The Crystal Stair, Pt. I

By Charles Coleman Finlay & Rae Carson Finlay

Issue #3, November 6, 2008      

 

 

 

An aged vaim stood guard in the elegantly arched doorway of the concubines’ chamber, sunken into his robes like a shriveled piece of fruit; the sea breeze that snaked through the honeycombed halls of the tower carried his death stench to Khatire’s delicate nose.

 

She lifted her hand, as smooth as the stones polished by the waves, and held it thoughtfully to her mouth, pinching her nose shut surreptitiously. In a hundred-fifty or two hundred years, long after she was dead and her body devoured by the spinrag, her son could be standing there, his rotting flesh locked to living spirit to serve his father, his emperor, and god. The three were, after all, one.

 

Or, her son might be anointed to climb the Crystal Stair. He might, if Khatire schemed well and used all her talents, become emperor and god himself.

 

She had stared too long. The vaim lifted his cowled head in her direction. His red eyes burned beneath the shadow of his hood and a chuckle escaped the decayed meat of his mouth.

 

A voice from the far end of the room startled her: “Khatire.”

 

It was Ankha, the emperor’s head concubine, the one currently chosen to have her son attempt the stair.

 

Khatire turned languidly. Ankha sat on a cushioned throne at the high end of the chamber, overseeing a double row of Khatire’s sister-wives, each situated within her own engraved and gilded arch. Khatire’s place was all the way at the end, near the door. “My lady?”

 

Ankha lifted her chin toward the lute in Khatire’s lap. “Entertain us.”

 

As one, the other concubines turned from embroidery or quiet chatter to gaze at Khatire. Nefaria, hidden deep within her archway at the foot of Ankha’s pillowed throne, said, “Please, my lady, don’t make the rest of us suffer simply because you’re bored.”

 

Ankha scowled at her and waved a hand impatiently at Khatire, who obediently plucked a series of mournful minor chords on the lute strings. A melody suggested itself to her, a poignant tune of youth, beauty, and death. She experimented a little, adding fear in counterpoint. Ankha settled back in her chair and closed her eyes. A smile stretched across her statue-perfect face, a smug, fed-kitten smile that beamed familiar triumph. A triumph that Khatire understood far too well.

 

Someone was going to die.

 

Khatire fumbled an E-minor, inhaled deeply to still her heart, and continued to play. Her eyes darted about the room as she tried to determine which of them it would be. It relieved her to rule out the pregnant ones. The Emperor tolerated his concubines’ petty assassinations, was even amused by them. But His Splendor needed children—they were his eyes and ears in the world, the vessels of his power while he remained in exile—and no one dared harm one, even unborn. Khatire dismissed the women with limited magic next, then the witless ones, and settled on two possibilities.

 

Lhare or Nefaria.

 

Lhare was a tiny white-haired girl, lovely in spite of her red-chafed skin, who sat even nearer the door. Khatire’s strumming pattern softened as she watched the delicate child huddle on a red silk cushion, toes burrowed into a sheepskin. It was no secret that after each tryst with the emperor, Lhare went straight to the baths. There, she scrubbed her skin until it was as raw and bloody as if she had stood naked in a sandstorm. Naturally, he sent for her often. Ankha despised her.

 

But Ankha seemed to despise Nefaria more. Nefaria was Khatire’s chambermate, and the closest thing she had to a friend among the women. The emperor had not favored Nefaria of late—indeed, she worked hard to escape his notice—but her wit could slice stone, and she was brave enough, or foolish enough, to take cuts at Ankha.

 

Khatire pressed down hard enough to feel the lute strings through her calluses. Please not Nefaria. She couldn’t imagine sleeping at night without whispering to Nefaria first. A few years ago, before the birth of her son, she would have dared to intervene, maybe even used magic to keep Nefaria alive. Now, she dodged every risk. Her jaw locked. I must stay alive for my son.

 

She finished her prelude and closed her eyes to sing, reaching only for the oldest, most familiar version of the song. It seemed tragic to her that the concubines of the god-emperor of Viridis had only a lute and endless embroidery with which to amuse themselves. She wondered if that, more than anything, was why they killed each other.

 

The resolving chord faded, and she held onto the final note, letting it linger in the air like the last light of day before the sun sank in the ocean.

 

Silence. And then a single applause.

 

Khatire lifted her head. There, just inside the doorway, at the arch of the fragile Lhare, stood Emperor Damijan, the god in exile. His eyes—like her son’s but for their cruelty—were sky blue and surrounded by lashes and brows so black the contrast was uncanny. A harsh jaw and black hair framed his face, which was filled, as always, with unreadable intent. Her heart beat at the base of her throat. Heaven save me, he’s beautiful.

 

“That has always been my favorite song, Khatire.”

 

She dropped her eyes. “I hope you enjoyed my performance, Your Splendor.” Heat filled her cheeks, and she instinctively twisted the fall of light around her face to disguise the blush.

 

Khatire nearly cursed at her own stupidity. She had used magic in the concubines’ chamber! Tensed for retribution, she glanced to see if he had noticed.

 

But he had reached down with his long fingers and stroked Lhare’s white hair as if she were a favorite dog. “Yes, even more than the song, I enjoyed the sound of your lovely voice.”

 

“Thank you, Splendor.”

 

“Attend me this evening.”

 

Khatire inclined her head in perfect composure, though he had not called on her in weeks. When she looked up, he was gone. Lhare pulled a silk blanket across herself and curled into a ball among her pillows. The vaim stood wide of the door, as if to distance himself from the man it was impossible for him to ever become.

 

“Well, well, Khatire.” Ankha’s voice, from the far end of the chamber. Khatire turned and saw the head concubine’s pretty mouth fixed in a rigid line. When Ankha was angry, the emperor’s poisoned seed revealed itself as black veins under her skin, the first lines of the soul-rot that would leave her a wasted shell long before she reached old age. “Luck is definitely yours this evening.”

 

Oh, gods. It was me. She was going to kill me. And the emperor has ruined her plans.

 

The eunuch Tuamutef groomed Khatire in the readying room. He fussed and scolded with mock gravity, accompanied by the constant tinkle of the bell earrings that marked his station.

 

Khatire sat on a cushioned stool as he massaged musky oil into her calloused fingertips and brushed her black hair until it shimmered. He’d selected a gown of gauzy aqua to set off her dusky skin and blue-green eyes. She knew that she was beautiful in it, but it felt like her death shroud.

 

“I will light a candle to Natrix tonight and pray that you conceive,” Tuamutef told her.

 

It was a ritual, something he said to each of the women before sending them to Damijan.

 

“If you have an extra candle,” Khatire said, “please light it to Cerastes and pray she does not embrace me too soon.”

 

The brush halted mid-air. He squatted to look her in the eye. “Why do you say this?”

 

“Ankha would have killed me tonight were it not for the emperor’s desire.”

 

Tuamutef had discovered her in the offering pens years ago, and pulled her out before slavery made her unsuitable for the emperor. After years of his painstaking preparation and instruction, the emperor claimed her and sent her to the concubines’ tower. She’d been sixteen years old. Tuamutef earned a new bedchamber for it, one with a sitting room that overlooked the sea.

 

He studied her face. “You are sure?”

 

She hesitated. Years of unremitting fear made her taste poison in every dish and see a knife in every shadow. But then she remembered Ankha’s smile. “I am sure.”

 

Tuamutef set the brush down and rubbed his fleshy stomach. “Do not eat anything from the lounge or dining room. I will have food sent directly to your chamber.”

 

“Thank you, Tuamutef.”

 

 “There will be a dagger hidden with the food. But, please!” His small eyes were plaintive. “If you are caught with it, do not tell them it was I who—”

 

“Of course not, Tuamutef.”

 

He paced. “And ring for me before you go to the baths. Do not go alone.”

 

Khatire remembered Aphri’s body in the great marble pool, floating face-down, swollen and stiff. Her wet hair had hugged the surface, a shiny black starburst among the clouds of soap film. Ankha had loudly mourned the tragic accident, but before they threw the corpse to the spinrag, Khatire saw the purple finger-sized marks circling Aphri’s throat. “I will ring for you.”

 

Tuamutef poured himself a drink of wine. When he swallowed it, he returned to massage her scalp, his touch gentle and soothing. “You must live.”

 

He alone knew the extent of her Gift. The emperor needed a Paha Vaim, an heir powerful enough to remain whole in the face of his father’s magic instead of rotting away into a living death like all the others. Only then would Damijan’s exile end and he be permitted to rejoin the other gods. Anut-Ka, Khatire’s four-year-old son, might be the Paha Vaim, but it would be years before they knew for sure.

 

Khatire performed one of her lesser tricks with light. Glittering stars rained down from the ceiling and circled Tuamutef’s head. In the offering pens, she had only been able to change the color of flames, make green light dance on candletips, but it had been enough even then to draw the eunuch’s attention.

 

She wanted to see him smile, to give him something in return for the risk he was running for her. But he shook his head, almost angrily, and she blinked the lights out of existence.

 

“You know...,” he started to say.

 

“I know,” she interrupted. If Anut-Ka had inherited her Gift, or one equally as powerful, then he might be tutored to survive the poison of bearing the blood of god. Until then, if any of the concubines with greater status and lesser magic discovered the truth of Khatire’s gift, her death would be swift and certain. Revealing her talent to Damijan might only hasten her murder. He seemed to think that their competition with each other was the best way to find someone strong enough to breed his heir. He could wait for centuries, after all.

 

“Do not presume to be safe tonight, my dear child,” Tuamutef cautioned. “Especially when you are returning from His Splendor’s chambers. Ankha is clever. If you are lucky, we can announce a pregnancy a month from now, and that will gain us another year’s reprieve. Until then, I will help you in any way I can.”

 

Khatire stood, the hem of the gauzy dress falling to the floor like the chains of iron fetters. “Thank you, Tuamutef.”

 

The bells on his ears already jangled down the hallway, fading away to nothing.

 

Two armed vaimen waited to escort her to the emperor. They were accompanied by one of the favored daughters, a girl no more than nine or ten, who bore a thurible that burned incense to mask their smell. The four of them paraded silently through the corridors of the concubines’ tower to the Bridge of Broken Wings. They stopped at the foot of the bridge and Khatire continued alone, stepping across the gently curved arch that connected the tower to the emperor’s spire. A constant wind rushed through the pointed arches formed by the wings of granite angels. Hundreds of feet below, the tide surged between the cliffs, dashing waves on the black rocks. One night, Marijan, unable to bear children and unwilling to face the emperor’s tainted touch one more time, had stepped onto the ledge between two angels and leapt toward heaven. She lay shattered on the rocks below until the gulls picked clean her bones.

 

Khatire stayed to the center of the path, following the shallow groove worn in the stone by the passage of thousands of feet, until she reached the other side and followed a short corridor to the lowest chamber of the spire. A large circular bed dominated the room, a squat platform with white drapes hanging from a pointed canopy.

 

The room’s other doorway opened onto the Crystal Stair, spiraling steps wrought by magic that burned with their own inner light. The stair led to the emperor’s spire. Even the strongest vaimen grew ill after climbing the first few levels; no one but the Paha Vaim could ascend to the highest chamber. On the day that happened, the emperor’s exile would end and he would take vengeance on his fellow gods.

 

Khatire could not think of that day without shaking. A flagon of wine rested on a small mahogany table next to the ridiculous bed. She poured a healthy amount into the jeweled goblet and then set it aside. There were slow-acting poisons that would not kill her for a day or two. Ankha’s assassins could reach this far, and would, if she meant her own son to ascend those stairs. Only if Anut-ka climbed the crystal stairs would she ever be free. She pushed aside the flimsy drape and crawled onto the huge bed.

 

A gentle caress against her cheek startled her.

 

“Khatire.”

 

She turned over and saw the emperor’s unlikely blue eyes looming over her.

 

“Your Splendor,” she breathed. Fingertips whispered down her face, her neck, to the base of her throat where they rested. His touch burned, and she wondered if this was one of his Gifts, this glamour that made her desire him so.

 

He bent down and kissed her on the neck; his soft hair tickled her jawline.

 

“I sense the magic in you,” he whispered in her ear. “Though you keep it hidden, my clever girl.”

 

What did that mean? Would he favor her, or throw her like a bone to Anhka? “Anut-ka carries my Gift within him as well, your Splendor,” she whispered, knowing it might not be true, knowing there would be no way to tell for years.

 

“We do not speak of my vaimen here,” he said.

 

She nodded in acceptance of his correction, and, forcing herself to relax, began to unbutton his vest. As she worked, he held her face in deep contemplation. Something glinted in his eyes, something furtive like the cold reflective edge of a dagger in flight, but with his fingers so near her breasts, she didn’t care.

 

“You’re not afraid of me, are you, clever girl?” His fingers trailed down the gauze of her gown. His hand splayed across the belly that had already given him one son.

 

“No,” she whispered truthfully, arching into the warmth of his palm.

 

Not now. Not like this. Only afterward, when my body is full of your poison and my soul is black with your rot.

 

She reached up with both hands, pulled his head down, and kissed him fiercely.

 

Much later she awoke alone, both satiated and sick, in a room dark but for the cold pinprick light of the stars piercing the narrow window slits.

 

She understood why Lhare scoured herself so brutally in the baths. The emperor’s touch was a slow-working venom, a malignancy of decay that she could taste in her mouth like a burned spice. Normally, Khatire would have retired to the baths at once, accepted the pampering of the offering slaves, and then returned to her own sleeping chamber, the small room she shared with Nefaria.

 

But as difficult as it was to accept, she knew she would never be safe anywhere in the concubines’ tower again. No, if the emperor had noticed her true Gift, then others also suspected.

 

She pushed her head back into a pillow, covering her eyes with her palms. It was almost too overwhelming to face. Then she thought of Anut-ka and blessed Natrix for giving her reason to persevere. If she could convince Ankha that she was weak, she could use the poison she had collected from the spinrag—

 

Air stirred like a candle flame brushed by a moth’s wing.

 

Khatire sat straight up in the huge bed, every sense afire, but she searched in vain for the cause of her alarm. The air was warm, but not oppressive. A cooler, brackish breeze filtered through the open windows and bantered with the bed’s silken drapes before brushing across her naked flesh. The lap and suck of the sea’s breakers flirted with the castle foundation hundreds of feet below. But she discerned nothing that could have brought her to such abrupt alertness.

 

Then, through the curtains, near the door, a nearly imperceptible lightshift.

 

Light never deceived her. She quietly folded back the drapes. Even in the night’s blue dimness she saw it, an odd shadowing on the floor below the doorframe. No one else in the tower would have understood the significance, but she was a lightbender and read the language of its flitting particles as well as she did High Corthan.

 

Someone stood in the torchlit corridor.

 

Khatire drifted further from realsight. Thousands of light particles darted with amazing variety. Each direction change, each nuance of hue, described the mysterious figure in the corridor beyond: a man, tall, wide, most likely hooded.

 

Ankha must have convinced one of the vaimen to kill her. She had probably bedded the creature.

 

Khatire eased her naked body from the bed and found the cool stone floor with bare toes. Her heart drummed in her throat, and her hands became icy strangers, but she forced herself to creep with painstaking calm to the door. When the vaim entered, she could bend the light to create darkness where she stood and then slip out behind him. She pressed her back to the sandstone wall, took a measured, silent breath.

 

The door boasted a gilded handle, deceptively blue in the starlight. Slowly, it turned.

 

Khatire wrapped herself in shadow.

 

The door opened and torchlight poured into the chamber. Khatire adjusted the light furiously, like a roof shedding rain, to remain concealed. The vaim entered, skimming the floor with ghostly elegance. His cowl was dark and thick. An older vaim, then. One who needed the hood to hide his advanced rot.

 

He paused in the doorway. His cowled head rotated, and she glimpsed the twin red glimmers of his eyes. She wished she had thought to create a lump in the bed, some illusion that she still rested there, if only to purchase a few extra seconds or a few steps head start.

 

An odd sound came—two staccato rasps. The vaim’s head turned in her direction. She didn’t breathe. The noise came again, hoarse and whispery like a snuffling hound.

 

He could smell her. His Gift.

 

Whoever sent him knew her Gift, and her Gift was her only advantage. She panicked and tried to slip through the door. The vaim’s arm, quick as an asp, hooked around her waist and pulled her close.

 

The sweet scent, like fruit-glazed meat, made her gag. She stiffened in his grasp, her body tiny and vulnerable in his arms.

 

“Come, whore, beg for your miserable life.” His voice was a gleeful rasp, as sharp as the knife that he pressed against her neck.

 

Khatire turned her head away from his cowl, from the greenish, marbled skin and the sick red eyes. Was this Anut-ka’s fate? She closed her eyes and imagined her boy’s sweet face, sky-eyed and chubby-cheeked, and then she thought of him sneering at her, holding a blade to her throat, his eyes flashing from blue to fire-red.

 

Never.

 

The vaim hesitated because she refused to respond. With a hiss, he pressed the dagger deeper, sending a trickle of blood into the hollow of her throat.

 

Khatire ignored it, reaching frantically for the image of mistress Ankha. She drew light particles to herself, washed her face in them, and sent them off in wild directions, a controlled explosion of color. She knew what the vaim would see: Ankha with her dark eyes and copper hair, leering at him with desire.

 

The dagger clattered to the stone, and the vaim lurched back, shoving her away. “My lady?”

 

Khatire staggered free, shaping her mouth into Ankha’s smile, the one that meant someone was about to die.

 

“My lady, I thought that.... In the darkness it seemed.... You have already dealt with the whore?”

 

She nodded, not trusting herself to mimic Ankha’s voice.

 

“Then I will see to her child.”

 

She froze. Anut-Ka.

 

She wasn’t conscious of letting her illusion slip, but as he bowed low and turned to go, the storm of flitting particles faded to realsight. He caught the subtle shift from the corner of his eye and spun back around, cloak whispering at his ankles. Khatire dropped to the floor and fumbled for the dagger. Her soft palm found the blade and she ignored the slicing pain as she grappled for the hilt. He stepped toward her, hissing in anger. Her now-slick hand wrapped around the bone handle as his skeletal fingers grasped her shoulder and the claws of his hands pierced her skin. She gathered her heels beneath her for leverage, then launched upwards, thrusting with an underhand stroke. She grunted as the point took the creature in the throat. Hot liquid, too thick for mere blood, gushed across her forearm as she drove it up into his skull.

 

His claws released her shoulder and he crumpled to the stone floor, tearing the blade from her hand. The red lights within his cowl blinked out like drowned coals, and a final wet gasp bubbled from his body. The soggy darkness that marred his cloak spread to the floor and puddled. Stink filled the room like nectar spilled from a poisonous blossom.

 

Khatire couldn’t seem to catch her breath, afraid to swallow the fouled air. The cut in her palm throbbed like heartache. She had just killed one of the precious vaimen. In the eyes of the emperor, her life was forfeit.

 

A dozen possible doors opened for her in that moment, but they all led to the same terrible end. She could not throw the body from the bridge. It would be spotted within an hour or two, just as Marijan’s had been. She could not drag the body through the palace to the spinrag’s lair. Even if she were strong enough, the smear of blood along the corridors would give her away. She couldn’t conceal the corpse because of the stench. Even if she solved the problem with the body, she couldn’t scrub the stains from the chamber floor before the servants arrived to change His Splendor’s dirtied sheets. Not even Tuamutef would help her solve this problem. He would find another concubine to train and he would try again.

 

All the other doors closed. Only one remained open.

 

Her hands shaking, her body slick with sweat, she turned toward the Crystal Stair, squeezing down a sob. She had to leave the palace before the corpse was discovered. She had to take Anut-ka with her, to spare him the retribution meant for her and the life of a vaim without a mother’s protection.

 

She ran to the bed, tearing a strip from her dress to bind her bloody hand. She thought about throwing the dress across her body and decided not to. No, she would leave everything behind. It would be easier to bend the light around her if she didn’t have a stray hem flapping at her heels.

 

She stepped over the vaim’s body into the doorway, then stopped. If she could not escape, she would need a different option for herself and her son. Holding her breath, she squatted next to the body and yanked the dagger from his chin. Trembling, she wiped the blade on his rich, black robes. The vaim’s blood had already etched scars in the steel blade.

 

Bone hilt in her palm, she ran naked across the bridge and entered the dimly lit corridor of the concubines’ tower. A vaim guard slept near the entrance, either drugged or derelict, but she bent the light to cast an illusion of sandstone, glittering orange in the torchlight, while she hugged the far wall and eased past him. A favored daughter, delivering a carafe of wine, looked twice when Khatire used the same trick to hide again. Khatire’s fist tightened around the hilt of the dagger, but duty called the small girl on. By the time Khatire reached the high tower chamber she shared with Nefaria, she was exhausted but resolute. She and Anut-Ka would be gone by morning, or they would both be dead.

 

Khatire cracked the chamber door and then hesitated. Escape depended on secrecy and silence; Nefaria could not suspect that anything out of the ordinary had transpired. She waited until she heard her friend’s steady, easy breathing, and then she closed the door behind her, leaving it unlatched.

 

She tiptoed to her own mattress. She put on her sleeveless night shirt, and then over it a simple lamb’s wool dress with pockets big enough to hold the dagger. As she took quick stock of her meager possessions, she considered how she and her sister-wives were kept like little more than breeding cattle, two to a stall, with straw mattresses to sleep on. Only Ankha was permitted many personal possessions, and even those were few. But the concubines lived and died like mayflies compared to the length of His Splendor’s existence. All the real wealth was saved for his children, especially the sons. Was she right to drag Anut-ka away from that? He could be the one anointed to ascend—

 

I must forget. Escape was their only chance. She shoved the doubts aside and filled the dress’s dagger-sized pockets with underclothes and stockings, a pair of slippers, the only other dress that she could wad up small enough to fit. She put a larger dress on over the lamb’s wool.

 

The next part was the most dangerous, because there was no way to do it in absolute silence. She crouched beside her bed and lifted the corner of the mattress. Her fingers found the tear that she had carefully made in the fabric, and she slid her hand through the rustling straw to collect her secret possessions, the things she was not meant to own: a silk cloth wrapped around bits of jerky and dried fruit, saved for when she feared poison too much to eat from the common kitchen; gold coins, spilled from the pockets of ambassadors given ease among the cushions of His Splendor’s cast-off concubines; a tiny vial of diluted spinrag venom. The straw scratched at her skin as she withdrew each item.

 

Over her shoulder, her friend still lay quietly on her mattress. Khatire sighed in relief and gathered in the particles that danced around Nefaria’s face, memorizing her precious features, wasting precious seconds.

 

Goodbye, Nefaria.

 

She rose and tiptoed toward the door. Her thoughts raced ahead, forming a plan to remove Anut-ka from the children’s quarters.

 

“I’m glad you’re alive,” came the whispered voice.

 

Khatire whirled, her heart pounding in dismay.

 

Her chambermate pushed up to a sitting position, then yawned and stretched her slender arms toward the ceiling. “I tried to catch your eye, to warn you, but Tuamutef whisked you away before I could do anything to help.” She glanced at the sky through a window too narrow to squeeze through. “You’ve come back early.”

 

A half dozen explanations rolled across Khatire’s tongue, but none of them would fool Nefaria. She was too clever, and too familiar with lies to be fooled by them.

 

“Khatire?”

 

“Nefaria, I—”

 

“What’s wrong? Did His Splendor fall short of your expectations?”

 

“A vaim came to kill me after the emperor left,” Khatire explained, voice flat.

 

“Oh gods,” Nefaria said, hand covering her mouth. “How did you—?”

 

“I stabbed him. With his own knife.” She lurched across the room and embraced Nefaria, wrapping an arm around the other woman, squeezing her tight. Her other hand slipped inside her dress, reaching for the dagger. She would kill again and again if she had to, in order to save her son.

 

“I want to go with you,” Nefaria whispered in her ear.

 

Khatire’s hand jerked out of her pocket and she pulled away. “What do you mean?”

 

“You feel like a pillow. You must be wearing everything you own.”

 

“No,” she said, but it was a reflex.

 

“Do you remember when you were first chosen for the tower and given the seat next to the door?” Nefaria asked. “I came to comfort you, and you asked me: ‘How does it feel to be a whore of the most powerful man in the world?’“

 

“The ambassadors called you—us—that. So do the vaimen.”

 

 “I remember thinking you were too young to be so bitter. I told you we weren’t whores, that we were only slaves who didn’t have any choice. Do you remember what you answered?”

 

That seemed like a very long time ago, measured in lifespans instead of years. “I said there is always a choice.”

 

Nefaria nodded. Khatire let her vision fade to realsight so she wouldn’t see Nefaria’s face in the dark. “There is always a choice,” Nefaria echoed. “And I no longer choose to be a whore.”

 

“I can’t take you with me.” But Khatire heard the catch in her own voice.

 

“You must. Either take me with you or put your hand on that dagger again and kill me before I go.”

 

“What makes you think—?”

 

Nefaria stood, reaching for the alcove with her clothes, dressing as she spoke. “Please, if you leave me behind, I will be discarded by the emperor as untrustworthy and given to the vaimen for questioning. When they’re done using me, they’ll toss me to the spinrag.”

 

Khatire didn’t know if she could shadow them both, much less all three of them once she retrieved Anut-ka.

 

Nefaria’s hands were shaking so badly, she spilled everything on the floor. “Please, for gods’ sake, say something.”

 

“Be quiet. And hurry.”

 

She considered gathering light—enough that Nefaria might see what she was doing—but her nerves were jangled and her Gift required concentration. It would take all her focus to hide their escape, so she thought ahead to the corridors, the torches, the doorways she could use to their advantage.

 

Nefaria dressed as Khatire had done. She held up the edge of her white gown and turned it inside out. “I sewed things into the hem. A silver necklace I grabbed from Tuamutef’s store when he wasn’t looking, that nose ring I told him I lost—”

 

“We’re taking Anut-Ka.”

 

Nefaria froze. She had birthed two children for the emperor, both daughters, and she had sent both of them away to the nurseries without a second thought. Some of the concubines were like that, especially those who had not given birth to sons. “We should just take all the children,” she snapped. “We can use their tiny bodies as shields when the vaimen come for us.”

 

Khatire’s hand slipped into her dress for the hilt of the knife. “If you want to come, that is the condition.”

 

Nefaria moved again, her shakiness gone, her gestures as sure and confident as a dancer’s once again. She tugged slippers over her feet and tied a dark scarf around her head in one efficient motion. “Of course,” she said. Then she whispered. “Are the vaimen born or made? I have always wondered.”

 No answer came to Khatire’s lips. She had never thought to ask that question before and dared not pause to think about it now. Precious minutes were passing and the alarm might sound at any moment. She nudged the unlatched door open. “Stay very close so I can hide our passage. It is part of my Gift—”

 

“I have seen you do it,” Nefaria said, stepping into the corridor after her. “Once, down by the cobbler’s workshop, when Ankha was coming. You didn’t notice me because I was already hiding from her, but I saw you step into a corner and simply... fade into the shadows. How do you do it?”

 

“Have you ever shared your Gift with me?”

 

Nefaria’s silence was answer enough.

 

Khatire could see in the darkness, stepping surely in places where Nefaria might stumble. She put the other woman’s hand on her waist, to keep her close, and headed down the corridor. Khatire winced as Nefaria’s layers of silk sighed with each step. Blurring the light of their passage would be useless if others heard them. The weight of the dagger in her pocket swelled with accusation, and guilt hammered the base of her throat.

 

There is always a choice.

 

But not yet. She did not need to choose between her son’s life and Nefaria yet.

 

Concluded in Pt. II, in Issue #4

 

 

© Copyright 2008 Charles Coleman Finlay & Rae Carson Finlay

 

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Charles is the author of The Prodigal Troll and the collection Wild Things. His literary fantasy adventures featuring the spies Kuikin and Vertir have appeared in the pages of The Magazine of Fantasy and Science Fiction. Rae's stories have appeared in Weird Tales, Neo-Opsis, and elsewhere. Charles and Rae met on OWW, the Online Writing Workshop for Science Fiction, Fantasy & Horror, and married after just three cross-country dates. This is their first co-authored story.

 

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Kingspeaker

By Marie Brennan

Issue #3, November 6, 2008      

 

 

I have not spoken with my own voice in nearly seven years. I knew this would be my fate long before it happened—but only now do I understand what it means.

 

They took my voice away in Anahata. Standing in the High Temple, I prayed to each face of the God and Goddess, speaking one final time in their praise. Then the priests took my voice away. They bound my mouth; they feigned cutting out my tongue. They gave my voice as a gift to heaven.

 

Taking a voice away is easily done, but this was more; I had to be prepared for the voice of another. Thus I spent eight days in silence, in purification. They stopped up my ears with wax, that I might not hear profane sounds. I bathed in blood, in wine, in milk, and then in clean water. I ate austere foods. The silence beat at me, maddening me more every day, until I wanted to tear the wax from my ears and scream simply for blessed sound.

 

I wanted to speak, but I had no voice.

 

On the eighth day, quiet fell over the holy city. No bells sounded from dawn onward, and the markets were closed. Noise was forbidden, on pain of dreadful punishment.

 

The king had come to Anahata.

 

I met him for the first time in the sacred garden of the Temple. Passing through an archway of fire, I found myself on a path of flower petals, which bruised delicately beneath my bare feet. Two attendants clothed me in a robe of more petals, fragile silk holding blossoms of the flowers for which the days are named. Still barefoot, I proceeded, marking along the path the measured steps of my dance.

 

For that moment, they say, I was the Goddess Triumphant, but I felt no difference. Only nervousness, that I might misstep in some way.

 

They had removed the wax at dawn, and even the tiny, faint sounds I had heard since then were a balm for my mind and soul. Soon, I would hear more. A new voice awaited me.

 

The king sat on a bench at the heart of the garden, a delicately carved staff of cypress in one hand. He was dressed simply, in an unadorned linen robe, the garb of an old man. I knew he was to play the role of the Keeper today, the eldest face of the God; no one had told me he was a mere boy. Fifteen, I learned later. Younger than myself.

 

His smooth, youthful face lifted to see me, and in it I saw all the burden this ritual held for him: the new weight of kingship, the fear he would not be equal to it, and the determination to do what he must. I did not know what to make of this boy I found waiting for me. I had envisioned a king like the old one, whom I had seen a few times before. Instead I saw a youth, and I did not know what that would mean for me, for him, for us.

 

I imagine he asked himself the same questions.

 

But the ritual did not give us the time or leisure for doubts. He rose as I approached, and together we danced, eight measures of movement repeated by kings and purified women throughout the centuries. At their end, I laid a kiss on his lips, too focused on the prescribed steps of this ritual to tremble at kissing the king. He lay down on the scattered petals, as the Keeper accepts his gentle death at the hands of the Goddess Triumphant. I completed my dance in a circle around him, invoking the circle of the year, and then I knelt and raised him up once more, for I was spring, and with spring comes rebirth from death.

 

Kneeling with me in the center of the garden, the king spoke. “I am Shandihara Idri,” he said, “and you shall be my voice.”

 

For a duty which began with such solemn ritual, the daily reality has been substantially more mundane. The king’s life is bound up in tradition and ceremony, yet at the heart of it lies a human man, who eats and drinks and sleeps like any other. And I am the only person with whom he can share himself.

 

Idri is attended by deaf servants. The king’s voice is too powerful, too pure, to be heard by profane ears. His ministers receive his words through me, though they have been purified enough that they may sit near their lord, experiencing the quiet murmur of his voice as he conveys his orders to me. In formal audience, lesser nobles of his realm or courtly petitioners must keep their distance.

 

I am the kingspeaker, the only one Idri has ever had, for my predecessor died with his father the king. From the moment of Idri’s accession until he spoke to me in the garden, he communicated only by the written word.

 

Immediately after I became his voice, Idri was shy with me. That did not last more than a day, though; so newly made king, he was unused to the restrictions of his position, and craved speaking with someone. He confessed to me that he had talked often to the servants, who could not hear him, but it was not enough: he wanted to speak to someone, and have them respond.

 

So I gave him what he desired—conversation—but always conscious, as he was not, that the words I spoke were his, and the voice with which I spoke them, his. He converses with himself, truly, when he converses with me. This is what the priests prepared me for, in the days of ritual before I became the kingspeaker. Every word I speak belongs to the king. I must never forget this.

 

While my conversations give solace to Idri, then, they give none to me.

 

Anything I need, I ask for in writing, using my hands in place of my absent voice. Some believe that even this is too much, that the kingspeaker should communicate only the wishes of the king, but they will not deny me that gift crafted by the sisters Surai and Sulai in their exile from one another. Writing has always been a woman’s art.

 

We are permitted to write for ourselves as well, we kingspeakers; the priests warned me that I would need this outlet, though I should be wary of whom I share my writings with. I have not needed to be wary. Perhaps because Idri was so newly a king, I vowed to be the perfect kingspeaker, to confine myself only to occasional notes, informing the servants when I had need of something in particular. And for nearly seven years it has been so.

 

Now, for the first time, I feel that I must write. Idri is a grown man, twenty-two, and we have both become accustomed to our roles. This one matter, though, I must write down; I will commit it to paper, and then bear it to the Temple when we travel to Anahata in a few days. I will burn the record of this event, and it will be done.

 

We go to Anahata to celebrate our victory against the western warlord Baswar Jal, a victory brought about through the courage and cunning of our king. For three years Baswar troubled the desert edge to the west, evading the forces Lord Khilgani sent to capture him, even seducing away Khilgani’s daughter, who joined him as his bandit queen. Luck and ingenuity won him victories, and victories won him followers, in ever-growing numbers.

 

Idri had no desire to address the problem himself, but auguries cast by devotees of the Goddess Triumphant revealed that Baswar Jal would not be defeated without him. The court moved from Aishuddha to the western city of Lageshatra, a scrubby, dusty place far removed from the luxuries we ordinarily enjoy. Many of the nobles complained, but one of Idri’s councillors advised him wisely, saying they should not be left unattended in the capital while their king was away. Kings have been unseated by such mistakes before.

 

We made our home in Lageshatra, replicating as best we could the elegance of Aishuddha, and Idri called Khilgani to him. When the lord came, I saw that he resented the summons, which drew him away from his hunt for the warlord. Khilgani did not expect Idri to be of much use, whatever the auguries said. But he came, and made a gift to the king: two horses, beautiful Nidhiri with golden coats, a matched pair of stallion and mare. “May these humble mounts carry you to victory,” he said, bowing deeply to Idri.

 

“I am certain they will,” Idri said, and I knew that he was pleased with the gift. Nidhiri, they say, are the horses made by the Goddess Triumphant herself; all other breeds are but lesser children to her. Only Nidhiri are fit to carry royal blood.

 

But the horses, it seemed, would carry us nowhere save around the walls of Lageshatra. Riding on the stallion, with me on the mare, Idri conducted sporadic “inspections” of the city’s fortifications, such as they were. Lageshatra was not a defensible city, nor was it expected to be; reports put Baswar Jal much further out in desert country. Lageshatra was no more than a place to keep the nobles out of trouble, while Khilgani conducted the actual business of war.

 

And so the days dragged by. I heard the edges of discontented rumblings, and knew there must be more where I did not hear. The nobles were displeased to be in Lageshatra, deprived of their accustomed elegance. Khilgani was displeased to have the king present, watching over his shoulder while contributing nothing of use. Idri was displeased to be there, bound by augury to do something important, not knowing what that might be. He had his tutors, of course, who trained him in the art of the sword, spear, whip, and bow, but at twenty-two years of age Idri had never faced combat outside the practice floor.

 

In the end, he offered a great bounty: so much for information leading to the capture of Baswar Jal, more for the head of the warlord himself. Lesser bounties were on the heads of his lieutenants, and one for the return of his queen, Khilgani’s daughter, provided she was unharmed. Khilgani’s soldiers spread coin liberally, showing their generosity in dozens of villages too tiny to merit names. The people feared Baswar Jal, but greed could overcome fear.

 

And so it did. Word came at last that the warlord had a camp in a maze of gullies to the northwest, several days’ journey away. Water was supposed to be nonexistent there, but villagers told us there was some, that Baswar’s men had dug deep wells to keep themselves supplied.

 

In the central hall of the shabby building that passed for the governor’s palace in Lageshatra, Idri met with Khilgani and other commanders, who spread out maps on tables for the king to see.

 

“It would be a difficult area to assault, Golden One,” Khilgani said, marking with small figurines the region that had been described to us. “We must approach through the gullies themselves; only in certain places are the slopes gentle enough for us to enter. But we would be vulnerable to ambush from above.”

 

Idri nodded, his golden eyes on the map, and I believe that only I knew him well enough to see the uncertainty that underlay his mask of royal composure.

 

“Of course,” one of the other commanders added, “we would send out patrols to sweep the mesas, killing any lookouts we find there, and hopefully keeping Baswar from learning of our approach. But if he has stationed men in the canyon walls themselves, we would have a hard time reaching them. And if they decide to run, we won’t have enough men to block every exit.”

 

“Golden One,” Khilgani said in a respectful tone, “I do not like the idea of this assault. The territory favors Baswar Jal too much. My recommendation is to send scouts to confirm whether he is there or not; we cannot be certain the information we have bought is reliable. Once we know, then we can position the army here —” He laid a figurine on a nearby mark that indicated a tiny village with a well. “And leave scouts stationed near the exits from the area. When Baswar moves out, we will know which way he has gone, and we can attack him on more favorable ground.”

 

Silence fell. Idri’s gaze roved uneasily over the map, and one of his long fingers tapped erratically on its surface. Even I, who knew his thoughts so well, could not guess what was in his mind.

 

At last he beckoned me close, and murmured in my ear.

 

In my early days as kingspeaker, I might have hesitated before conveying his words. After this many years, though, I knew that my place was not to question; it was to speak on his behalf. “No,” I said, repeating his words perfectly. “We have struggled too long to find Baswar Jal. Now we know where he is; now we will put an end to him. Gather your forces, General Khilgani. We will march immediately.”

 

No one was unwise enough to make a sound of disagreement, but I felt it in the postures of the men around the table. They did not like this order. But what could they do, save obey? The king had spoken, and the auguries said he was needed for victory.

 

Were it not for those auguries, I think Khilgani would not have said his next words. “Will you be joining us, your Eminence?”

 

Another silence, but this time I knew Idri’s words before he spoke them. “Yes. We will be there to see this warlord thrown down.”

 

Khilgani sent out swift riders as he began preparing the army to march in force; I think he hoped their reports would give him a reason to dissuade Idri from this course. The warlord’s camp was far enough away, though, that they did not return before the first units were ready to go. He had to begin, and hope for the best.

 

Most of Khilgani’s men had been scouring the region in smaller patrols, fighting dozens of minor skirmishes with bands of Baswar’s men. Now they were drawn in, the hammer gathered to crush the warlord utterly. They made a brave sight, riding forth from Lageshatra with their banners snapping in the wind, and Idri’s priests blessed them all, ritually turning the eyes of the Blood Goddess to the enemy, and calling down the favor of the Goddess Triumphant.

 

Idri’s own force rode out last, well to the rear of the great army. Five hundred men, one hundred of whom accompanied him as bodyguards, their sole purpose in life to die protecting their king. Idri and I rode at the center of that mass, both of us armored and mounted on the horses Khilgani had given to him. The tightly-laced plates of the armor felt strange to me, but war was no time for a king to lose his voice.

 

A little over a day outside the city, trouble struck. A snake moved suddenly in the path of Idri’s horse, who reared and staggered into mine. I had no chance to avoid it. Our mounts fell heavily, and only by great fortune did I get my leg clear in time; otherwise it would have broken under the mare’s weight.

 

Equine screams broke the air. Talrak, captain of Idri’s bodyguard, hesitated only a moment before laying impertinent hands on the king and dragging him free—a presumption no one would blame him for. The stallion and the mare writhed on the ground. They had fallen badly, and both had broken legs.

 

Nor were they the only ones injured; Idri was favoring his right leg. I moved forward and took Talrak’s place, supporting the king, so that he could murmur in my ear. But Idri was silent, staring at the horses.

 

We all shared the same thoughts, though only a few of the men were rash enough to mutter them aloud. A snake, and the beautiful Nidhiri; a servant of the Blood Goddess, harming the children of the Goddess Triumphant. She is one deity, as the God is one, but her aspects may be at odds with one another. And now bloody slaughter had struck down the emblems of victory.

 

We could not help the horses. Idri gave the order. Talrak nodded to one of his soldiers, and the man drew his knife swiftly across the stallion’s throat, then the mare’s. Their blood vanished into the thirsty ground. More than one man uttered a prayer, that the Blood Goddess accept the offering and be satisfied.

 

The soldiers erected a canopy to shade Idri while the physician came and examined his leg. The bones were whole, though the king’s knee and ankle had been twisted in the fall. The physician wrapped them in tight bandages for support, and when he was done Idri stood, refusing help, and tested his weight.

 

Talrak bowed deeply. “Golden One, we have fallen behind, and you are injured. Please allow this servant to send a messenger ahead, informing the general that your Eminence has turned back to Lageshatra. My men can arrange a litter for the journey.”

 

Idri was pale beneath the dusky cast of his skin, but resolute. “No. We must be there for the defeat of Baswar Jal. I am fit to ride. Bring me a horse; we will catch up with the army. See to it.”

 

The cheek-plates of Talrak’s helmet made his expression difficult to read, and then he bowed a second time, putting his face out of sight. “As the Golden One commands.”

 

The delay meant we had to make up time. While the soldiers brought horses for us—lesser breeds, and unfit for a king, but the best they could provide— Talrak planned a different route, cutting across rougher territory that would nevertheless bring our small force up on the army’s rear. We had never intended to go that way, but had we not, Baswar Jal’s latest move would have escaped us entirely.

 

The warlord, as I have said, was a cunning man. When he had need of stealth, he did not set fire to the villages he sacked. Our first sign was not smoke, but buzzards, circling in the late afternoon sky westward of our course.

 

“With your leave, Golden One,” Talrak said, “this humble servant will send scouts to check that. No doubt it is nothing more than a dead camel, but we must be safe.” Idri nodded his permission, and off the scouts went.

 

It was not a dead camel. When the two men came back, Idri insisted on seeing for himself. I do not know why; perhaps he was trying to harden himself for war. Whatever the reason, our entire force diverted, and soon we stood on a rise overlooking the ruins of the village, and the bodies sprawled there.

 

I rode at Idri’s side through the carnage, reflecting his silence. Buzzards flapped away at our approach, but the flies remained, black blankets seething over the corpses. Talrak’s men interpreted the slaughter for us. “Over a thousand men,” they said, having examined the hoofprints packed into the dust around the village. “Riding southeast. They passed through this morning, before dawn.” The water jugs in the houses were empty, proof that the women had not yet gone to the wells for the day.

 

No one spoke Baswar Jal’s name. They did not have to.

 

“Golden One,” Talrak said, “we must get you to safety. This force is heading for Lageshatra. We must make for the rest of your army.”

 

Idri jerked in his saddle, as if the captain’s words were the first to penetrate his mind in some time. His distress made him speak too loudly; Talrak instinctively covered his ears. “Find me—find me a house that is . . . clean. I need privacy. I need to think.” He cut off abruptly, looking sick, and I repeated his words for Talrak.

 

The captain did not look happy, but he obeyed. The soldiers led us to an empty barn: hardly fit for the king, but the best they could do in this place of death. We filed in, Idri, myself, and his deaf servants, and then he stood in the center of that space, staring blankly at the wall. The late afternoon sunlight pierced the loose, warped boards and dappled his black hair with gold.

 

“Leave me,” he said. “All of you.”

 

I turned and gestured to the servants, who bowed and went out.

 

“All of you,” Idri repeated, and when he flung his hand toward me, he turned enough for me to see the tears beginning to spill from his eyes.

 

Seven years he has been king; he is accustomed to my role. He is alone, even when I am there, because I am his voice. For him to send me away meant he was not, at that moment, the king. He was a man, and overwhelmed.

 

I bowed and left him alone.

 

Outside, I composed my face into a careful mask. Talrak came forward and bowed. If he was surprised to see me alone, he did not show it. “Please tell his Majesty that we have found more suitable mounts to carry the two of you—escaped from Baswar’s force, we believe. If you would care to inspect them, they are tethered nearby.” He nodded to a courtyard of packed dirt, that held the last of the sun. Two horses waited there.

 

I waved him away and walked into the courtyard, my mind elsewhere. Even separated from Idri, I could imagine his thoughts well enough. Lageshatra was not defensible, and her armies were gone to assault the canyons. A thousand men was not Baswar Jal’s entire force—the rest, no doubt, waited to play bait for Khilgani—but it would be enough. The warlord would kill some of the nobles, but hold most for ransom. One hostage might be sacrificed for the good of the realm; not all of them. Baswar Jal would be able to negotiate for whatever he desired.

 

The horses were a stallion and a mare; I checked them reflexively, more to be seen doing something than out of interest or concern. Standing between the two, shielded from the eyes of others, I laid my hand on the neck of the mare and closed my eyes. The matter was simple. Idri must keep himself alive and free. He must ride with all speed for Khilgani’s forces, and hope for a chance to turn fortune in his favor later. The cost would be high, but what other choice did he have?

 

The mare whickered and sidled beneath my hand. Her soft nose shoved against my chest, nudging my chin up. Her tack jingled, as if she were eager for a rider.

 

Standing there, dismounted, I formed an image in my mind’s eye. Lageshatra, with Baswar Jal’s forces descending upon it, to pillage and loot and rape.

 

Dismounting, to take the city at their leisure.

 

An instant later, I was slipping through the barn door and bowing to the floor in apology for my presumption. With my hands on the dirt, I wondered what I was doing. I had no paper, brush, and ink. How could I communicate my thoughts to the king?

 

When I looked up, those thoughts fled my mind.

 

Idri was curled in a corner of the barn, arms wrapped around his middle, dusky face blank and pale. Twenty-two and a man grown, but this was his first war; aside from his own father’s body laid out in state, and the woman who had been his kingspeaker alongside him, Idri had never seen a corpse before coming to this village. He knew now what failure in war meant, and he was afraid. He knew his own mortality.

 

Seeing that, I could not scratch characters in the dirt; I could not present Idri with a note while he was in this state. He needed someone to speak to him. But how could I?

 

He spoke to me in the early years, instead of through me, and I responded as a mirror of his thoughts. Surely I could do that again.

 

“Idri,” I said, my voice soft but urgent.

 

He did not look up from where he sat huddled.

 

“Idri,” I repeated, a little louder. “You must listen.”

 

But he could not. Fear overwhelmed him, fear and despair. I saw a chance for him, but he could not hear me.

 

He could not hear himself.

 

The idea burning in my head warred with my sacred duty. Every word I spoke was, must be, the king’s; I had no voice of my own. Even if I wrote a note, not to Idri, but to Talrak, what good would that do? No one need obey the kingspeaker. Not in a matter such as this. Only the king could give such an order.

 

I rose and opened the barn door, stepping across the threshold. The soldiers turned to look at me. Past them, I could see the horses, and now I looked at them, saw them for the first time: Nidhiri. A matched pair, more perfect than those we had lost.

 

Which Talrak’s men had found, just when we had need of them.

 

Not by chance, but providence. And looking at them, I knew I was right. Every word I spoke was—must be—the king’s.

 

“Baswar Jal’s men are making for Lageshatra,” the king’s voice said. “They will be pillaging the city, and taking the nobles prisoner. This means they will be dismounted, disorganized, and unprepared to defend themselves. We will ride quickly, and take them by surprise. Send two messengers to General Khilgani, but the rest will ride for Lageshatra. Immediately.”

 

I am the kingspeaker. I speak for the king.

 

Men leapt into action. Talrak was giving commands, selecting his messengers. I did not stand to watch. Instead I turned, and found Idri standing just behind my shoulder.

 

He was not without courage. If his fear spoke loudly in his mind, then I would speak against it, on behalf of that courage.

 

“Come,” I said to him. “Victory awaits, and the Goddess Triumphant herself has blessed us.”

 

A full moon rose as we set off into the dusk, and no horse so much as stumbled. We rode faster than the wind, our pace set by the perfect Nidhiri Idri and I bestrode. Talrak’s trackers found sign of the enemy’s passage, growing fresher as we went. We traveled through the night and through the day, stopping only briefly for water, and reached Lageshatra at sunset.

 

Screams arose from the city, and the clash of metal; fire burned in one quarter, for Baswar Jal had no need of stealth. He believed himself safe, with the army far away. No massed force, no body of bandits waited for us. Having found the city unprepared, they were taking it at their leisure.

 

Talrak looked at me, and I looked at Idri.

 

Our horses reared as one, in perfect unison. When Idri opened his mouth to speak, I did not wait for his words; I spoke with him, overlaying his pure voice with the safe one that resided in me. “Bring me the head of Baswar Jal!”

 

Carried by the Goddess Triumphant herself, we rode into Lageshatra.

 

They say Baswar Jal was bitten by a snake, before the soldiers overwhelmed him. I do not know if it is true. Certainly the Blood Goddess touched our doings, as she touches all slaughters, but I do not think she was present that night. Our victory came from another hand. Of this, I have no doubt.

 

When the city was retaken, Idri and I dismounted, and the horses were not seen again. The men tell many tales of what happened to them, each more impressive than the last. Soon we added to our tales the victory of Khilgani’s force; they engineered the collapse of canyon walls that blocked the exit of the bandits, forcing them against the massed ranks of our own soldiers. Patrols scoured the hills, chasing down those last remnants who had not surrendered, and reclaiming Khilgani’s daughter.

 

This is the great victory we go to celebrate in Anahata. I have laid down my story, as truthfully as I can, and I will burn it at the temple in honor of the Goddess Triumphant.

 

In the small hours of the night, when I lie awake, I still wonder at the decision I made. The Goddess put the vision of Lageshatra in my mind, but the choice to speak was mine.

 

I do not regret it. The words I spoke were Idri’s; it must be so. I have no voice of my own. Anything I say is said by the king, for my voice is his.

 

There is dangerous power in this. But I pray heaven to keep me on a straight path, that I never abuse Idri’s voice. My service is only ever for my king and his people, for whom I will speak until the day I die.

 

 

© Copyright 2008 Marie Brennan

 

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Marie Brennan is the author of the Onyx Court series of London-based historical faerie fantasies: Midnight Never Come, In Ashes Lie, A Star Shall Fall, and With Fate Conspire, as well as the upcoming adventure A Natural History of Dragons and the new contemporary fantasy Lies and Prophecy. Her stories have appeared multiple times in Beneath Ceaseless Skies, including two set in the world of the Onyx Court novels and three set in her Driftwood world (“Driftwood” in BCS #14 and the anthology The Best of BCS, Year One and “Remembering Light” in BCS #44 and The Best of BCS, Year Two). She has published more than thirty other short stories in venues such as On Spec, Intergalactic Medicine Show, and the acclaimed anthology series Clockwork Phoenix. More information can be found on her website: www.swantower.com.

 

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