A volley of laser fire.
Archer dives for shelter, finding it in the refectory doorway. He tries to pull Wroje after him, but she breaks free. For a moment she is lost, throwing up her hands in alarm as another blast sizzles past her ear. Then she turns and, tears streaming down her face, she runs.
Unit #39, in the meantime, bears down on the source of the threat. He finds Ogwen around the nearest corner, his back flattened to the wall. His eyes are wide and crazy, his face shiny with sweat. “Did it work?” he pants. “I don’t dare look. Did I hit her?”
“BOTH WROJE AND RYAN ARCHER ARE UNHARMED,” says the Biotron. “PLEASE EXPLAIN WHY YOU TRIED TO TERMINATE THEIR FUNCTIONS.” The screen that displays his output blinks urgently, a request for instructions. I’m tempted to order Ogwen’s execution, but he could be a useful distraction, so I hold my tongue.
“Damn! Damn!” Ogwen stares up into the Biotron’s eyes. “You’re programmed to protect us, aren’t you? Well, do something! Get Archer out of there!”
“THE ONLY THREAT TO RYAN ARCHER OF WHICH I AM AWARE IS POSED BY YOU.”
“No, no, no. It’s that purple-haired bitch, don’t you see? She’s one of them. A Centaurus! She could change at any time. None of us are safe!”
In the absence of guidance, the Biotron acts on his own initiative. “I BELIEVE YOU ARE MISTAKEN. IN HER ALTERED FORM, WROJE DOES HAVE CERTAIN TRAITS IN COMMON WITH THE CENTAURI. HOWEVER—”
Ogwen backs away suddenly, feeling his way along the wall. “They’ve got to you, haven’t they? They’ve reprogrammed you! It’s Karza. He…he’s sold us all out!”
“AGAIN, I MUST CORRECT—”
Ogwen isn’t listening. He makes a run for it, and Unit #39 makes to follow him at his own pace. “No,” I tell him. “Show me Archer.”
I can already hear the boy talking. “I knew it was you,” he says. “I knew you were behind this, somehow. You’ve always been out to get me. Well, congratulations—you’ve maneuvered me into throwing my life away, and you know what? I don’t care. I don’t care, because at least I’ll be doing something worthwhile. I’ll be saving people, not hurting them like you do. And this way, my dad gets to live and the universe gets to be free from you, so I win, right? I win!”
He’s alone, of course, sitting in a straight-backed chair in the refectory, forever shifting around as if trying to retain eye contact with somebody who is circling him.
“Yeah. Yeah, I remember you now. You came to me in the other timeline, only you didn’t look like you do now. You had the chestplate, that was the same—but your body, it glowed. You were almost transparent, like solid light, except that I could see this freaky circuitry inside you. And you…” He shakes his head, as if hoping to make the memory clearer. “You took me to the past. I should have realized then. I saw your life story; I mean, what was that about? You thought I’d sympathize with you, if I saw what they did to you? You thought I’d see how similar we were, and give in to you? You said you’d come to help me, but all the time you were playing some kind of twisted game, and there I was wondering why your voice sounded so familiar, why the touch of your hand made my skin crawl.”
“Who are you talking to, Archer?” I ask.
He starts, as if only now seeing my Biotron at the door. “You don’t recognize him without his mask on? Look again, Karza—I am talking to Karza, right? Go on, take a good, hard look at the man who’s shaped your life and mine, played us like puppets.”
“The Time Traveler?” I guess.
“The one and only! The Time Traveler—only now, I can see who he really is.”
“The Time Traveler is you, Archer. He always was.”
“No, no, no, that’s what he wanted us to think. He wanted me to take over from him. That’s what he always planned—for me to become him!”
“I don’t recognize him,” I say quietly. “Who is he?”
The boy’s voice has the edge of hysteria. “Don’t you see? He’s you! He’s your future. Your past. The supreme being of the universe: the big, bad Baron Karza!”
And then Archer starts to laugh, rolling about on his chair until he cries.
I can hear Wroje and Knave taking potshots at each other from opposite ends of another corridor. Wroje accuses Knave of working for her mother; Knave, in turn, is convinced that Wroje is somebody called Nova. “You won’t take me back to that circus,” he swears. “You won’t turn me into one of those creatures—I’ll die first!”
Elsewhere, Ogwen rounds a corner and almost hurtles into Acroyear. He howls in fright, skids to a halt, turns and flees. The warrior doesn’t break his step, doesn’t show any sign that he even saw the bureaucrat.
Somehow, Koriah has managed to climb up from the station’s bowels, past the wrecked service elevator, with Kellesh over her shoulder. She bundles the unconscious Terragonian into the arms of Unit #35, stressing that he needs to be returned to the medical bay. “I don’t think I hurt him too badly,” she says, “but he was firing a laser pistol. He could have torn a hole in my suit, or his own. I had to restrain him. What the hell is that noise?”
“I BELIEVE A DUEL IS IN PROGRESS—”
“The Centauri?”
“—BETWEEN WROJE AND THE VISITOR WHO CALLS HIMSELF KNAVE.”
“What’s happening around here? Has everyone gone insane?”
“I CAN ONLY OBSERVE THAT THE RECENT ACTIONS OF SOME INDIVIDUALS—”
“Why aren’t you doing something about this?”
“I HAVE NO INSTRUCTIONS.”
“Karza!” The Galactic Defender’s helmet flows back from her head, revealing a scowl on her dark-skinned face. “You’re doing this, aren’t you? What is it—they decided to run out on you? Surrender to your enemies and hope for the best? So, you thought you’d teach them a lesson, like you did the insectoid! I warned you, Karza. I told you I wouldn’t let it happen again. I’m coming to see you, Karza. We’re going to have this out, once and for all!”
As she stalks away, toward the laboratory and this chamber, I realize that Wroje has stopped firing. Knave follows suit a few seconds later, and I hear his voice, bewildered and apprehensive, “Acroyear?”
He comes into sight of Unit #35, backing nervously away from the armored warrior, who in turn is acting as if he hasn’t seen the Vaerian. His head is lowered, his concealed eyes apparently fixed on the ground. He marches past Knave without sparing him a glance.
“He called you ‘Baron.’ ”
“I know.”
“He recognizes your potential, as I did those many years ago.”
“The confirmation I needed,” I mutter. “But how can it be?”
“I expected no less,” says the Emperor. “You would have ruled, had it not been for the distraction of the Time Traveler. In another timeline, freed from that distraction, you did rule. You saw the figure in Archer’s visions, the one whose identity he hoped to conceal—who else could it have been? Who else could have succeeded to my throne?”
My head hurts. I am torn by conflicting emotions. Everything I have always wanted only a twist of time away, and yet…“I saw how that Emperor ruled. I saw what he did to Archer. He murdered his father. He did to him what…what you did to me.” I find the strength to look into the Emperor’s red eye, expecting him to be angry. He just smiles, indulgently. “I swore it wouldn’t be like that. I swore I wouldn’t be like you!”
He gives a dismissive snort. “The arrogance of youth! You were always ambitious, Karza. You wanted the power to change the galaxy, but you never learned the price of that power. I would have taught you, had your obsession not turned you from me.”
“You…would have brainwashed me,” I stammer, confused.
He is leaning over me, a paternal hand on my shoulder, his voice lowered. “Listen to me, Karza. You aren’t the same as the others. You are better than the cattle out there. Like me, like my father before me, you were born to the throne. Fate, in the form of Ryan Archer, took it from you. Now, you have the opportunity to reclaim it.”
“What…what if I don’t want to be Baron Karza?”
“You have always wanted it.”
“But on my terms,” I cry, “not yours!”
“Do you think so little of yourself? That other Karza was not my puppet; would any Karza have let me break him like that? You know his story, don’t you? You know how it must have been. He must have killed me, as you did. He must have replaced me, as you had the chance to do. He made his own choices. Yes, he made compromises—often out of necessity, sometimes out of expediency; he learned that tough decisions had to be confronted. He grew to understand his part in perpetuating a cycle of peace and prosperity, and he became the man you saw in Archer’s thoughts: the ruler you were destined to be, the only ruler you could have been. He became Baron Karza!”
“He murdered Archer’s father,” I repeat stubbornly.
“You, too, have killed.”
“That was different! I…I thought I could bring them back.” I realize how inadequate my protest sounds, and I cringe as the Emperor responds with a cruel laugh.
“You killed them because they threatened you. You killed them, and you plan to kill again. You do not have to be ashamed, Karza. I would have done the same in your place.”
“I am not you!” I howl.
The Emperor stoops until his Sharkos teeth are an inch from my ear, and he whispers, “Are you sure of that?”
I follow his gaze to my monitors. Most of them are dead now, but, on one corner screen, I see Koriah approaching the main lab, her jaw set determinedly. In her delusion, I think she may actually try to kill me. Unit #23 has been feeding information into the main computer for me, his unwieldy hands making the task a slow one. However, his work is done now, so I send him to intercept the Galactic Defender. As these two forces converge, I ask myself what orders I will give to my Biotron. Must the girl die to ensure my safety? Was the Emperor right—is life so cheap to me, so easy to discard when it stands in my way?
Koriah makes to push past the obstruction in her path. “I’ll deal with your master,” she says curtly. The Biotron’s hand snags her, and holds her tight. I see her face in close-up, angry at first, becoming fearful as the pressure around her wrist intensifies.
With a sinking sensation, I remember that the order has already been given. I issued it some minutes ago, without thinking twice. I instructed my Biotron to kill.
My microphones pick up Archer’s voice again, providing a welcome distraction. He is in a tiny, and rarely used, auxiliary laboratory just off the port habitation corridor—where, apparently, he has found Acroyear.
“We need you, man,” he insists. “Everything’s gone crazy! The Time Traveler explained it to me. This whole place, this station, it’s a trap. Karza wanted us to come here. He sent Persephone to Micropolis, he planted the clues that brought us to him. Koriah, Wroje, Kellesh, all of them, they’re part of it.” A short pause. “Are you hearing me? We’ve got to get off this wreck! As long as we stay here, we’re in danger. I don’t know where Knave is; he could be dead by now. We have to find him! Acroyear!”
I am beginning to think that Acroyear isn’t present, that Archer is imagining him as he imagined the Time Traveler, when he speaks in a baritone rumble. “You can tell me all the stories you like. I will not believe them. I know where I am.”
Hesitantly, Archer asks, “Where…where do you think you are?”
“Micropolis.”
“No, Acroyear. We left there. In the Sunrunner. Remember?”
“I have forgotten nothing. I remember it all now: All the wasted seconds of my life, wired to a terminal, losing my mind in the dreams you made for me.”
“The System. Ki used the System to brainwash you, but you’re free of it now.”
“Am I?”
“We dropped an airship on the computer complex. Don’t you remember?”
“The System will never be destroyed. The System takes care of us.”
“What is this, Acroyear? I don’t understand. Some kind of freaky flashback?”
“The future. The past. All the same—one endless nightmare. I know where I am now. I’m still lost in the System. Still dreaming your dreams.”
“No. Look around you, Acroyear. The Astro Station! You must remember. Knave, Karza, Koriah. Don’t you remember me?”
“Ghosts, that is all. Phantoms in my mind. Part of your game. You let me think I was free. You raised my spirit, just to have the pleasure of destroying it again. Well, I won’t play anymore.” The warrior’s voice grows louder. “Do you hear me, Ki? I won’t play. I won’t believe in your dreams. You can keep up this fantasy for as long as you like; I won’t react to it. You might as well kill me, because you’ve had all the sport you will get from me!”
Koriah puts up a good fight. She isn’t as strong as her enemy, but she’s much faster and more agile, and she knows how to use this to her advantage. Unit #23’s clumsy thrusts can’t touch her as she twists and turns, never staying still for an instant. Again and again, her laser pistols flare, the beams concentrated on a vulnerable joint at the Biotron’s left hip. At last, with a shower of sparks, his leg buckles beneath him, and the floor rushes up to meet his face.
The floor is all I can see for a moment, until the Biotron is able to turn himself over. He extrudes his radiation blaster, but Koriah is already on top of him, pinning his arm down with her foot, both pistols aimed directly into his eyes. I haven’t seen her in combat before, except for when Wroje surprised her. I underestimated her.
A laser beam cuts into the wall beside her, and suddenly she is gone from my screen. All Unit #23 can see now is the dirty white ceiling. He lifts his head in time to catch a fleeting glimpse of a shadow. Koriah, who has dropped to her haunches beside him, an arm raised to protect her exposed face, fills in the details. “Ogwen!” she yells. “What do you think you’re doing?” Our resident bureaucrat, I assume, is still seeing Antrons.
Unit #23 raises his hand and fires. In the instant that his blaster flares green, Koriah seems to sense her peril and turns, lashing out with her foot, kicking the Biotron’s arm aside so that he pumps a cloud of radiation into the wall. She hesitates for a moment, as if wondering whether to press her advantage; instead, she chooses to pursue Ogwen.
Much as I hate to admit it, I’m relieved. I don’t think Unit #23 could have defeated her. Fortunately, she seems to have forgotten about me. She’s moving away from my chamber, following whatever unfounded suspicion the Centauri signal has bred in her confused mind. I pity her prey when she catches him.
“You did not see the Time Traveler’s timeline—the real timeline—as it would have been experienced by the vast majority,” insists the Emperor. “You saw only one point of view: the skewed worldview of an embittered rebel.”
“Maybe,” I concede, “but it was a familiar sight. It reminded me of my childhood, of the tyranny against which my father prepared me to fight.”
“You cling to an idealized image of your birth father, Karza. The truth is, he, too, was a dissident, kicking blindly against the order I had established. He could not see, or did not care, that my subjects had all they required. He was prepared to take that from them, to plunge their lives into uncertainty, for his own selfish ends.”
“I had dreams,” I say hesitantly. “I dreamt of a society working in concert. I dreamt of the technological leaps we could make.”
“In the real timeline, those dreams came true.”
“But at what cost?”
“You cannot please everybody, Karza. You can feed them, clothe them, shelter and protect them, build machines to ease their lot, and still there will be those, like Archer, who hate you, consumed with jealousy for all you have achieved. You cannot reason with such people. They are malcontents, and their terrorist tactics cannot be tolerated.”
“There can be no order,” I agree thoughtfully, “without conformity.”
“And the seeds of chaos grow fast, and must be weeded out. You have always believed that, Karza. Do not balk now, because of the imagined consequences of such a philosophy. If some people must suffer, then it is only for the greater good.”
“I…accept what you’re saying, but…”
“You must make up your mind, Karza. Look at your monitors. One of the Battle Cruisers has broken formation. It is heading for the Astro Station.”
“I see it.” My gaze is riveted to the screen in question, my muscles frozen. Why does my head hurt? Why is it so hard to think?
“The Centauri are preparing to board us!”
A flexible docking tube extends from the Cruiser’s side, from between weapons turrets. It flails about for a moment, then finds the station’s main airlock and clamps its circular end over it, a powerful magnetic charge holding it in place. The Centauri know that they won’t be welcomed into the hangar bay, so they’re planning to enter my home by force.
“The cancellation wave. Must send…the countersignal…”
“No, Karza.”
“I have to. We can’t fight them like this!”
“You will betray our presence, throw away our only advantage.”
I shake my head, trying to clear it but only making the pain more intense. “That advantage will be worth nothing if we are too confused to fight. I’ll be telling the Centauri nothing they don’t already know: Wroje never reached Koriah with a baffler—they can still read her life signs. They know the station is still occupied, but we can surprise them with our numbers.”
“If you do this, Karza, I will be forced to leave you.”
“You will always be with me. I recognize that now.”
“Then why do you hesitate?”
My dry lips twist into a cruel sneer. “The audio feed from the secondary lab…Acroyear has attacked Archer. Just a moment’s delay on my part, and he may kill the boy.”
The Emperor smiles. “You are your father’s son, after all.”
“Acroyear!” Archer’s voice is strained. I think the warrior has his hands around the boy’s throat. “Don’t do this to me, Acroyear. It’s me—Ryan. Acroyear!”
“If you are indeed real, as you claim,” snarls the warrior, “then you are the only part of this scenario that is. That means you must be working for Ki.”
“You’re…choking me…please…”
A scuffling sound; the tinkling of a metal object being knocked from a lab bench. Archer must have tried to break free, but to no avail.
“It was you who persuaded me to leave my home,” snaps Acroyear, “first my apartment, then Micropolis itself. You brought me here. You have been guiding me through the levels of this maze, one by one. You are responsible for everything I have endured—and unless your master shuts down this virtual nightmare now, I will squeeze your neck until it snaps!”
“Go…go on, then. Do it. That’s why Karza sent you here, isn’t it? That’s why you came to Earth. You’ve already killed my dad. Just…just get it over with, can’t you?”
A long silence follows. I can hear somebody breathing heavily, but I can’t tell if it is Acroyear or Archer or both. I wonder if the warrior has made good on his threat. I am disappointed, then, to hear Archer’s voice again, hoarse and subdued. “What’s happening to us, Acroyear? For a moment there, I…I thought you were somebody else. A Harrower…one of Karza’s soldiers, from the alternative timeline. The ones who…”
“I was under a similar delusion.” The apology emerges grudgingly from Acroyear’s throat. “I trust you are not harmed?”
“I’ll have your fingerprints on my larynx for a while—but no, no lasting damage.”
“The Centauri have done something to us. Even now, my instincts tell me not to trust you, that I must kill you before you kill me. It is all I can do to keep that impulse suppressed.”
“Just…just keep trying, yeah? We need to get to the bridge, see if we can work out what…”
“No. The Centauri are my responsibility. You have a more important task to perform.”
“You…you’re right. Oh, God, you’re right. I…I almost forgot…”
“How long do you have?”
“I don’t know. I’ve kind of lost track of time. It can’t be long, though.”
“You must return to Karza’s laboratory. You must become the Time Traveler.”
“I know. But…but I can’t leave you like—”
“You must. For the sake of the universe, Archer, you must do this. My fate—the fate of all of us here—is unimportant in comparison.”
“Maybe I was wrong. Maybe it’s not this universe I should be saving.”
“We have discussed this. You are doing the right thing.”
“At least in the other timeline, you had a fighting chance!”
“Go,” says Acroyear, with surprising softness.
A long silence. Then, in a choked voice, Archer says, “It…it’s been a privilege to fight alongside you, Acroyear. In whatever reality. You’ve always been there for me.”
“I’m only sorry I cannot stay with you until the end.”
“I understand.” An attempt at a laugh. “I know you’ve got other things to do, intergalactic horses to fight.”
“You will not be forgotten.”
They part, then. Acroyear leaves first, his stride purposeful and uninterrupted. Archer remains in that tiny room for a time; if I listen hard enough, I can hear his breathing, and the occasional nervous clearing of his throat. Then he takes a deep breath, mutters something to himself in a determined tone, and goes to meet his fate.
I can feel my own chest swelling with anticipation, hear liquid gurgling in the nutrient tank behind me. Archer is coming here. I know what I must do when he arrives. It is time. I open my mouth to say something, but realize that I’m alone again.
No. Not alone. Somehow, I can still feel the Emperor’s presence, even though I have negated the Centauri’s hypnotic signal, even though I know that his physical form was no more than an illusion. I feel him watching over me. I can almost see the smile on his cracked face as I prepare to follow the path he laid out for me, the path he trod before me.
As I approach the destiny for which my father prepared me…
Acroyear is gathering forces on the bridge, under the supervision of Units #30 and #35. Kellesh was the first to respond to his broadcast call to arms, teetering unsteadily from the medical bay to pledge assistance. Koriah was only a short way behind.
It took Wroje a little longer to be convinced; eventually, however, she and Knave negotiated a ceasefire, each realizing that they had no idea why they’d been trying to kill the other. Ogwen, I can’t locate. I can only assume that he’s in hiding, his natural paranoia taking over where the Centauri signal left off.
Kellesh has taken a seat at the main control panel. It didn’t take him long, with a clear mind and the equipment now available to him, to work out what’s been happening. An uncomfortable, awkward silence settles over the gathering as recent actions are reexamined in a new, colder light. Koriah and Kellesh avoid each other’s eyes, and Wroje attempts a stammered apology to the room in general.
Acroyear, however, pulls them back to the present. “A Battle Cruiser has docked with the Astro Station,” he announces grimly. “The Centauri are staging their final attack.”
“They’re burning through an airlock door,” reports Kellesh from his console. “I have the auto-repair working flat out, but it can only gain us a few more seconds, a minute at most.”
“Okay, people,” says Koriah, “looks like it’s the moment of truth. We’re outnumbered and outgunned, but I for one don’t intend to be taken without a fight. Are you with me?”
“I’ll do whatever I can,” says Kellesh.
“What the hell,” says Knave. “I had nothing else planned for today.”
Wroje just nods, hugging herself tightly.
“THE BIOTRON UNITS WILL ASSIST TO THE FULL EXTENT OF OUR CAPABILITIES.”
“They’re almost through,” reports Kellesh. “This is it!”
“Prepare to receive boarders,” intones Acroyear.
Archer has been pacing the corridor outside my laboratory for almost five minutes. His unique senses must be warning him against entering. The tragedy, for him, is that he will pay them no heed. He will mistake his feeling of dread, the voice in his head that tells him to turn and run, for an entirely normal reaction to his situation. He will override it, sure that he is doing what he has to do.
He makes his decision, and acts before fear can stop him. He opens the door.
From the corner of the lab, Unit #23 turns to watch the boy as he steps over the threshold, shaking, his face pale. Half-crippled, the Biotron is of little use to me other than as a pair of eyes. I considered summoning another to my side, but the remaining units are better employed holding off the Centauri. Anyway, I feel I should do this myself.
I’m not sure why that’s important to me. Maybe it’s a symbolic gesture—after so many years of holding life at arm’s length, I want to grab hold of it. After so many disappointments, so many blows to my spirit, I want to feel passionate again. And maybe, just maybe, I want to know that I did this, that I took this opportunity myself. I want to know that I could do it.
I want to know that I’m still that man. I need to know that I am Karza.
Archer operates the computer again. A green spark erupts into a flame, which dances within the rigid confines of the containment grid. The call of the Rift seems stronger than ever, as if it can sense somehow that I am almost ready to answer it.
Archer makes his final few checks, then stands and crosses the room. He knocks on my door, and I hesitate for only a moment before allowing him into my chamber. I disable my monitors and listening devices to afford us some privacy.
“I’m ready,” he says, numbly, his eyes not quite meeting mine.
“I know,” I say.
“I need the suit.”
I nod toward the containment suit in its alcove. Archer approaches it, reaches for it, runs the tough but flexible material through his hands. He looks into the empty eyes of the Time Traveler, and I wonder what he is saying to him in his thoughts. With a quick glance back at me, as if ashamed of his show of apprehension, the boy lifts the red and silver suit from its peg. He cradles it in his arms, and a bolt of jealous anger sears through me.
The gun has always been here. It was my last resort. In the event of an enemy bypassing my Biotrons, taking me by surprise, it might have bought me some time; enough to operate the auto-destruct or, if needs be, simply to deny my attackers the satisfaction of killing me themselves. I tease it, now, from its secret pocket beneath the arm of my chair. I conceal it in the palm of my hand, resting my thumb against its trigger device. The miniature pistol is good for one shot only—but one shot is all I will need.
Archer is starting to don the costume of the Time Traveler over his clothes. For all his vaunted intuition, he is oblivious to his danger. He doesn’t see the door closing behind him, doesn’t hear the soft click of its locking device.
“I can’t let you do this,” I say.
He freezes, one foot stuck halfway down the containment suit’s leg.
“You have stolen my destiny from me once,” I remind him, “when you rewrote the past to shunt me into the footnotes of history. Now, I have a chance to reclaim what I have lost. You won’t take it from me again!”
“You know,” he gasps.
“That I should have been a king? Yes, Archer, I know.”
His eyes widen with realization. “I told you, didn’t I?”
“Indeed. In your delirium, you betrayed your greatest secret.”
“It…it’s not what it looks like. In the old timeline, yes, you were a baron, you ruled this galaxy, but you aren’t that person now, Karza. You’re a better man!”
“A man whom, nevertheless, you didn’t trust with the truth. Why is that, Archer? You must have sensed something inside me. You must have recognized my ambition. You must have known that, had I seen a chance for power—true power, the type that changes worlds—I would have done anything, risked anything, to claim it for myself!”
“No,” he protests in vain. “I…I…was trying to protect you.”
“From what?” I roar scornfully.
He flinches from me and whispers, “You would have become a monster.”
“Instead of which, I have achieved nothing. I am nothing.”
Archer shakes his head. “That’s not true. You created the Rift. You built this facility. You…we…between us, we’re saving the universe!”
“And what,” I ask coldly, “if it is not this universe I wish to save?”
“You…you can’t…” Archer’s voice trails off. He doesn’t know what to say.
“You presume to tell me what I can’t do?” I snarl. “You were the one who took it upon yourself to decide the fate of two universes. You were the one who chose, on a whim, to compound the mistake made by your alternative self. My sole desire is to put things right, to restore the old timeline—the true timeline! You, on the other hand, would condemn us all to life in this aberrant, abhorrent reality, this shadow of the original.”
“I…we…thought it would be better this way.”
“And you consider yourself the best judge of that?”
Archer stares at the floor. “I don’t know,” he mumbles.
I’m almost disappointed. It’s proving much easier to shake his confidence, to make him doubt himself, than I expected. Maybe I won’t need the gun after all.
“But,” he says, “this way, it’s easier. I mean, the path I need to take is all programmed. I just have to download it to the Time Traveler’s control unit.”
“The easy path is not always the right one,” I remark.
“I know that. But…but, let’s say I did agree with you, let’s say I wanted to restore the old timeline…I’m not even sure I could do it. I don’t think I know how.”
“Yes, Archer, you do. You know it as well as I do. You simply lack the necessary belief in yourself, in your abilities, to accept it.” He shuffles awkwardly and waits for me to spell it out to him. “When you guided my probe across the time stream, your instincts didn’t lead you toward the past—at least, not to the past that we know. You picked out an impossible path, to a time that should no longer exist, a time to which the strands of cause and effect no longer point. Had it not been for the Centauri’s untimely intervention, you would have reached the end of that path. You would have found the Time Traveler.”
“I could have stopped him,” Archer realizes. “I could have warned him about the dangers of using the Pharoids’ machine. History would never have been changed.”
“You could set things right.”
“But,” says Archer, suddenly afraid, “what would happen then? He—I—was trapped on that world, hunted by Azura Nova and her troops. The time machine was our only way out. Without it, we’d have died, and that would have been it for the rebellion. He would have won. He…” He shoots a guilty look at me, as if realizing what he is saying.
“You would have saved the universe,” I remind him.
Archer nods, defeated. “You’re right. I know you’re right—only, it’s too late now. The probe was destroyed. We can’t retrieve that data.”
“The data was not lost.”
“But…but it’s incomplete!”
“True.”
“We’d have to program the rest of the course blindly.” Archer thinks for a moment, then shakes his head. “No. No, Karza, if you’re thinking of asking me…no, I can’t do it. These senses of mine, they don’t make me Superman. It’s too much.”
“I know. However, there is a chance…”
He looks at me in horror. “You can’t mean…You really want to take that risk?”
“The reward, I believe, is great enough.”
“Let me get this straight, Karza. You’re saying you want to throw away our only shot at saving the universe—this universe, the one we all know—for the possibility, and not a very good possibility at that, of restoring another one. And why? Because, in this other timeline—the one we’ve only glimpsed, the one we know almost zip about—you think you might be a little better off?”
I shake my head, sadly. “You don’t understand, boy. I was foolish to think you might. I am concerned not with my own comfort, but with the good of everybody. It is my duty, my destiny, to save them from the chaos in which we are forced to wallow like pigs.”
He sees the gun too late. He doesn’t move; perhaps he is waiting for his senses to tell him what to do, but there is nothing he can do. Nowhere to run, no way to fight back, and no time for either, now. The deed is already done, without fanfare, without any sound at all. The mini-pistol doesn’t even kick against my palm as it delivers its invisible beam.
Somehow, it all feels anticlimactic. I can almost identify with Archer’s nonplussed expression, the disbelief in his eyes, that appear with the perfectly circular hole that smolders in his forehead.
“I will excise the chaos,” I vow as his legs realize that his brain is dead, and he falls at last. “Cut it out like a cancer. I will bring order, whatever the cost.”
I expected the Centauri to hold back, to send only a small boarding party to begin with. I thought my threats of mutual destruction would make them cautious. I was wrong.
They’ve arrived in force. A hidden Biotron watches them crowding into the airlock corridor, pressed so close together that it’s hard to see where one creature ends and the next begins. Still more of them emerge from the Battle Cruiser’s docking tube, trotting confidently over the melted slag of the airlock door.
As Koriah predicted, they’re taking no chances. Black armor is plated around their chests and their fetlocks, seeming to absorb the artificial light of the station. Their black crossbows are readied, energy bolts loaded.
Each of the Centauri has a pentagonal gem grafted into his or her stomach, at the point where their humanoid torsos merge with their quadrupedal back halves. These gems burn with white energy, which also courses beneath the armor to flare in its eye sockets. The Centauri warriors’ long, thin faceplates look like grinning skulls, like harbingers of death.
They divide their forces, pouring down the corridor in both directions, the larger group separating again at the first junction they reach. A third of them are heading for the bridge; another third are following a Centaurus with a handheld detector who spurs them on with insults, feeding their bloodlust. Their destination, I know, is the port habitation corridor, in which they read the life signs of a single being.
The remaining Centauri are on their way here.
Archer’s corpse lies before me, the Time Traveler’s costume still tangled around his feet, a surprised expression on his face. Out in the main lab, my computer ticks away, processing the numbers that Unit #23 fed into it earlier. I find it bitterly ironic that, with all the years of my life stretched out behind me, it comes down to this in the end: a race against time.
The invaders are close now. The more ground they gain without being challenged, the more confident they become, the faster their progress across the Astro Station. The empty corridors give them reassurance that their sensors were accurate, that their radiation weapon wiped out all but one of us. This, of course, is what Acroyear wanted them to believe.
He was waiting for them above the ceiling, in the hollow space between the inner and outer skins of the hull. As they pass beneath him, he drops onto them, sword whirling. Before they can even react, the first two Centauri are dead, and Acroyear is using their bodies as a shield, the push of their comrades keeping them upright against him. The Centauri are hampered by their narrow confines, their bulky forms trapped between corridor walls, most of them unable to use their crossbows for fear of striking an ally. Acroyear is able to stride through their ranks, cutting them down one by one. Energy bolts crackle around his head, but only a few find their target, and these he deflects with his arm-mounted shields.
Elsewhere, more Centauri search the living quarters in the port habitation corridor. One of them yanks open the door to Wroje’s room, to take a face full of radiation fire from the waiting Unit #30. The creature recoils, clutching at his eyes, his agonized scream alerting his fellow soldiers to his plight. The Biotron, however, has already turned his back as if the invaders’ response is of no concern to him. Behind him, there is a hole in the wall the size of his metal fist. Beyond this hole, the outer skin of the hull is visible, already dented.
Centauri troops pour into the room to find the Biotron landing punch after methodical punch on this weak spot, smashing his way out to space. Alarmed, they rush to restrain him, firing energy bolts into his head at point blank range. The unit is staggered—damaged, I fear, beyond repair—but, doggedly, he perseveres with his programmed task.
It only takes a small crack. Air whistles past the invaders, buffeting them, leaving them short of breath. They abandon their attack, and attempt to retreat. Meanwhile, on the bridge, Wroje operates the control that will bring down an airtight bulkhead behind them.
Only a few meters away from Wroje, I hear Koriah and Knave greeting more Centauri with a fusillade of laser fire, using opposite corners of a corridor junction as cover. Their beams aren’t powerful enough to penetrate the invaders’ black armor, but a few lucky shots keep them at bay, the cramped environment again working to the defenders’ advantage.
“They’re all inside, Kellesh,” Wroje squeals into a communicator. “Do it now!”
Down in the exposed bowels of the Astro Station, a space-suited Kellesh hooks up a canister of poisonous cleaning material to the oxygen recycling system, and twists open its nozzle.
The Centauri are rallying against Acroyear, pushing him back toward me. They let out a collective roar as he turns and withdraws. They surge forward, eagerly—into a wide-angled burst of radiation from the waiting Unit #35.
They keep coming. The first of them almost makes it, but he is already losing blood from a deep sword wound. As his hands reach for the bio-mech, his back legs buckle beneath him and he falls heavily, two more soldiers stumbling over his rump. Suddenly, the Centauri are trapped, arms and legs thrashing uselessly, crossbows firing into the ceiling, only adding to the chaos as wave after wave of green radiation washes over them, draining their strength.
With the Biotron’s blaster spent and his foes weakened, Acroyear returns to the fray.
The air in my chamber has taken on a pale yellow tint. Kellesh’s poison is being pumped throughout the station. Fortunately, my air tubes guarantee me a fresh supply of oxygen. Koriah is likewise protected by her uniform helmet, and Acroyear claims that his armor too will filter out the worst of the toxins. Wroje and Knave are both wearing oxygen tanks. Knave waits a little too long before he clamps his mask to his face with a spare hand, and I hear him coughing and retching.
My computer continues its work. I need only a few more minutes.
Yellow clouds drift across my screens, and for a time all I know of the continuing battle comes from its sounds: the whines of laser pistols, the explosions of energy bolts, the grunts and cries of anger and pain. Only as the poison clouds begin to clear, dispersed by the recycled air behind them, can I begin to take stock of the situation again—and I find that things aren’t going well.
The Centauri don’t seem to have been affected by the gas. I can only assume that they anticipated such an attack, and wore filters beneath their faceplates.
They have divided their forces again, sending a number of soldiers around the station to surprise Koriah and Knave from behind. I can’t tell how they are faring, but as long as I can hear their laser pistols firing, at least I know their reflexes are keeping them alive. The pair have been driven to their prearranged fallback sition—a storeroom—where they’re pinned down. The Centauri, therefore, have free access to the bridge.
They presage their arrival by firing several dozen energy bolts through the doorway. They ricochet from the walls, filling the air with fire. Several instrument panels explode. Wroje shrieks, and dives for cover behind a chair. Unit #39 moves to protect her, meeting the Centauri advance. I realize that I’m holding my breath, praying for Wroje to find the strength she needs to unleash the warrior within her.
There is some good news. Through Unit #30’s eyes, I watch the Centauri in the port habitation corridor suffocating and dying, clutching at their throats as they collapse in droves. And Acroyear is standing his ground against overwhelming odds—for the present.
I need to prepare myself.
I start by removing the various plugs and cables from my flux armor, the bonds that confine me to this seat. I hesitate for a moment, then I breathe deeply, stiffen my spine, and clutch at the arms of my chair as if afraid that I’ll collapse like a marionette with its strings cut. There is no reason to believe such a thing, of course. The exo-suit is fully charged; I have at least two hours before its power is spent. As always, however, the severance of my connections to the Astro Station leaves me feeling helpless.
I’m no longer in control. I am in the hands of destiny.
It takes a supreme effort to push myself to my feet. I stand, shaking, feeling dizzy as my head adjusts to its new altitude. I curse my frailty, knowing that once again it is the Time Traveler who is responsible for this weakness in me. As the parts of my body failed, I could have replaced them with stronger, bio-mechanical components. I knew how, but he never gave me the time to realize that vision.
The mask of the Time Traveler stares up at me from the floor, and I see my red eyes reflected in his, as if I have ignited some long-buried spark of life within him. I stoop to retrieve the suit, but the effort of untying it from around Archer’s ankles is too much. I drop heavily to one knee, black spots swimming before my eyes.
I am disgusted with myself. I am Karza. I will not be disgraced like this.
But, as I gather my resolve, my eyes are drawn back to my monitors, and I witness another defeat playing itself out. Unit #39 has been overcome, his radiation blaster destroyed. The Centauri sweep across the bridge, and Wroje falls backs before them, mustering no more than a defiant whimper and a few ineffectual bursts of laser fire.
Two soldiers pin her arms, while another takes Wroje’s chin in her gauntleted hands, her death mask appearing to leer at the frightened woman. Wroje is in tears, her jaw working as she attempts to stammer a voiceless plea. For a moment, I think the Centauri will break her neck, but she contents herself with constricting her captive’s windpipe until she passes out. Wroje folds, but her soldier escorts keep her from falling. The female, apparently their leader, gestures to them to remove the prisoner from her sight.
Then she steps onto the main platform, nodding with approval as a seat swivels to greet her. She lowers her haunches onto it, straddling it awkwardly, and runs her hands almost lovingly over the instruments in front of her, a territorial gesture.
And that is the last I see of that scene before a concentration of energy bolts takes the Biotron’s sight from him forever.
“Knave?” Koriah’s voice, picked up by a microphone outside the storeroom, faint but discernible over the continuing gunfire. “I want you to do something for me.”
“I’ll try my best,” grunts the Vaerian. “Thing is, I’m a bit…” He squeezes off four more shots down the corridor. “…tied down at the moment.”
“I want you to get out of here.”
Knave laughs hollowly. “First chance we get, I promise.”
“No. I want you to get out of here. You see that grille up there?”
“Air ducts. Don’t think I hadn’t thought about it—but we’d never make it before…” A short pause. “No!”
“It’s the only way, Knave. These pistols don’t have unlimited power. Even if they did, we couldn’t hold off the Centauri forever.”
“I made a vow to myself, a long time ago. I said I’d never turn my back on a friend. I have to keep that promise, Koriah. It’s what separates me from the rest of my people. I have to believe I’m not like that!”
“There’s no point in us both staying to die!”
“Then you should go. You’re smaller than me, anyway. It’ll be easier for you.”
“With your gymnastic background? You can get into those pipes, and through them, faster than I ever could. Let me have this one, Knave. You talked about the vow you made—what about me? When I entered the service, I promised to defend the innocent. I haven’t had too much success at that, recently.”
Knave doesn’t answer—at least not that I can hear—but his expression must say it all, because, in between shots, Koriah continues, “I’m not leaving here, Knave. Whatever you do, you won’t budge me from this doorway. So, it’s up to you: You can die with me, or you can try to save yourself. Find Kellesh, see if he has any more bright ideas. But make up your mind quickly, because I can’t keep you covered for much longer.”
There are no more words after that.
A few seconds short of a minute later, even the gunfire stops.
I tear the containment suit from Archer, and stand. Now comes the difficult part. The suit won’t fit over my white armor. For the first time in over six decades, I will have to remove it. I will have to expose my wasted body to the elements. I was always aware of this, of course. I told myself that, when the time came, when I no longer had the exo-suit to bolster my resources, sheer willpower would lend me the strength to keep on living. I knew that I couldn’t die, so close to achieving my goals. I wish I could be so sure now.
I close my eyes, set my jaw, concentrate on keeping my muscles rigid, and operate the laser key in my glove. With the sound of a cracking Lobros shell, the panels of my armor pop from their sockets—and suddenly, everything feels different. The air is like pins on my arms, my chest, my back, pricking sweat from my pores. My brain feels numb. I am still wearing my helmet, but a dozen needles have just retracted themselves from inside my skull—I had grown accustomed to the pain they caused, and it makes itself felt now by its absence.
I take a great, shuddering breath. I open my eyes, half expecting to find that I have fallen without my senses registering it, but still I stand, albeit feeling more vulnerable than I have since childhood. My exo-suit, my armor, is piled around my feet, so many lumps of useless metal. The circuitry on its inner surfaces has corroded, and I wonder that it could still function. My body bears the dry holes made by its neural connectors. My skin is pockmarked with sores, patterned with purple bruises, the pain of which the suit blocked from me. They are beginning to tingle now, as if slowly reawakening.
I am horribly aware, for the first time, of the fragility of my Astro Station, now that the thin walls of this battered container are all that protect me from the freezing void.
I could almost laugh at this latest cruel irony; that, ultimately, I should be so helpless. But there is no turning back. I raise my hands, fighting to keep them still. I take the helmet between them, and I lift it. I work its air tubes out of my mouth with my tongue, and take my first tentative breath of the station’s stale, recycled air.
A lingering trace of Kellesh’s poison scratches my throat and I cough up acidic bile, each spasm of my lungs sending a lance of pain through me.
At last, I compose myself to lift my head, to stare into the reflective blankness of one of my defunct screens, to face myself—my real self—again, at long last.
For seconds uncounted, I stare into my own eyes. No longer do I see the armored monster that reminded me so much of the Emperor—but neither do I see any trace of the man I was before, the young firebrand whose image never quite faded in my mind’s eye. Somehow, impossibly, I think I expected to find that man again in these final moments. Instead, I am confronted by a pale, emaciated wreck of a creature whom I don’t recognize at all.
I avert my gaze, feeling something like a tear well onto my cheek. I brush it away with a finger, which comes away stained red. Blood. An after-effect of the removal of my helmet.
I mustn’t dwell on this. I mustn’t doubt myself. If anything, this reminder of the pathetic shell I have become should spur me on. My life has meant nothing, but I have the chance to change that now. I can make myself over, reinvent myself again.
I place my first foot into the containment suit. I can’t keep my balance, and have to rest a hand on the back of my chair to steady myself. But I try again, and roll the golden fabric up over my left leg. The effort leaves me short of breath, and I have to sit down.
But already I can feel a sense of excitement rising in my stomach, chasing away my foreboding. This is it: The moment to which my entire life has been leading.
I am about to become the Time Traveler.
On the bridge, a Centaurus throws aside the lid to the disused cryo-crypt, to find Ogwen inside. He’s clutching an empty bottle of methohol to his chest, so drunk that his only reaction to being dragged from his hiding place is to lapse into a giggling fit. He is taken to the refectory, where Wroje is already secured.
Unit #30 limps into the storeroom corridor, his circuits sparking, his display flickering and strobing, in time to see Koriah being likewise dragged from her bolt hole, held almost aloft by baying Centauri. She has been divested of her helmet and pistols, still struggling and kicking to no avail. The Biotron lurches to a clumsy halt as the invaders spot him, as they turn on him. He can’t use his blaster without harming the Galactic Defender. His processors whir sluggishly into action, a request for instructions forming on his monitor.
He’s still waiting for a response when Knave bounds onto the scene, leaping over his head, guns blazing from all four arms. He lands in the Centauri’s midst, his lithe purple body twisting and coiling like that of a snake, never still, never remaining in the same place for even half a second. The creatures fire upon him, but only succeed in pumping crossbow bolts into each other. Even from my vantage point, I can hardly keep track of the Vaerian. He disappears into the throng for seconds at a time, making me think he has been felled, until he pops up elsewhere to wreak more havoc.
There’s a method to his apparently random actions. He’s working his way toward Koriah, distracting the Centauri who hold her, giving her the opportunity to break free. Already she has dropped to her feet, although she is still held from both sides. Knave wouldn’t turn his back on a friend, after all. Wrong choice.
He can’t have seen, as I see, the blood on Koriah’s head, a glistening black trail against her dark skin. In restraining her, the Centauri have reopened the wound inflicted by Wroje. Spirited as she remains, the girl’s strength is fading—and although she manages to pull free from one of her captors, the other retains a steadfast grip on her shoulder, her face twisting in pain as she attempts to break it.
Even now, Knave could abandon her and escape. His persistence proves to be his downfall. The Centauri have abandoned their weapons, striking at him with fists and hooves. They close ranks so that, even with his astonishing agility, the Vaerian soon has nowhere to go in the enclosed space. It isn’t long before he disappears between them and doesn’t surface again.
Belatedly, I answer Unit #30’s request. I tell him that both Koriah and Knave are useless to me now, that their presence should not keep him from discharging his duty. He steps forward, raises his hand, and perishes in a brief but furious volley of energy bolts.
I tell myself that it doesn’t matter. I need only be concerned with Acroyear’s progress. I am pleased to see that he has made great inroads, his blade scything through enemy armor. Even the normally fearless Centauri are beginning to shy away from physical confrontation. They’re trying to pull back, to use their crossbows from afar, but Acroyear keeps bearing down on them, denying them the respite they need.
In the end, the creatures’ leader has to sacrifice three more of his troops to give the rest a chance to withdraw to a more strategic position. They form up farther down the corridor, managing to squeeze three abreast between the walls, the front rank squatting on their haunches. As the last sacrifice falls, Acroyear is suddenly, briefly, surrounded by space, and the bolts come thick and fast, spattering against him, making him stagger.
He drops his head, clenches his fists and marches onward through the barrage. Holes are being blasted in his armor, he must be in agony, but he doesn’t let it stop him. The Centauri are scattered like tenpins as he closes with them again.
He can’t win.
Fresh from their victory over Koriah and Knave, Centauri reinforcements are coming up behind the warrior. Unit #35 can delay them, but not for very long, and then my final defender will be surrounded. This cold fact spurs me onward, although I know that haste will not serve me. I am still at the mercy of the main computer.
I wrestle my shoulders into the containment suit, plunge my hands into its armholes. The silver control unit, with its triangular panel, has become partially detached, and I fumble to reconnect it. The Time Traveler embraces me, his skin becoming my own. Gold fabric knits itself together up my back, and I start to feel safe again.
Unit #35 has been felled. His internal camera is still broadcasting, although most of his other systems have ceased and his artificial heart has stopped pumping. I watch from his frozen worm’s eye point of view as Centauri soldiers gallop up behind Acroyear. The warrior sees them coming and swings his sword to discourage them, but their energy bolts are already smacking into him. Forced to half-turn, he presents an opportunity to another of the creatures, which rears up and strikes him with its front hooves. The force of the blow is enough to dislodge his helmet, knocking it askew.
All he can do now is flatten his back to the wall, cutting down the angles from which his foes can come at him. He strikes out to his left and his right in turn, varying the pattern and direction of his thrusts, but the Centauri can afford to keep their distance. They know that the battle is over; they’re just waiting for the inevitable opening. Acroyear’s attention is divided. He is forced to use his sword to block their incoming energy bolts, and even he can’t look both ways at once.
Finally, when there is nothing else he can do, he lets out a blood-curdling war cry and launches himself into the ranks of the Centauri that first engaged him. He disappears beneath them, visible only by the tumult that his unexpected, suicidal charge has caused. The Centauri’s animal howls, and the sprays of blood in the air, tell me that Acroyear is still fighting, still determined to take as many of the creatures as he can down with him.
And now they have him pinned to the floor among them, striking down viciously and repeatedly. I know that it’s all over.
A hoof slams heavily into Unit #35’s head—another Centaurus, galloping to join her comrades—and his picture fizzles and is lost. Only one Biotron is still broadcasting to me: The damaged Unit #23, out in the main laboratory. Through his eyes, I can see the Rift, and its green light still calls to me. My defenders have failed me—flesh and blood always will—but I will not fail.
Cradling the protective mask under my arm, I haul myself from my seat again. I half-walk, half-stumble to the chamber door. I lean on it for a moment, its cold metal soothing my fevered forehead. I think I could stay like this forever. I have to force my free arm to move, my hand to feel along the wall for the opening mechanism.
The door slides aside, and I have to support myself again. I am given encouragement, however, by the sight of the Rift directly in front of me. It has been many years since I last saw it with my own eyes, and even then it was tinted red by the lenses in my helmet. Even with the technology I’ve created, a mere electronic image could never do justice to this phenomenon. I had forgotten how deep, how bright, the Rift’s light was, how vibrant its color. I had forgotten how it seemed to draw everything into itself, including a part of me.
I had forgotten how strong its call could be.
Soon, I promise it, very soon. I am almost ready. After all this time…
The computer pings softly to inform me that it has finished its work. The path for my momentous journey has been calculated. I operate the unit on my chest, forming an infrared connection to the mainframe. A light blinks in the center of the triangular control panel, indicating that data is being received. Soon, very soon.
“Unit #23,” I instruct, “stand guard outside this room. Do not allow anybody to enter. Kill anybody who tries.” The hapless Biotron moves to obey, dragging his injured leg behind him. I hardly spare him a glance as he passes me, except to note that, in his current condition, he will cause the Centauri minimal delay. I only hope it will be enough.
And then he pauses in the doorway, turns back to me, and says, “ON BEHALF OF ALL OF US, LORD KARZA, I WOULD LIKE TO SAY THAT IT HAS BEEN AN HONOR TO SERVE YOU. I ONLY HOPE THAT YOU WILL ACHIEVE EVERYTHING YOU HAVE WISHED FOR.”
He is gone before I know how to respond to him. Suddenly, I have a vivid image of myself at the control platform on the bridge the first day I arrived on the Astro Station; of a Biotron—the same unit—enquiring after my state of mind. Perhaps his circuits were damaged, too, when Koriah attacked him; perhaps that’s why he has disregarded his subsequent programming. I programmed the Biotrons to overcome such sentiment, to resist forming attachments. Just as I programmed myself. And suddenly I’m a young man again, confronted with the twisted, crumbling wreck of a loyal friend whom I sent to his death.
I want to call him back. I want to thank him. But I don’t.
The door closes behind Unit #23 with a final click. I hear hoof beats approaching.
Gunfire: The staccato sounds of energy bolts, the answering crackles of a radiation blaster. The belligerent yells of the invaders. More hoof beats, closer.
I’m waiting impatiently for the chest unit to tell me that my course is programmed in. I wish I’d devoted some time to increasing its processing speed, but I never thought it would be an issue. Each second seems to trickle by, bringing with it fresh disappointment.
The Centauri are hammering on the door. It bulges and buckles under the onslaught of their hooves. I pray for a few more seconds.
But, too soon, the final barrier falls, and the enemy are upon me.
I scream: A lifetime’s worth of frustration channeled into a single “No!” burning my throat.
I expected them to shoot me. Instead, they canter confidently, arrogantly, into the room. I have always thought of this laboratory, as much as the chamber beyond it, as my inner sanctuary. These monsters defile it with their presence.
They surround me, their crossbows raised. One of them asks, “Is this him, Leader?” And I become aware of a darker presence among them. A creature who, despite her metal mask of war, I recognize from our many long-distance conversations.
She struts up to me and takes my chin in her hand, her eyes glistening as they stare appraisingly into mine. “Could it be?” she sneers. “But no—tell me it is not possible. The great and powerful Karza, the mighty warrior who thought he could resist our superior race—an old and feeble biped, after all.” She casts a glance back at the Rift, and spits derisively, “Reduced to this pathetic attempt to escape our vengeance!”
She tosses back her mane and lets out an unpleasant, snorting laugh. Obsequiously, her troops follow suit.
“Computer,” I say quietly, “operate protocol Karza 7434-5840.”
The Centauri leader’s eyes widen, and she delivers a backhanded slap to my exposed cheek. I gasp and, to my disgust, my legs fold beneath me. The Time Traveler’s mask falls out of my grasp, and under a lab bench.
»AUTO-DESTRUCT SEQUENCE INITIATED,« reports a tinny voice, which I know is being broadcast throughout the station. »PLEASE EVACUATE. THIS FACILITY WILL BE DESTROYED IN…« A pause, as the computer checks its database for the information. The default timing for the auto-destruct countdown is one hour. I changed it. »…TEN SECONDS.«
Just long enough for the Centauri to contemplate their fate, to appreciate what I’ve done to them. Not long enough, by any means, for them to avoid it. I may be on my knees, but I’m laughing, laughing until my chest aches. It’s either that, I think, or cry. If there was time, I’d probably do both.
The Centauri leader stoops, having to fold her front legs awkwardly. She grips my shoulders, pulls me to my feet and slams me brutally into the bench, bearing me down until I’m bent backwards across it. “Stop the countdown!” she demands. “Stop the countdown, or I will inflict excruciating pain upon you!”
»AUTO-DESTRUCT IN FIVE SECONDS.«
“Do your worst,” I taunt. “While you can.”
»FOUR.«
“I warned you, Centaurus. You should have listened to me.”
“I’ll share the time technology with you!”
“It is not yours to share!” I hiss.
»THREE.«
The Centaurus rounds on her troops. “Destroy that computer!” she instructs in an insane screech, pointing with a trembling finger. The creatures oblige. I flinch as the room is filled with light, my ears assailed by the cacophony of a hundred explosions.
The computer’s voice is stilled, slurring into silence. The noise continues for at least ten seconds beyond that—or so it seems to me, although I know this to be impossible. When finally it stops, the silence itself is deafening, making my ears ring.
The silence stretches on, long enough for me to know that something is wrong.
Smoke drifts in front of my eyes. I can hear a small fire crackling.
The Centauri couldn’t have halted the countdown. They couldn’t! The auto-destruct circuitry is buried too deeply within the station. And yet, somehow, it has been halted.
The female looms over me and, although her mask conceals her expression, I can see the smugness in her eyes. The control unit on my chest lets out three short beeps, signaling that the course coordinates for its journey through the time stream have been received and processed. Slowly, the cold reality of my defeat sinks in. Even this, my final gesture of defiance, has been denied to me.
I push myself up from the bench. The Centauri press in around me. I struggle. I didn’t think I had the strength, but I find it. I ignore their glancing hoof blows. I think their leader gives them an order not to kill me, but I hear it distantly, as if through a long tube. All I can see is a shifting kaleidoscope of dark shapes. I feel dizzy, nauseous, and I press my eyes shut. I’m relying on sheer instinct now—instinct and adrenaline. I should have fallen long ago. I will, soon. I am battered, spun around, but I never lose my orientation. I know where the Rift is. I can hear it calling.
And I know, somehow, I just know, when my path to it is clear.
I take my opportunity: my leap for freedom, for the Rift. And I know it will destroy me, because I’m not wearing the mask, I’m not protected. But my heart sings, and I force my eyes open because I want to drink in that green light one last time.
Only the green light isn’t there. The siren call was an illusion. I’m looking at the pale, blank wall of the laboratory through the black containment frame. The abused computer must have lost control of the energy grid; emergency systems have shut down the Rift.
The Centauri hold me again, and I can’t escape this time. I have no strength left. If they let me go, I would only fall. Their leader squares up to me, her face an inch from my own.
“Well, well,” she says in a mocking tone, “there is some spirit in you yet. But where do you think you can run to, little man? This station is ours. Your project is ours. And so, now, are you!”
I’m paraded through the corridors of what was once my home, my tiny kingdom. Two Centauri soldiers march ahead of me, two more behind, one to each side—this latter pair holding my shoulders so that my unresponsive feet drag on the floor. Six guards; I ought to be flattered, given my current condition.
Two more stand outside the refectory. One operates the door control—no doubt the corresponding panel inside the room has been disabled—and I’m bundled through the aperture and left to stand unaided. For an instant, watched by so many waiting eyes, I think I can do it. I fall on my face, of course, humiliated.
As the door is closed and locked, my fellow prisoners gather about, concerned.
“Are you okay?” fusses Wroje. “Are you hurt? What did they do to you?”
“And, while you’re considering those questions,” puts in Knave, “here’s another one for you: Who are you?”
“The Time Traveler?” asks Koriah.
“Archer?” guesses Acroyear, peering at my age-worn face. Under other circumstances, I could laugh.
Somebody is laughing: Ogwen, heaped in a corner, on the verge of hysteria. “Don’t you recognize him? Don’t you recognize our lord and master? It’s Karza, you fools, Karza!”
They’re beginning to see it. Wroje gasps, putting a hand to her mouth. Koriah raises an eyebrow. Acroyear says, “You’re wearing the Time Traveler’s containment suit.”
“Well observed,” I say dryly.
“Then, what became of Ryan Archer?”
“He’s dead.” I wait a moment for that to sink in. “I planned to enter the Rift in his place. I wasn’t quick enough. The Centauri found me.”
“Then…then you didn’t make the repairs,” stammers Wroje. “The time stream…it’s still unraveling!”
“One in the eye for the Centauri,” giggles Ogwen, “when they find out.”
“You must tell them!” cries Wroje. “If they knew how important it was, if they knew that the whole universe was in danger, they’d let you—”
“I will tell the Centauri nothing!” I snap. “They are animals. They won’t understand!”
Acroyear leaps to his feet and begins to pace like a caged beast, showing no sign of the injuries he must have sustained. The Centauri took his sword, but they couldn’t remove his armor without killing him; he still looks like a formidable foe. My best hope, such as it is. “If only there was some way out of this room…” he growls. He halts, his eyes alighting upon the grille to the oxygen ducts, high up on the wall opposite the door.
“Been there, done that,” says Knave. “They’ll be wise to that trick now. They’ll have guards watching the ducting.”
“All I need,” I say, lifting myself into a sitting position with some difficulty, “is access to the Rift, just for a second. The course is still programmed into my chest unit.”
“Why don’t you accept it?” groans Ogwen. “The Centauri have won. We can’t fight them—look what happened when we tried! Archer’s dead, and the rest of us are lucky not to have joined him. They’ve beaten us!”
“Not all of us!” cries Wroje suddenly.
“Wroje…”
Fired with enthusiasm, she ignores my warning growl. “No, don’t you see, they haven’t got Kellesh! He was underneath the station, out in space. They might not think to look there, and…and he’s still wearing a baffler, so they can’t detect him. He’s free! He’ll think of something. He’ll lash together some gadget, and he’ll come rescue us.”
“Maybe,” I say tartly, “if you haven’t just betrayed his presence.”
Wroje looks horrified, her jaw trembling as she tries to work out what she’s done wrong.
Koriah frowns. “What are you telling us, Karza?”
“He’s saying that the room’s bugged,” offers Ogwen. “All the rooms are bugged. I’ll bet he has cameras, too, in the walls. I always knew he was watching us, always watching.”
“Karza?”
I shrug. “One microphone, located half a meter below the oxygen duct—buried, as Ogwen correctly surmises, in the wall. Its output is encoded, and can only be unscrambled by the receiver in my chamber. With luck, the Centauri won’t have activated it yet. I would advise, however, saying nothing aloud that you would not wish to be overheard.”
“You were spying on us?” bleats Wroje. “All this time…?”
“Of course he was,” laughs Ogwen. “What else did you expect?”
“But…but not all the time? I mean, not when we were in our quarters?”
I don’t say anything; I don’t have to. Anyway, it is taking more and more effort to think through my dizziness, to block out the pain that is growing to encompass my body. I didn’t count on spending this long without my exo-suit. My years are catching up on me.
Koriah rounds on me, always eager to side with a lost cause. “That’s out of order, Karza! Bad enough you had the Biotrons marching around like your personal watchmen; at least they stayed out of our rooms. We’re entitled to some privacy!”
“And I’m entitled,” I respond hotly, “to know what’s happening aboard my own station.”
“But…but sometimes,” stammers Wroje, “when LeHayn and I were alone—when I thought we were alone—I…I talked to her about things. Personal things.”
“I have no interest in your dreary life,” I snap. “All I was concerned with was the project, and anything that might jeopardize it.”
“Such as?” Koriah challenges.
“Such as Veelum encouraging the insectoid to abandon me. Such as Ogwen planning to betray me to the Centauri to save his own skin.”
“You can’t control everything that happens around you, Karza!”
“Can’t I?”
Koriah scowls. “Oh, sure, you’d like to. That’s one thing I’ve realized about you, Karza. You want power, and you don’t care what you have to do to get it. All this talk of saving the universe—I know you mean it, I know you genuinely want to repair the timelines, that’s why I haven’t tried to stop you. But why, Karza? I don’t believe it’s out of altruism. I don’t think you even care what happens to the rest of us after you’ve gone. It’s a means to an end for you, isn’t it? The Galactic Defenders were right. You want to be able to travel in time, to change your life. You want to rewrite history, to put yourself in control.”
“And would that be so bad? Or would you prefer this chaos?”
“I prefer to be responsible for my own actions!” storms Koriah.
“Such as disabling the auto-destruct system?”
“I…I…” I’ve thrown her off-balance, but not for long. “Yes. Yes, I did that. It was one of the first things I did after I arrived here. I went down into the bowels of the station and I disconnected the bomb that you’d so considerately placed under us all. I tried to reconnect it when Acroyear’s plan hinged on us being able to use it, but the Centauri broadcast their hypnotic signal, Kellesh attacked me, and there just wasn’t time.”
“That bomb was our last hope.”
“Your last hope, Karza. No one else could activate it—and I didn’t trust you not to misuse it. I wasn’t sure you wouldn’t sacrifice us, each and every one of us, for a final grand gesture!”
“Then it’s thanks to you,” I snarl, “that the Centauri have the time travel machinery. You’ve caused exactly what you came here to prevent. I hope you’re proud!”
“Hey,” pipes up Knave, before the argument can escalate further. “The universe is still doomed, right? How much worse could the Centauri make things?”
“When you have suffered a lifetime as their slave,” I say through clenched teeth, “always assuming that they let your miserable species evolve at all, and given the infinitesimal chance that we will remember this conversation or anything about our current existence, then I swear I will find you and remind you of that inane contribution, Vaerian.”
Knave shrugs. “It was a rhetorical question. The point is—”
“The point is,” interrupts Acroyear, “that, whatever the reason, we are alive. It’s futile to debate how we came to be here; recriminations will not aid our escape.”
An awkward, reflective silence follows. Then Wroje asks hesitantly, “Why haven’t the Centauri killed us? What do they want from us?”
“The same thing they have always wanted,” I say. “My project.”
“They have that already,” says Knave.
“Perhaps they don’t. I could have deleted vital files from my computer’s drives—files that, intellectual dwarves as they are, they could never reconstruct.”
“And did you?”
“No, but, ironically, the Centauri caused a great deal of damage themselves, whilst trying to abort the auto-destruct countdown. It will take them some time to repair the computer. Until they do, they can’t know for sure that they have all the data they need—or, equally importantly, that their scientists can interpret that data. They may need me, after all.”
“And the rest of us?” asks Acroyear.
“They will probably threaten your lives to gain my cooperation.”
Koriah laughs hollowly. “Then they don’t know you very well.”
“Indeed.”
I am thinking back to the offer the female Centaurus made, when she thought I had power over her. She was lying, of course. She had no more intention of sharing my project than do I. As soon as I had stopped the countdown, the power would have been hers again, and she would not have relinquished any fraction of it.
Now, however, the situation is different. I may have a bargaining tool. I can make a deal: I can help my foes to reopen the Rift; I can plant the idea in their minds that I may have created a death trap, for anyone who steps into it; I can let them send me in first. A long shot, but it could happen. And once it has, this aberrant timeline would be extinguished in a heartbeat. Nobody would be able to follow me.
“What happened to Archer?” asks Acroyear.
I shrug. “Does it matter?”
“To me, yes. You say the Centauri soldiers were instructed to keep us alive. Why, then, did they kill him?”
It would be easy to lie, but I am weary of all that. “I did not say the Centauri killed him, only that the boy was dead. Yes, Koriah, there’s no need to look so scandalized. It was me. I murdered Archer. He would have destroyed everything.”
The next thing I know, Acroyear is on top of me, hands around my throat, squeezing the life out of me, and everybody else is shouting. I can’t make out their words, only the muted rhythms of their voices crashing in my ears like waves breaking against a cliff side. I can only hear Acroyear:
“I should have done this days ago—Archer warned me that you were a monster!” The image of his helmeted head fades from my sight, as if I’m being pulled away down a long, dark tunnel.
I’m lying on my side, floundering as if half-drowned. My heart pounds so hard that I fear it will give out. The act of breathing is like scouring my lungs with sandpaper, but my chest aches for air and so breathe I must. My vision is hazy with tears. I try to blink them away, try to focus on the muffled sounds around me.
“—don’t like it either,” Koriah is saying, “but if he’s telling the truth, if Archer didn’t make it into the Rift, then we need him. He may be the only person who can repair time.”
“The girl is right,” I say. The words come with difficulty, my lungs protesting at this extra demand upon them. I give myself a few more seconds, during which I see Acroyear’s fists clenching. Koriah places a steadying hand on the warrior’s shoulder. “We seem to have become distracted again. As Acroyear said, we should be planning our escape.”
“Why, Karza?” the warrior growls. “Why did you do it?”
“Was it the hypnotic signal, affecting your mind?” Wroje asks, hopefully.
I sigh. “Don’t be obtuse! The signal could only heighten existing anxieties. Ogwen, for example, wouldn’t have been so terrified of Knave had a part of him not already believed he might devolve into Antron form. Your attack upon Koriah was born from the very real fear that our Galactic Defender might turn on you at any moment, as she did on LeHayn.”
Koriah gasps. “Wroje, I never…I wouldn’t…”
“Of course you would,” I say scornfully, “if you had to. And why not? What good is she to you? To anybody? It is only through LeHayn that she had a place here at all.”
“That’s enough, Karza,” growls Acroyear.
I continue. “For me, the experience was illuminating. The Centauri unlocked a part of my psyche that I’d refused to acknowledge. No, their signal did not compel me to shoot Archer.”
I drag myself to the edge of the room, so that I can prop my head against the wall and face my accusers. In the silence that accompanies my slow, painful crawl, Knave turns to Ogwen and says bitterly, “So, it’s guilty until proven innocent with you, huh? All Vaerians tarred with the same brush. Shoot first and ask questions later.”
“Well, I don’t know what causes the change, do I?” Ogwen defends himself. “For all I know, you could turn into one of those…those animals at any moment. Like she does!” he adds, nodding toward Wroje. Already tearful, she swallows her pain at this further insult.
“Perhaps it’s skipped your attention,” says Knave angrily, “but Wroje and I fought to save this station, to save your butt, twice—while you were doing what, exactly?”
“Comrades in arms now, is it?” snorts Ogwen. “The way I heard it, you two were taking potshots at each other just an hour or two ago.”
“That was different!”
“Yeah? How?”
“You’re wrong about me, Ogwen,” snarls Knave. “You want proof? The proof is that I haven’t torn out your throat by now!”
Acroyear is still glaring at me; I can tell by the tilt of his head, although his eyes are hidden. “You claimed that Archer would have ‘destroyed everything,’ ” he muses.
“That is correct.”
“And yet you would have us believe that you plan to enter the Rift, to sacrifice your life, in his stead—to do what he would have done. It does not make sense. Unless…”
I don’t say anything. I let him work it out for himself.
“Archer planned to save this timeline. We talked about it. Perhaps you murdered him because you disagreed with that choice.”
“Archer would have shorn up the time stream,” I confess, “at the expense of all future travel into it. He would have ensured that this miserable reality endured forever, could never be usurped.” I look to the others for support. “Is that you want? Any of you? I promised LeHayn that I would change your past, Wroje. I promised Kellesh that I would save his family. Most of all, I promised myself that all those who have given their lives for my project—the insectoid, LeHayn, Veelum, even Archer—would have a second chance.”
“B-but…” stammers Ogwen, straining to think through his intoxication, “what would that mean for us? The people we are? We…we wouldn’t exist…would we?”
“On the contrary, our lives would be improved. We are, all of us, a product of our experiences. Imagine, Ogwen, if you had not come to this station. Ima gine if you had been protected your whole life, if there had been nothing to fear. With your intellect, you could have been a builder, a leader, instead of the cringing wretch you have become! And you, Acroyear—how different would your life have been had Maruunus Ki not defeated and enslaved you? How many years did you waste in his mines? Can you hear the ticking of the clock yet, the whisper in your ear that tells you that time is racing onward? Do you even know how long you have before that armored suit of yours consumes you?”
“Presumably,” Koriah points out, “your argument didn’t convince Archer.”
“He wouldn’t see,” I snort dismissively. “He didn’t understand. But you understand, don’t you? All of you—with the possible exception of Koriah—wish your lives could have been different. Well, I can make it so. I challenge any of you to look me in the eye and tell me that that isn’t your fondest desire!”
“You make a persuasive case,” concedes Acroyear.
“Yeah,” adds Knave, “but nobody’s life is perfect, is it? I mean, sure, I’d give anything to reverse what happened to my people, for my circus not to have fallen into Ordaal’s hands, but how do I know those things didn’t happen anyway in the original timeline?”
“And there’s one part of this little fairytale you haven’t mentioned yet,” Koriah points out. “You’ve talked about how the rest of us might fare in this other reality—but you, I suspect, would gain a lot more than most.”
“All I would gain,” I say cautiously, “is the chance to improve the lot of billions.”
“Your precious order,” says Koriah, “at all costs.”
I have no wish to get into this argument again. My head aches. It’s an effort to keep my eyes open. “Whatever your opinion of me, Koriah,” I say, “the situation is this: Archer is gone, and only I can replace him. My path is programmed into the Time Traveler’s chest unit. It is unlikely enough that I will ever get to follow it. Certainly, I foresee no possible future in which I have a chance to reprogram that path, even should I wish to.”
“So, it comes down to a choice,” says Acroyear. “Either we allow you to rule the galaxy, or it will be destroyed.”
“A fair summation.” I try to smile, but my muscles protest at even this small effort.
Another long silence, ended again by Wroje. “I think we have to do it,” she says. “It’s like Knave said: That other timeline, it’s the original one. It doesn’t matter if we like it or not, it’s the way things should have been. We’re the ones who oughtn’t to be here.”
“For once, Wroje has the right idea,” I prompt, since nobody else seems to want to respond to that. “In the end, all I’m proposing is that we put things right. If we can.”
I’m still waiting for somebody to speak when a high-pitched whistle whines around the refectory. Instantly, Acroyear, Koriah and Knave are on their feet, looking for the source of the sound. I make a token effort to raise myself a little, to shake the shadows from my eyes and get a better view across the room, but I soon give up and sink back down. Ogwen takes a swig from his bottle, squints down its neck distastefully when he realizes that it’s empty, burps and mutters an embarrassed apology.
The sound comes again, like a sonic drill boring into my eardrums. I wince. There is no other indication that anything is amiss, however—no sign of an attack. The refectory door remains closed, and I detect no alteration to my brain chemistry this time. My cellmates see this, too, and allow themselves to relax a little.
Knave is the first to find the source of the disturbance. He homes in on the grille to the oxygen ducts, and then to an area of the wall beneath it. “Sounds like feedback from that bug of yours,” he says.
“Does…does that mean the Centauri…Are they listening?” asks Wroje, trembling.
The sound has softened, become less distinct. It is like the wind now, rustling through leaves—and I start as the wind whispers my name.
I must have imagined it, my mind constructing patterns where there are none. But I hear it again: “Ka…za…kar…zaa…” And then, unmistakably: “Ac…royear…”
Koriah springs across the room and speaks urgently into the wall. “Kellesh?”
“Koriah…” breathes the whistling wind. “Koriah…that you?”
“Kellesh,” warns Acroyear, “the Centauri may be monitoring this frequency.”
“…can’t…isolated the circuits…can’t eavesdrop…”
“Where are you?”
“Still…exposed part of the station…below…”
“We can’t hear you,” says Acroyear. “You’re breaking up.”
“Best I can…modulating the feedback from the…hear you fine, but…”
“Listen, Kellesh,” says Acroyear brusquely. “We need you to get us out of this room. There are two guards outside. Can you deal with them?”
“…might be able to rig up…diversion…some time, though.”
“No hurry,” says Knave. “We aren’t about to starve with the food machines in here.”
“No,” I interrupt forcefully. “A simple diversion is not good enough this time, Kellesh. We need those Centauri dead, and we need you to open this door from the outside. And we don’t have as much time as our Vaerian colleague suggests: My strength is fading.”
A short pause. Then Kellesh responds, “…see what I can do…need…help, though. Give me…then make…much noise as you…distract the guards, and…”
“Say again,” urges Acroyear. “How long, Kellesh? How long do you need?”
The answer comes through a static storm. “Ten minutes.”
“Bring weapons,” I say. “As many as you can.”
“Do you think he can do it?” Knave asks, after a long enough pause to be sure that the Terragonian is no longer listening. “I know he’s resourceful—he just doesn’t strike me as the kind of guy who has the killer instinct.”
“He fared adequately against the Antrons,” says Acroyear.
“Until they overpowered him,” Knave points out.
“An entirely different circumstance,” I say. “No doubt it was easy for Kellesh to think of the Antrons as subhuman, and to treat them as such.” I cast a sly glance at Knave, whose mouth tightens into a straight line. “The Centauri have the power of speech, and a certain level of intellect; he will find it harder to resist anthropomorphizing them. Nevertheless, they too are monsters. After what happened to Kellesh’s family—knowing that the Centauri might do the same to us—I believe he will accept that.”
“So, you think he’ll come through,” says Koriah. “Why didn’t you just say that?”
“We don’t have long,” says Acroyear. “We must be ready when Kellesh makes his move.”
“Am I to assume, then,” I ask, “that you have decided to assist me?”
“Do we have a choice?” Knave grumbles.
Acroyear walks up to me, looms over me. “Whatever I may think of you,” he says, “your argument has logic. For the sake of the universe itself, we must do as you say. We must do all we can to get you to the Rift, and allow you to make your journey.”
He turns back to the others, as if expecting an argument. Nobody speaks up. I wonder how they would react if I told them all that my plan has a far lower chance of success than did Archer’s. I have burdened them with enough knowledge, however. All they need to know is that my way is the only way. It offers the only prize worth the struggle.
Even Ogwen seems to accept this, lapsing into sober contemplation. When Koriah offers a stimulant from one of the food machines, to chase the methohol from the bureaucrat’s system, he assures her in a clear tone that this will not be necessary. I had wondered to what extent his habitual drunkenness was a front, a means of keeping a frightening world at bay; I always knew we didn’t have that much methohol on the station.
I clear my throat. “I, on the other hand…” I say self-consciously.
Koriah looks at me as if I’m beneath contempt, as if to assist me in any way would be to sully her soul. I can do nothing but return her gaze, blankly, straining to keep a plea from my eyes. I won’t be that weak.
I can’t feel my legs.
The girl’s expression softens, and this is worse. I don’t want her pity. I may have fallen far, but I will rise again. She leans over me and empties a syringe into a vein on my neck. I convulse as its effervescent payload sparks in my chest. My nerves twitch.
I feel hardly any stronger—what extra reserves the injection has given me have been diverted straight to my system’s war against total collapse. My hand darts out, catching Koriah’s wrist as she withdraws. “More…” I croak. She looks as if she’s about to argue, but then she performs a facial shrug—of what concern is my health to her, anyway?—and returns to the machine.
The second injection restores some measure of control to me. While I still have it, while I can force my muscles to take my weight, I lever myself to my feet. I’m forced to use the wall as a crutch—nobody offers me a hand, nor do I ask for one. The stimulant has bought me a little more time, but not much. My brain feels swollen, too big for my head. I concentrate through the muzziness and the flashes of pain.
“This is what we must do,” I say. “When—if—Kellesh frees us, we must separate. I need all of you to make as much trouble in as many different areas of the Astro Station as you can. Koriah, I want you to target the bridge. Knave, you are to go with Kellesh, protect him while he destroys the life support systems. If this plan doesn’t work,” I add quickly, forestalling Ogwen’s objection, “we’re dead anyway. If it does, it will not matter.”
I turn back to the Vaerian. “When you’ve completed that task—assuming you survive that long—you should join Koriah. As for you, Ogwen, you are to do what comes naturally: run. Take a ship from the hangar bay—the Centauri Battle Cruiser, if you’re able. You may even get lucky: You may escape. The important thing is that the Centauri respond to what appears to be a full-scale breakout.”
“No matter how we divide their attention,” says Acroyear, “they will not leave the laboratory unguarded.”
“Indeed. That is why I need you with me. Your task is the most important of all, Acroyear. You are to get me to the Rift.”
“What about me?” asks Wroje plaintively.
I pretend not to hear her. I say to Acroyear, “I trust you are as useful with a laser pistol as you are with an energy sword? You will need to be.”
“What should I do?”
I turn to Wroje slowly, eyeing her with disdain. “Do as you wish. I don’t imagine there’s anything you could do that would make the slightest difference.”
The young woman’s face crumples as, predictably, Koriah’s righteous anger flares. “You’re some piece of work, you know that, Karza? You brought Wroje into this—she’s been loyal to you, she’s helped you, spoke up for you—and in return, you treat her like dirt! I’d hoped that staring death in the face might have given you a little perspective.”
“On the contrary,” I contest, “it has done just that. It has focused my mind on what is important—and I can see, if you cannot, that Wroje has no practical use to us. To delude her, and ourselves, into believing otherwise would be a monumental waste of time.”
“In some ways,” says Koriah defensively, “she’s the strongest of us all!”
I let out a scornful laugh. “You mistake potential for actuality, dear girl. What use all of Wroje’s strength if she is too weak, too afraid, to release it? Even now she relies on you to argue her case. She lacks the courage even to speak for herself!”
“I can help,” insists Wroje, sullenly. “I can…I can…” She fumbles for an idea. “I can analyze the Centauri’s subsonic signal. I can duplicate it. They won’t be expecting that. Their brain chemistry isn’t too dissimilar to ours. The signal should play with their minds, as it did with ours. They won’t be able to tell friend from foe.”
“And how exactly do you plan to accomplish this?” I scoff, puncturing her building optimism. “Do you think the occupiers of this station will let you just stroll up to a computer terminal and leave you to work?”
“It’s an idea, Karza,” says Koriah pointedly. “We could at least discuss it.”
“You see?” I snap. “Wasting time! You want to ‘discuss’ this foolhardy notion, squander the few minutes we have left to plan, for no better reason than to spare her feelings. This woman, whose own mother hated her so much that she kept her locked in a room for half her childhood. This…this miserable half-breed; this product of one of the most vile acts of betrayal imaginable!”
“Karza…” warns Koriah.
“Stop it!” wails Wroje. “Stop…stop saying those things! Stop telling those lies!”
“Lies? Is that what you tell yourself, Wroje? Perhaps you’ve said it enough times that you’ve even begun to believe it. You’ve rewritten your own past already. Perhaps you believe that those people—those men your mother let take you—inserted the monster within you somehow. But that isn’t true, Wroje. You know it isn’t true. They only branded you, marked you so that ordinary, decent people wouldn’t be taken in by your outward appearance.”
“No!” Wroje turns away, her hands pressed over her ears as if my words cause her physical pain. Koriah is torn between comforting her and yelling at me.
Acroyear has sidled over to me without my realizing it. “You’re playing a dangerous game, Karza,” he mutters in my ear—but he makes no move to stop me. Knave is looking from one of us to the other, not sure what’s going on.
“Why do you think your mother despised you, Wroje?” I snarl. “Why do you think she couldn’t bear to look at you? You are the monster. It’s a part of you—the most important part—and it always has been, ever since your mother was assaulted by your Centaurus father!”
Wroje’s heartfelt cry of misery is punctuated by three small explosions from outside the room. I grit my teeth. I had hoped Kellesh could be a little more subtle. He’ll put our foes on alert, bring reinforcements running from all over the Astro Station.
Acroyear and Knave hurry over to the door. At least one of the Centauri guards is still standing, and returning fire. I don’t have long.
“What are you doing here, Wroje?” I snap. “You aren’t one of us. Your people, the Centauri, are out there! They’re massacring and looting and bullying the rest of the galaxy into submission, but at least they have the courage to be true to themselves.”
“It’s not true!” she screams. “I’m not like that, I’m not!”
“You don’t expect me to believe that? I’ve seen you, Wroje; I’ve seen the real you, the monster! Do you really think you can fool me—fool anyone, anymore—with this pathetic, simpering, whining shell you’ve built for yourself?”
There is silence outside. Kellesh has triumphed, or more likely failed. Either way, it’s over.
“LeHayn said—”
“LeHayn pitied you. That’s what she told me.” It isn’t true, but that doesn’t matter now. I bear down on Wroje, taking her by the arms, shaking her. Trying to shake the creature out of her. “How do you think I know so much about you, Wroje? Your friend confided in me, many times. She asked me—no, begged me—to go back in time, to destroy the Centauri before they could spawn you. She wanted to snuff out your miserable hybrid existence before it began. She knew you’d be better off dead; that the universe would be a better place without you. And she knew it was the only way she’d ever be rid of your clinging—”
Koriah is between us, her expression thunderous, her fist drawn back.
Her punch seems to land in slow motion, still too fast for me to react in time. My jaw explodes into a ball of pain. My muscles lose their artificial strength in one frenetic burst, snapping like over-tensed elastic bands, and I’m falling. I can’t help myself. I hit the floor face-first, boiling with frustration. Stupid girl! Can’t she see what I’m trying to do?
And suddenly, everything is happening at once. The door is opening, and Wroje is leaping at me, transforming in midair. I find the strength to twist, to roll out from beneath her striking hooves, because I know the only other option is to die.
I catch a brief glimpse of Kellesh’s face, his expression confused. Then Wroje rears up to attack me again, Equestron nostrils flaring above snarling white teeth, and I know I can’t avoid her next blow. My heart feels heavy in my chest, pinning me to the spot. I can’t even raise my hands to protect my head. I try to cry out, but can muster only a pitiful squeal.
An energy bolt glances off my attacker’s head, a corona of fire fizzing around her ears. With a furious whinny, Wroje abandons me for this new threat. She tears into the Centauri guards that have just dragged Kellesh in here, the force of her anger taking them by surprise. My eyelids flutter shut, and I draw a deep, wracking breath. I am soaked through with sweat. Part of me is scornful at myself, that I doubted my own judgment. I took a calculated risk, and it paid off; my timing was perfect. But another, larger part of me is still stuck in that moment of absolute terror.
I hear the sounds of battle: the cries of comrades, and the screams of our Centauri guards as they are beaten to death. I hear the hoof beats of arriving reinforcements. But all those sounds seem so distant. I can’t open my eyes.
My mind is wrapped in shadows. There is only the darkness, and I am helpless to resist as it pulls me down into its depths.
Smoke. Heat. Pain. If I didn’t know better—if I wasn’t clinging, with the last shreds of my will, to my rationalism—I might think I’d come to some mythical Hell. Giddily, my mind runs away with that idea, painting fire and bones and leering demons around me. My demons have been waiting a long time to claim me.
Instinctively, I cower from them. I try to run, but my legs won’t hold me. I’m caught—a strong arm around my waist—and I scream, and try to fight it. My captor is a shadow against the flames. Dark red eyes, staring into my mind. A specter of times gone by, and of those that will never come. The sight of him freezes my heart.
I realize that my eyes are closed. I pry them open, gasping with the cold shock of reality. Acroyear. The shadow demon was Acroyear, holding me, keeping me standing, protecting me. The fire and the pain…they were all too real. I’ve been hit—a Centauri energy bolt, between the ribs of my left side. A patch of the Time Traveler’s containment suit has melted and congealed over the wound. It won’t hold: When I step into the time stream, that part of me will be torn open.
I don’t have time to take in what’s happening, can’t discern any pattern in the barrage of movement and noise, before Acroyear manhandles me into a cool, dark space and lets me go, lets me spin into a corner. As a door closes behind us, the sounds of battle are cut off, all but drowned out by the sound of my own ragged breathing.
“What…what’s happening?”
“Shh!” says Acroyear, sharply. Hoof beats clatter by outside. I think my heart will explode with impatience. At last, the warrior turns to me. He whispers, “The others are doing their best. Wroje finished off the guards; we got back the weapons they’d taken from Kellesh.” He brandishes his arm, on which is perched a laser pistol; he takes the opportunity to tighten its straps. “Just in time. The Centauri attacked. Fortunately for us, they weren’t prepared for Wroje’s transformation. I was able to carry you out of there.”
“Where are we?”
“A storeroom.” My eyes are adjusting to the gloom—to seeing at all—and I make out empty, dusty shelves. We haven’t come far. “Another minute,” says Acroyear, “to be sure we’re behind Centauri lines, and then we’ll make our move. Are you ready?”
“I can’t move,” I say. My voice sounds more plaintive than I thought it would.
Acroyear slaps me. He doesn’t hold back. My neck cracks like a whip; I knock my head on a shelf. His metal knuckles have drawn blood from my cheek. I start to slide to the floor, but the warrior hoists me up by my chest unit. The blow has served to sharpen my mind, to focus my eyes upon my sallow reflection in his red faceplate, but such clarity is an elusive commodity, already beginning to slip through my fingers.
“I won’t let you give up now, Karza!” Acroyear snarls. “You’re going through that Rift if I have to carry you to the laboratory and hurl your dead body into it!”
“W-wouldn’t do you much good.” I’m laughing. I am actually laughing. A wave of adrenaline has broken inside me—but instead of bolstering me, it threatens to tip me into delirium. I can’t stand this. If I can’t even control myself, then what hope have I?
“Archer said—”
“—that only the costume was important. But we aren’t following Archer’s plan now.”
“What haven’t you told me, Karza?”
“Need…need to reach someone. Across the time stream. I need to warn him…”
What hope have I? No hope at all.
“You aren’t making sense!” says Acroyear urgently, raising his voice as high as he dares.
“Doesn’t matter now.” I’m a rag doll, limp in his grasp. “Can’t…anyway. Knew it was too late…knew I couldn’t keep on…should have accepted…it’s over.”
With that, I let my heavy eyelids fall again. I seek out the darkness, realizing with sudden clarity that it doesn’t matter that I’ve lost. Time will endure without me, unchanged by my brief passage through it—but that thought causes me no anguish, no regret. I feel only contentment, and relief at relinquishing a long-held burden.
And armored hands, shaking me, holding me here. I let out a moan, and plead with Acroyear to leave me alone. He refuses. “People are fighting for you, Karza.”
“Then…then their cause is lost.”
“They’re dying, to give you a chance that you’ve done little to deserve. They’re counting on you to put things right!”
“A chance? No chance at all. The odds…too great…Look at me, Acroyear!”
“They’re doing as you told them. They’re separating, making for the bridge, the hangar bay, the life support systems. Wroje is wreaking havoc. The Centauri won’t know which way to turn. With luck, it will be some time before they even miss us.”
“Look at me! What use am I to anybody? I just want to die. Let me die!”
He lets go of me. For a moment, I think he might grant me my wish. Instead he sighs, and addresses me in a softer voice. “Ryan Archer told me about the other timeline,” he says, “what little he saw of it. He told me of a galaxy over which one man had absolute control. He was afraid to come here, to this station, although he knew he had to—afraid to face the all-powerful figure he had seen in his nightmares. And he spoke of technology beyond anything we know now: of giant mechs and rocket tubes, and genetic monstrosities bred in vaults.”
I sneer. “Don’t tell me you approve.”
“Archer also described the fate of Knave’s race.”
“Oh?”
“The Vaerians were massacred, as in the history we know—sacrificed for their genetic potential. The difference is that, in the other reality, it was you who ordered your biosmiths to create the Antrons, you who committed that atrocity.”
“I assume your friend Jafain is unaware of this fact?”
“If he knew—if he were here now instead of me—I’m sure he would accede to your request. He would let you die! Koriah, I suspect, would do the same, were she to learn that, in the timeline you wish to restore, she is fated to become the last of her proud organization.”
“And you? What about you, Acroyear?”
A drawn-out pause, before the warrior answers. “This I swear, Karza: Should we succeed here, we will meet again in another life. I will oppose you, then, with every fiber of my being. I won’t rest until I have brought your empire crashing down around your ears.”
I grin, holding onto the vestige of hope that, somehow, he has managed to dredge from me. “I look forward to the battle.”
And that’s when the lights go out.
I don’t quite know what has happened at first. This storeroom is dark anyway, so the shift in visibility isn’t too noticeable; I fear my sight might be failing, that this is yet another symptom of my inexorable decay. It is Acroyear who reminds me of Kellesh and Knave’s mission, which has evidently met with success. He asks me how long we can survive without life support.
“Given the number of Centauri aboard, and the fact that our oxygen reserves were already depleted by the damage done to the station, I would estimate no longer than about twenty minutes.” I don’t add that, with the respiratory problems I already have, I will probably collapse in half that time, as soon as the air grows thin. The important thing is that the Centauri will have to evacuate—unlikely, given the situation—or divert vital resources toward repairing Kellesh’s sabotage. The gloom of the emergency lighting—a faint green glow now seeps under the door—will also aid our cause.
Acroyear is holding something up to my eyes. It takes me a moment to discern the shape as that of another laser pistol. “Can you use this?” he asks. I nod. Still, he is forced to strap the weapon to my arm himself, as I lean against the shelving. “We can’t win this war by stealth alone,” he says. “Sooner or later, we are going to have to fight.”
“I won’t let you down,” I promise.
Acroyear nods grimly, seeming to accept that. He opens the door and peers out into the corridor beyond. When he’s satisfied that it is clear, he turns and extends a hand toward me. For all of two faltering steps, I am determined not to take it.
We stumble out of the storeroom together. Acroyear’s right arm is around my waist, his left hand raised as he sights along his laser pistol.
We are spotted within seconds. My unlikely ally fires, almost before I see the first Centaurus rounding the corner ahead of us. The shot flies true, striking her in the face, making her recoil; however, Acroyear’s pistol is not as effective as his energy sword was. Protected by her faceplate but blinded by the flash of the attack, the Centaurus gallops forward, screaming for reinforcements. I couldn’t get out of her way even if I had somewhere to go.
Remembering, belatedly, that I, too, am armed, I get off a shot. It goes wild. Beside me, to my gratitude, Acroyear stands his ground, firing a second, a third, a fourth time. The Centaurus has almost reached us—she’s rearing up, ready to crack my head open with a double-hoofed blow—when the cumulative effect of her punishment takes hold, and she topples backwards.
Before she even hits the ground, Acroyear is running, pulling me along. He leaps over our fallen foe, and I stumble in his wake. I think it’s only momentum that keeps me on my feet. The warrior bundles me around a corner and presses me to the wall, clamping a hand over my mouth to stifle the sound of my panting. Four Centauri rush past in response to their comrade’s call, passing within a few meters of our hiding place.
I feel as if a buzz saw has been let loose in my chest cavity, as if my lungs will collapse in on themselves. Does Acroyear know that he’s killing me? Bile rises in my throat, and I find the strength to tear his hand away, to gasp for sweet air. My eyes are misted with tears.
And then he’s propelling me onward again, and I have to suffer the ignominy of being so utterly dependent on one who should have been a sworn adversary. I am more determined than ever, now, to reach the Rift, to alter my history, because only this will erase my shame. That I, Karza, should have begged this savage for the release of death…It is a moment in time that, for the sake of my legacy, I will see obliterated.
The next few minutes dissolve into a red haze. It has always been difficult for me, a man of intellect, to surrender to my base instincts, but that is what I do. It is only through disengaging my brain that I can keep my pain, and my sense of hopelessness, at bay. I must not pause to dwell upon my situation, lest my mind be forced to accept it.
I am afraid of the future, so I live in the moment. As more Centauri come at us, I embrace my hatred for them until there is nothing else. My reactions become quicker, my aim more precise. Acroyear is still claiming the majority of the kills, but I make a contribution. The air around me is thick with the answering fire of crossbows, but I hardly care. Let them strike me—if that is to be my fate, then I can do nothing to avert it.
I think of the scientists’ rebellion, of Fzzzpa’s blood draining into the ground. I think of Wroje, and the beast inside her. I disdained her, because she couldn’t control it; I taunted her into releasing it, because I needed its chaos. I never once considered my own inner beast, so long imprisoned, so long denied. I told myself, for so many years, that I could control it. I can’t control it. I could only keep it subjugated. For the first time, as a bloodthirsty scream is ripped from my throat, I appreciate that distinction.
I think I fell, once. I think I was separated from Acroyear. He couldn’t reach me.
I have a memory of lying on my back, twisting and writhing to avoid being trampled, staring up at the stomach of a Centauri soldier—but it seems to belong to a distant time, or perhaps to an old nightmare, and I can’t be certain that it happened at all.
I think I found a patch of exposed flesh between the armor plates strapped to my attacker’s underside. I think I fired into it. I think the Centaurus reared up in animal pain, and I targeted his weak spot a second time before rolling out from beneath him. I think I did all those things, but I don’t know how I could have done them. Did I really find the strength to leap to my feet unaided? To rush the Centaurus before he could recover his wits? To knock the crossbow from his hand, pressing so close to him that he couldn’t raise his hooves to strike at me? To fire repeatedly into the eyeholes of his faceplate?
The more I think about it, the more I doubt myself. It’s as if, all of a sudden, I can see what I’m doing, and it terrifies me because I know I can’t do it. I keep seeing myself lying on the floor as hooves crash around my head, and I think the reason that the image has a dreamlike quality is that I didn’t let myself think about my situation at the time.
I mustn’t think about it now. I mustn’t pierce the protective misty bubble in which I’ve wrapped the memory; I would release enough fear and self-doubt to incapacitate myself.
I must keep going. Stop analyzing. Suppress the dreams that have kept me alive this long. Don’t think about my ambitions. Forget the future.
I don’t stop—can’t stop—even after the last foe has fallen. I’m fighting empty air, looking for somebody to vent my fury upon. There is only Acroyear, shouting something I can’t hear. I try to keep hold of the moment, afraid to let it go, but my hatred dissipates in the absence of an outlet for it. The thoughts I’ve been keeping at arm’s length overwhelm me, memories striking me like fresh revelations. I feel as if I were temporarily possessed by the soul of another man, another Karza; that it was him, not me, who fought his way to here.
The main lab. I didn’t recognize it before, hardly glanced at my surroundings. I do have a vague recollection of passing through a doorway. I don’t think it was guarded, but there were several creatures inside the room, working at the computer. Technicians—but, being Centauri, they were bred to fight anyway. Not well enough.
“—done my part. It’s your turn, Karza. Open the Rift. Don’t let all this be for nothing!”
“How…how long…?” I feel as if I were fighting forever, but the fact that I’m still breathing, albeit in labored gasps, proves otherwise.
“As long as it takes the Centauri to shoot their way in here,” says Acroyear. The next wave is already approaching. Stationing himself beside the open door, the warrior leans out into the corridor and lets off a volley of laser fire. “I’ll give you as long as I can.”
I nod and, with trembling hands, work the straps of my own pistol free from around my arm, then toss it to him. I’m beginning to suffer the aftereffects of my exertion; my body feels like an eggshell, about to collapse in on itself. I try not to think about it, but it’s harder to focus past that sort of pain now. My beast has gone, my chaotic side reined in once more. It is the ordered, analytical side of my nature that I need now—the true Karza, I once thought.
I sag into the chair before the computer’s main console. The lab, like the rest of the station, is cast in a dull, emergency lighting glow, but the computer has its own power source. It is unaffected by Kellesh’s sabotage. The question is, how much damage have the Centauri wrought? And how much were they able to repair?
A voice bleeds through the rushing sound in my ears: the Centauri representative, her hateful tone distorted by electronics. “A spirited attempt, Karza—I’ll confess, we didn’t expect the Panzerite—but you can’t hope to defeat us. We have the bridge, and we have your friends, the Galactic Defender and the Vaerian; the others are dead. If you care anything for them, you will surrender and leave the time travel machinery intact. Cooperate, and I will petition the Centauri council to grant you a stay of execution.”
“A less than generous offer,” I respond tersely, “under the circumstances.” I launch a diagnostic program, rigid with anxiety as I await the results, wishing I could speed up the process. I try to ignore the continuing sounds of battle behind me, try not to think about what will happen should Acroyear fall.
The next voice I hear belongs to Koriah. “They want me to plead with you. They say they’ll torture me if you don’t give yourself up, but you know—” The speech turns into a gargling groan as she bites back a scream. Involuntarily, I say her name. “Don’t…don’t weaken on me now,” she gasps. This time, I hear the whine of whatever device it is they’re using to burn her. The girl’s voice cracks with pain as she forces out the words, “You know what you have to do, Karza. This is no time to give up being a heartless bastard!”
She screams then, and I find myself wincing, caring more than I thought I could. I have come to realize how strong she is; she must be in agony, to lose control like this. I raise my hands to my ears, knowing the futility of the gesture but just wanting the awful sound to stop. And then, mercifully, it does stop, with an electric fizzle and an odor of burning, and I see that Acroyear has half-turned to fire his pistol at the compad on the wall.
“The Rift, Karza,” he says gruffly, as he turns back to the door. “Open the Rift!”
“You can’t control them,” says a voice at my shoulder. “You see that now, don’t you?”
“Now is not the time for this conversation,” I say through gritted teeth.
“Can’t think of a better one.”
He steps into my field of vision. Incongruously, his forehead still bears the entry wound of my killing shot. He is dressed, as am I, in the costume of the Time Traveler, minus its mask. “You can conquer them, Karza,” says Archer. “You can take their freedom, but they’ll despise you for it. As soon as they see an opening, they’ll turn on you. As soon as you turn your back, they will betray you.”
“Get out of my mind, Archer!”
“Can’t do that either, I’m afraid.”
“I know you aren’t real. You are a figment of my imagination, a delusion caused by…” By what? The Centauri again? No. I hadn’t realized how hot, how stuffy, it was in here. My skin prickles. Sweat pours down my face. My suit sticks to me. My lungs are a pair of blast furnaces. “By the first stage of oxygen starvation.”
“You think I’m your conscience?” the ghost says with a smirk.
“Whatever you are, you won’t dissuade me from this course. As I told the others, my path is already programmed. I couldn’t vary it if…if…” I stop myself, realizing the foolishness of speaking out loud. I need to conserve what breath I have left.
“We both know you won’t reach the end of that path alive,” says the image of Archer. “The best you can hope for is to touch the thoughts of your counterpart in the alternative reality. You hope to send him a warning—but against what?”
The computer delivers the results of its scan. The damage isn’t extensive—but it’s bad enough. I stare at the cold, angular numbers on the screen, unable to take them in. It seems so cruel, so unfair, that I have come this far, clawed my way back from abject despair, only to have fate deal me this final shattering blow.
“You make your own fate, Karza. Didn’t I teach you that?”
My ghost’s voice has grown deeper, scratchier. I don’t have to look up to know that its shape and its colors have changed too, its golds darkening to black and its reds deepening and shrinking to a single fiery pool in its head.
Under the Emperor’s monocular gaze, I feel shamed into renewing my efforts. I can’t fix the physical damage—though the Centauri have left their tools scattered about, I have neither the time nor the strength to wield them—but maybe I can find a software workaround. I focus on the keyboard and the monitor, trying to fill my mind with equations and data strings, trying to find my way back to the state of distraction I achieved in the heat of combat.
But what, I keep asking myself, if my dreams are unattainable?
“Don’t give up on me now, son. I didn’t raise you to be weak!”
What if Archer was right? What if I can never control them? What use my vaunted order, if it is built on unsound foundations?
“You’ll be making their lives better.” The voice has changed again. This time I do look. The figure beside me is still dressed in black, but its red eye has split into a pair of triangular points. Its helmet has grown to encase the figure’s chin, its splayed fins narrowing and dividing into a crown of horns. “Only as Baron Karza can you save them. Only as Baron Karza can you elevate them from the mire of superstition, give them knowledge. Yes, they will kick against you—they are cattle; it is in their nature to fear the new, the unfamiliar—but, in time, they will see the benefit of your vision, and grow to share it. They will understand that progress—true progress—can only be achieved through perfect order.”
“Yes,” I mutter to myself. “Yes…”
My fingers are a blur on the keypad, the accumulated knowledge of my life flowing from my brain. I can do this. I don’t have to reconstruct every one of the corrupted files: It doesn’t matter if the Rift I form is ultimately unstable, so long as it endures for the seconds I need.
“Don’t do this, Karza.”
I stiffen. Is my own subconscious determined to torture me? The lines of the phantom have softened, its colors brightening, as if light has chased away the darkness. I’m faced with the image of an attractive young woman, blonde hair flowing onto her shoulders. Her expression—the purse of her lips, the arch of her eyebrows—makes her face look hard. Persephone was like me in so many ways—committed, pragmatic, strong—and yet she could also be optimistic and compassionate. I admired her. I sent her to her death.
“I thought you, of all people, would understand.” I forget my resolution not to speak. The sight of her has destroyed that.
She leans over me, and I imagine I can detect the sweet fragrance of her soft skin. “I love you like a father,” she says, “but I can’t condone what you’re doing.”
“The universe needs order,” I say. “Isn’t that what you believe?”
“Once, maybe—but I won’t be a party to tyranny, Karza. In time, I will see that your order is not worth the price. You will turn me against you.”
“Never. I would never drive you away. I couldn’t do anything to hurt you.”
“It is already written, Karza. There is only one way to stop it: Turn from this course.”
“I…I must enter the Rift. The universe…everything…I have no choice.”
“I know that. But, when you contact your alternative self—when your mind touches his—what will you tell him?” That question again. I thought I knew the answer, but now I am confused. It’s the lack of air, I tell myself. I can’t trust my own mind, in this condition. I have to block out my ghosts, concentrate on the task before me. This is everything I have ever wanted; should I doubt myself now, the hesitation would prove fatal.
“You’re dead,” I say, in a final attempt to drive the ghost away. “You’re dead, and I swore I would do all I can to bring you back—even if it means I must lose you.”
I am almost there. Just a few more computations. But, with each second, it becomes harder to draw breath. My chest groans. I feel as if somebody is holding a pillow over my nose and mouth. My vision blurs, the symbols on the screen swimming and dividing.
I ignore Acroyear, at first, when he appears at my side. I think he is another illusion.
“The Centauri have withdrawn,” he reports. “It is my guess that they have decided to evacuate the Astro Station.”
“Contact Kellesh,” I instruct tersely. “Tell him to restore life support, if he’s able.”
“I have already tried. I can’t rise anybody.”
It was too much to hope that the Centaurus was lying, that any of them would have survived. I remind myself that they suffered, gave their lives, in a good cause. The best cause. They have bought me this chance.
“Then bring me an air tank. The Centauri will return soon, with spacesuits—but until they do, I have a little more time…if only I could breathe!”
Acroyear shakes his head. “Our foes have sustained heavy losses. They have seen their prize damaged, and apparently they believe that you intend to destroy it. If I were the Centauri leader, I would not waste further resources. I would turn my guns on the Astro Station itself as soon as my Battle Cruiser was clear.”
I shoot the warrior a withering glare. It comes automatically. I want—I need—to argue with him, to dispute his assumptions. I can’t. He’s right.
One way or another, this ends now. I save the file I’m working on and hope that I have done enough. The computer’s voice receptor is down, so I manually enter the command to open the Rift. The keyboard seems sluggish, unresponsive. Or is it my fingers that are moving clumsily, slowed by my fear of an uncertain fate? I have lost so many chances already. I have given up more than once, only to find that, by accepting the help of those I considered my inferiors, I could still find hope. But is it rational to hope at all—to imagine that, after a lifetime of thwarted ambitions, I can achieve everything in these last seconds? Am I fooling myself?
“Help me,” I request, holding out a hand to Acroyear. He takes it and lifts me from my chair. I’m still trying to straighten my legs when I see the Time Traveler’s mask, discarded on the floor, its golden eyes staring out from beneath a bench. I stoop and reach for it, closing my fingers around it and clasping it to my heart like a treasured trophy.
Then, I stand at last, and face the black containment grid. Something is happening, but I’m not sure what. The air inside the grid is sparking green, but the flames don’t seem able to take hold. The grid itself is buzzing, crackling, and I fear it may overload. It doesn’t matter if the Rift is unstable…I need only a few seconds…
I realize that I’ve crossed my fingers. Once, I would have been angry with myself that one of my final acts in this world should be one of superstition. Now, I don’t care. I will say anything, do anything, pray to a thousand gods in whom I don’t believe if there is the slightest chance that fate can be persuaded to make this happen for me, to make the Rift form.
And finally, after the most interminable wait, it does.
It happens suddenly, in the end. A spark ignites and I’m blinded, almost physically driven back, by the flaring light. This close to the Rift, I can feel it pulling at me. I want to resist it, want to just stand here and drink in the glory of this moment of fulfillment, but Acroyear is yelling at me: “Go, Karza! Go! Go! Go!”
I fumble with the mask, pulling it down over my head. This makes it harder than ever to breathe, of course—but I’m holding my breath, anyway.
I can hardly believe that this is happening at long last. It doesn’t seem real. I’m terrified that it might be another trick of my mind, that I’ll blink and it will all be gone.
“Oh no, no, no, this is certainly real. Most certainly—and a remarkable achievement it is, too. Hmm.” One final ghost: my old colleague, Fzzzpa. The Rift’s light seems to bounce off the professor’s bald head, although he must be insubstantial. He stands, deep in thought, his eyebrows beetled, his lower lip drawn up over the top one to suck at his moustache.
I greet him with a sense of resignation. “I thought you might come.”
“Yes, yes, you’ve never quite forgotten me, have you, my friend? Never forgotten what you did to me.”
“I did what I had to do. That is all I have ever done.”
“And the fruits of your labor—they speak for themselves, don’t they?” Fzzzpa squints into the green light, then casts a critical eye over the black framework around it. “Yes, yes, a remarkable achievement. You have a brilliant mind, Karza, I have always said so. A brilliant mind. If there were any justice, then history would give you the recognition you desire.” He glares at me, his watery eyes suddenly piercing. “Ironic, then, is it not, that your efforts will rewrite history? Nobody will know what you did here—perhaps not even you. They won’t see the scientist, the savior of the universe; they will know only the tyrant, the monster.”
I open my mouth, but Fzzzpa interrupts me with a dismissive sweep of his hand. “Oh, I know, you’re doing what you have to do—for the sake of your order, am I right?—but what happens in the next reality, Karza? There’ll be no threat to the universe, then; no convenient promise of a reset button to excuse your atrocities. Will you kill me again? What happens in the end, when you have the power you have always coveted? Will you accept the cost of your victory? Or will you give it all up, to go back to the start again?”
“I don’t know,” I murmur under my breath. Then—because, insanely, I feel that the phantom has not heard me—I lift my head and shout at him, “I don’t know!”
I start forward, almost involuntarily—and suddenly, the pull of the Rift takes me over. I can’t stop myself—I know that I shouldn’t try—so, instead, I give in. I don’t know if I jump, or if I’m snatched off the floor by gravity gone wild; all I know is that I am hurtling into the mouth of the tunnel, and the green light enfolds me in a welcoming embrace…
But Fzzzpa’s last words to me ring in my ears; the same impossible question that the ghost asked me, as had Ryan Archer and Persephone.
“What will you tell him, Karza?”
I first saw the Time Traveler on the darkest day of my life.
I have never liked dreams. In dreams, the mind is given over to chaos. It spins its narrative with scant regard for the rule of order, of cause and effect. It confuses reality, clouds clear thinking. I have trained my mind to resist such weakness. I have augmented my body until it no longer needs sleep.
And yet, sometimes, a dream sneaks up on me, catches me unaware and pulls me into its thrall. This was one of those times.
My position within the dream varied, as is often the case. I was on the outside, watching as the Time Traveler glided on the currents of the time stream. I admired his elegance, envied him his freedom. But I was also inside his golden containment suit, feeling his elation as I soared through infinity. I felt I was achieving everything I had ever wanted.
Then, the dream turned sour.
Time turned against me, like the sea turning on a lone ship. It tossed me, buffeted me, dragged me from my goal. Its currents pulled me in all directions at once, tearing me apart. I felt a terrible stab of fear, and knew that I was dying. I accepted this—I had expected it—but far more than my own life was at stake.
I had a vital task to perform. A message. I couldn’t let go until I’d delivered it.
When I emerged from the dream, I was sweating despite the coolant system in my armor. My heart was beating faster, despite the regulation of my pacemakers. I could still feel the desperation of my dream self, the overwhelming belief that there was something I had to do, only I didn’t know what. There was a gnawing discontent in my stomach, which I couldn’t dismiss. For the first time I could remember, I couldn’t make my emotions bend to the logic of my mind.
Most dreams dissipate with the light of waking, leaving only a secret shame that I succumbed to their seductive fantasies. This dream was different. It was more lucid, more detailed, than any I had had before. This dream felt like reality.
I still suffered the pain of disintegration, could feel it jangling my every nerve. Perhaps, I thought, my dreams had been made stronger by my efforts to suppress them.
Or perhaps this dream had not been a dream at all, but a telepathic contact. A warning, delivered in images rather than words. Perhaps the Time Traveler was real.
It was not inconceivable. I had heard tell of such beings before: Enigmatic figures who phased in and out of this universe, whom popular rumor held to be from the far future—or from the distant past, no one was sure. I’d even tried to capture one of these phantoms, without success. They had always seemed content to observe events, not to interfere. Maybe that was all they were able to do. Still, I couldn’t ignore the potential threat they posed. I knew that, one day, I would have to learn their secrets.
At this point, though, so many years ago, it didn’t seem important. Other matters took precedence. I had all the time I needed already.
If I close my eyes, I can see my throne room again, can almost feel the press of my seat as it molds itself to the contours of my back. And Mechopolis, of course; I can see my city, the world I created, laid out beneath me on the other side of a vast portal. A permanent symbol of everything I had achieved.
Sometimes, in those days, I allowed myself a rare thrill of pride. I thought about the lowly circumstances of my birth, the impoverished upbringing that seemed so far behind me—and I thought about how I had raised myself to this, how I’d realized my vision, reshaped an entire galaxy. How I had established order. I was still a man, then—barely, beneath all my augmentations—and still capable of such sentiment.
I had power. The masses looked to me for guidance. They feared and respected me. I was the most important man in their lives—and that was how it should have been, because without me they had no lives. I was their Emperor. I was Baron Karza.
At other times, none of this meant anything. It had come too easily. I had been taught to fight, first by the Pharoids and then by my predecessor to the throne. I feared that, without an enemy to practice those skills against, a part of me would atrophy. And what purpose all my power, anyway, if I had nobody against whom to pit it?
I had lived for a long time, even then—and I was becoming bored.
I remember how I felt after the dream, as I looked out across Mechopolis and saw nothing different, but knew that everything had changed. An electric mixture of fear—because something was happening that was out of my control and I’d almost forgotten what that was like—and anticipation, because at last I had a challenge.
When the first explosion came, I think I may actually have smiled.
Memories. Dreams of the past. Though I have replaced the last organic part of my brain with circuitry, still they won’t let me go. And yet, as I stand here on the threshold of the end and the beginning of my long life, it seems only apt that I should look back on the path that brought me to this place.
I remember the day that fire rained down upon my world. I remember kneeling by the corpse of my birth father, the burning red eye of the Emperor. I remember how much I hated him as he dragged me from my home. I remember my grief and my anger, but with a sense of detachment, as if the feelings belonged to somebody else. Now, of course, I recognize my rite of passage, and I’m grateful to my dark guardian for all he taught me.
I remember my first sighting of Throne-World, through the glass bottom of the Emperor’s zeppelin: the towers, the chimneys, the factories, the airships; the crimson fog that closed in around us like a funeral shroud, blotting out the sky. I remember, my eyes pulled down toward this horror by the weight of my slave collar and by my fear of the black-clad figure beside me. There was no hope here.
And yet, somehow, in the years to come, I found hope—fuelled at first by my desire for revenge, then later by the ideas that filled my head, the future I planned to build.
The Emperor kept his people in line through his church. He maintained order, but in so doing, he held them back, keeping them mired in superstition. He feared technological development because he didn’t have the intelligence to understand—and, through understanding, to control—the new ideas of the heretic scientists.
I killed Professor Fzzzpa and put down his technocrats’ rebellion because I had to, because it threatened the established order. But I knew that, under my rule, the order would change.
Throne-World was mine long before I actually took its throne, before I drove my sword through the Emperor’s heart. I remade it, transforming its dark towers into gleaming spires. I laid the foundations for Mechopolis, and I did so with the Emperor’s approval, because he believed that, through me, he could maintain his control over this new world.
He was wrong. I had given his people an appetite for change.
They came out in their millions, filling the main stadium and the streets for blocks around to witness my investiture. They applauded my speech, in which I renamed their world and promised it would live up to that name, that I would continue to improve their lives. And they cheered as—ironically—a Pharoid priest lowered my black helmet, my crown, over my head.
But I felt no pride, then, no achievement. My work was just beginning.
For days, the image of the Time Traveler haunted me.
I told myself I had imagined him, but I didn’t believe it. I told myself that I knew nothing about him, but this, too, was a lie. I simply couldn’t bring myself to put my logic to one side, to accept that something was true just because I could feel that it was.
I felt that the Time Traveler had come from the future, although I wasn’t sure if it was my future. I knew in my heart that he had risked all to contact me. I was sure that something had gone wrong in his life, something with immense and disastrous consequences, and I knew that he wanted to put it right. The Traveler wished to change his own past, to correct one terrible mistake. And I think I knew, deep down, who the Traveler was, and why he had chosen me as the agent of his change, the recipient of his fateful message.
As soon as the explosion sounded, before its echoes had died down, I summoned my closest advisers, among them Generals Azura Nova and Maruunus Ki. They were already en route to my throne room; had they not been, I’d have wanted to know why.
By the time they arrived, they were in receipt of the latest reports from Mechopolis’s sentries, its Harrowers and its Harriers. The explosion had been a diversion, covering the escape of prisoners on the opposite side of the city. I knew immediately that one of those prisoners was the Earthman, Ryan Archer. It was only later that I learned he’d been taken from his iso-pen by a force led by a Galactic Defender, apparently the last of her kind. And it was only later that I learned that the rebels had allies within my own forces, allies who had also freed the warrior Acroyear and a Vaerian by the name of Jafain.
I called for Biotron, but he didn’t respond. The Biosmith informed me that he was offline. A few hours later he would betray me, leading my enemies to safety. They would take my adoptive daughter, Persephone, with them, poison her mind against me.
I remember standing on the tarmac outside the bio-vaults, flanked by my guards. Acroyear had his sword to my daughter’s throat. “We’re leaving. And you will allow us safe passage, or I will take your daughter’s head without a thought!”
I asked myself, then, how so much could have gone wrong so quickly, how a challenge could have turned into a threat. Chaos had taken root on my world without my knowing it. And I wondered if this was what the Time Traveler had been trying to warn me about.
I was determined to retake control, had to destroy this cancer before it could spread, even if it meant cutting out a part of my own heart. I knew I had to sacrifice Persephone, but I didn’t know if I could give the order that would doom her.
I was fortunate, in a way. The decision was taken from me.
Archer saw it coming. He cried out a warning. I remember marveling, even in that desperate moment, at his unique insight. Even then, as the rebels’ bombs exploded, as my bio-vaults were blown apart and I was washed with fire—even then, I was still thinking of the boy as a valuable tool, the means to my ascendance. I don’t think it occurred to me until much later—until Earth—that Archer could be a formidable foe, that by bringing him here to my kingdom, I might have engineered my own downfall.
I was used to getting what I wanted, to bending even fate to my indomitable will. The very concept of defeat was alien to me. Perhaps that’s why I didn’t realize straight away. Perhaps that’s why it took me so long to see how firmly the cancer had already taken hold.
“Give me this chance, Lord Karza. I won’t let you down.”
Azura Nova stood flanked by Harrowers, her wrists shackled before her. She understood the magnitude of her situation—she had administered enough punishments herself to know the likely fate of one who had incurred my wrath. Still, she did not plead, she didn’t promise. She didn’t abase herself. Her words were a cold statement of fact, her expression as rigid as her stance. I remember thinking that she could have been attractive, had there been any softness in her. Cast in the harsh white light of my courtroom—the light of truth, as I’d been known to call it—her elfin features seemed sharper, more starkly defined, than ever.
I frowned down at her from my lofty seat of judgment, flanked by General Ki and Commander Lear Sethis—the leader of the Harriers in Nova’s absence. “You have done that already, General. I trust the new arm the Biosmith gave you functions to your satisfaction?”
Nova chewed on her lip, biting back an instinctual response.
“I saw such potential in you,” I continued, my anger tempered with sadness. “You are dedicated, passionate, proud—and, although you are still young, you seemed to recognize the need to control those qualities, to direct them into the proper channels. I even made allowances for your brashness, your overconfidence—but this latest error, I cannot forgive.”
“With respect, sir, I couldn’t have anticipated Biotron’s—”
“Enough!” I roared. “I will not listen to excuses, Nova. I entrusted Persephone to your charge. All you had to do was train her in self-defense; instead, you allowed her to fall into the hands of a ragtag band of malcontents.”
“Yes, sir.”
“What’s more, you allowed those same malcontents to mutilate you. You are the head of my airborne forces, General. That you could be so easily defeated by an Acroyear is not only a personal humiliation, but a blow to the very heart of my order. The consequences of your failure will reverberate throughout the Empire. They will foment chaos, sewing the seeds of futile bravado in those who wish they had the will to oppose me.”
“Then I suggest we stamp out those seeds!” Nova’s top lip curled into a snarl. “We should pursue the escapees and crush them—destroy them so utterly, so painfully, that the merest whisper of their fate will keep the populace in line for the next century!”
“You know as well as I do, General, that my resources are committed to the invasion. The planet Earth, the Macroverse itself, is within my grasp at long last, and nothing—not even my daughter—will keep it from me.”
“A Harrier squadron and six ships,” said Nova. “I’ll have a result for you within four days.”
“What makes you think you can find these rebels, let alone recapture them? There have been reports of sightings from eight different worlds, light years apart.”
“Deliberate diversions. The escapees have divided their forces—but Persephone, Acroyear and the Earthman, Ryan Archer, are still together.”
“You are rather well informed,” I remarked, “considering you have spent the past two days confined to quarters.”
“I wasn’t aware I was denied outside contact,” said Nova, a little stiffly.
I was more concerned with the fact that somebody had risked my displeasure by communicating with her. A small matter, I knew—almost insignificant—but enough small cracks can shatter the sturdiest edifice, and this was not the first. How far had the cancer spread, I wondered, while I had allowed myself to become preoccupied? Was this to be my lot now? Had my Empire grown to the point when it would take all my time, all my attention, to maintain it? Could I never again strive for more than I had?
I refused to accept that. Not when I was about to seize the greatest prize of all.
“What else do you know?” I rumbled.
“I know Acroyear,” said Nova. “I know how he thinks. I know which of the reports to believe. He and his cohorts have seized Ordaal’s ship, the Sunreaver. They’re allied with a Galactic Defender by the name of Koriah. She is not with them at present; she is working contacts, trying to learn more about your plans. She thinks she can do so whilst remaining undetected. Unfortunately for her, I have contacts, too.”
I narrowed my eyes behind my mask. “You believe you can find this Koriah?”
“She will rendezvous with the others, eventually. She can lead us to them.”
“And you need six ships to bring down one?”
“The Sunreaver is fast. Given Ordaal’s line of business, it had to be. I intend to herd the escapees into an ambush. Once they have taken the bait, it will take only one ship to spring the trap. My ship. I can do this, sir.”
She had put her case well. If Nova could repair the damage she had done, I’d be free to attend to more important concerns. It wasn’t a matter of giving her a second chance—I would decide her fate after she had brought my daughter and the Earthman back to me.
“Very well, General,” I said, “you may have your ships, and your personnel.”
“Thank you, Lord Karza.” She allowed the merest hint of a smile to tug at her lips.
It faded as I continued. “However, this tribunal is not concluded, merely adjourned. You are still to consider yourself in military custody.” At my right shoulder, Ki’s features twisted into a sadistic grin. The winged figure of Lear Sethis stood opposite, stoic and proud in the distinctive scarlet breastplate and plumage that, along with his aggressive but precise style of combat, had earned him the nickname Red Falcon. “Commander Sethis will accompany you on your mission in a supervisory capacity. Should you succeed, I may be minded to exercise a degree of leniency in this case.” I leaned forward in my seat. “Conversely, General, I am sure I need not remind you of the consequences of failing me again.”
Nova said nothing. At my signal, her escorts removed her bonds. She acknowledged my decree with a slight nod, before turning and leaving the court, stiff-backed.
No. That’s not how it happened at all.
The ground crunches beneath my feet as I tread the wreckage of my kingdom. The final irony: My detractors claimed that I’d built Mechopolis on the bones of my enemies; now, it has been reduced to just that. Its once-proud spires are skeletons, too—those few that still stand. There has been no industry here for decades, but the sky has not lightened; it hangs above me, still heavy with the pollution of the previous regime, the color of blood.
I remember the day that my palace came crashing down, the fire and the fury. The cancer had begun with Ryan Archer, but by the end, it seemed that all my subjects were only too willing to take arms against me. How soon they forgot all I had done for them. How blind they were, how stupid, to disregard the inevitable outcome of their actions.
I remember, as the bloodlust faded from my eyes, how I sheathed my sword and watched the last flames burning themselves out. A single object called to me, mocking me. It sat incongruously amid the debris: my throne, fashioned from an indestructible alloy. Slowly, numbly, I lowered myself onto it, planted my feet on the ground before it, rested my hands on its arms. I had won. I had held onto this, at least. I was still the Emperor.
But I was the Emperor of nothing, of nobody.
Even the throne corroded, in time. I look down at it now, and my memories seem to drain away, receding until they’re no more real to me than the echoes of a story of another man, told long ago. I reach after them, fearing that without them I have nothing. I call to mind the courtroom again, General Nova standing before me looking so young, but I can longer be sure what is real and what is not about those days.
“General Azura Nova, you have been summoned here today to receive judgment.”
Footsteps behind me. I don’t turn. I have received only one visitor, here in my wasteland.
“I have had time to consider fully the causes, consequences and ramifications of your actions, and you have been found sorely lacking.”
“I knew,” I say. “I always knew. The problem was, I was too proud to accept it, too arrogant and afraid to admit to myself that history was malleable, that my order could be so easily unraveled. I deluded myself into believing I ruled a galaxy, when in fact I controlled only one possibility among many billions.”
“You are hereby stripped of your rank as Commander of the Harriers.”
“Looking back, I see that this was Ryan Archer’s advantage over me: that he could see those possibilities, albeit subconsciously; that he could embrace them. Tell me, my friend, do you consider me naïve, that I have taken so long to come to this understanding?”
I face him now, my only companion of these recent years. He is as inscrutable as always. He could almost be a hologram, an intangible construct of light. His body gives off a soft yellow glow, and red lines of circuitry shift, making new connections, beneath its surface. The only part of him that seems solid, real, is the control unit on his chest. It is like the one in my dreams—a triangle mounted upon a rectangle—but red in color.
“Every Karza comes to understand, in time,” says the Traveler.
“You, Azura Nova, are consigned to the care of my evaluators, who will advise me, upon my return, as to whether or not you can be salvaged…”
“Who was he?” I ask.
The Time Traveler says nothing, although I’m sure he understands the question.
“What could have happened in his past, that he sacrificed everything to reach me?”
“As you said,” replies the Time Traveler, “the possibilities are many.”
“Often—as my campaign on Earth fell apart, and during my ensuing exile—I asked myself how things might have been different. Nova was a good soldier. I believe she could have done as she claimed; at least, that she could have hunted down Archer’s band—his ‘Micronauts,’ as he called them—and exterminated them before they could do more harm. And yes, the girl was ruthless—she would have done whatever it took, not caring if my daughter was caught in the crossfire—but then this, too, would have made me stronger.”
“You regretted your decision?”
“Many times. I cursed the weakness that caused me to heed a phantasm over my own logic. And yet I knew—can still remember—the all-consuming dread that rose within me when Nova begged for her second chance. In that moment, I could see the possibilities for the first time, stretching ahead of me—and I could see that they all led to desolation.”
I remember, as Nova was taken away, the contempt in her eyes. She was disgusted that I, of all people, should have opted for pointless revenge over practical expediency. Or perhaps I was just projecting my own inner conflict upon her?
“You found the time machine,” the Traveler reminds me.
“Indeed—many years later, on an abandoned Pharoid world close to one of the reported sightings of the Sunreaver. I analyzed it, learned its flaws. That was when I began to see the chaos I had averted. Even so, it is difficult to imagine: my whole life, rewritten.”
I hesitate for a moment before asking, “Is this always to be the fate of Karza, Traveler? To live his life only to negate it; to pass the sum of his experience onto another man in the hope of writing a better obituary?”
“Once you have seen the possibilities,” says the Time Traveler sagely, “it can be difficult to settle for what you have.”
“But there is hope,” I say, “that some day, in some reality, I will find what I am looking for. I will have my perfect order.”
“I think it is time,” says the Traveler.
I look down at the clothes I’m wearing: The golden containment suit, which looks and feels so strange after so many lifetimes in another guise. As if it belongs to somebody else, somebody I once knew. “I’m ready,” I say.
The Time Traveler nods, without emotion. He operates the controls on his chest unit, and a tiny point of green light forms at its heart. The light streams outward, and coalesces into an upright disc, which hangs suspended in midair. It is perfectly flat and yet, when I look into it, it seems to stretch forever. The light shines bright—almost too bright for me to face it—but it casts no shadow.
My own chest unit beeps three times, drawing my attention to it. “Your course is programmed,” says the Time Traveler. “The Rift awaits.”
“Time to begin again,” I say.
I saw a billion worlds.
They flickered before me, each image lasting a microsecond, crashing into each other. I saw the rise and fall of empires, wars played out in an instant, champions rising against the shadows and always, always, towering above all, I saw myself.
I saw an unfeeling machine, alone at the end of time. A black-clad despot with an army of Acroyears at his command. A tyrant, slain by his foes but taking a world with him. A scientist in a white containment suit, contemplating the destruction of everything. I even saw a reality in which I became a Panzerite, fusing myself to an Equestron body. The myriad ghosts of other Karzas shared my journey, and I wondered if I was seeing the echoes of times long gone, or the promise of possibilities yet to be grasped.
As I sailed the time stream, wrapping myself in its fabric, I felt that I could bring any of those possibilities to me. A tug on the right strand. I only had to reach out, and it would be mine. I would do it, one day. I would have a control panel like the Time Traveler’s, one that allowed me to open my own Rift and steer myself through it rather than trusting to a pre-programmed course. Next time, maybe.
I can’t feel the ash beneath my feet, or the heat in the air, although I remember both well. I am still out of phase with this time, invisible to all who dwell within it, until I operate the final control and become solid. I wonder how many other Time Travelers, from how many more futures, are here to witness this event: the destruction of all I knew.
The cryo-crypts are burning. The sand is black with the shapes of the Emperor’s soldiers, the sky alight with the guns of his ships. The Pharoids are falling, ill-prepared for this battle they were born to wage. And, in the midst of it all, a young boy’s face is filled with fear as he huddles to the side of his gray-bearded father—a father prepared to break his neck rather than allow him to be captured. “Shut your eyes, my son. Sleep is coming.”
The last words he spoke to me—how could I have forgotten?
I am filled with a sudden horror. I want to leap forward, to stop what is to happen, but it is not yet time. Still, I avert my gaze as the old man is gunned down. I don’t want to see the tears, the bewilderment, in my young self’s eyes as he kneels over his father’s steaming corpse. I don’t want to watch as he is surrounded by the enemy, helpless, cringing with the expectation of a similar brutal death.
A thought shifts in the back of my mind. For an instant, I feel I’m missing something. Something else that the Time Traveler tried to tell me in my dream, only I couldn’t hear him. I try to catch hold of the memory, but it slips away, leaving me with a sense of foreboding.
“What about you, little one?” The Emperor’s words pull me back to the present, still sending a chill down my mechanical spine after all this time. “Are you a threat to me?”
“Oh, yes,” I snarl, in a voice he cannot hear. “Oh, yes, I am a threat to you.”
The boy feels pain now, but already in that pain he is finding strength. That is what the Emperor saw in me. It is what I see now. And, in the years to come, Karza will grow stronger. He will build a future for himself, and I will guide him in that task. He will realize all his dreams. Or he will find himself here, at the end, ready to choose another road, almost dizzy with the possibilities before him.
I will have my perfect order one day. It is only a matter of time.
I first saw the Time Traveler in a dream.
And some dreams won’t die.