Chapter 1
Paris
Winter, 1659
SHE WAS A CREATURE OF MUD AND DIRT, and though from time to time light glinted in her corner of the alley, she did not see it directly. Sometimes the light would catch the edge of her blade and it would startle her, stirring a faint memory. It would stir something around her heart. But it hurt, this remembering, and she would push it away into a dark part of her mind.
Instead, she scrabbled for what food she could take from the rats when she could not find a dropped coin, and tried to avoid notice. Occasionally, she received kicks from passersby if she strayed too far from her corner, but the pain from this was only slight, nothing compared to the pain she felt when she saw pain in others. So she closed her eyes and tried to sleep when she was not searching for food.
She did not know what day it was, only that light and darkness passed one after another, and that it was very cold. When it became too cold, she was forced from her corner in the alley to the church, where she could sit in a far corner of the sanctuary and look at the light of the candles when she was sure no one was looking. This was more comfortable than the alley, to be sure, and sometimes she would find a piece of bread that someone must have dropped on their way to confession. And . . . it eased the pain in her heart to be there, and she did not bleed from her hands, and her back did not ache when she slept underneath one of the pews. But a church was not for one such as herself.
It was on one such cold morning that she awoke to the sound of the priest yawning and opening the sanctuary. She stayed still underneath the pew until she was sure the priest had passed by, and she crept—she thought—noiselessly out the door.
“You, boy, stop!”
She looked wildly about her and stared for a moment at the plump, black-frocked priest who had called to her. He looked surprised, then shook his head.
“Are you the one who has been sleeping here at night?”
Fear clutched her heart, stopping her voice, but she nodded slightly. “I am sorry, ma Père,” she managed to whisper after a while. “I will not do so again.” She looked away, fear overcoming her once more, but this time the fear gave her legs motion and she ran.
“Wait!”
She would not wait. She knew what waiting would do. Waiting led to a place where she had no way to escape except through more pain. She ran to the alley that was her home, her sheathed blade tapping against her hip, hoping that no one had claimed her corner.
But just as the street she followed turned into the alley, she stopped abruptly. Tears began to build beneath her eyelids and she drew in a deep, harsh breath as she looked at the scene before her: a young girl sobbed while a man hit her across her face and another man shoved her against the wall and pushed up her skirts.
Pain sliced across her back, making her gasp, and her hands prickled with the first flow of blood from them. She pulled out two strips of cloth from her pockets and tied them around her shaking hands. She slowly, carefully pulled out her sword while rage built underneath her ribs, rapidly pulling the air into her lungs.
It was the only way. The only way to stop the blood, the pain, and the rage.
She ran to the girl and to the men, snarling in her anger and at the almost blinding pain that surged across her back. It was the sound of fury, the sound of a cornered animal. The men turned, and she lashed at them with her sword.
“Get away from her.” Her voice was a growl. “Get away, or I will kill you.” She could feel the cloth at the palms of her hands dampen with blood, and pain grew there, as well.
“Stupid boy. Go away—unless you want some, too.” One man—short and dark—sneered and the other, taller, man turned back to the girl, leaned down, and thrust his hand underneath her skirt. The girl screamed.
The scream lashed at her, and she jerked as if whipped. She gripped her sword tighter, then her hand lifted and the blade’s tip scored the back of the dark-haired man’s neck. His scream lessened the pain in her hands and he released the girl, putting his hand to his neck and then looking with disbelief at the blood on his fingers. The man’s scream made his friend loosen his hold on the girl; she fell to her hands and knees, than scrambled out from between the men’s legs. She ran, screaming and weeping, as the taller man tried to hold her by her apron skirts, but her apron came off in his hand. His sneer grew into a frown, then he rushed with a knife at the intruder who had spoiled his sport.
Her blade sliced at his hand and knocked the knife from it. He cried out, and the pain on her back began to fade. She almost let down her guard in relief, but the other man came for her, as well, more cautiously. He, too, had a knife. “Jesu, Marie,” she whispered. She had not ever taken on two men before. She had the advantage of a rapier that was longer than their crude knives, but her pain slowed her, and she knew if she were not swift enough, the strength of these large men would overcome her. She hoped her skill would be enough, as little as it was.
The second man circled her, and she could see he was trying to maneuver her so that her back was to his friend. If she could keep both of them in sight—
She turned the other way, but it did no good; both men had their knives in their hands now, and she was not sure she could deal with both of them. At least her back was to the street, not the alley. It would be possible to run if she needed to, cowardly though it was.
The thought of the two men raping another girl made her stomach turn, and the pain across her back increased. No. No, she could not let these men go free.
The men lunged as one at her, and she had no choice. She ducked under the arm of one and thrust her rapier, clumsily, at the other. A roar from the man on whom she’d used her sword told her that she had cut him. She glanced quickly at him and saw that he was clutching his stomach, his clothes showing a spreading blotch of blood. Good.
She turned to the other. This man still had his dagger, and now had a large stick in his other hand. She bit back a groan—the rapier felt heavier to her now, and she had not the rage-induced strength she had long ago before she—before she . . . She shook her head, trying to dispel the mist over her memory . . . in the beginning of this fight.
She raised her rapier again, flexing her knees as she should, put her other hand behind her back to reduce fatigue, and wished she had learned to fight with a dagger, two-handed. But she had not learned, and her dagger was still strapped to her leg.
“Come, cochon, you pig,” she called out. “You can fight me now or later, but either way you will die. Make it quick, so you will not bleed slowly to death like your friend.” She jerked her chin toward the other man, who groaned and vomited blood on the cobblestones.
The ruffian looked uncertain, but only for a moment before he rushed at her. She was not so quick this time, and his dagger sliced her arm before she had a chance to move to defend herself. Fatigue washed over her, and she was glad her hands had stopped their bleeding and that the pain in her back had faded with the dispatching of the first man. This remaining man was wily and stronger than the other . . . and what was worse, looked more well fed than she. Hunger gripped her stomach at the thought, and her knees trembled.
Relief showed in the man’s eyes—he had seen her trembling. He struck.
Again she put up her rapier in defense, and she whipped her blade at him—too slowly, for she barely escaped another cut of his knife. Blood dripped from her arm and sweat stung her eyes. At least it was not her hands that bled, or her back that stung now.
Her arms and legs ached, and the breath wheezed from her lungs. She could not stand much longer, she must fight with all the strength she had left. She swallowed down a sob, and made a desperate lunge.
She missed and fell to her knees, her sword rattling on the street from her fatigue-numbed hands.
She would die now. It would be a blessed relief. She closed her eyes and waited.
And waited.
The killing thrust did not come, only the thud of a body hitting the ground. She opened her eyes to see a different man, cleaner, better dressed than the two she had fought, and frighteningly handsome. She looked blearily around her—the man she had fought was on the ground, a knife sticking out of his throat.
“Damned shoddy fighting,” he said. “Bravely done of you, boy, but shoddy.” He spoke French well, but she could hear an accent—English, she thought. “Not that my method was particularly elegant—a thrown dagger, you see.” He grinned suddenly. “Fine aim, though, if I do say so myself.”
He peered at her, then offered his hand. She could not seem to stand—her legs would not move. But she would not touch him. She sat, then willed herself to push up to her feet and take a step away from him.
The Englishman’s eyebrows rose, but he gave an elegant bow. “Sir John Marstone at your service.” He smiled at her, and his eyes were kind.
She closed her own eyes briefly. It was a long time since she had seen kindness. She remembered her mother had been so before that good lady had died, and had been gentle in her words and her touch. Remembering the kindness made her remember something else, as well.
“I . . . merci, monsieur,” she said, and sank into as much of a precise curtsy as she could, though she knew it would never do for a formal curtsy at the king’s court. But this was not the court, or even her . . . home. The Englishman’s brows rose higher. “My name . . . my name—” A sob escaped her. “My name is Catherine de la Fer.” Pain, old shame, fatigue, and hunger sliced through her, and her sight grew black. “Dieu me sauve, my name is Catherine de la Fer,” she whispered, and fell into darkness.
Jack Marstone gazed at the still form before him and frowned. Damme, but this was inconvenient. It’d be best if he left this alley; he’d hardly want to be caught with two dead bodies should anyone in authority decide to come down this alley. However, if he left the girl here, and said authority found her alive with the two ruffians—with a bloodied sword, no less—then she’d be as good as sentenced and dead. It’d be a waste of his efforts, and he disliked wasted effort.
Then, too, she was a mystery; he was curious about her, and he rarely resisted his curiosity.
He nudged the girl with his boot. “Up, girl, ’tis morning and no time to sleep. Indeed, we need to be awake on the moment if we’re to get away with our skins.”
The girl did not move, and Jack grunted in annoyance. God’s blood, it looked like he’d have to carry the child. . . . The girl looked not much more than a child, with her thin, delicate face. He bent over the still form and felt sticky wetness when he touched her arm. Blood. Worse, the girl was wounded.
Jack sat back on his haunches and shook his head. Good intentions were a damned nuisance. Well, there was nothing for it but that he’d have to take the girl to his lodgings. He’d patch her up, get some food into her, and send the girl on her way to her mother, with a warning against playing with knives.
It was easy to pick her up and carry her over his shoulder—the child was as light as a feather, her bones easily felt through her clothes. He wrinkled his nose. She also stank. She’d be better for a washing. If he brought her back to her family in this state, they might just think he was less than a good Samaritan . . . and he intended to be a well-paid Samaritan.
Unless she was an actress and trollop and stole the clothes from some patron, she could very possibly have come from a good family. There was nothing coarse about her voice, her refined curtsy, or her manner, and that she displayed them even in the midst of extreme circumstances showed that she must be from a noble family. If so, then there had to be money in her return, and he was never behindhand in acquiring funds where he could.
The thought of money cheered him, and he whistled a tune between his teeth as he made his way through the narrow alleys to his lodgings. He garnered a few startled looks from passersby, but his rueful grin and response of “He’s as drunk as a louse in a whore’s bed” gave him a few chuckles, as well.
His landlady only rolled her eyes at him when he entered the hotel, and he winked at her. “Yes, yes, Madame Felice, yet another one of my charity cases, but this one will bring me into funds, you’ll see.” He jerked his chin toward his room upstairs. “I’ll need some water for a bath—this one’s filthy and possibly full of vermin.”
“And you say this boy will bring you into funds, monsieur?” The plump landlady wrinkled her nose. “No doubt he will bring fleas into my house, and I will not stand for that!”
Jack grinned. “Aye, the faster the bathwater’s brought up, the better. And it’s a girl, not a boy, possibly run away from her family.”
Mme Felice frowned and put her hands on her hips. “En vrai, she will bring you trouble, not money. Her family will not want her if she looks like this.”
“True.” Jack hefted the girl more comfortably on his shoulder. “Therefore, I must have the bath.” Mme Felice shook her head and threw her hands up in exasperation, then bustled off as he went up the stairs to his room.
Once there, he lay the girl on the floor—Felice was right, there was no need to risk a good night’s sleep to fleas—and removed the belt that held the girl’s scabbard, sword and dagger. He examined the sheath and the sword—both old and of excellent make. She could not have come from anything but a well-to-do family. Surely they would pay a goodly sum for her return. The thought occurred that she might have been cast off from her family—but no. She must have run away, for a family would hardly have given her men’s clothes or a sword.
Hope rose. He’d ask for a hundred livres, maybe more. It’d be enough to buy his way back to England—Cromwell and King Charles be damned. That much added to his savings would be enough to offer pay to enough of an army to take his lands back from the Roundheads, with promise of more once he controlled his estate again.
Or so he wished. His future lay with his king’s fortunes. Jack closed his eyes wearily. Sometimes he wished he did not have the obligation to regain his estate or support his king, but he was a Marstone—“seize and hold” was his family’s motto, and he had failed to do just that, and worse.
He opened his eyes, gazing down at the girl at his feet. No time to think of the past—it’d not gain him the funds he needed, and this girl would. Carefully he peeled her jacket from her unresisting body and threw it in the fire. It was beyond repair and beyond cleaning, as were the rest of her clothes. He frowned at her lack of movement and took her frail wrist in his hand, then breathed a sigh of relief. She was still alive. Good. It’d be too bad if he lost this chance to reclaim his inheritance.
A knock at the door sounded. “Come!” he called out, and the landlady peered around the door, her expression suspicious. “I’ll need some help getting the rest of her clothes off, Madame Felice, if you’ll be so kind. She’s been hurt.”
Concern and pity replaced the suspicion, and the woman bustled in, two footmen and chambermaid following with a small tin bath and hot water. Once the water was poured, Mme Felice shooed the maid and footmen out with an order to bring back ointments and bandages, then turned to Jack.
“She is not a woman of the streets, eh?” she said suspiciously.
He put on a pained expression. “My dear landlady. You know me better than that. The ladies I bring to my room are far better dressed and better smelling than this poor rat.”
Mme Felice frowned, then suddenly chuckled, slapping his arm. “You are a bad man, monsieur. I have indeed seen you with your ladies, and this pauvre petite cannot compare. Ah—!” She gave a little cry as they peeled off the girl’s shirt from her back, and crossed herself. “The poor little one! She has been badly treated.”
A crisscross of healing weals covered the girl’s back. Jack’s lips twisted. There was the reason she had run away . . . if indeed she received this from her family. Perhaps she was married—no, there was no ring on her finger, although she could have taken off the ring and sold it.
He shrugged. No matter. A woman belonged to her husband, and either way, he’d be paid for returning her.
He caught Mme Felice’s worried look as they turned over the girl’s body. He shook his head. “You need not worry that I have any lustful thoughts about this chit—I prefer plump beauties, as you know.” He gave her a wink, and Mme Felice slapped his arm again and blushed.
“Eh, you think to charm me with your manner, but you know I am as one with my dear Robert, silly man.”
He grinned and returned to the girl, gazing at her thin form. It was true; he could not be attracted to such a skeletal thing—her ribs were prominent above and below her thin breasts, and the bones at her shoulders and hips stuck out like the bones on a newly hatched baby bird, featherless and vulnerable. He shook his head. How she even managed to lift her rapier and kill a man, he did not know; it seemed a miracle she was alive at all.
Mme Felice sighed and clucked her tongue as she removed the simple cross the girl wore around her neck, and then gestured to Jack to lift the girl into the warm bath. “Ah, the poor one! She has a sweet face; whoever beat her so must have been le Diable himself—who but a monster would have beaten such a child?”
A soft pity moved in him . . . well, who would not feel such a thing? But it was a useless emotion. There were larger things at stake in his life than the fate of a gutter-found girl. He needed to remember that. He settled the girl in the bath, slowly, half afraid she would break.
He moved away to bring over the sponge that Mme Felice had put on the bed, but a sharp gasp brought his attention to the girl again. She had awakened, and her hands gripped the side of the tub with whitened fingers. She looked frantically about, then caught sight of him.
He could not help staring at her. Firelight flickered in her eyes, dark-fringed and green as grass. He had never seen the like—irises so green that they had no other color in them to mar their purity. The girl gazed at him, and her hands loosened from the sides of the tub, chastely covering her breasts, then slowly, finally, she looked away.
Jack closed his eyes and turned from her, fumbling with the towels, then remembered that he was going to give Mme Felice the sponge. He did so, averting his gaze from the girl.
“Shhh, shhh, mademoiselle.” Mme Felice’s voice was soft and soothing. “You need not be afraid. M. Sir Jack, he is an honorable man and will not harm you, nor will I.” The girl said nothing, but he felt as if she were looking at him again, her eyes boring into his back.
I hope she is not married, and it was not her husband who beat her, he thought suddenly. He sat stiffly on a nearby chair, not quite looking at her except from the corners of his eyes. Yes, she had been staring at him, as if he were a wild animal sure to attack. Attack? he thought, disgruntled. Why, had he not saved her from certain death? He would hardly attack her, especially since she was the means to bring him funds for the reclamation of his estates.
A thread of guilt wove its way through his thoughts, but he thrust it away. He was getting soft, and he could not afford that. There was no room for softness in the life of a mercenary. He turned and coolly gazed at her, as if her eyes had not affected him at all, and examined what the tin tub did not cover.
She met his eyes and her gaze did not waver, but he forced his mind into an analytical vein and stared back. She was indeed too thin, as he had noted before, but she had a wide, intelligent brow, a stubborn chin, and a sensitive mouth. His gaze lingered at her lips, and he briefly wondered what it would be like to kiss them, for they were plump lips, unlike the rest of her. She gasped again as Mme Felice brushed the sponge against her back, but she bit her lip and closed her eyes as if exerting discipline over herself. It worked; she had no emotion on her face when she opened her eyes again and looked at him, and he felt at once sorry and admiring of her fortitude. Surely she must have come from a noble family; few else were trained to such discipline except those groomed for King Louis’s court.
“Ah! I am sorry, mademoiselle,” Mme Felice apologized. “I will be more gentle with your hurts.”
Jack thought he saw a flicker of shame before the girl’s face became smooth again. “It is nothing,” she said, and he noted her voice was low and husky, smooth and sweet as sherry. “I thank you, madame, for your care of me.”
Mme Felice chuckled and shook her head. “Ah, it is not I you should thank. It is M. Sir Jack who brought you here and commanded that I bathe you.”
“Why?”
Mme Felice raised her brows at the stark question and looked at Jack, clearly expecting that he answer. He stared at the girl coolly. “Because if I had not, you would have been killed, or at the very least taken to the authorities and accused of murder.” The landlady gasped and crossed herself, but the girl merely looked at him.
“Ah,” she said. “I thank you.”
He turned to Mme Felice, grinning. “Do not worry, madame. She is not a desperate criminal, but fought in self-defense.”
A concerned look came into the girl’s eyes, and she gazed earnestly at him. “Did you see a young girl—she was in the alley, and dressed like a chambermaid? I hope she was able to get away—”
“She ran from the alley as if a devil were after her, mademoiselle, if she was the one who left her apron behind.”
The girl relaxed and closed her eyes. “Yes, that was the girl. I am glad she escaped.” She was silent and did not open her eyes. Jack was glad—her gaze disturbed him, making him feel as if he were not in control of himself, almost as if he were drowning, for his breath grew short looking at her. He had thought her hair a dull muddy brown, but Mme Felice had washed her hair and rinsed it, and now it was a deep red in the light of the sun that streamed through the windows.
She is too thin, a scarecrow of a girl, and just a girl at that, he thought. Girl . . . he could not think of her as “the girl” forever. She had a name . . . ah, yes.
“What brings you to Paris, Mlle de la Fer?” Catherine de la Fer, he remembered.
The girl’s eyes opened, and a flicker of fear appeared in them, quickly suppressed. “It feels like a long time since I have been called that,” she said softly. Mme Felice cast an encouraging look at him over Catherine’s head, obviously curious about the girl’s background. He hid his smile at the landlady’s curiosity and waited patiently for the girl to speak.
There was a long silence as the girl looked absently into the fire. “I had forgotten I had come to Paris.” She looked at him briefly, then into the fire again. “I came to . . . look for work.”
Jack looked at her skeptically. When he had felt her wrist for her pulse, he had noted that though her hands were wounded and chapped from the cold, they were hardly those of a young woman used to working. What roughness she had was on her right hand, the kind a swordsman—swordswoman—would have.
“You did not find work,” he stated.
She glanced at him again. “No, I did not, not honest work, and I would not stoop to any other kind.”
Mme Felice looked approvingly at the girl. “Of course, honest work is difficult to find . . . without a reference. Sometimes one’s former employers are bad-natured, and will not give any such.”
“I had no . . . no, they were not good-natured,” the girl said.
Jack hid his smile. His landlady was clever. It was clear now that the chit was not a runaway servant, but one who came from a family of privilege. Mme Felice grinned triumphantly over Catherine’s head and raised her voice. “Now you must turn your back, M. Sir Jack, for I must dry off mademoiselle and cover her.”
His lips twisted. “I have seen her unclothed before, madame,” he protested, but turned his back—not before he caught the girl’s blush, however.
“You may turn around,” Mme Felice said at last.
He turned to see the girl sitting next to the fire with a large cloth wrapped around her. She did not look at him, but continued looking at the fire. Irritation pricked at him. At the very least she could acknowledge his presence—he was not an insignificant piece of furniture, after all. He watched as Mme Felice combed the shoulder-length hair, becoming absorbed in the repetitive motion through the slowly drying, curling hair, until a knock at the door startled him.
“Entré!” Mme Felice cried, and the chambermaid came in with a set of clothes. “Et voilà! The clothes. If you will stand, I will dress you.” Catherine stood, unresisting except for a slight trembling, and Jack grinned. Yes, she was obviously of aristocratic stock—she took Mme Felice’s offer of dressing her as if she were used to being served.
The girl looked at Mme Felice. “Thank you,” she said softly. But well behaved, he thought. Then, too, her experiences must have humbled her if she had not had a gracious manner from the beginning. Mme Felice gave him a stern look, and with a grin he turned his back.
And turned again when the girl’s voice rose frantically, saying, “These are not my clothes! I must have my clothes back!”
She clutched the cloth to her tightly, shaking her head, and looked anxiously around the room.
“My dear mademoiselle,” he said. “Your clothes were filthy, torn, no doubt vermin-filled, and not worth saving. I burned them.”
Fury burned in her eyes as she looked at him. “They were mine. My clothes! And my sword and dagger! What did you do with them?”
He eyed her coolly. “You will wear the clothes you are given. As for your weapons, they are here. I cleaned your sword.”
“Give me my sword,” she demanded.
“I will not,” he said.
“Give it to me now.”
He looked her up and down. “What, do you think you will use it on me? In the state you’re in? Put on the dress, and I will think about it.”
She stared at him, grinding her teeth, and one hand opened and closed as if she wished to feel the haft of the sword in it.
“Hush, mademoiselle!” Mme Felice said soothingly. “You must put on these clothes for now—if you wish to wear boy’s clothes, you may, but later, hein? Put these on, and eat what Marie will bring us for our breakfast, and then we may talk of finding other clothes for you.”
The mention of food closed the girl’s mouth, and her eyes shut briefly as she visibly trembled. “Very well,” she said.
Jack turned his back once again, until Mme Felice’s satisfied, “There!” gave him leave to turn. The clothes were too big on the girl and hung on her as if she were a child trying on her mother’s dress. But they were clean, warm, and covered her well.
She looked at him, her expression grave, and held out her hand. “I would like my sword, please,” she said.
He hesitated, wondering if he should give in, for it was clear she still needed food and rest. But though her face was still and composed, there was a pleading in her eyes, and it occurred to him that her sword was one of her very few possessions. He lifted it, and held it out to her.
She came forward and took it, and for one moment held it up as if poised for battle. But her arm trembled, then shook, and the sword’s point fell to the floor.
She stared at him. “I am weak,” she said, and her voice was bitter. “An idiot, and nothing but a weak woman.”
He wanted at first to agree with her; she’d been foolhardy for taking on two strong men when she was indeed exhausted from lack of food. But he looked into her eyes again, and thought instead of her courage.
“You did well, considering your state,” he said. He grinned. “Clumsy, but I’m sure with time and practice, you’ll improve.”
She looked sharply at him, and then her lips opened as she took in a deep breath. “Do you think I can?” she asked.
Hope made her eyes widen, making her look almost pretty, and Jack suddenly felt a sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach.
“Of course,” he said. Mme Felice looked at him in dismay, but he avoided her eyes.
“Can you teach me? Teach me to be the best with the sword?” the girl asked, her voice eager.
“Of course,” he said, ignoring both Felice’s whispered mutter and crossing of herself . . . as well as the creeping feeling that he was putting himself to more trouble than the girl was worth.
Her face brightened, and she smiled at last, hesitantly at first, then widely.
She was lovely when she smiled. Jack suppressed a groan. Women were trouble, and pretty ones the very devil.
But he had always taken on the devil and came away richer for it. He forced a smile on his face. “I promise it, mademoiselle,” he said.