
Spellbinder
Melanie Rawn
MELANIE
RAWN
A Love Story with Magical Interruptions
This is a -work of fiction. All the characters and events portrayed
in this novel are either fictitious or are used fictitiously.
SPELLBINDER Copyright © 2006 by Melanie Rawn
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First Edition: October 2006
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In memory of my mother,
Alma Lucile Fuik August 24,1928-June 19,2002
and in memory of our ancestor,
Mary Bliss
1625-1712
accused of witchcraft
(two trials, no convictions)
Prologue
December 2001
SHRUGGING OUT OF HER OVERCOAT, Denise quickly stripped off
the
heavy black velvet skirt and tunic—making a face as the
embroidered designs of silver moons and golden stars caught the shadows
in her bedroom. The things she did to please the masses . . . some of
whom had seen Eyed Wide Shut a few too many times. Cloaks and carnival
masks, indeed. If only one of them had looked even a little like Tom
Cruise . . . but his movies had been spoiled for her by the film they'd
made of that damned vampire book. How she loathed that dreadful woman
back home in New Orleans — that amateur, that fake, that
smirking
fraud with all her worshiping sycophants —
Well, one did have to play to the mundanes, after all. Although -what
they considered appropriate to the occasion still had the power to
appall her. They expected some sort of show, some nod to traditions
they didn't even begin to understand. She drew the line at conical
black hats and brooms.
The face reflected in her bathroom mirror was anything but haggish. Of
warts and wrinkles there were none. Instead: bright green eyes flecked
with golden brown, cheekbones to kill for, a full red mouth that smiled
as the tongue came out to lick the last tastes from the lips. Shaking
out her hair, she saw the smile fade as she surveyed the tangles
wrought by a night of phenomenal sex. It took her four seconds to
decide she was too tired to wash the long golden mass of it.
Naked, she settled onto her bed with a cup of hot tea to refresh
herself and a laptop to record the night's events. But she was only
halfway through her narrative before her eyelids began to
droop—not surprising, considering it haggish...
been a long day and a vigorous night. Still, she didn't want to sleep
until she got everything down while it was still fresh in her mind.
. .. draped over the lushly padded platform, billowing like a black
silk parachute. One by one they came to me, and one by one I made my
mark on them
No, "upon" sounded classier. She backspaced and retyped, mark upon
them. The masks stayed on
"Upon" again? No, too close together in the paragraph.
their faces, and in the anonymity they found pure release of' pure
passion. They thought they knew me, my face and my nature—and
they thought they also knew my body—but I did not know them
or
so they thought. Wrapped in their black masks, rapt in their
passion,
Ooh, that was nice. Interior rhyme, they believed themselves ghosts
without identity. Yet one day when they least expect it—
Oh shit, the opening line to "Candid Camera." She really was tired.
Backspace.
Yet one morning, one evening
No, that was bad, too.
one morning, one midnight (alliteration was always good), / will see
any or all of them again, and know them by my mark upon
them—by
the scent of their blood that I have tasted—
Better stop now. She was using too many dashes and her thoughts were
getting disorganized. Hitting SAVE, she shut down the laptop and placed
it beneath the bed. She was yawning prodigiously by the time she
crawled naked beneath silk sheets.
Let's see how Mr. Goddess-Almighty likes this one, she thought with a
smile. Too chicken-shit to do any honest research . .. thinks she knows
everything about everything.. . her and that dreadful woman back
home... damn, I'm tired... I must remember that Chinese guy's name .. .
he was something else... those black eyes, practically ovulating with
lust—ooh, I like that, have to remember that one... that
moonshine-and-magnolias bitch wouldn't last three minutes with him....
there's a good reason my sales are through the roof.. ..
On this happy thought, she fell asleep.
****
WAKING TO THE SOFT FRAGRANCE of sage, she purred as gentle
hands
straightened out her limbs. Sated though she was, still she smiled and
stretched, ready for more.
"Shh," whispered a man's deep voice. "I want you to lie very still,
exactly as I position you. And keep your eyes closed. Can you do that
for me, Denise? "
Flat on her back, arms a little out from her sides; surely her legs
should be spread wider if he intended —
As a sudden slither of cold silken cord brushed her left side, parallel
to her heart, she knew horror for the first time in her life. The cord
warmed as it touched her body, and she broke out in a sweat. She tried
to move, to speak. But with that first whisper of silk she was
effectively paralyzed. Helpless, she could only lie there as the cord
traced its fiery way around the outlines of her body. Ribs to hip, hip
to knee, knee to toes. Back up the left leg, then down the right, up
again to delineate curves and hollows. Each finger and the precise
angle of her elbow carefully limned. Her hair twisted aside while the
burning cord measured her skull. Down neck and shoulder and arm,
finally meeting its beginning near her heart. And then there was the
faint metallic scent of blood, an instant's hiss, and a white heat
where the cord met and sealed itself.
"That should do it," said a voice—not the man's, a woman's.
"Thanks for holding her steady. You're a good Come-Hither—and
I
know one of the best."
"Don't mention it. We battled pretty hard over who got to help you
tonight."
"Why, sugah-plum, Ah didn't know y'all cared," the woman drawled in an
exaggerated southern accent—no, not just southern, Virginian.
Denise thought her heart would burst her chest. You! her mind screamed.
You bitch! How dare you!
"Oh, Blue-eyes," the man replied, a grin in his voice, "the pair of us
sigh and tremble whene'er you speak. We worship at your feet, we kiss
your ring, we—"
"—are gay right down to your darling, dimpled toes. Do shut
up, won't you?"
And the cord was taken away by cool, steady fingers. Denise wanted to
shriek, to rip out eyes, to wash her hands in blood.
The man seemed to sense it; his was a truly gifted mind. "Behave
yourself, Denise. We have your Measure now, and we aren't reluctant to
use it if you make it necessary."
"Such as staging a repeat of your little exhibition tonight," the woman
added. "You're not responsible for other people's fetishes, but how you
use them for your own purposes is very much an issue. The girl nearly
bled to death tonight in the emergency room, you know. And I doubt even
plastic surgery will minimize the scar on her throat."
"It's no use," the man said quietly. "Even if she knew, she wouldn't
care."
"She gets a chance. Everybody gets a chance."
"She'll blow it."
"Probably." There was an audible sniff of a suddenly stuffy nose. "But
we have to make the effort."
With the removal of the cord a portion of control returned; Denise
opened her eyes and pushed herself sluggishly up on her elbows. The
pair wore hooded black cloaks—ridiculously theatrical, not
even
worth sneering at—to hide their faces.
"I —know—who you—are," Denise ground out,
her tongue like a fat, treacherous slug in her mouth.
"Imagine my chagrin," the man said. "Your point being — ?"
"Won't—forget — "
"See that you don't." He brushed at the heavy wool of his robe. "Nor am
I likely to forget the stink in here. Really, Denise—musk and
patchouli? And on a red Baphomet candle, no less. Overdoing the lust
spells a bit, aren't you?"
"It's no worse than the rest of her de'cor," the woman observed. "I
thought that French Gothic sideboard was going to grow tentacles and
attack us." All at once she sneezed, and a hand came up to rub her
nose. On one finger was a milky moonstone set in silver. "Damn! Come
on, we're finished here." She turned briskly for the door, and the man
followed, and with a snick of the lock they were gone.
****
THE CIRCLE MET IN A top-floor room of an elegant little
Manhattan
town-house. One of the men was elderly to look at but youthful in his
movements as he swirled onto his shoulders a robe of deep green silk.
The youngest of the women, not yet thirty, was less flamboyant in
donning yellow that made her long black hair into a river of shadow.
Another woman, blonde and elegant in blue, sat by the hearth sorting a
lapful of herbs. The garnets in her many rings shone by firelight like
sun through fine cabernet sauvignon.
"They're late," said another man, who entered the room shrugging out of
a suit jacket. For all its expensive tailoring, the -wool was rumpled
and a button was coming loose. He reached for the black robe that hung
with two remaining others on a wooden garment rack, saying, "What's
that dreadful smell?"
"I'm afraid it's me, Elias," said a young African-American man wearing
a dark maroon cassock. "Kate's got me reeking of gardenias, of all
things."
"Martin!" The woman by the fire glanced up, brows arching mildly. "If
you can't experiment on your friends, who can you experiment on? I'm
thinking of marketing it under the name 'Victorian Whorehouse.'"
"It'll be interesting, when Ian gets here stinking of garlic as usual,"
commented the old man in green.
Kate grinned. " 'Italian Victorian Whorehouse,'" she amended.
Slipping into his black robe, Elias gave in to amusement—but
only
for a moment—by saying, " 'Gay Italian Victorian Whorehouse.'"
"Now, there's a concept." The old man shook his head as Elias began to
pace. "Stop fretting, Eli. Lulah tells me that Holly's always late, and
we all know that Ian's almost as bad."
"As Simon says," came a new voice from the doorway, breezy and warm,
like a golden summery day. "I just love arriving in time to hear my
character impugned."
"Just stating the facts, son."
Ian went to the garment rack and pulled his red robe from its hangar.
Martin helped him on with it, making a face when Ian sniffed
ostentatiously. "Not a word," Martin warned.
"If you think you're going to foul the hot tub trying to wash that
off—Kate, what in the world were you thinking?"
"Purity—of action and purpose, at any rate," she retorted.
"The rest of him I leave to you."
"You smell fairly disgusting, yourself," Martin told his lover.
Ian winced. "Denise had this lurid little candle going—a
seated
Goat all oiled up with this incredible stink. Nothing subtle about our
Southern cousins — no offense, Holly."
"None taken, y'all," replied the tall, freckled redhead who was the
final entrant into the room. She nodded her thanks to Elias for his
help in donning her robe: silvery-gray and smelling of rosemary. Her
moonstone ring glowed subtly in the candlelight.
"Any trouble?" Elias asked quietly.
"None. Ian's good. I'm sorry to be so late — she didn't get
home until three."
"And she's not at all happy," Ian contributed. "Marty, what happened to
my candle?"
"Right where you left it, along with your ratty old wand. One of these
days we're going to have to cut you a new one." His partner opened an
ancient brass-studded leather chest and gathered a few things to
distribute among the group.
As the others readied themselves, Elias stayed beside Holly. He didn't
wish to be too obvious about it, but checking was necessary and he knew
that she knew it. She was still a novice at all this, at least where
hut workings were concerned. What she had or had not done while in
California or Virginia or Washington, D.C., was of little interest to
him except for any annoying habits she may have picked up. Nothing
serious had arisen so far, but this was only their third Working
together.
So he made his inventory. Silvery robe for stability; rosemary for
purification, clarity of thought, and, of course, remembrance; a willow
wand for healing; a white candle for spiritual strength; moonstone for
calm and balance; an ibis feather for wisdom and, most appropriately
considering her profession, words. All were either spelled for or
inherently possessed powers of protection. He could not risk her in any
way. No one could ever, ever put her at risk.
He gave her the chalice himself, allowing a smile as her brows arched.
"Waterford?" she asked, and he nodded. "Just for the colleen, or is
this usual?"Kate responded to the question with, "He ordered it this
summer when he heard you'd be joining us. Mine are always Orrefors in
honor of my Swedish grandmother."
"lit le mien," added Simon, "c'est Baccarat." He held out an exquisite
bowl that fit into one palm.
Holly cradled cut crystal in both hands, weighing it. "This is
gorgeous. But somebody better've worked something on it to protect it
— I'm a terrible klutz."
Elias noted her nervousness, aware that it had nothing to do with the
expensive chalice. "Shall we get started? It's nearly daylight, and
this has to be done the same night as the Measuring." As Ian opened his
mouth to comment, Elias went on, "And no debate about when a day
officially starts or ends, either. It's dawn to dawn when you're
working with me."
The solemn young woman wearing yellow smiled a little and said, "Dusk
to dusk, Elias.'
"(Celebrate the Hebrew Shabbas whenever you like, Lydia,' he replied,
"tor Witches—"
"Yes, Elias," Martin said patiently. "No, Elias. Whatever you say,
Elias. Can we get going with this? Even if you say it's still Thursday,
tomorrow — whenever it comes — is inevitably
Friday, and 1
have to be in the office at ten."
"Past your bedtime, lambie?" Kate cooed innocently.
It was the work of a few moments to renew and replenish the Circle on
the floor of this room. Kate drew the boundaries with salt, mixed with
a few herbs of her own choosing. The faintest fragrance ot verbena
warmed Elias s senses as she passed. A subtle woman who could use the
fewest herbs or scents to the greatest effect, Kate was teasing Martin
with that overwhelming gardenia, Elias felt sure. She loved to play
with her craftings —indeed took more joy from her talent than
anyone he had ever known.
Lydia went to Ian for fire to light the incense within her silver
thurible. The fragrance of the smoke thus released was Kate's work, as
well: jasmine spiced with cinnamon, exotic and intriguing to the nose.
For just an instant he thought about how wonderful Susannah's skin
would smell with either scent rubbed gently into it. Elias himself
smelled of cypress and rue. Of death and repentance.
Neither were attributable to Kate's sense of humor.
Lydia s movements became as light and flowing as the gray mist
emanating from the thurible: inner centering manifested in outward
grace. Elias watched her with satisfaction. Magic is within; everything
else is just props. The maxim was true enough, at least in his
experience, but he had to admit that the grounding and readying
rituals, with their jewels and scents and wands and candles, seemed
more potent since Holly's arrival. It wasn't exactly that he needed her
special ability; she just made his Work a lot easier.
Earth, Air, Fire, Water called and honored; Circle renewed; compass
points guarded by Kate, Simon, Martin, and Lydia with candles on the
floor in front of them; time to begin. Elias, Ian, and Holly took
different points of the pentacle laid out in golden oak on the
parqueted hardwood floor, candles at their feet
"Have you the Measure of the woman Denise Claudine Josephe?" Eli asked.
"This is her Measure, attested true," Ian said, withdrawing the sealed
cord from his pocket, letting it hang full-length from his blackthorn
wand.
"And by me, attested," Holly said.
"Her breath and sweat and the touch of her skin are upon it," Ian went
on.
"Also by me attested. And the Spell bound."
Elias nodded, accepting the cord onto (he hilt of his dagger. Air,
Water, Earth — he had only to add Fire and she would know
agonies
-whenever she attempted magic, until and unless he canceled the spell.
But that was for her next offense — and offense there would
be,
he was sure of it. Denise was a thrill-seeker, an adrenaline junkie,
and a fool. She wouldn't be within a thousand miles of his jurisdiction
if he hadn't owed Jean-Michel for helping with the renegade Seax
Wiccans last spring. Being a Magistrate was work enough, and they all
helped each other out when needed, but presiding over New York and
environs could be especially bothersome at times.
Elias examined the seamless golden cord looped nine times around his
athame. If cut slightly, so as to (ray just a bit, Denise would do no
more magic, ever. If it was severed, she would die. But Denise was
merely an idiot, not a criminal. He had seen that death done once -the
slow slicing of twisted rope so that each faculty, each Talent, each
sense, down to the smallest particle o( self-hood, unraveled and
vanished.
"This is her Measure," he said, shaking off the memory, "to be kept
safe by me until such time as judgment is required. Agreed? '
"So mote it be," came the responses.
Stepping around the Circle, he held out the cord to the four guardians.
Each murmured a brief wish that their wands encouraged. Simon's ancient
apple-wood coaxed the healing of Denise's spirit; Martin's polished
blackthorn would enjoin her obedience; Kate's hazel awakened hidden
wisdom (which Elias sincerely doubted Denise would recognize if it bit
her in the ass, but he supposed they had to go through the motions).
When he got to Lydia, whose elmwood wand was useful for work with the
shadowy side of a psyche, he saw that her gentle brown eyes were
unfocused, staring at the nothingness beyond the Circle. He approached
cautiously, scowling his worry.
Lydia touched her wand to the cord—and suddenly screamed.
Trembling as if her slight bones would shatter, she gasped for breaths
that left her lungs in high-pitched keenings of terror. Her thurible
gushed smoke and her candle flared wildly at her feet, sparking rainbow
fire from the opal on her hand as she pointed into the shadows.
"Swastika!" she cried. "Swastika!"
Kate dug into her robes for something to calm her. Martin raised his
black-handled athame in instinctive defense, looking in vain for
something to defend against. Simon passed his hand over his chalice,
muttering swiftly. Elias let dagger and cord drop and grasped Lydia's
shoulders.
"What is it?" he demanded. "What else do you see?"
"Swastika and cross—-flames —" Sobbing and
shivering, she
looked beyond him, beyond everything that was real to him. What she saw
was more than real to her. "The chalice and the
spear—ravens—and th~thefire-~Sge! Tdutu'neli'gal"
Her eyes
rolled up into her skull and with a final shudder she collapsed into
Elias s arms.
He swung her up, away from the candle, and snapped an order for the
Circle to be opened. Kate did the work after tossing a packet of herbs
to Simon, who mixed them swiftly in clean water. By the time Elias had
placed Lydia on the chaise in the corner, she was struggling back to
consciousness. Simon placed the chalice against her lips and told her
to drink.
"You can tell us about it later," the old man said, casting a warning
glance at Elias. "Just rest now, my dear."
A minute or so later she lay limp with sleep. Simon covered her with
his own robe and stood there in shirtsleeves and suspenders, shaking
his head worriedly.
"What the hell just happened?" Ian demanded.
"She had a glimpse of the past, I should think," Elias said.
Ian gestured impatiently. "Have you ever known her to see the past in
any work we've ever done?"
"But the swastika— "
"With a cross, both in flames."
Elias shrugged. "The Nazis were nominally Christians."
"What else was it she said? It sounded nothing like French or Hebrew,
which as far as I know are the only languages she speaks besides
English."
"Ian," murmured Elias, "you're my friend and my colleague, and I value
you tremendously. But at the times your curiosity drives me utterly
mad."
"Short trip," Kate retorted, bending over Lydia, smoothing back her
sweat-dampened hair. "Let her sleep it off. I'll stay with
her—you too, Simon. Elias, see to Holly. The rest of you, go
home
and get some rest."
There was some murmuring as they hung up their robes and put away
implements and doused candles. Someone picked up Lydia's thurible and
extinguished it. Elias ignored everything but Holly—who still
stood on her point of the inlaid oak pentagram, arms wrapped
protectively around the Waterford chalice.
"You can give it back now," he said, gently prying her fingers loose.
She looked at him as if she had never seen him before.
"You know what she is," he reminded her as he took the crystal.
She nodded. "Sciomancer. Diviner of shadows." Shaking herself visibly,
she shrugged out of her silver robe as if the action would rid her of
magic, too. "Why the swastika?"
"Her grandmother was a Holocaust survivor."
"Diviner of the future in shadows," Holly corrected grimly.
"With occasional echoes of the past." He wasn't about to say what he
really wanted to say, which was, How the hell would I know why she saw
what she saw and said what she said?
"The swastika wasn't originally a Nazi symbol, you know."
And now, he told himself, he would be privileged to hear a lecture from
one of the greatest collectors of pretty much useless information he
had ever met.
"It's found from Ireland, where it was the Cross of St. Bridget, to
India, which is where the Sanskrit word 'swastika' comes from. The
Hopi, the Plains Indians, and the Maya used it in the Americas. About
the only place it's never been found, in fact, is central Africa."
"Fascinating," he said quellingly.
Holly was relentless. "The Sun Wheel, fertility, life, good
fortune—it shows up on the feet of the Buddha, as a sign of
Artemis, and it's even been found in Jewish temples many thousands of
years old." There was an instants pause for breath. "What direction was
it turning?"
He gave a start, surprised at being asked a question. He'd found that
usually when she got going, not much slowed her down.
"Right or left?" Holly gestured impatiently. "Deosil or widdershins?
Right is the sun and the god, left is the moon and the goddess."
"I don't have the vaguest idea," Elias said caustically. "I didn't
think to ask."
"Find out when you can. And those words at the end—what was
that?
And what about the ravens, and a spear? Those sound like Norse
mythology—"
He ground his teeth. "Let's wait until Lydia can tell us exactly what
she saw before we speculate on what it means."
"Oh, of course, Your Honor," Holly snapped. "Objection—calls
for
speculation. Inadmissible as evidence." She flung her robe onto a
chair. "I'm going home. Good night—what's left of it." And
with
that she stormed out of the room.
Simon ambled over. "Don't tell me —photographic memory?"
"No—just eidetic." Or, as Susannah usually put it, idiotic.
"And a redheaded Irish temper, too," Simon remarked.
Elias rubbed wearily at his forehead. "It seems to be her default
attitude setting. How's Lydia?"
"Resting. Go to bed, Eli."
"Simon—what about the ravens?'
"Go to bed, Eli."
****
DENISE BLUSTERED HER WAY INTO the judge's chambers on Friday
afternoon, ignoring the secretary's bark of "You can't go in
there!" and the fact that His Honor was on the phone. She could not,
however, ignore the basketball on the floor; she nearly tripped over
it, and in her fury gave it a vicious kick. It slammed into the desk
and then into a pile of case folders, which erupted in a gush of flying
paper.
Elias Sutton Bradshaw hung up his phone. "And a good day to you too,
Denise. To what do I owe — ?"
Glaring down into dark eyes -whose tilt and amusement should have
reminded her of an elf, she spat, "Lay off, you bastard. You have no
right—"
"Your Honor—'
Denise whirled at the sound of another voice—feminine,
-worried,
and belonging to a blonde who should have been on the cover of Vogue,
not trussed up in a power suit in service to a judge of the United
States District Court.
"It's all right, Susannah," Bradshaw replied.
"Shall I find the Marshal on duty?"
"Don't bother." It was a Friday, and Pete Wasserman was his assigned
protection today; no point in troubling the man. If it had been
Thursday, and Evan Lachlan's watch, Elias might have been
tempted—just to see the fireworks. "She only bites when she's
hungry—and she dined well last night, I'm told. Close the
door on
your way out."
Frowning, Susannah did so—obviously unhappy about it but also
unwilling to argue with her boss. Denise, furious at the interruption,
stalked over to the desk to glare more effectively down at her quarry.
"I mean it. You have no authority and no right to —"
"You're in my jurisdiction," he replied mildly, addressing her as if
she were a particularly dim-witted six-year-old. "That gives me the
authority and the right. • lust count yourself lucky I'm not
using
the authority of this office instead."
"You don't dare!"
"Make another mistake, and you'll find out just how much I dare."
"I won't stand for this."
"Denise, you make an excellent living writing cliches, but must you
also speak in them?"
"Cliche this!" she snarled, and with a muttered "word and a complex
gesture of her fingers, the spilled stack of file folders burst into
flames.
Bradshaw sighed, leaned back in his chair, and with a glance and a nod
extinguished the little blaze.
"Play with fire on your own time," he said. "I have more important
things to do."
"You can't scare me!"
"Shall I send you back to your own? New York isn't New Orleans, Denise.
Whatever Jean-Michel tolerated in Voodoo Land isn't kosher here. You'd
be better off back in the bayou."
"I'm not going back and you can't make me."
"No?" He smiled, but his eyes were bleak. "It's true, Jean-Michel has
done me a favor or three. Sending you back wouldn't earn me his undying
devotion."
"Whatever he told you was a lie.'
"No, it wasn't—and we both know it. Just stay out of trouble,
Denise. You know what I mean—and what I won't stand for in my
city."
"Fuck you," she responded, and turned on her heel and marched out.
The furrows that forty-nine years had carved into Elias's brow
deepened, as if someone had suddenly drawn his face in blacker ink. He
sat very still for a few moments, then roused himself and took a can of
air freshener from a desk drawer. The fire hadn't burned anything
—Denise wasn't that good, and he'd been very
quick—but
there was a slightly scorched smell in the air.
With a quick spritz of aerosol, a corporate concoction of
cinnamon-and-apple filled the office. Elias's nose twitched. Perhaps
Holly could brew him up something sultry and Southern, magnolias maybe
—scratch that, she was a lousy cook. A pity she had only a
minor
talent, one requiring no education at all. She'd done the basics back
home in Virginia, of course, but at an age when others manifested their
special gifts, she had been found to have nothing special at all.
Except the one. Except that strange, dangerous, damned-near unique one.
Reminding himself to ask Kate to raid her stillroom for something
soothing, he punched the intercom switch and said, "Mrs. Osbourne, can
you bring me the Castello case file, please?"
****
ONE STEP AHEAD OF 'EM, always one step ahead, Swinnerton
sang to himself as he opened the door of his hotel room.
It was only when he saw a big grin above a shiny five-pointed star of
the United States Marshals Service that he realized the door had
already been unlocked .
"Hiya, Harry," said the grin. Handcuffs dangled from the Fingers of the
man's left hand; the right one was dead-steady around a Glock. "You're
gonna be a good boy, right?"
One step ahead—except when I'm one step behind. Harry
Swinnerton sighed, calculating his chances of taking the big guy.
Lousy.
He held out both hands, wrists together. "Do it, Lachlan."
"Now, that's what I like to hear. Philosophical."
Swinnerton was cuffed and Mirandized — the latter technically
unnecessary, for as a fugitive convicted felon he had never not been
under arrest, but Lachlan had begun his career in the NYPD and the
right-to-an-attorney speech was hard-wired by now. Harry heard it all
out, then turned mournful eyes on his captor. "Where'd I go wrong?"
"Besides offing that guard while you were stealing way too many pretty
little figurines, you mean?" The deputy exchanged gun for cell phone
and punched a button. "Well, Harry, you've just got to learn to stay
off the Internet."
That bitch at the cybercafe. Had to be. She'd come on to him, he'd told
her to take a hike, and—
"Or at least if you do go surfing, don't browse every antiques dealer
on the East Coast who's interested in Etruscan bronzes." He paused long
enough to say into the phone, "Got him," before perp-marching Harry out
of the hotel room.
In the elevator, Swinnerton looked up at six feet four inches of Deputy
U. S. Marshal on the hoof. "Y'Know, Lachlan, you're a real asshole.
"So my girlfriend tells me. Into the car, and let's get you back to
jail. C'mon, Harry, cheer up. I hear Friday is meatloaf night."
One
AS HE SET HIS THIRD Corona down after taking along swallow,
Evan
Lachlan felt Elias Bradshaw looking at him across the table. When he
glanced over, there was a quizzical smile on the judge's face. Lachlan
arched a brow in query.
"You really don't know, do you?" Bradshaw asked.
"Know what?" He returned his gaze to the fascinating sight of Holly
McClure dancing with Susannah Wingfield—yeah, two women, like
this was a dyke bar or something. A Bonnie Raitt CD was thundering from
the sound system while the band took a break at what Holly swore -was
the only halfway decent blues bar in New York. And whoever would've
thought they'd run into Bradshaw and Wingfield at a place like this? An
upscale restaurant or exclusive club was more their style—or
so
Lachlan would have said before getting a good look at Susannah.
The prim attorney was surely a sight to behold, a Friday night fantasy
(the last thing he'd ever admit to Holly) in black miniskirt, black
stiletto heels, and crimson silk shirt with three—count 'em,
three—buttons undone. As for the black leather biker-chick
jacket
that draped the back of her chair . . . incredible. He'd seen her legs
before, of course, but never this much of them, or in black silk
hosiery. And they were well worth looking at.
Susannah Wingfield, off-duty. Lachlan shook his head in amazement. He
would've bet good money that this blonde carbon copy of Audrey Hepburn
could never laugh and toss her long hair and sing and shake it like
—well, better not go there. He had to work with the lady,
after
all.
Besides, he preferred watching his own lady. Holly was dancing with as
much abandon as Susannah, but her moves were sinuous as a cat's. Above
boots with three-inch heels and tight faded Levi's she wore the
blue-and-white baseball jersey that had been Evan's congratulatory gift
on publication of her Village Voice article, "Property of U. S.
Marshals Service." Three inches taller than Susannah's five-seven, and
outweighing her by at least twenty-five pounds, Holly looked chunky by
comparison. Then again, anybody but Gwyneth Paltrow would look chunky
next to Susannah—who was, to Evan's discerning eye, too
skinny.
He liked a woman he wasn't likely to pulverize in bed if he shifted
wrong in his sleep. On the Evan Liam Lachlan Scale, Holly McClure rated
an eight in most departments. Plus a ten for the eyes.
"You have no idea who she is," Bradshaw's voice said.
"Why, who is she?" Evan asked. Besides the slinkiest thing in this bar.
"I'm surprised the subject never came up. I thought you'd been seeing
her for several weeks." Bradshaw drank Scotch and leaned back, watching
Susannah.
"So?" Lachlan prompted.
"What? Oh. We had quite a chat about it when she came to the office
regarding her research."
The judge was enjoying this. The marshal was not. But Lachlan s voice
was silken smooth as he said, "Holly went to that ritzy college with
Susannah. You saying that puts her out of my league, Your Honor?"
"Not at all," Bradshaw assured him, taking another swallow of Scotch.
He looked amused. Lachlan hated that expression on anybody, but
especially on Elias Bradshaw.
This was not the couple he would have chosen to double-date with. As a
U. S. Marshal assigned to judicial protection, Bradshaw -was Lachlan's
duty—and sometimes his cross to bear—three days a
week. It
was Lachlan's Irish luck that the judge's clerk was a woman well worth
looking at who, moreover, had interesting friends. The weird part was
that from a couple of hints Holly had dropped, Susannah and Elias had
become an item about the same time he and Holly had. Lachlan knew how
the women had met: Susannah the pre-law and Holly the history major
were sopranos who had stood right next to each other in the Women's
Chorale. Susannah can sing?"
"Like an angel with a solid gold halo, "Holly affirmed, digging her
hands into the pockets of her coat. Cold wind off the Hudson ruffled
her hair and burned bright color into her skin, emphasizing the
freckles across her nose and cheekbones.
He shook hid head in disbelief, then eyed her. "What about you?"
"Me? A halo?" She grinned.
"God forbid! C'mon. Prove you can sing."
"Right here in the middle of Central Park?"
He stood back from her, arms folded. "I dare ya."
"That, my dear Marshal, was a mistake."
And right there in the middle of a frosty Sunday afternoon stroll she
ran through the scale up to a note that hit the bare
treetops—and
then soared on into the sky.
Lachlan, aware that people were looking curiously at them, made a grab
for her. "Exhibitionist, " he growled, and she broke off to laugh ad he
whirled her around, catching her back against his chest. She leaned her
head onto his shoulder, chortling. Wrapping his arms around her, lips
buried in russet hair, he hefted her a few inched off the ground.
"McClure, behave yourself!"
"Oh, do I have to?"
He smiled to himself as he drank beer and watched the two women. They
shared the same taste in music—and maybe in men, too. Though
Lachlan couldn't see it himself, women did appreciate Bradshaw: the
frank appraisal he gave them, the honest enjoyment he took in watching
them, the intent way he listened to them. Susannah had certainly fallen
for it. She was directing a genuinely fiendish shimmy at her boss right
now, laughing.
"Okay," Lachlan said, dragging his attention away from the women, "Who
is Holly, anyway? Homicidal whacko? Notorious embezzler? Convicted
felon?" He spoke with no little amount of sarcasm, knowing none of
these was true. Bradshaw's amused little smirk was really beginning to
annoy him.
"No, as you're doubtless aware. I mean you don't know what her work is,
do you?"
"She writes." He paused for a swig of beer. "Articles for magazines."
Like the ones she'd been doing when she walked into the federal
courthouse and his life.
Susannah had brought her into chambers about a month ago and introduced
her around. The implication was that every cooperation should be given
her college friend, who was researching two articles — one on
the
U.S. Marshals Service (How original, he'd thought—until he
read
it in the Village Voice) and one on Irish Gaelic (linguistic holdovers
from the Old Country, slang and the like). Lachlan had taken Susannah's
hint, and was even willing to be nice about it—Holly McClure
was
a good-looking woman, after all. But he'd been last on her list.
The day Susannah brought her in happened to be Lachlan s
birthday—there were cards and gag gifts all over his
desk—and he'd thought this -would earn him first interview.
But
Ms. McClure -went to lunch with Sophia Osbourne, Bradshaw's secretary.
On Tuesday she lunched with Bradshaw's other marshal, Pete Wasserman
(who preened like a peacock when he left the office and grinned like an
idiot when he got back, flatly refusing to reveal what—or
whom—they had discussed). Susannah and Judge Bradshaw had
also
been interviewed, presumably over lengthy meals at pricey restaurants.
Lachlan's venue had been a hot dog stand at about four on a snowy
afternoon. Somehow they got to talking about a thousand other topics
besides being Irish and being a cop, and moved on to a little cafe for
dinner. And then to his apartment.
Not that he got anywhere. At ten-thirty she fell asleep on his couch
while he was in the kitchen brewing up a pot of coffee. He spent a
couple of minutes deciding whether or not to be insulted, then
shrugged, covered her with Granna Maureen's afghan, and went to bed
alone. The next morning she was gone before his alarm went off. As he
showered and shaved, he wondered if he'd have to chalk her up as One
That Got Away. Then his doorbell rang. Not Holly: a delivery boy from
the bakery down the street. Bemused, Lachlan accepted a bag of
cinnamon-raisin bagels, a gigantic coffee, and a note: Sorry I faded
out, but it was a long day and you must be the only person in New York
with a comfortable couch! Will you meet me for dinner tonight so we can
finish our interview? You pick the restaurant—my expense
account
is buying.
Tired though she'd been that night, she'd been paying attention to what
he said; he'd read the manuscript of the Irish article, and a lot of it
had come from him (or, more accurately, Granna Maureen, born in County
Meath). By the time Holly showed him the article, they'd been seeing
each other for two weeks and sleeping together for one.
Not that this had been easy to accomplish.
He'd canceled his Friday night date that week even though it was a sure
thing, finding himself more interested in a redheaded writer than a
blonde graphics designer (even though their last session had been
pretty damned graphic). He had every faith he could charm Holly McClure
into a sure thing anyway. But when they parted outside O'Kelley's at
one in the morning, he didn't even rate a goodnight kiss. This irked
the hell out of him.
On Sunday he used the cell-phone number Holly had given him and asked
her out dancing for the next evening. First kiss—but nothing
else. Not even a. second kiss. He signaled his displeasure by not
calling her on Tuesday. Wednesday she showed up at Judge Bradshaw's
chambers around quitting time and took him to dinner and a jazz
club—a night that ended outside the club at 1:30 a.m. with
two
discoveries. First, she had a fantastic mouth and incredible hands and
knew how to use them. Second, he'd been right—she didn't wear
a
bra and didn't need one. But the fantasies this conjured up went
unfulfilled. So did he. And it -was really beginning to piss him off. A
case of the best-planned lays, he supposed.
That Thursday was Thanksgiving at his sister's house, a yearly event
that reminded him why he hated this time of year: his birthday, then
Thanksgiving, then Pop's birthday, then Maggie's birthday, all
featuring too much food, too much booze, and way too much family
togetherness. Or what passed for it with Clan Lachlan.
Friday he and Holly were just finishing salads at Da Marino's when his
pager went off, damn it to hell. Holly insisted on coming with him.
He'd let her take a look, then sent her home in a cab, thinking glumly
that the scene of a triple homicide at a Protected Witness location was
a hell of a way to end a date. But when he'd phoned her late that night
(or early the following morning, depending on point of view), she'd
been wide awake and waiting for his call. No tap-dancing, no
Oh-you-poor-baby, no How-do-you-cope-witb-your-horrible-job, no
You-still-owe-me-a-decent-meal. She listened, asked a few questions,
and told him she'd pick him up at seven, her turn to buy.
And Saturday night, just as he was starting to think he'd never get
anywhere, he nailed her. Or maybe she nailed him. Because he -wasn't
quite sure about this, he decided it had been mutual.
Sunday she took him to brunch. After some gorgeous food there arrived a
tarte tatin with a lighted candle in it. A belated happy birthday, she
told him, producing a brace of cigars to go with their coffee. Like
him, she'd quit smoking years ago; like him, she still enjoyed a fine
cigar.
Jesus, Mary, and Joseph—did she ever enjoy it. Watching her
smoke
the thing damned near gave him a coronary. Her eyes were wickedly blue
above moist satiny lips that caressed the cigar and freckled velvety
cheeks that hollowed as she inhaled. His conversation—fluent
and
wide-ranging during brunch—became somewhat constricted. So
did
the fit of his slacks.
Lachlan hadn't done more than glance at any other woman since.
Bradshaw had pulled a folded paper out of his overcoat pocket. "She
writes a lot more than newspaper articles." He laid the newsprint on
the table: The New York Timed Review of Books.
"One of her pieces is in here? Great! She made the Times!"
Bradshaw smiled. Lachlan was peripherally aware that he didn't like
this particular variation on the usual smile, but he was too intent on
searching for Holly's article.
"I was going to leave this at the office for you, but I might as well
show it to you now. Page four."
Evan found it—not a bad photo of her, but she had the kind of
face that always looked best when in motion. No still picture could
ever capture the quick play of wit and humor across her features. The
photographer had caught the sharp intelligence but none of the
laughter—or the lascivious turn of mind hiding behind those
big
blue eyes.
But why would a writer of articles rate a photo?
He began to read.
DRAGON SHIPS: NEW MCCLURE NOVEL ENCHANTS
After a three-year absence, H. Elizabeth McClure has
returned—not
to the artistic community of Renaissance Italy, scene of her previous
bestseller, but to the considerably less civilized yet no less
fascinating environs of ninth-century France and a tale of Norse
invaders.
McClure's previous work — scholarly biographies and
historical
fiction—has earned her a loyal following and critical
acclaim.
Dragon Sbips delights again with vivid characters, lively action
—
He felt his guts roil and stopped reading. He looked back over at the
dance floor, where Holly and Susannah were gleefully bumping hips in
time to the backbeat. This was definitely not the same
Susannah—and all at once it wasn't the same Holly, either.
"Don't kill the messenger,' Bradshaw said suddenly, and Evan realized
his emotions were scrawled all over his face. Hastily he smoothed his
expression as Bradshaw went on, sincerely puzzled: "1 thought you'd be
pleased. She's quite a catch. Marshal."
The deejay didn't give the dancers any breather—'another song
came up, slower but with a driving drumbeat. Holly and Susannah went on
dancing, the rhythm of hips and shoulders and flying hair provocatively
emphasizing the drums.
From somewhere Lachlan dragged up a crooked smile and the words,
"Yeah, Ma always told me not to
bring a girl
home unless she was brainy, beautiful, and rich." Which happened to be
true, which was why he'd never even tried to do it. Pleasing the late,
unlamented Patricia Lachlan had never been high on his list of
priorities — more like down with scrubbing the mildew from
the
grout in his shower. He leaned back and drained the Corona down his
throat before signaling the waitress for a fourth. He wasn't yet
numb—and he wanted to be.
"So tell me, Your Honor, before I reel her in — she any good?
You read any of her books?"
"A biography of Christiane de Pisan—a Medieval poet. Yes,
she's very talented. And, in certain circles, quite well-known."
Holy shit. "Gee, I'll have to run out and get a copy. And a dictionary
to go along with it, for all the words of more than one syllable."
Bradshaw s dark brows arched. "Are you about to make a fool of
yourself?"
She'd already done a pretty good job of it. He gave the judge stare for
stare and said nothing. His Corona came; he put a five on the table and
squeezed the lime wedge into the bottle. As he took a large mouthful of
ice-cold beer, he had the feeling he wouldn't be able to drink this one
fast enough.
"Do yourself a favor and think first," Bradshaw continued. "She comes
from where all of us come from. Susannah, me, you. Holly—we
all
worked our way through college and fought to establish careers. No free
rides from rich parents. The town she's from in Virginia is smaller
than the one Susannah was born in — and that's saying
something.
So if difference in social status is your problem — "
"Problem? I got no problems."
Lachlan drained the bottle in four long swallows and stood, threading
through the sparse crowd to where Holly was laughing with Susannah. The
look those blue eyes gave him went straight to his chest. And then
lower.
"Have this dance?" he asked, appropriating Holly's hand, spinning her
once under his arm before drawing her possessively close. It wasn't
exactly a slow song, but he had no trouble easing her into a swaying,
clasping, intimate dance.
"Oooh—smooth, Lachlan, very smooth," Holly commended, eyes
lull
of laughter and promises. Dancing wasn't quite vertical sex, but it was
definitely public foreplay.
Her head bent to rest comfortably on his shoulder, and he indulged
himself with the feel of her in his arms. So sweet, and so sensual, the
way they moved together, as attuned in this as in bed. From their first
night together she had sensed his every move telegraphed through his
muscles, following his lead so perfectly they might as well have been
one person. He gritted his teeth. Goddammit, she smelled so good, and
her dark russet hair was soft against his cheek, and her fingertips did
their own delicate dance on the nape of his neck. He could feel the
warmth of her slowly turn feverish as his arm involuntarily tightened
around her back and his hand slid south down her hip. At least her body
had never lied to him.
"When were you gonna tell me?"
"Tell you what?" She tilted her head back to look at him,
shoulder-length hair glinting gold and copper along every loose, lazy
curl.
" 'New McClure Novel Enchants,'" he quoted acidly.
Her quick, expressive face went blank for a moment. Then she tossed her
hair back and said, "I never believe my reviews."
"I got one for you now. Headline goes 'Rich Writer Makes Jerk of Mick
Cop.' Like it so far?"
Scowling, she began, "Evan, don't be an asshole — "
He dipped her seductively, making it look good for Susannah and
Bradshaw. He tried not to react as her thigh slid between his; he tried
not to see the line of her throat or the tender hollow at its base. He
lost his battle against his own body as her thigh nudged deliberately
higher, taunting him. Her head came back up, her body tense and cold in
his arms. Angry eyes blazed at him, one hand taloning into his shoulder
and the other rigid within his palm. She was mad at him? What the hell
right did she have to get pissed off? He was the one who'd been lied to.
He righted her again and pulled her close. "Now I know why we never go
to your place. Why I never even get to pick you up at your place.
Almost a month of this musta been a kick for you, slumming with the big
dumb Mick who can barely read, let alone read anything literary."
The song ended and she yanked herself out of his arms. He tried to hang
on, but she -was tall and strong—and furious. "You are a big
dumb
Mick if that's what you think!" she snarled. "And if it
is—well,
fuck you. Marshal, and the horse you rode in on!"
Holly stalked right past Susannah, who was returning to their table
from the ladies' room. Snatching up her coat and scarf, Holly flung a
furious glare at Bradshaw. "Any more little revelations tonight. Your
Honor?"
"Holly," Susannah exclaimed, "what's—"
"Read all about it in my next enchanting novel!" After casting one
scathing backward glance at Lachlan, she pushed her way out of the bar.
Susannah turned to him -with a disgusted expression. "Nice -work,
Lachlan."
"Never occurred to you to tell me, did it?"
She didn't pretend not to know -what he meant. "She asked me not to."
"Yeah, I guess the joke was too good. You were havin' too many laughs
— "
Green eyes ignited. "We weren't laughing at you and you know it!"
"Why the hell not? Seems pretty funny to me." He tried to hang onto his
temper. This -was no time to feel like a ten-year-old from the wrong
side of town who took the same French classes and wore the same St.
Thomas Aquinas blazer and played on the same softball team as the rich
kids—who never let him forget where he came from.
Susannah latched onto his arm, nails digging in. "Don't be stupid. Do
you know what kind of man she usually meets? They're interested in her
money, her connections — "
"But I'm the perfect toy boy. I get your drift, Counselor."
"Oh, for Christ's sake, Evan!"
He grabbed his leather coat from the back of his chair just as Susannah
was turning on Bradshaw to demand, "Goddammit, Eli, what the bell did
you say? "
It was piercingly cold outside on the street, and raining. Holly was
gone, of course—long gone. Probably in a limo, he thought
bitterly. Oh, but she was slumming, remember—hiding the Rolls
and
the platinum credit cards and the diamonds and the penthouse —
It hurt much more than he thought it should.
It was just that he'd let himself begin to think there might be
something to this one besides a good time in bed and out. A few rousing
arguments about life, politics, religion, -whatever. Sharing popcorn at
the movies, trading off paying for lunches and dinners—and
making
breakfasts at his place, which was his task because the woman couldn't
cook worth a good goddamn.
He liked her. She was smart, sassy, sexy, and let him get away with no
bullshit whatsoever. His particular brand of bullshit had gotten him
just about every -woman he'd ever bothered to want. So why did he have
to want some lying rich bitch who probably lived in one of those huge
high-rises off the Park, or a three-story brownstone, or a Gramercy
Park place, or—
She didn't act it. Not really. Okay, she dressed it right enough. When
he met her for dinner last Friday she'd been incredible in sapphire
silk and pearls. Her mother's, she'd told him, necklace and earrings
and bracelet; it might even have been true. The jewelry was one thing;
the clothes were another. In a month of seeing her four times a week,
she'd never worn the same outfit twice. The labels he'd noticed as he
helped her on with coat or jacket were DKNY, Ralph Lauren,
Armani,
and others of that expensive ilk. All he'd thought was that, like many
another woman, she spent way too much on clothes, and he was glad he
didn't have to foot the bills. Which she probably had her accountant
pay, never even seeing them.
Fuck it. He didn't need her. There were plenty of other women, dozens
of 'em, ones who'd fall all over themselves to get into his bed the
first date, not make him wait, the way Holly had. Ones who wouldn't lie
to him, the way Holly had.
Ones who, within a couple of days or a couple of weeks, would bore him
witless—the way Holly never had.
Fundamental fairness compelled the admission that she'd never actually
lied to him. Not directly. But she always had some excuse not to go to
her place. The living room was being painted; the heat was off; she was
near the courthouse so why didn't she meet him for dinner if his desk
permitted—
He could have found out a lot from the prefix of her home phone, but
she hadn't given it to him. Clever girl. "Feelprivileged, Lacblan
—only the people I want to talk to get my cell-phone number."
As
for her work—she'd downplayed it, just saying that she'd had
some
stuff published, and was working on a novel. "... loyal following and
critical acclaim.
"Fuck!" he snarled to the streetlights.
Uptown girl, slumming around with a Lower-East-Side-Mick cop. He hoped
she'd gotten her jollies.
He dug his hands into his pockets, heading for the subway and home.
Two
"HOLLY?" the VOICE ON THE phone was despicably awake.
"Morning, Suze." Holly started the coffee, sparing a disgusted glance
out the kitchen windows at bleak gray rain. "I hope your evening ended
more agreeably than mine."
"After 1 cussed Eli out for an hour, yeah. Look, I'm sorry
about—"
"It wasn't his fault. I'm sure he thought Evan would be glad to know."
She rubbed her aching eyes, cradling the phone receiver on her
shoulder. She supposed she was lucky His Honor hadn't told Evan the
rest of it. But what happened in the Circle stayed in the Circle; it
was as if their Work was done by an aspect of themselves that did not
enter the world of their everyday lives. Besides, one never admitted to
the Craft if possible. In all the years she'd known Susannah, her
friend had never even suspected.
"Well, sometimes it's hard to tell with Eli—but you're
probably
right." Susannah paused. "I think he's a little amazed that you're
going out with Evan. They aren't exactly best buddies."
"They're two studs sniffing the mares," Holly said crudely. "Neither
can believe the other is even remotely attractive to women."
"Eli told me to apologize for him. I told him that the next time you
come into the office, he can damned well apologize for himself."
"It's not necessary. Really. Let's not talk about them, okay?"
"Fine with me," Susannah told her. "But you do have to talk to Evan."
"What you mean is I should've said something to him long before this.
It's all my fault, Susannah." She paused, then went on more vigorously,
"No, it's not. Am I supposed to apologize for being successful?
"Of course not. But maybe for lying to him."
"I didn't lie to him!" Not about that, anyway. Not about anything.
"Prevaricated a bit, maybe?" Susannah suggested. "Oh, get the Iire out
of your eyes, Holly, I'm getting scorched all the way from Brooklyn
Heights! Look, Evan will come around. It's just that filthy Irish
temper of his." There was a smile in her voice now. "The one he shares
with you and half the rest of this city. It's a miracle you didn't all
annihilate each other back in Ireland."
Holly rummaged in the breadbox for muffins. "We were too busy
annihilating you bloody British."
"Give Evan a couple of days to think it over. He's one of the good
guys."
"Huh! If he's so great, why didn't you go after him?"
"Me?" Susannah gasped, and Holly had to grin at the mock horror in her
voice. "With that six-foot-four 240-pound lug? He'd crush poor little
size-two me if he rolled over wrong in his sleep! All they'd find would
be a pancake with pink toenails.'
"Hey —he ain't skinny, but he ain't an ounce over 225 either."
"Mmrn," Susannah purred. "And just exactly how'd you find that out,
girlfriend?"
"Why, I looked at his driver's license, of course," Holly replied
innocently. "Susannah Dolcebella Wingfield, what can you be suggesting?
"
"Holly Elizabeth McClure, you'd be a lousy lawyer. You can't lie worth
shit."
"I beg your pardon. When I'm being a novelist, I'm a professional liar
—I tell lies for a living, on paper. Maybe we're in the same
racket after all, hmm?"
"Stop trying to distract me from the subject."
"Which is? " The fridge was bare ot butter, margarine, and jam. Not to
mention eggs, milk, and cheese. Isabella must have done a
search-and-destroy on it again; the housekeeper was way too impressed
by expiration dates. Shrugging, Holly went to the pantry for peanut
butter.
"Evan Lachlan."
"Well, you have a point. He'd squish you, sure as shootin'. l^eave the
big, brawny guys to the big, brawny girls like me. Are we still on for
lunch Monday? "
"Holly-"
"Susannah," she said patiently, "just tell me if I have to get dressed
in something other than jeans."
"I'll have to let you know. Can't we leave the alumni thing to somebody
else?"
She smeared peanut butter on the muffin. "Our number's up, according to
.Jemima."
"God, fifteen years in June —I'm starting to feel old, Holly!"
"My heart bleedeth not. You're damned near three years younger than the
rest ot us, you little grade-skipping genius. Look, all we have to do
is pick a Friday in April, corral the New York alums into a bar, and
get 'em drinking and dancing."
"Do we bring dates?"
"So you can show off your big-shot honey?" Holly teased.
"Just like you want to show off your big hunky marshal!"
"If we're still speaking to each other. Which is up to him. If he wants
to be weird about this, fine. There's a lot of other men out there."
"But nobody like Evan Lachlan and you know it. I saw it the minute I
introduced you, and I knew long before that. Which is exactly why I
introduced you—after you fought me on it for months, you
stubborn
bitch."
"'Introduced'—?" she echoed indignantly. "You practically
handed me over as his birthday present!"
"I'm a sweet and thoughtful friend," was the blithe, bland reply. "To
both of you. And he hasn't even thanked me yet. Susannah the Yankee
Yenta," she laughed. "As if you didn't throw me at Elias on his
birthday—"
"As if you didn't want to be thrown!" she scoffed. "You were such a
pain in the ass —I acted out of pure self-preservation. I
flatly
refuse to supply tequila and sympathy more than five times over any one
man in your life. You'd used up your quota, girl."
Susannah snorted. "Holly, you're too good to me."
"I'm a sweet and thoughtful friend," she teased. "By the way, I never
did get around to asking how Elias liked his birthday present."
"Bet you gave Lachlan pretty much the same thing."
"Susannah!" She pretended shock. "I bought him brunch and a cigar."
"That's definitely not what I gave Eli! And I know Evan—for
brunch and a cigar, and whatever else went with it—"
"Watch it, Wingfield!"
"—he'll be back," she finished.
"Well, ain't that jes' dandy," she drawled in the broadest possible
version of her native Virginian. "Ah can't wait t'be die next numbah in
his I'il ol' black book —" She dropped the accent and
finished
acidly, "—which probably runs into quadruple digits."
"Triple, maybe," Susannah retorted, amused.
"Terrific. Just what I lack—Casanova in ostrich-skin cowboy
boots. Where did he get those awful things, anyway? "
"Beats me. I've heard five different stories so far."
"Well, if any of 'em ever sound plausible, send me an e-mail. I'm not
gonna be around to hear it."
"Nice try, McClure. You can't fool me. I saw you two last
night—"
"Before your oh-so-adorable man spilled the beans? Sorry, I didn't mean
that. Tell Elias it's okay. Evan had to find out sometime. It's been
unsaid too long."
Susannah was silent for a minute. Then, very seriously: "This one's
different, Holly.
"I was beginning to think so."
"I know so. See you Monday—if I can't make it, I'll e-mail
you."
"Okay. 'Bye."
She sighed and hung up the phone. Would he come around? She had no
idea. Evan Lachlan -was unpredictable—and she hated that in
anything, especially a man. She was a writer, which meant she was a
control freak who liked things her own way, at her own speed, in her
own time. Evan was indeed different. For one thing, he'd gotten her
into bed a mere week after their first real dinner date (the night
she'd spent on his couch didn't count), when her adamant rule was a
month.
The night after the triple homicide she'd taken him to a trendy bistro.
He insisted on springing for an expensive Merlot to apologize for the
previous evening's interruption, and was his usual self during dinner.
But by nine he was starting to droop, overwork catching up with him.
She asked the waiter for the check and a taxi, and in the cab Evan
apologized ruefully—saying he hadn't counted on drifting off
to
sleep and reversing their roles of the previous week.
Holly looked him straight in the eye. "If you think. I'm spending
another night on your couch, Lachlan, think again."
Suddenly the cab couldn't move fast enough. Neither could their hands
or mouths. By the time the cab finally stopped, she couldn't have
formulated a single thought to save her own life.
They took the stairs to the fourth floor, frantically undoing buttons
and buckles as they climbed, cursing his knotted tie and her tight
cuffs, stumbing, feet and ankles and knees tangling so that they nearly
fell on a landing. At last his door wad behind her back, and she
propped herself gratefully against it, needing the support, while he
kissed her and fumbled in a pocket for keys with pretty much equal
urgency. She arched against him and he growled low in hid throat. And
dropped the keys.
He crouched down to snag them up. When he wasn't kissing her, when his
hands weren't all over her, she could think again. And she started to
laugh.
"What'd so goddamned funny?" he demanded, fingers still scrabbling for
the keys on the tiled floor.
"Us. We're not a couple of teenagers who only have ten minuted until
your parents get home."
"Ten minutes?" he exclaimed, outraged. "What d'you take me for, lady?
Some kinda amateur?"
"I'll take you any way I can get you right now, you egotistical swine!
And I do mean right now, Lachlan."
He laughed up at her through a tousle of dark hair. She buried both
hands in its thickness, something she'd wanted to do forever, and his
eyed closed and his lips parted as he luxuriated in the caress. Still
crouching, he slipped his hands under her tweed jacket and pulled her
blouse from her jeans so he could get his fingers onto her skin. His
touch scorched her. He leaned forward and pressed his face to her
abdomen, hot breath penetrating layers of denim and silk, lower and
lower until the heat of his mouth found the matching heat between he
thighs. She moaned, legs suddenly boneless, hands braced on his
shoulders to hold herself upright.
"Eimhfn — " Her breathing wad ragged ad the long, slow
exhalations were replaced by gently biting teeth. "Oh, God—"
"I could eat you alive —you been drivin' me crazy since the
first time I saw you — "
She dug her fingers into the hard curved of hid biceps, and with
strength born of desperate craving she hauled him to his feet.
"Get the fucking keys and open the fucking door, "she snarled.
"And get on with the fucking?" he suggested, grinning like a madman.
"Goddammit, get this door open or I'll commit felony sexual assault
right here in the hall!"
His eyed had turned to molten emeralds. He opened them as wide ad they
would go and exclaimed, "Damn! You promise?"
"Lachlan — /"
"Takin'a lot for granted, aren't you? Maybe I'm not that ready."
For answer, she lowered her gaze to his inseam, grinning. "I'm betting
you know how to use that—and that you've been practicing
since
you were fifteen."
"Fourteen-and-a-half.
"Well, then, you ought to be fairly good at it by now."
Her coffee was cold and her cheeks -were burning.
In retrospect, she was amazed that she'd held out for seven whole days.
****
LACHLAN WENT TO HIS LOCAL Barnes and Noble on Saturday
afternoon.
The array of Holly's books made his jaw drop. He bought a paperback, a
thick biographical novel of a woman artist in Renaissance Italy who got
raped by her father's apprentice. Cheery stuff. Declining a bag for his
purchase, he stuffed the book into his coat pocket, went down the block
for a fistful of good cigars, and took himself home, where he drank
decaf French roast and smoked cigars and read all afternoon.
He liked the book. Not a boring word in it, and she had the knack of
completely involving the reader in her characters. She made you feel
you were there, that you knew the girl and the rapist and the
sanctimonious jackasses who said she had it coming. The trial was a
travesty, the aftermath a horror. But Artemisia stuck to her
guns—good girl! —and got her revenge by becoming a
truly
great painter. A color reproduction of one of her canvases was on the
cover; he walked back to the bookstore to find and buy a book of her
work to add to his collection.
As he waited in line to pay for the volume, he suddenly remembered a
Sunday afternoon at the Metropolitan, the day he and Holly had walked
in the Park and she'd sung to him for the first time. At the museum
he'd let show a little too much of his interest in and knowledge of
art. Holly had listened attentively, mostly silent, while he went on
and on about Turners instinct for light and Sargent's for capturing the
true character of his portrait subject. His face burned with the
memory: he could just see himself standing there lecturing about art to
a woman who'd written a book about an artist.
A damned good book, too, though he would've enjoyed it even more if it
hadn't been Holly's, with International Bestseller! screaming across
the back cover, right under a picture of her in a dark sweater, holding
a big black-masked white cat.
He hadn't even known she had a cat.
How much else didn't he know about her?
How much did writers make, anyway?
He did a fairly rotten thing then. He went home and called a friend and
had him run Holly's name through the computer. Unlisted she might be to
everyone else, but not to the New York Department of Motor Vehicles.
Ten minutes of pacing his apartment later, the friend rang back. After
some razzing about why he'd want information on a classy babe like
this, he was given her address. And learned from it that a writer with
a "loyal following and critical acclaim" made a shitload of money.
****
THEY HADN'T BEEN SCHEDULED FOR anything on Sunday, and when
he
read the book review section of the paper (for the second time in his
life) he found out why. She and five other authors were signing books
at a Village store to benefit the families of 9/11 victims.
At the door he paid his five-bucks-for-charity to get inside out of the
rain. Oh, very chi-chi stuff, this. Brick walls, oak shelves, framed
posters of dead white writers, espresso machines going full blast, and
a crowd ranging from art mavens to nose-piercers, all with books ready
to be signed. Holly sat at a long table next to a mildly balding
professorial type—complete with leather elbow patches and
battered unlit pipe—who leaned entirely too close and looked
down
her blouse while saying something witty. He obviously thought it was
witty, anyway; Holly smiled politely, then turned once more to the girl
who stood waiting for her autograph. Evan couldn't hear their
conversation from this far back in line, but obviously Holly was much
more interested in talking to her readers than to her colleague. He
wondered if he would have appreciated this quite as much if the
colleague hadn't been a bit reminiscent of Elias Bradshaw (with a lot
less hair), one of those rumpled intellectuals that women seemed to
like for no particular reason that Lachlan had ever been able to
figure. The guy probably fucked in rhymed couplets.
It got to be three o'clock, and the store manager elicited groans when
she announced that the signing would be suspended to give the writers a
break. Things would resume in ten minutes, at which time there would be
small gatherings elsewhere in the store for readings. This brought
cheers. A long, lean, poetic type vanished to prepare himself for his
performance. The professor went to pee. Holly chatted with the two
-women writers who were left, then gratefully accepted a fresh
cappuccino and made her way through the store. She was good at this,
Lachlan thought as he watched her, his cop's analytical eye watching
her work the crowd. With some people she was sincere; with others, not
very—but he knew they couldn't tell the difference.
She vanished down a side aisle. He pocketed her novel and sauntered
along the next aisle over, wanting to hear without being seen.
"Thanks for coming today. I know we're all still pretty much in
shock—and nobody's likely to get over that very soon. If
ever.
But I guess we all have to try to do what we can.
"I'm going to read from a work in progress—and very slow
progress, I might add. It doesn't know -whether it's going to be a
novel or a short story. But that's one of the dubious joys of-writing.
You can get suckered in by an idea that shows up, flirts with you for a
while, and then leaves without so much as a kiss goodbye."
Evan winced. He took off his coat, folded it over his folded arms, and
leaned against the bookshelves between Psychology/Freud and
Psychology/Jung to listen. Her voice changed: more formal, the cadences
deeper, the sexy throatiness and all traces of Virginia gone.
"They were do fair and fine a splendor, the young knights ruling by.
From her tower window she gazed down at their proud, unhelmed heads,
their faced pure with devotion to God and dedication to Holy Crusade.
Crimson crosses on unsullied white silk tabards burned like sacred
fire, the same fire that lit their eyes. She saw all this, and wished
fiercely that she was a man so that she might join them. Surely their
efforts here on Earth would be rewarded and their paths to Heaven would
be smooth. They were so beautiful, each with God's Hand on his shoulder
and Christ's Finger pointing the way.
Each, but for one man who rode alone, apart from all the rest. He too
wore the Cross, but there was nothing sacred about him. Tall,
powerfully made, he sat his black destrier with the trained suppleness
of a warrior and the easy grace of a born horseman. The wind rippled
his dark hair, sunlight sparking red glints from its thickness as if
flames lingered there still after a journey through Hell That same fire
burned golden in his eyes that were neither brown nor green, eyes that
glowed with a light neither splendid nor holy.
His gaze caught and held hers. Fire scorched her, and power such as she
had never known existed.
She averted her eyes. Though she knew nothing of him, not his name or
rank or lineage, instinct stronger than reason told her to be wary. He
was beautiful, yes—but not with the fervent grandeur of
faith.
His beauty of proud nose and strong bones and fine, fierce eyes
unsettled her. She was young yet, but not so young that she could not
recognize danger.
Holly stopped reading, and there came the sound of pages rustling. Then
she said in her usual voice, "This man is based on someone I know. My
problem here has been to transfer a twenty-first-century New Yorker
into a twelfth-century Crusader. Why, you might very well ask, would I
even try? Well, the man I know is a cop."
Lachlan blinked. He'd figured, what with the hair ("journey through
Hell"?) and the nose (I guess "proud" is a polite way of describing it)
and the eyes (I always put down "hazel" on forms—do they
really
turn gold?), but to hear her say it out loud like this —
"Beautiful"!
A man's voice asked, "So you're saying that a cop's attitude is the
same as a knight's—and the legal system is like a Holy War?"
"First, that's not what I'm saying at all. Second, I don't mean to be
rude, but if that's your attitude toward law enforcement, you may want
to reconsider."
That's my girl!
"Ponder this," Holly said, the edge gone from her voice now that she'd
delivered the rebuke. "The knights are young and full of religious
fervor, and have no suspicion how badly they're going to be
injured—physically, psychologically. Like a young cop, who
wants
to help people and catch the bad guys, all idealism and bright
illusions. But he's going to get hurt."
"And this guy knows it." This from another man, whose voice was younger
and properly respectful.
"He surely does. He looks much like the rest—only of course
he's
taller, handsomer, sexier, all the usual attributes of the romantic,
hero—" She laughed with her listeners, and Lachlan rolled his
eyes. "—but there's no holy fire of devotion about him. He's
seen
too much. He knows too much. There's a sequence later on where the girl
confronts him, asks why he's doing it, and what he answers is more or
less what I think my cop friend would say. That he does believe, but
not the way these kids do. They think they're seeing clearly, but
between them and reality are their illusions. He had those kicked out
of him a long time ago."
Is that how she sees me?
"He knows that when you finally look reality in the face, your
instincts kick in, the most basic parts of what and who you are. And if
you're honorable and honest, you can trust those instincts —
not
only with your own life, but -with the lives in your care. Once the
illusions are gone, and you see reality for what it is, then and only
then can you do the work right."
"I never looked at it that way," a woman mused. "But I bet this goes
over real well with the girl."
"She's very young, remember—just sixteen, and deplorably
virginal. She wants him to be her White Knight, and he won't oblige.
But she comes to realize that she doesn't want a White Knight. What
would she do with him, anyway? Her sole function in his lite would be
to keep his armor polished. No, she wants a real man — "
"Don't we all," sighed the questioner, and everyone laughed.
"Tell me about it," Holly agreed, and Lachlan could almost see her wry
grin. "You think you've found one, and you're willing to put up with
his faults because he's smart and strong and quick and confident, not
to mention gorgeous —
He chuckled silently. From "beautiful" to "gorgeous" in under ten
minutes — not bad. But—what faults?
"You go, girl!"
"I'm definitely not introducing him toy'"!" Holly laughed, then
admonished teasingly, "Back to the book. These two people have a lot to
teach each other. For instance, one thing she learns from him is that
sex doesn't have to be complicated. He's had about a zillion women
— "
Aw, c'mon — what the hell has Susannah been sayin' about me,
anyway!
" — and sex is the one thing he takes unmitigated pleasure
in.
For her, it's something to be wary of, because all the men she knows
are after something besides her body, and they certainly don't want her
love. They want her money, her title, her lands, the power that goes
with all that. So she resists this man until she can't hold out any
more. When she does give in, it's like falling down a well in the dark.
She's terribly afraid that it'll feel like all the other times she's
been in love—she'll climb out feeling like she's covered in
mud. "
Jesus, Holly—is that you talking, or you talking about the
girl! With her next sentence, he had the answer.
"But with him, it's perfect—cool, clear water, washing her
clean.
No regret, no betrayal. All the same, she teaches him that he's never
really made love before. Had sex, yes. Made love — very
different."
A woman asked, "I was about to ask how she changes him."
"If they truly fall in love, she'll open his heart and rekindle his
belief — not in the illusion of love, but in the reality of
passion and tenderness. Because he does need to believe. He's far too
sensitive to live without faith in something."
"And if you don't have them fall in love? ' someone else asked.
"Where I want them to go is irrelevant. Characters in novels do what
they're going to do. Remind me to tell you about the guy for whom I had
great plans — who got himself killed in a knife-fight without
my
permission! As for this pair — I'm not sure about them. They
don't even have names yet. She might become a symbol—and
here's
the Medieval troubadour tradition of courtly love coining into
play—of something he can never have. He might prefer it that
way.
Love can be hideously cruel. If she's only a symbol, she's easier to
deal with, either to accept as his lady fair on a marble
pedestal—and nothing more—or to reject outright.
"As if he'd love to love her, " a young male voice said eagerly, "but
he's scared to —and blames her for it."
"Pretty much," Holly agreed.
Hey, wait a minute —
"Is this a kind of autobiographical piece set in the past? You and your
policeman friend?"
"God, no!" Holly laughed again. "For one thing, I ain't no
sixteen-year-old virgin! And he's no knight in shining armor, believe
me."
So much for the romantic hero, Lachlan mused. If not a White Knight,
how about a "real man"? Still—if I'm him and she's her, and
she's
sayin' what I think she's sayin '—
"You can't translate directly that way," she continued more seriously,
as if she'd heard his thought. "You can use templates for physical
description or character traits, but a twelfth-century French knight
has an entirely different mind-set than a twenty-first-century Irish
cop." She paused, then said dryly, "Of course, my real problem is I
can't keep the guy from sounding like a twenty-first-century Irish cop!"
They laughed with her, and went on discussing how to construct
character. Evan tuned out, replaying her words in his mind.
Beautiful he now dismissed with a complacent little shrug. She'd
already let him know she liked the way he looked. Rut the way she
described him—or was she describing the knight?--yeah, that
threw
him. Was he really like that?
She was the professional. She made a damned good living at this. She
must know. Or else she'd just taken his physical description and put
somebody else's personality inside. But she'd said the knight was based
on him. Mad he just been convenient when she needed somebody for a book
she was already doing? Or had he truly inspired her to create this
character?
And then he thought about what she'd said at the beginning, about an
idea flirting with you and then leaving without even a goodbye kiss.
He supposed he really had had the illusions kicked out of him. During
his few years as a street cop, he'd seen enough to harden him. But
everything had avalanched down on him one rainy night when a drug
summit gone wrong had ended up in a Lower East Side street cluttered
with corpses, two of them fellow cops. It wasn't until the ballistics
report arrived that he learned he'd shot and killed four people
—
him, son of a beat cop who'd never even unholstered his weapon during
twenty years on the job. The expression in his old man's eyes that
night didn't bear remembering. And the expression that just wouldn't
leave his own had scared him. Digging himself out of the wreckage of
his rookie idealism hadn't been a painless process, and there'd been
some pretty harsh blows to his ego along the way, but the end result
was that he had no illusions left at all.
Which had left him with instinct, just like she'd said.
It was hard to remind himself that this was a story. Fiction.
Not him, not her.
What had she said—something about the characters doing what
they wanted to do, not what she told them to do?
Just a story. But her speculations about its possible directions shook
him. Falling for her—or trying very hard not to fall for her,
resenting her for his own fear—
She didn't scare him. But maybe what he was feeling for her did. And
the outcome—-story-wise, personal-wise, and
otherwise—was
up to him.
Silently, he walked around the bookcases. She was lecturing about plot
flowing from character, and the thirty or so people crowded around her
were listening and even taking notes. Then she glanced up and saw him.
She kept talking. Even though her eyes widened and her right hand
fisted around her pen and a flush burned her cheeks, she kept right on
talking. Lachlan stood there, arms folded over his coat, watching her
without a single flicker of expression on his face. He had to admire
the lady's aplomb.
Now that he knew, he saw the signs—and -wondered how he'd
been so
blind to them. Her hair might be casual, but it was the work of an
accomplished stylist. Same with the make-up: the less it looked like a
woman used, the more it cost. The clothes were low-key, professional,
sophisticated: cinnamon wool skirt, matching cardigan, ivory shirt. The
jewelry was a diamond solitaire necklace and matching earrings, not
gaudy but very expensive. He'd worked cases in the diamond mart and
learned how to tell one carat from two. Or three.
The store manager called for another autograph session, and Lachlan
duly got in line. The girl just ahead of him had been at the reading;
she said to Holly, "I really liked what you read us. When will the book
be coming out?"
"I don't know. As I said, it might be nothing more than a short story."
Evan felt his lips twist wryly.
"Or it might turn into a novel. Who knows?" She held up her hands in a
what-the-hell gesture, smiling. "I could want to write about this guy
for a long, long time."
Oh, yeah—this was definitely meant for him.
The girl left, arms full of books. Evan stepped up to the table and dug
the paperback out of his pocket. "You said the characters don't have
names yet," he remarked as he handed her the book. "Have you got any in
mind?"
She looked straight up at him, calm and unblinking. "I was considering
'Elisabeth' for the girl and 'Guillaume' for the knight, but I'm not
sure yet. I still have reservations."
Evan Liam Lachlan smiled at Holly Elizabeth McClure. "So do
I—for
two, tonight at La Pasta Vita." He didn't, but that could be quickly
remedied. "I was hoping you'd join me."
He knew everyone else in line was gaping. Holly was aware of them,
too— and played to them, the vindictive bitch. He stifled a
snort
of laughter as she tilted her head slightly to one side, her cool blue
gaze running down his gray sweater and faded workshirt and battered
jeans—lingering at his inseam. She couldn't have been more
obvious if she'd ordered him to strip and asked for a ruler. Revenge,
he supposed, forbidding himself to be embarrassed by her scrutiny. Or
the scrutiny of others—who were looking at his height, his
nose,
his hair, and his eyes with more than a little curiosity.
At last she arched a brow. "What time?" He'd passed inspection.
"Seven-thirty." He kept the grin from his face. "I'm honored, Ms.
McClure."
"I'm flattered, Mr. — ?" She looked expectantly at him, as if
truly not knowing who he was.
"Lachlan."
She nodded, as if storing the unfamiliar name in memory. She scribbled
something on the title page of the book, closed it, and handed it back
to him with a bright professional smile. "Thanks so much for being here
today."
He winked at her and left the store. A phone call later, the
reservations were real. He went home and puttered around until
six-thirty, then changed into stiff new Levi's, soft white shirt, brown
pullover that brought out the green in his eyes, and his beloved cowboy
boots. Wallet, keys, jacket—he was ready. Then he took a last
look at himself in the mirror on the back of the bathroom door. Nope,
no knight in shining armor.
Just as well.
"'Dangerous,' huh?" he asked his reflection, and laughed.
Three
TO SPEND AN HOUR DRESSING for a date with a man for whom she wasn't
going to be undressing was ridiculous, and Holly was disgusted with
herself. It wasn't as if anything would come of this dinner. She
could've scripted the whole thing. He'd make a few remarks about her
using him as a character (Christ on the cross, what she wouldn't give
to have chosen anything else to read), and she'd shrug as if it didn't
matter, and he'd tell her he hadn't been put on this Earth to provide
her with material for a short story, let alone a novel. She'd cut to
the chase and say Fine, I do what I do and you do what you do, and you
don I like it that I make more money at my job than you do at yours.
Personally, I think what they pay me in relation to what they pay you
is obscene—but I'm not going to give it back, either. They'd
snipe some more and she'd walk out—leaving a hundred-dollar
bill
at the front desk to pay for dinner, her last little insult.
She dressed in one outfit, then another, then a third, and a fourth,
and finally stood naked in the huge closet, analyzing the situation.
Skirt? Too short and he'd think she was giving him a look at her legs
to remind him of what he wasn't going to get later. Always assuming he
still wanted it. Besides, he'd already taken a good look this afternoon
at the signing. But if she wore a skirt that was too long, he'd get no
look at all at what he wasn't going to get.
Trousers. The gray wool would make her look like she was late to a
business meeting. Denim was too casual. It was too chilly for silk or
linen. Maybe the black velvet jeans. And heels to make her nearer his
height. She hated it when men looked down on her. At five-nine and
change, there weren't many who could. Lachlan was six-four in his
socks. She pawed through her shirt collection, telling herself she
really ought to get rid of some of this stuff, rejecting all until she
came to a teal-blue satin. She hauled on the clothes, brushed her
hair,and made up her face while wondering if there was enough powder in
the world to minimize her goddamned freckles. Then she went to explore
her jewelry cases.
She was tempted to put on something really, really expensive, like the
sapphires and diamonds she'd treated herself to when she turned
thirty-five. But she stayed with the solitaire diamond that had been
her gift to herself on publication of the Christiane de Pisan book, and
the matching earrings that similarly commemorated Artemisia
Ghentilleschi. Yes, she did have money, and the hell with him if he
didn't like it. She bought what she wanted, wore what she wanted,
and—and the hell with him anyway. Shouldering into a coat,
she
went out the door before she could change her mind again.
And stopped at the elevator and went back to her apartment to abandon
the jeans for a short black skirt and black hose and a pair of
four-inch stilettos — cursing him and herself to kingdom
come. By
then it was past seven and she didn't have time to dither anymore.
They got to the restaurant at the same time — he walking from
one
direction, she from the other. He wore a leather jacket that further
broadened his shoulders and gave some taper to his waist, making him
look slimmer than he really was. His height and heft always hit her
like a fist in the stomach—a strength that could be bulky and
threatening but for her was always solid, supple, masculine—a
presence. Powerful; she'd picked the right word for him. And he was so
aware of it, so perfectly capable of using it to his precisely
calculated advantage.
His sexuality, on the other hand, he simply flaunted. He was casually
dressed tonight, but he wore all his clothes the same way: bathrobe or
jeans or suit (and those awful ostrich-leather cowboy boots), he gave
the feeling that he inhabited fabric only because society required it.
The smug bastard knew that his best clothing was his own skin. She
thought about that skin for a moment, and the long strong bones and
hard curving muscles it covered, and steeled her jaw.
"Nice," he commented as they met outside the door, his gaze running
over her legs.
"Thanks. You, too." And then some, the miserable son of a bitch. What
that sweater did to those great big hazel-green eyes —
He smiled. She blushed as if she'd spoken her thoughts aloud. He opened
the door for her, and they went inside. Ten minutes later, wine and
pasta selected, they waited for salads in total silence.
All at once Evan said, "That book you signed for me — I read
it, y'know. Yesterday."
"Did you?" She glanced up in surprise.
"Yeah." He sipped chianti. "I liked it. Not my thing, but 1 did like
it."
"Thanks." She paused. "Did you read what I wrote in your copy?"
He shook his head. "The way you were looking at me, I didn't think it'd
be anything I wanted to read."
"You were wrong," she replied calmly.
"So what'd it say?"
"Go home and see for yourself."
Salads came. They ate. Salads were removed. They drank wine and dipped
bread in rosemary-flavored olive oil.
"Why didn't you want to read what's in your copy?" Holly asked. "What
did you think I'd write?"
"Something about what an asshole I am."
She choked on wine and laughter. Napkin at her mouth, she looked at his
twinkling eyes and the impossible grin on his face.
"Well, that's what you -were thinking, wasn't it?" he prompted.
She nodded. After a sip of water, she said, "I can't help what I do,
Evan. I wouldn't even if I could. I love my work as much as you love
yours. I know I should've told you — "
"Susannah says men hit on you because of who you are." He eyed her over
the rim of his wineglass. "I guess you're lookin' for somebody who's
just after your body, right?"
"You are an asshole, Lachlan." But she grinned back. "Look, I really am
sorry I didn't say anything. It's just so good to be with a man who
doesn't want me to read his Great American Novel, or get his hands on
my bank account or my agent, or meet the people who hang around
literary events in New York. You don't care about any of that. Do you
have any idea what a relief that is?"
"I wouldn't say I don't care about the bank account."
Here it corner, she thought. "All right, let's talk money. What's wrong
with it?"
"Nothin'—if you earn it."
"Now you wait just a goddamned minute — "
"Which I never said you didn't," he interrupted. "Christ, lady,
throttle it back, willya? Red hair, freckles, and an Irish
temper—what a cliche'."
"Explain yourself," she said tightly.
"I just have to be sure you aren't slumming," he said, trying to sound
offhand and failing. "That you haven't lied to me about everything
else."
"I never lied to you about this or anything, and you know it."
"You just kinda forgot to mention it."
"Goddammit, I told you — "
"But -what really pisses me off," he continued as if she hadn't spoken,
"is what's really going on here. You punished me for what other men've
done. If I fuck up, kick me in the ass. I'll deserve it. But I won't be
lied to so you can makeup for all the lies other men told you." He sat
back, studying her shocked face. At last he asked, "You gonna walk out
on me now in a huff, or stay and have dinner?"
"You bastard," she hissed.
They were distracted—fortunately—by the waiter's
arrival
with pasta. They started eating, and after a while both had calmed down.
"All right," Holly said suddenly. "Maybe I wad punishing you for things
that aren't your fault. It's been years since my profession wasn't an
issue. Every relationship I've had since I started getting paid good
money has been pretty much the same. Lousy taste in men, right?"
"Present company excepted." He swallowed wine and leaned back in his
chair again.
"Suze was the one who thought -we should meet. It wasn't my idea." She
couldn't stop a little smile from touching her mouth. "Thirty seconds,
Holly—I bet it's not more than thirty seconds before you want
to
rip his clothes off!" Banishing the memory, she went on lightly, "And I
was the one who told her to go for it with Elias. Looks like we're
better at picking men for each other than for ourselves."
"Looks like," he agreed laconically.
Holly took a deep breath. "Evan, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to lie to
you. I've told you why I didn't say anything." And she'd apologized for
this three times now, which was twice more than her iron-clad limit.
He stayed silent for a minute, drank more wine, then shrugged. "Holly,
I'm not sayin' I'm exactly thrilled with all this. But I'm not a
Neanderthal, either."
He would have to be the one man not an anthropology major who actually
pronounced it without the h. Just her luck.
"I've gone out with women who make more money than I do."
He was trying. He really was. She appreciated that, and understood what
it cost him. But it didn't change things in the long run.
"Just not this much more," she murmured to her wineglass. "It's okay,
Evan. Say goodbye nicely now, and bow out. I understand."
"You understand jack shit. I got news for you, lady." He reached across
the tablecloth and circled her wrist with his fingers. "I'm not a total
asshole. Just don't throw the money in my face, don't rub my nose in
it, and I can handle it. Okay?"
She searched his eyes for a long moment, then sighed and turned her
palm to fit into his. "You truly are a dangerous man, you know. You
make me want to believe you so damned much."
"I've never lied to you. Not once."
She swallowed the implied rebuke—and it went down -with
surprising ease when he looked at her this way. Then his gaze dropped
to their clasped hands,and for a moment she was lost in how his lashes
lay thick and sooty on his cheeks. He had a trick of looking quickly
away before briefly closing his eyes — and then opening them
to
transfix his victim with a long, level, direct stare. Like a dragon was
supposed to be able to do, she thought distractedly, as a tiny smile
teased his lips before his gaze lifted and she was treated to the full
power of those eyes. Yes, a dragon would have eyes like his: brilliant,
inexorable. . . .
"So do the brave knight and the beautiful virgin ever get in the sack?"
This was so unexpected that she couldn't help laughing. "You would ask
that! It's the way I said — I don't know if this will be
anything
more than a short story.'
"Make it a novel," he advised. "A long one. With sequels." The dragon's
eyes suddenly kindled -with golden glints that could mean anger or
amusement but right now meant forthright lust. "I can help with the
research."
Holly arched her brows. "I'm guessing you heard what I told the group
today, but it's worth repeating. I'm no sixteen-year-old virgin, and
you're no White Knight, a chuisle."
The Irish endearment threw him. It showed in his startled eyes. She'd
been saving it for a tender moment, the sweet and slurring
ah-koush-Lah, but tonight it just slipped out. Not exactly the most
romantic timing. . . . Still, what he said next surprised her
completely, as did the dark, faraway look in his eyes.
"I haven't heard that since —Granna Maureen used to call
Granddad
that." He shook his head as if trying to shake off a memory. "I told
you about her— she was born in the Old Country, kept the
accent
and even spoke Gaelic sometimes. Granddad married her -when she was
seventeen, a year off the boat."
"Were they happy? "
"For sixty-three years." He hesitated, his hand suddenly rigid and cold
in hers. His eyes were lightless, his mouth thin, his voice sharp and
bitter. "If I'd never known them, I'd never've known that not all
husbands hit their wives, and not all wives drank themselves comatose
by four in the afternoon — "
"E`imbin—!" He'd never said a word about it, never
hinted—
"Long time ago. Doesn't matter."
Ah, but it did. And she understood all at once why the danger in him
was so tightly leashed. Abuse cycled from generation to generation, and
this man was terrified of becoming his parents. She held his hand until
it warmed in hers. He managed a rueful smile and poured more wine for
them both.
They talked of other things, enjoying each other as they always did. At
last, over espresso and biscotti, she said, "Evan, I promise I won't
throw the money in your face. But you have to promise me something,
too."
"Yeah?" he asked warily.
"Please, pretty please — " She folded her hands together in
fervent prayer. "Let me buy you just one pair of shoes that aren't
those damned cowboy boots!"
****
AT HIS FIRST SIGHT OF her apartment, his heart sank to his
ankles.
It wasn't just one floor in the corner of the building but two, with a
graceful half-circle staircase rising from a marble-tiled foyer. The
banister was warm red oak, the carpet white Berber, both recognized
from lab samples—and couldn't he shut off being a cop for
just
ten minutes, and look at her place without what he knew damned well
were defense mechanisms? But she -was nervous, too — she
couldn't
even look at him. Her cheeks were bright red, and not from the cold
outside.
"Living room," she began, leading him from the foyer into a darkened
space illumined an instant later by automatic sensors. He blinked a
little; the room was bigger than his whole apartment. Beyond the
windows, each hung with a small swirly glass sphere to catch the
sunshine, were the fairy-castle lights of buildings on the other side
of the Park. He glanced at the view, then around the room. Dark green
leather furniture, big coffee table of wood and wrought iron,
paintings—he recognized the Grand Canyon, Yosemite Valley, II
Duomo in Florence, and a ramshackle cottage amid hills so green they
had to be in Ireland, but the other landscapes were unknown to him. An
unmirrored wet bar over in the far corner sparkled with crystal
stemware and liquor bottles in glass-fronted cabinets. His shoes sank
soundlessly into a superb dark crimson Persian rug as he followed her
across the room to the bar.
"What can I pour you? Scotch? Brandy?"
"Brandy."
She selected big balloon snifters and a decanter of amber liquid that
was probably twice as old as he was. He swirled it in his glass,
inhaling, before taking a sip. "This is good. No balcony?"
"I'm terrified of heights," she explained with a self-deprecating
shrug. "This is the only apartment of this size in the building that
doesn't have one. Do you want to see the rest, or just sit and talk for
a while?"
"Might as well get it over with," he said, and could have kicked
himself for the flinch that crossed her face.
Her reply was grim. "Come on, then."
She took him on the grand tour. Elegant white-and-silver powder room
off the foyer. Kitchen with lots of copper and Italian plates; formal
dining room with a suite of old mahogany furniture and a display of
chipped, mismatched milk pitchers. Comfy and homey as it was, he was
willing to bet that she rarely used this room, eating instead at the
kitchen table or in front of the TV.
Back to the hall, and thence to her office—the Show-Office,
she
termed it — with framed book covers, photos of her with
people he
didn't know, her undergraduate and graduate degrees, awards ("My ego
wall," she said dismissively); two walls of books and one of windows;
carved wooden desk; big brown suede sofa in front of the wide-screen TV
and stereo system.
Where she actually worked was a small room next door—and he
tried
not to stare. Nothing was dirty, but everything was a mess. Papers,
books, magazines, letters, folders, manila envelopes, empty coffee
mugs, tins of chocolate-covered espresso beans for caffeine fixes. A
massive partners desk took up most of the space, its scarred wooden top
cluttered -with computer, laptop, disks, CDs, manuscripts,
printer—
"My housekeeper is forbidden even to enter this room. If Isabella
cleaned it up, I'd never find anything."
How she found her own nose in this chaos -was beyond his comprehension.
He was compulsively neat, a habit pounded into him by his mother.
Whatever else Patricia Lachlan had been, whatever else could be said of
her, she had kept a spotless house. Nobody could ever believe that such
a meticulous homemaker was a drunk.
Lachlan dismissed his memories as not belonging here any more than his
work did, and followed Holly into the bedroom. Not the way he might
have planned it—she stalked ahead of him, her movements still
stiff with tension, and he tagged along feeling distinctly unwelcome.
"Isabella's day off," she said, picking up a sweater from the floor.
She looked around for somewhere to put it—but chaise,
ottoman,
bed, and dressing table were all covered in clothes and more books. She
shrugged and dropped the sweater back -where it had been.
It had taken her a single day -without a housekeeper to create this
havoc? As she slid off her heels and lobbed them in the general
direction of the huge walk-in closet, he found it easy to believe it
had taken her a single hour.
Tidied up, it -would be a nice room. A little countrified for his
tastes, but nice. Wrought-iron bedstead, oak furniture, colorful
handmade quilt, incredible cityscape view. The chaise — what
he
could see of it beneath clothes, an afghan, and yet more
books—was a dark green that matched the brocade drapes. The
hardwood floor -was partly covered by a braided rag rug. Photos
decorated one wall—her parents' wedding picture, obviously,
and
other people from much earlier times.
"That's quite a collection," Lachlan said, just for something to say.
"Your mother's beautiful."
"Yes, she was. I don't remember my parents. They were killed -when I
-was two years old."
"I'm sorry," he said, meaning it.
"Aunt Lulah raised me—my father's sister and Mama's best
friend.
Papa edited and published the local paper. Mama wrote articles and sold
ad space—a real two-mule farm operation, and guess who the
mules
were."
"The partners desk was theirs, right? "
She glanced at him in surprise. "Yes."
"What happened?"
Square shoulders lifted in a little shrug. "He wrote one too many
editorials, and she wrote one too many articles, and they both were in
one too many marches, in support of the Civil Rights Movement. At
least, that's how we understand it. Nobody ever proved anything. They
were in Alabama for an NAACP conference and their car went off a
bridge. When word came, our local Klan threw a party."
She spoke matter-of-factly, but he could hear the hurt in her voice. He
wanted to touch her, just to let her know he was there. But she was
gesturing to the rest of the photos.
"Meet four generations of McClures, Flynns, Kirbys, McNichols, Coxes,
Bellews, and Sherers."
"Sure, and nary a sassenach somewhere in t'family tree?" he teased in
his grandmother's Irish accent. "Get on wye!"
Her chuckle was unwilling, but she replied easily enough, "Well... a
few French and Welsh, plus an early Virginia cattle rancher named
Domingo Madeiras, who was probably a Portuguese Jew forced to convert
by the Inquisition. Even a Cherokee lady—but they
lied up
hill and down dale about that, of course, or it would've been a one-way
ticket to Oklahoma on the Trail of Tears." She paused, as if having
caught herself responding to him, and resumed more formally, "Nobody
knows why our McClures left Ireland so early, but there are rumors of
everything from murdered landlords to horse-thieving." She traced a
fingertip over the small brass heraldic crest on one of the frames.
"We're a sept of Clan MacLeod, from the Isle of Skye. Our branch
imported itself to Ireland long ago, when Scotland and Ireland were
still politically united."
Evidently when she felt threatened, she went into lecture mode. An
interesting defense, and wholly appropriate to someone who lived by
words. But he also understood that she was trying to re-establish
common ground, back to their very first conversations.
"The two kingdoms of Dalriada," he said quietly. "I know my Irish
history." He inspected the MacLeod crest, which featured a bulls head
and the motto Hold Fast. Resisting the impulse to point at it and say,
"Gee, ya think?", he remarked, "The MacLaughlins are nobody's sept."
"Why do you use the Scots spelling, by the way?"
"Smart immigrant. After two weeks in Boston she made her husband change
'O'Laughlin' to 'Lachlan.' She wanted to raise the kids Presbyterian,
but he drew the line and we stayed Catholic."
"I wondered how somebody named Evan Lachlan could have a map of County
Donegal on his face." After a second's hesitation, she said, "Did you
know that the last Witch to be hanged in Scotland was Elspeth MacEwan
of Clan MacLachlan?"
"You do your research, lady."
"It's my job." And with mention of that point of contention, her smile
died. He wasn't surprised when she sought refuge again in words.
"That's Richard McClure at age ninety-three," she said, pointing to a
photo of a silver-haired man whose nose had been broken more than once,
judging by its bumps and turns. His eyes were beautiful,
though—like Holly's eyes, large and luminous, and even though
it
was a sepia-toned photograph Evan knew the deep blue had blazed like
sapphires in sunlight. "There wasn't anything for him to inherit, so he
made his way through the South as a prizefighter. He must've been
pretty good at it, too, because he ended up with quite a plantation
before the Civil War. After was a different story, but — "
Lachlan decided that as interesting as all this might be, he was tired
of being lectured to. "So the McClures came over on the Mayflower,
huh?" As she threw him an annoyed scowl, he pretended to remember. "Oh,
that's right—that was the Puritans. No Irish Need Apply."
Through gritted teeth she said, "If you must know, the McClures got to
Virginia in 1623, and the Flynns in 1625."
"Over two hundred years before the Lachlans and Coyles got to New York."
"When did this turn into a dick contest to see who's more Irish?"
"Take it easy. It was just a comment." But he couldn't shut his mouth
over the next words: "Betcha you can trace your line all the way back
to Brian Boru."
Holly glared up at him, having to tilt her head back now that she was
without shoes. "As a matter of fact, yes. So can half of Ireland. So
fucking what? "
Before he could reply, she stalked out of the bedroom and into the
hallway, he followed her upstairs to the second floor. Without the
heels, she was half a foot shorter than he—and he discovered
he
rather liked it when she was smaller, somehow less formidable. On the
other hand, he also liked being with a woman who could damned near
stare him straight in the eye, and was strong enough to give him a
rousing tussle in bed when they both felt like it.
It was very confusing. He had learned recently that a lot about her
confused him. She could fascinate him with wry stories or serious
conversation; she could bed him in any mood from laughing greed to shy
sweetness; she could wake up growly and curt or cuddly and playful; she
could look like a little girl with her hair in pigtails, or incite him
to near-rape with a silk dress and pearls.
She could live in a place like this, and be as rich and well-known as
she was, and probably have twenty men beating down her
door—and
still want him. Insecurity was not one of his failings, and he knew it,
and the reason he was feeling it wasn't her fault—he was fair
enough to admit that. All the same. . . .
Upstairs, one room contained filing cabinets and the overflow hooks.
Another was supposed to be a family room, with fireplace; two bedrooms
and shared bath were for guests; a second powder room was at the end of
the hall. Counting the baths, she had fourteen rooms here —
six
of which it appeared she didn't visit very often. "You don't use the
upstairs at all? " he asked.
"Just for storage and guests."
She took him back down to the living room, and after building a fire in
the hearth she curled into the corner of a couch with her brandy in
hand.
"So. That's it, Evan. The whole show."
He doubted it. There were things she hadn't said about the furniture,
things he recognized from cases having to do with the upper crust, or
with antiques dealers. but he let that go. He ambled about the room,
sipping brandy, glancing at the display of antique brass candlesticks
on the mantelpiece, the glass-fronted cabinet full of porcelain this
and pewter that, the books on art and travel and castles piled on the
end tables.
"Where's the cat?"
"How did you know I have a rat?"
"Book cover.'
"Oh. Mugger's probably hiding someplace. I imagine once he heard
another voice besides mine, he made a run for it. He'll make an
appearance eventually. She finished her brandy and set the glass down.
"You still haven't said what you think of the place."
"It's nice."
"That's lame."
He turned from examining a lovely plein aire oil painting of a
flower-strewn meadow. "So whaddya want me to say? At least it's not
decorated." He waved a hand to indicate his disgust with homes where
couches were designed to make the pillows comfortable, not the people.
"Oh, thank you," she snapped. "I'm so glad I took off all the plastic
slipcovers before you arrived."
"Look, lady, what do you want? I say I like it, you slap me down. I say
the reason I like it is because it doesn't scream money, and you get
insulted. Make up your mind."
"Oh, shit." Holly bent her head, dark red hair falling forward to hide
her face.
He sat next to her on the couch, placing his brandy glass on the table.
"Hey."
"I'm sorry, E`imbin." The slurring Irish version of his
name--Ay-veen— trembled a little. "I just—I wasn't
prepared
for this. For you being here."
Brushing aside her hair, framing her face with his hands, he gently
coaxed her to look at him. Insecurity? It was all over her, from the
bitten lip to the apprehensive eyes to the defensive tension tightening
her square jaw. It hit him out of nowhere then, and with all the
subtlety of a freight train: she didn't know whether or not he still
wanted her, and she wanted him to—because she wanted him.
So he kissed her, gently at first, then with more urgency. She needed
persuading tonight; she was still nervous. Worried about his reaction.
Maybe she was right. Not that he'd been afraid to find solid-gold
faucets and Louis Quinze furniture—not her
style—but it was
a big place with a lot of expensive stuff in it. And the rocks in her
earlobes weren't rhinestones, either.
So I've caught myself a rich one, he mused as he unbuttoned her shirt.
The old lady'd be so fucking proud of me. Good thing she's dead so she
can't gloat.
He'd never be able to give Holly diamonds like these, he thought
distractedly, parting her satin shirt. The scent of her perfume in the
warm hollow between her breasts usually drove all other thought from
his mind. But that damned insecurity still nagged at him. He couldn't
give her what she was used to. What if she wanted more than he could
—
"Hey. Lachlan."
He lifted his head. "Mmm?"
"If you're going to be here with me, be here with me, okay?"
Now, how had she done that—sensed that his mind was wandering?
"Kiss me like you mean it," she -whispered, "or get your coat and go."
"And don't come back?"
She nodded slowly.
He pulled away from her, reaching for the brandy. Draining it down his
throat, he set the glass aside and got to his feet. When he looked down
at her, the hurt on her face was more than he could bear. Swiftly he
bent, one arm going beneath her knees, the other around her back. He
lifted her up—unable to prevent a grunt of effort from
escaping
his lips. She was no anorexic, this one.
Holly was laughing at him. "Nice gesture, Lachlan—now put me
down before you get a hernia!"
Growling, he hiked her up more firmly in his arms. In four long steps
he was at the fireplace, and knelt, setting her down. The
gold-patterned hearth rug was scarred here and there by scorching, and
he liked what that said about her: nothing about this place was
perfect, and she kept things she loved even if they were a little worn.
He stripped off his sweater and shirt while she reclined on her elbows,
watching him with firelight dancing in her eyes.
He would never know quite how it happened, but all at once she had
pulled him down, shoved him onto his back, and was undoing the buttons
of his jeans. The heat of the fire caressed him all along one
side—and she was on the other, her hands and lips and tongue
everywhere, starting at his forehead and covering every inch down to
his groin. Following her fingers and tongue was the tantalizing silken
caress of her hair.
"Holly—take your clothes off—come on, babe, I want
to see you — "
She shook her head and coaxed snug denim down his hips and thighs.
"It'd interfere with your concentration. No distractions, lover-man.
This is all for you."
Kneeling, she hooked his legs around her back, the position damned near
precisely the one he should have been in, and the reversal of roles was
doubly arousing. Sometimes a woman asked if he wanted her to be the
aggressor; sometimes a woman did so without asking, and didn't much
care about his satisfaction as long as she got her precious multiple
orgasms. Which he was always happy to provide, being more or less a
gentleman, though he did get a little weary sometimes of feeling like
nothing more than a convenient, anonymous cock.
But when Holly was in a mood to ravish him—her word, damned
writer's vocabulary—she took unrepentant control. He was hers
to
play with, hers to drive insane slowly or swiftly as whimsy took her. A
nameless convenience was the very last thing he felt like when she did
this to him. Looking up at her dreamy eyes and sultry smile, he
realized that tonight was going to be one of the slow ones. He gave an
involuntary shiver of mingled anticipation and impatience. He knew she
was about to drive him totally, thoroughly, absolutely-berserk, and
leave him a wrecked, ruined husk; she'd done it before, though not
quite this way. He'd felt her lips before, but only as a prelude to his
entering her. Tonight would be different.
"Close your eyes," she whispered. "Just feel, a cbuisle. Don't do
anything but feel."
He couldn't have done anything else if his life depended on it, not
after hearing that endearment again; it seemed to melt every bone in
his body.
A long time later he felt her snuggle down with her head on his chest.
"Back among the living yet?" she teased.
"You — " He cleared his throat and tried again. "You been
savin' that?"
"Your reward for being a sweetheart. Mostly a sweetheart, anyway."
"Wasn't exactly fair," he murmured.
"Very considerate of you, a chuisle, but don't worry about it. Making
you crazy is my idea of a great time. Sort of an early Christmas
present to myself."
"Sadistic bitch," he accused amiably, and sighed down to the bottom of
his lungs. "Christ, Holly, I won't be able to get it back up for a
week."
"I can wait."
"I can't."
She chuckled silently. "Stake your claim?"
"You got it. Besides, I'm startin' to think it'll only come up for
you." He knew he sounded bewildered. He hadn't meant to admit that.
"Precisely what I had in mind. That's why I staked my claim just now."
He thought that over— Hold fast—and grunted.
Sliding off him, she stretched luxuriously and dragged a well-worn
brown afghan from a chair. Quite matter-of-factly she stripped, tossing
skirt and shirt and hose and silk underwear wherever, then threw
another log onto the fire. At last she draped the afghan around them
both and cuddled her cheek to his shoulder.
"We're sleeping here?" he asked fuzzily.
"I like looking at you in firelight. And I promise I'll wake you up
before Isabella comes in tomorrow."
"I might wake up first," he grinned, leaving no doubt as to his meaning.
"I thought you'd decided you're incapacitated for the next week."
"Darlin' Holly," he smiled, "never underestimate an Irishman in love."
It went right through her, every muscle flinching, every nerve jumping.
"What did you say?"
"I said I'm in love with you. Why shouldn't I be?"
"And when did you realize this?"
"When I found out how rich you are."
She nipped at his lower lip. "Cute, Lachlan. Damned cute. You'll pay
for that. Now tell me for real."
"I'm in love with you. For real." And then, as her head lowered once
more: "Christ, Holly, don't bite me again — "
But this time she kissed him, soft and sweet, until he was sighing in
her arms. "Sleep, a chuisle mo chroi," she whispered against his lips,
and put her head back where it belonged on his shoulder. He held her as
tight as he possibly could for a moment, then relaxed his arms into a
comfortable embrace.
****
HOLLY WAS RUDELY AWAKENED WHEN Evan yelped and jerked his
knee into her thigh. "Huh? Evan — ?"
He sat up, half the afghan going with him. "What the hell was that?"
She was spared having to answer by the arrival of a warm mass of long
white fur that wriggled into the space between her and Evan. She
grinned into amber eyes shining from the black mask covering most of
his face; the cat responded by trilling softly. "Hi, Mugger. Meet
Evan—whose toes I bet you just tried to have for a snack."
"Does he do that all the time?" Lachlan demanded.
"Just to me. He probably spent a while padding around, sniffing at you.
And because you smell of me, and I smell of you. Mugs decided you were
okay."
"Imagine my relief."
"C'mon, scratch his ears. Yeah, right there. See? He does like you."
"Jesus," he muttered. "What woulda happened if he didn't? Or don't I
want to know?"
"Oh, he's not vicious. He didn't actually bite, did he? Just nibbled.
If hedidn't approve, he'd just ignore you until I took the hint and got
rid. of you. Cats have ways of letting you know what they think."
Mugger levitated from a half-crouch to settle himself across Evan's
broad bare shoulders, and proceeded to purr like a Porsche. Evan froze,
eyes wide.
"He's never done that before," Holly remarked.
"Great," he replied sourly. He reached up a hand to scratch
white-tufted black ears. "So he likes me enough to let me stay?"
She stifled laughter, knowing he was imagining the possible timings of
Mugger's feasts. "Relax. He sleeps in his own bed in my office. But
don't move too suddenly. He isn't declawed." She doubled over laughing
as his eyes went wider than ever with apprehension.
"Holly—get him off me, willya? C'mon — "
Five minutes later, with Mugger duly ensconced in his pillowed basket,
Holly crawled back under the afghan and huddled against Evan to warm
up. Why was it, she mused, that when you put any two people together,
one of them always slept warm and the other always slept cold? The warm
one—and Evan was a furnace — always kicked the
covers off,
and screamed bloody murder about cold hands and frozen feet, and
—
But there was nary a complaint from him. There never had been. He
simply tucked himself along her back from neck to knees and took her
chilled hands between his big warm ones while his feet rubbed hers.
Heaven in ostrich-hide cowboy boots, she told herself happily, and
snuggled back against him.
"So how long you gonna be away for Christmas?" he asked, lips moving on
her nape, deep voice rumbling through her chest.
"I'm not. Every airport between Maine and Atlanta will be snowed in by
tomorrow afternoon. First in a series of storms all the way to
Christmas Eve, or so they say. Aunt Lulah called yesterday and told me
to stay here. So —no Christmas in Virginia. But that's okay.
I
already got my present." She brought one of his hands to her lips and
pressed a kiss in the hollow. "A big Mick cop who says he's madly in
love with me."
"Huh. Don't recall saying 'madly.'"
"It was implied. I hope. What about you—are you going to your
father's? Your sister's?"
"Neither. I work Christmas so the other guys can be with their
families."
"How very sweet and noble of you."
"Nobility has nothin' to do with it. It saves me from my sister's
cooking. I take New Year's to compensate — other-wise
everybody'd
think I have no life," he finished wryly.
"Want some company at the office? Just point me to an empty desk. I'll
bring my laptop and work on letters or something."
"Holly, you must have friends you'd rather be with — "
"Nope." She paused. "I know a lot of people, but I don't have many
friends. Not real ones, like Susannah. In my business you kind of
become a collectible, you know? I can usually tell -when somebody wants
to know Holly McClure the person or H. Elizabeth McClure the commodity.
However it plays out, I spend a lot of time by myself. A writer's life
is only spasmodically social, anyway. And even then it's mainly
schmoozing."
"You're good at it. I was watching you today in the store."
"Years of unwilling practice." She gave a little shrug. "I don't get
out much, when it comes to it. Besides, there's too many people out on
those mean streets."
"New York scares a country girl like you?" He snorted. "I don't believe
it."
Holly gave another uneasy shrug. "So—can I spend Christmas
with
you? You wouldn't be taking me away from anything. There's nobody I'd
rather be with."
He was quiet for a time. Then: "So I guess you're in love with me, too."
"Didn't I say so?"
"No."
Extricating herself from his arms, she turned and propped herself on
her elbows and looked down at him. "I'm sorry, E`imbin. I thought you
knew. You must've known practically since the first minute I set eyes
on you. I've been obvious enough about it—haven't I?"
He shook his head slowly.
"I'm sorry," she repeated. "I would've bet the farm that you're the
type of man who never says it first. And I'm one of the few people
you'll ever know who actually has a farm to bet!"
"Are you trying to distract me from the main issue?" But he was smiling.
"If I wanted to do that, I'd kiss you here—and
here—and — "
"Holly. Say it."
"Say what?" she asked from behind his left ear.
"You know damned well what! C'mon —you're madly in love with
me. Say it!"
She took his face between her hands, gazing into his eyes. They changed
from hazel to forest green to darkest brown depending on his mood,
-what he wore, how much sleep he'd had—and sometimes, she
could
swear, even the weather. But the one constant was the brilliant golden
sparkle that came into his eyes when he looked at her. A fire that
wasn't holy—not him! —but certainly splendid.
"I love you, E`imhin Liam Lochlainn. I love your eyes and your smile
and your amazing body—" She nipped an earlobe. "Stop
smirking,
you conceited pig, I'm not finished! I love talking with you, and
listening to you, and making you laugh, and I even love how goddamned
mule-headed you are—no, I do!" she insisted as he shook with
silent laughter. "I love everything about you —I've fallen
madly,
passionately, hopelessly in love with you."
"Mmm . . ." He gave her one of those impossible, irresistible grins. "I
can see there's definite advantages to getting a -writer-lady in bed.
You do know how to sweet-talk a man, Ms. McClure." He smoothed her hair
back. "I gotta tell you, though—'madly' and 'passionately' I
like—but 'hopelessly'? That sounds pretty grim, lady love."
"Far from it. Trust me, a chuisle, it's wonderful. It means all I can
do is relax and enjoy the ride. That's never happened to me before, and
it's kind of fun."
"Even if I'm dangerous?" He looked up from under a thick screen of
black lashes.
She laughed, felt herself blush. He'd heard all of it this afternoon,
right enough. "Dangerous? Lachlan, you're a menace." Lips teasing his
earlobe. "A threat to decent women everywhere." Tongue tickling his
long throat. "Ruinous to a lady's self-control." Fingers stealing down
his belly—she smiled as muscles tightened involuntarily.
"Definitely a lethal weapon — "
She gasped as she was flipped onto her back. He loomed over her,
grinning.
"Fully loaded, darlin'," he purred wickedly.
She wrapped her arms around his shoulders, gazing up at him. It wasn't
a beautiful face, strictly speaking—the nose was too big and
the
mouth not quite wide enough. But any less nose and his face would be
nothing but eyes, and any difference in the mouth would forfeit the
tender, vulnerable curve of the lower lip.
He took his time—and took her over the edge again and again
and
again. Softy at first, with exquisite care, so subtle that she
whimpered and sighed with the silken pleasure of it.
"Sing for me," he murmured against her mouth. "I love to feel your body
sing for me — "
"Oh, a chuisle, you're the only song I know — "
He chuckled low in his throat. "Nice line, writer-lady. You gonna use
it in the book?"
"Line—! Lachlan, you miserable — "
He smiled at her and she caught her breath. His eyes had become
dragon's eyes. He reached down with one arm, hooking the elbow under
her knee, opening her to him completely—and began to make
love in
earnest. His endurance maddened her; his control infuriated her. She
clawed his back like a crazy thing, cursing him, begging him, using
everything she knew about him to hurry him on. When she swore at him,
he laughed. When she pleaded, he kissed her and said,
"Shh—easy,
now, lady love. I'll give you what you want—don't I always?"
With
him, she got more than she'd ever learned to want. And he knew it, the
smug son of a bitch.
When she finally came back to herself, with very little memory of where
she'd been except that it had been glorious, he was smiling an insolent
little smile that somehow managed to be incredibly sweet. It was, in
fact, the most beautiful face she'd ever seen.
"Were you saving that?" she murmured.
"Your present for saying you're in love with me."
Holly thought this over. At last she said, "If that's your idea of a
present, Christmas will be the death of me."
"If you don't freeze first. Fire's almost gone — "
Yawning, she made a thoughtless gesture. In an instant, flames flared
up from the logs, sparks snapping against the brass firescreen.
" — out."
"Oh, damn," she whispered, and turned away from him. Idiot! Moron!
It took several minutes for him to get his voice back. When he did, his
words were very soft, very controlled. "That was interesting."
Holly covered her face with her hands.
"Is there a reason, or does spontaneous combustion just come naturally?"
"There's a reason," she muttered miserably.
"Good," Evan said. "Just so long as you're not something out of a
Stephen King novel, I'm okay with it."
Unpredictable? He was absolutely unfathomable. Taking a deep breath,
she sat up, faced him, and announced, "I'm a Witch."
He arched a brow, his expression mildly curious.
"No, I mean it. A piss-poor one, but I really am a Witch.' Holly
gestured to the fire once again, and once again the blaze leaped
higher. "See?"
All he did was smile a little, as if she'd done nothing more peculiar
than flick away some stray lint.
Glaring, she huddled into herself, wrapping her arms around her shins.
"What d'you expect me to do—wiggle my nose like Samantha?
Stand
over a boiling cauldron stirring eye of newt into the pot? Sorry,
honey, my broomstick's in the shop for repairs — "
"I just want an explanation. That too much to ask?"
"I told you. I'm a Witch. From a long line of Witches. But I don't cast
spells, I don't work hexes, and I don't mix up potions. All I ever do
is bleed."
"You what?"
"I can't believe I'm telling you this." Raking her hair back from her
forehead, she took a steadying breath and went on, "I'm not a Witch in
the popular sense—those silly TV shows and fantasy novels,
that's
mostly drivel. I don't have much magic at all. What I am is a
Spellbinder. Other people use me. Or, more specifically, my blood."
"Blood,' he echoed impassively.
"Yeah. I'm the rarest kind of Witch there is. I'm like an alchemist,
except I don't turn base metal into gold, I turn a genuinely gifted
Witch's maybe-it'll-work into stone-cold-guaranteed. Love potion? A
drop of me —" She snapped her fingers. " — and it's
instant
helpless devotion for life. Or until somebody works an opposing spell
with another drop of my blood."
"Sounds like a fairly valuable thing to be," he noted.
"No shit, Sherlock!" She knew she was telling him too much, but she
couldn't stop herself—she was too damned mad. And anger
demanded
that she go on telling him things until something eventually
obliterated his expression of genial interest—as if she had
revealed that she collected bottle caps or had a salacious tattoo.
"See those pretty glass globes in my windows? They're not suncatchers.
They're spellcatchers. They get filled up with nasty Workings directed
at me, and then they have to be destroyed —by an expert.
There
are spells of protection in the rugs, on the walls—even my
goddamned front doorknob!"
"Holly-"
But she was off and running now. "This apartment used to belong to
other Witches. When they rented it to me, all the protective spells
were re Worked to focus on me. We do that for each other, in the
community. No, it's not called a coven, not in polite society. We don't
have a school, like Hogwart's in the Harry Potter books — I
wish
we did, because then maybe people who spend their lives wondering
what's -weird about themselves could learn they aren't really freaks
—"
"Holly! Slow down. I'm still back at people wanting your blood
— "
"Yeah, I'm popular as all hell," she said bitterly. "When I was little,
a vampire came after me — that's how I met Uncle Nicky and
Uncle
Alec — "
"Who?" He shook his head as if to clear it, then said with a resigned
sigh that further infuriated her, "Yeah, sounds as if this is gonna
take a while. Why don't we go to bed and get comfortable?"
All she could do was stare at him.
"Bed," he repeated patiently. "Comfortable, y'know? Warm? Blankets,
pillows, all like that?"
"You're kidding! You don't want to leave?"
"Over a little thing like you bein' a Witch?" he asked, the smile
playing around his mouth again.
"Don't patronize me!" she snapped. "You obviously don't believe
— "
"Don't tell me what I believe, lady. I'm trying to understand whatever
it is you're trying to tell me. And I'd really like to be in bed with
you while we do it."
"I'm trying to tell you I'm a Witch!"
"You said that."
Completely frustrated, she jumped to her feet and, taking the afghan
with her, strode over to the bar to grab the spare vodka bottle from a
lower cabinet and a shot glass from the shelves. "Watch and learn," she
snarled. Bottle in one hand, glass in the other, she returned and sank
down, tangled in the afghan. "Here—feel. Both at room
temperature, right? Neither was in the fridge. Now pour."
He did so, and she smiled grim satisfaction when the hand holding the
shot glass jerked a bit in response. "A trifling sample of Uncle Alec's
magic. He knows I like my vodka ice-cold."
Evan looked at the bottle. He looked at the glass. Then he looked at
her. And the look he'd worn earlier was finally and completely gone.
"You're really not kidding, are you?"
She shook her head slowly. When he said nothing more, she took the
vodka from him and gulped it. The glacial burn down her throat made her
eyes water. And that, by damn, was the only reason his face became a
little blurry.
"Holly? I thought Witches couldn't cry."
A snort met a sniffle and she ended up coughing. "Oh, for the love
of—do 1 have to go through every single cliche and tell you
why
it's wrong?"
"Well, I know right off there's one that's not true." He coaxed her
close to him, one palm cupping her right breast. "Nice and
warm—not cold at all."
Four
ON TUESDAYS AND THURSDAYS, EVAN Lachlan was assigned to
protect
Elias Bradshaw. Which meant that unless the judge went someplace other
than his chambers or his courtroom, paperwork was the order of the day.
Once upon a time, back when he'd been with the NYPD, Evan had looked on
deskbound law enforcement as oxymoronic—emphasis on the
"moronic." But that had been before he'd figured out computers and
discovered that legwork was much easier when you let your fingers do
the walking.
On Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, Lachlan worked various and sundry
cases assigned him by the United States Marshals Service. The
arrangement was highly experimental, but it got past the head office on
Pearl Street because for him and Pete Wasserman, it worked out just
fine. Pete was a twenty-two-year veteran who had done more than his
share of time on protection duty at the Supreme Court in D.C.; when
Bradshaw started attracting serious threats, Wasserman had been only
too happy to move home to New York. And, in the way of things within
any profession, he had been even happier to request the son of an old
friend as his backup. Like Evan, Pete had started as a beat cop. His
partner for a year or so had been Evan's father.
Wasserman was, in fact, part of the reason Evan switched to the
Marshals Service. Watching his father move sideways, never up, taught
him that he wanted more for himself. With a stint in the NYPD, a
hard-won college degree, and one hell of a lucky collar (taking down a
burglar who happened to be a Federal fugitive), Lachlan had found
himself on the fast track. Good work since, and good friends in the
right places, had allowed him to put together the unusual arrangement
that kept Elias Bradshaw protected and still gave Evan three days a
week to pursue other cases.
This particular Monday morning, however, lie was in pursuit of
something else.
Telling the switchboard that he was deeply busy and to hold all calls,
he closed his office door and sat down at his computer. Three hours
later he had found out everything he ever wanted to know about Witches.
He also found out exactly nothing.
Magic came in white and black varieties—anybody who'd ever
given
it a second thought could figure that out. But according to various
Internet sites, it also could be red, yellow, purple, green, blue,
brown- -and probably puce, vermilion, and burnt sienna, Evan told
himself with a snort. And if he saw magic cutely spelled with a k one
more time, he was going to throw up.
Gardnerian, Alexandrian, Dianic, Eclectic, Celtic, Welsh, Arcadian,
Isian, Shamanic, Seax Wiccan. NeoGardnerian, for Chrissakes. And all of
them with different emphases. It was enough to make a person glad to be
Catholic. Most of them ascribed to the same basic idea, expressed as
"An ye harm none, do as thou wilt." Which he supposed was another way
of saying "Do unto others." Sort of.
Eventually he realized what he was really accomplishing: avoidance ot
the issue. Not that he'd believed the Witch thing until the trick with
the shot glass. He could still feel the raw cold of it on his
fingertips.
Someone knocked on his door. "Evan? ' Susannah called. "Come on, open
up."
He wondered suddenly it she knew about Holly. If she too was a Witch.
Rising, he unlocked his door and motioned her in.
She was back in a power suit—dark blue, with a severe white
blouse and pearl earrings, her long blonde hair confined in a French
twist. He spared a sigh for the black leather of last Friday night.
"For me? " he asked, nodding to the huge basket of flowers in her arms.
"You shouldn't have."
"I didn't. Holly's forgiven you," she told him, setting the arrangement
on his desk. "I guess that means I should forgive His Honor, too,
right?"
Lachlan arched a brow at her. "Up to you. Who do I get to forgive? "
"Well —me, 1 suppose." She perched a hip on the credenza near
the door. "Open the card."
He did, and read. Find out anything interesting lately?, and shook his
head in amazement. Holly couldn't possibly know what he'd been doing
all morning. Or, then again, maybe she did. She was a Witch.
With very little magic except her blood, or so she'd said.
He looked more carefully at the flowers, finding their color scheme
odd, to say the least. Purple hyacinths, red and pink roses, white
chrysanthemums, and a lone white violet. The usual ferns, but no baby's
breath or eucalyptus.
"None of your business what the card says," he replied to Susannah's
questioning look, adding pointedly, "Don't you have work to do,
Counselor?"
"Time for lunch," she retorted. "You up for Chinese?"
On the way out of the office he glimpsed the judge, who gave him a look
he didn't particularly like. That wasn't unusual; he and Bradshaw
didn't get along all that well. But it wasn't Evan's job to like his
assignment, just to make sure a long list of crazies with a longer list
of grudges didn't use Bradshaw for target practice. So far in their
year's acquaintance he'd confiscated twenty-three revolvers and
eighteen knives ranging from switchblades to plastic shivs, and
intercepted nine accused felons or their surrogates outside Bradshaw s
home. At first he'd wondered what the guy did to earn such devotion.
Then he sat in on His Honor's trials and sentencings, and discovered
that Bradshaw shared an "object all sublime" with The Mikado's Lord
High Executioner. The punishments indisputably fit the crimes.
Over kung pao chicken, Susannah filled him in on the details
of
Holly's career. Lachlan got the impression she'd been dying to do so
for months. He listened, nodded, filed the information in his brain,
and wondered idly why he'd been so upset about how much Holly made. And
why he hadn't been—and wasn't — more upset that she
was a
self-confessed Witch.
"—enough money that she could quit teaching," Susannah was
saying, "and write full-time. That summer we took off together for
Europe — England, Ireland, Italy, Greece — " She
sighed
wistfully. "Glorious."
"And expensive." The money was real, tangible. Comprehensible. The
Witch thing wasn't. Unless he thought about that shot glass.
"It's the planes that cost big bucks — well, and Italy, of
course. But we got some great deals through some friends of hers. Alec
Singleton and Nick Orlov. Have you met them ? '
"Heard about them," he allowed.
"Alec used to work for Eli's uncle's firm, Fairleigh and Bradshaw. Nick
owned a bookstore in the Village. They both retired last spring, which
is when Holly moved into their old apartment." She finished her rice
and leaned back in her chair. "And that brings you pretty much up to
date, except that Dragon Ship.' got published this month. So. What do
you think, Evan?"
"I think it's my turn to pay for lunch," he replied, taking out his
wallet.
"Thanks. Fortune cookie first." She cracked hers open, read the slip of
paper, and made a face. "'Open your eyes; magic will find you.' Don't
you love how generic, these things are?"
Evan kept a straight face and duly read his own aloud. " 'Know yourself
before judging others.' I think this one was meant for the boss. Shall
we go?"
Back at the office, Evan looked at the list of his morning's downloads
and was tempted to relegate all of it to the recycle bin. He supposed
he could simply ask Holly to fill him in on what she believed, what she
did, how she viewed being a Witch. He wasn't entirely certain
why
he didn't do just that. It would be rude, of course, and she'd probably
feel she had to explain and justify herself— not something
either
of them would enjoy. Or maybe he was just reluctant to find out.
Belief, after all, was a tricky thing.
They'd established their mutual Catholicism early on, and their mutual
lip-service to it. Evan hadn't lost his faith, exactly, but it had
undergone a radical transformation since his childhood. He supposed
this 'was fairly typical. But how could Holly be a nominal Catholic and
a practicing Witch?
And what constituted a "practicing Witch," anyway?
The basics were straightforward enough. The wand was
expected—after all, what was a Witch without a magic wand?
He'd
read Harry Potter. (He'd had to, or there'd be nothing to talk to his
niece and nephews about.) But the variety of wood that could be used
was amazing. Alder, apple, birch, blackthorn, elder, hawthorn, hazel,
myrtle, oak, pine, poplar, rowan, spruce, willow—Evan was a
city
boy and half these trees he'd never even heard of.
Sometimes crystals were set into the wand's tip. A smoky quartz to
amplify earth magic, a garnet for courage and energy; a black onyx to
repel, dark magic, an amethyst for protection. That -was just for
starters, of course, in the crystal magic department, but he took one
look at the huge list of stones (more than half of which he'd never
heard of) and went back to looking at the tools.
Specifications for a cauldron were definite: black cast-iron,
three-legged, with a handle, in which potions were brewed. The cauldron
was distinct from the chalice, which held -wine—just like
Holy
Communion. In fact, he was running across several things that
corresponded to Catholic ritual. The thurible was used to burn incense,
swung back and forth on its chain to spread the smoke around, purifying
the air. Witches used candles, too, in more colors and scents and
attendant meanings than he really wanted to explore. Fire, Air,
Water—he suddenly recalled his mother's funeral, when the
priest
had thrown clods of Earth on the coffin.
Were Catholics more Pagan than they knew? He knew enough Irish folklore
to know that Brighid had been revered on the Emerald Isle long before
Patrick arrived to make a Saint out of her. Clever, really, the way the
Church had co-opted local deities, aligning the new religion -with the
old by turning pagan gods and goddesses into Blesseds and Beatifieds
and Canonizeds.
Shelving that concept for later—right beside so much else
he'd
discovered this day—he went on through the list. Robe;
cingulum
(they even used the Latin word for the cord around the waist);
something called a bolline, used for cutting herbs and inscribing
candles and so forth. The major thing, though, seemed to be the athame:
a double-bladed dagger with a black handle. It was never used to cut
anything in the physical world—bread or herbs or
whatever—but only for magical purposes. The twin edges
symbolized
that power cut both ways. As far as he could tell, all Witches had an
athame. They just couldn't agree on how to pronounce it.
Evan learned about casting a Circle, about the broom used to sweep the
Circle metaphorically clean, about the Book of Shadows that recorded
spells and charms and incantations, about the bell of brass or crystal
that some traditions used (and there was his own religion again)
—
Bell, Book, and Candle?
And then he ran across something that made him laugh for the first
time. It was a simple acronym: IRAB. It stood for I Read A
Book—a satirical term for "Witches" who presented themselves
as
authorities after having done just that.
Well, at least some of these people had a sense of humor.
Changing positions to ease his stiffening back brought the basket of
flowers into his line of sight again. He stared at them thoughtfully.
Not the usual orchids or carnations or calla lilies — not
Holly.
Something about the flowers was peculiar enough to evoke his curiosity
anew—as if he hadn't already been inundated in information
today.
Something he'd read this morning came back to him, and after some
searching, the Internet yielded its trove of pictures, descriptions,
and Victorian flower symbolism.
Three purple hyacinths: forgive me. Three red roses: I love you. Three
pink roses: believe me. Three white chrysanthemums: truth. And a single
white violet for take a chance on happiness. All thirteen flowers
nestled in ferns, for magic.
****
TO HIS SURPRISE, THE DOORMAN at Holly's building—a
tall
black man with muscles on top of his muscles—greeted him by
name
before he could even open his mouth to ask if Ms. McClure was at home.
"No mystery about it, Marshal," Mr. Hunnicutt said with a grin. "Ms.
McClure phoned down at noon to have you put on the list. She gave us
the time of your arrival in her company last night, we pulled the tape,
made a print of your picture, and started a file. And if whoever's on
duty doesn't recognize you at once whenever you arrive, heads will
definitely roll."
Evan approved of security, but this was . .. excessive? Then he
considered who Holly was — or, rather, what she was. And
wondered
if Mr. Hunnicutt and his relief security guard were Witches, too.
And what about the other people who lived in the building? There were
eight separate luxury apartments here. Were all of them inhabited by
Witches?
From now on he'd be thinking about that wherever they went, whomever
she spoke to. He couldn't decide whether such musings were paranoid or
not. Well, hell; he was in law enforcement, paranoid was in his job
description.
"Thanks," he said to Mr. Hunnicutt. "What sort of file?"
"Name, photo, address, phone, occupation, physical description, and
which resident pays up if you make long-distance calls from the hall
phones."
He had to laugh a bit at that. "As bad as the I.R.S."
"Worse, I hope. Mr. Singleton pays us better."
Then Uncle Alec must own the building. Nodding, Evan asked, "How long
were you on the job?"
Mr. Hunnicutt didn't ask how he'd guessed. "Did fifteen in the
Richmond, Virginia, PI). The man who had this post before me retired
about six years ago, and I came in through the friend of a friend.
Shall I announce you, or do you want to surprise her?" He nodded to the
wine bottle in Lachlan s hand.
"Whatever the drill usually is. Thanks again."
"A pleasure, Marshal."
My God, another of 'em—has to be, Evan thought as he went to
the elevator. Virginia, friend of a friend—
On his way down the hall to her door, he passed a pair of middle-aged
gentlemen. One was slight and well-dressed, with hair the color of old
amber; the other was tall, dark, and very well-dressed. They smiled at
him and nodded, but did not speak. Wondering if they too were
Witches—or was it Warlocks? —he rang Holly's
doorbell.
She opened it so quickly that he was certain the two men had just left.
"Hi! Come on in. Did you get the flowers?"
"I not only got them, I looked them all up." He leaned down for a kiss,
then handed her the bottle of wine. "Who were those two guys?"
"My uncles. I mean, not really my uncles, just honorary. They're in
town from their place in Connecticut, and stopped by for a couple of
minutes." Shutting the door, she started for the kitchen to open the
merlot.
Following, he spent a moment appreciating the fit of her Levis, and
spared an interior grin for her pigtails. " 'Their place?"
"Yep. They've been together thirty years or so. Where's the damned
corkscrew? I know I put it—aha!"
"So they're—"
She turned, arched a brow, and interrupted, "Gay? Yes, but only with
each other. Married? Better believe it. It's probably the best marriage
I've ever seen, actually. Witches? Absolutely."
Mildly, he said, "All I was gonna ask was, 'So they're not going to
stay for dinner?'"
Holly laughed. "Sweet of you, a chuisle, but you were curious, admit
it!"
Whatever he might have replied was forgotten when the phone rang. Holly
snatched the phone off the kitchen counter. "Hello?" After a moment she
grinned. "Whaddya mean, 'nice'? It's the best in all five
boroughs—at least since you two moved out of town." A slight
pause, and then she actually blushed. "Uncle Nicky, I'm going to tell
Aunt Lulah on you. She still thinks you're such a sweet—what?
No,
he just -wanted to know if you were staying to dinner. Next time, okay?
I don't think I'm quite ready tor him to meet the troops." She winked
at Evan. "And what were you two doin' lookin' at my man's ass, anyway?"
Lachlan made a face at her and started opening the wine.
"Oh, of course," she laughed into the phone. "Nothing but the best lor
Our Holly. I understand completely. You trust my taste, but you just
had to check him out for yourselves. Well, next time give me some
warning, okay? I'll get Isabella to make her Caribbean goulash. Drive
carefully."
She hung up, and Lachlan said, "How many 'troops' are there?"
"Blood relatives, about ninety. None closer than fourth cousins,
though, except for Aunt Lulah."
"You keep track of fourth cousins?" He barely knew his first cousins.
"E`imbin darlin', we keep track of everybody. It's very Southern, to
know which ancestors you have in common with whom. And with the other
stuff that shows up in the family, we keep special note of who's
descended from whom and what they're likely to be."
"What kind of Witch, you mean."
"Yeah." She eyed him. "You're taking this a lot better than I thought
you might."
"So that was the famous Alec and Nicky. Tell me about them."
"Like I said. When I was a little girl, they saved me from a vampire."
"And now I'm supposed to laugh, right?"
"You rarely do what you're supposed to, in my experience," she
retorted. "Evidently I didn't explain as much as I should have last
night, so let's go have a drink while the wine breathes and you can ask
me whatever you want.'
At the bar he poured scotch and vodka into Waterford crystal tumblers
— the scotch stayed at room temperature, but the vodka
chilled
instantly —then sat beside her on the couch. "Start with Alec
and
Nicky," he suggested.
"They're retired — Nicky from his bookstore, The Recommended
Sentence —"
"Mysteries?"
"Got it in one," she approved. "Alec was a lawyer, but don't hate him
(or it. He did corporate stuff, not criminal defense. I'm not their
only honorary relation. 'They've got 'em all over the country
—
all over the world, for all 1 know."
"All Witches?"
"Some —maybe most, I'm not sure. I've never met any of the
rest,
but the hall gallery in that farmhouse is something to see." She
laughed and sipped her drink. "All of us in our college graduation
photos, everyplace from Caltech to Oxford—the Oxford guy is
with
the FBI. Muldoon or Mulroy, something like that, with a foxy little
redheaded partner whose name completely escapes me. But Alec and Nicky
are very careful that we don't any of us run into each other."
"Why?"
"You know, I'm not entirely sure. Probably a case of the right hand and
the left—-we only know what others are doing if it becomes
necessary."
"Such as?"
"Well. . . there used to be -what Alec calls a Better Business Bureau
for Witches. He and Nicky worked for it, making sure people didn't do
what they weren't supposed to, and dealing with them if they did.
Nowadays there's regions, and a Magistrate for each, and instead of
sending people like Alec and Nicky all over the world, things are dealt
with locally."
"Oh."
When no further comment was forthcoming, she shifted uneasily and said,
"Isabella made pot roast for us tonight. When do you want to eat?"
"I want something else first."
A grin lit her face. "Not before dinner. Or for twenty minutes after,
either."
"That's swimming, not sex. Besides, I had something else in mind." He
smiled and reached over to curl a lock of russet hair around his
finger. "Work me a spell, Witch—lady."
She frowned. "I've already told you, I strengthen other people's magic.
I don't have hardly any of my own."
"I just want to see how it's done. C'mon, where s your Book of
Shadows?" When she favored him with an Are you kidding look, he added,
"I thought all Witches—"
"First, there's no such thing as 'all Witches.' Everybody's different,
even within the same Circle. Second, I don't have a Book of Shadows."
"And third?" Knowing there was more; -with Holly, there was always more.
"Where the hell did you pick up all this stuff, anyhow?"
"Well, I could say IRAB, but actually it's more like IRIOTI," he told
her, making words out of the acronyms.
" 'Inoti'? " she echoed.
"I Read It On The Internet."
"Wonderful. Just exquisite. Okay, let's see." She thought for a minute,
then smiled. "There's one for sweetening a romance—you write
your
names on a piece of parchment and put in a jar with honey, then seal
the jar and put it under the bed. But it has to be done on a Friday of
a waxing moon."
"Is that stuff really important? Days and moons and all that?"
"How should I know? It's what I was taught when I was little. Nowadays
I just show up when I get told to and bring alcohol to swab my thumbs."
She was getting annoyed, but he persisted. "What about words, then?
Aren't there supposed to be magic chants and incantations and all like
that? "
Another long-suffering sigh. "You know -when the priest holds up the
Host? Or when you say a Hail Mary? That's all spoken spells are,
really. Mnemonic devices to help you concentrate. As a man I know is
fond of saying, 'Magic is within—everything else is just
props.'"
She eyed him. "You're disappointed."
"Only by your attitude. All day I've been thinking that here I've got
this Witch-lady who knows all this cool stuff about magic, and you're a
writer to boot so you must've composed some interesting
spells—and now you're telling me you can't do hardly anything
and
you don't know very much, and the words aren't really important. And
you don't seem to take it seriously."
"Other people's magic, yeah, that I do take seriously," she replied
thoughtfully. "Theirs really works." After tossing back the rest of the
vodka, she set the glass down and got to her feet. "I've got most of
the props, for what they're worth. You might as well take a look."
She took him into the bedroom, where Isabella had obviously been at
work. He'd been right: cleaned up, it was a beautiful room. Clothes
hung up, bed made, books neatly stacked, chaise properly pillowed and
draped with a chenille throw. Over in the far corner was a small
triangular table. It was to this that she led him.
Evan looked first at the chalice. It was a strange white porcelain
thing with a slightly uneven base and tendrils swirling up to cradle a
bottom-heavy basin. It looked organic, as if it had been grown, not
made.
"There's a formal one I use in the Circle," Holly said casually, "made
of Waterford crystal. But this one I found at a crafts sale in college.
Ever look at something and know it's yours without even thinking about
it?"
He might have told her he'd known she would be his from the instant
their eyes met, but he kept his mouth shut.
"I hope you weren't expecting anything spectacular by way of a wand,"
she said, again with that same studied nonchalance. "It's just a willow
switch."
" 'Witch' comes from an old word for willow," he said.
"Meaning 'to bend,' yes. You have done your homework, Marshal," she
said lightly, and picked up a silver bell about four inches high. It
tinged a sweet note before she set it down again. "This belonged to the
Kirby side of the family, used for nothing more esoteric than letting
the servants know it was time to bring in the next course at dinner.
Aunt Lulah thinks it was probably a wedding present, because of the ivy
pattern—Victorian flower symbology for married happiness."
"The cauldron's not what I was expecting." He pointed to the little
iron pot; it looked like a child's toy. "I guess you really can't cook,
even magically, huh?"
"It's for incense," she told him, making a face at the insult. "It
doesn't have to be very big." Next she picked up a pendant on a silver
chain. "Alec gave me this when I got my Master's. In English, I might
add, not magic."
"Pretty," he said. The outline of a pentacle was tripled in white,
yellow, and rose gold. "Where's the athame?"
She opened the table's shallow drawer. "In alphabetical
order—athame, bolline, besom—it's just symbolic, a
little
cinnamon broom, but it makes everything else smell
good—cingulum,
dagdyne —"
"What?"
She picked up a scrap of blue velvet, in which was a golden needle.
"For sewing. Aunt Lulah spelled this one for me a long time ago, when I
was helping with Alec and Nick's wedding quilt. That was my first real
magic. I was so proud of myself! Silk and velvet and satin, with
flowers embroidered onto it and used as the quilting patterns
—"
She smiled. "Other people Worked the spells, but I got to put in litde
sachets for fragrance, and bits of various stones. Nicky knows a lot
about herbs, and Alec's pretty good at lithomancy."
"Uh—litho' like neolithic,' for stones? "
"Yep. Nick gave me the bolline. It's one of a set of three from his
childhood with the Rom — Gypsies—and very old. The
athame
looks kind of like a hunting knife, doesn't it? I found the deer ander
myself when I was about fifteen, and Cousin Jesse made it for me."
"Cousin Jesse," he repeated.
"He's the sheriff down home. His specialty is metal working. You should
see the cauldron he did for Aunt Lulah's fiftieth
birthday—gorgeous." Holly slanted a glance at him. "All these
things—other people had to Work whatever magic is in them.
They
used my blood to make it binding, but. ..." She finished with a shrug.
"This isn't long enough to use as a belt," he said, touching what he'd
assumed was the cingulum.
"Actually, it's a source cord. Nine feet of gold cording, knotted and
netted around different rocks of my choosing. I take it with me when I
travel."
He recognized tiger eye, moonstone, golden topaz, garnet, lapis lazuli,
onyx, amethyst—"What're the pink and orange ones? And the
green?"
"Rose quartz, carnelian, and malachite." She rubbed her finger over the
striations of the flat green oval, smiling a little. Before he could
ask, she said, "I hate to fly. Some people use worry beads on airplanes
— I use this. They all have meanings, of course. The onyx and
amethyst protect against nasty magic and manipulation, for instance."
"Get a lot of that, do you? " He tried to sound as casual as she, but
all at once the idea of anyone's using her, her blood, for their own
ends was like something fanged gnawing at his guts.
"If people find out what I am, yes. I'm pretty much incognita even
within the
Circles. Only the people I Work with regularly know what I am. The
others — " Holly shrugged. "Let's just say I have clever
friends
who make it seem as if I'm actually doing something, instead of just
standing there looking silly."
"I bet you could do a spell on me and it'd work," he teased.
"Oh, very funny, Lachlan."
"You want me to believe you're a Witch? Work me a spell."
"You just won't let this go, will you?"
"Nope."
Five minutes later they were seated before the fire. Holly had
collected a few items and now spread them on the hearth rug.
"I swear, Lachlan, if you laugh at me — " she warned.
"I won't." He hesitated, then asked innocently, "But aren't we supposed
to be naked? I mean, 'skyclad'?"
"One-track mind. Later, Marshal. This particular spell is probably from
a time when cinnamon was incredibly expensive and to sacrifice a couple
of sticks meant you were serious." She tied the sticks together with
purple thread, saying:
"One to seek, one to find.
One to bring, one to bind,
Heart to heart, me to tbee:
So say I, so mote it be."
She wrapped the cinnamon in a square swatch of black velvet, then took
up the golden dagdyne.
"No," he said suddenly, catching her hand. "You don't have to bleed on
it. That's not what I meant."
A perplexed quirk of her eyebrows was there and gone before he could
react to it. "Go raibb maith agat, E`imbin," she murmured. "Thank you."
And she stitched the velvet closed with the needle and thread. "Now we
hide it where it won't be found —meaning out of reach of
Isabella's vacuum and Mugger's paws!"
"And that's it?"
"That's all most Witchcraft is, Evan—household stuff, a
rhyme, and a wish."
"Hmm." He waited a few calculated moments, then gave a gasp. "Holly!"
"What is it? What's wrong?"
"I think —I don't know—" He clutched his heart,
wondering
if he was over doing it a bit. "I feel strange—it might be
— " Without warning he tackled her back onto the rug and
grinned
down into her startled face. "It worked! I'm in love!"
Five
"ELIAS," SAID KATE, "I HAVE a small problem."
The Circle had gathered for their January meeting at Elias's townhouse
to discuss Denise, who had been a surprisingly good girl so far in the
new year. Other matters had also been dealt with—among them a
stockbroker Ian suspected of not leaving his magic at his office door;
a promising student in Kate's brewing-and-stewing class; and rumors
about a group of excruciatingly rich wanna-be occultists with neo-Nazi
inclinations. That was when Kate mentioned her problem.
"Do you need us here, Kate?" Lydia asked softly.
"No, dear. The neo-Nazi group isn't the one I'm worried about. The one
I've observed is a Satanist gathering on Long Island."
"Excellenter and excellenter, said Alice," Martin observed, both
inaccurately and ungrammatically. "C'mon, let's motor. Need a ride,
Lydia?"
She eyed him sidelong, a smile playing around her lips. "Angling for
cheesecake? Or did you have in mind a dozen crullers to go?"
"Well, you didn't have to marry the best baker in Brooklyn, sweetie."
Martin took Ian by the elbow and Lydia by the hand, and they left the
townhouse for the snowy city outside, negotiating doughnuts and
chocolate cake all the way.
Simon, too, donned coat and gloves. "I'm off, children. It's a long
drive, and Silence won't be if I'm late." He smiled, wound a purple
cashmere scarf around his neck, and departed.
"Silence- ?" Holly echoed.
"His wife," Elias explained.
"I didn't know Simon was married," she remarked. "Or Lydia, either. And
I thought people stopped naming their kids things like Patience and
Mindwell and Thank Ye The Lord a long time ago."
"Not in her corner of Rhode Island," Kate said. "Could you stay a
while, please? I don't need your blood, just your advice."
Holly sank back into the overstuffed corduroy chair, hugged a
sage-scented pillow to her stomach. "If I can help, sure."
"Well, it's not a problem yet, but it could become one."
"Say on, say on," Elias sighed, pouring more coffee and dosing it with
cream.
"It's a bit intimidating, you know—trying to tell a coherent
story in front of a novelist," Kate chuckled. "My narrative powers are
sadly lacking. The night of the Solstice last month, I was awakened
quite suddenly—" Here she grinned irrepressibly.
"—by a
disturbance in the Force."
Elias groaned. Holly shushed him.
"No, really," Kate insisted. "It was the oddest feeling. So I did some
checking, and it turns out that a group of kids had met on that hill in
back of my house and were messing around with magic."
"For you to feel it," Elias commented, "at least one of them must be
talented."
"Exactly. One of my apprentices is a senior at the local high school,
and he did some nosing around. The boy's name is William Scott
Hungerford Fleming."
"Junior?" Elias sat up a litde straighten "Can't be."
Holly frowned. "What am I missing?"
"Flaming Fleming," Kate said, "is a fundamentalist Reverend with a
thing about pagans."
"That's one way of putting it." Elias set down his coffee. "Kate,
what's his kid doing fooling around with magic?"
"The boy doesn't know enough to call up anything really vicious, but
there were some nasty little phantoms hovering around. Evidently he's
gotten a Pylon together and they're going to try something spectacular
on Imbolc. Now, my problem is: do I let them try, and maybe call up
things I don't even want to think about, which will scare the crap out
of them, or — "
"—or intercede," Elias finished succinctly. "This isn't a
problem, Kate. It's a no-brainer. Where are they meeting, and what
time?"
Thus it was on the night of February die second —Imbolc, the
Feast of St. Brighid, Candlemas, or Groundhog Day, depending on one's
orientation — Holly picked up Elias in her black BMW for the
drive out to Long Island.
"I always liked Imbolc," Holly said. "Right turn or left?"
"Left."
"Aunt Lulah and I always got our candles from Cousin Clary Sage.
Beeswax from her own hives. One in each window—was it six
lights
to Kate's street?"
"Seven."
"Okay. We'd draw sun circles in the snow around the house and barn."
"Any more pastoral lore you'd like to share?"
"C'mon, Your Honor. I'm trying to make nice here with the man who's
sleeping with my best friend."
"All right," he replied genially. "I'll make nice with the woman who's
sleeping with one of my marshals."
"How do you get away with this, by the way? Sneaking around sans
escort? I thought you were supposed to have an armed guard at
all
times."
"Only in court and chambers."
"These days there are quite a few otherwise law-abiding citizens who
think all you judge-types should be horsewhipped at the very least."
Reluctantly, Elias pulled up the hem of his fisherman-knit sweater to
reveal the tidy little pistol tucked into his belt. Holly whistled
under her breath.
"I really hope that's not a McGuffin."
"No," he said mildly, "it's a Beretta 9 millimeter. What's a McGuffin?"
"Hitchcock. You show it, you have to use it by the end of the movie."
"I've never had to use it yet." Settling back in his seat, Elias
changed the subject. "How many of you country cousins are there down in
Virginia?"
"About ninety, when we all get together from three states and the
District of Columbia. Not all Witches, but all Catholic." Holly
laughed. "Clary calls lin-bolc her St. Brighid's Day clan reunion,
which makes it acceptable to the ones who haven't inherited the magic. "
"Turn here. The last house on the cul-de-sac. Careful — they
don't plow this road." Reaching into the back seat for the two black
hooded robes he'd brought along, he mused, "I wonder if we'll ever be
able to celebrate the Sabbats without cloaking them in 'acceptability.'"
"Ain't gonna hold my breath." She used the gears to slow the car to
about five miles an hour. "Besides, to become official we'd need rules
and regs just like every other belief system on the planet. Part of
what's kept us sate for thousands of years is that no six of us believe
exactly the same thing."
"Would it have to be that way?" he mused. "Believe this, do that,
spread the faith, march in lockstep or get excommunicated?"
"Even the possibility of it horrifies me, " Holly confessed "And it
would kill what we are."
"Ah, but there's the real question, isn't it?" he asked, smiling a
little. "What exactly are we?"
She shrugged. "The pallid remnant of an ancient religion, according to
some. The vanguard of the new millennium to others. No, Elias, if we
became a codified religion, with a scripture and a hierarchy and so
forth, we'd become visible enough to celebrate whatever and however we
chose, just like any other faith — but then people like us
would
become visible, too."
"Not a happy thought."
A few minutes later, Kate welcomed them into a very modern ranch house
that she shared with five cheerfully disreputable mutts, three
identical Burmese cats, a brace of guinea pigs, a housebroken lop-eared
rabbit, and a tame squirrel. The hearth-warmed air smelled of diverse
herbs and spices and perfumes; Elias saw Holly scratch at her nose, and
smiled.
"Tea?" Kate offered. "I know you prefer to Work on an empty stomach,
Eli, but just a little something to take the chill away? I've got soup
for later."
"No, nothing right now, thanks. Have the kids arrived out back?"
"In about half an hour, maybe less." Plucking the squirrel off a brass
baker's rack, Kate stroked its luxuriant tail. "Sorry, Percival, you're
for the cage tonight."
"Percival?" Holly asked, bemused.
Kate shrugged. "He answered to it. All my companions are Arthurian."
"Really? All our cats are criminals— Bandit, Mugger, Ruffian,
Swindler-"
Elias shifted impatiently, "fascinating, ladies, but can we get this
show on the road?"
"And a fine show it will be," Holly replied, unfurling the cloak Elias
gave her. "Is this theatrical enough, Kate, or should we have brought
our wands?"
With Percival the squirrel and Ran the bunny safely caged from
mischief, and the dogs and cats shut inside the house for their own
good, lights were extinguished and three figures in hooded cloaks left
the house through the back door. A low fence was climbed, a quarter
mile of snowy hill was traversed, and a convenient stand of trees was
found for shelter. Though exercise had warmed Elias's muscles, it was
very cold and very dark, heavy cloud cover hiding the moon.
"I'm freezing,' Holly whispered.
"Bonfire soon," Kate promised. "They're here."
Ten, eleven, twelve —finally the thirteenth arrived,
stumbling in
shin-deep snow. There was a brief confusion while the Pylon arranged
itself around a small wooden table one of them had lugged up the hill.
Holly leaned close to Elias and breathed in his ear, "What's in the
sack?"
One of the black-robed figures — it was impossible to tell
male
from female —had carried a squirming burlap bag up the hill,
and
now set it on the ground near the altar. Elias shrugged. "Whatever it
is, it's alive."
"Oh, swell —the whole show, complete with blood sacrifice.'
In the center of the circle of hooded black figures was a pile of wood
and kindling, presumably to be lit by the candles each person held. All
these were black, except for one slim white taper placed on the right
side of the makeshift altar.
Elias focused his attention on that —the flame that in this
ritual symbolized the path held in contempt. The right-hand path. His
path. This was the fire he would use tonight if necessary. And when he
heard the opening of this ritual, chanted as some sort of thick, heavy
incense was ignited in a ceramic altar bowl, he was depressingly
certain that it would indeed be necessary.
"Gloria Deo Domino Inferi, et in terra vita hominibus fortibus.
Laudamus Te, benedicamus Te, adoramus Te, glorificamus Te, gratias
agimus tibi propter magnam potentiam Tuam: Domine Satanus, Rex Inferus,
Imperator omnipotens."
The young man's Latin was almost priestly—something his
fundamentalist Protestant preacher of a father would doubtless find
horrifying. Elias had heard it all before, the adulteration of the
Catholic Mass to suit other purposes.
Glory to God the Infernal Lord, and on earth light and strength to man.
We praise Thee, we bless Thee, we adore Thee, we glorify Thee, we give
thanks to Thee for Thy great power, Lord Satan, Infernal King, Almighty
Emperor.
Beside him, he felt Holly shiver, and not with the cold. For a moment
he wondered how someone raised Roman Catholic would react to this
deviant Mass—and then nearly got lost in speculating how one
could be a Roman Catholic Witch.
Shaking himself mentally, he watched the boy who was acting as high
priest. Very tall, all leg, and lanky in the way of young men who've
grown too fast for their reflexes to catch up with, his only visible
identifying feature was his hands. These were long-fingered and bony,
scarred with cuts and burns—not souvenirs of attempts at
ritual,
but from his hobbies of woodworking and stained glass. Bradshaw had
done a little research this week, and learned that Flaming Fleming's
namesake was nineteen years old, artistic, rebellious, his mother's
much-indulged darling and his father's much-reprimanded despair.
Watching him now, Elias saw the restless intensity common to that
age—he could just about recall that same seeking uncertainty
in
himself during his college years—but, more significantly, he
sensed a real talent about the boy.
The choice of Imbolc was an odd one for a ritual of this kind. A Sabbat
of Light, not darkness; perhaps young Fleming -was testing himself,
trying out his power by challenging the fire. Or perhaps he knew,
consciously or instinctively, that dark -wraiths banished by
life-affirming light would be attracted to a place where fire
celebrated destruction.
The ceremony progressed, with Fleming in charge. A bell was rung nine
times while he turned counter-clockwise; a silver goblet was charged
and filled—-with wine, mercifully, not with other fluids
Elias
had witnessed on occasion. The four quarters were ceremoniously
sprinkled with an aspergillum in the shape of a nine-inch ceramic
phallus. Satan was called at the South, Lucifer at the East, Belial at
the North, and Leviathan at the West. A sword that could have starred
in a Conan the Barbarian movie -was waved about rather amateurishly
before it was touched to the bent hooded head of each participant. A
gong was rung to herald every "dubbing" by the high priest, right after
he called the name of an arch-demon.
"Adramaleck, Prince of Fire! Meririm, Prince of Air! Rahab, Prince of
Oceans! Rimmon, Prince of Lightning and Storms! Mammon, Prince of
Greed! Agratbatmahlaht, Princess of Whores!"
"Whoever she is," Holly whispered. " I 'm impressed that he even tried
to pronounce it." Elias elbowed her, wanting to hear the remaining
names Fleming called, but she was relentless. "That gong is giving me a
headache. Let's do it, huh, and get the hell out of here?"
So casual—hiding nervousness? No, he decided, glancing at
her.
She didn't sense what this boy had called. Hell was indeed hovering
around this hillside. And it was up to him to get it out of here.
He fixed his gaze on the white candle that trembled all alone in the
darkness. We are strong enough, you and I, he thought. Tonight is
Imbolc, when Light returns.
Willing the slight flame to grow and brighten, he began to chant very
softly.
"Brighid of
the hearthfire, Brighid of the braided hair,
Brighid of the fair sweet face, Brighid of the women's wisdom,
Brighid of the healing hands, Brighid of the sacred fire
— "
By now he was walking from behind the sheltering trees, his
voice
ringing, the poetry of three thousand years shaping his words. This was
power; this was magic, living inside him, awakening the flame to
confront the chill that fire challenged and defeated. His will and his
gift became one.
Fleming stood with the sword held limply in his left hand, gaping at
this hooded apparition that had appeared out of nowhere in the
trees—to be joined by another figure just as anonymous around
which fresh pure fragrances whirled, banishing the cloying odor of the
altar incense. And then another cloaked shape, standing at the edge of
the darkness and singing, singing the Latin words in a high, clear
soprano, calling and lauding the Lady:
"Salve,
Regina, mater misericordiae,
Vita, dulcedo, etspes nostra,
Salve, salve Regina!"
Elias strode into the very circle itself, breaking its
outline
with Light, drawing the necessary Fire from the white candle that he
took into his hand as he kicked the altar table over into the snow.
"Brighid of the triple flame, Brighid of the kindling,
Brighid of the waters, Brighid of the
power of shaping,
I call on the Gracious Lady of tender
blessing—
That all might be healed, thai all might
be transformed,
That darkness shall flee and Light shall
reign."
Very suddenly, in the circles center, the bonfire flared to
sudden brilliant life. Elias flinched. The fire wasn't his.
Some of the Pylon simply screamed, broke, and ran. Others held their
ground for a moment, perhaps three—and then fled down the
hill,
slipping in the snow, too frightened even to cry out. The sword fell to
the ground. The ceramic phallus, the goblet from which none had drunk,
the bell, the gong, the black candles — all lay abandoned in
the
cold snow.
The high priest remained, and two of his Pylon. Elias stared at the boy
from the concealing shadows of his hood, seeing Flemings pallor and
defiance—and his outraged knowledge that whatever malevolence
had
been attracted to this place had given up and fled. Dilettante, novice,
dabbler— these things the boy was. But given years and
learning,
he -would become powerful. Perhaps dangerous.
Kate's herbs, thrown onto the bonfire, fragranced the air. Gently she
took the last three black candles from the boys' hands, extinguishing
them with three soft breaths and a few whispered words of banishing,
leaving only Elias's white Light shining off the snow, and the roaring
flames behind him. The trio of would-be Satanists clung together, two
not much more than panicky boys, one still dark-eyed with rebellion.
"You don't know what you were playing with here," Elias said.
"We weren't playing!"
"No?" Me kicked at the goblet with casual contempt. "Wine stolen from
your parents' cellar, right? Go for the Chateau Margaux, forget all
that stuff about drinking piss."
"The piss," said the Reverend's son, "was in the clay dick."
Holly approached to stand at Elias's right hand. "Do you have any idea
what you tried to do tonight? There's no such thing as the Devil,
despite what they teach you in Sunday school. But there are some
repellent little entities just itching for a chance to make mischief in
this world. You're lucky a Witch or three came along to protect you.'
William Scott Hungerford Fleming straightened to his full six feet five
inches. "I don't need protection from anybody—or anything!"
"You're Witches?" one of the other boys asked.
"If you are," said Fleming, "why didn't you join our ritual?"
Holly shook her head within her hood. "You're so wrong about what a
Witch truly is and what a Witch truly does that it beggars even my
celebrated imagination."
Elias made a grab tor control of the situation. "Clean this mess up,
please, while these gentlemen and I have a little talk." He gritted his
teeth, grateful for the concealing cloak as Holly gave him a purposely
overdone bow, her hands folded inside wide sleeves, and joined Kate by
the toppled table that had served as an altar.
A live-minute lecture later, the pair of acolytes had departed,
expressing such sentiments as, "Never again —this is too
bizarro!" and "If that's power, I don't want anything to do with it!"
As Bradshaw expected, Fleming was harder to convince. It followed; he
was the only one among them who had any gift. And he knew it.
"My preceptor says I can be a major power—and he's right. I
feel
things — and it would've been awesome tonight if you hadn't
ruined it!"
"'Preceptor,'" Elias echoed distastefully. "Did he happen to mention
that you can choose what you feel, and which path you follow?"
"We don't choose our path. It chooses us."
"Parrot," Holly chided on her way past with an armful of black candles.
"Speak—and above all think — for yourself!"
"What I think is that you're all full of shit."
"Yeah?" But whatever else she might have said was interrupted by a gasp
as she slipped in someone else's icy footprint and landed on her ass.
The candles went flying. And so did the hood of her cloak, revealing
her face and her freckles and her dark red hair. Elias took firm hold
of his temper and bent to help her up. She waved him off, pushed
herself to her knees, and started grabbing black tapers.
Fleming stood back, arms folded, and regarded them with the vastly
tolerant gaze given only by the young to their elders. "You're a Witch,
you know about the powers of Satan."
Elms sighed. "Is that your father talking, or your preceptor?"
For the first time there was a flinch of reaction. " How do you
— what do you know about my father?"
"It seems to me that you're caught between your father's Bible and your
preceptor's—well, whatever version of that twaddle he
subscribes
to. Both affirm the power of the Devil from opposite directions. But
did it ever occur to you that there are more than two paths?"
"These feelings you talk about having — " Holly had finished
stuffing candles in her pockets, and rose gracelessly to her feet. "Ask
yourself what the best use of those feelings would be."
The boy turned to her. "You're a Witch."
“Yep."
"And you don't worship Satan."
"Nope."
"You were singing in Latin," he accused.
"Sure was," she drawled. "From the original version of the Mass. Much
nicer, if you ask me."
"Then—you're Catholic? But how can you, like, be that and be
a Witch, too?"
Holly shrugged. "It'd take too long to explain. Look, kid, follow my
friend's excellent advice and think this through. Make your own
decisions. You've courted the Darkness, and tonight you saw a bit of
the Light. It all depends on what you want to see in the mirror every
morning."
"Go home," Bradshaw told the boy. When he saw hesitation in the dark
eyes, he summoned his own magic and commanded, "Now!"
Snow spewed up as Flemming ran down the hill. Elias paused for a deep,
calming breath, then turned a scowl on Holly. But all at once he -was
too tired and cold to reprimand her as she deserved for her multiple
interruptions—and for stupidly allowing the boy to see her
face.
"Oh, the poor little thing!" Kate suddenly exclaimed.
He turned in time to see her freeing a scrawny lamb from the burlap
sack. Its jaws had been taped shut and its eyes were dazed from its
struggles. Kate carefully peeled the tape loose, and it bleated
piteously before trying to hide m her cloak.
"The Lamb of God," Holly murmured. "I don't like this boy, Elias. I
don't like him at all."
"It's all right now," Kate crooned to the exhausted animal. "I'll take
you home and you can play with Percival."
"We're done here, Kate," Elias said. "Leave the cleansing for tomorrow
in the daylight. And put out your fire before you burn down half of
Long Island."
"It isn't her fire," said Holly. "It's mine."
****
HOT FOOD AND HOTTER COFFEE were the work of a few minutes in
Kate's kitchen. Elias did the honors; Kate was busy settling the lamb
in the spare bedroom. Holly banished herself from the preparations to
go wash the stink from her hands and remove the robe. Her sinuses were
still twitching unhappily as she left the bathroom, but three deep
inhalations of the brewing Kenyan Blue Mountain cleared her head.
"Caffeine, I beg of you," she told Elias.
He handed over a filled cup. "Want a kicker in it?"
"I'd love some brandy, but I'm driving. God, that's good!" She drank,
burning her tongue and not caring. "You think the Fleming kid will take
the hint?"His reply was a shrug. She watched as he set bowls of soup
and a plate of fresh bread on the kitchen table, ducking around hanging
bouquets of drying herbs as he passed from the stove to the table to
the refrigerator for butter.
"I have to tell you, Elias, I didn't think you had that kind of poetry
in you. And don't tell me it was just another prop. Who taught you
those lines?"
"My mother," he answered reluctantly. "Her grandmother came from the
Old Country. County Kerry, to be precise." He eyed her. "How many
points do I get?"
"I'm not sure," she teased back. "The pollution of all that New England
Puritan blood— "
"Almost four hundred years of it in Connecticut and Massachusetts."
"And probably with half the Bradshaws wanting to burn the other half."
She buttered bread for them both. "Speaking of blood, I think this is
the first time I've ever been part of a Working and nobody wanted mine."
"Is it also the first time you've ever meddled in a Magistrate's work?"
Kate arrived, all smiles, saying, "I've tucked Guinivere up with
Galahad, nice and snug. You'd never know he's part sheepdog."
"Guinivere?"
"She was almost burned as a sacrifice, too, remember? Oh, lovely, you
found the bread. Can I get anybody anything else?"
"No, we're fine," said the Magistrate. "One thing,
though—find
out who this 'preceptor' person is. Someone may have to have a little
chat with him."
"I'll see what I can do. No more talk. Eat."
Perfectly willing to obey, Holly kept her gaze from brushing Elias's
for the next half hour. But with soup and bread finished, and the
coffee pot empty, it was time for the drive back to Manhattan. Holly
knew very well that along the way die Magistrate would rip her a new
one—and her ass was already sore after that tumble into the
snow.
Kate as well was cognizant of Elias s mood; as she walked them out to
the BMW, she whispered in Holly's ear, "I wouldn't be you for the next
hour for anything in this world—or the next."
Sure enough, after five minutes of lethal quiet, when Holly stopped the
car at a red light Elias spoke.
"Almost four hundred years in this country," he said as if their
earlier conversation had not been interrupted, "and in all that time I
don't think anyone has ever done to another Bradshaw what you did to me
tonight."
"All I did was — " She broke off as he made a gesture, and
she
realized two things with infuriating abruptness: that she couldn't
speak, and that for the very first time he'd used magic on her.
Into the enforced silence he spoke five words.
"Don't. You. Ever. Interfere. Again."
He released her. She dragged in a breath that filled her lungs to
bursting.
"Lights green," he announced calmly.
Horns sounded behind her. She concentrated on driving, gained the
expressway without breaking too many traffic laws, and settled into the
calming rhythm of the engine.
"What, exactly, got up your nose?" she asked, her voice dangerously
controlled. "Did I spoil the effect when you stormed in to kick that
altar over like Jesus in the temple with the moneylenders? I timed the
bonfire perfectly, I said what needed to be said to that kid
— "
"You opened your mouth. That was enough. You let him see your face. The
only thing you missed was calling me or Kate by name."
"What's that got to do with anything?" she exclaimed.
"No—wait a
minute, I see now. We're anonymous, we Work in secret, it's all part of
the mystique—or is it that you're ashamed of what we are? We
hide
our faces and our names — "
"—for damned good reason! What would happen if what we are
became
common knowledge? A writer and a judge—we're public
commodities.
Though, granted, you're for sale and I'm not—"
"Go fuck yourself, Magistrate!"
As if realizing he'd gone too far, he moderated his tone: "It's not
shame, Holly. It's self-preservation.'
It was as close as he'd ever come to an apology. She knew that. She
also knew that one day he would tell her he was sorry for something
he'd said or done, and he'd damned well mean it. Deciding she could
wait, and succumbing to a certain rudimentary honesty within herself,
she said, "I know what you mean." Then, because she was still angry:
"It's why neither of us has ever told Susannah."
"Leave her out of this."
Good, she thought. That got to him. One more, and I'm done for the
night.
"And why neither of us ever will."
One lean, manicured hand lifted—but the gesture was aborted
before it truly began. In spite of herself. Holly held her breath until
his hand returned to his lap.
"That's enough, Spellbinder."
"Whatever you say. Magistrate.
Six
"CHRISTMAS TO GROUNDHOG DAY CAME and went—or, as
Evan was
learning. Yule to Imbolc. Not that he gleaned much information from
Holly. She would neither take him to a Sabbat nor perform ritual magic
for him, and while she answered his questions readily enough he knew
the subject of Witchery bothered her.
Well, it bothered him, too. Some. He'd forget about it for days at a
time, but then she'd tell him she couldn't see him that night because
she had to Work. Her voice supplied the capital letter.
Her other work, the writing stuff, was lower-case. He met her agent,
her editor, and her publisher at various dinners. Everyone, including
the various literati at these gatherings, tried not to act surprised,
curious, and/or bewildered, from which he gathered that he was the only
man ever to accompany her on such occasions. Lachlan was polite, used
the right forks and spoons, tried not to eat or drink too much even
though somebody else was picking up the tab, and battled boredom by
counting Holly's freckles.
He was never introduced to any of her fellow Witches. Taking his cue
from her determinedly offhand attitude, he never asked for such
introductions.
One evening in February—the fourteenth, to be precise, which
was
both Valentine's Day and her birthday—they were dining late
when
she looked up from her veal and nearly choked. "What the hell are they
doing here?"
"Who?" Turning in his chair, he saw a vaguely familiar pair —
of
course, the two men from the hallway last year. One blond, one dark,
both bundled against the cold, they made straight for Holly and Evan's
table. Lachlan got to his feet, folded his napkin beside his plate, and
gestured to the waiter for two more chairs. Holly set down her fork and
looked unhappy.
"Holly Elizabeth," said the tall dark one, in an accent redolent of
Boston's Beacon Hill, "you are a difficult -woman to locate." He bent,
kissed her cheek, and started removing layers of expensive wool.
"Don't blame Isabella," the blond one added with a smile. "She didn't
want to tell us."
"Let me guess," Holly said. "You tortured her by reciting Alec's recipe
book."
"Puritan gruel with molasses muffins does it every time." Holding out a
hand to Lachlan, the blond one said, "Nicholas Orlov—Holly's
Uncle Nicky. This is Alexander Singleton."
"Evan Lachlan. Pleased to meet you."
"At last," Orlov appended wryly. "Sorry to interrupt your dinner." His
accent was more difficult to place—the name was about as
Russian
as one could get, but the cadences of his voice were an odd combination
of upper-class Brit, a touch of New York, and something that definitely
wasn't the Russian heard in Brooklyn.
Holly looked sour as all three men sat down. "I take it I can't prevent
you gentlemen from joining us."
"How very gracious of you to ask," Singleton grinned. "Caesar salad,"
he told the waiter. "I'm watching what's left of my figure."
Orlov opened a menu and zeroed in on the pasta selections. "Alfredo,"
he said blissfully.
"The only figure he -watches is Uncle Alec's," Holly explained. "So why
are you two here? What couldn't wait?"
Singleton gave her a cloyingly sweet smile, dark eyes dancing. "We only
wanted to wish you a happy birthday, my precious."
"Right." She attacked her veal again with a fork. "So where's my
present?"
"Patience," she was counseled; Singleton paused as plates, silverware,
and napkins were provided, and when the waiter departed, continued, "We
stopped by the store today."
"If you're not doing anything tomorrow," Orlov suggested, "why don't
you go take a look?"
"What am I looking for?"
Lachlan eyed Holly over his wineglass. She -was sulky in tone and
expression, a complete departure from her cheerful mood often minutes
ago—well, admittedly his gift of her favorite perfume had
mellowed her out very nicely.
Orlov appeared unperturbed by her annoyance. "You'll know it -when you
see it. Alyosha, pass the butter."
Holly folded her arms and leaned back in her chair. "I hope you have a
better reason than that for spoiling our evening."
"It's not spoiled," Evan said. "I've been looking forward to
meeting—"
"So have they," Holly interrupted. "This has nothing to do with the
bookstore at all."
"Ah, but it does." Singleton paused again while a fume blanc was
presented, opened, poured, tasted, and approved. When glasses had been
filled, he and his partner toasted each other silently with, it seemed
to Lachlan, a gesture half their lifetimes old. "Obsessed as we have
been with conjecture about Deputy Marshal Lachlan, and rude as you have
been, my darling girl, about not inviting us to dinner —
still,
the bookstore has everything to do with it."
She sighed, picked up her fork, and plunged into her dinner once more.
"Okay, okay. Regale me."
Orlov shook his head. "After I eat. It's been a long time since lunch."
So, as food was brought and then consumed, Evan found himself making
small talk with Holly's honorary uncles. It turned out that they, too,
were Knicks fans, and this topic occupied them during the whole of
Alec's salad. Holly didn't bother to conceal boredom. As Nick polished
off the last of his alfredo, the men were agreeing to go to at least
one game together this season.
"I don't suppose," Evan said finally, "you've ever considered giving
them a little help now and then?"
Nick's brows shot up. "He knows?" he directed at Holly.
"He knows."
"Ah."
"As for the Knicks," Alec said, "it's a matter of ethics. If Holly's
told you about us, then she's also mentioned the rules."
"It was just a thought." Lachlan sighed wistfully.
"Don't think I haven't been tempted! End of the fourth quarter, down by
two, one shot from outside the key to win — "
"Enough, already," Holly chuckled. "Besides, it's common knowledge
about the '69 Mets."
"That wasn't me," Alec protested. "I'm a Yankees fan."
"Don't pay any attention to her," Lachlan advised. "She not only kissed
the Blarney Stone, she bit off a chunk and swallowed it whole."
"Noticed that, did you?" Alec turned to his partner. "Nicholas, old
son, are you finally finished stuffing your face? If so, I suggest you
tell the tale."
"Dessert first," replied his partner, beckoning the waiter.
"Hollow to the ankles." The older man shook his head. "I've been
waiting thirty years for him to get fat. I'll wait another thirty if
necessary."
"Superior European genes," the blond chuckled.
"I've been meaning to ask," Evan ventured, "if your name is Russian."
"Very. But in actuality I'm mostly Hungarian, somewhat German, and a
quarter Gypsy. Long story," he said in a fashion that indicated Evan
wouldn't be hearing it anytime soon. The waited hovered; Orlov ordered
something opulently chocolate, plus espressos all around. At last,
replete and relaxed, he began.
"When we decided to retire—Alec from lawyering, me from books
—I sold
The Recommended Sentence. Which wasn't easy. Suffice to say my
advertisements didn't bring in the sort of person 1 was looking for. So
I changed the manner of the listing." Here he smiled a little at Holly.
"Uncle Nicky," she said to Laehlan, "is what Aunt Lulah calls a
Come-Hither, and other folks call a Summoner, and still others call a
Coercer."
Digesting this with a swallow of wine, Evan nodded. "Be useful in my
line of work," he remarked mildly.
The other two men blinked. For the first tune since the pair had come
into the restaurant, Holly gave a genuine smile. "Now you know why I
adore him."
"Peculiar you may be on occasion," Alec retorted, "but stupid, never.
Keep going, Nick."
"Hmm? Oh —of course. My sign and doorway, properly prepared,
brought in only qualified and interested candidates looking for a
rewarding life with books. People who treasured the printed word, the
smell of leather bindings, the luxury of fine paper— "
His partner interrupted. " —- the stink of mold, the
crumbling of
ancient dogeared pages — and the art of the literary murder.
Get
on with it, will you?"
"Philistine," Nick sniffed. "I had scant luck to begin with. The spell
required some fine-tuning. For instance, there was the gentleman with
masses of money and an abiding fascination with ritualized S&M.
'
"And that mousy little guy who wanted to turn the place into a gay
bookstore in the vain hope that he might get laid." Alec reached over
to scrape leftover chocolate from his partner's plate.
"I've worked assiduously to blot him from my memory," Nick grinned.
"And the gorgeous little leather blonde with the nose-ring who hit on
you."
"Most especially have I worked to forget her."
Amused, Lachlan poured more wine and said, "I gotta say, you people
sure have interesting problems."
"He's just finicky," Alec said.
Haughtily, Nick replied, "I spent half my life building up the
business, the clientèle, and the collection —
damned if
I'd let it be taken over by some idiot."
"So who'd you end up selling it to?"
Alec: snorted. "A six-foot-six blue-eyed beanpole. Stick him at one end
of my granny's garden, run a clothesline out from the house, and hang
the laundry."
"A beanpole with a PhD. in Literature," Nick retorted, "erudite,
charming, more than a little gifted, although unaware of it —
"
"You only liked him because he recognized that Wilkie Collins first
edition," Alec put in. "Pushover for anyone who fawns over ancient
pages. I can t tell you how glad I continue to be that Holly had
contributed to our Handfasting."
"Moron. He isn't my type. 1 like things older than I am," Nick said
with poisonous sweetness.
Holly laughed. "Get a room, you two. So you sold this guy the store?"
"I'm carrying the paper, and his payments are perfectly on time. That
was that. Or so I thought." The clear blue eyes darkened below a frown.
"I visited the shop last autumn, that day we almost met in the hallway,
Evan. Not much had changed. A new sofa in the reading area, some
artwork, a little rearranging of the shelves. Not much new stock."
"We were there again today," Alec interrupted. "Me for the first time
since the sale. I knew he should've had me scope this guy out in the
first place — "
"The point!" Holly exclaimed, thoroughly out of patience.
"He's turned it into an occult bookshop," Nick announced in disgust.
"All the other stock is gone. Conan Doyle, Sayers, Christie, Peters
— Ellis and Elizabeth — Chandler, Hammett, Lindsay
Davis,
Laurie King, Steven Saylor — all my lovely mysteries and
thrillers and historical whodunnits, all the critical studies and
biographies and anthologies — gone."
Holly sipped wine, then said, "He has a right to run the store the way
he wants. He pays the mortgage. Esoterica is very chic, you know. Well,
of course you know—you've dealt with enough wanna-be Witches."
"That's just the point. He's no amateur. I don't like what he's up to.
Alec and I would like you to go to the store and give us your opinion."
She regarded them for a time in silence. Then: "What you mean is that
you're considering a Working, and want my cooperation — which
means my blood." Her voice changed, and Evan blinked in surprise at the
manifestation of an icily controlled anger he had never seen from her
before.
Her honorary uncles were unimpressed. Alec said, "Your opinion is what
we're after. Then, if necessary, we'll consult the Magistrate."
"The what?" Lachlan couldn't help it.
"There are rules and formalities in what we do," Nick told him.
"Difficulties are taken to a Magistrate for investigation. If the
Circle agrees, and the subject is unwilling to modify his or her
behavior — " He finished with an eloquent shrug.
Lachlan was further intrigued, but even more certain he wasn't going to
get any concrete answers. Still, he had to try. "Holly said they used
to send you two out to deal with people like that."
Alec consulted his wrist watch in a purposely ostentatious gesture.
"Another long story, and one we have no time for tonight." Rising, he
leaned over to kiss Holly again. "Think about it, would you?"
"Yes, just think about it," Nick seconded as he beckoned the waiter for
their coats. "We're at the Plaza tonight, but we'll be going home
tomorrow. Call us at the farmhouse, okay?"
Holly said nothing.
The men shook hands with F.van, skipping the usual Nice to meet you,
let's have dinner again sometime pleasantries, and started for the
door. Halfway there, Nick turned, came back, and placed a small, square
box wrapped in silver paper on the table by Holly's wineglass.
"Think about it," he repeated. "Happy birthday, sweet."
"Aren't you going to open it?" Evan asked when Orlov was gone.
"Later."
Catching her eye, he said bluntly, "I've never seen you rude before."
"I don't like it when that life intrudes on real life."
"From what I understand, 'that life' is anything but unreal."
"You are real life for me. Can you see that, Evan? The other
thing—that's just something accidental, something I was born
with. You, and my books — " She gestured helplessly. "It's
the
difference between what I was born as and who I am."
"Like I was born Irish and can't do anything about it, but my career is
my own choice?"
She nodded. "It has to do with other people's definitions of who you
are, as opposed to how you define yourself."
He considered that for a moment. "But aren't Alec and Nick just asking
you to be what you are?"
The waiter interrupted politely to inform them that the bill had
already been paid. Lachlan made a mental note to come up with really
good seats for that promised Knicks game, and escorted Holly outside
into the February cold. They walked for a bit at her suggestion, which
let him know she wanted to tell him something private and couldn't wait
until they got back to her place.
Without preamble, she said, "When I was little I knew there was
something special about me. We took it for granted, yet we
didn't—you know? Like being good at sports or music. It was
just
something that was there for Aunt Lulah and me and some of our kin.
Something we could do that was out of the ordinary. But at some point I
started feeling that it wasn't just not ordinary, but downright not
normal. And I spent a lot of energy wanting to be normal, have a life
like everyone else's. Home, husband, family—"
He tucked her gloved hand into the crook of his elbow. "One person's
genius is another person's freak. But it's like that with everyone who
can do something not ordinary, Holly. Whose definition of your talents
are you willing to accept? "
She gave a little shrug and leaned into his shoulder, hunching a little
in her coat. "I wanted being special to come from something I could do,
not just something I happened to be."
"I got news for you, lady love. You could never be
'ordinary'—and it's got nothing to do with the magic."
****
THE NEXT AFTERNOON, TELLING HERSELF she was at a sticky
point in
Jerusalem Found and didn't feel like working — it was raining
in
New York, and not conducive to writing about sunny Medieval Palestine
(that was her excuse, anyway)— Holly went to The Recommended
Sentence as requested. And was, more than anything else, annoyed by
what she found.
Before, the shop had been a discriminating haven of first editions,
autographed copies, and an impressive collection of framed letters from
famed authors thanking Nicholas Orlov for his friendship and support.
He'd taken the letters with him when he retired, of course, and a new
coat of paint had obliterated the dark unfaded rectangles where the
souvenirs had been. That alone was enough to irritate her—the
letters had always felt like the welcoming smiles of friends. What made
it worse was that the new owner had chosen to smear the walls with a
deep grayed maroon rather like the color of dusty, half-dried blood.
And it smelled strange in here. Nicky's shop had smelled of old leather
and old paper and good coffee; now there was something heavy and musky
in the air that made her nose sting.
The new owner was indeed a beanpole. Long-limbed, lanky, pale of skin
and eye, she had to admit he would be attractive if one appreciated the
type. His thick, straight hair was reddish-brown, swept back from a
high forehead to cascade over his shirt collar. He moved with the
curious grace of a too-large bird: the long arms and legs awkward in
stillness, but revealing an elegance in motion and hinting at an
unexpected strength. All in all, an odd character.
Busy with a customer at the front desk, he barely glanced up as Holly
entered the shop. After a few moments of observing him, she wandered
the once-familiar shelves, taking in the embellishments of his
decorating scheme. There was a suite of twenty-six small woodcuts
depicting a Devil's Alphabe: A for Asmodeus, B for Baphomet, and so on.
Just the thing for teaching a Satanist's child the ABCs. One huge
frame, alarmingly curlicued and gilded, surrounded a displayed tarot
deck, each card's illustration skewed to the demonic. Holly wondered
who would want to read a future told by cards featuring Lovers who had
stabbed each other in the back.
In the middle of the store, where Nicky had kept cozy chairs and handy
tables, there now resided a stone basin on a stone plinth that looked
for all the world like a Druidic pedestal sink. Holly wasn't surprised
to see scorch-marks inside the basin, and wondered what the fire
marshal would make of this. She walked toward the coffee bar, sparing a
glance for the assortment of cookies in the glass case. Skulls,
pentagrams, and phalluses, all iced in day-glo colors.
Turning her attention to the books. Holly picked a row at random, and
was unable to credit that there could be so many volumes written on
demons, let alone on specific categories of them. At least three
vertical feet of books about incubi, a similar number on succubae, and
twice that about the hierarchies of Hell. A quick flip through one of
the latter volumes told her that someone —or something
—named Kobal was Entertainment Liaison, Paymon was Master of
Infernal Ceremonies, and Nysrogh was Palace Chief of Staff. Sternly
forbidding herself to speculate on their duties, she rubbed absently at
her nose, replaced that book, and pulled out another. This one revealed
an unexpectedly feminist slant, being an encyclopedia of goddesses,
demonesses, evil spirits, and princesses of Hell.
Resisting the impulse to shake her head in amazement, she turned a
corner to peruse another aisle. Vampires, Devils, Ancients, Goth,
Voudon, Santeria, Temple of Satan, History, languages (including Runes
and Magical Alphabets), Modern Religions, Witches —
She winced, and decided she didn't want to know.
All at once it occurred to her that this must have been how Evan felt
when initially investigating the Craft. Not that he didn't want to
know, exactly, but that he worried about what he might find. Well, if
he wouldn't give in to intellectual cowardice, neither would she.
Reaching the fiction shelves, she pulled out a book titled Witchtales
Retold and opened it to the table of contents.
Someday My Prince Of Darkness Will Come; Bring Me the Heads of the
Seven Dwarfs; Hansel and Gretel— Gluttons for Punishment;
Cruella's Coup de'Evil; Why is My Sister Under that House, and Where
Are Her Ruby Slippers?
Suddenly it all seemed very silly and harmless. This was nothing more
than a playground for dilettantes, amateurs, dabblers, and nitwitches.
Holly regretted the demise of Nicky's wonderful bookshop, but no doubt
some other dealer had purchased his stock and it resided m a
mystery-lover's sanctuary waiting for buyers.
Convinced now that her adoptive uncles were simply pissed off by the
changes, she started back for the front desk, taking with her the
volume of reworked children's stories to read on her trip to Europe
next month. As she waited for the owner to finish with another
customer, who was having trouble deciding which earrings to buy
(inverted pentacles in silver, copper, or what purported to be bone of
goat), she opened the book again to smile over a few more story titles.
"You find our religion amusing?"
He had a deep, musical voice and a hint of a Boston
accent—probably one more reason Nicky had liked him to begin
with, for Alec had the same remnants of pahk-the-cah-in-Hahvahd- Yahd.
"No more so than my own," Holly replied easily. "Interesting shop
you've got here. Used to be mysteries, right?"
"It did. You knew the store then?"
"I was in once or twice," she lied. "Why'd you keep the name, if you
don't mind my asking? The Recommended Sentence' was a fair-to-middling
pun for a mystery bookstore, but it doesn't quite fit this merchandise,
does it? "
The earrings girl (who had chosen the goat-bone set) looked up from
rummaging in her capacious handbag. "Oh, but it's perfectly
appropriate. The Master's judgments on life and death—"
"Serenity." The owner shrugged and smiled a little, taking the sting
out of his mild warning. "See you next week?"
"Absolutely, Noel." With a toss of maroon-streaked hair and a swirl of
black wool, she was gone.
"Some people get a little . . . enthusiastic," Noel said ruefully.
"Evangelicals — if that's the appropriate term," Holly
couldn't
help but reply, and saw the man's pale blue eyes glint with humor. She
paid for the book with a credit card, after adding a greeting card from
the rack near the counter—a lovely photo of Stonehenge by
moonlight, blank inside—and while her purchases were being
processed inspected a tall glass display case of candles. Fairly
disgusting, some of them; she wondered that he didn't have an Adults
Only area sectioned off, then decided his relations with the
authorities weren't her problem. After accepting the bag Noel handed
her, she smiled and wished him a good afternoon.
Back at home, she used the Stonehenge card to write Nicky and Alec a
note saying thank you for the cloissone' brooch, she missed the old
shop but the new owner and his merchandise seemed pretty harmless, and
stop worrying like a couple of old maiden uncles. She appended an
invitation to dinner and/or the next ritual sacrifice on Salisbury
Plain, whichever they preferred, signed the card, sealed and stamped
the envelope, and put it in the correspondence pile.
And then she sneezed. Even a brisk walk through the Village before
taking a taxi home hadn't blown the store's scent from her clothing,
and her nose had finally had enough. Rummaging around the office for
tissues (none — she used toilet paper from the bathroom
instead),
she sneezed again. And cursed. She hadn't had allergies like this since
first moving to L.A. for grad school, and back then it had been the
smog, not a flower or plant.
No, that was wrong. After leaving Denises apartment that night last
autumn she'd sniffled until the next morning. "Musk and patchouli?"she
heard Ian say in memory. On a red Baphomet candle just like the ones
she'd seen in the store.
Was Denise getting her supplies there? Ridiculous to suspect that she
was. There must be half a hundred occult shops in the five boroughs
where one could procure candles and essential oils and implements. Yet
when she considered the slant of Noel's store, which seemed to be just
Denise's style . . .
Damn. She would have to report it to the Magistrate, as anything that
might concern Denise must be reported to the Magistrate.
****
HOLLY LIFTED HER HAIR FROM her nape so Evan could fasten her
mothers pearl necklace. "It may be my imagination, but it seems as if
all you people in law enforcement know each other."
"Turn a little, I can't see —yeah," he said, snapping the
clasp
before leaving a kiss behind her ear. "Same as all you Witches know
each other, I guess. Different religions — " He grinned at
her in
the mirror. "—but the same craft union."
"Then there must be the same kind of hierarchy as well."
"Turf," he corrected with a shrug. "With a lot of overlap. NYPD
Narcotics and the DEA are always in each other's faces, for instance.
The FBI wants a piece of everything. And of course there's Homeland
Security, the new kids on the block."
"But the Marshals are the oldest service in the country." She turned
and straightened his tie. "You guys have the coolest badges, too," she
added with a wink. "So if you all engage in pissing contests, why are
we going to a retirement party for a Secret Service suit?"
"Because Frank Sbarra worked liaison for twenty years with the police
and the Marshals on VIP protection, for one thing. And for another,
he's a good friend of Pete Wasserman's, which means he also hangs with
my dad every so often."
"You didn't tell me I'd be meeting your father tonight," she said,
frowning.
"You 'won't. He's up in Boston with the aunts." Eyeing her, he went on,
"Usually women want to meet the folks."
"I do. I'd just like a little warning beforehand, that's all."
"When do I get to meet Aunt Lulah?"
"One of these days."
He considered this evasion for a while as they gathered up coats and
keys. Then: "Oh. The commitment thing."
"What?"
"Getting introduced to the relatives. It's kind of definite."
"So is my intense need to knock you into the middle of next -week."
"Why don't you just turn me into a toad?"
"If only I could. Keep laughing, Lachlan, 1 have several very gifted
friends who'd just love to try out new spells on you."
In the elevator, she tossed him her car keys. He was deeply in lust
with her black BMW, and she knew it, and taunted him with it whenever
they drove instead of taking a taxi. "Here — I like you
better as
a chauffeur than as a toad."
Settling into leather luxury, he fired up the engine and sighed his
contentment.
"Daayaamn," she drawled, "buty'all look cute behind the wheel of this
here car!"
"I know," he shot back. "But you'll have to adjust the mirrors back
before you drive it again. And the seat and steering wheel."
"When we stop, I'll show you the buttons that control the memory.
Different drivers,' she explained. "I'm One—this is my car!
—and you can be Two."
"Aw, gee—first I get a drawer, then some hangars in the
closet,
and now I get programmed into your car? I guess you must kinda like me,
huh? "
"I know, I'm too good to you," she said breezily. "So tell me about
Frank."
He smiled as he drove out of the garage onto the street, calling up a
mental image of the beefy Italian and his tiny Brazilian wife. "He and
Maria are married thirty-two years, with four daughters, five
grandkids—so far—and a big house in the Jersey
'burbs. They
met when her father was doing business in Washington, and she never
went back to Rio. Frank wore an earplug on the Presidential detail
until somebody cycled feedback by accident and damned near fried his
eardrum. That's when he started being a social director."
She laughed softly. "So that's what they call it when you have to make
sure nobody tries to assassinate a VIP?"
"That's what Frank calls it. You'll like him. His cigars are even
stinkier than mine.
Two hours later, replete with martinis and canape's, Lachlan and Frank
Sbarra were doing just that—out on the back porch, by Marias
command, so the cigars didn't malodorize the whole house. Inside the
living room, friends and colleagues and daughters and husbands and
grandkids milled about, drinking and laughing. It was the kind of
gathering Lachlan wished his family could have. Just once. Just to see
what it felt like.
"Where've you been keeping this girl, Evan?"
"Away from you, Franco," he retorted fondly. "I know you. One pat on
the ass and she'd be head over heels—and seeing as how
Maria's
had you on a choke chain for over thirty years, you'd only break
Holly's heart."
"Madonn', but it's such a nice ass," Sbarra chuckled. "I can look,
though, can't I?"
"All you like," Evan replied breezily. "So what're you gonna do with
yourself now that you're an old retired fogy?"
"Start a security business, what else? It's all I know how to do, and
I'm pretty good at it." Flicking ash from his cigar, he gazed out at
the back yard, all hung with fairy lights from the fences and apple
trees. Though it was thirty-five degrees outside, there were a few
couples strolling Maria's tidy flowerbeds and herb garden. The best
salsa Lachlan had ever tasted started life in this yard every spring.
"You ever get tired of playing Wyatt Earp, you come join me, Evan."
Adopting a cowboy slouch and an exaggerated Texas twang, Lachlan
said,"Nah, gotta stick around and catch all them gol-durned cattle
rustlers, clean up Dodge City." It was an old joke, part of the pissing
contest among officers of differing agencies. He was about to tease in
his turn when he caught sight of a pair of new arrivals taking off
their coats. "What the hell is he doing here?"
Sbarra squinted. "Get enough of Judge Bradshaw at the office, do you?
Didn't Pete ever tell you about the time he and I worked security for
an up-and-coming D.A. -who had half the Klan gunning for him?"
"Some of 'em still are," Lachlan muttered. "How come Bradshaw s so
popular, Franco? I get bulletins every other week about the Klan, the
Aryans, the Mafia—the chianti kind arid the vodka
kind—"
"—and the slivovitz and rice wine and sake kinds, too, I bet.
The
thing of it is that Bradshaw doesn't scare, Evan. He can be reckless. I
used to think it was because he had something to prove about himself.
But it's not his own pisello he's screwing them with, it's the law's."
The last thing on Elias Bradshaw's mind at that moment was anybody's
pisello, even his own. Maria Sbarra, scorning a caterer, had made all
manner of gorgeous Brazilian food for her husband's retirement party,
and Bradshaw was happily loading a plate with delicacies.
He had just accepted a glass of red wine -when a familiar voice said at
his shoulder, "There's a store in the Village you ought to check out."
"Good evening to you, too, Ms. McClure," he retorted.
"I'll make small-talk when Suze gets back from the bathroom." Holly
poured herself a glass of wine and went on, "Anyway, this store
—
"
"Shopping isn't a guy thing.'
"I'd noticed," she said, giving his suit a once-over. "I mean an occult
shop. It used to be a mystery bookstore, but the new owner has turned
it into—well, go see for yourself. Personally, I think it's
pretty much nothing, but Alec and Nicky asked me to check it out. And I
have a feeling Denise shops there for some of her toys."
"And this concerns me how? "
Her mouth thinned. "Just reporting in, Magistrate, like it says in the
rule book," she snapped, and walked off.
A few minutes later, making the rounds, Elias approached Susannah. "Is
there something wrong with my clothes?"
She looked at him as if he had lost his mind, then made one of those
mental jumps he could never predict, and grinned. "Well, you have to
admit that Evan Lachlan's wardrobe has improved exponentially since he
started dating Holly."
"Gee, and here I thought he'd had a Queer Eye for the Straight Guy
makeover."
"Oh, hilarious," Susannah growled. "At least let me buy you a few new
ties."
"No."
"A shirt or two? Those white button-downs are really boring, Eli."
"Double no."
"How about a sweater? Argyle socks? Suspenders with cute little gavels
on them?"
Two glasses of wine and another heaping plate of food made Bradshaw's
evening complete—until Maria brought out the desserts. He
pounced, and got his hand slapped away from the chocolate-rolled
brigadieros for his trouble.
"Only on condition that you perform for my skeptical grandchildren,"
Maria scolded. "They've heard from their mothers for years and do not
believe a word."
"Oh, God," Elias moaned.
"Heard about what?" Susannah asked.
"Laranja." Maria folded her arms and grinned.
Two daughters and a grandson standing nearby had regrettably sharp
ears, and the clamor began. Maria vanished into the kitchen and
returned a moment later to toss Elias a navel orange the size of a
Softball. He caught it one-handed; the children recognized this as
tacit agreement to Laranja, and cheered. With great ceremony Maria then
presented a long-handled fork and a paring knife, which Bradshaw
accepted with a courtly bow.
After sticking the fork into the orange, he held knife and fruit aloft
as someone dimmed the lights so only the tabletop candles
glowed.
"Thank you, thank you," he intoned. "Here we have a common, everyday,
completely ordinary orange. Nothing special, nothing
extraordinary. Just an orange." He paused. "Or is it?"
Holly's Virginia drawl: "Really workin' it, ain't he?"
Susannah's laughter: "You should see him in a courtroom."
"Out of order!" Bradshaw thundered.
Frank Sbarra called out, "He'll see you in chambers later. Counselor!"
"I'm counting on it!" Susannah retorted, and everyone laughed.
"Where was I?" Elias complained. "Oh, yes—a common, ordinary
orange." With an artistic flourish he brought knife and fruit together.
An impressively narrow spiral of peel began to droop lower and lower.
Maria produced a copper saucepan and set it on the floor at his feet.
Longer, longer, until the peel nearly reached the lip of the pan and
there was only a small circle of untouched orange left at the top. Then
the knife was tossed onto the table, and he closed a fist around the
orange, squeezing gently so juice ran in delicate rivulets down the
peel.
"Now, if my lovely assistant would assist?" he asked, and as he held
the orange out on the fork Maria extended a silver
candlestick,
flame flickering in the darkness — and sudden fire spiraled
down
the peel to the gasps and applause of the crowd.
Laranja completed, lights and music were restored and Elias happily
gorged
himself on brigadieros and the nastily named but utterly delicious
confection of coconut, prune, vanilla, and clove, olbos de
sogra—
"mother-in-law's eyes."
An hour or so later he was upstairs getting his and Susannah's coats
when the bedroom door slammed behind him. Turning, he beheld Holly
McClure.
"I assume you know how incredibly stupid that was."
"You assume wrongly." He shrugged into his overcoat, slinging
Susannah's over his elbow.
"Goddammit, Evan's primed to see Witches -wherever he goes with me
— never mind that this was a party for one of his
friends—no, you had to show up and do your little magic
act—"
"It wasn't magic."
"—and to think you had the gall to yell at me after that
Imbolc thing! How could you be so stupid?"
"It wasn't magic," he said again.
That stopped her. At last. "It wasn't?"
"No. Maria injected liquor into the orange—it takes about a
pint
to saturate it enough, so I hope she used the cheap vodka. I learned
how to do Laranja back in law school. Now, if you're finished being
paranoid, I'm going home."
"Paranoid!"
"You're the writer with the million-dollar vocabulary—what
-would
you call it? It's not explanations you're into, it's excuses. Your
magic is like a stash of pornography that you shove into a corner -when
somebody visits. Which reminds me—how do you excuse all the
protections on your home to the uninitiated? Quaint old Virginia folk
art?" he jeered.
"Back off. Magistrate!"
"What the hell is your problem anyway? That bookstore you mentioned
tonight—if you'd used just a little of what you've got, you
could
have discovered all kinds of things, but there's no doubt that you went
in there as an ordinary customer. Too much effort. Holly? Would it put
you out to investigate a little for a couple of men you claim to
respect and value? Or -would that be too close to actually thinking
like a Witch?"
"And just how compartmentalized is your life, Your Honor? Doesn't your
Craft get checked at the courtroom door? And what sort of excuses do
you make to Susannah?"
"Probably the same ones you've made for almost twenty years."
"At least Evan knows what I am."
"How'd that happen, by the way? 'Welcome home, Marshal, pass me the
bat's wings?'"
"At least," she repeated with vicious sweetness, "he knows."
Bradshaw stared at the slammed door for a full minute after she left.
Susannah did not know—and if he had any powers at all, she
never
would.
Seven
DENISE CLAUDINE JOSEPHE WAS SERIOUSLY pissed off.
Her editor—an annoying little man with a beard that clung to
his
face like a frightened animal—had questioned her latest
chapters
for the most ridiculous reasons. "It's too violent—all that
blood! That sort of thing is on the way out. And not even your most
faithful readers would believe that this kind of sex goes on, even at
heathen rituals."
After pointing out to him that a "heathen" was a person who lived on a
"heath," she'd fumed her way out of the office for a long walk.
It was her own fault. She'd forgotten to bring the gris-gris bag,
present from a friend in New Orleans, that guaranteed cooperation and
approval. Oddly enough, she'd been forgetting a lot of things lately,
all of them to do with magic.
At Yule her special recipe for corn cakes had produced none of the
usual raves; it wasn't until a few days later that she realized she'd
left out certain essential ingredients. In March there'd been a man
she'd wanted and hadn't gotten, because although she'd brought the
right scents, candles, and herbal sachet, she'd forgotten the words of
the right spell. Only last week she'd been shopping for a new carpet
for her living room, and the gallery owner had politely but firmly
refused to lower the price for her—though he'd done so on
other
occasions. When she got home she found her luck-and-money amulet still
hanging over her bedroom altar.
Or maybe it wasn't so odd after all.
She still shivered when she recalled the night her Measure had been
taken. Who knew what Elias Bradshaw had done with it? Her
absent-mindedness could be the result of his Work. It would be just
like him, too—some puny little spell of overlooking, nothing
with
any real jizz to it.
The more she considered it, the more certain she was. That
self-righteous interfering bastard, with his patronizing New England
morality and his useless ethics —how dared he?
She walked faster along the busy noontime street, newly furious, but
with a worthier object now than her editor. Anger gave her purpose, and
fifteen minutes later she pushed through the double doors of a shop
she'd used only once before. Back in November it had barely yielded her
needs; now she spent a satisfying half hour gathering information and
supplies from a much improved stock.
The owner was helpful, it sketchily educated in the techniques of
Voudon. Tall and thin, with a surprisingly lovely voice, he listened to
her oblique explanation of her problem with his pale blue eyes fixed
intensely on her face. She was used to being looked at, but not with
such cool probing.
"Somebody's hexed you, he said at last. "Do you have any idea who?"
"Some, ' she said, then heard herself continue, "Two people in
particular. And they're protected up one side and down the other."
"I see."
She had the most grotesque sensation that he did indeed see. Far too
much, with those eyes of chill silvery blue.
"Let me think about it for a while," he continued, "and you browse the
store, see if anything occurs to you." A slight pause. "You've been in
here before, right?"
"Last year, for oils and candles. You've made some changes."
"A few," he agreed, a glitter of amusement in his eyes now. "Some of
the new stock took time. Try the display case in the
back—there's
some interesting stuff."
There was. Denise knew with a happy smile that her mail-order days were
over. This shop could supply everything she could possibly need, now
that it was fully equipped. Her earlier anger vanished as she roamed
shelves of books and candles, implements and incense, jewelry and oils
and semiprecious stones. True, the more arcane items must still be had
from New Orleans, but this store contained quite a bit more than just
the basics of spellcraft.
She was contemplating with amusement the effects of bloodstone, black
pepper oil, and a seven-knob wishing candle when the owner appeared
beside her, so suddenly that she gave a start.
"You need to turn the hex back on the maker and fix it so no more hexes
can be sent against you, right? Well, let's start with a black candle
for banishing, a brown for neutralizing, and a silver for protection.
As for the scents — "
"Pepper, jasmine, and pine," she snapped. "Do you think I'm an amateur?"
"I think you've probably never run into anyone who's got it in for you,
so you're not as familiar with this kind of spellcasting. For instance,
what phase of the moon would be best?"
The spells she worked were always of her own initiation for her own
purposes, not to respond or counteract someone else's. Which was
.something else to be angry at Bradshaw for. "Okay, so you know your
stuff," she told him. "How much is this going to cost me?"
"Not as much as you'd think — " All at once he grinned, and
became markedly more attractive, "—because you manufacture
the
main ingredient personally."
When he'd finished writing down the basics of his recommendations, she
understood what he meant. It was drolly appropriate — she'd
just
as soon piss on Bradshaw as look at him. And as for Ms.
Holly-Holy-Goddess McClure. . . .
"Sounds like fun," she said, chuckling.
"Magic should always be enjoyable, he replied. "Whatever the intent, we
should all take pleasure in our Craft."
"Some spells are more pleasurable than others."
"Granted. But those without real gifts, real power, have to take our
pleasures where we can find them." His head tilted slightly to one
side. "You're going for some pretty powerful stuff here. Are your
targets believers?"
"Yes," she replied reluctantly. "I wish it were otherwise."
"1 know what you mean. This kind of thing works better on somebody who
doesn't believe." His voice lowered to confidential, almost caressing
tones. "It's the so-called enlightened' person who scoffs at what he
sees as superstition who's easiest to curse. His instinctive fear is
deliberately pushed to the back of his mind. It lurks in his
subconscious, links up with the curse, and makes it more powerful. But
someone who believes will worry about what might be happening, even if
he's not aware of the actual, specific threat. His inner defenses are
alerted and he can counteract a spell without even knowing it."
"I think what we've put together here will suffice."
"Do you want it known that it's you?
Denise considered. Then she smiled. When they finally realized what was
happening, she wanted them to know who had authored their predicament.
"I thought so," the man said, comprehending and returning her smile.
"It's a poor excuse for a practitioner who hides the Work. You don't
seem that type at all. And anyway, 1 don't think you could even try to
hide it in this case, because one of the ingredients is
too—urn-
personal, as it were."
"So to speak," she agreed. "Wrap it up and tell me the damages. '
"To your targets? " His smile widened to a grin. "Severe. My name's
Noel, by the way. Yes, like Christmas.'
"Heard it a thousand times, right? I'm Denise."
His frown puzzled her, until his eyes lit and he exclaimed, "Now I know
who you are! It's been nagging at me since you walked in. You're Denise
Josephs!"
"Josephe," she corrected, but not as coldly as she might have done. He
had, after all, provided a very interesting new spell.
"It's an honor to meet you—and I hope I'll see you in here
often."
"Perhaps."
Noel bagged her purchases and wished her a good afternoon. On her way
out the door she nearly ran into a tall, muscular, windblown man with
the most astonishing hazel eyes she'd ever seen. She'd seen them
before, she knew it—
"Sorry," he said with a smile, standing to one side so she could leave.
Denise nodded distractedly, trying to remember where she remembered him
from. She was halfway to the Starbucks down the block when she had it.
Holy merde! A launch party for a novel she hadn't read and didn't
intend to — Holly McClure -with a tall, hunky piece of
eye-candy
on her arm—they'd left early and Denise had heard someone say
that he never thought he'd see the Virginia Virgin -with some guy who
looked like sex on a stick.
At Starbucks, she found a table and sorted through her purchases, mind
racing as she adjusted and adapted for a new and different intent.
She'd heard that Holly McClure was out of town for a couple of weeks.
Perfect. Sipping slowly at her coffee, she held certain items
caressingly in her palm, murmuring gently under her breath, and waited
for him with perfect confidence that he would come.
****
"YOU HAVEN'T BEEN IN HERE before," said the skinny,
long-haired proprietor.
"No," Lachlan replied, getting his first look at the man who'd annoyed
Nicholas Orlov so thoroughly. The promised Knicks game had occurred two
nights ago—with Lachlan -winking at Alec Singleton when a
three-point jump shot came up short and the Knicks won—and
spending time with the two men had reminded him that he'd wanted to
visit the bookstore and see what the fuss was about. Running down an
address on a Federal -warrant had taken him to the Village this
afternoon. So here he -was, spending his lunch hour in a sorcerer's
lair.
Which was exactly what the place looked like. His reading had taught
him quite a bit; still, the minute he stepped around the blonde and got
a good look at the place, he agreed with Nick: this was excessive.
Atmosphere was fine, and helped sell product. But he could have done
without the incense smoldering in what looked like a stone birdbath,
the mysterious nuances of lighting and paint that made some sections of
the walls look as if they were bleeding, the downright spooky array of
framed Tarot cards, and the featured exhibit of demonic jewelry,
including an inverted pentagram necklace on a chain of tiny silver
skulls.
"Interesting place," he commented, fingering an iron candleholder.
"May I help you find anything? Books, candles, incense — ?"
"Just browsing, thanks."
He wandered around the shop, liking it less and less. This was the
epitome of public misconceptions about Witchcraft: Satanism, sex, and
surgically sharp "ritual" knives. It was as if someone had stocked a
Christian shop with flagellation whips, hair shirts, saints' fingerbone
relics, and all the persuasive contraptions of the Spanish Inquisition.
Holly had merely been amused by the place: "Kind of creepy, but
essentially harmless." Evan had a different feeling from it altogether.
Creepy, yes; harmless —maybe not.
A cluster of high-schoolers sat on the floor near the back door, Goth
from their back clothing to their ashen faces. Witchcraft as fashion
statement. He stepped around them, noticing a dozen brightly colored
flyers taped to the door. The papers advertised piercing and tattoos
("It's not just self-mutilation—we do it for you!"), various
covens, Tarot readers, voudon gatherings, classes in Elementary
Spellcasting, Advanced Aphrodisiacs, Infernal Hierarchies, and The
Annual Beltane Ball.
"Need a date?"
Glancing down at the girl who'd spoken, he felt his brows arch
involuntarily. He'd never seen anyone so young with so little of her
original equipment unaltered. It wasn't just the piercings in odd
places or the tattoos in even odder ones. The stark black-and-maroon of
her hair was as unreal as the startling dimensions of her breasts.
"Beltane," she added, giving him a once-over and liking what she saw.
"It's always a great party."
"Uh—no thanks," he replied. "I have other plans."
"Serenity," one of the boys warned. She turned, making a face as he
went on, "No outsiders."
"He wouldn't be an outsider, Scott, once he's been inside," Serenity
retorted. Scott made an annoyed gesture with oddly singed and scarred
hands. Nobody had to ask Inside what?
Lachlan retreated back up the aisle of shelves, wondering if he ought
to rethink his desire to have children. Nah, he'd see to it that they
toed whatever lines he and Holly cared to draw—redheaded
Irish
tempers or no redheaded Irish tempers.
A smile at the thought of a couple of smart and feisty offspring
carried him out the store and into the brisk April wind. Then his
stomach rumbled, reminding him he hadn't yet eaten lunch. Fine dining
at restaurants, and even finer dining on Isabella's creations, had put
ten pounds on him since Christmas. There was a box of nutrition bars
waiting for him in his desk, but he needed something to wash down the
taste of shrink-wrapped sawdust. So he stopped at
Starbucks—and
bumped into the blonde from the bookstore.
"We meet again," she said brightly, smiling up at him.
"So we do." He gave her his habitual once-over, liking the curves of
her cheekbones and breasts, not so crazy about the odd green of her
eyes, speckled with brownish flecks like a spring apple going bad.
Besides, he'd developed an appreciation for peaches-and-cream
complexions and roses didn't do it for him anymore. Neither did the
just-shy-of-Sir-Mick- Jagger dimensions of her lips.
"Twice in twenty minutes," she went on. "Maybe it's fate."
The accent was southern, but not the right kind. Damn it, did Holly
already have a ring through his nose and her initials tattooed on his
ass? First the girl in the store, and now here was another good-looking
female obviously attracted to him, and all he could think about
was—
"What do you think? ' she asked more pointedly.
"Who was it who said there are no accidents?" he asked, smiling.
"Get some coffee and we'll discuss it."
He wasn't sure if the bleat of his pager was a welcomed interruption or
a damned nuisance. Whichever, he had to answer the thing. A flip of a
switch and a glance down at his belt—and he nearly yelped
with
delight.
WYATT YOU'VE GOT MAIL
"Well?" the blonde asked, invitation and more in her eyes.
"Wish I could. Duty calls."
"Does it? How loudly?"
"Very. But maybe I'll trip over you again sometime," he said by way of
soothing her ego.
"I'm sure you will," she told him, winking.
He watched her go, wondering how many different kinds of fool he could
possibly be. Two weeks now that Holly had been in Europe, and two
unmistakably interested women had flirted with him, and six months ago
he would have blown off work for the afternoon and nailed the blonde to
the mattress.
It irked him that Holly could have that strong a hold on his body. And
his mind. And especially his heart, he admitted at last.
Bidding a reluctant farewell to his caffeine fix, he left the store.
Now — where to find an online computer? It was too far back
to
the office, and he didn't see any cybercafes in the area. Hadn't there
been a computer behind the counter at the bookshop?
There had. As he pushed through the door once again into the wizard's
den, he held a brief debate with himself about secure lines and public
places, but decided if this was the e-mail he thought it was, he didn't
have time to waste. Messages for "Wyatt" were few and far between. His
other aliases—"McCloud" and "Dillon" among them —
received
many more hits.
"You're back," the proprietor said, startled.
"You have e-mail on that computer, right?''
"Yes, but-
"Can I borrow it?"
"I don't let customers — "
Laehlan flashed his badge. "Federal officer." Swinging around the
counter, he punched buttons, wielded the mouse, and within two minutes
was on his own Internet service. A few moments later, there it was: the
message "Wyatt" had been anticipating for several weeks.
GODZILLA TODAY ONE THIRTY
" Yee-haw," he muttered, glancing at his watch. He had just enough time
to get to Koronet Pizza in Morningside Heights, where the famous
28-inch Godzilla was created for worshipping fanatics. Logging off
after deleting his tracks, he thanked the store owner and left a five
on the counter. "That's for your trouble."
One of the more enjoyable features of Laehlan's job was helping to
manage forfeited assets—everything from boats and cars and
houses
to jewelry, whole libraries of books, and fine art. The U.S. Marshals
Service handled property forfeitures for the FBI, INS, DEA, and half
the rest of the alphabet agencies. The fun part was that sometimes, if
one read one's target right, such items could be used to lure an
otherwise canny criminal out of hiding and back into the tender arms of
the law.
In brief, "Wyatt" ran his own personal eBay.
A couple of years ago, for instance, he'd located a fugitive arms
dealer through the woman's passion for Degas pastels. Through delicate
and round about negotiations, "Wyatt" offered and she accepted a
gorgeous suite ol drawings. Of course, Laehlan had had to promise the
property guys an arm, a leg, and the left lobe of his liver if anything
happened to the art during the capture. But for a day and a night, the
Degas drawings had resided in his apartment as if he'd truly owned them
—almost as satisfying an experience as driving to another
lure-and-lasso in the '32 Duisenberg that a Venezuelan drug trafficker
just had to own.
Lachlan checked his watch again and slowed his stride a bit, not
wanting to be early to Koronet Pizza. As he dodged lunchtime
pedestrians, he thanked whoever and Whatever that people let their
greed get the better of their sense. He'd seen some otherwise sharp and
ruthless felons turn into raving imbeciles over the prospect of
possessing a particular jewel, a special sculpture, a mint-condition
car. He supposed greed was one of the main reasons for crime to begin
with—I want more, and 1 want it now. But when was enough
enough?
Contempt: had a lot to do with it, too, he reflected as he stopped half
a block from Koronet to watch for his contact. Contempt for authority,
for other people's intelligence and rights and property and lives
—as if the world existed for the gratification of one person
and
one alone, and be damned to everyone else. Lachlan enjoyed
demonstrating otherwise.
While he waited, he used his cell phone to call the office, where Mrs.
Os-bourne gave him about half the usual grief over the mess in his
filing cabinets before condescending to sort through it for the warrant
he needed. It didn't actually have to be in his hand when he made the
collar; it just had to be excavated from his files. Because Judge
Bradshaw wasn't due back from a luncheon at Gracie Mansion until three,
Pete Wasserman was available to run the warrant over to wherever
Lachlan ended up—if, that was, he ended up in the presence of
his
real quarry.
The woman he hoped would be his ticket there finally arrived: greed,
contempt, and arrogance personified in one long, lean, nasty piece of
work. She emerged from a black Cadillac limo, all leg, and glanced
around the crowd of flawed humanity with active dislike. Lachlan smiled
with pleasurable anticipation. Felicia Holton had a mane of well-kept
brown hair, a stable of Andalusians, a ski-bum nonentity of a husband,
and a grandpa whose birthday was coming up. Grandpa, known to his
chemical company's board of directors as Ed-ward Reynolds Phippen IV,
had been indicted on RICO violations and hadn't been seen in public for
the six weeks since the warrant had been issued. The FBI was convinced
he had skipped the country to live on his gazillions somewhere in
Europe.
Lachlan had arranged that Mrs. Holton would know him by his beloved and
much maligned cowboy boots. It tickled him mightily to see her
squinting down at the feet of every man she neared. He watched for a
while, grinning, then smoothed his expression and ambled toward her,
pretending he was looking for someone, too.
Big brown eyes narrowed as she looked down, did not widen as she looked
up. "Mr. Wyatt?"
"Who wants to know?"
A frown tainted her elegant face. "I have no time for games. Let's go
where we can talk."
"Suits me, honey." He took her arm; she reclaimed it as if he were
infected with several loathsome contagious diseases.
She preceded him into the limo, careful of the swirl of tailored silk
skirt — presumably to prevent giving the unwashed masses a
look
at a pair of truly aristocratic legs. Lachlan sat, stretching out his
legs to rest his bootheels on the opposite seat, and hoped he was
scarring the leather upholstery.
A block later, he said, "So you want a little something from my
collection."
"As we discussed in e-mail, the 1922 Roullet cognac."
"Fine. When do you want me to deliver?"
"Now."
He spread his arms a bit—not enough to part his jacket and
reveal his holster. "Does it look like I've got it on me?"
"Then fetch it."
As if he were a dog ordered to retrieve the morning paper. Oh, yeah,
this was going to be fun. "Why don't you do it?" he suggested, taking a
key ring from his breast pocket and sliding one off—key to a
bike
lock he hadn't seen since college. "This goes to a P.O. box. There's
another key in that. Leave the money there and take the key to the
Greyhound station on — "
"A bus station? "
Had he invited her to get down and get funky -with Serenity, Scott, and
the Goths at the Annual Beltane Ball, she could not have been more
shocked.
"You might want to lose the limo first. The second key goes to a
locker. That's where the bottles are."
"Meanwhile you have the money and I could have nothing more than the
key to an empty locker."
"Okay, leave the money in the locker when you're sure you have what you
want," he replied with a shrug. "But I'll be watching, so don't try to
stiff me."
She made a bored face. "Doubtless your next line is that you have
powerful friends. We'll go to my home. Then I'll go to this post office
box and so on."
He eyed her with no little amusement. "Doubtless your next line is that
there'll be a couple of guys with guns to watch me."
"Only one. If you're playing fair with me, you have nothing to worry
about."
"Oh, I'm just all kinds of okay with this."
And he was. One guy with a gun he could handle; probably even two. Any
more than that and he would have modified his plan a bit. But she was
taking him right where he wanted to go: her home, where Grandpa might
be hanging out in avoidance of his civic responsibility to appear in
Federal Court. Even if Lachlan didn't get that lucky, he felt sure he
could find something that would indicate where Phippen was holed up.
He regarded his hostile hostess, who sat as far from him as possible in
the limo. Charming girl. No wonder her husband absented himself to
whichever part of the world had the best skiing in any given season.
The Arctic Circle would be balmy compared to this bitch.
"Y'know," he said casually, "if you like what you buy this time, I have
a few more cases you might be interested in."
She didn't even glance at him.
"There's a '22 Baron de Lustrac I can give you a great deal on."
"Mr. Wyatt. Close your mouth."
As they drove uptown in glacial silence, Lachlan rehearsed the charges:
Racketeer Influenced and Corrupt Organization Act violations involving
the clandestine dumping of toxic chemicals into six different rivers.
Pity he couldn't deliver that case of twelve-hundred-buck bottles laced
with a liberal sampling of Phippen's industrial cocktail. He watched
the city slide by and reflected that he liked being a deputy marshal
much better than being a cop. The justice system had already decided
that so-and-so was bad news, and all he had to do was serve the warrant
and haul in the perp. No long drawn-out detective work to build a case,
no weighing this evidence against that alibi, no hassling with the
D.A.'s office over probable cause for a warrant. No crimes to
investigate, no puzzles to solve—or, more likely, get an
ulcer
over because they were insoluble. Lachlan was content to leave the
Sherlock Holmes stuff to people who got off on it; he much preferred
exercising his analytical talents on ferreting out bad guys who had
already been identified as bad guys.
Of course, it all would have been much easier if he'd had Nicholas
Orlov's "come-hither" talent. Still, he didn't do too badly.
At last they arrived at a co-op building not far from Holly's place.
Not far in distance, anyway; in price, halfway to the moon. A private
elevator from the garage floated skyward, finally decanting them into a
grim, gilded foyer. The promised big-beefy-with-gun materialized,
listened to his employer's instructions, and nodded—all
without
taking his eyes off Lachlan.
The Marshal considered. He could probably take the guy without breaking
too much of a sweat. All the same, the muscles beneath this man's brown
silk suit made Lachlan glad he was carrying the Glock. Sloppy of them
not to pat him down, but after all he was just a dealer in rare wines
of shady provenance. And he wasn't disposed to point out their
carelessness.
After Lachlan told Mrs. Holton the location and number of the post
office box, she departed. He found a side chair and looked as if it
wouldn't swallow him whole—he had his doubts about the vast
orange sofa over in the corner— and sat himself down to wait.
After about five minutes, he looked over at the muscles and offered,
"Nice place."
No response. Just that flat, constant stare.
"You with a personal protection agency, or freelance?"
He might as well have been speaking to the gold-veined marble walls.
After another few minutes, Lachlan stood up. "I gotta pee."
The hulk moved, one thick finger pointing to a door. Lachlan sauntered
toward it, and glanced over his shoulder to find himself escorted as
soundlessly as his own shadow.
"You gonna help me hold it?" he asked genially, and pulled open the
door.
It was slammed shut behind him. No sense of humor, he told himself,
ignoring the bathroom's lavish appointments—more gilt and way
too
many mirrors—in favor of biting back a whoop of delight.
There was a connecting door.
Locked, of course. Not for nothing had he run with Mike de Corona and
his crowd in the fourth grade. There wasn't a lock on the Lower East
Side that Mike couldn't open, and Lachlan had been his star pupil. The
guys at the Police Academy and the Marshals Academy had been suitably
impressed. Out came the little leather case of tools, and a few seconds
later the door was open.
He jammed the other door lock with a wad of tissues, flushed the
toilet, and left the water running in the sink. The connecting door led
into a blue country French living room so over-decorated that his teeth
hurt. Padding softly across a rug three inches thick, he listened at
another door.
Someone was taking Italian lessons, "—a table, please?
Potremmo
avere un tavolo, per favore?" said a woman's taped voice. After a brief
pause for the student to repeat the phrase, the tape went on, "By the
window--Potremmo avere un tavolo vicina alla finestra?"
Lachlan hooked the leather case of his badge onto his jacket breast
pocket so the shiny five-pointed star was clearly visible, shifted his
body slightly to confirm the presence of the Glock at his side, and
opened the door.
"... sulla terrazza?"
The sitting room was painted a vile shade of green. It had been fitted
out with a hospital bed and various medical equipment, including an
Amazon of a nurse currently absorbed in a thick paperback novel.
Hunched over a desk, working with a magnifying glass under a mini-klieg
light, was a small, skinny woman Lachlan was delighted to recognize as
Samantha Knightly—Sam the Sham, inevitably, to her customers
—forger of everything from birth certificates to stock
certificates. And lounging on a brown leather sofa, wearing a crimson
brocade dressing gown while listening to his taped Italian lesson on a
boom box, was a man whose face, half-wrapped like an unfinished mummy,
sported a magnificent crag of a nose between two black eyes.
"E` compresio servizio?"
Lachlan had heard of several felons who'd had substantially more than a
nip-and-tuck done for reasons of disguise, and had once arranged a new
nose and chin for a protected witness, but he'd never actually seen
somebody in the throes of recovery before. He decided on the instant
that whenever his own face started to sag, he'd let it. Gladly.
"I'd like a spinach omelet. Vorrei una frittata di spinaci."
"Edward Reynolds Phippen —" Lachlan began.
The man glanced up, scowling with majestic white eyebrows. There wasn't
a line on his black-and-blue face or a wrinkle around his bruised eyes,
for all that he was pushing eighty.
The nurse lifted her gaze from her book, and screamed. Startled,
Samantha looked around myopically and dropped her pen.
Lachlan smiled pleasantly. "Hiya, Sam. Put your glasses back on and
standup, away from the desk. Good girl. Mr. Phippen, you're under
arrest. You have the right to remain—"
"What kind of seafood do you have? Che genere di frutti di mare avete?"
"Who the hell let you in?" Phippen roared, the effect slightly spoiled
by the muffling bandages.
"—silent," Lachlan finished, shaking his head.
"—do you recommend? Cosa consiglia?"
"Sam, you and Nurse Ratchett get over here beside Mr. Phippen." He got
out his cell phone and punched the speed-dial. "If you choose to give
up this right, anything you say—"
"Please bring me another glass. Per favore, mi porti un— "
"And turn that damned thing off!"
"I got nothin' to do -with this, honest," Sam babbled, inching toward
the second door. "You gotta believe me, Marshal, I'm
innocent—"
"Yeah, yeah, heard it all before." When the nurse drew in a long
breath, he added, "If she screams again, you're gonna get deputized to
stuff her support hose down her throat."
"Are there any local specialties? Avete— "
Lachlan drew the Glock. "Shut that fucking tape off before I shoot it!"
In the abrupt silence, Pete Wasserman's voice came through loud and
clear. "Evan? What the hell's going on?"
"I need the NYPD and an ambulance at Felicia Holton's place —
"
"Somebody wounded? Besides the tape player, I mean."
"Funny. No, Grandpa Phippen bought himself a new face, and he's not
done healing yet. You might want to call the prison ward at the
hospital, too—"
The foyer guard and his musculature surged through the door; Lachlan
had been wondering when he'd show up. As Holly might say, the guy -was
not exactly the sharpest tool in the shed.
"Shoot him!" Phippen demanded.
"Don't tempt me," Lachlan retorted.
The man hesitated, then became statuary again. Wise
choice—though probably not the best career move.
"Just get here, huh, Pete?" When acknowledgment came back, he snapped
the phone shut. "Where was I? Oh, yeah—anything you say may
be
taken down and used as evidence against you in a court of law. You have
the right to an attorney. If you cannot afford one—that's a
laugh—counsel will be appointed to you at no charge. Do you
understand your rights?"
"Stewart!" Phippen yelled at the guard. "Do something!"
"Yeah, Stewart," Lachlan agreed. "Get on the phone and call the
lawyers."
"Marshal," Sam whined, "let me outta here, this is nothin' to do with
me—"
"I knew it," said Felicia Holton's voice. "It was just too easy."
Evidently Lachlan had made a mistake in calculating how much time it
would take her to get to the post office and discover the key didn't
fit.
"Mr. Wyatt, or whatever your name is — "
"Deputy Marshal Evan Lachlan," he introduced himself pleasantly. "Mrs.
Holton, you're about to interfere with a Federal arrest. Please don't."
"Who are you trying to arrest?"
"Your grandfather."
"You're mistaken," she replied, cool as a cloud. "This is my uncle
George, who as you can see is recovering from surgery. I don't know
where my grandfather is." She crossed the room to stand beside the old
man. "How are you, Uncle George? I hope this hasn't upset you too much."
"Lady, you just pissed me off," Lachlan said.
The sweet song of sirens wafted up from far below, proving once again
that however much you paid for a place to live in New York, you never
escaped the noise. Lachlan figured a couple of minutes to get past the
doorman, another couple for the elevator, and then he'd have backup.
Which didn't come soon enough to prevent Felicia Holton from heaving a
free-form lump of marble knick-knack at him. Or the nurse from charging
with a loaded hypodermic. Or Stewart from drawing his pistol. Or Sam
from bolting through a side door.
Lachlan shot Stewart in the shoulder. At the same time he dodged the
marble chunk and rammed a knee into the nurse. She and Stewart both
collapsed. The marble crashed to the hardwood floor, landing at just
the right angle to shatter it. Lachlan gritted his teeth and hoped the
bones of his left forearm hadn't shattered as well; he hadn't been
quite fast enough in dodging.
A minute late, four NYPD patrolmen stormed in, weapons drawn, followed
closely by am EMT crew with a stretcher. By the time everyone had been
sorted out and arrested (including Sam, who was discovered cowering in
the master bedroom closet), they'd run out of handcuffs.
Lachlan spent the night with an icepack and a six-pack.
****
MIDNIGHT OF A WANING MOON.
Denise's cauldron was that rarest of antiques, a nganga. Her
grandmother's grandmother had made it long ago in Cuba according to an
age-old rite involving, among other things, rum, ashes, cinnamon,
garlic, lizards, ants, bats, termites, worms, a tarantula, a scorpion,
and certain bones from the corpse of a criminal. Denise used the nganga
rarely, but when she did she charged it the same way her ancestors had
done: with rum, pepper, dry wine, and her own fresh blood.
She held the black cauldron between her hands for a few moments,
calling on the spirits of those long-dead women who had been feared ami
respected throughout the bayous. Then she began her ritual of banishing
and cursing-
A tall black candle was affixed to the bottom of the cauldron,
extending a few inches over the rim. A pint of salt, a pint of corn
meal, and a pint of her own urine went into the cauldron, nearly
filling it. With the candle lit and a fire kindled under the nganga,
she sat in silent contemplation of what she wanted to do to Elias
Bradshaw and Holly McClure.
Such lovely things. Impotence for him and frigidity for her, to begin
with — Ms. Goddess Almighty didn't deserve that big
hazel-eyed
hunk, and Denise had her own plans for him. Add a little anxiety, a
touch of unease, an abrasion or two for the temper, a nightmare or
three for the hell of it—subtle, luscious annoyances.
That she was able to Work at all was proof of the Magistrate's
deficiencies. By pitting her will against his, Denise had overcome the
contemptible little geas he'd placed on her. The forgetfulness would
end tonight—and be directed back at him and at Holly. During
the
next waning Moon, and the next, and the next, until she was satisfied,
she would target more and stronger banes using the nganga. And include
lures meant just for Holly's lover.
Eight
PETE WASSERMAN, WATCHING LACHLAN WAVE off the kid with the
snack
cart, heaved a long, long sigh. "Look, Evan, have a bagel. A doughnut.
Anything —just do something with your mouth besides talk,
okay?"
"You're just jealous, Lachlan replied haughtily, rubbing a hand over
his stomach.
"Anybody ever tell you what a pain in the ass you are when you're being
healthy? Christ, am I gonna be glad when Holly gets home. Maybe she'll
give you something else to think about besides lettuce and the gym."
" 'Maybe'? I'm countin' on it."
Over the last fifteen days there'd been postcards and letters, funny
and informative and gossipy, and on occasion so steamy that he
understood why there were laws about sending salacious material through
the mail. At least she'd put the postcard of a certain statue's vital
parts in an envelope —with a note reading, If Michelangelo
had'
seen you, this would've been just the rough draft.
But Monday she'd phoned, lonely and homesick and abruptly tearful as
exhaustion caught up with her. fled ordered her to take the next day
off from research and schmoozing, bullied her into agreeing, and
yesterday had received a FedEx package at work: a box containing a
silver medal from the Vatican. The small oval featured St. Michael the
Archangel, patron of law enforcement officers. The note read: So you
turned out to be my White Knight after all. In token thereof: the
enclosed, with my love. (Don't scold—just shut up and wear
the
thing!) Yours, and you know it, Holly.
He'd put the medal around his neck, and the note with the letters and
cards in a compartment of Granddad Lachlan's mahogany cigar box. And
had taken them out time after time, trying to he with her in some way,
any way, when the grim stuff went down, that thing that had sent him to
the gym to punish his body with muscle strain and blank out his mind
with fatigue. He shied away from thinking about it and returned to the
topic upon which he'd been rhapsodizing for a good ten minutes now, a
topic that had finally made the redoubtable Pete Wasserman crack.
"It's the perfume that does it to me every time," he mourned. "It's the
same all over her, but everywhere it's different, you know?"
Pete sighed deeply and glanced up from paperwork, gray eyes suddenly
dancing in his likably homely face. "Would you define 'all over' and
'everywhere'?"
Evan grinned. "In your dreams."
Pete eyed him, pulled a face, and said, "The sooner she's not just in
your dreams, the happier I'm gonna be." Then his gaze shifted, and a
smile broke across his face—the smile reserved for seriously
lovely ladies arriving unannounced in Judge Bradshaw's chambers.
All at once Lachlan was breathing that perfume. The next instant he was
enwrapped by long arms around his shoulders, and heard a throaty voice
whisper in his ear, "I've been -wanting to kiss this exact place on
your neck for weeks." The place was duly kissed: warm, lingering, with
a delicate flicker of her tongue.
His immediate reaction was to damned-near fall out of his chair.
She steadied him, hands on his chest, laughing softly. "Careful, big
guy. Don't injure anything important. I have plans for it tonight. Hi,
Pete. Miss me?"
"Welcome home. Holly," Pete said warmly. "Lookin' good. You better
believe I missed you—he's been impossible."
"Then he wcu) a good boy! Bless your philandering little heart, Lachlan
— hey!"
Evan grabbed her by the -waist and pulled her onto his lap for a long,
thorough kiss. "So," he said when he finally let her up for air, "you
missed me so much you flew home three days early?"
She didn't wriggle to get comfortable; she always fit him whatever
position they were in. Thinking about some of those positions made his
heart lurch. She wrapped her arms around his shoulders and laughed at
him—she was sitting on his response to her, after
all—and
tossed the mane of russet hair from her face.
"Pete, tell me truthfully—has he really been behaving
himself? Don't bother to lie, you don't have the eyes for it."
"He's been so good it's nauseating. Go on, take him outta here before
he embarrasses us."
If she got off his lap anytime soon, he'd definitely be embarrassed.
Evan held her tighter and looked into her eyes. "And have you been a
good girl?"
Her brows arched wickedly. "Would I tell you if I hadn't?" Then,
leaning close to his ear and whispering in a lilting brogue, "Mar to
t'point, me boyo, would I be wantin' t strip ye bare-ass naked, t'row
ye acrosst yer very desk here, and proceed t'foockye senseless?"
With Herculean effort he managed to dismiss the image of being
consensually raped on his own desk. Touching her nose with a finger, he
said, "You've been in the sun—you've got new freckles."
"And you've been working out—you've got new muscles." Her
fingers
stroked over his shoulder and arm. "I figured you'd gain another ten
pounds guzzling beer."
In his own thickest brogue, with a plaintive sigh that -would do credit
to a martyred saint, he replied, "Ah, I drowned me sorrows every night
in uisquebaugh, darlin', so I did."
Again her whisper was just for him, warm breath caressing his ear.
"Liar. And your stomach isn't the only thing that's hard, in case you
hadn't noticed."
The only thing that saved him—but not from a
blush—were the
clipped New England tones of Mrs. Sophia (with a long
I—literally
and figuratively speaking) Osbourne, Judge Bradshaw's secretary and
undisputed empress of suite 710. "Ms. McClure, would you kindly unhand
my deputy?"
Holly leaped from Evan's lap, smoothed her skirt, and apologized.
"Nice trip?" Mrs. Osbourne went on, settling her five-foot-five and two
hundred pounds against the credenza. "Thanks for the postcards, by the
way. I loved the one of Michelangelo's David."
Lachlan choked.
"Wonderful trip, thanks," Holly said, rummaging in the flight bag she'd
left on the floor. "I brought back a whole slew of guidebooks and stuff
for your grandsons —I thought they might get some use of them
in
school, and I never met a kid yet who didn't love
castles—damn
it, I know I put them in here somewhere—"
"That was very thoughtful," Sophia said. "Don't go looking for them now
— I can tell you'd like to take Evan home early." And,
incredibly, she winked.
Holly grinned back. "If it's all right, yes."
"You'll be doing us all a favor by getting him out of here," Mrs.
Osbourne added. "He's been hell in cowboy boots ever since you left."
"And," Pete added, "he made up a new story about where he got the
stupid things — "
"—just as bogus as all the rest," Mrs. Osbourne finished.
Stabbing a finger in his direction, she warned, "Someday, Marshal, I'll
get the truth out of you."
He made his eyes wide and innocent. She snorted.
"Don't you already have plans for the evening, Evan?" Wasserman asked
with an eager helpfulness belied by the glint in his eyes.
"Such as?" Holly inquired.
Lachlan gestured to the newspapers on his desk. "Apartment hunting. My
building's going co-op and I gotta find another place."
"Oh, the heartbreak," Holly mourned. "No more listening to the
neighbors fight. Can you put off the shopping until tomorrow? I want to
go home. I've got a ride waiting and presents to unpack — "
"What did you bring me?" Pete demanded.
"As a matter of fact, I have a little something right here." Again she
hunted through the bag, and came up with two small gold boxes. "I had
some extra lira to get rid of, so I got these in the Rome duty-free.
But there's more in my luggage."
She handed one box of chocolates to Mrs. Osbourne and the other to
Pete, who caressed it tenderly and announced, "I worship this woman.
Dump Lachlan and become the third Mrs. Wasserman, Holly. We'll
honeymoon in Hershey, Pennsylvania."
"Third time's the charm?" Mrs. Osbourne asked, dark eyes dancing.
"Who needs charm when you've got chocolate?"
"So true," she agreed. "Thanks, Holly. Now get him out of here."
After a show of reluctance that nobody believed for an instant, Evan
stood up and shrugged into his suit jacket. "Aw, geez," he moaned,
"what're you gonna do when they got eyes like that?"
"Eyes'?" Pete asked incredulously. "What're you gonna do when they got
leg* like that?"
"Say yes,' Lachlan," Mrs. Osbourne advised, pointing to the door. "I'll
make it an order."
"I hear you, ma'am." He flipped her a casual salute.
As the pair left, Wasserman observed, "He'll be lucky if she doesn't
rip his clothes off in the taxi."
Mrs. Osbourne's brows arched. "I'd say he'll be luckier if she does."
****
IT WASN T A TAXI. IT was a limousine—a long white
Caddy,
fully equipped with blackout windows. Evan whistled as the chauffeur
opened the door for Holly.
"Thanks, .Jacob," she said, and the young man smiled and tipped his hat
to Lachlan. "My publisher sent it," Holly went on as Evan got in. "So
shut up."
"Yes, ma'am."
"My oh my, ain't we just the sweetest, most obedient lil ol' thang
today? '
Lachlan batted his eyelashes. "You promised me a present." He'd asked
for a couple of art books; he figured she'd come up with a whole
library. Relaxing into the leather seat, he unbuttoned his suit jacket
and turned to look at her. Just look at her. Inventorying freckles,
blue eyes, windblown red hair, and linen suit the exact color of lime
sherbet. "Missed you."
Her eyes softened, and her fingertips brushed his mouth. Then she
leaned forward and said to the chauffeur, "Put something good on the
stereo, please, Jacob? Thanks." A toggle raised the blackout window
between the driver's seat and the passenger compartment, sealing them
in privacy. Then Holly rubbed a hand over Lachlan's stomach. "When did
this happen?"
"Like you said — I been workin' out."
"But I liked your belly," she complained as she loosened his tie and
began on his shirt buttons. "And nothing should ever be perfect."
"Wait a minute—what're you —?"
"Why waste a perfectly good limo ride? Didn't you ever see No Way Out'!"
"Huh?" He-wasn't tracking too well — not-with her fingers
busy at his zipper.
"Kevin Costner and Sean Young in the back seat of—"
"Holly Elizabeth McClure-!"
"Can I get a little cooperation here, Lachlan?'
"You're crazy! There's eight million people out there — "
" — half of 'em women who'd purely love to get their hands on
you, and not one of 'em can see us or hear us." She gave him a
cheerfully lascivious smile. "Oh, come on. You wouldn't care if the
windows were wide open. You're an exhibitionist and you know it. The
way you walk, the way you grin, the way you flaunt it—"
"I do not—"
"Evan, me darlin' man, ye're such a liar! But I love you anyway, a
chuisle."
Holly undressed him as quickly as possible considering the confined
space, the length of his legs, and her own eagerness. When she had him
sprawled sideways across the seat, stunned by kisses and hazy-eyed with
desire, she drew back to look at him. Just look at him.
"Are you gonna get on with it, or just sit there starin' at me?" he
growled.
An unknown amount of time later, when he finally got his breath hack,
he chided, "Naughty, naughty. You're not wearing any underwear." He
pushed her back far enough so he could unbutton her jacket. "No blouse
or bra, either. And you on a plane with two hundred people all the way
from Rome!"
"I missed you," she defended.
He laughed at her. "Nothin' better to do with three extra days, so you
come home to fuck me senseless. What'm I gonna do with you?"
Laughing, unrepentant, she teased, "Do it again before we get home!"
"With the windows down this time?"
****
THEY ARRIVED AT HER APARTMENT to find dinner in the oven and
the
kitchen table already set; all they had to do was light candles and
open wine. Lachlan cheerfully stuffed himself with Isabella's
enchiladas.
"I lave I told Isabella lately that I love her?"
"Y'all go right on ahead, boy—if you're prepared to deal with
her
six-foot-five former linebacker husband and her six-foot-six right
tackle son."
He winced. "Sounds like I'd better keep my mouth shut."
"You haven't closed it except to chew for the last forty-five minutes."
She eyed him thoughtfully. "You really were a good boy, weren't you?"
He nodded, making his face and eyes the very portrait of virtue. "Like
Pete said—nauseating."
"I have to say I'm surprised."
He polished off the last enchilada and set his fork down. "It kinda
surprised me, too, if you want to know. But it's not like I didn't try."
"You what?" Her back became a ramrod and sparks shot from her eyes.
"I told myself I had to. But I just couldn't get interested. Pissed me
off, too."
"I'll just bet it did," she said through her teeth. "Who was she?"
"Just some bottle-blonde at Starbucks. But that was it. Honest, Holly,"
he insisted as her eyes ignited to full fury. "I didn't want to. She
wasn't you."
She chewed her lip for a moment, eyes narrowed, then gave an annoyed
snort. "Oh, stop trying to look like a scolded puppy. I believe you. As
if the way you reacted in the car wasn't proof enough."
"I didn't notice you lagging behind," he grinned.
"When do I ever, with you? Marshal, you're too good."
"But not too good to be true," he said as he poured more wine.
"That was absolutely foul. People have been shot for less. What's all
this about your apartment?"
"Like I said—goin' co-op. I can't afford it. So. . . ." He
shrugged.
Taking a large swallow of wine, she set the glass down and regarded him
with squared jaw and determined eyes. "You could afford to live here,
you know. Half my rent is about -what you pay per month on your place,
right?" Suddenly she was looking anywhere but at him. "I'm a very
reasonable landlady. You'll be paying your full share of
rent—don't think you won't! —but I won't make you
take out
the trash or clean the catbox—"
Evan sat back. "What're you talking about?" he asked carefully.
"What do you think I'm talking about?" she countered. "There's a whole
floor I don't even use, and it's ridiculous to have it sit there with
nobody living in it. Half your clothes are here, anyway. You'd have
your own bedroom and bath, and—"
He felt his lips curve in a smile. "Hold on." Rising, he took her
shoulders and drew her up to stand before him. "Holly, are you asking
me to live with you?"
"In the same apartment, yes, but not in the way that you're
thinking—unless you want to," she added, looking down. "Would
it
be that awful?"
He would never understand how she could change from confident woman to
insecure teenager in two seconds flat. But as dizzying as the change
was, he was totally unprepared for what came next. She looked up at
him, eyes bright with mischief, and slipped her arms around him, hands
fitted to his ass.
"I want this long, lean, luscious Irish carcass where I can get my
hands on it whenever I like."
"I don't know why you think I'd move in without letting you make an
honest man of me. My good Catholic ancestors would do cartwheels in
their graves." He pulled out of her arms, went down on one knee, took
her hand, and gazed up into her thunderstruck face. "Holly Elizabeth
McClure, will you do me the honor of marrying me?"
She stared. Then she sat down. Hard.
"I love you, Holly," he said gently. "I want to be your husband, and I
want you to be my wife."
Still she said nothing. Her face was so white that the freckles stood
out like splotches of sepia ink.
"I want to come home to you every evening, and sleep beside you every
night, and wake up to you every morning, and — "
"Evan—a cbuisle, are you sure?"
"Yes. I love you, Holly. Marry me."
Tears filled her eyes. She nodded wordlessly.
"And for Christ's sake don't cry," he admonished, rising from his knee
to pull her up into his arms again. "Whenever I make you cry, I go all
to pieces and want to shoot myself or something."
"You never make me cry," she sniffled. "Besides, a woman is supposed to
cry when the man she adores asks her to marry him. My God, I'm such a
cliche. How depressing." She hesitated, then looked at him without a
trace of a smile. "And the man's supposed to say they'll live off his
salary. Are you going to say that, Evan?"
He bit his lip. This was something he'd thought about more than once.
His pride had gotten in the way before—he still cringed
whenever
he thought about the weekend he'd found out who she was, and what she
did for a living, and how tidily that living added up in her bank
accounts. Time to put up or shut up. He could be prideful and stupid,
or stomp on his machismo and be happy. And make her happy.
That was what decided him—after all, as her husband, her
happiness would be his responsibility every hour of every day. Might as
well start here and now.
"I'm not gonna punish you for makin' more than I do. I'm still not nuts
about it, but I'm not stupid, either."
The delight that shone in her eyes embarrassed him; he hadn't known
she'd be so worried, which told him she'd expected him to be an asshole
about it.
"Don't get any big ideas," he warned. "No expensive presents or
vacations — "
"Not even the honeymoon?"
"Well. . . ." Thoughts of nude sunbathing on a private Jamaican beach
danced in his head. Lolling in a hot tub at a mountain resort
somewhere, just him and Holly and a gazillion stars. Watching the Arno
flow by from the hills above Florence —
"I promised you before, Evan — I won't throw the money
around.
Just don't yell at me too often for breaking my promise, okay? Like
now. I brought you something from Dublin."
Before he could say another word, she vanished from the kitchen. He sat
down, a little breathless now that he'd asked and she'd said Yes.
He glanced around the room, wondering why it looked different. Well, of
course: it wasn't just her kitchen anymore, it was going to be their
kitchen. All the things his sister Maggie had told him he could
have—an Army wife traveled light—would find places
here.
Grandma Coyle's copper pots; the Staffordshire bowls sent from England
by Grandpa in 1944, just before he was killed in the invasion of
Normandy; Granna Maureen's handmade lace tablecloths; great-grandmother
Lachlan s sterling flatware with the ornate L engraved on every piece.
The rest of his clothes; his basketball and Softball trophies; CDs,
DVDs, books—oh, Christ, all his added to all
hers?—and the
big leather armchair he'd splurged on with his first paycheck as a U.S.
Marshal—his stuff would join her stuff in what he was morally
certain would be total chaos.
Married.
In retrospect, he could have done a little better by her than to
propose in the kitchen over the -wreckage of dinner. Not exactly
romantic—and he didn't even have Granna Maureen's ring to
give
her. Well, hell—how was he to know Holly would come home
early
because she missed him? At least he'd remembered to go down on one
knee. He'd do the rest of it up right when he got the chance.
On the other hand, there was something homey and comforting about this.
Maybe not the ambiance of daydreams, but it was real.
Suddenly she stood before him, blushing and apprehensive, holding a
small green velvet box. Inside was a ring. The only one he'd ever worn
was his Marshal's Academy ring—on his left hand, and he
realized
suddenly he'd have to change that when she put a wedding ring on his
finger. This was a gold claddagh: hands clasping a crowned heart.
Masculine but not massive, beautifully wrought, with something written
inside. As he peered at it, she finally spoke.
"It's Irish Gaelic."
And so it was. E`imbin Liam Lochlainn.
"It's perfect," he murmured. Then he looked up at her. "It's my wedding
ring, isn't it." Not a question.
"I didn't buy it to be, but—" She looked down at her hands.
"I was just hoping you'd wear it sometimes. ..."
"I will. I'll wear it always. But we'll save it," he said, putting the
ring carefully back in its nest. And to his surprise, for the first
time in his memory—for the first time in all the years he'd
been
alive—the whole world was truly right.
To his greater surprise, every candle in every holder in the kitchen
sprang into flame. Holly gave a start, eyes wide.
"Now, stop that," Evan scolded gently, and kissed her.
****
THE NEXT MORNING HOLLY WAS in the tub when Evan stumbled
into the
bathroom, groggy and unfocused, hair sticking up in twelve different
directions, one side of his face red where he'd scrunched into the
pillow for too many hours.
"Great day in the mornin'," she marveled, "it walks just as if it's
awake." When he yawned wide enough to crack his jaw, she scowled at
him. "Lachlan? Are you going to pull a 'God, was I drunk last night' on
me?" she asked suspiciously.
"Hmm?" He scrubbed both hands through his hair, creating an even worse
disorder, and blinked owlishly.
"You do remember last night?"
"Uh . . . yeah, sure."
Most unconvincing. "What you said? What you asked me? What I said?"
"Yes, yes, and yes." He stood beside the tub, grinning down at her,
adding, "Mrs. Lachlan." Then he began to sing "That's Just Love
Sneakin' up on You."
He had a scrumptious speaking voice, deep and caressing and seductive.
His singing voice was also baritone—and that was all that
could
be said for it.
He sounded, in brief, remarkably like a constipated rhino.
Holly pressed her hands over her ears. "Mercy! I'll do
anything—just stop!"
"Anything?" he leered.
"Oh, shut up and get in the bath." When he had settled in behind her,
she leaned back comfortably and asked, "So did you finally get Ramirez?
"
"Not yet, dammit—but I collared Phippen." He filled her in on
recent events—although she knew the recital was truncated. He
didn't like describing the sordid parts of his work: protecting her,
and the place they had together, as if the first week she'd known him
she hadn't seen pretty much the worst of his world's viciousness.
The corpse of the not-so-Protected Witness was two days old. Whatever
blood had been in the body had drained hours ago from countless stab
wounds. Holly wasn't sick and she didn't faint—but she did
sway a
little as she watched Evan prowled the site. A few minutes later an
NYPD officer found the second corpse. And the third. Each had been
carved up ad hideously ad the first.
"Officer Stradling, take Ms. McClure home. "
"I'm all right, Evan, I— "
"Take her home."
Direct order. No arguments allowed. He hadn't even spoken to
her—merely commanded a subordinate from the NYPD. She felt
her
temper begin to ignite, then saw the expression in his hazel eyes. His
was a powerful personality, he was as arrogant as the day was long, and
he could dominate just about anyone he chose to—but his
command
to the officer had nothing to do with that. He wanted to keep her out
of this. She was unconnected to his work, untouched by all the blood
and greed and rage and evil And that was how he wanted it. Suddenly she
understood something very important about him. He was a man in search
of a haven from the tense darkness that sometimes haunted this work.
"Ms. McClure?"A tentative voice, but one that obeyed. She couldn't
imagine anyone disobeying Evan when his eyes were dark and hard and
cold like this. Not even she would dare. "Ms. McClure." More
insistently; he had to follow orders. By extension, so did she. Well,
they'd see about that—but not here, not now.
"It's all right, Officer. Please don't trouble yourself. I can take a
cab." She waited another moment, but Evan didn't look at her. She spoke
hid name, and he half turned, and she said, "Call me tonight when you
get home. "A command of her own, and he knew it. The heavy brows
descended, and hid lips compressed for an instant—a look that
snapped, Shut up and do as you're told, woman. But then he studied her,
speculating, evaluating. As he ran his fingers back through his hair
she realized exactly what it was she wad offering him,
Anything he wanted. Anything he needed. Anything.
Her own helplessness scared her. It was as sudden as lightning, the
change he wrought in her—sudden, natural, a force of nature.
And
she felt herself falling for him, right then and there at the grisly
scene of a triple homicide.
"Okay," he said at last, nodding slowly, a tiny smile touching the
corners of his mouth. An I'll-get-you-into-bed-yet-lady smile, but with
something more in his eyes. Gratitude, perhaps; curiosity; hope. She
wasn't the only one falling. He just didn't know it yet.
It had been her first experience of his work, though not her last. He
still tended to shelter her from it, but his instincts required a
sounding board, just as his emotions demanded a release and his heart
and mind needed a refuge. She was never any real help—her
genres
were biography and historical novel, and she couldn't have written a
mystery or police procedural to save her own life — but he
never
expected any suggestions. The most she ever contributed were questions
that sometimes clarified things for him.
So she lazed in the tub with him, hot scented -water moving gently in
time with their breathing, and listened while he talked about the cases
on his desk — pissed off about some, pleased with the
progress of
others.
"There's one other thing," he said at last—slowly,
reluctantly.
"I have to go talk to my old man today. Yeah, I know, rotten timing.
But I have to go."
"Want me to come with?"
"No. I mean, yes, but—"
"But no. It's okay. I still have to unpack, and get poor old Mugger out
of hock at my neighbor's."
"It's just—I have to tell him about some stuff."
She heard something in his voice now that made her sit up and turn
around, wanting to see his face. There was something haunted and hollow
about his eyes that she hadn't expected.
"Not us," he went on, trying to smile. "I want you there with me when I
tell him and Maggie. I'm not goin' through that by myself!"
What bad he gone through by himself that had put this look into his
eyes? "Evan, what happened?"
His reluctance was almost palpable. "There was this trial. Did I tell
you anything about that priest, Father Matthew?"
Before she'd left for Europe he'd canceled on her signing weekend in
D.C. to concentrate on a current trial. "Kidnapping and rape, wasn't
it? A young girl?"
"Bradshaw granted a plea bargain yesterday." A brief, bitter laugh.
"'Bargain' is right. I guess I better start at the beginning. I wasn't
quite thirteen -when Father Matthew came to the parish. Wednesday
afternoons the altar boys did clean-up around the
church—washing
the floor, gardening, sorting robes for the laundry. That sort of
stuff. I remember that day I was polishing this silver
crosier—really beautiful, about six foot high — I
was
wondering when I'd be as tall as it was. Everybody else had left, but I
wanted to finish even though it was getting late. I finally lugged it
back to the sacristy—the thing weighed a ton.
"And there was Father Matthew over in the corner, goin' at it with some
woman. She's bent over the linen chest and he's doin' her from behind.
He was one of those priests who liked the attention he got wearin' a
cassock, like he was always just off the plane from Rome or somethin',
and it's hiked up over his ass just like the woman's skirt was hiked up
over hers. It was a white dress, -with purple flowers —"I
dropped
the crosier — I just sort of went numb all over. They didn't
even
hear it. But Father Matthew must've found it later, and figured out
somebody'd seen. At Sunday Mass he kept lookin' all of us altar boys. I
gave it away, of course. So that next Wednesday he calls me into his
office. There was a lot of crap about a counseling session gettin' out
of hand, even priests are human, he'd confess and repent and be
forgiven, that was the beauty of our faith. And if I ever said a word,
who would people believe—a kid or a priest of the Holy Roman
Catholic Church?
"I never told anybody," Evan went on. "He was right—who'd
believe
it? But it was drivin' me crazy—the signs were all over the
place, now that I knew what to look for. Afternoons out on parish
business—yeah, right, takin' care of business with women
whose
husbands weren't home. The next year he transferred to another parish,
someplace upstate, I think. I guess he'd run through all the local
women and wanted fresh meat. And that was the last I heard of him until
this year.
"He finally picked somebody who wouldn't lie down—a
fifteen-year-old girl.
Plenty of women fall in love with their priests for one reason or
another, and he was clever at playing on that. But he's a lot older
now. What used to be easy tor him —well, the girl told him to
leave her alone or she'd take it all the way to the Pope, but he was
obsessed, and he snapped— at least that's what his lawyers
said.'
"What happened to the girl?" Holly asked quietly.
"He took her across the border to Canada, to some cabin a hundred miles
From nowhere. In the middle of fuckin' February. She got away after a
couple of weeks,
and damned near died of exposure before a trucker saw her by the side
of the road.
"Anyway, Bradshaw drew the case. I usually don't pay much attention to
the particulars, as long as the research shows me there's nobody
involved who's likely to take a shot at him, but when I saw the name I
almost threw up." He was silent for a Few moments. Then: "If I'd said
something twenty-five years ago, that girl wouldn'tve gotten raped for
twelve days."
"Evan — "
"Let me finish. I told Bradshaw what I knew. But there wasn't any way
to work around the plea bargain. He lawyered up pretty expensive. And
the girl's parents don't want her put through any more. So they pled
him out.
“Dad called me the other day- wants me to explain in person.
All
the shit he heard on the news — " Again he shrugged. "1
wanted to
get it all out of the way before you came home, so I told Dad I'd be
over this afternoon. I could cancel — "
"No, you can't. Go. Ill be here when you get back."
"Now, that's gotta be the nicest thing I've heard in three weeks."
Taking her cue from his deliberately lighter tone, she said, "Of
course, I'll probably be in no mood to pay attention to you. I haven't
watched Gladiator in forever and I need my Russell Crowe fix."
He pulled a face. "What do women see in that guy?"
Oh, yeah — she'd picked just the right thing to say. As she
got
out of the tub and reached for a towel, she replied, "Not much. He's
just the dictionary definition of' gorgeous,' is all."
"And I'm not?" he demanded, pretending to be hurt.
She left off rubbing her hair dry long enough to peer at him from under
the towel. "Hey, do I complain when you ogle those Baywatch girls?"
With great and injured dignity he announced, "I. Do. Not. Ogle."
"You positively drool when that Pamela person bounces across the
screen."
"I don't 'drool,' either. Anyway, it's different," he said with that
air of genetic masculine superiority that punched every button she
possessed. "Guys look at girls. We can't help it."
"No shit, Sherlock! I got news for you —girls look at guys,
too.
And we can't help it any more than you can.'"Yeah, but there's a
difference,' he insisted stubbornly. "There's babes, and chicks, and
girls, and women—and then there's ladies."
"Aw, gee, let me guess — in descending order of breast size."
Holly turned and let the towel drop. She reached down to rumple his
hair. "What do you want for dinner when you get home?"
"Anything, as long as you don't cook it."
****
AFTER HE WAS GONE —TAKING with him the wool scarf
in the
Lachlan sett she'd picked up in Dublin for his father (she wanted to
soften him up) —she unpacked. Then she sorted presents, among
them three huge books on the collections of the Uffizi, the Pitti, and
the Vatican for Evan, just as he'd asked. One of these days, she mused,
she'd lake him to every major museum in Europe. She could just see him
wandering in a wide-eyed, glutted daze around the Prado, the Louvre. .
. .
Eventually she sought the deeply soothing anarchy of her office. She
sat at the computer, intending to read e-mail—but somehow
couldn't make her fingers type the password. Instead, she picked up the
phone and punched in a number.
A half-hour later, shaken and furious and sickened, she called up a
manuscript template on the computer and started writing.
It was nearly three in the afternoon before she finished. She could
barely shift her shoulders, her feet were almost numb, and the small of
her back ached ferociously. Experience told her not to move too
suddenly or too soon; circulation had to he restored first. So she
leaned slowly back in her chair, flexed her neck warily, and tried to
tell herself she'd dumped all her anger into the story.
Not quite all.
How could a man who probed other people's lives and analyzed
—
anticipated — their actions know so little about his own
heart?
But: was it any wonder he'd been scared to look? Abused children were
shrewdly observant from an early age. For Evan, a child's terror of
examining a revered father's failings had transmuted into a man's (ear
of turning those instinctive skills of analysis on himself. Afraid,
without even knowing it, of what he might find inside.
Holly's own past held no darknesses even remotely comparable. She'd
been too young when her parents died to remember them; grief was
something learned as she grew older and understood what had happened.
For the rest-Aunt Lulah had raised her in the old farmhouse in the
foothills of the Blue Ridge, ten miles outside a town where whole years
could go by without Cousin Jesse —Sheriff
McNichol—dealing
with anything more serious than weekend rowdies and Old Man McCraw's
deer hunting off-season.
Evan's life should have seemed utterly alien to her. And yet she
understood.
Perhaps because it was him; probably because she had spent her
childhood imagining, and her adulthood creating, worlds and people and
events completely removed from rural Virginia. Imagining was her
job—though she would have given much to be unable to imagine
this.
It should have ripped him apart long ago.
You were supposed to love your mother. Even if you were scared of her,
even if she was a drunk who spread her legs for any man -who'd have
her, including the parish priest—you weren't supposed to hate
her. It was forbidden. Evil.
And your father—you could -worship him, you had to worship
him,
because if he wasn't one-step-from-God-perfect, then it meant that he
cared so little about his own kids (about you) that he wouldn't do
anything—
Holly shook her head, regretting it as neck muscles twinged. She needed
to distance herself from an acute need to vent her rage on the only
object left alive who deserved it: Daniel Patrick Lachlan. She knew
she'd have to meet him soon. Before then, she'd have to bury her anger
deep and forget where she put the shovel. Evan would scarcely
appreciate it if his fiancée belted his father a good one in
the
jaw.
Nine
EVAN GOT BACK TO HOLLY'S at five, sodden with exhaustion.
Although
visits to his father's house usually did that to him, this had been
almost as bad as the night his mother died. Using his key, he let
himself into the foyer and yelled for Holly.
No answer.
She wasn't in the living room, Show-Office, or real office. She was
sprawled across the bed, sound asleep. He leaned over, kissed her
forehead lightly, and settled onto the chaise where he could watch over
her.
After a while, during which he dozed a bit, he became aware that she
was looking him over. "Everything's right where you left it," he said.
"It better be. How's your father? Everything all right?"
"Yeah. He still drinks too much, but the doctors say he's got a
cast-iron liver." He paused. "Y'know, it's been ten years, but he still
misses Mom. I guess they loved each other in their way. It's just not
any way I ever understood."
"You're a completely different person."
"I'm a combination of them both. That's DNA, babe."
She was quiet for a moment, then leaned over and switched on the
bedside lamp. "My father didn't look anything like his own father, but
the minute I saw that photo of great-grandfather McClure, it was Papa
down to the cleft chin. Things skip generations, Evan. Character traits
as well as looks."
"Let's hope our kids skip my parents' generation completely."
"Umm . .. speaking of kids. ..." Holly pulled in a deep breath. "Okay,
here's the deal. I'm thirty-six. I can't give you a dozen children. If
you want more than a couple, you'll have to find yourself some
twenty-three-year-old."
"Did I say I wanted a dozen kids? Or a twenty-three-year-old? One boy,
one girl—that's my idea of a perfect family."
She exhaled in relief. "Not that I really thought you'd keep me
barefoot and pregnant until my ovaries give out, but you never can tell
with people sometimes. Are we going to decide their names now, too?"
"You name the girl, I'll name the boy."
"Fair enough. Speaking of names —I hope you don't mind too
much, but professionally I have to keep McClure."
"I know. It's okay. That's just good business." He shot her a sideways
smile. "God forbid your books should stop selling because nobody can
find em."
"I have to stay McClure in legal matters, too. Everybody can call me
'Mrs. Lachlan'—I just won't be Holly Lachlan
officially—I
mean, I'll be Holly McClure Lachlan, but—oh, damn, this isn't
coming out right."
"You bet it ain't," he said through his teeth. "My wife will have my
name. And so will my kids. I don't care what you call yourself on your
book covers, but you damned well better sign your name 'Lachlan'
everywhere else or —
"Or what? Evan, be reasonable. Everything is in my name. I get paid in
my name. I get taxed in my name. Changing it all over to
'Lachlan'—"
" — is exactly what you're gonna do. Don't you have a lawyer
for that kind of stuff? Make him earn his retainer."
"He's a she, and that's not the point. My agent also has legal things
to deal with. And he said long ago that unless there's a pre-nup, he'll
fire me as a client.'
"You want me to sign some goddamned paper that says I won't rip you off
if we get divorced?"
"I'm perfectly aware that you'd rather have some waitress or secretary
who makes half what you do, but that's not the way things are."
"You sayin' I should be grateful you don't need me for a meal ticket?"
"I'm saying shut up while I explain. I have stocks. I have property. I
have a literary estate that'll go on earning money for my heirs for
seventy-five years after I'm dead. All the pre-nup says is that what's
mine is my kids'.'
He frowned, still suspicious. "Nothin' about payin' me off, or if we
stay married for at least five years and then get divorced I get more
money? "
"Hell, no!" she said indignantly. "You make a good living—you
can
damned well support yourself, Lachlan. I'm not paying you a goddamned
dime in alimony."
"Just so it's clear I don't want your fucking money."
"My hero," she snapped. "Don't do me any favors."
They glared at each other for a few more seconds—until Holly
gave
an unladylike snort. "This is perfect. We're not even married yet and
we're arguing about the divorce."
Grudgingly he admitted, "I just didn't think getting married would be
so complicated. And that reminds me—how big is this shindig
gonna
be? Are you gonna go all formal on me? Big gown, a hundred yards of
train, all like that?
"You're just scared I'll make you dress up in a morning coat."
"Careful, lady, or I'll show up in a ruffled purple shirt and a Lachlan
hunting-plaid jacket."
"Don't be silly. You're much too vain not to want to look shatteringly
gorgeous on your wedding day."
Rising, she grabbed clothes, and he grinned at the hip-twist it took
her' to get into tight jeans. "Now I know where all that Italian food
went."
"It's only three pounds—okay, five. And stop acting so damned
superior-we've both got big Irish butts. You do this same thing, I've
watched you."
"Yeah, but it's cuter when you do it." He rose, crossed lazily to her,
and placed his hands around her ass, pulling her against him. "And I
happen to like your Irish butt."
"We could go psychotically ethnic with the wedding, y'know," she
laughed. "Harp, shamrocks, green beer and soda bread at the reception
— "
"Dress up a few cousins as leprechauns instead of flower girls
— "
"I draw the line at corned beef for three hundred of our nearest and
dearest."
"I thought you wanted small," he began, then realized what she was
really saying. "You're — Holly, you're not payin' for this."
"Bride's side always does. I'm the bride." She gave a start. "I'm the
bride. Tell you what—you buy the honeymoon."
"Ireland? Hawaii?" He grinned. "Hershey, Pennsylvania?"
"I tell you here and now, Lachlan, you want a Hawaiian honeymoon,
you'll spend it alone. After one day I'd be burned to a crisp
— "
"Hey, I think you'd look cute with freckles all over your ass."
"O light of my eyes and pulse of my heart, what part of 'I'm not going
to Hawaii' are you not understanding?"
"Okay, okay. No Hawaii." He sighed, as if regretting the thousands it
would've cost him. "Maybe we should go someplace you've never been.
Someplace just for us." When she nodded, he asked, "So where haven't
you been?"
She thought for a while. "Antarctica."
"Oh, terrific. Just you and me and the penguins, freezin' our asses
off."
"I didn't say I want to go there, just that I've never been."
With vast patience, he asked, "So where d'you want to go?" Praying it
wouldn't be someplace outrageously expensive. It hit him then, tor the
first time, that he didn't have to worry about it. Ever again. He was
marrying Money.
No, he told himself firmly, he was marrying Holly. Who happened to have
money. And who evidently believed in Whats mine is yours and what's
yours is mine. Which was nice, but would have been better if what was
his didn't fall so far short of what was hers —
"Charleston," she said suddenly. "It's close, it's beautiful, it's
romantic — all those big old antebellum
mansions—and the
food's fantastic. Ah'm a Suthanah, honey-lamb," she drawled with a
grin. "Even though Ah am marryin' a Yankee.
"Mansions," he said, and shook his head. "You want to go on a honeymoon
to look at mansions"
"Some of them are bed-and-breakfasts now."
"That's more like it. Tell me about the 'bed' part."
"How about a four-poster, the kind you need a step-ladder to climb
into? No, really, Evan, the houses are gorgeous. Miles of lawn, Spanish
moss dripping from the oaks, us guzzling mint juleps on the
balcony—" She stopped, seeing his expression. "You've never
had a
julep? That's immoral! And you fixin' to marry a Virginian! That
settles it. We absolutely have to go South on our honeymoon."
"Because you want to play Scarlett O'Hara. Okay, Charleston it is." He
paused for effect. "But—frankly, my dear, I don't give a
damn."
Holly buried her face in her hands and groaned. Shamelessly satisfied
with himself, he ambled into the kitchen to see what there might be to
eat. He was just putting eggs back in the fridge when Holly spoke
behind him.
"Are you going to tell me why visiting your father upset you so much?"
He swung around, nearly dropping the carton. His instinctive reaction
was to snarl that it was none of her damned business. The part of him
that already felt married made him bite his tongue. After a moment he
shrugged.
"Happens whenever I go over there. Every so often I see my old man in
the mirror. And sometimes it scares the crap out of me. Mostly I don't
mind. He was a good cop. An honest cop. I think what defeated him -was
the heart attack, when he couldn't -work anymore. His job was his whole
life. Even with a wife and kids to come home to—but we didn't
see
much of him. We weren't even half his life."
"We all only have so much to give to anything," she said thoughtfully.
"There've been times when I gave it all to my work—for years
at a
stretch, in fact." She tapped a finger on his wrist. "But in case you
need reminding, you've got me to come home to. I stake my claim to half
your life."
"'Hold Fast'?" He smiled whimsically.
"You got it, lover-man."
Gratitude stung his eyes, the back of his throat. He turned his face
from her before she could see his expression. "Anybody call while I was
out?"
"Pete." Holly gathered up plates and silver, taking them around to the
sink. "Very apologetic, but Elias needs your notes on the Croft case
Monday morning."
"That son of a bitch! Croft, not Elias—no, Elias, too."
"Sometimes I'm not especially fond of His Honor, either," she admitted.
"But I'd like to invite him and Susannah over to dinner one of these
days. It'd be nice if we could all hold a polite, civilized
conversation over Isabella's pot roast."
"I'm always perfectly polite."
"Yeah, and Elvis is gonna sing at our wedding. Come on, Evan."
"Okay, okay," he groused. "Jesus, Holly, you're already starting to
sound like a wife."
She made a face at him. "Who's Croft?"
"Insider trading. He thinks he's gonna get three years in Club Fed to
work on his tennis game. The only time I really like Bradshaw is when
he's handing down a sentence."
Holly's lips twisted wryly. "I've heard he's good at that."
He worked for an hour, formalizing and saving his scribbled notes, then
sat back, gazing idly at the icons on her desktop. Schedules, tax
records, calendar, research, rough drafts of books, short stories,
articles—he and she were alike in that they simultaneously
juggled seven or eight projects in the normal course of things. There
were a couple of unfamiliar icons that must be new projects —
including one titled Evan. He opened it, thinking it was a
note—she did that sometimes, wrote him letters which she then
e-mailed to the office or his apartment. The ones that arrived at work
were invariably erotic — Holly's idea of fun, the sadistic
bitch.
Evan was not a letter. It was a short story. He couldn't help but read,
and with the first sentence his heart started thudding with sick dread.
It was between Hallowe'en and his birthday that the photographs changed.
Twelve-year-old boy pretending to be a pirate: bootblack for a beard,
his mothers gold hoop earring screwed precariously to one lobe, rubber
knife in his belt, blue bandanna wrapping the mop of thick dark hair.
His pose was comically fierce, laughing, excited, a party coming up
tonight with girls—his first real party, though strictly
chaperoned. He was very young, and trying to be older; the last of
boyhood was soft in hid face, with hints in his eyes of the man he
would become. And a worthy manhood it would be: the face held a promise
of great strength and greater tenderness that lacked only the learning
years of adolescence to become self-knowledge and perhaps even wisdom.
But at thirteen, mere weeks later, he didn't have to try to look older.
His face was thinner, his jaw longer, the round softness of childhood
gone—and too quickly, much too quickly for the days
separating
that Hallowe'en from his birthday. All the laughter had vanished,
though the tenderness of the mouth lingered—but it was a
wounded
tenderness now. He was older than those scant weeks should account for,
but without wisdom, without real knowledge of self. Those required
time, and the years that should have separated this grim boy from the
grinning pirate had been denied him. He had been forced into growing
older.
Defiance and shame and guilt in equal, self-bewildering measure squared
his bony shoulders, and his face was solemn and constrained as he stood
beside the priest after confirmation of his faith. The faith he no
longer had. The faith this very priest had shattered.
****
AT AROUND TEN SHE CAME into the office, dressed in a white
nightgown that went from her throat to the floor and would've made her
look like a nun if the material hadn't been so flimsy. Over it she had
thrown a blue crocheted shawl. His gaze ran over her, taking inventory
from clean-scrubbed face to bare feet and pale pink toenail polish. He
had done this from the first minute he set eyes on her: catalogue what
she wore, appreciate how good it looked, and estimate how quickly he
could get it off her. But as instinctive as the once-over was, it
seemed removed from reality.
He'd finished reading the story long since, shut down the machine, and
had been staring at the swirls of the amber Witch sphere in the window.
Now he stared at her instead, without an idea in the world of what he
could say.
What was past was past. The only reality that could stand between him
and it was standing right in front of him.
"How did you know? " he demanded suddenly. "How'd you know what it was
like—when I saw them —" He bit back the rest,
revulsion
roiling in his belly just as it had then.
"I didn't know," she replied, so calmly that his temper flashed. "I
phoned Susannah and she told me the basics. It's my job to imagine
— "
He glared, a spark away from full fury. "My life just became part of
your job?"
"I was angry. When I get that way, I write. It's how I work things out."
"You're not publishing this," he warned.
"Of course not!" she exclaimed. "What do you take me for?"
"Okay, then." He relaxed a little.
"Don't you want to know why I was so angry?" she asked softly.
He knew. "I didn't tell you about it because — "
"If you say it wasn't important, I'll shove the words right back down
your throat." She was looking at him as if he was lower on the
evolutionary scale than something that deserved to go splat on the
windshield of her BMW.
"So I didn't tell you," he said, shrugging. "So fuckin' what?"
"And to think you nearly dumped me for not telling you what I do for a
living."
"This is different."
"Educate me."
With ice to match hers, he said, "I'm not sorry I didn't tell you. You
weren't even here to talk to — " He shoved aside the memory
of
wanting her beside him so bad he could hardly think. She had her work,
it wasn't fair for him to interfere in it because he couldn't handle
what was going on with his work—But he heard himself repeat
the
accusation: "You weren't even here."
"For which I am sorry," she said, her voice softening a little. "I just
need to understand how you hid it from me so well. Why you felt you had
to hide it." Only then did he see pain in her eyes. "I need to know,"
she finished in a whisper, "how I can love you this much and not know
this was going on inside you."
He wanted to get angry. Yell at her. Demand to know why the hell she'd
been gone when he—when he needed her? Needed her?
No, that wasn't it. What he wanted was to stop talking about this and
walk out. But he couldn't. Lachlan drew in a deep breath and spoke to
his hands. "Everything you wrote in that story—I still don't
see
how you could know so much. Right after it happened I worked so damned
hard not to think about it — to forget what I
saw—just like
you wrote. I got real good at keepin' it from myself. Doesn't surprise
me that I could hide it from you." He shrugged that off. "Every time
she wore the dress she'd been wearin' that day I wanted to throw up.
Maggie and I picked it out for her birthday that April. It had purple
flowers, and green leaves and stems — I never saw her face
that
day, but I knew that dress. She was still wearing it that evening when
my dad came home from work."
"He never knew."
"Never. My mother was a saint, y'know," he continued acidly. "Mass
three times a week, six parish committees — the perfect wife
and
mother. How could I tell my dad? He had enough to carry, without that
added to it."
"So you carried it for him. All these years."
"She's dead. What does it matter?" Then: "And what if I hadn't found
the story? Would you have told me what you know?"
"No," she answered bluntly. "And that's not right, Evan. Telling you
what I am —that was an accident. I've kept it to myself for
so
long—but I guess that deep down I trusted you, so I made the
slip. Accidentally on purpose. If we're going to have any kind of life
with each other, the trust has to be out in the open."
He nodded slowly. "Yeah. I see what you mean. But I still don't
understand how you could know so much. It's almost as if you'd been
there, watched it all happen — "
She pursed her lips, head tilting slightly to one side. "I never knew
the boy you were, but I know the man you've become. I traced things
back. And I've seen the pictures, remember. I've always seen things in
that boy's eyes. How he changed. That's why I used the device of the
photographs to structure the story."
"It's good work," he admitted, "even if it's about me. Why can't I find
the words, like you do? Talkin' to my old man today—nothing
came
out right, I couldn't explain so he'd believe me —not that I
said
anything about Mom—but he just kept shakin' his head
—" He
snorted. "You'd think that after all that child-abuse all over the
goddamned country, he'd get the idea that a halo doesn't automatically
come with the collar. But he kept sayin' that no priest of the Holy
Roman Catholic Church—" He choked on it, but made himself go
on.
"He wanted to know why I didn't say anything back then. As if he woulda
believed me! Not then, and not now—"
"I know, love," she said softly. "There was no one, then."
"What could he have done? Nothin'." He heard himself make the old
excuse, and for the first time knew it -was an excuse. "Oh, God, why
didn't I tell somebody? Anybody—all the women after my
mother,
and that girl chained up in that cabin—none of it would've
happened—"
Holly wrapped him in her arms, and he hid his face between her breasts
and held on for all he was worth. Real. She was real—
"There was no one, Evan. You were a child. All the power was on the
priest's side."
He felt the cobwebby fineness of the shawl against his face, and the
warmth of Holly beneath, and the strong steady beating of her heart. He
managed a couple of unshaken breaths. She -was here. She -was real.
He'd been wrong not to come to her with this—but he was so
used
to there being no one. He couldn't remember ever having sat like this,
with loving arms around him and gentle hands soothing him, surrounded
by warmth and tenderness and the scents of clean skin and subtle
perfume. Patricia Lachlan had smelled of cheap gin and stale cigarette
smoke, and when she held onto him it had only been to get a better grip
that left bruises —
He shied back, for those memories had no right to exist here, not in
this place that Holly had somehow created for him.
"Tell me the rest, love," Holly murmured.
He didn't question how she knew there was more. But it seemed her gift
for words had rubbed off a little. He found some of the right ones,
anyway, to explain -what Patricia Lachlan had done to her children.
Holly made no sound, didn't move at all—she was barely
breathing
that he could tell. It was as if he'd put her into an iron box with his
words, and he hated that what he said imprisoned her like
this—but he had to say it.
"I was first-born. She spent years tryin' to make me into her idea of
perfection and it wasn't working—obviously—not even
when
she put me into private school. They put a regulation blazer on me and
taught me French verbs, but they couldn't change a damned thing about
who I really am. The mistake sittin' at the dinner table. I was,
y'know. I'm the reason she and Dad had to get married.
"One day—I musta been about twelve—I got back from
softball
and Mom was passed out on the couch. Maggie was hiding in the hall
closet. She stank of gin—Mom had thrown a bottle at her and
it
broke — I told Dad when he got home, and he drove us over to
Granna Maureen's for the weekend. She never knew—Mom didn't
like
her, thought she was low-class with her Irish accent — and
they
lived in Jersey, so we never saw them much when I was little. It wasn't
until I was old enough to take the train by myself that I could go
visit as much as I wanted.
"Anyway, when he came to take us home he said it was an accident, and
that was that." He paused, shaking his head. "She knew I'd told on her
and first chance she had, she took it out of my hide." He felt Holly
flinch, and hurriedly said, "It only happened that once. I was growin'
real fast, and before long I was taller than she was. Skinny, though
— " He gave a little shrug and tried to smile. "If you can
believe it."
She brushed the hair from his forehead. Her voice was soft, even, calm.
"I've seen the pictures—all big eyes and raw bones. Who
would've
guessed you'd grow up beautiful?"
"Not too long after, she raised her hand to Maggie and I grabbed her
arm and told her that if she even Looked like she was gonna hit her
again, I'd show her what it felt like." He stopped, staring into
Holly's eyes as if he'd suddenly glimpsed an answer there. "She never
hit us again. We both got out as soon as we could."
"And it was over," Holly murmured. "Except it wasn't over."
"No. My dad—he about fell apart when she died. He always
believed
her — how could he not believe her? But how could he not have
seen?" It burst out of him for the first time, without
warning—everything that had been festering for years, the
horror
and the betrayal and the hatred. And the ugliness inside him, the
cowardice. He raised his head, and she looked down into his eyes. "I
missed you," he said, his voice raw, trembling a little. "You'll never
know how much."
One finger stroked his brows. "I'm here now, a chuisle. I always will
be."
He couldn't talk any more then, not for a long time. Holly held him,
giving him a place to rest. There was comfort in trusting her; peace in
knowing she loved him; safety in the sureness that she would be here
whenever he needed her.
It was her fault that all the old poison had welled up. Those words in
the story were hers. Yet as she'd taken him through the story of
himself, yet not completely himself, it was like reading her other
work: she got you inside a person's skin, made you feel and understand
and come out the other side along with the character. Separate from
that person, no matter how similar your lives were; but connected to
that person, too, no matter how different your lives were.
At last Holly spoke again, very softly. "Your father didn't want to
see. Nobody could force him to open his eyes. You
couldn't—you
were so young — Evan, what if you'd told him and he hadn't
done
anything to stop it? You would've lost him, too, the love you felt for
him. You couldn't risk it."
"Coward — " he managed, and tried to pull away, but she held
him fast.
"Never. You can't blame yourself. It wasn't your fault, not any of it.
Do you see that?"
He nodded slowly, too exhausted to speak. He waited tor his heartbeats
to calm down before drawing back a little. This time she let him go.
"Holly, I know I gotta stop blamin' myself —" He clamped his
jaw
shut around the rest of the words, things he'd learned to say when
anyone got too close to his truths. Holly didn't deserve the kind of
glib lies he told other people.
"You don't believe that. You never have and I doubt you ever will." Her
fingers touched his face, stroking away tears he hadn't known were
there.
And then he saw it. "My God—when I stood up to
her—it was
only a few days after I saw her with Father Matthew —I
thought 1
shouted her down because 1 was scared—that I just couldn't
take
any more— "
"Evan, look back at that boy. He told her 'no,' and stared her down,
and — look at yourself! See who you are, the man you've
become.
There's not a cowardly bone in your body—not then, not now.
Not
ever."
In her eyes was everything he'd ever wanted to see in a woman's eyes
— and even more, things he'd never known how to want. Most
astonishing of all was her fierce willingness to do battle with any
demons that might threaten him. No one had ever fought for him before.
She hesitated, then told him, "This ring you re giving me —
it had better not be your mother's."
He didn't know why, but somehow it was the perfect thing to say. He
felt a smile touch a corner of his mouth — it felt like
forever
since he'd smiled. "Granna Maureen's."
Holly nodded. Then: "Evan, would you do something tor me? "
"Sure. What?"
He followed her into her bedroom. From the little corner table she
brought out a gold cord and nine small votive candles, and a vial of
fragrant oil. This she used to anoint the candles, one drop on each. A
long fireplace match was lit and handed to him. He knelt beside her.
"Cousin Jesse taught me this when I was about twelve," she said. "Light
one of the candles after I make each knot."
First begins, Second proclaims;
Third casts, Fourth tames;
Fifth refines, Sixth strengthens;
Seventh anneals, Eighth lengthens;
Ninth Seals.
Holly coiled the cord around the grouped candles, which now gave off a
scent of apples. "Magic," she murmured. "For me," he said softly. "Only
tor you."
Ten
LACHLAN CAUGHT UP WITH HOLLY in the foyer just as she was reaching to
open the front door. "Showtime,' he told her, then winked.
The doorbell sounded again just as she turned the knob. A moment later
an overabundance of yellow roses appeared above two pairs of legs in
Levi's.
"I never sing for my supper," said Bradshaw from somewhere behind the
roses.
"For which we are all profoundly grateful." Susannah added at his side.
"They're beautiful!" Holly wrapped both arms around the bouquet and
buried her face in the flowers. "Thank you!"
"I told him white are your favorites," Susannah said. "But he insisted
on yellow."
"My grandfather had a credo," he explained. "Yellow for redheads, white
for blondes, pink for brunettes. Red only for extremely special
occasions."
Susannah blushed becomingly. Holly grinned. Lachlan wondered what I he
joke was, then shrugged it: off.
"My father," Bradshaw went on, "had another excellent piece of advice
when it came to women. Whenever you give her something, tell her you
chose it: because it would look good on her. Never that she would look
good in it. Always imply that the item is singularly improved by being
in her possession." He smiled at Holly. "So—yellow for
redheads,
but this shade of yellow because it looks great on you."
Lachlan tipped him a salute. "I'll remember that, Your Honor," he said,
thinking that a dozen roses would've been a polite guest-gift, but two
dozen could be considered excessive. I've never given her flowers, even
on her birthday. Didn't even know she liked white roses. Okay, another
note for the engagement dinner: great restaurant, candlelight, romance,
ring, while roses. The whole formal thing.
Tonight was casual. Thank God. It was his first time playing host, and
he'd told Holly that the dress code had better be Levi's or else.
Susannah had topped her jeans with a short-sleeved pink print blouse;
Elias wore a Harvard baseball jersey; Holly had chosen a green tank
top. Lachlan was actually the most formal of them all in a crisp blue
shirt—though open at the neck and with the sleeves rolled up.
"We have something for the host, too, Evan," Susannah said, presenting
him with a plain blue bag exuding silver tissue paper.
He gave a start, then frowned at her. "It bites, right?"
"Just open it."
Gingerly he stuck a hand into the bag, and pulled out something made of
heavy cloth. Unfolded, it proved to be a spotless white chef's apron
with words on it in bright red:
Women want me
Martha Stewart fears me
"And you don't even work for the SEC,' Susannah drawled.
"Whatever happened to 'Kiss the Chef?" Lachlan complained.
"Oh, I can do that, too," Susannah told him, and brushed his cheek with
her lips.
"Down, girl," Bradshaw admonished. "He's took."
"Shows, huh?" Lachlan asked ruefully.
"Four-color neon, right across your forehead."
Holly snorted. "If it was about three feet lower down, it might do some
good. Evan, pour us something to drink while I put these in water." And
she vanished down the hall into the kitchen.
He kicked himself mentally. Some host. As they went into the living
room, he tried not to act as nervous as he felt and asked, "Scotch and
tequila, right?"
"Thanks, Evan." Susannah perched on a bar stool and beamed at him. For
a minute, as he poured liquor and added ice—these weren't
Alec's
special glasses—he wondered if she knew. But Holly had told
no
one, not even Aunt Lulah. Neither had Lachlan. He was stubborn about
wanting to wait until he'd given her the ring.
"I like the apron," he told Susannah. "Really."
"Uh-huh."
"Beautiful place," Bradshaw remarked, wandering around the living room.
"But I thought all these co-ops had balconies."
Susannah shook her head. "Holly's afraid of heights. She can't even
climb a ladder."
"I can't even stand on a step-stool," Holly added, coming into the room
with a huge crystal vase overflowing with roses. She set it on the
coffee table, came to sit beside Susannah at the bar, and smiled at
Lachlan. "Where's my stoli, bartender?"
"Comin' right up." He poured, and Bradshaw joined them, and they lifted
their glasses in a silent toast.
Silent—until Susannah said, "So have you set a date yet?"
Evan traded a startled glance with his intended. "How the hell
— ?"
"I don't know!" Holly wailed. "I didn't tell her, honest!"
Susannah smiled like a cat who'd gotten the canary, a can of salmon,
and a bowl of cream for dessert.
"Date?" Bradshaw asked, then tumbled to it. A grin spread across his
face and he raised his glass. "Mazeltov!"
"How'dyou know?" Holly demanded of her friend.
"If you insist on keeping secrets from someone who's known you almost
twenty years," Susannah replied serenely, "you shouldn't have the May
issue of Brides magazine in your briefcase when you meet that person
for lunch." She downed her tequila and held out her glass for more. "So
what am I wearing?"
" 'Wearing'?" Holly echoed blankly.
"I introduced you. I get to be a bridesmaid, don't I?"
"Best Woman," Holly answered.
"I like it," Susannah approved. "So what am I wearing?"
"A taffeta hoop skirt in the Clan McLeod tartan."
"Marshal, if they're going to discuss weddings," Bradshaw said firmly,
"we're going to go watch the game. Where's the TV?"
"Elias!" Susannah exclaimed.
"Oh, let them go," Holly shrugged. "Well pretend we're domesticated and
go putter in the kitchen like we know what we're doing." With a brief
caress to Lachlan's hand, she finished, "We'll yell when dinner's
ready."
It was a little strange to be sitting on the big suede sofa drinking
Scotch and watching a basketball game with Elias Bradshaw. But if
things continued as it looked like they would for Elias and Susannah,
there'd be plenty more evenings like this. It felt very . . . married:
the women in the kitchen and the men watching the game. Truth be told,
he liked it. He just wondered if he'd ever like Bradshaw.
"Good call, Marshal," Elias said as a commercial came on. He wasn't
talking about the game.
"You called it first. Your Honor. 'Quite a catch,' I think you said."
Bradshaw took a long swallow of Scotch. "If you don't treat her right,
Susannah will come after you -with a machete."
He tried to picture it. "Wouldn't a pearl-handled switchblade be more
her style?"
"Huh. Don't let that delicate little face fool you. She's about as
subtle as a hydrogen bomb when she's pissed off."
"No wonder she and Holly get along so good."
"Yeah, they're quite a pair." Bradshaw contemplated his drink. "I'm not
sure how it happened, but I think we both got lucky."
"I know how it happened," Lachlan retorted. "They planned it."
Two minutes from the final buzzer, Susannah appeared in the doorway.
"Evan, Holly says come make yourself useful and open the wine.
Personally, I prefer a man who's more decorative than utilitarian, but
there's no accounting for taste."
Bradshaw shook his head. "You see what comes of educating women?"
"Uppity," Lachlan agreed. "I'll be there when the game's over."
"That's telling her,' Elias approved.
Susannah put her fists on her hips. "You want to eat before midnight?"
"If thats when the game ends, that's when well eat," Bradshaw replied.
She gave him a disgusted look. "Don't tell me—it's a guy
thing." Turning on her heel, she left the office.
Five minutes later, game over, TV off, and the scents of dinner drawing
them inexorably to the kitchen, Lachlan and Bradshaw found the women
guzzling vodka and tequila, seated at the breakfast bar gossiping about
former classmates. The men found themselves completely ignored.
"—hasn't seen the kid in months and he'll only be home for a
week
before college starts, but she tells him to go to his dad's because
it's Date Night. "
"Anybody who needs to get laid that bad ain't getting' laid that good,"
Holly declared.
Lachlan, seeing the blue gift bag on the sink counter, steeled himself.
Apron donned, he went to the fridge for the two bottles of wine he'd
bought for tonight, found the corkscrew, and performed his hostly duty.
Practice, he told himself, for the Friday night in July when they'd
take his father, sister, brother-in-law, nieces, and nephew out to
dinner, plus three aunts from Boston. Compared to them, Bradshaw and
Wingfield were a walk in the park.
"You know, of course," Elias said to Susannah, "that your fellow alumni
are still gossiping about you two. After that exhibition you gave them
last week — "
"It was a karaoke bar, Elias," Holly reminded him. Rising from the
breakfast bar, she took the string beans out of the microwave and
dumped them into a serving bowl. "We had to sing."
"And you bad to sing that song, right?"
Susannah smiled sweetly. "Would you have preferred 'Drop-Kick Me,
Jesus, through the Goal Posts of Life'?"
" 'The Vatican Rag,'" he retorted.
"How about 'Lawyers in Love'?" Holly enquired sweetly.
Lachlan, tilling an ice bucket from the freezer, bit his lip against a
grin and shot a glance at Holly. She winked at him as she transferred
Isabel's stuffed pork loin to a serving platter. "Behave yourself,
McClure," he chided.
On her way by with the platter, she bumped her hip into his. "That's
not what you said last night at about two in the morning."
He turned an accusing stare on Susannah. "You see what I gotta put up
with? And it's all your fault, too."
"Keep complaining, Evan—someday I might even buy into it.
Which
reminds me, Holly, you haven't thanked me yet for playing matchmaker."
"I don't recall hearing any heartfelt words of gratitude from you,
either." She took dinner in, calling back over her shoulder, "After
all, Lachlan was easy. With you and Elias, I accomplished the
impossible!"
That this was news to Evan must have been clear on his face. Bradshaw
grimaced and took himself and his empty glass back to the living room
bar.
Susannah made a face at his retreating back, then turned to Lachlan.
"She never told you? " He shook his head. As Holly came back in,
Susannah turned an accusing stare on her. "You never told him?"
"So I took you and Elias out to dinner. So sue me."
"Jesus Christ, woman, what's wrong with you?" Lachlan exclaimed. "Never
say that to a lawyer!"
Susannah leaned across the counter and rapped her knuckles on his
forehead. "Do you want to hear this or not? Last October third. She
knows it's Elias's birthday. I know it's Elias's birthday. Even Elias
knows it's Elias's birthday! She insists on taking us to dinner at
Chanterelle — "
"You didn't even say Happy Birthday to me," he complained. The first
bottle gave up its cork; he started in on the second, telling Susannah,
"And it doesn't sound like you've got anything to bitch about. All I
got was a hot dog."
"Didn't want to spoil you too soon," Holly shot back, and left with the
salad.
"Anyway," Susannah went on, "there we sit, drinking and waiting for
menus, while Holly blithers on and on and on, and Elias looks like
thunder — and all at once her cell-phone rings. It's her
publisher." She pretended to be holding a phone to her ear. Evan
reflected that to really do the sweet innocence bit right, the eyes had
to be blue. "'Walter? What's wrong?' She's quiet for a minute, then
gets this horrible frown on her face. 'Calm down. You'll live.' More
silence. Then the kicker—'Okay, I'll be there in twenty
minutes.
Hold the fort, pour your best Scotch, and tell 'em the one about the
new rabbi who didn't know what to do with the foreskin after a bris.'"
Evan choked. Walter had told him that one, and it was dreadful.
"She stuffs the phone in her purse. Sorry, major crisis, don't worry
about the check, have fun—and leaves before Elias or I could
get
a word in edgewise!"
"Devious," Lachlan observed, then added with a leer, "So did Elias have
a nice birthday?"
Susannah batted her eyelashes at him. "Let's just say he got his
present on his birthday—whereas you had to wait awhile."
"Jesus! Do you two tell each other everything?" When she just smiled,
he grimaced. Turning in the direction of the dining room, he bellowed,
"Holly Elizabeth McClure! Get your ass in here right now!"
"Go play with yourself, Lachlan!" she shouted back.
Susannah was whooping. "I love it! Evan Lachlan, Terror of the U.S.
Marshals Service—laid low by a mere woman!"
"First of all, she ain't no 'mere' anything. Second of all, I get laid
low, high, middle, and sideways, and that's the only reason I put up
with her."
"Yeah, Evan — I believe you. Thousands wouldn't." Susannah
bit
her lip, still giggling, then asked, "Low, high, middle,
sideways—what about backwards and upside-down? Is Holly
slowing
down? Or aren't you that adventurous?"
"Sometimes," he answered sweety, "I even get to be on top."
"She must really like you, then."
"There's a rumor to that effect." He crammed the bottles into the ice
bucket as Susannah picked up the basket of bread. She slid her free arm
around his waist to hug him.
"I knew you two would be great together."
"So I guess this is where I finally get around to sayin' thanks?"
"You just be good to her. That's all the thanks I want."
"Okay, then, fair's fair." He slung an arm around her slender shoulders
as they walked into the candlelit dining room. "His Honor ever gives
you any trouble, let me know. I carry a bigger gun than he does."
"Wingfield, you sneaky slut," came Holly's stern voice from the other
side of a dozen of Elias s roses, "get your mitts off my man."
Susannah jumped away from Evan as if they'd been caught in a guilty
embrace. "Don't hurt me," she whimpered woefully, cringing behind the
bread basket.
"Eats my food, guzzles my tequila, slinks all over my fiance'
— "
Susannah responded with a bluesy song that Holly joined with high
harmony. Bradshaw came into the dining room just as they were finishing
the chorus, which advised a woman to be wise, keep her mouth shut, and
don't advertise her man.
"They do this a lot, huh," Evan said to Bradshaw as he removed the
apron and took his seat at the head of the table.
"Individually and as a team," Bradshaw agreed, nodding his thanks as
Evan poured him a glass of wine. "Trouble is, you never know when it's
gonna happen.
"Tell me about it." He stuck the serving fork into the meat; Bradshaw
held out his plate. "The first time it was the middle of Central Park."
"Christ, Lachlan, don't give her any ideas!"
Susannah rounded on him. "You think we just stick to karaoke bars?" "I
only wish you would."
****
THEY WERE BACK IN THE living room with coffee and dessert
when it
happened. Susannah was at the bar, browsing Holly's collection of
single-malt Scotches, her back to the room—for which Elias
sincerely thanked all the Deities he could think of—when
Holly's
cat leaped from the hearth rug and howled. All eyes were on him as he
landed, paused for an arching, hissing growl, and streaked from the
room.
"What in the world got into Mugger?" Susannah exclaimed.
Bradshaw caught a glint from one corner of his eye. And turned. And saw
a spark flashed from the window—and another—and
another,
brighter this time, fierce and angry, an irregular pulse of amber
light. Holly almost imitated the cat rising from her chair, the
beginnings of panic in her eyes as she stared at the throbbing glass
sphere.
"Hey, Susannah," Evan said suddenly, "come help me see what's got
Mugger's tail in a fluff, huh? I know some of his hiding places, but
not all."
Just as Bradshaw cast a warding in the general vicinity of the window
— sloppy work, but it served to hide the witch sphere
—
Susannah walked from behind the bar to join Lachlan, saying, "Never
figured you for a cat person."
He gave her a tiger-growl as he escorted her to the
hall—hurrying
her without seeming to, Bradshaw noted. "You take upstairs, I'll take
downstairs, and if we can't find him we'll borrow that little rat-dog
from next door to lure him out. Mugger loves to beat the shit out of
him."
Aware that he didn't need the distraction of wondering what Lachlan
knew or why he knew it, Bradshaw hauled Holly toward the window. "I
need your help."
"It—it shouldn't be doing that," she managed, freckles
standing
out dark in her white face. "Nicky gave it to me less than a month ago
— it should've lasted longer — "
"Well, it hasn't. Come on."
Together they stood before the window, the ward mostly protecting them
from the sparking malevolence encysted by the sphere. Within the dark
golden glass depths the pulsing continued, maddeningly random, like a
heartbeat that had lost all life-giving rhythm. It leaked malice, and
evil.
Bradshaw dug into his pockets, wondering if he'd brought anything he
could use, searched his mental library for something appropriate. The
light intensified as his hasty ward faltered, every beat hammering at
his eyes, his brain. Holly wrenched away from him, eluding him when he
made a grab for her arm.
But she wasn't running away. Instead, she went to the unlit hearth and
delved into the basket of firewood. "Oak or pine?" she demanded of him.
He stared at her.
"Goddammit, Magistrate, which one?" she snapped.
"Pine," he heard himself say, as his fingers closed around his key
chain. From fat silver links dangled a lump of polished red
jasper—his grandfather's good-luck piece, it had seen the old
man
through World War One unscathed.
Holly brought him a small log, wincing as she neared the fluctuating
ward and the diablerie plucked at her again. Elias took her arm and
pulled her as close as he dared to the sphere. And, as a hunting dog
senses the unattainable presence of its quarry, within the amber glass
the sorcery began to -whine.
Bradshaw picked at the wood to tease off a good-sized splinter. Words
tumbled through his mind, associations learned long ago, Basic
Defensive Magic 101: Red jasper—return negativity to it's
source—reversing—protective—barrier
— The glass
shivered from the inside out, light pounding furiously.
Pine.—counter-magic —purification
—exorcism
—protection against evil—
Holly stood beside him again, visibly trembling. She held one of the
yellow roses he'd brought her, plucked from the vase on the coffee
table. A thorn pricked her thumb, conjuring a single thick ruby of
blood.
Stone, wood, and blood combined with words that came to him with their
usual suppleness. The orb emitted an anguished keening, one side and
then the other bulging as light concentrated all its strength into a
last attempt to burst free. It was like watching boils rise on shiny
dark golden skin.
And then it died.
In the silent, blessed relief from that thrumming malevolence, Bradshaw
swayed slightly against Holly. She pulled back from him, reaching to
unhook the sphere from its chain, and cradled the cold, dead glass
between her hands.
"Who do you think it was? " Her voice was remarkably calm, and if he
hadn't glimpsed her eyes at that moment he would have thought her
recovered from her terror.
"I don't know. Who hates you enough?"
She gave a little shrug. "Maybe it was you they were after."
"In that case, the line forms on the right." He looked around as
Susannah's laughter came from the hall. "Quick — "
Wood back in the basket, rose back in the vase, witch sphere consigned
to a cabinet drawer, they were waiting with impeccable nonchalance when
Susannah and Lachlan came back with Mugger draped across the latter's
shoulders, digging in with all twenty claws.
"Holly," he complained, "get this furball off me, willya?"
The next few minutes were spent coaxing the cat into Holly's arms,
where he licked her nose several times before curling up tight against
her. It was entirely clear that Mugger would not be moving anytime
soon. Holly sat in a chair by the hearth, and said, "Would somebody
pour me some coffee, please?"
"What spooked him?" Susannah asked.
"Who knows?" Lachlan made himself useful with coffee and brandy. "The
air conditioning probably twitched a curtain or something. He's such a
scaredy-cat, it's embarrassing."
Mugger yawned, and Susannah laughed.
Bradshaw made himself comfortable on the couch, Susannah beside him,
while the little rituals of serving were performed. Lachlan made an
efficient host, he had to admit—but there was something in
the
Marshal's eyes when he glanced Bradshaw's way, something that had
suspected, and now knew beyond doubt.
Elias cast about for some harmless topic of conversation. Suddenly
Susannah pointed a finger at Holly and demanded, "Why are men like
coffee?"
"Great! You got a new one! Okay, why?"
Purring, she replied, "The best ones are smooth, dark, hot, and can
keep you up all night long."
Holly groaned. "All right, you deserve this one. Why are men like
parking spots?" She waited a moment, then said, "The best ones are
taken and the rest are handicapped."
Lachlan grinned. "Why are women like the weather?"
"I know that one," Bradshaw said. "Women are like the weather because
you can't do anything to change them."
Susannah threw a pillow at him.
Just as Bradshaw was beginning to think the conversation would be
innocuous for the rest of the evening, Lachlan caught his gaze and
said, "I've been meaning to ask—where'd you learn your
magical
naranja?"
"Oh, his parlor trick?" Susannah chuckled. "I'd heard rumors, but I
never believed it until I saw it at the Sbarras'."
"College," Elias said. "I don't do card tricks or sleight-of-hand,
though."
Lachlan nodded, smiling slightly. Bradshaw wanted to squirm.
"Holly has a thing she does with fire," Susannah said. "Salt, isn't it?
Or some kind of herbs. Something folksy and backwoods Virginian,
anyway."
"Not at all," Holly assured her. "Anybody can make colors in a fire.
Me, I'm more likely to blow up the lab."
Susannah snorted. "I remember, I remember! Professor Harbison banned
you from the science building." Leaning gently against Bradshaw's arm,
she mused, "I wonder what happened the first time somebody accidentally
dropped salt or whatever into a campfire—you know, huddled at
night on the savanna, listening to the sabertooths growl, and then
colors suddenly spit from the flames—" She laughed. "The
first
magician!"
"Oh, magic started long before that," Holly said.
Bradshaw fought his misgivings, telling himself that the quickest way
to arouse suspicion was to change the subject. Best to brazen it out.
Or so Holly obviously thought; she started a lecture.
"The first magicians had to have been singers. Think about it. What
must've happened the first time someone grunted a rhythmic
chant—probably in time to a heartbeat? Primal. Elemental.
Certain
organ notes can elicit a feeling of awe. Voices do the same."
"Pavarotti," Elias said, intrigued in spite of himself.
Holly made a sour face. "Susannah's told me that you can't carry a tune
with both hands and an SUV, but must you equate 'Nessun Dorma' with
some grunting CroMagnon? And I think it has something to do with the
music itself as well. Mozart. Beethoven." She grinned. "The Beatles!"
"Absolutely!" Susannah agreed. "But the first time someone hummed
something that caught the emotions of someone else, it probably got him
or her offed in a hurry. It'd be terrifying, the first time it happened
to you."
Bradshaw nodded. "A voice that touches something inside, creating a
response without physical contact."
"Spooky," remarked Lachlan. "But what's it like to be the one doing the
singing?"
Holly tilted her head slightly as she looked over at him. "What it
feels like to make music . . . the control of air in your lungs, the
vibrations in your throat, the buzz in your head, the concentration on
getting the notes right—"
"—the look on other people's faces that means you have
power,"
Susannah added. "People who could make music that provoked reaction
were perceived as having power—a reaction they recognized and
used. They became magicians by mutual consent of singer and audience.
Imagine sitting in a cave around the fire, with voices echoing off the
stone—"
"It would be religious in a way, don't you think?" Holly sat forward,
eyes bright, scratching Mugger absently. "It's called 'singing' a
Mass—and in Judaism the cantor sings the words. Ritual
requires
words—put the words together with the music, and
the magic
intensifies. And wasn't the universe created by a Word?"
Elias had a sudden vision of what Susannah and Holly must have been
like in college—bouncing ideas off each other, the synergy
almost
electrifying. This was a kind of magic, too.
Holly went on, "The written word has always been magical. During the
Middle Ages, about the only people who knew how to read and write were
priests—and they had a direct hotline to God."
"Rhythm, music, words," Lachlan murmured. "Sounds like that adds up to
you, Holly."
This was getting a little dicey. Bradshaw said quickly, "But what about
dancers? Artists? Some people respond to the dance—and the
people
who do the dancing certainly do. I've watched you two ladies often
enough to know that," he added with an attempt at humor.
Holly gave a dismissive shrug. "Any idiot can jump around and wave his
arms. The rhythm is internal, not shared."
"Not art, either," Susannah agreed. "It must've been wonderful to be
able to take a stick and draw in the dirt and have it look like
something—and even better to use pigments and create Lascaux.
But
that was much later. And it's the response of the audience that really
counts. Drawing a map to where the mastodons were herding wouldn't've
elicited anything but feelings of hunger!"
"Works for me," Lachlan drawled.
"Feed him and he'll follow you anywhere," Holly grinned.
"Shamans were healers, weren't they?" Susannah asked. "Maybe that's
when magicians really got started, when somebody found out that if you
ate a certain herb your bellyache went away. I mean, that would be
real, -wouldn't it? Demonstrable. Painting and dancing and singing and
so forth provoke emotional reactions that are unquantifiable. But
healing someone with herbs—now, that would be magical."
"Personally," Lachlan observed, holding up his brandy snifter, "I think
the first doctor or magician or whatever you want to call him was the
guy who figured out how to brew hooch. And I bet he was Irish."
As they all laughed, and conversation drifted into a comparison of
whiskies, Elias relaxed. It wasn't until he and Susannah were leaving
that he met Marshal Lachlan's gaze and again saw the knowing there.
"So say something," he invited, sotto voce.
"Such as?" Although amused curiosity shaded Lachlan's voice, his eyes
were merciless. The two men were almost of a height, Elias an inch or
two shorter — but he had the years, the experience, and the
magic. None of it felt like much when confronted with the look in those
hazel eyes.
He cast a glance at the women, who were busy making plans for lunch
that week. Both were scratching Mugger's ears; the cat refused to leave
Holly's arms. "It's not something any of us advertises, as Holly will
have told you."
"That's not the issue."
"What is?"
"Her." In that one word was a world of warning. "My old man never had
anything useful to say about women," Lachlan went on, "but my Granddad
did. He told me you never know what they're really like until you get
caught in the rain. If she screams and tries to protect her hair and
make-up, take her home and don't ever call her again. But if she starts
to laugh — " He smiled slightly, "—you laugh with
her, and
then make sure you're always around so nothing less gentle than the
rain ever touches her."
Eilias regarded him with new respect. "It's my job to take care of her
just as much as it is yours," he murmured.
"Not exactly."
"No," he agreed. "Not exactly. But you know what 1 mean."
"Just as long as we both know.' Lachlan paused. "And Susannah doesn't."
"No." Reluctantly, he added, "Thanks for—"
Lachlan shrugged it off. "See you Monday morning, Your Honor.
Eleven
"HOLLY NUDGED THE FRONT DOOR shut with a hip, hoisted Mugger
higher in her arms, and turned to face Evan. "Okay, let's have it."
He made wide, startled eyes at her. "Right here in the hall?"
"Very funny. You know what I mean."
"Yeah, but my interpretation woulda been more fun. " Sauntering back
into the living room, he poured them both another brandy. "Y'know, a
couple years ago there was this guy from Mexico on trial in Bradshaw's
court. Pete was on duty that first day, and in the wife's purse he
found this grimy little bag of rocks and chicken bones and stuff. He
let her keep it — said it smelled to high heaven, but she
didn't
want to give it up. So I knew to look for it the next morning, and he
was right — stinkiest thing I ever ran across. After the guy
was
convicted, I heard her say to her sister that her mojo bag had always
worked before, down in Mexico, and she didn't understand why it hadn't
worked on this judge." Raising his glass to Holly, he finished, "Now I
guess I know why."
"Yeah," she said, seating herself wearily. Mugger resumed his place in
her lap, hardly opening an eye. "Now you know why."
"Why didn't you get into medicine?"
Left field? This one hadn't even come from inside the ballpark. "What
do you mean?"
"Just what I said. Why not Work with a doctor?"
She countered with, "What happens when we start curing people?"
"They get to live."
"Evan, think about it. I have," she added bitterly. "Word spreads that
sure fire cures are available. Investigations start. Witchcraft?
Insanity! But it's proved, over and over. The scientific
community goes nuts. The Church gets involved—all the
churches.
Just because you accept what I am doesn't mean other people could."
"Even if they let you live, and if the government didn't get you,
somebody very rich and powerful would—and keep you in a cage."
"Yeah. And the really fun part is that they bleed me on a regular basis
while taking exquisite care of me for the rest of my long, locked-up
life. What happens when I finally die? Everything goes back to the way
it -was before. So -what purpose has my life served in the long run?"
"That's not even considering your kids."
Holly gave a start, nearly dropping her brandy snifter. Mugger grumbled
at the interruption of his nap. "What?"
"Haven't you ever taken it that far? They'd harvest you, lady love," he
said gently, "hoping that at least one egg turned out to have the right
genes."
"I never even considered—" she whispered, then gathered
herself.
"When I was old enough to understand, the technology didn't exist
for—for that kind of thing. So we never had to think about
it,
Alec and Nicky and Aunt Lulah and I." Eyeing him narrowly: "But you
obviously have."
"Only to swear that it never happens." He took a swig of liquor. "So
tell me about Elias Bradshaw."
She thought about that instant when she and Elias had looked at each
other this evening -with identical alarm—a look that had shut
Evan out; how swiftly he had recognized the need for secrecy; how
smoothly he'd gotten Susannah out of the room, despite what must have
been a rampaging curiosity.
Holly gave a shrug. "It's a rather luscious irony that he's a judge in
public life, because within the Craft he's a judge, too. More formally,
a Magistrate."
He seated himself on an ottoman near the empty hearth, gesturing with
his glass for her to go on. Forbidding herself to react as if she were
on trial, she began.
"After Mr. Scot died —" She interrupted herself irritably.
"Sorry, he was this amazing old man, a real Magus, incredibly powerful.
I think Aunt Lulah met him once, in D.C. He had a network of people
like Alec and Nicky, who went around solving problems and bringing
people to him for justice. But he knew he -wasn't going to live
forever, and before he died he set up a new system. Elias is one of his
hand-picked Magistrates. There are others all over the
country—I
Worked with the one in L.A. when I was in grad school. There are
similar systems all over the world, but not connected like when Mr.
Scot was alive. Everybody agrees we have to discipline ourselves for
our own safety. But things are more piecemeal now, even though
individual Magistrates have more power within their regions. Every five
years they all meet to review the system, make any necessary
adjustments."
"The United Nations of Witchcraft," Evan murmured whimsically.
"Not 'united,' no. It's usually a muddle. Still, at least they make the
effort."
"And Bradshaw runs New York."
"He likes to think he does," she answered, chuckling a little. This was
going better than she'd expected.
"What do these Magistrates do, trade you around like a first baseman?"
"The fact that they can't is something I owe to Alec and Nicky." As
Mugger shifted slightly, she started rubbing between his shoulder
blades to hear him purr, wishing it was as easy to sweeten her lover,
whose dragon's eyes were watching her narrowly as she said, "Aunt Lulah
had her suspicions, but it wasn't until they came along that we knew
what I am. They made sure I got to live my life. There are always
people •watching over me — "
"Mr. Hunnicutt downstairs, for one," Evan remarked.
"Well, yes. How'dyou know?"
"It's obvious. Go on."
"Okay. I'm a valuable commodity, so everybody who knows about me
protects me. But Alec and Nicky made sure I wasn't stifled. I'm sure a
few people had fits when I went to Europe with Susannah that
time—if somebody had decided they wanted me to stay there,
it's
not as if there are any extradition treaties 1 But I proved I could
take care of myself."
"I'll bet somebody was watching you the whole time. You just didn't
know it. And I'll also bet that it still happens whenever you leave New
York."
She shrugged edgily. "You're probably right. I don't think about it
much."
"You said you proved you can take care of yourself. What happened?"
"We were in Greece. Someone tried to run us off the road. Delphi is up
in the mountains, and driving those winding roads — I thought
we'd plunge over the side. We were both terrified. Susannah didn't
know, of course, she just thought it was a bunch of men who saw a
couple of American girls on their own and—well, you know. I
guess
driving the Virginia backwoods and L.A. freeways stood me in good
stead, because eventually I lost them. Back in Athens that night we
drank ourselves to sleep—-with all the lights on and the
dresser
shoved against the door. The next morning there was a piece in the
paper about some Bulgarian tourists who went off the road near Delphi.
Their car exploded. They died."
"Jesus," he whispered.
"Nicky checked into it after we got home — he left Europe a
long
time ago, but he still has connections—and it turned out the
Bulgarians were working for the Berlin Magistrate, who also happened to
be connected to the East German secret police. Things were pretty nasty
in the Warsaw Pact countries then, and this Magistrate -wanted a trump
card, I guess."
"I hope somebody fried his synapses."
"Next best thing," she told him. "The Greek Magistrate—a
wonderful old woman on Santorini—she sent me a case of her
best
wine to apologize for what had happened within her jurisdiction
—
anyway, she and the Hungarian and Romanian Magistrates unWorked this
man's magic. Which ain't easy, but they did it. It was a punishment,
but also a warning." Finishing her brandy, she set the glass aside. "So
that's the story. I suppose I didn't really prove anything, except that
I know how to drive. I was just so goddamned furious that Suze had been
put in danger—"
"And she didn't know. Will she ever?"
"It's not something easily admitted, Evan."
"I understand that," he said impatiently. "Don't you trust her?"
"Of course I do!"
"With everything but this."
"It's up to the individual about who to tell and who not to tell. Not
everybody is as tolerant about it as you've been." She eyed him
considering. "And I keep wondering why."
"Would there be a point to having hysterics?" he asked wryly.
"That's not an answer, Evan."
"Okay, how about, I love you no matter what or who you are?'
"Better." But she smiled again.
"Holly, I wish I knew why it doesn't bother me that much. Maybe because
I've never had to see it up close and personal. I believe in
it—your thing with fire, and whatever happened here
tonight—speaking of which, what the hell did happen?"
****
“ELIAS, WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED?"
"Hmm?" he asked, pretending he was absorbed by traffic.
"Don't play dumb, Your Honor. I know when I'm being hustled out of a
room so the people in it can do something they don't want me to
witness."
"You think Holly and I made mad, passionate love on the carpet?"
Susannah laughed aloud. "First of all, you barely tolerate each other.
Second of all, you may be pushing fifty, but you're good for at least
ten minutes and Evan and I were back within five."
Bradshaw turned a glower on her. " 'Ten minutes'?"
"At least," she teased. "And third of all, rug burn isn't your style.
Come on, what are you hiding? And why?"
What I am. Because I love you. And because he loved her, he lied to
her. "She was about to read me the riot act over that priest
—
the history with Lachlan's mother. I didn't want to screw up a pleasant
evening, and evidently neither did she —or Lachlan."
"So you did a wink-and-nod at Evan to get me out of the room?"
"Yeah." He wondered if he could get away with changing the subject, and
decided it would be too blatant.
Susannah, bless her, did it for him. "I'm glad they're getting married.
I always knew they'd be perfect for each other."
"The kids will be interesting," he commented. And then Mine.
" I can't wait to be an auntie. Of course, I'll have to battle Holly's
Aunt Lulah over who gets to spoil them the most!"
Miracle of miracles, there was a parking space near his brownstone. He
escorted Susannah up the stoop and nearly had a heart attack when a
quiet, feminine voice came from the shadows of his doorway.
"Judge Bradshaw, may I have a moment of your time?"
"Lydia. Of course." Cursing lyrically, if silently, he opened the front
door and switched on the hall light. "Susannah Wingfield, Lydia
Montsorel."
"I'm sorry to interrupt your evening," Lydia said softly.
"Not at all. Shall I make coffee?" Susannah asked.
“Uh—yes, thanks," he replied, feeling a fool.
Susannah vanished down the hall to the kitchen. Bradshaw drew Lydia
into the living room, asking low-voiced, "What are you doing here?"
"I couldn't get you on the phone." She glanced around nervously. "I
need light, Elias. Please."
He obliged, knowing that his Sciomancer was afraid of shadows. Lydia's
was an odd talent, intense and erratic. The only predictable thing
about it was that when it hit her, it really hit hard. With the table
lamps on, he saw the wildness in her dark eyes, the tumble of her long
black hair, the quiver in her delicate fingers.
He guided her to a chair. "Quickly, before Susannah gets back."
"Yes, of course." She fixed her gaze on a lamp, pupils pinpointed, face
ashen. Her lips parted slowly, her breath a labored whisper that
worried him.
"Lydia."
Startled, she looked up at him. "Elias,' she said, as if only now
recognizing him. "I had to tell you — I was downstairs in the
bakery this evening and I happened to look up and there was something
moving in the corner — "
"Shadows."
"Yes. Always shadows. I had to tell you there's a change. What 1 saw
last year — the cross still burns, but the swastika isn't the
only other symbol. The inverted pentagram is the only one I recognize.
All the shapes and designs — swirls and writhings
—I'm not
a scholar, Elias, I don't know what they mean!"
"Shh. It's all right. Can you draw them?"
"I think so." She scrubbed her hands across her face. "1 hate this. I
hate this. I hate seeing what I see."
"Not always," he soothed. "You've seen pleasant things, too, happy
things. It isn't always terrible."
"No. Not always."
"You saw David six weeks before you met him, and the wedding a month
before he asked you — "
"Yes, there are good things. Alec and Nicky always told me to
concentrate on the good things —" She looked around as if
suddenly becoming aware of her surroundings. "I should go—you
have a guest—"
"It's all right."
"I want to go home." Rising on unsteady legs, she attempted a smile.
"I'm fine. I'll do the drawings tomorrow. There were numbers, as well.
And birds."
"Ravens?" he asked, remembering her vision of last year.
"I think so. But whether they were Teutonic ravens, fugitives from the
Tower of London, or just common garden variety crows — "
Elias rose, slipped an arm around her shoulders. "Hush. It's all right.
We'll figure it out."
"At least the swastika is gone. That's something, isn't it? I could
have been mistaken originally, though, it could have been a much more
ancient sun-wheel. The swastika wasn't always a symbol of evil."
"Lydia. Let it go. Let me call David to take you home. It's almost
midnight."
If Susannah was bewildered by Lydia's abrupt departure with her husband
after ten minutes of coffee and innocuous conversation, she didn't show
it. Alone with Elias again, she regarded him with dancing green eyes
over the rim of her cup and asked, "Do you get a lot of pretty women
arriving distraught on your doorstep?"
"She's the daughter of an old friend." This, at least, was not a lie.
"And if you're really interested, I prefer them to arrive on my
doorstep in tight jeans, a pink blouse, and a blonde ponytail."
"What happens then?"
"Play your cards right, Counselor, and you just might find out."
****
THE NEXT MORNING SUSANNAH DROVE to her mother's home in
Connecticut. Elias was lingering over the paper, still in his bathrobe,
when a messenger arrived. The package was from Lydia, who must have sat
up all night transcribing what she remembered. Bradshaw tipped the boy
and shut the door, weighing the thick envelope in his hand. So much for
a lazy afternoon puttering around the house.
Upstairs, in a small library off the locked Circle room, he spent a few
minutes gathering books before seating himself at the desk. Lydia's
pages before him, he worked for two hours before deciding he couldn't
stomach any more.
His discoveries were, if anything, more sinister even than the
swastika. Eleven symbols had been drawn, one to a page, and, of the
eight he had identified, all of them were connected to the darkest,
most malevolent deities in the world pantheon.
It was somehow obscene even to admit such names existed in this
serenely elegant place he had created for himself. No computer here, no
telephone, no electronic or mechanical devices at all — not
even
a typewriter. The most modern technological device within its walls, in
fact, was the lock on the door, which wouldn't even yield to its proper
key when he muttered a few words that made the place more secure than
any lock. He let his gaze wander the oaken shelves, where the
gilt-stamped spines of leather-bound books echoed the dark greens and
crimsons and indigos of the Persian rug. Susannah might be standing in
a similar room in her mother's house right now—similar but
for
the polished oak and the expensive rug in Elias's library. In the past,
the Wingfields had produced any number of wealthy and influential Old
and New Englanders, but Susannah's branch had been out of the money for
several generations. They had little besides the big old house built in
1796, and the books—thousands of volumes collected by an
unbroken
succession of rabid bibliophiles. Maybe that was where all the money
had gone, he mused, knowing he was avoiding Lydia's list by thinking
about Susannah.
"Judge Bradshaw?"
He didn't glance up from the file on hid desk. The new candidate for
assistant/associate/gopher had arrived; great resume", nice voice on
the phone, who cared about the rest? She'd only last a few months,
anyway. None of them could cope with him longer than that.
"Good morning, Ms. — " What the hell was her name again?
"Wingfield, "she supplied.
A very nice voice, he amended, not looking at her. "I don't have time
for an interview this morning. See Mrs. Osbourne and reschedule for
tomorrow."
"Certainly, Your Honor."
He would never know how she did it, but the temperature in his chambers
dropped thirty degrees. He glanced up. All he saw as she stalked out
the door were the outlines of a slender body and an opulence of
wheat-gold hair.
The door didn't quite slam. He dug up her resume". By the fifth line he
was reaching for his intercom, requesting Mrs, Osbourne to have Ms.
Wingfield wait.
"Why aren't you still a prosecutor?" he said without preamble ad she
walked back into his office. "Or in private practice? Or aiming for
your own judgeship?"
Seating herself in the brown leather chair before his desk, cool as a
cloud and just ad remote, she replied, "I got frustrated in the
prosecutor's office. I got bored in private practice. I don't want to
be a judge."
"Then what do you want, exactly?"
"I don't have a clue. My father says I'm unfocused, my sisters think
I'm crazy, and my mother wants me to settle down and raise
grandchildren."
"Still don't know what you want to be when you grow up?"
"Oh, I knew that when I was eight. I've just never found an aspect of
the law that suits me."
"I don't do guidance counseling in my spare time. For one thing, I have
no spare time—and neither will you, working for me."
"If I'd wanted a life," she retorted, green eyes crinkling at the
corners as she smiled, "I'd've followed my mother's advice a long time
ago."
"You start this afternoon," he heard himself say.
"If it's all the same to you, I'd prefer tomorrow morning. A friend is
visiting from Virginia and I promised to take her to lunch."
He settled back in his chair and regarded her thoughtfully. "So you
keep your promises, do you, no matter what?"
"Ad a matter of fact, I do."
"Even if your new boss wants you to start this afternoon?"
"I didn't expect to get this job."
"Why not?"
Before she could answer, Mrs. Osbourne appeared in the open doorway and
said, "Ms. McClure is here for you, Ms. Wingfield."
Virginia, McClure—couldn't be. He'd heard about
her—every
Magistrate in North America had heard about her. It just wasn't
believable that this would be the same woman —
Elias grimaced, recalling his birthday dinner at Chanterelle, and the
note Holly had sent him via the waiter: Wake up and smell the
cappuccino —you 'II have a much happier birthday if you do.
His
expression resolved into a wry smile. Yellow roses for redheads, white
for blondes, pink for brunettes—and red for the morning after
your first night together.
Elias pushed his chair back and rubbed his hands over his face. He had
spent the day with, among others, Collin de Plancy's Dictionaire
Infernale, Francis Barrett s The Magus, and the Grimoire of Pope
Honorius. Not exactly cheery company, these pantheons of devils and
hierarchies of demons, with guides to their manifestations and powers
and filthy little tricks. It -was disgusting to think of Susannah in
this room.
He generously gave himself the no-brainer choice between the refuge of
Susannah and the further research he knew he ought to do this evening,
rose from the desk, locked the library door behind him, and went
downstairs to make dinner reservations at their favorite restaurant.
Twelve
"ARE YOU SURE YOU WANT to do this?"
"You went to Easter Mass with me," Evan replied. "The least I can do
—"
Holly slouched in a kitchen chair and peered up at him. "I still don't
know why we went to church. You didn't confess, you didn't take
Communion — "
"I took you to church to see if you'd melt when you touched the holy
water."
"What am I, the Wicked Witch of the West?"
"Don't let any houses fall on you today. I got plans for tonight." He
leaned down to kiss her nose. "I'll bring the wine—and the
food.
Don't you go near that stove."
When he was gone, Holly chewed a thumbnail, caught herself at it, and
scowled. Why he would want to witness a Sabbat was perfectly
understandable; why he would want to participate was completely beyond
her.
Well, of course, she thought suddenly, and laughed aloud. lt's Beltane.
And if we're gonna do this, we might as well do it up right, with all
the pagan bells and witchy whistles.
So she phoned her two favorite authorities —Alexander
Singleton
and Nicholas Orlov —for advice on planning the perfect
Beltane.
****
DENISE DIDN'T PLAN RITUALS. SHE starred in
them—and Beltane
was her truest role. Invitations had been arriving since March; all she
need do was select a venue.
After some sorting she had decided on three possible locations: an
estate on Long Island, an oceanfront mansion in New Jersey, or an
exquisite Manhattan penthouse. Each had drawbacks. The beach property
was a dream, and as private as could be wished, but it was owned by the
Ken and Barbie of wanna-be vampires. The penthouse gig would include a
predominately gay-audience—entertaining in their way, but
inappropriate for the holiday. So Long Island it was.
A phone call to her host announced her acceptance of his invitation; he
was thrilled, and promised to send a car for her at seven. She made a
mental note not to be ready until seven-thirty; half of being a true
diva was making them wait. The other half was giving them even more
than they expected when she finally showed up. She had honed both to a
fine art.
****
EVAN ARRIVED AT holly's PLACE before sunset, juggling
grocery bags
and a florist's box while he let himself in and locked the door behind
him. Luscious fragrances were in the air. He wondered about their
meaning and purpose— everything had meaning and purpose in
ritual
magic. That was the whole reason for rituals: to make a person think
beyond the ordinariness of everyday life.
How ordinary could life be when you were in love with a Witch?
Grinning to himself, he walked through to the kitchen, noting that the
living room door was closed, and began unloading the sacks of food. His
research had been fun—though he'd been astonished at how many
different foods were considered aphrodisiacs. Bananas, okay, that was
obvious—but pine nuts?
He'd chosen asparagus and celery to dip into salmon mousse and feta
pesto, featuring the puzzling pine nuts. And there was red wine, in
which he'd steeped ginger, cinnamon, and a split vanilla bean according
to a recipe. After choosing a couple of wine glasses and dumping the
munchies into serving bowls, he arranged everything on a silver tray
and left it on the kitchen counter. In the same cabinet as the tray
-was a cut crystal vase; he filled it with water and the flowers,
hoping Holly would appreciate their symbolism. Three each of red
tulips, yellow tulips, orange roses, crimson roses—all of
them
having to do with love, desire, and passion—and a single
golden
rose for perfection. Standing back from his work, he nodded
satisfaction, and then went looking for Holly.
A note was taped on her bedroom door: Try the bathroom. He did. On the
mirror was another note, this one a list of instructions.
1. Light the candles. Fill the tub. Use the bath salts from the green
bowl.
2. Choose one stone from each glass bowl on the counter, and place in
the water.
3. Take a bath.
4. Put on the bathrobe.
5. Get your gorgeous Irish ass into the living room, and bring the
stones with you.
Fifteen minutes later, clean and relaxed and wearing the thin white
silk bathrobe, he went through the Show-Office to the living room. And
found it transformed.
The furniture had been pushed back against the -walls, leaving a
cleared space before the hearth. A circular sisal rug about ten feet
across had replaced the worn old carpet, and on this was her little
triangular table. To one side was the vase of flowers; to the other,
the tray of food and wine. Four unlit candles rested in flat silver
dishes at what he assumed were the cardinal points of the compass:
green, yellow, red, blue. Exactly the colors of the four stones in his
hand, he realized. Holly, her hair loose on her shoulders, her body
covered by a white robe that matched his, stood by a window. She turned
as he entered, and smiled.
"The flowers are gorgeous."
"Y'know, I actually had fun doing the research. What do we do first?"
"You really want the whole thing?" she asked. "Casting the Circle,
calling the Quarters?"
"I want the whole thing," he affirmed.
"It's been awhile since I did this on my own. I had to read up on it
and — "
"Stop blithering and get on with it."
"Yassuh, Marshal Lachlan, suh." Gesturing for him to join her on the
sisal rug, she knelt in its center. He sat facing her, cross-legged,
glad for the silk that separated his bare ass from the scratchy weave.
"Let's see which rocks you picked," Holly said, and as he handed them
over she grinned. "I might've known. The blue one is lapis, Stone of
the Pharaohs. Malachite—the green one—is the
masculine
principle. You don't bother to hide it, do you?"
His only reply was a look of sweet innocence. "What about the others?"
"I'd need Uncle Alec to interpret the more esoteric stuff, but the
basics are — " She laughed. "—pretty basic! Just
what I'd
expect from you. I've seen people pick out rocks that are as accurate
about their personalities as any psychological testing. Red jasper is
very lucky, very protective—and is said to help maintain
passion," she added mischievously. "The golden topaz is the most
interesting of the bunch, actually. Mental clarity and personal power,
among other things."
"And yours? What do they say about you?"
"Now we're getting into magic," she smiled. "Yours and mine together
are something fierce. Garnet, citrine, aventurine, and
turquoise—briefly, sex and devotion, confidence and energy,
love
and healing, happiness and luck. Between us, we've got it all pretty
much covered." She rose and placed her four stones beside the four
candles, matching color to color. "Set yours on the other side of mine.
Good. Now we're ready."
She lit the incense—not with a match, but simply by gazing at
it
a moment and gesturing very slightly with her right hand. A tang of
cinnamon waited on the smoke. Then the candles, similarly lighted. Next
she lifted her small chalice of water, and finally held up a little
dish of salt. All the while she chanted:
"East is Air, and sweetest scent ol lovers' trysting passions spent.
South is Fire of deepest red to warm our souls, our hearts, our bed.
West is Water, sweetly flowing, cleansing, freeing, wisely knowing.
North is Earth that yearns for tilling, rich soft soil, warm and
willing.
Sweet Lady, Queen ot Earth and Night, Proud Lord, King of Fire and Day.
We our passion and trust do plight; bless us lovers this First of May."
****
IT WAS THE MOST INCRECDIBLE house Denise had ever
seen—not
that she would admit it to her hosts. They were dot-com zillionaires
who, lacking anything resembling taste, still had the smarts to hire
someone to do their shopping for them, either that, Denise reflected as
the limo pulled around the circular gravel drive, or they simply told
their minions to buy the absolute unqualified best.
Which this mansion definitely was. A robber baron of the Victorian era
had spared none of his questionably acquired fortune to build a Gothic
fantasy of turrets and spires, crenelations and pointed arches.
Originally the summer residence of a large family, forty-six rooms and
who-knew-how-many baths were centered around a courtyard where the limo
purred to a stop.
Denise waited for the driver to open her door. Her host and hostess,
dressed in the epitome of tweed country-house taste, emerged from a
double oak door to welcome her.
So pleased you could be here, such a delight, read all your books and
love them, what can we get you to drink, come meet our other guests.
Denise smiled and nodded and was hard put to contain her surprise when
she glimpsed an unexpected face at the far end of the living room.
The bookstore owner. What was his name? He saw her, silvery-blue eyes
suddenly alight, and made his way through the throng to her side.
He was introduced as Noel, and whereas his gray trousers, casual black
shirt, and battered sneakers were nowhere near appropriate, Denise
sensed the authority of real power that made everyone else seem not
only overdressed but insignificant.
Interesting, she decided, accepting a small glass of very old, very
pricey sherry. Reminded of her weeks-ago encounter with him, she was
also remembering her first try at snagging Holly McClure's lover. Bon
diea de merde, what a night it would be if he were here-
"I think you and I are the only true aficionados present," Noel said
softly.
He had followed her over to admire a hearth big enough to roast an ox,
a stag, and a couple of small boar, and still have room for the soup
cauldron. Denise ran a fingertip along the outline of a flower carved
into the stone — hyacinths were prominently featured in all
the
decor, presumably the original owner's favorite flower—and
glanced up at him through her lashes.
"Amateur night," she murmured. "But entertaining nonetheless. I'm
surprised to see you here."
"Didn't they tell you? I'm the chief entertainment."
She met his gaze, her brows arching. She hadn't approved him on her
host's list of participants.
"Ringmaster only," he added. "I leave the . . . celebrating ... to
others. How did the spell work, by the way? "
"Well enough." She gave a shrug. In fact, her efforts appeared to have
had little, if any, effect. But she wasn't about to admit that to Noel.
He required no such admission, evidently. "They must have something on
you — something powerful." He paused to sip his drink. "Mojo
bag?
Poppet? Maybe even your Measure? "
Denise laughed to cover annoyance --and nerves. "The first two are
beneath their exalted scholarly notice. As for the third — if
they did, and if it really worked, would I be here tonight?"
"Depends," he replied in an infuriatingly casual drawl. "Are we talking
the Magistratum here? If so — "
"You're extremely curious," she remarked, looking up at him through her
lashes. "One might even say 'nosy.' "
"I like my merchandise to give satisfaction," he countered. "If it
doesn't, I like to find out why. What you're up against that's so
potent."
She started to reply that it was nothing that need concern him, then
abruptly reconsidered. He knew a lot; he had resources at his store;
there was a certain power about him. Perhaps he could help her. Galling
though it was, she had to acknowledge that maybe she did need some
help. She wanted Elias Bradshaw and Holly McClure damaged.
So instead of telling Noel to mind his own business, she murmured, "If
you run across anything useful against a Spellbinder, let me know."
His shock was everything she could wish. But whatever he might have
replied was lost when a young couple, neither of them older than
twenty, approached. The boy was even taller and lankier than Noel,
wearing doe-skin pants, a white silk shirt with unmanageably full
sleeves, and so many ear-cuffs with dangling charms that he clinked
when he walked. The girl was a study in black and silver Goth with
piercings in improbable places.
"I think it's just wicked cool that you're here tonight," the girl
enthused to Denise. "My parents didn't think you'd come."
"Denise," said Noel, recovering himself, "this is Serenity, daughter of
the house. And her friend, Scott."
"Hi," Scott said.
"Good evening," Denise replied, not showing her interest. He didn't
much intrigue her personally—too skinny for her tastes, and
much
too young—but his presence here was a coup. His name on the
list
had made her laugh for a full ten minutes. The boy's father had spent
an entire hour on someone's talk show excoriating her and her books as
the Devil's work. Delicious.
"I've never been to a real Black Mass before," Serenity was saying.
"But I turned eighteen last month, so I'm finally old
enough—according to my parents."
Noel laughed. "Psychodrama, nothing more. Something to shock the
children." He fixed his pale blue gaze on Scott. "Are you shocked?" But
before he had a chance to answer, a bell rang. "Ah. I think we're about
to begin." He held out an arm to escort Denise. "May I have the honor?"
Five minutes later everyone had changed out of-whatever they'd worn to
impress each other, and wore plain, utilitarian, equalizing black
robes. Denise and Noel led the way down an appropriately dark stone
staircase, carrying black candles, to the basement room fitted up for
the rite.
Like the rest of the house, it was just a breath short of excessive.
Outside, just one more turret or tower would have rendered the whole
preposterous; inside, especially within this chamber, a single
additional yard of dark crimson velvet would have created a parody. As
it was, the surroundings were luxurious without opulence, atmospheric
without exaggeration. Bare, rough-hewn stone walls with high, opaque
transom windows in small alcoves; velvet chaise lounge rife with
pillows; silver-veined black marble plinth on which rested the
ceremonial tools. Denise approved.
As people arranged themselves—the twelve chosen men claiming
their places, the other men and women finding vantage
points—Denise inspected the accouterments. The candelabrum
was
particularly fine: thirteen fat black candles, six to either side of a
high central taper, the whole made of silver stems writhing about a
beautiful young man with delicate horns. The bell was brass, as were
the thurible, incense boat, chalice, and aspergillum—the last
in
the shape of a phallus of exceptionally heroic dimensions.
When everyone was in place, Noel nodded to their hostess. She rang the
little bell nine times. Noel sighed quietly into the ensuing silence.
"In nomine Magni Dei Nostri Satanus introibo ad altare Domini Inferi."
In the Name of our Great God Satan I will go in to the altar of the
Infernal Lord.
Denise gave a sigh of her own. Latin; swell. She supposed the decisions
of Vatican II regarding use of the vernacular wouldn't have much
influence on this bunch. Noel had an amazing voice: deeply resonant,
compellingly sensual. As she stood beside the chaise, bare feet warming
the cool stones beneath her, she mused that a voice such as his might
almost make her start believing in all this shit.
"Domine Satanus, Tua est terra. Orbem terrarum et plentitudinem ejus Tu
fundasti Justitia et luxuria praepartia sedis Tuae. Sederunt principes
et adverdum me loquebantur, et iniqui persecuti sunt me. Adjura me,
Domine Satanus meus." Thine is the Earth, Lord Satan. Thou hast founded
the Earth and the fullness thereof. Justice and luxury are the
preparation of Thy Throne. Princes sat and spoke against me, and the
wicked persecuted me. Help me, Lord Satan.
Noel spread his arms wide as if to embrace the assembly. "Dominus
Inferus vobiscum."The Infernal Lord be with you.
And they responded, "Et cum tuo." And with you also.
The thurible and incense boat -were brought forward by their host. Noel
reached into a pocket of his robe and sprinkled incense on burning
coals once, twice, thrice, saying, "Incensum istud? ascendat ad Te,
Dominus Inferus, et descendat super nos beneficium Tuum. "May this
incense rise before Thee, Infernal Lord, and may Thy blessing descend
upon us.
She watched him, this long and lanky bookseller who ought to have been
awkward but was instead oddly lithe, disturbingly graceful, as he
censed the chalice, the candelabrum—and her. But all response
within her dissipated when the smell of the incense flowed across her.
This was her least favorite part of any rite: the stink. Asphalt from
the streets had been specified long ago by some fussy idiot, so asphalt
from the streets it was, mixed in with the bitterness of myrrh and the
traditional "flying" herbs: henbane, datura, and nightshade. Knowing
these to be psychedelic, hallucinogenic, and deleriant if cured in
certain ways, Denise closed her eyes and breathed deeply of
the
smoke. Despite the stench, it would add to the experience.
She kept her eyes shut and listened to the resonant cadences of Noel's
voice, gradually recapturing the pinpricking excitement of her own
sensuality. South, then East, then North, and finally West, he circled
her with scent and power and sound.
"In the name of Satan, I bless thee — in the name of Lucifer,
the
Morning Star, I bless thee —in the name of Belial, Prince of
the
Earth and Angel of Destruction, I bless thee—in the
name of
Leviathan, I bless thee."
"Ave Satanus," responded the congregants.
Hail Satan.
****
"WHEN DO WE EAT? MORE importantly, when do we —"
"You're incorrigible. Just relax and enjoy, okay? This next part is
from Aunt Lulah —she sent me the wood chips." Holly took a
little
bag from the pocket of her robe and upended its contents into her palm.
As she sprinkled the slivers into the cauldron, she half-sang,
"Birch to honor the Lady of Summer,
Oak for the Lord of the Day,
Rowan for magic
Willow for mourning,
and Hawthorns for the fey. "
She paused. "That's faerie folk, just in case there are any hovering
about." "Don't expect me to be skeptical, lady," he told her. "Granna
Maureen always said her family had its very own bean sidhe,
who
yelled its head off whenever a man of the clan was in danger.'
"Really? You didn't tell me that when we talked about Ireland last
fall." "I was kinda distracted back then," he explained blandly,
"tryin' to figure out how to get you in the sack."
"One-track mind," she sighed. "Where was I? Oh, yeah —
Hazel for
wisdom,
Apple for love,
Vine for the Earth,
and Fir for rebirth.
The wood chips blazed, a mix of scents that merrily tickled
his
nose. "One of these days I'm going to have to rework that so it all
rhymes. The last part of it goes:
We celebrate
the Year's renewal
With Flame and Wine, with Scent and Jewel
We honor Life and Love th'ui night
And with desire our troth do plight.
A gesture to the wine and glasses invited him to pour for
them
both. When he had done so, she toasted him and said, "Beltane is the
night when our ancestors in Ireland met in the greenwood after
the
long cold winter, and reaffirmed that they were alive by making love.
It is Tana's Day, symbolized by the Sword of Nuada, one of the four
magical treasures of the Tuatha, which we in modern times call the
athame. Beltane is a night of fire and flowers, of light and energy, of
feeling and being. It is the music of the lute and the guitar, all
stringed instruments whose notes weave the song of the universe.'
Smiling, she toasted him once more. "And tonight, a chuisle, that song
is me and thee."
****
THEY WERE ALL NAKED NOW, except for Denise. As she gave a
shrug of
one shoulder and her black silk robe cascaded to the
floor—exactly as it had been designed to do — she
was
gratified to see that every man, even those not among her twelve,
instantly responded. She let her body slide sinuously onto the chaise
longue, and within seconds their visible response had become imperious
need. She saw it glitter in eyes of brown, blue, green, and gray, heard
it rasp in quickened breathing, smelled it in their sweat-beaded skin.
Except Noel. He was still wearing his robe, no indicative swelling
outlined by the material as he moved toward her. Neither did his eyes
flicker, nor his nostrils flare, nor his flesh exude the musk of
desire. He approached her, seeming to float, so supple were
his
movements, and extended his hands, palms downward, over her body.
"Dominus Inferus, miserere nobis. In spiritu bumilitatis, et in animo
contrito susipiamur a Te, Domine Satanus; et sic fiat sacrificium
nosterum in conspecta tuo bodie, ut placeat tibi Veni, Magister Templi.
Veni, Magister Mundi Pleny sunt terra majestatit gloriae tuae."
Infernal Lord, have mercy upon us. In a humble spirit, and with
contrite heart, may we be received by Thee, Lord Satan; and may our
sacrifice be so offered as to be pleasing in Thy sight. Come, Lord of
the Temple. Come, Lord of the World. Earth is full of the majesty of
Thy glory.
Denise shifted slighty, anticipating. But Noel wasn't finished. The
bell rang again—the
silly thing was beginning to get on her nerves—as he went on,
this time in plain English:
"O mighty and terrible Lord of Darkness, we entreat You to accept this
rite, which we offer that You may make us prosper under Thy protection,
and cause the fulfillment of our desires and the destruction of our
enemies."
Then he did something Denise had never seen done before at such rites.
He took from his pocket an elaborately carved wooden crucifix, about
eight inches tall and touched here and there with gold, and held it
high to all assembled.
"Behold the body of Jesus Christ, lord of the humble and king of the
slaves. Jedud," he sneered, "crafter of hoaxes, swindler, deceiver!
Since the day of your birth from the bowels of a false virgin, you have
failed. Imposter, Filth of Bethlehem, cursed Nazarene, we
drive
deeper the nails into your hands, cram the crown of thorns upon your
brow, bring blood from the dry wounds of your sides."
Denise was annoyed. And bored. If she'd wanted a sermon, she would've
stayed home with the television tuned to an evangelical channel. Why
didn't he just get on with it?
"Great Lord Satan, Infernal Majesty, condemn the pretender to suffer in
perpetual anguish. O Prince of Darkness, call forth Thy legions and
send the Christians to their doom!" Noel spat on the crucifix. "Vanish
into nothingness, fool of fools! You are nothing, compared to the
majesty of Satan!" He immersed the painted wood in the cauldron and
fire leapt a full ten feet high, crackling angrily.
Denise repressed a peevish sigh. Ringmaster, he'd said? Exhibitionist.
****
"NOW COMES THE 'LET ME count the ways' portion of the
evening,"
said Holly. "We take turns wrapping a ribbon around the candle, and say
what we love about each other."
Evan took one end of the red ribbon. The candle smelled of vanilla, and
the combination with cinnamon made him think of baking day at Granna
Maureen's. "Me first," he said, passing his end of the ribbon
to
her around the candle. "I love your freckles."
She wrinkled her nose at him, and gave him her end of the ribbon. "I
love your dragon's eyes."
"I love your hot Irish temper."
She grinned. "I love your hot Irish ass!"
He winked back. "I love your smarts, writer-lady."
After a moment's pause, she turned serious. "I love your total
dedication to everything you do."
"I love your face when you're sleeping."
"I love your power."
"My—? Oops, sorry. I love your voice."
"I love yours—except when you start singing!"
"I love your rasty sense of humor."
"I love it that you can match me quote for quote from A Hard Day's
Night and Star Wars."
"I love your lectures."
"Liar! I love your stupid ostrich-hide cowboy boots."
"I'm a liar?" They were running out of ribbon, and he hadn't even
gotten started. "I love it when you call me a chuule."
"I love it when you smile."
"I love it that most people have personalities, but you have character."
She looked startled for an instant. Then: "I love your pride."
Last bit of red silk. "I love your magic."
Knotting the ends, she replied, "I love you."
She lit the candle with a litde flick of her fingers. "Y'know, I'm
getting pretty good at that again. I lost the knack of it for a while."
"There's something else you're pretty good at. Do we get to practice
now?"
****
WITHIN A FEW MOMENTS THE wooden crucifix had burned to
ashes. Noel
sifted them down into the chalice, a tiny smile curving his wide mouth.
His eyes were alight now, his brow sheened with sweat, as he used the
huge bronze phallus to stir the ashes into the wine. He drank,
then presented the chalice to each worshipper. "Accipe calicem
voluptatus carnis in nomine Domini Inferi" Accept the chalice of
voluptuous flesh in the name of the Infernal Lord.
Replacing the chalice on the black marble plinth, he turned to Denise.
Now his face was radiant, exultant, and he ran his eyes over her body
as he groped for the bronze phallus. He held the thing as if he were
holding his own. Suddenly Denise realized that to him, it umu
his
own.
"Ecce sponsa Satanus," he proclaimed. "Domino Inferi in medio ejus est.
Qui stitit, veniat; et qui vult, accipiat aquam vitae." Behold Satan's
bride. The Infernal Lord is in the midst of her. He that thirsteth, let
him come; and he that will, let him take of the water of life.
With the phallus he pointed to a wonder of Nordic manhood, who came
forward and spread Denise's thighs.
"Fornicemur ad gloria Domine Satanus," Noel invited in that rich,
burgundy-and-silk voice. Fornicate to the glory of Our Lord Satan.
****
HOLLY HELD UP HER PALMS to Evan. He laced their fingers
together,
watching candlelight shimmer in her eyes. Quietly, almost
formally, she said, "The Great Rite is ours to celebrate—in
Greek, the Hieros Gamos, the Sacred Marriage of seed and soil,
rain and earth, God and Goddess." She smiled slightly, almost shyly.
"Thee and me, a chuisle mo cbroi."
It was strange and stunning, how different it felt, making love to her
amid the candles and the wine and the scents and the little chunks of
brightly colored stones. It -was just him, just her, something
they'd done a thousand times — but it somehow was more this
time.
Not only an act of love, an act of-belief?
Or maybe even faith?
The thought snagged in his mind. His Catholic education, in the form of
Sister Mary Lazarus, advanced to bring her four-foot-long
aluminum
pointer down on his knuckles —
Holly seized his face between her hands, laughed up at him, and
demanded, "Hey! Pay attention!"
So he let the word faith escape him, and chased more pleasurable and
much less articulate things, and lost himself in loving her.
Yet at some point, he couldn't have said when, blue eyes darkened to
brown—flecked green, russet hair paled to blonde, the sprawl
of
white silk beneath them transformed to the dark red of blood,
and
the giving body in his arms began to take—predatory, greedy,
insatiable.
It lasted only an instant; Holly was Holly again, in a circle of
candlelight. And he was in her, and she was around him, and together
they rejoiced in an act of true faith in living.
****
"PLACEAT TIBI, DOMINE SATANUS, OBSEQUIUM servitutis meae; et
praesta ut sacrificuum quod occulis Tuae majestatis obtuli, tibi sit
acceptabile, mibique et omnibus pro quibus illud obtuli " May the
homage of my service be pleasing unto Thee, Lord Satan, and grant that
the sacrifice I have offered in the sight of Thy majesty may be
acceptable to Thee and win forgiveness for me and for all those for
whom I have offered it.
Not even halfway through her twelve chosen, Denise was tired of the
whole foolishness. Did they think she was a whore? Only there for them
to fuck under the pretense of a ritual offering? Number
Three—the Chinese guy from last November—had been a
real
stallion, and she was starting to enjoy herself when he unexpectedly
finished, leaving her far behind. Number Five was occupied now, in full
rut. Denise could have been his own right hand for all the attention he
paid to her pleasure, and she was monumentally peeved. Despite several
such evenings, she hadn't had a truly spectacular night since
—
—since Holly McClure had taken her Measure.
Was that it? Or had her own spell been directed back at her? Merde,
what if it had all gone wrong? Was Holly that powerful? Was Bradshaw?
All the little forgettings and irritations — had that been
only
the beginning?
Grinding her teeth, she seized her current lover's face between her
hands and forced him to look at her. His surprise mirrored hers: she
hadn't even realized that a new man had come to her. Not even
a
man—the boy, Scott, son of a Fundamentalist Christian
Reverend,
the jewelry on his ears bloodily shining by the light of Noel's
flaunting fire.
"Fuck me like you mean it," Denise growled. After an instant's frozen
shock, he did. His eyes turned wild—incense smoke, she told
herself, wishing it would take her as thoroughly. Maybe then she
wouldn't have to look at Noel. His silvery-blue gaze was focused, cold,
and not quite sane. He loomed over her where she lay on her back amid
the silk and sweat and spilled semen. He snaked his long fingers around
Scott's throat from behind—delicately at first, then more
deeply,
and just as the boy gasped and arched and spent himself in Denise, Noel
snapped his neck.
"Behold the Sacrifice," he murmured as the boy crumpled to the stones.
"Life force, psychic power, arcane energy—all released by
death
at the supreme moment of existence. All mine." He bowed to the altar,
then turned to the congregation with his left hand extended in
cornu, in the shape of horns, saying: "Fratred et dorored, debitored
dumud carni." Brothers and sisters, we are debtors to the flesh.
Another man started forward for his turn, tottering on drug-addled
legs. When the boy did not move, the newcomer blinked several times,
then blurted, "Is he — ?" Stumbling backward: "He's dead!"
"Yes," Noel confirmed with a nod and a secretive smile. "He is. Ego vos
benedictio in Nomine Magni Dei Nostri Satanus, Ite, missa est." I bless
you all in the Name of our Great God, Satan. Go, you are dismissed.
Shrieks carved through the firelit chamber. The celebrants hurtled,
naked and horrified, up the stairs, staggering into each other, and
flames fluttered like silk flags in the wind of their flight. Only one
person remained behind, the girl Serenity, who knelt beside the boy and
begged him to talk to her, to wake up, to be all right.
Denise was as paralyzed as the night her Measure had been taken, unable
to flick an eyelash. Noel stuffed his hands in the pockets of his robe,
watching with interest as the girl pleaded with the dead boy. The shift
of his robe showed Denise that only now was he erect. When he turned
pale eyes on her, she had an instant's perfect terror that he was about
to use that erection on her.
"Don't worry," he reassured her, his smile curling crookedly. "They all
saw it, they all witnessed it, and they all have something to lose if
they talk about it."
And so, she realized, did she.
The incense drugs purged by the adrenaline rush of fear, she lurched to
her feet, snagging up her black silk robe with one hand. "Stay away
from me," she hissed, backing toward the stairs. "You sick, twisted
bastard—don't you ever come near me again!"
"But you make such an inspiring altar," he murmured, laughing at her
without sound. "I can't wait to read about this in your next
novel."
Thirteen
DINNER WITH THE LACHLANS: EVAN knew Holly was dreading it.
So was
he. But there was no way to avoid it and he'd put it off as long as he
could—for damned near three months, in fact. Father, sister,
brother-in-law, two nieces and a nephew, and three widowed aunts
escaping Boston's July inferno. God help her—and him.
On their way out the door, her phone rang. She let the machine pick it
up, cursing under her breath -when it turned out at be her publisher.
"Holly, my precious sweetness, save my wretched life and check your
e-mail the instant you get in—please please please!"
She looked at Evan, who shrugged.
"He sounds pretty desperate," she said. "I'd better go see what he
wants."
Five minutes later she was back, fuming. "Are you ready for this?" she
demanded. "Walter wants me to go to Kenya! Ben
Wolaver—you
don't know him and be thankful for it, thinks he's the greatest thing
since movable type—he's got pneumonia. Who the hell gets
pneumonia in summer?"
"Ben Wolaver, evidently. What's the gig?"
"Two weeks of seminars in Nairobi and Mombassa. Now, there's a climate
I really want to experience in the middle of July! '
"They have air conditioning," he remarked.
"At that fancy hotel they're dangling in front of my nose—you
damn betcha they have air conditioning. Plus a big fat honorarium, all
expenses paid, anything I want—yeah, they're making
it
really sweet."
"Gonna go?"
"Hell, no! There's a wedding to plan, and an engagement party,
and—" She frowned at him as they got into the elevator. "Why
do
you want me to go?"
"Didn't say that," he parried.
"Not in so many words."
"It's your work. And you like teaching. You turned down an
artist-in-residence for this summer because of me," he reminded her.
"I wasn't doing you any favors. I hate Chicago." As the elevator doors
opened, Holly tossed him the car keys. "Okay, what? Are the jitters
setting in?"
"No." He gave her scowl for scowl. "What, you think I'm gonna ask you
to marry me, then send you a text message to say it's over from 12,000
miles away? "
"Well, what am I supposed to think?"
He waited until they were on the street, the BMW purring like a pleased
panther, before saying, "Just that you might want to take some
time, think it over."
"Are you saying you. want time to think? Are you having doubts? No
bullshit, Evan, I need the truth."
"Holly, I swear I don't have a doubt in the world—except
maybe about what kind of husband I'm gonna be to you — "
"You're not your father, I keep telling you. When are you going to
listen?" Her voice gentled and she brushed a caress to his hand. "You
could just as easily be like your grandfather, the one you're named
for, whose wife called him a chuisle."
"I hope that's how it'll be. Don't go to Kenya if you don't want to,
but don't turn it down on my account, either. That's all I'm sayin'."
"No, it's not. What is it you're not telling me?"
"Like I said. I want you to be sure. I can be pretty irresistible when
I'm in the immediate vicinity—" He tried a grin; she wasn't
buying. "Holly ... I don't want to feel like I'm holding you back or
holding you down — "
Her temper exploded. "That's the stupidest thing you've ever said! Did
it escape your notice that I didn't cancel my European trip?
You
don't interfere with my work. I'd never allow it."
"I know," he said, not fully successful at keeping the wryness from his
voice.
She was silent for a few moments. Then: "Do you remember that first
week, when we were at dinner and Pete called you out on a triple
homicide?"
"Yeah." He frowned again, bewildered. "So?"
"You didn't want me to come. Once we were there, you ordered a cop to
take me home. It wasn't because the scene was horrifying—it
was,
but you didn't want me there because you wanted to keep me separate
from that world."
He thought it over. "I didn't want you touched by all that filth. I was
pretty sure you weren't gonna faint or anything—it's just
such a
shit-hole I deal with sometimes, Holly, you're above all that."
"No, you want me to be above all that. You'd do the same thing if I was
a waitress or a secretary. When you talk about your cases, you keep
things back. Like about the priest. Usually I don't mind—you
tell
me what you need to, what I need to know so I can understand. But I've
never deluded myself that I'm any help to you. Our minds work
differently. We both use our training, what we know, what our instincts
tell us, but you're in the here-and-now —and I spend my
working
life centuries in the past. Maybe — maybe there's only one
place
we both belong: the world we make between us. It's ours, and nobody
else gets inside it."
He drove in silence for awhile. "Every night I see people goin' home to
their families. 1 want that. 1 always have. It's expected, part of the
life story—you know, what you re supposed to do with
yourself.
But I do want a home, Holly. I want kids with you. A world that's
separate from everything else, where nobody can gel at us, nobody can
find us — 1 didn't know how much I wanted it, until you." He
smiled ruefully. "Is there anything else about me that you know and I
don't?"
"The day we stop surprising ourselves is ihe day we start to die."
"Did you write that?"
"Not yet—but I will!" She smiled back. "So. Kenya. You want
me to go."
"I want you to do what you want to do because you want to do it. Not
because ot me."
She repeated deliberately, "You want me to go."
"I guess maybe I do, some. Mostly I don't, but — "
"But you've got this idea in your head that it will prove you're not
holding me back or holding me down. And they accuse women ot being
irrational!"
As he parked the car and pocketed the keys, he was wondering how he
could ever find words to explain that as much as he loved her, his very
apprehension of her being gone was what made him want her to
go.
It didn't make any sense. Except it did, in a convoluted way. He wasn't
used to depending on anyone. Childhood had taught him that relying on
someone else for love, for comfort — a safe haven —
was
dangerous. Yet inside their world, his and Holly's, was his life. He
didn't fool himself that he contributed much to that world. Her
apartment, her things inside it; her arms wrapping him safe; her words
making him clear to himself. Her eyes, to see himself in.
When she got back from Kenya (he knew she'd go; the opportunity was too
good to miss), he'd marry her. After this one last test. Not of her; of
himself. To see il he could conquer the dread of being without her.
****
THEY WALKED INTO THE RESTAURANT at seven twenty-five. Evan's
beeper went off at seven twenty-nine. He borrowed her cell-phone and
went outside while she was escorted to their reserved table. When he
came back, he looked angry enough to chew the stainless steel bar.
"I'm gonna kill Carlos Hermangildez. He was supposed to cover for me
tonight. He
broke a finger playin' Softball this alternoon. Softball! He couldn't
hit a beach ball with a two-by-four."
"Go," she said.
"I can't just leave you here to explain — "
"They're already on their way. Go. I'll make your excuses."
"Holly, let's just leave a note with the — "
"Are you out of your mind? Even if they expect something that rude from
you, it'd look terrific for me to stand them up. Evan, go. It'll be
okay." He shook his head, smiling slightly. "Did I ever tell
you—" " — that you worship and adore me? That I'm
the love
of your life? That I - " Leaning down, he kissed
her lips.
"That I'll wrap this up as quick as I can
and come rescue you. Just don't turn your back on my old man
— he
likes big Irish butts, too." And with that and a wink he was gone.
****
IT WAS GETTING ON FOR ten when Lachlan finally returned to
the
restaurant. Holly was at a booth in the bar with a brandy, a cigar, and
an ashtray. Her back was to him, shoulders a little less square than
usual, russet hair coining loose from its upsweep. She reached to rub
the back of her neck, and he saw her sigh deeply before drinking from
her brandy.
Rough evening, huh! I owe you big- time for this one, Lady love.
He paused to order a drink, and when he turned back toward her table, a
tall, trendy man with carefully sun-streaked hair was trying to hit on
her. Lachlan took one long, angry step, intending to shove the
guy's tie down his throat — and then made himself approach
slowly. He'd never watched her read to other men's advances before.
This might be interesting.
"So who's the fool who left you here all alone?"
She didn't even look up. "Hes six-four, two-fifteen, and standing right
behind you."
The man laughed—and half-turned, and saw Evan. Who smiled,
all teeth.
"Uh—sorry—"
Lachlan made a shooing gesture with his hand. The man fled.
Holly was regarding him with brows arched above slightly unfocussed
eyes, and before he could speak, said, "Hi, sailor. New in town?"
"As a matter of fact, yeah. You come here often?"
Blue eyes strafed him head to toe. "I could come just looking at you."
He damned near choked. Rallying, he slid into the booth opposite her.
"I thought you were spoken for—you know, six-four,
two-fifteen?"
"Oh, him." She contemplated the glowing end of the cigar. "He did leave
me here all alone, in point of fact."
"Definitely a fool."
"It could have been worse." She was speaking very precisely, her words
almost clipped— which told him she'd had a
helluvalot to
drink. "If he'd stayed,
he would have wrecked a very nice evening -with his sister. She told me
all about him, and I told her all about him, and we agreed that he
really is the biggest asshole ever to walk this sweet green
Earth."
ShouDa known, he thought wryly. "What about the rest of the family?"
"Haven't met them. That's why I'm glad he wasn't here. 'Pissed off'
wouldn't even begin to describe it."
"What the hell happened?"
"Various and sundry for the kids. The father—"
"—was too drunk to go out in public." He rubbed his forehead,
trying to avert an incipient headache. "I'm sorry."
"I'm not. Maggie and I had a good time. I like her. She likes me,
too—at least, she said I wasn't as impossible for you as she
thought I'd be."
"After I finish killing Carlos, I'm gonna kill my sister."
"Speaking of homicides, what went on tonight?"
"Gang-bangers," he said shortly. "Federal warrant, my name on the file."
"Ah."
Grateful that she didn't push for details, he asked, "How'dyou know
it was me just now? You had your back turned."
"Lovah-man," she drawled, "Ah could picky'all outta a full house at
Yankee Stadium with mah eyes squeezed shut. Ah do believe it's called
'chemistry'?"
"And here I thought you were some kinda Witch or something." He
grinned, finished off his drink in two long swallows, and got to his
feet. "Let's go. Unless you're still waitin' for the other guy."
She looked him down and up, then concentrated her gaze below his belt.
"Looks like 'bout eight inches to me, when it gets all riled up." She
stubbed out her cigar. "Y'all'll do. C'mon, sailor."
****
THE NEXT MORNING LACHLAN LET Holly sleep in, waking her
around
noon with a large cup of coffee. She opened bloodshot eyes on him and
croaked out, "Caffeine!" But before he could hand her the mug she
paled, and her freckles turned green, and she bolted for the bathroom.
He waited a decent interval, wondering how Maggie was feeling today.
Then he called out, "Holly?"
"Go away." She returned to bed and he plumped pillows behind her,
trying not to laugh as she gulped coffee and glowered at him. "I hate
you," she announced.
"Wasn't my fault you drank like a fish last night."
"Fish don't drink." She paused, rubbing her temples. "At least, I don't
think they do. You might as well tell me—did I do anything
felonious?"
"You don't remember the fight?"
"Nice try, Lachlan. I've never hit anyone in my life." She paused.
"Except for a guy in high school who goosed me. I don't know which of
us was more astonished when I backhanded him."
"Not you in a fight, me in a fight. With the guy you were trying to
pick up. After he and I got into it, you started makin' book on who'd
win."
She downed more coffee, then said, "How much did I make when you beat
the crap out of him?"
"How d'you know I won?"
"Because there's not a mark on you. Q.E.D." Placing the coffee cup on
the night table, she squinted at him. "So? Where're my winnings?"
"You lost."
"Huh?"
"I gotta tellya my feeling's are hurt. You bet the bartender two
hundred bucks that I'd lose—and me your fianc'e
and the love of your life and everything — "
All at once a pillow slammed into his head. "You lying bastard
—"
With another groan, she collapsed. "Just kill me now, okay?
Have
mercy."
"Go back to sleep. You'll feel better tomorrow."
"No I won't. I'll be dead tomorrow."
"I ain't into necrophilia, babe."
She raised her head cautiously and squinted at him. "Huh?"
Jeeze, she was articulate today. He'd have to remember that: whenever
he wearied of the river of words, a bottle of vodka made a mighty fine
dam.
"Dinner?" he reminded her pointedly. "Champagne? Engagement ring?
Fucking until dawn to celebrate? Like I said, I ain't doin' it with a
corpse."
"If you don't go away and leave me alone, I'll get out my bolline and
make sure you never do it again with anybody."
****
"HEY, BEAUTIFUL," HE MURMURED TO her as the maltre d'
escorted
them to their table. "Did you know every man in the place is lookin' at
you?"
She shook her head, smiling slightly. "They were glaring at you, Evan.
You've got more hair and a better backside than any of them."
"Guys don't think like that."
"You don't, because you don't have to. You're the one with the great
backside, after all. And besides that, every woman in here was
staring at you. Except for a very few who were looking at
me—wondering whether you're with me because I'm rich
or
because I'm good in bed."
"Both," he replied promptly, and bowed as he held out her chair.
The waiter arrived, unfurled napkins, presented menus, touted the
evening's specials, and took their orders for drinks. When he had gone,
Holly cocked her head to one side and regarded him meditatively.
"You know, there really ought to be a model or actress or somebody
staggeringly gorgeous on your arm."
Evan's lips compressed for a moment. "Maggie told you about Donna,
didn't she."
"Which one of all the hundreds was that?" Holly parried.
"Knock it off. Maggie told me later that Donna scared the shit out of
her. I'd found somebody exactly like our mother—blonde,
beautiful, and the center of the universe," he went on bitterly. "You
worshipped her—or else."
"I think the way Maggie put it was 'dancing on a razor.' "
"That about sums it up. She was every kind of wrong for me."
"Doesn't make it any less painful that she left you," she murmured,
then ventured, "And broke your heart."
"That was just pride," he said dismissively.
"You know what? I think I m starting to like your stupid cowboy boots,
even if you won't tell me the truth about where you got them." She saw
his frown return with puzzlement at the non sequitur. Nice to
know
she could still throw him for a loop every so often. "They make you
something less than absolutely perfect."
His lips twisted wryly. "Like when we're at one of your literary
parties, with people tellin' me how brilliant you are—but I
just
spent an hour listenin' to you whine about screwin' up the plot so bad
they oughta pay you not to write?"
"Just so. I keep asking myself 'Why me?' You think you're not smart
enough for me, and I think I'm not pretty enough for you —
but
I'm the only one who's right."
"Bullshit." He signaled the hovering waiter. "I have a question for
you," he said to the young man. "Would you say that this lady here is
just average, very pretty, or a total knockout?"
"Does his tip depend on his answer?" Holly asked caustically.
"No, and shut up. Well?"
The waiter considered her. "Knockout," he said, grinning.
"Nice try, kid," Holly growled.
"It's the hair," he explained to Evan. "And the eyes."
"I think so, too. Bring her the escargot appetizer. I'll have lobster
ravioli."
"Very good, sir." He turned, paused, turned around again, and said,
"And the legs. Honest, ma'am."
When he left, she hissed, "That was so humiliating!"
"Why? Does his opinion matter to you?"
Narrowing her eyes at him, she asked silkily, "Do the opinions of the
people at those cocktail parties matter to you?"
"Touch'e " He laughed
softly, having made his
point. "I think you're gorgeous, and
you think I'm brilliant. Isn't that
all that really
matters?" When she shrugged, he sighed his
exasperation.
"Lady love, I'm about to ante up the engagement ring. Isn't
this
kind of a weird time to start all this?"
Appetizers, salads, and sourdough bread came and went. Pasta and wine,
gelato and biscotti, espresso—knowing what was coming next,
she
excused herself to go to the ladies' room to get herself
together.
Sure enough, her mascara was smudged, and she'd left her repair kit in
her other purse, her hair was hopeless. The Italian freckles had faded
back in May, but there were plenty left; she looked like Doris
Goddamned Day photographed without Vaseline smeared over the lens. Plus
she'd spilled sauce on her skirt.
This was what he wanted to marry?
She scrubbed at the splattering of red dots, and bits of paper towel
rolled soggily into the silk. Why her? It-wasn't that she'd taken for
granted that he desired her—she'd just avoided thinking about
it.
Her response to him was so overpowering that even if she had
sat
down to think it through, it wouldn't have mattered. She'd been
helpless from the instant she set eyes on him. She'd gone along for the
ride, loving every minute of it and only in the last few weeks realized
that he had truly become what a chuisle mo cboi meant: the pulse of her
heart.
Chucking the towel into the wastebasket, she glared at her reflected
face in the mirror. Idiot! The man of your dreams is about to make the
engagement official, and all you can do is bitch about the spots on
your dress —acting like you 're still eighteen at the fancy
college with the rich blue-bloods, and you just know they're gonna
smirk at your hillbilly accent and your hick clothes and your
freckle-face —
—and suddenly in Chorale practice there's thss scrawny
sixteen-year-old next to you who it turns out is just as
scared
and nervous as you are, and you wind up eating lunch together
and
it's as if you 'd known each other all your lives —
Holly smiled, imagining Susannah's exasperation. "Will you remember
tonight because you spilled sauce on your dress? Or because that sweet
gorgeous man is about to give you a ring worn by a woman who called her
husband a chuisle? Get a grip, McClure!"
As she returned to their table, Evan smiled and got to his feet.
Champagne had been poured. As she sat down, he regarded her with arched
brows.
"You want I should do the kneeling part again?"
She shook her head. "Once is enough in any relationship, Lachlan."
He resumed his chair and lifted his champagne flute. "Drink up. This is
the good stuff."
She raised her glass to him and sipped. "'Good'? This is bottled
sunlight!" As she set the glass down, she heard something rattle.
Casting him a suspicious glance, she peered at the bubbles. "You
didn't."
"Kinda risky, I know. You coulda swallowed it if you'd been thirsty
enough."
She poked a finger into the glass. It was too tall. She had to drink
the rest of the champagne and then upend the flute. Onto the tablecloth
fell a delicate circle of platinum filigree.
Lacking a diamond.
They stared at the ring. Then, horrified, at each other.
"Oh God — " Holly felt her eyes widen. "You don't think I
— "
"Did you?"
"I don't think so —" Frantically she turned the glass over
again, shaking it. "Evan, I couldn't have swallowed it—"
"Are you sure?"
The glass finally yielded a small square of white-fire diamond. Holly
let loose a tiny -whimper of gratitude, and then couldn't help but
giggle. Evan rolled his eyes and gave in to laughter.
"You want to know why?" he demanded. "This is why!"
"Because I make you laugh?"
"Because nothin's ever normal with you! It'd be just like you to've
swallowed the goddamn diamond—"
"It's not my fault the stone came loose!"
"—havin' doubts practically at the altar—what am I
gonna do with you?"
She grinned into his sparkling eyes. "Marry me." Giddy with relief, she
slid off her chair and went down on one knee, primed to pop the
question.
She heard silk rip.
"Umm—is there anything wrong, ma'am?"
Oh, splendid; the -waiter. Very carefully she stood up, one hand on the
jagged tear where the back seam of her dress used to be.
"Nice ass, too, right?" Evan asked the waiter.
"Very."
She glared. "This is not funny!"
"Sure it is," her intended said with infuriating sangfroid.
"If the lady has a wrap. . . ." the waiter ventured.
"The lady does not have a wrap," she snarled. "Evan, give me your
jacket." As he made no move to comply: "Give me your goddamned jacket,
Marshal, or I'll shoot you -with your own goddamned gun."
"I think she means it, sir."
Shrugging out of his suit coat, Evan replied, "I know she means it."
*****
IN DUE COURSE EVAN JOINED Holly in the restaurant's foyer,
and in
superbly well-mannered silence they waited for her car to be brought
around. The merciful quiet lasted eighteen
blocks—just long
enough for Holly to start chuckling and Evan to start brooding. The
pessimist in him was positive the diamond couldn't be reset before she
left for Kenya. Being a fundamentally superstitious Irish Catholic, he
didn't like the omen. "Are you sulking?"
"No."
"C'mon, lover-man. We had a great dinner and laughed our asses off. I'd
say that's a pretty successful evening. The only thing that got ruined
was my dress."
All at once he swung the BMW in a tight U-turn.
"Where are we going?" Holly asked.
He gave her a sidelong smile. Eventually he stopped the car on Fifth
Avenue. After hitting the emergency blinkers, he reached into
his
jacket pocket for the dashboard card that let him park wherever he
damned well pleased.
"What are we doing at St. Patrick's?" Holly asked.
"We're goin' to church."
He popped the trunk and got out of the car. Sorting through the mess of
jumper cables, CDs, coat, first aid kit, bottled water, snacks, and
other effluvia, he located the plastic bag she kept a change of clothes
in. The reason for this, she'd told him when asked, was that while at
UCLA she'd stocked her car in case The Big One hit. When he pointed out
that she lived in New York now and didn't have to worry about
earthquakes, she informed him that hurricanes and blizzards weren't
much fun to get stuck in, either. Slamming the trunk, he went to the
passenger's side and waited for her to roll down the window. She did,
giving him a sour look.
"Just get dressed," he said, shoving the clothes at her. "Can't go to
church with your butt to the breeze."
She struggled into the jeans, with only a brief glimpse of bare breasts
as she rid herself of the silk in favor of a workshirt. She got out of
the car, he keyed the alarm system, and they went up the steps of St.
Patrick's Cathedral.
"I'm not confessing," she warned as he opened the great doors.
"Neither am I."
"What are we here for? "
He didn't really have an answer.
Cool, soaring, beautiful—he tried to feel God's presence, but
something was getting in the way. A few elderly women knelt in prayer;
a middle-aged man emerged from a confessional; a priest was polishing
the altar candlesticks. Lachlan bypassed the font, but halfway up the
nave he paused to genuflect and cross himself. Holly didn't do
likewise. He sat in the front pew, eyes on the Presence Lamp. She sat
beside him, fidgeting. When he took her hand, she stilled.
"I wanted to give you the ring before you leave for Kenya," he began
quietly. "I just wanted there to be something that means you're mine."
"Nothing could make me any more yours than I already am."
"I'd marry you right now, this minute, if I could."
The priest was limping toward them. "Something I can help you with?"
Another omen? After what he'd just said, to have a priest approach as
if—
Holly was smiling slightly, shaking her head. "No, but thank you.
Father."
"Go in peace." A gnarled hand sketched a cross over them, and he
departed.
Holly said very softly, "I won't go to Kenya if you don't want me to.
Ask me to stay and I will."
"You can't not go. And like I said, I want you to be sure about me.
About us. I want you to have some time away."
"But you also want your ring on my finger." She slipped away from him
and padded barefoot to a rank of votive candles flickering in red glass
holders. He rose slowly to follow her, watching as she knelt and chose
a candle from the box.
"Salve, Rcgina, mater misericordiae, vita, dulcedo, et spes
nostra, salve, salve Regina," she sang softly, lighting the
candle—not bothering with the thin, lit taper
provided for
the purpose—and placing it with the others. Rising, she
turned to
him. Her expression was slightly defensive, slightly defiant. "I've
offered Fire to Her in every church I've ever been in."
He stroked stray curls from her cheeks, smiling a little. "Holly
Elizabeth McClure, you really are a pagan."
"Especially on Sundays." She relaxed and winked. "And now, Marshal, I'm
about to do something very Medieval—cathedrals have that
effect
on me. Your hand, please." She took his fingers in her own,
and—perfectly serious now— said, "Here, on holy
ground, I
plight thee my troth in true faith and honor — because you
are
the only man I've ever known who truly understands what faith and honor
mean. Now kiss me, a chuisle. God won't mind."
Fourteen
I DONT BELIEVE THIS!"
Evan looked up from his computer screen. With Holly in Mombassa as of
yesterday, the engagement party was his to organize. On his
lunch
hours. She'd done this to him with malice aforethought, he was sure of
it. Susannah's presence — even breathing fire and waving a
blue-backed writ—was a welcome reprieve.
"What damnfool jackass of a prosecutor got a bunch of shit-writs
together for a grand jury that could return this?"
"I applaud your faith in the legal system. Hand it over."
She slapped it onto his desk, fuming. The high-flown legalese meant
that one Denise Claudine Jose'phe, along with several as yet
unidentified co-conspirators, was hereby indicted on Federal
racketeering charges. The name was familiar—he hadn't read
her
books, but he and Holly had run into her once or twice at parties.
"RICO?" he said. "That's creative."
"That's just the sauce to cover the stink. Read on."
The main course, it seemed, included drugs, sex with minors,
kidnapping, and human sacrifice. Lachlan stared wordlessly up at
Susannah.
"Want me to slug you so you know you're awake?" she asked. "I'd just
love to hit something right now."
"I'll pass. What is all this crap, anyhow?" He read a little farther.
At the above-named residence, on May 1st, 2002, the body of Scott
William Fleming, aged nineteen, was discovered —
"Fleming?" The penny dropped. "As in the Reverend — "
"Yeah, the Reverend. He's got Congressman Parkhurst in his back pocket
and they're both out to get their version of God into the White House.
Looks like they plan to do it over the corpse of a nineteen-year-old
boy."
He sank back into his chair, shaking his head. Not just another penny
but a great big shiny silver dollar dropped while Susannah spoke. May
first equaled Beltane. He'd read enough to know how some people
celebrated it. He also knew he'd be doing a whole lot more reading and
researching and requesting personal files before he asked
Judge-Magistrate Elias Bradshaw what the hell was going on.
****
WHEN BRADSHAW READ THE POLICE report and the judicial memo
assigning him the case, he wished his ethics permitted him the use of a
few esoteric curses.
Denise, Beltane, and the Reverend Fleming's son. Shit.
He had to recuse himself. How the hell could he recuse himself without
giving a reason why? Worthless mental gymnastics were
interrupted
by Susannah's arrival in his office. She was holding a
videotape.
"I have a present for you—a tape of Reverend Fleming's latest
talk-show appearance. You're gonna love it, guaranteed."
"Can't wait," he replied, in a voice that meant just the opposite.
Bradshaw sprawled back in his leather chair and waited while she
stuffed the cassette into the VCR, turned on the television, and came
to stand behind him with one hand on his shoulder and the other holding
the remote control.
"Welcome back to God Forum," said the programs host. "My guest this
evening—"
"Pause it," Elias said. When Susannah complied, he craned his neck to
look up at her. "What's 'God Forum'?"
"Local cable show in Jersey. This is from a week or so ago. It got
picked up by most of the New York news outlets. I'm told the Reverend
might be on 60 Minutes next Sunday."
"Oh, that's just exquisite. Okay, roll it. I might as well get a
preview of what I'm going to hear in court."
"—received his Doctorate of Divinity from Yale University,
and
has ministered to congregations all over the world. Some will
remember his appearance here a year ago, after his return from a
mission to India. Today he is visiting with us despite his terrible
grief—for his nineteen-year-old son, Scott, was killed in May
by
a Satanic cult. Reverend Fleming, I want to tell you how sorry I am for
your loss."
The camera switched to the Reverend—tall, silver-haired, a
wedding ring gleaming from his left hand and a gold class ring with a
large diamond sparkling from his right. He wore a black suit, somber
tie, and a small American flag lapel pin. The perfect dream of a
televangelist, he scorned the airwaves and stuck to his pulpit.
Bradshaw had to give him credit for that; he probably drove his
handlers crazy by not agreeing to a TV show of his own.
"Yale Divinity, huh?" Elias murmured. "Presumably, then, he has a
brain. Why is he using it to annoy mel"
"Hush up and listen," Susannah admonished.
"—here tonight to beg anyone who has ever thought of looking
into
such cults to consider the consequences of such action," the Reverend
was saying in a deep, velvety voice. "To those already involved, I say
to them that with Divine Guidance, they can renounce all involvement
with Satan, Satanism, and demon worship, with Witchcraft, White Magic,
Black Magic, voodoo, and the Black Mass. For the sake of their immortal
souls they must repudiate all kinds of fortune telling,
tea-leaf
reading, palm reading, crystal balls, Tarot cards, astrology, spirit
guides, pendulum swinging, levitation, and automatic handwriting."
"'Automatic handwriting'?" Elias snorted.
"Oh, he's just getting started."
"—abandon all psychometry, geomancy, cleidomancy, aeromancy,
am-niomancy, ceromancy, crystallomancy, lithomancy—"
There was a hypnotic rhythm to it, like the relentless clatter of a
train as it bore down on where you were tied to the tracks.
"—arithmancy, lychnomancy, necromancy, pyromancy, sciomancy,
tasseo-mancy, rhapsodmancy, and all other auguries that are part of
fortune telling."
"And just what are all these things. Reverend?" the host asked,
curiosity warring with bewilderment on his face.
"Wickedness," came the prompt reply. "Evil. Abomination. Surely on the
Day of Judgment these horrors will be worthy only of being cast into
the lake of everlasting fire. For sinners, there is only pain and
suffering, despair and misery awaiting them. As there is for
all
those who believe in reincarnation, metaphysics and
spiritualism,
transcendental meditation, yoga, Zen, all Eastern cults and religions,
mysticism, idol worship — every cult that denies the blood of
Christ and every philosophy that denies the Divinity of the Lord Jesus."
"So much for pluralism and tolerance," Susannah muttered.
"Yeah. When does he start in on Jews, Catholics, Mormons, Muslims, and
Zoroastrians?"
"Reverend," said the host, "the Bible teaches us specifically that thou
shalt not suffer a witch to live."
"It does, it does," the Reverend agreed, nodding. "Yet killing is not
of Jesus Christ. We pray for our enemies that God will be merciful unto
them, and bring them to know the truth. So how do we reconcile God's
injunction in the Old Testament with the universal love and peace and
gentleness preached by His Son?"
The host smiled slighdy. "Did God change His mind?"
Reverend Fleming smiled back, Hashing an exemplary set of teeth. "Not
at all. Remember the commandment: thou shalt not kill. In the original
Hebrew, the sense of the teaching about witches is that the people of
God must not allow a witch to live among them. Such persons must be
cast out and utterly condemned. Yet even witches may enter
into
the community of God if they accept Jesus as their personal Savior, if
they become true Christians and live Christ-like lives."
Susannah remarked, "This is the really good part."
"In Jesus' Holy Name, they must renounce all psychic heredity that they
may have, and break any demonic hold or curses over themselves and
their family lines back to Adam and Eve through the power of
the
blood of the Lord Jesus Christ."
She paused the tape again, and Bradshaw glanced away from the frozen
image of the Reverend Fleming, eyes ablaze with righteous fury.
"Eh, he actually believes in hereditary witchcraft. Is that incredible,
or what?"
"Or what," Bradshaw echoed, trying to sound casual. "Did I have to
watch this before lunch, when my blood sugar's low and I'm pissed at
the world anyway?"
"Better before lunch than after," she retorted, cueing the tape.
"They must renounce the Prince of Occult Sex and all the sex spirits
which enter through occult involvement, participation, transfer, or by
inheritance. They must command all demons to forsake their loins,
hands, lips, tongues, breasts, masculinity, femininity, and all organs
and orifices of their bodies. They must confess and repent of all
fixation with sensual desire and appetites, and indulgences of them
— all longing for the forbidden—all inordinate
affection
— all unnatural and unrestrained passions and lusts."
A brief snarl of laughter escaped Bradshaw. "Well, he sure as shit
believes in sex! Does this get any racier, or have I heard all his best
lines?"
Susannah stopped the tape and walked over to switch off television and
VCR. "You'd better take him more seriously, Elias. He's not kidding."
"I never thought he was." Then he asked a question he'd been afraid to
ask ever since she'd first walked into his office. "What do you think
about Witches?"
She gave a shrug of slender shoulders. "I think people have a right to
believe whatever gives them comfort and a moral center, as long as it
doesn't harm anybody else. 1 don't think that anyone has the
right
to say that his -way is the one and only way—or that anybody
has
a direct hot-line to God. 1 don't like being proselytized. I'm sure
they only have my best interests at heart, and what they're trying to
do is very noble and generous from their point of view—saving
my
soul and all. But keep it out of my face!" She smiled fleetingly.
"Can't you just see the Rev in India?"
"What do you mean?"
"Let's say somebody in New Delhi started quoting the Vedad, expecting
him to accept those scriptures as unassailable truth. Just the
way
he expects them to accept the Bible." She gave a most unladylike snort.
"Fundamentalists are fundamentalists, whatever religion they
belong to. For them, a thing is true because the Bible or the Qu'ran or
the Torah or the whatever says it is, and that's that."
"It's my understanding," he said carefully, "that Witches as a rule
don't accept Judeo-Christian scriptures as the word of a
god—any god. If they did, they'd probably be Jews or
Christians,
not Witches. '
"Exactly my point. Justifying yourself with Bible verses to people who
don't believe in the Bible — it's preposterous." She went to
the
credenza and poured them both glasses of iced tea. As she did, she went
on, "As for Witches, who knows? You can see Mozart as a Witch, or
Einstein —-anybody who can do things other people can only be
flummoxed by. People who make things happen that nobody else even
dreamed of. It's what we were saying that: night at Holly's —
one
man's genius, incomprehensible to ordinary people, makes
another
man cry 'Witch'."
He accepted the tall iced tea and sipped gratefully. His throat had
been a little dry with apprehension regarding her answers.
"And
one man's religion can make another cry Witch'. But the issue with this
case is Satanism."
"I'm surprised at you, Elias Sutton Bradshaw! ' she exclaimed, green
eyes glinting. "All these questions about Witches, and you were born in
Salem! '
"Very funny," he retorted.
"Not actually," Susannah countered. "Reverend Fleming's son did die at:
some kind of Black Mass. Lots of people play at Goth and vampirism and
all that." All at once she grinned. "I was in Virginia a few years ago,
visiting Holly's farm, and one evening her Cousin Jesse came over for
dinner. We were right in the middle of the most luscious apricot
cobbler you ever tasted when the phone rang, and poor Jesse had to
leave. Know why? A farmer had found one of his calves dead in the
field, all its blood drained, and wanted Jesse —he's the
sheriff—to arrest the local vampire.'
"Excuse me?"
"That's about what I said, too. Lulah packed up some cobbler and sent
Jesse on his way, and then said with an absolutely straight face that
she wasn't surprised, the vampire had gotten married and his
new
wife was probably wearing him out, so he needed a decent meal."
Assuming a Virginia drawl, she finished, " 'Though why he picked
Ephraim Fuller's stock to harvest, I couldn't begin to
say—that
old bull of his is flat outta jizz an' sires the scrawniest calves I
ever did see.'"
Bradshaw choked on laughter. "One day I've got to meet Aunt Lulah."
"You'd love her. Most men do, according to Holly," she added with a
twinkle. "She could've married a hundred times, but she never
could see why she'd want some whiskery ol' crotch-scratcher around
messing up Grandma Flynn's carpets with his muddy boots."
Elias rubbed his freshly shaven chin. "What happened about the vampire?"
"I laughed so hard I forgot to ask!"
Aunt Lulah, he reflected, was one savvy lady.
"Anyway," Susannah went on, "what I was saying -was that Satanism and
all that is pretty trendy these days. I've yet to figure out why. It
seems to me that whatever your faith is, it's pointless unless it
awakens the best parts of you."
"I agree," he murmured.
"That's why I could never stomach organized religion—at
least,
not the way we got it in Connecticut. I suppose that nominally I'm a
Christian, but I've never joined a church."
"Why not? I'd think a good Episcopalian upbringing—"
"Baptist!" she corrected. "Great-grandpa Wingfield married a Baptist,
got disinherited except for the house he lived in, and we've thumped
Bibles to varying degrees ever since."
So that was where the money had gone, he mused. Lost for love and
religious differences.
"What I object to is that it's all based on fear," Susannah was saying.
"Do this, and God will be pissed off. Do that, and burn forever."
"That's a bizarre attitude for a lawyer," he remarked. "What keeps
people on the straight and narrow is fear of the police and the courts.
It's comparable to religion, that way."
"You're entirely too cynical, Your Honor. Shouldn't it be instead that
right behavior—whatever your faith says it is, which is
pretty
constant among all the world's great religions—is rewarded,
rather than wrong behavior punished? Where's the comfort in a grim old
God sitting up there -watching, waiting for you to screw up so He can
consign you to the Pit? Whatever happened to joy? Whatever happened to
the idea that when you do something good, when you're kind and
compassionate to your fellow humans, God is smiling approval? Christ
died for our sins, Eli, but isn't it more important that He spent His
life telling us to be good to each other?"
Bradshaw considered the Reverend Fleming's religion of pain and
suffering, despair and misery, with everything forbidden except that
one narrow path, and all at once wanted to fold this woman into his
arms and see the world through the gentle translucency of her faith. He
smiled at her instead, and the answering warmth in her eyes was almost
as good as holding her. Holding on to her.
A discreet knock on his door turned their heads. Mrs. Osbourne, her
face pinched with disapproval, filled the doorway with a stylish blue
linen pantsuit and announced, "Are we at home to a Ms. Josephe?"
"No," Susannah said.
"That's what I told her," Mrs. Osbourne replied with deep satisfaction.
Elias knew he'd have to see Denise sooner or later. He couldn't decide,
however, whether an improper communication—and, as
the judge
in a case involving her, it would be highly
improper—should
take place in secret or where others could observe. Safety in numbers
of witnesses, but who knew what she might say?
"Bradshaw!" came Denise's voice from the outer office. "Let me in or
I'll—"
"Not that way, miss," said Deputy Marshal Wasserman. "The door you'll
be using is right behind you."
"Get your hand off me —"
"Maybe I should help give her directions," Susannah said, and left with
Mrs. Osbourne, decisively shutting the door.
Bradshaw closed his eyes and rubbed both hands over his face. Wishing
he had time for a hefty slug from the bottle in his desk, he stood,
shouldered into his robes, prepared his mind and his magic, and went to
do battle in the outer office.
Denise was still there, shrill and adamant. Pete Wasserman, Mrs.
Osbourne, and Susannah had barricaded her near the hall door; they were
a fortification that would withstand just about anything. Elias didn't
want that to become necessary.
"Ms. Josephe?" he said, as if he'd never seen her before. "It's
impossible for me to talk to you without the presence of your attorney."
"All you have to do is listen," she snapped.
The generous folds of full black sleeves could and did hide a multitude
of things; Bradshaw knew one judge who sometimes brought her cat to
court, where it slept quite cozily in the crook of her elbow. What
Elias hid now wasn't as benign.
Denise opened her mouth again. And no sound came out. Her
eyes—green like Susannah's, but mottled with
brown—opened,
too, as wide as they would go.
"Very wise of you to have changed your mind," he remarked. "Marshal,
would you be so kind as to open the door? Thank you."
Deprived of the powers of speech, Denise was too astonished to use any
of her own powers. He'd been betting on that; she wasn't the type who
could think on her feet. Wasserman had her out the door before she knew
it.
"That was different," Susannah noted. When Elias merely shrugged, she
added, "She was a lot more insistent last time."
He'd been hoping she didn't remember last autumn. "Maybe she's
mellowed."
"Or maybe now that she's going to be in your court—" Susannah
frowned. "Why was she here in November, anyway?"
For a variety of reasons, Elias Bradshaw had learned long ago to think
on his feet—and more quickly than most, or so he flattered
himself. Lying to Susannah came hard; it always had, but it
had
gotten worse the last few months.
He'd discovered it was no easier if he wasn't looking into those green
eyes, the hint of blue in their depths making them almost the color of
emeralds. So he met her gaze, and let a corner of his mouth quirk
upward, and cribbed a page from Aunt Lulah's book of witchly wisdom.
"If I remember rightly, she wanted to turn me into a toad."
It worked. More or less. Wasserman grinned, Sophia Osbourne grimaced,
and Susannah just looked disgusted.
****
THAT EVENING BRADSHAW CALLED DENISE from a restaurant men's
room
pay phone in Greenwich Village. A confrontation was inevitable, and he
wanted to choose the time and the venue—not his chambers, or
his
home, or hers, or e-mail, or any telephone that could be traced to him.
"That was a stupid stunt you pulled today," he began without preamble
and without identifying himself. "Don't do it again."
"Same to you, Magistrate," she snarled. "How dare you —"
"Shut up, Denise, and listen. I'm no more thrilled about this than you
are."
"Then fix it!"
"Need I remind you that you don't give me orders?"
"Do it, or I'll tell them all what you really are. And I can prove it."
"Really?" he asked with genuine curiosity. "How?"
"I know everyone in your Circle. I know their names, where they live,
where they work. I can ruin them all — and I intend to let
them
know it. Are they so loyal to you that they'll keep their mouths shut?"
"Yes,' he answered with quiet certainty.
She barely paused. "The FBI may have done a background check on you
before you got onto the bench, but they hardly knew where to
look,
did they? "
"And you think you can point them in the right direction?"
She laughed. "I know someone who was there that night in Salem, and
knows what you and the others did to that man. I'm sure you remember."
"You know, I can't help thinking that you get your life confused with
your books—one drama queen moment after another. Doesn't it
get
rather wearying?"
"If this was one of my books, I'd have you run over by a truck!"
"What appalling dearth of imagination. How do you get onto the
best-seller lists? No, don't answer that—I have no desire to
find
out who you're screwing." He ignored her sharp hiss. "Keep a low
profile, Denise. Considering the risk, I'm sure you can manage to
restrain yourself. If you can't, or won't—"
"You don't give me orders, either!"
"That wasn't an order," he said quietly. "That was a threat. Good
night."
Fifteen
NAIROBI WAS A NOISY NEON chaos; Mombassa, on the seacoast, had been
humid misery. But it was easy to forget the heat as a prop
plane
took her and twenty other dumbfounded tourists low over the bush toward
Maasai country. From barely five hundred feet she stared down at
giraffes and elephants doing what giraffes and elephants had been doing
for a million years in the place where they were supposed to do it.
Other countries marked the centuries and the millennia with cathedrals
and pyramids, cities and battlefields; the African plains were timeless.
Tht: seminars had gone quite well, the coordinator assuring her that
Ben Wolaver wasn't even missed, let alone regretted. Kenyans took pride
in their heritage—one of the richest histories on the planet,
for
it was the place where humankind began. Kenya's stories were essential.
Ancestral tales and dreams of the future, feeling and thoughts and
imaginings, everyday lives and the tragedies of the AIDS
epidemic—all these things needed telling. Holly's
tutorials
on historical research and the uses of fiction had excited her
audiences into profuse scribbles in their notebooks and hundreds of
questions she answered as best she knew how.
After twelve days of cities, the offer of a photographic safari was too
good to pass up. As she settled into her room at a Lake Nakuru lodge,
she felt guilty glee at being incommunicado, for a whole week, there
being no computers or cellphones in the bush. There was barely
even electricity, and even that cut off at nine every night. Sitting on
the wooden porch, sipping brandy and listening to animals and birds she
couldn't yet identify, she realized that whereas selected persons knew
where she was, not even they could easily get in touch with her
—
something that had never happened to her before.
Five days, ten game drives, and approximately
one hundred
new freckles later, she'd nearly forgotten that the outside world
existed. Cheetahs, lions, hippos, gazelle, antelope, elephants,
giraffes, baboons—what a treasure of life this place was.
Cradle
of humankind, where homo sapiens had learned to stand upright and make
tools and communicate, one to the other. She thought about her
conversation with Evan and Susannah and Elias, about dancing and
artwork and song—yes, here was magic, the most
intrinsic and
primal magic of all. In the low rumble of a lion, in the heartbeat
rhythm of drums. Holly touched, if only for fleeting moments, the most
elemental source of magic. Not her magic: everyone's. It was the
birthright of all humanity, the inner knowing that there was something
greater and more powerful than anyone could ever imagine, and that a
share of that something existed within every human on the planet.
There was something within her that wanted to crouch before
a fire
at night, rocking gently back and forth, talking tales and singing
songs, weaving the life of the land and the life inside her into a
single powerful whole that was deep and real and true. And she came to
realize that this was her most authentic magic: the thing she could do
rather than the thing she was. Blood-magic, but not the kind where she
had to bleed. This was coded in the double helix over millions of years
of evolution. Some people expressed humanity's innate magic in music,
in the movements of the dance, in painting or sculpture or weavings;
her share came in words.
She tried to write it down, to designate language that would transmit
the experience. Not surprisingly, no arrangement of syllables
and
sentences satisfied her. Sheer frustration suddenly made her laugh
aloud in the thatched privacy of her little bungalow, wryly regarding
scrawl-covered pages by candlelight.
Shaman? Wordsmith? Worker of sounds and symbols into pictures,
thoughts, ideas? Her particular share of that something was inadequate
to the task—but, truly, who possessed gift enough to
articulate
this wonder? It was enough to know the magic was real, and to feel its
existence inside her as part of the whole of Creation.
The intensity would fade, of course, as all such feelings did. Yet
there were fragments of it every day, like bright flecks of gemstones
glimpsed at unexpected moments: writing postcards to Nicky and
Alec, finding a batik robe for Aunt Lulah, selecting a beaded necklace
for Susannah; just thinking about Evan. Maybe, she thought, whimsy
making her smile, maybe the part of it in me reflects the
parts in
them, and the light and the colors keep refracting off each other, and
that's what love is. Those bits of Creation and Forever recognizing
each other, making magic And it's up to iu) to keep them shiny bright.
Amused by herself and the world at large, she packed the pages away in
her suitcase, blew out her candle, and went to bed.
****
EVAN LACHLAN NODDED AGREEMENT. "Salmon day. Work like hell
swimming upstream, and all you get is screwed." He opened the door
leading to the back chambers, nodding approval when he saw the hallway
was empty. "Kinda hard to leave it at the door if it's already in the
courtroom when you arrive."
"I've never been seriously tempted before now. But I can hardly recuse
myself without some sort of explanation."
"That would make interesting hearing," Lachlan chuckled.
"Well, yeah," Bradshaw said, smiling a little. "And don't
worry—it's a temptation I can resist. Although I
don't know
how long I'll be able to resist the urge to bash all their heads
together."
"I'll hold your coat."
"Heard from Holly?"
"She called at the butt-crack of dawn from Nairobi." Lachlan sighed and
raked a hand back through his hair. "Somebody at the conference offered
her a safari, so she's off taking pictures of warthogs. It's her way of
gettin' out of writing up the invite list for the wedding."
"Hand it off to Susannah. What will she be wearing, by
the way?"
"Damned if I know." The Marshal grinned. "Personally, I've been
threatening the Lachlan hunting tartan, embroidered in day-glo
shamrocks."
Bradshaw was fighting a grin as he entered his chambers—which
was
ex-acdy what Lachlan intended. This was going to be a shitty day; they
both knew it; and as Evan saw it, now that he knew certain things, his
job was to provide a minute or two of breathing space as well as
constant protection.
Physical protection, anyway. God only knew what Denise Josephe had
stashed in her purse. From Bradshaw's description of her magical
orientation, it could be anything from a few herbs to a mummified bat's
skull.
Returning to the courtroom door, Lachlan vetted spectators and lawyers
and reporters—who had already been through one security check
at
the courthouse entrance. Because it was August and muggily hot,
everyone was in summer-weight clothing, which made the job easier: no
place to hide instruments of mayhem beneath cotton dresses or
short-sleeved shirts. He and Pete Wasserman were meticulous with metal
detectors all the same. Everyone came up clean.
Supporters of the Reverend and of Denise Josephe were pretty much
identical in their wide mix of age, appearance, and social
class.
They could easily be told apart, however, by their choice of jewelry:
crosses versus inverted pentagrams. Lachlan was sure both
sides
had chosen their wardrobes with the media in mind. The print
reporters—no electron jockeys, thank God—annoyed
Evan, but
they knew better by now than to ask him for information. Instead they
interviewed spectators until Pete told them to shut up or get
out.
Susannah was busy behind the bench, arranging whatever it was she
arranged for her boss. Her long blonde hair was scraped back in a
severe chignon, her black suit and plain white blouse unenlivened by so
much as a pair of earrings. Lachlan doubted she was even wearing
mascara. She was gorgeous all the same.
And nervous. She fussed with Bradshaw's laptop computer—which
any
reporter would have sold body parts to hack into—a
silver
pitcher of ice water, a tall cut-glass tumbler, a gavel that had at one
time been used by Joseph Story, United States Supreme Court Associate
Justice from Massachusetts, who had written the majority opinion
freeing the Amuttad captives in 1841. Lachlan had been surprised, and
then not surprised, to find out the gavel had been a gift from Alec
Singleton when Bradshaw was appointed to the Federal Bench.
The attorneys were arrayed at their tables, seven men of varying
heights, weights, ages, and demeanors, all in expensive suits. Lachlan
didn't recognize any of them. They had been mightily offended when he
insisted on putting them through/the same security as everyone
else—as if a degree from Harvard or Yale pulled more weight
than
the five-pointed star of a United States Marshals Service badge.
Denise Josephe was at the defense table, inspecting her flawless
fingernails. Another green-eyed blonde in a black suit, white blouse,
and tightly pinned French twist—but the contrast with
Susannah
could not have been greater even if the accused hadn't been wearing
make-up and jewelry. Seeing her in person, Lachlan now remembered her.
Mainly he remembered that, at a book launch this spring, her
lipstick-red dress had clashed so agonizingly with Holly's aubergine
and the featured author's coral velvet that the wincing
photographer told them his film was color and he didn't dare
take
a picture.
The Reverend Fleming arrived at last, tall and silver-maned, impeccably
dressed in a black suit and tie. His side of the courtroom murmured
sympathetically, ready to offer handshakes and hugs. He paused
at
the doorway for Pete Wasserman to run his security check; Evan watched
his colleague's polite professionalism, knowing what Pete
thought
of this guy, who included Jews in his list of pagans. Mormons,
Catholics, Muslims, Buddhists, and other sinners. But nobody would ever
see it on Pete's face.
Fleming made his way slowly up the center aisle, accepting words and
embraces with grace. Denise Josephe s adherents muttered and
scowled, and a few of them made complex gestures with their hands,
presumably to curse him. Lachlan doubted that any would have more
effect than simply giving him the finger.
The court clerk finally announced Judge Bradshaw. Everyone stood. His
Honor swept in like a nor'easter, robes swirling, face grim above the
collar of a gloomy gray broadcloth shirt and the knot of probably the
ugliest paisley tie Lachlan had ever seen him wear. Gaveled into
session, the courtroom silenced itself and the lawyers told Bradshaw
their names.
Evan had watched His Honor in all his many judicial moods: generally
calm, sometimes irritated, occasionally sarcastic, rarely moved. He had
never seen this expression on Bradshaw's face before, and never heard
him begin a session with a single word: "Chambers."
Lachlan did what Wasserman signaled him to do with a jerk of his chin,
and escorted the parties to the back hallway, ushering them through a
glass-paned door. He stood guard outside, studiously not listening.
Five minutes later the volume became such that he could not help but
hear. Five sentences later, he decided his presence and
perhaps
even his weapon were necessary, and opened the door.
****
BRADSHAW SEATED HIMSELF BEHIND HIS desk and waited until
everyone
was inside. There was only one other chair in this room, over in the
corner—a purposeful arrangement allowing him to use the desk
as
if it were the bench in his courtroom.
Now that he was close enough to smell her, Denises littlegru-gru bag
-was also close enough to irk him. He was familiar with the usual
contents of such bags: nails, bones, Snake Root Seal, John the
Conqueror root, calendula, marigold, buckthorn, skunk cabbage,
bloodstone, hematite, and who knew what else that was specific to her
current purposes. He had known full well she'd bring something with
her, and had considered gathering a few things of his own. But he had
never yet brought his magic into his courtroom, and wasn't about to
start now.
"You will explain yourselves," he told the assembled lawyers, "and then
I will decide whether or not your arguments will be heard in
public—any more than they already have been," he added
pointedly.
"There was no gag order—" said one of the attorneys. Bradshaw
shut him up with a glance. "I'm waiting."
"Simply put, Scott Fleming's death was deliberate, cold-blooded
murder." Denises lawyer took a half-step forward. "That hasn't been
establ — " "I won't warn you again," Bradshaw snapped.
"Continue." Point man for the prosecution was Andrew Parkhurst, nephew
of the Congressman whose interests dovetailed so comfy-cozy
with
the Reverend Fleming's. Wondering how anyone with a law degree
from East Nowhere God-in-His-Glory College had ever managed to pass the
bar—and knowing he was being a Harvard snob for thinking
it—Elias gestured for Parkhurst to begin.
"Your Honor, Reverend Fleming states that his son was not there as a
Satanic participant."
"So what was he doing?"
"Testing his faith. His true faith."
Bradshaw was professionally compelled to maintain an impassive
expression and the proper judicial distance; Susannah had no
such
problems. She frankly stared, saying, "I beg your pardon?"
With impervious serenity, Parkhurst went on, "As Jesus was tempted, so
too was Scott Fleming. Also like Jesus, he triumphed over Satan. That's
why he was killed."
"And rose again on the third day?" Denise enquired sweetly.
"That's enough," Elias ordered.
"Are you telling me," Denises lawyer said slowly, "that he went into
that house knowing full well what would go on, he was willing
to
participate, and did so as some test of faith?"
"Exactly. He was murdered because his faith survived the experience.
They could not allow him to live and bear witness."
"The facts," interjected Denises lawyer, "are that Scott Fleming went
voluntarily to a ritual, participated
enthusiastically—evidenced by his own semen — and
when
further sexual gratification was not forthcoming, threatened serious
bodily harm and had to be restrained, at which point he incurred
injuries that led to his death. It was an accident." He folded his arms
with an air of And that's that.
"His neck was broken!"
"Entirely accidental."
"The Lord God knows the truth of this—and the truth of what
is in
your heart, Counselor. And in yours, Judge Bradshaw," he added with a
portentous frown.
Denise glared. "You sanctimonious prick! You wouldn't mind if he
brought his religion into the courtroom if he believed the same things
you believe! You'd strew his path with rose petals every time he took
the bench!"
"That's enough!" Bradshaw roared.
The door swung open. Marshal Lachlan stood there, broad shoulders
almost filling the doorway, hands casually on his hips, jacket open to
reveal his Glock. Subtle, Bradshaw thought, sardonically amused.
"Everything okay, Your Honor?"
"Nothing to worry about. Marshal. Thank you."
Lachlan nodded, left chambers, shut the door, and stood with his back
against the rippled glass. It was so obvious it was almost
funny.
It also worked. Everyone calmed down, with a weather-eye on the
powerful shoulders shadowing the glass.
Bradshaw watched the two sides face off, his eyes narrowing. He could
guess what had happened. Some people got off on strangulation or
suffocation during sex. If Scott Fleming wasn't one of them, then at
the very least he had been introduced to the practice that night. Had
it gotten out of control? Or had someone deliberately killed the boy?
Considering Denises usual playmates, he leaned toward the former. But
proving it one way or the other—
The only fact that mattered was that the boy was dead. Recalling the
tall, lanky, defiant youth on that hilltop the night of Imbolc, Elias
shook his head. "Shall we return to the question of why this case is in
my courtroom?" he asked pleasantly.
Parkhurst said, "Kidnapping across state lines—New Jersey to
New York. Murder in the first degree. RICO."
"You have an interesting interpretation of the Racketeer Influenced and
Corrupt Organizations Act," retorted the defense.
"These Satanists have ties to known gangsters. I have an affidavit
describing the implements—candles, incense, clothing, and the
like—recovered at the crime scene, and how they were
purchased at
a store that is serviced by a garbage collection company controlled by
the de Lezze family."
Susannah said what Elias was, frankly, too stunned to say. "You mean
that somebody bought stuff from a store where the trash gets hauled by
a Mafia business, and that constitutes involvement with racketeers?"
"Precisely," said Parkhurst.
Bradshaw sat forward, fingers laced white-knuckled so that those
knuckles could not connect with a set of perfect teeth in a face with a
Hamptons summer tan. "I can guess how this case got so far so fast," he
began. "Everyone has friends. I won't comment on this, as it has
nothing to do with my present ruling. Scott Fleming was, by his
father's admission, a willing participant in whatever went on that
night. Nobody took him from New Jersey to Long Island under duress. So
much for kidnapping. Regarding murder, talk to the district attorney
for Suffolk County, where the estate is located. As for the RICO
allegations — stop wasting my time."
Denise smirked. Bradshaw wanted to go find her Measure and shred it,
thread by golden thread.
"Your Honor!" spluttered the prosecution's second chair. "You must help
us expose these Satanist witches for the murderers and blasphemers they
are!"
Parkhurst nodded emphatically. "United States District Court is the
only possible venue for this trial, for it goes to the heart of our
Constitution and our government. 'One nation, under God!'" He reared up
to his full five-foot-nine, and repeated, "Under God!"
"That's the Pledge of Allegiance, not the Constitution," Denise's
lawyer said. "The separation of church and state — "
Our Founding Fathers were righteous and Godly men," said Parkhurst.
"They believed in Holy Writ."
At this point, Bradshaw reflected Holly McClure would have gone into a
lecture describing the divergent beliefs of Washington, Adams,
Jefferson, Madison, Franklin, and any number of other icons of the
Declaration and Constitution. He regretted not having her and
her
harangues immediately to hand.
"There shall not be found among you any one that maketh his son or his
daughter to pass through the fire,'" quoth Andrew Parkhurst, "'or that
useth divination, or an observer of times, or an enchanter, or a witch,
or a charmer, or a consulter with familiar spirits, or a wizard, or a
necromancer. For all that do these things are an abomination unto the
lord: and because of these abominations the Lord thy God doth
drive them out from before thee.' "
"Deuteronomy 18, verses 10 through 12," Elias said.
Dark eyes widened. "You are of the Faith?"
"I have an education," he replied smoothly, not adding that his
education — any Witch's education—included chapter
and
verse of the strictures in the scriptures. "But I think we shall render
unto the Almighty the 'drive them out' part. This is a court of law,
not a school of theology."
" 'They sacrifice to devils, and not to God: and I would not that ye
should have fellowship with devils.' First Corinthians — "
"Do we have to listen to this?" Denise complained.
"The hell you attempt to create in your pagan pageantry is laughable
compared to the true Hell awaiting you."
Suddenly, for the first time in Bradshaw s experience of her, Denise
said something worth hearing. In a quiet, dignified voice, she said,
"There's nothing in my religion that says thou shalt not suffer a
Christian lo live.'
Good point, Bradshaw had to admit, but he had to take this back into
his own hands. "Ms. Josephe." He paused, fixing her with a bleak stare.
"The District Attorney of Suffolk County may do as she sees
fit.
Whereas there are no Federal charges here, there may very well
— "
"You're out of your fucking mind!" Denise leaped to her feet, green
eyes flashing. "I will not be charged with — "
"I have no influence over local jurisdictions. However, I will offer
you a word of advice. Let your attorneys speak for you. That's what you
pay them for—and it would be wise of you to let them do their
jobs. For although you've been in my presence for only about ten
minutes, I've taken your Measure."
Turning crimson, she shut her mouth.
"I've made my ruling," Bradshaw finished. "We're through here."
"Never!" Parkhurst exclaimed, turning red beneath his tan. "This is an
outrage!"
filias made a grab for his temper and missed. "Open your mouth again,
any of you, and it'll be to choose between a night in jail and a
thousand-dollar fine for contempt of court."
Into the abrupt silence Susannah said, 'Thank you. Your Honor," and
went to open the door with the grace of a society hostess bidding
farewell to dinner guests. "If you'll return to the courtroom, His
Honor will be along shortly. '
Lachlan smiled sweetly at the people filing past him, and stayed at his
post. "Y'know, I just love not being a lawyer," he said to Susannah,
who winced before looking a question at Elias.
"Give me a minute," he said in response. When he was alone, with
Lachlan's tall shadow still outside, he lowered his forehead to his
clenched hands and swore. He'd done a perfectly legitimate hand-off. He
was free of it. And he pitied whichever Suffolk County judge got
assigned this mess.
But he wasn't free of it, not really. Denise would probably have to
stand trial for murder—she and whoever else they could round
up
of the night's participants. Hedonistic: morons, every single
one
of them. But one of them had done murder, and Elias was willing to bet
it hadn't been Denise. A hundred and fifteen pounds of her against two
hundred and ten of Scott Fleming?
Not his problem. Not his jurisdiction. Not until Denise's trial, and
the name Elias Sutton Bradshaw showed up on her witness
list—along with Holly Elizabeth McClure and Lydia
Rachael
Montsorel and Katherine Drummond Ramsay, and —
"Your Honor? "
He straightened quickly. "Yes? What is it, Marshal? '
"Pete says there's a pretty ugly crowd outside. We should get this over
with and send everybody home."
"Or to the nearest TV studio," he appended acidly. "Theres more than
enough time to make the six o'clock news. Rising, he settled his robes
around him. "The NYPD ought to be here, I think."
"Done,' Lachlan assured him. "They're sending four cars immediately."
"Which means in half an hour, if we're lucky."
"Well, yeah. But if we space the departures right, things oughta stay
fairly calm."
"I want the Reverend escorted."
"Pete and I already tossed for it. I lost."
"My sympathies.
****
FIFTEEN MINUTES LATER, DESPITE ALL Lachlan could do byway of
verbal persuasion to get him into his car and gone, the Reverend was on
the courthouse steps before a phalanx of microphones, with a
crowd
of at least two thousand below him. There'd been enough time
elapsed since Fleming had entered the building to allow everyone to get
sufficiently worked up and nasty. Banners and signs touted every
conceivable point of view on the subject of witchcraft, waved by
persons who had been shouting at each other for at least an hour.
Lachlan didn't like this one little bit. Neither did the NYPD uniforms
assigned to crowd control. Thankful that he didn't have their
job,
he moved toward the Reverend.
"Sir, if you'll just—"
"I can't ignore this opportunity to speak."
"They're not interested in listening," he pointed out, exasperated.
"They just want to yell. Reverend, you really need to get out of here
before this gets serious."
"Perhaps I can calm them down. I must try, Marshal."
And before Lachlan could say anything more, he stepped up to the mikes.
Most of the crowd quieted; Fleming threw a little smile at Lachlan, who
didn't share his optimism.
"My friends, the quest for justice is not yet fulfilled, but I promise
that justice will be done concerning the murder of my son. God's
justice, if not the law's.''
The yelling was nondenominational: people brandishing banners
for
Satan shouted just as loudly as those whose signs proclaimed Christ.
Lachlan shook his head and peered beyond the crowd to get a glimpse of
the Reverend's limo.
"I do not call myself Baptist, or Methodist, or Episcopal, or any of
the other names that label churches. I am a true Christian, for I am a
doer in Jesus Christ. Christian means someone who is Christlike, not
one who believes in Christ—for if that were true, my friends,
if
someone who believed in Christ was a Christian, then Satan would also
be a Christian—for the Evil One believed in Jesus enough to
tempt
him! My son knew this, and my son challenged himself to be similarly
tempted — "
Evan tapped one of the Reverend's lawyers on the shoulder. "Which limo?"
"He doesn't have one."
"How're you gettin' him outta here?"
"He came in my car—"
"Which goddamned one?" Lachlan snarled.
"The white Caddy over there."
"—these witches who, in the foul rite of worshipping Satan
murdered my son! These whores, these murderers—seducers of
innocence, despoilers of righteousness, depraved and immoral
fornicators!"
Lachlan fixed his gaze on the white Cadillac, gritting his teeth while
Fleming termed the woman he loved a whore.
"I know that many -witches says that they do not believe in Satan, and
thus cannot be Satanic. But I say unto you, my friends, there are only
two forces at work in this world: good and evil. Good is obedience to
the words of Jesus Christ. Evil is disobedience. It is that simple!
Jesus saith unto us, 'I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life: no man
Cometh to the Father, but by me.' If you do not serve Jesus, you serve
Satan. There is no evading the issue, no middle ground."
Cheers; angry shouts; Lachlan counted the NYPD uniforms and wished
there were a dozen more present.
"Tolerance and open-mindedness do not enter into the discussion.
Tolerance of wrong and wicked paths is not allowed. Open-mindedness
regarding so-called other ways to God is not allowed."
Make that two dozen NYPD uniforms. Two minutes to hustle him down the
steps, Lachlan estimated. Just give me two minutes before all hell
breaks loose —
"Witches took my son," said Fleming, lowering his voice. The crowd had
to shut up to hear him. "They stole him, they attempted to corrupt him,
they abused him, and when finally they could not persuade him to their
wickedness, they killed him. They are of Satan. But I say also that you
must pray for Christ to show the witches that the Truth, the Way, and
the Life is through Jesus, and none other. I say unto you now, any who
have taken even one step down dark paths, pray with me!"
An elegant, manicured hand lifted, sunlight fracturing into a million
separate rays from the diamond of his Yale Divinity ring, and
the
long fingers curled as if reaching for the sleeve of God
Almighty—moreover, as if that sleeve was within Fleming's
reach,
and his reach only.
"Precious Lord, there are those here present who have disobeyed Your
Word. I now ask You in Your infinite mercy to cleanse them in body,
mind, soul, and spirit. In the name of Jesus Christ, I disentangle all
those here who are truly penitent from any and all evil curses,
afflictions, talismans, charms, potions, psychic powers,
sorceries, enchantments, hexes, and spells that have been put upon
them. My brothers and sisters in Christ, may Almighty God bless you
with deliverance. May He bring you salvation, healing, prosperity, and
happiness. Amen, and Amen."
"And may you rot in the hell you invented, you self-righteous asshole!"
someone shouted.
"Curse God and die!" yelled someone else.
Videotapes of the ensuing chaos were flawed by the jostling of the
camera crews by enraged citizens. Some very shaky footage caught Deputy
Marshal Evan Lachlan grabbing Reverend Fleming's arm and shoving him
down the courthouse steps; another shot showed how the Reverend
stumbled, and how Lachlan held him upright by sheer strength. None of
the cameras saw what Lachlan saw: the cold silvery glint of a gun,
pointed right at Fleming.
Every news broadcast that evening clearly showed the Reverend beside a
white Cadillac, turning to shout something at the crowd—and
folding into the leather seat like a book snapped shut as Marshal
Lachlan slugged him in the stomach.
Sixteen
EVENTUALLY HE BECAME AWARE THAT he had to pee. Too much beer. Shoulda
stuck to Scotch — the buzz came faster, lasted longer, and he
didn't have to go siphon his bladder as often.
It seemed a long, long way to the bathroom. Stuff was all over the
place. Stupid stuff. Coffee table, rattling with beer cans and
Scotch bottles when he bumped it with a shin. Chair—what the
hell
was it doing here, instead of the kitchen? And boxes all over, labeled
in fat black marker letters that he couldn't quite focus on. Why so
many boxes? Oh, yeah, he was getting ready to move. He couldn't recall
why.
His bladder was about to burst. He couldn't remember where the toilet
was, either. Stupid, he'd lived here for years, but he couldn't quite
—
A wave of dizziness hit him, and he propped a shoulder against a wall.
Digging into his arm was something that proved to be a light
switch. That would help. Harsh illumination flooded the room, and he
staggered to the toilet and unbuttoned his Levi's. When he was
finished, he turned—and suddenly, hideously caught sight of
himself in the mirror on the back of the door.
Jesus Suffering Christ. It wasn't possible.
He looked like some big, dumb, lard-assed Mick with a two-week beard
and bloodshot booze-soaked eyes.
He looked like his father.
Caution: objects in the mirror are closer than they appear.
He ran a hand over his belly, hating the liquor-bloat. Hating the
bleariness of his eyes and the circles beneath them and the sick
pastiness of his skin and the sour, filthy taste in his mouth.
Hating himself. With pretty good reason. But what did it really matter?
Nothing mattered. His career was over, gone, shot down in flames. His
whole life shot to hell — no future —
Holly.
He had watched British Air take her away from him at his own insistence
while telling himself he was the biggest fool ever born. He'd left a
note in her luggage that said three things: I love you, I miss
you. Come home and marry me, Lady love.
He wasn't that man anymore. Dark hair, hazel eyes, big
nose—yeah, all the same. But not her E`imbin —not
anymore.
A half-smoked cigarette had burned out on the sink ledge, leaving a
yellow stain on the porcelain. He had no idea when he'd left it there.
Or the matches. Subconsciously trying to burn the place down?
Thick-headed fool. He lit up the stub, hands shaking.
He wanted her so much. He wanted never to see her again. As he was
trying to decide which would hurt worse, he heard a key in the lock and
the sound of the door opening. And smelled—even above the
stench
of beer and Scotch and cigarettes and his own acrid sweat—the
sultry sweetness of her perfume.
****
SHE USED HER KEY AND entered silently, fairly certain what
she'd find. He was supposed to move into her place next week, and so
his
apartment was packed up. The living room had been denuded of most
furniture and all decoration, save for the photo of him and his parents
at his NYPD Academy graduation. This sat on the coffee
table—a
silent taunting surrounded by a repugnant litter of bottles, beer cans,
pizza boxes, and full ashtrays. Yes, pretty much what she'd expected.
But as he came into the living room, cigarette dangling from his lips
as he buttoned his jeans with clumsy fingers, she discovered things
were even worse than she'd feared. He hadn't shaved in more than a
week. Or showered, by the smell of him that assaulted her nostrils from
all the way across the room. The booze showed in his eyes, in the
unhealthy pallor of his skin, in the belly curving against his
tee-shirt. He registered her presence without surprise, taking the
cigarette from his lips and gesturing expansively to the
sofa—a move that nearly made him lose his balance, he who was
always so lithe.
"Oh. You're here," he remarked. "How nice. Have a seat, baby."
His voice, despite quantities of alcohol, was sharp as shattered glass.
She'd seen him mildly tipsy, cheerfully plastered, and owl-eyed
inebriated —but never liquor-sodden. She hadn't suspected
he'd be an ugly drunk. He slumped grace-lessly onto the sofa, legs
splayed, and
ran his fingers back through his hair, exposing the long
widows peak for a moment before the lank, dirty strands fell across his
brow.
Holly sat cross-legged on the floor within reach of the coffee table,
and leaned over to snag a pack of smokes and a lighter. "Mind?" He
answered with a shrug. She lit a cigarette, breathing in deeply. Ten
years since she'd quit smoking. The rush prickled every hair
on her head. Exhaling, she looked up at him through the white cloud and
said, "Susannah called."
"Nice of her. Everybody's nice these days, didja notice? Everybody
wants to call and talk."
Holly took off her cardigan and tossed it aside. The overnight
Nairobi-to-Heathrow flight had been ferocious; Heathrow to JFK -was
worse. Her body had no idea what time it was. Jet-lag clotted her wits
just when she needed them most.
There -was a sneer in his voice as he said, "Shouldn't treat cashmere
like that—oops—sorry, baby, I forgot. You can
afford a
hundred of 'em."
"A thousand," she retorted, and he inclined his head in sarcastic
apology.
"I'm not being a good host," he said. "Not very nice of me." He leaned
over for an open can of beer. "Want one?"
"No, thanks." After another drag on the cigarette, she said, "I hear
you've been something of a jerk."
"Evan hauled off and let him have it right in the gut, in front of
about two thousand people —plenty of 'em reporters."
"You could say that." He finished the beer in two long swallows,
crumpled the can in one large fist, and tossed the abused metal over
his shoulder. It hit the wall and then the floor, -with a tinny rattle
that told her this was where he'd been throwing cans for days now. "And
now that you know I'm not in an alcoholic coma, you can leave." He
waited for a reaction. When she gave him none, he grinned all the way
across his face and jeered, "What, no bright backchat? No amusing
banter? C'mon, writer-lady, break out the million-dollar vocabulary,
make me a scene."
Holly pulled in a long, controlled breath. "You stupid, arrogant prick."
He nodded agreeably. "Yeah, that's me."
"You punch out some other prick, you get suspended—"
"I'm not just on suspension, baby." Sitting up with an effort, he
stubbed out one cigarette and lit another. "I'm busted. I'll be lucky
if I get me some files to shuffle for some rinky-dink police force in
Chicken Scratch, Nebraska."
Susannah hadn't mentioned that. No wonder. After a moment she rallied.
"If so, I hope you ask for a good, sturdy chair." She looked pointedly
at his waistline.
"Aw, gee, I thought you liked my belly," he whined.
"When it was you, yes. Not when it's booze and self-pity."
This brought a snarl. "What the fuck would you know about it?" He put
his cigarette in an overflowing ashtray and, elbows on knees, dug his
fingers through his hair. "Christ Almighty—just get outta
here,
okay? You weren't here before, I don't want you here now —"
All
at once he grabbed an empty bottle and flung it against the opposite
wall. The shatter made her flinch. "Where the fuck were you ? "
"I'm sorry, Evan," she said quietly.
"Yeah, everybody's sorry." He flopped back into the sofa. "Everybody's
sorry," he repeated. "The big boss-man marshal said 'sorry' when he
took away my badge and my piece for sluggin' that motherfucker. Well,
I'm not sorry. He deserved it. I'd do it again."
She heard the hollowness beneath the defiance, and bit her lip.
"I'm s'posed to be grateful they're not prosecuting my ass." He paused
to open another beer. "Hadda pull the goddamn phone outta the goddamned
wall to get people to stop tellin' me they're sorry. And the newspaper
people — Jesus Fucking Christ. At least they didn't say they
were
sorry. They just wanted to know why I slugged the Rev in the gut with
no procov—provocation."
"I'm sure you were provoked," she began.
"Bet your sweet Irish ass I was, baby. And now that you've said you're
sorry, too, you can get the hell out."
"For somebody who's expecting me to say something about 'for better or
for worse,'you've got one hell of an attitude."
"This is the worst it gets—and it never gets any better,
don't
you understand that?" The dragon's eyes were black. "I don't have a
career. I don't have a life. Aw, what the fuck," he said with a
pathetic attempt at shrugging it all off. "That's what I get for having
an Irish temper. Anyway, whatever. You're well out of it."
"I take it you're trying to dump me."
"Before you can dump me? Yeah. You betcha, baby."
He never called her that—babe was an occasional, casual
endearment, but this was entirely different. He was trivializing her,
turning her into just another conquest, somebody he called baby because
he couldn't quite remember her name. She decided she hated being called
baby.
"Why would I dump you?" she asked, stubbing out her cigarette and
lighting another—without benefit of match or
lighter. He
blinked at that, and she gave him a sharp little smile. "Oh, I'll admit
you look like shit and smell worse, and you're having yourself a fine
old wallow—which is fairly loathsome, but you'll get over it."
He rose unsteadily, looming over her, frowning, eyes kindling with
anger. He swayed slightly, reeking of sweat and liquor and cigarette
smoke. "You can knock it off now, Holly. Just—cut the crap
and
get out. I'm nothin' you'd want—"
"You are everything I want," she said softly, unable to help herself.
Suddenly all the fight went out of him and he slipped to his knees
before her.
She had never seen his moods change so fast. His hands almost touched
her, then shied back, fingers curling tight into his palms.
"Holly—darlin' Holly — " His eyes glistened. "You
can't
want me. Not now."
"Who the hell are you to tell me what I can and can't want?"
"This isn't the bargain you made. I'm not who you were gonna marry." He
gestured to himself, the room around him. "You said yes' to somebody
who had a career, a life, a future—it was bad enough before,
the
differences between us—but at least I had something to offer
you.
Now—I got nothin'. Abso-fuckin'-lutely nothin'. I'm not gonna
let
you chain yourself to a nothin' like me."
She told herself it was the booze talking, the shock, the impotent rage
— anything but Evan Lachlan saying these words.
"What about my life?" she demanded. "The one I'm supposed to live with
you?"
"Ain't gonna happen. Face it, Holly—you'd be a fool to want
what I am — what I'm gonna become."
"What might that be?"
"My father." His laugh was curt and ugly. "Old, fat, drunk, walkin' a
beat his whole goddamned Life, heart attack at
forty-nine—gives
me ten years, more or less, before they retire me and I sit around
gettin' fatter 'n' drunker an' whinin' about the good ol' days. That's
my future, baby." He waved his hand aimlessly.
She got to her feet, standing over him where he slumped on the carpet,
and swore she was going to slug him if he called her baby just one more
time. "Am I to understand you don't much like the idea?"
"Not a whole bunch, no," he replied, trying to sound as if he didn't
care.
"Then do something about it." The way he looked up at her, perhaps it
would have been kinder to hit him. She took a few steps back, taunting
him: "Come on, Lachlan. You've been at this routine for at least a week
now. Everybody's aware that you sulk very effectively. You've made your
point. Now get over yourself."
"Holly—Jesus, Holly, don't you understand?" The cry was torn
out of him, ragged, desperate. "I lost everything."
She stood her ground. He didn't need her tenderness; he needed her
strength. "I'm staying." Then instinct stronger than reason made her
take a step backward—because he surged to his feet, powerful
muscles bunching beneath shirt and jeans, and his eyes were truly
dragon's eyes now: vicious and feral.
"What the fuck does it take? Letters six feet high shoved under your
nose?" he shouted. "Goddammit, I don't want you here!"
"Get off it, Lachlan! What good's a tantrum if you don't have an
audience?"
"You bitch—!"
She supposed she ought to be glad she'd succeeded in touching off his
temper after all. But she'd never known how filthy that temper
could be. He surged toward her and she stumbled, one shoe turning under
her foot and twisting her ankle painfully. His big hands flatted to the
-wall on either side of her head and he crushed himself against her. He
was breathing hard, right into her face, the stench suffocating. She
wouldn't have believed any man who'd drunk as much as he had would be
capable, but she felt his hardness bulge against her hip.
He was half a foot taller than she and outweighed her by at least
eighty pounds. For the first time ever she was afraid of him, of his
size and strength, his tall body with its hard curves of
muscle—and the danger within. But she wouldn't relinquish his
gaze, wouldn't back down, wouldn't show any weakness.
"You stupid cunt." His gaze caught and held hers, the way dragons were
said to do. "What'd you think, you could walk in and say you love me
and make everything okay? 'It's all right, a chuisle,'" he singsonged
cruelly. "'I love you sooo much, I can make it allll better!' Can you
magic it all away? Huh? My own sweet Witchy Woman — c'mon,
Holly,
say 'Abracadabra' for me and make it allll better-"
"What're you gonna do, Lachlan — hit me or fuck me? Or
doesn't it make any difference?"
It took a moment for the words to filter through the murk of alcohol.
It was almost as if she could watch his mind struggle for comprehension
—that such words had been said, that she had said them. Then
his
head bent, and he shoved away from the wall.
Holly sagged, sick and shaking, gulping precious air. She pushed her
hair off her face and stared at his hunched, trembling figure. Somehow
she couldn't feel very sorry for him. He was doing such a good job of
it on his own.
"Get out," he breathed with no voice at all, arms wrapping himself,
shivering as if August in New York had become December in Nome.
"Just—get out."
"No."
He swung around and stared at her, still trying to catch his breath.
"You're mine," she said fiercely. "I don't much like that right now,
and I don't like you right now at all, but you're mine and there's
nothing either of us can do about it." She went to the door, defiantly
not limping on her bruised ankle. "You smell like sewage. Take a
shower. I'll be back in thirty minutes."
"Don't bother."
"Shut up." Without turning, her hand on the knob, she said quietly,
"And if you ever raise your hand to me again, I'll kill you."
****
HE WANDERED AIMLESSLY ABOUT THE living
room—looking for
something, he couldn't think what. Then he saw it: the cashmere
sweater, blue as her eyes. Must've been chilly when she got on the
plane —
—to come home to him. To this.
Carefully he picked up the sweater, smoothed it, folded it, buried his
face in it's feather-softness that smelled of her perfume. He felt like
a thief, stealing the fragrance of a woman no longer his.
He surprised himself by doing as he'd been told. Stripped; stuffed
soiled clothes into the hamper; stood beneath a blistering shower.
After wrapping himself in a towel, he shaved—the electric
razor,
he didn't trust his trembling hands with the straight-edge. He had to
look at his own face while he shaved. The eyes were familiar, not
because they were Evan Lachlan's eyes—where was the gold in
them
that she loved so much?—but because they were hollow,
stunned,
empty. He heard his own voice speaking to people whose eyes had been
like this: "I'm very sorry for your loss."
He brushed his teeth until his gums bled, then drank two large glasses
of water with vitamins and aspirin. He climbed into
pajamas—an
old pair, plain blue cotton, not the sumptuous black silk she'd given
him for Christmas—and returned to the living room. Picking up
the
sweater again, he pressed his face against it and inhaled her
fragrance. He took it with him into the bedroom, placing it on
the
bureau before sliding into bed.
Like a good little boy. Waiting for her to come back and make it all
better.
Some of the alcoholic fog lifted, and as he lay there in the dark he
knew that what he'd said tonight had been the truth. It wasn't going to
get any better.
She loved him. Despite what he had almost done, she was still his as
thoroughly as he knew he was hers. She would stay with him if
he
let her. But he couldn't let her. He'd made a wreck of things. If she
stayed, he'd drag her down with him into this hell of his own making.
Or, worse, he'd blindly seek the sweet haven of her arms, and never
rise from his knees again—let alone stand on his own.
The life he could have had -with her had escaped him before he'd had a
chance to live it. He let himself imagine what it might have been like,
coming home every night to her and the kids—he could see
their
red hair and blue eyes, feel their arms around his neck, hear their
voices clamoring for Daddy to come see this and read that and please
can I have a new bike for my birthday, and Holly was laughing at him as
the kids conned him into just one more story before
bedtime—
—and then it would be their bedtime, her warm giving body in
his
arms and her soft hair against his face, and they'd make love slow and
tender or fast and frantic, every night for years and years and years
until they were very, very old —
He curled on his side beneath the sheet and closed his eyes. Down on
his knees—and the first move in rising was to stop regretting
a
future that would never be and dwelling on a past that he could do
nothing about. He had to look at what was before him. Face it. Stare it
down.
Without her.
****
HER ANKLE THROBBED AS SHE carried the grocery bags to his
apartment. Bread and milk, steak and eggs, fresh fruit and greens; at
twenty you could live off booze and junk, but pushing forty it wasn't
as easy to bounce back. She opened the door and locked it behind her.
Scents of soap and shampoo told her he'd showered and was
probably
in bed. She couldn't face the idea of going in to him just yet. The
disaster in the living room depressed her completely, but she'd clean
it up later. She was just so goddamned tired.
The kitchen was oddly pristine. Three glasses in the sink, a couple of
forks, cheap wooden chopsticks still in their wrappers, and that was
it. She filled the fridge, started the kettle to boil, and scrounged
for coffee. He'd packed or tossed out just about everything in the
cupboards, but she finally found a jar of instant coffee, with enough
left for one very strong cup. She dosed it with milk and sat on the
kitchen counter, legs dangling, and drank half of it before she felt
braced enough to enter the bedroom.
He smelled clean and warm, tucked up in pajamas and a thin blue sheet.
The thought crossed her mind that this was how his son would look when
asleep — and, though she recoiled from the image, he was
there
before her, not the boy Evan had been but the boy he would father.
Tousled dark hair, thick lashes shadowing smooth cheeks. Her heart
twisted and she knelt beside the bed, setting her coffee mug
on
the floor.
"Heart of my heart," she whispered soundlessly. "A chuisle mo chroi...
I can't lose you, I just can't—"
He slept on. She pulled the sheet up, took her cold coffee back to the
living room, and began to clean.
Her ankle hurt like hell. But every stab of pain felt like penance for
not being here. It wasn't right that she hadn't been here. He
was
supposed to have picked her up at the airport this evening. That he
hadn't annoyed her only a little at the time; she was sure
there'd
be a message on her machine telling her he was sorry, he was tied up at
-work, he'd see her as soon as he could—and then his voice
would
deepen as he told her he loved her, had missed her, couldn't wait to
get her into bed —
But there'd been no message from him. Instead, Susannah: "Holly, call
me. the minute you get in —it's important." And that was all.
The
first thing Susannah said was that Evan was all right—he
hadn't
been shot or wounded, don't worry. Holly was ashamed that such things
hadn't even occurred to her. About to become a law officer's
wife,
and she'd never even considered —
Mindlessly she filled two plastic garbage bags with bottles and cans,
boxes and ashes. When she was done she sat on the couch and lit a
cigarette and smoked it down to the filter, staring at the photograph
of him and his parents.
What was it she'd said once- all raw bones and big eyes—tall
and
too lanky, his hair too short, his nose too big lor his face, years
before he'd grow into that face and that strength and that
heart-catching beauty. He stood there with an arm slung around his
father's shoulders, grinning like a fool as the elder Lachlan smiled
proudly at him. And there was his mother, blonde, lovely, oh-so-prim in
her flowered dress and straw hat, not a hint in her pale eyes that she
only wanted to get the hell out of there and find her next drink, her
next fuck.
"It's not gonna happen for us. Holly."
His voice, calm and strong as it had not been earlier, startled her. He
stood there in pajamas and an old blue bathrobe, hands bunched in its
sagging pockets.
She didn't pretend ignorance of what he meant. "I love you. I want to
be your wife."
"But I don't want you anymore."
She gasped with the damage of his words. "Liar!"
"I know. I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. I wish I could." He took a few
steps, then stopped. His eyes were enormous, all the gleaming gold gone
as if it had never been and never would be again. "Maybe what I mean is
that you shouldn't want me anymore. All I know for sure is that it
won't work tor us. Not now."
"Why?" she cried out. "If we love each other — "
He shook his head, his voice gentle. "I couldn't live with you, not the
way we planned, not and live with myself. 1 gotta work this out. I just
— I can't be with you now. I can't be with anyone." He
paused.
"Please."
And with that one word from this proud man, her heart broke. She looked
down at her empty hands, vision blurring. "All right," she whispered.
"Just — just do one thing for me, E'imbin,
please—just
h-hold me—" She lost her battle, her voice betraying her. She
felt his hands on her shoulders, and looked up. Grief and guilt and
absolute determination were in his eyes.
"Come here to me, my lady love," he murmured, drawing her up into his
arms. He rocked her, lips moving through her hair —very
tenderly,
and without passion. Something in her died.
She pressed herself against him, wishing she could make them into one
person. She could take some of his pain and rage and despair.
She
could carry it for him, she could take all of it —
No. She was strong, and he knew it, but he wouldn't let her. This was
his, of his making. It had to be of his solving. She hated him for
that. For being strong enough to do it—and strong enough to
know
he couldn't lean on her. To insist that he wouldn't lean on her.
She turned her cheek to the soft cotton covering his chest, missing the
feel of his skin. She remembered the first time they'd made love, how
his shirt and her blouse had ripped, buttons flying; how frantic they'd
been —and how ever since that night they'd lain together with
nothing but skin separating their hearts.
"Evan —"
"Shh," he whispered. "Shh."
After a long time, she pulled back. She couldn't look at him, couldn't
say anything as she left him.
Seventeen
SHE STARED THROUGH THE FARMHOUSE'S big picture window,
mesmerized.
They were dancing: the slight blond man caught easily, sweetly, in the
arms of his tall dark lover, moving with a grace that bespoke half an
eternity of knowing each others bodies. Hands stroking lightly,
possessively, gold rings glinting — matched as the two of
them
were matched.
She and Evan had looked like that, she told herself. Since childhood
she'd thought of Alec and Nicky as the perfect couple — never
mind their gender— and -wanted the same thing for herself.
Evan
was it. He always would be.
She knew there were wardings on the house, but couldn't sense
them—and neither did the wards react to her presence, for she
was
always welcome here. Eventually, though, the men inside felt someone
watching them. Stopped; turned; saw her through the window. Alec was
out the front door and with her in seconds.
"Holly! Come in, sweetheart, you're white as a ghost. Sit down." A
strong arm about her shoulders pulled her gently through the foyer into
the living room, into the familiar comfort of old books and Moroccan
carpets and scarred leather furniture. "That's it. You sit right there
and I'll get you a drink."
"Make it a big one," she heard herself say. "I'd like to be really,
really drunk." Although she'd tried that last night, after getting
home, and it hadn't worked.
"Uh-oh," Nicky said from the doorway.
"What's he done?" Alec added, pouring three large brandies. "Besides
slug the Reverend, I mean. We heard about that."
"And read about it," Nick added, earning himself a glare from his
partner. "What happened, Holly?"
"He 1-left me. Goddammit —I hate weepy women!" She gulped
liquor
and coughed. "I am not going to cry." But all at once she was clinging
to Nicky anyway, face hidden in the faded green cotton of his
shirt. "No man is worth — "
"Granted, but anybody as pissed off as you obviously are has only two
alternatives: cry or smash something. Is the Beemer still
intact?"
She pulled back indignantly. "No man is worth my car, either!"
"Of course he isn't," said Alec.
"That bastard—does he think he'll ever find another -woman
like me?"
"Of course he doesn't," said Nicky.
"He'll never find anyone like me again, and if he's too stupid to
realize it — " She drained brandy down her throat and damned
near
threw the glass into the empty hearth. "He's in for a shock -when he's
fucking some vapid little bitch with big tits and no ass, and half a
minute into it he'll be bored out of his mind!"
"Of course he will," said Alec.
"Can't you do anything but agree with me?"
"My darling girl," Nicky said, "the mood you're in, we don't dare do
anything but agree with you. You'd hurt us."
She laughed until she all but cried again. Nicky guided her to her feet
and toward the downstairs bath, where he directed her to wash up for
dinner.
"I'm not hungry, but you go ahead."
He pretended shock. "You can't turn down Alyosha's slum scallion!"
His partner shot back, "Slum gullion, you ignorant Hungarian. Come on.
Holly, let's eat."
They did; she didn't. Not much, anyway. Afterward, they repaired to the
living room again, and Nicky offered, "If you like, I can help
you
get some sleep."
"Would you? Oh, Nicky, I'm so tired — "
"Come on upstairs, then. We'll find you a nice old pair of pajamas and
tuck you up under a quilt, and you'll almost think you're back home at
Woodhush."
He did his best. Holly hadn't the heart to tell him his best wasn't
good enough. After he murmured gentle incantations for ten long
minutes, she pretended to be asleep. She heard him leave the room, and
his voice as he talked softly to Alec in the hallway. But she was no
nearer slumber now than she'd been last night.
Holly waited an hour or two, until the house was dark and quiet. Then
she slid out of bed, pulled on one of Alec's old dressing gowns that
he'd left for her, and padded barefoot downstairs with a fresh pack of
smokes, a lighter, and an ashtray. The addition of a few pillows made
the porch swing almost as comfortable as the bed upstairs, and
she
sat there smoking and rocking and staring out into the warm summer
night.
"Holly, it's nearly one in the morning."
She glanced up. Nicholas, tousled and pajama-clad, looking ten years
younger than his age, stood in the doorway.
"If you say so," she said.
With an impatient sigh he came outside, sat on the porch swing beside
her, and appropriated a cigarette.
"Don't tell Alec," he warned as he lit it. "I quit thirty years ago."
Exhaling prodigiously, he eyed her sideways. "I knew you weren't
asleep, by the way."
"Sorry.' She gave a little shrug.
"Sulking, I see."
"Nursing my broken heart," she countered lightly. "You'd think one of
us over the years would've come up -with a curing spell for that."
"Don't be maudlin." Nick sighed out another lungful of smoke. "In point
of fact, I could cure it if I felt like it. Which I don't. Too much
effort."
"Bullshit."
"Yes," he agreed. "But one does like to pretend one has powers beyond
one's puny gifts."
"You've done all right with what you've got. Better than I have."
"Ah, but what you've got isn't something the rest of us poor drudges
understand." He leaned back, making the swing rock gently. "Do
you
remember when you found out?"
"Like I could forget?"
"Did we ever tell you our side of it?" He put an arm around her
shoulders. "I'll spin the tale for you, Witchling—a real
paramitscha, the kind of stories told around the fire in Romany camps.
And if you put it in a book I'll sue."
"Would I do that?"
"If you thought you could get away with it, yes. All right, then. Once
upon a time in a land called Virginia, two young men got lost in a
snowstorm. . . ."
****
NICHOLAS RUBBED A SLEEVE AGAINST the pickup's windshield,
but
smearing condensation around did nothing to improve the view. In
English parlance, rain was likened to cats and dogs; this snowstorm was
lions and wolves. "I can't see a bloody thing," he complained. "Where
the hell are we?"
"Virginia, last time I checked." Alec tried the wipers again; they got
stuck in snow halfway up, and refused to budge.
" Where in Virginia?" He amended the metaphor to prides of lions and
several packs of wolves.
"How the hell should I know?"
"It's your country. Alec."
"And could you navigate the wilds of Transylvania in a snowstorm?"
"Transylvania is in Romania. I'm Hungarian. I thought good little
American schoolboys learn all about Virginia when they study Washington
and Jefferson."
"Virginia in the 1700s—which I'll bet was the last time they
did
any maintenance on this road." He peered through the
windshield.
"Is that a light?"
"Careful. It might be Andreiu and his miraculous retractable fangs,
trying to lure us."
"As long as he lures us someplace warm, I really don't care." He
paused. "Warm, with a pot of hot coffee and a plate of oatmeal cookies."
The golden glow, fitful as a firefly in the storm, grew brighter. And
both men's senses reeled as the light touched them.
"Impossible."
"Improbable," Nick corrected. "Remember your Sherlock Holmes. 'When you
have eliminated the impossible —' "
"' — whatever remains, however improbable, must be the
truth,"
Alec finished lor him. "But didn't Mr. Scot say there weren't
any
of us out here?"
"I would say he has been under-informed. Shall I send a request for
cookies and see who responds?"
"Or what responds."
All at once a rich scents filled the chilly interior of the Chevy.
Oatmeal, brown sugar, walnuts, a delicate hint of cinnamon.
"Az Istenert!" whispered one voice at the same time the other muttered,
"My God!"
Five edgy minutes later they struggled from the truck into the snow,
gazes fixed on rectangles of golden light delineating the windows and
door of a house. Two red-brick stories, with an ambitious if vaguely
absurd portico-and-pillars arrangement out front; in the open doorway
stood a tall woman and a little girl.
"Well? Whaty'all waitin' for — Imbolc? Get on in here!"
The two men slogged through hip-deep drifts. The door slammed and
warmth enveloped them from a hearthfire in the room to their left.
"I don't know who you are," Alec said, "but — "
"I'm just the same as you, or you wouldn't be here," the woman
announced. "Get out ot those cold damp things before you drip all over
Great-great-grandina Flynn's best carpet."
Meekly they did as told. She was no older than they
were—perhaps
a year or so younger—but she wielded authority like Catherine
The
Great. Tall, sturdily made, she was handsome rather than
pretty,
her hair a wild tangle of red-gold curls, her eyes a startling shade of
blue. The child—perhaps ten and perhaps not—who
peered up
at the two strangers was almost her carbon copy.
Nick shed coat, sweater, and shoes. These were snatched up by the girl,
who ran them into the next room and set them to toast by the fire. Soon
both he and Alec were wearing ancient knitted afghans and being herded
to the sofa beside the hearth.
"Welcome to Woodhush Farm. I'm Lulah McClure," the woman announced.
"This is my niece. And you might be — ?"
"Nicholas Orlov. My associate, Alexander Singleton."
"I'm Holly," the little girl contributed. "Do you want the cookies now?"
Alec blinked. "Uh-"
Nick intercepted the helpless glance and shrugged. "May I help?"
"If you can hurry up the percolator." The child grinned all over her
freckled face. "I can't even boil water the usual way. And I'm sorry we
don't have oatmeal cookies, like Aunt Lulah said you wanted.
Will
ginger snaps do?"
With coffee and cocoa and cookies laid out on a low oak table beside
the fire, Lulah McClure fixed an appraising eye on the two men. "You're
here after the vampires up Old Rag Mountain, aren't you?"
Nick almost choked on his coffee. "How did you — ?"
"I sent a call in to the regional office," she drawled. "Sheriff
McNichol and I can only do so much. Hope to hell one of you's got what
it takes to clean up a nest."
"Sheriff McNichol?"
"Cousin Jesse," Holly explained. "He's Witch-folk, like us. More
cookies, Mr. Singleton?"
"Thanks. Do you ever have any trouble being what you are? I mean, do
any of the people around here — "
"Oh, they're more likely to eye us because we're Catholic," Holly
answered with a shrug. "Not many of 'em do, smce most are related to us
one way or another. There's McClures and Flynns and Kirbys and
McNicholses all over these hills."
"Any vampires in the family? " Nick asked blandly.
"Not recently," Holly deadpanned.
He snorted. Smart-ass kid. He rather liked her. "About this new
nest—"
"Oh, it's not new," Lulah told him. "Story goes back a ways, actually.
Nobody goin' nowhere tonight, so you mights well have more
coffee
and listen."
Back in 1932 (Lulah began), a book called Hollow Folk was published by
a Mr. Sherman and a Mr. Henry, who wrote about Appalachia just exactly
as if they knew what they were talking about. They described it as a
place where people still lived the frontier life of the
eighteen-century backwoods and spoke the English of Shakespeare's time.
Crowded into mud-plastered log cabins, supported by primitive
agriculture, illiterate, almost completely cut off from the world,
these people had never seen a railroad or a five-dollar bill.
"Crap, of course," said Lulah with a sniff. "They had everything from
Coca-Cola to Japanese porcelain dinnerware and Model-T Fords. But
considering the mess this country was in during the '30s, they figured
they were well out of the mainstream. Besides, it was a helluvalot of
fun to fox the researchers. They had a fine old time playing quaint and
unlettered and ignorant—before goin' home to their Caruso
records
and Jack Benny on the radio."
Alec grinned. "I like their style."
"Appalachia is all-American, and yet it's un-American," Lulah mused.
"It's a folk culture that goes back to the earliest days of the
country, but it's also the most resistant to progress — 'cept
maybe for the Amish. But you can't hide in Pennsylvania quite the way
you can in the Blue Ridge."
What the sly hill folk hadn't known, however, was that certain
influential persons decided to seize on their "uncivilized" way of life
to dispossess them of their land, making their lack of modern amenities
the excuse for destroying their homes and turning a vast swathe of hill
country into a preserve. In December of 1935, Shenandoah
National
Park was established. Five hundred families were displaced to "more
civilized regions of agriculture and industry."
"This was exactly what the vampires wanted. Some prime land got taken
over by a little family nest. Now, there've always been vampires around
here — they're everywhere that ordinary folks
are—but
mostly they kept to themselves. They don't drink the tourists,
they sure as shootin' don't guzzle local folks, and if a farmer loses a
cow or a sheep every so often—well, that's farming, and the
losses get spread out pretty even around the county. Peaceful
coexistence, more or less."
"But this group was different," Alec suggested.
Lulah nodded, firelight striking gold off her tangled red hair. "First
it was hikers and campers from elsewhere who disappeared. But
then
locals started to go missing. Granddaddy spent a small fortune on
garlic, protectin' every farm in the area. Then he let the nest know
that the sooner they cleared out, the better. Most packed up and went
elsewhere, once they found out Grandaddy meant business."
Holly listened wide-eyed; this was obviously a family tale she hadn't
heard. Nick reflected that Lulah McClure's version must be appreciably
edited, and wondered how her grandfather had managed the eviction.
"A few decided they liked it around here, and stayed. Grandaddy saw to
it they abided by the rules. Things got back to normal."
"Ando gav bi zbuklesko jal o pavori bi detesko," Nick murmured.
Holly looked startled; Alec sighed. "Yet another obscure Gypsy proverb.
He's got a million of them—at least. Nick, perhaps you 'd be
so
kind as to translate for us ignorant Gadje?"
" 'In a village without dogs, the farmers walk without sticks.'"
"Gypsy?" Lulah scoffed. "With a Russian name and blond hair?"
"Don't ask," Alec advised dryly.
"What's a Gadje?" Holly wanted to know.
"Anybody who's not a Gypsy," Nick replied. "Forgive my interruption,
Miss McClure, please go on. How do you think Andreiu found out about
this area?"
"That's what was puzzlin' me, until you gave me his name. 'Bout two
years back, a cult moved into the old Neville place. Oh, they had the
whole show going—rituals, animal sacrifices—rank
amateurs,
of course."
"Some find Witchcraft very chic," Alec murmured.
"If it'd been just that, nobody woulda minded. We're tolerant folk,
mostly. But it turned out they were white supremacists worshipping old
Norse gods. The pamphlets Jesse and I found read as bad or worse than
what the Klan used to print."
"Let me guess," said Nick. "After defeating one's enemies, the ancient
Teutonic tradition is to drink —" Just in time he
remembered
the little girl's presence, and amended his words to, "
—
from their skulls, to absorb their strength."
"You mean 'drink their blood,'" Holly corrected. "It goes back to die
Celtic tribes as described by Julius Caesar — "
Lulah sighed into her coffee mug. "I try to raise her right, the way
her mama and my brother would've wanted. But she's got a brain like a
sponge and soaks up the Good Lady only knows what. Anyway, Jesse and I
got rid of those people. But it took us two days of hard work
to
clean the evil out of that house."
"Somebody there was not an amateur," Nick said.
"Somebody," she agreed. "We took everything out and burned it.
Including a big ol' empty shipping crate with Karel Andrieu's name on
it."
"I think there was a coffin inside it," Holly told them.
I decided I didn't want to look," Lulah retorted immediately.
"I agree with Holly," Nick said. "Andreiu is known for keeping
home-soil coffins in various places. What exactly has happened since he
got here? "
Holly snagged another cookie. "Mr. Mallory lost four cows just before
Hallowe'en, stolen right out of his barn one night. And the
Widow
Farnsworth, she was out hunting her Thanksgiving turkey and found a
couple of deer carcasses drained of blood."
"Any human deaths?" Alec asked.
Lulah's expression turned grim. "Week ago last Monday Lucretia Houston
disappeared."
"And then reappeared," Holly put in. "Most of her, anyways."
Her aunt gave her a quelling look. "Holly Elizabeth, isn't it past your
bedtime?" Big blue eyes rounded and the freckled face assumed
woeful lines. Lulah snorted. "All right, but if you have nightmares,
don't blame me. They identified Lucretia by her dental records
—yes, we do have forensic science in Appalachia. She'd been
got
to by animals. But there was no blood. None."
"And the increase in losses, leading up to this lady's death, directly
correlates to Karel Andreius arrival in the area?" Nick frowned. "One
kill a week isn't much."
"I'd say my partner is bloodthirsty," Alec said to Holly, "but the
context is wrong. Have any more of the locals seen anything, heard
anything?"
Lulah shook her head. "Not a flick of a bat's wing. I don't believe our
local vampires are behind this, unless some of 'em have gone over to
Andreiu's side.
Can't really see that, though," she added thoughtfully. "I've known Ben
Poulter all my life, f'rinstance, and he's harmless as a butterfly."
The men exchanged glances: socializing with a vampire? Alec said, "How
many are there?"
"A dozen or so. The daylight kind, anyway. There may be a few more of
the allergic-to-sunshine sort. They stay pretty much to themselves, and
we don't bother them, so it's worked out fine since the Depression."
"But now there is Andreiu," Nick murmured. "A true vlkoslak —
a
vampire. Do you know where he hides himself during the day ? "
"Up Old Rag Mountain. I don't know exactly where. The damned thing's
granite, and tryin' to see through solid rock gives me a headache."
"Of course," Alec said affably, as if he knew a score of others who
could in actuality look through solid rock. "What else is up on Old Rag
Mountain?"
"Just the village," Holly said. "Post office, couple of stores, two
churches, a cemetery, and a school."
"Don't sneeze or you'll miss it," Alec interpreted wryly, and bent to
scratch the ears of a huge ginger tabby that ignored him in favor of
springing into Holly's lap.
"As you surmised," Nick said, "we're here to track down Andreiu. Our
superiors are not especially fond of him or his methods."
Lulah nodded. "If you can clean out that nest up there, I'd be much
obliged."
"We'll do our best." Alec finished his coffee and stretched. "Well,
even if it's not your bedtime. Holly, it's certainly mine after driving
all day in a snowstorm. Just show us to the couches, and — "
"Don't be silly." Lulah smiled. "We've been expecting you all day."
Holly confessed, "I dropped a piece of bread this morning, butter-side
up. Then I dropped a dish rag. And then I got out the broom to
sweep—which I never do," she finished with a grin.
"All three of which," Lulah told them, "mean unexpected visitors. Holly
honey, run up and get extra quilts for the Wisteria Room and the
General's Tent, and make sure the towels are clean."
The girl glanced at the two men. "It's not really a tent, y'know. We
just call it that, from the time George Washington slept here." She
laughed, fully aware of the cliche. "He really did! We got a thank-you
note and everything — "
"Holly. The quilts?"
"Yes, Aunt Lulah. But they won't mind sleeping in the same bed. They've
done it before. Off, Bandit." And, dumping the cat off her knees, off
she ran.
Alec's face was a study before he hastily composed himself.
"Umm—she's right, we don't need to muss up two beds or two
bedrooms."
"Suit yourselves." Lulah rose and headed for the hall stairs.
"Breakfast at eight. Good night."
It took Nick a minute to locate his voice again after she'd gone.
"Alec. ..."
"Hmm?" He seemed quite intent on watching Bandit groom a bedraggled ear
that bore witness to many a hard-won victory in the field.
"Do they think we're — ?"
"If they do, it certainly doesn't seem to bother them." He chuckled.
"Of course, when one has just discussed how best to deal with a
vampire, a little thing like that wouldn't even raise an eyebrow,
-would it?"
"But how did Holly know? That we've shared a bed before—out
of
necessity," he added quickly. "Not that we—because
we
aren't."
"You're cute when you're flustered, did you know that?" He grinned. "I
don't know what she knows or how she knows it. I'm not even sure
exactly what she is."
"That's not usual for you." Leaning back in a worn easy chair, he
stretched his feet to the fire. "As a rule, you make the identification
-within ten minutes."
"I know, and it's driving me batty." When Nick scowled at him, he
paused and shook his head. "Another ill-considered pun. Sorry."
"What about Holly?" his partner asked patiently.
"Can't say yet. The implication is that she's lousy at
everything—including boiling water the usual way,"he added
with a
smile. "Interesting kid. There's talent there, I just haven't
put
my finger on it yet. She has some tricky wardings — Lulah s
work,
if I'm not mistaken—and they're in my way. Lulah's main
talent is
far-sense, by the way. Nothing clairvoyant or clairaudient, but she
knew where we were."
"And sensed the desire for coffee and oatmeal cookies -when I thought
about it hard enough."
"Seems so. I can't get a read on the girl, though."
"Let me know -when you figure it out. I'll collect our suitcases. Time
for bed." Rising, he grinned down at his partner. "And keep your hands
to yourself."
"You're no fun."
"How -would you know?"
"I know you, that's how I know. I'm the one who told you the name of
your bookstore ought to be 'The Felonious Monk.'"
"A vile pun, and an even viler misrepresentation," he retorted. "On
both counts." And with that he reclaimed his shoes and coat, and
departed the parlor.
At the front door he nearly tripped over the cat. "It's cold out
there," he told it. "Are you sure you -want out? " A paw batted lightly
at his shoe. When he went outside, Bandit followed.
Trudging through swirling snow to the pickup, the cat bounding beside
him through the drifts, his attention was suddenly caught by a shadow
of movement in a curtained upstairs window. Lulah McClure held a candle
in one hand, the other gesturing lightly, gracefully, before she let
the curtain drop. He shrugged, wondering why she'd been watching
him—and then caught his breath. Bandit was calmly striding
the
gravel path between the pickup and the barn—which was as
clear
and dry as if it hadn't snowed here in twenty years.
He ran to open the great wooden door, then back to drive the Chevy into
hiding. Carrying suitcases, he started for the house. An aggrieved yowl
stopped him. Turning, he saw Bandit in the open barn door. Hurrying to
close it, he muttered a thanks to the cat, who leaped into the
snowdrifts and bounced around to the back of the
house—presumably
to his own private door.
Back inside, shivering, Nick shed coat and shoes, then climbed the
stairs past what were obviously family portraits. In five paintings and
a dozen photos were variations of red hair, blue eyes, straight noses,
and the occasional dimple. He paused to inspect an eighteenth-century
portrait of a woman at her loom, smiling at the artist's subtle
inclusion of the Craft: the loom weights were painted with hexes, and
the half-finished cloth was woven with sigils for warmth. Next to the
weaver was a watercolor of a stern Revolutionary War officer
on a
huge gray horse; in the tooling of saddle and bridle were spells of
protection and speed. To the unaware, all of it would seem
just
pretty decoration. Nick knew better.
He found Alec in the upstairs hall-way, admiring a quilt displayed on
the wall. Setting down both suitcases, he approached his partner and
said, "Exquisite work."
Alec had leaned close to the worn, faded, still eloquent material.
"Aunt Lucy has a similar one. The Double Wedding Ring pattern is
traditional, but the stitching is Traditional—if you know
what I
mean."
"Mmm. And would you just look at all those pentagrams."
"I guarantee a good night's sleep if the bed quilt is anything like
this one."
"It is," said Holly from behind them. "The Wisteria Room usually has
Spring Flowers on it, but seeing as how you are what you are, I put
Courthouse Steps on it instead. Integrity and strength and all that,"
she added shyly. "It may be a little musty—we haven't had it
out
since the Justice came to visit."
"Which Justice?" Alec asked.
"Which Justice do you think?" Nick answered for her, and Alec looked
startled. "Thank you, Holly. Let me have those towels, and
then
you can get to bed. It's late, and I'm sure you have school tomorrow."
"Not with all this snow. And if you think I'd go anywhere while you're
here to Work—" She broke off with a sigh. "I just wish I
could
help. I can't stitch or weave or brew, I'm not a Come-Hither or a
Douser and I can't even Call much of afire. But at least I can listen
and watch, can't I? Please?"
"Talk to your aunt," Alec said firmly. But he winked, and she
brightened, and called "Good night!" over her shoulder as she ran off
to her room.
Nick paused at the doorway of the Wisteria Kooin to peer up at the
carved lintel. "There are hexes all over this house. Generations of
them."
"But no Witching spheres," Alec pointed out, nodding toward the
windows. Shutting the door behind them, he stretched mightily and
sighed. "Let's send down a few when we get back home, okay?"
"That violet one in Hezekiah's shop would look perfect in this room
—" He broke off and blinked as Bandit hopped onto the huge
oak
four-poster. " Where'd you come from so fast?"
"What? Oh—him," Alec said, shucking off sweater and shirt.
"He ran past me on the stairs."
Nick had learned in childhood that there were cats and Cats. Bandit was
definitely a Cat. Giving the men an innocent stare, he patrolled the
edge of the bed, sniffing now and then at a lump in the quilt. Nick
watched him, amused, for now that Bandit had clued him in he too
smelled the rosemary sachets stitched into the coverlet. Shakespeare
notwithstanding, the herb was not just for remembrance, but for wisdom.
Among other things. The scent took him back to his childhood, and for
once the memories were pleasant ones. After a mighty sneeze, the Cat
curled himself at the foot ot the bed and promptly went to sleep.
Nick wandered about, fingering wisteria-patterned damask curtains,
Irish linen sheets, and the smooth curve of an oak cheval glass.
" Chindilan?" his partner asked.
"Very tired, yes. Your pronunciation is getting better."
"For a Gadje," Alec grinned back.
"Gadjo, masculine singular," Nick replied idly, inspecting a framed
nosegay of dried flowers. A trace of very old magic lingered behind the
glass.
"So what does your Gypsy blood tell you?"
"Not much. I'm only a quarter Rom, after all. I barely qualify."
"By those standards, I'm an outright mongrel."
"Don't ever let your Aunt Lucy hear you say that!" Nick turned and
smiled. "All that fine old New England heritage, straight back to Salem
—she'd string you up by your thumbs."
"What are the other three-quarters? " Alec sat on the bed, bouncing
experimentally. "You never have talked about your family much.'
"Oh, this and that, the usual Magyar mix," he evaded, and changed the
subject. "I can't say that I've ever considered the ecology of
vampires before. Somehow, I don't think that's quite what
Rachel
Carson had in mind when she wrote Silent Spring"
"Silent Night would be more like it."
Both men spun tensely around when a knock sounded on the door. "Mr.
Singleton? Mr. Orlov? Is Bandit in there?"
"Yes," Nick replied, opening the door for Holly. "He can stay if he
likes."
The Cat trilled agreement. Holly scowled. "You," she ordered. "Out.
Now." An affronted "mroww" Holly propped her fists on her hips.
"Bandit!"
"We really don't mind him- " Nick began.
"But you'd mind getting your nose licked raw. Bandit! Out!" The Cat
landed on the hardwood floor with a thud and stalked out of the room.
Holly shook her head. "He gets worse every year. Well, good night
again, Mr. Singleton, Mr. — "
"That's Alec and Nicky to you, my dear, Alec said with a smile, "Good
night, Holly."
She smiled back, and was gone.
Suitcases gave up their stash of pajamas, toothbrushes, and other
necessities. After taking his turn in the bathroom down the
hall,
Nick slid into the left side of the huge four-poster and drew the quilt
up to his chin. "Alec, do you ever wonder why we do this? I mean, I
could be back in New York right now, minding the
store—"
" — selling first editions of Sayers and Poe at exorbitant
prices—"
" —and translating six different languages into
comprehensible English........ - "
" — and getting paid damned well lor that, too." His partner
smiled down at him. "I could be a full-time lawyer instead of having
Fairleigh and Bradshaw think I'm a hopeless dilettante with the
partnership potential of a circus flea." He sat on the bed and traced
the angular pattern of the quilt with one finger.
"We both know why we're here," Nick said wryly. "Mr. Scot gave us that
look of his."
"Ah, yes —The Look. The one that makes you feel as if sitting
in
your nice cozy office is an affront to nature. We do what we do, Nick.
Ours not to question why." Drawing back the covers on his side
of
the bed, he slid in, reached to turn off the lamp, and snuggled down.
"G'night."
The next morning was pleasantly spent in the kitchen, sampling Cousin
Clary's herbal teas, formulating and refining their plans, and engaging
in a pleasant intellectual debate about whether or not a storm could
block out enough sunlight for a wampyr to feel safe. They were also
shown General Washington's note to "Mistress Margaret Flynne
for
her gracious hospitality and the sweet quiet hush of her woods," framed
on the wall of the room he'd slept in.
"That's when we got our name, Holly informed them. "We were Flynn's
Hope before that, but by 1785 all the letters are addressed to Woodhush
Farm. How can you resist getting your house named by George Washington?
'
After lunch, Lulah's meaningfully arched brows sent Holly grumbling off
to her textbooks. Alec and Nick went upstairs for a nap, reasoning that
if they were going to spend all night chasing vampires, they'd need the
rest.
Nick woke before dusk to three distinct sensations. He was alone in
bed; he was more rested than he'd felt in ages; and he was being
watched. Opening one eye, he saw freckles, red hair, and inquisitive
blue eyes. "Hello," he said tentatively.
"You slept well," she observed. "It's a good quilt." Then, with the
devastating simplicity of children, she asked, "Why do you hold a
pillow when you sleep, when you want to be holding him?"
Eighteen
HOLLY STARED, "I REALLY SAID that? I don't remember."
"I do—vividly." Nick hugged her closer. "I damned near had a
coronary." "I should've set myself up as a matchmaker—life
would've been less complicated."
"If you say so. But that talent wasn't the one we found out about that
night." "That, I remember. Vividly."
****
LULAH FED THEM AN EARLY dinner of lamb chops, potatoes,
green beans,
and rhubarb pie. They went upstairs to dress in their warmest clothes
and arm themselves, then came back down to find the McClures at the
front door. Night had fallen, the snow had stopped, and two horses were
saddled and waiting outside beneath the portico.
"Faster than the pickup, believe me," Lulah told them. "You never know
when the snow's gonna reach up and grab you—and a truck tire
can't kick free. I'm assuming y'all can ride?" When they nodded, she
made a pleased sound in the back of her throat. From a pocket of her
cardigan sweater she drew two talismans on long strands of
leather. "Umpty-ump Great-grandpa Goare carried this during the
Revolution," she said, handing one to Alec. "And this — "
Giving
the other to Nick. "—comes from Holly's Griffith ancestors,
who
were horsey folk and swore by turquoise." Nicholas examined the chunk
of sky-blue stone about the size of his little fingernail, set in iron.
Alec's, he saw, was a carnelian paired with a bloodstone, similarly
clasped by iron.
"Holly, would you do me the honor?" Alec asked gallantly, and bent so
the girl could slip the leather thong around his neck.
The talisman slipped from her fingers; she made a grab for it in
mid-air, and as she closed her hand around it exclaimed, "Ow!"
"After two hundred years, you'd think the rough edges would've worn off
that iron," Lulah said. "Let me see, Holly."
"It's okay—it's already stopped bleeding." She held up her
palm,
where three tiny punctures showed on the heel of her thumb.
Alec enclosed her small fingers in his and kissed the back of her hand.
"Wounded in the service.'
"Kiss it and make it better?" she asked, shrewd eyes flashing at Nick,
who winked at her. "Alec Singleton, y'all're a flirt and no better than
you should be."
"And you, little miss," Lulah admonished, "are an uppity child who
doesn't get spanked near enough. Go clean up supper and maybe I'll let
you stay up to wait for them."
"Aunt Lulah!" she wailed. "How could I sleep?"
Nick donned the turquoise, tucked it beneath his sweater, and shrugged
into his coat. "We're likely to be gone all night. Neither of you
should — "
"We'll wait," Lulah said succinctly, and that was an end to that.
I lolly walked them outside into a sparkling cold night, the stars so
brilliant that they seemed to reflect on the gleaming snow. Nick
inhaled sharply, his breath coming out in a cloud of white.
The girl checked saddle girths, saying, "The chestnut is called
Lazybones, but don't let the name fool you. He's fast when there's
need. The palomino is Featherfoot. He's a sweetie, once you let him
know who's boss. Y'all be careful."
"We will." Glancing at Alec, he added, "Lazybones is unquestionably
meant for you."
"Cute, isn't he?" Alec observed sourly to Holly, who laughed. He used
one gloved hand to smoothe the palomino's shoulder and the other to
ruffle Nick's hair. "Growing our winter coat, are we? Two shaggy
blonds: Featherfoot and Featherhead. Go on back in the house. Holly,
it's cold."
"Oh — that reminds me. We tied a couple of blankets to the
saddles, in case it gets any colder than it is now. Happy hunting!"
Lulah had been correct; the horses were much more practical than the
Chevy. Chillier, but more practical. When Nick complained of the cold.
Alec laughed.
"This from the kid who walked five miles to school in the snow?"
"Ten," he shot back with a grin. "Barefoot."
Directions up to Old Rag, past silent white fields and shadowy woods,
had been specific. But they never got that far.
"Nick. . . ." Alec ventured, reining in about ten miles uphill from
Woodhush Farm.
"What?"
"Correct me if I'm wrong. . .
"You usually are, but go ahead."
"Don't bats come out to feed at about twilight? And isn't it full dark
right now? And have you ever seen a bat that big?" He pointed with a
gloved finger.
"Sheka!" The damned thing was the size of a California condor.
"Hungarian cussing is bad enough," Alec muttered. "When you switch to
Rom, you get really foul. Come on."
They left the road, horses plunging through the snow, and followed the
bat. It worked as hard as the horses, for there were no thermal
updrafts to float on and immense wings must beat vehemently against the
frigid wind. The bat came to rest at last atop the stone skeleton of
what might once have been an elegant ante-bellum home. Glaring
balefully down twenty feet at the two men on horseback, it
heaved
for breath, exhaling great white fetid clouds they could smell even
from the ground. Alec swung down, stumbling a little in the snow, and
glared up at the bat.
"Andreiu!" he shouted. "Come down from there!"
Great leathery wings unfurled—blacking out the starlight,
casting
shadows onto Alec. A piercing hiss issued from between gleaming fangs.
"You expect me to be impressed?"
Nick slid from his saddle, landing lightly in knee-high drifts. "I
expect he expects you to go away and leave him alone."
"Andreiu, you've been a very naughty wampyr, and Mr. Scot wants to
have a little chat with you. Do we do this the easy way or the hard
way?"
The bat laughed. More or less. Listening carefully, Nick decided that
the wheezing, stuttering chirp was indeed laughter. It wasn't quite as
vile as nails-on-chalkboard, but it was an annoyance all the same.
"Alyosha, I'm freezing. Just get him down from there and let's go, all
right?" Delving into a pocket, he came up with two sets of silver
shackles and dangled them from gloved fingers. "Hurry it up, would you?"
"You want me to drag him down by the fangs?" To the bat: "Andreiu, we
both know this is ridiculous. I'll work a few illusions, you struggle
and
get distracted, I spell you into changing back into a human,
my
friend here does his thing, and you're down here wearing these
seriously fashionable silver bracelets. Personally, I'd rather not tire
myself. Be a good little bloodsucker and spare us both, okay?"
Nick snorted. "I'm beginning to think you intend to talk him into
submission." He stamped his numbed feet. "If you won't expend
the
energy on a Working, then why don't you climb up and wrestle
him
down?"
"Even if I could find a toehold, there's about a ton of stone wall that
could collapse any second — "
Nick knew that sudden silence, that abrupt glitter in brown eyes.
"Alyosha?"
His partner strode forward, boots crunching confidently in the snow,
one hand fumbling at his neck. With the carnelian-and-bloodstone
talisman clenched in his right fist, he began to murmur, left hand
gesturing swiftly.
The old building shuddered as if the stones were trying to shrug off
the wampyr's weight. Snow cascaded in miniature avalanches that spewed
clouds of white. The bat screeched, wings flailing as its perch
trembled. Rock chittered alarmingly against rock—and then the
whole ramshackle construction shook itself apart and toppled
with
a muffled rumble of stone.
Right onto Alec.
Who stood there quite calmly, absolutely untouched.
Of all the things Nicholas Orlov had witnessed in his admittedly
bizarre career, this sight stopped both mmd and heart. Alec
ought
to have been buried, crushed and bleeding, beneath that onslaught of
stone. Instead, he casually brushed snow off his shoulders, narrowed
his eyes, and stepped elegantly out of the rubble.
Andreiu—in human form—lay half-in and half-out of a
pile of
rock. Alec snapped his fingers for the silver handcuffs; Nick shook
himself out of his daze and tossed them over. He fastened the leg
restraints onto the vloslak's ankles himself, fingers not quite steady.
Andreiu lay there, stunned by the fall and the abruptness of
transformation. The silver woke him up, raising welts on
hypersensitive skin, an allergy that would weaken him enough
to
prevent another shape-change. As consciousness returned, Andreiu
struggled to reassume his bat form—a hideous sight, with
leathery
black skin and fangs and sharply pointed ears fading in and out of
view. A painful process, too, judging by his agonized grimaces.
"Give it up," Nick advised, wondering idly why it was that every wampyr
seemed to be devastatingly good-looking and built like a brick
battleship. "Or we'll stake you right here and now."
"He's fed tonight," Alec reported. "And on a human. Look at his eyes."
Planting a booted foot squarely on Andreiu's naked chest, he asked,
"Who were you after? You don't need sustenance. It's someone special
that you need to be at full strength to take. Tell me who you drank
from, and who you're after—and I wouldn't advise lying. I
have
this strange little quirk for knowing a lie when I hear it."
Huge eyes glowed red for an instant, then faded back to dark brown as
silver sapped his strength. "You!"
"No," Alec said with the unwavering certainty that was one of his
gifts. "Not either of us. You're out alone, without the nest to back
you up. So it must be somebody you don't want them to know
about—somebody you fear."
"I fear no one and nothing!"
"Another lie. Well, Mr. Scot will sort it out. Nicky, I hate to break
up a matched blond set, but do you think Featherfoot would object to
having a vampire slung across his back?"
Featherfoot was not, in fact, pleased. He rolled his eyes, laid back
his ears, bared his teeth, and looked as though he'd love to batter
that aristocratic face with his iron-clad hooves. Nick could coerce
humans, not horses; he pondered a minute, then took off the turquoise
talisman and hung it from the saddle horn. "Better?" he asked the
horse, stroking and calming him. Featherfoot snorted, but settled down.
Alec heaved Andreiu over the saddle and draped a blanket over him. Nick
perched behind his partner on Lazybones for the ride back to Woodhush
Farm, Featherfoot's reins in his hand and an eye on Andreiu at all
times. They found the road again without too much trouble.
"Good thing it's still fairly early," he told Alec. "Holly will get to
bed on time."
"You really like her, don't you? I'll admit to a weakness for red hair
and freckles, myself."
Andreiu growled, shifting on Featherfoot's back, across which he was
slung like a sack of grain. "Quiet down," Nick advised, putting some
magic into it just so he didn't feel quite so useless. "And don't even
think about biting the horse. He's likely to bite back." To Alec: "I
didn't know you liked redheads that much. Your last five girlfriends
have been blondes."
"Always at the top of my list."
Which included, Nick reflected peevishly, every conceivable hair color,
eye color, and cup size known to New York City.
The horses picked up the pace, recognizing the road home. Soon enough
the men were unloading their cargo onto a hay bale in the barn. "If
you're cold, I'm sure we can find another blanket," Alec said with mock
solicitude. "A bit horsey-smelling, but one makes do with what one has."
Nick unsaddled Featherfoot, who seemed relieved to be rid of his
burden. "Where's the garlic?" he asked.
"I thought you brought it."
"Damn it, Alec, must I do everything?"
Further censure was prevented by the timely entrance of Lulah and Holly
— the former with a silver crucifix, the latter with a long
braid
of garlic.
"Got him, I see," Lulah remarked, nodding her satisfaction. "You gonna
do the garlic-in-the-mouth and stake-through-the-heart routine, or just
leave him out in the sun tomorrow morning?"
Nick blinked at her casual ruthlessness. "We'll take him back to D.C.
for the proper authorities to deal with."
"Hmm. Pity. Well," she continued, hanging the crucifix on a nail by the
door, "if y'all throw him in the back of the truck, Holly can circle
him with garlic."
Andreiu never took his eyes off the girl. As Nick retrieved the
turquoise from Featherfoot's saddle, something itched in the back of
his mind,
some nagging warning of danger. Silver, garlic,
crucifix—Andreiu was safe enough in his hay nest in the back
of
the pickup until morning, when they'd throw a tarp or something over
him for the drive.
But he couldn't get over the feeling that there was something they'd
missed.
Back in the house once more, the tale of the capture was
told—quickly, in deference to the hour. Alec promised Holly
embellishments at breakfast. Then they finished Cousin Clary's
chamomile tea and said their goodnights.
Upstairs in the Wisteria Room once more, Nick finally gave words to
what had been churning in his mind since capturing Andreiu. "You nearly
died tonight."
Alec shrugged. "You're overreacting. I didn't get a scratch."
"But you should have. Doesn't that bother you?"
"Not particularly."
Nick sat on the bed and scowled at his partner. "Emerging unscathed
from having a stone wall fall on you doesn 't seem the least bit odd to
you ? "
"It's better than not emerging exceedingly scathed."
"Alec, -willyou be serious?"
"Okay, okay." From his pocket he pulled the talisman Lulah had given
him. "Observe that the stones are bound with iron, which protects
against evil spells."
"Andreiu is a wampyr, not a Witch."
"But we'll agree that he is evil, and the hypnosis and so forth that
true wampyr bring to bear are spells, of sorts. We have carnelian for
luck—that's Basic Phylactery 101. Protection against
stone
walls is carnelian, too. One wonders why umpty-ump
Great-grandpa
Goare worried so much about walls falling on him, but maybe he was in
charge of a fort during a British bombardment."
"Stop babbling," Nicky said severely.
"I'm not babbling, I'm lecturing. Your education was sorely neglected.
By the way, there'll be a quiz next class period, so pay attention." He
dangled the charm playfully in front of Nick's nose. "The bloodstone
felled the walls that the carnelian protected me from. Of course,
carnelian also reveals hidden talents. Maybe I've got a hitherto
undiscovered knack for dealing with vampires."
Stubbornly serious, Nick retorted, "Alec, I can't understand why you
walked away completely untouched by something that should have killed
you."
"When you can tell me why this is a bad thing, we'll resume this
conversation." Kicking off his shoes, he retrieved his pajamas
from the closet. "Until such time, I'm tired and want to sleep."
"Very well. Answer me just one thing, though. Why did your spell work
perfectly?"
This time there was no glib reply, no "Because I'm so brilliant at what
I do," no "Maybe there's something to old Grandpa's jewelry after all! "
"You're good," Nick went on softly. "But nobody's that good, to drop a
wampyr so quickly and cleanly. You said yourself he'd just fed. He was
at his strongest. Why did it work?"
"Fuck if I know," Alec snapped.
The obscenity both surprised Nick and warned him that his partner was
on the thin edge of exhaustion. They dressed for bed in silence.
****
". . . AND YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED next."
Holly repressed a shiver, tried to cover it by lighting another
cigarette. Nick sensed it anyway. He always did.
"It's a long time ago, Witchling," he murmured. "Shall I finish? Or
would you rather not—"
"I'd like to hear it from your point of view. If that's okay."
"Of course." He settled back in the porch swing. "Andreiu got out of
the barn by breaking the truck window and crawling through to the cab.
He must've used the tire iron under the seat to break the silver
chains."
"I hope it hurt like hell," she said viciously.
"It probably did. But never discount powerful motivation."
"It's so nice to be wanted," she retorted.
"Don't be impudent. Then he hot-wired the truck and drove it past the
garlic and through the barn door with the crucifix on it. We
only
knew he was in the house when your window broke and Bandit howled."
"And all hell broke loose."
****
NICK COULDN'T SLEEP. SILENTLY RISING from Alec's side ("'Why
do you hug
a pillow... ?"), he pulled a sweater on over his pajamas and left the
Wisteria Room. On the tour this afternoon, Holly had shown them a small
library downstairs; this was his goal. Specifically, a volume
on
jewels.
It was a square, slim book, no more than fifty pages: Genwtone
EddentiaU. Obviously intended as a primer rather than an
encyclopedia on the subject, the text was terse and to the point. He
clicked on a reading lamp beside a worn leather chair, sat, and began
to explore.
In the next few minutes he learned that agates healed scorpion bites,
fire agates enhanced night vision, snakeskin agate diminished wrinkles,
and moss agates not only assisted in making and keeping friends but
gardeners were advised to wear them—presumably, he
thought
with a snort of derision, to gain the affection of their vegetables.
Tourmaline came in black, blue, green, pink, red, orange, yellow, and
watermelon (of all things) varieties, and each color had different
properties. Black was suggested for easing neuroses and obsessions. He
considered informing the American Psychiatric Association.
Thinking of the stone he'd worn tonight, he found turquoise and read:
Primary holy stone of Native Americans; warns of danger; protects
against evil Luck, happiness, good health, prosperity; pledge of
friendship when given as a gift. Protects horses.
Another snort died aborning as he recalled how Featherfoot calmed down
when he'd hung the talisman on the saddle. Could there really be
something to this? Had Alec been serious? He flipped back through the
book, looking for Cornelian.
Joy, protection, energy. Activates and energizes personal power,
revealing unsuspected gifts. W'uih stone. Courage, joy, peace; heals
grief; protects against falling walls; suppresses blood loss.
"Falling walls," he murmured, shaking his head. Shifting uneasily in
his chair, he found Bloodstone—
Favorite talisman of soldiers. Stops bleeding; wards off accident)).
Courage, vitality, wisdom, generosity. Brings honesty to relationships.
Heals wounds opens doors; topples stone walls.
—and decided that when he returned to New York he would be
spending quite a bit of money in a rock shop. Taking the turquoise from
beneath his shirt, he frowned at it. He supposed that his education was
sketchy in this regard. Still, the Rom who raised him hardly had access
to the variety of jewels taken for granted by the son of an ambassador
and the grandson of a judge. He imagined Alec as a little boy,
sitting with his grandmother in the parlor of that old Boston mansion,
sparkling gems sifting like rainbow fire through his fingers. During
those same years, Nicky had crouched in the dirt beside his
grandmother—or a woman who said she was,
anyway—learning to
hold real fire in his hands.
Yet that was what made the two of them so excellent a team, as Mr. Scot
had decided four years earlier. For all that Nick was the
bookstore-owning scholar of the pair and Alec dealt in the numbingly
practical details of contract law, their talents were opposite to their
professional personae. Alec dealt in fine eso-terica; Nick, in
utilitarianisms. Alec wove the subtlest of Illusions; Nick
Summoned with brutal efficiency. And
tonight—tonight, Alec
had cast the spells, while Nick had brought the silver.
Silver, garlic, crucifix—he reassured himself that Andreiu
was
safely penned for the night. But the sensation that something was wrong
became a clamoring in his head— "Turquoise... warns of
danger"—no, ridiculous—but sky-blue had darkened to
muted,
muddied blue-green —
Shattering glass and an anguished yowl brought him to his feet. He was
halfway up the stairs when he heard Lulah McClure scream her niece's
name.
Alec blocked the door of Holly's room, both hands white-knuckled around
the doorframe. Lulah stood behind him, disheveled and shaking, not even
noticing when Nick looked past her shoulder. Holly huddled
against
the headboard of her bed, blue eyes fixed in mindless terror on the
gigantic black bat
perched on the footrail. Between her and it, claws sunk into the quilt,
was Bandit: arched, spitting, fur standing on end so he looked twice
his usual size.
"Sweet Mother of All," Lulah breathed, "what does he want? She's only a
little girl-"
"He wants to make her one of his own," said Alec, and the bat hissed
with laughter. "She's the one he was after tonight."
Nick knew how Andreiu would take her: blood, soul, and body. Sliding
gently past Lulah to stand shoulder-to-shoulder with Alec, he
said, "He'll not have her," and saw the same vow in his partner s
quick, fierce glance.
Lacing his fingers with Alec's in their habit of working support, he
waited for energy to flow between them, palm to palm in ever-steadier
heartbeat rhythm. Together they took a step forward, and then another.
"Holly," Nick murmured, his voice pitched low and precise, power
thrumming through him. "Holly, look at me."
The girl's mind and will were imprisoned by the creature poised at the
foot of her bed, and it was the Cat who responded to Nick's
words.
Eyes like green chrysoprase flickered toward him, and for an eerie
unanticipated instant he was thinking Bandit's thoughts.
"No—!" Nick broke free of his partner and lunged forward as a
blur of ginger fur flew at the bat, claws and teeth sinking
into
the leathery black neck. The wampyr's furious shriek was answered by
Holly's scream. Knowing himself nine times a fool, Nick grabbed the
outstretched wings from behind. The massive head was flung back and a
gurgling noise rattled in his throat, but Bandit hung on tight. Nick
could only do the same—fighting instinctive revulsion as
steely
wing-bones and tough hide quivered beneath his fingers. As the
bat-shape shifted to human, the bedpost splintered, throwing Andreiu
off-balance. There was no advantage in it; the speed and strength of a
wampyr were as advertised. Nick lost hold of one wing; its flailing
raked a talon across his cheek and stabbed his right eye.
Crying out, still he dug his fingers into granite biceps. The instant
the change was complete, Andreiu was on his feet, one hand tearing
Bandit from his neck and the other arm smashing back. Nick twisted, but
not fast enough; the point of Andreiu's elbow cracked his rib like a
matchstick. Still he clung, and his fall tumbled them both to the
hardwood floor. The wampyr's weight crushed all the remaining air from
his lungs.
For a long time there was nothingness. Then nothingness and pain. And
then only pain.
"Nick? It's over. Come on, Miklosbka. Look at me."
Alec. He opened his eyes—and remembered he probably had only
one
eye left to open. An involuntary gasp of denial sent agony howling
through his chest.
"Just one broken rib, as near as I can tell," Alec said, voice
unnaturally calm. "You're lucky you don't have a punctured lung. Stay
still and breathe shallow."
He obeyed. A soft cloth wiped at his cheek, skirted gently around his
eyes. The cloth came away from his face smeared with blood. He wanted
very badly to take a very deep breath to calm the sudden pounding of
his heart. Squinting with his good eye, he saw his partner kneeling at
his side.
"Holly's all right," Alec told him. "Andreiu . . . isn't." He glanced
to his left.
Nick turned his head and saw the split end of a length of oak sticking
up from Andreiu's back. There were scars in the polish, as if from
claws. Of course; what remained of the oak bedrail. How very practical
of Alec:. Nick wished he had breath enough to tell him so.
"That was a damn fool thing to do, going alter him with your bare
hands," Alec chided, his voice not so steady now. "What were you
thinking, you idiot?"
"It's ... all right. . ." he managed. "Worth it." He tried again,
taking small breaths. "I'll look . . . rather dashing . . . with an
eyepatch . . ."
Holly's voice came from the doorway. "I want to see Nicky— '
"He'll be all right, I keep telling you," Lulah replied. "We have work
to do."
"I want to see for myself." And then she was kneeling beside him, all
wild hair and huge eyes, with Bandit purring contentedly in her arms.
"Nicky?"
Alec rose, moving toward Andreiu's body. Nick tried for a smile that
was a very bad fit. "I'm only scratched. You were very brave. Holly."
"I was scared to death,' she reported frankly. "If you and Bandit
hadn't — Nicky, what did he want?"
He was spared having to answer by the noise ot a body being dragged
across the floor. Bandit hissed. Distracted, Holly glanced over at the
dead wampyr and shivered — less with fear than with
revulsion,
Nick saw, and was relieved.
"Holly," Lulah said briskly, "get Clarissa Sage on the phone and tell
her we've got an eye injury and a broken rib. She'll give you a list of
things. You bring them all up here right away."
"Y-yes, Aunt Lulah." She patted Nicky's shoulder—tentatively,
as
if touch might hurt him further —and ran to do as told.
The next thing Nick knew, his partner had gently gathered him up and
was carrying him to Holly's bed. "Alec — "
"Shut up. And eat more, you scrawny little Rom."
He was carefully settled atop the quilt and covered with a blanket.
"Give me something so I don't bleed all over everything," he murmured;
he'd gotten the knack of how deep to breathe, and could manage a whole
sentence without having to gasp in the middle.
"Here." A clean washcloth was provided. As he pressed it to his cheek,
Alec asked, "Will you be okay while I dispose of Andreiu?"
"Fine. What will you — "
"I'm going to shove garlic down his throat till it comes out his ass,"
he snapped, "and leave him out so the sun fries him to a crisp."
No sooner had Alec left than Lulah came in, Bandit at her heels. The
Cat leaped onto the bed and tucked himself around Nick's feet.
"You need a hospital and an ophthalmic surgeon," Lulah said, delving
into the deep pockets of her green velvet dressing gown. "But for now
you'll have to put up with some old-fashioned Witch doctoring."
He winced his appreciation of the dry joke, then winced in earnest as
his torn cheek throbbed. I'm not in a position to argue.
"Good. Don't."
She emptied her pockets, and he forgot some of the pain in fascination.
What she planned to do with a willow switch, a blue candle, a fiat oval
of malachite, a sycamore pod, and a bottle of aspirin was
utterly
beyond his comprehension. Except maybe for the aspirin.
"You don't like to say much out loud, but you have a talkative face,"
she told him, and he was taken aback —he who had always
prided
himself on the impassivity of his expression. Lighting the tip
of
the willow switch, she let smoke waft through the air for a moment
before touching the tiny flame to the blue candle. A scent of sage
tickled his nose. Then she extinguished the willow and placed it with
the candle on the bedside table. "To answer the question you're too
polite to ask—yes, this crazy lady does know what she s
doing,
with a little guidance from a specialist. Thai's Clary. We all study
with her for at least two summers, over at her house near Monticello.
All this stuff has to do with healing, magic, and sight.'
Pausing,
she cocked her head at him. "No guarantees, but I'll do the best I can.
Trust me?" Then she snorted. "As if you have much choice."
"Exactly," he said wryly.
"I admire your calm."
"Hysterics would seem to be counterproductive."
Her lips twitched, and her fingers reached beneath his pajama shirt and
brought out the turquoise talisman. "Your pardon for getting fresh, she
said, a muted twinkle in her eyes, "but I need this, too."
"Umm —think nothing of it," he answered, bemused.
"I've got everything I could find," Holly called from the doorway, and
as she came toward the bed delicious scents came with her. "Cousin
Clary said one bulb of garlic is enough. We don't have any elder
flowers or fresh chervil —"
"Yes, we do. Elder's in the pantry, upper shelf, same place as the
cayenne. Get Alec to reach it for you—you'd only fall off the
ladder. The chervil's in the winter herb pots, right next to the
comfrey. Bring me the whole pot, Holly. let's see," she went on,
inspecting the contents of the basket holly placed on the bed.
"Fennel, lavender, bay, caraway, sage -
She named each of the tins, boxes, vials, and muslin bags as she
organized them on the quilt. Holly paused long enough to drag over her
desk chair so her aunt could sit down, then vanished, calling for Alec
to come help her.
"—marjoram, thyme, coriander, eucalyptus, cayenne,
angelica—"
Sweat was drying on Nick's skin in little shivers of cold. He was
grateful for the warmth of the quilt—and Bandit curled
soothingly
at his feet. He watched Lulah take a pinch of this and a bit of that to
rub gently onto the malachite and the turquoise around his neck, her
long fingers swift and sure.
"I remember some of these from my childhood," he said, as much to
distract himself from the shakes as to remind her there was a human
being involved here.
"Herbal lore is herbal lore, whether you're an Irish Witch or a Gypsy.
You'll have to tell us about that one of these days, you know." A
finger touched his lower lip and he opened his mouth reflexively and
two aspirins he hadn't seen her take from the bottle were shoved onto
his tongue. "Although a little modern medicine can't hurt," she said as
his whole face screwed up with the bitterness.
"Hmm," said Alec, coming in to stand on the other side of the bed. He
was carrying a small terra cotta pot with something green growing in
it. "Clove, cinnamon, allspice, nutmeg—'are you
about to
make him into a pumpkin pie?"
"We have sayings around these parts, too," Lulah retorted dryly. "One
of them goes, 'Dimple in chin. Devil within.' Did you take care of that
offal?"
"Yes, ma'am. And we found the elderflower and the chervil, too." He
handed over the pot. Lulah began to pinch off stems and squeeze juice
onto the malachite as Alec continued, "Water's boiled, things
are
steeping, and Holly and I found a secret stash of Belgian chocolates.
So what say we have a tea party at midnight?"
Nick frowned. Alec was looking much more chipper—without much
reason that Nick could tell. But it wasn't a front for his benefit,
that much was obvious when his partner smiled at him. The expression
was effortless, unguarded. It made Nick deeply suspicious.
"Aunt Lulah. ..." Holly spoke hesitantly, standing at Lulah s shoulder
with a small earthenware teapot cradled between her hands. "We have an
idea, sort of. At least. Alec has an idea, but he won't tell me why."
"And this idea might be. . . . ?"
The girl gave her aunt the teapot. Taking a deep breath, glancing at
Alec for reassurance, she scratched at the heel of her thumb to open
the slight scabs of the early evening's little accident. Nick stared
with his good eye, blinking back reflexive tears as Holly took the
malachite oval into her hand, her blood smearing the deep
green
striations.
Lulah turned away, biting her lip, pretending to fuss with the teapot.
Alec watched Holly with a look of bleak gratification. Nick didn't
understand any of it. When Holly wordlessly held out the stone to her
aunt, Lulah shook her head.
"You do it," she said gruffly. "Nick, this will hurt."
Before he could ask, Holly cautiously but firmly placed the malachite
atop his swollen right eye. It did hurt. The weight, the icy chill, the
sudden sting of salt tears and blood and herbs and red cayenne pepper.
Without warning his whole body quivered, rousing to awareness of
something other than pain. He could smell the willow, the sage
oil
from the blue candle, each distinct herb and spice rubbed onto
the
stones. He could taste the acrid remnants of aspirin on his tongue, and
the coffee with chicory he'd drunk after dinner. He could feel
the
warmth of his partner's fingers enfolding his own, and hear Bandit's
purr and Lulah whispering something too low and soft for understanding.
But more than anything else, he was aware of the rapid beat of Holly's
heart.
No—her heartblood, thrumming through her veins, pulsing
against
his eyelid. His own heart began to keep the same time.
And then the pain was gone. All of it. Everywhere.
Someone removed the heaviness. He opened his eyes. Both of them. And
took in a deep, easy breath.
"Yes," he heard himself say, looking up at Alec.
****
HOLLY SMILED IN THE DARKNESS. "You do have such beautiful
eyes, Nicky."
"My sight back wasn't the half of what you gave me that night," he
replied.
"Ah, yes—the malachite," she teased. "Something about one's
heart's desire, wasn't it?"
"Here I'm trying to thank you, and you're making fun of me."
"Thank me for what? Besides Alec, I mean?"
He took the cigarette from her fingers and smoked it awhile in silence.
Then: "I believed in the power of the mind, the manifestation of will.
Everything else was nonsense. At least I thought so until that night.
Gems, herbs, scents, and so forth—they provide cues to -which
the
subconscious mind cannot help but respond. They awaken parts
of
us, of our magic, that would otherwise lie dormant. It wasn't
the
smell of the sage or the feel of the elderflower infusion washing my
eye clean. It was what those things and all the others represented to
my subconscious."
Holly laughed a little. "You're the only Witch I know who
intellectualizes magic."
"But the heart has to be considered, as well," he said gently. "The
heart also responds. It's the instinct that tells us a new acquaintance
will become a friend. It's the feeling that swells inside you when you
hear a glorious piece of music for the first time—you know it
will become part of you,
that you'll never get tired of it because of what it awakens inside
your heart. It's love at first sight."
"That's chemical."
"Okay," he agreed, "pheromones. Why is it different from how the smell
of fresh-baked bread makes you respond? There's magic in everyone and
everything."
"That's what you and Alec gave me, you know. My magic, and my freedom."
****
"YOU KNOW NOW, DON'T YOU?" Nick asked quietly.
His pajamas sweaty and slightly bloodied, he had changed into a
tee-shirt and boxer shorts to sleep in. But he had never felt less like
sleeping in his life. He sat cross-legged in the middle of the Wisteria
Room's big bed, watching as his partner, too, traded his snow-wet
pajamas for something clean and dry.
Alec came to his side, touched his brow with fingers that shook just a
little. "Are you sure you're all right? There's not even a hint of a
scar on your face —
"Alec," he warned, drawing back from the touch. "What is she?"
He sighed. "Spellbinder.'
"You aren't serious!"
"Aren't I? Do you honestly believe in the curative powers of herbs and
spices and a lump of malachite? Do you truly think I could've brought
down a stone wall —and stayed alive when it fell on me? It
was
her blood that quickened the magic. Andreiu wanted her because she's a
Spellbinder."
"To kill her." Nick traced the outline of an oak leaf stitched into the
quilt around a tiny sachet of cedar that embellished the meaning. For
courage, his memory identified at once, the voice of a Rom wise-woman
reciting names and attributes like a catechism. Courage, he thought
again, too much courage demanded of a little girl who doesn't even know
what she is. "Andreiu knew that if her blood was used to work a
banishing against him, or something worse, he — "
"No, that's not it at all." Alec shook his head, dark hair falling into
his eyes to be brushed irritably away. "He didn't want her dead. He
wanted her undead."
"Fasz kivan! "Nick shuddered.
"If she became a wampyr," his partner continued ruthlessly, "if they
took her, drank from her regularly, used her blood to bind whatever
spells and hexes they wished — if she was theirs to do with
as
they pleased — "
"Why didn't you keep him alive enough to burn tomorrow?" Nick demanded.
"Don't you think I wish I had?" was the savage retort. "For her, for
what he did to you — "
"I'm all right," Nick said automatically, taken aback by Alec's
vehemence.
"Only because Holly is what she is.'
"Does Lulah know?"
"She might've suspected, but she wasn't sure until tonight. The wards
on Holly aren't specific enough." He walked to the window and pulled
aside the heavy curtain, staring out at the snow-wrapped fields.
After a time, Nick asked, "How did Andreiu find out?", then answered
his own question. "Her blood must smell like nectar to a wampyr. And
she said herself she's clumsy — a skinned knee, a cut finger
— Alec, what will it be like when she reaches menarche,
unable to
hide the scent of her blood every month ? "
"I hadn't thought of that." The muscles of Alec's long back clenched.
"You're the scholar—can we protect her using her own blood to
seal the work?"
"There's not much literature on the subject, such people being
vanishingly rare."
"She's in for it, then, isn't she? When Mr. Scot finds out about her."
"But we're not going to tell him, are we.'
Alec said nothing.
Nick threw back the quilts and got to his feet. "We can't. Think what
her life would be—could you see her caged?"
"Mr. Scot wouldn't do that." He didn't sound very certain of it.
"He'd have to, one way or another. Every practitioner in the world
would be after her. And there's only so much blood in the veins of one
little girl. For her own protection, she'd have to be kept under glass."
"When she's older, she'll be able to make her own decisions about what
she is and who she wants to be. But for now—"
"No!"
"She's too isolated here," Alec argued, turning to face him at last.
"She needs to be someplace with thousands of people, preferably
millions, where her scent will mingle with others and — "
"No!" he repeated, feeling a chill that a dozen quilts, hexed and
sacheted and spelled or not, wouldn't help. "We're talking about taking
her from everything she knows and loves. We can't do that to her, Alec.
It was done to me. I won't see her go through the same thing."
"She'd have Lulah, and us."
"She'd be miserable. If we can keep her safe here — "
"How?" Alec asked hopelessly. "This house is spelled six ways to next
Lammas Night. Andreiu still found her. So will others."
"We use those same spells and hexes — only we seal them with
her
blood. If we work on the house and not her specifically, on her clothes
and the like, it'll work." He hoped it would work.
"Oh? And how would we test these hexes? Find another vampire to attack
her?" He pivoted on one bare heel. "Or maybe invite the exquisite
Madame Liao from Hong Kong to try a few spells on Holly the way she did
on you last year?"
Nick ignored the sudden dark anguish in his partner's eyes, ignored his
own instinctive cringe of memory. "I won't exile Holly from her home."
"Was it really that horrible for you?" Alec asked softly, unexpectedly.
"What do you think?" Nick retorted, too angry to protect himself with
any sort of facade. "I was about Holly's age when it became clear what
I was. And publicly, too—in front of half the town." He
remembered clearly only two things about that day: the absolute
certainty that he could make the Russian policeman drop his
gun,
and the absolute horror on his mother's face as the Kalashnikov hit the
cobblestones. "After that, it was either the Soviet camps or the Rom
camps for me."
"Miklosbka-"
"Hungary was well and truly under the Soviet
bootheel—gulyas
Communism with its hodgepodge of capitalism and collective
didn't
last long, you know. What do you think it would've been like for me,
Alec? The bastard son of a Gestapo rapist and a Hungarian
girl—"
"Gestapo? . . ." Alec looked sick.
"You wanted to know about the other three-quarters—well, half
of
it's German. I didn't get the blond hair and blue eyes from
Sergei
Orlov. He wasn't my father. This — " He ran a hand through
his
hair, and finished bitterly, "—is pure Aryan. Polluted, of
course, by Magyar and Rom, though you can't tell by looking at
me.
You're not the mongrel, Alec. I am."
"Miklosbka," he said again, whispered this time as if in pain.
"The Soviets would have experimented on me or executed me as a freak.
My mother understood that, and gave me to her mother's people. Two days
after I left, the area commissar arrived to investigate the rumors. My
mother vanished—perhaps to a labor camp, perhaps to an
unmarked
grave. Sergei Maximovitch couldn't protect her. I learned years later
that he tried, but—" Suddenly spent, he sat back down on the
bed.
"She made the right choice—for me. And she paid for it."
"So did you," Alec murmured. "You lost everything."
"I'm alive, aren't I?"
"And you don't want to hear Holly say that in twenty
years—not in
that tone of voice. Well, neither do I." He sat on the bed beside Nick,
hands clasped between his knees. "All right. We'll say
nothing. We
can work with Lulah on protections for her, and come back to
renew
them every so often."
"You'd do that?"
"I'd do more. I will do more." He hesitated, then touched Nick's arm
lightly- "Holly, I can protect. You —" He shook his head. "I
wish
I could have, Miklosbka.
In almost four years you've never told me half so much as you just did
about your childhood."
"I — I don't think of it much."
"But it shaped you—bludgeoned you into who you are now."
He shrugged, uncomfortable. "Whatever I am, I — "
"No, I said who. You were born what you are. Like Holly, like the rest
of us. But who you are is the sum of what's happened to you, how you've
reacted to it. What it did to you and what you refused to let it do."
"Is this by any chance your philosophical hour?"
"Knock it off." He shook Nick gently. "I'm trying to tell you that I
hate what happened to you, but I happen to love who you are." Smiling a
little, he fingered the talisman still around his neck, and there was a
warmth and a gentleness in his eyes that Nick had never seen there
before. "I should mention another trait of carnelian."
"Which is?" Nicky asked a bit breathlessly.
"Worn next to the heart, it has the power to fulfill one's dearest
wish. Has our Holly that much power as a Spellbinder, to make it real
for us?"
****
"YOU'RE NOT GOING TO STOP there!" Holly exclaimed.
"The rest is none of your business," he replied -with a smile.
"Nicky!" she cried, outraged. "You have to tell me what happened. I
mean — did you? That night?"
He drew back, genuinely shocked. "In your house? With a little girl
right down the hall? Good grief, no!"
"So when — "
"You're relentless, you know that? It was about a week later,
actually." A faint, reminiscent smile played about his lips.
As sure of indulgence now as she'd been all those years ago, she mused,
"You were both amateurs, I know that much. I gather you both improved
with practice."
"Watch your mouth, young lady."
"Hey, you're talking to the person who spelled that quilt for you two."
She remembered sitting around the quilt-frame with Lulah and the other
ladies, practically hugging herself with glee at what she knew and the
innocents of the sewing circle did not. Careful to do the real
stitching on it when alone, she would sit up late, pricking a finger
for the blood-drop on a silver dagdyne, a Witch's sewing needle four
generations old, to sew in miniature fragrant sachets of lavender for
luck, rose for joy, and sweet basil for good wishes, knowing all would
spell true.
"Not that you needed any magic from me. You two were so perfect
together that it practically screamed at me." "What about you and your
Evan?"
"He's not mine anymore. If he ever was. If he had been, he still would
be." "I'm sure that will make sense once you've had some sleep." "I'll
try," she said, and followed him inside the house.
Nineteen
THE NEXT MORNING AT ABOUT nine, Nick found his partner
seated at the
redwood picnic table in the back yard, a black cloth spread
before
him. Alec was weighing a black velvet pouch gently in his hand, as if
trying to make a decision.
Nick made it for him, in a way. "You haven't done this in a while."
Alec glanced up with a little shrug, and opened the pouch's drawstring.
"Don't think I didn't see you eyeing the plain white porcelain cups."
Nick snorted. "So we're both worried about her. She's still asleep
upstairs, by the way.'
"I wouldn't be at all surprised if she sleeps all day. It'd be good for
her, poor lamb." He spilled the bag's contents onto the cloth, staring
down at colors glistening in the summer sun. "I can't think
what
to ask," he said plaintively.
Standing behind him, Nick rubbed the sturdy shoulders soothingly.
"Shall I play Gypsy before you play with pretty rocks?" He paused for
effect. "On the other hand, don't forget I'm the one who predicted that
Al Gore would win the election."
Alec half-turned, pointing an admonitory finger. "Do not get me
started!"
Nick grinned. "Sorry. But one has to be careful and specific. If I'd
asked 'Who will be the next President —'"
"I mean it, Nick! "
"Okay, okay. Why don't we try it simultaneously?"
Gathering up the thirteen rocks, Alec let them flow back and forth from
hand to hand. Click-click, click-click-click. At length he nodded. "Go
boil water."
Nick had set the kettle on and was retrieving the special stash of
China tea when something occurred to him. Slipping off his shoes, he
soft-footed it up the stairs, careful to avoid the creak on the
third-from-the-top, and eased open the door of Holly's room. Sound
asleep, right enough. He smiled, resisting the impulse to brush her
hair from her cheeks, and found the black scarf she'd
been wearing when she arrived last night.
Back in the garden, he set down the tea tray and gave the scarf to
Alec. "This might help. It's hers."
"I married a genius. This is perfect."
After tea leaves were measured and water was poured, Nick tucked a foot
under him and glanced over Alec's preparations. The black velvet had
been exchanged for the black silk scarf, and the stones were
lined
up at its edge. "That's always been my favorite." He pointed to the
moonstone: milky white, about the size of a thumbnail, and carved with
a moon face.
"I like the aquamarine—summer blue, a hint of leaf-green.
Like your eyes."
"Restrain your poetic impulses, please."
"That -wasn't poetic, that was romantic. Impulses to which you've never
had in your life."
"You do it well enough—and often enough—for both of
us,
Alyosha." Idly stirring the tea deosil with a silver spoon, Nick
inventoried the stones. Apache tear, duskily translucent; solid black
onyx; aquamarine, smoky quartz, and garnet; indigo-dark beryl
and
rose quartz that looked like child's marbles. Green bloodstone, flecked
with red that gave it its name; a lopsided chunk of golden amber. The
malachite and carnelian matched each other, both being flat ovals.
Moon-faced moonstone, and a tall, pointed phallic symbol of an
amethyst, sliced off a geode.
"Why are you using that one?" Nick asked. "Holly's a girl."
"Who's got man-trouble," Alec retorted. "Hurry up and guzzle your tea.
We wanted to do this at the same time, remember?"
"It hasn't steeped yet. What's the rush, anyhow?"
Alec only shrugged.
They sat quietly for a time, until Nick decided the tea was ready and
started drinking. Resisting the urge to gulp it down fast so they could
get started, he asked, "Have you decided the question?"
"How specific should we get?"
"Let's just think about Holly, and leave it open from there."
"Okay." Alec put all the rocks back in their pouch, cradling it between
his hands as Nick finished the tea. Nodding his readiness, Nick swirled
the remaining spoonful of liquid in the cup three times
sunwise,
then turned it over onto the saucer. At the same time. Alec let the
stones fall one by one onto the black scarf.
East came up black, blue, and red: onyx, aquamarine, and garnet.
"Ideas, inspirations," Alec muttered. "Definitely a journey
for
creative purposes ... a good trip, she'll enjoy it. .. ."
"That means Florence again," Nick stated.
"Hush. I'm concentrating. Devotion is there, but to what? A bit of
aimlessness, I think—that's it, travel for the sake of
travel, to
escape. We've got separation of lovers—no
surprise—but
I can't tell whether it's defensive to repel the darkness or if it'll
end up binding them closer—"
"South," Nick said. "Tell me what's there." Besides the malachite and
the bloodstone—both green, the color of healing.
"More travel. We won't be seeing her for a -while, Nick. But it will
help her. She'll start seeing things differently. That's the
bloodstone." Alec propped his chin on one hand, staring at the Western
quarter. "Here it gets tricky. Five stones, all clustered
together—which one's which?"
Nick waited him out. Eventually there was a sharp nod.
"The Apache tear is just that—grief. Which doesn't take many
smarts to figure out. But she'll get past it if she looks
inside
herself. The amethyst is interesting—it's the stone of
atonement,
but it also ensures faithfulness. And, as you so charmingly pointed
out, it's definitely a masculine stone—so he's not
going to
stop loving her, Nicky. She's it, for him."
"We knew that already."
"Yeah, well... his problem, and hers, will be to get beyond the anger.
Ah, but then there's the moonstone for rebirth." He pointed to the
Northern quadrant. "There's her writing. Communication,
creativity, confidence, success — "
When he broke off, Nick leaned forward. "What? It's the Center, isn't
it? What's there?"
"Profound confusion," Alec replied, his voice deceptively light.
"Stones in the Center are the negative or positive influence on the
rest of the casting. Smoky quartz, overcoming depression with common
sense. And carnelian to change your luck and protect from negative
emotions. Both are good. But look where the two blacks are in relation
to the Center. Black stones are always six of one and half a dozen of
the other when it comes to positive and negative influence."
"English, please."
"She's in for a bitch of a time." After staring at the configuration
for a few moments, he swept all the stones into his palm and stashed
them in the pouch. "Your turn," he said gruffly.
Nick gazed for a moment at the Limoges stamp on the cup bottom for
something to distract him from a sudden pessimism, then shook
himself mentally. Distraction would not do. Upending the cup, he looked
at the pattern of leaves.
"Well?"
"Patience." Nick wished he didn't see what he saw. "You tell me," he
said suddenly, holding the cup so Alec could look. "Is that an arch or
a bridge?"
"There's a difference?"
"Both are journeys, but the bridge is a favorable journey."
"It's a bridge," Alec decided. "Ties in with what the stones said."
"What else do you see?"
Black brows arched, he peered dutifully into the cup. "Is that a
mushroom? '
"Sudden separation of lovers after a quarrel," Nick said dully. "It's
close to the rim, which is the immediate future. The closer to the
bottom of the cup, the more time will elapse before whatever it is
comes true. See this, right at the bottom? It's a kettle
—
there's the spout."
"Looks more like a camel to me. Or maybe a swan. Or — "
"Kettle. Who's the Rom in this family?"
"All right then, ves'tacha," he said, using the gypsy word for beloved.
"Tell me what the kettle means."
"Death."
****
HOLLY WOKE AT NOON, PULLED on clothes, and went downstairs
to an
empty house. A note on the coffee maker read: Foraging for food. Back
by 2. Love, Alec.
He wasn't kidding. Not moldy crust nor curdled milk nor yet a solitary
egg was to be found. She settled for handfuls of cereal from a box best
used by FEB 97, taking coffee and a fresh pack of cigarettes out to the
back porch.
The ashtray was still there, overflowing. She thought over what Nicky
had told her the night before — not about him and Alec, but
the
memory he had evoked of sewing their wedding quilt, back when her magic
was new and felt good. Other people took joy and pleasure from their
talent. She knew plenty of them, Alec and Nicky included. She tried to
remember how that had felt, and couldn't.
Through childhood and adolescence, she'd been wrapped in cotton-wool.
Going away to college, she might have expected to feel
threatened,
but her only insecurities were those shared by every freshman.
Would she make any friends? Would she flunk out? And what about boys?
Her magic hadn't really been an issue. If she'd
sensed herself
different, it was because of her accent, her clothes, her relative
poverty among the wealthy blue-bloods, and all her goddamned freckles.
She'd smoothed out the accent and learned to live with the freckles.
She hadn't even minded much when, during grad school at UCLA, the
California sun popped new ones. (Although she'd been expecting to get a
real tan, so that all the freckles sort of merged together; vain hope.)
Back then she'd enjoyed magic. Healing, Banishing, Scrying, Grounding,
Centering, Initiating, Mourning, Handfasting—she had
participated
in versions of them all and more besides, taking pleasure in the magic
and her contribution to it. But she'd never really felt it. While
others saw and heard and experienced and lived their magic, she stood
by. Watching. She, who made it all happen with an intensity
they
never could have achieved without her, truly participated in nothing.
At Woodhush, magic was in the quilts and the paintings, the herbs in
her dresser drawers, the carvings on the furniture and lintels, the
horseshoe above the barn door. Keep the last egg laid by an old hen as
a charm to
protect the poultry; always ask the faeries' permission before taking a
cutting from a hawthorn tree; myrtle, rosemary, and parsley grow best
if planted by a woman; a salt-cellar overset between two friends is a
sure sign they would quarrel. Things were just things, ordinary and
commonplace, in the way a New Yorker would hear on the TV that a
demonstration at the U.N. was going to foul up his crosstown commute.
Magic was as normal as oatmeal with cinnamon sugar on a winter morning.
Even after Alec and Nicky came to Woodhush Farm and discovered what she
was, Holly hadn't truly known what she was until the first time she
participated in a Circle, the first time she extended her
finger
for someone else to stick with a silver needle and her blood was the
seal and the binding for someone else's spell.
But in the last few years it seemed to her that almost everyone in her
life wanted her blood—literally or figuralively. Except Evan
Lachlan. He was the only man in her life who didn't want her to bleed.
Nicky had been right, early this morning: all life was magic.
Especially love. To her, it was the only magic that ever really worked.
And she was damned if she'd give it up.
A scrap of empty envelope in the kitchen sufficed for a note to Alec
and Nicky: Gone Home. Thanks for everything. Love you. Holly.
****
JUST INSIDE HER FRONT DOOR was a sealed envelope with her
name in his handwriting on the front.
Her hands shook as she ripped open the envelope. His writing was clear,
though the long tail on every Y told her he'd written very fast.
Holly-
I don't have words, not the way you do. All I can think of
to say is
that I can't be with you. Nobody can help me with this. Not even you.
If you're here I won't even take the first step, or if I do it'll just
be because I have you for a crutch. I can't do that to myself and I
won't do it to you.
This won't be forever. I promise. What's forcver is that I
love you.
Evan
Holly sat on the cold tile floor, his letter on her knee, and stared at
nothing. It seemed about a year before she felt chilly, and shivered,
and wondered what had happened to her cardigan.
The door chimes made her glance up incuriously. She didn't care who it
was, because never again would it be him.
"Holly? Come on. Holly, open up."
Susannah. Holly pushed herself to her feet, opened the door. "Come to
view the corpse?"
Susannah's face was a study in compassion—and wariness. "Evan
called a couple of hours ago. He said you'd probably need—"
"What I need," Holly enunciated carefully, "or, more properly, who I
need, has just thrown me away like a dead cell-phone. If you intend to
join me in getting drunk, come on in. If not, shut the door on
your way out." Turning on one heel, she went to the living room for the
bottle of Stolichnaya.
"The usual," Susannah said behind her. "The one with my name on it."
After she found the Cuervo Especial, she sliced two limes into wedges,
put out a salt shaker for Susannah, and poured into cut crystal
glasses. "Slainte mbor."
They tossed back the liquor, coughed, wiped their eyes. Holly poured
again while Susannah licked salt off the back of her palm and sucked on
lime. After a moment Susannah raised her glass and said, "Men: may
every single goddamned one of the motherfuckers rot in hell."
"Amen, sister," Holly agreed, and they drank.
"I should've called you in Kenya, I know," Susannah began.
"So I could come home and do what?" Holly asked pointedly, lighting a
cigarette.
Susannah did likewise. "God, that tastes good. Holly, I honest to God
thought he was gonna be all right. I was stupid enough to believe that
Evan would be fine. Sooner or later." Susannah raked dark hair back
from her eyes. "Then Fleming and his allies started yelling for his
head. Pete threatened to resign if they fired him. Frank
Sbarra
called everybody he knows—"
"And everybody else tried their best, including you and Elias. And now
that I'm back, what -would you suggest—that I write a letter
to
the editor?"
"Cynicism isn't really your thing, Holly. What you can do is be there
for Evan."
"He doesn't want me. Do you know what he said? That he had to do this
on his own. That he can't use me as a crutch. And he's right, damn him.
I hate him for it, but he's right."
"Holly, hell come back to you."
"I told you—either drink or go away."
Susannah tossed back the tequila and held out her glass for more.
"Good choice."
"I think I figured out why he did it," Susannah said after a while. "I
heard Fleming sermonizing to the crowd—toxic bullshit, really
stirring them up. Evan got him down the steps, but he started yelling
again. That's when Evan slugged him."
"Lachlan doesn't like preachers, with or without Roman collar."
Unwillingly, she remembered the day Elias had formally
sentenced
Father Matthew.
"What the hell are you doin' here?"
"I love you, too, Lachlan." She nodded to Susannah as her friend went
past into the courtroom. "I'm here, "she said more softly, "because I
wasn't here before."
"Holly—you don't have to."
Needing something to do with her hands, she straightened his tie. She'd
watched him dress this morning, but until this moment hadn't realized
she'd matched her clothes to his. They both wore black suits.
"I know you don't need to me hold your hand, "she said. "But maybe I
need you to hold mine, you know?"
"I don't want you even breathin' the same air as that bastard." A few
moments later, though, some of the tension left his face. Briefly,
gently, he touched her cheek with his fingertips. "Okay. Come
on."
They stood unobtrusively in the back of the courtroom. Sitting behind
the prosecution were a dozen or so women of varying ages, early
twenties to late fifties. All were more than usually good-looking, and
all of them looked bruised.
The priest was brought in. Whatever allure this man might once have
had, it wad gone now. Remaining was an ageing, nondescript nonentity
who had hurt and warped and destroyed. She felt Evan tense beside her,
every muscle rigid. She wanted to touch him and didn't dare.
"Before I impose sentence according to the arrangement made with the
prosecution, does the defendant wish to make a statement?"
"Yes, Your Honor." He turned.
Holly felt the long body at her side draw in on itself without moving a
single muscle.
"I want to tell everyone how sorry I am. I don't deserve your
forgiveness, and I'll pray every day of my life for God's."
For a moment his gaze lit on Evan, and then Holly—and he was
interested. Despite where he was, what he had done, and that he would
be spending the next twenty years in prison, he wanted her. She met him
stare for stare—and the furtive, faded eyes flinched. His
head
turned—quickly, as if to avoid a raised fist.
She glanced up at Evan, found he was looking at her, his eyes wide,
startled. Only then did she realize that her lips had curved in a
little smile. For the priest.
Who had looked at her and flinched.
Shaking her head, she slipped out of the courtroom. Gulps of cold water
from the drinking fountain got the taint out of her mouth.
"Holly?" Susannah came up to her. "Come talk some sense into
him—he's gone back to confront the man."
A quick walk through a side hall to the holding cell; slowly, careful
to make no sound of breath or footstep, Holly went closer.
"Those women trusted you," Evan was saying. "And you raped them. What
gave you the right to do that?"
Holly pressed her spine against a wall, unable to see Evan. His words
were hoarse, roughened by pain and anger. Yet there was an entreaty
deep in his voice, a tremor that begged for understanding of why this
man had done these things.
"God trusted you to help people. Instead, you helped yourself to as
many women ad you could, and when they didn t want you
anymore—how do you live with what you did? "
Pete Wasserman entered the hall, giving Holly a glance and a nod before
opening the holding cell. A moment later she heard him say, "Let's go,"
and the priest was taken away. Handcuffs and leg chains rattled. The
watery gray eyes saw her, and the defiant lift of his head
disintegrated into another flinch.
She knew she wasn't smiling now. She wondered what was in her eyes.
She watched the priest being taken away, thinking, Evan's been running
for years — from you, his mother, his childhood, even himself
sometimes—but it stops now. You can't get to him without
getting
past me. And nothing will ever get past me.
She walked toward the cell. Behind the iron bars stood Evan. He saw
her, and very slowly his right hand reached out for her. She went
inside. His fingers were chill, his grip almost painful. It
was a
long moment before he spoke.
"Given the chance, you woulda killed him, wouldn't you? "
Her brows arched. "For you? Of course. Him. or anyone else. "
His lips curved in a flicker of a smile, and light returned lo his
eyes. "Good thing looks can't kill, or I'd have to arrest you."He
squeezed her hand, his fingers warm now, alive. "You can be pretty
scary, McClure. "
"Never underestimate an Irishwoman in love, Lachlan." She tugged at his
hand. "Can we get out of here, please? We're on the wrong side of these
bars?"
She remembered her vow of that morning: that whoever and whatever would
injure Evan Lachlan must get past her first. But something had gotten
past her, she reflected bitterly. Evan himself.
Susannah was saying, "He didn't punch the Reverend just because he was
monumentally pissed. The fine green eyes were watching her,
waiting for her to see whatever-it-was for herself.
"The Reverend's the type who milks it till it moos,' she said slowly.
"The crowd was getting uglier by the minute—but that wouldn't
have troubled him, he'd just keep on while they—"
Susannah interrupted impatiently. "Would it help if I told you that the
NYPD's haul during the arrests included eleven guns?"
"Oh, no," Holly whispered, seeing it at last. "He decked the bastard to
get him out of the way before somebody could kill him."
"Which isn't to say Evan wasn't furious and didn't want to belt him
just on general principles. '
They drank in silence for quite a while after that.
When the phone rang, Holly flinched. Alter one heart-thudding instant
she realized it wouldn't be Evan. She got up and answered it, grateful
that her first experience of liquor had been the Widow Farnsworth's
moonshine at age thirteen. A good healthy slug was Aunt
Lulah's
sovereign remedy for menstrual cramps.
Elias said, "Holly? Is Susannah with you?"
"Yep."
A pause. "You've both been drinking."
"Yep."
"And you're going to keep on drinking, aren't you?"
He surely did have a keen grasp of the obvious. "Yep."
"So I won't be seeing Susannah tomorrow at the office.'
"Nope."
Another pause. "Don't let her drive home."
"Nope."
"Look, Holly, I'm sorry about — "
" 'Night, Elias." And she hung up on him.
Susannah sat up straight. "That was Elias?"
An equally keen grasp of the obvious — it must be catching.
Holly
sat down again, propping her feet on the coffee table. "Sure was."
"He's gonna be mad."
"Tough shit. I wonder just how sick we're gonna be tomorrow."
"How much've we drunken—drank — " she corrected
herself, frowned, and amended, " — had to drink?"
Holly held up the Stoll bottle and sloshed it experimentally. Susannah
did the same with the Cuervo. "A lot," Holly said at last.
"This gonna become a habit with you, McClure? "
"Over Lachlan?" She laughed bitterly and lit another cigarette. "Fuck
im."
"Speaking of which, I been meaning to ask. He any good?"
"Well, Counselor, to tell the whole truth and nothing but the truth
—he's so great in bed he yells his own name." She drank
straight
from the bottle. "But there ain't a man in the universe worth turnin'
into a drunk over."
"Amen, sister." Sprawling long, jeans-clad legs, Susannah rested her
head against the back of the sofa and stared at the ceiling. "Glad to
hear you say it, Holly. Evan would kill me if I let you destroy the
woman he loves."
" 'Destroy'?" Holly laughed again. "Melodrama is my gig, Wingfield. And
it's 'loved'—past tense."
"I'll believe it when he looks at some other woman the way he looks at
you. In fact—" She seemed to lose her train of thought,
swallowed
another tot of tequila, and chortled softly. "In fact, I'll bet you my
diamond bracelet that he comes back to you—against all your
sapphires if he doesn't."
Holly tried to sort that through. "Huh?"
"I'll part with the bracelet when Lachlan does what I know he's gonna
do," Susannah explained. "But if he doesn't, I want serious consolation
for being wrong. Ergo, the sapphires. Besides," she added impishly,
"Elias says I look better in your sapphires than you do."
"You look better in anything than I do, you bitch! So what's the time
limit on this wager? "
"Mrs. Osbourne predicts they'll change their minds about firing him,
but he'll be doing confiscated property inventory for two-and-a-half to
five."
Holly winced. "He's good at his job, Suze, they can't possibly stick
him in some do-nothing position — "
"He's lucky he's still has a job," was the bleak rejoinder. "And I
think
that galls him more than almost anything else. You know him,
Holly—he's got pride enough for a dozen. Even a dozen
Irishmen.
And his pride tells him that until he gets his life together, he's got
nothing to offer you. And the last thing he'll ever do is justify his
actions by explaining them. With Evan, either people trust him and
believe him, or they don't."
With difficulty, Holly said, "My trust and belief aren't the issue."
"Exactly. Right now it's his belief in himself that's at stake, that he
can get through this on his own."
"If he needs me or anybody else, he can't be a real man," she
interpreted, and her friend nodded. "And if I was some helpless,
faint-hearted little thing who couldn't hardly think for herself and
needed him to make every decision, then he wouldn't've left, because
he'd have to stay and be strong for me, right?"
"Holly, if you were some pathetic clingy type he had to take care of,
he wouldn't've been with you at all."
"Why are men such morons?"
"Nature of the beast. But it's not entirely his fault. He's been
essentially alone all his life, you know. 'Dysfunctional' is a polite
term for his family. When he's in trouble, it's instinct to handle it
alone." She squeezed an already limp wedge of lime into her glass and
mused, "For a hot-tempered Irishman, he does a great impersonation of
the next Ice Age. Nobody gets in when he's like this."
"Not even me."
"Especially not you. He's a fighter—and he goes into the ring
alone."
"But he doesn't have to!"
"A lifetime's conditioning is hard to break. Once he's convinced he's
done it on his own, and he's got something to give you, hell be back."
"And until then, I do my Statue of Liberty imitation. Terrific."
Susannah hesitated. "That's up to you. But that torch may get awful
heavy."
"I'm stuck with it," she replied bleakly. "It's got his name on it."
"Well, anyway, I'd bet on about six months before he comes back to you.
Have we got a deal?"
"We got a deal, Counselor. But make it a year."
"It won't take that long."
They sealed it with a clink of bottles and long swigs of liquor. Holly
sat back again, regarding her friend. "You really love that bracelet,"
she remarked.
"I know. But I really love you and Evan more." In lousy imitation of
Holly's Virginia accent: "Holly 'Lizbeth, honeychile, y'all gonna look
so purdy wearin' them thar diamonds on y'all's weddin' day."
Holly's eyes flooded with tears. A sound escaped her, harsh and
desperate. She bent her head, fist crammed between her teeth, trying to
muffle the cries that clawed her throat, terrible gasping cries that
she couldn't stop. A moment later Susannah gathered her close. She hid
her face on her friend's shoulder and wept.
Twenty
THE NAME ON THE DISPLAY of hardbound novels leaps out at him. This is
why he hasn't willingly been inside a bookstore in over a year. But the
United States Marshals Service has jurisdiction over escaped fugitives,
and this suburban New Jersey bookstore's horrified owner has discovered
on this fine Friday afternoon in October that last month she
hired
a wanted felon. So here he is —but only because his name was
on
the original case file, and somebody had neglected to adjust
for
new realities.
When the senior deputies arrive, he gives his report tersely and
quietly. They know who he is. Was. They know he was put back on the job
after an incident across the river that ultimately resulted in
a
sixty-day suspension. They also know that he used to be assigned this
case—and they all expect him to do their work for him. And
they're waiting for him to make a mistake. But he doesn't make
mistakes. Not anymore. He does his job, but not theirs. He refuses to
let his mind -worry at puzzles— when they present themselves.
That isn't too often. Not anymore.
When the senior deputies tell him okay, we'll take it from here, he
goes to the front of the store. He takes a copy of the book to the
desk. The owner is still shaky. She stares at the twenties he hands her
as if she's never seen money before, then snaps back into her job. As
he has been hoping she would. When the criminal world intersects with
the conventional world, the sooner someone gives the victims something
familiar to do, the sooner they calm down.
He waits for her to make change and bag his purchase, and nods when she
asks if he's read the author's other books. Yeah, he says, I've read
everything she's ever written. The woman—firmly back on
familiar
ground, her world righting itself—says she really likes this
writer's work, too,
she read this book when it came out in June, it's really good, really
sad but really good.
He is tempted to say, Really?, but restrains himself. She is a victim,
and he is always gentle with victims. He will not do the other
marshals' job for them, he will not play the catch-the-perp game,
because that's not why he's still in this business. He doesn't care
about catching the bad guys, not the way he did before. He cares about
the victims now. This is a change in him, and he recognizes it -with a
mixture of amusement and fatalism. He'd felt like a victim for a while
himself.
He heads back to the office, finishes his paperwork, and goes
downstairs to his locker to change into street clothes—jeans,
shirt, jacket left over from that other life—and heads for
the
nearest bar.
In that other life, he would have gone with somebody else from the
office. A few drinks, a few bullshitting hours winding down. Now he
goes alone. For a single beer. It is all he can afford—not
monetarily, for his apartment rent is cheap, and he has never been an
expensive person. A single beer is all his body can afford, because any
more than one — or any fewer than a dozen—and he
feels
himself weaken, and he is prey to things he doesn't want to feel, and
he gets even less sleep than usual, because the nightmares come.
He has his usual single beer, staring all the while at the bag beside
him on the bar. He can read the title through the thin paper, and the
name of the author. He turns the bag over, and can almost but not quite
see the picture on the back cover.
He starts to open the bag, then shakes his head. Later. When he's
alone. He knows that feeling is going to flood him, and if he drowns he
doesn't want anyone to see. He'd been stupid enough a few
months
ago to reread his favorite of her books, and it was like hearing her
talk to him in that low, quick, husky voice. If this book is what he
thinks it is, and he's certain it is, he must be alone when he reads
it, where no one can see him.
But where? Not his apartment. Except for her books, and one blue
cashmere sweater tucked away in a drawer, there is nothing of her in
that place. She doesn't belong there. Her letters and postcards, Granna
Maureen's ring, the art books from Italy—none of it. He
doesn't
even have a photo of her, not even buried somewhere in his desk. The
one he does have, the only one, is with the ring in his safety deposit
box. Someone took the picture at her alumni party, and she gave it to
him in a silver frame. She is in a glittery green dress; he is in a
dark blue business suit and white silk shirt. He sits on a bar
stool, she stands behind him with arms wrapped around his chest, chin
on his shoulder. He can hear echoes of her laughter whenever he looks
at it. Which is not often. As for him—the look on his face in
that photo is one he hasn't seen in a very long time. He looks happy.
If not his apartment, maybe the roof. Cindy Ramirez has a garden up
there, trees in pots and vegetables in long wooden troughs, safe
playground created for her fatherless children. He helped her put
together a jungle gym
last fall, and this spring found some discarded barrels in an empty lot
and dragged them upstairs for roses. She isn't into herbs, which is a
relief. Too many memories connect with the scents.
In his apartment, he pours a Diet Coke, tucks the book under his arm,
takes an ashtray and two cigars and climbs up to the roof garden. Cindy
is there, tending tomato plants. He plays for a while, catch with
Eduardo Junior and Rita. Cindy smiles, and he thinks that in the year
since he moved into the building Cindy's face has grown
younger.
Widowed at thirty with two little kids to raise, she used to look ten
years older. Perhaps she is finally recovering from her grief. He hopes
so. She is a nice woman, a good woman, who deserves a good man in her
life again. They talk sometimes, she of her husband, he of the life
he'd left behind.
That can't be your dinner, she scolds, eyeing the Coke and the cigars.
When he shrugs, she tsks. She goes downstairs -with the kids and ten
minutes later comes back up with a bowl of spaghetti, half a bottle of
chianti, and a glass. He protests; she tells him to hush up and eat,
there's plenty. She stands with fists on hips for a minute or so, to
make sure he does eat, then returns home to feed her children.
He eats because she's a good cook and because a severe cutback on
alcohol has reduced his weight. All that liquor, months of
it—though never on duty, he's not that stupid—was
detrimental to his blood pressure as well as his waistline, and his
annual physical provoked the medical version of the riot act. He's been
careful since March, and it shows. So he eats Cindy's spaghetti and
drinks her chianti, and finally, with the late sunset, lights a cigar.
The roof lights have come on, one right behind his deck chair. He opens
the bag and takes out the book.
Jerusalem Loot, it says, and her name below it. The picture on the back
cover is black-and-white, but memory fills in die colors of hair and
eyes and mouth. This is not the cat-and-sweater photo, where she was
smiling. She wears a dark shirt and her mother's pearls; her hair is
scraped back, all its soft curl repressed, to expose the stubborn
square jaw and chin, the high rounded Celtic forehead, the fine arch of
brows, the ruler-straight nose. She seems to be assessing
whoever
might be looking at this picture, her eyes seeking,
questioning—but knowing there is only one person who
can
give her the answer she craves.
That person is staring at her picture right now.
The sight of her hollows his chest, makes him ache -with need. He
closes his eyes and unwisely allows himself to remember . . .
. .. the perfume of her skin, her soft sigh of his name in Gaelic, her
fingers cradling his face in tenderness and her body moving sweetly and
powerfully beneath his, and the brandy and coffee and her of
her
mouth —
—the stench ot sweat and liquor and cigarettes on his skin,
the
cruel jeering of his voice, the fear-bunched muscles of her shoulders
as he shoves her against the wall, and her blood from where her teeth
cut her lip when he tries to rape her.
He opens the book and begins to read.
EPILOGUE
She had always Looked down on men. From the high window of
her tower
chamber, as they strutted and pranced and fancied themselves Lords of
all creation; from the top of the stone stairs into her father's great
hall, shy when she was young, then pausing to collect their gazes as
she Learned her power; from her gilded chair, Looking down on the
drunkards and the boars and the merely stupid.
Only one man had ever made her Lift her gaze to meet his. She could
make them all Look at her—look up at her. All but him.
In seeing him, she had also scen limitless sky and wild wind-chased
clouds and the sweet infinity of the stars. Sky, wind, stars
—poor subdtitutes for him, but she was used to that.
Perhaps he would have been happier had she died of the wanting of him.
But it was the only Life she knew how to live, after all these years;
to survive, strong if not whole; to Live, wanting him.
He rode away from her for the last time, long back and proud shoulders
rigid, obstinate conviction in every line of him. He knew be was right,
as surely ad she knew he was wrong. If he was hers, then he could not
still be his own. Whatafool he was. She had been his these many
years—had it crippled her, caused her to be a thing less than
herself?
"I have nothing left to offer you, Elizabeth. Nothing to give
— "
"Except yourself. Do you think I would be content with less?"
"I think that you deserve more."
"What is this 'more'you talk of! Wealth I have, and possesions, and
name and rank, and such power as is granted to women. What 'more' can
you offer me that I would ever need—except yourself!"
And though she might offer herself, gladly and willingly and with pride
in the giving—strength to strength, need to need—he
would
not take what wad his. If he needed, only he would know of it. His life
wad his own, and he would live it alone. For he had nothing to offer
her except himsclf.
All the loving that had been his for the taking Lay in the gutter, to
be washed down into the middens with the next hard rain.
She wanted to hate him. But she had spent do much of herself Loving him
that there was very little left within her with which to hate. She
would have this last sight of him, of his proud back and strong
shoulders and graying dark head with the red glints of Hell's fire
still
bright in the sunshine. And that was all. Some part of her
wanted it so, was glad she had sent him away. Perhaps without him
there could be peace, of a sort. But it would be lonely, this life, a
thing of bleak bitterness, knowing there was no man worthy of her gaze
who could lift her eyes and her heart and her soul.
There was still sky. Wind. Stars. And she was used to loneliness.
Finis
****
THAT JUNE SHE STAYS IN New York long enough to attend launch
parties
for Jerusalem Lost, do a few signings at her favorite bookstores, and
take Susannah to a lavish lunch that becomes a pleasantly drunken
dinner during which a certain name is never mentioned. She
visits
Mugger, who now lives quite happily with Alec and Nicky at the
Connecticut farmhouse. She stays most of July at Woodbush with Aunt
Lulah. And then she returns to London, where the book had been written
last autumn and winter. She has spent much of 2003 anywhere but
Manhattan: Spain, her beloved Florence, California. She has repeatedly
told herself that she deserves time off, especially after the
exhaustion of finishing Jerusalem Lost.
On August first, Lughnasadh, she participates in a ritual with the
London Circle. It is the first magic she has done in a year. The
Magistrate is Mr. Scot's granddaughter, and she figures she owes the
woman a favor in the old man's name.
Her British publisher never has figured out why she went into a funk
but is certain he's found the perfect man to bring her out of it: a
tall, black-eyed Irish playwright whose accent is all emerald hills and
bardsong. He is charming, witty, intelligent, fun, everything she
enjoys in a companion. After she's known him longer than the requisite
month, she decides to take him to bed. But if not him, then someone
else. Anyone else. It's been a long time.
Yet she hesitates, and escapes London's heat with long drives into the
country. She visits cathedrals and Medieval ruins and great
houses, for once making notes on nothing, researching nothing, simply
being in these wonderful places for herself and not for any book.
Jerusalem Lost is spending more lime on the best-seller lists than she
had any right to expect. She knows it's a good book. It just isn't the
book she'd meant to write. She is bleakly amused to find it is
competing with Denise Josephe's newest fangs-and-fanatics novel. In all
honesty, there is no such thing as bad publicity. Denise has legal
problems, which her lawyers have long delayed with multiple
continuances, and her name is often in the news.
At last, one Saturday night early in October, she invites the Irishman
to dinner. He suggests Luigi's, a favorite of the late
Princess
Diana, where he points out several semi-scandalous faces and amuses her
with gossip. She purposely drinks too much. He comes back to her suite
at Durrant's, undresses
her, and begins to make love to her quite proficiently. But she makes
the one unforgivable mistake. She calls
him by name not
his own.
He has compassion enough- or ego enough — to stop. He listens
to
her stammered apology, then smiles, touches her cheek, and tells her
that when she's ready, he'll be here. And then he dresses and leaves.
Humiliated and furious, she pours herself a very large cognac. Al
length she falls asleep. But being in a man's arms for the first time
in more than a year wakens the memories of her flesh, and she
dreams.
****
He laughed—exultant, triumphant, knowing she is at
her limit. She
cursed, and he laughed again, and finally allowed her to blaze down to
ashes in this fire of his gleeful making. When it was over,
and she lay gasping beneath him, he was still hard within her, his
satisfaction secondary to hers, sensitive fingers soothing the frenzy
he had created. She roused herself, touching him, greedy for the feel
of sleek flesh and hard muscles and sweat-damp skin, muscles
contracting along his length, and it was her turn to laugh as his eyes
became green-gold dragon's eyes and his head arched back on his long
neck and he spent himself within her, crying out her name.
As she recovered her breath she opened her eyes to see him propped on
one elbow beside her. His hair was tousled, his eyes gleaming,
his lips and cheeks flushed, and she felt her heart ache with his
beauty. No man had ever loved her like this: with his heart as well
as with his body, their souls and minds and spirits all
interwoven in this perfect making of love.
"A chuisle mo chroi, she whispered, "my love, only
mine— "
He smiled at the litany. "Just like you're mine. And in case you need
it proved to you again — "
"You're insatiable. Incorrigible. " She ran a hand down his belly to
his groin and he hardened once more beneath her caressing fingers.
"Indestructible!"
"It comes with a. lifetime guarantee, babe, " he purred. Then he
laughed, and pulled her atop him, and kissed the breath out of her.
He tastes of good chianti and fine cigars.
She wakes up with the memory of a stranger's hands and a stranger's
mouth, and cries herself to sleep.
She dreams just before dawn, about a gigantic black grand piano,
gleaming with polish and perfect in every respect but for the keys,
which ripple and flutter like loose shingles in a gale.
Suddenly
they begin to fly from the board, short black and long white shards
that sound their assigned notes even though they are no longer
connected to hammers that strike strings. She lunges to catch them,
knowing she must put them back in the proper order, and when she wakes
to the ringing of the phone she is sitting up in bed, staring at her
empty hands.
She has no tears left when, from an ocean away, Elias Bradshaw tells
her that Susannah Wingfield is dead.
****
HE HAS NOT BEEN BACK across the river in over ayear. But
today he has
to go. He's not sure why. Maybe because he doesn't want to think of her
as that hard, bitter woman in the book—or of himself as that
grim, bitter man. There are memories to be found, good memories that
will take the taste of those words out of his mouth. If for a time it
hurts even more than usual—well, the words hurt worse.
His few hours of sleep the past two nights have been anything but
restful. He thinks with weary longing of-when she'd last slept beside
him, when the nightmares caused by memories of his mother and
the
priest vanished as if they'd never been. When the world she'd created
for him gave him rest, and peace.
He doesn't dream about the priest anymore, about running and running
and never stopping. That is an old hurt, and cannot compete with
nightmares in which he cannot move, cannot speak, can do nothing but
scream soundlessly with the panic that never wears a face. He has tried
to teach himself how to trigger wakefulness, how to turn the
dreams deliberately so they can't master him. But he has never quite
gotten the knack, and he always wakes with his face buried in a pillow,
shivering with sweat, his body clenched with need, with longing, with
hatred of his own impotence.
He fears the nightmares, the pain and the panic of them, and for a time
last year thought that sex -would be an antidote. He was wrong. The
first time had been a failure—the first of his life,
humiliating
him. The second time he'd managed it, but only by squeezing
his
eyes shut and pretending. Afterward, nightmares had come, and
it
was months before simple physical desperation had driven him to the
bars, and the bed of some woman -whose name he didn't know and didn't
want to.
There is liquor, of course. There is some measure of oblivion to be
found at the bottom of a bottle, but what it did to his body and his
mind was, eventually, not worth the hours of sodden sleep.
He's not sure why, but he thinks maybe he'll find something here this
bright Sunday morning that will let him sleep tonight. Something is
drawing him here, to a tiny part of the world he shared with her. He
walks where they once walked together, remembering long talks and
laughter and sudden crazy races back to her place so they could make
love.
Nothing has changed in the Park. But he is different. He created a hell
for himself, and managed somehow to survive it, and now that he has
finally come out on the other side he sees that other Evan Lachlan who
loved a woman -with his whole heart, and shakes his head with
incredulity that this man could have been so colossally stupid as to
let her go.
He also sees what he did not fully see back then. She offers him
everything. Whatever he wants, whatever he needs. He has thought all
this time that their private world was of her sole creation. Now he
understands that although she was its conjurer, the magic was theirs
together. He was always the exact center of that world, and it does not
exist without him.
He thinks about something a psych professor said a long time ago. "The
pet theory of a colleague of mine is that there are four kinds of
people in the world: Creators, Consumers, Guardians, and Destroyers.
Those who choose to work in law enforcement are obviously Guardians.
Keep the Consumers safe, let the Creators do their work, and catch the
Destroyers before they do any more damage."
He knows now that she made that world because she needed to. She could
no more choose not to create than she could choose not to be born. He
was to have been that world's Guardian. Instead, he has been its
Destroyer.
He knows that no woman will ever love him like that again. There had
been affection from others, tenderness, sometimes real caring, but
never this encompassing love that enfolds him even now that he
is
parted from her. For despite what he did in shattering their world, her
loving stays wrapped around him. Pride told him he must get through his
self-made hell alone. What he has not realized until this very
moment is that she is with him, she has been with him all along. If he
has risen from his knees, and stood, and walked, and found his way
through, it is partly because she has been beside him.
He knows this now. Accepts it, with gratitude. It is not weakness, to
admit this need. That would be the same as believing that he is a
lesser person because he is right-handed or hazel-eyed. The man in that
book, with his own Jerusalem forever lost, with his rigid pride and his
terror of loving—wrong, so wrong. Loving her and
needing her
are as much apart of him as his skin, his blood, his bones.
He can see that other Evan Lachlan catch her in his arms and whirl her
around and around, laughing. When she escapes him, he runs after her.
And this, he thinks suddenly, is what has changed most about him: he
has stood, and walked, but he no longer runs. Not like that other
Lachlan, with his eager uncomplicated joy.
Suddenly his legs ache to run. He isn't wearing the clothes for
it—the tee-shirt is okay, but the jeans are too snug. He runs
anyway, pushing himself harder and faster until his lungs are on fire
and his thighs are screaming. He slows, eventually stops. Hands on
hips, bent over, gulping air.
A voice says to him, Legs that long aren't meant for sprints, you know
— you're built for distance.
He looks up. Barely five-five, thin as a rake and carefully sculpted,
no hips to speak of, blonde ponytail. The eyes are greenish, and for a
moment he is reminded of Susannah—but the face is
all wrong,
the lips too full and the cheek-bones too sharp. She is dressed for
jogging in barely legal shorts and
a cropped halter top that expose toned and honed stomach muscles and
artfully tanned skin.
Distance, huh? he says. What'd you have in mind?
She looks him over once again, and likes what she sees, and replies,
How about the five blocks to my place?
He puts a grin on his face, but inside he is reeling. This easy?
Twenty-five words or less, and they'd be in the sack? But it has been a
long time.
The apartment is pricey, self-consciously decorated, and smells of some
odd, nose-prickling incense. The bed is huge. He lifts her
effortlessly—she weighs nothing —and splays her
across the
velvet bedspread. He strips her clothes off without preliminaries,
using every trick ever learned, every technique, until she finally begs
for mercy.
As she sleeps, sprawled on her stomach with her face hidden in a
pillow, he lies on his back, late afternoon sunshine streaming down
from a high window. His body is sated, his soul
unsatisfied—just
like all the other times. Those falling-down-a-well-into-the-mud times
when he's been so starved for touch and warmth or just plain sex that
he took whatever was offered.
But it turns out there is a difference with this one, because there was
no softness, not even inside, where a woman is usually warmly yielding.
It was like fucking a sweat-sheened marble statue: alive, the blood hot
within her, but ultimately hard. Repressing memories of
another
body, strong but soft and giving (that is what he's missed, more than
anything else: the givingness), he draws the sheet over her and goes
into the bathroom.
There is no light in his eyes. No look of sheer exhilaration, of shared
ecstasy. Of being happy. Leaning on the sink, hands gripping the
porcelain, he squeezes shut his lightless, lifeless eyes and smells the
woman on him and whispers, "Holly. ..."
"You re mine, Evan Lachlan — "
He remembers the first time she said that. When it had startled him,
and for a few moments he had shied away from it, until he understood
what she meant.
They finished Dinner, with the choice of brandies to be debated before
they went to the bar for cigars. A woman in a tight black dress
approached and mentioned something about special reserve
Armagnacs
—but she didn't get around to naming them because she
recognized
him. And he recognized her.
Hi-how-are-you-what've-you-been-doing. Holly sat patiently waiting for
him to reremember his manners and perform introductions.
Glancing over at her, he did so. And wished to God he was anywhere but
here.
Sherry smiled with the smug superiority of prior knowledge; Holly
smiled with the poisonous sweetness of current possession. He
made
a hasty escape to the men's room, telling the women to order whatever
they thought he'd like. Christ Almighty —there was nothing
worse than an old girlfriend running into the new one. If they didn't
shred you right in front of your face, they hacked you up without
saying
a single word, Just by smiling.
Five tactful minutes later he returned to the table. Sherry's voice
could have blighted every newly budding tree in Central Park ad dhe
told him his friend was waiting in the bar. He nodded thanks, and
didn't day he'd call her real soon.
Holly, perched on a tall chrome bar stool, had already lit her cigar.
She gestured to the cognac and Cohiba waiting for him. Her perfect
serenity made him deeply suspicious.
He smoked, dipped, and waited. At last, able to stand no more, he
asked, "What the hell did you say to her, anyway?"
She shrugged. "All I did was tell her that I'd greatly appreciate it if
she'd wipe the drool off her chin."
He choked. "McClure!"
"Well, what else could I do? She had the gall to ask not only how long
we've known each other—with Biblical implications to the
verb—but whether it's still impossible to wake you up in the
morning, with the further implication that she could wear you out like
no other woman in the world."Holly took a long draw on her cigar.
Fragrant smoke trickled from her lips as she went on, "To which I
replied that I don't bother trying to wake you up before noon. Any more
former girlfriends among the staff here?"
"None that I know of. Why?"
All at once her eyes were fierce. "You 're mine, Evan Lachlan, in case
you hadn't noticed yet. And if any more of your women show up
— "
She didn't have to finish the thought. A smile was back on her face,
but this time it was the smile of a predator anticipating the
gratifying crunch of bone.
He'd only seen that smile one other time: when she looked straight at
Father Matthew. By then he'd known what it meant. But the first time,
he hadn't known whether to feel smug and delighted or trapped and
appalled — until he abruptly understood that the other things
she
meant was, "I'm yours, Evan Lachlan, in case you hadn't
noticed
yet."
He is still hers. And the flesh that has just spent itself within
another woman disgusts him. Just his body, he tells himself as he
strips off the condom and showers himself clean. Nothing to do
with his heart. She is still here, still beside him, and even with the
feel of another woman lingering on him despite his efforts to wash her
off, he can sense warm fingers slide into his palm and hear soft
laughter as her head rests on his shoulder. She is still here. She
always will be. And despite what he has just done with his body, the
truest part of him is still hers.
He returns to the bedroom for his clothes. The girl is still sleeping.
Nice, he thinks sourly, to know a pushing-forty out-of-shape deputy
marshal can wear out a twenty-two-year-old marathon runner.
He gets into his clothes, hoping she won't awaken. She does. She
stretches, and turns over—and all at once her face is
different,
altered, older, sickeningly familiar. The last time he saw it was
inside Elias Bradshaw's courtroom.
Still don't believe in magic? she asks, grinning. She sits up in bed,
shaking out long blonde hair. I have to say it was worth the trouble it
took to bring you to Manhattan today.
Bring me — ? he asks, voice thick with disgust.
Unlike your former playmate, I know how to use what I've got. I got a
late start Friday—you remember that murder charge?
Continuance
after continuance, but Friday I had to be at the courthouse
for
some tedious interview. But once I got back here—She gives a
little shrug. Complicated, and I expected you Saturday, but well worth
the effort and the wait. I Called, and you came, and — She
breaks
off, laughing. Did she ever do you as well as I just did?
For a moment he thinks he's going to throw up.
Her brown-mottled green eyes strafe him. You're not quite as impressive
as that time we talked at Starbucks. Body by Nautilus, back then. Now
it's more like Body by Budweiser. But you're still a choice lay.
Marshal. And my choicest trophy, even better than beating that bitch on
the August best-seller lists.
Somehow he manages to leave her apartment. This is worse than the other
times he's found a woman to fuck. Infinitely worse. For the first time
he understands how Holly must feel when her blood is used for
someone else's magic.
Back across the river, there is a message waiting on his answering
machine. The time-log says it has been here since noon. He plays it,
then plays it again, thinking he has heard wrong, that Pete is
mistaken. God, no—it must be a mistake—not Susannah
—
Tears blur his eyes. He can't take this. Not after that book, not after
this day. With a blind, mindless need he wants Holly—to be
with
her, to hold her while she cries, to rock her in his arms and cry with
her, to talk of Susannah, to mourn her—
But he has no right. Especially after what he's done today, he has no
right.
In his apartment across the river, a place he has never even begun to
think of as home, for the first time since his self-imposed moderation
he gets thoroughly, senselessly, retchingly drunk.
Twenty-One
HOLLY FLEW IN TO HARTFORD for Susannah's funeral with no very clear
idea of how or even when she arrived. Another classmate picked her up
at the airport and categorically forbade her to stay in a
hotel.
So Holly and her luggage rode out into the suburbs, then the
countryside, while darkness fell and Jemima Stapleton Rowell filled the
silence with details of tomorrow's memorial.
Jemima had inevitably been known during childhood as Puddleduck, a
nickname unused at college for the simple reason that she threatened
frightful vengeance on anyone who even thought about calling her that.
The only person who ever got away with it was the man she eventually
married—and Joshua dared only "Puddin'" or "Ducks."
The Rowell residence was forthright New England clapboard outside, and
on the inside a chaos of toys, discarded sweaters, skates, school
books, half-eaten peanut butter sandwiches the mutts hadn't yet found,
and other effluvia of a family of three boys and three girls. Jemima
herself had grown comfortably plump, presiding over the turmoil with
the benign neglect of the absolute monarch who doesn't have to prove
it. When she escorted Holly through to the kitchen, the Babel of sons
and daughters instantly moved itself elsewhere when she hollered, "Out!
And take the cookie jar with you!"
Holly sat in numbed silence, watching her old friend bustle, not
thinking at all until Jemima spoke. "Her mother wants us to sing
tomorrow, you know."
"I couldn't."
"Me, neither. I'll get us out of it, don't worry." Seating herself on
the other side of the kitchen table from Holly, she poured coffee and
dispensed macaroons. "She gave me a piece of music Suze had
written—-it was in her jacket pocket when—when they
found
her. Holly, it's the most dreadful thing I've ever seen."
Holly shrugged dully, circling the edge of her coffee mug with one
finger. "We both nearly flunked Composition."
"When I think of what a glorious voice she had, I just can't believe
she'd write something so awful. I didn't even know she noodled around
with writing music."
"She didn't."
Joshua Rowell—six feet of former hockey star, with the
twice-broken nose and capped teeth to prove it—came in,
greeted
Holly, kissed his -wife, and said, "I'll ride herd on the kids tonight,
Pudds. You and Holly don't stay up too late, all right?"
"Thanks for lending me the spare room, Josh," Holly replied.
"No trouble. I already took all your stuff upstairs—third
door on
the right. The girls should be out of their bathroom by seven-thirty
for school, so you'll have it to yourself." He smiled, poured himself a
cup of coffee, and left the kitchen.
"I could do with a bath tonight," Holly said. "I'm all stinky from the
planes."
"The kids will be in bed by nine," Jemima replied. "More or less. Are
you sure you don't want something to eat? Okay, but if you get hungry
in the middle of the night, you know where the fridge is.
Everything's fair game except the pies—they're for the
reception
tomorrow."
"Aunt Lulah used to bring a couple of jars of moonshine for after a
funeral."
"Jesus, I remember that stuff! You got the most interesting care
packages from home I ever saw. How is your aunt? And those two hunky
uncles who used to take you out to the most expensive dinner in town on
your birthday? "
"All fine. Alec and Nicky are retired now. Aunt Lulah s got a new mare
at Woodbush, sweetest gallop you ever rode." Holly scraped both hands
back through her hair, still unused to how short it was. "Jimmie, I'm
not ready to start going to my friends' funerals."
"Nobody ever is. I should call Mrs.Wingfield and let her know you've
arrived safely. And think up some reason why we won't be
singing
tomorrow. And especially not singing that thing Suze wrote."
"Okay, I can take a hint—let me look at it while you talk to
Mrs. Wingfield."
While Jemima spoke softly on the telephone. Holly examined the single
Xeroxed sheet of something written on a yellow legal pad. The
original was undoubtedly still with the cops, bagged as
evidence.
Jemima was right: the piece was musical gibberish. Four/four time and a
treble clef were the only things that made any sense. The rest of it
didn't even have the virtue of a twelve-tone experiment; it
was
simply irrational. Holly read through Susannah's scrawled
notation, memory automatically supplying the scene of her dorm
room the night before their Composition project was due, when they'd
loaded up on coffee for an all-nighter and despaired of ever coming up
with anything that would —
"Hellfire and damnation!"
Jemima hastily concluded her conversation with Mrs. Wingfield. "Holly?
What's wrong?"
"Paper and pen—quick."
"Inspiration hit?"
"In a way." While Jemima rummaged her kitchen drawers, Holly stared at
the rioting ivy wallpaper, deliberately blanking her mind. When a stack
of construction paper and a selection of Magic Markers were
set
before her, she jumped.
"Hell of a time to be thinking about your next book," Jemima offered, a
fond hand on Holly's shoulder taking the sting from the words. "I
couldn't find anything but leftovers from Becca's last
project."
"It's okay. It's fine. This has nothing to do with a book, Jimmie. It's
something Suze and I cooked up in college." She began ruling
off
one of the blank pages into two columns and twenty-six lines. "Remember
Professor Dominguez? No, you wouldn't, he left before you took Comp. He
was a big John Cage fan, anything that fooled around with the way music
was written. Anyway, Suze and I sat up until dawn figuring out a way to
impress him. And we came up -with this."
She wrote out the alphabet, then started at H, and in the next column
marked down a D and a half-note symbol. "The first seven notes are
easy. Whole notes correspond to letters. But once you get to letters
eight through twenty-six —H through Z—you have to
use
half—and quarter-notes to make it work."
"Half of a D? No—double it, get eight, and that's H!"
"Exactly. Four times two gets the eighth letter of the alphabet. Some
have more than one way to do them — "
"A quarter-note quadruples the value, right? So a quarter-note B gives
you H as well," Jemima said briskly. Seating herself next to Holly, she
grabbed paper and another Magic Marker. "Do your chart and
then
dictate Susannah's letter."
"Thank God for clever friends!" As she worked at completing the guide,
she said, "We did 'I Am the Walrus' this way for
Dominguez—which
ain't easy, because there's letters in it that you can't get
with
this code. Like M, which is more essential than you know until you
can't use it. But if you play with the phonetics, you can
usually
get the meaning across."
Jemima had been doing some calculations in her head. "No prime numbers
above seven, so no S, either. What did you do, use a TH and call it a
lisp?"
"Clever and snide," Holly retorted. "We used C. And the W was just
that—a double U."
"And two Ns for M ? "
"Yep."
"What about ends of words? You couldn't have done it like a telegram
and used 'stop.' And it couldn't have been the end of a bar or a
measure, either."
"Well, we were thinking about using a bar of silence, but the thing was
ugly enough without making it even longer. The words sort of fell into
recognizable patterns."
"Even if the music was crap. I am so not disappointed that this never
occurred to John Lennon. You ready?"
With Susannah's pages to her left and the chart to her right, Holly
began. Jemima wrote in neat capital letters with no spaces
bet-ween—occasionally drawing a backslash when a word became
clear.
"E whole, C half, C three-quarter—ELI." Holly paused. "Elias
Bradshaw. Susannah had been seeing him."
"I know. Her mother told me about him—the judge with the
sailboat, right?"
"He likes to sail, yes." Giving the lie to the old one about Witches
being unable to cross water. Susannah had loved Long Island
Sound
of a Sunday afternoon; Holly begged off the twice she'd been
asked
along. She did get seasick.
"Mrs. Wingfield -wants to scatter Susannah's ashes at sea. They're
renting a launch or something in a few days. Anyway, Elias Bradshaw
will be here tomorrow. Sorry—go on. First word is
'Eli.'"
They continued, -with Holly muttering to herself and reciting letters.
What emerged bewildered Jemima, but sent a fiery flush of terror
through Holly.
ELI / HALLOEEN / THREAT / HOLLI / BLOOD / RITE / LEADER / NOEL / NOX /
INCARNATA/ REGRET/ DONT/ NO / LOCALE / ELI / DEAR / HEART/ NO/GRIEF
"And this means—?" Jemima asked.
That by the time the finished this, she knew she was going to die.
"Nothing I can explain right now, and nothing you'd want to
hear
about anyway."
"Who's Noel?"
"Damned if I know."
"'Nox incarnata—incarnation of night? My Latin's a little
shaky these days."
"Works just fine," Holly replied grimly. " Jimmie, I have to use your
phone. In private.
"Believe it or not, there actually is such a thing as privacy in this
house," Jemima added -with a slight smile. "Try Josh's office. The door
locks."
****
HOLLY NEEDED TO KNOW EXACTLY what had happened to Susannah,
beyond
the finding of her body in Central Park and the fact that her neck had
been broken. She couldn't consult Susannah's mother, or Elias
Bradshaw—the former hadn't been able to talk much on Sunday
night
when Holly phoned her from London, and she wasn't ready to deal with
Elias. So she called Sophia Osbourne.
Ten minutes later she curled up in Joshua's oversized desk chair, arms
wreathing her knees, and thought over the conversation. A recital,
actually, of the police report, with tears thickening the redoubtable
Mrs. Osbourne's voice.
Last Friday afternoon Susannah left Elias' chambers to have lunch with
a friend in the Manhattan D.A.'s office. That was the last anyone saw
of her. Who took her, where, how, and why were mysteries likely to
remain unsolved. An early-morning jogger found her body on Sunday,
beneath the three cypress trees of Strawberry Fields. She was dressed
in the beige linen trouser suit, blue silk shirt, and hosiery she'd
worn Friday, with four little splinters of wood stuck in the trousers
at the left knee. The clothes were stained with grass and soil, but no
blood, except at that knee. Her purse, shoes, and briefcase were gone.
Her neck had been expertly snapped: clean, quick, painless. There were
no signs of rape, no bruising, no physical trauma. The medical
examiner's first cursory appraisal had revealed a needle-mark
on
her right hip; toxicology would identify the drug used, but obviously
this was how she had been subdued for the snatch. She wore pearl
earrings, gold chain necklace, and her class ring; in her jacket
pockets were about an ounce of dirt and a diamond bracelet, a
felt-tipped pen, and a crumpled page of musical notation.
The dirt was being analyzed. "That girl knew evidence," Mrs. Osbourne
had said. "I bet they took her shoes to prevent this very
thing—there are too many cop shows on television these days,
any
idiot knows about trace evidence. But that dirt in her pocket, that'll
tell us something. And the splinters, too."
Holly wasn't counting on it. Too easy—way too easy. But Mrs.
Osbourne was right about Susannah's perfect grasp of the importance of
evidence. She stared at the note, laid out on the desk. A blood ritual
on Hallowe'en —old Samhain—led by Noel, whoever he
was. Nox
incarnata. She thought about the presence of dirt, note, jewelry, and
splinters; the absence of shoes, briefcase, and purse.
"Absence of evidence is not evidence of absence," Holly muttered,
quoting the archaeologist's credo. Too, there was "the curious incident
of the dog in the nighttime"—the dog whose silence had told
Sherlock Holmes so much. There was an absence of evidence here, or an
evidence of absence; certainly something about this constituted a
curious incident.
****
ELIAS FLED THE CHURCH IMMEDIATELY after the service. He
couldn't go to
the Wingfield home to pay his respects. He simply couldn't. He'd been
asked to
join the tamily to scatter the ashes, but the thought of being in some
boat with all that was left ot Susannah horrified him. The beautiful,
passionate body he'd held in his arms was now soft gray ash and
fragments of bone in a green-glazed Japanese urn.
Would he rather have known her to be whole anil untouched and six feet
beneath the ground? Lying in black silence, hands folded,
until
the years and the cold had done their work and the tine bones of her
fingers showed through crumbling skin and the wheat-gold hair tarnished
and—and —
He couldn't think about that, either. Not thinking about it, he nearly
threw up onto the carefully manicured lawn.
The October afternoon was a glory ot sapphire sky, shimmering sun, and
a freshening breeze off the sea to stir the leaves hinting at their
glorious autumn show. Picture perfect, this white church with its
postcard steeple and austere stained glass. How many weddings,
baptisms, funerals, and staunchly Protestant Sunday services
had
occurred here? Thousands upon thousands. Susannah had returned home to
her ancestors. Why couldn't they at least have been Irish? Then he
could've gone to a wake, with a socially acceptable excuse to get
mindlessly drunk —
"Elias?"
He turned. Holly McClure wore a plain brown dress, a white scarf draped
around her shoulders—a relief after all the black. She was
heavier than he remembered, and her hair had been cut short
around
her cheeks and neck. Her eyes were red-rimmed and she looked exhausted.
She took his elbow and walked him across the lawn toward the ocean. He
resisted tor a moment, then heard others coming out of the church and
decided this was as good an escape as any.
Though why Holly was providing it, he had no idea. The last time he'd
seen her, she'd been screaming at him about Evan Lachlan. He hadn't
seen her since. She hadn't seen Lachlan since, either, judging from
something Susannah had said a couple of weeks ago —
It hit him then, how soon "a couple of weeks" would become "a couple of
months," and then "a couple of years"—and he'd never see her
again, never touch her, never take her out sailing and watch the wind
play with her hair, never —
"I won't allow you to hate yourself," Holly said softly. "Not when
Susannah loved you so much."
He shook his head.
"Don't do it, Elias," she warned. "1 won't profane her memory by
letting you hate the man she loved."
"You're not usually redundant. Lost your writer's touch? "
"I'll say the same exact thing a thousand times ii that's what it takes
to get through to you." Holly tugged him along toward the shore, over
the dunes, tall sea-grasses shifting in the breeze.
"I don't know why you give a damn."
"Because she did love you."
"As much as I'd let her, and more than I deserved." The beach stretched
out on either side of them, reeds lazily waving, blue water beyond.
"Her mother asked — my sailboat — she always talked
about
how much she loved sailing —"
"I'm glad you said no." Holly paused a minute. "Mrs. Wingfield wanted
us to get a few of the Chorale together. We begged off, too —
I
think Jemima said that we couldn't possibly choose among Susannah's
favorite songs." She sighed quietly and stared out to sea.
"Your
sailboat, the songs — they wouldn't have been for her, Elias.
They'd be — I don't know, glimpses of her for other people to
see, people those things don't belong to. Not even her family."
He took the hand resting in the crook of his elbow and squeezed it
gently, grateful that she understood. Susannah's mother had not. It
occurred to him that Holly McClure was possibly the only person who
would understand.
"The candles were for her, though," Holly said.
"Your idea?'
She nodded. "Twelve around the —the urn, to protect her.
Nothing
evil can cross into a circle of lighted candles. I told her mother it
was an old Irish custom."
"You did the candles yourself? Magic?"
"Last night, when they brought her to the church."
They stood watching the sea in silence. Then Elias said, "I need a
drink. Care to join me? '
"No. You don't need a drink." She bent, slipping off her shoes, tucked
them into the lee of a dune, and wriggled bare toes in the sand. "Come
on. Let's walk."
After a moment's hesitation, he shrugged. Shoes and socks off, he
loosened his tie for good measure, and after about a quarter of a mile
of walking found he was holding Holly's hand. He wasn't sure who
initiated the gesture. But he figured he ought to say something. "I'm
sorry about what happened with Lachlan — "
"We're not here to talk about him. Elias, I have to know if you'll be
all right."
He shrugged. "Eventually."
"That's what I said, too."
He stopped, turned her to face him. Her face was grieving and older and
much harder than he remembered. He stood with her in the shelter of a
dune, reeds humming in the wind that ruffled her curling russet hair.
"Holly, I am sorry. Let me finish. I don't know if there was anything
more I could've done. All I know is she fought like hell for him. Not
only for your sake, but for his. But it just —it wasn't going
to
happen."
"I don't want to talk about it, Elias," she said fiercely. "I mean it. '
Again he shrugged. "Okay."
"Tell me what to do for you," she said, almost pleading. "I won't see
you make wreckage of yourself. She'd kill me."
"I killed her."
There. He'd said it out loud.
"How's that again?" she asked, a dangerous note in her voice.
"I should've protected her. I should've told her what I am, what the
risks are."
"You, you, you!" she shouted, wrenching away, abruptly furious. "What
makes you so fucking important? What makes you think the world revolves
around you, Bradshaw? I think Susannah did love you too much! Just
because you were the center of her world doesn't mean the whole of
Creation turns on what you do!"
The tears came then, as they had not in all the long days
since—since. They hurt; he hadn't cried since his mother's
death
twenty years ago. He didn't know how to weep anymore.
Holly didn't try to hold him. She simply stood there, blue eyes bleak
with understanding. But after a time he reached for her. She was real
and warm and she had loved Susannah, too.
She was too tall. Her hair was too short, too curly, her shoulders
were too square, her body too rounded. Doubtless she was thinking
similar things: not tall enough, not broad-shouldered enough, not
anything she truly wanted to hold.
She wasn't Susannah Wingfield. He wasn't Evan Lachlan.
But when he looked at her—'at her eyes that were the wrong
color
and her face that was the wrong shape and her mouth that was the wrong
curve—he kissed her anyway. She parted her lips, and kissed
him
back.
And if, on that stretch of deserted wind-blown beach, with his jacket
for a bed and the long grass to hide them, neither of them called out
for someone who was gone, no one else knew.
After, they silently smoothed rumpled clothing and walked back up the
beach, not touching.
"Amazing, isn't it?" she said all at once. "To realize you're still
alive." She slanted a look at him. "I have this feeling I ought to
thank you."
"Depends on why that happened."
"Compassion?" She looked amused. "Altruism? Not bloody likely. I'm not
that nice a person, Elias —and neither are you."
"Comfort, then."
She shrugged.
"What about Lachlan? Where does he fit in?"
"He doesn't," she said flatly. "This wasn't about him."
"Then why did you say his name?"
"Habit. You called me 'Susannah.'"
"Did I? Christ." He raked his hair back. "What a hell of a situation."
"Why? You don't really want me, and I don't really want you. We both
just had to make sure we were still alive."
"You make it sound so damned cold."
"I'm sorry you see it that way, because it didn't feel like that to me
at all. And there's no 'situation,' Elias. None at all." She smiled
briefly. "You don't have to send me a dozen red roses."
He swore softly, remembering now that Susannah had shared that bit of
his grandfather's credo with her.
Holly rummaged in her purse for a comb, and gave it to him. While he
was dragging it through his tangled hair, she said musingly, "Last
weekend I made a try at convincing myself I was still alive. Still a
whole human being. I wasn't much good at it. In the past year I haven't
met anyone I'd care to spend ten minutes with—let alone half
an
hour on a sand dune." Another little smile as he gave her back her
comb. "But I know you, Elias. I feel comfortable with you. Because
there's never going to be a repeat. You know it, I know it. We're just
not each others type."
"Yet she loved us both."
"Susannah knew how to love. So few people saw that in her. The
dedication to whatever she chose to do, whatever she found worthy of
her. The work, friendship, loving. ..."
He tried to lighten things. "Sounds as if there's a book character in
this."
"Oh, no," she said very seriously. "I could never do her justice. And
I've discovered that you can't transpose people that way." She
hesitated, and suddenly her eyes were hard and cold again. "This wasn't
vengeance against Evan, Elias. That was published in June."
"I know. I read it."
They kept walking, up the beach to find their shoes, then to the
church. The parking lot was deserted but for Elias's Lincoln Towncar.
"Where can I drop you?" he asked.
"Where are you staying?"
He shook his head. "I'm not."
"You can't drive back to Manhattan today. We have to talk."
"We already did."
She opened his car door and slid inside. "There's something else,
Elias. About the people who kidnapped Susannah. And the one I think
killed her."
"Why the fuck didn't you say something before?" he roared.
"Because I wasn't sure you'd be able to hear it yet. Now I'm sure
— Magistrate." She slammed the door and folded her arms, jaw
set
and rigid.
He stood where he was, so angry he shook to the bone. His title
asserted its own identity, then demanded his full awareness. "All
right,
Spellbinder," he muttered, striding to the driver's side. "Your way or
no way, as usual."
****
JEMIMA AND HER HUSBAND WERE at the Wingfield home. The kids
were in
school. Elias and Holly had the big, rambling house to themselves. In
the kitchen with coffee brewing, she told him flatly, "She left a note."
"How the hell could she have — "
"Shut up and read." Taking the Xerox page from her pocket, she handed
it over. Musical notation. "Translation is on the back."
He read. And read again.
"We had a project in college for a composition class. She used the code
we made up then, which I won't bother to explain, to write that. As for
Noel — I think I finally figured out who he is."
Holly told him about her visit to the store, and Nick and Alec's
worries, and reminded him that she'd asked him to check it out last
year after she'd recognized the scent in Renise's bedroom as
incense or oil from Noel's collection. "And do you remember that night
my Witching sphere went psychotic? Alec did a read while he was
cleansing and respelling it. The main feel to it was voudon, which
logically leads back to Denise. She hates me and she knows what I am."
"How does that connect with this Noel?"
"She bought things at his shop. She knows him. Nox incarnata sounds
just like her kind of homefolks, doesn't it? He might even have been
there the night Scott Fleming was killed."
"If so, why not trade him for immunity or a lesser charge?" he objected.
"I'm supposed to know this how, exactly?" she snapped. "Who knows what
goes on in her little pea-brain? But consider this: Fleming and
Susannah both had their necks broken. Some forensic comparison might be
interesting."
The thought of reading Susannah's autopsy report made him want to smash
his fist into a wall. "You're a novelist. You — "
"I make up stories for a living? I'm also a biographer. Is that a
little more precise and scholarly for you, Your Honor? I can recognize
a coincidence when one bites me in the ass. Blood rites on
Hallowe'en—when the veil between worlds is vanishingly thin."
"A vanishingly thin connection.'
"We're not in your courtroom. The rules of evidence don't apply."
He flattened his hand on the note. "How many people have touched the
original?"
Holly stared, perplexed. "What?"
"Susannah, the cops who found her—who else?" he asked
impatiently.
"Well — the crime scene people, and somebody put her personal
effects together, and made the copy to give to her mother
— "
"It might be possible," he muttered.
"What are you talking about?"
"Lydia."
Holly got to her feet. "You're crazy. We don't know what happened to
Susannah. We don't know what it might do to Lydia, to sense
her
memories. And how will you get hold of the original?"
He only looked at her.
"Okay, okay," she conceded. "Stupid question."
Elias finished his coffee, rose, and said, "We have to get moving on
this. I'll go back tonight, and — "
"You'll stay here in town," Holly shot back, "and get a decent night's
sleep. I'll drive back with you tomorrow morning. We can phone the
others from here. Don't fight me on this, Elias. We're neither of us in
any shape to do the drive and then get ready for this kind of Work."
"We are not going to do anything. You are going to go home and stay
there until Samhain."
Holly slammed her coffee cup down on the table. "If you think you're
going to wrap me in cotton and stash me away, you've got another think
coming!"
"It's a damned good bet that he knows you're a Spellbinder. You can't
risk — "
"Don't even try, Elias," she warned. "You'll need me for Lydia's sake."
"Since when did you ever give a shit about Lydia—or the rest
of
the Circle, for that matter?" When she turned pale beneath her
freckles, he made a little shrug of apology. "Sorry. I'm wound pretty
tight. At least go stay with Alec and Nick."
"No. In fact, I think we should all go about our normal business,
because if Noel is watching—and you know he is —
anything
out of the ordinary might tip him off that we're aware of him."
Bradshaw grunted reluctant agreement, and almost asked if she'd taken
fool-the-perp lessons from Lachlan. At the thought of whom, an idea
formed.
"We have to do this right," Holly was saying. "That means preparation,
and caution, and waiting until we're all rested and ready. I'll bleed
buckets for this if necessary, but not for some half-assed attempt that
gets tried too soon because you're in a rage. After all, it's my blood
we're talking about here."
There was no replying to that.
She acknowledged it with a wry half-smile, and sat back down at the
table. "I've already made a few contingency plans. I called Pete
Wasserman. He says the lab reports on the dirt in her pocket will be in
on Friday."
"How'd you like to make yourself useful?" he asked, a contingency plan
of his own developing. "I'll have him okay it with the lab to release
the reports to you. Go pick them up on Friday."
"Why me?" she asked, suspicious.
"We're holding a sale on excuses and justifications today," he
countered. "Which one are you buying? I could say it's because I want
you surrounded by law enforcement as often as possible, or because
everybody in the office is going to be hellishly busy and I want this
report picked up in person instead of getting lost in the bureaucracy.
Or maybe because giving you something to do will keep you from going
crazy."
"How about because you asked me to, instead of issuing an order the way
you usually do?"
"Works for me," he said -with a shrug.
It worked even better when he made a brief call later that afternoon,
when Holly was busy with her friend Jemima. Contingency plan A, he
thought to himself, and really smiled for the first time since
Sunday morning.
Twenty-Two
HOLLY WAS AT ONE POLICE Plaza by eleven o'clock Friday for
the results
of the soil analysis, Pete Wasserman having called in a favor with a
friend in the NYPD labs. If the dirt in Susannah's pockets had come
from some obscure and unique area, they'd be a step closer to finding
Noel—or at least one of his haunts.
The dirt turned out to be just dirt. Long Island dirt,
but—just
dirt. She thanked the clerk who gave her the report, hiding her
frustration. Not that she'd expected much to come of this; she'd told
herself Tuesday that it would have been too easy. Still, there'd been a
hope. She felt it die inside her, a wretched little death. Reaching to
punch the elevator button, she saw the glitter of diamonds on her wrist.
Susannah had lost her bet. Her mother had known nothing about that, of
course, when she gave Holly the bracelet.
"We have to go see them.
Elias, five minutes. Just to pay our
respects. Neither of us showed up after the memorial yesterday. Her
mother will be hurt."
"Do I look as if I care?"
But he drove to the
Wingfield house anyway. They arrived to find the sisters,
brothers-in-law, nieces, nephews, and various other relatives
preparing to go home. Mrs. Wingfield would soon be all alone in the
house. Holly felt guilty about that, though she knew what she and
Elias planned to do would mean more to Susannah's mother than a few
hours of their company.
In the midst of a
reserved New England chaos, Mrs. Wingfield took
Holly and Elias aside. "The police returned her things. In her will she
left this to you," She fastened the bracelet around Holly's wrist.
"There are a few other things —and for you, Judge Bradshaw.
Just
some tokens to remember her by."
As if Susannah was
forgettable. Holly saw the flinch in Elias's dark
eyes, and hastily thanked Mrs. Wingfield, made their excuses,
and escaped.
In the car, Elias said,
"I could hardly look at her. I kept seeing Susannah in thirty years."
"I know, "Holly
murmured, fingering the bracelet "Me too."
"I should have given her
that. "He nodded at the jewelry.
She considered a moment,
then said, "It wad the roses that mattered, Elias. The red roses, and
everything that went with them."
Now the diamonds shone up at her, and she knew without even thinking
about it that she'd always wear them. Just as she knew Evan still wore
the St. Michael medal, and always would.
Everything came back to him in the end, even after more than a year.
She couldn't still be thinking this way, not after all this time. But
her body still ached at the thought of him, and the heart he'd broken
bled anew.
Giving up on the sluggish elevator, she headed for the stairs. Seven
flights— but she could use the exercise. Settling into a
rhythm
that didn't quite plod, she tried to listen to her footfalls instead of
her thoughts.
He should've been the last man she'd fall for—and she'd
fallen
hard. But why him? She liked them tall and lean; highly educated and
perceptive; men of style, elegance, and sensitivity. How had it
happened that her heart had been irrevocably stolen by a big,
broad-backed, blunt-spoken Irish Deputy U.S. Marshal?
Educated? He knew the streets, he knew people, he knew himself. And her.
Perceptive? He'd plowed through her books, genuinely liked them, and
discussed them with her so astutely that she found new
insights
into her own work.
Style? Elegance? Nothing could outclass him in a tuxedo, naked he was
glorious, and anything in between was a privilege and a
pleasure
to look at. Except for those ostrich-hide cowboy boots. .. .
A sound halfway between laughter and a sob escaped her throat. Evan
Lachlan and his godawful ostrich-hide cowboy boots. . . .
. . . And his long fingers, so gentle as they framed her face. And his
strong arms, wrapping her in warmth and safety. And his impossible
grin. And his tenderness, and his deep searching kisses, and
his
powerful, generous body—
This was ridiculous. No man could possess such a glamour, in the sense
of the old Gaelic: to cast an enchantment. This past year she had
imbued him with qualities he'd never possessed—
Who -was she trying to fool? He was everything she'd ever wanted. He'd
given her strength for strength, fight for fight, loving for loving.
And she'd lost him. Somehow all the pieces had come together and fallen
apart. His fault, her fault, their fault—it didn't matter
anymore. She'd loved him and she'd lost him.
Damn him for doing this to her. For having this much power. For leaving
her and yet never leaving.
She'd been terrified he'd come to Susannah's memorial. She had no idea
what she would have done if he had—except that she wouldn't
have
taken that walk with Elias. She still wasn't entirely clear on why
she'd even tried to help him, other than that Susannah would have
wanted her to. There'd been
more than three hundred people in the church, but somehow Holly had
felt herself an alien with all of them except Elias. Three hundred
people — but not Evan. Maybe nobody had told him. He wouldn't
have stayed away just because Holly would be there. He'd been too fond
of Susannah, admired her too much. Maybe he knew, but had to work.
She emerged from the stairwell and bumped into a bulky lawyer-type who
snarled at her and hurried on his way. Apologizing to the man's back,
she hiked her purse over her shoulder and continued through the lobby.
And stumbled when she saw him. Hair a little longer, tall body sleek in
a black suit and white shirt and those godawful cowboy boots, moving
with that powerful saunter that always took her breath away. There was
gray in his hair now, silvering his temples, and a few lines around his
eyes, and he was maybe ten pounds heavier—and he was still
the
most beautiful man she had ever seen.
A frantic hand to her hair—would he like it
short?—and a
glance down at her clothes—how completely perfect Fate's joke
was—she wore the brown Armani suit — he
always said it
made her look like a goddamned lawyer —
He saw her then, and stopped walking mid-stride. He caught his balance
easily—she had forgotten how supple he was, especially for a
man
his size. His height and breadth of shoulder and the strength of him
made her bones go all hollow. His eyes narrowed, brows quirking
downward as if not believing it was her, then went wider than ever. And
the gold came into them, brilliant with joy.
Her heart thundered and her body cried out and the suddenness of it put
tears into her eyes that she damned because they obscured the sight of
him. She scraped them away with a goddamned brown pinstriped Armani
sleeve. He saw the tears, and his eyes grieved that she could even
think of crying. He shook his head slightly, and the sweep of dark hair
fell across his brow. She made her legs move, walk toward him. He
started walking, too—faster and faster, and the sudden
embrace
suffocated whatever breath remained in their lungs.
But she found voice enough to whisper, "Evan—a chuisle
— "
And after a short, sharp inhalation, as if the sound of his own name
wounded him in some way, he answered in a voice that shook with the
pounding of his heart, "Holly—oh, lady love — "
She tilted her head back to look up at him. Those eyes. Those
incredible hazel-green gold-lit long-lashed luminous dragon's eyes. . .
.
Helpless. Just like before. Damn him. How she would love to hate him
for his power over her.
His voice was low and quiet, his face deadly serious. "Are you free?"
She saw it in his eyes: Is there anyone elde? Is there? She couldn't
speak. "Are you?" he insisted. Are you free of everything and everyone
—except me, the way I've never been free of you and never
want to
be?
"Yes," she whispered. "Oh yes."
The gold in his eyes began to burn. He took her elbow, guided her
outside. The wind was blowing hard, and she stumbled as if she had no
strength to resist any force of nature—especially
not him.
His arm around her waist steadied her. His touch was a
pleasure
almost too painful to be borne. A taxi appeared in front of her, and he
opened its door, and she got in. She didn't hear what he said to the
driver. She turned, trembling, unable to think of a single
word to
say.
"I'm still yours. Holly. If you'll still have me."
She hid her face against his chest. He rocked her in the old familiar
way, and for the length of the cab ride they simply held each other. At
last she stopped crying. He gave her a handkerchief to wipe her eyes
and nose.
"All right now?"
She could only nod, and sniffle.
"God, you're silly-lookin' -when you cry. Don't do it again, okay?"
"Oh, shut up," she muttered, her voice still thick with tears.
"After all this time, all you can say to me is 'shut up'?"
"All I can say to you is yes."
The cab stopped, and Evan paid, and they got out, and it was a hotel.
There were mirrors in the lobby. She peered into one while he strode
ahead to the reception desk. Mascara down to her chin, swollen
nose, freckles like splotches of sepia ink, red-rimmed
eyes—she
fled across to the ladies' room, splashed cold water on her face.
Powder, more mascara, comb for the windblown wreckage of her
hair—
She looked like something no self-respecting cat would even consider
dragging in.
Emerging from the ladies' room, she saw him standing alone in the
middle of the vast lobby looking almost frantic, almost scared. He
caught sight of her and his face changed, and he crossed the floor in
five long, quick strides.
"Don't disappear like that again," he said, deep voice harsh with
relief.
"I won't—I'm sorry—'" She shook her head. "I
just—I look—I'm a mess—"
"You're the most beautiful thing I've ever seen."
He took her arm again, and the shock of renewed contact nearly
staggered her. She snuck a glance at him, not daring to believe it was
as overpowering for him as it was for her—but it was there in
his
eyes, the shock and the wonder of it.
As they walked to the elevator she made an effort, trying for
the
old banter. "The Waldorf, in the middle of the day, with no luggage?"
"I had a helluva time deciding whether to register us as 'Smith' or
'Jones,'" he teased back, and she laughed. Strange that laughing hurt.
In the elevator he held tightly to her hand, his mood changing again.
"It has to be new," he said very softly. "We can't go anyplace we were
before. Not yet."
He didn't look at her. She couldn't stop looking at him — his
profile, the curve of his lower lip, the pulse pounding so fast in his
long throat.
He had trouble with the card key; his hands were shaking. Inside the
locked room, they faced each other silently. She let her purse drop to
the floor, then her jacket. Buttons catching, material snagging,
fingers trembling badly now, at last they stood naked to each other for
the first time in more than a year.
The same, he was just the same. Pale smooth skin over long bones and
hard muscles. Broad shoulders, long legs, sleek curves and strong
lines—and the need rising as his eyes devoured her. But the
look
on his face was different now: openly yearning, wise with the memory of
suffering.
"My God, you're so beautiful," he whispered. "I just want to look at
you."
Again she tried to rally. "You'll do more than just look, or you're not
the Evan Lachlan I knew."
A brief smile touched his mouth. "I'm not—but we'll talk
about that later."
All at once she hid her face in her hands. He was with her instantly,
stroking her hair and her shoulders.
"What is it, babe? What's wrong?"
"You ripped my heart out, damn you, and I still love you so
much—every day without you clawed into me—and now
you're
here and I can't believe it—"
"Believe it, lady love," he said, and took her hands from her face and
kissed her lips.
They remembered each other's rhythms, sensitivities, secrets. She had
thought it would be hard and quick and fierce, after so long apart. But
his fingers sought her gently, delicately, renewing his memory
of
her, just as her lips traveled over every inch of him from high
forehead to absurdly narrow ankles, rejoicing in what had been denied
her so long. She wanted to taste him, to swallow him whole. He
wouldn't allow it, instead entering her with poignant
tenderness,
his big hands on either side of her head to cradle her face as he gazed
down into her eyes.
"Love you," he chanted. "Love you, love you — "
"Evan—p-please — "
"Holly—shh, slow down, take it easy—I want to make
this last forever — "
"Don't make me wait—now, please now —" She arched
against
him, whimpering, crying out as he came to rest within her.
"E`imbin
—!"
"That's it—sing for me, lady love, it's been so
long—" Helaughed low in his throat, gloating, triumphant,
just as she'd
remembered he could be when he'd driven her past sanity. The dragon was
in his eyes, fiercely arrogant. She dug her fingers into his back, his
hips, urging him on, pleading without shame or hesitation for what
she'd wanted every night and every day for more than a year.
After he had finally given it to her, and they lay tangled around each
other, she clung to him, trembling. His hands soothed her, and
eventually she calmed.
"I'd almost forgotten. . . ." she whispered.
" — that it was that good with us," he finished For her. "I
didn't forget. 1 just had to try so damned hard not to remember."
She pressed her lips to his chest, where the St. Michael medal rested
near his heart. The beat was strong and solid, slowing down from raging
need. "Evan, how can this be happening?"
"I kinda have a confession to make. I knew you'd be there today.
Bradshaw called the other night."
She looked blank. "Elias —?"
"All he said was where you'd be at about eleven — he wouldn't
let me ask anything, didn't explain why—just said that if I
wanted to see you, Police Plaza's where you'd be.'
"What's he up to?" she asked, tensing.
"Ask me if I care," Evan replied, wrapping his arms around her.
She looked down at him, frowning. "Why did you come?"
"Because I need you," he replied simply. "And I'm sick of pretending I
don't."
That simple. Nothing was ever that simple.
"Okay, I know. You want it explained." He gave her a rueful little
grin. "God forbid you should ever just accept what I tell you."
"If that's what you want me to do, I'll do it."
"No, you won't,' he told her. "I know you, McClure.' His fingertip
caressed the curve of her left breast. "God, I missed you. You're even
more beautiful — "
Holly felt her lips twist in a crooked smile. "Yeah — me with
my gray hairs and secretary spread —"
"I'm goin' gray, too, lady love. And I never did like girls who're
built like boys." He was quiet for a moment, then said, "1 almost
stayed in Jersey today."
"Not because you were scared," she said, knowing him.
"No. It's just—it's been a long time. I didn't know if I
could mean anything to you again.
"You never stopped."
"I saw that, looking at you, that first second — it was all
over your face." The joy in his eyes held not a hint of the old
smugness:
only gratitude, strangely humble. She supposed he had indeed changed,
if this could be in the dragon's eyes. "You were there, just standing
there, all red hair and freckles and blue eyes, like I'd dreamed you or
something, and I just about lost it. But the way you looked at me
—" That new smile was back, achingly tender and sweet. "Most
other women — hell, any other woman—woulda slugged
me or told me to go take a fying fuck —or both."
"Are you asking why I didn't?"
"I already know why." And there was no trace of the old self-satisfied
glint as he finished, "You love me. God only knows why, but you do."
"There's a third alternative, you know," she mused. "I could be
stringing you out just long enough to make sure I could hurt you, and
then leave you."
His eyes showed no anxiety that she might do just that. "Not you,
Holly."
"Give me one good reason why I shouldn't! Do you know what this did to
me? " She jerked out of his arms and sat up, turning her back, hugging
her knees to her breasts. "I laid siege to every Federal building in
New York for you. I ranted and raved and made a total fool of myself
with the Marshals Office, the mayor, anybody I could think of
— "
"You did that? ' he asked incredulously. "You fought for me?" His hand
ran gently down her spine. She shifted away.
"Stop it. Don't touch me. If I had the sense God gave a gerbil, I'd do
exacty what I just said — make sure I had you hooked good and
solid, make you as much in love with me as you ever were —
and then throw you out."
"Like in the book." His voice roughened. "How'd it feel, Holly? Doin'
that to us?"
"Oh God,'' she whispered. "You read it?"
"It was gonna be our book. Of course I read it." He took a long breath.
"It hurt like hell, but I got through it. You write when you get angry.
But by the end of it you weren't anything but tired and sad. I think
that hurt worst of all."
"That book wiped me out. I holed up in London and wrote like a
madwoman. Gained ten pounds while I was at it, too, and
another ten afterward, when I had to quit smoking again. I thought I'd
gotten rid of you by getting the book out of my system. Shows how
stupid I am.
When it came in proofs, I read what I'd done to you and me in it and
cried for a week."
"But you couldn't write it that way now. You couldn't leave, or send me
away —not even in a book." He sounded so damned sure of it.
"You want it all, don't you?" She turned her head. "No, I couldn't do
it. You've been hurt too much. I've been hurt too much. If I didn't
love you the way I love you, I could lead you on and then throw you
out. But I do love you, more than I ever thought I could love any man.
And the next time you leave me, Lachlan, it'll be in a pine box."
"Darlin' Holly, it won't even be then. I'll come back and haunt you."
"The way you've done for the last year? No thanks." But all at once she
felt everything drain out of her —all the anger, the pain,
the hopeless longing. "It
doesn't matter anymore, E`imbin. It might, before we've talked it all
through.................
but right now it's meaningless. You're here. That's all that matters to
me."
"I'll always be here," he promised, reaching up to stroke her checks.
"With any other man, I would've pounded down his door, forced him to
let: me back in —but I couldn't. You made the decision for
both of us —and you're as strong and stubborn as I am, and
that's
saying something."
"I know," he said wryly.
"But what made me crazy was that I trusted your decision. When you said
you had to work it out yourself, I couldn't fight something you were so
sure about."
"'When you truly love a man,'" he said softly, "you don't twist him
into knots.'"
"Christ, Lachlan—don't quote me to me!"
"But you knew that already," he insisted. "Before you wrote it."
She wiped away the last of the tears, watching his eyes. "If you read
the book, then you know that all I ever wanted was you. I've given up
wondering why you couldn't see that."
"I did see it, lady love," he answered, taking one of her hands,
stroking the palm with his thumb. He was silent for a long time,
staring down at their clasped hands. "I thought— I don't
know, that I'd be stronger somehow, that I'd become somebody you'd want
in
spite of everything." He glanced at her briefly, then away. This was
new, as well: before, he would have looked her straight in the eye,
challenging, daring her to stare him down. She waited him out,
wondering what else about him had changed, that he had put
aside that wary defiance. "I had to prove to myself that I could do
it on my own. That I didn't need you the way I was scared to
need
you. For a long time I thought I was doin' it all on my own. But then I
realized you were with me every step of the way. I could feel you
beside me, but I never really knew it." His gaze lifted again, darkly
troubled. "I know that doesn't make any sense."
"It shouldn't," she agreed. "But it does—if it means I'm part
of you — "
Quick gleam of gratitude. "I could no more not need you
than—aw,
dammit, it's not comin' out right. One day I woke up to it, that
needing you is the same for me as breathing—" He broke off,
shaking his head again. "And that was the day you were really gone."
"And yet when Elias called, and told you where I'd be — "
"I had to see you again. Susannah—all I could think about was
that if it hurt me that much, you must be — " He stroked her
cheek -with his fingertips, and she turned into the tenderness. "I had
to see you, even if I couldn't make things right."
"You're the only one who can," she murmured.
Evan got out of bed and poked around the floor for his jacket. "Here,"
he said, sitting on the bed. He held a small crimson velvet box. "I got
it out of the bank this morning. Lucky charm," he added wryly. He
opened the box, fingers not quite steady. Within was a very old, very
familiar ring. "And this time I promise the diamond won't fall out."
She wanted to laugh, but couldn't. Gently she took the ring from the
box, watching it sparkle. "Do you still have yours?"
"Yeah." He held up his left hand, and she wondered why she hadn't
noticed before: the gold claddagh she'd brought him from Ireland. He
wore it
with the heart's point toward his wrist, sign that he was spoken for.
"I tried it on one night when I was really, really drunk—and
y'know, I just couldn't seem to get it off my hand. I wonder why that
was," he finished wryly.
She smiled back. "I wonder." She gave him the diamond. "Ask me."
"I already did."
"I want to make sure you still mean it." But then the banter failed her
and her eyes flooded again. "Oh, damn it to hell!"
"Holly, will you for Chrissakes shut up?" He took her hand and slid the
ring onto her heart-finger. "Marry me."
"You're not going to take it back, or—"
"I'm yours, I keep tellin'you. Marry me."
"You're sure—tell me you're sure, Evan, I couldn't bear it
if—"
"Holly Elizabeth McClure!" Exasperated now. "Shut up and marry me."
Somehow she regained a little poise. Blinking tears away, she tucked
the corners of her mouth into a smile and nodded.
"Say it," he ordered.
"I thought you wanted me to shut up."
"Say it—" This time in a threatening growl.
"Yes. Yes yes yes yes — "
A while later. Holly murmured against his shoulder, "Susannah was
right. She said you'd come back. I just hope she knows it."
He drew her even closer, pressing his lips to the top of her head. "I
know you don't have the kind of faith I do, but I swear she knows,
Holly. She knows."
Twenty-Three
IT WAS LATE AFTERNOON WHEN he woke. He glanced at the
bedside clock, squinting to bring the numerals into focus. Need glasses
soon, he thought with a sigh, I'm pushingforty—gettin old.
And he didn't care a bit. The peacefulness of Holly was back, settling
all around him. He hadn't slept this well in all the time they'd been
apart. He smoothed the short curls all tangled around her face, liking
them. And there was silver in her hair, threading back from her
forehead. Gently he drew back the covers, taking inventory just as he
used to. She had indeed picked up a few pounds, but he'd outgrown
skinny twenty-year-olds long ago. This woman who rested so deeply
before him, this woman who would bear his children within her
body—he'd seen faces more beautiful on his pillow, and
bodies more beautiful in his bed, but this wasn't just a face
or a body. This was Holly.
All at once she blinked owlishly up at him, and as he tapped the tip of
her nose he said, "Hey. Did you think you'd dreamed me?"
Her lips twitched at one corner. "Oh, no. You're damned good,
lover-man, but even you ain't that good in dreams. It had to be you,
for real."
He laughed and ruffled her hair—something he could never do
when it was longer. "I like this. When did you cut it?"
"This spring. But it grows fast — "
"No, I like it," he repeated, running his fingers through its
thickness. "Makes you look like a little girl when you're asleep."
"With all this gray? You've learned some new lines, Lachlan."
"Just for you, writer-lady.'
"I guess we have a lot of catching up to do," she ventured at last.
"Yeah," he acknowledged. "How's the farm, and your Aunt Lulah?"
"Fine. And Alec and Nicky, before you ask. What about your Father, and
Maggie and her family?"
"The old man died in January. Don't be sorry, he wanted to go. He
started downhill after I got busted. But he didn't blame me —
said he woulda done the same thing. I think it was the only thing I
ever did—aside from becoming a cop —that he
completely
approved of."
"He did love you, Evan."
He shrugged. "Maggie and Nate moved to Pennsylvania when he retired
from the Army. She's in real estate, and he plays golf and rebuilds old
Mustangs. And the kids are great. How's Mugger?"
"Fat and sassy. He lives with Alec and Nicky now. I spent so much time
away that it was better for him to have a real home."
"How about the books? You workin' on anything special?"
And so it went on, exchanging bits and pieces of the lives they'd led
apart. None of it really mattered all that much. It was just stuff they
had to deal with before resuming the reality of their lives, in their
world. In all this time, he'd never really talked with anyone. Now the
whole of it spilled out of him without qualm or pause. "If you close
your heart and thoughts to me, how then will I know what I love!" He
could remember Jerusalem Lost with much less anguish now.
"Evan . . ." She was apprehensive, not quite looking at him. "I don't
want to make a thing of it, but — I know there must've been
other women — "
"Not as many as you're thinking," he responded. "One-night stands, all
of 'em. And nobody in the last four months." Oh yeah? said a snide
little voice in his head. What about that bitch Denise, just last
Sunday?
"You?" She snorted. "Go without for more than twenty minutes?"
"Knock it off. It just wasn't worth it, Holly. I couldn't take it when
I woke up and I wasn't next to you. You know what I'm sayin'?"
"Yeah, I do," she admitted. "For me, it was one man, once. Honest
Injun, as they say—and since I'm part Cherokee, you can
believe it!"
Just once? But he understood. "Better to do without—except
that sometimes I missed you so much I thought I'd go
crazy—all the
nights alone in bed, when I couldn't stop thinkin' about you and
I'd— " He broke off, and felt his cheeks burn.
A snicker, muffled in his shoulder. "You, too? Oh, Evan! Believe me,
lover-man, you're a whole lot more satisfying than a small personal
appliance! And a girl can get damned tired of self-inflicted orgasms
— "
"McClure!"
"Just promise me you didn't like you doing it to you half as much as
you like me doing it to you, and I may decide to let you live." She
snuggled in close again. "Know what? You're nicer than you used to be.
Not as tense. You're not fighting the whole world
anymore—or yourself." Her fingers began to drift along his
body, and suddenly she
giggled. "Oh, good! It's still there!"
"Huh? Oh. Well, what'dyou think, we'd wear it out and it'd fall off?"
"Moron. I meant your belly. I missed it. And don't you dare say you'll
get rid of it. Nothing should ever be perfect—not even you, a
cbuisle."
He'd waited so long to hear her call him that again. It went through
him like wine and fire and heartbreak. "I love you, Holly," he
breathed into her hair. "I love you so much —just say you
forgive me for everything I put you through — "
"Yes," she whispered. "Everything, anything—always."
His eye was caught by the sparkle of diamonds on her wrist. The swirls
of delicate gold -were unmistakable. "That's Susannah's."
Holly nodded, then scrubbed her fingers back through her hair. "It was
in her pocket when they found her. She left it to me in her will."
"Why?"
"We had this stupid bet—"
"No," he interrupted, "why was it in her pocket? Shouldn't she have
been wearing it? I remember when she bought it, and she never took it
off. There's gotta be a reason — "
"I thought so, too. I've been over it and over it, Evan, and I can't
think why she'd put it in her pocket." All at once Holly rocketed out
of his arms and grabbed frantically for clothes. "Oh, shit!"
"What?" he demanded, wide-eyed.
"There's this thing I have to go to—Susannah's
charity—a cocktail party, starts at
seven-thirty—I'll be back by nine,
I promise — "
"You don't want me to go with you."
She stopped in mid-motion, trousers halfway up her thighs. "I
— I didn't think you'd want—"
"Not if you don't -want me there."
"Of course I want you there!"
"Okay, then. Where is this thing, and how fancy?"
"Palm Court at the Plaza. Tux." When he groaned, she hurried on, "Evan,
you don't have to if you don't want to—"
"I told you I want to. I can rent a tux this afternoon. Will you relax?
There's plenty of time. What's the occasion?"
"Breast cancer."
His heart stopped and he went cold to his marrow.
"Not me, Evan." She came to sit beside him. "I'm fine, love, I promise.
I had my annual mammogram in July. Absolutely clear."
He nodded, able to breathe again.
"It runs in Susannah's family. She lost an aunt and two older cousins
to it. This thing tonight—I wasn't going to go —
I've been in London — "
"But you changed your mind."
"Some friends -were talking after the funeral on Wednesday, and since
this was already planned, we decided to make it something special in
her memory.
Elias will be there, and a few other people from the office." She
leaned over and kissed him. "Come on, we have to check out of here and
get you a tux."
"Right now?" Holly rose and tucked her sweater into her trousers.
"Oh,that's it, Lachlan -make big eyes at me and look all sex-starved!"
Snagging her jacket from the floor, she made a face at him. "At least
that hasn't changed.
Ever the sex maniac.
"With you in the room? Damn betcha, lady. What time do I pick you up?"
"You're really going to go with me?" She took a step, then another, as
if wanting to come to him but fearing he'd suddenly vanish. "You won't
leave me again—it would kill me, Evan — "
"Holly." He held out his arms and she sought his embrace blindly. "Shh.
It's all right, lady love. Where would I go, if it wasn't someplace I
could be
with you? "She hid her face against his chest. "I hate clingy
females," she muttered. "You don't have to be strong all the time,
y'know. I finally figured that out." She knuckled her eyes and smiled
ruefully. "You did, huh?" "Yeah." He took her face between his hands.
"I'll be there tonight. And every night from now on."
****
THEY PARTED IN THE HOTEL lobby. He went to the Ralph Lauren
store in the old Rhinelander Mansion, ending up with a classic peak
lapel tux,
wing-collared pleated shirt, and black silk bow tie. What the hell, he
thought,
trying not to notice the numbers after the dollar sign.
Marriage to Holly McClure would find him in need of a tuxedo. Or two.
He picked up other stuff, as well: shoes, underwear, socks, jeans, a
shirt for work. He winced at the further damage to his plastic, but he
didn't want to go back to his place in Jersey ever
again—though
he knew he had to. This way, because he had a suit and tie and needed
only a clean shirt for work on Monday, he could put it off as long as
possible.
It was well after five when he got to Holly's apartment. Mr. Hunnicutt
smiled and let him in with a "Good to see you back, Marshal Lachlan."
"Good to be back," he replied. He paused a minute. "How's she been?"
"Lonesome," was the succinct answer, which told him all he needed to
know.
"One man, once." He couldn't help wondering who she would choose, after
him. Still, he could shrug it off, and even pity the man,
•whoever he'd been. After all, Evan was here and the other guy
wasn't.
It felt strange to ring the door chimes. He still had her key someplace
in his desk. Isabella answered the door, smiling bright as a new penny.
"Come in, come in! She said you were back! And about time, too!"
"Lookin' good, Isabella—I like your hair that way."
"Sweet-talker!" she chided. "You want something to eat while you get
dressed? Sandwich?"
"Doyou still make the best iced coffee in the world?"
"Better," she announced, taking his shopping bags. "I'll put all this
out for you while you clean up. The right-hand bedroom's all ready for
you upstairs." She paused, then added, "She wasn't the same, with you
gone. Don't you ever leave again, okay? "
"Not a chance. Thanks, Isabella."
He took a long, hot shower, and when he emerged with a towel slung
around his hips he found that Isabella had left not only a tall glass
of iced coffee but a slice of hot-from-the-oven pound cake. He missed
the sight of Mugger sniffing around the table, convinced there must be
something for him to eat. Lachlan thought about the cat for a minute,
then decided that whereas a Witch might require a feline familiar, for
himself he -wanted a dog. Something big and spirited for him
to take for a walk while Holly gnashed her teeth over a book, but
patient
and gentle enough for the kids to roughhouse with . . .
Did she still want children? He experienced a fierce desire to find her
and make love again and again until they knew she was pregnant. She
wasn't yet forty, but they didn't have time to waste.
I'm sorry, Holly. But it had to be this way. For me, anyhow. I'm just
sorry I put you through it, too. If only she'd been just a little bit
weaker, he could have stayed. But if she hadn't been as strong as she
-was, she wouldn't be Holly, and he wouldn't have loved her in the
first place. It would have been so easy to just lean on her—
let her do all the work, take all the anger and hurting away—
He couldn't have done that to her. To himself. To them. And as deeply
as he regretted the year they'd lost, the man he'd been had compelled
him to do what he'd done—and it had been the only way to
become the man he -was now.
After scraping his face smooth of whiskers and attending to all the
other requirements of getting gussied up, he climbed into the
tux, ran a comb through his hair, made a defiant face at the gray, and
went
downstairs.
"Holly? You in yet?"
No answer. In the living room nothing much had
changed—different books on the tables, a new painting to
admire. Thinking back over what
she'd told him, he realized she hadn't been here to change
things—and abrupdy recalled he'd never heard anything about
her time in Kenya. A postcard he'd never read had been forwarded to his
new
address in Jersey a month after he'd moved. Her souvenirs of Africa
were on a shelf behind the bar: three exquisite little beadwork
baskets, a carved wooden bowl whose handles were giraffes bending down
to drink. What had she seen there, what had she thought and felt and
learned? He didn't know.
He glanced at his watch and sank into an armchair. It was six-thirty
and he knew she'd be late. But worth it. They'd gone out classy a dozen
or more times—but nothing she had ever appeared in prepared
him for what glided into the living room now. Thin indigo velvet flowed
from half-bared shoulders all the way to the floor. No bra confined her
breasts, and inside he laughed, for as their eyes met her nipples
hardened. The dress fit like skin to the hips, where she wore a belt of
linked silver plaques with Celtic knotwork designs on them, with
matching earrings, Susannah's bracelet—and Granna Maureen's
diamond ring. Her hair was tucked back on one side behind her ear. The
whole effect was elegant, romantic, Medieval.
He unfolded himself from the chair and drawled in bad imitation of her
Virginia Southern, "Y'all shore do clean up nice, ma'am."
"Many thanks, my lord." She gave him a curtsey and looked him down and
up. Her admiration was gratifying, even though he hated like hell being
done up in a tux. "And thank you for choosing a big bow tie —
a man with a nose the size of yours couldn't possibly wear a skinny
one."
"I'll choose to believe you're complimenting my taste instead of
insulting my nose." Ambling closer, hands in his trouser pockets, he
continued thoughtfully, "Y'know, there's only one way that dress could
look any better."
"Yeah?"
"Yeah. If it was on the floor of the bedroom."
"Voracious," she accused, eyes dancing. "Ravenous. Absolutely a
glutton."
"There you go again, with all them big fancy words," he complained.
"You know a big dumb Mick like me ain't got the smarts to— "
"Big dumb Mick, my ass. I've seen your college transcripts. Shall we
go?"
"You have to make a speech, right?"
"Yes. But I don't know what I'll say."
"You can rehearse in the car." He grinned. "While I drive."
"You missed that goddamned BMW more than you missed me," she growled.
"Yep," he said—and got out of her way, fast.
****
ON PRINCIPLE, AND OWING TO experience, Lachlan never used
valet parking
if he could avoid it. More often than not a car returned to its owner
at least one dent the worse, and sometimes minus a few gallons of gas.
Tonight he parked the Beemer himself. Others were of similar mind;
there was a steady flow of gowns and tuxedoes heading for the
elevators. Holly hadn't mentioned what the ante was per head, but he
was inclined to be impressed by the money tonight would raise.
"Upmarket crowd," he murmured to Holly. "Y'know, I'm actually glad I'm
wearin' a tux."
"You are absolutely, totally, shatteringly gorgeous, Lachlan."
He was surprised by how proud her proud smile made him. To cover it, he
said, "Two-drink maximum. You want to make sense when you make this
speech you don't know what you're going to say in."
"I adore your sentence structure. Actually, I adore all your
structures."
"Good evening. Holly, Marshal Lachlan," said a familiar voice as Elias
Bradshaw, lean and elegant and edgy, joined them at the elevator.
"Evening, Your Honor," Lachlan said, unable to think of a single thing
to say about Susannah that wouldn't sound trite or foolish, or end up
hurting people who were already hurting. Still, he gave it a try. "I
didn't get the chance the other day to tell you how sorry—"
"Yeah, I know." The brusque interruption was marginally gentled with a
brief smile that didn't touch his eyes. "Thanks."
Holly slid an arm around Bradshaw, and as he hugged her lightly about
the shoulders she asked, "Did you get any sleep last night?"
He shrugged. "Some.'
"For a lawyer, you are one lousy liar."
Their easy physical intimacy astonished Evan for a moment, but then he
reasoned that the loss of Susannah had doubtlessly brought a truce.
The elevator ride to the Palm Court was a crush of rustling dresses and
a skirmish of contradictory perfumes. Evan handed Holly out into an
only slightly less crowded foyer. She caught sight of her publisher,
glanced an apology up at Lachlan, picked up her skirts, and
began sidling her way through the throng. This left Evan
alone—relatively speaking—with the man he could
never decide "whether he truly loathed or just didn't like.
"I see you took my advice," Bradshaw murmured. "Not that I did it for
you."
"For Holly," Lachlan replied.
Bradshaw shook his head. "Susannah. Because she fought for
you—and I didn't fight hard enough. And if you tell Holly any
of this I'll deny it to my last breath. There are things happening that
require somebody who knows—well, somebody who knows. We can
talk about it later," he finished gracelessly.
"Let's talk about it now," Lachlan invited. He nudged His Honor toward
a comparatively unpopulated corner.
"No. Not tonight."
"Still paranoid, huh?"
"With damned good reason," Bradshaw retorted. "I need your particular
expertise. There's a lot going on that makes tonight the last breather
any of us will have for a while. You'll know what you need to know when
you need to know it."
Lachlan supposed he really had changed—because a year ago
this choice bit of arrogance would have set his temper off like a brick
of CM explosive. Now, he merely regarded Bradshaw with frank admiration
for the man's ability to arrange the world to suit himself. "So you're
making me an auxiliary
member of the Circle? You are the most unpredictable son of a bitch I
ever met."
"Holly needs you. And so, in fact, do I."
Evan had no time to reply, even if he could have thought of a swift
comeback for this startling admission, for Holly had reclaimed his arm.
"What a zoo!"
Bradshaw pasted a smile on his face. "Holly, you long tall drink of
Irish whiskey, since you roped me into this I'd better make good use of
my entry fee and go schmooze. See you later."
Lachlan watched him go, still stunned.
"Hey." Holly jostled his elbow. "What happened?"
"Huh?" He looked at her, then shook his head to clear it. "Nothin'."
"Bull me no shit, Lachlan. What did Elias say that's got you looking
like you've been hit in the gut with a two-by-four?"
"More like a steel rebar," he answered. "Tell you later."
She favored him with a look that vowed he would indeed be telling her,
and in abundant detail, then started for the coat-check.
Someone in the main room was playing the piano, and very well, too. He
couldn't quite recall where he'd heard the particular riff before, but
as a bluesy voice began to sing, he remembered all too clearly.
They'd chosen to hold
the annual alumni party at a karaoke bar, of all
places. Mercifully, most of the singers were pretty good, and
getting better as liquor kept flowing. Lachlan was actually
enjoying himself, and decided double-dating with Susannah and Bradshaw
wasn't so bad after all. Then some Wall Street type with his designer
tie askew brought the
cordless microphone to their table. The two women held a whispering,
giggling consultation, then asked for a second mike. Lachlan and
Bradshaw traded glanced, and for the first time in their acquaintance
their reactions were in perfect agreement: horrified amusement and
equally horrified apprehension.
"What the hell do you
think you're doing?" Bradshaw demanded as the
women rose, smoothed their dresses demurely, and grinned pure
wickedness.
Lachlan asked, "Do you
really want to find out?"
"Mens room's over there,
Marshall "
"Lead the way, Your
Honor."
Both got to their feet,
only to be shoved back down onto their chairs
by their Significant Others, who ordered them to keep their sorry asses
put. The song came up; driving drumbeat, thundering bass line.
Holly, in her glittery green dress, and Susannah, in creamy white silk
that bared shoulders and back, with Holly's sapphires gleaming at
wrists and ears and throat, turned into honky-tonk singers right before
their eyes. The voice Holly had likened to an angel's was clear and
pure and strong, but Lachlan would have bet Holly's farm that Susannah
had never belted out a number like this in college
choir—every raunchily suggestive word of it directed at Elias
Bradshaw.
By the last chorus ("We
be gnawin' on it, baby - yeah, gnawin on
it"), they were laughing do hard they could dcarcely get the worth out.
Raucous applause was swiftly followed by whoops and hollers
of approval as Lachlan took his revenge by hauling Holly down onto his
lap and kissing the wits out of her. From the other side of the table
he
heard Susannah — so demure and circumspect at the
office—demand of Elias, "So where the hell's my reward?"
"Evan?"
He looked at Holly. And thought about Susannah. And realized for the
first time what her death meant to Bradshaw. If I lost you as completely
as he lost her—
"Evan!" Frowning worriedly, she placed a hand on his chest. Her eyes
widened; he knew she felt the sick thudding of his heart. "What's
wrong?"
He slid an arm around her waist and somehow managed a
smile—and kept himself from crushing her close in mindless
gratitude. "Y'know
what?"
She searched his eyes, then smiled. "I love you, too, a chuisle."
"Is that gonna be your speech for tonight?"
"Don't remind me."
"You'll do great."
"I just hope I don't trip in these heels."
He made his voice a throaty purr and whispered in her ear, "Pretend all
you've got on is those shoes and that little black thing you have the
nerve to call a slip — "
She choked on a stilled giggle. "Evan! "
" — and you're comin' into the bedroom on a rainy
night—"
"Stop it!" Holly hissed. "I'll never be able to keep a straight face!"
" — and it's all candlelight and that '82 merlot and those
white silk sheets — "
"You'll pay for this, Lachlan." She swayed a little against him as her
knees started to buckle. Ever the considerate gentleman, he held her
elbow to keep her upright —because he had a great finish
planned.
" — and I'm in bed waitin' for you, with this bow tie and a
really, really big—"
She glared at him.
" — smile," he concluded with unabashed glee.
****
NINETY MINUTES LATER, HER SPEECH given and applauded, he was
idly finger-stroking her bare silken shoulder while people he didn't
know
came by to chat and check him out head to foot while wondering who the
hell he was. Sharply curious eyes saw a tall, fortyish man in an
elegant tux, with no clue as to what he did for a living or anything
else other than that he was H. Elizabeth McClure's escort. He smiled
and said very little —and held Holly tighter.
On impulse he pressed his lips briefly to her temple. She looked up in
the middle of what she was saying, a question in her blue eyes. He
noted with a smile that with that: one gesture he had managed to make
her forget
whoever it was she was talking to as well as whatever it was she'd been
saying. Center of her world; reason for its creation.
"So you're finally going to do it," said Elias Bradshaw—who
was developing a habit oi appearing rather suddenly. "Nice rock, he
added
by way of explanation, nodding to Holly's left hand.
"I know," she replied.
"I liked your speech." His eyes said he more than liked it. Then, with
a half-step to one side that revealed a young woman standing nearby: "I
don't know if you've met Deputy Marshal Leah Towsley."
"I've been nagging His Honor all evening to introduce me," Towsley
said, moving forward to shake hands. She was about five-foot-four,
African American, dressed in a slither of red and white
sequins, and, to Lachlan s discerning eye, built like a brick dollhouse.
"Thanks — but it's not a gown, it's a costume!" Holly laughed
in response to Leah's compliment on her dress. "I write Medieval, so
people expect to see Medieval. Frankly, I'd kill to be able to
wear that masterpiece you've got on -vintage Halston?"
Elegant brows arched. "You have a good eye. It was a real find
— I picked it up in a retread shop last year. Judge Bradshaw,
do me a
favor and stand between us —I feel like half of a
flag!"
"I have a question for Holly, ' Bradshaw said as he duly placed his
tuxedoed self between the red-and-white dress and the blue one.
Leah Towsley interrupted with mock severity. "Not before I read her the
riot act about Jerusalem Lodt. It kept me up all night- best cry I've
had in years."
"Sorry about that," Holly said ruelully, as Bradshaw turned an
incredulous look on his marshal.
"So you're my replacement," Evan remarked, smiling.
Holly gave a start. "Oh, good grief, I'm sorry — Marshal
Towsley, this is my fiance, Evan Lachlan."
As they shook hands, Towsley said, "Congratulations on your engagement.
And I didn't replace you — I just kept the bench warm." She
cocked an eyebrow at Bradshaw.
"Nothing of the kind," he assured her. "I need Marshal Lachlan for a
special assignment, that's all."
"Special — ?" Holly began, but the judge interrupted her.
"Why didn't you tell me about establishing this fellowship in
Susannah's name? Why did I have to learn about it in your speech? And
why the hell did you make me one of the trustees?"
"Well ..."
As she launched into explanations, Evan gazed down a foot at his fellow
Marshals dazzling dark brown eyes. "So how do you like workin' -with
His Honor?"
"Beats inventorying confiscated property in New Jersey," she replied,
which let him know she knew all about him.
"I'm not after my old job back, I promise."
"I didn't think you were. Anyone who'd consciously volunteer to
baby-sit Elias Bradshaw is nuts. Despite what I've heard, you don't
look that crazy to me."
He laughed. "Appearances can be deceiving."
****
"MY GOD, YOU'VE MELLOWED!" HOLLY exclaimed in the car. Her
shoes were
off, and her belt, and she was stretching her shoulders and spine in
ways he would have liked to appreciate with more than a sidelong
glance. But he was driving.
"Yeah?" he said, negotiating the Beemer through late-night traffic.
"Yeah. Used to be I could hardly get you to stay at those things for an
hour. But you were very sweet and obliging tonight."
"Uh-oh. Does that mean you think I've turned into a wimp?"
"No," she replied solemnly. "I think you've become one very fine man.
You started out that way—but purest gold can't shine
brightest
until it's been through fire."
He gave her a crooked smile. "We both oughta be 24-karat by now."
It was probably ridiculous—no, it was definitely
ridiculous—but the fact that she'd never changed the seat
settings he'd programmed into her BMW really got to him.
Nobody
else had made it far enough into her life—but more
importantly, no matter what she said, deep inside she'd known
he'd
be coming back. It -was funny and silly and touching, and it made him
realize that for the first time in more than a year his entire world
was right.
"So Elias had ulterior motives," she said suddenly. "What did he tell
you?"
"Not much. We're going to have a little chat soon."
"I couldn't get anything out of him, either. But obviously he thinks
you can help find out who killed Susannah."
He was too good a driver to allow the car to swerve with his reaction.
"I think," he said quietly, "that you and I better have a little chat
tonight."
She talked; he listened. Of all the things she recounted—Long
Island dirt, splinters, code, Noel, and so on—his instincts
kept
snagging on the bracelet.
"I had the same feeling," she said •when he mentioned it.
"Only there's no reason."
"And no reason for her to take it off and put it in her pocket, either.
Come on. Holly. Susannah was a very sharp lady. Tell me everything you
know about the bracelet, starting with the day she bought it."
"I drove us to Connecticut. Suze spent that night with her mother and
took the train back to the city. I went to see Alec and Nicky. But
there wasn't anything special we said or did."
"Just tell me what happened." Knowing it was there without knowing
exactly how he knew; it was the same feeling he got whenever
all
the little dance steps his fugitive quarry did were finally coming
together, and he knew that one more move and he'd have the whole
pattern.
"We left early—it was a Saturday. We stopped for breakfast in
some little town, and did some shopping. There was a place that sold
pewter, and a quilt shop, antiques—the usual touristy stuff.
And
a jewelry store. That's where she bought it."
Lachlan pulled the BMW into the garage and parked. "Keep thinking," he
said as they left the car and walked to the elevator. "Pretend it's a
movie and you're watching the scene."
Casting him a doubting glance, she shrugged, leaned back against the
elevator wall, and closed her eyes.
"Oh, c'mon, Suze—you've always wanted one. It's a great
price,and I've never seen another one like it. The craftsmanship is
gorgeous. "
"I don't know, I mean, it's beautiful, but— "
"Well, if you're waiting for Elias Bradshaw to cough up, forget it. He
has all the earmarks of a man who doesn't know that diamond
jewelry is like chocolate. Women not only want it, they need it!"
Susannah laughed and consulted her checkbook balance. Holly took the
artisan aside, ostensibly to ask about a brooch in another case, and
murmured that it would be a very good thing if he knocked a bit off the
bracelet's price—and passed him four crisp fifties. When they
returned to Susannah, he lowered the price by three hundred dollars
—saying it was because of Susannah's beautiful smite.
A touch on her arm opened her eyes. Evan guided her out the elevator
and down the hall to her door. "Anything?" he said when they were
inside her foyer.
She shook her head. "I just don't remember." Taking off her coat, she
draped it on the hall tree and started for the kitchen.
He followed. Relentless. "What was the name of the town?"
"I don't know."
"The place you had breakfast?"
She took refuge behind the pantry door, rummaging for something to eat.
"I don't remember that, either."
"Goddammit, Holly—"
"Maybe she put it in her pocket so they wouldn't steal it!"
"They didn't take any of her other jewelry, did they? " he shot back.
"Did the jeweler say anything? What'd he look like? What was the name
of the shop? What was his name?"
Holly slammed the pantry door. "I don't fucking know, okay?
"Yes, you do. You just don't know that you do."
"Will you quit being a cop?"
"I did," he answered, low-voiced. "Not of my own choosing,
but—"
With a shrug: "Turns out it's like you with the writing—it's
not just that I do it, I am it." He shrugged. "You ready to think some
more
about this, or should we call it a night?"
She stood straighten bracing herself. "Are you saying you want to go?"
His brows knotted. "I told you I wouldn't leave."
"But do you want to stay?"
"McClure, what the hell am I gonna do with you? " he snarled, taking
her left hand. "See that?" he went on, pointing to the ring. "Remember
what it means?"
"I know what it means to me," she replied.
"So what did that bracelet mean that Susannah wanted you to remember?"
"Christ on a kayak, Lachlan —you never stop! All right, all
right, we're waiting for the jeweler to finish with her check,
and looking at other pieces . . . they were all one-of-a-kind, mostly
nautical themes, sea shells and fish . . ." She closed her eyes again,
picturing the shop. "She asked about a starfish pin, and the jeweler
said he was Portuguese, he'd been in the fishing fleet for Iwenty
years, then retired to make jewelry—San Jacinto!" she
exclaimed,
looking up at Evan. "He named his store after the patron saint of
sailors!" Triumph was there and gone before she could really feel it.
"But what's that got to do with anything?"
Kvan was looking the way he did when he'd polished off a four-course
dinner and was anticipating the sweet trolley. "Oh,
yeah—Susannah was a very sharp lady."
"She was, but I'm not," she snapped.
"Jacinto?" he repeated, brows arching expectantly. When she stayed
stubbornly silent, he relented. "Hyacinth, writer-lady.
Hyacinth."
"So? Hyacinthe Rigaud was a French painter at the court of Louis XIV.
There's a Vermeer called 'Girl in Hyacinth Blue.' There's — "
"No lectures, please." He held up both hands in surrender, smiling.
"The dirt from Long Island is just dirt from Long Island. But
'hyacinth' tells us where on Long Island."
"It does?"
"Yeah. Got a map? No, forget it, we'll hit the computer." And he was
striding through to her office before she could say another
word.
She made coffee, then joined him. He was leaning back in her desk
chair, and glanced around when she came in. "Got it," he said.
"Is it something she saw out the car window?"
"Nope. There's a St. Hyacinth's Catholic Church in Glen Head. But that's
not the reference. I checked out all 'hyacinth' references to make
sure. What she wanted us to know, where she was directing us
—it ain't no church."
She peered at the computer screen. A real estate site, but having about
as much in common with the average realtor as Sotheby's had with the
local junk shop. There, in full color, was a photo of a Victorian
mansion, the kind built by stupendously wealthy New Yorkers wanting a
seaside escape from the city's summer heat. That whole section of
Suffolk County was known as the Gold Coast. And the turreted, towered,
crenellated mansion in the picture was known as The Hyacinths.
Twenty-Four
LACHLAN HAD BEEN INSIDE ELIAS Bradshaw's house five times: twice into
the living room, once to the kitchen, once to the hall bathroom, and
once just to the foyer. Now, on Monday night a week after Susannah's
death, he went up the stairs holding Holly's hand, and was admitted to
a room without electrical outlets, telephone jack, lamps, or any other
modern technology. The only light glittered from a single white candle
burning in a silver holder on a small table.
Holly left him to go speak to a blonde woman over by the fireplace.
Feeling a little lost, Evan glanced around. The floor was inlaid with a
five-pointed star of pale wood within a circle of what might have been
mahogany. There was a hearth without a fire, wooden chairs without
cushions, and a heavy iron-bound chest without a lock. The only attempt
at comfort was the small one-armed sofa over in a corner. From a
garment rack hung robes in various colors; rainbow-hued candles were
arranged on a shelf.
"Welcome to the sanctum
sanctorum," said Nicholas Orlov, approaching
with a slight smile and a double handclasp that Lachlan returned rather
nervously. "Did Holly remember to bring something for you to wear?"
"Uh — I don't know."
"I brought my extra," Alec Singleton said, proffering a black robe that
smelled faintly of cinnamon. "Don't worry, Evan, we'll all look just as
silly as you."
"Ill just pretend I've been promoted to judge, or got my Ph.D., or
something."
Alec smiled. "The rest will be some time getting ready. Come sit down."
He followed Holly's honorary uncle over to the hearth. Nick joined the
others in setting up the space, placing various stones from
his pockets at what Lachlan figured were the cardinal points of the
compass.
"The tall black guy with the sword-sized athame is Martin," Singleton
began. "He'll be in the South."
"Fire and St. Michael, right?"
"Very good. But I think you learned most of what you know on your own,
didn't you? Holly's rather casual about things she doesn't have to be
involved in, such as Calling the Quarters."
"Not casual," he protested. "She knows why she's here — "
"—and you don't much enjoy the idea of her bleeding whenever
Elias requires it of her."
"Not especially." He shrugged.
"The other Quarters will be Ian in the North—the one in
green,
he's Martin's partner the way Nick's mine—Nick in
the West, and myself in the East. I usually take the South, but tonight
we're
improvising. The blonde lady is Kate, our Apothecary. She'll be in the
Southeast. Simon is the wily codger with the chalice, and tonight he'll
take the Northwest. Elias will be in the Northeast, and you'll stand
Southwest. Shall I describe the process to you?"
"I think I remember most of it from Beltane with Holly."
"I just bet you do. This Circle is already laid out in the
floor—which is why this room is off-limits to everyone but
the Circle, since it's been spelled to them. Elias spent this afternoon
including Nick and me and you. It's nine feet, with boundaries of
stones, incense, and candles. Because you'll be in the Southwest, we've
chosen a purple candle—a mix of red and blue—which
also nicely calls the protections you'll need."
"Which are-?"
"It's Male, for one thing," Alec smiled. "It shields from danger,
especially magical danger. It's symbolic of the law, as well. As for
the rock—I chose one from my personal stash that I thought
would do you the most good. And the moonstone connects you with Holly,
and
with me." He fingered the milky white gem hanging from a silver chain
around his neck.
"I know it's kinda late to ask, but—does all this really work?
"Nick can give you his lecture sometime. The short version is that yes,
it does, but not for the reasons one might expect."
"Actually," he admitted, "I'm not sure what I'm expecting."
"Don't even try," Alec advised. "Not tonight. Magic isn't inherent in
stones or scents or chalices, it's inside you. Some people hear music
in color, for instance."
"Is that why they call it 'the blues'?" Lachlan smiled.
"Could be! Ever see Fantasia The colors used for Stravinsky's Toccata
and Fugue in D Minor had to come from somewhere. That they feel right
to most
of the rest of us may mean there's something going on inside our brains
that equates certain colors with certain sounds. The medical
term for it is synesthesia. Most people never recognize or develop
the instinct.
"There are places in our brains we can't begin to understand," he went
on. "Combine a scent, a color, maybe the ringing of a bell, words that
evoke images, some sort of rhythmic chant, and something in your brain
wakes up
and responds to the stimuli—and that's magic, for lack of a
better term."
"Proust," Lachlan said suddenly. "The madeleines."
"Precisely. Smell is primal — it's why we give off
pheromones,
which make us respond at a visceral level. Nothing to do with the parts
of our brains that think and reason. We perceive, but not with our
conscious minds. And sometimes your brain fights so hard against what
consciousness perceives as irrational that—" He broke off and
resettled himself in the hard wooden chair, crossing long legs at the
knees under his white robe. "And to think I accuse poor Nick of
lecturing," he said wryly.
"Believe me, I'm used to it," Lachlan replied in the same tone.
Alec laughed. "Okay, then—heard the one about the itchy palm?
The old saying has it that you're about to get some money. What if your
brain is picking up something from the person signing the check and
putting it in the mail? Because you know the tradition, and
you have no other way to rationalize or process this 'something,'your
brain tells your palm to itch."
Lachlan frowned. "So to work magic, you pick a combination of objects
that will provoke the response you want inside your own head? "
"That's the theory. One must experiment, of course, with exactly what
causes which reactions. Which music coaxes us out of depression, what
we find to be comfort foods. For instance, it's well-known that
chocolate stimulates the same chemical changes in the brain that happen
when you're in love. Nick can go on about this stuff for hours. But the
whole thing boils down to: Magic is Life, and Life is Magic."
"Now, that I can relate to," he replied, glancing over at Holly.
"I thought you might." Alec's expression changed as a slight, almost
fragile young woman entered and chose her robe from the rack.
"Lydia Montsorel," he said softly. "Whose gift is almost as rare as
Holly's."
"What exactly is she?" Lachlan asked, unconsciously lowering his own
voice.
"She's a Sciomancer. She sees the future in shadows. When the stimuli
are right—as we hope they will be tonight—she can
read the past as well. She's one of our finding, mine and Nick's."
"Like Holly."
"Yes. Lydia's is a life that nearly turned tragic. She spent her first
six years afraid of daylight, not knowing why. By the time we found
her, her parents were frantic. Her grandmother had an
inkling—her own magic, untrained though it was, kept her
alive through the Holocaust."
"Holly said Lydia's grandmother was a Survivor. She didn't say much
else."
"I don't think she knows. Sylvie managed to hide her family for three
years during the Nazi occupation of France. She knew when evil
approached—felt it, sensed it. They were caught near the end
of the war, on a day when
Sylvie was sick in bed with a raging fever. The family was separated,
and Sylvie alone survived the camps. She emigrated, married,
had children —and Lydia is the only one who inherited the
magic.
In her, it manifests in shadows. She can feel the presence of evil,
like
her grandmother, but she can also see it."
"Afraid of the daylight," Evan murmured, shaking his head, thinking of
his own children, his and Holly's; hoping that if they inherited magic,
it would be a more benevolent kind.
"Time and teaching showed her what to avoid. Electric light has no
impact on her. But sunlight, fire — even a lighted match can
do it if she's not careful. With help, she learned control, and how to
prevent seeing and sensing if she wishes. And she has a wise and loving
husband looking out for her, as well."
Lachlan said nothing for a moment, watching the dark girl in the yellow
robe as she moved around the room, graceful as a dancer. "Is that
-where I come in, with Holly? I mean, it's not as if Bradshaw told me
where I could find her last week out of the kindness of his heart."
"Like David with Lydia, Holly's physical protection is up to you, yes.
Magically—" He shrugged. "We do what we can. She's valuable."
"For her blood," Evan muttered. "Not for who she is, or what she's made
of herself, but for something she was born with that she — "
"Stand down. Marshal," Alec advised. "She is what she is. But think of
it this way: if she wasn't a Spellbinder, if that hadn't influenced
every decision she's made, would she be the person she is now?"
Singleton got to his feet. "I think we're ready. When this is all over,
remind me to tell you the tale of a vampire, a freckle-faced
little girl, and how two Witches found her—and each other."
****
THE MAGISTRATE'S CIRCLE—PLUS TWO who were not of
it, and one who had no magic at all—took up positions. In the
East, Alec
stood as the Truthseeing Warrior in the domain of Raphael and the Air
of which
shadows were in part made. South, Fire, and Michael was Martin, a
pendant of red amber glowing on his breast, Warrior of the Spirit. To
the West, Nicholas represented Gabriel, in his hands a chalice filled
with Water in which rested a small chunk of aquamarine the color
of his eyes, stone of tranquility and protection despite his function
as Warrior-Coercer. North was Ian, Warrior of the Sword, wearing Earth
green, standing for Ariel.
At the cross-quarters were Kate, Evan, Simon, and Elias. The Magistrate
took the Northeast, symbolic dividing line between darkness and light,
the place where the Circle would be opened if necessary, and the place
most vulnerable in the way that Hallowe'en was vulnerable: the
place and time where the veil between the worlds was thinned. Directly
opposite Bradshaw was
Evan, whose lack of magic -was supported by Elias's abundant power.
Lydia seemed the antithesis of shadow; in pale yellow and with a large
opal glinting from her finger, she was a creature of air and light. As
she spoke to each Guardian, she turned to each of the men, black hair
tumbling over her shoulders as she bowed to those they
represented.
"I call on Air's pure breath to inspire me, on Fire's warm brilliance
to illumine me, on Water's cool sweetness to cleanse me, on
Earth's solid strength to support me. I call on the Guardians to
protect me." She sighed softly. "I release my fears."
Lachlan, watching her, wondered if it could possibly be that easy.
Calmly, in a voice so soft it seemed weightless, Lydia went on, "I'll
start with Susannah, and go forward as far as we need to. Holly, did
you bring something of hers for me to focus on?"
Holly unfastened the diamond bracelet. And dropped it. Lachlan expected
the clumsiness to evoke an Oh, shit, but Holly seemed
incapable of speech. Lydia bent, straightened with the gold and gems
enclosed in her palm. After a few moments, she nodded and handed the
jewelry
back.
"Thank you. That was quite powerful. Only you and Susannah ever wore
it."
Holly managed a nod, fumbling to fasten it back around her left wrist.
"Kate, could you begin, please?"
The Apothecary went to the altar and from the pockets of her robe
brought forth four small bags. "Parsley, sage, rosemary, and
thyme—believe it or not," she smiled. She upended each bag of
fresh leaves in a different bowl, saying, "Parsley, a grave-offering in
Roman times. Sage, against negative energy. Thyme for divination. And
rosemary, of course, for remembrance. She who is remembered, lives,"
she finished softly, and returned to her place.
Lydia censed the Circle with a sweet-smelling smoke Lachlan couldn't
identify. Simon used a small twine-wrapped bundle of leaves
dipped in his chalice to sprinkle water gently around. Then the long
wooden
stick Ian held sprouted a flame at its top without his having touched
it with a match; if Lachlan hadn't seen Holly do this, he would have
flinched. Each of them finished the assigned task with the words, "She
who is remembered, lives."
Gradually he became aware that Bradshaw was studying him from across
the Circle. His Honor looked even worse tonight than he had on
Saturday. Grief had aged him, carving lines on his face like fine
Chinese calligraphy. Having observed him in the courtroom,
Lachlan had thought that most of his, gravitas came with the black robe
and the
gavel. Now he saw the power Elias Bradshaw wielded as a Magistrate.
Harsh, dedicated power; more often ruthless than compassionate.
"I conjure and invoke the Sovereign of the East, the power of Air,"
Bradshaw said suddenly, raising his athame to sketch a pentagram over
the
tall yellow candle on the floor beside Alec. But he did not
continue to the South, as Holly had done at Beltane; instead he moved
to Ian in the North, then Nicholas in the West, and finally Martin in
the South. Counter-clockwise—widdershins, Holly termed it.
Lachlan wondered why the Quarters had been called
backwards—maybe because Lydia was trying to sense the past?
"The Circle is now cast," Bradshaw finished. "We are between worlds,
beyond the boundaries of time, where night and day, death and
birth, sorrow and joy, ending and beginning meet as one."
Again, a difference. Holly had used the same words, only the pairings
had been expressed in reverse.
"In this place," the Magistrate added, "let she who is remembered,
live."
"So mote it be," responded his Circle, including Alec and Nick.
Holly unwrapped a large square of black silk, and slid the wrinkled
original page of music notation onto the altar without touching it.
With her great-grandmother's silver dagdyne she pricked her left ring
finger—the wedding finger, where his own grandmother's
diamond was, the finger said to have a vein connected directly to the
heart. She touched the drop of blood to a dry, leafy tree branch. A
pause while more blood welled; she smeared this on the leaves, and
again, and again. Her hands were shaking. She called fire to the branch
— differently than he had ever seen her do it, the flame
leaping to the leaves from the white candle on the altar. Bone-dry wood
and
desiccated leaves ignited at once.
"She who is remembered," Holly whispered, "lives."
Placing the branch in a tall cut-crystal vase, she stood to the left of
the altar, folding her hands inside flowing white sleeves.
Lydia overturned one bowl of herbs onto the page, gazed by the light of
Holly's strange torch, and shook her head. She blew the crushed leaves
away and tried the second bowl. And the third. With the fourth, a spark
from the branch sputtered onto the herbs. Smoke rose. Lydia caught her
breath, then shook the embers from the singed paper before they could
ignite.
Smoothing the page flat on the altar, she paused, hands spread over and
then onto it. Her huge dark eyes fixed on the shadows dancing over the
page, and when she spoke it was with Susannah's clipped New England
accents, dryly-sarcastic.
"Oh, good, you're back.
I was getting a little tired of counting the rats."
A small wounded sound
came from deep in Bradshaw's throat.
"This? Just writing some
music—I do that when I'm bored, and you
left me my briefcase. Did you think I wrote the ransom demand for you?"
Lydia's delicate fingers clenched, crushing the paper as Susannah
must have. "What do you mean, making notes for my next book? What're
you talking about?"
Lachlan bit both lips,
abruptly knowing what must come next.
"Oh, God—you
mean you think I'm — " Her voice
changed, and with cutting authority she said, "You've made the most
pathetic
mistake. My name is Susannah Wingtield, and I work for Judge
Elias Sutton Bradshaw. I suggest you release me before this
becomes any more preposterous than it already is."
There was another brief
silence. Then: "You must be Noel. Will you
please tell your pair of village idiots they got the wrong blonde?"
All at once Lydia's
voice changed again: deeper, menacing. Masculine.
"Did you think to check a book-cover photo before you grabbed a
green-eyed blonde from the courthouse? Did you bother to think at all?"
A minute passed, then
another.
Susannah again, this
time in a whisper. "Don't go stupid on me,
Holly—you have to remember—"
Lachlan could almost see
it, and a glance at Bradshaw confirmed that he
was seeing it: Susannah retrieving the paper, stuffing it into her
pocket where it would no longer contact her skin or retain her memories
— thank God. Because the next person to touch it would be
the cop who found her beneath the cypress trees.
"Poor girl. She looks a
bit like my youngest, doesn't she, Glen?"
Pause. "Looks like her neck's been snapped. At least she went quick.'
Lydia drew in a long breath, let it out slowly. Her hands unclenched
from the page. She glanced at Holly, then Elias, as she said, "Nothing
else."
Holly plunged the last smoldering leaves into a crystal bowl to
extinguish the fire. She was sickly pale, her freckles smears across
nose and cheekbones. Evan wanted to go to her, but Elias was speaking
again — and in a voice that re-emphasized the power Lachlan
had sensed in him earlier.
"I thank the Guardians of Air and Fire, Earth and Water, for watching
over us this night. As we re-enter the world of birth and death, day
and night, joy and sorrow, beginning and ending, we remind
ourselves: she who is remembered, lives. "
"So mote it be," Holly responded gently.
A few minutes later, when everyone had moved from their places in the
Circle to put away implements, Lachlan figured it was okay to join
Holly beside the altar. She looked up at him, eyes brimming,
and leaned into the shelter of his arm.
Just that simply, they were back in the world. The room was nothing
more than a room with an interesting pattern on the floor. Lachlan
wondered why he didn't feel a little more wobbly about
it—why, indeed, he didn't feel any sort of dislocation at
all. Glancing at the
other members of the Circle, he mused that perhaps this was
because they all treated this as perfectly normal, perfectly natural.
If you saw a camel, your reaction would depend on the circumstances. At
the zoo or in Egypt, a camel wasn't a big deal. In Gramercy Park,
however. . . . He grinned to himself, for he'd just seen a camel, right
here in Gramercy Park, and it hadn't freaked him one bit.
"Elias," Holly was saying, "do you need us for anything else?"
What suddenly startled him wasn't the camel; it was that he was
included among those who found the camel perfectly routine.
"Not right now." Bradshaw, looking weary, pinched the bridge of his
nose with thumb and forefinger. "Lydia and I will be working on some
things for the next couple of days. Keep your head down, Spellbinder."
"Understood, " Lachlan replied for her. "C'mon, Holly, let's go."
She had the decency to wait until they were in the car, then let him
have it. "Don'tyou even begin to think I'm going to be locked up like
some animal in a zoo!"
As he pulled the BMW away from the curb, he said, "Bradshaw pulled
strings and got me a new assignment —and you're it. Like it
or lump it, lady—"
"The perfect bodyguard, is that it? What, he figures I'll be so busy
with your body that I won't notice I'm being guarded?"
"Pretty much. Alec and Nicky are coming over later, by the way." He
grinned over at her furious scowl. "Tomorrow they'll redo all the
wardings at your place. I invited them to stay for the duration."
"God;dammit, Lachlan — "
"Yeah, thats my red-headed powderkeg,' he approved. "I'll take the long
way home so you can get it all out of your system before we go to bed,
okay? '
"Don't work me, Evan!" she snarled.
"Don't play me, Holly,' he advised. "You'll lose.
****
DENISE HAD NOT LEFT HER apartment since hearing Susannah
Winglield was dead. Fear kept her inside, pacing, unable to
sleep—unable
even to lie down in the bed where she'd had Evan Lachlan. She knew who
had
killed Bradshaw's girlfriend. Instinct, magical awareness, whatever
— she knew Noel was responsible and she knew she was
in danger.
He hadn't communicated with her at all after the disaster of Beltane
last year. She'd been too spooked by that night, and then too furious
over her legal woes, to think of him with anything but a cold shudder,
positive that if she tried to trade him for immunity, he'd come for her
and kill her, too. Once the prosecutors backed off from Bradshaw's
court to huddle over whether they had enough to indict in Suffolk
County, she'd been legally able to leave the state. Fleeing to New
Orleans, she laid low and decided to get in some serious study with a
local griot. The Magistrate, Jean-Michel, had issued a warning about
causing any trouble whatsoever, informing her that he knew Elias
Bradshaw had her Measure. Denise had behaved herself perfectly,
immersing herself in esoterica and finishing her next book.
Which, when it came out, sold so well that it prevented Holly McClure's
pathetic little historical potboiler from rising any further
than number six on the bestseller lists. Confidence restored, lawyers
optimistic, and skills enhanced, she returned to New York. Though she
still didn't know who had given her name to the police—she
suspected Bradshaw himself, it would be just like him, the
bastard—the death of Scott Fleming was ancient history.
Noises were still being made about indictments, and the Reverend was
still
getting mileage out of the tragedy and the contretemps -with Marshal
Lachlan, but Denise sensed herself safe enough.
And, remembering Marshal Lachlan, she spent what time she could spare
from signings and parties cooking up something really luscious. Needing
a few supplies, Denise had steeled herself and visited Noel's shop. He
wasn't there. But the second week in September he phoned, telling her
he was planning a little get-together for Samhain, and -would
she like to be there? He actually had the balls to say he again wanted
her
to be the Altar.
She hung up on him and changed her phone number.
Then Susannah Wingfield was killed.
Denise was terrified, but she had to get out of her apartment. She'd go
insane if she didn't. Just a walk down to the corner bar for a
drink—the sheer ordinariness of the idea was too compelling
to resist. She dressed, ensured she had not one but three protective
pouches—two in her purse, one in her pocket— and
left her building.
She paused beneath the awning, shaking her head when the doorman
offered to flag down a cab. She shivered slightly, underdressed
for the crisp autumn day. The season had abruptly changed in the
days she'd been shut indoors, and her jacket was inadequate to the wind
off the river.
"Good afternoon," said a pleasant voice at her shoulder, and she
whirled around to find a tall, graying, roguishly handsome man smiling
down at her. "Heading down the street to the bar, were you?"
Queasy with dread, she could only nod.
"You look a little chilly. Perhaps I might persuade you to consider
taking refuge in the warmth of my car—ah, here it is," he
beamed as a silver Mercedes pulled up to the curb. His touch on her
elbow was
as light and as inexorably persuasive as his deep voice. "Allow me," he
said, opening the passenger door. "There, that's right. Mind your head.
Seat belt fastened—good." He slid into the back seat and
finished, "All secure. Let's go."
She was whisked away from the building before she could string two
thoughts together. The driver was a man with blond hair and a chiseled
profile, whose slender hands on the steering wheel bore a thin gold
wedding ring on the left and a garnet on the right. She had no idea who
he was.
"Nicholas Orlov," he said suddenly. "I don't read minds. It was simply
the obvious question. My friend is Alec Singleton. We are associates of
Elias Bradshaw, who would like very much to hear what you have to say."
She had lots to say—mainly about getting the hell out of this
car—and could give voice to none of it. Orlov flicked a
glance at her from very blue eyes, a tiny smile playing around his lips.
"But, as you may have noticed, you won't be saying it just yet."
Denise was as silent and helpless and furious as she'd been when her
Measure was taken. What did the Magistrate know? What did he
expect her to tell him? Could she bluff her way through this? But why
conceal anything? Bradshaw could be her best—her
only—defense against Noel.
She relaxed a little, and crossed her legs—wishing she'd worn
a skirt instead of trousers, because even though the driver and
his friend were a little old for her taste it never hurt to have an
attractive man or two on one's side.
****
"NICE WORK," BRADSHAW COMMENTED AS Denise was brought
silently into his house. "No muss, no fuss."
"Always hire professionals," Alec Singleton intoned pompously, dark
eyes twinkling. "Where do you want her?"
"The living room will do."
A few minutes later, Denise was seated on a brown corduroy sofa, and
Singleton and Orlov had taken up position to one side of the
empty fireplace. Bradshaw perched on the arm of an easy chair.
"Comfortable, my dear?" Alec asked, and shrugged a little apology when
she glowered at him. "Forgive our method, but the Magistrate does need
to talk to you."
Elias didn't care if she was comfortable or not, and resented
Singleton's intrusion. "Denise, you're going to tell me everything
you know, and you're going to do it now—without commotion and
without concealment. Do you understand me?"
Sulkily, she nodded.
"Nicky!" Alec admonished.
"Oh—sorry," he said, not sounding it in the least, and
flicked an index finger.
Denise gave a violent start, then sucked in a huge lungful of air as if
she hadn't breathed for days. "It wasn't my fault!" she began,
predictably enough. "Noel killed that kid—put his hands
around his neck and snapped it!"
This wasn't quite the topic Bradshaw had in mind, but it would do for a
start. "I never did think you killed Fleming. You don't have the balls
for it, literally or figuratively. I want to know everything you
know about Noel. Everything. Now."
"He just showed up at The Hyacinths that night —I didn't know
he'd be there. I haven't seen him since. I went to his store awhile ago
but he
was gone. That's all I know."
Orlov shifted slightly by the fireplace, but said nothing.
Bradshaw went on, "He functioned as High Priest at Beltane?"
"Yes. I was —I was the Altar."
"Perhaps," Nick said, "he wishes you to play the same role at Samhain."
When Denise flinched, he added, "I knew she was leaving something out."
"Okay, okay, he called me! I hungup on him!"
Elias nodded. "Tell me about the weekend Susannah -was killed."
She looked if she wanted to turn him into something appreciably slimier
than a toad. "My lawyer was in Manhattan, in court for something else.
I met him there to talk about the Suffolk D.A."
"Keep talking," Bradshaw advised. "There's magic to mention, isn't
there?"
"Yes!" Denise wrapped her arms around herself. "I was in the middle of
a spell, changing my appearance a little — " When Orlov
arched his brows, she snarled, "There was a man I wanted, okay?"
This was the second time the partner who didn't Truth-See had behaved
as if he was the partner who did. Elias puzzled at that for a moment.
"So that's why Noel's people didn't recognize her," Alec said.
She aged ten years. "Bon dieu de merde—they were after me?"
"Yes," Bradshaw said flatly. "You didn't see any of them?"
"Would he have killed me? "
"Not likely. He wants you for his ritual, remember."
Alec said, "The snatch was a little early for Samhain, don't you
think?"
Bradshaw dug his hands into his trouser pockets. "Perhaps Noel only
wanted to talk to Denise in person. Persuade her to come willingly at
the end of the month." He regarded her again. "Continue. Tell me what
happened next."
"I went home."
"And?" Orlov prompted.
"All right! I finished the spell that evening—I expected
him—the man — Saturday but he didn't show up until
Sunday.
I heard on the news that night — " She broke off with a
shiver.
"That's all. I'm telling you the truth!"
"I have a question," Nick said. "Does Noel know what Holly is?"
"He — he may have guessed. I'm not sure—'dammit,
don't do that!" she cried, cringing away from him. "I told him there's
a
Spellbinder in New York, but I don't know if he knows it's her."
Elias saw Alec nod fractionally, and knew Denise was telling the truth.
"Well, you're what he wants, for the moment. And he's going to get you."
"What?" she exploded. "Are you out of your fucking mind?"
He drew from one pocket a length of golden cord. Denise turned white. "I
think you'll do as we ask. You're fully aware that 1 know how to use
this." He smiled a tiny, feral smile, and tucked the Measure away.
She could be convinced arcanely, of course, but despite the gathered
expertise of three skilled practitioners, he didn't care to
trust to spells. Denise he trusted not at all, except to look
exclusively to
her own welfare. But sufficiently convinced in what passed for her
brain by a combination of the Measure's threat and irrefutable
logic—if he took care of Noel she'd never have to worry about
him again—she would do what he required, and of her own free
will.
All he need do was point out that their goal was basically the same:
neutralize Noel. She seized on this instantly, which told him just how
frightened she was.
"But I'm not going there alone," she insisted. "Somebody has to protect
me."
Singleton exchanged glances with his partner. Bradshaw shook his head,
saying, "You're both too powerful. He'd feel it in an instant."
"And not you, either," she stated.
"I think 1 know someone who'd do, if he agrees." Rising to his feet, he
glanced out at the rain. "Go home and call Noel. If you can't get him,
leave a message. He'll callback, I guarantee it. Tell him you've
changed your mind and will be there at Samhain. He'll be at The
Hyacinths again, I assume?"
"How should I know?"
"When you find out where the ritual will be held, I'll arrange for you
to send me a message. Don't phone or come over."
"She's not stupid, Elias," Alec murmured. "Be nice."
Nick shot him a speaking look; Denise, incredibly, almost smiled. After
an incredulous second, Elias realized she thought she'd made a
conquest—which evidently was just what Alec wanted her to
think.
And, he grasped an instant later, why the pair stood close together
while Nick pretended to be reading her—even if she felt the
trajectory of the magic, she couldn't pinpoint it. Alec could do his
work without seeming to, and then deploy the charm he also
possessed in abundance.
"Who's going to protect me?" Denise was saying. To Alec. With green
eyes wide and entreaty dripping from her voice like sap from a tree.
Bradshaw smiled sweetly. "You'll just have to trust me, won't you?"
"I think," Nicholas said in baleful tones, "it's time we took her home."
As Alec escorted her through the front door, Elias arched a questioning
brow at the Hungarian and murmured, "Nice act the two of you have. Any
specific reason for it that I should know about?"
"He likes to confuse — not difficult with that one," Nick
grunted. "Delightful girl. Do you have in mind the person I think you
have in mind for her protection?"
"I can't think of anyone better, can you?"
Twenty- Five
EVAN LEANED BACK IN HIS chair and blew out a long, long sigh. Even with
all access restored and updated, Noel remained a mystery. Lachlan
couldn't even get a last name for him that stuck longer than three
forged pieces of identification.
"No parents, no birthplace, no childhood, no schooling, no employment
history, no arrest records, no goddamned motherfucking anything!"
Holly looked up from her laptop, squinting at him across the partners'
desk. "If you can't find him, then he isn't going to be found."
"I appreciate your faith, lady love," he replied with a crooked grin,
"but I'm not that good. Most criminals are fairly stupid, -when you get
right down to it. They always make a mistake—let something
slip, return to an old haunt, forget to get rid of apiece of paper
that'll
nail 'em."
"But Noel's not just a criminal, is he? I mean, the real sociopaths
never seem that way to anybody else. You're always hearing in
interviews about what a nice, quiet, polite guy the local serial killer
was, before he started killing serially."
"Maybe I'm goin' at this wrong," he mused. "Nick gave me what he got
when Noel bought the shop, but none of it checks out back more than
five years." He shut down the computer and got to his feet, stretching.
"What're you workin' on?"
"My last will and testament."
He scowled at her. "Not funny."
"I'm just e-mailing Aunt Lulah to see if anything's come up—I
asked her to check with people she knows. Nothing will come of it, but
I had to do something."
They were waiting for Alec and Nick to return from Bradshaw's little
tete-a-tete with Denise, to which they had firmly not been invited.
Just as well. All Evan lacked at this point was another encounter with
that blonde bitch.
"This is making me crazy," Holly fretted. "I'm tired of sitting around
waiting for something to happen. We've been working on all this for
— " She peered at her desk calendar.
"—two solid weeks and we're no closer to finding out who or
where Noel is. We can't even find him!"
He heard what she hadn't said. "But you think you know what he's up to."
She sipped iced coffee and wouldn't meet his eyes. "Let's say for a
minute that we believe in what he believes in, and especially in what
he can do. Apparently he drew power from that boy's death.
He's got a store full of esoteric books about deities
willing—or
unwilling—to supply power. Elias said that Lydia's collection
of
symbols ties in to some of the nastiest entities anybody ever regretted
hearing of."
Lachlan snorted. "He wants to become God? What for?"
"I've never understood the impulse, either," she agreed. "Power to make
the world the way you want it—" She shook her head. "All the
creator-gods gave humans free will. Take away that, and you're left
with the mindless devotion of inferiors and everything going along just
the way it was planned—which would get pretty boring pretty
quick, even for a god."
"Maybe he wants to destroy everything and start over." He made a show
of squinting at the windows. "Look like rain to you?"
"Been there, done that, Noah-honey," she grinned. "Next time's supposed
to be fire, isn't it? Trying to predict when God will get cheesed off
enough to end the world has occupied clerics of all persuasions for
thousands of years."
"Makes 'em nervous. End the world, they're out of a job. But I don't
think that applies to Noel. Maybe killing Scott Fleming was his first
taste of power over life and death, and he wants more."
"I don't understand that kind of warp, either," she admitted. "But we
have to think in terms of Samhain. It's the night when the border
between worlds blurs. That could mean that on any other night he
wouldn't have the chops to call up whatever it is he wants to call up."
"Even with your blood."
"Yeah, well, there's that." She chewed a thumbnail, then said, "Nobody
ever did tell me about the night Scott Fleming died. Or why Denise got
blamed for it. Or why she didn't trade Noel for immunity or whatever."
Evan shrugged, determinedly not remembering the scant moments on
Beltane when it had been Denise Josephe's face he saw, not Holly's.
"Bradshaw thinks the place was sanitized magically. It's the only 'way
there'd be no evidence—and I mean none. No fingerprints, no
trace for DNA, not even the family's prints or DNA— "
"Which you'd expect to find."
"Which you'd expect to find," he agreed. "Fleming's body on the floor
was it.
End of evidence. The only thing the cops did get was a pile of sworn
statements from thirty-two witnesses that the owners were absolutely
elsewhere."
"Let me guess—everybody was everybody else's alibi."
"It stank to the Suffolk County detectives, too, but they couldn't
shake anybody loose. The only print they found was Denises, on
one of the kid's ear-cuff charms. Was Noel was good enough to wipe out
everything else but not that? Not fuckin' likely. She got set up."
"Couldn't happen to a better person," Holly growled.
"Granted. As for why—maybe he wanted leverage with her. Maybe
he got pissed at her for some reason and left her print so there'd be
somebody to blame for the murder. As long as it wasn't him, what did he
care? It was a couple of days before the daughter discovered the
body—or so they claimed. She went into hysterics, her folks
had her committed for the summer, and then they put the house on the
market
and moved to Florida."
"Keeping her out of the way during the investigation, and tagging her
as delusional so even if she accused Noel, nobody'd believe her."
"You have a twisted, diabolical mind, you know that?" He grinned.
"It's why you adore me." She gave a start as the doorbell chimed. "They
took long enough!" She ran to let Alec and Nick in.
Coffee was poured as Nick reset the alarms—both electronic
and magical — and soon they were in the living room. Alec
gave
them the essence of Denise's story, then fixed Evan with an inquisitive
gaze. "How'd you like to make yourself useful?"
"What did you have in mind?"
Alec told him, finishing with, "You'll have every protection we can
give you without making it too obvious."
"I thought Bradshaw wanted me to guard Holly, not that slut."
Nick arched a brow. "You know her?"
"Seen her once or twice at book parties," Lachlan said with a shrug.
And because no one would ever suspect him of being less than
truthful where such serious business was concerned, they were
unaware that he wasn't exactly lying.
"You're not leaving this building, Evan," Holly told him.
"Darling girl," Alec said, "it's not as if he'll be walking into the
middle of a Working. He just has to pretend he's a Satanist so he can
find and arrest Noel."
"With Denise as a complaining witness," Nick added, "Evan can read him
his rights over the murder of Scott Fleming. It's thin, but it'll be
enough to keep him locked up until after Samhain."
"Forty-eight hours to arraign or release," Evan agreed. "So Denise
leads me to this guy, I flash my badge, cuff him, haul him off to jail,
and that's it." Slanting a look at Holly, he had the nerve to
grin. "You've got that look in your eye."
"Which one?" Alec asked, fighting a smile.
"Which look, or which eye?" Evan countered.
Holly's jaw hardened. "Has it occurred to you that a year ago you were,
shall we say, somewhat visible in the media? What if Noel recognizes
you?"
He was just as glad that luring fugitive felons had taught him strict
discipline over his expression, and let somebody else answer her.
Alec obliged. "Good point, but it's my opinion that Noel hasn't even
been in the city this last year. A visit to the store last July
revealed that his assistant manager—a nice young lady who
didn't tell a single lie—had been left in charge while he was
on
vacation. As this holiday coincided with the indictment of
Mademoiselle Josephe, I think it can be assumed he skipped town in
case she ratted on him."
Nick went to the bar and poured a shot of Drambuie into his coffee. "We
also went to his residence the day after we arrived in New York. No
food in the fridge, no clothes in the closets, no computer, and a
landlord who was persuaded to tell us that Noel's mail has been
redirected since last July to General Delivery in some dreary little
town — Moose Drool, Montana, or something equally improbable.
We also left a little something that would stick to him — "
"Think of it as the dye that explodes in a wrapped stack of stolen
cash," Alec suggested. " — but we haven't been able to track
him down," Nick
finished. "He must have sensed and negated it."
"Speaking of cash," Evan said, "the owners of The Hyacinths withdrew
fifty grand two days after Beltane. That reeks payoff to me. He takes
the cash, holes up in Buffalo Chip, Wyoming, or wherever for a year
— he couldn't have seen any of the media. So I'm okay." He
grinned. "Who should I be — Dillon, Wyatt, or McCloud?"
Baffled, Nick looked at his partner for enlightenment. Alec began to
laugh. "The man has no shame at all."
"And no sense, either," Holly snapped. "You're not doing this, Evan."
"Nicholas," Alec said decisively, "come with me to the kitchen. We need
more coffee."
"I'm fine, still have half a—" His eyes widened. "Ah . .
.yes. You're right, I do need more coffee."
****
AS THEY REMOVED THEMSELVES TACTFULLY to the kitchen, Alec
muttered,
"We'd still hear her yelling even if we went all the way back to
Connecticut."
"I don't think there'll be much yelling, actually," his partner mused.
"That's not so good. When she doesn't rant, she's really mad. How d'you
think she'll start? 'Don't you even consider it' or 'What, you think
you're immortal?'"
"I'm betting on 'Why does it have to be you?'"
Alec hitched a hip onto a stool at the breakfast bar, nodding. "At
which point he'll say he graduated two academies, swore oaths to
protect and serve, it's his job, he won't risk her or anybody else, and
what kind of man could he call himself if he refused?"
Nick glanced around from the coffee grinder. "Jerusalem Lost was a
novel! Life imitating art imitating life? Do me a favor! She's no
Medieval damsel embroidering tapestries while her White Knight
fights the Crusades."
"How many Medieval damsels really just sat around embroidering
tapestries? With the men gone, there were castles and farms to
run, justice to be meted out, serfs to be flogged—"
"Spare me the history lesson," Nick snapped. "Holly has to be
protected. She's too important."
"I agree. And now the one man to whom she is vitally
important—in the only ways she really wants to be
important—is going to do
this crazy thing."
"At our behest."
"At Bradshaw's behest. You'd have objected if you didn't agree -with
him. Holly will have to wait until it plays out, just as Elisabeth did
with Guillaume."
"With happier results, I trust." He measured fresh grounds into the
coffee maker, frowning. "Oh, very well. You and I will take up guard
duty while poor Evan gets in touch with his inner Lucifer so he can
play his part. Which all could have been avoided, if—"
"Don't say it, Nick."
"Say what?"
"That this is your fault to begin with because you sold the store to
Noel. He would've found her anyway. That's the way life works."
"Is it?"
Hearing the bitterness in the softly accented voice, Alec murmured,
"Yes. That's the way life works. That's why they call it 'life' instead
of 'art.' Life is messy and complicated, with outrageous coincidences
that would get Holly laughed out of an editor's office if she put them
into a book. What are the odds, for instance, that a Mayflower
descendant and a Hungarian Rom would stumble across each
other?"
"You're forgetting the magic of it, Alyosha." Nick smiled. "Which of
course was precisely your point, yes?"
****
NOBODY HAD HEARD FROM DENISE by the next afternoon. Holly
pretended not to notice. Alec and Nick spent the day renewing old wards
and setting
up new ones; Evan observed for a while, then took out his frustrations
in the basement gym.
Mr. Hunnicutt, carrying a large padded envelope, arrived at Holly's
door at the same time Evan returned. Thanking the former, she wrinkled
her nose
at the latter.
"Bathtub, stinky."
"What's that?"
"Stuff."
He growled and strode off to her bedroom. She ripped open the package,
poking a finger in to rummage the contents, and inhaled deeply of the
scents within. She hoped Kate had provided everything requested by
phone this morning —
"What's that?"
Evan's words, Nicky's voice. She turned too quickly, saw him coming
down the stairs, dropped the box, and swore.
"One did hope," Nick said as he helped gather up all the little silk
bags strewn across the floor, "that you might outgrow tripping over
your own feet, b`ena."
"Stop calling me clumsy. You startled me."
He untied one of the pouches. "Sea salt? Holly Elizabeth, what do you
have planned?" Then he sat back on his heels and gave her his most
adorable smile. "You're going to Work some magic!"
Cramming the envelope full, she went into the living room knowing he
would follow. "You told Evan you're protecting him. Well, I don't see
any signs of it yet, so I'm going to make myself useful. Don't go away.
I'll be right back."
At the door of her bathroom, she paused for a steadying breath. Evan
always took off his St. Michael medal for a shower or badi, in
case the chain broke. It would be simplicity itself to purloin it from
the countertop. As she opened the door, he surfaced from a dunking to
rinse his hair and burst into song, a gruesomely off-key rendition of
"New Kid in Town." Holly winced.
"Enough!"
He glanced around, hair dripping. "Oh, c'mon —I hit most of
the notes."
"Not the ones the Eagles had in mind."
"Bradshaw call yet about Denise?"
"Nope. Tell me, love of my life," she went on, casually leaning against
the sink counter, one finger just barely touching the medal's silver
chain, "how can you possibly not sound as bad to yourself as you do to
everyone in a five-mile radius?"
"Bitch, bitch, bitch. Why don't you join me? I'm gonna be in here a
while — I think I pulled something," he added in aggrieved
tones, stretching a shoulder.
"You didn't happen to see my cell phone anywhere in the bedroom, did
you?"
"No, I haven't seen it—or anything else in that mess."
"Bitch, bitch, bitch." She escaped, the medal clasped in her hand.
Back in the living room, she found Nick lounging in a chair by the
hearth, the contents of Kate's package on the worn carpet at his feet.
Holly sank down near him, ignoring his analytical gaze as she sorted
supplies. At last
she could stand it no longer and looked up at him.
"Are you going to help me or not? '
"That's contingent on one or two things. A commitment, for starters. An
acknowledgement of the gift you've been given, and your
responsibility to use it prudently. Perhaps even wisely."
"I've never refused a bloodletting," she retorted bluntly.
"And you've never really participated in a Circle, either, have you?"
"Are you going to help or not?" she repeated.
"Oh, I'll help. But the Work has to be yours."
"What Work?" Alec asked, entering with an armful of logs from the
service porch bin.
"Protecting Evan,' Holly snapped. "Nicky, please!"
He leaned back, folding his arms, "Evan is your responsibility. Which
of course is exactly the way he feels about you. Is he trusting anyone
else to do what he knows he can do better than any one of us?"
"I need you to help me!"
Alec, crouching by the hearth to lay a fire for that evening, glanced
over his shoulder. "No, you don't. You just think you do. But you
don't. '
"Feri ando payi
Sitsholpe te nayuas." Nick laughed
gently. "'It was in the water that one learned to swim.' Put another
way—Bi
kashtesko merel i yag. Without wood, the fire would die.' "
"Stop mixing your obscure Romany metaphors," Alec chided, "and tell her
what you really think."
"Are you going to help or not?" she snarled for the third time.
"You don't need us, cailleach,"
Alec soothed.
"Since when do you speak Gaelic?" Holly muttered.
"I know the word for 'witch' in sixteen languages."
"And I know it in twenty-nine," Nick said. "We'll call a Circle, how
about that? The rest of it is up to you."
It was as much as she was going to get, and she knew it. Pushing
herself to her feel, she said, "All right, a Circle. Facing South."
"Fire and Michael," Alec interpreted, nodding.
"And Brighid," Holly added. "The real, original, accept-no-substitutes
Irish cailleach.
You'll find candles and things over in that cabinet."
****
FRANKINCENSE, BLACK POWDERED IRON, SEA salt and oak moss.
Sandal-wood oil on a large white candle. Think clearly about what you
need. Set a goal. Avoid distractions. Use meaningful symbols. Oh, she
knew the hows of spellcasting; she just didn't trust much to her own
ability to Work one and make it stick.
This time, she would have to be sure.
Her uncles cast a Circle, waiting for her to enter it before closing
it. She sat facing South, the St. Michael medal in her palm, and lit
the white candle with only a thought this time, eliminating the gesture
that was a holdover from needing to be visually reassured.
With mortar and pestle she ground all the dry ingredients together.
Then, on abit of parchment, using red Dragon's Blood ink that smelled
of white wine and cinnamon, she wrote Evan's full name, once in
English, once in Gaelic. Rolled and tied with a black thread, she set
the parchment aside.
She wrote his name again along the white candle with the tips of four
different obsidian arrowheads, using each to inscribe a pentagram
on the candle as well. These she placed at the base of the candle,
aimed at the cardinal points of the compass.
Alec and Nick, who had taken guardian positions in the West and North,
watched without expression or comment. She was grateful for that; she
had enough trouble concentrating, keeping everything in proper
sequence, remembering to keep a corner of her mind chanting
Evan's name in two languages.
Because she felt nothing.
Urgency, yes; fear; anger, but not magic. Not the steady flow of
arcane strength and calm power and even delight so often seen in other
practitioners of the art. Her Work here was no humble petition for
bright protective wings to fold around her beloved; she would beg,
demand, storm heaven and earth alike to keep this man safe.
Why? Because she loved him? Inadequate reason. Worse, presumptuous. Who
was she to command the safety of one man merely out of love?
She wanted him safe because it was right that he should live, grow old,
father children, teach them to love what was beautiful and
know what was right and to be like him, to have his honor and courage,
his
humor and strength. E`imbin, her Evan —he deserved the notice
of the All-Mighty because he was a good man.
All at once the fire laid in the hearth caught, and blazed. Holly
stared at it, into it, and felt herself slowly rocking, back and forth,
back and forth, to the rhythm of her chanting of his name, of her own
heartbeats. Of her own blood. This wasn't what it meant to be a Witch.
This was what it meant to be human. To connect; to listen, and know
that even if you didn't consciously hear, something inside
heard anyway, and understood. What she had felt in Kenya stirred within
her,
elusive but real. Scents of cinnamon and sandalwood, of wine and
burning pine logs, of the woolen rug on which he and she had made love
— the heat and brilliant light of the flames, the silver
oval clasped in her palm, the sound of her lover's name in her ears and
its
taste on her lips —Magic.
With each whetted arrowhead she pricked her left ring-finger, smearing
blood down each fire-sheened black length before replacing them at the
compass points. Squeezing up more blood, she ran her finger
across the letters of the name carved into the candle. She pressed her
fingerprint to the parchment and to the silver image of St. Michael
holding a sword. Finally she placed the parchment into the bottle,
sifted in the herbs and iron powder, and corked it. The candle she
lifted from its flat glass holder, tilting it so the wax dripped to
seal the cork as she turned the bottle widdershins. All the while she
rocked gently, whispering.
E`imbin Liam Lochlainn
This work I do for thee
alone
Flesh or blood, breath or bone,
No hurt shall come to thee, my own,
From secret foes or enemies known.
This geas bound by power of Three
As I will it, so mote it be.
E`imbin Lium Lochlainn
This thing I swear to thee alone
Flesh and blood, breath and bone,
No hurt shall come to thee, my own,
From secret foes or enemies known.
This geas bound by power of Three
As I will it, so mote it be.
E`imbin Liam Lochlainn
This spell for thee, and thee alone
Seated by blood, writ in bone,
No hurt shall come to thee, my own,
From secret foes or enemies known.
This geas bound by power of Three
As I will it, so mote it be.
****
AT ONE IN THE AFTERNOON of the thirty-first of October,
Denise Josephe was picked up by taxi for the drive to The Hyacinths.
That this taxi
was driven by a tall young black man Denise vaguely recognized did not
help her mood.
"I know you. Where have I seen you before?"
"Sweetness, I'm so tickled that you remember." He grinned and bowed her
into the cab with an exaggerated flourish. With the sound of his voice,
she did remember—and cursed under her breath. He was the one
who, with Holly, had taken her Measure.
"Lovely weather we're having," said another voice, smooth and cold,
from within the cab.
Denise flinched back from Evan Lachlan. "You're my protection? You?"
"Me," he replied, his eyes taunting her to challenge him.
Rebellion was the last thing on her mind. True, he had no
magic—but if anything was guaranteed to bring Holly
McClure to the ritual, her lover's presence was it. Once she was there,
Noel
would have what he wanted and Denise would require no
protection—and could get away from Noel once and for all.
Leaning back with an air of exaggerated ease, she remarked, "When
Bradshaw said to tell Noel I'd be bringing along a good-looking stud,
I had no idea it would be you."
The driver opened the sliding window between the seats and said, "We
have a little planning to do, so listen up."
Arrive, identify Lachlan as a friend and fellow celebrant, listen to
Noel's plan for the Samhain rite, agree to whatever he said, and get
out—yadda yadda, who the hell cared? She could smell
Lachlan's
body, remembered vividly from the Sunday afternoon she'd laid him.
Had he told Holly? For a delightful minute she fantasized the scene: his
protestation that he'd been tricked by a shape-changing spell, her
mortification that Denise was her superior in magic and in bed as
well as in prose. The vision faded as she remembered the day she
decided to pursue Lachlan, after literally bumping into him at the
bookstore.
"Does Noel know who you are?"
"Why should he?" His voice was silk, his eyes stone.
She wanted to smack him. This was her life he was playing with here.
If Noel recognized him, and knew him for a cop —But if Noel
remembered him at all, it would be as a customer. That would lend
credence to her claim that he wanted to join the Samhain ritual. Denise
relaxed a little. If she played it right, she just might come out of
this ahead after all.
****
GO IN, GET THE DETAILS, get out. That was all Denise knew
about this afternoon's little outing. As for Holly — as far
as she knew, Evan would immediately arrest Noel and that would be the
end
of it.
Lachlan, however, had a different agenda: evidence. Something
was going to link Noel to Susannah's murder. She'd done her best with
the handful of dirt, but her geological gamble hadn't paid off.
Courtworthy
evidence was needed; even if Noel turned out to be a talkative egotist
who wanted his genius admired, Lachlan wanted to nail him with
physical proof. Just what that might turn out to be, he had
no idea. He was open to inspiration.
Someone had been caring for The Hyacinths during its long months of
desertion. The lawns and hedges were tidy, the gravel drive
free of weeds, and the beds where, presumably, the namesake flowers
grew in their season were neatly kept. For the rest—size and
sumptuousness didn't impress him much.
Neither did Noel, who appeared at the front door and sauntered out to
meet the taxi. Lachlan remembered him from the bookstore, and hoped
brazenly that Noel didn't remember him. Tall, lanky, with cold
silvery-blue eyes and lots of hair raked back from his face, there were
faint grooves cut into his forehead now and framing his mouth, as if
the last eighteen months had been a strain. Lachlan supposed that
hiding out in Elk Fart, Idaho, hadn't been a picnic.
Evan made a show of paying the driver, who arched a questioning brow at
him; when he shrugged by way of reply, Ian grimaced and nodded.
"Thanks, buddy. Have fun," he murmured, and drove off—but
only to the main road, where he would wait out of sight.
"Denise! Good of you to come," Noel was saying. "And this is your
friend?"
"Dillon," Lachlan supplied, shaking the long, thin hand extended to him
and suddenly wishing he'd worn gloves. Not that he was chilly; a black
cashmere sweater and leather jacket were keeping him warm. He just
didn't like
the way touching Noel's skin made him feel. "When we gonna rock 'n'
roll?"
"Ah, the enthusiastic type," Noel grinned. "After nightfall. Come in,
let's get started." As they entered the foyer, he added, "I'll show you
the venue—you've seen it before, Denise, but I've made a few
alterations. Dillon, if you have any suggestions I'd be pleased to hear
them."
"I'm kinda new at this," he admitted, looking around the foyer. All the
furniture had been cleared out; remaining were some unlit wall
sconces and an appalling chandelier dripping a gazillion multi-colored
crystals. "I've done a couple before, just along for the ride. If it's
okay, I'd like to get more involved, y'know? "
"Great! " Noel clapped him on the shoulder, and again Evan had to
hold himself from recoiling at the contact. "I can guarantee you the
time of your life."
He led them down a long hallway where all the doors were closed except
the one leading to the stairs. Lachlan wondered which room Susannah had
been held in. Someplace with a chair to sit on, and a table to write
on, and rats to kick — he swallowed hard and reminded himself
to look as if he was paying attention to Noel.
" — the usual attire, nothing fancy. We'll meet in the hall
as we did on Beltane, then relocate belowstairs." He opened a heavy
wooden
door and lit their way down with a fat black candle. "I replaced the
couch with one of the stone benches from the back garden —
we'll need the organic power of the granite."
"Sounds cold, hard, and miserable," Denise remarked testily.
"I admit it's not cozy, but I'll make sure it's comfortable."
"You'd better," Lachlan put in, as if solicitous for the lady's
well-being.
They entered the cellar. Lachlan couldn't keep an exclamation from
leaving his lips; the place was huge, icy-cold, and as bare as the rest
of the house but for the promised stone bench, a slab of black rock he
assumed to be the altar, and candles. Hundreds of them, ink-black,
standing virgin and unlit on every available surface. In
window recesses, crowded onto shelves cut into the rock, on steps up to
an
outer door, in a semi-circle around the stone bench, at each
corner of the altar—tall tapers, thick columns,
votives, pyramids, spheres, squares, and pillars of black wax clustered
everywhere.
"Holy shit," Lachlan muttered. "You wanna burn the whole place down?"
"The fire department would be outraged," Noel agreed. "Why don't you
try out the bench, both of you? You can tell me how many cushions we'll
need."
"Silk, stuffed with feathers," Denise put in. "If you're determined to
go organic."
Lachlan stepped over the half-circle of candles around the bench and
paused to turn slowly around. Vaulted ceiling, stone pillars to hold it
up,
arches on the far wall where wine racks must once have stood, and a
small rickety table with some black glass bowls on it. He could picture
Susannah seated there. Writing that strange coded note; hoping Holly
would get hold of it and recognize it for what it was; scraping her
knee against the table leg when she kicked at scurrying rats —
If the wood matched the splinters in the knee of her slacks, and if a
bit of her skin or blood lingered, Evan could prove she had been held
here. For all the good it would do, he told himself morosely. Bradshaw
had hypothesized a magical scrubbing after Beltane, and the
same had probably happened after Noel murdered Susannah. No wonder
there
were Magistrates to deal with miscreants within the community;
ordinary law enforcement didn't stand a chance.
Denise pushed past, gathering her burgundy velvet cloak around her, and
sat on the bench. "It is cold," she complained.
"Dillon? What's your opinion?"
Lachlan seated himself beside her. "It needs more than a few pillows."
"Yes," Denise seconded, "where s the couch we had at Beltane?"
Noel bent to touch a lighted match to one of the candles on the floor,
straightened, and looked at them unsmiling, his eyes as flat and cold
as a frozen window into an empty room. With a single sweeping gesture
he lit all the candles around the bench.
"What the — ?" Lachlan tried to stand. He couldn't. His
muscles pushed and strained against something that wasn't there. He
felt
neither weak nor drained; his ass was simply stuck to the bench as
securely as if he'd been glued to it. Neither would his hands
lift from where they rested on his thighs, nor his arms move from his
sides,
nor even his toes wriggle in his boots. He could feel the Glock nestled
at his ribs. Useless.
Denise blurted with surprise, struggling just as ineffectually beside
him. "What is this? What have you done?"
"What do you think?" Noel enquired, as if sincerely curious. "While you
contemplate your duties as the altar, Denise, you can also think up a
really good explanation for why you brought a United States Marshal
with you." He stayed beyond the barrier of candles, regarding his
guests -with scorn. "Did you think I didn't know? Did you think I
wouldn't remember? I catalogue every single person -who comes
through my shop door! Waiting for the right people, searching them for
power—you have none," he directed at Lachlan, "but you reek
of those who do. When she came in —" There was no doubt he
was not referring to Denise. " — I could smell you on her.
What
is she?"
Lachlan tried shifting his body to one side, leaning into Denise to
push her off the bench. She was as stuck to it as he was, and cried out
as he shoved her again, harder, with no result.
"Stop that, goddammit! Noel, I don't know what you're talking about!"
"Tell me what she is," he said.
"Just let me go, I promise I'll get her and bring her back
here—
"He regarded Lachlan quizzically. "Can she really be this dim-witted?"
Evan discovered he could shrug his shoulders. "It's a gift." "What a
relief to know she didn't have to pay for it. Come on, Denise," he
cajoled. "Tell me."
As she drew breath to speak, Lachlan warned, "Say it, he'll kill you
anyway." "Denise isn't the Sacrifice, Marshal. I need her living,
breathing, and undamaged. Now, for the last time: What is that
woman?" Denise spat the word. "Spellbinder!"
Noel looked started, then laughed. "Of course! Absolutely perfect. At
Beltane you mentioned there was one in New York, but I never dreamed
she'd walk into my bookshop! I've still got her credit card number in
my computer— her address won't be any trouble." Cocking a
brow at Lachlan: "You think you're the only one with resources?"
"I think you're going to be in a world of hurt if we don't show up when
and where we're supposed to."
" 'We'? How gallant of you, Marshal. 'We' all know you don't give a
rat's ass about this bitch." He frowned, slitting silvery eyes to
scrutinize Lachlan's face, as if trying to see inside his brain. "You
smell of her. She gave you something. Very recently. What is it?
Something of magic —" He moved forward, then caught himself
just before he reached the boundary of candles. "I suppose it doesn't
matter. When this begins, nothing will protect you."
****
"IF HE'S NOT BACK BY FIVE—"
Alec didn't bother to glance up from the book he was reading. "Dear
heart, do sit down. Or, if you must do your decapitated chicken act,
get out a vacuum and do something useful."
Holly plopped herself down on the sofa. "What're you reading?"
"Seabiscuit." He turned a page. "Hush up — I've just gotten
to the 1938 Santa Anita Handicap."
"It's not as if you haven't read it twice already—"
"Three times. It's one of the few books—besides yours, of
course —that I enjoy rereading."
Holly walked to the window, flicked a finger at one of the witch
spheres, and walked back to the hearth again. "You realize I could have
you arrested for false imprisonment. In my own home, no less."
"Protective custody." He turned a page.
"I'm going stir-crazy.'
"No, you're not. You're just scared."
"You're goddamned right I am."
"Good. I worry about people who aren't scared when they ought to be."
"Oh, that's helpful!"
He set the book aside and mimicked her posture of folded arms and
baleful stare. "He'll be fine. He's not stupid."
"Denise is." She marched over to the bar for a club soda. She wanted a
cigarette so badly she was ready to claw the plaster off the
-walls. "Drink?"
"Glenfiddich, please."
She poured and brought it to him. "Where's Nicky? '
"Taking a nap. We're not as young as we used to be, you
know—and watching you fret yourself into a nervous breakdown
is rather
exhausting."
"What are we going to do about Noel?"
"Oh, I'm sure we'll figure out something," he said airily. "Ever been
to the Gold Coast, where the rich folks live? "
"No."
"You really don't get out much, do you? You shop, you do the
restaurants and theaters, museums and parks—but you don't
participate in the city's real Life. The day-to-day New York."
"I'm a country girl. Big cities make me nervous."
"Bullshit. You've lived in them before."
"Maybe I simply agree with Dickens: 'All that is loathsome, drooping
and decayed is here.'"
"Bullshit squared. He only visited. Why don't you read Walt Whitman
sometime? He actually lived here."
"And not in an ivory tower like me, is that what you mean?"
"Well, there's a whole world going on in New York that you stay fairly
insulated from. I'm not saying it's wrong. I was just wondering."
Capitulating, she said, "I don't understand this city. I've never
figured out how so many people can live in such a small space and
pretend that it works."
"And L.A. does -work?" he asked wryly.
"They're all spread out, so they can fool themselves better. There's a
natural insulation of space. Plus everybody lives in a car, which is a
galvanized steel metaphor. But here, there's so much of everything. So
many lives, all separate — you say I'm not connected to New
York,
but is anybody here really connected to anybody else? Outside of family
and friends, I mean. There's contact—hell, walking down the
street is a contact sport—but is there connection?"
"I think the intertwining is not often acknowledged. New York is the
greatest city in the world—which means it's the most
excessive city in the world. Wealth, poverty, art, ugliness,
generosity,
violence—all outsized. But it weaves together."
"I think the word you want is 'tangles,'" she retorted. "And no
tapestries, please—the image is uninspired. Okay, I can see
that after 9/11, yeah, connections were made. Martin told me that
he and Ian realized it was the first time in their lives they didn't
feel
hyphenated. Not African-Americans, but Americans. The United States
finally became their country — and they descend from slaves
who goddamned built half the United States!"
"We were all shocked into seeing each other. It's a disgrace that it
took 9/11 to do it, because we've all been here living with each other
all along."
"Not 'with,' Alec. 'Among.' The connections were made out of hideous
necessity. Some still exist, I'm sure. But — "
"Life can never be the same. I know it every time I see that great
gaping hole in the sky. I would argue that because we're never more
human than when death is breathing down our necks, 9/11 opened our eyes
— "
"—to each other's fear?" she interrupted. "That isn't how it
should be! It's unpardonably sappy of me, but why can't we see each
other for reasons that celebrate our common humanity instead
of— "
"Let me ask you this. To how many people can you be truly visible?"
"Rephrase that. I don't understand."
"Is there a limit to the number of people you can know? Really know, I
mean, not just nod to at the bank or the market. How many people allow
you to see them — and how many do you allow? yourself to be
seen by?"
"Very, very few," she mused. "I could do a whole lecture about
socialization within the family, tribe, and clan, and keeping
relationships structured — "
"And then I'd have to yell 'The point! The point!' and you'd get pissed
off."
They exchanged brief grins. "The point," Holly resumed, "is that
evolution didn't wire us for an infinite number of connections. In a
city like this we guard our personal space, and that means seeing only
a finite number of people. But when we do look at each other, we should
see the possibilitiy."
"We have to be willing to be seen, you know."
"Yeah." Holly settled on the couch and dug her hands into her trouser
pockets. "I had dinner once with a group that included a rather
well-known mistress. No, I'm not going to tell you her name or -whose
mistress she used to be. She was the wariest person I've ever met.
People had been wanting things from her all her life. Her body, her
influence, gossip about the rich and famous. People were always
trying to slice off bits of her. Anyway, there's this weird dynamic
that goes on between a woman who's made it on her brains and a woman
who's made it on her back. Each secretly envies what the other has,
each is not-so-secretly contemptuous of what the other lacks.
I hadn't expected that in myself. But I expected nothing from
her except some conversation. It wasn't until dessert that we finally
hit
on a topic we were both interested in. We became visible to each other,
to use your term. Then she suddenly realized it, and I could
practically hear the portcullis slam down. I haven't thought about her
in
years—but what you just said reminded me, Alec. She didn't
want to be visible.
And who could blame her?"
"Life does that to some people," he agreed. "I imagine it has to do
with figuring out how visible you want to be. After all, life
can be controlled by not making connections."
"So we circle back around to me," Holly observed. "This was your and
Nicky's ivory tower—an equally uninspired image—-
before it was mine."
"Yes, and he holed up in it the same way you do, when he had the
chance."
"Until you. But that was Mr. Scot's doing, or so I've been told."
"And no coincidence. Like the one about the writer whose college friend
works for a judge who used to be with my father s firm, and whose
official protection is a big hunk of an Irishman—"
He laughed. "I see you take my point. Fate? Destiny? Maybe even magic?"
"You've become insufferable in your old age."
"And you, sweetheart, have become more real than you ever were before.
Visible. Especially to Evan." He sipped his Scotch. "I've been meaning
to tell you, by the by, how relieved Nick and I are that he likes us.
He's remarkably without prejudice."
Holly giggled slightly. "You mean for a Catholic heterosexual male law
enforcement officer? Except that lesbians confuse him. I think
he just can't wrap his mind around the idea that a woman could prefer
another woman to a man — meaning, of course, him!"
"He's that good, is he?"
"Uncle Alec!"
Eyes twinkling, he asked, "So what do you think we ought to do about
Noel?" He waited for an answer, then added, "Has anyone ever told you
that you do a first-rate imitation of an astonished goldfish?"
"Why the hell did we sit here blithering when we should've
been—"
She fixed him with her fiercest stare; he only smiled. "Have you been
managing me?"
"My love, you are outrageously left-brained and never met a problem you
didn't tackle with words, words, and more words. All I did was give you
the chance to talk yourself out of a potential panic while we wait."
She hunched down and said nothing for a full five minutes. Alec
returned to the 1938 Santa Anita Handicap. His nonchalance infuriated
her, all the more so for its being calculated to produce just that
effect. Visible? To him she was an open book—hell, she was a
whole encyclopedia. Holly Elizabeth McClure A-Z.
"You're sulking," he observed at last.
"Does such acuity come naturally, or did you take lessons?"
"You're an uppity piece of-work." He turned another page.
"Celebrated in song and story," she shot back.
The front door chimed. Every nerve in her body cringed. But that was
insane, her instincts were playing her false, it was Evan finally
home — Nicky entered the living room, wordlessly handing her
a note.
I HAVE
LACHLAN. I WOULD RATHER HAVE YOU.
Twenty- Three
IF DENISE HAD BEEN A moron to come here, Lachlan figured he had
been doubly moronic to come with her. In Fact, if he was any stupider,
they'd have to water him twice a week. On the other hand, he hadn't
expected to get stuck like a wad of gum to a stone bench.
Noel had left them alone in the gathering twilight. Denise was
currently treating Evan to a moderately impressive prima donna tirade
bordering on hysterics. Her voice ratcheted up a couple of
octaves, her breathing was quick and erratic, and she was really
starting to get on his nerves.
"Knock it off," he said at last. "This isn't helping anything."
"Help? There's nothing anybody can do to help! I'm going to die
here— "
How he wished he could slap her. "Noel won't kill his altar."
"What the fuck do you know about it?" She tried to twist her way off
the bench again, and failed. "If I hadn't left my purse upstairs, there
are some things in my gris-gris bag that might have helped us out of
this."
"So it's voodoo?'
"The term is 'voudon,'" she retorted haughtily. "Holly hasn't taught
you much, has she? There are as many different Traditions and
variations as there are types of magic. I'd explain them, but you could
never understand.'
"We're stuck on a stone slab and there's a madman upstairs who wants
my fiancee's blood for some sick ritual to accomplish God knows
what—make himself a god, for all we know. Can you lose the
attitude, please?"
"You never told her about me, did you?" she asked unexpectedly.
"No, and you're not gonna say anything, either," he warned.
She shrugged—movement above the waist was possible, or they
wouldn't be breathing —and shook back her long blonde hair.
"I got what I wanted. So did you, if you recall." With a sly, sidelong
smile, she added, "She'll come for you, Lachlan. Even if Elias tries to
stop her."
He stared bleakly at the candles. "I know."
****
BY SEVEN THE CIRCLE WAS assembled at Kate's house on Long
Island. Her
menagerie was banished to their various crates and cages, her furniture
was cleared from the living room, and her electricity and telephone
were turned off at their sources. Holly called fire to candles and a
substantial hearth blaze, at which Martin and Ian warmed themselves
after a long drive in the Porsche with the top down. Simon busied
himself drawing the drapes. Nicky brought in and unrolled Holly's sisal
rug from her Beltane celebration with Evan. Elias and Alec were in the
dark foyer with Lydia, keeping her away from any shadows.
Kate's touch on her arm turned Holly's head. "You received my package?
"Yes. Thanks. I hope it works."
"It will." She hesitated. "Your poor friend. Dead for a stupid
mistake."
"That's what hurts so much," I lolly murmured. Looking down, she
fingered the diamond bracelet around her wrist. "She didn't have to
die, dammit-'
"Well, nobody else is going to," Kate said briskly, "especially not
your Evan. This Noel person seems oriented toward Satanism. That's
probably the form his ritual will take, and we know how to deal with
that. But from what Elias says about the sigils Lydia saw—"
Kate
shook her head, tendrils of blonde hair coming loose from her ponytail.
"it may get pretty nasty at The Hyacinths."
****
". . . ALWAYS HATED THE COLD, AND Alaska's no tropical
resort. After
the battle at Attu, while one detail was settin' up wooden platforms
for the tents on the beach, Granddad went around to the enemy foxholes.
After makin' sure the dead Japanese really were dead, he took all their
big, thick, fur-lined parkas back down to the beach, and that's how my
grandfather ended up with the only fur-lined tent in the United States
Navy." Lachlan paused. "Okay, your turn."
"I'm tired of this, and I'm tired of you." Denises earlier hysterics
had exhausted her, but he needed to keep her awake and
reasonably
sharp for when Noel came back. Thus they were telling stories.
"C'mon, the deal was that I tell one, then you tell one, and so forth.
You're supposed to be a big-time author- you must
have a
couple more saved up.
Her shoulders shifted. "My bark hurts, my feet are numb, and I don't
feel like telling any goddamned stories."
"Suit yourself." He subsided into silence.
About five minutes later Denise suddenly said, "Once upon a time there
was a woman who was captured by a lunatic who held this big ritual on
Hallowe'en where he killed her and the cop she got captured with. The
End. Are you happy now?"
"No wonder you're on the best-seller lists."
****
EVERYONE WAS SEATED AROUND THE sisal rug in a loose,
informal circle. Elias looked at each of them in turn, summarizing them
in his mind.
Ian, the Spirit Warrior; Martin, the Physical Warrior. They would, he
hoped, take care of an attack. If any came, Simon the Healer and Kate
the Apothecary would tend to injuries. So far, the usual in his Circle.
But tonight Lydia the Sciomancer was there to warn them of coming
evil—if she could. Elias worried about her, as always, about
her
fragility and the inchoate terrors that could come upon her without
warning. He was comforted a bit by the presence of her original
protectors. Alec and Nick. But the two men had other duties tonight
that might distract them from protecting Lydia. Alec, with his truth
sense, was to be Elias s monitor for what was real and what wasn't;
Nick the Coercer would have to focus his strength on containing Noel as
far as possible. As for Holly—he didn't want her here at all.
But
short of knocking her out (magically, of course) and stowing her in a
closet, he was stuck with her.
Kate lit incense in a small iron pot and passed it around the room.
Each person cupped a hand to waft smoke near, inhaling lightly
of
herbs and spices.
When Holly's turn came, she sneezed. "Sorry," she mumbled.
Bradshaw cleared his throat. "This is by tradition the night when the
partition between the worlds is at its weakest and most
vulnerable. Samhain, All Hallows' Eve, whatever they call it in
Mexico—"
"Los Dias de los Muertos," Martin supplied. "But it's the not the dead
we're concerned with here, it's the living."
"I beg to differ," Alec said mildly. "It's spirits—-ghosts,
demons, angels."
Holly rubbed at her nose and said, "I only had one look at his
bookstore, but the titles in it covered every Tradition I've ever heard
of and then some. If tonight parts the veil between other
worlds
and this—"
"He wants the powers of a god" Ian stared.
Lydia corrected him. "Gods of death and destruction. When I saw those
sigils, I had an overwhelming impression of that quality of darkness."
"Charming," Elias rasped. "So we have one objective: prevent him from
calling up any of these Powers."
"And if he does?" Lydia asked.
"Send them back -where they came from."
"Uh-huh," Ian murmured. "One thing, Elias. What if they don't want to
go?"
****
LACHLAN HAD NO IDEA WHAT time it was when Noel came back
down to the cellar. All he knew was that it was pitch black but for the
glowing
circle of candlelight, and he was sick of listening to Denise
breathe.
An oil lantern in Noel's hand cast a spuriously warm golden radiance
into the shadows. The long narrow face wore a smile that hinted at a
slowly building excitement, a tremulous anticipation that would
intensify to a hard throb of exultation. Like he's about to
take
Viagra and then pop an ecstasy, Lachlan thought. The guy really looks
ad if he's about to have the greatest fuck of his life,
"The Spellbinder should be here soon," Noel said. "I remember her now.
Not half the beauty you are, Denise," he added with mocking gallantry,
"but I remember thinking at the time that there was something about her
— as if she'd been around magic but didn't Work very often."
"She doesn't," Denise said bluntly. "She's dead meat."
"Except for her blood," he mused almost fondly. "Pints and pints of it
— "
Lachlan forced his mouth into working order. "Didn't know you were a
vampire, too."
"I'm not. Sordid condition, though I'm told the sex is phenomenal." He
delved into a pocket and produced a thin length of polished wood. "Know
what this is? I've had it with me since I first encountered Sammael,
but I didn't know until tonight how appropriate it would be. It's
carved from the wood of a holly tree." He laughed—restless,
eager, fingering the wand. "I find the congruence of names both madly
appropriate and more than a little funny. As if we truly were made for
each other: Holly and Noel."
"Hilarious," Lachlan remarked. "Look, if it's Denise you want to screw,
why don't you just do it?"
"And you can vouch for her competence, can't you? I gave her the
original shape-shifting spells. I didn't know it was you she wanted,
though."
"Yeah, lucky me. Why don't you just spread her and get it over with?"
"Sex is part of it," he acknowledged. "A really major orgasm gives a
glimpse of eternity. Your sense of self fades, and you're alone within
the Abyss. Sex and Death are intimately related."
This guy is absolutely bug-fucking nuts. "Alone" is the last thing I
feel when I'm with Holly.
"Of course, most people never learn that orgasm becomes truly sublime
when it's part of a ritual designed to touch the Eternal."
"Uh-huh," Evan said, with a glance at Denise. She looked bored.
"It's simple, really," Noel told him. "Death-in-Life. The ego dies in
the oblivion of orgasm, and infinity is revealed—and what is
Infinity but God?"
"The lesson you taught that kid, Scott Fleming," Lachlan said suddenly.
"I believe that a ritual's participants must understand its purposes.
But I must say, Marshal, I didn't expect you to experience the insight
in advance of the fact."
And just that simply, Lachlan knew that it wasn't Denise that Noel was
planning to kill.
****
ELIAS BRADSHAW WAS VERY TEMPTED to feel sorry for himself.
It was proving problematical to hold command of his Circle, and impress
its members with the gravity of the situation, when one of them kept
sneezing.
"Here," Kate said at last, tossing Holly a small silk bag of herbs.
"Sniff this."
Stifling another sneeze, Holly pressed the bag against her nose,
inhaled — and promptly had a coughing fit.
"As I was saying—•"
Holly whooped in two huge breaths, catching everyone's attention, and
failed to produce the anticipated sneeze. She sniffled, looked
apologetic, and pressed the herbs against her nostrils again.
"Go on, Elias," Alec said, his face perfectly solemn. "You were about
to tell us about — "
Colossal sneeze.
"—Sammael.'
"So," Martin asked brightly, while Holly wiped her streaming eyes,
"who's this Sammael when he's at home?"
Bradshaw resisted the impulse to grit his teeth. "The sigil Lydia drew
was the most definite—the others were hesitant, as if they
faded in and out before she could properly sketch them. But Sammael's
is
strong and firm. Some say his name means 'blind to God.' It can also be
read — "
Supplementary sniffling. Nick had pity and ushered Holly out of the
room, presumably to have her blow her nose.
Back in charge of things, Elias continued, "It can be read as 'venom of
God,' for he carries out the Almighty's death sentences by dropping
poison into the condemned's mouth from the point of his sword."
"Longfellow," Ian said suddenly. "'The Golden Legend.' When the rabbi
asks Judas why the dogs howl at night, the answer is: 'In the
Rabbinical book it sayeth/ The dogs howl when, with icy breath,/ Great
Sammael, the Angel of Death,/ Takes through the town his flight.'"
"So Sammael works for God?" Simon asked.
Lydia gave a tiny shrug. "Some say he was sent to take Moses to God
when the Lawgiver's days were ended. But in Qabalistic tradition,
Sammael is chief of the ten Sephiroth. And they are evil. He was the
highest Throne Angel before the Fall, but became a prince of demons."
Elias took over. "He can be a handsome man who loves art and helps
magicians in their rituals, and he can be a twelve-winged serpent
who destroys the solar system. Revelation, Chapter Twelve."
"Angel and demon, good and evil," Kate mused. "He's the dichotomy of
how people feel about death. It can come as a welcome release from
suffering, an end to earthly life that brings union with the Eternal.
Or it can be the destroyer, carrying the poisoned sword."
"Or both," Simon added. "Friend and enemy, simultaneously anticipated
and dreaded. But it seems to me that the question is whether or not
this Sammael does or doesn't work for Jehovah."
"Exactly," said Martin. "If Sammael is the one Noel plans to call on,
how do we treat him? Friend, enemy, or neutral?"
"I don't plan to let it get that far," Elias informed him.
****
"THAT WHICH IS ETERNAL," NOEL said as he busied himself
arranging four big three-legged iron pots, presumably for incense,
"is not truly alive as we understand life—because life ends
in death.
The Eternal exists beyond Time, within Chaos, the Abyss of the
Collective
Unconscious. It's where monsters and angels and demons live. Where God
lives. Master Chaos, and the primordial energies are yours."
"Swell," Lachlan muttered. The guy talked almost as much as Holly when
she was on a tear.
Denise roused slightly. "Do you know what you'll be calling down?"
"Thinking of your Voudon practices?" Noel smiled over his shoulder.
"The summoner possessed by that which has been summoned?"
"Sounds like fun," Lachlan said.
"I hear scorn in your voice, Marshal. You think power is evil." He
turned from a window. "But it's why we both want the Spellbinder. Her
power."
He was careful to keep the muscles of his face still, careful to meet
Noel's gaze calmly. But he was startled to realize that in a way it was
true — though the word Lachlan would have used was strength.
Same thing as power!
"Hers is the rarest and most valuable of all. I wonder, does her blood
smell different to the truly perceptive? Am I the only one who can
sense it?" He shrugged, not really expecting an answer. "But we were
discussing power," he went on, distributing incense into the burners,
and setting each alight without benefit of matches. "In itself, it's
neutral, neither good nor evil. There is no moral nuance. It is simply
Power."
Lachlan arched abrow. "I'm sure you know the old one about corruption."
"Interesting theological point. God has absolute power —is
God absolutely corrupted? You're one of the ignorant masses after all.
You
fear power. And you really shouldn't. All the Linages that come down to
us—all
the totems, if you will, the wolf, the bear, the buffalo, the lion, and
so
on—they're fearsome and fascinating at the same time. We
watch them so avidly—when we're safe from them, when they're
behind
bars in zoos. Do you know why they beguile us? Because our ancestors
knew that their kind of strength was essential to survival.
The more powerful the magical image—the
archetype—the
more vigorous the magical result."
Denise spoke up again, asking acidly, "And you're going to
become—what? Bambi? Thumper? No, wait, I
know—Lassie."
Noel regarded Lachlan for a long moment. "You actually went to bed with
her?"
Evan gave a shrug. "She didn't say much. I guess she was too busy
keeping her face on."
****
"THANKS, UNCLE NICKY," HOLLY SAID, swabbing her nose with a
dampened paper towel. "I'll be okay now."
He leaned against the kitchen sink, looking pensive. "What set you off?"
"I only sneeze like this—oh, shit, here comes another one
— "
Nick retrieved and held out the box of tissues swiped from the hall
bathroom. "Careful, you will rub your nose raw," he said. "You've had
fits like this before?"
"Twice. Denises apartment and Noel's bookstore. It's the patchouli.
Kate was telling me what she used tonight, and it's supposed to be
protective. But try telling that to my sinuses." After blowing her nose
yet again, she wadded tissues and towel to throw in the garbage. "I'm
going to the little girls' room. Go on back—Elias is probably
being eloquent about demons or something."
She headed for the bathroom, bringing a candle with her, went inside,
and stared at herself in the mirror. Her nose was red, and it did
itch. There were dark circles under her eyes, freckles stained her
pallor, and in sum she looked like crap.
After washing her face, she extinguished the candle before opening the
door. Halfway down the hall was the coat closet. Holly kept to the
plain blue runner extending the length of the hall, boot heels silent
on the rug. She had no fear that the closet hinges would squeak; she'd
been careful to listen earlier when putting away her purse and coat.
Both items were in her hands within moments.
The kitchen was still dimly lit by a few plump, fragrant candles. She
tiptoed, barely breathing, and got as far as the back door before a
soft voice said, "You devious little shit."
She spun to find Nicky watching her, candleflames striking gold and
silver from his dark blond hair. "Yeah? And who'd I learn it from?"
"Don't blame us for your stupid impulses."
"Gonna rat me out?" she challenged.
A small, enigmatic smile twitched his mouth. "Ill get my coat."
****
"THE ARCHETYPES WERE SEEM AS evil," Noel explained, "because
those who called on them couldn't control them. Primeval powers, when
let loose,
terrify those who don't understand." From the rickety table he took a
black glass bowl. This he placed carefully on the floor and filled from
a plastic bag of—birdseed?
Lachlan nodded, just exactly as if he wasn't convinced that Noel was
indeed absolutely bug-fucking nuts. "But if you protect yourself, and
if you're careful, the power can be used."
He threw Lachlan a great big smile of approval on his way to getting a
second black bowl. Enough incense had burned by now to produce
a slithering gray cloud that hovered about four feet off the floor; he
paused to cup some smoke in his hand and inhale deeply. "Do you know
how hard it's been ridding myself of millions of years of fear
generated by the superstitions of lesser minds? Minds that could never
understand the power of death, of sex, of anything!"
"Yeah," Denise jeered, "the collective unconscious can be a bitch."
"You ought to know," he shot back, moving into the far darkness. There
was a spitting sound of water from a long-unused spigot as he went on,
"You use it in your book —you prey on your readers! Appealing
to the primal terrors of the cataleptic masses—you confirm
and justify all their fears. You're a parasite, Denise."
There was more in this line, but Lachlan tuned him out and sought a few
minutes of escapist sanity. All the reading he'd done when Holly had
first told him she was a Witch rattled in his head like marbles in a
jar. Traditions, techniques, meanings, methods —none
of it coalesced into a protocol he could deal with. In a way, it was
kind of like all the laws he'd had to study: as an officer in the NYPD,
he'd
had a certain mind-set that changed when he became a United States
Marshal. Legal minutiae, procedures, jurisdictions, rules and
regulations . . .
Didn't it all boil down to Right and Wrong? And here, in this cellar,
with his ass plastered to a stone bench, didn't it all end up as Good
and Evil? In spite of what Noel said about interpreting power as evil
because it was frightening, wasn't there wisdom in that fear? After
all, look at how power was used: death and destruction and suffering.
Evan wasn't fool enough to believe himself infallible on the side of
Right in his job. He had done things that, while not exactly Wrong,
could most charitably be called unscrupulous. Nor was he about to
delude himself that he was Good and Noel was Evil. But the impetus
behind his choice of career—that he trusted himself
to do the work—held true here as well. He believed in his own
knowledge, instincts, ethics, and experience. As he thought this, an
image flirted with the edges of his vision: himself, the Knight in
Tarnished Armor,
striding with a blazing sword and a shield bearing the Lachlan crest
through a field of purple hyacinths.
Uh-oh.
Though he coughed to clear his lungs, the incense was already in his
blood, inside his head.
" — open a vein and bleed all over your spells for you? "
Denise was saying.
Lachlan was distracted from Noel's answer by the sudden and vivid
mental picture of blood dripping from Holly's throat. He shook his head
violently.
"—she is the key to achieving my final goal." Noel's voice
sounded funny, as if gloved fingers were flicking at the strings inside
a piano. "It'll be incredible!"
Thunk, plink, twang. " 'Final goal'?" he asked, his tongue thick in his
mouth.
"Don't you get it?" Denises voice was weird, too—not the
sound of
it, but the little droplets that drifted out of her mouth, like
slow-motion spit. It -wasn't spit. It was poison, and he knew it, and
tried to angle away from her. "All this shit about power and death and
sex is all because he can't get it up."
Noel burst out laughing. "Isn't she priceless?"
In between trying to avoid toxic dewdrops and trying to make sense of
plopping and clunking words, Evan told himself that nobody would go to
this much trouble just for an orgasm. Then he tensed as Noel reached
into a pocket and brought out a folded pen-knife.
"I need a little sample. Marshal," the man said almost apologetically.
Almost. "One mixture of herbs requires a special bonding agent." He
stepped behind the bench, behind the semi-circle of candles, and leaned
close to Evan.
Who couldn't move, even as the familiar surge of adrenaline trembled in
his muscles and cleared his head some. The three-inch blade that
appeared before his nose looked wicked shining sharp. "I
thought—I thought you needed a ceremonial blade," he
managed. His heart raced, providing nicely distended veins in his arm
or neck or wherever Noel planned to stick a spigot.
"Not all of us make our implements obvious." He tucked a finger beneath
the high neck of Lachlan s sweater, drawing it down, stroking skin.
Lachlan braced for sudden piercing pain. Instead there was a dull chime
of metal on stone as the blade clattered from its casing to the floor.
"Oops," Denise said.
Twenty-Eight
"HAVE YOU ANY IDEA WHERE you're going?" Nick asked as they
crept outside toward the BMW. "Failing that, have you a plan?" Stony
silence.
"Ah, well. Familiar enough. I'll drive."
"Familiar?" she echoed as they got into the car.
"Of course. Alec never plans anything either." He started the engine
and pulled quickly out of the driveway, narrowly missing Elias' Lincoln.
Holly stretched out her legs; the passenger's side didn't have a
memory, except of the last time a certain long-limbed marshal
was in the car. "Why didn't you tell on me?"
"Well, I could say it's because they'll come after us the instant they
hear the engine, anyway," he said, giving her a sidelong smile. "But in
truth, it's because this is familiar. I've been in your position, and
I've done the same thing."
Holly nodded slowly. "It's not. . . endurable, you know? I mean, Elias
getting all studded up like Special Ops heading for Tikrit to find
Saddam. I've been playing the what-will-Noel-anticipate game and it's
driving me crazy. Will he expect the Circle, will he expect just me,
will he expect us to expect him to expect whatever—"
"—and you end up thinking 'Oh, the hell with it,'" he
finished
for her. "So you're going to give him what he wants. Your blood."
"Yeah." She mimed pricking a finger and held it up. "Come 'n' get it,
honey. I brought me a large-bore needle."
"Distracting him, while I do something scathingly brilliant to save the
day— not to mention Marshal Lachlan." He sighed quietly. "If
this were one of your novels, I'd say let's go for it. But you can't
script
this, Holly. You can't plot everyone's moves."
"Maybe not," she admitted, "but I can make some good guesses. Denise
will
be looking out for Denise, end of story. The best thing would be to
remove her as quickly as possible so she doesn't screw up anything
else."
"Agreed. Evan, on the other hand, will be looking out for you. So it
would behoove us to get him out, too."
"And by that time Elias and the cavalry will arrive to take care of
Noel. So we really don't have to worry about him at all."
He cast her a sideways glance. "Darling girl, if you believe that
— "
"Yeah," she replied glumly. "I know."
"damn that woman!"
"And that sneaky little Rom," Alec added to Elias's outburst. "Come
on," he added, heading for the hall closet. "Nick and Holly both drive
like maniacs. We'd better hurry."
"I won't rush anyone into this. We have to be ready. If they're
determined to go haring off on their own—"
Shouldering into his overcoat, Alec asked, "Are you telling me you'd
allow that much risk to your Spellbinder? And let's not even mention my
partner."
"One of the hundreds of things you don't yet know about Sammael is that
like all manifestations he's attracted to specific things. He
likes—"
"I thought the idea was to keep him away, not summon him with arcane
associatives."
"—certain woods," Bradshaw continued grimly. "Primarily oak
and holly."
"You're reaching." Alec started for the front door. "It's just her
name, Elias. And I don't care if he's attracted to caramel latte's. You
can catch up when you've talked it into the ground."
"You're not leaving. What you don't know can kill any or all of us."
All the smooth cream charm of the man turning to hydrochloric acid. "I
know Nicholas Orlov and I know Holly McClure. That's enough for me."
****
"HOW FAR IS IT? " HOLLY asked, peering through the
windshield into the night.
"Not very."
"That's helpful."
"Mmm."
"Don't get lost, the way I am did on the way back this evening." I
won't."
"I know he was upset and all—what with Noel coercing him into
leaving with that note—which reminds me, do you think your
Come-Hither will work on Noel?"
"Possibly."
"Nicky, talk to me!"
"Lovely weather for October." When she growled, a tiny smile crooked
one corner of his mouth. "Very well. I'm curious about something. You
never even turned your head to look when we passed the World Trade
Center location tonight."
"What's that got to do with anything? "
"I was just wondering. After all, looking is compulsory. As if we're
all hoping it was all a nightmare, and the Towers are still
standing."
"And the fear and anger and grief come back all over again when we see
that they aren't. I don't like reminders of failure. Especially not
tonight."
A surprised snort escaped him. "'Failure'? In what way?"
"Why can't we ever do anything useful?" she burst out. "Why can't
whichever of us who can look into the future see the important things,
the catastrophic things?"
"Why aren't any of us omniscient? Because then, my dearest, we'd be
gods."
"Now comes the oration about how we're only human, and people not like
us don't understand that, and that's why we hide. Heard it all before,
Nicky."
"While obviously paying no attention whatsoever. Why did none of us
foresee 9/11? The answer might be that we weren't looking.
Maybe we wouldn't have believed it if we saw. Who would have believed?
Or
perhaps the answer is that anything so unspeakably evil—call
it a miasma surrounding it, so that anyone even glimpsing it must
needs look away or be infected by that evil."
"You believe that?"
He was quiet for a time. Then: "I believe in Creation."
"Creation," she echoed, watching his face.
"Yes. We come closest to Deity when we create—whether it's a
work of art, a friendship, a baby, a marriage, a satisfying meal,
laughter,
the smile on the face of a child." He broke off with a shrug. "Don't
most of us venerate, in one form or another, the Creator of All?
Something results from a creative act. Destruction is just the
opposite. An emptiness is left, most obviously on the skyline,
most terribly in people's hearts."
"The Eagles," she said suddenly. "'There's a hole in the world tonight
— '"
"But with what do we fill the void? More hatred? More destruction?" He
shook his head. "That's not what we're here for."
"Why, then?" she cried. "What's the point? So I create something, I
write a book—big fucking deal!"
"That book is read by thousands, maybe millions, the vast majority of
whom will learn something, see something differently, be inspired to go
looking for more information, or simply have a good time during the
hours they spend reading. You add to people's lives. What you create
touches them in some way."
"That's not why I write, Nicky," she protested.
"I know. But it's the result you end up with all the same."
"That still doesn't answer iny question — "
"Why do we never do anything useful?" When she nodded, he gave a quiet
sigh. "We are what we are, Holly. Society labels us Witches for
convenience's sake, just the way it pigeonholes everyone. Gay or
straight, able-bodied or handicapped, religious or atheist, patriot or
traitor—most of the categories are opposites, and that's for
convenience's sake, too. We subscribe to it because we're part of
society. Us, the Witches—and Them, the Normals. But why
should any group hold more responsibility than any other?"
"Responsi—"
"That's what you're getting at, whether you realize it or not. Because
of our magic, do we have a greater responsibility? Should any or us
have foreseen — "
"People with gifts, whatever they are, have an obligation to use them."
"Ah, but who decides how those gifts ought to be used? The state-run
from each according to his abilities' tactic has been tried, and it
didn't work. Millions died in the purges and gulags before it was
finally admitted that it didn't work."
"So we all have to make the choices and decisions for ourselves?"
"Yes. We do. So," he went on, slowing the car and pulling it to the
side of the road, "is any individual's responsibility to humankind
greater than any other individual's? No."
"It's the Good Samaritan story," Holly blurted. "The man categorized by
everyone as outcast was the only one who helped. He recognized his
obligation."
"Thereby saving a lie, which is creation of a sort."
"But he did something more," she insisted. "What he created was a
connection —the old Chinese saying that if you save a life,
you're responsible for it."
"It's better to be responsible for a life saved than lor a life
destroyed." Switching off the engine, he said, "And now to create a
diversion, so we can get your marshal and that silly woman out of this
mess. Do you know she actually had the impudence to flirt with my
Alyosha?"
****
ALEC SINGLETON HAD HOTWIRED THE Lincoln and was gone before
Elias had even fully explained to the others that Holly and Nicholas
had left. What remained of his Circe—Kate, Ian, Martin,
Simon, and Lydia—readied themselves with renewed
determination for what Elias now knew would be a battle royal. The six
of them got into
Kate's SUV and Martin's Porsche for the drive to The Hyacinths,
uneventful but for Martin's missing a turn. Kate slowed,
waiting for the Porsche to catch up again, and as Elias squinted into
the
side-view mirror he began to swear under his breath.
"Problem?" Simon asked from the back seat.
"Of course not," he growled. "Life is wonderful. Everything's just
peachy. Kate, pull over."
She did so, mystified, parking just beyond a street lamp. Elias jumped
down and stalked over to a white Mercedes that rolled to a sedate halt
in the gravel beside the road. From the driver's side emerged a tall,
distinguished, silver-haired gentleman who approached Elias with both
hands outstretched like Christ beckoning the little children to come
unto him.
"Reverend, what the hell are you doing here?"
****
"THIS IS QUITE POSSIBLY THE', most pretentious house I've
ever seen,"
Holly commented as she and Nick walked through wet grass toward The
Hyacinths. The place was minimally lit by outdoor floodlights that
accented a turret here, a tower there, a goodly section of walls, and
most of the courtyard.
"Snob," Nick accused. "You just naturally incline toward white columns,
Spanish moss, and verandahs."
"I've been known to hanker after a castle or two in my day. D'you think
it has secret staircases and hidden passages and everything?"
"Restrain yourself, child. Let me concentrate."
They circled the house. Occasionally Nick stopped to stare up at a
turret or a spire, then shake his head. Apart from the sporadic
floodlights there was no illumination, and this place needed
lamps glowing from every window or risk major spookiness. The breeze,
faintly
smelling of the nearby ocean, got colder. Holly hunched her shoulders
inside her heavy wool coat, balled her fists inside her pockets, and
wished she'd brought gloves.
They were almost back at the front, not having found any useful points
of entry, when her sinuses began to itch. Nick turned suddenly, caught
her rubbing her nose, and grinned in the gloom.
"Sure you don't have some Southern bloodhound in your ancestry?"
"What?"
"Follow your nose!"
****
WITH A DRAWLING INDIFFERENCE DISTINCTLY at odds with his
mood,Lachlan said, "Guess you'll have to wait lor the Spellbinder's
blood."
"Shut up," Noel ordered. "Why did this happen? This isn't supposed to
happen."
Denise was staring at Lachlan, eyes wide with speculation. Her look
made him antsy, a feeling aggravated by the reeking incense that wisped
around the cellar like an inversion layer of smog. Noel's hand came
back around within sight, naked blade gripped between forefinger and
thumb. Lachlan drew away as far as he could. It wasn't far. But the
movement -was enough to
jostle Noel's arm, and the steel glided harmlessly across skin.
Lachlan smelled the man's breath as he hissed his exasperation, and
though not exactly foul, neither was it minty-fresh. It just smelled
weird. Noel dug his fingers deep into Evan's hair, dragging his head
back and to the side, exposing his neck like a Mithras bull's for
sacrificial slaughter. From this angle Noel's face was visible: lips
stiff with annoyance, pinpoint pupils centered in the arctic blue of
his eyes. So he had taken something. Lachlan wondered what it was.
"Third time's the charm?" Denise asked sweetly.
Noel was so startled that he dropped the blade. Its point caught in a
link of the chain around Lachlan s neck. He plucked it free and tugged
at the necklace. Lachlan felt the medal just below his breastbone move
fractionally and then stop as if snagged on chest hair. Which was
ridiculous, because he didn't have much chest hair. Noel worked a
finger beneath the chain at Evan's collarbone, pulling. The medal
stayed where it was.
"What the fuck is that?" he demanded, moving back.
As it had been earlier when they'd shaken hands, when Noel had slapped
his back, when he had touched him the first time to try for his blood,
the lack of him was an acute relief. Evan rolled his head, trying to
ease the muscles.
"The necklace." The hands were back, feeling through his sweater. "Just
above the diaphragm," Noel muttered. The knife sliced through luxurious
cashmere, from the neck halfway to Lachlan s waist. "This is
what I sensed earlier. She gave you this, didn't she? There's magic all
over
it."
"St. Michael," he offered, trying to sound helpful. Pretty sure he
sounded drunk. He felt drunk. "Patron of law enforcement. It's from
Rome—it's even been blessed by the Pope." He wished he could
cross himself, just to see the reaction.
"I said magic, not religious trickery! I can smell her blood! When did
she give you this? What does it do?"
"Whaddya mean?"
Denise giggled. "Can't you feel it? No, course you can't." She tilted
her head around to smile mockery at Noel. He backhanded her. She cried
out, blood gushing from her nose.
"That make you feel like a real man?" Lachlan snarled furiously. "You
gotta knock a woman around before you can get it up?"
All at once Noel darted from behind the bench. "What's that?"
"What's what? I didn't hear anything. Did you hear something?" Lachlan
kept talking to cover up any noise Noel might actually have heard. The
flush of anger seemed to have cleared his head again—he'd
have to remember that adrenaline could be very useful. "Might be a deer
or the
wind or somethin' — "
"Shut up! There's someone outside." Noel cocked his head, listening
intently.
This time Evan heard it, too: one ordinary, everyday sneeze.
****
WHAT REVEREND FLEMING WAS DOING there did not enter into his
explanation of how he had arrived. Kate's house being at the
end of a cul-de-sac, it had been simplicity itself to wait on the main
street, unobserved, for cars to emerge. Holly's black BMW had excited
conjecture, but no other cars had followed. Then had come Bradshaw's
Lincoln, but without Bradshaw inside it; the Reverend had
almost followed, but only a few minutes later the SUV and the Porsche
left
within moments of each other, making the same turn as the first two
cars. So he'd set off in pursuit.
Simon assumed a harmless, genial, absent-minded professor demeanor.
"Reverend, I sympathize with your loss. But I can't understand why
you'd be following any of us at all. We're just going out to dinner."
"I've been following Judge Bradshaw, or having him followed, ever since
I heard about the death of his paramour."
Elias growled low in his throat. Simon hastily asked, "To -what
purpose? What makes you think—"
"Please, sir, spare me the prevarications." The hand wearing a Yale
Divinity School ring waved away Simon's protestation like a bothersome
insect. "I know where you're going tonight, and it isn't to a
restaurant. You are heading for The Hyacinths, and on the night of
Hallowe'en."
Now, Elias thought, they would be treated to a tirade on the
Fundamentalist Christian condemnation thereof. "I don't have time for
this," he snapped. "Reverend, I strongly advise you to go home
and minister to your flock—among which I am not to be
counted.
Simon, Kate, get back in the car. We're out of here."
"Please."
Bradshaw turned slightly, looking at the man over his shoulder."
'Please'?"
"It is not a word I use often," the Reverend admitted. "But I want to
know who murdered my son. I want— I need—to see his
killer brought to justice. And so I say to you—please."
Kate threw Elias a speculative glance, then moved toward the preacher,
the lone streetlight shining on the pale blonde of her loosened hair.
"I don't think you understand," she said gently. "Two people are held
hostage. We can't call in the police—this man would escape
them.
He is beyond the reach of legal authorities."
Fleming was silent for a moment. Then: "You intend to kill him."
The others looked at Bradshaw or looked away. As well they ought, he
told himself; he was, after all, Magistrate. The decision was his.
"You must not kill him," insisted the Reverend. "You would be no better
than he is—and his soul would burn forever in Hell."
"This is not your concern," Bradshaw began.
"Every life is precious!"
"I know where you're going with this, and you won't get there with me
marching in lockstep alongside," Elias snapped. "Life is -what we do
with it — and the man is a murderer. He killed your son and
my Susannah, and — "
"You must not!" the Reverend thundered. "In the courtroom they address
you as 'Your Honor.' As a man of honor, if not a man of God, you must
not kill him! I know I can't persuade you with Holy Writ—"
"Please don't quote John Donne," he interrupted wearily. "I can't see
any way that this man's death would dimmish me or anyone else. The bell
can toll all night long— I'll pull the rope."
"I hate him, too, Judge Bradshaw. But his death would indeed diminish
me, for I would be left with my hate. Until I can look him in the eye
and forgive him, and know that he knows of my forgiveness—"
"Does he want it? Would he accept it? Don't make me laugh!"
"He has to know that I forgive what he did to my son! In that is his
hope of salvation — and mine. And yours, whether you want to
admit it or not! We diminish ourselves with hate and exalt
ourselves with forgiveness, with love, with joy — "
"Whatever happened to joy? "
Bradshaw turned away from him, not wanting him to see how his use of
that word, Susannah's word, shook him. "This isn't your pulpit.
Reverend. Save it for next Sunday." He was about to impress upon all of
them once again that there was no time for any of this, when a new
arrival made Elias's flay an unqualified triumph. A big green Jeep
Cherokee with a blinking red dashboard light appeared around a
bend in the road, slowed, passed them, turned, and finally came to a
stop with its nose two inches from the white Cadillac's grille.
From the Jeep slid a slim dark woman wearing jeans and a brown leather
jacket. "Nice try, Your Honor," said Deputy Marshal Leah Towsley. "But
the next time you throw a party, pick someplace warmer."
****
"HERE," HOLLY SAID. "IT'S STRONGEST right here." She sneezed.
She and Nick had been around the mansion once again, peering in dark
windows when they dared, the floodlights showing them the house had
been stripped of furniture. Twice now she'd buried her nose in her
woolen sleeve to smother a sneeze. Now they paused at the far end of
the house, where the servants' hall and kitchen would have been in
bygone days. Steps led down to a service door; nearby there was an iron
drawer where coal had been delivered a century or so ago. Next to this
was a series of arched windows draped by black cloth and locked tight.
"Now what?" She squinted at Nicky in the darkness, absently rubbing her
irritated nose.
"Now I find out if I can bring him out here." Treading lightly down the
stairs, he tried the service door. "Marvelous. It's unlocked, but I
can't open it. And no, it isn't stuck by paint or rust or anything
else." Beckoning her down the steps with one hand while the other
delved into a pants pocket, he said, "My dear, I'm going to have to ask
you for a little blood. Do you mind? '
"OF course not. What for?" Holly dug in her coat pocket for needle and
alcohol swabs.
"I still have that turquoise from all those years ago." He held it up,
the nearby floodlight glancing off the opaque blue — and
several other stones, she saw with surprise. The
bloodstone-and-carnelian token
Lulah had given Alec, a lump of raw amethyst, and a ragged little
branch of pink coral all depended from a short silver chain. Nick took
the needle to hold while she opened a sterilizing pad and
swiped it across her thumb. "These have proved very useful, one way and
another."
"Which do you want Spellbound? Or maybe all of them?"
"Well, I don't know that we'll have much use for the bloodstone's
protection against scorpions and gallstones, but I would like to open
this door." He chuckled softly. "Then again, the part about
strengthening the sense of smell might be hazardous to your poor nose.
Pity one can't pick and choose what one unleashes."
From the brick walkway above them Alec Singleton said, "I, on the other
hand, am perfectly capable of picking you both up and choosing to haul
your asses out of here."
"Mi a kurva'k fasza't kersel iit?" Nicholas exclaimed.
Alec descended the steps. "What the fuck I'm doing here is pretty much
what the fuck you're doing here. I'd expect dim-witted behavior from
Holly, but I thought you of all people would know better than to
— "
"Oh, shut up, Alyosha," Nick said. "I assume Elias and the rest are hot
on your heels. Let's get this done."
Taking the needle from Nick, Holly pricked her thumb and squeezed up a
drop of blood. "All of them, or just the bloodstone? And I'm sure
there's a pun in there somewhere, but I'm not inclined to go looking
for it right now."
"You shut up, too," Nick admonished. "All the stones. We'll divvy them
up." When the five stones were blooded, he unlatched the chain and let
them slide into his palm. "Alyosha, take the coral and the turquoise.
I'm keeping the bloodstone and carnelian. Which leaves the
amethyst for you, Holly—appropriate, its February's
birthstone."
"It'd do more good protecting one of you," she argued.
"Az Isten`ert!"he snarled. "Take it!"
She did, meekly, knowing that when he spoke Hungarian—or was
that
Rom? —more than usual, things were grim. She clenched her
fingers around the amethyst for a moment before putting it in her pants
pocket.
"Now," Nick said, "we begin." He faced the door, holding the carnelian
and bloodstone in his left hand. With his right he drew a pattern in
the air, while under his breath he muttered a few syllables. Hinges
creaked, wood splintered, and the door flung itself open to slam back
against the interior wall.
"Not bad," Alec remarked.
"You're -welcome," Holly replied, scratching her nose in earnest. "Can
we get on with this before I need a respirator?"
****
EVAN FELT A HOLLOW TINGLING begin in his chest, more or less
like the sensation he sometimes got -when a lure-and-lasso was about to
get sticky. He slanted a look at Denise. "How's your nose?"
"Hurts." Denise sniffled and tilted her head back. "I think it's
stopped bleeding, though."
"You're getting' a black eye."
"Wouldn't be the first time."
"I'm sorry I couldn't stop him." He surprised himself by meaning it. A
little, anyway.
"Que vous etes gallant, Monsieur le Mareschal. I've been hit harder.
Bet you have, too."
Lachlan shrugged. "He's been gone a while. Maybe he got lost."
"Or maybe Holly really is here." She slanted a glance at him. "What a
wound to your machismo—a woman riding to your rescue."
Lachlan only smiled. The expression felt a little wobbly on his face,
as if the signals to his nerves -were off-kilter. He tried to squirm,
imagining that he might be stuck a little less adamantly to the bench.
No such luck. After a moment's silence he offered, "What time
do you think it is?"
"Maybe midnight, maybe not. Like it matters."
She was neither hysterical nor particularly loopy; Noel's fist in her
face had unleashed some adrenaline in her, too. Lachlan reasoned that
he could gauge how loaded they both were if he kept her talking. Not
that he was terribly interested in anything she might say.
"The bit about the animals was kinda weird. You do a lot of that with
Voudon?"
"There are prototypes — "
"Archetypes," he corrected. Geeze, he was getting as pedantic as Holly.
"Stereotypes, genotypes, typographical errors, what-the-fuck-ever. I
never expected a cop to be such an intellect—oh, but wait,
you hang
out with the Professor, right? She give you a pop quiz now and
then,just make sure you're paying attention when she lectures?"
This didn't deserve a comeback—especially as he'd just been
thinking more or less the same thing — so Lachlan let his
attention stray to the cellar. Before hurtling up the stairs, Noel had
waved a hand to light every candle in the place, and the heat of the
flames added to the stink of incense was stifling. The light showed him
something he hadn't noticed until now: black statues of birds, none
more than a few inches high. Some stood with outspread wings, and
others hunkered down like pissed-off parakeets. Idly he began
to count them, and -wondered what significance attached to the
number sixteen. Song lyrics began to drift around in his brain: sixteen
candles, sixteen tons and whaddya get, sweet little sixteen —
Suddenly Denise said, "At Beltane last year, he killed Scott Fleming
right at the moment of orgasm."
"The 'sex and death' thing." With a sigh and a shake of his head,
Lachlan said, "Y'know, I really don't believe this guy."
"Be better if you did. Something else I remember from Beltane. He
thinks it's harder to hex somebody who believes, because he's
protecting himself."
"Watching his step," Evan interpreted. "Taking no chances."
"Somebody who doesn't believe, he's easier. He shoves any instinctive
fear deep inside where it can fester and work against him."
"Leaves him open to the workings of the curse," he interpreted.
"Very good, Marshal. There may be hope for you yet."
But fear wasn't something that could invade from outside. It was
already there. You could choose to control it, and not to let it be
used against you. Or use it yourself. Anger wasn't the only emotion
that triggered adrenaline.
Suddenly the house spasmed around them, stone grinding on stone. Evan
watched plaster dust sift down through the smog layer of incense smoke,
and realized that a nice, healthy surge of his own fight-or-flight
chemicals wasn't going to be all that difficult to accomplish.
****
BRADSHAW PACED TO THE BROKEN white line, seething. Somehow,
this was Holly's fault. He wasn't sure quite what her responsibility
was, but he
was certain it would all come down to her in the end. Just his
luck: the only Magistrate to have a genuine Spellbinder on call, and
she'd caused him more trouble in the scant two years he'd known her
than anybody else in his entire life.
Three Witches of his Circle stood beside a country road arguing with a
funamentalist Reverend. Two Witches had escaped him completely
and were doing who-knew-what to free a woman he detested and a
U.S. Marshal he didn't much like, either. Two more Witches were
gallivanting around Long Island in a Porsche convertible, lost. His
Spellbinder was behaving
like a jackass, as usual. And now his very own United States Deputy
Marshal had arrived, which put the cherry atop the icing on the cake.
Hell of a Hallowe'en.
"This is ludicrous," he muttered. And, for the first time in a very
long time, he cast the kind of spell that had gotten quite a few
ancestors —who also should have known better—into
interesting predicaments. With both hands he built a precise framework
of Power around everyone and everything before him. With the strength
of a fine, disciplined mind he constructed lattices linking Kate,
Simon, Lydia, and Reverend Fleming into an edifice of absolute
stillness and absolute silence.
Turning, he fixed his gaze on Leah Towsley, who alone of them all could
still move. In fact, she had moved. Her jaw had dropped.
"We're leaving," Elias told her. "Now."
She looked at the four people beyond him, blinked, faced him again, all
but saluted, and got back into her Jeep. Bradshaw swung up into the
passenger's seat as she gunned the engine.
"Not a single question," he warned. "Not one. Drive where I tell you.
Marshal."
"Absolutely, Your Honor."
Finally, he thought, a woman who did what he told her to.
Twenty-Nine
ALEXANDER SINGLETON SURVEYED THE WRECKAGE of the stone steps and the
kitchen's outer wall. Nick's emphatic opening of the door had been
presaged by an ominous rumbling; Alec had barely hauled his partner and
Holly up the steps in time. Now, waving a hand to clear away the dust
that had Holly sneezing in earnest, he cast a sour look at his
partner.
"That wasn't exactly what I had in mind."
"High-octane blood. But perhaps we'd better do this from outside."
"Aw, gee—ya think?" Holly asked, rubbing her nose.
"What I think is that we probably got Noel's attention."
"Well, then, why don't you continue your little home improvement
project, and I'll go see what Evan's up to?"
"Nothing doing, girl," Alec ordered. "You stay with us until Noel
appears and we've dealt with him. Then you can rush to the rescue."
Though she looked rebellious, she followed the two men around back,
where a glassed-in octagonal garden room protruded onto the lawn.
"Now that," Nick mused, "would make a perfectly lovely crash."
"Musical, even," Holly agreed a bit ruthlessly.
"Restrain yourselves," Alec advised. Speculative sidelong glances from
two pairs of blue eyes ought to have warned him, but he couldn't keep
from catching his breath on a curse when the stonework traceries
between windows rasped, shuddered, and collapsed, the glass shattering
with them.
Even Nick took a few startled steps back, but the grin he turned on
Alec made him look about twelve years old. "No wonder you never let me
play with the bloodstone. It's fun!"
"Yeah, no wonder I never let you play with it," he retorted, ducking
reflexively as more splintered panes tinkled down from twisted and
sagging frame-work. "We can't go around demolishing things at random.
There's such a
thing as load-bearing walls, you know. You're the only one with
protection, Nick."
"Spoilsport. Let's see if I can coerce him out into the open." But a
few moments later Nick shook his head in frustration. "I can't
read him. There's something between him and the rest of the
world,some sort of personal murk."
Holly gave him a little smile Alec didn't understand, and said, "I'm
told that happens sometimes. Don't push it. When he comes out of
hiding, and you can actually see him — "
"Maybe it's not him," Nick mused. "Maybe it's this place. More than one
murder was done here. It's as if the deaths were absorbed by the
stones, and pulling them apart has set free some kind of—I
don't know, corruption."
"He can't keep ignoring us," said Holly. "Sooner or later he'll have to
come out and see what's going on. Nicky, do your thing again."
They started around the house once more, striding through damp grass,
searching for something else to demolish. "How about that turret
hanging off the second floor?" Nick asked.
Standing well back from the round projecting tower. Alec scrutinized
it, judged it safe to demolish, and nodded to his partner. Nick gripped
carnelian and bloodstone, muttered a few words, grimaced with effort.
The turret shivered, stone dust sifting, trickling, and
finally pouring from loosened joints. With a scraping groan, the tower
separated from the house and crashed to the ground.
"I do hope their insurance is paid up," Nick remarked. "What will they
attribute this to? Termites? No, it's mostly stone. How about
a freak hurricane?"
"Deeply as I worship and adore you, Miklosbka," Alec grinned, "I doubt
you qualify as an act of God. My own hope is that The Hyacinths isn't
on the National Register of Historic Eccentricities or something else
that'll get you into trouble."
"Me?!"
As they walked shoulder to shoulder, scanning for more targets. Alec
said, "One more crash, and then try to suss him out again, okay?
Holly—"
But when he looked around for her, she was gone.
Thosefingers in my hair, that
sly come-hither stare.
That stripts
my conscience bare—it's witchcraft.
****
At first Lachlan thought he was hallucinating again. Then he realized
that somebody really was singing. Not Denise; the song came from the
stairwell. Peering through the thick mists of incense, he blinked
several times as the hazy image of a gigantic purple hyacinth flower
swayed languidly about three feet in front of his face. Yeah, he was
hallucinating.
He was positive of it when Holly sauntered into view on the stairs as
if this were a cocktail party. Lachlan had seen her do this a dozen
times: take a casual step, pause as she scanned the environs, and then
decide
whether or not there was anyone here worth talking to. This time the
blue eyes considered the candles, bird statuary, bowls,incense
burners, stone bench, Denise, and finally Lachlan himself. A little
smile touched her lips, and her heeled boots clicked softly on the
flagstones as she took another two steps down.
"Hi, darlin'," she greeted him.
"Hi, yourself," he replied. Delusion or not, it sure was nice to see
her.
She scratched her nose, and all at once gave a ferocious sneeze that
sent her stumbling, grabbing for the wall, and falling hard down the
last two stairs to her knees, swearing vilely the whole time.
Denise stirred vaguely beside him. "The Ego," she announced, "has
landed."
Holly sat on the bottom step, sprawling long legs, and scrubbed at her
nose with her fist. The crown of her head was just below the level of
smoke. She peered at Evan, then at the incense burners all around the
room. A gesture incinerated every remaining speck of incense,four
huge gouts of flame erupting in a gush of heat that brought sweat to
Lachlan's face and bare chest. An instant later, nothing was left but
cinders and a smell of scorching.
"Well, fuck a duck, as they say in Oregon," she muttered. "You
okay,Evan? "
"Sure. How 'boutyou?"
"Oh, just great. What's with her?" She nodded at Denise.
He turned his head, and found that Denise was swaying lightly back and
forth, as far as the spell would allow, a singularly vacant expression
on her face. The smeared blood from her nose had dried, giving her a
kind of second mouth above the first one. It wasn't especially
attractive. "Busted nose, maybe. He got a little pissed off."
"Is there some reason you two are sitting there like lumps on a log?"
"Yep." He would have said more, but the flower was
back—hugely
purple, dripping black pearls of dew that fell splat onto the stone
floor and sent up sparks.
"Evan! Stay with me!"
"Mmm?" His attention, such as it was, returned to Holly. She was
crawling toward him, keeping well below the lingering clouds of
incense. "Whatcha doin'?"
"Time to open a window. If I was a real Catholic, I'd have calluses on
my knees from all that praying and this wouldn't hurt so much. Not to
worry about Noel, by the way. Alec and Nicky are keeping him busy
upstairs. With some luck, a wall will fall on him." Right on cue, the
building vibrated again, and bits of loosened cement drifted down to
swirl in with the cloudy incense. "Trouble is, I don't know how much
either of them knows about architecture — supporting walls,
braces, buttresses, all that stuff."
"Y'know," he observed, "your buttress looks pretty cute, stuck up in
the air like that." She threw him a grin, and he wanted to grin back,
but something was nagging at him. He wished he could raise a hand and
wave away that stupid purple flower; it loomed closer, distracting him.
The black pearls were piling up on the floor, and he worried that Holly
might bruise a knee or a palm. Or burn herself from the billion dancing
sparks. And just how stupid was it, anyway, to be fret about a bruise
or a singe when Noel would be back any minute to gouge holes in her to
get at her blood? Then he reminded himself that Holly was about as real
as the monster hyacinth. Which made everything okay. Sort of.
"Evan? Come on, lover man, keep talking to me."
For an illusion, she sure was as high-maintenance as Holly. Of course,
his experience of her would make an illusion of her just the way
she usually was, so that didn't mean anything. He wasn't sure what did
mean anything anymore. If only that goddamned purple hyacinth would
move out of the way. Squinting, he tried to focus on Holly where she
crabbed across the floor, and blinked as he saw the twinkling lights
sparked from the dewdrops slither up and swoop through the air to loop
around her right wrist and swarm atop her left ring-finger.
"Evan, don't you dare zone out on me."
Diamonds, they had all turned into diamonds, Susannah's and Granna
Maureen's, pulsing like a heartbeat. Like that witching sphere
in her window, the night he'd figured out that Elias Bradshaw was all
magicked-up, too.
"Hey," he asked suddenly, "are you real? '
"I hope that's not an existential question. Yes, I'm real, E`imbin."
She was very near the bench now. The throbbing light of the diamonds
became brighter, timed to the rhythm of his own heart. "I hope some
fresh air clears your head. I need your help."
The diamond glow illuminated all the little black birds. Some twitched
their feathers. Definitely the incense was loaded with something
outrageously potent. He heard himself chuckle. "Hey, Holly. Guess what?
I'm stoned."
"I figured."
"No, stoned," he insisted. "Not just wasted on the smoke. Stuck to the
bench. Petrified. Stoned!"
She gave a long sigh. "Terrific. By the way, is there some reason your
turtle-neck is now a cardigan? Not that I don't appreciate the scenery,
but I gave you that sweater and I was kind of fond of it.
It was too much trouble to explain, and anyway he was reminded of
something else she had given him. "What'd you do to my St. Michael
medal?"
"Later," she told him. "Sorry, but you're going to stay stuck for the
time being. I have absolutely no idea how to unWork whatever Noel did."
"And here I was hopin' to get loose before I'm the main event at the
ritual."
"I kinda thought that was what Noel had in mind. I have to
tell you,
though—as a sacrificial altar, that bench will never compete
with Stonehenge. " There was a pause, and he tried to listen for her
movements behind him. "Where the hell is the catch?" Holly griped,
startling him. She sneezed again, just as the house quivered and more
dust dribbled from the arched ceiling.
Glass shattered behind him, the building staggered, cold night wind
blew past him, and Denise suddenly keened like a hyena in mourning.
"Where is she?" Noel shouted down the stairwell. "Where?"
****
"I DON'T LIKE TO BE nosy, Your Honor, but — "
Elias didn't even glance at Leah Towsley. "It would take much too long
to explain. Turn here. Yes, right up the driveway—no point
in skulking around.'' Alec, Nick, and Holly were already here, and
creating grand bloody havoc from the looks of things. The outdoor
floodlights showed him dust rising into the breeze from a toppled tower
and a smashed glass greenhouse.
"I guess a low profile would be fairly pointless," the marshal said
laconically as something at the back of the house gave way with a
resounding boom. Pulling the SUV to a stop, she shut off the engine and
continued, "I forgot to mention it: earlier —nice robe. Not
exactly standard issue for judges, though."
Bradshaw eyed her sidelong. "Can I trust you to stay outside and not
meddle?"
"Depends."
"I'm armed,' he said, parting the front of ihe robe to show the pistol
tucked into his belt.
"So am I—but what I saw back there probably means a Howitzer
wouldn't be much use tonight.'
He grunted acknowledgement, and winced as another muffled rumble came
from the rear of The Hyacinths. The floodlights flickered and died.
"There's something I have to do, and I can I be worried about
protecting you from trying to protect me while I do it. Stay here.
You'll be safe -"
" — as long as I don't go for a stroll," she finished for
him,
gesturing to the fallen turret. "Judge Bradshaw, I'm not making any
promises. But I'll make you a deal. You go do whatever it is you feel
you have to do. I'll give you ten minutes."
"Half an hour."
"Fifteen."
"Who works for whom, here?" he snapped.
"I work for the United States Government, which has a vested interest
in your continued health and well-being," she snapped right back.
"You've got fifteen minutes, and then I come get you—and
call for backup."
"You just said traditional firepower would be absurd in this situation,
and you're right. No backup. "
Dark eyes regarded him steadily. "You'd have so much more
explaining to do if others got involved, am I right? Okay, fifteen
minutes, no backup—but if some concerned citizen has already
called in random acts of destruction, all deals are off." As he opened
the car door, she pointed a long finger at him. "And no messing with me
like you did those people back there, Harry Potter."
Tight-lipped, he got out of the Jeep and slammed the door. The gun
digging into his stomach would be completely useless, he well
knew, but some of the other things stashed away about his person were
not. Extracting one of them from a deep, commodious robe pocket, he
muttered a few words, and smiled grimly at Towsley's magnificently
furious face. He watched her yell at him for a moment as she struggled
with doors that would not open unless or until he allowed it.
After all, she hadn't said anything about Working on the car.
His wand safely back in its pocket, he strode for the house. Harry
Potter, indeed!
****
HUDDLING BELOW THE WINDOW SHE'D just smashed open. Holly
cradled her stunned elbow and wished she could become invisible. She
could have
done just that, had she a nice-sized opal and an expert Witch to cast
the spell, plus a bit of her own blood. Speaking of
which—shirt,
sweater, and heavy woolen coat had protected her from the glass, but
she'd knocked her funny bone on the frame and she badly wanted to shake
the resulting wriggly tingle out of her arm. And she knew she could not
move a muscle, not even blink, or Noel might see her.
She breathed as deeply as she could, trying to clear her brain of the
incense. As briefly as she had been exposed, she could still sense it
dancing like a gleeful demon at the corners of her vision, ready to
claw her brain if she relaxed her guard.
The swift breeze through the shattered window had guttered many of the
black candles. Swathes of darkness complicated the architectural
shadows, disorienting her; she hoped Noel shared the sensation.
She couldn't see him, which meant he probably couldn't see her where
she crouched in the window arch behind the stone bench. On the
other hand, how many cats had she watched stick their heads into bags
and believe that because they couldn't see out, nobody could see in?
The sea-scented wind was dispersing the itchy odor of incense. Whole
sides of the house must be yawning wide, creating a draft. But Noel had
abandoned his quest for whoever seemed bent on toppling every stone of
The Hyacinths, and as the building settled again with a rasp and a
quiver, he made his demand again.
"Where is she?"
"Je ne sais pas shit, shugah," Denise drawled, leaning comfortably
against Evan's shoulder. Holly wanted to kick her into the middle of
next week.
"Whole lotta shakin' goin' on," Evan said all at once. His voice
sounded firmer, and Holly hoped the incense was losing its hold on him.
"Any other windows break?"
Blessing him—and congratulating herself for choosing a man
who had a brain and knew how to use it, even when he was
stoned—she tried to make herself smaller and hoped Noel would
buy the
excuse for the sudden breeze.
He didn't appear interested in explanations. "She'll come. She has to
come," he grumbled, his voice echoing weirdly in the stairwell. Holly
risked movement, peeking around Denises shins. Noel was descending the
last of the stairs into fitful darkness. At the bottom step he froze,
thin nostrils flaring. "What is that?" he whispered. His fingers
delicately probed the wall, as if testing it for validity. He inhaled
deeply. Then he wiped his palm with tender care across the corner
stones. "She's here—or she has been," he chuckled. "Her blood
is on the wall."
Holly looked down at the heel of her right hand. Sure enough, a nasty
scrape that only now, when she knew it was there, began to sting a
little. There wasn't much blood. There was enough.
Noel moved to the center of the room. As he passed her line of sight,
she noted with relief that his silvery-blue eyes were focused inward.
Still, she hardly dared to breathe as he turned a slow circle,
widdershins, and ended by facing West.
"I am armed! I am
strong! I summon Bayemon, and command the Western
Regions and the Waters! The phrase I conjure and command you with is
tacere, as all will keep silent and tremble at the touch of my mind!
Your power of mysticism belongs to me! Come, Krokar and Kuzgun,
Cigfrain and Bran!"
As he spoke, every candle in that Quarter shivered to new light. So did
other things, shining iridescent black things—four of them,
all in the West, shaking out their feathers. The birds hopped and
fluttered
toward Noel, black beaks wide as they kawed, throat-feathers angrily
fluffed. He pointed to the glass bowl of water, and they bent their
heads to drink.
He turned to the South next, as Holly had known he would; Elias would
have Worked sunwise, but this was not white magic. From his robe Noel
drew a knife—not so small as a bolline, nor double-edged like
an athame, nor so long as a sword. Again the candle flames ignited, and
again four birds came alive and leapt across the cellar floor,
approaching him on black-taloned feet that shifted in a dance of
impatience, in perfect time to Noel's chanting.
"Let Amayon, King of the
Southern Regions, and the beings of Fire cower
before the Fire of my Sword! The phrase I conjure and command you with
is velle, as I have the will to see deep into the Abyss! Your power
over Time belongs to me! Come, Korakas and Fiach, Cuervo and Karasul
Come!"
Noel positioned the blade on the floor of the South quadrant. Candlefire
leapt and licked along its length and the birds fluttered around it,
wings outstretched as if bathing their feathers in blue-black
flame.
Cuervo—she finally recognized the Spanish, and belatedly the
Irish and the Welsh, for raven, and chided her own stupidity.
Susannah's favorite tequila had been Cuervo Gold 1800. Untimely and
inappropriate tears welled up, and she almost choked. Damn it, she was
getting as loopy as Evan. Incense, it was the incense, she wasn't
really seeing this and it wasn't real and Noel couldn't
possibly be bringing these raven statues to life.
But his palm had cradled the black glass bowl of water, and the hilt of
the blade — his palm that had her blood on it. Not much of
her blood. Enough.
Ravens, what did she know about ravens? A mental filing cabinet of odd
and generally useless information collected over half a lifetime of
research began spewing out associations. If the ravens ever left the
Tower of London, England would fall. The Valkyries wore raven feathers
in their hair, signifying their role as Choosers of the Slain. Celtic
Morrigan, the Death Crone in the form of a raven —
East came next, and the robe yielded another implement: a length of
pale polished wood tipped with an obsidian arrowhead.
"Let Lucifer of
the Air draw back at the waving of the Spear! The phrase I conjure and
command you with is noscere, as I will know what it is to hear
the music of eternity! Your power of traversing the infinite belongs to
me!
Come, Kolkrabe and Hollo, Corbeau and Gaagii, come!"
The spear-wand was positioned, and white smoke rose from the candles
for the quartet of ravens. Two on either side, they whisked at the air
with their wings to disperse the cloud upon each other.
Finally the North, where another black glass bowl rested.
"I summon
Belial, Prince of Trickery, and imprison the spirits of Earth! The
phrase I conjure and command you with is audere, as I dare to taste the
power of a god! Your power of binding belongs to me! Come, Vron and
Fitheach, Corvus and Kruk, come!"
Four more ravens alighted and began to crack seeds with their beaks.
The word trickery activated a prompt in Holly's mind: Raven was
archetypical kin to Coyote the Trickster. Both were shape-shifters and
entirely slippery customers. But they were also teachers, shamans,
emissaries of change. What was Noel a shifter? She tried to sort
through what Elias had said about Sammael, and power, and now the
ravens with their implications of transformation and death, and the
widdershins summoning of four sinister Guardians, and could make no
sense of it.
Noel stood in the center of his Circle of candles and implements and
ravens, raising both arms in jubilation.
"I am armed! I am strong! I am
more powerful than the Lord of Time! I who was nothing deny all that I
was; I who am everything affirm all that I shall be!"
"Good luck," Holly muttered soundlessly, and got to her feet. She was
unconcerned now with being seen. It didn't matter. Noel stood within
his
Circle; she and Evan and Denise were outside it.
This suited her just fine—until Noel flung back his head,
howled
like a bean sidhe, and called out again and again, "Sammaell"
The house shuddered, cement dust rained down. With Noel's back to her,
and with his Circle demarcated by candles and ravens, she could risk
moving. So she pushed herself cautiously to her feet.
"I have opened the way!
I am. come!"
His voice was different. Her musician's ear heard something deeper,
richer, something akin to the low note of a Japanese temple gong. She
froze, watching for some kind of physical transformation to match that
change in his voice. Nothing happened — not that she could
discern, anyway.
Every nerve in Evan's body twitched as she whispered his name. "Don't
touch me," he warned. "Get outta here — "
"Can you move at all?"
"Not below the elbows."
"Oh, then it's all right, as long as I don't touch the bench." She put
both hands on his shoulders, caressing powerful muscles through leather
jacket and cashmere sweater. "It's all right, a chaisle. Alec and Nicky
will be here soon."
"You're real? " he asked, rubbing his cheek to her arm. "Really real?"
"Really real. And you'll be safe, I promise.' She slid her hands down
his chest, lingering the chain of his St. Michael medal. "'Flesh and
blood, skin and bone, no harm shall come to thee, my own.'"
Hugging
him, pressed snugly to his back, she added, "Very bad poetry, but it
got the job done."
Noel cried out again, startling her. "My heart is the heart of
Abraxas"
Evan quivered a bit with laughter. "Isn't that an old Carlos Santana
album?"
"My face id the face of
Set! My eyed are the eyes eblis, god of fire!
My lips are the lips of the Destroying Angel Abbadon! My tongue is the
tongue of Baalberith, Canaanite Lord of blasphemy! My teeth are the
teeth of Eurynome, who feeds upon corpses!"
"Yeucch," Evan muttered. "Holly, you gotta get outta here. He'll want
more of your blood—and that wand on the floor, it's made of
holly
— "
"My legs and feet are
the legs and feet of Shiva, who danced the end of
the world! My bones are the bones of the living Gods"
Holly held Evan tighter. "He's Calling avatars. Power. Bits and pieces
of old gods, to make one seriously bad-ass deity."
"My arms are the arms of
Malphad, the vast black wings of a raven! My
kteis is the kteis of Thoth, supreme god of magic! There is no member
of
my body that is not the member of some God!"
Denise stirred. "I," she announced petulantly, "am sick of this cocbon."
"Take a number," Holly muttered.
Thirty
"THOTH, HMM?" ALEC MURMURED. "THAT'S some schlong he wants for himself."
"Don't be vulgar," Nick reprimanded. They were standing outside the
closed stairwell door, having entered through the mess of the
greenhouse. Noel's bellows of triumph were giving Nick a
headache.
"And don't underestimate him," he went on. "Have you heard who he's
Called? He's done his research, give him that."
"Personally," Elias said from just behind them in the darkness, "I'm
not disposed to give him anything."
Nick exchanged glances with his partner. Bradshaw had snuck up on them
as if they were novices without a spell to their names instead of
senior Witches with nearly a century's combined experience. Alec turned
a bland smile on Elias. Nick merely arched a brow. Neither would give
the Magistrate the satisfaction of seeing them taken aback.
Elias gestured to the destruction around him. "This was meant as a
distraction, I take it?"
"It worked—for a while, anyway," Nick said, forbidding
himself to sound defensive. "Holly got in," he added, neglecting to
mention that
she had been just as silenty sneaky as Bradshaw. Perhaps he and
Alexander were getting too old for this sort of thing.
"So what's keeping you up here?"
Nick gestured to the closed door. "Noel shut it rather effectively."
"Well, the front door is standing wide open. I don't like the feel of
the entry hall, by the way. Avoid it." He waited a moment, then said,
"Get on with it, then."
"As thou will it, so mote it be," Alec retorted, and reached for
Nicholas with his left hand, where his wedding ring shone; Nick matched
his left hand
with Alec's, lacing their fingers together so the identical rings
touched. Together they faced the door. It had been many years since
they had first done this, since circumstances dictated an
interweaving of power that both viewed warily, neither wanting to give
over control—only to find a pure and elegant joy in the
sharing.
Nick reveled in his partner's strength, directing it to the door,
willing it to open.
"Fasz. kivan!" he spat, feeling his face flush with angry effort.
"Whatever he's done—it's so foul it shields itself with its
own malevolence. I've only felt this a few times, this kind of mabrime.
I
can't find a way in."
"There's always a way in."
Elias pushed them both aside. Nick stopped him with a hand on his arm,
and pressed into his palm the blooded stones. Alec hesitated, then gave
over the other two rocks. Stepping back, he watched Bradshaw draw a
slow, centering breath and spread his arms wide. An instant later he
reeled, shoulder colliding with the wall.
"Christ!" he said shakily. "You're right — it's
like—everything that ever died in the history of the world is
stinking down there — "
"Mabrime," Nick said again. "Not just impure, Elias. Something
intensely polluted. Something evil—and Holly's in the middle
of it."
"I am armed!" roared Noel's voice from below, "I am strong!"
Elias pushed away from the wall. "So am I," he muttered, grim-faced.
It was true. Armed with magic and determination and four small bits of
Earth, fury blazing in his dark brown eyes, hands clenched bloodless,
every muscle rasping against every bone, his hate matched itself
against Noel's evil.
The wooden door splintered. Elias laughed.
****
NOEL PIVOTED SLOWLY, HIS BREATHING erratic, his cheekbones
flushed crimson, and pointed one long finger at Denise. Holly resisted
an impulse to shrink back into the shadows; he didn't seem to see her
anyway. Or maybe he simply wasn't interested anymore. He had enough of
her blood to Work with. Denise tottered up from the bench, trembling,
white to the lips with fear.
Evan hissed in a breath through his teeth. Holly felt him struggle,
trying to move, and tightened her arms around his shoulders. Denise
dropped her cloak onto the floor, stumbling as she slowly shed the rest
of her clothes. Sweater, blouse, brassiere, shoes, trousers, opaque
black tights—she walked naked into the Circle of candles that
were rock-steady, no breeze from the shattered window plucking
at the flames. Holly suddenly realized she could no longer feel it on
her
skin, that breath of cold sea air, and understood with a sick grinding
in her guts that she had made a mistake. The Quarters meant nothing.
She and Evan were not outside the Circle. They were not safe. Noel and
the Powers he had invoked had encompassed them within a realm of his
conjuring. The
breeze could no longer pass through the open window. Nothing else would
get into this Circle, either.
Denise fumbled with the clips holding back her hair. A few strands
caught, and with an uncaring yank she pulled them free. Noel raked her
body with a dim and feral gaze, a tiny smile touching his lips.
"I am He that lightnings
and thunder! I am the Lord of the Storm and
the Shadows! I am your Lord!"
Not even the Widow Farnsworth's shine had ever made her feel this
drunk. Not real, not real, sang a little mocking voice in her head; the
preening ravens, the shimmering candles, the naked woman and robed man
before the black marble altar, the lingering whiff of incense
—Not real not real not real!
The solid strength of Evan's body argued otherwise. She clung to him.
He was real. She -was real.
When Noel spread his arms wide, robes billowing purple-black as ravens
wings, he was real, too.
****
THIS TIME ALEC HAD WARNING of new arrivals. He tore his
attention from the disintegrated door and Bradshaw's eyes that danced
with glee at his
own cunning, and nudged Nick's shoulder. "Keep him here," he
mouthed, and his partner nodded vigorously.
He returned to the foyer, where, as he had suspected, all precincts
were now heard from and accounted for: Lydia, Martin, Ian, Kate, Simon,
a tall silver— haired man Alec recognized as the Reverend
Fleming, and a young African-American woman with coldly furious eyes.
Martin was carrying his sword at the ready, hilt grasped in both hands,
as he demanded, "What the hell's going on here?"
"It's kind of complicated. I can't say I'm glad you're joining the
festivities."
Kate said severely, "If you don't tell us what's going on right this
instant, I'll-"
"No, I'll," Martin snapped. "I'm the one with the Sword. And slicing
holes in Elias' spells tonight has given me just enough of a warm-up."
"Evidently," Alec remarked, eyeing the younger man's martial stance.
"You might as well keep that thing ready. You're not going to credit
what Noel has Called on down there."
"Where's Elias?" Lydia asked, glancing around the ruined foyer.
Alec pointed to the servants' corridor. Then he turned to the unknown
young woman and smiled. "I don't believe I've had the privilege and the
pleasure." She confronted him with a glower that convinced him he'd
have move luck trying to charm a starving panther, and safer
conversations -with his straight razor.
"Deputy Marshal Leah Towsley," Kate supplied. "Martin got her loose,
too. We may need her. Oh—and this is Reverend Fleming, whose
son— "
"Yes, I know," Alec interrupted. "My condolences, Reverend. We shall
probably be needing you, as well." He glanced around, made a quick
count. "All together, we're thirteen—very good."
"Thirteen?" the Reverend echoed, scowling.
"Twelve plus a leader," Kate murmured. "The way the Order of the Garter
is organized, the original Round Table — "
"And Christ with the Disciples," Fleming snapped. "I know the mockery
you people make of Holy Scripture, and I will not be a part of it!"
"Reverend," Alec told him with unfeigned compassion, "you may not have
a choice."
****
"THE—ACT—OF—
WORSHIP," NOEL said, his
lips moving in
weird slow-motion now, as if unfamiliar with the English language.
Lachlan knew what that had to mean: Noel had successfully cobbled
together a composite godhood chunk by chunk, and was ready to
rape Denise. And Lachlan could do nothing about it.
He felt Holly clutch his shoulders, felt her shivering a little. He
turned his cheek to her fingers, wanting the comfort that their bodies
always communicated, one to the other. As he shifted, he felt
the pull of the shoulder holster beneath his leather jacket. If
the petrifaction spell didn't extend that far up, and if Holly could
get
the gun, she could shoot the son of a bitch. He opened his mouth to
tell her so.
But suddenly she wasn't there anymore. She was walking around the stone
bench, shedding her coat as Denise had done, and there was a flash of
diamonds, Susannah's and Granna Maureen's, and of cold delicate
steel from her left hand.
"Running a little low by now, aren't you?" she asked mockingly. "About
ready for a refill?"
"Holly!" Evan shouted. "No!"
She paid him no mind. Noel's gaze swerved from Denise to her, and
Denise sagged against the altar like a string-snapped marionette. Holly
brought the needle toward her right thumb and went on taunting him.
"Only a taste, now, you wouldn't want to drain me dry." She pricked her
thumb and a ruby drop welled up. "Just what every god needs, a surefire
stone-cold guaranteed way to work miracles."
"I ~ AM-God t"
And you need to be worshipped, right? I never did understand that part
— why an omniscient, omnipotent, omnipresent Being would want
us trivial little humans to grovel mindlessly in hopes of coercing
favors—but,
hey, that's probably just me. At any rate, Your Divinity, why
bother with her? She's got a trifling sort of magic, granted, but I'm
the one you needed in order to become whoever it is you've become. Why
not
indulge yourself with somebody who really counts?"
Lachlan ground his teeth with frustration. He knew what she was doing:
trying to throw enough words at Noel to confuse or at the very least
delay him. Where the hell were Alec and Nick?
Holly was still talking—not that this surprised him. He
squinted at Noel's face, which seemed to be locked in an expression of
vast
confusion: mouth slightly open, brows pinched, pale eyes with their
pinpoint pupils fixed on Holly as if he'd never seen her before. And
still she kept talking.
" —what really gets me? When any mere human presumes to know
the mind of God. I mean, how is it possible? Our paltry little brains
can
barely conceive of deity, let alone comprehend it. That's why we're
humans and God's God." She paused for breath. "So I guess you can now
understand me perfectly, whereas I don't understand the first thing
about you, right? I mean, nobody really understood Christ, either,
when you get right down to it. It's an ancient paradigm, an
individual taking on himself all the sins of the world, and there have
been sacrificial kings for thousands of years, but Jesus is the one who
got all the press. And yet nobody really comprehended who or what he
might truly be."
She was like a general on a battlefield, marshalling words instead of
soldiers, sending them out to feint, attack, flank,
skirmish—but
her enemy would not engage. All Noel did was stand there, watching
her with those pale, uncomprehending eyes, and whether his
not-quite-humanness was a result of the drugs he had taken or the gods
he had called to take him over, Lachlan didn't care to speculate.
****
BRADSHAW TOOK A STEP TOWARD the open door, still smiling. He
felt a presence behind him, a hard grip on his arm, and shrugged off
both. What he hated, what he wanted to destroy, was down there
wallowing in death. What had Nicholas called it? Mabrime? Noel was
a walking, breathing pollution.
"Elias!"
He barely heard his name, and certainly did not respond to it. All that
he had deliberately not felt since losing Susannah grew within him, as
if that corruption so nearby acted like manure. Grief, loss,
abandonment, the bitter ache of longing—he felt all these
things at last. Yet even as they ripened, they withered. None could
compete
with the hatred, could be as powerful as the anger.
His hatred. his; anger. He sensed them grow and thrive
—
"Elias!"
That aggravating presence again, that voice scratching at him with
magic; he moved away from it, down the stairs, inhaling deep of
scorched and acrid air that smelled of power.
Lovely things, the anger and hate, luxurious and commanding. They
reached for and twined tight all the Power in him, like those two men
upstairs clasped each other's hands, giving and receiving until they
didn't know where one ended and the other began, a perfect swirling
mobius strip of eternity. His emotions and his ability served each
other, fed from each other, until he laughed again.
His body was improbably light, buoyed by power. But as he reached the
fifth step, he growled as he sensed a barrier between him and the
cellar. The structure screened anything going on within it; skillful
Work, Master Class, in fact. But not even remotely in his class. Shut
me out, willyou? Notfucking likely!
Pocketing the gemstones, he felt around the edges of the obstruction,
contemptuous of the tiny burning flashes that plucked at his
fingers. With both hands he pushed at the barrier. It resisted, like a
gigantic sparking bubble.
He pushed again. This time it contracted. One inch, two —
****
" — HELD A GREAT BIG SOLEMN meeting at Chalcedon
in
four-hundred-and-something to debate whether the Nazarene was human
with a spark of the divine, divine with a spark of the human,
or half human and half divine."
She hadn't talked this much since her lectures in Nairobi.
"And you know what they came up with? You'll never guess. Christ was
both fully human and fully divine. Now, this does show some largeness
of imagination, but it's the idea that humans could decide
such a thing in the first place that's really remarkable. What
absolutely
luscious arrogance!"
She'd never lectured a god before, either. Or gods. She wished somebody
— anybody—would interrupt with a question. She
wished she had
a glass of water to soothe her scratchy throat. She wished
Noel would get that befuddled look off his face. Whoever he was, or
thought
he was, seemed pretty much all hat and no cattle at the moment. Most of
all she wished Alec and Nicky would hurry up.
"What's the line about if there was no God, it would be necessary to
invent him? I guess that's what you've done here, with bits and pieces
of some of the real biggies. And the ravens are a nice touch. Most
cultures venerate ravens."
Denise sank to the floor in a welter of long limbs and blonde hair,
staring at Holly with a stunned expression on her bloodied face. Holly
didn't dare look at her except from the periphery of her vision. She
had to keep eye contact with Noel, keep him occupied. She put her brain
on automatic pilot and dredged up more of the trivia that clung to her
memory like kudzu to a split-rail fence.
"Huginn and Muginn belonged to Odin. Mostly they're translated as
'Thought' and 'Memory,' but the more accurate version is 'Thoughtful'
and Mindful.' The Romans thought ravens were birds of prophecy, because
their kawing sounded like cnui, which is Latin for 'tomorrow.' "
She heard a faint sizzle, and from a corner of her eye saw a flicker.
It had to mark the edges of the Circle. She felt slightly weak-kneed
with relief that the thing didn't encompass the whole house.
" 'Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow, creeping in its petty pace from
day to day — ' Which reminds me of how right dear old Billy
was, if he really was William Shakespeare and not the Earl of Oxlord.
'What
a piece of work is a man.' Yeah, what a piece of work we are, forsooth.
The only animal who blushes, or needs to. The only animal that fouls
its own nest, the only one that kills tor sport—"
Noel's glazed eyes flickered with renewed lite. She lost her thread for
an instant, then talked louder and faster.
" — but I prefer an idea proposed to me just this evening by
a very shrewd friend. He reminded me that humans are the animals that
create —and in the process of creation glimpse what true
deity is. Not what it's like to be a god, but— "
Something tingled against the elbow she'd bruised earlier. It made her
flinch and take an involuntary step sideways—which brought
her into contact with what felt like a waterfall of that same
almost-electricity, all along her arm and ribs and leg.
"—who among us trivial pathetic humans can even imagine what
it must be like to be — to be omnipotent, and omniscient, and
—" Stop repealing yourself, dammit! Catch his mind again, or
what passes for it. " -but you'd know much better than any of the rest
of
us, wouldn't you, with parts of gods now part of you, so you can create
or destroy at will—all that power, all-knowing and
all-consuming
— "
Fleeting embers danced around her, across her clothes, seeming to
tangle in her hair and the diamonds at her wrist and on her finger. But
she kept talking. She had to keep talking.
" — but what is it you're thinking of creating? Or are you
beyond that now? This thing we mere humans have been doing since before
we
could walk upright without tripping over ourselves out on the
savannah — "
Tiny pinpricks of heat and ice and low-voltage shivers passed through
her, spiking every nerve in her body.
" — a lot of what was created was lost in the intervening
millennia, but it had to've been going on all that time. After all,
it's not as if thirty thousand years ago somebody just woke up one
morning and said, 'Today I'm going to do some really gorgeous
cave-paintings, and I know the perfect spot at Lascaux —'"
****
BRADSHAW HEARD IT, BUT HP, couldn't believe it. Christ on
the Cross with a Crown of Thorns — the woman is talking
again! Still.
Yet. For-fucking-ever! Does she never shutup!
It reminded of him of his birthday at Chanterelle, when she'd driveled
on and on and on like a pompous doctoral candidate defending her
dissertation, and he'd looked across the Table at Susannah
—
"Why do we make things beautiful when all they really need to be is
things? We make tools. So do chimpanzees. But we're the ones who
decorate our tools, make them into works of art as well as function."
Anger, newly fueled by a monumental exasperation at the Spellbinder he
was here to rescue, shriveled when confronted by pain. Susannah, so
perfect that night, wearing a blue silk dress and Holly's sapphires and
a blush when she and he both realized Holly had deserted them on
purpose —
"I mean, a chert knife cuts just as well whether or not it's got a
design on the handle. So why make it satisfying to look at? Why
decorate it with an invocation to divinity? We obviously can't deny the
impulse, or maybe it's a compulsion — "
— leaving them to a superb dinner and a glorious autumn
evening and each other, all night long, and almost every night after
that until
this would-be god took her life by snapping her neck —
The agony was crippling. Suffocating. There was no power in it, nothing
he could use the way he'd used anger and hate. It gave him no strength;
it bled him of strength. He could not allow himself to feel it.
"—so the definition I like most is that homo sapiens is the
animal that makes things, and not just creates but embellishes, and
needs beauty in the creating — "
A quick sweeping glance located Denise and Noel, still within his
shrunken Circle. There were bowls and candles and implements on the
floor, and sixteen impatiently fluttering ravens. Lachlan sat on a
stone bench, looking peevish. And Holly was still talking.
"—when we respond to beauty, it's the same way we respond to
the whole of Creation. With joy. Simple, honest, inevitable. And we
glimpse
what Yahweh felt when looking at Creation, and seeing that it was good.
What makes us human is our compulsion to create, and to create beauty,
and to look on it with joy — "
Susannah's again voice echoed in his head: "Whatever happened to joy?
This was no time to feel anything but rage. Not sorrow, nor loss, nor
any of the weakening emotions that were of no use to him. He silenced
Susannah's voice in his mind, and deliberately forgot what joy meant.
He would not have the purity of his anger and his hatred blighted. He
would not allow the power it gave him to sieve away. The thundercloud
inside him billowed blacker and thicker, a promise of sacred lightning.
It was how the Towers fell, in billowing clouds and fire like lightning.
"Evenin", Your Honor," Evan Lachlan said loudly and firmly. "Not to be
pushy or anything, but d'you think you can get me the hell out of this?"
Bradshaw concentrated on Noel, glimpsing in the shadows around him avid
faces and seeking hands and greedy, glowing eyes.
"Hey! Bradshaw!"
He had no time for this. Anger and hate reseeded within him, spreading,
stronger.
"Or maybe you haven't got the chops?" called Lachlan's sneering voice.
"Aren'tyou supposed to be Mr. Big Kahuna Magistrate? Prove it!"
"C'mon, Elias!" Holly held up one finger, squeezing a plump drop of
blood. "Prove it!"
Noel sucked in a breath, naked avarice on his face.
That'd my Spellbinder, you obnoxious asshole. Mine!
Prove it?
Facing Lachlan, he began to murmur. The phrases flowed across his lips,
smooth as kisses. Oh, yes—this was power, sharply satisfying,
enhanced by the secret trembling of the gemstones in his pocket. How
did anyone live without this? Elias wrapped his fingers around the
rocks, his mind giving him colors and shapes and the scent of Holly's
blood.
Lachlan pushed himself up from the bench. Wobbly for a moment, he
stumbled, righted himself by locking his knees, shook out his
fingers, and blew out a long, relieved breath. Then he unholstered his
Glock and instantly looked much more relaxed. "Thank you." He eyed
Noel, who stood perfectly still before the altar, riveted to the
welling of Holly's blood. "Can I just shoot him now? Please?"
Holly gave a choking sound that was half laughter, half sob. "Later, a
chuisle, later."
"Okay, but only if you promise," he replied grudgingly. "I'd cuff him
if I'd brought mine along. Anybody got some rope?"
Bradshaw reached into another pocket of his robe and drew out a length
of golden cord. Denise moaned at the sight of it, and clasped her arms
even more tightly around herself. As Bradshaw started forward to tie up
Noel's wrists, Lachlan grabbed the Measure.
"Amateur," he muttered. He tried to sort out the cord one-handed,
puzzled when he found no ends and no knot tying it closed. "Gimme that
knife thing from over there — "
Denise gave a strangled shriek. But it wasn't the threat to her Measure
that brought her up off the floor, wobbling on shivering knees. With
one finger Noel directed her, a smirk twisting his face. She bent over
the plinth and
spread her legs and arms wide, offering her perfect white ass. His robe
swirled as he turned, and his voice echoed like something from a
primeval sepulcher: "The act of worship!"
****
THE WOMAN WAS BLONDE, BEAUTIFUL. The man in the glistening
purple-black robe clasped her by the waist, bent her over the black
altar, plunged into her. His fingers move to her throat, buried
themselves in her
tumble of golden hair, preparing to snap her neck.
Bradshaw gasped and stumbled back. Gemstones ground against the bones
of his fingers as revulsion seized his muscles. Susannah, it was
Susannah — The rocks stung like a handful of cinders gone
almost cold.
The blue of the turquoise and the red specks of the bloodstone
skittered at the
edges of his vision, but what his mind seemed to taste was the
reddish-brown carnelian: the gem that was a talisman against mental
invasion, that healed grief, that granted joy.
The joy that Susannah had been for him filled the gaping emptiness he'd
thought she'd left inside him. She would never have been that selfish,
to take with her that which allowed him to love. Hatred did no honor to
what she had given him. Anger did her no justice. It was for him to
remember joy: "She who is remembered, lived."
He shut his eyes, shamed and oddly grateful. The pain lingered; it
would always be there. The joy -was stronger. And it protected
him
****.
TENDRILS OF GREEN STEMS SNAKED up, sprouting purple flowers
that became summery skirts that swirled around her legs as the man in
the black
cassock grasped handfuls of purple hyacinths and pushed up,
up,and her blonde hair straggled down as she turned her head to look at
him with those gray-green eyes —
No! It hadn't happened this way, he'd never seen her face, only her
flowered dress and the cassock hitched up around powerful
thighs—she was dead, long dead, the priest was rotting in
jail as he deserved, she wasn't here and neither was he but oh God it
looked
just like them —
—hair darkened to deep gold-threaded russet, writhed around
eyes of clear Irish blue and when the man turned his head and grinned,
her
blood was on his lips.
****
SHE DIVIDED HER STARE AMONG the three men, not understanding
Noel's glee or Elias's fury or Evan's anguish. All she really
understood, as
they froze into a tableau vivant of power she couldn't feel, was that
she had damned well had enough of this.
Striding to Elias, she grabbed the pistol at his waistband. "I knew
this thing would come in handy sooner or later," she muttered, and
pointed it at Noel. It had been quite a while since Cousin Jesse had
taken her out for target
practice, but Noel didn't have to know that. "Whatever it is you're
doing, knock it off," she snapped, "or I'll make you a castrato. So
much for your 'act of worship' then."
Noel's arms remained outstretched, but his gaze met hers—a
glitter in his eyes, something of vehemence and fire that matched the
sonorous rumble of his voice. "Put it down."
"Back off!" Holly cocked the little gun, her fingers slippery with
blood. "At this range I can't hardly miss!"
"I am a god!"
She heard a difference in his voice, an abrupt hollowness in his claim,
and saw something like fear cross his face. "And so you're immortal?
Want to test your theory?"
The lustrous power flickered erratically in his eyes. Sammael, Abraxas,
Belial, Set, Abbadon—they were not creator deities but
bringers of death, destroyers of souls. As long as they
anticipated worship, they would linger. But if they weren't going to
get what they wanted, they might abandon Noel as useless.
"If I don't hit you," she taunted, "I'll probably hit
Denise—you or her, I don't really give a shit! If she's dead,
there goes your act of worship! '
His eyes smoldered and his lips curved, and she knew she'd said exactly
the wrong thing. There was more than one woman here, more than one
opportunity for the ritual.
"Death and God—one and the same."
The gods within him laughed in his eyes. She knew a quiver of
temptation to speak directly to them. Well, why not? "You
others—yes, all of you skulking around—what if I
shoot him?
What good will he be to you if he's maimed? That's not what brought you
here!" The luminescence flared and wavered like a guttering candle
flame and she knew she was finally on the right track. "What if I kill
him? What god would inhabit something dead?"
There was a flutter of black wings and an outraged tumult of Kawing.
Noel swayed backward toward the altar, all the substance gone out of
him. His cry of despair became a howl of agony as Denise's fisted hands
lashed up and clouted him right in the balls. He collapsed, moaning.
Denise crawled away from him, green eyes glaring feebly at Holly as
she groped for her velvet cloak. "Him or me, you don't give a shit? "
Holly knew exactly one really filthy phrase in Hungarian. She used it
now. "Baszod, meg, lamb chop. You got us into this mess."
"Holly," said Elias, startling her so much she nearly dropped the gun.
"Give me that before you shoot yourself in the foot. And take care of
Lachlan. He doesn't look so good."
"Abbadon!"
This time she did drop the gun. Noel's voice held no Power but that of
his craving.
"Abraxas! Baalberith!"
He had risen to his knees, arms flung wide.
"Abbadon!" he called again. "Abraxas! Baalberithl"
Holly flung a wild glance at Bradshaw. He had heard it, too.
"Shiva and Set! Eblis, Thoth, Eurynome! Malphas! We are come! We are
here!"
Eliais chanted frantic counterspells to Noel's Summonings. Ravens
shrieked and candleflames shuddered and all the Powers gathered in this
place hovered excitedly, more substantial with every passing moment.
Noel's hands lifted, writing in the air, fingers tracing sigils of
flame. From the darkness prowled a man-shape with the head of a lion,
and serpents for legs, and at the end of those legs, scorpions. In his
right hand he held a pharaoh's gold-and-lapis flail; in his left, an
oval shield.
"Abraxas! He who speaks the hallowed arid accursed word which is life
and death at once and together!"
Another fiery symbol, and another shape coalescing, and yet another,
Summoned to reality—bizarre fever-dream figures with
the bodies and heads and limbs of snakes and horses, eagles and hunting
cats. She recognized the ibis-head of Thoth, and many-armed Shiva. The
rest were unknown to her. Noel's voice named them, louder and louder
until she could not longer hear Bradshaw s frantic words,
until at last the cellar stones trembled with a final elated shout:
"Sammael the Accuser! Sammael the Seducer! Sammael the Destroyer!"
From the outer shadows, where the other grotesqueries lurked and
lingered, came a tall, elegantly made youth, perfect in every
human attribute. Long white hair cascaded below his black-robed
shoulders in shining waves; eyes of pure, soft blue glistened in a face
of surpassing beauty. Both hands gripped the pommel of a darkly glowing
sword held high. A black droplet glittered at its tip.
The apparition paused to regard Bradshaw with an inquisitive smile, as
if wondering who this strangely chanting person might be. With a
dismissive shrug, he moved a few paces forward, then stopped and stared
down at the floor. An expression of delight intensified his beauty as
he bent to pluck up the wand—made of the wood of the holly
tree, symbolic of immortality, used in spells to ease the passage of
the living into death. He examined it, nodding, long white hair
drifting
about his shoulders.
When he looked up again, he saw Holly. He dropped the wand, no longer
interested. An eloquent smile curved his lips. And he glided slowly
forward, the sword uplifted, his steps timed to Noel's ceaseless call
of his name.
He walked toward her.
No. Toward Evan—crumpled on his knees, the golden Measure in
one hand, the Glock in the other. She knelt beside him, whispering,
"E`imbin?"
He stared up at her, his dragon's eyes quite mad.
"Whore," he said coldly.
This was a different anger from his drunken rage of their parting. That
had been brutal. This was lethal. And if she had been frightened of
that other fury, this one paralyzed her.
The Measure slithered to the floor. The Glock was gripped in both
large, strong hands. Holly watched, numb with terror, as the gaping
black hole of the barrel moved closer and closer to her chest.
Cold steel rested in the hollow between her collarbones. She looked
past the dark barrel and his hands to the silver oval resting at his
heart. She had thought him invulnerable. She had believed the spelled
medal was enough to protect him. Flesh and blood, skin and
bone—
Thirty-One
NOT REAL! NOT REAL!
He tried to believe it. The words throbbed through his aching skull
with every beat of his heart. But he knew what he'd seen, the black
cassock and the dress with purple flowers and the obscene "act of
worship" —
That phrase snagged in his mind, cried out in Noel's voice. Noel
— Denise — not her at all, and not
Holly—not real!
Sound thudded into his brain, sound that was someone who spoke without
words, commanding him to stand. He could scarcely see; everyone and
everything he knew to be in this cellar was made of shadows.
Except for Holly, kneeling before him, pale face framed in tangled
russet hair and a black sweater. Her face, her hair, her eyes. He felt
faint quivering heat in the center of his breastbone, next to his
heart. In this unholy muddle of shadows and shapes and birds
flapping their feathers and light that hurt his eyes, she was the one
reality. In his whole life, in all the world, only she was
real.
And so was he. Gleeful, he sensed his own height and strength and the
breath filling his lungs, and the sword in his hand felt more innately
right than his Glock. He looked at Holly, and wanted her.
****
FLESH AND BLOOD, BREATH AND bone—The pitiable
little rhyme nattered mockingly as the angel called "blind to God"
stole
what she had sought to protect. Her mistake had been that of the rank
magical amateur—and a Greek goddess. Eos, in asking eternal
life for her lover Tithonos, had forgotten to include eternal
youth. In protecting Lachlan's body, Holly had forgotten to set a
matching guard
over his mind. Sammael was about to take both.
Yet he seemed to be having a hard time doing it, not quite able to stay
in sync; the two images blurred and twinned and merged and parted
again, one dark and hazel-eyed, one with long white hair twisting about
his beautiful blue-eyed face. Both of them gazed at her, as if only she
had
meaning, as if only she was real. Both of them wanted her.
"No!" screamed Noel. "It's supposed to be me! The Summoning was mine
Sammael!"
Sammael didn't seem to care. All Holly cared about was that the
resonance was gone from Noel's voice, and he was inhabited by nothing
more than what was human.
So was she. Just human. And this thing that was inhuman was thieving
what did not belong to it. Evan's hazel eyes were shading to blue, the
two forms occupying the same space. Soon they would share the same
body. Conscious as she had never been before of the blood pulsing
through her, Spellbinder s blood gleaming on the tip of her pricked
finger as she squeezed the wound yet again, she reached toward the
small silver medal. She touched it, looking up into his eyes.
The etched image of St. Michael began to glow, fiery outline of a tall,
fierce man bearing a sword. Evan cried out and dropped his pistol,
scrabbling with both hands at the medal, trying to claw it from
blistering skin. Holly struggled to her feet and threw her arms around
him. She felt heat against her breast but only held him closer. "A
chuuile, " she murmured, her voice shaking. "A chuisle mo
chroi— "
****
NICK WAS THE FIRST DOWN into the cellar, and stopped at the
bottom step, all too aware of the Circle that fluxed nearby. He looked
around,
mystified by the ravens, the implements, the bowls, the candles.
Neither did he understand the people: Holly and Evan clutching each
other, Denise on the floor in a welter of bare limbs, Elias standing
with his hands fisted and his eyes squeezed shut, gasping for breath.
And Noel: doubled over, rocking slowly back and forth as if silently
weeping.
What Nicholas understood all too well was the taint in die room. His
Romany grandmother's word for it, mabrime, had occurred
to him earlier and now it seemed even more appropriate. There was
something
defiled here, something contaminated by evil. When he felt Alec at his
back on the stairs, instinct made him stop his partner with an
outstretched arm, blocking his way.
"I'm aware that it's perfectly foul in here, Nick. We need to do
something about it. Come on." He pushed past and went to Holly and Evan.
Nick swore under his breath and hurried to help pry them gently loose
from each other. While Alec calmed her down, Nick searched Evan's face.
Hazel eyes, smudged beneath as if he hadn't slept in a week, focused
blearily. "W-wasn't her," he whispered—not quite a question.
"No. It wasn't her," Nick affirmed, having no idea what he was talking
about but knowing a need for reassurance when he saw it.
"That goddamned dress the flowers" His eyes sharpened. "I never knew
what they were. Fucking hyacinths." He raked his hair from his brow and
sucked in a deep breath. "Where the hell have you been?"
Nick ignored the question. "Can you move? We have to get you and Holly
out of here."
"Yeah, I can move." His lips twisted. "Which wasn't the case
earlier—and you don't wanna know. Just don't go anywhere near
that bench."
Nick regarded Noel where he rocked and shivered on the floor, pathetic
would-be god in a heavy black robe. A few ravens skittered over to
pluck petulantly at him. Nick shooed them carefully away and
picked up the gold cording. It would serve to tie the man up for the
time being. It was only when he could not find an end that he realized
it was Denise's Measure.
Well, it would do anyhow. Expertly looping it doubled around Noel's
lanky arms, he tied and tightened a few knots and settled back on his
heels to evaluate his work. Hands bound behind him, cord passing around
his neck, Noel would be unable to move without throttling himself.
"Nice," Evan said. "I've seen cattle tied up worse for gelding." His
hand lifted to his chest, shied back. Nick saw then an oval burn.
"Shit, this hurts. Can we get the hell out of here now?"
He was talking to reconfirm his own reality, Nick surmised; he hadn't
looked at Holly once. "You, yes. The rest of us have Work to do yet."
"Tell me a new one," he replied wryly. "What's with His Honor?"
Elias was breathing normally again, but looking spell-shocked. Nick
went to him, touched his arm, and said, "Are you all right?"
"Stupid question," the Magistrate muttered. "Time to shut down this
Circle. It's giving me a headache."
Nick followed his gaze: the restive ravens, the black candles, the
remains of Noel's instrumentation. A travesty of Samhain. Tonight was
meant to be a remembrance of the dead at the turning of the year.
The summer's Oak Lord gave way to the Holly Lord of winter; the slowly
shortening days led to Yule, when the god was reborn with the sun. The
Christ story followed the pattern: birth at the Winter Solstice, death
at the Vernal Equinox to sanctify the Earth with blood and make
fruitful the land. But this Circle was a thing of shadows, ravens, and
death, and Nick had no idea how Elias would nullify it without the
cooperation of its maker.
Nick stared down at the trussed and helpless architect of this Circle.
Silver-blue eyes met his. They neither beseeched nor defied; they
merely seized and held his gaze with surprising strength. As Nick
instinctively fought him off, Noel's bloodless lips moved. Without
sound he said, "Kill me."
Nick shook his head. Still the pale eyes demanded his awareness. He
moved back a little, awkwardly. "Stop it." The attempt to spell him
faded away. "What does he want?" Bradshaw's voice was raspy. "He says
he wants to die." "No!" Noel exclaimed, and coughed. "Kill me!" Lachlan
said softly, "Yeah, there is a difference, isn't there?"
****
IT REALLY WAS TOO PERFECT. An hour ago Bradshaw could have
given Noel
exactly what he wanted and savored the experience. It was his right as
Magistrate to judge and pass sentence; he'd met few who deserved
death more than this man.
He couldn't do it. Neither could he order it done. Between his anger
and this quietude of soul had come the truest memory of Susannah.
Vengeance was dead in him.
He was peripherally aware of the others in the cellar: when they had
arrived and what they had witnessed interested him not at all. Kate and
Simon, Lydia and Martin and Ian, Leah Towsley and the Reverend
Fleming—they clustered in the doorway, curious or worried or
anxiously alert. They must all be protected from whatever
remained here, and to do that he must negate this Circle.
Gathering himself, he said, "Take the places you occupied the night
Lydia read Susannah's music."
The Reverend had other ideas. "I will have no truck with Satanism," he
warned, "or the worship of demons — I know what you people do
on Hallowe'en, a celebration of death and all that is evil. 'And the
soul
that turneth after such as have familiar spirits, and after wizards, to
go whoring after them, I will even set my face against that soul, and
will cut him off from among his people.'"
"Leviticus, Chapter Twenty," Elias said tiredly. "Forgive me for not
remembering the verse numbers. Can we at least agree, Reverend,
that Noel is the one whoring after spirits tonight? And that you
haven't the slightest notion of how to deal with him?"
Fleming drew breath as if to argue further, then swept his gaze around
the room, resting at last on Noel. His brow pinched and he shied back.
But his voice was fiercely defiant as he said, "I am strong in the
Lord."
"Elias," Lydia said as the others took their positions, "you don't need
me, so •why don't I look after the Reverend?" Gently she took
Fleming's arm and coaxed him aside to stand with Holly and Marshal
Towsley. Farcically enough. Holly introduced herself and he shook her
hand. When all else failed, Bradshaw told himself, take refuge in
civilities; how very Jane Austen of her.
"Miss McClure, you're bleeding," said the Reverend.
"Oh—sorry." She pressed thumb and forefinger together. "I'd
say 'occupational hazard' but it would take too long to explain,
and His Honor needs silence right now."
Bradshaw surveyed the Circle: the implements he hadn't used and the
ravens he hadn't brought into being and the candleflames he hadn't
kindled. If his fifty years had taught him nothing else, they had
taught him to improvise. The configuration wasn't quite right; he
considered, then said, "Simon, you're our Death Lord. Kate — "
"I know, I know—The Crone." She sighed and stood beside Ian
in the North. "Why is it always me? I'm forty-six, not a hundred and
twelve."
Elias was about to begin when another voice whined, "Wh-what about me?"
"You?" He stared at Denise where she crouched on the floor. "You'll
stay put and shut up."
For a second she looked as if she might resist him—but then
her green eyes flickered to the golden Measure tethering Noel, and
whatever
fight had been left in her wilted.
He called the Guardians. Raphael, Ariel, Gabriel, Michael; East, North,
West, South; Air, Earth, Water, Fire. Unexpectedly, with each
invocation the name and nature of a goddess came into his mind also:
brilliant Athena in the East; nurturing Demeter in the North; Selene,
Keeper of the Silver Wheel of Stars, in the West; to the South, Brighid
of the Sacred Fire. In each was something of Susannah's beauty:
her green eyes, her wheaten hair, her -wry smile, her welcoming arms.
The associations surprised him, but there was a pleasure and a promise,
too.
"This is a time which is not a time, a place which is not a place, a
day which is not a day. On Samhain we pass into darkness with the
turning of the wheel, on the night when the veil between the worlds is
thin. On this night, the Lord of the Sun passes from us, the Lord of
the Day becomes the Lord of Shadows. Let goodness—let
joy—be harvested as wheat in the fields, and let hurt be cast
aside, winnowed away as chaff."
The Crone's turn came, and Kate chanted, "Though the Sun Lord leaves us
on this Samhain night, fear not Death. Death is the Comforter and the
Consoler, Death is Heart's Ease and Sorrow's End. Remember
those who have died, for they who are remembered, live."
Simon, the Death Lord, spoke next. "The circle is ever turning. The
days are growing shorter. The Sun Lord leaves us now to the long nights
of winter, but shall return with the spring, when the days lengthen and
the nights are warm and sweet. That which dies is reborn. They who are
remembered, live."
All that is born shall live and die," Elias murmured, "and all that
dies shall be born and live again. This is the Trinity," he went on
with a certain relish,
fully aware of Reverend Fleming's scowling disapproval, "the
Three-in-One that defines the universe. Thought, word, and deed.
Morning, noon, and night. Seed, fruit, and wine. Birth, lite, and
death."
"That which dies is reborn," Simon repeated. "They who are remembered,
live."
****
SHE WHO IS REMEMBERED, LIVES. Holly silently promised it to
Susannah,grateful to concentrate on the traditional reason tor Samhain
instead
of worrying about Evan. He hadn't so much as looked at her since
—well, since. She supposed that sooner or later she'd be
able to convince herself it had been a hallucination brought
on by delayed reaction to the incense — until the next time
Evan
took off a shirt and she saw the scar.
She could feel him standing next to her, tall and solid, warm and
alive. She was just beginning to believe it, as Elias continued his
tranquil recitation, when Noel's sudden movement snagged her gaze.
"Bayemon!"
Noel's voice, resonant with power, echoed from the flagstones to the
vaulted ceiling. He was on his knees, his arms and throat helplessly
knotted in Denises golden Measure. He turned his head as far as the
cord would allow, glaring at Nicky, who stood in the West, domain of
Gabriel.
"Bayemon!"
Nicky's eyes, the color of a summer sea, flickered with darkness like
rain clouds. Opposite him. Alec swayed slightly and moaned.
"Amayon!"
This to the South, where both Elias and Martin stood, the latter like a
Crusader knight carved of ebony—and the Sword in his
hands flowed orange and crimson with flame. Martin gave a blurt of
surprise
but held onto the Sword.
"Amayon!"
In the North, Ian grimaced in sudden pain.
"Lucifer!" screamed Noel. Alec, in Raphael's realm, already reeling
from Nicky's anguish, shuddered and gasped for air.
"By the Lord Jehovah, no!" roared Reverend Fleming. And before Noel
could complete his second calling of Lucifer, the servant ot God surged
forward, away from the Jewish girl who stood stricken by shadows
and the two stunned marshals and Holly, and grasped Alec Singleton by
the shoulders. "Begone from this man! In the name of Jesus
Christ the Son of God I cast thee out!" Alec struggled for breath, his
head
lolling as Fleming shook him. "Hear me. Angels, Prophets, Apostles!
Drive out from these men the evil spirits that possess them! Now, I
say! Help me, Father Abraham, Moses the Lawgiver, Mary the Gende and
Merciful Mother of Christ—"
The four men standing the cardinal points of the compass cried out and
collapsed to their knees. Reverend Fleming staggered and fell,
tangling with Alec; Simon and Kate sagged to the stone floor. Bradshaw
stayed upright a little longer, fighting frantically, but now Noel
focused on him alone and whatever the Magistrates hands and lips were
conjuring did him no good. Lydia gave a single sob of horrified vision
and covered her face with her hands when Elias slumped to the
flagstones.
Holly groped desperately for Evan's hand—but he too was down,
curled on his knees, arms wrapped around himself. She was about to bend
over him, to touch him and damn the consequences, when a gentle hand
clasped her arm and a soft voice whispered, "No. They are none of them
harmed. Watch."
A cloud of shadows gathered around Noel, black shadows subtly
iridescent and trailing sparks as a sudden wind wailed through
shattered glass. The ravens gathered, chittering excitedly, feathers
blurring into a swirl that became a garment. Within it a
figure coalesced, ancient and withered and smiling.
Holly knew who this must be: the Morrigan. Guised as a woman, on the
night before battle she washed the bloodstained clothing of those who
would die on the morrow. In her shape of the great Raven, she soared
over clashing armies, kawing her eagerness to feed on the corpses. For
an instant it was indeed an Irish face above the raven-wing cloak:
broad-browed, green-eyed, white-skinned amid a wild tangle of curls.
The features changed. Cheekbones widened, angled; eyes darkened to rich
earth-brown; skin glossed to coppery bronze; thick hair straightened,
became long and lustrous and inky black.
"Ka'lana Ahkyeli'sk'i, "murmured the unknown woman at Holly's side.
"Raven Mocker. The Cherokee witch who seeks out the dying to rob them
of the last of life."
With a chuckle like a raven's, and with arms spreading like wings,
black feather-woven material fell hack from her hands. Her fingers
trailed sparks. Noel slid down, curled now on the floor, gasping.
Glittering embers fell on his rictus of a face, smoldering on his robe
and the golden cord. The would-be god writhed, struggling against Raven
Mocker, fighting for his life. Or perhaps for the death he had
envisioned. The death, Holly finally understood, that would make him a
god. But not this. Not this. There was now no deep resonance in his
hoarse cries; his gods and parts of gods had deserted him.
Denise screamed without cease, her Measure singed by fire dancing from
Raven Mocker's hands. Holly heard her agony from a great distance, for
her head was filled with the rasps of Raven Mocker's voice. She
understood every word.
Sge!Na'gwa tsudanta'gi tegu'nyatawa'ilateli'ga!" Listen! Now I have
come to step over your soul!
Raven Mocker bent over Noel, a swirl of rainbow black.
"A 'nuwa'gi gu`nnage'gunyu'tluntani'ga! Sun'talu'ga gunnage
degu'nyanu'galun-tani'ga, tsu'nanug isti nige'sunna!" I have come
to cover you over with the black cloth! I have come to cover you with
the
black slabs, never to reappear!
She reached for his chest, where the Measure crossed his breastbone,
and clawed the golden cording aside. Where sharp nails raked his skin
there opened up a gaping bloody hollow braced by white ribs. Her
fingers burrowed deep, and from between bones Raven Mocker dug out a
heart.
"Tsudanta gi uska'lunt sigal"'Now your soul has faded away!
The heart beat frenziedly in her palm, starved for blood to pulse
through the body it had served. With the last air in his lungs Noel
groaned hopelessly. Raven Mocker nodded.
"Tsutu'neligal" So shall it be for you. "Sge!"
But there was nothing to hear. The heart lay still and silent in her
hand.
She tucked it away beneath her cloak of feathers and mist, became a
cloud of shadows once more, and was gone.
A soft sigh. "And so he knows Death."
Holly's own heart was thudding, thick with blood, her Spellbinder's
blood that still smeared Noel's dead fingers.
"How could it be your fault?" the quiet voice asked. "He summoned
Death, and so Death came—but not as he expected."
"And—and he was alone." She heard the words; she had not
spoken aloud.
"Yes. Alone. Do you understand?"
She wrestled with it, the aloneness and the reasons for that aloneness.
In pursuit of godhood, he had severed connection to his own kind. A
rift such as this from humanity's intrinsic magic bestowed the power to
kill other humans without thought or qualm. To murder Scott Fleming and
snap Susannahs graceful neck with no regard for the lives he was
ending. To be aloof, distant, separated—was this what it
meant to
be a god?
No. Never. Deity was everywhere, in all Creation. To turn one's back on
Creation was Death.
"Look within. Discover what you are at this moment creating." Her
confusion brought a snort of impatience. "Your blood, so important
to others—listen to what it tells you!"
Blood—cells—nuclei—the elegant double
helix where all that she was curled in a code of chemicals that were as
old as the
Universe. "We are stardust"
And there was the soft rhythm of the drums, and of voices murmuring in
the star-strewn night. The laughter of water over river rocks, the
whisper of the wind. The crackle of flames in the sacred circle of
stones, and the
heartbeatsm—billions of them—the shift of soil
under her bare feet as she
approached the place where the slight, delicate woman crouched, swaying
lightly back and forth, hands extended to the warmth of an ancient fire.
Dark eyes luminous in a small dark face, she looked up and smiled
welcome. They had not met before, but they were as familiar to each
other as water and skin and recurring dreams. The modern brain that
knew modern science identified the linkage of mitochondrial
DNA, the unique pattern of mother to daughter to daughters
uncounted throughout the millennia; the ancient blood that knew
timeless things
made her bend her head in reverence to the woman rocking
beside the fire.
In the vast singing silence of the grasslands, magic had been created.
And then had come the flow of humankind across the Earth, out of Africa
and across Asia, the Americas, Europe, to every gigantic continent and
tiny island, until the planet was connected by ever-seeking,
ever-curious, ever-creating humankind. Always bringing with
them the first magic, connecting it to the magic in new places that
wasn't
really new magic at all, only waiting for humans to come and listen.
If humans could only listen to each other—listen without
prejudice or intolerance—listen with opened minds and
compassionate hearts—the connections could be
something so splendid, so powerful, so perfect —
"It begins with one," the woman murmured. "And from that one, others.
Now you begin to understand."
Thirty-Two
THE FIRELIGHT WAS ONLY CANDLELIGHT now; the circle of stones
a Circle of fading power. She looked at no one as she spoke aloud the
words,
easily recalled lrom a hundred rituals, that would thank and
disperse the Guardians, and when that was finished she gathered up the
leavings: wood, glass bowls, incense pots cold with ash, and little
black carvings of ravens. These she placed on the black marble altar,
and to them she called flames enough to burn and melt and char.
The women were the first to stir. Lydia, blinking at Holly with wide,
speculative eyes; Kate, searching instinctively with long fingers
in the pockets of her robe to find a restorative herb; Leah Towsley,
rocking lightly back and forth for a moment on her knees before the
dazed expression left her dark eyes. Holly smiled at her, and very
nearly bowed her head once more. But that would only confuse her.
Denise did not move at all.
"I'm not going to ask what happened," Kate began slowly.
"Wise choice," Holly told her. Any explanation she might attempt would,
in honor, be authentic—but not the truth, the way the sparkle
wasn't really the diamond.
"That's what I was afraid of." She sorted among the little colored silk
bags of herbs before her on the floor, selected one, and breathed deep
of its scent. "That's better." Pushing herself to her feet, she moved
to Alec, Ian, Nicky, and Martin, pressing the sachet to each nose in
turn. Holly was amused to note that Kate automatically moved sunwise
around the Circle; Elias had trained them all very well.
He was recovering, too, gaze sharpening as it probed the Four Quarters
and found them quiet. The diminishing fire on the altar made him arch a
brow. He frowned at Holly- "You?"
"Yes."
"All of it?"
"All."
He grunted with effort as he got to his feet. "Good." He stared down at
Noel. "Dead?"
"Very."
Kate was ministering to Simon now. The old man drew back, from the
herbs, wrinkling his nose. "Get that away from me—you'll have
me sneezing my sinuses raw, like Holly."
She watched them all -the Reverend sitting on the cold stones,
whispering a prayer; the Witches, alert now and tending to each other;
the young black deputy marshal who might or might not remember who she
had for a little while been — all but Evan. She could not go
to him. He must come to her.
"Oh, no!" Kate dropped to her knees beside Denise, feeling frantically
at her throat for a pulse. "Simon — "
The Healer and the Apothecary huddled over her, straightening out her
limbs twisted all awry, exclaiming angrily at the bleeding scratches.
They hadn't a clue, and Holly knew it. She said, "It was her Measure."
Both looked at Noel's corpse and saw the small frayings of the doubled
cord crossing his chest.
"Can we stitch it together?" Simon wondered. "Elias, you're the expert
— "
The Magistrate shook his head. "I don't know. I only saw a Measure used
once," He visibly shook off a memory. "The man died."
Holly delved in a pocket and came up with her needle. "If you're going
to try, you'll need this."
"But what will we use for thread?" Kate fretted as she accepted the
needle.
"It's not magicked or anything," said Evan from behind Holly, "but it's
available." He stepped around her, not touching her, and
tugged at a loose bit of cashmere, unraveling a good length before
nipping it
loose with his teeth. "I'll untie him."
He seemed most intent on watching Kate and Simon at work. Holly refused
to let it hurt her. She had to give him time.
"It's over?" the Reverend asked suddenly.
Holly nodded. "It is."
He exhaled a long sigh. "Thank the good Lord God."
"Would you take it amiss if I said 'Amen to that'?" She smiled at him.
"1 know what you saw tonight wasn't exactly Sunday service, Reverend
Fleming. '
"Not quite," he replied. He gazed for a moment at the corpse, freed of
the Measure that was now in Kate's busy hands. "I can't understand what
this man wanted. Deeply as I abhor such an act, if death was his goal,
why didn't he commit suicide?"
"He wanted to die, but to die as a god."
"And thereby find eternal life?" Fleming shook his silvery head. "Those
he called upon were evil, and thus a threat to the life given us by the
Almighty—"
"Who looked upon Creation," Holly murmured, "and saw that it was good."
"Precisely," said the Reverend. "Association with wickedness rejects
God's Holy Work. Had Noel called out to Christ Jesus, he would have
been saved."
"To defeat death, he had to become Death." She spread her hands
helplessly. "There may be some sort of logic in that, but damned if I
understand what it is."
"Belief is belief because you believe it, not because you can prove it."
"Reverend," she said, "as different as our beliefs are, we do agree
about that. But can there be only one path? Life is a journey toward
knowledge—of self, of the world, of Deity—and if we
don't challenge ourselves to seek and to know, doesn't that betray what
we're
meant to be? Isn't the journey the important thing?"
"It could be argued that this was what this man was doing," he pointed
out. "He made Death into a divinity, and sought after it. I would say
that the striving does count, if it is toward the Light."
"Yes, I see what you mean, and you're right." She chuckled. "Did you
ever think you'd hear a Witch tell you that? "
There was a twinkle in his eyes as he replied, "There's hope for you
yet."
"Oh, but that's exactly it!" Holly exclaimed. "That's what Noel didn't
have! It isn't 'Where there's life, there's hope,' it's exactly the
other way around!"
" "Where there is hope, there is life.' I must admit thatyou are
right—and I may steal that for my next sermon." He gave her a
smile. "Nevertheless, I know that the way shown to me is the true path.
I pray that you will find enlightenment"
"Enlighten me about something, Holly," Elias said smoothly, coming up
in time to hear the Reverend's last few words. "Why is Noel dead?"
"That's an excellent question," she said, using a phrase beloved of all
those who need time to think up an answer. The Magistrate's sarcastic
eyebrows let her know that he knew she was stalling, so she stalled
some more by looking around the cellar. Lydia, Simon, and Kate had
departed. Leah Towsley stood by the stairs, arms folded across her
chest, unsympathetic gaze fixed on Judge Bradshaw. Alec and Nicky
walked the Circle, extinguishing candles, and soon the only light left
was the dying smolder of Holly's fire on the altar. Evan was over in
the shadows by the table. Ian lifted Denise to carry her upstairs; she
was wrapped in her coat, barely conscious, her eyes dull greenish slits
in her white face. Martin followed them, cradling his Sword.
"Will she be all right?" asked Reverend Fleming.
"I haven't the slightest idea," Elias said frankly. "We'll do what we
can, of course. Holly, I'm waiting."
Inspiration had not made its face to shine upon her.
She freshened the fire a little with a casual gesture, and Fleming's
eyes narrowed with an expression that hinted that had he been
Catholic, he would have crossed himself. "You might want to head back
upstairs now," she told him. "We're finished here, or almost, anyway."
There was still that bench to deal with—she wasn't sure if
Noel's death had broken its spell.
Fleming took a last look at Noel, shook his head once more, and started
for the stairs. Elias eyed her again.
"If I didn't know better, I'd say you reinforced that suggestion a
little."
"Maybe he just likes redheads."
"Holly?" Alec touched her elbow. "Are you all right?"
"Fine. Tired."
"Aren't we all? Elias, what do you want to do about Noel's body?"
Before she could stop herself, Holly said, "There can't be an autopsy."
"Why not?" He was looking at her again, and she gulped.
"Well, the thing of it is — "
Holding up a stone raven, Nick approached and asked, "Anybody want a
souvenir?"
"Holly — " Elias warned.
"Take one," she invited. "After all, you're named for the Prophet
Elias, and ravens fed him in the desert."
"If I have to ask one more time — "
"All right, all right! It was heart failure." Which had the virtue of
being true. Sort of.
Alec looked her in the eyes. "Oh, really?" He never let her get away
with anything.
"He hasn't got a heart anymore," she said bluntly. "It's gone. It
was—taken. I know there's no hole in his chest and no blood
and no visible reason why he's dead. But he is, and that's
why—and there can't be an autopsy or they'd ask all kinds of
questions we can't
answer."
" 'We'?" Bradshaw asked.
"We," Evan confirmed, and Holly nearly jumped out of her skin. "You may
have noticed, Your Honor, that technically we're all
accessories—and anyone who wants to sort out who's before the
fact and who's after, be my guest. Alec, you want to help me with this?"
Alec took Noel's shoulders and Evan, his feet. "The bench," he
directed. "But don't touch it unless you want to get stuck to it. I
don't know if it still works, but let's not chance it. When I say 'Drop
him,' let go
completely. Okay?" A few moments later Noel hung suspended over the
stone bench. "Now!" Evan said, and they dumped him onto it with a thud
of flesh. Holly shivered. He looked just like that painting of Marat,
dead in the bathtub. Evan dug into a pocket of his jeans and
brought out a small plastic evidence bag.
"What the hell is that?" Alec asked.
"Once a cop, always a cop—even when being a cop is useless.
This is wood from that table over in the corner. Forensics would almost
certainly ID it as the splinters in Susannah's knee. Are we all eye to
eye about who's guilty?"
"Case closed," said Elias. "Court adjourned."
"Good. Nick, gimme that goddamned bird." This and the plastic bag he
let fall onto Noel's chest. "And if you quote Edgar Allan Poe at me,
I'll shoot you where you stand."
"Actually, I was considering it—but not the one you have in
mind."
" 'Dream within a dream? ' Evan suggested.
Nick shook his head. "'Thank Heaven! the crisis—/ The danger
is past, / And the lingering illness / Is over at last—/ And
the
fever called 'Living' / Is conquered at last.' "
"There's another one," Alec murmured. "Not Poe, just as appropriate,
but perhaps more than he deserves. 'Death makes angels of us all, and
gives us wings where we had shoulders smooth as raven's claws.' " He
glanced around as if waiting for someone to place the quote. "Jim
Morrison."
Elias walked slowly around the bench. "I'll do the honors," he said,
kindling new fire to the black candles. They blazed up like
flame-throwers, circling the corpse, plucking at it, soon to
ignite it and burn the evidence to ashes.
"Can we get out of here now?" Alec asked. "Cremation tends to smell a
bit."
They climbed the stairs to the foyer, where the others waited. The sky
had lightened to pearl-gray through the high windows. Soon sunlight
would refract off the hundreds of crystals in the chandelier, casting
rainbows over the walls and floor.
"Finally!" Martin exclaimed. "We were about to send a search party."
"You were right, Elias,' Nick said suddenly. "This place does have a
weird feel to it. Like something's waiting. Alec, are you sensing
anything?"
"I think I'm still glutted from what went on down there. Not to mention
I feel a migraine coming on — "
"Where's Denise?" Elias asked.
Martin gestured to the open door. "Kate and Simon took her
outside—she seems to be coming around. No telling if there's
any permanent impairment."
"We can only hope," Ian muttered, then had the grace to look abashed.
"Umm-Lydia went with them. Are we finished?"
"We can only hope," said Marshal Towsley. "Your Honor, if this kind of
thing goes on a lot, I hope you won't mind if I ask for hardship duty
pay."
"No, Marshal," the Magistrate told her. "This night was . . . unique."
Alec arched a brow. "We can only, et cetera."
"'The night is far spent,'" Reverend Fleming said suddenly, "'the day
is at hand: let us therefore cast off the works of darkness, and let us
put on the armor of light. Let us walk honestly, as in the day. . . .'"
He smiled slightly, and before Elias or Alec could pull their usual
tricks, said, "Romans. And I'm ashamed to say I'm not certain of the
chapter or verse."
"Ego te absolvo," Holly responded, winking at him. Maybe he really did
like redheads; he winked back.
Evan led the way toward the front door and breathed in a huge gulp of
unsullied sea-scented dawn air. As Holly lengthened her stride
to catch up with him, a bit of uneven paving snared her toe and she
fell
flat on her face.
"Oh, for—!" Evan strode back to where she sprawled, gathered
her up and stood, wobbling a bit.
"My hero." She rubbed her knees, already sore from crawling across the
cellar.
"Hero with an incipient hernia." He carried her toward the door. "You
weigh a ton."
"Yeah, that's my gallant knight in tarnished armor," she retorted, and
wrapped her arms around his shoulders. He chuckled, then bent to kiss
her. When he drew back, she asked, "What was that for?"
"Just makin' sure."
"Of what?"
"That I'd rather kiss you than breathe."
"Oh," she replied in a very small voice. A moment later: "Evan? Can we
go home now?"
He angled his head to look at her. "You mean Virginia, don't you?"
"Just for a little while. Would it be all right?"
"We can spend the next fifty years there if you want. I think we should
raise the kids on the ancestral acreage."
She gaped at him. "How did you —"
The old stones of the house began to rumble. Evan swore and tightened
his grip on her, running for the threshold. Splinters of wood, shards
of window glass, chips of plaster, fragments of stone rained down.
Holly choked on clouds of dust and dirt, her attention drawn upward as
the chandelier chimed and rattled, swinging in erratic arcs.
Metal whined as the anchoring plate wrenched from its bolts.
Evan was constantly and creatively cursing. She heard Nicky's voice
shout a frenzy of what had to be Rom spellchants, and Alec's roar of
their names. The sun had cleared the surrounding treetops, its thin
November light angling through the wide-open door.
"This place does have a weird feel to it. Like
something is waiting— "
Waiting for them, or waiting for the sunlight to prompt it? She would
never know—and if they weren't through that door in the next
five seconds, neither she nor Evan would ever know anything again. He
stumbled, breathing hard, his arms locked around her. And she realized
she wasn't really frightened at all. He was here; she was safe.
The ringing crash of the chandelier was a faint clamor compared to the
tumult of stone and glass and metal and wood that instantly
followed. Deafened by the noise and blinded by swirls of powdered
debris, Holly's senses contracted to three: the -warm smell of
Evan, the dry taste of dust, and the secure feel of his arms around
her—and the chunk of something hard and heavy that smashed
into her left arm.
He staggered to his knees, not letting her go, and wet grass tangled in
her fingers. They were outside. She coughed and sneezed, blinked teary
eyes, and hid her face in the warm hollow of Evan's throat. Her ears
stopped ringing in time for her to hear Nicky's voice, his accent thick
with relief.
"Not a scratch on either of them," he said, and Holly didn't see any
use in correcting him; it was just a bruise.
"Thanks, Nick," Evan said shakily.
"I had nothing to do with it. It was Holly. Your St. Michael medal."
He sighed, a long descending note, Evan joggled her a bit in his arms.
She looked up at him. "Toldya you're magic," he teased, and his
dragon's
eyes danced.
Nick left them to each other, and Holly shifted in Evan's embrace.
"Stay put," he ordered.
"Okay. It's your chiropractor's bill."
"Speaking of magic," he said as he rose to his feet again and carried
her toward Alec's Mercedes, "are you going to tell the Rev why
you shook his hand?"
"Why I-?" She blinked. "I guess I did, didn't I?"
"Uh-huh."
"I didn't do it on purpose."
"Uh-huh."
"Evan, I didn't!" She wrapped her arms more securely around his
shoulders. "I really didn't. I think it's like when I'm writing, and
I'll put in some detail that seems like a throwaway, just local color
or
whatever, but then twenty chapters later I realize I was subconsciously
setting myself up for something important and didn't realize it while I
was doing it, and — "
"Holly."
"Yes, E`imbin" "Lady love." "What, my lord?" "Shut the fuck up."
Epilogue
"COME ON," HOLLY SAID, TAKING Elias's arm. "Let's go lor a walk."
They left by the kitchen door, hurrying past the chicken coop to escape
the suffocating smell of hot feathers, and headed for the paddocks. The
August heat had been ferocious all afternoon, but as shadows lengthened
the air began to cool.
"So how d'you like Woodhush Farm?" asked Holly.
"I wasn't sure what to expect," he admitted. "Ramshackle Rustic,
Colonial Overkill —and you could've been wearing anything
from
overalls held together with twine to jodhpurs and a hacking jacket.'
She laughed. "It's just an old Southern homestead. Couple dozen horses,
a few cows, chickens, cats — and Evan's big old mutt burying
hotdogs in the irises."
"I'm surprised you got Lachlan to agree to live here. I would've
thought You Belong to the City' was his theme song."
"Scratch an Irishman, find a peasant underneath. This spring he
actually volunteered to help Aunt Lulah with the vegetable garden."
"How's he like country life?"
"He's getting used to it.'
"You know what I meant, Holly. Has he recovered from last Samhain?"
"Well, he'll always have the scar on his chest. I think I finally
figured out why. Breath, blood, flesh, bone — I forgot
'skin.'
And the medal doesn't protect him from accidents, either. He broke a
toe out in the barn this May, and you should've seen the bruises the
first time he fell off a horse. I Spelled against enemies, you
see. Not mishaps."
"But aside from the toe and the bruises — ?"
She climbed over a split-rail fence and waited for him to follow. "He
had trouble sleeping at first. Dreams, of course —we both had
nightmares for months—'but he kept saying it was so quiet
here.
He was used to traffic, sirens, people yelling, and here there's
nothing but owls and the wind, maybe a horse whickering in the
paddocks. . . ."
They passed a group of mares with their yearlings, then climbed a rise
where a small graveyard spread within a white picket fence. There were
about fifty marble headstones, a little fleet of white sails on an
eternal voyage through snowstorms and sunshine . . . never going
anywhere.
"That was the first of us to live at Woodhush," Holly said, leaning on
the fence, pointing to the nearest headstone. "Thomas Flynn. His
great-granddaughter married a McClure."
Bradshaw read names aloud. "Sarah Amaryllis, Elizabeth Sage
—Petunia Pearl?"
"Over there's the one I pity most —Clarissa Tulip Bellew, who
was called Lippy all her life. Probably accurate, too," she mused. "All
the
Bellews could talk the hind leg off a donkey and still have breath to
cuss out the parlor maid for setting the silver wrong."
"I'll refrain from the obvious remark about familial characteristics,"
he told her. "What made you decide on Rowan?"
"Evan went through all the family names and liked that one best. The
rowan is a very magical tree, you know — sacred to Brighid,
usedfor runes and divining rods, and the berries even have a tiny
pentagram on them."
"The Witch Wood," Rlias murmured. "Susannah Rowan
Lachlan—it's a good name."
She glanced sidelong at him. "I can't believe you actually thought she
and Kirby might be yours."
"Until you sent the pictures, I wasn't sure. You have to admit the
timing was a little dicey."
"Nonsense. They were early. Twins often are. And a good thing, too, or
I wouldn't have any back left. Six-and-a-half pounds each!"
"Oh, they're Evan's all right," Elias said. "Susannah's got his
hairline, Kirby has his nose."
"I know. Poor little guy."
He grinned at her. "There's always rhinoplasty."
She opened the iron gate and started picking weeds off the graves. He
crouched down to help.
After a while Holly asked, "Did Marshal Towsley ever remember anything?"
"Not that I can tell. We've never really talked much about it. I'm not
sure what there is to remember."
"How very unsubtle a hint. What do you remember about that night?"
"It's the feelings that have stayed with me, and the shame of feeling
some of them. The rage, mostly. Hating Noel. Wanting to kill him. It
was rather a shock to find I couldn't give him exactly what he wanted."
Holly nodded. "I find myself agreeing -with Reverend
Fleming—it
seems an unnecessarily complicated way to commit suicide. But I guess
Noel just didn't like being human. That's the only way I can explain it
to myself. Being human and therefore mortal, he saw Death as his enemy.
And it terrified him."
"He asked the crucial question all of us ask eventually: What happens
when I die? And look at his answer, Holly. To become a god, to be
immortal and powerful and free of the fear—"
"How could anyone live like that? He couldn't endure being human,
knowing one day Death would come for him and he'd have no
power against it—I can't imagine what it must have been like,
to
exist in such appalling fear, to be so completely devoid of joy."
"Susannah told me once that it doesn't matter what your faith is, as
long as it provides comfort and keeps you in touch with the better part
of yourself. As long as it helps you to celebrate what it is to be
human. To find the joy in living, to create something meaningful of
your life."
"I miss her."
"Me, too."
She gathered up an armful of weeds and threw them out into the field.
"Let's go down to the springhouse."
She led the way downhill to a bend in the creek, and they were silent
until Elias observed, "You've been incommunicada since Christmas. Any
chance you'll rejoin the real world anytime soon?"
"Oh, Elias," she smiled, "this ut the real world!"
"A century ago, maybe." He kicked at a rock.
"And a century from now, if we're all lucky," she retorted. "My kids
will make their mud pies with dirt their ancestors farmed. So will my
grandchildren and their grandchildren, I hope. What could be more real
than that?"
"You're hiding," he accused.
"I did my hiding in New York." She opened the door of the springhouse
and went to a cupboard for a quart Mason jar of clear liquid. "You
couldn't make it to the wedding, so you didn't get your party favor,"
she teased. "This is some of the very last batch of the late Widow
Farnsworth's shine. Uncle Nicky says that in Hungarian, this stuff is
called keri'tesszaggato'—*literally, 'fence-ripper.'"
He accepted the jar warily. "No smoking for twenty-four hours after
imbibing?"
Holly nodded. "And no imbibing anywhere near an open flame."
"Must've been a hell of a wedding."
"It was. We should probably be getting back. Lulah likes to begin just
before sunset."
"What made you choose Lugnasadh for the—what shall we call
it? Not a christening."
"Just a blessing, Elias. Nothing more complicated than that. I chose
tonight because the twins are two months old as of this morning. And
also because I can almost get into some decent clothes again!"
****
THE GUESTS WERE FEW AND, with the exception of Evan and
possibly the
twins, all Witches. A baptism -would occur when the Lachlans went to
visit his relations at Thanksgiving, but tonight's was a gathering upon
which any church would frown.
Then again, it wad Lammas, Holly reflected as she gathered Kirby from
his crib. Cousin Clary called it that, rather than Lugnasadh, with a
wink. "Loaf Mass" in the Catholic calendar, celebrating the harvest;
another co-opting of a much more ancient holiday. It was the most
popular date for the moveable feast of St. Catherine, when in some
villages the burning Catherine Wheel of her martyrdom would be rolled
down a hill—remnant of a rite in -which the flaming disk
representing the sun-god in his decline.
Evan cuddled Susannah in the crook of his elbow, tickling her cheek
with one finger. Daddy's Little Girl, Holly thought with fond
amusement. She couldn't wait to watch him go completely apeshit once
boys started hanging around. "I'm the sheriff in these parts, I carry a
gun, and I know how to use it. Have her home by ten or else."
She'd been apprehensive, but he was honestly enjoying his new job.
Cousin Jesse was a year from retirement, and had taken to Evan like pen
to paper. After the Lachlans moved here permanently in January,
the men had spent two days a week driving every road in the county,
checking in on all the residents, getting them familiar with Evan as
their new deputy sheriff. By now he was finished handing off
his case files (Wyatt, Dillon, and McCloud -were now administered
by others) to the Marshals Service in Richmond, so he didn't have to
commute a couple of times a month anymore. This was his third law
enforcement agency, and, he swore, his last.
He was, contrary to all her apprehensions, happy here. He was satisfied
with his work, and he loved the house, which they had to themselves.
Lulah had moved into the old overseer s cottage by the creek with every
evidence of relief. "Kickinme out of my own home? Don't be more
dim-witted than Nature made you, boy. You think at my age I want to he cleanin'
and tidy in' that big old barrack)? No, this'll do me just perfect.
I'll he close enough to spoil the children, and a far enough
walk do you won't I get on my nerves."
As for the noise and excitement and adventure of New York City
—who needed it? Holly didn't. Neither, it seemed, did Evan.
She gazed at him now, tall and sun-browned, cuddling his daughter. Yes,
this was real.
He was wearing his wedding present, an antique gold stickpin set with a
blue-green raindrop emerald. It had first been worn by William
Alexander McClure at his marriage to Delilah Rose Mayfield in 1866.
Evan had positioned it at a rakish angle in the lapel of his tuxedo
jacket. He wasn't wearing a tie — indeed, he had on jeans and
a
white cotton shirt, and the inevitable ostrich-hide cowboy boots.
Her own wedding gift was on the little finger of her right hand: a gold
signet ring engraved with the Lachlan crest. Around the shank was
carved her name in Irish Gaelic: Cuilenn Eilis MacLeoire Lochlainn. She
hadn't been kidding when she'd told Elias she could finally get back
into some of her clothes, though the DKNYs and Armanis were not only
still out of the question, they were packed away. Levi's and shorts,
summer dresses, workshirts, tee-shirts: these were all she needed. This
evening it was a yellow blouse, black trousers, and her mother's pearls.
She hadn't bought a stitch of clothing in months—except for
nursing bras.
The table, covered by a linen cloth embroidered in yellow and orange,
was decorated with wheat sheaves, lavender wands, a vase of full-blown
white roses, and a corn dolly. Pitchers were full of lemonade, various
teas, and Cousin Clary's applejack and elderberry-flavored mead; brass
serving plates held five kinds of bread; earthenware bowls contained
fruit salad, three-bean salad, and Evan's experiment with the tomatoes,
green peas, and onions he had grown himself.
Alec and Nicky, Clarissa and Jesse, Lulah and Elias: these were the
sponsors, or patrons, or godparents, or whatever term one
wanted
to use. They had come bearing gifts and magic to celebrate the Sabbat
and welcome the twins. Holly swayed lightly back and forth with her son
in her arms, ostensibly to soothe him, fully aware that Kirby Nicholas
Alexander Lachlan was a child who never required soothing. His sister
might be screaming at the top of her lungs, and all he ever did was
cast an annoyed glance in her direction and go back to sleep. He was
sleeping now, black hair curling around his cheeks and forehead,
missing the honor of having his very first Circle called by a
Magistrate around the dining room table that tonight served as
altar.
East, North, West, South. Guardians invited; candles lit. Smudge sticks
of lavender and sage and rosemary, sent by Kate, wafted sweet smoke
through the air.
Elias said, "To the Shining God we offer thanks. To the Goddess of
Plenty we give homage. For the harvest they have nurtured, the beauty they
have provided, and the children who join us in their first
celebration, we honor them on this night of Lugnasadh."
Alec smiled at Holly and Evan, saying, "We've all gone Irish lor this,
so here's my contribution." Placing two silver-banded amulets on the
table —one moonstone, one malachite — he went on,
"May you
have the hindsight to know where you've been, the foresight to know
where you're going, and the insight to know when you're going too far."
"You can pretend to be as Irish as you like," Nick said. "Me, I'm Rom
— and as everyone knows, Tsbatshimo Romano: truth is expressed
in
Romany.' So, to go along with these —" He set two small
leather
drawstring bags on the table. *'—Kon Del tut o nai shai dela
tut wi o vast, or, 'He who willingly gives you a finger will also give you
the whole hand.' Watch your fingers, little ones."
"Sound reasoning," said Clarissa as she took her place. "But I'll stick
with the Irish. Leprechauns, castles, good luck, and laughter,
lullabies, dreams, and love ever after." Her gifts of small pillows
stuffed with herbs were laid on the table.
Lullah's turn came next. "These were some of my brother's favorites,
the man who was these children's grandfather. May you never forget what
is worth remembering, or remember what is best forgotten. May
you
get all your wishes but one, so you always have something to strive
for. May the saddest day of your future be no worse than the happiest
day of your past." She tucked two folded child-size quilts among the
other gifts.
"My cousin Margaret," said Jesse, "who was these children's
grandmother, learned this one from our grandmother. It goes, A sunbeam
to warm you, a moonbeam to charm you, and a sly Irish angel so nothing
can harm you.'" Two bottles of Irish whiskey were his gift. "Not until
you're twenty-one," he said, shaking a finger at the children. "By
which time this should be smooth as a barbershop shave."
At last Elias came forward and said, "A Magistrate is supposed to take
the part of baptizing priest at this point, and outline the basics of
the faith. Thing is, there's no one right way, no single correct path.
Whatever you choose to create of your lives, you have worthy examples
in your parents. If you live with integrity and honor, and
keep
getting back up if you stumble and fall, you'll do just fine." He
rested long, gentle fingers on each child's head. "May the strength of
Three be in your journey: the strength of your mother, and of your
father, and of your own soul. So mote it be."
****
LATE THAT NIGHT, WHEN CLARISSA and Jesse had gone home and everyone
else had gone to bed, Holly and Evan went upstairs to check on the
twins.
"Sleeping like the sweet darling little angels they aren't," she
observed.
"Look at all this," Evan muttered. "A whole zoo of stuffed animals and
enough clothes to stock an outlet mall."
"Your pardon, sir, but who came back from D.C. last month with two
fuzzy little baby-panda toys? This isn't to forget the two pairs of
pint-sized cowboy boots. And are you ever going to tell me the truth
about where you got those awful things?"
"Nope." He grinned; she growled; the rocking chair purred.
"Brigand, you stay out of here or I'll tie your tail in a knot." Holly
marched in, snared the cat, and tossed her toward the door. She landed
nimbly, twitched her luxuriant white tail as if daring a follow-through
on the threat, and stalked off. After making sure the baby monitors
were switched on. Holly kissed both children and returned to the
doorway. "You're wearing that silly look again."
"I've earned it." Circling her shoulders with one arm, he guided her
next door to their bedroom. "How bad a hangover do you think His
Honor's gonna have tomorrow?"
"Epic." She snorted. "His own tault. He's the one who opened the jar
and spiked the lemonade."
"I was expecting he'd give the kids something a little less normal. A
gift certificate for a swingset and wading pool isn't exactly
Witchy."
"I thought it was sweet." She watched as he unbuttoned his shirt and
rubbed reflexively at the scar on his chest. It had become a habit, and
it reminded her of something Bradshaw had said earlier. "By
the
way, he thinks you must be going crazy here." When Evan arched an
inquisitive brow, she explained, "City boy all discombobulated in the
country. No Starbucks within seventy-five miles."
"No locks on my doors, either. No smog, no mob hits to clean up, no
whack-job taxi drivers, no gridlock, no wondering what's in the water
this week, no neighbors hollering at two in the morning—" He
grinned. "Are we sensing a trend?"
"I did worry about it, you know."
"So did I."
"You never said — "
"I didn't want you to fuss." He sat on the bed to haul off his boots.
"It's slower here, yeah, but there's a rhythm to the place, like New
York has a rhythm. I just had to keep listening until I heard it."
Holly rested her hands on his shoulders. "And what do you hear, a
chuisle?"
He smiled. "People who don't live as fast, because they're not afraid
of not living enough."
"So you're okay with staying here? Really okay, I mean?"
"Lady love," he said in a tone of infinite patience, "have I ever said
anything to make you think I'm not? Am I the type of guy who'd keep his
mouth shut about something like that? And are we ever gonna get to bed
tonight?"
"In order: No, no, and whenever you're up for it, Sheriff darlin'."
AUTHOR'S NOTE:
TO THOSE WHO ARE DISAPPOINTED that this isn't another
book—The
Captal'd Tower or an offering in the "Golden Key" or "Dragon Prince"
universes—well, what can I tell you? Life happens. So does
clinical depression. If it happens to you, and I earnestly hope it
doesn't, get help. When I was able to write again, I wanted
—needed—to do something entirely different from
anything
I'd done before. This book certainly is that. Spellbinder is a
considerable accomplishment for me: it wouldn't exist if I hadn't
sought therapy.
My Aunt Gena once complained that the names in my novels were weird. I
asked if she'd believe in a world that had dragons or Mage Globes and
guys called George. I never expected it to be so difficult to name
people in my own world and time. When choosing contemporary names, one
runs into the problem of "If I call this guy George, then
every
George I've ever met will think I'm writing about him." (Although one
ought never to overlook the Author's Unique Revenge aspect, which is
when you casually mention that if so-and-so isn't nice to you, you'll
put him in your next book and make him the palace eunuch.) No
one
in this novel is anyone I know. What I ended up doing was
stealing
names from my ancestors, with several exceptions — one of
which
is "Scott Fleming" (not his real name), winner of a convention charity
auction. I hope he thinks the money he paid was worth it!
In case you were wondering: the subtitle of this novel was cribbed from
Dorothy L. Sayers' Busman's Honeymoon: A Love Story with Detective
Interruptions (pretty cheeky of me, huh?); the tale of the
fur-lined tent is true (my father really hated the cold!); finally, for
anyone interested in my line of descent from Mary Bliss:
Mary Bliss m. Joseph Parsons
Joseph Parsons m. Elizabeth Strong
Noah
Parsons m. Mindwell Edwards
Thankful Parsons m. John Deane
Rhoda Deane
m. Willam Powers
William Powers m. Elizabeth Cutter
Benjamin Powers m.
Martha Stevens
Elizabeth Rebecca Powers m. Philetus Leroy Fisk
Claude Ernest Fisk m. Stella Alderson
Alma Lucile Fisk m. Robert Dawson Rawn
Many thanks to: Russell Galen and Danny Baror; Beth Meacham; Mary Anne
Ford, world's bestest best friend; Laurie Rawn, my one and only Sister
Unit; Caislin Weathers; Gena and John Lang for being my Aunt Gena and
Uncle John; Jane Endries and Beverly Haskin for reading early
drafts; the denizens of the bulletin board
(http://www.MelanieRawn.com); the good folks at Jitters on Route 66 for
triple-shot mochas and endless iced tea; and all the various Busbys,
Browns, and Johnsons for being such wonderful neighbors to the Crazy
Writer Next Door.
Most of all, always, Mom and Daddy. I miss them more than I can ever
say.
Melanie Rawn Flagstaff, Arizona