I first saw the Time Traveler in a dream. It was a bad one.
By the time I stumble blearily downstairs, Dad’s already left for the research facility; probably just grabbed a slice of toast and shot out the door as usual. I wouldn’t be surprised if he’d had less sleep than me. Mrs. Mulligan’s always complaining, under her breath, about the time he rolls in each night. Each morning, rather.
As soon as I step out onto the street, I wish I had a thicker jacket. The wind cuts straight through this one, and through the T-shirt beneath it. I don’t go back, though. I want to be outside. I need fresh air and I need to be doing something, even if all I can think to do is take another aimless stroll round town. I move like a zombie, almost bumping into a couple of people. The sidewalks are busy, and long lines have already formed at most of the small shops. The air is thick with exhaust smoke as hundreds of cars grind along roads built for dozens, in search of parking spots that don’t exist. By early afternoon, there’ll be total gridlock, and the blaring horns of impatient drivers will make this tiny, mid-western town sound like New York City on a bad day.
There are four separate news crews on Main Street. I know a couple of faces from the TV. You’d think they’d have found something else to talk about by now. It’s still interesting to watch the technicians setting up their lighting rigs, though, and the reporters having to cope with a curious and excited public as they wait to do their pieces on camera. It makes me feel like things are really happening here.
For the next hour and a half, I have a purpose, too. My purpose is to keep my blood from freezing and my lips from turning blue. I can stamp my feet and move about a bit at first, but as the crowd in Appleton Street grows, I’m hemmed in by other people. I benefit a little from their body heat, but my nose is starting to feel numb. I’m not even sure what I’m doing here. Like Klingon Bill, I’ve seen more than enough of these ceremonies—mostly from some distance, though. I’ve only bothered lining up like this once before.
It’s about two o’clock when I get back to the rooming house to find that Mrs. Mulligan has emptied my room and hauled my suitcases down to the small reception area. I wonder what she’d have done if I hadn’t packed last night; flung my clothes out of the window, most likely.
It doesn’t take long to find the main lab. I’ve always had a good sense of direction, so despite the tortuous layout of the facility, I don’t lose my bearings. I keep aiming for the center: the dome was built around the Rift, after all. I pass plenty of people in the corridors—some in uniforms, some in suits, some in white coats—but nobody challenges me. That’s normal. It’s a hell of a job getting into one of these places, but once you are in, you’re past all the security and what you get up to is nobody else’s business. I’ve developed the habit of walking with a purpose, like I’m just where I ought to be. Combined with the pass, which I’ve clipped to my shirt, this renders me invisible to most people. Story of my life, you might say, but right now it suits me just fine.
I try to remember what Dad told me about Microtron. The Micronauts helped him build it, I recall. They improved his original design, making the probe more compact and maneuverable. He was really excited about that, but I think he was worried, too. Worried that he was learning so much from these aliens so fast that he might forget half of it. Worried that he might not understand. So much for him to take in, so much to do.
The preparations are taking forever. I imagine what it would be like to be in Microtron’s place, staring into the white energy of the Rift, waiting for a signal to take the long walk into it. Or the long roll, in its case. As if I’m not already tense enough. This feels like the defining moment of my life, as if this is where it all starts to mean something. And I can’t shake the feeling that it will be something very, very bad.
Images crashing into my mind:
“Ryan? Ryan? What are you doing in here? Ryan!”
Later.
When I wake up, I don’t know where I am.
They found the missing tourist from Milwaukee. You know, the one Klingon Bill told me about. They fished her body out of Lake Seraph, just outside town, late last night, and identified her about an hour ago. So, she reached Angel’s Gift after all, and died here—although the police are keeping the cause of death to themselves for the moment.
The familiar podium stands in Melrose Square today. The bunting is out again, and a huge banner has been strung across the arched entranceway of the austere town hall building—it reads GALACTIC CITIZEN OF THE YEAR. A moronic title dreamed up by some crackpot organization that Bill probably has a lifetime membership in.
I take another stroll first, killing some time. With all the tourists at the presentation, the streets are relatively quiet. I even drop by The Microverse to see if they’ve restocked their action figures. They haven’t, and a handwritten sign informs customers that they’re not expecting another delivery for some time.
The Grand is the oldest, biggest, and most expensive hotel in Angel’s Gift. Doesn’t quite live up to its name, though. Its sandstone façade is stained, the blue paint on its window frames is peeling, and its sign is only half lit. I heard that it closed down about two months before the Rift opened, but no buyers could be found for the building. I bet its owners are glad about that now. With their old staff pressed back into service and every room filled, they must be making money like they never did before.
“Tried that before, huh?”
I take no satisfaction in being proved right.
Twenty minutes later, we’re out on the street again.
So, we’re perched on the low brick wall of an overfull parking lot, eating takeout pizza, and Bill’s white eyes are growing wider and wider with each new twist in my tale, until my own eyes start to water in sympathy and I wish he’d just blink. And all he can say when I’m done, is, “You’re sure you went through the Rift alone? You didn’t take any friends with you?”
“Pull up!”
I wake up in a sweat again, the echoes of explosions and alarm sirens in my ears, images of fire behind my eyes. My heart is racing.
I decide to stretch my legs. Just mooch around the facility while nobody’s around, check it out a little more. So, I throw on some clothes and step out into the silent but still harshly lit white corridors. And I end up in the empty recreation room: An L-shaped area with scattered easy chairs, a pool table, and a dartboard. And a TV set, which I turn on.
My keycard gets me into the lab, which is empty. Dad must have called it a day—and before five in the morning, too. I’m impressed. The lights are off, and I don’t want to turn them on in case somebody happens to pass by. Anyway, the Rift’s glow, although subdued, is enough to see by. It casts eerie shadows into the corners of the room—they flicker on the edges of my field of vision, and make me feel as if invisible eyes surround me.
“Nova’s coming around for another shot.”
The Time Traveler is whispering into my mind. I think he’d like me to jump headfirst into the Rift right now. Fat chance of that! Even if there was an atmosphere on the far side.
“What the hell do you think you’re doing?”
I wake to a droning background voice, and I’m not sure if it said something about Angel’s Gift, or if that was a creation of my half-dreaming mind. An intermittent clacking nags at me, until I identify it as the sound of colliding pool balls. One of them drops into a pocket, rattling against wood as it rolls into the depths of the table.
I’m sitting in a small interview room at the police station. The cop who arrested me—his name is Brannigan—perches on the table in front of me, while his partner stands at the door as if I’m likely to make an escape bid. A tape recorder whirrs in the corner.
Soon enough, Brannigan returns to tell me I’m free to leave. He doesn’t disguise his contempt for me as he escorts me to the door.
The Micronaut circus is housed in an old theatre on Orchard Street, long derelict but recently bought by one of Delaney’s close business acquaintances and hastily renovated. By the time I reach it, sprinting most of the way, the very back of a long line is disappearing through the doors, and Klingon Bill is hopping from foot to foot with impatience.
The research facility. Some time after dinner.
I spend the next few minutes in breathless activity. I find the lab doors locked, and I can’t hear anybody inside. So, I take the winding steps up to my room two at a time—and, once there, I haul my backpack and the smaller of my two suitcases out of the wardrobe and empty them onto the floor. I check that the corridor’s empty before I step out into it. Dad’s room is only three doors down, and I could do without running into him right now.
Five minutes later, out on the cold, dark hillside, I can hardly believe I’ve made it this far.
It’s dark up here, and the air is stale. Dust tickles my nose, and I have to stifle a sneeze. The show is over, and there are voices again in the restroom beneath me. Tourists, still buzzing, talking about the marvels they’ve just seen. If they ever feared our alien visitors at all, then those fears have been swept aside for tonight. I envy them their carefree ignorance.
Just before 11:30, I lower myself down into the restroom, and pause to rub life back into my numb limbs and massage my stiff neck. The lights are out, but Microtron illuminates my path with a helpful light beam from his chest. I ask him to turn it off as I ease the door open. But he can’t do anything about the yellow glow from his antigravity globes; maybe I should have brought his wheels after all.
A shadow falls across the corner of the corridor, and some instinct propels me into action.
In the end, I decide to call Dad. I need somebody on my side, and I don’t know who else to turn to. My hand shakes as I turn on my phone. I note that my missed call—the one that almost betrayed me in the theatre—was from Klingon Bill. I should have guessed! He didn’t leave a message, so it can’t have been important.
So, I’m at the foot of Gabriel’s Hill—and above me, the floodlit compound of the research facility beckons invitingly. Behind me are the streetlights of the town. I’m trying to pierce the shadowy void between them, wishing I still had Microtron’s chest beam.
I drift in and out of an unpleasant doze, never quite able to blank out my surroundings.
I ignore the trilling sound at first.
The remarkable rebirth of Angel’s Gift hasn’t yet spread to the narrow confines of King Street. This is where the public library is housed, in a decrepit old building with tall, dark windows. After many cuts in funding, it now opens for only two-and-a-half hours, three mornings a week. The building faces a condemned warehouse. I shiver as I realize that no homes or hotels overlook this lonely stretch of road. The streetlights are out for two blocks on each side of the library. An unfortunate coincidence, I wonder, or a deliberate act of sabotage?
Finally, I sit back and stare at what I’ve written. The whole story. I could have phrased a lot of it better, sure, but it’s all there. All down in black and white. And if a small voice in the back of my head insists that Dad won’t believe it, that he’ll dismiss my urgent plea as some kind of prank, then I can silence it with logic.
I try again at the police station. Brannigan has taken off my cuffs, and I’m emptying out my pockets for a custody sergeant who doesn’t want to listen to me. I gather, from his muttered complaints, that he’s having a bad night: One of many since Angel’s Gift was filled to bursting with excitable tourists. His cells are crammed full of noisy drunks—and even though the last club closed hours ago, a dozen college students have just been brought in for disturbing the peace. They had plenty to drink, apparently, but nowhere to sleep, so they decided to keep partying until morning.
Back at the theatre. Back where this all started, a lifetime ago it now seems.
Scenes from another lifetime:
I extend my left hand in front of me, fist turned downward. But the metal tube along my lower arm feels like a dead weight. I try to make the exact wrist movement that Acroyear showed me, screwing up my face in concentration, but nothing happens. I adjust my stance, steady my breathing and try again.
“Pull up!”
Somebody calls my name. I feel a toe between my ribs, and a groan escapes my throat. I know I’m dreaming, but I can’t open my eyes. I’m trapped in here, torn between two worlds. And I think this might be it, I might see the end this time. I might relive my death in that other timeline. I might feel the smoke entering my lungs, stealing my life.
Time passes.
I was staring so hard at the Kronos creature that I didn’t notice the figure behind it, framed in the light of the theatre dressing rooms. Ganam Jafain—Knave—shuffles into the trailer, holding two trays in his four hands. He’s shorter than the mantis, but still over five feet tall. At least, that’s what my instincts tell me; I have to remind myself that I’m judging things by a different scale now. Knave is the same size as he always was.
Time wears on.
Bill lies awkwardly on his side, snoring heavily.
During breakfast, I tell Knave how I came to be here. I don’t mention the Time Traveler or my dreams of another reality; I just stick to the stuff he’ll believe. He winces visibly when I tell him about the soldiers at the theatre doors, and he nods solemnly and says something to himself. “You knew about that?” I ask, frowning.
I apologize to him at lunchtime, having had an eternity to regret my outburst. “I know you’re in an impossible situation,” I say, “but you’re the only one who can help us.”
I squirm around awkwardly in the window frame, until I can lower myself out of the trailer feet first. The open window presses down on my back, the frame cuts up into my stomach, and as careful as I try to be, my shoes create a dull, hollow thud as they connect with the wooden tabletop. Instinctively, I drop into a crouch, but all I can hear is the distant drumbeat of the circus’s afternoon show and my own shallow breathing.
“You should have got out of here while you had the chance,” says Bill as I poke at his restraining device with a hairpin—but the gratitude in his voice tells a different story.
We hurry across the tables, staying behind the trailers where possible and keeping low in case somebody looks out of a window as we pass it. Although we haven’t discussed it, we seem to have agreed that speed is more important than silence. I’ve lost all track of time, and we don’t know how long we have before the afternoon show ends. Nor do I have any sense of direction: I hope we’re heading toward the dressing room doors, but the tall trailers block our view of the room around us. I feel as if the circus is my world, like there’s nothing beyond it. This must be how laboratory rats feel as they scamper around their mazes.
I can’t move my legs. I can’t turn my head, can’t even look at the approaching monster. I can hear the eager clacking of its mouth and its pincers—it sounds as if a Spanish dancer is edging toward my hiding place—and I’m praying for a miracle because I know that, if I show myself, I’m dead. And then, Lobros heaves into view around the table leg, right next to me, and it makes a grab for my throat.
A metal fist cracks into my cheekbone. My head snaps back, my neck sore with the whiplash. I see my own face, distorted by a curved, golden mirror, my brown hair disheveled, a purple bruise beginning to show on my fair skin. My hands are bound again, in front of me this time, and I don’t want to wake up to this reality. I dive deeper into the darkness, crying out to the Time Traveler. I beg him to take me away from this, to his world, to safety. I see him, an insubstantial figure drifting ahead of me, but I can’t reach him.
When next I’m brought around, it’s more easily. A gentle hand taps my face, and a pungent odor fills my nostrils. I fight the reflex to gag. I try to put a hand to my mouth, but I’m still wearing the helmet-shaped restraints. At least there’s no chain attached this time.
I’m back in my cage in the animal trailer. I can tell it’s the same one because of the jagged hole where my chain used to connect to the wall. This time, though, I’m free to pace anxiously. It’s good to feel the blood pumping through my legs. But my hands are still shackled in front of me, and the cage gate is locked. The Harriers who brought Knave and me here stand on the other side of the bars, their expressions barely flickering as they watch us. They look like statues.
We’re moving.
I’m standing on the passenger seat of a cop car.
Soon, it’s my turn to be guided up that same path. Brannigan bundles me out of the cop car like I’m four years old, throwing the damp towel over my head. I cast it aside. I’m not a criminal being jeered and photographed as he’s led into a courthouse; it’s safer if people can see me, see that I’m as human as they are.
The debriefing took forever. It reminded me of the police station, the endless repetitive questions—except that, this time, the interrogator believed my answers. Plus, I was sitting cross-legged on his desk, resting my elbow on the lid of a computer printer.
The exchange takes place in the corridor outside the main lab.
The shot goes wild. It hits a glass beaker, fusing it into a twisted, transparent sculpture.
We find her just where we expected, facedown on the lab floor. My spine tingles at the thought of getting closer to her, but we must. I have to know that it’s all over.
I expected a row.
Everything came together with surprising speed.
We’re running, kicking up dust clouds. My legs weigh me down, the soft, dry ground pulling at my feet. My lungs are like sandpaper and my eyes are streaming, but Acroyear has my arm and he’s dragging me along after him. When the explosion comes, I’m completely unprepared. It throws me forward, burying me in the fine brown grains that blanket this planet. An intense heat washes over my back, and shards of metal rain upon me.
That’s where the dream ends—and I’m back on the ship, back on the floor, surrounded by fire and smoke. Dying again. But it feels different this time.
Some time later.