesh.

We all stayed like that for a long time. Then I heard the bassinet creak. I looked up. Janie was staring into it.

"All right," she said. "Let's go,

"Who says so?"

"Baby."

"Who's running things now?" I said, mad. "Me or Baby?"

"Baby," Janie said.

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When we came close to town. I wanted to get everybody close together, but I was afraid to say anything. Baby must of said it instead. The twins came back to us and Janie gave them their clothes and they walked ahead of us, good as you please. I don't know how Baby did it. The$r sure hated to travel that way.

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"There's a woman here name of Miriam," I told Janie. "She says anything, tell her to go to

hell."

The door opened and there was Miriam. She took one look and jumped back six feet. We all trailed inside* Miriam got her wind and screamed, "Miss Kew! Miss Kew!"

"Go to hell," said Janie, and looked*at me. I didn't know what to do. It was the first time Janie ever did anything I told her to.

Miss Kew came down the stairs. She was wearing a different dress, but it was just as stupid and had just as much lace. She opened her mouth and nothing came out, so she just left it open until something happened. Finally she said, "Dear gentle Lord

preserve us!"

The twins lined up and gawked at her. Miriam sidled over to the wall and sort of slid along it, keeping away from us, until she could get to the door and close it. She said, "Miss Kew, if those are the children you said were going to live here, I quit."

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Just then, Bonnie squatted down on the rug. Miriam squawked and jumped at her. She, grabbed hold of Bonnie's arm and went to snatch her up.. Bonnie disappeared, leaving Miriam with one small dress and the damnedest expression on her face. Beanie grinned enough to split her head

in two and started to wave like

mad. I looked 'where she was waving, and there was Bonnie, naked as a jaybird, up on the banister at the top of the stairs. Miss Kew turned around and saw her and sat down plump on the steps. Miriam went down, too, like she'd been slugged. Beanie picked up Bonnie's dress and walked up the steps past Miss Kew and handed it over. Bonnie put it on. Miss Kew sort of lolled around and looked up. Bonnie and Beanie came back

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"What's the matter with her? Janie asked me.

"She gets sick every once in a while."

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nister and pulled herself up. S^xe stood there hanging on to it for a while with her eyes closed.

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of checked herself and pointed.

"What in heaven's name is that?" And she aimed her finger at me.

I didn't get it right away, so I turned around to look behind me. "What?"

"That! That!"

"Oh!" I said. "That's Baby." I stung him down off my back and held him up for her to look at. She made a sort of moaning noise and jumped over and took him away from me. She held him out in front of her and moaned again and called him a poor little

thing, and ran and put him down on a long bench thing with cushions under the colored-glass

window. She bent over him and put her knuckle in her mouth and bit on it and moaned some more. Then she turned to me.

"Horn long has he been like this?"

I looked at Jane and she looked at me. I said, "He's always been like he is."

She made a sort of cough and ran to where Miriam was lying flaked on the floor. She slapped Miriam's face a couple of times back and forth. Miriam sat up and looked us over. She closed her eyes and shivered and sort of climbed up Miss Kew hand over

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Hurry!" She gave Miriam a big push.,Miriam staggered and grabbed at the wall, and then ran out. Miss Kew went back to Baby and hung over him, titch-titching with her lips all tight,

"Don't mess with him," I said.

"There's nothin' wrong with him.

.We're hungry."

She gave me a look like I'd punched her. "Don't speak to

me ?"

• "Look," I said/ "we don't like this any more'n you do. If Lone hadn't told us to, we wouldn't never have come. We were doing all right where we were." /

"Don't say 'wouldn't never,' "

said Miss Kew. She looked at all

of us, one by one. Then she took that silly little hunk of handkerchief and pushed it against her mouth.

"See?" I said to Janie. "All the time gettin' sick."

"Ho-ho," said Bonnie.

Miss Kew gave her a long look. •'Gerard/* she said in a choked sort of voice, "I understood you to say that these children were your sisters." V, "Well?"

She looked at me as if I was aeal stupid. "We don't have little colored girls for sisters, Gerard."

Jame said, "We do.-

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Miriam came in with a big oval pan and towels and stuff on her acm. She put it down on the bench thing and Miss Kew stuck the back of her hand in the water,

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"Wait a minute. Hold on now. What do you think you're doing?"

Janie said, "Shut up, Gerry. He says it's all right."

"All right? She'll drowned him."

"No, she won't. Just shut up."

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Miss Kew got her honk out. You can't leave me in a predicament like this! These children need help. Can't you see that for

yourself?"

Miriam looked me and Tanie over. She was trembling. "You ain't safe. Miss Kew. They ain't just dirty. They're crazy!"

"They're victims of neglect, and probably no worse than you or I would be if we'd been neglected. And don't say 'ain't.' Gerard!"

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dren are going to live here, you shall have to make a great many changes. You cannot live under this roof and behave as you have so far. Do you understand that?" "Oh, sure. Lone said we was to do whatever you say -and keep you happy."

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Gerard, you shall have to learn not to speak to me in that tone. Now, young man, if I told

you to do what Miriam says, too, would you do it?"

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Miss Kew said, "Gerard, I asked you a question."

"Keep your pants on," I said. "I got to find out, don't I? Yes, if that's what you want, we'll listen to Miriam, too."

Miss Kew turned to Miriam. "You hear that, Miriam?"

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and at us and shook her head.

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They went right to her. Each one took hold of a hand. They looked up at her and grinned. They were probably planning some sort of hellishness, but I

guess they looked sort of cute. Miriam's mouth twitched -and I thought for a second she was going to look human. She said, "All right, Miss Kew."

Miss Kew walked over and handed her the baby and she started upstairs with him. Miss Kew herded us along after Mir-iam. We all went upstairs.

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thing Miss Kew said to do. But she and Miriam never seemed to understand that. I guess they felt they had to push every inch of the way. All they had to do was make us understand what they wanted, and we'd of done it. That's okay when it's something like telling me not to climb into bed with Janie.

Miss Kew raised holy hell over that. You'd of thought I'd robbed the Crown Jewels, the way she acted. But when it's something like, 'You must behave like little ladies and gentlemen/ it just doesn't mean a thing. And two out of three orders she gave us were like that. 'Ah-ahP she'd say. 'Language, language P For the longest time I didn't dig that at all. I finally asked her what the hell she meant, and then she

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"We only had real trouble twice, once about the twins and once about Baby* That one was real bad."

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part for Miss Kew and Janie and me, and the other part for Miriam and the twins. I guess we'd have noticed it sooner if things hadn't been such a hassel at first, getting us into new clothes and making us sleep all the time at night, and all that. But here was the thing: We'd all get turned out in the side yard to play, and then along

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eat with us?'

" 'Miriam's taking care of them, dear,' Miss Kew says.

"Janie looked at her with those eyes. 'I know that. Let 'em eat here and 111 take care of 'em.'

"Miss Kew's mouth got all tight again and she said, 'They're little colored girls, Jane. Now eat your lunch.'

"But that didn't explain anything to Jane or me, either. I said, 'I want 'em to eat with us. Lone said we should stay together.'

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nowhere. So I just rocked back my head and bellowed, "Bonnie! Beanie!" And bm^ there they were.

"She said come back in,, we'd have a talk. Jane asked Baby anil Baby said okay, so we went bactt. We had a compromise. We didn't eat in the dining room no more*

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was too much. Well, maybe she

had had a hard week, but so had we. So Miss Kew ordered us to

leave.

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"Baby. Yeah. Well, that was a couple of months after we moved

to Miss Kew's. Things were al-ready getting real smooth, even then. We'd learned all the 'yes, ma'am, no, ma'am' routines by then and she'd got us catching up with school—regular periods morning and afternoon, five days a week. Jane had long ago quit taking care of Baby, and the twins walked to wherever they went. That was funny. They could pop from one place to another right in front of Miss Kew's eyes and she wouldn't believe what she saw. She was too upset

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bare. They quit doing it and she was happy about it. She was happy about a lot of things. It had been years since she'd seen anybody—years. She'd even had the meters put outside the house so no one would ever have to come in. But with us there, she

began to liven up. She quit wearing those old-lady dresses and be-

gan to look halfway human. She ate with us sometimes, even.

"But one fine day I woke up feeling real weird. It was like

somebody had stolen something

from me when I was asleep, only I didn't know what. I crawled

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asleep, and then popped up wide. I didn't have to tell her some-< thing was wrong. She knew, and she knew what it was. "'Baby's gone!' she said.

"We didn't care then who woke up. We pounded out of her room and down the hall and into the

little room at the end where Baby slept. You wouldn't believe it. The fancy crib he had, and the white chest of drawers, and all that mess of rattles and so on, they were gone, and there was just a writing desk there. I mean it was as if Baby had never been there at all.

"We didn't say anything. We

just spun around and busted into Miss Kew's bedroom. I'd never been in there but once and Jane only a few times. But forbidden

or not, this was different. Miss Kew was in bed, with her hair braided. She was wide awake before we could get across the room. She pushed herself back and up until she was sitting

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"So all of a sudden Miss Kew took off the stone face and held

out her hands to us. 'Children,' she said, 'I'm sorry. I really am sorry. But I've just done what is best. I've sent Baby away. He's gone to live with some children like him. We could never make him really happy here. You know that.'

"Jane said, 'He never told us he wasn't happy.'

Miss Kew brought out a hollow kind of laugh. 'As if he could talk, the poor little thing.!*

" 'You better get him back here,' I said. 'You don't know What you're fooling with. I told you we wasn't ever to break up/

"She was getting mad, but she held on to herself. 'I'll,try to explain it to you, dear,' she said. 'You and Jane here and even the twins are all normal, healthy children and you'll grow up to be fine men and women. But poor Baby's—different. He's not going to grow very much more,

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"And I said, 'Yeah. You better bring him back, but quick/

"Then she started to jump salty. 'Among the many things I have taught you is, I am sure, not to dictate to your elders. Now, then, you run along and get dressed for breakfast, and we'll say no more about this/

"I told her, nice as I could, 'Miss Kew, you're going to wish you brought him back right now. But you're going to bring him

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"So then' she got up out of her bed and ran us out of the room."

WAS quiet a while, and Stern asked, "What happened?" "Oh," I said, "she brought him back." I laughed suddenly. "I guess it's funny now, when you come to think of it. Nearly three 'months of us getting bossed around, and her ruling the roost, and then all of a sudden we lay down the law. We'd tried our

best to be good according to her ideas, but, by God, that time she went too far. She got the treat-ment from the second she slam* med her door on us. She had a big china pot under her bed, and it rose up in the air and smashed

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through her dresser mirror. Then one of the drawers in the dresser slid open and a glove come out of it and smacked her face.

"She went to jump back on the bed and a whole section of plaster fell off the ceiling onto the bed. The water turned on in her little bathroom and the plug went in, and just about the time it began to overflow, all her clothes fell off their hooks. She went to run out of the room, but the door was stuck, and when she yanked on the handle it opened real quick and she spread out on the floor. The door slammed shut again and more plaster come down on her. Then we went back in and stood looking at her. She was crying. I hadn't known till then that she could.

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helped her up and got her to a chair. She just looked at us for a while, and at the mirror, and at the busted ceiling, and then she whispered, 'What happened? What happened?'

" 'You took Baby away,M said. 'That's what/

"So she jumped up and said real low, real < scared, but real strong: 'Something struck the

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"A big gob of water hit her on the face and chest and made her nightgown stick to her, which was the kind of thing that upset her most. Her braids stood straight up in the air, more and more, till they dragged her standing straight up. She opened her mouth to yell and the powder puff off the dresser rammed into it. She clawed it out.

" 'What are you doing? What are you doing?* she says, crying again.

"Janie just looked at her, and put her hands behind her, real smug. 'We haven't done anything,' she said.

"And I said, 'Not yet we haven't. You going to get Baby

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"And she screamed at us, 'Stop it! Stop it! Stop talking about

that mongoloid idiot! It's no good to anyone, not even itself! How could I ever make believe it's mine?'

"I said, 'Get rats, Janie.* There was a scuttling sound along the baseboard. Miss Kew covered her face with her hands and sank down on the chair. 'Not rats,' she said. 'There are no rats here.' Then something squeaked and she went all to pieces. Did you ever see anyone

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What's funny?

"She never seemed able to rightly remember what had happened to her. About three weeks later I heard her talking to Miriam about it. She said it was the house settling suddenly. She said it was a good thing she'd sent Baby out for that medical checkup—the poor little thing might have been hurt. She really believed it, I think."

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"Do you know where I came from? The earliest thing I can remember is a punch in the

toouth. I can still see it coming, a fist as big as my head. Because I was crying. I been afraid to

cry ever since. I was crying because I was hungry. Cold, maybe. Both. After that, big dormitories, and whoever could steal the most got the most. Get the hell kicked out of you if you're bad, get a big reward if you're £ood. Big reward: they let you alone. Try to live like that. Try fo live so the biggest, most won-derf ul thing in the whole damn world is just to have 'cm let you jalone!

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belong. It never happened before. Two yellow bulbs and a fireplace and they light up the world. It's all there is and all there ever has to be.

Then the big change: clean clothes, cooked food, five hours a day school; Columbus and King Arthur and a 1925 book on Civics that explains about septic tanks. Over it all a great big square-cut lump of ice, and you watch it melting and the corners curve, and you know it's because of you, Miss Kew . . . hell, she had too much control over herself ever to slobber over us, but

it was there, that feeling. Lone took care of us because it was part of the way he lived. Miss Kew took care of us, and none of it was the way she lived. It was something she wanted to do. "She had a weird idea of 'right' and a wrong idea of 'wrong,' but she stuck to them, tried to make her ideas do us good. When she couldn't understand, she figured it was her own failure . . . and there was an almighty lot she didn't understand and never could. What went right was our success. What went

wrong was her mistake. That last year, that was . . . oh, good.

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"In the next room, Janie moving around, singing, and when t see her, I know her face will shine inside and out. I get up. There's hot hot water and the toothpaste bites my tongue. The clothes fit me and I go downstairs and they're all there and I'm glad to see them and they're glad to see me, and we no sooner get set around the table when Miss Kew comes down and everyone calls out to her at once. And the morning goes by like that, school with a recess, there in the big long living room. The twins with the ends of their tongues stuck out, drawing the alphabet instead of writing it, and then Jane, when it's time, painting a picture, a real picture of a cow with trees and a yellow fence that goes off into the distance. Here I am lost between the two parts of a quadratic equa-

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far away I hear the .shuffle and klunk of filled pots going on the stove.back in the kitchen.

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to go; Jane dappling the leaves in her picture, trying to get it just the way Miss Kew says it ought*to be. And Baby, he's got a big play-pen. He don't move around much any more, he just watches and dribbles some, and

gets packed full of food and kept

as clean as a new sheet of tinfoil.

"And supper, and the evening,

and Miss Kew reading to us,

changing her voice every time someone else talks in the story, reading fast and whispery when it embarrasses her, but reading every word all the same. .

"And I had to go and kill her.

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YOU haven't said why," Stern said. "What are you—stupid?" I

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"Not yet."

"God!" I said. I thought for a while. 'We didn't blesh."

"Blesh? Oh. But you didn't after Lone died, either."

"That was different. That was like a car running out of gas, but the car's there—there's, nothing wrong with it. It's just waiting. But after Miss Kew got done with us, the car was taken all to

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other. I said logic, mind; I didn't say 'correctness; or 'rightness' or 'justice' or anything of the sort. Logic and truth are two very different things, but they often look the same to the mind that's performing the logic.

"When that mind is sub-merged, working at cross-pur^

ses with the surface mind, then you're all confused. Now in your case, I can see the thing you're pointing at—that in order to preserve or to rebuild that peculiar bond between you kids, you had to get rid of Miss Kew. But I don't see the logic. I don't see that regaining that 'blesmng' was worth destroying this new-found security which you admit was enjoyable."

I said, desperately, "Maybe it

wasn't worth destroying it."

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had before. I don't see why and neither do you."

"How are we going to find out?"

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I said, "What I just told you, all that about the children doing things other people's way instead of their own, and Baby not talking, and everyone happy about it, and finally that I had to kill Miss Kew. It took a long time to get to that, and a long time to start doing it. I guess I lay in bed and thought for four hours before I got up again. It was dark and quiet. I went out of the room and down the hall and into Miss Kew's bedroom and killed her."

"How?"

"That's all there is!" I shouted, as loud as I could. Then I quiet-ed down. "It was awful dark . . * it still is. I don't know. I don't want to know. She did love us. I know she did. But I had to kill

her."

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"X still don't see that logic you were talking about." I began to hammer on the couch with my fist,*hard, once for each word: "Why — did — I — have — to — go — and — do — that?"

"Cut that out," he said. "You'll hurt yourself."

I ought to get hurt," I said.

"Ah?" said Stern.

I got up and went to the desk and got some water. "What am I

going to do?" "Tell me what you did after

you killed her, right up until the

time you came here."

"Not much," I said. "It was only last night. I went back to my room, sort of numb. I put all my clothes on except my shoes. I carried them. I went out. Walked a lotig time, trying to think, went to the post office when it opened. Miss Kew used to let me go for the mail sometimes. Found this check waiting for me for the contest. Cashed it at the bank, opened an account, took eleven hundred bucks. Got the idea of getting some help from a psychiatrist, spent most of the day looking for one, came here. That's all."

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"If I had of done that," I told him, "she wouldn't of been Miss Kew any more. Now the banker —all I made him do was be a banker."

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You killed her," he said—and t knew he was changing the subject—"and destroyed something "that was valuable to you. It must fiave been less valuable to you ian the chance to rebuild this ling you used to have with the :her kids. And you're not sure the value of that." He looked ■ "Does that describe lin trouble?" "Just about."

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"So maybe I just-didn't have a good enough reason to kill her

"You had, because you did it. We just haven't located it yet. I mean we have the reason, but we don't know why it was important enough. The answer is somewhere in you."

"Where?"

He got up and walked some. "We have a pretty consecutive life-story here. There's fantasy mixed with the fact, of course, and there are areas in which we have no detailed information, but we have a beginning and a middle and an end. Now, I can't say for sure, but the answer may be in that bridge you refused to cross a while back. Remember?"

I remembered, all right. I said, "Why that? Why can't we try something else?"

He quietly pointed out, "Because you just said it. Why are you shying away from it?"

"Don't go making big ones out of little ones," I said. Sometimes the guy annoyed me. "That bothers me. I don't know why, but it does."

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that sickness and faintness again, and again I pushed it away. Suddenly I wasn't going to be stopped any more. "Let's go get it.'* I lay down.

He let me watch the ceiling and listen to silence for a while, and

then he said, "You're in the library. You've just met Miss Kew. She's talking to you; you're telling her about the children."

I lay very still. Nothing happened. Yes, it did; I got tense inside, all over, from the bones out, more and more. When it got bad as it could, still nothing

happened.

I heard him get up and cross the room to the desk. He fumbled there for a while; things clicked

&nd hummed. Suddenly I heard

my own voice:

"Well, there's Jane, she's eleven like me. And Bonnie and Beanie are eight, they're twins, and Baby, Baby is three"

And the sound of my own

scream —

And nothingness.

SPUTTERING up out of the darkness, I came flailing out my fists. Strong hands caught my wrists. -.They didn t check my arms; they just grabbed and rode. I opened my eyes. I was soaking wet. The thermos lay on its side on the rug. Stern was crouched beside me, holding

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"What happened?"

He let me go and stood back watchfully. "Lord," he said, what a charge?"

I held my head and moaned. He threw me a hand-towel and I used it. "What hit me?"

"I've had you on tape the whole time," he explained. "When you wouldn't get into that recollection, I tried to nudge you into it by using your own voice as you recounted it before. It works

wonders sometimes."

"It worked wonders this time," I growled. "I think I blew a fuse."

"In effect, you did. You were on the trembling verge of going into the thing you don't want to remember, and you let yourself

go unconscious rather than do it."

"What are you so pleased

about?"

"Last-ditch defense," he said

tersely. "We've got it now. Just

one more try."

"Now hold on. The last-ditch defense is that I drop dead."

"You won't. You've contained this episode in your subconscious mind for a long time and it hasn t hurt you."

"Hasn't it?"

"Not in terms of killing you."

"How do you know it won't when we drag it out?"

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"You know a lot more about yourself now than you did at the time/' he explained softly. "You can apply insight. You can evaluate it as it comes up. Maybe not completely, but enough to protect yourself. Don't worry. Trust me. I can stop it if it gets too

tad. Now just relax. Look at the ceiling. Be aware of your toes. Don't look at your toes. Look Straight up. Your toes, your big toes. Don't move your toes, but feel them. Count outward from |rour big toes, one count for each

. One, two, three. Feel that ird toe. Feel the toe, feel it, el it go limp, go limp, go limp,

the toe next to it on both sides its limp. So limp because your >es are limp, all of your toes are limp—"

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"You're trying to hypnotize me. I'm not going to let you do that."

"You're going to hypnotize yourself. You do everything yourself. I just point the way. I point your toes to the path. Just point your toes. No one can make you go anywhere you don't want to go> but you want to go where your toes are pointed where your

toes are limp where your . . .**

On and on and on. And where was the dangling gold ornament, the light in the eyes, the mystic passes? He wasn't even sitting where I could see him. Where was the talk about how sleepy I was supposed to be? Well, he knew I wasn't sleepy and didn't want to be sleepy. I just wanted to be toes. I just wanted to be limp, just a limp toe. No brains in a toe, a toe to go, go, go eleven times, eleven, I'm eleven . , . I split in two, and it was all

right, the part that watched the

part that went back to the library, and Miss Kew leaning to-

ward me, but not too near, me with the newspaper crackling under me on the library chair, me with one shoe off and my limp toes dangling . . . and I felt a mild surprise at this. For this was hypndsiSj but I was quite conscious^ quite altogether there on the couch with Stern droning away at me, quite able to roll

over and sit up and talk to him and walk out if I wanted to, but I just didn't want to. Oh, if this

was what hypnosis was like, I was all for it. I'd work at this. This was all right.

There on the table I'm able to see that the gold will unfold on the leather, and whether I'm able to stay by the table with you, with Miss Kew, with Miss Kew...

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would be three if there were

a baby, which there never was...

Lone, I'm open to you. Open,

is this open enough?

His irises like wheels. I'm sure they spin, but I never catch them

at it. The probe that passes in-visibly from his brain, through his eyes, into mine. Does he know what it means to me? Does he care? He doesn't care, he doesn't know; he empties me and I fill as he directs me to; he drinks and waits and drinks again

and never looks at the cup.

•When I saw him first, I was dancing in the wind, in the wood, in the wild, and I spun about and he stood there in the leafy shadows, watching me. I hated him for it. It was not my wood, not

my gold-spangled fern-tangled glen. But it was my dancing that

he took, freezing it forever by being there.* I hated him for it,

hated the way he looked, the way he stood, ankle-deep in the kind

wet ferns, looking like atree with" roots for feet and clothes the color of earth. As I stopped he moved, and then he was just a man, a great ape-shouldered, dirty animal of a man, and all my hate was fear suddenly and I was just as frozen.

He knew what he had done and he didn't care. Dancing . . -never to dance again, because never would I know the woods were free of eyes, free of tall, uncaring, dirty animal men. Summer days with the clothes chok-ing me, winter nights with the precious decencies round . and about me like a shroud, and never to dance again, never to remember dancing without remembering the shock of knowing he had seen me. How I hated him! Oh, how I hated him!

To dance alone where no one knew, that was the single thing I hid to myself when I was known as Miss Kew, that Victorian, older than her years, later

than her time; correct and starched, lace and linen and lonely. Now indeed I would be all they said, through and through, forever and ever, because he had robbed me of the one thing I dared to keep secret. He came out into the sun and walked to me, holding his great head a little on one side. I stood where I was, frozen inwardly and outwardly and altogether by the

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I asked him, "Who are you?" "Lone," he said. "You going to read books for me?"

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"What books?" I cried.

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hard. It made me look up a feit more, He dropped his hand away. His eyes, the irises were going to spin . . ,

*'Open up in there," he said.

*'Open way up and let me see.'* There were books in my head, Bind he was looking at the titles i•-. -. he was not looking at the titles, for he couldn't read. He was looking at what I knew of the books. I suddenly felt ter-

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"What's that?" he barked.

I knew what he meant. He'd

gotten it from inside my head. I didn't know it was in there, even, but he found it.

"Telekinesis," I said.

"How is it done?"

"Nobody knows if it can be done. Moving physical objects with the mind!"

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So I read the books and I came back. Sometimes it was every day for three or four days, and sometimes, because I couldn't find a certain book, I might not come back for ten. He was always there m the little glen, waiting, standing in the shadows, and he took what he wanted of the books and nothing of me. He never mentioned the next meeting. If he came there every day to wait for me, or if he only came when I did, I have no way of knowing.

He made me read books that contained nothing for me, books on evolution, on social and cultural organization, on mythology, and ever so much on symbiosis. What I had with him were not conversations; sometimes nothing audible would pass between us but his grunt of surprise or small, short hum of interest.

He tore the books out of me the way he would tear berries from

a bush, all at once; he smelled of sweat and earth and the green juices his heavy body crushed

when he moved through the wood.

If he learned anything from the books, it made no difference in him.

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He said, "What book has something like this?" Then he waited for a long time, thinking. "The way a termite can't digest wood, you know, and microbes in the

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remembered the words. Lone tore

the content from words and threw the words away. "Two kinds of

life depending upon one another for existence."

"Yeah. Well, is there a book about four-five kinds doing that?"

"I don't know."

Then he asked, "What about this? You got a radio station, you got four-five receivers, each receiver is fixed up to make something different happen, like one digs and one flies and one makes noise, but each one takes orders

from the one place. And each one has its own power and its own thing to do, but they are all apart. Now: is there life like that, in-stead of radio?"

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I asked, "You mean a gestalt

life-form? It's fantastic."

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huh?"

"None I ever heard of."

"I got to know about that," he

)said heavily. "There is such a hing. I want to know if it ever I, happened before." & ~ "I can't see how^ anything of

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together the parts that press and pull and feel heat and walk and think and all the other things.

"I'm one," he finished suddenly. Then he sat still for so long, I thought he had forgotten me.

"Lone," I said, "what do you do here in the woods?"

"I wait," he said. "I ain't finished yet." He looked at my eyes and snorted in irritation. "I don't mean 'finished' like you're thinking. I mean I ain't—completed yet. You know about a worm when it's cut, growin' whole again? Well, forget about the cut. Suppose it just grew that way* for the first time, see? I'm getting parts. I ain't finished. I want a book about that kind of animal

that is me when I'm finished."

"I don't know of such a book. Can you tell me more? Maybe if you could, I'd think of the right book or a place to find it." He broke a stick between his huge._hands, put the two pieces side by side and broke them to-

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and went* away.

TRIED, for days I tried, but

I couldn't find what he wanted. I found v a magazine which stated that the next important evolutionary step in man would be a psychic rather than a physical direction, but it said nothing about a—shall I call it a gestalt organism? There was something about slime molds, but they seem to be more a hive activity of amoebae than even a symbiosis. To my own unscientific, personally uninterested mind, there was nothing like what he wanted except possibly a band marching together, everyone playing differ-

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So I went back to him in the cool of an early fall evening, and he took what little I had in my eyes, and turned from me angrily with a gross word I shall not permit myself to remember. •

You can't find it," he told me. "Don't come back."

He got up and went to a tattered birch and leaned against it, looking out and down into the wind-tossed crackling shadows. I think he had forgotten me al-ready. I know he leaped like a frightened animal when I spoke to him from so near. He must have been completely immersed in whatever strange thoughts he was having, for I'm sure he didn't hear me coming.

I said "Lone, don't blame me for not finding it. I tried.

He controlled his startlement and brought those eyes down to me. "Blame? Who's blamiri* anybody?"

"I failed you," I tpld him, "and you're angry."

He looked at me so long I became uncomfortable.

"I don't know what you're talkin' about," he said.

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at me, you don't know anything about me and you don't care. You put some sort of a spell on me that I couldn't break. And when you're finished, you say, 'Don't come back.' "

"Do I have to give something back because I took something?"

"People do."

He gave that short, interested hum. "What do you want me to give you? I ain't got anything."

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screamed. I tried to twist away* I hadn't wanted this, I was sure I hadn't, I struggled terribly. I think he lifted me right off the

ground with his big hands. He held me until he was finished, and then let me drop. I huddled to the ground, sobbing. He sat down beside me. He didn't try to touch me. He didn't try te go away. I quieted at last and crouched there, waiting.

He said* "I ain't going to do much of that no more."

I sat up and tucked my skirt close around me and laid my

cheek on my updrawn knees so I could see his face. "What hap-

pened?"

He cursed. "Damn mishmash inside you. Thirty-three years old

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"What I wanted to get from your books."

"You never told me."

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thing but a sort of . • . feeling. And my name, maybe."

I don't know what moved me to ask him, but I did, forlornly. "And no one will ever know about you and me?"

"Can't," he said. "Unless . . . well, unless it was the head of the animal, like me, or a better one." He heaved himself up. ,

"Oh, wait, wait!" I cried. He mustn't go yet, he mustn't. He was a tall, dirty beast of a man, yet he had enthralled me in some dreadful way. "You haven't given me the other • • . whatever it

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"Oh," he said. "Yeah, that.

He moved like a flash. There was a pressiire, a stretching apart,

and a . . .a breakage. And with a tearing agony and a burst of

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Stern looked a little annoyed. "This is going to work," he said, "but it can only work if you cooperate. Just lie

"It did work," I said.

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. "The whole thing. A to Z." I

snapped my fingers. "Like that."

He looked at me piercingly. "What do you mean?"

"It was right there, where you said. In the library. When I was eleven. When she said, 'Baby is three/ It knocked loose something that had been boiling around in her for three years, and it all came blasting out. I got it, full force; just a kid, no warning,

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"That's really all. I mean that's not what was in it; it's what it did to me. What it was, a sort of hunk of her own self. A whole lot of things that happened over about four months, every bit of it. She knew Lone."

"You mean a whole series of episodes?"

"That's it."

"You gc»t a series all at once? In a split second?"

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right order if I wanted to bring it out like that. Any part of it if I wanted it by itself. If I'm going to tell you about what I had for lunch, do I have to tell you everything else I've ever done since I was born? No. I tell you I was her, and then and forever after I can remember anything she could remember up to that point. In just that one flash."

A gestalt" he murmured.

"Aha!" I said, and thought about that. I thought about a whole lot of things. I put them aside for a moment and said, "Why didn't I know all this before?"

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"Just natural revulsion," he guessed. "How about this? You had a distaste for assuming a female ego, even for a second.'*

"You told me yourself, right at the beginning, that I didn't

have that kind of a problem.** "Well, how does this sound to you? You say you felt pain in that episode. So—you wouldn't go back into it for fear of re-experiencing the pain."

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went in. I wasn't ready; I'd never done it before, except maybe a little, against resistance. I went all the way in and it was too much; it frightened me away from trying it for years. And there it lay, wrapped up, locked away. But as I grew older, the power to do that with my mind got stronger and stronger, and still I was afraid to use it. And the more I grew, the more I felt, down deep, that Miss Kew had to be killed before she killed the • , . what I am. My God!" I Sfhouted.. "Do you know what I am?"

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He had that professional open-minded expression on his face,

not believing or disbelieving, just taking it all in. I had to tell him,

and I suddenly realized that I didn't have enough words. I knew the things, but not the names for them.

Lone took the meanings . and threw the words away.

Further back:, "You read books. Read books for me" -. The look of his eyes. That "opening up" thing.

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"My God," he murmured. "I didn't look at those eyes before. I could have sworn those irises

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I can't say exactly what it was like. It was like walking in a tunnel, and in this tunnel, all over the roof and walls, wooden arms stuck out at you, like the thing at the carnival, the merry-go-round, the thing you snatch the brass rings from. There's a brass ring on the end of each of these arms, and you can take any one of them you want to.

Now imagine you make up your mind which rings you want, and the arms hold only those. Now picture yourself with a thousand hands to grab the rings oiBf with.. Now just suppose the tunnel is a zillion miles long, and you can go from one end of it to the other, grabbing rings, in just the time it takes you to blink once. Well, it was like that, only; easier.

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the tips of his fingers hard against his forehead and cheeks. Then he sat up and he was okay again.

"I know," I said. "That's how Miss Kew felt when Lone did it to her."

"What are you?"

"1*11 tell you. I'm the central ganglion of a complex organism which is composed of Baby, a computer; Bonnie and Beanie, tekports; Jane, telekineticist; and myself, telepath and central control. There isn't a single thing about any of us that hasn't been documented: the teleportation of the Yogi, the telekinetics of some gamblers, the idio-savant mathematicians, and most of all, the so-called poltergeist, the moving

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"Lone organized it, or it formed around him; it doesn't matter

which. I replaced Lone, but I Was too underdeveloped when he

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Miss Kew.r To that extent you were right when you said the blast made me subconsciously afraid to discover what , was in it. But there was another good reason for my not being able to get in under that 'Baby is three' barrier.

"We rati into the problem of what it was I valued more than the security Miss Kew gave us. Can't you see now what it was? My gestalt organism was at the

point of death from that security. I figured she had to be killed or it—J—would be. Oh, the parts would live on: two little colored girls with a speech impediment, one introspective girl with an artistic bent, one mongoloid idiot, and me—ninety per cent short-circuited potentials and ten per

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"It—it might simply quit. As you phrased it earlier, it might blow a fuse, retreat, refuse to function in that area.**

"Well, I didn't do that. What else?"

"It might slip into a delusion that it had already taken one of

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ways that won't make Miss Kew unhappy, and we'll stay with her as long as we know it pleases her. And we'll please her. She'll be happy in ways she's never dreamed about until now. She rates it, bless her t strait-laced, hungry heart."

"And she can't kill your tali organism?"

"Not a chance. Not now."

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"But what can you do?"

"What can an electric motor do? It depends on where we apply ourselves."

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"You—aren't mature yet?** "Lord, no!" I laughed. "We're

an infant. We're the equivalent of about a three-year-old child. So you see, there it is again, and this time I'm not afraid of it: Baby is three." I looked at my hands. "Baby is three," I said again, because the realization tasted good. "And when this particular group-baby is five, it might want to be a fireman. At eight, maybe a cowboy or maybe

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Oh, God!" he said. "God!"

I looked down at him. "You're afraid," I said. "You're afraid of Homo Gestalt."

He made a wonderful effort and smiled. "That's bastard ter-minology."

"We're a bastard breed," I said. I pointed. "Sit over there."

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Like reaching out a hand, I got Beanie. She stood by the desk, wide-eyed.

"Look here," I told her. "Look good, now. What I want to do is erase all this tape. Go ask Baby how."

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"All right," I said, "beat it."

She vanished.

I got my jacket and went to the door. Stern was still sitting at the desk, staring.

"A good head-shrinker," I

murmured. I felt fine.

Outside I waited, then turned

and went back in again.

Stern looked up at me. "Sit over there, Sonny."

"Gee," I said. "Sorry, sir. I got in the wrong office."

"That's all right," he said. .

I went out and closed the door. All the way down to the store to buy Miss Kew some flowers,, I was grinning about how he'd ae-

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ridge, only her gleaming nose

poking above like a porpoise coming up for air. When I looked back, I could see, along the jagged rim of the ridge, the busy reflected flickerings of the bubble-camp the techs were throwing together. Otherwise all was black,* except for our blue-white torch beams that darted here and there

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E. Tv X Team 17, whose assignment was the asteroids. We were four years and three months out of Terra* and we'd reached Vesta right on schedule. Ten minutes after landing, we had known that the clod was part of the crust of

Planet X-—or Sorn, to give it it* right name—one of the few such parts that hadn't been blown clean out of the Solar System.

That made Vesta extra-special. It meant settling "down for while. It meant a careful, months-long scrutiny of Vesta's every square inch and a lot of her cubic ones, especially by the life-scien-tists. Fossils, artifacts, animate -life . . .a surface chunk of Sorn might harbor any of these, or all. Some we'd tackled already had

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HAD crossed a long, rounded polarizer lens

expanse of rock—lava, wonderfully colored — and was descending into a boulder-cluttered pocket, • I was nearing the "bot-torn" of the chunk, the part that had been the deepest beneath Sorn's surface before the blow-up. It was the likeliest place to look for fossils.

But instead of looking for fossils, my eyes kept rising to those incredible stars. You get that way particularly after several weeks of living in steel; and it was lucky that I got that way this time, or I might have missed the Zen.

My feet tangled with a rock. I started a slow, light-gravity fall, and looked down to catch my balance. My torch beam flickered across a small, red-furred teddy-bear shape. The light passed on. I brought, it sharply back to target.

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My hair did not stand on end, regardless of what you've heard me quoted as saying. Why should it have, when I already knew Yurt so well—considered him r in fact, one of my closest friends?

The Zen was standing by a rock, one paw resting on it, ears cocked forward, its stubby hind legs braced ready to launch it

The creature stared at me,

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I addressed it in its own language, clucking my tongue and whistling through my teeth:

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In the blue-white light of the torch, the Zen shivered. It didn't say anything. I thought I knew why. Three thousand years of darkness and silence ...

I said, "I won't hurt you,** again speaking in its own language.

The Zen moved away from the rock, but not away from me. It came a little closer, actually, and peered up at my helmeted, mirror-glassed head — unmistakably the seat of intelligence, it appears, of any race anywhere. Its mouth, almost human-shaped, worked; finally words came. It hadn't spoken, except to itself, for three thousand years.

You ... are not Zen," it said. Why—how do you speak Zen-nacai?"

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"So. Eert-mn;* it said. "And you know what I am?'

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helmet.

"I am—last of Zen," it said, I said nothing. I was studying it closely, looking for the features which Yurt had described to us: the lighter red fur of arms and neck, the peculiar formation of flesh and horn on the lower abdomen. They were there. From

the coloring, I knew this Zen was a female.

The mouth worked again—not with emotion, I knew, but with the unfamiliar act of speaking. "I have been here for—for—" she hesitated—"I don't know For five hundred of my years.'

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years with my when just out of

nowhere a visitor from another planetary orbit pops up! And there had been no special stress given the distinction, just clear, precise thinking, like Yurt'sl

I added, still a little awed: "We know how long ago your

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This creature had been bom before Christ!

She had been alone for three thousand years, on a chip of bone

from her dead world beneath a sepulchre of stars. The last and greatest Martian civilization, the Uhtai, had risen and fallen in her lifetime. And she was twenty-five years old.

"How do 1 live here?'' she

asked again.

I got back into my own framework of temporal reference, sa to speak, and began explaining to a Zen what a Zen was. (I found out later from Yurt that biology, for the reasons which follow, was one of the most difficult studies; so difficult that nuclear physics actually preceded it!) I told her that the Zen had been, all evidence indicated, the toughest, hardest, longest-lived

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The Zens breathed, all right, but it was nothing they'd had to do in order to live. It gave them nothing their incredible metabolism couldn't scrounge up out of rock or cosmic rays or interstellar gas or simply do without for a few thousand years. If the human body is a furnace,

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The Zen looked up at me. She was exhibiting every ounce of emotion a Zen is capable of, which is a lot; and I could recognize it, but not in any familiar terms. A tiny motion herfl, a quiver

there, but very quiet and still for the most part. And that was the violent expression:" restraint. Yurt, after two years of living

with us, still couldn't understand

why we found this confusing,

Difficult, aliens—or being alien.

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For a moment the human quality of her thinking terrified me . . . the feeling you might have waking up some night and finding your pet puppy sitting oh your chest, looking at you with wise eyes and white fangs gleam-ing . . .

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smart, friendly Yurt, who had learned to laugh and wisecrack and I came out of the jeebies. I realized that here was only a sick girl, no tiny monster. And if she were as resilient as Yurt. . . well, it was his problem. He'd probably pull her through.

But I didn't pick her up. I made no attempt to take her pack to the ship. Her tiny white teeth and tiny yellow claws were harder than steel; and she was,. I knew, unbelievably strong for her size. If she got suspicious or decided to tl^row a phobic tizzy, she could scatter shreds of me over a square acre of Vesta in less time than it would take me to yelp.

"Will you—" she began again.

I tried shakily, "Hell, no. Wait

here." Then I had to translate it.

T WENT back to the Lucky 1 Pierre and got Yurt We could

do without him, even though he

had been a big help. We'd taught him a lot—he'd been a child at the blow-up, too — and he'd

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taught us a lot; But this was more important, of course.

When I told him what had happened, he was very quiet; crying, perhaps, just like a human

being, with happiness.

Cap Feldman asked me what was up, and I told him, and he said, •Well, I'll be blessed!"

I said, "Yurt, are you sure you want us to keep hands off .

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just go off and leave you?"

"Yes, please."

Feldman said, "Well, I'll be blessed."

Yurt, who spoke excellent English, said, "Bless you all."

I took him back to where the female waited. From the ridge, I knew, the entire crew was watching through binocs. I set him

down, and he fell to studying her intently.

"I am not a Zen," I told her,

giving my torch full brilliance for the crew's sake, "but Yurt here is. Do you see . . . I mean,

do you know what you look

like?"

She said, "I can see enough of my own body to—and—yesr . . ."

"Yurt," I said, "here's the fe-male we thought we might find. Take over."

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Yurt's eyes were fastened on the girl.

"What—do I do now?" she whispered worriedly.

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I'm afraid that's something \ Zen would know." I told

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her, smiling inside my helmet.

*Tm not a Zen. Yurt is."

She turned to him. "You will

tell me?"

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"If it becomes necessary." He moved closer to herj not even looking back to talk to me. "Give us some time to get acquainted, will you, Dave? And you might leave some supplies and a bubble

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knew how I'd feel if a Zen, say, wouldn't go away if I were the last man alive and had just met the last woman.

I moved my torch off them

and headed back for the Lucky

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"What if they don't like each

other?" he asked anxiously.

"They don't have much choice/* Captain Feldman said, always the realist. "Why do homely women fight for jobs on the most isolated space out-posts?"

Reiss grinned. "That's right

They look awful good after m year or two in space."

"Make that twenty-five by Zen standards or three thousand by

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each other."

We decided to drop our investigation of Vesta for the time being, and come back to it after

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Six months later, when we re-

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turned, there were twelve hun-dred Zen on Vesta!

Captain Feldman was a realist but he was also a deeply moral man. He went to Yurt and said, "It's indecent! Couldn't the two of you control yourselves at least a little) Twelve hundred kids!"

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reproduce. Can you have only half a child?"

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I don't think they would, but you can't take such chances, can

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HEN Dr. Allport Brin-f>n's alarm clock sounded, it brought madness. It was very clever; it not only rang chimes of amazing penetrating power, it turned on all the lights in the room, closed the window, and started his bath water running. But this morning it was not appreciated. In fact, as Dr. Brinton gpt out of bed, he Mlently called down evil on the technician who had built it for

him.

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wall farthest away from his bed *nd was controlled by a hairtrig-ger combination dial that couldn't

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be operated by anyone not fully awake. Dr, Brinton fumbled for a while, then gave up and started looking for his bedroom slippers. They had apparently crawled away during the night. , He padded into his bathroom barefoot He was about to see what a hot bath would do for what he had already diagnosed as a histamine headache when the alarm clock, having decided that anyone who could sleep through ten minutes of chiming was un-wakable, stopped chiming, turned off the lights, opened the window, and let all the water out.

Dr. Brinton was walking back toward the light switch when he tripped on his bedroom slippers and fell back into bed. No further invitation was necessary; he slept till noon.

Dr. Brinton unmistakably had a hangover. Considering the party he had attended the night before, it was not surprising. Actually, it

was remarkable that he had been able to get out of bed at all. During the fourteen years that the Rocket Research Station had been in operation, the parties that were held every time another test flight resulted in failure had grown from a few drinks in somebody's room to a mammoth bust-up that left the whole place partially paralyzed fee days afterward.

First ^s chief chemist, and later

as director of the Station, Dr Brinton had attended every on« of the scores of parties durin>

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every one of the fourteen year It spoke well for his endurance t«> say that he was back at his office at one o'clock. Some people didn't

make it until the next day.

HIS secretary, who didn't drink, was one of very few who were at work on time. She walked into his office and stood

in front of his desk, tapping her foot. Her facial expression showed that she thought people who got drunk at parties were amoral, degenerate, and entirely unfit for administrative positions. Dr. Brinton, who had been* mentally

comparing the relative merits of Prussic acid and hanging as pain relievers, sat up straight to prove

that he was moral, alert, and ready for any problem that might come up. His secretary sniffed to indicate that she didn't believe him. Dr. Brinton dropped his eyes to admit that maybe he wasn't at his best at the moment, but it was only a temporary condition, And by tomorrow he would be okay "In two minutes you'll wish you were dead,'* said his secre

tary. A'Read this."

She handed him a letter. -He

read it and his knuckles cracked as he gripped the arms of his

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visit here?** he cried in alarm. Though his voice was squeaky, he was surprised to hear it at all. "Get me a line to Washington, our top priority, Audrey at the Naval Department."

The calj was put through.

"Commander Audrey? This is Brinton at the Station. Joe MacNeill is coming to visit us. Can you head him off? . , ,

"Yes, I know, but he's on one of his economy drives. We just

did a test yesterday and if he inspects this place now, we won't get enough money to build a pin-ball machine. Delay him a week, anyway . . v

"Well, try. I'll arrange a tour for him as best I can, bat if he doesn't come, I'll be much happier. Let me know as soon as possible. Fine. Good~by."

He scribbled a memo and carried it out .to his secretary. -Copy of this to all department heads, right away. Phone the commissary and have them get all the decorations taken down in the dining room. Tell them to lay in some steaks for tomorrow. Phone Harry Sparling in Public Relations—alert him V.V.I .P. tomorrow, extra-special tour including all our movies on the subject. I'm going over to the Fuels Department/*

Dr. Ferber, head of Fuels, met Dr. Brinton at the door of his lab.

I just got your memo/? he

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said. "Is that budget-butcher really coming down here?"

Dr. Brinton nodded his head gently. "I'm afraid so. I came over to see what kind of show we can put on for hirn/'

"We have some samples to ru£ on the indoor motors. There are a couple of loads left for the acceleration sled. And I suppose if we work all night we could get

sergeant-major ready, but if he's on an economy drive that might be, too elaborate. Just a

view of everybody pouring stuff from one test-tube to another might be best."

"Do the samples and run the

sled once," Dr. Brinton said. "That should provide enough lire and noise. The rest of it will have to be fast talk. I think I'll home to bed." ' *»

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R. BRINTON considered himself a methodical man. He had bacon and eggs every morning for breakfast. He always took a vitamin pill with his afternoon coffee. And he was used to exactly eight hours sleep. It was this last habit that caused him to wake up that night at midnight; he had gone to bed at four that afternoon and habit is a hard thing to break. At first he thought it was morning, but a glance at his watch hanging on

its illuminated pedestal corrected that '

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waited for sleep to overtake him again. Nothing happened. He turned and Stared at the ceiling

for a while. Still nothing; he had not felt so wide awake for a long time. Then he was struck by one of the flashes of inspiration that had made him famous—he would raid the refrigerator.

DWNSTAIRS, He found that

his son Eric had anticipated him by two minutes, and was busy setting the table with cheese, pickles, ice cream, peanut butter, and everything else necessary to keep a sixteen-year-old boy op-crating at peak efficiency. A pile of books on the table indicated that he had just finished his homework. Dr. Brinton was pleased that his son had worked so late, but the choice of food made him shudder. He rummaged In the refrigerator, himself, found a cold pork chop that Eric had somehow overlooked, and bore it to the table in triumph.

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"Oh?" said Eric, on guard in case it was about his school work.

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"Received word that Senator MacNeill is coming here tomorrow. No, today—it's after midnight.

"Oh," It was an "d£r" of relief, A senator couldn't be nearly as troublesome as a teacher.

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"Don't say 'oh' like that. He'll probably close the Station tight and we'll all be out of work. You don't realize, it, but money has been getting harder and harder to cadge for this place. We're practically running only the Fuels department now."

He got up, threw the bone from his pork chop into a garbage pail, washed his hands at the sink, and sat down again.

He continued, "Wait till he finds out about those four re-actor rockets that are cooling off on the Moon, waiting for us to get there. I can hear hirn scream, 'Five million dollars each! Each full of precious equipment, to say nothing of invaluable fissionable material!' And then this place gets shut down."

Eric had a suggestion. "Give him the old routine about how we have to get men to the Moon or the Russians will do it first

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smiled wistfully at the thought.

"Oh, well," he said, "let's go to

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■*■ contemplate suicide, homicide, and voting Republican, though hot necessarily in that order. The Senator had viewed their most inspiring onward-and-upward movies and merely asked how much they cost to make. He

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had eaten a huge steak at the commissary, and then inspected the garbage cans for waste. His visits to various departments had been marred by "his lack of interest in anything except the number of men employed by each and their average salaries, though he did comment that they all looked hung-over. In the Fuels Department, he had walked out on the demonstrations, interrupting some actual experiments that were going on outside the test room.

Dr. Brinton was now riding in the back of a jeep, explaining to the Senator that nuclear rockets were not too efficient, and the shielding necessary to make them safe for men weighed more than their payload; The Senator noted down the word • "inefficient-."

A loudspeaker on a pole a little farther down the road interrupted the explanation. "Twenty-five.

twenty-five, twenty-fi ve/** it shouted. "Five-nine, eighteen. Five-nine, e i g h t e en. Seventy-three, ten-eight." It began to repeat the message.

The driver, who had slowed while they listened to the message, turned the jeep around and sped them back the other way.

"What in Heaven's name was

that?" asked the Senator, who was busy hanging on.

"Twenty-five means emergency," shouted Dr. Brinton. i( Fivc and nine is fire and explosion in the Fuels Department, which is eighteen. Seventy-three is my call number and ten-eight means they want me to get there in a hurry."

For the first time, the Senator looked impressed. Then he grew angry again when his hat blew off and the driver wouldn't stop to go back and £et it. The jeep took a shortcut across the concrete fence, and left tire marks in the grass in front of the Fuels De-partment. Dr. Brinton jumped out and ran into the building, leaving, the Senator to argue with the driver about going back for the hat;

The lab outside the test room was dusty and littered with broken glass. Two technicians were receiving first aid for minor cuts- but everyone else seemed to be in an almost holiday mood.

Dr. Ferber saw Dr/ Brinton standing in the doorway a**df

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came over to him immediately.

"That telephone operator gets

too excited/' he said. "There's

no fire, and I think it was an

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implosion, not an explosion. Wrecked our new pressure cata-

lyzer. Harrison's gone to hospital and the two you see are hurt, but none of it's very serious. I suppose Butcher Boy is going to put this down in his little note-

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-*$ in a pleasant little fantasy in which he had cut Senator Mac-Neill up into twenty-eight pieces, placed them in aluminum cans, and made them radioactive in the Station pile. He was smiling at the newsreel cameras, about to

fire the first Senator-powered spaceship in the history of man-

kind, when his alarm clock, which had maliciously been waiting for just such an opportunity, spoiled his dream by waking him up.

That was how the next day started. It continued in the same vein when, in a fit of petulance, he strode into his clothes closet and kicked the alarm control boXj

barefoot He was working the

combination dial for the third or

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fourth time when he noticed that his feet were getting wet. His kick must have jammed some relays in the control box; the bath water was overflowing. Since the box was sealed to prevent him from fooling with it, he had had to prevent a flood by limping downstairs and pulling the master switch.

With no electricity, his break-fast consisted of cold fruit juke, cold cereal, and cold milk. When he got to his office, he ordered a pot of coffee and made out a requisition for a pipe wrench. If

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it ever happened again, he was going to shut the water off in-t

stead.

His secretary came in with the coffee and poured him a cup.

"I have some letters for you to sign," she said brightly, to cheer

him up. Dr. Brinton drank his coffee. "Our new filing system is working very well," she added, pouring him another cup. The doctor's face relaxed a little, but it was because the snow bank in his stomach was beginning to melt.' His secretary played her

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trump. "And somebody from the Fuels Department phoned and said something was passing the yellow line and might make the

blue."

She was never sure afterward whether Dr. Brinton had gone around his desk, or over it. She had blinked and bv the time her

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eyes were open again, he was gone.

Dr. Brinton found a crowd in the indoor test lab, chuckling over the line being drawn by a differential analyzer. He elbowed his way to the front, looked himself, and began a little dance of impatience. The . analyzer was connected with linkages to the test stand where a tiny rocket motor was thrusting out a hot blue pencil of flame. The results from the analyzer were plotted as range capability against time on a piece of graph paper which had four curved colored lines overprinted on it. The curved lines were marked in succession: "Earth," "Moon," "Moon" and "Earth."

If the first Earth line, colored red, was passed, the fuel under test could power a rocket to leave Earth, carrying men with it. If the yellow line—the first Moon line—was reached, the rocket

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could theoretically land men on the Moon. Several rockets, carrying dummy loads, had already tried and failed: their fuels, though the best available, barely reached the yellow line when under test.

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The blue—second—Moon line was calculated to indicate an escape from, the Moon without refueling, and the last line, in green, was a theoretical powered landing back on Earth.

The pen of the analyzer had

already passed the blue line and

was more than halfway to the

"rphis 1S the stuff that was left -■-in the catalyzer after the explosion yesterday!" Dr. Ferber

shouted to Dr. Brinton over the roar from the little engine. "It looked as if it would burn, so I tested it. Jackpot!"

"What is it?" asked Dr. Brinton.

"Supposed to be an artificial base for a perfume!"

The last word seemed louder because the test rocket just then ran out of fuel and grew silent. The tracing of the pen stopped a fraction short of the green line.

Dr. Ferber continued in his

normal voice while he busied himself with the connections of the engine: "We didn't have any-thing to do to put on a show for MacNeill yesterday, so I told the lads to carry on with experiments of their own. It was Harrison who made this stuff. He was cut by flying glass and landed in the hospital. I phoned there this morning and found the damn fool doctor took his appendix out. Said he figured he might as well while Harrison was m there. He's still under the an-

esthetic and we won't be able to ask him anything for several hours."

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have to find out why it works. Got any left? We'll analyze it"

The next few hours saw Dr. Brinton rapidly become a bitter sand disillusioned man.

When a qualitative test informed them that the presence of

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When he found that he had

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But when he took the results ©ver to a calculator and worked them out to carbon 281.6% he had barely started the prologue when frustration overtook him and he subsided, speechless. He was at a loss to say or do anything except mumble that 281.6% was impossible.

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R. FERBER came over and took the paper with the results from him. Everyone in the lab watched while he checked the

calculations patiently.

A delegation minutely checked the apparatus the two doctors had used; it was faultless. One person even went so far as to cast a suspicious look at the big automatic micro-balance standing on its pedestal in the center of the room. He weighed a piece of paper, wrote his name on it in

pencil and reweighed it. The

difference was satisfactory. For a few moments, they all just

stood and looked at each other. Then the whole lot of them set

to work.

A junior technician headed for

the spectrograph * came back in three minutes with a freshly developed spectral photograph and a puzzled look. He spent some time comparing both of them with the illustrations in a manual

entitled Structural Formulae as

Indicated by Spectral Groupings. The two German exchange

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students made a few tries at finding the class of compound. They soon were deep in a tech-nical discussion in their own language, the only recognizable words being "biuret," "dumkopf," and "damn."

A senior research chemist tried crystalizing some and invented an entirely new swear word.

With four helpers, Dr. Brinton and Dr. Ferber redid the com-

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taken only one of them. Of course they were assured of accuracy; each' step was checked at least twice by everyone.

The result was still carbon 281.6%.

Dr. Brinton escaped * the ensuing mental paralysis since he had already been through the experience once. He went over and began to study the figures writ-

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ten in on the side of the spectral photograph. Out of little more than idle curiosity,* he compared the ratios of the rough quantitative estimate found spectro-graphically with the more accurate but impossible answer of the combustion micro-analysis.

While he was doing the necessary figuring, he listened sympathetically to the technician. The

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young man was complaining bitterly about things in general, and chemistry in particular. Chemical reference books came in for a special roasting, because: "either that lousy book is incomplete, or this structural for-a is out of this world." That did it.

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Then he went to talk to Dr.

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"Would it be possible that Harrison started with a multi-ringed phenol?" he asked. Dr. Ferber nodded. Dr. Brinton show-ed him the drawing. "Does that

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remind you of any \ mi**fu^al figure?"

Dr. Ferber looked- There was a pause, then his eyes lit up.

"Of course," he said. "Since formulae are usually drawn in one plane, I doubt if anyone ever noticed that before. And when it comes under stress by compression, it's only natural that it should fold." He paused and looked at the calendar, "Four weeks?" he asked.

"That'll do fine," said Dr. Brinton. "I'll arrange the details. You look after the fuel. Harrison can give us the details of this one, but there are probably any nurn*

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ber of fuels based on this principal. Some will be even more efficient, too."

He excused himself, went to a phone, and asked for a Washington number. The call was answered.

"Hello, Senator MacNeill?" he said. "How would you like to be guest of honor at a oarty ?"

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*-* ring of reporters over to the head table where Senator MacNeill was speaking, and "speaking, and speaking.

"He's on his home state," Dr. Brinton said. "About half an hour to go. Now, gentlemen, you were asking about the new fuel. You all received press handouts containing the information. You

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One of the reporters asked be-wiIderedly, "What is a tesseract? I read the handout twice and I

still don't understand."

"A mathematician would be better qualified to explain," said Dr. Brinton, "but Til try. A tes-seract is a fourth dimensional cube. A line has one dimension, a square has two, a cube has three, and a tesser act has four. A cube can be unfolded into six squares, and a tesser act unfolds to eight cubes. The new fuel had

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They Ye probably right, exee j -t that it does. Oh, I'll be back w,

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He went over to another group and spoke to one of its members. The man addressed nodded his head and left. Dr. Brinton returned.

"If there are no more questions, I suggest we do some serious

drinking. I am now out of a job

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PROMPTLY at seven-thirty, a relay clicked and the alarm clock went into its usual daily routine with the chimes, window, lights, and bath water.

Dr. Brinton woke up enough to reach out a lazy arm and flip a newly installed toggle switch beside his bed. Everything returned to normal. The light and the chimes both faded away, the window reopened, and a soft gurgling came from the bathroom.

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ABC has just written a letter to the future and I helped to write more precisely, I talked part of it. For it was (and k) half hour of recording tape which, when finished, was broadcast and is now safely buried in a place where it will not deteriorate, m

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be taken out and rebroadcast century from now.

Naturally, ft is reminiscent of the Westinghouse Time Capsule which was buried on the World's Fair Grounds a dozen years ago, to enlighten the inhabitants of this planet 5000 years from now about the doings of the yea*

1940. During the same year, a Time Vault was started in North Carolina, intended to preserve for posterity the books which we consider most important in our

day.

This idea of writing letters to

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the future is not exactly new. For centuries, European master build-

announcement that a rich Roman's private library had been found in Pompeii. It had been

-buried when Mt. Vesuvius let go in what is probably the most publicized and romanticized volcanic outbreak of all recorded history. The rolls of parchment were charred, of course. They had dried out in the interim and were so fragile that they could not be handled in any usual way. Still, methods of transporting them, unrolling them and finally reading them were worked out. And then it turned out that the original owner of that library had been a fanatic disciple of a small and

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American builders took over the

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THE so-called Document Cave not far from the Dead Sea in Palestine, which was found recently, promises better results. At the very least, our knowledge of the history of th£ books of the Old Testament is going to be improved by that discovery. And that Document Cave might ever, have been meant as a kind of Time Vault, for the documents seem to have been hidden there from contemporaries for the future, although the men who did

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•*♦ every book written is a small time capsule. For while a book is primarily addressed to contemporaries, it is expected or hoped

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in 1560, my library will serve, too. And this book was not preserved through the centuries in some Time Vault; it survived through the interest and care of generations of people.

The most interesting contents of any Time Capsule would be those portions in which its originators tell the future finders their guesses about the civilization,

habits, etc,, of the finders. But, again, it need not be a specific Time Capsule; it can be simply

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a book which has been preserved. As has been pointed out in GALAXY by L. Sprague de* Camp, we are just beginning to reap that kind of harvest from early examples of science fiction: If we are somewhat flabbergasted at the lack of vision of daring of those writers, and more than a

little astounded by the nonsense which we were supposed to indulge in—not that we don't indulge in different kinds of nonsense of our own designing it should merely prove to us that

we should be more daring in some respects and more careful

in others.

Now let's see if I can apply that advice myself.

As I told my audience of a

hundred years hence, I think lots of printed paper to the con-trary notwithstanding—that cities will not be obsolete. Nor do I think that the wheeled vehicle will be obsolete, having been replaced by the helicopter, or by some other device yet to be invented. Nor do I believe that the

day of the printed word has almost reached its end.

Having a little more space here in the magazine than I had time

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With and without reference to atomic bombs, we have been informed that "cities are abnormal/' Now, cities had originally the purpose of being trading centers. Later, they also became

manufacturing centers. And you

can't say that those who settled in* the cities did it because of necessity. Then, as now, the majority did it from choice.

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In spite of what moralists and real estate agents tell us, the country home is convenient only if you also have a city home. And since people have the deplorable habit of looking after their own convenience, cities are neither ab-normal nor obsolescent.

ANOTHER item I brought up in my broadcast was transportation. Will people ride in from sixty miles away in their own helicopters? Well, some may, ei course, but that isn't the proper answer.

The helicopter, once it gets to be easier to fly than the current

production models, will have a great deal of advantages over the ground car. But it still needs

parking space at the other end and the traffic problems of the modern city are not caused by the cars which, move, but by those which are parked.

The solution is obviously a type oi transportation which does not park, but keeps moving.

Just imagine how easy it would be to get around in New York if all the transportation available

were public transportation—sub-ways, elevateds, busses and taxi-cabs. The remedy for the future might not be up to the engineer

only, but to the lawmakers as well.

This is not the place to go into

the design of a city free of traffic problems. I just want to add that, while it has been proved that a large city can be supplied by air lift, it is neither a cheap nor a

logical method of doing it.

Finally: I do think that the people a hundred years from now will still buy newspapers and read books. I also believe that these books and papers will be printed—presumably with a more lavish use of color than nowadays

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Saturday"—while you are away. I go along with that because there you have an electrical device, your telephone, to begin with, and it can be adapted for playback*

But the printed word is superior to any recording device or

projector in several respects, each

important. You can read it in any position you happen to prefer at the moment. You need no special reconverting tool. No -matter how simple, small, light and fool and tinkerproof that device is postulated to be, you can forget or mislay it. And, like anything else, it can run down or go out of order. Also, you can easily add a note or a reminder to the printed word, Furthermore, you can file a piece of newspaper. Of course you can file pieces 61

sound tape, too, or plastic micro -slides, but then you need your reconverting device to ilnd out what's on it.

Nor do I think that books will be printed on anything which we would not call paper, even though

it may technically be something else. In quite a number of stories, the spaceship pilot looks up the characteristics of a planet in an almanac "printed on indestructible metal foil** and this practice, for all one can tell, was not re-

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Let's see now. My own Rockets, Missiles and Space Travel has very nearly reached the bulk where it becomes a little hard to handle. I just measured and weighed it. The dimensions are 8V2 x 6 x IV2 inches and its paper is about as thin as it can be and still be decent. In any event, I don't think that metal foil could be any thinner than that paper and still take inscriptions of some kind on both sides* Hence the dimensions would be the same as those of the paper book.

But while the paper book, with binding, weighs two lbs., the metal book, if aluminum, would weigh nine pounds!

I'm all in favor of a non-yellowing, non-cracking permanent paper for books. But no metal foil, please, unless you can come up with a useful lithium alloy of a specie gravity of 0.5 or less.

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IF you'll be patient for about 100 seconds, I'll get around to the theme. Those 100 seconds have to be used to lay the grounds-work. The subject of today's lecture about surprise developments

is a bird.

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Common name: touraco. Habitat: southern Africa.

Date of discovery: not known (at least not to me), but it must have been early, for the bird is not rare.

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Now the story. In 1818, a French explorer by the name-of Jules Verreaux was camping in southern Africa. It was during the rainy season, the sky was gray with clouds, water dripped from every branch and every leaf, and the soil was almost too soggy to walk on. It was decidedly the kind of weather for staying indoors, but Jules Verreaux did not.

He made short trips of a few

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fly away, but they were too wet

to take off.

Verreaux tried to catch one with his bare hands and finally succeeded, but the wet bird strug-gled free. Verreaux then saw that his hand was dripping with red liquid. His first thought was that he had been pecked by the struggling bird, even though he had

not felt any pain and could not find the ^wound. Upon closer observation, he noticed that the liq-uid, while red, did not look like blood. It did not seem plausible, but he could only conclude that the color had come off the red feathers of the wet bird. And after his return to France, he reported that there was a bird m South Africa afflicted with a plumage that was not color-fast in the rain. This, of course, was ridiculous Color may wash out of cheap manmade fabrics, but not, bird feathers, most especially not while said feathers were still attached to a live bird. Just to

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washed themselves white in water left for them to drink.**

Since this was not a chance observation under difficult circumstances, but something that had

been seen at leisure and repeatedly, the fact itself could not longer be doubted. An English chemist by the name of A. H. Church

decided to go after the mystery

and came up with a detailed re-search report that was published in the Proceedings *of the Royal Society in 1869.

Church had first washed the feathers with alcohol to remove any oil or fat that might cling to them. Then he tested the pigment of the feathers for solubility and quickly found that it dissolved in soap water. He tried ammonia and caustic sods

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It turned out to be a copper compound; its name became tou*-raeine. And touracine, as had

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sure to pick up some ammonia. Not much—an expert estimate said --'around one part in a million"-—but Dr. Krumbiegel had just demonstrated to himself that one part in two million was enough. And Dr. Hinde's toura-cos probably had had several parts in a thousand in their drink-ing water, for caged birds don't worry where their droppings land They don't know, naturally, that their droppings contain ammonia. Once a touraco has lost the touracine of its red feathers, it stays discolored until the next moulting period, when brightly colored new feathers begin to sprout. As far as the body chemistry of the bird is concerned, the whole is a way of ridding the body ©fa copper compound which would be poisonous to the or~

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the distance precisely. Well, that depends, of course, on the degree of precision you want. The customary value of 3.1416 is perfectly fine for all but astronomical calculations. To fourteen places the value is:

3.12159265358979 and that is good enough to obtain

the circumference of a circle the size of the equator to one-millionth of an inch.

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THE way to remember pi to fourteen places is to memorize the sentence: "How I want m drink, alcoholic, of course, after the heavy chapters involving quantum mechanics.*' It not only works, it probably is by a famous author, Sir James Jeans, At least others have credited him with it,

though he himself never claimed authorship.

Pi has been calculated to several hundred decimal places. lis

1873, the British mathematician William Shanks published the figures for 707 places, but it later turned out that he made a mis-take at about the 510th place Nowadays, electronic calculators could extend it as far as one would want them to, but there is really no practical reason for do-mg it.

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Is it possible that there ate dark not. A number of astronomers.

or black planets in our solar system and, if so, how would astronomers detect suc|i a planet?

Mildred Moore 116 William Street Hightstown, N. /.

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worth mentioning in our solar system, at least not Inside the orbit of Uranus. If a planet really absorbed all the light from the Sun that falls upon it, it would still betray its presence

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(Eastern Siberia in 1947), an enormous column of smoke and dust formed immediately

after impact, but it lasted less than twelve hours. The "explosion" on Mars was probably the same thing.

Could you explain to me why exactly does a Mobius Strip have only one side? Secondly > are there such things as a Klein's bottle

and a Tesseract? li there are,

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filing as a Klein's Bottle. I am not sure whether I should also say that there is a Tesgeract, for a Klein's Bottle can actually be built, while a Tesseract can only be represented. But let's begin with the Mobius Strip and a mention of the branch of math-ematies to which it belongs, namely analysis situ, or topology, also called rubber sheet geometry, in descending line of dignity.

Take a sheet of paper and make a few crosses at random, on both sides. Those crosses you can connect by straight or wavy lines without going over an edge are obviously on the same side of the paper. If you paste a strip >of paper together so that it forms a cylinder, you find that your crosses are cither on the outside of the cylinder or on the inside. But if, in pasting, you give it the Mobius half -twist, you'll §nd that you can connect them all. Therefore, it has only one side*

For your amusement, draw the center line and then cut carefully along the eenterlme. The result will puzzle you no end.

Similarly, Klein's Bottle, though obviously a solid body,

has only one side. If you want to make one, use something

that can be shaped easily, for example self-setting clay. (No

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While the Strip and the-Bot« tie actually exist, the Tesseract is merely a concept, arrived at by the following reasonings here we have a one-dimensional line a. Four such lines form a two-dimensional square, u\ which is bounded by four lines, and has 4 vertices (corners )•

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which is bounded by six. squares, has 12 edges and 4

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**/ must take exception to your statement in the June 1952 issue of GALAXy that the chances of finding intelligent Hie on other

planets are excellent. You have no doubt read du Douy's Human

Destiny; it contains a calculation

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W. E. Miller

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•loss of time being the most evident result in the battle be» tween reason and mysticism.

If the probability of the formation of a protein mole-cule were one in 10 321 as du Nouy decreed, or merely one in I0 21 as you find more likely, the conclusion would be inev-

itable that it didn't happen at all. Not even on Earth. Those botanical parks, zoological gardens, aquaria and mass meetings are just illusions.

Seriously, du Nouy's calculation is completely shattered by the existence of plant life

on Mars, something that m generally accepted as a result ©£ observational e v i d en c e.

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niums and the oysters, the canary birds and their keepers are not illusions; in short, that the fantastically low probability of the formation of a protein molecule came true in this particular case which, therefore, had to be unique. But if you find that it came true on two planets in the same solar system, you either have to stretch credulity beyond its admittedly high elastic limit, or else you conclude that the original assertion must be wrong.

It could be w/ong in two ways: either because it simply happens not to be true because the probability of the formation of protein molecules under proper conditions is much higher; or else it could be wrong because there is an additional factor which operates to invalidate the low probability.

That additional factor was pointed out more than half a century ago by the great Swedish astrophysicist Svante Arr-henius. Arrhenius pointed out that the size of the spores of most bacteria is such that for them the light pressure of a nearby star ia stronger than

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Arrhenius also pointed out that such spores could stand

free space conditions and that, just under these conditions, their life processes would be slowed down to such an extent that they could stay alive for thousands of years.

In that case, life had to orig-mate only once to spread through the whole Galaxy in time—and who could say that it had originated on Earth ?

Nor does it seem likely that

the probability of protein molecule formation is actually so low. It has been shown in the laboratory that under the in-

fluence of ultra-violet light from the Sun, a number of very interesting compounds will form from nothing more exotic than water, carbon di-

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simpler substances may well continue building up—into micro-organisms.

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THE student took a moment to find just the right words. "One of the lots seemed to be practi-cally ideal. When it first solidified, it was just far enough from the radiator and just large enough to retain a thin surface

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"Fifteen years on what scale?"

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the mass-center of-the system."

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glowing sphere of gas that hel<J it with unbreakable fingers of gravity. The supervisor was not actually boiling—that would be difficult even for a body composed largely of methane, oxygen, and similar solids when it is at a tempera turf of about half a degree absolute—but his temper You mean you were uncer- was simmering. After a moment

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"It's not that I don't like the stuff; it's that I can't eat it." The youngster must have been angry, too; there was no other imaginable reason why he should have made a statement at once so true in fact and so misleading in implication. The superintendent, swallowing the implication whole, permitted the remains of his tern-per to evaporate completely.

"You can't eat it? That is really too bad. Pardon me while I go to sample some of this repulsive chemical — or perhaps you would like to come along and show me what you have been eating. There is hardly enough drift in this area to support you, particularly with a decent-sized crew of slaves. What have you been feeding them? Perhaps you ought to let someone else take ^over this farm and get yourself a research job out in one of the drift clouds, soaking up your nourishment from a haze of free

monia units. So have the slaves.*

"Veiix well, then I shall look

over your water culture, which'by

elimination must be the one that's

been giving trouble. On second thought, you needn't come along. It's the third plot from the fur-nace. I can find my way." He moved off abruptly, not even waiting for an answer.

And the student, with no slightest shadow of an excuse, simply because of his own childish loss of temper, let him go without a word of warning.

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years. You youngsters!"

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This, however, did not last long enough even for him to get rid of the globe's orbital speed, to * say nothing of resuming his drop toward the Sun. He had slanted some distance inward and

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Physically, there was little remarkable about it. It was leTss massive even than his own body, 4 though a short period of obser-vation disclosed that it was in an orbit about the central fur-, nace, just as the farm plots were. Sometimes its outline was clear,

interesting appearance, if noth- at q£hers it blurred oddly. Its •ng else. In addition to the more brightness flickered in an appar-

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Gradually, details grew clearer and the superintendent's feelings grew grimmer. He did not like to believe what he saw, but the evidence was crowding in.

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this thing was a slave, A slave, moreover, Well within the limits of the farm, where it had no business to be without supervi-sion; a slave who dared call on him for help!

"What are you doing here?" The superintendent sent the question crackling along a tight beam toward the apparently helpless creature; "Did you enter this re-

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gion without orders?"

"No, Master. I was . . .

dcred."

"By whom? What happened to

you? Speak more clearly!"

"By—I cannot, Master. Help me!" The irregular flickering of the slave's auroral halo brightened fitfully with the effort of radiating speech.

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A ridiculous thought, of course. The stupidest slave could detect

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Food, however, was not enough. of extraneous metal were

imbedded in its body, altering the precise pattern of charged metal nodes that spelled life to these beings. Some of its own field nodes had apparently been chipped or blown away, and others were discharged. The creature's body was only a fraction of its normal size—the regular

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been consumed or had evaporated.

There was no doubt that it was dying. But there was some

chance that it might gain strength enough to impart information it it were fed. It was—sparingly, of course.

"No sense wasting food on a slave that's about to die/' the superintendent explained without brutality.

"Certainly not, Master," the slave agreed without resentment.

"WfHAT happened to you?**

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I was ordered to the inner

plots—to harvest." The word-symbols came haltingly, but with sufficient clarity to be unrnistak-able, shocking as their implication was.

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young fool like this orders it?"

"He was a master, and he gave the order. Many of us went; many of us have been going for years and seldom returning. We did not wish it, Master, but he ordered it.

What could we do?"

"You could have asked the first

superintendent who came here whether it was better to disobey a Prime Order or a young master/'

You are the first to come, Master, as far as I know. And

from the errand? What happened to them? What happened to

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"They die. I did not know how; now I suppose it must be this way."

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"No, not all of them. The region near the central furnace has more of such matter than any other place I have ever seen. Some pieces are iron, some are of other matter; but they cannot be avoided. They strike too hard. They cannot be absorbed in normal fashion, but simply boil off one's body material into space. The shock is so tremendous that I, at least, could do nothing toward recovering the material until it had dissipated beyond hope

the young master said we were of salvage. That is the reason so

not to speak of this order to anyone. It is only because you command me to speak that I do so now—that and the fact that there is little more that he cotjld do to me, anyway."

The overseer ignored the pointed closing sentence. "You say

many of you have been ordered

to do this, but few have returned

much of my mass is gone; it was not merely starvation.

"Some of the other slaves did better than I—as I said, some of them have survived—but others did much worse. They would dive in toward the furnace, and their bodies would come falling back out in just about the shape I am/*

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quickly and sent us on all such t journeys thereafter.

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central furnace, fairly well,

though the loss of slaves was high.

Then he wanted to start on the

third. I was one of the first to and went on. And I was struck

stroyed plot had been, drifting particles began to grow more numerous. At first there would be an occasional bit of stone or iron,

which I could dodge easily. Then they came in twos and threes, and sometimes I would have to change an escape curve in mid-maneuver. Then they came in dozens and clusters, and at last I could avoid them no longer. I was struck several times in rapid succession.

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back—I had never dreamed that anything could feel like that — and then I remembered the order

work on this project.

"I did not expect to live, of course, after what I had heard

again, and again, and each time the order faded in my mind. I

reached the orbit of the fourth

from the others; but the order planet, crossed it — and turned

• came, and I let myself fall toward \ the sun. My orbit passed close to fcthe greatest of the plots, which

out again. It didn't seem to help; I w,as still being pelted. For a time I must have almost lost ori-

| the master has been harvesting entation; but at last I won out himself, and I hoped to strengthen to a place near the orbit of the

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I didn't dare go out in the cold

where he would be waiting. I

didn't dare dive back into that |through the region where the de- storm of rock and metal from

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permitted his servitors to fall. "But I did not dare take any

food when the time came," the Mave went on feebly. "As I passed

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ways; now he was sure of it.

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were to take up a powered, nearly

elliptical path through that region, matching velocities with most of them instead of falling in a practically parabolic orbih. across their path,. I should b« able to avoid the worst of the blows."

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"and it occurred to me that tw* would be better than one. If on died, at least the other coul<< learn from what had happened. ; caught* him easily since he wm in free fall and explained the idea. He seemed willing to fo? low any suggestion, not thinkim for himself at all, so he we* with me.

"For a while it worked. We-got inside the orbit of the fourth planet without being hit more than a few times each—that w&* harder on me than on him, because I'd already been hurt quite a lot on the first trip. Into th#t level, a great deal of the wreckage is formed of quite large particles, anyway; it's easy to see and avoid. Farther in, though, where most of the heavy stuff either never went or was cleared

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farm plot I have ever seen, and

was not able to touch a bit of it!

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"I could sense them, though,

and in spite of the pain of the meteor bombardment, I stayed near the planet, vacillating as I had done before, for a couple of hundred of its trips around the Sun. That may seem like a short time, but it was long enough to ruin my body past saving. It was only when my senses began, to fail that I Was able to turn away

from it and fight my way out this far. I just managed to get into a stable orbit that would keep me clear of that hellish halo of planet fragments, and every now and then I succeeded in* mustering enough energy to call for help, but I knew it was useless. Even had you come much sooner, it would still have been too late for me.

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THE slave fell silent, and the superintendent pondered its tale as they drifted on about the Sun. He could not, offhand, think of any adequate punishment for the student whose recklessness had brought about this state of affairs. The mere cruelty of or-dering endless crowds of slaves to nearly certain death did not affect him particularly; but the waste of it did, very much. To him the thought of hundreds of lifeless bodies drifting endlessly about the Sun, boiling off a little more of their masses with each

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ffcome unattainable was also to be *>nsidered, and the driving of at

|east one slave to the extreme of

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be ignored.

> : ; Of course, everything should be Checked before confronting the ^student with sucji charges. Only ' pe last, after all, could be eon-red as yet a matter of ob-Active knowledge.

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ven if it had survived until bis :urn.

He was in no hurry. He let the avity of the central furnace aw him in to the orbit of the iant Planet, his senses covering half-billion-mile sphere of ace ahead where death was retted to lurk.

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The small bodies were there, all right. Thousands of them, even though he was not trying to detect anything less than a twentieth of his own diameter. They did show a rather vague preference for the orbit of the old fifth planet, as the slave had said. The greater number circled between the present fourth and fifth orbits, at any rate. There seemed no reason why he could not match velocities well enough to keep out of trouble. Why, chance alone could be trusted to protect him from collision with a few thousand asteroids, when they were scattered through something like ten-to- the - twenty - fourth - power cubic miles of space!

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to evolve on the regularly harvested worlds of the Galaxy. The overseer wondered whether

it might not be worth while to let

^parated him from the farthest other plots run wild for a few

His finer senses could easily op-er&te at the half billion miles that

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years. His principal vice, by the standards of his people, was glut-

cused his attention on the elusive tony; but the most ascetic of his

farm plot in question.

Being so close to the central furnace, it revolved rapidly* He faced somewhat the same prob-

species would have been tempted

uncontrollably by that planet.

He almost regretted the few

tons of food he fiad taken on

lem in examining it that a man from the ringed planet—though

would have trying to recognize a he had, he told himself quickly,

friend on a merry-go-round—as sacrificed much of that in help-

suming that the friend were spin ing the slave and would lose still

ftiiig in his seat like a top at the more if he decided actually to

same time.

It took the superintendent only a few revolutions of the body to adjust to this situation, however, and as details registered more and more clearly on his con-sciousness

penetrate into the high-temperature zones near the Sun.

Huge as his mass was, his

normal temperature was so low

that life processes went on at an incredibly slow pace. To him,'a

„ , he began to admit chemical reaction requiring only

grudgingly that the slave had not a few millennia to go to comple-

exaggerated.

The plot was fabulous!

Substances for which he had no name abounded, impressing themselves on the analytical sense that was his equivalent of both taste and smell. Strange as they were, he could tell easily that; they were foods — packed with available energy and carrying fascinating taste potentialities, organized to a completely un-

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tion was like a dynamite explosion. A few pounds of organic compounds would feed his miles-thick bulk . for many human lifetimes of high activity.

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Perhaps he had been counting on a will power naturally superior to that of the slave who had warned him. If so, he had forgotten the effects of an equally superior imagination. The pull of the third planet was correspondingly stronger and, watching the

spinning globe, he was jarred out pi an almost hypnotic trance by pze first collision. It awakened lim to the fact that his natural

uperiority to the slave race light not be sufficient to keep

im out of serious trouble.

The space around him—he was

tow well inside the orbit of the

>urth planet — was literally

•owdfed with grain-of-dust me-

:ors, each, as he had seen on the

ive's crust, able to blast out a

crater many times its own volume

a living body* Individually,

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of existence, the superintendent started to check his fall and veer

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"Sir!" The voice came faintly

but clearly to his mind. "Don't

stay! You mustn't! I should

never have let you come—but I

was angry! I know I was a fool;

I should have told you every-thing!"

"I learned. It was my own fault." The superintendent found it curiously difficult to speak. I came of my own free will and I still think that plot is worth investigation."

"No! It's not your own free will—no will could remain free after seeing what that planet has to offer, I knew it and expected you to die—but I couldn't go through with it. Gome, and quickly. I will help."

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"Don't even look at it a gain > sir. Look at me, and follow—or if you'd rather not look at me, look

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He indicated the direction plainly, and the dazed listener looked almost involuntarily.

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A'dead slave was nothing; bat the thing that had killed it could do the §ame to him.

It was the first time, in his incredibly long life that the persona/ possibility of death had struck home to him; and prob-ably nothing less than that fear could have saved his life.

With the student close beside, he followed the weirdly glowing corpse out to the farthest point of its orbit; and as it started to fall back into the halo of death girdling that harmless-looking star, he pressed on out into the friendly darkness.

Perhaps some day that third planet would be harvested; but it would not be by one of his kind—not, at least, until that guarding haze had been swept up by the planets that drifted through its protecting veil.

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Still, the night was good. Most of the time in the latitude—

"Mr. Wright! Is that a cloud

or the Aurora?"

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below the horizon," he answered

indirectly, "you will discover that the patch of light you are indicating is directly opposite that point. It lies along the path of the Earth's shadow, though, of course, well beyond it. It is called the Gegenschein and, like the

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"What .causes them?**

■**The most reasonable assumption is that they are light refleo-ted from small, solid particles meteors. Apparently a eloud of such matter extends outward for some distance past the Earth's orbit, though just how far, it is hard to say. It grows fainter with

distance from the Sun, as would be expected, except for the patch we call the Gegenschein* 9

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"I think you will agree that that would account for it,** Wright said. "Evidently the me-teors are there, are large compared to wavelengths of visible light, and form a definite part of the Solar System, I believe it was once estimated that if the space inside the Earth's orbit

contained particles one milii-meter in diameter and five miles apart, they would reflect enough light to account for what we are observing. They might, of course*

be smaller and more numerous. Only that amount of reflecting surface is-necessary."

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The single thing ttrfear was feat — ghastly, walking fearl

STIFF with shock, Naomi Heckscher stood just inside the door to Cappy's one-room cabin, where she'd happened, to be when her husband

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Naomi's mind circled franti-cally, contrasting her happy anticipations with this shocking actuality. She'd come to call on a friend, she reminded" herself, a beloved friend—round, whiter haired, rosy-cheeked; lonely because he'd recently become* a widower. To her little boy, Cappy

was a combination Grandpa and

Santa Claus; to herself, a sort of newly met Old Beau.

Her mouth had been set for a

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stolen kiss. She'd found a corpse.

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fe* this strange world ...

She and Ted could at least have been with him, if they'd known.

But they'd been laughing and singing in their own cabin only a mile away, celebrating Richard's fifth birthday. She'd been annoyed when Cappy failed to show

up with the present he'd promised Richard. Annoyed—while the

old man pulled a blanket over his head, turned his round face to

the wall, and died. ,.._*-

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'Why did you tell Richard to stay outside, just now?" she demanded. "How did you know what we'd find here? And why didn't you tell me, so I could keep Richard at home?

She saw Ted start, scalded by the splash of her self-directed anger, saw him try to convert his wince into a shrug.

"You insisted on coming,'* he reminded her gently. "I couldn't have kept you home without-without saying too much, worrying you—with the Earth-ship still a year away. Besides, I didn't know for sure, till we saw the tree-things around the cabin."

The tree-things. The trees-thai were-not. Gnarled blue trunk*,

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stayed over Cappy's spring for a far longer time than Man had

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Until just now . . .

The three of them had topped

the rise that hid Cappy's farm from their own. Richard was run-ning ahead like a happily inquisitive puppy* Suddenly he'd stopped, pointing with a finger she distinctly recalled as needing

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"Look, Gappy's trees have

thorough soapy scrubbing.

Mommie!** he'd said,

moved.

They're around the cabin, now/'

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But, Ted, come to think of it, had seemed withdrawn, his face a careful blank. And she?

"Very pretty/' she'd said, and stuffed the tag-end of fear back into the jammed, untidy mental pigeon-hole she used for all unpleasant thoughts. "Don't run too far ahead, dear.'*

But now she had to know what

Ted knew.

"Tell mcr she said.

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These tree-things

" There've been other deaths!

How many?"

"Sixteen. But I didn't want to

tell you. Orders were to leave women and children home when we had that last Meeting, je-member."

"What did they say at the Meeting? Out with it, Ted!"

"That—that the tree-things

think!"

"But that's ridiculous!" '."Well, unfortunately, no. Look, I'm not trying to tell you that terrestrial trees think, too, nor even that they have a nervous system. They don't. But-r-welf, oh Earth, if you've ever touched a lighted match to the leaf of a

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sensitive plant like the ^mimosa, say—and I have—you've been struck by the speed with which other leaves close up and droop. I mean, sure, we know that the leaves droop because certain cells exude water and nearby leaves feel the heat of the match. But the others don't, yet they droop, too. Nobody knows how it works . .

"But thai 1 $ just defensive!"

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"Sure. But that*s just on

Earth!"

"All right, dear. I won't argue any more. But I still don't understand. Go on about the Meeting.**

"Well, they said these tree-things both create and respond to the patterned electrical impulses of the mind. It's something like

the way a doctor creates fantasies by applying a mild electric cur-

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been here, the trees—or some of them—have learned to read from and transmit to our minds. The

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"Receptive?"

"Fearful. That's the condition*

So I didn't want to tell you because you must not let yourself become afraid, Naomi. We're clearing trees from the land, in certain areas. And it's thetr planet, after all. Fear is their weapon and fear can killl"

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should have let us women know! What do you think we are? Be-

sides, I don't really believe you. How can fear kill?"

"Haven't you ev,er heard of a savage who gets in bad with his witch-doctor and is killed by magic? The savage is convinced,

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No. But Where's Richard?" Naomi's eyes swept past Ted,

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"From poison, I've always thought."

"The poison of fear. The physical changes that accompany fear, magnified beyond belief by belief itself."

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Glass tinkled and crashed as she flung back the cabin door. "Richard! Richard!"

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"Richard Heckscher! Where

are you?" Sanity returned with the conventional primness. And it brought her answer.

Here I am, Mommie! Look-

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ell this have affected Cappy? He through Naomi as if in' her

wasn't a savage. And he was elderly, Ted. A bad heart, maybe. A stroke. Anything."

"He passed his pre-flight phy-sical only a year ago. And—well, he lived all alone. He was careful riot to let you see it, but I know

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bloodstream and something was cutting off her breath. Then, as the hands over mouth and throat withdrew, she saw they were Ted's. She let him drag her into the cabin and close the broken door.

"Better not scare Richard," he said quietly, shoving her gently into a chair. "He might fall."

Dumbly she caught her breath*, waiting for the bawling out she'd

earned.

But Ted said, "Richard keeps us safe. So long as we fear for him, and not ourselves—"

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"Showing off!" she gasped. In a flashing vision, Richard was half boy, half vulture, flapping to the ground with a broken wing,

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a notebook that had been on the table. "Here's Cappy's present. A homemade picture book. Bait

"Let me use it!" she said. "Richard may have seen I was

scared just now.

Outside again, under the tree, she called, "Here's Cappy's present, Richard. He's gone away and left it for you."

Would he notice how her voice had gone up half an octave, be-

come flat and shrill?

"I'm coming down,** Richard

said. "Let me down, Tree,

He seemed to be struggling. The branches were cagelike. He was caught!

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"The tree let me up, Mommie* Richard explained solemnly, "but he won't let me down!" He whimpered a little.

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She leaned against the cabin

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"Break off a few leaves, Richard," he suggested. "That'll

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Standing close against her husband, Naomi tried to stop shaking. But she lacked firm support, for Ted shook, too.

His advice to Richard was sound, though. What had been a trap became, through grudging movement of the branches, a lad-der. Richard climbed down, scolding at the tree like an angry squirrel.

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AOMI thought she'd succeeded in shutting her mind. But when her little boy slid down the final bit of trunk and came for his present, Naomi broke. Like a startled animal, she thrust the book into his hands, picked him up and ran. Her mind was a jelly,

red and quaking.

She stopped momentarily after running fifty yards. "Burn the

trees!" she screamed over her shoulder. "Burn the cabin! Burn it all!" She ran on, Ted's answering shouts beyond her compre-hension.

Fatigue halted her. At the top

of the rise between Cappy's farm and their own, pain and dizziness began flowing over her in waves. She set Richard down on the mauve soil and collapsed beside him.

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"He's doing just what you said to, Mommie i" Richard answered indignantly.

Her men were standing together, Naomi realized. She laughed. After a moment, Richard joined her. Then he looked for his book, found it a few paces away, and brought it to her. "Read to me, Mommie.

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"At home," she said.

Activity at Cappy's interested

her now. Wisps of smoke were licking around the trees. A tongue of flame lapped at one while she watched. Branches writhed. The trees were too slow-moving to

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But where was Ted? What had she exposed him to, with her hysterical orders? She held her breath till he moved within sight, standing quietly by a pile of salvaged tools. Behind him the cabin

began to smoke.

Ted wasn't afraid, then. He understood what he faced. And

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Richard wasn't afraid, either, because he didn't understand.

But she? Surreptitiously Naomi pinched her hip till it felt black and blue. That was for being such

a fool. She must not be afraid!

"Daddy seems to be staying there," she said. "Let's wait for bim at home, Richard/'

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consciously womanlike, she sought relief in talk.

"What do you think we should do, dear?'*

"Oh, I like the tree, Mommie. It's cool under there. And the tree plays wtih me."

"How, Richard?"

"If I'm pilot, he's navigator. Or ship, maybe. But he's so dumb, Mommie! I always have to tell him everything. Doesn't know what a fairy is, or Goldilocks, or anything!"

He clutched his book affectionately, rubbing his face on it. "Hurry up, Mommie. It'll be bedtime before you ever read to

me!"

She touched his head briefly.

"You can look at the book while

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that mental pigeon-hole before their own tree. It was unbelievable, but she'd been glancing out the window every few minutes, so she saw it start. Their own tree began to walk.

Down the hill it came—right there!—framed in the window behind Richard's head, moving slowly but inexorably on a root system that writhed along the surface. Like some ancient sculpture of- Serpents Supporting the Tree of Life. Except that it brought death . . .

"Are you sick, Mommie?" No, not sick. Just something

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the matter with her throat, preventing a quick answer, leaving no way to keep Richard from turning to look out the window.

"I think our tree is coming to play with me, Mommie.'*

No, no! Not Richard!

Remember how you used to say that aborit Cappy? When he was really coming to see your daddy?"

"But Daddy isn't home!" "Hell get here, dear. Now eat your supper."

A lot to ask of an excited little boy. And the tree was his friend, it seemed. Cappy's tree had even followed the child's ordersl Richard might intercede— u

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"Had enough to eat, dear?

Wash your hands and face at the

pump, and you can stay out and

play till Daddy gets home. I—I

want- 1'may have to see your

friend, the tree, by myself . . .**

"But you haven't finished my story F*

I will when Daddy gets home* And if I'm not here,, you tell U&ddy to do it."

"Where are you going, Mom-

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"I might see Cappy, dear. Now go and wash, please!"

"Sure, Mommie. Don't cry."

Accept his kiss, even if it is from a mouth rimmed with sup-per. And don't rub it off till he's gone out, you damned fool. You frightened fool. You shaking, sweating, terror-stricken fool.

Who's he going to kiss when you're not here?

The tree has stopped. Our little tree is having its supper. How nice. Sucking sustenance direct from soil with aid of sun and air in true plant fashion—but ex-hausting our mineral resources.

(How wise of Ted to make you

go to those lectures! You wouldn't

want to die in ignorance, would you?)

The lecture—come on, let's go back to the lecture! Let's free our soil from every tree or well

not hold the joint in fee. No, not joint. A vulgarism, teacher would say; Methinks the times are out

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mg—your son, your sun.

Can your son be eclipsed by a tree? A matter of special spatial relationships, and the space is shrinking, friend. The tree is only a few hundred feet from the house. It has finished its little supper and is now running around. Like Richard, With

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Richard! Congenial, what?

Smile, stupid. Your son speaks. Answer him.

"What, dear?" I see Daddy! He just came over the hill. He's running! Can I go meet him, Mommie?" 'No, dear. It's too far." ! Too far. Far too fan

"Did ypju say something to me, Richard?"

"No. I was talking to the tree. I'm the Spaceman and he's the Martian. But he doesn't want to

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Richard plays. Let us play.

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You're close enough to get into the game, surely. A hundred and fifty feet, maybe. Effective range,

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Mommie. He wants to see you!"

"You tell that tree your Mom-mie never sees strangers when Daddy isn't home!"

"I'll make him wait!"

Stoutly your pot-bellied little protector prevents his protective mother from going to pot.

"If he won't play, I'll use my ray gun on him!"

Obviously, the tree won't play. Watch your son lift empty hands, arm himself with a weapon yet to be invented, and open fire on the advancing foe.

"Aa-aa-aa!"

So that's how a ray gun sounds!

"You're dead, tree! You're dead! Now you can ? * play with me any more. You're dead!"

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boy's fantasy as fact, Naomi won -dered why she'd never thought of that herself.

So the tree was a treacherous medicine-man, was it? A tru< believing witch-doctor? And who could be more susceptible to the poisoning of fear than a witchdoctor who has made fear work-^ and believes it's being used against him?

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THE EXPLORATION OF SPACE, by Arthur C. Clarke. Harper & Brothers, New York, 1952. 199 pages plus xiii, illustrated, $3.50

SANDS OF MARS, by Arthur C. Clarke. Gnome Press, New York, 1952. 216 pages, $2.75

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HIS is Clarke Year, it seeing;

and a very good year it is, too. To take the non-fiction book first, The Exploration oi Space is a completely -satisfying job. The

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first ^book about astronautics and the, mechanics' of travelling and living in -space to be taken by the Book of the .Month Club, it does not assume that you have a Ph.D.

in Extraterrestrial Vector Analysis (whatever that is* if it exists). However, it does assume that you are a normally thoughtful, educated, imaginative citizen with a

fairly mature approach. In. other words, not for morons.

Above all, it is soundly scientific; there is nothing crackpot about it. Its prophecies of future ,■ developments may often be proved wrong in detail, but they ?are definitely logical in theory. .From a brief historical survey,

, beginning- with Luciany of the ideas of space travel, we pass to a marvelously > comprehensible analysis of .the principles of the

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gravity, possible spaceships, and so on, via some highly realistic

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domed cities on Mars to the far-distant possibilities of travel to the stars.

Illustration-wise, this book is, next to the Bonestell-rLey Con-

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quest of Space, the handsomest production yet in this field. From simple diagrams which brilliantly explain such recondite subjects as gravity, to a number of gorgeous full-color plates, one of which shows the domed city of Mars in a breathtaking fashion, the book is a treasure-chest of

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pictorial and scientific richness.

Sands of Mars, Clarke's never-serialized second novel, is a fit

successor to Prelude to Space,

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current facts about space flight can make this sort of imaginative

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The story tells of the voyage to Mars of .a famous newsman and ex-science^fiction-novelist by the name of Martin Gibson, and his conversion from an anti-Mars character to an all-out enthusiast.

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slows the story a little, but unquestionably adds to the impact of the novel. These are people, not "spacemen," we are meeting. The trip through space is nothing beyond what we can find in The Exploration of Space, decked out in fictional garments. Clarke's Mars, on the other hand,

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is a logical leap into the dark. None of the inventions and ideas is particularly unlikely, though, and all of them are put in a clear

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and unforgettable light by the author's ability at visualizing the

uncreated.

One may perhaps be justified in a slight cringe at the super-scientific way the problems of Mars' cold and its low oxygen are eventually solved; but even that technique should not seem totally

unlikely when one suddenly realizes that one has blithely cepted without a whimper the fantastic—but scientifically quite sound—idea of a spaceship for

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the Mars run which is capable of transporting 180 people! Genuinely good reading.

YEARS BEST SCIENCE F1C-TION NOVELS: 1952, Edited^ by Everett F. Bleiler and T. E. Dikty. Frederick Fell, Inc., New York, 1952. 351 pages, $3.50

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THE indefatigable Chicagoans, with their second Spring 1952 collection, .have started a new

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annual series, and a good idea, too—a collection of the "best" novelets of the year. Stories of this length are usually problems for the anthologist, whose pub-

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lisher often presses him for "more stories per book." As a result, some of the best science fiction has long missed the momentary immortality of hard covers.

The- "bestness" of the five nov-

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elets included is, of course, debatable; no one should ever ex-pect any collection to be wholly pleasing to himself. Tastes differ too much. But this collection is at least a good average.

No one could possibly veto Eric Frank Russell's superb ". . . And Then There Were None," cer-tainly one of the most evocative

and provocative idea novelets that ever hit the literature of

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space travel. The Grands, witn their wonderful "Myob!" and "F—I. W." slogans, will never be forgotten by anyone who reads about them,

Arthur Clarke's sensitive and

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is a top selection, too. In a delightful and obviously quite unpremeditated way, its ideas play a sort of warm and contrasty counterpoint to the theme of Russell's tale.

"Hunting Season" by Frank M. Robinson is a good one, too, though a bit slobbery. This reviewer felt that the idea was bet-

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ter realized in Ray Bradbury*? shuddery "The Fox and the For-

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est," but there is enough merit in the Robinson 'Story to make its reprinting a good idea.

I didn't think too much of Poul Anderson's post-Einstein re-do of

the Wellsian "Time Machine/* which is called "Flight to Forever" and which is super-impossible science fantasy; and nothin at all of Walter Miller's "Izzard and the Membrane," which demonstrates how political propaganda can ruin science fiction.

Nevertheless, the collection as a whole is eminently worthwhile. May there be more in the series!

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ing stories and one from Thrill-ing Wonder, all but one collected in book form here for the first time, describes a tomorrow that is ?

for me, completely enthralling.

Commencing with a simple picture of the end of Cities as a result of decentralization caused

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stories are legends on this world), and a third consisting of the

planet Jupiter, where the human race, wholly transformed into a new type of life, has abandoned humanity, with all its faults.

One has the pleasant feeling that the series was written for the fun of it, not to uphold any theories, not to satirize anything, not for filthy lucre, and not, indeed, for any particular audience except the author himself. This makes the book all the more delightful.

The Dogs, who tell the legends^ seriously doubt whether Man, with his wars and his crimes, ever existed at all, and if he did, they wonder why. Smart people, those Dogs; they suspect the tales are pure fabricatioris of the pre-civilized Dog mind. Anthropology, indeed! What could you call it with Dogs? Canopology, I pre-sume.

ROBOTS HAVE NO TAILS, by Lewis Padgett. Gnome Press, New York, 1952. 224 pages, $2.75

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ken Gallagher and his narcissistic robot, Joe, the lead charac-ters in this book.

On the other hand, my decla-mations at times falter to a halt when, in spite of myself, I hear myself busting out in giggles over some absurdity of these two strictly synthetic and primitive pieces of pulp characterization. This does not mean that I think the Gallagher series is good science fiction, for it isn't—zany imaginings of a rather anti-scien-* tiftc sort.

The principle! seem to be: "Scientists invent when drunk." "Research and invention is an

individual, not a cooperative effort; a subconscious, rather than an intellectual effort." Very unhelpful conclusions that can be deduced from the actually harm* less and often amusing adventures of this ga-ga technician and

his super-robot in an overscien-tific, undersociologized world which continues to misuse science and technology just ah we do.

Perhaps I'm being unnecessarily serious. Point is, I want to let Mr. Kuttiier know I enjoy him still and realize that he is putting over some very nice satirical points in these stories, even though you have to hunt for them {Padgett is Mr. Kuttner.)

Vital statistics: the book has five Gallagher stories, all from Astounding; and two ("Gallagher Plus" and "The World Is Mine")

never before anthologized.

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ARTIN GREYNOR was to tell him he ^as going too fast

very very drunk, not gayly drunk, not freshly six-quick-ones drunk, but drunk in varying degrees since December tenth at ten P.M. Two big red 10s in his mind? always with him—zeroes like a pair of headlights. Ruth beside him, sweet-scented, fur-clad. And one of his fits of stupid, vicious, reckless anger. December 10. 10 P.M. Hitting the slick black curves hard, motor droning, forcing her

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Once she said it, he could slow

down and that would be a little victory.

"Too fast, Martyr* she said. They were the last words she ever spoke.

Fat headlights and the long whining skid, and the crash, and the jangle that went on forever. Ripped fur and blood and gone the sweet scent.

Now it was New Year's Eve. Ruth w;as gone. His job was gone,

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the car gone. Money was left, though, money a-plenty. Funny about drinking. The wobbling, falling down, sick stage lasts about twelve days, he discovered. Important discovery. Boon to science. Then you're armor-plated. Liquor drops into a pit, clunk. Walk steady, talk steady. Put in come the illusions on little

. soft pink feet.

Ruth ahead of you, hurrying down a dark street. "Ruth!

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Hurriedly she puts on a wattled mask, turns and grimaces at you, rasps in a mocking gin-husky voice. "Ya wan* something,

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store window.

"Marty, let's buy you a pair of those. I like those shoes.".

Suit she liked. Now a bit dribbled, a shade rancid. Apartment the way they had left it that night. Never gone back. Beds not made* no doubt.

Walk through the night streets, looking for punishment. Looking

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guilt. Now the old : . places dont want you. "Sorry, Mr. Greynor. you've begun to stink." The lit-

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tie bars don't care,

"HAP-PEEE NEW YEAR!"

The bar mirrors are enchanted. Ruth stands behind you. said,,"Never run away from me. darling. You'd be too easy to find. Wanted—a red-headed man with one blue eye and one brown eye. See? You couldn't get away with it."

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He bent low over the bar until his lips almost touched the shot glass, then lifted it in a hard arc, tossing his head back. It burned *ts way down into the nothingness. The bartender slapped the change down. ^ art in Greynor fumbled with it, pushed a guar-ter over to the far edge. The bar-

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Martin turned around an|f saw the three girls again. He wondered if it was . again, or if he was seeing them for the first time. The mind performs such odd little hop, skip, jumps. He debated it solemnly, got nowhere.

They were at a table. They were all looking at him with an air of watchfulness. That could be imagined, too. Three lovelies like that are not going to make the weary, ginmill rounds with you and keep watching you. You ain't that purty, Martin.

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He walked out steadily ancj stood on the sidewalk. He had the strong impression that Ruth was stretched flat on the roof r her head over the edge of the building, grinning down at him. He turned sharply and looked up. The Moon hung misty over Manhattan, debauched by neon.

Ty"EXT block. Don't turn right.

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E looked back. Three female silhouettes, arm in arm, step in step, tick-tock-tick of the pretty stilt heels avoiding the gray smears of slush.

He ducked into the door under the neon. This was a dark one. Dancing was going on back there somewhere to the cat-fence yowl of a clarinet and pulse-thump of piano. He edged in at the bar. The bartender came over fast, with that trouble-look on his face. Martin shoved the five out fast.

"Rye straight," he said.

The bartender paused for a count of three, then turned back to the rye department.

Martin looked over and saw them come in. He hunted on top of his mind and found the heavily underlined place. He read it off. Three blondes. Three arro-

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The young man turned fast and hard and went high and rigid into the air. Martin saw him go up in that jet-leap of spasmed muscles, head thrown back, agony-masked face. He fell like something pushed out of a window. People gathered around

him. They blocked Martin's view.

He* looked at the blondes. They were watching him. In an empty lot in the back of his'mind, a rabbit bounded for cover, where there was no cover, and the dogs, sat watching, tongues lolling. Cold started at a spot at the base

of his spine. It crept nuzzling into his armpits.

He drank and scooped up his change and left.

He ran to the corner and stood, and the trembling went away. The ^slush was beginning to freeze. It crunched a bit under his shoes. That was another tiling. You didn't have to eat, and vou didn't get cold. Ergo,

one should be beyond fear. Go around being afraid of blondes and people will begin to point at

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room and stands by his bed and

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you?" he said.

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blonde and all coming along. S what can blondes dp to you? H stood his ground for a slow count

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"What you running for, chief?" "It's ... a cold night. Keeping

warm."

The cuff, slid him along the wall and the hand on his rancid suit yanked him back upright. "What you running for, I said?"

"Those three blondes coming. They're after me." He could hear them coming. The spot went away. He was blind. But he. could hear them.

"After you, you creep?" "Yes, I . . ."

"Johnny, we better dump the chief here off at the ward. Come on, Mr. Irresistable."

Tick, tack, tock, tick. Silence.

"What do you girls want?"

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hard, stiff-legged, stiff-armed leap. Martin fell into slush and rolled. Inside the cruiser, the driver stiffened, his head going bong on the metal roof.

T|^|ARTIN ran, bleating. An -*-" empty field and no cover. The wise eyes of the hunting

dogs. Wait until Ije comes around again, fellows.

He turned, skidding in the freezing slush, and ran int* an alley, tangling his legs in a bunch of trash, sprawling, clawing his way up again, running into a wall, stinging his hands. He turned. Three female silhouettes in the alley mouth. High-wa:*ied, long-legged, stilt-heeled, cream-headed.

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He sat down and covered his eyes. Count to ten and they'll go away. One-a-larry, two-a-larry, three-a-larry, four.

New spotlight. This was a dif-erent one. It came at him from a lot of little directions, like one of

those trick showers with a dozen spray heads.

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"Take urn."

Something grew in front of him, a red happy-new-year balloon. So it was a gag, maybe. It lobbed through the air toward him, turning in iridescence. He caught it. It was red jelly with a cellophane skin. It kept trying to slide down Ipetween his fingers*

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It broke in his hands, showered green needles up to his nose to sizzle in his brain fat.

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his head.

He tried more cautiously. He could sit up by carefully shifting his weight, but he couldn't stand. The surface was frictionless. Compared to it, glare ice was like sandpaper.

He lay down* and looked mp. Overhead was nothing. He thought about that for quite a while. Nothing. No thing. Nothing with a flaw in it. A little flaw. He peered at it. It was in the shape of a tiny naked man. He moved a leg. The tiny naked man moved a leg. Everything clicked into focus. A mirror under him and, at an incredible height above him, another.

Now, he thought, I'm a germ on a big microscope. His body felt odd. He managed to sit up

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clean. His fingernails were snowy. His toenails were like white paper. His skin was clean and pink

with a glow of health, but the old

heart went thudding slowly and

sickly along.

Silence. All he could hear was the roar of his blood in his ears* Like listening to a sea shell. There had been a big pink conch

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blue room.

His three blondes were there, watching him. We don't get pink elephants. We don't get snakes and bugs. We get blondes.

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"Now, look," he said, "can't we be friends?"

They had changed. Their mouths were different — vivid green paint in a perfect rectangle. They looked at him with that calm pride of ownership. Nice

doggy.

"Now, look," He began again,

and stopped when he noticed their strange dresses. He looked closer. Ladies, please, you can*t dress with a paint spray. But

they had.

"This," he said, "is a nightmare by Petty, out of Varga £

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paint job. One of them stepped

to him, grabbed him by the hair

and tilted his head back. She

looked into his eyes and made a

little satisfied clucking sound.

She turned and pointed to the corner.

"Yup now," she said.

"How does one go about yup-ping?" he asked vacantly. m

She looked at one of the other blondes, who said slowly and precisely, "Hurry — up — now. late."

There was a pile of clothes in the corner.^He went over, glad for a chance of regaining pants, even in a dream world. The

garments were recognizable, the

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fakes. The suit was bright blue with a harsh red stripe.

Dressed, he felt like a straight man in a burlesque.

From a distance he heard a great Ishout. It sounded lite "Yah-hah!" from ten thousand throats. He suddenly had the strong hunch that he was going on display.

The nearest blonde* confirmed that hunch. She stepped over and clamped a metal circlet around his forehead.

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"Here comes Martin," he said feebly.

TTE was in the middle of a gar--■"■- den. The clipped turf underfoot was springy. Tailored terraces rose on three sides. A fat sun and a billion flowers and several thousand exceptionally handsome people wearing paint jobs and nothing else.

The center arena had some people in it, people fastened to chains as he was, each one held by three blondes. The spectators

were all on the terraces. There was a picnic atmosphere.

They went into the middle of the arena. The other captives were being led in an endless circle.

"Yah-hah!* the multitude yelled. "Yah-hah-hah!"

They posed in the center and then began the circling. Martin stared at his fellow captives. Some were men and some were women. One wore animal skins:

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He was led .around and around. More performers took "their center ring bow. Something was bothering him, some silly small thing. He couldn't fit his mind over it. Too much was going on in this delirium.

Then he got it—all the captives had red hair.

He turned and looked at the scared woman who walked behind him. She had red hair, one blue eye and one brown eye. She

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eye. Red hair.

Everyone stopped walking. There was a great and final,

"Yah-hah." Three sets of blondes stood in the center ring without captives. Their heads were bowed.

His blondes trotted him over, took off the circlet and flipped him back into the blue room. The slit was closed. He pinched his leg..

"Hell," he said softly.

The slit opened after what he imagined to be an hbiir had passed. One of his blondes came

back. She had a man with her, a chesty citizen dressed in cerise paint.

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"Indebted. Thanking very much."

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"Knowing nothing. Not a damfied thing! What's this all about?"

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Martin goggled at him. "You mean a scavenger hunt through

time?"

"Not knowing. Is only game. Some ladies failing. Too bad." "What happens to them?" The man grinned. "No present for them. Now, present for you. Returning. Any place in tempo yours. To place taken. To other place. Sooner, later. Your

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MARTIN GREYNOR was sit ting on the edge of his bed. He had just yanked his shoelaces tight in the left shoe. The tipped laces were still in his hands. He let go of them. He heard a shower pouring. The sound stopped

suddenly.

His throat was full of rusty wire. "Ruth?"

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"What is it now, Marty? My goodness, you've been needling me all evening. You're in a perfectly foul humor. I'm harrying just as fast as I can/'

"Ruth, I . . ." He tried to smile. His lips felt split.

She came to him, quick with

concern. "Marty! Are you all right, darling? You look so odd/'

"Me? I've never been more all right." He pulled her down beside him.

"Hey, you! I'm soaking wet/*

"Baby, do we have to drive way out there tonight? Do we?**

She stared at him. "Good Lord, it was your idea. I detest both of them.* You know that.

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He looked at the fire glow re fleeted in her hair.

"It isn't a bad game, baby.'* "What do you mean?" He shrugged. "Guess it depends^ on who's playing it and what the prize is.

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There was no effective cure for the noise* It was the inevitable, unavoidable result of bottling an atomic propulsor within a cylin^ der of highly conductive metal.

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finite, it might still be-.howling, unheard, unheeded, after thirty

years. . .

Ship number two had started out with a slag-wool padded engine room and silicone-lined ven-s. The low note. The drone of

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The vessel now thundering mlfrng was number three, not go-ing outward, but on its way back, heading for home. Nosing toward ■ f -x not-yet-visible red dot lost in the mist of stars, a strayed soul

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Sea sailors cherish sea superstitions. Space sailors coddle space superstitions. In the captain's cabin where Kinrade

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THIRD TIME DOES IT!

They had believed it at the start when the crew had number-ed nine. They would believe it at the finish, though reduced to six. But in between times there had been and might again be bad

moments of shaken faith when

men wanted out at any cost, even the cost of death, and to hell with the ultimate purpose of the flight. Moments when men fought other men in effort to break loose from audiophobia, claustrophobia, half a dozen other phobias.

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an oath, a shout, a shot. It had

happened once before, when

Weygarth cracked. It could happen again.

Kinrade was somewhat edgy himself, for he jerked in his seat and slid his left hand sidewise

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great gash of a mouth drooped at the corners. The sad eyes took on an expression of hopeless bafflement. He was clumsily embarrassed.

Recognizing these familiar symptoms, Kinrade became more explicit. "Is Sol visible on the screen?"

"Sol?" Bertelli's hands tangled

together, the fingers like carrots. "Our own sun, you imbecile!" "Oh, that!" The eyes widened

in delighted comprehension. "I

haven't asked."

"I thought maybe you'd come to tell me they've got it spotted at last."

"No, Captain. It's just that I wondered whether you need any help." His expression switched from its accustomed glumness to the eager smile of a fool more

than willing to serve. The mouth lifted, widened so much that it made the ears stick out and reminded the onlooker of a slice

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"Thanks," said Kinrade, more kindly. "Not right now."

Bertelli*s embarrassment came back in painful strength. His face was humbly apologetic for having asked. After shifting around On his big, ugly feet, he went out. As always, he skidded violently on the steel-floored catwalk, regained balance with a clatter of heavy boots. Nobody else slipped at that spot, but he invariably did.

Kinrade suddenly realized that he was smiling and changed it to a troubled frown. For the hundredth time he consulted the ship's register, found it no more informative than on the ninety-nine other occasions; There was the little roster with three names of the nine crossed out. And the same entry halfway down: Enrico Bertelli, thirty-two, psychol-ogist. j

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and deduce the real reason for his

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tiny galley. He nodded briefly and. took his place.

Big blond Nilsen, atomic engineer by choice, plus botanist by

official coercion, eyed Kinrade skeptically and said, "No sun."

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"There ought to be."

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Thrum-thrum went the ship from floor, walls and ceiling.

So you think I'm a sap, do you?" Nilsen leaned forward, stared with aggressive <- expect-ancy.

"Let's eat," suggested Aram, the thin, dark and nervous cos-

mogeologist at his side. "One

belly ache's enough without hunting another."

"That's not the point," de* clared Nilsen. "I want to know

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fastened to the other end of the

table.

Unscrewing it, Bertelli brought

it to his end, sat down, found himself on the extreme edge of his seat. His eyes popped very slightly in mild surprise. He stood, slid the seat forward on its runners, sat again, knocked the salt off the table. Radiating

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shame and self-consciousness, he picked it up, used it in the manner of one emptying a large bucket, practically lay full length on the table to screw it in its original position. That task performed, he squirmed backward with his behind in the air, gained the seat again.

It was the edge and so near that he began to slide off it. The eyes bulged a fraction more widely than before and once again he went through the seat-sliding performance. Finally he sat down, smoothed out an invisible napkin, favored everyone with a look of abject apology.

Taking in a deep breath, Nil-sen said to him, "Sure you wouldn't care for a little more salt?"

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Surveying his own plate a mo«-ment, Nilsen looked up, met Kin-rade's. eyes, asked, "What's this guy got that others haven't got?'*

Grinning at him, Kinrade replied, "That problem is a corker. I've been trying to figure it out and I can't."

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UTTING a pencil-tip to the

screen, Marsden said, "That one looks pink to me, But it may be my imagination."

Kinrade bent close and had a look. "Too small to be sure. A mere pinpoint."

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Bertelli examined the brilliant dot from ten different distances and as many angles. Finally he squinted at it.

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"I don't know," Bertelli admitted miserably.

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"I want to too much." Irri-tatedly, Marsden rammed the pencil back into his pocket. "I thought I'd stand the inward trip better than the outward one just because it would be homeward. I was wrong. I want gre*en grass, blue skies and plenty of room to move around. I can't wait."

"I can," said Bertelli, virtuously. "Because I've got to. If I were

unable to wait, I'd go nuts."

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Leaving the navigation room, he headed toward the galley, still chuckling as he went. Rounding

the farther corner, he let out a low guffaw.

"What's funny?" asked Bertelli, vacantly mystified.

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screen, Kinrade eyed^him with care. "How is it that whenever somebody starts blowing his—** Changing his mind, he let the sentence die out. *Yes, Captain?"

"Oh, forget it.

The ship plunged onward, moaning at every plate.

Vail appeared presently, coming off duty and on his way to eat. He was a short man of great width, with long arms and powerful hands.

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that Sol should become visible in the screen almost any time. That gave us a lift. We needed it. I'm no sniveling babe myself, but I must admit I wanted that boost." He surveyed the other with a touch of resentment. "The higher hopes go, the lower they fall when they drop."

"I'm not dropping mine," Kinrade said. "Three days plus or minus is a tiny margin of error in a return trip taking two years."

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I'm suggesting that even the best of us can blunder," Vail gave back stubbornly. "In proof of which, two ships have gone to

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errors," put in Bertelli, looking unconvincingly profound.

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yourself."

"I'm not a trained navigator. "Then shut your trap and

leave other—"

Bertelli broke in with a note of protest. "But I didn't have it open!"

Shifting attention to him, Kinrade asked, "You didn't have

what open?" «.

"My mouth," said Bertelli. He

registered personal injury. "Don't

know why you have to pick on

me. Everyone picks on me."

"You're wrong," Vail told him,

"He—"

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"Yes/' agreed Kinrade, without humor. "What a laugh!"

Going to the screen, Vail examined it. "Which one does Marsden think is Sol?"

"That one." Kinrade pointed it out for him.

Staring at it hungrily for quite a time, Vail finished, "Oh, well, let's hope he's right." Then he

departed.

Left alone, Kinrade sat in the navigator's chair and looked at the screen without seeing it. His mind was on a problem that might be real or might be imaginary.

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ARAM cracked next day. He got a dose of "Charlie," the same psychotic behavior pattern that had put an end to Weygarth. There was a technical name for it, but few knew it and fewer could pronounce it. The slang term came from an ancient, almost forgotten war in which the

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rear-gunner of a big aircraft-Tail End Charlie—would think too long of the heavy bomb-load and the thousands of gallons of high octane spirit right behind his perspex parrot-cage, and all of a sudden he'd batter upon the walls of his prison, screaming,

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Slamming his own chair back to the limit of its holding rails, Nilsen went after him with Kinrade one jump behind, Bertelli stayed in his seat, a forkful of food halfway to his mouth, his gaze fixed blankly on the facing wall while his big ears remained perked for outer sounds.

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door. Rubbing his knuckles, Nil-sen grunted to himself, checked the airlock wheel to make sure it was holding good and tight.

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Returning to the galley, Nilsen resumed his interrupted meal, said to Kinrade, "Good thing he didn't think to swipe a gun."

Kinrade nodded without answering. He knew what the other

meant. Weygarth had tried to hold them off with a gun .while he prepared his dash to false freedom on a blast of air. They could not rush him without risk-ing serious loss. They'd had to shoot him down quickly, ruthlessly, before it was too late. Weygarth had been their first bitter casualty only twenty months out.

And now they dared not suffer another loss. Five men could run the ship, control it, steer it, land it.- Five represente d the absolute

ed forever to a great metal coffin thundering blindly amid the host

of stars.

It brought up yet another of the problems that Kinrade had not been able to resolve, at least

to his own satisfaction. Should an airlock be fastened with a real lock to which only the captain

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Oh, well, they were homeward

bound, and when they got back he'd hand over the log and the detailed reports and leave the big brains, to work it out for themselves* That was their job;

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It took less intelligent, less imaginative types—the cow-mind

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or let-up. There was another problem for Earth's bigbrains to mull, a* while: dull-witted people were tops for endurance, but useless functionally. Bright minds were essential to run the ship, yet somewhat more likely to go

phut, evejn though only temporarily.

What did this add up^to? Answer: the ideal space crew should

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with hsgh I. Q. A contradiction in v terms.

Now that he came to consider it, the thought struck him that

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He was liked, all right. In fact, he-was popular in a way. Bertelli had other accomplishments about as genuinely useful on a .spaceship as a skunk's smell-gun at a convention. He^ could play

several musical instruments, sing in a cracked voice, mime in really funny manner, tap-dance with a peculiar sort of loose-jointed clumsiness. After they'd got over their initial irritation with him, they had found him amusing and pathetic—a bumbler they were sorry to feel superior to, because they couldn't-: think of anyoni who wouldn't be superior to him. The schemers back home

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Vail came in, paused at the sight of them. "I thought you'd finished ten minutes ago.

"It's all right." Nilsen stood up, brushed away qrumbs, gestured toward his chair. 'Til go watch

the engines."

Getting his tray and meal, Vail seated himself, eyed the others.

"Whaf s up?"

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Not the nicker of emotion crossed Vail's face. He made a vicious stab at his food, said, "The Sun would bring him out of that condition. That's what we all want, a sight of the Sun."

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poked at the tray with the handle. Then he lifted the handle toward his mouth.

"I'd try the other end," advised Vail, watching with interest. "It's sharper."

The eyes lowered, studied the fork while gradually they took on an expression of vacant surprise. He made a childish motion indicative of helplessness. Finally

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Kinrade noticed that flip* Vail didn't, but he did—and for once he got a strange, uncanny feeling that Bertelli had made a very small mistake, a tiny error that might have passed unseen.

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Leaning his elbows on the table, Vail said in a harsh voice and with great significance, "That is precisely the point!"

Bertelli's eyes dulled into complete confusion. He fidgeted with his tray, knocked his fork around without noticing it. Still looking at Vail, he felt for the fork, picked it up by the prongs, absently "He's okay, just gets jumpy

HEN Kinrade was in his cabi*, the intercom called on the desk and Marsden's voice said, "Aram's just come out of it. He's got a sore jaw, but he seems cooled down. I don't think he needs another shot—yet."

"We'll let him run loose, but keep an eye on him for a while," Kinrade decided. "Tell Bertelli to stick close. He has nothing better to do."

"All right." Marsden paused, added in lower tones, "Vail is pretty surly lately. Have you

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now and again. Don't we all?"

"I suppose so." Marsden sounded as if he'd like to say more, .but he didn't. He cut off and the intercom went silent.

Finishing the day's entry on the log, Kinrade examined himself at the mirror, decided he'd put off a shave a little longer. This was his idea of petty luxury; he disliked the chore, but lacked the courage to grow a beard. Other men, other notions.

He lay back in his chair and enjoyed a quiet think, first about

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the planet called home, then the men who had sent this ship into space, then the men who were flying it with him. They'd been trained for the job, these six who, for the first time, had reached

another, star, and their training had incorporated a certain amount of useful flexibility. The

three spacemen among them had been given superswift education in some branch of science. The scientists had undergone courses in space navigation or atomic en-

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gineering. Two aptitudes per man. Then he thought again and eliminated Bertelh.

Pre-flight education had gone further than that. A baldheaded old coot who bossed a lunatic asylum had lectured them on space etiquette with every air of knowing what he was talking about. Each man, he had exolain-

about his fellows, to wit: name, age and qualification. No man must ask for more nor seek to pry into another's private life.

Unknown lives provide no basis for irrational prejudices, antagonisms or insults, he had said.

Empty personalities don't clash so readily. So it was established that none might urge another to reveal what made him tick.

Thus Kinrade could not probe the reasons why Vail was irritable above the average or what made Marsden more impatient than others. He could not determine from past data why Nilsen potentially was the most dangerous or Aram the least stable. Neither could he insist that Bert-elli explain his presence in understandable terms. Pending successful completion of the flight, each •man's history remained hidden behind a curtain through which, from time to time only insignificant items had been glimpsed.

After most of four years existing cheek by jowl with these

people, he had* come to know

them as never before—but not as he would know them some day in the green fields of Earth when the flight was a bygone event, the tabu was broken and

they had memories for free discussion.

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to dump right in the laps of the experts. It concerned lifers in penitentiaries. Not all criminals are stupid, he believed. Many might be intelligent, sensitive men somehow pushed or kicked - off the path called straight and narrow* Walled up, some of them would get a dose of Charlie, try to bust out, beat up a warder, anything anything to escape—and be rewarded for their efforts with solitary confinement. It was like treating a poisoned man with an even more powerful dose of what 'had made him ill. It was wrong, wrong. He was convinced of that. There was a reformist streak in Kinrade.

Upon his desk he had a neatly written scheme for the treatment of lifers likely to go psycho. It involved constant individual observation and the timely use of occupational therapy. Whether of not it was practical, he didn't know, but at least it was constructive. The plan was his pet. He wanted leading penologists to play with it, give it a serious tryout. If it worked—and he felt that it should—the world would have derived one benefit from this flight in a way not originally contemplated. Even that alone

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gruffly.

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I switched on the autopilot/ Marsden said. "It will hold her on course four or five hours. You said so yourself."

"True." His eyes examined them. "Well, why the scowling deputation?"

This is the end of the fourth day/' Nilsen pointed out. "Soon we'll be into the fifth. And we're still looking for Sol."

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"And then?"

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Sliding open a drawer in his desk, Kinrade took out a large roll of paper, spread it across the top. Its multitude of tiny squares bore a large number of dots and crosses amid which a thick, black line ran in a steady curve.

"This is the return course."

His fingers indicated several

crosses and dots. "We can tell

by direct observation of these

bodies whether or not we are on

course. There's only one thing we

can't check with absolute accuracy." 1

"What's that?" inquired Vail, frowning at the chart.

"Our velocity. It can be esti-mated only with a five per cent margin of error, plus or minus. I know we're on course, but not precisely how far along it. Hence the four-day lag. I warn you that it can extend to as much as ten."

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"Of course they don't." Kinrade displayed impatience* "We're not at the same point. The star field will have circum-ferential displacement."

"We aren't without brains despite not being trained naviga- ship.

tors;" Nilsen gave back. "There is displacement. It progresses radially from a focal point that is not the pink spot you claim is Sol. The point is about halfway between that and the left edge of the screen." He gave ,a loud sniff, invited, "Can you talk yourself out of that one?"

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Peering at the chart, Nilsen thought a while, asked shrewdly,

"If you are sincere, what's the

absolute margin of error?" "I told you—ten days." "Nearly half of those

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half."

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"Thanks!" said Kinrade, faint* ly sarcastic.

"After which we'll either see Sol and identify it beyond doubt or we'll have a new captain and be heading for the nearest light."

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"Maybe. But we'll find some-

one else."

"Then I insist on being considered. One dope is as good as another for making a mess of

things."

"When it comes to that, we're not in the same class," replied Nilsen, feeling that his efforts were being subtly sabotaged, "You can out-boob me with your big. hands pinned to your big " He looked over the others.

"Isn't that so?"

They grinned assent.

It wasn't Nilsen's triumph. It was somebody else's.

Merely because they did grin.

BERTELLI organized another party that night. For once his

birthday was not the pretext. Somehow he'd managed to celebrate seven birthdays in four years without anyone seeing fit to count them all. But an excuse can be overdone, so he announced his candidacy for the post of captain, explaining that he wished to curry favor with voters. It was

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They cleared the galley as they'd .done a score of times be-

fore. They broke a bottle of gin, snared it between them, sipped with introspective gtumness. Aram did his party-piece by bird-calling between two fingers, received the usual polite applause. Marsden recited something about the brown eye of the little yellow dog. By that time Nilsen had warmed up sufficiently to sing two songs in a deep, rich bass* He gained louder applause for having varied hisrrepertoire.

Weygarth, of course, wasn't there to do his sleight-of-hand tricks. Sanderson and Dawkins were also missing from the MIL Temporarily, their absence was forgotten as the tiny audience awaited the star turn.

Bertelli, of course. This was the sort of thing at which he ex -celled and the chief reason why a major nuisance had become tolerated, liked, perhaps loved.

When they'd held the alien landfall spree, he'd played an oboe for most of an hour, doing more things with the instrument than they had believed possible, He had ended with a sonic im-pression of an automobile collision, the agitated toot of horns, the crash, the heated argument

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ranged for no reason other than the hell of it. Bertelli had mimed for those, his dental plates removed, his features rubbery, his arms like snakes. First the eager sailor leaping ashore and seeking a chance to play his own strumpet. The search for talent, the discovery, pursuit, encounter, rebuff, the persuasion, the going to a show, the strolling home, the pass on the doorstep rewarded with a black^eye.

Another time he'd reversed the role, become a plump blonde followed by a hungry sailor. Wordlessly, but with motions, gestures, posturings and facial expressions equal to if not better than speech, he had taken them on the night's prowl ending with the fight on the doorstep.

This time he pretended to be a bashful sculptor shaping a statue of Venus de Milo with invisible clay. Piling up a column of what wasn't there, he hesitantly stroked it, nervously patted it, embar-rassedly smoothed it into near-visible form. He rolled two cannon-balls, plonked them on her chest while covering his eyes, rolled "two pills and shyly put them on top, delicately molded them into shape, glanced fright -enedly around, then bestowed a hurried kiss on his own handiwork.

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himself, Bertelli shot to his feet,

drew his bottom lip over the tip of his nose, waggled his bat-ears, closed his eyes, made one violent stab with a forefinger—and provided Venus with a navel.

For days afterward, they

chuckled over that performance, making curvaceous motions with their hands or prodding each other in the paunch at odd moments. The ghostly Venus stayed

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Sol was identified. They looked at it, licked lips over it, looked again. Four years in a bottle is like forty years in the star fields

and they had been bottled' too long. One by one they visited Kinrade's cabin and exulted over the superstition on the wall.

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"From where I'm standing, I can see an ocean of faces turned toward the sky," said the announcer. "There must be half a million people present, sharing the most eventful hour in history. At any moment now, folks, you will hear the distant drone of the first spaceship to return from another star. I just can't tell how much

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It ended at last. Kinrade said farewell to his crew? felt the bear-trap grip of Nilsen's hand, the soft, frank clasp of Aram, the shy, self-conscious touch of Bertelli.

Looking into the latter's mournful eyes, he said, "The authorities will now start howling for all the data we've got. I suppose you've finished your book."

"What book?"

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passage of time, Bancroft sat paunchily behind his desk, said with satirical satisfaction, "You are now looking at a fat man wallowing in the joys of promotion

and higher salary.** "Congratulations.* Kinrade

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go home."

'A 'copter will pick me up when it can get through the overcrowded air. I have twenty min-> utes to spare.

"In that case I'll use them/* Bancroft leaned forward, eyes in* tent. "What about the first two

ships?"

"We searched seven planets

Not a sign.

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"No.

"So they must have gone on?

Evidently. Any idea why?** Kinrade hesitated, said, "It's a hunch and nothing more. I thinlc their numbers were reduced by accident, sickness or whatever. They became too few to retain control of the ship." He paused, added, "We lost three men our*

serves."

"Tough luck." Bancroft looked

unhappy. "Who were they?"

"Weygarth, Dawkins and San«

derson. The first died on the way

out. He never saw the new sun*

much less his own. The story m

there." He gestured toward the

reports. *The other two were

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"What's wrong with it?'*

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"A big and hungry life-form exists under the surface, sitting with traps held open beneath a six-inch crust of soil. Sanderson walked: around, fell''into a red, sloppy mouth four feet wide by ten long. He was gulped from sight. Dawkins rushed to his rescue, but dropped into another." His fingers fumbled with each other as he finished, "There was nothing we could do, not a damned thing."

"A pity, a great pity." Bancroft shook his head slowly from side to side. "How about the other

planets?"

"Four are useless. Two are

made to measure for us."

"Hah, that's something!" He

glanced at the small clock on his

desk, continued hurriedly, "And

now the ship. Doubtless your reports are full of criticisms. Nothing is perfect, not even the best we've produced. What do you consider its most outstanding

fault?"

"The noise. It could drive you

out of your mind. It needs cutting

out."

"Not completely," Bancroft

contradicted. "There is psychic terror in absolute silence."

"All right. Then it needs cutting down to more endurable

level Try it yourself for a week

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and see how you like it.

being beaten, although slowly. We have a new and quieter type of engine already on the test-bench. Four years' progress, you

know."

"We need it," said Kinrade*

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ever. They ought to be. We skimmed the world for the cream nothing less was good enough* Each man was tops in his own

particular line.

"Including Bertelli?

"I knew you'd ask about him Bancroft smiled as if at a secret thought. "You want me to explain him, eh?"

"I've no right to insist, but I'd

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certainly like to know why you included such a dead weight."

"We lost two ships," said Bancroft, looking serious. "One could be an accident. Two were not. It's hard to believe that an exceptional kind of breakdown or a collision with a lump of rock

or some other million-to-one chance would occur twice run-

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"I don't believe it myself.

"We spent years studying the problem," Bancroft continued. "Every time we got the same answer: it wasn't due to any defect in the vessels. The cause

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ment, Short of a four-year test on living men, we could do no more than speculate. Then one day the likely solution popped up by sheer chance." "How?"-

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"We were in this very room, beating our brains for the hundredth or two-hundredth time, when that clock stopped." He indicated the timepiece facing him. "A fellow named Whittaker from the Space Medicine Research Station wound it up, shook it, got it going. Immediately afterward a brainwave hit him, kerplonk!"

Picking up the clock, Bancroft opened its back, turned it to-ward his listener.

"What do you see?" "Cogs and wheels." "Nothing else?"

"Couple of coiled springs. "Are you sure that is all? "All that matters," declared Kinrade, having no doubt.

"Wrong, dead wrong," said

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Bancroft, positively, "You have made precisely the mistake we made with ships number one and two. We built giant metal clocks, fitted them with human cogs and wheels accurately designed for their purpose. Cogs and wheels of flesh and blood, chosen with

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choose parts for a, fine watch. But the clocks stopped. We had overlooked something that Whit-taker suddenly thought of."

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A LITTLE OIL

"Well, what was it?"

Bancroft smiled and said, "A little oil."

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"Oil?" exclaimed Kinrade, sit-ting up.

"Our error was natural. In a technological age, we technicians tend to think we're the whole cheese. We aren't. Maybe we're a very considerable slice, but we are not the lot. Civilization is composed of others also, the housewife, the taxi driver, the dime store salesgirl, the postman, the hospital nurse, the corner cop. It would be a hell of a civilization built solely on boys pushing studs of cornputor-machines and without the butcher, the baker, the candlestick-maker. That's a lesson some of us needed to learn.**

"You've got something," Kinrade agreed, "but I don't know what."

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"We had another problem in our laps," said Bancroft. "What sort of oil must you use for human cogs and wheels ? Answer: human oil. What kind of individual specializes in being oil?" Lnd you dug up Bertelli?"

"We did. His family has been oil for twenty generations. He is the present holder of a great tradition — and internationally famous."

"Never heard of him. I suppose he traveled with us under a false

name?"

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"I didn't recognize him," Kin-rade persisted. "Neither did anyone else. So how can he be famous? Or did he have his face altered by plastic surgery?"

"He changed it completely ki one minute flat." Getting up, Bancroft lumbered to a filing cabinet, opened it, sought through several folders. Extracting a full-plate glossy photography, he slid it across the desk. "All he did to his face was wash it."

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Picking up the picture, Kinrade

stared at the chalk-white features, the cone-shaped hat set rakishly On a high, false skull, the huge eyebrows arched in perpetual surprise, the red diamonds painted around the mournful eyes, the

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son ear-to-ear mouth, the thick ruff of lace around the neck.

"Coco!"

"The twentieth Coco with which this world has been blessed," Bancroft confirmed.

Kinrade had another long look.

•'May'I keep this?*

"Certainly. I can get a thousand more copies a**y time I

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INRADE emerged from the

Administration Building just

in time to see the subject of his thoughts in hot pursuit of a ground-taxi.

With a shapeless and hurriedly packed bag swinging wildly from

one hand, Bertelli went along m exaggerated, loose.-jointed bounds with big boots rising waist-high, while his long neck protruded forward and his face bore

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ludicrous expression of woe.

Many a time the onlooker had been puzzled by the fleeting familiarity of one of Bertelli's poses or gestures. Now, knowing

what he did know, he recognized instantly the circus jester's classic anxiety-gallop across a sawdust ring. To make it complete, Bertelli should have been casting frightened glances over one shoulder at a floating skeleton attached to him by a long cord.

Bertelli caught up with the taxi, bestowed an inane smile, slung his bag inside and clambered after it. The taxi whirled away with twin spurts of vapor from its underbody jets.

For a long minute, Kinrade stood looking absently at the poised spaceships and the sky. His mind was viewing the world as a gigantic stage on which every man, woman and child played a wonderful and necessary part.

And holding the whole show to-* gether with laughter, exaggerating temper and hostility and con* flict into absurdity, was the clown.

If he'd had to assemble the crew, he couldn't have picked a better psychologist than Ber-< telli.

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