"There is no man who has power over the wind to
retain the wind; nor has he power over the day of
death: and there is no discharge in that war; nor
shall wickedness deliver those who are given up to
it." Ecclesiastes 8:8
"You did what!" Deacon screamed from behind his desk.
"It seemed like it might be more expedient . . . " Kirk started.
"This woman is the brand new lesbian DA. Every fucking camera in this country is turned on Carrie Long right now. You don't do shit to her. You don't talk to her. You don't even look at her. I thought I made that crystal clear."
Kirk glared at Jason who just grinned. Kirk didn't have to ask who had told Deacon what he had done. The goddamned weasely-eyed little dwarf.
"Sir, with all due respect, we are getting nowhere this way . . . "
"If there is one thing that the agency has never been, Anderson, it's in a hurry. You get in a hurry and you make mistakes. Webb wasn't kidding. If you back her into a corner she'll rip your face off. That's a fact; you push her too hard and she'll blow this whole thing wide open. I told you what the science boys said about her."
"That's why I'm recommending termination," Kirk said.
"Then we'll never find out who the Fry Guy is, and he's our real problem—not Webb. Hell, we know all about Webb, she's part of the program. This guy's NOT. He's the one we really have to worry about. Besides, the boys at the top have made it real clear they don't want Webb killed."
"How can we get her to tell us anything if we can't put the pressure on?" Kirk asked. "I guarantee she's not going to just give us the information."
"We can put pressure on her, Kirk. But we can't afford to be stupid about it. Look what your stupidity cost us. She's found every bug in the house. We had ears in there, and now we got nothing because you got ants in the pants. You're going to have to be subtler. We move on nice and slow, and if that doesn't work, then we get vulgar. But even then we don't get sloppy."
"Yes, Sir," Kirk said through gritted teeth.
Deacon stood up then, put his fists on his desk, and looked down at Kirk. "I know you'd love to think otherwise, but you are not in control of this operation. Hell, I'm not even the boss, which would make you a fucking peon. Don't go off half-cocked again. When you do, you make me look bad, and I don't like to look bad. Do I Jason?"
"No, Sir," Jason said.
"From now on if you need to take a shit, Kirk, you check in with me first. You got that?"
"Yes Sir."
"Do you think it's fucking funny?" Kirk asked as he drove.
Jason grinned broadly. "Yes," he said simply.
"I ought to kick your fat, fucking . . . "
Jason shook a finger at him. "Better call Deacon first."
"Someday I'll be where Deacon is, Jason, and then you'll be sorry you weren't more respectful," Kirk said.
Jason laughed. "And that's it for you, isn't it? That's the whole tamale. To become a high ranker in the agency. To be a bigger peon than you are now. That's fucking pathetic."
Kirk laughed back. "That's kind of the pot calling the kettle black, isn't it?"
"Ah, but at least I know I'm pathetic," Jason said.
"You make me sick," Kirk spat. "You are completely without ambition . . . "
"I had ambition once and look where it got me. I'm a fucking hired goon for a secret government agency, which never should have existed in the first place. Stalking someone who's no doubt going to kill me, in the company of a man I cannot stand, and who can't stand me. When you have a job like ours, Kirk, ambition isn't a good thing; it's a bad thing. Just look at what you're willing to do to get a crappy office like Deacon's."
Spider looked down at Henry. He looked so peaceful. He always looked so peaceful.
"Hey, dude!" She sat down beside him. "Boy, have I gotten myself into a big heap of crap . . . " She talked to him for about half an hour. When she started to leave a nurse at the front desk called her over.
"There a problem, Karen?" Spider asked.
"No. A man came in and left this. He told me to give it to you." She handed Spider an envelope.
"Thanks." Spider forced a smile and then went out to the truck with the unopened envelope in her hand. She looked in her rear view mirror, spotted the SWTF men, and wasn't too surprised. She started to just wad the envelope up and throw it away, but curiosity won the day and she opened it.
It read: How touching! Wouldn't you like to know once and for all what really happened to your brother and Henry Chambers? If you show me yours, I'll show you mine.
Spider had a pretty good picture of what had happened to her brother and Henry. She'd like to follow these bastards to whatever rock they crawled under at night and see if they could take it as well as they could dish it out. But she couldn't afford the luxury of anger, no matter how righteous it might be.
She wadded the note up, used her car's cigarette lighter to light it, and then threw it out her window.
The doorbell rang and George stupidly opened the door without even asking who it was.
"Hello, can I help you?" George asked the middle-aged man who stood in the doorway.
"Yeah, ah," he cleared his throat. He looked past George into the hallway. "You the butler?"
George was more than a little offended. "No, I'm the assistant DA. Can I help you?" he asked again.
"Spider Webb live here?"
George began to think he had screwed up badly.
Carrie walked into the hallway then, a stack of papers in her hand. "I haven't got all night, George . . . " She saw the stranger in the door then and right away started wondering how many steps it would take her to get to her gun. She still had the mace, but now it had a friend.
"Who are you?" she demanded.
"I'm looking for Spider Webb," he said.
"Who are you?" Carrie demanded again.
"Cecil Webb . . . I'm Spider's father. Man at the station house told me she left for home an hour ago. Said she lived here."
Carrie didn't know what to do with him. She got him a cup of coffee and showed him to the den where she and George were working.
Was Spider going to be glad he was here? Was she going to be mad that Carrie had let him in the house? What the hell was he doing here? Why now of all times?
He was walking around the room looking at Spider's service photos and the medals that lined one wall of their den.
"How long does it usually take her to get home? Hell, it only took me about twenty minutes, tops."
It was a good question. It wasn't the first time Carrie had noticed a discrepancy in the time between Spider's leaving work and getting home. It took her anywhere from thirty minutes to an hour longer than it should have, and she wasn't always at the bar with Tommy.
"She should be home soon," Carrie said.
"So . . . I take it . . . You must be her girlfriend." He didn't even try to hide the sarcasm in his voice.
"That would be me," Carrie said.
"She's done very well for herself, hasn't she?" He indicated the medals, but Carrie knew what he meant.
"She's worked very hard," Carrie said through gritted teeth.
She heard the front door open, wondered if she should warn Spider, and if so—how. Too late, Spider was walking in the room.
"What a fucking day I had . . . Hello, George."
"Spider," George said.
Spider walked over and kissed Carrie on the check. "So, how was your day?"
"Average," Carrie said. "Spider, your . . . "
Spider turned before she could finish and stared at the man standing in the corner. She glared at him. "What the fuck do you want?"
"Spider, for God's sake!" Carrie muttered.
Carrie looked at George who indicated that he had to leave the room. She nodded at him, and he all but ran out.
"Is that any way to great your old man, girl?" Cecil asked with a laugh that was anything but pleasant.
"Oh, I've graduated from 'worthless dyke' to girl, have I? We got nothing to say to each other, so why don't you bugger off, old man?"
He was shaking with anger. "I thought maybe we could put all that behind us, but you're not going to let me do that, are you?"
"What's in it for me?" Spider hissed.
"OK, girl. I can be blunt, too. There's really only one reason I'm here. Two government bullyboys showed up at the house. Hadn't seen anything like them since right after your mother died. They asked a bunch of questions about you, your brother, and your mother. I didn't tell them too much. I sent them on their way, or I tried to. They weren't in any hurry to go, and made it real obvious that they'd rough me up if I pushed the issue."
Spider's attitude changed. "What exactly did they want to know?"
"Stupid shit, really. Were you a happy child? Did you have friends? Nightmares? Were you afraid of the dark? Asked the same things about Scott. They wanted to know why your mother left me . . . "
"Mother left you? You never told us that," Spider said.
"It wasn't anything you needed to know. I don't know why she left, and I told them so. I just came home from work one day, and she had taken you and your brother and gone. Didn't leave so much as a note. Two weeks later she died in the car crash . . . "
"Where the fuck were Scott and I?" Spider asked.
"You were both thrown clear. When they found you, you were still in your car seat. Didn't have a scratch. Or so they said. When I looked at you, you had little bruises all over. Nothing too bad, but I wondered how you got them."
"We were in the car!" Spider screamed. "We were in the car, and you never told us that." Spider rubbed her head and tried to process the information. "Were these men SWTF?"
He shrugged. "They said they were some kind of weapons experts or somethin'. Government goons in black trench coats show up at your door, you don't ask too many questions."
"Did it ever dawn on you that maybe mother didn't leave of her own free will?" Spider asked.
Cecil looked at Carrie. "There she goes again, the wonderful mother thing. I took care of her most of her life, fed her, clothed her. Me, she hated, but the wonderful mother . . . Always fantasizing about her. About how great she was. Spider and her brother both. Till the day Scott died he blamed me for everything. You ever try raising two thankless kids on your own? It ain't easy . . . ."
"Shut up! Shut the fuck up!" Spider screamed. Her fists were wrapped so tightly that her fingernails were biting into the skin of her palm. "I'm thirty-nine years old. Most of my life we haven't even been on speaking terms. Didn't you realize that these fuckers were after me? They want to play with my brain. What did you tell them about me?"
"Don't you scream at me, girl!" Cecil's rage seemed more potent than his daughter's. "What the hell have you done that these guys are asking about you? What the hell are you into, girl?"
"What did you tell them?" Spider hissed and pushed. She'd never pushed him before. But now she realized just how completely the parent/child bond between them had been severed, and didn't consider even for a moment that she might owe him the courtesy of not playing with his brain
"I told them the truth. That you were a moody, miserable child. That you had nightmares constantly. There wasn't much to tell . . . "
"Because you never really knew me. You were always fucking drunk off your ass. You're a belligerent, drunken piece of shit. Always were and always will be. Get out of here! Just get the hell out of my house," Spider ordered.
"I want you to get those goons off my back," Cecil said, standing his ground. "It's your fault they're bothering me. I want you to stop doing whatever the hell you're doing so that they'll leave me alone. Better still give me some money so I can get the hell out of town. Yer girl's got enough cash to spare."
"It will be a cold day in hell when I'd give you anything." Spider laughed at him. "Don't you get it? They've never left you alone, and they never will. This time it is my fault, and I don't give a damn. Get out of my house, or I'll throw you out. If you're wondering if I can, or if I really will, then just try me."
Carrie pushed a drink into Spider's trembling fingers. "You OK, Spider?"
Spider nodded and downed the drink before she avoided answering Carrie's question.
"The dirty bastard has a hell of a nerve coming here. All my life I've been plagued by nightmares. The filthy creep knew exactly what I was dreaming about, and he never told me that we were in the wreck that killed our mother. Never sent us to counseling. Never even tried to help us get through it."
George walked slowly into the room. "Carrie . . . can I help here?"
"If you'd take those papers and work on them tonight I'd appreciate it," Carrie said.
George walked over and collected the papers, sticking them into his briefcase. He started to leave, then turned at the door. "I'll see how much of it I can do on my own. If you guys need anything . . . "
"Thanks, George," Carrie said. "Would you lock the door on your way out?"
"Got it, boss." He left.
Carrie waited till she heard the door close. "Why do you think they went to him? They must have known the two of you hadn't spoken in years. What was the point?"
"They're squeezing me from all sides."
Spider put her hands behind her neck and tried to rub away some of the tension.
Carrie moved her hands and took over.
"Thanks," Spider said. She could feel the calm returning to her body slowly as Carrie rubbed her neck and shoulders.
"It's a military tactic. Not unlike some of the crap you do to people in the courtroom. They want to make sure that I have no place to turn; nothing that they haven't touched. My woman, my car, my house, everywhere I go, my estranged father. They are systematically touching everything I have ever touched." She was thoughtful. "Apparently they mean to interrogate me. That's why they're compiling all this data. The more you know about a person the easier they are to break."
"It's hard to get answers out of someone when you know nothing about them," Carrie agreed. "It's easy when you know everything about their past and their psyche. If you know the way their mind works, then they can't hide anything from you."
"Problem is I have a feeling they know more about me than I know about myself," Spider said thoughtfully.
Spider gently pushed Carrie's hands away, stood up and started pacing the room.
Carrie sat down where Spider had been.
"What do you mean by that?" Carrie asked. Spider looked down at her and Carrie threw up her hands. "Don't say it; I already know. You can't tell me without putting my life in jeopardy. Honey . . . don't I already know too much? Aren't I already a target?"
"They would have to be pretty desperate to do anything to you right now."
"You mean because I'm in the public eye?"
Spider nodded. "If a secret agency wants to remain secret, and believe me these pecker-heads do, it doesn't run around nabbing government officials."
Carrie nodded. That made sense. "What about you?"
"I want you to make me a promise . . . "
"Absolutely not," Carrie said, shaking her head frantically.
"Hear me out, Carrie . . . "
"No. I know what you're going to say, and I don't want to hear it."
"If I go missing . . . "
Carrie got up and stomped out of the room.
Spider followed her, grabbed her arm and spun her around.
"Damn it, Carrie, listen to me!"
"No! You listen to me! If anything happens to you, I'm going to do everything in my power to take these bastards down, and nothing you can say—no vow, or promise, or oath you make me take—is going to stop me. Maybe you should go away. Hide out with one of your army pals for a while or something. Wait for things to cool down."
"I can't run from this, Carrie. If I do it'll only follow me—or worse. This, whatever the hell it is, and please believe me when I tell you that I'm not exactly sure of all the details myself . . . It isn't going to go away. Sooner or later it's got to be dealt with." She took Carrie's face between her hands. "You have to be strong. Sometimes you have to play the game by their rules, but at least then when you win the game is over." Spider let Carrie go.
"You're saying things that make no sense and scaring the hell out of me, Spider," Carrie said close to tears.
"You're going to have to use your head. If you screw up trying to play the hero, you'll just get me killed. You'll get us all killed. You're an intelligent woman, Carrie, a hell of a lot smarter than I am. I'm trusting you to use your head and do the right thing. Don't let me down."
"I'll try not to, but it would help if I knew what the hell I was supposed to not be doing and why."