The
Splendor Falls
Rosemary
Clement-Moore
To Mom.
For a thousand and one reasons.
Genius is another word for magic, and the whole point of magic is
that it is inexplicable
--dame margot fonteyn, prima ballerina
prologue
For months, I relived the pas de deux in my dreams, in that
multisensory Technicolor of a memory I'd much rather forget. Nothing ever
changed: the backstage perfume of sweat and hair spray. The heat and glare of
the lights. The delicious coil and spring of my muscles as I moved through the
choreography as if it were a spontaneous outburst of the joy I felt when I
danced. The glorious triumph over gravity as Pasha lifted me over his head, and
I was untethered, not just from the stage, but from the earth.
2
If I could have forced myself to wake up then, it would have been
better. Like dying happy. But the dance played out in measured beats, as
unchanging as a reel of film.
Pasha set me down, soft as moonlight; the orchestra covered the
hollow tap of my pointe shoe on the stage. I balanced on one leg, the other
stretched up behind me, prolonging the illusion of flight.
I could never say what went wrong in the next eight bars. The
stage was clean, my pointe was solid. It wasn't even a particularly difficult
combination. Come down to fourth position, port de bras and changement to
second position and a quick series of chaîné turns.
Right foot, left foot, right ... then a strange crunching sound
that seemed to come from inside my head. Without knowing how I got there, I was
facedown on the stage, and the murmurs of the audience were escalating with
worry. In my dream--my memory--I tried to get up, but Pasha held me down,
lapsing into panicked Russian. I didn't have to understand the language to know
that something had gone very wrong.
It's funny how so much can hinge on one missed step.
Not funny ha-ha. Funny that the moment that should have been the
pinnacle of my seventeen years on this planet ends up making me famous for the
entirely wrong reason.
So I really don't mean funny so much as "tragically
ironic."
Dancers get injured doing the flashy things, jetés and échappés.
I mean, who the hell breaks their leg on a turn they teach in the tiny-tots
class?
3
Me, I guess. The month before, I'd gotten a full-page write-up in Ballet
Magazine. The month after, I was a tragic item in a sidebar to an article
on insuring your legs, Betty Grable style, against career-ending injuries.
Sylvie Davis, the youngest-ever principal dancer for American
Ballet, suffered a compound tibia and fibula fracture in front of hundreds of
horrified audience members during her stunning debut at Lincoln Center.
At least I knew how to make an exit.
4
5
***
Chapter 1
I wanted to hate Alabama, and nothing about my arrival
disappointed me.
To be fair, there aren't many places that are easy to fall in love
with in ninety-degree heat and eighty-five percent humidity. The bumpy flight
from my connection in Atlanta, on a minuscule plane with doll-sized seats,
hadn't helped. And that was before some snafu at the gate forced us to deplane
on the tarmac and ride a bus to the terminal.
I'd been out of my walking cast for two weeks. My leg
6
throbbed like a sadistic metronome as I limped down the concourse,
and the toes of my right foot were swollen like fat pink cocktail weenies.
Gigi's carrier bag hung from my shoulder, my fingers white-knuckled on the
strap. It's bad enough to dread something; it's even worse when the pain of
moving forward is more than metaphorical.
I could rest a minute, sit down between the barbecue restaurant
and the souvenir shop with the Confederate flag coffee mugs. For that matter, I
was inside the security checkpoint. No one could come in and get me without
buying a plane ticket. I could just live here until my mother and her new
husband got back from their honeymoon and reported me missing.
Granted, that wouldn't really help convince them I no longer
needed to see a psychiatrist.
Settling for a brief rather than indefinite delay, I ducked into
the bathroom. It was empty, so I put Gigi's bag on the counter while I splashed
water on my face and reapplied some lip gloss. Makeup has never been a priority
with me--at least not offstage, which means all the time now. But whenever my
mother was losing a fight, she always took a moment to freshen her lipstick.
Eventually I figured out this was how she bought time to think up an
irrefutable argument.
I was merely stalling the rest of my life.
Gigi gave a soft yip of discontent. I unzipped the top of her
carrier so that she could stick her head out, then filled her travel bowl from
the half-empty Evian bottle in my purse. The dog took a few indifferent laps,
then blinked at me. Her subtext seemed pretty clear: What the hell is your
problem?
7
Was it wrong to have a problem with being shipped off like an
unwanted parcel to stay with a relative I'd met only once? I vaguely remembered
Cousin Paula from Dad's funeral, pressing my mother's hand in gentle sympathy,
even though Mother and Dad had been divorced for three years. But as she'd said
on the phone, in her Scarlett O'Hara accent, "Kin is kin," and she
was happy to have me visit.
Maybe I shouldn't be dreading this. These were my father's family.
This was my chance to learn where he came from, because Dad had never spoken
much about his background. Which raised the possibility that he might have left
Alabama to get away from these people.
A thin blonde wheeled her carry-on into the rest-room. Gigi
pricked her ears forward adorably, but the woman just shot the dog carrier a
dirty look before disappearing with a sniff into the handicapped stall. It was
as though thinking about my mother had invoked her eviler twin.
I should correct that. My mother is not evil. She's merely
self-absorbed. I can be, too.
For sixteen years, our self-interests coincided more often than
not. I lived to dance, and she loved having a ballet prodigy for a daughter. So
her lack of maternal instinct didn't really affect me until The Accident (it
was hard not to think of it in capital letters) ended my skyrocketing career
right as it left the atmosphere.
The Accident had also turned me into a child again. I'd been a
professional dancer. I'd traveled to Europe and Asia with the company. Nine
months of surgery, casts and titanium rods later, I was a seventeen-year-old
8
"unaccompanied minor"--thanks a lot, Delta Air
Lines--pawned off on distant relatives to be babysat.
The infuriating thing was, Mother knew very well how
self-sufficient I was, because she'd taken full advantage of it while dating
her new husband. I think if it had been up to her, she would have left me on my
own while she went off on her two-week honeymoon.
But "Dr. Steve" hadn't considered it an option. I was
emotionally fragile, at a crossroads, major cognitive realignment, blah blah
blah. God, I hated shrinks.
He wasn't even my shrink, just my new stepfather.
So, I couldn't be left alone for two weeks in our Upper West Side
apartment with only Gigi, the security staff, the doorman and all the take-out
food in Manhattan for company. It would do me good, he said, to get away from
the City, the reminders of my old life, and have a change of scenery.
The unspoken thread in this pronounced sentence was that the
godforsaken wilderness of the Deep South was the perfect place for me to dry
out. A drastic measure, just because I drank myself unconscious at their
wedding. Imagine what he would have suggested if he knew about the
hallucinations.
***
If I hadn't broken my leg, Mother wouldn't have married Dr. Steven
Blakely. She'd known him casually through one of her arts organizations, and
since he was a premier child psychologist, she'd called him after The Accident.
Dr. Steve had referred me to his colleague
9
one floor down, and asked my mother out to dinner and a show.
They were married while I was still in a walking cast, but Mother
insisted that I process down the aisle with the wedding party. That wouldn't
have been a big deal if she had gotten married in an intimate little chapel
like a normal divorcee of ... let's just say thirty-nine. But eighteen years
ago, she and my dad had eloped; maybe she thought a big wedding would make
marriage stick the second time around.
The reception was in the Cotillion Room of the Pierre hotel. The Pierre,
in May, with three months' notice. Dr. Steve had pull. There must be a lot
of messed-up kids in Manhattan. No wonder my mother looked so happy.
At least one of us was. After my third or fourth glass of
champagne I wasn't any more miserable than usual. Which was actually an
improvement over the earlier part of the afternoon. Then my new stepbrother
ruined it.
He sauntered up, looking amused and friendly, and said, "Nice
cast."
John Blakely was in college, a few years older than me. Despite
being Dr. Steve's son, he seemed almost normal just then, his Ivy League
haircut mussed up and the ends of his bow tie hanging loose around his open
shirt collar.
"Thank you, Mr. Tactful," I said, giving him the eye.
He shrugged. "I figured you wouldn't have gotten that color
if you didn't want people to notice it."
Yes and no. I hated the cast, and I hated that
10
Mother had made me lurch up the aisle like Igor in a Vera Wang
bridesmaid dress. So at my checkup, when I learned that I'd still be hobbling
through the Big Day, I'd asked the guys in the cast room for Day-Glo orange.
Later, my shrink would have a lot to say about that. My mother sure as hell
did.
I admired the way the cast clashed with the pinkish mauve of my
silk dress. "It's not like I can hide it."
For some reason, John took this as an invitation and pulled out a
chair, fortunately not the one where I'd propped my throbbing leg, and sat
down. "So you're hiding yourself in the corner instead?"
Prior to the Big Day, John and I had met twice. Once at the Four
Seasons, where my mother and his father announced their intention to get
married, as if the choice of restaurant weren't a dead giveaway. And again at
the rehearsal dinner. Our conversations so far had consisted of: wedding,
wedding, weather, wedding.
"Some people would take that as a hint," I said, because
I wasn't in the mood to broaden our established repertoire.
John blatantly ignored the clues, spoken and not, that I was a
pity party of one. "I just thought we should get to know each other, now
that we're related." He set down his drink--soda and something warm and
amber. No one had carded me for the champagne, but I doubted I could ask for
real liquor and get away with it. Unfortunately.
"Dad told me you were a dancer."
My face went clammy, then hot again. You were a dancer. He
said it so casually, so conversationally, and I
11
wanted to scream, I was famous. Ballet Magazine. Youngest
principal dancer ever.
He kept talking, oblivious. "Dad says you'll be going to
college next year."
I swallowed my first gut reaction. Then the second. Eventually a
civil answer presented itself. "Your dad thinks it's a good idea."
From the way his brows drew down, I hadn't hidden my feelings on
the subject--of school, or of his father.
"Why not?" he asked. "You've got your GED, right?
It might be too late to apply for this fall, but you could study for the SAT
and try for midterm admission."
My cheeks began to burn. Pale skin hides none of my emotions, and
no one had ever accused me of being beautiful when I was angry. "Did he
tell you to talk to me?"
John's surprise seemed genuine. "No. Why would he do
that?"
"Why are you making like a guidance counselor?" I could
hear the venom in my voice, but couldn't seem to control it.
His tan hid plenty, but my eye spotted a guilty flush on his neck.
"I'm just making conversation."
"Oh my God." The realization hit me and I slithered down
in my chair. "You're a psychology major, aren't you? I should have
known."
He stared at me. "How did you ... That's not the point."
"You're just like him." I expected a lack of sympathy or
imagination from the stepshrink, but not from
12
someone my age. "His idea of comfort was to tell me I
was lucky this happened while I was still young and could do something else
with my life."
John frowned, like he was searching for the right answer on a
quiz. "Well, I would have said that no matter how old you are, it's not
too late to go in a new direction when something doesn't work out."
His calm ratcheted my anger up another notch. "It must be
easy," I said, clipping the ends of my words, "not to be so
passionate about anything that you can't change your plan without any
trouble."
Not a flinch or a blink. "Well, you can't sulk the rest of
your life. You've got to find something to do."
I gaped, stupidly, unable to think of any answer other than
"screw you." Or bursting into tears, which was not going to
happen. Shutting my mouth with an audible snap of my teeth, I maneuvered my
fiberglass-swathed limb to the floor and struggled out of my chair. I wanted to
surge indignantly to my feet and storm away, but it's hard to lumber off
in a huff.
John's voice followed me, carrying something that sounded like
regret. "Sylvie, wait."
The jazz combo was loud enough that I could pretend I didn't hear
him. Mother was dancing with Steve, and she looked so happy that guilt topped
off my reservoir of misery. I grabbed a glass of champagne from a passing
waiter, then realized I would have to run the gauntlet of theater and dance
people near the ballroom entrance, and I couldn't face their hushed, funereal
tones as they asked how I was doing.
Rerouting, I ducked out the service entrance and
13
paused in the hallway between ballrooms to dig in my tiny,
spangled bag for the Vicodin I'd slipped into my aspirin bottle, just in case.
My leg hurt, but my leg always hurt. At the moment I was only thinking about
easing the ache in my heart.
It was a low dose. Half of what I took on the worst days. I downed
it with five big gulps of midgrade champagne, set the glass on the service tray
and headed for the lobby.
Mistakes are always so clear in retrospect.
John emerged from the door behind me. "Where are you
going?" he asked, taking his new big-brother role much too seriously.
"Away." I suited actions to words, but moved too
quickly, tottering on my one good leg and catching myself on the wall.
John steadied me on the other side. "How much have you had to
drink?"
"Just champagne." I decided not to mention the Vicodin.
It hadn't had time to work yet. And, in my cast, it wasn't as if I needed help
staggering.
"I need some air." It was too close inside, stifling
with good cheer. I headed not for the lobby, but for the Fifth Avenue entrance.
John caught up with me as I was looking for a break in traffic.
"What are you doing?" he demanded. Behind him, I saw the doorman
staring, like he'd never seen a girl with a broken leg try to cross Fifth
Avenue midblock before.
"I'm going to the park." I shivered. It was mid-May, and
the evening air was still cool.
14
John's fingers gripped my arm above my elbow. "You can't
wander around Central Park after dark by yourself."
That my plan seemed perfectly reasonable should have been a sign I
was a lot more drunk than I thought I was.
"It's barely dusk."
"Your leg is in a cast."
I looked down, not in surprise, exactly. The throb of my leg was
constant, blending into the background of my misery. Then something would
remind me, Sylvie, your leg is broken, and the ache would come flooding
back.
Maybe I had reached that point with my emotions, too. I'd ground
through the whole day, and now self-pity and passive-aggressiveness weren't
enough to distract me any longer. "I want to go to my dad's bridge."
Something must have shown in my face. Tightening his jaw in
decision, John stuck out his arm and hailed a cab. He had the knack of a native
New Yorker, but I think it may have been my Day-Glo orange cast that got results
so quickly on a Saturday evening.
***
Technically, my father's bridge was called an arch, not a bridge,
and it wasn't "his" to anyone but me. The directions I gave the
cabbie were to Greywacke Arch.
The trip was longer than it would have been by foot. By feet,
rather, if I'd had two working ones. The driver took the East Drive and I had
him stop before
15
reaching the stone arch that bridged the path from the Ramble to
the Great Lawn.
It was a struggle just to maneuver my cast out the door. I left John
to deal with the cab and limped to the side of the drive. The ground fell away
steeply to the path below; covering it was the pointed arch, like something
from a Moorish temple. The striations of its stone were still visible in the
dusky light.
A million familiar city noises covered John's footsteps, but I
felt his approach--body heat, a change in the air pressure. Sensing people
behind me was a skill I'd developed in dance; it's handy to know who's
upstaging you.
"I can only keep the cab waiting for five minutes."
Kicking off my shoe, I thrust my beaded evening purse into his
hands and stepped onto the grass. "There's forty dollars in there."
"Not really the point. Where are you going?" He
nervously positioned himself between me and the drop-off. "Let's not risk
life and remaining limb, okay? My dad would kill me if he knew I was ..."
"Knew you're what?" I challenged. "Enabling
me?"
"Yeah. That." From the corner of my eye, I saw him slip
off his jacket. He settled it, the fabric warm from his body, on my shoulders,
defrosting my skin and, unexpectedly, something deeper inside me, too.
"Thanks," I said softly.
"Don't mention it." He gestured to the bridge.
"What's the connection? Your dad was a landscaper, right?"
"Landscape architect," I corrected, automatically,
16
but the distinction seemed important. "The arch was
originally built a hundred fifty years ago. Restoring it was Dad's first big
job."
I pointed westward, through the trees. "He worked on the
reconstruction of the lawn and Turtle Pond, too."
"I remember that. Big project."
"Yeah. This arch is my favorite, though." The slope to
the tunnel was a tangle of lush plantings and tumbled boulders. Like the rest
of Central Park, it was an artful illusion of random, natural beauty--exactly
like ballet.
"My father would have understood." The words slipped out
on a sigh, surprising me. I hadn't meant to say them out loud. My head was
spinning; the whole night seemed to be alive, and moving in strange ways.
"Did he get to see you dance as a soloist before he
died?"
"Yes." A shrink-type question, but I found myself
answering anyway. Stupid self-medicated truth serum. "He was already sick,
but I didn't know it."
I kneaded the toes of my left foot into the grass, with the
strange feeling that it connected me to Dad, through this ground that he loved
so much. "He worked until the very end. He said getting his hands in the
dirt energized him, like a plant in the earth."
I was the opposite, a cut flower without roots, no longer attached
to the nourishing soil. Melodramatic, yes. But that's how I felt not being able
to dance.
John was watching me, but not with a shrink's critical neutrality.
Maybe he wasn't completely ruined by the training yet. "Did you get his
green thumb?"
17
"I don't know. Dad always sent me potted plants instead of
bouquets, and I managed to keep those alive." I didn't quite smile.
"Mother used to get so angry that he wouldn't spring for a couple dozen
roses."
John echoed the humor in my voice. "I'll bet. That reception
alone must have cleaned out a couple of hothouses."
I might have laughed, if I were the person I used to be. Instead,
I pulled the pin from the boutonniere on the lapel of his tuxedo jacket and let
the flower drop into my hand. "When I was a kid, and saw Dad transplant
cuttings, it looked like magic. You put this little sprig of green in the
ground, and it takes root--keeps growing instead of dying."
Now I knew it wasn't magic. Some things could be replanted, or
even grafted onto something new. Some wouldn't take. What I didn't know was
which type I was.
"Back then," I continued, while I peeled the florist
tape from the boutonniere, "I thought that worked on anything. That it
would fix toys, china, dolls ..."
John sounded amused. "That could have been grim, if you'd
experimented on a house cat or something."
"No kidding." He watched, obviously curious, as I
lowered myself on one leg, sliding my cast out to the side. I was still
impressively limber, and I think the Vicodin was starting to work, making me
feel loose in body, and in mind. Because I didn't know why else I was telling
him this, or why I was even going through these motions.
"I came up with this sort of spell of my own." Working
my fingers through the webbing of grass roots, into
18
the sod, I made a little hole. "If there was something
important that I wanted to take root, metaphorically speaking, I would plant
it. Like this."
I dropped the boutonniere--a miniature calla lily that echoed the
big ones in Mother's bouquet--into the ground.
"That's kind of sweet," said John. "I thought you
hated my dad."
With a sigh of reluctant admission, I folded the sod over the lump
of the flower. "I can't hate anyone who seems to be making my mother
happy."
John laughed. "Now I know you're drunk."
I chuckled slightly, mostly at my own whimsy. He must be right. I
was never whimsical. Not since The Accident.
Still squatting on one leg, I laid both palms on the bump in the
grass and pressed it down. A tingle ran up my arms and back down again. I
seemed to see-- or sense, rather--a wave rippling out from under my hands, like
I'd dropped a rock in a pond.
The world tilted, off-kilter for a moment, and I lost my balance,
my arms windmilling to catch myself. I fell onto my butt and things righted themselves
with a thump. "Whoa."
"Nice one, Sylvie." John bent to pick me up under the
arms. "Way to use that dancer's grace."
I was too flabbergasted to retort. "Did you see that?"
"What?" he asked, setting me carefully back on my feet.
"Your magic spell?"
My mouth opened to say "Yes!" when I realized that
19
he was being sarcastic. Because magic spells were crazy. And I was
just superstitious. And probably drunk.
"I don't feel so good." My stomach fluttered and
twisted, though the dizziness came and went.
"I'm not surprised."
The cabbie honked his horn. John turned and marched
me--figuratively speaking, hobbled as I was by the cast and all--back to the
taxi. He had the big-brother thing down. I wasn't sure I liked it, but at that
moment, I wasn't sure I didn't.
"My shoe," I said, when my bare left foot hit the
pavement.
He grumbled but made sure I had my feet under me before heading
back for it with a curt "Stay here."
Of course I didn't. I limped past the taxi, to the other side of
the bridge. In the wintertime, I would have been able to see clearly to the
Great Lawn--the big swath of level ground where, during the day, dogs would
chase Frisbees and kids would play baseball. It was May, so my view was
interrupted by the new foliage, but not blocked like it would be in summer.
That, plus the moon and the ambient light from the city, left me frowning at
the scene.
John came up behind me again. "Hey. I thought you were going
to get in the cab."
"I was, but ..." The vista wavered as I stared.
"Are they doing some sort of historical reenactment?"
"What are you talking about?"
I pointed through the trees. "The village of cardboard
lean-tos out on the lawn." I tried to remember the last time I'd been in
this area of the park. I'd been
20
lost in self-pity for a while, but this was something even I would
have noticed.
John glanced toward the lawn, his brows drawn in confusion.
"You mean, like a Hooverville? The ones built during the Depression?"
That was what I meant, but I didn't understand his confusion. Then
I realized, he didn't see it. But the people who moved through the tumbled huts
cast shadows in the moonlight. I could see the glimmer of a lantern, hear the
crackle of a camp fire. The evening chill carried the damp-earth smell of
cooking turnips and the mournful whistle of someone trying to cheer himself up
after another long day of fruitless searching for work.
I stared at the shades in the twilight, all silhouette and gloom,
and the trees around me swayed. No ... that was me. I was swaying. Was this
what being wasted felt like? I was dizzy and confused and somewhat
judgment-impaired, but I still felt in control of my faculties. Certainly not
so far gone as to be hallucinating in Central Park.
"Sylvie." John caught me by both shoulders and bent to
look into my eyes, blocking my view of the town and the sad people in it.
"Level with me. How much did you have to drink?"
"Just some champagne and ..." I stopped before
mentioning the Vicodin. Or, maybe more important, before confessing that I was
seeing images he wasn't, some strange five-senses film reel from one of the
Park's major moments. And while this seemed surreal but reasonable to me in my
buzzed state, I could see
21
where such a confession could lead to a seventy-two-hour hold for
observation at some nice private hospital upstate and away from gossip.
Drunk was better than crazy, and as John's face dipped and swam in
front of me, I wasn't faking anything when I answered, "Maybe more than some.
I lost track."
He blew a short strand of hair off his forehead. "Great."
Darkness crawled in from the edges of my vision. "I think I'm
going to pass out." Considering how my brain was whirling, my voice
sounded weirdly matter-of-fact. I had to warn him, because he was going to have
to catch me. "Don't tell your dad, okay?"
My knees went limp just as he pulled my arm across his shoulders.
"I won't."
He'd been so nice to me that I actually believed him. But I'd
forgotten: Shrinks always stick together.
22
***
Chapter 2
A growl brought me back to the present; Gigi had discovered her
reflection in the mirror. I heard the toilet flush, and figured I'd better make
an exit before Cruella de Vil came out of the stall.
Besides, I'd procrastinated long enough. Cousin Paula might be the
type to send airport security to look for me. The public story was that I was
visiting my father's family to give Mother and Steve a chance to honeymoon and
set up house. But I didn't doubt for a moment that the stepshrink had told
Dad's cousin that
23
I was some kind of teen-starlet substance-abuse cliché, and needed
"special handling" while I "worked through some things."
Which was Upper West Side speak for "sobered up."
I checked my reflection--a matter of habit before going
onstage--smoothing back a few pieces of mousy brown hair that had slipped from
my bun, checking my teeth for lip gloss. My skin was pale and the fluorescent
lighting emphasized the purple shadows under my eyes. Lovely.
My eyes continued downward, over my girly T-shirt and jeans. They
were a little loose; I'd kept the weight off, even though I'd never have to
worry about lifts again. Just to delay leaving, I moved my sweater from tied
around my waist to draped over my shoulders, not because I was cold, but
because the pale pink color made my face look less like the walking dead. It
was all about the costuming.
"In the bag, Gigi." The dog obediently tucked her front
paws into the carrier. Feeling rebellious, I let her ride with her head
sticking out so she could watch the world go by. At least one of us should be
having fun.
By the time I reached baggage claim, the arrivals had thinned out.
I cast my eye over the remaining people, looking for Paula. Unfortunately, I
wasn't sure I could pick her out of a lineup, let alone a crowd.
I didn't see anyone searching for me, so I headed for the baggage
carousel. Unlike Dad's cousin, my fuchsia suitcase was easy to spot. No
porters, though. I scanned the area, trying to look like a big tipper, but
realized I was on my own.
24
Switching Gigi to my right shoulder for counterbalance, I grabbed
the handle of my suitcase as it came by. The trick was keeping the majority of
my weight on my left foot; the orthopedic surgeon had declared my right leg
healed--finally--but its muscles were still weak. I had physical therapy
exercises to do while I was here, and a referral to a Montgomery specialist if
I had any trouble. I didn't intend to have any trouble that required a
specialist. Not for my leg, or my head.
I managed to lever the suitcase onto the edge of the carousel, and
stood in an uncomfortable arabesque while I tried to figure out how to pull it
down without knocking my good leg out from under me. That would be an awkward
headline: Ex-ballerina flattened by actual baggage. Overdose of irony suspected.
"Careful there." The masculine voice startled me, but
not nearly as much as the arm that wrapped around me, bracing the heavy
suitcase. My normal instinct-- the one that told me when someone was coming up
behind me, the one that told me to scream "fire" instead of
"rape" if someone grabbed me--all short-circuited with a tangible
fizzle so strong that I was surprised I didn't smell smoke.
My inhale of alarm carried in a whiff of herbal soap, but it was
the scent of clean air and damp earth that filled my head and took me to a
strange place, so I seemed to be simultaneously standing in an airport in
Alabama and someplace wild and wet and green. The only constants were the
steadying arms around me, and the feeling that my heart was going to beat out
of my chest with anticipation, or fear, or both.
25
It was dizzying, unnerving, like confusing a memory with a dream.
For an instant--the nanosecond between information coming in and my brain
processing it--I was certain that if I turned around, I would know this
guy.
My heart squeezed with real fear then, at the thought that reality
was going slippery on me. Again. But before panic could do more than flex its
claws, the moment ended. The eerie feeling of recognition vanished, leaving
just a perfectly normal rush of Wow, someone smells really nice in its
wake.
A calloused hand covered mine on the suitcase handle. "I have
it. You can let go."
I couldn't place the accent. Not the expected drawl, but a
rounded, liquid slurring of syllables. Vaguely British, but too soft to be
Scots or Irish. A tiny echo of remembrance tingled down my neck, but that might
have merely been the musical inflection of his voice so close to my ear.
Belatedly, I snatched back my hand and took a discreet step out of
the way while he, whoever he was, got the luggage under control. I covered,
hopefully, my lapse in composure by checking on Gigi--who had prudently
retreated into her carrier during the suitcase wrangle.
I can be very pragmatic about personal space. Doing lifts and
holds with a partner, you don't have the luxury of modesty. I'd probably had
more guys' hands on my no-touch zones than any other virgin in America. Yet
there I was, flustered and blushing, tingles zipping over every point where our
bodies had touched.
26
This, at least, was normal, even if it wasn't exactly normal for
me.
Jeez, Sylvie! Stop being such a girl. He could be hideous, or
old, or have three eyes. And it wouldn't matter, because he was a random Good
Samaritan whom I would never see again.
"Sylvie Davis?"
Or he might be a stalker. A crazed ballet-fan stalker. Stranger
things had happened. It figured they would happen to me. It had been that kind
of year.
"Hello? Miss?"
Gigi prairie-dogged up from her bag to acknowledge the greeting. I
steeled myself and turned, clamping the carrier securely against my side in
case I had to run.
A tall young man stood holding my suitcase. Not hideous. Not old.
The normal number of eyes, at least where I could see. They were unusual,
though, an earthy sort of green that darkened around the edge of the iris. His
hair was brown, curling where it touched the top of his ears and the edge of
his rugby collar. His face was handsomely chiseled, with the clean, symmetrical
lines of classical art. The Romantic period-- strong brow, straight nose, firm
jaw. Gainsborough, maybe. There was a rustic look to the fall of his hair and
in the way his cheeks and nose had been painted warm by the sun.
He didn't look much older than me; I guessed twenty or so, the
same age as John the fink. But much more ... just more.
"You are Sylvie Davis, yes?" He waved a hand
27
in front of my face. Gigi lunged playfully, a mile off the mark,
but the stranger drew back his hand anyway.
I blinked, and shut my gaping mouth. It was a little harder to get
my thoughts back into line.
"Do I know you?" It was a rhetorical question. Momentary
weirdness aside, I knew I would have remembered if I'd met him before.
"No." The word was blunt, but not unfriendly. "I'm
Rhys. Rhys Griffith." He pronounced it like "Reese," but with a
tiny flip of the r. "Your cousin Paula sent me in to fetch you."
I hardly knew Paula, but that didn't seem right. I was
"kin," after all. "Is there something wrong?"
He smiled, slightly. Apparently I was easier to read than I liked
to think. "She's waiting with the car in the loading zone. Not to
worry."
That was more in keeping with the woman I'd spoken with, albeit
briefly, on the phone. It didn't explain this guy, however.
"Is it only the one case?" he asked, while I tried to
fix my mental bearings.
"No. There's a smaller one for the dog." I pointed out
Gigi's suitcase on the conveyer belt, and he grabbed it and set it down in
front of me, giving my brain a chance to catch up a bit.
"How did you recognize me?" I asked.
He looked me over, teasing, I think. "Skinny girl, hair wound
up tight in a bun, posture like the Queen of England? There's really no
mistaking you, Miss Prima Ballerina."
28
Now my native suspicions kicked in, and I narrowed my eyes. "How
do I know Paula really sent you?"
"She said you'd be prickly, and likely too stubborn to admit
you needed help with your baggage because of your leg."
I tightened my jaw--stubbornly. "The whole world knows I
broke my leg."
"Maybe." He telescoped out the handle on the suitcase
with an efficient twist, then raised one expectant black brow. "But who
knew you and your designer-purse dog would be in Birmingham, Alabama, today,
princess."
With that sally, he headed toward the exit, wheeling my big
fuchsia suitcase behind him. He moved with an easy gait, comfortable in his own
skin. I stared stupidly for a moment, then realized he was leaving with all my
clothes.
I pulled out the handle on Gigi's case--it held her collapsible
crate, her toys and all her food--and hurried after him, gritting my teeth
against the hitch in my step. I didn't always limp, but it had been a long,
tiring day. The physical therapist said it was unreasonable for me to expect
bone and muscle to rehabilitate overnight. Obviously she didn't know me very
well. I was used to expecting unreasonable things from my body.
Fortunately, Rhys wasn't walking very fast. I was able to catch up
without too much effort or embarrassment. Gigi, happy to be moving again, gazed
around avidly. Airports were full of interesting people--and smells, I suppose,
from the canine perspective.
29
"She's not a designer-purse dog," I said, panting
only slightly.
"No?" He glanced down at me, and slowed his steps a
little more. I'm tall enough that I can look most guys in the nose, if not the
eyes, but my head barely reached his chin. "What's her name?"
I clenched my teeth and answered. "Gigi." He laughed and
I bristled defensively. "It's short for Giselle."
Actually, she came with the name Gigi, and I'd decided it was
short for something less ridiculous. I'd gotten her from a socialite who didn't
want her when she--the dog, I mean--turned out to be inconveniently large. That
is to say, too big to fit into Prada's new "it" bag.
"She's a secondhand reject dog, and she's quite vicious.
She'll bite you if you're mean to me."
The vicious dog had propped her front paws on the bag, her ear
fluff blowing in the breeze, like she was joyriding from my shoulder in her own
mini sports car.
Rhys looked us both up and down. " 'Though she be but little,
she is fierce.' "
Humor broadened his accent, exaggerating the roll of the r
and the length of the vowels until it was almost unintelligible.
"You're not from around here, are you?"
"What was your clue?" he asked, smiling in profile.
I skirted around a woman with a cell phone and hair like a helmet.
"The accent. And insulting me with a Shakespeare quote."
30
He slanted me an unrepentant look. "Is 'fierce' an insult on
this side of the Atlantic? My apologies."
"I meant the 'little' part, if you really mean skinny."
He didn't answer, which I took for an affirmative. I switched the hand pulling
Gigi's suitcase and shifted the carrier to my other shoulder. "How do you
know Paula?"
"My father and I are staying at your cousin's place while Dad
does some work in the area."
I wrestled with the logistics of that, since I was staying
there too. "Is her house particularly large?"
"Large enough." He glanced at me. "We won't be
getting underfoot, if that's your worry."
"No." By which I meant yes, because the other thing in
my suitcase besides clothes was books. I intended to park myself on the veranda
or under a magnolia tree or whatever they had here and read until it was time
to return to civilization. "Just worried about bathroom space."
My steps slowed as we reached the exit--a revolving door flanked
by two sets of regular ones. Airports were transitional, an extension of the
plane that got you there, and a link to the place you came from. Stepping
outside and putting my feet on the ground--the real ground, not the
tarmac--somehow seemed a bigger commitment than getting on the plane in New
York.
Rhys straight-armed the crossbar and held open the door, standing
back to let me pass. With Gigi's carrier over my shoulder, I had to edge
through sideways. I held my breath, not because the fit was so tight, but to
avoid the possibility of another head trip. Imagining
31
things while I was drunk was one thing. Weird déjà vu with a
stranger in the airport, on the other hand ...
I chanced a quick peek up at Rhys and found him studying my face
as if there would be a pop quiz later. It was a serious expression, and when my
eyes met his, he didn't look away or apologize for staring. He merely raised
his brows from their scowl of concentration, and gave me a quick, rueful smile
that stopped me in the doorway.
The sounds of the busy airport retreated. Behind him, I could see
the steady spin of the revolving door, people coming and going, while I stood
on the threshold with Rhys, neither in nor out. The heat and humidity bathed
one half of me; the air-conditioning chilled the other. And from the guy
sharing the doorway, a different sort of warmth entirely.
"Don't look like that, love."
The endearment startled me, but he said it like an American guy
might say "dear" or "honey"--if a guy could manage to say
it without sounding patronizing or sexist. Rhys managed to make it merely a
friendly word, like buddy or Mac.
"Look like what?" I tried to sound normal, which was a
trick, when I hardly remembered what normal was.
"As if you're walking into the lion's den." He nodded
toward the outside, both punctuating his statement and gesturing for me to get
on with it. The intimacy of the moment was gone. "Chin up. I'm sure you'll
feel at home in no time."
I wasn't sure I had a home anymore. It wasn't merely
3i
32
about Mother and me moving in with Steve. The ballet studio had
been where I lived. The sweat-soaked air, the squeak of rosined toes on the
floor. Our apartment had only been a place to sleep at night, to kill time
until I could get back to the studio.
Now I would never dance again, and my whole life had become about
killing time, about waiting. But for what, I had no idea.
33
***
Chapter 3
I couldn't have described Cousin Paula from the single time I'd
met her, but I had no difficulty finding her in the loading zone outside the
airport. Not once I'd gotten my sunglasses on and stopped staggering from the
heat, anyway.
Rhys wheeled my suitcase toward a white sport-utility wagon. The
middle-aged woman standing beside it smiled when she saw me, and came to meet
me on the sidewalk. She was medium tall, matronly around the middle, with
gray-blond--I suppose ash blond would
34
be more tactful--hair in a ubiquitous Southern style: layered bob,
fringy bangs, lots of volume. Big hair. Once again, Alabama did not disappoint.
"Thank heavens," said Cousin Paula, her drawl thick with
relief. "We were running so late, I was worried we would miss you."
"Where would I go?" I asked, not meaning to be snide. It
was a miserably literal question. I had nowhere else to be.
"Well, honey, it doesn't matter. Rhys found you, and you're
here." Smiling, she took my shoulders in her hands. "We'll be on our
way back to Cahaba and get you set to rights in no time."
I think she meant well. But I didn't need "setting." I
just needed--well, that was the question of the hour. My mother, the
stepshrink, my real shrink, my physical therapist--everyone seemed to know what
I needed, except me.
I caught Rhys's eyes on me as he placed the suitcase by the rear
of the vehicle, ready to load. The scrutiny reminded me of my manners.
"Thank you, Cousin Paula. It was kind of you to invite me to stay with
you."
That, at least, I could say genuinely, and she seemed pleased,
even as she demurred. "Heavens, child, it's your home, too, for all that
your daddy ran off to the big city."
She motioned toward the car, and started to take my arm, but there
was a dog in the way. Gigi gave a friendly yip, and my cousin recoiled with a
gasp. "Good lord." She stared at the bag, her hand pressed to her
heart. "What in the world is that?"
35
I glanced down as if I didn't know which "that" she
meant. "This? My mother's idea of therapy."
"She didn't mention you were bringing a dog," said
Paula, not quite aghast, but not exactly charmed.
Gesturing to the airport doors, I said, not quite joking, "Is
it a problem? Because I can see if the airline will let me fly back
early."
"No, of course not." Her tone, though, was doubtful as
she eyed the dog. "But where is she going to sleep? She can't run loose,
and the garden fence won't hold her."
"I have a crate for her." My small gratitude for Paula's
hospitality was fading, replaced with growing trepidation. "But mostly she
goes everywhere with me."
My cousin's mouth turned down, making long, unhappy dimples. Gigi
cocked her head, cranking the cuteness dial all the way up to irresistible.
Rhys cleared his throat. "If you'll let me take that case,
Sylvie ..."
"Oh, heavens," said Paula, as if only now realizing we
were standing in the loading zone. "We can talk just as well on the ride
to the house. Do you want front or back?"
"Whichever," I said, letting her choose. She sounded so
syrupy sweet on the phone, I hadn't bet on her being such a force of nature. As
she slid into the front passenger seat, I noticed that her khaki capris showed
a few wrinkles from the drive, but it hadn't erased the creases of careful
ironing. This just kept getting better and better.
Wheeling Gigi's suitcase to the open trunk, I eyed
36
the back of my cousin's head and lowered my voice to ask Rhys,
"So, what's with the soccer mom wagon?"
It wasn't the smoothest way to look for some hint as to whether or
not Paula had kids. But I didn't think it deserved the coolly sardonic look I
got from Rhys. "Sorry I couldn't manage a limousine, your highness."
I flushed, and pushed my sunglasses onto my nose, painfully aware
that the prominent Dolce & Gabbana logo would seem to prove his point.
"Don't be silly," I said, matching his tone. "I would have
settled for a Town Car."
Rhys responded with a sound halfway between a scoff and a laugh as
he stowed the last of my luggage, maneuvering the heavy suitcase easily into
the trunk next to the first one. The broad shoulders under his rugby shirt
weren't just for show, then. Where his sleeves were pushed up, I could see that
his hands and forearms were corded with muscle, crisscrossed with the fading
remnants of scratches and cuts.
It had been so long since I'd felt anything other than miserable,
it took me a moment to recognize curiosity when I felt it. "What did you
say you were doing in Alabama?"
"I didn't," he said, shutting me down, but with
amusement, finding my perfectly logical question funny for some reason.
I cast my mind back through our conversation, filtered through his
digs about my diva dog, and realized it was true; he hadn't said much of
anything about himself. That was both frustrating and unnerving. How could I
know nothing about him, but feel so familiar with the twitch of humor at the
corner of his mouth, as
37
if the expression had irritated and fascinated me for years?
He closed the hatch while I was ruminating, and I found myself
staring at a magnetic sign adorning the back of the car. It read: BLUESTONE
HILL INN, CAHAWBA, ALABAMA. Under the lettering was a romanticized depiction of
an antebellum-style house, overshadowed by a huge, blossoming tree.
"Bluestone Hill?" I asked, trying to tie together the
picture, the name, the word "inn" with the scraps of things Dad had
said about his childhood.
Rhys put a hand on the top of the SUV and turned to me, as if I'd
asked a stupid question. "Bluestone Hill. Don't tell me you've forgotten
the name of your family estate."
I ignored that as another gibe at my divaness, because if the
Davises were some kind of landed gentry, surely Dad would have mentioned it.
"I mean the 'inn' part. Paula runs an inn? Is it a bed-and-breakfast or
what?"
"It's a work in progress, actually, but ..." He broke
off and frowned at me, seeming genuinely baffled. "How did you not know
that?"
I shrugged uncomfortably, relaxing my jaw when it wanted to get
tight and defensive. His disbelief was valid. Reasonable people took some
interest in where they were going. Like I needed the reminder I wasn't
reasonable. Confronted with my ignorance, I felt worse than stupid for not
asking questions. It seemed a little nuts, and since that night in the Park,
that wasn't something I said lightly, even in my head.
"I had other things on my mind," I said, feigning
38
carelessness, justifying my ignorance to both of us. "And my
mother made most of the arrangements."
Glancing at Gigi, who panted placidly in the sticky heat, Rhys
acknowledged, "There does seem to have been some breakdown in
communication."
He smoothly managed the trick of reaching the door before me and
opening it. The idea of climbing into another vehicle, so soon after I'd gotten
my feet on the ground--or at least the asphalt--twisted another loop into the
weary knot in my stomach. I struggled for a moment with how to fold myself into
the backseat with any grace or dignity, then gave up and clambered awkwardly
in.
"All set?" asked Paula, twisting around to look at me.
I set Gigi's carrier on the seat and tried to find a comfortable
position. Alleged divahood aside, a Town Car would have had more
legroom. I settled for stretching my leg out beside Gigi, and tried not to
groan as I slipped off my shoe and wiggled my toes. "Much better."
"That's good," Paula said as Rhys circled to the
driver's side. "I figured if you wanted to, you could go to sleep back
there. Traveling always wears me out."
"I can never sleep in a car." Or a plane, or a bus. I'd
gotten a lot of reading done while on tour with the company.
Gigi wanted to get out of her carrier and into my lap. I needed a
better stretch, and a pain pill, but I settled for digging the bottle of Advil
from my purse and swallowing three gelcaps with a swig of bottled water.
39
I waited until Rhys got behind the wheel and buckled his seat
belt, then made a stab at needling him in return for that "princess"
business. "I'm impressed, Cousin Paula. A British chauffeur. That's very
high-toned. Your guests at the inn will be very impressed."
In the rearview mirror, Rhys shot me a narrow-eyed glare, but
Paula just laughed. "If I could afford to offer him a job, I would. As it
is, he's been so helpful and tolerant with the work on the house, I hardly
think of Rhys or his father as guests at all."
As the chauffeur in question pulled the car onto the road, I took
the opportunity to find out whether there would be crack-of-dawn power-tool
wake-up calls. "How is the work on the inn going?"
Rhys gave a soft snort. He knew that I hadn't known until two
minutes ago that there was an inn at all. He didn't mention that fact, and
thankfully Paula missed his nonverbal commentary.
"Oh, lord," she said, as if revving up for a recitation.
"You would not believe the work we've done on the old place. There's still
so much left to do, sometimes I don't know where I'll get the strength. This
project is half cursed, half blessed, I think."
"What makes you say that?" I admit that my interest was
merely polite. But talking distracted her, and I was able to slip Gigi from her
carrier and into my lap, which made us both happier.
Paula shrugged. "Oh, I suppose we've just met the normal
roadblocks. Hundred-year-old plumbing, vintage copper wiring--"
"Installing an extra loo on the second floor," added
40
Rhys, his eyes on the road as we approached the entrance ramp to
the highway.
"Exactly!" said Paula. She glanced back at me, but
didn't seem to notice the dog. Probably because I'd slipped off my sweater and
covered Gigi with it. "But your great-great-great-grandfather--or however
many it is--knew what he was doing. The house is solid as a rock. There have
been some major expenses, but otherwise things have magically fallen into
place. And of course, I'm lucky to have Clara."
Crap. Was I supposed to know who that was? In the rearview mirror,
Rhys looked amused at the hole I'd dug for myself. "Um ... so, Clara's
been a big help?" I asked vaguely.
"I couldn't ask for a better business partner," said
Paula. "It helps that she's an amazing cook. She's kept us all fed. And
her daughter recruited the Teen Town Council to help with rebuilding the
summerhouse. They've been great."
"The Teen Town Council?" Her tone had definitely
capitalized the words, and I repeated it the same way.
Paula waved a hand. "You'll meet them. Bluestone Hill makes a
good meeting place, so they're always around."
I glanced at Rhys again to see his latest reaction. But he was
gazing straight ahead, his hands on the wheel, as if the road required more
concentration than a four-lane divided highway warranted.
Paula reached across and patted his shoulder. "And of course,
Rhys and his dad are a godsend. They needed a cheap place to stay and didn't
care that we're not even open--goodness, not even ready yet."
41
Some tension--maybe I had been imagining it--ran out of him, and
he smiled, entirely genuine. "There's a bed and there's Clara's stellar
breakfasts. We can't ask for a better situation."
"Even when I recruit you to drive me to Birmingham." She
glanced over her shoulder to tell me, "I don't like to drive so far by
myself."
I wanted to ask more about Rhys and his father's situation, but
this last comment distracted me. "How far a drive is it?"
Rhys looked at his watch. "Less than two hours. We should be
there in time for a late supper."
"Two hours?" Gigi squirmed in my lap, as if she
knew what we were talking about. "We're going to need a rest stop before
then."
Nodding, he changed lanes. "There's a spot on the way."
We'd quickly left the suburban homes and strip malls, and were now
on the tree-lined interstate. I usually had a very good sense of direction, but
I was slow to get my bearings after the tiring trip. I had no idea where we
were, except, apparently, a long way from our destination.
"I need to fire my travel agent," I grumbled.
"Any large airport would be a bit of a drive," Rhys
said.
Paula confirmed this with a chuckle. "Yes, we're really out
in the sticks."
"And you're opening an inn?" I asked. "Who do you
expect to stay there?"
"Oh heavens. People come from all over to hunt and fish or
just enjoy nature. There's antique shopping,
42
we're on the way to Mobile, and Selma's not far away at all."
I couldn't decide if I was more annoyed or appalled at myself for
not asking these questions before I'd left New York. I could have at least
looked the place up on a map. "What's the name of your town again?"
"Well, the Hill is the country, a few miles from a charming
little town called Maddox Landing." Paula spoke with some pride and a lot
of tour-guide enthusiasm. "I expect you'll know everyone's name within a
day or two. They're all looking forward to meeting you."
"Oh God." I didn't realize I'd groaned aloud until I
sensed her bristling in the front seat. No taking it back, I guess. "Why
would they want to do that?"
"Because you're a Davis, of course." She'd pokered up,
her back ramrod straight, giving me a disapproving look over her shoulder.
"It would behoove you to be a little gracious if folks want to welcome you
home."
A quick rush of remorse scorched my ears. I was being ungracious
and ungrateful. The fact that this wasn't my home seemed like a
pointless argument. Especially with someone who used "behoove" in a
sentence without the slightest irony.
I didn't want to look at Rhys, but I couldn't help that any more
than my blush. He was watching me again, but not with disapproval or sympathy.
Just that same, studying look, as if I were a puzzle he was trying to figure
out.
Join the club. I didn't even know what was going on with me
lately. He would have to stand in line if he had questions.
43
And I was going to have to figure it out here, in Alabama. Land of
my father's birth. Back end of nowhere.
It was so weird to have Paula talk about this being my home, when
I'd never been here, never even really discussed it with Dad. I knew he left
when he was eighteen. As far as I can remember, he never returned, though he
must have kept in touch with Paula, because she'd known about his funeral.
The highway wound around the smoothly tumbled remnants of the
Appalachian foothills. In places it dipped down between trees and lush vines
that knit everything together into a comforting canyon. Then it would crest one
of the hills and, across the tops of the trees, I could see a panorama of green
spread out in a dizzying vista.
I rubbed my hands over my eyes. My body was stiff and aching and a
dizzy, disconnected feeling was invading my brain and moving down to my
stomach. I'd been traveling since six a.m. Eastern Standard Time-- taxi, 747,
turboprop commuter plane and now the soccer mom wagon. It all seemed to fall on
me at once, an avalanche of exhaustion.
"Next exit," said Rhys, as if he'd read my mind.
Paula glanced at him. "You aren't going to wait until
Clanton?"
It figured she was a backseat--well, a passenger seat--driver. But
Rhys took it in stride. "I thought the rest stop would be better for her
to walk the dog. Lots grass.
That was what we needed. If I could just put my feet
44
on the ground, walk around a bit, I'd feel so much better.
Gigi squirmed restlessly as Rhys put on the turn signal and slowed
to exit the highway. By the time he pulled into the paved horseshoe in front of
a swath of green dotted with picnic tables, my hand was on the door latch,
braced for escape.
I grabbed Gigi's leash from her bag and climbed out, not bothering
to put on my shoes. I probably should have been worried about glass or other
nasty things, but I was mostly interested in feeling the grass under my feet,
burrowing my toes down until I reached the cold soil beneath.
Setting Gigi onto a stretch of lawn away from the picnic tables, I
did just that, sinking my toes into the grass like I was putting down roots.
The queasiness vanished, and a few deep breaths later, my head stopped
spinning. Like magic.
I immediately wished I hadn't thought that. It was merely an
expression, or it had been until that night in the Park with John. Before I had
started second-guessing every whimsical thought that flitted through my
imagination.
Really, Sylvie ? Magic ?
No, not really. I don't think magic exists.
Whew. Then I must not be crazy. Today, at least.
Except then I had to worry about talking to myself. I couldn't
win.
From behind me, I heard the car window roll down. "Sylvie,
honey, where on earth are your shoes? Have you lost your mind?"
45
The question made me laugh. After that, I couldn't pretend I
didn't hear her, so I called over my shoulder, "I'll just be a second,
Cousin Paula."
Gigi, after some searching, found an acceptable spot to christen
and I left her to it while I looked around. The rest stop consisted of the
paved crescent, the grass we occupied, and the concrete picnic tables, all
ringed by a wall of trees. The warm breeze carried a hint of the woods beyond,
not really enough to compete with the stink of exhaust from the highway.
A sign warned, ALL PETS MUST BE LEASHED, which was good advice.
Done with her pee, my dog trotted persistently around the clearing, nose to the
ground, which might mean that she wasn't finished, or might mean she was
checking messages from previous canine visitors.
"Don't wander off, Gee."
She glanced at me--her ears pricked, her fluff standing defiantly
out from her head, her plumed tail held saucily over her back--then did exactly
what I'd told her not to.
I sighed. This was not going to win us points with Paula.
In addition to being on the big end of the breed standard for a
long-haired Chihuahua, Gigi tipped the scales on what dog books euphemistically
call an "independent personality." As long as I had a treat in my
hand, she was reasonably well behaved. But other times she was six and a half
pounds of fluffy you-and-what-army.
She pranced purposefully toward a path that led
46
through the trees, away from the concrete picnic tables, the
asphalt circle, and Cousin Paula's soccer mom wagon.
"Gigi! Come back here." The very expensive trainer that
Mom had hired said that I had to be the pack leader, but it was hard to feel
like an alpha dog when most days I didn't even feel like getting out of bed.
At my command, Gigi did pause--just long enough to pull back
her lips in a tongue-lolling smile before she dashed down the path and out of
sight.
Paula called to me as I followed Gigi, and I heard the car door
open, then close. Ignoring both, I stalked after the dog in my bare feet.
A sign with an arrow indicated we were headed to the "Indian
Mound." Great. My dog was going to desecrate an ancient burial ground
within an hour of our arrival in the state.
My feet weren't as calloused as they once were, but the grass
trail was well beaten down. It led to a large clearing, ringed by tall pine
trees that cast long shadows in the setting sun. I'm not sure what I expected
an Indian Mound to look like, but I was unprepared for the house-sized knoll of
grass-covered earth in front of me.
Instead of a dome shape, like a pitcher's mound, it was squared
off, with steeply sloped sides going up twenty feet or more, ending in a flat
top, like a miniature version of the pyramids I'd seen on a vacation in Cancun.
What a bizarre thing. On the far corner was a placard, possibly
explaining the site, but as curious as I was, I was even more interested in
collecting my dog,
47
who sat halfway up the slope of the mound, waiting expectantly for
me to climb and get her.
With a sigh, I did just that, figuring that if this was some kind
of sacred ground, it was better to defile it with my bare feet than with
anything Gigi might leave behind. Rather than risk the steep rise with my weak
leg, I crawled up on my hands and knees. Gigi started to dance back out of my
grasp, but I lunged and caught her. I landed face-first in the grass, but at
least I had the laughing dog in my hands.
I knew, as soon as I pushed myself upright, that I had an
audience. There was nothing weird or magical about it. Just that there must be
some unfair universal law that applied to handsome guys coming along just as
you face-plant in the dirt.
Sure enough, when I rolled over, Rhys stood at ground level,
holding my shoes and looking very entertained. "That was by far the most
graceful belly flop I've ever seen."
Nice. Not even the accent made that go down any easier. On the
whole, I preferred his calling me princess to his laughing at me.
"Thank you." I feigned composure, holding Gigi in one
hand while I brushed at the grass stains on my T-shirt with the other.
"I've had years of training."
"I can tell." He held up my red leather flats.
"Paula sent me."
"Of course." I untangled Gigi's leash from where I'd
draped it around my neck, and clipped it to her harness. "My cousin has a
real steel-magnolia thing going on, I've noticed."
Rhys climbed a few steps up the slope, to my
48
level, his eyes making a sweeping inspection. "Are you feeling
better? You've got some color back in your cheeks."
Falling on my face will do that, not to mention that quick but
close examination that I felt like the warmth of a spotlight. But I let his
assumption stand. "The fresh air helped."
Paula would be waiting, but I couldn't make myself hurry back. To
my surprise, instead of insisting we go, Rhys lowered himself to sit beside me.
Not close. Maybe an arm's length away. It seemed a carefully chosen distance,
though, and I wondered if he felt the same zing of awareness that I did.
He certainly gave no clue, so I determined to do the same and
distracted myself with a look around the site. The shadows of the trees were
lengthening, falling like bars across the clearing. The breeze stirred the
branches, so they seemed to move sinuously toward us as we sat on the eerie
relic of raised earth.
"What was this place?" I asked, my curiosity genuine.
"Do you know?"
Rhys squinted toward the top of the mound, then around the
clearing. "A mound like this usually means a buried structure of some
sort. Unexcavated ruins."
The authority in his answer surprised me, and it must have shown,
because his mouth twisted sheepishly. "My father is a professor of
anthropology at the University of Cardiff. On sabbatical at the moment."
"Oh really." In my world, "on sabbatical"
meant that someone was in rehab or on a diet. "And he picked rural Alabama
out of all the places in the world?"
49
His grudging smile widened a fraction, acknowledging my point, my
persistence. "He's researching a book."
That reluctant curve of his lip was devastating. My heart tripped
all over itself, and I told myself it was merely triumph at having elicited a
smile that wasn't at my expense. "So, you're just here for grins," I
prompted.
He shrugged. "I'm sort of on a break too. So I'm helping Dad
with his research."
I wondered what "sort of" on a break meant, and whether
that was another way of saying "out of university but haven't found a job
yet." Not that I was one to throw stones at people who had their lives on
hold.
"Are you in the same field?" I asked.
"Not exactly." He rose to his feet and climbed a few
steps higher so he could survey the clearing. "But I'm getting a grounding
in the local history. I can tell you that these mounds baffled early Spanish
and French explorers. They considered the natives here too uncivilized to
construct anything like this."
"Of course they did." Gigi had curled up in my lap, and
I ran my fingers through the grass, letting the history draw my imagination
down, wondering what lay beneath the surface.
"Is it something like the prehistoric barrows in
Britain?" I had the strangest sense, not just of being connected to the
earth here, but connected to the past. "That's what it feels like."
"Feels like?"
His voice sharpened on the question, and, when I
50
glanced up, the keenness of his look snapped me back to my senses.
"I mean--" What did I mean? The words had come
out of my subconscious. The one that imagined historical reenactments when I
got loaded. "You know. A vibe." That wasn't too weird, right?
"Some places you just get a sense of them being really old."
"You mean like Stonehenge." The curiosity
vanished--provided I hadn't imagined it--and he spoke with dismissive
condescension. "Every American says that."
Good. That meant I wasn't losing it. But also bad, because I
didn't appreciate his tone.
"I couldn't see much of Stonehenge through the
tourists," I said coolly. "I mean all the other stones and heaps of
earth we saw on that trip. Dad must have dragged me over half of Britain
looking for Iron Age relics. It's like any time your ancestors had a rest stop,
they stood a rock up in the ground."
He tilted his head, either ignoring my snippy tone or simply not
thinking he owed me an apology. "Your dad was interested in standing
stones?"
"My dad was interested in everything that anyone ever did to
decorate a landscape." The words were brusque, but I couldn't keep the
warmth of memory from my voice, for those weeks spent visiting famous gardens
and ancient sites, Dad explaining them with the fervor of a pilgrim.
Rhys gave a considering nod, then went on in a tour-guide sort of
voice that amused me. "Then you know the barrows in Britain are smaller
than this. And
51
older. They're burial chambers, from as far back as four or five
thousand years." He glanced up, toward the apex of the structure.
"The people who built these lived here as recently as five hundred years
ago."
"I love how you British think that's recent."
He turned back to me with a raised brow. "We Welsh think
it's recent, and it is--to everyone but Americans."
My lips curved at that offhand nationalist disdain, even though it
should have annoyed me. I mean, everything annoyed me lately, yet there
I was, sparring with this stranger, feeling a slowly uncurling warmth that I
couldn't even name. When I met his gaze, the moment seemed to hang in time, as
it had in the door at the airport. Except instead of coming or going, in or
out, I was weighing amusement against my usual misery, inexplicable attraction
against confusion and cynicism and common sense.
Well, not inexplicable. I liked his strong features and confident
bearing. Maybe I was just intrigued by the mystery, because he was so miserly
with personal details, and there were so many enigmatic contradictions. He had
the body language of an alpha dog, as Gigi's trainer would say, but he was
spending a slacker summer working for his dad. He talked like a college guy,
but he had the hands of a laborer. There was probably a very boring
explanation, and if I knew it, this unsettling ... whatever it was ... would go
away.
Gigi stretched and yawned in my lap, making me wonder how long
we'd been sitting there. "We should start back," I said.
Rhys winced. "I'm surprised Paula hasn't used the
52
horn." He descended the ridge, then held out a hand to help
me. "Don't forget your shoes."
I sighed and put them on. The right one was tight on my still
swollen foot, but I'd live until I got back in the SUV. Instead of taking
Rhys's waiting hand, I dropped the end of Gigi's leash into it and made my way
off the slope by scooting on my rear end. Might as well make the back match the
front.
Gigi scampered happily down, and I reclaimed her leash from Rhys.
He gestured for me to go ahead of him on the path. It wasn't far, but the
vegetation was thick, with dense, broad-leafed vines encroaching on even the
cleared areas, creating a wall between this eerie world and the prosaic one
where Paula waited in the car.
"So, who's Clara?" I asked, mentally, as well as
physically, returning to the road ahead.
Rhys held back a branch, looking amused but answering helpfully.
"Paula's business partner. She handles the cooking. She and her daughter
live on the property."
"And this Teen Town Council?" I ducked under his arm.
"What kind of fifties throwback is that? Are Wally and Beaver members? Do
they put on shows in the barn?"
He paused on the path, just before the last bend that would put us
in sight of the car. I stopped too, and turned to find him studying me again. "You
truly don't know any of this?"
It was more of a voiced realization than a question, but I pointed
out testily, "I wouldn't be cramming like the five minutes before a pop
quiz if I did."
53
Gigi waited impatiently at the end of her leash. It was nothing
compared to how impatient I expected Paula to be. Still he held me back with a
question. "But ... it 15 your ancestral home. You have no interest in
that?"
I felt a hard jab of anger, because the question forced me to
admit with feigned carelessness, "Dad didn't talk much about his
family."
His brows drew together, and I wondered why this was so
incredible. "Yes, but to come here knowing nothing about Paula, or where
you'd be staying--"
"Honestly?" I cut to the chase. "By the time I
realized I wasn't going to be able to get out of coming here, it was too late
to ask questions."
"How is that?" he asked, starting again toward the car.
Falling in beside him, I let my mouth twist just a little, in a
rueful smile aimed at myself. "Because by then they'd closed the door of
the plane."
54
***
Chapter 4
I made a liar out of myself by dozing off once we were back on the
road. One moment I was watching the Appalachian foothills roll into lush
timberland. The next, I found myself slumped over at a very uncomfortable
angle, the deceleration of the vehicle sliding me into consciousness.
I'd hoped my nap had gone unnoticed, but I heard Paula say, in a
drawl that just barely carried over the noise of the engine, "Should I
wake her up, do you think?"
55
If I read Paula correctly, this was a rhetorical question. But
Rhys answered anyway, his voice almost inaudible. "Maybe when we turn off
the highway."
The top of Paula's big hair nodded. That was all I could see from
my semirecumbent position. Gigi was curled up, not in her bag, but beside me,
and my legs were splayed in a very unladylike way.
"Y'all took forever coming back from the Indian Mound."
My cousin's tone was soft, and not quite idle. At least, it didn't seem that
way to me. "What did y'all talk about?"
I searched my memory, trying to think if I'd said anything weird
to Rhys, the way I'd slipped up with John in the Park. Hoping I hadn't said
"déjà vu" out loud.
Rhys paused as if considering his answer, and I braced myself.
"Archaeology, mostly. The site is an odd thing to find in the middle of
Alabama."
"Well, I guess it is." Her next question came out almost
regretfully, as if she was sorry to have to ask. "But she didn't seem ...
upset to you? It was hard to tell when she bolted out of the car without even
her shoes."
I must have tensed, because Gigi lifted her head. I brushed her
with my fingers to keep her quiet as Rhys answered. "I think she was out
of sorts from traveling. Why?"
Paula gave a laugh that almost sounded natural. "Just don't
want to start off on the wrong foot, is all."
I felt a simmer of anger in my chest. The obvious translation was:
"Just watching for signs my cousin is as messed up as her stepshrink said
on the phone."
56
Because I didn't put that past Dr. Steve. After all, patient
confidentiality didn't apply, since I'd never been his patient.
Not that it kept him from interfering in my life.
Gigi looked up with sleepy disdain, and I realized my hands had
fisted and the leg she was lying on was tense and hard. Her nap interrupted,
she stretched and gave herself a tag-jingling shake.
I seized on this as an excuse to wake up. Cracking an eyelid, I
pushed myself upright, rubbing the kink in my neck.
"Where are we?" I didn't have to fake disorientation.
Dusk had fallen early, accelerated by the trees that lined the two-lane road.
Rhys answered with a brief glance over his shoulder. "You
slept through Selma. We've just turned off the state highway."
Paula self-consciously fluffed the back of her hair, which had
been squished only slightly by the headrest. "Did you have a nice
nap?"
"Yes, thank you," I answered, extra polite, hoping she
felt guilty for talking about me behind my back.
The road wound through the trees. The only signs of
civilization--though I use the word generously--were a trailer up on blocks
and, further on, a clapboard house with a sagging roof.
"I thought you said Bluestone Hill was near a town," I
asked as we came to a fork in the road.
"It is." Rhys gave a nod to the right before turning
left. "Go down this road, and you'll come to Maddox Landing."
57
No sign of the town through the forest. An uneasy sense of
isolation fluttered behind my breastbone, as if the thread that connected me to
my own life, to the rest of the world, was spinning out, growing thinner and
more fragile as we drove. The next mile, the next turn, might break it
completely.
The trees closed in, their canopies thick with spring growth.
Spanish moss hung from the branches, hurrying the dusk. Rhys turned on the
headlights, the beams casting a comforting glow. Gigi had adjusted herself into
a ball of fur in my lap and I stroked her slowly, soothing myself more than
her.
I must have shivered or made a sound, because Rhys reached for the
thermostat. "Are you cold?"
The action was solicitous, automatic. My answer was the same.
"I'm fine."
"We'll be home in a minute, honey," said Paula. She kept
calling it "home," which was just bizarre, when my dad had left so
long ago and I'd never thought I'd visit.
"Did you grow up here?" I asked Paula as the road curved
through the tunnel of trees.
She laughed. "Practically. Your daddy must have told you
about the summers we spent here, playing in the woods, hiking up to swim in the
Cahaba River. I wouldn't advise it close to the house, though."
"Why not?" I asked, in rote curiosity.
"Current's too strong," answered Paula. "Though
there's an inlet where you can wade. Just watch for snakes."
I stifled a shudder. "I might give that a pass."
58
The house came into view then, and I forgot about legless vermin
as I got my first glimpse of my temporary exile. Rhys drove slowly down a wide
gravel drive, which must have once been an impressive sight.
While the picture on the SUV's sign looked like a generic Gone
with the Wind clone, the actual house had much more personality. It stood
in shabby splendor between two hedged gardens. Columns supported a covered
porch or possibly a second-floor balcony, and gabled windows hinted at a
third-floor attic. The whitewashed sides glowed with the rosy light of the
setting sun.
"It's enormous." I breathed the words, more in horror
than reverence. Falling back in the seat, I closed my gaping mouth. "Dad
mentioned spending the summers with family in a country house. I didn't know he
meant an estate."
I'd just thought he meant his folks had a trailer home outside the
city limits. Fortunately I caught myself before I said that aloud. I'd never
met my paternal grandparents, since they'd died before I was born. Dad spoke of
his mother fondly and his father rarely, if at all. But an old family mansion?
That was a big thing to leave out.
"Home, sweet home," said Paula, as the car stopped in
front of the wide porch steps. I craned my neck to look out the window, taking
it all in.
Rhys set the brake with an air of finality. "Delivered as
promised." He hurried around to give my cousin a gentlemanly hand out of
the car, but she was too quick for him and hopped out on her own.
59
I was slower, still coaxing Gigi back into her carrier.
"Almost there, Gee." I wasn't sure which of us I was reassuring.
"Maybe there's a nice garden for you to roll around in."
She gave a grumbling assent and settled into the bag. Rhys had
opened my door by then, so I gave him the carrier, freeing my hands to haul my
aching butt out of the SUV. I was so stiff, I expected to hear creaking.
Once out, I turned slowly to get the whole picture. A huge tree,
probably centuries old, cast moon shadow over the yard, where the remnants of a
red brick wall marked the original borders of cultivated landscape.
"Bluestone Hill." Paula said it with genteel pride.
"It wasn't always a country house. The first capital of Alabama was only a
few miles away. Folks used to come from the town for grand parties."
Her words evoked a vivid scene in my mind. Where the drive curved
in front of the house, I could picture carriages pulling up and delivering
ladies in huge hoop skirts, and gentlemen in top hats and spats. The porch was
lit by welcoming lanterns instead of electric lights, and liveried servants
stood by the doors.
The scene was so authentic--I seemed to catch a whiff of horse and
a snatch of music--that I had to close my eyes, ground myself in reality behind
the shutter of my eyelids. I'd always had an active imagination. It came with
performing. But since the night of the wedding, I hadn't allowed myself any
flights of fancy. It was like keeping weight off a broken toe. I didn't want to
test my discrimination of fact versus fantasy too soon.
60
I wobbled, then opened my eyes and steadied myself with a hand on
the car. I hadn't realized Rhys was so close until I heard him ask, in a low
voice Paula wouldn't hear, "Are you all right?"
Of course I wasn't all right. I wouldn't be in Alabama if I was
all right. But the moment of disorientation had passed, and slowly my blood was
circulating again--to my legs and to my brain--after the long drive. "I'll
live," I said honestly.
"I'm glad to hear it." His look was more sympathetic
than his words, and he handed me Gigi's carrier so I could slip it over my
shoulder. "You take your vicious purse dog, and I'll grab your
luggage."
"Thanks."
Once I was sure my legs would hold me up, I circled the car to
join Paula. Belatedly, I noticed two other vehicles parked farther around the
curve, a dark SUV and a big red pickup that gleamed in the porch light.
Paula must have followed my gaze. "Addie--that's Clara's
daughter--and her friends are studying for the end of term," she explained
cheerfully. "So you'll get to meet them."
"Can't wait." That was just what I needed, to start
meeting people while I was exhausted and grumpy. Grumpier than usual, I mean.
Paula missed the sarcasm in my drawled words, but Rhys didn't. I
caught a hint of a smile as he unloaded my biggest suitcase. Paula had
obviously not been paying attention at the airport, because her eyes widened as
he set the second case beside the first. "My. How
61
much stuff did you bring, child? Your clothes can't take up that
much room."
"One bag is Gigi's," I said, already on the defensive in
case she made something of it. Besides, I was going to be in Alabama for a
month.
"Of course it is," she said. "Rhys, honey, would
you be a dear and take Sylvie's case up to the yellow room-- it's the one on
the opposite side of the stairs from yours. And her dog's things can go in the
sunroom for now."
Letting him play porter wasn't going to make him stop calling me
princess. I couldn't do much more, though, than offer to help.
"I can manage the small suitcase."
He smiled wryly at me, as if on to the fact I was only offering so
I wouldn't feel guilty. "Just go in and see the castle, meet your
subjects," he said.
But he said it without malice, so I took him at his word.
Following Paula, I grasped the handrail--which had the sturdy feel of a new
addition--and climbed the porch steps, my feet falling in the same traffic-worn
place on the bricks as my ancestors'.
"Just keep your puppy in her bag for now," my cousin
said, waiting on the veranda for me. "Until we figure out what to do with
her."
I got that "we" meant "she," but if "what
to do with her" was anything other than "let her stay with you,"
we were going to have a problem.
The front door was framed by stained glass on either side and a
fan-shaped window above. The lights in the foyer shone through, bright and
cheery. I
62
grabbed the door handle, and after a glance at Paula for
permission--she nodded almost solemnly--I pushed it open. The warm, humid air
rushed in, and cool air rushed out, as if the house were sighing in welcome.
The entry hall stretched up two stories, paneled in dark, rich
wood. Directly in front of me was a staircase, covered in a patterned runner in
jewel tones that had become muted with time and wear. I could sense age in the
patina of the banister where countless hands had polished it on their way up or
down. I didn't have to close my eyes to picture little Confederate children
sliding down the oak railing or high-buttoned shoes treading the carpet.
Again, the detail of the sensations put a knot of tension behind
my rib cage. I was as relieved as I was startled when Rhys wheeled my suitcases
in with an anachronistic bump over the threshold.
He parked the smaller one near a hallway that led further into the
house. "I'll take that to the sunroom after I carry yours upstairs."
"Thanks," I said again, including my gratitude for the
distraction. It was fervent enough that he glanced at me oddly. To cover, I
explained, "I know it's heavy."
Smiling slightly, he echoed my earlier reassurance. "I'll
live."
I watched him start up the stairs, managing the case with
impressively little effort. Then I realized I was staring--in a completely
normal, noncrazy way, but nevertheless a little inappropriately--and turned my
gaze toward Paula.
She stood beside a small desk, checking messages on
63
a nice, modern phone. Like my bright pink luggage, it looked a bit
out of place in the foyer full of old paneling and antique furniture.
"How old is this house?" I asked.
"Honey," said Paula with a ring of pride, "this
house has been in your family for nearly two hundred years."
"Seriously?" I cast an eye over the chandelier, dangling
like an earring from the high ceiling. Through an arched doorway I could see a
formal parlor, looking like a museum of bric-a-brac.
Paula straightened a guest register on the desk. "The
Colonel--that's one of your distinguished ancestors--would be rolling in his
grave if he knew I was turning this place into a business. But you can't live
on history and a family name, now, can you?"
"I guess not," I said absently.
My head felt jam-packed--with the trip and the house and Paula and
especially Rhys. But the big question elbowing aside all the rest was, how had
Dad not mentioned any of this? I tuned out Mother all the time, and I'd
obviously ignored everything anyone said about this trip. But I had always listened
to Dad. This was kind of a big thing to leave out of descriptions of your
childhood.
"You'll have to explore the gardens when it's daylight,"
Paula said, seeming oblivious to my distraction. "See where your dad got
his green thumb."
She gestured to a painting on the wall. I resettled Gigi on my
shoulder and went closer. It was a landscape of the house--white, colonnaded,
antebellum--set
64
in a very formal geometric garden. Both the painting's style and
its perspective were primitive. My eye was drawn to the intricate structure of
the gardens at the front and sides of the house, and the orderly rows of a
vegetable plot in the back, near outbuildings that might have housed the
kitchen and servants. Slaves, I realized, with a guilty twist in my stomach.
There was a date on the painting--BLUESTONE HILL, ALABAMA, 1856.
Was this Old South legacy what my dad wanted to distance himself
from by moving to New York? Another picture solidified in my head--a scrawny
preteen, standing in the same place, looking up at the same painting and making
the same connection. This time I was torn. I wanted to push away the vision
before it got too real, before it passed beyond what were normal imaginings in
an evocative old house. But if it linked me to my dad, I wanted to grab it
tight. Though not if it meant I was crazy.
I realized Paula was beside me, looking worriedly into my face.
"Are you all right, honey?"
My laugh was, fortunately, more ironic than hysterical.
"People keep asking me that." I smoothed the strands of hair that had
escaped my bun, hiding the shaking of my hands. "It's a good thing I'm not
vain or anything."
She patted my arm--the one on the far side of Gigi--and said
tactfully, "You look fine, dear. But if you'd like to freshen up before
meeting--"
A pair of doors opened behind Paula, interrupting her and
startling me. They were set in, so they looked like the rest of the paneling,
and I hadn't noticed them
65
until they slid back to frame a sandy-haired young man. He was big
and athletic, all-American handsome.
"Hi there!" His welcoming smile hit me like an afternoon
sunbeam after a wet and chilly morning.
"Hi," I answered stupidly.
He turned to include my cousin. "Sorry we didn't hear you
come in, Miss Paula. We had the music on."
"Hello, Shawn." Paula didn't sound surprised to see him.
In fact, she sounded more genial than she had since she found out I was
foisting a canine houseguest on her. The smile seemed to affect her, too.
"Are y'all almost done studying?"
"Not hardly." There was something old-fashioned in his
phrasing, a fifties television nicety that matched his Wheaties-box smile. It
struck me as funny, since I'd joked to Rhys about the Leave It to
Beaver-ness of the Teen Town Council.
Then Shawn's gaze returned to me, taking in the details in a way
that wasn't dated at all. His pleasantly appreciative attention tugged at
something in my chest, pulling me off balance. A warm bloom of curiosity
replaced the first jolt I felt at his appearance. It spread through parts of me
that had been cold for a long time.
"So, is this the famous Sylvie Davis?" he asked.
Corny, yes, but with a slight self-awareness that made it
charming. I wrinkled my nose and answered, "Infamous, maybe."
Holy crap. I'd wrinkled my nose. For me, that was
borderline flirtatious. I was clearly beyond tired and on to drunk with
exhaustion. That would explain a lot.
Paula made the introductions, per Emily Post.
66
"Sylvie, this is Shawn Maddox. He's a friend of the family
and president of the Teen Town Council. I told you about them, didn't I?"
Shawn's smile widened. "So we're infamous, too. You want to
come in and meet the gang?"
Not really. All the handsome charisma in the world couldn't make
the pain in my leg go away. I wanted a bath, a bed and a book. But Shawn
stepped back from the doorway with a gesture of welcome--despite the fact that
it wasn't his house, I noted--and I had no graceful way to decline. I tightened
my grip on Gigi's shoulder strap, and entered the cozy den.
There were six or seven young people my age, lounging on couches
and on the floor, surrounded by textbooks and cans of soda. The scene was set
for a marathon study session, but it was a little too affected, a little too
staged. They were carefully not staring as I crossed the threshold, but
I felt spotlit by their curiosity nevertheless.
"Everyone," said Shawn, "this is Sylvie. Sylvie,
this is everyone." Only he didn't actually say "everyone." He
rattled off a list of names that ran through my brain but didn't stick.
"Hi," I said, trying to be nice. The coffee table was
piled with pizza boxes and greasy paper plates, and my stomach growled. Maybe
Paula would think it was Gigi.
But she was too focused on the pile of boxes to notice. "Who
said y'all could order pizza?"
A tall, slim girl, probably about my age, sat in an upholstered
chair, her legs thrown over one of the
67
arms. Her skin was creamy brown and her face could have been on
any magazine--large, tilted eyes; high cheekbones; lips that women in my
mother's circle paid a fortune for.
Her expression, however, bordered on aggressively petulant.
"Don't blow a gasket, Paula. The guys were famished, so Mom said it was
okay. She's got sandwiches and stuff in the kitchen for y'all."
I tried to process that. "Mom" must be Clara, the
business partner in the B&B endeavor. And if that was true, then
this must be Addie, whom Paula had mentioned in the car.
"Or," said Shawn, "Sylvie could eat in here with
us. There's still plenty left."
"That's a fine, hospitable introduction." Paula set her
hands on her hips. "Cold pizza on the floor of the den."
"We'll give her a seat on the couch, Miss Paula." Shawn
cajoled her with easy humor, and I could see her sense of propriety unbending
under the influence of his smile. "Don't you worry."
Gigi had nosed her head out of the bag, audibly sniffing the
pizza-scented air. "Oh my gosh!" A red-haired girl jumped up with a
squeal and hurried toward us, climbing over two classmates and their books.
"What an adorable doggie!"
The squeal made my eye twitch, but Gigi accepted the attention as
her due. Without asking, Red started petting her, and in a moment another girl
had joined us, creating a logjam in the doorway.
"What's her name? Is she a Chihuahua? I've never
68
seen one with fluffy hair like that. Look at her riding in your
purse, just like a little movie star."
"I don't think a movie star would be caught dead riding in a
bag from Petco."
She missed my sarcasm--too busy petting Gigi--but it got a laugh
from Shawn.
An older woman appeared in a second doorway, drying her hands on a
dish towel. She was dark-skinned and tall, and the bone structure of her face
showed through the padding of middle age--she was definitely related to
Armchair Girl. Addie, rather. These people seriously needed name tags.
"I thought all that commotion might signal the Union's
arrival," said the new woman.
That joke was going to get really old, really fast. I didn't say
anything, though, because the woman had friendly eyes to go with her matronly
figure. "Welcome to Bluestone Hill, Sylvie. I'm Clara."
"Nice to meet you," I answered automatically, my brain
slow with fatigue and information overload.
"I'll fix you a sandwich, or we can reheat some pizza."
She smiled kindly. "Either way, there's cobbler and ice cream for
dessert."
"Oh my gawd," said one of Gigi's worshippers.
"Clara makes the best cobbler anywhere."
"All right then," said Cousin Paula as she turned to me,
ignoring the two girls still fussing over Gigi. "You sit in here and get
to know everyone for a bit. And for heaven's sake, kids, I hope you're all
using napkins and not my rug to wipe your fingers."
"Gawd, Paula." Addie rolled her eyes so hard that
69
her whole head moved. "None of us was raised in a
pigsty."
"Fine," Paula answered tartly, fists on her hips again.
"But you're running the sweeper in here tomorrow after school. Now, y'all
be nice to Sylvie and make sure she gets something to drink."
My cousin headed for the inside door. Clara gave me an encouraging
smile and followed her out-- missing Addie's second eye roll. Left behind, I
stood between the sitting area and the door, with Gigi still hanging from my
shoulder, along with her admirers.
"Can we take her out?" Red asked.
Setting the bag on the floor, I crouched and unzipped it all the
way. "Don't feed her any pizza, okay?"
"Paula won't like it," said Addie, from the throne of
her armchair. "She's an absolute freak about her car-pets.
"It'll be okay in here, though," said Shawn, smiling at
me with a hint of conspiracy in his eyes.
I didn't point out that Addie had to vacuum tomorrow anyway. My
keen powers of observation told me she didn't need another excuse not to like
me. For some reason she was already acting like I had peed in her Cheerios.
In any case, worry over the carpet was moot since Gigi never
touched it; the girls took her to the couch and sat with her in their laps,
cooing and cuddling her. She looked positively smug, with two such attentive
acolytes.
I had a bigger problem. When I'd squatted to release her, the
muscles in my right leg had cramped up,
70
and I was stuck in a grand plié, with nothing to grab and
inconspicuously haul myself up.
A hand appeared in my peripheral vision. For a startled instant, I
thought of Rhys, of the many times he'd already offered me assistance. I would
take it now, déjà vu or no. But it wasn't Rhys, of course. He was helpfully
stowing my luggage.
It was Shawn. His arm was tanner, more muscular. But equally
helpful.
Thinking of Rhys, though, made me hesitate just a moment--for a
whole muddle of reasons that didn't really make sense--before I grabbed Shawn's
hand. When, after the briefest of bracing pauses, I let him pull me to my feet,
there was no shock, no feeling of being hit in the funny bone. Just a warmth
that was, oddly enough, as charismatic as his smile.
"Thanks," I mumbled, grateful for the help, but grumpy
and embarrassed that I'd needed it.
Shawn held on until I was steady, my delicate fingers swallowed up
in his strong ones. He was taller than Rhys, and definitely broader. Close up I
could see his eyes were an interesting shade of blue--dark, with a tinge of
green, like sun on salt water.
There was clearly something wrong with me. First idling on the
grass at the rest stop with Rhys, and now this stranger, holding my hand
like I was some swooning Southern belle. And worse, my kind of liking it.
"Glad to help. Here. Have a seat." Shawn nudged one of
the guys slumped in the smaller sofa, who amiably slid to the floor, yielding
his spot. No doubt who was the alpha dog in this pack.
71
I found myself glancing toward the door, for escape, or maybe for
rescue. Rhys should have had time to park my suitcases by now. His response
when I'd asked him about the Teen Town Council--"You'll see," he'd
said, unhelpfully--didn't suggest a lot of time spent hanging around with them.
"You want a Coke or something?" Shawn asked, drawing my
attention back to him. I liked him well enough--obviously--but the group was
overwhelming all at once. Too many names to remember, and being nice was such
an effort. I'd never been a social butterfly before The Accident, at least not
outside my ballet friends. But I didn't want to alienate the locals, or worse,
anger Paula and make my stay here any more wretched than it had to be.
Which I suppose was how I found myself sitting where Shawn had
directed me and answering his question. "Just some water would be great.
Thanks."
With a huge sigh of imposition, Addie rolled her eyes again as
she pushed herself from her chair and huffed over to a minibar in the corner of
the room. "You'll have to make do with tap water. We don't have any
Evian."
Spurred by irritation, I replied in kind. Seriously, what was her
deal? "As long as it doesn't come out of the creek, that's fine."
So much for being nice. One of the guys snorted, and Addie shot me
a death glare over her shoulder.
I took a moment to look around. The room was more casual than the
parlor across the hall, and obviously more used. The furniture was traditional,
but
72
not authentic. The manteled fireplace looked original, but there
was also a big-screen TV against one wall, and a neat desk in the corner held a
large and clunky computer. That, at least, was an antique. I noticed that,
along with the books and binders on the coffee table, some of the kids had
brought their own laptops.
"What are you studying?" I asked, because I had to say
something.
"Everything," said one of the boys on the floor.
"Finals are this week for the seniors, and the week after for
juniors."
Shawn sat beside me, which tilted the cushions of the love seat,
so I had to tighten my muscles to keep from falling toward him. See? Off
balance. "Kim and Josh and I are seniors. Addie, Caitlin and those guys
are juniors."
I halfheartedly attempted to recall the names he'd rattled off.
Gigi's new handmaidens were Caitlin and Kimberly. The other guys were Josh and
Aaron and Travis.
"So, what about you?" Caitlin asked, without
interrupting her petting. "Does the school year finish earlier in New
York?"
"I finished last year." I shifted, feeling the weight of
their attention heavily. Me, who had never had stage fright.
"How'd you manage that?" asked Josh. "I mean, I
thought you were Addie's age."
No surprise, I guess, that I'd been a topic of conversation. Paula
had hinted as much. So had their avid curiosity from the moment I'd entered.
73
"I took my GED so that I could be free to travel with the
company. The American Ballet Company," I added at their blank looks.
"Your folks let you do that?" Kimberly asked. "My
mom would have a cow."
"My mother has always been supportive of my career," I
said. The irony in this understatement was lost on them, making me feel like
even more of a stranger. I could only make inside jokes with myself.
Caitlin confided cheerfully, "Addie got a chance to be a
model, but she would have had to miss so much school, her mom wouldn't let her
go."
Addie returned with my glass of water. She held it out to me with
two fingers. "My mother believes that it's important I get a real
education. With a real diploma."
The spark of annoyance flared, fanned by her contemptuous tone. I
looked her up and down. She wore a cute little T-shirt and shorts that showed
off her lush figure and perfect legs. "You don't have to rush," I
returned, in the same falsely sweet voice. "Playboy doesn't let you
model until you're eighteen."
Kimberly snorted back a laugh. The boys didn't bother to hide
theirs. The skin on Addie's sculpted cheekbones darkened in a furious flush,
and she shoved the water into my hand before stomping back to her chair. I felt
slightly guilty, but only for stooping to her level.
"So, what was it like, dancing with the ballet company?"
asked Caitlin. She and Kimberly seemed the warmest, thanks to Gigi's cuteness,
I guess. "Did you
74
have flowers delivered to your dressing room? Get to travel first
class?"
"It's not as glamorous as it sounds." At the pinnacle of
my career--that is, the weeks just before my accident--I'd shared a dank
basement dressing room with five other girls. And I only flew first class on
Mother's dime.
Rather than getting into painful--literal and
figurative--explanations, I changed the subject. "So, this is the Teen
Town Council, huh?"
Again, it was Caitlin who explained. "We're all on it, but
this isn't the whole group, since it's not a regular meeting."
"What does the council do?" I pulled a pizza box toward
me and peeked inside. Pepperoni. No way could I do that to myself, no matter
how hungry.
"You know how some towns have teen library boards and student
councils and stuff?" she said. "We're all that, sort of rolled into
one."
"That's very efficient." The strain of being polite put
a bit of a sarcastic edge on my tone, but Shawn answered with good humor.
"There's not a big pool to draw from." He'd noticed my
rejection of the pepperoni, and set a different box within reach. "Since
the same people were in every student organization anyway, we just
consolidated."
"Shawn's the president," said Caitlin, unnecessarily.
I'd have had to be blind not to notice who called the shots.
The pizza in the new box was cheese. I didn't especially want it,
but grabbed a slice and a napkin to give
75
me something to do with my hands. Across from me, Gigi watched
with eager eyes. I'd fed her a quick snack before leaving the rest stop, so her
starving puppy-dog face didn't fool me.
"Paula said something about your helping out around
here," I prompted. This was a trick of my mother's, appearing a brilliant
conversationalist by keeping people talking about themselves.
"We rebuilt the summerhouse out back," said Aaron.
"It's just a gazebo, really," said Shawn. "And it's
a win-win situation, since Miss Paula is nice enough to let the TTC meet there
when the weather's nice."
"Still," I said, genuinely impressed. "That's not a
small project."
Shawn shrugged. "That's what we do. Fund-raisers, odd jobs.
We want to support people who want to bring business to the area. Like this
inn, when it opens."
"So, if the inn isn't open yet," I said, pulling the
cheese off my pizza, since the crust wasn't worth the carbs, "how did Rhys
and his dad end up staying here?"
There was a funny sort of pause that made me glance up from my
slice, catching the look exchanged between Addie and Shawn. Had my innocent
question poked a stick under an interesting rock?
It was Addie who answered, in an almost normal tone of voice.
"Professor Griffith is a friend of the guy in charge of the dig over at
Old Cahawba. Dr. Young hooked the professor up with Paula, and the Griffiths
get to stay here for cheap in exchange for putting up with the construction
mess."
76
Kimberly leaned forward, telling me in a confidential tone,
"I can't believe Addie is so lucky to have such a hot guy in the house. I
thought all English people had pasty skin and bad teeth."
"I think he's Welsh," I said, but it didn't seem to
matter.
"Oh, my gawd," said Caitlin, in rapturous tones.
"That accent."
Addie surprised me with a giggle. "I showed him how to surf
the satellite channels on the TV, and he said, 'Cheers, love. "
"I know!" Kimberly squealed, squeezing Gigi like a teddy
bear. "Could you just die?"
"What is it with y'all?" Josh was the guy who'd given up
his seat to me. He protested from the floor, his mouth full of pizza.
"What's so hot about the way a foreign guy talks?"
Kimberly threw a wadded napkin at him. "Ask that after you
swallow, you pig."
"Seriously," said Aaron. (I hoped I was getting the
names right.) "You showed him how to use the TV remote. It's not like a
first date or anything."
"It's not just the way he talks," said Addie, scornful
again, but at least it wasn't directed at me. "It's the way he's a
gentleman."
Aaron unfolded himself from the floor and helped himself to a soda
from the minibar. "He seems cool enough. But it's not like he hangs with
us. When we're here at the Hill, we're usually busy with--you know."
"With what?" I asked, since they might know, but I
certainly didn't. The rest of that sentence could be
77
anything. Like, "when we're not giving each other pedicures, or
performing virgin sacrifices."
"When we're not doing TTC stuff," answered Shawn, which
didn't exclude any of those things. But it shut Aaron down. Not secretive,
exactly; it just put a period on the sentence. But I sensed--let's call it a
vibe, since that didn't sound too nuts--that there was a tangled dynamic with
this bunch.
Maybe it was just normal girl-boy stuff. I hadn't missed the
tension between Shawn and Addie, and I wondered how much of her resentment had
to do with his friendliness toward me. Then there was Caitlin, who sat near
Travis, but his eyes never left an oblivious Kimberly, who, when she
wasn't petting Gigi, was playing footsie with Aaron.
I recognized the insular soap-opera drama that happened in a
closed group. Between classes and the company, I'd been with the same people
eighteen hours a day for the past seven years. People hooked up and broke up,
and half the time while they were with someone, they really wished they were
with someone else.
"Anyway," said Kimberly, "it's sweet that Rhys is
helping his dad with his research."
Travis groaned. "Can we move on to a new subject,
please?"
"Oh my God," Kimberly snapped. "How many times did
we have to listen to you guys talk about Sylvie? Deal with it."
I blinked, like I'd been hit by a bucket of cold water she'd meant
to throw on someone else. "Excuse me?"
78
Shawn cleared his throat and stared at the ceiling. Addie rolled
her eyes (big surprise). Travis and Aaron exchanged grimaces of chagrin and
Caitlin glared at Kimberly, who explained apologetically, "When we heard
you were coming, we Googled you. We've never had anyone famous, or even
semifamous, come here."
"We weren't being creepy," Aaron assured me, after
shooting Kimberly an irritated glare. "It's just, there was this picture,
and you were standing on one toe, with your other leg waaay up here." He
measured a spot by his ear. "It was kind of impressive."
"Um, thanks," I said, vaguely. Dancers didn't take
compliments well. Nothing was ever good enough. And now it never would be,
because even the attempt at a moment of dynamic perfection was out of
reach.
Also, if they'd looked me up, then they had to know about The
Accident. They had an idea of what I'd once been capable of, and that now I
couldn't even get up off the floor without help.
"But," I went on with a note of irony, "I'm hardly
famous. Or impressive anymore."
Kimberly laughed. "Oh, honey. You're a Davis. You're
automatically famous in Maddox Landing."
I wanted to ask what she meant, but Caitlin, who still held Gigi
in her lap, continued in a cajoling tone, "And I'll say what these boys
are all thinking. You're still darned impressive. Lord, what I wouldn't
give for a great pair of legs like yours."
"I don't know about a pair," said Addie, with
only a veneer of drollery over the venom in her voice. "If she had two good
legs, she'd still be dancing."
79
For a heartbeat, icy disbelief kept me numb, certain I'd misheard
her. But the awkward silence that dropped like a bomb in the room proved I
hadn't, and my ears began to burn.
Shawn tensed angrily beside me, though he didn't speak. It was
Caitlin who breathed, "Jeez, Addie. That was uncool."
"Please," she said, waving a dismissive hand. "I'm
just stating a fact. If she hadn't broken her leg, she wouldn't be here, dumped
on her relatives."
"Okay. Wow." Feeling their appalled stares richochet
between us, I tried to shake off the daze of the verbal sucker punch. The show
must go on. Wiping my fingers precisely and placing my napkin in an empty pizza
box, I stood smoothly, with some covert help from the sofa. "Thanks for
this example of Southern hospitality, but I really need to walk my dog, and I
can only handle one bitch at a time."
Addie's face flushed. She opened her mouth to snap back a retort,
but Shawn's quiet and clipped words stopped her. "Cut it out, Adina."
I expected her to tell him where to stick it, but she merely shrugged and threw
her legs over the arm of the chair.
He'd gotten up too, and he handed me Gigi's bag. "Want some
help?"
"I can handle this much. Come on, Gigi." She came
running, her little legs prancing, and we headed for the French doors. I didn't
know where they led exactly, nor did I care. I just wanted out of there.
"We'll see you around, Sylvie," said Caitlin, with the
deliberate cheerfulness of someone trying to smooth things over. "Maybe at
the Catfish Festival this weekend."
80
"Maybe," I murmured. And maybe I would break my other
leg, and be spared that particular joy.
The French doors opened onto a veranda on the side of the house.
It was clean but scattered with dilapidated porch furniture. I snapped on
Gigi's leash and headed for the steps, wondering how far my leg would take me
if I just kept walking.
81
***
Chapter 5
The moon had barely risen, but there was enough light from the
porch to see where I was going. As satisfying as it would be to storm off into
the dark, it would also be self-destructive. Besides, I was too tired and achy
to storm anywhere. The best I could do was stagger off in a snit.
Coming down the side stairs, Gigi and I faced the hedged border of
what had once been the formal garden, the shape just visible under the excess
foliage, like good bone structure in someone who has let himself
82
put on some pounds. Weeds and vines pushed up through the gravel
and paving stones of the path, but I braved it anyway.
From the painting in the foyer, I knew this was once a knot
garden, but I couldn't see much design in the overgrown shapes of the planting
beds. In the center was some kind of tall topiary, gone shapeless with neglect.
Gigi wanted to dive into the circular flower bed around it but I pulled her
back, worried about what wildlife might be in the snarled weeds.
I felt a similar pull to investigate, but I resisted it, making
instead for the open area between the house and the river. The hedges opened to
the southeast, and with Gigi trotting beside me, I stepped out of the garden
onto a vista that, even in the starlight, held me transfixed.
From the house, the land rolled softly, in a gently sculpted fall
that was too perfect to be natural, to the bright ribbon of the river. It was
as if someone had unfurled a bolt of cloth and draped it for artistic effect,
with swells and nooks and shadows. It was the contrived nature of an artist in
soil--a landscape architect, like Capability Brown, or Frederick Law Olmstead,
whom my dad had idolized.
Had this been the beginning of Dad's passion for making art out of
nature? I couldn't help but imagine him standing right here, thinking ... I
didn't know what, because he'd never talked about it.
Gigi pulled at her leash, begging to be let loose for a run. I
wished I could oblige her; I, too, wanted to run and roll and yell at the
universe, but I settled for
83
kicking off my shoes and lowering myself stiffly to the lawn. Then
I dug my fingers and toes into the grass, anchoring myself to the ground, to
solid reality.
On the slope of lawn leading to the water I saw the silhouette of
a small building. The summerhouse, I figured. North of that, the river
disappeared behind an area of thick trees. In the dark, the woods were just a
swath of deeper blackness, but I could see the tips of the pines against the
starlit charcoal sky.
Nothing explained why that made me shiver. It could be the breeze
that had come with sunset, carrying the scent of the river.
Or maybe I was just nuts. How many times since reaching the house
had I imagined things too well, with so much detail that the line became fuzzy
between what was there and what wasn't?
It had been a long, tiring day. And here I was in this old house,
full of history, trying to connect the father I knew with the teenager Paula
remembered. Of course I was going to be picturing the past at every
turn.
My imagination had always had an outlet in ballet. I created
things in my mind's eye, things like transforming swans and dancing candy
canes, which I had to make an audience believe that I believed were
real. I was full of creative energy, which, until The Accident, I'd
channeled into dance.
Everything had been channeled into dance. Energy,
emotion, creativity. For all the months of recovery, most of that had been
pushed toward healing--physically, at least. Now it was like a Band-Aid had
been ripped off my feelings, and I was one raw nerve.
84
And then there were the two guys. Rhys and Shawn. Both of them
getting under my skin in completely different ways. Before The Accident, I'd
dated, as long as it didn't interfere with dance. But what was it about
crossing the Mason-Dixon Line that had turned me into this hormone-driven,
boy-crazy--
Crap. There was that word again.
I rubbed my hands over my face, the sweet smell of grass and dirt
failing to soothe me. Just the stress of worrying that I was cracking up was
enough to crack me up.
The ring of my phone startled me, and Gigi barked as I jumped.
Prokofiev's Cinderella--the stepsister's theme. It was John, the
second-to-last person I wanted to talk to while I was thinking about going
bonkers. But if I didn't answer, he might tell his dad, who might call Paula,
and then they'd all be thinking about how I was going bonkers.
So I clicked to answer, and growled, "Calling to check up on
me?"
"Hello, Sylvie." He took my tone in stride, which stole
some of the wind from my sails. In the two weeks since the wedding, I'd seethed
and sulked and practically hissed every time I saw him--which was a lot, since
our parents were consolidating households before leaving on their honeymoon.
Eventually it was too much effort to stay furious, especially at someone who didn't
get angry back.
Which was his strategy, of course, as he asked, with exaggerated
tranquillity, "How is Alabama?"
I sighed. "It's driving me crazy already," I answered.
"You can report that back to your dad." Sarcasm made
85
me feel better. I mean, I was only nuts if I thought I wasn't,
right? Flexing my feet, I stretched my cramped muscles as well as my figurative
claws. "Mother was too busy packing to check on her only offspring,
huh?"
John paused, as if hunting for a tactful answer, then gave up.
"They're getting ready to leave in the morning. How are you?"
"Stiff. Sore. Brain-dead." Gigi climbed onto my lap,
putting her paws on my chest so she could sniff the phone. "Gigi says
hi."
"If you think I've forgiven her for peeing in my suitcase,
you are so wrong."
"She can't help it. She knew I was mad at you." I was
mad at everyone, all the time.
"Was mad? Past tense?"
I sighed and pulled up my knees, trapping Gigi against my chest.
She curled up, contentedly licking the buttons on my sweater. "Half past
tense, maybe." Like I said, angry takes a lot of energy.
"I'm glad." He sounded genuine, which was the other
reason I'd softened to him. That, and if I hadn't, I wouldn't have anyone to
talk to but Gigi. "I take it you got to your cousin's house okay?"
"Yeah. Only get this. It's not a house. It's an antebellum
mansion. And it's out in the absolute boonies."
He sounded amused. "Not up to your high standards?"
Jerk. "Like you've ever been on a vacation that didn't
involve turndown service and five-star dining."
"That's not true. And it's not the point. Do you think you'll
get along with your cousin all right?"
"Maybe." I lay back, looking up at the stars. "I
don't
86
know. She talks like that Southern woman on the Food Network.
Crap--she even has the same name. Kind of looks like her too."
"Can she cook?"
"No. Apparently her business partner does the cooking."
"Business partner?"
"Paula is turning the family homestead into a B&B."
"Oh really?" I couldn't see him raising his eyebrows, but
I pictured it clearly. "And how do you feel about that?"
I barked out a laugh. It wasn't even ironic. "I can't believe
you just said that. You were born to be a shrink, John."
His chuckle sounded embarrassed. "Sorry. I really wasn't
trying to--I just mean that you called it the family homestead. It's your
ancestral home, too, right?"
"But I don't own it. I guess Paula inherited it."
"Is her father older than your father's father?"
Genealogy made my head hurt. "Jeez, John, I don't know. Why
does it matter? I don't want the place. I didn't even want to come here."
"Yeah, but it's still your family history." He sounded
very reasonable. "And as long as you're there, don't you want to find out
more about where your father came from?"
"I don't know." I meant to snap at him, but it came out
genuinely uncertain. My gaze turned toward the house; I couldn't see much more
than shapes, but in my mind's eye was the painting in the hall and the separate
quarters out back.
87
And there was the curious thing Caitlin had said. Being a Davis
made me famous here. What did that mean?
"There's a lot of history," I said. "I can't
believe Dad never mentioned some of this stuff. He used to spend his summers
here, but he never said-- It's just sort of a big thing to omit. Even if he
never described the house, how could he not mention the gardens and the
landscape ..."
I was talking incoherently, free-associating. Why did that happen
with John? He didn't even have a degree yet, and already he had some kind of
mojo. He really was born to be a shrink. Or a bartender.
But I stopped before I said the damning thing that had been
gnawing at me since I'd first seen Bluestone Hill. The only way I could be this
clueless about where Dad came from is if he had deliberately kept it from me.
It's one thing to reinvent yourself and leave your upbringing behind. But why
keep it secret from your daughter?
If John had asked me just then what I felt about that, my answer
would have been pretty profane.
"Do they teach you that in school?" I asked. "To
just let someone ramble until they say something that reveals their
psyche?"
He paused. Unlike me, he chose his words carefully. "Sylvie,
believe it or not, when I saw you at the wedding with that Day-Glo cast, my
first thought was not, There's a girl who needs psychological help. Though it
could have been."
I gave a derisive snort. Gigi, lying on my stomach,
88
opened one eye to glare at me for disturbing her sleep. "Then
what did you think?"
"There's a girl who desperately needs someone to give a damn
about her. And I've never had a sister. This may work out after all."
I didn't say anything. After feeling nothing but anger for so
long, I couldn't sort out the emotions that lodged in an aching knot in my
throat. And then John ruined--or saved--the moment by adding, "Of course,
when you passed out on me and I had to drag your drunk butt and your ten pounds
of fiberglass cast through the lobby of the Pierre, I had my doubts."
"You're such a jerk," I said, and for the first time, I
didn't even half mean it.
"I won't apologize for finking on you about drinking the
night of the wedding. But I am sorry it got you exiled to Alabama. Though who
knows, maybe you're meant to be there."
I sat up, dislodging Gigi, who slid into my lap with a disgruntled
sound. "What do you mean by that?"
There was a pause long enough for a shrug. "I don't know.
Sometimes things work out. Maybe looking into your dad's past will help you
discover something about yourself. I mean, you can't lie around and sulk about your
leg forever."
"Screw you, John."
"Sorry, Sylvie. Can't--they frown on that kind of thing
between stepsiblings."
He managed to surprise a laugh out of me. Gigi barked in alarm;
she probably didn't even know what that sound was.
89
There was an echo from the other side of the house. At least, that
was what I thought it was at first. An animal sounding off in reply. But then
it rose in pitch, like the moaning of the wind. It lasted long enough for me to
realize it was coming from the woods, then it faded as quickly as it began.
"That's weird."
"What?" asked John, reasonably curious.
The noise came again, for all the world like someone crying--a
mournful warble, too soft and weak to identify more than that.
"Sylvie?"
"Nothing." I lightened my tone, shook off the
strangeness. I'd had enough of that today, and here, at least, was something I
could reasonably dismiss. "An animal in the woods. I'm not kidding when I
say it's a freaking wilderness out here."
Gigi had climbed off my lap and her nose pointed in the direction
of the sound, ready for action with her ears pricked, her fluff aquiver. This
was why she had to stay leashed until we knew our way around. Long-haired
Chihuahuas have no notion they are bite-sized.
"I'd better go, John. Gigi is way too interested in whatever
made that noise. And I guess it's possible someone might be missing me."
"Okay. I'm at the condo for a few more days until I head back
to school for the miniterm. Call if you need anything."
"Sure thing." I said it carelessly, signing off, and
hoped I sounded convincing.
90
After hanging up, I sat for a moment longer, listening, mirroring
the dog in intensity. I did hear a voice, but it was calling my name in a
perfunctory and non-chilling tone.
"Sylvie!" Paula's yell carried from the house.
"Sylvie Davis! Do not tell me you went and fell in the river on your very
first night here!"
At least my cousin seemed to have a flair for the dramatic,
something I could appreciate. I climbed to my feet, slightly better for my
stretch but still slow and sore. "Coming!"
Dusting off the seat of my jeans, I glanced toward the house, and
glimpsed a shadow moving across one of the upstairs windows.
I stilled, waiting for some other sign. The idea that someone had
been watching disquieted me more than was quite rational. Would anyone have
been able to hear me? And what did it matter, except that it was definitely a
private, personal conversation. Was I being paranoid?
Well, at least that would be a new symptom.
It could have been someone walking down a hall, not standing at
the window at all. Rhys, maybe. Or his father, whom I had yet to meet. Maybe
even Shawn-- the TTC seemed to have the run of the place. Weird that my mind
only supplied male possibilities. Maybe my subconscious had picked up more than
my conscious brain had.
When I didn't see anything else, I figured I'd better heed Paula's
summons before she came after me. Instead of returning to the house through the
hedged
91
garden, I looped around the terraced lawn at the back of the
house, where Paula had turned on the floodlights. She waited on a set of stone
steps that faced the river, leading from the backyard to the lawn I'd just
left.
"Where did you wander off to?" She stood impatiently,
fists on her hips. If I were going to portray her onstage, this would be the
posture I would use. "And what's this about you going off in a huff?"
"I needed to walk the dog." Gigi danced at the end of
her leash, trying to charm Paula. But it seemed she'd finally met someone
impervious to her fluffy charisma.
"About the dog," said Paula, which did not sound
promising. "There is a spot for her crate on the back porch. She can stay
there."
I narrowed my eyes, not liking where this was headed. "You
mean when she's not with me, right?"
"No, I mean overnight."
"All night?" My voice rose in incredulous anger.
"What about coyotes and things?"
I had put up with a lot that day. Sent off in a cab by my mother,
hours on a plane, then the soccer mom wagon. My fragile psyche messed up by a
strange place and strange people, and finding out about my dad's secret past as
a reluctant son of the South. Separating me from my dog was really too much.
"It's screened in," said Paula, in an implacable tone.
"Almost like another room."
"But it's not another room. It's a porch. And Gigi has
never slept outside in her life. She always sleeps with me."
92
"Well, this isn't your New York apartment, and here in the
South we treat dogs like dogs, and not like baby dolls." She dropped her
hands, and the discussion, with finality. "Come and see the place before
you pitch a fit. And then you can have some of Clara's cobbler. That's why I
came to get you in the first place. We have got to put some meat on your skinny
bones."
I clenched my teeth and didn't point out that dessert wouldn't put
meat on my bones so much as fat on my butt. When she turned toward the house, I
scooped Gigi up and sulked after her. Paula hadn't said it aloud, but her
implication was that Gigi and I were both spoiled. Which might be true, because
I was already planning how to get around her on this.
I needed to pick my battles and stay on her good side, even if
that meant setting Gigi's stuff up on the porch and eating Clara's fattening
cobbler. Afterward ... Well, I was still planning that.
Because Gigi was not sleeping by herself outside. As the
conversation with John had brought home, she was the only creature in the world
who would really care if something happened to me, even if it was only because
I was the bringer of kibble.
***
Even if I had wanted to sleep without Gigi, I wouldn't have been
able to. The night was too quiet. Awfully, horribly silent. No traffic, no
horns, no sirens. All I could hear was the creak of the house and the thump of
my own heartbeat as I lay in bed and
93
waited impatiently until I could sneak downstairs and get my dog.
Paula was, no surprise, an early-to-bed, early-to-rise type. But I
wanted to make sure I gave her time to fall into a nice, deep sleep. After I'd
settled Gigi in her crate on the porch--which was, as promised, completely
screened in, and almost, but not quite, like another room--Paula had given me a
rundown of the living arrangements. Her suite--a bedroom and small
sitting/office area, converted from the former maids' quarters--was near the
kitchen. Clara and her daughter, my nemesis, Addie, lived in an apartment over
the garage. According to Paula, one of my great-greats had been very fond of
that newfangled invention the automobile, and had the old carriage house
rebuilt into a car palace. So "garage apartment" was nowhere as
shabby as it sounded.
I was upstairs, in a small room in the back corner of the house.
It hadn't been refurbished yet, and the wallpaper was a faded yellow with a
tiny print of pale pink and green flowers. A woven rug warmed the floor, which
was spotlessly clean, but scuffed and in need of a polish.
When I'd come up after settling Gigi, I'd found my suitcase
waiting for me. I'd stashed my toiletries and undies in the cabinet that served
as a closet, then slid the rest of my stuff, still in the case, under the bed.
I guess part of me was prepared if Paula kicked Gigi and me out, or I decided
to run away, or I got carted off in a jacket with arms that tied in the back.
The brass bed frame was an antique and the mattress
94
felt like one. There was a tiny writing desk under the window, and
a small upholstered chair and footstool in the corner. As I lay in bed, I
caught a faint whiff of lilac, which I assumed came from the soap on the
Victorian washstand, which also held a basin and a ewer. Very quaint. And
practical, since I could wash my face without going down the hall to the
bathroom.
When the alarm on the nightstand said it was midnight in
Alabama--one a.m. by my internal clock--I figured I'd given everyone enough
time to reach REM sleep. Without turning on the light--I'd been lying in the
dark in case Paula poked her nose upstairs to check on me--I rolled out of my
Gigi-less bed and headed for the door.
The knob was a brass oval, darkened with age; I grasped it and
paused, listening for any sounds outside, my heart beating a fast and guilty
tattoo. You would think I was up to something a lot worse than sneaking in my
dog. Maybe I was overidentifying with some ancestress who had to creep out from
under the strict eye of her nursemaid. I had no trouble casting Paula in that
role.
I brushed off the thought and turned the knob carefully so it
wouldn't squeak. Leaving the door open, I headed to the second-floor landing,
where the wood floor gleamed in the light coming through the French doors at
the end of the hall.
It had cooled off considerably, and I wished I'd put on my
slippers. The chill seemed to travel up through the bones of my feet and ankles
and settle in the healed fissures of my leg. By the time I reached the carpet
runner covering the stairs, I was shivering in my thin
95
pajamas. The night air eddied through the open center of the
house, brushing the nape of my neck, where wisps of hair had fallen from my
scrunchie-knotted ponytail.
The downstairs foyer wasn't much better. Moonlight spilled through
the window over the door, a cold, silver glow. I headed quickly toward the back
of the house, to the big kitchen where earlier we'd sat down to Clara's
blackberry cobbler.
The air felt warmer here. So did the tile floor, which should have
been icy compared with the wood planks elsewhere in the house. Maybe it was
because the kitchen was a later addition, something to do with ventilation or
more-modern insulation. Back in the day, most of the cooking had been done in
an outbuilding, to keep the heat away from the main house. Paula had told me
the present kitchen had been expanded early in the last century, so that food
prep could be done closer to the family's swank house parties. It all sounded
very Great Gatsby; apparently Prohibition hadn't been much of an
impediment to anyone's partying. Not the Davises', anyway.
The downstairs also featured a formal dining room and a small
breakfast nook for future guests of the B&B, but I could tell that the
kitchen was the heart of the house, and that was obviously Clara's doing.
Earlier that night, when I'd come in from settling Gigi on the porch, she'd
pointed me, with a queenly gesture worthy of a despot welcoming me to her
domain, toward a big trestle table that occupied the space once used to stage
fancy-dress dinners.
"Have a seat," she'd said. At least she seemed a
96
benevolent despot. "I know cold pizza is no way to welcome
you to Alabama, but I figured you might like to get to know the kids your
age."
Separating me from my dog was no welcome either, but since that
wasn't Clara's fault, I didn't unload on her. "Where is everyone?" I
tried to keep the wariness out of my voice, since by "everyone" I
meant her witch of a daughter. But there was also no trace of Rhys, or Shawn,
and I had mixed feelings about that-- disappointment, annoyance at myself for
being disappointed, relief that I didn't have to deal with the confused dynamic
I felt with Mr. Enigmatic or the tug of attraction I felt for Sir Teen Town
Council.
Clara had her back to me while she fussed at the counter, so if
she reacted to anything in my tone, I didn't see it. "The gang all had
their dessert and went home. You were outside a good while."
"My stepbrother called to make sure I'd arrived in one
piece." It made a decent explanation, at least. Changing the subject, I
ran a hand over the table, which was dark with age and scarred with use.
"This would cost a fortune in an antique store." Amazing how many
reruns of Antiques Roadshow you could watch when you were stuck in bed
for weeks at a time.
"It's just about the only thing from the original
kitchen," Clara said, setting a china bowl and a spoon in front of me. I'd
noticed all the appliances were shiny and new. "I told Paula if I was
going to take charge of the cooking in this little endeavor, no way was I using
a cookstove from my grandmother's day."
I picked up the spoon. The ice cream on top of the cobbler was
already melting into a thick white lake
97
around the buttery crumble and glistening purple fruit. This was
more calories than I normally ate in an entire day.
Across the table, Clara folded her arms, looking dangerous.
"If you say one word about carbohydrates, Miss Ballerina, I'm going to
pinch your head. Now eat."
Obediently, I lifted a dripping spoonful to my mouth. I expected
it to be heavy, cloyingly rich. Instead, I got magic on my tongue. Fresh
berries burst against my palate, the tartness sweetened by light, crisp pastry,
all bound together with the cream.
"Oh. My. God." I didn't even care what it did to my
thighs, it was that good.
Clara smiled in satisfaction. "Now, that's a proper
welcome to your family home."
My family home. In the dark kitchen, hours later, I let the scene
replay, tracing a hand over the old table. My father had eaten at this table,
maybe sharing a meal with his cousins while the adults dined in the formal
room, with china and linens. The image was so vivid, it was as though I were
standing on one side of a window, looking through to someone else's memory.
If I glanced out of the unfocused corner of my eye, I could almost
see the servants moving about, preparing dinner. A woman walked past me, laden
with a groaning tray, her forearms muscled from the accustomed weight. Details
sang in my mind--the black hair curling out from under her cap, the crisply
starched ruffles of the apron covering her long calico dress.
The breeze of her passing brushed my skin, and my half-closed eyes
flew open. I whirled, and glimpsed the swish of a skirt, the trailing ribbons
of an apron,
98
disappearing around the corner, toward the dining room down the
hall.
Clara? That didn't make sense. Or maybe it was Paula, but I
couldn't believe she wouldn't stop to berate me for being out of bed. Plus, the
clothes had been so distinct, and I couldn't picture either of them wearing
linen and calico.
I took a single step after the woman, then stopped, as a dizzying
wave of horror grabbed my insides and twisted. There was no one there. There couldn't
e, because I'd been standing in the middle of the kitchen and no one had
come in. No one had moved past me but the figures in my imagination.
But I'd felt her. And seen her. Not imagined. Sensed.
Forcing myself down the hall was like taking my first steps in
physical therapy. An exercise in will. But I had to find the explanation. The
drift of curtain or shaft of moonlight that was real and tangible, just
transformed by my thoughts, the natural outgrowth of my ruminations.
But there was nothing. The curtains in the dining room were drawn
and still. The only illumination was from a night-light in the corner outlet.
Oh crap.
Leaving the room was much easier. I hurried to the kitchen, then
out the back door and onto the covered porch, where Gigi was waiting for me in
her crate, pawing at the latch impatiently. As soon as I let her out, she
jumped into my arms, and I sat down hard on one of the cushioned wicker
settees, my trembling legs giving out. Just like my marbles.
99
The black-humor barrier between me and my fears had come crashing
down. This was bad. Unfunny, unvarnished, undeniably awful. What had just
happened was different from my earlier imaginings. This wasn't just overly
detailed fantasy. I had truly slipped. I'd been convinced the figure in the
hall was real, right up to the moment I realized it couldn't be.
It was Central Park all over again. But I was dead sober. Tired,
overwrought, totally freaking out, but very, very sober. And I had to face the
question, if it wasn't alcohol, and it wasn't Vicodin ... did that mean it was me?
Gigi licked my cheek. I had her cuddled tight to my chest, and she
snuggled trustingly against my neck. At least one of us was confident in my
ability to take care of us.
It was reassuring in a way that logic could never be. I couldn't
crack up, because then who would look after Gigi? Therefore, I would not go
crazy. If sheer force of will could keep someone sane, then I was the one to do
it. Ballerinas are made of willpower.
On the porch, the quiet didn't seem so oppressive. I could hear
the wind in the trees and, very faintly, the sound of the river. The night was
warmish, but the ceiling fan stirred the air. I grabbed an old quilt from the
back of the settee and wrapped it around Gigi and me as we curled up together.
I didn't think I would fall asleep, given the turmoil in my head,
and certainly not on the creaky wicker settee. But I couldn't quite face the
house and its creaks and sighs. Instead, I stroked Gigi's silky fur and reached
100
for the calm I felt when I dug my feet into the grass. Just like
my dad had taught me.
When I opened my eyes again, the moonlight had changed with the
passing of who knew how long. I'd worked my way down on the settee, neck at a
painful angle, Gigi snuggled against my chest. She was shivering in her sleep,
and I realized I was cold too, even with the quilt around us.
I thought--as much as I was thinking anything, because thinking
meant remembering why I was there-- that the chill had woken me, but then I
caught a faint sound, the same mournful keen I'd heard earlier in the evening.
It rose in a thin wail, and I lifted my heavy head, then winced at the crick in
my neck. Gigi gave a tiny, sleepy growl, but even she was too tired to get
excited over it.
The sound faded, and I pushed myself painfully upright, holding
Gigi securely in one arm. More than half asleep, I stumbled into the house and
down the hall. I limped up the stairs, pulling myself up by the handrail and
cursing whatever quirk of ventilation had made the center of the house so
damned cold. Teeth chattering, I found my room, closed the door against the
chill and fell into bed, careful not to squish Gigi.
I pulled the covers over us both, and she tucked her head under my
chin, already snoring. I wasn't far behind.
The sweet smell of lilacs was strong, and invaded my sleep as I
dreamed of searching the woods for something I'd lost, something I was
desperate to find.
101
***
Chapter 6
I woke to the smell of bacon frying. Or rather, Gigi did. Her
wiggling nudged me awake, and I pried open an eyelid as she stuck her twitching
nose out from under the covers.
"Ugh. Don't even think about it."
Struggling against the tangled blankets, I managed to get upright
and glance at the window, full of morning light. If someone was cooking, I had
obviously missed the opportunity to sneak the dog back down the way we'd come.
I would have to improvise.
102
Something about the daylight made yesterday's strangeness seem
small and manageable. Though maybe that was nothing more than the perspective
of distance, and when it snuck up on me again, it would be huge and
insurmountable.
If it snuck up again. Think positive, Sylvie.
I washed my face with the cold water in the pitcher on the
washstand. It seemed odd at first, but by the time I'd splashed my face,
standing on tiptoe to let the drips fall back into the basin, the motion was
oddly natural. I groped blindly for the towel, and found it on the first try.
The soap in the dish jarred me out of the moment. The smell wasn't
right somehow. It took a second before I realized what I had been expecting. If
the soap smelled of roses, then where was the lilac scent coming from?
I opened the cabinet, looking for shelf liners or potpourri. But
Gigi was getting anxious, so I didn't search very hard. I didn't mind the
scent, even if it was a little sweet for my taste.
Throwing on a pair of sweats and a camisole, I topped it with an
army green hoodie that my mother hated but I loved. Gigi was sniffing one of
the rugs, so I scooped her up and tucked her into my sweatshirt, zipping her
in. The only real problem with this plan was that I had zero boobs with which
to hide her. Hence my neglect to wear a bra.
Too late to worry whether I'd packed my push-up. I poked my head
out of my room, and all was quiet, so I closed the door behind me and scurried
down the hall.
103
The landing was warm, the sun streaming through the sheer curtains
on the French doors, and with Gigi licking my armpit under my jacket, nothing,
not even my own mental state, seemed ominous. I hadn't forgotten about seeing
someone standing at the window, though, while I'd been on the phone with John.
Curious, I went down the short hall that crossed the main landing, and lifted
the thin drape.
The view was spectacular. Forgetting about Gigi wiggling around
inside my sweatshirt, and the possibility of getting caught, I unlatched the
doors and let myself out onto the balcony.
From this vantage point, in the morning light, it was easier to
see the layout of the grounds; the house and gardens were on a cleared area
surrounded by uncultivated forest. The river snaked down from the northeast,
wide and still in the distance. To the north another, smaller river joined the
larger one before it disappeared behind the overgrowth of pine and moss-covered
oaks. It reappeared close to the house, where I'd seen it last night, then
vanished around a curve on its meandering path to the Gulf of Mexico.
At the railing, I had an overhead view of the backyard, where I'd
met Paula after returning from my walk. The yard was enclosed along the north
edge, bordered in back by a casually planted cottage garden. It made a cozy
spot, with a table for alfresco dining on one side and a small arbor seat on
the other.
The northeast side dropped down to the great lawn with a view of
the inlet, and the summerhouse on a hill. To the northwest, a trellis-covered
path led to a
104
brick building with stairs running up to a second-story landing.
Last night, Paula had gestured that way when she mentioned Clara and Addie's
apartment above the garage, and I could see Clara's domestic hand in the
flowerpots and window boxes around their door.
My subliminal upstaging sense warned me I wasn't alone. What told
me it was Rhys Griffith behind me-- maybe some funny-bone-type tingle--I
couldn't have said.
I turned to find him leaning against the doorjamb, looking as
though he might have been watching me for a while. Apparently my radar was a
little slow.
"Is stalking something they do for fun in Cardiff?" I
asked, arching my brows.
He wore khakis and a white T-shirt, proving that some things were
classics on both sides of the ocean. His dark hair had been finger combed at
best. I'd seen guys try way too hard for that attractively rumpled look with
much less success. I guess, by definition, "effortlessly handsome"
wasn't something you could work for.
Sauntering over, hands in his pockets, he said, "Good
morning, Vicious. And to your little dog, too."
I might have blushed if I hadn't been distracted by Gigi, who
wiggled so hard in my jacket I thought she'd strangle one or both of us.
Despite this, I made a stab at nonchalance. "I don't suppose there's any
point in pretending I have no idea what you're talking about."
"Nice try. If you want to sneak her out, you'll have to get
up earlier."
It's hard to be arch when you have a puppy's fluffy head sticking
out of your shirt, but I tried. "Yes, well, we divas have only one seven
o'clock in our day."
105
"I'm sure." He held out his fingers for Gigi to sniff,
then scratched under her ear. His knuckles brushed my collarbone, just briefly,
but the echo of his touch seemed to stay on my skin, and my pulse started tap
dancing at the base of my neck.
Rhys cleared his throat and stepped back. "I hope you enjoyed
meeting everyone last night."
Honesty or tact? Which way to go? I settled on ambiguous. "It
wasn't the worst part of my day." The rueful curve of his mouth said he
got what I meant, and I fought the pull of an answering smile. "I, um,
noticed you disappeared."
His smile broadened, as if my statement had been telling. Which I
guess it was. "I was typing up some notes for my father."
"Not into pizza with the gang?"
A shrug, and we were back to studied neutrality. "I'm a
stranger here."
The balcony caught a breeze from the river, and I brushed a strand
of hair from my face. "So am I."
His brows arched, the way they had when I'd tried to pretend I
didn't have Gigi down the front of my sweatshirt. "Yes, but you are
a Davis."
I pursed my lips in frustration. "Everyone keeps saying that
like it means something."
"Maybe it does," he said, ratcheting up my irritation
with his enigmatic tone.
It occurred to me that maybe I should find out what it did mean.
But first I had to get Gigi downstairs. I couldn't do anything until she'd had
her morning pee.
As if reading my thoughts--which would add a whole new level of
weirdness I couldn't deal with--Rhys
106
jerked his head toward the corner. "Come on, then. I'll show
you the secret way down."
He led me to the end of the balcony, where a thick growth of vines
hid a spiral iron staircase; I certainly hadn't noticed it in the dark. The
stairs had a fine patina of rust, but when Rhys stepped onto them, they seemed
sturdy. Still, I hesitated, one hand on the curved railing.
Rhys noticed my uncertainty and paused a few steps below me.
"It's perfectly safe. If it will hold me, it will certainly hold
you."
"Is that another crack about my being skinny?"
"It's an observation of physics," he said evenly, and
offered a hand. "Give me the dog if you're worried."
"She's fine." I, however, was not. I had been down many
spiral staircases, but not since I'd broken my leg. The thing about hitting the
ground in agonizing pain with your bone jutting out is that it takes a long
time to get over the fear it might happen again. If you ever do get over it. I
was still waiting.
The twist of the spiral meant stepping on the narrow part of the
wedge-shaped stair with my right leg. The traitorous one. It had been
incarcerated with rods and splints and casts for months, and after only a few
weeks of freedom, it hadn't had time to prove its loyalty.
Gigi, riding like a joey in a pouch, tilted her head as if to ask
what the holdup was. I guess dogs had no concept of paralyzing fears. Not my
dog, anyway.
I stood there so long, Rhys started back up the stairs.
"That's all right, then. We'll go the normal way."
"No." I'd had it with my disobedient psyche. It was
107
just a set of stairs, for God's sake. "I'm going to do
this."
The solution was one of brains over bravery--I simply turned and
went backward. That put my right leg on the broad end of the tread and, more
important, I didn't have to look down.
Midway to safety, Gigi realized we were headed for the grass and
started wiggling. I had to give up one handhold to quiet her. Before I could
waver, I felt Rhys's hand on my waist, resting there in reassurance. The light
yet firm pressure was perfect--no push, no pull, just gentle support to back up
his words. "I've got you."
Then my feet were on the ground, and I freed Gigi from my jacket
and set her on the grass. She ran in frantic, joyful circles around the back
garden, flinging up dew with abandon. Even Rhys laughed at her antics, though
he shook his head. "Ridiculous."
"I know. She grows on you, though."
"She does, at that."
I didn't glance his way, because the part of me that inexplicably liked
this mystery guy--when he wasn't calling me vicious or princess or other
inaccurate names-- wanted to simply enjoy the moment, feeling like a normal
girl, standing beside a boy and wondering if he was enjoying standing next to
me. It was an uncomplicated moment in my very complicated life.
"You'd best get in to breakfast," he said, which settled
the enjoying-my-company question.
"Aren't you going to eat?" I made my tone equally
neutral, to hide how much the answer mattered.
108
Rhys looked at me with a teasing smile, even as he started walking
backward down the flagstone path. "I've already eaten, princess. I'm off
to start my day."
"Oh." I gave him a closer look, getting past the effect
he had on me to the actual clothes he was wearing. The khakis were sturdy, his
shoes made for hiking. Well worn, too. "Where are you going?"
"To work. Strange as that concept might seem." The
cheekiness of that addition made me wonder if all the "princess"
business might be a diversion. When I got defensive, I failed to follow up on
unanswered questions. I inhaled to ask--okay, demand--clarification, but Rhys
pointed to the hedged garden and said, "Your designer dog is mucking about
in the shrubbery."
My head snapped to look. Gigi was indeed making a beeline for the
overgrown garden we'd passed through the night before. Effectively distracted,
I hurried after her through the gap in the hedge.
The low-lying jungle of untamed foliage looked as big a mess in
the daylight as it had in the dark. Knot gardens should have formal structure,
with paths and planting beds that made intricate geometric shapes, like Celtic
knots. But here, grass and weeds obscured the pattern of the gravel and stone paths,
and the beds were a jumble of weed-choked herbs.
One path, though, was still fairly clear, delineating the central
feature of the garden: the circular flower bed, which was so overgrown I
couldn't make out any remnant of an internal pattern. It surrounded the
shapeless column of greenery that Gigi and I had noticed on our walk. That was
where I found my stubborn
109
dog, bounding into the tangle, barking her breathy little bark.
I grabbed for her, but I would have been too slow even with two
good legs. "Darn it, Gigi!"
Wading into the scraggly, knee-high foliage, I tried not to think
about snakes, tried not to picture myself getting tangled up and falling,
breaking something new. My steps released the sweet, green aroma of the herbs,
and the smell clung to Gigi as I scooped her up. She was soaked with dew, and
now so was I.
"Nice job, you stupid dog," I grumbled, wiping at the
flecks of leaves clinging to the front of my hoodie. But it was impossible to
stay mad at Gigi when she gave a little "Ruff!" and grinned, her
tongue curled in happiness. I guess for a city dog all this green was a
paradise she'd only dreamed of.
I put my hand on the central topiary for balance as I turned, and
was surprised when my fingers slid through the foliage and touched a hard,
rough surface. The column wasn't a shaped hedge but a stone, almost as tall as
me, and covered in thick vines. They were tenacious when I tried to pull them
aside, and all I could glimpse through them was dark rock. It didn't seem to be
a statue, but just a stone, stood on one end.
Maybe it would make more sense if the garden were in its intended
shape. Or maybe there was a piece missing. It was an odd thing to be stuck
there, all by itself.
"Sylvie Davis, what are you doing?"
I jumped, and Gigi yelped as I clutched her too tightly. Peering
around the vine-covered stone, I found Paula frowning at me from the side
veranda.
110
Only her head and shoulders were visible over the hedges that
enclosed the knot garden, but I just knew her hands were on her hips.
"Walking the dog," I said, trying to sound as normal as
possible.
"In the bushes?"
"She sort of got away from me." I felt stupid standing
in the wet weeds, but brazened it out. "I wanted to get a look at the
garden, since I couldn't see much in the dark last night."
"Well, you don't have to do it right this minute. Come in and
get some breakfast."
She went into the house, shaking her head, and I let out my
breath. She didn't seem more exasperated than usual, so hopefully I hadn't
raised some red flag for abnormal behavior. God knew what the stepshrink had
told her to watch out for. I didn't want to think about last night, about how
scared I was that I was losing my grip on reality. It was bad enough that I was
worried I might be going crazy. If Paula suspected something was up with me,
things could get miserable. More miserable, I mean. Which was saying something.
I returned through the backyard and carefully climbed the stairs
to the screened porch, then tucked Gigi into her crate with a bowl of kibble
and fresh water from her bottle. When I went into the kitchen, Paula and Addie
sat at the big table, my cousin already engrossed in a newspaper, and my
nemesis glaring at me over a glass of orange juice. Clara turned from the stove,
frying pan in hand, as I came in.
"Lord, girl! Don't tell me you were out there in
111
your bare feet. How did you get down without my seeing you?"
I took the same seat I had last night, and fudged a bit. "I
went out the side door in the den and came around to let Gigi out." Though
I was sure the spiral stairs weren't really a secret, I figured I'd keep my
knowledge of them on the q.t. for now.
Addie, dressed for school, a large backpack beside her chair, gave
my sweats a sneer. "Nice of you to join us downstairs."
"I smelled breakfast." I smelled bait, too, in her words
and tone, and refused to rise to it. Instead, I ignored her and turned to
Paula. "What's the deal with the rock in the garden?"
"That's what gives Bluestone Hill its name," she said,
her drawl warming the way it did whenever she talked about the house.
"Though you wouldn't know it, these gardens used to be famous. Your dad
came by his green thumb naturally."
"They seem pretty unique," I agreed politely, leaving
unspoken my doubt that the old-school Davises had done their own gardening. I
was more interested in the idea that Bluestone Hill had sparked Dad's interest
in landscape architecture.
Clara put a plate of bacon and eggs in front of Addie and a glass
of orange juice in front of me. "How do you want your eggs?" she
asked.
I usually just had yogurt or fruit in the morning, but I took the
path of least resistance. "Scrambled."
Satisfied with my compliance, she returned to the stove and
cracked a couple of eggs into a bowl. "Where
112
are the Griffiths?" I asked, fishing for information by
pretending I hadn't already seen Rhys. When Clara glanced at me, brows arched,
I added hastily, "I was looking forward to meeting the professor."
"Uh-huh," said Clara in a knowing tone.
Paula, however, apparently read no special interest in my
question. "Places to go, people to see," she said. "I think the
professor mentioned going down to Mobile, and Rhys went to put on his hiking
boots. You must have just missed him on the stairs."
Addie speared her eggs with her fork. "Not everyone can lie
around in their pajamas all day."
I made up my mind to keep ignoring her, since that seemed to annoy
her the most, and asked Paula, "Where did Rhys go in his hiking
boots?"
"Duh," said Addie, ignoring my ignoring her.
"Hiking."
Clara answered more politely as she deftly scrambled my eggs.
"He goes out at the crack of dawn sometimes. I guess he's a morning
person. How many pieces of bacon?"
I had to redirect my thoughts at that last question. "None,
thank you."
Skillet in hand, she turned to glare a warning. "If this is
about calories ..."
"No," I assured her. "I just don't eat meat."
Clara stared as if I'd said I'd rather have dead baby for
breakfast. Addie narrowed her eyes. But most worrisome was the way Paula slowly
lowered the newspaper.
Oh boy. I had a sinking feeling in the pit of my
113
stomach, one that had nothing to do with the menu. "I'm
guessing my mother didn't tell you I'm a vegetarian?"
"You mean," said Clara, looking distraught, "you
don't eat meat at all?"
"I eat cheese," I said, trying to help her out.
"And eggs, as long as they're not fried. I don't eat fried food."
She set the pan on the burner and turned off the flame.
"Girl, no wonder you're so skinny. What do you eat?"
Paula had pressed her lips tight together, as if she was annoyed
but trying to be polite. Addie didn't even try. "Come on. You don't expect
my mother to change her whole menu because you're a picky eater."
"Adina!" said Clara. "Be nice."
"It's not as if she has allergies, right?"
My cheeks burned with embarrassment. On the one hand, sooner or
later, someone at their future inn was going to have dietary restrictions even
more rigid than mine. But on the other hand, he or she would be a paying guest,
not a relation foisted on them because she had nowhere else to go.
"Just cook what you normally do," I said, miserable,
"and I'll eat what I can. I'll be fine."
Paula stood up, folding the newspaper. "Well, honey, you have
to eat," she said, in the same tone in which she had told me that Gigi
couldn't sleep in my room. "We'll work it out. Clara can tempt just about
anyone with her cooking."
I debated how to take that. Because in Paulaspeak, I'd noticed
"we'll work it out" usually meant "we'll do
114
what I think is best." Before I could decide whether it was
worth getting angry about, heavy footsteps on the back porch heralded an
arrival. Grateful for the distraction, I turned to see Shawn, the leader of the
Teen Town Council.
He came in without knocking, charging the air with his presence.
"Heya, Miss Paula, Miss Clara," he said, and greeted everyone with a
casual wave. His smiling gaze rested on me just a little longer than on the
others, the warm glow of his attention chasing away my lingering tension.
Paula paused on her way to her room, smiling indulgently back at
him, like a teacher at a favorite pupil. "Good morning, Shawn. Is this
your last day of school?"
"One more half-day tomorrow."
Addie sulked over her eggs. "I still have finals next
week."
"But then you'll be a senior," said Clara, in a cajoling
voice. "And you'll rule the campus like Shawn does now."
The roll of Addie's eyes closed that conversation. Shawn chuckled
and pulled out the chair beside mine, straddling it as he sat down, and folding
his arms over the back. "Hey, Sylvie. You disappeared before I could say
goodnight yesterday."
"So I'll say good morning, instead." The words were
almost flirtatious, but I kept my tone reserved, setting my figurative heels
against the pull of his charm. It was nice, though, after Addie's glares and
Paula's frowns, to have someone smile at me.
115
"How was your first night in Alabama? Did you sleep
okay?"
"Eventually." I didn't mention I'd spent most of it on
the porch, worried I was going bonkers. "The quiet takes some getting used
to."
"Yeah," said Addie. "No police sirens."
"Just your cat." I fiddled with my fork. "You might
want to think about getting her fixed. Her wailing gave me the weirdest
dreams."
"What are you talking about?" Addie had a potent
are-you-an-idiot stare. I'll bet she practiced it a lot.
Clara looked at me oddly as she set down my plate. "We don't
have a cat."
"Oh." I reached for my orange juice, trying to keep my
expression unconcerned. Just because they didn't have a cat didn't mean there
couldn't be some feral feline out in the woods. Or some other reasonable
explanation besides the possibility I was now hearing things as well as
seeing them. "It must have been the wind."
"Maybe it was one of the ghosts," said Shawn, as he
reached across the table for a piece of Addie's bacon.
I inhaled sharply, and choked on my juice. Shawn patted me
helpfully on the back, looking smug that he'd gotten such a big reaction.
Clara picked up Paula's newspaper with an impatient rustle.
"Shawn Maddox, don't you start that."
"Aw, come on, Miss Clara." His voice took on a gee-whiz
sort of tone, a little too much to be believed. "Everyone talks about the
ghosts of Bluestone Hill."
"The what?" I wheezed.
116
'Everyone' doesn't have to live here," Clara chided, hitting
his shoulder with the folded paper. "Don't scare poor Sylvie."
"I'm not scared." The thinness of my voice didn't sound
very convincing, even to me, so I tried again, speaking sternly to the
overactive imagination that kept showing me slide shows of the past.
"There's no such thing as ghosts."
"Are you sure?" Shawn waggled his eyebrows. "There
are a lot of things in the world that people can't explain."
Clara clicked her tongue, disapproving. "You know Paula
doesn't like that superstitious talk."
"She ought to capitalize on it." Shawn's eyes lit up
with enthusiasm and infectious good humor, thawing some of the chill that his
suggestion had put around my heart. "A historic place like this, a ghost
might draw tourists. Look at all those ghost-hunter shows on TV. Maybe one would
come and do an episode about the Hill."
Clara rolled her eyes. "Lord. That would rouse the Colonel,
and that's a fact."
"Who 15 the Colonel?" I asked. Paula had made a similar
crack last night, something about the Colonel rolling in his grave.
"Colonel Davis," said Shawn, relishing my curiosity,
like a storyteller with a new audience. "That's who supposedly haunts
the house."
"That's enough of that," Clara said with finality.
"You don't believe that nonsense and neither do I. Now get off to
school."
117
Her practical, maternal tone set the morning back on a normal
course and returned me to my metaphorical feet. Of course ghosts were nonsense.
Of course this place was spurring my imagination. That didn't have to mean that
I was losing my ability to tell fantasy from reality.
Addie downed the rest of her juice, rose from her chair and
grabbed her backpack, all in the same motion. "Let's get going, Shawn. I
have a review quiz first period."
She was out the door with scarcely a "Bye, Mom" over her
shoulder. Shawn stood, but didn't hurry off. "So," he asked, holding
my chair as I rose too, "what are you going to do on your first day in
scenic Alabama?"
"I'm not sure yet," I answered. "As little as
possible, I think." Clara had her back to us as she rinsed the dishes, but
I suspected she was paying attention to the conversation. Possibly Shawn
thought the same thing, because he moved toward the back door, gesturing with a
jerk of his head for me to follow him out.
On the porch, Gigi watched us from her crate, tilting her head
curiously. "I get out of school early today and tomorrow," Shawn
said. "I could show you around the town, or whatever you wanted."
He stood just on the edge of my personal space, smiling a Tom
Sawyer sort of smile, the kind that could get him into, or out of, all sorts of
trouble. I had no difficulty imagining that a smile like that could be Becky
Thatcher's downfall.
In a way, it was the strength of that pull that made
118
me hesitate. Liking Shawn was very easy, and it was against my
nature to do anything the easy way.
"I'll think about it," I said, not entirely shutting him
down. "If I feel like getting dressed."
His grin widened. "Don't bother on my account."
He managed to make me blush. Out in the truck, Addie leaned on the
horn, and Shawn hurried to join her, letting the screen door bang behind him.
The effect of his smile lingered behind him, like the Cheshire cat's slowly
disappearing grin.
I let Gigi out of her crate, thinking, strangely enough, about
picket fences. Believe it or not, there's a ballet Tom Sawyer. It's by a
Russian, so I wouldn't use it to write a book report. But my point is that Tom,
with his Southern charm and boyish grin, was still a trickster. Maybe I needed
to remember that.
Shawn seemed straightforward, but his interest was ... intense.
I'm reasonably attractive, but Shawn was obviously the golden boy around here.
Was I a novelty--score with the new girl? And why did he and the Teen Town
Council welcome my arrival, while Addie seemed to view it as a personal
affront?
Then there was Rhys. I was certainly attracted, but he had no
trouble irritating me, too. And what was he working on in the woods? He'd made
it sound more than recreational. Or had that been just to tease me about
sleeping in?
Two men of mystery. Three if you counted my dad.
I sighed and pulled the scrunchie out of my tangled hair. As if I
had any business even thinking about guys when there were big, important things
to worry about,
119
like what I was going to do with the rest of my life, and how I
was going to keep from going crazy while stuck here.
Crazier, I mean.
Because the thing that shook me up when Shawn mentioned ghosts
wasn't the idea that the house was haunted. It was that, just for a second, I
hoped it was. If I was grasping at the supernatural for a lifeline where my
sanity was concerned, I was a lot farther gone than I had thought.
120
***
Chapter 7
Back in the kitchen, I asked Clara how I could learn more about
the Davis family history. Thinking about sanity made me think of John, and of
what he'd said the night before. While I was here, maybe I should find
out more about my dad and my family. And the best place to start anything was
at the beginning.
Accepting the plates I brought from the table, Clara said
absently, "You could ask your cousin Paula. She'll be happy to tell you
anything you want to know."
I went back for the juice glasses and Paula's mug. "I
121
was thinking more about an unbiased source. Like a book or
something."
Clara chuckled. "I don't expect you'd find anything unbiased
here in the house. You could take the car up to Selma, I suppose."
"I don't have a driver's license." I'd never needed one
in the city, and I'd been too busy dancing to learn for the fun of it.
"Well, I'll be happy to take you when I go in for groceries.
Or you could ask Rhys to drive you, when he comes back from his trekking."
With a dish towel, I began drying the glasses she set on the drain
board. I was hardly the domestic type, but pitching in seemed natural in Clara's
homey kitchen. "So, seriously. Is the guy just a nature nut or what?"
"Seriously," she echoed, handing me another glass, her
brows arched, "I don't know. It's none of my business. He said something
about rock collecting, but I think he was joking. The boy's well past the age
for earning Scouting badges."
"I guess." I remembered him loading my luggage in the
car, and how scratched up his hands were. He was definitely doing something out
in the brush.
"Anyway," said Clara as she pulled the stopper and let
the sink drain. "There are some books in the Colonel's study you could start
with."
I stared at her, the towel dangling from my fingers. "The
Colonel's study? The colonel who's supposed to haunt the house?"
With an impatient sound, she took the dishrag and dried her hands.
"Lord, don't you start. Colonel Davis
122
has been dead for a hundred and thirty-odd years. Lots of people
have used that room since. Some men cast long shadows, that's all."
But I noticed she hadn't exactly denied the haunting part.
***
I didn't ask for permission to bring Gigi upstairs. Paula had only
said she couldn't sleep with me, not that she couldn't come up at all.
Gigi pranced beside me, tags jingling, while I tried to remember
Paula's quickly rattled-off orientation to the house. The landing made a U
around the stairwell. To the front of the house was a suite that she planned to
divide into two bedrooms. To one side was my room, and opposite me, the other
guest rooms. I'd already found the French doors to the balcony this morning.
Near them, down the same short hallway leading back from the landing, was the
study.
At the paneled wood door, I paused, my hand on the knob. Gigi
looked up at me, cocking her head in a question.
"It's a test," I said. "If I'm crazy, then the
power of suggestion will make me see something when I open this door. If
there's nothing there, then I am still in control of my senses."
Unless there really was such a thing as ghosts, in which case, my
test proved nothing either way.
Ghosts, Sylvie ? Really ?
No, not really. But it would explain a lot.
123
"I could stand here all day at this rate." And sooner or
later someone was going to come by and wonder why I was standing with my face
to the door, talking to myself.
Decisively, I turned the knob. The heavy oak swung easily on
well-oiled hinges. It stirred the hair that escaped my ponytail, tickling my
cheek, but no other sensation came with it. I edged forward and peered in,
quickly scanning the room, and found it empty of ghosts or any other
apparitions.
The breath I held ran out in relief, and I pried my fingers off
the brass doorknob. "See?" I told Gigi. "Nothing there. And
nothing here." I tapped my forehead.
She sniffed the air and went in, stiff-legged with curiosity. I
followed, distracted for a moment by the floor-to-ceiling shelves that lined
the walls, filled with cloth- and leather-bound books. Dust motes danced in the
sunlight filtering through the sheer curtains. Heavier drapes framed the
windows, faded in streaks, darker in the folds.
It smelled like old paper and furniture polish. The flat surfaces
were dust-free, and there were no cobwebs in the corners, though the paint on
the ceiling cornices was yellowed with age. All but the edges of the wood floor
were covered by a worn Oriental carpet, and a wingback chair and ottoman sat
beside the fireplace.
Strangely, I couldn't picture myself curling up to read there.
Despite the books and the hearth and the embroidered cushions placed in the
chair, this was not an inviting spot.
124
Gigi seemed to agree with me. She walked in circles, nose to the
ground, but didn't look inclined to sit and linger.
Maybe it was the massive desk that dominated the room. The sides
were carved simply, the top inlaid with a Greek-key pattern--a beautiful piece
of furniture that somehow managed to be unappealing at the same time.
Everything about it said it wouldn't be budged. And judging by the pattern of
wear on the carpet, it hadn't been moved in a long time. Maybe ever.
I made myself sit in the desk chair. The arms were teak, darker
where my hands rested, and the wood creaked softly as I lowered myself into it.
The seat and back were leather, but with minimal padding. Uncompromising and
uncomfortable, like the man who had sat there.
Come on, Sylvie. Get a grip. How would you know that ?
Maybe because the Colonel's stamp was all over the room. He didn't
have to haunt in a traditional, chain-rattling sense. Across from the desk was
a glass-front case full of antique military regalia: a pair of pistols with
ivory handles, a belt buckle and collection of brass buttons, and a big-brimmed
cavalry hat with gold cord. A folded flag. Needless to say, it was not the
Stars and Stripes.
Defiantly, I moved a brass inkwell to the left side of the felt
blotter. Take that, Colonel Davis, if you are still hanging around.
Pulling open drawers, I rummaged for treasures of a less military
nature, something that would tell me more about my ancestor. Any ancestor. The
only
125
antiques I found were a roll of twenty-nine-cent stamps and a
telephone book from 1986.
I sighed. "Whatever you do here, Colonel, it isn't keeping up
with correspondence."
I pushed myself out of the chair and went to the case of
memorabilia, taking it in, though not really studying it in detail. Was this
what Dad had wanted to leave behind? This glorification of a past that didn't
really bear up to scrutiny?
My gaze fell on the wall shelf next to the case. That was sensible
filing--the dusty history of the Davises, shelved beside the relics of one
man's glorious past. I pulled a book free. Cloth-bound, except for the worn
leather on the spine. The pages were unevenly trimmed, so they didn't flip
smoothly as I thumbed through the thin volume. The type was old-fashioned, and
I checked the publisher and date on the copyright page: University of Alabama
Press, I935-
The Davis Family in Alabama. By William S. Davis, Esq.
Not exactly what I'd meant by unbiased. But Clara had warned
me.
I poked around and found a few more old books: Alabama and the
War Between the States, Antebellum Houses, and Southern Gardens. All
from the last century, all from Southern publishers. Most with the Confederate
flag featured prominently on the cover. I guessed the Colonel didn't like any
dissenting opinions in his study.
The chair creaked, a distinctive sound, the unmistakable protest
of wood. My heart thudded so hard I was surprised it didn't bang against the
book I clutched to my chest. When I spun around, I expected to see the dog
getting into trouble.
126
"Gigi?"
I found her by her tiny, electric-motor growl. She'd been beside
me already, but now she rose, her neck fluff standing straight up as she stared
at the chair behind the desk, empty, yet sighing under an invisible weight.
127
***
Chapter 8
A. cold wash of panic froze me in place. I held my breath, waiting
to see what would happen. What was the next step in madness? Would I see
monsters? Would I snap, start raving about implants in my head and men from
Mars?
But nothing happened. I finally had to let out one lungful of air
to take another, or I'd pass out. The decision to breathe spurred me past my
paralysis, and I scooped up Gigi and fled the study, closing the door firmly
behind me.
128
As if I could close the door on my own broken mind.
I headed for my room, thoughts bouncing around my head like rubber
balls, blood zinging through my veins, senses on full alert. Except for the
complete inability to focus my thoughts, being crazy felt a lot like the rush
of dancing onstage.
Shutting the door carefully, I put Gigi on my bed, numbly
marveling at how quickly she returned to her usual sunny self, exploring the
rumpled covers with happy curiosity, when just seconds ago she'd been growling.
She'd been growling. That was important somehow.
Pulling out the chair to the writing desk, I sat down heavily as
adrenaline drained the strength out of my legs. Startled to find I was still
carrying the Davis family history book from the study, I placed it on the
corner of the desk.
Come on, Sylvie. Stop freaking out and focus.
I'm an abstract thinker when it comes to choreography, which is
all rhythm and patterns. But my sanity was at stake here; I needed to look at
things in a concrete way.
The scent of lilacs wafted out as I opened the center drawer. I
found writing paper--perfumed, I supposed-- and a pen, ready for ladylike
correspondence. Placing a sheet square on the blotter, I drew a line down the
middle to make a two-column list. One side said: Reasons why I might be
crazy. The other said: Reasons why I might not be ready for a
white coat with sleeves that buckle in back.
129
On the Crazy side I wrote:
1. There's no such thing as ghosts.
The Not Crazy side got this:
1. The fact that I'm making this list.
2 Power of suggestion + creaky, drafty house = overactive
imagination.
3. Gigi heard something too.
I hesitated before I added that last one, because it didn't go
with the first two. She couldn't have heard my overactive imagination, but she
could have reacted to my reaction, in which case it could have gone in either
column. But I didn't want Not Crazy to be ahead by only one point.
Because the point under Crazy was pretty unarguable.
Regardless of the score, the act of writing things out had
restored some of my equilibrium, like I could grip reality now that I could
grip the paper.
A tap on the door made me jump. Gigi's growl was muffled--she'd
burrowed under the covers, so I didn't worry about hiding her. The list,
however, might as well have been contraband drugs, I was so desperate to get
rid of it.
"Sylvie?" Paula's voice came clearly through the door.
"Just a sec." What I needed was an old-fashioned secret
compartment. As soon as the notion entered my head, my hand went unerringly to
the bottom of the center drawer. A tiny latch opened a panel underneath. The
paper crumpled as I shoved it in but the compartment clicked firmly closed.
With a quick glance to make sure Gigi was out of sight, I went to
let in my cousin. But I moved too fast,
130
coming down hard on my right leg just before I swung open the
door.
Paula was dressed in the same crisp khakis and button-down shirt
she'd worn at breakfast. She'd already drawn a breath to speak, but when she
looked me up and down, she obviously changed whatever she was about to say.
"Good heavens, girl. What is the matter with you?"
"Foot fell asleep," I said, with a very real grimace.
"Took me a minute to get out of the chair."
She gave me a doubtful look. "I'm guessing that's not all
that was asleep. I've been calling you for ten minutes. Clara is making
lunch."
"Lunch?" I looked at the clock on the bedside table.
"I guess time got away from me." At least my mother had taught me a
few useful things, like how a little spin-doctoring could save a world of
trouble. And I knew what would please Paula, so I pointed to the book on the
desk. "I was reading some family history."
Her brows winged upward, and she entered without invitation to
pick up the book. "Did you get this from the study?"
"I hope you don't mind."
"Of course not. I'm happy you're taking an interest."
She laid the book down, then sat at the desk, straightening the pen on the
blotter. I kept my eyes resolutely off the drawer.
"Have a seat, Sylvie. Let's have a little chat."
Crap. Nothing good was going to come of a start like that. What
had I done? Had she figured out I'd brought Gigi upstairs--twice? Eying the
quiet lump
131
under the covers, I sat in the upholstered chair so Paula's back
would be to the bed.
"Clara told me you had trouble sleeping last night." She
stared at the wall, just over my shoulder, as if the subject were awkwardly
personal. "Something about a nightmare?"
"Just a dream. Strange place. The wind." I tried not to
sound defensive about the fact that my every quirk was under scrutiny. Maybe
this was ironic, since no one was scrutinizing me harder than me. But damn it,
I'd just stepped my panic down a notch, and now the knot in my chest was
twisting tight again.
"Are you going to report that back to Mother and Dr.
Steve?" I challenged.
The briefest flash of guilt on Paula's face convinced me I wasn't
overreacting. The step-shrink had definitely said something to her. I had to
clench my hands on my knees to hold back my anger, which edged out fear by a
narrow margin.
Paula shook her head, showing me the magnolia rather than the
steel. For now. "I'm not reporting anything to them," she said.
"But I do know you've been under a lot of stress. And I just want you to
know, you can tell me anything."
Her earnest gravity forced me to bite back my hot retort. Paula
was going on what Mother and Dr. Steve had told her. For all I knew he could
have warned her I might snap at any time, do a Lizzie Borden number some night.
Like my real shrink would let me wander free if that were a possibility.
I caught a breath of lilac, which reminded me of my
132
list and that Not Crazy was ahead at the moment. I needed
to act like it, or I would be in trouble. If they were watching me, I was going
to have to be careful and guard my reactions. Which might be paranoia, and have
to go in the Crazy column. I unclenched my teeth and choked out,
"Thanks, Cousin Paula. I know you want what's best for me."
Everyone wanted what was best for me, which was a completely
different thing from wanting me to be happy.
She pressed her lips together like she wanted to say more. It was
the expression of someone who was choosing her battles, and my sullen tone was
apparently a fight she was going to let slide. "Fine," she said, as
if that settled it. "Now let's talk about what you're going to do with the
rest of your day."
That was not what I expected her to say. "Um, I thought I
would read my book, then maybe walk to town."
"Oh, honey, you can't walk to town."
"But I thought it was close by."
"Well, yes. About two miles from here."
Two miles used to be an easy jog. I could walk it, but I
hadn't tested my leg's limits that far yet. I'd hate to get there and be unable
to get back. But I hated feeling trapped more. "That's not so far."
Paula slapped her hands on her knees and stood with the purposeful
cheer of a cruise director. "I have a better idea."
My sigh rang with resignation. "I thought you might."
133
"Why don't you get started painting the front bed-rooms r
I stared at her like she'd suggested I start flying to the moon.
"What?"
"I think it would be good for you to do something active. The
whole idea behind your coming here was to give you something to do besides
languish around your apartment in that big, anonymous city."
"You mean, the idea was to use me for free labor?" I
struggled to my feet. "Is that how I'm earning my room and board?"
Paula looked genuinely appalled at the idea. "Sylvie, this is
your family home. We are kin. You don't have to earn anything." But the
steel overtook the magnolia in her voice as she squared her shoulders.
"Which doesn't mean I'm going to let you lie around the house in your
pajamas all day."
Our voices had roused Gigi, whose lump began writhing under the
quilt, emitting little growls. Paula whirled at the sound, just as Gigi popped
out from the covers, her fluff standing straight up around her head.
"What did I say about that dog?" Paula
demanded.
Gigi gave a winsome, playful bark, but my cousin was unmoved. I
set my jaw stubbornly. "You said she couldn't sleep with me at night. You
didn't say she had to stay in her crate all the time."
Paula pressed her hands to her eyes. "Get dressed and come
down for lunch." She headed for the open door, muttering as she went.
"This is why I never had children of my own."
I turned to Gigi when she was gone. "Why does
134
everyone think I'm so high maintenance? I'd be no trouble to
anyone if they had just let me stay in Manhattan."
If I was enough trouble, would Paula send me back? The thought
didn't spark the same hope that it had before I saw Bluestone Hill. Leaving
would not be the same as never coming here. I couldn't unlearn my father's
background, and I couldn't unask my questions.
***
Lunch consisted of a gargantuan salad, as if Clara was trying to
make up the lack of carnivorous content in vegetable volume. She and Paula
discussed business matters, since I didn't try to make small talk. I felt
obliged to sulk, and live up to expectations. Or down, as the case may be.
After I'd finished my salad, I took the Davis history book and the
bowl of leftover blackberry cobbler that Clara forced on me--to improve my
mood, she said-- and went out to the garden with Gigi.
I meant to stay in the backyard, maybe even sit under the arbor,
but Gigi headed again to the knot garden at the side of the house. I'd brought
an old blanket I'd found on the side porch, one that had obviously done picnic
duty before, and I spread it where the invading grass had made a soft spot in
the out-of-control garden. Gigi sprawled in the center of the quilt until I
scooted her over so I could stretch out on my stomach, the sun on my back and
warm through my clothes.
Despite the overgrown disorder, I felt nature working its usual
magic on me. The garden's hedges hid me
135
from the house--unless you were on the balcony upstairs--and by
the time I finished the cobbler and Gigi finished the ice cream, I felt calm
for the first time since Shawn Maddox had mentioned the word "ghost."
Well, maybe not calm. There was still that lilac piece of paper
hidden in my desk. I didn't need to look at it to know how close the score was.
But in the garden, that seemed further away. The sun shone, bees flew, grass
grew, and the whole thing would keep happening whether I was crazy or not.
Setting aside the bowl, I pulled the book toward me and dove in.
Twenty pages later, I decided that slapping up paint would be better than this.
Hell, watching paint dry would be better than reading William S. Davis,
Esq.
I started skimming the text. On one hand, I began to understand
why the Davis name was such a big deal here. The family had settled the area
and been instrumental in just about everything that happened for two hundred
years. But from this book, I didn't get why anyone would be excited about
meeting a Davis, living or dead. Old William S. had somehow managed to
simultaneously make the family unbelievably grandiose and excruciatingly
boring.
Flipping forward, I looked for mention of the Colonel. There was
indeed a lengthy chapter on Josiah Davis, and it was as dry as the rest of the
book. Blah blah blah Battle of This, Siege of That, yadda yadda yadda
Reconstruction ... But nothing about the man's personality. I had to infer what
I could from his study, and the formal portrait in the book.
It was a bad print of an old photograph. One of
136
those where the subject had to sit still for about fifteen minutes
while the image developed. It was hard to see anything other than a man in a
high-collared shirt and double-breasted coat sitting ramrod straight in a
chair, a young woman with a baby in her arms standing beside him.
I thought she might be his daughter, but the caption underneath
said: Colonel Josiah Davis and his second wife, Mary Maddox Davis, holding
their son, Joshua. She didn't look much older than me. And her expression
definitely didn't say it was a love match.
Was Mary Maddox Davis my multiple-great-grandmother? And the
maiden name--did that make her Shawn's however-many-great-aunt?
I couldn't tell much from the dark, blurry photograph and the
stiff, sober look on her face. She didn't look very nice, though I wouldn't
either if I had to marry a man old enough to be my father. I knew girls got
married young back then, and a lot of the men her age would have died in the
war, limiting her choices. But still. Not a pleasant prospect.
What happened to the Colonel's first wife? I flipped back a few
pages and scanned the text. Ah, died in childbirth with her sixth kid. So where
were all the offspring? Even allowing for infant mortality, there should be a
few to surround dear old dad and their stepmother. Did the sons die in battle?
Had the girls all been married off by the time the photo was taken?
I tried to find the answers in the chapter, but the prosaic
writing was useless. William S. Davis managed to record every boring detail
about the Colonel's charge
137
at the Battle of Chickamanga, and nothing I wanted to know.
To judge by the book, not only had my ancestors been devoid of
personality, they apparently bred only boys. There were almost no wives or
daughters or sisters mentioned, at least as far as I'd gotten. I rolled over,
contemplating the house, and what things would have been like for a Davis
daughter in the mansion's heyday, when Bluestone Hill had been full of life and
activity.
From where I lay, I couldn't see the satellite dish, or the cars
parked by the garage. Lulled by the garden, I indulged my imagination this
time, purposefully trying to picture what the place would have looked like in
the Colonel's time. Instead of overgrown and weedy, the hedges were neatly
trimmed, and the herbs and plantings cut back so that the geometric pattern was
clear. I could smell lavender and geranium, crisp and green.
Instead of a quilt, my skirt was spread around me, the hoop
carefully collapsed so it wouldn't flip up. My corset stays pressed into my
ribs, and I could take only shallow breaths. Not a comfortable position, but I
wanted to watch the sun crawl across the sky, marking time while I waited for--
For what? The question nudged me out of a doze, where my creative
visualization had gone off-script, undirected. The character I'd created in my
head was waiting for someone.
My shrink would call this projection. It irritated me, though,
that my imagination couldn't supply an identity.
138
A shadow fell across my face, and I squinted blearily into the
sun. Gigi gave a sleepy growl and nestled closer to my side. "Is it
you?" I asked, not sure what, or who, I meant, still caught in the sticky
web of dreaming.
"It depends on whom you're expecting." The accent was
lilting and droll. Rhys. Of course.
I rubbed my eyes and sat up. "Do people really say 'whom'
where you're from? Outside of the BBC, I mean."
"Sometimes." He looked down at me, one eyebrow raised.
"Did you have a nice nap?"
Even with the sun warm on my face, my blush was hot. "I
wasn't sleeping; I was thinking."
Rhys moved a step over so I didn't have to squint into the light.
"Thinking about what?"
"About my great-great-grandmothers and -aunts, and what it
would have been like to live here when this place was new." Pulling my
knees up, I propped my folded arms on top of them. "Back in the bad old
days."
"Well, it wouldn't have been bad for you, princess." He
wasn't scornful exactly, but his tone was pitched to poke holes in any
pretenses of hardship I had. "Being the daughter of the house and
all."
"Yeah. I'd have had it better than most women." I glared
up at him, irritated I had to crane my neck to do so. "But I'd still have
no rights, have to marry whoever they told me to and have babies until I
dropped dead."
I'm sure he could have countered by pointing out how spoiled I
was, or how I took my relative lack of hardship for granted. Instead, after a
thoughtful beat, he just said, "Whomever they told you to."
139
I laughed, even though I'd been irked a moment before. Rhys looked
startled, and my frown snapped back. "What?"
"Nothing," he said, sounding bemused. "You have a
nice laugh. Sitting there in your bare feet and your hair all mussed, you don't
look like the same girl who got off the plane yesterday."
"Well, I am." Uncertainty made me grumpy. I pulled the
rubber band from the tangled remnants of my ponytail, and gestured to my jeans
and T-shirt. "This is the real me."
His gaze went to my feet. "Do you have something against
shoes? That's playing against type, isn't it?"
I tucked my feet under my knees, sitting cross-legged, and scowled
for good measure. I'm sure he meant that no self-respecting socialite would be
caught dead with feet like mine--calloused, boxy, knobby in the toe joints.
Mother had taken me for a pedicure when the cast came off, and the aesthetician
had been happy to enumerate the ways in which pointe shoes had given me the
feet of an ogre.
"I'm not a type." I would have been angrier, if I
didn't suspect he was needling me, as usual.
Gigi got up, stretched and tottered over sleepily to fall into the
well of my folded legs. Rhys took the room I'd made on the quilt for an
invitation, and lowered himself onto it. I pulled my bare toes in closer,
because proximity to Rhys was making them tingle.
He picked up the book I'd set aside. "What are you reading?
Davis on Davis?"
I nodded. "It works better than Ambien. The author must have
had real talent to make so much
140
aggrandizement that boring." I scrubbed my scalp where the
ponytail had pressed in my sleep, and let my hair fall around my shoulders. It
felt good, like loosening my bun after long hours of rehearsal or taking off a
too-tight pair of jeans. I almost felt like I really had been wearing a corset
and hoops for the length of my dream. In my head I could hear the creak of the
whalebone stays, the rustle of layers and layers of underwear.
Was the image too vivid? I'd had to wear a hoopskirt once for The
Nutcracker, so I knew how it felt and the trick to sitting in one. But that
was my own memory. Did it need to go on the list?
While I debated, Rhys flipped the pages of the book. Specks of
paper lint drifted in the sunlight. "Did you learn anything, or was that
suffering for nothing?"
I curled a strand of Gigi's ear fluff around my fingers as she
slept. "I found out we're cousins."
"Cousins?"
"Owen Davis came to the United States from Wales in the late
seventeen hundreds and claimed this property by the sweat of his brow. William
S. makes it sound very noble, but I think it just means that Davis came here
without any money."
"He wouldn't be the first person to come to America, fleeing
something," said Rhys casually. "Religious persecution, potato
famine. Debt. Prison."
"What about you?" The question popped out, startling me.
"Me?" he asked. It startled him, too, apparently.
"Yes, you." I wasn't sure where it had come from, but
the shuttering of his expression confirmed the lucky guess. "What are you
running away from?"
141
His eyes--very green, very direct--met mine in a challenge.
"What makes you think I'm running away from anything?"
I didn't back down, but ran an assessing glance over him. He was
work-dirty: knees of his khakis grimy, tails of his shirt streaked where he'd
wiped his hands. "You're, what, twenty? Twenty-one? Handsome, not
fashion-impaired--despite grubbing around in the dirt for some reason. Not too
socially maladjusted. You seriously have nothing better to do with your
summer than follow your dad around and type his notes?"
He rose to his feet in one fluid move, the better to look down at
me. "You don't know me, princess. Some people have reasons for doing
things, and don't just go wherever they're told or drift whichever way they're
pushed."
My teeth clenched. Point to him, but it was a low blow. Since I
couldn't parry that, I pursued the opening he'd given me. "So you do have
a reason for being here."
His mouth opened, worked for a moment trying to block the thrust
of my question, then closed as he narrowed his eyes at me. "Yes. I'm
helping my father with his research. But I'm also working on something of my
own."
What was so hard about that? I nodded to the dirt on his khakis.
"Does it have to do with your rock hunting?"
Again, I'd managed to knock his feet out from under him. "How
did you know about that?"
My eyebrows shot up in surprise. "Clara thought
142
you were joking. What are you doing, working on a merit
badge?"
He pressed his lips together in offended dignity. "As it
happens, I'm a geologist." Then the starch ran out of him, and he
admitted, "Or I will be, when I go back to finish at university."
"You mean you really are looking for rocks?" I felt
stupid sitting on the ground while he was standing, but I knew I'd look as
graceful as a three-legged foal if I tried to get up, so I stayed where I was.
There was a pause while he seemed to edit his answer. "I'm
also doing some volunteer work at a dig at Old Cahawba."
"Old Cahawba? What's that?"
"The archaeological park up the river." His brows drew
down in a perplexed V. "How do you not know any of this?"
"Why should I? I've never been here before."
"But this is your"--he searched for the appropriate
word--"your legacy."
"Oh for heaven's sake." Aggravation wouldn't let me keep
still. I didn't care how it looked. I moved Gigi out of my lap and climbed to
my feet. "I had to look my family up in a book. I'm hardly the lost
heir returned to claim a birthright. For one thing, it's not mine, it's
Paula's."
Rhys caught my hand when I wobbled, an instinctive move, I think.
But he didn't let go. He grasped my fingers and looked hard into my eyes, as if
trying to read my thoughts.
"You're serious," he said with a note of discovery, a
143
statement of whatever he saw in my gaze. "You didn't know anything
about Bluestone Hill when you came here."
"Have we not established that I have an all-day pass for the
clueless bus?" My utter frustration almost made me miss the emphasis he
put on "anything," as though there was something I should know but
didn't. "What is it I'm supposed to have known?"
He let my hand go and straightened. "I thought ... Well,
never mind what I thought."
I glared at him. "What? That I'd come to finagle my way in
here? Somehow take the property from Paula? My dad left me well provided for.
An antique mansion in the middle of nowhere isn't a huge temptation."
I heard how the words sounded as soon as they left my mouth, and
wished I could snatch them back. But life was like a live performance: There
were no retakes. Dad left me money, but I didn't know or care about the
details. All I'd cared about was that it kept me in toe shoes. The money was
all in a trust I'd never planned to touch because I was going to be a famous
ballerina.
And now Rhys was looking down his nose at me like I'd crawled out
from under one of his rocks. "Thanks for clearing that up," he said
coldly. "I think I have your measure now."
"No, you don't," I said hotly, and it wasn't about the
money or my snooty words. "Nobody here does. I don't even know what
kind of person I am anymore."
I picked up Gigi and turned, the grass cool under my bare feet,
but not enough to cool my emotions. I hadn't gone five steps when Rhys called
my name.
144
"What?" I snapped, turning back.
He looked at me as if he would have said something else. An
explanation or apology would be nice. But he just tightened his jaw and held
out the Davis family history to me. "Here's your book."
"Thanks so much," I ground through my teeth, and headed
for the house.
***
I went in through the side porch to the den, not wanting to go
upstairs and have to decide what, if anything, of this afternoon's events I
needed to add to the crazy list. Flopping on the couch, I grabbed the remote
and clicked on the television, just for the modern inanity of it. Gigi jumped
up beside me and regally crossed her paws as if she were claiming her rightful
place.
That was the undertone of Rhys's comments. He seemed to expect me to
view Bluestone Hill as my rightful place. Which was stupid. No matter how
seamlessly I'd slipped into the role of my imaginary ancestress while I was in
the garden, I was not here to reclaim anything. I wasn't even here by choice.
I flipped channels without really paying attention, and finally
settled on a mindless syndicated sitcom.
A movement in the foyer made me jerk guiltily forward, hiding Gigi
from view. When no one descended to tell me to get the dog off the furniture, I
called tentatively, "Paula?"
There was no answer. It could have been something
145
as simple as a shadow from the upstairs landing, but I got up
anyway, leaving Gigi snoozing on the couch. Poking my head out the den door, I
peered up the stairs. Had Rhys come in through the back and gone up to his
room?
My eye caught someone whisking around a corner in the parlor, and
I followed, determined to satisfy my curiosity. But by the time I crossed the
foyer, all I saw was a flutter of apron strings at the second door. My heart
recognized similarities before my head, and accelerated with an unformed fear.
But I wove through the antiques and knickknacks to the dining room door,
and--placing a hand on the frame--braced myself before looking in.
"Clara?" I called softly. "Paula?"
Again, the room felt as if someone had just left it. And maybe
they had. But I couldn't get the image of long skirts and starched cotton caps
out of my head. It was an impression, not even an glimpse, but so close to what
I'd imagined last night. Maids would have walked these halls every hour of
every day, wearing the same thing, and--
"Chasing more ghosts?"
The caustic voice made me jump and whirl, strangling a shout of
alarm, but not quite quick enough. Addie looked at me with arch inquiry, and no
small amount of satisfaction.
Annoyance chased away any lingering unease. "Just
exploring." My tone was unapologetic, maybe even a bit challenging.
"What are you doing home? I thought you had school."
146
She didn't like the reminder that I was past all that. "Did
you lose track of time while you were catching up on your soap operas?"
she asked. "School is out."
Now I noticed Caitlin and a girl I didn't know petting and
giggling over Gigi in the den. My dog was still on the sofa, receiving their
worship as her due. I hadn't heard a car arrive, but the TV was still on, and
I'd been pretty intent on following ... nothing, it seemed.
"Hey, Sylvie," said Caitlin, as I crossed the foyer to
the den. "This is Melissa. She's on the TTC too."
I exchanged greetings, but Addie wasn't bothering with niceties.
She looked pointedly at my dog, the remote still in my hand and the pillow I'd
thrown onto the coffee table so I could prop up my leg. Then she dropped her
book bag where I'd been sitting, a territorial display that I didn't miss.
"We usually study in here after school."
For all my protestations that this wasn't my home, that it was
Paula's house and I wanted no claim to it, Addie's implied order that I vacate my
spot sent a surge of possessiveness through me. I met her eye and held my
ground, just long enough to make sure she knew I was doing her a favor by
moving.
When I saw the realization flicker in her eyes, I clicked off the
TV and tossed the remote on the cushions. "Knock yourself out."
Calling for Gigi, I headed up the stairs to my room.
147
***
Chapter 9
In my room, I contemplated the secret drawer in the desk, wondering
how I'd found the latch so easily before, yet couldn't seem to manage it now. I
was just about to see if I could crawl under the desk to look from below, when
Paula knocked on the door. Her rap was distinctive.
I flipped open the Davis book, and called for her to come in.
Gigi, laying in the reading chair, pricked her ears forward, but didn't bother
to try more charm than that. She had Paula figured out. Or maybe she saw the
148
frown my cousin shot her before she got down to business.
"Addie and the girls are going to get something to eat at a
hamburger place out on the highway. They asked if you'd like to come with
them."
Somehow, I had trouble picturing this invitation, even with my
overactive imagination. It made me a little snarky, especially as I was still
sore over the earlier implication that I was being vegetarian just to be
difficult. "Come along and watch them eat hamburgers, you mean?"
Paula got that tight-lipped "pick your battles"
expression. "I'm sure they have salads and things. Most places do. I think
you should go. You can't sulk in here all day and all night."
I'd been "sulking" in the garden and in the den, too,
but I didn't point that out. "If I go, will you let Gigi spend the night
inside?"
She sighed and set her hands on her hips. "No. But I won't
complain about her staying with you as long as you're awake."
I agreed. It wouldn't stop me from sneaking Gigi in after dark,
but it would save me some grief the rest of the time.
And seriously, when your day includes making a list to see if
you're crazy or not, there's not much further downhill things could go.
***
I predicted the outing would be excruciating, and was pleasantly
surprised that it was only intermittently
149
unpleasant. Joe's Big Burger, located halfway to Selma on the state
highway, was a popular place, and I had no trouble finding something to eat, as
long as I wanted a wedge of iceberg lettuce or a grilled cheese sandwich.
Addie, Caitlin and Melissa discussed people I didn't know, parties I hadn't
been to and things I'd never heard of. Which suited me fine, because it meant I
didn't have to talk about myself.
When they asked me about life in New York, I answered a few
questions, then turned the conversational burden back to them. "So, what
do you guys do for fun around here?" I asked, figuring everyone liked to
talk about their pastimes. "Besides build summerhouses and plot world
domination through catfish."
Caitlin and Melissa laughed. "We keep busy," said
Melissa. "There's football in the fall, and basketball in the spring.
School dances are fun."
"And like you mentioned, there is the Catfish Festival
coming up," said Caitlin. "You're coming to that, right?"
"I'll have to check my social calendar," I drawled, and
they laughed again--not Addie, of course, but the other two--missing the edge
to my remark. Just as well. They seemed like nice girls.
"So if you live in Maddox Landing," I said, "then
what is Cahaba? Another town?"
"Oh, Cahaba was the first capital of Alabama." Melissa
dragged a fry through her ketchup. "Now it's a ghost town on the other
side of your house."
"A ghost town?" I deliberately didn't look at Addie,
though after Shawn's jokes at breakfast and Addie
150
finding me hunting shadows that afternoon, I wondered if I'd been
set up.
But Melissa meant it colloquially. "It doesn't exist anymore.
There's a couple of old buildings, and they've made a historic park there. Old
Cahawba. With a w."
I looked at Addie for clarification. "But the sign on the
wagon says Bluestone Hill Inn, Cahawba."
She'd defrosted somewhat during dinner, as long as the
conversation was about her and her friends, and not about me. Now she answered
almost nicely. "They can say whatever they want, since it's not in Maddox
Landing, either."
"Don't mention Old Cahawba to Shawn," warned Caitlin.
"His dad is trying to develop some land on the other side of the park and
the state is being kind of a bear about it."
"I'll keep that in mind." I made one of those
connections that makes you feel a little slow in retrospect. "So, Shawn's
family ... Maddox Landing is named after them? They must go way back."
I'd finished my sandwich--as much as I was going to eat of it,
anyway--and it was a good thing, since Addie's icicle stare would have
congealed the melted cheese in a hurry. "The Maddox and Davis families go
way back together."
The other two girls held in giggles. But not very well. "Oh
my gosh, Sylvie." Caitlin's eyes brimmed with matchmaking fire.
"Shawn was totally talking about you today too."
Crap. They'd clearly taken my interest the wrong way. Well, maybe
the right way, but a whole lot further.
151
"I only ask because I saw the Maddox name in a book I was
reading about my own family history. I was wondering if we were cousins."
Melissa grinned broadly, taking my clarification as confirmation
instead of denial. "Don't worry. If you are, it's far enough back not to
matter."
"It's never mattered much anyway," drawled Addie.
"Y'all's families are as inbred as a redneck joke."
"Don't listen to her," said Caitlin. "That's just a
Southern cliché."
That didn't make me feel better. I'd seen some real-life clichés
since I'd arrived. I slid a covertly curious glance at Addie. Was this
assumption I was going after Shawn the root of her dislike? Her digs were at my
sense of entitlement. Maybe she thought I thought I was entitled to
Shawn.
"I don't want to poach on anyone's territory," I said,
just to see what would happen. Addie rolled her eyes and the other two girls
laughed, and this time, I didn't get why. "What's so funny?"
"Nothing," said Addie, with a repressive look at Melissa
and Caitlin, and their in-joke giggles. "Let's get out of here. Some of
us have things to do tomorrow."
***
The house was quiet when Caitlin dropped Addie and me back at
Bluestone Hill. Paula had left lights burning on the front porch and in the
foyer. In the kitchen, too, I saw, as the car pulled in front of the garage to
let us out.
152
My hand on the door latch, I turned to the other three girls in
the car. "Thanks for inviting me to dinner," I said, twisting to
include Melissa and Addie in the backseat. "I'll tell Gigi you said hi,
Caitlin. It was nice meeting you, Melissa."
She waved. "You, too. I guess I'll see you Thursday
night."
I cast back through the conversation at dinner, trying to find a
reference to an event. "What's Thursday night?"
The circle, the 01 course was unspoken.
"She means the Teen Town Council circle," said Caitlin
smoothly, though I hadn't missed the poke Addie had given Melissa in the ribs.
"That's what we call our closed meetings."
"Which only Shawn can invite anyone to," Addie said
pointedly.
Melissa glared back at Addie. "Sorry. I assumed he had."
"Why?" I asked, curious at the underlying dynamic.
Caitlin smiled, her drawl widening too. "Because you're a
Davis, of course."
But I was only here for a month, and had no desire to get involved
in junior politics. Not that I had a chance to point that out, since Addie was
already climbing out of the car. I got out too, slowed by my stiff leg, then
waved as Caitlin pulled from the driveway.
Addie didn't wait for me, heading straight for the stairs to her
apartment. I wondered, thanks to the subtext in the car, if maybe she wasn't as
territorial about Shawn as about this inner circle. I could explain to her
153
that I wasn't interested in infringing on her position as alpha
bitch of this pack. Though maybe I should put it in more tactful terms.
It would have to wait, though. By the time I reached the sidewalk
that connected the apartment stairs with the back door of the house, Addie was
already on her landing, letting herself in. And she didn't even say goodnight.
***
Gigi gave a yodeling bark of welcome as I came in the screen door
to the back porch. I shushed her, in case Paula had gone to her own room to
watch TV or go to sleep; there had been no light on in the den, and I didn't
see anyone in the kitchen. I hoped I could let Gigi out for her last walk of
the night, then slip upstairs and be done with sneaking around.
When I opened her crate, she bounded out with a playful growl,
then went straight for the screen door. I grabbed a scooper bag and let us both
out, easing the door so it didn't bang closed. Gigi made a full-tilt circuit of
the backyard; then, while I was carefully making my way down the rail-less
stairs, she shot off down the terrace steps to the great lawn.
"Dammit, Gigi!"
The worst thing I could do was run after her. Fortunately, at the
end of the long day, the best I could manage was a hobble. She paused to pee,
allowing me to keep her in sight. Then, reaching the open area that stretched
between the house and the woods on the left,
154
and the inlet on the right, she headed purposefully for the trees.
Snakes, coyotes, bobcats--I could barely see Gigi at the edge of
the brush, but in my mind I could picture any one of those things snatching her
up and making a meal out of her. Desperate to stop her, I reached down beneath
the panic for the alpha-dog voice I'd never managed before.
"Gigi, stay!"
She planted her feet. It was too dark and too far to tell, but I
imagined she was quite surprised. I certainly was.
"Come, Gigi."
Maybe I was connecting with the Davis in me, some piece of the
Colonel passed down. I didn't have to like my ancestry to draw on it, I
suppose. Gigi trotted back to me, and as tempting as it was, I didn't scold
her. I just scooped her up for a cuddle of relief.
Then I heard what she was after. The same wailing noise from the
night before. Only here it was clear, distinct, and I realized it wasn't a cat
in heat. It sounded like a baby's cry.
A baby? Seriously? I couldn't chalk this up to the old
house and the power of suggestion. What sick part of my psyche could have
dreamed this up?
The air was clammy against my skin; I didn't know if it was the
cold sweat of fear for my sanity, or a sudden damp wind off the river, but a
shiver ran through me, and I clutched Gigi closer to my chest.
She squirmed to peer over my shoulder at the house. Her low growl
vibrated against my cheek,
155
spread through me like a second shudder. The hair on my arms rose,
my spine tingling with the awareness of someone watching me.
I knew the feeling too well to mistake the sure electricity of an
audience. But this was different--the stinging rush of cold horror at being caught.
The heavy weight of dread sat on my heart like a stone.
Despite my fear, I couldn't make myself turn slowly; I whirled,
like jumping in a frigid pool. My gaze went unerringly up, to the second-floor
balcony, and the French doors there. Like the shadows before, the figure was a
wisp of distinction that fled before my eye could focus on it.
But Gigi had seen it too.
Which meant the watcher was real enough. Only my reaction was
nuts. The thought was enough to spur me forward with purpose, leaving my fear
behind me, as I headed for the house as quickly as my limping determination
would carry me.
***
The stairwell was cold, and the landing even colder. The hall
leading to the French doors was empty and the sheer curtains hung in still
folds. To my right, the soft glow of the bedside lamp marked my room. To the
left was the brighter yellow strip of light shining from under the door that
mirrored mine.
With Gigi still tucked securely against my side, I marched to it
and knocked--at the last moment remembering to keep quiet so I didn't alert
Paula. I
156
counted seconds, reaching five-one-thousand before it opened. Rhys
stood backlit in the doorway, obviously surprised. "Sylvie?"
The prickling jolt of awareness, the way my skin seemed to measure
the distance to his, only escalated the tension. Desperation to find just one
answer to something put a rash edge to my demand. "Was it
you?"
His surprise turned to confusion. "What?"
I wrestled my voice down in volume and pitch. "Were you
looking out the back window just now?"
"No," he said slowly, perhaps cautiously, "I've
been in here working since after dinner."
My questions shot out like an interrogation. "Is your dad
home yet?"
Rhys paused in very deliberate irritation, leaning a hand on the
doorframe with a forbidding frown. "What are you on about? Dad came home
and went to bed."
"It's only nine-thirty," I said.
"Well, some of us were up at dawn." He glanced behind
me, toward the junction of the hallways, and there was a flicker of concern in
his eyes. "You said you saw someone at the window?"
I inhaled to answer, then my better sense--what was left of
it--and self-preservation trapped the words in my throat. What was I doing? It
was logical that Rhys might have looked out the window--I had called to Gigi
rather forcefully. But if it hadn't been him, it was not smart to lay
all my crazy cards on the table. I'd been so frantic for an explanation--
"Sylvie?" Paula called from the ground floor, softly
157
so as not to wake any sleepers. "Did I hear you come m r
With Rhys still frowning down at me, I changed gears and tried to
salvage the situation. "Yeah," I called back in the same muted tone.
"I'm back, safe and sound."
Well, physically sound, anyway.
Gigi wiggled in my grasp, eager to say hi. I grabbed her tags to
keep them from jingling.
"Did you have a good time?" Paula asked, still a
disembodied voice from below.
Was she going to insist on a briefing? I couldn't keep shouting
down my answers in a stage whisper; that would be weird. And I couldn't carry
Gigi to the railing with me, or the jig would be up. If I set her down, there
was a good chance she would run to greet Paula herself.
I'd only wrestled with the dilemma for a moment before Rhys took
the little dog from my arms and jerked his head toward the landing in silent
instruction. Nodding my distracted gratitude, I went to the balustrade, leaning
over so Paula could set eyes on me and relieve her mind.
"Everyone was very nice," I said, only lying a little
bit.
Paula smiled in satisfaction. "Didn't I say you'd be glad you
went?"
"Yes you did." I managed to keep my voice free of
sarcasm, letting her interpret my ambivalent agreement as she wished.
"Well, good night then, honey. Don't stay up late
reading."
158
"I won't. Good night, Cousin Paula." Returning to Rhys,
I reached for Gigi--who was happily chewing on one of his fingers, which was
not allowed--but he retreated through his doorway, and I had no choice but to
follow if I wanted my dog.
The room was very similar to mine, though the color scheme was
more masculine--dark wood and faded reds and blues. Even the writing desk
looked like the twin of mine, except stained dark brown instead of painted
white.
Unlike my room, however, his was distinctly lived-in. There was a
pile of books and papers on the writing desk, along with a laptop computer and
assorted electronics, and a few clothes thrown over a chair. Rhys gestured for
me to close the door. I did, and he set Gigi on the floor, where she went to
investigate a kicked-off jumble of shoes. Rhys's feet were bare.
"You didn't answer me," he said, sitting on the bed.
"What makes you think someone was watching you from the window?"
I shrugged, as casually as I could. "Gigi growled up at it. I
guess it could have been a shadow on the glass or something."
He contemplated me seriously for a moment, maybe considering what
I'd said versus what I hadn't. Then he shifted, crossing his ankle over his
knee. "Let me ask it this way instead. What made you think I would
be watching you?"
"I don't know," I said in frustration. It was the only
thing that made even a little bit of sense. "You were the one being all
weird this afternoon. You obviously think I'm up to something."
159
Denial rushed to his face, but he caught himself before he'd done
more than open his mouth in indignation. He closed it, and seemed to chew on
his next words for a long time. "I don't know what to think about
you, Sylvie."
"Well, I don't know what to think about you either." The
height of understatement. The energy between us just then was not soothing or
comfortable. It was charged, even in the way he said my name. I folded my arms,
as if I could block out this push and pull on my emotions, and fired back
inanely, "For all I know, you may be up to something."
I was only reflecting back the ridiculousness of the argument--a sort
of "I know you are, but what am I?"-- but as soon as I said it, I
thought about the way his expression had shuttered when I'd suggested he might
be running away from something, like my own immigrant ancestors.
And the way it had closed off now. "What would I be up
to?" he asked too casually.
His reaction spurred me on. I threw out suggestions, just to see
what he would say. "I don't know. Maybe there's oil under the land. Maybe
buried pirate treasure."
That seemed to amuse him. "I don't know anything about buried
pirate treasure. If I did, though, I would definitely be looking for it."
I narrowed my eyes, irritated but speculative. "You admitted
this afternoon that you have some secret project."
He exhaled incredulously, not quite a laugh. "I did not. I said
I'm helping my father on his project and
160
working on something of my own. Not searching for pirate
treasure."
"Maybe your dad is just a cover story." I let my
imagination expand to include the nonsensical. Not that pirate treasure was
exactly reasonable. I put my hands on my hips, copying Paula's
take-no-arguments stance. "I haven't even seen him yet. Maybe he doesn't
really exist."
Rhys smiled slightly. "Get up at a decent hour tomorrow, and
you'll meet him."
"Seven-thirty is decent. It's not like I have anywhere to
be."
"That's right." He leaned back on his hands, tone turned
mocking. "The lady of leisure."
"That's not--" And then I stopped, because he was doing
it again. Whenever I pried into his business, he started goading me with
accusations of divahood.
"That's not what?" he asked when I snapped my mouth
closed and dropped my hands from my hips.
"Not important." I waved a hand, made my tone as airy as
possible and saw his eyes narrow, just a fraction. Gigi had curled up on the
rug, and I stepped around her as I sauntered oh-so-casually to the writing
desk, and the bunch of books by the computer. "I mean, your dad must
exist, since Clara and Paula aren't delusional. And you have all these
books."
He stood up as I ran my finger down the spines of the stack,
reading titles aloud in the same offhand tone. "North American Geology.
Native Americans of the Southeast--that must be how you knew about the
mound builders."
161
"You've become quite the girl detective in the twenty-four
hours you've been here," Rhys remarked, moving to join me at the desk.
Pointedly, he reached across me and closed the laptop and the spiral notebook
beside it.
Ignoring the comment, I picked up the last book, which showed its
age in its tattered fabric cover. "Notable Gardens of the South."
"That last one isn't mine," he said. "I found it
here."
I opened it to a marked page and saw a very old photograph of
Bluestone Hill taken from a distance. When I looked up at him pointedly, he
shrugged. "Naturally I wanted to know more about this place."
Holding the page with my finger, I flipped to the front to check
the copyright date. It was a nineteen-sixties reprint of a turn-of-the-century
book. "Did you find this in the study?"
"No, actually. In this room." He paused, then flipped a
few pages, the book still in my hands. His fingers brushed mine, and I chided
my heart for its erratic reaction. I was still ... not angry, exactly.
Perturbed--that was the thing. He perturbed and intrigued me more than a mere
acquaintance should.
His words, though, evicted all that from my mind. "Someone
wrote in the margins," he said. "Maybe one of your relatives."
My racing heart gave a funny stumble as the book fell open to a
page of text, a photo of the knot garden and a woodcut print of the house's
landscape. But my eye fixed on the penciled notes along the side.
162
I sat down, landing in the chair only by accident, as my knees
stopped working. "This is my dad's writing."
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah." I traced the faint graphite lines. At first
touch, they tickled my fingers, as if the letters were raised. They should have
been. Raised or etched ... something to denote the impact that script had on
me. "Maybe he wrote it when he was my age." My voice sounded oddly
fragile. "Paula says they spent every summer here."
"I wondered about that." Rhys leaned back against the
desk, strikingly casual compared with my awe at this find. "When you
mentioned that your father was interested in stone circles and monuments, I
wondered if the monolith in your family's garden might have inspired him."
"Maybe so." I could see in the illustration that the
rock was bare of foliage, just standing in the middle of the garden.
"You can take that with you, if you like."
The offer shook me out of my fog. My eyebrows climbed and I shot
him a look. "You think? Since it's sort of mine, anyway."
Rhys gave me the same sardonic stare, of the same mild intensity.
"So ... you only get possessive about things here when it's something you
want. It's Paula's house, but it's your book."
"It is Paula's house." We had come full circle to our
last conversation. "And I really don't have designs on it."
"So you said." He didn't sound censorious, though maybe
a little droll. "You have plenty of money."
163
"That came out all wrong this afternoon." My tone was
half confession, half apology. "I don't care about money." I smoothed
my hand absently over dad's book, the picture of the garden and the rock, and
the ghost of his thoughts on the page. "All I want in the world is to be
able to dance again."
I felt a small shock at the words. I never spoke them aloud. It
was too foolish to wish for, too selfish and ungrateful, when I was lucky to be
able to walk. But the wish was always there, the seed of all my misery.
Blurting it out was like pulling the ugly white roots of my anger and
bitchiness into the light for this guy, who should be a stranger but didn't feel
like one, to see.
"It's late," I said, even though it wasn't really.
Unable to look at Rhys, I slid out of the chair and went to pick up Gigi, who
made a drowsy protest.
"Sylvie." His voice, pitched low, caught me as I turned
toward the door. I paused as he straightened from the desk, crossing the small
distance. After the slightest hesitation, he touched my arm, and I forced my
gaze up to his, just so I wouldn't have to call myself a coward.
The moment slipped somehow, with the sensation of a train
that starts too abruptly, before you've braced yourself. Rhys's grip tightened,
and I realized I'd actually swayed on my feet.
"I'm sorry," he said.
"For what?" The question was breathless with the sudden
sprinting of my pulse. It was the déjà vu again, the feeling that we could be
talking about any incident,
164
at any point in history, and not just the short time since we'd
met.
"That this happened to you." The vagueness of his answer
stretched the moment longer. "Having to rethink your whole life isn't
easy."
His guarded compassion made me wonder what he knew about needing
to change plans. My brow furrowed, a tacit encouragement to explain. Instead,
he withdrew, taking a step backward and shoving his hands into the pockets of
his jeans.
The surrealness vanished, with the gentle bump of returning to my
feet after a long, inverted lift. I took a breath and let it out, collecting
myself, searching for something to fill the silence. "Well, thanks for the
book. Sorry I accused you of being a creepy spy."
Crap. I was pretty sure I winced visibly as soon as the words were
out. I'd traded insane for inane. But Rhys seemed distracted too, maybe even a
little relieved at the shift back to where we'd started this bizarre interlude.
"No problem." He opened the door, but instead of
stepping aside to allow me to pass, he went out first, looking up and down the
hall. "What was it you saw, exactly?"
So much for the hope he'd let the reminder pass. "I saw a
shadow on the glass of the French door to the balcony."
He ventured to the landing, where he could see straight down the
hall to the door. "Nothing there now."
"No." There was indirect light from his room and
165
from mine at the other end. The temperature was cool, but not any
more than the air-conditioned comfort of the rest of the house.
"You'll be all right?" He turned to me, then answered
his own question with a hint of a smile. "Of course you will. You've got
your vicious little dog to protect you."
Since my vicious little dog was snoring softly in the crook of my
arm, the observation was not terribly comforting. I watched Rhys for signs he
was humoring me, but he seemed to take me seriously--that I'd seen something,
even if it wasn't him or his father.
"We'll be fine," I said, though I wasn't sure of it at
all.
He studied me a moment longer--but with no hint whether he bought
my assurance. Whatever he was thinking, he merely said, "Sleep tight,
Sylvie," and moved toward his door.
"You too," I whispered, and went to my own room.
Once inside, with the door safely shut, I put the garden book on
the desk and the dog on the bed and changed into my pajamas, moving
automatically through my nighttime routine, distracted by my thoughts.
When I'd washed my face and brushed my teeth, I stood in front of
the desk, contemplating the secret drawer, and the paper inside. Where would I
put any of this on the list? My conviction that the shadow had been someone
watching me, and the out-of-proportion anxiety about it. The cold on the
landing, and the inexplicable moment with Rhys--
166
Who was I fooling? Rhys would fill a page by himself.
Back to the watcher at the window. Maybe, like the creak of the
chair in the study, there had been a tangible thing--a reflection, the drift of
the curtain inside-- that Gigi and I both saw. But that didn't explain my
emotional reaction, and why I was so full of dread at the thought of discovery,
when I hadn't been doing anything wrong.
I left the list where it was and grabbed the garden book, then
climbed into bed with my vicious guard dog. Flipping the pages to the chapter
on Bluestone Hill, I again traced the faded pencil of Dad's notes. I didn't try
to decipher them in the soft lamplight. It was enough to let this evidence of
his being here, of our occupying the same space in different times, connect me
to his memory. Our travels together, his passion for growing things, for making
art out of nature.
What would my father have thought of Rhys? I'd never had the
chance to introduce Dad to a guy I was interested in. Though "interested
in" was an inaccurately mild way of describing what I felt. What happened
tonight wasn't just attraction, or romantic tingles, or even déjà vu. When we
connected like that, I was convinced--the way I was convinced I'd seen an aproned
woman in the kitchen, the way I was sure someone had been watching me from the
window--that Rhys and I were more to each other than we were. It would explain
why--sometimes--I was so comfortable with him, why his smile seemed
familiar, why his scent tripped my switch. And also why he could get under my
skin with such ease.
167
If this were not a completely insane idea, I would have wondered
if that was why Rhys seemed confused by me, too, as if he kept expecting me to
react differently to things.
But that was crazy, and by now I was pretty sure that
column would exceed the Not Crazy one by a mile. And that meant it was time to
curl up with Gigi and try to get to sleep.
I set Dad's book down, but only as far away as the bedside table,
and only after running my hand over it once again. Then Gigi, jealous I was
petting the book more than her, wiggled under my arm and curled up under my
chin.
168
***
Chapter 10
I'd meant to set the alarm--there was a vintage windup clock on
the nightstand--but fell asleep so quickly that I forgot. I woke early anyway,
thanks to the dog licking my face, telling me she was ready for a walk.
I got up on autopilot, splashed some water on my face, wondered
sleepily why I had rose soap when it should be lilac.
The thought snapped me awake. I expected lilac as I moved through
my routine at the washbasin. Which couldn't be my routine, because I'd
only been here two mornings.
169
Gigi whined and danced on the corner of the bed, and I was
grateful for the distraction. I threw on my jeans from the night before, a
clean T-shirt and my hoodie against the morning chill, then picked up the dog.
With the briefest peek out the door, I slipped down the hall. At the juncture I
slowed, and then turned deliberately toward the French doors. The sun glowed on
the sheer curtains and the air was warm.
I sighed, unsure what I was expecting, and went down the stairs,
through the den and out the side doors. From there it was easier to go through
the knot garden and avoid being seen from the kitchen windows on the way to the
backyard.
I yawned while Gigi finished her business, then I cleaned up after
her. This was my morning routine. Nothing rose-scented about it.
The worn wooden steps squeaked as I climbed to the screened porch.
Through the kitchen door I saw Rhys at the table, and I felt that aggravating
spark again-- excitement, recognition, expectation. I collected myself, focused
my energy on not letting anyone see anything odd in my demeanor. The
Sylvie-is-not-crazy show must go on.
While I was distracted, Gigi pranced past me as if she owned the
place. "Lord, girl!" Clara called from the sink, where she was
running water into a pot. "Keep that dog out of here while I'm
cooking."
Annoyance flared and I tried to temper it with a reasonable
argument. "Can I just keep her away from the food? She's little and low to
the ground."
"The health inspector would love that."
With a chagrinned start, I realized there was
170
another man at the table with Rhys, an older man who gave me a
friendly smile as he stirred sugar into a mug of tea and said, "You're not
open yet, Clara, and I don't mind. My wife had so many dogs, I was forever
picking hair out of my soup."
"That's not the best argument for a dog in the kitchen,
Dad," Rhys spoke dryly into his own mug before taking a sip. He'd glanced
rather inscrutably at me when I came in, as if he, like me, was trying to
figure out what ground we were on today.
The older man was obviously Rhys's father. Besides the identical
accent--and the fact that he'd called him "Dad"--he also had the same
facial structure--the cheekbones, the jaw, the arched brow--and the same wavy
hair, though the professor's was white at the temples and scattered with
silver.
He bent in his chair, clapping his hands to call Gigi. "Come
here, little one. Aren't you a darling thing."
She bounded over and wasted no time charming the man with all her
coy puppy tricks. I followed more slowly, and since Rhys didn't make the
introduction, ventured, "You must be Professor Griffith."
"Indeed I am." He smiled, and I pictured classrooms
packed with infatuated coeds. "And you must be Sylvie Davis. We finally
meet."
"You see," said Rhys, with a tinge of humor. "He
does exist."
My eyes snapped to him, my insides knotting in panic. His brows
climbed at my reaction, and I realized he'd been teasing me. And he looked like
he regretted
171
it, so maybe he wouldn't say anything else about our late-night
chat or my imagining stalkers at the window.
I escaped his gaze and busied myself washing my hands, glancing at
the kettle on the stove. "Is there still hot water?"
Clara set down another mug and pointed to a tin of assorted tea
bags on the table. "I guess Paula is the only coffee drinker. What will you
have, Sylvie? Scrambled, poached or boiled?" I noticed "none"
was not an option. "White or wheat toast?"
"Scrambled. And, um, wheat." It was easier to agree than
to argue about carbs. I picked a black tea, poured hot water over it, and sat
in my usual spot.
As the professor played with Gigi, Rhys not-quite ignored me by
straightening his spoon and napkin. I wondered if he also felt awkward and
uncertain, as if we'd been up to more than talking last night. To distract
myself, I tried to picture him in his family home, and wondered why his dad had
talked about his mom in the past tense.
"What was your dog's name?" I asked.
"How's that?" Rhys's brows twisted in confusion. I
supposed it was a non sequitur. I was way out of practice with small talk.
"One of those many dogs must have been yours. What was its
name?"
He finished futzing with his cutlery and said sheepishly,
"Bendy Gaid Fran."
"What?" I knew kids named dogs stupid things--I mean,
Gigi, for heaven's sake--but Bendy Gaid Fran?
172
"Bendigeidfran," said Professor Griffith. "He was a
hero of Welsh myth."
I slid an "I see" glance Rhys's way. "A heroic
hero, or one of those ambiguous types who kills people indiscriminately and
then has to make up for it for twelve lifetimes?"
The professor laughed. "I see you're familiar with Celtic
archetypes."
Shrugging, I pulled the tea bag from my mug. "People draw on
some weird legends for ballet. It's not all sugarplums and dancing candy
canes."
"They're really only strange to our modern
sensibilities," he said. "The original tales of The Arabian
Nights, for example--"
"Dad!" Rhys cut him off. "That's not really
breakfast conversation. And if you get started now, we'll be here all day, and
unlike the princess here, we have things to do."
So, we were back to that. I made a face at him, but didn't let it
sidetrack me.
His father grimaced in chagrin. "Sorry," he said to me.
"I'm used to lecturing."
"That's fine." I looked at Gigi, who lolled on her back
in the professor's lap, letting him rub her belly. "Rhys said you teach
anthropology?"
"Indeed I do, during the normal course of the year. I'm on
sabbatical at the moment, doing some research." He sipped his tea while
absently petting the dog with his free hand, barely breaking his speech.
"Tomorrow, for instance, I am going to a state park where there are
archaeological artifacts I am excited
173
to see, in case they support a hypothesis I'm developing."
Clara set two plates on the table, one for me, and one for Rhys.
He had Canadian-style bacon with his eggs. The toast was on an actual toast
rack, and there was butter and orange marmalade. The Griffiths might not be
official guests, since the inn wasn't officially open, but Clara was making
them feel at home.
"Archaeological?" I asked, picking up my fork.
"Like the Native American mounds we saw on our way here? Is that what
you're writing your book about?"
"No. Though they are fascinating, aren't they? Up near
Tuscaloosa there is a whole city of them. The similarities to the flat-topped
pyramids of Mesoamerica seems to be coincidental, but--"
"Dad ..." Rhys warned.
"I know, Rhys. But she did ask. And we can't go anywhere
until you eat."
I glanced at Rhys. "You're going too? More rock
hunting?"
"Not exactly," he said, cutting into his bacon with a
frustrating lack of concern for my curiosity.
Professor Griffith reached for a piece of toast, and Gigi pricked
her ears hopefully. "I do hope Rhys's knowledge will be useful, though.
We'll be examining ruins of a prehistoric fortification that uses construction
techniques that were unknown to the Native Americans of the period to which the
structure dates. They were, however, common techniques in Wales in the
corresponding century."
I stared at him blankly. "You think there's some link
174
between the prehistoric culture here and the one in Wales?"
Clara came to the table, delivering more toast. "Don't keep
her from eating with your stories, Professor.
He pointed to my plate with his corner of toast, indicating I
should eat while he talked. Obediently I dug in. "I'm on the trail of
a--well, it's almost more of a folktale. There's a story that a Welsh prince
came to the New World in the tenth century to establish a colony. Some people
think he landed, as the Vikings did, in the northeast. But others believe he
landed in Mobile Bay and sailed up the Alabama River."
My fork paused on its way to my mouth. "Seriously? I didn't
think there were any Europeans in North America until the sixteen hundreds.
Well, Leif Eriksson, but that was up in Canada, not way down here."
The professor smiled in approval. I guess I had managed to learn
something besides pirouettes. "The Spanish landed in Mobile Bay in the
fifteenth century, so why not a longboat a few hundred years earlier?"
I considered this as I grabbed a piece of toast. "Then
wouldn't this be--I don't know--Bendy Gaid Fran Land?"
Rhys shot me a glare, but his dad, who was enjoying telling his
tale to fresh ears, just smiled tolerantly. "The colony was a doomed enterprise,
obviously. The settlers may have all died, or they may have been absorbed into
the local people. French and Spanish explorers, when they finally did get to
the region, told
175
tales of fair-haired natives, and isolated tribes that--
reportedly--spoke Welsh."
"Seriously?" I chewed my toast and swallowed, fascinated
by the story, curious about what parts might be real, and what was just legend.
"That's so wild."
"Yes, but there's no solid proof," said Rhys in a
wet-blanket tone, "so at the moment, it's just a story."
"True," his father agreed equably. Then to me he said,
"The most tangible link is the bluestone monolith in the middle of your
garden."
"The rock covered with vines?" I felt a spark of
excitement, as if one small puzzle piece had just fit into another, even though
I had no idea what the big picture was. "Paula said it was what gave the
house its name. Bluestone is the type of rock?"
"Yes." The professor's eyes lit with answering
enthusiasm.
Rhys sighed, and corrected in a staid academic tone that didn't
hide his exasperation with his father, "British bluestone is correctly
called Preseli dolerite, if you wish to be specific. Which you should,
Dad."
Professor Griffith waved that off, as if he had heard it often,
which I bet he had. "The point is, that particular type is found only in
the Preseli Hills. And Stonehenge, of course."
I sat forward, my breakfast forgotten. "I remember this. Dad
told me how whoever built Stonehenge had to get the bluestone all the way from
a mountain range in Wales."
"That's it," said the professor. "One of my goals
is to find records that indicate whether your rock was
176
here before the house was built, or if your ancestor brought
it."
"Paula doesn't know?" The William S. Davis book hadn't
said. Or at least I hadn't run across any mention of the stone before my eyes
had crossed with boredom.
Professor Griffith shook his head. "She only knows it's been
a curious feature of the gardens since anyone can remember. It's why I'm
starting my research here. That, and it's just up the Alabama River from
Mobile. Imagine how lucky I felt when a friend told me that Ms. Davis was
opening this place as an inn."
I worked out the timing in my head. "So you'd heard of
Bluestone Hill before you knew of it as a place to stay."
"Of course. It would be too coincidental otherwise, wouldn't
it?" The professor smiled. "Rhys read about it. Ran across mention of
the house and the stone on the Internet while studying. Wasn't that it,
Rhys?"
Rhys got up and took his plate to the sink as he replied. "I
don't remember, Dad."
The vague answer felt evasive. So did the move to the sink, which
put his back to us both. He definitely seemed to be hiding something.
But before I could question him, I heard a pickup pull up in front
of the garage. And whether it was logic or something else, I knew exactly who
it would be. Clara confirmed my instinct when she looked at the clock in
surprise. "Shawn's early. He must be eager for his last day of
school."
"Or something," murmured Rhys, under the sound of
running water. Did he mean me? I caught
177
Professor Griffith sort of smiling into his mug of tea, which
hinted at yes.
How did Rhys know Shawn had been paying me attention? I didn't
think he'd seen us together. Had he been listening to Teen Town Council gossip?
Shawn came in noisily, bounding up the porch steps, letting the
screen door slam behind him. I braced myself instinctively, the way you brace
yourself before a wave at the beach--determined not to let it bowl you over,
yet with some enjoyment for the sensation of the water washing over you. But
when he flashed me a smile, I was helpless not to smile back, just a little
bit.
Even that made me feel fickle, at best. I glanced at Rhys, who was
giving his studied attention to drying his dish.
"Morning, all," Shawn said, very much the bon vivant,
then greeted the elders by name, like a well-mannered Southern boy. "Prof,
Miss Clara."
The professor nodded, intent on sneaking Gigi a crust of bread,
and Clara smiled at him on her way to the fridge. Rhys didn't respond at all,
unless you counted the stiff set of his shoulders and the fact that he didn't
even turn around.
"Have a seat, Shawn," said Clara. "Addie's not down
yet."
"That's fine." He took the seat nearest me at the table,
the one Rhys had vacated. "I'll sit here and see how our visitor is
enjoying Alabama."
"Hi, Shawn." He had the charisma turned up to full this
morning. But the cynical observation didn't stop
178
the slow flush of warmth as he grinned at me. "Last day of
school?"
"Yep." He leaned his elbows on the table. "I've got
the afternoon free, if you want to take me up on that tour guide offer."
Returning to his co-opted spot, Rhys reached past Shawn and picked
up his half-full mug. "Excuse me," he said, pointedly polite.
"I'll just get this out of your way."
"Oh, I'm sorry, man." Shawn sat back in the chair,
obviously not sorry at all. "Was that your cup of tea?"
His tone turned "cup of tea" into something dainty. Rhys
responded with an understated "Yes," and left Your point? unspoken.
On the surface, they could have been two guys giving each other a hard time.
But there were oceans of subtext in the exchange. The only thing I could see
for certain was their clear and established dislike for each other.
Clara set a glass of OJ in front of Shawn, dispelling the
testosterone moment, and frowned at my plate. "Those eggs aren't going to
do you any good if you don't eat them." I obediently pushed the remains
around with my fork. "Help yourself to some toast, Shawn," she said. "I'll
go hurry up Addie."
Rhys downed the rest of his tea and put the mug in the sink.
"I'm off. Dad, I'll see you later. Don't talk Sylvie to death."
"Yes, General." The professor had an absent-minded
academic thing going on and seemed content to let his son manage him.
"More treasure hunting?" I ribbed him without
179
thinking, noting he was wearing his hiking boots and sturdy
clothes again. After all, he'd started the morning with that comment about his
father's existence proved. But Rhys stiffened, and glared at me in a quickly
checked warning.
What had I said? Was it because Shawn was here? My joke had
definitely upped the tension another notch, which was the exact opposite of my
intention.
Shawn raised his brows, and turned in his chair to look at Rhys.
"Are you searching for buried treasure, Griffith? Funny, you don't look
like a pirate."
The muscle in Rhys's jaw clenched and released. "I'm off to
Old Cahawba. I'm helping with the archaeological excavation there. They need to
get it done before some land developer runs roughshod over the place."
He spoke to me, but that last part was aimed at Shawn. The girls
last night had said Cahawba was a sore spot with the Maddoxes and their new
development.
Shawn smiled, but I noticed a little tightening around his eyes.
"Good thing that state land is protected from evil folks who want
to build stuff that will bring more business to the area. Including more
traffic to the park."
Before Rhys could reply, Addie came banging in the back door,
nearly running him down. "Sorry," she murmured, then flung herself
into a seat and pointed to Shawn's orange juice. "Are you going to drink
that?"
"Help yourself," he said.
I glanced toward the door, but Rhys had departed. I wrestled with
mixed feelings of disappointment and
180
frustration, and turned to Shawn for answers instead. "I take
it you're the evil land developer?"
"My dad is." He grabbed a piece of toast and the butter
dish, seeming completely at ease now that Rhys had gone. "Maddox Point is
going to bring more people to the area. It'll be great for the town, which will
be great for everyone. And the park, too, if they wouldn't freak out about
it."
"Where is it going to be?" I asked.
"Upriver from here." He flashed that engaging smile, his
blue eyes bright. "I'll show you around if you want. As I may have
mentioned, I'm free this afternoon."
"Not today." It came out more curt than I intended. I
was curious about Old Cahawba. It kept cropping up, first in the Davis book,
then again at dinner. But it struck me as wrong to accept Shawn's invitation
right after he'd argued--well, exchanged veiled barbs--with Rhys. It seemed
like I would be choosing sides somehow.
All the same, I softened my refusal. "I'm sure you have
better things to do on your first afternoon of freedom. Don't you want to
celebrate with your friends?"
He gave an exaggerated frown, rubbing his square jaw. "Let's
see. Hang out with a bunch of guys I've known my whole life, or spend time with
the cute girl from out of town. Not really a contest."
There was a cheeky self-awareness in his quick smile, and that,
more than the heavy-handed compliment, made me blush. Or maybe it wasn't a
blush but
181
the warmth of his attention. I only vaguely heard Professor
Griffith chuckle behind his newspaper, barely noticed the roll of Addie's eyes
and Clara's poorly hidden smile as she set a plate of bacon and hastily
scrambled eggs in front of her daughter.
I was shaken to discover how hard it was to tell him no. In a way,
that strengthened my resolve. "I've got some things I want to do today.
Some other time."
"Suit yourself." He didn't seem offended, just stuffed
the rest of his toast in his mouth and asked conversationally, "So, have
you seen any more ghosts?"
I blinked, hoping my rush of panic didn't show in my face.
"Any more ghosts?" Crap. What had I given away yesterday?
"I haven't seen any at all."
Addie pointed out between bites, "You said you heard a cat,
when it couldn't be a cat."
It figured she would pick this point to stop ignoring me.
"But I never said I thought it was a ghost." I cast back through my
memory, which was possibly as flawed as my perception. But I was certain I'd
been careful what I'd said. Paranoia will do that.
"What are y'all talking about?" asked Clara as she came
to the table and picked up on the atmosphere.
"About how there's no such thing as ghosts," I said
firmly.
"Actually"--Professor Griffith had been reading the
paper, Gigi still in his lap, but he lowered it as the conversation got
interesting, and reached for tea, as casually as if we were talking about the
weather--"it is interesting how the idea of lingering spirits is
something that crosses so many cultural divisions."
182
"Professor, don't you start," chided Clara.
Around the corner, I heard the door to Paula's bedroom open and
close. Clara looked a warning at me. "Sylvie ..."
"I know, I know. Paula doesn't like superstitious talk."
"No. Get the dog out of here." She dried her hands on a
dish towel, then flung it over her shoulder. "And Addie, you eat up. You
and Shawn have to scoot off to school."
The professor handed me the dog and we exchanged guilty--though
not really--smiles. Shawn stood up as well, while Addie wolfed down her eggs.
"I'll walk you out," he said, and gestured me ahead of him onto the
porch.
Once there, I gave Gigi some breakfast, so she was happy to hang
out in her crate for a while. As accustomed as I was to an audience, I was
still very aware of Shawn watching me fill the dog's water bowl. "So, Sylvie,"
he asked amiably, leaning a shoulder against one of the posts supporting the
porch roof. "Is the English guy the reason you have other things to do
this afternoon?"
I shot a tart look up at him from my crouch by Gigi's crate. I
might have been more tolerant of his feeling out the competition, except for
the animosity I'd seen between him and Rhys. It made my answer a little
prickly. "No. Incredible as it sounds, I actually have other things to
do."
Shawn laughed, taking the pushy out his of persistence. "You
don't sugarcoat things, do you?"
183
I arched a brow. "Not the second time I have to say
them."
Raising his hands in surrender, he said, "I get it. But let
me pick you up this way, at least." With a disarming smile, he took both
my hands and pulled me effortlessly to my feet. His fingers tightened as I
swayed, finding my balance, and the warmth of his skin spread to mine, up my
arms, over my shoulders, soothing any irritation at his presumption.
To my surprise, I found myself rethinking my plans for the
afternoon. Then Addie came banging out of the kitchen door. "Come on,
Shawn. You can flirt with Sylvie later."
As she stalked off to his truck, Shawn's smile softened with
sheepish regret, and his thumbs trailed the backs of my hands as he let me go.
"Duty calls. See you later, maybe."
I made a noncommittal sound, but he was already hurrying away.
Probably a good thing.
Crap. Was I really this fickle?
The energy I felt with Shawn was completely different than with
Rhys. Shawn's charisma was like a high-wattage lightbulb. It pulled at me like
a splash of sunshine on the carpet pulls a cat on a cold day. I wanted to bask
in that warmth.
Rhys's effect on me was like a magnetic field. Invisible,
inconspicuous, indisputable. The thing about magnets was they could draw or
repulse, depending on which end you got. And I never knew which it was going to
be.
While I tried to compare apples and oranges, and
184
Gigi crunched her kibble, Professor Griffith stepped through the
door Addie had left open, carrying his mug. In his button-down shirt and
cardigan he made a comfortably frumpy picture, especially as he sipped his tea,
looking after Shawn's departing red pickup. "That young man is full of
charm."
"Yeah." Now that he was gone, I was a little embarrassed
at how completely I'd been bowled over by tidal wave Shawn. "Clearly
there's no love lost between him and Rhys, though."
The professor smiled ruefully. "As an anthropologist, I could
comment on the sociobiology behind young males and perceived territory."
I frowned at his word choice. "I hope you don't mean
me."
"Not entirely," he said, missing the point of my
protest. "They've been at odds since they laid eyes on each other. Rhys
only said that Shawn reminded him of someone."
Someone he didn't like, obviously. I glanced cautiously toward the
kitchen, where I could see Paula and Clara chatting. I wanted to ask Professor
Griffith about what he'd said about lingering spirits, but I worried it would
give something away. Though, even if I'd never seen anything strange, I would
be naturally curious. I figured as long as I kept my interest casual, I
wouldn't raise the crazy flag.
"So, Professor Griffith," I began, oh so idly,
"about what you said in there, about different cultures having ghost
stories ..."
"Ah yes." He perched on the arm of the wicker
185
settee, looking pleased at the opportunity to continue his
lecture, and apparently finding nothing odd in my bringing it up again.
"The idea of some tangible psychic impression on a physical location is
quite common."
I sat on the cushioned chair, taking the weight off my leg.
"What do you mean, 'psychic impression'?"
He finished his sip of tea and answered in the same academic tone.
"Some people think of ghosts in the traditional restless-spirit way. Souls
who can't move on because of unfinished business."
"Like Hamlet's ghost," I said. A fitting reference,
since some people think Hamlet was just imagining his father's spirit as a
precursor to going bananas.
But Professor Griffith nodded. "Yes. But another theory to
explain people's experiences is that people or events might leave a stamp on a
place. Perhaps it's a big thing that happened once--like the scene of a past
murder that always feels cold. Or something routine that happened for
years--like reports of sentries who still walk castle battlements."
"So, hypothetically speaking"--I kept my tone
light--"have you ever thought you'd seen a ghost?"
He shrugged affably. "Hasn't everyone had some inexplicable
experience? A feeling of being watched; a glimpse of something in the corner of
one's eye, gone as soon as you turn?"
My heart gave a jolt of recognition, which I tried to keep out of
my face. "But no one has ever proved anything."
"That depends on your level of proof," said the
186
professor. "Ghost hunters point to all kinds of things as
evidence. Blurry streaks on photos, static on recordings, changes in
temperature or electrical fields--"
"Changes in temperature?" The question shot out, spurred
by my memory of the chill out on the lawn, and the lingering cold at the top of
the stairs.
But the professor merely nodded, still taking my interest as
academic. "Temperature changes are a measurable event that paranormal
investigators look for. But most reported experiences are subjective. How do
you record a feeling?"
I chewed my lip, choosing my words carefully. "Seriously,
Professor. Do you believe any of this stuff? Isn't it kind of
crazy?"
He chuckled, so I must have hit the right note. "I do not
discount people's experiences. Though I would look for a natural explanation
before a paranormal one." Smiling, he gave a "what the hell"
shrug. "However, I allow that just because something hasn't been proven to
my satisfaction doesn't mean that it couldn't exist."
In other words, yes and no. The professor was well educated, and
seemed reasonable and functional. "Open-minded but critical" sounded
like a good approach. I didn't want to believe in ghosts, but I didn't want to
believe I was nuts, either.
Gigi was done eating, and came trotting out of her open crate,
expecting praise for finishing her breakfast. It was a timely interruption.
Bending to give the dog due worship hid my face while I processed what had been
said.
The professor finished his tea and stood. "I'd best
187
get on with my day. If I'm not done with my next chapter when Rhys
gets back, he'll know it was because I was lecturing again."
I glanced up, with a tentative smile. "I wouldn't want you to
get into trouble. But I appreciate you chatting with me."
"Any time. Those ghost-hunter shows are a guilty pleasure of
mine--as a cultural anthropologist, I'm interested in the folklore
aspect." He grimaced sheepishly. "And as you've probably noticed, I
do love to share my obsessions."
I picked up Gigi, then realized I had an opening to pry about more
than supernatural theories. It didn't seem quite fair--not least because
Professor Griffith was such a nice guy--but I felt at such a disadvantage, I
could reconcile a little cheating.
"You're pretty lucky, though," I said, striking as
casual a tone as I could, "that Rhys took a break from school to help with
your research."
The professor nodded, but his answer was colored with regret.
"I am lucky, though I wish he hadn't put his own thesis on hold to
do it. Still, I can understand his wanting to take a break after what
happened."
My conscience stabbed at me, because that was too easy. But not so
much that I didn't ask the obvious question. "What happened?"
He hesitated, then gave an almost invisible shrug. "He doesn't
like to talk about it, but I don't know why-- there's nothing shameful in it.
He was on an extern-ship between terms, in the mountains, when an abandoned
slate mine collapsed."
"Oh my God." I had a vivid image of the groan of
188
earth, and suffocating darkness. The stuff of real nightmares.
Rhys had said something last night, about having to redirect your whole way of
thinking. Had the poignancy in his voice been related to this? "Was anyone
hurt?"
"It wasn't as bad as it could have been, considering. But
some of Rhys's fellow interns were injured. His friend was in a coma for some
time. He's having to learn to walk again."
The guilt knife twisted, but not because of my prying. No wonder
Rhys had no patience with me. I couldn't dance professionally, but I could
walk. The limp wasn't even bad unless I was tired. It was a wonder he spoke to
me at all.
Professor Griffith sighed, and reached out to pet Gigi's soft
ears. "Rhys feels somehow responsible. I haven't figured out why. But he wouldn't
appreciate my talking about it."
"I'll keep it to myself," I vowed, and meant it.
As he reentered the kitchen, I went to the screen door, planning
to go out and around to the main stairs, to avoid incurring Paula's
puppy-in-the-kitchen wrath. I did linger a moment, watching as the professor
greeted the women at the breakfast table, just to make sure he didn't report
back to them that I'd been asking suspicious questions about ghosts.
Whatever he said, it didn't make them turn my way, and I was glad
my instincts had been right. I liked Rhys's dad, in a refreshingly
uncomplicated way.
Which didn't mean I could let down my guard.
189
***
Chapter 11
Paula looked up in surprise as I came into the kitchen with my
sneakers on, ready for a trek. "Going somewhere?"
"I thought I'd go to Old Cahawba." I'd meant to spend
time with Dad's book, but my thoughts were too muddled for me to enjoy it. I
felt a need to move, to channel my spinning brain into physical action.
She stared at me with a growing frown of concern. "Are you
sure, honey? That's a mighty long walk, and you're not exactly
able-bodied."
190
If I hadn't been sure before, I was after that. "I'll be
fine," I said, hardly gritting my teeth at all.
Clara said more kindly, "Of course you will. You have your
cell phone so you can call if you need us?"
I hadn't thought about the phone since talking to John the night
I'd arrived, but I slid my hand into my jeans pocket and found I'd grabbed it
automatically. I'm good.
After another sigh from Paula and an admonition to be back for
lunch, I snapped on Gigi's leash and we set out down the great lawn toward the
woods. The plume of her tail rode at a jaunty angle, and she showed no qualms
at diving into nature.
At the forest's edge I paused, because the route would take us in
the direction of the wailing sound I'd heard three times now. Open-minded or
not, I wasn't keen to invite inexplicable experiences. But Gigi didn't seem
interested in anything but the trail.
Trekking through the dappled shade wasn't much like striding down
the streets of Manhattan. The looming pines and thick oaks made a sort of
rustic palace, with a carpet of pine needles and tapestries of Spanish moss. To
my right was the faint music of the river. Paula had warned me it ran too fast
for safe swimming, but to the ear it was lazy and comforting.
We came to a fence, but there was a stile that made it easy to go
over--if you weren't encumbered by a wiggling dog and a fear of falling. I
managed not to drop either of us and, with an unfamiliar feeling of pleasure, I
continued down the path, idly imagining who had taken it before me. The trees
showed no hint of an
191
old road. This would be a shortcut for servants going into town,
or for the boys of the house to run to meet their playmates. The girls would be
forced to go by carriage, to preserve their dresses and dignity.
I wondered if the girl who'd lived in my room, back when the
floral wallpaper and dainty furniture were new, had found that as annoying as I
would have. Maybe it was sleeping on the antique mattress or using her
washbasin and cupboard. Maybe it was Paula's strictures, like those of an
overzealous governess. In any case, like yesterday in the garden, I found
myself wondering how I would feel in her shoes.
The path finally met a dirt road. I was either on park property or
trespassing on someone's land. I hadn't bothered consulting a map. I knew from
the Davis book that the old capital was at the junction of the rivers I'd seen
from the balcony, and had headed in that direction.
Gigi and I continued along the road--both of us slowing down a
bit--until we reached the decaying remains of a two-story, columned box of a
mansion that looked a little like it could be Bluestone Hill's aged and
shrunken poor relation. There was a sign on the split-rail fence in front of
the house that indicated I had indeed reached Old Cahawba Archaeological Park.
According to the plaque, this had been the house of a prominent
family during the town's heyday. After the population largely decamped for
Selma during the Reconstruction, the house was bought by one of the former
slaves, who'd lived there until his death in the early nineteen hundreds.
192
It seemed like it would be weird to go back to a place where you
were owned. But maybe it was awesome. I hoped the man filled the house with
children and went to bed every night with a smile of smug contentment.
My musings seemed to blur my vision, and I grasped the fence, its
wood smooth with age. For a moment I could see the ruin of the place, and on
top of it, like a projection slide, was a freshly painted house with a
manicured yard. When I blinked, it was gone, and I was again looking at a
sagging roof and falling-down porch.
I rubbed my hand over my eyes. Maybe this hadn't been such a great
idea. I was tired, but didn't want to acknowledge that Paula had been right. My
leg was weak, and it had been a long walk. I'd been exhausted the night I
arrived at Bluestone Hill, too. Maybe it was fatigue that allowed these
impressions to sneak up on me, weave into my consciousness and seem too real.
Gigi pulled at her leash, eager to investigate the dilapidated
place. I shuddered at the thought of rats, and walked on, tugging her along
with me.
There weren't many standing houses or even ruins; here or there
was the rubble of foundation, the spar of a support beam, but mostly empty flat
plots of land. "Ghost town" seemed very appropriate. The trees looked
like they grew around invisible shapes, the ground flattened under unseen
weight. Here was proof that the impact of something on its environment could
outlast its physical form.
But that was a house, not a person. Still, it made me consider
what the professor had said, about impressions
193
of the past. Was it possible that servants passing from kitchen to
dining room, all day every day for at least a hundred years, could wear a
pattern in the atmosphere of the house like wearing a path in a carpet?
My mental rambles were taking me to a dangerous place, one where I
was making impossible things sound reasonable. Fortunately, I was distracted by
the fact that my physical ramble had reached an asphalt road.
A street sign--definitely not a hundred and fifty years
old--indicated I was at the corner of Capital and Oak, in the Old Cahawba
Historical Site.
I turned onto Capital and headed toward the gleam of sunlight on
the river. The trees opened up into a broad avenue, and I imagined
it--deliberately this time--as a bustling street full of horses and buggies and
men in tall hats.
Envisioning the place full of people made it less lonely; Gigi and
I seemed to have the park to ourselves. I hadn't felt odd in the woods or the
side road. But walking the thoroughfare seemed peculiar, as if I was
identifying a little too closely with my great-great-whatever, who would have
shocked everyone if she'd walked the main street alone.
The street ended---finally--in a traffic circle, with a
crumbling stone column in the center. I picked my way across the grass
surrounding the monument, and while Gigi sniffed the base, I read the
inscription carved on the side:
Cahaba First State Capital
1818-1826
194
According to William S. Davis, Esq., my
great-times-six-grandfather had been a mover and a shaker in Cahawba/Cahaba. It
seemed no one could decide whether there was a it) or not. I looked back down
the empty avenue, then turned in a slow circle, my eyes following a pitted dirt
road that made a horseshoe around what must have once been the center of town.
It was eerie, really, how a town substantial enough to be the
capital could have disappeared so completely. Maybe that was the source of my
unease as Gigi and I started walking across the flat, tree-dotted space between
the monument and the river bluff. Across the field was a brick column, a
forlorn remnant of some industrial space. This must have been the commercial
district--at the end of the main street, near the river-- the interstate of the
eighteen hundreds.
The ground was slightly uneven, but that wasn't what made me pause
as I reached the center of the horseshoe road. It was cooler than the shade could
account for. More than cool. Chilly. The humid morning had turned clammy, as if
the sun were obscured by more than the towering oaks with their draping of
moss.
Great. The power of suggestion was not my friend. The professor
had mentioned cold and now my imagination ran away with me in every drafty,
shady place. Get it together, Sylvie.
I pushed forward just to prove that I wasn't affected, that I
didn't believe this was anything other than a breeze from the river. Gigi had
to pick up her feet as we trekked through grass and pine needles. She didn't
look happy about it.
195
As I got closer I realized that the brick remnant wasn't a column,
but a chimney. Stubbornness gave way to curiosity--a chimney without a
house?--and I would have gone on, but Gigi sat down and refused to move. At the
end of the leash, I stopped too, listening to Gigi's electric-motor growl, and
the sudden sound of my heartbeat in my own ears.
The soft, subliminal rush of the river disappeared, and the
sunshine seemed to dim, as if we'd stepped through a curtain. The chill I'd
tried to ignore rushed in, moving with the currents of air to stroke my skin
like fingers. The cold crawled up my legs and spread through my body, and I
shuddered with a despairing ache.
Sorrow and hopelessness pressed in on me like a funeral crowd. I
gasped, and my stomach cramped at a fetid smell. In that instant, I did believe
I was mad, because no one in their right mind would imagine such thorough
wretchedness.
Then came a completely pedestrian sound--the honk of a car horn.
Gigi barked and ran for the dirt horseshoe road. The six-pound jolt was minor,
but enough to shake me back into motion. The gripping strangeness fell away as
I stumbled after the dog into the welcome sunshine.
There were picnic tables by the river bluff, on the other side of
the dirt road. Numb and bewildered, but fully myself again, I walked to one,
limping hard, and sat down. Gigi leapt into my lap. With a trembling hand, I
wiped a line of sweat from my lip, and looked at the spot I'd just crossed.
196
What the hell was that? The moment had the intensity of a plunge
into an icy, dark well, but there was nothing to mark it. No evocative old
ruin, no shadow at a window, no military relics in an old man's study. Where
could it have come from but my own mind?
There was no denying--though my returning reason floundered
desperately in the attempt--that the echoes could have come from my psyche. The
days when the pills were too tempting, when I could barely make myself get out
of bed. The days when I didn't. There weren't many; I didn't like to admit
there were any. I wanted to believe I'd never been that weak. But the cold had
flooded me with those memories. I would swear I had felt grasping hands
dragging me back to that painful, bleak time.
But what had prompted it? Yes, my leg hurt, but what else was new.
Since coming to Alabama, I'd felt more connected to the world than I had in a
long time. I didn't feel back to normal, because without dance I didn't know
what normal was. But I didn't feel crazy. Even in those moments when there was
no other explanation for what I was sensing.
Gigi gave a warning bark, and I heard the sound of an engine a
moment later. A pickup truck bounced toward us, around the bend of the dirt
road.
The disorienting fear of the past few moments solidified into
something more specific. I was alone out here. Alone and at the mercy of faulty
senses. My pulse trip-hammered in my neck as I scooped up Gigi and stood.
"Hey there, little lady." The truck stopped beside us
197
and a twinkling-eyed Santa Claus of a man hung a sunburned elbow
out the window as he greeted me. He didn't look much like an axe murderer, and
I was relieved to see the logo of the park stitched on the front of his polo
shirt. "You doing okay?"
"Yes," I said warily. Did I look like I was about to do
a header into the river? Anxiety and confusion sat on me like elephants on a
circus trainer, but the cold and despair were gone.
Santa seemed to find my suspicion amusing. "You're limping
quite a bit, and I was worried you might have twisted your ankle on the grass.
It can be uneven after the spring rains."
"Oh!" Relief drained some of the tension from my
shoulders. "No. I just-- It's an old injury. And I've been walking awhile.
I didn't realize this place was so big."
"Lordy! Where did you walk from?"
"Bluestone Hill." I gestured vaguely in the direction
I'd come. The man's practical warmth had pushed my worry into a corner, where I
could ignore it until later. "I'm--"
A grin split his white beard. "I know exactly who you are,
Miss Davis." He reached across the wheel to stick his right hand out the
window. I shook it automatically. "I'm Jim Young. I'm friends with Paula
and Clara. And with your fellow houseguests."
"The Griffiths?" I felt a satisfying click of
comprehension. This was the mutual friend, then.
Mr. Young chuckled. "Don't I look like a world-traveling
archaeologist-turned-folklorist in my retirement?"
198
"You look like Kriss Kringle." The observation slipped
out, surprising me. I didn't joke with strangers. Or anyone, really.
He laughed loudly, and didn't seem offended. "Are you looking
for Rhys? He's over by the dig." He made a vague and unhelpful gesture.
I shook my head. "I'm trying to find out more about my
family's history. Which today, I guess, means finding out more about this
place."
Delight lit his jolly face. "My dear girl, you have made my
day." He put the truck back in gear and gestured for me to step back.
"Let me move off the road."
There was no way to avoid his joining me. If I'd wanted a tour
guide, I could have taken Shawn up on his offer. But I'd wanted to explore
alone. The wild-ness of the place made me want to poke into its corners and
lift its figurative carpets.
Or it had, until the awful moment under the trees. Suddenly the distraction
of company seemed a good thing.
When Mr. Young rejoined us, Gigi sniffed excitedly at his trouser
legs and he bent to pet her. "So, what do you want to know?"
"What happened to the town?" It was good to focus on
practical questions. And this way, I could find out some facts without having
to go back to William the Boring.
He chuckled. "Which time? A lot has happened here." He
gestured for me to follow him to the gap in the trees at the river bluff. I
stopped a few feet back: The bank was steep, and the water was a long way down.
Paula's warning against swimming made a lot of sense.
199
"The Native Americans had a community here first," said
Mr. Young, deciding to start at the beginning, I guess. "Though it was
gone by the time Cahaba was settled. It's a natural place for a settlement, of
course, since it's the juncture of two rivers. Which means easy transportation
and irrigation, and the land is very fertile."
He pointed to where a smaller river joined the wide swath of the
Alabama coming from the north. Maybe it was Dad's influence, but I found it
interesting how the lay of the land affected civilization, before we started
changing the terrain to suit us. However, that wasn't what I'd asked. "And
this became the capital?" I prompted.
My attempt at subtlety failed, judging by Mr. Young's grin.
"Cahaba, at its peak, was a thriving community, and the home to three
thousand people. Vine Street was lined with stores and businesses. There was a
fancy hall for dances, a female academy, two churches, and, of course, the
state house."
My gaze ran over the empty roads he indicated, and I pictured them
lined with buggies, the way New York streets are lined with cars. The contrast
between my serene and rustic walk and the bustling city he described was
disconcerting. "What happened to all of it?"
"Things go in cycles, don't they? That's the funny thing
about Cahaba. Things were booming, and then there was a yellow fever epidemic,
then a flood, and finally the state voted to move the capital to
Tuscaloosa."
"Well, who could blame them," I said. "If disaster
struck twice." That would be the river's fault; the asset
200
was also a liability. I prodded him to get to the point. "So
a flood wiped out the town?"
"Oh no." He was clearly enjoying the story too much to
let me rush him. "It was a setback, but the pendulum swung back the other
way. Cahaba was a major shipping point for the cotton plantations in the area.
Which, of course, you know, as a Davis. Steamboats ran up and down the river,
carried the crops out to Mobile, then on to textile plants in the North and in
Europe."
"Then what?" I didn't bother to hide my impatience, but
there wasn't much bite to it. Not in the face of Mr. Young's humor. "Was
there another flood?"
He grimaced ruefully. "Among other things--like the war. The
railroad was torn up, its iron used for a more strategic line. That was the
beginning of the end, in a way. In 1866, when the county seat moved to Selma, a
lot of families did, too. Lock, stock and barrel."
"But not the Davises," I said, rather unnecessarily,
trying to fit the story together. "What about the Maddoxes? Were they here
from the beginning too?"
"Oh yes. Bluestone Hill weathered everything better than the
town. The Maddox family established the new town downriver. In fact, they gave
an incentive to families to move their houses there instead of Selma."
"The whole house?" The image--buildings taken apart like
Lincoln Logs and put back together again-- was startling. "That's why
there are so few structures here?"
He nodded. "Even after the war, with all the manufacturing in
the North, it was difficult and expensive to
201
get building materials down here. So what wasn't moved wholesale
was cannibalized." He grinned with enthusiasm. "But it left the
underground stuff for us diggers to find."
We'd walked as we talked, and now we were coming up on the spot
where the chimney stood eerily alone under the trees. It gave no sense of
warmth, only the impression of bitter cold.
"What was this place?" I asked, nodding to the brick
relic. "Where the chimney was?"
"That was the Cahaba Federal Prison." He cleared his
throat delicately. "For prisoners of war. Union soldiers."
I fought a shiver, even at a distance. The complete logic of it
was a shock of confirmation. A Civil War prison would give anyone the horrors.
But how could I have known that, even subconsciously? Had I read it in the
Davis book? Would that explain my certainty that something bad had
happened here, something that reverberated through my psyche?
"Did it flood, too?" I asked.
"Among other things." Mr. Young's Santa Claus face
turned grim. "The conditions were very bad by the end of the war.
Overcrowded, disease-ridden. Prison mortality was bad on both sides, but I
can't pass this place without thinking this was a low mark in human
nature."
I looked at him fully, curious at his phrasing. Did he feel
something too? Like me, he'd stopped walking rather than go any nearer.
Gigi pawed at my leg, asking to be picked up. I
202
obliged, cuddling her close. Was this the kind of haunting
Professor Griffith had talked about? I still rejected the idea of ghosts, but
there was--seemed to be--the imprint of something horrible here, like a stain
that wouldn't come out in the wash.
"Enough about that," said Mr. Young, determinedly
steering us back into the metaphorical sunlight. Less figuratively, he took my
arm and turned us both away from the prison's specter, guiding me over the
uneven ground, toward his truck. "What else can I show you while we're
here, Miss Sylvie?"
Maybe it was asking for trouble, all things considered. But I
wanted--needed--to know more about the past, and the people in it. "I'd
like to see the cemetery, actually."
He grinned like Christmas had come early. "You are truly a
girl after my own heart."
***
I could see how Mr. Young and Professor Griffith were friends.
They had the same love of imparting their knowledge. In Mr. Young's case, it
was the history of Cahaba, and the cemetery was the perfect place for it.
I'd been nervous when he'd pulled the truck up by the cemetery
fence. Whether the moment by the river was the suggestive environment working
with my overwrought emotions, or something I didn't want to speculate, this was
a graveyard.
But the morning was warm and the only shadows
203
were the ones from the spreading oaks. It felt more peaceful than
lonely, despite the way the age- and-weather-darkened monuments were left
abandoned, broken and tumbled.
Gigi flopped onto a pillow of shaded grass, her tongue hanging
out. I didn't blame her. My legs were tired and aching, and they were a lot
longer than hers. But there was still something I was after, so I looped her
leash around a branch and left her to nap while I followed Mr. Young around the
cemetery.
"Where are the Davises?" I asked.
"Oh, you won't find them here. The Davis family is buried in
Saint Mary's churchyard." He waved vaguely toward Bluestone Hill.
"It's past your place, on down the river just a bit, before you get to
Maddox Landing."
Maybe I was cranky because my leg hurt--I hadn't walked so far
since The Accident, and most of it on unpaved ground--but he could have
mentioned that earlier.
Oblivious to my frown, he went on enthusiastically. "There
are a couple of Maddox graves, though. You might be interested in those, since
your families are so connected."
I wondered what he meant by that. Addie had said something
similar, if "connected" was Mr. Young's tactful way of saying
"inbred."
He started across the grounds, waving for me to follow. I had to
pick my way carefully over molehills and around fallen stones. I rejoined Mr.
Young at a sturdy but rusted fence. An ornamental pear tree shaded a plot
containing three large monuments and
204
several smaller ones, all eroded and darkened by the elements, but
pristine compared with some of the others in the cemetery.
"The tree and the marble would have been brought here from
elsewhere," said Mr. Young. "Someone wanted dear old dad to be
comfortable."
"And had the money to make sure of it," I mused,
squinting at the inscription: MATTHEW MADDOX, PATRIARCH AND STATESMAN.
1785-1860. "Wow, he was really old."
Mr. Young gave me a disapproving look. "That's the same age
as me, little missy."
I grimaced. "I meant for the time."
"Well, that's true enough." He nodded to the ornate
monument, the fanciest in the cemetery. "Mr. Maddox was on the state
legislature, the lone dissenting vote against moving the capital. His son went
up to Tuscaloosa, though. The Maddoxes have always been politicians." Mr.
Young smiled at some private joke. I sort of knew what he meant, though. Shawn
had that good old boy charm and I'd seen hints of his leadership in the way he
handled the Teen Town Council.
I noticed something else as I looked over the other stones in the
plot. "There are some Davises here. They're just all married to
Maddoxes."
Mr. Young nodded, starting toward the cemetery gate. "That's
what dynasties do--secure alliances with marriages."
"What kind of alliances?" I caught up to him easily.
"Business, of course. Your family grew the cotton; the Maddox family
shipped it. The Davises owned the
205
ironworks across the river, which made the parts to build Maddox
steamboats."
"Huh." I collected Gigi from under her bush, and she
grumbled until I picked her up and carried her. It sounded like the Davises and
Maddoxes had been in bed together in a lot of ways.
The topic of business brought me back to the barbs that Rhys and
Shawn had traded that morning. "What about this latest venture of the
Maddoxes? Rhys seems to think it might threaten the park and the archaeological
work you're doing."
Dismissing that with a wave, Mr. Young opened the gate and waited
for me to pass through. "I'm just a history nut and a digger. I don't like
talking about the modern stuff. The land is listed with the National Registry
of Historic Places, which gives it some protection. If Mr. Maddox wants to get
his hands on it--which I'm sure he does--he'd have a hell of a time."
"After so many floods, why would anyone want to build on this
site?"
"Well, you could use it for hunting and recreation for all
the people who are going to buy the overpriced homes in your little planned
community upriver."
"Oh." I felt an odd surge of protectiveness at the
thought of ATVs tearing through the woods, pickups four-wheeling where the
Union soldiers had been imprisoned. Not to mention innocent wildlife getting
picked off.
Mr. Young smiled at my expression, which must have been easy to
read. "I think you're all right, Sylvie Davis. Now, you want to go see the
dig? We've got half
206
of the old church excavated, and you might like to meet some of
the college interns."
"I'd love to." Rhys might see it as sticking my nose in
his business again, though that didn't bother me much. But as I glanced at my
watch, I discovered a different problem.
"Oh, I can't. Paula will kill me if I'm not back for
lunch." I was surprised at how disappointed I was not to see a hole in the
ground. "It's already noon and I still have to walk back."
"Well, don't despair. How bout I give you a ride?" He
looked at Gigi, lounging in my arms. "I didn't want to damage your pride
by offering you a ride home, but your little dog is done for."
He tactfully avoided mentioning that I was pretty obviously done
for too. I knew it showed in my step and probably in my face. I didn't even
bother to hide my relief. "Mr. Young, you're a lifesaver. Gigi thanks you
and so do I."
Chuckling, he held the truck door for me, then climbed behind the
wheel. "Just come back and see me sometime, and we're even."
We headed down the dirt road that had brought me there. It led
through a gate in the fence I'd climbed, then made a turn where I would have
walked straight through the woods to the back of the house. "Gigi and I
will have to work on our stamina before we trek out here again."
"Just keep an eye on her," he said with a grin.
"She wouldn't be more than a mouthful for the gators."
"Gators?" And I'd just been worried about bobcats.
207
"Yep. You'd better stay on the roads and paths yourself.
There are some old, open foundations here and there. And the drop to the river
is steep in places. We had a man, upriver from here, doing some surveying. He
fell and ended up in traction."
"That's awful!" I knew about traction. Picturing the
sheer bluff at the headland, I felt a rush of sympathetic vertigo. "Is he
okay?"
"Probably will be eventually. But you be careful. Wouldn't do
for you to go breaking your other leg."
As much as I whined and worried about my current situation, I did
admit that things could be worse, and that would do it.
208
***
Chapter 12
Paula's comment when she saw that I'd hitched a ride home didn't
actually contain the words "I told you so," but it might as well
have. I gritted my teeth on a retort, but fortunately Clara, chopping
vegetables at the counter, laughed and broke the tension. "Paula, ease up.
I'm sure Dr. Young enjoyed having a captive audience."
I grimaced at my mistake. "I've been calling him Mr. Young
all day."
"If you listened to his stories," said Clara,
"he'll forgive you."
209
With a shrug, Paula unbent. "That's undoubtedly true. Now go
upstairs and wash up, and don't even think about taking that dog with you while
she's filthy from walking in the woods."
Annoyance flared again, and it would have been satisfying to stomp
to the porch, if I could. As I closed her crate, Gigi looked at me
reproachfully, and I apologized with a treat.
I should have been grateful to Paula for her dislike of dogs.
Irritation was--well, maybe comfortable wasn't the right word, but
familiar. And it gave me the spur I needed to get my sore, exhausted butt up
the stairs.
A typical day for me used to be four hours of dance before lunch
and at least six hours of rehearsal after, often with a performance in the
evening. Now a couple of hours of walking made me feel like I'd hopped all the
way to Atlanta and back.
Plus, as I washed my hands and arms and splashed water over my
face, I saw that I had a slight sunburn on my nose, so I was probably going to
get skin cancer as well as freckles.
And wrinkles, added my mother's voice in my head.
I went to my bedroom to grab Dad's garden book so I wouldn't have
to come back upstairs for it. But I paused on the open threshold, one hand on
the knob. It smelled as if someone had delivered an entire bouquet of lilacs
while I was gone.
Maybe Clara or Paula had dusted with some kind of scented cleaner.
But I knew the smell of fresh versus perfume, and this was definitely fresh.
Even in the small space, I couldn't localize the source. Each way I turned, I
caught an elusive whiff.
210
It wasn't unpleasant, but it was odd, and I'd had enough odd for
the day. I resolutely leaned over the desk and opened the window a crack, then
grabbed Dad's book and went downstairs for lunch.
***
Clara served an amazing tomato-and-spinach quiche for
lunch--delicious, but my cholesterol was going to be sky-high if I didn't make
her see the joy of tofu soon. After excusing myself from the table, I went to
the porch and brushed the fragments of leaves and pine needles from Gigi's soft
fringes of fur. When she was lovely again, we went out to the knot garden,
where she promptly dived into one of the herb beds and started rolling around.
I sighed. At least it smelled like tansy, which, according to my
dad, repelled insects. Funny how many things he told me had lodged in my brain,
popping up when I needed them.
Spreading my old, faithful quilt on the ground, I sat and pulled
off my shoes, then picked up Notable Gardens of the South and held it a
moment, savoring the anticipation of deciphering Dad's handwritten notes. After
suitable reverence, I flipped to the short chapter on Bluestone Hill.
There was a very grainy black-and-white photograph of the knot
garden that showed the properly trimmed hedges, paths and planting beds. There
was the stone, looming in the central circle, the path around that and the herb
beds at each corner. Inside
211
each, I could just make out some vague Celtic knot design, but not
with enough detail to satisfy my curiosity.
The author wrote that he included the garden in the book because
of the contrast between its formal layout and the rustic simplicity of the
standing stone, where a statue or topiary would have been more traditional.
Almost in answer to that, beside the photo, Dad had lightly
penciled in a diagram of the garden and written: Stone. Circle? Stone
circle? Stonehenge?
Had he realized the stone's origin? There was nothing about it in
the text of the book, and the Internet hadn't existed then. I wasn't seeing the
association. But then I realized I was looking at a column of green, and not
what Dad had seen at all.
Setting the book aside, I struggled to my feet and waded into the
central bed, past where Gigi was snoozing, belly up, in the unkempt greenery.
The crush of leaves was cool under my bare feet and the woody stems prickled my
soles. Reaching the stone, I grabbed two handfuls of the covering vine and
pulled, trying to part the broad leaves like a curtain.
It didn't want to budge. The stuff was tough as rope, and clung to
the rock like a lamprey on a shark. I changed my grip and tugged harder,
tightening my teeth in determination.
Was the monolith at his family home why Dad found the standing
stones in Britain so fascinating? And why hadn't he taken the opportunity to
tell me about this one while we were there? Again I felt a guilty stab of anger
at Dad for keeping so many secrets. I gave
212
a vicious yank at the vine, and the trailing stems slid through my
fists, scoring my palms.
I yelped in surprise and pain, and stared at the red welts
blossoming on my skin. Crap, that hurt.
It all hurt. Dad's secrets; the weight of worry over the weirdness
in my head and my heart; the aimless, adrift life raft of my existence.
Cradling my burning palms, I surveyed the garden in frustration, overwhelmed by
the overgrowth and unable to make heads or tails of the internal pattern.
Whatever had been here was lost.
Resignation heavy on my shoulders, I sank to the ground beside
Gigi, digging my fingers and toes through the leaves and stems of the plants,
down into the earth. It stung the welts on my hands and cleared my head. Damn
it, I hadn't gotten to be the youngest soloist in the American Ballet Company
by giving up when I felt overwhelmed. Hell, I wouldn't be alive if I gave up
when things were hard. I just had to figure this out--all of it--the way
I learned everything else: step-by-step.
With renewed resolve, I climbed to my feet and stepped out of the
circle of plants to fetch the book, picking it up gingerly. It slipped through
my fingers and hit the ground. My heart dropped with it when I saw some pages
flutter out. If the Colonel didn't haunt me for ruining his book, Paula would
kill me.
But when I retrieved the pages, and the book, I saw they'd slipped
from the back, not from the binding. They looked like plain old paper. Fragile
excitement fluttered against my ribs as I hoped, and then
213
confirmed, that the sheets were covered with my dad's handwriting.
They'd been hidden among the end pages, like a note from the past.
On one page, he'd diagrammed the garden, in much more detail than
I could make out from the photos in the book. Back when he was here, the
pattern would have had twenty-five fewer years of neglect.
The second page was a list of plants, flowers and herbs that
corresponded with the drawing. I could recognize about half of them easily,
more with help from a book or the Internet.
Gigi raised her head suddenly, the jingle of her tags alerting me
that someone was coming. Instinctively, I tucked Dad's pages into the back of
the book and closed it. They were too special to share just yet.
Rhys came through the gap in the hedges. He didn't look surprised
to see me, though maybe a little bemused at the way I was standing like a dope
in the middle of the weeds, clutching Notable Gardens of the South to my
chest like it was a holy relic.
"What are you doing?" he asked, eyeing me with
suspicion.
"Who says I'm doing anything?"
"You have a guilty look on your face."
I wasn't feeling guilty so much as secretive, but I guess they
amounted to the same thing. "I dropped the book, and I thought you were
Paula."
"I see." Rhys looked amused, if not totally convinced.
Gigi had run to greet him, and he squatted to scratch her ears. "I heard
you went over to Cahawba today. Why didn't you visit the dig?"
214
His equable tone surprised me. "You wouldn't have
minded?" Tucking the book securely under my arm, I crossed the path to
join him.
"Why would I?" He paused in petting Gigi to look up at
me curiously, seeming genuine. For now.
"Because you're so touchy about your secret projects. You get
all prickly when I mention them, and you start calling me princess in that
infuriating way."
A flicker in his eyes said I'd scored a hit, at least in regard to
his favorite diversionary tactic. With a rueful expression, he stood.
"Everyone knows I'm volunteering at the archaeological park. That's not a
secret."
I cocked my head, like Gigi did when she was figuring out how to
finagle a treat. "But the rock hunting is r
He grimaced, and his eyes slid away from mine, toward the stone
and the vines I'd been molesting. "Let's just say that's an investigation
I want to keep quiet."
"Oh!" The startled sound burst out as the pieces clicked
together. I couldn't believe I hadn't thought of it before. "I know what
it is! You're looking for more bluestone."
His gaze snapped back to mine, equally startled, but not nearly as
pleased with my intuitive leap. "What?"
"The Preseli dolerite, or whatever its name is. If you found
some just out"--I waved a nonspecific hand toward the woods--"lying
around somewhere, it would solve the mystery of where my rock came from."
He lifted his brows at my word choice. "Your rock?"
"The Davis rock. Whatever."
215
There was a pause while he formed his answer. I'd noticed that if
I could take him by surprise, I usually discovered more than if he had time to
think. "Finding the same sort of dolerite here in North America," he
said, "would be a significant discovery. It would negate one of my
dad's Wales and Alabama connections, though."
"Oh." I considered that for a moment. "I think I
see. You don't want anyone else to scoop you on the find, if there's anything to
find, and you don't want your dad to know you're trying to disprove his
theory."
"I'm not trying to disprove his theory. But still
..." He lifted his hands in a "what can I do" sort of gesture.
"Okay," I said, feeling something ridiculously like a
smile pulling at my mouth. A giddy smile. I'd solved another Rhys
mystery, and it wasn't anything bad, or more important, anything weird. It
wasn't even tragic, like the accident that I wasn't supposed to know about.
"I'll keep that on the down low."
With one of his rare smiles, he put out his hand to shake on it.
Automatically I put mine in his, heady relief making me forget about déjà vu
and Rhys's magnetism. My only sensation was the sting of his warm palm against
mine.
I must have winced. In abrupt concern, Rhys turned my hand upward,
examining the welts, like rope burns, the vine had made. "What did you
do?"
"Nothing," I said, making light of my fit of pique at
the plants. Not that I'm much of a poker player, either. "Grabbed the
wrong thing and it slipped through my fingers."
216
"You should get that cleaned up." His thumb traced the
edge of the score, and I shivered at the faint scrape of his finger on the
delicate lines on my palm, and the care he took with my hand.
"I was just headed in, actually." Though I made no move
to pull away. He didn't release me, either.
"Listen, Sylvie," he said, holding my gaze as surely as
he held my fingers. "I was thinking about last night."
Wariness unraveled the moment. I suppose it was too much to hope
that he wanted to discuss the scandalous fact of my being in his room in the middle
of the night. "What about it?"
"Just that maybe you should leave off wandering around
outside after dark."
"Do you think--" I broke off, because I wasn't sure what
to ask. Did he think the house was haunted? That there was something more
pedestrian and earthly going on? Both ideas alarmed me, and neither would sound
very rational. And I had to, even with Rhys, sound rational.
He seemed to consider his answer a little too long, looking as if
he regretted saying anything in the first place. "I just think you should
be careful where you go and who you go with. That's the same in the city and
the country."
I finally pulled my hand from his, disappointed in his avoidance
after we'd been--I'd thought--so candid. It stung almost as much as my cuts and
made me cranky. "If you're going to warn me about something, it might be
more helpful if you actually, you know, warn me."
His eyes narrowed. "What if I said, be careful whom you
trust."
217
I jabbed my fists on my hips, but the sting of my palms wasn't
enough to turn me from the headlong rush of frustration. "Why don't you
tell me anything until I drag it out of you? Like your rock hunting. Or
your--" I caught myself before I broke my promise to his father. "Or
why you're on a break from school. Is it such a big secret?"
He stiffened defensively, and parried my question with a thrust of
his own. "You're not exactly forthcoming yourself, princess. So I guess
we're even."
"Oh, we are 50 not even," I fired back. "What I'm
not saying is nothing compared with what I suspect you're not
saying."
His mouth dropped open wordlessly--I guess trying to find a reply
to that convoluted argument--and finally he just shook his head. "That
doesn't even make any sense."
Of course it didn't. "Since I got off the plane, nothing has
made any sense. Least of all you, Rhys Griffith. Come on, Gigi."
For the second day in a row, I left him standing in the garden. Though I
suspect the majesty of my departure was undermined by the Chihuahua prancing at
my heels.
***
I went into the house my usual way, through the den's side door,
and stopped guiltily when I saw Paula at the desk, head bent over some
paperwork. She looked up at the jingle of Gigi's dog tags, and frowned.
"I brushed her out and wiped her paws." I defended her
preemptively, my held-over frustration with Rhys
218
boiling back up. "She's even had herbal flea treatment."
Closing her eyes with a shudder at the mere mention of fleas,
Paula said, "Fine. Just ... not on the furniture." She didn't wait on
my agreement before adding, "I told Clara we'd be happy with sandwiches
tonight. The Griffiths take care of themselves for dinner, and Addie is
studying with friends."
"That sounds great." I saw Gigi heading for the love
seat, and picked her up, not wanting to push Paula any further. "I'm okay
with leftovers or whatever. She doesn't need to cook every meal. At least, not
for me."
My cousin smiled wryly. "Food is Clara's passion. The cooking
part of this business didn't just fall to her. It was her idea." Paula
sighed and shifted her papers. "Provided we ever open. For real guests, I
mean."
The steel was definitely absent from her magnolia voice. I had no
idea what went into starting an inn, even if you didn't have major renovations.
Paula seemed overwhelmed, maybe even as swamped as I'd felt in the garden.
I edged to the arm of the sofa, and half sat. "I was thinking
about what I might do to stay busy." Her brows climbed, but she couldn't
have been more surprised than I was. I didn't realize I'd been thinking about
it at all, but it made perfect sense. "I want to work in the knot garden,
get it cleaned up."
She laid her pen on the desk. "Are you sure, honey? That's
hard work."
I could point out that she'd said a productive occupation would be
good for my mental health. Or that I
219
knew how hard it was, since it had been my dad's job. Or that I
wasn't an idiot. But I was trying to make nice, so I only said, "I'm not
planning on attacking it with electric hedge clippers or anything. I just want
to do some weeding, see if I can uncover the old pattern."
I saw her weighing the pros and cons, and added, a little slyly,
"It is a historical feature of the house. It might be nice if people could
actually see the bluestone of Bluestone Hill Inn."
Her tart look said my wiles hadn't gone unnoticed, but after a
moment she gave in. "All right. I think there are some clippers and some
gardening gloves somewhere. But start tomorrow. You've already done a lot
today, walking to Cahawba."
With an unexpected flush of triumph, I thanked her and turned
toward the foyer, Gigi still in my arms. At the threshold, though, I paused and
pivoted back with a question. "Paula. I was wondering about my room. Who
did it belong to?"
She looked up again from the desk, frowning in confusion.
"You mean, originally? How on earth would I know that, honey? Is there
something wrong with it?"
"No, it's great," I reassured her. "Well, the
mattress has seen better days."
That got a wry nod of acknowledgment. "It's been that way
since I slept on it. Every summer when your Dad and I would visit." Her
face softened, as it did when she talked about those halcyon days. "The
room always smelled of lilac soap. I tried to find some for you, but had to
make do with rose."
220
"Lilac?" I parroted in shock. Paula looked at me
strangely, and I schooled my expression to mild interest, while my mind spun in
circles. "Is that why you put lilac potpourri in there?"
Her frown deepened. "What do you mean?"
Oh crap. Way to advertise jour olfactory hallucinations, Sylvie.
I kept that out of my airy tone, though, as I tried to cover my
slip. "Nothing. It must be the new detergent I used before I packed. I'm
not used to Dr. Steve's stuff."
With a wave, I ducked out before she could call me on this
somewhat improbable lie. My relief, though, lasted only until I reached my
bedroom door. I opened it with trepidation, worried what I would sense,
expecting the smell to rush out and attack me. But there was nothing unusual
about the air in the room. Rose soap on the washstand, my own dusting powder on
the shelf. Warm breeze through the barely opened window.
Placing the garden book and Dad's pages on the desk, I sank into
the reading chair with Gigi in my lap. Either the phantom flowers were, for
lack of a better word, real, because Paula had smelled them too, or I
was somehow picking up a past scent that wasn't there now.
Both ideas were impossible. But it was getting harder to ignore
all the impossible things that kept happening to me.
"God, what a day."
Gigi whined softly, picking up on my distress. I drew a long
breath, then let it out, centering myself the way I did before a performance.
"Here are my options, Gee," I said, stroking her fur to soothe us
both.
221
"Either I'm crazy, in which case there's nothing I can do
about it, except try to keep people from finding out. Or there's something ...
supernatural going on here, in which case I can investigate it and try to
regain control over my senses."
There. I'd said "supernatural" out loud. And nothing
snapped in my head. If anything, I felt better having decided to stay
open-minded to the possibility that not everything that was true had yet to be
proven.
Gigi barked and pawed at my right hand, and I nodded. "I
agree. Anything that gives me an illusion of control gets my vote, too."
222
***
Chapter 13
I might have worried that my new open-mindedness would show on my
face, but dinner passed without incident. And without Welshmen; the Griffiths
had gone out. Slightly disappointed, I figured it was for the best. My
reactions to Rhys were always odd, and maybe opening the figurative door on the
whole ghost idea was enough to handle for one evening.
After eating my sandwich, I soaked in a hot bath, walked Gigi, and
retired for the evening. Then, ten minutes after Paula's bedtime, I snuck back
down to get
223
my dog and bring her upstairs. At least my cousin's regimented
schedule was good for something.
Settling Gigi on the bed, I sat at the desk and opened Notable
Gardens of the South, pulling Dad's handwritten pages from the back. I'd
barely glanced at them in the garden, and though I'd made my plan before
dinner, I'd delayed more careful study for when the house was asleep, savoring
my anticipation of this private father/daughter moment.
The diagrams were neatly drawn. I'd need to refer to them outside,
but I didn't want to get the originals dirty, so I traced Dad's plot of the
planting beds onto a fresh sheet of paper from the drawer. The thin, ladylike
stationery was perfect for that, but I taped it afterward to a sturdier piece
of printer paper I'd scored from Paula's desk.
As I'd guessed from the photograph in the book, the corner beds
were a Celtic knot, but the pattern in the central circle was more interesting.
It was more like a maze--Dad had even written Labyrinth on the side--
but designed so that the pattern made pie pieces. Or, if you looked at it in
negative, the spokes of a wheel.
There was a key, with a corresponding list of plants. I copied
those, checking off the ones I recognized and marking the ones I wouldn't know
from a weed. Then I sat back and rubbed the crick in my neck, stunned at how
long I'd worked.
I could stop for the night, but momentum had its foot on my
backside, propelling me forward. Still, I needed a book on plants. And if I
wanted instant gratification, there was only one logical place to look. The
study.
224
I didn't want to give into my dread of an empty room. That seemed
to be giving too much importance to a far-fetched possibility. So with a mix of
resolve and resignation, I squared my shoulders and looked at Gigi, who was
happily gnawing a rawhide bone in the middle of the bed. "Are you up for
braving the Colonel's study, Gee? Because I'm not going without you."
She sat up at her name and gave a brave yip, as if she'd
understood me. Now I had to go, or have her think I was a coward.
The hallway was all clear when I opened the door. The stairwell
was dark, the foyer chandelier turned off, so I guessed everyone was in for the
night. I left my door open for light, and padded in my bare feet to the
landing, Gigi trotting beside me. At the corner I paused, then turned into the
back hall, where there was nothing but moonlight at the window.
I gave my first sigh of relief, but I still had to open the study
door. I did it quickly, not allowing myself time to be scared, and found
nothing to be afraid of after all.
Of course not, you dope. Scolding myself made me feel only half as
silly for the double-time beat of my pulse.
Switching on the light--hooray for modern conveniences--I glanced
at Gigi, who only seemed interested in exploring the corners for dust bunnies.
I got to business, browsing titles for an encyclopedia of plants. If the gardens
had always been a big part of the manor's reputation, surely there had to be
something like that. The Davises, as I was coming to understand them, would
want to keep that point of pride up.
225
I didn't hurry, exactly. But I was anxious to get in, find a book
and get out. There was no logic behind it. But it seemed there was no logic
behind half the things I felt in the house.
Finally I located a shelf of DIY books from the seventies,
including something called Antebellum Architecture, and Laura Ashley's
Guide to Style. I guess that would explain the Victorian striped wallpaper
in the bathroom.
And then, The American Horticultural Society's A to Z, Guide to
North American Plants. Success.
I pulled it from the shelf just as Gigi began to growl. My gaze snapped
to the desk chair, wondering what she saw, but Gigi dashed for the exit. Book
in hand, I barely managed to grab her. Momentum carried me out of the study,
and I found myself at the French doors, where she must have been headed. The
glass panes looked out on the woods, and I could hear-- just barely--the
familiar, tremulous wail.
It was so faint that I might not have noticed it if Gigi hadn't
alerted me. But she had, and as I stood listening, a movement in the moonlit
clearing in front of the woods sent my heart thumping against my ribs.
Clutching Gigi tight with one hand, I pressed the other to the
window and my nose to the pane. It was a girl-shaped something--Addie? No. I
glimpsed long hair, and longer skirts. Even if she was wearing odd clothes, it
was harder to change the way one moved. Then my breath clouded the cold glass,
and I couldn't see anything else.
I jerked back, because the glass was cold, and getting
colder. Pulse hammering, I stared at the outline of my hand on the windowpane
as the growing chill chased
226
away the imprint. Frigid eddies brushed my bare arms, my toes, my
face. My breath made thin curls of mist as I exhaled in shallow fear. I was
standing in the watcher's place.
Had I created this moment out of expectation and suggestion? Or if
I stood there long enough, what would I see? The watcher? The Colonel?
Part of me wanted to confront it, but the larger part, the smarter
part, knew my fragile brain might break whichever way it went, ghost or
madness.
The smarter part seemed to be in control of my legs. Holding Gigi
tight, I backed away.
Right into a tall, warm body. His arms came around me automatically,
keeping me from falling as I spun around, off balance with fear. My scream
never got past the knife-sharp inhale of panic as Rhys's hard whisper reached
through the ringing in my ears. "Sylvie, it's me. It's all right."
"Oh my God," I breathed, pressed against him, my face
buried in his T-shirt. He felt warm and real and so right that I
couldn't move away. "You nearly scared me to death."
His hands moved to my shoulders, as if to pry me off, but he
stopped in surprise. "Your skin is like ice."
He rubbed my arms to chase away the cold. There was a casual
intimacy to his touch that made me shiver, nothing to do with the supernatural.
"You feel that too? The chill?"
"Yeah." He looked over my head, toward the window.
"That's a wicked draft. Come on."
Rhys pulled me toward my room, closing the door
227
before he steered me to sit in the upholstered chair. For once it
felt good to be handled. It felt good to be handled by him; the brush of
his skin and the way his scent filled my head evoked tempting ways to chase
away ghosts, literal or figurative. At least for a little while.
Crap. I really was freaking out. Not because I was tempted to
close the short distance between us as he leaned close to wrap the quilt from
the bed around Gigi and me. But because I thought he might not object.
Gigi licked my face, her tongue warm on my skin. I curled my
fingers into her fur, hiding the shaking of my hands. From the night I'd
arrived, I'd been glimpsing the past of the house--servants in halls and guests
arriving in carriages. The figure in the window. But not seeing anything
had freaked me out exponentially worse, because I could feel it,
incipient and awful.
Rhys sat in the desk chair and leaned forward, elbows on his
knees, staying close. "What was all that about?"
I had to get ahold of myself, be analytical. Or at least coherent.
"Did you see anything by the window?" I asked.
He shook his head. "No. Did you?" His tone was neutral,
though serious, as if we were comparing notes.
"No." It was the truth, though I would have lied to keep
from sounding nuts. "But you felt the cold, right?"
Slowly, he nodded. "I felt a draft. And I felt how
228
chilled you were. Will you tell me what happened? What has you so
upset?"
No matter what I admitted to myself, there was no way I could say
aloud, not to him, not to anyone, that I was experiencing these things. That I
was moving through a morning routine that wasn't mine, and smelling flowers
that weren't there. That an empty spot in the park plunged me into an icy well
of despair. That I felt such bone-deep horror at the inexplicable chill and the
building pressure in the air ... It touched too close to my psyche, to the part
of me rocked off my already shaky foundation.
So I shook my head, answering his question--Will you tell me?--even
as I lied. "Creaky, drafty old house and an overactive imagination, I
guess."
Rhys sat back with a sigh, running a hand over his hair. He
sounded almost disappointed. "All right. I don't guess I've given you
reason to trust me."
No. I barely knew him. But here I was, sitting in my pajamas, in a
bedroom--again--talking about extraordinary things. "I don't know
why you're always around when I get spooked."
"Probably because it keeps happening right outside my
door," he said wryly.
"I'll try and have my next meltdown somewhere else."
It was a darker joke than he could know, but Rhys smiled,
grudgingly, then ran his hands over the knees of his jeans before speaking
again. "Listen, Dad and I are leaving before the break of dawn tomorrow--"
"For good?" My voice rose in way more distress than I
meant to show.
229
"No, no," he assured me, as if it weren't odd that a
girl he barely knew was upset by his departure. "A field trip to the
northeast corner of the state. I think Dad mentioned it."
"Oh, yeah. Ancient fortress." The discussion--had it
only been this morning?--seemed distant from the weirdness in the hallway.
Which was welcome, as it grounded me in the real world, and I took the
opportunity to break the tension by needling him a little. "Isn't it kind
of Anglocentric to think Native Americans couldn't build forts as well as the
Welsh?"
"I would be Celt-centric, to think that," he corrected
me with some humor, allowing himself to be distracted for a moment. "But
we don't. Different isn't the same as better. But that's beside the
point." He took a breath, getting serious again. "I want to try and
be back tomorrow night, but you've seen how my dad is. If he finds a kindred
spirit, we'll be there until next week."
"Not that I won't miss these scintillating late-night visits,
Rhys"--and I would, for several reasons I didn't examine too closely, but
which might have to do with how his knee bumped mine when he shifted in his
chair--"but what does this have to do with me?"
Again, he drew a breath, like he was bracing himself. I knew
dancers who did that before a difficult step or jump. Eventually they broke the
habit, or they passed out. "I want you to promise you won't go wandering
about after dark."
"Oh for heaven's sake." I shrugged off the quilt,
because I'd definitely warmed up. "This again?"
"Just tomorrow." He raised his hands as if warding off
my anger. Or possibly just my raised voice.
230
"Why tomorrow?" I demanded more softly, resorting to
sarcasm to try to get some answers. "Is the moon full? Do the vampires and
werewolves prowl for young maidens?"
He looked at me askance. "You really do have a lurid
imagination."
I made an exasperated sound and stood up, plopping Gigi on the
bed, where she watched with interest as I paced the tiny room. The thing was, I
didn't want to go outside after dark. But he was hiding something and it
was pissing me off.
"Give me a good reason why," I challenged, "and
I'll think about it."
Rhys stood up too, and the room suddenly seemed that much smaller
as he looked down at me from an intimately close distance, his green eyes
appearing very dark in the indirect light of the lamp. I had to check the
instinct to step back, because my senses were again full of him, and I
was trying to stay focused.
"Because," he said distinctly, as if I weren't very
bright, "even if you arrived in Alabama as ignorant as a newly hatched
chick, you must see by now that there are, as my dad would say, strange
dealings afoot."
His candor surprised me, and I was too pleased that he'd acknowledged
that much to be irked by his tone. "When you say 'strange dealings'
..."
A smile turned up the corner of his mouth. "Well, I don't
mean werewolves or vampires. Or pirate treasure," he added, when I drew a
breath.
I wanted to keep it light, but I was getting worried.
"Seriously, Rhys, if someone is doing something illegal--"
231
There was a flash of hurt in his eyes, quickly covered by anger.
"If someone was doing something illegal, I would go to the police."
The way he fired back made my ears burn, as if I'd accused him
unfairly. But I didn't back down. "Then why are you being so cagey? Maybe
you don't trust me."
His quickly shuttered expression spoke volumes. The flush ran out
of my cheeks, and hurt jabbed me in the heart.
"I keep forgetting we just met," I said softly.
"I know." His admission surprised me, and eased some of
the irrational pang. The confession seemed to take him a bit off guard too, and
he stuck his hands in his pockets, like he didn't know what to do with them.
"Look, Sylvie," he said, "you're not telling me
everything either."
I started to deny it, then, after a pause, decided on a measure of
honesty. "Maybe not. But that's personal."
"So is my problem." Again he caught my gaze and held it.
"And I can't tell you more than that just yet."
It was the "yet" that convinced me to let it go, for
now. "All right," I said. "I'll stay inside. Anything
else?"
He smiled a little sheepishly. "Just be careful whom you
trust."
It didn't take a huge leap to guess who--whom--he meant.
"Are you saying don't trust Shawn?" That wasn't a surprise, given
their animosity. But I was a little disappointed in Rhys for getting in digs
when his opponent wasn't there to defend himself.
"I am saying," Rhys clarified carefully, "he's a very
charming guy."
232
"And you don't like that," I prompted. Which made me a
hypocrite, since a moment ago I had been annoyed he was running Shawn down. But
I wanted his thoughts on something.
He shrugged, not as casually, I think, as he intended. "I
think charm is overrated."
That made me laugh, and it wasn't even bitter or sarcastic.
"You would say that, Mr. Sunshine."
He drew himself up, so offended that I laughed again, and covered
my mouth before the sound made Gigi bark. Slowly, Rhys acknowledged my point
with a smile that chased away my irritation and left only the pull of
attraction.
We stood that way for a long, ridiculous moment, until my
out-of-practice grin faded, and there was nothing left to say but goodbye. But
the longer he didn't say it, the more I didn't want him to.
I certainly couldn't. My tongue had tied itself in knots. Maybe
because I was suddenly very aware that we were in my bedroom, and I was wearing
my camisole and pink pajama pants with bright yellow ducks. Which hadn't seemed
like such a big deal until we shared that smile.
"Are you all right now?" he asked, and I hoped he was
asking because he didn't want to go either. Maybe it was wishful thinking that
it wasn't just me remembering that moment he'd held me securely against him, the
way his hands had rubbed the chill from my skin. Wondering how it would feel if
he touched my arm for no reason but that he wanted to. If he brushed back my
hair and traced the line of my neck.
233
It would be magic. I knew it like I knew my own name. And that was
as crazy as any other thought that had entered my brain since I'd arrived in
Cahaba. Maybe it was a good thing he was leaving for at least a day.
I remembered he'd asked me a question, and figured out how to make
my tongue work again. "I'm fine. Right as rain."
Great. Babbling clichés was always impressive.
Rhys smiled, like he knew me well enough to follow my thoughts.
"I'll see you tomorrow night."
I opened the door for him, offering more inanities. "Safe
journey. Remember--drive on the right side of the road."
He didn't dignify that with a laugh, just a wry "Got it.
Right side." But his hand brushed my arm as he left, a seemingly
unconscious gesture of farewell that had no less--maybe even more--impact for
how natural it was.
Shutting the door, I turned to find Gigi looking at me, cocking
her head in confusion at this uncharacteristic flush of giddy girliness.
"I know. It's my arm, for God's sake."
Get a grip, Sylvie. There are strange dealings afoot.
I liked that phrase. It encompassed a lot. Natural, unnatural ...
But it didn't settle my mind as I tried to get to sleep.
234
***
Chapter 14
At breakfast the next morning, Clara introduced me to hominy
grits. I finally discovered why God put cheese and butter on the earth.
Not even the delicious treat--which I gathered wasn't everyday
fare--was enough to cheer up Addie, however. She stirred the grits in her bowl
and said in her most peevish voice, "These are loaded with fat, Mom. Why
don't I just paint them on my thighs."
"That would be an interesting fashion choice," I said.
Pretty mildly, I thought, but she pinned me with a glare like an icicle.
235
"Why are you even hanging around here? Shawn's not picking me
up today--he's done with classes."
"Yeah." I drew the word out sardonically. "Because
I'm definitely building my day around a guy I've met three times."
Although, I let a guy I'd only known for three days into my room. So maybe I
shouldn't have been so quick to get on my high horse.
I left Addie to her sulk, and collected Gigi from her crate, where
she'd been eating her own breakfast. As Paula had predicted, I found some basic
gardening tools on the porch, including gloves. My hands had healed remarkably
quickly--they'd stung in the bath last night, but I was surprised this morning
that the skin was just a little pink, no blisters or scabs at all. Still, I'd
learned my lesson: Respect the greenery.
In the knot garden, I dove into weeding with an enthusiasm that
lasted a solid thirty minutes. I'd only thought I grasped the difficulty
of the project. Or maybe I'd thought, because I was my father's daughter, my
knees wouldn't hurt and my leg wouldn't ache.
But it wasn't as if I had to be done tomorrow. I slowed down a
bit, enjoying the soft earth and the quiet calm of the plants. Whatever else
was going on at Blue-stone Hill, I loved the feeling that I shared this spot
with Dad, him in his time, and me in mine.
Paula came out after I'd been at it about an hour. I could see her
checking over my work, which, I had to admit, didn't look that impressive.
"Well, bless your heart, just look at that. I didn't even remember there
was a bench there."
That was how overgrown the place was. The first thing I'd done was
rather haphazardly yank greenery
236
out from around the wrought-iron bench, and tether Gigi to it.
Otherwise she would have wanted to help me weed, and she couldn't distinguish
the difference between a dandelion and a daffodil.
Sadly, I wasn't sure I was much better. I'd had to refer a few
times to the horticultural society's A to Z guide to plants. I'd found it in
front of my door that morning. Rhys must have put it there, since I was pretty
sure I'd dropped it in the hall.
Paula picked her way over the uneven path. She wore a
salmon-colored sweater set and a flowing floral skirt. Not exactly
paint-the-front-bedroom clothes. "You look very nice," I said,
curious what had prompted this costume change. "That color suits
you."
She looked pleased with the compliment, though she made a
this-old-thing face as she smoothed the front of her sweater. "Thank you.
I have an appointment in Selma and will probably be gone for lunch.
"Is 'appointment' the Southern way of saying 'hot
date'?" I asked, fishing for details with an attempt at humor.
Her sideways look was the most droll I'd seen her. "No. It's
a meeting about money. Refurbishment is expensive."
"Oh." I felt a little awkward, since I hadn't thought
about finances. Looking at the grand old Southern house and the acres of land,
I assumed there was grand old Southern money to go with it. I tried not to
visibly wince when I remembered telling Rhys that I had no designs on the place
because Dad had left me well off. But he had.
237
"If you're going back inside," I said, glossing over my
own awkwardness, "would you tell Clara not to trouble herself to make
lunch if you're not going to be here? I'll just heat up some of yesterday's
quiche."
"I'll do my best to convince her."
"Seriously. She feeds me like I'm an underweight turkey in
September." Clara's food was like Dad's allowance--wonderful to have, but
more than I needed.
Paula made her exasperated face, her mouth tightening in
annoyance. "Well, Sylvie, honey, that's how we take care of people down
here in the South. Don't be ungrateful."
"I'm not!" I protested, irritated that the one time I
wasn't being snarky, I still caught flak for it. Gigi barked, echoing my
objection.
Paula dropped her hands from her hips. "Suit yourself. I'll
see you this afternoon." Skirting the pile of discarded weeds, she added,
"I'm sure there's a trash bag somewhere, so you can clean up when you're
done."
Fortunately, she turned to exit the garden, so she missed the roll
of my eyes. Then I looked at the magnitude of growth in the garden and realized
I was going to have to see about starting a compost pile somewhere.
I worked until midmorning, then took a break, stretching my back
and flexing my fingers. I was definitely going to need better clippers and--I
examined a new blister on my thumb--new gloves, too. After grabbing a drink
from the kitchen and leaving Gigi with a bowl of water on the porch, I figured
the best place to look for that kind of thing was in the garage. I headed
238
there via the backyard, and entered through the door underneath
the stairs to Clara and Addie's apartment.
It took me a minute to find the light switch. Growing up in
Manhattan, I didn't have a lot of familiarity with family garages, so I wasn't
sure where to start looking for gardening tools. This one was packed with stuff.
Maybe not the accumulated detritus of the full two hundred years of
Bluestone Hill's existence, but definitely the past thirty or so.
I poked around two lawn mowers--one gas-powered, and one push
mower, as seen in fifties movies--and came up with a trowel, another hand spade
and a not-quite-half-rusted pair of gardening clippers. No wonder the hedges
were in such bad shape.
And then I found a real treasure. A bicycle. It looked about the
same vintage as the push mower, but the tires (incredibly) still had air, and
it seemed in pretty good shape. It made me ridiculously happy. Not because I
loved to ride bikes, or had fond childhood memories of learning, but because I
was no longer trapped. I might not be able to go far, but I could certainly go
farther than on foot. And that meant I could go to town.
It was sort of sad that I was already looking forward to a trip to
Maddox Landing like it was a trip to Paris.
239
***
Chapter 15
sign in front of a historic train depot said maddox Landing
Visitors' Center, and I gratefully turned my bicycle--almost as old as the
train station--into the parking lot. Riding the stationary bike in physical
therapy wasn't quite the same thing as pedaling two miles down a narrow country
road. For one thing, in therapy I hadn't had a dog riding in a basket attached
to the handlebars.
Gigi was strapped in--the harness a bit makeshift, but secure--and
was having a great time. My backside,
240
on the other hand, was not. I hadn't accounted for the jarring of
potholes, or the stress of riding on the grass shoulder when a car came
barreling down the road. There was also the problem of lack of padding, both in
the bike's seat and my own. My butt hurt almost as much as my leg.
The train station, just off the state highway, was so quaint it
was almost kitschy, especially compared with the rural dilapidation I'd
glimpsed on my bike ride-- more trailers and old houses, cars on blocks,
mechanical parts littering yards like redneck lawn statuary. In town, however,
the only thing that differentiated an old house from a new one was vinyl siding
versus wood, and the commercial buildings all conformed to a sort of redbrick,
small-town, Main Street charm.
The train-depot-slash-visitors'-center was a narrow building, with
platforms on both sides where once, I imagined, people had waited for the train
to take them to civilization. I unfastened Gigi's harness from the basket,
clipped her to her leash and left the bike propped up against the depot
platform, figuring that if anyone stole it, at least I'd have an excuse to call
for a ride. This time I'd made sure my phone was charged and ready. Just in
case.
The window in the door looked suspiciously dark, and sure enough,
when I pulled the handle, it didn't move. Only then did I read the sign that
said open tuesday, thursday and saturday, 9-5.
I stared at the words with a sort of fatalistic frustration, then
glanced down at my dog. "It figures. I guess visitors are only welcome
every other day?"
241
Gigi sneezed her opinion. While she checked the canine messaging
system on the ground, I investigated the notices posted on the glassed-in
corkboard beside the door. Some were ads for local businesses and nearby
attractions (like Old Cahawba), but most were postings for upcoming events,
like the County High School graduation, to be held in the school auditorium on
Saturday, and the impending Catfish Festival.
My excuse for coming to town was that I needed some tofu or soy
milk to convince Clara I was getting enough protein. But I also wanted to find
out more about my family, about the Davises and about Maddox Landing. Visiting
Cahawba had helped, but now I needed some perspective newer than the eighteen
hundreds.
So I found the lack of welcome at the visitors' center
inauspicious, and I tried to form a plan as I returned to the bicycle and
tucked Gigi into her basket. My best bet--for my grocery-shopping cover story,
and for getting more information on the town--would be downtown. There were
only two blocks of it, so surely some opportunity would present itself.
I hadn't gone far, walking my bike along the shoulder, when a
shiny red pickup slowed next to me. The truck looked familiar, and I definitely
recognized the guy driving--his comfortably confident slouch behind the wheel,
the way the curve of his easy smile made an answering one fight to turn up the
corners of my own mouth. Even today, when I was hot and tired, and the ring of
Rhys's words echoed in my head. Charm is overrated.
242
"Hey, Sylvie," said Shawn Maddox. He'd rolled down the
passenger window and leaned across the seat as he drove, one hand on the
steering wheel. "Don't tell me you rode that piece of crap all the way
from Bluestone Hill."
Even with the wink in his voice, it was kind of an annoying
question. "Of course not," I said dryly. "Gigi pedaled part of
the way."
The dog barked at her name, and Shawn laughed. "You should
have called me. I said I'd show you the town."
"I don't need to see the whole town," I answered,
unbending a little. "Just the grocery store. Maybe a gardening store, if
you've got one."
The truck crept along, keeping pace with me, tires crunching on
the asphalt. "We've got a hardware store, if that will work, and I can run
you by the Piggly Wiggly."
I stopped to face him incredulously, the bike leaning against my
hip. "The Piggly Wiggly? You're making that up."
The pickup stopped as well, causing the even bigger truck behind
him to pull around with an angry rev of the engine.
"Why would I do that?"
"To tease the Yankee." I pushed my hair back from my
face. I'd twisted it into a loose bun that wasn't standing up to the heat or my
exertion, and long strands clung damply to my forehead and neck. The AC from
the truck wafted through the window, enticing me as much as--more than,
really--Shawn's flirtation.
243
He put a hand on his chest as if I'd wounded him. "I wouldn't
tease you. You're kin."
I rolled my eyes. That word was dated enough when Paula said it.
From someone my age, it sounded like he should be in a movie. One with a lot of
banjos in it. Taking the handlebars again, I resumed walking. "Everyone is
kin down here."
Another car, traveling in the opposite direction, honked at Shawn
as he crept the truck along. He gave a friendly wave, proving my point. Then
back to me: "Throw that old bike in the back and hop in. I'll run you to
the store, then treat you to a piece of pie at the Daisy Café."
Good grief, people down here loved their dessert. "I have
Gigi with me. They might not let us in."
"We'll work it out," Shawn cajoled, as another truck
pulled around him, blowing the horn. "Come on. Best pie in the
county."
I sighed. It wasn't the pie that sold me but the fact that I might
wander around all day looking for this Piggly Wiggly place. And really, an
air-conditioned ride trumped worry of what Rhys would think. After all, I'd
been aware of the pitfalls of charm before he had said anything. I could enjoy
Shawn's company at face value. I was a big girl.
"Okay," I said, pretending he'd worn me down.
With a grin, Shawn pulled onto the shoulder, while I unfastened
Gigi and took her from the basket. With one hand full, and the heavy bike
leaning against my hip, I was trying to figure out what to deal with first when
I heard Shawn's door slam. He reached around
244
me to steady the bike, putting me in the circle of his arms. The
action sent a pinprick rush of surprise over my already heated skin, and it
melted together into something ridiculously tempting.
"The kickstand is your friend," he said in my ear, humor
keeping that comment from being too insufferable.
I turned my head, getting a delicious close-up view of his blue
eyes and the dimple beside his mouth. But even as I stood there, snuggly
trapped between him and the bicycle, the warmth of him seeping into my bones
and making even my aches disappear, I couldn't help feeling there was something
calculated about the clinch. It was another movie moment, only this time
accompanied by harps and violins.
Another car honked at it drove by, and someone yelled out the
window, "Hey, Shawn! Way to go!" It reinforced the feeling that I was
being presumed about, and I was grateful for the excuse to duck primly
out from under his arm.
He didn't seem to think anything of my retreat, and lifted the
cycle with impressive ease. "Hop in while I stow this, and we'll get
going."
I delayed just a moment, watching the play of his muscles under
his T-shirt as he very carefully set the rust-spotted and dented bike in the
bed of the truck, preserving his paint job. A little caustically, I wondered
what he would have done if, as he'd suggested, I had just "thrown"
the bike in the back.
Setting Gigi on the seat first, I climbed into the cab, which was
a trick, considering how high it was off the ground. Shawn got behind the wheel
and gave Gigi--
245
who sat in my lap with her front paws on the dashboard, tongue
hanging with a grin--a wordless look before he put the pickup into gear.
"What are we after at the store?"
"We're after tofu. Or soy milk."
He laughed, easing onto the road without looking for traffic.
"Now you're pulling my leg. Teasing the good ol' boy."
"Not this time," I said, struggling again against his
charm. I noticed his accent got thicker when he talked about being a country
guy. "I know Clara's just taking good care of me, but if I have to eat
another egg, I'm going to hatch chicks."
He chuckled, and turned onto a side street. "Well, no
promises. We're thorough carnivores here."
"I'll take my chances." I stared out the window at the
faded awnings over the Main Street stores, the crumbling brick patched with
graying mortar. And the sad thing was, this town was in much better repair than
half the ones we'd driven through on our way from the airport.
"When Maddox Point is finished, it'll be different,"
said Shawn. "More people shopping in town means a better selection in the
stores."
"Maddox Point is your dad's development, right?" Addie
and the girls had mentioned this at dinner the other night. I was just
confirming it to lead into more questions.
"Yep." He pulled up to a windowed storefront. The Piggly
Wiggly. After all that, he'd only driven me a couple of blocks.
"Can I leave Gigi with you while I run in?" I asked.
246
"Sure thing." He said it in the same tone that he might
say, "Sure, I'll hold your purse in the middle of this crowded
store." But he reached for Gigi all the same, taking her carefully into
his hands. "I'll take good care of the little munchkin."
Since she looked okay with this plan--confident, no doubt, that he
was another would-be worshipper--I left them in the truck--windows rolled down,
of course--and headed inside.
One look at the small, dimly lit store and I almost gave up
without trying. As it happened, though, they did have a package of tofu and a
carton of soy milk--the nonrefrigerated kind, with the shelf life of tinned
goods--but they wanted New York prices for them. No wonder both were covered in
a layer of dust.
I also picked up ajar of peanut butter, trying not to think about
trans fats, and checked out. When I emerged, blinking in the sunshine, I saw
that Shawn was now standing by his truck, using my dog to pick up women.
Okay, maybe not. But as Shawn held Gigi like a football in one
arm, an older woman wearing a smart pantsuit cooed and scratched the dog's
ears. She had to be about my mother's age. Which didn't mean there wasn't some
cougar-type flirtation going on.
Or maybe I imagined the vibe, because neither looked disappointed
at the interruption. The woman held out her hand as Shawn started to introduce
me. "I know who this is," she said warmly. "I'm so glad you've
come back home to Bluestone Hill, Sylvie."
I shook her hand automatically, though I was
247
flummoxed as to why she was greeting me like I was returning
gentry. I mean, I got the Davis thing, but "back home"?
"I'm just here for a few weeks," I explained politely,
correcting any false impression I was there to stay, a second-generation
prodigal returned to the nest.
"Oh, I know." She glanced at my leg--hidden by my
jeans--and her mouth turned down in a sympathetic frown. "The accident.
I'm glad to see you're getting around all right, though."
It made sense that if the Teen Town Council had discussed the
details of my visit, the adults would, too. But it was still disconcerting, and
a little annoying.
Shawn smoothly filled in the blanks in the introduction, almost as
if he could tell I was struggling for something nice to say. "Sylvie, this
is Ms. Brewster. She's on the real town council."
She waved a demurring hand. "Shawn and the kids have done so
much for Maddox Landing. One of the biggest problems in these small towns is
that the youngsters are only marking time until they can run off to the big
city. No investment in the future of their home. But Shawn has really motivated
our little group into a force to be reckoned with when it comes to getting
things done for the good of the town."
"Aw shucks, Miz Brewster." He ducked his head, and
scuffed his toe on the pavement, playing up the good ol' boy thing with a
twinkle in his eye. "You make me blush."
Seriously? Even with the laughter behind the act, it was an
eye-roll-worthy performance. I realized he was
248
putting off the compliment--sort of--with that bit of soft soap,
but "Miz" Brewster seemed utterly taken, and giggled. Giggled. "Honestly,
Shawn. You're such a card."
A card? Was that fifties-sitcom speak for "full of it"?
Still chuckling indulgently at Shawn's country schoolboy shtick,
Ms. Brewster turned to me--I quickly wiped the disbelief off my face--and
indicated my plastic bag. "Did you find what you needed, sweetie?"
"More or less." Rather less than more, but there didn't
seem much point in complaining.
With a sigh, she looked at the storefront. Faded poster-board
signs taped to the inside of the windows advertised specials on Christmas
cookies. They ought to have been dirt cheap, since it was the first of June.
"We're hoping to bring in a new grocery chain. It would be
good to get a few nice items without having to drive into Selma."
"I'm sure it would," I said tactfully. For specialty
foods, you'd be out of luck unless Velveeta was your idea of a gourmet cheese.
"Maybe when the new development gets going. Right,
Shawn?"
He nodded. "That's what Dad is hoping, Ms. Brewster."
Hearing this premise two times, and so close together, gave it the
ring of a party platform. Dr. Young had said yesterday that the Maddoxes were
politicians from way back. Maybe it was his observation, as much as Rhys's
comment, that had me viewing Shawn's flattering attentions more cynically
today.
Ms. Brewster smiled brightly, first at me, then at
249
Shawn, then back at me. "So. Are we going to see you two at
the Catfish Festival?"
Shawn grinned back, looking completely at his ease with an elbow
propped on the shiny red hood of his truck, still holding my dog. "You
know I wouldn't miss it."
Her eyes twinkled knowingly. "And are you going to bring our
famous ballerina guest with you?"
"I'll try and convince her," he said, sliding his gaze
toward me, as if judging my reaction to this sledgehammer matchmaking.
"Excellent!" She beamed at us, seeming oblivious to the
knit of my brows. "I'll see y'all there!"
I stared after her as she headed down the cracked sidewalk in her
sensible pumps. What was that about? I seriously doubted Shawn needed help
getting his own dates.
Sort of proving my point, he smoothly gave Gigi over with one hand
and opened the truck door for me with the other. "Ready for some
lunch?"
"I'm not really that hungry," I said, unsure of how I
felt about being seen with him if everyone was going to assume we were an item.
He hooked his arm over the top of the door. "Just some
chocolate pie, then."
"Clara will be expecting me." Which wasn't quite true
either. She would be, eventually, but not necessarily for lunch.
"I'll call her." Tilting his head, he turned on the Tom
Sawyer charm. "You don't really have a choice. I have your bike hostage."
Pursing my lips, I swung my grocery bag onto the
250
seat so I could climb in with Gigi. "Some good old country
boy you are."
"I'm smarter than I look," he said with a wink.
***
The Daisy Café was on Main Street--one street over from the Piggly
Wiggly. There were a couple of tables outside, under an appropriate
yellow-and-white striped awning, but Shawn handed me Gigi's carrier bag--which
I'd brought in case I needed it--and said, "Go ahead. No one will
notice."
I arched my brows. "No one will notice the airholes in my
tote bag?" She was used to going everywhere with me, and the bag did look
like a large and not entirely unfashionable purse. But I had a feeling--more
than a hunch by this point--that a Maddox and a Davis out together wasn't going
to fly under the radar.
"It'll be fine," he assured me, with the blithe tone of
someone who's used to getting away with everything. Again, not really much of a
leap to see that happening.
Slipping Gigi a rawhide chew and zipping her up, I let Shawn give
me a hand down from the truck and hold the door for me as we entered the Daisy
Café.
It had a certain chrome and vinyl charm, complete with
black-and-white checked tile on the floor and waitresses in little scalloped
aprons. The lady behind the counter greeted Shawn with a wave, then came over
when she saw me with him.
"You must be Sylvie Davis." She had long, cold
251
hands, and pressed my fingers between hers. "I'm Daisy, and
it's a delight to meet y'all."
I hadn't realized that "y'all" could be singular. She
grinned up at Shawn, pink lipstick on her teeth, a knowing look in her eyes.
"I should have known you wouldn't let any grass grow under your feet,
Shawn Maddox."
That was twice--three times, if you counted the honking car out on
the state highway--that people had assumed we were together, or he was courting
me. Suddenly I remembered the giggling girls at dinner, when I'd said I
didn't want to poach, if someone had dibs on Shawn. Obviously, I had
dibs on Shawn. Or vice versa, which was probably more accurate, and definitely
more irritating.
I noticed he didn't correct her. But then, denial would only fuel
the fire. "You got a booth free, Daisy?"
"Sure thing."
She didn't even glance at my tote bag as she led us to a booth
with red vinyl seats. I guess I was the only one who could hear the little
smacking sounds of Gigi ravaging her rawhide bone. Placing the bag on the seat,
I slid in, doing my best to hide it from view.
Shawn sat across from me, and as soon as Daisy left, I ambushed
him with the question I was exploding to ask. "Is there some custom in
Alabama that says that accepting a ride from a guy means you're going
steady?"
His smile turned sheepish. "It's because you're a Davis and
I'm a Maddox. Our families go way back. There's sort of an assumption."
"Yeah. I'm picking up on that." People had told
252
me--the TTC girls, and even Dr. Young at the cemetery--but of
course I didn't think it applied in the twenty-first century. "So it's a
dynastic thing?" I asked, wanting Shawn's reaction.
He had the sense to look embarrassed. "More of a
superstition, believe it or not."
"A superstition," I repeated in disbelief. Except that
the evidence was obvious in the looks we were getting, the discussions behind
menus and even a couple of cell-phone calls. Being a soloist with the ballet
hadn't exactly prepared me for this kind of celebrity.
His shoulder lifted in a sheepish shrug. "It's good luck when
a Davis and a Maddox get together."
I sat back, trying to look amused, but feeling a thread of unease
weaving through my skepticism. Dancers are notoriously superstitious. So why
the idea that two people hooking up could bring good luck was any more
unbelievable than lingering spirits, I couldn't say. Maybe because I felt like
my free will was at stake.
"I figure it this way," he continued amiably. "When
the two big families get together it's usually for business, and business is
good for the town." His easy explanation took some of the stiffness out of
my shoulders. "Plus, you're a knockout," he added, with that
self-aware cockiness that amused and annoyed me in equal parts. "And as
you've heard, I don't let any grass grow under my feet."
I gave a snort, not giving in to his flirtation. "You can
flatter yourself, but leave me out of it."
253
"Come on. Long legs, gorgeous hair, big brown eyes ...
Fortunately, our waitress arrived. It was Kimberly from the Teen
Town Council study group--she must have been a graduating senior too, since she
wasn't in school. She squealed when she saw me sitting across from Shawn, and
welcomed me like an old friend.
"Hey, darlin'! How are you likin' your digs at the
Hill?"
At the sound of her voice, Gigi gave a muffled yip of greeting. I
froze, but no one seemed to have heard it over the music from the jukebox.
"They're great," I said vaguely, paying more attention to Gigi than
the question.
Shawn gave me a slight smile, and I realized he must have heard
Gigi or guessed from my expression what had happened. Kimberly, though, was
busy sidelining me with her next question.
"Have you seen any ghosts yet?"
"What?"
Without any chance to brace myself, my wheeze of shock had given
me away. Kimberly's eyes widened, her mouth opening in a gasp of excited
horror. "Did you really? Oh my gawd, I would just die."
"What is it with you people and ghosts?" I snapped, a
little too vehemently. "I never said I saw a ghost."
Shawn grinned, like it was a big joke. "Oh, come on. Your face
said it." He leaned forward, elbows on the table. "Was it the
Colonel?"
My heart tripled its rhythm, but I denied the question
emphatically. "No." I got that "the Hill" was the
254
local sensation. It was like visitors to New York asking if we
ever saw any celebrities. Shawn and Kimberly didn't--couldn't--realize this
subject had ramifications for me. That no matter what I had or hadn't seen--
which was still debatable in my mind--I couldn't talk about ghosts or I'd set
off warning bells for my handler, Paula.
"That would be crazy," I said. The words made me a
hypocrite, but it was better than a trip to a shrink. "There are no such
things as ghosts."
Kimberly gave me a disapproving eye. "Don't go saying that
down here. Half the people in this diner, including that banker on his lunch
break, have their doors painted blue to keep the haints out."
"What's a haint?" I didn't know the word, but her
reasonable tone quieted some of my nerves.
"Evil spirit." She said it matter-of-factly, as if
anyone should know that, then elaborated. "Well, a ghost, but you can
never be too careful. My grandmother used to swear the dead were always angry
when they came around, ready to make trouble. She had her door painted, a
bottle tree in the front yard, and a mirror on the front porch to catch the
devil."
I looked from her solemn face to Shawn, who had stopped smirking
and was watching my reaction, which I hoped was casually curious. I took
the chance that mere discussion wouldn't brand me as nuts, and dug for more
information. "You guys take this pretty seriously down here. Do you have a
particular infestation of the dead, or what?"
"Ooo, don't even joke about that." Kimberly gave a
255
shudder, the beads in her hair clicking together. Raising her
order pad, she poised the pen over it and changed the subject abruptly.
"What are you having for lunch?"
I reeled for a moment, still contemplating how naturally she'd
talked about "haints" and how useless my "open-minded but
critical" plan would be if I freaked out and got defensive at the mere
mention--possibly even joking--of ghosts. I hadn't looked at the menu, but
Shawn ordered for both of us. Of course he did.
"Sylvie would probably like the avocado BLT without the B."
He glanced at me for approval, and I nodded, not really caring what I ate, even
for the sake of feminism. "And a piece of chocolate cream pie. I'll have
the meat loaf and a slice of the same."
Glancing at the chalkboard over the counter, I asserted a little
independence. "I'll have the lemon chess pie, actually." The sandwich
sounded good--and I'd noticed he'd avoided egg salad, so points to him for
paying attention.
"You want a Coke or anything?"
"Not unless someone wants to rush me to the hospital in a
sugar coma," I said, returning somewhat to my sarcastic self.
"You got it." Kimberly grinned. "The pie, I mean,
not the coma."
She bounced off and I turned to Shawn with a glare.
"Seriously. I never said I saw ghosts. You're the one who keeps bringing
it up."
He shrugged. "You heard Kim. It's not crazy to believe in
ghosts."
256
"No. Just to see them."
"Touchy, touchy."
I clamped my teeth on a retort as Kimberly brought back two
glasses of iced tea (unsweetened, since I'd asked her to hold the sugar coma)
and a basket of dinner rolls. Somehow, I managed to wait until she was gone to
ask, "Has anyone actually seen the Colonel's ghost?"
He shrugged. "It's one of those things everyone knows about,
but no one will fess up to themselves. Friend of a cousin of a classmate. You
know."
I picked apart a buttery roll, trying my best to act casual. We
were, after all, talking hypothetically and without Paula to interrupt us.
"What does he supposedly do?"
"Hangs around in the study, cleaning his pistol. Some people
have heard him whistling 'Dixie.'"
That last bit made me suspect he was pulling my leg. And it was
stupid to be disappointed that the stories hadn't meshed with my own
experiences. Plus, I was worried too much interest would come off as odd, no
matter what Kimberly said.
So I sipped my tea and changed the subject. "I understand
that Colonel Davis married a Maddox. Doesn't that make it kind of gross that
people assume we are, or will be, dating?"
Shawn laughed. "Mary Maddox was my great-great-whatever-aunt.
Five generations back. That makes us kissing cousins, as we say down
here."
"A family tree that doesn't branch, is what we say up
north."
257
Another grin. "See, that's why I like you. You say what
you're thinking. Southern girls always say what they think you want them to be
thinking."
I arched my brows. "And Southern boys always make sweeping
and sexist generalizations?"
He grimaced guiltily, and it looked genuine. "Yeah. We are
prone to those."
From what I'd seen, the town thought the sun shone out of Shawn's
butt. So maybe girls down here were in the habit of telling him what he
wanted to hear.
Our food arrived quickly, but Kimberly was too busy to talk. Just
as well, since my purse was audibly sniffing Shawn's meat loaf from across the
table. The lunch rush had just started, but the tables were a lot more full
than when we'd arrived, with a lot of attention directed our way. Just how
seriously did people take this "good luck" superstition? As seriously
as they took haints?
I picked up my sandwich and tried to ignore the feeling I was
eating in a fishbowl. I wanted to know more about the bone of contention
between Shawn and Rhys, and I wanted Shawn to do most of the talking, so I
said, "Tell me about Maddox Point."
He looked pleased by my question. "It's out on the Cahaba
River. A place for city folk who want to enjoy the country, but don't want to
feel like they're living in the sticks."
"So you're bringing the suburbs out here?"
"Well, the lots will be bigger, and wooded. Some houses will
have views of the Cahaba, but everyone will have access. There'll be a marina
for putting in boats,
258
docks for fishing, a dredged area for swimming. Plus a clubhouse
with a pool, if river water isn't your thing."
"So it's sort of like a really country country club."
He chuckled, and acknowledged the slight humor in my description
with a tilt of his head. "Yeah, there will be tennis courts, and maybe a
golf course eventually."
I took a big bite of sandwich to give myself time to think. That
sounded like a lot of real estate. Maybe the folks at the archaeological park
had good reason to worry about encroachment. Swallowing in a gulp, I asked,
"Where is this in relation to Old Cahawba and Bluestone Hill?"
Grabbing a plastic bottle, Shawn drew a curved line of ketchup
horizontally across the table, then placed a sugar packet next to it, to his
left. "That's the Cahaba River and the future Maddox Point." He drew
a more or less vertical line, which joined with the first and continued down,
then added two more packets of sweetener, one for the park and one for the
Hill, explaining, "The old town--the yellow packet--is here at the
junction of the rivers, and your place--the blue--is further down from
that."
The packets made a triangle, with Old Cahawba at the apex.
"And where is this town?" I asked, meaning Maddox Landing.
He put another sugar packet downriver from Blue-stone Hill. Now
Maddox Landing and Maddox Point made a triangle with Old Cahawba, with
Bluestone Hill in the middle. I didn't know if there was any significance, but
the pattern was distinct.
259
"Aren't you worried about the Cahaba Curse?" I asked,
since he was being so informative.
He gave a confused laugh. "The what?"
I gestured with the hand not holding the sandwich. "Floods,
yellow fever--I know you're not building on the old town, but you are
right near it."
"Oh. You've been talking to Dr. Young." He didn't
exactly sound upset about it, more notably neutral. Pointing to the yellow
packet, he said, "See how the town is in that curve of the Cahaba? It's
surrounded on almost three sides by the rivers. That's why they kept getting
hit by floods. As for yellow fever, I hear they have a vaccine for that
now." He grinned. "But it's not required to visit Alabama. It's not a
third-world country, no matter what y'all may think up in New York."
"Point taken." I pulled a little piece of crust off my
bread and slid it into my bag to reward Gigi for being quiet and good. My eyes,
and my brain, stayed on the makeshift map. "Did your family originally own
Maddox Landing, too?"
Pushing aside his empty plate--and I do mean empty--Shawn picked
up his fork and took a bite of pie. He didn't seem to think there was anything
odd about all my questions. "When folks started deserting Cahawba after
the war--you know about that, right?-- some wanted to stay in the area but get
away from the flooding and the bad associations. So my
however-many-great-grandfather donated land for a new city hall here."
"That was very generous," I said, noticing he'd left out
what Dr. Young had told me, about the Maddox of
260
the day offering incentives for people to move to his new town.
Then I took a bite of my own pie and, for a moment, I lost track of my line of
questioning. "Oh my God, this is good."
Shawn grinned. "I told you. You want to try a bit of mine r
I shook my head, not wanting to spoil the tart, creamy goodness
with chocolate. "Maybe next time."
His smile widened, spread up to warm his eyes, making the blue
seem darker. "I'm glad you're agreeable to a next time."
Crap. I couldn't help my blush. It was just so hard to keep
my guard up around him. It wasn't just that he was gorgeous and charming, the
town golden boy and the big man on campus. It was all those things, plus
something I recognized very well from ballet: He had stage presence.
Of course I was attracted to him. It was logical. I realized that
with an odd sort of detachment, even while my stomach fluttered in reaction to
his smile. It was completely unlike the way I felt around Rhys, which was
totally illogical and inexplicable. The weird thing was, I didn't know which,
if either, reaction was more honest.
"Anyway," Shawn continued, and I had to remind myself
what we were talking about, "Great-granddad needed a town here to support
his business interests. It was a win-win situation."
There were echoes of that theme in Maddox Point. Shawn kept saying
how good it would be for the area. I had to admit, it would probably be good
for Paula, too.
261
Just because it rang like a party line didn't mean it wasn't true.
So I knew I should just tell that little voice in my head--which sounded a lot
like Rhys at the moment--to shut up.
Shawn polished off the last crumb of his pie. "I'll take you
to see the site sometime, if you like. It's not much more than a bunch of
forested acreage and a big sign by the road right now, but that will
change."
"So you haven't started building?"
"Not yet." Shawn waved to Kimberly to bring the check.
"Have to get the right approvals and all. Doesn't help that the guy the
state sent out to survey by the river busted up his leg before he could finish
his report."
I winced in deep sympathy for the man, but the mention also rang a
more recent bell. "Did he fall by the river embankment? Dr. Young told me
about that."
"Yeah, that was him." He looked at me curiously, almost
a little warily. "What else did Dr. Young say?"
With a wry smile that I hoped hid any evasion-- I didn't need to
tell Shawn we'd talked about his family, past and present--I replied, "To
watch out for alligators."
Shawn laughed, drawing the attention of the eavesdroppers in the
restaurant. I could feel their speculation ratchet up another notch. "Now,
that is good advice."
I had to agree, because sometime during lunch I'd decided I needed
to watch my step with Shawn. If my performer instincts recognized Shawn's charm
as stage presence, didn't that mean that some part of me was thinking he was
putting on at least a little bit of an act?
262
***
Shawn didn't ask if I wanted him to drive me back to the house: he
just assumed he would, and it was one time I was happy to let him presume. I did
attempt to pay for my own lunch, but when he insisted it was his treat, I
realized that arguing would attract more attention than simply giving in. As it
was, between the people who stopped by the table while we waited for the check
and the change, and those who greeted us on our way out, I was sure by tomorrow
morning the whole county would know that Shawn Maddox had taken Sylvie Davis on
a date.
At Bluestone Hill, he pulled into the front drive, hauled my bike
out of the truck and leaned it against a big fluted pot, pausing to look at it
sadly. "If it was a horse, you'd have to shoot it."
I privately agreed, but his scorn for the poor thing made me
perversely attached to it. "It got me where I was going. More or less.
Gigi and I are grateful for the ride back, though."
When I'd set her down, Gigi had run to the grass for a quick pit
stop, then pranced to the house and up the steps so she was closer to eye
level. The better to watch Shawn as he asked, "So, about this Catfish
Festival. Would you like to go?"
I suspected I wasn't going to be able to get out of it. It felt
like a fait accompli, and only sheer stubbornness made me ask, "Is this a
Maddox asking a Davis? Or Shawn asking Sylvie?"
He shrugged amiably. "We can't help who we are and what it
means around here."
263
That wasn't exactly an answer. But given my feeling of
inevitability, maybe it didn't really matter. "I'll think about it,"
I said.
"Is it because of the cousin thing?" he asked earnestly.
"Because really it's like fourth cousins twice removed."
That rated a half-smile. "It's more the catfish thing. I
don't eat them." I turned, and Gigi trotted beside me as I walked along
the porch, heading for the back door.
Shawn accompanied us at more of a stroll, but he stopped when he
saw the garden where I'd been working. "Hey, you're clearing out around
the big rock."
"Yeah." He jumped off the porch and went through the
hedges. Gigi barked and ran after him, and I followed, too, surprised Shawn was
so interested. I was proud of my start, but there was still an overwhelming
amount of ground to cover.
I joined him at the central planting bed, not sure why I needed to
explain, "It was something to do. Paula's big into the whole 'idle hands are
the tools of the devil,' I think."
"Are you going to uncover the rock?" he asked, nodding
to the vine-covered stone in the middle. "I always wondered what this
garden was supposed to look like."
"Yeah," I said, answering his question. "I need
some better clippers, though. That vine is insane. Is it kudzu?"
"The vine that ate the South," Shawn confirmed.
"I'm surprised it hasn't blanketed this whole garden. You may have a tough
time getting rid of it." He
264
glanced down at me with a smile of approval. "This is a good
sign."
"The kudzu?" I asked doubtfully. My dad had told me it
was originally imported and planted to prevent soil erosion, but it grew out of
control and turned into an invasive nuisance, an example of what happened when
you introduced something and upset the natural balance of an ecosystem.
Shawn laughed. "No, that you're working on the garden. You
know, digging into the old family place."
He winked, acknowledging the pun. But the statement shook me,
resonating with my childhood fascination with how cut plants would put down
roots, what I'd told John seemed magical to me. Dad had taken pains to cut
himself off from his family tree and transplant himself halfway across the
country. Was I now grafting myself into the very place he'd left?
I couldn't ignore the question that wrapped around my mind like
the kudzu around the rock. What if there was a good reason that Dad had left
here in the first place?
265
***
Chapter 16
After Shawn went home, I let Gigi run around for a few more
minutes before we headed for the back door. Paula was in the kitchen with
Clara, so I left the dog on the porch to play with one of her toys.
"How was your meeting?" I asked, making conversation.
"Just fine." She sat at the table, still wearing her
going-to-town clothes, a big glass of iced tea in front of her. "How was
your lunch?" she returned with pointed curiosity.
266
"Oh my God." I fell into my usual chair, stunned-- but
also not--that the news had made the rounds so quickly. "You mean it
didn't even take an hour for it to get back here?"
Clara, not bothering to hide her amusement, joined us, settling
down with her own glass of tea. "Rhonda Maxwell from Paula's bridge club
called from her cell phone before you'd even ordered your meal. Did you like
the lemon chess pie?"
I covered my eyes and groaned, not really exaggerating my
consternation. "It's like I've gone through a time warp to the fifties,
but with better telecommunication."
Paula actually laughed; her meeting must have gone very well.
"That Shawn Maddox. He doesn't move slow."
"I don't get it." I wished I could enjoy the moment,
that I could be a normal girl being teased about her social life by her
relatives--in Clara's case, an honorary one--and not be unnerved by this
outdated matchmaking.
"Well, honey," said Paula, misinterpreting my confusion,
"not to put too fine a point on it, you're a novelty. You'd be getting
plenty of interest even if you were uglier than a coonhound. But you're
not."
"Plus, I'm a Davis." Sobering, I sat up in the chair,
getting to the crux of my unease. Gossip was one thing. But this level of
excitement about my social life made the townspeople's expectations more than
irritating. "How much of this is because it's supposed to be good luck
when our families get together?"
267
Paula took my question seriously, maybe picking up on my disquiet.
"I know it seems strange to you. It's just that the Davis and Maddox
families have a long history together. In business, and otherwise."
"I get that a hundred years ago people sealed deals with
marriages and dowries and stuff. But seriously, this is the twenty-first
century." I couldn't explain my sense of outrage. Maybe I was again
identifying with the Colonel's hypothetical daughter, the duty she'd have to
marry for money, or business reasons, or class. Adding "luck" to the
list of reasons didn't seem quite fair.
"It's just a silly superstition, honey." Paula patted my
hand. "Don't let it bother you."
The patronizing hand pat annoyed me and made my reply sharp.
"Did it seem silly to you when you were young?"
Paula's eyes narrowed and her lips pursed. "Before I was as
ancient as I am now, you mean?"
Clara chuckled, defusing the moment, and rose from the table.
"I'll leave you to this family discussion. Addie will be home from school
soon and I want to make sure she studies before her council meeting."
I looked up, momentarily distracted. "Is that tonight?"
It seemed ages since the conversation in Caitlin's car.
She shook her head as she went to the door. "I swear
sometimes it feels like every night."
Turning back to Paula, I began a new question. "About when
you were here when you were young--"
"For heaven's sake, Sylvie! No one tried to set me
268
up." She got up and took her glass to the sink, dismissing
the question, and me.
My tone turned chilly. "I was going to ask about my dad,
actually."
Contrite, she returned to the table, resting her hands on the back
of her chair. "Go ahead."
"Do you know if anything happened the last summer he was
here?" For all we didn't get along, I didn't want to purposefully hurt my
cousin's feelings. She talked about the past like it was something ideal, and I
imagined it would sting to know Dad had never mentioned his family history.
"I just mean ... It seems strange he never came back to visit."
Paula gave the question some thought. "I don't know, honey. I
was a year or two older, and stopped coming before he did. When you grow up,
you don't have the luxury of summers off."
"I don't suppose Shawn has an aunt about Dad's age." I
was half joking. But only half.
Paula didn't smile. "I just figured he became too busy to
visit. I only came back once or twice until I inherited the place."
"From your parents?" I asked, trying to sort out the family
tree.
"From my grandfather. Your dad's great-uncle. I'm the only
child of his oldest son. Though, of course, primogeniture doesn't really
matter, since there's no one else." Her gaze lost focus as memory reeled
her in. "Granddad Davis was old as the hills when he finally passed away.
He'd been in a home for the last ten years, so the place was empty...."
She trailed off and looked
269
at me. "No wonder people see you as a good omen! Young blood,
back in the old family manor."
"Somehow this conversation has failed to reassure me," I
said skeptically.
She smiled, seeming almost sympathetic. "We are very set in
our ways down here. Even--no, especially-- when it comes to
socialization."
I had a sudden, horrible thought. "I'm not going to have to
do a cotillion or anything like that, am I?"
"Of course not," Paula said, with no apparent irony.
"Debutante season has already passed."
My stricken expression made her snort. "Honestly, Sylvie. It
won't do you harm to get a bit involved here. Of course people are going to be
all in your business. You're the last of your line."
"So?" In the back of my mind I'd realized this, but
something about that phrasing made me uneasy, which made me grumpy. Grumpier
than usual, I mean.
"So ..." Paula drew out the word, her subtext very
I-can't-believe -you-haven't- figured-this - out- for-yourself. "I have no
children. I hope it will be a long time from now, but you'll eventually inherit
Bluestone Hill."
"Not if you sell it." Her look of absolute horror told
me what she thought of that suggestion.
"And you," she continued, as if I hadn't voiced the
idea, "will have the money to really fix it up, if you want."
My forehead knit in confusion. "What do you mean r
"Well, your father's trust." She registered my blank
270
look and explained, matter-of-factly, "That's the way things
split up. His side got the ironworks--which has since gone public, and the
funds put into a trust. My side got the house and all the land."
My stomach twisted. Had I been living on the Colonel's money all
this time? "I thought my allowance came from what Dad invested from his
business. And the life insurance."
"I don't know about that. I suppose it does, because you
won't have access to the Davis trust until you're eighteen. That's the age your
dad used the money to move away and go to school."
I sat back, flummoxed. "I just thought it was all Dad's
money. And not--" I made a ballooning gesture, encompassing the weight of
a family legacy.
"It's all your dad's money, honey," Paula said pragmatically.
"You should really find out more about your business affairs. You're
almost eighteen, for heaven's sake. Not a child."
You wouldn't know that from the way she treated me, but my
irritation took a backseat to my resurgent anger and confusion. Dad had--well,
not hidden this, exactly, since I would have found out in a few months, even if
I hadn't come down here. But he'd certainly kept it separate and secret.
I pushed that thought away, and concentrated on what I could
discover about him here. Reading his mind was not an option, so I could only
follow his past actions.
The thought spurred me, and I got up--then had to take hold of the
back of my chair to stretch the bike-riding muscles that had stiffened into
knots.
271
Paula frowned, borderline sympathetic. "Why don't you go put
your feet up. You've had two hard days, walking to Old Cahawba, then biking to
town. I can't believe you did that."
"I'm supposed to exercise my leg," I said, irked more at
my own body than at her, "or it won't get stronger."
"Yes," she said dryly, "but there's such a thing as
moderation."
"So I've heard." I headed for the back door, trying not
to limp and prove her point. As I let Gigi into the kitchen, it occurred to me
that my cousin hadn't answered my half-joking question. "Hey, Paula? Does
Shawn have an aunt my dad's age?"
She'd been on the way back to the sink, but she paused, answering
with a smile of remembrance. "No, but he has a second cousin who used to
play with us when we were little. Rainbow Maddox."
"Rainbow?"
Paula's smile turned wry. "Her parents weren't from around
here."
"It sounds like her parents weren't from this planet."
At her "be nice" expression, I asked, "Whatever happened to
her?"
"Heavens, Sylvie, how should I know? Went back to California
with her folks, I guess." With a purposeful air of dismissal, she finished
rinsing out her glass. "It's just a silly superstition. Don't be so
paranoid."
The word put an end to my questions. I couldn't afford to have her
think I was paranoid any more than I could let her think I was delusional.
Was I? I gnawed on the question. There was no
272
reason that my nagging unease with this matchmaking had any
connection to Dad and his time here. Except that the idea--and despite Shawn's
logical explanation about business deals and local dynasties, it was archaic
at the very least--would, by its nature, go back generations.
Everything here seemed to go back generations. Maybe
that was why the notion of ghosts didn't seem as crazy as it should. If there
was any place where the habits of long-dead people and the impact of past
events might echo into the present, it was at Bluestone Hill.
***
I climbed the stairs stiffly, carrying Gigi in one hand and
leaning heavily on the banister with the other. At my door, the lilac scent
welcomed me back. It was the one peculiarity of Bluestone Hill that didn't
alarm me.
Setting Gigi on the bed, I grabbed the back of the desk chair,
bending over to stretch my hips and legs. The position put me at eye level with
the drawer, and the Crazy/Not Crazy list inside. Was there any point in digging
it out now?
I sat down, my fingers slipping unerringly to the secret latch.
The compartment popped open easily, and I pulled out my crumpled list. There
was something underneath it, and I caught my breath when I realized what it
was--a dusty leather book with the ruffle-edged pages of a handwritten journal.
273
Gigi raised her head, ears pricked, nose twitching. The same alert
curiosity rushed over me, my hands tingling as I carefully pulled the book from
the compartment. The pages were yellowed with age. I gently ran my finger over
the edges and dislodged something, which fluttered to the carpet.
The pressed flower was flat and papery, but the now-familiar
fragrance filled the room as if I'd found a whole spray of fresh blooms.
Lilacs.
With Christmas-morning excitement I carefully opened the book.
There was no inscription in the front, no name. The ink was faded, and the
handwriting spiky and uneven. Not exactly the neat script young ladies were
supposed to practice.
March 1863. Marnie and I took blankets and medicine to the prison
in town. Those poor souls--is that what we would want for our men
and boys? When I think of my own brothers, off fighting with our father in
Virginia ...
The book confirmed my instinctive certainty. Lilac Girl was the
Colonel's daughter.
274
***
Chapter 17
I spent the afternoon reading the journal, though deciphering
might be a better description. By the time Paula called me down for dinner, I
was bleary-eyed and pretzel-necked from hunching over the desk to get the best
light on the page. I wanted to read the book in order, but it was slow going,
between the handwriting, the author's use of initials and shorthand for the
things and people common to her but mysteries to me, and the fact that I had to
be so careful with the fragile paper. The entries were a combination of her
ruminations
275
and a diary of events and domestic activities. She seemed so
young, but she had a tremendous amount of responsibility. Her mother was dead,
and all the men were off fighting. Plus, I'd seen Gone with the Wind and
Sherman's march to the sea, so I knew there was danger, even for those at home.
But I couldn't forget the old photograph in the Davis history book. No daughter
in evidence. What had happened to her? I was as anxious for Lilac Girl as if
she were a personal friend.
I returned the journal to its hiding place before I went down to
dinner. Eventually, I would have to tell Paula about it. The little bit I'd
read so far might have value to a historian. She might get some money for it,
to help with the house's upkeep. But for now, my roommate was my secret.
Once Gigi was in her crate with her own dinner, I went to the
kitchen. Paula was pouring iced tea into four glasses. Addie had just finished
setting the table. I didn't understand the dagger-sharp look she threw me until
I remembered that I hadn't actually spent the entire afternoon a hundred and
fifty years in the past. I'd had lunch with Shawn Maddox, and obviously news of
my date had reached the high school campus.
"Have a seat," Clara told me. "I'm dishing up
now."
Things were looking up on the food front. Clara had made a spicy
dish of red beans and rice, with a cucumber salad to counteract the heat.
"This is fantastic," I said, barely waiting until she and Paula sat
before digging in.
Addie, however, poked at her bowl and said, "I can't eat
this, Mom. It's nothing but carbs."
276
Clara didn't improve things by nodding at me as she buttered a
piece of corn bread. "Sylvie's not worried about that."
Addie shot me another glare. "She's so skinny, she can eat
whatever she wants. Bowls of carbs. Eggs every day. Pie at the Daisy
Café."
Since I realized that the food was not really the issue, I
shouldn't have baited her. But I took a big bite of the savory rice and said,
"The pie was delicious, too."
She narrowed her eyes dangerously. I expected another frontal
attack, but instead, she came at me sideways. "So. Kimberly says you've
seen the Colonel's ghost."
My stomach dropped with a sickening twist. Clara and Paula, who'd
been ignoring Addie's sniping, stopped eating to stare at me in surprise and
dismay. They couldn't possibly have been more surprised and dismayed than I
was.
"I never said I saw the Colonel's ghost." Frantically I
cast my mind back over the conversation, trying to make certain. "Because
I haven't."
Which was the truth. I hadn't seen anything definitive.
Paula's face pinched in concern. "Did Shawn rattle you with
ghost stories? He's always been fascinated with the tales, but that's all they
are, honey."
My hand fisted on my spoon. Her patronizing tone was infuriating,
but I was already furious at Addie, and at Kimberly, so it was hard to tell the
difference.
Clara reached across the table to squeeze my hand. "Don't let
them harass you, girl. These old houses will play tricks on you. And the woods
aren't any better.
277
When the wind starts blowing the moss around, I'd swear my old
granny was coming to get me."
"I'm not rattled!" But my voice climbed in panic. I was
unnerved, just not for the reasons they assumed.
Addie looked like a cat with canary feathers in its mouth, and I
couldn't figure out what she was trying to accomplish, other than to make my
life miserable. "Kimberly said y'all had a whole conversation about
spirits and stuff."
"Look," I said, getting myself under control. I wasn't
going to convince anyone of my sanity by raving. "Kimberly brought up the
ghost thing. And yeah, Shawn did before that. I never said I saw
anything."
Did I? The worst thing was, I couldn't be certain. Whatever her
intentions, Addie had managed to make me doubt myself. Maybe I was nuts
if I was saying things and then forgetting them.
"Maybe you blacked out the conversation," said Addie, as
if she'd read my thoughts. "I hear that can happen when you're drying
out."
"What?" I stared at her blankly, my brain completely
shut down in outrage and disbelief.
"Addie!" snapped her mother. "That's enough."
My nemesis just shrugged. "Everyone knows that's why she's
here."
"Everyone knows no such thing," said Clara.
"And neither do you, young lady."
I turned to Paula and demanded, "Why would people think
that?" Because the only way they could have gotten that idea was if a
certain someone blabbed what the stepshrink had told her.
278
"No one thinks that, Sylvie," Paula said impatiently,
but I wasn't listening.
Pushing back from the table, I stood as calmly as I could, worried
any quick movement would break my control over my feelings and I would scream
at Paula, or pull Addie's hair, or start to cry. "I've lost my
appetite."
No one tried to stop me. On the porch, Gigi stood in her crate,
her front paws up on one of the metal crossbars, waiting for me, as if she
sensed that I was upset. I let her out, fitted her harness and snapped on the
leash, taking no chances of her running off in the dark. I moved by rote,
because I was choking on emotion.
I headed for the garden, trying to outrun the fury that kept
catching me. A few hours of distraction this afternoon, and now I was angry
again. At Paula, at Addie, at Rhys. Not to mention Mother, the stepshrink and
John. I was mad at the world, and most of all, I was mad at myself.
I hated that I'd circled back to where I'd started,
wondering if I was crazy, wondering if anything would ever be right again.
Other people dealt with tragedy without coming apart at the seams--or so my
shrink told me. Why was I seeing ghosts and forgetting conversations and
imagining connections with the previous occupant of my room?
Kicking off my shoes, I let the gravel of the path roughly massage
my feet. I surveyed my work, willed my accomplishments to soothe me. I had
gotten a startling amount done, clearing a tiny, pie-shaped
279
segment of the central circle. Once I'd gotten some of the weeds
pulled out, I was surprised at how many of the plants on Dad's list were still
alive, just choked and pathetic.
My hands itched to get back in the dirt. Looking at it wasn't
enough. Securing Gigi's leash to the bench, I knelt in the planting bed,
burrowing with my toes as if anchoring myself and digging my fingers down to
the roots of the weeds.
I didn't bother with gloves, and I didn't need light. By now I
could go by feel, the texture of the plant, the shape of the leaves. More than
that, it was something that I identified through my skin. I didn't think about
whether this was strange or unnatural. I just worked the earth, and freed my
mind from the awful knots of anger and fear.
The more I thought about it, what Addie implied didn't make sense.
No one in town treated me as if I was unhinged. According to Kimberly, most of
them believed in ghosts. Or at least the possibility of them. And if they
thought I was an alcoholic, it didn't stop them from treating me like returning
royalty. As long as their prince accepted me, I was golden, even if I did have
bats in my belfry.
And speaking of Shawn ... It kept coming back to him. Maybe it was
unfair to blame Kimberly for blathering about ghosts to Addie, when she
obviously believed in them. But it was Shawn who kept bringing them up. Shawn
who was the big fish in this small pond, who ran the Teen Town Council, whose
charm and influence were off the chart.
280
Who was courting me, the last Davis, and apparently heir to not
only a lot of money but Bluestone Hill itself. In my head, I saw the triangle
of sweetener packets on the table. If the properties were game pieces, they
would trap Old Cahawba and give the player a lock on the corner where the
rivers met--a lot of rustic paradise for hunting and ATV trails.
There's an old movie, Gaslight, where Ingrid Bergman plays
an heiress, and this guy marries her and then makes her think she's going
crazy. It has something to do with getting her house or her fortune.
Could someone be gaslighting me? I knew from performing, there
were plenty of stage tricks you could use: scrim curtains, a TV screen
reflected in a pane of glass, a costume and a well-placed mirror. Even fog
machines were easy to get.
It might make sense--if I could think of how anyone would benefit
from making me think I was nuts. I already had plenty of doubts, without
anyone's help.
Sitting back on my heels, I wondered if I could feel this clearheaded
and still be crazy. The world seemed to be trying to convince me my own senses
were faulty, and Rhys had warned me to be careful whom I trusted. If I couldn't
believe my own instincts, what did I have left to rely on?
***
I woke, facedown on my bed, William S. Davis's book digging into
my side. With a groan, I pulled it out from under me and flopped back down. It
was a good
281
thing, I guess, that I'd taken a break from reading the journal;
the ancient pages would have been ruined if I'd fallen asleep on top of them.
Squinting at the bedside clock, I saw it was half-past indecently
late, and other than the sharp corner of the Davis family history, I couldn't
figure out what had woken me.
Had the Griffiths come in? When I'd returned to the kitchen to
wash my hands, Paula had told me--after complaining about my getting dirty all
over again--that the professor had called to say they would be rolling in very
late, if they made it back that night at all.
"Will you be all right upstairs by yourself?" she asked,
in the tone people use when they're concerned, but trying not to sound concerned.
"Why wouldn't I?" I challenged, some of my hard-won calm
slipping away. "I'm sure you've hidden all the liquor, so I can't get into
too much trouble."
"Sylvie--" she started in an annoyed voice, then stopped
and blew out a breath. "Addie wouldn't be able to get to you if you
weren't so prickly."
There were so many arguments I could make to that, but half of
them would just prove her point, so I let it go. But I noticed she hadn't
denied my accusation.
I listened for the sound of someone coming up the stairs, but
heard nothing. So, whatever had woken me, it was not the Griffiths returning.
Gigi stood on the edge of the bed, her little body stiff, her
hackles raised as she stared at the window. I turned off the lamp, so the room
was lit only by the moonlight, then went to see what had disturbed her.
282
Peering out, I scanned the lawn, the woods, the river, all painted
in a silver glow. The moon was three-quarters full, and I sort of wished I
hadn't joked with Rhys about werewolves.
I leaned across the desk to slide open the window. There was a
strange electricity in the air, like a static charge. Gigi growled softly, and
I thought about how dogs were supposed to be able to sense earthquakes and
natural disasters right before they happened. The night had the kind of pent-up
energy that ran through me when I was backstage waiting to go on, the stored
potential of bunched muscle preparing for a leap or a turn.
It didn't make sense. But neither did my inordinate fear of the
watcher, and I'd accepted that. Whatever the cause, the feeling was
real.
A shadow moved swiftly and stealthily across the lawn. Unlike before,
the girl wasn't wearing a long skirt, but jeans. She glanced toward the house,
and I ducked down, but not before I recognized Addie.
What was she doing out? And where was she coming from? I listened
for a car engine, or the crunch of tires on the gravel, indicating she'd been
dropped off. But she hadn't come from the front of the house. She'd come
through the back garden, from the southeast. There was nothing in that
direction, except for the river and the summerhouse.
Was she just now leaving the Teen Town Council meeting? It was a
school night, and this was way past curfew.
The way she'd looked up at the house--had she seen
283
the watcher? Or had she merely glimpsed my light going out? I
risked a peek over the windowsill, but there was no sign of her. Of course, the
balcony blocked my view of the backyard. Cautiously I levered myself up on the
desk, then craned out the window. I could just see the corner of the
summerhouse and what could have been a glimmer of light. Or it might
have been the moon reflecting on the river behind it.
I'd promised Rhys I wouldn't go wandering around in the dark, but
curiosity steamed like a kettle inside me. The weird charge in the air made it
impossible to stay still.
Gigi jumped down from the bed and scratched eagerly at the door.
That settled it. My dog had to pee. I had to go outside, even if it was
just to the yard.
I grabbed her extra leash from a hook on the cabinet and clipped
it to her collar. Pausing briefly, I grasped the doorknob, feeling for cold the
way they teach you to feel for heat in a fire. The brass felt only cool, so I
poked my head into the dark hallway.
Nothing. If there was a chill, it was slight enough to be my
imagination or maybe the air-conditioning. I picked Gigi up and hurried anyway,
avoiding the French doors, taking the main stairs down. With the dog held
tightly against my chest, I crept to the kitchen and out through the porch.
The night was reassuringly warm, which was a good thing, since I
wasn't wearing a jacket, just a camisole and pj's. These had psychedelic
daisies on them. During my months of convalescence, I'd built up an impressive
collection of pajama pants. Though with my
284
nocturnal ramblings with Gigi, I was going through them fast.
Walking the dog wasn't only an excuse. She got quickly to business
in the backyard, while I crept toward the hedgerow that obscured my view of the
summerhouse. I wasn't halfway there, however, when a light snapped on in the
kitchen.
Crap. Forget sneaking the dog in; Paula would have plenty to say
about my being out in the middle of the night. I tucked Gigi into the crook of
my arm and made for the spiral staircase, avoiding the kitchen windows on my
way.
The steps were cold and damp under my bare feet, and the iron
grating bit into my toes. I held on to the vine-covered railing, reaching the
top just as a breeze began to blow. It rustled the leaves and drifted my hair
around my shoulders. The coiled-spring feeling in the air intensified, like a
clock wound until the key wouldn't turn anymore.
When the sound came from the woods, I was already expecting it.
The wailing cry was unutterably sad. It burrowed into my chest and made a
painful knot of heart-deep sorrow. It twisted parts of me that I didn't even
know could ache. The piteous noise reached through my rising fear and tore a
gasp of sympathy from my throat.
I still clutched Gigi against me, and her growl vibrated against
my ribs. Setting her down, I went to the balustrade and peered out into the
woods.
Through the trees, I could see a figure moving. She ran through
the woods, the branches catching at her
285
long skirts, tangling her loose hair. Her headlong rush would
carry her straight to the river, where the ground dropped steeply to the
rushing water below. There was no time to wonder how I could see her so well in
the shadows, how I could sense what she meant to do, as if some string
connected our hearts. It was strange, and terrible, and terrifying.
"No!" I shouted it across the night. "Don't
jump!"
But she did, flinging herself from the embankment, and
disappearing into the water.
I had to call the police, the sheriff, whoever was responsible.
Through the pulse pounding in my ears I heard Gigi barking frantically, but my
head was so full of this girl and her flight that all I could think
about was helping her.
I whirled and ran to the French doors. My fingers closed on the
handles, registered the burning cold of the metal. I snatched them back,
cradled them against my chest to warm them. Only then did I look in through the
glass.
A gray man in military dress, thick sideburns and mustache, stood
looking out at me, watching through hollow blackness where his eyes should have
been.
286
***
Chapter 18
My scream was loud enough to wake the dead. Those that weren't
already walking.
It also woke the household, including Clara and Addie in their
apartment over the garage. Gigi's barking helped with that, I imagine.
When the doors in front of me flew open, I screamed again, but it
was Paula, not an empty-eyed specter, who rushed out.
"Sylvie!" She grabbed my arms and shook me until my eyes
focused on her fully; then her hands slid down
287
to mine, chafing them briskly. "Oh my God. Your fingers are
freezing. What happened? Are you all right?"
I stopped shrieking and started babbling. The logic parts of my
brain were completely overrun by panic. "There was a woman, and a man at
the window. The watcher. We have to call nine-one-one for the woman in the
river."
"What's going on?" I heard Clara yelling from her
second-floor landing across the lawn.
Paula stared at me, uncomprehending. "What on earth is wrong
with you!"
I realized the words had spilled out in an unintelligible rush.
And Gigi was still barking, covering up anything sensible that did come out.
"I saw ... I thought I saw ... There was a woman in the woods. And a man
at the window."
"Honey, are you sure?"
"I--" The words seized up in my throat. I looked into
her eyes and saw overwhelming concern, but there was an underlying thread of
"Oh my God, how am I going to explain this breakdown to her mother"
that cut through my blind panic.
I knew what I'd just experienced was real, and not in my
imagination. But that was meaningless. I knew I wasn't a drug addict or a
drunk, either, but I'd still had to endure the humiliation of Mother and the stepshrink
searching my room for booze or drugs, even though I'd voluntarily handed over
my postsurgical Vicodin. No way was I giving anyone ammunition to do that ever
again.
"No," I said, wrestling back control over myself.
288
"I'm not sure. I was getting Gigi--sorry, Paula--and the
glass, it can look like something is there." I raised a trembling hand--I
didn't have to fake that--to rub my brow and hide my face as I lied. "It
must have been all that talk today."
Paula's jaw set. "That Adina. I'm going to have a stern talk
with that girl."
"It's not her fault." I took a noble tone, but I was
more worried about retribution from Addie if Paula read her the riot act.
"Shawn started it, then there was all that talk about haints and bottle
trees at lunch--"
"What's going on? Is everyone all right?" Clara called
again.
"We're fine," Paula shouted back. "Just a
nightmare." Then she looked at me, a warning in her eye. "She doesn't
need to know how much Addie upset you."
"Yes, ma'am. I don't want to upset Clara."
Her expression gentled, which was a relative thing with Paula, but
still. I was almost touched. "Are you going to be all right?"
That was highly debatable. I picked up Gigi, who'd finally stopped
barking, and she licked my face with anxious puppy kisses as if to ask the same
question.
"I'll be okay. I'll be better if Gigi sleeps with me."
Paula's eyes narrowed. "Now I'm beginning to think this is an
elaborate ruse to get that dog in your room overnight."
I was fine with that, actually, glad for any excuse for my
behavior. So I said, "Would I do that?" in a purposely too-innocent
way.
"Humph. Just for tonight."
289
She walked into the house, and I followed her closely through the
hall, certain that no ghost would dare appear to practical Paula. She walked me
all the way to my door, then gave me one last worried look before she left.
I shut the door, set Gigi on the bed and went to close the window.
The night seemed resoundingly normal now. No sounds. No cold. No tightly wound
tension in the air. It was as if I had imagined everything. In that way,
the quick return to normalcy was scarier than any ghost.
Almost.
I didn't think I'd sleep, but when I crawled under the covers,
Gigi curled into the curve of my neck, and her even breathing coaxed me into
slumber.
I dreamed of dancing, and of falling, and of the sweet smell of
lilac.
***
Despite everything, the morning found me surprisingly optimistic.
Maybe it was the reassuring daylight. Or it might have had something to do with
Rhys coming back. Compelling or exasperating, at least he was a distraction
from my seriously weird problems.
As I threw on my clothes, I strengthened my resolve to keep an
open mind. It was counterproductive to wear the same circle of worry through my
mind, and I knew I'd get a lot more done if I just formed a working theory
based on an assumption of sanity, then went from there. I was proud of how
logical that sounded.
290
"Here's what we have to work with today," I said to Gigi
as she watched me pull on my jeans. I needed to think aloud, even if my only
sounding board had four legs and a tail. At least I could trust her to keep my
secrets. "There seem to be three things. The sound in the woods. The girl,
who might be connected to the sound. And the watcher."
I suppressed a shudder, even though the sun streamed in the
east-facing window, setting fire to the fine particles of dust in the air. I
suppose I could start calling him the Colonel now.
"Next," I told Gigi, tugging on a T-shirt, and pretending
I was as brave and logical as I sounded. "They're getting worse."
I managed to say it without too much of a quiver in my stomach.
Gigi cocked her head, and I sat on the bed, running a hand over her silky fur.
The thing about the Colonel was, if ghosts were just impressions of the past,
the leftover psychic fingerprints of the routine of daily living, then the
apparition at the window wasn't so much a thumbprint as a deep, gouging scar.
I'd always felt menaced by the watching presence, but last night, face to
face--
My stomach did turn over then, and as if sensing it, Gigi climbed
into my lap and I cuddled her close.
Seeing the Colonel face to face had been like plunging from the
high dive into a frigid pool. Hitting a wall of icy malevolence.
I had to keep my thoughts moving forward, or fear would paralyze
me. "So, what was different last night, Gee? The full moon? Being outside?
The TTC?"
291
It had always struck me as strange that they met in the
summerhouse. Which made it odd that I hadn't made it out there yet. Time to
change that.
Despite the fact that Gigi was authorized to be upstairs, I didn't
want to deal with Paula just yet. It would have been easier to go down the
spiral staircase, but I wasn't brave enough to go through the French doors, even
though there was no sign of anything weird in the hall. Instead, I took my
usual route through the den.
Instead of going to the summerhouse directly, Gigi and I walked
straight down the sloping lawn and into the trees. It was cool under the canopy
of leaves, but only because the sun hadn't reached in to drive away the morning
damp. Gigi made sniffing forays through the pine needles, but never went too
far before coming back to me.
We reached the river at the point where I'd seen the girl
disappear. Looking back toward the house, I wondered how I'd managed to see her
with such clarity. Then I shook myself. Duh. Ghost. Normal rules may not apply.
Bracing a hand on one of the trees that clung to the edge of the
embankment, I peered over. It was a steep, treacherous drop, and the Alabama
River ran by at a swift clip. But there was no sign of an actual fall. No
disturbed earth, no broken branches, no marks in the mud.
A wave of vertigo tightened my grip on the rough bark of the pine
tree. Time made one of those sideways slips in my head, and I couldn't tell if
I was falling now, or remembering the fall onstage, or somehow
292
remembering her fall, empathizing too closely with a girl
who possibly never even existed.
"Who are you?" I whispered. That had to be my next move,
finding out. "And what are you running from?"
Gigi barked, bringing me back to the present. I forced myself to
retreat a step and turned downriver, the dog trotting amiably beside me,
unaffected by my momentary fugue.
The path took me downhill, the embankment shortening until
eventually the land and water met on the same level. We'd reached the clearing
of the inlet-- a V-shaped slope that climbed steeply back up to the
summerhouse. Set between the house and the water, it would have an excellent
view and catch the breeze.
A raised octagon with a pointed roof, the summer-house had a
latticed half wall with screens above it. It was more of a gazebo really, but
the tightly woven screens gave the walls a sort of opacity. Even during the
daytime, anyone inside would be a shadow at best.
Gigi sniffed the perimeter, ending her patrol at the wooden steps
to the entrance. They seemed in good shape, and there was even a handrail. The
whole structure was freshly painted and looked a lot better than I would have
thought, considering a bunch of teens worked on it.
The screen door opened noiselessly, and a strip of insulation
inside the frame made sure that it wouldn't bang closed. The purposefulness of
the silence seemed eerily secretive. I found myself walking quietly, half
holding my breath as I came in. The click of Gigi's nails
293
on the floor was loud, like a pair of high heels in the hush of an
empty church.
Trying to shake the feeling, I let Gigi explore, which she did,
nose to the ground. There was a wood table, its paint peeling off, that would
get a good price from a chichi antiques barn. So would the chairs scattered
around the room. Two wicker ones were set with a battered steamer truck between
them like a coffee table. The furniture was old but clean, and the place didn't
feel deserted.
There was a faint smell of--herbs? Potpourri? Citronella candle?
Maybe a mix of all those things. Several used matches lay on the corner of the
trunk, and a lot of wax drippings pooled on the table.
I tried to open the trunk, but it was locked. More secrets. Why
did the Teen Town Council meet in the summerhouse when there was a perfectly
nice den in the house? And why was Addie out here so late? Did the meeting go
into the wee hours, or had she lingered here, maybe with someone else? Shawn?
After an initial stab of outrage--he had a lot of nerve buying me
pie--the idea didn't entirely hold up. I believed Addie and Shawn might be
thick as thieves, but it didn't feel like they were involved in that
way.
The summerhouse didn't look like make-out central, despite the
candle smell and the matches. And I didn't smell pot or tobacco smoke. So what
were they doing? Playing Scrabble?
This was occupying way too much of my mental energy. What could
this possibly have to do with anything? With my dad, the weirdness in town, the
whole
294
Davis/Maddox thing, and last--but so very not least-- with the
things I was seeing and feeling.
I opened the screen door and looked toward the house. The rosy
morning light blurred the shabbiness of the dingy whitewash and saggy trim like
a soft-focus camera lens. The overgrown hedges, the moss-draped oaks, the vines
crawling up the side columns--all made it seem like the house had been grown
rather than built.
The gap in the hedges was aligned so that I had a clear view of
the kudzu-covered stone in the garden. An invisible string tied between the
rock and the center of the summerhouse could be pulled straight and taut, like
one of those tin-can telephones in old movies.
More disconnected mysteries, like puzzle pieces jumbled in a box.
The wailing in the woods and the watcher in the window. The candles and secrecy
here in the summerhouse and the monolithic keystone of the garden. Rhys's
secret agenda and his rock hunting, and the antipathy between him and Shawn.
"Gigi, sometimes I think the ghosts are the least weird thing
going on here."
She growled, and I turned to see her plumed tail sticking out from
under one of the built-in benches that ringed the half walls. She emerged
backward, pulling out something oblong, gray and fuzzy.
My stomach turned. "Oh my God. That had better not be a
rat."
Gigi bore it proudly toward me in her teeth, shaking it with a
tiny growl, making sure it was dead. Thankfully, as she got closer, I saw it
had never been alive; at least, I didn't see any tail or feet.
295
I got her to drop the thing and, picking it up between two
fingers, I examined what appeared to be a bundle of dried twigs or herbs. A
tentative sniff said a mix of both. I smelled some kind of fragrant wood and a
pungent green. How weird. The bundle was tied with a piece of cotton string,
and it appeared to be charred at one end. When I touched it, my fingers came
away black, as if I'd drawn on them with charcoal.
Incense? Maybe Addie was hooking up in the gazebo, and
setting the mood.
Gigi's ears swiveled toward the house, and she ran to the screen
door, barking an alert. I slipped the charred bundle into the pocket of my
jacket, as if I had something to hide, and wiped the traces off my fingers
before going to the door.
But no one was coming. Gigi was barking at Caitlin's compact car
as it pulled around on the drive, heading toward the county road and on to the
high school. I glimpsed Addie in the passenger seat, waving her hands as she
told an animated, and apparently very humorous, story. Somehow, I was sure it
had to do with my screaming bloody murder in the middle of the night.
Nice. I sighed and pushed the door open for Gigi, then carefully
maneuvered down the steps and climbed the sloping lawn toward the house. At
least I could now eat breakfast without Miss Malice ruining my appetite.
***
Clara and Paula were deep in conversation, and they started
guiltily when I came in. Obviously I was everyone's major topic of conversation
this morning. I
296
knew Paula felt guilty, because she didn't say anything when Gigi
trotted in alongside me.
That is, she didn't say anything about the dog. "Where
did you come from?" she demanded.
"I had to take the dog out for her morning business," I
said. Honest, if incomplete.
Her gaze dropped to my muddy tennis shoes, and the balance of
guilt shifted back to normal. "You didn't go out to the river, did
you?"
"Uh." I was so used to lying when sneaking Gigi in and
out of the house that you'd think I would have been prepared with something
better than a blank stare now.
"Oh, Sylvie." Her exasperated lament had a worried edge
to it. "Did you have to?"
Clara intervened on my behalf. I had started thinking of them as a
pair of aunts, the familial version of good cop, bad cop. "Paula, she's
fine. Look at her. She looks a lot healthier than when she got here."
Paula frowned at me, but apparently this was a convincing
argument. Still, she wasn't completely swayed. "Can you blame me for being
concerned?"
"Lord," said Clara, pushing herself up from the table.
"This big ol' house has a history that's enough to give a girl the
horrors. When I first came here, I used to have nightmares about the
Colonel coming to get me. Why do you think I'm happy in an outbuilding, like my
ancestors? I don't want anything to do with yours."
This was an interesting piece of news. Intrigued-- not to mention
hungry--I took my normal seat at the table. Gigi stretched her front paws up to
my knee, asking to be picked up, and while Paula's attention was on
297
pouring herself a fresh cup of coffee, I slipped the dog into my
lap, hidden by the table.
"What kind of nightmares?" I asked Clara as she returned
to the table with a glass of orange juice for me.
She gave me a "don't be naïve" look and pointed to her
dark-skinned face. "What kind of nightmares do you think?"
"Oh, of course." My ears burned with the realization I'd
said something stupid and possibly offensive.
"I'm sorry."
I was apologizing for a lot with those two words. Clara seemed to
get that, and smiled slightly. "The past is a fact we can't change. I live
in the present."
"But ..." I looked from one woman to the other, seeing
an opening for some prying. "It's like you said, Clara. The house really
is full of history. The past seems so close. Hasn't your imagination ever run
away with you, Paula?"
She blinked, her hesitation covered by Clara's laugh. "The
Colonel wouldn't dare haunt Paula."
It was the smallest chink, but I pursued that momentary delay in
answering. "Maybe when you were a kid?"
This time, Clara noticed the hesitation too, and stared at her
friend. "You did. I can see it in your face."
Paula huffed, irritated that we had cornered her. She resisted for
another stubborn moment, taking a long sip of coffee, then said, "When I
was a little younger than Sylvie, I had a sleepover. We were 'camping out'
"--her tone supplied the quote marks--"in the summerhouse. And
Rainbow Maddox--"
298
"Rainbow?" echoed Clara.
Paula ignored her. "We were doing silly girl stuff. Telling
fortunes, ghost stories. I think there was a Ouija board involved. We were
trying to scare ourselves, so it's no wonder ..." She paused as if
regretting starting the story.
"Go on," said Clara.
Paula blew out a breath and half rolled her eyes. "Rainbow
heard something outside, and when we went to look she swore she saw someone at
the upstairs window, watching us. That it was the Colonel, and he was going to
get us for doing magic in his summerhouse. Everyone screamed and hid in their
sleeping bags, pulled them up over their heads." She chuckled. "It
was the hit of the party, really."
While I stared at her, trying not to look as gob-smacked as I
felt, Clara said, amused, "I'm so glad to know you were once capable of
being silly."
I leaned forward, figuratively holding my breath. Something she'd
said clicked, and I had to phrase my question carefully, to keep the mood light
and the emphasis off my nighttime adventures.
"Do you think," I ventured casually, "this is where
the rumor that the house is haunted came from? Kimberly and the others really
seem to believe in ghosts, and you said yourself Shawn is fascinated. Those
would be their mothers, wouldn't they? The girls at your slumber party."
Paula blinked in surprise. "I never thought about that."
Should I press my luck and point out how this meant
299
I wasn't nuts? That she could stop worrying about me? Or would it
just remind her about last night? Her story didn't explain the girl at the
river, after all.
While I debated, Clara got up from the table and asked, "What
do you want for breakfast?"
"Is there cereal? I should have gotten some when I was-- Oh,
crud." I edited my usual curse word. "I left the soy milk I bought
yesterday in Shawn's truck."
"Uh-huh," said Clara knowingly. "I guess you'll
have to call him to bring it over."
Or not. I didn't think he needed encouragement. Even forgetting
that Addie had been out late with someone last night, if my gut said
things like "stage presence" and "Tom Sawyer trickster," I
needed to pay attention. Which was easier to do when Shawn wasn't around.
My noncommittal "Humph," which both women seemed to find
amusing, put an end to the conversation, or at least that part of it. As Clara
and Paula exchanged a few words about groceries, I ventured into the inner
sanctum of the kitchen and found regular milk and some bran flakes, carried
them back to the table and poured myself a generous bowl. And then, suddenly,
Clara left, as if she and Paula had made some agreement while I was crunching
and couldn't hear, and I was alone with my cousin.
"Listen, Sylvie." She leaned her elbows on the table.
I set down my spoon warily. Nothing good was going to follow that
gently concerned overture. The phone rang, and I grasped at the diversion.
"Do you need to answer that?"
"Clara can get it in the den." She cleared her throat
300
and continued. "Your stepfather gave me the name of a
colleague of his in Birmingham, who will see you at a moment's notice. Maybe I
should call and make you an appointment."
"What? No! Paula--" My protest was incoherent, the
emphatic slash of my hand endangering my cereal bowl. "I don't need a
shrink. Weren't we just talking about how rumor and the history of the house
can make even your imagination run wild?"
She didn't look pleased with the reminder. "Imagination, yes.
Screaming night terrors, no."
My heart pounded in my throat. A junior shrink had gotten me into
this mess, his confiding manner making me say too much. The stepshrink had told
Mother I couldn't stay by myself, and she'd believed him over me. My own, real
shrink was no help at all when I'd begged-- well, demanded--that he tell Mother
I was fine. He'd just said his usual crapola about mourning and moving on. The
psychiatrists who knew me didn't believe I wasn't drunk or depressed or
deranged. What the hell would an actual stranger do to me?
"Paula, please," I said, knowing that giving into
irrational raving was not going to convince her I didn't need professional
help. "I'm fine. If it happens again"--by which I meant, if I got
caught in a situation I couldn't bluff my way out of--"I'll talk to ... I
don't know. Anyone but a shrink."
For a long moment, she studied my earnest expression. "What
about Reverend Watkins at our church? Will you talk to him?"
I sat back in my chair, struck by the possible
301
providence of this suggestion. "Which church?" I bit my
tongue to keep from blurting out: The one where the Colonel is buried? I
didn't want to say anything to make her rethink the shrink issue.
Paula stood up, as if the matter was settled. "It's between
here and Maddox Landing. You may have even seen the steeple from the road. It's
been the family church for generations."
"So ..." I pretended to be reluctant about the idea.
"I could even ride my bike over there."
She was so relieved, her spine relaxed a millimeter or so.
"I'll be happy to drive you, honey."
It wasn't difficult to manufacture a pained expression.
"Please. Leave me at least the illusion of independence."
"Fine," she said, getting the last word. "I'll call
the reverend and tell him you'll be out sometime today."
I was eating my bran flakes, grumbling silently about being
outmaneuvered, when Clara came in from the front of the house. Something in her
step made me look up, and I swallowed hard at her worried expression.
"What's wrong?" Paula asked. I remembered the phone
ringing, and my heart plummeted.
Clara lifted her hands in a calming gesture. "Everyone is all
right. Professor Griffith just called; they were in a minor accident on the way
home last night."
"Are they okay?" I asked, half rising out of my chair,
oblivious to the fact that she'd just said so. There were different levels of
"all right."
She nodded. "He and Rhys are fine. Bumps and
302
bruises. But it was late, and they had to have the rental car
towed; they're working on getting another one. He didn't want us to worry if
they didn't arrive back until this afternoon or evening."
Paula leaned a hand on the counter, one hand on her chest.
"Well, thank God for that. I've grown rather fond of those fellows."
"You're not the only one," said Clara, and I thought she
was talking about herself until she said, her voice warm with sympathy,
"Sit down, honey, before you fall down. They're both fine."
I didn't feel like I was going to fall down. I felt like I was
going to throw up. I'd known Rhys less than a week, not nearly long enough to
justify the wrenching knot in my chest at the thought of something dire
happening to him.
"I'm okay," I said. "I'm just going to go, um,
change my jeans and work in the garden for a bit."
Calling for Gigi, I headed to the front of the house. I didn't
care about my jeans; as the dog jumped onto the love seat, I grabbed the home
phone and checked the caller ID. My cell phone was still in my pocket from the
day before, and it even had a charge. I entered the number--a U.S. one,
probably a throwaway phone for their stay--into my cell, then grabbed Gigi and
went out the side door to my garden.
Impatiently I unlaced my sneakers while the phone rang. I'd just gotten
them off and was kneading the grass between my toes when Rhys answered.
"Hello?" I recognized his voice with no trouble, even
though the accent was the same as his dad's.
303
"Are you really okay?" I asked without preamble.
There was a funny sort of exhale on the end. Realization, relief,
recognition--I couldn't tell, except that his tone warmed a little. "Yeah.
We're both all right. The car's a goner, though. Dad's doing the paperwork
now."
"How are you all right if the car's totaled?"
"Air bags, love. Fantastic invention."
Gigi was sitting in the flower bed, getting dirty. My knees weak,
I joined her, lowering myself into a soft, green patch. "Where are you?
What happened?"
"Gasden. It was the closest city." There was a pause,
then he lowered his voice. "I swerved to avoid a deer. At least I think it
was a deer. And I, ah, may have corrected in the wrong direction."
"Oh my God." His humor was reassuring. "I told you.
Right side of the road. I don't even have a license and I know that."
"Yes, well." His voice dropped further, giving a feeling
of intimacy to the conversation. "I'm not twenty-four, or however old the
rental place likes you to be, so I wasn't driving, if you know what I
mean."
"You rebel. Out joyriding with your old man."
"An old man who is waving me over now. I've got to ring
off."
"Sure, of course." I suddenly felt embarrassed for
calling, giving in to the impulse to reassure myself.
"I'll see you shortly." He paused, as if he was going to
say something else. But he merely finished with, "Cheers, Sylvie,"
and hung up.
I lowered the phone to my crossed legs and looked
304
at Gigi. "I just wanted to make sure he and his father were
all right," I told her. She stared back with half-closed lids that asked,
very clearly, who I thought I was fooling.
***
Saint Mary's Methodist Episcopal Church was almost as old as
Bluestone Hill. It had a gabled roof and a tall steeple, which, as Paula had
predicted, I could see from the road. The brick foundation looked meticulously
preserved, and the wood siding had a new coat of white paint. Set in a
clearing, surrounded by majestic trees and a cloudless sky the color of a
Tiffany's box, it was as pretty as a postcard.
Paula had put her foot down when she found out I planned to bring
Gigi. We almost fought about it-- again--but I backed down when I remembered I
could be on my way to a shrink instead of pedaling voluntarily to a place I
wanted to go anyway.
I parked my bike against a tree next to the iron fence that
surrounded the churchyard. Though I supposed it would be better manners to go
in and meet the reverend first, I was drawn irresistibly to the northeast side
of the clearing.
The Alabama River glinted through the trees, moving more slowly
here than up by the Hill. I followed a tidy path to a fenced graveyard, the
stones a patchwork of white and gray and age-darkened brown. On the graveyard's
outer edge, the markers were arranged in a modern, orderly fashion. Closer in,
the headstones
305
were grouped, often with another iron fence around them, or a tree
that someone had planted long ago to shade the dead.
It was a peaceful place. There was a gentle serenity to the way
the sun dappled the ground, like a patterned quilt draped over those who slept.
"Hello!"
The greeting startled me, especially after my fanciful thoughts. I
whirled, one hand going to my heart. I was going to be old before my time at
the rate I was racking up shocks.
"Sorry." A man in a clerical collar stood on the path
behind me, raising his hands in the universal gesture of "don't freak
out" and smiling sheepishly. "I suppose a graveyard isn't the best
place to sneak up on someone."
"Um, no."
I'd expected the reverend at a historic church to be similarly
antique, but this man was maybe in his early thirties. Tall and thin, he had
light brown skin and features that pointed to a mix of races, and his eyes were
kind and friendly. I guess that was a plus in his profession.
"I'm Reverend Watkins," he said, unnecessarily. "If
you're Sylvie, your cousin called and told me to keep an eye out for your
arrival."
"That was nice of her." I thought I managed to say this
without sarcasm, but the glint in his eye said maybe I'd missed the mark.
"Are you looking for your family's plot?" he asked,
surprising me. Not that it was a major intuitive leap, but I'd expected he'd
want to talk about my feelings first.
306
At my startled silence, lie pointed farther down the path.
"The Davises are over here, in the oldest part of the cemetery."
He pressed the latch on the gate and gestured me ahead of him. I
paused for a moment, not worried about ghosts, for once, but struck by the deep
sense of purpose to this place. Not every sanctuary or temple impressed me as
being so ... hallowed. This one did, through the soles of my shoes.
"How old is the church?" I asked as he closed the gate
behind us.
"Old. Some of the family plots date back to the eighteen
twenties, when the church was built." He walked casually, with his hands
in his pockets. And he still hadn't asked how I was feeling. "But during
some restoration in the seventies--the nineteen seventies-- there was
archaeological evidence that this might have been a Native American site as
well."
"You mean a burial ground?" I asked, intrigued by the
possibility.
"That would be quite a coincidence, wouldn't it." He
shrugged with a wry half-smile. "Probably just an extension of the
settlement at Cahawba--much like this was an outgrowth of the ex-capital. But I
like to imagine there's something special about this place."
We'd stopped under one of the spreading oaks, and I smiled at a
memory. "Funny. My dad used to say that some spots were meant to be
sacred. Which was why successive civilizations would sometimes build one temple
on top of another, without even knowing what was there before."
307
Dad had designed more than one beautiful cemetery, which was why
I'd found it odd that he'd wanted to be cremated and not interred. But looking
at one of the raised marble mausoleums, I had to think it would have made Dad
sad to be in the earth but not part of it.
"Were you and your father much alike?" The reverend's
tone was conversational, not the funeral-soft way most people asked about the
dearly departed.
I made a so-so gesture with my hand. "Mother said we had the
same temperament. I guess that explains why they got divorced."
Reverend Watkins chuckled, as if in spite of himself, then said
kindly, "You've lost a lot in two years."
"I'm impressed," I said, letting him know that I
recognized a leading statement when I heard it. "That was a very smooth
segue."
His grimace was rueful. "Not so smooth you didn't catch
it."
"I'm very shrink-savvy." I liked that he owned up to it
right away, though. Points to him for being candid. "Did Paula tell you
about the nightmare?"
"Yes." He nodded, folding his arms, as if settling in
for a chat. "Except, I gather you weren't actually asleep?"
I chose my words carefully, not wanting to lie in a churchyard.
"I'd been asleep. I'd gone down to let my dog out for a pee, then
came back up. I could have been only half conscious, moving on autopilot.
Haven't you ever been dreaming on your feet?"
He acknowledged that with a nod. "Paula's just worried about
you, that's all."
308
"Well, I've got a lot on my mind." Like wondering if
something was up at Maddox Landing, and why people kept bringing up ghosts, and
what the TTC--or maybe just Addie--was doing in the summerhouse so late. But
that wasn't what he was asking in his roundabout way.
"Maybe my half-sleeping brain dreamed up a girl jumping into
the river," I said, then lifted my hand in an oath. "But whatever the
reason, I promise it is not because I'm contemplating doing the same
thing."
After studying me for a long moment, the reverend nodded.
"All right. You've satisfied me and kept your word to your cousin. I'll
let you get on with what you really came for." Smiling slightly, he nodded
to a fenced rectangle of ground. "Colonel Davis is over there."
He'd taken me by surprise again. "Either you are
psychic"--scary thought--"or I am really transparent."
With a soft chuckle, the reverend stepped off the path, heading
for the plot. "Sylvie, everyone who grew up in this town--which is about
ninety-five percent of the current population--at least half believes the
Colonel haunts that house. I can't believe you didn't come to see his
grave sooner."
I laughed, briefly but honestly. "I thought it would be at
Old Cahawba, so I went there first."
We reached the spot where a huge oak tree shaded generations of my
ancestors. The men had a lot of military titles: Major Jack, Captain Samuel and
even a lowly lieutenant. He died in 1969 at the age of twenty-one. He hadn't
had a chance to rise to the ranks of his predecessors.
309
There were a lot of children. No immunizations in 1856. Lots of
women dying and being buried with their infants. Motherhood was a dangerous
occupation.
"It's so weird," I said, a little numbly, "to go
from no roots--that I knew of--to all this."
Circling the plot, I read more names, saving the big monument on
the corner for last. colonel josiah davis, csa 1821-75. The Confederate army
was ten years gone by the time he died, but he'd had it etched in stone beside
his name.
The inscription below was odd: i watch, and wait, for thy return
in splendor.
A frisson ran down my back, as if that word--watch-- had
touched a nerve. I'd been certain, from the beginning, that the figure at the
window was watching for something.
"What does that mean?" I asked the reverend. "Is it
scripture?"
"Not really. It could be a reference to the Second Coming,
when Christ will return to earth in glory and gather the faithful. Which I'm
sure Colonel Davis considered himself." We shared a smile at my ancestor's
expense. "But local lore," Reverend Watkins continued, "passed
down from those who knew him, says it's probably a more secular
reference."
"Oh. 'The South shall rise again'? That kind of thing?"
"Precisely."
"I hope he's not still holding his breath on that one."
The reverend laughed. "Oh, there are plenty of living people who are still
holding their breath on that."
310
"How can they?" I asked. "All things
considered."
"Well, as we're taught here in the South, the War Between the
States wasn't about slavery, it was about states' rights. But that's an ugly
history lesson for such a beautiful day."
"I suppose it is." I read over the nearest gravestones,
still searching. I'd wanted to see the Colonel's marker, to satisfy my
curiosity. But my other purpose was to find the information I couldn't seem to
locate in the house.
"I see Mary Maddox Davis, his second wife," I said.
"And this must be the son from that marriage. But where is his first wife?
And the children from that marriage?"
"You do realize that was before my time," the reverend
said with a straight face. "But they say his first wife specified in her
will that she wanted to be sent back to South Carolina, where she was
from."
"That was unusual, wasn't it?"
He confirmed that with a nod. "Wives are virtually always
buried in their husband's family plot."
"Is that why there are no daughters here?" I pointed to
the section with the Colonel's children. "I see sons that must have died
in the war. But except for one infant, there're no girls."
An uncomfortable expression passed over the reverend's face.
"There is one. But it's not with the others."
He pointed, sighting along the Colonel's grand marker, which was
canted, not at a nice forty-five degrees, appropriate for the corner spot, but
at an odd
311
angle, as if he, in death, had turned to look at something.
I walked forward from the monument. Trying to stay a straight
course through the gravestones was tricky, and there was a point where the
ground abruptly dipped and came back up, as if there had been a thin trench
there. And just beyond that, there was a small, plain stone, covered with dark
stains from the elements.
HANNAH DEIRDRE DAVIS
BORN DECEMBER 21, 1852
DIED JUNE 20, 1870
There were lilacs growing over her grave.
My heart gave a pang, as if I'd just learned of a old friend's
death. Which was absurd--I'd known Lilac Girl was long gone. But it was
different seeing her grave, knowing from the dates that it was her thoughts
I'd been reading, her path I'd imagined down the streets of Cahawba.
Reverend Watkins had followed me from the Davis plot, and I turned
to him, emotion making me abrupt. "Why is she way over here?"
"You see that?" He gestured to the spot where I'd almost
tripped, where the shallow trench was all but hidden by the grass. "There
used to be a line of shrubs marking the edge of the churchyard. The edge of
hallowed ground, to use an outdated term. When the cemetery started filling up,
the hedges came down, so it could expand."
312
My heart slowly sank with an awful suspicion. "So, Hannah was
originally buried outside the cemetery?"
After a brief pause, during which he seemed to debate what he was
going to share with me, the reverend nodded. "Apparently she committed
suicide."
" Apparently'?" He was watching me for a reaction, so I
tried not to give him one. "She must have, if they wouldn't bury her on
holy ground. That's the punishment, right?"
"That would be a reason, yes."
"How did she do it?" I asked, even though, in the pit of
my stomach, I already knew the answer.
Watching my face, the reverend told me. "She threw herself
into the river and drowned."
313
***
Chapter 19
Reverend Watkins looked suddenly alarmed, and he took me firmly by
the arm, as if he thought I might pass out. Which, to be honest, I felt like I
might.
"Are you all right, Sylvie?"
"Yeah," I said, not even convincing myself.
"Let's go sit down." He directed me to a bench under one
of the trees. He didn't speak or prompt me, just waited for me to say
something.
"Was that some kind of test?" I demanded, anger surging
hot under my skin now that the cold of shock had passed. "I saw--dreamed
about a girl jumping in the
314
river, and you wanted to see how I'd react to Hannah's grave r
"No. Not at all." The reverend sounded genuinely
contrite. "I didn't think about the similarity until it was too late to
change the subject. And once you'd figured out she committed suicide, I
couldn't very well lie about it."
I chewed on the quandary this posed, wavering in my resolution
that my psyche wasn't making this up. Gould I have heard this rumored about
somewhere? I was sure Shawn and Kimberly hadn't said anything about a girl in
the woods.
The reverend was watching me warily, and I slid a guarded look
toward him. "If I ask you a question, will you promise not to read
anything into it?"
"I promise I'll try."
"Do you believe in ghosts?"
He didn't seem surprised; I suppose it wasn't exactly a non
sequitur, given our earlier discussion. "I believe our souls go on to some
other plane. Heaven, I hope. Would you want to stick around here?"
"Not really." But the Colonel might, waiting for the
South to rise again. Looking between the two markers, the grand column of the
Colonel's and the small, worn stone of his daughter's, I asked, "What made
her do it, do you think?"
It wasn't quite rhetorical, but I was surprised he had an
answer. "The story goes that she had a suitor that her father didn't
approve of. The Colonel refused to let them marry, and the guy left town. When
Hannah realized he wasn't coming back, she threw herself off
315
the embankment. The reverend here at the time tried to smooth
things over for the girl, suggesting that it had been an accident. But it
didn't fly, at least not with the Colonel. And you see where he had her
buried."
My heart ached for Hannah, and for the cold lack of sympathy from
her one family member. I could do the math. All her brothers must have been
gone by then, killed in the war. "What a hateful bastard."
Watkins didn't correct me, though he said sympathetically,
"The reverend kept excellent diaries; he implied that Colonel Davis was
never quite right in the head after he came back from the war."
"Whatever happened to her sweetheart?" I asked. Did
Hannah love him so much that life wasn't worth living? Did he betray her? There
was more story here. It was a far, faint resonance, like a bell rung on a
distant hill.
"No one knows. He was never heard from again." Reverend
Watkins let that sit a moment, then checked his watch. "I have an
appointment to give the convocation this evening at the high school graduation.
But I hate leaving this on such a sad note, especially when I've really enjoyed
talking to you, Sylvie."
Attempting to shake off my disquiet, I arched an eyebrow.
"Discussing my family's sordid history, you
"Every family has skeletons in the closet." His smile
took on a teasing slant. "And what about you? Are you feeling more
peaceful of mind and spirit?"
My own tone turned droll. "I'm feeling like Paula might give
me some peace now, if that counts."
316
Chuckling, he rose and gave me a hand up. "It counts for
something."
I glanced back toward Hannah's grave. "Who planted the lilacs
for her, I wonder. Did the reverend say r
Watkins followed my gaze. "I don't recall. I'll find Reverend
Holzphaffel's journals and see if he mentions them. I read his diaries when I
first came here, to get a sense of the history of the place, then put them in a
safe place." He gave me a wry look as we took the flagstone path toward
the front of the church. "He didn't mince words in his opinions of
people."
I bet that would be a lot more interesting than William S. Davis's
book. As he opened the cemetery gate for me, I said honestly, "Thank you
for your time, Reverend Watkins."
"Whenever you want to talk--about the present or the past"--he
grinned--"just stop by. I'm almost always here." We'd reached my bike
and he asked, "Are you all right to ride back? I noticed you were limping
a little bit back there."
"Just on the uneven ground." I looked down
automatically. "After two days of bicycling, I'm surprised it's not
worse."
"Well, I'm glad it's not." Reverend Watkins held out his
hand. I put mine in his to shake it, but he held my fingers in a strong, sure
grip. Looking me in the eye, he said, "God bless you, Sylvie."
The words startled me a bit. They were strange to hear when I
hadn't sneezed. But they had meaning for him, and that gave them a sort of
power. "Thank you,
317
Reverend," I said, a little formally in return, then smiled.
"I probably need all the help I can get."
***
The ride back to Bluestone Hill passed in a haze. Despite my
assurances to the reverend, by the time I reached the turnoff to the house, I was
tired and sore-- and strangely disheartened. The shock of learning about
Hannah's suicide was settling in and wearing me down.
I should have seen that if my roommate and the Colonel's daughter
were the same person, odds were she was also the third ghost, the woman at the
river. Or maybe that was only obvious in retrospect. After all, the house had
been standing for almost two hundred years.
What I couldn't reconcile, what kept sticking in my throat as I
swallowed the story, was how disappointed I was in her. I was sad for her,
of course, outraged and horrified at the judgmental Colonel. But to kill
herself because she'd been dumped--as awful as that must have been in her
day--didn't seem like something the resourceful girl I'd met in her journal
would do. Maybe it was irrational, but I felt almost angry with her. I'd
thought a Davis would be stronger than that. By taking her own life, she'd let
the Colonel win.
Or maybe I was projecting. Some days--when the pain of my healing
bones, the surgeries and the apparatus on my leg had been almost as unbearable
as the knowledge I'd never dance again--the only thing
318
that kept me going was knowing I couldn't let the pain win.
Pedaling on the gravel was too much for me, so I got off the bike
to push it the rest of the way. I went straight to the garden, let the bicycle
drop in the grass outside the hedge and kicked off my shoes. My first afternoon
here I'd lain in the grass, imagining myself in the hoopskirt and corset of the
daughter of the house. Imagining I was Hannah.
Had she waited here in the garden for her sweetheart? I looked toward
the second floor of the house. You'd have to be standing at the corner of the
balcony to see down into the hedges. She could have sat with her guy on the
iron bench, out of sight of the Colonel, had he stepped out of his study and
stood at the French doors.
I needed to change my clothes and dig for a while. Channel my
disquiet into activity. With that thought in mind, I walked on autopilot into
the backyard and climbed the steps to the porch. Gigi yawned and stretched in
her crate, tail wagging as I came to let her out. I'd just bent over, hand on the
latch, when I heard Addie's voice from outside the screened walls.
"I can't believe you want to ruin my life this
way."
At first I thought she was talking to me somehow, and a furious
"What now?" jumped to my lips. But as I straightened, I saw that the
door to Clara and Addie's apartment was open.
Her mother's answer was unintelligible, but Addie was upset, and
her voice carried easily. "Do you have any idea what a big deal this is?
That they called on the last day of the school year? It's a sign, Mom."
319
Clara came to the landing outside their door, shaking out a dust
rag. With Gigi watching me curiously, I dropped behind the wicker settee.
"But it's not just a summertime commitment, Adina," Clara said.
"It would interfere with your senior year. You may not think you want to
go to college, but I don't want anything to limit your choices."
"I can go to college later," Addie whined. "When
I'm thirty and too old to model anymore."
Even the snap of Clara's dust rag sounded irritated. "Does
nothing in that sentence seem wrong to you, Adina Jackson? A career where you
can only work for ten years?"
"That's why I have to start now, while I'm young."
Ironically, I was on Addie's side of this argument. There were
prima ballerinas who danced for thirty years, but realistically, ballet was so
hard on the body that it was practical to start young so you had as much
performing time as possible. Even if you moved on to choreographing or
directing a company, the prestige jobs went to those who'd built up the most performance
cred during their active dancing career.
"One year isn't going to make that big a difference,
Addie," said Clara. "Why don't you look into modeling classes in
Selma or Montgomery? I'll drive you to anything, as long as you keep your
grades up." Her voice started to fade like she was going back inside.
"And on that subject--about these meetings. I was all for the TTC at
first, but this spring you've been out too late and too often."
"Mom! You can't take everything away from me--"
320
I strained to hear Clara's words. "Out in the summerhouse
until all hours ..."
Crap. Her voice disappeared and the door slammed shut, just as
they were getting around to something interesting. I was surprised to hear
Clara speaking anything other than one hundred percent in favor of the TTC.
Everyone else did.
While I was down on the floor anyway, I let Gigi out of her crate.
She bounded out, growling playfully, thinking I was on my hands and knees for
her amusement.
This was a sad commentary on my situation. I'd become an
eavesdropper on other people's lives--in the present, and the past.
321
***
Chapter 20
I spend the afternoon in the garden. Since the vines that covered
the rock were too tough to tackle until I got a better pair of clippers, I
worked on the planting bed, moving on to the next wedge-shaped piece of the
center circle.
My copy of Dad's diagram was on the bench, weighted down by a
rock; I wouldn't have found the labyrinthine pattern in the mess of plants and
weeds without it. I wasn't sure I would be able to duplicate it even with his
notes, but I figured the only way to start was to clear out the weeds to see
what was left.
322
Hard at work and lost in my thoughts, I didn't really notice that
a car had arrived until Gigi uncurled from her favorite bed of greenery,
looking eagerly toward the house, her tail waving.
I kept working, because it was silly that the same sort of hopeful
excitement was bubbling up in me, too. I was not a puppy looking for belly
rubs, and I was not a sheltered, innocent, 1860s Hannah Davis. I was a modern
and sophisticated Manhattanite. I was not going to squeal, even
internally, with the hope that Rhys Griffith had missed me like I'd missed him.
He might not even come out to see me.
But a few minutes later, he did. I felt his step into the garden
through my fingers in the earth, and Gigi, with one bark of welcome, bounded
over to see him. I confined myself to sitting back on my heels and rubbing some
of the dirt from my hands.
"You've been busy," he said ambiguously. I assumed he
meant in the garden, but I'd done a lot of other things in the past two days,
like meet half of Maddox Landing. Not to mention my dead relatives.
Brushing the hair out of my face with the back of my hand, I
climbed to my feet, irrationally disappointed with this tame and vague
beginning. "It gives me something to-- Holy crap."
As I stared, Rhys raised his brows--and then winced. The bridge of
his nose was swollen, with a cut across the top. He had bruises under both
eyes, but it was worse on the left, where the whole top of his cheekbone,
curving up to the big knot over his eyebrow, was mottled purple.
323
"You said you were fine!" Wiping my hands on my jeans, I
crossed through the plants to get to him, barely registering the crush of herbs
under my bare feet.
"I said bumps and bruises," he responded flatly, then
gestured to the garden. "What's all this? Lowly work for a princess."
"Did you really think I was going to sit around all day and
eat bonbons?" The retort was automatic, and I didn't let him distract me.
"You talked like it was a fender bender."
His expression softened slightly in admission. "It was a bit
more than that."
We stood close, and the smell of turned earth and bruised greenery
was insufficient to soothe my shock and worry. The livid purple around his eyes
made them look startlingly green. I reached up on impulse and, when he didn't
draw away, very gently touched the goose egg on his brow. He winced slightly,
then sighed, his shoulders relaxing, as if my cool fingers on the fevered
swelling were a relief.
"Is your dad really okay?" I asked, trying to quiet the
anxiety that crawled inside of me as I realized the air bag probably saved his
life.
"Dad's got barely a mark on him," Rhys said gently, as
if he were comforting me, instead of the other way around. He was all right; it
was over. But if my concern eased a fraction, it was only to a lingering
disquiet.
I was suddenly aware of how close we were, and the intimacy of
standing in the hedges, hidden from view, stroking his face as if I knew him a
lot better than I did.
324
Heat rushed to my cheeks, replacing the cold of alarm, and I drew
back my hand. My withdrawal seemed to make Rhys aware of all the same things.
He dropped his gaze and cleared his throat.
"Dad's inside, talking to Paula about the trip," he
said. "Clara's got the kettle on, and I smelled baking when we came
in."
"Okay," I said, awkwardness making my voice too high.
"Let me grab my stuff."
Gigi had run off with one of the gloves, and while I was finding
it, Rhys got to the drawing on the bench before me.
"What's this?" he asked.
"It was in the book." I had to stifle the urge to snatch
the paper up and hide it. My secret connection with Dad. Instead, I tried to
lessen its importance with a casual tone.
Turning back to me, he started to lift a brow, then obviously
thought better of it. "I read that book. This wasn't in it."
There wasn't any point in lying, I suppose. "It was in the
back. That's a tracing of a drawing my dad must have made when he was
here."
Rhys touched his forehead with a careful frown, still gazing at
the diagram. Scanning the work I'd done, he brought his eyes up to mine again,
guarded. "Do you even know what you're doing here?"
Irritated, I plucked my paper from his fingers. "No. Of
course not. I'm just making this up as I go along."
The muscle in his jaw twitched, as if he had been
325
hoping for a different answer. "I know you must want to
reconnect with your father, but this isn't the way to do it."
Bitter anger rushed to my tongue. "How is that any of your
business?" And how could he say such a thing? He had a dad. He
should have known how important this was. I was amazed at how quickly my
emotions could swing from "Oh my God, I'm so glad you're not dead" to
"I might have to kill you myself for that remark."
Raising his hands defensively, he said, "I just don't want
you to get in over your head."
"What are you?" I demanded. "The gardening police?
What difference does it make?"
He blinked, then narrowed his eyes. "What are you talking
about?" he asked.
"Gardening. What are you talking about?"
"Something else entirely." He busied himself, very
obviously, with collecting the gloves Gigi had scattered over the garden, while
the perpetrator rested in the shade under the bench.
"Rhys," I said, in as close to an alpha-dog voice as I
could manage, "what the hell is going on?"
I meant with him, but I could have shouted the question to the
universe, demanding answers in a much broader sense. Why did everything I
discovered today, every conversation I had--or overheard--only lead me to more
questions?
"Why don't you tell me?" he snapped back. "We
stopped to eat in town, and everyone is talking about you and Shawn."
326
"Oh my God." I pressed the heels of my hands to my
forehead, leaving gritty streaks on my face. "I am not making a play for
Shawn Maddox!"
That came out way louder than I meant it to. Gigi barked from
under the bench, and I closed the distance to Rhys so I could lower my voice.
"I can't believe we are arguing because I had lunch with Alabama's answer
to Tom Sawyer."
He set his jaw, almost masking his surprise, but not hiding his
flush at all. "Why can't you believe that?"
"Because ..." Wind cut from my sails, I floundered to
finish that thought. "Because it's stupid. I just met Shawn."
With a small, wry smile that made me a liar somehow, Rhys took a
step into my personal space. "That doesn't mean anything. You and I just
met."
True, yet the connection between us heated the air, made my heart
stumble a little. "That's different." I just hoped he didn't ask me
how, because I didn't have an answer.
"You rang me up to see if I was all right."
"To see if you and your dad were okay."
"So ... you cared."
Part of me squirmed with glee that he was standing so close, with
that smile, and speaking in that low voice and smooth accent. And a much
tinier, more cynical part of me speculated that he'd changed his method of
diverting my questions.
"So," I said, my voice annoyingly breathless, "the
thing about getting in over my head. That was about Shawn and me?" It
actually made sense. Getting
327
involved with a Maddox would certainly seem to be a way of
connecting with my Davis heritage, given our families' intertwined history. And
since even I had misgivings, there was reason to warn me.
A flicker in Rhys's eye said he wasn't happy about my dogged
pursuit of the matter. But he answered, "It's about Shawn, who is not
everything he seems."
I nodded. "Yeah, I figured that out on my own,
actually."
"Good." There was a flattering satisfaction in that one
word. "You'll give him a wide berth, then?"
"No." That would make it hard to find out what he and
the Teen Town Council were doing in the summerhouse. "But I'll be on my
guard."
He took a frustrated step back, raising his hand to rub his
forehead, then cursing when he touched the bruises. "Sylvie," he said
through the grimace of pain, "you don't know what you're dealing
with."
"Then tell me!"
"I can't." He lowered his hand, and his voice. "Why
don't you tell me what you know?"
Like what? That I thought the house was haunted? That I was being
set up with Shawn because of some old tradition? It all sounded paranoid and
delusional, and the threat of Paula calling the shrink loomed large and
terrifying.
"I can't," I echoed, wondering if that sounded as
miserable as I felt.
"Then it's a stalemate," said Rhys, his expression grim
but resigned.
"For now," I murmured. Because as much as I was
328
drawn to him, I couldn't forget that Rhys was one of the many
mysteries at Bluestone Hill.
***
I was determined to get through the night without budging from my
room. I'd taken Gigi for her last walk while the house was still awake, and
then sneaked her upstairs to stay. To make sure nothing disturbed us, I'd found
my MP3 player and put Brahms on an endless loop to cover any sound. Then Gigi
and I curled under the covers where no cold could get us.
The only thing I'd ever sensed behind my door was the lilac smell,
and I'd never felt any threat from that-- from Hannah, I corrected, accepting
that there was at least an echo of my ancestress here in the room we shared.
Though I supposed she couldn't really be my foremother if she'd killed herself
when she was my age.
I couldn't imagine ending it all because some guy left me. But I
was thinking like a twenty-first-century young woman with a world of
options--except dance.
Had she felt about him the way I did about ballet? Letting
the music seep away my present, I imagined Hannah lying in bed, maybe even on
the same lumpy mattress, praying for guidance. If her family had money, she
could hope for a good marriage, maybe even to someone she picked for herself.
If she couldn't, or wouldn't, marry, then she had her choice of crap
jobs--governess or paid companion if she was lucky. And God help her if she got
pregnant.
My gasp was loud enough to wake Gigi, who
329
growled softly and went back to sleep. But I sat up, pulling the
earphones from my ears and swinging my legs off the bed.
Oh. My. God. Hannah had been pregnant. I knew it the way I knew
she loved lilacs and that she had lain in the garden--my garden, the
same spot where I liked to lie--waiting for him.
Pregnant, with a guy like the Colonel for a dad, one who hated her
boyfriend. A guy whom she loved and trusted enough to give herself to, in an
era where girls didn't do that sort of thing. A guy who abandoned her to that
fate.
I went to the desk and opened the secret drawer. Pulling out the
journal, I set it on the blotter, and gathered my courage, like I was preparing
to open a dreaded letter. I already knew the news, but reading it would somehow
make it fresh. Closer to me.
Opening the book from the back, I paged carefully through the
empty sheets at the end, the unwritten days. When I came to the last entry, I
sat and read.
It is harder than I thought it would he. I think the day is coming
quickly, and I look forward to it, grateful for escape.
I do not know where I shall end up. But at least I will no longer
be alone.
330
***
Chapter 21
For the first time since my arrival at Bluestone Hill, I slept
through the night without incident--once I'd finally gone to sleep. I'd lain
awake for a long while, thinking about Hannah's last entry and how she seemed
more hopeful than frightened. It made me want to not believe in ghosts again,
just so I could think that Hannah was at peace.
Retiring early did mean that Gigi was in a big hurry to get
downstairs. I wasted no time taking the dog out the side door and to the
backyard for her morning
331
frolic. I was putting down her breakfast on the porch when the
screen door opened, and Rhys came in.
I straightened quickly, and he froze, his hand on the door as if
he might flee. We'd all eaten dinner together--except for Addie, who went with
her friends to the convocation for the graduating seniors--but it was different
now without the buffer of the adults.
He was dressed for the day, in cargo pants, a T-shirt and a denim
shirt over that. I tugged at my own T-shirt, which matched the cartoon dogs on
my pj's. I also hadn't combed my hair or brushed my teeth. It was Saturday
morning, for crying out loud.
"Were you outside?" I asked. "I didn't see
you."
He let the door close, deciding, I guess, to stay. "I was in
your garden, looking at how much you'd gotten done in two days. Very impressive
for a ballet princess."
So, we were back to that. The gibe didn't distract me, but the
sight of his face did. "You look better than I thought you would."
He could almost raise that brow without wincing. "Thanks. I
heal quickly." Gesturing to the kitchen door he said, "Coming
in?"
I left Gigi on the porch with her kibble and a squeaky toy. The
kitchen was full of cheerful activity. Clara hummed at the stove, the kettle
was on the boil, and at the table, the professor was telling Paula about his
trip.
"Biscuits and gravy, Sylvie?" Clara asked as I washed my
hands.
I eyed the saucepan on the stove. "Sausage gravy?"
332
She held up a box, reading from the back. "Texturized
vegetable protein sausage gravy."
"You're kidding!" From her pleased face, she wasn't. I
laughed, surprised and touched by the trouble she'd gone to. "You had to
find a way to feed me something Southern. You are awesome, Clara."
Clara, looking embarrassed but pleased, bustled me toward the
table. "It might not even be any good."
Professor Griffith paused in his conversation with Paula to
interject. "Don't be modest, Clara. I doubt anything less than tasty has
ever come out of your kitchen."
She conceded this with a small tilt of her head. "In any
case, Sylvie, you should thank the professor and Rhys. They picked you up a
care package on their way home."
The tone of my surprise changed. I was still grateful, but
suddenly self-conscious. I couldn't remember the last time someone had bought
me something just because. Flowers at the hospital didn't count. And Mother
bought me things she wanted to see me in, not things I would pick out for
myself.
"Thank you," I said to the spot just above the
professor's head. I didn't trust myself to look him, or Rhys, in the eye.
"It was nothing, love," Professor Griffith said amiably,
then amended, "Well, it was one wrecked car, but at least it was a
rental."
His joke broke my bubble of awkwardness, and I returned his smile.
"I'm very glad you weren't hurt." Finally glancing at Rhys, I
corrected, "Seriously hurt, I mean."
333
He met my eye with a sheepish smile of his own. "Like Dad
said. It was nothing."
The kettle started to whistle, and I was grateful for the
distraction. "Sit down," said Clara. "I'll bring you a
plate."
Obediently I went to my place, conscious of Rhys at my elbow.
Paula looked almost relaxed in a tracksuit and sneakers. We were only missing
one person. "Is Addie sleeping in?"
Setting a plate in front of me, Clara said, "She spent the
night with Caitlin in town. They're doing some set up for the festival and then
going to graduation."
"Ah." I kept my voice neutral, glad she was having a
good time so I didn't have to feel guilty for being happy she wasn't around. No
Addie not only meant no sulks and arguments, but also that I could put off TTC
mysteries until after breakfast. Glancing at the professor, I said, "You
didn't say last night--was your trip productive?"
He tilted his head in a "sort of" gesture.
"Cultural anthropology isn't always about finding empirical evidence of an
event. The course of the story is academically valid too."
I chewed a mouthful of fluffy biscuit and spicy faux gravy and
attempted to decipher that statement. Rhys translated. "He means, how a
legend arises and where it spreads is sometimes as important as proving an
actual event occurred. Like Prince Madoc's expedition here."
The name startled me, but I had to swallow before I could ask,
"Prince Maddox?"
334
"Madoc," the professor corrected, with a slightly
different pronunciation. "That's the name of the Welsh prince who,
according to legend, brought a band of settlers to the New World." Seeing
my confusion, he explained, "I was taken with the similarity of the name
too. Madoc, Maddox Landing. But all my research points to its being
coincidence."
"Except for the bluestone in the garden," I said,
glancing up to find Rhys watching me.
"Yes. Fascinating, isn't it," said the professor,
relishing his mystery. I wish I felt the same about mine.
Gigi's bark interrupted the conversation, heralding an arrival at
the back door. Rhys's quickly shuttered expression told me who it was, even
before Shawn called out a hello. Speak of the devil and he'll appear--and enter
without knocking.
Maybe that wasn't an entirely fair way to describe Shawn Maddox,
but he was certainly at the heart of too much for me not to be wary of him. His
high-wattage warmth filled the room, and I could still feel the tug of
attraction, but now doubt kept me grounded. That, and the awkward awareness of
Rhys bristling at his end of the table. It charged the air, and though no one
else seemed to notice, I instinctively braced myself against the tension
between them. Between the three of us.
Shawn was oblivious, or at least putting on a good show of it.
Gigi had followed him in, and danced around his sneakers, pulling at his pants
legs with her teeth. "Sylvie," said Paula, with a sigh, "control
your dog."
"I'll get her." Seriously, you would think Gigi was
335
a two-hundred-pound slobbering Saint Bernard, the way my cousin
acted.
Shawn grinned at me as I bent to unfasten Gigi from his jeans.
"Good morning, gorgeous."
"Oh, don't even," I said, to all of it. His overt
flattery, my uncombed tangle of hair, the whole café fiasco, not to mention
Rhys sitting right there.
I carried Gigi outside and put her in her crate so she wouldn't
offend Paula while I concentrated on the dynamics of dealing with Shawn. I
could hear through the door as he greeted everyone. "Hey, Miz Paula, Miz
Clara, Prof." Then a low whistle. "That is some shiner you've got,
English."
Crap. That nickname was not going to go over well.
I slipped in behind Shawn and saw that Rhys wasn't bothering to
hide the annoyance in his narrowed eyes. "It's Welsh, actually."
Shawn gave a contrite wince. "Sorry. I thought Wales was part
of England."
"It's part of Britain." Rhys left "you moron"
unspoken, but just barely.
"Think of it like this," the professor said more
smoothly. "Calling us English is like calling you a Yankee."
"Actually," said Paula, looking at him over her reading
glasses, "it's like calling you a carpetbagger."
"Oh." Shawn flashed a repentant grimace. "My
apologies, then."
My cousin nodded her approval, and I clamped my jaw to keep it
from dropping. Was she kidding? Paula was letting him off the hook with that
grin and the good
336
ol' country boy act? Regardless of his grasp of geography, Shawn
would have to be an idiot not to have figured out by now that that nickname
would needle Rhys. And Shawn was no idiot.
He turned to me, and I quickly schooled my expression.
"Speaking of carpetbaggers," he said, still smiling, "here's our
own import from the North."
"Nice." I folded my arms, shielding myself from that
uncanny charm. "You're insulting everyone's origins today."
Bumping my elbow with his own, he cajoled, "I'm just joshing
with you guys. Rhys gets that, right?"
"Sure," said Rhys tightly. "I get exactly what
you mean."
I was amazed none of the adults seemed to pick up on the
undercurrents. Or maybe they did, and attributed it to something natural and
not the dynamics baffling me.
Shawn took Rhys at face value--or pretended to-- and turned back
to me. "Anyway. Don't be mad, because I come bearing gifts."
In the confusion with Gigi, I hadn't noticed he'd carried in a
canvas tote. As he held it out to me, I was surprised to see it was full of
gardening tools--all of them new, with matching green and yellow handles.
"For working in your garden," he said, unnecessarily.
"Here's hoping you put down some roots."
The wording gave me pause. On one level, it was a cheesy pun, but
on another, it was a reference to the tendrils of the past that kept drawing me
in deeper, to Bluestone Hill and everything around it.
337
My emotions were hopelessly tangled. I was delighted with the
tools, because now I could finish cutting back the nest of vines around my rock
without giving myself carpal tunnel syndrome. But even without Rhys's warning,
I had to wonder what Shawn was up to. And putting all that aside, I was
confused why the gift didn't warm me from the inside out like a box of fake
sausage had. I didn't think it was because the way to my heart was through my
stomach.
"Isn't that nice," observed Paula, with the cheery note
of a matchmaker. "You can put those to good use, Sylvie."
"Yes, I can." I smiled a little stiffly at Shawn, aware
of our audience. "Thank you."
"And it's not even Christmas," said Clara, chuckling.
I covered my discomposure by looking through the pockets of the
tote, trying to be genuinely grateful, despite my misgivings. "This is
just what I need. And it was sweet of you to drive all the way out here just to
give them to me."
"No problem." Shawn stuck his hands in his pockets and
shrugged. "I was running out to the Point before the graduation ceremony
this afternoon."
With all the other drama, I'd forgotten it was graduation weekend.
"I should say congratulations."
"Thanks." He smiled, as if my sentiments had been much
warmer than they were. "Party tonight, by the way. If you want to
come."
"I wouldn't want to crash it."
"Oh, everyone in school will be there." He looked at
Clara. "Addie's coming, right?"
338
She sat down at the table with her mug of tea. "I doubt I
could keep her away."
I knew I should go and learn more about Shawn and the TTC. Be sly
and ask questions. But the thought of being on my guard all night, watching
what I said and how it was taken, dealing with their expectations, seemed huge
to me. It had nothing to do with Rhys's eyes on me, or his inscrutable
disapproval. Nothing at all.
"We'll see," I finally said, using one of Paula's
favorite phrases.
Shawn obviously knew my cousin well enough to interpret, and he
chuckled, not sounding put off. "I guess I'll just have to content myself
with tomorrow, then."
I searched my mental calendar and came up blank. "What's
tomorrow?"
"The Catfish Festival." The "of course" was
implied by his tone.
I stifled a groan. I felt the same way about the festival as I did
about the graduation party, multiplied by the population of the town. If I'd
planned ahead, I might have had an excuse. But with Paula smiling encouragingly
and Clara grinning--and Rhys just watching-- all I could think of to say
was "Can't wait," in a tone that implied anything but anticipation,
letting them assume my reluctance was a joke.
"Great." Shawn grinned, buying it easily. Because we Yankees
are so droll, I guess. Reaching for the bag I held, he asked, "Now,
where can I put these for you?"
"Oh, I'll take them."
339
I gripped the handles, but had to relinquish them or get into a
tug-of-war. "Just show me where," he insisted amiably.
My irritation must have shown, and at Paula's disapproving look, I
lightened my tone. "By the door would be great. Thanks."
He carried them to the porch and I followed, to be polite, though
it didn't seem very sporting of him to give a girl a gift and remind her of a
date right in front of his rival. Provided that Shawn even admitted he had a
rival for my attentions. It was clear by now that he took a lot for granted.
"So, what time tomorrow?" he asked.
"Paula declared we're going to church, so after that."
He smiled, completely at ease. No, definitely not admitting any
competition from anyone. "I'll see you there."
When he was gone, I collected Gigi from her crate and went into
the kitchen, disappointed to see both Griffiths had left. Clara and Paula were
still there, conferring over the remains of breakfast.
"Where'd they go?" I asked.
Paula didn't look up from the list she was writing. "The
professor went upstairs to answer some e-mail, and Rhys said he was going to
Old Cahawba."
Clara gave me an amused look. "Are you starting a boy harem,
Sylvie? You city girls." She shook her head with a tutting noise.
"I'm not ... Oh my God." I ran my hands over my face. As
if my psyche weren't boiling over with
340
complications without adding romance to the pot. "I'm just
... not."
"You shouldn't let that stop you from going to the party
tonight," said Paula. "It'll be fun for you to get out.
"Don't push her if she doesn't want to go." Clara must
have picked up on my reluctance. "The kids will probably all end up here
or at the summerhouse anyway."
The mention of the summerhouse prodded me to voice the question
I'd been turning over since I'd explored the place. "Does the teen council
always meet out there? Isn't that kind of an odd spot?"
Clara obviously didn't think so, from her shrug. "It gives
them some privacy."
My brows drew together in confusion. This was counter to her tone
with Addie yesterday. Not that I could say that, since I'd been eavesdropping
when I heard it. "Aren't you worried they could be drinking or smoking pot
or something?"
Clara laughed and rose from the table. "Not these kids.
They've got too much going for them."
With a blithe lack of concern, she carried her glass to the sink.
I stared in disbelief. Surely she checked up on them. Was there a parent
on the planet who really believed that even a good kid wouldn't get a bad idea?
Even my mother lectured me about drugs and premarital sex, and she knew
I wouldn't do anything to risk my dancing career. It was like the entire TTC
was under the umbrella of Shawn Maddox's get-out-of-jail-free grin.
341
That was why I had to keep my guard up around him, to keep fighting
his charm. Maybe he and the TTC were as Mayberry and squeaky clean as they
seemed, painting fences and saving puppies and helping old ladies across the
street. But something made me think not. And I'd vowed to trust my instincts,
no matter how strange things seemed.
34i
342
***
Chapter 22
Regardless of my confusion and suspicion about Shawn, I was
grateful for his gift, because with a decent pair of clippers, I could finally
uncover the standing stone. I was anxious to attack the tenacious foliage around
it and get a good look at the mystery rock.
It was slow going. Years of growth meant thick layers of tough
green vine, interwoven and clinging like a net. I clipped and pulled and
clipped some more, until my arms ached and I fully believed the stuff was growing
as fast as I cut it.
343
By the time Professor Griffith visited me, I was glad for the
distraction. As usual, he greeted Gigi first, bending to scratch her belly as
she rolled in the tangled bed of herbs, soaking her fur and releasing the
fresh, green perfume.
"Good grief, Gigi," I said. "Do you have no morals
at all?"
Professor Griffith smiled at me over his shoulder, in his open,
friendly way. His easy manner made him a good balance for his more complicated
son.
"We were just enjoying the morning." He stood and nodded
to the tall rock, which, as its name implied, looked blue-gray under a light
coat of dew. At least, the sliver I'd uncovered did. "Rhys said you were
clearing the stone, but he didn't mention you'd done such an amazing amount of
work on the planting bed, too."
I shrugged, embarrassed at the compliment. "Thank you."
He gazed around, squinting in the sun. "I thought this whole
garden was done for. Such a shame. But look." He gestured to the bed where
Gigi lay, and to the few buds of color beginning to show. "These are
already doing better now that they're not choked with weeds. I believe that you
have a green thumb, my dear."
"I get it from my father." My reply was simple, but I
felt a happy glow inside at the thought. "They said he could grow
anything."
Snipping another tangle of vine, I uncovered more of the rock.
Flecks of mineral--quartz, I guess-- glittered in the dark stone. I ran my
finger down its
344
rough surface. "This is really the same kind of stone as at
Stonehenge?"
"According to Rhys." He said it with a bit of pride in
his son, the geologist. "This type of dolerite is the same as the world's
most famous standing stones. Is it warm r
I glanced over my shoulder, wondering which of us was supposed to
be the crazy one. "Warm? It's a rock, and the sun hasn't been up long
enough to dry the dew."
The professor laughed. "Bluestone is supposed to be warm to
the touch. At least, relative to other stones. Something about it having
electromagnetic properties or some such thing. Rhys would hate my even
mentioning it. It's not scientific."
"But you study folklore, right? Why would he get bent at your
mentioning it?" I asked.
"He's very serious about geology. He hates it when the New
Agey folks start spouting 'pseudoscience' about his precious rocks."
Professor Griffith looked heavenward with a fond sort of exasperation.
"Don't even get him wound up about crystals."
"I'll avoid the subject," I said, so seriously that the
professor laughed again.
I bent to pick up Gigi, who had curled at the base of the stone,
completely relaxed. She flopped over bonelessly to lay on her back in my arms,
like a baby. "The electromagnetism works on my dog, anyway. She loves to
hang out here."
He steadied me with a hand on my elbow as I stepped out of the
planting bed. "Well, if you'll forgive
345
a little more pseudoscience, there might be a reason for
that."
"I won't tell Rhys."
"Oh, he knows this one, too. Standing stones are thought to
mark places that have certain properties. The mystics say it's earth energy.
The pseudoscientists call it a magnetic field. You may have heard of ley
lines?"
I shook my head, and he went on, clearly happy to have a fresh ear
for his lecture. "Some people think there is a grid or web that connects
centers of earth energy. Usually there are springs or wells along the points,
as well as ancient sites, like barrows and standing stones. Also, churches and
other, more modern sacred spots too."
The mention of churches struck me, because I'd just been talking
about that the day before, with Reverend Watkins.
"So, this energy ... Is it like feng shui? Supposedly, I
mean." I tacked that last part on to make sure he knew I was asking a
hypothetical question. Open-minded but critical.
"Not really. That's an Eastern practice of manipulating the
energy flow--more of an air element in concept."
He'd taken a seat on the bench, which was everyone's favorite
spot. I sat on the ground, slipped off my shoes and wiggled my toes into the
grass.
"My dad used to talk about how the geography of a place could
have good energy flow or bad. When we traveled together, he pointed out how
both ancient temples and cathedrals are often built near springs."
346
"Right. Some people would say it's because springs and wells
are sites where these energy lines connect."
The idea excited me somehow, maybe because it dovetailed with
Dad's opinions. But I made myself play devil's advocate and present the
pragmatic argument. "Though if you're going to build a place where people
congregate, it makes sense to have a water source."
Professor Griffith laughed. "Yes, but practical reasons don't
necessarily rule out intangible ones."
I grinned and ducked my head, forming my next question carefully.
"Listen, Professor. I wanted to ask you about something you said the other
morning. Purely hypothetical."
He smiled as if he understood, though somehow I doubted he really
did. "All right. Hypothetical."
"You said something about cold spots?"
He nodded. "Temperature changes are something that paranormal
investigators--ghost hunters--try and quantify. Temperature, humidity, even the
electromagnetic charge in a room."
I jumped on that idea, like Gigi jumped on her favorite squeaky
toy. "Electromagnetism? Like my standing-stone spot?"
The professor grimaced ruefully. "Yes, in theory, but that's
pseudoscience, remember. It's conjecture at best. Don't get me in trouble with
Rhys."
I ran my hand through my plants. Professor Griffith was right:
They were already thriving now that the weeds weren't choking them and taking
all their water.
"So Rhys doesn't believe in any of this stuff? The special
stone, the connection to Wales, any of it?"
347
"Oh, he believes what can be proven. Like if your stone
really comes from the Preseli Hills."
I turned my head to look at the small section of rock I'd uncovered.
"What would it mean if it does?"
He chuckled. "In a practical sense? Or an existential
one?"
"I don't know." I shot him a shrewd glance. "And
I'm betting you don't either."
His amusement broadened. " 'Meaning' is an ambiguous word. It
would mean that we're all connected. But it would also mean nothing
significant, since we don't know when it was placed here or with what
intent."
While I digested that, the professor stood, dusting off his hands.
Glancing at all the work I still had ahead of me, he said, "I do wonder if
whoever created this garden knew the stone's alleged connection with ley lines
and stone circles."
I startled at his words. My father had made the connection, at
least to the stone circle; he'd written it right in the book for me to find. But
other than the obvious--the standing stone, its mysterious possible origin--I
didn't see the link. "Why do you say that, Professor?"
"Some of these plants. Meadowsweet, vervain, mint." He
pinched off a leaf and rubbed it to release the scent. "Rue and sage. All
you need is some mistletoe and holly, and you have a druid arsenal."
With a click into focus, I saw what he was getting at. "So
druid types would use these in their ceremonies?" I asked, still not
certain where this fit in the puzzle of Bluestone Hill.
348
"Yes, seems so. For healing, power and protection." Then
he smiled, because of course this was all hypothetical. "Don't tell Rhys I
said that, either. All that New Agey stuff, you know."
"Sure thing, Professor." I spoke the words absently, my
mind busy pulling apart this idea to try to get at the meaning in the middle.
Hang around with artistic people long enough, and you'll run across every kind
of belief. I knew plenty of crystal-wearing, incense-burning types. I might
have felt stupid for not seeing it before, except that to me this was just
aesthetically pleasing greenery.
He wandered off, whistling, while I sat in the middle of my herbs,
trying to figure out what was ringing the bell of my memory. When Gigi stirred
in my lap, growling softly in her sleep, I had it.
Sliding the dog to the ground, I got up just enough to reach my
jacket, which I'd thrown over the back of the bench when the day had warmed up.
Digging in the pocket, I wrapped my fingers around the singed bundle of plants
that Gigi had found in the summer-house.
There was a dancer with the touring company who refused to move
into a new dressing room until he'd cleansed it by burning sage leaves. On the
sly, of course, because of the fire hazard.
The leaves and twigs in the bundle I'd found in the summerhouse
were bound tightly, and so dry that they crumbled off in my hand. Rubbing the
flakes in my palm, I thought I smelled chicory, and there was something that
looked like a kernel of wheat.
349
What the hell were they doing in the summer-house? And what, if
anything, did they have to do with the echoes of the past manifesting at
Bluestone Hill?
***
I worked in the garden until it was too late for anyone to pester
me about going to the graduation party. By then I was exhausted, and all I
wanted was to get clean. The bathroom, just down the hall from me, was a shabby
Victorian palace. The wallpaper was a faded rose, and the slipper chair in the
corner, where Gigi liked to curl up while I bathed, was covered in worn gold
jacquard. But the godsend after spending all day weeding was the enormous
antique claw-foot tub.
I ran the water as hot as I could stand it, then sank in up to my
earlobes and soaked until it was almost cool. When I was done, I let Gigi
paddle a lap around the tub. I had no idea a Chihuahua could love to swim, but
this one did. Her little legs churned underwater while her fluffy head glided
along on top--there was a metaphor there for my current situation. Something
about deep water, and trying to keep my head above the surface.
After putting on fresh pajamas--my last pair--and wrapping my hair
in a towel, I dried Gigi, too. Then I checked the hall for lurking cousins and
carried my dog to my room.
Music drifted faintly through the slightly open window. It
startled me at first, but I doubted that any of my ghosts had listened to much
electric guitar in their day.
350
I guessed--and a peek out the window confirmed it-- that the
graduation party had, as Shawn predicted, moved to the Hill.
I closed the window and put on my earphones, hoping to repeat last
night's uninterrupted sleep.
***
Gigi woke me with a soft bark. She stood on my chest, tail stiff
behind her, a ridge of fur standing up on her back. When she growled, it wasn't
her playful, electric-motor noise. It was as deep and throaty a warning as I'd
ever heard from her.
"Quiet, Gigi."
She stopped growling, but her body stayed rigid with purpose. Then
I heard what had set her off. The high, thin wail was so quiet, it wouldn't
have woken me--if not for the dog.
Setting Gigi on the bed, I struggled out from the covers and went
to the window. I had to lean awkwardly over the desk to open it. It stuck a
little in the humidity, but I managed. Without the glass in the way, the keen
seemed to swell and build, mournful and wretched.
I knew what to look for next: a moving shadow where there should
be none. It took me a moment to find her from this angle; I'd never seen her
from my-- our--room. But there she was, a female figure hurrying through the
trees.
A fierce compulsion seized me. I had to follow her. I had
to see her up close, like I had the Colonel, and
351
eliminate the possibility it was a trick. It seemed too convenient
on the heels of the party in the summer-house. In my head, I heard Addie and
Shawn, confusing me by twisting my words, my conversations. Just because I
believed in echoes of the past didn't mean there wasn't something here in the
present working against me.
Forgetting my resolve not to budge from my room, I thrust my feet into
my sneakers and grabbed my hoodie, throwing it on over my pj's. I told Gigi to
stay on the bed, and she wasn't happy about it. Flinging open the door, I took
just a few steps down the hall and felt the cold reaching out to stop me.
It was worse than before. Like the pitiful wail outside, the cold
flooded over me, a cruel and icy surge. I told myself it was just an echo, that
nothing could hurt me, but there was such a presence, I couldn't push
past the wall of my own fear. I fell back into my room and closed the door,
knowing no one could fake that.
But I wasn't done yet. With Gigi bouncing at my heels, I climbed
up on the desk, confirming with a glance that my window was above the balcony,
though not with easy access. A good thing I was still limber.
I went out feetfirst, sliding in a backbend while I held on to the
frame for support. My feet touched the balcony without a sound, and I hurried
to the spiral staircase. For just an instant I hesitated, my phobia rising up
and tangling with the anxiety of what I was doing: racing into the night after
a ghost. Then I grabbed the rail and went down backward, with quick but
trembling steps.
352
Cutting through the corner of the back garden, I slipped through
the hedges and made for the woods in a halting run. I'd lost track of the
figure as I'd been coming out of the house, and the trees were a maze. The
thick cover of pine needles hid any kind of path, or any footprints.
Sudden, disorienting panic gripped me. It was like being turned
upside down underwater. I could barely tell which way was up, let alone which
way I'd been going or which way to the house. The hanging moss curtained the
stars, and my heart pounded too hard with fear for me to hear the river.
Come on, Sylvie. You never get lost.
I reined in my instinct to run in a random direction like a
spooked animal. I was smarter than that. I just needed to catch my breath,
settle down and get my bearings.
My calming breath brought the faint, startling scent of lilac. I
turned in a slow circle, but couldn't catch the direction. My searching gaze,
though, fastened on a pale, cold glow through the trees.
The glow wrapped around the girl like a halo. My panic had faded,
but my heart still drummed against my ribs as I stood frozen, fear mixing with
fascination. I was so close, I could see the detail of her calico dress. The
neck, high and wide, was framed in crisp white, as were the cuffs of her long
sleeves. Her skirt had a hooped petticoat underneath that swayed like a bell as
it caught on the trees and brush.
Her hair was soft brown, like mine, and her skin was pale, almost
luminous. I stood unmoving, my
353
hand pressed to my chest, awed by the anguish on her otherworldly
face. The depths of despair in her hollow eyes chilled my racing heart, and I
shivered in sorrow and unease.
I shook myself again when I realized she was moving away from me,
and quickly. I broke into a run after her, or as near to one as I could manage
on the uneven ground. There was no path at all, and I didn't see how she could
move so smoothly, while I had to weave between trees, the roots catching at my
feet and the branches tearing at my hair. It was all I could do to keep her in
sight.
Then she vanished. And so did the ground.
I'd stepped out into open air, nothing beneath me but the swollen
river, rushing twenty-five feet below.
354
***
Chapter 23
The momentum of my headlong dash carried me forward, even as I
registered what was happening. I'd reached the embankment and stepped off the
edge. My arms windmilled, searching for a handhold, as my one foot still on the
ground slipped in the crumbling mud. I flailed, grabbed a fist of Spanish moss
and kept falling.
My fingers scraped against rough bark and I clutched desperately
at the trunk of a fir tree, leaving a layer of skin behind.
355
I was going to die. My life didn't flash before my eyes, but I did
think I heard Gigi barking.
Then a hand closed on my wrist. The jerking stop wrenched my arm
and slammed me against the tangled tree roots jutting from the riverbank. It
jolted a howl of pain out of me, but no complaint.
"Hold on," said Rhys from above me. "I've got you.
Twisting my neck, I could just glimpse the hand that grasped the
tree while the other clutched my wrist. I was facing out, deadweight, hanging
like a fish on a line, and the mechanics were against him.
"Can you turn around?"
Strain drew his voice taut. My own was thin with terror.
"I'll fall."
The way my wrist was turned, I couldn't even grasp his arm. From
here, the slide down the embankment would slow my descent, but I'd probably
break more than just my leg. And that was before I even hit the river.
The familiar phobia rose up, clawed its way through my chest to
squeeze my heart, making it impossible to breathe. I relived the endless moment
of The Accident, feeling my toe come down and my leg snap, the grind of the
bone against the stage as I collapsed, the glare of the lights and the panicked
murmur of the crowd, babbling like the water rushing below.
"Sylvie." Rhys's voice was calm and deep with certainty.
It called me out of my panic and anchored me to this moment. "Turn
around and look at me. I won't let you fall."
356
Forcing myself to breathe, I did as he said, twisting so that I
faced the embankment. My wrist slipped in his lingers, and a terrified whimper
slipped out before I could clench my teeth on it.
"I've got you." He tightened his grip. Now I could close
my own hand around his arm, strengthening the hold. "Up you go."
He pulled, using the tree as leverage. I hadn't realized how far
he'd had to lean out to grab me. He inched backward, drawing me with him, and I
scrabbled at the dirt for a toehold. Finally he could let go of the tree and
hold out his other hand. "Grab on, Sylvie. Almost there, love."
I reached out to clasp his hand, and with a grunt of effort he
dragged me onto solid ground. The pine needles were thick and soft, and I lay
in them gratefully, the scent of wet earth filling my head.
And then there was a tiny dog tongue licking my face. Gigi. I
hadn't imagined her barking. I was relieved to know that not all the whining
had come from me.
Rhys nudged the dog out of the way and leaned over me, feeling my
shoulder, my arm, making sure everything was in the right place. "Are you
all right? Did I break you?"
"I'm bent," I said, still dazed, not least by his rather
proprietary touch. "But not broken."
He rubbed his face with his hands, leaving it streaked with dirt.
"What were you thinking?"
"I wasn't." I moved Gigi from my chest to my lap, and
struggled to sit up. "God, that was stupid."
357
Only then did I notice how hard he was breathing, the sheen of
sweat on his face. He must have run like the devil.
"Where did you come from?" I asked.
"From the house, after I heard your dog barking to wake the
dead--" At my stricken look, he broke off. "What?"
"Did you see her?" My fingers tightened on Gigi's fur
and she licked my hand in reassurance.
After an almost imperceptible pause, he said, "I didn't see
anything, but I was intent on keeping Vicious in sight."
I began to shiver in the warm night air. It wasn't a ghostly cold;
it came from the deepest, most elemental part of me. "I'm not going crazy.
I'm not." But no matter how desperately I said it, I couldn't force
it to be true. "Oh my God. They're going to send me off to Happy Acres
Funny Farm."
"Sylvie." Rhys gripped my shoulders, speaking in the same
voice that he'd used to reach through my terror when I'd been hanging over the
river. When I glanced up, his face was very close, and as the wind rustled the
trees, enough starlight trickled through that I could see his eyes.
"You're not crazy."
"How do you know?" I asked, more plaintive than
accusing. "Why should I trust you?"
He smiled, slightly. "Saving your neck isn't enough?"
Well, I'd asked for a reason. It was convincing, but not
satisfactory. "I'm serious, Rhys. You've been secretive. Sneaky, even.
And don't think I haven't noticed you
358
call me names when you're trying to distract me. And how could you
think I couldn't see through Shaw--"
He stopped me, a finger to my lips, and my breath caught at the
presumptuous gesture. "Don't invoke trouble," he warned, as if saying
Shawn's name would conjure him.
But I couldn't say anything--the startling familiarity of his
touch held me transfixed. Wide-eyed, I watched his dawning realization of the
intimacy of the moment stretching between us. His bemused gaze dropped to my
mouth, and almost absently, he traced the curve of my lip, then brushed my hair
from my cheek. My pulse jumped and skittered, and there was no reasoning with
it.
"Why should I trust you?" I repeated the question in a
whisper, not to him, but to myself.
He combed his hand through my hair, letting it drift through his
fingers. It was full of dirt and pine needles, but he didn't seem to care.
"Because I couldn't stand it if I let anything happen this time."
"This time?" I almost knew what he meant. I felt it
often, that the rapport between us was as old as it was new. But here in the
woods, the bewildering sensation didn't seem nearly as important as his
proximity and the way the trees pushed away the rest of the world.
But my question shook him out of the moment. He blinked, seeming
genuinely puzzled. "Did I say 'this time'?"
"Yes." I focused on curiosity, to hide my
disappointment. "What did you mean?"
Rhys shook his head. "I'm not sure."
359
I had not so much a spark of insight as a wet fizzle. "Does
it have to do with your friend who was injured in the mine?"
His spine straightened, and he drew back from me in unhappy
surprise. "How did you know about that?"
I grimaced. It seemed I wasn't keeping anyone's secrets tonight.
"I told your dad I wouldn't let you know he told me."
"It's not about Pembrokeshire." He ran a hand through
his hair. "Or maybe it is, I don't know." He climbed to his feet and
looked toward the house, confusion and frustration clear in the set of his
shoulders.
"Maybe if you told me what happened," I ventured, not
even--for once--demanding or sarcastic.
He gave me a dry look. "Like you've told me what you're doing
here?"
After so many weeks of angst over it, the ease of my answer
surprised me. "I chased a Vicodin with too many glasses of champagne at my
mother's wedding and passed out in Central Park."
Clearly, he hadn't expected me to answer. I hadn't either, but I
wanted to hear his secret more than I wanted to keep mine. At least, that
particular one. "So?" I prompted.
He sighed, rubbing the furrow between his brows. "I nearly
got my best friend killed in a landslide."
The depth of his guilt baffled me. "How could that have been
your fault?"
My heart softened with sympathy at his sad shrug. "If I'd
seen what was happening, maybe I could have done something."
360
"Because you're a geologist?" I asked, confused.
"But you were just an intern, right?"
"Right." It was somehow confirmation and denial at the
same time. He turned to face me, his mood changing. "Your turn. What is it
you're seeing in the house and the woods?"
Gigi growled low. I thought she was reacting to my tension at the
question. Then I heard distant voices calling my name, and saw the gleam of
flashlights through the trees.
"Crap." I tried to get up while holding Gigi, but when I
put my right hand on the ground, pain raced from my skinned palm to my wrenched
shoulder. I hissed out a curse, and Rhys jumped forward, taking Gigi and helping
me to my feet.
"Does this at least convince you," he said urgently, his
eyes flicking toward the approaching lights, "that you should stay out of
things? You can't go blundering around--"
"Blundering!" Forget the undertones of
chauvinism--mildly amusing while he was holding my fluffy designer-purse
dog--"blundering" was not a verb a ballerina took lightly.
But Paula was calling my name, and the fear of discovery flooded
back. "You're not going to tell them about the river, are you?"
He handed me Gigi and said in a bargaining tone that I didn't
trust at all, "Promise you'll stay out of the Teen Town Council's
way?"
I intended to lie. I looked right at him and formed
"Okay" in my mouth, but what came out was "Not
361
unless you tell me what's going on. I'm done doing whatever people
tell me to without asking questions."
With a growl of exasperation that would have been funny if I
weren't so frustrated and angry and scared, Rhys caught my hand--the uninjured
one--and turned toward the house and the searchers. "You picked a fine
time to rediscover your backbone, Sylvie Davis."
***
After we'd emerged, dirty and bedraggled, from the woods, Paula
exclaimed over the state I was in, and I quickly found myself bustled off to
the kitchen. Under the cheery lights, Clara made tea, and Rhys and his father
sat at the table while Paula scrubbed the bark and dirt out of my palm and
sprayed it with Bactine.
It stung like fire, but the archaic first-aid torture paled next
to my worry over what Rhys would say. I managed a convincing story about how
I'd gotten into the woods--Gigi chased something, I'd chased her-- and into my
muddy, scraped-up state--I'd tripped in the dark and fallen on my face. But
Rhys, with a quick, you-brought-this-on-yourself glance at me, said, "She
was lucky. She might have gone over the embankment if she hadn't caught
herself on that tree."
"Good Lord in His heaven," said Paula, a hand on her
heart as she looked at me. "You might have been--"
Then she stopped, as two and two added up to five in her head. Her
eyes widened, and her fingers went to her lips. "Oh, Sylvie, honey."
Crap. I shot Rhys a betrayed glare as I rushed to
362
assure my cousin. "It was an accident, Paula. It was so dark,
I had no idea the river was so close."
She reached across the table and clasped the hand she'd just
tortured. "Sylvie, honey. If there's anything you want to tell me
... I know you've been troubled, about The Accident, about not being able to
dance anymore. Things can seem very hopeless."
I snatched my fingers out of hers, the sting bringing fresh tears
to my eyes, which made me even more furious--at Rhys, yes, but mostly that
there wasn't one person in my family who trusted my mental health. "Paula,
I'm fine." It didn't sound very convincing ground out through my teeth.
"I'm not depressed, and I'm not going to jump in the
river."
Professor Griffith cleared his throat and moved to stand, nudging
Rhys as he did. "We'll just get back to bed. This sounds like a family
matter."
"Oh no," I said, pointing to Rhys in an angry demand.
"Tell them how dark it was, how easy it was to get lost."
He met my gaze and, raising his uninjured eyebrow, reminded me
silently of the bargain I'd rejected. A band of worry tightened around my
chest, worry that he might still rat that it was me, not Gigi, who saw things.
It was only a second or two, long enough to twist the knife of anxiety, then he
turned to Paula and said earnestly, "I don't think Sylvie would try and
hurt herself, Miss Davis."
"Thank you," I said without a shred of gratitude, since
he was only telling the truth.
He went on without looking at me. "You know she
363
wouldn't do anything rash without making arrangements for her
dog."
"Dammit, Rhys!" The outburst popped free of the iron
bands of stress. "Don't joke about that."
Clara made a sound, almost a laugh, despite the gravity on
everyone's faces. "He has a point, Paula. Don't write Sylvie off just
yet."
"Thank you, Clara." I meant the words, though they came
out petulant, because I didn't think it needed to be said at all.
"Still, it was dark," said Rhys. "And she is
a city girl." He shook his head in a ridiculous and theatrical way.
"Maybe you and Vicious should stay in after nightfall, Sylvie."
I shot him another death glare, but Paula quickly reclaimed my
attention, and my outrage, with her agreement. "That's not a bad idea,
honey. You're not used to all the things out there in the woods. You don't need
to be out in the dark."
Rhys's satisfaction gave him away; this was exactly what he'd
meant to achieve. I kept my gaze on Paula, but my fury was scattershot.
"I'm not a child. Or an idiot."
"Even Addie has a curfew," she said firmly.
"Which she ignores!" I made a sweeping gesture toward
the summerhouse, endangering the mug of tea Clara had poured me. Rhys caught it
before it could fall over, but I was too angry to be impressed. "She was
out with the teen council till all hours on a school night. Do you even know
how late they stay out there?"
The words had exploded angrily, without my
364
considering if it was smart to tell the world I was keeping tabs
on the TTC. But the lack of reaction was a surprise.
"That's different." Paula spoke briskly, in a way that
implied she hadn't registered any of what I'd said. "And beside the
point. We're not talking about going to an extracurricular activity--"
"Extracurricular--" I broke off in disbelief. "Do
you guys even hear yourselves when you talk about this group?" I looked at
Rhys, who was studying his mug intently, no help at all.
Clara sat on the other side of me, rubbing a soothing hand over my
back. "I guess you must be feeling excluded. I've asked Addie to invite
you to some of their get-togethers."
"If she's feeling excluded," said Paula, "she could
have gone to the graduation party. Shawn did ask her."
I bent over and gently banged my forehead on the table. It might
as well be the wall I kept running up against. With all of them. Paula and
Clara. Rhys. Shawn. This entire town.
Not the professor, though. He slid my mug across the scarred and
polished table until it touched my fingers. "Drink your tea, love."
When I raised my head, he met my eye with a sympathetic smile. "It'll make
you feel better."
The drink was warm and bracing, but the pause had given Paula time
to marshal her arguments. "Sylvie, forget the woods. I'm worried that you
don't seem to be sleeping. You're always up at night." She paused, clueing
me in to what was coming. "Don't answer now,
365
while you're so upset, but I want you to think about going to see
your stepfather's friend, in Birmingham."
She meant the shrink, but didn't want to say it in front of the
Griffiths. Like they couldn't figure it out. From the corner of my eye, I saw
Rhys fidget, guiltily, I hoped.
Part of me must have suspected this would happen, no matter how I
tried to cover things up. It was as if all my fears--falling, going nuts,
psychiatrists--had checked their calendars and decided this was the night to
gang up on me.
"Cousin Paula," I started, holding on to my mug with
both hands, "the only thing wrong with me is that you won't let me sleep
with my dog."
Paula relented slowly. "Will you talk to Reverend Watkins, at
least?"
"If I can bring Gigi up with me tonight." She'd been
exiled to her crate, and I felt sick about it, since I'd let her take the blame
for my being out in the woods.
"Go ahead, Paula," said Clara, gently cajoling,
"There's not that much left of the night anyway."
Sighing deeply in surrender, Paula sat back in her chair. "Fine.
Finish your tea and go on up. I'm going to take some aspirin, then I'll come
check on you."
Abed check was, all told, not that bad. I turned my head to glare
at Rhys, but didn't say anything with Clara and his dad still there. He met my
eye, silently communicating the same thing. It could have been worse, if he'd
told them everything.
"We'd better go up too," said Professor Griffith,
366
standing to put action to words. "Sleep tight, Sylvie,
love."
Somewhere, I found a small smile for him. "Thanks, Professor."
"Come along, Rhys. You look like five miles of bad
road."
"Right, Dad. On my way."
I almost missed his exhale of effort as he pushed himself up from
the table. He did look bad. The bruises on his face had faded, but they were
still there, mottled green and purple. In the light of the kitchen, I saw
something else through the thin white T-shirt he wore with the same khakis from
yesterday.
His father was on his way down the hall. Clara had gone with Paula
when she left to get her aspirin. Still sitting, I grabbed the loose hem of
Rhys's shirt and jerked it up.
He jumped a foot, which was gratifying. "Jesus, Sylvie!"
He strangled the curse down to a whisper, glancing around for witnesses as he
tugged the cotton down over impressive abs and a seat-belt bruise the color of
raw meat.
"Oh my God." I was frozen, still seeing in my head the
livid mark that ran up and across his chest. A bruise like that, and I was
surprised he was moving around at all. And he'd held me suspended over
the river. Both of us, really, as he leaned out, tethered by his grasp on the
tree.
I didn't even know what to say. On the scale from pissed to
smitten, my emotions made a dramatic slide toward grateful wonder. Which is an
awkward place to
367
be while you're holding on to a guy by his shirt like he's a
Chippendales dancer or something. Not that I knew anything about that, except
that one of my class partners had paid his tuition that way and-- Oh my God,
I needed to stop thinking about that.
"I'd better get Gigi and go upstairs," I blurted, and
dropped his shirt like it was hot, retreating to the welcome cool air of the
porch, and to my dog, who was spayed and therefore blissfully ignorant of how
complicated emotions could get.
***
The morning dawned bright and cheery, completely contrary to my
mood. There was a shade on my window, but I'd forgotten to pull it when I'd
finally fallen into bed the night before. Earlier that morning, really. Gigi
burrowed under the covers to get away from the eastern glare, but I had
pressing business for the day. Paula had reminded me when she came up to do her
bed check. It was Sunday, and we were going to church.
I wouldn't have been able to get out of it even if I'd been the
poster girl for spiritual and mental health. It was just what you did here.
So I stumbled to the bathroom, still messy from my quick wash the
night before. Since I'd rolled in the mud in my last pair of pj's, Paula had
lent me a nightgown. Apparently my practical cousin was a closet Southern
belle. The white cotton gown had deep ruffles around the neck and it ended in
another froth of
368
ruffle below my knees. The sleeves kept slipping down, and I had
to push them up, over and over, as I washed my face.
The image in the mirror was almost a stranger's. Instead of my
neat ballerina bun, or even the scrunchie that usually held my hair while I
slept, dark tangles fell around my shoulders. My face had more color than
usual, including a dusting of freckles across my nose and cheeks, and faint
purple shadows under my eyes. The hollows in my cheeks were less pronounced.
All those desserts were beginning to show.
I brushed my teeth and headed back to my room to dress. The door
hit someone as I flung it open, and my nerves--complacent with sleep and the
mundane tasks of the morning--jolted to stinging alert.
God, I was jumpy. The muffled and distinctly British curse assured
me that, whoever was in the hall, it wasn't the Colonel suddenly made flesh.
Paula's reminder of my appointment with the reverend had nudged my
mood to the irate side of the scale. But when I peered around the door and saw
Rhys doubled over, clutching his already abused nose, I momentarily slid toward
apologetic sympathy. "Did I hurt you?"
"Yes, sod it all."
He didn't sound like he was going to die, so I let myself feel
some satisfaction at getting back at him for ratting me out about the river.
"Good."
He straightened, giving his nose a last experimental wiggle.
"And my face was just getting better."
That was true. The bruises had lightened to greenish
369
yellow, though the skin under his left eye was still a bit purple.
Strange that his face had healed so much faster than his chest. If the door had
hit him in the sternum, I'd have actually felt bad about it.
When he finally lowered his hand, his eyes swept over me, and he
started to laugh. "What the blazes are you wearing?"
I narrowed my gaze. "Don't start with me. It's your fault I'm
having bed checks and parochial counseling. If I wind up at the shrink--"
I caught myself. I'd said too much, spoken my fear aloud. Guilt
flashed, just for a moment, in Rhys's purple-shadowed eyes. "I am sorry
about that." He did sound contrite, but he ruined it by adding, "But
did you really think you were going to avoid any hassle from Paula?"
Hearing someone crossing the hall downstairs, I lowered my voice
to an angry hiss. "You could have helped me try."
"Sylvie?" Paula called my name from the foyer. "Are
you up?"
"Just on my way to the bathroom, Paula."
"Do you want some breakfast before we go?"
"No, ma'am." There was a disapproving pause. Refusing
food was always the wrong answer. "Just some juice, maybe."
"Be down in twenty minutes." She called me to heel like
I called Gigi. The difference was, I would actually obey, even if I didn't like
it.
Rhys had stood silent during this whole exchange. I grabbed his
arm, pulled him into the bathroom and
370
shut the door. His eyebrows climbed in exaggerated shock. "You
Yankee girls are really very forward."
"Shut up." I didn't want to be charmed by his humor or
distracted by the way his eyes followed my movements as I pushed up the
ridiculous sleeves of my borrowed nightgown.
For God's sake, Sylvie. Focus.
"The night before you left," I said, "you let on
there was something going on here."
That seemed to startle him, before his expression turned wary.
"Did I say that?"
"'Strange dealings afoot.'" I quoted it firmly, because
lately I'd discovered a lot about evasive phrasing. "And seriously, Rhys,
you have no poker face."
He allowed a rueful grimace. "It used to be better. Before I
met you."
This relatively straightforward admission sent the undisciplined
part of me--which I wasn't sure existed before I came to Alabama--rocketing
skyward in delight. It struck me, as he seemed to be focusing intently on my
left eyebrow to keep his eyes above my neck, that it wasn't only him getting
under my skin.
Don't think about skin, you twit. Focus.
I forced a warning into my voice. "I'm not a helpless
princess or a moron, Rhys. I can find out what's going on here, if I dig deep
enough."
My I'm-playing-hardball tone snapped his gaze to mine, and the
muscle in his jaw clenched for just a second before he lifted his uninjured eyebrow
with deliberate composure. "How are you going to manage that? It sounds
like you're going to have some trouble finding unsupervised time in the
future."
371
Crap. He was right. I jammed my fists on my hips and glared up at
him. "Dammit, Rhys. Why do you get off the hook while I'm stuck with a
nanny? You were out there with me."
His mouth twisted in a self-mocking half-smile. "Because I'm
the knight and you're the maiden, and life is not fair."
At least he admitted it, but it still made me mad. "Is that
what this is? Be a good girl and don't stick your nose in the menfolk's
business?"
All humor disappeared. "I'd tell you the same thing if you
were a guy. Don't muck around where you don't know how deep the water is."
"You don't think I know how to swim?" I grabbed the door
handle and twisted, throwing a cold look over my shoulder. "Don't let the
Victorian ruffles fool you."
His hand landed on the door, keeping it closed. As irritated as I
was, my heart still stuttered, and not in an entirely bad way. I turned in the
space allowed by his arm, and pressed my back against the door, more to keep
myself from doing anything stupid than from fear--or hope--that he would. Do
something stupid, I mean.
He must have read my thoughts, or maybe I had no poker face either,
because his eyes dropped to my mouth, then moved back up to hold my gaze.
"Stay out of the woods, Sylvie. That's all I'm asking." At the
"Oh, really" arch of my brows, he added, "And stay away from
Shawn and the teen council."
There was a warning there, and worry. Chauvinism, maybe, but also
genuine fear for my safety. "I
372
can't," I said, dogged, but a bit daunted, too. "I'm
supposed to go to the Catfish Festival this afternoon."
"Tell Paula you're sick."
"I can't," I repeated, a little plaintively. "If I
don't talk to Reverend Watkins, she'll take me to a shrink. Better Shawn and
catfish than a psychiatrist and a couch."
He grimaced, satisfyingly rueful. "I am sorry about
that."
My irritation flared with the reminder. "You should be."
"I only thought she'd keep closer watch on you, keep your
nose out of trouble."
We were standing so close, I had to tilt my head to meet his eye.
How could I be feeling so many things at once? My blood zipped through my
veins, thrilled at his nearness, infuriated by his evasion. His scent, unique
and exhilarating and natural, filled my head, and I had to force myself to stay
on track.
"It's the teen council, isn't it?" I watched his face as
I asked my nonquestion. "They're doing something."
He struggled for a moment, then dropped his arm. I can't say.
"Can't or won't?" I snapped, chilled by his withdrawal.
"Both," he admitted, sounding genuinely regretful at the
distance he put between us. "You'd better go. Unless you want to tell the
reverend you're late because you were ambushing blokes in your nightgown."
I gave an indelicate snort, letting him end the inquisition
because he had a point. Any minute now,
373
Paula would be jerking my leash. "Right. Because all this
old-fashioned splendor is so tempting."
He looked to the ceiling, as if for patience, then back at me.
"Don't be obtuse, princess. It's only because I'm a gentleman that I
haven't let you know that I find Victorian ruffles insanely hot."
I'd think he was teasing me--except that Rhys really didn't have
any poker face at all. So I made my second prudent retreat in less than twelve
hours, this time, if I let myself admit it, more delighted than dismayed.
374
***
Chapter 24
Since I was in church anyway, I thanked God that Addie had spent
the night with Kimberley, and was not around to witness the Incredible River
Disaster and its aftermath. The morning was difficult enough with only the
regular amount of speculation and staring.
The antique pews were not very comfortable. Davis backsides had
suffered the same wooden torture for generations, and I wondered if it was any
easier with voluminous skirts and petticoats. On one hand, you might have more
padding under your bum, but on the other, you'd have to deal with a corset. In
an unairconditioned
375
Alabama summer. I decided I'd rather take my own miseries.
My imagination ran away with the thought of corsets and
crinolines, and suddenly I was picturing a church full of a starched and
buttoned congregation, sweltering through an hour-long sermon. Had Hannah sat
here, laced into her whalebone corset, lilac-scented handkerchief dabbing at
her modest décolletage? Was he here? The guy? The one for whom she would
rather sleep with the fishes than sleep without? The guy who had knocked her up
and left her?
I glanced across to where Shawn Maddox sat with his father.
Naturally the Maddox pew was right across the aisle from the Davis one. Up
front, of course.
Shawn, wearing the male-under-thirty uniform of button-down shirt,
necktie and khaki trousers, seemed to sense my gaze and turned his head
slightly to smile at me. How did he do that? I didn't trust him, wasn't
even sure I liked him in the normal way, let alone the way everyone in town
seemed to expect me to. I'd just been--well, it would be hard to call it
flirting, but no other term fit--with Rhys in the bathroom at Bluestone Hill.
But I still found myself yanking my gaze forward and blushing like I was
a nineteenth-century girl caught staring at a young gentleman in church. I
wished I had a fan so I could cool my blush before the rumors got any worse.
***
Once Reverend Watkins had given the benediction, Paula slipped out
through the side to give him the
376
scoop on my latest adventure. I dawdled to give her time, and
wasn't terribly surprised when Shawn appeared in front of me as I exited the
pew.
"Wow," said Shawn. "You clean up nice."
"Gee, thanks." My tone was dry, but I appreciated the
compliment, even from Shawn, whose praise I'd realized needed to be cut by
half. I was wearing a skirt for the first time since having my cast removed. I
lived in jeans, which hid the bumps and craters of the scars where my tibia had
broken through my skin, and the pins that held it while it healed. But Paula
had put her foot down on wearing jeans to church.
"What time should I pick you up for the shindig?" he
asked.
"I need to talk to Reverend Watkins about something, and then
I'd like to go home and change." It occurred to me that I could still come
down with a sudden, violent stomach bug, and I left myself some wiggle room.
"I could ask Paula to bring me to the festival later--"
"Oh no." Shawn flashed that grin, full wattage and full
of open appreciation. "I'm making the most of this date. I'll see you in
an hour and a half?"
"Make it two."
"Done!" he said, and with another broad grin, hurried
off.
I obeyed orders and headed to where Paula was waving to me. I'll
say one thing--she was efficient as she ushered me into Reverend Watkins's
tiny, book-cluttered office. Even he seemed a little stunned by the whirlwind
as we faced each other across his desk. "So,"
377
he said, looking me right in the eye, "Paula says you haven't
been sleeping well."
I had my answer prepared. "It's not the big deal she thinks
it is. Now that she's letting Gigi stay in my room at night, it shouldn't be a
problem."
"But you were in the woods last night." He raised his
brows in a question. "Near where you saw the girl jump in the river?"
I sighed, and with an air of confession, gave him the half-truth
I'd decided would make me sound as normal as possible. "I was meeting a
guy in the woods. Do you think I should have told her that instead?"
He blinked, and cleared his throat. "Were you ... um ...
"No, no, no," I assured him honestly. "Just
talking."
Looking relieved, he sat back in his creaking chair. "Do you
like this boy?"
"Yes." This was more candid than I'd ever been with my
shrink. The old, Manhattan Sylvie would have shrugged, or said something
cutting. The agreement slipped out easily now, though I couldn't voice all my
feelings because I didn't understand them, or why they seemed to run so deep
when I'd only known Rhys a week. "But it's complicated."
"Don't answer if you don't want to, but ... is it Shawn
Maddox?"
I eyed him, gauging his reaction. "No." His guarded
expression slipped away, and he looked relieved. The realization surprised me
into saying, rather tactlessly, "You seem to be the only one in town that
doesn't seem to think the sun rises and sets on him."
378
Reverend Watkins bit back a smile and said, with exaggerated
gravity, "Maybe it's because I already have a savior."
"Ha!" He'd surprised a braying laugh out of me. Since I
felt like I'd get an honest opinion out of him, I floated an observation.
"You may have noticed that people around here seem to have some
expectations of us. Shawn and me, that is."
"Just a bit."
His irony gave me hope--finally--for some refreshing candor.
"Can I ask you a question?"
"Certainly." Glancing at the clock, he said, "We
might need another few minutes to convince Paula you've unburdened all your
troubles."
"What do you think of this Maddox Point deal? It keeps coming
up whenever I talk to people from town."
He steepled his fingers in front of his chin. "I think that
when the price tag makes things exclusive, the people it tends to exclude
..."
I filled in the blanks of his tactful omission. "You end up
with a place as homogenized as a carton of milk. But the town is in favor of
the place. I mean, everyone I've met is."
He shrugged. "Folks believe it will bring in rich people to
spend their money on the weekends. Which it might."
"Which would be good, right?" One of Shawn's win-win
situations. "The town could use the money. I mean, there are some nice
houses in Maddox Landing, but out in the country ..." I trailed off, and
didn't
379
mention the single-wide mobile homes and tumbledown shacks.
"Right." He followed my gist with a sober nod.
"People who will pay with their taxes if the bond that Zachary Maddox
wants is voted in. Gall me a raging liberal, but I don't think people should
have to fund the sewage system of a place that's too exclusive for them to
afford."
He stopped, looking a little embarrassed. "Sorry. I thought I
was done preaching for the day."
"It's okay. I didn't know there was a bond up for a
vote." That put the town's rampant one-sided opinion on the matter in a
different light. As usual, I hadn't thought about money.
"Anyway," said the reverend as he stood to escort me the
three steps to the office door. "Revenue is nice, but I like looking out
over a multicultural congregation. I don't want to go backward, just to get
more money in the collection plate." He winced. "That's just between
you and me."
"Of course." I grinned. "Sanctity of the
confessional and all."
The reverend smiled in return, and opened the door. "You're
thinking of the Catholics, but I'll take it."
I went to meet Paula knowing I wasn't going to get a sudden case
of the flu. I had to go to the festival. I took Rhys's warnings
seriously--vague as they were--but when was I going to get a better chance to
dissect the layers of mystery around the Teen Town Council and its connection
to Maddox Landing and Maddox Point? Not to mention Bluestone Hill.
380
***
Chapter 25
I'd seen the banner over Main Street announcing the festival, but
I hadn't known what to expect. I had a bit of a clue as Shawn drove past cars
and pickups parked two deep on the town's side streets and in the lots of
stores that appeared to be closed for the day.
"Where did all these people come from?" I asked. Gigi
stood on my lap, her paws on the window, just as fascinated, but less
flabbergasted.
Shawn slid me a smile as we pulled into a private parking lot
right before the barricades across Main
381
Street. "Did you expect twenty-five people at the high school
gym?"
"Of course not. I was thinking a hundred or so in the
National Guard armory." He laughed, but the truth was, I had underestimated
the TTC. Through the windshield I could make out an enormous marquee shading
long folding tables and chairs, and vender booths set up around the town
square. When Shawn killed the engine, I could hear a live band and happy crowd
chatter. "I didn't think Maddox Landing had this many people in it."
"It doesn't. But people do know how to drive someplace when
there's food, music and beer." Flashing that grin, he got out of the truck
and came around to help me down. When I'd gone back to the Hill, I'd discovered
all my jeans were covered in garden dirt, so I was wearing another skirt. At
least I wouldn't be able to tell if people were staring at me because I was a
Davis, or because of the scars on my leg.
I put Gigi into her tote; I didn't want her to get stepped on in
the crowd. She popped her head out the open top, nose twitching blissfully. I
smelled at least part of what she did--plenty of fried food, both sweet and
savory. That, at least, was no surprise.
Shawn took my hand to steady me as I stepped over the curb, and he
didn't let go afterward. I felt a tingle of reaction, but it was drowned out by
the cynical voice in my head, pointing out how smoothly that was done.
What was I doing? I wasn't a girl detective. I was a ballerina who
couldn't even trust her own senses. Last
382
night I'd chased a ghost and nearly broken my neck. Was I running
just as foolishly headlong now?
I was very aware I was doing the exact opposite of what
Rhys had told me to do. It wasn't pure obstinacy, and it wasn't frivolous
curiosity. I needed to dig at this mystery the way I needed to dig the weeds
out of my garden. I kept thinking if I could just reveal the pattern, I would
understand--I don't know--something.
"You look so serious," said Shawn, nudging my arm with
his elbow as we reached the square. "It's supposed to be a party."
Come on, Sylvie, get in gear. I might not be much of a
detective, but when I had my game on, I could smile through anything--bleeding
toes, wardrobe malfunctions, clumsy partners. I could handle this.
"Sorry," I told Shawn, deliberately relaxing the furrow
of concentration between my brows. We'd arrived with the festivities in full
swing. The tables under the awning were already crowded, and the band was
covering the only Lynyrd Skynyrd song I could name. It gave me an excuse for an
arch smile. "Is it in the state constitution that you have to play 'Sweet
Home Alabama' at every event?"
He laughed. "Only at ones with more than fifty people."
The streets around the town green (Maddox Green, of course) had
been blocked off, and vendors were selling arts, crafts and every kind of fried
food imaginable. It wasn't high-toned--"booth" in some cases meant a
barbecue and a card table stacked with paper plates and condiments--but in
addition to the music and laughter,
383
there was an energetic pulse in the air. I could feel it catching
me up in its wave, maybe a little against my will.
"The Teen Town Council did all this?" I couldn't keep
the marveling wonder out of my voice.
"We spearheaded it, I guess you'd say." Shawn downplayed
the accomplishment. "The real town council--mostly my dad and Ms.
Brewster--helped. For some reason people don't trust teenagers when it comes to
forking over money for sponsorships and advertising."
I would wager Shawn could convince anyone to trust him with
anything. But there were probably logistical considerations if most of his
workforce was under eighteen.
"I think you can tentatively call it a success," I said.
He nodded. "I'm thinking maybe next year it will be a two-day
festival, maybe advertise in Selma and Montgomery. And of course by then, we'll
have people in Maddox Point."
"So soon?" I spoke without thinking, not shocked by his
optimism, but by the timing. "Don't you have to finish the surveys and see
if the bond passes?"
His brows shot up in surprise, and he stopped walking. I was aware
of the audience--hyperaware, since I had my game on--but standing with Shawn
always felt a little like standing in a bubble, just he and I, everyone else looking
in.
"You've put your ear to the ground, I see."
Crap. That was stupid, showing my hand that way. Even if Shawn
were as straightforward as his public image, he was bound to take my interest
the wrong way.
384
"Sylvie!" Hugely relieved for the distraction, I turned
at my squealed name, then heard, even louder and more thrilled,
"Gigi!"
Caitlin and Kimberly ran up to us, and I felt almost flattered
that they hugged me in welcome before petting my dog. Gigi, of course, was
ecstatic, licking their hands like they were coated in bacon.
"Are you having a good time?" Caitlin asked.
It was a little hard to tell whether she was talking to me or the
dog. I took a chance and answered. "We just got here."
Kimberly gestured across the tent. "We've got a table by the
band. One of the perks of helping to set up. Come sit with us."
I was grateful for the invitation. I could feel out the TTC and
have some respite from Shawn's full attention.
"We were about to get something to eat," said Shawn.
"We'll head over after we hit the booths."
Caitlin looked up from scratching Gigi's chin. "Can we hold
on to Gigi for you?"
A quick pinch of unease made a liar out of me. I wasn't that comfortable
with them. "It's awfully crowded. I'd better keep her close, in case she
gets anxious."
At the moment, she was closer to nirvana than a nervous breakdown.
But Caitlin took it in stride, and Kimberly said, "Bring your food over.
We're right by the dance floor."
They took off at full speed, red curls and black braids bouncing
in tandem. I looked at Shawn, feeling ambushed. "No one said there was
going to be dancing."
385
He raised his hands, holding off the bite in my accusation.
"I'm so sorry, Sylvie," he said, sounding contrite. "I didn't
even think."
Did I believe him? On the one hand, I suspected Shawn didn't spit
without a plan. On the other, how could he know how much it still hurt to watch
other people let music move them. It wasn't about skill, or style, or talent.
It was about the kinetic joy of motion. The worst dancer in the world was happy
shuffling his feet to the beat. How could I ever be happy shuffling, when I
used to soar?
Shawn touched my shoulder, let his hand trail down my arm to again
clasp my hand, this time with a reassuring squeeze. My defenses were low, and
the warm comfort of his touch spread through me, the cat-in-the-sunshine glow
unknotting the tight knot at the base of my skull.
Game face, Sylvie. I needed to keep my head about me, to make
good on my boast to Rhys that I knew how to swim in deep waters.
"Come on," he said. "Let's get something to eat.
What will you have? Cheese fries? Elephant ear?"
"No fried green tomatoes?" I asked, the closest I could
come to a disarming quip.
He grinned. "I'll bet I can swing something for you."
Almost more amused than cynical, I bet he could, too.
***
By the time Shawn and I joined the rest of the TTC, I'd seen
almost everyone I knew--south of the Mason-Dixon
386
Line, anyway--and met a lot more. I recognized some from the
church, and some from the Daisy Café, but they all seemed to know me, or at
least of me.
It was no longer a surprise, but my ballerina smile was getting a
workout. Especially at the similarity of everyone's sentiments. "Welcome
home." Or, "It's great to see a young Davis back at Bluestone
Hill." It quickly went from irritating to unnerving.
By the time Shawn introduced me to his father, I was glad for the
distraction. Mr. Maddox was standing with Ms. Brewster, who gave me a hug as if
we were old friends, then, holding my hands at arm's length, looked me over.
"Sylvie, you look lovely. Alabama is certainly agreeing with
you!" Her smile turned slyly teasing, but she stopped short of a wink.
"Or something is."
"Clara's cooking," I said dryly, turning aside her
implication more politely than I was inclined to.
I couldn't pretend I didn't know this would happen. It was
impossible to ignore the buzz of speculation about Shawn and me together, all
subliminal, in smiles and nods that I couldn't address without seeming
paranoid.
But I'd woefully underestimated its effect on me. The overlap of
my present and Hannah's past seemed to flicker at the corner of my vision so I
wasn't just seeing women in slacks and shorts smiling at Shawn, but ladies
whispering behind fans, distracting themselves from the heat and their corsets
with gossip about the latest Maddox/Davis merger.
An expectant pause brought me firmly back to the
387
present, and I realized that Shawn's dad had said something to me.
Zachary Maddox was slick and modern, and surprisingly young. I guessed early
forties, unless he just moisturized very well. He had charisma, too, but it was
less Tom Sawyer and more politician, bringing to mind what Dr. Young had said
in the Old Cahawba cemetery. That seemed a lifetime ago.
And they were still waiting. It seemed like a "How do you
do?" sort of pause, so I smiled and said, "I'm having a wonderful
time. You must be so proud of Shawn for organizing the TTC on this festival.
And he is so enthusiastic about Maddox Point...."
I left an open-ended pause for him to fill. Another trick of my
mother's--it was hard to go wrong complimenting someone's offspring and
business ventures.
Mr. Maddox clapped his son on the shoulder and grinned. I
definitely saw the similarity. "Yes, he's a real entrepreneur," he
said, without any sarcasm. "And not quite nineteen yet."
"Dad," said Shawn, in the aw-shucks voice.
"How is Maddox Point coming along?" I asked, hopefully
sounding more sincere. "Everyone has been talking about it."
"Well enough." Mr. Maddox certainly seemed to take my
interest as genuine. "We had a few delays with some survey reports, but
it's moving forward now. So, if I can just convince your cousin's friends over
at Old Cahawba that we're no threat to them ..."
He nodded over my shoulder, and I turned to see Dr. Young sitting
with a handful of young people-- college students, from their University of
Alabama
388
T-shirts. His dig crew, I guessed. Professor Griffith sat across
from him, and they'd been looking my way. Gigi saw them too and wiggled
impatiently in her bag. She'd been getting her share of attention from the
people we met, but she knew the professors were soft touches for little dogs.
Both of them waved, but it was hard to interpret their
expressions. Easier to read was that of one of the girls in the group; stiletto
glares tend to carry better over distances, I guess.
I registered the lack of love between the Cahawba crew and the
Maddoxes, and scanned the folding tables to see who else I'd missed. Paula and
Clara were there-- they also waved, though with more obvious encouragement. But
no sign of Rhys. I was equally disappointed and relieved. It was hard enough to
concentrate without the stress of his disapproval.
Mr. Maddox was speaking again. "You should take Sylvie out to
the Point, Shawn. Take her around on the ATV, and talk about your plans."
"Sounds great," said Shawn, turning to me under the
beaming approval of Ms. Brewster and his dad's more restrained smile.
"What do you say, Sylvie? This week sometime?"
It sounded like it would be informative but exhausting, physically
and mentally. Was I willing to date Shawn to find out why he wanted to date me?
And what would Rhys say about that?
"I'm not much for ATVs," I said, leaving the door open
for me to wiggle out.
"Vehicles are negotiable." Shawn grinned, as if the
389
matter had been settled, and said to his dad, "We're going to
join the gang. See you later, Ms. Brewster."
"Have a great time, kids!"
I didn't see it, but I knew her grin widened as Shawn slipped his
arm around my shoulders.
***
Even with my misgivings about the TTC, it was hard not to like
them, at least a little bit. Whatever had the town thinking Shawn and his
friends walked on water, as I sat with them at the table by the band, my leg
propped up and my back to the empty space cleared for dancing, I was surprised
at how normal they seemed. For instance, if Caitlin had been
deliberately faking her welcome, she would have paid more attention to me than
to my dog.
I'd taken Gigi out of her tote, and she was enjoying being passed
among some of the girls, practicing her wiles on them. The guys were talking
about sports-- one kept checking the baseball scores on his cell phone, to his
girlfriend's annoyance--and about making the renovation of a swimming hole
downriver their next project.
Addie was there too, and I expected her to be as annoying and
antagonistic as usual. But oddly, in the full circle of her friends, she seemed
not to mind my presence so much. She was the queen bee, and I was just a gnat.
I found it more curious than annoying. At least for the moment.
When the guys suggested the swimming-hole
390
endeavor, she snorted. "Y'all can work on whatever you want,
but the next TTC project is getting the Maddox Point bond passed."
"Are you campaigning for that?" I asked, not to
challenge her, but in surprise. "Isn't that a conflict of interest?"
Rather than snap back, she merely arched her brows. "Are you
going to report us?"
She had a point, but her words sent a small shudder of disquiet
down my spine. I couldn't even say why, since, as she implied, who would care
if twelve teens campaigned for something that was in the interest of their
leader?
I glanced at Shawn, who'd moved a few places down the table to
chat with the guys about who should be quarterback next year, now that he'd
graduated. It sounded like an old argument, one so boring and benign, it made
me doubt my own doubts. As if I needed any help second-guessing my instincts.
Kimberly startled me by plopping into Shawn's empty chair and grabbing
my arm. Leaning in, she lowered her voice so I had to edge forward to catch her
words under the music and chatter. "Girl, I'm dying to ask about the other
night. I can't believe you really saw the Colonel. I would have keeled over
right in my tracks."
My composure slipped, my shoulders stiffening warily. I'd known
Addie would gleefully tell that tale, but I wasn't eager for it to spread
further. "I don't know what I saw, Kimberly." I tried to keep
the tightness out of my voice. "I was mostly asleep. It was just a bad
dream."
391
Her face drooped in disappointment. "But Shawn said--"
"Shawn said?" I shot a surprised and angry
glare his way, but he was talking to one of the teen council guys. My look got
his attention, though he didn't break off what he was saying.
"Yeah," said Kimberly, looking confused. "Shawn
said that you must be really sensitive to the ghosts, because no one has seen
them since his aunt Rainbow was here, back in the day."
Her again. Before I could ask what Rainbow had supposedly seen,
Kimberly's shift in mood distracted me.
"My granny has another theory, though." Some of her
enthusiasm had darkened. "She says the spirits are getting more active.
The mirror by her door cracked the other day."
I frowned, leaning in to match her posture. "What does that
mean?"
Kimberly chewed her lip. "She thinks maybe there's something
in the air, stirring them up. Maybe it's a young Davis back at the Hill. She
told me to tell you to be careful."
There was something in that pause before she spoke, and I jumped
on it. "Kimberly. Do you believe what your grandmother said?"
Her eyes slid to the side. "Well, I haven't seen
anything, so I can't say."
Before I could pursue her evasive answer, a movement caught my
eye, derailing my train of thought. Reverend Watkins was trying to flag my
attention.
392
You'd think someone in his profession would have more innate
discretion.
"Would you excuse me for a minute, Kimberly?" She agreed
amiably, but when I stood, the rest of the council looked at me curiously.
"I need to walk my dog," I improvised. Of course Shawn offered to go
with me, but I waved him back into his seat. "It'll just take a
minute."
"You sure?" he asked, and though I gauged his expression
as carefully as I could, I didn't see any suspicion.
"Definitely." Whatever the reverend wanted to say to me,
he obviously didn't want an audience.
I collected Gigi and slung the empty tote over my shoulder. Once I
was away from the council, I saw the the reverend nod toward an empty table
behind some speakers and headed there to meet him. As the afternoon had gone
on, more people had clustered near the band, so we would have some privacy.
"What's going on, Reverend?"
"Nothing dire," he said immediately, though the frowning
slashes of his brows didn't exactly reassure me. "I just came across
something I knew you'd want to see, especially after our discussion this
morning."
"Okay." It felt like a long time ago. We'd talked about
Shawn, and my feeling of expectation in that direction. Something the afternoon
had certainly borne out.
"I found that journal you were interested in, by Reverend
Holzphaffel." He took a thin leather-bound book from under his arm.
393
"And you brought it to me here?" What could be in a
hundred-and-fifty-year-old book that couldn't wait?
My question seemed to shake him out of his worry, and he smiled
sheepishly, the furrows easing from his forehead. "Well, I was coming
anyway, and I knew you'd be here."
He was wearing civilian clothes--a polo shirt instead of his
clerical collar. But my anxiety didn't ease as quickly as his. "What was
in the journal?"
Gesturing to the table and chairs, he waited until I settled with
Gigi in my lap before answering. "I'd forgotten how uncensored
Holzphaffel's opinions were. Which is what makes them such a valuable
historical resource, of course, but remember, it was a long time ago, and
people took some things very seriously."
"What things?" I asked. His procrastinating preface was
making me even more nervous. As he spoke, he flipped through the volume to a
page marked with a sticky note. I guessed the book wasn't an original; I was
horrified by the idea of a Post-it on Hannah's journal.
"Folklore. Spirits." He looked at me, cynical, at least
on the surface. "Holzphaffel was from the Old World. Germany. He uses the
word hexen a lot."
Even though I didn't speak German, the word raised the hair on the
back of my neck. "As in 'hex'? You mean witchcraft?"
He cleared his throat. "I mean, people were very
superstitious back then." He laid the book on the table in front of me.
"It turns out Hannah Davis had a similar problem to yours."
The book was a facsimile of handwritten pages, and
394
the cramped, old-fashioned script would have been hard to read
from a good copy. But as I deciphered the passage he indicated, the
distractions faded, until I was alone with the reverend, the book and the ideas
that the words sent spinning through my brain.
The conviction with which the townspeople believe that Miss Davis
and Mr. Ethan Maddox should marry takes on an unsettling fervor, setting an
almost magical importance to this union that recalls the archaic traditions of
the Old Country, very out of place in the enlightened New World.
"'Archaic traditions."' I looked up at Reverend Watkins.
"What does that mean?"
He sat back in his chair. "The South was devastated by the
war, in a way that's hard for us to imagine. Maybe people put a ... mystical
significance on the match, because they badly needed to believe something would
make things better."
I nodded, making a rational argument to hide how shaken I was by
that passage. "Coming off the fact that Davis/Maddox marriages sealed
business deals that were good for the community."
He smiled wryly. "Superstitions have to start from
something."
"But ..." I let the word hang leadingly. Something that
simple--something that everyone had already told me--wouldn't have made him
seek me out here.
Shaking his head, he answered with obvious reluctance. "It
sounds ridiculous. But the archaic tradition he's talking about ... In many
pagan religions, the, er, marriage of certain parties--king and queen, priest
and priestess--symbolized the joining of male and
395
female deities to bless the earth. Make it abundant and
prosperous."
I couldn't believe he didn't spontaneously combust explaining
that. My face flamed with embarrassment-- I got that "er,
marriage" wasn't referring to the legal ceremony. But slowly the heat
drained away, as what he was saying sank to the pit of my stomach.
"So ... there's a real basis for this superstition?"
He demurred with a frown. "I don't know about real.
"I mean historical." I don't know why that made it seem
less silly and annoying, less dismissible.
"What you're going for," said the reverend, "is
that there is a basis in folklore."
Folklore. Hexen. Witchcraft. People of Holzphaffel and
Hannah's day hadn't just thought a Davis/Maddox union was lucky, but something
more than that. Something magical.
I stroked Gigi's fur with one hand and traced the cover of the
book with the other. I found myself picturing the mazelike pattern of my garden
circle and remembering what Professor Griffith said about the plants there, and
their lore.
"May I borrow this?" I asked, indicating the book.
"Certainly." He slid it toward me. "That's why I brought
it to you. I figured you'd want to read more of Hannah's story."
"Reverend ... ," I began hesitantly, "you don't
believe this hexen idea, do you? That there's some kind of magic at work
when a Davis and Maddox get together?"
Contemplating his answer, he said, "I don't know
396
what to tell you, except there's power in belief. So tread
carefully, Sylvie."
His carefully phrased warning didn't ease my mind. Was it that far
a stretch from the notion of ghostly echoes to the spine-chilling idea of
magic? Maybe not sword-and-sorcery stuff, but the subtle influencing of events?
Gigi licked my face, and I realized I'd said goodbye to the
reverend and hardly noticed he'd left. I was sure that made a great impression.
I'd not noticed a lot of things. Like how my guard came down and
my uneasiness disappeared while I'd been sitting with the council. How the sway
that Shawn had over people really was more than his charm could account for.
Gigi pawed my knee. In a distracted daze, I set her on the ground,
slipped the reverend's journal into her carrier tote and walked her to a strip
of grass beside the bank, away from the crowds. I wished I was back in my
garden, where I could take off my shoes. My control was fisted tight around too
many emotions--fear and disbelief and hysteria. If I loosened the knot even a
little, they might all come bursting out, and then I would end up in a
mental ward.
The summer sun was sinking slowly, painting everything in a golden
glow. Methodically I traced the pattern of inexplicable events to their
beginning. What was the first thing? The aproned woman in the kitchen?
The scent of lilacs in my room? Or the shadow at the window?
With a start, I realized I had to go back further than that. To
Central Park. What had changed that night?
397
I cast through my very fuzzy memory. I'd been loaded. I'd been
talking about my dad. I said something stupid about believing in magic, and
then demonstrated--
My knees folded up under me, and I sat down hard on the curb. Gigi
ran to me and jumped in my lap, anxiously licking my chin, and I hardly
noticed.
The world as I knew it didn't change that night. I did,
when I'd admitted--sheepishly, jokingly, with only a small part of myself--that
magic could be real.
Superstition, ghosts, magic. What linked these things together?
Was it me, or was it Alabama, or was it both?
398
***
Chapter 26
When I returned to the TTC table, I must have looked convincingly
wan, because no one questioned me when I said I needed to go home. Kimberly in
particular was solicitous, offering to chauffeur me, but of course Shawn
insisted.
I stayed quiet on the drive, petting Gigi and thinking. The
late-afternoon glow had turned to purple dusk, and Shawn switched on the
headlights in the shadows of the tree-lined road. He was savvy enough to let
the silence stand, but at the turnoff to the Hill, he finally spoke. "I
hope Kimberly didn't upset you."
399
That was an unexpected tack, and I glanced at him in surprise.
"Why would she upset me?"
"I saw y'all talking, and ... well, I know you're touchy
about the ghost thing."
"I'm touchy"--anger got the better of my sense, but it
was good to feel something besides dazed and confused--"because you keep
putting words in my mouth, telling people I've seen things."
"Do I?" His brow wrinkled in confusion. "I thought
you said you did."
That might have worked, made me doubt myself, if Addie hadn't
tried the exact same thing. "I know I didn't." Say it, that is.
"Are you trying to make people think I'm crazy? Or maybe just a little
kooky?"
He did a double take between me and the curving road. "Why
would I want to do that?"
My sense of self-preservation kicked in before I blurted my first
thought. If it got around that I saw ghosts, then I would be the girl who cried
wolf if I ever tried to tell anyone that a bunch of high school students were
influencing the success of the Maddox Point development. And that was without
mentioning magic.
But if I said that aloud, I might as well go jump in the river
myself. So I said, convincingly, "I have no idea."
Pulling the truck into his usual spot at the side of the house, he
set the parking brake and turned to me. We were out of sight of any of the
windows, and the deepening twilight made the cab seem more close, more intimate.
"Can I walk you in?"
The low rumble in his voice implied something more lingering than
a handshake on the porch.
400
I counted cars, and seized on an excuse. "Paula's here. And
my leg really hurts, Shawn. It's been a long day."
"All right." He picked up a strand of hair that had
escaped from my ponytail, and twirled it around his finger. "I just don't
want to end our first date on an argument."
"It's our second date," I said thoughtlessly. Stupidly.
He grinned, and I realized my mistake.
"In that case," he said, and leaned forward, with a
slow, tempting smile--tempting in spite of everything-- and brushed my
lips with his.
Gigi stirred in my lap and sat up, putting a puppy barrier between
us. Willful, wonderful dog.
Shawn sat back with a disappointed laugh, and I opened the truck
door, trying not to look like I was making a break for it, running from him,
and from my own reaction to him.
"I'll call you about going out to the Point this week,"
Shawn said, when I'd extracted Gigi and myself from the truck. "And maybe
we can talk about the TTC."
That stopped the "don't call me, I'll call you" on my
lips. "What about it?"
"Well, I know you're not here for long." He propped a
hand on the steering wheel, still turned to face me. "But I hope you'll be
back to visit. Maybe you'd like to have some say in how things go here."
I was too stunned to say anything more committal than "Maybe."
"Great." Shawn flashed his smile, and released the
401
parking brake. I closed the truck door, and wondered what the hell
that invitation meant.
***
Everyone was in their usual spots around the table when I came
in--Clara and Paula, Rhys and his dad. The kettle was steaming, the tea
canisters were out and it was all very domestic and cozy. The adults watched me
with a paternal sort of expectation that would have been amusing if I didn't
feel like someone had wrung out all my emotions and left me as limp as one of
Clara's dishrags.
Rhys looked me over critically, but before I could register more
than that, Gigi ran in behind me and made a flying leap into Professor
Griffith's lap.
"Sylvie!" barked Paula, about to harp on me about the
dog. But after another glance at me, she softened her tone. "Lord, honey.
You look done in. I'll bet today was just too much for your leg."
Clara put her hands on the table to push herself up. "Come
sit down. I'll make you some tea."
Crap. I must have looked as bad as I felt. It wasn't my leg,
though it did ache. I was completely spent, like I'd done three shows in a day.
But in a way, I'd been onstage since the church bell rang that morning.
"I'll make it," I told her. "Then, if you don't
mind, I'll take it upstairs and go to bed."
"That's an excellent idea," said Paula. "A warm
drink and an early turn-in."
Her agreement was a little pointed, but she didn't
402
need to worry about nocturnal wanderings. No ghost chasing for me
tonight. At least, not in the woods. I planned to read more of Hannah's diary,
and maybe the reverend's. If I could keep my eyes open long enough.
Rhys followed me on the pretense of refilling his own cup, though
from his father's passing smile, he wasn't fooling anyone. At least, not about
the fact he wanted to talk to me. While I refilled the kettle, he stood close
by, letting the running water cover his voice. "How was your date?"
As tired as I was, I managed to find the retort I wished I'd made
that morning. "You know, it's not as if you gave me a reason to turn Shawn
down. Like, say, asking me yourself."
He grimaced ruefully. "By the time I thought of that, it was
too late."
"Nice." I was glad to know that asking me out wasn't
something that leapt quickly to his mind. The bruise to my ego made me cranky.
"For someone so concerned about me, you were nowhere to be seen this
afternoon."
His gaze slid from mine, and he became very intent on opening the
tin of cookies on the counter. "I had something to do." Then he
looked at me again, gaze narrowing. "What happened to 'I can swim, don't
worry about me'?"
How did I admit that I'd had no idea how deep the waters were
without inviting an "I told you so"? Besides, it wasn't just depths,
it was riptides and maybe sharks. That was a lot to deal with.
403
"Your kettle is overflowing," he said, interrupting my
thoughts.
I said a word that made Paula chide me from the table. Setting the
kettle on the flame to boil, I turned back to Rhys. "I don't suppose
you're going to tell me where you were."
"Not rock hunting." He took a mug from the cabinet and
handed it to me. I dropped in a tea bag, then handed him one for his own
refill.
It was a small thing, but we moved as if completing each other's
motions. If Shawn and I were supposed to be some kind of Davis/Maddox superteam,
why did this feel so natural?
Rhys was asking me a question. "Did you learn anything that
was worth eating catfish for?"
"Nothing is worth eating catfish for." A nice evasion, I
thought. But from his expression, not an effective one. I glanced at the table
to make sure the adults were caught up in their own conversation. "Why are
you asking me, when you obviously know everything?"
"If I knew everything," he said, "you wouldn't be
such a huge variable."
I found enough energy to be outraged at the unfairness of that.
"That makes me this kettle and you a pot." The kettle wasn't black,
but he took my point.
It occurred to me that maybe I wasn't asking the right questions.
Given the incredible possibilities I was juggling, maybe I needed to be
wondering not what he knew, but how.
At the table, Professor Griffith talked in his lilting accent
about his theory that the settlers he was looking
404
for had integrated into the tribes of Kansas and the Mississippi
Valley. I listened absently until the simmering of the water on the stove
drowned him out, then turned to Rhys, knowing the sound would hide our voices,
too.
"How do you know there's something weird up with the
TTC?" I asked softly, reaching for one of the cookies in the tin as an
excuse to stay close and keep my voice down.
His look said I wasn't as subtle as I thought. "Because I
have eyes, and ears. And a bit of horse sense. You knew there was
something out of kilter, even before I said anything."
Yes, but my mind didn't leap to supernatural possibilities. It
still wasn't quite making the stretch. But was his?
Just to see what he would say, I swallowed a bite of cookie, then
casually mentioned, "Shawn talked about my joining the TTC meetings while
I'm here."
Rhys's gaze sharpened to a razor's edge. "Don't," he
said, a clipped demand, all teasing gone. I froze, not just with shock, but
with a tremor of something darker. The single word was harsh, and it seemed to
come from the deeper part of himself that he was so careful to keep hidden.
Something in my immobile face made him twitch, as if cursing himself,
and he continued, just as urgently, but without the iron edge of a command.
"Sylvie, do not get involved any more than you already are. I know it must
seem to you like kids just messing about with stuff, but it's not."
405
I stared at him, a piercing alarm going off in my ear and twisting
the muscles of my shoulders into knots. His words confirmed everything and
nothing, and raised new specters to compete with my fear of the Colonel.
"Sylvie!" Paula's voice cut through the sound, and I
realized it was real. "For heaven's sake, turn off the kettle!"
With a shaking hand that echoed my rattled emotions, I turned off
the flame on the stove, and the whistle faded out. Placing my hands on the
counter, I let out a trembling breath and the part of my tension caused by the
scream of the kettle. My back to the adults at the table, I let their resumed
conversation cover my whispered question.
"Kid stuff. Like magic?"
I couldn't believe I'd said that aloud. If he laughed or called me
out for being nuts, I didn't know what I would do. I didn't look at him, but
his stillness was its own answer in a way. Then he reached across me and filled
my cup as he spoke in my ear. "Stay out of it, Sylvie. I don't want
anything to happen to you."
His breath stirred my hair, and I shivered as he moved away. Dimly
I heard him saying goodnight and excusing himself. I may have said something
automatically, keeping up the act of normalcy until I could get to my room and
finally let down my guard.
I believed he didn't want me to be hurt, but there were a lot more
people than me involved. I'd been assuming the council had been doing something
bad, and Rhys knew about it. He and Shawn were obviously
406
in opposition somehow, and I'd figured that meant one was
"bad" and one was "good." But they could be good and less
good. Or bad and less bad.
From the beginning, my connection to Rhys had been eerie and
inexplicable--the familiarity, and dizzying attraction, and heightened swing of
my emotions around him. I'd suspected Shawn's charm of hiding his motives, but
what about Rhys?
Maybe I really couldn't trust anyone.
"Sylvie, honey, are you going to stare at that tea until it's
cold?" asked my cousin.
I was too numb with fatigue and confusion to be irritated at her
for scolding me like a stern governess. "No, ma'am."
"Why don't you go to bed if you're so tired?"
That was a great idea. Saying goodnight, I picked up my mug and
called for Gigi. She bounced off the professor's lap; he and Clara said
goodnight, sounding sympathetic for what I suppose must have looked like
complicated romantic problems. I followed Gigi's plumed tail up the stairs,
where she checked the halls for me, the advance guard against ghosts.
There was no chill on the landing, and I thanked heaven for small
favors, then went into my room and closed the door against the world.
407
***
Chapter 27
When Gigi woke me in the morning, my first thought wasn't about
magic, or about Rhys or Shawn, or how much my romantic troubles were tied up in
the mysteries of Bluestone Hill, or what that had to do with the ghosts, if
anything. It was about my garden.
Sunday had been the first day I'd spent no time at all there. I'd
become used to the invigoration of digging in the dirt, re-creating the
generations-old pattern. Not to mention the almost meditative calm it gave me.
If I could figure things out at all it would be in the garden.
408
I dressed hurriedly, anxious to get downstairs and to work--almost
as anxious as Gigi, who was impatient for her morning pee, especially since
we'd gone to bed so early. I grabbed my copied drawings and notes--
satisfyingly grubby by now--and cast a quick, guilty look at the desk, where
I'd set Reverend Holzphaffel's journal on top of the other books I'd
accumulated. Hannah's journal was still hidden in the drawer. I promised Hannah
that a few hours of work in the garden would make me much better able to
concentrate on her mystery, and headed downstairs.
However, I hadn't counted on the rain.
The drizzle started as soon as Gigi had finished her business. The
light coat of moisture didn't seem to bother her, so we went to the knot garden,
where she flopped at the base of the rock and rolled in the wet herbs.
The bluestone lived up to its name when it was wet, turning a dark
slate color. Did it live up to the rest of its hype? Electromagnetic potential,
mystical energy, lines of spiritual force making a web on the earth--what did
those things have to do with ghosts and magic?
Think, Sylvie. With the exception of the incident in Central
Park, I only saw and sensed things here at the Hill and in Old Cahawba, and
they were so close I might as well think of them together. So there was
something about this place.
But there was something about me, too. That was why Shawn was so
excited by my arrival, and why Rhys was so confused when I knew nothing about
the Hill. He must have expected that I'd arrive and meddle
409
with--whatever he was doing. I just wished I knew what it was I
was supposed to be able to do.
Everything about Bluestone Hill went back generations. Maybe to
figure out my story, I first needed to figure out Hannah's.
"Sylvie Davis!" I jumped when Paula yelled at me from
the porch. The startled slam of my pulse almost drowned out her annoyingly
predictable admonition. "Don't you even think about gardening in the rain.
Do you want to catch your death?"
Definitely not. And I didn't want her irritated with me, either.
So I called back, "I'm coming, Cousin Paula," in an obedient voice.
It looked like I'd be spending the morning in my room with Hannah
after all.
***
In a way, reading Hannah's journal was as absorbing as working in
the garden. When Gigi whined and scratched at the door, I had to blink myself
back to the present, disoriented by the modern things in the room.
I'd started reading the entries where I'd left off, about a
quarter of the way in, and just a few months before the end of the war. Hannah
didn't write every day, and the whole journal covered the last six years of her
life. The older she got, the more interesting her entries, though they remained
frustratingly vague about the things I wanted to know most.
Gigi became insistent. The rain had stopped, and I
410
knew that walking the dog would force me to stretch my legs and
work the kinks out of my back.
My knotted muscles were going to require more exercise than a
stroll to the garden. I put on my sneakers and grabbed Gigi's leash, a plan
already half-formed. Figuring Paula might have something to say about my
heading out into the woods, even in the daytime, I avoided her on the way out.
Following the forest's edge made a longer walk to Old Cahawba, but it meant I
didn't have to pay such close attention to my feet. After some of the things
I'd read, I had a lot to think about.
Hannah didn't have one suitor, she had two. She referred to them
rather unhelpfully as E_ M_ and J_ M_ Reading between the lines, I'd figured
out that EM was probably Ethan Maddox, referred to in Reverend Holzphaffel's
journal. Hannah's own entries told me that JM was his brother. I was almost to
the end of her story, and I still didn't know which of them was The One. Late
in the tale, about nine months before her last entry, she merely wrote of
seeing "him" today, or of meeting "him" on the street.
However, E and J had their own story. They fought side by side in
the war, but now--Hannah's now, which, even as I walked through the woods,
following the plume of Gigi's tail, seemed slightly more real than my own
time--the brothers hated each other. It didn't seem to be merely romantic
competition, either. Hannah wrote how much it troubled her that whole families
of men and boys were lost (her brothers, for
411
instance) to the battlefield, and E and J couldn't stop their
fighting.
Gigi and I reached a dirt road with an open gate-- the entrance to
Old Cahawba. The rain hadn't been hard enough to turn the road to mud, but it
made the red earth sticky, turning Gigi's white feet to a rusty tan that
matched the rest of her.
The road led to the fenced "new" cemetery. Dr. Young had
explained there was an "old" graveyard on the other side of the ghost
town, where, even in death, the residents were segregated. I glimpsed Dr. Young
with a couple of tourists, giving them his spiel. He waved when he saw me, but
I didn't interrupt. I knew what I was looking for.
When he was free, he joined me at the Maddox plot. I'd found Ethan
Maddox. He died an old guy in 1895. But I saw no J. Maddox born near the same
time. Which didn't necessarily mean that I had been the one to run off
on Hannah. He could have left, or Ethan could have returned, after the fact.
"Hey, little lady," said Dr. Young, then bent to pet
Gigi, so I wasn't sure which of us he meant. "You're not limping today, I
see."
I realized that was true, despite the long walk. Of course, I had
taken the more level path, which was much easier on my leg. And as I pointed
out to him, "It's worst when I'm tired or the weather is changing."
He chuckled. "Well, you must be in a different climate than
me. There's a front blowing in a storm up north of us, and all my joints are
aching today." He gave Gigi a last pat, then stood stiffly, proving
412
his point. "But enough of that. Here for the rest of the
tour?"
On a different day, I would have indulged him, and myself, with
the full history lesson, but I was on a mission. "Actually, I have a
question for you. Though I wouldn't mind seeing more of the site while you
answer."
"Excellent. I haven't been to check on the dig today. We can
ride over together if you like."
"Great." We started toward the cemetery gate. Though it
was hard to forget the eerier aspects of our problems, the exercise of
deciphering the puzzle of Hannah's story had steadied my mind, and I was eager
to fill the gaps in my knowledge.
"So my question is this: What's a scalawag?" The Colonel
had called J that, which hurt Hannah greatly. "I gather it's not a nice
thing."
"Oh, no. A scalawag was worse than a carpetbagger." At
my blank look he explained, "A carpetbagger--Reconstructionist is the nice
term--was an opportunistic Northerner who came down after the Civil War had
yanked the foundations out from under folks here. Not only did the war tear up
the land and decimate families, the entire economy had been destroyed."
"By emancipation of the slaves," I said pointedly, in case
he was one of those Southerners.
He chuckled. "Don't take that tone. I'm just telling you the
facts. It was a rough time."
I knew this from reading Hannah's journal. Her own situation
hadn't been helped by her father coming
413
home from the war a bitter, broken man. Not that he'd been a
sweetheart before.
"So," I prompted as we reached the truck and Dr. Young
opened the door for me, "carpetbaggers bought up land for pennies and made
a fortune on the South's misery."
"Right." He closed my door, walked around and got behind
the wheel, then continued as if he hadn't paused. "A scalawag was a
Southerner who helped the carpetbaggers."
I processed this in light of what Hannah had written, factoring in
the complex emotions of the loser of a war forced to rely on the winner to
rebuild the states they'd toasted in the first place. "So, if a
Confederate veteran was a scalawag, then a loyal Southern gentleman, like
Colonel Davis, for example, might not like him courting his daughter."
Dr. Young laughed in disbelief. "He'd have to have cojones
of solid brass just to try." He glanced at me as he backed up the
truck and pulled onto the road. "Where did you get all this?"
"Just some family papers."
I knew he'd be fascinated by the diary, but I didn't want to share
even the existence of it yet. I felt like I'd been reading Hannah's private
thoughts over her shoulder, and it would be a betrayal of her to gossip about
it. Our problems were different, though with some obvious parallels: liking two
guys, not sure who was in the right. She was strongly drawn to J, the scalawag,
but conflicted about his motivations. She liked E well enough, but he was
entrenched in town
414
politics--including a council that met behind closed doors at the
Hill--and she was unnerved by the expectations, especially from the Colonel,
that she marry him.
Dr. Young turned on Capital, interrupting my thoughts. I shifted
uneasily on the bench seat as we got closer to the site of the old prison.
Gigi, however, was happy standing on my knees, front paws on the dash.
"Tell me about this archaeological dig," I said, to distract myself
from the anticipation of weirdness.
"Oh, there's a group of students from U of A who are doing an
internship. Excavating the foundations of the church by the river."
"I thought Saint Mary's over toward the town was the church
by the river."
"Well, it's a church by a river. Built and paid
for by uppity country families who didn't want to come into town to go to
services." He took his eyes off the road long enough to wink at me as he
turned east, away from the prison site.
I relaxed considerably at the change in direction, and saw a large
excavation--it looked like a basement-- where at one end two guys and a girl
were working with trowels and screens to dig and shift through the dirt.
"I guess Rhys isn't here today," said Dr. Young.
He'd been absent from the kitchen when I'd come in from the rain,
and I hadn't seen him upstairs. I hadn't checked to see if the rental car was
there, either.
"What does a geologist do at an archaeological dig?" I
asked as the truck pulled to a stop, glad he'd given me an opening.
415
"He isn't totally useless," Dr. Young said with a grin.
"Besides the extra hands, it's nice to have someone with an eye for
telling when a stone is part of the foundation, and when it's just a
rock." Climbing out of the truck he called over to the students, "You
didn't have any trouble with the rain, did you?"
I got out too, noting the wet tarps over to one side. When I put
Gigi on the ground, she ran to the edge of the pit, much too interested in the
digging.
The girl, a blonde with short wisps of hair poking out of her
baseball cap, looked at the dog askance, then at me. I recognized her from the
Catfish Festival, mostly because she was giving me the dagger eye again, barely
hidden as Dr. Young provided an introduction. "Annabeth, this is Sylvie
Davis. She's a friend of Rhys's. Sylvie, this is Annabeth, Rob and Steve."
"Hi." I waved, feeling awkward under their curious
stares.
"We saw you yesterday," said Rob, as if he'd placed me
in his mental database. "You're that visiting girl who's dating Shawn
Maddox."
I inhaled slowly for patience, rolling my lips in between my teeth.
Before I could collect myself to politely correct him, Annabeth spoke.
"You know, you could tell your boyfriend that if he really
gives a crap about nature, he should think about what that boat dock and what
all he's planning will do to the river."
"He's not my boyfriend," I said coldly, which I'm sure
didn't make a good impression. "But you're welcome to tell me what
the hell you're talking about."
416
She gestured vaguely. "The Cahaba River is the most
ecologically diverse waterway in North America. There are plants growing there
that don't grow anywhere else in the world. And your friend wants to put
motorboats on it.
"I did not know that." Her words had distracted me from
my irritation at her tone. "About the river, I mean."
My response seemed to take some of the wind out of her sails, and
her scowl lessened slightly. "More people would, if the ecological
surveyor who came here to rate the impact of the proposed building had finished
his report before he got laid up."
I looked at Dr. Young. "The guy who broke his leg was an
environmental impact surveyor?"
"Yes indeed." He brushed the dirt off his hands.
"The ecology of a place can be delicate. Get one thing out of balance, and
you could have a disaster."
"Like floods and yellow fever?" I asked, thinking of the
region's turbulent natural history.
"Could be," said Annabeth.
"That's a big extreme," countered Dr. Young, though he
looked impressed I'd been paying attention. "However, a lot of little
things could lead to a big thing in ways we don't even realize." He gave
Annabeth a stern grandfatherly look. "But I didn't bring Sylvie over here
to get a lecture."
She and Rob both laughed, breaking the tension, and Dr. Young
sheepishly admitted, "Not a scolding one, anyway."
Annabeth got out of the pit, carrying a box with a
417
screen bottom. "Sorry, Sylvie. I get a little hot about
environmental issues. Still, you might put in a polite word with your
boyfriend."
"I might," I said testily, despite the genuineness of
her apology, "if you stop calling him that, since he's not."
She laughed and said, "Deal," taking me at my word, then
led the way to a folding table nearby, where an array of rocks and brick was
laid out, many with tags and numbers. "Want the nickel tour? We're basically
excavating the basement of the church."
Over her shoulder, I could see the crumbling brick chimney through
the trees. "Has there been any excavation of the old prison?"
She frowned. "That would be a big, expensive project. I'd
love to be on it, though!" She shouted that toward Dr. Young, who waved to
show he'd heard.
I sort of liked Annabeth's direct personality now that she wasn't
scowling at me and painting me with Shawn's brush. What I didn't like was the
shiver that ran down my back as I thought about digging in that particular
ground.
Hannah had written about the prison, and her youthful language and
ladylike reticence had made her horror both stark and evocative. Even thinking
about it now, in the humid afternoon, I felt an echo of the fingers of cold
that had gripped me in that empty spot. The shadow of the chimney seemed to
stretch toward me, like it would pull me back into that well.
Hiding a shiver, I realized that, imagination aside, the shadows were
lengthening. "I should be heading to
418
the Hill. My cousin will have kittens if I'm not back well before
dark."
"Do you need a ride home?" asked Dr. Young.
"Thanks, but not this time." As he'd mentioned, my leg
was holding up well. And the walk would give me more time to think. "I'd
like to come back sometime, though. For that nickel tour," I added to
Annabeth.
She grinned. "We can use an extra pair of hands. Rhys has
been busy with his dad's project, and hasn't been logging many hours. Of
course, he's not earning college credit."
I caught myself before I blurted out, "Really?" Because
Old Cahawba had been his stated destination every morning, at least that I
could recall. Had it only been an excuse for his rock hunting? Or was he up to
something else?
"Speaking of college hours," said Dr. Young, joining us
at the worktable, "let's see what you've got, Annabeth."
I took that as my cue to exit. I said goodbye and left them to
their work.
***
Paula was livid when I got back. "Where have you been?"
she demanded from the stairs of the back porch. "I've been worried sick
about you."
I was too surprised to be as angry at this over-reaction as I
ordinarily would. "Why? I just walked out to Old Cahawba. And I had my
phone."
The part about the phone made her blink, since she
419
clearly hadn't thought to call me. Then she heated back up.
"You couldn't have told me you were going?"
Now irritation began to overtake confusion. "I left a note.
What's the big deal?"
She huffed, mirroring my annoyance, but I suspected some of it was
aimed at herself. She'd flown off the handle, and I'd acted responsibly. Well,
relatively. I could have told her I was going.
"Someone broke into the office trailer out at Maddox
Point," she said. "That kind of thing just doesn't happen around
here, not by local people. So no wandering in the woods by yourself. Not even
in the daytime."
This news tumbled my thoughts around like leaves in the wind. I
answered with an absent "Sure, Paula" and tried to remember where
Rhys had said he was yesterday. Not at the Catfish Festival like everyone else
in town, that was for sure.
Gigi bounded up the stairs, dirty from our walk, and Paula didn't
even comment, so I knew she was distracted. "Was anything taken?" I
asked.
My lack of argument to her order to stay out of the woods seemed
to have calmed her down, and she shook her head. "They think it might have
been a drifter looking for money. They don't keep any out there. And a good
thing, too."
I was baffled. What were the odds of a random break-in, with
nothing taken? And obviously no one local would have robbed the Maddoxes, of
all people. But what could Rhys have possibly wanted from the Maddox Point
office?
420
My feelings could have been lifted from Hannah' journal. She liked
J, and if he was a scalawag, she wanted to believe it was for the best of
reasons. What ever Rhys was up to, I wanted to believe he was in the right
somehow. But how could I trust him when hi never gave me an explanation for any
of his actions?
421
***
Chapter 28
I finished reading Hannah's journal that night. It was as
dissatisfying as a mystery novel with no ending, as unsettling as a symphony
that doesn't resolve to a final chord.
Turning back a few pages from the ambiguous last entry, I read again
her disjointed description of the "spectre of a disheveled man in a blue
uniform" that she'd seen while cutting through the woods from Cahawba. Her
handwriting--never that great--showed her tremors, as did her admission that
she attributed the incident to her "condition."
422
Her prose had been extremely circumspect about her love life. She
wrote in veiled references and no detail. This was the only indication that she
was, as I had wildly guessed, pregnant.
Back in the chair, I stared out the window, the moonlit woods
superimposed with the reflection of my own face, pinched with worry for a girl
long dead.
Not only did she not indicate who the father was, she didn't even
describe any kind of baby-making interlude. What girl keeps a diary and doesn't
write about her first time?
I got up again, leaned over the desk and opened the window. It
wasn't just reading Hannah's troubles that was putting me on edge. There was
something about the night, the full moon on the river, the wind in the trees.
There were three ghosts. The Colonel. The girl in the
woods--Hannah, I corrected myself. And the wailing cry of an infant. What did
it mean? That the baby had died with her? Or was it crying for her?
Maybe that was why I couldn't face Reverend Holzphaffel's journal
before I went to sleep. If Hannah had, by her suicide, abandoned her baby, I
didn't want to know.
***
Naturally, since I expected something extraordinary to happen now
that my suspicions were boiling, and Rhys--or someone--had stirred the pot by
messing with Shawn's precious Maddox Point project, and I was
423
poking under the rocks of the family history, the house and even
the woods stayed calm through the night.
It was unnerving, like waiting for a storm you know is coming,
know is only going to build more strength the longer it takes to arrive.
In the morning I dressed in my least dirty gardening jeans and
brought the others down to put in the washer. With Gigi trotting beside me, I
entered the kitchen to find Clara alone, putting away the last of the dishes.
"Good morning, sleepyhead. Throw those clothes in the laundry
basket and I'll wash them for you."
"Oh, you don't have to do that," I said. "I
wouldn't offer if I minded."
I tossed the clothes in the basket on the porch, opened the door
for Gigi and came back into the kitchen. "Where is everybody?"
She waved a hand at the empty air. "Paula is in town buying
paint, the professor is at work in his room, and Rhys is off doing what Rhys
does."
The comment started my usual round of internal arguments. What was
he doing, what were his motives, why the hell wouldn't he tell me unless he had
something to hide? By the time I got a carton of yogurt out of the
refrigerator, my head hurt from all the arguing.
I worked in the garden all morning. Feeling driven, I channeled
all my emotion into pulling weeds and cutting vines. The reverend's journal
waited for me upstairs, but Hannah's problems were too tangled with my own, and
I needed a respite from that for a little while.
424
And I had catching up to do. Though I'd squeezed in some work
before sundown, I'd lost most of the previous day to the rain and my walk to
Cahawba. Not to mention the time I'd spent with Hannah in the past.
Eventually, Clara made me stop for lunch. Paula and the professor
had already eaten, so I wiped Gigi's feet (and mine) and we both came in, safe
from my cousin's dislike of dogs.
"That's enough work for the day," Clara said firmly as
she set a bowl of minestrone soup in front of me, a piece of fresh bread beside
it.
"I just have a little more to do," I said, washing down
a bite with some iced tea. I was surprised how much progress I'd made in just a
week, but this close to being done, it pained me to stop, even to eat.
Clara left her stove and stood across from me, arms folded.
"Girl, you don't have to prove anything. Paula thinks hard work would cure
the devil, so bugging you is the only way she knows to show she cares."
That explained a lot. I bet she'd never had a puppy as a kid,
either. Still, I couldn't help but be a bit touched, feeling the truth in what
Clara said.
"Okay," I agreed. "I just want to finish uncovering
the stone. I'm so close to being done with the center section."
Sweeping away my empty bowl, Clara said, "Don't you have
something else you could be doing this afternoon, other than obsessing over
that garden?"
Was I obsessing? Maybe, but as long as I was working on the garden
I didn't have to think about solving mysteries. Not Hannah's, not Rhys's, not
my own.
425
"Just a little bit more," I promised, going to the
fridge for a refill of my iced tea before heading back outside with Gigi.
I was up to my elbows in meadowsweet when the dog barked an alert
that someone was coming. I turned to see Shawn Maddox in the gap between the
hedges.
"Well, now I'm glad I didn't call before I came over,"
he said with a smile. His gaze took in all the work I'd done--a lot in a few
days--and fastened with interest on the standing stone in the center, over half
clear of vines now and catching tiny flecks of sunlight. "You're almost
finished."
"Finished clearing, anyway," I said, that possessive
feeling creeping over me again. "What are you doing here?"
"I came to ask if you wanted to go to the Point," he
said, dragging his eyes from the rock and looking at me with a low-wattage
smile. "But I don't want to take you away from your work. I can see you're
up to your knees."
It was a feeble joke, since I was kneeling in the greenery.
"I hope you didn't drive all the way out here without calling."
"Nope. This is on the way to the Point and I had to go
anyway." He came a few steps further in. Gigi got up with a stretch and
walked over to sniff his shoes. Shawn squatted way down to pet her, and I tried
not to be charmed by the picture. Big, handsome guy, bent double to pet a
little bitty dog ...
Watch it, Sylvie. Though I had to admit, he didn't need any
special powers to charm me through my dog.
426
"I mostly just wanted to talk to you for a bit." Nodding
to the bench, he said, "Want to take a break?"
"Okay." I climbed to my feet and moved my diagrams out
of the way so we could sit. The action gave me a moment to make sure I didn't
sound too wary, or too eager, to find out what he wanted to say. "What did
you want to talk about? You mentioned something about the TTC."
His mouth curved in the softest version of his smile. "Sort
of." He sat beside me, and I didn't realize until too late that the bench
was a little small for him, me and the way he made me feel. "I have this
feeling, Sylvie, that something happened yesterday that put you off the
council." He paused with an uncharacteristic vulnerability. "Or maybe
just me."
I rubbed at the grass stains on my jeans, looking for an honest
answer, so he wouldn't see through a lie. "It was overwhelming, Shawn. The
town, all the attention."
"You don't really think the TTC is doing wrong, do you?
Helping get Maddox Point off the ground?"
Prickles of unease started up my neck, but I tried to hide them
with a casual shrug. "What's the big deal about a little campaigning?
Stuffing flyers in mailboxes, that sort of thing."
Shawn's laugh surprised me. "Can't you think of anything
bigger? More off the chart? I know that someone must have said something to
you, because suddenly you looked at us like we had a three-headed dog guarding
our clubhouse."
His candid tone drew my gaze to his. "What do you mean,
bigger?" I asked, as if I didn't know.
427
"Like ... you and me." His eyes were all confirmation
and warmth and persuasion. "And what we could do together."
I watched him warily, wondering where he was going with this new
honesty tactic. "You mean, the superstition."
"What if it was true?" He rubbed his thumb over the back
of my hand. "But not just good luck. What if we could make good things
happen for people?"
"You mean, like, grant wishes?" I was distracted by the
stroke of his thumb on my skin. It lulled my curiosity, the way I lulled Gigi
to sleep by petting her belly.
"Maybe not automatically or overnight." Switching his
grip, he interlaced our fingers. "Davis and Maddox. Not every generation,
but sometimes, when the timing works out, we can do incredible things here.
Make this place what it once was. A center of things."
For a breathless moment, his words held me in their spell. Then
Gigi jumped in my lap, and I jerked in surprise, and broke Shawn's gentle grip
on my hand.
"That's nuts," I said, not talking about the
supernatural but the way I'd just sat there, drinking in what he was telling
me. When had I made the leap from magic is possible to magic is reasonable?
Shawn laughed. "I know. Like seeing ghosts, it sounds nuts."
I uneasily remembered my theory about crying wolf. Had Shawn been
establishing plausible deniability so that he could talk about these things to
me, and I couldn't tell anyone?
"What are you saying, Shawn?" It was a demand
428
for him to be straight with me. Gigi's body seemed very warm in my
arms. It made me realize how cold my skin had gotten. No ghostly chill--it was
coming from inside.
"I'm not saying anything." He stood, casually turning to
walk out of the gap in the hedges as he fired one last shot. "Except that
you should think about it a day or two. If there was such a thing as
magic, what would you do with it?"
I didn't need a day or two to know that. The answer took no
thought, raised no moral dilemma. If it were within my power to do, I'd fix my
leg so I could dance again.
429
***
Chapter 29
Clara finally won the battle, making me stop work in the late
afternoon. I'd come in for some iced tea, and she swore if I didn't quit for
the day, she'd tell Paula I needed that shrink after all. I suspected she was
bluffing, but I didn't want to chance it.
As I closed the fridge, my eye fell on the calendar hung on the
door. Clearly the master schedule. The Catfish Festival was marked, and my
flight arrival. Also final exams, and cheerleading practice. Today's notation
jolted me with wary excitement. "There is a TTC meeting tonight," I
said.
430
"It seems like there's a TTC meeting every night," Clara
answered, but in a singsong, "What's a mom to do about it?" way.
The calendar was loaded with meetings, not necessarily on
the same day of the week or month, but there was always one on the full and new
moons. Tonight's moon was full.
Shawn hadn't mentioned it, despite a clear intention to invite me
eventually, so he either thought I wasn't ready yet, or there was something he
needed to do without me there.
Which meant that I absolutely needed to find out what was going on
at those meetings.
I climbed the stairs slowly, Gigi bounding in front of me. I was
strangely bubbling with energy too, but it was focused on making a plan. I'd
have to act as normal as possible, then sneak out of the house right after
Addie. I was getting better at managing Paula, but Rhys was the unknown factor.
I had a good game face, but this kind of subterfuge wasn't my
strength. Still, a tide of determination carried me forward. I just hoped I
wasn't hurtling over another bluff, because I couldn't rely on anyone to catch
me this time.
***
After dinner, I paced with waiting-backstage impatience in my
room, watching for the arrival of the TTC. I couldn't see where they parked out
on the drive, but I could see the glow of lights through the half-opaque
431
screens of the summerhouse, and I could watch the path Addie would
have to take to join them. When I saw her walking purposefully across the lawn,
I scooped up Gigi and headed for the stairs.
The landing was quiet, and the gap under Rhys's door was dark. I
walked downstairs and oh-so-casually went into the den, where Paula and Clara
were watching TV while darning socks and folding towels, respectively.
Clara glanced at me and kept folding. "Sylvie, your jeans are
in the dryer. So you'll be all set to dirty them up again tomorrow."
"Thank you, Clara." I gestured with my thumb toward the
kitchen. "I'm going to take the dog for a walk, then call it a
night."
"That's a good idea," she said. "After all the work
you did today."
Paula lowered the sock she was darning and looked at me sternly.
"You stay close to the house, after what we talked about, okay?"
Clara snapped a towel open, then brought the corners together.
"She'll be okay. The kids are in the summerhouse for their meeting
tonight. As long as she stays out of the woods, she'll be fine."
I sincerely hoped so. My stomach fluttered nervously, but I kept
my stage face on, asking, as if it didn't matter, "Are the Griffiths still
out?"
The women exchanged glances, Clara's amused and tolerant, Paula's
less so. "I don't keep tabs on them," said Paula, in an "I'm not
your social secretary" tone. "But the professor mentioned they might
be back late."
432
This was good for my plan, so I told myself not to be irked or
disappointed that Rhys seemed to have abandoned me to my choice. He had to know
the TTC was meeting tonight. Wasn't he curious what I would do? Or did he
assume he knew?
First, I had to deal with Paula. If I swallowed her implied
critique without comment, she would know something was up. "I only
asked," I said testily, "because I might have a nice long soak in the
tub after I walk Gigi, and I don't want to feel guilty for tying up the
bath."
Paula gave a long-suffering sigh at my attitude. "Don't use
all the hot water. A second tank is still on the list of improvements for the
place."
Clara just chuckled and said, "Have a nice walk,
Sylvie."
My groundwork laid, I said goodnight and headed to the back of the
house, Gigi tucked under my arm. On the porch, I took a deep breath and slipped
her into her crate. She tilted her head, questioning me, and my heart squeezed,
as if I were leaving her behind for good.
But the only thing worse than splitting up our team was the
thought of putting her in danger. Chihuahuas know no fear, even when they
should. Maybe we had that in common.
"Not this time, girl," I whispered. The position of the
crate would hide her from a casual glance, and the big pile of laundry would
keep Clara busy for a while.
The nervous flutters in my stomach spread to my knees as I left
the concealment of the backyard. I
433
couldn't approach the summerhouse directly, because it was all
open lawn, so I headed for the tree line, moving quickly, but trying not to look
like I was moving stealthily. Once I reached the cover of the trees, I
changed direction.
I snuck up from the river side, away from the door. The soft,
flickering glow in the gazebo was, thankfully, not enough to spill out onto the
surrounding ground. The moon was bright but still low, and I could keep to the
shadows of the trees almost right up to the raised foundation.
Breathing in shallow, silent huffs, I pressed against the peeling
wood, hunkering below floor level so I couldn't be seen, but I could hear the
low drone of voices.
The wordless chant was so eerie and out of place that I almost
doubted my senses. But what lifted the hair on my neck and arms wasn't what I heard,
but what I sensed. This was a ritual sound, full of potential, thick
and opaque somehow, murky as the silt of a river bottom, hiding silent, swift
things below.
It was not kid stuff. I should be feeling satisfied that I
was right, or at least relieved that I wasn't crazy. But as I pressed myself
tightly against the half wall, inches from discovery, my heart pounded like a
timpani.
I could smell candle wax and incense, or something like it.
Burning greens and wood, like the bundle of herbs I'd found. What else was
going on? Somehow it was more frightening not to be able to see but only
imagine. Oh God. Don't let there be snake handling involved.
"All right," said Addie's voice. "We're
convened."
434
This was jarringly matter-of-fact, but the tingle of power still
hung in the air, woven into the smoke and the echo of the chant. And Addie
sounded different. Instead of petulant, her tone reflected the confidence I'd
seen on Sunday.
She continued in the same tone. "Everyone put your intentions
in the bowl. You know what we're supposed to be doing here, so I don't want
anyone putting in something selfish, like a new fishing boat, Jeff. We
all agreed what's best for the town."
A frown knotted my forehead. Really? I'd thought the TTC was just
a cover. If Shawn and the circle were trying to do good by Maddox Landing, then
what was Rhys so bent about?
Someone else spoke, and I thought it might be Jeff, just based on
his tone. "If we burn the slips of paper, how will we know you didn't put
in something for yourself, Addie?"
"Keep on target, people," said Shawn, his voice so deep
with authority I almost didn't recognize it. No boyish Tom Sawyer charm here.
This was powerful and mature, like--I struggled for a comparison--like the
ancient stone in my garden.
"The circle involves trust," he said, and I shivered,
because the surface of his statement was reassuring, but there was a darker
thread beneath. "I put in my paper. I trust you all to stick to the plan.
So let's get on with it."
I could visualize the scene startlingly well, the TTC all putting
their wishes in the pot, like votes at the Vatican. I steeled myself as the
chant began again, the
435
voices of the circle joining a bit raggedly, like you might expect
from a bunch of teens. Then they knit together and intensified, and I heard
Shawn start to speak. I couldn't understand what he was saying, but the words
trailed down my spine like frigid drops of water, spreading the cold of fear.
My pulse beat light and fast under my prickling skin. Anything
seemed possible in the building energy of the night. I started to rise from my
crouch, just to peek, like looking under your bed when you were sure there was
a monster there. I hadn't done more than shift my weight when someone reached
out of the shadows and pulled me back down, covering my mouth as I sucked in a
terrified breath to scream.
"Shh." Rhys whispered in my ear, too softly to carry
through the screen to the circle inside. "Just stay here."
I wasn't going anywhere with his arm holding me so tightly to his
chest that I could feel his heart thudding against my back, as if he was as
afraid as I was. His breath stirred my hair against my face, and I realized how
still the night was.
"You're here," I whispered inanely.
"So are you." He didn't sound angry, though. He sounded
relieved, and I realized that what he meant was "You're not inside."
Shawn's voice continued over the ebb and flow of the chant,
raising gooseflesh on my skin. "What language is that?" In the movies
it was always Latin, but this was different.
Rhys listened for a moment. "Really bastardized Welsh, I
think."
436
"You think?" Wouldn't he know?
"His accent is so bad it might as well be Greek." His
arm tightened around me in warning as the chant paused, as if for collective
breath. I stayed still, muscles braced and tight, until the sound started
again. After his one exhale of relief, Rhys spoke in my ear. "Let's get
out of here."
I didn't argue as he tugged me to my feet, pulling me with him
across the shadowed lawn until we were hidden in the rustic palace of the
towering oaks. The woods seemed to knit around us, but not in the terrifying
way they'd fooled me the other night, when I'd seen Hannah here. This was
comforting shelter, not a claustrophobic maze.
When we were well into the trees, I shook my fingers free of his
grip and came to a stop, panting even though we hadn't run very far or fast.
"What was that?" I asked in a ragged whisper.
Rhys ran a hand over his face, looking almost as shaken as I felt.
"You said it yourself the other night. Magic."
"Thinking it is a lot different than feeling it." My
brain whirred with fight-or-flight adrenaline, trying to hold on to as many
details as possible and fit them into theories, all while dealing with holy
crap, magic is real. "And you know about this stuff? I mean, not just
this here, but--" I made a wide, encompassing gesture, since this was so
much more than I could yet wrap my mind around.
He shook his head, scattered and distracted. "My experience
has been similar but different."
437
"Different how?" My whisper was harsh with demand.
He paced a few steps, then back. "Different like rugby is
from American football."
"Sports analogies aren't going to work for me, Rhys."
With a long exhale, he seemed to collect himself, center his
thoughts on me and the here and now. "They're both about running a ball
through to a goal, but the details are different."
"Like Russian and French schools of ballet." Alike
enough that if you were a novice, you couldn't tell the difference. Football
was football, magic was magic. "But how do you know about this at
all?" We were standing close so we could whisper, and at my question, I
felt his tension step up, even above the stress already vibrating between us.
"Rhys?"
"In Pembrokeshire," he answered shortly. In the
tree-filtered moonlight, it was hard to see his expression. "You said Dad
told you about the mine collapse."
A new wave of shock rushed over me. "That was caused by
magic?"
"Indirectly." His tone was taut with reluctance, as well
as an obvious tight grip on a whole backlog of emotions. "But that's how I
recognized the signs, in the history and the ... the atmosphere here. What
Shawn is doing, it messes with the balance of things."
The air was warm and humid, but my insides were icy, and I wrapped
my arms around my middle. "So even if Shawn and the council are doing good
for the town, it might cause something bad to happen?"
438
He looked at me, still tense, his tone guarded, his shoulders
braced. "Do you think Shawn is doing right?"
Some part of me still wanted to think that Shawn's intentions were
good. But put to the question, I had to say, "No."
From what I'd overheard, there was room for selfish requests,
though Shawn clearly held the reins tight, with Addie his second in command.
But even if everyone asked for things with no downside, what if something bad
had to happen to bring it about? Something like--an awful realization curdled
in my stomach--a surveyor falling in the river.
"Oh my God." I looked at Rhys, who waited, expectantly,
warily, for me to work things out. The bruises on his face had almost healed,
but I could see them vividly in my mind's eye. What if it was magically
expedient to have Rhys out of the way too?
"And you thought I could be involved with this?" My
voice rose indignantly, and I wrestled it back down to a whisper.
Rhys leaned forward, matching my challenging-- but quiet--tone.
"What was I supposed to think, with Shawn awaiting your arrival like you
were his ordained priestess. That's why Addie hates you so much. You were meant
to take her place."
"I didn't know any of this," I protested.
"Which I realized," he said, in that too-patient way
that betrayed his impatience. "Except that you were so obviously hiding something."
I stiffened, amazed there was any room in my
439
tangled emotions for hurt or offense. "I thought I was losing
my mind, with all the things going on here. Like you, being all
secretive--"
Rhys caught my arm and I broke off with a startled gasp. "Let
me finish, Sylvie." He stepped close, where he could speak in an unvoiced
whisper. "You started working in the garden, and I saw the way it thrived
and how you were flourishing too, and it seemed impossible that you could not
know who you were and what you could do."
"What are you talking about?" Frustration and fear
tumbled together in my head. I was so confused, and his words were sprouting
buried insights--the way I could sooth my anger with my hands in the earth,
weed by touch, bring the garden back to life.
Rhys watched the play of realization on my face, and when I met
his gaze, he asked gently, "Sylvie, have you even noticed you're not
limping anymore?"
My mouth opened to speak, but there were no words.
His hand still grasped my arm, but lightly, and his thumb stroked
the inside of my wrist in a way that perhaps he meant to be soothing, but
which, with his words, sent shudders of reaction to the heart of me.
"There is magic here. Shawn is using it through his circle of
friends. You're doing it through the garden. When I saw that happening, I knew
you were the one that Shawn thought you were. Are."
"So you thought I was planning to hook up with him and rule
this little corner of the world with our Davis-Maddox superpowers?" We
were standing very
440
close, and my whispered indignation didn't have far to carry.
He didn't apologize. "Wouldn't you do anything to dance
again?"
His words punched me in the stomach, drove the breath out of me.
Because they were true. Rhys mercifully went on, not making me acknowledge it
aloud. "In any case, the night at the river convinced me you were naïvely
going on instinct."
I looked up at him with a challenge. "That's why you suddenly
liked me after I proved my innocence by nearly plummeting to my
death."
His expression turned rueful, almost sheepish. "I liked you
before, but I didn't want to."
My eyes narrowed. "You let me think it was just me." And
I meant everything. The liking. The feeling of connection, of familiarity.
"I was an idiot," he said, brushing back my tangled
hair.
My pulse fluttered, and I fought the temptation to lean into him.
He was so close I could feel the warmth of him even in the humid air.
"That much I did know."
Nothing was settled, and few of my questions were answered, but it
was a struggle to straighten my spine and stiffen my resolve. "But what's your
part in this?" I asked, too breathlessly. "Why couldn't you just
tell me, or ask me outright? Did you come here knowing about the TTC, or did
you just stumble on them?"
He looked pained by my badgering, but not annoyed. "That's a
lot of questions, princess." His fingers
441
traced lightly down my arm, to skim over my palm and finally
tangle with mine. "Which will take a while to answer."
A magical potential of our own was building, and my questions,
while vitally important, seemed less urgent at the moment.
I asked one more, my eyes on his, looking for evasion. "Are
you trying to distract me?"
With a small smile, he admitted, "Maybe a little bit."
He drew me closer by our linked fingers, until my arm was wrapped around his
waist, his hand holding mine, unresisting, at his back. "Would that be so
bad?" he asked, brushing my cheek with his other thumb.
"Just this once," I whispered, already knowing it was a
lie. More than ever, there was the past, present and future in the touch of his
lips to mine.
He kissed me softly, and after one gently inquiring pause, kissed
me again. And that was the end of asking anything. I tugged my hand from his,
but only so I could wrap my arms around him properly and he could draw me even
closer, which he did, without hesitation. For all the confusion he'd caused me,
there was nothing equivocal about the way his mouth caressed mine, the way his
fingers slid into my hair to cradle the back of my head.
The timing was bad, but the kiss was so right. Not just the feel
and taste of him, but everything--the sheltering woods, the water rushing
nearby and the green, wet scent all around us.
Too soon, but too late for me to ever be the same again, Rhys
pulled back, setting me away from him as if
442
he needed to break the connection or go mad. I knew how he felt.
"We do not want to do this here," he said, his hands
still on my shoulders, his thumbs tracing my collarbones. My shirt was crooked
and out of place, but not as much as I wanted it to be.
"Okay," I said, still breathless. "Where do we want
to do it?"
He accepted the invitation, pulling me close again, hands spanning
my waist. I twined my arms around his neck like the vines that wrapped the
standing stone in my garden. One endless kiss, new and familiar as the last,
then the world spun and we were falling onto the thick carpet of pine needles
and oak leaves. They scratched my skin as my shirt rode up, but the feeling
anchored me to the earth, like Rhys's welcome weight, his arms still around me.
My head reeled with sensation and emotion, not all of which I
could sort out. His and mine, and some memories that seemed overlaid from some
other time. I felt a dread of being caught, but it paled next to this longing.
It was that specific dread, not of anyone living, that made me
finally pull away--put cool, damp air between us. There was more in that moment
somehow than my brain could hold, and I felt that if I let the kiss continue,
if I let my thoughts continue, I might splinter.
"Don't," I whispered, when he would have drawn me back
down. "I have to get back. The Colonel is watching." I was oddly
aware it was a nonsensical thing
443
to say, that I was losing the division between myself and the
echoes of the past.
"I don't care," said Rhys. He ran his fingers through my
hair, combing out the pine needles and letting the tangled strands fall around
us like a curtain. "He's just a ghost in a window. He can't hurt you
now."
"Then why am I so scared of him?" I breathed the
question, trying not to let him distract me. "Whenever I feel that awful,
freezing cold in the stairs--"
My mind snagged on a thought, and I pushed my hair back so what
moonlight filtered through the trees illuminated his face. "Have you seen
him?"
His eyes narrowed warily, as if he didn't like where this might be
headed. "Not exactly. A hint, maybe. A bit of cold."
I pushed myself up with a hand on his chest. He winced, and I
remembered his bruises, but didn't let remorse dull my anger. "It would
have saved me a world of anxiety if you had mentioned that sooner."
"I did tell you that you weren't crazy." He
propped himself on his elbows. "If you'd told me you were
seeing things, I would have reassured you sooner."
"Now I remember why I was irked with you." I sat up,
straightening my clothes, wishing I could do the same with my dignity.
"Even after the river, you still didn't trust me."
"Sylvie," he began. I thought--hoped--he would try and
smooth things over, but he just said, "Keep your voice down."
That was the pin that popped the last bubble of the dreamlike
interlude. The right answer was "I trust you
444
now," or even better, "I was a jerk." It was definitely
not "Be quiet."
"I'll do better than that," I retorted--in a whisper--
as I pulled myself up off the forest floor. "I'm out of here."
I flounced off in a truly prima ballerina exit, too furious to
think about what might be waiting. Too angry to listen for his footsteps behind
me. When I reached the edge of the woods, though, I stumbled to a shocked halt.
Rhys almost ran me over, and caught my shoulders to steady us both. Then his
fingers tightened, and I knew he felt it too.
The cold was distinct and bitter next to the humid night and my
heated emotions. I'd never felt the chill so strong outside the house. Fear
wrapped an icy fist around my heart, and I felt the full brunt of the
supernatural imprint, one hundred and fifty years of furious waiting, aimed
like a naked spotlight from the upstairs window.
"He's not watching the summerhouse," I whispered. My
stomach knotted until I thought I might throw up. "He's watching the woods
for her. Hannah."
Rhys stepped closer to my back, a sheltering, protective action,
and a possessive one. "He's watching for them both."
I didn't ask whom he meant. Hannah and her lover. Had they met
here in the woods, where Rhys and I kept meeting? Had Hannah stood here, with
her sweetheart's hands on her shoulders, and known she'd been caught? Or did
they say goodnight, thinking their secret was safe, while the Colonel watched
and seethed?
445
As awful as the malevolent attention was, the suddenness with
which it turned away was even more jarring. "It's never moved from the
window before," I said, a whole new level of fear twisting my heart.
There was a cry, a shriek of bone-deep terror, not from the woods,
but from the house.
The sound broke our stasis. I might not have been limping anymore
when I walked, but running was another thing. Rhys slowed as I hobbled over the
uneven lawn, but I urged him ahead. "Go on. Run."
He took me at my word and lengthened his stride. I followed, dread
pushing me up the hill to the house. It wasn't nearly as late as it felt. The
downstairs windows were still mostly lit. I could hear Gigi barking, rising to
a frenzy as I hurried through the porch, past her crate, then through the
kitchen toward the front of the house.
When I reached the foyer, Paula and both Griffiths were already
there. Clara lay crumpled at the bottom of the stairs, like a rag doll thrown
down the steps, the impression of a cast-off toy heightened by my jeans
scattered around her. She must have dropped them when she fell.
Paula knelt in her pajamas, her face ashen, her hands trembling.
Professor Griffith was restraining her from moving her friend, talking in
soothing, crisis tones about paramedics and neck braces, while Rhys carefully
checked to make sure Clara was breathing.
He stayed with them while I pushed away my shock and hurried to
the den, where I grabbed the phone and dialed with trembling fingers.
446
"Nine-one-one," said the calm woman on the other end of
the line. "What's your emergency?"
Where to start. Somehow, I managed to block out ghosts and secret
rites and magic spells, and concentrate on the facts. "There's been an
accident. My friend has fallen down the stairs, and she's unconscious. We need
an ambulance."
447
***
Chapter 30
Paula rubbed her arms against the chill in the foyer. The professor
fetched a crocheted afghan from the back of a sofa in the parlor, and covered
Clara with it while they waited for the paramedics.
I didn't wait. Handing the phone to Rhys, I said, "I'm going
to get Addie." Shock had chased away my fear. Besides the cold, which the
others seemed to feel but not acknowledge, there was no sign of the Colonel.
"Sylvie!" Rhys met my eye with a warning. "Play it
cool.
448
With a quick flash of anger, I thought he meant I shouldn't bait
Addie when her mom was injured, as if I would. Then reason kicked in, and I got
that he was advising me not to let on what I knew about the council. As if I
would be that stupid.
I nodded and cut through the den to the side door. The route took
me into my garden, and to the stone monolith that marked it. Immediately I
could sense that whatever the circle had been doing, it was done. The same way
I could feel the energy moving before, I could sense its stillness now. Not
gone, not dissipated, but resting. Now that I was attuned to it, I didn't know how
I'd ever not felt it.
Out on the road, car headlights were coming to life as some of the
council left straight from the summer-house. A smaller group walked toward me,
their silhouettes distorted by backpacks and book bags, as if they were coming
in from a late-night study session.
But the energy level gave them away. It was the intangible aura of
stage presence, the indefinable glow that made certain people rivet attention.
All four had it, but Shawn's was so bright, it cast the others in shade.
I waited for them, stewing in suspicion. I couldn't imagine why
anyone would want to hurt Clara. Especially her daughter. Maybe Clara was only
collateral damage, but the timing of her fall was too coincidental, and it was
hard to keep the blame from my face as the group--Shawn and Addie, Kimberly and
Caitlin-- reached me.
Shawn seemed amused by my expression, and I
449
wondered what I'd given away. "You could have just asked to
join us," he said.
His complacency ratcheted up my anger. But I turned to Addie, who
stood at his side. She stared back with a challenging lift of her chin and I
forced myself to keep my voice even. "Your mother's had an accident. The
ambulance is on its way."
Her face went slack with shock, the kind you can't fake. It was
too dim to see her color drain, but in the charged air I sensed it. All my
senses seemed to be on high alert, supercharged. Addie staggered a step, and
Kimberly steadied her with a sympathetic arm around her shoulders.
Just for a moment, I had considered how, if something happened
to Clara, it might bring Addie her wish. No one would tell her to stay in
school instead of becoming the next Naomi Campbell. But her stunned expression,
the dawning horror and worry, cleared her in my mind. At least of any
intentional harm.
"She's in the foyer," I told her more gently. "At
the bottom of the stairs."
Addie took a few unsteady steps, then broke into a long-legged
run. Kimberly touched my arm, getting my attention. "Is her mom hurt bad?
What happened?"
I cast my gaze over them, reassured by how stunned they looked.
All except Shawn, who seemed concerned but not genuinely surprised. "She
fell down the stairs."
Kimberly and Caitlin exchanged a worried glance. I turned to leave
them, heading through the garden. Dimly I heard Shawn tell them to go on home,
which
450
didn't register until I caught the sound of his footsteps on the
gravel path behind me.
Turning back, I tried to play it cool, like Rhys had told me.
"This is a family matter, Shawn."
He seemed surprised, and a little hurt. "I am family."
I didn't know what to believe from him anymore, and it came
through in my tone. "Fourth cousins twice removed is not close
enough."
As I turned to go, he snagged my hand in his. I whirled, spoiling
for a fight, but he did nothing but grasp my fingers, our arms at their full
extension, and run his gaze over me.
His eyes narrowed and I wondered what had given me away--the pine
needles in my hair, my rumpled shirt or the scalding blush that raced to my cheeks.
He seemed to wrestle with thwarted anger, then tamp it down behind
a mask of imperturbability. I marveled that I could see it all so clearly, as
if some filter had been lifted.
"Well," he said, with an unconvincing echo of his
easygoing charm. "Someone has been a little naughty."
The words were teasing, his tone amused. But there was a thread of
steel underneath, possessive yet oddly cold. The way he'd examined me at arm's
length, impassively evaluating, reminded me of the Colonel at the window. And
that gave me the creeps more than an innuendo would have.
"I don't see how that's your business," I said, trying
for cool, and failing.
Shawn laughed, and it was genuine. "Don't be
451
stupid, Sylvie. I told you this afternoon. You and I could be an
amazing team, if you don't go messing it up by messing around with someone
else."
That was the final twist that snapped the rubber band of my
temper. "Maybe I don't want to be a team with you, Shawn. Does the circle
even understand what's going on? Or are you playing them like everyone else in
town?"
Annoyance flashed over his face. "I don't know what your
boyfriend has been telling you, but I'm just trying to do what's right for this
place. Like my ancestors. And yours."
"I don't do magic spells."
"Of course you do." His hand squeezed mine, drawing me a
reluctant step toward him. "I see it. Rhys sees it. And I know you feel it
too." He gestured to the garden, to the stone, encompassing all my work.
"You could do amazing things with your connection to the earth, your
elemental abilities. He won't show you. But I will. All you have to do
is ask."
I could hear Gigi barking on the porch, as if she knew I was in
trouble, that even with my eyes fully open, I could still feel that pull of
temptation. "You need to leave now," I said, wrenching my hand from
his grasp.
Shawn reached down and picked up the backpack he'd dropped
earlier, slinging it over his shoulder with a lack of concern, as if my
surrender were inevitable. "You could do anything, Sylvie. Remember
that."
"Just go," I said, dredging up all the pack-leader
authority I could muster. My voice hardly shook at all.
452
His voice, however, played inside my head, all the way back into
the house, rising and falling in time to the approaching siren. You could do
anything.
***
The molded plastic chairs in the waiting room of the county
hospital ER must have been designed by a chiropractor trying to drum up future
business. They were, impossibly, making my body even edgier than my nerves.
Rhys and his father sat on either side of me. After the ambulance
had whisked Clara off, the professor had driven my shaken cousin and Clara's
ashen daughter in the station wagon, and Rhys and I had followed in the rental
car. When we'd arrived, Paula instructed us to leave her car and return home,
but, without even talking about it, the Griffiths and I took seats in the
plastic torture devices while Paula and Addie were allowed into the treatment
area.
I'd been forced to reevaluate Addie. After her initial tears and
shock, she had pulled herself together and had the presence of mind to grab
Clara's purse with her insurance and health information. Paula had barely
remembered her own bag.
On the drive to the hospital and even in the waiting room, Rhys
and I had been mostly silent. I had plenty to think about, and from the way the
muscle in Rhys's jaw kept flexing, I could guess his mind was working overtime
as well.
Finally, Professor Griffith had had enough waiting
453
and stood up stiffly. "I'm off to search--in vain, I'm
sure--for a cup of tea. Call my mobile if Paula comes out with news."
He wandered down one of the antiseptic tile hallways; he'd dressed
hastily in a blue knit shirt and a black pair of trousers. Rhys still wore his
jeans and rugby shirt, both rather dirty, and I'd grabbed a cardigan from the
back of the desk chair in the den to cover the grass stains on my clothes.
Fortunately, everyone had more important things on their minds than our
incriminating condition.
I wrapped the sweater more tightly around myself and said
miserably, "I wish I could have brought Gigi."
Rhys reached for my hand, holding it in both of his. My head spun,
adjusting to the changes in the past few hours. No argument about who didn't
trust whom seemed very important anymore. "She'll be fine in your room. We
checked all the locks and windows before we left. You've never felt anything weird
in there, right?"
"Nothing bad." The dread and bone-biting cold had only
manifested on the landing and in the hall, reaching down the stairs. The only
other ghosts that bothered me were the crying in the woods, and the girl.
Hannah.
As for the rest, I'd come to accept that the house was permeated
with the past, and all the half-sensed things--glimpsed shirttails and apron
strings disappearing around corners, caught whiffs of perfume or tobacco,
snatches of a tune on the pianoforte--were just imprints of life, like
Professor Griffith had suggested.
454
Except for the prison area at Cahawba. Those imprints were darker,
the deep footprints of a lot of misery.
I'd been trying to fit together all the puzzle pieces I'd
gathered. My standing stone must mark some kind of energy spot--metaphysical,
electromagnetic, geo-whatever--that made what Shawn and the circle were doing
possible. But what about the ghosts? If the ley line thing Professor Griffith
had talked about extended from Bluestone Hill to the ruins of Old Cahawba on
the north side, then could that make it a hot spot for ghosts as well as magic?
Eyeing the distance between us and our nearest companions, a
whispering prayer circle in the corner, I lowered my voice and asked Rhys,
"If you've experienced"--I was hesitant to say "magic" in
public, no matter how quietly--"strange things before, why do you say the
power of rocks and crystals is pseudo-science r
"Because it is," he said, jaw tightening. "Most of
the time. But on the one-in-a-thousand chance that someone might stumble on
something real, I'm going to say nonsense. Can you imagine how out of balance
the world would be if every neo-druid crystal hugger who read something on the
Internet started trying to do magic with rocks and twigs? Chaos."
He'd alluded to that in the woods, and I hadn't pursued it.
"I don't understand what you mean by 'out of balance.'"
"Good and bad things happen, and there's a sort of
equilibrium to it. We're not really meant to mess
455
with it." He still held my hand, and I noticed he was rubbing
his thumb along mine in an agitated sort of way.
"What about ..." I nodded toward the people praying in
the corner.
Rhys smiled slightly. "Not the same thing, as far as I can
tell. The universe--or whatever--keeps things balanced according to criteria we
can't wrap our heads around. It's when you muck about with it in a big way that
bad things happen."
"Like mine collapses," I guessed.
The muscle in his jaw jumped, and then he sighed in admission.
"Yes, exactly."
I stared at his profile, wondering what that tension had to do
with his taking it on himself to correct what Shawn was doing. All on his own.
That was either quixotic as hell, or crazier than I ever thought of being.
"Why did you break into the office at Maddox Point?" I
asked.
He grimaced, looking more sheepish than guilty. "I knew
they'd have a decent map, maybe satellite pictures of the area. It was a bit of
a ditch effort, really."
"For what?" Then insight flashed--he had already
admitted to looking for more bluestone. "Are you searching for another
standing stone in the woods?"
His scowl lacked his usual edge. "You have gotten very nosy
for a girl who didn't even ask where she was going when she got on the plane
from New York."
I ignored that, refusing to be drawn off course. "Here's my
theory," I said, lowering my voice. "There's something about my rock
in the garden. You said in
456
the woods--there's magic in that place. Maybe it's one of those
ley lines or something."
He glanced warily at a stodgy-looking couple who seemed to be taking
a lot of interest in our whispers. "Maybe."
"You're not just hunting for any old rock. You're looking for
another power spot."
With clear reluctance, he admitted, "If Shawn has his circle,
then a powerful position might even things up."
Unaccountably furious with this insane idea, I leaned
forward and hissed, "Why? So you can get into a battle of magical
one-upmanship? Do you want to die in the next car accident? Or maybe you
want to prove yourself his equal in being completely conscienceless when it
comes to what you think is right!"
My voice had risen at the end, to the point where the stodgy old
couple stared in disapproval and the prayer circle was probably now praying for
me. But the only thing that hurt worse than the thought of Rhys turning into
Shawn was the thought of Rhys dead.
He choked back a retort and glanced in frustration at our
audience. With an impatient sound, he pulled me out of the waiting room and
into the empty hallway. "Do not," he said in a harsh, quiet voice,
"compare me to Shawn. He doesn't care about the consequences of his
actions. I do."
There was anger in his tone, and in the flush on his face. But
there was also hurt, and beneath that the guilt I hadn't been able to get at
yet.
"I believe you, Rhys." I kept a tight clasp on his
457
hand, wanting to hold on to this new partnership. "I can't
even say why I trust you, except that you're such a bad liar and
apparently not much of a burglar, either."
He laughed softly, embarrassed but not offended. "It's not my
strong suit, no."
"Why do I feel, ever since we first met, that I know you,
that I'm connected to you somehow? This is crazy."
"I don't know, love." His gaze dropped, lingered on our
entwined fingers as he traced the lines of my palm with his thumb. "The
world is full of patterns that repeat, and they're particularly alive there in
your bend in the river. Maybe we've been pulled into the pattern." I
shivered, an electric thrill running up my arm and all through me, the way it
had when we'd first touched in the airport. But this caress was deliberate, and
the easy intimacy of his touch was thrilling and new. I didn't-- couldn't--keep
that from my face when he lifted his eyes to meet mine. "Just believe that
I care about what happens to you."
While I still struggled to form words, he glanced into the waiting
room, and released my hand. "There's Paula and the doctor. Go talk to her
while I ring my dad."
Anxiety returned in a rush as I wove through the maze of plastic
chairs and attached tables. But I could see from my cousin's weary relief that
the news wasn't as bad as it could be. The tall, dark-skinned doctor by her
side confirmed it. Clara had cracked several ribs, dislocated her shoulder and
broken her hip.
Paula gave a tired laugh. "You should hear her.
458
She's mad as hell. Only old women break their hips, she
says."
"From the bruises," said the doctor wryly, "it's
lucky she didn't break her neck."
On this sobering note, he took his leave as the Griffiths
reentered the waiting room. Paula gave them the recap and told us we could go
home. "Addie and I will follow shortly."
"Are you sure?" asked Professor Griffith in concern.
"Yes." She drew herself up, moving toward steel magnolia
mode, but not quite reaching it. "You've already done so much. Thank you,
both. You feel more like family than guests."
"That's how we feel as well." He rather gallantly leaned
down and kissed her cheek. "If you promise to be careful on the road, then
I will take these two youngsters home and we'll all get some rest."
Rhys didn't make a face at the word "youngster," but I
did. Then I sent my love to Clara, and dragged myself out after the Griffiths.
Adrenaline had run its course and left me drained. Father and son chatted
quietly as we crossed the parking lot, and when we got to their rental car, I
crawled into the backseat, and was asleep before the engine even turned over.
459
***
Chapter 31
I woke late, to a very cloudy day.
Gigi was still curled in the crook behind my knees; there wasn't
enough sunlight to wake her. What filtered in through the deep casement looked
watery and gray.
"It's time to get up, Gee."
Her answer was a grumbling growl. She moved to the warm spot on
the pillow, in the curve of my neck, and went back to sleep. I couldn't help
but think she had the right idea.
The ringing of my cell phone jolted me out of a complacent doze.
After a stumbling search, I found my
460
jeans in a heap on the floor and dug the phone out of the pocket.
"Hey, John."
"Are you still asleep?" he asked. "What time is it
there?"
"Uh ..." I had no idea. It couldn't be too late, or Gigi
would have demanded a walk by now. "We had a really long night. My
cousin's business partner and friend had a horrible fall. We were at the
hospital."
"That's awful! Is she going to be all right?"
"She broke her hip. But it could have been a lot worse."
I sat on the bed and tried to get my thoughts together. Gigi rearranged herself
on the center of the pillow, figuring I wasn't coming back. "Are you
calling to check up on me?"
"Sort of. There are all kinds of torrential rains on the
news. I just wanted to make sure you weren't getting washed away."
I glanced at the window. "It's not raining here, but it looks
like it might be somewhere close."
"You could turn on the news. There is television out
in the sticks, right?"
A knock on the door prevented my answering that in the way it
deserved. "Hang on," I told John, and stumbled to the door. I was
wearing a T-shirt that said BALLET DANCERS SPEND ALL DAY AT THE BARRE. The
shirt covered everything important, but I stood behind the door when I opened
it, anyway.
Rhys was in the hall, pulling on a rain slicker and looking
distracted. "Hey."
"Hi." The phone was still in my hand, and I
461
wondered if I should push Mute. But despite a softening of his
gaze when he first saw me, Rhys was all business.
"You need to get downstairs. It's raining bloody hell
upriver, and they're worried about flooding. Paula and Addie are packing bags
before they go to the hospital, in case they get stranded. Dad is going into
town to make sure the larder is stocked up, and I'm headed out to Cahawba.
They'll need help sandbagging the excavation."
A spark of worry made me forget about the phone, my stepbrother
and my half-dressed state. "Is it dangerous?"
"You'll be safe here," he assured me. "The mansion
is on high ground. It's stood through floods before. Just stay up near the
house."
"I mean, will you be safe out at Old Cahawba?"
Anxiously, I stepped out from behind the door. "It's been washed out
twice."
"I'll be fine." He smiled, in a warm way that made my
insides knot. "But you could give me a kiss for luck if you want."
I was actually a little afraid of how much I wanted to, which was
the only thing that kept me where I was. That and worry I might have morning
breath.
And, oh yeah, my stepbrother on the phone. I pointed to the cell
and said, "I have a chaperone."
"In that case, get a move on, love." There was still a
trace of humor in his back-to-business tone. "Get dressed and get
downstairs. There's work to be done."
He headed down the hall, and I shut the door, marveling at how
much things had changed in a night.
462
Then I spoke into the phone, "I know you heard all
that."
"I don't even know where to begin," said John.
"What is going on there? Who is that guy?"
Cradling the phone against my shoulder, I grabbed my jeans and
pulled them on. "You haven't known me nearly long enough to go all
protective big brother on me, John."
"Who else is going to? Sylvie, please tell me you're not
getting involved with someone while you're in a ... a--"
"A what?" I snapped. "A third-world country? Or are
you talking about my fragile mental state?"
"Come on, Sylvie."
I sighed and sat on the edge of the bed. "I'm not involved.
Exactly. I'm not sure what you'd call it. But trust me when I say that if I
was, it would be the least weird thing going on."
"What are you talking about?"
"Gotta run, John. I'll catch you up later. God willing and
the creek don't rise."
"Oh my God. You've gone native."
"Bye, John." I hung up, slipped on a pair of shoes,
grabbed my sleepy dog and then headed downstairs. Rhys was right. If the waters
were rising, there were things that needed to be done. I hoped somebody would
tell me what they were, or I'd be no help at all.
***
Paula wanted me to go with her and Addie, but I assured her I
would be fine in the house. It wasn't as if I'd
463
be alone--the Griffiths would be back--and if the waters did rise,
someone--a Davis--should be here to monitor, handle it or call the authorities.
That was the argument that swayed her, but I was stunned how strongly I felt
that I shouldn't leave Bluestone Hill with the uncertainty of the rains
upriver.
Paula and Addie pulled out in the Mom Mobile, accompanied by the
distant roll of thunder. Overhead the sky was uniformly gray and dismal, but
nonthreatening. As I stood on the porch watching the taillights of the wagon,
Professor Griffith joined me, shrugging into his rain jacket.
"The water is still hot in the kettle if you want to make
yourself a cup of tea," he said. "Is there anything in particular you
want from the market? Bearing in mind I'll have to take what I can get."
"You probably won't have any competition for the soy
milk."
"True." He took a step down, then glanced back at me in
careful study. "You'll be all right while I'm gone? You can call my mobile
if you need to. Or Rhys's--he trekked over to the dig site on foot, but he can
get back in a trice if you need him."
I hid my nervousness with sarcasm. "I realize that an
apartment in a city of eight million people hasn't prepared me for staying in a
big country house by myself, but I think I can manage. It's not even
raining."
He glanced at the sky. "It's not the rain here that's the
problem. It's all the storms upriver. The water has to go somewhere."
On that cheerful note, he left in the rental, and for
464
the first time since I came to Alabama, I was alone in the house.
Technically speaking.
Before, when I needed to regroup, to think, or most important to not
think, I headed to the ballet barre. The repetitive pattern of the
exercises, the concentration on placement, extension, turnout and pointe were a
physical mantra to clear my brain whenever it was too full.
Now I went to the garden. But it was different today. As Gigi and
I stepped into the circle, the unfinished pattern around the rock called to me,
not with a promise of mental peace, but with an urgent demand. With the same
visceral certainty I'd had about not leaving the house, I knew I needed to
finish this. The work was too close to being done.
I had no clue what that meant in terms of the things I'd learned
last night, about the garden and about myself. But the garden was one place
where I'd never had trouble listening to my instincts.
***
The work went quickly, and soon, tired but satisfied, I sat back
on my heels, gazing at the results of my labor. The corner beds were still an
overgrown mess, but I'd cleared the central planting area of choking weeds,
revealed its original shape and uncovered the full beauty of the bluestone
centerpiece.
It stayed damp today, looking truly blue. When the sun would
occasionally peek through the clouds, the flecks of quartz caught the light,
looking like scattered stars on an indigo sky.
465
Uncluttered by rampant weeds, not to mention the insidious kudzu,
the bare hint of the labyrinth motif that wound into the four-foot-tall stone
in the center was now visible. The herbs and foliage, skimpy when I'd first
cleared them, had become thick and lush, some of them already flowering.
My effect on the garden was obvious and tangible. But what about
its effect on me? Had I really instinctively tapped into the energy here and
made myself healthier, like one of these plants? There seemed to be a
difference between what I felt here and what I sensed from the circle in the
summerhouse. This was reciprocal somehow, and my progress was like the
plants'-- natural but accelerated.
But what would happen if I actually tried to connect with the
energy here? What could I do then?
Gigi, lying under the stone bench, jerked her head up with a
growl. Automatically, I looked toward the house, but couldn't see anything
other than the corner of the balcony and the top of the spiral staircase. The
Colonel didn't have the dog upset. It must be something else.
"You've made a lot of progress."
With a start, I turned toward Shawn's voice. He stood in the
opening of the hedge, his hands shoved in the pockets of his cargo pants. When
my eyes narrowed in suspicion, he pulled them out, as if to show me they were
empty. "Truce. I came for a report on Clara."
Since I couldn't figure out how he'd be served by her injury, I
decided to give him the benefit of the doubt. "She's going to be all
right." But I couldn't let
466
him off the hook entirely, so I added, with an edge of accusation:
"Eventually."
He nodded, looking so contrite that I frowned, wondering suddenly
if I'd been mistaken about him. "I know. That's all I could think about
while I was trying to sleep last night. What if our spell had somehow
accidentally hurt Clara. It just kills me to think that, Sylvie. It kills me
that you think that."
Turning my back on him, I shook the dirt from one last weed and
threw it into the basket I would take out back for compost. Maintaining, for
him at least, a facade of normalcy. "I don't see what I have to do with
anything."
"Don't be coy," he chided with his usual easy humor.
"You know you have everything to do with it. Hasn't Rhys explained that to
you?"
Unease tightened my stomach, and I forced myself to relax my
shoulders, despite the weight of his gaze on me. Why mention Rhys? Was he
trying to raise my suspicions? "He may have mentioned," I said with
understatement, "that my connection to the magic here was important to
you."
Sitting on the bench, Shawn leaned forward, elbows on his knees so
he was level with me as I knelt in the greenery. "We're supposed to meet
again tonight. Addie won't be able to be there, so you can take her spot.
Outraged, I twisted to look at him, fists propped on my thighs.
"Is that what breaking Clara's hip was supposed to accomplish? Get Addie
out of the way?"
He met my eye, and grimaced with uncharacteristic
467
candor. "The stuff the circle does is imprecise. That's why I
need you. It will work better with a Davis. I thought Addie'd get a modeling
job or something. Everyone wins."
That honesty was disarming, but I forced my guard up. "Does
your circle know you're just using them? That you'd blow them off like you're
blowing off Addie, as soon as they're no more use to you?"
"The council knows we're doing what's right for the town. If
Maddox Point goes through and brings growth to the area, it won't be a
thirty-minute wait for an ambulance. It will be ten."
Gigi grumbled from under the bench; I didn't need her prompt to
call bullshit on that. "Aren't you just Humanitarian of the Year."
He ignored my sarcasm, pressing his own argument. "The
council has been going on for a long time, Sylvie. Since our families first
came here. But every now and then, there's someone like you, and someone like
me, who can connect with the elements. Just look at this place." He
gestured to my work. The overcast skies kept the dew from burning off, and the
smell of the herbs was thick and vibrant. He knelt beside me and picked off a
gray-green leaf of sage. "These plants? They're for healing. See how well
they've worked, and you didn't even know what you were doing. Just think what
you can do if you learn more about your instincts."
This was a different Shawn, as if the gilt of his surface charm
had been rubbed off to reveal the compelling power beneath it. It pulled at
something inside
468
me, and when he took my dirty hands in his, I let him, just to see
where this offer was going.
"I'll teach you how to use your connection," he said.
"Do you think Rhys will do that? He's been trying to keep you in the dark,
right?"
That was overplaying his hand. I tugged my fingers free--or tried
to. "Not anymore."
"Yes, but he doesn't belong here." Shawn gestured to the
standing stone. "That rock was brought here by our ancestors and put there
to mark this spot, where earth energy is strong. This whole area, where the two
rivers converge."
"That's very poetic, Shawn." I made my voice wry,
despite the spell he wove, the tugging I could feel on the part of me that
wanted to be this special, magical person he described. Like the special,
magical person I'd been when I danced.
"Come on, Sylvie." He rubbed the dirt on my fingers.
"I know you can feel it. It's in your blood. That's why I need you."
"So you can get what you want," I said, to remind myself
more than to accuse him.
"And so can you."
Would that be so bad? Temptation hissed in my ear, made my heart
race with anticipation of the mere possibility.
"What's the trade-off?" I asked, thinking about what
Rhys had said about consequences. "Do you even care?"
"The trade-off is, the town improves, things go well for me,
you get to dance again. It's a win-win situation."
469
I desperately wanted to ignore my instincts. But I'd worked so
hard for my success as a dancer--of course, genetics had given me long legs and
natural ability, but I'd sweated and bled and ached to achieve what I'd had.
Hell, I hadn't eaten a dessert in six years until I came here. Even without
Rhys's warnings, even without my gut feeling at the summerhouse, I knew in my
heart that you just didn't get things for free.
The thought snapped Shawn's hold on me, and I pulled my hand loose
before my resolve weakened. "You'd better go," I said, rising to my
feet.
He stood as well. "Will you at least think about it?"
His reasonable tone irritated me, as if I were being irrational.
"Just get out of here, Shawn."
Gigi, picking up on my mood, started to growl again. Shawn
laughed, raising his hands in surrender. "Fine, fine." He seemed so
normal, it was hard to believe he'd just been trying to seduce me into using
magic for his--and my--selfish ends. "I'll see you around."
I scooped Gigi up so she didn't run after him. "Not if I see
you first," I murmured, to no one but the dog. Shawn hadn't bothered to
wait for my reply.
No way had he given up that easily. Though I guess he figured he
had time to bring me around. And he must have seen that I was temptable. Not by
him, but by what I might reclaim.
I walked to the bluestone monolith, Gigi still tucked in the crook
of my arm. I stared for a moment, then pressed my palm to the stone's surface.
Time had dulled the texture, but not smoothed it. And it did feel
470
warm, or at least warmer than I could account for on the gray day.
When my dad took me to the Metropolitan Museum when I was a kid,
he would talk about balance in art. I understood it on a more practical,
physical level. Staying balanced while dancing was about equal and opposite
movements. If I extended my leg in a développé devant--to the
front--then I had to tighten my center of balance and lean backward slightly to
stay upright.
If I took what Rhys had said, and applied what I knew from art and
ballet to magical, mystical energy, didn't that mean that for everything that
happened, something opposite had to happen too? Maybe not one for one, but
something to balance the equation.
Dr. Young had said that ecology was fragile, and if things got off
kilter, the effects could be big. The Maddox and Davis families had apparently
been messing around with the natural balance throughout our history here. When
that happened to a dancer, she fell on her face. What happened when the energy
of a geographical area was out of whack? Something had to correct for it.
Was this what Rhys had meant when he said bad things happen when
you mess with the balance? Yellow fever? Floods? Horrible prisons? Mine
collapses?
What about ghosts? Shawn had said this whole region was powerful,
up to the junction of the rivers, which included Old Cahawba. Was Shawn's
messing around with the natural order of things skewing the energy here, making
the echoes of the past resonate more loudly, making the intangible more real?
471
As I went inside, I noticed the Colonel's chill wafting down the
stairs, and wondered what had him stirred up in the middle of the day. Maybe
Shawn unsettled him as much as he did me.
Despite my weak joke, I climbed the stairs warily, but the cold
seemed to be fleeting. A thought stuck with me, though, about Shawn's effect on
people: If I had this elemental affinity for the garden, what was Shawn's
superpower? Charm was obviously part of it. That was blindingly obvious in
retrospect. It worried me what he might be capable of. My scruples were
susceptible to temptation, but at least I had some.
472
***
Chapter 32
Still unsettled by my conversation with Shawn, I distanced myself
from the garden a bit, and brought both Hannah's diary and the reverend's
journal downstairs and into the den. With the big-screen TV and the modern
furniture, I felt grounded in this century and less likely to lose myself. I
brought a glass of iced tea for myself and a chew for Gigi, which she promptly
took to the love seat and started gnawing.
As soon as I sat down, the lights went off. My heart stopped for a
painful, panicked second. Then reason
473
kicked back in--along with my pulse--and I registered that the light
on the satellite receiver box was black, the LED on the answering machine was
dark and I couldn't hear the hum of the refrigerator down the hall.
The power had gone out. Paula had warned me that might happen if
there were storms in the area, and had pointed out where the flashlights and
candles were. I found a flashlight and nervously put it beside me on the couch.
Expected or not, it was unnerving.
To distract myself, I picked up the Reverend Holzphaffel's
journal. Gigi left her chew and pranced down the length of the cushions, then
climbed into my lap, licked my chin and went to sleep. I petted her silky fur
and tried to relax. One or both Griffiths would be back soon.
The dates on Hannah's headstone had been December 21, 1852,
and June 20, 1870. I realized, with a start, that it was almost midsummer, the
anniversary of her death. Opening the Reverend Holzphaffel's journal to 1869,
about nine months before Hannah's end, I read to see if he mentioned young Miss
Davis's suitors.
The facsimile of the handwritten pages wasn't any easier to read
than Hannah's scrawled entries, but at least they were more detailed. Reverend
Holzphaffel didn't hold much with Thou Shalt Not Gossip About Your Neighbor.
There was the reference to Mr. Ethan Maddox I'd read the other day, which I
scanned again with new understanding. It didn't take me long to find the answer
that Hannah hadn't bothered writing
474
for herself. Ethan's brother, the scalawag, was named Jacob.
He was trying to bring investors to the area--even ones
from the North--but he didn't seem like a profiteer. Just the opposite, in
fact. He was an outspoken young man who pointed out some hard truths about his
own family, like how Davis Ironworks and Maddox Shipping were leaving their
neighbors in the dirt as far as recovery from the war was concerned.
It was clear that the reverend liked the guy, even though everyone
else was pushing Hannah toward Ethan. I didn't want Jacob to be the one who
left her in the lurch, but having read Hannah's journal, that seemed more than
likely.
I remembered the blistering animosity radiating from the window
last night, aimed at the spot where Rhys and I came out of the woods. Was I
some kind of trigger for the Colonel? I certainly identified with Hannah. If
she had been meeting Jacob on the sly, her father would certainly have been
seething as he watched from the window.
I filed those questions away and kept reading. The story, even
without my personal connection to it, engrossed me. I lost track of time,
squinting until my eyes ached. Gigi shifted positions twice, getting up,
stretching, sinking back into my lap with a sigh.
Then the bottom of one page ended in the middle of a sentence
about Easter services, and the top of the next one talked about the fall
harvest. Confused, I flipped back and forth, and found that the entries skipped
from March to September 1870.
475
I carried the book to the window and angled it to catch what light
the clouds hadn't cut off. Inside, near the binding, was a shadow of the
tattered edges of the missing pages. But it was flat, just a copied image. The
pages had been torn out before the journal had been reproduced.
Lowering the book, I looked out the window, surprised at how dark
it had gotten. Even with the distraction of Hannah's story, and the missing months,
my disquiet came back in a rush. Shouldn't one or both of the Griffiths be
back?
The phone rang from the kitchen, the only one that wasn't cordless
and worthless with the power out. I was stiff after sitting curled on the couch
for hours, and by the time I reached the phone, I'd lost count of the rings.
When I finally picked up, Professor Griffith sounded relieved.
"Sylvie! Are you watching the news?"
"The power went out a little while ago." I had tried to
stay calm about it, since I'd lived through a power outage before, and it was a
lot scarier in the city, where the whole world stopped. But the worry in his
voice turned up the volume on my nerves.
"Call Rhys," the professor instructed me, in a
no-arguments tone. "The water is headed downriver much faster than anyone
thought. I don't know if I'm going to be able to get back to you two. The state
police are already putting up road barricades."
Maybe some part of me had anticipated this, but it was much
smaller than the part that wondered what I'd been thinking, staying by myself.
476
Deep breaths, Sylvie. Don't panic. I felt safe in
the house. I just had to trust my instincts. Bluestone Hill had stood through
floods before. Gigi and I would be all right.
"Okay," I said, surprising myself with my calm.
"Don't risk coming back here if it looks dicey."
"There's a torch in my room, and Rhys should have one, too.
You've still got a good bit of daylight left, but it won't hurt to be
prepared."
"Yes, sir." I looked at the clock on the wall. How had
it gotten so late? Had I lost that much time in the past?
"You have Rhys's mobile number? It's on the tablet by the
phone in the foyer."
"Okay."
It was starting to be my mantra. Everything was going to be all
right. Storms had come before, and they would come again. That was nature.
But so was the destruction they left in their wake.
The professor rang off, and I went to find my cell phone. I'd
plugged it in after I talked to John that morning, so it should have charged before
the power went out. At least something had worked out.
At the bottom of the steps I paused, one hand on the banister. The
stairwell was cool, in a way that had nothing to do with the overcast skies and
the distant storms. Defiantly, I put a foot on a stair, gripping the railing
tightly, telling myself the ghost couldn't startle me like it had Clara. It
couldn't hurt me unless I let it.
I braved it out, but my heart was pounding when I reached the top
landing and saw the sheer curtains of the French doors shifting' in an
unearthly breeze. My
477
knuckles went white on the banister and I held my breath in dread,
but there was no shape or form.
I'd never seen the Colonel during the day, so maybe he had limits.
But what had stirred him up?
Think, Sylvie. I'd first glimpsed him when I'd been out on
the lawn. Then again from the same place. Then I'd sensed him from inside after
I'd seen Addie going to meet the TTC--out on the grounds.
So someone must be out on the grounds.
I forced myself forward, ignoring the prickle of fear on my neck.
When the cold didn't get worse, I held my breath and pushed through the spot
that nothing occupied. I threw the latch and flung open the windows, stepping
onto the balcony to scan the storm-colored twilight.
The wind was cool and damp, tangling my hair around my face. It
smelled of distant rain but also of the river, of everything that was washing
down with it. Of fish and industry. Of decaying vegetation and urban storm
drains. What was coming was the flip side of the coin of progress.
The wind carried a noise as well--the first ghost I'd sensed, and
the last I'd identified. I knew the high-pitched cry now, and I could hear the
hunger and fear and loneliness in it. It was far off, and so was the sound that
came with it: the faint, brave bark of a tiny dog.
My stomach knotted with a painful yank. I'd left Gigi on the couch
with her chew when I'd gone to answer the phone. I hadn't heard her growl at
the cold on the stairs.
Rushing back inside, I was so chilled with panic, I
478
could have walked right through the Colonel fully manifest and I
wouldn't have known it. In my room, I grabbed Gigi's favorite toy and squeaked
it as I ran through the upstairs hall, calling her name, listening for the
jingle of her tags.
I dashed down the stairs, for once without a single thought of
falling. In the den, I squeaked the toy and called her again. The parlor was
empty, and so was the dining room. I got to the kitchen and found the back door
standing open, sick dread halting me at the sight.
It hadn't been like that when I was on the phone. All the doors
were closed tight. Rhys and Professor Griffith had checked before they left.
I ran out into the yard, without a jacket, without a flashlight,
and sprinted to the edge of the terrace, looking out on the rolling drop of
terrain to the woods, and beyond that, the river.
"Gigi!" I yelled her name into the wind. The faint wisp
of a baby's cry came back to me and, with nothing to guide me but a hunch, I
desperately followed it. Since that first night, my dog had been determined to
track down that sound.
I didn't go into Hannah's woods. I kept heading north, parallel to
the river, weaving in and out through the trees until I stumbled onto a trail,
and realized I was on the path to the ruins of Old Cahawba. Maybe Gigi
remembered the way, and it had made her bold in her pursuit.
Seizing that hope, I ran along the path, stopping every hundred
feet or so to rest my leg and call into the trees for my dog. I'd given up
trying to use an
479
alpha-dog voice. My yells were frantic, and hoarse with my terror
for her.
When I reached the Cahawba graveyard, it was almost dusk. The thin
cover of clouds diffused the light to a uniform glow, turning the trees into
towering monsters and the moss dripping from their branches into vampire
cloaks.
Suddenly one seemed to come alive in front of me. I screamed, my
nerves stretched to their limit. The figure raised its arms, like flapping
wings, and spoke.
"Sylvie! What are you doing here?"
I recognized his voice and would have felt foolish if I hadn't
been so upset. You would think I would've known by now that if someone was
going to grab me or loom out of the dark, it was going to be Rhys.
"Gigi's gone," I said, wheezing with fear and
exhaustion. "I followed a noise this way. I have this horrible
feeling--"
He took my shoulders in a steadying grip. "We'll find her.
You said you followed a sound?"
I nodded, then shook my head. I'd trailed the faint cry at first,
but hadn't heard it in a while. Yet my instincts had carried me this way, and
they kept proving smarter than I was.
"Shawn came to the house earlier," I said. My teeth had
started to chatter once I'd stopped moving. It hadn't been this cold up on the
Hill. Rhys rubbed my arms, warming me outside with friction, and inside with
his careful attention. "He wanted me to work with him. Make this crazy
magic dynasty. And when I told him to leave ..." I shivered too hard to
talk.
480
His fingers tightened in anger, but not at me. "Did he hurt
you?"
I shook my head. "No. He didn't even get mad, which was
worse. Maybe he took Gigi or lured her away."
"Sylvie, this is where the two rivers converge, and there's a
flood coming down both of them. We need to get out of here."
Determination burned off fear, and maybe good sense, too. "I
can't leave without Gigi!"
We were yelling over the wind now, which moaned and growled like a
living thing. But it carried something else with it, a real growl, from a real
animal.
I shook off Rhys's hold and ran toward the sound. It led me toward
the bluff where the joined rivers curved around, and the chimney marking the
space that had once housed the prison.
Shock made me stumble. I could see the ghosts now. In the
dusk was a cloud of suggestion, formless hints in pillars of sickly gray light.
Even more appalling were the sounds, wretched moans that pulled at every dark,
miserable part my soul.
Rhys came up beside me as I stared into the cold mist of
suffering. "Can you see her?"
"No." Only masks of horror floating in and out of the
cloud, faces with hopeless eyes, hungry to drag me down with them. Terror stole
away my breath, and my chest burned, as if I were drowning, too.
Then, from the midst of them, I caught a small dog's ferocious
barks, and desperation buoyed me back up. I grabbed Rhys's arm, afraid even to
hope, and
481
somehow dug below the horror for my voice. "Gigi, come
here."
Her next bark was sharp, distinct. Obedient. Standing at the very
edge of the invisible wall that imprisoned the ghosts, so close that the frigid
mist dampened my skin and my hair, I called her again.
Her excited panting reached out from the fog, as if she was
running to me. But then I heard a horrible snap, and a yelp, and a heartrending
cry of pain.
Without thinking, I plunged into the icy haze, feeling Rhys's
grasp just miss me. He called my name, and I knew why Gigi hadn't come to me
sooner. Once inside the cloud of ghosts, I could barely hear anything but their
misery. My heart beat against my ribs and an overwhelming despair clawed
through my insides.
The fog was resilient. It had weight and substance, like flabby
flesh. I heard Gigi's frantic cries, and I pushed forward with renewed resolve.
They are only ghosts. They can't hurt you. I didn't even
know if this was true--it didn't feel true--but I clung to the thought
single-mindedly, or I wouldn't have been able to make myself move.
Reaching, stretching, I grasped something solid and warm. A hand.
A real hand, pulling me out of the fog. Rhys, of course. It always was.
We stood in perfectly normal darkness. I was freezing and soaked
to the bone, and there was ice on my hair. Steam rose from my skin. I'd come
all the way through the prison and out the other side, leaving the ghosts
behind their invisible wall.
But I hadn't found my dog. Rhys wrapped me up in
482
his rain jacket, a cocoon of warmth which crinkled noisily in my
ears as I pushed loose from him. "Where's Gigi? I was following her
barks."
He held on to my arms, and I realized with a jolt how close I'd
come the edge of the bluff. A few steps more, and I would have tumbled into the
river. "Look down," he said, and dread curdled in my gut.
I peered over the side and saw Gigi lying about four feet down a
sheer drop. Her tongue hung out, and she panted heavily. Something inside me
twisted and came undone--the parts the stubborn dog had held together all these
months.
She saw me and tried to get up, but she couldn't. Her whines were
so soft, I could hardly hear them over the rush of the river. "Stay,"
I told her, my voice breaking along with my heart. I tried to make it more
emphatic so she would obey, but could only manage a sob. "Stay,
Gigi."
Rhys's arm was around my waist, keeping me steady as the edge
threatened to crumble under my feet. "Sylvie," he said with gentle
force, getting my attention. There was an anxious warning in his voice.
"Look at the water."
It was rising as we stood there. In maybe five minutes, Gigi would
be carried away in the flood.
"I have to get her." Pushing away my anguish, my fear
for her, I readied myself for an argument, but Rhys didn't protest.
All business, he stripped off his top layer--a long-sleeved
shirt--and handed it to me. "Use this to make a sling for her. I'll lower
you down."
483
"Anchor me above the knee," I told him, to save my tibia
the stress. I crouched in position at the drop-off with a dizzying sense of
déjà vu and a rush of familiar phobia. I tamped it down and kept my eyes on
Gigi.
"Careful," Rhys said as I walked my hands down the
embankment. Whining piteously, Gigi tried to wag her tail as I got nearer. I
hadn't thought I had any heart left to ache, but I was wrong. Slithering down,
I pushed my belly over the edge, then my hips. Rhys's hands tightened on my
knees, holding them securely as he lay on the ground above, counterbalancing my
dangling weight.
By stretching my arms, I was just able to reach Gigi. She cried as
I slipped her into the sling I'd made of Rhys's shirt, and I crooned soothing
nonsense to her. I could barely hear myself above the river. The water had
reached the bottom of the rock that had broken her fall. It splashed us both as
I looped the tied sleeves of the shirt around my neck, cradling Gigi with one
hand, holding myself away from the cliff with the other.
I had no way to fend off the corpse-white hand that came up out of
the water and grabbed my trailing hair. It was indistinct but solid, and it was
definitely, definitely not Rhys.
484
***
Chapter 33
I screamed like I was being murdered, frenzied terror seizing me
as hard as the dead-cold fingers coming out of the river.
Rhys moved lightning fast, jerking me back. My hair slipped
through the grip of the thing under the water, and my stomach lurched with
revulsion. My elbows left huge patches of skin on the dirt and exposed roots as
Rhys dragged me up the embankment; enough reason reached through my panic that
I tried to shelter Gigi the best I could. Rhys and I landed in an awkward
tangle of arms and legs that might have embarrassed me on any
485
other occasion. But not when something drowned and horrible had
tried to drag me to my death.
"How did it grab me?" I shouted, somewhere between
hysteria and a psychotic break. "How did it touch me?"
"I don't know." Rhys hauled me to my feet, wrapped the
discarded slicker around me and the dog shivering in the sling against my
chest. "But we have got to go. Right now."
I felt a rumble, and heard a roar, and looked up to see a wall of
water rushing downstream, pushing the river up and over its banks, taking
lumber and dirt and debris with it.
That wasn't all that came with the water. As the river rose, so
did the ghosts. I watched in sick, frozen horror as they flowed, unearthly,
ahead of the waves. Drowned ghosts, their shapes waterlogged and bloated.
Plague ghosts, their specters gaunt with fever and pocked with disease. They
overran the invisible prison walls, hanged ghosts with broken necks and bulging
tongues, figures with limbs missing, or swollen with sickness.
Rhys pushed me into motion, past the wall of exhaustion and shock.
I tried not to look back as we ran. The air had turned so cold that it seared
my throat, but we kept going. I cradled Gigi, wrapped in the makeshift sling,
trying not to jar her. She'd gone quiet, stopped whining. My own shivers were
so bad, I couldn't tell if she was still shaking or not.
Rhys, holding my hand, headed for a line of sandbags, where we
paused for breath.
"Is everyone gone from this site?" I asked, between
painful attempts to fill my lungs. "Annabeth and Dr. Young are safe?"
486
He nodded, reassuring me there'd be no collateral damage, but
dashing any hope of a ride or help.
We were going to have to move in a moment, but I grasped for a
clue, the chance he knew some magic to stop this. Maybe not the water, but the
ghosts. "This is what you meant when you said bad things happen when you
mess around with the natural balance of things?"
He was working to catch his breath too. "I admit, 'bad
things' may have been an understatement."
I struggled to understand. "And this is the backlash for what
the TTC has been up to?"
Shaking his head, Rhys peered over the sandbags, checking the
advance of the water. "This could be fifty years of previous councils,
previous Maddoxes."
"How does using earth magic give you floods and ghosts?"
"It's all energy, all tied together. They're not entities,
they're just--imprints." He shook his head in confusion. "I don't
know why they're so strong. This is different."
I could feel Gigi now, panting in quick, shallow breaths. When I
stroked her with light fingers, she barely moved, barely whined. "How far
to the house?"
Rhys checked the rising tide again. "It's close, if you go
through the woods. But we'll be closer to the river."
"Let's risk it." I'd been sitting too long; we needed
the rest, but urgency gripped me, tightening the knot of my nerves.
I stumbled a bit when I got up, the muscles of my weak leg going
noodly for a moment. Rhys was ready, steadying me until I had both legs under
me. "Thanks."
On the run through the woods, I was so intent on
487
Gigi, I noticed nothing else. If Rhys hadn't been leading me, I
would have ended up in the river again-- especially as the river was so much
wider than it used to be. In the corner of my eye I could see it creeping up
through the woods, carrying the pine needles like flotsam.
I wasn't even sure when I'd made up my mind what to do. But as we
emerged from the trees, stumbling up the hill and away from the water, I headed
straight for the side garden, and the standing stone.
"Sylvie"--Rhys caught the sleeve of my coat--"we
need to get inside. If it starts to rain--"
He broke off as I unwrapped the sling from around my neck,
cradling my tiny dog in the crook of my arm. "I have to do something,
Rhys." My frantic urgency had become steely determination. "I can't
let her die."
"You want to do more magic, in the middle of all this?"
His voice was hard, incredulous. But searching my expression, his gaze softened
with pity. "I know you love her, but you'll be adding fuel to the
fire."
"But nothing!" All my fury at the world when I broke my
leg solidified to a sharp, painful point. "Bad magic hurt my dog. How is
it balance to let that happen?"
When he didn't have an answer, I pulled away. Stepping into the
center of the garden, I wound through the faint labyrinth pattern and laid Gigi
gently in her favorite spot, on a springy bed of herbs. The damp air thickened
their scent around us, chasing away the smell of the river, the image of the
horrors that came out of it.
I bent my ear to Gigi's side. Her ribs hardly moved and her breath
was faint on my cheek.
488
Sitting back on my heels, I realized, with sinking desperation,
that I didn't know what to do. I knew this place was important. I knew that
working here in this ground had healed me in several ways. But how to evoke
that, I had no clue.
Gigi's breath ran out in a deep sigh. It was a long moment before
she breathed back in, and it didn't come easily. Anguish shredded the last bit
of my heart. I couldn't lose her. What would keep me sane in this new, strange
world of magic?
I raised imploring eyes to Rhys and wiped at the tears I hadn't
noticed I'd shed. "Please, please help me. She's all that I have
left."
He turned his own gaze to the veiled sky, as if seeking answers or
trying to hold on to his resolve. I held my breath in hope as he came to a
decision and sank to his knees facing me. "Sylvie, love. You have
everything and the whole world, and you don't realize it."
I couldn't speak. My throat clenched with emotion. Rhys took my
hands in his, smearing my tears across my fingers with his thumbs. "You've
got everything you need here. I've watched you work in this garden and build
yourself a healing sanctuary. How did you know what to do?"
"Accident." He looked at me, chiding, impatient.
Provoking. "And ... I thought about my dad."
I heard Dad's voice again--another ghost, but this one alive in my
head. Every day I put my hands in the earth, Sylvie, I feel like I cheat the
cancer out of one more day.
Plunging my hands into the earth on either side of Gigi, I spoke
to my dad, to Mother Nature, to God. To
489
whatever force of the universe had made this impossible thing
possible. Please. I know it's another selfish wish. But I'll give up
whatever it takes to restore the balance.
The smell of clean dirt filled my head. My fingers seemed to grow
and lengthen; I seized on the imagery, picturing them seeking help, like roots
after water. Instinct drove me, and I let myself be directed.
Doubling over, I breathed onto Gigi's still muzzle, stirring her
tiny whiskers with life drawn from the ground. I envisioned her bones knitting,
like minute green branches growing together and hardening into wood, and her
poor little heart beating steadily in my hand.
Then, like the slow creep of the dawn, I realized I could feel her
pulse against my palm, and her breath tickling my cheek. I sat up in surprise,
in spite of everything not quite able to believe it.
"It worked." I laughed in amazement, and looked up at
Rhys, my heart full now with joy and wonder and bursting to share it with him.
"I did it! I fixed her, Rhys."
"I know you did, love." He sounded sad, which didn't
make sense when I had just done this incredible thing.
Giddy with excitement, I stroked my dirty hands over Gigi's fur,
feeling her stir gently and without pain. "She's going to be okay."
"He doesn't get it." I jumped at the voice that came
from above us, from the corner of the balcony. With everything else going on,
I'd forgotten about Shawn, but he leaned on the balustrade, looking very at
ease.
490
"Rhys doesn't use his talents. Or so he said when I
asked him to join us."
I climbed warily to my knees, angling myself protectively over
Gigi's still prone body. "What are you doing here, Shawn?"
"Waiting for you." He ambled to the spiral staircase and
descended it in a couple of jumps.
I shot a questioning glance at Rhys. "What's going on? What
does he mean, he asked you to join him?"
Rhys got to his feet and stepped out of the greenery surrounding
the standing stone. "He recognized my potential like I recognized yours.
He wasn't gracious about his offer, but he could have kept watch on me if I was
part of the circle. Which isn't the reason I said no."
Shawn reappeared through the hedges, walking into my garden like
he owned it, and I felt a surge of possessiveness so fierce that my hands
curled into fists. "It's been like reality TV," he said.
"Alliances, challenges, double-dealing. Him watching us, us watching him.
Y'all watching each other."
I rubbed my forehead with gritty fingers, wondering when the
figurative floor was going to stay level beneath me. I kept learning new things
that I had to fit into the pattern. "What was it that kept you from
telling me what was going on, Rhys?"
He sighed, resigned. But his gaze met mine unflinchingly, full of
guilt and self-recrimination. "The mine in Pembrokeshire."
I added up my fragments of clues on the subject. I knew he felt
responsible, only I had figured it was because he couldn't stop what he saw
happening. But this
491
was more than that. My sinking heart made the leap a few seconds
before my brain. "You didn't just come across a circle like this
one," I accused. "You were part one.
"Started it, actually." The admission was brittle, as if
he was braced for my anger. "With a girl from the village, based on their
old traditions. Probably like Shawn started his here."
Why hadn't he told me this? After I told him I trusted him, and
believed he wasn't like Shawn. Betrayal knifed through me, and I stabbed back
with an accusation. "So the mine collapsed because of you."
He flinched, but held my gaze. "We had the best intentions.
Parts of Wales are--well, they're like parts of the American South. Very poor.
The mines peter out, or no one needs what they produce anymore, and towns simply
die. We were just trying to bring some prosperity back to the region."
"Funny how alike our stories are," said Shawn, so smugly
I wanted to punch him in the nose.
"Did you tell him?" I demanded of Rhys, surging to my
feet, careful of Gigi still sleeping in the circle. "Did you warn Shawn
what would happen if the council continued to throw things out of whack?"
"Of course I did," he snapped. "Why do you think I
came here with my dad? When I came across an old article about the monolith at
Bluestone Hill and read about the cycle of prosperity and disaster, I
recognized the pattern. The first thing I did when I realized what Shawn was
doing was warn him. And when he didn't care, I had to figure out what to do to
stop him."
492
"And you, Sylvie," said Shawn, standing opposite Rhys in
the garden. "He knew how powerful you'd be. So did I. Look at what you
just did. You're amazing."
Well, that was true.
"But the water is still rising," I said, wondering now,
too late, what healing Gigi had added to the unbalanced equation. I had no call
to throw stones at Rhys, except that he'd told such a huge lie by omission.
Shawn continued what Shawn did best--sweet-talking me out of my
scruples. "And when the river recedes, think of all the good you can
do." He stepped over the green border of the circle and reached for my
hand. I looked at Rhys, but he didn't move. "You can heal this land and
make it better than it was."
Why didn't Rhys say anything? Why didn't he try and
convince me to be on his side?
"You could speed Clara's healing," said Shawn. "The
council is down in the summerhouse waiting. Whatever you say, goes."
I could do this. There was that tempting pull again, but it didn't
come from Shawn. It came from some place deep inside me. Some part of me that
said I could control this where neither of them could. The circle went way
back, and so did the cycle of prosperity and disaster. I could reverse the
process; when disaster struck, speed the healing, like I'd done my leg.
"Can Rhys join the circle?" I asked. Because if I was
going to be part of some kind of ancient dynastic male-female yin-yang
tradition, it was not going to be with Shawn Maddox.
"Sure thing," said Shawn. Which confirmed he was
493
lying. That was way too easy. "Do you know what this means,
Sylvie? You can fix your leg. Really fix it, not just make it feel better, the
way you have here. You can dance again."
His words reached into my heart like ten clawed, covetous fingers.
I could dance again. I could have back the only thing I'd ever cared about. I
could be whole.
Rhys still watched me in silence, but I saw the flicker in his
eyes, the steeling of his own heart. He thought I was going to say yes. Well, I
couldn't blame him. In that instant I thought I was going to say yes.
The water was still rising. We were running out of time for me to
decide what I was going to be when I grew up. As usual, it was easier to know
what I was not going to be more than what I was.
The decision hurt as if I'd shattered my leg all over again, only
it was my whole being, the person I was, breaking apart. I turned to Shawn,
pulling myself up, poised like the ballerina I would never be again.
"There is no win-win situation here. And I believe you know that."
From the corner of my eye, I saw Rhys shift, a nearly
imperceptible breath of released tension. But Shawn still gripped my hand, and
his fingers tightened as he realized he'd lost his thrall over me. "That's
what you think--"
"Here's what I know, Shawn. If the archaeological park
is washed under by this flood, the state might sell it to Maddox Point pretty
cheap. That's one win for you.
"And I'm the last Davis. I inherit all of this, eventually.
If the bulldozer matchmaking going on here
494
worked, a Maddox would finally have ownership of Bluestone
Hill." That was my theory, anyway. I didn't know if Alabama was a
common-law state, but it was a pretty good guess that a wife's property became
joint on her marriage. Talk about a long-term plan on the part of the Maddox
men.
"It must be really inconvenient for you that I sort of hate
your guts right now."
My mouth was running now without any sense of self-preservation. I
knew Shawn was more calculating than he appeared. But part of me still believed
he was just trying to play the odds in his favor and that he would give in
easily when I stood up to him.
That was a miscalculation. He proved his vicious-ness in the grip
on my hand. It tightened until I felt the bones grind together, and I gave a
surprised gasp of pain.
Rhys jumped forward, but not before Shawn yanked me out of the
green circle and up against him, twisting my arm around behind my back until I
cried out and went up on my tiptoes, trying to relieve the pressure on the
joint.
"Stop there, English, or we'll see if you can fix her broken
arm."
I made another sound, this one not of pain but of fear, because
when Shawn spun me around, I faced the river. "Rhys, look. The lawn. The
water."
He glanced behind him and his shoulders stiffened as he saw what I
meant. The water was creeping up toward the summerhouse. And bringing its
unearthly entourage with it.
495
I think he's bringing them," I said with horrified awe. I
knew Shawn had an uncanny ability to charm and sway people. The specters would
be even easier because they had no will of their own. "He's controlling
them. Oh my God. You did make the Colonel's ghost throw Clara down the
stairs."
"Shut up!" Shawn wrenched my arm up higher, twisting a
cry of pain from me.
And then, suddenly, he was screaming. Shawn let go of my
wrist and I slipped out of his hold, stunned to see a six-pound ball of muddy
fluff attached to his leg. Gigi was awake. She'd gotten up under his jeans and
clamped onto his Achilles tendon. And she was not letting go.
Rhys didn't waste the opportunity. He jumped Shawn and they went
down with a hard crash into the gravel. Gigi let go, and I scooped her up in my
good arm and scrambled out of the way. Rhys's fists were flying and I had to
wonder where a professor's son had learned to fight like that.
Unfortunately, it looked like Shawn Maddox knew what he was doing,
too, as my shoulder could attest. I didn't even see how he did it--magic? Oh my
God, anything was possible--but he threw Rhys into a hedge, then went after
him.
My mind was spinning through the past few minutes, checking lost
bits of conversation. The council was in the summerhouse, which was going to be
underwater in a few minutes. Not to mention overrun by the ghost army. Why
weren't they running and screaming in fear? Where they in a similar thrall?
496
In a decisive burst of insight, I knew what to do. While the boys
tore through my garden and the drowned legion advanced, I ran for the standing
stone.
The rock seemed to hold on to the moisture in the air, staying
dark and wet the whole day. It should have been cold to the touch, but it felt
warm and alive. The stone wasn't magic, but it was the focal point of something
huge and mystical, and I opened myself up to that idea and flung myself off the
cliff of reason and logic, into the swirling ocean of
I-might-be-crazy-but-I-don't-care.
And I didn't fall.
A tide of energy rose and caught me. It seemed to carry me to a
dizzying height, until I was looking down at the land from far above, a
satellite image of this earth. My earth. I could see lines of energy running
through it like a net of light, dim and broken in places, shining too bright
and hot in others, like a fuse about to go out.
Too high. Too far.
The dancer who flings herself around the stage ends up injured or
unemployed. She always places herself. That's what gives her balance.
That's what gives her control.
I came back down, in my body but still with the extra layer of
awareness. I could see the lines of power that connected Shawn to the ghosts.
With a wave of my hand, I cut the cords that bound them, surprised at how easy
it was. Of course, that was setting things to rights. What I did next was more
difficult. I pointed at the grass at Shawn's feet and tripped him as he ran at
Rhys again.
497
He hit the ground and Rhys grabbed his arm, taking a page from
Shawn's own book, and twisted it up behind his back. Shawn thrashed and cursed,
but couldn't move.
Leaving the stone, I felt the connection stretching along with me,
unthinned by distance. I crouched in front of Shawn, grabbed a handful of
purple flowers from the herbs beneath him, and dropped them over him, picturing
a blanket of sleep. He stopped thrashing.
Rhys looked at me, breathing hard, bleeding from his nose and his
lip. "You are taking to this rather quickly."
"I'm a natural," I said, oddly calm. I didn't think it
was shock. I felt too right.
Trusting my spell to hold, Rhys stood and offered his hand to help
me up. I stood without it. "How could you believe that I would go along
with him?" I accused.
He looked at me levelly. "Weren't you thinking of it?"
"That's--" Completely true. "Completely beside the
point."
Screams from the summerhouse interrupted what was probably a
dead-end argument. When Shawn had gone unconscious, it must have released
whatever hold he had on the council. They seemed to be only now noticing what
was going on, and I was amazed at his ability. It must have taken a lot of
power to keep nearly a dozen people as complacent as he'd kept the town about
the TTC's activities.
"Come on," said Rhys, and we ran for the spiral
498
staircase at the corner of the balcony, Gigi still in the crook of
my arm. I climbed quickly, and Rhys and I assessed the situation from the
better vantage point.
The water was already up around the bottom of the summerhouse, and
there were still ghosts, milling about as if they had nowhere to go now that
they had lost their direction.
Kimberly and the others leaned out the door, but understandably
didn't want to come further as the water swirled and eddied around the steps.
That, and the ghosts.
Rhys wiped the blood from under his nose and rubbed his hand on
his jeans. "This is going to be a big job. Are you up for it?"
"Are you?" I asked, since all I'd seen him do tonight
was use his fists.
He turned to me, his face beat up, his clothes filthy, his
expression wary. "We'll have to really trust each other."
"I can probably fake it for long enough." It wasn't
really the time for jokes. But it also wasn't the time for a long discussion on
how trust involved telling your ally--that was accurate, if
incomplete--everything pertinent before the bad guy forces you to. It wasn't
his error in judgment that made me wonder if I could trust him again, but that
he hadn't told me about it.
"No, Sylvie," Rhys said, urgent, but careful to catch
and hold my gaze. "I trust you, now more than ever. You have to trust me
like you'd trust your old partner not to drop you on your head."
I studied him for as long as I dared, with the crisis
499
all around us. Then I admitted, "I trust you, Rhys. My heart
is smarter than my brain, and I should listen to it."
He smiled, just a quick acknowledgment, and I faced the river,
offering him my hand. Rhys took it, my left in his left, and stood behind me.
Then he surprised me by putting an arm around my waist, like we were starting a
pas de deux. My senses expanded again, my awareness of the world, but this time
Rhys's hold kept me grounded, linking realities, focusing my perceptions like a
lens.
I saw the web lines of power, the hot nodes and the sickly dim
ones, but now I was able to relate them to where we were. There was a line
connecting the ruins of Old Cahawba, the Hill, the church and the town, and all
along the line the energy was off. Out of proportion. It skewed the beauty of
this unseen, extrasensory landscape.
With water imagery on my mind, I pictured myself opening dams
where the line connected to others, equalizing the pressure. Evening the flow
of the earth's energy.
"Can we hold back the water so they can get out of the
summerhouse?" Rhys's voice was low in my ear.
I blinked, and saw that the ghosts had gone. Nothing but shades,
they'd disappeared as shadows did when you flicked on the light.
"Okay," I said. With our linked hands I made a motion,
like pushing back a curtain. The wave swept back--I couldn't help a gasp of
amazement--and the Teen Town Council made a run for it. They helped
500
one another up the wet and slippery slope, toward the house and
high ground.
Defying physics was more difficult than righting the natural order
of supernatural energy. My knees began to shake, and Rhys's arm tightened
around my waist, flooding me with strength. Even he was breathing hard, though,
when the last boy was out of the gazebo and running for the house.
We let go together, and the water swept forward, taking the
summerhouse with it. But everyone inside was safe. And the ghosts
were--mostly--laid to rest.
The very last thing was done quickly. But a deal was a deal, and
you don't get something for nothing. As Gigi looked up at me, monitoring
everything with a serene doggy calm, I took a sad but resolute breath, laced my
fingers with Rhys's and balanced the last equation.
I knew my leg would continue to heal without help. What I didn't
realize was how much the garden's energy was keeping me propped up. The night's
worth of stress and running and fighting surged through me, and with a cry of
pain and surprise, I went crashing down, neither leg supporting me anymore.
It was a good thing Rhys was there to catch me.
501
***
Chapter 34
There were some seriously frantic parents by the time things were
all over. The sheriff showed up, kids were ferried home, there were a lot of
tears on all sides. Now that decades of accumulated imbalance had been reset,
Shawn didn't have the same power to draw on. If I needed proof of that, I found
it in Shawn's face as the sheriff read him the riot act for endangering all the
teens with his prank.
None of the kids could recall how they got there. And most of them
were also fuzzy on the details of what
502
they did during their normal meetings. Kimberly did remember that
Clara was in the hospital, and told me to tell Addie to call her.
Rhys's dad arrived just as the last car pulled away. The waters
were receding almost as quickly as they'd risen, and the state police had
opened up the roads that were out of danger. Professor Griffith made tea--
naturally--and we ate by candlelight--cold cereal with tepid soy milk--while I
gave him the official version of the evening's events: Rhys had been busy at
the archaeological park, I'd been reading in my room, and we had no idea that
Shawn Maddox had organized a get-together of thrill-seeking teens in the
summerhouse. That is, until they barely escaped serious injury as the
floodwaters knocked down the building.
"I never had a good feeling about that Maddox boy," said
the professor. "Despite his last name."
"What about his last name?" I asked, recalling the
conversation vaguely.
"Maddox. It's an anglicization of Madoc. Quite the
coincidence, isn't it?"
"Yes. But you said it was unrelated." I wondered if
other people would be realizing things about the Maddoxes that they hadn't
before, now that Shawn's charm had run out. He would still have his natural
good looks, though, so perhaps not.
Rhys held his watch to the light of one of the candles.
"Isn't it getting late, Dad? I'll bet you're knackered."
Professor Griffith checked his own watch. "Heavens. It feels
much later than it is. I'll bet you youngsters are done in as well."
503
"A bit," I admitted in a colossal understatement. I
could barely move, and my leg hurt like someone had been hammering on it.
"I really want a bath, though. Is the water heater gas, do you know?"
"You could try it and see." The professor rose from the
table with a stretch. "There will be some cleanup to do in the morning, so
let's get an early start. We don't want Paula to come home to any more of a
disaster than she has to."
I smiled slightly, imagining that Paula would have a lot to say
about the mess. Her ordered life had been anything but since I'd gotten here.
***
The water heater, thank heavens, worked just fine. I sank my
aching body into the scalding water and felt every scratch, scrape and bruise
sting and protest. I lay in the water, thinking, until it was cool enough to
give Gigi a quick rinse. She seemed to have no lingering effects from her
adventures, but I didn't let her paddle or play.
I was startled by how much I didn't regret my tradeoff. My leg
would continue to heal, at its own rate, and if simply working in the garden
helped it along, I would take that. But the help I'd gotten tonight--running
through the woods, rescuing Gigi, facing Shawn--had been extraordinary. I mean
extra-extraordinary, and I didn't regret giving up that step toward temptation.
Besides soaking my aching body, there was another motive behind my
leisurely bath. When I came out, the house was quiet and dark--no flicker of
candlelight
504
from downstairs or the professor's room. Holding Gigi's tags to
keep them quiet, I snuck down the hall to Rhys's door, but he didn't answer my
quiet tap. Returning to my own room, I wasn't at all surprised to find him
waiting for me.
He sprawled on the bed, looking cleaner than when I'd left him in
the kitchen. "You took long enough," he said, checking out my latest
borrowed sleepwear--a set of plaid flannel pajamas. I practically swam in them,
but I was still chilled, and they were perfect and warm. Not to mention modest.
"I needed the soak." I set Gigi on the floor, and she
immediately jumped on the bed to greet our visitor.
"I had to make do with a cold splash in my
room," said Rhys, bringing all kinds of pictures to mind. He'd left a
candle burning on the nightstand, and it cast appealing shadows on his sculpted
face.
"It's a good thing it's so dark in the house," I said.
"Or your dad would have wondered about your newest bruises."
"Oh, he asked me. I told him I got in a fight over a lady's
honor."
I pulled the towel from my head and combed through my hair with my
fingers. "Are we going to talk about what really happened?"
Rhys paused in petting Gigi. "We were both there."
"Let's compare notes." I sat on the very edge of the
bed, unaccountably shy now that we weren't in the middle of life-and-death
crises. "Tell me about Prince Madoc."
He sat up and took a length of my hair between his fingers, toying
with it idly as he spun the tale. "Once
505
upon a time, there was a Welsh nobleman named Madoc. He had a
brother, and both of them were in contention for their father's throne. Rather
than risk a civil war, Madoc went exploring and found new lands to conquer,
with no one to contest him. He sailed back to Wales, and gathered up a group of
men and women to return with him to this New World."
"Simple enough."
"You would think so." He kept playing with my hair,
winding it around his finger. "But there was a princess involved."
"Of course there was." Women always complicate things.
That was what made stories, and life, interesting.
"She was meant to marry the brother, but Madoc persuaded her
to come away with him to this undiscovered country. Some say he kidnapped her;
others say they were truly in love."
"But it's the same pattern as Hannah and her suitors."
At his blank look, I had to explain the whole thing from the diary. Then, more
reluctantly, I pointed out, "And there's you, and me, and Shawn. Even
though you're not brothers. Is it coincidence? Or were we cast in these roles
when we got here? Did we never have a choice in how we felt?"
He caught my anxious gaze with his own steady one. "We always
have choices, Sylvie. And patterns can be broken."
"But"--I wasn't done yet--"what if we leave here,
and I don't feel this way anymore? About you."
He didn't look worried. "Do you think that's going to
happen?"
506
I studied his face, which wasn't impassive at all. With the
smallest flickers of expression, I could read his calm confidence in the
future. That was different than when we'd met. I'd gotten better at reading
him, but he'd also let me in. Maybe not by choice at first. But here we were,
sitting on my bed in the middle of the night.
"No," I said, answering his question, then turning it
around. "Do you?"
Taking two handfuls of my hair, like pigtails, he pulled me close,
laying his forehead against mine. "I think I loved you before I ever got
here. So no, I don't think that will change when we leave."
Wetting my lips, I could feel his breath kissing them, from just
inches away. "So," I whispered, "what are we going to do
now?"
"I suggest we stop asking questions," he said, and shut
me up very effectively.
After a few minutes--by which I mean a blissful, long, unhurried
span of undetermined time--we lay on top of the covers of my lumpy bed and
exhaustion took over. I fell asleep between kisses, but not so deeply that I
didn't grab Rhys when he tried to leave. He gave in, curled around me and
flipped the quilt up over us both.
***
I woke, freezing cold, despite my flannel pj's, and being
sandwiched between Rhys and Gigi, who'd managed to take her usual place behind
my knees. The icy
507
air seemed to creep in under the door and through the keyhole.
The Colonel did not approve. I closed my eyes again against a wave
of guilt. I'd forgotten something important. I still didn't know why Jacob had
left Hannah or what had happened to her baby.
***
The next morning when I woke, Rhys was gone, back in his own room
before his lousy chaperone of a father was awake, and before all the excitement
began.
When the flood took out the summerhouse, it revealed something
else. A ring of standing stones, blue-stone, like the one in the garden, each
about two feet high. They'd been under the summerhouse. Which, in retrospect,
made great sense.
Rhys, once he got over beating himself up for scouring half the
county for something right under his nose, was giddy with excitement. Not
because of the magical implications, but because Paula gave him permission to
take a sample and compare all the rocks to the ones native to Wales, so he
could find out if they really had come from there, like the Stonehenge stones.
It wouldn't mean anything to his father's research unless he could
prove how long they'd been at the Hill, but it was interesting to find out that
Rhys was a complete nerd about rocks, for no other reason than that he thought
they were cool.
508
The resolution to Hannah's story wasn't so quick or dramatic as
the destruction of the summerhouse. It took me getting up the nerve for a
thorough search of the Colonel's office for the missing pages of Reverend
Holzphaffel's diary. I came up empty, but it gave me the idea to go into Rhys's
room and check the desk there-- the twin to the one in mine.
In the matching secret compartment, I found the missing pages,
read them, then carried them back to my room and put them in Hannah's desk,
along with her diary. I knew what Hannah was searching for in the woods, and
she wasn't looking for death.
And Dad must have known too. Who else could have secreted those
pages there? It was only speculation--the way my connection with Hannah was
only speculation-- but I imagined Dad going through a journey similar to mine
his last summer here. Paired up with Rainbow by the town, discovering the
potential in the earth here, rousing the ghosts.
I didn't know where he'd found the pages from the reverend's
journal. They were the originals, so someone must have torn them out and hidden
them long before Holzphaffel's relative ever got hold of the books. I was
guessing Dad discovered them in the Colonel's office, where I expected to find
them. He'd read what Holzphaffel had suspected happened at Bluestone Hill, the
story that I'd just read. Dad had seen what the manipulation of power could
lead to, the kind of thing our family was capable of, and he had walked away to
start his own life.
But I wasn't my dad, and I wasn't really about sticking
509
secrets in drawers. So I read the reverend's pages again, and made
a plan for how to reveal the secrets written in them.
***
On the day the river receded from the woods, I took Gigi and Rhys
with me and went searching.
"What are we looking for?" Rhys asked, helping me over a
spot where the water had left the ground crumpled like the front of a wrecked
car.
"I think Gigi was on the trail of it the night of the
flood," I said, watching her plumed tail like a beacon as she trotted
ahead of us. "Before she got turned around by too many ghosts."
For this, my new senses came in handy. I knew when we were close,
and hurried after Gigi when she started running. My limp was back--not always,
but definitely on long, uneven treks like this one.
Rhys and I found Gigi quickly, sitting under a bedraggled lilac
tree. I dropped to my knees and dug in the soft mud with my fingers. Even if
I'd thought about bringing any of my gardening tools, I wouldn't use them for
this.
Surprisingly close to the surface, I touched something hard yet
porous. By this time, Rhys had put my actions together with the story I'd told
him, and leaned over my shoulder to see. "Is that it?"
"Yes." All that was left of the tiny skeleton was the
skull and a few of the bigger bones. I left them all where they were.
510
Rhys took out his phone. "Dr. Young will know what to do.
What do you want me to tell him?"
"That the flood uncovered these, and Gigi found them on our
walk." I paused. "Let's leave the fact that my
great-great-grandfather was a murderer out of the story."
"It could have been Ethan Maddox," he offered, as if
that would make me feel better.
I shook my head. "I think he may be responsible for his
brother disappearing. But it's not Ethan who watches Hannah search for her
baby."
***
Reverend Watkins agreed to let the bones be interred next to
Hannah Davis's exiled grave, even though they were never really identified.
There's not much left of a newborn to test for a DNA match.
I was content. Hannah could stop looking for the child her father
had left out in the woods to die, and the baby could finally rest with the
mother it barely knew.
And with nothing to watch, the Colonel disappeared, too. I would
attribute it to shame that his deed had been discovered, but he was just a
shade, repeating a pattern that had now been broken.
511
Epilogue
On the day I turned eighteen, I received access to the Davis trust
fund. On the day after that, I made my cousin Paula and her partner a
no-interest loan sufficient to renovate Bluestone Hill and (finally) open it as
an inn. She could even hire someone to do the work for her--including the
painting.
Which was fortunate, because the bluestone monolith and stone
circle made the Travel Channel's list of "Mysterious Places to Stay
Overnight," and the inn was booked up before the paint was even dry.
512
Professor Griffith finished his book, and it was about as widely
read as you would expect. One of his colleagues called it "well researched
but absurd." I think the professor considered that a compliment.
Maddox Point was built, but it became Cahawba Point, a village of
rustic rental lodges, where people could enjoy the unspoiled beauty of the
Cahaba River. No ATVs or powerboats allowed.
Shawn Maddox missed the cutoff for his college paperwork, and
ended up getting a job at the Daisy Café. I didn't expect that would last,
because he was still Tom Sawyer, even without the magic charm. But it gave me
satisfaction for the moment.
I saw Addie in an ad in Seventeen recently. She looked
gorgeous, sulky and petulant, and I'm sure it will sell a ton of perfume.
Mother and Dr. Steve are unaccountably happy. He really loves her,
and she really loves that he loves her. So it all works out.
I told John about my adventure, and he didn't think I was crazy.
I'm not sure what made me trust him, except that he used to be the only one who
cared what happened to me.
But not any longer. Now there's Rhys.
Because of Rhys, I found out what a hassle it is to get a student
visa to the UK. Apparently the British like something more definite than
"undeclared" as a major. I know I have a lot to learn, but where does
helping the world with your supernatural green thumb fit into a traditional
course of study?
At least they no longer have a quarantine on dogs.
513
Rhys says we'll figure it out.
Eighteen may be young to know you want to spend the rest of your
life with someone, but I felt like this had been several lifetimes coming, and
didn't want to waste a moment of this one.
514
515
Author's Note
Cahawba (often spelled Cahaba) is a real place, and I've worked a
lot of its history into Sylvie's story. The Davis and Maddox families are
entirely fictional, there is no Bluestone Hill or Maddox Landing, and I've
tweaked the geography a bit. And though, as far as I know, there is no nexus of
earth magic at the junction of the Cahaba and Alabama Rivers, if you walk
around Old Cahaba Park, it takes only a little imagination to see the ghosts of
the houses and bustling streets of Alabama's first state capital. For more
information on the park and the preservation efforts there, visit
www.cahawba.com.
516
517
Acknowledgments
Thanks to the staff of Old Cahawba Park for answering my questions
(and for maintaining such a useful bookstore and Web site). Liberties and
outright mistakes in history and geography are all my own.
This book is my friend Cheryl Smyth's fault. She introduced me to
Old Cahawba, and to the natural beauty of a state I'd long assumed was all
about Confederate flags in the back of pickups at NASCAR races. Also, it's
handy having a mad scientist on call.
Credit also goes to my friends and critique partners, Candace
Havens and Shannon Canard, who suffered through some very rough drafts and a
few hysterical phone calls. And to Mom, who let me drive her car through some
really rutted Alabama roads in the name of research. And to my husband, Tim,
who has come to take so much in stride.
Much gratitude goes to my agent, Lucienne Diver, who totally gets
where I come from, because she comes from there, too. But this time I have to
give extra kudos to my editor, Krista Marino, who pushed Sylvie (and me) out of
our comfort zones to make this book (even) better. I'm so lucky to work with
her, and with all the folks at Random House.
And, as always, I'm grateful to teachers and librarians for their
support, and to my readers, who are awesome.
517
518
[Image: Rosemary Clement-Moore. Silver Screen Photography.]
ROSEMARY CLEMENT-MOORE lives and writes in Arlington, Texas. The
Splendor Falls is her fourth book for young readers. You can visit Rosemary
at www.readrosemary.com.