Boudica, Dreaming the Hound. By Amanda Scott.
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Manda Scott
Boudica - Dreaming the Hound

The most magnificent novel of the world's most famous warrior queen.

AD 57: Caradoc is lost forever, betrayed to Rome and exiled in Gaul, leaving Boudica bereft, to lead the tribes of the west in an increasingly bloody resistance against Roman occupation. Only if she can drive Rome from the land will she find the peace she needs, and to do that she must once again raise the tribes of the east. Her people, the Eceni, languish in the shadow of the Legions, led by a man who proclaims himself king and yet allows slavers to trade freely in his lands. Too notorious to reclaim her own birthright, Boudica strives instead to return her daughters to their heritage.

Across the sea, Boudica's half-brother has been named traitor by both sides. He, too, seeks peace, on a journey that takes him from the dreaming tombs of the ancestors to the cave of a god he no longer serves.

Only if these two meet can their people - and all of Britannia - be saved. But the new Governer has been ordered to subdue the tribes or die in the attempt, and he has twenty thousand legionaries ready to stop anyone, however determined, from bringing Britain to the edge of revolt.....

Written with uncompromising mastery, this is fiction that captivates the heart, challenges the mind and offers us an utterly enthralling experience of history in the flesh and blood of its making.

Dreaming the Hound is the third novel in the bestselling BOUDICA series.

Manda Scott is a veterinary surgeon, writer and climber. Born and educated in Scotland, she now lives in Suffolk with two horses, two lurchers and too many cats.

Manda Scott first made her name as a crime writer. Her debut novel, Hen's Teeth, was shortlisted for the Orange Prize. Her subsequent novels are Night Mares, Stronger than Death and No Good Deed, for which she was hailed as "one of Britain's most important crime writers".

Dreaming the Eagle and Dreaming the Bull, the first and second books in the Boudica series, are also available in Bantam paperback.

Acclaim for the Sunday Times bestselling BOUDICA series:

"One of the boldest recent adventures in historical fiction...Scott celebrates the mystic matriarchy of the British tribe with lush lyricism and story-weaving panache." INDEPENDENT

"Alive with the love, deceit, wisdom and heroics of humanity". JEAN AUEL

"A stunning feat of the imagination and an absolute must-read for lovers of historical fiction" STEVEN PRESSFIELD

"Manda Scott has created a fictional universe all her own....Breathtakingly good, it reveals the best and worst in all of us." VAL MCDERMID

"It looks as if we have a new trilogy to rival The Lord of the Rings in its appeal. Actually, I think it will be better". SCOTLAND ON SUNDAY

"Of the recent historical novels set in Roman times, this is the best one I've ever read." MAIL ON SUNDAY

"A cry for freedom cloaked in lyrical and sensitive prose". OXFORD TIMES





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For Debs, with love and thanks


ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS


Thanks to my editor Selina for her continued resilience, patience
and acuity of thought - and for understanding the nature of dreaming.
Continuing thanks also to Nancy and to Deborah for
outstanding copy-editing throughout the series, to Kate Miciak for
holding faith on the far side of the Atlantic, to my agent Jane Judd
for rock-solid support, and to H. J. P. 'Douglas' Arnold for keeping
my Roman thinking in line.

Particular thanks to Jonathan Horowitz and Chris Luttichau,
both excellent and inspiring teachers, for sharing their understanding
of the dream in its many forms, and to all those who attended
the dreaming workshops of 2004 for their courage and willingness
to trust the process.

Thanks to all of those who made horse-ownership a possibility,
particularly Tessa, without whom it would never have happened at
all, and certainly would have failed at the first hurdle.

Finally, heartfelt thanks to Gigha, mother to the kittens, who
came home to die during the editing process and altered again my
understanding of the boundaries, or lack of them, between life and
death; you were a bright star in the days and I miss you.


CONTENTS


Prologue

I: Autumn AD 57

II: Spring AD 58

III: Mid-winter AD 58-Autumn AD 59

IV: Winter AD 59-Early Spring AD 60

Epilogue

Author's Note

Characters and Pronunciation of Names



LISTEN TO ME. I AM LUAIN MAC CALMA, HERON-DREAMER, ONCE
of Hibernia, now Elder of Mona, adviser and friend of
Breaca, who is the Boudica, Bringer of Victory. We are in a
time of great peril; if you do not understand the past, you cannot
come to understand the present, and without it, the tribes of
Britannia have no future. Here, tonight, by the fire, you will learn
what has come before. This is who we were; if we win now, this is
who we could be again.

It is fourteen years since the Emperor Claudius sent his legions
to invade our land. Then, we were a diverse people, of many tribes
and many gods, united only in our care of our dreamers: the men
and women who came here, to the gods' island of Mona, to study
for a dozen years in the great-house under the elders. Warriors,
too, came to learn the arts of honour and courage that might lead
later to acts of heroism in battle. We fought against each other for
show and thought each skirmish a mighty battle.

Then Rome came, with its legions and cavalry. The men of Rome
do not fight for honour or to hear their names sung in the hero-tales
at winter. They fight for victory, and when they have made a
land their own, they do not leave it.

The tales of how we fought have been told in other places; the
battle of the invasion lasted two days and will be told for ever
round the fires. A thousand heroes lost their lives and those few
who emerged alive did so through the sacrifices of others. It was
then that Breaca, once of the Eceni, then Warrior of Mona, led the
charge to rescue Caradoc and earned the name by which we know
her: Boudica, Bringer of Victory.

Breaca and Caradoc were amongst those who, on the orders of
their elders, left the battlefield. They did so with reluctance, fleeing
only to continue the war against Rome, and to protect the children,
who are precious above all else. They brought them here, to the
gods' isle of Mona where warriors and water hold safe all that is
most sacred; where dreamers, singers and warriors of many tribes
come to know themselves in the full gaze of the gods, that they may
take that knowledge, and the wisdom it brings, back to their
people.

From here they fought for ten years, preventing the Roman
legions from gaining any foothold in the west. Thus the Romans
built their first fortress in the east at Camulodunum, which had
been the stronghold of Caradoc's people.

In the early years of the occupation, thousands of warriors and
dreamers died in the east; whole villages were slaughtered in
reprisals for rebellions, real or imagined, and it was declared illegal
for any man, woman or child to bear a weapon.

The legionaries who broke the swords of our warriors were led
by an officer, Julius Valerius, who rode a pied horse. More than
anyone else he was hated, for he had been Eceni once, and had sold
his soul to Rome and its gods. He fought for Mithras and for the
emperor and both thrived on Eceni blood.

Breaca and Caradoc had a son, Cunomar, and then a daughter,
Graine. Shortly after her birth, Caradoc was taken captive by
treachery and made prisoner in Rome. Captured with him were his
son Cunomar and his elder daughter, Cygfa, a warrior of high
renown.

The family were taken to Rome, to die at the whim of the
Emperor Claudius, only that Airmid, the dreamer who is the other
half of Breaca's soul, found a way to bargain with the oldest and
most dangerous of the ancestors and was able to prevent their
death and, much later, to bring about their freedom.

Caradoc was tortured and maimed beyond repair. He was well
enough to bring his family to the coast of Gaul, but not to go
beyond it. He could not have returned as a warrior to Mona - his
injuries were too great for him to wield a weapon as he had done
with such success before his capture and he would not inflict on his
warriors the pain of seeing him brought low by Rome. Thus he
stayed in Gaul and word was sent that he gave his life to save his
children as they boarded the ship that would bring them back to
Mona.
That was three years ago. Breaca mourns Caradoc, but
inwardly. Outwardly, she has given herself heart and soul to the
battle against Rome. In summer, she leads the warriors of Mona to
keep the legions from reaching our island, and to push them back
as far as she can from the mountains of the west. Through winter,
she hunts alone, taking men singly or in pairs, and they have come
to fear her, as if she were a spirit of the mountains who feeds on
their souls.

One other returned on the ship from Gaul, who was not
expected: Julius Valerius, the once-Eceni cavalry officer who had
led the oppression of his people. By the will of the gods, he was
called back to Rome by the ailing Claudius to undertake a final
duty: to escort Caradoc's family to the Gaulish coast and thence to
a ship that might take them to freedom.

Claudius died before the family could reach freedom and Nero,
his successor, required that they be returned. Valerius could not go
against an oath sworn in the name of his god, and thus was named
traitor, and forced to flee.

I would have brought him to Mona, for reasons that are not only
my own, but Breaca forbade it and she is not only the Boudica,
whose word holds sway with the warriors, she is also Breaca of the
Eceni, sister to the man who was once Ban and became Valerius,
an officer of the legions.

These, then, are the ones who have fashioned our pasts: Breaca,
who hunts legionaries in the mountains of western Britannia, and
her brother Valerius who is in exile in Hibernia, where he drags out
a living as a smith. Neither can continue at this for ever. The world
changes and they must change with it, or die.

Meanwhile, the children, and the dreamers, wait on Mona,
watching a world that grows more brutal by the year. Rome seeks
revenue from its provinces, and Britannia is not the rich vein of
silver and gold that Claudius believed it to be. Nero was made
emperor in his place and Nero is ruled in turn by his advisers.
These are men without pity, for whom a land and its people mean
nothing, unless they have gold or can be made to yield it.

This is the future we fear and against which we fight. Mona is
safe now, under the care of the gods, but if it is the gods' will that
it be no longer safe, then all that is sacred will continue in the
hearts and minds of those who hold the lineage of the ancestors.
We are those people, you and I. Dream now, and know that in the
dreaming is your future and all that we believe to be true.


PROLOGUE.

MARCUS PUBLIUS VINDEX, STANDARD-BEARER OF THE SECOND century, third cohort of the XXth legion, stationed on the
far western frontier of Britannia, drank wine sparingly
when on winter foraging duties and never took unnecessary
risks. When the late-night need to urinate became overpowering,
he stepped away from the watch fire only for a moment and told
his armourer where he was going and why. Passing between the
tents, he whistled the tune of the ninth invocation to Jupiter as
evidence that he was still alive.

At the margins of the firelight, where the rain became silver and
the sound of it hammering on the tent hides was too loud for his
tune to be heard, Vindex called out to the armourer and was
answered. The stream of his urine cascading on rocks made a good
counterpoint to the rain. There was a cold satisfaction in pissing on
the base of the mountain; for as long as the sound of it lasted, he
was solid in his victory over the weather, the sucking mud, the lack
of game and of corn and, best, over the native warriors who grew
out of the dark and left the unwary dead to be found in daylight.

He shouted as much to his armourer, slurring only slightly.

The last word had barely crossed to the fires when a hand caught
his chin and dragged his head back and up. He did not feel the slice
of the knife across his throat, the blade was too sharp to create
pain, but it cut down to the bones of his spine, severing the soft
tissues in its path. The tidal wave of his life surged out to earth.

The standard-bearer died surprised, and his ghost, surprised, did
not know itself dead, only that the night grew suddenly bright, as
if noon had come, and that, impossibly, where once had been fire
warped shadows, now one of the native warriors knelt in plain
view by the fallen body of a man carving a curse mark on the
forehead.

Vindex had lived through too many battles to waste time in
questioning the impossible. His sword had already stabbed at the
exposed neck of the enemy before he had thought to question
the identity of the corpse lying so close to his feet. As his body
lunged after, he gave all his breath to a shout that would rouse the
entire camp.

His sword, his arm, and the full weight of his weightless body
passed through the crouching warrior. His shout, which could
cross a battlefield, raised no armoured men to his aid although a
decurion of the cavalry, drinking wine by the fire, pulled his cloak
tighter and stamped his feet, cursing the sudden cold.

Vindex opened his mouth to shout again and then stopped as the
part of him that reasoned realized at last that the men of his watch
had not noticed him at all.

'They can't hear you. Your people choose not to hear the cries of
the slain. It's your strength and your greatest weakness. You'll
never live safely until you learn to listen to your ancestors and your
newly dead.'

The voice that filled Vindex' head had a different quality from
those of the men he had left at the fire; it spoke to his soul, not his
ears. The enemy warrior finished carving the curse mark and,
rising, turned round.

Thus, for the first time, in the darkest part of the night, with no
sun and rain clouds covering the moon, the standard-bearer of the
XXth saw the face of his enemy. He saw rain-damp hair the colour
of a fox in winter with the warrior's braids left loose in mourning
and the quill of the single crow's pinion woven in at the left dyed
entirely black, for one who has severed all connections to family
and tribe to hunt alone; and thereby perhaps to die alone. He saw
the blood-wet knife, recently used, saw the sling hanging at the belt
beside the pouch of river pebbles and knew with a soul-knowing
beyond vision that each stone was painted black, that it might
more surely kill those against whom it was sent. He saw the sign
of the serpent-spear carved on the brow of the body - his body and,
because he had seen the same mark on the brows of other men
eight times in the last three days, its meaning was already carved
on his liver.

By the cumulation of these, finally, Marcus Publius Vindex, son
of Gaius Publius Vindex, knew the identity of the woman who had
killed him and thus came to understand that he was dead.
Feeling foolish, he lowered his sword. From the fireside, the
armourer shouted a new question with an edge of concern in his
voice. The silence which, living, the standard-bearer should have
filled stretched too long.

The Boudica rose slowly, sheathing her belt-knife. 'Whom do
you worship?' she asked. Her mouth did not move but the words
became part of the night.

In the same way, Vindex answered, 'Jupiter, god of the legions,
and Mars Ultor, for victory.' Then, appraising, 'You should leave.
They'll come soon to look for me. You cannot stand against so
many and live.' The quality of his care surprised him. Dead, he
discovered that he harboured neither the hatred nor the terror
he had in life.

'Thank you. I'll go when I have to. Your men have not yet lit a
torch and I have never yet met a Roman who could see well in the
rain.'

She grinned and Vindex read no fear in her eyes, only the
exhilaration of battle, beginning to wane. He had known that feeling,
and the boundless peace that followed it, and knew that it was
for these he had fought, far more than the silver he had been paid,
and that he was not alone.

Moved by his new compassion, he said, 'You will never win,
fighting as one against many.'

Amused, the Boudica raised a brow. 'I have heard that before.
Not everyone who says it is Roman, but most have been, and all of
those were dead.'

'Then you should listen to us. We bear you no ill will, but can
see some things more clearly.' It was true; the concerns of his life
were melting away leaving behind a clarity Vindex had sought
throughout his life and never found. 'I offer you this as a gift, from
death to life: if you do not rouse the east of the province to
battle, the legions will win and Rome will bleed your people dry.'

The Boudica finished wiping her hands on the turf. She nodded,
thoughtfully. 'Thank you. I will consider your gift in the morning,
if I am alive to do so.' She was no longer smiling, but she did not
hate him, either. 'You should go home,' she said. 'Your gods will
know you in Rome. They cannot reach you here.'

The armourer shouted a second time, and was not answered. A
legionary emerged from the safety of the tent lines and his terror at
the sight of the body was far greater than Vindex' had been. His
cry brought the armourer and he, finally, called for torches. Men
ran as they had been trained and if the light behind the tents did
not blaze for them as bright as noon, it was enough for the fox-haired warrior to be seen.

She did run then, fluidly and with no great urgency, like a deer
that has not yet heard the hounds. The armourer of the second
century was a clear-thinking man who abstained entirely from
wine. He had also, for three years, been his cohort's champion
spear-thrower, honoured for the speed and accuracy of his casts.
He called afresh and five men ran to bring him spears, passing each
one new to his palm as the last took flight. Ten were thrown in the
space of a dozen strides. The foremost of the torch-bearers saw
the eighth one strike and shouted to the armourer and to Mars
Ultor, claiming a kill. Vindex, seeing with different eyes, knew that
the Boudica was wounded, but had not joined him in death.

From beyond the margins of the camp, her voice filled his head.
She sounded breathless and disjointed and he was unable to tell if
it was pain that afflicted her, or an overwhelming need to laugh.

'Go home,' she said again. 'The journey to Rome is faster in
death, I promise you, and the land is warmer. Why stay here in the
rain where you're not welcome? The legion no longer owns you
when you're dead. You can go where you want.'

The thought had occurred to Vindex more than once in life. In
death, joyfully, he understood himself free. Passing through the
walls of the officers' tent and the insubstantial matter of his
centurion, he began the not-so-long journey back to Rome.

At the place where he had been, three more men of his watch
died in a hail of black-painted river pebbles. The armourer was the
last of them.


I AUTUMN AD 57.

I.

THE WATER WAS COLD, AND MADE BROWN BY PEAT AND RECENT rain.

Breaca of Mona, known to all but her family and closest
friends as the Boudica, leader of armies and bringer of victory,
knelt alone at the side of a mountain stream and washed her face,
hands and the bleeding wound on her upper arm in the torrent.
The water ran briefly pink where she had been. She cupped clean
water in both palms, rinsed her mouth and spat out the iron aftertaste
of blood.

A blue roan mare dozed in the shelter of a nearby beech thicket,
the end result of a lifetime's breeding and better than anything
Rome could offer. She was haltered but not tethered and came to
call, her feet bound in soft leather to dampen the sound of her
progress. Mounted, Breaca travelled north and a little east, moving
up into the mountains, keeping to rocky trails where Coritani
trackers, paid by Rome, would be least likely to find signs of her
passing.

If she had scaled the peaks, she could have looked west past
further mountains and across the straits to Mona, but she did not.
The standard-bearer's warning echoed, disturbingly, with the
muted footfalls of her mare and would not be made silent. You will
never win, fighting as one against many. Vindex was not the first
to have warned her of the dangers and futility of fighting alone, or
even the second, but he was the enemy and she did not have to
trust his opinion.

It was harder to ignore the warnings of those who cared for her;
the elders and dreamers of Mona, who watched over her children
through her long winter absences, and could not tell them where
their mother was or if she had died yet, at the hand of a standard
bearer who was not quite as drunk as he might have looked.

Luain mac Calma, the Elder of Mona, had been first, quietly, to
say that the Boudica's life was worth more, and vengeance for one
man's life worth less, and he had been followed by a succession of
others who claimed to love her and hold her best interests at heart.
Only Airmid, dreamer and soul-friend, had always understood
why Breaca needed to hunt alone as she did and had never spoken
out, openly or in private, against the black feather braided into the
Boudica's hair and the winter killings that it foreshadowed.

Airmid was on Mona and Mona was another world and Breaca
chose not to look at it and thereby not to think about it, or its
people.

She passed upwards, and the track became rockier. Grey stone
lined either side of the tracks, marbled by swirling lichens. She dismounted
after a while and unbound the mare's feet, that they might
grip better on the wet stones. The rain became less; it had belonged
to the night. Clouds on the eastern horizon parted to show the first
knife lines of light. Lacking any binding, the wound in her arm
slowly ceased to bleed and ached only a little. The officer whose
spear had caught her had kept his weapons scrupulously clean, for
which she was grateful.

Half a day's ride to the south, at the overnight campsite where a
standard-bearer, an armourer and two junior officers of the XXth
legion had died, a wisp of greased smoke rose at an angle to the
sky. Crows roused and called and began to drift towards the scent
of burning men.

The thick-set, grey-haired man stooped over the neck of his horse
with his attention fixed on the trail did not appear to notice either
of the two slingstones that cracked on the rocks near his head. His
horse, noticing both, shied a little, throwing him off balance, and
he clutched ineffectually at the saddle. The care of his gods kept his
head from cracking on the stones of the path as he fell and a
cushion of heather gave him safe landing but he did not rise afterwards,
even as Breaca knelt at his side.

'Where are you hurt?'

He flicked dry, cracked lips. 'I have the flux. You shouldn't touch
me; you'll be tainted.'

'Maybe, but the harm is done now.' Breaca pushed her good arm
under his shoulders and levered him to his feet. She would have
given him water but carried none. In its absence, she used the sick
man's horse for support, wedging his shoulder against the saddle.
He swayed and made himself stand.

His accent, his horse and the weave on his tunic were all of the
northern Eceni. A mark worked in ink in the skin below his
collarbone showed the falcon and running horse linked. Breaca ran
her forefinger along from horse to falcon and felt the small nodule
of amber buried under the skin beyond the falcon's wingtip that
verified the mark's authenticity.

'Are you from Efnis?' she asked, and when he nodded, 'Why
were you following me?'

'I wasn't. The mountains are alive with Romans and I would
deliver my message from a living mouth to living ears if the flux
does not kill me first. I was trying to reach the forests near the
coast to take shelter there before crossing to Mona.'

Breaca shook her head. 'You won't reach them in time. The men of
the fifth cohort are stationed near the coast. The third cohort lost
four men last night: the signal fires have been lit since dawn, waking
every other legionary into action; they will have ringed the forests
long since. I know of somewhere closer that may be safe if we are
permitted to enter. Can you ride another two dozen spear throws?'

'If there's shelter at the end of it, yes.'

The cave mouth was a vertical crease in the cliff face set by the
gods at such an angle that it was invisible unless approached
exactly from the south-east. The hound-sized rock placed by the
ancestors to guard the entrance was patched with damp moss and
hidden by the grasses that had grown up around it. In years past,
it would have been scoured clean when the ancestors were
honoured at each old moon and the carved marks swirling on its
surface would have been made bold again with red ochre and white
lime and ash. In the bleak new world of Roman occupation, those
who should have done so were either dead or had taken refuge on
Mona and the rock and the cave mouth behind it were blurred with
neglect.

Breaca had only passed the cave once, and that the previous
winter, but had seen then what others might not, committing its
location to memory without any real intention to use it. She
probably would not have attempted it now, had not her need
driven her to it; the risks of entering such a place without a
dreamer were far greater than the risks of death or capture by
Rome.

Standing alone before the hound stone, Breaca said, 'I offer
greetings to the oldest and greatest of the ancestor-dreamers. I will
clear your dwelling place as I leave, I swear it. For now, the weeds
are my protection as they have been yours. Will you permit me to
enter and to bring one other with me?'

A voice beyond the range of hearing said, Who asks?

'I ask, Breaca nic Graine mac Eburovic, once of the Eceni, once
Warrior of Mona, hunting now under the black feather of no-tribe.
My mark is the serpent-spear which was yours before me and will
be yours again when I have gone.'

The ancestor-dreamer said, So. I endure and you may not. It is
good you remember that. Have you come to ask my aid in your
vengeance, as you did before?

'No.'

She was the Boudica, who led thousands into battle, and her
palms were sweating. She wiped them on her tunic. It was far
easier to face the legions in the rain and the dark armed with
nothing more than a knife and a pouch of river pebbles than to
speak to an empty cave mouth in daylight. She remembered
Airmid, and the fear in her voice when she had last faced the
ancestor-dreamer: Airmid, who feared nothing and no-one.

Breaca looked back down the path to where the dying messenger
waited out of earshot. He had dismounted when she did and stood
leaning against his horse. As she watched, he slid slowly to his knees, and then toppled sideways to lie curled like a child, breathing
harshly.

If she had been alone, she would have taken her chances dodging
the legions and stayed out in the open. If she waited, she would be
alone before too long, but the dying man was Eceni and from Efnis
and he had given his life to bring a message to Mona. She could not
with any honour leave him to die on a mountain path within reach
of the legions when there was shelter at hand.

Touching the hound stone as much for courage as for luck,
Breaca said, 'We are two, one wounded, one assailed by flux. We
ask only to enter into your protection, bringing our horses, nothing
more. The Romans who seek our lives are close behind; I saw them
enter the valley as we climbed the mountain. It is my belief that
their trackers will have no knowledge of your dwelling place, and
that if they did, the legionaries would not dare to cross the
threshold. Even they recognize the sacred when they meet it.'

Or if not the sacred, then the simply dangerous. The ancestor's
laughter was the slide of a snake over winter leaves, a sound to
erase all peace and the hope of peace. They know I will pierce their
dreams, waking and sleeping, and they will die as did their
governor, slowly and in madness. They may not fear you enough
to abandon the land, Breaca once-Eceni, but they fear me
enough to make offerings in secret to quell my wrath.

Breaca had seen the twists of corn and broken wine flasks and,
once, the rotting head of a doe as she led the horses up the trail.
She had not known them as offerings to the serpent-dreamer and
even now could not confirm it. She said nothing. A lifebeat of waiting
passed. Then, Yes, you may enter. I, who may yet destroy you,
give you leave.

The cave was not as fully dark as Breaca had expected. The horses
walked willingly into the entrance and were made safe in a
chamber open to the sky, three spear lengths inside. Here, bird lime
streaked the walls in layers of white and caked the floor, cushioning
the sound of hooves. Hollows in the rock held water and the
recent rain had made them clean.

Further in, the sky could not be so clearly seen, but grey light
leaked for a while from the towered heights of the roof. On the
floor, the skeletons of small beasts cracked underfoot where they
had fallen, unwilling sacrifices to the ancestor and the gods. The
walls pressed inwards so that the pathway became a tunnel and
rock snagged Breaca's tunic at both shoulders.

'We should stop.' The Eceni messenger could barely walk. He
tugged on Breaca's sleeve.

'Not yet. There's a turn ahead and then the floor opens into a
chamber with a river running through. We can rest there and you
can drink the water. You need it.'
He held on to her, staring. In the failing light, she could see the
widening whites of his eyes. 'Have you been here before?' he asked.

'No, but I know of it.' She did not tell him that the serpent voice
of the ancestor-dreamer drew her on, whispering, nor that it had
spelled out the time and manner of his death.

The chamber they entered last was too broad for Breaca easily
to map the margins, and entirely without light. Working by feel,
she laid and lit a small fire. Orange shadows drew monsters
from the dark, casting ghost-flames on the small river flowing
through the northern corner of the cave. Echoes of water thickened
the silence. The sound was pleasanter by far than the sibilant hiss
of the ancestor.

At the river's edge, Breaca tended the dying messenger. She
folded her cloak and his and laid him on both on a bed of flat rock.
He had brought his own water skin, long empty, and she filled it
and let him drink and then washed his face, neck and hands with
what was left.

'You should not,' he said, less certainly than before. 'We were
three; two brothers and a sister, each charged with the same
message. We had ridden only two nights when the flux took us. It
passes from one to the other faster than a cough in a winter's
roundhouse.'

Breaca said, 'If I am to die, this place is as good as any; the
legion's inquisitors won't find us here to wrench what we know
from the last breath of our lungs. If I am to live, then you can rest
tended in safety. What happened to your brother and sister?'

'I don't know. We took separate roads when we met the legions.
Each of us was to ride for Mona. With three, there was hope one
would live to reach the ferry and deliver our words.'

Ask him his message. The ancestor's voice cracked off the walls.
In her own place, she sounded far louder than the dying man.

'When he has peace.' Breaca spoke aloud and the messenger was
too near death to notice.

She had tended the dying times without number on the battlefield,
but only rarely with other sickness, so that it took some time
to do what was needful. She bent over him, trying to see past the
tallow-grey skin to the life and the mind beneath. His face shrank
onto the bones of his skull. His eyes had fallen deep into the folding
flesh of his face and his hair was slick with sweat and the water
with which he had just been washed.
Ask!

Touching her palm to his forehead, she said carefully, 'This is
your resting place. Briga will take you from here and the ancestor
will guide you safely to the lands beyond life. I will return to Mona
when it's safe to travel. Is it your wish that I carry your message
with me?'

'It would be, but I can't give it while not yet on Mona.' The man
grimaced, trying to rise, and failed. 'I'm sorry. It would kill both of
us if I tried. Efnis laid a geas on all three messengers. If I tried to
speak, my tongue would swell in my mouth and block my breathing
before the words were out. More, the one to whom I spoke
would die, if not as suddenly, then as surely. If caught, we were
permitted to say that much to whoever tried to press the question.'

Breaca smoothed the hair from his brow and poured on a little
water to cool it. 'Efnis is wise. If you had been captured, it would
have been good to die swiftly, knowing your message safe and
Rome's interrogators condemned to a slow end.'

The man struggled with that, frowning. 'But not so good now
when I am dying in the company of a warrior and friend. I will take
my message safely into death and Efnis will never know of my failure.'

'He will. No-one passes to the other worlds but the dreamers
know of it. Even so, I may have an answer. Would I be right to
believe that your message was to be given to the Elder of Mona,
Luain mac Calma, or, failing him, to Airmid of Nemain, and that
it concerned the Boudica?'

It was a risk. Neither of them knew the margins of the curse. The
messenger smiled faintly and tested his answer silently twice
before, nodding, he said, 'You would be correct.'

They both waited. In the moments that followed, his breathing
was not impaired, nor did his tongue swell any more than the flux
had already swollen it.

Breaca let out a breath. 'So then if I were to tell you that my
daughter, second child of my heart, soul and flesh, is called Graine
after my mother and that my father was Eburovic, smith and
warrior of the Eceni, would your mouth remain unblocked and
your tongue unswollen as you delivered to me your message?'

His eyes had fallen shut and did not open when she finished.
Waiting, Breaca did not know if he slept, or if the shock of her
identity, however obliquely revealed, had carried him beyond
speech.
The relief when he reached out and gripped her hand left her
without words. He opened his eyes and tears wavered on the rims,
cast in copper by the firelight. His voice was a fine thread, drawn
tight by pain and effort. 'You are the Boudica? The Warrior of
Mona?'

She nodded, smiling. 'Yes.'

He shoved himself upright, wheezing. 'Why then are you here,
unbraided, wearing the black feather of no-tribe and hunting alone
in lands held by Rome?'

She had not expected his anger, nor the sudden energy it gave
him; he knew nothing of the soul-stripping meetings between the
Boudica and the dreamers she served, of the battles fought amongst
friends with words the only weapons. He did not choose to hide
the accusation in his voice or the hurt in his eyes. He laid himself
down again, but his gaze, challenging hers, could have been mac
Calma's, or Dubornos', or Ardacos', or any one of her children's.

Rising, Breaca laid a fistful of heather roots on the fire. Fresh
flames sparked green and a violent blue where the earth burned
before wood. Staring at the colours and not the man, she said, 'I
have been killing Romans, as you saw. The four dead of the third
cohort were my kills, and two the night before last.'

The messenger was an intelligent man. Watching her, he said, 'So
you hunt alone because the risk is too great to expose others to the
danger and Briga will take you into death when she feels the killing
is enough. Do the elder dreamers of Mona consider that a good
risk?'

'Not at all.' Breaca smiled, surprising them both. 'But it is not for
them to forbid it. My life is my own and I believe it is a good risk.
It's nearly winter; the time for fighting is over but the legions must
still forage far beyond their forts for food and firewood. There's
more damage done to their minds with four men dead in the night
than with forty dead on the battlefield in open warfare. Each death
leads to desertions and those left behind dream of a time when they
can leave and sail for Rome. An army that comes to the field without
heart fights to lose, you know that.'

'I do. And a people lacking the leadership of the gods does not
fight at all.' An old anger flickered, and a more recent fear. Each
died away, leaving only the fatal weariness that had cloaked the
messenger when he first fell from his horse.

Carefully, Breaca said, 'The Eceni do not lack leadership.'

'They do now.'

He was dying fast; both of them could feel it. Words unspoken
weighed on them, sucking breath from the air. Choosing the path
that offered least damage, Breaca asked, 'Can you tell me in what
way your people and mine are leaderless?'

'I don't know. Saying that much might kill us both.'

He gathered himself and then, against her protests, pushed himself
to sitting. His gaze devoured her face and then moved down to
the reddening wound on her arm. The spear's head had not, after
all, been so clean. Blood seeped a little from the gash, but the arm
around was angry and hot, and had begun to smell unclean. He
reached out to touch it and they both felt the flesh twitch under his
fingers.

He said, 'Perhaps Efnis was wiser than either of us knew and you
are dying anyway.'

Breaca sluiced water over the wound. 'Perhaps. I have felt closer
to death than this, but they say Briga often comes when least
expected.'

'Not for me.' He smiled and the shape stayed on his lips long
after his mind had gone elsewhere. In a while, he said, 'Efnis
crafted his words for Airmid, dreamer of Nemain, but the tales
have always said that she holds one half of your soul and Caradoc
the other. If that is true, then it may be that, in the gods' eyes, I am
speaking as if to Airmid and I can speak to you safely. I am willing
to try, but my death is certain. I have nothing to lose. You could
have many more winters of hunting Romans alone. Will you risk
the loss of that, to hear my message?'

Breaca closed her left fist, feeling the brush of pain in her palm
that was the memory of a sword cut. It did not ache to warn her
of danger. The spear wound in her upper arm throbbed alarmingly,
but other wounds had been as deep and gone as bad and she had
not died of them.

She looked across the fire into the darkness of the cave but found
no help there; the ancestor-dreamer was uncharacteristically silent.
As at all the most important decisions in her life, Breaca was alone.
There was a freedom in being so.

She said, 'There is not so much pleasure in killing Romans that
I would want to miss a message from Efnis that has cost the lives
of three warriors. Yes, I will share your risk.'


II.

'YOUR SISTER IS DEAD.'

'I have no sister.'

The air in the smithy was dense with the smoke of
scorched metal and loud with the clatter of beaten iron. Sun
streaming in through the smoke hole cast a puddle of light on the
floor, missing both the stoked fire and the anvil. Neither was a mistake;
the smith of Hibernia liked the red shadows of his
work-world and had no desire to meet the exposure of daylight,
particularly not in his current company.

He played his hammer down the arm's length of cooling metal
that would one day soon become a sword blade and felt the rhythm
rock pleasingly through his bones. Doing so, he ignored the visitor
standing on his threshold. Quite deliberately, he did not invite him to cross it.

Luain mac Calma, once of Hibernia, now Elder and foremost
dreamer of Mona, was not used to being ignored. He had rarely
been denied entry to the home of another and never when he had
travelled ten days to bring news of some moment.

Nor did he need light to see the body and soul of the man he had
come to visit; a dreamer spends a great deal of his life in half
darkness. Standing on the threshold, he studied the straight,
blue-black hair, grown to shoulder length when once it had been
cut short to please the legions, the lean lines of the body, once
battle-fit and kept almost to that by the work of the forge, the
sculpted cheekbones and high brow of a man whom the gods had
spun far away from his life's course, and not yet cast back. There
was anger there, and a stubborn pride, and neither of these quite
covered the fear, or the effort being made to hide it.

All of this, he compared to what he had last seen of this man,
and was not disappointed; three years' peace and solitude had
healed more than mac Calma had thought possible. His doubts,
which were many, rested on the condition of the smith's heart and soul.

He drew a breath and let it out, slowly. Over the pounding clash
of the hammer, he said, 'You are Ban mac Eburovic, Harehunter
and horse-dreamer of the Eceni, and I am growing very tired of
your fictions. Your boy tells me--'

'He is not my boy.' The hammer missed a beat and, stammering,
found it again. 'He calls himself Bellos, after the Bellovaci who
were his people among the Belgae. I may have bought him as slave
but I have returned to him his name and his freedom. Nevertheless,
he hates me. He remains here only because his fear of the
Hibernians is greater than his hatred of me. Their menfolk are not
gentle in the expressions of their affection towards well-favoured
youths with gold hair and eyes the colour of the summer sky. He's
safer here than anywhere else and he knows it, or he'd be gone long
since.'

Mac Calma let one brow rise to the top of its flight. 'He looks
on you as a father.'

The smith shrugged. 'A man may despise his father and still be
his son. Look at Caradoc.'

'Or at you.'

The hammering ceased. The silence after was hard on the ears.

With exquisite care, the smith laid aside his hammer and, with
his tongs, lifted the still-glowing blade on which he had been working.
By the blood light of its shine, he spoke quietly and distinctly,
as a man might who offers an invocation to his gods in the quiet of
a temple.

'Listen to me, mac Calma. I will say this only once. Who sired
me is not my business and I will not allow it to be yours. Eburovic
of the Eceni raised me and cared for my childhood. Corvus of the
Quinta Gallorum taught me to fight and to love and gave me
the name that I use. These men I value and respect, but that does
not give them ownership of my life or my soul, nor would they
claim it. I did not leave the Eceni by choice and did not by choice
commit treason against Rome and my emperor. Both have happened
and so now I belong neither to the legions nor to the tribes.
For the first time in my life, I am free. I intend to stay that way.'

'Are you so?' The dreamer nodded. 'And who is it, who is so free?'

'What does a name matter? Here in Hibernia, I am who I make
myself to be. I am Valerius to those who favour Rome and wish my
aid in improving their Latin. To the rest, I am simply the black
haired smith on the hill who can mend their blades and their
brooches and sometimes help their women in childbirth. If you
have issue with that, Elder of Mona, take your complaint elsewhere.
I have nothing of yours.'

The smith, who had, in his past, been both Valerius, decurion of
the Thracian cavalry, and Ban of the Eceni, was shaking when he
finished. Three years without wine or ale had not taken from him
the tremors of their excess. Blessedly, the unfinished sword he held
did not shake with him. Even so, Luain mac Calma watched him
too closely for comfort.

The smith was stripped to the waist. The scars of war shone white
in the rivers of his sweat. Given sufficient time, a man who cared
enough might read a history of the taking of Britannia on the map
of his injuries. Two men had cared so and both lived now out of
reach of heart as well as mind. If he chose to let them, the memories
of either could cripple him. He lowered the blade into the vat of
water standing by the anvil and let the steam erase his past.

He was not wholly successful. He might as well have named
aloud the two men, and the hurt of their loss, so profoundly did
mac Calma's face change. Through the thickening white, the Elder
said, 'I'm sorry. I should not have come to disturb your sanctuary.
I thought only that you should hear the news.'

Your sister is dead. He would not ask to know more. Even that
was too much.

The steam cleared slowly through the smoke hole. By the time
the smith could see again, mac Calma had already gone. His voice
reached back lazily from the daylight, speaking to the Belgic boy,
Bellos, who was no longer a slave but nevertheless held the guest's
horse outside as if it were his duty.

'The red Thessalian mare standing in the paddock was to be my
guest-gift. She is elderly and not fit to be ridden but was once of
high value. She is in foal to a Pannonian battle horse and if the foal
takes on the merits of both sire and dam, it may be of some worth.
I have business with the dreamers of Hibernia and it would inconvenience
me greatly to have to take her back. Perhaps if you
could . . . ?'

Luain mac Calma had trained for three decades with the best
minds of Mona; oration was a tutored skill, layered over the gifts
of his birth. When he chose, he could raise the inhabitants of an
entire great-house cheering to their feet with the first line of a tale,
or whisper a sick child to sleep so that it would heal before morning
- or touch the soul of a man who thought to make himself
invulnerable, and prove to him that he was not.

The smith stepped away from his anvil. 'Who have you brought?
Where did you find a red Thessalian mare?' He was at the door, in
full daylight, forgetting that he preferred the dimness of the forge.
The cooling sword hung useless from his hand.

In answer, the dreamer stood back so that his guest-gift could be
seen. The mare stood in the small paddock at the side of the hut.
She was more than elderly, she was ancient, an elder grandmother
among horses, and she had not been well cared for. Her back was
swayed from the bearing of too many foals. The weariness of travel
and of living hung around her as the first taste of death. Her coat
was red, the colour of cut liver, with white scars on her flanks. An
old brand showed indistinctly at the base of her neck.

Once, long ago, when the mare was in summer coat and
groomed to perfection, the brand had been clear: Leg VIII Aug; a
cavalry mare of the VII th Augusta, she had been given to a boy of
the Eceni who had known of her from a dream.

It had been so very long ago. One might hope that a summer of
shared joy with a battle at its end would have left as strong a
memory with the mare as it did the boy who rode her, but her eyes
lacked hope and met the smith's without recognition. Hoarsely he
said, 'She's too old to be in foal.'

'I think not. It will be her last, but she will do it well. Would you
rather she foaled it under the care of another man? I can take her
back to Mona if you wish.'

Mac Calma knew all the ways to a man's heart and did not
disdain to use them. The smith did not trust himself to speak, but
nodded when Bellos looked at him and then watched as the boy
ran to the mare and offered her a lick of salt that he kept in his
palm. It was not the first he had given her; Bellos had been a slave
once, and knew intimately the hurts of slavery in another, and how
to assuage them.

Finding his voice again, the smith said, 'Her heart is broken.
What is left of it, she has given to the boy.'

Mac Calma did not disagree. 'But her foal will give his heart to
whomsoever trains him for battle. Airmid believes it will be a colt,
black and white with a shield and a spear on its forehead. I have
no reason to disbelieve her.'

The smith let his gaze rest on the horizon a while before he
trusted himself to speak. 'It was a mistake, clearly, to speak aloud
the dreams of my childhood. I was young then, and over-trusting.
But that dream is long dead and cannot be revived. It died when
Amminios made me a slave and took my battle mount into his
breeding herds, and if Breaca is dead, then the dream can never be
brought alive again; she was the biggest part of it.'

'Did I say that Breaca was dead?'

They were a sword's length apart. Valerius, once-officer of the
cavalry, still held the half-made blade in his hand, alive with
the first stirrings of the weapon it would be. With no clear effort
on his part, the tip rose to the level of the other man's throat. Very
quietly, he said, 'Don't play with me, dreamer.'

Mac Calma stood side on to the sun. His shadow, impossibly,
took the shape of the heron that was his dream. He shook his head.
'I would never play with you. I did not intend any misunderstanding.
It is not Breaca who is dead, but Silla, your younger sister, the
only one of the royal line to remain in the lands of the Eceni. She
died bearing a child for Prasutagos, whom you knew as 'Tagos,
who has named himself king of the entire Eceni nation. He is a
supporter of Rome and there is nothing now to check him. If he is
not removed, the Eceni - who were your mother's people, even if
you claim they are no longer yours - will become enslaved to Rome
in ways we cannot break.'

It is not Breaca who is dead . . .

Valerius heard the rest and did not care. That single fact wrote
itself in his mind, repeating. He held his new sword too tightly.
Ridges of half-formed metal gouged into the meat of his fingers.
The tidal wave that rocked him was neither relief, nor anger, nor
grief, but a mix of these, made ugly and unclean by the manner of
the telling.

Late in the chaos, he remembered that Luain mac Calma stood
nearby and that there were fictions he still wished to preserve.

He said, 'You forget what I have been. If the Eceni lack weapons
and the will to fight, it is because I have broken them. Knowing
that, do you seriously wish me to weep for the fate of a defeated
tribe?' An unknown, unpetitioned god allowed his voice to seem to
him normal.

Mac Calma's smile was unreadable. 'Not at all. Your mother
was of the royal line and you carry her blood, however unwilling.
I had hoped you would agree to come east, to raise the Eceni in war
against Rome in your mother's name so that Breaca might have
remained in the west where she is needed and might have led her
warriors against an army divided. I understand now that you will
not. I have already apologized for disturbing your peace. It will not
happen again. I wish you well with the mare and her foaling.'

Luain mac Calma may have been a dreamer but he rode with a
warrior's skill. His horse, galloping, cut crescents in the sodden
Hibernian turf that remained long after the grey of his cloak had
become one with the mist and the sky.

Valerius watched until a squall of gulls cast high over the coastal
hills and broke the horizon. Turning, he found the boy, Bellos,
watching him with the same mix of fear and care that he had
shown since they first came to Hibernia.

Suddenly, newly, Valerius wanted the boy to feel safe. He said,
'Do you like the mare? She was mine once, when I was your age. I
rode her in battle and she made my first kill for me. Afterwards,
when Amminios captured her, she gave birth to a black and white
foal, the Crow-horse; the one you have heard of.'

They had talked a little of their pasts; Bellos knew fragments of
Valerius' own time in slavery, and of Corvus, who had freed him, and
a great deal of the Crow-horse, who had made it possible. The horse
had come to assume mythic proportions between them. Often almost
always - it was easier for both to talk of beasts than of men.

The boy's eyes widened. 'This mare is the dam of the Crow-horse?'

'Yes. She was everything he is, but that she did not carry his hate
in her heart. If I asked it of you, would you care for her?'

It was a gift, and Valerius did what he could to hide any pain in
the giving. Bellos knew him better than mac Calma, but was
kinder. If anything showed, he did not acknowledge it. Instead, he
grinned, brightly, and his gaze lost its wariness and he reached into
his belt pouch for more salt and held it up so that she could lip it
from his hand.

A thought made him frown, and then smile again. He said, 'I will
take her, and treat her as she deserves, but the foal is brother to the
Crow-horse and must be yours. Promise me you will take him and
keep him?'

Valerius had not known that the boy was listening, nor that he
could understand Hibernian sufficiently to follow mac Calma's
arcane turn of speech. He did not want the foal, but he wanted the
boy to feel safe with him more. He said, 'Of course I'll keep him.
The Hibernians are good people, but they would not know how to
raise a battle horse if it fell from the sky into their paddocks.'

He ran a hand over the mare and felt her flinch beneath his
touch. Thinking aloud, he said, 'She's too thin now to do a foal
well, and she has been treated badly. We'll need hay and corn
to feed her and you'll need to spend time with her daily so that
she comes to trust you. That way she will help us when the foal
comes.'

They spent the day planning and the afternoon bringing fodder by
cart from the village on the coast. Bellos became less shy in that
one day than he had in the three years of their companionship.
Valerius watched it and cursed himself for needing mac Calma's
false solicitude to show him what to do.

When they retired for the night, he did his best not to sleep, but
the blackness caught him, and the dreams within it, which were the
old dreams, of loss and destruction and the litany of those he had
killed.

He woke early and found Bellos had woken earlier, and had left
by his bed, by way of a waking gift, a platter with cheese and an
apple saved from the harvest and a beaker of well water, and he
was grateful to the un-gods who no longer cared for him that the
boy was not there to see him weep.


III.

THE BODY OF THE MESSENGER FLOATED DOWN THE CAVE'S RIVER, buoyed by his tunic and cloak.

Breaca was not a singer; Mona's laws, which were the
laws of gods and ancestors, did not permit her to sing the lay of the
dead, but she could speak it, and did so. Only as she reached the
part where she should have said aloud the name of the dead man
did she realize that she did not know it. The current carried him
beyond reach of the firelight and she heard his tunic snag and then
tear on the rocks.

His ghost had already crossed the greater river to reach the lands
beyond life, following a call that only he could hear. There had
been a time when Breaca saw none but the ghosts of her own
family and then only in the heart of battle, when the walls between
the worlds were thinnest. Now, she saw the spirits of every warrior
slain, every legionary, every flux-stripped man. She had not yet
seen the ghost of her sister, Silla, which surprised her.

Staring into the fluid blackness of the river, she struggled to find
memories of the girl around whose neck she had placed the torc of
Eceni leadership.

Thoughts of Ban came first, uncalled, and Silla only after him;
the two curled together as children, sharing a bed in the roundhouse
and squabbling like hound whelps over their share of the
sleeping hides and of the hounds that kept them both warm. There
had been less than a year of that, and then Hail had come, the great
brindled war hound with the hail-marks scattered across his body
and there had been no more squabbling, because Hail had been
Ban's from the moment of his birth and . . .

It did not do to remember Hail. To remember his life was to
remember his death and there was too much pain in that.

Too late, Breaca closed her eyes. The gates, now opened, released
a flood tide of memories; of Silla sitting astride an unrideable red
roan colt of their father's with Ban behind her, holding her by the
waist as he pushed the mad-hearted beast to a gallop to prove to
Silla her own courage; of Ban teaching Silla how to cast a rope to
catch a colt, or how to hurl a spear, or simply of Ban on his own,
the solemn, earnest child with the surprising smile who had out
dreamed the grandmothers and would one day grow to be a
dreamer as powerful as Airmid.

Then, because a child does not remain a child, but grows to
adulthood, it was impossible not to remember the desperate
broken man who called himself Valerius, whom she had last seen
lying on the deck of a ship from Gaul, puking his guts into the sea, begging her to give him a clean and decent death.

Very badly, Breaca did not wish to remember that. It had been
better before, when she had believed her brother dead, and had sat
guarding the dreamers as they had searched the many pathways of
the lands beyond life to find his spirit and return it to Briga's care.

They had failed, of course, because his spirit had not been lost,
but afire in the heart and mind of a man who fought for Rome. The
discovery that Ban was alive, that he had been the decurion of
the Thracian cavalry who had terrorized Eceni villages for ten
years after the invasion, had been told only to a very few. Efnis
knew,-but he would not have spread the word without need. It was
possible that Silla had died not knowing the truth, but believing
Ban had gone before her. The thought of her now searching for him
in the lands of the dead was unbearable.

Nevertheless, it must be borne, with the news of her death and
all that flowed from it. With an effort, Breaca banished the past
and made herself live again in the present. The wound in her arm
burned with a fire of its own that scorched her. She lay prone at the
river's edge and held it under the water until cold numbed the skin.

Her cheek was pressed to the wet stone. The weak light of her
fire cast rippling shadows across the water that grew more dense
where the body of the messenger had snagged on a rock.

Aloud, she said, 'I never asked his name. I have been too long
away from human company. I begin to treat men with less care
than I would a horse.'

He is cared for well enough. It is you who needs care. You asked
my aid once before, will you ask it a second time now?

The ancestor-dreamer was close. Her voice came from the river
and the fire smoke above it, teasingly dangerous. It had always
been so, from the first moment of their meeting on a night of the
dark moon in the heart of a Roman marching camp, when Airmid
had called the ancestor to destroy the governor, thinking to save
Caradoc. The governor had died, but Caradoc was still in Gaul.
The travesty that was Valerius had come back in his place and the
ancestor had considered that a fair substitute.

Airmid had been afraid of this dreamer; Airmid who feared
nothing and no-one. Breaca had urged her on through the night's
work, thinking only of Caradoc. Afterwards, she had made herself
forget the insidious, enticing voice that had drawn her into the
darkest places of herself. She remembered it now, and wished she
had not.

Trapped, she felt for the wall of the cave and braced her back
against it, as she might if facing armed men. 'You asked that at the
cave's mouth and my answer remains the same: I did not know you
when we met last. Now that I do, I will never again ask your aid.
I came seeking only the protection of your cave. You gave it and I
am grateful. I will leave now, and will not disturb you further.'

The ancestor's laugh was the slide of serpents on sand, more
terrifying than any legions. Where will you go, warrior? And why?

'To Mona, where else? The elders must know that Silla has died
and 'Tagos taken rulership of the Eceni, supported by Rome.'

But will you not go east? You who are first born of the royal line
of the Eceni, you who should, by right of birth and lineage, wear
the torc of the ancestors, given to you to have and to hold as
evidence of your care for your people?

There was a trap in the question and Breaca could not see it. She
would have stayed silent, but the pressing air did not allow it.
She said, 'You heard the message. It is not safe to go east. Efnis was
clear that I should stay and continue the war in the west; that only
from here was there any chance that we might drive Rome from the
land. I will return to Mona with that news. Nothing has changed.'

And yet the dead have spoken. 'If you do not rouse the east, the
legions will win.' The standard-bearer's ghost told you that. Do
you not know the truth when you hear it?

'I would not trust the words of a Roman, even a dead one. Efnis
said differently and would not lie. He cares for the Eceni as much
as I do.'

Do you care for your people? I could not tell. The ancestor's outrage
writhed all about. You who left them in the hands of a
milk-soft child and a man who has sold himself to Rome? The
Eceni do not love you.

That hurt, and so was probably true. Breaca said, 'I fight in the
west to free the east. There are no warriors left in the east. Rome
has slain every one with the will and the wit to bear a weapon.'
But they have not yet bled your people dry. A newly slain
legionary sees the oncoming future more clearly than a living warrior.
Shall I show you, last warrior of the Eceni, what it is for a
people to bleed until there is nothing more to give?

Breaca saw too late what was coming, and that there was no
escape. With her eyes closed or open, the visions were the same,
falling in from the black walls of the cave, boiling up from the
turbid water, dancing from the solid rock beneath her.

What she saw was not the tribe of her childhood, with or without
the memories of Ban. The roundhouses were gone, taken apart
for their wood to burn when nothing else could be found. In their
place were small huts and those broken. The land was gaunt, the fields over-grazed, the horses starved, the gods' pool drained dry.

Amidst the mud and ruin, stick-thin men and women in cloaks
and tunics of Eceni blue gathered around a pen, as at market. All
had the earth-stained hands of weeders and planters. Not one was
a warrior or a dreamer; none bore the marks of an elder, none
stood with any pride or fire or willingness to fight.

Legionaries in full armour encircled them. Within the centre of
these two rings were the children, more than twenty, wide-eyed and
terrified. Each one was chained to the next by the neck and ankle.
Open sores blossomed where the iron bit. The children wept tears
of gold and their parents fell to their knees and scooped them into
their palms as if they were corn and were grateful.

Slavery. The ancestor hissed it, deathly quiet. When they have
taken the hounds and the horses, slaughtered the cattle and the
deer in the forests, when they have taken the iron that would have
been weapons and the bronze that would have been beautiful,
when they have melted the torc of the ancestors to make the coin
to pay for war, when they have taxed every waking moment and
taken the food from the mouths of infants, then they will come to
buy living flesh and put a price on that which is priceless. Do you
remember the dream of your long-nights, when you were given the
mark you use so freely and do not understand?

Questions within questions within a nightmare. Breaca prayed to
wake and to forget, and could do neither.

Sweating, she said, 'I have never forgotten the dream of my long
nights. I pledged then to protect the lineage of my people, to save
the children and the elders that their heritage and mine may
continue unbroken. I abandoned the battle of the Sea River to save
the children. I have fought without cease ever since that they might
carry forward the songs and dreams of the ancestors, knowing who
they have been and so growing into who they can be. I fight now,
risking death nightly, so that my own children and those of others
might live in a world without Rome. You cannot accuse me of
abandoning the children.'

The ancestor laughed. Tell them yourself. In the vision, the mass
of children parted. From their midst, a small, fine-limbed girl-child
with hair the colour of ox blood and a face made old by pain
stretched an arm from the slave pen, beseeching.

'Graine?' Breaca reached to touch her and smashed her knuckles
on rock. The vision broke apart, becoming ash. She found herself
standing with her back to the fire and the rush of the river too close
to her feet. Her bad arm throbbed to the beat of her too-fast heart.

Desperately, she said, 'This cannot be a true vision. I will not
believe it. Slave merchants are not permitted to trade in Britannia.
The Emperor Claudius forbade it.'

Claudius is dead and made a god. Enslaved Trinovantes build his
temple in Camulodunum as we speak. Nero rules in Rome and
Nero is in turn ruled by those who are ruled by gold. If you do not
believe me, all you have to do is remain in the west and wait. If you
do nothing, what you have just seen will happen. By the mark we
both share, I swear it.

'And if I go east?'

Then there is a chance that the tide may be turned. You alone are
not enough; you must find the warriors in sufficient numbers to
fight the legions and give them heart. You must find the iron to arm
them. You must find others with courage and vision to lead them
if you fall. With these three things, you may have victory. Would
you see that? I could show you, my gift of a better future.

'I want nothing from you. Your visions are not safe.'

Ah, the arrogance! Still you shall have it, my gift.

The image was brief, a flash in the darkness showing the familiar
pattern of a battlefield; impossible not to watch. Breaca's vision
stretched to meet them as warriors she knew well came into focus.
At the left wing, Ardacos roused the she-bears as he always did,
they fought on foot, painted in woad and lime, and faced a cracked
and broken line of legionaries.

In the centre, the Eceni forged forward to crush the enemy. She
could not see who led them, only the mark of the serpent-spear
above. To the right, a woman led the mounted warriors of the west
in a wedge that struck at the gathered wings of Roman cavalry and
pierced the enemy's flank. The ranks of the cavalry folded and
collapsed and those who wished to live fled the field leaving the
centre unguarded. A second wave of Eceni rode in to fill the gap.

The battle was won long before the killing ended. Slowly,
unstoppably, the warriors pushed forward to join in the centre over
the mounting bodies of two legions.

The moment of meeting was exquisite. At the heart of battle, a
Roman standard fell and was trampled into filth. The serpent
spear blazed in victory over it. My gift, said the ancestor. Mark it well.

For a long time afterwards, there was darkness, and cool rock, and
the river running by. Breaca sank slowly to sitting and then to lying
and trailed her injured arm in the water.

She was not a dreamer to call forth visions, but lying on the cool
rock with her face turned to the river she did her best to bring alive
her own daughter, that she might see her whole and beautiful and safe
on Mona, and not broken in the slavers' pen of the ancestor's threat.

Straining so that the sweat beaded her brow, she built a fire that
danced on the water, and a hazing of air above it. There, feature by
feature, she drew the ox-blood hair and grey eyes, the fine, wine
dark brows and the careful, cautious gaze of Graine, the daughter
she had barely seen since her birth. The child of two warriors so
tall should never have been so fine and so slender, but Graine was
everything her parents were not, and more beautiful for it. Born
into Nemain's light, she was a dreamer from the fine sheen of her
hair to the soles of her feet.

Breaca could not build all of her daughter, only her face, framed
by the rich, dark hair, and that took more effort than she had
known possible. Then, when she thought she could only make half
formed shapes in an imagined fire, she heard the sound of Graine,
weeping.

The shock of it broke the vision. Where her daughter had been,
a hare fled across a hillside, coursed by Stone, last son of Hail, and
then Airmid was there, peering through the flames, and Airmid's
voice echoed through the cave saying, 'I don't know how she's
hurt, small one, you have to tell me. I can't see where you can see.'

The vision had gone before she realized that the words were of
her, not for her, and that, with their touch, the burning in her arm
was a little less.

She did not try to call Cunomar. Her son had barely spoken to
her in the three long years since his escape from captivity in Rome.
It was no secret that he had failed in battle at his father's side in
Gaul and that every part of him yearned to erase that shame; that
he waited daily for the elders to call him to sit the warrior tests of
his long-nights so that he might prove himself the man he ached to be.

As a mother, Breaca felt for him. As a warrior, she knew that the
child could not become a man until he had learned to command his
own temper - and that the longer the elders deferred their call, the
less likely it was that he would find the peace he needed to do so.

Lacking that final approval, Cunomar hunted the enemy with
the single-minded hatred of a wounded bear and his mounting tally
of kills did nothing to heal the many wounds of his soul. Waking
and sleeping, resentment flowed from him, thick and clear as river
fog.

From the cave dark beyond, Breaca heard the voice of her father,
Eburovic. Your son craves your love. Why do you not give it?

Eburovic had given his life for her and she had loved him before
any other man. Alive or dead, she had never heard him speak anything
but the truth. She stared into the dark and could not see him,
but his presence enfolded her in his care, as the ancestor's had not
done. She was not alone.

She said, 'I have made kill-feathers for my son each time he has
slain one of the enemy. I have given him a horse of my own breeding
and with my own hands made the knife with which he kills. I
loved him and was overjoyed when Luain mac Calma brought him
back from Rome. He knows this, but still he leaves the roundhouse
when I enter and will not come near me from the summer's start to
its end. My son is a stranger who hunts with the she-bears and I do
not know how to reach him.'

And so you, too, hunt alone, neither desiring nor requesting his
company?

He was her father; she could never lie to him. He was a ghost,
who had access to the many layers of truth.

Breaca said, 'I could not hunt with Cunomar. He is not safe. He
has killed and lived to tell of it only because the she-bears hunt as
a pack and three or more are assigned each time to his protection.'

The truth broke through the worlds so that she saw her son
whether she wanted to or not. In another place and another time,
Cunomar turned his head and stared at his mother with a
stranger's eyes. She met his gaze and tried to imagine him weeping
tears of gold, and could not.

Because she had heard Graine, and seen Cunomar, so then also
she saw Cygfa, Caradoc's daughter, who was not the child of
Breaca's flesh but had become the child of her soul.

As Cunomar had been, so Cygfa, too, had been captured and
taken prisoner to Rome with Caradoc, their father. Exactly as
Cunomar had, she had stood in the shadow of the cross and
thought herself about to be hanged on it. Exactly unlike Cunomar,
she had drawn in strength from the core of herself and had not
succumbed to bitterness afterwards.

When Cygfa had gone out to sit her long-nights and came back
a woman, ablaze with her dreaming, Breaca had been the one who
spoke for her before the elders and hailed her as daughter in all
ways but those of flesh, which were ever the least.

Tall as her father and as beautiful, she braided kill-feathers by
the handful into her hair before battle and mounted a horse of her
own breeding. Warriors crowded close to touch her blade for the
luck it would give and there was no doubt that she would fight well
and kill cleanly, and that if she died in conflict it would be only
because Briga had need of her in the other worlds. In all the battles
since her return from Rome, she had fought at the side of the
Boudica, brilliantly.

From somewhere distant, the ancestor said, You love her as a
daughter. The children of your blood see it daily and mourn. Do
you wonder that they cleave closer to others than to you?

Breaca lay on cold stone at the river's edge, her mouth a desert
for lack of water. She was too hot, and too cold, shuddering. Her
breath was not enough to give true voice to her words. She
answered, whispering, 'You twist the truth. My children know
themselves equal in my eyes.'

Are you sure?

'Yes.'

She was not sure. Her whispered voice said so, and the rush of
the water, and the ancestor's words, growing ever more faint.

You are Eceni. It is your blood and your right and your duty. It
is not too late to keep the children from weeping. Only find a way
to give back to the people the heart and courage they have lost.
Find a way to call forth the warriors and to arm them, find at least
one with courage to match yours and you may prevail. At the last,
find the mark that is ours and seek its place in your soul. Come to
know it, and you will prevail.

The ancestor's words etched a serpent-spear in the darkness, cast
in fire, hung against a summer sky.
The snake, having two heads, watched past and future, writhing.
The spear was crooked, as if broken. Its two blades pointed down
and up, to earth and sky, joining the realm of the people to the
realm of the gods.

Others joined it, chiselled into the living rock over and again on
the walls of the cave from floor to unreachable roof. Anywhere and
everywhere, the twin-headed serpent gazed equally to past and
future and the crooked spear lay across, joining the gods to their
people. The fire guttered and gave more light, filling the chiselled
marks with molten metal so that they came alive and stood
shimmering from the walls.

The light was too bright. It hurt to look at it. Believing herself
dying, Breaca turned her head away. 'What of my children?'

Would you have them in the slave pens? If you would have your
victory, you must lose them. Better lost now to Mona, where they
are loved, than later to Rome.

The serpent-spears on the walls faded to dark. Only the single
fire-cast mark hung against the sky-blue roof of the cave.

With disturbing solicitude, the ancestor said, There is none other
who can do it, else you would not be asked. If you go with all
speed, then the tide of Rome may yet be turned.

'Do you promise me that?'

I promise you nothing. Only that I will be with you, and that if
you ask it, I can give you death, which you may crave, or my aid
to live, which you may not.

She woke to the smell of burning.

Her cloak lay smouldering on the edge of the fire and the wound
in her arm had burst open, leaking an evil-smelling pus. The pain
that racked her was more than she had ever known, even at childbirth.
She stared up into blackness and saw nothing and heard
nothing, only the ever-running river and its echoes into silence.

After a while, she rolled onto her side and then onto her front
and doused the edge of her cloak to stop the burning and then
drank a little and then, gritting her teeth, pushed her bad arm into
the water and let the current strip it clean.

Later, still crawling, she found the messenger's saddlebags and
the wormwood and vervain and plantain and other things she
could not name that Efnis had sent, in case the bearer were injured
on his journey.

Airmid would have known how best to use them. Breaca did as
much as she could remember, and prayed to the gods, not the
ancestor-dreamer, for help in her healing.

She slept again, for a long time, and woke cooler and shaking with
hunger not fever and so knew the worst of it was over. She ate from
the messenger's saddlebags, thanking his shade for his foresight
and the gift of food, and went slowly to tend the horses. The roan
mare knew her and whickered, nuzzling her hair. She stood
scratching its withers and teasing out tangles from its mane.

In a while, because she had been thinking of it and had reached
a decision and needed to speak it aloud, she said, 'We will stay here
in safety until I am well enough to ride and then we will go east.
Alone. We may find warriors and rouse them to battle, we may
find the iron to arm them, and one to lead them. If we do not turn
the tide of Rome, it will not be for want of trying. But I pledge to
you now, that if the legions come to take you or your young into
slavery, I will kill you, or them, rather than let it happen.'

The mare knew nothing of slavery, only heard the undercurrents
of passion. She turned her head and rested her chin on Breaca's
shoulder and lipped at her sweat-soaked hair and for a while, in the
darkness, they were company, one for the other, before the journey
east began.


IV.

A THREE-QUARTER MOON TIPPED THE EDGE OF THE HILL. A WREN sang for the dawn. The child Graine lay behind a square
edged boulder with her hand on the neck of a slate-blue
hound called Stone. Untrue to his name, the hound did not lie still,
but quivered under her touch, his gaze fixed on the steep slope of
the hill at the place where the heather of the high land gave way to
grass and long stretches of bracken. Hay had been cut there in
summer and the grass had regrown to a finger's height, making
good grazing. Graine watched where the hound watched and, as
her eyes became his eyes, a triangle of smudged outlines became the
shapes of three yearling hares, feeding.

The hares were young and unwary. Graine, who was also young,
had listened to others' tales of hunting: 'Watch them from a
distance. When you get one alone, that's the time to strike.'

Dubornos had told her that, the gaunt and watchful singer
whom the gods had returned alive from Rome when her father had
been left behind. Dubornos had been talking of hunting Romans
but hares were not so different.
Graine lay on the damp turf, waiting. Nemain, the moon, sank
lower until the hare that lived on her surface could no longer
clearly be seen. The whispers of the half-light changed and became
those of day. Graine would have preferred an endless night; in the
darkness the grandmothers spoke to her from the lands beyond life
and she felt she understood the world. In daylight, she had to rely
on the unreliable words of the adults around her and they were too
confusing.

It was not that they lied, simply that they did not have the same
view of the world as the grandmothers did, so that it was hard to
know what would please them. Her mother, Breaca, was especially
difficult to read and it was her mother whom Graine most wanted
to please - if she were alive. That question had ruled the morning
and all the time before it since the dark evening with Airmid when
both of them had seen things in the river that they did not wish to
see.

The grandmothers had not helped with that vision, nor
explained it since. With nothing more solid than pain seen and felt,
Graine had decided to behave as if her mother still lived and would
return soon, counting the Roman dead and, perhaps, quietly
impressed by the actions of the daughter she had left behind.

On the mountainside, watched by the hound called Stone, one of
the bucks, bolder than its siblings, moved away seeking greener
grass. When you get one alone ... At a certain moment, when the
sun showed her the shine of the hare's eye and the blue hound
ceased to quiver against her side and became instead entirely still,
Graine lifted her hand.

The first few strides of the chase froze the child's breath in her
throat. She had seen hounds course a hare often enough but never
before had her hound hunted down her chosen hare, her twisting,
turning tawny pelt and flash of cream underbelly with its pulsing
life and floating run and round black eyes, perfect as polished jet.
For a dozen heartbeats, Graine lay still feeling herself a true hunter
at last, already illuminated in the glow of her mother's pride.

This was the heart of her plan: her uncle Ban, the traitor, had
been named Harehunter when he was still a boy and a friend to the
tribes. It seemed to Graine that her mother grieved for her lost
brother as much as she did for Caradoc who had been the fountain
of her soul. If Graine could not replace her father - and the
years of his absence had shown quite clearly that she could not then
she could perhaps become another hare-hunter, fit to assuage
the grief of Ban's loss.

It would not change the reality of Breaca's wounding, or the
confrontation with the serpent-dreamer, but it might at the very
least make her smile. Graine Harehunter. It had a good ring to it.
She could hear it spoken by Airmid and see how the Boudica,
surrounded by the elders, would accept it and be happy.

So close. Hunter to hunted, hunted from hunter. So close.

Stone was past his prime but fit after a long summer at war. As
he ran, he stretched long and flat like a hawk and the distance from
hunter to hunted closed until he could strike and almost kill - but
not quite.

The hare was well grown and had lived through its own summer
of danger. It knew enough of the hunt to save itself from the first
strike. White teeth cracked shut in the air where its chest had been
but the beast was already gone. Desperate for respite, it jinked and
turned on its axis so that, for the first time, it faced Graine who
had risen to her feet and stood knee deep in heather. Far away as
it was, the hare raised its head and looked her full in the eyes,
pleading. Her hare, seeking her help, pleading for the freedom
simply to live.

It was not at all what she had planned. Fear cracked over Graine,
drowningly. Not her own fear, but the hare's, the hammering,
heart-stopping terror of the hunted beast. Before she could take a
breath to shout, it spun once more on its own length, ducked under
the hound's neck and fled back towards her, straight as a spear,
diving between her legs for sanctuary.

She would have called Stone off if she could. She did her best,
screaming at him until her throat was raw, but everyone knew that
when any hound of Hail's line was hunting, or at war, the only
thing that would stop it was a thrown spear. Graine was only six
and she had no spear to throw, and even if she had she would never
have dared to harm the hound who carried the heart and soul of
the legendary Hail and was all her mother had left of her life before
Rome's invasion. She stood stone still in the heather and the hound
coursed past her, impersonal as lightning, as deaf, and as lethal.

The hare was an arm's reach away. Time stretched as it turned
and turned again, a third time and a fourth, harepin on harepin,
dodging the crunching jaws for a few breaths more of a life so
precious that Graine could taste its need to survive as an iron wetness
on her tongue. She reached for the beast, desperate to help,
and her movement was its undoing. Faltering, it missed the last
turn and Stone, excelling himself, stretched that hand's length
longer to reach it. The hare died, squealing, with its chest cracked
shut on its heart. To the last, the shining black eyes remained
locked with Graine's, pleading silently for sanctuary and release.

In that moment, at six years old, standing knee deep in wet grass
with the half-ghost of Nemain's moon hazy in the western sky,
Graine nic Breaca mac Caradoc, heir to the royal line of the Eceni,
understood with crushing certainty the true helplessness of the
gods when the forces they unleash with good intent destroy those
who have called on them for help. The enormity of it, the illusion
of hope when there was only certain death, overwhelmed her. She
sat in the grass and cried as only a child can cry, for the hare, who
was Nemain's beast above all others; for her mother and father
who would for ever live apart; for herself who was lost in a world
of uncertain forces where Cygfa and Cunomar had returned from
the dead to lay claim to parts of her mother's heart that were
already too much divided, and last for the brave, big-hearted war
hound who had given his all in the hunt and came to her for praise
and did not understand why she did not give it but instead clung
to his neck and wept.

Airmid, dreamer of Nemain, found her shortly after noon, by
the stream in that part of the wood where the sun was least. Graine
sat on a fallen birch log with the hound, Stone, lying to one side
and the skinned body of a hare on the turf beside her. The skin was
stretched out between rocks and had been partly cleaned. The
head, messily severed, sat on a rock in midstream, facing west, to
the ancestors. A lock of long, ox-blood hair streamed in the water
around it, pegged down by other stones. A bald patch showed on
the side of Graine's head as she sat hunched and weeping at the
stream's edge.

The dreamer had searched since dawn for the child who was not
her daughter, but had come to hold that place in her heart. Seeing
her, a morning's anxiety flared nearly to anger and fell away to a
deeper fear. She stood still, believing herself unseen and unheard.
The hound showed no sign of having noticed, but still, without
looking up, Graine leaned forward and turned the hare to face
across the water towards her. 'I wanted to honour it,' she said. 'It
showed me what became of mother in the cave of the ancestors.'

Airmid could run as fast as any of the warriors when she chose
to. Careless of her tunic, she crossed the river's wet stones and,
coming to kneel by the child, took hold of the small, shaking
shoulders. A tumble of uncombed hair fell about her fingers; that
part of Graine that belonged only to the child and had no echo in
her parents or grandparents on either side. It had been pale as
winter thatch when the child was born and for a while it had
seemed as if the dreams of a lifetime had gone awry, but the deep,
ox-blood red had grown through in the first year and had confirmed
at least the first beginnings of hope.

Later, as the infant had become a child, the neat smallness of her
had become apparent; the fine lines of her features mirrored no
one so much as her mother's brother, Ban, with whom Graine
shared only the barest splash of blood.

Graine's eyes alone were recognizably her father's: the changeable
grey that moved with the weather of her soul from the density
of storm clouds to the almost-blue of newly forged iron.
Outwardly, the child carried nothing of her mother. One needed to
understand, and profoundly to love, the souls of each to see the fire
blazing in the core and how it was shaped differently in the
dreamer and the warrior.

There was little fire to be seen in Graine now, only hurt and a
fragile pride. The birch log lay along the bank, shedding feathery
strands of white bark onto the loam. Sitting a little away, Airmid
brought from her belt-pouch the handful of shelled hazelnuts and
withered green crab apples that she had collected at dawn, thinking
to share them with her not-daughter. Now, she offered one,
staring into the water beyond the hare. 'Can you tell me what the
hare showed you?' she asked.

In the woods behind, a west wind teased at autumn leaves,
loosening them. Graine looked up. Her grey eyes were ageless.
'When mother was fighting against the traitor Cartimandua, you
prayed to Nemain for help,' she said. 'We still lost.'

It showed me what became of mother . . . Airmid breathed deep
and slow and unclenched her hands. She had been with Graine
when they had seen the vision of Breaca. It had come hazily
through water but even at so far a remove, it had been clear the
warrior was dying. Airmid had prayed and dreamed constantly in
the three days since, but nothing further had been shown her.
Graine, to whom the gods sent visions beyond the minds of any
dreamer on Mona, chose not to share what she knew, but instead
turned her mind to the lost battles of the summer.

There was nothing to be done to hurry her; a god-touched child
is not to be pressed. Wiping a palm on her tunic, Airmid said
evenly, 'The gods know more than we do of how things must go.
We can pray, and must do so. Not everything we ask for will be
given.'

'No, or the Romans would have taken ship and sailed away long
since.'

'Indeed. But it has always been this way and should remain so.
If every prayer were granted, we would become arrogant, and ask
for too much.'

Graine thought for a while, then, 'Would that be bad?'

Airmid said, 'It could be. I think in time we would stop honouring
the gods for what they gave us. Then we would truly be
godless.'

'Like the men of the legions?'

'Some of them.'

'That would be bad.'

They were quiet a while. It could have been a day like any other.
They ate quietly until the nuts were gone. Airmid broke one
wizened apple between her palms and offered half. The smell was
sharp, like new grass with a sweet, nutty base. Graine took it,
unseeing. Her gaze was fixed on the hare's. Its eyes were open,
opaque, like dusted water.

Graine said, 'I think . . . maybe ... it may be that Nemain cannot
help us, however much we pray? As I could not help the hare,
even though I wanted to.'

And so the pegged skin and the severed head became more clear.
Stifling a bigger movement, Airmid reached forward and smoothed
a lock of stray hair from Graine's brow. The gods spoke in so many
small, indefinable ways. The training of a dreamer was to know
how to listen. Here, in the presence of a child who embodied her
own dream, Airmid's whole body vibrated with listening. A magpie flew over and called once, raucous in the morning hush. More
quietly, a trout flipped in the stream and landed uncleanly, splashing
more than it might have done. A frog croaked, at a time of year
too late for frogs.

In these ways, the god warned Airmid to pick her words with
care. Twenty years of Mona's lessons and a handful of years before
that in service to the elder grandmother helped her find what to
say.

Leaning forward, the dreamer took the child's two hands
between her own. 'You may be right. It may be the gods can do
nothing, but the hare is Nemain's beast and if it died, it did so to
return to her. Death isn't a bad thing when it comes at the right
time, you must remember that. And you're not a god, but another
of Nemain's creatures. You could no more have stopped the hare's
death than one of the skylarks could stop you from eating the
apple. It's not in your power.'

'You mean the hare died because it wanted to? I don't think it
did.'

'I don't think so either. I didn't say that. I said it may be that it
died because its time was right. We can't know why, but perhaps if
Stone, who is the best of hunters, had not caught and killed it
cleanly, something worse might have happened later; an eagle
might have caught it and torn it apart to feed her young, or a fox
cub that had not learned to kill properly might have left it crippled
to die of starvation in the winter. Or perhaps simply it was its
time to return to Nemain, who cares for it. We, who are not gods,
cannot know these things.'

'But Nemain can?'

Airmid took time to think. The hands she clasped had grown
cold and then too hot. She turned them over, studying the bitten
nails with their constant half-moon of grime. The grey eyes drew
her back.

'I don't know,' she said. 'Truly, I don't. But I think we have to
believe so, or there is nothing left to believe. It may not be true. It
may be that the hare died because you chose to set the hound on
it and there is nothing more. Would you rather believe that?'

In the long silence, the birds sat still on the branches and the frog
crooned alone.

'If I believe it, will it make it so?'

'I don't think what we believe changes anything except
ourselves.'

'No ... in that case, I would rather believe that it died because
it was time for it to return to Nemain. But that means . . .' Graine
faltered. She was a child of six, grappling with questions that had
vexed the elders since the time of the most ancient ancestors. Her
frown became so complete that her brow flattened tight against the
bone.

Airmid said gently, 'It means that Nemain sees a greater part of
the picture and we see only that which is before our eyes. It means
that if your father Caradoc is in Gaul, he is there for a reason that
we do not know.'

'And the traitor brother? Why is he in Hibernia?'

'Valerius. He was Ban but he calls himself Valerius now.' Airmid
stroked a small cheek that could as easily have been his. 'It doesn't
help to think of him badly. I don't know why he's there. I can't
reach him or see him. He has closed himself off from the gods'
touch.'

Airmid had not said as much to anyone else, certainly not to
Breaca. Graine shivered in the morning chill and it was not simply
her skin thrumming to the sound of the god's voice. Seeing it
possible to show the depth of her care without doing harm, Airmid
reached forward and drew the young body in to her chest, warming
her and holding her close.

The shuddering stilled in a while. Kissing the rich, unruly hair,
Airmid said, 'We must learn patience, both of us. The answer will
be clear in time, if we have to wait for death to see it.'

'Does death make some things more clear?'

'Death makes all things clear.'

'Then the man Sorcha brings on the ferry will know all things by
noon.'

The child was exceptional, but some things are beyond even the
gods. Sharply, Airmid said, 'How do you know that?'

The small face turned up. For a moment Graine looked serious,
keeping the faraway gaze that she had learned from the dreamers.
Then she grinned and was a child again, bright with triumph at the
success of a ruse.

'He was there when I left Sorcha's cabin with Stone. I saw him
ride to the water's edge and raise the signal. He rode lopsided,
holding his belly, and when he tried to dismount he fell and his
horse walked away from him. They only do that when a man is
dying, Gwyddhien said so.'

The hairs rose on Airmid's forearms and her throat ran dry.
Certain dreams of the past nights became more clear than she
might have liked. Distractedly, she said, 'If Gwyddhien said so,
then it must be right. Did Sorcha go to him?'

'Not yet. She was rising to feed the babe when I left. She'll be
ready by now. You should go. He brings news from the east. The
hare told me that.'

'And did the hare tell you what news he bore?'

The grey eyes grew wide. 'No. It showed me his brother, who is
dead. Mother met him and has his message. She was sick with the
wound we saw but the serpent-dreamer healed her. She is going
away now and will never come back. The ancestors are with her.
They cannot hold her safe any more than can the gods. But they
will keep watch so that we'll know if she falls.'

'Thank you.' So much from the lips of a child. So much held
alone for the length of a morning. So much to mourn and to fear
and perhaps to plan.

Airmid did not force herself to smile; with Graine, such a thing
would be an insult. She rose, holding the child's hand, and said, 'In
that case, there is nothing to be done but to greet the messenger. Do
you think he will live long enough to deliver his message?'

'He will if we are quick.'

'Can you run?'

'Of course.'

'Let's go then.'

They ran together along the stony path towards Sorcha's cabin.
A single frog at the river's edge croaked an autumn song of
mourning.


V.

ENCASED IN A PIT, THE FIRE GAVE OFF NO SMOKE, ONLY A HAZE OF burnt air that smeared the straight lines of the surrounding beech trees so that they wavered as if reflected in water. The
clouded evening sky behind took on the ripples of the ocean so that
Breaca could have been in the cave again, locked in the fever
dreams of the ancestor, but was not.

Dreams might have been pleasanter than reality. She sat wrapped
in her cloak with her back to a rock and wished, without hope of
fulfilment, for the warmth and companionship of a hound. In the
days before Rome's invasion, no hunter, warrior, trader or
travelling smith would have slept under the open sky without a
hound to keep the night's cold at bay.

It was a small change amidst the greater cataclysm of occupation,
but it served as a marker for the life that had been lost and
was yet one more feather to weight the balance of her decision,
should she ever regret it: for the promised warmth of a hound on
an autumn evening, Breaca of Mona, once of the Eceni, had
abandoned her warriors and the island of Mona that had been her
home and her safety for nearly twenty years. She had abandoned
the children for whom she had never fully been a mother and the
warriors for whom she had been the Boudica, bringer of victory,
and, emerging from the cave of the ancestor-dreamer with the
wound in her arm half healed, she had set her mare's head to
the east towards the lands of the Eceni and had not once turned
back.

The gods show the many possible futures . . . it is up to the living
to manifest what is offered.
The ancestor-dreamer had said so on parting, speaking from the
hound stone as Breaca scoured clean the last of the grasses in fulfilment
of her promise, then stood on it to mount her horse.

She thought of that later, riding east on poorly trodden pathways,
focusing on the smaller sacrifices that the larger ones might
not overwhelm her. It was not hard to find things to mourn: the
loss of Stone, who was her best war hound and the last remaining
son of Hail; the loss of the dun stallion who should have covered
the blue mare in the spring and the yearling filly who was their
daughter and would outclass both of her parents; the loss of the
many hunting knives that lay on the shelf beside her sleeping place
in the great-house; the loss of the ancient blade with the feeding
she-bear on its hilt that had been her father Eburovic's and his
father's before him and his mother's before that, back through the
years to the distant history of the Eceni.

That blade should have gone to Cunomar on his long-nights,
and might do still; Ardacos knew where it was kept and would do
what was right, speaking the words of the giving as if he were
father to the child-made-man, not simply his mentor. Cygfa could
not be present at the ceremony - only men could take part in a
boy's long-nights as only the women stood vigil for the girls - but
she could braid his hair for him afterwards with Airmid and Graine
when he came out to join--

Breaca stopped, cursing her undisciplined mind. She had never
thought herself weak. She did not wish to do so now.

Breathing tightly, she raised her head and looked beyond the fire
to the place above the treetops where the half-circle of Nemain's
light made silhouettes of leafless branches. When she had lain
above the Roman camp, the moon had been in the last day of
waning, too old to show at night. Now, it was halfway to full, and
casting shadows on the landscape. Five days had been lost as she
healed in the cave, each one a lifetime.

The night was less still than it had been. A damp wind billowed
from the south, spreading the haze above the fire low and flat.
The darkening trees bent their heads to the north and the sky
beyond sparked with early stars. The roan mare shifted, snuffing
the breeze, then shifted again and blew out gently through her
nose.

Move!

It was not the ancestor who spoke, but the oldest part of Breaca's
mind, which was wedded to the serpent-spear and to life. She
rolled to her feet, shedding her cloak and sweeping it over the fire
pit to hide the glow. Her slingstones were in one hand and her sling
in the other and she was already within the shelter of the trees,
moving silently over rain-damp leaves and pressing through undergrowth
that eased forward to let her through and closed behind her
afterwards, denying that she had ever been.

Go south; the wind is from the south, and it brought the scent
of man to the mare.

Breaca circled south, soft as owl-flight, exchanging her sling for
her knife, the better to kill in close cover. Her mare stood as if
carved from granite, a thing of the night. The rising steam from the
fire-warmed cloak would eventually betray to the trackers the fact
that she had been in the clearing, but it would not give away her
new position.

The enemy was alone and well hidden. He lay still beneath a
stunted blackthorn and only the pale smudge of his hair let Breaca
see him. He was not, therefore, Roman; of the invaders only the
Gaulish cavalrymen were so coloured and they did not have
the skills for this. He would be a Coritani scout then, a traitor
from the eastern tribe, neighbours to the Eceni, who favoured
Rome, and whose best scouts were paid well in gold to hunt their
countrymen. Breaca had killed two of his kind in recent days and
had not found them any more skilled than their Roman masters,
simply more careful in open country.

She waited, watching, then pressed her knife-blade into the dirt
and, with her free hand, sifted through her black-painted stones.
Two had red snake-lines on the black, painted on Mona, when the
serpent-dreamer was a safe and distant memory. Breaca knew them
by the sharp pain they raised in her palm. She eased one from the
pouch and cupped it in the belly of her sling. These two alone not
only crushed the life from the enemy, but extinguished the fires of
the soul. It was a fate fit for a traitor and even the godless Coritani
were learning to fear it.

Presently, as the steam from her cloak became smoke, the scout
rose from his hiding place and eased forward, squirming on his
belly, silent as a snake. If the strategies of his tracking were fatally
flawed, the quality of his movement was exquisite; a sinuous flow
that disturbed neither leaves nor small branches, but sent him
forward to where she had been.

Where there was one tracker who knew his craft, there may be
two. It was the knowing of that stayed Breaca's hand when the
tracker emerged beyond the blackthorn and the red and black
slingstone could have killed him. The Boudica had not hunted
alone so many winters to be caught by a warrior prepared to
sacrifice himself to trap her. She watched the place the scout had
rested, waiting.

'He's good, isn't he? But not as good as you and me.'

The murmur was part of the night, a sighing of soft breezes. The
voice was a friend's and the last she might have expected to hear.

'Ardacos?'

She turned, slowly. The small, wizened warrior grinned at her
from the base of a beech tree. Ardacos led the she-bears and was
the greatest proponent of their art. He fought naked and on foot,
smeared in the grey woad-stained bear's grease that gave him his
power, painted with lime-clay to terrify his enemies. He was not
painted now, nor did he stink of bear, but he was naked, save for a
knife belt, and his body merged with the land around it as a stone
might do, or a sleeping bear. Breaca saw him because he chose to
let her. In all probability she had passed him in tracking the tracker
and had not felt the first hint of his presence.

Surprise waxed briefly to anger and then to a stabbing anxiety.
Ardacos had been sent by the elders once before to find the
Boudica and bring her home. She did not wish to have to fight him
for the right to continue east.

On a silent breath, she asked, 'Why are you here?'

'I am sworn to protect your son in your absence. The she-bear
asked it of me and I consented, gladly. Where he goes, I go. Whom
he hunts, I hunt, even if the quarry is his mother.'

Ardacos nodded forward and what should have been obvious
became so: that the scout who tracked the Boudica was not a
Coritani traitor but Cunomar, her eldest child, son of his father in
so many ways - but not enough.

Cunomar had reached the edge of the clearing and was working
his way forward through the beeches. Breaca felt the weight of the
red-painted stone in the fall of her sling. The understanding of how
close she had come to killing him left her light-headed with fear.
The ancestor's voice echoed in her mind. If you would have your
victory, you must lose them . . .

'But not like this.' She spoke aloud, not meaning to.

Ardacos shook his head. 'I am here for his protection. I would
not have let you throw.'

'No?' With her eyes, she measured the distance to Ardacos. Two
spear lengths separated them. They could argue for the rest of their
days over whether it might have been enough.

She said, 'I don't understand. Why is Cunomar here? And why
is he tracking me when he could ride in and share the fire?'

'Could he so? He thinks not. Your daughter believes you have
left us and so now, for the first time, your children are united in
their fear and their loss. They would bring you back, or join you
in your flight. Your son believed that if he rode to your fire, you
would be gone before he reached you. Was he not right?'

It was late and Breaca was tired and her mind had not yet fully
recovered from a spear wound gone bad. She said, 'Cygfa believes
I have left Mona? How does she know?'

Ardacos ran his tongue round the white edges of his teeth. He
hissed disapproval, or despair. 'Breaca, you have two daughters
and it is not Cygfa who is the dreamer, but Graine, your daughter-of-blood.
She dreamed your wounding and knows that the
grandmothers and the greater ancestors wished you to travel east,
but not why they sent you away from us. She did not know, either,
if you would be well enough to travel.'

He reached out and touched the red and swollen edges of the
healing wound on the Boudica's arm. In a different tone, he said, 'I have said before that you should not hunt alone. The spear went deep.'

'But not too deep, and the one who cast it is dead. He--'

'Mother?'

Sometime in their conversation they had stopped whispering and, hearing them, Cunomar had abandoned his stalking. He
stood in the centre of the clearing, staring at where he thought they
might be. Like Ardacos, he had hunted naked and the newly risen
moon brightened his hair and the white skin beneath. In so many
ways he was the image of his father, and yet so clearly flawed.

Breaca made herself see the small fragment of Caradoc, outweighing
the burning fact of the red-striped slingstone held in her
hand. Standing, she smiled a welcome. 'I'm here. If you could lift
my cloak from the fire pit before it burns, I might wear it yet
through other nights.'

He stared at her, blankly. Unlike Ardacos, he wore both the lime
and bear-grease of the she-bear warriors. As if to make the point,
he had painted as much of the bear-skull on his face as was permitted
a boy not yet past his long-nights. White circles ringed his
eyes and narrow lines ran the lengths of his cheekbones, ending in
a spike that rose up to his brow. He was a stranger, as he had been
since he stepped off the boat that had brought him from Gaul. The
ancestor had said so and Breaca had denied it. Here, now, she
understood the many layers of the truth, and the price she had
pledged to pay.

Better lost now, to Mona . . .

She said, quietly, 'Cunomar? It was a good stalking. If you'll lift
my cloak . . . ?'

He stared at her a moment longer, then did so, stiffly. White
smoke billowed up and was followed by a wash of air-starved
flame.

'Thank you. There's wood by the upright stone behind your left
foot. If you feed the flames, we can sit warm at least, while you tell
me how you tracked me this far. Rome's Coritani scouts would pay
in gold to know that.'

She was speaking as she would to a child and her son heard it.
He crouched by the fire pit and the flames lit the unworldly skull
marks on his face. Resentment and mistrust patterned the features
beneath. His gaze flickered to the sling that hung from her hand
and rested there.

'Did Ardacos stop you from killing me?' So much pain in the
currents beneath the words.

Your son craves your love. Why do you not give it? For love,
there must first be truth, and it was a long time since Breaca had
given that to Cunomar.

She was about to lose him. Knowing that, she sat on a stone and
spoke for the first time as she would have done to his father. 'No,
Ardacos did not stop me from killing you, although he might have
tried. I thought you might be a sacrifice, sent forward to draw me
out. I waited to see who was behind you.'

'And, because I was not a Coritani tracker in the pay of Rome,
the one waiting behind was Ardacos, protector of the Boudica's
children. When father fought in the Battle of the Lame Hind,
Dubornos was set to look over me. Now he cares for Graine and
Ardacos must keep watch over me instead. It must be very tedious
for them both.'

Breaca stared into the fire, seeking answers, and found none.
'You could ask him,' she said. 'You will have time enough to thrash
it out on the journey back to Mona.'

A shadow joined them. Even in firelight Ardacos contrived to be
half seen. He carried with him a bearskin wrapped in a bundle.
Laying it at her feet, he said, 'I brought you this. You should not
return to take the torc of your people without it.'

'How do you know I'm going back to take the torc?'

Ardacos said, 'One of Efnis' three messengers reached Mona
alive. He died on the straits without crossing over but Airmid
heard his message and understood then what Graine's dream had
shown. You are returning to take the rule of the Eceni from 'Tagos,
if he will let you have it. To even think of such a thing, you should
have your father's blade, and your own.'

He unwrapped his bundle by the fire pit and two swords lay
together on the flat leather of the bear hide; the feeding she-bear on
the pommel of the larger overlapped slightly the serpent-spear that
marked the smaller, so that the two intertwined and became one.
Eburovic's she-bear blade carried the soul of her ancestors back too
many generations to count. Its loss had been one of her many
sources of pain, but Breaca had carried the blade that bore the
serpent-spear into every battle she had ever fought and she had not
dared begin to mourn it.

Reaching across the fire pit, she lifted the serpent-blade now,
feeling the small thrill of death it always carried. A deep peace
followed that she had not missed until its return. 'Thank you. Some
things were easy to leave behind. This was not one of them.'

'And we were?' Ardacos asked it, tightly. In his own way, he was
as wounded as Cunomar. He had been her lover once, after Airmid
and before Caradoc, and had believed himself trusted with all things.

'No, of course not. How can you think it? But I would not ask
you to hang on a Roman gibbet simply because I desired your
company for--'

A twig cracked under a mis-placed foot. They were warriors,
even Cunomar; before the shattered silence had closed around
them, they were standing in the dark beyond the fire pit. Breaca's
cloak lay once again across the fire, hiding the glow. The wool
steamed and then smoked, sooner than it had done before. Three
knives carved the moonlight, dimly.

The twig snapped again, then a third time and it was evident that
it had not been broken by accident but deliberately, as a signal.

'Is your family now the enemy?' The voice came from the trees,
not blood-family, but heart-family, amused and certain of
welcome. Cygfa led her horse forward into the clearing, bright
haired and alive with the night.

'Your dreamer was left without her sworn warrior and your
daughter without her mother. I said I would return both to you, or
you to them. I had not realized when I promised it that you would
be so hard to track. I would never have found you if Ardacos
hadn't been on your trail and Cunomar before him. You really
should lift your cloak from the fire. It's too good to keep burning
it.'

In every way, Cygfa was Caradoc's daughter. Her half-smile was
his, taking the sting from the words and adding back something
different and more difficult to bear. For the space of a dozen heartbeats,
the young warrior stood alone in the still moonlight and
Breaca had time to pray to Briga and to Nemain that the worst had
not happened. Then the beeches shook and Airmid and Graine
stepped forward and the night stopped and it would have been so
very much better never to have left the cave.

'Airmid--'

They had not come alone. A shape blurred at Airmid's side and
then, released, sprang forward. A hound did not understand the
complexities of the ancestors and their visions but Stone, last and
best son of the war hound Hail, heard pain in the voice of the one
he loved most and knew that he alone could heal it.

A hound, at least, could be welcomed fully without risking
the destruction of the ancestor's visions. In more pain than she
remembered since Caradoc's capture, Breaca knelt and opened her
arms. Stone crossed the last strides of the clearing as if he were
coursing game and the gathered members of her family, of blood
and of spirit, watched as the Boudica buried her hands in the mane
of her battle hound and a woollen cloak smoked thickly beside
them.

It was Graine who lifted her mother's cloak from the fire pit. She
was too small to hold it up. Singed wool swamped her, trailing on
the ground. Smoke stuttered upwards from a place near her
shoulder. The fire, given air, flickered to life again and the orange
glow lit her face from one side, leaving the other half to the dark.
Patched thus in light and shadow, her small features were set hard
so that she might not weep.

'We all found you,' she said, in case it was not obvious. 'I
dreamed the beech trees and Cygfa found your trail. Airmid knew
when you were close and that Cunomar was already here.'

She stood squarely, a spear's length from her mother, her child's
fists clenched tight across her chest. The Boudica's daughter would
never shed tears in the presence of others, but the prescient
dreamer who had wept for her mother's pain, a day's ride distant,
and then dreamed of her in a forest might well do.
These two fought each other in the soul of a child so that tears
trembled on her eyelids, forbidden to fall. Graine took a step back
until she came up against Airmid, close behind, and she could slip
her small hand into the dreamer's for comfort.

Hairs pricked on the back of Breaca's neck. Somewhere distant,
the ancestor laughed.

. . . better lost to Mona, where they are loved . . .

The truth laid her bare, like a knife. Even half understood, it had
been easy to follow the ancestor's logic: far better for all of those
she loved to be safe in each other's care in the west, than to risk
them in the broken lands of the east where the cost of failure was
paid by children shackled in slave pens. Seeing the truth laid out so
starkly, in Cunomar and then in Graine, cut away all doubt,
crushingly.

Breaca rose, ready to say so, and found that Airmid was standing
where Graine had been and that it was not, after all, possible
to speak. She sat down again, slowly.

Airmid stood very still. The dreamer was taller than the child
would ever be; age-threads in her hair sparked in the full spill of
light and the dreamer's thong at her brow glimmered as if sewn
with the scales of living salmon. A string of silvered frog bones
circled her neck, the only outward mark of her dream. Her eyes
were dark tunnels in the firelight.

As if they two were alone, she said, 'Breaca, what did the
ancestor show you?'

They had been together since childhood, two halves of the same
soul. Even Caradoc had not split them apart. Breaca said, 'Do you
not know?'

'I need you to say it.'

'I saw a land in ruin, the roundhouses destroyed for their timber,
the paddocks bare of fodder, the animals dead of hunger. I saw a
pen of children enslaved, weeping tears of gold, and their starving
parents collecting their worth as if it were corn. Then, as the
ancestor's gift, I saw a battle on a hillside. The eagle of Rome was
crushed and the serpent-spear hung over. The ancestor said that if
I go east and can raise the warriors and give them heart, if I can
arm them, if I can find one among them with the courage and
vision to lead them in battle, it may be possible to turn the tide of
Rome.'

She did not say, 'I saw Graine in the slave pens.' That was private
and would remain so. A vision unspoken might yet be robbed of its
power.

Across the clearing, the air became sharper and the moonlight
more clear. Nobody moved, or spoke. Neither vision was
ambiguous; there was no room for different interpretations, only
for deciding how the one might be brought to bear over the other.
Stone whined and leaned against Breaca's side, pushing his muzzle
under her hand. Graine came to stand beside him, leaning likewise,
so that the weight of hound and child crushed against the healing
spear wound. There was an odd comfort in it and Breaca chose not
to move them.

Cunomar was first to move. He would not look at his mother,
but fixed his knife in his belt and crouched by the fire, feeding it
small slivers of wood, to make heat and light without smoke.

Airmid, too, moved closer to the flames. To Breaca, she said,
quietly, 'So you thought to change the world alone. Do you not
know that if you set yourself against 'Tagos now, you will die?
Efnis' messenger said so.'

Breaca said, 'Efnis is wrong. He forgets that 'Tagos is a man
ruled second by his pride and first by his yearning.'

'What?' Airmid laughed harshly. 'You would give yourself to
him, to feed his longing?' The scorn of the ancestor had never been
so biting.

Five days in the cave and three days riding had given Breaca time
to imagine all possible confrontations with Airmid. Not once had
she imagined anything so public, or so unplanned. She stood,
easing herself free of the hound and the child who pressed against
her. It had always been easier to face Airmid standing. She said,
'How else will Rome accept me but as his consort?'

'If they accept you, then they will also accept your children as if
they were his. That is the way of Rome. A man's children need not
be of his seed.'

Striving to make clear the obvious, Breaca said, 'But they won't
be safe, nor will you. The children in the ancestor's vision were
enslaved, their parents starving. There were no dreamers: all
were dead. I would not ask that of you, nor allow you to ask it of
me. The gods gave me that choice and I took it.'

'And now those of us not of the gods make our own choices,
which are different.'

'No.'

'You have no power to stop us.'

'Airmid, will you listen to me? I would not take you east to
crucifixion, now or ever.'

If she had shocked them before, she stunned them now.
Crucifixion was not yet common in the west, as if Rome saved the
ultimate sanction for some later time of need. Sane adults did not
speak of it, fearing to bring that time closer.

On the fringes of the firelight, Cygfa and Ardacos made the ward
against evil. Bone white and shaking, Airmid said, 'Do you think
we would want to hear the same of you, knowing that you had
died alone?'

Her voice did not tremble; she was a dreamer and trained better
than that, but the tone dropped and grew richer and so finally, too
late, it became clear that it was not, after all, anger that consumed
Airmid, but grief beyond bearing, held for too long.

A cloud covered the moon. The clearing closed in, lit only by the
hazed amber of the fire. Those on the margins became less than
shadows. Airmid stood two paces away, close enough to touch.
The heat of her skin was warmer than the distant caress of the
fire. The smell of burning-herbs from her cloak mixed with the lift
of sea air and horse sweat and still did not quite cover the scent of
Airmid, which had never changed. She waited, not moving, and
they were children again, first learning of love; they were adults,
knowing the endless pain of loss; they were alone, surrounded by
friends who would not disturb them. All Breaca had to do was
reach out, bridge the gap between them, and the world would no
longer be as it had been when she walked out of the cave and
scoured clean the stone of the ancestor, in payment of a debt.

Somewhere, a horse whickered, not Breaca's mare. The hound
Stone, long since forgotten, became suddenly stiff, pushing up
against her hand. Breaca, guessing, said, 'Dubornos?' and found
that, on a night of many errors, this once she was correct.

A lean, red-haired man stood at the edge of the clearing. At the
edges of her mind, she had been waiting for him; the final piece
that completed the pattern and made whole her family-inspirit.

With Cygfa and Cunomar, Dubornos had been taken captive by
the legions and held for two years in Rome. Unlike those two, his
scars were of the body as much as the mind. The fingers of one
hand had been broken and the strings of both wrists were weak
where the fetters had crushed them so that, in place of the shield
and long-sword he could no longer wield, he fought now with a
long knife and sling.

Tall, gaunt and melancholy, he had given his life since childhood
to the rigours and training of a singer, but war had made him also
a warrior and he had long since set himself as guardian over the
Boudica's children. It was inconceivable that Graine could have
travelled from Mona without his knowing, or following.

He stepped away from the tree against which he had been leaning
and it was clear that his presence was not a surprise to the
others. He would have been set to hold the horses and would not
have left them now without good cause. Cygfa said, 'Is it the
legions?'

'Who else? The Coritani scouts lost your trail yesterday and they
never had Breaca's, but Rome has a tracker of the Ordovices and
she is of a different stamp.'

Cygfa was of the Ordovices. Her mother had ruled them before
she, too, was taken prisoner by Rome. White-eyed, she said, 'No
warrior of the Ordovices would take coin from Rome. No gold
could buy them.'

'No. They know that. They have not offered gold, but have
taken her children captive and threaten to kill one at each old
moon if she does not find the Boudica for them. Already one is
dead. Two are living. She would not see them hanged.'

Always the children. One could ask of the gods why they allow
such things to happen, but to do so would lose time and would
bring no more answers than had already been given. Breaca said,
'Have you spoken to her?'

'No. I listened at their camp at dawn this morning. She spoke
over-loudly to the Coritani scouts. I believe she knew I was there.'

Ardacos said, 'How much of Rome does she bring?'

'Four centuries of the Twentieth plus eighteen Coritani hunters
and' - he bowed to Cygfa - 'one warrior of the Ordovices who is
worth twenty of them.'

'How far--' Breaca began and then, on a wash of bile and a
flood of battle-scald, 'They're here.'

A low wind soughed softly down a valley, except that there were
no valleys here and the legions had never understood that a guise
which worked well in one part of the land would not necessarily
do so in another. That sound, heard in woodland, was only ever the
horn call of one Roman century to another.

There was such solace in battle. Almost, in that frozen moment,
Airmid was forgotten. Breaca reached for her war hound and
found Stone ready at her side. The hair stood erect on his spine and
his body trembled with the need to fight. Her blade lay on the
ground where Ardacos had left it. She reached for it and found that
Airmid had already lifted it, and was holding it forward, hilt first.

Airmid said, 'They have come for you, only you, with three
centuries of men. If you wish to die cleanly, this may be the night.
If you wish your children to live, you will not fight, but will guide
them to safety. You cannot do both.'

Breaca shook her head. 'I can't take you west. They will be
guarding all the routes to Mona.'

'Of course. So you must take us east, at least for now.' Airmid
smiled wryly. 'I did not ask for this, or make it happen, I swear it.'

'I know. I will not lose you like this.' All her life, Breaca had
trained to think clearly in the crisis of war when others could not.
It was her gift, and she cherished it, even now, when the certainties
of the ancestor's clarity were crumbling and could not be made
whole. To Dubornos, she said, 'Your horses, are they far?'

'We can reach them in time.'

'Good. I have the messenger's mount. It will make a diversion.
And if we put my cloak on it, which is marked with the serpent
spear, perhaps the woman of the Ordovices can prove that she led
them to the Boudica. Ardacos?'

The small warrior was already running. 'I'll take it, and Graine's
pony. Give my horse to Graine. He's better than hers.'

He would have gone alone, and if he had died they would not
have known how or when. Breaca said, 'Cygfa. Go with him. Fight
as do the she-bear.'

The she-bear abjured the honour of warriors, attacking from
behind if needful - and they would kill those of their own who
were too injured to run rather than let them be captured living by
the legions. It was better that way.

Cygfa, too, was already moving. She grinned, fleetingly. 'Thank
you. I will see him live through to morning. You do the same for
the others.'

Cygfa was gone and those left were gathering up their mounts;
three adults, a child and Cunomar, who was neither and who
wanted more than anything to fight as the she-bear. Their horses
were used to battle and all but Graine could mount them moving.
Over the churning of hooves, Cygfa's voice came to them through
the trees. 'Where do we meet?'

A part of her had already planned for this. Breaca called, 'At the
place where the land of the Cornovii meets the land of the Coritani,
at the joining of the four rivers. Ardacos knows it. Pray that he
lives to show you.'


VI.

GRAINE LAY AWAKE, WITH HER HEAD ON A HOUND'S FLANK, watching the greased smoke of burning bodies rise uncertainly
on a westerly wind.
They were Roman bodies, not those of her friends, and the souls
of dead men writhed in the smoke, not knowing how to return to
their gods. It was hard not to pity them, however dangerous they
might have been while alive. Graine wished for dark and the quiet
whispers of the grandmothers, that she might ask for the enemy
dead to be escorted home. It was a good thing to wish for, and took
her mind away from the uncertainty of the coming days and the
horror of the flight from the clearing.

It was important not to think about the ride away from the
enemy, or she might never find the courage to ride again. Graine
was not a warrior and had no wish to be. Alone of her siblings, she
had never ached to ride the battle mounts of her elders, and had
never spent her summer days on Mona practising all the warrior's
moves on horseback until she could ride anything and everything
with ease. For four years, she had ridden the same pony who loved
her and they had been safe together.

On Ardacos' mount, she had been overwhelmingly over-horsed.
Bred and trained for war, sire to two dozen good foals, the beast
was in the prime of its life and had rarely been asked to accept any
rider but Ardacos, not ever to run from the scene of a battle. When
Graine had been lifted into the saddle, it had seemed not to notice
that she was there. Certainly, it had ignored every attempt on her
part to change its direction and, until shouted back by the Boudica,
it had seemed intent on hurling itself through the forest to attack
the Roman lines on its own. Called forward and urged to speed, it
had raced through the trees as if across open pasture without
thought for the safety of its rider. Leafless branches had lashed
around it and fallen logs were taken in a single stride, arced over
as by a salmon.

Graine had never experienced the horror of an uncontrolled ride.
Growing amongst people who rode as soon and as easily as they
walked, she had never heard anyone suggest such a thing might
happen. The reality was far worse than her imagined fear of Rome.
She would have screamed, but had no breath. She would have been
sick, but to do so would have shaken her hold on the beast's mane
and, just then, her life depended on not letting go. She might have
fainted and crossed into the safety of the dream, but her mother, at
last, had seen what was happening and had urged her mare alongside
the racing horse.

In full flight, jumping logs and branches and ditches, the Boudica
had let go of her reins and, reaching over, had lifted Graine bodily
from the saddle, had prised the small fingers loose from their
death-clutch on the mane and had gathered her daughter onto the
relative safety of her own racing, flying, battle-crazed mount. It
was the stuff of nightmares and of myth, and Graine had spent the
rest of the ride too afraid and ashamed and astonished and
awestruck to think how she might make it into a song.

The flight had continued through the night, and into the next
day and night, going more slowly to avoid detection in the daytime,
faster at night. Near dawn on the second day, they had come
to the joining of four rivers and had moved a little away from it to
wait for Ardacos, leaving markers to point where they had gone.

Breaca had led them into a wooded valley where one of the rivers
cut deep into the earth and oak clustered densely with elm. Winter
had not reached here as it had Mona. Ragged leaves hung yet from
the branches; shimmering cold copper overlapped oak rust in the
early light.

The wood was unused to human intrusion. Crows had clattered
out of the canopy as the riders entered and made camp. They had
risen a second time, raucously, shortly after the horses had been
settled and a small fire laid. Breaca, Dubornos and Cunomar rolled
to their feet and subsided again as quickly at the chittering of a
stoat that was Ardacos' sign. He and Cygfa had appeared moments
later, running in over rocks and fallen trees, sharp with the elation
of battle, filthy with mud and grit and the freckled spray of enemy
blood. They had not brought back Graine's pony, nor Cygfa's war
trained gelding. There had never been any chance that they would
do; the she-bear always fought on foot and could outrun any horse
on a day's ride. The pony had been a decoy and, by saving the
Boudica's daughter, Ardacos had saved his own mount. Graine
tried not to hate him for it.

The returning warriors had told their tales briefly and then
settled to sleep under cover of beech furze and year-end grass.
Graine was not used to sleeping by day. She had lain down with her
head on Stone's flank, wrapped in her own cloak with Breaca's
spare laid over. A dead elm, taken long ago by lightning, stood to
the west, its leafless branches black against the paling sky. The gap
it left gave light and a sight of the western horizon and, because she
was watching for it, the girl had presently seen the first feather of
black smoke and the greater, greasier billows that followed as the
enemy burned the bodies of those Romans, and three Coritani
traitors, slain by Ardacos and Cygfa.

'Graine?'

She had thought she was the only one awake. Startled, she raised
her head. Her mother was sitting up by the last glow of the fire, her
cloak around her shoulders, her back against an ancient, fungus
encrusted oak stump. She had been sleeping, clearly, and had
woken. Her hair hung around her shoulders, part-braided. For the
first time since summer - for the first time in any winter Graine had
ever known - the Boudica had set aside the single black-dyed
crow's feather of the vengeance-hunter and was weaving again the
many braids of the warrior.

Caught under the scrutiny of her daughter's gaze, Breaca smiled,
not as Airmid would have done, but warmly enough. 'Are you
cold?'

'No.' They spoke softly, a murmur on the wind, not to wake the
others. 'Stone keeps me warm.' It was almost true.

'But you can't sleep?'

'It's getting-up time. I can't sleep now.'

There was a short pause, full of indecision. If it had been Airmid
who had awoken, Graine would have gone to her, would have
curled up at her side and told her of the smoke-feather and the
burning bodies and her fears for the wandering souls of the dead.
Airmid, in her turn, would have sung the enemy to rest if only
because Graine asked for it and then would have sung again that a
six-year-old girl might sleep and dream in daytime.

Breaca was not Airmid but nor, any longer, was she the Boudica,
who brought victory to her warriors and yet remained a stranger
to her daughter. Over the course of two days' flight, Graine had
seen more of her mother at closer quarters than at any other time
in her life. Until that moment, lying by the fire, she had not known
how much she had wanted that, nor how closely she had studied
the changes that were happening.

In the quiet, smoky morning, Graine saw her mother clearly for
the first time; a woman with too much care to sleep properly,
sitting by a fire, half wrapped in a cloak with part-combed hair
lying in cords around her shoulders and her arms bared to the cool
air so that the old scars and the new one traced their script across
her skin. Her eyes were grey-green with flecks of copper and they
were filled now with a turbulence that Graine had never seen in
Airmid.

Not knowing what to say, Graine said nothing. Frowning,
Breaca leaned forward and pulled something charred from the fire.
Holding it out, she said, 'There's some hare's meat left. If you eat,
it might help you sleep?'

It was the smile that made the difference more than the words.
Graine had never seen her mother shy before, nor thought herself
a cause of shyness. With an odd, swooping sensation in her
stomach, she uncurled herself from Stone and shuffled into the
shelter of her mother's outstretched arm. In its curve, in the surety
of its grip, which had held her close over two days of hard riding,
she was safe, who had not known how much she was afraid. She
buried her face against a tunic that smelled of horses and sheep's
oil and leather and clung as tightly as she had done when she was
first hauled unwilling from the womb.

A while later, when the smell of charring meat lifted from the
fire, mother and daughter broke apart a little and drew the hare's
haunch from the embers and shared it with each other and with
Stone who pushed between them to lie across their feet.

Thoughtfully, Breaca said, 'I'll shave his hair this morning,
before we move on.'

'Whose hair?' Graine was leaning against her mother with her
eyes shut and did not want to open them.

'Stone's. He's too good a hound to be seen as he is in the east.
The Romans make slaves of hounds as they do of people, but they
have no eye for what lies beneath the surface. If I cut his pelt so
that it looks as if he has mange, they won't see past it and he'll be
safe.'

A cool morning became suddenly colder. Graine hugged her
knees to her chest. She stared into the fire and wished the grandmothers
had spoken to her in the dark. On Mona, they would have
done and she would understand at least a little of what was
happening. 'You're still going to go east, to reclaim the torc of your
people?' she asked.

'Our people. They are yours as much as mine. Yes. And to raise
the warriors to battle. The ancestor was clear about that. I could
not, with any honour, go back to Mona.'

Too much hung on too delicate a balance and Graine saw no
way to move it in the way that she wanted. She had felt the cutting
pressure in the clearing when Airmid had faced her mother and the
worlds lay open and all possibilities were equal. There was one
thing that had not been spoken and should have been. It was in her
power to do so now.

She tested it a time or two in her head and then, when the grandmothers
did not chastise her for it, said, 'Did you know that
Gwyddhien was dead?'

Gwyddhien had been Airmid's lover from before Graine was
born. She had led the warriors of the Silures and, in the Boudica's
absence, those of Mona. She had been killed leading a late-season
battle against Cartimandua's Brigantes, who fought for Rome.
Afterwards, Airmid's grief had been a private thing, not spoken of. The rush to leave Mona and find the Boudica soon after had been
a good way for her to lose herself in action.

There was no telling what the Boudica thought or felt. Quietly,
without moving, she said, 'Yes. Cygfa told me.'

Cygfa. Not Airmid. Which meant either that her grief was too
new and too raw to allow her to speak of it or, more probably, that
she disdained to use so obvious a hammer to crush Breaca's
intransigence.

Graine had no such qualms. She said, 'Airmid will not go back
to Mona now. Without Gwyddhien to hold her, she is free to follow
you.' She did not say, 'She would have followed you anyway,'
because she was not sure of that, only hoped so.

'I know.' Breaca nudged the fire with her toe, shifting the sticks
to make heat without smoke. 'We spoke of it last night. Airmid will
not turn back to Mona and I have no power to make her. Cygfa
will do as her own mind commands and she will follow me east
whether I want it or not, as will Dubornos; both have said so.
Cunomar might be commanded, but I think it more likely he will
take it in his head to attack the legions alone to prove his worth.
You are the only one I could send back. I could order Ardacos to
take you back to Mona and he would do it, staying to be your
protection, however much he hated me for it.'

There was an odd tone in her mother's voice. Caught between
fear of leaving and terror of going on, Graine looked up.
Understanding left her mute. Eventually, 'You don't want to send
me back,' she said.

Breaca smiled crookedly. 'I want very badly to send you back,
but I don't have the right. You are bound to Airmid as mother to
daughter. Where she goes, you go. It is not for me to force you
apart.'
The hollowness in Graine's midriff became a void. Swallowing,
she said, 'Did Airmid tell you that?'

'No. The ancestor tried to and I didn't believe her. Then the
other night, fleeing the legions, I knew it was true. When you were
about to fall off Ardacos' horse and break your neck, it was Airmid
who saw what was happening. Her horse wasn't fast enough to
catch you, or you would have ridden these past two days with her,
not with me.'

A quantity of silences made some sense, and the uncertainty
in her mother's eyes. Graine found her hands wrapped tight in
Stone's pelt, as they had been in the mane of Ardacos' horse. Her
fear now was different, and very little of it for herself. She freed a
hand and, searching, found her mother's, which was cold, and
squeezed it.

There were no words that would set the world right again, or
none that could be found. Presently, Graine felt herself gathered
more tightly in her mother's arms, felt her mother's lips press into
the top of her head and heard her own name spoken over and over,
as a litany, too low truly to be heard. Warm breath filtered through
her hair and the words rocked down through her skull to reach her
ears from the inside.

At the very end, when the hair of her crown was warmly damp,
she heard a single sentence that made sense.

'Small child of my heart, I love you; while I live, I will not let
Rome kill you, I swear it.'


VII.

THERE WAS SNOW IN THE LANDS OF THE ECENI, AND A HEAVINESS to the air that smelled of old, uncleared dreams.

The thin blanket of white did nothing to cover the starved
ribs of the earth. The deeper Breaca's group moved into occupied
territory, the more the hedgerows were unkempt, ditches clogged,
field edges a harvest of weeds. Paddocks were churned to slipping
mud and yet empty; too many sheep and cattle had grazed too hard
and then died for it.

It was too much like the land of the ancestor's vision. When Breaca
said so, Dubornos said, drily, 'The people pay their taxes in the meat
of their beasts, and in corn. The land must yield twice over now: once
for those who farm it and once for those who claim its ownership.'

Ardacos said, 'And the rest of life? Where are the birds? The
foxes? The hares? Are they, too, paid in taxes?'

'Some. Rome will take fox pelts and hare's meat if there is no
beef. As to the others, would you stay in a place where the earth
itself was made slave to the legions? They have left, and will return
when the gods have restored the balance to the worlds.'

The knowledge did not make each day's travel easier. Breaca led
them, caught between the driving urgency of the ancestor's
command and the needs of her own oath, newly made on the head
of her daughter, to keep Graine safe, and as many of those who
travelled with her as may be.

She rode as she had done since the retreat from the clearing, with
Graine held on the saddle in front of her. Outwardly, all was the
same. Inwardly, the quality of her caring was different and those
who rode with her knew it. The part of her that remained bound
to the ancestor-dreamer scorned the collapse of her resolve and
predicted death of the worst kind for those who travelled with her.
The rest of Breaca - the greater part - drank in the essence of her
daughter as one dying of thirst drinks in cool water. Do you
wonder that the children of your blood cleave to others? She had
forgotten, if she had ever known it, what it was to be lost in the
love of a child. She rode each step forward with equal weights of
hope and terror balancing the two sides of her heart.

In deference to Roman laws forbidding warriors to carry any
weapon longer than a skinning knife, Breaca and her party rode
unarmed into the occupied territories. Their blades, and all that
marked them as warriors, were left in a grave mound of the
ancestors to which Airmid had led them on the evening after
Ardacos and Cygfa had rejoined the group.
The mound lay low, hidden by scrub and thin plates of river
mist. As they approached from the west, at dusk, the rising moon
cast shadows along its length, making it larger and less welcoming
than it might have been.

There was no sense of safety here. Riding close brought the hairs
upright on Breaca's arms and made her mare snore steam into the
frostbitten air. Stone walked stiff-legged at one side and Ardacos,
cursing under his breath, held his horse tight at the other. Before
them was only moonlight and shadow and a huddle of rocks and
turf built around the bones of the dead; they were used to these
things and should not have felt so keenly the dread of ancient
wrath.

Airmid alone seemed untouched. She rode close to the mound's
entrance and slid to the ground. The moon cast her in silhouette,
part of the rocks and the turf. She knelt a while at the guardian
stones, tracing hidden lines on their surfaces. From where she
waited, Breaca could hear the cadence of a murmured half
dialogue such as she might have had with the ancestor in the cave.

'This is the place.' Airmid backed away from the mound. The
pressure of the stones had softened her features, blurring them as
if newly wakened from sleep. She said, 'Efnis has been here, and
one other of the tribes, but not in the past three years, and no-one
of Rome. The ghosts of the ancients have guarded this place
against all but the strongest dreamers. If there is anywhere better
to keep your blades safe from Rome, I don't know of it.'

She spoke to a gathering of silent warriors, and one child.
Ardacos coughed and pushed his horse forward. It was leery of the
silvered light and crabbed sideways, unwilling to face the dark.

Ardacos was not a weak man. Over twenty years, he had killed
more Romans single-handed in service to the she-bear than any
other living warrior. Breaca trusted him in battle as she trusted
few others. It was not cowardice, then, that moved him when he
said, 'This place is Nemain's as much as it is the old ones'. The god
is not of the same stamp as the she-bear and I would not willingly
offend either. If it would be best for my blade to be buried in some
place away from here, I will do it.'

Airmid smiled. Her skin was bone white in the moonlight and
quite beautiful. Her voice came from other worlds. 'The bear is as
welcome here as any other, or as unwelcome. It is the danger of this
place that will protect what you would leave.'

Cygfa, too, was not afraid of death. She said, 'I would not anger
the ghosts of our past, any more than would Ardacos. If they resent
our presence, we could give you the blades, and you could hide
them.'

Airmid shook her head. 'No. If I die, then they would be lost for
ever. You must each come and place your weapons where they can
best lie. Then if need be, any one of us can retrieve them when the
war begins.'

When the war begins . . . That much of the ancestor's visions
seemed certain. Sitting on horseback in the cold night, Breaca
watched the many-led Eceni flood forward to crush the legions of
Rome. A legionary eagle was ground into gore and the serpent
spear hung over--

'Breaca?' Airmid had a hand on her arm and Graine had turned
sideways on the mare's withers and was peering up into her face.
'Can you get down? We need your blade and your father's. They
must go in first. Cunomar can go in with you, to see where they are
placed. It may be he will be needed to retrieve them one day. The
others can follow in what order they wish.'

'You want me to go in first?' Walking unhorsed and unarmed
into battle would have been easier.

Airmid raised a brow. Her smile echoed the elder grandmother's.
'I do not. The ancient ones have asked for your daughter, for which
we should all be grateful.'

Breaca could forget that her daughter was a dreamer, save that
the gods would not let her. As the warriors tethered the horses and
retrieved their blades, Nemain edged across the sky, showing the
way forward. Soft light opened what had been dark and, as had
been asked, Graine led the way in. The moon made milk of her
skin and dark fire of her hair. She could not ride a running horse
to safety, but she walked into the mouth of the ancestors' grave as
if it were her home. Breaca followed a spear's length behind, in awe
of her daughter's courage.

The entrance was small, so that they must crawl in, even Graine.
Inside was tall enough to allow Breaca to bend only her head and
shoulders and Ardacos could almost stand upright. Around them,
hand-hewn rock closed on both sides, far more tightly than the
towering walls of the ancestor's cave had done. Except at the start,
the stone was dry, and the marks incised in lines at shoulder height
were clean-edged as if newly done. The smell was of old dust and
bone and dry, crumbled turf and it tickled the nose so that, one
after the other, the warriors sneezed. Graine and Airmid, who did
not sneeze, led the way forward, talking to long-dead ears.

Too soon, Airmid said, 'Here. It opens into a chamber. There
should be room for us all. Come forward slowly.'

They could not have done otherwise. The torches held by the
dreamers were of grasses and pine resin and sheep's fat and
the smoke they gave had filled the short corridor. In the chamber
of the mound, they cast uneven light and made pale faces amber.
Five adults and Cunomar formed two circles around Graine, looking
inwards. The dead lay as dust in recesses of the walls. Their
voices spat warnings of death and the fate of lost souls.

Sharply, Airmid said, 'I bring you the child of Nemain; do you
not see?' The whisperings took on a new note and then stopped.

Graine stood very still. The resin and tallow torch billowed in
her hand. Wavering light rippled over her hair as if ghost hands
stroked it. The noise and the palpable threat diminished. Breaca
breathed through strained lungs and wished for the simple dangers
of battle. She heard her daughter say, 'Our warriors would leave
their weapons in your care, safe until we need them to drive the
men of the war eagle from the land.'

Graine spoke clearly, with adult tones. The torch in her hand
flared once more and settled. Patchy shadows fluttered on the
walls.

Airmid said, 'Breaca, Eburovic's blade must be hidden first.
Show it now to the dark.'

Breaca drew her father's blade from the bear's pelt wrapping. It
lay on her hand, bright as a fish in the torchlight. The weave
patterns in the metal were seven generations old and the notch on
the blade could still clearly be seen from when her great-grandfather
had fought the white-headed champion of the Coritani
over a boundary dispute. Newer were the welts across the metal
made when her father had fought Amminios' men in the battle that
had killed him. Breaca had taken the sword from his dead hand
and had honed it since, but had never rasped the gouges flat.

Her father had spoken to her by the river in the ancestor's cave,
but she had not seen him there. Here, with his blade and his blood
in her hand, he became real for her in ways the grave-ghosts could
never be.

Breaca? His voice had more body to it than it had done in the
cave. Give my blade to the stones of the past.

He was not alone. Her ancestors stood behind him: grandfathers
and grandmothers, warriors and smiths, hunters and harness
makers, all who had ever held and used the blade with honour
crowded in and in until each one of them took up the space in
which Eburovic stood. His many-parted voice said, Show the blade
to the dark.

Airmid had already said that, but it had not been clear what to
do. Here, close to the wall, Breaca could see at shoulder height the
ledge cut into the stone wall, of a size to hold a war blade of
the old style.

As if the ghosts of her lineage lifted her hands, Breaca felt her
arms raised and the blade set into the ledge. It fitted, as if to a
sheath, and the unstable flame of the torches brought the blade
alive. Blue-black metal rippled as water in the light so that, for the
first moments of its resting, the feeding she-bear cast in bronze on
the pommel seemed to be drinking at a night-time pool.

Breaca had forgotten that she was in company. Behind her,
Cunomar gasped aloud. Ardacos, who was older, and had better
control of himself, spoke through clenched teeth the first of the
hidden names of his god, then, 'I did not know your father was one
of us.'

Eburovic was gone, or had become part of the blade and the unlight
that now concealed it. Breaca stared at the place it had been
and could see neither her father nor the weapon. If she had not
placed it herself, she would believe the wall to be of solid stone.

Distantly, she heard herself say, 'Nor did he. The bear was his
dream, not his god. But he would have been honoured to hear that
you think so.'

An arm brushed Breaca's sleeve. Graine's hand fitted into hers,
Graine's voice, full of tides and the echoing ocean said, 'It is safe.
The ghosts of the many dead will keep it so until such time as the
people have need of it. This is the blade that will raise the tribes
and bind them together against those who would crush them. Do
not forget it, nor let others do so.'

'I won't.'

It was not enough, but it was as much as Breaca could say. The
world was full of fire and shadows and a wren had just died,
singing with her daughter's voice. She felt Airmid's hand on her
shoulder and, as if through a storm, heard Airmid's calm direction
lead the others to place their own blades, and then fold the mail
shirts, stolen from Roman cavalry, and hide them in the recesses of
the dead. Last was a Roman officer's cloak, taken from a dead
man's body and used seven times by Ardacos as a disguise to
deceive the enemy.

Cunomar alone had no blade and no armour. With no obvious
role to play, he stood in the centre of the mound, watching and
listening. Afterwards, when they had hidden the remaining
weapons, thanked the ancestors and ridden away, the memory that
settled on Breaca was the sense of her son at her left shoulder and
the naked hunger with which he had watched her hide his grandfather's
blade. He had not spoken, but then he had not needed to;
her lineage was his and the ghosts of their joint past knew both of
them equally.

What was not clear, and could not be asked, was whether
Cunomar had heard Eburovic's voice as the blade had slid home to
its hiding place. If my grandchild ever wields it, know that
the death of the Eceni will follow. I trust you to see it does not
happen.

They rode on without blades, at night, slowly, in land that had not
been free for nearly fifteen years.

By day, they camped without fires and with two of the four
warriors awake on watch. Twice, they moved further into woodland,
to avoid Roman patrols; not because the legions might see
them, but because the officers' mounts, more wary than the men,
might have scented their horses, or Stone.

Soon after they left the ancestors' grave, Breaca gave the leadership
of the group to Dubornos, who had travelled in the east most
recently. After three nights, he gave it to Airmid, who slept alone
on a river bank and then, on waking, lit a fire and piled wet
leaves on it until a column of smoke as wide as a man rose thickly
white to the sky.

At dusk on the same day, a thinner, darker column, drifting to
the south, showed on the easterly horizon.

Airmid said, 'We are expected. Efnis will do what he can.'

Two nights later, guided by smoke, instinct and uncertain
dreams, they rode along the bank of a river and followed a track
that turned east of north into dense, unmanaged forest. Neither
Eceni nor the legions had been here, except perhaps on certain
trails which were wider than might be made by deer or bear.

The night was clear and the sky unclouded. The pattern of stars
that made the Hare had crested the horizon when they heard the
voice of a single man singing the lay of lost souls with a pain that
made the loss sound new and raw. Ahead was firelight and a ring
of silent, seated figures. Their presence filtered through the trees,
like so- many hunting hounds, lying in wait.

Because Airmid had brought them this far, it was possible for
Breaca to believe that those waiting were not Romans, armed and
ready, but the sense of danger was no less. Through his messenger,
Efnis had said that the Eceni were weak and that, lacking a leader,
they no longer had the will to resist the many terrors of occupation.
He had predicted betrayal and death for the Boudica and all who
rode with her, should she ever come east. Only the ancestors, already safely dead, had suggested otherwise, and offered a way
forward. They had not said what might happen if their path were
not open.

Breaca slid from her horse and found Stone waiting. He leaned
into her side, shoving his nose in her hand, as he did at those times
when danger pressed most closely. She cupped his muzzle in her
palm and thumbed his lips, asking for patience and silence. Around
her, the others dismounted, except Graine, who sat alone on the
roan mare, waiting to be lifted down.

They were her friends, her companions. Two had been her lovers
and might be so again. In pride, driven by the visions of ghosts, she
had led them this far into danger. Every war-honed instinct said
that there was still time to turn round and lead them back.

Dubornos was closest to her. He had stood in the shadow of his
own crucifix in Rome. Five years had not healed the scars of
his imprisonment.

She said, 'Dubornos--'

'No.' He smiled. She could not see him, there was not enough
light for that, but she could hear the lift of it in his voice. A smile
from Dubornos was a rare thing indeed. He reached out in the dark
and touched her arm.

'Don't think it. We are here because we choose to be and because
the gods will it. You are the guide, nothing more.' His other hand
lifted towards her. 'We brought you this. There are those gathered
here who will not want to accept you. It may help sway them.'

Breaca's fingers fumbled for his and met warm metal. Feeling
further, she found that what he offered was a torc: not the relic of
her lineage that marked the royal line of her people, but a newer
one, made by her father as a gift to Caradoc in the winter of his
shipwreck. For five years, it had lain near her bed in the roundhouse
on Mona. She had never taken it with her on the lone hunts
in the occupied lands.

It was simpler than that made by the ancestors but the lines were
fluidly perfect and he had mixed other metals with a good red gold
so that, in torchlight, it matched exactly the colour of Breaca's hair.
She knew the feel of it intimately and held it now, warm with the
heat of Dubornos' body.

The gaunt singer was close enough now for Breaca to see the
whites of his eyes. In all their adult lives, he had never lied to her.
She knew of no man with more integrity. He smiled for a second
time and she could have wept for the pain in it, and the promise.
Even so, there was still time to turn back.

'Efnis sings for you.' Ardacos spoke from behind her. He was not
of Nemain, nor did he dream. With Gwyddhien dead, he could
have been Warrior of Mona and led all the warriors of the west,
adding his mark to those carved on the roof beams of the great
house, not living as nursemaid to the Boudica's children in a land
under thrall to Rome.

As Dubornos had done, he reached for her. The feather he gave
her was silver, wrought from unsullied metal. Gunovic had made
it, in the year before he died. It marked fifty kills, or five hundred,
Breaca had forgotten which and it had never mattered; only
children and the newly made warriors counted the crow's feathers
that marked their kills. Yet the Eceni, starved of war and its
honour, might need such things.

Ardacos said, 'Weave this into your hair and go. They know
nothing, only that Efnis has promised them a future. You are all he
has to offer.' He gripped her arm above the elbow and clasped her,
as close as he came now to an embrace. His touch alone warmed
her.

Even so, there was still time.

Ardacos had been her lover once, replacing Airmid, for whom
there could be no replacement. Airmid was there now, as she had
always been, as she must always be, or life would be unsupportable.
She was speaking, saying the same as the others, differently.
'Breaca, don't think of turning back. We have seen what Rome has
done to the land we grew up in. We can only imagine what
has been done to the people. There is not one of us could live with
any honour if we turn back now.'

Even so.

'Mother?' Graine was still mounted on the roan mare. If they
hanged her, she would take half a day to die. 'We can't go back
now. It's snowing harder than it was. The Roman patrols will see
our tracks as soon as it's light.'

She was a child and had never tracked another, nor been tracked,
but she had grown on Mona, listening to the best hunters the west
had ever seen, and she knew the realities of danger in winter as well
as any adult. She spoke the plain truth and changed the nature of
the choices.

So.

In the clearing, the singing grew softer. In other worlds and other
times, a girl-child with ox-blood hair wept tears of gold while, on
a battlefield, the serpent-spear presided over Rome's destruction.

Breaca reached up and lifted her daughter, child of her soul, from
the saddle. The five who made the other parts of her heart watched
her from the darkness.

With too much formality, because she could not, at that
moment, speak otherwise, Breaca said, 'If the dreamers and singers
of Mona will join the song to Briga, the children of the royal blood
will come to meet their people.'

The deer track led forward into a clearing. Torches made an outer
ring, giving off white pine smoke. Above and around hung the
unshed autumn leaves of oak and elm; a thousand fillets of bronze
caught the torchlight and reflected it back, warmer.

The leaves outnumbered many times those who waited within
the trees. Standing with her mother, beyond the wheel of light,
Graine could more easily count those within it. They were less than
a tenth of the number who had filled the great-house on Mona
when the war host of the west had last gathered and a great many
of them were old. White hair predominated and the coughing of
the winter-touched elderly wheezed over the singer's lay.

Efnis stood in the shadows beyond the circle, still singing. His
voice spanned them, a wreath of woven sound. Airmid and
Dubornos cut through the trees to join him. Beginning quietly, their
voices joined his, rising to Nemain with the resinous smoke. As
three, the interweaving melody came closer to what it might have
been sung by many throats. Gaining power, it grew to a climax and
stopped, suddenly. The silence after was a space that asked to be
filled.

It was too late, then, to realize how poorly prepared they were
for such a moment. Graine panicked, uselessly, as she felt her
mother leave her side. On Mona, addressing the warriors and
dreamers of the great-house, the Boudica would have worn a cloak
and tunic that had hung since their making over a smouldering
fire and knew neither damp nor mould nor insects. In the half-day
before, she would have woven the nine-layered warrior's braids
into her hair with the gold-banded kill-feathers to honour the
ancestors. Her blade would have hung at her belt and her knife
would have balanced it and the serpent-spear would have come
alive on the hilts of both.

Here, she was at the end of a half-month spent travelling with
twice that long hunting alone in the mountains beforehand. Her
cloak was creased and stained from travel. Her tunic was edged in
drying mud and her boots were sodden with snow-melt. She lacked
her blade and her sling hung in its place at her belt. Her knife
handle was of plain wood with no adornment. Her hair bore a
single braid and the silver crow's feather was dulled where Ardacos
had polished it with the tail of his cloak.

This was the reality; it was not what was seen.

Breaca stepped into the light of the resin torches and a drawn
breath sighed around the fullness of the clearing as the gathered
warriors, dreamers and elders of the Eceni nation saw their greatest
hope, and their deepest fear, made real for the first time in twenty
years.

For them, the Boudica was a thing of flame and burnished
metals. The red-gold torc was a living serpent about her neck. Her
hair was the deep, fired bronze of a fox in winter. Her eyes were
copper-green, alight with battles fought and won.

She could have stood like that, Graine thought, for ever. The
Eceni elders hovered on the cusp of change, lodged at that meeting
of many ways where all paths forward are possible but only one
can be taken. Each of them, from oldest to youngest, felt it.

Efnis broke the spell. A single step forward brought him out of
the shadows. Like Breaca, he had done what he could to dress
for the occasion although his cloak was noticeably faded and the
rolled bark of his dreamer's thong was fresh, still damp from
the tree. Rome forbade the wearing of the dreamer's thong, as it
did the warrior's blade; simply to have made one was to risk the
death.

Graine had met Efnis once before on Mona and had liked him.
She wanted to ask who had died that had made him sing the lay of
lost souls and could not because he was already speaking.

'Breaca, greetings. The high council of the Eceni bids you
welcome.'

He gave the salute, neatly. Airmid and Dubornos, coming forward
to join him, did the same. It may not have been arranged

beforehand, but it had the desired effect. Hesitantly, others around
the circle followed. One arm rose after another, stems of winter
grass rising in a sluggard breeze, until all three hundred were standing,
these old men and women who had survived the purges, the
hangings, the betrayals by kin and paid spies, who had gathered
the shreds of their courage to meet in secret knowing that their
death could be measured in days if they were found.

It was the right thing to do, done with the wrong feeling. Graine
shivered and wished the grandmothers would come and tell her
what to do to make it right. As if she had spoken aloud, Breaca
turned and smiled at her directly, not the private half-smile of the
clearing, but a public affirmation. Kneeling, she crooked her finger,
calling her daughter into the circle--

--which was madness. Graine, too, had been travelling for half
a month and it showed. She was not the Boudica to command the
wildfire in the company of strangers. She had neither torc nor silver
feather to weave in her hair. The brooch at her shoulder was a
plain one in the shape of the wren, which had been Macha's but
had been worn so long that the shape of it was unclear. Her hair
was not combed and she had never worn a dreamer's brow band.
None of this had mattered while she was anonymous in the
shadows. It mattered a great deal in the lifetime it took for her to
walk from the safe anonymity of the forest into the circle of her
mother's arms under the stare of three hundred falsely saluting
elders.

The grandmothers may not have spoken, but her mother, it
seemed, had miraculously divined what to do. It is difficult to stand
on one's dignity in the presence of a child and unmannerly to do so
in front of a mother who kneels and ruffles her daughter's hair. As
the grass had risen under the breeze, so did the breeze, uncertainly,
lay it flat. In ones and twos and greater numbers the elders of the
Eceni ceased to salute and sat down again.

Breaca kissed Graine on the brow and, taking her hand, walked
to the folded horse hides that formed a seat at the western edge of
the circle. Picking one up by the corner, she dragged the pile forward,
not quite to the centre, but almost.

To her daughter, with a mother's intimate humour, she said, 'Can
you sit on the hides like an elder, do you think?'

Of course. For her mother at that moment, Graine could have
flown to the heights of the sky and sung like a wren. As she had
practised with Airmid many times in the small stone hut on Mona,
she spread her arms a little so that her cloak fell straight back
between her shoulders and, folding her legs beneath her, sat neatly
on the hides.

Praying to Airmid more than to Nemain, Graine of the Eceni
raised her head to face squarely a gathering of her people's dreamers. Three hundred old men and women looked back. At
least half of them were weeping. Breaca stood behind Graine, a
hand on each of her daughter's shoulders. When she spoke, it
seemed she addressed every one alone.

'This is the first and only daughter of my blood, Graine
nic Breaca mac Caradoc. If you are ever to stand and salute, it
should be to her. She is the future, the one for whom we
have fought these past fourteen years in the west and for whom
we will fight now in the east. She was born into war as we
were not. We have done what we can to raise her true to her
birthright, living daily in the sight of the gods, knowing also
that your children have not had that luxury. We come now to
join you, to raise her in the land that is her own and to ensure
that for her children and yours, that birthright is no longer a
luxury. It is for this reason that, with your help, we will fight and
defeat Rome.'

The Boudica, speaking thus to the warriors of the west, would
not have needed to seek pledges of courage and honour from her
listeners. They would have been standing by now, clamouring to be
first to give their spear-oaths in the old way, throwing their lives,
their souls, their freedom to her cause.

On Mona, there was courage enough and more to spare. Here,
manifestly, there was not.

Knowing it, Breaca did not leave a space which might not have
been filled. Instead, she signalled behind her, calling forward
Cunomar and then Cygfa until they sat in a row before her, a
woman and her three children; the Boudica, bringer of victory, and
every part of the royal line of the Eceni.

Silence greeted them, and no salutes.

Graine leaned back against her mother, feeling less certain than
she had done. In two years, since their return from Gaul, her
brother and sister had never sat next to her like this, claiming to be
family. Sorcha's children had been her family, and Airmid. She
glanced sideways into the night beyond the torches. Stone was
there, held by Ardacos. She mouthed a request and had it answered
and the great hound stalked forward to her side and she felt whole
again.

Breaca stood, facing the gathering. In the lack of words was the
heart of her message. I have brought my family amongst you. I
take the same risks that you have taken. You can trust me.

They were not witless, these old men and women, and they took
pride in what was left of their dignity. A sigh rustled through them,
barely shifting the air. Graine saw them look away from her
mother and turn their attention on one of their own number.

Inevitably, they had already chosen a speaker. She rose, a grey
haired stick of a woman, tall and ascetic, starved by the
impositions of life or her own will so that her skin clung to her
bones and the joints on her fingers stood out like windgalls
on a horse. Her cloak was Mona's grey, ragged from the attentions
of rodents and rot. She carried a raven skull in her right hand with
the white beak pointing forward as a sixth finger and a single black
wing hung at her breast. Of everything she wore, the skull and the
wing were the only things that looked truly clean.

'You are well fed, Breaca of the Eceni, and your beautiful
children with you.'

She did not smile, but nor did the words sound to Graine as
harsh as they might have seemed. Her voice was smoother than a
raven's. 'If you had come sooner, when we still had warriors with
the will to fight, or were able openly to carry our spears and blades
and had not been driven to hiding them beyond reach in places of
which even our families know nothing; if you had come with the
ten thousand spears of Mona riding behind you to uphold your
claim, or sufficient dreamers to breathe heart into the brokenhearted,
we would have welcomed you gladly.'

She looked around her peers. Nobody rose to stem the flow of
her rhetoric, nor turn aside its obvious course. Tilting her head as
a raven does, listening, she continued, 'But you did not come
earlier and although you have brought your family, and although
we have heard of the deeds of the daughter of Caradoc as she fights
alongside the Boudica, it is too little and too late. We are broken
and we are not so easily mended.'

The raven beak rose on an outstretched arm and opened wide so
that the sound of her voice came from the gaping space between
them. It was no longer smooth. Whoever had taught her on Mona
could be proud of their pupil.

'Go home, Breaca, once-ruler of the Eceni. We have another
ruler now and his power comes from an emperor in Rome who
would make of himself a god. There is no place for you here. You
will do better to stay in the west and fight. We will honour you and
your family. Your dreamer can teach your children the ways of the
dreaming to carry down the generations. Ours are lost and there is
no redemption.'

The breath caught in Graine's throat and she felt Cunomar shift
beside her and then make himself be still. From their earliest childhood
they had known that the safeguarding of the children had
been the core of their mother's dream. Such a thing is private, not
something to be spoken aloud by a stranger in the company of
strangers.

If Breaca was shaken, she did not show it. She said, 'And yet you
have all come to a gathering within reach of the legions, who might
have remained by your house fires in safety.'

The woman lowered the skull pointer. Her voice was no longer
the raven's. 'Whatever has befallen us, you are still of our royal line
and we are not totally lacking in courage. We do not wish to show
you dishonour, but instead to show you who we are, that you may
go back whence you came and fight on. We are the example of how
it will be under Roman rule. We may be lost but the west need not
be, and while Mona stands, there is still hope.'

The woman sat as quickly as she had risen. On Mona, it would
have been hard to keep the rest still and silent. In the forest of the
east, nobody took to their feet to challenge what she had said.

In the stretching silence, Breaca looked around at the margins of
the circle. Because she was closest, Graine could feel the first
stirrings of tension that ran through her mother. The outward
appearance of calm took more effort than it had done and for one
so used to watching, the small signs were there: the whitening of
the knuckles on the hand hidden by her cloak and the way she
rubbed her thumb across the tips of her fingers once, testing their
feel. Breaca was waiting for something and it had not yet
happened. When it did, she was expecting to fight.

None of this showed, except perhaps in her voice as she asked,
'Is this the decision of you all?'

She was the Boudica, leader of armies; she could put a sting in a
simple question that shamed the best and the least of them.

'No.'

A grizzled man of middle age bearing a beaver pelt across his
shoulders rose to his feet. He was broad as a smith but stood
unbalanced, as if one hip pained him. 'It was the decision of us
all before you came but it need not be now you are here and we
have seen who and what you are.' He looked around. 'We may
have been broken, but it is not impossible that we mend. If the
gods send us the means to do so, how will we face our children and
our children's children if we do not take what has been offered?
The royal line of the Eceni stretches unbroken back to the
ancestors. Would we few be the ones to break it now? I take back
the word I gave to Lanis of the Crows. Speaking for myself and
those of my people whose trust I carry, I say that the Boudica
should stay and we should re-arm, that we should unearth our
blades and pull our spears from the thatch and make shields that
will withstand the stabbing swords of the legions and we should
fight, or be proud to die doing so.'

He had been a warrior once, his whole bearing showed it. Graine
wanted to hug him. She smiled instead and was glad when he saw
her and smiled back. He was respected by the others. It showed in
the numbers nodding. Another rose, a woman, younger than the
first. 'The northerner is right,' she said. 'The royal line is the
creation of the gods. It is not for us to break it now.'

Like fire in autumn grass, agreement crept outward. Here and
there, dampening it, was dissent. In places, pools of men and
women argued fiercely against the Boudica's return. Almost all of
these bore scars and, deeper, the dullness of constant pain that said
they had lost to Rome those who mattered most, and feared to lose
more.

The gathering took on the animation Graine was used to, gaining
volume and stridency as measured arguments gave way to
unplanned hope, or drowned in fear. One by one, dreamers and
warriors rose to support one or other of the first two speakers.
They were not used, any longer, to the courtesies of a council. As
the night deepened and those waiting to speak became more tired
and less patient, order and discipline collapsed. Men and women
stood in clusters and shouted at Breaca and each other, or simply
shouted, trying to be heard.

At the height of the tumult, Graine saw a lean, red-headed man,
balding in front with a scar across the bridge of his nose, as of a
sword cut taken in battle, jump onto a fallen log near the edge of
the circle. His voice had once crested the tumult of war and did so
again.

'You cannot stay! You must not. You will take three days
dying when the legions get word that the Boudica is here, and when
they come to take you, they will not rest with only your deaths.
They will walk through us like wolves through unguarded
sheep and our children will bleed their lives out on our thresholds.
It was madness even to come this far. How did you ever think you
could stay?'

His last words fell into quiet. Even in this place, he had overstepped
the mark. He stood swaying on the fallen log, his
resentment bright around him, and looked to either side for
support, which he was not given. Even those who had argued with
him stared at the ground and did not speak.

The Boudica had remained standing throughout, outwardly
listening with care to the arguments on both sides. Graine, watching
with growing fear, saw that by far the greater part of her
mother's attention was directed past the circle to the forest. The
waiting made Breaca's hand rigid at her side in the place where her
blade should have been, but was not.

She was drawing breath to speak when, from the night beyond
the torches, a new voice said, 'She could stay as my wife. Rome
need never know who she is.'

The void into which this fell stank suddenly of bowel-wrenching
terror.

The man who stepped between two sputtering torches was not
as tall as Luain mac Calma, but taller than most. His hair was like
straw in colour and texture and had been cut in the Roman fashion
so that it barely reached his shoulders.

When she could look past that, and the naked hunger in his
eyes, Graine saw that his right arm stopped at the elbow and
that the sleeves of his tunic were especially long to cover it. Thus,
sickeningly, she knew who he was: 'Tagos, who called himself
Prasutagos to carry more weight with the governor, the damaged
warrior who had treated Silla as a brood mare, getting child after
sickly child on her until she died leaving no living children; the
self-styled 'king of the Eceni' who had thrown in his lot with the
Emperor Claudius and then Nero. If Efnfs' messenger was right,
this was a man who would see them all dead in the worst possible
ways.

Belatedly, Graine thought to glance up at her mother. Breaca
stood quite still. The tensions of earlier were gone. The waiting was
over. She seemed, if anything, to be gathering herself in the way
other warriors did before battle but she had never needed to do.

'Do you come with Rome's legions behind you?' she asked,
quietly.

'No.'

'Tagos frowned, sharply. All his movements were too fast, too
sharp. He did not take the time to think or to ask the gods before
he acted. Graine was ashamed for him that it was so.

He said, 'I am sorry that you would think it of me. I come with
an answer to conflict. I have listened to the elders of our people in
their discord. They could argue through the night and three nights
after and be no closer to a resolution. Half of them want you here
to keep the royal line unbroken, half are afraid that the arrival of
the Boudica will draw down the vengeance of Rome on them and
their kin. Whichever side prevails, the other half will hate them.
The Eceni nation, already broken, will be further split. We cannot
afford such a rift and I would not wish to rule over a people so
divided. I offer a way for you and your family to live in safety
under the eyes of the governor without his knowing who you are. And I bring you this . . .'

All eyes were on him. With the skill of a trained singer, he drew
out from under his maimed arm a torc of age-worn gold, woven in
the old style of many-threaded wires. It looked a small thing compared
to the red-gold worn by the Boudica but in a gathering of
dreamers, it drew their attention as a haunch of bloody meat
would draw a pack of hounds.

On the side nearest Graine, away from Prasutagos, Breaca's
hand clenched and unclenched, once. 'You would offer me the torc
of my mother?' Her voice was rough, like rock. Stone turned his
head at the sound of it, rigidly.

'No. I offer it to the one who can be seen to bear it and not die
as a result.'

The man who had eaten and drunk as a guest of Rome walked
forward. Cygfa stood nearest him. She flinched at his approach but
did not back away. When he raised his arms over her head and
dropped them behind her neck, her hand moved to her belt-knife.
When he drew the circle of gold forward so that the two open ends
lay in a pool of warm light on her collarbones, she relaxed and her
arm fell to her side, forgotten. It was said no-one could wear the
torc of the Eceni and feel themselves anything but royal. Cygfa was
no more immune than Silla had been, however foreign her breeding.
She smiled, and was dazzling.

'Tagos stepped back. To Breaca, he said, 'If you took the torc,
and with it the leadership, the new governor would ask questions
that we do not wish anyone to answer. Under Roman law, your
daughters become mine on the day that you become my wife. I
offer the torc, therefore, to Cygfa, who is your daughter in name,
to hold until Graine, who is of the blood, comes of age. If we have
daughters, they will come after her in line of inheritance. On my
death, rule will pass to whichever of them is best able to hold it.'

'And until then?' They could have been alone, just Breaca and
'Tagos. They spoke as if they had known each other lifetimes
and never lived apart.

'Until then, I rule as Rome would have me rule, with Breaca of
the Eceni as my wife. They will accept you as Silla's replacement.
Women are of little account in their eyes and they would not be so
discourteous as to question a king's choice of woman.'

'How long before a member of your household betrays us?'

'Tagos shrugged. 'I would say never but if I am wrong, I will die
with you. The governor will not be inclined to leniency if he
believes himself to have been betrayed. Those who have prospered
under my rule would become destitute with my death. Those who
hate me will put their hope in you, and your survival will be their
deepest concern.' He smiled. 'A man would have to hate us both
very deeply, and have no care for his people, to choose such a
course of action, and whereas there are many who hate me and
some who will fear your presence, I cannot think of a single one
who would willingly draw on the Eceni such bloodshed. While we
both live, we are safe. This is our guarantee to each other.'

He waited. They all waited. Graine watched the sudden
relaxation of her mother's hand. Neither her face nor her bearing
had changed, but the battle for which Breaca had been girding herself
was over, and she had not lost.


VIII.
'DID YOU THINK SHE WOULD MAKE THEM SEND YOU HOME?'

'Tagos, sister's son to Sinochos, closed but did not bar
the door to his bedchamber. It was not a large room and
a scattering of stoneware lamps made the dark spaces darker
and did little to light the rest. They had been lit before 'Tagos Prasutagos, she really must remember that - had opened the door
and ushered Breaca in. This fact alone meant that there were
servants who had known he was going to the gathering and that he
would be back before dawn and would wish his cold, damp hut
within a hut lit for his guest.

He called the hut a palace, after the Roman fashion, and found
pride in it, not shame. True to the ancestor's vision, there was no
roundhouse in Prasutagos' fiefdom, although this one had not
been broken apart for firewood, but for political gain. As did the
Romans, each family lived separately in the steading that was
the centre of the 'King's' power. Already, others were settling into the
rooms on either side. Breaca heard 'Gaius' and 'Titus', 'Tagos' two
bodyguards who had taken on Roman names, and had introduced
themselves, grinning. She did not hear her children, nor Airmid.

'Lanis,' asked 'Tagos a second time. His colour was high. He was
not accustomed to being ignored. 'Did you think she would send
you back to Mona with your honour intact and your dignity
undented?'

He had changed so much. Her abiding memory of him was of a
reckless, eager youth, running at her heels like a sapling hound,
desperate in his enthusiasm and yet lacking the courage to act.
Later, she remembered him lying wounded after the battle against
Amminios nursing an arm broken beyond mending, but her father
had died in the same battle and she had taken little notice of
'Tagos. She had held him while Airmid had cut away the dead
portion of his arm but he had been delirious and she thought he
would not remember it. Later still, he had ruined his honour trying
to fight in a battle for which he was not fit. Good warriors had
died in his defence. Breaca remembered their names and their
families and, standing within the pooled pallor of his lamps, she
saw reflected in his eyes the moment when the memory showed on
her face.

He was about to ask his question a third time, and was not
happy about having to do so. His temper had never been certain
even before he lost his arm. After it, he had become prone to
sudden violence. She had not forgotten that about him. To fight
here and now would help no-one.

She said, 'It was always possible Lanis might have sent us home.
She was trained by Airmid and has travelled to Mona since and she
carries herself before the gods with as much integrity as any
dreamer I have known. Her passion, her driving care, is for the
welfare of the people. If she thought the danger of my being here
outweighed the good, she would have seen to it that the gathering
sent us back, whatever you and I decided.'

He had believed that. She had seen the panic in his face. Now,
feigning calm, he asked, 'And would you have gone?'

'Of course. If I am here, it is with the aid of the dreamers or not
at all.'

That much was true. Her only lie was that, walking into the
circle, she had doubted the outcome. She had not believed she
would be turned away; too much had been sacrificed by others to
see her this far. She had seen the understanding of that in Lanis'
eyes before the dreamer had risen to speak, and the pity that
followed. Neither of them expected the path forward to be easy but
it was unthinkable to turn aside. The challenge now was to learn
to live in this travesty of a half-Roman village, with this man,
among the remnants of her people. Nothing was impossible.

'Would you like wine?'

'Tagos hovered at her side. The beaker in his hand was glazed a
deep red. He placed it with precision on the lid of an oak chest that
it might sit level and not tip while he poured the wine one-handed.
Everything about the act was almost, but not quite, Roman, like
the setting in which he stood.

The wall behind him was plastered but the image painted on it
in Eceni blue was of a running mare that had been old long before
Rome became a city. Beneath it, on the lid of the chest, a
constellation of silver coins winked with the brilliance of fresh
casting.

Breaca lifted one and read the word: Ecen. Others in the same
pile showed the head of boy-emperor Nero in profile, a portly
youth with an excess of chins.

'Not the most beautiful of men, but by far the most powerful. It
pays to be his friend. He grants great wealth to those in his favour,
as his uncle did before him.'

'Tagos stood just behind her. The smell of the wine on his breath
mixed with the other smells of him: the faint sourness of milk and
cheese that had been turning her stomach since the door-flap
closed.

Sifting the coins through her fingers, she said, 'Does it pay the
people that you have Roman wealth? Can their children grind
silver to make bread when the winter corn runs scarce? I hear the
legions claim all the produce of the fields for their own and
the people starve for lack of what they themselves have grown.'

'Tagos' mind was on other things. Breaca saw him pull up short
and force himself to think. He said, 'The people may not eat silver,
but it can be used to buy corn when we need it.'

'Eceni corn, grown in Eceni fields, bought back at a higher price
than they paid for it.' She was angry, when she had promised herself
she would not be. She played with the silver and made herself
calm.

'Tagos said, 'Of course, the governor must be seen to make a
profit. He must pay his army and his staff and still send money
back to the emperor. As must we. See . . .' With his one hand, he
swept the chiming silver from the chest and opened the lid.
Beneath, lambent in the torchlight, was a fortune in unused,
undulled coins. The chest was only half full but none the less, if one
counted one's wealth in silver, Prasutagos was an exceedingly
wealthy man.

Breaca rinsed her hands in coins, watching the faces fall. The
name of her people did not appear on these, nor the running mare.
Claudius was there and Tiberius and the mad Gaius. Once, she saw
Augustus. All of Rome was there, forming the riches of the Eceni.

'You take the gift of Roman coin?' she asked.

The man to whom she was now bound stared at her a long
moment, forgetting the wine and the bed in the corner. In that look,
she thought she saw the beginnings of the real 'Tagos, who was
neither the diplomat nor the over-eager youth, but the one-armed
man who had fought and lost too many battles and was not
prepared to lose one more.

His nostrils pinched and the skin blotched on his face. Almost silently, he said, 'Not a gift. Never that. Seneca does not give gifts.
I have accepted a loan of ten million sesterces on which I pay one
tenth per annum interest. From the rest, I pay taxes and bribes, buy
grain in winter and grazing rights in summer, buy gifts for the
governor and his wife that they might believe themselves flattered
by royalty. I set up trading routes by sea and land and am
permitted to tax those who bring us the wine and olives and figs
that allow us to appear more Roman.'

On the word, a wall-lamp guttered and went out. It had been
filled with sheep's fat, made liquid with other oils. Lacking Efnfs'
pine resins, the smoke that rose from the wick was black and stank
of late-season rams.
The gods pass comment in many ways. 'Tagos stopped and
stared and then, defensively, 'I do this because these are my people,
in my care and I would not see them reduced to the abject servitude
of the Trinovantes. Rome respects two things: force of arms, and
wealth. If we do not have the first - which manifestly we do not,
and never will have, whatever you may think - then we must have
the second or become less than cattle.' He paused a moment, thinking,
then turned on his heel. 'If you are to stay here, there are things
you must understand. Watch and learn.'

He walked past her, slamming open three other chests that stood
against the wall opposite the bed. Trinkets that had sat atop them
fell to the floor and broke or scattered: a small green bowl with a
gilded rim, a horse made by a child in rough clay, a long-handled
comb with an angular pattern painted in blue on the handle.

Ignoring them, he said, 'Nero is a child, he has no more control
of Rome than I do. But two men rule through him and of those,
Seneca is the one who has wealth to spare. He uses it to create
greater riches. This' - he hurled the first of the chests on its side 'was
once full. And this. And this.'

Out of eight chests, three lay on their sides, empty. 'Tagos stood
at the very edge of the lamplight, shaking as if in battle. His empty
sleeve had come unpinned and he pushed it back over the stump of
his arm. The flesh was purpled where Airmid had sewn it over the
stump of the bone. Above, the skin was the colour of any man's
arm, but pale for lack of sunlight.

He said, 'Breaca, we were not all able to run west and become
heroes. Every night for fourteen years I have dreamed that
Amminios' man did not strike my arm, or that I moved away, or
that I raised my blade to block his and so was left whole to fight
with you at the invasion battle. I have dreamed that we defeated
Rome together, or that I was with you when you led the children
and the warriors of Mona west to continue the fight. In my dream,
we stand together and Rome is pushed back into the Ocean to be
swallowed for ever and not return. Then I wake, and I am not
whole and the legions have not drowned and my people are dying
of hunger, of disease, of the punishment inflicted by the legions
who will inflict reprisals on us for the damage done them by tribes
they cannot reach in the west.'

She should pity him, and could not. She said, 'You are saying
that you trade now as a Roman, and that I should not despise you
for it.'

'Yes! In Briga's name, yes! The children must eat, Breaca. This is
the reality and you cannot change it. You think you can ride in
and raise your standard and the warriors will gather at your
call and, come spring, you can lead them in glorious defeat of
Rome. It is not like that, never will be. Live here one winter and
you will see why there are no warriors left who could gather to
your standard, why all of the people, men and women, are broken:
they are too hungry because five-tenths of their corn has been paid
in tax and they have lived for days drinking snow-melt so that they
might feed the children. Your children will not die this winter
because I have taken coin from Seneca and I use it to feed those
whose lives depend on my protection. This is my battle and my
way to fight it. You will learn it also. If you would teach Graine to
lead as befits her blood, this is what you will teach her. There will
be no army, Breaca, the Eceni do not have the heart for it. Do you
understand that?'

'No. But I understand that you believe it.' Breaca rose. She
looked at each of the three overturned chests. Not a single coin lay
in the bottom of any. She became aware, suddenly, that she had not
eaten since daybreak and that her stomach had long since turned
in on itself, grinding. 'What will happen when Seneca calls in his
loan and you are unable to repay it?' she asked.

'I am not unable to repay it. I have made more than there was
here in trade and taxes of my own. It's not all here and it's in Eceni
coin but silver is silver and he won't argue.' He grinned, thinly. 'But
if, by chance, I were to become impoverished and be unable to pay,
then, naturally, he is entitled to take goods to the full amount; gold,
corn, horses, hounds . . .'

'Slaves?' Cold curled in her chest. Shall I show you, Breaca of the
Eceni, what it is for a people to bleed until there is nothing more
to give?

Misreading her concern, 'Tagos said, 'Of course, slaves. But not
members of the royal household. They are careful of that. Those
whose claim to royalty relies on the thinnest of blood ties and
officially sanctioned incest are strangely respecting of those whose
claim is genuine and goes back through uncounted generations.
Whatever happens, they will not take you or your children. Even
Cygfa who is yours in name only is safe. They will take whomsoever
else they feel will fetch a price at market.'

'You would allow this?'

'I have no power to stop them, Breaca. I am a king because they
choose to call me such. If they wish to name another in my place,
I cannot stop them.'

'And if we cease to be royalty, then our family is no longer safe.'

'Exactly so.'

It was hard, then, to set aside the vision of a slave pen. Graine's
tears were not of gold, but blood, and they made of her face a
battlefield.

A bed lay along one wall, covered in dyed sheep skins and,
underneath, a whole horse hide. Breaca sat on the edge of it
and stared at the backs of her hands until she could see them
clearly through the image of her daughter.

'Tagos smiled, a little sadly. 'The Romans don't want war in the
east,' he said. 'Your battles in the west have achieved that much.
To keep peace, they will not provoke us. To keep our lives, we will
not provoke them. It is not something one dreams of, but it is
enough.'

He offered her this as if it were a gift, his accolade for what she
had been. The strength of it, or the power of the wine, pushed him
past the invisible shield that surrounded her. Coming close, he ran
his fingers down the length of her arm. Her control of her body
was less than that of her mind. The skin of her forearm rose in
gooseflesh behind him.

He leaned down and kissed her brow. 'I do think you should
have some wine.' He poured and set the beaker on the floor beside
her. She ignored it.

With his fingers stroking the back of her neck, he said, 'You have
not asked how your family will sleep.'

'I don't have to.'

The torches were guttering. One by one their oil failed and they
sent spider-threads of smoke to the ceiling. Breaca closed her eyes.
It was nearly dawn and the spear wound in her arm ached and she
was as tired as if she had been fighting all day, and she wanted
water, or ale, not wine.

'Tagos' thumb circled over and over on her neck. There was a
reasonable chance she was going to be sick, which would be too
humiliating. Reality weighed on her after the days of living by the
ancestor's words and he was right, it was not in any way as she had
imagined. To ride into battle was far, far easier.

There were things yet to be said, boundaries to be set so that
they might both know them.

'We have an agreement,' she said, wearily. 'We should be clear of
the terms. You have stated yours: I will be your wife in all things
and will support you in your rule of the Eceni. My terms are
equally certain. If my children, or Airmid, or any of those sworn to
me is harmed, if either of the women is touched against her will,
you will lose me and your hope of rule over the Eceni. Our people
may not be prepared to fight, but they are not the sheep you make
them out to be and they do not have to accept your rule. The royal
line has always been a link between people and the gods. You
break that link at your peril.'

'Obviously.' 'Tagos did not like to be patronized. His hand left
her neck. She breathed deeply.

'Is that all?' he asked.

'No. One other thing. We will have no children.'

'What?' His control broke at last. 'You have sworn before the
elder council--'

'--to be your wife in all things. I am fully aware of what I have
said and what it means. I have not, however, sworn that I was
capable of bearing children. I am not, or so Airmid believes. To
know the detail, you would have to ask her but I understand that
Graine's birth caused scarring that cannot be mended.'

He stared at her, only half hearing. He was breathing too fast
and the pits of his eyes were wide. 'And is that all?'

'It is.'

'Good.' With that word, they reached the moment she had
accepted as the best possible option in a cave on the side of a
mountain. It was neither as good nor as appalling as she had
expected.

He stood in the last light of the torches and she watched him
begin to remove his tunic one-handed. He had a lifetime of practice
and was as deft as any whole man. The stump of his arm, revealed,
was a mess of scar tissue. He stood very still, awaiting comment.
He was not lacking courage; his eyes remained on hers in the
silence. She had seen worse on a hundred battlefields and said
nothing. Nodding, he shed the undertunic and the belt that held it.

He was so close to what he wanted. He sat on the edge of the
bed and his hand moved unbidden to her waist. He kissed her hand
and then her arm and then her neck. His voice, muffled by the
pulse of her throat, said, 'I may not have children, but I have my
life and I will keep it. Know now that if I am harmed, if I die, if
your dreamers, in fact, do not work their hardest to keep me in
health and long life, those of my men who have taken Roman
names will see to it that the ones you care for most suffer hardest
in the retribution that will fall. Are we clear on that, my wife?'

He used the Roman, uxor, there being no equivalent in any
language of any tribe. Twenty years of waiting sank into the word.

'Quite clear.'

'Excellent. In that case, we should celebrate, you and I. If you
won't drink wine, there are other ways to seal a bargain. It has
been a long time since Caradoc was taken. You must hunger
almost as much as I do.'

He was naked and required her to be also. He was not such a
child and did his best to be attentive. She lay in the lamp-fouled
darkness and thought of Caradoc first, then Airmid and Graine,
Cygfa and Cunomar and last, inevitably, because she was home, of
Ban.



II. SPRING AD 58.


IX.
'b;
'BELLOS? BELLOS, WAKE UP.'
The boy lay still, with his white face crushed into black 'peat and both arms thrown out, embracing the earth. Valerius knelt at his side and struggled to clear his mind of the night's dream.

It took longer than it should have done. The dream clung tightly so that, even as he felt the fluttering pulse and lifted the boy's slack lids, the greater part of Valerius still rode the red mare's foal in the heart of battle. As Airmid had predicted, the dream-colt was black with a shield and slanting spear in white splashed across its forehead. Grown to adulthood, it carried its rider with all the passion of the Crow-horse, that had been lost to the legions.

For a man whose life had been given to battle, it was a dream to revel in, bittersweet with the urgency of action and the knife-edge of hope that lingered long after waking. Airmid had always been the most careful of dreamers; if only half of her promise came true and the foal grew to be the barest shadow of the Crow-horse, Valerius believed his life would be the richer for it.

That hope seemed less certain now. Pulled unwilling from the clamour and noise of dream battles, Valerius had staggered out into the mild night and across the foaling paddock behind the smithy to find another kind of carnage, less readily resolved.

There, beneath an oak tree, in a mess of wounded turf, the red
mare that had been mac Calma's gift lay stretched flat, shuddering.
There was no foal at her side, nor any sign of one emerging, but
the honey-salt smell of birth waters was all about, and the mare
groaned the deep belly-groan of a mother who has given everything
to push out her infant and has failed in the trying.

All this Valerius understood as he crossed the paddock. Coming
closer, he had found Bellos lying near her hind feet and the black
stain of peat on the white blond of his hair showed where one hoof
had caught him squarely and hard behind the left temple.

It was dark and Valerius had brought no flame. He had already
lifted the boy's head and pinched his cheek and spoken his name
twice before he noticed the dribble of blood coming from his nose
and the other, finer, thread at his ear.

He froze and his mind froze with him.

'Bellos?'

Valerius smoothed the hair from the boy's lifeless face, tucking it in
behind his ears in a way he would never have dared do if he were
awake. Six years in each other's company had not broken the barrier
of formality that had been raised in the first days of their meeting
when Valerius had still lived for the legions and Bellos had been the
boy whore bought, not out of pity, or love, or even to use, but in
the hope that he might keep one of the more persistent ghosts at bay.

The understanding that he had won his freedom for who he was
not had damaged Bellos' pride even in their first days together in
Gaul as he had clung to Valerius for safety in the face of the legions
and the malign power of the ocean. His growth to adulthood, so
clear this last winter, had sharpened, not lessened, the hurt.

For his part, Valerius had never known what to say and so had
said nothing. In half a decade, they had not spoken of love, or its
lack. Only the red cavalry mare, with her clear care for the boy and
none at all for the man, had come to embody the wall between
them and opened the wounds again.

The red cavalry mare, who was dying.

She stank of fear and defeat and the iron-blood of a battlefield
death. Her breath came in great heaving gasps that shook the earth
around her, and perhaps the whole land, from one ocean coast to
the next, so that all of Hibernia and Mona beyond would know
that the horse for whom the Elder, Luain mac Calma, had paid a
year's wages in gold to a duplicarius of the Batavian cavalry, had
twisted her womb at the start of birthing, and would be dead by
dawn, taking her unborn foal with her.

It was twenty years since Valerius had last seen a twist. His life
had been simpler then, so that the most upsetting moment of his
young life was when his mother, Macha, had taken her wedge
pointed lump hammer to the head of a foaling mare, striking
between the eyes to free her from life and pain together. Even as the
mare had slipped into death, Macha had sliced open the heaving
belly and released her foal, dragging it into daylight, sluggish but
living, to feed and thrive on another mare. The filly born that day
had grown to be dam to the Boudica's grey battle mare, and the
boy who grew to be Valerius had come to accept that his mother
had been right.

The adult Valerius had used his own hammer on horses and on
men, releasing each from life that had become intolerable. There
would be no effort in doing so again now and, knowing the mare, he
did not believe her soul would wait for him as others did in the lands
of the dead, seeking vengeance for a life cut short without cause.

Bellos, though, would certainly do so. His care for the mare had
grown through the dark months of winter, the quiet romance of
two strangers marooned without their consent on a foreign land.
He had some facility for healing; given time and tuition, he might
grow to that as a profession. In all probability, he had believed his
friend would recognize him and would still her struggles as he lay
in the peat behind her, striving to draw out her foal. For a boy
raised in a brothel, he had a long way to go in learning the nature
of pain and of love and how the first can override the second.

Valerius moved his hand down and checked again the erratic
patter of life at Bellos' throat. In the clouded mess of his thinking,
another fact became clear to him.

'If I kill her now, what will you live for, child? Would you return
to life only for me? I don't think so.'

The understanding of that hurt more than he had imagined.
Smoothing the same errant strand of hair, Valerius said, 'Bellos, if
you're listening, I'll do what I can to keep your mare alive. If she
dies, it will not be for want of trying.'

With the decision made, Valerius worked efficiently. If he were to
attempt the impossible, Bellos had to be made safe first. The boy
weighed more than it seemed from the slightness of his build, but it was easy enough to carry him into the single room of the smith's bothy and lay him in bed with warmed stones around, wrapped in
wool. He could not drink of his own will, but could be made to
swallow mashed infusions of comfrey and plantain, boiled and
cooled and kept in a stone jug for women too spent to eat after childbirth.

The mare had not moved when Valerius returned; she lay shuddering as she had since he first found her. Bellos could not hear him with waking ears, but there was no harm in talking to him as
if he might listen from some other place. Conscious of a presence
looking over his shoulder, Valerius said, 'Watch now, and learn. We
may save both of them yet.'

It was not easy work. He should have had two others to help, to
turn the mare one way as he turned the womb the other. He considered walking down to the steading to wake one of the quiet, stolid women who knew as much of birthing as he had ever done.
For Bellos, he would have sacrificed his pride, but the walk down
and the waking and the walk back would have taken until morning and he did not believe the mare would live to see the dawn. Alone, then, Valerius fought and sweated and cursed and it was no
different from being in battle, except that the mare was not actively
trying to kill him, but only groaning in her turn, and straining to
give birth to a foal which had no clear passage to freedom.

'Please . . . turn with me now ... just ... turn.'

The mare heaved and kicked, striking backwards with both
feet. The crush of her haunches drove Valerius' face into the
sodden peat. His arm burned and chilled and burned again and an
old wound at his shoulder screamed fresh pain. He braced his
elbows against the earth and pushed with outstretched fingers and,
finally, magically, the foal hovered on the brink of turning, then fell
sluggishly over, opening the neck of the womb.

'Thank you . . . thank you. Wait now, it's not over yet. Let me
think. Just give me time to think.'

He lay flat on the peat, heaving in air as the mare had done. He
was weeping for no better reason than relief and an end to
exertion. He wanted Bellos to know what he had achieved
and what was yet to be done but could find no way to tell him.
The boy had not returned miraculously to life, but equally,
When Valerius ran up to the bothy to check, he had not yet left it.

Returning, Valerius lay down once again. He patted the mare
Gently on the rump and spoke as he would have done to a birthing
Woman, with only the barest of lies. 'That's the worst of it over. Let
Me feel how the foal's set and we'll bring him out and you can rest.'

The foal: the white on black phantom that had stormed into his
dreams one day in autumn and had come to inhabit them to the
exclusion of everything else. Luain mac Calma, elder dreamer of Mona, had sown the seed with casual ease and it was hard not to believe the act deliberate. Airmid believes it will be a colt, black and white with a shield and a spear on its forehead.

Valerius had denied him, saying, That dream is long dead. At the time he had believed it. The truth had become apparent only later that night, and then other nights and then all nights and into the days so that he had to fight to keep his mind clear for the forging
or the healing or the leatherwork or the simple making of meals for
himself and a Belgic ex-slave-boy who had fallen in love with an aged cavalry mare and did not give more than a passing thought to the foal that she carried.

Bellos' dreams were not Valerius' dreams and the man had not
explained to the boy the nature of the first true dream of his childhood
in which he had ridden a black horse with a shield and spear in white on its forehead in a battle that defined the fate of his sister.
Equally, they had not discussed the return of the dream with Luain
mac Calma's gift of the mare and the hopes that arose from it, too
deeply hidden for Valerius to name.

Until now, when the foal, so long crushed in the womb, stretched a foot to Valerius' searching hand and then, as if to prove itself alive, reached its muzzle forward and sucked on his finger.

It had been so long since he had been alone with a foaling mare,
he had forgotten what it was to have new life at his fingertips, seeking
to set itself on the earth. The foal nudged and nuzzled again
and, with that small plea, that promise and prayer of later life,
Valerius, who had thought himself immune to love, felt it again,
with all the astonishing, annihilating force of the past.

As they had done in his youth, the doors to his heart fell open, So that the cold night became sharper, and the colours of the dark more dense. Weeping, he reached forward again, no longer tired,
Bellos was only a small reason for bringing the foal to safety.
There had never been any chance that the birth would be easy, but
he had not imagined it impossible.
Through the darkness and into dawn, Valerius fought as he had
only rarely fought before, for life instead of death. He could not
have named the point when retreat became inevitable, nor the far
later moment when he accepted it and stopped trying to proceed.
The mare was spent and lay as if dead, with only the rise and fall
of her breathing to show otherwise. The foal had long since
stopped nursing at his fingers. He had felt its heart, once, in trying
to draw forward a leg, but even that, it seemed, had faded.

Valerius sat back on his heels and tried to think. The mare was
black down one side with peat, and lay quite still; to shudder required
more effort than she could muster. The foal, if not dead, was close to
it. In the recesses of his mind, Valerius heard his mother speak the
invocation to Briga that precedes a death and watched as she lay on
her side with a blade in one hand of a sharpness that could slice
through rawhide, and cut the leg of a dead foal away from its body,
and then the head and perhaps another leg, allowing the now-dead
beast to be drawn out in small parts and the mare to live.

Valerius had foaled mares on his own for twenty years and had
never yet needed to cut up the foal to bring it out. With his mind
held carefully blank and his heart closed, he walked the short
distance to the forge and back again and the knife that he held was
as sharp as his mother's had ever been.

Later, when the foal had been given in pieces to the crows, he
returned with warmed water and some herbs and set about bringing
the red mare back to life. Such a thing was not beyond him and
the vengeful gods, who could give a man a reason to love and then
remove it, did not see fit to include the mare in their retribution.

Near noon, with the mare dried and sitting upright, with oat
straw packed along her flanks to hold her square, Valerius returned
to the bothy and built up the fire until the room was as warm as it
ever was and set about preparing a broth that an unconscious boy
could swallow.

At no time did he allow himself to think of the crow-given
carcass, which had been a colt, nor of the prophecy, spoken
correctly, that it would be black and white with a shield and a
spear on its forehead.

Airmid had always been the most careful of dreamers. She had
never promised that the foal she so accurately described would be
born alive.

The mare thrived on warm mashes and attention through day
and night. She came to recognize Valerius, and welcome his
ministrations. On the second day after her failed birthing, she rose
to her feet and, free of the burden of the foal, walked across the
paddock and out through the open gate to the bothy's door. Bellos
still lay unconscious inside, but there was a change to his colour
afterwards.

Thereafter, the mare ate the good hay that Valerius bought for
her and drank the warmed water with the finger's dip of honey and
infusions of burdock and valerian. Given the freedom of the holding,
she spent her time standing at the door to the bothy, blocking
the sunlight and upsetting the hens that scratched dust baths on the
threshold.

Bellos did not thrive. Three days after the foaling, when the boy
showed no more signs of waking than he had done on the first
night, Valerius admitted his own limits and walked down to the
small coastal settlement that he had very carefully not made his
home. There, he found the extent to which the strange, dark smith
on the hill, with his strange, blond boy, had become a valued
thread in the fabric of life.

Valerius had implied once that the Hibernians were all large and
uncouth and that Bellos was not safe in their company. As with all
falsehoods, the phantom of truth lay at its heart, but it was not the
men or women of the settlement who wished ill on the boy. Any
threat, if it existed at all, came from the seafarers who used the
sheltered bay and clear springs as a port for clean water and
bought meat and ale and were not always reliably sober, or safe.

Those with whom Valerius traded were not all tall and redheaded
and none were uncouth. They had not come near his forge,
nor offered help without its being asked, but still word had passed
amongst them of the mare's bad foaling and the kick to Bellos'
head. Their only question had been whether the smith had the
skills to heal the boy and, if not, how long it might be before he
must go for help, and where he might choose to seek it.

Opinion had been divided, but the weight of the betting said that
he would go to Mona, to the lean dreamer who had brought the
mare, rather than the Hibernian elders who held court around
the hill of Tara. There was a deal of satisfaction amongst those
who mattered most when the former view was found to be correct.

They were not direct people and Valerius' conversation drifted,
as courtesy demanded, to the welfare of those whom he had helped
or healed or armed and clothed, and in the course of this it became
apparent that there was a cart he might have that was newly
covered with hides to keep the boy dry and that a newly gelded
carthorse was fit and good for the journey and that there were
hard-rinded goat's cheeses already packed in the oat straw that
would both keep the boy warm and feed the horse, and that a
quantity of dried fish and mutton and fresh eggs and pitchers of
water had been packed elsewhere, because it had been found early
that the smith, contrary to all appearances, drank neither the wine
of the Latins nor the more wholesome ale of the tribes.

Last, because they really did value him and wished to see him
return, a wiry, dark-haired girl gave him a small pot sealed with
wax, with a bee inscribed on the flat surface. Honey was not
common on the wild coast of Hibernia and what little was found
was kept for healing, being worth rather more than its equivalent
weight in gold.

Touched beyond telling, Valerius gave care of his forge to the
same wiry, dark-haired girl who had shown some facility for both
metalwork and healing. He gave his good riding horse to her
father, who had recently re-covered his cart with the hides of three
cattle. He gave his supplies of dried leaves, tree barks and roots to
the midwife and free use of his bothy to whomsoever amongst
them might find need of it.

Mounted on the cart and moving, with Bellos packed in straw as
tightly as the eggs and pitchers behind, Valerius promised to return
with all speed to those who had become his people. In the moment
of speaking, he believed it.

Bellos continued to sleep. Through four days of rutted travel,
Valerius came to understand the limits of the amiable bay cob who
drew his cart. The red mare, originally tied to the cart's tail,
followed the command of Valerius' voice and, after a while, proved
that she did not need to be tethered. Twice she led the way across
spring-full streams when the gelding balked at the torrents. The
cart proved sturdier than it looked and the wheels more strongly
bound.

Valerius passed through hills heading north, and then at a certain
way-stone, remembered from past journeys, turned due east
towards the sea. The track here lacked the strong curved surface of
a Roman road, but it was solid and wide enough for two carts.
White stones marked the waysides so that, as evening fell and the
light waned, it might have been possible to push on through
the night to the port.

Valerius had planned to do exactly that, but the scent of salt sea
air met the sharper acid of the peat bogs and he remembered, with
nauseating certainty, exactly how much he hated ocean travel.
Without giving the matter much thought, he turned the bay cob to
the side and pushed it out beyond the track to a flat, hard patch of
ground where the burned-out embers of others' fires and a small
stack of firewood neatly cut said that the land and its people were
hospitable.
The hides covering the cart could, at need, be stretched out
beyond the tailgate. Supported on new-cut staves, they offered a
measure of shelter from the persistent Hibernian rain. Valerius
hobbled and watered the two horses, then lit a fire for the night
just beyond the overhang of the hides.

It was far easier than it had been to lift Bellos down from the
cart; no broth, however nourishing, can keep weight on a growing
youth. Laid out straight on woollen cloaks, with straw padding
beneath, he could easily have been newly dead after a long illness.

His hair was no longer the bright white-blond of the Belgae, but
lankly dark, so that it hung about his face like wet straw. His limbs
were thin sticks with folds of skin and angry bruises at elbows,
hips and shoulders where his own weight had pressed on the
shrinking flesh and made it bleed. In the last two days, the broth
had come through as a thin, rancid scour that leaked from his guts
as thinly as urine and scalded any skin left unsalved.

Valerius had never cared for an infant; the dead slave-boy, Iccius,
had been his own age when he had nursed him through the insults
of beatings and gelding and the use of men. Bellos was older than
that, but his incapacity was greater than Iccius' had been, except at
its worst, and it lasted far longer.

Valerius found himself nursemaid, who had never considered
fatherhood. Before he ate, or made his own bed for the night, he
stripped the boy in stages and washed him clean with water
warmed from the fire, then clothed him again with padding built
around the sore points and an ointment of goose grease and haws
and a flavouring of honey smoothed all down his thighs to keep the
diarrhoea from destroying his skin.

All the way through, he talked to the boy as if he were listening,
sending his voice out into the night.

'Goose grease because it's lighter than pork fat, but binds well to
the skin. The haws are for suppleness and to keep the lice away.
Honey for healing, but then you know that. I saw you give it to
Finbar's ewe when she had a hard lambing. The bay cob went well
today. I think they gelded him the night you were kicked and broke
him to harness the day after. He'd be better as a riding horse. If
your mare was of a strength to pull the cart, I'd let him out and put
her in the shafts. Be glad she's not. She would never forgive either
of us for the shame. As you may not, when you come out of this
and find out how you've been.'

At a certain point, when the cob and the red mare had both
shifted in the hobbles, Valerius laid aside the goose grease and
lifted his sword. It was not the Roman cavalry blade with which he
had fought for nearly fifteen years, nor the long-sword of his
ancestors, but something in between, fashioned to fit his own hand and his own weight and used in practice daily, privately, as a man
might who keeps an oath which has no meaning save in its own
fulfilment. He continued to speak in the language of the Belgae,
coarsening it to the south and west, until it sounded more Gaulish
and less Germanic. His voice echoed off the damp, resonant hides
of the shelter and it was impossible to say exactly whence it came.
'Of course, when we get you to Mona and the healers there
know nothing more than goose grease and honey, it may be that
you will not recover at all and I will have wasted the best part of a
month on a journey with no reason. Luain mac Calma, doubtless,
will pretend that he can dream his way to your soul and return it
intact. If he is still alive, of course, which he might not be if he
continues to-- What exactly are you doing here? And don't turn
round; you would lose your nose, which might make the
explaining harder.'

This last was in Hibernian, spoken with quiet certainty and far
less emotion than his earlier slander of the dreamers.

Luain mac Calma, dressed in plain wool with no marks of rank
or of dream, did exactly as he was told. Without moving any part
of himself, he said evenly, 'I came to find you, to warn you that
there are Roman traders in the port and that you might not wish
to meet them. One or two are ex-auxiliaries recently come from
Gaul, where you are somewhat notorious amongst your erstwhile
comrades-in-arms.'

'And you, naturally, just happen to be in the port at the time I
might want to have use of a ship?'

Valerius' blade pressed forward, bridging the small space to mac
Calma's neck, so that it pricked the skin and a thin string of blood
seeped into the wool of his tunic.

'I'm a dreamer. I am, in fact, the elder dreamer of Mona. Would
you like me to lie and agree that I am here by chance?'

'I would never ask any man to lie.' Valerius did not lift his blade
away. 'But equally, I prefer not to ask any question more than once.
Perhaps I did not make myself clear. What is your concern with my
welfare, and that of the boy?'

'Bellos is dying. You were right in your assessment of me. I do,
indeed, believe that I can heal him and, no, I will not limit myself
to the use of goose grease and honeyed water.'

'Why do you care?'

'Because you do.'

The blade eased forward. The string of blood became a stream.
Valerius said, 'One more time, dreamer. Your life's end is a leaning
of weight away. Why are you here? What is it about me that you
wish to entrap? And if you mention my parentage, you will die. I
have killed more men than you have and in far harder circumstances
than these.'

'I know. I have watched you do it in the fire.' With slow,
deliberate precision, Luain mac Calma, elder dreamer of Mona,
turned to his left, so that the sword's tip scored a circle about his
neck. When it reached the edges of the great vessels at his throat,
such that to turn further would have cut into them, he stopped.
The skin of his face was weathered with hours at sea in strong sun.
His eyes took on the yellowed flare of the firelight, as a wildcat's
might.

With no hint of irony, or of fear, he said, 'You are Macha's son. To
the best of my knowledge, you have never questioned that side of
your lineage, nor should you - to even think it would dishonour your
mother's memory and, in any case, there are plenty of men and
women still alive who were present at your birth and can attest to
your origins. Until Airmid grew into her strength, Macha was the
most powerful dreamer Mona - or Hibernia - had ever known. Had
she chosen to stay in either land, she would have been an elder within
five years. She chose instead to bear her son and her daughter in the
lands of the Eceni, who were her people. Her daughter is dead - and
in any case, Silla did not inherit from her mother any of her powers.
Her son still lives. His people and hers have need of him.'

'No.'

'No?' Mac Calma allowed his eyes to widen, in anger, or maybe
scorn. 'You deny the need? Or you turn down the request before
you have heard its terms?'

'I don't need to hear its terms; you asked me once before. I will
not come east to lead the spears of the Eceni in my mother's name.'

'I am not asking you to do that.'

'Then what are you asking?'

'That in exchange for the healing of Bellos - which will have to
take place on Mona if it is to happen at all - I have your services,
as a son to his father, for the time that it takes for him to recover.'

Luan mac Calma mentioned parentage for the second time and
did not die although the possibility remained real for a long
and delicate moment.

At the end of it, the blade in Valerius' hand angled a little back,
so that the tip no longer drew blood. Thoughtfully, warily, with a
world of things unspoken, he asked, 'Who defines the duration of
a healing?'

Luain mac Calma did not smile, but the effort he made to
prevent it was obvious. 'I do. But I will not be over-greedy. The day
Bellos can stand and lift his own sword and match you two strokes
without dropping it, I will agree that he is healed and you are no
longer bound to me.'

'And if he dies before that happens?'

'If he dies, then of course you are free.'


X.

WINTER WAS NOT OVERLY HARSH IN THE FIRST YEAR OF THE Boudica's return to the Eceni but snow blocked the
trading routes for four months and then the smaller
tracks, until the steadings were isolated one from the other and she
had seen, as 'Tagos had said she would, why it was that her people
lacked the heart for battle.

The elderly had died first, taken in the early months by cold or
disease or starvation or a mix of all three. Eight were lost of those
who had attended the covert gathering in the clearing; eight who
had supported the Boudica's return and were eight less to aid in the
gathering of warriors, and in giving them heart.

For a while, that had seemed important, as if their loss might tip
the balance of a strategy yet to be formed. Then the children had
begun to perish, which was unheard of in the years before the invasion,
and the middle-aged had followed, who should have been
strong enough to survive any cold.

It was too close to the ancestor's vision. Rome had taken in taxes
that which might sustain the tribes, leaving the land gaunt, over
hunted and over-grazed. The people were skeletally thin and if the
children had wept tears of corn, their parents would have eaten them
with gratitude. Each death made more urgent the need to raise an army and throw off the parasite of Rome. Each death lessened the heart of the people and undermined their willingness to fight.

By spring, as the snows began to clear, and the urgency and
the impossibility matched each other equally, Breaca set aside the
ceaseless circling of her mind and took her son and her hound and
her spear and went hunting; it was the best and most concrete thing
she could do.

'Here!'

The body lay beneath a hand's length of melting snow, blanketed
as if under night-time hides with only the point of one elevated
elbow sticking up to throw slanting shadows across the white.
Stone found it and ploughed into the drift, baying. The noise
soaked into the landscape and was gone.

'Cunomar! Over here!'

Breaca dropped her game bag and turned off the track into the
untested depths at the side. She sank up to her knees and the butt
end of her hunting spear made a staff as she gouged a way forward.
Encouraged, the big blue hound fell silent and began to bite the
snow, hurling all of himself at it in a delirium of released
frustration. His winter had been no less hard than hers, his joy at
being outside no less expansive.

The drift was rotten at its core; the spring warmth was eating at
its base even as Stone broke through the crust. He clawed out
ragged clots of slush and hurled them backwards, making rain in
the full sun.

Breaca leaned on her spear and let him play, watching the
gradual uncovering of a man who might simply have been asleep,
but that the rats and the crows had found him before the last
blizzard so that his eyes were gone, and parts of his cheek laid open
to the cold. He was well clothed; neither his cloak nor his tunic had
been taken from him at a time when cold was the biggest killer and
those who died were routinely stripped before their bodies were
given to the gods. Nor had he been slain for his wealth; an armband
in yellow Siluran gold lay frozen at an angle just above his
elbow.

Stone whined and nudged the man's face. Breaca laid a hand on
the hound's shoulder and eased him back. 'Leave him. He's past
our help. This one was beyond help before he died.'

'Who's beyond-- Oh . . .'

Cunomar had forged his own way through the drift. He arrived
at her shoulder, breathing hard. The steam he made wreathed the
air about them, blurring the crispness of the day. He had grown
over winter so that the crown of his head reached beyond her
shoulder and it was harder than it used to be to see his eyes.

He made to push past his mother and thought better of it, asking
instead, 'May I look?'

'Of course.'
He knelt, touching the armband and the ravaged face and Breaca
watched her son take in and consider the facts in ways he would
not have done before. Of all her family, six months in Eceni lands
had changed Cunomar most. He had grown in more than height
since coming east; in his soul, he was calmer than the fretting youth
who had followed his mother from coast to opposite coast,
complaining all the way.

The ravages of winter had been part of it; no-one could watch
the half-starved deaths of the cold and the sick and not be touched,
but friendship had moulded him most and the pity was that no-one
had seen the need sooner. On Mona, Cunomar had been the
Boudica's son who had been taken prisoner to Rome, who had
stood in the shadow of his own crucifix, and had yet come back
alive. He had found himself the subject of songs and of wide-eyed
observation, but boys his own age went out to sit their long-nights
and came back as men and none of them, before or after, called
him friend.

The Eceni knew nothing of the Boudica's son, save that he was
an outsider, so it had come as no surprise when he had bonded
with another the same. Eneit was a wiry, dark-haired youth, son to
Lanis, the raven-dreamer who had so deftly steered the elders'
gathering to bring the Boudica back to her people. Eneit was old
for his years - Lanis did not tolerate childishness in those around
her - but he was unfailingly cheerful and harboured no grudges
and Cunomar's bad temper had bounced off him again and again
until, of itself, it had begun to blunt.

Through the grim tedium of winter, Cunomar's mellowing had
been a spark of hope for which Breaca daily gave thanks. He was
not yet his father, nor even Ardacos, whom he worshipped, but he
carried enough of both, and some things only of himself, so that
Breaca could see who he might become if the gods granted him
time to grow.

He showed the essence of it now, as he leaned forward to study
the mess of crushed snow and the corpse within it. After a while,
he laid a hand to the face. Flesh moved waxily under his fingers
and the head lolled. He sat back on his heels and said, 'Not winter
dead.'

It was a masterpiece of understatement. Ardacos could not have
done better. Breaca smiled and felt the cold skin crease her face.
'No,' she said, 'not winter-dead. And not slain for his weapons or
wealth.'

The stranger had not died unarmed. His knife lay beside him and
his spear a little way beyond. He may have used them in his own
defence but not successfully. At his death, the blades of both had
been broken cleanly across and, lest it be thought unfortunate
mischance, the two halves of each had been laid carefully apart,
with the tips reversed so that they pointed in towards the hilt.

Breaca lifted the knife pieces, fitting each back to its mate to
make them whole again. It was ten years since the Romans had
visited their vengeance on Eceni villages, destroying the warriors'
blades to seal their mastery of the tribe, but the dreamers had been
breaking the weapons of convicted traitors for generations before
the legions landed. Iron was only the first thing broken. Death, in
all cases, followed slowly and the spirit cracked open long before
death gave release. Treachery was never taken lightly among the
tribes.

This man had died quickly, which would not have happened in
the days before Rome, but the reason for his death could not have
been more clear.

'A traitor.' Cunomar fitted together the two parts of the spear
blade as Breaca had the knife. 'Who was he?'

'One we should have watched from the beginning, I think.'

Breaca cupped her hand under the ravaged head and lifted it.
The left half of the face was gone, with the marks of small teeth
chiselled on the cheekbones. The sockets of both eyes had been
picked clean and tufts of reddish hair torn away from the back half
of the scalp, at the place where hair ended and baldness began.
What was left of his flesh hung loosely on bone, smearing the
features to a caricature of the over-heated warrior who had jumped
onto a log at the elders' gathering and screamed over the chaos,
casting the Boudica back whence she came.

She did not know his name, but it was impossible to forget his
face, and a warrior so ardent in his convictions would not readily
set them aside.

In the forest, at the elder council, she had asked, How long before
a member of your household betrays us? and 'Tagos, relaxed, had
answered, I would say never but if I am wrong, I will die with you. And Breaca had taken him at his word, which was foolish.

'I have spent winter worrying how to raise an army, while this'
- she opened her hand and the head fell back, loosely - 'has spent
it planning how to betray us to Rome. They broke his neck, which
was kind. I wonder why.'

'Who did?' Cunomar nudged the lax head with his toe. "Tagos
couldn't have killed him. It takes two hands to break a man's neck
and he has only one.'
'No.' In a clutter of unanswered questions, some things had been
obvious from the first. Breaca said, 'He sent Gaius and Titus out
hunting when the snow first began to melt. They came back with
nothing. I thought then that they looked too pleased.'

'That was four days ago.'

'I know. So if our ardent traitor reached Camulodunum with his
news and was on his way back, then we are as good as dead.'

Breaca rinsed her hands in the snow. Sharp fragments of ice bit
at her fingers, savage as rats. Stone, seeing her distracted, came to
push at her thigh and was welcomed. She stared south, to where
white met unblemished blue, and felt the pulse rise in her throat.
Battle was easy and a part of her yearned for it. The greater part
urged caution, and waiting, and the gathering of warriors, and
needed time that might not be given.

'Can the legions march over snow this thick, do you suppose?'

'If you listen to 'Tagos, they can do anything.' Cunomar had
crouched and was cutting a lock of hair from the man's head.
Burned on the night fires, with the right words sung by Airmid, it
would mark him for ever a traitor in the lands beyond life. 'That
can't be true, but I think that to arrest the Boudica, they would dig
a path through the snow from the shores of the ocean to the far
edges of the world. Even in this weather, it can't be more than four
days' march from Camulodunum to here. We'd have seen them by
now if they were coming.'

'Maybe.'

The silence settled whitely about them. Stone whined and dug
without purpose at the drift, feeling the ache of danger and not
knowing the cause. The wind blew from the west, sifting snow
thinly across the dead traitor.

Breaca said, 'If they're coming, there's nothing we can do, but
meet them and hope to die cleanly. If they are not, then we have
time to find out if this man had others sworn to his cause and if
they may yet be halted.'

Fine snow had almost re-covered the corpse. With blunted
fingers, she sprang the armband away from the elbow, then
unhooked the broken knife from the belt. 'I'll remake the knife. It's
time I opened the smithy again. His family can have the armband.
If they thought to follow his lead, it might give them cause to
reconsider.'

'And 'Tagos?' Cunomar watched her, smiling faintly. Cold
carved ten years into his features. 'He ordered him killed and didn't
tell us.'

'I know.' That thought had been growing since Breaca had first
understood what Stone had uncovered. Standing, she said, ' 'Tagos
will certainly have cause to reconsider.'

'I don't know if he got through. Gaius and Titus believe not, but it
was dark and snowing and they did not take the time to question
him fully.'

'And you chose not to tell me.' Breaca was coldly angry, each
word an accusation. She stood in the doorway to 'Tagos' inner
chamber, making the most of the light. After the crisp dazzle
of the snow, the lamplit gloom was more dank than she could
bear.

'Tagos kept away from her, in the farthest corner. Through the
entirety of winter, he had not seen the measure of her anger, nor
learned to fear it.

'What would you have done? Gone back for your swords and
launched an attack on Camulodunum with three warriors, a singer
and a boy who has not yet learned that courage is not all about loud
words and unchecked action? I thought you best protected from the
knowledge. There was no need for both of us to live in fear.' He
took refuge in righteous indignation, which was not new. Livid
patches flared widely beneath his eyes, shadows of a deeper dread.

Breaca pressed her palm to the doorpost, crushing the flesh to
white. The post was solid and would not give and the resistance
afforded her some release so that she could think through to the
things that mattered.

She said, 'You gave your oath in front of Lanis' council that
there was not a single Eceni who so hated the people that they
would betray us. This man stood less than a spear's length to your
left as you swore it. He spoke just before you did. He saw you, he
heard you, he knew you. I fail to believe that you didn't know him
equally.'

'Then you believe me a liar.'

'I am waiting to hear that you are not.'

'Gods, Breaca . . .' 'Tagos' voice cracked and he swung
round, towards the coffers on the far wall. Breaca stepped forward,
blocking his way. The wine, which had been his target, lay
behind her, inaccessible. He hissed through his teeth and turned
back again. His left hand gripped hard around the stump of his
lost arm.

Facts fell out of him, trimmed short by fear and the need to
prove his own honour.

'The dead man's name was Setanos. He was a warrior of the
northern Eceni, wounded at the battle of the Salmon Trap, that
Dubornos led. He lost friends and family in the battle - we all did
and did not turn traitor for it - but he lost the mother of his
children afterwards when the legions visited their reprisals on the
villages and he was away, still caught in the retreat from the battle.
She was with child again and so could not fight and he was not
there to die with her or to save her, as his honour required. He
hates himself and so hates Rome, but he hates Dubornos more and
you through him. He has waited ten years for the chance to visit
vengeance on you both. I knew none of this when I spoke at the
gathering, I swear it.'

'But you found out and chose not to tell me.'

'Tagos spun round, his eyes over-bright in the lamplight. 'I made
a mistake. I took action to rectify it and, no, I did not find it
necessary to tell you. Would you have done differently?' His eyes
glanced to her and away again, unable to sustain a meeting.

He did not want her pity; winter had taught her that, but even
through the ebb tide of her rage, she pitied him and could not
change it. He was a sapling hound and did not know how to be
otherwise in her presence. Leaning back on a wall where her
features were less visible, she sought calm and found it in the
memory of the dead man's face.

'Was Setanos alone in his hatred?' she asked.

'No. They were four in all: a cousin who was half-sister to the
woman who died and two brothers who lost their village to
the Romans at the time of the reprisals.'

'Where are the others now?'

'Tagos snorted. 'Dead, of course. I may be stupid but I am not
suicidal. You may believe that a slow death at Roman hands will
seal your place in the winter songs - your son certainly does - but
I would prefer to hear mine sung with living ears. Gaius and Titus
killed the other three as they killed this one. He was the last. The
bodies will be found when the snow thaws. If we're lucky, the
wolves and carrion birds will have stripped them to bone and none
need know how they died.'

Breaca said, 'Their families will know. Four warriors went out
with a common purpose and none came home. Those who remain
behind will have been waiting for something like this.'

'And that's what will stop them from sending anyone else.'
'Tagos grinned, thinly. 'It's a lesson well learned from Rome: gold
and gifts may buy promises, but the stench of death buys fear,
which lasts longer. We have to pray that it weighs against the
passion that calls for revenge.'

He believed it, or wanted her to think that he did. Breaca found
that she needed to breathe fresher air. Outside, Graine had
found Stone and was playing with him. Cunomar was nearby with
Eneit, practising their mock battles with an energy that sent their
voices high over the raucous reunion of child and hound. If she
wanted to build an army, she had two at least with the heart for it;
they only need be armed and taught how to fight without dying.

She said, 'If you find it useful, you may pray that fear outweighs
the need for vengeance in the hearts of our people. I am going to
build a forge to make the spears to arm those warriors I can find,
in the fervent hope that it does not.'

'And if the legions come?'

'If the legions come, those of us who can will fight them and die,
as we always would.'

The legions did not come. Over the days of waiting, Breaca built
her new forge as her father had done, of stone and with sods of turf
as a roof that could be kept damp through the dry days of summer.
She had planned it through winter; collecting the stones and the
work of building took less than five days, each spent with one eye
on the building and one to the south where Cygfa and Ardacos,
Cunomar and Dubornos kept watch, with a signal fire to be lit
with white smoke if they saw the legions marching up the
trackway.

There was no white smoke. The snow melted from the trackway
and still the only incomers were a pair of salt and iron traders from
the south-west who asked gold in payment when once they had
wanted corn and hounds and worked metal. Gold could not be
eaten; the chests of the Eceni king were still full of it while his
granaries were empty.

Breaca paid for iron with 'Tagos' gold and promised him a profit
on it. At the forge, Cunomar and Eneit gathered wood for the fires
and she promised them spears in payment. Lanis took her to a
place a day's ride away where ash and yew had been set to grow
straight, with poles on either side, so that their boughs would make
spear hafts. Lanis asked no payment, only that the legions be
driven from the land quickly.

Half a month after Stone dug from the snow the body of
the traitor, Breaca slipped a leather apron over her head and tied
it at the sides as part of the small, private ritual that her father
had taught her that culminated in lighting the furnace of her
forge. A small fire blossomed, fed by chips of apple wood and
pine cones, dry straw and the tail hairs of a brood mare heavy in
foal.

Aired by new, stiff-jointed bellows, the fire grew to eat twigs and
then whole logs. In time, it took charcoal and burned at its heart
the colour of the noon sun. The iron that Breaca laid in the centre
grew waxen and white and, with some work, took on the shape of
a spearhead.

Over the rest of that month, the smells of scalding metal and
burning leather, of charcoal and smoke, of sweat and blood
and spit replaced the damp, earthen smells of stone and turf.
The pile of raw iron at the back of the Boudica's forge became,
increasingly, a pile of spear-heads, awaiting their hafts and their
warriors.


'Can you hear them sing?'

'What?'

'The spears. Can you hear them sing?' Breaca asked it of Graine
one afternoon in the height of spring, as they sat alone together in
the forge.

This once, the fires were cool; of Breaca's two projects, neither
needed heat and Graine's carving had never done so. They had discovered
early that the Boudica's daughter, although she would
never be a warrior, had a facility for carving onto the spear-hafts
shapes and designs that were called from the wood and her own
dreaming. She had gone with Lanis into the forest to cut the
straight-formed boughs and, later, when she had been given a knife
to shape one to fit the neck of a blade, she had instead carved the
shape of a running hare along the length, with spirals and small
circles that wove with the knots and contours of the wood so that,
when the two were fitted together, the match with the dream-lines
on the metal had been perfect.

Mother and daughter had worked together daily after that. From
spears, they had begun work on the short, single-edged skinning
knives that were the only other weapons permitted under Roman
law. Breaca had made the blades and Graine had carved in wax and
wood shapes of dream marks to be cast in copper or bronze for the
pommel of each. In the last two days, they had begun work together
on a larger project: the creation in gold of an armband for 'Tagos,
that he might appear more clearly a king when the spring's round of
tribal delegations met the governor at Camulodunum.

Graine sat on the beaten earth of the floor carving a serpent
spear while Breaca stood at her workbench on the back wall and
drew fine wire finer, so that it might be twisted into a rope after the
fashion of the ancestors.

She had asked her question quietly, in a long period of silence,
and Graine stopped to think of the answer. The serpent-spear lay
part-finished in her hands. It was the third she had carved and each
one was subtly different, as if, each time, she learned more of how
it should truly be, but had not yet reached perfection. Stone lay at
her side, hunting in his dreams, so that his toes twitched and his
ears flagged sideways. Outside, a redbreast flew onto the rim of a
leather bucket and dipped for water and flew away again. She
heard the high twin notes of its call, and the crows and the bark of
a hound in the steading, not quite out of earshot.

Behind that was not silence, although she would not have
noticed if her mother had not drawn her attention to it. Sitting still,
she put her mind into listening and, perhaps because of that, saw
the slight thickening of the air that she had come to recognize, so
that when she looked into the back of the forge and saw the old
woman sitting there, who had not walked in through the door, she
was not surprised.

That was not good. Hoping the world might change, she said, 'I
don't think I hear the spears as you do. I've watched you beating
out the blades and each one has its own rhythm and you are a part
of it. A warrior would hear it, who was matched to the blade, but
what I hear in the wood is different.' And then, because her mother
had looked up and was smiling and had not said anything of the
old woman sitting on the pile of hides by the workbench, she said,
'The elder grandmother is here.'

'Is she?' Breaca leaned back, letting her own weight draw the
gold wire of the king-band-in-making. She was no longer smiling.
'Is there a reason?'

There was always a reason. Once before, Graine had been a
conduit for a message from the grandmothers to Breaca, and it had
not been welcome. Then, the ancestors had sent back from Gaul
not her father, as they had been asked to, but the traitor brother
who called himself Valerius.

Graine did not want to be party to a second betrayal. She
glanced fleetingly at the grandmother and away again, as Airmid
had taught her. Seen like that, the old woman was as real as Breaca,
an ancient, wrinkled relic of the past leaning back into the corner
of the forge, dressed in her finery as if for council with a fox skin
draped down her back like a cloak, weighted at the edges with
nuggets of gold and eagle feathers, and a pair of crow's wings
lancing forward across her sagging breasts to meet in the dip of her
chestbone.

In life, the grandmother had been the bane and the boon of
Breaca's life, and Airmid's before her in the years when each had
served as the old woman's eyes and limbs in the infirmity of her old
age. In death, the grandmother had ushered the Boudica-to-be
through her long-nights, and then come to her since, in moments of need, to guide the way. More recently, she had guided her to the
ancestor-dreamer and the slaying of a Roman governor which had
gone so badly wrong afterwards. Since then, the grandmother
had appeared more to Graine than to Breaca. This was the first
time she had shown herself in the company of them both.

Graine glanced at her askance. The grandmother grinned.
Loudly, she said, Tell your mother that she should stop wasting her
time making blades for a war host that does not yet exist.

Graine stared at the floor. 'Why can you not tell her?' She did
not ask it aloud. Breaca was watching her, studiously avoiding the
far corner.

In her mind, the grandmother laughed. Your mother chooses not
to hear me. She has closed herself off from us and thinks herself
stronger for it. Tell her to make a set of spears after the manner of
the Caledonii and to take them to Camulodunum as a gift for the
governor. It will impress him more than an arm-band that confers
no powers on the one who wears it.

Breaca let go of the gold wire. It sprang into a coil and fell to the
floor. With exaggerated care, she laid her pliers on the bench.

Speaking directly to Graine, she said, 'Rome knows nothing of
the power of a king-band. They see gold and recognize good
workmanship and neither Tonomaris of the Coritani nor Berikos
of the Atrebates will have anything like it. Thus 'Tagos will be set
apart when we go to meet the governor at Camulodunum next
month and may be given added trading rights. If that helps us to
feed the starving next winter, I will do it. The war host will exist in
time. I spent last summer finding those who could be trusted to join
me. This summer we will train them to fight. It is not something
that can be done fast. Tell that to the grandmother.'

'She can hear,' said Graine, and then, a little desperately, 'You
could see her if you looked.'
'No.' Breaca would not look. Stiffly, she took a small rake and
riddled the ash from the furnace. As if it had been Graine's idea,
she said, 'Why should I make the heron-spears? They have not
been used since the time of the ancestors. I only know of them from
Ardacos. Even if it were wise, the blades must be made of
unalloyed silver. I may not have enough.'

You have plenty. It's in your work chest. Make three, said the
grandmother, nodding. Box them in yew and blue wool and take
them as your gift.

'Why?'

Because I ask it and I have never yet let you down, however
much you think so. You will know what to do when it matters.

The old woman's laugh was the call of a crow, and then she was
a crow, and then nothing but a thickening in the warped air above
the furnace and the fine cry of a redbreast in the beech trees outside.

Graine breathed out, heavily, and saw that the serpent-spear on
her lap was spoiled and she would have to start again. Breaca was
standing at the forge with a rake in one hand and the beginnings
of a spear-head in the other. As her voice had been, her face was
shorn of all humour and warmth. Graine stared at the floor and
found her mouth too dry to swallow. There were aspects of her
mother she had never seen and she did not want to find them now.

'You don't have to make the spears,' she said. 'But I know how
to carve the hafts if you want to.'

Breaca's attention came back from a long way distant. There was
a moment when Graine thought she had judged wrongly, and that
she had just damned herself for ever as a mouthpiece of the
ancestors.

The horror of that must have shown on her face; Breaca frowned
at her and then simply frowned and then stared out of the door and
blew air hard through her cheeks and when she looked again at her
daughter, it was with the sharp, dry humour that held all of
her family safe at its centre. 'Did the grandmother tell you how the
hafts are made?' she asked.

Giddy with relief, Graine said, 'Maybe. I didn't dream it, but I
know that I know. Do you want to make them?'

'No. I want to make a spear for Cunomar, and then one for
Eneit, and then I want to take those two out to the forest and teach
them how to hear the songs so that they can sit their spear-trials
with some chance of success. But that doesn't mean we can't do
both. We don't have to sleep, after all, or eat, or do anything except
work metal for the next half-month. We'll need Airmid's help; this
is too dangerous for you to do alone. The heron-spears of the
Caledonii are as much a work of dreaming as they are of the forge.'

They were, and it was an old dreaming, older even than the elder
grandmother and the ancestor-dreamer who came to help with it.
They worked together for the next half-month. At the end of
it, there lay on the workbench a king-band by which 'Tagos might
impress the governor in Camulodunum, three silver-bladed heron
spears, packed in wool in a box of yew as a gift for the same
governor, and two others, for Cunomar and Eneit, that were just
as much an act of dreaming, but held it differently, without such a
tangible promise of death.


XI.

THERE WAS NO BREEZE IN THE CLEARING. THE STRAW SACK HUNG at the height of a warrior's heart, quite still. Thirty paces
away lay a spear, product of Breaca's forging and Graine's
dreaming, with help from Airmid. The blade was the length of
'Tagos' right foot from heel to central toe; the longest Roman law
allowed. The haft was of pale ash, polished to a matt smoothness
so that it came soft to the hand, and a bulb of knot-grown blackberry
wood made a balancing weight at the end. It was a weapon
with which any youth might be glad to take the warrior's tests of
the long-nights.

Breaca picked it up from the forest floor and held it out,
balanced on both palms. 'Eneit, this is yours, made for your height.
As the elder, you should throw first. When the dreamers name the
dates for your long-nights, you and Cunomar will be sent out
separately. The gods and your dream will send you home again, but
if you both return together, you will take the spear-trials in order
of age. You should be prepared to go first.'

Eneit stroked his palm along the wood with the shyness of new
knowing. In so many ways, Lanis' son was Cunomar's opposite;
his oak-dark hair grew no more than a hand's breadth long so that
it would have been impossible for him to weave the warrior's
braids at the temples even were it legal to do so. His wide, open
face was already brown from the weak spring sun, so that his eyes,
his hair and his skin were all of a colour, with only the shades of
them different.

Eneit's parentage was the only blight on his life and he bore it,
as everything else, with a quiet fortitude. Lanis was not a woman
to cross without serious forethought; she had forbidden from the
outset her son's acts of rebellion against the enemy, particularly his
efforts to learn from Cunomar the warrior skills that would make
him a man. Because it was the enemy's rule first and his mother's
second, Eneit had no difficulty flouting it; his doubts were rooted
elsewhere.

Still absorbed in his spear, he said, 'You know I have never
thrown anything such as this.'

Any other boy might have been ashamed of his lack; Eneit told
the truth and did not expect censure. Breaca said, 'I know. How
could you? There was no smith to sing the soul into the blades at
their making, no dreamers to fashion the haft and no-one to teach
you the ways of the warrior. But you have the mind for this; just
remember that it's a test of heart, not of strength or skill. Anyone
can throw a stick in a straight line, that's not the point. Take it. I'll
show you.'

The blade of Eneit's spear was not the elongated wedge of
Breaca's normal making, but a flattened leaf shape, curved from tip
to hilt. The wood of the haft was straight and smooth and the
balance clean. Airmid had sung over it and Graine had made
the pattern that wove as salmon scales down to the blade. No-one
living could hold it and not be touched.

Eneit, who was the son of a dreamer, swung his new gift to his
shoulder and gasped, a soft indrawing of breath, as if caught
unawares by a lover's touch, so that days of struggle at the furnace
and the turning lathe were made worthwhile.

He glanced shyly at Breaca. 'Thank you.'

It was easy to see why Cunomar cared for this boy; the morning
became warmer in his presence.

Breaca smiled. 'You are more than welcome. Not everyone is
touched by the soul of the spear on first meeting. But that's not the
test. You must not only feel it, you must quiet your mind until your
soul sings with it, as one. And then you must let it go. Do you
know how to hold for a throw?'

He made a good attempt and she helped him to find the place of
effortless standing. He naturally used his left hand and so his left
foot was fore and his right arm slack. She had him test the balance
point of the spear, finding the one spot where, held at shoulder
height, the butt and the head matched each other and it felt
weightless.

'Good.' Breaca stepped back. 'Now we wait. You need time to
quiet the noise of your thinking so you can hear the soul-song of the
spear. Cunomar and I will go for a walk through the forest and come
back. Then we will walk away again, and again until you no longer
know that we are there. When the time is right, I will tell you to
throw. You are aiming for the straw sack but you must not try to cast
towards it, simply let it become the end point of your thoughts. If
your mind is clear and your soul is at one with the spear's, it will seem
to fly of its own accord and will strike true. You don't have to make
anything happen. Just still the voice of your mind.'

Eneit grinned at her. 'Just?' He was Lanis' only son. He had lived
all his life watching his mother work to still the voice of her mind.

Breaca clasped him lightly on the shoulder. 'It takes practice and
we have plenty of time. If it doesn't happen today, there is always
tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow. Don't try to do anything,
don't try to get it right, just open to the song of the spear.'

On Mona, as Warrior, she had taught hundreds their spear-trials.
Each had come fit and well-trained and had singlehandedly
hunted and slain boar or deer with a spear before ever they came
to her. Each had believed the spear-trial the easiest of the warrior's
tests and each had learned, slowly, over months, that it was the
hardest.

Eneit had never made a kill in the hunt, nor wanted to. He had
never held a spear, but he had a quiet mind and understood the
many pathways of distraction. Breaca did not walk far into
the forest with Cunomar and never out of sight. As the sun rose
slowly and the shadow of the target sack became shorter, she
watched the stillness settle on the older boy's face and the half
smile linger on his lips. He did not tense, or test the wind or plan
the arc of the throw, but simply watched the swaying mass and
listened for the song of the spear.

Breaca watched with admiration and faint regret; if she had been
given a hundred like him on Mona, the war against Rome might
already be won.

When his face was most still and his left arm most relaxed, she
positioned herself a spear's length behind him and said, softly,
'Throw!'

The spear arced in the windless air, a foot high and a foot to the
left. It passed the sack by an arm's length and skidded on the grass
of the forest floor. Eneit's face lost the peace of lightly focused
rapture. 'I missed.'

Breaca said, 'Eneit, that was the best first throw I have ever seen
and I taught the warriors for ten years on Mona. Anyone can
throw at twenty paces with accuracy. Not everyone can hold themselves
still for a thousand heartbeats before they do it, nor let the
song of the spear free with such grace. It was beautiful, truly. If we
practise like this every day for a month, you will be able to hold
still for a morning and cast at forty paces.'

Eneit's brown eyes grew wide as pebbles. 'Do I have to do that
in the spear-trial?'

'If we follow the rites of the ancestors exactly, the cast is at fifty
paces and there are crow feathers hanging from the neck of the
spear to catch the air and twist the path of its flight. The elders are
unlikely to make you wait for a morning but in the world of battle,
the Romans might easily do so.'

Breaca spoke for Cunomar as much as for Eneit. Her son had
watched the trial with a growing sense of disquiet, as if it were
both meaningless and unnecessarily difficult. A winter in Eneit's
company may have mellowed his temper, but his patience wore
thin as quickly as ever, and he still lived and breathed for the right
to sit his long-nights and the spear-trials that were part of the
ceremony.

She said, 'If you were waiting in ambush and the enemy were
delayed in coming, you must keep your mind clear and ready,
through rain and insects, gales and the close or distant deaths of
your shield mates until they reach you. This is why the tests are set
as they are; we wouldn't ask of you anything that would not be
asked in battle.'

'Father won the spear-trials of three different tribes. Did he have
to wait half a morning for each?'

Cunomar had retrieved the thrown spear and brought it back.
He stood close by, turning it over in his hands, seeking the soul that
Eneit had so readily found.

Breaca said, 'In the spear-trials, as in battle, each time you throw
is the first time and the last. Your father was different because he
requested the right to sit the tests with three tribes. Most of us are
happy to pass them once.'

'But in the winter tales, Dubornos says that you were never
called on to sit the spear-trials. Is that true?'

'It is. I had already killed, as had Cygfa; the warrior-trials were
not required of us.'

She knew the mistake as the words passed her lips and regretted
it. Cunomar's pride, always a fragile thing, cracked on the rock of
his half-sister's fame.

His lips set in a thin hard line that had nothing of his father
about it. 'I have killed,' he said. 'Ardacos keeps the tally so that I
may wear the kill-feathers one day, when such a thing is no longer
"illegal".' He spat the word, as an insult to all who had allowed
Rome to set and keep the laws.

He was her son; if he was arrogant, or ignorant, she had helped
to make him so. Knowing it, Breaca said, 'You have not killed with
a spear. The ancestors' rites do not allow kills with a knife or a
sword-blade to exempt the child-become-adult from the warrior's
trials.'

As did all of the she-bears, Cunomar hunted with his knife; it
was part of their courage, to reach close enough to the enemy to
kill with a short blade. It was also the reason the boy had survived
this long; in the heat of battle, he was always shielded, left and
right, by others sworn to the bear and those he killed were distracted.
To fight with a spear, one against one, would have killed
him. No mother could say that, only let the silence read it and wait.

Cunomar did not listen to silence. He said, 'So, then, let us see if
the ancestors find me as acceptable as Eneit.' He picked up the second
spear, made for his height and his arm. The haft was of dark
yew and the butt-weight of burred hazel. The marks of the she-bear
ran the length of the blade. Very carefully, staring straight through
his mother, he paced an additional ten paces back from Eneit's
stance.

'I have killed boar with a spear before,' he said, 'Ardacos taught
me. It wouldn't be fair to Eneit if I threw from as close as he did.'

'Cunomar, it's not about--' Eneit stopped. He had lived through
the winter as the foil for his friend's anger; he knew as well as
anyone the futility of reason when pride was in the way. He pursed
his lips and shrugged and said, 'Think of the wild geese we watched
yesterday and the way they flew. It helped me to quiet the voice in
my head and hear the soul-song of the spear.'

He was wise beyond his years and cared deeply for Cunomar.
Once, a long time ago, in another context, the elder grandmother
had said, 'It is the care of others that makes a man.' If anyone
could achieve that, Eneit could. Breaca prayed for them both.

Cunomar had already set his feet for the throw and found the
balance point of the spear. Every bone-hard angle of his body said
that he wanted no help from his mother. Nodding for Eneit to
follow her, Breaca backed out of the clearing, leaving her son
to seek the quiet at the centre of his soul.

He was no less rigid a thousand heartbeats later when she
returned. His face was set hard, the lines of his nostrils white with
tension. His eyes were narrowed as if the sun pierced the mind
behind them. When Eneit trod on a dried leaf, crinkling it underfoot,
Cunomar twitched as if stung by a wasp.

There was no point in waiting further. As she had for Eneit,
Breaca stood a spear's length behind and said, 'Throw,' and knew
before she spoke that it was too soon, or too late, or that the time
would never have been right.

Cunomar threw as if his life depended on it. The spear hurtled
forward, in a long, flat line, screaming a little in the wind of its
own flight, as a sword may, if swung fast. The tip tilted slightly up
so that from the first it was clear that it was not going to hit the
straw, but it flew straight and hard and glanced off the rawhide
rope by which the straw sack was suspended, so that the target
spun dizzily on its own axis.

'Yes!' Jubilant, Cunomar punched the air. 'I aimed for the rope,
truly I did, mother. The sack was too easy, but the rope was a
warrior's--'

He stopped. Breaca was the smith and she could hear the death
song of her spears as they died; long before her son had turned, her
face was schooled into something close to approval and warmth.

Eneit was less practised in hiding the river that ran beneath the
surface of his being. Looking at him, Breaca's son met a barely
suppressed horror where there should have been congratulation
and joy, and his own face fell.

'Eneit, it's all right. I've practised with the spear for years. I can
teach you as well as mother can. If we try every day for a month
we'll teach you how.'
Numbly, Eneit said, 'It's broken.'

'Is it? That's good. I thought it only touched as it flew past. But
we can get more rope. We'll need another anyway if we're both
going to try. Pick up your spear and we'll both try again.'

'No. Cunomar. You can't try again. Your spear is broken.'

Eneit was the son of a dreamer. He had been raised in a land in
which dreaming was forbidden on pain of crucifixion, but still he
knew the pathways of the dream and the inner core of the
ancestors' teachings in ways most youths of his age did not. 'The
spear is your soul,' he said gently. 'We need to take the pieces and
heal them, else your own heart will break.'

A year - half a year - before, faced with this, Cunomar would
have turned his own pain into anger, guilt into recrimination, disappointment
and damaged pride into the acid, biting sarcasm that
drove others from his company.

Breaca watched the first waves of that rise in him; he stared past
Eneit to his mother and the blame was hard in his eyes, all of it
hers. 'Cunomar--'

There was no need to say anything more. Of his own accord, her
son had lowered his gaze. He stared a while at the forest floor,
frowning. When he looked up, for the first time the man who
might one day hear the soul-song of his spear shone clearly through
the child who never could. He lifted the two parts of the broken
blade and held them out. 'Can it be mended?' he asked.

Thank you! Breaca said it silently to the soul of her son, to the
listening mind of the ancestor-dreamer, to Nemain, to Briga, to
whomsoever watched and listened and understood the magnitude
of what had happened.

Aloud she said, 'Of course. It may take me two days, but I can
remake the blade. I'll make it stronger next time, so that it
can break open a rock.'

He nodded, still unsure of his ground. Where Graine or Cygfa
might have lost themselves in the broken blade and its meaning,
Cunomar's attention had already passed on to the promised goal.

'What will we do while we wait?' he asked. 'If we're to sit our
long-nights by midsummer, we can't waste the time now.'

He was her son. What she had made, she could not change, only
help him to build on the foundations he was given.

Nodding, Breaca said, 'You are of the she-bear. You could teach
Eneit the ways of tracking. And you could continue to practise
with the wooden blades. Keep in the forest and be sure you're not
watched. Lanis will have your hides if she finds you and she is a
better tracker than most Romans. If you can keep clear of her,
you'll be safe.'

The crack of striking blades splintered back and forth across the
clearing, rousing the roosting ravens. The power of the impact
shivered up Cunomar's arm, numbing it. He dropped his guard,
dragging a breath pointedly through his teeth.

'Eneit, wake up. You need to raise your blade higher and hold it
directly across the line of the cut. If I had a real blade, you'd be
dead.'

'Not if I had a real one too.' Eneit grinned blithely. 'Then I'd
have blocked you - here - and you'd have been off-balance and
I'd have come in like this--' He thrust forward and flicked the tip
of his blade deftly upward under the rib cage. Cunomar doubled
over, choking.

Eneit stepped back out of range, his brown eyes alight. 'See?
That's a kill.'

He stood with his hands on his hips, grinning. Two days had
passed since the ill-fated spear-cast and they were young. If the
shadows of fate worried Eneit, he kept it well hidden. In the heart
of the forest, facing his friend, he balanced evenly on his feet, his
eyes bright with the promise of victory.

Cunomar drew his first full breath since the strike. On the
second, he stood up and let his hands fall from his belly.

Eneit blazed a smile. 'Good. I thought you really were dead
there. Come on. We've hardly started. That's one kill each and
mine was a real one; yours was only pretend. I challenge you to the
best of five strikes - real fighting this time, not half-baked training.'
He raised his wooden blade in salute.

It was a good offer. Three days ago, Cunomar might have
accepted but the first lessons of the spear-cast were growing within
him, showing that place within himself where rash foolishness took
the place of true courage. It was a fine line, and not always certain,
but he felt it now. He shook his head. 'No, we should stop. It's past
dawn; someone will hear us.'

'You mean, my mother will hear us and you're afraid of her.'

'Eneit, any sane man would be afraid of your mother. Ardacos is
afraid of your mother and he faced down a she-bear defending her
cubs. You and I are not yet bear-dancers and even when we are, I
think we will tread carefully in the presence of the raven-dreamer
who gave you birth.'

Cunomar stooped and slid his wooden sword into an oiled cloth
roll at the side of the clearing. He had spent half the winter carving
it and was proud of the result. For length and balance, it mirrored
his mother's serpent-blade but for the blank space at the hilt which
would be filled when he had sat his long-nights and found his
dream. Eneit's blade, which had been made first, as a gift, was
slimmer and had a crack already along one edge of the blade. It,
too, awaited a mark on the pommel.

Eneit was not ready for the morning to end. 'Did you ever hear
of Sinochos, the warrior who was Dubornos' father?' he asked.
'How could I not? He fought with mother at the invasion battle,
and then won honour a second time at the battle of the Salmon
Trap when the Eceni defeated a whole century of Romans and two
wings of their Gaulish cavalry. I could sing the songs of his battles
in my sleep. I probably do.'

'Not that I'd noticed.' Eneit found a green twig and chewed on
it, cleaning his teeth with the frayed ends. 'Did you hear how he
died?'

'Sinochos? I didn't know he was dead.' The wrapped blades lay
snug in a pit at the side of the clearing. Cunomar crouched and
began to back-fill the hole with the sand that made the forest floor
and the black, friable loam that topped it.

Eneit chose his words with care. 'It was after the battle of the
Salmon Trap. Sinochos and his honour guard came home and
found that the Romans were breaking everyone's swords to stop
them from being warriors. Sinochos saw the beginnings of slavery
and swore not to live under it. He took his three best warriors with
him and hid the blades that had been in their families for seven
generations. Then he went back to the village and fought the
Romans with his bare hands. He killed three before they hanged
him.'

Cunomar rocked back on his heels, staring. 'Sinochos hid the
blade of his ancestors before the Romans could break it?' he asked.

'Yes.'

'And you are telling me that you know where it is?'

'Yes.'

There was a pause. Cunomar felt the colour wash up from his
throat. Ardacos always said he showed passion too readily to the
world. In Eneit's presence, he did not care. Eneit was the one
person in the world who knew all of his heart and his longings;
which was, of course, why he had said what he had said.

More than anything else, more than passing the spear-test, or
learning to lie immobile for a morning's ambush, Cunomar dreamed
of wielding the sword of his ancestors in battle - and could not,
because the ghost of his grandfather had made himself visible in the
grave mound where the blades were hidden and had forbidden it.

Hanging between them were the words that did not need to be
spoken. I offer you a blade with a history that has not been cursed
by the ghost of your grandfather. 'With that as your prize, you
could sit your long-nights when the dreamers give the word and
come home a true warrior.

The birds roused for a second time as Cunomar whooped and
threw a handful of damp loam at his friend. 'Eneit nic Lanis, you
call yourself my friend and yet you have waited seven months to
tell me this? Are you so tired of life?'

'No.' Eneit's slow, wide smile spread across his face. 'But I didn't
find out how much it mattered to you until the snow was too deep
for us to go looking for them. I promise you, this is one place
where we don't want anyone to follow our tracks.'

He was grave and there was an unaccustomed wariness in his
eyes. Seeing it, Cunomar said, 'Are the swords in a grave mound of
the ancestors? Made of stone, with grass over, so that it looks like
a long hill?'

Eneit's grin died. 'How do you know that?'

'I've been in one like it.' With his foot Cunomar swept dried
leaves and some muddied ones over the place where the wooden
blades were concealed. Cygfa or Dubornos could probably find
them, Ardacos or the Boudica certainly, but no Roman would
know where to look. He squinted at the sun, weighing fear against
passion, and finding the balance wholly uneven. Ardacos had
always said that the mark of a true she-bear was the ability to seize the gift of the gods as it was given, not mourn its passing afterwards
when it had been missed.

Slowly, feeling the moment grow within him, he said, 'The
snow's gone; no-one will track us now that way. We'll go as she
bears and if we meet anyone else on the way, we'll stop and come
back. We must treat this as war. If the Romans find us with
weapons, 'Tagos won't be able to stop them from hanging us.'

'I know.' Eneit laughed. 'And if my mother finds us first, they'll
be lucky to have anything to hang.' He spat on his palm and held
it out. 'We'll go as she-bears and that way no-one but Ardacos, and
maybe Cygfa, could find us. I know the way so I'll have to lead.
You follow my tracks. Close your eyes and sing the lay of the fallen
warrior. When it's done, I'll be gone. I bet you a new sword belt
that you can't touch me before we reach the grave mound.'

Eneit had learned well. He left no trail that an untrained eye could
have followed and the one he did leave was so faint that Cunomar
was grateful for the intermittent markers, the newly broken twigs
and scuffles of stones and, once, a dead branch planted in the
earth, that had been deliberately placed to point the way.

Hunter and hunted left the forest and moved out across the open
fen. Eneit knew this land from birth. He was at home in the flatness,
where only the early flowering gorse broke the straight line of
the horizon, and solid ground gave way to marsh with no warning
so that a man could drown if not wary.

Cunomar lay flat behind a clump of reeds on the edge of still
water and watched for signs of movement. A stone's throw away,
a band of mares nursed their foals, grazing. A skein of ducks made
an arrowhead against the almost-white sky. A hawk skimmed low
over the marsh and twisted sideways for a kill. Feathers plumed
upwards, where it had been and it rose a while later carrying a
pigeon.

If he had not been watching that, Cunomar would not have seen
the smooth, rolling movement that was a body sliding over flat
ground and into a dip. The land was not, apparently, as flat as he
had thought. With a small flame of satisfaction leaping in his chest,
he studied the ways he might approach the dip without attracting
attention - and could see none. Ardacos' teaching for these
circumstances was clear; when there is no way to move without
being seen, everything must move to cover the one thing that
matters.

Cunomar carried a handful of pebbles in a pouch at his belt for
exactly this reason. Squirming down behind the clump of grass to
gain room, he drew his arm back and flung a round river stone in
a high arc, aiming for a bay roan mare whose foal was the newest
and most vulnerable of the band grazing nearby. He counted to five
before the stone landed, hitting her squarely on the flank, and
another two before all eight mares were at a full gallop, spread out
across the fen with their foals at their sides. The drumming of
hooves roused roosting birds from the sedge and sent them
spiralling for the sky.

The movement had come from his right. He ran left, therefore,
and doubled back on himself like a hare, diving into the
shallow dip in the ground in which Eneit lay, looking out towards
the horses. He landed just short of it, but struck with his fist
as if armed, and on the aching end of a breath shouted, 'I have
you!'

The strike that caught him came from behind. A stick hammered
hard and squarely under the ribs, bruising his kidneys and knocking
the wind from him for the second time in one morning. His
vision blurred, shading to deepest red with orange flares at the
centre. For a moment, he thought he might be sick. Floating over his head, he heard a joyous, joyful voice say, 'I don't think so, bear
man. I have you.'

He rolled over, choking. Eneit, naked and grinning, stood near
his ankles, a length of knotted gorse root in his hand. Eneit's tunic,
stuffed with pulled reeds, lay in front of him, a clod of overturned
mud near the neck for a head, the roots artistically tangled to
simulate Eneit's hair.

'I'm distraught,' said his friend solemnly. 'I had no idea you
thought my hair looked like a handful of marsh grass.'

The words spread out in the air and their meaning drifted down
piecemeal to Cunomar who, frowning, fitted them back together.
Slowly, still gasping for breath, he began to laugh. It was a long
time since he had laughed and meant it. A tight, unpractised bark
of amusement grew, achingly, to something uncontrolled that hurt
with each breath, that rolled out across the fen, louder than the
steadying horses, lower-pitched than the fluting cries of the birds,
and left him, in the end, lying flat on his back, helpless as a kitten,
giggling weakly while Eneit looked on, feigning quizzical
bemusement.

The sky was no longer the pale grey it had been, but showed the
first shimmer of blue. The circling birds had begun to settle, but for
a duet of jackdaws that flew over, cawing. The turf beneath
Cunomar's back was warm and springy and ripe with the scents of
sand and sedge and standing water. His chest ached and his kidneys
were bruised but there was a warmth spreading out in his belly that
he had not felt since early childhood and possibly not even then. It
dawned on him slowly that, for the first time he could remember,
he was genuinely happy. It was a sensation to savour, not to
destroy. Quite consciously, he chose not to examine the causes of
it.

The world grew calmer and more mellow. Taking a deep breath,
Cunomar levered himself up onto one elbow. Eneit, dressed again,
sat on the top of the bank, an elbow propped on one knee. He had
stopped grinning some time ago and simply watched. His wide,
open face was intelligent in ways he often took pains to conceal.
Cunomar sat up. 'Thank you,' he said.

Eneit shrugged. 'You don't have to say that. I couldn't have done
it if you hadn't taught me.'

'I didn't teach you to make me laugh.'

'No. But then I didn't make you laugh. You did that all by yourself.'
The youth drew a stalk of old grass, examined the end and
then chewed on it, neatly stripping the core of fresh green and leaving
a hollow husk. 'It was good to see, though. It's been a long time
coming.'

'Yes.'

They were an arm's reach apart, and a little more. Neither
moved to bridge the gap. They sat in a silence that had more
weight to it than before while the morning settled and tranquillity
spread over the broad fen. A spear's throw away, the mares
dropped their heads and their foals nursed, then drifted away to
play with their peers. When he had watched them for too long and
his mind would not settle, Cunomar looked up and found that the
air above him had cleared until all he could see was a hawk making
lazy circles in the blue.

Needing to talk and not knowing what to say, he asked, 'Would
you want that as your dream if it came to you in your long-nights?'

'What?' Eneit's voice was distant, as if returning from far away.

'The hawk. Would you want it as your dream on your long
nights?'

'Why? So I can carve it on the pommel of a cracked wooden
sword?'

Eneit was not grinning. His eyes were lazily lidded and, for once,
impossible to read. When Cunomar did not respond, he rolled over
and propped himself up on his elbows.

Not once through the whole winter had he questioned
Cunomar's obsession with the warrior's rites and the passage to
adulthood. Now, he said quietly, 'Your mother has taught me
to hear the soul-song of a spear and you have taught me to wield
a blade like a man and I have found a new life through both of
these. If the time comes - when it comes - I will kill as many
Romans as I can before they kill me, knowing that, in the end, they will kill me because however much I still the voice in my head,
however hard I train with my wooden blade in the forest before
dawn, I will never become as practised in true battle as they. Why,
then, do I need a dream, Cunomar mac Caradoc, son of the
Boudica? Will it bring me closer to what I want?'

The weave of the morning changed, became too raw, too serious
where before had been geniality and simple friendship. In
Cunomar's world of black and white certainties, too many things
were newly uncertain. He stared at his hands and the hawk and
back again, not at Eneit. An image of a broken spear-blade fixed in
his mind and Eneit's voice telling him that his heart would break if
the weapon were not mended. He wanted to say that his mother
could mend anything but the words would not come.

Presently, when the press of the silence grew too great and he
needed to hear the sound of his own voice, he asked, 'Why are we
going to the mound of the ancestors if not to help find your dream?'

Eneit breathed out slowly and audibly through his nose. After a
space, he said, 'To find yours, of course. Or, at the least, to find
Sinochos' sword for you so that when the dreamers name your
time and you spend three nights alone and come back to take
your spear-trials, your mother has a blade to give you when you
pass them.'

His voice lost its harshness and discovered instead the god
moved lilt that he got from his mother, the dreamer. More gently,
he said, 'You forget, I haven't lived on Mona. I've never seen someone
come home with the rising sun at their backs and the new
dream alive in their eyes. I have never seen a warrior school, or stood on the heights above a battle and witnessed acts of heroism
that will last in the songs a thousand years. I live in a different
world and the things I want are different. We all dream. You and I
just have to know that where our dreams take us is not the same.
Come on . . .' He pushed himself upright and kicked Cunomar
accurately on the sole of one foot. 'Get up. You owe me a sword
belt. The mound's in the next dip. If you're fit to walk, we'll find
you a blade with a history to be proud of and see if it pushes the
dreamers into naming a date for your long-nights.'

The ancestors' grave was half the size of the one in which the
Boudica and her warriors had hidden their weapons. It was
roundly flat, half submerged in the sand, and grass had gained hold
in the cracks between the rocks so that even from close by, it was
hard to pick it out from the surrounding turf. The entrance was a
once-square hole low down one side, rounded at the corners and
rubbed almost circular by weather and the passage of many people.

There was no question now of simply looking and leaving. Eneit
led the way and Cunomar followed. The opening did not lead
directly to a passage as the one in the other mound had done, but
rather opened over emptiness so that anyone seeking entrance had
to lower himself down and then, trusting, let go and fall the last
distance to the ground below.

The drop was not as far as Cunomar had feared it might be, less
than a spear's length from his dangling legs to the floor. He landed
unsteadily on stone in the half-dark and the cold, in a place where
shadows made the space seem larger and the draught of their landing
raised for a while the old dust of the ancient dead.

The dead here were no more welcoming than they had been
before. Cunomar felt the ghosts' impatience as a fluttering in his
abdomen. Belatedly, he remembered Eneit's fear. Lanis' son stood
directly under the gap in the roof, wide-eyed and with an unsteady
tilt to his smile.

'Have you been here before?' Cunomar asked.

'No.' Eneit moved a step away from the light, waving an arm out
in front of himself to feel for the walls. 'Until you came there was
no reason to look for a blade. I wouldn't have known how to pick
it up, never mind use it.' He took another two steps and stopped,
barely visible in the dark. 'There's a wall here.' Then, after a pause,
'And the roof comes down low.'

'If there is a blade, it will be hidden off the floor, in cracks where
the stone makes a lip, so anyone bringing in torches won't see it.'

Cunomar spoke into silence. He could have been alone. After a
while, Eneit, strained, said, 'How do you know that?'

'My mother and the warriors hid their blades in a mound like
this. I went with them, to watch.'

'Did you feel as if they hated you?'

'Yes. But they loved my sister.'

Cunomar found himself wishing for Graine's company. She was
at home in the grey places between the worlds in ways he himself
was not. His outstretched fingers brushed against stone.

'There's a wall here too. You go right, I'll go left, we'll meet in
the middle and cross over, that way we'll have each felt all of the
wall. Feel in front of you at shoulder height for cracks that stretch
sideways and are long enough to take a blade.'

Following his own advice, he stepped sideways, slowly, sweeping
his fingertips across the stone in front of him. The clamour in his
abdomen became a grinding ache. The skin of his neck and arms
prickled. Greasy sweat gathered along his brow and slid down to
his cheeks. He took a third step and felt something substantial
flutter past.

A wounded man groaned the name of Briga. Cunomar said, 'Your
mother should come here. The shades of the battle-dead have not all
left for the other world. Lanis is of Briga. She has the raven as her
mark. She could help them find their way across the river.' His voice
bounced off the walls and came back to him, hoarsely rasping.

Eneit's sounded no better. 'She comes here often. She came
before the gathering when she spoke against your mother, and
came out knowing how to speak so that the gathering would vote
for the Boudica to stay.'

'She has a courage beyond any warrior's.'

'I know. All the dreamers do. Has it really taken you this long to
discover that?'

They spoke to keep the silence at bay, all the while shuffling sideways, feeling the walls. Space and time stretched, immeasurably.
From the far side of the blackness came a bump and a brief, bitten
curse, called back at once.

Thickly, Eneit said, 'Cunomar, I think we should leave.' He
sounded close to weeping, which was unheard of. Even in the face
of his mother's temper, Eneit never wept.

Cunomar said, 'Stay where you are. I'll come round to you.'

He stopped looking for the cracks in the stones and concentrated
simply on stepping sideways, one pace at a time. In the beginning,
he swept his hand ahead of him, but a second flittering shadow
brushing his fingertips made him draw his arm back and hold it
tight to his side. The space of the mound was less than the span of
Airmid's hut on Mona and had seen, he thought, fewer dangers. He
had heard the story of Lythas, the traitor of the Brigantes who had
tried to lure the Boudica to Cartimandua's encampment, and of
what had been done to him by the dreamers. The horror had been
exaggerated, certainly, but Cunomar had never felt the same about
Airmid's stone hut after he had heard it.

In this smaller, older, less congenial place, each step forward
required the whole of his will and each brought him closer to the
brink of panic. Through all Ardacos' lessons of stalking, even on
the journey east when they had been within a stone's throw of the
legionaries, his heart had never raced as fast as it did now, nor beat
as hard. His body shook with the hammering in his chest and sweat
washed his face, running in tracks to his shoulders. He felt as if he
were walking through water along the bottom of a lake and that
great fish swam near, hunting him, or that he squirmed on his belly
in fog and darkness and snakes swarmed over his naked skin. He
felt thumbs press on the globes of his eyes, crushing them, and
beasts with the hands of men and the jaws of bears cracked his
long bones and ate the marrow and his feet were rooted to the
floor preventing any escape.

'Cunomar?' A toneless whisper.

'Yes?'

'Where are you?'

'Here.'

'You're going the wrong way.'

'No. I'm coming left.'
'Then you've stopped. You should have reached me by now. It's
not a big place.'

Darkness swallowed him. The fish and the snakes and the bears
sucked at his soul. In blind panic Cunomar stared into the dark
and, for the first time in his life, prayed to Nemain for help and
deliverance. Unexpectedly, astoundingly, magnificently, Graine
gazed back at him from the echoing blackness. Her wide, solemn
eyes scanned his face, seeking an explanation, and found it. Smiling
her shy smile, she said, Get away from the wall. Seek the light. You
are of Belin, who is the sun. He will care for you.

Cunomar took half a step back. Light drew him like a beacon.
Reluctantly, the horrors loosed their hold. 'Eneit--'

'What?'

'Step back. Don't touch the wall. Come back to me and the
light.'

They met in the centre, speechless. Eneit's skin was a sickly grey
and his breathing ragged, as if he had run too far, too fast.
Cunomar looked at his own hand and saw it shake worse than
Claudius' had done, who had palsy and could never control it. He
looked up at the gap in the ceiling a spear's length over his head
and knew that if he panicked now, he would never get out. Bracing
his feet wide, he looped his fingers together.

'Step on my hands as if you were mounting a horse,' he said.
'You'll be able to reach the edges of the rock and pull yourself up.'

'What will you do?'

'I'm taller. I'll jump.'

He had tried to make his voice sound as his mother's did before
battle. If he did not exactly succeed, still Eneit did as he was asked
without stopping to question it. The older youth's feet slithered up
through the hole into the light. After the briefest pause, his head
reappeared at the gap. 'I'm safe. Are you sure you can jump that
far?'

'No, but I can try. If I fail, you can go back home and get a rope.'

'And leave you alone in there? Do you want to go mad or are
you already there?'

'Neither. That's why I'm not going to fail.' Cunomar heard the
shadow of his father in his own voice and the small part of him
that was not terrified knew a brief moment of ecstasy.

With a prayer to Belin as his sister had ordered him, Cunomar,
son of two warriors, jumped and felt his fingers grip on rounded
rock and Eneit's fingers close on his wrist. The wriggle to the
surface cost him skin on his shins and thighs but he had never
before been so glad to see the light.

Afterwards, lying in the sun on firm grass, free of nightmares,
Cunomar looked for the hawk and could not see it. Thoughtfully,
he said, 'I am beginning to understand why we need to hear the
soul-song of the spear. It was the sound of my own voice that was
driving me mad. If I could have stayed there in silence, I would
have been safe.'

'Safer maybe. That's what the dreamers know and we must
learn. We have time. The elders won't call our long-nights until
midsummer.'

'If they call them at all.'

There was no hurry to return to the steading. They lay still, each
lost in his own recovery. In a while, Eneit said, 'I think we went in
with the wrong intent and they sensed it. I wasn't honest, I'm sorry.
I was trying to find you a gift you would value.'

'I know that.'

'I wanted you to think well of me.'

Cunomar rolled over. 'I think well of you, Eneit.'

'But you know me a coward. I fled from the grave mound before
you got your blade.'

'No. I know you to be honest and steady and sure and possessed
of extraordinary courage. You knew what it would be like and you
still went in. I wouldn't go in there again if it were the only place
in the world where I might find myself a blade. You have the
courage of a dreamer. I couldn't begin to match it.'

Cunomar braced his chin on one palm, raising his head so that
he could look Eneit clearly in the eye. He felt a safety and a
certainty of himself and of the world that was new to him, and
welcome beyond all expressing. Questions had been asked that
probed the core of who he was and he found himself happy with
the answers. Between himself and Eneit, everything and nothing
had changed and they could still be friends. In absolute honesty, he
said, 'If we were in battle, there is no-one I would want more at my
shield side. Before Cygfa or Braint or Ardacos, even before
my mother, I would want you. In Belin's name, I swear this
is true.'

It was the best he could give, the best he had ever given. It was,
it seemed, more than had been expected. They were an arm's reach
apart. Cunomar reached out and offered his hand in the warrior's
clasp. Eneit took it; his hand was slimy with old sweat but steady.
They held tight a long time. Eneit loosed first. His smile was widely
lazy, if a little crooked. 'Thank you.'

'You don't have to say that.'

'No. But I mean it.' He rolled to his feet and stretched, clicking
the joints in his back. 'I don't think we should tell my mother
where we've been.'

Cunomar rose, grinning. 'Do I look as if I want my skin flayed
from my body? I wouldn't think of it. But I think we should talk
to Graine when we get back.'

There was no time to talk to Graine. They returned to a steading
that buzzed like a swarming hive. Eight Roman cavalrymen stood
beside their horses just inside the gates, staring ahead as if those
around them did not exist. One, less well schooled than his
comrades, turned his head to stare at Cunomar. Distaste and a
pained superiority flashed from man to boy. For the second time in
a day, the Boudica's son felt his heart falter and learned what it was
to cross the boundaries of his own courage.

Ardacos met him as he walked past the last of the sentries. The
warrior bridled in the presence of the enemy and anyone with half
an eye could see that he ached for his sword.

Speaking rapidly, in the dialect of Mona, he said, 'Get yourself
cleaned and be ready to leave for Camulodunum. There's to be a
meeting of the client kings at the colony to bless the new temple,
and 'Tagos has business after with the governor. You are required
to attend him. The governor wishes to meet the "King's" new
family.'

Ardacos spat, which was probably treason. Before the morning,
Cunomar would have crowed at the sight of it. Now, he had other
preoccupations. He said, 'I am not of 'Tagos' family. Why do I have
to go?'

'Because, in the eyes of Rome, you are his son, which is all that
matters. You leave after noon.'

The world beyond Eneit and a dead man's sword came slowly
back into focus. It was not the safe land they had left in the
morning. Cunomar caught Ardacos' arm. 'Wait - mother is going
to Camulodunum? Are you mad? She can't go. She'll be
recognized. What if one of the Romans has served in the west and
fought against her when she led the warriors of Mona?'

'Then we'll have to hope that the circumstances have dulled his
memory. She has no choice. The invitation expressly requests the
presence of the king and his new wife. It may have been written as
a request, but the governor of Britannia is not a man to be denied.
If she refused to go the cavalry would bind her and throw her on
horseback, or try to.'

'But--'

'Airmid says the best way to hide is to be seen most clearly.
That's why your mother sent the gift-knives to the governor when
she did. People see what they think they are seeing and the
governor is no different. We have put out word that she is a metal
smith of the northern Eceni and she carries a gift that will, when
he opens it, take all of his attention.'

'We have to hope so, or we will all die with her.' Cunomar found
himself less afraid of that than he had been. He wanted to share
with Ardacos the finds of the morning but the she-bear warrior
was not in the mood to hear stories of ghosts and weapons.
He was closed in on himself, as if pained. On the sudden
cold gust of intuition, Cunomar said, 'You're coming with us,
surely?'

'No. The invitation was extended to the family only. Neither
your friend nor I can go.' Ardacos' gaze slid sideways to Eneit. 'Your
mother thinks she knows where you've been. I'd have a good story
of hunting an injured deer deep in the forest, if I were you, and
make sure there's no holes in it. You'll have the next ten days to
keep it right without Cunomar to spoil it.'

Cunomar felt a wrench that caught at his breathing. 'Are you
serious? Eneit can't come? Why not? He's my honour guard; I need
him.' He had never said that before, not openly.

Ardacos grimaced. His eyes held pity and sorrow and a depth of
concern that they had never shown on Mona. He forced a smile
that touched neither of them and faded fast. 'I'm sorry, no. 'Tagos
has forbidden Airmid to go on the grounds she might try to curse
the governor. I can't see he'll let a dreamer's son who's just
spent the morning in a grave mound go in her stead.'

Ardacos clapped Eneit on the shoulder. 'Look on the bright side.
If Cunomar and all his family are hanged for treason, you can have
Sinochos' blade all to yourself.'

XII.

FROST SPARKED ON THE LIME-WASHED WALLS AND RED ROOF TILES of the hospital at Camulodunum. Almost alone of the buildings
in the veterans' colony, which had once been the fortress
of the XXth legion, it was unchanged. Theophilus of Athens,
physician and mender of souls, stood with his hand on the latch
and breathed in the cold air. Here, the new day was still; the clouds
of his last exhalation hung around his head. Elsewhere, men,
women and children were stirring, as they did in every city, town
and village throughout the empire; fires were being kindled,
buckets filled, chickens fed, livestock moved to new pastures.

The walls that had once hemmed the fortress had been gone for
a decade. Without them, Theophilus could see the full sweep of the
horizon and the thin blue threads of rising smoke that marked
the waking of a thousand homes. As he did every morning, he
offered a prayer to the vast, impersonal universe, that the day
should not see too many of their occupants brought to him sick or
injured. He did not do so for himself; his life was medicine and he
enjoyed the challenge, but he had never been one to ignore the
human cost of those things that gave his life meaning.

The air was like good wine, heady and refreshing at once. He
breathed in one final time then pushed open the door and entered
the warmer, moribund air of the hospital.

The ward reserved for Roman citizens was larger than the ward
for the tribes and less crowded. Working through his two
apprentices, Theophilus discharged two victims of food poisoning,
a half-Parthian, half-Gaulish wine trader with a monstrous hangover
who had claimed, endlessly and at length, that his
great-grandfather had served in the cavalry under Tiberius in the
Pannonian war and been awarded hereditary citizenship and thus
the wine trader should be admitted to the citizens' hospital. The
man was lying, but had won on the grounds that it was the best
way to shut him up. He left in poor humour, cursing physicians
throughout the empire as witless, unprincipled scum.

Lastly, the apprentices discharged Publius Servillius, an ex
legionary of the IX th who had been gored in the thigh by a bull
two days previously. The wound had bled a great deal at the time
of the injury but, in doing so, had cleansed itself and was draining
well without undue infection.

Theophilus gave instructions for the man's care and orders that
he return daily for his dressings to be changed and left the ward
before his clerk had finished the delicate negotiations concerning
payment for Servillius' treatment. The cost would be substantial,
certainly. Theophilus' rapid and effective binding of the wound had
saved the man's life and they both knew it. As importantly, the man
had sired several children on native girls who, until now, had been
unable to pay for their care when they came to childbirth too thin
and too young.

Theophilus' clerk was a young man of the Trinovantes with a
head for numbers that surprised the physician and astonished his
own kin. His ability to deal civilly with the men who routinely
raped his mother, aunts and sisters was less good, but he was learning,
slowly, that there was other and safer retribution than
ramming an eating knife in the guts of those responsible and that,
in Theophilus, he had the ideal means to achieve it.

The physician, in leaving, heard mention of the sum of one thousand
sesterces, more than a legionary's pay for the year. He heard,
also, the beginnings of Servillius' attempt to browbeat the clerk
into a reduction. He signalled to the closer of his apprentices, a
rotund, red-haired youth who could grind a goose-grease ointment
to perfection but had yet to learn the causes for which one might
use it.

'Remind young Gaius that he may have forgotten to add the cost
of bandaging to the bill and perhaps he might like to recalculate the
sum. I would suggest an additional three hundred sesterces might
be appropriate. Remind him also that if he forgets to book veteran
Servillius in for the changes to his dressings, our patient may yet
lose his leg to gangrene, possibly even his life, and that would be a
grave misfortune to fall on the head of a clerk.'

The physician smiled coolly, as befitted a man of learning. The
rotund apprentice, less restrained, allowed himself a momentary
grin of undiluted wickedness, cleared it and crossed the room to
deliver his message with a commendably straight face. A moment
later, Theophilus heard the man whose life and limb depended on
the physician's continued good favour agree a schedule of payment
that would ensure the health and long life of this year's crop of
infants and their mothers and pay for the physician's lodgings and
those of his staff for the remainder of the year. It was a better start
to the morning than he had imagined.

The non-citizens' ward was small and lacked windows. It was
not yet obscenely overcrowded but then the quarries had not yet
opened and building work on the temple to which they supplied
their flint and sand had not yet begun for the day; the minor
abrasions and broken fingers and greater, life-wrecking calamities
had therefore not yet started to flow in. With luck, they might not
do. The numbers injured had been fewer since spring when work
on the roof itself had begun, having reached a peak in midwinter
when the oaf of an Alexandrian overseer had considered it constructive
to take men with no experience of stonework and set
them to building the columns that would support the roof.

The crush injuries - those sustained by falling masonry, or by
men falling onto masonry - had begun as the columns reached
half-height and increased as they neared completion. When
Theophilus had sent a complaint to the governor, he had been
reminded that he had complained in the spring that able-bodied
men had been taken away from the sowing, and in the autumn that
they had been taken away from the harvest, and that if he were
going to complain in winter also, then when, exactly, did he think
the temple to the God Claudius might be built?

Over dinner at his villa three days later, in more congenial
circumstances, Theophilus had been informed that the emperor
required that the temple be built in time for the twentieth
anniversary of the invasion and that if Theophilus wanted to make
a direct representation to Nero himself explaining why it was
madness to build of stone in a place where no stone had ever been
used; and where skilled labourers brought in from the continent
died of cold or disease or simply took the next ship home to wine
and warmth; and where the natives were penniless and were yet
expected to pay for the construction of a temple to honour the man
who had defeated them, he was more than welcome but he might
like to write his will first.

Theophilus, not being noticeably tired of life, did not make any
such representation to the emperor. Instead, when spring opened
the shipping lanes, he sent to Athens for texts on building and read
them at night and in the spare hours of the day that he might make
suggestions to improve safety on the construction site. It was not
required of him as a physician, but he had long ago been taught
that an injury averted was a life preserved and he considered it his
moral duty to do his best for his patients.

In the smaller, more crowded ward he found evidence of three
patients for whom he had done his best and failed. Two had died
in the night and one, a child of eight with coughing sickness, would
be dead by noon. For the protection of the others, it would have
been good to transfer the child to a separate room, but none was
available. Theophilus had him moved to the far end of the ward,
to the bed of one of the two women who had died before him, and
turned his attention to the combination of injury, malnutrition
and disease that afflicted the rest of his charges.

As had always been the case, a suite of small private rooms
facing into the inner courtyard was reserved for officers and their
families. Few of them appreciated being woken in the early morning
and so, saving emergencies, these rooms were routinely left
until last. Washed and dressed in a fresh, clean tunic, the physician
moved along in reverse order, starting at the southern end
and moving north up the corridor, saving the best for last.

The frost had melted by the time he reached the door at the
north end of the corridor; a film of drying moisture shined the tiles
on the roof. The door to the room had been repainted many times
since the days when four legions and their auxiliary cavalry had all
made this place their home. On each occasion, in an act of uncharacteristic
superstition, he had asked that the eye of Horus be
repainted in blue on the lime-washed white. In his mind, it had
always been Corvus' room and was so still. Of all the army's
officers Theophilus had met, some of whom he had liked, the dark,
scarred cavalry prefect was the one who seemed to him least
Roman and most Greek; the greatest accolade the physician could
bestow. That the prefect was back in Camulodunum made the days
brighter. That he was injured, and there as a patient, dulled them
only a little.

A brazier burned in the room and someone had thrown cedar
chips on it recently. The smell lightened the corridor as one
approached the room. With something of his earlier cheer, the
physician pushed open the door.

'Good morning.'

The man who had been left under absolute instructions not to
leave his bed stood by the window looking into the inner courtyard.
He stood carefully, bearing the weight of his left leg on a
stick. A linen bandage bound over the left side of his head looked
unnaturally pale against the black hair and olive skin. His smile
was as drily intelligent as it had always been. He turned a little
away from the window as the door closed.

'How is your headache?' Theophilus asked.

'Better than it was.'

'You said that yesterday.' The physician's long fingers probed his
patient's skull. 'But not gone?'

'Not quite. And, before you ask, my leg is healing well. I looked
under the bandage this morning. Your rosewater and honey are
working well. There has been no poison in the wound for three
days now and it hardly throbs at all overnight. I think it may be
time to dispense with the poppy.'

'You mean you have already stopped taking it?'

Corvus, prefect of the cavalry wing, the Ala Quinta Gallorum,
currently assigned to the XXth legion in the west, had the good
grace to look guilty. 'I didn't drink last night's dose.'

Theophilus sighed theatrically. 'Remind me to have Nerus
whipped for failing to see that a patient was treated as prescribed. If you want to be a physician, you should tell me. You can have my job with pleasure and I'll go home to Athens.' The bandage came
away and the head wound was, indeed, clean and healing.
Theophilus considered the air and decided to replace it with one of
lighter linen weave. Moving to the leg bandage he said, 'And how
is your other project?'

They had not spoken of it in over a year. It was a mark of their
mutual respect that, after a moment, Corvus answered, 'Valerius?
I don't know. He was taken to Hibernia after the others returned
to Mona but I have no idea what happened to him afterwards.
Segoventos refuses to talk to me and no-one I have sent has been
able to find him.'

'Hibernia is not a small island.'

'It's big enough for a man who wishes himself dead to achieve it
with nobody any the wiser.'

'Do you think he's dead?'

'No. But I think he is living as if he is. Can we talk of something
else?'

'If you like. Or you can sit down and display your famed
stoicism while I clean the wound on your ankle?'

Corvus sat on the bed. Theophilus probed with care at the healing
spear wound in the man's calf. The blade had penetrated just
above the ankle, sliding between the tendon and the bone. A
finger's breadth either side, and the prefect would have lost the use
of his foot. As it was, he would ride again as ably as ever, if he
would never walk as well as he once had.

The wound was a month old and close to healing. Theophilus
applied himself to a newer, smaller dressing and listened for sounds
of distress in the other's breathing. When it seemed the pain of his
intervention was less, he said, 'I understand there is to be a demonstration
of Caesar's justice in the theatre after tomorrow's
ceremonies?'

'So I heard. The governor wishes to demonstrate to his favourite
client kings that the law falls equally hard on those who have
attained Roman citizenship as on those who have not.'

'So a man will die to prove to a group of high-born traitors that
they made the right choice.'

'Not the kings - they know exactly who they need and
who needs them. The people still to be convinced are those
who plan rebellion in their forest groves and think we know
nothing of it. So two men will die; one of ours and one of theirs,
to make it even-handed. Marcellus who led the second cohort of
the Ninth at the invasion will be hanged for the murder of his
stockman, although he claims the man was trying to kill him and
it was selfdefence--'

'It may well have been.'

'It probably was. He had just ordered the ploughing of a site that
has been sacred for as long as the Trinovantes can remember. I'd
have tried to kill him too. But he shouldn't have struck the man
down in broad daylight with three of the governor's household and
any number of tribesmen as witnesses.'

'And the other? The brother of the man he tried to kill, perhaps?'

'No, he's already dead; Longinus Sdapeze had to kill him to stop
him running amok amongst the remaining garrison - we can't
afford a riot now. I don't know who the second man will be. I
suspect the governor may not yet know. They'll pick some poor
bastard at random and make up a charge. If one of the client kings
wears a knife half a thumb's length too long, he'll live long enough
to regret it.'

Theophilus finished binding the dressing and stood back to
observe his patient. 'Or they could choose you simply for looking
disreputable. As your doctor, I would suggest that if you're intent
on going to listen to small men make speeches of no significance,
you should wear something warm that doesn't look as if you've
fought a battle in it. We are supposed to be a province at peace.'

'Thank you. One day someone will tell the warriors of the west
and we can all go home.' Corvus stood, smiling sourly, and flexed
his ankle, testing. His face showed no obvious pain at the result.
Leaning ostentatiously on his stick, he said, 'In view of which I
should make the most of my time in Camulodunum's version of
peace before I return to the western kind. With your permission, I
would like to go to the baths and then to find a dresser who will
make me a set of clothes fit to greet a delegation of royalty on
behalf of my legate and my men. Do I take it I may go?'

'Of course. I only kept you here because I wanted to talk to you.
And if you don't need the stick, throw it away. I hate to see a man
pander to his doctor when he doesn't really need to.'

They hid very little from each other and there was much that did
not need to be said. Some things, however, should be explicit. As
he was leaving, Theophilus turned. 'You know the Eceni are
coming?'

'Of course. Prasutagos is the model client to which all other
kings aspire; friend to two emperors and every governor since
Plautius. But Valerius won't be with him. Wherever else he is in the
world, that man does not live in the care of his people. It doesn't
matter if the others recognize me; we're allies now. We can afford
to share the entertainments of a trial and judgement and take dinner afterwards and recall old times in friendship.'


XIII.

CAN YOU STAND, DO YOU THINK?'

'You asked me that yesterday.' Bellos, blond child of
the Belgae, had grown dark through a winter without the
sun on his hair. His skin, always fine, had become translucent, so
that the vessels beneath showed blue against white, and the whole
was coated with a fine sheen of sweat that never seemed to dry. He
lay on a mat of rolled and woven straw on the turf between the
small stone hut and the stream that ran to the west of it, shielded
from sight of the great-house and the war-weary warriors of Mona.

The seclusion was not solely for the boy. Julius Valerius had
spent fifteen years of his life fighting the warriors of Mona. He had
slain their shield-mates and their soul-friends on the battlefield in
fair combat and hanged them off it in circumstances that were fair
only by the standards of an invading nation. He had taken captive
those who were wounded and given them neither Briga's clean
death nor healing, but nursed them alive to the legions' inquisitors
and laid their bodies afterwards on the high peaks with dream
marks and items of clothing for recognition so that, even when
flesh and features had been burned, torn and flayed beyond all
knowing, their kin might still find them and know how they died.

If Valerius regretted anything, he did so in the quiet corners of
his heart where the fire of his mind shed no light. He had not come
to Mona by choice and he did not stay by choice. He did not,
either, make any effort to heal the running sore that was his
presence among those who continued the fight against Rome.
Luain mac Calma was Elder of elders; throughout the free tribes,
his word was law and his word had ensured Valerius' continued
safety. Without it, the once-Eceni would have died over days for his
betrayal of his people, and the boy Bellos with him, so much had
been made plain.

Given this, they could never have lived in the great-house with the
other warriors; mac Calma would not so have insulted his people
and, in any case, in the early days Bellos had hovered on the cusp of
death and had needed solitude and the peace that only solitary living
could afford. The small stone hut at the stream's edge had been made
ready for them at mac Calma's request and if the neophyte dreamers
who swept it and laid the fire and scattered rushes on the floor had
done so with their eyes averted and making the sign to Nemain as
they left, Valerius had chosen not to comment.

He had been naive then, and sick from the sea crossing, and that
part of his mind not obsessed with Bellos' welfare had been concerned
with care of the red mare and the stocky bay cob, which
had been turned out in a small paddock for watching, in case they
brought hidden disease to the gods' island.

Midwinter had come and gone and Bellos had opened his eyes
and accepted food and water before the day when a girl-child had
come across Valerius as he relieved himself in a pit and had cursed
him with living in a dreamer's house. Enquiring at last of mac
Calma, he had found that the stone hut in which he lived had been
Airmid's and that the dried plants and roots and pastes that had
been used in Bellos' healing had been hers.

It was too late to move then and there was no point: the winter
storms had sealed Mona from both the mainland and Hibernia,
and snow had cut the great-house from the hut so that they and the
warriors might as well have lived on different islands. The red mare
had been released from her quarantine paddock and had taken to
standing against the wall with her head inside the door gazing in at
Bellos, who had gazed back. Long before he could speak, he had
smiled for the mare, and then for Valerius.

Thus Valerius had spent his winter and the first months of spring
in the hut of the woman he had last seen on a ship in the middle of
the Hibernian sea; a woman who dreamed with Nemain so deeply
that she had built her home beside water, which was known to
drive lesser mortals to madness; a woman whose mark of the frog
was carved in the small, dark corners of the hut where Valerius did
not find them until spring when he stripped the reed thatch from
the roof and re-set it afresh. What worried him more than any of
these things was that, in the hut of a dreamer, within sound
of running water, and beneath the many changing cycles of the
moon, he had not dreamed.

He chose not to consider that, immersing himself instead in
other work. Helpfully, Luain mac Calma had departed on the first
ship to set sail after the equinoctial gales and he had left Valerius
with instructions enough to fill his days. Through the growing
warmth of spring, he nursed Bellos through the first days of
slurring speech to a coherence that the boy had not shown before
his injury. With speech had come strength and with strength should
come, so Valerius reasoned, the ability to rise. If he could stand, he
could hold a sword. That was all.

The day Bellos can stand and lift his own sword and match you
two strokes without dropping it, I will agree that he is healed and
you are no longer bound to me.

Through the dark of winter and nights spent awake listening to
the distant howl of the she-bear singers in the great-house, Valerius
had built in his mind the moment when Bellos could stand and
hold a blade and match two strokes against him. Or even one
stroke. One would be enough.

He knelt at the side of the straw mat. The sun was still weak
and the shadows it cast were not fully black. Bellos lay with
his head on a slight upward slope at mac Calma's insistence, to
keep the blood from filling the crack in his skull. Valerius dipped
a hank of raw wool in a pitcher of water and wiped the boy's
face clear of sweat. Eyes the colour of cornflowers blinked up
at him. Bellos smiled, faintly. 'What happens if I don't try to
stand?'

Valerius sat back on his heels. 'If you can't even try, then I build
up the fire and boil the water for the wormwood infusion.'

The wide eyes widened further. 'Again? I thought we'd finished
that.'

'No. According to mac Calma's instructions, it needs to be taken
for the first nine days of each new moon until you can stand.
Yesterday was the old moon. Today it's new.'

'And if I try to stand?'

'If you can raise more than a hand's breadth off the floor, then
we don't need the wormwood, we can go on to the vervain and
hare's foot.' He grinned encouragingly. 'It only tastes of hounds'
urine, not like the rotted dung of a badger in season spiked with
putrid shellfish, as the wormwood does.'

'Thank you so much.' Bellos' eyes drifted closed. His strength
had its limits and talking sapped it. Presently, without opening
them, he said, 'You know, I have an urge to pass water onto real
grass, not into a jug held by another man. Do you suppose we could set that as a reasonable target? I know it's not the same as matching you with a blade, but it's a good place to start.'

It was a very good place to start. They had nine days of wormwood
infusions and were on the last sliver of the old moon by the
time Bellos, kneeling, passed water on his own onto good honest
turf.

Valerius held his shoulder to stop him from falling forward,
but only lightly. As milestones go, it was a great one only to
these two, but to them it was greater than a victory against a
legion. Later that night, with Bellos propped up on a sack of dried
mosses, they burned the last of mac Calma's dried wormwood in
celebration.

'You should have become a dreamer, Julius Valerius, not a killer of
men.'

Bellos said it one evening in mid-spring, speaking from the cool
of his day-seat. He could sit now for half-days at a time, and could
hold himself up to pass motions and water. His skin was stronger
with greater colour so that his vessels no longer made patterns
across his temples, nor throbbed as he spoke. His arms had gained
strength before his legs and Valerius had set him exercises for both,
giving him strands of rawhide to plait into ropes as work for his
fingers and a boar's bladder filled with straw as somewhat less
profitable labour for his feet.

When he had proved he could lift the bladder between his
ankles and hold it steady for a count of twenty, Valerius took it
away to fill it with the coarse-grained sand from the edge of the
strait, near to where the ferry left and landed on its thrice-daily trips
to the mainland. He had just returned, juggling the bladder
and a length of seaweed that, smoke-dried and powdered, might
help the red mare to overcome her bouts of colic, when Bellos
delivered his judgement. Valerius threw him the bladder, saying
nothing.

It was a difficult throw. Bellos caught it, sagging a little under the
new weight. He balanced it on the ends of his feet without looking;
all his attention was on his companion. 'I'm serious,' he said.
'Dreamers are healers and you have the gift. My mother could heal
almost as you do, before the slavers took her, and my father's
grandfather, but I have met few others.'

Valerius absorbed himself in his rinsing of the seaweed. Without
looking up, he said mildly, 'Perhaps they were not there to be met
in the slums of Gesoriacum. I can't imagine a healer would choose
to spend time in Fortunatus' whorehouse.'

It was a mark of how far they had come that Bellos would talk
now of his family in the few years before his capture and that
Valerius could make a joke of the filthy, louse-infested tavern from
which he had bought the equally filthy Belgic urchin who had been
offered him as an afternoon's entertainment.

Bellos grinned and twisted his plaited rope into a halter. His
hands moved with an easy fluidity as if they had always made rope
of leather and given it a beauty that was lost to most.
After a while, he said idly, 'My father always said I would make
a good potter. It was his trade and he expected his sons to follow
him. If you had stayed with your people, would you have become
a smith, do you think, or a healer?'

'I was going to be a warrior. My sister was to be the dreamer, or
she thought she was.'

'But you didn't agree?'

Valerius looked up. They did not often speak of his sister. His
eyes showed the danger of it, the proximity to places not even
Bellos could go. He said, 'She killed an armed warrior with a single
thrust of a hunting spear when she was twelve. She woke from
sleep and had no shield nor time to plan her actions. No, I didn't
ever think she would be anything but a warrior.'

'So then you were proved right.'

'Yes.'

'And was it because of that, you, too, took to the sword?'

Valerius lifted his dripping seaweed from the river and sat back
on his heels. His face was clear and his smile bland. Only his eyes
were more hooded than they had been, as if there were things
behind they might prefer to hide. 'No,' he said. 'I did that because
Rome paid me to. When I was a slave, nobody came to buy me
from Amminios' household. Signing up with the auxiliary was the
only alternative left.'

Bellos recognized the warnings and chose to ignore them. He
had come this far before and backed away. Knowing exactly what
he did, he said, 'Corvus would have bought you, I think.'

The hooded eyes became quite blank. The smile was an automatic
one, distantly polite. 'Possibly, but I did not wish to be
bought by Corvus.'

'Why not, when you loved him?'

His last words fell into silence. Valerius' speed and lightness of
foot had surprised Bellos from the first moments in the whorehouse.
Now, in the spring sun on Mona, the boy found himself
abruptly alone. He forgot, sometimes, the depth of pain in the
other man, and the oceans of anger that kept it submerged. He
shook his head at himself and the watching gods and looked around for the wren that had taken to visiting. It came almost to his hand daily whenever he was on his own. Being entirely alone
now, and likely to be so for some time, he whistled and reached for an oat bannock he had saved and scattered pieces of it out on the streamside.

Nothing more was said until two days later when Valerius
emerged from the back of the hut with two rolled goat hides. He laid them out one across the other on the turf in front of Bellos, who surveyed them with evident curiosity. 'What's in there?
Crutches?

'No. I think we can bypass those.' Valerius took one end of a
hide and rolled it out. Metal clashed on metal as two blades
skidded free on the grass.

Bellos' face changed in much the same way it did when he was
asked to drink wormwood. 'What are they?'

'Practice blades. What do they look like?' Valerius grinned.
'Your father said you could make a good potter. Myself, I think
you would have made a warrior had yeu Been given the chance. Luain mac Calma will be back by the next moon's end. He said if you could match me two strokes, standing, we would be free to go
back to Hibernia. I thought it would be good if we could show him
something more than simply two strokes.'

'You would make a warrior of me?' Bellos laughed, weakly. The
wren, which had been feeding on a rock, flittered away, crying
alarm. 'Julius, you can't be serious!'

'Why not?'

'Because I'm terrified of fighting. I sat behind you on your horse
while you killed Romans in Gesoriacum and I have never been so
scared in my life. If Fortunatus had stepped like Neptune from the
seas and offered to take me back to the tavern and beat me daily
for the rest of my life, I'd have thanked him for it.'

'Really? Not afterwards, you wouldn't. The man was obscene. In
any case, terror is the right place to start. If you walk onto a
battlefield and don't have your heart stuck in your throat, you'll be
dead before you have time to realize your mistake.'

Bellos shook his head. 'I've watched you fight, Julius. I had my
arms round your waist. I could feel each and every crash of your
heartbeat. You were desperate. You were murderously angry. Near
the end, at the sea's edge, you were anxious about the ship, not
knowing where it might take us. Never, at any moment, were you
afraid.'

The sun warmed them both equally, but Valerius' skin was,
briefly, the darker. He shrugged. 'Sometimes anger covers fear.
When there's no choice, it's useful. Here - take this and we'll work
with you seated until the full moon. After it, we'll see if we can get
you standing.'

'I'm not a warrior. You can't make me into one.' Bellos sat on his
three-legged stool, panting, and ran a shaking hand through sweat
darkened hair. A gash ran the length of his forearm and his
shoulders were dark with old bruises, some of them green at the
margins. 'Why can't we practise with wooden staves as children
do? Did mac Calma say it had to be a real sword?'

'He did, actually. In any case, children don't practise with staves
if they want to live beyond their first battle. Warriors who practise
with wood are the second rank to die in any conflict, after those
who think they are too big to be afraid. Wood doesn't teach the
reflexes necessary to face iron.'

'But I'm not going to face iron, except yours, and you want me
to win so we can go home. You're not going to try to kill me. This
is pointless.' Bellos hurled his blade at the ground. It hit a rock,
ringing. 'I can match you two strokes sitting. That's enough. All we
need now is for me to be standing and for you not to be-- Julius?
Are you listening? I said, I need to be standing and then we can . . .'

He trailed into silence. Speaking to empty air was becoming too
much of a habit, particularly when that air was filled by a living
man, the entirety of whose attention was given elsewhere. Bellos
stared out along the line of Valerius' fixation and saw, on the track
beyond the great-house, a delegation of dreamers walking with
funereal slowness around a hand-carried bier. Nothing could be
seen of the body lying thereon but the colour of the hair, which was
the copper red of a winter fox. Leading the dreamers was a man
who was not Luain mac Calma, but who carried himself with the
same authority.

In a voice wiped clean of emotion, Valerius breathed a name - 'Efnis'
- and was gone.

It was not yet the full moon, but the day was young and warm.
Abandoned for a man of greater interest, Bellos set himself to complete
alone the last of mac Calma's requirements.

He was lying near the stream when Valerius returned, with his
head uphill, as the healer mac Calma had dictated. As mac Calma
had emphatically not dictated, his head lay on one edge of the
wren's rock; gelling blood made a dark mess of his hair and leaked
a little onto the earth below.

'Bellos--'

'I know. Don't shout at me. I have a headache.' Bellos opened
both eyes, too wide and too suddenly. 'Was it your sister on the
bier?'

'What? No, it was a dreamer who tried to infiltrate the fortress
of the Twentieth legion. The inquisitors had her for three days. The
legate ordered what was left of her body to be dumped within sight
of the ferry. What have you--'

'And is the dreamer, Efnis, once again your friend?'

'No. He loathes me. Without mac Calma's protection, he would
do to us what Rome has just done to the dead dreamer. You know
that. Is Efnis the reason you--'

'No. I just wanted to see what the world looked like from standing.
It's been so long, I've forgotten.' Bellos' grin was a shadow of
the morning's easy cheer. 'Or, if you want to wallow in guilt, we
could say it's all your fault because you wanted me to stand and
fight. So if we're both equally to blame, we don't need to argue
about it. Could you move me out of the sun sometime soon, do you
think? It's too strong and it's hurting my eyes. I can't see
you properly.'

His head rocked sideways and it became apparent that he was
weeping; slow, thin tears had already coursed their tracks on his
cheeks. His gaze, clearly meant for Valerius, was directed a half
turn too far, so that he stared instead at the blank side wall of
Airmid's hut.

'Oh, gods, Bellos . . .' Valerius knelt. He passed a hand in front
of the over-bright gaze. When nothing happened, he moved his
head so that he looked the boy straight in the eyes. 'Bellos? Can
you see me?'

The world grew cold in the small hiatus where there should have
been an answer. Valerius felt the small rush of nausea that used to
come whenever Corvus had been wounded. 'Oh, gods,' he said
again. 'Bellos, I'm so sorry.'

'Don't.' A pale hand fumbled for his and, finding it, gripped
gently, as if Valerius, and not the boy, were injured. 'Just get me
inside and give me the wormwood or whatever other unspeakable
concoction your Hibernian healer left behind and all will be well.'
Bellos' grin was more certain this time. 'I've had all afternoon to
think about this. Luain mac Calma talks to the gods as the rest
of us talk to our horses. They tell him everything that happens or
might happen in the world. He must have expected it. He'll have
left something that will work.'

Luain mac Calma may have conversed daily with the gods, but
they did not see all futures, nor tell him all of those they saw.
Amongst the many wax-plugged bottles and beakers of his
pharmacy, nothing had properties that could restore sight to the
suddenly blinded.

Valerius knew that, but he searched anyway, because it was
expected of him and it gave hope, which was necessary. On exactly

that basis, he poured out a half-measure of dried and ground goose
grass which was good only for an inflammation of the eyes, not
true blindness, and mixed it with dock roots and gall to make it
taste bad to hide the vervain and poppy which would buy an
untroubled sleep.

He succeeded only in part; Bellos drank as he was asked to, but
in the waiting time before sleep, while Valerius laid clods of wet
wool on his hair to leach out the blood, he said, thinly, 'If mac
Calma left nothing, then there is nothing we can do, is there?'
Then, when Valerius gave no answer, 'Perhaps you could put in
more poppy next time? I could bear life as a boy who has poor use
of his legs. I am not at all sure I want to live it as a man who is both
crippled and blind.'

They were in a dreamer's hut, where, more than anywhere,
words have power. With his left hand, Valerius made the sign to
ward against evil. 'Don't say that. You fell and hit your head and
it's bleeding within the bone as well as outside. When the bleeding
stops, you will see again.'

'And the pain in my head will be less? I hope so. You should have
put in more poppy anyway. There wasn't enough to draw a veil
over this.'

Bellos was wrong: the poppy was sufficient to buy him dreamless
sleep; and he was right: in the morning, the pain in his head
was no less and he was still blind.

'We need mac Calma.'

Valerius said it, because Bellos would not. He had carried the
boy to the midden to relieve himself and fed him and washed him
and their life was as it had been in the first days, except that this
time Bellos' mind was alive and active and, when not crushed by
the pounding ache within it, he could think and speak clearly.
Now, he said, 'We may as well need snow in summer. Unless I have
lost more time than I know of, our god-favoured dreamer isn't due
back until the end of next month.'

'Perhaps not, but we can summon him, or, rather, Efnis can. He
is Elder of Mona in mac Calma's absence - there must always be
one so designated on the island, to hold the dream of the ancestors.
There are ways for one dreamer to speak to another if the need is
strong enough.'

Bellos stared dry-eyed at the place he believed Valerius to be.
'Efnfs won't call mac Calma for you.'
'No. But he may call him for you. I can ask. At worst he can only
say no.'


XIV.

'No.'

'Efnis, Bellos is not your enemy. He is as much a victim
of Rome as any man or woman of the tribes. He was sold
into slavery when he was six years old. He was sold again nightly
in a brothel in Gaul for the next four years. He was kicked in the
head trying to foal the red mare because he didn't want to wake me
and he fell because he was trying to fulfil Luain mac Calma's
ludicrous requirements so that we could leave your precious island
and go back to Hibernia. If he isn't healed, we may never leave. Is
that what you want?'

Valerius stood at the entrance to the great-house, as close as he
had ever been to the heart of Mona's dreaming. Oak uprights as
wide as his arm and twice his height stood as door posts on either
side. The carvings on them made his head spin as they had done
once in his childhood. To avoid them, he looked straight ahead,
towards the fire trenches and weapons, the warriors and dreamers
within.

Eight warriors stood around him in a part-circle and the waves
of hate were as tangible as any he had felt on a battlefield in a
burning village. Some of them were not much older than Bellos. It
was possible that Valerius had, indeed, burned their homes and
hanged their families.

Efnis stood in the centre. He had been a quiet lad in his youth,
thoughtful and open-hearted, and the boy Ban had cared for him
and cherished his presence. He had not imagined him ruthless, but
then, he had not imagined it of himself and had become so, for a
time.

The man who faced him was more than ruthless; Efnis embodied
a power that gave life to the door carvings simply by his presence.
The gods of his people walked with him and through him and they
were not inclined to pity. His eyes looked through Valerius as if
they had never met except in battle.

'No,' he said again. 'Luain mac Calma is not yours to whistle to
heel like a hound. If the boy dies, it is your loss, not ours.'

Valerius caught the fraying edge of his anger and held it. When
one has no power, temper is a luxury not to be indulged. He said,
'The loss would be also mac Calma's. If Bellos dies, I am free to go
and our year together will be less than half over. I doubt very much
if he would have subjected you to our presence through the winter
had he not wished me to remain beyond spring.'

'Nevertheless, I will not summon him. If the gods wish the boy
dead, he will die. If not, he will live. If he is blind, he is still alive
and that will suffice.'

If he is blind. . . Valerius had not mentioned Bellos' blindness
to the dreamer. Efnis could only have known from some other
source.

Valerius' anger did rise then, whitely, so that he felt the pressure
on his cheekbones and behind his eyes. He stared at the warriors
surrounding him and they matched him, hate for hate. Not caring
to conceal the challenge, he said, 'Did you make this happen, any
of you?'

Three warriors stepped forward, hounds straining at the leash.
The death of the red-haired woman clung to them, demanding
vengeance in kind. Valerius felt the pull of battle as a rising tide in
his blood. For Bellos' sake, he fought it. 'Efnis, did you make him
blind?'

The dreamer shook his head. 'No. But mac Calma said that if the
boy fell it might happen. He has fallen and you are here asking our
help when you have not approached the great-house in six months.
Why else would that be so?'

'Did mac Calma leave instruction for what I should do if such a
thing came about?'

'No.'

Valerius opened his mouth and shut it again. There was a change
in Efnis, a barely perceptible softening of his voice. He had not
said, 'I'm sorry' - he could not do so in such company - but the
words had been there for one desperate to hear them.

Dry-mouthed, fearing to believe, Valerius said, 'Then, without
help from the Elder, what would you do in my place?'

The ghost of a smile crossed Efnis' features. 'I would
dream, what else? It is my training. And my birthright. I would find
a place of god-given power and I would use everything I could
find there to help me.' His gaze slid past Valerius towards the
hut that lay down near the river: the dreamer's hut which had, for
nearly twenty years, contained and moulded Airmid's god-given
power.
Valerius caught himself at the last minute so that he did not turn
to look. The movement became instead a jerky sweep of his cleaner
hand through his hair. He did it without thought and did not know
how much of the boy Ban he had been showed in that move. He
said, 'Let me be clear. In my place, you would dream to mac Calma
to call him back?'

Efnis leaned one shoulder against the gate post and the forefinger
of his left hand traced again and again the shape of a
running horse that was carved at the level of his heart. This time
his smile was open for everyone to see, and it was not kind.
'No,' he said. 'I am more arrogant than that. If I needed help,
I would dream to ask the gods for a healing. But if mac Calma
had not taught me how to do that, then yes, I might dream to the
Elder of Mona himself and ask for his help. It would be almost
as good.'

I would dream. It is my birthright.

The words danced in the flames of a birchwood fire. Familial
faces resolved and dissolved beside them, casting shadows in the
smoke. Efnis smiled intermittent encouragement from the heart-fire but would not speak. Theophilus, physician to the legions, shook his head and laughed at the fantasies of barbarian minds;
Xenophon of Cos, physician to emperors, did not laugh but
neither did he offer advice. Longinus Sdapeze smiled a greeting, a
cavalry officer with not the slightest hint of dreaming about him,
and later, with old barriers burned to ashes, Corvus appeared
and sat for a while, watching the long trail of the dead who had
followed him.

The ghosts of Valerius' past did not arm themselves with anger
as they had once done. Eceni and Trinovante, Roman and Gaul,
they came and went, dispassionately, nodding curtly to the man
who had slain them, but not hurling curses or promising an
eternity of retribution. It might have been easier if they had done;
none of them was a dreamer, none of them knew how to summon
a dreamer, or if they did, they were not prepared to share their
secret.

If you had stayed with your people, would you have become a
smith, do you think, or a healer?

My sister was to be the dreamer. I was going to be a warrior.

It is my birthright.

And mine also.

He believed it, because he wanted to. Through the cold and
sweating night, Julius Valerius, who had been born Ban of the
Eceni, son of a dreamer - son of two dreamers - and childhood
friend to several others, drew on every memory of his youth while
he held or burned or drank or prayed over every god-touched item
in Airmid's hut in an increasingly desperate effort to call any of
those, living or dead, who might help him to reach the gods or, as a close second best, Luain mac Calma.

He failed.

'You're trying too hard.'

'What?'

'You're trying too hard.' Bellos spoke sleepily from beyond the
smoke. He sounded amused but there was no telling how long he
had waited, lying awake, until he was sure he could sound so. 'I
know nothing about dreaming but all night I have listened to you
shouting down the dream-paths of the poppy and I don't think the
gods are brought closer by shouting. The apprentice who brought
the oat bannocks says that the gods speak only into silence.'

Valerius felt the motion of his mind crash into rock. He stared
across the fire at the boy. 'What apprentice?'

'There's a girl of the Caledonii who has come twice now. Her
people have not suffered under Rome and so she doesn't hate us as
much as the rest and it seems she has an affection for bedridden
boys with blond hair and blue ey-- Don't be like that. I'm not a
whore any more. She brought me oat bannocks and a hound whelp
that wanted to play, that's all.'

'Really? How very disappointing for both of you.' Valerius' head
swam. Facts collided and fell out at random. He said, 'Let me get
this straight. You spoke about dreaming, with a dreamer of Mona,
who did not try to peel your skin from your back? Was this before
or after you had the poppy?' The certainties of his winter faltered
and then disintegrated as his stomach, his mouth and his flooding
saliva registered the single most important fact. 'You have been
hoarding oat bannocks and you didn't tell me?'

'I'm not hoarding them. Yes, I spoke to a dreamer. It was
before I fell and I hadn't taken any poppy. We talked of the whelp,
and she said that when hounds sleep and dream by the fire,
they are visiting the lands of the gods. She didn't offer to show me
how to follow them. And I'm sorry I didn't tell you about the
bannocks. I was saving them for a celebration when I'd stood
and matched you two strokes.' His voice faltered only a little and
recovered its humour as he fumbled in his pocket, then: 'Here catch.'

It was not a bad throw for a blind youth, and not a bad catch
for a man who had sat awake through the night. The bannock
became only mildly singed in the heart of the fire and possibly the
better for it.

Valerius said, 'Are there any more?' and then, when Bellos
nodded and held up a single finger, 'Put it next to the fire to warm
it. I think there's some honey left somewhere,' and so, for a
moment, the world was no bigger than a meal remembered with
joy from childhood, washed down with stream water and eaten in
the first light of the morning sun.

Presently, thinking, Valerius said, 'I don't understand why
Macha didn't come through the fire with the other ghosts. For ten
years, she haunted every sleeping dream and too much of the days.
Why, when I need her, does she stay away?'

'Because you need her, perhaps? It does not seem to me that your
mother's haunting was designed to help you in your times of need.'

'No. But she didn't kill me, or drive others to kill me, and there
were times when she could have done.'

Valerius lay on his stomach, his head pillowed on his forearm,
staring into the fire. 'If the bannock-girl would help you, I could go
to Hibernia to find mac Calma.'

'If you will give me two days to learn, I can find where everything
is in the hut and I won't need anyone's help. I can move to
the midden and back and there is food enough for a month unless
you've eaten it all in the night while I was asleep.'

It was a poor attempt at humour. Valerius ignored it. 'No. I can't
leave you alone. What if you were to fall again?'

'I might go deaf as well?' Bellos rolled onto his side and pushed
himself to sitting. Staring at where he thought Valerius sat, he said,
very quietly, 'You have to leave me, Julius. I would rather manage
here alone in hope than wait with you through the spring for mac
Calma to come back, praying daily to your gods and mine to hear
his voice. I don't think I have the strength for that.'

Bellos had more strength than either of them had realized, in
body as well as in mind. Valerius stayed for a day and guided
him through continual practice, at the end of which the youth
could prepare a meal without cutting his fingers and had demonstrated
that he could find a jug and drag himself to the stream to
fill it.

Towards dusk, the bannock-girl appeared with a jointed hare
and Valerius walked off to check on the horses, leaving Bellos to
speak to her. Returning, he found Bellos with more colour to his
cheeks than at any time since he had fallen, and a smile that was
not so clearly forced. A pot simmered on the fire and the smell of
stewed hare meat and wild garlic filled the still air by the stream.

They ate together after dark when there was nothing else to
practise or to clear or to clean. Bellos said, 'I told her you'd be gone
with the dawn and that, whether you found mac Calma or not,
you'd be back by the full moon. I think she'll help while you're
gone. She won't be in trouble for it. Efnis knows that she comes
here.'

'I thought he might.' Valerius had spent his walk considering the
timeliness of the girl's appearances. 'I'd wager that mac Calma told
them both to act as they did before he left. Very little he does seems
to rely on chance.'

'I was right, then? You will leave with the dawn?'

'I will, unless I can call mac Calma tonight in the dream. It's
worth trying. You never know; the hare is Nemain's beast and
Airmid was always of Nemain. Perhaps having eaten the god's
beast in the god's domain, I will find that I can live true to my
birthright.'

Bellos stared at him. For the first time since his fall, his eyes
focused close to where Valerius sat. He asked, 'Does that matter to
you now?'

'Only as a tool. I am tired of being another man's toy. If I could
heal you on my own, I would do, you know that. Because I can't,
I must call on mac Calma's aid. If I could call the gods on my own,
to ask their help in healing, I would be free of all men.'

Bellos laid down his bowl and stretched out like a hound near
the fire. 'And would it be good to be free of all men?'

'It would be little short of perfect.'

As an officer of the auxiliary cavalry, Julius Valerius had passed
many nights without sleep in situations far less clement than a fire
lit hut on a stream's edge, with his belly filled and the scents of
garlic, woodsmoke and hare's meat warming his senses.

Perhaps because of that, he did not, as he had intended, remain
awake to seek the gods' help in the fire, but slept and, in sleeping,
dreamed, disjointedly and unpleasantly, of his mother and mac
Calma walking, sleeping, lying together as lovers in the ancient,
sacred places of Hibernia in the year before his birth.

Rome had been a distant enemy then, and all conflicts small,
although they had not seemed so. Valerius' mother had been
young, and not angry. She had felt the presence of the boy-child
growing in her womb and had loved him. She had lain alone under
a white full moon and named the child Ban, meaning white in the
language of Hibernia, for the colour of it. Pressing her hands
together over his heartbeat and hers, she said, 'You will be
Nemain's, and will grow in her care. I will see to it.'

Luain mac Calma had come to her later, with news of conflict
growing in Gaul and the death of the dreamers at the hands of
Rome. Macha had always known that he must leave, but Valerius,
who had once been Ban, felt in the womb and in his dreaming self
the pain of their parting, the emptiness of promises not made
because they would be hollow.

The loss was too sharp to be borne. Breaking free from his
mother, Valerius watched from afar as she bought a good mare
from the Hibernian breeding herds and a hound that had taken
deer in full flight and journeyed east, to the village of her birth
where her sister had a two-year-old girl-child by a man named
Eburovic.

Macha was clearly pregnant when she arrived. Eburovic did not
love her, nor she him, but they had known one another from childhood
and there was a great affection between them. His fathering
of her child was to be a temporary thing, until Luain mac Calma
came back from Gaul. Neither the gods nor the dreamers told them
it would be close to fourteen years before the Elder's return.

The dream of Macha wavered as she came closer to birth. Breaca
was there, a fox-haired girl-child learning to walk with Graine, her
mother, but it was Eburovic, big and blunt and kind-hearted, with
nothing of the dreamer about him at all, who, smiling, filled the
last, thinly woven moments.

Valerius woke, too sharply, and lay with his eyes open gazing at
the shuddering light on the back wall of the hut. The fire burned
behind him, warming the small of his back. He stared at stone and
saw the face of Luain mac Calma, wet from the shipwreck with his
black hair hanging in sea-ropes to his shoulders.

The man smiled, sadly. 'Eburovic raised you. It was the gods'
will, not mine, but he did it well, however much I might regret it.
Still, you are my son, not his. You can run, but you cannot deny
who made you. I offer you now your birthright. Will you take it?'

Often before, Valerius had thought himself awake and found it
not true. In Rome, he had watched Dubornos attempt to prove
himself dreaming by passing his hand through a wall and had
noted it as a dreamer's technique, simple in its concept and likely
to succeed. Now, he sat up and, very deliberately, put the heel of
one hand against the embers of the fire, holding it there until the
pain crushed his breathing and layers of reddened skin peeled
away.

The pain drove both the voice and the image of mac Calma from
his head, but the dream still held him, as tightly formed as any
memory, and as real. Cursing softly, he found his cloak and stepped
quietly past the sleeping Bellos into the night.

The night was still and warm, lit by an amber half-moon. Owls
called in the woods beyond the dreamers' great-house. Closer by,
the stream whispered in foreign tongues. The small beasts of the
night shuffled and blundered in old leaves and new spring grass. At
the foot of the hill, the bay gelding whickered a quiet greeting.

The route Valerius took was not planned. He needed only to
prove himself firmly awake and he could return to bed, to sleep one
last night in a hut that he had begun to consider his own. He
crossed the stream in bare feet, letting the chilled water swill at his
ankles, then turned left, through the trees towards the horse fields,
searching as he did so the vent in the hem of his cloak where he hid
the grain for the horses.

The hawthorn hedge bounding the paddocks was served by a
gap, the width of a man, but not a horse. Valerius had fitted his
shoulder through and was reaching for the gelding when a voice
behind him said, 'When you were dreaming, which gods did you
petition, yours or mine?'

He was still dreaming, then; the fire had been an illusion, as
much as the water of the stream and the coarse grass beneath his
feet. In this dream, he had some control of his own actions, which
was pleasant. He pushed on through the hedge and met the
gelding, warming his hands on a muzzle that was nothing more
than a product of his mind. The beast seemed as solid as he did in
life, but then dreams always seem so from the inside. It is only on
waking that one can see the gaps that make them unreal.

Mac Calma's voice said, 'Valerius, answer me. It matters.'

The voice was entirely compelling. Unwillingly, Valerius said, 'I
have no gods. I served Mithras once, but do so no longer.
I abandoned him when I was banished from the legions. The gods
of the tribes abandoned me long ago and take their vengeance
where they can. I called on none of them by name, only made my
need known.'

'So. And it surprises you, therefore, that none came? Have you
learned so little in your life?'
'You sound like my mother. Her ghost despises me also. Are you
dead, then, that you can sound so?'

'Hardly. I don't despise you. It is you who hates me. Have you
found the key to Bellos' healing?'

In dreaming there is an honesty that waking may lack. Valerius
said, 'No. But I have found that I no longer wish to depend on you
to make it happen. It occurs to me that you have never told me why
you brought me here. If it was to learn healing, you have never
tried to teach it, or dreaming, but then I have never asked to learn.
I remember, once, the grandmothers saying that a dreamer must
ask to be given the dream. Last night, I asked it of the nameless
gods. Tonight, I ask it of you.'

'Thank you.' The hedge shivered and Luain mac Calma stood in
the moonlight, soothing the neck of the gelding, which was not
surprised to see him.

Valerius tried to pass his hand through the horse and failed. He
stared at his feet and moved his toes and they remained his toes
and did not become cloven, or bird-clawed, or grow the nails of a
hound. Self-loathing curdled in the pit of his stomach. Raising his
head, he said bitterly, 'You woke me. Why?'

Mac Calma shook his head in mild reproof. 'To save you taking
ship with the dawn to look for me. I thought I might prevent at
least one journey's seasickness. Some men might be grateful.'

'You could have woken me by touch. That did not take a dream.'

'But there are things you will believe in dreaming that you will
not believe waking. Do you believe now that I am your father?'

'We have spoken of this before. Eburovic raised me. That's all
that matters.'

'No. You are the son of two dreamers and that matters now. You
were born to be a dreamer. You were named for the white moon
and the black night about it. Ban of the Eceni, you have spent the
past twenty years running from your birthright. I offer it to you
now, this once, this last time. Will you take it?'

'Will you heal Bellos if I do?'

'I will heal him anyway. If you come to sit your long-nights, then
you must come willingly, not under coercion. You must know
that you come through a gateway as dangerous as any you passed
when you led your cavalry wing. You must know that the commitment
is total, that any failure means death, not only of your body
but of your soul, and that even I, who am Elder of Mona, cannot
keep you safe from that. Knowing all of that, if you wish still to
take what is yours by right, I will teach you, however those of my
great-house loathe me for it. If you do not have the courage, I will
heal Bellos to the best of my ability, and you will be free.'

Valerius gazed past the Elder of Mona to the moon, which had risen higher and was white. The hare had not yet come to rest on
its surface and the salute Valerius made acknowledged that, as his
mother had taught him.

From the corner of his eye, he saw a tension leak from mac
Calma that he had not known was present. Softly, the man who
claimed to be his father said, 'If you wish a day to consider you
may have it. I will work on Bellos while you think.'

'Thank you. A day will not make any difference to this decision.
You offer me the chance to sit my long-nights. I accept.'


XV.

'They are not built for us.'

Graine spoke with the assurance of a sworn dreamer and
was not heard. Breaca knew that her daughter had spoken,
but the words merged with the meaningless sounds of morning: the
slowing breath of her mare and the creak of harness leather as she
settled to stillness on the crest of the hill; the clash of chain mail
from the auxiliary escort still riding the slope behind, and the
fainter, identical clash from the century of legionaries marching in
formation out of Camulodunum's triumphal gate onto the plain
below; the rasping cry of a single crow, far back, in the place where
there should have been forest, but instead was bare earth.

All of these Breaca registered and none made sense. From the
moment of cresting the hill, from the moment of Cunomar's first
startled oath and Cygfa's war curse, every part of her had fixed on
the two newly made oakwood crosses that stood alone on the
north-eastern corner of the city. Twice the height of a man and one
across, they were more than enough to hang the Boudica and any
one of her children.

Pale in the morning sun, they cast angular shadows across the
turf in a statement more eloquent, more shattering, than the
governor's deftly phrased invitation. We have you, we own you.
Your death is ours, the time of it and the manner. Do not expect
mercy from the emperor or those who serve him.

It was impossible to look elsewhere, impossible, for that
moment, to think. Cunomar had said as much in a rare moment of
honesty when he had first come back from Rome; that however
much one tried to imagine the worst to make it bearable,
however much one built the nightmares and dismantled them, the
solid presence of a cross shattered the world.

Breaca had never stood in the shadow of her own execution as
had her two older children. In the long, still breath at the top of
Camulodunum's hill, she learned the nature and extent of their
terror and her respect for them both reached new heights.

A small hand closed on Breaca's wrist. Graine said for a second
time, distinctly, 'Don't look at them so. They have not yet tasted
blood, but they were not made for us. A warrior of the tribes will
die and one of Rome and both are already held in prison. We have
not yet been betrayed.'

She was a child. All the way up the slope, she had ridden her new
horse with both hands gripping the front of the saddle as an infant
might, but her voice was as old, and as sure, as it had been on an
afternoon in the forge when she had spoken for the elder
grandmother.

Breaca nodded, lacking words. Beside her, Cunomar stirred.
'And so are we to believe that legions are marching out to do us
honour, not arrest us?'

He tried so hard to appear unmoved. His voice was lightly
detached, his words the casual comment of one observing the
distant return of a bird to the nest, or the birth of a midseason
lamb. His face was set, held still by a thin shell of pride and an
obstinate refusal to show fear in the presence of the enemy.

Only his eyes gave him away. His gaze danced from the stark
shadows of the execution site to the western gate where eighty
men, led by an officer on a grey horse, marched out through the
vast, twice-arched triumphal gate that spanned the entrance to Camulodunum, and formed three lines across the road. They made a spectacle, and knew it; the chain links of their armour were a net
of silver across the path of the sun and the heads of their spears
were herons, awaiting the careless fish. Painted thunderbolts crossed on their shields, newly painted since winter, and their
bronze helmets burned from night upon night of polishing.

Behind them, Rome's capital city - its only city - in the province
of Britannia spread out across the wide plain that had once been
Cunobelin's richest farmland and pooled in what had once been
forest. It was unwalled and undefended and that alone screamed
out the arrogance of Rome. In a land defeated, what need had they
of the walls and dykes on which the Sun Hound had relied for his
safety?

'One day, you will regret the loss of that.' Breaca spoke aloud,
but not loudly. Even had she shouted, the men below would barely
have heard her, but one, finally, chose to look up and his oath
carried faintly on the breeze. Eighty faces flashed pale in the sun.
The red-plumed officer gave an order, too distant to be clearly
heard. The line tightened, visibly.

Breaca grinned. 'Graine, heart-of-life, before we left, Airmid said
that the best way to hide was to be seen most clearly. If I were to
hold your reins, do you think you could join us in being seen very
clearly indeed? The legionaries have sighted us now; there's no
point in hiding. I would not ride into their care as one defeated.'

She watched her daughter's eyes grow wide. They were green
grey in the sun and beautiful. Graine had always listened carefully
to the singers' tales. She knew what Breaca planned before her
brother, but she was not yet a confident rider, even on the new
horse.

Swallowing her fear, she passed her reins to her mother. 'You and
father came here once before,' she said. 'Before any of us were
born. You did not ride in meekly then.'

They had not. With forty of her people, Breaca had charged the
ranked hundreds of Cunobelin's spears in the days when both his
tribe and theirs had been free.

'We are Eceni,' she said. 'We ride nowhere meekly.'

She lifted her hand in signal and Cygfa and Cunomar, trained in
the battle signs of Mona, moved to either side. For the first time
since leaving the steading, Cunomar smiled. He still mourned the
loss of Eneit's company, but he would ride as a warrior with his
mother given the chance to do so. Cygfa set up the war chant of
the Ordovices and the tone of it infected them all. Breaca missed
her blade more badly than she had done since leaving it in the
ancestor's mound.

What she planned was madness, but she had lived through a
winter of sanity and the legionaries who waited in front of the
gates had already been given their orders. If death were coming,
she did not want to meet it weakly, nor bring her children to the
enemy shorn of their pride. Cunomar and Cygfa felt it with her;
the change in their eyes was a gift in itself.

Graine was afraid and trying not to show it, which was worth
more. Breaca leaned over and kissed her, winding a lock of loose
hair behind the small ear. 'Child of my heart, hold the front of the
saddle and trust your horse. She's the best I've ever bred. She
knows how to take care of you.'

Breaca spoke to her own mare and it grew still under her, waiting.
To her two older children, she said, 'Spread your arms so that
they see we come without weapons.'

They did, and waited. Behind, 'Tagos saw, understood and was
too late to act.

As she had so often in the west, the Boudica raised her arm high
and brought it down hard.

'Go!'

The noise of Camulodunum faltered and fell silent leaving the
morning to echo as three warriors and a child of the Eceni hurled
their horses at lethal speed towards the triumphal arches that
marked the magnitude of Rome's victory over their people. The
wind raised their cloaks and carried away the dust of their passing.
'Tagos and the cavalry escort, caught unawares, were left hopelessly
behind. They slowed and stopped, deterred by the pitch of
the hill.

The Eceni were born for a ride such as this; even Graine found
the joy at the end. At the last moment, as the legionaries, who had
not fought in the west and had been a long time away from war,
struggled to hold their line, three warriors and a child reined in to
stand on sweating, heaving mounts before a junior tribune of the
XXth legion and his wide-eyed men. At the final stride, seeing them ,
stop, the officer resheathed his sword.

Breaca faced him, smiling. For nearly twenty years, the best
minds on Mona had been her tutors. In faultless Latin, she said
'Breaca of the Eceni brings greetings to the governor and asks if he
will do her the honour of accepting her gifts.'

'Be welcome Breaca of the Eceni, wife to Prasutagos, king of that
tribe.'

The best way to hide is to be seen most clearly. Believing it,
Breaca had brought her family into the death trap that was
Camulodunum at a gallop, and had not been arrested. If Graine was wrong and they were bound for crucifixion, the junior tribune detailed to meet them did not know of it. Holding fast to his
dignity, he ordered his men to form ranks around Breaca, the
children and the lately arrived 'Tagos. With every evidence of
respect, he led them through the mud-slimed, noisome streets
of Camulodunum to the forum, where they stood in line to be
announced.

'Be welcome Cygfa and Graine, under Eceni law heirs to
Prasutagos, and Cunomar, his son.'

A pasty-faced secretary stood to one side of a podium and read
from a prepared script. Looking up, he chanced to catch Cygfa's
eye and she smiled for him, bright with a hate so well concealed
that only a dreamer would see it. He dithered and lost his lines.
Finding them, he rattled to a close, losing the customary emphasis
of the syllables.

'Quintus Veranius, by the grace of his excellency the Emperor
Nero governor of Britannia, formerly consul of Rome, formerly
augur, formerly first governor of Lycia and Pamphylia, bids you
welcome and thanks you for your exceptional gifts.'

The secretary bowed his way back into the row of Roman
officers and local magistrates who formed a line before the
marbled back wall of the forum. All of them studied the incomers.
None of them was so ill-mannered as to stare although the king's
new armband, of woven gold with enamelled copper at the end
pieces, drew their eyes and their attention, as it was meant to.

The governor of Britannia, the emperor's representative in the
province, with the power of life and death over every living soul
within it, stepped forward to the podium and, for a while, it was
impossible to look elsewhere. Quintus Veranius' parade uniform,
while sober in its colouring, was nevertheless quite easily the most
costly item of clothing ever seen in the province of Britannia, the
Emperor Claudius' gold-woven gown-of-entrance notwithstanding.

The governor's chased gold cuirass bore a complex interweaving
of the fish-tailed goat with oak leaves and a standing vine. His
shoulder cloak was so deep a brown as to be almost black and his
plain-woven tunic beneath it seemed in contrast to be perfectly
white, marked only by a sober border of blue and venous red.
No-one would ever be allowed to forget that the middle-aged,
grey-haired man who now ruled Britannia in the name of the boy
emperor in Rome had once led his troops in person in the
mountain provinces of Asia, defeating tribe after tribe on their
home ground. His gaze had weighed each member of the tribal
delegations as they entered the forum. Each had felt it as an
uncomfortable probing, not unlike the scrutiny of a dreamer.

Only for the children had it softened and then only truly for
Graine. He was said to have no children of his own; it was his only
lack. He smiled at the girl now, and then at 'Tagos, who purported
to be her sire, before he looked down at the wooden crates and
boxes arrayed on the table in front of him.

Breaca's gift lay open before the assembly: a long case of
polished yew wood lined with wool dyed in Eceni blue on which
lay three finished spears, each with a single heron feather dangling
from the neck. The hafts were made in the same pale russet wood
as the box with a bulb of burr oak at the butt end for balance, each
a subtly different colour. The blades were of silver and delicately
leaf-shaped, with copper inlaid in spiral shapes in the tapering
necks and the sign of the running hare etched along their lengths
on both sides. The blades' edges showed the brilliance of fine
honing and the tips glittered sharply. Each was exactly twice the
length of those permitted to a hunter of the tribes.

The governor ran his thumb along the length of the box, testing
the texture of the yew. It was said of him that his skill in war was
superseded only by a winning charm in the council chamber. There
was an easy warmth to his smile and humour in the creases around
his eyes that might well have passed for genuine candour in the
council chambers of Rome.

'I am told you are a smith.' The governor spoke in Latin, slowly,
and left a pause. His voice was warmly bronze, like a bell, and it
held no more threat than his written invitation had done. If he were
acting, if he knew the identity of the woman to whom he spoke and
was concealing it, he was exceptionally skilled.

Before the interpreter could fill the space, Breaca said in the same
tongue, 'Your honour, yes. My father was a smith. He taught me
his trade before he died. It has been a pleasure to recreate his work
for those who can appreciate it.'

'Indeed?' Crooking one eyebrow, Veranius lifted the first spear
and moved his hand along until he found the balance point. The
haft sprung in his grip. The blade quivered in the dusty light so
that, for those closest, the hare etched along its length seemed to
run. A sigh seeped from the assembled ranks of the tribal
delegations behind. Those who had ever sat a spear-trial knew
what they saw. The rest understood only that they were in the
presence of a beauty that transcended the world of the forum.

The governor stopped smiling. If Rome did not have its spear
trials, still, those who fought did so under the sway of their gods.
Slowly and with more care than before, he rested the spear's haft
across his flattened palms and spent some time examining the
blade, taking care not to tarnish the sheen of the surface with finger
grease.

At length, raising his head, he looked Breaca directly in the eye.
Abandoning the formal language of court, he said, 'I didn't know
the Eceni hunted with silver weapons?'

He was not acting, and the question held more than the words
alone.

Breaca returned his gaze. 'Your honour, we don't, but the
ancestors are said to have hunted bear with these blades when
called upon to do so by the gods. Silver is finer than iron and holds
its edge for less time. According to our most ancient lore, the blade
must be made and used within the turning of one moon or it is useless
and must be melted down again. A spear would be made on
the instruction of a dreamer and used within the month or not at
all.'

She did not say that the tradition was far older than the Eceni,
that those who had hunted in this fashion were the direct ancestors
of Ardacos' she-bears. Nor did she say that the month would end
in five days' time.

The governor was not a stupid man. Over the course of his
career, he had taken the time to study the ancestral histories of
several cultures. Nodding thoughtfully, he said, 'Silver is far softer
than iron. Does it not bend on hitting its target?'

'It may do. Such a spear as this must be thrown with absolute
accuracy. If it hits any bone, it will bend and will not kill, leaving
the hunter in mortal danger. If, on the other hand, the spear flies
between the ribs and strikes the heart, or through the neck to the
great vessels of the throat, the kill will be perfect and the hunter
will survive. In former times, it was a test of courage. Even to own
such a spear was a mark of honour. This is the first time in our
history that one has been given as a gift to a warrior who is not of
the tribes.'

'Thank you. I am deeply honoured. I am constantly astonished
by the beauty and craftsmanship of Eceni metalwork.'

The governor returned the spear to its bed of blue wool. Tracing
his fingers along the fine polish of the haft, he said, 'And of course,
they would be perfect weapons for use in battle for one with the
skill to throw them. If hurled at the enemy, the blades of those
which did not lodge in the soft parts of a man's body would bend
and could not be returned. We do the same with our javelins.'

He was a man with the charm of a diplomat and the intellect to
prosper in Claudius' Rome. He threw his rock lightly into the flow
of their conversation and waited for Breaca to run aground on it.
Shorn of its languid humour, his gaze was an open challenge.
Twenty years' training on Mona prevented Breaca from returning
it in kind.

Without rancour, she said, 'Your honour, we had heard as much,
but these spears are for sacred ceremony, not for battle. I would
not suggest that the governor use these against the Silures when
next he goes to war, but he may wish to try them some time against
bear in our northern forests. If not, I would feel honoured if he
would consider them worthy to take back to Rome as evidence of
his governorship when it ends.'

Her own rocks were smaller but no less obvious. She felt 'Tagos
twitch at her side and force himself to stillness. Quintus Veranius,
by Nero's grace governor of Britannia, stared at her for a moment
in naked astonishment, then threw his head back and laughed.
After a pause, several members of his entourage laughed with him,
though uncertainly.

The smile the governor directed at Prasutagos was genuine,
possibly his first that day that was so. Reaching over the table, he
clapped the king on the shoulder.

'My friend, your late wife was a delight to us all and I am sorry
for her passing, but this one is a gem beyond measure and you
should treasure her. A woman with a sharp mind who is not afraid
to use it is an uncommon gift. My lady' - he bowed deeply to
Breaca - 'I will convene a council later tomorrow at which several
officers recently in the west. . .'

He spoke, his mouth moved and there was doubtless meaning in
the words, but Breaca heard nothing. The world shattered and fell
to pieces in the face of the dark-haired man behind, whom the
governor's bow had revealed and at once concealed; the man with
the head bandage who had recently served in the west. The man
who, once, had been shipwrecked on the Eceni coast and lived
through a winter in a roundhouse as a guest of Macha, first of the
royal line of that tribe.

Graine reached up and placed her hand in her mother's. Her
small, cool fingers gripped fiercely and the pressure brought Breaca
back to herself and to the meaning of the governor's considered,
amused reply.

'. . . as to your second point, only his grace the emperor knows
when I may be recalled from my position here. I was honoured by
the deified Claudius in being allowed to hold my first governorship
for the full five years and I have a liking for your country such that
it would sadden me greatly to leave Britannia early. I will do my
best to stay as long as the law permits.'

He smiled at Breaca, showing white, strong teeth with a slight
gap in front. 'Does that answer both of your questions fully?'

'Your honour, it does, thank you.'

She could speak, which was good. The governor moved on to
her left, which was not good at all, but inevitable, and to be faced
with courage. Holding herself still much as Cunomar had done on
the hillside, Breaca of the Eceni raised her head and looked full
in the eyes the man she had known as Valerius Corvus, officer of
the legions and friend to her brother.

In the strange, slow world of the forum, with its whorled marble
floors and white plastered columns, Breaca was a girl again, standing
outside her father's forge in the mellow sun of late spring,
polishing the naked newness of her serpent-blade. The air was
warm and held more promise than any now in Camulodunum. The
hank of lamb's wool in her hand was greasy with lanolin and it
blued the blade of a weapon that had never yet taken a life.

With the naivety of one who believes the world will never
change, Breaca had laid her blade flat on her palms and offered it
to the dark-haired Roman whom the gods had seen fit to throw
from the sea at her feet. He had need of a blade; the elder council
had met to try him and, once condemned, his death would have
been the slow agony of a traitor unless he could fight in single
combat against a warrior of the tribes. Caradoc respected him and
had offered to fight. With courage and quiet pride, the Roman had
come to ask for her sword so that he might not die unarmed.
Because she did not wish Airmid to have to kill him, Breaca had
offered it.

The day had been slow and peaceful and the world had not been
at war. His eyes had been brown, like Ban's, and painfully honest.
Afterwards, when the elder council had freed him and he had not
been required to fight, he had been Ban's friend.

Now, feeling the burn of his eyes on her face, Breaca remembered
that one fact most strongly: Valerius Corvus was a man of
unshakeable integrity and a valued friend to her brother. Even so,
if any man of the legions might know the true identity of Breaca,
wife to Prasutagos, Corvus was that man.

Whatever his integrity, or his care for her brother, his duty would
not allow him to keep the knowledge from his governor and there
could only be one outcome of that. Graine may have been correct
that the crosses by the theatre had not been built for them, but the
men of Rome were ever resourceful; they could always build more.

The best way to hide is to be seen most clearly.

Only if those seeking do not know for whom it is they look.
Breaca had not imagined that the gods would play such games as
this.

The world became a smaller place and time ran slow. Graine's hand
lay still within her mother's, warming a little, her fair child's skin
unbearably soft against the old sword calluses, made new again by
a spring's forging. Her hair was the rich, deep red of ox blood; it
had been combed on waking to the gloss of horse hide and then
furled again by the ride down the hill so that it lay in shining ropes
to her shoulders. The top of her head came barely above Breaca's
waist. Her neck was slim and straight and achingly long, the skin
a translucent milky white, bluing a little over the veins, like flint
newly picked from a river. Her whole body weighed little more
than a three-month-old foal. Even to imagine it bruised was hard;
to see it in vivid colour twisted and broken by a rope should have
been impossible but was not. In the early tales of the first hangings
in the eastern steadings had come the stark truth that a small, lightweight
child does not die quickly and might easily outlive her
parents to die alone long after the rest of her family has gone.
Crucified, she could live a day and a night before the gods brought
the quiet of death.

Not while I am alive to prevent it. The decision slid between
other thoughts and did not seem unacceptable. In the early days of
Rome's purges, mothers had drowned their own children in the
rivers to keep them from the legionaries. The Boudica had no river,
but she was a warrior; she had killed often enough to know the
many ways by which a life might end. Suspended in a cold, unnatural
clarity, Breaca began to plan the means by which she might
most swiftly bring about the death of her daughter.

Cunomar stood on her right. He felt the change in her but was
too old to hold her hand. He leaned in slightly and his shoulder
brushed hers. Valerius Corvus, the man of integrity who held all
their lives in his hand, saw it and smiled. Cunomar, too, should die
before they could take him; he had stood once beneath his own
cross and should not do so twice. It would be more difficult, but
not impossible.

In her mind, Breaca began to sing the death song of Mona, that
is at once a gift of life to Briga and a prayer for a swift and easy
death. In place of her own name, she uttered, clearly, those of her
three children.

'Tagos stepped forward to sign his will on the governor's table.
Of the eight kings present, his was the last to be witnessed. Along
the line, men and women shuffled, sensing an end to the tedium of
rote-learned speeches and stilted Latin. As happened sometimes
in the moments before battle, Breaca felt her skin grow thinner until
the air around her was a river of languid, living sound that seeped into
her blood. The dust-laden light of the forum became a patchwork of
men's breath, and, within it, their weapons shimmered.

She had no weapons. The loss pressed on her as it had not done
in the six months since she had left her blade in the care of the
dead. The space at her side where her blade should have hung let
in the cold as if a child had left open a door in winter. The memory
of the ancestors' grave mound made dark the already dim light
of the forum until the only shine came from the silver-bladed
heron-spears that had been her gift to the governor. They hungered
for blood and it could be a child's shed in mercy as much as an
enemy's shed in battle, although neither was what they were made
for. Breaca measured the distance from her place in the line to the
yew-wood box lying on the table and knew that the officer Corvus
watched as she did so.

Her eyes met his: always in battle she knew the one of the enemy
who was most dangerous. He smiled a little, inclining his head, and
lifted one shoulder in a half-shrug that conveyed at once an
apology and a warrior's honour. Breaca nodded back and the air
became a blood-link between them. He was a man of integrity. She
did not believe he would find it necessary to crucify children, or a
warrior of Cygfa's beauty.

At the table the secretary gave an order. The governor's signature
was shown to the crowd. 'Tagos' will, copied onto two scrolls, was
not read out. The content of a king's last behest was rightly
considered a private matter, not for discussion by his peers who were
also his rivals in the constant competition for the governor's approval.

A sigh stuttered the length of the room, the exhalation of
diplomacy forced beyond its limits. Outwardly, all was perfect.
None of the infants had disgraced themselves. Of all those attending,
only the young, prettily pregnant wife of Cogidubnos, king of
the Belgae on the far south coast, had asked to be excused.
Everyone else had waited it out and took the time now to stretch
legs that were not used to long periods of standing.

A river of slow-moving bodies separated Breaca from Corvus. A
slave pressed a goblet of wine towards her.

She shook her head and smiled, motioning down to Graine. 'My
daughter must relieve herself. If you will forgive me?'

Graine looked up. Her eyes were the eyes of the elder grandmother
in the days before the old woman went blind. She smiled
and pursed her lips and did not argue in front of strangers.

Breaca pushed on towards the door. Cygfa followed behind. She
had fought too many battles with the Boudica not to feel another
coming; her eyes asked questions that could not be answered but
her body moved to the left and became a shield. Cunomar took the
right as if born to it. For both their sakes, Breaca prayed as she had
never done, that she might find at least one edged weapon before
Corvus found her.

They reached the door. Armed with a valid excuse, Breaca smiled
at the guards, who smiled back. The smooth flow of those leaving
became briefly turbulent on the steps leading out of the forum as
men and women stopped to speak to old acquaintances, so that it
was harder to keep formation than it would have been in battle.

Breaca looked back and saw a dark head, marked with a bandage,
reach the top of the steps and look round. Urgently, she sought
escape and took it, stepping sideways into a blind-ending alleyway
running between the governor's house and its neighbour that
already stank of many men's urine.

Graine, released, played her necessary part, raising her tunic to
squat in the dirt and it seemed that Breaca had not actually lied
to the sentries; her daughter did need to come outdoors. Unbidden,
the warriors who were her brother and sister set themselves at the
alley's entrance; Cunomar decorated a wall not far away. Cyfga
leaned idly against the opposite corner.

Privacy was impossible: others joined them, and for the same
need; the alley was the first obvious gap after the steps. An elderly,
white-haired Atrebatan warrior delayed his business for long
enough to stare at Breaca, frowning. 'I have heard tales of the
heron-spears of the Caledones,' he said, 'but never seen one. Is it
true they are cursed?'

Breaca shook her head. A winter spent in Prasutagos' company
had taught her a faculty for duplicity that Mona had never done.
'Only if you're a bear and their dreamers want your teeth and pelt
for their winter ceremonies.'

'I see.' The Atrebatan gazed at her thoughtfully. 'Perhaps, then,
the governor will use them to hunt the she-bears. I hear they are
still active in the west and he will be grateful for any help he can
get. I must remember to congratulate him when the opportunity
presents itself. Your daughter wishes to speak to you.'

Graine had completed her mission. Standing, she slipped her
hand in her mother's again, squeezing on and off in a signal that
Airmid might have recognized, but Breaca did not. The child's oxblood
hair had picked up the dust of the alley. Smoothing it down
so that her hand fell, as if naturally, on the nape of her daughter's
neck, Breaca led her back out into the open, away from the prying
eyes of a man who had once been her enemy. Berikos of the
Atrebates, who had once betrayed all of Britannia to Rome, stayed
behind her to add his own measure of piss to the tainted mud.

Cygfa waited near the alley's mouth. Cunomar was behind.
Corvus was not in sight. The space in front of the governor's
mansion was filled with milling delegates and their Roman hosts
and it was impossible to pick out one bandaged head amongst the
crowd. Breaca took a guess and led her daughter towards the left.

They were slowed by the crowd. Twisting her neck under her
mother's hand until she could look up properly, Graine said,
'Berikos only thinks he has seen you before. He isn't sure.'

A dreamer with such power should not be made to die so young.
Closing her eyes, Breaca said, 'Does he know where he thinks he
has seen me?'

'No. He is old and confused and his attention is mostly with the
governor and the trading rights he seeks from him. But the Roman
with the bandage on his head knows.'

'He does. He was a friend to your uncle Ban long ago, before he
was taken away. He knew all of us then, even your father. He
offered to speak for Ban at his long-nights, but--'

'Look, he's coming now.'

Too late, Breaca looked directly at the steps to the mansion.
Corvus was a stone's throw away, walking straight towards her,
while managing to look as if he had no real goal. There was
nowhere to go, no chance to run that would not leave a seven-year
old child to the mercy of the legionaries.

Crouching, Breaca made a show of re-settling her daughter's
tunic and unpinned her cloak. The brooch that held it was newly
made in bronze, an old shape, that could from some angles be a
spear-head and from others a hunting owl. The iron pin was half
the length of Breaca's hand; not long enough to pierce an adult
heart, but enough to kill a child if used swiftly and accurately. The
weight of the metal settled in Breaca's hand and the pin angled
forward.

'Graine, please know that I--'

'I do know. And I love you. But we have not yet been betrayed.'
Graine stood very still. Her wide eyes were the colour of clouds
after rain, as Caradoc's had been, with her own haze of sea-green
at the inner edges, where grey met the central black. It was not
possible to look into them and think of a life ended.

A shadow crossed theirs. Still lost in the surety of her daughter's
gaze, Breaca asked, in slow Eceni, 'Will the Roman with the bandaged
head betray us, do you think?'

From behind and a little to her left, Corvus said in the same
language, quietly, 'Not if he is not forced to.'

The green-grey eyes released her. Graine drew a shaky breath.
Breaca let herself look past the pin in her hand. Cunomar lounged
at the entrance to the alley, keeping watch to left and right. Cygfa
was close, standing amongst the crowd, guarding her left side.
Caught in the crush of her own whirlpool, Breaca said, 'What
might force him?'

'An action on the part of a woman who was once a warrior
which could be considered an act of aggression against Rome.'

Berikos passed them by, staring curiously. In Latin, Corvus said,
'The governor is genuinely grateful for the gift-spears. In every
way, you are a credit to your father and his craft.'

'Thank you.' Breaca began in the same language and changed
back to Eceni partway through. 'I will never be what my father
was, but I may be good enough to teach his skills to my children.
Do you still have the blade that he made for you?'

'I do. I keep it safe in honour of better times.' Corvus looked
weary. Age had thinned his face and added more scars, but the core
of him was the same as it had always been. Looking down, he laid
a hand on Graine's head. 'Is this your daughter?'

'Yes.'

'She's exquisite. You and her father must be proud.'

It was what the governor had said, more or less, but spoken with
a knowledge and an integrity that the governor's words had lacked:
Corvus knew the identity of Graine's father where the governor
could not have done.

The Roman officer knelt, took the spear-head brooch from
Breaca's hand and repinned her daughter's cloak. Happy that it was
secure, he smiled as any adult smiles to any child.

Graine was not any child; he had been watching her through the
ceremony and should have known better. The cool sea-green
dreamer's eyes had locked on his before he could look away. She
frowned a little, and, for a moment, looked achingly like Airmid.

When her brow cleared, she said, distinctly, 'Valerius Corvus,
you have been good friend to my mother's brother, the traitor
whom she once loved. Because of it, I would make you a gift of my
horse. She is the fastest we have ever bred. You and she will do well
together.' She used the formal language of Mona's council, learned
at Airmid's knee. The word she used was the one that signified a
gift between battle partners, or from sister to brother.

Corvus stayed very still. A muscle beside his eye twitched. In a
while, he looked up at Breaca. 'Is this so?'

'You would know better than me. You were a friend to Ban
when you were with us; I am prepared to believe you were so afterwards
when he fought for Rome. As to the horse,' Breaca
shrugged, 'she's the best mare I've bred yet. She was my gift to
Graine at year's turn, to be the beginnings of her own herd. If she
chooses to give her to you, it's her right. Do you have a good battle
mount?'

Corvus grimaced. 'Not any more. I had a good black colt, son of
a horse called the Crow out of a Trinovantian mare. Riding him
was like riding black lightning, but he was killed under me by a
woman of the Silures who went on to break my skull. I have
a remount to replace him; a good-hearted gelding but without the
fire of the black colt. I would not ride him into any battle that I
wished to ride out of alive.'

A handful of his fellow officers passed by. Corvus' knees cracked
as he rose. He patted Graine on the head. His face conveyed polite
interest in the child of a client king's wife. In Latin, he said, 'The
governor wishes us to assemble at the new theatre. Have you seen
it?'

They were not going to die. Corvus, the man of integrity, did not
find that his duty demanded it.

The understanding came slowly. Relief left Breaca hollow. She
breathed in the cold and the stink and the noise that was
Camulodunum. Graine's shoulder pushed into her thigh as a
hound's might have done, for reassurance. Corvus, prefect of the
legions, who had been Ban's friend, gazed quietly into the middle
distance, where a sow rooted in a sty, and waited while the
governor's guest brought the fractured parts of herself together.
From the new stillness of her mind, Breaca found the right words
to answer him. Formally, as he had done, she said, 'Perhaps you
could guide us to our first view of the theatre? We have not yet had
the pleasure.'


XVI.

SEEN FROM THE HILLSIDE ABOVE, CAMULODUNUM HAD BEEN A brick-and-whitewash fungus leaking unchecked across land
that had once been green. In the clutter of paved and muddied
streets and pathways, painted merchants' booths and shacks,
pigsties, wooden stables and loudly colour-washed villas, only the
triumphal gates in the west and the theatre in the east had stood
out from the rest.

Following Corvus through the mire, the noise and the smell
crowded Breaca more. The city was not a quiet place. Even close
to noon, the crowing cocks were barely outdone by the shrieks of
children and the bawling of men; men in armour and men in
chains, men ordering other men, men ordering women, men ordering
mules and packhorses and bullocks. A girl screamed, but only
once and not for long; Camulodunum was man's domain.

The smell was eye-watering: the ripe rottenness of too many
people crammed in too small a space, with their old food and their
new food and their goats and pigs and cattle and ordure and urine
and death. Of all the stories told to Breaca of Rome's new city,
none had mentioned that underneath the cacophony of life,
Camulodunum stank of death.

The wind backed round, hurling the full ripeness of it full in her
face. Breaca inhaled, regretted it, and spat.

Beside her, Cunomar grinned, sourly. 'Rome smells worse,' he
said. 'And it's bigger.' He was enjoying himself and it showed. The
almost-confrontation with Corvus - his mother's need for him, and
her trust - had left him sharper than before. As after the spear-trial,
the beginnings of the man shone through the child and he walked
taller because of it. Twice, Corvus drew a breath to engage him in
conversation, and twice, seeing the hate in his eyes, he stopped.
Instead, he fell in beside Breaca, who did not hate him.

'The theatre is ahead and to the left. The path is a little unkempt.
I'm afraid the construction of the temple to Claudius has somewhat
taken over this part of the city.'

'So I see.'

Breaca lifted Graine to her hip, to keep clean the hem of her
tunic. The path Corvus had indicated was a trail of much-trodden
straw laid across a sea of mud that was one with the building site
to their right. Within it, in isolated splendour, the part-finished
temple to Claudius grew from the slurry like some long-dead
animal drawn out by the gods, all bones and teeth and no flesh. Its
ribs lay open to the sky, faced on the inside with marble. Around
lay other piles of white marble slabs and squared-off roof beams,
heaps of freshly quarried flints, not yet washed clean, and
numbered stacks of gilded roof tiles which were under permanent
guard.

Those guards excepted, there was no sign of life near the temple,
no engineers, no architects, no slaves working under the whip.
Abandoned for the day, it sat amongst the bones of its scaffolding,
and it was as easy to imagine it shattered and the land beneath green
again as it was to imagine the heights it would reach and the fire that
would blaze from the gold-tiled roof when it was complete.

Corvus led them past slowly; one does not rush past the temple
to a god, even when that god was not so long ago a drooling idiot
whose own wife ordered his death.

Breaca held Graine close, feeling the patter of the small child
heart against her shoulder. She recognized by now the change in
her daughter when Graine began to see with the eyes of the dream.
Feeling it, Breaca smoothed a tangle of rich red hair from her face.

'What do you see?' she asked.

The green-grey eyes were widely vacant. 'Too many dead,'
Graine said. 'They don't know how to sing home the ghosts of
their dead.'

'The Romans don't?'

'Yes. And also the Trinovantes. The Romans break them as
slaves and when they die, the people do not have the dreaming to
sing them home.' It was said without passion. Where others would
have cursed Rome, or themselves for allowing it to happen, Graine
shook her head in disapproval and unforced sorrow. 'There are
others too, burning. It's not a good death.'

Breaca kissed her daughter's brow. 'No. Fire is never a good
death.'

The horror of the thought brushed both of them, trailing goose
feathers across too-fine skin. They held each other close, submerged
in the moment, and so were the last of the small group to
round the north-western corner of the temple and see what had
been placed there as a warning.

'Stop.'

Corvus said it, a man used to giving orders and having them
obeyed. Breaca had already stopped, because Cygfa had come to a
halt and was urgently making the signs to ward against evil. Beside
her, Cunomar was shaking as Breaca had never seen him, swearing
the oaths of the she-bears in a single unbroken stream that cursed
Corvus, the governor and all of Rome to an endless dying on
knives that cut but did not kill.

Beside them, the Roman officer Corvus stood stone-white and
still. Breaca walked into him as she rounded the corner, so that the
hissed curses of her two older children mixed with the Latin of his
apology.

'Breaca--' He put a hand on her arm. 'You must believe me. I
didn't know they were here.'

She believed him, if only because he looked so sick. It was the
smell that did it, as much as the sight. Breathing through her teeth,
Breaca looked past him to the paired crosses she had seen from the
hilltop, and knew, with a hollow hurt in her abdomen, that Graine
had been wrong, at least in part, when she said that the crosses had
not yet tasted blood.

It was not human blood, and the sheep hanging from the right
hand arm of the right-hand cross had not died there, but
somewhere else, where its throat had been cut and its skin flayed
off so that its pink flesh showed in a way that could at first seem
human. It had been gutted, to stop the gas of decay from blowing
it open, but neither cleanly nor recently and streaks of greened
intestines hung rotten from the open gap of its belly.

It was swaying slowly in the wind, turning on the rope so that
Breaca saw late what Cygfa and Cunomar had already seen:
that on either side of its chest, burned with an iron, the serpent
spear mark of the Boudica soared over the eagle of Rome.

Graine was sick.

Of all her three children, the Boudica's younger daughter had
been most sheltered from the raw brutality of war. Faced with the
evidence as never before, there was a small gap as she struggled to
understand, and then she vomited violently and colourfully into
the mud at Corvus' feet.

'I'm sorry.'

Corvus said it again, in Eceni as well as Latin. 'I don't know who
did this or why and when I find out there will be a reckoning. I
swear, if I had known, I would not have brought you this way. Or
I would have found a way to warn you. I am truly sorry.'

He knelt, offering water from a belt-flask to Graine, who was
sobbing now, and drawing the attention from those in front and
behind. Her shock was real, but overdone to turn eyes away from
Cunomar and Cygfa who stood together, finding their feet in a
world that had suddenly become unstable.

Breaca would have gone to them, but to do so would have
attracted more attention. She let Corvus tend to Graine and
accepted his apologies and found it within herself to smile at the
governor's secretary who brought the humble apologies of his
master and his wish that her family be seated soon within the
theatre where they might be sheltered from an ugliness which had
no bearing on them.

Three centuries of legionaries stood in ranks around the tiered arc
of the theatre and made avenues leading in towards the many
entrances and staircases. Breaca and her family arrived late, the last
of a few stragglers to make the journey from the forum. Ahead of
her, in a sea of gossiping humanity, eight delegations, with their
families, friends and retainers, made a show of being at ease in
Roman company.

They could not have missed seeing the hanged sheep, symbol of
cowardice and a failure to fight, but they chose not to speak of it;
instead the talk was loudly and pragmatically commercial. After
the heavy dignity of the early ceremonies, the gathering at the
theatre had all the subtlety of a cattle market. The contracts made
and broken here were every bit as binding as those witnessed in
Roman law throughout the morning session.

'Tagos was already there; this was a world in which he
flourished. His lack of an arm was no impediment, easily compensated
by a quick mind and the ability to strike sharp bargains.
As it had been designed to, the workmanship of his king-band had
won much attention and set him apart from the other client kings
so that his monopoly of Roman wines and olives from Greece had
not been broken.

Breaca and the now-silent Graine were conducted to his side
and, as Cunomar and Cygfa joined them, he was pleased to present
his family to the Iberian master mason who had designed and was
building Claudius' temple, to the balding Gaulish wine merchant
who was the third most senior magistrate of the city and who had
funded one hundredth of the temple's building costs to date, and
last and most effusively to the tall, white-haired Greek physician
whom he spotted waiting by the stairs to the central tier of
seating.

The physician was one of the few men held in equal regard by
Rome and the tribes alike. 'Tagos was rapturous in his greeting.
'Theophilus, what a delight! I had not thought you would grace us
with your presence on such an informal occasion.'

'Had you not? How could I not come to watch when one of my
former patients is to die?' Theophilus did not return the smile. His
clear hawk's gaze was directed exclusively at Breaca. 'This must be
your new wife. I am honoured to meet her. If I may?'

He bowed, not waiting for the completion of formal introductions,
and, taking Breaca's hand, laid his fingers on her wrist.
She felt a probing across the surface of her thoughts, not unlike
Airmid's or, more recently, Graine's, and a pull in her midriff that
was exactly like the first feather-touch of birth pains and then the
dry grip was gone and the physician was bowing again.

'My lady, I had intended to offer my services should you ever
come near childbirth but I see that will not be necessary. My best
wishes to you and your three beautiful children. They do honour
to you and their father.' He nodded in turn to Graine, Cunomar
and Cygfa and the colour returned, a little, to each of them
without words exchanged.

If his intent was to crush the king of the Eceni, he succeeded. In
one short speech, 'Tagos' hopes of a dynasty were prised open and
shown empty to the world. He opened his mouth and, fishlike,
shut it again. His eyes roamed the crowd around, seeking to find
who, if any, amongst his rivals had been close enough to hear.
Finding none, he turned away, calling Cunomar and Cygfa to
follow him.

Left alone, Breaca lowered Graine to the ground where the girl
could find her own feet and, catching the whisper of a thought,
said, 'I met an old friend this morning with a fresh bandage on his
head. Did you put it there?'

Theophilus' slow smile grew from the blankness of his stare. 'I
did. If he is a true friend, you are fortunate.'

'So it would seem. Is he a friend also to your patient who is to
die?' The crucifix jarred the corners of Breaca's mind. No man,
Roman or otherwise, deserved such a death.

'Ex-centurion Marcellus? Alas, no. That one is a man of few
friends and a great many enemies.'

'Is being friendless enough to sentence him to death?'

'It is if he has made the mistake of slaughtering an innocent man
in front of witnesses. His death will be an example to show that
Romans are not above the law. You will be expected to approve.'

Graine was right, then, at least in the first part. They are not for
us. A warrior of the tribes will die and one of Rome and both are
already held in prison. Breaca let the understanding show on her
face.

'In that case, I am sure we will appear to approve although I
would prefer it if the children did not have to bear witness. You,
I am sure, will be expected to disapprove and may thus be asked to
leave before us. Perhaps if there is time later, we could meet? Or
you could visit us in our own lands? I have a friend who would be
glad to meet you. She has some skills in childbirth but there is
always more to learn.'

'There is indeed.' Theophilus' eyes lit as Airmid's would have
done if the offer had been made to her. He touched a finger to the
caduceus that hung from a thong at his neck. 'I would be
honoured. The hospital is in the south-west of the city, two blocks
down from the governor's mansion. Ask anyone for directions and
when you get there find Nerus and tell him that you are there by
express invitation of Theophilus of Athens and Cos. Remember
that, Athens and Cos. If you say those two, he will let you in.'

Dressed in their togas, their bordered tunics, their tribal cloaks visible
statements of the wearer's affiliation to Rome, or its lack
- three thousand gossiping, preening citizens of Camulodunum
filled the banked benches of the theatre by the time the governor
led his officers in to their reserved seats on the lowest row of the
tiers. Breaca and her daughters sat at the governor's left hand, with
'Tagos on his other side.

The air in the theatre was still, hot and rank. Spring sun reached
over the top of the marbled walls to cast direct light onto the
sanded semicircle that separated the seats from the wooden stage
opposite.

A row of tables to the left of the stage held the delegates' gifts to
the governor. The sun blessed all of them, polishing already over
polished metal to blinding brilliance. A vast crater in gold bore
Berikos' Atrebatan mark of the oak tree combined with the eagle
of the legions. Beside it, Breaca's boxed spears seemed small and
unremarkable. Further along, a pair of red and yellow enamelled
brooches and a hollow gold torc displayed the heavily Romanized
style of Cogidubnos' Belgic smiths. A knife scabbard in dyed
leather, a belt, a set of horse harness and a newly woven cloak in
moss green completed the gifts of the Belgae. At the end of the table
closest to the audience, a chequered board of polished wood in two
colours bore a set of blue and yellow counters set out in rows at
either edge. It had not been on the table in the forum when the gifts were first presented.

From directly behind Breaca, Corvus said pensively, 'Someone's
given the governor a game of Warrior's Dance. Do you suppose he
knows how to play it?'

Without turning, she answered, as if to Graine, 'I expect one of
his officers could teach him. It would be a useful skill for a man
who would rule the tribes. If he could think with the cunning of
Cunobelin, war would be a thing of the past.'

'I'll see what can be done.' Corvus was grinning, she could hear
it in his voice. Then, without the humour, 'There will be some
unpleasantness now. It would be wise to appear unperturbed.'
The physician had offered the same warning and in the same
spirit. Breaca bent down to adjust Graine's cloak and whispered,
'A man is going to be crucified. A Roman. One of those held in the
prison. We will do what we can to send his soul home but we will
not speak out loud and we will not complain to the governor.'

Graine nodded. From the first moment of sitting, she had stared
ahead at the oak platform in front of her. Now she asked, 'Where
are the doors they will bring the prisoners through?'

'I don't know. I'm not sure there are doors.' Breaca looked where
her daughter looked. Finely planed oak planks made a resonant
floor to the stage. Curtains in Trinovantian yellow draped the
sides, hiding the wings. A multicoloured mural painted across the
back wall showed scenes of pipe-playing fauns frolicking by a
waterfall with androgynous nymphs, watched over by a god in the
form of a grazing bull. If there were doors, the gaudy curves and
splashes of the painting obscured their lines. 'Are you sure there are
doors?'

Graine frowned. 'I think so. I dreamed something like this but it
may not be here.'

Alert, Breaca asked, 'What happened in your dream?'

'Someone died. We wanted to stop it but couldn't. Cunomar was
unhappy.'

Cunomar had spent the winter 'unhappy' and the effect on
others had not been good. He sat now beside 'Tagos on the
governor's right. Breaca looked across and her son looked back
and he raised his hand in greeting. She wished for his sake that
Eneit could be there to take away the sourness of sitting next to
'Tagos. She smiled back encouragement and saw it accepted at face
value, with good grace.

To Graine, Breaca said, 'Cunomar hates injustice; it's his greatest
strength. Why don't you go to him now and tell him what you
dreamed and remind him that we are guests here and mustn't
interfere with the governor's justice. Can you do that?'

Graine frowned. 'Does the governor speak Eceni?'

'I don't think so, but you must assume that he does. Say nothing
impolite. We are his guests.'

For a solemn, watchful child, Graine could be playful when
it served her own will or that of the gods. Cheerfully, she
scampered off and clambered onto her brother's knee, tugging at
his ear and whispering loudly in Latin that she had a secret only for
him. Surprised, he embraced her and tipped his head so that,
lowering her voice, she could breathe into his ear. Those who overheard
would have caught enough of the subsequent story to know
that she had given her chestnut mare that had been a gift from her
mother to a nice man who had once known their uncle, but any
coherence was lost after that in a welter of excited, incomprehensible
child-speak that only one reared on Mona could possibly
have understood and only then if standing improperly close to both.

At the end of it, Graine drew back and, grinning, kissed her
brother on the nose. Cunomar blushed and ducked his head away,
then relented and kissed her back. Two dozen watching adults,
almost all of them parents, remembered childhood and its easy
freedoms and wished for themselves and their children the same
liberation.

Graine scrambled down from her brother's knee. On the way
back to her mother, she patted her stepfather's leg as she passed
and smiled dazzlingly for the strange, grey-haired Roman who
ruled her land.

The governor turned to his left. 'A quite exquisite child. Truly,
you are blessed, my lady.'

Breaca said, 'Thank you. Our gods have not deserted us while
the children can laugh.'

A horn sounded from somewhere nearby. Drums answered it.
And a sudden change in the stage proved Graine right in at least
the first part of her dream. A door opened, cutting in half the
largest of the dancing fauns on the stage-wall mural.

A detachment of retired veterans, glorious in their old parade
uniforms, marched onto the stage, turned about, drew their
weapons in synchrony and, striking up and out, made an avenue of
raised short swords. The tips clashed like cymbals as they came
together, a counterpoint to the resonance of the stage. Through this
avenue of violent brilliance, marching in slow time as if to a
funeral, two of the governor's personal guard escorted a prisoner,
marked as different only by the chains on his wrists. In an act of
calculated defiance, or of solidarity, the man was dressed in
identical parade uniform to the veterans.

The effect was dramatic. Every step forward showed the
prisoner as a man of courage who had served his god and his
emperor with exceptional valour and who was now prepared to
martyr himself for the sake of his governor. Ex-centurion
Marcellus may not have had many friends, but there were plenty
of men at whose side he had fought who resented his use as a
political tool and did not wish to see him abandoned in extremis.

The Trinovantes in the audience had fewer scruples. Whatever
their affection for Rome and its institutions, Marcellus had been
universally loathed. A slow, low chatter spread around the arc
of the theatre, approving the man's status as prisoner, disapproving
the sentiment of the veterans. Someone stamped a foot and the
rhythm became, slowly, that of the Trinovante death song, an
intricate patter of long and short beats that is learned from the
cradle or not at all. Others took it up and the beat spread round
the arc, a muted roll so that it might have come from drummers
at the river, but that the rock of it rang through the benches as
bodies moved to its sway.

The sound rose to a peak and then stopped, suddenly, and no
one could have said who had given the order. It was not an act of
overt hostility; it could have been argued that they did the man
great honour, but it had not felt honourable. Fear rippled belatedly
round the theatre as those who had most to lose by the onset of
reprisals realized what they had done and began to speak, too
loudly and too late, to cover it. Presently, that, too, faded away.

Everything waited. If there had been birds perched on the high
walls of the theatre, they would have held their breaths and stilled
their flight and waited.

An order was given in Latin. The two junior officers of the guard
brought their prisoner forward to the front edge of the stage. All
three men saluted.

The governor stood to return their greeting. Nothing overt in his
bearing changed but, in the silence that awaited his speech, three
thousand men and women of the tribes, the waiting veterans and a
dozen visiting officers were reminded that he had led two legions
in a summer's long campaign and that he knew exactly what it was
to be a soldier in the field.

His voice had commanded armies in the chaos of war and the
acoustics in the theatre were the best that his empire's engineers
could achieve, unmatched on any battlefield. When he spoke, it
seemed to those on the furthest tiers as much as the front benches
that he barely raised his voice and yet spoke directly to them.

'Marcellus, veteran of the legions, formerly centurion of the
second cohort, the Ninth legion, recipient of three crowns for
bravery in combat, you are accused of the murder of Rithicos,
harness maker and tenant farmer on your land. Three witnesses
have attested to this, two of them citizens, one a trusted tribesman.
Your guilt is not in doubt. Sentence has been passed. You will die
today, in the sight of those whom you have wronged. It is your
right to speak before sentence is carried out. Do you wish to do
so?'

'No. But I would show you who it is that you sentence so.'

The stage was Marcellus' alone. For his last performance, his
former comrades-in-arms gave him all the space he could need to
enact his own drama. The ranks who had made his entrance avenue
laid their naked blades in crossed pairs on the stage. From Breaca's
seat low down in the first rank of benches, they made a lake of sun
washed iron and it was hard to see beyond the brightness of it. From
higher up the tiers they would be more symbolic, an array of battle
weapons, made decorative for the purposes of peace.

Marcellus did not wait for silence to settle but simply, and without
drama, bent at the waist, placed his palms on the floor and
shrugged so that his mail shirt inverted and slid over his head; an
armoured skin, shed in shining links.

The chime of iron striking iron rang on the resonant stage as the
former centurion knelt and set the shirt straight as he might have
done after a day's campaign. Beneath, he wore a simple woollen
tunic belted at the waist. This, too, he removed, folding it and laying
it on the floor atop the mail. No-one moved to stop him.

The prisoner stood again and it seemed that he had spent a great
deal of his life walking in sun without his tunic. He was no longer
fit; his belly hung over his belt half the size of a pregnant woman,
but he had not always been so. The scars on his chest were many
and varied; through his years of service, he had met, and failed to
avoid, sword and spear and arrow-head. The mark of the bull in
the centre of his breastbone was old, the brand dulled with age. Its
presence explained, perhaps, the leeway he had been given so far in
his display.

Raising his arms, Marcellus began to turn a slow circle so that
those with experience of battle - the governor, his officers, the
warriors amongst the tribes - could see that he bore no scars on his
back. He had never retreated or, in retreat, had never encountered
those who could catch him. He would have preferred, doubtless,
that they believed the former.

His circle was almost complete. The men on the stage with him
had seen the long line beneath his left armpit and were remembering
the day it was new, recalling the battles they had fought with
Marcellus at their head. Only one of the officers of the guard saw
the danger and he too late to act. His shout served only to highlight
the climax of the prisoner's drama.

In the closing step of the circle, Marcellus flung himself down
and sideways, stretching out flat to reach the line of crossed short
swords lying forgotten on the stage. His open hand connected with
the grip of the nearest, swinging it back in a practised move that
brought him upright again, slightly breathless but armed in the
company of fifteen men, only three of whom had the presence of
mind to stoop and pick up their own weapons.

If the silence before had been polite, it was charged now with the
slamming power of a lightning strike. Three thousand men and
women each held their breath. Tribal warriors who had fought in
battle reached for blades they were not permitted to carry and let
their hands fall empty and useless at their sides. Breaca heard
Corvus stand and begin to work his way between the seats and
down the aisle. Two other officers of the legions did the same; these
men were chosen for their ability to balance politics with war and
to act appropriately. They could be trusted to contain this situation
now.

Marcellus watched them come. Raising the blade, he saluted
each one by name.

'Valerius Corvus: I will never forget your charge against the hill
fort of the Durotriges. The god saw it on the day and will hear of
it again from me. Cornelius Pulcher: I have heard of your actions
against the warriors of the west. You will prevail in time, I am
sure.' His sneer said otherwise. It fell away as he turned to face the
last of the officers, an ageing, white-haired centurion of the IXth
legion who looked easily old enough to have been pensioned as a
veteran himself. To him, Marcellus bowed. 'Rutilius Albinus, first
father under the god. I will give him your greetings as I give you
my honour, my oath and my life.'

Albinus, at least, saw what was coming. With a report like a
thunder clap, he sheathed his own sword and raised his arm in
salute at exactly the moment Marcellus reversed his grip on the hilt
of his stolen blade and, without error or hesitation, thrust it home
in his own chest, a hand's breadth to the left of the bull god's
brand. With his last conscious movement, he tipped forward, so
that he could have been said to have fallen on his sword and could
go to his god with honour.

He was dead before the first of the officers on the stage reached
him. They were slow, rendered sluggish by their own fear. Under
some governors they would have replaced Marcellus on the cross
for allowing a prisoner to escape his own execution. The legions
did not look favourably on men who failed in their duty.

The first of them knelt, his fingers laid flat against the great
vessels of the prisoner's neck, seeking signs of life that he would
never find. Thinking himself useful, he pulled the blade from the
lifeless chest and thereby released the ocean of blood waiting
within. The oak stage soaked it up, hungrily. At the sight, the
massed voice of the audience was released, creating its own sea of
astonished sound.

The governor was not one who visited unnecessary death on his
men. A brief move of his head caught the attention of the ageing
centurion of the IXth. 'Albinus? Your man, I believe. Please see to
his removal. The veterans may wish to claim his body. They may
do so.'

With practised alacrity, the old men on the stage formed an
honour guard and removed the body of the man they had respected
but not liked.

In death, Marcellus' memory was transformed from a battle
hungry officer and drunken abuser of men to a hero who spoke his
mind when all around him were silent. For now, he was simply a
body who was leaking blood and ranker fluids across the
governor's new stage. The veterans made a litter of two shields and
carried him away, doing what they could to minimize the mess. A
servant in tribal dress returned shortly afterwards with sifted sand
and poured it over, soaking up the worst of the excess. On the
ground below, two others drew across a long rake and smoothed
away the splashed debris from the deeper, paler sand that filled the
semicircle between the front row of seats and the stage.

Breaca watched Corvus return to his seat. His face was closed to
her but his eyes held a warning: There is more. Don't relax yet. She
lifted Graine onto her knee and said quietly, 'I think there's a break
now. Do you need to go out?'

The girl shook her head. Breaca bent to kiss her and said, more
softly, 'Is this what you dreamed of that made Cunomar angry?'

'Not yet, but it was here, in this place.' She faltered. 'It may not
have been today.'

'Then we will watch and see. If anything bad begins to happen,
will you let me know as soon as you see it?'

'I'll try.'

If Graine did not need to go out, a great many of the adults who
had drunk wine in the morning did. There was a shuffling and a
changing of seats and men and women passed each other on the
long stairs that led down the back of the theatre from the upper
ranks of benches. Breaca held Graine and talked lightly of nothing
to Cygfa while 'Tagos regaled the governor with his best tale of the
boar hunt by which he and Dubornos had together celebrated their
ascension to adulthood.

The governor, who had almost certainly heard the tale before, or
others like it, evinced total absorption and only one watching him
as closely as Breaca did could have seen the signal to the officers
on the margins of the theatre that ordered the start of the next
phase of the afternoon's demonstration.

The ranks of benches were full again and settling. A horn called
for quiet. The governor rose and stepped into the central area of
freshly raked sand, as visible from the top tiers as any man on the
stage. He had shed his cloak, leaving it on the seat when he rose so
that his armour took the full glare of the afternoon sun and lit his face to a silvered gold. A dreamer, doing such a thing, would have
known how to use the impact to bring the people closer to the gods. The governor of Britannia, being Roman, blinked firmly and set his face at a different angle to the glare.

'Warriors of the Trinovantes, of the Eceni, the Atrebates, the
Belgae...'

The entire crowd gasped. He was not speaking Latin, that was
the first surprise. In less than a year, he had learned a passable
version of the Trinovante dialect that was familiar throughout the
south-east, and he had called them warriors; that was the greater
shock.

His smile encompassed them all. 'Today we have seen that
Roman justice is impartial, that it is the righteous arm of the
distant emperor brought close. It protects the weak and restrains
the over-strong, allowing all to prosper equally without fear of
death or injury.

'And yet, for justice to work, the emperor's laws must be
scrupulously kept. We can be lenient in allowing any people to continue
their ancient rites and ceremonies in peace. Our gods have no
quarrel with your gods; in the heavens, all gods live together in
mutual respect. Our laws have no quarrel with your laws save
in the instance where the one overrides the other.'

He said it smoothly, so that only a churl could choose to take it
as an insult: We own you; our laws have precedence over yours and
the world is a better place because of it.

Holding her own mind still, that her eyes might not betray her,
Breaca felt Graine slip off her knee.

The governor was not watching the movement of children. His
gaze roamed over those whose lives had changed most and who
still resented it: men amongst the Trinovantes who had been called
to fund the temple to the Emperor Claudius and had been required,
on occasion, to help with its building; warriors among the Cantiaci
and the Coritani and the Catuvellauni who had fought against the
legions and might take up arms again if they had a good enough
reason; the Eceni, who had rebelled once, and might yet do so
again.

Speaking most to them, he said, 'Thus it is that when one is
found flagrantly to be flouting the most basic of our laws - laws
passed for the protection of all - then we must act with expedition
and no compromise, as we did with ex-centurion Marcellus.'

A signal was given. The drums marked the arrival of a new
prisoner. A door opened on the stage. The governor said, 'Such a
one has been found. He was captured in possession of a weapon of
length and size forbidden under the law and, when challenged, he
attacked our men, killing two and injuring one other so that he will
never fight again. For either of these alone, he must die. For both
together, he must face the harshest of penalties.'

His timing was perfect and must have been practised. His last
words reached the top tiers as those sitting in them caught their
first sight of the tribesman who had disregarded Roman law and
been caught doing so. The prisoner could not walk unaided. Two
fresh officers of the guard, older and more experienced than those
who had gone before, manhandled him through the faun's door
onto the stage and held him upright, naked and bloody, in full view
of the benches opposite. In the first shock of seeing him, all that
anyone could have said was that he had resisted arrest, or been
gratuitously beaten, or both.

One of the officers grabbed a handful of hair and forced the
prisoner's head up and it could be seen that his nose was broken,
one eye was swollen to a pulped mess of ruddy purple, a sword cut
ran the length of one forearm and a broken finger stuck out at a
painful angle. The way his left arm clamped to his side suggested a
second wound there, or bleeding inside. His breathing was ragged
and he showed no sign that he knew where he was.

Breaca counted all these things first; the blink-fast assessment of
the warrior in the field that seeks to find if the injured can fight on.
This one would never fight again without urgent treatment and
Rome did not waste the time of its field physicians on condemned
prisoners. The best that could be said, then, was that, even nailed
to wood, his death would not last beyond sundown.

A small, voiceless part of her celebrated his two kills and sought
a dreamer who could, equally silently, begin the song of soul
parting for one about to die in battle. Graine was her only dreamer
and she was no longer sitting on her lap or on the bench next to
her.

Dragging her eyes away from the stage, Breaca searched for her
daughter and found her sitting instead on Cunomar's knee, her
small hands clamped fiercely on his wrists, her face next to his,
speaking intently, quietly, in a constant stream of instruction. To a
stranger, possibly even to their stepfather, it was a continuation
of the whispered secrets of earlier. To Breaca, shockingly, Graine
was the only thing keeping Cunomar from attempted murder and
a fate identical to that awaiting the youth on the stage, because it
was a youth, not an older man, but a lad with short, wiry hair,
sticky with his own and others' blood; with brown skin that
darkened too fast under the sun; with a fine scar running the length
of his left arm from elbow to wrist, where Cunomar had landed a
lucky sword cut before his soul-friend had learned properly how to
defend himself.

'Eneit!'

The name broke from her, uncalled. The youth's head turned
stiffly and with difficulty; his hair was still held by the guard. He
stared at Breaca with his one good eye and slowly, fuzzily, an
understanding of where he was dawned on him. He opened his
mouth and closed it again on the impossibility of speech. His eyes
travelled along the benches seeking Cunomar and finding him. His
smile was a private thing and carried all possible messages from
apology to the joy of the warrior who has made his first kill in
battle. Over them all was love and an abiding sorrow.

Without question, he was Eneit.


XVII.

BREACA ROSE IN HER CHAIR. CYGFA WRAPPED COOL FINGERS round her wrist and held her back. From behind, Corvus
said, in quiet, forceful Eceni. 'No. Think. There is nothing
you can do.' From her right, the governor turned her way and said,
'Do you know him?'

'Your honour, this is Eneit nic Lanis. He is Eceni, the son of a
friend.'

They had the beginnings of friendship, she had felt it. His eyes
reflected the same, and a moment's indecision, then he said, 'I'm
sorry. Justice does not know the bounds of friendship. Marcellus,
too, had those who cared for him. The youth must die; that is not
in question.'

He had been a diplomat before and after he had been a general.
In that last sentence was an opening. He had not said, 'He must be
crucified,' when it had clearly been planned.

From Cunomar's lap, in the language of Mona, Graine said,
'This is my dream. His death can be yours or theirs. You must
decide.' She said it, lightly, in exactly the tone she had told her
brother of the gift she had made of a horse to a nice man. The
threading imperatives of a dreamer carried in other ways, beyond
the words.

From Breaca's other side, Cygfa said, 'The governor has just
pretended a respect for our laws. Offer him the spear-challenge of
the she-bears. You have the spears ready and waiting. The grandmother
did not ask you to make them without a good reason. This
may be it.'

Trust, Airmid had said as she was told of the elder grandmother's
instruction, trust the gods and yourself. You will know
what is right when it is right. I cannot guide you beyond that.

Cold washed Breaca, and a sharpening of the senses that came
with the breath of the gods. Airmid's voice echoed from the distant
past of their shared youth, long since forgotten: We dreamed her
son. He was killed by one of the tribes and one of the legions, and
those who could have stopped it looked on and did nothing. She
got up and moved out into the open space between the chairs and
the stage.

'Tagos had never been to Mona and had only the barest understanding
of its dialects. The governor leaned over to ask him a
question and he was not able to answer it. From the raked sand in
front of the benches, in full view of the entire theatre, Breaca spoke
for him.

'My daughters have suggested that, since we have seen Rome's
justice once today, perhaps for balance this man should submit to
the justice of the tribes. This event is unprecedented but there are
parallels within our laws. The spear-challenge of the she-bears is
similar to the trial set to our youths who would be warriors, but
with important differences. In the warrior-test, the youth must
throw at a target of straw. In the challenge of the she-bears, the
target is a living warrior. It is a test of courage equally for those who
throw and the one chosen to die. I believe it would be suitable here.'

Like the governor, Breaca was used to addressing thousands in
far less clement circumstances. Her words carried to the upper
benches as the governor's had earlier done but that here was the
sense that she was addressing the man alone and the others were
eavesdropping on a private conversation in a way that breached
the bounds of decency. Throughout the theatre, adults shuffled and
coughed. Younger children asked a whispered question, loudly.

After a pause in which a number of possibilities were considered
and discarded, the governor asked the same question. 'Tell me the
nature of the spear-challenge?'

'It is a test of courage undertaken on the eve of battle. Three
spears are dedicated to Briga, who rules the outcome of war. Two
are cast together by warriors on opposing sides of the conflict. The
one which strikes most closely to the heart of the one-to-die is
deemed to have made the kill, and the warrior who threw it is
permitted to throw the final spear.'

A greyed eyebrow rose a fraction. 'At a dead warrior? I had not
thought the tribes would stoop to empty symbolism when your
lives are bent most surely to practicality and function.'

'No. In the original form of the test, the third spear is cast at the
warrior who failed the throw, the one who did not make the kill.
Thus, in starting, both know that they risk death and must throw
their best, not knowing the accuracy of the other. The gods hold it
in their hands to change the flight of a spear, or for the condemned
warrior to stumble or fall so that a spear thrown truly may yet
miss.'

'He is not tied?'

'No. He, or she, must stand upright and embrace the coming
spears. Thus is a warrior's courage tested, and a chance given to
honour the gods.'

The governor was staring at her with an intensity he had given
to nothing else that day. Breaca said, 'It is a way of deciding the
outcome of a battle with minimal loss of life. The tribe of the one
warrior left alive is considered to have won.'

Softly, the governor said, 'My lady, your people and mine are no
longer at war.'

'We are not. The battles have long since been fought and their
outcome is in no doubt. There is no precedence for this in our rites,
but I believe we could throw for honour and in celebration of the
gods, yours and mine. The third spear could be thrown
symbolically into the body of the prisoner as you proposed. It must
take some part in a death, else Briga will be dishonoured.'

'I see. Of course, we should not dishonour so formidable a god.'
He was nodding, his gaze fixed on hers. 'It is fortunate, perhaps, ,
that we have three spears to hand. Would they be similar to those
used in this trial?'

'Identical. This is the second use for the heron-spears of the
Caledonii.'

'And is that a coincidence?'

They were no longer speaking for the crowd. Breaca said, 'Your
honour, under the eyes of the gods there are no coincidences, but I
swear in the name of everything we both hold sacred that I had no
idea that the spears I fashioned as a gift for you would be used
against a member of my tribe today. Had my daughter not
mentioned it, I would not have remembered that the spear
challenge existed. It is a thing we speak of in our histories but do
not practise. It was carried out in the times of the ancestors and
then only rarely; no-one living has attempted it that I know of, nor
back in time for over three generations. If the governor would
honour us by accepting it, he would be recreating one of our most
ancient ceremonies.'

She raised her voice only a little for this last sentence, but the
theatre was well made; her words echoed out to the back walls and
round again. Men and women of the tribes who had been born into
freedom remembered the shadows of the grandmothers' tales. Few,
if any, would know the deeper details of a ceremony carried out by
a distant northern tribe, although the more astute, knowing the
ways of the she-bears, could imagine it.

The governor of Britannia was one of the most astute men of his
generation. He said, 'Was it ever the case that the rulers of the
tribes took part in this trial? Or was it their chosen champions?'

'It could be either. That decision was taken by the dreamers and
the gods. All three of those taking part were chosen by lottery.'

'So the one to die was not necessarily either a prisoner or a law
breaker?'

'Not always. It was a position of honour as much as the other
two. The one who died first did so taking the messages of both
tribes to the gods. By his integrity were the lives of the other two
measured.'

Breaca was talking automatically, not choosing her words. Her
attention had shifted almost entirely to Cunomar, who had ceased
to struggle against Graine and was sitting upright in his seat, his
fair skin bone-white in the afternoon shadow, his eyes large and
black.

In a dry, taut voice she knew intimately but had never heard
before from her son, he said, 'If it must be so, let me be the one to
throw for the Eceni.'

He had cast his spear not hearing its soul-song and did not
understand the lack. Eneit did. The warning on his face worked
past the bruising and the cuts. Cunomar chose not to see it and
Breaca could not explain in public. Her son's eyes drained her, the
shine of his soul and the desperate courage it had taken to make
this request in this place amongst these people, and the conviction
that he would succeed. Her heart broke open on his certainty, on
his pride and ignorance and the cost to them all of his certain
failure. Caught in a tidal wave of pain, he had not thought through
to its end the fate of a warrior who failed this trial.

The governor was waiting, his face a model of restrained
curiosity. Cunomar had spoken in Eceni, which he must understand,
at least in part. Breaca could not change to another language
without arousing undue suspicion.

Cunomar felt her decision before it came. With a desperate
courage, he abandoned the last of his pride and begged. 'Mother,
please? It is his life and mine.'

No battle had ever been harder. Holding her son's gaze, knowing
what it cost him, Breaca said, 'No.'

'Mother! It's Eneit. You can't let these godless, bull-worshipping
sons of--'

'Tagos stopped him, physically. In the eyes of Rome if nowhere
else, the king of the Eceni was the boy's father and responsible for
his conduct. He clamped his one hand over Cunomar's mouth,
harder and more fiercely than Graine had done, and with less love.

'Your honour? If I may make a suggestion?' The voice from the
benches caught the attention of all but Cunomar's immediate
family. Valerius Corvus, prefect of the auxiliaries, squeezed
past his fellows and stepped down onto the raked sand from
where he saluted the governor, crisply. The bandage on his
head showed cream in the sun, the one on his leg was in shade and
grey.

He said, 'Your honour, as I understand it, in the days of the
ancestors, the dreamers of the she-bear would have named those
who should take part in such a trial. No dreamers are permitted to
practise their craft, but we must uphold the honour of Rome and
the emperor and it behoves us to do our best in this. The heron
spears of the Caledonii are not balanced as are the spears of the
legions. Their flight and cast length is different and the feathers
hung from the neck make them exquisitely sensitive to any gust
of wind. As you know, I spent a winter and a spring in this
land before the invasion and I have thus had some experience
in the use of Eceni war spears, which are similar. Thus I would
offer my services in this, as one fit to uphold Roman honour.'

All the way through his speech, Breaca had warned Corvus with
her eyes. He had acknowledged the warning and chosen to ignore
it.

The governor placed his palms together and tapped the peak of
his fingertips to his lips. If he had been a warrior, one would have
imagined he asked advice of Briga and was given it.

Presently, he said, 'Thank you for your offer and the arguments
surrounding it. I accept the first part, which is that this trial is an
honourable one and should certainly take place. I agree also that it
is not without its dangers, both told and untold. I do not accept
your second premise. You are injured and, as such, are not fit to
represent Rome.'

If he had been slapped on the face, Corvus could not have looked
more shocked. 'Your honour--'

'No. With respect, prefect, you are like the boy; ardent and willing
but blind to your own defects. He is too young and too
unskilled. He has not yet shed blood in battle and his affection for
the prisoner is too apparent. You have age and skill enough for any
task, I would never suggest otherwise, but you are less than a
month from wounds that nearly killed you. You bear the evidence
yet in your dressings, and for those who know you it shows more
clearly in your walk and the way you hold your head when you
believe yourself alone and unwatched.' Unexpectedly, he turned to
address someone on the bench behind. 'Theophilus? In your
opinion, is the prefect fit to take on a role equivalent to combat in
battle?'

The physician jerked his head from a study of Eneit. 'Absolutely
not.'

'Thank you.' The governor stood and was a younger man,
scenting battle and eager. To Breaca, he said, 'Your gods are not my
gods but they lived on this land long before we came and will do
so long after we are all dust and ashes. We will honour them with
our best endeavour. I believe myself to be capable of that. Do I take
it that you will represent the Eceni, from whom the prisoner
comes? You may be assured that in this place and this time you
have my full permission to take up and cast a blade of a length
forbidden to the tribes.'

'Thank you. Yes, I will represent my people.'

Her words carried throughout the theatre. By the end of the day,
they would have spread to those Trinovantes not present, and by
the end of the month to the tribes beyond. If Breaca had ever
wanted to stake her place as a warrior without saying aloud the
name of the Boudica, she had just done so.

Only give them heart, and you may prevail. She offered a prayer
to the god that this might be so, and safely.

A smaller ripple moved the ranks of benches beside the governor.
Cygfa had wanted to throw for the Eceni but had not been able to
say so. Cunomar struggled against his father and was held silent.
His eyes screamed unending anguish at his mother. Of her children,
only Graine, with her shy smile, approved.

From the back of the stage, Eneit, forgotten, said, hoarsely,
'Thank you.'

There was room enough in the semicircle between benches and
stage for the governor to pace back thirty paces away from one end
and mark a line in the sand with the heel of his boot. Fresh guards,
summoned at a nod, cleared the audience from the ranks of
benches on the eastern side of the theatre lest one of the three
spears, chancing to fly high or a little to one side, should taste the
blood of an onlooker.

Eneit was unbound and escorted to his stance by the officers of
the guard. Breaca followed, holding back until they had left
him. She was not a dreamer and her memory of the rites was not
perfect. She wanted to ask the details of Airmid who was half a
day's fast ride away, or Graine, who had to stay with Cunomar and
was equally inaccessible.

Trust the gods and yourself. You will know what is right. She
could and did pray, and felt the touch of the god's breath on her
neck. Holding the three names of Briga in her head, she watched
the guards walk back out of earshot. Each of them made the
Roman sign that was the ward against evil as he left. She was glad
of that.

Eneit could stand unaided, which had been her first question.
His one good eye was alight and lively. He attempted a smile and
held it against obvious pain. Using his body as a shield so that none
of the onlookers, from Rome or the tribes, could see, Breaca
sketched her own sign of the serpent-spear on his forehead, on the
centre of his breastbone and in the space below his navel. She made
the signs slowly, with obvious ceremony, giving him time to empty
of words.

On the first of the three, he said, 'I went back to the ancestors'
mound. It was a mistake. I was seen by a tracker of the Coritani
who reported it. The legionaries took Sinochos' blade and broke it.
I'm sorry.'

'Don't be. Blades can be mended. It is you who cannot, for
which we are all more than sorry. If there were a way to free you,
we would take it, I swear.' Breaca made the second sign.

'I know. And my mother knows. She always told me that the day
I held an edged weapon would be the day I died. I had always
thought it would be in battle.'

'It was. You killed two of theirs. You go to the gods with one
more dead than the cost of your life. There are many who die in
battle who could not say the same. The spear-challenge of the she
bears is only for proven warriors, did you know that?'

His good eye sparked, joyfully. 'I had hoped it was. Do I carry a
message to the gods?'

'Ask them to look over us when the final battles come. We will
need their help more than ever.'

The third sign was complete. She had done all she could. On an
impulse, and nothing to do with any rites she had witnessed,
Breaca held the boy's shoulders and, very gently, mindful of his
bruises, kissed him on the brow. His body shuddered under her
touch, but not with pain.

Thickly, Eneit said, 'Tell my mother I'm sorry to have hurt her,
but not sorry to have killed the enemy in battle. Tell Cunomar . . .'
He faltered, losing the words.

'I will tell him you love him. He knows it already. You will know
how he feels for you.' She had not seen the depth of their care for
each other and should have done. The failure scoured her.

Eneit smiled. 'I do. Thank you. Tell him from me that he must
find the courage to live on from today, that I will be watching from
the lands beyond life and will wait to greet him from a place where
a year passes in a heartbeat.'

'In the place of no time, a heartbeat lasts also eternity.'

'I know. Don't tell him that. He has no patience. Remind him of
the meaning of my name and say that he should give it to his son
when he has one.'

Eneit's name was the word for spirit and it filled him. He was
neither weeping, nor plunged in self-pity. She had seen warriors
ride into battle with less courage. Breaca said so, backing away,
and the wide, lazy blaze of his smile lit the highest stands.

She walked back the thirty paces slowly, giving him time to
savour the sun and the lingering moments of life beyond grief and
loss. He had not seemed in pain as she left and the shaking had
stopped. He had, she thought, already begun to see Briga circling
with her ravens. There was no better sight for one entering battle.

Breaca's gift to the governor had been retrieved from the table by
the stage and laid out so that the spear-blades rested on the edge
of the box and the butt ends of the hafts lay wedged in sand. The
undyed heron feathers dangled loose and twisted in the breeze.
The different colours of the butt ends distinguished them.

The governor had already picked the palest, most gold of the
three. He stood beside it, stripped of his cloak and the gilded
cuirass. Another man might have looked plain; he did not. He said,
'Have you ever thrown a spear of this design?'

'No. It is not permitted to lift one except under the guidance of
a dreamer. They have only a single throw and then are broken. I
made them; I did not test them. I would not put you at so great a
disadvantage.'

'I apologize. I had not intended an insult.'

'None is taken. The wind is from the south-west but it has been
caught by the arc of the theatre and is turbulent in the middle of
the space. As Corvus said, the large blades and trailing feathers
make the spears sensitive to the air. They are the hardest to throw
of any weapon. You need to hear the soul-song of the spear to
make a true cast.'

'I am in your debt.' He dipped his head towards the spears. 'Shall
we?'

They lifted their spears. The sun was low and at their backs,
stretching their shadows across the sand. The guards had been dismissed
and stood at the back of the stage with a shield to carry the
body. They were alone, but for Eneit, thirty paces away. Breaca
said, 'Someone neutral who is not of our tribes should give the
order to throw. Might I suggest Theophilus of Athens?'

'A man known to have affection for both sides? Yes, a good
choice.'

The governor signalled. After a moment's confusion, the
physician joined them. He was not displeased to have a part to
play. A faint flush warmed his high cheeks and the flanks of his
nose. Taking care not to be seen to smile, he said, 'Is there a sign
for which I should watch?'

Breaca said, 'Yes, but only you will know it. I cannot.'
'Of course. You must have no advantage.' He was a man used to
listening to the world, if not to the gods, and it did not trouble him
to know that the lives of others hung on his observations. 'Raise
your spears then, and make ready. I will tell you when to throw.'

Breaca had picked the darkest of the three spears, blessed by
Nemain, god of night who guided both Graine and Airmid. She
raised it to shoulder height and turned to face Eneit. The governor
copied her. Silence enclosed them. In a world where time passed in
a heartbeat and was eternity, they waited.

The crowd could have filed out and been replaced by cattle or
crows and Breaca would not have known it. Her world was Eneit
and the wind and the change in length of a single, crisp linear
shadow that was the heron-spear, with its dangling feather. The
muscles of her throwing arm burned. The pain lived outside her
and was not important. Eneit shrank until he was only a caged and
beating heart. He swayed and she swayed with him. A raven settled
on each of his shoulders and she knew she was not seeing the world
as others saw it. She slowed and stilled and only the beat of her
heart shivered the tip of the spear. Its song settled about her, rich
with moonlight and the joys and pains of motherhood and the
beckoning whisper of the ancestor-dreamer and the gods as they--

'Throw!'

The word struck Breaca's soul as a hammer an anvil, releasing
the pain of the song. Her arm moved of its own intent. The spear
thrummed and flew with a will apart. She watched its flight as if
time had stretched and the air become thick as blood, slowing it.
The circling wind in the centre of the orchestra teased the blade,
drawing it down; she had aimed high expecting it.

The tip settled on a line for Eneit's heart. Relief drenched her
prematurely. Sweat greased her palms, which had been dry. On the
edge of her existence the crowd sighed. The second spear caught up
with hers and they flew together, converging on a single space. She
blinked and both spears became one, became two, became his and
hers and hers and his and one or other struck skin and she did not
know whose. The elongated blade slid cleanly between ribs that
barely shifted as Eneit, in a final act of outstanding courage, drew
in and held his last breath. The spear-song ended, exuberant, and
all grief and joy were hers.

She felt the punch to his heart as her own and saw the third of
Briga's ravens descend. Eneit jerked back and a little to his right.
The second spear, which had aimed truly for the centre of his chest,
hit a rib, glancing sideways before it sank into flesh. By will alone,
the boy held himself upright one last moment and fell back heavily
onto sand. A single member of the audience shouted approval and
was hushed.

The heat of waiting sucked the air from her lungs. Flushed and
breathless, the governor said, 'He's dead. I have never thrown more
truly in my life, but I could not say which spear is the more central.
Theophilus, as our adjudicator and our physician, will you tell us
which of the two spears made the kill?'

'I'll try. You should come with me. Waiting here won't make the
answer any different.'

Eneit lay on his back, his eyes open to the vacant sun. The spears
stood upright, their hafts trembling a little on the closing beats of
a twice-pierced heart. The blades were a hand's breadth apart in
the boy's chest and at differing heights. The paler of the two sat in
the rib space above the darker.

Theophilus, unwilling to kneel and reduce the dignity of his
office, leaned over and studied them a while. Presently, he said, 'I
feel like an augur staring at the cut surface of a liver on which
nothing is written. The boy's heart is the size of a man's fist across
and a little longer from apex to base. It lies in the chest slightly to
the left side and the top is behind the nipple. I would need to
open the chest and examine the body in greater detail to be certain,
but I am as sure as I can be that each of these spears has hit the
heart and that either one alone would have killed him. If this were
a Greek contest, the prize would be equally split between the two
contenders. That may not be so in the rites of the dreamers.'

Most emphatically, it was not. Still soul-struck, Breaca felt the
blood flood from her head and return, sluggishly.

The governor, who was still studying the spears, said, 'Not bad, I
think, for two warriors, long out of practice.' He stood and extended
his hand to take Breaca's. 'My lady, in the rites of your ancestors,
which of our tribes would have been said to win the battle?' He did
not ask, And which of us, as the loser, would have died?

Breaca had no idea, and no way to find out. One spear must kill
and the other fall into dead flesh, one warrior win, the other forfeit
not only the contest, but life; the gods did not allow it otherwise.

A decade's training on Mona furnished her with the words the
governor wanted. Knowing it untrue, she said, 'I think it possible
the battle would have been won equally by both. It would have
been a sign from the gods that the two tribes were to be allies.'

Quintus Veranius smiled as a youth might smile, having asked a
favour and had it granted. 'Then the third spear should be lodged
by us both together. Perhaps, if we are careful, we might not
damage the blade and I can have at least one whole representation
of your craft to hang on my walls as a reminder of this day?'

Theophilus brought the third spear. Under his direction, they
each held the haft and slid it together with extravagant care into
the left side of the boy's chest then drew it out again, leaving only
a smear of new blood across the skin as evidence. The governor
took possession of his new prize and had his cloak brought so that
he could clean the blade before nesting it in the raw wool within
the gift-box.

Breaca felt a shadow cross hers and turned. Corvus was walking
over the sand towards her. He saluted, crisply. In Latin, he said,
'Congratulations, my lady. I have rarely seen so sweet a throw. If
you will allow me, it would be my pleasure to escort you back to
the stands.'

More quietly, in the language of Mona, which he should not
have known, he said, 'Your son Cunomar has gone. Cygfa asked
for permission to follow. I would have given it, but Graine said not.
I am thus revealed as a man who takes orders from a seven-year
old girl-child. My only consolation is that Cygfa heeds her also. I
think you should talk to them both. If, as Graine believes, your son
intends to sit his long-nights and is caught, he will suffer the same
fate as this boy would have done. The crosses are still empty. They
thirst for blood as deeply as does the third of your spears.'



III. MID-WINTER AD 58 - AUTUMN AD 59


XVIII.

THROUGH ALL THE YEARS OF CHILDHOOD DREAMS AND THE many more of adult desperation, Julius Valerius, who had
once been Ban, brother to Breaca of the Eceni, had never
imagined that he would pass his long-nights in a dreaming
chamber in the heart of a stone-built mound in the wild lands of
Hibernia in the company of a hound whose sheer size would terrify
him, nor that he would pass the time in deeper terror at his own
impending failure.

The hound had been there from the start. Valerius had brushed
against it as he crawled in through the lightless tunnel into the
chamber and it had risen, grumbling, and pressed its nose to his
face so that he had known it was as big as Hail, if not bigger, and
that it resented his intrusion. Then, he had not known how small
the chamber was, only that the tunnel had finally opened out so
that he could rise from his elbows and knees and he was grateful
for that.

Stretching his fingertips to touch the stone, he had found he
could touch both walls and press his head to the roof without ever
standing fully upright; thus a mound which, from the outside, had
looked large enough to house half the elders of Mona was reduced
on the inside to a space barely big enough for a war hound and a
man to stand together.

The hound had not wished them to stand together. The grumble
had risen to a snarl, increasing in threat until Valerius sat on the
earthen floor and pressed his back to the stone wall and drew his
knees to his chest. He had been an officer in the emperor's cavalry,
had led armies into war and burned villages to the ground, and a
single hound reduced him to the smallest space he could occupy.

He would have laughed at the absurdity of it, but the beast was
too close. Instead, he had spoken to it in Eceni as if it were Hail
and it had calmed a little, circling and then stretching out along the
far side of the chamber so that the wash of its breath had flavoured
the air, sending currents round the close curves of the walls to
warm the back of Valerius' neck.

In its own way, the presence of the hound helped to balance the
claustrophobia of the chamber. The smallness of it left him mute at
the same time as he marvelled at the means by which the ancestors
had taken a mass of stone that would have built the outer wall of
the emperor's palace and shaped it instead into a perfect beehive to
protect the sanctity of the chamber at its heart.

Lacking any other distractions, the man who had once been an
engineer to the legions explored by touch the place that might well
become his coffin and the last repository of his soul. Square-edged
stones pressed into his back, as sharp as the day they had first been
cut. The stone pavings of the floor met with joins so finely matched
that he could not pass a fingernail between them. Only a shallow
dip, worn exactly where he sat, gave testament to the hundreds the
thousands - who had sat through their long-nights in exactly this place in the generations since the ancestors of the ancestors
first built the mound.

Each of those who sat before had, presumably, known exactly
what it was the gods and dreamers required of them. Valerius sat
in ignorance, increasingly afraid of his own fear and his own lack
of knowledge. He had expected instruction and had been given
none and there was no way, any longer, to ask for it.

Mac Calma had sent him in and it was the memory of mac
Calma's voice that filled the breathless air. When you were dreaming,
which gods did you petition, yours or mine?

'I have no gods.'

Valerius had said it first in the paddocks behind the dreamer's
hut on Mona. He said it again, quietly, now, to the hound and the
waiting dark and did not know whether the silence that rolled back
was a good sign or bad. At the very least, he believed that what he
said was true: Mithras had spoken to him once in a cave in
Britannia, and the gods of the Eceni had shown themselves
in Rome by their actions, but none had touched his life in the five
years since he had first set foot on Hibernia and he had no reason
to think they would do so now. He had not noticed the moment
when he had become free of the gods, but he had believed it a good
one; his life was more peaceful in their absence. He had no wish to
see them return, except that, without their direct intervention, the
rite of the long-nights was doomed to failure and Valerius to an
ending more final than death.

Mac Calma had been clear about the risk of that: You must
know . . . any failure means death, not only of your body but of
your soul, and that even I, who am Elder of Mona, cannot keep
you safe from that.

Valerius did not want to be kept safe by any man. Life was not
safe and could not be made so. To believe otherwise was a child's
delusion and Valerius had abandoned his childhood when he
abandoned his old name and his mother's gods; he had no
intention of being seduced back to any of those, however great the
threat.

Every child knew of someone who had failed in the rites of manhood,
but never personally. Rumour spread from generation to
generation with details of the many routes to death. Some chose
badly in the place to sit and were slain by bear or lightning or
sudden floods. Some met with dream-makers, living warriors who
came against them to test their skill, always with orders to kill if
the boy-who-would-be-man did not respond with a warrior's
speed. Some simply walked out into the night and never came
back. The dreamers scoured the pathways of the dream time for
their lost souls. Only rarely did they find them. Too late, it
occurred to Valerius that, very badly, he did not want to lose his
soul.

Knowing that, the only clear alternative was to face the dark and
all it held and he did not wish to do that either.

He had a lifetime's practice in ignoring those things he most
wished not to see; in this, if nothing else, he was expert. Alone with
a sleeping hound, with a world's weight of stone all around him
and lacking all delusion, Julius Valerius, once-Eceni, once an
officer in the armies of Rome, son of two dreamers and killer of
many more, sat with his knees hugged to his chest and chose not
to consider what it might mean to lose his soul.

Some time later, unthinking, he stretched his legs flat and leaned
his back against a differently angled stone in the wall. Mac Calma's
last words skittered through the gap thus opened in his discipline.

You will know when it is time. I cannot help you.

The Elder's voice had been distant, even then, at the start. The
tunnel leading into the chamber had beckoned and Valerius had
crawled along it, welcoming the dark after the too-bright fire and
the scorch of mac Calma's scrutiny.

He had borne that same searching gaze for nine months of the
Elder's company and had come to fear it and the questions it
presaged. Naively, accepting the offer of his birthright, Valerius
had expected to be trained in the ways of the dreamers. Instead,
with Bellos left in Efnis' care, becoming more able in body if
not yet in sight, Valerius had found himself talking back through
the convolutions of his own past with Luain mac Calma
guiding the path. Through nine months of nights, he had revisited
the false peace of the smith's bothy in Hibernia, marched with
Caradoc through Rome, trained with Corvus - and loved and been
loved by him - in Camulodunum, in Germany, in Gaul.

Drained of adult love, he had walked back through time to childhood;
had nursed Hail to life, helped at the birth of a dun filly,
ridden his father's battle horse and the red Thessalian cavalry mare
in the homelands of the Eceni and once, gloriously, defeated
Amminios, brother to Caradoc, in a game of Warrior's Dance with
a slave boy's life as the prize.

Like running water, the questions had worn at him, probing the
cracks in his self-possession until, three nights out of four, he had
retired to bed swearing that he would leave and return to Hibernia
alone. Each morning, he had awakened and continued, as they had
both known he would, as he did now, in the hound-warmed dark
with no-one to push him or hold him when he wept.

Only mac Calma's voice came at him through the silence, an
echo of reality made real again in stone.

I offer you your birthright.

It was what his soul had craved through all his adult life and
there was no point in denying it.

That single promise had sustained Valerius through the ghastly
crossing from Mona to Hibernia and had kept him silent, at least
temporarily, when word reached them near midsummer of the
long-drawn death of the governor of Britannia. Rumour said that
the dreamers had killed him as they had killed his predecessor,
Scapula, in revenge for a boy's death.

Asked, mac Calma had smiled and said, 'That wasn't us. The
ancestor-dreamer killed Scapula at Airmid's request but your sister
slew this one alone, with a little help from the she-bears of the
Caledonii and their unique understanding with the gods.'

His sister, Breaca, whose name was not, and never had been,
mentioned.

Valerius' mind slewed away from that and mac Calma did not
drag him back again although it was the closest the Elder ever came
to discussing the ways of gods and dreamers and the means by which
one might talk to the other; that and the single cryptic sentence,
given as Valerius was already closing himself off from the world.

You will know when it is time.

There was no time; the ancestors' dreaming chamber was too
dark for that. Lacking light, Valerius had lost all sense of time.
Lacking time, he had lost himself, a soul trapped in its own
company with his past too much alive around him; nine months of
talking had made it so.

Fighting a rising panic, he tried to take refuge in the present, discovering
too late that there was no longer anything to hold him but
the slow, safe breath of a hound and the endless echo of mac
Calma's voice speaking riddles for which he had no answers.

You will know when it is time.

Time to do what?

I offer you your birthright. . .

And I accept. Only tell me what I must do.

I cannot help you.

Who else if not you?

Valerius would have wept, had there been any point. Even in the
despair of adult dreaming, he had never imagined failure of this
magnitude. The boy who was Ban had dreamed of his long-nights,
safe in the care of his mother, who would not let him fail. Now, he
was failing and could do nothing about it.

You will know.

He knew nothing, and had no means to find out. In despair, he turned sideways and lay down, squirming until his back was safe in the curve of the hound and the weight of its breath guarded his
neck. Lying like that, as he had lain in childhood, Julius Valerius
closed his eyes and sought the freedom of sleep.

Which gods did you petition?

'I have no gods.'

His own voice woke him, too loud for the dark. Mac Calma's
question drifted ahead, as if recently asked.

The vengeful gods laughed and made Bellos blind again, slaying
a foal as their own blood-price. Mithras walked on fire and water
and the blood of a slain bull filled the ancestors' chamber and
washed away with the tide.

'You have too many gods. You can't keep them all. Which do
you choose?'

The voice was his own, brought outside himself. It came out of
the dry air and the drier stone and tapped at his bones.

Half a dozen answers crowded for space. If he had been in
company - if it were mac Calma, or Theophilus, or Corvus who
asked such a question - Valerius would have picked the response
that kept them safely distant. In their absence, he stared at the dark
and waited for the clamour inside to die away. He did not intend
to play games with a mind shaken loose of itself. Too much of his
life had been given to ghosts and half-dreams forged in pain and
isolation. He craved a long-nights that was real, or none at all.

When there was silence, and Valerius was sure of himself, he
said, clearly, 'Go away.'

The dark fell silent. Time moved on and he was given his wish;
the air did not speak again. The waiting lay on him like a
mountain.

Light-headed, he rolled over and sat up. The hound roused with
him, slowly. They had shared sleep together and the beast's size and
presence were no longer a threat. It was free to leave, where
Valerius was not. That it chose to stay was a gift and accepted as
such. It stood and stretched in the cramped space and turned and
came to lie with its chin on his thigh, as Hail had lain in the joy
filled days of their youth.

This hound was bigger than Hail, close to the size he had
imagined Hail to be when the skewed scales of childhood had
made all hounds vast and Hail greatest of them all. Its hair was
long and coarse as Hail's had been and, in the dark, Valerius
was free to imagine the patternings of white on brindle that had
given his first hound, the best of all hounds, its name. He buried
his face in the wild ruff of its mane. The smell smothered him;
hound and woodsmoke and hunted hare and family and home and
all things lost.

The man he had been would have walked away from that rather than remember it. The man he had become, product of the dark and the gods and the unknowing, walked willingly into the mire of
his past and begged it to drown out the voice of Luain mac Calma.

It worked, for a while, possibly for days - he had no means to
measure the passage of time - but it could not last for ever. Luain
mac Calma reached out to him from the recent past, blocking any
further escape. His voice was more solid than it had been, as if he
spoke from the bedrock of the chamber.

Any failure means death, not only of your body but of your soul. Failure.

The blackness stank of it, and would not be made clear.

Faced with no other choice, Julius Valerius, who had once been
Ban of the Eceni, pushed the hound's head from his thigh, drew his
knees for a second time to his chest and began at last to consider
exactly what it might mean to lose his soul.

The process was not pretty, or dignified. To imagine the loss of
his soul, he first had to discover it, to map its margins, its contours
and textures and the many ways in which he had not lived by its
calling. He had believed himself honest in his own dishonesties;
possessed of an integrity which, if warped by the standards of his
family, tribe and friends, was nevertheless true to itself. Every
action he had ever taken had been tested against the too-sharp
weapon of his own judgement and the fabric of his life had been
woven around it.

With an honesty that stripped to the bare bones every hidden
feeling, Valerius set about testing the truth of that. Far more than
mac Calma had asked for, he stepped back to the earliest memory
of his life and walked forward through the months and years,
cataloguing for himself and the absent gods every failure of
integrity, every self-lie, every instance of mortal weakness.

If he were to guess, another day and part of a night might have
passed in the slow unpicking of his life's failings. The hound left
once and came back, smelling of fresh blood and, less strongly, of
urine. It did not bring any meat for Valerius, but it was doubtful if
he could have eaten by then; he was too immersed in the dismantling
of himself.

He expected the ghosts to come, hissing their anger and sucking
at his sanity for vengeance as they had done when their deaths were
fresh. Perversely, their absence left him hollow; there had been
comfort in the discomfort of their rage. He did not ask for the
gods' help and they, unpetitioned, did not answer. Every step was
taken alone, without assistance, and by their absence Valerius came
finally, unwillingly, to recognize their presence in all that had gone
before; whether he liked it or not, every part of his life had been
shaped within the protective arms of the unnamed gods.

Even now. Even here. He passed through the last memory and
came to rest in the present and he was not alone. The gods of his
past were all around: Briga and Mithras, Nemain and Jupiter and
Manannan of the waves who made him sick but did not kill him.
The chamber was crowded by their presences, watching, waiting
for him to act. The hound felt them and whined, stretching a warm
tongue to his wrist as comfort for them both.

Aloud, Valerius said, 'What do you want of me?'

The gods gave no answer. Their silence crushed him. Their waiting drove him, ultimately, to act.

Over hours, over days, Valerius attempted every feat of dreaming he had ever imagined - and failed in each one. He built images in the dark and they melted. He spoke tales that mac Calma had
told him and their heroes did not come alive. He named the
thousand ghosts of his dead and they walked past and past until all
that was left was the memory of their shadows. He viewed and
reviewed and discarded every particle of his life, scouring the
passageways of his soul until the winds whistled through and he
was emptied of all thought and all feeling. The gods watched and
waited and offered nothing.

You're trying too hard. Bellos spoke from the safest part of his past.

Valerius said, 'I know. I don't know how to do anything different.

The hound came to sit in front of him. In his memory, its eyes
were amber. He chose to think of them so. He held its great head
between both of his hands and said, 'Friend, I'm sorry. You have
guarded the wrong man against dangers that did not come from
the outside. I wish you luck with the others who come after me.'

He did not end out of self-pity, or bitterness, but only because
there was nothing else he could do. Pressing the flat of both palms
to the floor, Valerius pushed himself upright against protesting
joints and muscles that burned from too long cramped tight. The
roof of the chamber rubbed the top of his head. Stretching out both
hands, he touched his palms to the stone on either side. The hound
pressed its chin against his thigh. If life had been different, it would
have been good to have ridden with it into battle.

He bowed a little to the waiting dark. 'I have failed. I apologize.
Perhaps I would always have done so. I thank you for keeping me
from the understanding of this long enough to live the life that I
have done. With all its failings, with the deaths and the loss and the
pain, it has been the fullest and best it could have been, for which
I offer my deepest thanks.'

He expected no answer and was given none. He felt his way
round the walls and came to the tunnel that the ancestors had built.
Crawling in, full of hope, he had felt the place a womb and had
imagined himself emerging, reborn into light, a man at peace with
his gods and heir to the legacy of Mona's dreamers. For that hubris
alone, he deserved whatever was coming. Crawling out towards
fresh air past the spiralled carvings of the past, he tried to remember
the many ways in which those who had abandoned their
long-nights had died. In this, too, he failed.

Valerius emerged into a night of no moon and few stars and it
seemed to him bright.

Expecting death, or the slow beginnings of it, he scrambled with
what dignity he could over the guard stone at the tunnel's entrance.
On the way in, the light of mac Calma's fire had flooded the
carvings on the surface of the boulder, sinking shadows into
the spheres and circles etched by the ancestors. Now, there was
nothing but warm winter wind and the silvered greys of a land that
believed itself black.

The hound did not follow him out. He thought to call it and
decided not; it was safer for it not to be caught up in whatever was
coming. Putting his hands to his mouth, he sent his voice away
from the dream mound.

'Hello?'

He felt foolish, more so when he was not answered. His flesh
crawled and his hungry guts cramped but no-one came; no waiting
dreamers, no knives, no ropes to bind him down as they flayed the
skin from his chest and opened his living belly to the crows.
The turves had been relaid over the circle of mac Calma's fire. If
Valerius had not sat before it for a night, awaiting the dawn to
enter the chamber, he would not know where it had been.

The gods and the hound had abandoned him, but Valerius did
not believe Luain mac Calma would leave before the end.
Unwilling to be seen to search, he sat down on the guard stone to
wait. After the intensity of the ancestors' chamber, there was a
welcome peace in not thinking.

Presently, when still no-one had come to kill him, he remembered
the place where the wood was stored. Searching through a
cavity in the dry southern side of the hill, he found tinder and a fire
pot packed with old, dying embers. He was an officer in the
auxiliary cavalry, or had been; he had built fires with less than this
and been warmed by them.

Instinct drew him away from the hill, towards a swath of old
oaks with a river winding through the centre. He had been a long
time without water. In the dream place, it had not seemed
important. In the presence of an unending stream of cold, clear
water, thirst consumed him. He lay down and sank his face into it
and drank for an eternity that stretched as long as the time he had
spent in the ancestors' mound.

The cold steadied him and gave him purpose. He laid out the
wood at a place where the river bent back on itself so that water
surrounded three sides. His fire burned with small flames. By its
light, he lay on the bank and slid his hands into the water and
dribbled spit onto the surface to lure winter fish. They were few,
but he was possessed of a patience that would have astonished
those he had led, amongst whom the shortness of his temper had
been legendary. At the blackest part of the night that comes before
dawn, he caught a small trout and roasted it. The smell alone was
of the gods; the taste consumed him.

Afterwards, he sat by the fire to wait. If he had been concerned
for his own safety, he would have kept the river behind him as
protection. Safety was the least of his concerns and so he faced
east, to where the late-rising moon lifted over the horizon, and kept
the water ahead and on either side with his back exposed to whoever
might come.

It did not seem possible that any night would ever again seem
dark. The sliver of Nemain's moon was as bright as the noon sun.
Unable to look at the god directly, Valerius watched her reflection
slide over the river. Water was her domain. As a child, he had
believed that proximity to water drove men mad and women
madder. Now, he welcomed the calm that it gave.

The water was alive; small fish kissed the surface, larger ripples
backed off stones and wove into each other, the moon broke and
scattered so that the whole surface of the water became boiling
silver, oddly inviting. When the shine stretched from one bank to
the other, Valerius stood and shed his clothes and stepped down
and out to immerse himself to the neck and beyond in water so
cold that it burned.

As the ancestors' chamber had scoured his mind, so did
Nemain's river scour his skin. He lay back with only his nose above
the surface, and then not even that. His hair was longer than it had
ever been and it floated behind like weed, both buoying his head
and teasing it under. His skin grew to like the cold, so that the
water and the smooth rocks of the river bed caressed him rather
than chafing and he revelled in the feel of it, who had slept five
years alone and forgotten what it was to be touched with care. He
spread his arms and his legs against the current and slowly,
between one breath and the next, the river became a lover, moving
him with a passion as great as any he had felt for Corvus or
Longinus or the unfulfilled, unacknowledged longing for Caradoc.

He fought it at first; the river did not just belong to Nemain, it was Nemain, daughter to Briga, watcher of all life, birth-bringer,
holder of cycles. All his life, he had imagined this god as Airmid,
so that often in his dreams the two were one. Valerius had never
knowingly wanted Airmid, or any woman, could not imagine ever
doing so, but the river touched him elsewhere than the flesh, and
his mind was too tired to resist the pull of a god and he gave himself
over to it, remembering only to breathe when the surface came
to meet him.

Afterwards, he wondered why he had done that; drowning was by
no means the worst way to die. Shivering, he drew himself onto the
bank, cold and spent, empty in ways the dream hill had not left
him. He dressed and made the fire bigger and the flames were no
longer too bright to watch, nor the eastern horizon where the first
fire of the sun poured molten gold on the earth.

The moon still dallied in the west, a ghosted sickle outshone by
the greater light of the sun. Valerius turned to face it and sat a
while, unthinking.

In the past, ghosts and gods alike had spoken to him in voices
too loud to be ignored. Here, on the banks of the river that was for
ever sacred to the daughter of Briga, Valerius found for the first
time what it was to hear the whisper of a god, to sense a knowing
that passed beyond words as Nemain came to rest in the core of his
being.

She did not offer a vision of future glory, or an end to all grief;
he would not have believed either of these, nor asked for them.
Instead, through the slow setting of the moon, he discovered within
himself the totality of all joy and all pain and the place of his soul
as the balance between. It was as great a gift as he had ever been
given and there seemed no possibility that it could be taken away.

Presently, when the whispering ceased and all that was left was
the feather-touch of moonlight and a passing memory of water, he
stood and extinguished his fire, dismantling it and covering the ash
so that no trace was left of his passing.

He was kneeling, scattering dead leaves over the cut-lines of the
turf when, from somewhere behind his left shoulder, Luain mac
Calma asked, 'Where are you going?'

It was not unexpected, only later than it might have been. Still
kneeling, Valerius answered, 'I was going to Mona, to find Bellos
and discuss with him his future as one blind in the land of the
sighted. With the right training, I believe he may still make a good
healer. After that, as soon as the seas are open to shipping, I
thought I might cross the water, to Britannia. I met Mithras there
once, in a cave. If I am to live, I must make my peace with him.'

'And are you going to live?'

'I have no idea.'

The morning air was sharp with frost; the first furrings of it
etched the oak leaves behind mac Calma, so that his hair seemed
a deeper black. His face was caught partway between the sun and
the moon, not quite lit by either. He wore his dreamer's thong of
rolled birch bark at his brow for the first time in nine months and
the blade at his belt was curved back at the tip to make a flaying
knife.

Valerius was unarmed, and had been so since they reached
Hibernia. Standing, he felt more naked than he had done when he
walked into the river. His skin cringed against the rub of his tunic.
Nemain had not promised long life, or the absence of pain. The
awareness of that hung about him, sharply.

He ran his tongue round the edge of his teeth. 'What is the
penalty for a man who abandons his long-nights?'

Mac Calma balanced his knife on his palm. 'Death, of course.
Those who do not cut their own throats or give themselves to
Nemain's water are dealt a swift death by the one standing watch.
There's no need for further retribution. Failure itself is enough.'

'Indeed.' So mac Calma had, after all, been present through it all.
Valerius regretted not having searched for him more thoroughly.
He said, 'I have no blade of my own with which to cut my throat.'

'I know. And the river did not take you, although you gave yourself
fully to the god. What does that tell you?'

'That the man who claims to be my father chooses to watch
without making his presence known.' Valerius spat as they did in
the legions, with much noise and a profusion of phlegm. 'We
should do what needs to be done. I don't think there's anything left
to say that hasn't been said in the last nine months. If you give me
the blade, I'll do it myself, to save you the blood taint.'
'Will you fall on the blade as do the Romans? Do you so badly
want to die?'

'I don't want to die at all. I rather think I have just been shown
how to live and would welcome the chance to do so. But if there is
no choice, I would rather die cleanly, by my own hand, than by the
false care of another man.'

'Valerius, you always have choice.'

Mac Calma was the Elder of Mona; he could put more meaning
into one sentence than others could speak in a day, and did so. A
god and a world waited while the many layers of meaning span out
into being.

Valerius sat on the turf where his fire had been. The last warmth
kept the frost from his feet. He looked for the moon and found the
last insubstantial edge of her on the western horizon. Her presence
warmed his soul. Mithras had never done that, even in the cave.

He frowned and stared at his fingers and then at the grass. A
number of things became clear, and unclear.

After a while, still sitting, he said, 'Breaca's long-nights did not
end like this.'

Luain mac Calma shed his cloak, folded it and sat on the pad.
Gooseflesh stood on the bare skin of his arms. Resting his chin on
the heel of his upturned hand, he said, 'Your sister was a child who
had to learn what she might become as an adult and a warrior.
She had to experience in the depths of her soul the reality of life
and death. You were made adult before your time and there is
nothing anyone, god or dreamer, could teach you of living and dying.
Where others sit their long-nights to pass from childhood to adulthood,
you had to pass backwards, to unlearn what you have been in
order to find what else you might yet become. Have you done so?'

Nine months of questioning were thus glibly excused. Valerius
considered what he was, what he had been and what he might
become. The ancestors' chamber had loosened the anchors of his
past, and Nemain had given the surety of her presence through
death and beyond. Neither of these offered a solid foundation on
which to build a living future. One memory tugged at him. 'Was
the hound real? The one that shared the dark?'

'Did it seem real to you?'

'I thought so at the time.' The memory of a tongue on his wrist
was as real, or unreal, as it had been in the chamber. Valerius said,
'Is the hound then my dream as the hare is Airmid's? The elder
grandmother called me horse-dreamer.'

'And hare-hunter, as I remember. Which has never stopped you
hunting deer, or boar.'

'Or men. Indeed. I didn't know one could choose.'

'Few can. You are one of those few.'

'Thank you.'

More than any dreaming, Valerius badly wanted the hound to be
real, to have it run from the chamber and walk at his side, to hunt
with it and ride with it and remember all that was lost.
Disappointment led full circle to first hope and first loss.

I offer you your birthright.

As a child that asks for the hare who lives on the moon, Valerius
said, 'You asked me if I had found what I might yet become. There
was a time when I wanted more than anything to be a warrior but
I have been that and my soul was not whole there. If I were given
the choice anew, I would become a dreamer. Do I have that
choice?'

'What?' Mac Calma barked a laugh. He pushed one hand
through his hair, disturbing the careful placement of his dreamer's
thong, then set it straight and pinched the end of his nose.

After a while he said, a little desperately, 'You've been a dreamer
since you were seven years old. You made Hail live by your dreaming.
You called the red Thessalian cavalry mare across an ocean in
storm by the power of your need. You saw Amminios and named
the nature of his treachery in a waking vision long before any of us
saw anything but the son of a warrior. Do you really not know
what you are?'

The hare on the moon came close but would not be caught. Too
dazzled to think, Valerius said, 'But I don't know how I do it. I
don't know how you do it.'

'But you wish to learn?'

Valerius was weeping and did not care. Nemain held him and
made him whole. 'Gods, yes, I do. Yes. Before all other things,
whatever the cost, I want to learn to be as you are.'

Mac Calma smiled and was ten years younger. He stood and
swung his cloak over both shoulders. 'Good. Very good. In that
case, I think I can teach you. You should make your peace with
Bellos and Mithras as you planned. I'll wait for you on Mona.' He
turned towards the river and then turned back again.

'I think if you put your mind to calling the hound from the
chamber, you may find that it will come.'


XIX.

SACRED TO THE MEMORY OF QUINTUS VERANIUS,
FOURTH GOVERNOR OF BRITANNIA,
FIRST GOVERNOR OF LYCIA AND PAMPHYLIA . . .

A YEAR, EXACTLY, FROM THE DAY HE CAST A SILVER-BLADED heron-spear into the heart of a young Eceni warrior, a
monument to the late governor of Britannia was unveiled
just outside the steading of his friend and loyal ally, Prasutagos,
king of the Eceni.

Like its twin, which was set into the wall of the theatre in
Camulodunum, the stone was of grey marble, tinged almost to
silver and polished to mirror brilliance. Unlike its twin, this one stood alone, set to one side of the trackway just as it left the steading. The height of a man and half that width across, it had
been positioned by the Iberian mason who had fashioned and
delivered it so that the rising sun might cast clean shadows across
it and onto the track. Carved on its surface, square and boldly cut, was the written history of a life.

. . . RESOUNDING VICTORY OVER THE MOUNTAIN TRIBES
CREATING PEACE FROM DISORDER.
AUGUR AND CONSVL IN THE YEAR . . .

Mist rolled over the stone and past it, heavy as water. The unveiling
ceremony had been delayed for a day in the hope that the
weather might clear. Instead, the gods had thickened the air further,
sending waves of swirling fog to cloak and conceal so that Breaca,
standing in front and a little to one side, was locked in a land apart,
sharing it only with the physician, Theophilus, on her left, and on
her right Decianus Catus, the emperor's thin, bored, arrogant and
supremely dangerous procurator of taxes.

They were the best and the worst that Rome could offer.
Theophilus had spent the spring and early summer after the spear
challenge ministering to the dying governor, but by late summer
had been free to accept Breaca's offer and had spent the better part
of three months thereafter in Eceni lands exchanging lore and healing
with Airmid. Another half-year and she could have named him
a dreamer and none would have argued.

The procurator, by contrast, was vermin: a leech on the life veins
of the tribes. If you do not rouse the east, a ghost had said, Rome
will bleed your people dry. Breaca had spent the past winter turning
out spear-heads and knife-blades, and the summer before that in
the quiet, careful quest for those warriors who could be trusted with
her life and her plans for a future of war, but she had not yet raised
an army. Lacking that, the procurator was the one who would do
his best to bleed dry the Eceni and all of the eastern tribes.

He was also, in the continued absence of the governor to the
western wars, the most powerful of the emperor's men in the province
of Britannia. Until Breaca had raised warriors in sufficient numbers to
face the legions, there was nothing to do but offer him guest rights
and let 'Tagos negotiate such reductions in tax as might be wrenched
from a man who valued everything in finger's weights of gold.

'Tagos had done his best. Behind, waiting in the mist, were the
eighty mercenary veterans of the procurator's personal retinue.
They stood guard now over his wagons, within which, bound and
double-sealed with wax and molten lead, were the bags of coins
given by 'Tagos from his money chests to be sent to the emperor's
treasury, less a judicious percentage for the procurator.

The wagons did not contain the significant quantity of hides that
had been requested and nor had the procurator taken into account
the worth of the three breeding stallions in the mist-bound
paddocks behind the steading, or the breeding herds of mares that
ran with each. He had not, either, ventured out as far as Breaca's
forge or the newly built hut behind it that harboured a store of raw
iron and the bundles of blades that had been made over winter.

For these things, and the respite they offered, Breaca gave
thanks.

The mist closed in more tightly. Black-carved letters lifted from
the surface of the slab and snaked out across the day.

. . . SENATOR AND VALUED ADVISER TO THE EMPEROR CLAUDIUS,
MAY THE GODS FOR EVER HOLD HIM . . .

If the gods held the governor now, they had taken their time in
doing so. His dying had been drawn out over four months and was
in every way as unpleasant as that of Scapula, the governor slain
by the ancestor-dreamer at Airmid's request.

The beginning had been slowly insidious; from the last day of the
old moon after Eneit's death, Breaca had lain nightly awake,
listening to the winds of the gods whistle south to Camulodunum
to take what was theirs from the one who had failed the ancestors'
trial. They did not take Breaca's soul, nor rack her body with pain
as they did the governor's, and by that fact alone she confirmed
that her spear had slain Eneit, and the Roman general's had not.

Thus was one of her two questions answered - which of us killed
Eneit? The second question - where is Cunomar? - was answered
later, near midsummer. As the governor came closer to death,
Ardacos had returned from a hunting trip with news that a corn
haired youth of the Eceni had been seen to travel north to the
mountains of the Caledonii.

Soon after that, Cunomar himself had begun to haunt Breaca's
dreams, stalking naked through untouched forest, painted in the
spiralling white lime and woad of the she-bears.

Her son had been taller and broader in the shoulder than she
remembered him. He carried a spear identical to the one she had
thrown, but that the feathers bound to the haft had come from a
cormorant, not a heron, and the blade was not of silver, but of
iron, with signs etched along it that she had never seen.

It was a good spear, balanced well for his arm, and he was beginning
to learn how to match his soul to its. In the dream, she
watched him track a wounded male bear that had already torn the
limbs from two others who had tried to stalk it. When, on the
second night, he killed it, Cunomar cut the bear's heart from its
chest and held it high in both hands, speaking directly to Breaca
with an earnestness that made it essential to hear what he said.

She could not hear him. For three nights in succession, she
returned to the same place and time and watched the same kill.
Three times, the dream of her son held up the still-beating he-bear's
heart and spoke to her and three times she strained every sense and
still could not hear the message it mattered so much to him to give.

Nor could Cunomar hear his mother. There had been no word
left when he ran from the theatre, no chance to speak and set right
all that was wrong. Wherever he lived - or died - it mattered that
he know Breaca had killed Eneit cleanly, that the governor's spear
had fallen into flesh already dead, that Eneit had died with the
heart of a warrior, that he had sent his love and his name to
Cunomar as his last gift.

Nightly, she struggled to say each of these aloud in the dream, so
that he might hear and be healed of his hate, but the soul-song of
the spear came out of her mouth and she could not make the words
have any meaning. Nightly, the dream that was Cunomar looked
through his mother to a space beyond, and Breaca woke, always,
with the taint of that gaze clouding the day, and the void of need
that was in it.

By late summer, the dreams were different and Cunomar no
longer walked in them. The world had moved on and other lives
mattered more than a youth who sought manhood. The governor
died as the moon turned from old to new, four months after the
spear-challenge and three after the start of his illness. He had
known what was coming and had planned for it, but still the
emperor and his senate in Rome had not considered it urgent to
send a new governor to their northernmost province. The legions
of Britannia had once again been left leaderless and the warriors of
the west had taken advantage of it, launching waves of attack
on the frontier forts.

News of slaughtered legionaries had filtered eastwards and the
cohorts stationed around Camulodunum became nervous and took
to patrolling the trackways with a fervour that made even trading
difficult. Thus Breaca had spent the months leading to full summer
trying to find ways for her people to tend to the fields without
every adult being held at swordpoint for possession of a hoe
and every child beaten for lifting a stone to the side of a paddock.

The ancestor-dreamer had stalked her dreams with images of
children starved and enslaved, and Breaca had been perversely glad
when the new governor had arrived in the late autumn to restore a
semblance of order.

Suetonius Paulinus, fifth governor of Britannia, brought fresh
men and officers and the legions had imposed a kind of peace so
that the harvest had been brought in without bloodshed and the
late-season cattle markets held without the quartermaster at
Camulodunum's commandeering the best bullocks for his men.

With the governor had come Decianus Catus, the emperor's
procurator of taxes, and then, in the spring, the Iberian mason and
his slabs of marble, and the old governor became a man recorded
in stone, set in earth and swirling mist.

To the last line, it was a worthy memorial. Breaca read it without
interest, and then stopped, and read the last line again.

FIRST MAN NOT OF THE TRIBES TO UNDERTAKE
THE SPEAR TEST OF THE CALEDONII.
BY MY OWN HAND, I CAST IT TRUE.

'He knew.'

'Tagos paced the length of the roasting pit that contained the
bullock that had been killed too early, especially to feed the
procurator and his mercenaries. The procurator had gone, taking
his wagonload of gold and a gift of wine from the king of the
Eceni.

Breaca watched the darkening space that was the retreating
wagon and knew that the god-sent mist was lifting. Around her
were only Eceni, and Theophilus, who was a friend, and 'Tagos,
who was unnerved and let it show.

' "By my own hand I cast it true." ' He came to the end of the fire pit and turned, abruptly. 'That wasn't on the stone at Camulodunum. The old governor wrote this for us. He knew why;
he died and he wants the world to know with him. If he wrote of
this to the emperor, his successor will crucify us in sight of his
monument, so that we, too, will know why we die.'

Breaca sat on a log at the edge of the fire pit. 'Of course he knew.

There was never any doubt. He sent word to Airmid asking her to
help him die cleanly at the end.'

The request had been in part of the note sent with the old
governor's final letter to 'Tagos, addressed to Breaca of the Eceni and sealed with the elephant mark of Britannia that made it a capital offence for anyone other than the one addressed to open it.

'Tagos had tried to find what the note said, and failed. Now, he
stared openly. 'Did she give it? Did Airmid make easier the death
of a Roman governor?'

'Yes. Theophilus knows.'

The physician nodded in agreement. Some time after the
ceremony, he had swapped his good cloak for one heavier and
older, much patched, that smelled of beech smoke and pork fat. He
held a jug of ale in one hand and warmed the other in the smoke
of the fire pit.

At the sound of his name, he raised his jug in salute. 'He does
indeed know, and is grateful. Xenophon, who was physician to
Claudius, knew the skills of these things, but they were not passed
to me.'

'Tagos coughed. A muscle twitched in his cheek. 'I see.'

'I'm not sure that you do.' Theophilus came to sit on the log
Breaca had brought forward. 'That inscription was not only a
warning for you. The governor was genuinely proud of his spear
throw. He was convinced until his dying breath that his spear had
killed Eneit, not yours, and that the gods were punishing him for
success, not failure.'

Breaca said, 'The gods punish no-one. It is men who do that. The
gods take what is their due and was given freely as a personal offering.
I did try to tell him.'

'I know. And he believed you did your best to warn him and that
you threw as well as you were able - which is exactly why you are
not currently dying by slow degrees within sight of an over
polished mass of marble. He could not give orders to his successor
to leave you alone, but he could honour you and make it clear that
he did not hold you responsible for his death. He has done exactly
that.'

The fog had thinned almost to nothing. Breaca could see the full
round of the stockade now, and the square, small houses within it.
Beads of mist ran like sweat down the oak stanchions of the
gateposts and children began to emerge from between them, drawn
by the smell of roasting meat. Graine was there, and a half-dozen
others of her age who followed her as if she already led them.

They were safe; neither starved nor enslaved. 'Tagos' fears
remained unrealized. The procurator's wagon and the century of
ex-legionaries he paid to guard it were gone beyond sight and
would not be back for a half-year. Neither they nor the marble slab
explained the small knot of nausea that had taken root in Breaca's
belly, or the ache along the scar on her palm that was the gods'
warning of danger.

She took a stave and broke open the clay crust on the fire pit.
The air became damp with the smell of roast beef. Reaching in with
her knife, she said to Theophilus, 'So what is it about the last
governor's death that we have not read in his stone, but that brings
you north in the cold of spring for its unveiling?'

'Did you know he consistently refused trading rights to the
slavers?'

Breaca stared at him through the rising heat of the fire. The knot
in her belly swelled to a hammer-fist. In broad daylight the voice of
the ancestor-dreamer resounded. Shall I show you, warrior, what it
is for a people to bleed until there is nothing more to give?

Graine was a spear's throw away. She was not weeping tears of
gold or of corn.

Reaching down, Breaca cut a long thigh muscle from the bullock
in the pit. The meat came away in her hand, greasily friable. She
said, 'No man of honour would grant trading rights to slavers,' and
then, because it must be said aloud, 'Are we to understand that the
new governor is not a man of honour?'

Theophilus leaned in to the heat of the fire. He said, 'Suetonius
Paulinus is a general. He has led legions in the worst parts of the
empire. He has been ordered to subdue the tribes of western
Britannia, or die in the attempt. Under such orders, would any of
us be men of honour? Thank you. I thought you were going to feed
it to the hounds before me.'

'They come next.' Absently, Breaca tossed a flake of roast hide
to Stone, who was closest, and others to the grey bitch and her
whelps who waited beyond. 'We should be plain. You are saying
that the new governor has granted trading rights to slavers?'

Theophilus said, 'Yes, although the actual administration will be
given to the procurator, the sucking leech who has just driven south
with a wagonload of your gold. If that man has pity, it is well
hidden. If I were you, I would do everything necessary to safeguard
my children.'

He said it to Breaca but his eyes, and hers, were on the king of
the Eceni, who had listened to his news and had not been surprised.

'Tagos flushed and made a show of settling the torC he wore at
his neck, laying the kill-feather flat against his collarbone. 'Graine
won't be harmed,' he said, eventually. 'He has promised it. The old
governor said she could be sent to Rome to be taught the ways of
the emperor's palace, as befits the child of a king. I have said the
Eceni would not allow it, but that she is being taught here. The
procurator has sworn she will not be touched.'

'The Procurator has sworn?'

The morning was suddenly thin and brittle, like ice on a puddle.
Very quietly, Breaca said, 'If you tell me you have agreed with that
vermin, or with the governor, or with anyone else, a quota of slaves
from Eceni lands, I will kill you.'

'Tagos swallowed on nothing. 'I have not agreed any quota,' he
said. 'None has been asked.'

'But they will come to trade here, in the Eceni territories? They
will buy Eceni children from Eceni parents? Or will they simply
take them by force or carry them away if they are left unattended?'

Shall I show you what it is for a people to bleed . . . ?

'I don't think even the procurator would allow--'

'Of course he would.' Theophilus' voice cut in the way Airmid's
could, at need. 'The procurator's life depends on making a profit
from Britannia and tax on trade is his biggest source of income.
Slave traders make more profit than all the rest added together. The
first group landed at the full moon tide. They're Latins, men of the
country around Rome who have not gained full Roman citizenship.
They think themselves almost Roman and robbed of their
true rights and are bitter about it and doubly dangerous. Eight of
them have crossed the ocean with a group of Gaulish harness
makers coming north for your spring horse fair. If the Eceni were
in my care, I would watch these men and take whatever steps
were necessary to ensure they made no profit from the flesh and
blood of my people.'


XX.

THE SPRING HORSE FAIR WAS AS CROWDED AS A BATTLEFIELD, AND as noisy. The forest around made a wall that sent the sound
in again, with only the wide path of the trackway in the
south-east to break the circle.

A second circle of gathered firewood lay within the ring of trees
and a third of the tents and single-draped hides of the traders made
a patchwork in the growing dawn. These, too, sent the hollering of
traders inwards and upwards, so that the crows took umbrage and
deserted the forest and even the redbreasts, who would have sat
around the fires for crumbs, departed.

Within these three rings were gathered traders in their many
hundreds, if not the thousands there had once been and that the site
was built to hold. The Eceni had travelled in ones or twos from each
steading across the territories to sell the produce of a winter's work;
the Gauls and Batavians and Iberians and Mauritanians and Latins
and Romans had travelled up in their hired wagons from the sea ports
on the great river with the sole aim of taking as much as they could
in exchange for as little as possible of their ocean-travelled goods.

This fact was understood between them; it fired the passion of
the trading. Always, the first days were spent in setting impossible
targets and the next two in whittling down what was offered to
what was expected and reaching ever closer to what might be
accepted.
The site of the horse fair was less than half a morning's ride from
'Tagos' steading, but Breaca had arrived late, when all the trading
positions were set. Leading her pack horses through the crowd, she
made two circuits of the wide, open clearing before she found an
opening that suited her needs. There she laid out the bay horse hide
that set off her metalwork to best effect and set about unwrapping
the goods she had spent all winter creating.

'Have you seen the slavers yet: the ones Theophilus told you of?'

Graine asked it, throwing herself down on the damp grass
behind the horse hide. She was picking daisies and buttercups and
weaving them into a torc for Stone, who lay close to her side.
Through the winter, with Cunomar gone, Breaca had sharpened
the hound's training so that, more than ever, he had become
Graine's protector. Her daughter had grown recently, becoming
more young woman than precocious child, but the hound still
stood almost to her shoulder, so that she could reach over him and
lean her weight on his back. Like that, they had explored the
beginnings of the fair together.

It had been interesting to watch: Stone had been taught that anyone
not introduced by Graine as a friend was a possible enemy and
there were a lot of those at the fair. However foreign the gathered
traders might have been, however strange their language or dress,
every man and woman among them recognized the sight of a
hound trained to attack. Steadily, while stalls were set out and the
first frantic bargains begun, Graine had traversed the chaos in a
halo of emptiness, knots of bartering adults split apart by her
progress re-forming after she passed.

She had walked straight to her mother's stall, which was touching,
but not ideal; Breaca did not want traders to stay away from
her stock of knives and spear-heads, and even bearing his own
king-torc of buttercups, Stone did not inspire anyone to approach.

Breaca sat down and ruffled his neck. To Graine, she said, 'I think
the men sitting round the fire behind you are the slavers - that's why
I'm here - but it might be good if you stayed with Ardacos. He has
charge of the roasting pits. You could help him there.'

Graine frowned at the split stem of a daisy. 'Or I could leave
Stone with Ardacos and come back to you?' She tilted her head,
like a thrush on a snail, in a way that her mother had come to
recognize.

'Is there a reason you should be here with me? Have you
dreamed something I should know of?'

'No, only that I want to see how you trade. You learned from
Eburovic and Macha when you were my age. One day, if we clear
Rome from the land, I'll need to know.'

'And I've never taught you. I'm sorry. I forget sometimes what it
is to be a mother.' Breaca laid out a row of seven elm-hilted skinning knives with their blades curved back at the tip. The sun pushed through the morning mist and the first watery light made
mirrors of the metal so that she saw herself seven times over, too
serious, too protective, too concerned to make things right. Her
father had been all these things, but carefully, so that the child who
became the Boudica had been given room to grow.

Moving her head, so that the mirrors became dull iron again,
Breaca said, 'Stone should stay close to one of us; he'll pine else. Sit
behind the hide and keep him close. If you see me doing something
you don't understand, ask me about it afterwards, not while the trade is happening.'

'Thank you.' Graine settled cheerfully on the turf a little way
back from the stall. She drew a handful of grubby amulets carved
in amber from her belt-pouch and began to polish one on the hem
of her tunic. They were northern work, from the Caledonii or even
further towards the roof of the world; neatly carved stags withf
men's faces beneath the horns, or horses that would stand if you
put them on their feet, or owls that would guard against the dark chills of night. Airmid must have given them to her, or Ardacos
either of those would have seen that the child needed to learn
and that her mother might not have brought anything to teachf
her.

'If you wanted to trade those,' Breaca offered, 'we could lay
them out on the hide.'

It was what was expected of her and she had played her part. Graine
grinned a little ruefully, as if she might have lost a bet, but
won her wish instead, and arranged her pieces out beside the
knives.

'Did Airmid say I wouldn't let you stay?' asked Breaca.

'No. Ardacos did. He bet me that I'd be back at his roasting pits
before the trading started.'

'What did you win?'

Graine grinned and, briefly, was the image of the elder grandmother.

'A morning's trading with you?' she said.

Their trading together lasted more than just a morning. For three
days, Breaca of the Eceni, metal smith and spear maker, taught her
daughter how to calculate the worth of a thing at first seeing, how
to bargain in foreign languages with the brown-skinned men and
women from Iberia and Gaul who brought their enamel and bars
of raw iron, with bitter-eyed Latins who brought finely fashioned
gold and tanned leather dyed in colours never seen in Britannia,
with the northern Belgae and Germanic tribesmen who brought
horses that were not as good as the ones the Eceni already rode but
whose hounds were good and who wanted silver mirrors, or the
elm-hilted knives with the sign of the hare on the blade, in return.

Graine was an exceptional trader. The discovery of that
surprised them both. Like finding a new shield-mate in battle,
Breaca felt a door closing that had been open and a sense of sudden
safety she had forgotten she lacked.

She had forgotten, also, how beautiful her daughter was; in the
isolation of the steading, it was easy to see her as yet another growing
child, gangly with youth and always in need of a newer, longer
tunic. The traders, coming on Graine unprepared, were as taken
with the freshness of her features and the ocean of her eyes as with
the spears and brooches and replenished supply of amber amulets
on her mother's bench.
Very quickly, Graine learned who could be won with a smile and
a sideways glance at her mother that asked permission to make the
trade on her own, for the first time. Each first time, the man or
woman, however foreign, however different the language, knelt at
the bench and made extravagant offers for a stag carved in amber,
or, later, for a spear-head or a horn-handled knife. As long as Stone
kept his distance, each without fail knowingly struck a poor
bargain for the sake of having made Graine smile and went away
glad to have done so.

By the end of three days, Breaca's bench was empty of goods and
the space behind, guarded by Stone, was littered with sacks of salt and malted barley, with ingots of beeswax and raw iron and
tanned leather and tiny slabs of Belgic enamel in blue and red and
yellow, with harness and bronze harness mounts and silvered
mirrors that would make good gifts for the exiled Eceni dreamers,
if they ever returned from Mona. At the sleeping place, guarded by
Airmid, were three new hounds and a matched pair of bay yearling
colts, at least one of which had the potential to sire good battle
horses.

Graine, for her part, had two new belts with bronze buckles, a
necklace of raw amber strung on elk hide that was worth more
than her entire supply of amulets, a skinning knife she didn't need
and a dark brindled hound bitch so close to birthing that the
whelps could be seen kicking against the side of her flank.

Better than any trade, Breaca had the measure of the eight silent,
watchful men who sat around the lone fire nearby.

The Latin slavers Theophilus had warned of were striking in
their complacency. Of the eight, three bore short swords in the size and style of the legions and two of those wore mail shirts that might turn a thrown spear at the end of its flight.

The rest were unarmed and unshielded and if they had ventured
west of the high mountains with so little protection, they would
have died, one at a time, between sunset and moonrise, before it
was fully dark. In the flat lands of the east, where retaliation for
the death of any man under Rome's patronage would destroy
whole families, they were as safe as the legions could make them.

The slavers built their own fire as the last day of the fair grew
quiet, and cooked their own food. Elsewhere, as the sun touched
the western horizon, the roasting pits were opened. The mingled
riches of hare and pig and deer spread out slowly in the still air so
that knots of chattering men and women fell silent from west to east as food took over from tales of the days' bargains.

Breaca's stall was set on the easternmost margins where a drifting breeze kept the scent away. She sat with her back to the slavers and watched others work their way towards Ardacos' fires. A slim
man branded up the full length of both forearms with the lizard
marks of a Coritani warrior hung back and scratched the top of his
head more than even lice might have made necessary. After a while,
when no-one paid him attention, he wandered to the forest edge
and stood to urinate against a tree. A while after that, he stepped
behind the tree and did not return.

With his departure, the eight slavers at the ill-fed fire found it
necessary to finish their meal in haste. The tallest, who bore
a brooch in the shape of a leaping salmon on his tunic, wiped his
hands on the grass and tipped out a bag of gold to count it.

Breaca turned her back on him and reached for three bridles
with iron bits that lay nearby. She handed them to Graine and, not
over-loudly but clearly enough to be heard at the neighbouring fire,
said, 'Could you take these to Airmid? She'll need them to tether
the new filly away from the colts.'

There was no new filly. Graine opened her mouth to say so and
shut it again. Her eyes grew a little wide with the effort of not looking
over her shoulder at the slavers. 'Should I take Stone?' she
asked. 'Or will you need him?'

Breaca grinned. For a few last moments, she was trading again
with her daughter, speaking secretly in open hearing, and the feeling
was as good as battle. 'Take him with you,' she said. 'I think I
may have help waiting for me in the forest.'

She was not sure of that, but the songs of the spears on her
selling-hide had gained a new, almost-familiar tone as the daylight
died and there was a tug in her soul that was not only the promise
of action.

Graine picked up the bridles, trailing the reins so the leather
darkened in the evening dew. She paused a moment, chewing her
lip. 'You're right, there is help,' she said. 'He's been here for four
days, but he told me not to tell you. He gave me the amulets. I
think he carved them himself.'

Always, Breaca's children defeated her. She should have been
glad. She was glad, only that it was lost beneath a welter of other
things, less benign. She picked a small jar of honey and threw it
lightly to Graine.

'Then keep this for him, as a gift from me. You can eat it
together if he decides to come home with us afterwards.'

Dusk ate the sky from east to west. Breaca waited, watching the
slavers, who, in turn, watched the place where the lizard-branded
Coritani warrior had left the clearing. At a certain point, when the
eight shapes round the fire became darker than the shadows cast
by the flames, she rose and moved outwards, away from the
sources of light.
The song of the spears followed her away from both the traders and the woman of the northern Eceni who had taken all eighteen of Breaca's hare-marked spear-heads in exchange for a pair of good
knives and a red fawn bitch with coarse hair and a soft blackness
round her eyes. That trade had been for show and Graine had not
taken part, although the bitch was a good one and would match
well with Stone.

The spear-heads were of a length for hunting but the woman
knew how to hear the songs of their souls and she had others who
would train with her to hear them also. Quietly, without alerting
those who watched, the Boudica was equipping the first ranks of
her war host.

On the outskirts of the fairground, where war was prosecuted in
stealth by men who measured the values of others' lives in gold,
Breaca moved through ranks of coppiced hazels where the undergrowth
had been trained upwards to make withies for baskets and
sheep pens. The leaf litter beneath her feet was damp from the
afternoon's rain and she made no noise.

The spear-song that had been with her all afternoon threaded
through the halls of her mind, becoming louder with every step.
She moved deeper into the trees, following it as a hound follows a
scent until that single song alone rose over the many others
as a single pure, unsullied note and she could trace it back to its
source.

The spear and the one who bore it were waiting, hidden, in the
darkest part of the forest. Breaca came as close as she dared then
set her back against the hollowed stump of a long-dead hazel. The
moon had risen, but not enough yet to cast light into the wood. She
saw what she saw by starlight and that was hazy.

Breaca could have spoken first, and chose not to; too much was
at stake and too much unknown. It was enough simply to let herself
be seen for what she was: alone and not heavily armed. She
dared not risk more.

After a moment, from her right, Cunomar said softly, 'How did
you know it was me? Did Graine tell you?' His voice had deepened
in the thirteen long months of his absence. It was resonant now,
possessed of a certainty that mirrored his father. He sounded
curious, not petulant, drily amused, not defensive.

'No. Your sister keeps her secrets well. I heard the song of your
new spear and recognized it from a dream I had in the early spring
when I saw you kill the wounded he-bear. It was well done.' Breaca
used the formal courtesy she would don in council, facing a
warrior she did not fully know.

Her son tilted his head to look at her more directly. His fair hair
was grey under the stars and the unrisen moon. He asked, 'Have
you become a dreamer since I left?'

'Not at all, although I wondered if you had done so. Sometimes
the most powerful of dreamers can send their dreams to others. If
it matters enough.'

This last was a question. More hung on it than either would have
openly expressed. To Graine, Breaca could speak of her care and
her desperate fear and how the one wove into the other, but not yet
to Cunomar, perhaps not ever.

His new spear sang while he considered his answer. The sound carried with it the scent of moss and high mountains and falling water and the iron-gall of bear blood. More faintly, men spoke
invocations to the gods of rock and forest in the tongue of the
Caledonii. Cunomar was one of them.

In the forest of the Eceni, Breaca's son studied his hands for a
moment, then lifted his head and looked his mother directly in the
eye for the first time she could remember. He was not naked as he
had been in her dreams, but she could read him as if he were and
did so, feeling a hope she barely dared name. He was no taller than
his father had been, but broader than Caradoc, even at the height
of the battle season. He wore a sleeveless tunic and a mass of white
scars showed along the curves of both shoulders, as if a bear had
mauled him, except that they were too evenly spaced to have been
made by a bear. Lines of blue dots traced on either side confirmed
it; the dreamers of the Caledonii marked their bear dancers thus,
cutting into the flesh with hot knives and laying horse hair along
the wound to raise the scar.

Cunomar bore her scrutiny quietly for a while, then said, 'At the
time of the hunt, it mattered more than anything to show you what
I had done. I didn't know that I sent you the dream, but I prayed
to Nemain and the horned god of the forest that you saw what I
had done. If the gods carried the vision to you, it was in answer to
my soul's prayer with three days of fasting to give it strength. I
don't know if I could do it again. Certainly, the elders of the
Caledonii did not teach me their dream ways in the year I stayed
with them, only how to become a man.'

Only. She ached to embrace him and it could not come from her.
Stepping away from the hazel, she loosed the knife from her belt
and held it out. 'I have this for you, and a hound bitch bred by
Efnis' sister which will match Stone in the hunt.'

The knife lay on her palm, dull in the dark. In daylight, a dozen
different traders had tried to bargain for it. The blade was plain,
single-edged, of the greatest length allowed with a slight curve at
the back edge so that it could kill or skin a body with equal ease.
The hilt was not ornately tooled, but cast in bronze in the shape of
a hunting bear, rounded along the back so that the hand slid over
it easily and the head made the pommel. Inset at the place where
the bear's heart would be, on the left only, was a piece of obsidian
carved in the shape of a spear-blade. At certain angles of the firelight,
it shone red, as a wound freshly made.

The stars did not light it so, but silvered it, softly. Cunomar
stepped for the first time away from the tree in whose shelter he
had been standing. Cautiously, almost reverently, he lifted the knife
out of her hand.

'You made this for me after the dream of my hunt?'

'Yes.'

'Gods . . .' As a child, he had never appreciated beauty for its
own sake, only for what it could give him. He breathed now as
reverently as Eneit had done when he first heard the soul-song of
the spear. To hear the song of a knife was much harder.

Cunomar heard it. With the care of one guarding the sacred, he
knelt and laid the blade on the leaf litter. Less carefully, he rose and
threw his arms around his mother.

He had grown in height and breadth, but so much more in other
ways. His grip was solid and knew where he ended and she began,
respecting them both. Breaca felt a warmth on her neck that she
thought was his breath and then realized wasn't.

He had not wept for Eneit as he did for her now.

Clouds had smeared over the stars by the time they stood apart.
Speaking was hard. Breaca said, 'There is too much to say and we
can't talk now. Do you know why I'm here?'

'Of course.' He grinned; a year with the Caledonii had not
dimmed his delight in his own achievements, nor should it have
done. He said, 'I've been here three days. The slavers are due to
meet one of Berikos' men - a lame warrior of the Coritani who
fought against you before the Romans came. He has the marks of
the fire lizard burned on his arms as proof that he has both killed
and taken wounds in war. He raps a knife against the hazel stump
as a sign he is here. The noise it makes carries further than you'd
think and there's always one of the Latins listening. When they
hear it, the big one with the leaping fish as his shoulder brooch
comes to meet him.'

'The Coritani lizard-man left the clearing before it became dark.
If he hasn't been here, it's because he is waiting for someone.'
'You, perhaps? Did he know you were watching him?'

'Possibly.' Breaca spun on one heel, listening to a forest at night.
Distantly, men in mail moved heavily between the trees. A faint light
glowed that was more than the fires and less than the moon. She
asked, 'Do the two slavers with mail stay close to the fish-leaper?'

Cunomar had heard what she heard. He knelt and retrieved the
bear-hilted knife. 'Only one of them comes this far,' he said. 'The
other waits nearer the fair, to keep away passersby.'

'In case they discover that the Coritani have taken to selling
human lives for gold and a fish-badged Latin buys them.' Breaca
drew her own knife. 'They're on their way. Bringing torches, no
less, which should blind them to anything beyond their reach.
Good. We should move . . .'

They stepped back and back and the space around them was
black compared to the fire of the resin torches the slavers brought
with them and any noise they made was lost in the clatter of men
not trained to stalk in a forest at night.

The Latin trader came first, with his mail-clad ex-legionary
bodyguard. The jewelled fish on his tunic leaped bright under the
flame. The lizard-marked Coritani warrior was slower to arrive
and came without light, treading silently; he had been a hunter
once, of men as well as animals. He spoke Latin with a Gaulish
accent and was answered in kind with passwords that both sides
knew. If he was aware he was being watched, he hid it well.

Both men were used to dealing and gave no concessions; the
trading passed smoothly, as if they were, indeed, exchanging a war
trained colt for a wagon of hides. Breaca listened less to the detail
than the tone. It was not a new venture, nor a first meeting, simply
the latest in a series of tightly made bargains.

Beside her, Cunomar knelt on one knee with one hand on his
spear, his whole attention focused on the meeting. He shivered
all over, lightly, in the way Stone did in the hunt, transfixed by
a hare. She had seen the same in Ardacos before battle when the
she-bear filled him most. She wanted very badly for him to see
Cunomar now.

The bargain was struck: a dozen youths nearing adult age were
to be delivered to the sea port just south of Camulodunum in
exchange for the payment of thirty flagons of good wine, marked
with the emperor's stamp, three pitchers of olives and an unspecified
amount of gold that changed hands on the spot, as surety.
The lizard-man counted the coins and tied them in his belt-pouch.
They chimed gently against his thigh.

At a signal from the fish-badged Latin, the men parted. The
slaver and his bodyguard took their torches and threaded back
along the paths to their fire. The lizard-marked Coritani waited
with his back to the hazel stump. He had been a good warrior in
his day, the lizard marks said so; he must know he was being
watched. He glanced around, warily, but without fear.

Breaca felt a tap on her shoulder. So quietly that his voice came
into her mind as had the spear-song, Cunomar said, 'We can't kill
the Latins, their deaths would bring down reprisals on everyone
at the fair, but Rome will not care if a lizard-warrior of the
Coritani dies to a bear in the forest.'

'Or if he falls into the river and drowns?' Breaca had thought the same. A prickle of almost-danger thrilled her skin. The Coritani warrior could feel it as well as she. He had drawn his knife and was
stepping back into the deeper forest, keeping trees at his back for
safety.

Breaca said, 'There may be more of them waiting. He would be
a fool to have come alone.'

Cunomar flashed her a shattering smile. The moon had risen,
enough to fire the gold of his hair. His eyes were amber and alive with the night. He said, 'I don't think he's a fool. At least three other warriors wait beyond the margins of the trees. But we are the
Boudica and her son, who is the bear. For us, four men are as
nothing.' His voice was rich and deep and full of promise. 'Will
you hunt with me, Boudica, bringer of victory?'

For five years in the mountains of the west, Breaca had hunted
alone at either end of the battle season.

She had done so out of choice when there were others who could
have accompanied her and shared the risk and the elation of each
kill. At different times and in different ways, Ardacos and Cygfa,
Gwyddhien and Braint had all offered to join her on the crossing
to the mainland and she had turned them down with platitudes,
never saying that she cherished each year the months of solitude,
the freedom of self-reliance after the necessary dependencies of
battle.

Through the years, she had thought that she could have shared
the experience only with Caradoc, and the loss of that had been yet
another layer in her grief for the greater loss, wearing thin over the
years until it became simply another part of her soul.

On the night she hunted the Coritani lizard-warriors in the
company of Cunomar, her son, Breaca learned for the first time
what it might have been to hunt with his father. The joy of it
matched the pain, and both were outmatched by the pure, fluent
beauty of the hunting.
The enemy were five; the fire-marked Coritani slave seller and
the two men and two women of his honour guard. All were lizard
marked for kills and wounds in battle, and they were not as
nothing.

Starlight and the cloud-veiled moon made the forest a place of
shifting greys and blacks. The first of the enemy, who had taken
gold from the slave traders, backed away from the meeting place
knife-handed, showing a flash of iron where sense would have kept
him still.

Knife-song joined the spear-songs in the whisperings of a forest
at night. Cunomar tapped two fingers across his own forearm and
angled his head west. They were on Eceni territory, in Eceni hunting
lands; he knew the forest as Breaca did, and the Coritani
lizard-fighters did not. Breaca nodded and made her own signal,
pressing the heel of her hand towards the earth.

They separated, mother and son, folding into a forest that
welcomed them, and when they met again they were between the
Coritani slave seller and the four warriors of his honour guard.

They did not kill him then; the honour of the hunt demanded
that he be last. Breaca lifted a stone the size of her fist and sent it
rolling to her left. Leaf litter and small branches creaked in its path.
The slave seller froze and twisted and pushed himself into the bole
of a beech tree and the whipping undergrowth around it. Ahead,
two of his honour guard separated, and were no longer acting as
shields, one for the other.

There was no room to use her sling and no need yet for a knife.
Breaca broke the neck of the one who took her path, stepping out
of the dark to cup a chin and force it sharply up and back and to
the side; so much easier to kill an enemy than it had once seemed
to kill Graine, even in mercy. Only as she lowered the body did she
find that it was a woman, and was sorry.

Cunomar joined her. He had shed his jerkin. The night made
armour of his bear-scars, that ran in long crosswise ribs from
shoulders to waist. His knife was blackly wet. The song of it had
deepened to the one she had known in the forge, where it would
stay now, until broken.

He knelt, and on the body of a woman whom Rome had turned
to slaver cut marks that could make it seem as if she were a bear
kill. The night became loud with the stench of fresh blood and a
stomach laid open.

The wood held its breath, so that even the hunting weasels
became briefly still. Ahead, a deer barked in darkness and another
behind. No deer barked at night. They were known now: hunters
and hunted; two against three.

Cunomar rose, and stood at his mother's shoulder. He no longer
grinned for her; his face was closed, a still mask of focused intent.
They were beyond speech, or the arm-tap signals of the she-bears;
for the duration of that hunt, the Boudica and her son became one,
two blades of a single weapon. His eyes were her eyes, her thoughts
his, from the shame of killing a woman of the tribes to pride in the
perfection of the kill. His almost-death was almost hers.

Passing along the edge of a tiny clearing lined with mossed
stones and plates of moonlit fungus, Breaca scented blood and
heard the grunting exhalation of one fatally struck. Only the
prescience of a thousand such hunts made her turn away from the
flash of iron that might have been Cunomar's death, or his kill, so
that she stepped instead into the path of the warrior who would
have slain her and was able to duck and sidestep and make her
own strike. His blade carved a scallop from her shoulder, near the
scars of the old-festered spear wound. Her blade caught him
messily on the cheek, glancing into his eye.

He was good. A lesser man would have screamed and given way
to the pain and so lost his life. This one switched his blade to his
left hand and circled her, even as the blood flooded the right side
of his face.

Aloud, because it no longer mattered to be silent, Breaca said, 'If
such as we fought together and not apart, Rome would have been
banished long since.'

He laughed at her, breathlessly. 'They are too many . . . Rome
will win and we their allies . . . better that than slain foe.'

The stones of the clearing hid a small spring. She drove him
towards it, using the advantage of two eyes against one. When
he stepped on the edge of it and lost his balance, she killed him,
stepping in past his knife hand to thrust into his chest. He died
choking on blood and the noise no longer mattered.

Cunomar was backed against a tree with cuts across his chest.
On a path running away from the clearing, he faced two, openly:
the first of the slave sellers with the lizard brands laced up the full
length of his forearms and another, older and less marked, who
wore his hair raised high in a knot at the back with hawk feathers
dangling from it.

The older was the wiser. Hearing Breaca's kill, he turned to put
his back to his shield-mate, so that those two, also, became welded
to one.

Breaca stepped back into the night. The height of the moon
showed her son braced against the fine bark of an elm with his
knife held cleanly in front, as focused in the face of death as he had
been in the first moments of the hunt. The elders of the Caledonii
had schooled him well, but they had not hunted for five years
amongst the enemy as the Boudica had done, where to live took
more than the facing of death without fear.

To live now, to enable her son to live, required silence, and
unyielding nerve and a lifetime's understanding of men.

Any man knows when eyes are on him. A warrior awaiting
attack knows it soonest and most reliably. Breaca did not, then, watch
the elder of the two warriors, the one with the strong nose and
the high cheeks and the red hawk's feathers in his bound-up hair,
but exclusively and intently his companion, who faced Cunomar's
knife and could not shift his attention without risking death.

A hawthorn thicket scratched her back. Above, damp branches
dripped the aftermath of rain. Undergrowth gave way before her
and the forest's floor yielded beneath each measure of her feet as,
slowly, so slowly, Breaca came up alongside the two back-joined
Coritani warriors.

An eternity passed amid the rising scents of a damp woodland
and then only branches separated her from them. They were two
heads, two pale ears with hair bound up behind them, two necks
left vulnerable because no warrior of the tribes wore a helmet or
neck armour when hunting.

Moss sprang underfoot. A leaf stroked her cheek. The Coritani
slave seller who would trade her children for Roman gold felt the
weight of her attention.

Harshly, he said, 'Watch to your right!' and the warrior of the
red hawk did so, and swore, violently. The Boudica was less than
an arm's reach away, a blood-splashed face framed by branches,
when he had thought that same dense woodland was his
protection.

He was fast, but she had come at his right, and a little behind,
which is hardest to strike for a right-handed man unless he can
reverse his blade in time. He tried, and in the trying lost the chance
to drop and roll, which might have saved him. Still, he ducked sideways
and so the strike which was aimed at his chest caught him
instead across the abdomen, messily. Dying, he could still attack
and did so, catching her across the calf before she reversed her
knife and struck his temple with the hilt and then laid open his
throat to the backbone.

The lizard-branded slave seller died more swiftly, caught
between the Boudica and her son. Breaca caught the man's knife
arm from behind and Cunomar struck at his chest and then his
throat so that the body she held became rigid and then lax and she
could lower it to the ground.

She took a breath and then another and chose not to watch the
swift departure of souls, but instead to watch Cunomar, who took
one deep breath and then sank to his knees and was sick.

'I'm sorry.'

'Don't be. It's worse to feel nothing.' She held his shoulders and
waited while another wave of nausea rocked him. He was shaking,
as he had been before, from the exertion and the intent and the
nearness of death. From the first kill to the last had been less time
than it took to drink a beaker of ale, and had felt a lifetime. She
said, 'You have been in battle before, but never as a warrior. Do
you know the difference now?'

'Gods, yes.' He knelt on all fours and spat, taking a handful of
leaves to wipe his mouth. 'I thought the bear-kill was hardest, but
it's not like killing a warrior, alone and . . . unprotected. The she
bears spent so long protecting me when we fought in the west. I
didn't know...'

He rocked back on his heels. He was filthy; leaf litter smeared
his face and blood ran freely from the cuts on his chest. He looked
down at himself, in shock.

Breaca said, 'They'll hurt later. A lot. Airmid has a salve that will
help keep them from festering, but very little helps the pain.' She
let go of his shoulders and sat down away from the bodies of
the two Coritani warriors. 'I'm sure the she-bears have salves the
same.'

Cunomar picked more leaf litter and cleaned the blood from his
chest. 'Are you sending me back?'

'No, of course not. You are a man now. I have no power to send
you anywhere, and I would not wish you to leave now when you
have barely returned. But still, you should consider it. The steading
is no different from when you left. I have not yet raised a war host,
only begun the arming of those who might join me one day. We
may yet all die to Rome, or find ourselves taken by these . . .' She
nudged the dead slave seller with her toe. 'The gods have let us
meet, you and I, for which I am more grateful than I can say. I
would welcome each day your light in my life, but you've tasted
true freedom and grown through it; are you certain you want to
live again under the yoke of Rome?'

Cunomar had stopped shaking. He sat back against the tree
that had been his protection earlier. Lacing his hands behind his
head, he looked up at the stars. 'The elders of the Caledonii have
made me a bear-warrior. If I wish, I can go back to them, I can
dance with the she-bear in the autumn and perhaps become one of
their warrior-dreamers. I can fight their small battles against small
tribes, and the Belgic seafarers who land on their coast and take
their women. Or I could come home and live among the Eceni, and
starve when they starve and fight with the Boudica when the time
comes to fight.' He unhooked his hands and wiped another smear
of blood from his chest. 'What did Eneit say before he died?'

'That he loved you, which you knew, and that he would wait for
you in the lands beyond life. That you were to find the courage
to live on from that day - which you have done. And he said to
remember his name, which means "spirit", and to give it to your
first-born son.'

He was silent a while. The bodies of the slain warriors cooled
and the blood ceased to leak from their death wounds. Cunomar
reached forward and stripped the hawk feathers from the high-tied
hair of the older man.

'We should make the bear-marks on their bodies and give them
to the river,' he said, absently, and then, standing, 'If I am to have
a son, and to name him Eneit, I would have him born and live
among the Eceni, with Eceni blood in his veins.' He was smiling at
Breaca, shyly, in a way that took her heart and twisted it apart. He
held so much of his father, and was so uniquely himself. 'If I
wanted to come home, would you have me?'

Before, he had been the one to make the first move. Now, Breaca
pushed herself to standing, and found that the cut in her leg had
stiffened and made her lame. He met her partway and they
embraced this time as adults, as warriors who have staked their
lives on each other's skill, as mother to her first-born son, with all
that entails, as the Boudica to the son of Caradoc, who had left a
child and come home more than she had ever hoped he could be.

His welcoming arms enfolded her. She pressed her head to his
shoulders and smelled his skin, as she had when he was first born
and never since. She looked into his eyes, which were level with
hers and waited calmly, as the bear-dreamers of the Caledonii had
taught him.

'My world would be broken without you,' she said, and meant
it and then, because tonight all things were possible, 'If we had five
hundred like you, we could rekindle the heart of the Eceni. Even
fifty would be a beginning. Will you journey with me through the
summer and see if we can raise enough to make your honour
guard?'


XXI.

THE HOUND FROM THE ANCESTORS' MOUND ACCOMPANIED Valerius on the boat over from Hibernia to Mona and the
ferry journey from Mona to the mainland, watching as he
retched bile and the last of his old meal onto the deck. It travelled
with him as he trekked along the high mountain paths south and a
little east and only abandoned him again as he passed the vast,
sprawling fortress of the XXth legion and reached the foot of the
track that led up to Mithras' cave. He missed its company, but
the beast seemed so clearly bound to Nemain that he could not
expect it to follow him into another god's demesne.

Of necessity, his progress up to the cave was excruciatingly slow.
The followers of the bull-slayer did not deal kindly with those who
profaned their places of worship and Valerius was no longer an
injured officer, ranked as Lion before the god, trekking up with his
Father's permission to sanctify his soul before battle. The route up
had never been easy, but this time each step must be tested before
it was taken, each yard forward checked for guards or trackers or
youthful initiates, who might choose to spend a night out on the
mountain, eager to prove their worth in the capture of an apostate.

At each step, Valerius sought to keep open the god-space that
Nemain had made in his soul. She had not asked him to abandon
his service to Mithras - he could not imagine her doing so - but,
having laid bare his self in her presence, it seemed impossible now
that he could serve also the soldiers' god of the legions whose
worship was offered only to the best, to the sharpest, to those most
dedicated to Rome and empire.

Valerius came on the god's place in the greyness of dawn and at
first did not see what it had become. On his last and only visit, on
the eve of Caradoc's defeat, the entrance to Mithras' cave had been
an unmarked cleft in a rock face at the side of a waterfall, easily
missed but for the offerings of honey and corn and small pieces of
gold placed with care on finger-wide ledges around the opening.

Now, four years on, a Father who wished to leave his mark most
visibly had ordered white lime painted in a band a foot wide
around the opening so that the black scar of the cave's mouth
shouted down into the valley and anyone, given to the god or not,
would know where he resided.

Valerius would not have done this, nor, he thought, would the
grey-robed tribune who had been the Father of the order in his
time. That man had cared more for the old way of things and
would not have needed to scream his presence to the world.
Valerius wondered if the new governor were branded for the bull
slayer: the act had the mark of a man who fed on self-publicity and
the adulation of others as Suetonius Paulinus was said to do.

On this morning, of all mornings, the effect was not quite as had
been intended. The wind had risen and was playing with the waterfall
so that the white-painted mouth was blurred by the whiter
spray and Valerius saw the full horror only when he stood directly
before it.

It was crushingly ugly. Brash offerings had been left, to match
the paint. A gold chain hung from a peg driven into the rock; a
flagon of wine lay unbroken, its wax seal stamped with Claudius'
mark to demonstrate the age and worth of the vintage; a single
ocean pearl threaded on gold wire dangled from the hazel that
drooped over the waterfall, a drop of shining milk in the wet. Only
the last of these added to the sanctity of the place. Valerius felt an
ache in his back teeth that was the first whisper of the god's
discomfort.

He did not want to enter the presence of one he had served
tainted with the gloss of false offerings. Leaving his pack, he
tracked back one hundred paces and waited, watching. When
he was certain that neither men nor animals had tracked his climb
up, he stripped and eased his way gingerly down over wet rocks to
the pool at the foot of the waterfall.

Water thundered around him, spray-bright and savage. A
decade's service in the west had not dimmed his awe at the sheer,
mind-numbing power of a river falling over a cliff. Like a child, he
spread his arms and let the water sting his face and chest, flaying
him awake. The brand at his sternum tingled lightly but no more;
the time was long gone when the pain of it reminded him of his
duty.

More alert, he stepped off the last rock into the water. The cold
did not steal his breath as it had in the river outside the dreamers'
chamber; he could think this time, and not lose himself. Grateful
for that, he ducked his head under and let the raw current sweep
the rest of his skin clean.

With cleanliness came a fresh awareness. He had not been
welcome on Mona and the pain of that stayed with him. It did not
leave now, but he was alive in spite of it, free to drink in the sharp
air and the crystalline water, the piercing sky and the cry of the
yearling buzzard that hunted early, ragged from winter and too
hungry to wait until full light. That pain touched him, but
pleasantly. Valerius found he could see forward to a time when it
would be assuaged by food and rest and the play of high winds.
That surprised him; he had not known that Nemain's soul-opening
would allow him to see forward, even for an impatient bird. He
rediscovered her presence as a gift and bathed himself in it as he
bathed in the water.

Later, dry and clothed, he gathered the gold and the wine from
the cave's mouth and cast them into the river. It was no longer his
duty, but he wished Mithras no ill and this was a service he was
uniquely placed to offer. Any land-sourced water was sacred to
Nemain, but she had always been the gateway to the other gods;
she could devour such things without harm as the bull-slayer could
not. The ache in his teeth died away as the pool took the last
dazzling chain. He left the pearl. It had been hung in the hazel with
different intent by one who understood the gods' love of beauty.

There was nothing left, then, to keep Valerius from entering the
cave. Holding his mind open, he lit one of the tallow candles he
had brought and squeezed in through the white-painted mouth,
stealing himself for the belly-crawl in darkness through an ever
narrowing tunnel that would bring him into the presence of the
god.

That much had not changed. As he had before, he reached the
bend in the tunnel where the floor sloped steeply and the only way
forward was with his arms outstretched in front and his body bent
into the rock. For long moments, it seemed impossible to go either
forward or back and he had to crush the urge to panic. When he
reached it, the opening out into the cave came as a blessed relief
that was as much memory as reality.

He was not the man he had been; his appreciation of this place
was greater than before. The ancestor-dreamers of the Hibernians
had built of stone the dreaming chamber in which Valerius had
passed his long-nights and had made it lightless. Here, the gods,
without the help of any dreamers, had built a vaulting cavern :
within a mountain so high that it scraped the clouds and they had set within it a lake and a lacing of water that, when touched by a candle's flame, had been the most heartbreakingly beautiful thing
Valerius had ever seen.

The shock of it had brought him to Mithras before. He hoped it
would do so again. By feel, he lit the second of his three candles
and set it on the rock, then shut his eyes and waited a moment
before looking out to where the lake had been, and the dripping
jewels of water that had quivered from the ceiling like the gold-wrought tears of the god.

Just too late, the ache in his teeth returned, sharply, but he was
too full of expectation to make sense of it.

He should have known; a man who will paint white the mouth
of a cave will put his stamp also on that which is most sacred
within it. Iron ringed the lake; a barrier of staves of the kind the
legions might place on the margins of their night camps except that
these rods were of iron, not wood, and they had been fired and
drawn and hand-beaten and stamped at the ends with the mark of
the raven, exactly as it was branded on Valerius' chest, and
whereas the legionaries could place their staves with a single stamp
into the ground, here, men with chisels and mortar had worked for
days to root them into the rock that was the cave's floor.

It was sacrilege, perpetrated in the name of the god, and
Valerius' every sense screamed at the sight of it. He turned
and found at the back of the cave an altar of marble and the small
part of him that could think tried to imagine how it had been
brought in through the tunnel. The rest of him studied the carvings
around it and the wrought gold and the painted icons and saw
them, too, as sacrilege.

In disgust, he said, 'Do they not know you?'

They think they do. Are you any different?

Valerius turned back to the water far more slowly than he had
turned away. Nemain had not appeared to him in a vision, nor
spoken aloud so that her voice rolled off the water-jewelled rock,
shaking him where he stood.

Mithras did both. The god was not kneeling in fire as he had
before. He had no bull, alive or dead, at his feet, but the hound that
was shown with him always in the carvings and the friezes of the
cellars beneath each Roman fortress stood at his heel, its head level
with his thigh. In the images, it was small and lop-eared; a smooth
haired southern sight-hound, from the hot deserts of Mithras'
birth.

In the cave of the god in the mountains of Britannia, the hound
was tall with prick ears and a harsh, broken coat and the spatterings
of white stood out on its mane so that it could have stood
recently in snow. It was the hound of the ancestors' dreaming
chamber, that had departed at the foot of the god's mountain, and
it was Hail, who was dead and had been given to Briga. It should
not have come also in the company of any foreign god, much less
one so closely entwined with the legions.

Valerius opened his mouth and closed it again. Nemain watched
and offered no help.

Amused, Mithras said, I ask you again. Do you know me, Julius
Valerius, smith of Hibernia?

Valerius found his voice, which surprised him. 'I do not presume
so much. I never have.'

And yet you clear the false offerings from the mouth of my cave
and feel grief at the entrapment of my lake.

'I would not see you in pain.'

So then you understand that much. I will ask differently. Do you
know me, Ban of the Eceni?

'No.'

Valerius spoke without thinking, from the twisting place in his
chest where old pain was still rooted. Four years before, that would
have been enough. Today, now, from the openness into which
Nemain had drawn him, he said, 'As Julius Valerius, decurion of
the cavalry and servant of the emperor, I could have come to know
you. As Ban, I can only be given to Nemain.'

But you are not Ban. You do not answer to that name, nor think
of yourself so in your dreams. I ask you again: as Valerius, whom
do you serve?

One does not speak twice without due thought in the presence
of a god. Valerius stood in the centre of the cavern and watched the
light of his candle bleed through the gaps between the iron staves.
Once, it would have been light enough to set fire to the lake and
bring the place alive, but no longer. The god stood on mute water
while channels of withered flame barely touched his feet. Valerius
let his mind stretch out to meet them, and reached for an answer.

For three years on Hibernia, he had lived only as Valerius, and
had believed himself godless. Now, knowing differently, he had not
found who he might be, except that he was not yet Ban of the
Eceni, nor was he any longer Julius Valerius, citizen of Rome and
decurion of the Thracian cavalry.

At the feet of the bull-god, the hound dipped its head and drank
of the firelight. Here, in this place, its pelt was clotted at the neck
where the death wound had bled out. It snuffed the air and pricked
its ears and trotted forward, leaping the iron staves as if they were
sticks laid flat on the ground. Reaching Valerius, it nudged its nose
into his lax hand and, as he had in the ancestors' chamber, he felt
the warmth and wetness of it as if it were real.

In the presence of the gods, nothing happens by accident.
Valerius knelt as Mithras had once knelt and ruffled the dream
hound's ears. Looking out over the water, he said, 'Is this my
hound, or yours?'
If you are given to me, what is mine is yours.

If. . . The word spanned the air between man and god, vibrantly,
opening doors that Valerius had long believed closed.

If. . . The god walked forward along avenues of fire. His face
was that of a youth, his eyes eternally old. His hair was the colour
of the morning sun and in his smile he held the beauty, and the
savage power, of every dawn there had ever been. No man could
meet him without love, nor fail to know regret at his departing.

Valerius, who had served him for fifteen years without such a
meeting and so without love, felt himself crushed beneath a
mountain's weight of loss.

In anguish, he said, 'I cannot be what I was. I cannot go back.'

Would you wish to?

'No. I have been given my birthright. Who I am now is the
truth.' Desperate, Valerius searched for Nemain and found her and
nothing changed but that his soul came into balance and his confusion
was not unheard. She did not force a choice, as Mithras had
not. Even so, he could see no way that a man could serve two such
disparate gods and hold himself intact.

A flame wavered on the flat mirror of the water. The god was
close enough to touch. Quietly, he said, Who are you now,
Valerius, walker between the worlds? Julius Valerius was as fully of
Rome as Ban was of the Eceni and neither will easily be laid to rest,
however much you may seek to do so. Must you now renounce one
to keep faith with the other? The choice is yours. No god can make
it for you.

Valerius had not come seeking choice, but an ending. For too
long, he said nothing, staring at the iron staves and the stuttering
candle. Then the quality of the silence changed and when he looked
again the god was flowing into the fire and the fire into the water.

The loss was devastating. Abandoned, he sank to his knees and
wept. Scalding tears melted tracks on his cheeks. He wanted
urgently to swear fealty, all choices made, and could not; his voice
was no longer at his command.

The coarse-pelted hound turned towards the lake and whined
once, softly, then turned back and nudged Valerius' hand.

Through the echoing chamber of the cave, Mithras' voice reached him, softly. Seek who it is that you have become, walker between the worlds. If you can find that, the peace of the gods will
be open to you, and not only as you walk in the light of Nemain's
moon.

Valerius was alone, kneeling on the rock of the chamber's floor,
shaking as badly as he ever did on ocean crossings. The hound
made him sit up, made him stand, shoved at his leg so that he must
brace against it or fall over. He wanted to be sick and did not dare
so defile the god's cavern, however badly it had already been
defiled.

The thought of that moved him. He had brought with him no
tools, but he believed it possible that even empty-handed he could
undo the worst of what men with tools had done.

The iron staves set around the lake were easiest to remove; the
holes in which they were set were not deep, the mortar already
rotten in the damp air. He raised them, one at a time, and stacked
them against the wall near the tunnel that led to the outer world.
The altar was more complicated. It was not ugly; in the right
place it might have been beautiful, but this was not the right place.
Examining it, Valerius found that it had been made in sections, and
so understood how it had been brought through the tunnel. The
flat marble of the top lifted clear and the four walls were held by
wooden pegs within.

It took some effort to prise it apart, but he had time and an
energy that must be vented on something. The gold and frippery
around the edges were easily removed. His only question was
where to dispose of the pieces. He could not hurl them into the lake
- of all the water in the world, this was not Nemain's - nor could
he drag the marble out through the tunnel alone and without ropes
or rollers.

The candles were nearly used up. He lit the third from the stump
of the second and watched the two flames wind round each other
in the loose air. They tipped to his left, towards the tunnel's mouth
through which he had come, blown by a draught that came from
the opposite side of the cavern. Valerius turned on one heel and
stared at the wall of dark rock.

'So now, do you think I can go into the other cavern? The gods
would not let me before.'

Valerius spoke to the hound, which gave no answer, but it did
not hold him back when he lifted a bundle of iron stakes under one
arm and searched for the mouth of the cave-within-cave that he
had found once before. This opening had not been outlined in
white lime. It was unlikely that the engineers with their drills and
mortar had not seen it, but, like Valerius on his last visit, they may
have been warned away by a power too great to be ignored. ¦

The entrance looked no more inviting than it had done before.
The candle drifted and spat and cast more shadows than it did
light. Valerius squeezed himself sideways and slid his shoulders
into the cleft that led to the new cave - and waited.

No voice came to stop him. The still place in his soul held no
warning.

A greater draught blew out the candle.
Valerius was not afraid of the dark. He reminded himself of this
fact three times as he propped the iron staves against the wall of
the inner cavern and felt his way back whence he had come. His
years in the legions had made him methodical if nothing else; the
iron staves were stacked together in a row and he arranged
the pieces of the altar in size order alongside. Carrying them
into the inner cave was slow work, made slower by the lack of light
and the need to feel his way, but Valerius became faster with
practice so that the gold and icons of the altar pieces were easily
taken further into the inner cavern and laid on ledges that he had
come to know by touch.

He laid the last one in place and stood still, snuffing the air as a
deer might do, scenting danger. He felt no threat, only a sense of
great age and a watchfulness that was not his and a fainter touch
of something that might have been a greeting, or at least an
acknowledgement of his presence. There was a dryness to it that
did not match the damp of the cavern but made him think of newly
shed leaves before the rains of winter pulp them, or a snake skin,
found soon after shedding.

He walked a little way forward, beyond the furthest point of his
exploration, and let the draught lift the hair from his forehead.

'Thank you,' he said. 'I leave these in your care. They are not
wrong in themselves, only in the wrong place for the wrong
reasons. One day they may be right.'

The ancient, watching dark opened a little to drink in his words.
He expected something to be given in return and was disappointed.
The echo of Mithras' last words filtered faintly in the air, but the
laden fragments of sound had shivered back and forth since
the god departed and Valerius continued to ignore them. He had
no intention of choosing anything until he had slept and eaten and
was safely clear of the legions quartered in the valley below.

Without thinking, he pursed his lips and whistled gently for the
hound as he used to do for Hail when he was a child. It nudged
against his thigh, in the place it most belonged, and together they
felt their way round Mithras' newly sanctified cavern to the mouth
of the exit tunnel.
Collecting the stubs of his three candles, Valerius bowed towards
the black-water lake. He felt a cleanliness that buoyed him and
made less onerous the choices. Knowing the god-space twice filled
laid on him a peace that was not, after all, only of Nemain.

Holding that thought, and the newness of it, he said Thank
you. I am grateful, always, for the gift of your presence. I will
honour you, whatever happens.'

The god's echo enfolded him. Choose well, Valerius.

Emerging was the rebirth into joy that he had imagined at the
ancestors' mound in Hibernia and had not experienced. Late
morning sun blinded him, and the dazzle from the pool beneath the
waterfall.

Thundering water and the scream of the buzzard swamped his
ears and pierced his mind. Sharp air and sharper water shocked
his face and he drank them all in and kept drinking, even as the
men who sprang from the earth behind him took hold of his arms
and crushed ropes on his wrists and kicked him twice in the belly
so that he fell to the ground, sobbing for air, with dark and light
and dark smashing through his closed eyes, and still a part of him
was entranced by the morning and did not understand what was
happening.


XXII.

THE HOUND DID NOT STAY WITH VALERIUS AT HIS CAPTURE, NOR did it return as the four men, half a tent party of the XXth
legion, beat him unconscious and then threw him in the pool
beneath the waterfall to bring him round and then propped him
between them, two in front, two behind, and marched him, with
pauses to kick him again, down the mountain.

On the rare occasions when he could speak, Valerius called to
the hound, sending it to find mac Calma, to keep it safe from harm,
as if a god-given hound could be harmed by men. The rest of the
time was lost to a sea of reddening pain, so that, in the end, he let
go of his mind because it was easier to hide in the dark of unconsciousness
and to trust his own body to ride the kicking as best
it could without his interference.

There had been no need to ask where they were going; he had
led these parties often enough himself. Perversely, he woke as they
threw open the door to the inquisitors' chamber beneath the
quartermaster's stores in the south-west corner of the barracks;
the sound of unoiled hinges triggered too many memories for him
to sink again into oblivion.
The room was built of coarse-hewn oak with a gravel floor and
a single barred window to let in light and air. The fortress's grain
store was directly above it, with spare harness stored in the loft
above that. It was not noticeably worse than any other prison but
the dreamers of the tribes brought here for questioning had feared
this room more than they had feared the inquisitors and their irons.

Towards the end of his stay in the fortress, Valerius had known
at least three who had broken simply as a result of having been left
here overnight. He had always thought that it was the grain store
that was the cause; that life in a roundhouse had left them unprepared
for the skills of Rome's engineers and the realization that
they were locked in a room with a year's supply of grain suspended
above their heads had shattered their minds.

He could not have been more wrong. The reality was more
disturbing and he discovered it as his captors opened the door and
pitched him face first onto the gravel inside. As an officer in the
legions, he had seen this place too often to count. He knew, as he
had known his own quarters, the smell of old blood and vomit and
stale urine and the old-meat stench of terror and capitulation.

Then, his rank had protected him, and the closed walls of his
mind. Now he was no longer an officer and Nemain had opened
all that had been closed. Sliding face first across the floor, he felt as
if it were his own, the horror of every other dreamer, every other
man and woman of the tribes who had lived and died in this place.

Some had been stronger at the start, some weaker, some given to
gods other than Nemain, some trained in better ways to hold
closed the floodgates of their minds so that the impact of their
breaking would be less on those who came after.

None of them, however well schooled, had failed to add to the
weight of horror and Valerius was only the latest in their line.
The weight of their deaths fell on him like a sledgehammer and he
screamed out the agony of it as the guards kicked him again in the
guts for luck.

The kicking saved him. He crumpled, choking, into his own
private hell of not-breathing and, briefly, the fight for air was too
urgent and too overwhelming for the rest to swamp him. Clawing
at the floor, fighting to hold the threads of mac Calma's teaching,
he was able to find that part of the chaos that was only Valerius
and hold it apart from the rest.

The guards let him alone while they undid his shackles. He lay
prone, his cheek smeared with his own spit and tears and blood
and dust, and fought to reason.
One fact rose late out of the rest: that they had brought him
here, to this chamber, when they would have taken a serving
officer, even a legionary, to the detention rooms in the south wing
of the barracks. Thus they believed Valerius to be a tribesman and
did not know his past identity. He clung to that, a spar in the ocean
of his drowning.

The chamber was not a big place; the four guards barely fitted
inside. They rolled him over and he could see them for the first
time, at least with his left eye, which had not swollen shut. They
were all young men, and strangers. None of them had seen service
in the time of Scapula when the decurion of the First Thracian
cavalry had led his troop across the river in a drive that had
ultimately defeated Caradoc.

Even if they had been there, without his mount they would not
have known Valerius. The Crow-horse had been his emblem, however
often he had painted the bull on his pennants. He had loved it
and it had hated him, which was safest and best and he had loved
it more for doing so. For one long, distracted moment, the loss of
the Crow-horse mattered more to Valerius than the pressure of the
inquisitors' room and the slow death that was to come. He called
to the beast in Thracian and the four young men of the XXth
thought he cried in Siluran and spat again, laughing.

The guards were young and lacked experience and left Valerius
alone with his hands free while they turned to lock the door. Their
blades hung at their hips, as open invitations. If he had been the
warrior they believed him to be, he would have killed at least one
of them, and then himself, in the time they took to fix the bolts.

Because he was not only a warrior, and did not intend to die,
Valerius pushed himself upright and stood swaying in the centre of
the room. His mouth was full of blood. He swallowed it rather than
spit and, in the archaic Latin favoured by Claudius and still a sign
of allegiance to the old emperor, said, 'You're supposed to strip me
next. It's in the Order of Action: all clothing to be removed from the
prisoner at the time of arrest. I think it's designed to deprive the
warriors of warmth and dignity which rather presumes they have
some dignity left to remove. Still, I think you should do it.'

Four men stared at him, aghast. One, black-haired, leaner and
more intense than the rest, swore an oath in the name of Mithras.

Valerius had not made his choice in the cave, but he gave thanks
in great profusion to the bull-god now, for the gift of this lean
young man and the strength of his faith. Holding himself tall, he
spoke the words of the Lion's invocation before the sun altar and
watched the young initiate pale to the colour of grey parchment.
A well-tutored Siluran spy might, at a stretch, have known
Claudian Latin and seen a copy of the Orders of Action, but only
a man who had progressed high in the ranks of Mithras' priesthood
could possibly know the Lion's invocation well enough to
recite it aloud and such a man could never be of the tribes. The
hierarchy of the bull-god was notoriously selective in its choice of
those who held high order: with each passing word, Valerius
proved not only that he was a Roman citizen who had seen service
in the legions, but that he had been of the elite few who
distinguished themselves so fully in battle that others might follow
them who were not of their corps.

The silence that settled after he ended was brittle with fear. In the
midst of it, the initiate of Mithras swore again, quietly, begging
forgiveness of his god.

The youth was newly branded; every part of his bearing said so.
Valerius leaned back against the wall and managed not to wince.
He raised his arms so that his sleeves fell back to show the scars of
the Lion's rank at his wrist, and placed his left thumb on the front
of his tunic where it covered the old brand of Mithras that had
been burned long ago on his chest: even the guards who had never
been permitted within the cellars and caves of the bull-god could
recognize that brand when they saw it.

'You really should strip me,' Valerius said, pleasantly. 'It will
save us all time in the end although I'd be grateful if you could
manage to do it without kicking me again. I'm not sure there's anywhere
left that isn't going to take a month to heal.'

He thought he had pushed too far. All four of the legionaries
gaped at him and the shape of their minds screamed of the need for
help from a senior officer, preferably one branded for the god,
ranked Lion or higher.

Very badly, Valerius did not want any of them to call for that
help.

Looking past the young initiate, he caught instead the gaze of the
armourer, who was the only officer among the four. He said, 'Your
choices are simple: if I'm a warrior of the Silures, you have to strip
me before the inquisitors come; it'll look bad otherwise. If I'm not,
if I am, instead, what you see and hear . . .' he was not going to lay
claim to the god aloud, but he touched again the brand of Mithras
at his chest, 'then you'll pay for disobeying the order of a senior
officer. I have ordered you to strip me. If you don't, I will report it. Think, man--' He snapped his fingers and felt four young men
flinch. 'In battle, an officer who hesitates is dead, and his men with
him. You know what--'

He would have had them. The young officer drew breath to give
the order to strip him - and let it out again at the sound Valerius
had heard half a heartbeat before and that had rendered all other
arguments useless. Outside, a troop of auxiliary cavalry had just
been ordered to stand to attention in rank formation in front of the
door.

The help of a senior officer had arrived, unasked. The young
officer blazed a smile, relief written bold across his face. Valerius
smiled with him, and cursed in Hibernian, to hide the panic.

Once again, he could have armed himself; the guards wore their
weapons with little care and all of their attention was on the officer
outside. It would not have been hard to take a sword and sheathe
it in his own chest. If he were prepared to risk being overwhelmed
by the guards outside - or any other of the five thousand armed
men in the fortress - he could probably have killed at least one of
the young legionaries first and gone to the god with one last ghost
waiting to greet him in the lands beyond life. He considered both
of these in the time it took the newly arrived officer to march to the
door and rap on it and demand to be admitted.

For the rest of his life, Valerius, once-decurion of the First
Thracian Cavalry, believed that he had already decided to live and
not to kill - before he recognized the voice. Then the bolt was
thrown back and the morning let in and Longinus Sdapeze,
decurion of the first troop, the First Thracian Cavalry, took up all
of the doorway.

Only because he was watching, and he knew Longinus
exceptionally well, did Valerius see the in-breath of a suspicion
confirmed and the consternation and the too-fast thinking that
followed.

The rest saw the tall, much-garlanded officer of the Thracians
sweep his helmet from his stag-red hair and toss it, grinning, to the
prisoner, swearing a cheerful oath in Thracian and then again in
Gaulish and Latin. He clapped the young armourer of the XXth on
the shoulder and, as one officer to another in the presence of the
rabble said, 'Have you asked this idiot who he is or has he been too
busy swearing by the bull-god to tell you?'

It was the luckiest of guesses, or Longinus had ways of hearing
through wood. In that moment, Valerius believed each of these
equally. He slid the cavalry helmet onto his head and if the rawly
beaten parts of his skull throbbed hard against the metal, he was
still glad of the protection.

He recognized all eight of the men waiting outside. The horse
master, standing at the head of the troop, flicked his thumb in the
sign that was life for a gladiator across the empire. For the men of
the first troop of the Ala Prima Thracum, it had also signified their
last decurion, who had ridden the mad, unrideable Crow-horse
and had always led them into battle with the recklessness - and the
luck - of the circus. Further back, a stout man with three of his
four front teeth missing grinned unappealingly and winked.

The auxiliary did not foster an honour guard as the tribes did for
their leaders, but such things came together of their own accord
and these eight men, almost exactly, had been Valerius' honour
guard for the last four years of his time with the legions. He knew
them all; their names, their lovers' names, the names of their
legitimate and illegitimate children. He knew their horses and how
they rode and their courage, or lack of it, in battle and who could
be relied upon to hold the left side of a line and who could best
swim with a rope across a river at night and hold it fast, that the
rest of the troop might follow.

They had been Valerius' men and were now Longinus', the wild
Thracian horseman who had always loved and fought with a
cheerful disdain for the risks. That these men had come to free
Valerius was not in question, only whether, in all conscience, he
could allow them to make the attempt.

The four ardent young officers of the XXth believed they had
captured a Siluran warrior. Left alone, they would have questioned
him as that and perhaps found, in the end, that he was given to
Nemain and had lived some time on Mona. What they did not
know, and might never find out, was that they had captured
instead a former cavalry officer named traitor by the Emperor
Nero, whose death in Rome would be worse, by far, than anything
the inquisitors could inflict - and would be shared in kind with any
others who had aided him at any point along the way.

Someone spoke over-loud nearby. Longinus leaned against the
doorpost, holding open the door, all the while talking of Valerius,
to Valerius, telling him what he needed to know.

'. . . the hell of it is, he's been so long among the natives that he's
forgotten how to give his name in Latin. But he's the best pair of
ears we've ever had inside the tribes. He got us news of Caradoc's
trap at the Valley of the Lame Hind and he ran his mad bloody
horse over the rampart at the revolt in Eceni lands when Scapula's
son would have had us all killed. You should ask Priscus how he
lost his teeth. You may think the Silurans are a bunch of wild
bastards...'

Longinus turned and walked out of the door, sweeping the
others with him. Most of what he said was true, and all of it was
legend within the legions. The four youths of the XXth grinned,
hearing in a new voice stories they already knew well.

'. . . hardest problem will be how to get him back out to the
Silures without them realizing we've let him go deliberately. At
least you've kicked him enough for it to look real. I'd say if we're
quick, there's still time for him to "escape", if you see what I--'

Longinus was a cavalry man of exceptional valour but he had
never been to Rome; he had not seen the circus, or helped to burn
the bodies of the men branded traitor by an emperor. He had not
seen the details of their dying, nor the exquisite care taken by men
whose skill was in ensuring that those under their care did not die
too early. Mercifully unaware, Longinus had no idea of the risk he
took, for himself or those who served under him.

Valerius, who had done both, knew it exactly. In the time it took
Longinus to sweep the ardent young officer of the XXth through
the door, he saw, layered over the many deaths of the dreamers that
haunted the inquisitor's chamber, nine more, slower and more
bloody; of eight cavalrymen he cared for, and one he had loved.

Many times in his life, Valerius had sought his own destruction.
Each time had been a denial of life, an escape from gods and men
who had abandoned him. This time, in full awareness of what he
did and for whom, he reached for Nemain, and was held by her,
and for Mithras, and felt the savage understanding of the god.
With that, he knew what he must do.

The lean, dark-haired initiate of Mithras had reached the doorway.
As much as his comrades, he was entranced by Longinus' tales
of past heroics, made drunk by his own close brush with danger,
now passed, so that he laughed over-loud at the talk of war and
battles and a life he feared and craved in equal measure.

Valerius put out an arm to block the young man's exit. 'When
they find what I did to the god's cave on the mountain, they will
skin you alive for letting me go. And that's nothing to what
Mithras will do to you when you come to meet him at last with
him clothed in flesh and you slim as a ghost.'

The youth stared at him, not daring to comprehend. Vicarious
excitement evaporated as understanding came in spite of himself.
Yellow with terror, he fought for words.

'What have you done?'

'Pulled out the eighteen iron staves that barred the way to the
god's pool. Given to Nemain the offerings at the cave's mouth.
Dismantled the altar and broken the--'

'For gods' sake, man, will you let go of your bloody tribal
fantasies? You're among friends, and if we have to knock sense
into your skull, to prove it, we'll do so with the greatest of
pleasure . . .'

Longinus really had no idea what he risked. His life was too fully
lived in the moment to encompass fear of sufficient magnitude.

Valerius had time to think exactly that much before his skull
exploded into white light and unconsciousness claimed him.


XXIII.

VALERIUS WOKE TO FIRELIGHT AND STARLIGHT AND THE CROP OF horses, grazing. The hound lay along his side, pressing
against his damaged ribs. Its quiet, insistent whining held
him awake.

He had forgotten what it was to wake stiff and sore and too
afraid to begin to count the damage; his four years as a smith in
Hibernia had been peacefully free of the bruises of battle.

He had a system that had always worked in the past and was
worth the attempt. Inhaling deeply, he held the breath to test his
ribs and decided that none of them was broken. He flexed his legs,
just a little, and decided that his knee caps had probably not been
cracked, nor his elbows or the parallel bones of his forearms. His
skull ached fiercely, but was intact. Exploring beyond the flesh, he
found that he was dressed and someone sat nearby holding a broth
that smelled of mutton and bay leaves. He sat up, slowly.

A man coughed, not too far away. Another shifted so that his
armour chinked. In this way, Valerius' former troop gave notice
that they kept guard around him, without being obtrusive. If they
still arranged themselves as he had taught them, four would be
asleep and four on watch, spread out in a circle, leaving the officer
in the centre to mind the fire.

That much was still true. Longinus sat on a half-log with the
bowl of broth clasped in both hands and his hands between his
knees. It was not clear if he could see the hound. His eyes were
yellow in the firelight but then they would have been yellow in daylight,
too; he had always had the gaze of a hawk. That gaze was
hard now and incisive and neither felt comfortable for the man on
whom it was trained.

Valerius pressed the heels of both hands to his eyes. When the
world had gone black and then white again, he removed his hands
and said, quietly, 'They'll flay you alive and make you wear a necklace
of your eyes. Priscus and the others will die at your side. No
officer of any worth takes that kind of risk with his troop.'

'Thank you. I am aware of that.' Longinus still did not smile,
which was new; in the past, he had always been cheerful, even after
Caradoc's capture when Valerius had taken refuge in wine and
things had soured between them.

The Thracian dipped a finger in the broth and tested it, sucking
the drips from his finger. 'Did you desecrate the bull-slayer's cave
as you said?'

'It was desecrated when I arrived. I put it back as it was when
we first saw it. You wouldn't have recognized it as it was yesterday,
or approved.'

'Possibly not, but then what I think is hardly material. Did the
god approve?'

'I believe so, but the new governor won't when he finds his
alterations dismantled.'

'In that case it may be as well that it was not the new governor
who ordered them, but the camp prefect of the Twentieth. Who is
now dead.'

Valerius blinked. 'I see.'

'I'm not sure you do. In this particular legion, the prefect controlled
the spies who report on the native councils, particularly
those of the Silures. He was killed a month ago by three of their
warriors who gave their lives to see him dead.'

'That was not my doing.'

'I didn't suggest it was. I only mention it because the last of the
warriors brought flasks of oil and set fire to them in the prefect's
lodgings and it was some time before the blaze was brought under
control. As a result, the records of his agents and their activities are
not as complete as they should be.'

Longinus smiled for the first time and it was the old smile, bright
and alive and sharp with the challenge of a fine mind. It hurt in
ways Valerius had not expected. He took in a slow breath and blew
it out through the steeple of his fingers.

Thinking aloud, he said, 'Longinus, I'm wanted for treason.
Nero signed the order personally on the day he was first hailed
emperor. There's no way round that. You can tell the inquisitors
that I've spied on every elder council held on Mona since the
invasion and fed the details word-perfect to the governor himself
and they'll still crucify you for letting me go.'

'Treason?' Longinus made a show of surprise. 'That was careless.
I thought you were every emperor's favourite. Claudius clearly
believed the gods walked in your shadow and even Caligula said
you brought him luck. Whatever did you do to upset Nero so
badly?'

Valerius grinned. Longinus had always cheered him. He said, 'I
cut the throat of his favourite messenger. And I got Caradoc out of
Rome when Claudius asked me to.'

'Ah. Was that you? I had wondered. News of that sort doesn't
travel well; men don't pass on facts that might see them flogged for
sedition.' Longinus dipped another finger in the broth and sucked
it. 'Are you as hungry as you-- Yes, clearly you are. Here ... eat
this and then I'll see if Priscus is still vain enough to carry a
mirror.'

The broth was as good as it smelled. Valerius had forgotten what
it was to eat in the company of men he could trust with his life. He
was bruised and sore and battle-weary and still he relaxed as he
had not done for years. A brittleness fell from him that he had not
known he carried. The sensation was not unlike the first wave of
peace he used to find in the wine. The pity of it had always been
that it never lasted.

Longinus returned, holding a small circle of bronze.

Valerius paused with a spoon full of broth midway to his mouth.
'I take it that's Priscus' mirror. Apart from admiring the bruises,
why would I need it?'

'Because I think you haven't used one recently. Come nearer the
fire and see if you recognize what you see.'

Valerius had seen himself first as a child when the trader Arosted
had brought a silver mirror for his mother. That had been
fashioned for use as a gateway for the dreaming, as most mirrors
were, but three-year-old Ban had stolen a look and had been
pleased with what he saw; he was a lot like his mother. He thought
his eyes looked the same and his hair was as black, which was
good, and the shape of his face was hers far more than his sister's
had ever been.

For months afterwards, he had felt closer to his mother because
of it although the mirror had been hidden amongst her secret
things and he had not seen himself again until he was a slave in
Gaul in a villa owned by a man notorious for his vanity whose
residence was famed for the quantity and quality of its mirrors,
none of which had been gateways to any dreaming.

Valerius had grown older by then, more than the sum of his
years. Without choosing to look, he had seen himself too often. He
had been leaner and the sharp angles of his cheeks had been made
sharper by the dark thumbprints of exhaustion and despair
beneath his eyes, but there had been an innocence, of sorts, as if he
still believed that the gods and fate would be kind to him.

The Emperor Claudius had not favoured mirrors, nor had any of
the governors, legates or tribunes under whom Valerius had served.
Valerius had been in a tavern in Gaul when he had next seen himself
and only by the sharp angles of his face and the blue-black of
his hair had he recognized the man who stared at him from the
smearings of poorly polished metal. He had lost all innocence by
then.

He had lost it still, clearly. Priscus' mirror was no worse than the
one in the tavern and if the surface was far from perfect, at least it
was not spotted with fly stains. Valerius' eyes were harder than he
remembered them; he no longer expected the gods to make life
perfect. Beyond that, the mess of purpling bruises and welts on his
face made it impossible to see anything of relevance.

Once more, the only way he recognized the man who stared at
him in the fire-licked bronze was by the colour of his hair, which
was as blue-black and straight as it had been in his childhood. He
had always thought it his mother's gift, until Luain mac Calma had
laid claim to be his father.

On reflection, Valerius realized that he looked a great deal like
Luain mac Calma, which, if nothing else, explained a number of
incidents in his past. He handed the mirror back to Longinus.

'Your point?' he asked.

'That we who share this fire know you because we spent ten
years watching the hurt in your eyes, waiting for your patience to
crack; a man remembers the things he's most afraid of. Only those
of us who lived half our lives under the lash of your tongue would
have the least idea that the prisoner brought in this morning is the
man who was recalled to Rome by Claudius in the month before
he was assassinated.

'Even if they guessed that much, there can't be more than three
men in the province who knew you were named traitor by Nero
and none of those is in the west. Your name will be in records
somewhere, but our new governor, may the gods spit on his soul,
is not a man to spend time or money searching through five-year
old papers for the half-ghosts of his predecessor's pasts.'
'Four,' said Valerius. 'It was four years ago.'

Longinus kicked a log into the fire, raising a shower of sparks.
The movement carried all the tension he kept from his voice. 'Did
you listen to anything I just said?'

'Yes. You were afraid of me. I thought you, of all men, knew me
better.'

'Gods, man, you ordered me flogged once. Have you forgotten?'

'Did I?' Valerius had not thought he had lost so much to the
wine. A memory returned, unsought, and others after. He found
the fire required all his attention. Because it was easier than
remembering, he said, 'I'm sure you deserved it.'

Valerius heard a breath sucked in tightly and waited for the
explosion of its release. It never came. After a while, when nothing
had happened, he looked up. The man who had shared his life, his
bed and parts of his soul for nearly half a decade sat opposite with
frustration and a desperate, sharp-edged irony painted in
equal shades on his face. 'I don't think I did,' Longinus said
eventually.

'Do you want to tell me what happened?'

'No. It's too long ago and if you truly don't remember, we should
leave it that way. Now, all I want is for you to find your way to a
boat that will carry you to Hibernia where you will be safe so that
I can go back to the fortress and continue to take my place in the
governor's planning meetings and strategy meetings and quartermasters'
meetings and armourers' meetings and all the other
godforsaken meetings that are supposedly required to organize to
the last iron boot stud and catapult bolt the new governor's
invasion of Mona and the destruction of every dreamer left on the
island. The governor will not be going back to Camulodunum for
winter. Which other governor in your experience has spurned the
hot baths and marble floors of the colony for a winter in a
legionary fortress? He will attack as soon as the reserves arrive
from the Rhine, and when he does, he won't stop until Mona is
his.'

Longinus held Valerius' gaze through every word of the most
blatant act of treason either of them had ever encountered - and
never countenanced.

At the end, shamed in ways he could not name by the amber
eyes, and the care and the flickering firelight within them, Valerius
dropped his gaze to his hands. Words rolled over him, cold and
unforgiving as a winter sea. The governor will not be going back
to Camulodunum for winter. He will attack . . . and when he does,
he won't stop until Mona is his. The destruction of every dreamer
left on the island.

He closed his eyes. Within, the crowded god-space in his heart
became a still, reflective sea, across which a hundred small boats
sailed to freedom. Nemain held him, and Mithras stood at his
shoulder, and both gave certainty to the vision, and the need for
Luain mac Calma to hear of it.

Longinus was not a god, and had never sought to undermine
Rome's advance. Dry-mouthed, Valerius asked, 'Why are you
telling me this?'

The Thracian's smile was unreadable. His stag-red hair shone as
copper in the firelight. 'Because I know you better than you think.
Because you're the most stubborn, obstinate, mulish man in
existence. Because I absolutely don't want to wade out of the sea
on the headlands of Mona on the first day of next spring and find
that I am fighting against you, and just at this moment I am very
afraid that's exactly what's going to happen.'

'I couldn't kill you, Longinus. I'm not your decurion any
longer.'

'No, you fool, I know that. My decurion would not have let himself
be taken by four pasty-faced children late out of swaddling.
You're a mess and I hope you are happy with it.'

'Then why . . .'

'Because I don't want to have to kill a man I still love. Now will
you shut up and finish eating and we can think how best to get you
and your half-hound to the coast in a way that will leave us all
living?'


XXIV.

THE AIR SMELLED OF WHITE LIME AND BEAR GREASE AND CUT PINE and fear. It was heavy with smoke and sweat and an aching
desperation.

Cunomar mac Caradoc, son of the Boudica, first of the Eceni
ever to give himself to the she-bear, stood in the doorway of the
great-house he had built on the site of the spring and autumn horse
fairs and defended it against attack.

Fifty-three times, a youth of the Eceni came at him. Fifty-three
times, he raised the blade his mother had made for him and, in
direct contravention of the laws of Rome, engaged in battle with
the express intent of bringing a youth through the threshold to
adulthood.

They did not fight to the death, but to first blood, which was his
so that the youths who came at him wielding sword-blades passed
on as warriors, with their first battle cut on shoulders or chest.
Four who dropped their guard early, the sooner to have it over, he
struck on the upper arm with the flat of his blade and sent back out
into the night. They came back later - much later - having passed
again the earlier barriers held by Breaca and Ardacos.

If we had five hundred like you . . . even fifty . . . Breaca had said
it in spring, wishing aloud on the bodies of the slain Coritani slave
sellers, and then had spent the summer making the smaller wish
real.

They were not like him, these desperate, terrified, hopeful
children with their hair woven tight into warrior's braids and bear
grease and the white lime bear-paint swirling across their beautiful,
unmarked bodies; they had not spent nine days alone in a midwinter
cave with a sleeping she-bear learning the texture of their
own silence as Cunomar had done, nor hunted, with only a knife,
a bear known to kill men for sport, nor lived under the searing
knives of the elders for three days afterwards, learning how unending,
unendurable pain might open their souls.

More importantly, they had not spent nine months in solitary
tuition, taught by the dozen finest minds of the Caledonii; such a
luxury was not theirs to have in the lands of the Eceni, but they had
spent two months of days building a great-house after the manner
of their ancestors and of nights learning the ways of spear and
blade as their parents had done and they themselves had never been
allowed to do. In that was the beginning of their warrior's path.

A dark-haired girl came at him, her braid working loose and her
lime paint smeared by sweat and exertion. Her eyes were white
rimmed and her nostrils flaring. She had a bruise on her right arm,
up high, near the shoulder. If he tried, Cunomar could remember
putting it there some time, long ago, at the beginning of the night.

If he thought about that, she would strike past his guard and cut
him, which must not happen. He shifted his grip on his blade and
raised it to block her strike and then cut past and blocked again
and cut and moved into the rhythm of strikes he had taught her,
waiting for the stillness to settle on her mind so that she might find
the speed and surety to break out of the rhythm and put in a real
attack.

The girl cut at his leg, and then the other, and then, as he raised
his blade to match hers, she reversed her grip and used the hilt to
strike his forearm. Pain made him grunt and he saw satisfaction
and laughter flicker across her face but he had already moved to
one side and used his elbow to shove her guard down and struck
sideways, flicking his wrist so that the tip of his blade cut across
her chest, high up, near the collarbone, in a long, slicing wound.
She gasped aloud and stepped back and he saw on her face the
same mix of pain and exultation he had seen on half a dozen of
the others. These few were exceptional; the rest had shown pain
and shock and a quieter satisfaction. If there were ever to be an
elite within his honour guard, this girl and the handful like her
would be it.

Unagh. Her name was Unagh, from the northern Wash, which
had once been Efnfs' home. Cunomar remembered it even as he
lowered his blade and smeared the sweat from his palms and
stepped aside saying, 'Warrior of the Eceni, you may pass.'

He thought she was the last, but was not certain. Tired, he
leaned on the doorpost to the great-house, feeling newly planed
wood smooth on his shoulder. Once, the building of such a place
would have been planned ten years in advance, with the oaks that
would make it marked and trained straight and the willow staves
to bind the walls grown in place so that their roots would hold
them secure and the reeds and straw for the thatch collected and
dried in the height of summer.

Cunomar and his followers had made do with oak scavenged
from the deeper forest and willow that must take root of its own
accord later and more straw than reed for the thatch and most of
that damp. It had survived the autumn gales and he wanted to
believe it would survive the snows of winter, but was not certain.

There was snow in the air now; with the warriors gone he could
smell it. He stretched an arm beyond the overhang of thatch at the
doorway and felt the first feather touch of wetness, gone to nothing in a heartbeat on the heat of his hand.

Firelight from within caught the flash of a blade ahead of him.
Straightening, he raised his own blade to guard. From the night
Breaca said, amused, 'If we are to fight, it should be in front of the
elders. They would not want to miss that; the bear against
the Boudica, they would talk of it for years, especially if one of
was hurt,' and then, coming close enough for him to see her, 'Did
they all pass?'

'All.'

'Good. Then we can set them the spear-trial and hope they don't
let the presence of their elders confuse them. You lead. This is your
night. Ours comes after.'
The spear-trial of those who would join Cunomar's honour
guard was held after the manner of the ancestors: indoors, sending
the spears over thirty paces at targets of straw lit only by
torchlight. The elders were drawn from their steadings and those
nearby. Over a hundred had come; more than had gathered in the
forest's heart two years before to determine the Boudica's future
amongst the Eceni.

These were not youths who had grown under the yoke of Rome,
but adults who had survived invasion and occupation and revolt
and the savage reprisals that had followed it. These were the
men and women who valued life above honour, or who felt that, in
living, they served their people better. These were not ones who
had stood and fought the legions, or spat on the auxiliary, or
openly continued to act as dreamers for their communities in the
face of Rome's ban.

Very few of them had been trained on Mona; they did not live in
the dreaming as Airmid did, or know the winter tales and their
hidden meanings as Dubornos had been taught. Even so, they had
found the courage to travel at the end of the year, when the trackways
were hock deep in slick mud and Roman patrols still scoured
them, and they remembered the spear-trials of old, and could bear
witness to them, as was needful.

The young warriors threw in groups of four or five, lining themselves
along the mark, readying themselves as if they had trained
for life, and not simply two months of evenings in the forest. Their
blades caught the reddening light of the fire pits, making suns in
the gloom. The song of the spears filled the great-house and
became less, as each one sought to join with the soul of the warrior
who held it.

'Just still the voice of your mind,' Breaca had said, long ago, and
Eneit, who had understood the full measure of that, had said,
'Just?' and had done it even while he laughed at the impossibility.

The newly made warriors were not Eneit, but they gave all their
hearts to try. Cunomar stood to one side, waiting to give the order
to throw as his mother had done in the forest lifetimes ago, when,
for him, the song of the spears had been impossible to hear.

Each time, with each new group, he felt the tension and nerves
and growing calm as they strove to listen only to the voice of the
spear, not the voice of their own fear and doubt. Each time, when
he thought time had stretched too far and it was not possible to
find the stillness, it crept on him and he said, 'Throw!' quietly and
they did and their spears hit the targets as he had known they
Would do, except for four who would be allowed to try again in
spring; they had not risked so much to fail this close to the end.

At the end, forty-nine warriors of the Eceni stood before
Cunomar, in the presence of their elders, and swore oaths on their
spears as had their ancestors, their lives for his, each life for the
other, in the sight and care of the gods, for all time.

'Your son has come into his own. Responsibility has settled what
the bear-dreamers began.'

'It would seem so. Through winter we will know for certain.'
Breaca leaned on the oak post to one side of the threshold where
the firelight caught her least. For now, it mattered that Cunomar
hold the attention of the new warriors and their elders and that his
mother keep to the shadows.

Ardacos crouched on the floor at her side, mending the binding
on his spear. Their voices were lost in the rising murmur from the
ranks of elders who lined the fire pits to the north side of the space.
In the other half, the last of the newly made warriors rose to her feet and, defying the solemnity of her peers, raised her spear high
above her head and spun it, whooping an old Eceni war cry. After
a moment's shocked silence, those around her did the same. The
roof thatch resounded to the high pitch of battle.

Ardacos turned to Breaca. 'She's like Braint. She fights like a
wildcat. If she lives past her first battle, she will be good.'

'We have to bring them to battle for that to happen and we can't
do that yet.' Breaca pushed herself away from the doorpost. All
attention was on the howling youths and Cunomar, who, soberly,
had stepped forward to calm them. In the time it took for silence
to fall, Breaca walked round the side of the elders and reached her
place at the far wall, opposite the door. There, a bundle of folded
horse hides made a bench. A bronze shield hung on the wall
behind, with the serpent-spear bold on its surface so that when she
stood, the two heads of the spear seemed to emerge from her heart,
if she sat, it crowned her.

She stood. Ardacos had followed her and now laid some wood
in the nearest fire pit. Flames caught and grew and were caught in
turn by the bronze of the shield and sent outwards by the curve of
the metal so that, slowly, it became a second fire, and the iron
of her drawn sword in the middle a star.

The attention of the elders came to her, drawn by the blaze of
light and metal, by the white lime paint on her face and arms, by
the warrior's braid, worn openly for the first time in the east,
with the silver feather, black-quilled, for the uncounted numbers
she had slain in battle.

Presently, when the sea of turned heads had become, instead, a
sea of faces, of eyes reflecting the fire, Breaca nic Graine, first born
of the royal line, said, 'Welcome, elders of the Eceni. Against
Rome's edict, you have come here. There is not one of you who has
not risked life to be present. Knowing that risk, you have borne
witness to the first spear-trials to be held on Eceni land for seventeen
years. Seventeen. Those who have today become warriors
were not born when Rome's legions slaughtered their fathers and
grandmothers, their aunts and cousins. If we allow another twenty
years to pass, the children of these new-made warriors will grow in
a land where the spear-trials are at best a memory, at worst,
forgotten.'

They were hers, every part of their attention. She let them dwell
on that, and signalled Cunomar. Smoothly, the product of much
rehearsal, he led the forty-nine youths of his honour guard to make
a curving line behind her.

She sat down, so that the bronze shield spilled red fire onto her
hair, and flushed the skins of the nearest warriors. 'Tonight, an
honour guard is born, of those whom you sent to us in the summer.
They are not many, but given ten times as many we might bring the
legions back to an eastern war . . .'

A dozen elders winced at the word. Those who had not sent
youths, but might have done, sat stone-faced and dared her to
continue.

'. . . but that war cannot begin without the express consent of
the elder council. It has always been so and if we are to fight to
preserve our heritage, we will not ignore the old ways. The time is
not yet. Too many cleave to 'Tagos, who is held to rule us under
Rome. The balance is fine. While he lives, we cannot openly raise
warriors against Roman edict, and so--'

'Will you kill him?'

The question came from one of the strongest dissenters: a square
jawed man with greying hair who had shaken his head and
murmured to his neighbour from the first moment the Boudica spoke
of war. He was of Unagh's steading, the wild-cat girl with Braint's
heart. She stood near Cunomar, a picture of mortified youth.

Breaca allowed time to consider the question. 'If he were dead,
would you vote for war?' she asked.

'Not if you had killed him.'

'Which is one of the lesser reasons why I will not. Greater is that
I have never and will never kill a man or woman of the Eceni
simply because their beliefs do not match mine. 'Tagos believes the
people are best served by their closeness to Rome. I believe that
under the yoke of the legions, the Eceni will cease to exist. In this
we are different, but the Ninth legion has its fortress a day's ride
to the north and the Twentieth still has three thousand men at
Camulodunum, and we cannot presume to defeat these two. I
know this; I do not intend to bring our people to the brink of ruin.
But it may be the gods will grant a time to act and we should
prepare for that, or for ever regret its passing.'

The fire-shield weighed nothing; it had been made to honour the
gods and the elders, not for battle. Breaca lifted it from the peg on
the wall and hooked the strap over her shoulder, settling it in battle
position. The flames at her feet were lower than they had been; the
ashes glowed red on the shining metal. She tilted the shield so that
light flowed down and she was in shadow, her voice flooding from
darkness, with Mona's power behind.

'You have each risked your life to come here. The spear-trials are
done and you are free to leave. But I invite you first to stay and to
talk for as long as it takes, as we did in the elder councils of the
days before Rome, to determine the case for war. If your decision
is that we should fight, it will still not be easy, but we can begin,
then, to determine how it may be done.'

'And if we decide against? Will you return to Mona as was asked
of you by some of us two years ago?' Unagh's elder asked it, his
face too masked to read.

'No. I am Eceni and my children with me. We will stay and
we will act as the elder council requires of us. My son's honour
guard will disband and the warriors will be offered the opportunity
to follow their souls to the lands of the Caledonii or to return with
you to their steadings.'

'Is that the view of you all?'

The Boudica stood again at the head of the council, with Ardacos '
and Cunomar beside her and the bronze shield at her back.

Her eyes were full of smoke and the grit of no-sleep. She ached
to sit down, to lie down, to sleep and not to have to talk ever again
of Rome and all it might bring, or the Eceni and what they might
grow to be in a land free of occupation. Over the span of a day and
a half, the gathered elders had talked and argued and talked
and eaten and talked and slept and woken and gone outside to use
the middens in twos and threes and talked and come back in again
and talked further.

Others had found places for themselves among the fire pits and
rolled in their cloaks and snored lightly for a time before their
dreams and the talk around roused them once more. Cunomar and
his newly made warriors had slept at the side through the first
night, waking at dawn to bring wood for the fire pits, and to cook.
Ardacos had left early and gone out into the forest to prepare for
the last part of the new warriors' rites, which would come later.

Only the Boudica could not be seen to sleep, but rode like a skiff
on the tide swell of their words and kept them ever moving
forward.

Snow was falling outside when she took her place again at the
shield and looked out over the weary, hoarse assembly of her
people.

'Is that the view of you all?' she asked a second time. 'If there is
one against, let that one speak now. We must have everyone, or we
have no-one.'

At her side, Cunomar held his breath. Further along, she saw
Unagh tense and then relax as the grey-haired elder from her
steading shook his head. Around, others sat quietly. All dissent had
been talked out of being, or was hidden, to raise its head another
day.

Breaca let herself smile, careful not to break the mask of unsleep.
'It is agreed, then, that you will spend the winter finding
those men and women within your steadings and around who may
have the heart for battle, and may answer a call without betraying
us before we start. This is only the first step. While 'Tagos lives and
stands against us, we cannot bring the warriors together. This is
clear and I swear now before you all that his death will never be
my doing. Even so, if we can begin to find those who have the will
to fight, and to arm them, and to train them, when the gods send
that the time is right, we can act. My thanks to you all.'

She stepped away from the shield and the council was over with
no more ceremony, so that the elders began to rise and stretch and
seek the door and find a way to fresh air and snow and to plan
their journeys home.

The great-house had cleared by early afternoon, so that only the
new warriors of Cunomar's honour guard were left. For a while,
they had been rowdy with relief, taking their leave of the parting
elders, but, as these thinned and were gone, the youths had become quiet again, awaiting their final test. If they wished to be reckoned amongst the warriors of the she-bear, not simply as Cunomar's
honour guard, then they must follow Ardacos in a bear dance and
for that even Breaca could not be present. Already the skull drums
rattled inside the great-house. It was not a rhythm to hear long and
stay sane.

Her horse was nearby, brought from the paddocks by Unagh,
who had seen the need. Breaca struggled to fit the great bronze
shield across her back and considered the effort of mounting and
riding to 'Tagos' steading. Graine was there, and Airmid, and all
comfort. If she rode sensibly, she should be there a little before
nightfall; sooner if she rode stupidly fast, later if she slept and let
the mare pick her own way through the dusk.

'Thank you. I'm glad that I--' She turned, looking down,
towards the trackway. 'That's Dubornos . . .'

She knew the horse; it was lame on the left fore, but not badly so, and Dubornos cared for it and would not set it aside. The
sound of it ridden hard up the trackway was unmistakable, even
with snow underfoot.

Ardacos came to her side, and then Cunomar abandoned his
playing of the skull drums and joined her, so that they were all
three together as Dubornos dragged his horse to a halt and did not
dismount, but turned it, saying, 'The Latin slavers are at the
steading. 'Tagos has offered them guest rights, and wine. They have
already spoken twice to Graine. Airmid has her now, keeping her
safe, but if they ask for her, 'Tagos may not stop them.'

Breaca stared at him, not hearing. 'To buy? That can't be. Even
'Tagos wouldn't--'

'Not to buy, not yet, but perhaps to make an offer, and they wil
know what they come for if they return in the spring.'

Breaca was already mounted. Sleep, so recently her only
thought, was forgotten. Cunomar said, 'Wait. My horse isn't far.
I'll come.'

Breaca's horse was already moving. 'No. Your warriors need
you. This is the price of leadership, and in any case, this is not the
time to let Rome know what we have. If we need you, I will send
Dubornos back again.'

With that, she followed Dubornos, riding as she had never
ridden before.


XXV.

THE SLAVER WHO BORE THE BADGE OF THE LEAPING SALMON HAD never seen a warrior of the Eceni, dressed for battle, with her
hair braided at the side and a shield as wide as his arm across
her back and a spear in her hand, riding a horse black with sweat
and herself no cleaner.

He did his best; smiling a little stiffly and trying to hide his left
hand that made the sign against evil even as his right hand reached
to draw the legionary short sword from his belt. The ex-legionaries
who formed his bodyguard had less need to feign the courtesies of
guests; they drew their swords openly. One of those behind who
watched the wagons leaned in to take the reins of the dray
horses.

Breaca walked forward, catching her breath. It was a little before
nightfall, with the light less than perfect, but still, she knew how
she looked and she was not what a slaver valued in his wares. Led
by Dubornos, she had taken a shorter, uncleared path in the closing
parts of the ride; thorns had dragged at her, lacerating her arms.
Blood had mixed with the white lime paint so that she was marbled
in the colours of the gods. Her hair stood up stiffly in white spikes
at the front where she had swept it out of her eyes as she rode. She
stank of bear grease and sweat and raw blood and the slavers'
horses were terrified of her.

The conventions of Rome demanded other things from the wife
of a king. In a havoc of shattered propriety, 'Tagos stepped forward
from the gates and took her arm, turning her at his side.

'Philus of Rome, allow me to present my wife, Breaca, mother to
Graine, who will one day lead the Eceni.'

'Tagos was more of a diplomat than she had imagined. He spoke
with aplomb in circumstances that begged for panic or ridicule and
Philus could not but follow the lead he was given.

Sheathing his sword, the slaver bowed his head. 'My lady, you
... I... that is, you . . .'

Breaca moved closer and words abandoned him, lost in a welter
of sweat and the stinking remnants of bear grease.

With evident effort, he gathered himself, striving for courtesy.
'My lady, you find me at a loss. I had heard word of your skill
as a smith and I have seen the exquisite beauty of your daughter,
which was described by our late governor, may the gods rest his
soul, but I had not expected her mother to be so ... to have such
. . . but I have no gifts left that would match you. I have given them
all to the king, your husband.' His gaze shifted right and left, to his
closest companions, who stared fixedly ahead and would not put
up their weapons.

Breaca grinned artlessly. 'Your brooch is beautiful,' she said. 'I
had imagined it Belgic when I first saw it, but now I see it closer, it
is clearly not so. The Caledonii make the leaping salmon in such a
fashion, with the small pieces of jet and the silver scales so perfectly
set. Am I right? Is it one of theirs?'
She was within reach of the slaver's horse. It fought to step
back so that Philus could barely hold it one-handed. He
grimaced, sweating, caught between the opposing absolutes
of diplomacy and his own clear need to keep the badge that was
his symbol.

Breaca took the last step to his saddle horn and would have
reached up, but that Graine ran forward from the gates and caught
her hand. At eight years old, Breaca's daughter was no longer quite
a child, but not yet nearly a woman. As either of these, she would
have been beautiful. Hovering in the no-time between them, she
captured and held the attention of the mercenaries as her mother
had not done. She wrinkled her nose, theatrically.

'You smell of bear,' she said, 'Ardacos promised you wouldn't.'
And then, with the wide-eyed innocence of the young, 'Philus says
that I will be the talk of all Rome, that the emperor would wish me
at his bedside.'

Graine had been trained in her dreaming by Airmid; she could
put any meaning she chose into her words. With her voice, she conveyed
the sense that she had been paid the greatest compliment of
any child in the empire, while every adult present built an inner
picture of the Emperor Nero's bedside and how a child might be
treated there. The air closed tightly cold.

'Did he? Our guest thinks ahead of himself, it seems.' Breaca was
not a dreamer, but she knew how to call death to walk in her
shadow and to let the promise of it loose with her voice.

The slaver flushed scarlet and paled to an ugly, liverish yellow.
His fingers fumbled at the clasp of his brooch.

'My lady, I spoke only to honour your daughter. I apologize for
any misunderstanding. Perhaps you will do me the honour of
accepting a gift in earnest of my good intentions towards you and
your family?'

He was not a man used to pleading, the rustiness of his language
said so, adding to the evident pain of losing his brooch as Breaca
reached to take the salmon from his unwilling fingers.

'Thank you.' It was Caledonian, well fashioned and with a
power of its own. She tossed it high, leaping silver in the watery light,
and caught it one-handed. The flicker and flash and the suddenness
of her reach upset the remaining horses. She saluted the slaver, using
the Roman form, loading it with irony. 'I am overwhelmed. Anything
held in such deep affection speaks greatly of the bearer. Come midwinter,
the gods will take kindly to such a gift.'
The slaver knew enough of Eceni rites to see where she led; in his
mind, he saw her cast his jewelled fish into the waters of the gods'
pool, where no mortal man might find it again. Of all possibilities,
that one had not occurred to him. She watched the pits of his eyes
grow large and small again. If they had been in battle, he would
have struck for her then, aiming to kill.

They were not in battle and Philus, former fish-bearer, had
his eye set on the greater game. He forced a smile and put his
closed fist over his heart, where the brooch had been. 'I am
honoured, as will be those who made the fish when I tell them of
your gift.'

He let his horse move at last, so that it spun on its hocks and
kicked away from her. His parting words were shouted over his
shoulder, muffled by the thunder of his retinue, 'My lady, I await
the day of our next meeting. May it be soon.'

Breaca was laughing, weakly, for relief and the look on Philus' face
when she took the fish badge, and the sudden release of terror. The
world was lighter than it had been, with flashes of bright white at
the margins of her vision and a reddening tunnel lined with night
in the centre. She felt a small, cool hand press into her own and a
thumb grind on her knuckle. Graine hissed at her, in the voice of
the elder grandmother. 'They're watching. Stay awake. You can't
fall now.'

'I wasn't going to fall.'

'I think you were. Your daughter is wiser than you know.' 'Tagos
came to stand on her other side, completing the family. Between
them, he and Graine held Breaca upright, while appearing to lean
on her for support.

They stood like that, bonded in their need, until the last of the
slavers' horses was too small to be seen. Graine stepped away first.

'The elder grandmother wishes you well,' she said.

Breaca pressed her palms to her eyes. The grit of the lime paint
ground into her skin and did nothing to help her wake up. Slurring
for lack of sleep, she said, 'Thank her for me. I'll do it myself later.
For now, I need to wash and then to sleep.'

'Tagos caught at her arm. With an oddly brittle formality,
he said, 'My bed is ready. I would be honoured if you would
use it.'

She was sleeping already, clearly, and falling into disordered
dreams. 'Tagos had not shared her bed since the end of
Breaca's first winter in his steading. She slept in her own bed,
in Airmid's hut on the western side of the compound. The prospect
of falling into that bed, in that room, in that company, had
sustained her through the last half-day of the elder council's
deliberating.

She stared now at 'Tagos. He seemed sober, which surprised her.
His eyes were open and dark and met hers without flinching. It
occurred to her she might still be awake, and that the world, therefore,
was not as she had left it. She said, 'I don't think I heard you
correctly.'

'I think you did. I am inviting you to sleep in my room, which
was once also yours. Only to sleep. Please. This time it matters.'

Graine said, 'Airmid is with a woman of the Trinovantes who
gave birth three days ago and has milk fever. She will not return
before tonight. Her fire is banked low and the hut's cold.'

'Is it?' Dawn had broken but the rising sun had not yet
penetrated the cloud. If anything, the morning was colder than the
night had been. Breaca was shivering and had not noticed. Frost bit
at her feet. The air smelled of snow and storms.

'Tagos waited. He, too, needed to be moving. The tips of his ears
were blue with cold and distress. For no better reason than that,
Breaca made her decision. 'Is your fire lit?' she asked.

'Of course. Built high and hot.'

'Then I accept your offer. Thank you.'

'Tagos' room had changed since she was in it last. The coin chests
were gone, all bar one, and the ornaments that had lain on them.
A sword hung above the bed; not one of hers, but well made. The
iron lay pale against the smoked wood of the wall and a vixen's
mask had been worked in bronze on the pommel. She had not
known 'Tagos still owned any blade, nor that he would dare to
display it. The Roman ban on weapons was absolute and the
penalty the same for a king as it had been for Eneit, a thirteen-year
old boy caught at a grave mound with a sword he did not know
how to use.

She ran a finger across the edge to test the honing and found it
battle-sharp. 'Did the governor give you dispensation to own this?'

'No. The governor is locked in the west planning his attack
on Mona for the spring. Three cohorts of legionaries from
the Rhine will overwinter at Camulodunum and when they
march to join him, the attack will begin. I don't think whoever
he has left in charge will venture north to see us, but if anyone
comes, we will hear of it and I will take it down as I did when
Philus was in here.'

'And put it back up again straight after. I see.'

Breaca sat heavily on the bed. She needed to sleep and she
needed to think clearly and she could not do both at once. A
window faced her, imperfectly covered. Daylight leaked through
the thinning deer hide and splashed on the single wooden chest
pushed against the wall. For no better reason than it was there, she
kicked it. Emptiness rang through the room. 'Tagos flinched. With
the fire hurling heat all around, his face was pinched and white.

He said, 'That's the first reason why I needed you here. I am no
longer a rich man. We have to talk.'

Sleep mattered less than it had done. Breaca stood up and leaned
against the wall beneath the sword. 'Tell me.'

'Tagos had the thoughts prepared, but not the words. His
tongue was knotted and his throat too tight. He said, 'Philus takes
his orders from Decianus Catus, the procurator of taxes who
unveiled the old governor's memorial in the spring. Catus has
a reputation for being harder and more brutal than any of his
predecessors. And he has a wider remit: in addition to tax collection,
this procurator has been ordered to recall the loans given
by Claudius and Seneca to the eastern tribes at the time of the
invasion.'

'What, all of them? The full amount? I thought it was to be
repaid over decades.'

'So did I. So, I think, did Claudius when he lent it, but Nero is
different. His exact orders to the procurator were to "drain the
lifeblood from Britannia". They will take our gold, our corn, our
cattle, our horses, our hounds. When we have nothing more to
give, they will take us: the Eceni, the Trinovantes, the Coritani, the
Catuvellauni - any man, woman or child who can walk and eat
and be broken into slavery will be sold at profit in the markets of
Rome. The rest they will kill.' The words came more smoothly
now, drawn by their own momentum. In case there were any
doubt, he lifted the lid of his single remaining coffer and kicked it
onto its side. It was entirely empty.

. . . drain the lifeblood . . . Breaca stared into the flames. A dead
standard-bearer saluted her from their depths. The ancestor
dreamer nodded and said nothing.

'Why has it come to this now?' Breaca asked.

'Philus has no idea. He doesn't care. His business is profit and
we have become a source of it. Airmid has met with the physician
from Athens, though, and he cares a great deal.'

'Theophilus? What did he say?'

'That Nero tires of the adventure that is Britannia. That the
cost is greater than the benefit. That, of Rome's eleven legions,
four are bogged down here and there is not one man amongst
them who does not wish himself elsewhere. They die in their
thousands in the wars in the west for no benefit and the
emperor's advisers believe they should return to Rome. The
governor was sent to subdue the west, or die in the attempt. Many
believe he will die and those who rushed to give loans after
the invasion expecting interest and profit are regretting their haste.'

The fire was too hot and the room lacked air. Breaca pressed her
shoulders into the wall, seeking support for more than her body
alone. From the measured mess of 'Tagos' words, one sentence
emerged.

. . . the emperor's advisers believe they should return to Rome.

'Nero is thinking of recalling the legions from Britannia? Are
you serious?'

'So Philus says, and he has no reason to lie. If the governor fails
to subdue the west, every legionary and auxiliary cavalryman will
have been recalled by next winter. But we may all be dead by then.
They say, "Dead men pay no taxes" - that's why we have lived so
far. When there are no more taxes to be collected, they have no
reason to leave us alive.'

'Did Philus say that, too?'

'No. That was Theophilus. He is one who will leave willingly,
and not because he fears us.'

'Theophilus wouldn't be here at all if he could leave with any honour.' Breaca ran a hand through her hair. Flakes of white lime paint made grit between her fingers. 'You said that was the first
reason you needed me here. What else is there?'

'Tagos moved closer to the fire. Red light coloured his skin
and hair equally. He was a man consumed as Breaca had never
seen him. He stared into the flames. Presently, without turning
back, he said, 'Philus sought my permission to trade in Eceni
territory. The asking was a fiction; he has the permission -- the orders - of the emperor to make as much profit as he can, he needs no word from me. As a test, he made me an offer. If I were to sell him Graine and Cygfa, he would write off our debt -
the entire taxes of the Eceni nation, plus the loans from Claudius.
Two children, even one a warrior, for more gold than either of
us has ever seen.'

She could have killed him then, quite easily. The oath so easily
sworn to the elders in the great-house taunted her. His death will
never be my doing. She had not thought to add, 'Unless he sells my
daughter into slavery, in which case his death will take the days of
her life and he will regret every one of them.'

Holding fast to her anger, she said, 'Did you tell him you would
die on the blades of your people did you even consider it?'

'No.' He turned and his smile was crooked, bouncing back on
itself. 'I told him I would die by my own hand before I ever
considered it. Do you really think I would have sold them? They
may not be of my blood, but I care for them as if they were, and
even if I hated the sight of them I am not so wedded to Rome that
I believe anyone, child or adult, can be bought for gold. I don't
dream as Airmid does, even as you do, but the gods speak to me in
their fashion and they would never speak again if I had allowed
that.'

'Except that Philus knows you can't stop him.'

'Exactly. He won't take Graine and Cygfa now, but he will in the
spring. Even now, he may decide to "collect merchandise" from
some of the smaller steadings as he returns to Camulodunum,
knowing we can't stop him.'

'Tagos' skin was the colour of iron, grey and polished with
sweat. Every part of him craved wine. Breaca watched him meet the
need and deny it. He pulled a dry log from the pile at the hearth
and sat on it, wrapping his one arm around his knees. Speaking to
the wall where his sword hung above her head, he said, 'I'm sorry.
We should have raised an army when you first came. We would
have died, but we would not have to watch as they bleed us dry.'

'Tagos stands against us. She had said that to the elders,
believing it.

Less certain now, she said, 'Cunomar and Ardacos are leading
forty-nine warriors of the Eceni in a bear dancing. By midnight, we
will have forty-nine new she-bears, the first of the Eceni, after
Cunomar, to be so. With them, we could take on Philus now and
kill him. Would you support that?'

He stared down at his one hand, crossed over his chest, holding
the stump of the other. 'You forget that Philus has protection of the
procurator. Rome knows he's here. If he fails to return, the legions
will fall on us as they did in Scapula's time.' He raised his head.
Horror and the memories of it showed on his face. 'You weren't
here then. You didn't see the slaughter of Roman reprisals; the men
and women hanged in rings around their steadings, with their
children dead at their feet, all for the loss of a single legionary, for
a stone thrown at an auxiliary. And Cygfa and Graine will be
enslaved. Philus knows we value them; he will see that we know it
as we die. If we fight, we will lose. Would you have me support
that?'

Breaca said, 'If they are coming anyway, then yes, I would. Better
to fight than to stand back and watch them bleed us white. And
there is a chance we may win. It's already snowing; the legions
won't leave their forts now. The gods have given us a winter to
prepare and we will use it. The elders have gone home to find
warriors with heart who may join us. If they find only ten each, we
will have a thousand. If each of that thousand has the courage of
Cunomar's new she-bears then, at the very least, we will give the
legions something by which to remember us.'

'Cunomar has grown to be worthy of his father, then?'

'It would seem so. Certainly he has . . . the makings of a good
leader.' She had been going to say that he had Caradoc's sway over
those who followed him, and an added fire, but compassion
stopped her.

'Tagos smiled, thinly. He looked as tired as she felt. 'You must be
proud of your son. He's a credit to his parents.'

The pain in his voice cut through the clutter of half-hopes.
Breaca wiped a hand across her eyes and looked at him properly
for the first time in her life. For the first time in both their lives,
'Tagos met her gaze equally; a man driven to the edge of his being.

That edge was where she lived and he had never been. They faced
each other across the room; the warrior and the never-warrior,
mother and never-father, beloved and lover, but never loved.

'Tagos picked at the edge of his sleeve. 'I don't hate Caradoc,'
he said presently. 'I never have done. I just wanted to be like him.
Or to be him. If the dreamers had a way to change one man into
the body of another, I would have traded places with Caradoc any
day of our lives. Even now, when he is crippled and exiled in Gaul,
I would do it, to have sired the children he has. His daughters shine
as the sun and the moon, a warrior and a dreamer to cheer the
singers for generations. It seems his son also is everything a man
could ask for.'

They were not so far apart. Breaca reached a hand for his one
arm and gripped it, briefly. 'Cunomar will be a credit to you, also.
If he leads the warriors in the battles against Rome, it will be as
your son that he is known to them.'

They were speaking with an honesty they had never found
before. 'Tagos rubbed his hand across his eyes and they were red,
not only from the smoke and the night with little sleep.

Breaca said, 'You do not have to live as if only a child could
be your life's memorial. You are young; the loss of an arm is not
the greatest loss. There is much you could do still and through
winter we could plan that. It is not certain that we will die in
spring. If the governor takes all the troops from Camulodunum,
the veterans will not hold it alone, and if we take the city the
Trinovantes will join us in rebellion. Mona's havoc could be our
gain.' She tried to smile and could not make her mouth move
properly. The ancestor-dreamer hovered close by, and the ghost
of a slain standard-bearer. Fighting to see past them, she said, 'Even
if we die in the first battle, death is not an ending. Ask the elder
grandmother.'

'If I knew how, I might do that, but-- Breaca!' He had hold of
her shoulder, which was surprising given how far away he had
been. 'Don't fall into the fire!' His face was very close indeed, and
concerned. 'How long is it since you slept?'

'Three days? Four, I think. There were rites before the warrior
trials that must be honoured.'

'And no food for them either. You, too, do not have to prove
yourself through the trials of your children.'

He sounded amused and worried together. Breaca tried to decide
if she was being patronized and could not. She felt him lay her
down on the bed and undress her and slide her under the sleeping
hides and did not flinch when he kissed her, chastely, on one cheek.

'Tagos had had the makings of a hero once. If Caradoc had not
come to them, he would have shone amongst the warriors of the
Eceni. The fire coloured him gold, meeting the daylight through
the half-hidden window.

He bowed, drawing away, speaking softly. His words came
thickly, through veils of sleep. 'If I knew how to speak to the dead,
I would ask of the ancestors much of the lands beyond life. I can't,
but am grateful that you can and that you bring back what you see.
Sleep well. There are battles to be fought that need you to lead
them. You have a winter to raise your war host. In the spring, you
can march to war.'

'If Philus has not taken our children into slavery and slain us as
we sleep.'
'He won't. I give you my word on it.'


XXVI.

'When did 'tagos leave?'

'Not long after the snow started. It was still light then.'

Breaca stood in swirling semi-dark. Flaring pine resin brands lit
the ragged end of a blizzard. The worst had passed over as she
slept, leaving snow to the height of her ankles; not too deep to ride
or run, but enough to hide the gaps and ruts in the tracks and to
make the going treacherous for fast horses.

Airmid, Cygfa and the singer Dubornos stood in an arc around her,
protection against the worst of the wind. Dark hair, corn gold and red
tangled in a line, made bright by the torchlight. They were tired, all
three of them, as if the time between 'Tagos' leaving and their waking
of the Boudica had been difficult and nothing had yet been resolved.

Breaca made herself step beyond their shelter. Cold, hard air
embraced her, so that she could lean back against it and not fall.
Her hair flew east, the way 'Tagos had gone.

'Is it certain that he followed Philus' slave band?' she asked.

Dubornos shrugged. 'No, but it's what he said he would do.'

Airmid said, 'He was a changed man after you spoke to him.
Then his two men, Gaius and Titus, came back - he had sent them
to follow the slavers. They brought bad news, or so it seemed.
Before they left, all three broke the copper armbands that the
governor gave them as guest-gifts.'

Cygfa smiled, sourly. 'I think our "king" wishes us to know that
he is no longer Rome's whore, although whether he has the
courage to inform the governor of this in the spring, of course, is
another question. If he's lucky, the snow will close the tracks before
any of his once-friends who still side with Rome can take horse and
ride west with the news.'

'He'll still die for treason if anyone in Camulodunum hears of it,
now or later.' Breaca turned side on to the wind. 'Airmid? Is there
anything we can do?'

The dreamer had not moved. Her body leaned into the wind, as
it did when she was least present. She shook her head. 'The gods
have sent the snow to hold us safe from the legions. It doesn't
matter to them if we don't find 'Tagos before he is slain by Philus.'

Breaca knelt and pressed her hands in the snow. Cold burned off
the last remnants of sleep. 'It might do if, instead, he is captured
alive and taken to Camulodunum for questioning - I told him
about the she-bear dancing and Cunomar's honour guard and I
would not like to depend on his ability to withstand the inquisitors.
I think we should ride out to look for him.'

Airmid stood at her left shoulder, solid and safe. The other two
were already armed. Blades of Breaca's making splintered the
snowlight, dancing.

Cygfa said, 'So do we. That's why we woke you.'

They were four, three warriors and a dreamer, riding slowly, without
light, through dense woodland with Cygfa as their scout. It was
not true that she could see in the dark, but close enough to make
no difference.

Snow drifted down through the trees, no longer driven by the
wind. It was too deep now for easy travel; if the gods required
them safe, they had achieved their aim. Their tracks closed over as
they rode so that their passing left no trace.

Breaca was not yet fully awake. Fragmented dreams of the
warrior-trials wove patterns across the unlit night, so that she saw
Cunomar, endlessly, and the half-dozen of his honour guard who
were exceptional. Skull drums tapped out their mind-eating
rhythms and each of the white-painted warriors came at her, grinning, with bear claws instead of blades and she must match them with only her blade. In the dreams, as in the night through
which she rode, she wished the sword in her hand were the one she
had fought with all her life, not the substitute made in secret for the
warrior-trials. With her father's blade, she could have set Cunomar
at her right hand and Cygfa in the shield-place at her left and all
Rome would not have--

A horse screamed in final agony and a man shouted and then he,
too, screamed; another man howled an order in Latin.

Cygfa said, 'That's Philus,' and Airmid, 'The dead man is Gaius.
'Tagos has only Titus left to defend him.'

'So they are two against Philus' two dozen. And we are four so
we--' Cygfa spun her horse on the snow. 'Gods ... is that
Cunomar?'

Breaca nodded. The havoc of the skull drums filled her mind,
making it impossible to speak. The blade in her hand sang for the
first time since its making. Neither of these could be heard by
the others, but the distant sound of warriors running through a forest,
and the high keening of the she-bears, was known to anyone
who had fought alongside Ardacos in the west.

Dubornos, calm mind in battle, tilted his head to one side. 'Your
son is close,' he said. 'If we wait, we will outnumber the slavers,
but I think if we ride hard we may reach the battleground while
they are still many to our few.'

They should have waited, all of them knew it, but a second horse
screamed and Breaca recognized 'Tagos' bay mare, her gift to him
in the summer, and, suddenly, for no clear reason, she knew that
she did not want him dead, and that, very badly, she wanted to
fight.

The scar on her palm seared as if newly cut; she had forgotten
the joy buried in the pain. For the first time in three years, she felt
the pull of true battle and it ran like fire in her veins. Her mare
became harder to hold and she did not want to.

She glanced at Airmid, who could have stopped them and did
not. Breaca said, 'We will be six against two dozen. If the gods
did not condone this, they would have sent more snow to stop us,
surely?'

'Surely.' The dreamer pointed up at the sky. 'The snow is on its
way. If you must have your battle, have it quickly, else you will be
fighting through white blindness.'

'Thank you. Keep yourself safe.'

Breaca let her mare have its head. Cygfa and Dubornos raced her
across the untrampled snow.

Their horses were war trained; they ran towards the havoc of
combat without urging. At a curve in the path, they came upon the
slavers' camp, in which Philus, untimely, had ordered torches lit
and the fire built up and the sudden rush of light showed trees and
a small stream and a panic of slavers pressing their backs against
the gully sides, facing a few who became less few and then,
horrifyingly, too many.

The snow began slowly, the battle fast and hard. Cygfa fought on
Breaca's left, in the shield-place of highest honour. Very soon - sooner
than any of them had expected - Cunomar emerged from
the trees to the right with the greater part of his honour guard
around him. The rest, led by Ardacos, came at the slavers from the
back, sweeping round in a bear's paw that crushed the enemy as a
hammer crushes hot metal on an anvil.

Over half of Philus' men were battle-trained mercenaries. They
had fought for the legions in Iberia, Mauretania and the Germanies
against warriors who sucked the marrow from the bones of their
still-living enemies. Instinct and long training served them well.
They made a wedge without being ordered and then, when
Ardacos' bear paw began to close, they made a square, turning
about and about so that every man faced outwards and their small,
round riding shields met at the edges with room to let their short
swords stab out between.

At the back of the square, the slaughter had already begun.
There, slavers who were not mercenaries and had no idea of how
to conduct themselves in battle had sought protection behind
wicker wattles left over from the high days of a herding summer.
So doing, they had blocked the only route of escape. Ardacos sent
six warriors against twelve men and could have sent half that
number. The victory howls of the six youths rang above all the
others sounds of carnage as each took life for the first time in the
name of the bear.

The mercenaries knew already that escape was impossible. They
could count and understood the odds and if they had not yet
encountered the she-bear, they had faced other warriors of other
nations who ran unclothed into battle with the veil of their gods
about them and their courage bright for all to see. Every man chose
one of those coming and spat on his blade, swearing to kill that one
before he died.

Breaca saw her man. His eyes burned her. His short sword sang
for her alone. Hers sang with a ferocity that matched the she-bear.
She raised it, letting it taste the killing air, and was the Boudica
again, and her world was perfect.

She urged her mare forward with her knees. She could not see
Philus, either in the square or in the slaughter pen behind it, but
there was no time to look properly; Cygfa had already pushed forward
at an angle and cut down on her right to break the arm of a
black-haired ex-legionary.

Blood sprayed from a split vessel and the man dropped to his
knees, staring at his own leaking life. Breaca's man cursed and
kicked the fallen body sideways, striving to close the gap in the
shield wall.

Breaca pushed her mare into the space and drove her blade
down, back-handed. She met iron, and twice again. Her opponent
was good; he fought on foot against a warrior on horseback and
gave no ground. Very quickly, he stopped trying to kill Breaca and
strove instead to cripple her horse. He might have succeeded but
that the mare had been trained by one who valued her mount's life
as her own and the beast knew how to keep itself safe while seeking
to give her rider a still point from which to strike. A strike from
her forefoot ripped the man's helmet from his head and the
Boudica's fourth cut, or her fifth, cracked through his skull to
wedge on his upper teeth. She dragged the sword free as he fell.

The passing of his ghost distracted Breaca, so that she missed the
moment when Cunomar, fighting for the first time in full battle,
took his man. His battle yell scattered the ghosts and Breaca turned
in time to see him stoop to plunge his hand in the blood of the
fallen foe and print a bloody palm on his upper arm. He raised his
head to cry again and his eyes met hers. His joy was Caradoc's, but
sharper. He grinned and raised his red-stained palm. 'For father,' he
yelled, 'and for Graine.'

Breaca made the salute of the warrior and saw his world, too,
made perfect.

The din of battle abated. The legionaries' square was broken
beyond redemption and the killing was faster now, as men saw
their deaths and embraced them. Dubornos was nearby.
Breaca caught at his arm, shouting, 'Where's 'Tagos? Where's
Philus?'

'There. Together. Fighting.' He pointed with one elbow, swinging
his horse round. 'Philus has the best of it.'

She was the Boudica; she had only to think and they followed
her. Even as she turned, Cygfa took her place to the left. Cunomar
was already running on her right. Dubornos grinned at the impatience
of youth and held his horse in, awaiting her word.

The whisper of the skull drums still rang in her head. Snow
melted on her naked arms. Breaca pointed her blade so that the
light of Philus' torches flared along the metal. 'Help him.'

They were too late. She knew that as the mare sprang across the
bloody slush. Philus heard them and chose not to turn. 'Tagos
heard Cunomar's bear howl and the sheer power of it stole his
attention.

He would have died, perhaps, in any case; he had never been a
warrior of any great skill, but it hurt to see him cut down as the
slavers had been, with a blow to the legs that he failed to block and
then one to the shoulder of his bad arm that he could never have
blocked, but that crushed his ribs and the lungs within them, and
then a final one to the head, which did not land, because Philus
should have looked, should have known that Dubornos, who was
'Tagos' cousin, was behind him and would never let the death of
his blood kin pass unavenged.

Breaca heard Cunomar shout his congratulations and saw that
he did not begrudge another man a kill that might have been his
own. Truly, the world had changed.

Philus died more swiftly than 'Tagos, who lay, whistling bubbles
of blood through a break in his nose. Breaca slid from her horse
and knelt at his side in the thickening snow. Her children made an
arc about her, with Dubornos, and Airmid, who had not fought but
kept the night free from unwanted ghosts.

'Tagos' one hand was chilled, his palm slickly wet. He opened
his mouth to speak and no sound came from his battered lungs. He
closed his eyes and Breaca watched his brow furrow. With his eyes
still shut, he said, 'Philus sent a messenger to Camulodunum . . .
Sorry. They will know about Graine. Gaius followed him and came
back. He should have--'

Breaca squeezed his hand. 'Gaius has crossed the river to Briga's
care. Whatever he should have done, he knows now better than we
do.'

'As I will. Soon.' A smile ghosted across his lips. 'The Eceni have
a new ruler, one with the will for war. You can raise your war host
when the snow clears and if the legions march west out of
Camulodunum the city will be ripe for the taking. Lead your
warriors well.'

'As long as I am able. 'Tagos, open your eyes.'

He did so, with effort. Breaca leaned over so that he could see
her without turning his head, or his eyes. Bending, she kissed him
on the mouth, dryly, tasting the blood on his breath.

Quietly, she said, 'Wait for me in the lands of the dead. Airmid
and Caradoc will both live beyond us. There will be time enough
then to find what we might have been.'

It was the greatest gift she could offer, freely given. He died with
joy in his eyes and his grip firm on her hand.



IV. WINTER AD 59 - EARLY SPRING AD 60.


XXVII.

ON THE MORNING AFTER 'TAGOS' DEATH, BREACA TOOK BACK the ancestor-torc of the Eceni, that had been her mother's
and her mother's mother's, back through the line for
uncounted generations.
Nothing had changed and everything. 'Tagos lay dead, and
Philus with him, and there was no going back. Breaca woke to the
understanding of that, and lay listening to the wind drive the snow
against the walls of Airmid's hut. She sent her mind forward to
spring and what might be done and could see no way to keep the
legions at bay while the war host was gathered that might defeat
them.

She felt a draught and heard voices and knew that she was not
fully awake. Fragments of dreams held her, of snow and torn flesh
and the fading light in 'Tagos' eyes as he died. Struggling to bring
herself into morning, she felt Airmid come close, and with her the
ancient dark dryness of the ancestor-dreamer.

Too fast, she sat up, and opened her eyes to a dazzle of firelight
on red Siluran gold. The torc of the ancestors took up all of her
vision, a gift and a curse and alive with others' dreaming.

'Breaca?' Airmid was there, with a hand on her shoulder. 'What
do you see?'

'That the ancestor-dreamer lives within the gold. I didn't know
before.'

Breaca ran a finger along the cold metal, feeling the solid curve,
shaped by centuries of wearing. Outwardly, it was the same as it
had always been, a miracle of woven wires, with loops at the end
pieces for the kill-feathers, after the manner of the ancestors.

She had worn it first as a child, when all that had mattered was
that she felt royal and could seem so to others. Years after, on the
battlefield of the Roman invasion, it had marked Macha's willing
death and the sacrifice made so that others might live. Breaca had
felt only grief and loneliness in taking it and later, passing it to
Silla, had done her best to shield her younger sister from both of
those. When 'Tagos had given the torc to Cygfa in the clearing, the
dignity that passed with it had been obvious, but nothing else.

Only now, because she had known the ancestor-dreamer, did
Breaca feel the rhythms of power woven into the gold. Stretching
down from the past, they touched equally the shining battle soul
within her and the darker core that had called once for vengeance
for Caradoc, and, failing to call cleanly, had brought home Valerius
instead.

The memory of that still haunted her nights. She said, 'Did my
mother see it like this?'

Airmid sat on the end of the bed and laid the torc between them.
'No. Your mother's power was not of the serpent-spear, nor did she
ever have need to call it. The ancestors come only to those who
need them, and can stand firm in their presence.' She looked up,
and was going to say something in jest and changed her mind and
said, seriously, 'You can do that. It takes a different courage from
battle, but you have it.'

'Maybe.' Memories of the ancestors' cave made cold the caverns
of her mind. Breaca rose and began to dress, leaving the torc on the
bed hides.

After a while, Airmid picked it up and laid it on the hearth stone
by the fire. She took a twist of unwoven wool and dried it of snow.
'You are the Boudica,' she said. 'Today, after 'Tagos' death, you
lead the Eceni in name as well as fact. It's not the torc that makes
you either of these. You don't have to take it if you don't want to.
We could lay it in the fire and melt it now and the spears would
still give you their oaths in spring, the war host would still gather
to the sign of the serpent-spear.'

'Which would be powerless.'

'Not entirely. You have your own power and it does not come
only from the ancestors.'

'But I am not fighting this war only for myself.' Breaca came to
sit on the opposite side of the fire. Flames spun in the draught and,
fleetingly, took on the shapes of the dead: of Macha, of Silla, of
'Tagos, smiling as he died. She looked deeper, to the embers, and
sought her own mother, who had worn the torc with dignity
and untainted honour. No-one came, only a scattered childhood
memory of the elder grandmother, whom she had loved, and the
old woman's voice, lost in the crackles of the fire. You won't lose
me, I promise you that.

She had not asked a clear question and it was not a clear answer
but, quietly, as if from some distance away, Airmid said, 'Not all of
the ancestors are dangerous. And the dark is unsafe only to the
extent that we fear it.'

'And fear is the only enemy. You sound like Luain mac Calma.'
Breaca reached for the torc and held it a moment near the flames.
She was fully awake now, and the prickling danger of the ancestor
was less than it had been, gone with the beads of snow-melt. The
torc lay across her palms, quiet in its majesty. She said, 'It would
be a pity to melt it. Graine should wear it one day, and her
daughters. I would not leave it to them tainted with my own fears.'
She looked up, and found she could smile, which was good. 'Do
you know the words of the binding-oath?'

Airmid shook her head. 'Not well enough to speak them aloud,
but I think they would be more for the witnesses than for you. The
torc extracts its own oaths; taking it, knowing what you do, is
enough.'

In the past, there would have been ceremony, and the full three
hundred spears of her honour guard to witness the moment when
Breaca, first born of the royal line, took back the torc of her
ancestors. Dreamers sent from Mona would have offered speeches
and told of their dreams. Her daughters would have pledged themselves
to follow her, honouring all that she honoured.

On the day after 'Tagos' death, it felt better done in private, with
Airmid alone to bear witness to the hesitation and the small act of
courage that pushed her over yet another threshold so that, with
her own hands, Breaca took the torc and fitted it to her neck. It lay
solidly alive against her skin, cool and dry and serpentine. The fit
was perfect, with the end pieces resting in the hollows below her
collarbones and the weight set to the back so that her shoulders
took the bulk of it. It had felt exactly the same when she was a
child, and far smaller.

As a smith, she could admire the skill that had made it. As
Breaca, as the Boudica, as first born of the royal line, come at last
to her heritage, she sought to meet and to match what it might
bring, and was surprised and a little disappointed to find no
challenge or threat, but only a slight lurch in her abdomen and a
sigh, as of a hound returning to the fireside.

Presently, when the ancestor did not come either to greet or to
harangue, Breaca rose from the fire and lifted back the door-flap.
Outside, the world was white; driven snow piled thigh high against
the walls of the hut and the cold bit sharply.

Another threshold had been crossed. Nothing had changed, and
everything. Airmid came to stand at her shoulder and it was good
to remember those things that would never change.

To Airmid, staring out at the snow, Breaca said, 'You were right,
the gods are with us. If Philus has been missed in Camulodunum,
those left in charge will never risk sending a patrol out now to
come and look for him. At the very least, we are safe until spring.
We can use the time to think of ways to keep the legions at bay for
longer.'

Snow fell for the remainder of the month, sealing the land in a blanket
of ice so that the legions stayed in their winter billets and the tribes in
their steadings and the land slept in a semblance of peace.

Three days before the year's-end, a month and a half before the
winter solstice, the gods sent the easterly wind to blow southerly
and warm, scouring the snow from the land. On the third day,
when it was safe to ride, Breaca took a bay colt of Cygfa's, not long
broken to saddle, and rode with Cunomar out to the gully in which
Philus and his men had made their last, indefensible camp.

The snow lay thin and patchy, running to mud. The air smelled
of damp and rotting leaves and, as they reached the valley, of
meat hung past its best. The bay colt shied at the stench and
had to be coaxed forward, but that was why he had been brought;
a battle horse cannot fear the scents of carnage. Breaca tethered
him to some willows, and followed Cunomar into the gully.

Winter had covered the corpses, keeping them whole so that
only in the last days had the carrion feeders found them. Breaca
had not made any conscious effort to remember the lie of the dead
after the battle, but the pattern was easy enough to pace out: here,
behind the wicker sheep folds, lay the twelve of Philus' merchants,
all fallen face down and with wounds in the back or sides as they
had tried to run; here in front, the mercenaries had died fighting.
The black-haired one who went for Cygfa and lost his arm lay
under his smaller, grey-haired companion, who had been Breaca's
kill. Pulled tight by ice, their flesh had melted back onto their faces,
and their blood had washed away with the snow, leaving them
whitely sodden, as the leaf litter was sodden and the drips from the
overhanging branches.

'He's here.' Cunomar crouched by a body a dozen paces away.
'You were right. He's not wearing the king-band.'

Breaca crossed to where 'Tagos lay in a puddle of melted snow.
In death, he was composed and neat with his cloak wrapped about
his shoulders and his one good arm across his chest, his blade still
in his hand. A crow had taken his eyes and a fox had begun to feast
on his face, but what was left held a peace that it had rarely done
in life and it was still possible to see the authority and integrity of
the man he might have been, and had tried to become.

Only his king-band was missing, the clamour of red gold, enamel
and copper that Breaca had made for him in their first winter, the
better to impress a governor with a taste for Eceni art. She knelt at
his side and lifted the sodden wool of his cloak away from his one
good arm. The band was gone and had been so while he still lived
- anyone taking it from his corpse would have disturbed his peace
too clearly.

Aloud, she said, 'It won't have fallen. He can only have given it
away.'

'Philus is behind you,' Cunomar said, quietly.
Breaca turned. The slave trader lay as he had fallen, untidy and
unmourned. His pack was not beside him, but she found it wedged
in the roots of an oak, broken open by the weight of snow and
stirred by rats and mice. She turned it upside down and the king
band spilled out, wrapped about in lamb's wool to keep it
untarnished.

'Well done.' Cunomar grinned. 'I owe you a belt buckle.'

'Which you don't have to give me. I only bet because it was
obvious.' Breaca picked up the cold metal and teased open the
wool. 'No-one but Philus would have had the audacity to ask for
this, and even if they had, 'Tagos would not have felt himself
beholden to give it to anyone less threatening.'

Cunomar nodded. 'It's still the most beautiful thing you have
made, and he treasured it. He would not have given it away if he
had not felt it necessary.'

'I would like to think not.'

Unwrapped, the band lay across her hands, as bright as the day
she had made it. Red gold caught the flat light of the morning,
warming it; oval plates of blue enamel swam across like fish in
summer water; copper roundels at the end pieces glimmered green
in their fissures where sweat and man-heat had stained the metal.
Lanolin greased her fingers, lightly pleasant, and made it easier to
slip around 'Tagos' one good arm without tearing the fragile skin
or flesh beneath. He looked more complete with it on, more
obviously regal.

Breaca sat back on her heels and swept the sodden, crow-torn
hair from his face. 'Made a king by gold and copper. He deserved
better, at the end, at least.'

'If he serves us in death, he'll be glad of it.'

Cunomar spoke absently, his attention no longer on the
dead, but on Cygfa's bay colt, which had been spooked by some
crows. He was still dressed as he had been in the summer, in a
sleeveless deerskin jerkin that made mockery of the cold
and showed well the bear scars on his upper arms. At his left
temple hung a hank of woven red horse hair with a single bear's
tooth dangling, which had been a gift from Ardacos to mark the
last day of the old year.

Breaca said, 'Cunomar? I, too, have a gift for you.'

He had not expected that, and was pleased. The elders of the
Caledonii had taught him how to hide whatever he felt, but she
saw the spark of surprise and the flush that followed and was glad
she could still move him. She saw, too, and more openly,
the consternation that followed. 'I brought nothing for you,' he
said.

'I didn't expect you to. And you may not wish to accept what I
offer, which is why we are speaking of it here, where we are
overheard only by the dead. If you decide you don't want it, no
one living will know.'

That drew his full attention. Reaching into her belt pouch, she
drew out a circlet of red gold, silver and copper. It was not exactly
like 'Tagos' king-band, but so close that only a smith would know
the difference.

'This is the first part,' she said. 'You should know that it was not
only made for you. If we hadn't found 'Tagos' band, I would have
given him this to hold in death through the winter; the Romans
would never have known it wasn't his.' She held it out. 'Knowing
that, if I offered it to you, would you still take it?'

'Gladly.' A smile lit his eyes so that, briefly, he was very much his
father. 'I did say it was the most beautiful thing you ever made. I
had always thought it wasted on 'Tagos.'

The band slid into place above his elbow. It was heavier than
'Tagos' and the end pieces were not enamelled discs, but fashioned
in the shape of a bear's paw with room to fasten the kill-feathers,
as had been done in the days of the far-distant ancestors.

Cunomar sat in silence as his mother fixed the five feathers of his
kills on the left side. He would not look down when she had
finished; he was too proud for that.

'You look more regal than 'Tagos has ever done,' Breaca said,
and then, 'Cygfa painted and bound the feathers. Airmid helped
me draw the wire. Graine carved the shapes for the end pieces. This
is from all of us, to mark the start of a year that will be different
from anything we have ever known. '

His head came up sharply. 'And so this is not the gift you feared
I might turn down?'

'No.'

The wind was moving easterly again, and growing colder. Breaca
blew on her hands to warm them.

Presently she said, 'After 'Tagos' death, it was agreed that
we would wait until the bodies of the dead were found, and
that I would go to Camulodunum in spring when the snow
melts, to tell them of the tragedy of the king's death and how
it has blighted our lives, to ask their help in returning his
body so that we may mourn him properly, and to ask for their
help in finding those responsible for his death. If the Romans
believe us bereaved and not at fault, they will not send the
legions to destroy the steading in revenge for Philus' death.'
Cunomar grinned, wryly. 'I don't think it was agreed. I think it
was argued for three days and three nights and you had your way
because you are the Boudica and even Ardacos, Cygfa, Dubornos
and Airmid together cannot sway you when you set your mind to
something so obviously dangerous.'

'You were the only one who didn't speak against it. Did you not
agree with them?'

'Of course I agreed. It's madness you're going. If Rome does not
believe you, you'll be the first to die and then who will lead the war
host? Do you think the warriors will gather for Ardacos, or for the
son of the Boudica whom they have never seen lead a single spear
into battle? I don't. No king-band, however beautifully made,
could make them trust me that much.'

He was not bitter, only speaking the truth as he saw it, and was
probably right. He picked up a pebble and threw it at a crow that
was teasing the bay colt. 'I would have argued against with the rest
of them, but I'm your son. I can tell when your mind is set beyond
changing. The Caledonii taught me never to waste my breath on
arguments that couldn't be won.' He was not grinning any longer,
and he did know her well. 'Is that your gift?' he asked. 'That you
would not go?'

She nodded. 'That I would not go, and would ask you to go in
my stead. You are the king's son. You speak Latin as well as I do.
You have the courage and steadiness to say what is needful. If I
can't go, and it does seem as if the gods and dreams - and common
sense - are against it, then you are the best alternative. It may be
that you were always the best anyway. If I asked it of you, would
you risk your life in Camulodunum for us? For me?'

The elders of the Caledonii had done their job well. Only
because he was her son did she see the blaze of unshaded joy
behind Cunomar's eyes. Outwardly, his face was schooled to stillness,
his answer measured. 'I would be more grateful than I have
words to express,' he said. 'Can you tell me what made you change
your mind?'

'Airmid. And then Ardacos, and then Dubornos and Cygfa
together, and then Airmid again. They have all known me since
before you were born, which perhaps gives them reason to believe
that when my mind is set, it may still be altered.'

'Did they suggest I should go in your place?'

'Hardly. Each of them offered to do it alone, as I had done. It
may be death, we all know that; no-one would ask that of anyone
else. Except that now I ask it of you.'

'No. Now you offer it as the greatest gift you have ever given, or
could give, to your son who still stands in the shadow of his
parents and would prove himself a warrior. Which is why I accept,
with great thanks.'

The rites of the year's-end passed quietly that year.

Once, the Eceni would have marked the end of autumn and the
birth of the new child-winter with a killed ram and malted barley
and games on river ice for the youths coming up to their long
nights and a ceremony afterwards in the roundhouse with all the
dreamers and singers present to keep it safe.

'Tagos' steading - now Breaca's - had no roundhouse in which
to gather and there had not been time to build one. It had also, by
force of circumstance, become winter home to the forty-nine she
bear warriors who made Cunomar's new honour guard and even
had they wished it, there was little food to spare for feasting. Thus,
those who would fit gathered in Airmid's hut on the western edge
of the steading, that was built most like a roundhouse and could
take thirty seated if each did not mind rubbing knees tightly with
the other.

They made a spiral, with Ardacos at the outer rim near the door,
and Airmid in the centre by the only fire not yet extinguished. As
the night progressed, the flames were allowed to die so that it
seemed the dark leached in from the margins, pressing the light and
the heat inwards and downwards to a dull, red glow in the base
of the fire pit.

Close to midnight, Airmid cast a handful of leaves and roots on
the embers, and more, until they smothered the last of the light
and the harsh, heady smoke of their burning rose into the dark and
spread out, touching the furthest of them, offering protection
against the thinning boundaries of the night. When she spoke, her
voice came from above, or behind, or echoed in both ears together.

'The year dies and is not yet reborn. In the space between is no
time, Briga's time, when she opens the gateways to the lands
beyond life and the trackways from there to here lie clear. This
night, of all nights, those who are gone may return without harm
or censure, to meet again those who remain within life. Greet them,
hear them, and, when the fire is relit, allow them to return whence
they came.'

A collective shudder passed along the spiral, from centre to edge.
The air became full, and emptied again, and where had been walls
and a sense of safety was suddenly the hollowness of open space,
as if each of those present had been walking in fog along a path,
and had found themselves suddenly in clear skies on a narrow
bridge across a mountain pass, with no handholds and a fathomless
drop on either side to the ground below.

Breaca had met the dead too often to fear them, but on this night
alone there was the chance she might find that Caradoc no longer
lived, that he had died without her knowing and she would discover
it only when his shade appeared, mourning the turning of her
heart from the single-minded search for vengeance that had once
consumed her. She feared that still, above many other things.
Sitting in the black night with Graine pressed tight against her on
one side, and sweat beading onto her arm from Cunomar on the
other, she made herself breathe in Airmid's harsh smoke, the better
to see the approaching dead.

The night remained empty. None of her dead appeared, not
Caradoc, nor any of the ancestors who might have been drawn by
the torc at her neck. Darkness stretched like a tunnel, punctuated
by hollow inhalations of those who had been visited. In the dark,
she heard someone say, 'Eneit?' and thought it was Lanis, until
Cunomar shuddered and she realized that he was weeping, and
was glad that he could do so.

No-one else spoke, neither human nor once-human, and, in
time, the fire came again. At a signal felt but not heard, Cunomar
cleared the embers of the last year's blaze and Graine, as youngest
present, laid tinder on the stone base for the new one. Airmid
struck a spark and fanned it and the flames ate shaved bark and
dried grass and the hanks of ewe's wool and the tail hairs of brood
mares that were sent to Briga to ask for good birthings.

Women who thought they might be pregnant, or who planned to
become so that night, leaned forward and gave three of their own
hairs to the fire. The men who thought they might father such
children cut a nail paring from the first finger of each hand and
gave that, to ask for health in their seed. There were many such
pairings; a child conceived on the night of the un-year was
fortunate. Born after midsummer, when the harvest had been taken
in, it would find no hardship until winter when everyone suffered
similarly - or might not, if the coming year turned as Breaca
intended.

Airmid said, 'Next year's-end, we may see us free of Rome and
all it carries,' and gave voice to everyone's thought.

Those gathered left soon after that, carrying lit torches of
hawthorn staves dipped in sheep's fat, and shavings of oak bark
and dried rowan leaves with which to start their own fires, never to let them out until the next year's turning.

Breaca alone remained behind. She banked the fire for morning,
and called in Stone, who had been left outside for fear the dead
would not approach him.

Airmid came back with the water carriers, and then both
brought in the accumulation of urns and beakers and sealed jugs of
plants and berries that had been moved outside, the better to
accommodate the she-bears.

They sat a while by the firelight, not ready to sleep. The aftertaste
of dream smoke flavoured the air. Airmid cast on other leaves,
sparingly; rosemary and sage and sharp mint, so that the scents
freshened and the walls between the worlds began to feel secure
again. She was wearing her neckpiece of silvered frog's bones that
was older than Cunomar, older than Cygfa, older even than the
presence of Rome. Smoke coiled about it, and her, so that she could
have been a girl again, or infinitely old; a long-dead ancestor keeping
care of the still-living.

She poured water, and something else, into a beaker and offered
it across the fire to Breaca.

'Caradoc did not come to you?' she asked.

'No.' Only Airmid would ask, only Airmid could fully be
answered. 'I would like to think that I would know before this if
he were dead, but each year I am never sure until the night is over.
Then I can forget for half a year, and worry again before the next
time.' Breaca fed Stone the leavings of a roast hare and let him
lick the grease from her fingers. He lay across her feet, a solid reassurance.
She said, 'Did Gwyddhien come for you?'

'Yes. She has come each year since her death. But less now than
she did.'

There was pain in that, in the asking of it and hearing the
answer. They both moved to lay a stick on the fire so that for a
moment they were close. The light became a little stronger, the
night a little warmer, the dead a little farther away.

After a while, Airmid said, 'Cunomar wears well his new armband.
Did you ask him to go to Camulodunum in spring?'

'Yes, and he accepted.' Breaca drank the flavoured water Airmid
had given her. It tasted of mugwort and burdock and melted snow.
Letting the bitterness and the cold settle on her teeth, she said,
'He's the best choice, I do know that. He's the king's son, and such
things matter to Rome. He speaks Latin well and has met the
Emperor Claudius, which means he knows how the Romans
conduct their formalities, and--'

'And the risk is enormous, and still you have to let him take it.'
Airmid's foot reached to touch the side of her knee; a small thing,
and a world of comfort. 'He's your son as much as Caradoc's. He
has grown into what you both have given him, but he has things
he needs to prove, to himself as much as to you.'

'I know. He said as much. But he's travelling and fighting alone,
and shouldn't be. It's the care of the dreamer that makes the
warrior. The elder grandmother taught us that and we have lived it
since. Cunomar has no dreamer.'

'Graine would dream for him, willingly. She's almost old enough
to sit her long-nights. It could be done in the spring and she could
ride with him after.'

'Hardly.' Breaca laughed shortly. 'Graine hates violence. I can't
imagine her riding into any battle willingly. In any case, Cunomar
needs someone in whose shadow he has not spent his life.' The burdock was working its way into her blood, sharpening sight and sound and touch. She leaned back on a wall and felt the
weave of her tunic as a lattice across her back, and the dry serpent's
weight of the torc at her neck, and the press of Airmid's foot
which was against her calf now, not her knee, because she had
moved back.

She let her hand rest on the dreamer's ankle, feeling the small
pulse across the top. It was regular and rhythmic and speeded a
little under her touch. Not entirely steadily, she said, 'He needs
someone who can be for him what you were to me. And have
always been.'

From the dark, after a pause, Airmid said, 'Thank you.'

Suddenly, they were shy as children in each other's company, and
had never been. Both stirred the fire and added wood, shifting the
balance so that it had more fuel but burned less brightly.

Presently, because she needed to speak, Breaca said, 'Cygfa
sleeps alone still. I had thought Braint might have been killed and
might come to her as Eneit came to Cunomar, but there was
no-one.'

Airmid said, 'Cygfa carries her wounds deeper than her brother.
And Dubornos carries his wounds openly, the greatest of which is
that he loves Cygfa and she does not love him. They lived closely
together in Rome and she cares for him as she cares for Cunomar.
I think she will not see him hurt further and so keeps chaste
because of it.'

'And yet if she loved another, she would find ways not to hurt
Dubornos. That alone would not stop her.'

'I know, but she doesn't allow herself to love. Cunomar is desperate
for it, and seeks only one who can match him. Cygfa hurts
still, deeply, and seeks no-one, believing herself stronger like that.'

'Could you heal her?'

Airmid grimaced. 'Only if she asked for it, and she will not. I
spoke to her while we were on Mona, when you were hunting
legionaries and we were alone. She walked away and I haven't tried
again since. Her pain is her own, to heal as she chooses. As is ours.'

Such a small phrase, to open the world. The pulse under Breaca's
fingers remained steady. The burdock had cleared the day's clutter
from her mind, perhaps the year's clutter, or longer. For a night - for
this night - she had no need to lie awake and plan the future. She
poured some of the melt-water onto her cupped palms and rinsed her
face with it, then set down the beaker, carefully, away from the fire.

Speaking slowly, navigating among the rocks of her words, she
said, 'It was not to avoid hurting 'Tagos that I have slept alone
these past years, but because of Caradoc.'

'I know.'

'And you the same because of Gwyddhien.'

'Yes.'

Through the three years since Gwyddhien's death, they had
never spoken of this. Breaca nudged a log deeper into the fire. Lit
by new flames, she asked, 'Does she expect it of you still?'

'She has never expected it at all. As I am certain Caradoc never
expected it of you.'

Airmid's eyes were entirely black. They searched Breaca's face,
across and across. She said, 'It takes time to heal the pain of loss,
and then it takes time to heal the memory of the pain, and the
belief that honour requires us to hold that pain for ever. Then it
takes more time to find that the loves of our past can still be loved,
that something new - or something old, rewoven - does not
diminish them. And then while we may know that to be true for
others, while we see it in others and want to speak of it daily, it is
harder to see it equally in ourselves.'

They had gone too far, now, to pretend. Breaca said, 'Did you
think I should take someone else to bed after Caradoc?'

Airmid laughed. 'It surprises me daily that you have not.'

'But are you glad of it?'

That was when she knew, when she felt the steady beat of
Airmid's pulse become unsteady, telling a truth that she might not
have believed in words, or perhaps never dared to ask.

Shakily, Airmid said, 'Before tonight, I would have told myself
not. Tonight I am very glad. Very glad indeed,' and reached a hand
across the fire.

It was hard to breathe then, or to think with any clarity. The fire
was between them, and then not between them, and then the
beakers, so carefully put out of the way, were spilled onto
the rushes of the floor, and neither of them cared because they were
no longer dressed and cool water on one side balanced the heat of
the fires from the other and in between was the endless mystery
and wonder of touch, of skin on skin, of palms meeting, and hips
and breasts and lips and teeth and hair and all of life resting in the
blink of another's eye.

Breaca had forgotten how it could be, and, remembering, could
not imagine how it had been possible to forget, as if the parched
could forget water, or the starving forget the feast laid out for the taking. Her fingers traced contours her memory had long discarded, and brought them back again, renewed, with taste
and touch and the heaviness of another body above her, and
then below her, and the honey-salt slickness, binding them close.

They stayed awake through the night of the un-year, rediscovering
what was old and inventing what could be new, and came to morning
wound together like hound whelps among the sleeping-hides,
drowsily.

Breaca drifted into sleep, and woke again and lay watching the
thread of smoke coil up through the hole in the thatch, closing one
eye and then the other, to make it shift back and forth, as her mind
shifted with it, caught in the tangles of old images.

Airmid leaned over and kissed her. 'Good morning. May the year
grow well within you.'

Breaca smiled into the kiss. 'And in you.' All lovers said that on
the first morning of the child-year. Tradition demanded it.

Airmid laid her hand, splay-fingered, on Breaca's belly and
tipped her head, as if listening. 'Something has taken seed in the
night and it can't be a child, so it must be a dream. Can it be told?'

'Easily, but I'm not sure there's anything you can do.' Breaca
took the hand and kissed the fingers, and then the knuckles, and
then the soft place in the centre of the palm where her tongue
stayed to trace shapes onto the lines the gods had put there. 'Unless
you can become an iron-seeker and find me raw iron in Eceni lands
and then learn to be a smith and help me turn the iron into blades
for the war host, and can find a way to keep the legions from the
great-house while we--'

'Breaca, stop. Don't think of that. Today, this morning, for now,
don't think.' Airmid's hands gripped tight, folding fingers into
fingers, holding her close. 'You are not alone in this. You don't
have to fight the wars and arm the warriors and plan everything
alone. You know that. Cunomar will go to Camulodunum and he
will do well. We have ways to find iron and a smith and I can help
with that. And for now, we have this, a gift of the gods. It doesn't
have to be squandered.' Airmid kissed her forehead and her
temples, and her eyelids, slowly, dizzyingly, with a different hunger
from the night.

The last kiss landed carefully, placed in the hollow of her neck,
where the two ends of the torc stood apart. 'Whatever happens, I
will love you. For today, for now, can we let that be enough?'


XXVIII.

'I bring gifts, gifts for the boudica's army, let me in!'The hammering on the gates matched the hammering in the forge and it was only by chance that Graine passed the knot hole and saw the shape silhouetted against the snow outside. She hauled the oak bar from its sockets and stood back as a broad, grey-haired woman drove a team of five broad horses through the gates. Allowed to stop, the beasts stood buckle-kneed and steaming in the falling snow. The wagon they had drawn rolled half a hand forward and then sank to its axles in ground that was not overly soft.

'Thank you. I was beginning to think the Eceni had abandoned the guest laws in their quest to be free of Rome.'

The broad wagonwoman leered her thanks. Her face twisted unpleasantly and she swayed as she sat. When she threw the reins at the head of her lead horse and jumped down, she stumbled as she landed.

Not since the worst of 'Tagos' winters had Graine seen anyone walk abroad the worse for drink. The guest laws made no provision for a drunken woman driving her horses into the steading.

Chewing her lip, Graine looked at the ground, and then to the forge, but her mother was hammering sword blades and was too far away to reach. In any case, she was too busy to be disturbed by the minor difficulty of a drunken guest; they were two months
from spring and the gathering of the war host and there was the limited stock of iron to be made into blades and the Boudica the only smith in the steading. She could not be called from the forge for anything less than the sight of a legion marching up the trackways.

The problem must be dealt with by other means, therefore. Looking again, Graine saw that the woman did not smell of either ale or wine, but of wet wool and wetter leather and spent, sweating horses. She leaned against the side of the wagon for support, holding it with her left hand. Her right hand, shoulder and hip were all crooked, as if they had once been broken and then set later, badly. Her hair was not entirely grey; threads ran through that were as richly red as the Boudica's.

Without the leer, her face would have been handsome. On the shoulder of her cloak, hidden in folds of sodden wool, was a brooch in the shape of the boar, the sign of the Dumnonii, who fought Rome in the far south-west with all the tenacity and savagery of the beast from which they took their mark.

Put together, all these things gave a name as clearly as if it had been spoken aloud. Graine felt herself flush. Shamefully late, she gave the salute of an apprentice to an elder dreamer of great power and said, 'Welcome to Gunovar, daughter to Gunovic, who gave his life for Macha at the invasion battles.'

The rest of what she knew ran silently in her mind, and doubtless could be read on her face: 'You were one of the foremost dreamers of your people until you spent four days under the care of the legions' inquisitors. Your warriors stormed the fortress to free you, losing half their number in the battle. The songs of that have reached us, but not the tales of how the legions acted afterwards, or of how you dream now, with your body broken.'

'Indeed.'

The woman's leer was weighted now with irony, all turned inward, none of it for Graine. It was not clear if she answered the salute, the welcome, or all that had not been said.

It was hard to look at her face, knowing how it might have been before the burns; easier to watch her eyes, where the pain and the humour met and each became more mellow. There was a great deal of humour. It occurred to Graine that Ardacos would like this woman, and not for the dryness of her humour alone.

Gunovar returned the dreamers' salute with some elegance,
managing in a single movement to acknowledge Graine's relative
youth, while implying a depth of dreaming equal to her own.

She said, 'And you are Graine, hare-dreamer and daughter to the
Boudica. I am honoured to meet you. Could you see to my horses
while I talk to your mother? They've drawn me bravely for nearly
a month and I would not have them die for lack of care now that-- Ah, you're here, finally. I wondered how long it would take for you
to notice you had company.'

Very few people spoke to the Boudica in that tone of voice.
Fewer, since she had taken the torc after 'Tagos' death. Airmid
might have done so still when they were alone, but nobody else
that Graine knew of. She looked to her mother, and saw that she
was grinning, and that the incomer, therefore, was that rarity to be
treasured: a genuine friend.

'Did you? That would be why you announced yourself so
fulsomely.' Breaca had reached the cart horses and was rubbing
them behind the ears where the harness had chafed. Stooping, she
ran her hand down the legs of the sweat-riven bay that was closest.

'I thought my daughter was greeting you admirably. She's too
well mannered to tell you that you've ruined a good horse and it
will take us until halfway through summer to heal it.'

'And you're not.'

Breaca hoisted herself up on the spoke of a wheel, reaching into
the wagon. 'No. The draught horses of the Dumnonii are legend.
What have you brought that makes it worth harming one of your
greatest-- Ah. Did the gods whisper in your ear or has news of our
need reached the southwest?'

The sides of the cart were too tall for Graine to look inside
directly. All she could see in those first moments after the oiled
cover slid away was the wash of dull blue-grey reflected in her
mother's eyes and the gratitude and reverent joy, as of a lifetime's
prayers answered, in her voice. She did not have to be a dreamer
to know what was inside.

Gunovar waved a hand lightly, as if driving a year's worth of
iron across the land past two legions in the dead of winter were
nothing of note. 'I'm not so closed to the dreaming as you might
think. Airmid sent whisperings and I heard them, but in any case,
word of war travels on the wind and the wind has been strong
this winter. News of the Boudica's army has reached those who
would support it. To fight Rome and win, you need iron; so much
is obvious even had Nemain not walked through my nights. This is
all we have. The rest we need for our own battles. Will it be
enough?'

'I'll make it enough.' Breaca jumped down to stand in the
wagon, ankle deep in iron. She lifted a bar and held it up to
the wind and the snow, sighting along its length as if it were
already a blade.

Gunovar stood by, watching, and was watched in her turn by
Graine. The broad woman was broken and not fully mended, but
she had the strength of mind and flesh to drive a wagon train
through mud and ice alone. She had, in fact, the build of a smith.

Breaca already knew it. She crouched at the edge of the wagon
and held the raw iron across her hands, like a blade. Passing it
down to the woman below, she said, 'Gunovar, your father was
one of the greatest smiths of his day. I have seen your work and you
have his skill, if not more so. Will you stay and help me in the
making? As much as iron, I need another smith. The legions
slaughtered ours when they broke the blades in Scapula's time. I
can't make all this into swords and spears before the fighting
begins in spring.'

Gunovar smiled, and her face was almost even. 'If you listen to
the hero tales, you could fashion an army of blades in one day from
the fires of your forge and then fight Rome single-handed.
Fortunately, I don't believe all of the tales, only those parts I hear
first hand. Of course you can't arm your war host on your own.
Why else do you think I have come?'

With Gunovar's help, the production of weapons resumed faster
than before, although with pauses now to train the she-bears in
their use. Graine had been right: Ardacos did like the broad
woman with the broken body, and not only for the dryness of her
wit. Together, these two took Cunomar's honour guard and began
to fashion them into the core of an army.

Two months after the midwinter night of the all-dark, Breaca
took a break from her hammering and called the honour guard
into council. Forty-nine youths gathered in the great-house where
they had taken their spear-trials, flushed with the promise of
action. They were not disappointed when each was given an arm
band, made precisely to fit, with the she-bear stamped on one side
and the serpent-spear that was the mark of the Boudica on the
other. With this as their sign of surety, she sent each back to the
village, steading or settlement that had once been home, and thence
on to all those neighbouring.

Each bore the same message: 'Breaca nic Graine, first born of the
royal line, summons the warriors of the Eceni nation to gather at
the site of the horse fair by the first new moon after the spring
equinox. The she-bears will guide those who do not know the way,
or are wary of winter travel. Snow is your best protection. Travel
early and in small numbers and pray that the winter holds and the
legions do not move early from their forts.'

Thus was called into being the first war host of the Eceni to
gather since the Roman invasion.


XXIX.

IN THE WESTERN MOUNTAINS, CLOSE TO THE DREAMERS' ISLE OF Mona, the fighting began before the end of winter.

Snow lay knee deep; thicker in the valleys and thinner on the
shoulders of the mountains where the wind carved it close. The
peaks were frozen ice caps, inaccessible to man and beast. None of
these prevented Rome's auxiliary cavalry from making increasingly
wide-ranging forays into the mountain ranges west of their fortress
base, or the warriors of Mona from attacking them whenever and
wherever possible.

Wrapped in an oiled cloak for warmth, Valerius lay face down
on packed ice under the notional cover of a wind-stripped
hawthorn and looked down on the valley below where a Gaulish
cavalry wing had made camp the night before. Dawn was breaking,
bright and cold, so that the light was silver, with tints of blue
and gold as the sun burned the horizon. A late mist rose and
thinned and what had been a sea of grey became, slowly, lines of
tents in perfect order, with two larger ones for the officers at one
end.

At the end opposite these, nearer the neck of the valley, fifty
riderless horses milled restlessly in a makeshift enclosure. To either
side, small moments of violence made flurries in the mist and
presently, when Valerius looked, two sentries of the Gaulish
cavalry lay supine in the snow, leaking redly from throat and groin.
A white cloth flapped once near the tents behind the enclosure.
To Valerius' left, a figure edged out from the lee of a boulder and
lifted a knife blade high. There was barely light enough to see by;
the polished iron flickered, greyly, but enough, signalling safety,
and permission to proceed.

At the signal, two shapes darted forward from the tumble of
rocks on the other side of the valley. The ropes of the makeshift
corral sagged and separated where they had been cut. When a
bundle of rotting wolf skin and fat was hurled into their midst, the
entire herd had a clear route of escape. The panicked drum of their
hooves filled the length of the valley and the mountains beyond.

No man could sleep through that, and the Gauls, if they had any
sense, had been sleeping lightly and were not drunk. Within
moments, the tents began to empty. On the hillside opposite, three
warriors ran lightly up away from the enclosure and the bodies on
either side. They were out of range long before the first javelins
were hurled at them.

There was no need any longer for secrecy. The figure on Valerius'
left was Braint of the Brigantes, in the Boudica's absence Warrior
of Mona, leader of this raid and the half-dozen that had gone
before.

She spat on the ground in thanks to the gods and squirmed backwards
and out over the crest of the hill to where three other
warriors waited at a small, smouldering fire. They left on her
signal, skidding light-footed down the scree, bearing ropes of
woven rawhide and pouches of winter stored corn and twists
of salt with which to catch up the panicked cavalry horses when
they tired and came to rest beyond the mouth of the valley.

None of them, neither Braint nor those who followed her,
acknowledged Valerius' presence, nor did he expect them to. He
stood up, shaking the snow from his cloak, and stretched,
tentatively, easing cold joints.

His shoulders no longer hurt, which still amazed him. From the
moment at the end of autumn when Longinus had sent him, broken and beaten, back to Mona, every part of him had screamed in pain. Bellos had taken charge of his healing, under instruction
from Luain mac Calma. Through the slow months of foul infusions,
sipped day and night, of poultices and bindings and the
indignities of nursing, there had been a perverse satisfaction in
finding first hand that he had been right and that, even blind, the
Belgic youth made an exceptionally good healer.

Until midwinter, Valerius' bones had been so bruised and his
muscles so torn that simply to sleep through the first part of the
night without waking, weeping, had been an achievement. After
the solstice, with the gradual lightening of the days, the breaks
and the ripped ligaments had begun to heal so that if his sleep was
broken, it was not by pain.

Even so, standing on the mountainside, the memory of the
inquisitors' chamber sprang too readily to the surface of his mind.
It was hard to look down on the gradually diminishing chaos
among the cavalrymen in the valley, to hear the orders shouted in
Latin and watch the men form a line and march forward, without
feeling again the cringing concussion of fists and feet and staves
that made him want to curl into a ball and hide.

He made himself stand and watch, and not flinch as the Gaulish
cavalrymen, deprived of their horses, walked towards but not into
the ambush set at the narrow neck of the valley where the wide
plain became a gully. They stopped in a huddle, waiting. They were
not stupid; the question was not whether an ambush had been laid,
only by how many they were outnumbered and whether the natives
had confined themselves to spears and boulders, or whether they
kept slingers among them, against whom there was no real defence
except distance.

There were slingers; Valerius had watched them leave Mona and
had a fair idea of where they were stationed in the snowy scrub of
the gully's walls. Even as the officers conferred, the first slingstone
cracked down from the high ground and the first of the auxiliaries
died. The sound came after the sight, blustered by the wind, so that
the man had already fallen and his ghost walked loose before the
sharp peal of his cry floated up to the high ground above.

Valerius turned away, reluctant to watch yet another ghost wander
lost through the heather; the world was too full of those, and
the gods within him had not yet shown how they might all be laid
to rest. Alone, he caught up his horse and set her gently down the
mountain towards the ferry. A stone rattled after him on the scree
and might have been an accident, not a slingstone sent to unseat
him.

'Efnis, it's not going to work. I am not impugning Braint's courage,
or the willingness of Mona's warriors to fight, I am simply adding
up numbers. Suetonius Paulinus was made governor precisely
because he knows about mountain warfare. He has been told to
make safe the west or die in the attempt and he doesn't intend
to die. He has two legions and all their cavalry: about thirteen
thousand men, every one of whom will lay down his own life to
save their governor's skin. You have a little short of four thousand
warriors, six if every dreamer and child over the age of five picks
up a weapon. In the past month, Braint's raids have killed fifty
three auxiliaries, for the loss of six warriors. This is good. It is
laudable. It is great credit to the courage of your Warrior and those
she leads. It is not enough.'

'Did I ask for your opinion?'

Uniquely, Efnis was alone in Mona's great-house, standing
semi-naked in the waist-deep trench of a fire pit, digging out a
winter's ash. Luain mac Calma, yet again, had taken ship for
Hibernia, or perhaps Gaul, nobody knew which. In his absence,
Efnis was Elder. His word was law on Mona and throughout the
lands where dreamers still held sway. That he took it upon himself
to clean out the winter's leavings said more about him than he
chose to believe.

Without being asked, Valerius shed his tunic and jumped into the
trench. He lifted clear a charred hawthorn log and laid it to one
side.

When he was not expressly invited to leave, he said, 'You have
never asked for my opinion. But Luain mac Calma wishes me to be
on Mona and so I am on Mona. If I am to stay here, I would rather
not die in a pointless battle against men I once led.'

'Because you still care for them?' Efnis did not spit, but might as
well have done.

Valerius paused for a moment, his cupped palms full of ash.
Even in the poor light, his face was unusually bland. He said,
'I do care for them, yes; they were good men. But more because
I know how they are trained and what they can do and I know
that, however great the courage of Braint's warriors, however
profound the dreaming you build, you cannot stop fifteen thousand
trained infantry from marching over the whole of Mona and
killing every living thing they meet. If you attempt it simply to
prove me wrong, the deaths of your people will lie on your conscience.
Their ghosts will wait for yours when the inquisitors
finally let you die.'

It was the first time he had been so plain. Efnis turned to stare
at him. His eyes raked across the scars, new and old, on the other's
body as if they spoke a truth his words did not. 'What would you
have us do?' he asked.

In the god-space of Valerius' heart was the image that had rested
there since Longinus had spoken his treachery: of dreamers and
children on ships on a quiet sea. He had spoken of it to mac
Calma, and urged him to act, and, instead, the Elder had taken ship
at midwinter, when no sane man sailed, and had not come home.
He had not, apparently, thought to share the vision with Efnis
before he left.

Valerius said, 'I would beg, borrow and steal every ship that can
hold more than five people and start evacuating the entire population
of Mona to Hibernia.'

'What?' Efnis' laugh was lost in the vast space of the great
house. 'Don't be ridiculous. Where in Hibernia could be put six
thousand people? What are we supposed to feed them? Where will
they sleep?'

They were standing at either end of the trench, with only white
ash between them. Valerius leaned back and dusted the crumbs
from his hands. 'What will you feed them and where will they sleep
when the legions have razed Mona to the ground? Start calling in
merchant ships from Hibernia; they owe you their livelihood,
they'll come if you ask it. You can take the seed corn, the cattle, the
in-lamb ewes you would have kept here. Hibernia has land to spare
and you can produce more corn than you eat. You will be taking
the full elder council of Mona, with two thousand dreamers,
healers and singers and as many trained warriors as survive. For
that, the Hibernians will welcome you as their brothers and
sisters.'

'What of the great-house? It has stood since before the time of
the ancestors. If we leave, it will be destroyed.'

'Then it can be rebuilt after Rome has gone.'

Valerius spoke the greatest sacrilege in the place of greatest
sanctity and the gods did not strike him dumb. Efnis stared and
opened his mouth and shut it again.

Gently, Valerius said, 'Efnis - think. Luain mac Calma isn't here and you have people to protect. Paulinus is massing an army on the mainland that is almost as big as the one that invaded Britannia
nearly twenty years ago. When they have taken the western
mountains, they will commandeer every floating craft to make a
way across the straits. You don't have the luxury of time.'

Pulling himself out of the pit, Valerius stepped round to Efnis'
side. The wall behind was alive with carvings of other ages. The
newest was his, the outline of a hound with the wood still
white beneath. His hound rarely showed itself fully on Mona; the
carving carried the essence of it, so that his hands felt more alive
if he touched it. To abandon it, to feel it burn in the legions' conflagration,
would hurt more than he cared to imagine.

Efnis was still in the trench, his head lower than a child's.
Crouching down, so that their eyes were level and soul could meet
soul, Valerius said gently, 'It's the elders who make the house great,
not the wood or the thatch or even the carvings along the roof
beams. I can carve another hound. I can't teach the lore of Mona
to a new generation of dreamers because I don't know it. If you're
dead, and the great-house still stands, will the gods thank you for
it, do you think?'

They had been friends once, long ago, when the Eceni had been
all of the world and Rome a name to frighten children. Beneath all
the taints of betrayal and the vengeful dead, a thread remained to
let Valerius read in Efnis' eyes the moment when the impossible
became not only possible, but unavoidable.

It took longer for Efnis to acknowledge, and longer still for him
to speak aloud. When he did, it was with the desperation of one
cornered, who still has the power to hurt.

'Braint will never agree to withdraw the warriors,' he said, at
last. 'She will die defending Mona and those who follow her will
stand over her body until the last of them is cut down. They would
have done the same for your sister. They still will, if the Boudica
ever returns to take her place amongst them.'


XXX.

'BRAINT'S GONE. HER HORSE CAME BACK WITHOUT HER. WE searched for her body all morning and couldn't find it.'

The news was delivered by the slinger who had led the
ambush Valerius had watched. A blunt, broad-shouldered Siluran
youth, he looked barely old enough to lift a spear and yet bore the
scars of five years' fighting. He stood on the jetty with the ferry
rope still in his hand and only the teeth bitten hard into his lower
lip kept him from weeping.

Half a month had passed since the dawn raid on the cavalry
horses and Valerius' conversation with Efnfs that had followed. In
that time, the calm life of Mona had disintegrated into barely
ordered chaos.

Luain mac Calma had returned from Hibernia, bringing with
him a small flotilla of fishing boats, as if Valerius' suggested
evacuation had been planned in detail since the autumn. The
process of moving entire families, with their goods, horses, sheep
and cattle, stretched the organizational powers of the elders
beyond all sanity, but a third of the population had made the crossing
and been welcomed by the Hibernians and the ships were
sailing twice daily with full payloads to make safe the rest as fast
as wind and water would allow.

There was no guarantee that they would be in time. Spring had
come early to the west, on the back of a warm westerly wind
blown in off the sea that had scoured the snow from all but the
highest peaks. Across the straits on the mainland, the meticulous
preparations of Suetonius Paulinus, by Nero's pleasure fifth
governor of Britannia, were reaching a culmination, watched with
increasing anxiety by the scouts.

Most recently, two wings of auxiliary cavalry had made camp
closer to the straits than any had dared come before. Spies reported
that their orders were to flush out of the mountain passes all the
warriors of Mona, and kill them. In the first, at least, they were
succeeding.
Luain mac Calma picked up a stone from the shore and sent it
skipping across the choppy water of the strait. It bounced five
times and sank. If the gods spoke in its movement, only he could
read it. Grimacing, he turned to his left. 'Valerius? What will they
do with her?'

'Take her to the inquisitors at the fortress, unless their orders are
otherwise.'

Valerius stared over the water and ran his fingers through the
coarse pelt of his hound. The beast had returned as the first boats
were leaving for Hibernia, as if it were required to witness the
departure of the people from Mona. Whatever the reason for its
return, Valerius had greeted it as he would have done Hail and
revelled for a while in its company as a friend among the
unfriendly. Still, it had brought also a sense of foreboding that he could not shake off.

Walking with it openly at heel as the evacuations progressed, he
had felt increasingly hollow, as he used to do in the days before
battle. Because of it, he had been watching the strait for Braint's
homecoming and so had been first to see the warriors race down
the slopes to the ferry and then first again to see that Braint's horse
was with them but carried no rider. What had surprised him
most was that he cared.

The sea ruffled under the breeze. The ferry jigged at its mooring,
held fast by Sorcha, the ferrywoman, who had seen too many
warriors ride out and not come back to let it touch her now. A
wave of nausea hit the back of Valerius' throat, and was not only premature
seasickness. Over the winter, while his body had healed,
mac Calma had taught Valerius how better to hear the many
whispers of Nemain. He felt her touch now, in the closeness of the
hound and the stillness of the day, but it was the sudden presence
of Mithras in his mind that brought the sickness.

To the young Siluran slinger, he said, 'How was she taken, can
you tell me exactly?'

The boy fell gladly into talking, as if by speaking aloud he could
rewrite the past. 'A wing of cavalry was camped at the head of the
long pass on the other side of the mountains there-' His arm waved
behind to the taller peaks hidden in morning mist. 'We were cutting
loose their horses as we always do and Braint was on the hillside. She
never gave the signal for the ambush so we didn't attack. In any case,
the horses we set loose were not the cavalry's best. They had kept
those hidden in their tents and mounted as soon as they heard the
others run off. Even if Braint had given the signal we could not have
attacked; they came through us too fast. Then she didn't meet us at
the hawthorns as she should have done and when we went to look
for her, her horse was there but she was gone.'

The boy pressed the heels of his hands together and stared at
them. He said, 'They haven't taken her anywhere yet. They rode
straight back to the camp. Limarnos is watching. He'll set fire to
the heather as a signal if they leave and she is with them.'

A watch fire would be seen equally by both sides, and be equally
plain in its meaning. As if he were the commanding officer, and the
boy a new recruit in need of encouragement, Valerius said, 'That
was well done. Which troop were the auxiliaries? Did you see a
standard?'

The youth was too young to know the details of Valerius'
treachery. He frowned and thought for a moment and then, 'They
were Thracian. The leader rode under the standard of the bull, like
the mark of the ancestors, but painted in red on a grey ground,
Mona's colour.'

'Thank you.' The mark had been Valerius' once, and kept by
Longinus. The war hound pressed against Valerius' thigh and he
laid his hand on its head for comfort.

Before the pain of the following silence became too great, mac
Calma said, quietly, 'They were trained by the best, to be the best,
that's why Paulinus is using them now. Will they question Braint
themselves?'

Valerius looked up at the high peaks on the far side of the strait.
After a while, he said, 'Not unless they have changed beyond
recognition since I led them. Longinus would never offer violence
to a woman, except if she came at him in battle. In normal
circumstances, they would take her back to the fortress for
questioning by the inquisitors. If they have not done so yet, it is
because they have orders to hold her here, where we might attempt
a rescue.'

'Good. I had hoped that might be the case. Thank you.'

A second stone skipped across the water. It bounced nine times
and the spray of its last dash floated high after it had sunk. Luain
mac Calma, Elder of Mona, watched as Manannan's white horses
closed over the place where it had been.

Slipping his hands in the folds of his cloak, he turned away from
the water. His eyes sought Valerius' and held them, and he was
Nemain and Mithras together, and something deeper than both,
with more pain.

He said, 'It seems we have a moment's grace, a gift of the gods, in
which to act. The governor must not find out about the evacuation of
our people to Hibernia. It would be best if Braint could be returned
to us whole and unhurt, but if that is not possible, better for her and
for us that she not reach the fortress of the Twentieth alive. Valerius,
will you take what warriors you need and see to it?'

The choosing of the Warrior of Mona was a lengthy process,
traditionally overseen by the full elder council. The position was
not given on a whim to a man who had betrayed, slain and
delivered into questioning more warriors and dreamers than he or
anyone else chose to count.

Nevertheless, Luain mac Calma was sworn Elder of Mona and
his word was law. If he chose to give leadership of the warriors to
a man who had once led the enemy cavalry, if he chose to make
this man, in effect, Warrior-in-waiting without consultation or
explanation, no other could gainsay him. That did not mean that
the remaining spears, blades and slingers of Mona had to give such
a man their trust or their care. Only the hope of returning Braint
alive led them to accept Valerius' command and that hope was far
from certain.

The morning fell to frantic planning during which Valerius
found that he knew more warriors by name and ability than he
would have imagined. More important, he was coming to know
which would follow him grudgingly, but well, and which would try
to kill him out of hand at the first opportunity. The hound walked
at his side as he strode from the great-house to the armouries and
back again. Those warriors who acknowledged it were, he found,
those he could trust most. The few who made the ward against evil
were the most dangerous.

Just after noon, he called a meeting in the great-house,
summoning the captains of the shield-groups, so that each warrior
was represented, even if the place could not house them all. He had
the door hides pegged back and the wall wattles lifted. Light
streamed in, brighter than the fires.

He could have walked among them; Breaca would certainly
have done so. Valerius, the ex-auxiliary officer, chose to stand
on a levelled oak stump, so that he was lifted head and shoulders
above the rest and could be seen from the back. He wore
chain mail and an old cavalry cloak, stolen in Caradoc's time and
used in ambushes, and his banner hung behind him on the wall.
He had painted the mark of the war hound on cloth in the red of
unclotted blood on a grey background and had hung it between
two willow stalks so that it could be seen from all parts of the
great-house.

If the shape had been a little different, it would have matched
exactly the red bull of the Thracian cavalry under which Valerius
had once fought for Rome. When he mounted his podium, he met
a silence so heavy the air was poisoned. Not one warrior present
doubted who he had been; they had not expected him so to revel
in it.

Valerius had addressed troops before battles greater than this
one; he knew how to touch them, however much they loathed him.
Casting his voice to the outer edges of the gathering, he said, 'You
know who I have been. You know also what the Elder has made
me. I am sworn to him as you are; we have no choice in this. Until
Braint returns to take her place as Warrior - and I wish that as
much as you do - you are oath-bound to follow me.'

So much they already knew. Valerius watched how they reacted
and revised again his notion of whom he could trust.

He said, 'Braint is taken and must not reach the fortress of the
Twentieth alive. We bring her back, or we leave her dead. Those
are our choices.'
They must have known that as well, but they did not want to
hear it from him. If their wishing it could have killed him, Valerius
would have fallen dead.

It did not, and he went on. 'The cavalry wing is not camped
in the long pass by accident. This is a trap and only the first
half has been sprung. They were the bait that captured Braint,
and she is the bait for a greater prize - which is you. The
governor knows the courage and honour of the sworn spears
of Mona and he seeks to destroy you so that he may take the island
safely.'

Valerius flattered them and they despised him the more for it.
He said, 'They will, therefore, be waiting for us - but perhaps not
only them. It may be that this is the greatest trap of all. We have to
consider that this may be the beginning of the final assault
on Mona: that the governor seeks to draw the entire mass of our
warriors out into a single pass, allowing the legions to march on
Mona unopposed. I do not intend to let that happen.'

One or two of those listening had considered this, most had not.
Valerius felt the texture of the air change. The hound came to his
side and more of them acknowledged it than before.

Valerius put his hands behind his back. As Caesar addressing his
troops, he said, 'There are three paths clear before us: first, we can
bring Braint back alive, which is the best we can hope for. If that
fails, then second, we can kill her and know she died cleanly, which would not be good, but would also not be the worst that could
happen. Or, third, we could abandon her and instead expend our
lives in the defence of this island and all that is on it, allowing the
evacuation to continue until it is complete or the last of us falls,
whichever comes first.'

He spoke at the end, not into uproar - such a thing could not
happen in the great-house of Mona - but into such exhalations of distress that his last words were as lost as if they had shouted him down.

When the space was quiet he spoke again, dropping his voice so
that they had to strain to hear, and the last of those shuffling was
forced into silence.

'There is a fourth choice: that we divide the warriors of Mona,
that the greater part of you remain here, defending the strait
against the legions. If we do this, then a smaller party of only six
hundred warriors will ride with me to the valley where Braint is
held, offering the cavalry full battle. With your help, this is the path
I intend to take.'

He had them now, as the hare has the hound, focused beyond all
distraction. The quality of their attention could not have been
more different. Valerius raised his hand and lowered it stiffly like a
blade. The edge split the air in front of him, making a line through
their ranks. Unconsciously they swayed aside from it with the
greater part to his right.

He addressed himself first to this larger part. 'You have the
defence of Mona. I leave you under the command of Tethis of
the Caledonii. Tethis, both sides of the strait must be protected.
How you achieve that is up to you.'

It was a popular choice. Tethis was widely believed to be Braint's
natural successor, the Warrior-in-waiting whose position Valerius had
usurped. He would have liked to have kept her with him, but she
was one of the few who could be trusted to balance courage with
pragmatism in defence of the island. Tethis would not waste lives
in pointless charges or hopeless acts of heroism, but she would still
send warriors to their deaths if it meant defeating the enemy in
the end.

For a moment, the floor was hers. She commanded her warriors
neatly, drawing order from the havoc. She chose for her shield
mate a squat woman of the Cornovii whose brothers had died
at Valerius' hand and who would have flayed him and kept
his body living for a month sealed in clay, feeding him daily to
prolong his death, if only the Elder had given her the chance. Too
many of her kind still abounded in the six hundred Valerius
had kept for his own troop, but if he had left them all behind,
he would have been left to charge the auxiliary camp with half a
hundred spears.

Presently, when Tethis and her warriors had departed, he addressed
the six hundred who remained. His speech to them was short, detailing
his battle plan with riding order, weapons and battle calls given
crisply, as if they were a cavalry wing long under his command. They
hated him for that, too, but could find no fault with it. At the end, he
led them outside and stuck his standard in the ground, scoring a mark
on the earth to the north-east of its shadow.

'It is now shortly after noon. We meet when the shadow hits the
mark. Make what preparations you need, say whatever goodbyes
are useful. I am not going to squander your lives, nor am I going
to give you the opportunity to be heroes. We will outnumber the auxiliaries by one hundred horse which means we should not fail,
but still, some of you will die and some will fall and so will also
die. Be clear on that: I do not intend to mount a second rescue
mission. We leave no-one, no-one, alive on the field when we
retreat. I will not have the details of the evacuation of Mona given
to the inquisitors of Rome. Anyone who cannot be brought back
will bleed their last on mountain soil.'

He looked around. Nobody moved. 'Good. Those who are not here at the meeting of the shadows will be left behind. If you find that, after all, you cannot stomach my command, you can choose
to remain with Tethis. The rest, I will see here shortly.'

Three warriors out of six hundred chose to remain with Tethis and
take part in the defence of Mona. The remainder crossed the
straits to the mainland with Valerius. Mounted on the far side, they ranged behind him in close order and kept his war-hound banner in view, but they lacked the order and discipline of the
Roman cavalry and Valerius yearned for the clear battlefield
communications of his past.

The bay mare he rode was one of their best, for which he was
grateful. An ex-cavalry mount stolen in an earlier raid, she
stretched her back and came lightly into hand and pricked her ears
towards the campfire smoke in the distance. She had the feel of
speed and a love of battle and Valerius loved her for it.

He crooned and scratched her neck for encouragement and
pushed her forward up the first real incline of the mountain. The
afternoon yawned towards evening, warm for the time of year.
The morning's mist had lifted. Heather, not yet in bloom, covered
the steepening slope. Below a certain line, the ferns unfurled, ready
for spring. A skylark lifted high above the rock-strewn peak of the
mountain, singing into the waiting silence.

The waiting silence.

Valerius slowed the mare and lifted his hand. The young Siluran
slinger who had first brought news of Braint's capture rode at his
right hand, bearing the banner.

Valerius said, 'We split the force here. Can you remember the
signal?'

'Of course.' The boy was named Huw. He was related distantly
to Caradoc on his mother's side, and tetchily proud of it.

The signal was a simple one; a youth could not learn the complex
signalling of the Roman cavalry in a morning. Huw waved the
banner once, sunwise. The grey of its background merged with the
grey of the sky so that the war hound spun and danced as if alive.

At the sight of it, Valerius' group divided into two; the larger
part rode on under the command of a badger-haired warrior of the
Durotriges, heavy with kill-feathers and the marks of war.
Breaking into a canter, they passed along the foot of the mountain,
in a line that would bring them, curving, to the valley's mouth.

Thirty warriors remained with Valerius. At least in part, they
made an effort to conceal themselves.

'Have they seen us?'

Whatever his heritage, Huw was anxious and trying to conceal
it. His were the skills of ambush, not open warfare.

Valerius' attention had been on his hound, which ranged a little
ahead. Still watching it, he said, 'Of course. They are meant to. If
we're lucky, I have been recognized. If we're twice lucky, a man I
once knew is still leading the Ala Prima Thracum. If we are lucky
beyond all reason, he will remember a tactic I once used to rescue
a standard-bearer who had been taken captive by the Silures in the
southern mountains.'

'Then if he remembers it. . . ?'

'He may believe that I will use it a second time here. In which
case, we can tell where he will direct his men. Or he may be more
clever than that, in which case we are all riding to our deaths. Did
you want to turn back?'

'No!' The boy flushed hotly. 'I would never turn back.'

'Unless I order it, which I may well do . . .' Valerius narrowed his
eyes, shielding them against the watery sun. 'Do you suppose that's
a signal fire up on the hillside, or just the mist setting early for
evening?'

It was a signal fire, seen equally by both sides, but, with luck, not
read equally by each.

The valley in which Braint was held was arrow-shaped, with its tip to the north. There, two steep-sided mountain ridges came together to form the blind end of the arrow's point. At its southern
end, the mouth was wide enough to take a hundred horsemen
ranged in a line abreast, with a spear's length between.
Between, the land was flat, as if a river had once scoured it, and
almost clear of boulders, so that horsemen could gallop hard without
fear for the safety of their mounts. Longinus had picked his site
well and had camped in the open where no troops could come at
him without warning. Throughout the morning, Mona's scouts
had reported that the auxiliaries' tents were huddled in a cluster
one third of the way in from the wider, southern end as they had
been at Braint's capture. Amongst other things, the signal fire
confirmed them still there.

Valerius urged his cavalry mare up the hill towards the northern
point of the valley. His band of thirty followed in single file, leaving
a gap from nose to tail. From above, for those expecting to see it,
they could look like a cavalry patrol, riding under column orders,
making every effort not to be seen.

A rockfall blocked the path. Valerius halted in the shelter of it,
unable to see the mountaintop, or be seen from it.

Huw was at his side, pale and very still. His sling hung from his
hand, a forgotten appendage. His pouch of pebbles bulged.

Valerius said, 'Braint has been seen and is alive; the smoke would
have been black if she were dead. So we go on, as we planned.
Huw, give the standard to me and your horse to Nydd.'

Nydd was of the Ordovices and several years older than Huw,
but his hair was the same dense, highland black and his tunic, by
design, carried the same green flash at the shoulders and hem.

The horse that changed hands was a flashy grey with black points;
by far the most easily noticed by watching cavalry riders who valueds horses above gold or women. Eceni-bred, it was branded on the off
side shoulder with the mark of the serpent-spear. If Longinus still
retained the services of the Batavian scout who could read the battle honours on a legionary standard at a thousand paces, then he would
know that the warriors who rode with Valerius' standard were all
mounted on the best that Mona could provide. If he remembered anything,
he would remember the reasons for that.

'Huw, do you remember the signals and how to act on them?'

'Of course.'

'What do you do if the enemy cavalry attack you before we have
freed Braint?'

'I run back to here, take the spare horse and escape. Under no
circumstances must I allow myself to be caught because you don't
want to have to do all this again tomorrow for a slinger whose
courage exceeds his discretion.' He was a good mimic; he sounded
almost like Valerius. Anger and affronted pride had brought the
colour back to his cheeks, and he looked less sick.

Valerius smiled. 'Very good. Braint's life depends on you. I trust
you can do it.'

The Silures were renowned for their skills as trackers and
hunters. Huw set his jaw and wrapped the strings of his sling more
carefully round his wrist. 'I know what you did and who you
were,' he said. 'I am doing this for Braint. I won't fail her.'

The boy became a smudge of green and brown among the
heather and then less than that. A short, sweating wait later, a
small stone, less than might have been dislodged by a settling crow,
cracked onto the rocks above Valerius' head to show he was in
place and had, if nothing else, remembered the first of his orders.

Nydd held the standard. To him, Valerius said, 'Keep beside me,
ride where I ride. If we are attacked, I will defend you. If the war
hound falls, we have no way to signal to Huw and he will die.
If he dies, Braint dies to the inquisitors at the fortress. Do you
understand?'

Nydd was older than Huw, and had fought more battles. He did
not flush. 'I have killed enough Roman standard-bearers. I know
what happens when they fall.'

'Good. Let's go.'

Valerius led his column out from the rock cover and felt the
watching eyes more keenly than before. There was satisfaction in
their touch, tinged with disappointment that he should repeat old
manoeuvres; Longinus expected better of him than that.

They climbed steeply north along a goat track too narrow for
any sane rider. At a certain point, where the bracken ceased to
unfurl, they dismounted and led the horses over rock that even the
goats chose not to attempt. Two of the older Silures had lived in
these mountains as children; their memories of youthful dares were
the foundation of Valerius' plan. His relief in finding their
memories sound lasted him most of the climb up the mountain.

They reached the top, where the two ridges met at the valley's
point, and, for the first time, looked down into the open plain
spread out below. The path down was as unappealing as the one
up and the drops on either side were terrifying in their steepness.

When all thirty warriors had joined him and remounted Valerius
said, 'Nydd, let the standard fall to the east and then bring it up
again. Make it look as if it has slipped and you have caught it.'
The standard-bearer did as he was bid, neatly. For the space of
ten breaths, there was peace. The horses shifted a little under their
riders, finding safer footing. A crow circled and landed on a
stunted, wind-blown oak. Valerius' war hound whined and snuffed
the air. Then a horse screamed, not one of Mona's, and out of the
peace came, briefly, chaos, and then pandemonium.

At the far southern end of the pass, nearly six hundred warriors
rode line abreast into the mouth of the valley. Because Longinus
had, indeed, remembered the strategy of the past, a full wing of five
hundred Thracian cavalry were waiting for them. The clash as the
two came together carried across the straits to Mona.

On the high mountain, above the carnage but not beyond the
noise, Valerius raised his hand. He waited a moment, offering
prayers to both of the gods who held his heart, and swung it down.

'Let's go.'

Above everything else, the warriors of Mona knew how to ride.
Their horses were as sure-footed as any in the world and they lived
for war. If need demanded, they could gallop down a mountain and
not break a leg. Valerius' bay cavalry mare was branded from
Iberia, and she was as good. He set her to the steep slope down
and, for a while, there was nothing to be done but lose himself in
the vertiginous incline of the path and the need for speed and the
improbability of reaching the valley's floor alive. The closer they
came to the foot of the mountain, the fewer stones blocked their path and the faster they were able to go until all thirty were riding
line abreast along the valley's floor, far behind the lines of battle,
and the horses were racing for the joy of it.

Valerius pushed his mare until her mane flagged back in his face
and his eyes streamed with the wild wind of their running. His
heart matched the rhythm of the gallop, wild with elation, and he
shouted encouragement, reminding the mare of the greatness of her
forebears and of the foals she would one day carry. Once, as a
child, he had dreamed of this, or something close, and the
exultation filled him each time. However jaded, however drunk,
however careworn or weighed with responsibility, for the duration of each battle's ride Valerius of the Eceni was free and the world
was at war without him.

The tents of the cavalry were ahead, five lines with the officers'
tents closest to the mouth of the valley. The scouts believed that
Braint was held in one of them, but none had seen which.

Valerius had dismounted before his mare had stopped running.
His blade was already naked in his hand.

Warriors ran to join him, ready to kill the guards. There were
none; Longinus rarely squandered the lives of his men. Valerius
used his belt-knife to cut the side of the largest of the officers' tents,
slicing up and across so that a triangle of white fell inwards and he
could step through. The inside was not lit; he stepped out of daylight
into gloom. There were no guards here, either, which
surprised him.

A figure lay prone against the far side, chained at wrist and ankle
with the loops fixed to an oak log too heavy for two men to lift.
'Braint?'

Valerius ran to her, and knelt. She turned her head, stiffly. They
had not beaten her as he had been beaten, but she had fought them
and someone had used the flat edge of his blade on her face; the
angry cut sliced up and across and would scar her for life, if she
lived long enough for it to heal that far. Afterwards, they had
knocked her unconscious at least once. An angry bruise grew from
the side of her temple, and closed her left eye.

Unthinking, Valerius reached out to touch it. She jerked back out
of his reach. Her open eye raked him, full of scorn. 'You! I thought
Tethis might come. I'm glad she has more sense. It's a trap, do you
not know that?'

Valerius nodded cheerfully. Here, in the heart of action, he was
free and could carry the sting of her hate. 'Of course. I would be
disappointed if it weren't. Longinus was always the best mind in
the cavalry.'

He looked up. A smith of the Cornovii had followed him in,
bearing a hammer and forged chisel with the point hardened in
charcoal fires. To him, Valerius said, 'Cut the staple at the log. The
manacles will take too long.'

Any time was too long and waiting was torture. The sound of
the hammer chimed over the more distant turmoil resounding from
the mouth of the valley - and then changed, suddenly. The smith
grunted satisfaction.

'Gone.'

He was a big man. He lifted Braint as if she were a child. Her
chains clattered around her, still tying her wrists and ankles. She
twisted her head to look back.

'Valerius, you can't--' Never in the history of Mona had the
Warrior been carried alive from the field of battle. Better to die
than be so dishonoured.

Valerius said, 'There's no time to cut you free. You can go out
across the horse. Nydd will take you to safety. If you have to go to
Mona like this, at least you're still alive.'

Nydd was outside, holding the reins of the bay cavalry mare
alongside his own grey. These two were the best horses on Mona;
solid and fast and able to take care of a rider. Without ceremony,
the smith slung Braint across the bay's saddle.

Valerius said, 'Hold the girth strap if you have to. It'll be a fast
ride out.'

Braint spat at him. 'If I die like this, unable to fight, I'll wait for
you for all time in the lands of the dead.'

'You won't be alone.'

Valerius lifted his hand to slap the bay mare's rump - and
stopped, as a flash of sun on armour caught his eye.

He turned. South, the valley was a mass of several hundred cavalry
riders who had suddenly found themselves alone on a
battlefield that had once been thick with warriors. As fast as they
had come, the warriors of Mona who had charged the valley's
mouth had melted back into the mist and the heather and the
scrubby oak thickets. Fearful of ambush, the cavalry had not
ridden out, but had turned back, to close for a second time the trap
they thought secure. These were men who knew how to make a
line and hold it, without being ordered. They rode slowly and
steadily towards their own tents, a solid bank of horseflesh
and metal.

'They're coming.' Nydd said it quietly. His gaze flicked back and
forth. 'They're blocking the valley all the way across.'

'I know. But they think you're going to try to break through the
line and go south and you're not. Ride north and don't look back.
Your horse can make it back up that hill; most of theirs can't. And
whatever you do, don't drop the standard. We need to know when
you're safe.'

Valerius slapped both horses and felt them start away from him,
like the first strides in a race. On either side, two dozen warriors
hesitated, watching the incoming cavalry; they were not used to
being told to flee in the face of the enemy.

Valerius swung his arm forward as he had done so often, leading
a cavalry charge. 'Go! All of you. To the north and to Mona. Go!'

The two dozen warriors kicked their mounts from a standstill to
a gallop. Circling Nydd, Braint and the smith, they raced north, to
freedom, using their bodies as living shields. Their horses were not
racing for honour and victory now, but for their lives, flat to the
ground, as fast as blood and straining flesh could take them. They
knew the route, having ridden it in; each warrior had marked a
clear path out and was committed to ride it or die.

Two died, caught by thrown spears. Valerius heard them fall and
chose to believe that neither was Nydd or Braint; he had no time
to look. He was left with six warriors and they faced the advancing
wall of Thracian cavalrymen.

Valerius watched them come, counting the heartbeats. Twenty
for Nydd and Braint to reach the foothills of the mountain. A
dozen more for the blood-red banner of the war hound to be high
enough that Huw might see it and use his sling to signal once
again. Less than that for the auxiliary to reach him. Braint was no
longer their first concern. They were watching Valerius. He was
unmounted, an easy target.

'Here. Valerius. Get up.'

He had asked for a loose horse to be caught without expecting
it to happen. Nevertheless, someone passed him the reins of a roan
gelding that had run from the carnage at the valley's mouth. It was
black with sweat and bleeding from a shallow wound to its chest,
but still willing.

With his eyes on the oncoming riders, Valerius whistled to make
it run and the six warriors who followed him and the hundreds of
auxiliaries he had once commanded watched him make the cavalry
mount from the ground onto a running horse and were reminded
that here was something exceptional.

Then, doubting their senses, the horsemen of the Ala Prima
Thracum saw their former commander swing his arm high and
bring it down and heard the war cry of Mona howl from his throat
as he led his handful of warriors directly towards them.

We will be the distraction that allows Braint to escape. If we
make the arrow of Mona and ride hard, we may break through
their line, but I make no promises. Those who remain with me are
least likely of all to survive.

So Valerius had said before they left Mona and, against all
expectation, four women and two men had offered to remain with him while Braint was taken to safety. They followed him now, as
tightly disciplined as any Roman-trained cavalry, and he led them
towards the only weak spot in the enemy line, a gap of less than a
horse's width between the standard-bearer and the armourer,
whom he recognized of old: the man had never yet ridden sober
into combat.
This one man's inattention let them through. Horseflesh
cannoned on horseflesh as the broad edge of Valerius' living wedge
met the line of the enemy. Blades struck blades and iron sang and
sparks crested high above and two men died and neither a warrior
of Mona. They burst into open ground and Valerius swung his arm
and they moved into line abreast and raced south, for their lives,
and the open mouth of the valley.

Which was no longer open, and perhaps had never been. Long
before they reached it, Longinus was there, with the other half of
his troop, closing the trap on the trap on the trap. A string of
cavalry was lined up across the valley. They were more than a
hundred with less than a spear's length between them and each
man was stone cold sober; not one of these was about to let him
through.

'Halt!' Forgetting himself, Valerius flung up his arm. Responding
to a cavalry command they had seen but never learned, six
warriors pulled their sweating, blowing horses to a halt.

'Valerius! Their officer is riding your horse!'

It was Madb who spoke, a wild Hibernian woman with slate
grey hair and the bright eyes of a jackdaw who fought for Mona
because she chose to, not because her land was under threat. The
spare horse had come from her, and the protection now at Valerius'
back. He had never fought at her side before and regretted it.

Valerius held his new mount steady and looked where her blade
pointed. He had seen it already, had known it, possibly, for
months, but it did no harm to look as if the news were fresh and
welcome.

The other five warriors held their horses steady to watch. They
were outnumbered hundreds to one and there was nowhere to go
and, in any case, the notoriety of the pied horse that had been
Valerius' mount had reached far beyond the ranks of the cavalry.
Its anger and ferocity in combat were legend, vented as much
against its rider as against the enemy, except at the peak of battle
when horse and rider fought as one. It emerged from the mass of
the oncoming cavalry, running hard towards Valerius. Madb's
indrawn breath was only the closest, not the loudest or the most
heartfelt.

What could be said of the Crow-horse but that it was perfection
on four legs? Splashed white on black, it was as if the gods had
poured liquid snow onto the blanket of the night and both were
perfect in their purity. Cleaned now for battle, it ran for Longinus
with the same bloody-minded dedication as it had for Valerius, and
for the first time the man who had thought himself its only master
saw how it must have looked to others, and was left silent and
unwatchful in the heart of the enemy, disabled by the pain of its
loss.

Aloud, he said, 'I have your mother. She is on Mona, in foal one
last time to a sire who might be the match of yours. She would be
proud of you.'

'Move!'

Madb pushed him, and so saved his life. The spear that had been
aimed for his throat clattered spent on the ground and skidded into
a tent.

'Hold!' Longinus, too, threw up his arm and the singularius who
had hurled the spear lowered his second weapon, slowly.

'Valerius! I wasn't sure you'd come.' Longinus clicked his tongue
and the Crow-horse trotted forward, as if on parade. It had always
loathed parades. Brought neatly to a halt, it stood squarely
between the cavalry and the warriors of Mona, facing Valerius.
Foam dripped from its bit and its white-rimmed eyes were full of
hate, but they had been like that since it was a weanling. Valerius
had no idea if it knew who he was.

Longinus, of all men, knew exactly who he was, all the many
layers that made him. He himself was unchanged; still the reckless,
god-blessed officer who had risked his life to free his soul-friend
from the inquisitors, the man who had ridden alongside Valerius in
battle for ten years, the man with whom he had bet and won and
lost too often to count, the man who rode helmetless into battle
with his tawny hair flying free to his shoulders, russet as a rutting
stag. His eyes were the striking amber of a hawk and as piercing.
There was warmth in them still, amongst the disappointment and
impending loss.

Once, when their friendship was new, Valerius had bet this man
that he could not stand on rotting ice for fifty heartbeats. They had
counted by Longinus' heart, which had beat faster, and so he had
won. Valerius' heart beat the faster now. His borrowed horse,
quivering, felt it and was ready.

Sixty heartbeats had passed since Nydd had reached the summit
of the ridge and dipped the standard towards the setting sun.
Nothing had come of it yet, and may never do.

'Congratulations. I never thought you'd find the courage to ride my
horse. Has he ever bitten your shoulder?' Valerius eased his own
mount forward, close enough almost to touch. On either side, eight
auxiliaries unsheathed their blades and made it clear that a further
step towards their decurion would be Valerius' last on this earth.

The remaining warriors of Mona grouped together, except for
Madb who kept at Valerius' side, grinning. He felt safe in her
presence. She had an instinct for danger that kept more than just
herself alive in battle.

She pressed close to Valerius' left shoulder and, as his heart beat
for the hundredth time since Nydd had spun the standard, he felt
her stiffen and turn her head a fraction to the left. Too low for anyone
else to hear, she said, 'They're here. Well done. I thought they'd
leave you.'

'They might yet. Don't look up.' Valerius took care not to raise
his eyes. Louder, to Longinus, he said, 'You are about to ask for
our surrender?'

'I would if I didn't think I'd be wasting my breath. Would you give it?'

'Six of us against five hundred is not encouraging odds, but then
certain death in battle might be preferable to imprisonment at the
hands of Rome, particularly for a traitor who is known to have
spent the winter on Mona.'

'It certainly would. You should have escaped with the woman
you freed.'

'Possibly, but then I would not have seen you ride the Crow
horse and my life would be the poorer for it. What would you do
in my place?'

Longinus grinned. Always, in his smile, there had been challenge
and invitation. He reached for his sword and held it out flat. The
weapon was Gaulish, made for his reach and his weight, with the
crescent moon of the Thracian god embedded in silver in the hilt
and the blade worked in the old style, with sinuous lines of blued
iron weaving down its length. In the haze of the evening, it
glimmered like flat water under moonlight.

Raising his brows, Longinus said, 'I would fight - what else are
we for?' His blade was his invitation. 'We have never truly tested
each other and it seems to me that you are no longer the mess I
believed you to be last summer. My men won't interfere if you
want to test your blade against mine this one last time. You never
know, you might win.'

Valerius made a half-salute. 'I would accept, but if you lift your
blade further, you will die, which would be a pity. The warriors
behind you on the mountain are the best slingers of Mona and you
are easily within range. I'm sorry; their orders were clear and I have
no way to change them from here. If you surrender now, you will
not be harmed. Otherwise they will target the first to raise a blade
against us.'

He spoke in Latin, loud enough for at least the front ranks of the
cavalry to hear. Men who had been relaxed, awaiting the ritual of
single combat, looked up and to both sides. Coarse curses in Latin
and Thracian scattered through the first ranks and then those
behind until, abandoning discipline, the whole wing had spun to
face the valley walls.

Valerius raised his arm in one final signal and a glittering wave
of sunlit armour appeared on either side as warrior after warrior
moved their mounts to the crests of the mountains. They were the
greater mass of Valerius' warriors, less only those who had died in
the first clash at the valley's mouth. Melting back from the battle,
they had taken new positions, awaiting the small signal of a slung
Pebble to say that Braint was free. Receiving it, they followed the
last of their orders so that, like crows on a tree, silently, they lined
the ridges from north to south on both sides of the valley without
a break. Across the valley's mouth, ranks of waiting warriors
made a wall as solid as any rock.

Longinus alone did not look up. The yellow hawk's eyes fixed
pensively on Valerius. 'How many?' he asked.

'Six hundred. We outnumber you by one hundred horse. I
thought it enough. They command the valley; there is no way out.
You're surrounded and outnumbered. In such circumstances,
there's no dishonour in surrender and we have no inquisitors on
Mona. You will be given the option to fight for us if you wish.
Already, we have a handful of Batavians and a Gaul who ride at
our side. If you do not wish to join them, your deaths will be clean
and fast.'

Longinus had never lacked courage. Grinning, he said, 'So you
are really not the mess we both thought. I'm glad.'

'Longinus, that's not the point, you have to choose. Your men
will do as you do, you know that. If you-- No!'

Lightning fast, the moon-marked blade struck for Valerius' head.
By instinct alone, he blocked it, and felt the shock run through him
to his horse. Iron sang on iron as he ripped his own blade sideways
Sparks flew, lighting the air. A dozen slingstones showered around
him and two auxiliaries fell. 'Longinus! Don't be a fool. You can't
run from a sling-- Ah, gods, why did I ever leave you my horse?
Let's go.'

He spoke above a hammering of running horses. The Crow-horse had never allowed its rider to be bested in battle. With or
without Longinus' command, it had spun on its hocks, high out of
danger, and sprung away, heading south. True to their training, the
men and mounts of the Ala Prima Thracum followed it.

Valerius followed, on a horse that was slower and already
wounded, but still gave him its heart. Madb urged her mount
alongside his, making of herself the shield at his shoulder, and
together they hurtled south, following the fleeing Longinus who
was heading directly for a solid wall of Mona's warriors, led by
Nydd, who had remembered everything he had been told.


XXXI.

THE CLASH OF IRON AND HORSEFLESH AND HUMAN BLOOD AND bone shook the earth to the nape of the valley.

Valerius of the Eceni, once decurion of the Ala Prima
Thracum, had lived through many nightmares and found each to
be less than the fear he had built. Fighting hand to hand, blade to
blade, against men he had led and for whom he had cared, was not
the least of these, but also not the greatest. As ever, the exhilaration
of battle fired him; the power of the moment and the overwhelming
need to survive did not allow time for regret. As never before,
he rode understanding the gods who filled him; Nemain's clarity
joined with Mithras' savage power and he loved them both and his
life within them and knew that if he died now, he could be at peace.

He fought, too, with Madb, a shield-mate who kept him safe and
for whose life he cared and that was something he had missed for
so long he had forgotten how it felt. He raised his borrowed blade
and pushed his borrowed horse forward and the war hound ran at
his side as it was born to do and he remembered that he, who
would be a dreamer, was nevertheless a warrior and that life would
not be complete without both.

The air was dense with man-sweat and woman-sweat and horse
sweat and spittle and soon with an ocean of blood and sliding guts
that made the footing unsafe and required a new dimension of
watchfulness. Valerius chose his man: a stranger with one blue eye
and one brown who rode a bay mare that was trained to strike. It
aimed for Valerius' roan, who jinked sideways, leaving the mare off
balance and the rider with it, so that Valerius could strike for the
gap beneath the rim of his helmet and cleave open a living brow to
the dying brain beneath. He had time to wrench his blade clear
of the toppling body, and the roan horse clear of the mare's next
strike, before the battle moved on.

On his right, Madb wounded a Thracian whom Valerius thought
he recognized. To his left, the shield side, a woman of the Coritani
with the kill-feathers bunched heavy in her hair missed her stroke
and was nearly beheaded by a man Valerius did know. She fell from
her horse, dead before she could scream. Priscus, keeper of mirrors,
grinned savagely and turned on Valerius and was, in turn, slain
by the woman's lover, who, howling, drove his horse broadside
into the cavalryman's gelding, crushing its ribs. His blade shattered
Priscus' helmet with the force of his strike.

Valerius felt his horse rise under him and made it come down
because the cavalry were trained to gut horses that rose high to
strike and it was not a time to lose his mount. He struck back
handed at the man who was already leaning down to cut at the
blue roan's belly. He felt the blow land unevenly and then his hand
became weightless as his borrowed sword broke. Cursing, he
dragged his horse back.

'Here!'

The lover of the dead Coritani dipped down from his saddle,
grasped her blade and threw it in one movement. Yesterday, he
would have gutted Valerius with it, tomorrow he might do so
again; today, they fought together against a greater enemy. Valerius
caught the hilt and saluted and took a swipe under his arm for his
inattention so that only his horse's jink to the left kept him alive
and let Madb kill his attacker.

'We should strike down their standard!'

The Hibernian woman howled it over the tumult of battle. As
much as Valerius, she was enjoying herself. She grinned and struc
and forced her mount into the place where the fallen man had been.

Ahead, in the heart of the maelstrom, the red bull standard of the
Ala Prima Thracum lolled on an idle breeze. Longinus fought
nearby, riding tall on the Crow-horse, safe in the god-haven where
mount and rider have long since become one. If he died now, he
would count himself blessed. Valerius, who had been in his place,
knew it.

'Come on!'

The gap was closing and Valerius not yet through. Madb
drove for the fluttering standard. She was his shield-mate;
honour demanded Valerius follow. He sent his horse forward
halfheartedly.

In battle, the half-hearted are soon dead. Three men, seeing his
inattention, struck for Valerius' unwary guard so that only a lifetime
of reflexes saved him - and Braint, freed from her fetters and
riding a rip tide of battle rage that scattered all before her.
With Nydd at her side, she burst through on Valerius' right,
killing with the recklessness of one who no longer cares for life or
love. Her aim, very plainly, was Longinus; the man who had taken
her captive. She wanted his life above all others.

There was no way to stop them. Valerius had only time to lift a
hand to his mouth and shout, 'Longinus!' so that at least the man
would see whence came his death, and then they were on him, one
from either side, freshly mounted and freshly armed, fighting a
man who was neither of these and bound to be slower because of
it, however great his skill and his horse.

The Crow-horse believed itself immortal, and may have been
right. Valerius was not the only one to pause and watch as it rose,
screaming, to meet Braint's mount. The mind-splitting noise of its
cry, the sheer undiluted hatred, stopped men and women in their
own private battles.

For a moment, there was quiet in the carnage, long enough for
Valerius to see the Crow-horse rear and swing and strike and
Longinus to follow the flow of it with a beauty to awe the gods;
for him to see Braint evade the strike with heart-breaking ease and
then to see her strike in return, and to hear the unmistakable clash
of iron on mail with the crush of bone beneath.

'Longinus!' Valerius screamed it alone as the battle was rejoined
around him. The sound was lost; one more note in a tumult of
shouting, screaming beasts and warriors, and Valerius did not
know he had uttered it until Madb threw him a fresh shield, taken
from a dying warrior, and shouted, 'You'll have him yet! They
can't get to his body. Your mad bloody horse won't let them near.'
It might have been true. Valerius neither knew nor had the
energy to care. He fought because he must, because it was what he
was born for, because his gods, both Nemain and Mithras,
demanded it of him and he was not yet ready to face them having
failed to honour their requests, but the day had become dust-driven
and shrunken and he killed without joy, heartlessly, and hated it.

The warriors of Mona outnumbered the cavalrymen of the Prima
Thracum by one hundred horse and they were buoyed by Braint's
return in exactly the same measure as the Thracians wer
demoralized by Longinus' fall. The battle was brutal and short and
forty-eight living Thracians surrendered their weapons at the end.

Valerius took no part in the securing of the prisoners or the
stripping of the dead. Before the battle ended, he had dismounted
and stood ankle deep in heather just beyond range of the Crow-horse. White with sweat and bleeding from half a dozen shallow wounds, the pied horse still stood over Longinus' prostrate form as
a hound stands over a fallen warrior, and would let no-one near.

'You'll have to kill the beast if you want your man's body.'

Madb sat her horse nearby, keeping watch on Valerius' back. She
had saved him twice towards the end of the battle and he had not
yet thanked her. A part of him knew that time was passing and it
would soon be too late to do so with any integrity. The greater part
of him had eyes only for the pied horse standing opposite, and the
man lying half prone beneath its feet.

He had seen a movement of Longinus' chest; only once and not
recently, but enough to hang hope on. He found himself prayingto
Briga, to whom he was not and had never been given, but who
ruled the deaths of battle. Crows took his words and carried them
and he felt himself heard.

Madb was still watching him. She said, 'Valerius, did you hear
me? The horse is mad, or inspired by the gods. You're going to
have to cut its throat if you want to get close to your friend.'

'If you think you can get near enough to kill it, you're welcome.'

The woman barked a laugh. Her voice was deep and rich and
resonant and the sound was strange in all the death and wounding.
She said, 'Do I look as if I want to die? I was thinking you could
ask Huw to use his sling. He's strangely in awe of you; he'd
probably do it.'

'Would a stone kill him?' Valerius stooped for a pebble and
tossed it close to Longinus. The Crow-horse snaked its head at
him, ears flat and mouth wide. It ignored the pebble. Stepping a
half-stride closer, Valerius said, 'It might work, but Huw's too soft
to do it. He'd spend the rest of his life reliving the day he killed the
greatest war mount ever to set foot on the earth. I wouldn't ask
that of any man. They sing of this horse as they sing of Hail. I
know. I've heard the songs.'

Madb said, 'So have I. They say it's evil.'

She was testing him, as she had tested him in the battle. Her
jackdaw's eyes watched him, brightly. Valerius shook his head.
'No. They say the man who rode it is evil.'

'Are they right?'

'I don't know. You spent the afternoon's battle saving his life.'
Valerius dragged his gaze from the horse. 'Did you know who I
was?'

He had not looked at her properly since the end of battle. She was
bruised down one side of her face where the edge of a shield
had caught her. It would blacken overnight and leave her half dark
for a month. Her left wrist was swollen enough to be sprained
and would need binding soon if it were not to stiffen. She sat
her horse as if each of these was normal for her, and looked down at
him pensively.

'Of course I knew. How could I not? You don't need a red hound
painted on grey to show who you are, it's stamped on every part of
you. "Valerius of the Eceni." The man who fights for both sides
and loves neither. Except it seems he does love one part of one side
after all. Did he know?'

'Longinus? Possibly once. Not now.'

'Then you'd best get to him to tell him before Braint decides four
dozen live Thracians are not enough of a prize and she wants a
head on a stake to show Rome what fate awaits it.' Madb pursed
her lips, appraising. 'I saw you show off your skill at the warrior's
mount very prettily this afternoon. It's easy on a willing horse,
harder on one trying to kill you. Could you do it now, do you
think, if I had the beast's attention?'

'We could find out.'

It was the only real chance and Valerius had been working
towards exactly that since the battle ended. Spoken openly, it
became harder to think of. His palms were wet. He rubbed them
dry on his tunic.

The Crow-horse felt the sharpening of his attention and spun
fully to face him. Its flanks heaved and its nostrils flared scarlet,
dragging in air. Its tail slashed, violent as a wildcat's. Its eyes were
red-rimmed with dust and rage and the loathing of being
surrounded. More than any other living beast, it understood the
ebb and flow of battle. Never while Valerius rode it had it been on
the losing side in more than a skirmish and never in all of its life
had it been taken captive.

Valerius would not believe that it was evil, only that it hated
him. He wanted to believe that it had hated Longinus as deeply
and, by the same token, that it would have protected Valerius as
savagely if he had ever fallen in battle. He began to speak to it in
the language of the ancestors, that he had used in the beginning
when he and the beast had newly met, when he had first made the
warrior's mount in front of a blood-hungry circus crowd, with it
the freshly broken colt brought in for barter and he the slave-boy
trying to escape. He had loved the beast then, and had thought it
could come to love him. Half his life had passed waiting for that to happen.

He tossed another pebble and the horse ignored it entirely. He
cast a handful towards Longinus' fallen body and was sure he saw
a shudder. Valerius wrapped the thread of his hope around that
certainty and, with every fraction of his attention on the beast that
sought his life, he edged inwards, speaking lullabies in the tongue
of the ancestors. Halfway through, in Hibernian, he said, 'I needit
to turn to my right and take a step forward.'

Madb was a moving thing on the edge of his vision. Her voice
was a rolling wave on the sea. She said, 'Does it know what a spear
is?'

'It did when I rode it.'

'Good. Here then, horse of all hate, shall we see now, are you all
that they say?'

The blur of her movement wove into the screaming spin of the
Crow-horse as it flung itself towards the new danger - and drew
Valerius with it, as a wind draws leaves. Sucked by its power,
pulled by the lock of his attention, he leaped forward and up
for the saddle horn, throwing himself up on the rise of its rise,
swinging up and over and down to land square in the saddle, his
hands already reaching for the reins.

The Crow-horse felt him and knew itself cheated. Forgetting
Madb, it threw itself into a screaming, rearing, bucking frenzy. On
the first day he rode it, Valerius had watched a man nearly lose his
life to its rage. It was older now and fitter and more practised in
dislodging its riders. He felt the bunched muscle beneath him
explode into action, felt his body wrenched and his teeth clash and
blood gush from his tongue and knew that if it really tried, the
beast could crush him to pulp.

The horse felt the same, and knew how. It came back to earth
and there was a moment's stillness as it gathered itself inwards.
Valerius thought it might buck and grabbed a handful of mane to
hold himself by. Then he felt the hindquarters gather and thought
it might bolt and then the ground fell away and the sky tilted and
it was rearing high enough to touch the clouds, high enough to
throw itself backwards and crush the man on its back even if it
broke its own spine in the attempt.

It screamed as it had screamed at Braint so that the sound
shattered the sky and Valerius, knowing himself about to die,
screamed with it, giving vent to all a lifetime's pain and frustration
and exhilaration and devastation that no amount of killing in
battle, no depth of dreaming to the gods, would ever drain dry.

The sky did not fall. The horse did not topple and kill them both.
The birds of Briga, circling, cawed thrice and flew west and did not
take the souls of either man or horse.

The Crow-horse came back down to stand still on the earth,
shaking its head, and Valerius, deafened, sat on it drawing breath
after breath of sharp mountain air with tears scalding his face and
pooling in the crook of his collarbone and no idea why he shed them.

He became aware, slowly, that others were close. Madb was in
front of him, her spear held in a clear salute. Braint was with her,
fierce-eyed and silent, and Nydd and Huw and the smith and
others whose names he had once known and might know again,
but for now could not begin to remember.

To Madb, he said, 'Is Longinus still alive?'

'Of course. Would you not know if he were dead?'

'I thought perhaps I wept for him.'

'Did you so? Then you are more of a fool than I took you for.

He is alive and awake and his eyes are open. Get off your god-riven
horse and talk to him. And when you are finished, you can talk to
those who fought for you, not against you. You were right; this
was a diversion. Mona is under attack and Tethis holds the straits
with three thousand against four times that number. Only the
water and the good will of the gods keep Rome from the island.
Neither will last for ever.'

Some time later, Longinus Sdapeze, former decurion of the Ala
Prima Thracum, woke with a crashing headache.

Presently, when it became clear he was not about to die, he felt about him and then opened his eyes. The covered top of a wagon swayed pleasingly above his head, lit by a dawn sky. A brindled war
hound lay at his side, peaceably watchful. A lean, dark-haired man sat on the sprung seat of the wagon, blocking most of the light.

Longinus lay a while, studying the familiar, stubborn set of the back so that he knew the moment when his scrutiny had been felt.
He considered sitting up to ask at least one of the several pressing
questions rocking against the walls of his head, but the hound
stared at him until he thought better of it.

He slept a while and ate and was sick and drank water and slept
again. When he woke, it was dusk and the hound had gone. The sway of the wagon was the sway of the cradle and it was hard to stay awake. Forcing himself to sit, Longinus reached up to touch the shoulder of the man who had saved his life. 'Where are we going?'

'East.'

'Why?'

'Because your brains are turned to milk in your head and you
won't be fit to sit on a horse until they curdle again to the broth
you were born with.'
His brains had turned to milk and they made him sleep again,
unquestioning, so that it was halfway through the night before he
realized he had not been given an answer. The hound lay with him
then, keeping him warm.

At dawn, when they had not stopped, he asked, 'Valerius,
where's your horse?'

'What do you think is taking you forward?'

Longinus laughed and it hurt so he stopped. 'You're making the Crow-horse pull a wagon? Valerius! Are you entirely mad?'

'He's good at it. And I have the roan and your mare as well. Two
pull at any one time and one walks behind. In any case, I couldn't
leave him. Braint would have tried to ride him and he'd have killed
her, which would not have been good. She's needed to lead the
warriors in the defence of Mona.'

Sobered, Longinus said, 'They can't win, your warriors.
Suetonius Paulinus may be an appalling governor, but he's an
excellent general. He wouldn't have attacked if there were the
slightest chance he would lose.'

'He will gain Mona eventually,' agreed Valerius. 'It won't be this
month, or possibly even next; the Silures and Ordovices have
rallied and are attacking him from the rear, so that he can't throw
his weight at the straits, but still, I think you are right. He will have
the island by midsummer at the latest. He will not, however, walk
to it on the blood and flesh of those who have lived there. It's the
people that matter; the elders to hold the wisdom and the children
to hear it. Where they are, so is Mona, and they can be saved. All
we need is time. Braint and her warriors are buying that time with
their flesh and blood.'

Longinus was watching the planes of his face. He knew Valerius
as well as any man, possibly better than Valerius himself. At length,
with compassion, he said, 'And do you not want to be with the
warriors of Mona as they mount their defence?'

Valerius stared at his hound a while, and then at the horses
pulling the wagon and the path ahead. The soft rhythm of footfalls
might have lulled Longinus into sleep, but that the answer
mattered too much to both of them for that. Eventually, 'I want to
be with them more than I can possibly express,' Valerius said.

Longinus pushed himself forward, against nausea and the resistance
of his friend, to sit on the bench where the hound had been.
The Crow-horse was, indeed, pulling the wagon, which was, if
nothing else, a sign of its rider's desperate need to be moving. 'So
let me ask again. Why are we going east?'

Valerius sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose in the way
Corvus used to do when pressed beyond endurance. Without looking to the side, he said, 'I am going because Luain mac Calma, the man who claims to be my father and is Elder of Mona, has ordered
that I take word to my sister that it would be to the great benefit
of the gods and their people if the eastern tribes were to rise in
revolt while the assault on Mona is under way. I am sworn to
follow his wishes, or die in the attempt. You are going because I am
going and I was not prepared to leave you behind.'

They were close enough to feel each other's warmth and each
became aware of it. The wagon faltered and moved on again; the
Crow-horse had been ridden by both, and knew what moved them.
After a long while, Longinus said, 'And will we die in the attempt?'

At last, Valerius turned to face him. Surprisingly, his eyes were at
peace, and had room for the old, dry humour.

'I may do. You won't unless everything I have done or can do
fails. You kept the Crow-horse safe for me. Getting you killed
would be a poor repayment.'


XXXII.

THE TOMBSTONE WAS DELIVERED EARLY, BEFORE FIRST LIGHT. THE factor of the prefect's household was woken by a night slave
and, blearily irritable, ordered it left in the spartan enclave of
his master's office.

Quintus Valerius Corvus, prefect of the Ala Quinta Gallorum
and acting commander of Camulodunum, found it shortly after
dawn as he came to his paperwork, seeking an hour's peace before
the debilitating trivia of colonial governance began to take its toll.

He had heard the watch called twice before he thought to inspect
the stone he had so recently commissioned. He was studying it still,
an hour later, when his first visitor called.

'What do you think of it?'

Clean and sharp and scurrilous, the stone leaned against the
farther wall. The sackcloth hung over one edge; the prefect's
usually scrupulous tidiness had, this once, abandoned him.

Corvus spoke Alexandrian, for privacy and out of courtesy for
his guest and friend, the physician Theophilus, late of Rome, the
Germanies, Athens and Cos, and now of Britannia. Theophilus had
seen too many tombstones of late to find them absorbing and his
eyesight was not as good as it had once been. Still, for his friend's
sake, he leaned forward to study it.
After a while, he leaned back again. 'It's very . . . striking. What would you like me to think of it?'

'That Longinus would appreciate the humour, that it suits the
man as we knew him and that it will serve him well in death as he
served well in life.'

Theophilus nodded, sagely. 'Then, indeed, for your sake as much
as his, that is what I will think.' He crouched more closely and read
the lines incised on the stone.' "Longinus Sdapeze, son of Matycus,
duplicarius of the first squadron, the Ala Prima Thracum, et cetera,
et cetera . . . His heirs had this erected in accordance with his will." Did they indeed?' He looked up. 'I hadn't realized you were one of
his heirs. Who was the other?'

Corvus pinched the bridge of his nose. 'Valerius. Who else?'

'I see.' The physician's eyes were watery and kind, and still sharp
enough to see the gaps in another man's soul. Gently, he said, 'So,
in effect, you are the sole inheritor. Did our departed friend leave
you anything of worth?'

'Enough gold to have this monstrosity made - he picked the
mason so we can only assume he knew what was coming, which is
more than I did - and a certain pied war horse, if it survived him,
if I can find it amidst the wreckage of the governor's war when I
finally march west to join him, if, having found the beast, I can get
near it and if, having done all of these, I am stupid or reckless
enough to try to mount it.'

Theophilus rose with a creak of arthritic knees and came to
stand behind the prefect, kneading the man's shoulders with bony
fingers. The muscles softened, but not enough to diminish the
headache he could see growing before his eyes. He said, 'As your
physician, I would strongly recommend that you have that
particular horse poleaxed the moment you lay eyes on it, but I
don't expect that you will. Do I gather that you are going west
soon?'

'Very soon.' Corvus stretched his neck. 'Now that the snow is
clearing, I am ordered to take the three cohorts of new recruits and my cavalry wing west "with all possible facility". I gather the war
is not going to the governor's satisfaction. We should have
continued training here for another month. As it is, I'll leave the
day after tomorrow at dawn, if the weather holds.'

'Are they ready?'

'The men? No, but they're as ready as anyone ever is who has
never seen a dead man with his gonads cut from his groin and
jammed between his teeth and the kill-marks of Mona cut on his
brow and chest.' Corvus smiled savagely. 'The governor needs help
and we are all that he has. He'll win in the end, but he will lose
more than Longinus in doing so. Our Trinovante mason, meanwhile, occupies himself in making tombstones of striking vivacity,
if limited taste. If you look carefully at this morning's gift, you'll
see the cowering native under the feet of Longinus' horse is
possessed of a fully erect phallus.'

'And the smile of a man somewhat less than cowed. Thank you.
I rather thought it better not to notice either of those. The horse is
good, though; whatever else may be said of them, the natives have
a good eye for a horse.' Theophilus dropped the cover back over
the stone. 'You need fresh air. Shall we go-- Ah, alas not.' He tilted
his head in the direction of the disturbance at the doorway. 'Would
that be the procurator?'

Corvus' face took on the weariness of a man under siege. 'Who
else, making that much noise at this time in the morning? Will you
stay? I might need a witness when I kill him, to say that I was
driven to it out of fear for my own sanity.'

'Willingly.'

Theophilus settled himself to wait. In his opinion, Decianus Catus,
procurator of all Britannia, was a clerk and a money-counter who
would not have rated a second glance had not the emperor chosen to
make of him the second most powerful man in Britannia. Only the
governor had powers of absolute veto over the procurator's actions
and even those were used with discretion. Each of these two, governor
and procurator, had orders to succeed or die in the taming of
Britannia, and neither man was prepared have it said afterwards in
the senate that the other had hindered his efforts.

For a while, Theophilus had found it amusing to watch the
governor, leader of armies and subduer of nations, hedging round
a counting clerk as if the poisonous little man were a senator on
the road to the imperial throne. Watching Corvus forced into
increasingly harassed retreat by a man who should have drowned
in his mother's birth fluids and saved the world from his presence
was not amusing at all.

The physician turned from his inspection of the wall mosaics to
hear the end of a sentence.

'. . fully aware of the unfortunate disappearance of the
merchant Philus. However, until we either find him alive, or come
across his body, it is impossible to say how he died.'

'He was slain by Prasutagos and his barbarian filth.' The
procurator spoke with the hoarse, whispering force of one who has
coughed too much in early life.

Corvus was leaning on his desk, staring down at the splayed
whiteness of his fingers. 'Procurator Catus, the King Prasutagos
has been loyal since the first moment the Divine Claudius set foot
in this province. He escorted the imperial cavalcade personally into
Camulodunum. In any case, the Eceni were disarmed by force over
a decade ago. I think it highly unlikely that even their king could
rouse them to attack a group of armed slavers.'

'No?' The procurator's eyes flew wide. 'Then you are more of a
fool than I thought. If I didn't have an armed escort, I would have
died ten times over in the first month I was here. Everywhere we
go, they raise their "skinning knives" and look down the blades to
see if they are sharp enough to kill a man.'

'Everywhere you go, I'm sure they do.' Theophilus said it in
Alexandrian, peering at the bronze statuette of Horus on the small
shelf above the brazier as if he commented on the workmanship.
He saw a muscle in Corvus' cheek twitch and smiled, blandly.

A little hollowly, Corvus said, 'My point entirely, procurator.
The peace here is tenuous at best. We cannot begin to destroy
entire villages without due recourse to law. The emperor will not
thank me for setting alight the tinderbox of the east for the sake of
a man who has been mauled by a bear.'

'He was not mauled by a bear.'

'So you say. But if you wish me to act, you must find me not only
Philus' body, but also proof beyond doubt that he was killed by
human agency.'

'Of course.' The procurator smiled at the prefect and his friend,
the Greek physician. His voice slid over them both. 'Prefect, if you
will step outside? And you, physician? I believe your skills will
provide the proof the prefect needs.'

They should have seen it coming. Perhaps Corvus had, but there
was nothing he could have done to reverse it.

Outside, an unhitched ox cart waited in the part-thaw of morning, shrouded against prying eyes. It smelled, not unpleasantly, of
earth and melted ice and a little of hound's urine, as if a wandering
cur had lately marked the wheels. A century of armed men stood
behind it in military order: the procurator's veteran mercenaries.

The procurator stepped up on the wheel spokes with a surprising
agility and balanced on the edge of the cart, giving himself
the advantage of height. He stared down at Corvus, stone-faced.
'You will recall that the merchant Philus and two of those closest to
him wore at all times the badge of the leaping fish. Is that correct?'

'It is.'

Corvus was an officer of the cavalry. He had fought and killed
better men than this. Theophilus watched him set aside his
headache, which must by then have been fierce, and engage instead
an enquiring smile. 'You have located that badge?' he asked.

'Not the one belonging to Philus, but then it was of silver and
had some worth. But we have two others of copper and iron, which
were missed by the looters. They were found amongst the remains
of the men-at-arms who served Philus and died in an effort to save
his life. We were not able to bring them all back, but each is
accounted for, sworn in the presence of my men.'

A retired legionary whom Theophilus remembered as viciously
unsuited to leading any group of armed men stepped forward in a
clash of over-polished mail, saluted and, without request or
permission, said, 'Forty-three different bodies found. One dozen
natives, twenty-seven men-at-arms, four unidentifiable on account
of. . .'

Corvus' smile acquired the edge that any man who had ever
served under him should recognize. The legionary stuttered to a
close. Corvus' nod was devastatingly crisp. 'Thank you, Driscus,
we can imagine the rest.' Speaking over the man's head, he said,
'Procurator, you have the bodies with you?'

'Of course. I could not expect you to take my word for something
of this magnitude.'

The procurator had a liking for theatre and his men had been
drilled to the point of automation. He stepped down from the
wheel as neatly as he had stepped up. At his nod, Driscus clashed
forward to lift one corner of the canvas. Three others came to help.
The stripping away of the wagon's cover was achieved in a single,
clean manoeuvre. The procurator's men, it was to be understood,
were as finely disciplined as any still serving in the legions, if not
more so.

Theophilus had spent large parts of his career watching men like
Driscus uncover wagonloads of slain. Wearily, he waited for the
wall of stench to reach him - and waited - and presently realized
that it had done so and that he could relax because winter and the
carrion beasts had softened the smell to something mouldily sweet
and almost pleasant.

He leaned over the edge for a better look. Yellowing bones and
fragmented skulls lay joined and disjoined in a child's game of
tangled ligaments and dried, stringy human hide. Tatters of clothing
stuck here and there where the natives, the winter beasts and
the spring birds had not yet found better use for them. On the top,
lying ostentatiously on the curve of a clean-picked ribcage, lay two
leaping salmon, brilliant with rust and verdigris, so that only the
jewelled eyes were clean.

As was intended, they caught Theophilus' attention, so that it took a moment to look beyond, and see the thing that mattered more. He looked up. Corvus caught his gaze and shook his head so
that the physician closed his mouth over what he had been about to say and waited for a better time.

The procurator stood over them both. His breath smelled of old shellfish and was worse than the winter-cleansed dead. With the air of one educating infants, he said, 'I believe this . . .' he prodded
with a sheathed knife at a body, 'was Philus. His fish badge is gone,
but the skeleton has the small finger missing on its left hand, and a
healed break on the ankle, as he did. As to the rest, you will
observe that the bodies are unclothed. More importantly, no mail
or weapons were found in the clearing.' He grinned. His men
grinned with him, knowingly. They had heard this speech before,
more than once. 'In my experience, bears rarely make the effort to
strip their kills. Native insurgents always do.'

Corvus did not grin. Distractedly, he said, 'As do bandits and thieves. Theophilus, I will need details of how these men died, as
far as it can be ascertained from their bones.' He had mounted the
wagon's tailgate, the better to study its contents. The act gave him
back his advantage of height. 'Procurator, until we have a full
inventory of the bodies, including the means of death and as much
identification as we--'

'How much more identification can you need? Do you deny that
this is Philus?'

'. . . until we have full identification of the bodies that are not
Roman, until we have found the nature of the injuries to the dead
and had an opportunity to establish the identity of their
assailants--'

'Prefect, this is nonsense. Philus was last known to be with
Prasutagos. He is dead and all his men with him. At Driscus' best
estimate, there are at least two dozen sets of sword, shield and mail
unaccounted for. Therefore we not only have a nest of killers
festering in the stinking midden of "King" Prasutagos' steading,
but the beginnings of insurrection. How could you believe
otherwise?'

'Because Prasutagos, too, is dead.'

Rain had begun to fall. The patter of it on the roof tiles ripped
the silence. Corvus' smile was carefully neutral.

The procurator blinked at him, slowly. The white margins of his
nostrils became yellow with the pressure of his breathing. He said,
'How can you be sure?'

'I am sure of nothing, which is why I have requested that our
physician make an inventory, but I know of no other man who
wore the king-band of the Eceni on his only arm.' Corvus stepped
back a little. 'Theophilus? Would you confirm for me that the
skeleton lying behind Philus has had the right arm amputated
above the elbow in early adulthood, and that until very recently,
something with bronze or copper end pieces lay about the remaining
left arm?'

A minor miracle enabled Theophilus to keep his face straight.
He murmured, 'Nicely done,' in Alexandrian, and then leaned
forward to smear a finger across the copper-green stains on the
upper arm of 'Tagos' skeleton and then again on the ribcage
against which that arm had rested. Even those at the margins of
the crowd could see the green on his finger when he held up his
hand.

'The band was removed after the last fall of rain,' he said, 'which
was yesterday. Native craftwork of this quality would fetch a small
ransom in Rome. I expect one of the procurator's men is holding it
in safe keeping, which would be wise; it could too easily have fallen
from the wagon. Procurator?'

The procurator could cheerfully have killed him. Failing that, he
was almost certainly going to come very close to killing the man
who had taken the king-band. The threat of a flogging hung ripe
in the air and several men in the procurator's retinue had become
distinctly unhappy.

Corvus cleared his throat. 'Thank you, Theophilus. I think we
should perhaps--'
For the fourth time that morning, the prefect was interrupted;
not, this time, by the procurator, but by the sound of horses
approaching at speed.

The morning was quiet and the clatter of many horses carried
clearly from the eastern gates. When the gates opened, the incomers
had formed an ordered block, flanked on both sides by the
gate officers in an escort which was at once a guard of honour and
an arrest party.

They rode sedately along the via praetoria, as measured as any
delegation from Rome. The guards' horses were restive, sidling
sideways under hands that held them too hard, and men who
were unsure of their position. The nine incomers they escorted
were all native youths, mounted on matching chestnut geldings
and dressed alike in short riding cloaks of Eceni blue, with elaborate
weavings at hem and neckline. Each bore ornaments of
bear's teeth woven at the hair of their temples and a gold brooch
was pinned at each shoulder, shaped as the running horse of the Eceni.
The tallest of them rode in the centre. His hair was the gold
summer corn and his eyes amber and he wore a king-band on his
upper arm that matched, and perhaps exceeded, the magnificence
of the one that had once graced the arm of Prasutagos, dead king of the Eceni.

Theophilus watched the procurator assess the value of that
band, and of the brooches worn by the other eight riders, and of
the horses they rode, and was about to step forward to intervene
in what might well have been a diplomatic disaster when Corvus
caught his arm and, in Alexandrian, murmured, 'No. He knows,
Watch,' and Theophilus did watch, with rising delight, as the
young warrior broke away from his guard and his retinue and
pushed his horse to a hand gallop, heading directly for the
procurator.

The guards were slow and had only time to shout alarm, not to
act. The procurator's mercenaries were caught equally unprepared
and failed to throw themselves bodily in front of their employer as
would have been proper. Only a Coritani scout who had attached
himself to the procurator's retinue had the presence of mind to step
forward, knife in hand, to face the incoming warrior and he stepped
back again soon enough as the young man in the Eceni cloak
brought his horse crisply to a halt and flung himself from the saddle
to kneel at the feet of the second most powerful man in Britannia.

'Decianus Catus, procurator of all Britannia, Breaca of the Eceni
bids you greetings and her regret that, after the death of her
husband, she is in mourning and unable to leave her steading. I
come in her place, her son and his, to offer you the gift of the Eceni,
and our plea that you help us recover the body of our king, who
was slain at the start of winter defending the life of the slave trader
Philus, may the gods deal justly with them both.'

His delivery was perfect, with the cadence and clarity of a court
herald. As the words fell to the echo amongst the copper-roofed
villas of Rome's first city, he unpinned the brooch from his
shoulder, letting the blue cloak fall to the ground at his heels, and
held out the running horse in solid gold that was worth half the
annual salary of any man in the procurator's pay. Beneath, he was
naked to the waist, with scars of war or ritual about his body that
made Theophilus wince and left the procurator speechless.

'The gift of the Eceni,' said the youth, smiling. 'With our honour
for your position and our earnest desire to see returned the body of
our murdered king.'

Naked to the waist, with the bear marks showing clear on his
shoulders and back, Cunomar knelt in the filthy slush of
Camulodunum's main street and watched the procurator of all
Britannia consider and discard three different responses to his gift
and the request that accompanied it.

The man was a sucking leech, and to be despised, but he was
not the governor and for that Cunomar was grateful. He had
practised the speech through winter until he could, and did, recite
it in his sleep. Clots of Latin crowded his dreams like crows at a
battlefield and he had been inordinately grateful when the thaw
came, and the time to act.

It had not been possible to know beforehand who would be in
command of the city's garrison when the thaw came and, faced
with two alternatives, the decision to kneel before the procurator
had been a late one, prompted by instinct: Corvus was not so
lost in pride that he would object to being passed by, and the
procurator was dangerous, and must be won over, or at least
bound by some semblance of honour.

Watching now, Cunomar saw his guess proved right. Before the
procurator could collect himself, Corvus stepped forward and,
offering Cunomar his hand, helped him to rise.

'Welcome to Camulodunum, Cunomar, son of Breaca and heir to
Prasutagos, king of the Eceni. We regret deeply the death of your
king and offer our condolences to your mother and family. In the
emperor's name, we will return to you Prasutagos' body as soon as
we are able. In the meantime, it has been a long ride; you must be
weary. If you would care to bring your honour guard and join us,
we might offer you our city's hospitality?'

It was neatly done. No man, however powerful, could readily
countermand an offer made in the name of his emperor.

Cunomar bowed, as he had once seen an emperor's son do in
Rome, 'Thank you. In the name of my people I--'

'No.' The procurator had recovered his voice. 'Of course the
king's body must be returned, but before that we must examine his
will, which became law on his death and has been allowed to go
unattended. A copy is kept under guard at the governor's residence.
It should be read immediately to determine the size of the estate
and the names of the beneficiaries.'

. . . the size of the estate and the names of the beneficiaries. Ghost winds spread down Cunomar's spine. Through all the
winter, that had been the one thing about which they knew
nothing: no-one, in the steading or beyond it, had any idea of the
content of 'Tagos' will, or of how it might be enacted on his death.
Nor, it seemed, had Corvus, although he read the undercurrents
in the procurator's tone as easily as had Cunomar, and liked them
as little.
'What hurry, Catus? If the king has been dead since the start of
winter, then half a day more will not matter, and we have a guest
who should be welcomed and made comfortable after his journey,
before he escorts his father's remains to their last rest. Would you
have our visitors believe Rome incapable of the simple courtesies
that are commonplace amongst the tribes?'

As skilfully as any strategist of war, the procurator closed the
trap he had opened and none had foreseen. 'On the contrary,
prefect, I am doing my best for our young guest and he will be
grateful. If the king has been dead that long, then there will be six
months' interest to pay on the monies due to the emperor. Would
you deprive the imperial coffers of their due? Or impose on the
king's son any greater burden than the one under which he already
suffers? If so, you have only to say. I defer, always, to your rank.'

That was risible. The procurator, clearly, deferred to no-one.
Cunomar watched as the prefect pinched the bridge of his nose. He
looked like a man fighting a monumental headache. 'No,' he said.
'I believe we should bow in this case to your greater wisdom. The
records are kept under seal in the governor's office. If you would
care to lead the way?'

There was white marble on the floor of the office of the governor's
clerk, and on the walls and across the roof. The desk at which sat
the governor's clerk was of black marble and the candlesticks
thereon were of solid gold, shaped like the heads of elephants, with
the tallow tapers held in their coiled trunks.

Cunomar, who had spent two months as a prisoner in Rome and
attended an audience with the emperor, recognized the ostentation
of it, and the intent to impress. It was not a beautiful room, but the
scent of money leaked from it, of a weight to stun the senses, so
that anyone brought there would know that here was the wealth of
Britannia openly displayed, and that this was only the clerk's cold,
stone-lined office, which was the least of Rome's property.

The clerk himself was the smallest man in the room by a hand's
breadth, but he commanded the space as if he were the officer and
the others in his service. Cunomar had watched as he winnowed
down the accumulating throng of the venal, the fearful and the
merely curious to those who had either the authority to insist, or
an unimpeachable reason for entering his domain.

There were four in the end. The prefect was the governor's
highest representative and could not be dismissed. The procurator
answered only to Nero and possibly outranked the prefect; certainly
he outranked a clerk, however stately his office. Theophilus was
present because the physician had cured the clerk's gallstones in the
winter and the man had not the will to send him out.

That left only Cunomar, who was a barbarian and should not
have been allowed into the office in the first place and would have
been left to wait in the antechamber with his warriors, but that he
was also the son of the late king and had a right to hear the reading
of his father's will. He had smiled at the clerk, who was not
used to dealing with the natives in any capacity, never to semi-naked young men with ornaments in their hair and scars across their bodies who smiled at him and flexed their shoulders so that
the beast marks came momentarily alive. He had flushed darkly
at the base of his throat, more as Cunomar's smile broadened, and
abandoned his carefully structured protest.

Thus four men stood like errant children before the marble desk
as the clerk searched for, found and read the roll of parchment that
Prasutagos, by the emperor's grace king of the Eceni, had signed in
front of witnesses on the day Eneit had died.

A part of Cunomar lived for ever in the elder cave of the Caledonii
where he had first met the she-bear. There, lying under hot knives
for three days, he had learned what it was to school his mind and
his body to the service of the gods.

That knowledge served him well in the chilled marble office of
the governor's clerk. It blurred his senses and resharpened them so
that he could smell the almost-victory in the procurator, and the
wary honesty of Corvus, the prefect, and the more pragmatic
despair of the physician. The bear marks on his shoulders burned
as if newly made and his guts churned with the prospect of a battle
he did not fully know how to fight, but could not afford to lose.

Believing him the best, his mother had sent him, and, believing
himself the best, Cunomar had accepted the gift of her trust and
come. He believed it still, depending on his bear-honed instincts to
tell him how to act when the time came. All that was required of
him in the waiting between was that he hold himself ready and not
give way to his fear. He eased his shoulders up and back, spreading the tension. The clerk looked up as he did it, and the blac points of his eyes flared open.

The man swallowed, drily, and, slowly, as if to an idiot, said,
'You are the king's son?'

Cunomar smiled purely to see the man flush again and said, in
faultless Latin, 'I am his son in name only. I am not of his blood.'

'I see. That would explain it.' In the chill of early spring, in a
room clothed in stone, the clerk was sweating lightly. His gaze
flickered from the procurator to the prefect and back. It was not
clear whose patience would fray first, only that neither man was
inclined to be kept waiting any longer.

Corvus spoke first. 'Clerk, if we could have the detail of the
king's bequest, without any of the interjections to gods or emperor,
we would be more speedily gone from your office.'

The clerk hesitated, weighing the needs of the law against the
more urgent need to be rid of the men who had invaded his office.
At length, dropping his eyes to the document in front of him, he
said, 'Leaving out the lists of horses and gold and land and
subjects, it is clear that the king makes no mention of his son in his
will as would have been proper, but instead leaves half of his estate
to the emperor, long may he be blessed, and the other half ... to
his two daughters.'

Cunomar had not expected to be mentioned. A part of him exulted in the honouring of Graine and Cygfa while the rest began to plan how it might be possible to keep 'Tagos' 'estate' to a
minimum. Too late, he felt the procurator's silent triumph on one
side and Corvus' equal despair on the other.

Looking up, he saw something unspoken but tangible pass
between Corvus and Theophilus, the physician. They both turned
to face him and he read pity in their eyes, and a wish to help and
no way to do it.

Theophilus nudged him. The procurator was speaking and
Cunomar had not heard. 'I'm sorry?' he said.

The man spoke again, in a child's easy Latin, spacing the words.
'Your sisters, the daughters of the king, are they married?'

Within the space of a sentence, they were in combat, as plainly
as if the blades were already blooded. Because the gods loved only
the truth, Cunomar said, 'The Eceni do not marry. We see no value
in it.'

The marbled silence fell apart. A single tear of wax dripped from
one of the elephant-borne candles onto the clerk's table. The noise
it made was less than the falling of a feather and sounded loud to
them all. Corvus winced. Theophilus shut his eyes and tapped his
forefingers to his lips.

Decianus Catus, procurator of all goods and monies owing to
the emperor, and Nero's civil representative in the province of
Britannia, laughed openly.

'Then they are orphaned and must, of course, be made wards of
the emperor who will undertake the onerous burden of managing
their goods and property. He will be happy to find suitable
husbands for them in Rome. Many men, I am sure, would be glad
to wed the daughter of a barbarian king, if the dowry be large
enough. A portion of the Eceni revenues would persuade even the
dullest of senator's sons to-- No!' The procurator stepped back,
cracking his hip on the clerk's table. Shrilly, 'Would you offer
violence in front of a prefect?'

'I offer you no violence.'

It was true; Cunomar had not moved. Three days under the bear
knives of the Caledonii kept him still against every fibre of instinct
and the hot, curdling need to kill that he had seen in his mother
and never yet felt in himself. That it had showed, however briefly,
in his eyes, or on his face, was regrettable. He did what he could to
find the quiet in his soul.

In that, he had help. Theophilus was behind him; he could feel
the physician's hand in the small of his back and hear in Eceni the
soft murmurings of the invocations to Nemain that came before
battle. Corvus, too, was closer than he had been, so that his
shoulder met Cunomar's and his weight kept him steady. The
prefect said, 'If he had made a move, I would arrest him. He has not moved.'

'He is a barbarian and knows no civility.' The procurator would
have died in battle; his fear showed too openly. Sweating, he said, 'They kill without care for the consequences. Philus is proof of
that. The emperor's property must be recovered with all speed or
they will secrete it. Prefect, if it is to be done swiftly, I will need
armed support.'

'Which you have. As you were careful to show us earlier.'

'A single century of former legionaries is not sufficient.'

'I would beg to differ.' Corvus was frigidly polite. 'The king's son
has listened to you traduce his sisters and has shown admirable
restraint. However, if you believe you need additional men to
approach his mother in her mourning, then you will have to recruit
them. I have three cohorts of men at my command and have orders
to lead them west to the governor's aid. Titus Aquilius, primus
pilus of the Twentieth legion, will remain here with a single century
at his disposal. There is no question but that you outrank him. If
you wish to order his troops to escort you north, leaving him with
no-one with whom to police the affairs of Camulodunum, then you
must of course do so. I will advise him to require that you sign a
memorandum of your order in front of witnesses so that if and
when the veterans run amok, or one of the natives drinks overmuch
and cannot be restrained, it is clear why he was left unable
to act.'

Corvus leaned against the clerk's marble desk and toyed with the
soft, pooling wax beneath the elephant's head. In Eceni, thoughtfully,
as if reciting a litany, he said, 'Son of the Boudica, I can do
no more. Keep safe your father's legacy. Do not throw away your
life, as he did not.'

Looking up, he said in more formal Latin, 'Cunomar, I am sorry
for the behaviour of my countryman. The offer of our city's
hospitality remains, for you and your honour guard, while the
procurator arranges his affairs. I believe you should travel north
with him, and that he would want that.'

'He would indeed. He will, in fact, insist that the "king's son"
and his rabble be kept under armed guard until we can take them
back whence they came. If you wish to feed them as they wait, you
may do so, but if you let even one of them go, you will answer to
the emperor for it.'

The procurator pushed past and opened the door. Outside,
Unagh and the other seven of Cunomar's honour guard waited in
the cold marble space of the antechamber. Beyond that, in the
square that surrounded the governor's residence, eighty armed men
of the procurator's command waited on his word.

Left with Corvus and Theophilus in the clerk's office, Cunomar
examined and then discarded all the possible paths of action. Every
one of them led to disaster; for himself, for his she-bears, for his
mother, for the war host that, even now, she was raising.

Keep safe your father's legacy. Do not throw away your life, as
he did not. Corvus was as much a warrior as Cunomar; he had
seen the paths and the deaths at the end of each and had tried, in
his own way, to avert catastrophe. He had failed.

Cunomar had watched the dignity with which his father faced
his own death in Rome. As the procurator's men formed into a line
and eight of them came into the office to escort him out, he found
something close to that dignity within himself so that he could bow
and say to Corvus, 'Thank you. The prefect has always been a
friend to the Eceni. My mother holds you close and will continue
to do so, whatever now befalls our people.'


XXXIII.

THE GOD CAME TO VALERIUS IN THE SHAPE OF A BLACK BULL, holding the moon between its horns, or perhaps as the
moon, holding fast a bull on the sickle edge of its blade.

He saw it by the light of the fire, standing near the edge of the
field. It stayed there as he got up and went to find what had drawn
him out. The hound walked at his side, more substantial under the
old moon than the new.

The bull was a solid thing of flesh and blood, alive with the
power and passions of spring. It ambled over to the thorn hedge
and snuffed at Valerius' hand and curled a long tongue round the
edge of his palm for the taste of his salt sweat.

He stayed with it a while, listening to the wind in the hawthorns
and the whisper of the gods, and then went back to the fire
and roused Longinus who rolled over sleepily and, much as
the bull had done, caught his wrist and kissed the heel of his
hand.

'You smell of cattle.'

'There's a bull in the field.'

'Ah.' Longinus tried to turn round and could not. 'Is it red?'

'No, black. And real, but we need to move.'

'Why does that not surprise me?' Awake now, Longinus sat up.
Through ten days of travel, he had regained most of the weight he
had lost after the battle and the haggard press of pain was gone
from his eyes. He shook the sleep from his head and drank from the beaker of water that Valerius offered him.

He looked over the hedge at the bull, which looked back. 'I
didn't know the bull-god still spoke to you since you desecrated his
shrine.'

'I restored it. That's different. And it may not be Mithras. We're
in Eceni territory now. The ancestors of this land knew the god in
the form of a bull long before the legions brought their All-father
from Persia. At least you can stand; that's good. Can you run, do
you think?'

'If I must. It was my head that was injured, not my legs. Where
are we going?'

'To find ourselves weapons not made by Rome. We're not going
far, but we need to be back here before dawn.'

'Why can't we ride?'

'The place we're going is guarded. The horses can't go there.'

Longinus shivered. Nothing of man would guard a place against
horses, but not men. 'But we are invited?' he asked.

'I hope so.'

They ran and then walked and then ran again. The moon rose
high in the sky and the night was no longer young.

Valerius felt a tremor through the soles of his feet, the whisper
of Nemain made manifest, tinged with undercurrents far older. He
followed it forward, letting it guide his reason. Falling behind,
Longinus stumbled on a thorn root. He was slowing and clearly in
pain.

Valerius pushed through a thicket of briars and berry bushes
with an open landscape beyond, cast in muted silver and black. It
looked as he imagined the lands of the dead, which was not a good
thing to think of.

He stopped by a solitary birch and waited. 'I'm sorry. I hadn't
realized it was so far. We can rest for the day once we've got the
blades and are back at the fire.'

Longinus reached him, breathing hard and holding his side. He
grinned, tightly. 'Don't apologize. If we're going to fight, I need to
be fit.' He closed his eyes and leaned back against the birch. 'I take
it we are going to fight?'

Valerius' attention was on the hound, which had gone ahead,
down a track made by another moon than the one that lit the
night. Without thinking greatly, he said, 'It would seem so. If we
need blades, it must be to fight. Not tonight, but soon.' The tremor
beneath his feet steadied and became more certain. Leaving the
birch, he followed it forward and left, between two boulders.
Longinus' voice sought him out. 'Have your gods told you which
side we'll be on?'

'Not yet. Have yours?'

'Hardly.' Longinus barked a short, pained laugh. 'Mine are too
busy trying to keep me alive to be concerned with minor details like
which side of a foreign war I might be asked to fight for.' He
pushed himself forward as far as the boulders. 'We should run
again. Dawn is not so far and I have no wish to find out what
happens if we are not back by the fire before daylight.'

'I think we're here. Come and look.'

Had the hound and the thrumming of the gods not guided him,
Valerius would never have found the grave mound. Even standing
a spear's length from the opening, he was not certain what it was,
except that he could hear voices that were not in his ears, nor even
in his head, but in the far corners of his soul. They were angry, but
not with him, or perhaps he was simply so used to the anger of the
dead that he had become inured to the power of it. He tilted his
head, trying to hear beyond the wash of noise to what lay beneath.

Longinus reached him, and regretted it. 'Gods, Valerius . . .' The
Thracian had forgotten his pain. He gripped the hilt of the blade at
his side, which was a good, solid Roman cavalry blade and of no
worth at all against those already dead. He took in the grave
mound, and its opening. 'It's very small,' he said faintly.

Despite himself, Valerius laughed. 'The dead do not need great
space.'

'Nor light, I should think. Did you bring a flame?'

'I did.' Since his time in the god's cave, Valerius had carried the
means to make light everywhere; tinder and a candle and a small
rod dipped in a mix of pine resin and sheep fat that flared and held
a larger flame than the candle might have done. He lit it now and
carried it in his sword hand, as an act of trust. 'I won't make you
come, but I think you should.'

'So do I.' Longinus was hoarse with nerves. 'I'll go where the
light goes. Just don't let it go out.'

Longinus was right; the mound was small. Valerius crawled
through an opening that would have been cramped for a child, and
on through a tunnel that came out, at length, into a chamber far
smaller than the one inside the dreaming mound of the ancestors
on Hibernia.

His pine resin flame flickered on rock and bones and dried turf.
He could feel others around him: Cunomar, the spoiled child;
Cygfa, the warrior who was Caradoc reborn as woman and
terrifying for it; Valerius' own father, not Luain mac Calma, but Eburovic, master bladesmith of the Eceni, whom he had known as
father for all of his childhood. Above them all, stronger, nearer, so
close he could touch her, was Breaca.

She was not here. She could not be here; the space in the mound
did not allow it, but she had been, and left a part of herself behind.
Valerius made himself look beyond the shifting shadows to the
flame and all it touched on, to the rock and old bones and mouse
droppings and then, blindingly - how could he not have seen them
at the start? - to the five blades that lay on ledges cut into the walls.

The pressure in his head was astonishing; not in the ancestors'
mound in Hibernia or in Mithras' cave in the western mountains
had he felt so closely the presence of the dead, or their certain
intent to kill. Theirs was a serpent's hiss that filled his mind,
designed to steal his soul and drive him empty back into the night
to die. Uniquely, their hatred seemed impersonal; they did not
loathe Valerius for who he was or what he had been, simply for
being there, and for having come uninvited.

He had been invited; he believed that with all that he knew to be true. Closing his eyes, he sought the same thread of the moon and the direction of the bull that bore the moon between its horns
and found it, and stepped forward to meet what was there, less
inimical than the rest.

Slowly, the world became iron, woven and beaten and woven
again, and bronze molten and flowing, red as life blood, cast into
the shape of a feeding she-bear that rose on her hind legs to look at him. It spoke in the voice of Eburovic,
not-father to Valerius.
who had spent the whole of one spring in the making of just this
one blade.

Take it, blade of my soul. Keep it safe. You will know what must
be done with it and when.

Through all the years of his haunting, in the uncountable taunts
of the dead, Eburovic had never hated his son, nor wished him ill.
Valerius asked, 'Why now?' and heard nothing.

'We shouldn't be here.' Longinus said it, whispering. His voice
was lost in the spitting havoc of the dead.

My son, lift the bear from the stone. It is yours by right.

'You are not my father.' It was true. When had he come truly to
believe it? Sometime on Mona, when yet another dreamer had
mistaken him for the Elder and regretted it after. 'Luain mac Calma
sired me.'

Nevertheless, I give you the blade of my making to hold and to
keep until I ask that you relinquish it.

'What of the others? Not all five blades were made by you.'

No, but still, they are good. Take them. In the war that is
coming, they will be needed. Too few are left that carry the goodwill
of the dead.

'Valerius, we should . . .' Longinus, living, was less tangible than
the dead.

The ghost was the centre of the world, all-powerful and all
knowing, as Eburovic had seemed to the child Ban, who grew to be
Valerius. It made the salute of one warrior to another and then of
the warrior to the dreamer. It formed its left hand into the crescent
of Nemain, that could have been the horns of a bull, Please? It
spoke, earnestly. As the one who was your father in all but blood,
I ask it of you. More lives than yours depend on it.
No ghost had ever pleaded with Valerius. He had been
threatened, barracked, promised death and an eternity of others'
vengeance in the lands beyond life, but never had any one of them
asked him for a favour.

The novelty of it shocked him, and the sudden clarity, as of fog
lifting with the dawn; this once in his life, he understood exactly
what he must do - and could do it.

He said, 'Longinus, if you trust me at all, help me carry the
blades. Choose whichever suits you best, except this one, and keep
it. The rest we will keep in our riding packs. Do it now, without
thinking. Or if you must think, think of the Crow-horse and what
it was like to ride him, not the shadows that would bring you to
ruin. Think of the Crow-horse, think of what it is to hold him
when he is in full flight. . . Good man, well done. Now follow me
out. If you can run, we will run. If not, we will walk. If we are back
at the fire before daylight, we will be safe.'

'I can run.' Longinus was behind him, step for step and breath
for breath, crawling out through the entrance into the night and
back down the track along which they had come. 'You wouldn't
believe how fast I can run.'


XXXIV.

THE SOUND OF HAMMERED METAL MARKED TIME AT THE SITE OF the Eceni horse fairs. For lack of anything better to pass the time, Breaca beat
out the tang of a sword blade in the new forge, built by the she
bears next to the great-house.

The day was sharp with frost and potential. A brisk wind sent
clouds in the shape of herons across the sky; a thrush clucked in
the trees behind the forge, not quite in time with her hammer;
across the clearing, six new warriors arrived as a group, bright in
their blue Eceni cloaks, with the clan marks of the fox about the
hems and sleeves.

Through the making of the tang, they were greeted by the she
bears assigned to that day, helped to settle in the great-house,
shown what food and weapons and armour was available, and
showed in turn what they had brought on their pack horses, which
was considerable; for a people starved through winter, the incoming
warriors had brought more than any of Breaca's group had
imagined. Over the half-month since the snows had begun to melt,
the stores of grain, of dried meat, of oat bannocks baked for the
journey, had grown as the stocks of blades and spear-heads fell.

They were not many yet, the warriors who flocked to her call,
but they were the beginnings of a war host. On the day Cunomar
left to take his message to Camulodunum, one hundred and eighty
warriors had already gathered. By the day after, when he had still
not returned, that number had risen by sixty and continued to rise
through the morning.

Breaca watched as each new group were not only given weapons
and shown the beginnings of how to use them, but were also
instructed in how best to evacuate the great-house. Gunovar did it,
crouching on the sandy soil, drawing maps with the point of her
knife and showing the waymarkers used by the she-bears: the
black-painted staves and bear-claw marks slashed on trees that
would show the warriors the way out of the clearing to the forest
and, perhaps, back in again.

They were not sent away; an army forced into retreat before it
has ever formed is one crippled from the start. Still, no-one
doubted it would happen if Cunomar failed.

He would not fail. Breaca needed to believe that, and had made herself do so, through the evening and sleepless night after his leaving and again as the new day dawned and he had not yet
returned. She calculated three times the time it might take him to
reach the city, give his news and return. At her best estimate, he
could appear any time after noon on the day following his
departure. She marked it in her mind and then forgot it: counting
the heartbeats did not make the time move faster.

Halfway to noon, with nothing else to do, she began work on a
fresh sword-blade. Elsewhere, others found their own occupations.
Graine sat cradling the head of a heavily pregnant hound bitch
who lay in the spring sun in front of the smithy, enjoying the warmth from the fires; Airmid spoke to the dozen or so dreamers who had come with their warriors, as had always been the case in
the old days: one dreamer for every warrior, to keep their heart in
battle; Dubornos and Gunovar began schooling the incomers
in use of sword and spear; Ardacos stood at the roasting pits,
seeing to Cunomar's hunted deer; and Cygfa . . . finally Cygfa came,
who had been keeping watch on the southern trackway to
Camulodunum.

She came in too fast on a foundering horse and threw herselfto
the ground outside the forge. 'Theophilus of Athens and Cos sends
a message: "Your son is not dead. They have not put him to the
question. But the procurator is bringing him north at speed, with
three hundred mercenary veterans behind him. Put your affairs in
order, and hide whatever you would not wish him to seize in the
name of the emperor." '

Breaca laid down the half-made blade. 'Did Theophilus meet
you himself?'

'No. He sent a messenger who turned back; he did not wish to
be seen by the procurator, but he brought this, as evidence of his
good faith.' Cygfa opened her hand. A staff of applewood spanned
her palm, wound about with two snakes in the sign of the caduceus
that was the physician's personal mark. She said. 'He's telling the
truth. I saw a cavalcade of horsemen riding hard on the track north
from Camulodunum. They have wagons in train, which slows
them, but they will still reach 'Tagos' steading by midday.'
The morning became very still. With exaggerated care, Breaca
placed her hammer across the anvil, as if the angle of it mattered
and must be got right.

It was not like battle, this destruction of a vision; there was no
fire in her soul, or clash of blades, or swing and strike that might
lead equally to life or death but would at least be action.

Outwardly, nothing had changed. The wind still blew from the
east, sending clouds in the shape of herons to spear across
the snow-thin sky. The same thrush chucked in the thorns on the
edge of the clearing. Stone lay at her side and she could still feel
the easy rhythm of his breathing against her shin, although he had
lifted his head and was looking at her, cross-browed, as if she
had spoken his name and then nothing more.

Reaching down to rub his ears on his skull, she said, 'And if they
find the steading empty, they will set their Coritani tracker to find
us. We have hidden the tracks to here well enough to keep away
the legions, but not one of our own.'

Others had gathered; those who mattered, so that she was not
alone. Ardacos came from the roasting pits, and Dubornos from
the warrior-training. Gunovar was close, and Airmid, who stood
now at her left side, and held Graine's hand. The she-bears and the
new warriors of her war host who had trekked through melting
snow and knee-deep mud to come to her grouped in a half-circle a
short distance away from the forge, and made a show of not
listening.

Looking out at them, Cygfa said, 'How many have we?'

Breaca shook her head. 'Not enough to face three centuries
of time-served veterans who scent gold and slaves for the taking.'

Quietly, Ardacos said, 'Of those who have come, less than a
dozen have lived through war. The rest are as untrained as the she
bears were before winter. They need half a month, at the very least,
to learn how to hold themselves in battle or they will die to no
cause.'

He spoke aloud what they all knew. The choices were clear and
well rehearsed; they had talked of little else since midwinter, so that the paths forward had become tales for the telling, like the hero
tales of the singers.

Because it needed to be spoken aloud, Breaca said, 'We could
wait for them here and fight, and lose everything. Or we few can take half of Cunomar's she-bears and meet the procurator where he
expects to find us at 'Tagos' steading and delay them at least
until the remaining warriors have had time to disperse. It is not
what we dreamed. It's not in any way what we prayed for, but it
was always the risk and we cannot, with any honour, endanger the lives of those we have called here. If they can be sent to safety, to fight at another time, we have to make it possible. Dubornos, I want you to--'

'No. Lanis can do it. I won't leave you.'

Breaca's mind had already run ahead. Shocked, she brought it
back. Dubornos was smiling at her. There was more humour in his gaze than she had seen in all their joint adulthood.

He said, 'Caradoc tried much the same and gave in. I won't leave you and you haven't time to waste trying to make me. Lanis knows
the land here better than I do. She's a dreamer; the warriors will
listen to her. She can organize the evacuation.'

'She can, yes, but she has not given me an oath to protect the
Boudica's children or die in the attempt. Would you not honour it
now that we have most need of you?'

Breaca would have softened that, but there was so little time.
Dubornos flushed and then paled. Stiffly, he said, 'What would you
have me do?'

'Take Graine and--'

'No!' Graine broke free of Airmid's grasp and stood on her own in the doorway. She glared at her mother, making a straight line of lips that wavered. With the sun behind and the fire in front, held between two lights, she looked more ethereal than she had ever
done. 'I'm not going away without you. If you leave without me,
I'll follow you, and you won't be able to stop me.'

There was no time to make it easier for her, either; every heartbeat,
now, brought them closer to disaster.

'Forgive me,' said Breaca, 'I love you,' and, taking her knife from
her belt, she struck her daughter on the head with the back end of
the hilt near the temple, where the damage would be least afterwards
when she came to her senses.

Graine moaned and crumpled to the floor, blue-lipped and
twitching. Dubornos knelt and gathered her, carefully.

'Wait.' Breaca put her hands to the torc at her neck. She had
worn it since the day after 'Tagos' death when Cygfa had first
handed it to her, and had felt nothing more than the warmth and
weight of its metal. Any power it might have had seemed to have
waned. 'She should have this. You will need to hold it until she is
of age--'

She stopped, because she could no longer speak. The woven gold
had become thick, corded snake coils that writhed under her hand,
pressing on the vessels of her neck. In the caverns of her mind, a
gap opened, and a mountain wind blew through. She could have
fought it, possibly she would have done, but Airmid's hand on her
wrist stopped her, and Airmid's voice, carefully guarded, said,
'Breaca, you are still first born of the Eceni. Don't discard that
now.'

She took her hand away. The pressure around her neck eased.
The wind died in her mind.

Dubornos stood waiting, cradling Graine's broken head against
his shoulder. Her daughter should have something to carry through
her life apart from memories. The brooch of the serpent spear with
its tags of black wool was pinned to Breaca's shoulder, as it had
been since the day Caradoc had sent it as his gift from Gaul.

'You are my first thought and my last, for all time.' Caradoc had
sent the message then and Breaca said it now, quietly, as she
unpinned the brooch and set it on Graine's tunic, a gift from both
parents that would go with her into adulthood.

Dubornos understood, and could explain it when the child was
old enough. His black eyes thanked her.

Breaca leaned forward and kissed her daughter and then, to his
surprise, Dubornos. 'Protect her for me,' she said.

'With my life.'

She had never seen him weep. Tears smeared his cheeks as he
nodded to those who were left, to Ardacos, Airmid, Gunovar, and last to Cygfa, to whom he had given the spark of his soul knowing
she could never return it, and carried his too-light burden from the smithy.

There was quiet after he had gone, as there might have been before battle, if the body of a slain scout had been found and the strength of the enemy tested and found real.

Breaca said, 'We need someone to hide the blades. I have not worked all winter to lose them now. Gunovar, you can--'

'I can come with you and see what your son has made of himself
in the company of Rome. The warriors can take the weapons made so far. The unworked iron will have to stay here; there isn't time to bury it. And don't try to hit me as you did your daughter. I'm too
old for that, and you don't have time to lose fighting me instead of Rome.'

Starkly, Breaca said, 'You know how we may die?'

The broken dreamer splayed her hand flat across the scars of her
face. Her crooked mouth twisted, accentuating the scars. 'Do you
doubt it?'

'No. Of course not. I'm sorry. Your life is yours to cast to the
gods as you wish.'

The rest gathered round: Cygfa who had been to Rome and
stood in the shadow of her own crucifix and kept her damage
to herself; Ardacos, who could yet go north and be an elder amongst
the Caledonii; Airmid, heart of her heart, soul of her soul, who
could have been Elder of Mona and taken the dreaming west to
Hibernia.

Breaca said, 'I would prefer that all of you left, now, with Dubornos and Lanis and the warriors, but I don't have the power
to compel you.'

They all knew it, and struggled to find the words. In the end, it
was Cygfa who said lightly, 'I don't think the procurator would
stop long at the steading if he found only one woman within it.'

Which was why, in a shorter time than any of them imagined
possible, Breaca of the Eceni led half of her son's honour guard and
all but two of the men and women who held the strings of her heart
down to the steading to which she had brought them two years
before.

Shortly thereafter, as the trackway trembled to the hammer of
incoming horses, she led them out again to stand before the
emperor's procurator of taxes and his three hundred mercenary
veterans.

She left Stone at the gates so that he might not scent the enemy
and attack them out of hand and rode the grey battle mare because
it was the most reliable of all her horses, and dressed in a new tunic
of Eceni blue with a knotwork of muted grey bordering the sleeves
and neck and hem, because it looked least warlike. She left her hair
unbraided to hang to her shoulder and her shield hidden and outwardly
bore no knife nor anything edged that might conceivably be
considered a weapon, nor any armbands that might show undue
wealth, but only the corded gold torc of the Eceni that weighed like
rope about her neck.

As she rode her mare forward to greet the head of the incoming
riders, she sought through the voids of all-time for the grandmother,
the ancestor, or Nemain. All were silent.

'It does us no honour and I regret it deeply, but we cannot feed three hundred men. Winter has left our stores empty and the trading has not yet begun.'

It was true, after its fashion. Certainly the steading had little by
way of provisions and the two dozen she-bear warriors who had
followed Breaca from the great-house had brought only enough
from the great-house to feed themselves. As befitted a settlement in
mourning, the she-bears wore tunics tied with unmade rawhide
belts and no gold and their belt-knives were short and could not
be challenged under Roman law. They occupied themselves with
tending the horses or the fields and none welcomed the procurator,
or invited him in.

Later, if they had to fight, there would be no risk that any of
them had broken the guest laws and incurred the gods' disfavour.
'Thank you. We bring our own provisions.'

Breaca had addressed the procurator in Latin and he replied to
her in Eceni, through a youth of the Trinovantes who wound a
finger in his hair and stared at the ground and would not look up.

Without waiting for the boy to finish, the procurator pushed his
flea-bitten grey gelding through the gates. He was a man in a hurry;
his eyes fed on the gold at the Boudica's neck, not the quiet wool
of her tunic or the carefully combed sheen of her hair. His men
followed him, orderly as any legion.

Cunomar and his eight she-bears were in the second century,
flanked by veterans from Camulodunum, men whom Breaca
recognized by sight but not by name. She had traded with them in
the time before Eneit's death, swapping belt buckles for raw
bronze, or an armband for iron; two had been present in the
theatre to witness the spear contest with the former governor.

One of these nudged his neighbour and said something coarse in
gutter Latin but Breaca's attention had already passed behind to the rear of the column where rode a Coritani youth who bore in
his topknot the trio of red kite feathers that marked him as a scout
of the legions, and, more importantly, displayed openly the warrior
marks of a fire lizard on his arms.

Each was both a warning and a declaration of enmity and each
was unnecessary; his face, seen in profile, was a younger stamp
of the slave seller Breaca and Cunomar had killed in the forest
beyond the horse fair and she would have seen that in him anywhere,
without need for reminders.

He rode at the tail of the second century and made no effort to
hide himself; quite the reverse. Passing by, his eyes met Breaca's
and he nodded a greeting that carried more threat in its cool, quiet
understanding than all the procurator's mercenaries put together.
Because it mattered not to show the depth of her shock, she saluted him after the manner of the Coritani warriors and was surprised
when he returned it.

A standard-bearer rode to the front of the column, holding aloft
a banner on which weighing scales stitched in silver graced a scarlet
background. He signalled with it and the rearmost century stepped
out of line and encircled the steading. It was done smoothly, the
product of much practice.

The remaining two centuries divided into eights; one group to
guard Cunomar, another for all of his she-bears, a third to watch
over Breaca and her family, except for Ardacos, who was a grown
man and clearly a warrior and so warranted another eight guards
on his own.
Those not called to guard duty spread out into a line that ran
from one edge of the steading to the other. The standard-bearer
signalled and they walked forward in perfect step. One man in
every eight was armed with a stylus and tablet.

'The men will prepare an inventory. You will remain with us
while it is done. Afterwards, you will be required to confirm it.'

The procurator spoke in Latin and the Trinovante youth translated
into stilted Eceni and in either language what he said was
unacceptable. Nevertheless, in the time it took to speak it, and to
repeat it, another thirty warriors had run another hundred paces
further away from this man and his mercenaries and all the
machinery of Rome.

Breaca nodded and said to the youth, 'If the procurator would
care to wait in the king's chamber? It has not been used since his
death, but I can light the fire and the damp will clear.'

The procurator was not comfortable in the chill damp of an
unaired, unheated room. He chose to remain in the king's chamber
only for the time it took to overturn the coin-chest and reveal it
empty.

'You have hidden his money. Where?'

'Why would I hide what we have to pay in taxes? If we had it,
you could take it now.'

'Then how will you pay if you have nothing?'

The procurator was a man for whom food was never short over
winter, and his life depended on making Britannia pay; she had to
remember that.

Breaca said, 'The money is not due until midsummer. By then,
we will have traded enough horses and hounds to pay. I have a
bitch due to whelp that will--'

'You would pay the emperor's dues with hounds?'

'If the procurator had ever hunted, he would know the value of
Eceni hounds.' The young Coritani hawk-scout leaned against the
doorpost. He had been there from the start, an unobtrusive
observer. He said, 'My father's people would pay the worth of a
war-trained colt for a brood bitch of the Eceni. You should remember
that in your inventories.'

She had killed his father and he knew it; how could he not when
word of the Boudica's kill had spread through every steading of
every tribe in the east? There was, therefore, no reason for him to
help her. Breaca nodded her thanks and it was gracefully received
and her nerves jangled; an enemy who offers help is twice
dangerous.

There was nothing she could do and the procurator was the
present danger. He was staring at the wall where the king's sword
had once hung. The wood was paler by a whisper where it had
been.

'Prasutagos was fighting with a weapon not legal under law,' he
said. 'Where did he get it?'

He was guessing. 'Tagos' blade was with Breaca's, hidden in the
smithy by the great-house where only a search of utter destruction
could find it; he could not possibly know its length. Even so, it did
no harm to talk. Each passing moment was its own victory.

Breaca waited for the interpreter and said, 'I have no idea what
length his blade might have been or where he might have got it. He
was the king. He did not share such knowledge with me and he is
dead, and so cannot be asked. If you have the weapon, you could
read the smith marks on it to find the source.'

The procurator stared at her and smiled, thinly. His lips were the
bluish purple of a bad heart and his skin the sallow of an overtaxed
liver. Without the legions of Rome to give him power, he
would have made his money writing wills for small-town
merchants and spent it in a brothel. 'Later,' he said. 'When the
inventory is done.'

The air in the king's chamber was musted from a winter of no
use; they did not tarry there long. Outside, the line of walking
mercenaries had crossed the steading. Half of them turned back
through the gates and were working their way up through the
horse paddocks, past the in-foal brood mares to the youngstock
and geldings, to the three breeding horses kept apart on the slopes
of the hill.

The last son of the grey battle mare was up there, product of a
lifetime's breeding. His sire had died, killed under Braint on Mona
before he could truly be tested. The son he had left was not yet trained for battle, but had raced twice in the autumn and won. His first foals were due in the spring and would outrun the best of the best. He stood in the highest field and screamed at the strangers,
who were not horsemen and dared not go close.

Next to Stone, who stood with his shoulder pressed to her knee, the grey mare's son had been Breaca's greatest beacon of how life
had once been and might yet be when the legions had been
destroyed. She was surprised, amidst all the turmoil, how much the
sight of him lifted her, and the thought of losing him hurt.

Even so, it was important to keep speaking. 'The horses are poor
after a winter with little fodder,' she said. 'They will be fit again in
time for the autumn horse fair.'

The procurator did not break his gaze from the hillside. 'By
autumn, that will no longer be your concern.' The Trinovante
interpreter could not bring himself to translate. Breaca did not
remind him.

Another warrior another spear length away. It mattered not to
rise to this. It mattered, instead, to know where each member of
her family was, and to account for them, moment by moment, until
the time came to act.

Cunomar was sitting on a log in the middle of the steading with
his eight guards around him. He caught his mother's eye and
pressed his hand to his arm. He wore no tunic and so had no knife
concealed beneath his sleeve, but he had seen, or guessed, where
Breaca kept hers, far longer than was legal, bound to the inside
shaft of her left forearm. He was unarmed, but he was a she-bear
and could kill without weapons. She had seen Ardacos do so often.

Airmid, Cygfa and Gunovar were held apart, just outside 'Tagos'
chamber. Above everything else, it mattered not to be taken too far
from them; Airmid bore no knife and could not be left alive for
long when the fighting started. More than anything else, Breaca
was grateful that she had not let Graine come.

'You have more horses than this.'

A man less desperate might have made it a question. There was
no clear reason that Breaca could see why the procurator of the
emperor's taxes should be so driven, unless, unwitting, he felt
the urgency in her.

Striving for calm, she said, 'Through the winter, the horse herds
are spread out across the land, to give least burden to each
steading. We bring them in again after foaling in the spring.'

That made sense, at least. The procurator pursed his lips and
said, 'In that case, how many head have you altogether, that were
the property of the king?'

'The king had no interest in horses. None of these were his.'

'Who owns them, then?'

'I do.'

'You are his wife.' The procurator looked at her flatly.
'Therefore they were his and are now the emperor's. How many?'

Breaca had been an elder in the council of Mona, she could
school her face to her will whatever the chaos within. She said,
'After the winter we have had? It's hard to tell. If the mares have
lived and carry foals to term, if the foaling goes well and the
youngstock thrive, then, including the foals, we will tally over one
thousand. If the foaling goes poorly and we lose mares and foals as
we have done in some years, perhaps as low as seven hundred.
Such things are in the hands of the gods.'

'From today, they are in the hands of the emperor,' said the
procurator, 'which is more certain than any god.' He turned on his
heel, still counting numbers. His eyes fell on Stone who lay at her
side. 'If the hounds are of value, we should include them. How
many have you?'

She could school her face from a Roman, not her soul from her
hound. Stone was dangerous when he growled, but lethal when
silent. He rose to his feet now, without a sound. Breaca laid a hand
on his neck and felt his mane grow stiff along the length of his
spine. She said, 'The hounds of the Eceni are traded only at need,
and only those surplus to our own breeding. Until the whelping is
over, there are none to spare.'

The procurator ran his tongue round the upper arcade of his
teeth and a vein pulsed at his temple. He spoke crisply to the
interpreter. 'Ask again. She does not understand. How many
hounds were in the king's household? How many in the outlying
lands?'

Sometime in the past few breaths, it had become clear that
battle, and death, were inevitable. If she were going to die, Breaca
wished it to be over something worthwhile. Before the interpreter
had taken breath, she said in Latin, 'I understood fully. The hounds
of the Eceni are not for sale, nor will they be given in payment of
tax.'

The procurator answered her directly this time, and it pained
him to do it. Spacing his words, he said, 'You do not understand.
This is not a tax. This is an assessment of the emperor's property.
Your king is dead. What was the king's has become the emperor's:
his lands, his wealth, his horses, his hounds, his wife and his
daughters. Everything that was Eceni is now of Rome.' He smiled,
tightly. 'It is of no consequence to me whether you answer freely or
under duress, but you will answer. I will ask you once more, and
only once; how many hounds?'

If she remembered the thrush that had woken her in the morning,
she might remain sane. Breaca said, 'The king wrote a will. It
was witnessed by the last governor.' Out of the corner of her eye,
she saw Cunomar shake his head.

The procurator saw it too, and claimed his victory. 'Your king
left half of his estate to his emperor, as is proper. The other half he
left to his daughters, clearly intended as dowry.' His gaze roamed
to Cygfa and back. 'I am told that one of the king's daughters is a
child and yet I see no children. Where is she?'

Too many people held their breaths. Locked in a wasteland of
false calm, Breaca said, 'The king's daughter died over winter, of
cold and hunger and grief at her father's death. I could take you to
her grave, if you required to see it.'

The procurator pursed his lips and studied her and could not
find the hole in the lie. 'No matter. That saves some senator's son
from the duty of taking a native to wife, although I have been told
that the savages of the north mature early and it would have
been-- No!'

It was not Cygfa who broke, or even Cunomar; not Gunovar or
Airmid or Ardacos and the she-bears, but Breaca. It must have
been her, however hard she tried to hold it, because Stone lived to
serve her and it was Stone who attacked the procurator first, and
it may have been that Cunomar was trying to pull the hound back,
not to further the attack, but the mercenaries were not paid to
watch and report what may or may not have happened, only to
keep order and collect gold and goods and, at all costs, to protect
the life and person of the man who paid them.

Stone was struck and then Cunomar was struck and then the
she-bears, howling, were uncontrollable, which had always been
the risk when they were there and Cunomar was in danger.

They fought better than Breaca had imagined. Against overwhelming
numbers, armed with knives barely long enough to cut
through a cheese, with woollen tunics as their only protection they
hurled themselves at the veterans of the colony of Camulodunum
in their legionary mail and leather armour and oval cavalry shields
and the short blades of their days in service, which sang gladly to
their hands and made short work of killing.

Eight Eceni died in as many heartbeats and three others were
clubbed unconscious and Breaca had barely time to crack the point
of her elbow against the nose of the veteran to her left and bring
the long-bladed knife from its place on her arm, had not begun to
think if there was time to kill the procurator or any of his men
before she must turn it on Airmid, when she heard Cygfa shout the
war cry of Mona and someone else scream in a voice she had never
heard before, splitting the air with his pain.
She killed the veteran who stood to her right, because he was
closest and the scream had taken his attention, and by the time her
knife was free of his throat it was clear that it was not Cygfa or
Airmid who had been taken, but Cunomar, who had fought without
weapons and lost. Her son was held between two men, with his
ear cut from his head and blood sheeting down the left half of his
face.

'Stop! Stop now. His life is mine. Do you know how long a man
may take to die?'

The shout was in perfect Eceni, not from any of the mercenaries,
or the Trinovante interpreter, but from the Coritani scout who bore
the mark of the fire lizard crawling up his arms, and who,
brandished Cunomar's severed ear on the tip of his knife.

'Don't stop!' Cunomar kicked and fought the two men who held
him, and half a dozen of the she-bears took him at his word, but
the momentum had gone from the bulk of them and another of the
veterans took hold of Airmid and pressed the tip of his sword to
her eye and that brought everyone to a halt.

There was a crystalline moment in which Breaca could have
stepped forward and rammed her knife to the hilt in the living flesh
of her dreamer's heart and Airmid, holding her gaze over the cold
iron of the blade, would not have stopped her; only somewhere
quite close, a thrush chucked in the thorns as it had in the morning and the space in her mind that the torc had newly opened was
open again, and filled with a certainty that stopped her.

Then the moment was gone, and the shuddering release of
violence and the promise of a clean death was lost, taking with it
all hope of victory.

The procurator stood before Breaca, shaking. He was not a man
used to battle and the closeness of his own death terrified him. He
wiped both hands up his cheeks, kneading the flesh, and swept a
trembling arm across his brow.

When he had done, and his features had settled, if not the palsy
in his limbs, he spoke to her, drawing power from the armed men
around him.

'You did not understand. Now you will do so. Before, you were
the emperor's property. Now, you are his prisoners, taken in the act
of assaulting his officers in the province of Britannia. The charge is
insurrection and murder for which the penalty is death. When we
have searched the steading and have garnered the additional
evidence - because there will be some, you did kill Philus - then we
will conduct a trial and pass sentence and you will have time, as
you die, to reflect that life as the wife of a senator's third son in
Rome might not have been so bad for any of you.'


XXXV.

GRAINE WAS GONE TO SAFETY. THAT MUCH WAS GOOD. The other news came in piecemeal, as the evening drew
darker and groups of mercenaries came to the procurator
to report, or simply showed what they had found. Those ordered
to search the steading did so as they had in the days when Valerius
led them: violently, destroying anything that might have held a
weapon. They found the shields hidden in the roof thatch, which
had never been in doubt, and a spear, which had been hidden long ago and forgotten and was rusted beyond any reasonable use.

The Coritani scout helped those searching outside to find the
tracks leading to the great-house and there they discovered
the cache of unworked iron, which Breaca had hoped would not
happen, but was inevitable. Looking further, they found the tracks
leading away from the great-house but did not find any warriors,
or children; nor, as dusk began to fall, did they dare send out
trackers to look for them.

Except for Cunomar and Ardacos who were considered
dangerous and kept apart, the family of the dead king were imprisoned
overnight in his chamber, after the bed had been taken out
and burned and the chest that had once held money. A small
bronze horse lay in one corner, unwanted and ignored.

Breaca had never been held captive. The possibility had always
been present; before every night-time foray in the west, before
every battle, she had schooled herself to imagine imprisonment and
what would inevitably follow.

The reality was infinitely harder than she had imagined; not
impossible, but close to it. Her respect for Cygfa and Cunomar,
who had survived months in prison in Rome, with death waiting at
each turn, rose with every passing heartbeat.

Lacking a fire, 'Tagos' chamber was a dark and airless place.
Breaca stood leaning against the wall for a while, and then sat on
the floor, pulling her knees to her chest so that her feet, outstretched,
might not entangle the feet of another, intruding on their
privacy. Privacy was important, she discovered, balancing the
strength in not being alone.

She knew without asking where the others were sitting around
her. Airmid kept close, so that they could feel each other's heartbeats;
privacy did not matter there. Cygfa was directly opposite,
with Gunovar a little to her left, each keeping silent, because that
way lay strength; not-talking, they could maintain the illusion of
not-fear. Only if they touched, or tried to speak, did it become clear
that each of them was shaking, a small, continuous tremor that
could not be controlled, but only contained, and experienced, so
that by morning, perhaps, it could be damped and not shown to
the world.

It did not help to think of the morning. Breaca pressed her spine
hard into the wooden wall and turned her mind away from the
future. She thought instead of food and water and the need to
urinate and the cold of the wall and the weight of the ancestor-torc
around her neck. She regretted not having given it to Dubornos to
keep safe for Graine and the future however much the ancestor had
railed against it. The procurator would take it now, before or after
her death. Melted to gold, it would pay half a century for half a
year. Or a century for a quarter-year. Or a single tent party of eight
men for--

'Why would they bother with a trial?' Gunovar asked it, from
somewhere nearby in the darkness. Her voice was quite steady.

Breaca said, 'For the records. We are a king's family. They will
want it to be seen to be legal. Small men with small gods rarely do
anything that is not accountable. Cygfa, was it like this in Rome?'

'If you discount the half-month in the hold of a ship spent getting
there, and the physicians who insisted on physical examinations
afterwards, and the two months of waiting while they tortured
Caradoc and Dubornos, yes, it was quite like this. They fed us in
Rome, and gave us water. We would have died else.' Cygfa contrived
to sound drily amused. 'The shaking stops, eventually, after
the second month. A body can only hold so much terror before it
overflows.'

There was, it seemed, no harm in talking after all. A fear made
open became less. Breaca said, 'With luck, we should have joined
the grandmothers in Briga's care long before that.'

Cygfa snorted mild amusement. 'We can hope so. Julius Caesar
kept Vercingetorix, war leader of the Gauls, in prison for seven
years before he had him slain. I don't think our procurator has that
much patience.'

'Or this emperor.'

Gunovar said, 'No. Although it would be better if he did not find
you are the Boudica. His patience might be greater then, and you
- and we - might live longer, and regret it more deeply.'

There was a short, shocked silence. Breaca said, 'Thank you. It
might be a good thing to forget. I imagine they will not ask
questions, unless they believe we have answers to hide.'

Gunovar said, 'And if they ask, seek death in the manner of their
asking. Your body will try to live, but the ways to death will be
open if you can embrace them.'

'We can try.'

The worst had been named aloud, and they were no worse for it.
After that, they spoke of Rome, and Gunovar talked of her time,
under questioning in the fortress of the II nd legion in the south-west and there was a strange comfort in the memory of pain that
is over and the reminder that everything passes in time; it is only
that the waiting is tedious.

Only Airmid did not speak. She sat so close that Breaca could
feel the lift and fall of her breathing, which was slower than sleep
and faster than death, but only just, and meant that she was
dreaming, which was good; any escape from the present was
good.

Cygfa had begun to tell of the procession in Rome, led by
Valerius, who had once been Ban, and how the ghosts of his past
assailed him and were invisible to the legions, when Airmid
breathed in hard and fast and let it out again, harshly.

'She's coming.'

'Who is?'

'Now. They're bringing her here. Do you still have your knife?'

It was the worst of warnings, and the best there could be, sent
from deep within the dream, and it gave Breaca time to pull herself
clear of the gaping hole that exploded in her chest, to school her
features and to lift herself from the floor and appear composed as
the sound of booted feet came closer, and the light of a brand
lit the doorframe and then the doorway as the door was flung open
to reveal hair the colour of ox blood, ragged now with human
blood and sweat and tied tight with a cloth that wrapped the small
mouth so she could not have screamed to warn her mother.

Graine was not safe.

She fell to the floor of Prasutagos' chamber, twisting to keep her
face from the dirt. Her hands were tied behind and her tunic was
filthy, with a triangular tear where the serpent-spear brooch had
been ripped away.

'Your daughter died of hunger and grief in the winter.' The
procurator stood in the doorway. 'You will therefore have no
objections if we put this child to the question in the morning, to
find the names of her parents and where they are hidden.'

'This is my daughter.' Breaca was weeping and did not care.
What use composure? The torc became tight around her neck, or
her throat had swollen with grief; either was possible and she had
not time or strength to find out which. Through a blur of sweat
and otherness, she said, 'I lied. Clearly my daughter did not die. I
can point out those amongst your men who saw us together at the
signing of the late king's will and can attest to it. If you have issue
with that, the fault is mine.'

She knelt and lifted her daughter, light of her soul, to her breast,
and pulled the gag from her mouth. Graine pressed her face into
the crook of her mother's neck, sliming her skin with tears and her
running nose.

There, too muffled to be clearly heard, she said, 'I'm sorry, it's
my fault. I wanted to come back and prayed to Nemain to find a
way but she wouldn't give it so I prayed to the ancestor-dreamer
who holds the serpent-spear and then Dubornos fell asleep and I
took his horse and it knew the way home and then I fell off and
someone found me and it's my fault. I'm sorry.'

'It's not your fault. It's not ... I love you. It's my fault. I
shouldn't have sent you away. I'm sorry, so sorry . . .'

Breaca spoke Eceni at first, slipping back into the language of the
ancestors, which was the only one with the words to hold her grief
and not let it destroy them both. She became aware, through blinding
tears, that the procurator was still in the doorway, watching.

He caught her eye and nodded. 'A delightful child.' He tilted the
light so that it fell on mother and daughter together. 'I am sure
the senator's sons would have been glad of her. She has not, I take
it, borne a child of her own?'

'She's eight years old!'

'Yes, of course. The prefect, Corvus, said as much in
Camulodunum. He cares for her also, it seems. A pity he has been
called west to reinforce the governor's war. And you--' He moved
the brand so the light fell on Cygfa. 'They tell me the Eceni do not marry, but I do not believe you live chaste. Have you ever borne a
child?'

Cygfa was white, very suddenly. Her knuckles were yellow
where she gripped them together. Not understanding, Breaca
answered for her, 'No, Cygfa has never borne children.'

She is her father's daughter, the passion of fire made living,
she has never taken a lover, because to do so would have damaged
Dubornos beyond all telling and she cares too much for him to do
that.

'My mother is telling the truth.' Very softly, with a venom bor
of fear, Cygfa said, 'You could, of course, have your physician confirm it.'

The procurator stared at her. He wet his lips, thoughtfully, 'I
don't believe we shall need to. I am happy to take your mother's
word.'

He closed the door and the world was black again.

'Cygfa?' Cygfa was weeping, violently, trying to be quiet and
failing. Gunovar was closest and held her, while Breaca struggled
with the knots that bound Graine's hands and mouth. 'Cygfa?
What is it?'

Gunovar answered for her. 'They cannot execute a virgin, It
offends their gods and so their laws.'

'What? What difference does it. . . ? But then, if it's true, Grail and Cygfa must be . . .'
'Must no longer be intact when they come to die. It is not hard
for a company of men to ensure that a girl is no longer chaste
before she dies. They would do it anyway, only this way they do it
with the full consent of the law.' Gunovar's voice was hollow,
shorn of the irony that usually gave it life. The words were poison
and she spoke them, because somebody must.

Cygfa made herself quiet and drew a breath and said, 'I'm sorry.
It should not matter. It doesn't matter. In everything else, it is one
more thing, of no moment. I will be ready by morning.'

'Cygfa?' Breaca whispered it, because the understanding was too
sudden and too great to give it sound. For ten years, she had
believed that Cygfa had taken no lovers out of compassion for
Dubornos, when the truth was unthinkable: that Caradoc's
daughter had lived three months as a prisoner in Rome lying
nightly awake, making herself ready for a morning that must come.

It had not come, but the waiting alone had broken her, and the
probing examinations of men who had trained to heal, and had
been made to maim. You could, of course, have your physician
confirm it. As had the physicians of Rome.

The decision, then, was easy. Once, in a cave, the ancestor
dreamer had made a promise. I promise you nothing. Only that I
will be with you, and that if you ask it, I can give you death, which
you may crave, or my aid to live, which you may not. It was time
to accept that offer, if not for herself, then for others.
'You will not be ready by morning. There is no need and no
point.'

Breaca stood up. Graine's knots were undone. The swelling on
her left temple where the Boudica's knife had struck her was the
size of a blackbird's egg and hot to the touch. She was fevered and
clung to her mother with small, frantic hands. The patter of her
heart beat erratically against Breaca's chest and she wept herself
into incoherence, repeating only the words of earlier, 'I'm sorry. I'm
sorry. I'm sorry . . .'

'Don't be sorry. It's good you're here. I love you. And we are not
powerless.' Breaca smoothed the hot, damp hair out of her
daughter's eyes and kissed her eyelids, one at a time. It was dark,
and she did not have to school her face, only her voice, that she
might seem not to be panicked, or desperate.

In truth, she was neither of these, only tired and worn thin with
grief so that it was hard to reach for the place inside where the
ancestor had taken up residence, to ask now for the strength to do
what must be done. It had seemed easier when she had considered
this before in Camulodunum, in daylight, with men and women
and the facades of Rome all around. Then, Graine had stopped her,
and Corvus, in friendship, and the ancestor-dreamer had taken no
part.

Breaca slid her fingers up her daughter's spine, to the crook at
the back of her neck where her head was set on, and tried to keep
breathing, to seem calm. To the space in her soul where the wind
of the gods blew most strongly, she said, I ask your aid, as you
wanted me to. And I accept your offer of death.

She did not think she had spoken aloud, but Airmid took hold
of her wrist. 'Breaca, you cannot ask that for another. Each of us
must make our own peace with the gods if we wish to die.'

'Even Graine?'

'Especially Graine. Listen to what the ancestor says.'

Breaca tried and heard nothing except the clamour of grief and
desperation and the nearness of a panic that had never touched her.
in battle, nor even when Caradoc was lost. She said, 'Can't we--
Ah, gods, will they not leave us alone?'

Outside, guards were running, with lit brands. A voice -
Cunomar's? - was shouting. The door hammered open in a blaze
of torch-fire. The procurator stood on the threshold, lit on all sides
by flaring torches.
Peering in, he said, 'Still alive? And the child? Good.' He wave
in men who came with ropes. 'Bind them. Take the child. Quickly.

It was only a small room, too crowded, too soon. Three men
came for Breaca. She fought them, seeking her own death and
Graine's. The ways to death will be open if you can embrace them. Her forearm crushed a man's windpipe and she was clawing for living eyes when lightning broke through her skull and exploded
into dark and the ground and the wall crashed up against her and
the weight that was Graine was gone.

Unkind hands rolled her onto her belly, tying her wrists, and turned
her back. The procurator stood at her shoulder, looking down into
her face. 'Our Coritani scout has excelled himself. He has a reason to
hate you, I believe, and to seek vengeance, which I have promised
him. He claims you were once a warrior of some renown?'

It would be better if he did not find you are the Boudica. One by
one the safe barriers of her life were shattered. She spat at the man
standing over her.

The procurator stepped back a pace and so was not marked. He
said, 'The scout claimed that, left alone, you would kill the child,
and perhaps the others. I am relieved that you are less of a warrior
than he believed.'

He stood aside to let out the guards who had tied and gagged the
others and held Graine, howling, between them. Pleasantly, he
said, 'It will be over soon. Tomorrow. Or perhaps the day after. I
have had to send to Camulodunum for the timber with which to
raise you. Foolish of me, I should have thought to bring some with
me.'

He stepped back, wiping his fingers on his tunic. The door closed
behind him. Breaca lay half conscious in the swimming, incommodious
dark, lost to the pain in her head and her ribs and her
kidneys, battered over and over by the sound of her daughter
screaming her name and the sudden stop as someone held shut her
mouth.

She made no effort to reach the ancestor, or to find a way now
to meet death early. Graine was not safe. Nothing else mattered.


XXXVI.

THE DOOR DID NOT OPEN IN THE MORNING, OR AT MIDDAY, BUT in the late afternoon.

Daylight revealed Airmid, Gunovar and Cygfa as they had
been through the night; lying tied on the floor, sleepless and bruised
and consumed, as Breaca was, by hunger and thirst and the need
to urinate without soiling herself, which was trivial and born of
pride and would, presumably, cease to consume her at all before
the end of the day.

They supported each other with their eyes and chose not to notice the shaking, which had not stopped.

They were not fed, but washed and given the chance to use the
midden and to drink, because, as the mercenary said, who had
made the sign of Nemain, 'A body can last longer than you'd ever believe without food, but keep your captives short of water and
they're dead before you know it.'

He had said it after Breaca had drunk, or she would have
refused. He had grinned knowingly, and poured the remaining,
precious, contents of his water carrier on his cupped palms and
washed his face with it.

Outside, the reason for the delay was clear. Breaca stood
in the open ground in the centre of the steading watching the
lower edge of the sun drop towards the horizon, and to her
left were dug, but not yet filled, the post holes for half a
dozen crosses. I have had to send to Camulodunum for the timber.

Two stanchions of oak had been erected, made of wood scavenged
from the houses. Cunomar and Ardacos were tied to one,
three of the she-bears to the other.

Graine was not there. It was all that mattered.

Breaca could look or not look. She could fight to contain the
shaking, so that she might not appear afraid, or abandon
the attempt, and stand white and wide-eyed. None of it was
noticed, or made any difference.

The procurator emerged from a tent that had been erected on the
northern face of the steading and surveyed them with satisfaction.
'I have news from Camulodunum that the wagons will leave with
the timber by tomorrow's dawn. They will be here by late morning,
which gives us time to complete the inventories and the other
preparations. There is the matter first of the king's daughters, who
must be attended to, and of the men, who have caused trouble in
the night.'

She had heard Cunomar's shout and had failed to help him. In
the litany of her failings, it was not the greatest, but by far not the
least. The signs of it showed on the men, already stripped for
flogging. Cunomar's face was bloody where his ear had gone.
Ardacos was bruised down the full length of his torso, but no
worse than after battle. His eyes were swollen and blackened. He
stared at Breaca through one and was trying to tell her something.
She shook her head. I can't hear. He grimaced and turned his face
to the wood.

'You are charged with insurrection, with murder of the following
named legionaries . . .'

This, then, was the trial. The procurator stood on a small
podium of nailed planks. The cache of raw iron had been
brought down from the smithy by the great-house and lay
bundled at his feet. Breaca's own blade was laid to the side, with
Ardacos' and Cygfa's; to find them, the forge must have been
destroyed.

The procurator's voice was a meaningless hum, joining the
greater noise of the steading. Breaca watched a crow pick a straw
from the torn thatch of the hut that she had shared with Airmid
and fly with it to the lightning-struck oak in the lower horse
paddocks. The Sun Hound had flayed his errant dreamers and
hung them from oaks such as that. Only Rome needed to kill a tree
to kill a man.

'. . . or we could ask your daughter. The younger one. Would
you prefer that?'

Airmid was leaning on her shoulder, trying to bring her back to
the present. The procurator's mouth was moving and the sound
reached her, and the meaning some time after.

'Ask her what?' said Breaca. She looked about again. Graine was
not there. The aching space where she should have been was empty
and had not been filled.

The procurator said, 'Where is the army for whom this iron
would have made the weapons?' He asked it slowly, spacing the
words.

Breaca looked at him. He was a clerk; he had no understanding
of warfare. She said, 'It doesn't exist yet. The weather has not
allowed it.'

'You're lying.'

'No. If each of those bars were made to a blade, and each had a
warrior to wield it, would we be standing here now? You have
three centuries of men. We could have armed twice that many
easily. If they were here, we would have done so. There is no army.
Those who had already gathered will have dispersed to the north
and safety, or back to their steadings. They will never gather again
when we are gone.'

'Indeed? Who would have led them?'
'I would.' Cunomar answered before Breaca could. 'I was the
king's son, given to the bear in the northern forests, the better to
gather a war host in the south.'

The procurator took some time to move his gaze from Breaca to
her son. Even then, he stared past him, to Ardacos. 'And this man,
he is your father by blood?'

'No. My father is in exile in Gaul.' Cunomar had come through
the night better than the others, high-headed, kept ablaze by the
arrogance of youth, or by the bear. She could hope so, while praying
that pain and despair had not turned him back to who he had
been.

Breaca stared at him, much as Airmid had earlier stared at her,
trying to speak into his mind. Cunomar, Cunomar, tell them nothing they could not find out by other means.

Cunomar was not looking at her, but at the Coritani scout who
stood amongst the mercenaries. His every glance was a challenge.
He said, 'When your governor has lost his war in the west, then my
father will return and lead the warriors of Mona west to break
open Camulodunum. Then the iron my mother has gathered will
be made to blades and used by those with the honour and courage
to use them.'

'Your mother made these?' The procurator's gaze switched back
to Breaca. 'You are a smith?'

'Yes.'

'And you made these. Of course, of course . . .' He kicked sideways
at a bundle of spear-heads. They clattered to the ground,
breaking free of the rawhide thong that bound them. 'A woman of
the Eceni who makes spears, and perhaps throws them.' Walking
close, he took her chin and forced her to face him. 'Was it you who
killed the governor with your witch-spears?'

No, Airmid did that. It is the dreamer who makes the warrior,
not the reverse.

Breaca said, 'Yes.'

The procurator gazed at her in appalled fascination. 'You know
the penalty for being a dreamer?'

'It is much the same, I believe, as the penalty for insurrection.'

'Almost. The rebel is flogged before hanging, the dreamer often
not. You admit to both?'
She was tired of the farce of the trial and all that went with it.
She should have spat in his face again, or railed against his nation's
invasion of her land. Instead, wearily, she said, 'Why deny it? I am
what the gods made of me. It is under your laws, not theirs or
mine, that I am guilty of wrong.'

They flogged Cunomar, Ardacos, and the three she-bears who had
each killed a mercenary. It was done thoroughly, by men who had
been flogged many times themselves in their twenty-five years in
the legions. It was not easy to witness, but not impossible.

If Breaca watched the sun, and the crow that collected thatch
straw in spite of the noise, if she gave attention to the trail of ants
across the beaten earth of the steading, if she rested her mind in the
net of the ancestor-torc, which was silent, as if waiting, then it was
possible to bear witness, to honour the courage and not the pain.
It was not necessarily worse than battle, and wounds taken now
would hasten death later, which was not a bad thing.

After a while, she gave her attention to Cygfa, who was shaking
uncontrollably, and tried to think of something that might help.
'They may be armed,' she said, quietly. 'It may be possible to take
a knife and turn it inwards.'

With appalling certainty, Cygfa said, 'They won't be. They have
done this before. They will take no risks.'

'I'm sorry.'

There was nothing to say then, but to watch the ground and the
single file of marching ants and ask again of the silent ancestor why
every part of her vision should be extinguished like this, when there
had been so much to hope for.

It ended, in time, because all sport ends, and there was more to
come, which might be better entertainment.

Then it was impossible to watch the ants, because Graine was
there at last, dazed and silent and unsteady on her feet, pushed out
of the hut that had been Airmid's, where the crows drew straws
from the thatch.
The child had been cleaned, and fed, and had been sick, and that,
too, had been cleaned, and someone, Briga maim them and hold
them for ever in pain, had combed her hair and set a circlet of
woven oak leaves about it, and a filament of gold about her neck,
so that her beauty was beyond doubt, and her chastity.

She was small and alone and terrified and beyond the ability to
be brave. Her eyes sought her mother's and found no comfort
there. She opened her mouth to speak and shut it again. She was
weeping, and had been so and would continue for ever and there
was nothing that could be done.

In her head, silently, over and over, Breaca said, Graine, I'm
sorry, and heard the voice of her daughter, earnest and desperat,
saying, It s my fault. Dubornos fell asleep . . .

Cygfa was cursing, rigidly, a long continuous hiss that called on
all that was darkest of Briga and Nemain to aid her and blight the
men who came for her. They laughed, and hit her and closed her
mouth with a rag. She did not have to look beautiful.

Then the nightmare began, and it was impossible to witness it
and remain sane.

Near the beginning, Breaca was sick; a pathetic puking of bile
and spit that retched her empty and inside out. No-one came to
clean her. Airmid leaned on her one arm and Gunovar on her other
and between them they kept her upright.

Airmid said, 'Don't look,' and she did not look but it was impossible
not to listen, not to hear the annihilation of Graine, the
delicate, beautiful child who held the strings of her heart, and of
Cygfa, who was Caradoc reborn as woman, and more vulnerable
for it, as man after man of the procurator's guard, by daylight and
then by firelight, ensured beyond all possible doubt that neither
was chaste and that their executions in the morning would not
offend the Roman gods, or break the laws of Rome.

Through it all, the torc remained silent and empty; the ancestor
dreamer offered no aid and could not be reached to ask for it, or
Breaca would have done so, if only for herself. There was nothing,
ever, that could be done to repair the destruction.

Cunomar lay on his side in the bloodied dirt in the place where the
mercenaries had left him, which may have been his own room, that
he had once shared with Eneit and now shared with Ardacos and
three of the she-bears.

They had been kept there the night before and had scraped a
latrine in the corner and used it, not expecting to come back. The
stench mingled with the hammering pain of his head where his ear
had once been and his back, which no longer bore skin, and his
arms where the weight of hanging on the ties at the stanchion had
pulled at his shoulders.

There was no way to lie that did not send fire through his body,
and so no way to sleep. He lay in the dark and felt Ardacos'
shoulder pressed on the heel of his foot; a steady presence that gave
more comfort than words could do. The three she-bears lay about
him, holding steady their breathing as he was steadying his. It was
the best he could do; a final attempt not to crumble to weeping
distraction, while in his head all he could hear was the inhuman
croak of Graine screaming and screaming, and then not screaming,
which was worse.

All through his childhood, when he had envied his sister's
delicacy and beauty and the affection of their mother and her place
in Airmid's heart, and Sorcha's, and her easy way with Stone and
her growing power, Cunomar had never wished her dead. He did
so now, passionately, for her sake. Lying on the cold floor with no
feeling in his fingers where the ties had cut the blood from his
wrists, and too much in his head, his arms and his back, he prayed
to the nameless bear who lived within him that Graine's silence
meant she had found release in death.

Later, colder, he wished the same for himself, and the others.

Later still, shuddering uncontrollably and on the verge of weeping,
he remembered what Ardacos had said before it started. Think
of the bear-marking, and of what it made you. Then again, afterwards,
as they were carried back to the hut. Think of the
bear-marking. It was worse than this.

It might have been worse, it was hard to remember. Pain passed "
is easily forgotten, except in the sense of triumph at having
survived it. Certainly the bear-marking had gone on for longer; the
flogging had lasted barely an afternoon while his time in the bear's'
cave under the care of the elders of the Caledonii had lasted from
dusk of the first day to dusk of the fourth and every moment
between had been agony.

He thought they had used heated flint blades to make the scars
on his shoulders and back, but had never been sure. At the time, it
had been too dark and he had been too lost, too locked into each
breath, to care. Afterwards, it had been part of the magic and
important not to know how it was done.

Breathe. Dive into the breath. Let it carry you to the core of yourself, where your strength lies.

The elders had said it, over and over, and time had warped so
that it seemed he had taken days, months, years of fighting his
body, of fighting not to scream, of fighting not to fight, but to lie still under the searing, cutting, nagging knives, before the words
had made sense and he had begun to dive with each breath, deeper,
further into the core of himself, to where he had found the wellspring of his own endurance.

More, he had found within that place a gateway to the infinit.
Beyond the pain were avenues that ran among the stars. There,
Cunomar had walked with the spirits of the bear he had slain and
the beaver that had been his first kill for the elders, and beyond
them he had met the panoply of gods: Briga and Nemain, Camul
the war god of the Trinovantes, and Belin, the sun. Each of them
separately had given him a glimpse of what it was to be a dreamer.

He had risen, bear-marked, with two gifts; the first and most
palpable was the knowledge of the strength he bore at the core of
himself. Beyond that, the gift that bore aloft his soul was the crack
that had opened in the firmament and let him see through, as a
dreamer sees, to a possible future.

I wish to be a warrior to surpass my mother and my father, of
a stature to lead the rout of Rome. In the presence of the
bear-dancers of the Caledonii, Cunomar had spoken aloud
the wish of his heart and the elders had sent him back to his
people, full of hope and promise. Lying in the dirt and blood and
sweat of his own failure, the irony of that, the hubris and the gods'
reckoning after, hit him, as suddenly and as hard as the veteran's
lash through the afternoon: a true dreamer would have seen what
was coming and would have avoided it, or would at least know
how to find again the crack between the worlds that let his soul
walk through.

That place still remained. If he could reach it, he might find
sanity and a way to survive the morning, but to do that he had to
find a way through the sound of Graine screaming herself hoarse
that filled his head.

He rolled over and lay on his stomach. Breathe. Dive into the
breath. Let it carry you--

'Drink. Drink and then wake. Come on. Drink, and wake. It was
not so bad, and nothing to tomorrow . . .'

The voice broke through the shell he was building and would not
leave. It dragged him protesting back to pain and the memory of
Graine's voice. Cold splashed on his lips and into his gullet and he
would have choked, but a cool hand sealed his mouth and a thumb
ran down the side of his throat and he was silent and coughed hard
through his nose.

'Cunomar. Wake. Listen to me. You must wake . . .'

He knew the voice, distantly. 'Eneit?' No, Eneit was dead, given a
clean death by his mother. He had understood it at the time and still
hated her for it. Now, he hated the arrogance of who he had been.

Not Eneit, then. A cold certainty made him open his eyes, and it
was not, after all, too dark to see. The door to the hut was ajar and firelight played at the rim, bright enough to show the feathers in
the hair of the Coritani hawk-scout bending over him, and the
white scars of the fire-lizard branding crawling up his arm.

Cunomar had forgotten what it was truly to hate, to immerse
himself in the all-consuming passion of loathing. He remembered
now. His hatred of the procurator, who was a weak man and had
never known honour, was a ghosted marsh-flame compared to the
burning inferno he felt for the traitor of the Coritani who had
found Graine lost on the trackway outside the steading and delivered her alive to the procurator.

Pushing himself to sitting, he said, 'The mercenaries sang that
you returned my sister to them for their pleasure. For that, I will
wait for you for ever in the lands beyond life, and you will know
no rest.' His voice was rusty. His breath was meant for other
things. He coughed and had to wait until the pain had passed
before he could be heard.

The scout shook his head. 'I went beyond honour. I'm sorry. I
did not know they would ... do what they did. The Coritani might
spear a child taken in war, or cut her throat, but it would be done
cleanly. Never . . . that.'

Cunomar despised him, openly. 'Why are you here?'

'To tell you that. To apologize, so that you go to your death
tomorrow and pass on afterwards and do not wait for me with
hate in your heart in the lands beyond life. The Boudica and her
son slew my father; that is well known and you have not denied it.
Your deaths will avenge him, but I swear to you on my father's life
that I did not intend what happened to the child.'

'Then get her free.'

'I can't. I have tried to see her, to give her the peace of death, but
the procurator's men are guarding her too closely and they have seen how I feel. I am not trusted any longer near either of the king's
daughters. I'm sorry. On my honour as one who bears the lizard
brands, I have tried.'

The scout made to rise. The bear god spoke clearly for once and
Cunomar grabbed the man's wrist, surprising them both. 'Then try
harder. Find Corvus, the prefect who greeted me in Camulodum.
He can't stop, them from hanging us, we killed the procurator's
men and must die for it, but he cares for Graine and could save her
yet. He's leading three cohorts west towards Mona. They can't
have marched far if they've left at all. Find him, tell him what's
happened. Bring him here.'

There was a wait, and a changing tension in the arm that he
held, then, 'Perhaps. If there is a way it can be done, I may try.'

The scout pushed back on his heels and upright. He thought for
a moment, then said, 'I have not told them the other name of your
mother, nor will I.'

They must not know she is the Boudica. Ardacos had said it,
very early, and Cunomar had said, The hawk-scout knows. It is
there to be read on his face. He'll tell them.

Against all expectation, he had not. Unwilling, Cunomar said,
'Thank you,' and meant it.

'There would have been no honour in telling it. What they do is
enough.' The scout paused in the doorway. He said, 'Your mother
has honour. It shows, and the men of Rome are afraid of her for it.
In the morning they will do to her as they have done to you. Don't
try to stop them. It will help her to die faster afterwards.'

In the morning they will do to her as they have done to you. Don't
try to stop them.

Cunomar could not have stopped them, and would not waste his
pride trying, for her sake; only bear witness, as she had done, and
do what he could to give her strength.

The thought roused him early, so that he was ready when the
guard came to the door, bringing slave chains from the wagons to
bind them. He had not found the core of his own peace in the night
after the hawk-scout had left, nor, he thought, had any of the others;
the pain was too great, and the fear of what dawn would bring.

Blinking and haggard, chained to Ardacos on one side and the
she-bears on the other, he shuffled into the morning.

And stopped.

The timber wagons had arrived from Camulodunum. The post
holes dug by the mercenaries had been filled.

Six crosses ranged from east to west across the steading, for the
family of the former king and those closest to them. A gibbet,
heavy with ropes, awaited the she-bears.

Cunomar was not sick, but one of the bear-warriors chained at
his left retched violently, and he heard, and then smelled, a long,
fluid fart as the guts of another gave way. He had only his experience
in Rome to thank that he did not similarly disgrace himself.
That same experience told him that he would do so eventually, and
that by then he would no longer care.

His mother was there. After the crosses, he saw her. She was
fixed to the oak stanchion in the centre of the steading, where
Cunomar had been tied the day before; dishonoured and alone in
the place that should have given birth to her dream.

She was still the Boudica; every line of her said so. More than
anything else now, it mattered that the procurator not find out her
identity, but it was hard to see how he could not when it shone
from her so clearly: from the copper river of her hair, tied up by the
legionaries in a parody of the warrior's knot, to keep it from her
back; from the battle scars that laced every part of her body; from
the raging calm in her eyes, that despised the men who held her
captive, and stood above them, and beyond.

Cunomar felt the same twist in his heart he had felt when Eneit
stood ready to die and knew without doubt that he loved her and
was proud of her and it was too late to say so. He would have
taken all the horror for her, but could not find a way to do that, or
even to help her to do it herself.

That was a new thought and it scared him as much as the crosses
had done. Breaca had not been marked for the bear; her long
nights had been quieter and she had come home afterwards
unscarred. For all her time in battle, leading the warriors or hunting
alone amongst the mountains, Cunomar was not convinced
that his mother knew how best to keep hold of her sanity in the
face of what they would do to her.

Breathe. He wanted to shout it and could not, because if he was
deemed to help her, they would harm him, and that would make it
worse for her. Dive with the breath, let it carry you inwards. Find
the place inside that cannot be broken.

She must have heard something, or felt it. Her forehead came
away from the oak and her eyes rested on him and, for an
astonishing, blissful moment, he was her son, the bear-dancer,
whole and free, and she was the Boudica, given for ever to victory, and nothing could step between them; she loved him and he knew
it, and she knew that he loved her and he could dive into the
unquiet love of her soul and drown and be happy.

A guard jerked the shackles at his wrists and pain lanced through
his body so that he had to shut his eyes to stay on his feet.
When he could look again, his mother's gaze was gone, turned back '
into the oak and herself. The procurator had mounted his podium.

'You are charged with being both a dreamer and an insurgent.
Do you deny that you are both?'

'No.' She lied to protect Airmid. It was the only gift she could
give and they would still die together.

'Good.' The procurator nodded to the leader of the mercenaries
who stood behind her. 'Begin.'


XXXVII.

THE HOUND WAS FIRST TO WARN VALERIUS OF THE STRANGER hidden on the margins of the coppice, and then the Crow-horse, less subtly.

Valerius slid from the saddle and made a knot of the reins round
the pommel of his saddle that they might not get underfoot.

'Go on,' he said to Longinus, who had stopped. 'Keep going.
until you get through the wood. If you reach the edge and I haven't
rejoined you, stop as if you've dropped something. Keep talking. If
you can, make my voice, too.'

Longinus was fit to ride by then, leading the pack horses. The
wagon which had borne him from the battlefield was far behind,
hidden in a thicket in the pleasant pretence that they might live to
return one day and find it and have use of it again.

Walking beside the Crow-horse, Valerius shrugged out of his
mail shirt and hooked it with his helmet across his saddle-pack.
His cloak was already there, slip-tied so he could reach it at need
They were travelling in the uniform of Roman scouts, with mail
and helmet and the sky-blue shoulder cloaks. It was safer than
travelling as warriors and as plausible as any cover. Amidst the
anarchy of the western battles, they could quite easily have
been sent east to Camulodunum with orders for whoever was
acting governor. It was safe as long as they avoided any legionary patrols and they had seen none of those; the snow had not lifted
long enough to let them forage freely out of their winter billets.

The thicket was small, less than three spear casts long, of beech
and birch and small, shrunken oaks. The trees were damp, hung
with old rain and new cobwebs, only barely coming to life; birds
gathered in them, but not the nests and young there should have
been. Valerius sought for and found a deer track, which was wide
enough to take him if he dropped to all fours and crawled. The
hound led the way and he followed it, silently.

The warrior waiting at the tree's edge had heard the horses; it
would have been impossible for him not to. Longinus did a good
job of carrying on a conversation in two voices and four languages
so that anyone listening would need to know Latin, Thracian,
Gaulish and a smattering of Eceni to fit the flow of it together.

The listener was young, dark-haired and dark-skinned, and
armed with a hunting knife far beyond the legal length for anyone
not employed directly by the legions. Three red kite feathers
fluttering limply from his topknot marked him as a legionary scout
and his belt was buckled with the medallion given to those who
have excelled themselves; the eagle sparked gold in the weak morning
sun.

The youth moved from the rock behind which he had hidden, to
a place at the edge of the thicket, whence he could see, but not be
seen by, the men who rode along the path.

A mail shirt hit the ground in a chiming slither of iron, shattering
a flock of sparrows from the trees.

'Damn it, Valerius. It's gone into the thorn bush. Did you see
where it went?'

Longinus was querulous and slurred a little, as if not yet
recovered from last night's wine. He dismounted heavily and went
in search of that which had fallen, catching his sword in the undergrowth
and cursing in Thracian and Eceni.

The scout shook his head at the weakness of the wine-sodden
invaders, huffed through rigid nostrils and relaxed his stance.

Valerius grabbed the thick lock of his hair and hauled back on
it, kneed him in the small of the back and pushed him over, kneeling
on his shoulder to trap his knife hand.

It was too easy. The scouts who worked for the legions now were
young and had not been born to war. Reaching round, Valerius slid
the edge of his blade across the boy's throat, enough to bring the
blood leaking from the skin, but not from the great vessels that
contained his life.

'Breathe carefully,' he said, 'if you wish to breathe at all.'

Dark eyes glanced at him sideways, their rims white as a hunted
doe. In Latin, the youth said, 'I am a scout for the Twentieth legion,
stationed at Camulodunum. I am seeking Corvus, prefect of the
Twentieth--'

Valerius shook his head. 'Wrong guess,' he said softly, and leaned'
on the blade.

'. . . Boudica . . .'

The word was a hiss, in the face of dying. Flesh trembled under
Valerius' hand and it was hard not to kill out of instinct. Longinus
was there. He put a hand on his friend's shoulder. 'Steady.'

Both of those were not enough. What stayed his hand was the
sight of the brooch pinned to the boy's cloak: a serpent-spear cast
in silver, with three threads of blackened wool hanging from the
lower loop.

Biting his lip, Valerius eased back on the knife's pressure, 'That
brooch,' he said. 'Where did you get it?'

'Boudica's . . . daughter.' The scout's windpipe was part severed.
Blood foamed at the cut. 'I . .. hold the life of ... the Boudicaa's
child.'

'How?'
Dark eyes closed and opened again. 'My life for hers. Your oath
on it.' A whisper, sprayed red.

Valerius laughed. He moved his knife up and back, to rest below
the scout's lip. Against corded, futile resistance, he pushed down
with his other hand on the back of the boy's head, forcing him
slowly forward until the tip of his knife met the solid stop of bone.
The youth groaned through tight teeth as the acolytes of Mithras
used to do at their first branding.

Blood pulsed freely onto the back of Valerius' hand. 'You haven't
been long with the legions, have you?' he said. 'Information comes
free to whomsoever holds the knife. I think we might have it without the oaths.'

'No time . . .' The boy's eyes grew wide at the centres.
Astonishingly, a spark of humour lingered in their core. 'I will die
and she will die. Her death . . . will be worse.'

He might have died then for the sheer effrontery of it, but the
hound came to lick the blood from his lip and he saw it and jerked
away as he had not done from the knife, terror naked on his face.

Longinus said, quietly, 'Valerius, he can see your hound.'

'I noticed.' Valerius drew back his hand. His knife was level with
the boy's eye. It, too, was beyond the legal length and honed back
at the blade, like the skinning knives of the dreamers, that they
used to find the truth. The scout recognized that, too, and it scared
him almost as much as the hound.

Valerius said, 'I will know if you lie to me. Do you believe that?'

'Yes.'

They made him sit and bound his hands and ankles. He was no longer bleeding from his throat, but his lower lip had swollen to
the size of a slingstone where Valerius had cut it and the blood had
pooled beneath the skin.

Valerius crouched in front of him, holding the knife. 'Talk to
me.'
Heron-clouds speared the sky, pushed by an easterly breeze.

Breaca could not see them, only feel them, as if they reached
down to her, with memories of the wind.

Memories; nothing seen. It was a long time since she had seen
anything but oak and lately not that. Darkness was better,
although sweat stung her eyes and the light hurt when she blinked
it away. That was a new kind of pain, a layer on the other layers,
one that could be made better when the rest could not.

Nothing made better the pain in her back, her shoulders, her
arms. Breathing hurt and not breathing hurt and cursing and not
cursing. She had not yet found if screaming made any difference,
but would do so, soon. In the beginning, a small part of her had
wanted to scream, to rage against the shock, the indignity, the stripping of her pride, but her pride was the greater part and had not allowed it. Now, the greater part of her needed release and only
a small, waning kernel of something not yet broken kept her silent.

Soon she would break, but not yet. Not yet. Not yet. The voice
in her head, which had once been at least partly her own, was now
entirely the ancestor-dreamer's. It kept up the litany.

Not yet. This is the beginning. The rest will be worse; don't bring
it sooner.

She could not imagine worse. This much was more than she
could bear. She opened her mouth and breathed in hot, sweating
air and--

Not yet.

She closed her mouth and choked on sweat and old spit and
somewhere, somebody laughed and she remembered that they
could see her and for a moment, she took the weight on her legs,
not her arms, and pressed her forehead to the oak and made the
feel of it count against the stunning, blinding, nauseating, endless,
endless, endless pain.

A blaze of lightning struck her arms, above her head, and she
forgot about her weight and slumped against the ties and the
lightning struck her back again, adding pain to infinite pain and
the oak was gone and all sense of safety and she opened her mouth
and took a breath--

Not yet.

--and closed it again.	"

Not yet. You have too much pride. You should listen to me.
'I did listen to you. I came east to lead the war host as you told
me. I am here now because of it.'

The torc lay like an iron clamp on her neck. She had thought the
procurator would take it; certainly he had fingered it, had
estimated its value as she had: melted to gold it would pay a
century of men for a summer of months, or a half-century for--
That way out did not work any longer. The lightning strikes-
across her back did not allow it. The ancestor-dreamer stood by
and watched.

Breaca said, 'Why did you lie to me? You promised a war host,
and freedom.'

No. I promised only that I would be with you, which I am, and
that I would give you death if you asked it. Do you ask it?

'No. Never.' It was good to rage at something other than the
pain, however unreasonably. 'You give nothing freely and I will not
pay your price.'

Not even to save the life of your daughter?

There was darkness, and a blink of salted pain, and the lightning
strikes and all of it was lost in the memory of Graine's voice, and
the silence when it had ended. Breaca said, 'You did not come to
me last night when I sought you.'

And instead, I come to you now.

'What do you offer?

' The life of your child.

'What do you ask?'

What I have always asked, that you come to me shorn of your
arrogance, that you abandon the walls you have built about
yourself and see what there is to see behind them.

'What point, when I am about to die?'

Would you go ignorant to the lands beyond life, never knowing
who you were born to? Would you-- The pain pressed on her,
driving her into darkness. It was difficult to hear anything clearly,
even the voice in her head.
The black became darker, muddier, the ancestor more urgent. Come to me, bringer of victory. Come. I am not so far away now.

Come to me. Come to me. Come to . . . And breathe. Only
breathe, because someone had emptied a bucket of water on her
head and the cold was as shocking as the lightning strikes and it
was all she could do to take a breath and open her mouth and--

Not yet. Come to me. Follow the dark.

There was no dark. Only the lightning, which was red, and the
hurtful blink of an eye.

Come to me. I am here to hold you. Only follow the dark.

Something had to break; the small kernel of pride was too small
to survive. Caught in the vortex of the lightning, broken by the
agony in her arms, Breaca of the Eceni, bearer of the serpent-spear,
let go of her pride and, for the sake of her daughter, followed the
thread of a voice she did not trust into the dark.

She was in a cave and the ancestor was in the cave with her and
it was not the cave of rock and running water in the high mountains
east of Mona, but a safe place, where the kernel of herself
might shelter against assault and not break, at least for a while.

Welcome. The ancestor was old beyond all imagining and the
serpent of her dreaming lived within her. She was vast, and made
herself small, that she might be approached without terror. Welcome. We could both wish you had come to me sooner.

'I did not know how. And had not the need.'

The laugh became part of her. You have had the need since you
were a child, only that your pride would not allow it.

At another time, she might have argued against that, but her
pride had got in the way of too many things to catalogue and there
was not time to list them now. Caught in the quiet cave, in a
miracle of no-pain, or of a pain so entirely consuming that it had
swamped her and she was already dying, she reached out to the
ancient past.

'What must I do?'

Come to know who you are. What else is there anyone can do?

Cunomar watched his mother lose consciousness the first time, and
be made to feel again with the water, and then slump again soon
after.

He thought she might have died, and prayed for it, but the
staggered rise and fall of her chest said that she had only gone for
a time beyond reach and could be brought back again with more
water. The mercenaries thought the same. One took the bucket to
the horse trough and filled it and would have dashed it on her as
he had before, but the procurator stepped forward and stayed his
arm.

'Stop. Enough. If she dies now . . .' He tapped his forefingers to
his lips, thinking, then said, 'Cut her down. Lie flat the crosses for
the others. If she hears her daughters raised up she will wake. Bring
them--'

A horse, ridden hard, came up the trackway. Two horses; a
second followed, with three others, so five altogether. It helped to
count things, to keep his attention elsewhere; Cunomar was learning
that.

The first of the incomers swung through the gates, turning too
tightly for safety. A normal horse, pulled round so hard, might
have fallen. This one gathered itself on the turn and stopped where
was needful, in front of the stanchion, missing by a hand's breadth
the fallen body of the woman lying limp on the ground.

Cunomar gaped and closed his eyes and opened them and stared
again. The horse was pied, the two colours of a frost-laden night.
The rider bore the leather armour and blue cloak of a Roman
messenger, with the oak leaf in gold pinned under his chin that said
he came from the governor. He swept off his helmet and the hair
beneath was black and the profile could have been Luain mac
Calma's made younger and harder and assailed more by life.

Cunomar closed his mouth and swallowed, drily. His mind
caught up late with his memories. Hoarsely, he said, 'Valerius?'

'What? Gods, it is.' Ardacos jerked in the shackles, sending a
ripple down the line of men.

Ardacos never showed surprise, or fear, or anger, or pride, or
hate; until now when the loathing in his voice would have stripped
a lesser man to the skin. 'Traitor. He's come to gloat.' He shouted
it aloud. 'Traitor!'

The she-bears took up the shout, and Gunovar; none of them
knew who the stranger was, only that life was ending and this man
had come to watch it and Ardacos, whom they revered, clearly
hated him.

Airmid looked on, distractedly, as if recently woken from dreaming,
or perhaps not woken at all. She said three words to Gunovar
and both of them shouted it. 'Traitor! Nemain bind you!' Their
trained voices carried over the she-bears' and roused more amusement
in the men guarding them, which was understandable; they
had shouted in Latin.
The messenger - Valerius - ignored them as he had ignored the
bleeding body of the Boudica lying prone beneath his horse's feet.
Without dismounting, he presented himself as was proper to the
procurator, neatly and only a little out of breath.

'The governor sends his greetings and his word.' The message
satchel at his shoulder was sealed with wax and the elephant-seal
of Britannia, that it was death to break unbidden. 'If you would
care to read the message privately?'

'Thank you.' The procurator clearly did not care to do so at all
if it interrupted his morning, but could not be seen to say so. He
delayed, while the messenger's companion ploughed through the
gateway leading three pack horses. The newcomer swept off his
helmet to reveal a mass of astonishingly rich russet hair.

The veterans made space for the incomer, pleasantly jocular, and
there was a small moment of chaos when too many horses took up
too much space and Valerius' horse, which had been ridden
hardest, threw its head restlessly against the hold of the reins and
jumped sideways, so that it jostled the procurator.

The emperor's collector of taxes was not used to being jostled,
and was deeply afraid of the horse. He ducked sideways, swearing.
'Carefully, man. Can't you get that beast--'

The sword-blade that rested along his throat was polished and
honed and it had already broken his skin. The black eyes of
the man above it were the epitome of vicious, lethal arrogance. The
man in messenger's dress, who had just this moment been so polite,
said with freezing clarity, 'My horse is battle trained. If you move, I
will have him kill you. It will be spectacular, and faster than you
deserve, but... I really don't think so. Driscus, call your men into
order. You will die first if they assault us. Thank you, Longinus . . .'

For this last, he cast his voice past the procurator to the
mercenary veterans gathered beyond the stanchion. Not quite fast
enough, they had seen the risk to their patron and would have
come to his aid, but for the fact that Driscus, their leader, had also
moved too slowly and had been relieved of his sword in a single
swift manoeuvre by the cavalryman with the russet hair and was
staring at the point of it, a little cross-eyed. Blood drizzled from a
horizontal cut on his forehead. His men shifted uneasily, and
waited for an order.

'Better.' Valerius nodded, pleasantly. As if the procurator did not
exist, he looked past the empty stanchion to the swordless
mercenary. 'Driscus, I may have grown my hair since you last saw
me, in which case you are forgiven for not remembering the man
who had you flogged three times in one winter for being drunk on
duty, but I am devastated that you don't remember the horse that
took the better half out of your sword arm and put you under the
care of Theophilus for a month.'

The man Driscus stared and frowned and stared, then, 'Valerius?
It can't be. You're dead. You died in Gaul. Corvus told us. I paid
two sesterces towards your memorial.'

'You flatter my memory.' Valerius sketched a salute. 'Even so, I
am not dead. Anyone who wishes to risk losing their arm to the
Crow-horse can come close to test it. Or you could make better use
of the time and pack whatever gold you have collected and leave
now for Camulodunum.'

'Why?'

'Because the prefect, Corvus, of the Ala Quinta Gallorum, is on
his way with three cohorts of legionaries and he is not at all happy
at having to break his journey west to deal with a tax collector who
has grossly exceeded his powers. This--' He swept his blade
in a horizontal arc. A dozen mercenaries ducked, unconsciously.
'--is the family of a king. They have done nothing but properly
mourn the death of the man who ruled them.'

'They attacked the proc--'

'They were goaded. We have a witness who will swear to it on
his life.'

'They have arms. We have--'

'Yes, I saw. They have iron bars, Driscus. Every steading from
here to the far southern coast has a cache of iron bars. They trade
with them, they turn them into hoes and bridle bits and the
pathetic cheese knives we let them hunt with. If you're going to
name as traitor every smith who keeps a stock of iron bars, we are
going to be excessively busy this spring, and frankly, I think the
Governor has bigger things in mind.'

Affronted, Driscus said, 'They killed Strignus. And Titus
Castellius.'

Valerius laughed. 'And is that supposed to be somebody's loss?
A child with a bent twig could have killed Strignus on his better
days. And Castellius was probably raping their children, in which
case he is very much better dead than he would be when I'd finished
with him.'

There was a dry, aching pause, as several dozen mercenaries
remembered very well exactly how Valerius had treated men who
raped the native children, and each held his breath and prayed to
all the gods that his neighbour would not choose to say something
foolish.

'Yes. Right.' Driscus cleared his throat. 'So then what should
we--'

'He's lying. Are you insane? He's lying and he has no power to
enforce any of this. In the name of the emperor, I order you to disarm
him. The man's quite clearly--' The procurator had found his
voice. He lost it again on the point of Valerius' sword, and the hard
black eyes above it.

Valerius said, 'Lie down. Face down, and don't move.'

Very few men had the mettle to ignore that voice and the
procurator was not one of them. Even had he been, the order was
underscored by the unmistakable sound of a troop of horses riding
hard along the trackway, coming closer.

'That will be Corvus,' said Valerius pleasantly. 'And his personal
cavalry troop. You can, of course, accuse him also of lying. I will
be pleased to bear witness to it later at your trial. In the meantime,
you will lie down and you will not speak unless spoken to.'

The procurator lay down.

Very shortly, Corvus rode in through the gates at the head of his
personal troop of cavalry, living proof that Valerius had not been
lying. He brought with him the Coritani hawk-scout, who had a
wrap of bloodied wool around his throat and a blackened swelling
at his lip and would not look at Valerius. Cunomar should have
been amused by that, and did not have the strength, or the breath
to spare that was not used for praying.

The prefect had pushed his horse easily as hard as Valerius had
done ahead of him. He led his small troop of twenty handpicked
riders into a compound thronged by newly nervous mercenaries
and their silent, watchful prisoners. His men had been given prior
orders. They rode in double file through the gates and divided on
entry, half to the left, half to the right, forming a semicircle of
armoured iron that blocked the exit from the steading. Every
second man dismounted and handed his reins to the rider on his
right.

Corvus' attention was on Valerius, and had been since he rode
in. They faced each other as stags might, meeting on the boundaries
of the rut; or as enemies on a battlefield, who have fought for
years without meeting, and, having finally done so, find each other
not as they supposed.

Without shifting his gaze, Corvus said to his men, 'Find their
packs and search them.'

The mercenary veterans of Camulodunum had been promised
wealth to excess if they marched to the aid of their procurator. The
steading of the late king of the Eceni had not proved as rich as they
might have expected, but, as was normal on any campaign,
they had taken a judicious share before submitting the rest to the
inventory.

Emptied onto the beaten earth of the compound, their packs
revealed a magpie's horde of gold and silver, of enamelled armbands
that would fetch a good price in the markets of Rome,
of brooches and god-offerings and necklaces and, in one, a child's
brooch of a wren, wrapped in wool for safe keeping.

The search of the few buildings still upright revealed also the
presence of the king's two daughters, who were in urgent need of a
physician's care - if they were not deemed traitors, in which case
they could hang and finish what had been started.

The captain of the cavalry said as much to his prefect, who nodded
and pinched the bridge of his nose, and with his gaze still on Valerius,
said, 'Driscus, you were a bad armourer and you make a worse
centurion but sadly that's not a capital offence, unlike theft of the
emperor's property, which most certainly is. It is your great fortune
that I have a war to attend and do not have the time to hang you and
your rabble personally. You have until the remainder of my cohorts
arrive to marshal your men and leave. I suggest you do so with more
professionalism than you demonstrated on leaving Camulodunum.'

Addressing the mercenaries, Valerius had spoken the soldiers'
patois, the loose, louche language of the legions, broadened with
Gaulish and Thracian and the throaty Batavian of the crack
cavalry units. Corvus spoke the senate's Latin, that made gutter
scum of all beneath it, and did as much damage to the veterans as
the words. Driscus had coloured, deeply, long before the prefect
finished speaking, and was twisting the leather end of his belt in his
hand by the end.

Given leave to move, the leader of the procurator's three veteran
centuries had things to prove, and he did his best. The order with
which his men marched out of the Eceni steading was not militarily
perfect, but it was considerably sharper than when they had
marched in.

A number of small things happened as the last of them left. The
Coritani scout was sent to take water and what help he could offer
to the king's daughters. The captain of the prefect's cavalry, who
had been with them, remounted his horse and ordered his men to
do likewise. Twenty seasoned troopers gathered on restless horses
and rode out through the gate, to wait on the far side. Jarred into
action, Corvus finally wrested his gaze from Valerius and looked
down at the woman who, since his arrival, he had sheltered
beneath the feet of his horse.

'Breaca?'

She was dead; Cunomar was certain of it. From the moment
the prefect had first ridden in, she had not moved, and the rise
of her breathing could no longer be seen, obvious or not.

'Breaca?' Urgently now, Corvus dismounted and knelt beside her
and pressed his fingers to the side of her neck and then stood and
drew his own water canister from the side of his saddle
and dribbled a little into the corner of her mouth. 'Breaca?'

She coughed, and so was alive.

Cunomar swayed in the chains that held him. At his side,
Ardacos cursed and was weeping. Airmid took the last of three
steps forward and dropped to her knees at Breaca's head and
took the water skin that was offered her and poured it more
carefully now, so that the water was swallowed, and spoke
and was answered, in a whisper too hoarse to carry across the
compound, so that only the word 'Graine?' could be heard with
any clarity and Airmid's answer was lost in the further coughing
fit that followed.

'Valerius?' Corvus had stepped back and remounted.

Valerius' black eyes were unreadable. He said, 'Thank you. I
wasn't sure you would come. This is more than I can repay.'

Corvus said, 'I came for Breaca. And her daughters. In the minds
of the legions, you are dead. It would be best if you remained so.'

'Then you have helped a ghost find solace, for which he is grateful.' Very slowly, Valerius leaned forward and offered his arm in
the soldiers' greeting, that is at the same time a farewell, and an
encouragement to battle. 'I am sorry to have brought this on you,'
he said.

After a brief pause, stiffly, Corvus took the offered arm. 'True
solace?' he asked.

'As much as the gods ever give it. I have missed you. I will miss
you still.'

'And I.'

They would not weep, either of them, and the air cracked for
need of it. Cunomar wept for them, through the pounding pain in
his head and the rawness of his throat, and did not know why he
did so.

A crow called and they broke apart, as if ordered. Corvus swung
his horse. He paused at the gates to salute the cavalryman with the
russet hair and said, 'Longinus, I have your memorial stone. If you
ever wish to see it, you have only to re-present yourself to your
quartermaster as living.'

The cavalryman saluted in his turn. 'If I ever find the company
of ghosts displeasing, I will do so. Thank you.'

At no time did Corvus mention, talk to, or even acknowledge,
the procurator, lying rigidly terrified beneath the Crow-horse's
front feet.

Nobody moved, nobody spoke. Slowly, the sound of cavalry
horses, ridden hard, became quieter.

Cunomar stood still, so very, very still, so that not one link of the
chains that bound him chimed against another.

Still they waited, until the sound of the crow gathering thatch
from the broken roof of Airmid's hut was louder than the staccato
whisper of distant horses, and then a little longer, until eventually
Valerius said something in a language that was neither Eceni, nor
Latin, nor Gaulish, and the cavalryman with the russet hair nodded
and walked to Gunovar and freed her.

She was a smith and had not been badly harmed. With the
cavalryman's help, she began to work her way round and strike off
the slave fetters that held the she-bears.

Dazed, and still not entirely believing, Cunomar put his wrists
together and shuffled forward. He leaned his forehead on Ardacos'
shoulder, because he could, and he loved him, and he was too tired
to stand unsupported and all of these things were entirely acceptable,
and he was utterly unprepared for the violence that erupted
beyond the stanchion.

'No!' The procurator's scream was higher than a child's, and as
futile.

He was not appealing to a human agency, with heart and soul
and mind that could be moved. Valerius' pied horse had lifted its
forelegs from the ground and reared high and stood there for a
moment, taller than any man; the embodiment of vengeance,
driven by the warrior who sat erect on its back and, with a quiet
word and a touch of his heel, brought the beast down again, hard,
onto the Roman scrabbling to escape beneath its feet.

Valerius' one word was the last quiet and the steady rear the last
thing that was steady. The horse's feet smashed into the procurator
and the man screamed and the sound and the feel triggered an
explosion of savagery that eclipsed any seen that morning.

Moved by a hatred that went beyond anything of man, the pied
beast threw itself high to the sky and came down again on the
bleeding body and again and again and again, screaming its
passion so that the procurator's voice was lost, as his body was lost
in the chaos of bones and flesh and teeth until nothing was left of
the man who had ordered the flogging of the Boudica and the rape
of her daughters but a carrion-mess of bloody viscera and the white
fragments of skull within it.

'Valerius, stop. Stop. It's over. You can stop.'

The russet-haired cavalryman had more courage than Cunomar.
He stepped in close beside the raging horse and reached up to its
rider, holding his arm in the brief moment when the beast was
down, before it threw itself up again.

'Stop. Your sister needs your help. The children need your help.
This isn't helping.'

The horse became still and stood sweat-washed and shuddering
as if it had raced and won. Valerius was not sweating, or shaking,
but sitting very still, white-faced, looking beyond Cunomar to
the hawk-scout, who had come out of the hut that sheltered the
Boudica's daughters, and then to Airmid, who still knelt beside
Breaca.

Something he read in her face reached him. He dismounted and
knelt, finally, at the side of his sister, who lay within a spear's
length of the horse that could have killed her. He laid a hand to her
head, and then to her heart, and then bent to press his ear to
her chest.

Rising he said, 'Longinus, get water. Hawk, get whoever is free
and can walk and seal the gates and bring the crosses down and use
them to build a barricade. If Driscus has second thoughts and
marches back up from Camulodunum, I'd like to believe we have
a whisper of protection.'

Valerius knelt then, in the filth beside the woman against whom
he had fought for so long, and lifted her in his arms with the care
of a lover and stood and looked around to find some building that
had not been destroyed, and took her at last to Airmid's hut on the
western side of the clearing where, if nothing else, there was water
from the stream, and shelter under the broken thatch.

'Is Breaca awake?'

'I hope not.'

Yes.

She wanted to speak, but her mouth would not move to the
commands of her mind.

Airmid was close by, and had been since the first touch of her
hands beneath the stanchion and her voice which had said all that
was necessary: 'Graine is alive. Corvus is here. All will be well,' so
that it was not necessary for Breaca to climb out of the well of
peace she had found.

The blackness came and went. Hands wrapped her hands, cleaning
each finger of the dirt and blood that had become ingrained.
Later, someone laid something cool and wet across the ruined flesh
of her back. She flinched violently and groaned aloud, not finding
words, nor even seeking them, and the cool went away, but not the
wet. More of it dribbled on, slowly, so that each drop warmed and
soothed before the next came and in time the steady patter became
bearable.

Above, voices rolled back and forth. She listened to the tone if
not the words until it was clear that Airmid had asked a question,
but not who had answered, except that it was a man, and that he
cared for her.

Some time later, when the sun had moved and there was less heat
in her back, the same man said, 'She needs to move as Cunomar
and the others who were flogged with him are moving.'

Airmid said, 'She's not ready.'

Patiently, 'Then we have to make her ready. If she lies as
she is, her back will stiffen as it heals and she'll be hindered as a
warrior.'

A new voice, gruffly male, asked, 'Will she care?'

'I believe so. You could always ask her.'

'It's not my business. I only came to see how you were. I'll be
outside, helping with the others. Find me when you're done.' A
memory came of a cavalry officer with russet hair, who had stood
beside her, watchfully, while there was still danger. He was a good
man, and he cared deeply, but not for her.

With him gone, the texture of the voices changed and a voice in
her ear said, 'Breaca? If you're awake, just nod. You don't have to
speak.'

She nodded.

'I need to move you. Is that all right?'

She nodded again and steady hands turned her head and someone
dribbled water into the side of her mouth and she swallowed
it without coughing and thought that she had lain long enough like
a helpless infant and could move by herself, and did move; and
stopped moving, abruptly.

When she could breathe again, she said, 'Why do I have to
move?' Her voice wavered, weakly.

'Because your back will heal into something like wood and you
will never swing a sword again, nor cast a slingstone, nor throw a
spear. If you can keep moving now, then it will heal freely and you
will only have more scars, not a body that fails to answer your
bidding.'

A long time ago, in her childhood, her father had taken a bone
splinter out of her hand. The pain then had seemed as bad as anything could ever be. The man sitting at her bedside sounded exactly as Eburovic had then, or Luain mac Calma at other times with other wounds: benignly reasonable when pain was coming and there was nothing to be done about it.

She swivelled her head round to look. He sat near her shoulder,
holding her hand. He had cleaned her fingers and he was mac
Calma, Elder of Mona, more exhausted than she had known him, and with a new edge of irony, turned in on himself, and a hound at his side that looked very like Hail.

Hoarsely, she said, 'I thought you were on Mona?'

Surprised, he raised a brow. 'I was.'

'What brought you here?'

'Luain mac Calma sent me. He thought you should be
encouraged to raise the tribes in rebellion while the governor is
busy in the west. That was what he said at the time. I suspect his
true motives may have been different.'

Luain mac Calma sent me. That made no sense. She closed her
eyes, the better to think. The hound stood very close to him, as
Stone would do for her, except that Stone was a hound of flesh and
blood and this hound was not.

Luain mac Calma's dream was the heron. He did not have a
hound that would cross from death to life to find him, nor a russet-haired cavalry officer with a gruff voice who cared for him with single-minded intensity; nor, if she thought about it, had he ever
ridden a horse that could kill a man on command, nor ever had the
need to find one.

Breaca opened her eyes.

'Ban?'

It was not the right name. Her brother flinched as if struck and
the strange, dry humour of his gaze died to bleakness. Without it,
exhaustion showed, and the bottomless well of pain to which
his horse had given such shattering voice in the morning. Suddenly,
he looked very much as he had done on the boat returning
from Gaul, brought close to destruction by the ghosts of his
own despair. He had used another name then, perhaps not only to
taunt her.

Guessing, Breaca said, 'Valerius, then. If it fits better.'

He looked down, and seemed to be searching for words. When
he looked up, he had found the humour again, however shakily.

'I think it does. I had hoped not, even prayed not, but the gods
are wiser. Ban died a long time ago, and cannot be brought back
now. In his place, you have Valerius of Nemain and Mithras, a
dreamer with some facility as a warrior, who offers you his service,
if you wish it.'

There was too much in that to deal with at once. She said, 'Of
Nemain and Mithras? Can you serve both?'

'It would seem so. I had thought there would be space for only
one, but apparently not. We have reached an ... accommodation.
It serves us all well, and could serve you, if you wish it.'

He had said the same, exactly, a moment ago. Breaca held her
breath against the pain and made herself sit up. 'Why might I not?'

He looked at her, and through her, to all that was beyond.
'When we met last, on a ship, mac Calma stopped you from killing
me. He said you would have need of me. He did not tell you
that he was my father, and that he had that much reason to keep
me alive.'

The brother she once knew would have given that news more
tightly. The man sitting by her bedside might have done, she
thought, if he had remembered what it was to be gentle with
himself.

Misreading her silence, he said, 'Mac Calma is not here now. I
would imagine that is by design, not accident.'

'So that I could kill you now if I chose?' She laughed, which hurt
them both. 'I'm hardly in any condition to kill anyone.'

'Which is not the point.'

He was not smiling; even the irony, which had seemed so
habitual, was gone. His eyes devoured her and his soul lay open,
so that she could see the dark corners of it much as the ancestor
had shown her the darkness in her own heart. Before, she would
have been appalled, and might indeed have turned him away. Now,
knowing herself as she had never done, she saw past the dark to
the god-space, and the passion that fired it, and had given him the
strength to serve two gods and not split apart.

He dropped his gaze, hiding himself. His hands lay flat on the
pallet, scarred and sun-worn, with the nails pared tight and
the tendons like ropes on the backs, from years of wielding a
sword. They shook, lightly, and would not be stilled.

The silence stretched and he would not break it. He was offering
his soul and her response mattered to him, as much as anything, as
much, possibly, as the parting from Corvus.

Breaca had heard that, lying beneath the stanchion, and the
words neither had said. She had not known who he was then, only
felt the raw currents that had tugged at them, and she knew, if no
one else, that the explosion of grief that had come afterwards and
had slain the procurator had not all been for the sake of the
children.

He was her brother, and they shared no blood, except that their
mothers had been sisters. Unknowing, she had grown to adulthood
and beyond, had become Warrior of Mona and then the
Boudica, and each battle had been fought with this man in her
heart, believing him brother, believing him dead, wanting him to
know that she loved him.

Still he did not know it.

She made herself move, slowly, carefully, until she could grasp
both of his hands between her own, and feel the shaking, and still
it. She said, 'A long time ago, I made an oath to the serpent
dreamer of the ancestors that I would do whatever it took to
protect my family. I renewed that oath now, at the stanchion,
understanding more of what it meant. Whatever your blood, you
are part of my family. On the boat from Gaul, I had forgotten that.
It was a mistake. Will you forgive me?'
He was weeping and had been for some time. She held his hand
and waited and watched and he forced himself not to flinch this
time but sustained her scrutiny for as long as either of them could
bear, and then broke away and looked down again at her hands
holding his.

He said, 'It's not for me to forgive. So much of what I have done
is unforgivable and there is no going back. But we can go forward,
and perhaps not make the same mistakes again. Airmid says you
are looking for warriors to drive the legions back to the sea. I am
not the warrior to lead the final rout of Rome, but rather a dreamer
who has lived the past twenty years as a warrior, and can still fight
if I have to. If I offered to fight for you, would you accept it?'

The world held its breath, and the ancestor, who was within her.

Breaca made the moment last, because it was a good one, and
few things in the recent past had been good. Then she pulled his
hands to hers and kissed them and then reached up and kissed his
cheek; he was her brother, whatever his blood, and he needed to
know it.

'Yes, of course,' she said. 'With great gratitude, I will accept and
return it; my life for yours, for all time.'


EPILOGUE.

TWO HAMMERS RANG ON THEIR ANVILS, RHYTHMICALLY. Breaca woke and lay for a while staring at the striated
thatch-shadows spread across the wall to her left. The noise
made its own stripes, matching the light-and-dark. She lost herself
in them for a while, working up to moving. It was important to
move; Valerius had said so and had come to remind her three times
each day for the past five days. 'It's the old rule of the legions:
keep moving your back while a flogging heals, else the flesh will
stiffen for ever. It hurts for now, but it'll be worth it later, I
promise.'

He was a man who did not cast his promises lightly, she was
coming to know that. Experimentally, she brought her knees to her
chest and away again. It was possible to do it now without holding
her breath to keep from swearing. She did it again, more
smoothly.

'Mother?'

Breaca jerked upright, forgetting the pain. 'Graine? I thought
you were asleep?'

'No. Don't want to sleep. It hurts.' Graine lay an arm's reach
away and had done for two days, since Airmid had said she was
well enough to be carried the distance across the steading from one
hut to the other. She lay now in the striped sunlight, insubstantial
as a ghost, with her white skin stretched tight over the battered
bones of her skull and the bruises fading on her face and the blue
black shadows beneath her eyes not fading at all.

Breaca made herself stand, slowly. 'Airmid left something for
you to drink. It might help. Do you want it?'

'No.' Graine made a face, and turned away, rubbing her eyes
with the backs of her hands, like an infant.

'I have some milk, then, and some cheese. They have no poppy
in them, or anything that will make you dream. Would you eat
them with me?'

Breaca sat on the edge of the piled sheepskins and crumbled the
white goat's cheese and found a wrinkled apple that one of the
incoming warriors must have brought. She bit away a half-moon
portion and held it out. 'Graine? Love of life, can you eat?'

'A bit.' They sat up together, both of them broken, and ate
slowly, pushing food past the nausea and fear.

Graine chewed, slowly, mechanically, as if it were a duty, unwillingly
met. She stared out of the door to the steading beyond.
'Who's making the noise?'

'The hammering? That's Gunovar and Valerius, my brother.
They're making weapons for the new warriors.'

There were a great many new warriors. In the days she had been
bedridden, the war host had grown to over a thousand, and was
growing still. Ardacos had charge of it, with Dubornos. It mattered
to keep Dubornos busy; he was alive only because Graine was still
alive. If she had died, he would have laid himself on her grave and
followed her into the lands beyond life. Breaca had absolved him
of all fault, openly and before witnesses, and he had not believed
her.

'Will there be war?' Graine was still looking out of the door.

'Yes. Very soon.'

'If you're still sick, will Valerius lead it?'

'Maybe. If the others will follow him. He knows most about
Rome. If the legions come, which they must do now, then he knows
best how to fight against them.'

'Cunomar hates him.'

Breaca laid down her cheese, unable to eat. Graine was so small,
and had been so sick, and Breaca had thought her asleep when
Cunomar had carried her into the hut, and found Valerius already there, and refused to acknowledge him. It had only lasted a
moment; Valerius had gone out, as if it were right that he do so.

Breaca had not stopped him. It was the first time she had seen
Cunomar since he had stood in slave chains beneath the cross
on which he was about to die and it had taken all her self-control
simply to lie still and look at her son and not show anything,
or speak.

Cunomar had laid Graine on the sheepskins piled along the wall
and, straightening, had said, 'It doesn't matter. An ear's a small
price to pay for living.'

Breaca had nodded, speechless. Her beautiful, gold-haired
warrior son was beautiful no longer. Sometime during the day, he
had shaved the hair at his temples and back along the sides of his
head, so that his one ear stood proud and unhidden, and the other,
which had gone, showed a black clot of old blood and the hole in
the centre of it that Airmid had packed with rolled leaves to keep
it open. He had been beautiful, and was damaged beyond all repair,
and knew it.

'It doesn't matter,' he had said, again. 'We're alive. We have a
war to fight and to win. If this is the worst of what happens, we
will be happy at the end of it.'

He was right, for himself if not for Graine, the child-dreamer
who feared to sleep, who cried out at night and made herself wake
and then lay rigidly still, staring into the dark. She found no safety
or help in the things that would have held her before; she could not
call on the elder grandmother, nor hear the ancestor-dreamer, and
the hare that ran through her dreams was gone.

Privately, Airmid had said the dreaming could have been driven
out of her for ever or could return later, stronger; that it would be
impossible to tell until all the pieces of her that had been broken
were mended, and that such a healing could not be hurried and
might take days or months or years or pass beyond this lifetime.

'There's nothing any of us can do, except care for her,' she had
said, and Breaca had stared at the wall and bitten her lip and
said nothing. As she was, there was nothing she could do
about anything, and the frustration of that was driving her to
distraction.
Now, she made herself walk from the bed to the door and back
again. Outside, a fire burned, fragrantly. The wind tugged strands
of smoke into the hut. Graine sniffed and smiled thinly and took a
crumb of cheese, as if that might make the walk back to the bed
easier.

'Cygfa likes him,' Graine said, 'your brother. Ardacos told me.
She's training her horse to be like his Crow-horse.'

'Is she? I don't think it's possible to train a horse to be like that. Can
you drink this?' Breaca held a beaker of milk and helped Graine to
drink it, and then stayed at her side, holding her small shoulders, trying
to find some comfort. 'Is Cygfa well enough to ride?'

'Not really. But she won't listen to Airmid. She said she would
rest but she got up and spent the morning training with the new
warriors and the afternoon talking to your brother about his horse.
He's a dreamer, isn't he, not a warrior or a smith?'

'Valerius? He's all of those things, but he's a dreamer before
everything else, yes. How do you know?'

'His hound walks in his soul. Like Airmid's frog, and your
serpent-spear.' Graine tilted her head back and studied her mother
curiously. 'That's new,' she said. 'Stronger.' She continued to look.
Her face blurred, as if sleep-drenched, and then cleared again. Her
eyes lost some of their haunting. 'Cunomar doesn't have a bear like
that. He is given to it, but it doesn't live in him. Is that why he hates
your brother?'

'I think so.' Breaca bent her neck against the stiffness in her back
and pressed her lips to her daughter's sweated hair. She breathed in
the smell, the sharpness of pain and fear and hurt and the aching
absence of dreaming. She reached inside for the ancestor, and
found her, quietly watchful.

I promised you her life, said the ancestor. You did not ask that
she be whole. I could not have made her that.

'I know. Nobody could. But she sees Valerius' dream-hound; she
cannot, then, be for ever cut off from her dreaming?'

No more than you were.

Once, she would have railed against so ambiguous an answer.
Now, she nodded and kissed Graine again and said aloud, 'Since I
first came from the ancestor's cave, Cunomar has wanted to be the
one to lead the rout of Rome. He is afraid now that Valerius will
take his place. I have said that only the gods can know who will be
alive to fight and that we should all be ready but he is still afraid.'

'What does the ancestor say?' Graine squirmed round to see her
properly.

'Nothing. She will speak when it matters and not before. For the
moment, all that matters is that you get well again. Can you drink
some more milk, do you think?'

They drank, and finished the apple and the cheese and a haunch
of roast hare that Airmid had cooked and wrapped in leaves and
infused with the faintest taint of poppy, and other things that might
bring dreamless sleep.

Breaca lifted Graine and carried her back to the pile of hides that
was her own bed and they lay in it together, carefully, curling
round to find the places of least discomfort that still let them lie
together, skin on skin, finding a semblance of peace in a world
racing to war.

Later, when Graine slept, and her breathing was even, Breaca lay
quietly awake. She ran her fingers through the ox-blood hair and
bent forward, painfully, and kissed the place at the back, in the
middle, where a small arrow-head of rich red hairs came together.

'You're alive,' she said to the child, and the listening gods. 'It was
all I asked for. For today, that's enough. Tomorrow, or the day
after, we can give thanks that everyone else is alive and then we can
raise and arm every warrior of every tribe and push Rome and its
legions back into the sea.'


AUTHOR'S NOTE.

THOSE WHO KNOW ANYTHING OF BOUDICA'S STORY, FROM SCHOOL OR
modern media histories, know that she was flogged and her daughters
were raped and that this was the spark that lit the fires of her
revolt against Roman occupation. It makes romantic reading and
gave our Victorian forebears an understandable excuse for why
and how a woman might have had the opportunity and ability to
lead an armed war host in a series of successful military actions; the
'wronged matron' fighting to avenge the assault on her daughters
ruffles no feathers.

In reality, the atrocities committed by the Roman authorities in
the wake of Prasutagos' death were the end point of a cumulating
oppression and, it seems to me, were more likely in retribution for
the beginnings of insurrection that was already under way than the
trigger that began it. We have no exact date to pinpoint the start of
this uprising but it came at a time when Suetonius Paulinus was
attacking the druidic island of Mona (now known as Anglesey) and
we can assume that he attacked early in the battle season, simply
to give himself time to complete his actions before the autumn. We
also know from Tacitus that the tribes '. . . had been careless in
sowing corn, people of every age having gone to war . . .' from
which we can assume that the revolt was under way at the time of
the spring plantings - not long after the winter thaw.

If we put these facts together, we have a spring uprising, in which
a number of well-armed tribal warriors conducted at least two
well-planned raids, which took full advantage of the governor's
preoccupation in the west of the country. It seems to me unlikely
that whoever ruled the Eceni could have mustered a war host from
amongst a defeated, disarmed nation without some degree of
preparation and warning and, given the restrictions of winter, that
this preparation had been under way since at least the previous
autumn.

If this is the case, then Prasutagos' death - the timing of which
is also inexact - is likely to have come towards the end of those
preparations.

Tacitus' eloquent description of the abuse of the native tribes by
the Roman colonists of Camulodunum makes stark reading. A
single paragraph summarizes the conditions that led to war:

It was against the veterans that [the rebelling tribes'] hatred was
most intense. For these new settlers in the colony of Camulodunum
drove people out of their houses, ejected them from their farms,
called them captives and slaves and the lawlessness of the veterans
was encouraged by the soldiers, who lived a similar life and hoped
for similar licence. A temple also erected to the Divine Claudius was
ever before their eyes, a citadel, as it seemed, of perpetual tyranny.

Thus we have the Trinovantes in Camulodunum being treated as
are all natives by the occupying power: with contempt and little
observation of the law. We have also from Suetonius in his Lives of
the Caesars the fact that Nero - a profligate spender even by
Roman imperial standards - had considered withdrawing his
troops from Britain. This in itself might not have caused panic, but
Dio Cassius tells us that the imperial adviser Seneca

... in the hope of receiving a good rate of interest, had lent to the
islanders 40,000,000 sesterces that they did not want, and had afterwards
called in this loan all at once and had resorted to severe
measures in exacting it.

The tribes of the east, therefore, were under immense social and
political pressure. It is not hard to imagine each new insult pushing
them closer to the edge of war and the Eceni were well placed
to spark a rebellion. They had been party to a fairly effective armed
revolt in AD 47 and they were not immediately under the thumb of
the veterans in Camulodunum as were their neighbours, the
Trinovantes. Their king, Prasutagos, however, was a client king,
installed by Claudius and presumably considered a loyal Roman
subject, unlikely to rebel.

We know very little of Prasutagos other than that he was 'famed
for his long prosperity' and that he died having made one of the
most insane wills in history, which named his two daughters as coinheritors
with the emperor.

It is hard to imagine why he did this. Possibilities range from his
signing a document he could not read, to his signing a document
that was given to him with little option; a case of 'sign this and we
might honour it; don't sign and we'll take everything anyway.'

The question of the rights of women to inherit at this point is
open. Cicero reports that the 'Lex Vocania' broadly forbade any
man 'included in the census' to make a woman his heir. This was
transmuted by Augustus who ruled instead that women might
inherit if they had given birth to three children if they were Roman
citizens; four if they were freeborn Latins; or five if they were not
citizens. This would suggest that girls too young to conceive, or
who had failed to marry or to bear children, could not inherit.

This brings us, then, to Prasutagos' daughters about which
precisely nothing is known except that they were 'outraged' by the
centurions sent to take possession of the entirety of his inheritance
at the same time as their mother, the Boudica, was 'scourged'.

Here, Tacitus is our only source, but he is fairly specific that it
was the king's daughters who were raped and his wife who was
flogged. One wonders - at least I wonder - why a group of armed
men with nothing whatsoever to lose chose not to rape the wife as
well, but paused in their blood-frenzy for long enough to organize
a flogging - which is hardly the most spontaneous of events - and
then neither raped the Boudica nor slaughtered the entire family
afterwards.

Two things seem relevant here, both minor points of Roman law.
Elsewhere in Tacitus is a vivid description of the revenge meted out
to the family of the traitor Sejanus at the time of Tiberius, roughly
half a century before the Boudican revolt. In this, we hear of
Sejanus' young daughter who is dragged off to execution, entirely
too young to understand what is going on or why. 'Historians of
the time tell us that, as there was no precedent for the capital
punishment of a virgin, she was violated by the executioner, with
the rope on her neck.' Much later, in the fourth century AD, the
young woman who became St Agnes was also 'violated' before her
execution on the grounds that she was a virgin and it was illegal
to execute a girl who had yet to lose her chastity.

If we add to that the very well documented fact that flogging was
routinely practised against insurgents prior to their crucifixion
(Christ is the obvious case in point) then we have the possibility
that the rapes of the girls and the flogging of the Boudica were not
simply the acts of men out of control, but the planned prelude to a
judicial execution of a family caught in the act of rebellion.

The question remains as to why that execution failed to take
place and for that we have no reasons, except that, like its
successor, the Spanish Inquisition, Rome was a punctilious
observer of the rule of law and the execution of a king's family was
not something to be taken lightly by anyone less than an emperor.
A governor might have the necessary authority to carry out such an
act, but we know that Paulinus was otherwise occupied in the
assault on Mona. Thus whoever acted in the east was almost
certainly overstepping his powers and a senior officer might
reasonably be assumed to have stepped in to stop it.

These, then, are the written historical grounds for this book. The
rest is built around my interpretation of the archaeology. One piece
is relatively unaltered: a tombstone was found in Colchester dating
from the period of the Boudican revolt. It was dedicated to a man
named 'Longinus Sdapeze' who had fought with the First Thracian
Cavalry. The tombstone and the wording thereon are almost
exactly as described in the text.

For the rest, as ever, the fiction outweighs the fact although I
have tried to build on a skeleton of what is known or can be
inferred from the existing data. The structure of tribal society is my
own, based around a relatively flimsy skeleton of archaeology and
later records of Celtic Ireland, which was never invaded by Rome.
One of the most concrete 'facts' is the annual calendar followed by
Breaca and her people which is based on a Gaulish remnant carved
on stone. For the Gauls, certainly, and I believe the tribal Britons,
the day began at dusk so that night preceded day, and the year
began at the start of winter on what is now called Samhain, or
1 November. The night before, 31 October, is still the time when
the veils between the worlds are thinnest.

The depth and colour are added to the characters and their
journeys by the dreaming, which drives and enhances their lives. As
with the previous volumes, the dreaming of this book has mirrored
my own dreaming and the journeys of those who have joined it.
This has no particular basis in what we might call ordinary consensus
reality, but is based on an increasingly concrete experience of various
non-ordinary realities that impinge on it.

For those who enjoy exploring the geography of these things, the
caves of Mithras in which Valerius meets his god are fictional, but
the Passage Tombs in Ireland in which he comes to know himself
are very real and are almost exactly as described. These seem to me
to have been designed expressly as dreaming chambers, although
by a civilization far older than the late pre-Roman Iron Age of
these novels. The rest, as ever, is as possible now as it was then, if
we only set our intent sufficiently clearly and open to the possibility
that the world is rarely as concrete as we would like to believe.

The author's website, http://www.mandascott.co.uk, carries details
of contemporary dreaming workshops, recommended reading and
other resources.


CHARACTERS AND PRONUNCIATION OF NAMES.

THE LANGUAGE OF THE PRE-ROMAN TRIBES IS LOST TO US; WE HAVE NO means of knowing the exact pronunciations although linguists
make brave attempts, based on known living and dead languages,
particularly modern and medieval Breton, Cornish and Welsh. The
following are my best attempts at accuracy. You are free to make
your own. The names of characters based in history are marked
with an asterisk.

Tribal characters.

Airmid of Nemain - Air-med. Frog-dreamer, former lover to Breaca.
Airmid is one of the Irish names of the goddess.

Ardacos - Ar-dah-kos. She-bear warrior of the Caledones. Former
lover to Breaca.

Ban - Breaca's half-brother, son of Macha. The 'a' is pronounced
rather like the 'o' in bonfire. It means 'white'.

Bellos - Bell-oss. Former slave boy of the Belgae, and companion
of Valerius in Hibernia.

*Breaca - Bray-ah-ca. Also known as the Boudica, from the old
word 'Boudeg' meaning Bringer of Victory, thus 'She who Brings
Victory'. Breaca is a derivative of the goddess Briga.

*Caradoc - Kar-adok. Lover to Breca, father to Cygfa and cunomar. Co-leader of the Western resistance against Rome.

Cunomar. Co-leader of

*Cunobelin - Koon-oh-bel. Father to Caradoc, now dead. Cun
- 'hound', Belin, the sun god. Hence, Hound of the Sun or Sun Hound.

Cunomar - Koon-oh-mar. Son of Breaca and Caradoc. His name means 'hound of the sea'.

Cygfa - Sig-va. Daughter of Caradoc and Cwmfen., half-sister to Cunomar.

Dubornos - Doob-ohr-nos. Singer and warrior of the Eccini, childhood companion to Breaca and Ban.

Eburovic - Eh-boor-oh-vik. Father to Breaca and Ban, now dead.

Efnis - Eff-neesh. Dreamer of the Eceni.

Eneit - Enate. Soul-friend of Cunomar. His name means 'spirit'.

Graine - Granya; the first 'a' is pronounced like the 'o' in bonfire.
Daughter of Breaca and Caradoc.

Gunovar - Goonavar. Daughter of Gunovic and a dreamer of the
Dumnonii.

Gwyddhien - G-with-i-enne. Warrior of the Silures, lover to Airmid.

Iccius - Ikk-i-ooss. Belgic slave-boy killed in an accident while
enslaved by Amminios. Friend and soul-mate to Ban, now dead.

Lanis - Lan-is. Mother of Eneit, and a dreamer of the Eceni.

Luain mac Calma - Luw-ain mak Kalma. Elder of Mona and
heron-dreamer. A prince of Hibernia.

Macha - Mach-ah. The 'ch' is soft as in Scottish 'loch'. Ban's mother,
now dead. Macha is a derivative of the horse goddess.

Madb - Maeve. A warrior of the Hibernians.


Roman characters.

Latin is rather closer to our language, although we would pronounce the letter 'J' as equivalent to the current 'Y', 'V would be 'W and 'C would be a hard 'K' in all cases. However, this is so rarely used that it is simpler to retain standard modern pronunciation of these letters.

*Decianus Carus - procurator of all Britannia under Nero.

Julius Valerius - officer in the auxiliary cavalry, originally with the Ala Quinta Gallorum, later the Ala Prima Thracum.

*Longinus Sdapeze - officer with the Ala Prima Thracum.

*	Lucius Domitius Ahenobarbus, a.k.a. Nero, emperor of Rome.

Quintus Valerius Corvus - prefect of the Ala Quinta Gallorum.

*Quintus Veranius - fourth governor of Britannia, AD 57-58.

*	Seneca - adviser to Nero, emperor of Rome.

*	Suetonius Paulinus - governor of all Britannia.