The Summer Queen [071-142-066-4.6] By: Joan D. Vinge Category: Fiction Science Fiction Synopsis: Volume 3 in the Snow Queen Cycle The long-awaited sequel to Vinge's enormous The Snow Queen (1980), an interstellar tug-of-war between the far-from-benevolent Hegemony and the backward-but-indispensable planet Tiamat. It is now Summer on Tiamat; the Hegemony has withdrawn, leaving the planet in the hands of the Snow Queen's clone, Moon. Numerous--too numerous--subplots get underway. Moon's former lover, BZ Gundhalinu, will be sent to World's End, where a wrecked Old Empire ship has spilled semi-sentient stardrive plasma; if Gundhalinu can control the plasma, faster-than-light travel will again be possible, ending Tiamat's periodic isolation. Elsewhere, Reede Kullervo, a researcher with a rebuilt brain, addicted to his own supercharging designer drug, will be ordered by the leader of the supercriminal Brotherhood to seek the immortality elixir whose only source is Tiamat. Meanwhile, Moon struggles to control Tiamat's rebellious factions, knowing that the planet's intelligent sea-dwelling mers'' are the source of the elixir, and that the ancient computer that links the galaxy's clairvoyant sibyls in an information network lies buried under Tiamat's chief city, Carbuncle; she dares not permit the Hegemony to control either the sibyl network or the elixir. Pledged to forever end offworld exploitation and save the mers, the Lady of Tiamat, also known as Moon Dawntreader, finds her job made difficult by Summer tribes and the treacherous Winters. Last printing: 09/03/02 `>332' ISBN: 0-5707-103-7157-1 ALSO BY JOAN D. VINGE The Snow Queen Heaven Chronicles Catspaw World's End Psion Phoenix in the Ashes Mad Max Beyond Thunderdome (film novelization) JOAN D. VINGE WarNER BOOKS A Time Warner Company All rights reserved. Warner Books, Inc., 666 Fifth Avenue, New York, NY 10103 A Time Warner Company Printed in the United States of America Book design by Giorgetta Bell McRee To the Mother of Us All To my mother And to my children I owe many thanks to many people for their help in making this book a reality, after so long. In particular, I would like to thank Michall Jeffers and John Warner, for bringing Hamlet's Mill to my attention; Giorgio de Santillana and Hertha von Dechend, authors of Hamlet's Mill; Barbara Luedtke; Jim Frenkel; Vernor Vinge; Brian Thomsen; the Clarion West class of '88; Deborah Kahn Cunningham; Lolly Boyer; Steve and Julia Sabbagh; Merrilee Heifetz; and Richard Plantagenet, King of England, who may be the most misunderstood man in history. AUTHOR'S NOTE The following names of characters and places are pronounced as shown: Ananke (Uh-NONkee) Arienrhod (AIRY-en-rode) Danaquil Lu (DAN-uh-keel LOO) Gundhalinu (Gun-dahLEEnoo) Jerusha PalaThion (Jer-OO-shuh PAL-uhTHY-un) Kedalion Niburu (Keh-DAY-lee-un Nih-BUR-oo) Kharemough (KAREuhmoff) Kharemoughi (KAREuhMAWG-ee) Kullervo (KulLAIRvoh) Miroe Ngenet (MIR-row EngEN-it) Mundilfoere (MUNdil-fair) Sandhi (SAHNdee) Tiamat (TEE-uhmaht) Tuo Ne'el (TOO-oh NEEL) Vhanu (VAHnoo) 'Do 'You know nothing? Do you see nothing? Do you remember 'NothinG?' I remember Those are pearls that were his eyes. 'Are you alive, or not? Is there nothing in your head?' --T. S. Eliot There's someone in my head, but it's not me. --Pink Floyd The mills of gods grind slowly, and the result is usually pain. --Georgio de Santillana and Hertha von Oechend PART I: THE CHANGE Do you dare Disturb the universe? In a minute there is time For decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse. --T. S. Eliot TIAMAT: The Windwards The hand released the bright ribbon of scarf, and it fluttered down. A hundred eager voices made one voice as the cluster of young girls exploded down the shining strand of beach. Clavally Bluestone Summer sat watching on the cliff high above, feeling the sea wind against her face, feeling it sweep back her long, dark hair. Smiling, she closed her eyes and imagined that it was the wind of motion, that she was running with the others down below. She had run when she was a girl in races like this one, on so many islands across the Summer seas; hoping to be the winner, to be the Sea Mother's Chosen for the three days of the clan festival, garlanded with necklaces of clattering polished shells, fed the best and the sweetest of foods, given new clothes, honored by the elders, flirted with by all the young men. . . . Her smile turned wistful; she fingered the trefoil pendant that gleamed in the sunlight against the laces of her loose homespun shirt. It had been a long time since she had run in one of those races. She had been a sibyl for nearly half her life now. How was it possible . . . ? She opened her eyes, filling them with the endless bluegreen of sea and sky, ever-changing and yet ever constant; the mottled clouds, the shimmering ephemera of rainbows from a distant squall. The Twins smiled down on their gathering today, warming her shoulders with luxuriant heat. Spring was in the air, making her remember with longing her body's own springtime. She glanced over her shoulder at the sound of footsteps. Her smile widened as she saw her husband making his way up the path with a basket of fish cakes and bread, a jug of beer in his other hand. She saw the gray-shot brown of his braided hair, his own trefoil gleaming in the sunlight. Her smile faded as she watched him struggle up the steep hill. The stiffness in his joints was getting worse every year--too many years spent in drafty stone rooms, or making cold, wet crossings from island to island for weeks at a time. Danaquil Lu was a Winter; he had not been bred to the hard life of a Summer, and his body rebelled against it. But he rarely spoke any word of complaint or regret, because he belonged here, where he was free to live his life as a sibyl . . . and because his heart belonged to her. The weather was warming; the Summer Star was brightening in their sky, Summer had come into its own. Perhaps the warmer days would ease his pain. Her smile came back as she saw his eyes, bright and bluegreen like the sea, smiling up at her. He sat down with the basket of food, trying not to grimace. She put an arm 4 /oan D. Vinge around his shoulders, massaging his back gently as she pointed down at the beach. "Look, it's almost over!" Another shout rose from the watchers below as the runners reached the finish line drawn in the wet sand. They watched a young girl with a bright flag of yellow hair sprint across the line first, watched her being embraced and garlanded and borne away. "It was a good race, Dana," she said, hearing the memories in her voice. Danaquil Lu sighed, nodding; but somehow the gesture felt to her as if he had shaken his head. "We're young for such a short time," he murmured, "and we're old for such a long time." She turned to look at him. "Come now," she said, too cheerfully, because she had been feeling the same way. "How can you say that on a day like this?" and she kissed him, to make certain he didn't try to answer. He laughed in surprise. They ate together, enjoying the day and each other's company, an hour of solitude stolen from the questions of the festival-goers in the village below. They came down the hill again at last. A clan gathering was always a joyful time--a time for being reunited with relatives and friends from all across the scattered islands of Summer; for remembering the Sea Mother, giving the Lady the tribute She deserved. This was the annual gathering of the Goodventures, one of the largest clans in the islands. They had been the religious leaders of Summer before the last Change--the clan of the previous Summer Queens--and they still held great influence. Down by the stone wall of the quay the winner of the footrace, a laughing, freckled girl of no more than fourteen, was tossing the ritual offerings of worshipers and supplicants into the restless green water. Out in the bay, several mers from the colony that shared this island's shores looked on, a sure sign of the Sea's blessing. Clavally watched the girl's face, the sunlight radiant in her hair, and felt a sudden, unexpected surge of longing. She had made a choice when she became a sibyl. It was a hard, restless life, traveling from island to island, speaking the Lady's wisdom to those who needed her, seeking out and training the ones who would follow after her, to guide a new generation of Summers. They said that it was "death to kill a sibyl, death to love a sibyl, death to be a sibyl." . . . Few if any men who were not sibyls themselves would dare to be a husband to one. But even after she had met Danaquil Lu, she had gone on taking childbane, because it was too hard a life to inflict on a child, and she had no close relatives to help her raise one. And Danaquil Lu, with his bent back and aching joints, needed more and more of her care. She squeezed his hand tightly, and told her restless body to be quiet. Soon enough her childbearing time would be past, and the questions in her heart would be answered once and for all. "A question, sibyl--?" A boy came up to them hesitantly, his brown braids flopping against his sleeveless linen tunic. His eyes chose Danaquil Lu to ask his question of; she guessed it was probably a question about girls. "Ask, and I will answer." Danaquil Lu spoke the ritual response, smiling kindly. Clavally let go of his hand with a farewell glance, granting the blushing boy privacy. She moved on through the crowd, half-hearing Danaquil Lu's voice behind THE SUMMER QUEEN 5 her murmur "Input ..." as he fell into the Transfer, and the boy's mumbled question. "Sibyl?" A middle-aged, gray-haired Goodventure woman came up beside her, and Clavally stopped, expecting another question. But before her response could form, the woman said, "Are you going to Carbuncle?" Clavally looked at her blankly. "To Carbuncle? Why?" she asked. "Haven't you heard?" The woman looked annoyingly smug. "The new Summer Queen. She has asked all the sibyls of Summer to make a pilgrimage to the City in the North. She claims it is the Lady's will." Clavally shook her head, expressing her disbelief as much as her ignorance. Carbuncle was the only real city on the entire planet, located far to the north, among the Winter clans. Its name meant both "jewel" and "fester." Tied to the offworlders' starport, it swarmed with their wonders and their corruption during the one-hundredandfifty-year cycles with the offworld Hegemony controlled Tiamat. During that time the Snow Queen reigned, the Winters claimed the city and all the lands around it for their own--and sibyls were forbidden in Carbuncle. The offworlders despised them, [he Winters hated and feared them. Danaquil Lu had been born in the city, but he had been exiled when he became a sibyl. But now the Change had come again. The Black Gate that the offworlders used to reach Tiamat had closed; the offworlders had gone away, and taken their technology with them. Even now the seas were warming. Gradually they would become too hot for the klee the Summers herded and for many of the fish they netted at sea. The mers, the Sea Mother's other children, were migrating north, and the Summers were preparing for their own migration as well. Their ways would become this world's ways again, as the Winters relearned the old rules of survival and harmony with the Sea, and the Summer Queens showed them the human face of the Lady's wisdom. "But why would the Summer Queen--or the Lady--want sibyls in the city," Ciavally asked, "and not among the people, helping them to find the way to their new lives?" "She said that she wanted to tell all the sibyls of a greater purpose, their true purpose, that had been revealed to her by the Sea Mother." The Goodventure woman shrugged and wiped her perspiring face. "But there are those who ask, What possible purpose could a sibyl find, which is better than to do what you do now--?" "Yes," Clavally murmured uncertainly. "It's a strange request." "What is?" Danaquil Lu came up beside her, raising his eyebrows. "The Summer Queen has asked all the sibyls to come to Carbuncle, so that she can speak to them," she said. And she watched her husband's face turn ashen. The scars on his cheek--the cruel legacy of his casting-out from Carbuncle--suddenly stood out like a brand. He took hold of her arm, not-quite-casually, steadying himself. "Oh," was all he said. He took a deep breath, filling his lungs with clear sea air. "We needn't go," Clavally said softly, looking up at him. "There will be enough others without us." "A wise decision. But why do you look like the news brings you no joy, Clavally Bluestone?" A heavyset. weathered woman joined them; Clavally recognized Capella Goodventure, the clan head woman. 6 loan D. Vinge Clavally didn't answer, looking hack at Danaquil Lu, who was gazing out to sea as if he were suddenly there alone. "Or your pledged, either," Capella said, her voice prying like fingers. "What clan is he with--'?" Clavaily heard the tone in her voice which said she knew the answer, although Danaquil Lu wore no embroidery on his shirt, no token of clan membership. "Wayaways," Danaquil Lu said flatly, looking back at her. His expression said that he recognized the tone in her voice, too. "Wayaways? But isn't that a Winter clan?" Capella said, with sour insinuation. The sound of her surprise rang as false as a cracked bell. "I would think you'd be eager to return to your home." "It isn't my home," he snapped. "I am a sibyl." "Of course you are." She stared at his trefoil. "A Winter who worships the Lady. Aren't you unusual." She rubbed her arms, looking out at the sea. Danaquil Lu looked away from her again, irritation plain on his face. He did not believe in the Lady; or in anything at all except his calling. But the Lady believed in him. Clavally looked back at Capella Goodventure, frowning. She had never been fond of the Goodventures' elder. She was becoming less fond of her now with every heartbeat. She opened her mouth to inquire whether Capella had a question to ask, or not. "I would go nowhere near the City, if 1 were a sibyl," Capella said, looking back at her. "I was in Carbuncle at the last Festival. It was my duty to oversee the crowning of the Summer Queen--and the drowning of the Snow Queen." She smiled slightly; Clavally tightened her jaw, and held her tongue. "And what I saw then made me wonder whether the Lady has abandoned Carbuncle forever." "What do you mean?" Clavally asked, her curiosity forcing the words out against her will. "The new queen claims to be a sibyl." Clavally's eyes widened. Her hand touched the trefoil hanging against her chest. "But isn't that a good--" "--But," Capella Goodventure went on, relentlessly, "she's white as snow; she looks exactly like the old queen. Arienrhod." Her voice dripped vitriol. "She forsook the proper rituals of the Change; she speaks blasphemies about the Lady's will. She chooses to live in the Snow Queen's palace--and she went so far as to have me turned out of it when I tried to show her how her willfulness could harm us all," Ah, Clavally thought. "The Winter gossip says that she is the old Queen's illegal clone, an unnatural copy of herself, made for her by the offworlders to oppress us," Capella Goodventure went on. "She couldn't possibly be a Summer, even though she claims to belong to the Dawntreader clan--" "The Dawntreaders?" Clavally said, startled. "I knew a sibyl of the Dawntreaders, about five years ago. Her name was Moon--" This time it was the Goodventure woman who looked surprised. "Is she the new Queen?" Clavally asked, incredulous. She read the answer in the other woman's eyes. "You know her?" Capella Goodventure demanded. "What did she look like?" "She would be young, and very fair--her hair was almost white. Her eyes were THE SUMMER QUEEN 7 a strange, shifting color, like fog-agates. ..." She knew again, from the look on the other woman's face, that she had described the new Queen. "She is a sibyl." Danaquil Lu said abruptly. "We trained her ourselves. And she was a Summer. I would have known if she was not." Capella Goodventure looked at him, her eyes narrowing; he met her stare, until finally she was the one who looked away. "She isn't right," she said finally, looking at Clavally again. "I will tell you what I have told every sibyl I've seen--I have to return to the city, but you do not. Don't go to Carbuncle." She turned and started away, her angry momentum splitting the crowd like a ship's wake. Clavally looked at Danaquil Lu, found him already looking at her. "Perhaps the only thing that's truly wrong with the new Queen is that she isn't a Goodventure," she murmured. Danaquil Lu's mouth twitched with a fleeting, ironic smile; the smile disappeared. "What do you really think?" he asked her. She brushed at a fly that was buzzing in her ear like doubt, and felt another frown start to form. "I remember the girl Moon Dawntreader that we knew. She was different . . . there was something about her . . . but I always felt that it was good. 1 think that 1 want to know for myself what the truth is, Dana." He nodded, his face pinching. "You want to go to Carbuncle." Slowly she nodded. "But what do you think? What do you feel? . . . What do you want to do?" He looked out across the sea again, squinting with the glare of light on water, looking north. She saw him swallow as if something were caught in his throat. At last he said, "I want to go home." ONDINEE: Razuma "Halt. Who are you?" He stopped in the inquisitory's shadowed corridor as weapons surrounded him, with cold-eyed men behind them. "The Smith." They knew him only as the Smith when he came on errands like this; when he wore openly the pendant of silver metal that he usually kept hidden beneath his shirt. He could pass unmolested through circumstances that would be suicidal if he did not wear the cryptic star-and-compass, which stood for so many things to so many people. The star in this particular pendant was a solii, a rare and secret gem born in the heart of dying stars, more precious than diamonds, believed by some mystics to hold powers of enlightenment. In this setting it symbolized all that, and more. "The High Priest sent tor me." The men surrounding him wore the uniforms of the Church Police, with the blood-red badge of the High Priest's elite guard. They looked dubious as they took in his face, his youth; they studied the sign he wore. Their weapons lowered, slightly. They carried plasma rifles, not the stun rifles that most police forces used, that were both cheaper and far more humane. The High Priest's red-badges were called the Terror, and the name was not an empty threat. "Come with us," one of the guards said finally, nodding his head. "He's waiting for you." The Smith followed them along the dark, echoing corridor, down a flight of steps cut from stone. The steps had been worn into crescents by the pitiless tread of booted feet going down, and up again; by the feet of the inquisitory's countless victims, going only down. Someone screamed, somewhere, as they reached the bottom. The guards glanced at him as he hesitated, measuring his reaction to the sound. Infidel, their stares whispered. Criminal. Off\vorlder scum. He looked back at them, letting them into his eyes, letting them see what waited for them there. "Let's go," he whispered. They looked away, and started on into the inquisitory's bowels. They passed many closed doors; he heard more screams, moans, prayers in more than one language. The parched heat of the streets was a reeking fever-sweat here. He felt himself sweating, not entirely from the fetid heat. One of his escort unlocked a door, and the noises he had been trying not to listen to suddenly became impossible to ignore. They led him through the chamber beyond. He did not look right or left, staring fixedly at the back of the man ahead of him; but the corners of his eyes showed him a naked, bleeding body suspended from chains, an inquisitor irate at the interruption; an array of torture equipment ranging from the primitive to the sublime. Nothing ever became obsolete, in this business. The stench was overwhelming, like the heat, the sounds. ... A rushing filled his head, his eyesight began to strobe; he swore under his breath, and turned it into forced meditation, pulling himself together. He finished crossing the room. Beyond the far door was another corridor, and at its end another room: a laboratory this time. The air was suddenly, startlingly cool. He realized that this must be where the government kept the research installation he had heard rumors about. No wonder the secret of its location kept so well. He took a deep breath, let it out as Irduz, the High Priest of the Western Continent, came forward to greet him. Irduz was here in person; this was a bigger mess than he'd expected. "Shibah be praised you've come so soon--" He shrugged off the touch of Irduz's hand. The High Priest must have his own entrails on the sacrificial plate, to make him touch an unbeliever as if they were friends. "What's the problem1'" the Smith asked, his voice rasping. Irduz stepped back. "That is," he said, and pointed. Behind him stood half a dozen men in lab clothing, some Ondinean. some not. "Our researchers were trying a replication process. Something went wrong." The researchers moved aside as the Smith started forward, giving him access to what lay behind them. He stopped, staring. Beyond the electromagnetic barrier of an emergency containment shield he saw a seething mass of glittering, cloudlike material. He looked at the display on the wall beside it. just as one more subsystem went critical, and another indicator slipped into the red in a spreading epidemic of THE SUMMER QUILN 9 crisis. "What the hell . . . ?" he murmured. He turned back to the research team. "What is it1?" They looked at each other, glancing nervously at the High Priest. "We were trying to create a replication process that would restructure carbon into diamond, for a building material--" He gave a bark of sardonic laughter. "By the Render!" He looked back at Irduz, watching the High Priest's barely controlled anxiety become barely controlled anger, at his blasphemy, at his mockery. "Maybe Shibah and the Hallowed Calavre don't approve of your unnatural methods." "Our plans for the new temple require large expanses of a material that is both transparent and extremely strong. Diamond veneer will not suffice. The Holy of Holies knows that everything we do in this place is to the greater exaltation of the Name," trduz snapped. His heavy robes rustled like leaves of steel. The Smith glanced toward the door he had entered by, and what lay beyond it. He smiled sourly. "Why don't you just evacuate, and drop a nuke on this place? That would solve your problem." "That is not an acceptable solution," Irduz said, frowning. "You mean it's too obvious?" The Smith shook his head, turning back to the displays. They had been trying to create a primitive replicator, as limited in function compared to the Old Empire's smartmatter as an amoeba was to a human being. They had wanted something that would mindlessly realign the molecular structure of carbon, transforming it into diamond. They had tried to create an imitation of life; and they had been too successful. Instead of an army of cell-sized mechanical slaves, whose purpose was endlessly replicating the molecular pattern of diamonds, they had gotten an army of mindless automatons whose only purpose was reproducing themselves. And getting rid of them would require something far more sophisticated and lethal than a dose of disinfectant. The replicators by design incorporated diamond and other materials into their own analog-bacterial structures, making them stronger, more active, and far more resistant to attack than any natural organism. He studied the displays silently, feeling incredulity and disgust grown inside him as he located the critical error sequence in their programming. He glanced again at the systems monitors, confirming his worst case expectations with one look. "This is eating its way through the shields." He turned back. "It's feeding on their energy output. In about half an hour the whole system is going to crash. Congratulations, gentlemen. You've produced a universal solvent." The looks on the faces of the researchers turned critical, like the data readings behind him; and he realized that they had suspected it all along. But they had not even dared to speak its name, had been hoping against hope that he would come in here like a miracle and tell them that they were wrong-- "A universal solvent?" Irduz took a step backward, pressing an ebony hand to his jeweled breastplate, "It can't be." It was the ultimate demon of Old Empire technology run wild. "That absorbs everything it comes in contact with. Everything. Nothing can contain it. Nothing can stop it. It's the end of the world. . . ."He looked back at the stricken researchers, his indigo eyes filled with death. "By the Holy-- " The Smith silenced him with an impatient gesture. "Tell me," he said evenly, to the cluster of researchers, "why haven't you stopped this?" 10 "We can't--" someone protested. "What do you mean9" the Smith .said angrily. "You knew what the problem was. Anybody who knows bacteriology and its analogs could kill this thing. You have the processing power here; and you presumably possess at least the variety of chemical tools available to the average drug dealer. Don't you--?" "Yes, but--" "But what, for gods' sakes'*" He caught the man and jerked him forward. "What the hell were you waiting for?" "But--but--we can't get in there." The researcher gestured at the seething mass waiting beyond the transparent wall. "You what?" the Smith whispered. "We can't get at it." He wiped his sweating face. "When the emergency shields are up, there's no way to get access to what's contained inside them. But if we open the shielding the solvent will get out--" The Smith laughed incredulously. "You can't be serious." He looked at their faces. He looked back at the shield displays. "How in the name of any god you like could you possibly set up a system with no emergency access?" you miserable, stupid bastards-- His hands tightened. "Isn't there anything you can do?" someone asked, in a voice that sounded pathetically high. "There must be something. You're the expert--!" "I really don't know. You've done your work so well," he said softly, twisting the knife, almost enjoying the look on their faces. "What if you can't?" Irduz said thickly. "What will happen to our world?" The Smith glanced at the data on the displays beside him. "It could be worse." He shrugged. They looked at him. "What do you mean?" Irduz demanded. "The term 'universal solvent' is really a misnomer. There are a number of different biotechnical compounds you could call 'universal solvents.' Their interests vary depending on their composition. A few things would actually survive if this escapes containment--" "What kind of things?" Irduz said. "What--?" The Smith stared at his feet, rubbing his face, wiping away any trace of sardonic smile. He looked up again, finally. "Titanium spires in some of your monuments." "What else?" He shrugged again. "There are a number of things I can think of that would retain their integrity . . . but nothing you'd be interested in; except diamonds. Ships at the starport with titanium hulls, if their locks were completely sealed, might even get off the ground. . . . Carbon-based lifeforms will be the first to go, though; the replicants need carbon to make diamond, obviously. We'll all become diamond-- filigrees of diamond frost, on a pond: the human body is mostly water; they don't need water." He glanced at the glittering cloud of doom. "This will spread like a disease. . . . The solvent can't destroy everything as fast as it will destroy human body tissue; some things will take weeks to break down. The whole planet will probably take months to transmogrify. ..." "Stop it!" Irduz said, and it took the Smith a moment to realize that he meant the solvent itself. "Stop it and you can have anything you desire--" The Smith's mouth twisted. "It's not that simple," he said. "Maybe you can bribe your gods, priest, but you can't bribe mine." He gestured at the disintegrating THE SUMMER QUEEN 11 fields, let his hand fall back to his side. "I can probably stop it . . ."he murmured finally, in disgust, looking at their terrified faces. "Personally I'd see you all in hell first, and me on the next ship out of here. But our mutual friends want your ass sitting in the High Seat a while longer, Irduz." He touched the pendant hanging against his shirt. "So the next time you say your prayers, you'll know who to thank. But if I save the world for you. I want you to take these incompetent sons of bitches on a tour of your other facilities." He jerked his head at the door to hell. "It wasn't our fault!" the researcher beside him said. "Fakl was in Transfer! We were in contact with the sibyl net the whole time, we followed the process exactly! There were no mistakes in our program, 1 swear it!" The Smith spun around. "You got this data through sibyl Transfer?" he asked. "I don't believe that. That's impossible." Another man stepped forward, wearing a sibyl's trefoil. "I was in Transfer during the entire process," he said. "We made no mistakes at our end. We followed everything exactly. The sibyl net made the mistake. It was wrong. It was wrong. ..." His voice faded. The Smith saw fear in his eyes--not fear of the Church's retribution, or even of the end of the world, in that moment--but instead the fear of a man whose belief in something more reliable than any god had been profoundly shaken. "That's impossible," Irduz said. "No," the Smith murmured. "It could be true." It could be why I'm here-- He shook his head, as the stupefying visions of a realtime nightmare suddenly filled his mind, filling him with incomprehensible dread. He sucked in a ragged breath. Why-- ? "Do you mean there's something wrong with the entire sibyl net?" Irduz demanded. "How could such a thing happen?" "Shut up," the Smith said thickly, "and let me work, unless you really want to find out firsthand what it feels like when your flesh cracks and curls, and all the water oozes out of your crystallizing body--" "You dare to speak to me like--" The Smith stared at him. Irduz's thin-lipped mouth pressed shut, and the Smith turned away again. He began to give commands to the control system, going back over the faulty sibyl data; doing his analyses half in the machine, half in his head. The purity of analytical thought calmed him, fulfilled him, making him forget his human fears. The replicators were essentially an analog of bacteria, structured for strength. They could be stopped by the application of appropriate analog toxins. Once he understood their structure well enough, he would know what tools would destroy them. But he also needed heat--a lot of heat, to break down the carbon-carbon bonds of the diamond matrix that made the replicators almost impervious to attack. And then, somehow, he had to deliver the blow. . . . He crossed the lab to another bank of processors, cursing under his breath at the impossibly inadequate design of the lab itself. He transferred his results, inputting more data, his murmured commands loud in the sudden, perfect silence of the sealed room. "I need access to your toxin component inventory." He gestured at the displays. One of the researchers came forward. He made a quick pass of his hands over the touchboards, and stood aside again. "You're cleared." 12 foan D. Vinge The Smith went back to his work as the accesses opened, searching for the fastest way to create his silver bullet from the simplistic assortment of analog toxins he had available. The solution to this problem was painfully obvious; but it had to be quick, subtle, and right the first time. . . . He was oblivious now to everything but the exaltation of his work--caught up in an ecstasy that was more like prayer than anything anyone else in this room had ever known. When he had his prototype toxin designed, he activated the sequence that would begin to produce it in large quantities in aerosol form, and heat it to three or four thousand degrees centigrade. He estimated that half that much heat, combined with the toxin, should be enough to turn the seething mass of replicant ooze into useless slag that would harm nothing. This much would also leave their entire system in ruins. Destroying their system wasn't absolutely necessary to this process; but it was better to be safe than sorry, when you were dealing with the end of the world. And besides, he felt like it. "All right , . ."he said, turning back to his silent witnesses. "Turn off the emergency shields." "What--?" someone gasped. "Do it!" he snapped. "I have to get this mixture in there, if I'm going to stop what's happening, and the only way to do that is to shut it down." "But if the solvent escapes--" "Shutting off the fields will slow it down, because it's feeding on their energy," he said, as patiently as if he were speaking to someone with brain damage. "That should give my agent enough time to do its work. This is your only chance. . . . You have about five minutes before the replicant mass overloads the barriers anyway, you stupid sons of bitches. And then there will be no stopping it. Shut off the goddamn field!" He went back to his position among the system displays, never taking his eyes off the researchers as they looked toward Irduz; as Irduz nodded, slowly, and someone gave the fateful command. He watched the data on the screens, barely breathing; timing his own directives to synchronize, to feed the superheated gas into the space at the exact point in time when the shields went down. Something happened beyond the protective window/wall of the observation room that registered in his eyes as blinding pain; he shut them, as the virtually indestructible material of the window, the room, and the building itself made sounds that no one in this room had ever expected to hear. The Smith felt an impossible heat reach him like the sun's kiss, making his flesh tingle, even here. He stood motionless until he felt the sensation fade, the reaction snuffing out. He opened his eyes. The formerly transparent window before him was opaqued now by a sheen of metallic silver-gray. He could make out nothing beyond it. He looked down at the displays, where to his relief a new and entirely different pattern of disaster warnings met his eyes, showing him the answers he needed to see. Data feeding in from the black box in the heart of the chamber he could no longer see told him that he had accomplished his goal. The replicant mass had been terminated. He looked away, drained, turning back to the researchers. He saw in their eyes that they knew he had been successful--even Irduz. They were safe, their slack faces said; as if anyone was ever safe. "You weren't afraid," one of the men murmured, looking at him as if the idea was incomprehensible. "How could you not be afraid?" THE SUMMER QUEEN 13 The Smith glanced at Irduz. "I'm not afraid of things 1 understand," he said sourly. "Just things I don't understand." Irduz's gaze met his own, without comprehension. "It's over, then?" Irduz asked. "It's all right? The solvent has been utterly destroyed?" The Smith nodded. "You're absolutely certain?" "Absolutely." The Smith let his mouth twitch. "Although, if I were you," he added gently, "I'd keep a couple of containers of my brew on call, just in case." "Did you know all along that this would work, then?" one of the others said, half reluctant and half fascinated. "The odds of success were ninety-eight percent--if nobody involved fucked up," the Smith said, with a smile that did not spare them. "Have a nice day. . . . And for gods' sakes, when you rebuild this place hire Kharemoughis to do it right." He crossed the room to the High Priest's side. "I'll be going," he said. "I came in the back door; I'm not going out that way. After you--" He gestured, knowing there had to be other ways into this hidden complex, forcing Irduz to acknowledge it. Irduz nodded, frowning but not daring to object. He led the way out. The Smith left the Church inquisitory by the main entrance, followed by the High Priest's hollow blessing and many naked stares of disbelief. He pushed the solii pendant back into concealment inside his clothes as he went down the broad steps. He began to walk out across the open square, breathing deeply for the first time in hours as he passed through the shifting patterns of the marketday crowd. The dry, clean, spice-scented air cleared out his lungs. But even the sun's purifying heat could not burn away his fragmented visions of a disaster far more widespread and profound than the one he had just averted. The sibyl net had made a mistake. There was something wrong with the sibyl net. And that terrifying knowledge haunted his confused mind as though it were somehow his fault, his responsibility. . . . "Tell your fortune? Tell your fortune for only a siskt" Someone's hand caught his arm as he passed yet another canopied stall. He stopped as the dark hand brushed his own, looked down into the woman's deeply blue-violet eyes gazing up at him. "What?" he said. "Your future, stranger, for only a sisk. I sense that you are a lucky man. ..." He followed her glance back the way he had come. He had come out of the inquisitory's doors in one piece, walking on his own two feet. A lucky man. He was about to refuse her, with a cynicism that probably matched her own, when he noticed she held a circular tan board on her lap. Most fortune-tellers used jumble-sticks, or simply the palm of your hand. The intricate geometries painstakingly laid out on the board's polished surface symbolized many things, just as his hidden pendant did: the moves to be made in a game that was probably older than time; the hidden moves of the Great Game, in which he was a hidden player. He had never seen a tan board used to tell fortunes. "Sure," he murmured, with an acid smile. "Tell me my future." He sat down across from her on the pillows in the shade, his curiosity piqued. He leaned forward, intrigued in spite of himself as she cast the smooth gaming pieces out across the tan board's surface. They scattered, colliding, rebounding off its rim with the random motions of fate, coming to rest in a configuration that looked equally random. She stared at the pattern they made, and sucked in a breath. Her night-black hands covered the board with spread fingers, as if to shield his eyes from it. She 14 Joan D. Vinge looked up at him again, with both incomprehension and dread. "Death ..." she murmured, looking into his eyes as deeply as if she saw time itself there. He almost laughed. Everybody dies-- "Death by water." He froze, feeling the blood fall away from his face. He scrambled to his feet, swayed there a moment, dizzy with disbelief. He fumbled in his pocket, dropped a coin on her board, not even noticing what it was that he gave her, not caring. He turned away without another word, and disappeared into the crowd. TIAMAT: Carbuncle Gods, what am I doing here? Jerusha PalaThion bent her head, pressing her fingertips against her eyes. The feeling that she was a prisoner in someone else's dream crept over her again as the scene before her suddenly turned surreal. She raised her head and opened her eyes as the disorientation passed. Yes, she was really here, standing in the Hall of the Winds; waiting for the Summer Queen, watching over the crowd that waited with her. But still she seemed to hear the song of a goddess in the air high overhead, feel the living breath of the Sea Mother chill her flesh. The ageless chamber reeked of the Sea; the keening windsong carried Her voice to Jerusha, and to the small gathering of the faithful who waited with reverence and awe at the edge of the Pit for their audience with the Queen. The Sea Herself lay waiting too, at the bottom of the Pit, three hundred meters below. A single fragile span of bridge crossed the dizzying well, giving access to the palace on the other side. But high above them gossamer curtains swelled and billowed with the restless wind, creating treacherous air currents that could sweep a body from the bridge with terrifying ease. The Lady gives, they said, and the Lady takes away. "The Lady." "The Lady--" Hushed voices murmured Her name as the Summer Queen appeared suddenly at the far end of the span. Jerusha took a deep breath and lowered her hand to her side, focusing on the Queen, the Goddess Incarnate, as she stepped carefully onto the bridge. Jerusha watched her come, slowly, regally, her milk-white hair drifting around her in a shining cloud, her loose, summer-green robes billowing like grass, like the sea. She wore a crown of flowers and birdwings shot through with the light of jewels, and the trefoil of a sibyl. The Lady. THE SUMMER QLJLLN 15 Damn it.' Jerusha shook her head: a head-clearing, a denial. She looked at the Queen again, seeing her clearly this time: Not a goddess incarnate, but an eighteen-year-old girl named Moon. Her lace was drawn with strain and weariness, her movements were made slow and awkward by the swelling of an unexpected pregnancy that was now near term, no longer completely concealed even by her flowing robes. There was no mystery to her, any more than there was any divine presence in this room. Jerusha's eyes still reminded her insistently that the Queen wore another woman's face; memory told her that Moon Dawntreader carried another woman's ambitions in her mind, in her heart. It was impossible not to stare at her, not to wonder about the strange motion of a fate whose dance had trapped them both. . . . She listened to the progression of high, piercing notes that filled the chamber as the Queen touched the tone box she carried in her hand; the sounds that controlled the movement of the wind curtains high above, to create a space of quiet air through which she, and the three people who followed her, could move. The tone box was an artifact of the Old Empire, like the Hall, the Pit, the palace above them and the ancient, serpentine city at whose pinnacle it sat. Technology was the real god at work here, and the Queen knew that as well as Jerusha did. She had come here today to try to reconcile this crucial gathering of her people to that truth, if she could. Jerusha felt a sudden twinge of compassion for the fragile figure crossing the bridge toward her. Moon Dawntreader had defied the offworlder rule that Jerusha PalaThion had represented, to become the new Queen. And Jerusha had believed her cause was just, had believed in her; instead of deporting her, had let her become Queen. In the end she had even given up her own position as Commander of Police, stopped serving the Hegemony that had brought nothing but grief to her and to this world. She had chosen to stay behind on Tiamat at the Final Departure, and serve its new Queen instead. But when the offworlders had gone away at the Change, they had gone forever, at least as far as Jerusha PalaThion was concerned. They would not come back in her lifetime; she had exiled herself, and if ever she changed her mind, she still could not change that. And had she changed her mind--? Jerusha's face pinched. She rubbed her arms, feeling the rough homespun cloth chafe her skin. Gods, she was so tired, all the time, lately. . . . She wondered if she was getting some disease, or simply getting depressed. She dressed like a Tiamatan even though there were still plenty of offworlder clothes to be had; trying to do the impossible, to fit in, when her dark curling hair and upslanting eyes, her cinnamon-colored skin, marked her as alien. She had never felt at home on this world, in all the time she had served here. She had hated this ancient, musty, mysterious city the way she had hated its former Queen. But in the end ... in the end it had worked its will on her. In the end it had still been the lesser of two evils. Someone touched her shoulder. She started, caught off guard; raised her hand in a defense gesture that Police training had programmed into her reflexes. She stopped herself, chagrined, as she realized that the touch belonged to her husband. "Miroe," she whispered, feeling the tension inside her dissolve. He made a sound that was almost a laugh. "Who were you expecting?" She gazed at him for a long moment. His offworlder's face looked as out of place here as her own. And yet he belonged here, had lived here all of his life. It was 16 /oan D. Vinge not impossible to learn to love a new world. . . . She only shook her head, and put her hand over his as she glanced away at the Queen. "How is she?" she asked, looking again at the swell of the Queen's belly. Miroe had offworlder medical training, and Moon had chosen him, trusted him over any local physician or healer to attend her; as she had chosen Jerusha to watch her back. "I think I picked up two heartbeats today. I think she's carrying twins." "Gods," Jerusha murmured. She shifted from foot to foot, wondering why her hands and feet went to sleep on her so easily lately. He nodded, with a heavy sigh. "She shouldn't be doing this. I told her that--she ought to let go of it, let the Summers treat her like a goddess. That's all they expect--or want--of her." Jerusha looked back at him. feeling unexpected irritation rise inside her. "She doesn't want to be a puppet, Miroe. She wants to be a queen. Just because women are the ones who get pregnant--" The sudden thought filled her head like strange perfume: Am I pregnant--? He looked back at her, frowning. "Goddammit, you know that's not what I meant." She looked down. Am I--? Feeling wonder fall through her like rain. "She's pushing too hard, that's all. She wants it all to change now. She should let it go until she delivers. That's all." The frown was still on his face; concern now, instead of annoyance. "Carrying twins causes complications in a pregnancy; you know that." Jerusha forced her attention back to his words, saying nothing about what she had just felt, thought, imagined. She wasn't even sure; there was no reason to mention it now, She looked at Moon again, at the swelling curve of her stomach. "If she waits that long, the Summers will smother her in 'worship,' " she said sourly. The Goodventure clan, whose ancestors had been the Summer Queens during the last cycle, had gotten a taste for power, and nursed their hunger for it through a hundred and fifty years, through Tiamat's near-endless Winter. They still believed in the old ways of Summer's conservative outback, and they still believed they held their Goddess's favor, over this heretic upstart who was trying to unnaturally force the Winters' offworlder, technophile ways on them. "She's made enemies of the Goodventures already, by pushing them too hard. But if she doesn't push they'll drown her. She's damned either way." "The sibyl net is behind her--" "Who knows what it's really telling her? Nobody understands how it acts, Miroe, or half of what it says." She shook her head. "Who knows if she really even hears it at all ... or only the ghost of the Snow Queen whispering in her ear." Miroe was silent for a long moment. "She hears it," he said at last. She looked away, shifting the projectile rifle's strap against her shoulder; feeling the distance open between them, reminded by the words that he shared a history, a bond of faith that did not include her, with this world's Queen. She focused on Moon Dawntreader again, as the Queen began to speak. The small crowd of islanders, almost all of them sibyls, shuffled and bowed their heads as the Queen greeted them. They were obviously awed by the trefoil she wore and by her surroundings, even though her soft, uncertain voice barely carried above the sighing of the wind. Sparks Dawntreader. the red-haired youth who was Moon's THE SUMMER QUEEN 17 husband, stood close beside her. His arm went around her protectively as he looked out at the crowd. Behind them stood a middle-aged woman with dark, gray-shot hair hanging in a thick plait over her shoulder. She wore the same trefoil sign the Queen wore. She gazed aimlessly over the crowd with eyes that were like shuttered windows, as the fourth person, a plain, stocky woman, murmured something in her ear--describing the scene, probably. "Thank you for coming," Moon murmured, her pale hands clutching restlessly at her robes. The words sounded banal, but gratitude shone in her eyes, a tribute to the people standing before her, whose quiet reverence belied the long and difficult journey they had made to this meeting. "I ..." She hesitated, as if she were trying to remember words, and Jerusha sensed her fleeting panic. "I--asked all the sibyls of Summer to come to the City when I became Queen because ..." She glanced down, up again, and suddenly there was a painful knowledge in her eyes that only the two offworlders understood. "Because the Lady has spoken to me, and shown me a truth that I must share with all of you. The Sea has blessed our people with Her bounty and Her wisdom, and we have ... we have always believed that She spoke Her will through those of us who wear the sibyl sign." Her hand touched the trefoil again, self-consciously. "But now at last She has chosen to show us a greater truth." Moon bit her lip, pushed back a strand of hair. Oh gods, Jerusha thought. Here we go. Now there's no turning back. "We are not the only sibyls," the Queen said, her voice suddenly strong with belief. "Sibyls are everywhere--on all the worlds of the Hegemony. I have been offworld, I have seen them." The rapt silence of her audience broke like a wave; their astonishment flowed over her. "I have seen them!" She lifted her hands; they fell silent again. "I have been to another world, called Kharemough, where they wear the same sign, they speak the same words to go into Transfer, they have the same wisdom. They also say--" she glanced at her husband, with a brief, private smile, and pressed her hands to her stomach, "that it is 'Death to kill a sibyl, death to love a sibyl, death to be a sibyl.' . . . But they also showed me that it doesn't have to be true." She turned back again, this time to touch the arm of the blind woman, drawing her forward. "Fate Ravenglass is a sibyl, just as you are and I am. But she is a Winter." "How--?" "Impossible--" The astonished murmurs broke over her again; she waited for them to die down, her hands pressing her swollen stomach. "It's true," Fate said slowly, as the voices faded. " 'Ask, and I will answer.'" She spoke the ritual words, her voice filled with emotion. "For more than half of my life I hid my secret from the offworlders and my own people. The offworlders lied to us all about the true nature of what we do." "We are a part of something much greater than we ever dreamed," Moon said, moving forward, all her hesitation gone now. "A part of a network created by our ancestors, before we even came to this world." The sibyls in the crowd pulled their homespun clothes and kleeskin slickers closer about them, staring at her with every face among them showing a different emotion. "But, Lady--" someone began, broke off. "But how can the Lady ..." He looked down, speechless, shaking his head. 18 Joan D. Vinge "The Sea Mother is still with you, in you, all around you," the Queen said, forcing into the words a conviction that Jerusha knew she no longer felt. Her time offworld had taught her more than one truth; and it had taught her that no truth was a simple one. "She has blessed your ways, because you serve Her selflessly, as sibyls everywhere do--" "Stop this blasphemy!" All heads turned at once, as the voice echoed down the entry hall toward them. Jerusha stiffened as she saw Capella Goodventure stride into the Hall of the Winds. "How the hell did she get in here'.'" Jerusha muttered. The Queen had ordered all the Goodventures, and particularly their elder, out of the palace after their last bitter theological argument. Jerusha had directed the palace security guards to make certain it was done; but some of the palace guards were Summers, and the gods--or their Goddess--only knew where their loyalties really lay. Someone had let her pass. Jerusha took a step forward, her face hardening over, and pulled the rifle strap from her shoulder. Miroe caught her arm, stopping her. "Wait." He looked toward the crowd, as Capella Goodventure showed herself to them. Jerusha nodded, lowering the gun. She moved forward more slowly, only watching now. "This woman who claims that she speaks as one of you is telling you lies!" The Goodventure elder's voice shook with anger. "She is not a true sibyl; not even a true Summer! She wears Winter's face, and Winter's ways. She has tried to keep me from speaking the truth--but I will speak it!" She turned to face the Queen. "Do you still deny me my right to be heard? Or will you order your offworlders to drag me from the hall? Because that is what they will have to do--" Jerusha stopped moving, looking toward the Queen. The Queen glanced her way, looked back at Capella Goodventure. "No," Moon said softly. "Say what you must." Capella Goodventure deflated slightly, her defiance punctured by the Queen's easy capitulation. She took a deep breath. "You all know of me. I am head woman of the clan that gave Summer its last line of queens. I have come to tell you that this woman who calls herself Moon Dawntreader Summer has brought you here to fill your minds with doubt--about yourselves, about the Lady's place in your lives. She would strip away the beliefs, the traditions, that make us Summers. She wants us to become like the Winters--miserable lackeys of the offworlders who despise our ways and butcher the sacred mers." She turned, confronting the Queen directly. "You do not speak for the Sea Mother!" she said furiously. "You are not the woman who was chosen Queen. You have no right to wear that sign at your throat." "That isn't true," Moon said, lifting her chin so that all the watchers could clearly see the trefoil tattoo that echoed the barbed fishhook curves of the sibyl pendant she wore. "Anyone can wear a tattoo," Capella Goodventure said disdainfully. "But not just anyone can wear the face of the Winters' Queen. There is no Moon Dawntreader Summer. You are the Snow Queen, Arienrhod--you cheated death and the offworlders, I don't know how. You stole the rightful place of our queen, and now you desecrate the Mother of Us All with this filth!" She faced the crowd again, her own face flushed with an outrage that Jerusha knew was genuine. But a woman's voice called out from the crowd, "I know Moon Dawntreader." Capella Goodventure's broad, lined face frowned, as she peered into the crowd. THE SUMMER QUEEN 19 The Queen stared with her as the speaker pushed through the wall of faces. Jerusha saw a sturdy, dark-haired island woman in her mid-thirties; saw sudden recognition fill Moon's face at the sight of her. "Clavally Bluestone Summer," the woman identified herself, and Capella Goodventure's frown deepened. "I made her a sibyl. She has the right to the trefoil, and to speak the Lady's Will." "Then let her prove it!" Capella Goodventure said, her face mottling with anger. "If she has the right to speak as she does, then let her prove it." Moon nodded, looking surer now. "Ask, and I will answer," she said again. "No," Capeila Goodventure said. "A sibyl Transfer can be faked, just like a tattoo. Let her show us real proof. Let the Sea give us a sign of Her Will!" The Queen stood where she was, listening to the crowd murmur its doubts, her own face furrowing in a frown as she tried to imagine how to lay their doubts to rest. Jerusha stood unmoving, her body drawn with tension as she waited for a sign from the Queen to come forward and remove the Goodventure woman. But she knew that Moon could not take that step now, without losing all credibility. Moon glanced over her shoulder at the Pit waiting behind her like a tangible symbol of her danger; looked back at Capella Goodventure again. "The Sea Mother is with us here," she said, clearly enough for all the crowd to hear her. "Do you feel Her presence? The waters of the sea lie at the bottom of the Pit behind me. Smell the air, listen for Her voice calling up to you." Capella Goodventure stood back, a faint smile of anticipation pulling at her mouth. But then the Queen held something out in her hand. Jerusha caught her breath as she saw what it was. "This is called a tone box. It controls the wind in the Hall of Winds; it is the only way for a person to cross the Pit safely." She handed the control box to Capella Goodventure, and turned back toward the bridge. Jerusha swore softly. "No--" "Moon!" Jerusha heard Sparks Dawntreader call out to his wife, reaching after her as she left his side. The Queen glanced back over her shoulder; something in her look stopped him where he was, with dread on his face. She turned away again, raising her arms, bowing her head, and murmured something inaudible that might have been a prayer. Jerusha saw her body quiver slightly, as if she were going into Transfer. The moaning of the winds was loud in the sudden, utter silence of the hall, as she stepped out onto the bridge. She swayed as the wind buffeted her; froze for an instant, regained her balance and took another step. Jerusha's hands tightened; she felt a surge of sickness as she remembered her own terrifying, vertiginous passages over that span. She fought the urge to close her eyes. The Queen took a third precarious step, braced against the wind. And then something happened. Jerusha looked up as the Queen looked up: she sucked in a deep breath of wonder. The clangorous sighing of the wind curtains faded, as the wind spilled from the sails, and the air currents died ... as the open windows high above began to close. Blue and gold sunlight shafted down through the inert cloud-forms of the curtains to light Moon's hair like an aura. "By the Bastard Boatman--" Jerusha whispered, feeling Miroe's hand tighten around her arm with painful awe. 20 Joan D. Vinge "By the Lady," his voice answered, deep and resonant; although she knew that he could not mean it. A slow murmur spread through the crowd, and one by one the watchers dropped to their knees, sure that they were in the presence of a miracle, a Goddess, Her Chosen . . . until at last only Capella Good venture was left standing. As Jerusha watched, even she nodded, in acknowledgment, or defeat. The Queen stood a moment longer, her head held high, her face a mask that Jerusha could not read. The air stayed calm; the ancient hall and everyone in it seemed frozen in place. And then at last Moon Dawntreader moved again, stepping off of the bridge onto solid ground. She looked back, at the flaccid curtains hanging in the air, as if she were waiting for something. But they did not begin to fill again; the window walls remained closed. She took a deep breath, her shoulders rising and falling visibly, her own face showing traces of the awe that had silenced the crowd. She looked ahead again, with her gaze on her husband's white, stunned face. She returned to his side; Jerusha saw the uncertainty that was almost fear in his eyes as she took his hand. "It is the Lady's will," she said, facing the crowd again, at last, "that I should be here, and that you should be here with me." She gestured at the span behind her, open to anyone who chose to cross it, now that the winds had ceased. "This is Her sign to you that a true change has come; the ways of Winter are not forbidden to us anymore." She hesitated, looking out at their faces, her own face changed by the emotions that played across it. "We are who we are," she said, "and the old ways have always been our survival. But no one's ways are the only, or the best. Change is not always evil, it is the destiny of all things. It was not the will of the Lady that we were denied knowledge that could make our lives better; it was the will of the offworlders. And they are gone. I ask you to work with me now to do the Lady's will, and work for change--" Capella Goodventure threw down the tone box and stalked out of the hall. The echo of its clatter followed her into the darkness. But the rest of the watchers stayed, their eyes on the Queen, waiting for what came next; ready to listen, ready to work the Lady's will at her bidding. "How did she do it, Miroe?" Jerusha murmured. "How?" He only shook his head, his face incredulous. "I don't know," he said. "I only hope she knows . . . because she didn't do it herself." Jerusha looked up, her eyes searching the haunted shadows of the heights, her memory spinning out the past. But all the history of this place that she had experienced spanned less than two decades. The layers of dusty time, the hidden secrets, the haunted years of Carbuncle the city stretched back through millennia. Jerusha rubbed her arms, feeling its walls close around her like the cold embrace of a tomb, and said nothing more. TIAMAT: Carbuncle Sparks Dawntreader hesitated in the doorway to what had been the throne room, when this was the Snow Queen's palace; suddenly as incapable of motion as if he had fallen under a spell. He stared at the throne, transfixed by its sublime beauty. Its blown- and welded-glass convolutions could have been carved from ice. Light caught in its folds and flowed over its shining surfaces until it seemed to possess an inner radiance. It had seemed to him to be uncannily alive, the first time he had entered this room and seen her seated there: Arienrhod, the Snow Queen, impossibly wearing the face of Moon, the girl he had loved forever. It still struck him that way, even after all the years he had spent as Arienrhod's lover . . . even now, as he found Moon seated there, wearing the face of Arienrhod; sitting silent and still in the vast white space, in the middle of the night, like a sleepwalker who had lost her way. He took a deep breath, relieving the constriction in his chest, breaking the spell that held him as he forced himself forward into the room. He crossed the expanse of white carpet as silently as a ghost--his own ghost, he thought. "Moon," he said softly, in warning. Her body spasmed; she turned on the throne to stare at him. "What are you doing here?" he asked. He heard a knife-edge of anger that he had not intended in the words, and said hastily, "You should be resting, sleeping. ... I thought Miroe gave you something to make you sleep." After meeting with the sibyls this afternoon--after she had stopped the winds--she had come up the stairs from the Hall below ashen-faced with exhaustion. She had let him support her as they climbed; he had felt her shaking with fatigue. She had no reserves of strength these days; the child--or two--growing inside her demanded them all. He had helped her to their bedroom, and Miroe Ngenet had given her a warm brew of herbs to calm her, forbidding anyone to disturb her--even him. He had not argued. When he had come to bed himself she had been sleeping. But he had wakened in the middle of the night and found the bed empty beside him, and had come searching. He had not expected to find her here, like this. "Moon . . ."he said again, tentatively, as if some part of him was still uncertain whether she was the one that he saw on the throne, whether it was not really Anenrhod. "Are you ... are you all right?" Her face eased at the words, as if it were something in his face that had disturbed her. She nodded, her tangled, milk-white hair falling across her shoulders. Suddenly -\\<-v §[\ ^ i w * I 22 Joan D. Vinge she was his pledged again, and barely more than a girl, the porcelain translucency of her skin bruised with fatigue and her hands pressing her pregnant belly, "I'm all right," she said faintly. "I woke up. I couldn't get back to sleep. ..." She brushed her hair back from her face. "The babies won't let me rest." She smiled, as the thought brought color into her cheeks. "Two--he whispered, coming closer, stepping up onto the dais beside her. "Gods--Goddess--" barely remembering to use the Summer oath, and not the offworlder one, "we're doubly blessed, then." Ngenct had told him the news, after insisting that Moon should not be disturbed from her rest. "Yes." She made the triad sign of the Sea Mother with her fingers. Her hand fell away again, almost listlessly, although she still smiled, still shone with wonder. He glanced at the sibyl tattoo at her throat; covered her hands with his own on the swell of her soft, white sleepgown. Once he had believed it was impossible for them ever to have a child together, and so had she. Summer tradition said that it was "death to love a sibyl. . . ." That saying, the fear behind it, had driven them apart, driven him here to the city . . . into the arms of Arienrhod. But it was not true, and here beneath his hand lay the proof of it. He felt movement; heard Moon's soft laugh at his exclamation of surprise. She got up from the throne, in a motion that was graceful for all its ungainliness. He had always been fascinated by her unconscious grace, so much a part of her that she was completely unaware of it. He remembered her running endlessly along the beaches of Neith, their island home; saw her in his mind's eye climbing the crags in search of birds' eggs and saltweed, never slipping; or darting along the narrow rock-built walls of the klee pens, never falling. He remembered her dancing, held close in his arms while the musicians played the old songs. . . . She was not tall, and so slender that Gran had always said she barely cast a shadow, but she was as strong physically as any woman he knew. Strength and grace were one in her; she rarely doubted her body's responses, and it rarely betrayed her. Ngenet had told him that carrying twins was doubly hard on a woman's body, especially under circumstances like these, when Moon pushed herself endlessly, relentlessly. He had tried to make her listen, but she would not stop and rest, even for him--as she had never stopped pursuing anything she believed in, even for him. He could only hope that her body would not fail her in this, but see her through until their children were born into the new world she had become obsessed with creating. Her strength of will had always been as much a part of her, and as unquestioned in her mind, as the strength of her body. It had not been easy, sometimes, loving her, when her stubbornness had collided with his own quick temper. But their making-up had always been sweet, back in Summer. ... "I love you," he murmured. He put his arms around her, feeling the shadows of lost time fall away as he held her close. She kissed his mouth, her eyes closed; her eyelids were a fragile lavender. "What were you doing here?" He nodded at the throne as their lips parted; half afraid to ask, but asking anyway. She shook her head, as if she was not certain either. "I wanted to know . . . how it felt when she was Queen." Arienrhod. "Today . . . today I was truly the Lady, Sparkie." Unthinkingly, she used his childhood nickname. But there was nothing of childhood in her voice, and suddenly he felt cold. The Lady is nol the Queen. He didn't say it, afraid of her response. The Summer Queen was traditionally a symbolic ruler, representing the Sea Mother to her people. THE SUMMER QUEEN 23 But from the first ceremony Moon had led as the Lady, she had broken with ritual and tradition. She had claimed that it was the Goddess's will, that this Change must begin a real change. He knew that she did not believe in the Goddess anymore; not since she had learned the truth, that sibyls were human computer ports, and not the Sea Mother's chosen speakers of wisdom. Sibyls existed on all the worlds of the Hegemony, and probably on all the other worlds of the former Empire. They were speakers for the wisdom of an artificial intelligence, not the Sea Mother. But Moon had told him the sibyl mind spoke to her, not simply through her; that it had commanded her to bring Tiamat the technological enlightenment that the Hegemony had denied it for so long. He had found the idea as unbelievable as the idea of the Goddess now seemed to him . . . until he had watched her today in the Hall of Winds. "How did you do it?" he asked, at last. "What you did today. How did you stop the wind?" She looked up at him, her eyes stricken and empty. "I had to," she said, her voice as thin as thread. "I had to, and so I did--" The thread snapped. "Don't you know how?" he whispered. She shook her head, looking down; but her fingers rose to the sibyl sign at her throat. "Something inside me knew. It made me do it, to make them believe me. ..." His hands released her reflexively. She looked up at him, her pale lashes beating, her agate-colored eyes full of sudden pain. He put his arms around her again; but it was not the same. "Come back to bed," he murmured into her ear. "You should be resting." "I can't. I can't rest." "Let me hold you. I'll help you. . . ." He led her down from the dais; she clung to his hand, but her gaze still wandered the room, which was lit as brightly as day. He followed her glance, looking across the snowfield carpet; remembering Arienrhod's courtiers scattered across it like living jewels in their brilliant, rainbow colored clothing. Gossamer hangings drifted down from the ceiling, decorated with countless tiny bells that still chimed sweetly and intermittently as they were disturbed by random currents of air. They left the throne room, entering the darkened upper halls that were empty even of servants now. He was relieved to find himself alone with her, jealous of these stolen moments. He had thought when they were reunited at the Change that everything would change for them. And it had . . . but not the way he had wanted. Not back to what it had been. Moon was no longer his alone, his innocent Summer love. And he would never again be the naive island youth she had pledged her life to; Arienrhod had seen to that. He tried to lead her toward their room, but she shook her head. "I don't want to go back to bed. Walk with me. Show me the palace--show me all the parts of it." "What, now?" he said. "Why?" She had promised him, after Arienrhod's death, that they would never set foot in the palace again. He had believed her, believed that she would no more want to be reminded of all that had happened here than he did. But she had been drawn back to this place, like metal to a lodestone, as if it were somehow part of the compulsion that had seized her at the Change. She did not seem to enjoy being here, any more than he did; he knew she was intimidated by its vastness, its staff of obsequious Winter servants, the alienness of its offworlder luxuries. She seldom went beyond a small circuit of rooms, as if she were afraid that 24 Joan D. Vinge she might take a wrong turn somewhere in its columned halls and be lost forever in time. Only the Snow Queens had lived here, ruled from here, as secular leaders dealing with the offworlders who controlled Tiamat's fate, never a Summer Queen; until now. But Moon would not leave, refusing to make her home among their own people, among the watchful, peaceful faces and familiar ways of the Summers who inhabited Carbuncle's Lower City. And now, in the stillness of midnight, she wandered the palace's halls like a restless spirit, searching for questions without answers, answers that were better left ungiven . . . forcing him to show her the way. "Why?" he said again She touched her stomach, the promise of new life within her. "This," she said softly, looking down. He nodded, resigned but not really understanding. He started on through the halls, the rooms, one by one. level by level; showing her the places she knew, how they fit into the palace she did not know--the ordinary, the common, the empty; the extraordinary, the exquisite, and the perverse. Light followed them from room to room, at his command, revealing the fluted curves of doorways, the shellform trim that decorated ceiling-edges, the arched convolutions of space and the spiraling stairwells that always made him feel as though he were climbing and descending through the heart of a shell. The imported technology that had once made the palace seem like a wonderland to his newly opened senses now lay everywhere like the husks of dead insects, an ephemeral infestation. Their components had been rendered useless by the offworlders before the Hegemony left Tiamat. But the palace, like the rest of the city of Carbuncle, lived forever, existing on its own terms, on its own power source, as it had since time out of memory. The palace's nacreous walls were covered with murals, with artwork, tapestries, mirrors. The superficial decorations had been added over the centuries by various Winter rulers, but the palace itself, with its inescapable motifs of the sea, remained unchanged. He had lost count of the times he had wondered who might have built this strange place, and why. Now, moving through these halls that reeked of age, he felt the newness of his life, and Moon's, with a clarity that was almost frightening. He showed Moon through what had once been his suite of rooms, still filled with the clutter of high-tech equipment that Arienrhod had allowed him for his amusement. All his life he had burned with curiosity about the technomagic of the offworlders who had been his father's people. He had come to Carbuncle seeking something that had been missing from his life. But Carbuncle had not filled that void in him; not the city, not its people, not the endless imported devices he had ruined in his need to learn. ... He had only learned how well his father's people kept their secrets from his mother's. He showed Moon through the hidden passageway that led directly from his room to Arienrhod's. Moon looked around the Snow Queen's bedchamber, with its panoramic view of the sea, its furniture that echoed the pale opalescence of the walls--chairs, tables, cushioned seats made of what seemed to be polished shell. He had never known whether they were only a clever imitation, or whether on some world--even somewhere in Tiamat's own all-encompassing sea--there were shelled creatures that actually grew so large. Moon glanced toward the bed, with its fluted headboard made of the same jeweled-and-gilded shellforms. Arienrhod waking had been like a vision of the Sea the: summer queen 25 Mother rising from the waves to him; he had never said so, because he had been afraid she would laugh at him. Moon looked back at him, her eyes filled with dark curiosity. She turned away again, suddenly searching for the way out. And stopped, in astonishment, staring at the wall in front of her: at Arienrhod, dressed all in rainbows. A portrait--a painting, not a hologram; but somehow it seemed more real to him than any three-dimensional representation of her, almost more real than she was herself. It was as if the artist had trapped her soul there. Even now it seemed to him as if the eyes of the portrait were watching him, watching Moon, all-knowing, pitying, baleful. Moon moved forward slowly, stretching out her hand until she touched the hand of the woman in the painting, half-fearfully. She stood that way, touching the portrait's hand, as if she were hypnotized. Sparks looked from her flushed, transfixed face to Anenrhod's, which was as pale and coolly prescient as if she had just been told a secret about them, one that even they would never know. He came forward to stand behind Moon, holding her again as she faced the image that could almost have been a mirror. He felt her tremble, inside the warm circle of his arms that were no protection from Arienrhod's memory--Arienrhod's legacy. Finally Moon tore her gaze from the painting, and let him lead her out of the room. When they stood in the empty hall again, he murmured, "Are you ready to sleep?" asking it so softly that even the echoes did not waken. But she shook her head; her purple-shadowed eyes looked up into his. "Where is the room where we . . ." She glanced down at the swell of her stomach. "I want to see it." "Moon, this is--" He broke off. "All right," he said roughly. "I'll show you where it is. But if you ever go there again, you'll go alone." She nodded, her eyes filled with apology. He took her back through the halls, moving against his will, against the flow of time, until they reached the door of the sealed room. No one had touched it, opened it, entered it, since Arienrhod's death. He was not even certain how many hands besides his own could make its door respond. The door slid aside under his touch as if it were avoiding him, and brilliance dazzled their eyes as the lights came up, redoubling from mirrored wall to mirrored wall. The walls and ceiling of the room were filled with mirrors, reflecting back their faces, their bodies from every angle as they entered, multiplying every motion until he stopped, giddy. He had forgotten how entering this room made his thoughts spin. He looked toward the room's center, toward the bed that was its only piece of furniture. The bedclothes were still rumpled, untouched since the last time someone had lain in it ... since the night during the final Festival of Winter, when Moon had come to the palace and reclaimed him from his living death. He searched for a single shattered mirror-panel, found it, its cracked surface dulled with dried blood. His blood, from the moment when he had struck out at his reflection, at all that he had become. He remembered how the blood had flowed, red and warm, proving to him that he was still alive, vital, young; that he had not grown old and died, behind the soulless mask of his face. He remembered how he had made love to Moon, there in that bed, in this room; rekindling their life together, planting the seeds of new life within her. . . . 26 He looked over at her, in time to see a spasm of pain cross her face. He did not know whether it was physical pain or the pain of memory, but she came with him willingly as he turned back to the door. As he resealed the room behind them, she whispered. "I never want to see it again. I never want anyone to see it. . . ." He nodded, hoping that this would be the end of all their night's agonizing reminiscences. But she glanced toward the spiral staircase that rose into the secret darkness above. "Where does that go?" "To Arienrhod's private study." he said. "She never let anyone else up there. . . ."He started forward, surprised to find that he was the one who was eager, leading the way this time. She followed him slowly, carefully up the narrow steps, up through the level of another floor and into the space beyond it. His breath caught; he heard Moon's small gasp of astonishment behind him. The room they stood in now lay at the peak of the palace--at the peak of the city itself. Its transparent dome rose to a star-pointed pinnacle, and beyond it the glowing forge of the sky surrounded them, fired by the countless separate suns of the stellar cluster into which this footloose system had wandered eons ago. Tiamat's single large moon was not visible tonight, but one star stood out among the thousands over their heads: the Summer Star, whose brightening marked their system's approach to the black hole which had captured the roving Twins and made them its perpetual prisoners. The black hole was an astronomical object with a gravity well so powerful that not even light could escape it. The offworlders called it the Black Gate, and among the things they had never shared with Tiamat's people were the starships capable of using such openings on another reality for faster-than-light travel. Through the Gate lay the seven other worlds of the Hegemony, some of them so far away that their distances were almost incomprehensible. They were bound to each other because the Black Gates let starships through into a region where space was twisted like a string, tied into knots so that far became near and time was caught up in the loop. But as Tiamat's twin suns approached the aphelion of their orbit, the unnatural stresses created by their approach to the black hole destabilized the Gate, and the passage from Tiamat to the rest of the Hegemony was no longer simple or certain. And so the offworlders had abandoned Tiamat, as they did every time the Summer Star brightened in its sky. They had taken their technology with them, forcing Tiamat's people back into ignorance and bare subsistence for another century, ensuring that Tiamat would remain exploitable and eager for their return, when it was finally possible for the Hegemony to come back again. They bound Tiamat to them with chains of need because Tiamat's seas held the mers, and the mers' blood held the secret of immortality. They called it the water of life, and it was more precious than gold, than wisdom, even than life itself. . . . He looked down, over the city's undulations gleaming in the darkness, out across the sea. He searched the dark mirror of the water for a sign of life, the telltale motion of forms that might be mers swimming. But the ocean surface lay calm and unbroken as far as his eyes could see. When he could force himself to turn his back on the sea and sky, the room lay waiting. Its rug was made from the hides of pfallas, which were herded by Winter nomads in the harsh mountain reaches inland of the city. Moon moved across the pristine surface hesitantly, her bare feet sinking into the pile as if it were drifted snow. THE SUMMER QUEEN 27 He began his own slow trajectory through the room, witnessing a side of Arienrhod that he had never seen. He studied a cluster of dried flowers preserved inside a dome of glass. The blooms were so old that they had lost all color, so old that he could not even tell what kind of blossoms they had once been. He touched a cloth doll, worn and one-eyed from a child's love, dusty now with neglect. There were other things clustered together on the same small, painted table--fragile remains of a childhood spent at the end of the last High Summer. Arienrhod had been born into a world much like the one that he and Moon had shared in their youth. But then the offworlders had arrived; she had become the Snow Queen, had taken the water of life. She remained young through Winter's one hundred and fifty years, changeless but ever-changing, until she became at last the woman he had known. Arienrhod had told him many times that he reminded her of things she had lost, of memories almost forgotten. He had thought the words were lies, like too many other lies she had told him. He stared at the forlorn mementos bearing silent witness on the table; at last he turned away. Moon was holding up a piece of jewelry, as he looked at her: a silver pendant on a silver chain, with a jewel catching the light in its center. "That's a solii," he said, in surprise. He had never seen Arienrhod wear the pendant, although it must have been expensive; he wondered if she hadn't liked it. He wondered what the necklace was doing in her private study, instead of with the rest of her jewelry. Moon glanced up at him, and laid the pendant back on the desktop. Sparks drifted on across the room toward the solitary, ornately framed mirror sitting on another table. It could have been a vanity table, where Arienrhod had studied her reflection to make certain it was still unchanged after a hundred years and more of taking the water of life. But he saw the telltale touchplate in the mirror's base--the offworld electronics that had transformed its silvery surface into something else entirely. He realized, with a shock of recognition, that this silent room was the heart of the spy system that Arienrhod had used to keep her informed of what went on in her city, to keep herself one step ahead of the offworlders who would have taken advantage of her . . . to amuse herself, spying on the private lives of her enemies, of her own nobles, even of the people closest to her, who were the most vulnerable ... as she had spied on him while he made love to Moon, in the mirrored room down below. . . . He turned away from his own suddenly grief-stricken reflection. "Moon," he said hoarsely, "we'll never be able to forget, to begin again here. We have to get away from all this--memory. It'll never give us peace. I know we can't go back to Neith, but why do we have to stay here? Let's find somewhere else . . . before the babies come." Moon looked up at him. Her mouth opened, but she made no sound. She held something out to him in her hands, and from the look in her eyes he knew that she had not even heard him. He took the cube, saw a hologram of a child inside it, a small girl with milk-white hair, bundled in the rough woolens and slickers of an islander . . . a girl he knew. The child moved through a moment's joyful laughter over and over again, held captive forever, never changing. "It's me," Moon whispered, her voice breaking. "How did she get this? How did it get here?" 28 Joan D. Vinge He shook his head, staring at the image of the girl he had loved even as a child in Summer. He looked up again at her sudden sharp cry--not a sound of grief, but of pain. "Moon--'?" He reached out to her as she clutched her stomach, doubling over; her face whitened with another spasm. He moved toward her, catching her in his arms, supporting her as he pulled her onto the bench beside the mirror table. Fluid spilled down her legs, wetting her nightgown and the rug beneath her feet. "Moon, what's happening- ?" he cried "Are you all right? Moon?" She looked up at him, biting her lips, her eyes glassy. "Find Miroe . . . Sparks-- it's time. ..." ONDINEE: Razuma Port Town "Damme, it's Kedalion!" Ravien leaned across the bar, his heavy blue-black hand catching the back of Kedalion's collar and hauling him the rest of the way up onto a seat. "Has it been a round trip already, then?" Kedalion Niburu straightened up on the high stool, rearranging his coat. "Thank you, Ravien, I think--" he murmured. He leaned on the bar, his legs dangling like a child's over the edge of a seat that was nearly his own height. Being not much over a meter tall in a universe where most humans were nearly twice that height had its drawbacks; among its mixed blessings was the fact that very few people ever forgot him, even after six years. "You've got a memory like a servo. And a grip to match." Ravien snorted, and poured him a drink. "See if I remembered that right." Kedalion took a sip of the greenish-black liquid, and made a face. "Ye gods, right again," he said sourly. "You mean to tell me this is still the best thing you have to drink?" Ravien rubbed his several chins. "Well, you know, we're lucky to get anything at all, what with the stinking breath of the Church Police down my neck all the time. I can get the sacramental wine on the black market, because it profits the Church. . . . But for a certain price, I could maybe find you something special." "Bring it out." Kedalion pushed the cup back across the bar. "I made all my deliveries on Samathe. I'm feeling worth it." "Good man!" Ravien nodded happily, wiping his hands down the front of his elaborately formal and extremely unbecoming shirt as he started away toward the back room. Kedalion leaned on the bar. looking out into the room, absently scratching the astrogation implants hidden in his hair. First a drink, then a room and a shower and THE SUMMER QUEEN 29 some companionship. . . . He felt a pleasant twinge of nostalgia, brought on by the completion of another successful run. Though maybe nostalgia was the wrong word for it. Relief was probably more accurate. He was a legal trader, but the people he did business with and for usually were not. It was an interesting life . . . and half his time was spent wishing he'd chosen some other line of work. He wondered, not for the first time, if he was trying to prove something to somebody. Well, what the hell-- As far as he could see, that was what motivated the entire human race. He let his gaze wander the subterranean room, taking in the reflective ceiling that hid the naked structural forms of someone else's basement. Up above them was the Survey Hall, where offworlders who belonged to that ancient, conservative social group talked politics, gave each other self-important secret handshakes, and generally spent their evenings far more tediously than he planned to. He had wandered through a display of the latest Kharemoughi tech imports in one of their meeting rooms before arriving at the club's hidden entrance; what he had seen of the Hall was severe and stuffy-looking. The decor here, on the other hand, set his teeth on edge with its gleaming excess. He focused on the dancer performing incredible contortions as effortlessly as he would breathe, to the rhythmic, haunting accompaniment of a flute and drum, and the wild trills of a woman singer. This was the best private club he knew of in Razuma, and that wasn't a compliment. There were no public clubs. The theocracy that was Ondinee's dominant onworld government forbade even thinking about most of the things that went on here, and in other places like this. He had heard that all those things, and worse, went on all the time in the Men's Orders that most privileged Ondinean males belonged to. But places where offworlders were welcome, and permitted to enjoy themselves, were as rare as jewels, and about as hard to find, even in a major port like Razuma. The irony was that while it persecuted vice among its own people with a fervor that verged on the perverse, the Church also harbored--and let itself be intimidated by--the largest enclave of offworld vice cartels in the Hegemony. A large part of the local population made its living harvesting drug crops and doing whatever else the cartels needed done. The offworlder underworld made an enormous contribution to the Church's economic and political stability. The relationship was not without its complications, however, like most long-term relationships. Retribution was as much a part of the symbiosis as contribution. A politician or churchman who made too much noise about reform got a single warning--if he was lucky--and then a lethal sample of the offworlders' wares. It was a system which made the cartels' strange-bedfellowship with the Church lords work very well. He should know. He worked for them too. Ravien came back with a bottle full of something that looked to be a decent shade of amber. He poured it into an ornate silver metal cup, and passed it across the bar. Kedalion took a sip, didn't gag, and nodded. Whatever it was, it was drinkable. "Better. How's business been?" Ravien made a noise like clearing out phlegm. "Wonderful," he said sourly. "I could do ten times the business, if I didn't have to be so careful. The bribes I pay would astound you, and still they raid me! But they'd close me down completely if I didn't pay them. At least they've left me alone these past few weeks. . . ." He threw up his hands and stumped away, still muttering. 30 Joan D. Vinge Kedalion shook his head, even though Ravian was no longer there to see the gesture, and went on drinking, searching the crowd for a familiar face. He'd take a few days off and then it would be time to start hustling for another job. It wasn't that he'd need the money that soon; more that he'd need to get away from here. This world depressed him too much, reminding him more acutely than even Kharemough of how uncomfortable human beings invariably made one another. The sound of tinkling bells and the heavy fragrance of perfume made him turn in his seat, as one of the entertainers insinuated herself against the bar beside him. "Ah," she said, running slender ebony fingers through his close-cropped brown hair. "Hello, Kedalion. Have you missed me'.' I've missed you." She let the fingers trickle like water down the side of his jaw. "Then it's certainly mutual," he said, feeling a grin spread across his face. She laughed. "I love you iightskms, the way you blush," she said. Her name was Shalfaz, which was the name of the desert wind in the local dialect. She wasn't young anymore, but she could still haunt a man's dreams like the wind. Her body made music with every slightest movement, from the necklaces, bracelets, anklets she wore, heavy with the traditional clattering bangles and silver bells. She did not go veiled, since her occupation, though traditional, was hardly respectable, and her robes were of thinnest gauze, in brilliant layers like petals on a flower. "My room is empty--" she said. Her indigo eyes gazed meaningfully into his own light blue ones. He scratched his stubbled jaw, still smiling. "Yes," he said, and nodded, answering her unspoken question. "But have a drink with me first; it's the first time Ravien has given me liquor I minded leaving. Let me savor the anticipation a little." She nodded and smiled too, bobbing her head in what was almost an obeisance. She sat down. "You honor me," she murmured, as she saw what he was drinking. "On the contrary," he said, feeling uncomfortable as he realized she meant that. She sipped the amber liquor and sighed, closing her eyes. She opened them again, looking out across the room. "What a strange night it has been," she said, almost as if she were thinking aloud. "It must be a mooncrossing night. See that boy there--" She lifted her hand. "He was with me just since. But all he did was talk. He didn't even take oft his clothes. He asked me to show him how I did some of my moves in the dance, but it didn't arouse him. He was very polite. But he just talked." She shook her head. "He always comes in alone, not with friends. I think maybe he's some kind of pervert, but he doesn't know which." "Maybe he misses his mother," Kedalion said, following her gaze. "He's only a kid." She shrugged, jingling. "He said he wants to leave Ondinee. That's why he comes in here, he said, to look for someone who would take him on for crew. He's been here every night for a week." "Oh?" Kedalion kept watching the boy, not certain why he did, at first. He saw a youth with Shalfaz's midnight coloring, dressed in a loose robe and pantaloons of dark, bulky cloth. The boy's long, straight, jet-black hair was pulled back in a ponytail; thin braids dangled in front of his ears. There was nothing about him that marked him as different from any of the dozen or so other local men scattered around the room--probably all hirelings of some drug boss, from their easy mingling with offworlders. Unease. That was what made the boy different; he looked uncomfortable. It was as if he was uncomfortable inside his skin, uncertain whether it was showing the right THE SUMMER QUEEN 31 face to the universe, or about to betray him. It was a feeling Kedalion recognized instinctively. "Shalfaz," Kedalion said, leaning back against the bar, "would you ask him to join us?" She turned to him, her eyebrows rising. "You wish to hire him?" "I wish to speak to him, anyway." Kedalion shrugged, a little surprised himself. He was not impulsive by nature. "Maybe I wish to hire him. We'll see." He had had a partner when he started out, but they had gone their separate ways a while ago. Smuggling was a business that took its toll on the nerves, and after a while they had gotten on each other's too much of the time. He had worked alone since then, but that had its own drawbacks, especially for a small man in a big man's universe. He suddenly realized that he was tired; and he had never been a loner by nature. Shalfaz left his side in a soft cloud of silver music. He watched her make her way across the room to where the boy was sitting and speak to him, gesturing at Kedalion. The boy's head came up, and he rose from his chair almost in one motion to follow her back to the bar. They had almost reached it when a hand shot out from a table full of local youths and caught Shalfaz's clothing, jerking her up short. She tried to pull away without seeming to. and Kedalion could almost make out her murmured half-protests as she explained that her time was taken. The man's answer was slurred and crude. The boy hesitated, looking toward Kedalion, and then turned back, speaking brusquely to the other Ondineans as he tried to take her hand. One of the men pushed him away. Kedalion watched the boy recover his balance with surprising grace, saw his fists tighten with anger. But he didn't reach for the knife at his belt, only stood with his hands flexing in indecision as the drunken youth at the table pulled his own blade. Kedalion slid down from his stool and crossed the space between them. "My guests would like to join me at the bar," he said flatly. "I'd appreciate it if you would let them do that." He hooked his hands over his weapon belt . . . realized with a sudden unpleasant shock that it was empty, because noncitizens were not allowed to carry weapons in the city. He kept his face expressionless, needing all his trader's skill to ignore the gleaming knifeblade almost exactly at eye level in front of him. "Shalfaz--?" he said, with a calm he did not feel. "You insult my manhood, runt." The Ondinean with the knife jabbed it at Kedalion's face, this time speaking the local tongue, not Trade. "Leave now, and keep your own--or stay, and lose it." Kedalion backed up a step as more knives began to appear below the table edge, hidden from most eyes, but not from his. He knew enough about young toughs like these to realize that if he pushed it they'd kill him; but even if he backed off now there was no guarantee they'd let the matter drop. His hands tightened over his empty belt, and he said numbly, "Neither of those choices is acceptable," answering in their own language. He wondered how in seven hells he had managed to get into such a stupid position so quickly. The wine must have been stronger than he thought. "Kedalion, please go," Shalfaz said softly. "I will stay here." She moved closer to the man who still held her arm, her body settling against him. "Slut!" He slapped her. "You don't tell a man what to do. I choose, not you!" He shoved her away. She crashed, jingling, into the offworlder who had been leaning against the bar behind them, watching with casual amusement. The bottle the man 32 Joan D. Vinge had been holding fell and smashed, spraying them with liquor and bits of broken ceramic. Kedalion dodged back awkwardly as the local youth aimed a kick at him. And then his vision seemed to strobe as the man Shalfaz had eollided with suddenly exploded past her. Before Kedalion could quite believe it was happening, the man with the knife was no longer a man with a knife--he was a man howling on the floor, and the offworlder's foot was on his neck. "Yuu want a fight--?" The, curved, jewel-handled blade was in the stranger's fist, and he was grinning at the fury still forming on the faces of the other men around the table. He flashed the knife at them. "Come and get it," he said. Kedalion backed up another step. "He must be mad," Shalfaz whispered. Kedalion, who had caught a flashing look into the man's eyes, didn't answer. Slowly he began to edge away, taking Shalfaz and the boy with him. "Dopper shit," one of the Ondmeans said, "there are six of us, and one of you. Do you want to kiss the sole of my boot and beg our forgiveness? Or do you really want your guts cut out of you with that blade?" Kedalion glanced back, hesitating as he saw the offworlder's smile grow thin and tight. "Sure." the offworlder said, twisting the knife so that it caught the light. "Gut me. I'd enjoy that; that sounds good. Or maybe use it to peel my skin off a centimeter at a time. . . . But you still have to get this away from me first." He leaned on the edge of their table, waving the blade at them, invading their space with fatal nonchalance. "Well--?" Their stares broke and fell away from the hunger in his eyes. They looked at each other, their bodies unconsciously shrinking back from him. "The Foreteller has shown us that it is unworthy to kill the insane," another man muttered. The blades did not go back into sheaths, but the men began to get up slowly from the table. The offworlder snorted and stepped back, looking down at the man still sprawled on the floor. "You kiss my boot, you shit." The bottom of his foot brushed the man's lips in a not-quite-gentle caress. He shoved the man's dagger into his own belt. "Then think twice about being an asshole in such a crowded room." The Ondinean scrambled to his feet, spitting and wiping his mouth, and joined his friends. "You will die for this!" His voice shook. The others put restraining hands on him, because they were surrounded now by the club's security. Ravien himself stood beside the offworlder, putting a cautionary hand on his shoulder. The stranger shrugged it off. But he only murmured, "Yes. Sooner or later ..." looking back at them. "Sooner or later we all get what we deserve." Kedalion joined Shalfaz and the boy at a table as far from the scene of the fight as possible, stopping only to collect his bottle from the bar. As he went he saw the club's security herding the Ondineans toward the door. He noticed with some surprise that Ravien escorted the offworlder solicitously back to the bar instead of having him thrown out with the rest. Well, the man had lost a bottle. Or maybe Ravien didn't want his private entrance marked by a litter of corpses. The offworlder shot Kedalion a curious glance as he passed. Kedalion touched his forehead in a brief, wary acknowledgment, and the stranger gave him a surprisingly cheerful smile. Kedalion looked away from it, and went on to the table. He poured drinks for himself and the two Ondineans; noticed the boy's stare as he THE SUMMER QUEEN 33 handed a drink to Shalfaz. "You ever see that one before?" Kedalion asked her, gesturing over his shoulder at the stranger. She nodded, still looking as unnerved as he felt. "He comes in often to watch the shows. He never visits anyone's room, male or female. He is usually very quiet, and sits by himself." Kedalion took a deep breath, shaking himself out, and looked at the boy again. "So," he said, somewhat inadequately. "Shalfaz says you're looking for a way to get offworld." The boy nodded, self-consciousness struggling with hope on his face. "I can't imagine why." Kedalion glanced toward the door and back, his mouth twitching sardonically. "Why?" The boy also looked toward the spot where the locals had made their forced exit. He made a disgusted face of his own in response. Kedalion studied him, as unobtrusively as possible. The boy was small and slight compared to the men who'd just left, even though he still towered over Kedalion. Maybe he was tired of being bullied. "What kind of work are you looking for?" The boy hesitated, and then said, "Anything," meeting Kedalion's stare. Kedalion half smiled, thinking that at least the kid didn't ask for "honest work." He probably knew how much of that he'd find in a place like this. "What skills do you have'.'" The boy hesitated again, his face furrowing. "I'm flexible," he said. "Physically or mentally?" "Both." A spark of pride showed in the boy's changeable eyes. Kedalion laughed out loud this time. "That's unique," he said. "And probably an asset." The boy was wearing the long, curved ritual knife all the local men wore, although his was plain and cheap-looking, like his clothes. He also carried a less common state-of-the-art stun weapon, partly concealed by the folds of his jacket. "You ever kill anybody?" Kedalion asked, wondering suddenly if that was why he was in a hurry to leave. But he remembered how the boy had hesitated, confronting the men who had accosted Shalfaz--not a coward, but not a hothead, either. The boy jerked slightly, as if he had been insulted. Most of the young Ondinean males Kedalion had met fought knife duels as often as they smoked a pot of water weed together. Those blades weren't for show; they could cut a man open like a redfruit. If it wasn't for modern medical technology, Ondinee would be depopulated inside of a couple of generations. "I don't want to kill people," the boy said. "But I would kill someone if I had to." There was none of the glazed bravado Kedalion expected in the indigo eyes, but somehow he knew that the boy meant what he said. "Have you killed people?" the boy asked bluntly. "I don't want to kill people either." Kedalion shrugged. "I'm just a runner." The boy's glance searched out Kedalion's legs, hidden under the table edge. "Not that kind of runner. As you can see, I'm not equipped for the odds." For a second a smile hovered on the boy's lips. "Just say I'm a trader. I transport goods from world to world. I travel a lot. I run an honest business. But I can't say the same for most of my customers. My mother, rest her soul, would say I keep bad company. What's your name?" "Ananke." the boy said, looking down. It meant Necessity. He glanced at Shalfaz, and back at Kedalion again. "I would like to work for you." 34 Joan D. Vinge "Do you have any tech training?" Kedalion asked, skeptical. The boy didn't look old enough to have had much work experience. "Some." Ananke nodded earnestly. "I've been studying with the university whenever I can pay for an outlet." He had ambition, at least. Kedalion sipped his drink, noncommittal. "How do you support yourself?" "I'm a street performer," the boy murmured. "A juggler and an acrobat." Kedalion reached into the maze of pockets inside his long, loose coat, pulled out the huskball he had carried with him like a kind of talisman ever since he was a boy. He tossed it at Ananke with no warning. Ananke caught it easily, flipped it into the air, over his shoulder; made it disappear and reappear between his hands. Kedalion grinned, and caught it, barely, as the boy suddenly threw it back to him. "Okay," he said. "You work my next run with me, we'll see how it goes. At least it'll earn you passage to somewhere else. I'll pay you ten percent of the profit when we get there. You can make a start with that." The boy grinned too, nodding. "I have all my things here. I'll get them--" "Relax." Kedalion put up a hand. "I've still got to find us a cargo. And besides, I just got here; I won't be going anywhere for a while." He glanced at Shalfaz. She smiled, and his bones melted. "Just be here when I want to leave." Ananke nodded again, looking at them with an expression that was knowing and somehow full of pain all at once. Kedalion remembered what Shalfaz had said about the boy, and wondered. Ananke began to get up from his chair. "With my compliments," a soft, slightly husky voice said, behind Kedalion's back. "And my apologies." Ananke looked up, sat down again, surprise filling his face. Shalfaz shrank back in her seat, her hands fluttering. Kedalion turned in his own seat, to find the offworlder who had challenged the Ondineans standing behind him. The man grinned disarmingly, taking in the tableau of mixed emotions as if he were used to it. He probably was, Kedalion thought. He was tall, but slender; Kedalion's memory of the fight seemed to hold someone a lot larger, more massive. But there was no mistaking those eyes--bluer than his own, probing him with the intensity of laser light when they met his. The offworlder looked away first, as if he was aware of the effect his gaze had on strangers. He set something down on the tabletop between the three of them--another bottle. Kedalion stared at it in disbelief. The bottle was an exotic, stylized flower form, layers of silver petals tipped with gold. Pure silver, pure gold. . . . Kedalion reached toward it, touched it, incredulous. Only one thing came in a bottle like that; they called it the water of life. It was the most expensive liquor available anywhere in the Hegemony, named for the far rarer drug that came from Tiamat, a drug which kept the absurdly rich young at unbelievable expense. The real thing was no longer available at any price, now that Tiamat's Gate was closed for the next century. Kedalion had never expected to taste this imitation of it any sooner than he tasted the real thing. "Apologies--?" he remembered to say, finally; he tore his eyes from the silver-gilt bottle to look up at the stranger again. "I should be sending you a bottle." He shrugged, realizing that his own smile was on crooked as he looked into that face again. The stranger grunted. "Ravien tells me I should have let you settle your own quarrel," he murmured. "I made an ass of myself tonight. I'm not in a very good mood The gallows grin came back; But then. I guess I never am. . his fingers drummed against his thigh. "Sorry." "Nothing to forgive," Kedalion said, thinking that if the stranger hadn't intervened, even the genuine water of life wouldn't have been enough to revive him. "Believe me." He looked at the silver bottle again, still not quite believing his eyes. He picked it up. almost afraid to touch it, and held it out to the stranger. "Keep it," the stranger said. "I insist." Kedalion looked into his eyes, and didn't argue. He pulled the bottle toward him, his hands proving its reality again, and unset the seal with his thumb. Sudden fragrance filled his head like perfume, made his mouth water, filled his eyes with tears of pure pleasure. "Ye gods," he murmured, "I had no idea. . . ." He passed the bottle around the table, letting the others touch it with awed hands, breathe in its essence; watching their faces. Kedalion realized that the stranger was still standing beside him, taking it all in, with something that was almost fascination in his own eyes. "Join us--'?" Kedalion asked, not particularly wanting to. but feeling that he could hardly do anything else, under the circumstances. The service unit under the smooth onyx-colored table obliged him, spitting out an extra cup. "Not my poison," the stranger murmured. He shook his head, unkempt fingers of brown hair brushing his shoulders. Kedalion started to breathe again as the man began to turn away; but the man shrugged abruptly, and turned back. He pulled out a seat and sat down. "I'm Reede," he said. Kedalion made introductions, trying not to look like a man sitting next to an armed bomb. He poured water of life for himself and the two Ondineans, somehow managing not to spill a drop, even though his hands weren't steady. He stole another glance at Reede, wondering how the other man had come by something like this bottle, and why he was willing to give it up so casually. It was a rich man's gesture, but Reede didn't look like a rich man. He wore nondescript black breeches and heavy dockhand's boots, a sleeveless jerkin dangling bits of jewelry and flash--souvenirs. Not an unusual outfit for a young hireling of some drug king. Reede's bare arms were covered with tattoos, telling his life history in the Hegemony's underworld to anyone who wanted to look close enough. There was nothing unusual about that, either; the only thing odd about the tattoos was that there were none on his hands. Probably he was another smuggler, looking for work, and this bottle was a flamboyant way of advertising his services. Just what they needed; competition. But Kedalion intended to enjoy Reede's generosity anyway. Even though Kedalion didn't advertise, his reputation for reliability was usually enough to get him all the work he could handle. "You a runner?" he asked Reede. Reede looked surprised. "Me? No." He didn't say what he did do. Kedalion didn't ask. "Why?" Reede asked, a little sharply, and then, "You need one?" "I am one." Kedalion shook his head. Reede nodded, easing off. "I knew your name was familiar. Your ship is the Prajna. That's a Samathan word for 'God'--?" He raised his eyebrows. "One of them," Kedalion said. "It means 'astral light,' actually. It's supposed to bring luck." He shrugged, mildly annoyed at having to explain himself. "It seems to work for you." Reede's mouth twitched. "You have a good HE SUMMER QUEEN 35 36 Joan D. Vinge reputation. And you had your share of good fortune tonight." He spoke Trade, the universal second language of most people who did interstellar business. Everyone here in the port spoke it; even the boy Ananke handled it well enough. It was easy to learn a language with an enhancer; Kedalion spoke several. It wasn't easy to make a construct like Trade sound graceful. And from what he had seen tonight, Reede was the last person he would have expected to manage the feat. He glanced at Reede again, wondering where in hell somebody like this came from anyway. Reede looked back at him, with an expression that was close to thoughtful "So 'honor among thieves' is the code you live by?" Kedalion smiled, hoping the question was rhetorical. "I only wondered how you came by this." He raised his cup of the water of life in a toast; its scent filled the air he breathed. The silver liquid lay in the cup like molten metal, waiting. Reede shrugged. "I got it at the bar." "FromRavien?" Kedalion asked, incredulous. "That bastard." He pointed at his own bottle. "He claimed this was the best he had; he's been serving me swill for years." Reede grinned ferally. "He does that to everyone. You just have to know how to ask. . . ."He fingered the expensive-looking jeweled ear cuff that dangled against his neck; jerked it off suddenly, as if it was burning hot, and flung it down on the table in disgust. Kedalion looked away nervously. "Uh-huh," he murmured. He wondered how old Reede actually was; sitting here he had begun to realize that the other man was much younger than he had thought. Reede had a strikingly handsome face, and surprisingly nobody had smashed it in yet. But it was the face of someone barely out of his teens--hardly older than Ananke. and a good ten years younger than he was himself. The thought was depressing. But maybe Reede was just baby-faced; his punk-kid looks were peculiarly at odds with his manner and his apparent status. Kedalion decided that whatever Reede's real age was, someone who lived like that was not likely to get much older. Reede sat moodily biting his thumbnail. He noticed Shaifaz staring at his cast-off earring, and flicked it across the table at her. She picked it up with long, slim fingers that hesitated slightly, and put it on. She glanced at him, her expression grave. He smiled and nodded, and slowly she smiled too. Ananke watched them silently; he barely seemed to be breathing. Kedalion let out his own breath in a sigh, and lifted his cup again. "Good business," he said, offering the toast, savoring his anticipation. The two Ondineans raised their cups. "Good fortune." Shaifaz gave the answer, still fingering her new earring as she lifted her cup. As the cup touched Kedalion's lips, a loud sudden noise made him jerk around. The rest of the room seemed to turn with him. a hundred heads swiveling at once, looking toward the club's entrance. And then chairs were squealing on the patterned floor and the crowd found its voice, the room became a sea of shouting, cursing motion. "Son of a bitch," Reede muttered irritably. "A raid." He leaned back in his chair, folding his arms in resignation, like a man waiting out an inconvenient rainstorm. Kedalion exchanged glances with the two Ondineans, not feeling as sanguine THE SUMMER QUEEN 37 about the outcome. He had never been present when the Church Police raided a club, and never wanted to be. He had heard enough stories about their brutality toward offworlders--that it was even worse than their brutality toward their own people. The Hegemonic authorities were supposed to have jurisdiction over noncitizens, but the Church inquisitors seldom bothered to notify or cooperate with them. A half dozen armed, uniformed men stood in the entrance, blocking it off, searching the crowd as if they were looking for someone in particular. Kedalion felt the habitual cold fist of paranoia squeeze his gut; realizing that in a crowd like this it was monstrous egotism to think they were looking for him, but not able to stop the sudden surge of fear. And then a local man stepped from between the uniformed police--one of the youths Ravien had thrown out of the club. He pointed. He pointed directly at Kedalion. Kedalion swore, sliding down from his chair as Shalfaz and Ananke rose from theirs. Reede looked toward the entrance as he noticed their panic. "You better get out of here--" He was already on his feet as he spoke, beside Shalfaz, taking her arm. "You know another way out?" She nodded, already moving toward the back of the club, with Ananke on her heels. Kedalion started after them; hesitated, turned back to grab the silver bottle off the table. He plunged back into the sea of milling bodies like a man diving into the ocean; he was immediately in over his head, battered by the surge of panic-stricken strangers. Cursing, he fought his way through them in the direction he thought Shalfaz had taken, but the others were lost from sight. Hands seized him around the waist and dragged him back and up. He struggled to break the hold, aimed a hard blow at his captor's groin-- "Goddamn it!" He realized, half a moment too late, that the man was not wearing a uniform. Reede swore, doubling up over him. "You asshole!" He straightened with an effort, holding Kedalion under one arm like a stubborn child. Cursing under his breath, Kedalion let himself be carried ignominiously but rapidly through the crush of bodies, through a maze of dark tunnels, and finally out into the reeking back-alley gloom. The others stood waiting, fading against the darkness. Reede dropped him on his feet. "Go, quickly," Shalfaz said, waving them on. "I must get back." "But--" Kedalion gasped, with what breath he still had in him. "Will you be safe?" She shrugged, her body going soft with resignation. "I am only a woman. I am not held responsible. If I let them--" "No!" Ananke said. "Don't! Come with us." He pulled at her arm almost desperately. "The earring," Reede said. "The stones are genuine. Buy them off. You know the customs." She nodded, and he shoved Ananke out into the street. "Get moving." He jerked Kedalion off his feet again. "Damn it, put me down!" Kedalion swore as Reede began to run. "i can--" "No, you can't." "Goddammit, I'm not--" "Yes, you are. In big trouble. Complain about your injured dignity later," Reede hissed, looking back over his shoulder as he heard shouting. Light burst on them 38 Joan D. Vinge from up ahead, lancing through the mudbrick alleyway between building walls; they collided with Ananke as the boy skidded to a stop. "We're trapped!" Ananke cried, his voice going high like a girl's. Reede glanced up, at something beyond sight, and grunted, "They're high tracking us." He turned and forced them into the narrow tunnel between two buildings, out into a small open plaza; all Kedalion could see was mudbrick and shadows, all he could hear was the sound of angry voices shouting at them to stop. He shut his eyes. Any minute Reede would go down to someone's weapon, and this grotesque ignominy would reach its inevitable conclusion-- They slammed through the high double doors in a mountain of building facade, into the vast cavern of its interior, the befuddling darkness barely defined by the glow of countless candles. Up ahead of them a wall of hologramic illumination burst across Kedalion's vision--a thousand views of paradise painted in light, rising to an ecstatic apex, a finger pointing toward heaven like the pyramidal structure of which it formed one wall. "We're in a temple!" he gasped. "Can we ask for sanctuary?" "From the Church Police? Who do you think they work for?" Reede muttered He dropped Kedalion onto his feet again and hesitated, searching the candlelit darkness. There were still a few worshipers prostrating themselves before the high altar and the radiant images of light. He turned back as the heavy doors burst open behind them. "Lose yourselves," he said. "I'll draw them off. . . . Hey! Police!" he shouted, a warning or an invitation, Kedalion wasn't sure. "Reede--" Kedalion began, but Reede was already bounding away, silhouetting himself against the blinding light. "Gods! Come on." He nudged Ananke forward through the forest of candelabra, hoping that they could fade into the random motion of bodies as people picked themselves up from their prayers and scurried toward the exits. He pulled on the boy's arm, forcing him into the crowd. Ananke followed like someone in a trance; Kedalion felt the boy's body tremble. Kedalion glanced back as people in the scattering crowd cried out, to see Reede scramble up onto the gold-crusted altar, climbing higher among its rococo pinnacles in an act of unthinkable desecration. Ananke gasped in horror, and Kedalion swore in empathy and disgust as the black-uniformed figures of the police closed in on Reede. And then Reede leaped--throwing himself off of the altar into the embrace of the light, into the wall of heaven. Kedalion heard a splintering crash and stopped dead, gaping in disbelief. The image hadn't been a hologram at all--it had been a wall of backlit glass. Now it bore a gaping black hole where Reede had gone through it into the night outside. Kedalion groaned, beyond words to express what filled him then. He stared on again, but too late. Armored hands fell on his shoulders, wrenching him around and into the embrace of a body manacle; a volley of blows and kicks drove him to his knees, retching. The police dragged him outside, with curses so graphic that he couldn't even translate most of them ... or maybe they were promises. Ananke staggered beside him, bloody and dazed. Something was digging into his ribs beneath his jacket--the silver and gold flask of the water of life. Sweet Edhu, he thought, I'm going to die. They'll kill us for this. And I never even got to taste it. A gasp of hysterical laughter escaped him, and someone slapped him hard. THE SUMMER QUEEN 39 Behind the temple, in a glittering snowfall of broken glass, the rest of the police were gathered around Reede's sprawled body. Kedalion thought with a sick lurch that they'd killed Reede already. But as he was dragged closer he saw them haul Reede up, his face bloody but his eyes wide open, and knock him sprawling again into the field of glass. Wanting to look away, Kedalion kept watching as a man who looked like an officer pulled Reede to his feet, shaking him. "You think that's pain you feel, you whey-faced filth'? You don't know what pain is. yet--" Reede stared at him with wild eyes, and laughed, as if the threat was completely absurd. Kedalion grimaced. "Take him to the inquisitor/," the officer snarled, gesturing toward the police ground-van waiting across the square. Reede did not protest or resist as they hauled him roughly toward it. "Take them all!" Reede looked back as the officer's words registered on him. He stiffened suddenly, resisting the efforts to force him inside. Something like chagrin filled his face as he watched the police drag the others toward the van, and saw their own faces as they were dumped beside him. "Wait--" Reede called out, and ducked the blow someone aimed at his head. "Elasark!" The second officer, who had overseen Kedalion's capture, turned toward them abruptly, away from staring at the gaping hole in the glass wall of the temple. "You--'?" he said, registering Reede's presence with something that looked like disbelief. He swore, and broke off whatever he had been going to say next. He came toward the van, stood before Reede for a moment that seemed endless to Kedalion, before he turned away again, his eyes hot with fury. "Let him go." The other officer, the one who had knocked Reede down, let out a stream of outraged protest that Kedalion could barely follow. The first officer answered him, in Ondinean as rapid and angry, in which the names "Reede" and "Humbaba" stood out like alien stones. He finished the outburst by drawing his finger across his own throat in a blunt, graphic motion. "Let him go," he repeated. The other officer didn't move. The rest of the police stood sullenly glaring at him, at the prisoners, as Elasark turned back and released the manacle that held Reede. No one moved to stop him. Reede climbed down out of the van, shaking himself out. He turned and glanced up at Kedalion and Ananke, looked back at Elasark. "Those two work for me," he said. Elasark stiffened, and the sudden hope inside Kedalion began to curdle. "The window will be repaired perfectly inside of three days," Reede said. "You will receive a large, anonymous donation to the Church Security Fund." Slowly Elasark moved back to them and released their bonds, his motions rough with barely controlled rage as he shoved them down out of the van. He shouted an order and the police climbed inside, without their prisoners. The doors slammed and the black van left the square, howling like a frustrated beast. Ananke stood watching silently until the van was out of sight. And then his eyes rolled up and back in his head, and he collapsed in a billowing heap of robes. Kedalion crouched down beside him. glad for the excuse to sit as he lifted the boy's head. "Is he all right?" Reede asked, looking more surprised than concerned. 40 Joan D. Vinge "No," Kedalion said, the word sounding more irritable than he had intended "But he will be. Are you'.'" Reede wiped absently at his lacerated face, no! even wincing. Kedalion winced Reede studied his reddened fingers in mild disgust, as if it were paint staining them, and not his own blood. He wiped his hand on his pants. "Sure." A bark of mocking laughter burst out of him as he looked away across the deserted square in the direction the van had taken. "Stupid bastards." he said. "You just saved all our lives," Kedalion murmured, well aware that the Church Police were anything but stupid; and equally aware that there couldn't be more than half a dozen people on this entire planet who could do what he had just seen Reede do to them. "You don't have to be so goddamn casual about it!" His voice was shaking now. He reached into the numerous pockets of his coat, and found the one with the silver bottle still safely inside it. Reede looked at him, and shrugged. "Sorry," he murmured. But there was no comprehension in it. "Goddammit," Kedalion muttered again, still glaring at Reede as he struggled to pull the bottle free. He unstoppered it and took a large mouthful of the stiver liquid heedlessly. He gasped as it slid down his throat with an almost sentient caress, bringing his shock-numbed body back to life from the inside. "Gods," he whispered, almost a prayer, "it's like sex." "I like a man who knows what's really important," Reede said sardonically. "If you think I was going to miss a chance to drink this, after all that's happened tonight, you're crazy," Kedalion snapped, beyond caring by now whether Reede really was crazy. "Who the hell are you, anyway?" Not really expecting an answer to the question this time, either. "I work for Sab Emo Humbaba," Reede said, picking his teeth. "Therefore the police and I have a kind of symbiotic relationship." "A lot of people work for Humbaba," Kedalion said. "I've worked for him myself. But the Church Police don't scatter like cats when I say so." Reede sighed, and looked pained. "My full name is Reede Kulleva Kullervo. I'm Humbaba's brains. I head his research and development. If anything happened to me. . . ."He shrugged meaningfully. "You know who the real gods are, around here." The name sounded familiar, but Kedalion couldn't place it. He stared at Reede. trying to picture the tattooed lunatic in front of him at work in a sterile lab somewhere, peacefully accessing restricted information, datamodeling illegal chemicals inside a holofield. "No . . ."he said, shaking his head. "Bullshit. What are you really?" Reede raised his eyebrows. "What does it really matter?" he asked softly. As long as he had the power. Kedalion looked back at Ananke, still lying sprawled on the pavement, and took another swig from the silver bottle. Ananke opened his eyes and sucked in a loud gasp of panic. He let it out again in a sigh as he realized where he was, and registered their faces. Kedalion kneeled down and fed him a sip of liquor from the silver bottle, watched his stupefaction turn into bliss, and grinned at him. Ananke pushed himself up until he was sitting alone. "You mean," Kedalion turned back to Reede as the realization suddenly struck him. "you could have done what you did here back in the club? We didn't have to run--none of this needed to happen, no chase, no desecrating a temple, no scaring the shit out of the kid here--?" And me, but he didn't say it. THE SUMMER QUEEN 41 Reede shrugged. "Maybe. But in the chaos, who knows? 'Accidents happen,' like they say around here." His bloody grin crept back. "Besides, this was more fun." "Speak for yourself," Kedalion muttered. He looked away from Reede's molten gaze as he got stiffly to his feet. "Well, let's go," Reede said, watching as he helped Ananke up. Kedalion hesitated, suddenly uncertain. "Thanks, but I think we've got other--" "Other plans? But you work for me now." Reede folded his arms, and the grin grew wider on his face. Kedalion looked at him, and laughed once, remembering what Reede had told the police. A joke. "I quit," he said, and returned the grin. Reede shook his head. "Too late. You drank my liquor. I saved your life. You're my man, Kedalion Niburu." Kedalion went on staring, trying to read the other man's face; suddenly feeling cold in the pit of his stomach as he realized that Reede was actually serious. "You need a runner--?" he asked, his voice getting away from him for the second time tonight. "No. Not until I know what you really do," he said, with more courage than he felt. "I told you what I really do." Reede lifted a hand. "Ask around. Access it, right now." He shrugged, waiting. Kedalion felt a strange electricity sing through him, knowing as suddenly that there was no need to check it out. Everything Reede had told him was completely true. "I don't much like drugs . . ."he said, somehow able to keep looking Reede in the eye. Reede glanced at the silver bottle still clutched in Kedalion's hand, and his mouth twitched. "Everything's relative, isn't it?" KedaJion flushed. "But what I make and where it goes are not the point. I'm looking for a ferryman. I need a personal crew." "Why us?" Kedalion said. "You don't know me . . . I don't even know him." He gestured at Ananke. "You're a landsman--you're from Samathe, so am I. Maybe I'm sentimental. And I know your reputation. I've already checked you out. You're trustworthy, you have good judgment, and you deliver." "What happened to your last ferryman?" "He quit." Reede smiled faintly. "He couldn't stand the boredom." Kedalion laughed in spite of himself. "What was this tonight? My audition for the job?" Reede grinned, and didn't answer. "I need somebody I can rely on. . . . Like your style. What do you charge for a run?" "That depends ..." Kedalion named a sum that almost choked him. "I'll double that on a regular basis, if you work out." Kedalion took a deep breath in disbelief. He hesitated, and shook his head. "I'm flattered," he said honestly. "But I don't think I'm up to it." He glanced at Ananke, watching the mixed emotions that played across the boy's face while he looked at Reede. "Come on, kid." He started away. Ananke followed him like a sleepwalker, still looking back at Reede. 42 Joan D. Vinge "Niburu," Reede called, "You may find it exceptionally difficult to get the kind of work you want from now on, if you turn me down." Kedalion stopped, looking back. His mouth tightened as he saw the expression on Reede's face. "We'll see about that," he said, not as convincingly as he would have liked. He turned his back on Reede, and started on again. "Yes," Reede said, to his retreating back. "I expect that we will." NUMBER FOUR: Foursgate Hegemonic Police Inspector BZ Gundhalinu entered his office as he had done every day for almost five years, imitating the precise patterns of the day before; like a robot, he would have thought, if he had allowed himself to think about it, which he never did. He set a beaker of overbrewed challo--the closest thing to a drug he ever permitted himself--down on the corner of his desk/terminal, on the precise spot where the heat of past mugs had dulled the dark cerralic sheen of its surface. He sat down in his chair, turning it to face the view of Foursgate as he requested his morning briefing from the desk. He always took the briefing on audio; it was the closest he came to relaxing all day. The terminal's irritating facsimile of his own voice began a condensed recitation of the file contents. He marked with a murmured word the things to be brought up in more detail, staring out the window at the city shrouded in cold mist. The windowpane was completely dry, for once; but as he watched the rain began again, random fingers tapping restlessly on the pane, droplets running down its face randomly like tears. Damn the rain, he thought, rubbing at his eyes. It was too much like snow. "... The Chief Inspector requests your presence in his office as soon as possible. , . ." Gundhalinu stiffened. "Hold," he said to the desk, and turned back, to face the message lying on its screen. The Chief Inspector. He stared at the inert forms of the graphics . . . in his office. Gundhalinu's hands closed over the molded arms of his seat, anchoring his body in the present while the room around him shimmered as if it were about to disappear, about to leave him alone in the white wilderness. . . . He stood up, slowly, afraid that his body would betray him; that his legs would refuse to carry him forward, or that when he reached the door and stepped into the hall he would bolt and run. There was only one reason the Chief Inspector could have for wanting to see him in person. He looked down, checking the blue-gray length of his uniform for a speck of dust, a line out of place. When he was certain that his THE SUMMER QUEEN 43 appearance was regulation, he went out of his office and through the Police complex to where Chief Inspector Savanne waited for him. He stood on the muted floribunda carpet before the Chief Inspector's desk without a single memory of how he had gotten there. His body made the correct salute perfectly, habitually, although he was certain his face was betraying him with a look more guilty than a felon's. Savanne returned the salute but did not rise. He leaned back in the flexible confines of his seat, studying Gundhalinu wordlessly. Gundhalinu met his gaze with an effort of will. The Chief Inspector was not an easy man to face, even on a viewscreen. And now the uncertainty he found in Savanne's gray eyes was harder to endure than the cold disapproval he had been expecting. "Sir--" Gundhalinu began, and bit off the flood of excuses that filled his mouth. He glanced down the blue length of his uniform to his shining boots, compulsively, finding no flaw. And yet his mind saw the truth, the real, hidden flaw--saw a hypocrite, a traitor, wearing the clothes of an honest man. He was certain that the Chief Inspector saw the same thing. Tiamat. The word, the world, were suddenly all he could think of. Tiamat, Tiamat, Tiamat . . . "Inspector," Savanne said, and nodded in acknowledgment. Gundhalinu felt his own lips press together more tightly, felt every muscle in his face and body stiffen, bracing for an attack. But the Chief Inspector only said, "I think we both realize that your work has not been up to standard in recent months." He came directly to the point, as usual. Gundhalinu stood a little straighter, forcing himself to meet Savanne's gaze again. "Yes, sir," he said. Savanne let his fingertips drift over the touchboard of his terminal, throwing random messages onto its screen, as he did sometimes when he was distracted. Or maybe the messages weren't random. Gundhalinu could not make them out from where he stood. "You obviously served very competently on Tiamat, to have risen to the rank of Inspector in so short a time. But that doesn't surprise me, since you were a Technician of the second rank. ..." Savanne was from Kharemough, like Gundhalinu, like most high officers on the force. He knew the social codes of its rigid, technocratic class system, and all that they implied. Were. Gundhalinu swallowed the word like a lump of dry bread. His hands moved behind his back; his fingers touched his scarred wrists. He could protect his family from dishonor by staying away from Kharemough. But he had never been able to forget his failure; because his people would never forget it, and they were everywhere he went. Savanne glanced up, frowning slightly at the surreptitious movement. "Gundhalinu, I know you carry some unpleasant memory from your duty on Tiamat ... I know you still bear the scars." He looked down again, as if even to mention it embarrassed him. "I don't know why you haven't had the scars removed. But I don't want you to think that I hold what you did against you--" Or what I failed to do. Gundhalinu felt his face flush, aware that his pale freckles were reddening visibly against the brown of his skin. The very fact that Savanne mentioned the scars at all told him too much. He said nothing. "You've served here on Number Four for nearly five standards, and for most of that time you've kept whatever is troubling you to yourself. Perhaps too much to yourself ..." 44 Joan D. Vinge Gundhalinu looked down. He knew that some of the other officers felt he was aloof and unsociable--knew that they were right. But it hadn't mattered, because nothing had seemed to matter much to him since Tiamat. He felt the cold of a long-ago winter seep back into his bones as he stood waiting. He tried to remember a face ... a girl with hair the color of snow, and eyes like agate . . . tried not to remember. "You've shown admirable self-discipline, until recently," Savanne said. "But after the Wendroe Brethren matter ... It was handled very badly, as I'm sure I don't have to tell you. The Governor-General complained to me personally about it." Gundhalinu suppressed an involuntary grimace, as he suddenly heard what lay between the words. The Police had to demonstrate the Hegemony's goodwill. His eyelids twitched with the need to let him stop seeing, but he held Savanne's gaze. "I understand, sir. It was my responsibility. My accusations against the Brethren's chamberlain were inexcusable." Even though they were true. Truth was always the first casualty in their relationship with an onworld government. Kharemough held the Hegemony together with a fragile net of economic sanctions and self-interested manipulation, because without a hyperlight stardrive anything more centralized was impossible. The eight worlds of the Hegemony had little in common but their mutual access to the Black Gates. They were technically autonomous, and Kharemough cultivated their sufferance with hypocritically elaborate care. He knew all of that as well as anyone; it was one more thing his service on Tiamat had taught him. "I should have offered you my resignation immediately," he said. "I've had . . , family difficulties the past few months. My brothers lost--" the family estates, my father's fortune, the sacred memory of a thousand ancestors, all through their stupidity and greed, "are lost in World's End." He felt the blood rise to his face again, and went on hastily, "I don't offer that as an excuse, only as an explanation. " The Chief Inspector looked at him as though that explained nothing. He could not explain even to himself the dreams that had ruined his sleep ever since his brothers had passed through Foursgate on their way to seek fool's treasure in the brutal wilderness called World's End. Night after night his dreams were haunted by the ghosts of his dispossessed ancestors; by his dead father's face, changing into a girl's face as pale as snow; endless fields of snow. ... He would wake up shivering, as if he were freezing cold. "I offer you my resignation now, sir," he said, and somehow his voice did not break. The Chief Inspector shook his head. "That isn't necessary. Not if you are willing to accept the alternative of a temporary reduction in rank, and an enforced leave of absence until the Governor-General has forgotten this incident. And until you have regained some kind of emotional equilibrium." If only I could forget the past as easily as the Governor-General will forget about me. Gundhalinu swallowed the hard knot in his throat, and only said, faintly. "Thank you, sir. You show me more consideration than I deserve." "You've been a good officer," Savanne replied, a little mechanically. "You deserve whatever time it takes to resolve your problems . . . however you can. Rest, enjoy this vacation from your responsibilities. Get to feel at home on this world," He glanced at Gundhalinu, his eyes touching uncomfortably on the pink weals of scar at his wrists. "Or perhaps . . . what you need is to look into your brothers' disappearance in World's End." THE SUMMER QUEEN 45 Gundhalinu felt a black, sudden rush of vertigo, as if he were falling. He shook his head abruptly; saw a fleeting frown across the Chief Inspector's face. "Come back to the force, Gundhalinu," Savanne murmured. "But only if you can come back without scars." Gundhalinu stared at him. He made a final salute, before his body turned away smartly and took him out of the office. Without scars. The hallway stretched out, shining and inescapable before him. Without the past. He wondered what point there was to having the scars removed. The Chief Inspector would still see them. And so would he. It would only be one more act of hypocrisy. He began to walk. Life scars us with its random motion, he thought. Only death is perfect. TIAMAT: South Coast "Miroe--?" Jerusha called, stepping out of the ship's cabin onto the gently rocking deck. She saw him standing at the rail; still there, as he had been for hours, observing the mers. The sea wind was cold and brisk, rattling the rigging, rudely pushing at her as she came out into the open. But the sky was clear today, for once, and for once the sun's heat on her face warmed her more than just skin-deep. It was more than she could say for her husband's expression as he glanced up at her. He shut off the makeshift recording device he held, and pulled the headset away from his ears. "Damn it," he muttered, as much to himself as to her, "I'm not getting anywhere--" She sighed, controlling her annoyance as his frustration struck her in the face. She joined him at the catamaran's rail, looking down at the water's moving surface. At the moment there were no mers visible anywhere in the sea around them. "When you suggested that we go away for a few days, just the two of us, and sail down the coast, I was hoping this would be ... restful," she said. Romantic. She looked away again, unable to say what she felt, as usual, when it involved her own feelings. "Don't you find it restful?" he asked, surprised. He had insisted that they were both working too hard, after her third miscarriage. Enough time had passed that they could safely try again for a child, and she had hoped that he meant this trip to be for them . . .just them. "I find it ... lonely." She forced the word out; forced herself to look at him. "You miss Carbuncle that much?" he asked. "I miss you." His brown eyes with their epicanthic folds glanced away. He put his arm around 46 Joan D. Vinge her, drawing her close. He held her, his nearness warming her like the sun; but his other hand busied itself with the recording equipment, allowing him to avoid answering her. He had always been a man of few words; his emotions ran so strong and deep that they were almost unreachable. She had known that when she married him. It was what had drawn her to him, his strength and his depth. That and his face. golden-skinned and ruggedly handsome when he smiled at her ... his straight, night-black hair; the absurd stubbornness of his mustache and the way it twitched when something took him by surprise--as she had when she'd told him she was staying on Tiamat, and asked him the question he could not ask himself. . . . She had always understood his reticence, his guardedness, so well because it was so much like her own. But understanding had not kept the silence from accreting like an invisible wall between them. Sometimes she felt as if they were trapped in a stasis field, that they had been rendered incapable of communication, of motion or emotion. It frightened her in a way that nothing in all her years on the Hegemonic Police force had ever frightened her. This was worse, because she had no idea what to do about it. ... "I won't be much longer," he murmured, at last. "I promise you. I'm almost out of recording medium." He smiled, one of his wry, rare, self-aware smiles, and she felt her tension ease. A mer's face broke the surface beside them, startling her. Another one appeared, and another. Their heads moved with nodding curiosity as their long, sinuous necks rose farther out of the water. Their wet brindle fur glistened; their movements were as graceful as the motion of birds in flight. The mers gazed up at her with eyes like midnight. Looking into their eyes was almost a meditation; a moment's contact somehow gave her a sense of peace that would have taken her hours of empty-minded solitude to attain. She wondered again about whoever had created them, in the long-ago days of the Old Empire. The mers did not look human, but the human eye saw them as benign, even beautiful. And they seemed to regard humans with instinctive trust; they showed no fear at all, even though humans had slaughtered their kind for centuries. They forgot . . . or they forgave. She could not say which, because she had no idea what really went on inside their minds. Humans and mers shared a genetic structure that was superficially similar; the mers' wide, blunt-nosed faces always reminded her of children's faces--curious, expectant. And yet the ones gazing up at her now were gods-only-knew how old. They were, in profound ways, as alien and unfathomable as they were superficially like anything she recognized. She watched and listened while Miroe played prerecorded passages of their speech and recorded their responses. Singsong trills and chittering squawks, deep thrumming harmonies filled the air. The mers were a sentient race; their brains were similar in size and complexity to a human brain. The fact of their sentience was recorded in the sibyl net's memory banks, and could be accessed by any sibyl in Transfer. But no data existed about why their god-playing creators had given them intelligence, any more than it existed about why they had been given the gift of virtual immortality. The mers were one more of the mysteries that clung to this haunted world like fog, until clear vision into its past seemed as impossible as looking into the future. But their intelligence manifested itself in alien ways. The mers had no natural enemies besides humans, and no apparent material culture, or desire to create one. THE SUMMER QUEEN 47 They lived in an eternal now, in the constant sea; time itself was a sea for them, even as it was a river for the creatures that surrounded them, whose brief lives flickered in and out of their timeless existence; here today, gone tomorrow. . . . That difference was incomprehensible to many human beings, either because they could not bridge the conceptual gap to an alien way of thought, or because they chose to ignore the distinction. It was far easier to see that the mers made the seas of this world a fountain of youth, one the richest and most powerful people in the Hegemony would pay any price to drink from, even if it meant that they had to drink blood. The silvery extract taken from the blood of slaughtered mers was euphemistically called the "water of life," and if it was taken daily it maintained a state of physical preservation in human beings. So far no one had been able to reproduce the extract, a benign technovirus engineered like the mers themselves through Old Empire processes that had been lost to time. The technovirus quickly died outside the body of its original host, no matter how carefully it was maintained; as the mers themselves died, if they were separated from their own kind and shipped off world. But a reliable supply of the water of life was needed to satisfy a constant demand. Arienrhod had provided it, as had all the Snow Queens before her, by allowing the mers to be hunted; the Winters had reaped the rewards, growing fat off the flow of trade, and countless mers had died. But now at last Summer had come again. The offworlders had gone, taking their insatiable greed with them. The mers would have an inviolate space of time in which to replenish their numbers, with painful slowness, righting the unspeakable wrong their creators had done them. One of the mers ducked back under the water's surface, abruptly disappearing from the conversation Miroe had been attempting to carry on. The two who remained glanced at each other, looked up at him; then one by one they sank out of sight, whistling trills that might have been farewells or simply meaningless noise. Miroe leaned over the rail, staring down at the suddenly empty sea. He swore in frustration and incomprehension. "What the hell--? Why did they just leave like that?" Jerusha shrugged. "Did you say something that made them angry?" "No," he snapped, with pungent irritation, "I didn't. I know that much about their speech, after this long, and it's all recorded--" He had been fascinated by the mers since long before she met him, before either one of them had been certain that the mers were an intelligent race. When she first encountered him he had been dealing with techrunners, buying embargoed equipment that helped him interfere with the Snow Queen's hunts. He had believed in the mers' intelligence even before Moon Dawntreader told him the truth in sibyl Transfer. He had been trying for years to decode what seemed to be their tonal speech, because mers were unable to form human speech. "Maybe the conversation bored them," Jerusha said. Miroe turned toward her; but his frown of annoyance faded. He looked down at the water again. "I almost think you're right," he murmured. "Damn it! After all this time, I don't understand them any better than I did twenty years ago." He shut off his recorder roughly. "They don't want to talk, all they want to do is sing. The harmonic structures are there, it's logical and patterned. But there's no sense to it. It's just noise." He had isolated sequences that signified specific objects or actions to the mers; 48 Joan D. Vinge but those were few and far between in the recordings he had made. What the Tiamatans called mersong was beautiful in the abstract, its interrelationship of tones and sounds incredibly complex and subtle. The mers seemed to spend most of their time repeating passages of songs, as if they were reciting oral history, teaching it to their young, preserving it for their descendants. But the coherent patterns of sound had no symbolic content that he had been able to discover. The mers seemed to have no interest in conversation, in give and take, except to express the most basic aspects of their life. . . . "But isn't conversation, communication what language is/or--'.'" he demanded of the empty water. "Otherwise, what's the point? Why have such a complex, structured system, if they don't use it to expand their knowledge, or to change their lives?" "They are aliens," she reminded him gently. "Whoever made them, made them something new. Maybe the meaning of it all died with their creators, just like the meaning of Carbuncle." He shook his head, looking toward the mers at rest on the distant shore. "If we could only teach them to communicate willingly, we'd have proof of their intelligence that no one could ignore, proof that would force the Hegemony to leave them in peace. If we could even just find how to make a warning clear to them, they could escape the Hunt--" His hands fisted, as memory became obsession. "Miroe ..." she said, taking his arm, trying to lead him away. "Moon should be doing more to solve this problem." He freed himself almost unthinkingly from her hold; she stepped back, away from him. "She told me the mers' survival would be her life's work, when she became Queen. ..." "She believes that building up Tiamat's economy before the Hegemony returns will help both us and the mers," Jerusha said, a little sharply. "You know that. You're helping her do it. Sparks has been doing studies for her with the data we've provided on the mers; maybe you should talk to him about it, get some kind of dialogue going. He might have some fresh insight--" "Not him," Miroe said flatly. She looked at him. "You know why." He frowned, glancing away at the shore. "You, of all people. You saw what he did. You know it's his fault that we had to come out here like this, that we can't be back at the plantation observing a mer colony. ..." Because Sparks Dawntreader had killed them all. She looked up at the sky, remembering another sky--how she had been certain that any moment it would crack and fall in on them, that day nearly eight years ago at Winter's end, when they stood on the blood-soaked beach together, witnesses to Arienrhod's revenge. They had interfered, unwittingly, with her plans for the Change . . . and so she had sent her hunters to slaughter the mer colony that made its home on the shores of Miroe's plantation; the colony he had always believed was safe under his protection. But her hunters had killed them all. led by a man who bore a ritual name, who wore a ritual mask and dressed in black to protect his real identity; Starbuck, he was called, her henchman, her lover. . . . And at Winter's end, the man wearing the ritual mask had been Sparks Dawntreader. Jerusha had never seen a mer before that day. That day she saw nearly a hundred of them, lying on the beach, their throats cut, drained of their precious blood--and then, by a final bitter twist of fate, stripped of their skins by a passing band of Winter THE SUMMER QUEEN 49 nomads. She saw a hundred corpses, mutilated, violated; soulless mounds of flesh left to rot on the beach and be picked bare by scavengers. But she had not really seen a mer that day either, or understood the true impact of the tragedy, the depth of grief felt by the man who stood beside her. It was not until she had seen living mers, in motion, in the sea; until she had heard the siren call of the mersong, or discovered depths of peace in their eyes. . . . Then she had finally understood the hideous reality of the Hunt, the obscenity of the water of life. And then she had understood why Miroe would not, could not, forgive Sparks Dawntreader--a Summer, a child of the Sea--for becoming Arienrhod's creature . . . Arienrhod's Starbuck. She glanced away from the mers on the beach, facing the emptiness in her husband's eyes. She released her hands from their unconscious deathgrip on the rail; pressed them against her stomach, which was as barren and empty as the look he gave her. She turned away, starting back toward the cabin's shadowed womb; feeling suddenly as if Anenrhod's curse still followed them all, even here, even after so long. She hesitated in the doorway, glancing toward him one last time. He stood motionless at the rail, staring down at the water. She stepped into the cabin's darkness, listening for his footsteps behind her; feeling only relief when she heard no sound. TIAMAT: Carbuncle "Well, Cousin, what a beautiful day it's going to be!" Danaquil Lu Wayaways glanced up, startled, as hands settled familiarly on his shoulders. The pressure sent pain down through his arthritic back, making him clench his teeth. His kinsman Kirard Set, the elder of the Wayaways clan, smiled in sublime anticipation, oblivious to his discomfort; Danaquil Lu frowned. "Are you talking about the weather?" he said. Kirard Set laughed. "The weather. You're priceless, Dana." He peered at his cousin. "I can't tell whether you're tweaking me, or whether you've simply been so long among the fisheaters that you mean that. But either way you're delightful." Danaquil Lu, who had not meant it, said nothing. "I'm speaking of the upcoming decision about the new foundry, of course." "Then you shouldn't be talking to me about it," Danaquil Lu said flatly. There were plenty of the Winter nobility who were willing to accuse him of favoritism because he was one of only two Winters in the Sibyl College, and a Wayaways; even though the ultimate decision would be the Queen's. He leaned heavily on the 50 Joan D. Vinge tabletop, trying to find a position that would make him comfortable. He could not straighten up fully anymore, either sitting or standing. Kirard Set grunted. "You not only look old, Cousin--you act old. You should never have left the city." He stopped midway through the motion of sitting down beside Danaquil Lu, and instead moved on around the large, tactfully circular table to find a more congenial seatmate. "What choice did I have?" Danaquil Lu murmured, to the air. His hand rose. fingering the ridges of scarring down his cheek and jaw. The memory of his casting out from Carbuncle burned behind his eyes, as vivid suddenly as if it had happened yesterday. It was hard to realize now that it had happened half a lifetime ago, to a dumbstruck boy, someone who might as well be a complete stranger to the person he had become in Summer, and almost as hard to believe that he had been back in Carbuncle now for nearly eight years. He shook off the sense of disorientation with a motion that caused him more pain. Miroe Ngenet, the Queen's physician, was working with Clavally, consulting the sibyl net, trying to recreate some medicine or .surgical technique that would help him. In the meantime there was nothing he could do but live with it. He moved like an old man, he felt like an old man; some days it was hard not to believe that he was an old man, especially when he looked at Kirard Set. Kirard Set was old enough to be his great-grandfather, but looked more like his son. Kirard Set had been a favorite of the Snow Queen--and she had given him access to the water of life. But the Snow Queen was gone, and faint age lines were beginning to appear at the corners of Kirard Set's eyes. Danaquil Lu meditated on that thought, and did not feel so old. At least the physical hardships of life were less severe here in the city. And if they had not come to Carbuncle, Clavally would never have let herself become pregnant, and they would not have their beautiful daughter to delight them, and distract him--and Clavally--from an obsession with his health. Summer had come to the city, and to their lives, at last. It was good to be home. He glanced up again, noticing with some surprise that Kirard Set had taken the one empty seat next to Sparks Dawntreader, the Queen's consort--a seat he would have expected the Queen herself to occupy. But Sparks had apparently made no protest, and Kirard Set smiled in satisfaction, folding his hands on the tabletop. "Damnation!" Danaquil Lu glanced up again as someone else dropped into the seat beside him. Borah Clearwater sat snorting like a klee through the thick white brush of his mustache, rumbling ominously. Danaquil Lu pressed his lips together, controlling his smile as the older man slowly got himself under control. Borah Clearwater was some kind of uncle to him, on his mother's side, if he recalled rightly; a cantankerous old stone who owned plantation lands far south of the city, and came to Carbuncle only under duress. The duress this time had to do with the Wayaways clan; Kirard Set had been agitating for an access across Clearwater's lands, a shortcut to the sea, as part of his push to get the Queen to grant him the right to have the new foundry built on a landlocked piece of his own holdings. The fact that Clearwater was here suggested he was afraid Kirard Set would be successful. Danaquil Lu glanced on around the table. There were still a few empty seats. It was some kind of comment on his status that Clearwater chose to sit next to him. and that everyone else apparently chose not to--his status as a sibyl, or his status as an outsider among his own kind. He supposed they were really the same thing. THE SUMMER QUEEN 51 He fingered the trefoil hanging against his shirt as he glanced to his left, seeing that the seat on the other side of him was still unoccupied. The Greenside headwoman sitting across the gap looked back at him, her expression guarded. The Summer Queen had made the Winters accept what he had never believed they would accept, after centuries of being lied to by the Hegemony: the truth, that sibyls were human computer ports tied to an interstellar information network. She had shown the people of the city that sibyls could give them back the technology they hungered for; that sibyls were not simply diseased lunatics, as the offworlders had always claimed in order to keep Tiamat ignorant and backward in their absence. But a lifetime of suspicion did not fade overnight ... or even over eight years. . . . "Well, at least you don't smell like a sugarbath, like most of my kin, Danaquil Lu Wayaways," Borah Clearwater said abruptly, as if he had been reading Danaquil Lu's mind. "And you don't look like a motherlom offworlder in plastic clothes. Drown me if I wouldn't rather sit with lunatics and Summers than with these city-soft pissants, with their bogbrained ideas about raising the dead." He looked at Danaquil Lu as if he expected agreement, his gray eyes as piercing as a predator's, and about as congenial. Danaquil felt his mouth inch up into another smile. "Me too," he said sincerely. Clearwater grunted, not requiring even that much encouragement. "The offworlders are gone, the technology's gone with them; what's gone is gone. I spent my whole life getting used to the idea. Let it go, and good riddance." Danaquil Lu said nothing, this time, thinking privately that if he and everyone else at this meeting table were as old as Clearwater, they might all find it easy to let go of the past and make peace with the inevitable. But they weren't ready to stop living yet, and that was the difference. . . . Although there were days, trying to get up in the morning, when he could almost see Borah Clearwater's point of view. "Goddamn nuisance-- this damn woman, this Summer Queen; Kirard Set dragging me halfway up the coast for this--" Danaquil Lu raised a hand, silencing him abruptly, unthinkingly. "The Queen," he murmured. Clearwater turned, following his gaze as he looked across the room. "Damnation ..." Clearwater breathed. It sounded more like wonder than a curse; Danaquil Lu wondered what emotion lay behind it. His own eyes stayed on the Queen as she entered the hall, crossed it under the waiting gaze of a hundred eyes; he found it hard, as he always did, to look away from her. He could not say what it was about her that affected him so. The paleness of her hair made a startling contrast to the muted greens of her traditional robes, which billowed behind her like the sea. Her eyes, he knew, were the color of the agates that washed up along Tiamat's shores; their changeable depths held the earth, the sea, the sky. She was not a tall woman, not extraordinarily beautiful, and still as slender as the girl she had been when he and Clavally had initiated her into the calling of a sibyl. But there was something about her, an intensity of belief, the urgent grace of a drawn bow, that showed even in her movement as she crossed the room; that compelled him to watch her every move, listen to her every word. He knew he was not the only one who felt that way. He had seen her almost every day in the years since he and Clavally had come to the city. They had been among the first to join the Sibyl College that Moon had established as part of her effort to recreate technology from the ground up. He had watched her grow in confidence and experience from an awkward island girl into a shrewd, determined woman who won her battles more and more through skill, 52 Joan D. Vinge depending less and less on the Lady's Luck for her survival as Queen. If the rumors were true--and he thought they were--she came by her leadership abilities naturally. But where she had gotten the vision that drove her to forge a totally new future for this world, after growing up among the tradition-minded, tech-hating Summer islanders, he could not imagine. That was a part of her mystery . . . which was perhaps part of her power. Danaquil Lu refocused on the room, on the present, as Moon Dawntreader chose the empty seat beside his own at the table. Stil! standing, with her hands cupping the totem-creatures carved on the chair's back, she called the gathered men and women to order. Silence fell as she took her seat. Danaquil Lu glanced down at his notepad, seeing the trefoil symbols he had been absentmindedly doodling there. His back was killing him, and the meeting had not yet even begun. Days were long when the College met with the Council. He sighed, wishing that he had the Queen's single-minded resolve; wishing that it had been his turn today to be the stay-at-home parent, and not Clavally's. He covered the symbols with his hand as the Queen began to speak, and Borah Clear-water began to mutter in counterpoint beside him. There were several members of the Sibyl College here today, including blind Fate Ravenglass, who was its head and still the only other Winter among the sibyls. Jerusha PalaThion and her husband Miroe Ngenet were here too, along with a few Winters who had managed to absorb some technical knowledge from their contact with the offworlders. They were struggling to become the researchers, the engineers of Tiamat's future; asking the questions and working with the sibyls to turn the net's data into measurable progress. Elders of the various Winter and Summer clans or their representatives filled most of the other seats, and filled the air with give-and-take. They had become the first members of the Council the Queen had established at the same time she had established the Sibyl College. They were already the leaders of their extended-family groups; the Council gave them a forum where they could speak for and vote to protect their clans' interests and holdings. There had been a Council during the Snow Queen's reign, imitating the offworlders' judiciate government, but it had been strictly for Winters, and dominated by the self-proclaimed nobility who were Arienrhod's favorites. There had never been a Council with Summers on it too, and usually the Summers and Winters mixed like oil and water. He was relieved to see that Capella Goodventure was not here today; he did not recognize the woman whom she had sent as her replacement. It surprised him that she was not here herself. She rarely missed the opportunity to object to any new project the Sibyl College or the Queen proposed. Making use of the sibyl network and its vast resources of knowledge, the Queen had begun planting the seeds of progress everywhere--and already they were sprouting, like spring grass pushing up through the snow. New resources, new methods of production, new tools and new comforts had already rewarded the hard work of Tiamat's people. It was only the beginning, but already the promise of what the next century could hold was a more tangible incentive to most people than the Queen's constant insistence that they would--must--make themselves technologically independent, so that when the offworlders returned Tiamat could meet them as an equal. The Winters embraced most of her proposals with an enthusiasm that made up for the Summers' reluctance. Often they were eager to a fault, vying for the THE SUMMER QUEEN 53 opportunity to exploit the mineral rights of their plantations, or have new laboratories and prototype manufactories constructed there. Today they were pressing the Queen for a decision on building a dam and power station north of the city. ". . . that it would allow us to progress much faster if we have adequate power for the new factories--" Gaddon Overhill was saying, speaking with staccato urgency, as usual. "And it won't foul the air or pollute the seas--" "But a dam will flood lands--mostly Summer lands--that are used for farming and herding," Dal Windward objected. Overhill waved a hand dismissively. "Those lands are scarcely fit to support either crops or grazing. Small loss." "To you. maybe. Winter!" the Goodventure representative said. "Someone has to provide food for all you fools while you neglect your own plantations, to play with your new inventions." "Stick to the sea, then, that you Summers love so much," Sewa Stormprince answered. " 'The Sea will provide,' as you always like to say. And this won't pollute it." "The Sibyl College has consulted the net on the matter." The Queen raised her voice to silence them, as she frequently had to do. The Summers resisted rules of order, and the Winters would not let the Summers outshout them. "Danaquil Lu Wayaways will give you its findings." "Rubbish and lunacy," Borah Clearwater muttered, to the room at large. Danaquil Lu took a deep breath, and a last look at his prepared notes, before he lifted his eyes to the expectant faces of the Council. "The data received in Transfer from the sibyl net indicate that such a project is unfeasible, for a number of reasons--" He pressed on, through suddenly rising protests. "The primary reason we have for recommending against the dam project is that it would, as the Summers claim, render a substantial amount of land unavailable. On top of that, our ability to construct such a dam with complete safety, even with blueprints and material specifications provided by the net, is uncertain at this point in our development. It has to function not only through the relatively mild weather of High Summer, when free-flowing water is plentiful, but also the intense and extended cold of High Winter, when everything is frozen. We don't have a great margin for error, unlike a lot of worlds--" "Lady and all the gods," Overhill interrupted. "How are we ever going to get past 'this point' if we don't take some chances'." "The sibyl mind is guiding us." The Queen cut him off almost sharply; something she would not have had the confidence to do two or three years ago. She had become surer in her leadership as she had grown used to being Queen; and as it became clear to everyone that the sibyl net, which she relied on as faithfully as if it really were the Sea Mother's voice, was as omniscient as any goddess when it came to what was wisdom or folly for her people. "It has shown us that our world is barely habitable, by the standards of most worlds human beings live on. We must make technological progress if we are ever to have an easier, safer life here. But we still have nearly a century before the Hegemony returns, and the sibyl mind is showing us the straightest. swiftest course to our future. Without its guidance, we would not have achieved a tenth of what we have done so far. We have to trust it, or we'll end up destroying our world, instead. Therefore, in this matter I support the Summers." 54 Joan D. Vinge "Then where will we get a new source of energy for our manufactories?" Overhill demanded. "If you will let Danaquil Lu Wayaways finish his report," the Queen said, with faint impatience, "then you will see that there are alternative solutions." Overhill settled back into his seat, into silence, as she glanced at Danaquil Lu, "An alternative method of generating power has been offered to us," Danaquil Lu went on, at her nod. "It involves using wind-driven turbines, which can be put up in the fields and on hillsides without spoiling them tor grazing or farming. The wind will provide all the energy we'll need for the next decade or so, and by then we may be able to construct tide-driven turbines, and take our power directly from the sea. Carbuncle gets its power that way, and its system has worked perfectly for centuries, ..." "You're talking about windmills?" Abbo Win Graymount said. "I've seen one power a pump once or twice, but they could never produce the kind of energy we need to run factories--not if you had half a million of them!" "You've never seen one with this design," Miroe Ngenet broke in. "I've used them on my plantation for years. They're far more efficient than anything you've ever seen." Graymount shrugged, dubious. "We will begin developing detailed plans for the wind-power project, and discuss location sites and materials at our next meeting. We may be able to make use of supplies left behind by the offworlders in some of the city warehouses," the Queen said, looking relieved as the hubbub of discussion faded to murmured speculation among the Winters, grudging silence among the Summers. Borah Clearwater muttered under his breath as Danaquil Lu settled into a more comfortable position, relieved to be done with his command performance. He was content to let the Queen's other advisors handle all further topics of discussion and debate. He sat, half-listening, half preoccupied by his own pain, through a seemingly endless litany of old versus new. Kirard Set, who had sat waiting with serene anticipation all the while Borah Clearwater simmered, spoke up at last, inquiring with subtle confidence whether the Queen had considered the matter of his bid for the latest refining operation, and the right-of-way across the Clearwater lands. The Queen nodded. "Yes, Elder Wayaways," she said, shuffling through her sheaf of handwritten notes. "Your site seems ideal for the foundry, especially since its location is so close to the source of iron ore. Your offer to fund the initial construction work is very generous. I don't see any significant obstacles to granting your request. Does the Clearwater elder have any objection to granting the needed right of way . . . '?" She glanced around the table. Danaquil Lu was not certain that whoever represented the Clearwater clan was even present. "I have an objection, damn it!" Borah Clearwater loomed up suddenly beside him, glaring at Kirard Set. "It's my plantation, and by all the gods, 1 won't have any Wayaways touching so much as a speck of dust on it!" He turned toward the Queen as he spoke, bellowing as if she were halfway across the planet, and not almost next to him. Danaquil Lu covered his ears. The Queen looked up at him with a mixture of alarm and disbelief. "But all that he requested was an easement--" "Today! And tomorrow he'll bribe you into-- Get your hands off me!" The last THE SUMMER QUEEN 55 was directed toward the two city constables who had come in, at Jerusha PalaThion's summons, from their post outside the door. They took his arms and led him forcibly out of the room, still protesting loudly. Danaquil Lu let his hands fall into his lap. He shook his head, meeting the Queen's astonished stare as the room around them rippled with relieved laughter. She looked away from him again, toward Kirard Set. "Your request is granted, Elder Wayaways," she said, with apparent calm and something like satisfaction. Kirard Set smiled, nodding his head in what appeared to be grateful acknowledgment. But Danaquil Lu caught the gleam of knowing amusement in his eyes as he looked at the Queen, a secret assumption of complicity that the Queen's expression did not return, or even seem to register. Danaquil Lu looked away, glancing toward the empty doorway. It seemed to him that he still heard Borah Clearwater's voice echoing through the halls of the Sibyl College. He pushed to his feet, slowly and awkwardly. Murmuring his apologies to the Queen, he left the Council chamber by the same exit. TIAMAT: Carbuncle "Motherless blasphemer!" The shout came at her from some shadowed doorway. A fishhead came with it, thudding against her shoulder. Moon Dawntreader stopped walking and turned back, her eyes burning. "Come out!" Her voice echoed along the almost-deserted street. "If you have a criticism, say it to my face!" But whoever had hurled the insult and the fishhead stayed hidden. "Lady--?" Jerusha PalaThion asked the question with her motion as she unslung the rifle from her shoulder. She glanced toward the silent buildings gazing back at them with empty eyes. Moon shook her head, putting her hand on the gun. "What is it. Moon?" Fate Ravenglass turned toward their voices, her own empty eyes moving restlessly, blindly. "Nothing, Fate," Moon murmured. "Just some stinking Summer with fish for brains, losing their mind," Tor Starhiker, the fourth woman in their party, said sourly. She took the blind woman's arm, guiding her steps as they started on again. Moon raised her hand, pulling down the smile that unexpectedly tried to turn up the corners of her mouth. "The Summers have every right to criticize me. Tor." She felt the smile disappear. "They are my people. Don't insult them for it . . . at least 56 loan D. Vinge not in my hearing." She looked down, fingered the trefoil pendant that hung like a star against the dappled greens of her robes. "Even when they deserve it." The stench of rotten fish filled her nose, as inescapable as doubt, or truth. She glanced at the women who surrounded her. There was not a Summer among them. She was not the Queen her people had expected when she was chosen at the Change. And she was not the Lady they wanted--a symbolic avatar of the Sea Mother, who would preside over their sacred rituals and safeguard their cherished traditions. They had not asked for a Queen who needed and wielded real power, one who believed that the ways of offworlders were superior to the ways which had served them for centuries ... a Lady who did not even believe in the Goddess. They went on in silence until they reached the mouth of Olivine Alley, one of the countless labyrinthine ways that branched off the rising spiral of the Street, honeycombing the ancient shellform city of Carbuncle. Moon looked down at her feet, shod in soft leather, moving over the smooth surface of the pavement. The pavement was made from some material that never seemed to decay, no matter how many footsteps, wheels, treads, or burdens passed over its uniform surface. She looked back down the alley, as they turned into the Street, taking a final look at the Sibyl College, where they studied and labored day after day to unlock the secrets of technology. She could still see the alley's end, where the transparent storm walls let in the sunset, the last light of another day. The meeting with the Council had made this day run even longer than most. One more day was gone in which she had not accomplished all she had hoped to; but still they were one day further along the path to real knowledge, the way to her world's future. She began to walk again, feeling her weariness grow as they made their way on up the Street. "This is where we get off. folks." Tor Starhiker's voice startled her out of her reverie, and she nodded. "Rest well. Fate," she murmured. "We have a long way to go tomorrow. Good night, Tor." Their answers were equally subdued, as if her mood had spread to them all. She went on with Jerusha at her side, her head still echoing with the arguments of Winters and Summers, and with doubt. Tor stood beside Fate with a hand resting on her arm, and watched the Summer Queen go on her way toward the palace at Street's End. "Must have been a rough one," she said, as much to herself as to the woman beside her. "About as usual," Fate answered, with a sigh. "Council days are always a trial. The ex-nobility's eagerness to build a new world is matched only by their eagerness to be the first and richest in it. . . . They argue endlessly with the Summers, as if everything were some court pettiness over who was the Snow Queen's favorite this week. They don't seem to realize that Moon is not the old Queen--" "Well, she looks just like her." Tor said bluntly. Fate sighed again, as they started on down the alleyway toward her empty shop. "Yes, I remember. . . ." Tor looked at her. While the Snow Queen ruled. Fate had possessed vision of a sort, using imported sensors; she had been an artist, a professional maskmaker, the one chosen to make the Summer Queen's mask for the final Festival , . . the one who had placed it on Moon Dawntreader's head. But her vision had gone with the offworlders, like so much else that had made both their lives bearable. Now at least Fate had found a new life in the Sibyl College. THE SUMMER QUEEN 57 And Tor. who had been her acquaintance for many years, had made a new life of a sort as her assistant. But the vacant trances of sibyls, the endless questions that were all but meaningless to her, the stupid wrangling among stupid aristos, still left her feeling cast-adrift. She was glad enough to go on sharing in the lives of the powerful and important people whose destiny she had been sucked into during the Change; what they believed and what they were trying to do awed her, and at least they weren't dull. But her own life was dull. The present was still too much like what she had expected it to be, inconvenient, narrow, stinking of fish. She had spent her entire life' before the Change doing the offworlders' work; she missed the past, with all its excesses and terrors. She had almost escaped this future; nearly married an off worlder and gone offplanet with him. But destiny had stepped into their path--other people's destiny--sending her lover Oyarzabal to prison with his employers and stranding her like an empty boat when the Hegemony's tide went out. "Why doesn't Moon get rid of those damned aristos?" she said, feeling irritable as memory pinched her. "There are plenty of other Winters who'd be glad to take their places, and they don't have all the bad habits Arienrhod taught her favorites." Fate smiled, sweeping the street ahead with her cane, a gesture that let her feel some kind of control over her progress, and maybe her life. "Yes, but they don't own most of the land." The Winter nobility may have been called "noble" by default, but most of them had held their positions at Arienrhod's court because they headed the clans which controlled the most resources. "And they're not all jaded fools: some of them are smart and creative and highly motivated. Those are the ones who will end up as the real leaders ... I only hope 1 live long enough to see it." Her mouth twisted with weary irony. "Right," Tor said. She shook her head, thinking privately that they had more chance of living to see the offworlders' return than they did of seeing all Moon Dawntreader's dreams come true. Looking toward the alley's end, she could see the Summer Star now, the sign that had marked the Change for her people and the offworlders too. As their farewell gesture before leaving, the offworlders had sent down a beam of high frequency energy that fried the fragile components in every single piece of equipment they had left behind, including Fate's vision sensors. Since they had blocked the development of any local technological base, nothing could be repaired. Then they had gone, secure in the knowledge that the technophobic Summers would move north into the Winters' territory, as they had done since the beginning of their days on this world. The Summer Queen would lead Tiamat's people back--willingly or not--into the traditional ways that had meant their survival for centuries before the offworlders ever set foot here; keeping things stagnant and secure, until the Hegemony could return. Moon Dawntreader meant to change all that. Tor's admiration for the Queen's goals was matched only by her scepticism about their achievability. Tor steered Fate sideways, to avoid a Summer striding obliviously down the street with a load of kleeskins on his back. The batch of foul-smelling hides struck her as he passed, and knocked her staggering into Fate. She regained her balance, and caught Fate, barely in time to keep them both from sprawling in the gutter. "Watch where you're going, you crackbrain! You want to knock down a blind woman?" 58 Joan D- Vinge The Summer swung around without breaking stride. "Watch yourself, Motherless! I've got better things to do than teach you how to walk." "Like teach yourself some manners?" Tor spat. "Parasite," He turned his back on them and trudged on down the alley. Tor flung an obscene hand gesture at his retreating back. Fate's hand reached out, searching for her arm; caught hold of her. Tor forced herself to relax, muttering under her breath. She turned back again, and they went on toward Fate's door. "They should all drown, the fisheaters. Then we wouldn't have any trouble." "You think not?" Fate said, her voice gently mocking. "Who would you hate, then?" Tor took a deep breath. "All right, so I don't hate them. They're our cousins. We all need each other to survive. All our sins went into the Sea with the Snow Queen, and now we're all one. . . ." She repeated the litany of the Summer Queen's propaganda, the supposed will of the supposed Sea Mother. "But by all the gods, I don't know who ever said fish was brain food." Fate laughed, and was silent again, lost in her own thoughts. Tor led her on down the alleyway. The Winters endured the Summers' cyclical invasion, knowing there was no real choice. Winters and Summers had always needed each other to survive, and the ancient rituals they shared gave them enough common ground to get by. Her people waited out High Summer with the patience of exiles, secure in the knowledge that the offworlders would return at the first possible moment, bringing back to their descendants, if not to them, the sophisticated comforts to which they had grown accustomed. But even though clan ties and traditional religion had left them blueprints for peaceful coexistence, the culture-wide shockwave of the Change still left them with ugly petty confrontations. Winters who had lost all sense of their heritage over the hundred and fifty years of offworlder rule, and newly arrived Summers, wary unwanted guests in the territories of their distant relatives, still cursed each other and had fistfights in the half-empty streets of Carbuncle, even after eight years. The problem would get worse before it got better, if it ever did, because the new Queen's unorthodox changes heightened all the old tensions. The coming of the Summers was a gradual thing, and that was probably all that saved their world from complete anarchy. In another decade this city would be teeming--in a completely different way than it had been when the offworlders filled its streets, but teeming nonetheless, just like the rapidly thawing countryside beyond its walls. . . . "Here we are," Tor said. She hesitated as Fate found her way up the single step to her door and unfastened the lock. "Will you be all right if I leave now?" Usually she stayed, and they shared dinner, although she knew Fate was perfectly capable of getting around her home and former shop alone. Sometimes after the meal Fate would play her sithra and Tor would sing, old songs about the sea, new songs about the stars; songs with long memories that carried them both back to better days. Neither one of them liked spending endless evenings alone, although neither one of them had ever spoken of it. But tonight she felt as restless as the large gray cat that wound around Fate's ankles, yowling with impatience. "I think I've got to scratch an itch tonight." "Yes, I'll be fine." Fate nodded. She leaned down to pick up the cat, stroking its fur. scratching it fondly under the chin. "I think Malkin and I only want to sleep THE SUMMER QUEEN 59 tonight, anyway. It's been a long ..." She broke off, and didn't say what had been so long. "You don't need anything from the markets?" "No, thank you. Thank you for everything." Fate smiled, her sightless eyes finding Tor's with uncanny accuracy. "Let me know whether he's worth losing sleep over." Tor laughed, pushing her hands into the frayed pockets of her aging offworlder coveralls. "It doesn't matter if he is or not, because I don't intend to remember him in the morning." She stepped down into the street and strode away, heading for her favorite tavern. Moon sighed, wearied by the steep climb up the Street, the steep upward spiral of life. They had reached Street's End at last; ahead she saw the wide vortex of alabaster pavement, and beyond it the elaborately carven double doors of the palace. Two guards stood at the entrance, as they always did, by Jerusha's order. Moon blinked her eyes clear of the waking dream that had suffused her thoughts as she climbed the hill, as insubstantial as fog, as inescapable as a shadow: the memory of the dark-eyed stranger who had led her once to these doors . . . who had been her spirit guide when she was lost in this strange city, caught up in destiny's storm. The man who had been her lover for one night, before his own destiny had swept him from her life forever. . . . Moon glanced at the woman beside her, feeling a pang of guilt; afraid that Jerusha PalaThion's shrewd, observant eyes might have looked in through the open window of her thoughts, and seen too much, But Jerusha was gazing straight ahead, lost in a reverie of her own. Jerusha had stayed behind when the offworlders left Tiamat, as much from a sense of betrayal by her own people as from love of her new home. Moon had never fully understood her motives; Jerusha was not a woman much given to discussing her thoughts. But she was an excellent listener, whose friendship Moon had come to treasure as a rare gift. Jerusha was one of their chief advisors regarding the Hegemony's castoff technology--and also her most loyal protector. Jerusha kept the transition peaceful in the restless city, with a cannily chosen security force of Winters who had worked for the old Queen and Summers who were loyal to the new one. The palace doors swung open before them; Moon's footsteps quickened, forcing Jerusha to lengthen her stride to keep up. Moon began to smile, suddenly filled with eagerness, as two small bright forms came hurtling toward her. She kneeled on the hard pavement, catching the twins, hugging them close; astonished again, as she was every day, by the power of the emotions that filled her . . . still astonished, after all this time, to find herself the mother of two children. She kissed their faces, holding tight to their squirming warmth, absorbing the sweet smell of their hair, the excited clamor of their voices. "Mama, Mama, Gran is here!" "--Gran is here!" Their voices sang together as they echoed the words, each of them trying to be the first to tell her the news. "--Really!" "Wait, wait." she murmured. "You mean that my mother is here--?" She had not seen her family in all the years since she had left the Windwards for Carbuncle. 60 loan D. Vinge Now, holding her children in her arms, her need to see her own mother was as sudden and hot as the sun. "No, Gran--" Anele insisted, her cloud of fair hair moving across her face as she shook her head. She pushed it back impatiently. "Gran--" Tammis echoed, pulling on his mother's sleeve. "Your grandmother. Moon," someone said. Moon looked up, to see Clavally Bluestone's short, solid figure framed in the high arch of the double doors, the sibyl sign gleaming against her shirtfront, her own daughter Merovy clinging to her side while she watched the twins greet their mother. Clavally and Danaquil Lu had begun to spend less time at the Sibyl College after their child was born, and they had taken on the task of watching Tammis and Anele as well. "Not my mother?" Moon repeated, her own voice suddenly thin with disappointment. She wondered why--how--her grandmother had come alone to Carbuncle. "We'll show you!" Ariele cried, bounding impatiently back toward the palace entrance. "Come on, Mama!" Tammis stayed by his mother's side, always the quiet one, his brown eyes gazing up at her somberly as he hung on her arm. "Tammis, I'm too tired--" she murmured, trying to take his hand instead. She broke off, as Jerusha swept Tammis off his feet and up into her arms. "I'll take him," Jerusha said, tickling him until he forgot the protesting squawk he had been about to make. Moon bit off the protest that came half-formed to her lips, drew back her hands, which had instinctively reached for him. She watched, resigned, as Jerusha strode on ahead, carrying Tammis on her hip, grinning back at him with tender whimsy. Clavally passed them, leading Merovy by the hand, nodding her head in a formal gesture of respect and farewell as she reached Moon's side. Moon saw unspoken concern in Clavally's glance, and wondered what she knew that she could not bring herself to say. "Danaquil Lu sent word that there is a party being given tonight by his cousin Kirard Set." Clavally's round face pinched slightly. "Dana asked if we would come, to help him get through it. But if you would like me to stay ..." Moon smiled, her smile quirking slightly. She could guess, after this afternoon's negotiations among the nobles, what Kirard Set was celebrating. "Go and keep him company. He's like a man who's been in a swarm of bloodflies after he's been with his relatives. He does need you." Clavally smiled wryly, and nodded. "Enjoy it," Moon said. "It's in a good cause." She looked down at Merovy, at the little girl's shy, wide-eyed gaze fixed on Tammis. "You have fun too," she added gently. Merovy nodded soberly as her mother led her on past. She looked back over her shoulder, still watching Tammis. "Bye, Tammis," she called. He waved, his own expression equally somber, from where he sat perched on Jerusha's hip. Moon entered the palace, looking up at the frescoed walls as she walked the echoing hallway that led into its heart. The first time she had come into this place, the walls had been haunted by stark scenes of winter. Those murals had long since THE SUMMER QUEEN 61 been painted over at her order with scenes of bright sunlight, green fields, the blues of sea and sky. But still the images of Winter seeped through into her memory, imprinted indelibly on her mind's eye, making her remember all that had happened here at Winter's end . . . making her remember Arienrhod, who haunted the very air here, who haunted every mirror. She forced herself to look down, fixing her vision on her children and the way ahead. "Mama!" Ariele cried impatiently. Moon saw her daughter dancing from foot to foot at the edge of the Pit, and her breath caught. "Ariele!" she called sharply, quickening her steps, as Ariele knew she would. "Hurry up," Ariele shouted, and darted out onto the railingless ribbon of bridge that arced across the shaft. Anele laughed, fearless, shaking her tumbled, milk-white hair at their dismay. Moon stepped onto the bridge, her feet soundless in their soft city shoes, and caught her daughter up in her arms. "How many times--" she began, angrily. "You're too slow! I want to see Gran!" Ariele insisted. She wrapped long, slender legs around her mother's waist, drumming her feet. "You smell like fish--euw. . . . Come on, Mama." Moon sighed and carried her across the bridge, leaving Jerusha to make her way as slowly as she chose with Tammis. The bridge was wide enough that, even railingless, it allowed people to walk its span with no more than a quickened heartbeat, ever since she had stopped the wind. Moon glanced up, resolutely not looking down, letting her eyes find the pale curtains that hung like fog in the vaulting space overhead. A glowing mass of stars was beginning to show through the fading light of day in the tall, starkly silhouetted windows. Moon stepped off the far end of the bridge and let her squirming daughter down to run on ahead. She stayed where she was, turning back to wait for Jerusha; to stand for a long moment gazing into the Pit, letting the sharp smell of the sea clear the stink offish from her nostrils. The currents of past and present collided inside her like a riptide, their undertow sucking at her. She swayed a moment, closing her eyes, before she turned and started on again into the palace, her clothes still reeking. She had defied both Summers and Winters, by crossing that bridge and taking up residence here. The past was no longer an option, not for her, or for anyone. It was unreachable in time, like the sea at the bottom of the Pit. She could only go on, into Summer, changing with the world. And Gran had come. She tried to recapture the happiness and excitement the news had filled her with. Tammis slithered out of Jerusha's arms as they caught up, and came to take her hand. She looked down at his hand, so small inside her own, its golden-brownness in such stark contrast to her paleness. She squeezed his hand gently, smiling down at him. "Where's Da?" he asked. He asked it every day. "He can't come home yet," Moon said. She gave him almost the same answer, every day. "Why not?" "Because there's so much to do," she murmured, as she always did. "Well, why can't he do it here?" "Tammis--" 62 loan D. Vinge "Doesn't he love us? Doesn't he want to be here?" "Of course he does." She looked away, seeing the palace walls that Sparks had known for far longer than she had, and which he hated now so much that he spent as little time as possible inside them. She made herself look back at Tammis, and smile. "He loves you very much. He loves us all. He'll be home to play songs for you at bedtime. . . . Someday you'll understand why it's so important for us to finish our work." Which will never be finished: not in our lifetime. "Someday 1 hope you'll help us finish it." "Ariele too?" "Yes, Ariele too." "I want to help." He gave a small hop, hanging on her hand. "I know." She nodded, looking down. "Are you happy, Mama?" She looked back at him, realizing with sudden pain that it was a question which was almost meaningless to her. But it was not meaningless to him, and so she smiled at him, a real smile, filled with the same unquestioning love that she found in his eyes. "Yes, 1 am. When I'm with you and Ariele." "And Da?" "Yes, and Da." She hugged him against her side, looking away again. The Winter staff who took care of the palace and its occupants hovered discreetly at the corners of her vision, waiting for some sign of interest or some command from her as she moved through one vast, purposeless room after another. Their presence still made her uncomfortable, after so many years. She had been born into a world where everyone took care of their own needs, and few people had more possessions, or space in which to keep them, than they could easily use. Arienrhod's palace--it would never seem like her palace--would have covered a small island in the Windwards, and every room of it was filled with strange and exotic gleanings from all over the Hegemony: the furniture, rugs, and hangings, the exotic playthings and ornaments, glittered everywhere like bizarre deepwater storm wrack. She had changed scarcely anything of what she had found here, telling herself that she wanted everything for study, just as she wanted whatever other artifacts of the offworlders had survived their leaving. But in the secret places of her soul she knew that she had not touched them because she was afraid of them, afraid of violating the memory of Arienrhod. . . . Over the years she had grown used to seeing Arienrhod's possessions, just as she had grown inured to the uncertain, overeager attentions of the palace staff; although every time she found herself growing too comfortable with them she felt as if she were startling awake out of a bad dream. A man in the uniform of a city constable approached deferentially. "Lady," he murmured, bobbing his head. "Commander--" He turned to Jerusha, addressing her by her old title, which had become her new title by default. "The daywatch sergeant asked me to report that a person carrying a concealed knife was arrested trying to enter the palace without--" "Not here, damn it!" Jerusha whispered sharply, as Moon froze beside her. She gestured him away, leaving their presence with a brusque, apologetic nod. "What was that, Mama?" Tammis asked, his face filling with concern as he saw. his mother's worried frown. "Is somebody going to hurt us?" THL SUMMER QUEEN 63 "No. treasure." she murmured, stroking his head, hugging him against her. "No, of course not. ..." She led him on across the hall to the wide, curving stairs, where Anele was waiting to hurry them upward to Gran. Jerusha watched the Queen and her children go with a rush of sudden emotion that was almost a physical pain. She turned back to the constable, her own expression settling into anger. "By all the gods, Shellwaters--don't you have sense enough to keep your mouth shut in front of a child, even if you don't have the sense to keep it shut in front of the Queen'?" He grimaced and looked down. "I'm sorry. Commander, I--" "Forget it." She shook her head, getting herself under control. "Just remember it next time " "Yes, Commander." He looked up again, relieved; she felt an odd relief of her own as his neutral gaze met hers. He was Tiamatan, which meant that he didn't mind serving a woman; and he was a Winter, which meant that he didn't mind serving an offworlder. At least when she was doing her job she felt less like an alien here than she had in her old life. "You say they got the man--or was it a woman?" "Yes. Commander. A woman ... a Summer. She claims she heard the Sea Mother's voice telling her to drive out the impostor pretending to be Queen." He made a disgusted face; something in his voice said that it was no more than could be expected of a Summer. "We have her in detention." "All right. Good. Give me a full report tomorrow. And for gods' sakes, try to keep the gossip down." He nodded, and made what passed for a salute among the locals. She watched him go out of the room. A handful of the palace staff watched him go as well; she knew they were already spreading rumors among themselves. It was an irony that was no more lost on her than it was on the Queen that the Winters of Carbuncle were more loyal than the Summer clans were to Moon Dawntreader. Jerusha tried to spare Moon and her family the awareness of just how many rigid, narrow-minded religious fanatics there were among her people; but she knew in her heart that the task was futile. Moon knew it as well as she did. She hears voices telling her the Sea Mother wants her to kill the Queen. . . . Jerusha shook her head. What the hell was the matter with some people--? But then, she remembered that Moon Dawntreader claimed to hear voices that told her to defy her own traditions and change her world. . . . Jerusha sighed, looking back at the stairway, where Moon and her two children had disappeared into the shadowed upper levels. She felt the mixed emotions hit her again, as she thought of something happening to those children. The sudden, gut-wrenching fear of loss stabbed like an assassin's knife. She loved those children as if they were her own; and if her latest pregnancy ended like the others, they might be as close to her own children as she would ever come. . . . But no, she would not let herself think about that. This time everything would go all right-- If she had left Tiamat at the Change, she could have gotten help; but then, she would not have had Miroe, would not have had any reason to want a child. She would not even have had any reason to go on fighting a system that had never shown her anything but contempt when she tried to lead a full life, the kind any man of her people was free to lead. On Newhaven she had been expected to act like a woman--marry and raise children, but live subservient to her husband forever. Here, 64 loan D. Vinge on Tiamat. she had thought that at last she'd found her chance to live as a complete human being. But when it was too late to change her mind, fate had played its final tnck on her. She had not even told anyone that she was pregnant, this time--afraid that making it real would make her vulnerable. She started toward the door, trying to shake off the creeping melancholy of her thoughts; knowing they would follow her home, to the empty apartment waiting for her down in Carbuncle's Maze. She would call Miroe, and for a while his voice would fill the silence and drown out her fears. He spent most of his time away from the city, overseeing the plantation, experimenting with the new technology the sibyls and the Winters were creating daily . . . avoiding Carbuncle, Not avoiding her She repeated it to herself again, less and less sure that she believed it, any more than she still believed that remaining on Tiamat had been anything but an act of desperation. Moon entered the room, at first seeing only the unexpected brightness of the sunset sky through the oval window that filled most of the far wall. Blinking, she found the silhouette of her grandmother's face; blinking again, she filled in its features as her grandmother turned toward her. "Gran--" she murmured, and stopped. How did you get so old? Her memory of her grandmother had not prepared her for this stooped, wrinkled woman, this old woman with snow-white hair and skin so transparent that every vein seemed visible. The woman she remembered had gray hair, her face had been lined by time and weather; but she had been strong and vital and full of life, as she watched over two growing children--who had once been Moon herself and Sparks, her orphaned cousin--while Moon's mother went out with the fishing fleet. . . . It had only been eight years. But no. It had been eight years for her; but she had been offworld, and lost five more years in the lives of everyone she loved to the effects of time-dilation during her transit. For Gran it had been almost fourteen years since Moon had left the islands, following Sparks into the unknown. Joy filled her grandmother's face now, as she saw her granddaughter again, as her great-grandchildren ran to hug and kiss her. "Moon--" She raised her arms, struggling up from the cushioned bench. But as she rose her expression suddenly changed, and she bowed her head. "I mean. Lady--" "Gran," Moon said again, finding her voice, moving forward quickly to take her grandmother's arms and straighten her trembling body upright again. "Oh, Gran. ..." Moon held her tightly, feeling the fragility of bird bones, not the remembered solidness of her grandmother's body; the proof of what her eyes had shown her. "It's me. You don't have to bow to me." Suddenly she felt seventeen again, no older than she had been on the day she left home . . . feeling twelve again, or five. . . . Gran's arms took hold of her with a firm strength that the old woman's body belied, and held her at arm's length. "You are the chosen one of the Lady, you speak for Her," she said, meeting Moon's gaze with eyes that had lost none of the clear intentness that Moon remembered. "And I raised you myself, child. I am proud to have been so honored. You will certainly give me the honor of allowing me to show you proper respect." Moon nodded silently, still caught in the void of time and distance that had THE SUMMER QUEEN 65 separated them tor so long. "I'm so glad to see you," she whispered, feeling the room slide back into focus, hearing the squeals and chatter of her children. She hushed them absently, ineffectively. Gran hugged them close again, beaming but unsteady under their eager assault. "What a wonderful surprise you and Sparks have given me, to warm my old age, to ease the Change for an old woman." "Gran, you aren't old," Moon said; hearing the worjs ring false, wishing she had said nothing, as she guided her grandmother back to the settee. "Are you hungry? How long have you been here? Have they been taking care of you--?" Hurrying on, stumbling through the awkward moment of her grandmother's painful smile. "Yes, yes," Gran said. "A good Summer woman, a sibyl--" "Clavally--" "Yes, she was very kind, bringing the children in. And the--what do you call them, the hands--?" "The servants," Moon said, glancing down. Gran's eyebrows arched. "Yes, well, they were very thoughtful, for Winters. Are they all Winters here? Why are you here, surrounded by these people, instead of our own?" "Winters are just like Summers, Gran," she answered, feeling the prick of impatience. "They're just as human as we are. They're sweet and sour together, just like islanders. They're even sibyls--" "So Clavally said to me," Gran said, shaking her head. "Her own pledged is a Winter sibyl, she said! I'll believe that when I see it." She folded her knob-knuckled hands in her lap, worrying the folds of her heavy sweater. "Yes, Gran." Moon smiled again, in surrender, watching her children climb onto her grandmother's lap, giggling and shoving, struggling for position. Seeing herself and Sparks there . . . feeling the memory start an ache inside her. "Gran . . . how is Mama? Where is she? Why didn't she come here with you?" She forced the question out, afraid of the answer, as she had been afraid of it for the past eight years. She had come to hope that her family believed she was dead, and Sparks too; so that they would never know the real cost of this new life, this place of honor she had achieved. But in her darkest nights, she had been sure that somehow her mother did know. "Moon," Gran murmured, looking up from the two small, contented faces pressed against her, "I don't know how to say this, but badly--" "She knows, doesn't she?" Moon said, unable to stop the words. "She knows everything, and that's why she wouldn't come here, even to see my children--" Her children looked up at her in surprise, at the sudden change in her voice. "Moon," Gran interrupted, her eyes filling with a sudden pain that aged them to match her face, "your mother is dead." "What?" Moon said. She felt her knees give. "What? No. How? When--" She sank down onto the Empire-replica recliner that pressed the back of her knees as she reached out for support. "An accident, a fall . . . about three years ago. She slipped on the quay while they were unloading the catch, and struck her head on the stones. We thought she was all right, but then at dinner in the hall she grew sleepy. . . . They knew it was a bad sign, and they tried to keep her awake. But they couldn't keep her from going to sleep. And she never woke up." Gran's eyes grew moist with grief, and she held the 66 /oan D. Vinge children closer; they gazed up ai her with wide eyes, half-comprehending. "And so the Sea Mother has taken both my children back to Her breast. . . ." "A concussion?" Moon said, the harshness of her voice startling even her. Now three sets of eyes were staring at her without comprehension. "All she had was a concussion. She could have been saved--" "It was the Lady's will." Gran shook her head. "It wasn't!" Her own voice rose, as grief and frustration triggered her anger. "It we had the technology of the offworlders for ourselves, neither of your children would have had to die. Sparks's mother didn't have to die in childbirth--" "Stop it, Moon!" Gran's frown deepened the lines of her face. "What are you saying?" Her own voice quavered. She shook her head. "So, it is true. ..." Her face filled with a different kind of grief. "You no longer follow Her will. But you are the Summer Queen, Moon--the chosen of the Goddess. It isn't too late for you to hear Her voice again--" "You don't understand." Moon shook her head; her hands hardened into fists in the lap of her robes. "Who told you that, Gran? Who brought you here? How did you make the journey here from Neith, if my mother didn't--" "I brought her to the palace," a voice said calmly, behind Moon's back. Moon turned, pushing to her feet as she found Capella Goodventure framed in the scallop-form doorway like a portrait. Her graying braids circled her head like a crown, her face was drawn up in a witch's knot of spite and satisfaction. "I sent my people out into the islands to find some of your clan who might still be able to reach you, and remind you of your proper duty as the Summer Queen." "They have been very good to me, Moon," Gran said, with gentle firmness, "bringing me here, all this way, to be with you. You should think about her words." Moon pressed her lips together. "That must have put you to a great deal of effort," she said to Capella Goodventure. "I'm sure the Lady will grant you your just reward." Her gaze was as cold as the sea. Capella Goodventure's frown deepened. "Perhaps you have already been shown the reward for your heresy committed in the Lady's name." Moon stiffened. "What do you mean?" Capella Goodventure bent her head. "Your mother's accident. Perhaps it was a judgment." Moon felt herself go dizzy as the blood fell away from her face. "My mother's death was not my fault!" Even her grandmother pushed to her feet, leaving the children tumbled wide-eyed on the settee. "I didn't say that." Capella Goodventure lifted a hand, in protest, in warning. "I only meant to suggest--" "That it was my fault! Who are you to push yourself into my life, where you're not wanted? Get out! Leave me alone!" Moon's hand found a smooth iceform sculpture on the table beside her; her hand closed over it, and she hurled it at the doorway. It shattered, sending bits of crystal flying. The children shrieked in surprise and fright. Moon turned back, seeing that they were all right, before she looked again at the doorway. Capella Goodventure was gone. Standing in the hall at the top of the stairs, a Winter servant stood smirking at the Summer woman's abrupt departure. "You get away from there!" Moon shouted, her voice breaking. He turned, his smirk falling away. "Yes, your majesty." He scuttled out of her sight. THE SUMMER QUEEN 67 She stood staring after him. Your majesty ... He had not been seeing her, but the image of a ghost she wore in her face, felt in her anger-- Sometimes they still called her that, the Winter staff, cringing away when she snapped at them, as if she were not the Summer Queen but the Snow Queen, and her anger was as deadly as frost. But Arienrhod was dead . . . like Lelark Dawntreader, the sandy-haired, sea-smelling woman who had rocked a sleepy child in her arms beside the fire, so long ago. They were both dead. And she was the Summer Queen. She shook her head, pressed nerveless fingers against her mouth, as she became aware of Ariele and Tammis clinging to her, their faces buried in the homespun cloth of her robes--their voices crying at her like the voices of seabirds that it was all right. Comforting her, needing her comfort. She let her hands fall to their slender shoulders, felt the tension begin to loosen in their small bodies and her own, as she gently rubbed their backs. "It's all right, treasures," she murmured, hearing her voice falter as she spoke the words. "Why don't you take Gran down to dinner. She's come such a long way. ..." "You come too!" "I don't want to go without you--" The children clung to her hands more tightly than before, their eyes still filled with need, until she nodded. "Yes, all right . . . we'll all go." She looked back at her grandmother; away again from the look in her eyes, her outstretched hand. Seeing her grandmother's sympathy, sorrow, apology, concern, she felt her own tears rise. If she let herself take that hand she would become a child again too; and she could not afford to do that. She turned away, keeping her eyes downcast, watching her footsteps lead her one at a time out of the room and down the hallway, down the echoing stairs. Sparks Dawntreader Summer--cousin, husband, consort of the Summer Queen--stepped silently out into the night-lit familiarity of Olivine Alley. It had been called "Blue Alley" when Winter ruled, and the blue-uniformed offworlder Police had made its ancient buildings their headquarters. He had avoided this place then; now, he almost made it his home. He began his nightly walk toward the alley's mouth, to meet the long steep spiral of the Street, which would carry him inevitably to the palace no matter how slow he made his steps. After eight years he still hated the palace, and so he spent as much time as possible outside it. But always he returned there at the end of each day, because Moon was waiting for him and he loved her, as he had always loved her, and always would. She was as much a part of him as his music, as much a part of him as his soul--the things Arienrhod had stolen from him, and Moon had given back to him. Life went on, whether he deserved it or not. And his children, living proof of their love, waited for him there, among the relics and the memories. "Hallo, Sparks!" Sparks stopped, glancing toward the brightly lit doorway and the figure limned by its glow. "We're celebrating! Come, be my guest. I owe you, for your support with the College--" He recognized the voice now; his eyes filled in the old/young features of Kirard Set Way away s. Kirard Set stood in the entrance to a tavern called the Old Days, formerly one of the most flamboyant and expensive gaming hells on the Street. Now its equipment lay cold and silent, while the surviving nobility of the Snow Queen's 68 loan D. Vinge reign sat among its ghosts, drinking to their memories and tossing bone dice--almost the only pleasures left to them now, aside from conspicuous consumption and sex "What are you celebrating?" he asked, cunous but wary, as he stepped into the light. The old Queen's favorites knew him too well, for better or worse. He became aware of the rich smell of fried meal-cakes, heard other voices calling his name. Talk and laughter spilled past him into the street; he heard someone plucking a mindle with virtuoso skill, and drumming, whistling, voices singing. He touched the pouch at his belt. He always carried his flute with him; telling himself that he never knew when he would find time to practice or a chance to play. . . . But he wore it more as a talisman now, the way a sibyl wore a trefoil; because it had come to symbolize a higher order which music had first revealed to him--a greater truth which music never betrayed. His work with the Sibyl College had shown him the beauty of mathematics and physics; how they lay at the secret heart of everything, including music itself. Every day new facets of that universal order revealed themselves to him. He had begun to study mathematics in every free moment, experiencing a purity of pleasure he had never found in anything before, except his playing. . . . The music pulled at him, suddenly irresistible. He stepped into the tavern's brightly lit interior, and Kirard Set pressed a crystal goblet of wine into his hand. "We're celebrating the choice of Wayaways land for the site of the new foundry," Kirard Set said, and he shook his head, smiling. "She's really incredible, you know, the Queen--" He put an arm around Sparks's shoulders. Sparks resisted the urge to shrug it off. "But of course you know that, better than anyone. . . . How did she do it, anyway? How did she-- But never mind, of course your lips are sealed with a kiss." Kirard Set made a moue with his lips, and nudged Sparks's shoulder. Sparks took a long drink of the wine, imported offworlder wine, leftover stock. The nobles had hoarded it the way they had hoarded technology, before the offworlders' departure. At least the Hegemony had not been able to spoil its wine the way it had killed its abandoned hardware. Sparks sat down at a table, following Kirard Set's lead without comment. What had once been a hologramic gaming array was covered now by a slab of wood, and a tapestry cloth that had originally draped the window of some offworlder official's exclusive townhouse. Sparks studied Kirard Set's smiling face, and wondered what actually went on in his mind. Not much, he supposed. He had always found Kirard Set's behavior either unpleasant or unfathomable. But one thing was obvious; Kirard Set, and a number of the other former nobles, actually believed the Summer Queen was the same flesh and blood woman who had ruled Winter; that somehow Arienrhod had cheated the Summers, the Hegemony, and Death itself to go on ruling her world. pursuing the goal she had sworn to achieve: independence from offworlder control Sparks glanced away again, with a sigh. Across the room he noticed Danaquil Lu Wayaways with his wife and child, standing apart, looking uncomfortable. Merovy was asleep, held in her father's arms. Sparks felt a twinge of guilt, remembering his own family waiting for him at the palace. He had stayed at the College far too long, later even than usual, caught up in his studies. His own children would be asleep, by now. He shook his head, putting down the wine-filled goblet. "I can't stay." He began to get up. "Sparks!" A woman's voice called his name, a hand caught his arm as he rose. "Darling, you can't leave us already. We never see enough of you anymore." THE SUMMER QUEEN 69 Shelachie Fainsie tweaked the laces of his shirt, half pulling it open. He took hold of her jewel-decorated hand and plucked it from his shirtfront like an insect. She twitched her hand free from his grasp. "Aren't we hard-to-get," she said, matching his frown. He noticed the lines in her face that deepened with her frown. "You know I don't do that anymore," he said, trying to keep his voice neutral, reminding himself that in the New Tiamat, Shelachie Fairisle controlled ore reserves that would be needed soon for another foundry. He could not afford to insult her casually. "Yes, sweeting, hut I keep hoping. We all used to have so much fun, with her. ... I don't understand--that's one thing I don't understand. Why she doesn't share you with us anymore?" She turned to glance at Kirard Set, spreading her fingers in a shrug. "Do you have a clue, Kiri?" He shook his head, his mouth puckering with suppressed laughter. "She just isn't the same woman, since the Change." She giggled at her own wine-sodden whimsy, at the titillation of not knowing where the truth lay beneath the shimmering water of her fantasies. "Is she, darling?" "You said it yourself," Sparks snapped, losing patience. "She isn't the same woman. She's my pledged--my wife. And I was on my way home to my wife and my children." He turned away from her, starting for the door. "Whose children, precious--?" The words stabbed him from behind. He swung back, saw Clavally and Danaquil Lu turn and stare, across the room; saw Kirard Set rise from the table, catching hold of Shelachie with a muttered, "Not now, for gods' sakes--" "Well, whose are they, anyway?" she called out, weaving where she stood, absurdly dressed in the clothes of another world and age. "Where did she get them? They don't look like you! And why didn't she give them special names, ritual names, if she got them during Mask Night? Even the Summers say--" He didn't stay to hear what even his own people said. His own people ... He reached inside his shirt as he strode on up the nearly empty Street, feeling for the Hegemonic medal he wore, a gift to his mother from the stranger who had been her chosen on the Festival night when he was merry begotten. . . . His father was an offworlder, and he had never felt at home in Summer, among its superstitious, tech-hating people. When Moon had forsaken her pledge to him to become a sibyl, he had run away to Carbuncle. He had believed that among the Winters and offworlders he would find out where he truly belonged. He had found Arienrhod. . . . But Moon was his again, in spite of everything, because of it; and his children were proof of it. ... Why did she give them those names? They should have had special names. Festival names-- His own mother and Moon's had come to the previous Festival, when the ships of the Hegemonic Assembly paid one of their periodic visits to this world and Carbuncle became a place where all boundaries broke down and everyone lived their fantasies for a night. Children born of the Festival nights were counted lucky, blessed; given special, symbolic names to mark their unique status. He and Moon both bore the names that marked them as merrybegots; so did Fate Ravenglass. As a grown man he sometimes wished that he could shed the burden of his ritual name, sometimes felt self-conscious speaking it. Yet he had never changed it. He knew that he never would, because it was still the symbol of all he was, his heritage. 70 loan D. Vinge It had been Moon's privilege as mother to name their children. But she had not given their Festival-night twins ritual names; instead she had given them names he was not sure any Tiamatan ever used. He had never asked her why--had been afraid to, he admitted angrily, because he knew that during the Festival she had been with another man--an offworlder, a Kharemoughi police inspector, the man who had helped her track him down. Ariele looked like her mother; so much like Moon that seeing her made him ache sometimes with memories of his childhood, of running on golden beaches with Moon, racing the birds, laughing and alive. But Tammis . . . The boy looked like her too, but he was darker than any Tiamatan child should be ... dark like a Kharemoughi. Sparks touched the medal he wore again. His own father had been halt Kharemoughi--his own skin was dark, by Tiamatan standards. He didn't know what the other man had looked like; he had not seen him, before he went offworld with the rest. But there was nothing he could see of himself in his son's face, no matter how much Moon insisted on the resemblance. He tried not to think about it, tried never to let his doubt show. . . . He loved his children. He loved his wife. He knew they loved him. Together he and Moon were building a new life, a future for themselves, as well as for their world. So then why did he feel every day that it was harder to climb this hill? Moon stood alone in the chamber at the top of the palace, at the top of the city--as close to reaching the stars as anyone on this world would come in her lifetime. It was late at night; she had lost track of the time, letting herself drift, 'aching for sleep but without the strength to release the day and go to her bed. She gazed out through the dome, looking at the sea. Its surface was calm tonight, a dark mirror for the star-filled sky. Its face turned back her gaze, turned back all attempts to penetrate its depths, or reveal the secrets hidden there. Only she knew the truth; that the hidden heart of the sibyl net lay here, in the sea below her; that the tendrils of its secret mind reached out from here to countless worlds across the galaxy. Only she knew. And she could never tell anyone. . . . Sudden motion disturbed the balance of sea and sky; she saw mers, a whole colony of them, celebrating the perfect night, as if her thoughts had caused them to materialize. It was their safety the sibyl net had charged her with ensuring; their safety was tied, in ways that she did not fully understand, to the well-being of her own people, and to the sibyl mind itself. She watched them moving with joyful abandon between two worlds, inside a net of stars; their grace and beauty astonished her, as they always did, until for that moment she remembered no regret. Tiamatan tradition called the mers the Sea's Children, and held their lives sacred; Tiamatans had lived in peaceful coexistence with the mers for centuries, before the Hegemony had found this world. There were countless stories of mers saving sailors fallen overboard, or guiding ships through the treacherous passages among island reefs; they had saved her own life, once. But the offworlders had come, had been coming for a millennium or more, seeking the water of life. And the sibyl mind had suffered with the death of the mers, until after centuries of suffering it had reached out to her alone, out of all the sibyls in the net--chosen her to stop the slaughter, to save the mers and itself, to change the future for her own people, and perhaps for countless others. It had forced her to obey . . . forced her to become Queen. And then it had left her to struggle on THE SUMMER QUEEN 71 alone, dnven by a compulsion that never let her rest; to hope that she was doing its will as it had intended. She looked down, focusing on the room around her as the night's image suddenly lost all its beauty. All around her she saw the stormwrack of her life: the projects indefinitely postponed or forever abandoned that she had tried to find time to do simply for herself, out of love and not duty. There were piles of books from Arienrhod's library, most of them in languages she did not know, but filled with three-dimensional visions of life on other worlds that she had longed to pore over; there were pieces of toys, fashioned from wood by her own hands but still unassembled; the unraveling body of a half-knitted sweater; clothes for the children with half the smocking done, that she had never finished before they had outgrown them. . . . And there were the fragments of Arienrhod's past, so much like her own past, of which she possessed no mementos at all. Sometimes she began to imagine that those aged, softly fading things were actually her own; or that they were her legacy. . . She shut her eyes. The darkness filled immediately with memories of the day, reminding her that she had been standing here alone with her grief for far too long. She had not even been down to kiss her children good night. She had been unable to face her grandmother's gaze any longer, one more word, one more look or murmur of doubt. And still Sparks had not returned, tonight of all nights, to his disappointed son and daughter; to her, when she needed so much to talk to him. Her hands caressed her stomach, as she thought of her children and remembered the feel of life within her; the joy, the wonder, the doubt. Unexpected motherhood had given her a new perspective on the future, given her the strength to hold fast to her belief against the onslaught of the Goodventures' furious insistence that she was violating the Lady's will . . . against her own doubts, a seventeen-year-old girl trying to imagine how she would rebuild a world, or even a relationship. She had needed desperately to believe that it was all worthwhile. Feeling the life within her had made her believe there would be a future worth struggling for. She had needed so badly to make Sparks believe it too . . . and yet all the while, she had wondered secretly whether the child she carried was actually another man's. She rose restlessly from the couch, rubbing her face, as the wraith of a dark-eyed stranger whispered through her mind . . . as a strange sensation began in the pit of her stomach, reminding her of morning sickness. She felt as if something were falling away inside her, turning her thoughts around, drawing her down into another reality-- The Transfer, she thought; suddenly recognizing the sensation. But no one had spoken, to ask her a question. She caught the sibyl trefoil, feeling its spines prick her fingers; felt her hand freeze in midmotion as the immobility overcame her. She had been called. The Transfer enveloped her like a black wind, sweeping her away. Blinking, she saw brightness again, through a stranger's eyes--another sibyl, on another world, who saw now through her eyes, gazing out at a sky filled with alien stars. . . . Her new eyes focused on the questioner who waited for her; she felt her borrowed body start with sudden disbelief at the sight of a face she had not seen for eight years, except in her dreams. BZ Gundhalinu stood before her like a vision out of the past, his face weary and desperate, his eyes haunted--as she had first seen him so long ago, in the white wilderness of Winter. . . . The man whose need had become her salvation; who 72 Joan D. Vinge had become her sea anchor, her guide . . . her unexpected lover, for one night outside of time. Who had gone away with the rest of the offworlders at the Final Departure, without betraying her secrets. Leaving her to the future he had helped her win, to the man he had helped her win back; leaving her . . . "Moon?" he murmured, his hand reaching out. "is it really you?" His fingers brushed her cheek; his dark eyes searched her own wonderingly, as if he were witnessing a miracle "Yes ..." she whispered, feeling her captive body straining with the need to touch him, to prove his own reality. "BZ!" She saw him start and smile as she spoke his name. How did you bring me here? Where are you? What's \vrong-- "What do you . . . want of me?" She forced the words out between numb, unresponsive lips: the only words the Transfer would let her speak to the man she had not seen in so long. "Please . . . give me more information?" He licked cracked, bloody lips, and mumbled something she could not understand. "I'm . . . I'm here. On Number Four. A place called Fire Lake." He ran his fingers through the filthy tangle of his hair. "I need help. Something gets into my head all the time, and . . ."He broke off, wiping his hand across his mouth, shaking his head violently, as if he could shake free the thing that was inside his eyes. "I'm a sibyl, Moon! Someone infected me, the woman who sees me now for you. She wasn't meant to be a sibyl. . . . She's out of her mind." He swallowed visibly. "And I think ... I think I am too. I'm trapped here, I can't get help from anyone else. Tell me how you control the Transfer! Every time 1 hear a question--" His voice broke, and she saw naked despair in his eyes. "A sibyl ..." Her disbelief became empathy as she remembered her own initiation, how the bioengineered virus had spread through her system like wildfire-- how much greater her disorientation and terror would have been if no one had been there to reassure or guide her. "Don't be afraid," she whispered, aching. "I know you ... 1 know that--" her borrowed hands twitched impotently at her sides, refusing to obey her, as the memory came to her of words she had spoken before, gazing into those same eyes, "the finest, gentlest, kindest man I ever met . . . must have been meant for this. That you must have been chosen, somehow ..." As 1 was chosen, somehow. She took a deep breath, fighting to clear her vision of the memory of his face, eight years ago; what had filled his eyes as she had spoken those words to him then. Trying not to remember how his arms had pulled her against him, how he had kissed her with desperate, incredulous hunger . . . how often that moment out of the unreachable past still intruded on her inescapable present. Frantic with frustration as her voice went on mindlessly, relentlessly answering only his question, ignoring her burning need to ask and not answer. "... There are word formulas for the channeling of stimuli, patterns that become a part of your thought processes, in time--" The flow of words interrupted itself, she felt the sibyl mind stop and search for a meaningful analogy. "--like the adhani discipline practiced on Kharemough." "Really? I practice that--" Hope showed in his eyes, and she began to believe, at last, in the wisdom the sibyl machinery had forced upon her--the calm, insistent rationality of her response, "Use it, then," her own stranger's/familiar voice murmured, as she searched her memory for things Clavally and Danaquil Lu had taught her. "... There is a kind THE SUMMER QUEEN 73 of ritual to the formal sibyl Transfer; it starts with the word input. No other questions need to be recognized. Learn to block casual questions by concentrating on the word stop." "Stop'?" he echoed, his voice shaky with disbelief. "That's all?" "It's very simple: it has to be. But there is much more. ..." Her words flowed like water as she ceased fighting the tide of compulsion. He repeated every phrase with painful intentness, his eyes holding her gaze, barely even blinking, as if he were still afraid that she might disappear. She went on until her voice was gone, and the wellspring of her knowledge had run dry. "... ft takes time. Believe in yourself. This is not a tragedy; it could be a blessing. Perhaps it was meant to be. ..." His mouth quivered, as if he held back a denial; his gaze fell away, came back to her face again. "Thank you," he whispered. His hand rose into her vision again, to caress her cheek. She felt her borrowed eyes fill with unexpected tears as he caught her hands in his and pressed them to his lips. "You don't know what this means to me. I love you, Moon. I'll never love anyone else. I've hated myself ever since I left Tiamat--" His voice fell apart. He took a deep breath, still holding her, "I can tell you that now . . . because I know I'll never see you again." She felt the black tide begin to withdraw inside her, drawing her away, calling her back across the fathomless sea of night, back into her own body. His image began to shimmer and fade. Never see you again . . . never. . . . She blinked her eyes, feeling hot tears slide out and run down her cheeks. "I need you--" She heard her borrowed voice cry out the words, did not know whether she was the one who had spoken them, or the stranger whose bociy she had stolen. "Moon!" he cried, clutching her shoulders, clutching at her spirit as she began to fade. His kiss smothered the last words that came to her lips; "No further analysis--" The black tide drowned her, sweeping her away across spacetime, returning her-- I need you. . . . Her arms were free. She reached out blindly as she began to fall . . . felt arms catch her, circle her, hold her, stopping her fall. "Moon--?" She opened her eyes, blinking, dazed, hearing a man's voice, a familiar voice, call her name. She opened her eyes, opened her mouth, tried to speak his name, as her vision cleared. . . . "Sparks." She heard the disbelief in her voice as she put a name to the face in front of her; Sea-green eyes gazed back at her; a blaze of flame-colored hair framed a face she had known, and loved, since forever. . . . Goddess, was it only a dream--? Still feeling another man's lips on her own. A small, helpless sound escaped her, as her husband drew her close, holding her in his arms. "I need you. too," he murmured, against her ear, kissing her hair. "I saw Gran, I heard-- Moon, I'm so sorry." She stiffened against him, almost pulling away. But then her arms closed around him, holding him against her, feeling the tautness of his muscles, his young, strong body hard against hers. She found his lips, began to kiss them with a feverish hunger that she had almost forgotten, as an urgency she thought had died inside her swept her away like the black wind. This time it was her husband who drew back in surprise. She pulled him to her again, sliding her hands up under the linen cloth of his shirt, pressing her body 74 against his, covering his mouth with hers to stop his questions. He sighed, letting her . . . responding more and more eagerly, answering her body with his own. His hands touched her everywhere with a heat neither of them had known in longer than she could remember. He sank with her onto the thick white furs that covered the floor. She felt the rug as soft as clouds beneath her as he undressed her. as he explored her with his hands, his mouth, as she pulled him down on top of her, flesh against flesh, and felt him enter her. And as they rose and fell together, their pleasure like the tides of the sea, she closed her eyes, remembering a Festival night, safe in his arms at last . . remembering another night, in the arms of a passionate, gentle stranger. . . . ONDINEE: Tuo Ne'el Reede Kullervo sighed, and sighed again; he shifted from foot to foot, gazing out through the high narrow window slit. The view did not inspire him. From this room near the pinnacle of the Humbaba stronghold, he could see for dozens of kilometers across low, rolling hills and tight valleys, all of them covered by impenetrable thorn forest. Spearbush and hell's needle and firethorn were all that he could see, all of it well-named, and all of it in tones of ash gray shading to brown, looking dead, looking as if it had always been dead. The locals called this piece of real estate Tuo Ne'el--the Land of Death. But the thorn forest was fiercely, volatilely alive. When it burned, it burned like the fires of hell. The leaves and bark of the plants were loaded with petrochemicals, they burned with furious heat and intensity, until there was nothing left but glassy-surfaced ash on vast sweeps of naked hill. He thought of the thorn forest's life cycle as being like his own . . . except that when he eventually burned himself out, no dormant seed of his, waiting patiently for that immolation to set it free, would germinate and carry on his genetic line. He began to hum a fragment of song whose words were incomprehensible to him, although he knew them all. Its tune sounded alien and disturbing to his ears, the tonal shifts and intervals made him feel vaguely queasy although he knew they were perfectly precise. He did not hum when he was happy. In the distance he could see other strongholds--fortress towers, sleek needles of self-contained strength rising like defiant fingers through the impenetrable barrier of the forests. He could name the drug and vice bosses who controlled each of them, who ruled the lives of communities of workers, researchers, and henchmen as if they were petty feudal THE SUMMER QUEEN 75 lords. The shielded towers were easily reached only by air. In their business, the thorn forest made for good neighbors. It also kept locals who weren't in their pay out of their hair. Reede turned away from the twenty-centimeter-thick pane of virtually impenetrable ceramic, moving back and forth restlessly, running his hands through his hair, pushing them into the deep pockets of his lab clothing. He had not bothered to change, because Humbaba had sent word that he was to come up immediately . . . only to keep him pacing out here like some lackey. He hated waiting, hated to stop moving any time when he didn't have to, any time when there was nothing to occupy his mind. ... He sat down, stood up, his hands tightening into fists; began to pace again, pulling at his ear. "Shit--" he said, and said it again. The sweet chiming voice of a hundred silver bells whispered his name, behind him. He turned, with the swiftness of a startled animal, as someone's hand circled his arm. "Mundilfoere--" He stopped himself, as abruptly and lightly as if he had no mass, at the sight of her face. She barely came up to his chin, and her face was veiled; the cloth was a filmy gauze, intentionally almost transparent, so that her features were clearly visible but still a mystery, sensually shrouded. The cloth of her gown, which covered her from neck to foot, was only slightly more opaque. She was Humbaba's First Wife. She said that she was a jewel merchant's daughter from the lands of the south, purchased on a whim to become one of his countless concubines. But she was more than she seemed--which was why she was now his First Wife, and held more influence over him than any of his advisors. And Humbaba was not the only one who had noticed her uniqueness. Reede's hands rose, trembling; he felt himself overwhelmed by his need for her, which was at once a terrifying physical hunger for the things that her body knew, and was teaching to him, and something deeper that he had never tried to name, let alone understand. His life seemed to have begun the first night that he spent in her arms, the morning that he had awakened to find himself lying beside her. "Where were you last night? I waited ... 1 waited until the second moon rose--" "I was with my lord Humbaba," she said softly. "He required my presence." "Again?" She shrugged, expressionless. She had been Humbaba's favorite since before Reede had known either one of them; and as a rule, Humbaba was easily bored. "I don't suppose you were simply discussing business," he said sourly. "Not the entire night, no." Her indigo eyes regarded him with mild censure from behind the silvered gauze. He made a face. "How do you kiss him without vomiting?" She did not smile. "All men are handsome in the dark, beloved," she said softly. "Just as all women are beautiful." "You don't believe that." "I must," He turned away from her, taking a deep breath. She waited without speaking until he turned back again. He found that she had drawn aside her veil. To see her face suddenly revealed to him was somehow as erotic as seeing her completely naked. He sucked in a breath, as a hundred different images of her face, of her body Snd his own together, filled his mind ... a thousand memories of secret moments, hours, nights together in stolen corners of their hermetically sealed world. How long 76 /oan D. Vinge she had been his lover--or he had been hers, chosen by her--he wasn't even sure. His life was all randomness and chaos, except when he was at work in the labs. Time had no meaning for him except when he was in her arms. He kept his hands rigidly open at his sides, afraid that his need would betray them both. She moved away, as if she sensed his control slipping. "He is an old man. tisshah'el," she murmured, barely audible. "Even he says so, so it must be true. He has never made me weep tears of joy. . . . Only you can do that." "Tisshah'el," he murmured. Beloved stranger. A word like a sigh, full of so much longing, and so much grief: the word her people used for someone caught in adultery, a crime they sometimes punished with death by flaying, or castration. Sometimes he wished she wouldn't use it, even though she appreciated its poignant irony more than he did. "What are you doing here?" she asked him, finally. "Humbaba wanted to see me," he answered, noncommittal. "Why?" He shook his head. "I don't know, I've been rotting out here for half an hour--" He broke off. "Why are you here?" "He asked to see me also." "Why?" he said, tensing, suddenly feeling afraid. "Gods--do you think he knows?" "I don't know." There was no concern on her face. There never was. Her thoughts were like the depths of a pool; he was never allowed to see below their surface. Sometimes he wanted to shake her, to force some reaction out of her Sometimes he was certain her perfect calm was only an act. Sometimes he thought it was just the resigned fatalism her culture bred into its women, . . . And then he wondered if it was his potential violence that attracted her to him; if all she wanted from him was just another suicidal asshole, like the men she had always known. And then he would tell himself fiercely that he was more than that, and so was she-- The doors to the inner chamber opened, with a soft sucking sound like a kiss, He turned, feeling her turn with him; she covered her face quickly with her veil. Stepping back from each other until there was a neutral distance between them, they walked together through the doorway and into Humbaba's presence. Reede's vision recoiled, as it always did, as his eyes found Humbaba's face--still refusing to believe, after all these years, that what he saw was real. Humbaba came from somewhere on Tsieh-pun, and he'd heard the local customs had merged into and gone beyond the usual underworld tattooing. They had traditionally scarred their faces, the uglier the better, because it intimidated their enemies and their underlings. Cosmetic surgery had given them stomach-turning possibilities far beyond the original, primitive scarring. Ugliness meant strength, power. ... If that was true, Reede had often thought that Humbaba should have been the most powerful man in the galaxy, because he had to be the ugliest. He looked like he was wearing his intestines on his face. Reede swallowed his disgust, along with his sudden, unexpected unease, and pressed the heel of his hand to his forehead in a salute. "Sab Emo." Beside him. Mundilfoere made the same obeisance. Humbaba turned away from them, toward his aquarium, peering in at the fish that moved like glinting shadows through its green-lit depths. Reede could see Humbaba's face reflected in the glass, huge and grotesque, with their own two THL SUMMER QUEEN 77 figures tiny and distorted in the background. Behind the transparent wall, the fish peered back at them curiously; their faces were a wad of distorted flesh that matched their master's. They came from Tsieh-pun too, where for some segment of humanity ugliness had even become beauty. Reede kept the grimace off his face, telling himself that it made as much sense as anything else humans did. And from a bioengineering standpoint, maybe it was even true. The ever-lengthening moment of Humbaba's silence stretched Reede's nerves like time on the rack. At last Humbaba turned away from the green, peaceful world of the hideous fish and faced them again. "They have given me so much pleasure . . ."he murmured. His voice was perfectly normal, a deep, pleasant baritone; as was the total unselfconsciousness of his manner--another incongruity he used to good effect. "As you have, my jewel." He nodded to Mundilfoere, and she bowed her head in acknowledgment, her bells singing softly. "And your work has brought pleasure to millions, Reede." His voice took on an ironic amusement. He reached out, his thick, blunt fingers hovering over a long side-table covered with what Reede realized suddenly was a banquet of drugs--all of his creations. Humbaba selected something from the display, popped it into his mouth and chewed it like a sweetmeat. "And put millions into my accounts, which pleases me even more. Our mutual working agreement has served us both well." Reede said nothing, shifting uncomfortably, sure that this round of empty compliments was not the reason for their being here. He could tell nothing from Humbaba's expression, which was always totally inhuman. Humbaba turned back to them abruptly. "But something has come to my attention that does not bring me pleasure. In fact, it causes me more pain than anything has since I lost my beloved mother." His small, black eyes seemed to flicker, as if he was blinking rapidly inside the mottled piles of flesh. "How long have you been lovers'?" Reede froze, left groping for words by the bluntness of the unexpected question. "We aren't--" "Since before I brought him to you, my lord," Mundilfoere said quietly. "Since the day I first saw him." Reede shot a disbelieving look at her as Humbaba moved slowly forward, his massive body dwarfing her. Humbaba reached out, taking hold of the veil that covered her face, his fist tightening, as if he were about to rip it off. But he lifted it almost tenderly, as he stood staring down at her. "Are you saying you seduced him, in order to ensure his loyalty to me--?" Reede watched her, unable to take his eyes off her; suddenly needing to know her answer more than he needed to go on living. She glanced at him; her eyes lingered on his face, before her gaze flickered downward. "No, my lord. That was not why." Humbaba's fist tightened, muscles bunched in his arm. "Damn you," he said. "Why won't you ever lie to me? I even gave you the lie myself--" She glanced away, up at him again. "I have never lied to you, my lord. You know that. That is why [ have been your First Wife for so long." He snorted, and wattles of flesh quivered. "I'd like to know what else you never bothered to mention to me, though, my jewel," he said sourly, his hand leaving the veil aside, to close over her jaw until she winced. "I trusted you. in ways I never trusted any other woman . . . and perhaps more than I ever trusted any man--" 78 loan D. Vinge Reede's hands tightened impotently; his chest ached from the breath he was holding. "So," Humbaba murmured, "you like pretty young boys the best, after all--'? How, many other have there been1'" "None, my lord," she answered, with difficulty. "Only him. Only you--" He snorted again, with derision, letting her go. "You know the penalty for adultery among your people, Mundilfoere. 1 could have the skin peeled off your face until you looked like me." He shot a glance at Reede. "I could cut off your pnck and make you eat it, Kullervo." Reede gnmaced. "I always wondered why you had nu interest in sex," Humbaba muttered. "I offered you women, all you wanted, or men, or boys--you remember?" Reede nodded numbly. "But you always said no. 1 thought maybe you were getting it in town. But you were getting it right here. I gave you everything. But you had to take the one thing you were not offered." His heavy fist rose, stopped just short of Reede's face. Reede flinched involuntarily. "Why''" "Because when 1 met her she made me forget everything else." Answering only with the truth, too, Reede found the voice to speak; but the voice hardly sounded like his own. He felt like a man in a bad dream, trying to wake up. How did you find out? He almost asked it, couldn't force himself to. Knowing that the details didn't matter. Knowing it should have happened years ago. Nobody could keep anything a secret in a place like this; it was like living in orbit. It was only his frequent trips around the planet and offworld, and Humbaba's, that had kept them safe this long. He had always let himself believe that even if they were discovered Humbaba would look the other way, because he was indispensable, and Humbaba knew it-- "Yes," Humbaba murmured, "I know you, Reede . . . 1 know that look. You think you're indispensable. But losing your gemtalia won't affect your brains." He looked back and forth between their silent, stricken faces. Slowly he reached into the folds of his long, sleeveless robe, and brought out a heavy blade, with serrations the size of teeth and a tip curved like a claw. "Tell me," he said, "how much do you really love each other? Would you give away your manhood to save your lover's face, Kullervo? . . . Would you give up your beauty, my jewel, to spare him that indignity?" He gestured, the blade echoing his invitation with its smile of steel. "Yes." "Yes--" Reede broke off, as he realized that Mundilfoere had answered the same way, at the same moment. He stepped forward, coming between her and Humbaba. He unfastened his belt and dropped his pants. "Go ahead," he said, meeting Humbaba's unreadable gaze above the gleaming knifeblade. "Cut it off." Humbaba stared at Reede a moment longer. Then suddenly his face began to quake, a landslide of flesh. Deep laughter poured out of the lipless opening that was his mouth. His Head of Research stood glaring back at him with his pants down around his ankles. Humbaba shook his head. "You probably know a way to make it grow back, you crazy bastard." As slowly as he had brought the knife out, he put it away again. "Pull your pants up." He looked at Mundilfoere and shook his head again, his wattles jiggling. "My jewel . . ."he said, almost sadly. He touched her face, a gentle contact this time. "It would have been painful to have ruined that face . . . although in your way you would still have been as beautiful to me, and given me as much pleasure. . . ."He sighed. "But you are growing old, anyway. and that is a form of damage 1 do not care for." He took her arm abruptly, and pushed her at Reede. "Here. 1 give her to you, Reede. Have her for a wife. See if she is still as irresistible when the fruit is no longer forbidden." THE SUMMER QUEEN 79 Reede took hold of her, steadying her against the abrupt motion and his own surprise. "My lord ..." Mundilfoere whispered, looking from man to man with stunned eyes. "Is this a joke?" Humbaba shrugged irritably. "My sense of humor doesn't extend that far," he said, and Reede sensed from his voice what he couldn't tell from his face--that he frowned. "I don't want you anymore. I'm finished with you. You belong to my man Kullervo now, until he doesn't want you anymore." He waved a hand at them, dismissing them. Mundilfoere fluttered her hands, jingling. Reede put his arm around her, started to lead her to the door; he saw that the expression on her face looked more like distress than joy or relief. "Mundilfoere . . . ?" he murmured. She looked up at him, seeing the unspoken question in his eyes. She reached up, touching his cheek lightly, her face transforming suddenly, giving him his answer. He looked back at Humbaba. "Thank you," he said, for the second time in his life that he could remember. Humbaba made an unreadable gesture. Reede knew as well as Humbaba did that he could do his work with his cock cut off. But he'd do it better if he was a happy man. Humbaba wasn't an original thinker. He survived because he had a gut instinct for how to keep his people loyal. "That new inhalant you've been developing. I expect to be enjoying it soon," Humbaba said to his retreating back. "Yes, sab." Reede smiled to himself as the doors slid aside, permitting him to leave with Mundilfoere held close against him, and shut again behind him. In the outer room he tried to stop, but Mundilfoere kept him moving with a subtle motion of her body. He obeyed her, suddenly understanding her need to put more distance between them and what had almost happened. They went on through the seemingly endless corridor beyond the antechamber. The air was incongruously thick with the scent of flowers, the light was green and dappled, as they entered the lush foliage of a hydroponics area. He stopped Mundilfoere at last, under the spreading shelter of a fruit tree, and put his arms around her; kissed her with all the depth of need and ravenous hunger of a freed prisoner. He had never kissed her like this, openly, freely, as if there were nothing to fear, nothing to hide. But her own hands rose, separating her from him with gentle, insistent pressure until he let her go, although his hands still clung to her. "We must be discreet--" "Why--?" he said. "Until we have considered the consequences." He saw the urgency in her eyes, and remembered what she was trying to make him remember. He nodded, barely. "Come to my room with me, then." "Yes." she murmured, pressing her face against him, her body momentarily fusing to his own. He felt her heartbeat inside his chest like the wildly beating wings of a bird. "I need to weep for joy. . . ." In his room, in his bed, he made love to her as if the act were a sacrament; though he had no real idea what a sacrament was. He knew only that he would worship her if he could, that her body was the altar of her soul, and that pleasure was the only form of prayer he knew. . . . Afterwards, lying beside her. the restless motion of his existence stilled at last, 80 loan D. Vinge he asked, "Why did you seduce me when we met, if it wasn't to make me want to work for Humbaba?" She looked over at him languorously, her eyes half-closed. He smelled the scent of her, rich with the strange herbs and oils she used on her hair and skin. "To bring you peace," she said, running her fingers across the sweat-gleaming surface of his chest. He lifted his head, with a single grunt that might have been laughter or disbelief; let it fall back again. "Damn you . . ."he muttered. His hand closed over hers, covering it until it disappeared inside his own. And yet the gesture was that of a child clinging to its mother. "No wonder you kept Humbaba besotted all those years. Even I never know what you really mean. ... I don't know what anything means, sometimes," He pushed up onto his elbows, looking back at her, touching the silver-metal pendant that lay between her breasts, the solii jewel at its center like a nacreous eye looking up at him. His hand rose to couch the matching pendant that he wore, reassuring himself that it was still there. "Mundilfoere . . . tell me the way we met." "Again?" She looked up at him, her blue-violet eyes filled with a curious emotion. For a moment he thought that she would refuse. But she only said, as if she were reciting a Story of the Saints, "There are many hidden hands that play the Great Game . . . and the Game controls them all, You were playing the games in the station arcade as I passed, on my way to somewhere else. 1 looked in because 1 heard the shouting of the crowd that was watching you play, watching you win and win. I went inside, because 1 was curious; I watched you too, and I saw you do things by instinct that most players could not even dream of doing. I saw that you had a rare gift, and that it was being wasted in that place. And then you looked up at me, and I saw your face . . . and you saw mine." "And time stopped," he whispered, finishing it for her. "And you said, 'Come with me,' and I did. . . ."He shut his eyes, trying to imagine the electric feel of winning; the moment when he had looked up, and seen her standing there, waiting for him to look up and see her. Fragments of memory flashed inside his eyes. mirror-shards, puzzle pieces, whirling like leaves in a wind, a storm of randomness. He opened his eyes again, with a grunt of terror, to the serenity and reality of her face, the unreadable depths of her eyes. "Why can't I remember? I can't remember--" "It doesn't matter," she said softly, and reached up to stroke his hair, smoothing it back from his face, soothing him with the slow, repetitive motion; gentling him. "I love you. I will always love you, more than life itself." He lay down again, letting the question go, content to let her massage his thoughts into oblivion, where they belonged. He rested his head against her shoulder as she took one of the spice-scented smokesticks from the ebony box on the bedside table and lit it. He breathed in the drifting smoke as she inhaled, for once enjoying the exquisite sharpness of all his senses, the intoxicating awareness of simply being alive. "Was I a virgin when you met me?" She did not laugh, but turned her head to look at him. "I don't think so. Not physically." "I was very young." "Yes," she said, stroking his forehead gently. "But I feel so old. . . ."He closed his eyes, and fragments of image swarmed THE SUMMER QUEEN 81 through his memory again, bits of glass in a shaken kaleidoscope, a random geometry of light. "I know." she murmured. "Mundilfoere, where did I come from--'?" "It doesn't matter," she repeated. She kissed him tenderly on the cheek. "You are here, now." "Yes. . . ." He opened his eyes again to look at her, and the echoes of a music from no known place or time, that lived inside his memory like a lie, began to fade. He sighed, pressing her hand against his cheek, holding it there. Her skin was soft and cool against his own, like the touch of a . . . of a . . . He let go of the image that would not form, and released her, letting the tension flow out of him, letting his gaze wander. He became aware of the strains of a Kharemoughi artsong still playing in the room, filling the bluegray space, carrying his mind out and into the bluegray heights of the sky beyond the slitied window, out where there were never any questions. She inhaled smoke, let it out again in a sigh. After a time she said, "Sab Emo has been more than kind to us, in his own way, all these years." She handed him the drugged incense and he inhaled deeply. "Yes," he murmured, shaking off the past, still not fully believing in the present. "I'm glad it will not be necessary to have him killed. He has been useful to the Brotherhood, as well." Reede snorted. "For a minute there, I figured we weren't going to have the chance to think about it, let alone act on it. Gods ... I thought he was serious. What if he had been--?" "I would have told him that I was carrying your child." He pushed up on his elbow again, staring down at her with something close to wonder. "Are you serious?" he said softly, "Are you--" "Of course not." She smiled at him, a little sadly. "That is not for us. ... You know that, beloved. It is not our destiny in the motion of things." He looked away, silent for a long moment, before he said, "I thought you said you never lied to Humbaba." "It would have been the first time," she answered. "And the last. Although I have not always told him the truth. ..." "But if you had, those could be lies too." "If it's true that 1 lie." She smiled at him. "One has to know how to ask the right questions . . . and sometimes, how to answer them." "Have you ever lied to me?" She looked deeply, unflinchingly into his eyes. "Never." "But you haven't always told me the truth." She touched his lips with her fingers. "Don't torture yourself with questions, tisshah'el. There is no need. You are my beloved." Acquiescing, he kissed her again. "You can move into my quarters tonight. Have your things sent over . . ."he smiled, "wife." She moved restlessly, as if she had not been listening to him. Or did not want to hear it. But he would not let himself think that. "The Brotherhood will not be pleased to hear that he has divorced me. It makes controlling him harder." "Who? Humbaba?" 82 Joan D. Vinge She nodded. "They may vote to remove him after all . . . and that undermines our position." Reede put an arm across her shoulders and drew her back to face him. "Don't worry. Humbaba's just barely smart enough to know he's not smart enough. He's depended on you for years for his policy. That's not going to change. Only your sleeping arrangements--" He pressed himself down on top of her, feeling the familiar throbbing warmth between his legs as his chest came in contact with her flesh. "Yes . . ." she breathed distractedly, between his kisses. "You are wise, my love. But perhaps I should not bring my belongings to you until he has proven that true. Everywhere there are eyes. ..." "Damn their eyes," he said, his voice husky, every nerve in his body coming alive with exquisite sensations of arousal. "Do it. Just do it. For me." His arms tightened around her. He felt her hands on him, now, all over him, her nails digging into his flesh as her eagerness began to match his own; felt her legs slide apart to grant him entry. Her hands took hold of him with dizzying insistence, guiding him in. "Oh gods," he whispered, "I love you. . . ." Reede walked alone through the sterile silences of the lab complex hallways, wearing only a loose robe carelessly wrapped around him. Displays posted every few meters along the walls, beside sealed doorways, above every intersection, reminded him that it was well before dawn by local time. The sky outside his window slit had been as black as death, Mundilfoere had been sleeping like a child beside him, when he awakened and realized why he had--realized what he had left undone. His body always felt as if electrodes were attached to it, vibrant, jangling, alive. But while he slept the drug had turned up the voltage. He should have realized that the incredible sensations of his wedding with Mundilfoere were more than just her skill, and his desire. He should have recognized the warning signs. But he had been too preoccupied. ... By the time his body had wakened him from his sodden slumber, every nerve ending was on line, and singing; he could not get back to sleep when his skin told him he was lying on a bed of nails, knowing that by morning he would think it was a bed of hot coals. Every step he took now was exquisite agony from the pressure on his feet; the light hurt his eyes, every breath he took made his chest ache from the fluid collecting in his lungs. Stupid. Stupid. His brain repeated the litany with every step he took, too dazzled by sensation to provide the more graphic epithets his stupidity deserved. He had actually been so besotted with lovemaking that he had not gone back to the lab-- He reached the doorway he was looking for, touched the identity sensor with his fingertip as gingerly as if it were red hot; had to hit it harder when it didn't register him, and swore. The sound made him clench his teeth. The security seals dematerialized and he went inside. A high anguished keening drilled into his consciousness the moment he entered the room. He stopped, then crossed the lab, not even bothering to order the doors closed behind him. In a small transparent cubicle was a quoll, the only living thing in the lab besides himself. He had picked it up in Razuma, just one of countless abandoned animals starving in the streets. He never used animals for tests; the results he got from the datamodeling programs were far more precise. But in this case, he had made an THE SUMMER QUEEN 83 exception. In this case, the perversity of his need to know had made him bring the wretched creature back with him to the lab. He had fed it, cared for it, given it the drug. ... He had watched the quoll grow and thrive as the technoviral had taken over every cell in the animal's body, just as it had done to his own; turning the quoll into a perfect physical specimen. The drug, which he had designed himself, had been meant to do what the water of life did; to keep a body's systems functioning without error--to extend a human life indefinitely. It had almost worked. . . . The quoll had come to know and trust him, greeting him with eager whistles every time he entered the lab, watching him at work. Sometimes he had even put a hand into the cage when it scratched at the plass, and stroked its soft, tufted fur. ... And then he had stopped giving it the drug, and begun to record the results. Its decline had been rapid, and terrifying. The drug had been designed for a human system, but its function--too simplistic, as he had realized, too late--was generic enough to affect a quoll in similar ways. And to kill it in similar ways. It was the killing he had told himself he wanted to see in detail--not just a computer model, but the real, intimate, bloody, puking symptoms. Because after all, he had such a very personal interest in those symptoms. He had been trying to recreate the water of life, and he had failed. He had knowingly and intentionally infected himself with the semisentient material he had recreated so imperfectly, even though his test models had shown him what would probably happen to him--what had happened to him. His body had become dependent on the drug as an arbiter of its normal functioning. His body still aged--one more way in which the drug was a failure--but, ironically, it functioned at peak efficiency while it did. But the substance was unstable. Like the real water of life, it required continuous doses to sustain its effects. Except that the body did not develop a dependency on the genuine water of life. It developed a dependency on his. Without a continuous supply of the drug, virtually every cell in his system would cease to function--dying, running wild; millions of infinitesimal machines all gone out of control. He stood in front of the cage, forcing himself to look at the agony of the creature inside it; forcing himself to look into the mirror. He watched its body spasming with uncontrollable seizures, the bloody foam flecking its mouth, its soft, spotted fur matted with filth, its eyes rolling back in its head. ... He had wanted to see it, wanted to know what he had in store-- Then look at it, you fucking coward! You did it; you did it to yourself, because you wanted to. . . . The dreadful keening of its torment went on and on, filling his head. Slowly, with hands that trembled from something more terrifying to him than fear, he reached into the cage and lifted out the quoll. He held it a moment in his arms, oblivious to the bites it inflicted on him in its agony. And then, with a sudden, sure motion of his hands he snapped its neck. He dropped the limp, lifeless form into the incinerator chute, watched it dematerialize before his eyes, cleanly, perfectly, freeing its soul--if it had one--to eternity. And who will do the same for me? He turned away, stumbling back across the lab, the telltale early-stage discomforts of his own body suddenly magnified a thousandfold. He had to stop and inhale a tranquilizer before he could concentrate. He woke up his work terminal, 84 foan D. Vinge fumbled his way across the touchboard, lighting up the wrong squares as he tried to feed in the security code that would let him get what he wanted. At last he heard the faint sound that told him the proper segment of secured stasis had released. He went to it and pushed his hand through the tingling screen, pulling out an unlabeled vial. The drug had no official designation. It had only one user. He called it the "water of death." He unsealed the vial, and swallowed its contents. TIAMAT: Carbuncle "Lady--" "Lady. ..." Voices with a poignantly familiar Summer burr called to Moon as she made her way down the long, sloping ramp at the terminus of Carbuncle's Street. The ramp dropped from the Lower City down to the harbor that lay beneath Carbuncle's massive, sheltering shellform. Workers bowed their heads to her, lifted their hands in greeting, or stared dubiously as she entered their world, which had once been her own world. She wore the drab, bulky work clothes of a deckhand--linen shirt, canvas pants, a thick graybrown sweater her grandmother had made for her by hand. She had come at her grandmother's urging, with Sparks at her side--leaving behind the Sibyl College, the dickering Winter entrepreneurs and the struggling Winter engineers, to remind her people, and herself, of the heritage she had left behind. Gran was with her, pointedly keeping her distance from Jerusha PalaThion, who had also accompanied them, as she insisted on doing whenever Moon left the palace. Standing midway up the ramp was the small knot of Goodventure kin who also followed her everywhere, hounding her and spying on her; one good reason Jerusha was always by her side. "Lady, what can we do for you?" A sailor came up to her, dragging a ship's line. There was something like awe, but also uncertainty, in his eyes when he faced her; as if he were afraid that she had come down here to pass judgment on her people fot their recalcitrance in embracing the new order of things. But she took the tow rope from his hands, feeling its rough fibers scrape het palms, realizing how her own hands had lost the leather-hardness that physical laboi had once given them. "Nothing," she said humbly, "but to let me be Moon Dawntreader Summer for a time, and work the ships, and answer the questions a Summer sibyl has always answered, for anyone who wishes to ask." He looked at her in surprise, and released his hold on the rope, leaving it in het 1 THE SUMMER QUEEN 85 hands. She tied it around the mooring-post, her hands by habit making knots that her mind had almost forgotten how to form. Slowly and almost reluctantly, the other Summers began to show her what they were doing. Sparks followed her, self-consciously easing into the pattern of their activities. Their rhythms became her body's rhythms once more, more swiftly than she would have imagined was possible. Gran sat down on the pier and took over the mending of a net from a willing sailor; Jerusha leaned against a barrel, looking uncomfortable, with her gun slung at her back. She had just told them this morning that she was pregnant for the fourth time, after three miscarriages. Miroe had ordered her to avoid any heavy work. Moon knew he would have kept her confined to bed if he dared, but not even he dared that. No crowd gathered. The other Summers watched her discreetly, still either suspicious or uncertain; but she knew that word of her presence was spreading through the sighing, creaking underworld, where sailors and dockhands loaded and unloaded supplies, scraped, lashed, and refitted hulls, mended nets, all as surely as the cold sea wind moved through the rigging of their ships. She forced herself to forget that there were easier, safer, faster ways of doing most of these things; letting herself remember the satisfaction of everyone working together like one body, each separate part knowing its role. She savored the smell of the sea, its soft, constant, murmurous voice, the feel of a deck shifting under her feet as she loaded cargo. Sparks smiled at her as he worked, and gradually she saw his face take on a look of ease and peace. It was an expression she had not seen for so long that she had forgotten he had ever looked that way. And in his eyes there was the memory of the unexpected passion that had taken them two nights ago, the fulfilling of a need that was not just physical but soul-deep, and which had not been satisfied in either of them for too long. She smiled too, breathing in the sea air, remembering a time when each time they lay together had seemed to be all she lived for, when they had been young and free and never dreamed that they would ever be any other way. . . . But the memory of the Transfer, calling her away into the night, suddenly filled her vision with the face of another man, his hand reaching out to her, his mouth covering hers; made her remember the words / need you. She looked down and away, her thoughts giddy. She forced her mind to go empty, as she had had to do time and again these past two days; suppressing the emotion that the memory stirred in her, a feeling as dark as remembered eyes, as desperate, as haunting. There is nothing you can do about it now. Nothing. She repeated the words over and over again, silently, letting them flow into the pattern of her work until the helpless grief inside her faded. She looked up again as a clamor reached her from somewhere up the ramp. She squinted past the crate in her arms, seeing what appeared to be two men arguing with the constables Jerusha had set to question whoever came this way. One of the arguing figures was an old man, the other younger, but painfully stooped. Danaquil Lu. And as the voices reached her clearly, she recognized the unmistakable bellowing of Borah Clearwater. "Jerusha," she called over the side of the ship, and pointed with her chin toward their argument. Jerusha nodded and started away. "Lady . . . ?" someone murmured behind her. She turned back, looking into the face of a tall, brown-haired woman. "I have a question." Moon set down the crate she was holding, and nodded. "Ask, and I will answer 86 /oan D. Vinge Input. ..." From the corner of her eye she saw Sparks stop his work and move toward her with protective concern as the woman's voice filled her ears, her mind, and she began the abrupt fall away into darkness. ". . . No further analysis." She came back into herself again, and sat down on the crate as a brief wave of dizziness caught her. Sparks put his hands on her shoulders, rubbing them gently. She felt the eyes of the other deckhands and sailors watching her, watching her differently now. "Thank you, sibyl," the woman murmured, smiling and bobbing her head as she backed away. Moon saw two or three others beginning to cluster near her; knew that they would be the next to come forward with questions. "Well, what am I supposed to make of this?" A man's voice--Borah Clearwater's voice--carried sharply and clearly up to her. She pushed to her feet and went to the small trimaran's rail, peered over it. "Make of what, Borah Clearwater?" she said, to his turned back. He jerked around, away from Jerusha's annoyed expression, to look up at her. He looked blank for a moment, seeing only a plainly dressed island woman with her hair in braids, and not the Summer Queen, answering him. His frown deepened as he recognized her. "If you think you can change my opinion about anything by doing an honest day's work, you're wrong." Moon laughed, wondering if he actually believed she was here because she was trying to impress him. She felt Spark's impatience like heat as he came up beside her. "I'm sorry to intrude like this, Lady," Danaquil Lu said, edging his uncle aside with an effort. "But my uncle has been . . . wishing to speak to you about the--uh, right-of-way you granted to our kinsman Kirard Set Wayaways." From Danaquil Lu's chagrin and air of resignation, she guessed that Clearwater had not let him rest until he had agreed to speak to her. She smiled at him, a brief, reassuring smile, before she looked at Borah Clearwater. Leaning on the rail, she met his stare with a calm centeredness that would have been impossible two days ago--two hours ago. "So you think I arranged this for your benefit, Borah Clearwater? Just as you seem to think I granted that right of-way to spite you?" Clearwater snorted, but for just a moment he didn't answer. "Who knows why you do anything? Rot me, this makes as much sense as the other!" "And who do you think you are," Gran's voice interrupted suddenly, "to come here and speak to the Lady in that tone of voice?" He turned back to look at her as she stood up, putting aside the net she had been mending. "I think I have more business speaking to her than you have speaking to me," he grunted. Danaquil Lu rolled his eyes. "Uncle--" he murmured, pulling at the older man's shoulder. "She's my granddaughter, if you must know," Gran said irritably. "It was my suggestion that she come here and be among her own people and her own ways for a while. She has the grace to respect her elders. Show her the respect she deserves from a Summer, or you might as well be a Winter!" He glared at her. "I am a Winter, as it happens. But if she acted more like a Summer, and left things well enough alone, I'd be happier to respect her judgment." "A Winter!" Gran looked him up and down dubiously. "We aren't all perfumed sissies," he snapped. THE SUMMER QUEEN 87 Moon looked on, silent with surprise as Gran came to her defense, suddenly and deeply moved by her grandmother's protectiveness. Danaquil Lu stood beside Jerusha, looking bemused. "But as to the matter of the right-of-way across your lands, Borah Clearwater," she interrupted, "why is that such a problem tor you, really? It won't interfere with your crops or your fishing rights. You're going to be paid very well for the use of such a tiny strip of your ground. Is it simply the principle of the thing? Or is it because you hate change that much--because you hate me, and my new ideas?" He snorted again, his mustache bristling. "I'm not fond of you, Moon Dawntreader. I've made that plain enough, and i'm honest enough to admit it to your face, unlike some. But it's my kinsman Kirard Set Wayaways that I hate. He's buying out the holdings all around mine for their mineral rights, for development and building factories. There's metal ores all over my plantation. He wants me to sell out too, but since I won't he's made you give him a toehold on my land. Now that he has that much from you, he's going to keep pushing until he gets it all. Goddammit, you've made him believe it's possible, and now he'll never rest. The whole Wayaways clan is a spot of gangrene, you ask me--excepting young Dana here, he's probably crazy but he's all right. They ought to be cut out, dammit, not encouraged to spread!" "I hear what you're saying, Borah Clearwater," Moon said gently. "Kirard Set Wayaways is one of the most motivated and effective people I have working with me to develop Tiamat. But I don't intend to do him any favors at anyone else's expense. You've registered your complaint with me. I won't forget it." Clearwater grunted. "Not until you run short of ores, at least, and I refuse again to let him stripmine my fields." Moon frowned. "I want to make Tiamat a better place for our people to live. I don't intend to destroy it in the process. No one will force you off your traditional lands against your will. I've given you my word. You'll have to trust it. That's all." She turned away from the rail, not listening to his continued complaint or even the sharpness of her grandmother's voice, at him again for questioning the word of a sibyl, of her grandchild. Moon looked back at the curious stares of the gathered sailors. Slowly another of them started forward with a question. She answered his question and half a dozen more, before she looked up at last and found no one else waiting. Drained but satisfied, she rose from her seat among the crates and started back to work. But Sparks took her arm, smiling, and led her to the rail, nodding down at the pier. She started as she saw Borah Clearwater still there, still talking to her grandmother--but sitting beside her now, mending net; speaking agitatedly, but in a tone of voice so normal that Moon could not make out the words through the clangor and shouting of the docks. Jerusha glanced up from where she sat with ill-concealed restlessness, saw where they were looking; smiled and shrugged, shaking her head. Moon went back to work, smiling too, filled with sudden gratitude and surprise at the Unexpected rewards of this day; feeling a brief pang as she looked out to sea and did not know where to direct her prayer of thanks. She heard a sudden pain-cry, and the clatter of something dropping on the pier below. She went back to the ship's rail, saw Jerusha on her hands and knees on the salt-bleached wood, her rifle lying beside her. Moon climbed over the rail, landing on the dock, as Gran and Borah Clearwater pushed to their feel in consternation, as 88 Joan D. Vinge constables came running. Moon saw with sudden bright grief the red stain of blood spreading down Jerusha's pantslegs. "Sparks!" she cried. She fell to her knees, taking hold of Jerusha as the other woman tned to rise, holding her, holding her tightly; feeling the pain that convulsed Jerusha's body as if it were her own; remembering the pain of birth, the pain that had come to Jerusha PalaThion too soon, much too soon. "Find Miroe. Hurry--!" Jerusha opened her eyes, blinking in a kind of disbelief as she took in her new reality. Her last memory was of the pier, the harbor; the odd sense of peace that had fallen over everyone around her while she watched and waited. She remembered feeling something, as she sat--the slight fluttering movement of her unborn child. Remembered how, for that moment, the world outside her body had ceased to exist, as she became wholly aware of the miracle of life inside her. For that brief moment the peace around her had reached into her and touched her soul, and she had let herself be happy, certain that this time everything would be all right. . . . And she had felt the baby move again, and then again, restlessly, and a strange restlessness had overtaken her too; she had lost that fragile, precious sense of peace, felt it fly away from her like birds. And there had been a sudden twinge, a pulling tension, that made her rise from where she sat, trying to stretch it out of existence like a muscle kink, trying to make it disappear, because she had felt that sensation before, and she knew what always followed-- Pain had taken her where she stood, as if everything inside her was being twisted and ripped loose, and as the darkness came over her in a terrible, rushing flood, she had been sure that this time, this time she would die. . . . But she was alive. She was lying in a strange bed, in a strangely familiar room. She recognized its ceiling. She had seen this sight before; the inside of this hospital room, its odd mixture of old and new; modern fixtures and furnishings, abandoned intact by the Hegemony, but with their systems gutted, like hers. She knew the acnd, alien smell of the medicinal herbs that were used for most of the healing that was done here now. She could feel her hands, her arms, her shoulders, although she had no strength to move them. She could feel her toes. But at the center of her body there was nothing, no sensation at all. Numb. And no one had to tell her the reason why. She moved her head--let it fall, pulled down by gravity as she looked toward the doorway. Someone stirred just beyond her sight, in response to her motion; she realized, from the sudden sensation in her hand, that someone had been holding it. She forced her eyes to focus, expecting to see her husband's face. Instead, she found the face of the Summer Queen. Moon Dawntreader's pale hand tightened over her own in unspoken empathy, in grief for a loss so fresh she had not even begun to feel it yet. Just for a moment Jerusha remembered a time when their positions had been reversed; when she had sat at Moon's bedside, Moon's hand clutching hers in a deathgrip, in the throes of giving birth. . . . "You shouldn't be here," she whispered. Her throat was achingly dry; she felt as if her body were burning up, a desert. Barren. Sterile. Moon's expression changed, turning uncertain. "You have duties. ..." Moon shook her head. "Time has stopped. It all stopped, until I knew you would be all right," she said softly. "Besides, how can I function, without my right arm'" She smiled; the smile fell away. She looked down, with a knowledge in her eyes that THE SUMMER QUEEN 89 only another woman's eyes could hold--not a queen's, but a mother's; the reflection of the most terrible fear she could imagine. Jerusha pressed her mouth together, looking away; her lips were parched and cracked. Moon offered her water, helped her drink it. "Where's Miroe?" she asked, finally. "He took care of you, when we brought you in. He was here before, for a long time ..." Moon murmured. "He said he would be back soon." Jerusha nodded, wearily. She looked at the ceiling again, its ageless, flawless surface . . . wishing that her own body could be as perfect, as unaffected by time or fate, as impervious. She looked back at Moon. "I'm all right," she said quietly, at last. "Go home to your family." Moon rose, her hand still holding Jerusha's tightly, her eyes still holding doubt. She let go, reluctantly. "I'll find Miroe, and send him to you." "Thank you," Jerusha said. Moon smiled again, nodded almost shyly as she left the room. Jerusha lay back, listening to the distant sounds of life that reached her from the corridors beyond her closed door; listening to the gibberings of loss and futility seeping in to fill the perfect emptiness she tried to hold at the center of her thoughts. She imagined the responses of the men she had worked with in the Hegemonic Police, if they saw her now . . . imagined the response of the woman she herself had been to the woman she was now, lying in this bed. They would have been equally unsympathetic. She had spent years trying to force them to accept her as a human being instead of a woman, and all it had done was turn her into a man. In leaving the force, she had believed that she was reaffirming her humanity. She wasn't a man . . . but now when she wanted to be a woman, she couldn't be that either. She felt hot tears rise up in her eyes and overflow; hating them, hating herself for her weakness, physical and mental. She wanted Miroe, she needed him, to help her now. Why wasn't he here? Damn him, he was the one she had needed to see, he shared this loss with her, more intimately than anyone. She needed to share his strength, and his grief-- Someone came into the room. She lifted her head, needing all her own strength, for long enough to see that Miroe had come, as if in answer to her thoughts. "Jerusha." He crossed to her bedside, his work-rough hands touching her flushed, fevered skin with the gentleness that always surprised her--touching her own hands, her face, her tears. He kissed her gently on the forehead, and on the lips; drew back. "Hold me," she murmured, wishing that she did not have to request that comfort. "Hold me. ..." He sat down on the edge of the bed; lifted her strengthless, unresponsive body and held her close, letting her tears soak his shirt, absorbing them, for a long time. She could not see whether he wept too. The muscles of his body were as rigid as steel, as if he were holding grief at bay. She had never wept before, when this had happened to her; although it had happened to her three times already. And he had never wept, either. "Why does this keep happening to me . . ." she whispered, brokenly, at last. "It isn't fair--" "I'm sorry." His own voice was like a clenched fist. "Gods, Jerusha--I've done everything I can." -JM&flBfrjaiir 90 /oan D. Vinge "I'm not blaming you." She pulled away from him, to look at his face. He would not meet her eyes. "You should," he muttered. "I can't heal it, I can't make it right. ... If you weren't here, if you were anywhere else, you'd have healthy children by now." "No, I wouldn't," she said. "I wouldn't even have a husband. I wouldn't be with you. It's the Hegemony's fault--" A surge of anger and resentment pushed the words out of her throat. But the Hegemony was far away, formless, faceless, unreachable, and she found herself suddenly angry at the man who held her, for making her ask for comfort, for making her comfort him when it was her loss. . . . Our loss. It's our loss! she told herself fiercely. But she let herself slide out of his arms, as his arms loosened; falling back into the bed's cool, impersonal embrace. He looked at her, his eyes clouded and full of doubt, looked away again. He reached into a pocket of his coat and took something out: a small jar full of what looked like dried herbs. "Jerusha," he said quietly, "I want you to start using this." "What is it?" she murmured, straining for a clear sight of it. "It's childbane." He met her gaze directly at last. She felt the last embers of hope die inside her. "Birth control--?" she asked numbly; not needing to ask, or to have it explained to her. But he nodded. "I almost lost you this time, Jerusha. You nearly bled to death. I don't want to take that risk again ... I don't want you to take it." "But Miroe--" She tried to sit up, fell back again, as her body pressed the point home. "I'm forty-three. I don't have much longer--" "I know." She saw a muscle stand out as his jaw tightened. "The risk will only grow, for you or for a child. Maybe it's time we faced the truth, Jerusha: we're never going to have any children. Not here, not in this lifetime together." She stared at him bleakly. "You know I don't believe in that--in reincarnation, in another chance. This isn't a dress rehearsal, Miroe, it's my life, and I don't want to stop trying!" She broke off, clenching her teeth as something hurt her cruelly inside, through the layers of deadened flesh. He tensed, and shook his head. "I love you, Jerusha. I love you too much to kill you, or let you kill yourself, over something that's impossible. If you won't use the childbane, I won't sleep with you anymore." "You don't mean that," she said, her voice thick. "I do." He looked away, pushing to his feet. "I can't take this anymore. I'm sorry." He crossed the room, and went out the door. She watched him go, unable to get up, to follow him, to confront him; without even the strength to call after him. She looked over at the bedtable, at the bottle of herbal contraceptive he had left behind. She knocked it off the table with a trembling fist. She fell back again, staring up at the ceiling; felt the numbness at the center of her body spreading, filling the space that held her heart, filling her mind until there was no room left for thought. . . "Commander PalaThion! What are you doing here?" Constable Fairhaven straightened away from the grayed wooden railing of the pier, with surprise obvious on her long, weathered face. "Just doing my job, constable; the same as you." Jerusha returned her salute. Fairhaven's salute was sloppy to the point of being almost unrecognizable, like most of the Summers' salutes were; but she was a calm, shrewd woman, and those were HE SUMMER QUEEN 91 p qualities Jerusha had come to realize were far more important than discipline, in a local constabulary where the police and the people they watched over were frequently neighbors and kin. Jerusha leaned against the rail next to Fairhaven, breathing in the heavy, pungent odor of the docks, the smell of wood and pitch, seaweed and fish and , the sea. The maze of floating piers was lined with fishing boats and transport craft |from all along the coast. "But so soon--?" Fairhaven said. Her frank curiosity clouded over with > concern, at the look Jerusha felt come over her own face. "I'm fine," Jerusha said mechanically, looking away, down at the pattern of , ropes and chains, of shifting light and shadow on the water's surface. She looked up again, at the ships. Miroe had sailed from here yesterday, going back to the plantation, leaving behind the city he hated, and the pain of their shared loss, her pain. Leaving behind the frustration, the recriminations they had shared too, as they had turned anger at the random indifference of an uncaring universe into anger at each other. Avoiding all that: their dead child, their dying dream. Her . . . "Forgive me, Jerusha." Fairhaven put out a hand, touching Jerusha's arm, a gesture that was somehow both apology and the comfort of one woman reaching out to another. Fairhaven had never addressed her as anything but "Commander" before; the combination took her doubly by surprise. "But I suffered my share of stillborn babes . . . three I lost, out of seven I bore with my pledged. It was hard, hard. ..." Her mouth tightened, although Jerusha knew her children were all grown; the memories of her losses must be old ones now. She looked up again, sighing. "The Lady gives, and She takes away. . . . We had a say ing in the islands, you know, that you should let nine days pass before you took to your work again. Three for the baby's sake, three for the mother's sake, three for the Lady's sake." Jerusha smiled, faintly. Her head was still buzzing from the native painkillers she had been chewing the past few days. They had used up their own small stock of offworlder drugs, on her previous miscarriages and other small disasters. "But I don't worship the Lady. And as for me, I'd rather work than brood. So I've taken time enough off." Fairhaven shook her head. Her graying, sand-colored braids rolled against her tunic with the motion. "It's still good advice, you know. To take time to grieve is only right. Otherwise you suffer more, in the long run." Jerusha forced herself to control the sudden annoyance that filled her. And she remembered, unexpectedly, the face of one of the men under her old command--her assistant, Gundhalinu, on the day he had received news of his father's death. She remembered his stubborn Kharemoughi pride; his refusal even to acknowledge his loss, until finally she had ordered him to take the rest of the day off to grieve. . . . She rubbed her eyes, turning away. She was saved from having to make a further response by a sound like thunder that echoed through the underworld of the docks. She turned back to Fairhaven, meeting her stare. "A ship's fallen--" Fairhaven said, as the sound of voices shouting filled the stunned silence that followed the crash. They turned together, not needing words; started to run, as others were running now, toward the site of the accident. As they approached she heard pain-cries, before she could even make out what had happened through the wall of milling bodies. She pushed through the crowd until she had a clear view, taking it all in at a glance: the ship that had been winched up for repairs, the chain that had snapped and I I T 92 /oan D. Vtnge let it fall sideways onto the dock, the two men pinned beneath it. As many workers as could press their backs against the hull were already straining to lift it; but one of the catamaran's large floats was wedged beneath the pier, and they could get no leverage. Jerusha looked from the broken length of chain lying on the dock to the pulley high up beneath the city's underbelly. She looked down again. One of the workers lay unconscious or dead in a pool of blood; the other one, his legs pinned, was still moaning. She tightened her jaw, trying not to listen to the sound, trying to keep her mind clear for thought. She pulled loose the coiled length of monofilament line she had carried at her belt, ever since her Police-issue binders ceased to function. She knotted one end of the line through the last solid link of broken chain, while the workers looked on, uncomprehending. She flung the coil of line upward, feeling something half-healed pull painfully inside her; watched with relief and some surprise as it passed through the pulley overhead on her first try. The rope spiraled down to the dock and lay waiting, but nobody moved forward to pick it up. "Come on!" Jerusha shouted. She picked up the rope's end. "Wind it up!" They stared at her, muttering and shaking their heads. "Commander," Fairhaven murmured. "It won't hold. They know it will snap, it's too thin--" She nodded at the broken chain, as thick around as Jerusha's wrist. "It'll hold!" Jerusha called sharply, with the sound of the trapped worker's moans grating inside her like a broken bone. "It will! Winch it up!" Two deckhands moved forward, looking at her as if she were insane, but having no other alternative. She watched them fasten the line to the winch and begin to crank it. Their motions slowed abruptly, their muscles strained, as the line suddenly grew taut. They went on turning the winch; the line sang briefly as every last millimeter of play was drawn out of it and it began to take the full weight of the ship. Jerusha held her breath, knowing the line would hold, but still instinctively afraid of disaster. The ship began to crack and groan in turn as its immovable mass surrendered to the irresistible force of the winch's power--and finally it began to rise. Deckhands leaped forward to drag the two trapped workers free as the ship began to lift clear. But the two men at the winch kept cranking, and as the rest of the crowd watched in murmuring awe, the ship rose farther. The float that was wedged under the pier's edge snapped and broke in two, ripping free with a spray of splintered wood. The ship lunged and bucked against the line; gradually stabilized again as the relentless pull lifted it even higher, until it was back in position overhead--and still the line held. Jerusha tore her own gaze from the ship, to watch the injured workers carried away toward the ramp that rose into the city, toward the hospital. She looked back again as someone embraced her suddenly, awkwardly, before hurrying on past, going after the injured workers. "Littleharbor's kinsman," Fairhaven said, indicating one of the victims, and the man who had just hugged her. Jerusha nodded mutely, wondering with a familiar, morbid weariness whether the two workers could be healed or even helped in any meaningful way by the primitive medical treatment they had now. Miroe had done his best to share what medical training he had with the locals; but without sophisticated equipment and diagnosticators to back it up, his modern methods were hardly more THE SUMMER QUEEN 93 effective than the herbal-remedies-mixed-with-common-sense the Tiamatans had evolved on their own. "Commander--?" Someone's voice caught at her hesitantly. She turned back, finding a crowd of Summers gathered around her. "What is it?" she said. "How is it possible?" the woman who had spoken asked; asking, Jerusha realized, for them all. "What sort of string is this you carry, that can bear the weight that snapped a chain?" "It's called monomolecular line," she answered. "It's extremely strong. They say it could lift the entire city of Carbuncle without snapping. It's from offworld." She watched their faces, expecting their eyes to glaze over with disinterest as she said those final words . . . just as they always had, and probably always would. She had come to believe that masochism must be an inherited trait among the Summers; that they were somehow instinctively opposed to making their lives any easier. But they only came closer, touching the line hesitantly, speculatively, murmuring among themselves about the strength, the lightness, the countless possible uses for netting, bindings, rigging ... on a farm ... in a cottage. That this was better All the things that the Queen and her College of Sibyls and the Winter entrepreneurs had been trying to tell them, show them, force on them--forcing it down their throats, when all that had done was make the Summers retch. When they should have been letting those things speak for themselves . . . letting the Summers think for themselves. Showing, and not telling . . . "Is this something the Winters have learned to make?" a large, red-bearded man asked, almost grudgingly. "Not yet," Jerusha said. "Someday they will." She looked down, trying to conceal the sudden inspiration that struck her. "But--there's a supply of it left in the old government warehouses. If you want it, maybe I could arrange to make it available. ..." She shrugged, trying not to sound too eager, not to look as though it mattered to her. The Summers glanced at each other, their expressions mixed, as if they were trying to gauge one another's response: whether the person next to them would somehow be the first to get a quantity of the new line, and an advantage over them, all at the same time. "What would you ask for it?" someone murmured. She almost said, "Nothing"; stopped, thinking fast. The Summers made most of their own equipment, and preferred barter to the city's offworlder-based credit system. "We can talk a trade," she said, and saw their faces begin to come alive as she answered them in their own way. "Come up to the warehouse whenever you finish your work. One of my Summer constables will be there to speak with you." She saw them nodding, saw their eyes, and knew that sooner or later, some of them would come. And then, with any luck, more would. Shown, not told . . . There were other things in the warehouses, things that she could have put to casual use in the Summers' presence, letting them see for themselves that their way of doing things was not the only way, not even necessarily the best. Lost in thought, she scarcely felt the pain of her overtaxed body as she started back up the ramp toward the city. 1 NUMBER FOUR Foursgate "Wake up, you stinking hero. This is no time for sleep--" Police Commander BZ Gundhalinu gasped and came awake in utter darkness, the sourceless words echoing in his head like a dream. "Wha--?" Dreaming , . . he had been dreaming. But it was a woman's face he had been dreaming of, as pale as moonlight, echoed in blue, her arms reaching out to him. . . . He rolled toward the edge of the bed, groping for the light, the time, the message function on his bedside table; groping for whatever had wakened him so rudely from the sodden sleep of exhaustion. He had not gotten back to the apartment from the latest in the seemingly endless series of fetes and celebrations honoring him until well after local midnight. He could not possibly have been asleep for more than two or three hours. Who in the name of a thousand gods--? He found the lamp base, slapped it with his hand--but no light came up. He realized then that he could see nothing at all, not even shadows against the night, the hidden form of a window. His hands flew to his face--rebounded without touching it from the polarized security shield locked in place over his head. He swore, scrambling out from under the covers on his hands and knees; felt strong arms--more than one set of them--lock around him, jerking him back. He heard the unmistakable crack of a stunner shot in the same instant that the hit impacted against his chest, and shut off his voluntary nervous system. He collapsed in the bedding, paralyzed but completely conscious, furiously aware that he was stark naked, because he had been too exhausted to throw on a sleep shirt before falling into bed. The hands rolled him roughly onto his back; he heard muttered speech distorted by the shield's energy field. What do you want---? His slack lips would not form the words that he needed to say--needing desperately to have that much effect on his body, or his fate. He could not swear, could not even moan. He felt their hands on him again, manhandling him with ruthless efficiency; realized with a sense of gratitude that was almost pathetic that they were wrapping his nerveless body in a robe. They lifted him off the bed, dragging him across the room and toward the door. Gods, kidnapped--he was being kidnapped. He struggled to control his panic, the only thing left over which he had any control at all; trying to keep his mind working, trying to think. What did they want? "You stinking hero," they'd called him. Ransom then, terrorism, information about the stardrive, Fire Lake--? Stop " THE SUMMER QUEEN 95 No way to guess that, he'd probably find out soon enough. Concentrate. What do you already know? He didn't know how many of them there were, where they were taking him--he grunted as he was dumped unceremoniously into the cramped floorspace of some kind of vehicle, and felt his captors climb in around him. He felt the vehicle rise, carrying them all to gods-only-knew what destination. Trying to use the only sensory feedback he had left to him, he realized that the vehicle had an oddly familiar smell. He recognized the distinctive odor of bandro, a stimulant drink imported from Tsieh-pun. Most of the Hegemonic Police force stationed here were from Tsieh-pun. Police. Could it be Police involvement? That would explain the equipment, the vehicle, the ruthless efficiency of the way they had made him their prisoner, even the effortless way they had walked in on him through the invisible walls of his security system. . . . But what in the name of all his ancestors would make the Police do this to him--? Maybe it was terrorists; maybe they were going to-- Oh gods, this is insane, why is this happening to me now--? No. Stop it. No. The stunshock was making it hard to breathe, doubled up in the cramped space. He recited an adhani silently, calming himself, and lay still, because he had no choice. He waited. They were coming down again. The flight hadn't been a long one. He must still be within range of Foursgate, at least. He tried to feel encouraged by that fact, and failed. The craft settled almost imperceptibly onto some flat surface, and he was hauled out of the vehicle like the dead weight he was. He was carried into another building, downward . . . down a long, echoing hall, into a lift which dropped them farther down. Had they landed on a rooftop pad? Or were they going underground? He had no clue. At last the sickening motion stopped; he was dropped, dead weight again, onto a hard surface. He felt his leaden hands and feet jerked wide and pinioned, felt a sting against his neck as someone gave him the antidote for the muscle paralysis. He took in a deep, ragged breath of relief as control came back to him, felt his muscles spasm as he tried to move his limbs. And then the invisible hands did something by his jaw, dissolving the security field--letting him see and hear at last. He raised his head, all he could do freely; let it fall back again. He made a sound that wasn't really a laugh. I'm having a nightmare. This isn't happening. . . . What he had seen was too absurd. He was not really lying here like this, inside a cone of stark white light, surrounded by a dozen figures in black star-flecked robes, their identities hidden behind hologramic masks: featureless forms crowned by the image of a Black Gate's flaming corona, its heart of darkness sucking his vision relentlessly down toward madness. It'sa dream, a flashback, stress, nightmare . . . wake up, wake up, damn you--! He did not wake up. His eyes still showed him the same figures, barely visible at the edges of the cone of light which shone relentlessly on his own helpless, half-clad body. He watched silently as one of the figures came toward him, stood over him, gazing down at him with infinity's face. He had to look away; he turned his face aside and shut his eyes. Sweat trickled down his cheek into his ear; the itch it caused was maddening, agonizing. His hand fisted with exasperation inside its restraint. The robed figure reached out, touched his straining hand almost comfortingly. The blunt, gloved fingers closed over his own, formed a hidden pattern as distinctive as it was unobtrusive. He stiffened as he recognized it; returned it with sudden hope. 1 96 Joan D. Vinge But then the face of flaming nothingness turned back to his own, and suddenly there was a light pencil in the stranger's hand. The blade of coherent light pricked his throat, touching the trefoil tattoo there; hot enough to make him jump, but not set to burn. An electronically distorted voice asked him, "Are you a sibyl?" The voice gave him no clue to the speaker; he could not even tell if it was a man or a woman. "Yes," he whispered, with his eyes still averted from the face of Chaos. "Yes, I am--my blood carries the virus." Hoping that the implied threat might prevent his suddenly seeing too much of his own blood. The voice laughed unpleasantly. "Considerate of you to warn us. But this cauterizes nicely." The faceless figure twitched the light pencil, making the spot of pain dance on Gundhalinu's neck. "What do you know about Survey?" "Input--" he murmured, taking the question as one asked of him in his official capacity; taking the easy way out. "Stop," the voice ordered, jerking him back into realtime just as his mind began the long fall into the sibyl net. "Answer me yourself. Are you a member of Survey?" "Yes," he repeated, reorienting with difficulty. His hand tightened over the memory of the other's touch. But you know that. Why am I here? Can you help me--? Not asking any of the questions forming in his mind, because he was afraid of what would happen if there were no answers. The silence when no one was speaking was almost complete; the sound of his own breathing hurt his ears. "What do you know about Survey?" the voice repeated. He shook his head, more surprised than frightened now by the unexpected turn of the questioning. Of all the possibilities his frantic brain had offered for this ordeal, his membership in Survey had not been one of them. He stared at the ceiling--if there really was one, in the darkness behind the blinding glare. "It's a private social and philanthropic organization. Almost everyone I knew--every Technician--on Kharemough seemed to be a member. There are chapters on all the worlds of the Hegemony." Many members of the Hegemonic Police belonged to it; he had attended meetings on three different worlds. "Look, this is absurd--" He raised his head, with difficulty, to confront the face of nightmare. "What in the name of any god you like do you want from me--?" "Just answer the question." The voice thrummed gratingly with its owner's impatience. The light pencil traced a stinging track down his naked chest and half-exposed stomach to the vicinity of his private parts. His eyes began to water as he felt the heat concentrate there. He took a deep breath, letting his head fall back again. "What do you want to know--?" His own voice sounded thin and peevish. "You can find out anything 1 could tell you down at the local meeting hall!" "Do many sibyls belong to Survey?" the voice asked, ignoring his response. He thought about it. "Yes. Quite a few." He had never realized until now what a high percentage of them there were. "But it isn't a requirement." "Do all sibyls belong to it?" He shook his head, remembering Tiamat. "No." "Why not?" He opened his eyes. "I don't know. I don't even know why so many of them do belong--" he said, exasperated. "How old is the organization?" "I don't know. Very old, I think. I believe it originated on Kharemough." THE SUMMER QUEEN 97 The masked questioner chuckled. "Like everything else of any value?" Gundhalinu grimaced. "How many levels of organization are there?" "What--? Three, I think. Three!" "And what level are you?" "Three. I am--was--am a Technician of second rank " "There are no higher levels, no inner circle--?" "Not to my knowledge." "You've never even heard rumors that such things may exist?" "Well . . . yes, but that's all they are. People like to see conspiracies everywhere. Some people like to fantasize about secrets. I've seen no evidence--" "There are no secret rituals involved? No rites of passage which you are forbidden to reveal?" "Well, yes, but they're meaningless." "You've never revealed them to anyone, though?" "No." "Describe them to me." "I can't." He shook his head, and felt the discomfort increase as his inquisitor pushed aside his robe, baring his flesh. "Describe them." "For gods' sakes!" he shouted, squirming, hating himself for it. "Even you know the goddamn handshake! It's meaningless! It's a stupid, meaningless social club'" "You're so wrong . . ." the voice murmured. The pain disappeared, suddenly and completely. Gundhalinu sucked in a loud gasp of relief. "Please . . ."he said, his voice thick, "at least tell me why I'm here--" "Then ask the right questions." Gundhalinu swallowed the protests forming in his throat. Ask the right questions. ... He had asked the right questions at Fire Lake, finally, and discovered a treasure of ancient knowledge locked inside the seemingly random phenomena of World's End; discovered a lost source of the Old Empire's stardrive plasma, which made faster-than-light travel between worlds possible. Was that the point, then9 Was he supposed to discover some secret meaning behind this gathering of madmen? Gods, I'm too tired for this. . . . But maybe he had been given the clues--or why all the questions about secrets within Survey, inner circles, higher levels . . . ? "Are you all strangers far from home?" It was the ritual question he had heard others ask, and asked himself, for years in the Survey Meeting Halls of three different worlds. The hologramic mask above him shifted focus, as if the wearer had nodded. "Very good," his questioner answered. "Now you're beginning to think like a hero." Gundhaiinu bit down on his imtation and was silent again, trying to concentrate on facts and not the incongruity of the situation. "What is the real purpose of this organization, then, if it isn't just what it seems?" Silence answered him, for a long moment; and then his inquisitor murmured, "There are some things which cannot be said, but only shown--" He reached out and touched Gundhalmu's forehead, in a gesture that was almost a benediction. But in his hand was something that resembled a crown, and it stayed behind, embracing Gundhalmu's head as if it were impossibly alive. Rays of light made a sunburst I 98 Joan D. Vinge between the fingers of the disappearing hand; grew, intensified suddenly and unbearably, burning out his vision, throwing him into utter darkness and silence. He lay that way for a long time, waiting, not trying to struggle because he knew that to struggle was useless; listening to the echoes of his own breathing, until the sound of each breath began to seem part of a larger sighing, as if the darkness itself were breathing around him. He had no sense of physicality at all anymore; of the room or the strangers around him; of the bonds which held him there; of his own body. . . . Cast adrift, he felt the muscles of his body slowly relaxing of their own volition. He began to feel as if he were falling into the blackness, seeing the heart of unlife, the Black Gate opening. . . . And then, distantly, he began to make out sound again ... a crystalline music that was almost silence, almost beyond the limit of his senses; the song that he had always imagined the universe would sing (somehow he only realized this now) if the stars had voices. And as he listened he realized that he had known that song forever, that it was the song the molecules sang, the DNA in his genes, the thought of eternity: the thread of his life, of a hundred, a thousand lives before him, carrying him back into the heart of the Old Empire. The stars began to wink into existence around him as he listened, almost as if by his thought, godlike, he had placed them there . . . their images lighting the sky in a new and completely strange variation on their universal theme of light against the darkness. The night of another world was all around him, breathing softly, whispering, restless in its sleep. "Look at the stars, Ilmarinen," someone said suddenly, beside him. "The colors . . . I've never seen stars like this anywhere. This is magnificent. How do you arrange these things--?" (Where am I--?) He felt himself start to laugh at the comment; felt himself choke it off, still not sure, after all these years (all these years--?) whether Vanamoinen was joking or actually meant it. That was a part of Vanamoinen's gift, and his infuriating uniqueness. . . . Vanamoinen had been sitting there looking at the stars for nearly three hours, he estimated, and those were the first words out of him. (Vanamoinen? Who are you--?) "I wish I could take credit for the view," he said, (but he was Gundhalinu, wasn't he? Why was he Ilmarinen, answering, letting himself smile . . . ?) "A veil of interstellar dust, that's all." But it was a magnificent sky; he had to admit it. ... That was the only word for it. The kind of view that reminded him of-- (Of what? Ilmarinen knew, this stranger whose eyes he was looking out of, whose sorrow and urgency he felt tightening his throat, whose life he seemed to have usurped, when he knew he was a prisoner somewhere in Foursgate, strapped to a table. . . .) " 'That's all,'" Vanamoinen murmured. His amusement might have been ironic; or maybe not. "They're late--?" he asked suddenly, as if they had not been sitting here for what felt like an eternity, waiting. "Yes," Ilmarinen said. (And Gundhalinu felt the tension inside Ilmarinen pluck at his guts again. He felt his body move, with old habit, to put an arm around Vanamoinen's shoulders where he sat. He could barely see the form of the man who sat cross-legged beside him on the sandy soil of the highlands, but he knew who it was; had always known Vanamoinen. He surrendered to the vision, letting it take him . . , felt a surge of emotion that was part wonder, part hunger, part need, fill THE SUMMER QUEEN 99 him ) His hand tightened as Vanamoinen's hand rose to cover it. After all these years ... he thought, still amazed by the feeling. Surely they must always have been together; life had only begun when they had met, and discovered the bonds of mind and spirit, the contrasting strengths, that had first made them lovers and then drawn them as a team into the Guild's highest levels. They were at the top of their fields within this sector's research and development--and their fields were information resources and technogenetic programming, which made it just barely possible that they would be able to do what they had set out to do . . . which made what they were doing, ir betrayal of the Establishment's trust, doubly treasonous. (He knew without looking down that he wore the uniform of Survey, the igramming of Sector Command; knew it somehow, as well as he knew that no one, one at all in the Governmental Interface must ever dream of what they were doing on this godforsaken promontory of this abandoned world--or they would be Eliminated like an unwanted thought.) Goddamn it. where was Mede--? He looked up restlessly at the Towers beyond Vanamoinen's silhouetted form: the massive, organic growths, branching, twisting, reaching for the stars with blunt limbs, no two of them alike . . . still standing like silent guardians, watching over this secret rendezvous. Once they had been home to a race of semisentient, parasitic beings; and then they had been home to the human settlers who had violated Survey's settlement code and decimated the population of their former owners . . . who had been decimated in turn in one of the interstellar brushfire wars that were both a cause and an effect of the Pangalactic's decay. Now there were only these husks, these silent reminders of life. . . . What was it Vanamoinen had said to him once: "Why did history begin? History is always terrible." He took a deep breath, his chest aching slightly because he was unused to the thin, dry air. It was damnably cold here, too, even wearing thermal clothing. He could not remember feeling this uncomfortable physically for this long since his recruit training. But paranoia made them avoid wearing even foggers, which would have given them the optimal microenvironment they were accustomed to. "Listen--" Vanamoinen said suddenly, aloud, fingering his ear nervously. They were avoiding the neural comm linkages that were so much easier to monitor from space, even though his own equipment had assured him that there was no one eavesdropping on any imaginable band of the spectrum. ... He touched his ear, feeling for the absent ear cuff, the dangling cascade of crystal that normally he always wore: the information system made into a work of art, as much a part of him as his skin. Vanamoinen's ear was also empty. It was like being naked ... no, worse, like being lost in a void. (Lost in the void. He felt his identity begin to slide. . . .) "Damn it all!" a voice said, gasping for breath, as the band of coconspirators reached their meeting place at last. "Ilmarinen, I hope it's you." "Yes. It's me," he answered, a little unsteadily. He slid his nightvision back into place with a blink of his eyelids, and smiled at last, as relief flooded through him. He realized as he did that a smile was not an expression he was much familiar with these days. They had come: Mede, and six more she had recruited, as she had promised. One more gamble he had won, one more small victory, one more painful step on a journey that seemed impossibly long. . . . "By all that lives, Ilmarinen, I'm too old for this nonsense," Mede wheezed. She embraced him warmly in spite of the complaint, for old time's sake, and dropped 100 Joan D. Vinge down heavily onto an outcrop of rock. "What are you--and I--doing in this godforsaken place?" "You know," he answered, even though the question was rhetorical. "Trying to save the future." She made a sound that was somehow mocking and hopeful all at once. "How are the children doing?" he asked. He assumed that if they were not doing well, she would have let him know. He and Mede had been together in their youth for long enough to produce three children, before their lives had taken separate turns. They had stayed in touch, and remained friends; their children were grown now. "Bezai finally gave it all up; she's gone native on Sittuh'. The others are still in the Guild, hanging on, like the rest of us. It's in the blood, I suppose." She shrugged. "You could ask them yourself, sometime." Her voice took on an edge. He looked down. "I'm sorry. I've been involved in this . . . project for so long. We've had no lives beyond it." When he looked up at her again he saw understanding, and was grateful. He made introductions; she jerked slightly, showing her surprise as she met Vanamoinen face to face. For years Vanamoinen had been as reclusive as he was notorious within the Guild. Vanamoinen stared at her with a gaze so intense that Ilmarinen always thought of it privately as murderous; though he knew there was no one in existence who had more reverence for life than Vanamoinen had. "You were receptive to my data?" Vanamoinen asked softly, peering at her with naked wonder, as if she were some rare and unexpected insight that had turned up in a random datascan. She glanced dubiously at Ilmarinen, as if Vanamoinen had asked her something nonsensical. "Of course I was," she said, looking back at him. "I'm here, aren't I? So are they." She gestured at the six other men and women gathered behind her, all of them wearing the uniform of Survey, as she was, with the datapatch of Continuity glowing dimly on every sleeve. "How many of the people you shared it with refused to come?" Vanamoinen asked. She looked surprised again. "Three." Her eyes clouded. "When I input your message, I felt . . . transformed. When I knew what it held, I hod to come ... we all did." Her voice filled with hushed wonder. "But the others--they got no input, any of them. They said I must be hearing things." She shook her head. "I was sure it was something that they would want to share in. I wanted to tell them . . . except that your message forbade it. Maybe there's something wrong with your transfer medium?" "It worked exactly as I intended," Vanamoinen said flatly. "They weren't suitable for the project. I designed the data medium to select suitable personalities only." He grinned with sudden triumph. "Ilmar!" he shouted, and the empty night echoed. "I did it!" Ilmarinen smiled. "Again," he said gently, and held up a warning hand. Mede stared at Vanamoinen for a long moment, and shook her head. "Then I'm flattered, I suppose," she murmured. "It's brilliant, Vanamoinen--a centralized databank with biological ports, as a stabilizing force for the Pangalactic. The Interface is going to hell, and this could make a real, measurable difference. ..." Her eyes gleamed. "But why not just give the concept to the Establishment? Why this pathological secrecy, for the love of All?" Ilmarinen frowned, looking up at the stars. (Gundhalinu looked with him, THE SUMMER QUEEN 101 feeling incredulous wonder push his consciousness through the darker mood that now moved the man called Ilmannen, into the realization of who and where he was, at what fixed moment in time--) "Because I already approached them about it. If they were capable of implementing something like this, don't you think they would have? All they're capable of now is preventing it from happening." He shook his head, hearing the bitterness of years in his voice. "Stupid use of smartmatter has been killing the Pangalactic; we all know it. That's why the Establishment has been trying to root it out of everything nonvital. 'Nonvital' . . . they use the longevity drugs themselves, by the All!" His hands jerked. "We're history, Mede. . . . But smartmatter can save what's left of us, if we're only smart enough--" He broke off. "You know what we think, or you wouldn't be here. Believe me, Mede, we are not two lunatics alone in this." He glanced past her, at the half-dozen other earnest faces, the men and women who stood in a semicircle around her, watching his face in the darkness "We could never have come this far otherwise. The computer is already functioning." Mede let out a breath of surprise. "Where?" He shook his head, as the image began to form in his thoughts; not even letting himself (or the other who held his breath inside him) remember its name. "I couldn't tell you if I wanted to. No one must ever know. It has to be that way, or it will never last." She nodded. "But at least you can tell me what you want from me ... us?" She gestured at her companions, glanced around her again, as if she were still astonished to find herself here. But there was almost a hunger in her voice as she asked, "What can we do?" Slowly he reached into his jacket, and drew out a small container. On its side was the ages-old barbed trefoil signaling biological contamination. "Become sibyls," he said. She stiffened. "Smartmatter--?" He nodded, getting on with it before she could form real protests. "You're in Continuity. It gives your people excellent reason to travel extensively. What we need now are outlets--human computer ports able to interact with, and speak for the net. It would be easy for you to spread the word, to recruit them on the worlds you visit, just as we recruited you." "Ilmarinen, we share a long history. You know I trust you with my life, or I would not have come ..." she said slowly. "But are we the first you've asked this of?" He nodded again. "Yes. But you won't be the last." He caught her stare, abruptly understood it. He touched the container of serum. "It's under control," he said, willing her to believe him. "There are no mistakes in its programming. The technoviral that will make you receptive has been designed by one of the few people who truly understands--" She gazed at the container for a moment longer. "How can we know . . . ?" "You're not the first to be infected." She looked back at him abruptly, as he drew out the thing that he wore night and day now, hidden beneath his clothing, close to his heart. A trefoil on a chain, the same symbol imprinted on the container, symbolizing how it bound him now to his chosen future. Silently Vanamoinen produced the same sign. Vanamoinen had been the first; he had been the second. Ill 102 foan D. Vinge Mede's eyes studied them, searching for--something, or for the lack of it. Then, slowly, she offered Ilmannen her hand. (And as he touched her the stars wheeled and died, and . . . ) He was drifting, turning--he watched a spiral of nebula wheel past as he ... moved. (Moved.) He lifted an arm, moved a leg experimentally--set himself spinning again, as if he were in zero gravities. (Zero gee--) He looked down; he was hanging in midair, in the pilot's chamber aboard the ... the interstellar transport Starcrosser. Directly below him, through the transparent viewing wall, was a world called T'rast. The Starcrosser had brought this group of refugee colonists, survivors of a world decimated in intersystem warfare, here to begin a new life. His crew were in charge of seeing that they began it with all the knowledge, resources, and protection that it was still humanly possible to provide. His crew had mapped T'rast's surface, cataloged its hazards and its resources, seeded it with biogenetically adapted medicinals . . . what they had left of them. He looked down again at the uniform he wore, the brown/green of Survey. (Of course, Gundhalinu thought, what else could it be; but whose body--?) The data patches glowed softly against its worn cloth. Still his duty, to serve the Pangalactic ... to serve its people, even though there was no longer a single Pangalactic Interface controlled by a single Establishment--even though his own ability to obtain supplies or replace equipment had reached critical. He had kept on shaking his fist in the face of Chaos; struggling to do his work, the only work he knew, the only work he had ever wanted to do. He looked out at the stars. He had known for years that one of these trips would be his last one. He would run out of supplies, or out of luck--Chaos would close its fist on the Starcrosser, something vital would fail, pirates would take them. . . . The crew were tired, burned out, afraid. This time--maybe it was right that this time should be the last. That was the way the others wanted it, he knew; to make this their final journey, to settle in here with the rest of the refugees. . . . He called on the simulators, found himself standing on the surface of T'rast, with warm, azure water lapping his ankles. On the rock-strewn beach behind him, the bleached white boulders had been smoothed by time and tide until they resembled benign alien beings sunning themselves on the peaceful shore. In the distance he could see mountains, snow-capped even though it was summer here. It was beautiful; he could be happy in this place. . . . But he touched the crystal hanging at his ear, and at his unspoken thought, the simulator changed again. He was living in his memories--deep in the heart of a canyon image, the red-rock walls rising around him until he could not see the sky, only the amber-tinged glow of reflected light pouring down on him, until he seemed to be standing in the heart of a burnished shell, the sensuous undulations of the stone around him like the wind made tangible. . . . Standing on a glacier surface, in a silence so utter that the sound of his own blood rushing in his veins was like the sound of thunder; watching as the binary twin of his world rose above the black reaches of a distant range of peaks, an enormous, golden globe turning to silver the icebound terrain on which he stood. . . . Standing beneath the restless, churning sky of yet another world, one where electromagnetic phenomena kept the atmosphere in constant flux like the windswept surface of a sea. . . . Half a dozen more worlds flickered past, where he had been among the first--to THE SUMMER QUEEN 103 explore, to study, catalog and open to colonization. It had been the life's work of his ancestors, of his Guild, for centuries. Now, at last, all of that had come to an end. Everything had its limits. . . . The world below him filled his eyes again: the last world he would ever see. It would be the challenge of a lifetime, to learn to live on one world, knowing that he could never leave it. He had no choice. If he only had a choice. ... He felt wetness on his face, and was surprised to find that he was weeping. The voice of one of the crew rattled over the neural link, making his vision light up with artificial stars, because the link was defective and there was no way to repair it. "Yes, what?" he subvocalized irritably, self-consciously. "An interface from Continuity, sir." Her voice sounded as stunned as he suddenly felt. "I think ... I think you'll want to input it immediately." He closed his eyes, although he did not want to, until all that he saw was darkness. . . . And then the sound, that he had always dreamed of hearing ... the chiming of astral voices, a brightness beyond any known spectrum, and the voice of a stranger calling him. . . . (Calling him into darkness, falling away . . . ) And he was Derrit Khsana, a minor official in a petty dictatorship that was grinding under its heel the people of a world called Chilber . . . and he was Survey, although he wore no uniform, and the Guild he had sworn to serve above all other allegiances had opened no new worlds in three centuries. . . . Secure in his secret knowledge, silently repeating a ritual meditation to help him remain calm, he walked the halls of the government nexus as confidently as if he had not just stopped the heart of the First Minister with untraceable poison supplied to him by that same hidden network. The way was now clear for a restructuring of the ruling party. They would insert a moderate in the First Minister's place, and with a few other subtle adjustments of the flow of influence, would release a thousand sibyls from involuntary service to the government's Bureau of Knowledge. He had done his job well, and he would be rewarded well, as the sibyls' wisdom again flowed freely through the lives of his people ... as he accepted the influential new post of Subminister of Finance that would be his just reward for this service. ... He closed his eyes, shutting out the memory of another man's death, feeling it fade into the brightness of the future; feeling everything fade. . . . And he saw a woman, cowering on the steps of a once-great building below him where he stood. He was Haspa, wearing the criqpson robes and the spined golden crown of the Sun King . . . and she wore the spined trefoil of a sibyl. The crowd of faces surrounding her (looking somehow strangely, terrifyingly familiar, as if he were gazing down into the faces of his own ancestors) cried out for her death. And he raised his arm, the curving golden sacramental blade gleaming in the sunlight (he cringed in horror) as he brought it down. But it was not to kill her (death to kill a sibyl . . . ) but to lay open his own wrist, and, before the gaping astonishment of the crowd, to mingle his own blood with the blood of a sibyl; to become one himself, to end the madness of persecution . . . because he had made the journey to their sacred choosing place, seeking the truth; and he had heard the music of the spheres and seen the unbearable brightness. . . . He felt the mystery of the divine virus take hold of him as their blood flowed together, and he knew fear and awe as the darkness of night overtook the sun. . . . And he was falling through destiny, vision after vision, until he lost all sense of MM 104 Joan D. Vmge identity, any proof that he had ever been an individual man, in a structured reality he could call time . . . through centuries of hidden history into the future . . . feared and worshiped and persecuted and revered ... a sibyl offering the key to knowledge openly, intimately, blood to blood; a member of a once-proud Guild forced into hiding by the secrets it bore, as it guarded its gift to humankind and forged a silent network of its own, a secret order underlying seeming chaos. . . . And he was BZ Gundhalinu, third son of a rigid, Technocrat father--Survey member, Police inspector . . . traitor, failed suicide. He had gone into the wilderness called World's End in search of his brothers, to save their lives, to salvage the family's honor ... to salvage his own honor, or end his own life. There he had found Fire Lake, and in the grip of its tortured reality he had lost all proof of his own reality . . . had been taken for a lover by a madwoman, a woman driven insane by the sibyl virus. In the heat of lust she had infected him. And he had become a sibyl, and it had driven him sane; he had discovered at last the secret order at the heart of the chaos called Fire Lake. . . . And he had brought his brothers back, and given the secret of Fire Lake to the Hegemony. They had made him a hero and honored him, and respected him and kidnapped and imprisoned him and shown him the truth within truth. . . . "--like he's gone into Transfer, for gods' sakes." Someone shook him, not gently, driving the words through his darkness like lines of coherent light. "What? How? That's never happened--" Someone else peeled back his eyelid, letting in light; let it go again. "--got no control, only been a sibyl for a few weeks. No real training either." Their voices echoed blindingly across the spectrum, making his eyes tear, yet so impossibly distant that they seemed unreachable. "No formal training? It's a miracle he functions at all." "He is a Kharemoughi--" A snort of laughter. "He's a failed suicide, too; which meant he was better off dead by your count, until he discovered stardrive plasma in Fire Lake. Neither of those things has a pee-whit to do with why he's here ... or why he's a Hero of the Hegemony either, probably." The words were clearer now, sliding down the spectrum from light to sound, growing easier to comprehend, closer to his center. "Kindly keep your lowborn snideries to a--" "Quiet! Remember where you are for gods' sakes, and what we're here for. We haven't got all night. How can we get him out of Transfer?" "We can't. Once the net's got him, he's gone." "This wasn't supposed to happen. Where did it send him? What if he can't pull out of it?" "By the Aurant! Don't even say it." "There's got to be a way to reach him. Use the light pencil. Maybe if you really burn him, threaten his life, the net will let him go." "That won't ..." Gundhalinu drew in a shuddering breath and squeezed the words out, "won't be necessary." He forced his eyes open, was blinded for his efforts, and shut them again with a curse, turning his face away from the light. Someone's arm slid under his shoulders, raising him up carefully until he was almost sitting. Someone else held a cup to his lips. He drank. It was bandro; the strong, raw flavor of the spices and stimulant made his mouth bum. THE SUMMER QUEEN 105 I n H He opened his eyes again, blinking in the glare, and lifted his hands, as he suddenly realized that he could, that he was sitting unaided, freed from his bonds. The circle of faceless inquisitors still ringed him, at the limits of the light that shone down on him alone. He shook his head, rubbing his eyes, not entirely certain now whether this reality was any more real than the ones he had just inhabited these past minutes . . . hours . . . ? He had no idba how long he had been lost. He was thirsty and he needed to urinate, but that could be nerves, or the drugs they had used on him. He pulled his robe together, covering himself, and fastened the clasp almost defiantly. "Welcome--home, Gundhalinu," one of the figures said solemnly. Gundhalinu found himself searching for a hand that held a mug of bandro, anything that would distinguish any one of them from another ... but even the mug had vanished. "Have I been away?" he asked tightly, his voice rasping. "You can answer that for yourself," another figure said. "I trust your journey was enlightening?" "Very," he answered, using the single word like a knife. "Then you understand who we are ... and what you have become, now?" He looked from one flaming, featureless face to another, and shook his head. "No," he muttered, refusing to give them anything, his anger and indignation still fresh and hot inside him. "Don't lie to us!" One of the figures stepped toward him, with the light pencil appearing suddenly in its hand. Gundhalinu flinched back involuntarily. "Don't ever underestimate the seriousness of our resolve, or of your situation. If we are not certain--now or ever--that you are with us, then you are against us, and you will pay. Sibyl or not, it is simple necessity. The group must survive. You saw how easily we brought you here. Nothing escapes us. Do you understand?" Gundhalinu nodded silently. "You went into Transfer during the interface. Was that intentional? Where did you go?" "It wasn't intentional," he said. He looked down at the reassuring familiarity of his own hands, the skin smooth and brown, scattered with pale freckles. "I wasn't aware that you hadn't done it to me yourself. I don't know where I was. ... I was--history." He shrugged, turning his palms up. "You experienced an overview of the origins of the sibyl network, and its ties to historical Survey." "Yes." He looked up again, facing the flaming darkness of the face before him. "I was . . . Ilmarinen." The archaic name felt strangely alien on his tongue. "Ilmarinen--?" someone muttered, and was waved silent. "I see," his questioner murmured; but he sensed from the tone that he had not made the anticipated response. "I understand now," he pushed on, before they could lay any more questions in front of him like pressure-sensitive mines, "the link between Survey and the sibyls." His mind spun giddy for a moment as the full implications hit him. If it was all true . . . And somehow he was sure that it was. "Then it is true that there are higher orders within Survey, inner circles hidden even from our own members?" "Now at least you're asking the right questions," the questioner said. Gundhalinu let his feet slide off the edge of the table, so that he was sitting more comfortably, more like an equal. He did not attempt to put a foot on the floor, 106 Joan D. Vinge actually challenging their territory. "I have another question, that may not be the one you want me to ask. . . . Why? Why are you still necessary? Sibyls are no longer persecuted." Except on Tiamat. His questioner shrugged. "In all times and places there are sociohistonca! developments which threaten to impede or even destroy humanity's progress. Even before the sibyls, Survey was dedicated to helping humanity grow. To giving our people space, both physical and mental. It has always been that way; it always will be. We are dedicated to doing the greatest good for the most people, wherever possible ... as unobtrusively as possible." Gundhalinu rubbed his arms inside the sleeves of his robe. "But you'd kill me just like that if I oppose you?" The questioner chuckled; the distorted sound was like water going down a dram. "I don't think that will be necessary. Commander Gundhalinu." The light shining down on him went out, leaving him in sudden darkness, ringed by glowing holes that sucked his vision into the night, Black Gates opening on countless otherwheres or endless nightmare, myriad lights like the stars of an alien sky. . . . He sat motionless, hypnotized, seeing ancient starfields through the eyes of ancient Ilmannen; the ghost-haunted hellshine of Fire Lake-- And then, one by one, the lights began to go out, until the darkness surrounding him was complete. Abruptly there was light again, all around him this time; letting him see at last the room in which he was held prisoner--whitewashed, windowless, lined with portable carriers which could have held anything, or nothing--and the three men who remained in the room with him. He had counted nearly a dozen figures before. He wondered where the others had disappeared to, so quickly. He fixed his gaze on the three who remained, realizing with a start of disbelief that he knew them all. Two were Kharemoughis--Estvarit, the Hegemonic Chief Justice, and Savanne, Chief Inspector of the Hegemonic Police force on Number Four; the third questioner was Yungoro, the Governor-General of the planet. He barely controlled the reflex that would have had the man he was before Fire Lake down off the table, delivering a rigid salute before he had taken another breath. Instead he looked behind himself, pointedly, at the restraints that had held him down He looked at the men again, forcing himself to remember all he had learned and endured and become in the past months. . . . Forcing himself to remember that he himself was now a Commander of Police, and though he had no assigned command, outranked two of the three men in the room with him. He nodded to each man in turn, an acknowledgment between equals. "Gentlemen," he said. "It's a pleasure to see you again." His voice was steady; his mouth curved up of its own accord into an ironic smile. "Especially as a stranger far from home." "The Universe is Home to us all." The Chief Justice--the one man who outranked him in the outside world--made the response, with a smile that looked genuine. "You're a little hard on strangers," Gundhalinu said, and saw Savanne glance away. He got down from the table at last, feeling muscles pull painfully in his stiffened side. His relief and exhaustion left him weak; he supported himselt unobtrusively against the cold metal edge of the table. "I'm sorry. Commander," Estvarit said. "But it is always done this way. It is imperative that we impress upon new initiates both the seriousness of this induction THE SUMMER QUEEN 107 and its grave importance to their own lives. A certain amount of fear serves the purpose." The Chief Justice was a tall, lean man. the tight curls of his hair graying. He had a slow, almost languid way of speaking that put others instinctively at ease. Gundhahnu felt the iron in his smile turn to rue. "My nurse told me, when I was a boy, that one day when she was a child a winged click-lizard appeared on the windowsill of her parents' house. Her people considered it to be a blessing on the house. When she pointed it out to her father, he knocked her across the room. He told her afterward that an important event should always be marked by pain, so that you would remember it. But she said that she was not sure now whether she remembered the lizard because of the slap, or the slap because of the lizard." He heard a barely restrained chuckle from the Governor-General. Estvarit quirked his mouth. "I think you have a career ahead of you as a public speaker, Gundhalinu." "What made you decide all at once that I was material for the inner circles of Survey?" Estvarit reached into his uniform robes and pulled something out. Gundhalinu started as his eyes registered what the other man held up for his perusal: two overlaid crosses forming an eight-pointed star within a circle, the Hegemonic Seal he had seen reproduced on every official government document and piece of equipment down to the buckle of his uniform belt; but transformed here into a shimmering miracle of hologramic fire. "I'm to be given the Order of Light?" he murmured; stunned, but, he realized, not particularly surprised. He had a sudden memory of the wilderness, of the fiery gem called a solii held out to him in the slender-fingered hand of a madwoman. ... He shook his head slightly, clearing it. Estvarit nodded. "For conspicuous courage and utter sacrifice, you are being made a Hero of the Hegemony. You won't be informed--officially--of the honor for about another week. Congratulations, Commander Gundhalinu. This award is usually given posthumously." Gundhalinu wondered whether there was actually irony in Estvarit's voice. "I'm honored. . . ."He shook his head again, in awe, not in denial, as Estvarit placed the medal in his hand, letting him prove its reality. "You've shown yourself worthy of the honor, Gundhalinu," Savanne said. "The . . . scars of the past have been erased by your discovery of the stardrive--" Estvant turned, frowning, to silence Savanne with a look. The Governor General coughed and flexed his hands. "Yes," Estvarit said brusquely, "you have been chosen to join the inner circles because of the discovery you made at Fire Lake, and all that it implies--and I don't mean awards or honors or any other superfluous symbolism. I mean the real, raw courage and the intelligence obviously required of anyone who could survive World's End, and come out of it not only alive and sane, but with the truth about it. The past is meaningless, now, because you've changed the future for all of us, as well as for yourself. I don't have to tell you that." Gundhalinu passed back the medal without responding. He folded his hands in front of him, feeling surreptitiously for the marks on the inside of his wrists, the brand of a failed suicide, that he had had removed at last after his return from World's End. "And because, instead of holding your knowledge for ransom, you gave it freely to the Hegemony." The Chief Justice's eyes searched his face. "Gundhalinu, the 108 /oan D. Vmge petty prejudices and the narrow-minded cultural biases of nations or worlds have no place in our organization. We serve the side of Order, against the Chaos that always threatens. I sense that you share that vision. And you have proven that you have the capacity to make a genuine difference." Gundhalinu hesitated, studying the other man's face in turn, with eyes that had judged a lot of liars, and knew they were too often indistinguishable from honest human beings. But there was no hidden revulsion in this man's eyes, for what he had done to himself in what seemed now like a former life. . . . The Chief Justice was not simply the most powerful man in the Hegemonic government on Four, he was a Tech, a member of the highest level of society on Kharemough, their mutual homeworld. He could not have suppressed his response--would not have bothered to--unless what he said was true. Gundhalinu had always had a sense that Estvarit was a man who deserved his position, a man of uncommon integrity; but now he actually believed it. "Yes," he said at last. "That is what I feel, too." His ordeal at Fire Lake had taught him many hard truths. But the hardest of them all was the bitter knowledge that what he had believed all his life--what being a Tech on Kharemough had always let him believe--about himself as the ultimate controlling force in his life was a laughable lie. He controlled nothing, in the pattern of the greater universe. And yet that utter negation of his arrogant self-importance, which had made him blame himself for circumstances beyond his control--which had made him believe he was better off dead--had, in the end, freed him. He had witnessed the precarious balance between Order and Chaos in the universe, and realized that, as a free man, he could make his own choices, that he was only himself, and not his family's honor, or his ancestors' expectations. He had decided then that he and he alone controlled one thing, and that was how he chose to live his life. He had chosen to work for Order, and against Chaos ... to do the greater good, even in defiance of the laws of the Hegemony, if those laws were unjust. "How did you know?" he murmured. "Your actions spoke for you." Gundhalinu sighed, like a man who had finally arrived home, feeling the tension flow out of him--tension that had become so profoundly a part of him that he could hardly believe it had gone. "Thank you," he said, feeling his throat close over the words, "for showing me that I'm not alone." The Chief Justice smiled, and held up a hand. Gundhalinu raised his own hand, pressed it palm to palm in a pledge and a greeting. Somberly the other men touched hands with him. Gundhalinu brought his hand up to his mouth to cover a sudden yawn. Without tension driving him forward, fatigue was gaining on him, threatening to drag him down. "Gentlemen, this has been truly unforgettable. I am grateful for all you've shown me. But it must be close to dawn, and I'm expected to be coherent and vertical for a charity breakfast in my honor given by the Wendroe Brethren." Irony pricked him, not for the first time, as he glanced at the Chief Inspector and the Governor General. "Forgive me, but I am exhausted. ..." "Of course." The Chief Justice nodded. "But before you leave us, I must tell you two things: One is, of course, that you must not speak of this to anyone. You know the three of us now for what we are. . . . You will meet others in time, and be taught the ritual disciplines and also certain restricted information as you rise THE SUMMER QUEEN 109 through the inner levels. But, more importantly, before you go there is one thing Jcnown only to the inner circles that we must share with you immediately, for the sake of the Hegemony's security." Gundhalinu forced his weary, restive body to stay still. "What is it?" "You hold vital information about the nature of the stardrive plasma and Fire Lake. That information must be transmitted to Kharemough immediately. They need lead time in fitting a fleet of ships. They must be ready to maintain order; because once the stardrive gets out, everyone in all the Eight Worlds will have the technology and the freedom to worldhop almost instantaneously, without the time-lags we now face. I'm sure you've already considered the tremendous change that will create in our interplanetary relations." "You want Kharemough to maintain its control of the Hegemony, then?" Gundhalinu asked. "I am a Kharemoughi, and I love my people . . . but I thought I understood that Survey does not play favorites--" Estvarit nodded. "But we do play politics, as we said. We try to achieve the result that brings about the most good for the most people. Only the established Hegemonic government can effectively control access to the stardrive, and keep the technology from spreading like a disease, causing political chaos and interstellar war. Because it will spread. ..." He looked down. "By ordinary means it would take several years for even the news of your discovery to reach any other world of the Hegemony, including Kharemough. But you, as a sibyl, have the means to change that." "How?" Gundhalinu asked, his hand searching for the trefoil symbol on its chain, which he was not wearing. "If no one on Kharemough even suspects this discovery, they can't . . . ask the right questions, so that I can give them the answers." And yer . . . In the back of his mind, he realized that he had done something very like it, when he had been lost in World's End: He had called Moon Dawntreader, and she had come to him-- "There is a way; there always has been, but we have kept it to ourselves. I will give you the name of one of our members, a sibyl, on Kharemough. With the special Transfer sequence we will teach you, you will be able to open a port to this person directly." Gundhalinu made a sound that was not quite a laugh. "This is incredible! A means of instantaneous faster-than-light communication-- Why haven't you shared this?" "Because if we are to keep faith with the trust of our ancestors, we must have our secrets--keep our edge." Estvarit shrugged. "Now listen to me, and listen well. ..." Around them the lighting in the room dimmed and brightened, dimmed and brightened again. "Damnation!" Estvarit murmured. Abruptly the lights went out, smothering them all in pitch-blackness. Ye gods, not again. The thought formed inside the blackness behind Gundhalinu's eyes. Someone's hands seized him by the shoulders, pulling him around with desperate urgency. "This way. . . ."He recognized the voice of the Governor-General. He let himself be led, fumbling but obedient, across the room and through what felt like a hole in the night--a change in deflected sound, in the quality of the air. He bumped up against a wall two steps farther on. "Follow the tunnel up," the Governor-General murmured. "Don't worry, don't 110 Joan D. Vinge ask questions. Everything is all right. Just get out. Come to the Foursgate Meeting Hall tomorrow evening. We'll be in touch--" And then he was alone, closed in ... sure of it, even though he could see nothing. He stretched out his right hand, keeping his left firmly against the wall; fighting a sinking uncertainty for the second time in one night. He found the hard, slick surface of the narrow hallway's other wall less than an arm's length away. He began to feel his way along it, moving slowly, testing every step. The tunnel led him steadily upward, the air seeming to grow deader and more oppressive as he traveled, until at last he collided with a flat surface, the darkness suddenly made material. But before panic could take hold of him, the surface gave under his pressure, releasing him into sudden daylight and fresh air. He stumbled out into the street and the door slipped shut behind him, merging into the surface of the wall, until by the time he turned around he could not have said where it was. He stood staring at the wall for a long moment, breathing deeply, befuddled by the light and the chill, damp air. He turned away again at last, taking in his surroundings and his predicament. He was still in Foursgate, but in the Old Quarter. Under his bare feet was a narrow stretch of moisture-slick pavement, all that separated the shuttered silent warehouses from the cold, lapping water of a canal--one of the myriad canals winding through the ancient duroplass buildings and out to the sea. He could smell the sea, even though its sharp, fresh scent was wrapped in the reek of stagnant water and rotting wood and other, even less appetizing odors. The air around him was filled with moisture, as it always was, fog lying like a shroud over the Old Quarter, a fine, incessant drizzle wetting his face. The mottled gray of building walls faded into the wall of fog in either direction within a few meters of where he stood. The fog lay on the surface of the canal until the two became one in his vision, as seamlessly as the door had disappeared into the illusory solidness of the wall behind him. Somewhere in the distance he heard tower chimes begin a sonorous melody, their voices muffled and surreal. It must be barely dawn, and no one else seemed to be up and moving, even here. He leaned against the building side, too weary not to, pulling his robe tighter around him as he began to shiver. He was all alone, wet, cold, half-naked and lost, without even the credit necessary to hire an air taxi to take him home. The events of the past hours suddenly seemed like an insane dream, but the fact that he was standing here proved their reality. One thing he was not, certifiably, was a sleepwalker. "What the hell is going on here?" he demanded of the walls; heard his own words flung back at him. Why that unexpected, unceremonious exit from the depths of a hidden room? Was this supposed to be one final test--proving himself worthy by making his way home in the rain, creditless and barefoot--? He let out a short bark of laughter, sharp with anger and exasperation. But even as he thought it, he knew he did not believe that. Something unexpected had happened in there, and not just to him. Were there others trying to get at Survey's secrets ... or were the inner circles of Survey not the haven of order and reason they seemed to be? He shook his head, too exhausted to work it out, or even to feel much concern about it. They would be in touch. . . . Then he would have his answers. "Ferry, sah?" a deep voice called out, resonating eerily off the walls around him. THE SUMMER QUEEN 111 He looked up, felt water drip into his eyes from his hair. A shallow, hign-prowed canal boat was soundlessly nosing its pointed bow in toward the small wooden dock almost below him. The man standing in its stern poled it closer with motions that looked effortless, but probably were not. The boatman wore the shapeless, hooded gray cape they all seemed to wear, "to keep 'em from molding," his sergeant had remarked once. "Where to, sail?" Gundhalinu moved forward to the edge of the dock, looking down into the boat. . Its outer hull was a silvery gray that made it one with the water surface, the fog, the stones of the quay. . . . But its interior, its single flat, wide seat, the elaborate carving on its prow, were decorated in strident, eye-stunning colors, alive with intricate geometric designs that had been patiently painted by hand. He looked up again, trying to see the man's face. Most of it was shadowed by the sodden gray hood, but he could see that the boatman was a local--by the golden icast of his skin, the dark eyes with a slight epicanthic fold. "Sah?" the boatman said patiently, gesturing him forward. Gundhalinu hesitated, realizing how absurd he looked, and trying not to think |about it. "I need to get back to the upper city. But I haven't any money." The boatman chuckled. "Nor anything to keep it in either, even." Gundhalinu smiled wearily, and shrugged. "Thanks anyway." He began to turn |away, ready to start walking. "Well, I'll take you up for the company, then," the boatman said. "Business is slow before dawn, and you look to be a stranger far from home." Gundhalinu turned back, so quickly that he almost slipped on the slick pavement. Moving more cautiously, he climbed down into the boat and settled himself on the seat. He turned to look up again at the man standing behind him. It was no one he knew; he was certain of that. "The universe is home to us all." He murmured the traditional response, still watching the other man's face. "So it is," the boatman said noncommittally, looking away again as he pushed off from the pier. He propelled the boat on up the canal with brisk, sure motions of his pole. After a time, he ventured, "Must have been quite a night, sah." "Yes, it was," Gundhalinu said. "It certainly was that." He watched the buildings drift past like fragments of dreams, made rootless by the fog, as if they were moving and the boat was motionless. "A young lady, sah? Perhaps then an unexpected husband--?" Gundhalinu glanced back at him, and shook his head, smiling. "No." "Too much to dream, then?" "What--?" He broke off, remembering. To the locals that meant drugs. And yet when he thought about it, it made more genuine sense than anything he could have said himself about what he had experienced tonight. "Yes. I suppose so." That answer seemed to satisfy the boatman, and he fell silent. Gundhalinu kept his own silence, his numb, shivering body hunched over itself, aching for permission to go to sleep sitting upright. But his mind refused to let go, fixating on one thing, the final thing out of all he had learned--he could communicate with another sibyl. What had happened to him at Fire Lake was not a fluke. All he needed was to know that sibyl's name. And he knew her name ... her face, her body, her world. . . . The fog seemed to whiten, like fields of snow . . . Moon. "Here we are, sah." 112 Joan D. Vinge He started awake; looked up, realizing that he had nodded off, that they had arrived at the Memorial Arch that marked the boundary between the upper and lower sections of Foursgate, between street and canal, land and sea. Here he could find transportation that would accept a credit number, or would at least take him to his own door and wait while he fetched his card to pay for the ride. The boat bumped adroitly against the pylons of the dock. The boatman held the craft steady as Gundhalmu got to his feet. "I don't know how to thank you--" he began, but the boatman shook his head. "No need, sah. Only take some free advice, then, from one who knows this world: Watch out for the ones who did that to you. They'll fill your mind up with too many of their dreams, until you can't think clearly anymore. What they sell you isn't all true, and it isn't all harmless. Be on your guard, when you mix in those circles." He held out his hand, stood waiting to help Gundhalinu make the unsteady step across onto solid ground. "Yes," Gundhalinu murmured uncertainly. "Yes, I will. . . ."He took the proffered hand; felt an unmistakable, hidden pattern in the brush of the boatman's fingers. He returned it, and felt the grip tighten warmly over his own before he stepped onto the pier. "Blessed be, sah," the boatman said. "It's a privilege I don't have every day, giving a ride to a famous person like yourself. . . ."He pushed away from the dock. "Wait--!" Gundhalinu looked up, gesturing the boatman back. The boatman raised his own hand in a farewell salute as his boat drifted on into the mist. Gundhalinu stood silently, gazing after him until he was lost from sight. ONDINEE: Razuma Kedalion Niburu leaned against the warm side of the hovercraft, breathing in the parched, spice-scented air of the marketplace, taking in the color-splashed scene with mixed emotions as he waited for Reede Kullervo's return. He glanced diagonally across the street at a mudbrick wall topped by iron spikes. From behind its heavy wooden gate, he could hear the unmistakable screams of someone in serious pain The someone in question was not Reede, which meant that the visit was proceeding as planned. The local dealer behind that gate had been cutting Reede's product with inferior drugs, or so he'd heard. When he was in one of his moods, Reede liked to set matters THE SUMMER QUEEN 113 straight personally, and he'd been in one of his moods today, when he'd kicked Kedahon out of bed at dawn, calling him a lazy son of a bitch. Damn him. Kedalion took a deep breath. At least it had gotten them out of the citadel for the day. Humbaba didn't like it when Reede did his own dirty work . . . but then, Reede didn't care, and even Humbaba seemed powerless to stop him. It seemed impossible that it had been less than three years, in subjective time, since he had gone to work for Reede Kullervo . . . since he had, more accurately, come under Reede's thumb. He felt as though he had been Kullervo's private property forever; even though he still remembered as vividly as if it were yesterday the day he had come to work for Humbaba's cartel. Like a near-fatal wound, it was not something he was ever likely to forget: that day when he had finally admitted to himself that Reede Kullervo's power and influence were actually as great as Reede had claimed; that Kedalion Niburu had become a nonperson, who would starve to death on the streets of Razuma's port town before anyone would hire him for any job whatsoever--because Reede had put out the word that he was spoken for. With the Prajna impounded for docking fees and the red debit figure on his nonfunctional credit card showing larger each day, he had finally swallowed his pride and sold himself--and a willing Ananke--into this golden servitude. He sighed, pushing the memory back into a closet in his mind, where he sometimes managed to keep it forgotten for days at a time. He had to admit, in spite of everything, that there were worse jobs, worse positions he could be in. . . .He could be the dealer getting the shit kicked out of him behind that wall across the street, for instance. He inched farther into the hovercraft's shade. The heat made him dizzy; the sweat on his skin dried almost instantly, but even that wasn't enough to make him feel cool. At least the heat was predictable. Razuma was as close as he had come to a home in a long time, and he was glad enough to be back in town after their latest trip offworld. His travels with Reede were neither as frequent nor--as far as he could tell--as hazardous to his health as his former solo runs. So far they had been offworld twice in the time he had worked for Reede. And the job paid a hell of a lot better, just as Reede had promised him. But the fact that he never knew what the trips were for--was never given even a clue about what Reede wanted, or got out of, those journeys--preyed on his nerves in a different sort of way; just as being stuck on Ondinee for the majority of his time, playing glorified chauffeur to a manic depressive, did. On the other hand, he'd discovered that working for Reede had a built-in cachet that protected him from the locals' harassment, while it gave him access to places and pleasures he'd never dreamed this planet possessed. A world was a big place, and not all of Ondinee was like Razuma. Reede had taken them along to a mountain resort with views he would never forget, to a city on South Island where the sea was as warm as bath water and the color of aquamarines. And then there had been the orbital habitat, with some of the best gaming simulators he had ever encountered. Kedalion remembered watching Reede play the games one night. It had been like watching free-fall ballet, the way Reede's perfect reflexes and brilliant mind had made winning seem completely effortless. Reede had given them unlimited playfr-credit, and their losses had almost offset the amount he 114 Joan D. Vinge had won himself. But afterwards Reede had been in a foul mood, as if he'd lost instead of won, or as if, when you never lost a game, winning might as well be losing. . . . And on the other hand, most of what they saw was still Tuo Ne'el's thorn forest and citadels, or the streets of Razuma. Kedalion searched the crowds for Ananke, who had wandered off into the square, trying to take his mind off circumstances. He spotted him--surrounded as usual by a squad of street urchins. They shrieked and trilled approval as Ananke juggled anything within reach, contorted his body with an acrobat's absurd grace, and sang nonsense songs. He had taken to wearing a specially fitted leather glove on one foot, instead of his usual sandal; it was a spacer's trick, freeing one foot for use in low-gravity environments. On most of the spacers Kedalion had known it was only an affectation. But Ananke's physical dexterity made the boast genuine: even in normal gravity, he sometimes seemed to have three hands. Kedalion watched him with mildly envious admiration. He saw some of the adults who invariably gathered around toss out coins; Ananke left them lying in the dust for the children to pick up. They all knew that he worked for the offworlders--the money, and his disdain for it, were the proof of his prestige. Kedalion shook his head, smiling briefly. He reached into a pocket and took out his huskball, tossing it back and forth from hand to hand. Ananke had proved to be quick and flexible, mentally as well as physically, just as he had promised; and knowing that his skill was recognized and appreciated had only made him work harder. Once they'd gotten past the fear that Reede would kill them one day on a whim, he had grown more comfortable with their new employment than Kedalion would ever feel. Ananke had gone from abject terror directly to a kind of blissful hero-worship that was probably a hell of a lot more dangerous. Fortunately his naive fascination with Reede's volatile mood swings seemed to amuse Reede more than annoy him. This was the kid's homeworld, and having Reede's protection covering him seemed to free him of some of his dislike for living on it. Kedalion's smile faded, and he sighed again, thinking nostalgically on the false comfort of youth. He straightened away from the hovercraft as his eye caught motion at the distant gate. Reede came out of it, slamming it behind him, and strode through the crowd in the square as if they didn't exist. They flowed out of his path as obligingly as water. Kedalion watched him come, seeing red stains on his clothes and black satisfaction in his eyes. Kedalion felt all expression drain out of his own face. He looked away, calling, "Ananke!" Ananke turned, catching a handful of various fruits as they fell from the air. His own grin disappeared; he waded obediently through the belt-level protests of the children, tossing the fruit to them as he walked back toward the hovercraft. Reede reached it first, and nodded at Kedalion with a grunt that meant he was pleased with himself. He leaned against the craft's door, cracking his knuckles. "Feel better now?" Kedalion said, and regretted it instantly; sounding even to himself like a man chiding a child. Reede looked at him, and raised an eyebrow. "Much," he said. "Do you mind?" Kedalion grimaced. "Better him than me, I suppose." Reede laughed. "Damn right. . . . Don't sulk, Niburu. Ozal will be crawling around on all fours by tomorrow. And he'll never, ever fuck with my product again." He shrugged, loosening the muscles in his shoulders, and pulled at his ear. THE SUMMER QUEEN 115 "Ananke!" Kedalion shouted again, an excuse to look away, an excuse to raise his voice. He saw with some annoyance that Ananke had gotten sidetracked into an argument with a group of boys who had begun tossing something cat-sized back and forth in imitation of his juggling. Kedalion recognized the shrilling of a quoll in distress; heard Ananke's voice rise above the general laughter as he tried to catch the animal they were throwing like a ball across farther and farther stretches of air. They angled across the square, drawing him away from the hovercraft. Reede's head swung around as the animal began to shriek in terror or pain. He stood motionless, watching the scene; muttered something to himself about being a stupid asshole. "Ananke!" Kedalion shouted again; feeling his stomach knot with disgust, not sure whether it was the scene in the street or Reede's reaction to it that angered him more. "You bastard," he muttered, looking back at Reede before he started out into the square himself--just as one of the boys shouted, "Catch this, juggler!" and pitched the wailing quoll into the air in a long arc. Ananke ran and leaped after it, futilely, crashing into the low ceralloy wall that rimmed the neighborhood cistern. Ananke barely kept himself from falling in as the quotl flew over his head, down into the depths of the spring-fed tank. Kedalion stopped moving as he saw the quoll go into the cistern. Ananke hung motionless over the wall, staring down into the tank like a stunned gargoyle. Someone pushed past Kedalion, jarring him; he saw Reede run out across the square to the cistern. Reede climbed onto the wall, stood looking down into the depths for a heartbeat, and then jumped. "Edhu--!" Kedalion gasped. He began to run. Ananke was still hanging over the cistern's rim, staring down into the well in disbelief as Kedalion reached his side. Kedalion peered over the rim, just able to see down to where the water surface lay in the deep shadows below. He blinked the sunlight out of his eyes, heard splashing and panic-stricken squealing echo up the steep seamless walls. He saw Reede in the water far below, struggling to get ahold of the floundering creature. At last Reede clamped it in both hands and shoved it inside his shirt, kicked his way toward the steps that spiraled down the cistern's interior. Women and girls with water jugs balanced on their heads stood gaping as he hauled himself up out of the water onto the platform where they had gathered; they backed away as he staggered to his feet and started the long climb up the steps. Kedalion and Ananke watched him come, with the animal held against him, still struggling futilely. Reede reached the street level at last, his eyes searching the crowd. Kedalion hurried forward, with Ananke trailing behind him. "Reede--!" Reede turned at his voice, waited at the top of the stairs until they reached him. He wasn't even breathing hard, Kedalion noticed--Reede had more physical stamina than any three men. But water streamed from his hair and clothing, his arms and chest oozed red from the scratches and bites the frantic quoll had inflicted on him in its struggles. "Bishada!" Ananke cried, grinning with awe and gratitude. "You saved it--" Reede read the expression on the boy's face, and his own face twisted. "No. You saved the fucking thing," he said. He reached into his shirt and dragged the animal out, slung it at Ananke. "Here. You know the rule by now. You save it, it belongs to you. It's your responsibility. Not mine." 116 Joan D. Vinge Ananke took it into his arms gingerly, keeping its long, rodentine teeth away from contact with his hands, protected by the layers of his robes as he held it against his chest, murmuring softly to it. He glanced up at Reede again, for long enough to murmur, "Thank you." But Reede's attention was somewhere else already. He moved away from them abruptly, shoving past a couple of locals to pick someone out of the crowd of curiosity seekers. He caught the boy by his robes and dragged him forward, pitched him over the cistern's rim almost before the boy had time to scream in protest. Kedalion heard the boy's scream as he went in, and heard the splash as he hit the water far below. The motion had happened almost too fast for him to recognize the victim as one of the quoll's tormentors, the one who had thrown it into the cistern. Reede came back to them, not looking right or left now, his face expressionless as he glanced at the quoll. It had stopped struggling and was burrowing into the folds of Ananke's sleeve, making anxious oinkmg sounds, almost as if it were trying to become a part of his body. Ananke stroked its bedraggled fur as gently as if he were touching velvet. Reede moved on past them, the motion signaling them to follow. "Reede--" Kedalion said, catching up to him with an effort. "Drop it," Reede said, and the words were deadly. "--Are we going back to the citadel?" Kedalion finished, as if that were what he had intended to ask. "No." Reede looked away; looked down at himself and grimaced, shrugged, looked away again. "I have other business to tend to. Drop me in Temple Square. Take the evening off; I'll call you when I'm through." "You better tend those bites," Kedalion said. "The gods only know what that quoll--" Reede looked down at him, his irritation showing. "Don't worry about me, Niburu," he said sourly. "I'm not worth it." "Just worrying about my job," Kedalion muttered, trying to bury his unintentional display of concern as rapidly as possible. "I thought you hated this job," Reede snapped. "I do," Kedalion snapped back. Reede laughed, one of the unexpectedly normal laughs that always took Kedalion by surprise. "If I die I've left you everything I own in my will." Kedalion snorted. "Gods help me," he murmured, half-afraid it might even be true. He unsealed the doors of the hovercraft. Reede grinned, climbing into the rear as the doors rose. He sat down heavily, obliviously, his clothes saturating the expensive upholstery of the seat with pink-tinged water. Kedalion got in behind the controls; Ananke climbed in beside him. Ananke was still carrying the quoll, which had buried itself in his robes until all that was visible was its head pressed flat against his neck, sheltered beneath his chin. It still made a constant burbling song, as if it sought a reassurance that did not exist in the real world. Ananke clucked softly with his tongue, and stroked it with slow hands. He glanced up, as if he felt Kedalion's eyes on him; his own eyes were full of an emotion Kedalion had never seen in them before, and then they were full of uncertainty. Kedalion smiled, and nodded. "Just don't let it shit all over everything, all right?" He took them up, rising over the heads of the streetbound crowd and higher THE SUMMER QUEEN 117 still, until even the flat rooftops were looking up at them. He could see the pyramidal peaks of half a dozen temples rising above the city's profile; he headed for the one that he knew Reede meant, the one near the starport that the local police had driven them into one fateful night. He tried not to think about that night, without much success. He brought the flyer down again, settling without incident into an unobtrusive cul-de-sac near the club where they had all first met. The Survey Hall still occupied the address above its hidden entrance. Reede often came to this neighborhood, although what he did here was as obscure to Kedalion as most of his activities were. Reede got out again, saying only, "Do what you want. I'll call you, but it won't be soon." Kedalion nodded, and watched him move off down the street with the casual arrogance of a carnivore. Reminded of other animals, he turned to look at Ananke; at the quoll, lying against Ananke's chest like a baby in folds of cloth, only muttering to itself occasionally now. "How did you do that?" he asked. Ananke shrugged, stroking its prominent bulge of nose with a finger. "Quolls are very quiet, really. You just have to let them be." The quoll regarded him with one bright black eye, and blinked. Kedalion half smiled. "You could say the same about humans." "But it wouldn't be true." Kedalion's smile widened. "No. I guess not." He glanced away down the street; Reede had stopped at a jewelry vendor's cart near the corner of the alley. "I want to go to the fruit seller." Kedalion popped his door. "Go ahead. You heard the boss: Do what you want." "You're the boss, Kedalion." Ananke grinned fleetingly, his white teeth flashing. Kedalion shook his head, not really a denial. "Since when do you have an appetite for wholesome food?" Whenever they were in town Ananke lived on keff rolls--bits of unidentifiable meat and other questionable ingredients, rolled in dough and fried in fat, all so highly spiced that pain seemed to be their only discernible flavor. "Is the fruit seller young and pretty?" "Quolls only eat vegetables and fruit," Ananke said, glancing down. Kedalion shrugged and nodded, watched him get out and wander off in the direction of the square, passing Reede, who was haggling with the jewelry vendor. Kedalion had never seen Ananke show any real interest in either a woman or a man, and that was strange enough. The kid seemed to be pathologically shy, to the point of never letting anyone see him undressed--something which could get damned inconvenient in the crowded quarters of a small ship on an interstellar voyage. Maybe that explained his problem, or maybe it was only another symptom of whatever the real problem was. ... He supposed it didn't really matter what Ananke's problem was, as long as he did his job and didn't go berserk. He stretched and got out of the hovercraft, securing the doors behind him. He thought about Ravien's club, remembering Shalfaz. He hadn't gone back there for a long time, after what had happened to them that night. And when he had, it had been after two trips offworld with Reede. More than nine years had passed at Ravien's, while only two had passed for him. Someone had told him then that Shalfaz had ^ retired. She'd gone into the somewhat more respectable profession of dye-painting-- ' decorating the hands of wealthy, daring young women with intricate designs for I 1 118 Joan D. Vinge weddings and feast days. He was glad for her, but he missed her. And he sure as hell didn't miss the drinks, or the atmosphere, at Ravien's. Maybe he'd just go get himself some early dinner. . . . He made his way around the rear of the craft, heading for the square. As he glanced back, checking it over a last time, his eye caught on something that lay glinting in the dust. He went back and picked it up. It was the white metal pendant set with a solii that Reede always wore--he called it his good luck charm. The quoll must have broken the chain in its struggles, and the pendant had fallen out of his clothes. Kedalion glanced down the street, saw Reede's back him as he started away from the jewelry vendor's cart. "Reede!" he called, but Reede went on around the corner. Kedalion started after him down the narrow street, not even sure why; telling himself that handling Reede's lost charm made his own superstitions itch. He reached the corner, ignoring the jewelry seller's singsong wheedling as he looked past the cart at the open square. After a moment his eyes found Reede in the crowd, as the flash of dangling crystals danced across the stark black of his vest-back. Reede was not moving fast, which meant there was half a chance his own short legs might catch up with Reede's long ones. Kedalion pushed on, keeping to the edges of the unusually heavy crowds. The air reeked with incense. It must be some sort of feast day, for so many people to be out in the square, damn the luck. But he was gaining on Reede, slowly, and he called out his name again. Reede glanced back, but Kedalion was hidden by the crowd. Reede went on again, walking faster. They were nearing the place where Ravien's club was located. For a brief moment Kedalion wondered if he was headed there--he swore under his breath as he saw Reede turn off suddenly into a passageway between two of the buildings that ringed the square. He kept his eyes fixed on the spot until he reached it, and ducked into the same entrance, below a peeling archway. The shadowy access was so dark after the brightness of the square that he had to stop a moment, blinking until his eyes adjusted. There were ancient flagstones under his feet, featureless walls with no openings on either side of him, so close together that he could almost reach out and touch them. Reede was nowhere in sight. Kedalion went along the passage, doggedly, unable to stop now until he had found out where Reede had gone. The passageway ended abruptly at a featureless metal door. He pushed on it; to his surprise it let him in. The corridor beyond it was startlingly clean and modern. Inset glowplates gave him dim but sufficient light as he moved along it, more confidently now, until he reached another set of doors. The doors slid back at his approach, opening on a meeting room. He stopped dead as the people gathered there turned to stare at him. He stared back, taking in the glow of datascrsens around a torus-shaped table, the hologramic display at the table's core, the startling contrast among the faces seated around it or still standing together near the doorway. Half a dozen of them had ringed him in already, looking down at him with the eyes of Death, before he had time to realize he had made a mistake that was probably fatal. "Are you a stranger far from home?" an ebony-skinned man wearing the robes of a High Priest asked him. THE SUMMER QUEEN 119 Kedahon glanced down at himself. "I guess it shows, then," he said, and smiled feebly. The smile faded as he watched weapons blossom like deadly flowers, and knew that he had not given them the right answer. "Kill him," a voice said from somewhere. "Reede--" he said, "I'm looking for Reede!" raising his voice in desperation. "Niburu!" Reede's face appeared suddenly, like a vision, among the faces of offworld drug bosses, local police and church officials, other faces he couldn't put any occupation to. Reede pushed into the center of the ring and caught him by the shirt front. "What the fuck are you doing here--?" Reede's fist tightened; the exasperation on his face was as genuine as the anger. "I thought you'd want this." Kedalion held out the charm, keeping his voice barely under control. Reede snatched the charm from his hand, and stared at it. "Gods . . ." he muttered, like a man who had lost his soul. As he stuffed it into his pocket, Kedalion realized that two men and a woman standing in the circle around him were wearing the same pendant. One of the men was a drug boss named Sarkh; the woman was Reede's new wife, Humbaba's ex-wife, Mundilfoere. "Reede--?" someone demanded from behind him. "He's my man. He saw nothing. Right--?" Reede's hand closed painfully over Kedalion's shoulder. "You saw nothing." Kedalion shook his head, as Reede pushed him roughly backward through the barrier of bodies until they were both out in the hall. The doors sealed shut behind them. "You saw nothing," Reede repeated, softly this time, looking down at him with something in his eyes that Kedalion almost imagined was compassion. "Never follow me again." He released his grip on Kedalion's shirt, turned his back on him and disappeared through the doors as if his pilot had ceased to exist. Kedalion stood a moment longer in the hall, before he had the strength to shake off the invisible hands that still seemed to hold him prisoner. He turned finally and went back along the hall, along the passageway, and out to the street. "What the hell was that all about?" Sarkh snarled, as Reede reentered the meeting room alone. "This." Reede pulled the solii pendant out of his pocket and held it up. The eyes of everyone in the room were on him, now, but he made no further explanation. One by one they began to look away from his gaze, backing down. P Sarkh frowned. "That was a stupid risk. I think we should--" p "Don't think, Sarkh," Reede said. "Why spoil your perfect record?" fl Sarkh turned back, his face mottling with anger, and took a step toward Reede. "I speak for Kedalion." Mundilfoere stepped quickly between them. "Reede-- remember where you are!" She held up a dark hand, palm open, in front of each of them; stepped back again, in what seemed to be a single fluid motion. The two men eased off. "Kedalion Niburu has worked for Reede for years," she said, looking at Sarkh. "He saw nothing that he could have understood. And he is perfectly trustworthy. He will do what he is told; and he was told to forget it." She twitched a shoulder, half smiling. Sarkh grunted and shrugged, turning away as Mundilfoere looked back at Reede. She was not wearing bells and veils now; never did, here. She was dressed 120 foan D. Vinge in the formless gray coveralls of a starport loader, her long, midnight-black hair pulled back in a pragmatic knot. A perfect disguise ... or maybe the woman back at Humbaba's citadel was really the disguise. There was no trace of deference in her manner here, nothing but anger in the glance that flicked over him and found his behavior wanting. "Mundilfoere--" he said, his hand reaching for her almost unconsciously. "Sit down," she said, and turned her back before he could touch her. Her motion sent out ripples through the figures still standing; they followed her like a wake toward the meeting table. A few of them glanced back at him, at his wet clothes and the fresh scratches on his bare arms and throat, as they took their appointed places. Reede was the last to sit down, hanging back like a sullen child--or at least, made to feel like one, when he sat down at last at Mundilfoere's right hand. "Who has called this Brotherhood to meeting, here?" Irduz, the Priest, asked. He always led the Questions, being the sort of pompous bastard who enjoyed repetitious ritual. Reede shut his eyes and leaned back in his seat as the drone of the recitation began. Gods, get it over with. ... He fingered the beaten metal of the ear cuff he had bought from the street vendor, shifting impatiently in his seat. "I have." Reede recognized the voice of the next person in the circle--Alolered, the Trader, who in the outside world was a dutiful, successful businessman in the interstellar datastorage trade. "I have." The voice of Mother Weary, one of the few women who had made it big in the drug trade; she headed a cartel that was still growing. She was nearly eighty, and as vicious as firescrub. "I have." The voice of TolBeoit, who appeared to be nothing more than a seller of herbal cures in a Newhavenese botanery. "And who has called this Brotherhood into being, and given us our duty, and shown us the power of knowledge?" the High Priest intoned. "Mede." The progression of voices came inexorably toward him. "Ilmarinen," Baredo said, next to him. Reede sat motionless, his eyes still shut, paralyzed by the vision of three faces out of memory, three impossible faces. . . . Knowing that it was his turn to speak, but unable to. Baredo reached across the empty seat between them to nudge his arm impatiently. Reede jerked, glaring back at him. "And Vana--Vana--" "Vanamoinen," Mundilfoere finished the name for him. Her hand brushed his briefly, reassuringly; his own hand felt cold and clammy. He blinked, his eyes burning. He hated to say that name. He could never get it out of his mouth, when it came his turn to speak it. The other names were nothing; but that one . . . "Ho, Smith," Mother Weary snorted, "penis envy?" Reede glared at her across the table. "Eat it, you dried up hag," he said. She cackled infuriatingly. They called him "the Smith" for the same reason they sometimes called him "the new Vanamoinen"--because if a project involved biotechnology, he was the best at inventing it, producing it, fixing it. He had heard often enough from the Brotherhood that only the Old Empire's last recorded genius could have done it better, faster--or at all, in the case of the water of life, which he had failed so profoundly to recreate. Lately the title had become a mix of compliment and jibe, even though the real Vanamoinen had only been a skillful manipulator of the existing technology, and who had had the resources of an Empire plus the brilliant I THE SUMMER QUEEN 121 search data of millennia at his disposal . . . something the Brotherhood would ;ver be able to match, not limited to the Eight Worlds of the Hegemony. He hated being taunted with Vanamoinen's name, but that was not why it stuck |jn his throat. ... He looked down at himself, staring at the raw crystals glinting |ike rainbow-hazed stars against the black night of his vest; at his hands, his tattooed is, the muscles of his body, that he had used so recently, together with his superior find and perfect reflexes, to beat the living crap out of a cheating small-time drug ;aler. Vanamoinen. Vanamoinen. It caught in his throat, in his thoughts, like an jscene refrain, playing obsessively; when the real obscenity was here, in us ... in his ... Reede stretched the fingers of his bruised hands and forced his mind to pay attention to what was going on around him. The drone of stale ritual was nearly finished--the invocations that supposedly served to remind them all of the greater tradition to which their particular cabal belonged, and from which it drew its real power: Survey. "And dedicated to one thing, for millennia--" Irduz intoned. "Survival," Baredo answered beside him, as the progression of questions and answers came around the table toward him again. "And what is the thing that binds us all--?" Irduz asked the last of the ritual Right Questions. "Blood." Reede lifted his head, his mouth still half open to speak the response. Someone had appeared in the empty seat to his right--or something had: A shapeless, amorphous darkness, in which there might have been a human body, somehow twisted or deformed. . . . Reede swore under his breath, drawing away instinctively from what suddenly inhabited the space beside him. The Source. Wondering why in the name of a thousand hells Thanin Jaakola had chosen to occupy that particular seat. "Beginning without me--?" Jaakola said. If an exhumed corpse could be forced to speak, that was the voice it would have. Reede almost thought he could smell a faint odor of putrescence leaking out of the blackness beside him. But he was probably imagining it; that thing beside him was only a hologramic projection, just like several of the two dozen other Brothers around the table, who, like Jaakola, chose not to attend in person. It was rumored that Jaakola had some wasting, incurable disease. It was also rumored that the darkness was all for psychological effect. The Source could be anyone, do anything, as long as he held that secret. Reede had no idea at what level in the Brotherhood Jaakola actually functioned, which meant that he was powerful enough to be extremely dangerous. "We begin at the agreed time," Mundilfoere answered, making the response that no one else would make. "You requested this meeting." He grunted in acknowledgment, or disgust. That he hated women was the only thing anyone seemed to know for certain about him. Reede had never heard why, if there was a reason. He was not sure at what level Mundilfoere's own influence ended, but she dared more against the Source than most of the Brotherhood who gathered here dared. Sometimes he wondered if she antagonized Jaakola specifically because she knew what he thought of her. "I am in time for the real purpose of this meeting, then," Jaakola said, increasing the level of insult a magnitude. "Brothers, news has come to me of something that we have only dreamed of--and in this 122 Joan D. Vinge company, I don't say that lightly." There might have been a smile behind the words. Reede was sure it was mocking; not sure why. Jaakola had the attention of everyone around the table, now. "Someone has discovered a source of stardrive plasma--here in the Hegemony, on Number Four." Exclamations of disbelief and surprise filled Reede's ears, but his own incredulity drowned them all out. He sat motionless, accessing passively as Jaakola fed data into all their units. The Old Empire had been able to exist in all its far-flung glory because it possessed a means of faster-than-light travel. The stardrive plasma was a form of smartmatter, bioengineered to manipulate space-time, to permit time-like movement by a ship through space without paradox. When the Old Empire had fallen, the technology had been lost to many, possibly most, of its former worlds. None of the worlds that became the Hegemony had possessed a viable stardrive, for a millennium or more. And even though popular wisdom held that the sibyl net could answer any question, there were questions that it would not answer--including any concerning the process for recreating smartmatter. There were those who said smartmatter had caused the Old Empire's fall; that the net's creators had wanted to make sure it didn't happen again, by suppressing all data about it. The sibyl net also refused to provide its users with a starmap, for reasons no one clearly understood. As a result, it had become virtually impossible to locate other worlds of the former Empire, whether you had a stardrive or not. Kharemough had found the seven worlds of the Hegemony by sending countless probes through their Black Gate, like notes in bottles. The Kharemoughis' obsessive archaeological work in Old Empire ruins had actually given them a key to the location of a former neighbor in interstellar space as well; one that was not absurdly distant in light-years. They had sent out their fastest sublight ships, hoping to find stardrive plasma still in existence there. The ships had gone out nearly a millennium ago, and the Kharemoughis believed they would return any day now ... if stardrive technology did still exist on that planet. "Come the Millennium," they said, like a prayer, meaning the day when they regained their freedom in the galaxy. He for one had never expected to see the day when the Hegemony saw a single molecule of stardrive plasma. But now the Millennium had come, from a completely unexpected direction. One man, out in the formidable wasteland known as World's End, had discovered why the bizarre anomaly called Fire Lake had caused the phenomena that made World's End a realtime Hell: the Lake was actually stardrive plasma run wild, from the remains of an Old Empire freighter that had crash-landed there during the Empire's last days. Reede wondered what kind of man it was who had made that discovery. He knew the data on World's End; had studied all that was recorded about it in the universal access, because it had fascinated him. There had been details in the data that had seemed to mean something to him, but he hadn't been able to make his mind put it together. The visuals had haunted his dreams like succubi, calling him. He had wanted to go there, to see it for himself, to answer it ... but the Brotherhood always had plans for him, and none of them included Fire Lake. Now someone had done what he had dreamed of doing--entered the heart of World's End, and actually discovered the secret that had defied centuries of study by the best minds in the Hegemony. Now that he knew the answer, he saw with sudden, galling clarity that the 1 THE SUMMER QUEEN 123 answer had been obvious all along. But he hadn't asked the right questions. He felt a surge of something that was almost lust when he imagined meeting whoever possessed the mind that had. Reede glanced into the darkness beside him; looked away again, listening to the muttenngs of excitement and concern spreading around the table. He covered his ears, absorbing the datafeed again, trying to ignore the infuriating slowness of it. He hated this system, with its crude combination of inferior technologies. He had never seen a better system; but somehow he knew one existed, somewhere. Just as the stardrive had. He pulled his mind back into the present at last, forcing himself to pay attention to the discussion that had been evolving around the table. "--about what this could mean to our trade," someone said, across the table. "It changes everything," Sarkh echoed, belaboring the obvious. "It doesn't mean shit if we don't have it," Mother Weary snapped. "And we don't have it." Noticing Mundilfoere's silence, Reede glanced at her, wondering what was on her mind. She did not look surprised; he found her staring back at him with an indefinable expression. He held her gaze, unable to look away. "Exactly," Jaakola said, bending the word like a piece of plastic. "And so graciously put. We do not have the stardrive plasma in our possession. And obviously, we must change that." "Who controls this Fire Lake?" Irduz asked. "The centralist faction that calls itself the Golden Mean, that wants the Hegemony to exist in more than name only," Jaakola said. "Kharemoughi dominated, of course, but they are allied with influential cabals on Four. They are already working to ensure that Kharemough gets the stardrive first, so that they can seize military control." "They will succeed, then," TolBeoit said. "Our influence on Four is not strong. And if we know about this now, Kharemough knows already. We'll have to send someone in--" "But that will take years in realtime," someone else protested. "By the time we actually get our hands on the stardrive, it may be too late. The Hegemony will be hanging in our skies, ready to obliterate us." The other voices around the table began to rise. "That need not be so," Mundilfoere said softly. Her words silenced them abruptly. All eyes fixed on her, including Reede's. "Fire Lake is the result of stardnve run wild, perhaps damaged in some profound way--at the very least left to breed uncontrolled for centuries. Even the Kharemoughis have no real experience in dealing with such things. It will take them longer than they think to control it; perhaps it will take them forever. Their own best people are all on Kharemough; they will have to send them to Four. That in itself will give us enough time, if we act." Reede's eyes widened slightly. She knew. He realized she had known all along, even before Jaakola had arrived. The darkness that was Jaakola seemed to deepen, if that was possible. Reede wondered how many of the others around the table had known about the stardrive even before they came here. He knew there were circles within circles, even in this elite; there were things he knew sometimes that the others did not--although usually he only knew them because Mundilfoere had told him. He 124 Joan D. Vmge felt a sharp twinge of annoyance that she had not chosen to share this particular miraculous secret with him; when knowing about it made his head sing. . . . The water of life and the sibyl virus were the only forms of the Old Empire's smartmatter technovirus still in existence anywhere in the Hegemony--or they had been, until now. And he had never even seen a sample of the water of life; had thought he never would. But now everything was changing. "Are you sure of that?" Mother Weary said to Mundilfoere. "Or are you just trying to cheer us up?" Mundilfoere smiled, not even glancing at Jaakola. "My sources are most reliable," she said gently. "Be assured." "We have to move, then," Irduz said. "We have to put together a team--" "I'll go," Reede said. "Send me, with Mundilfoere. I'm all you need." Mother Weary laughed; the sound made him wince. "And modest, too, you crazy bastard!" Reede twitched with annoyance. "I know more about smartmatter than anybody living. Everybody knows it." "And you're crazy, and everybody knows that too," Sarkh muttered. Reede held his gaze. "Only when it suits my needs, Sarkh." "Yes," Jaakola muttered, beside him. Reede turned toward him in surprise. "He should be the one to go. Let the New Vanamoinen unravel the secrets of the Old Vanamoinen. His very unpredictability gives him an edge, wouldn't you say? He makes a perfect thief. And let him take his leman, if he wishes." Reede stiffened, sensing more than seeing Mundilfoere tighten with anger beside him. He frowned, suddenly uncertain, and glanced back at her. He thought doubt flickered like heat lightning across her face; or maybe it was just his own paranoia he read there. But she met his stare with a gaze that seemed to him suddenly to hold all of history in it, and he felt her trust, her confidence, her love fill him, like waters rising out of a bottomless well. "Yes," she murmured, "you are the one who should go, Reede. This is what you were made for, by the higher power that binds us all." Reede opened his mouth to speak, but she shook her head. "But by the same power, I cannot leave certain boundaries unwatched, or projects untended for so long. You will go alone this time." Her eyes forbade any protest. He sat paralyzed, staring at her, while on around the table the others voted agreement, one by one. TIAMAT: Ngenet Plantation H Moon stood up to her knees in the bright grass on the hill below the plantation house, looking out to sea. She tasted the fresh breath of spring, felt the breeze run cool fingers through her hair, lifting it like wings. For a moment she felt as ephemeral as if she were a cloud-child, about to be swept up to ride on the wind's back, the way Tammis rode now on his father's shoulders on the beach below. Delighted laughter and shrill shrieking reached her ears, as Ariele and Merovy danced around them, grabbing at Sparks's hands and Tammis's flailing feet, begging for rides of their own. She smiled, breathing deeply, imprinting their beauty on her eyes. Beyond them the sea crashed onto the beach, wave upon wave, reaching northward and southward to the limits of her sight: heavy, silver gray, white-haired with spume, restless with the massive runoff from the melting snows. The sea here still seemed cold and relentless, its enormous breakers battering the steep, rugged foothills that marched down to the shore for miles along the northern coast. No longer snowglazed, catching and reflecting light like a mirror, their new silhouette was a jagged knife-edge against the colorless, fog-burnished sky. But today their massive permanence was suffused with fog until they were only a smoke stain in the lustrous air, a surreal, unreachable dream. . . . She looked down again at the children and her husband laughing, running, whirling on the beach; all of them suddenly dancing with their shadows, shouting their delight as the suns broke through the haze into full day at last, haloed by sundogs of rainbow. She remembered her own days of laughing on the beach with Sparks, far away, long ago, with a sudden, bittersweet vividness. She stood motionless, caught in a tesseract, watching them, watching the sea brighten and take on color behind them. The turbid northern ocean never showed the limpid greens and blues that she had seen in Summer seas; although perhaps that was only because memory made all skies clearer, dazzled with rainbows, all waters purer, all colors more brilliant and sense-stunning in those perfect sunlit moments. . . . Even if there was no Lady whose spirit brightened the waters, every day the sea was wanning here, every day the land was greening, becoming reborn; every day this world and her people took one more step toward a better life. She inhaled another deep breath of the free, restless air, held it, savoring the taste of salt and damp and new things growing. I "Moon," a voice said softly, as if the speaker was reluctant to intrude on her solitude. 126 loan D. Vmge She turned, grateful for the thought behind that reticence, even as she was suddenly grateful to have Jerusha PalaThion standing beside her. She had grown as used to Jerusha's presence as she had to her own shadow; to be without it was to be incomplete. "Look at them," she said, pointing toward the beach, where Jerusha was already looking, watching the horseplay with smiling envy. "I'm glad you came," Jerusha said, glancing away up the hill toward the house, rubbing her arms as if she were cold, even on a day like this one. "I'm glad you came with us." Moon put her hand on Jerusha's arm, touching her gently through the heavy layers of kleeskin and sweater. She studied Jerusha's face as the other woman looked back at her, witnessing the changed woman that her Chief of Constables became--allowed herself to become--when they were away from the city; an easier, more peaceful woman. Jerusha looked as if she belonged to these lands, this world, in her rugged native clothing, with her dark hair falling unbound down her back or braided in a heavy plait like an islander; just as she herself ceased to be the Summer Queen and became only human, free for a time to breathe and think and move through patterns that had meaning only for her. "Being here heals me, somehow," she said, looking back toward the beach, the sea. Jerusha turned to watch with her. "Yes," she said. "It always used to make me feel that way, when I was Commander of Police." She sighed, glancing up the hill again. "I knew Miroe was involved with contraband goods. But the best moments of my life for over five years were always here, visiting him." Moon heard sudden longing and disillusionment in the words, "Not anymore--?" she asked softly. Jerusha looked back at her; shook her head, looking away again. Moon had wondered why Jerusha did not spend more time here. Jerusha's work in the city, her hours spent administering and consulting, were endlessly demanding; they kept her away from this place, and her husband, far too much of the time. Moon had often told her to take more time for herself. Jerusha had always refused. She glanced again at Jerusha's face, the deepening lines of its strong profile eased by her smile as she watched the children. Living on a world that was not her own, and living through four miscarriages, had taken their toll on her. Moon felt her heart squeezed, a coldness in her soul, as she watched her own children run and play, and imagined losing even one of them. She looked back at Jerusha, seeing the depths of sorrow below the surface of her smile; realizing suddenly, fully and frighteningly. the toll that Jerusha's losses had taken on her relationship with her husband. Neither Jerusha nor Miroe shared their emotions easily--not their pain, not even their joy. And the only way for two people to survive a lifetime together was by sharing those things--no matter how painful, how secret, how strange. The more things each one hid, the more a family became only solitary strangers leading parallel lives, blind to any needs but their own. , . . She did not realize that she had moved, turning away from the sea and the sight of her husband and children, far down the beach now, until Jerusha touched her shoulder. She blinked, startled, found herself gazing inland toward the mountains ... the remote, fanged peaks still covered with snow, wreathed in wisps of slowly drifting cloud. As she watched, the clouds seemed to take the form of a woman's face and hands, of her blowing hair cloud-white against the blue ocean of sky--and through her hair, scattered by her hands, Moon saw, as she sometimes could on rare, perfectly clear days, a handful of stars, so bright that they were visible THE SUMMER QUEEN 127 even in the daytime sky. She watched the vision of clouds scatter stars . . . remembering how she had watched other stars falling like a vision, above those distant snowfields on a distant night: the ships of the Hegemony arriving on Tiamat for the final visit of the Assembly, the final Festival of Winter. Remembering BZ Gundhalinu, there beside her . . . "Moon--?" Jerusha's voice pulled at her; she felt the other woman's arms catch her, holding her steady as sudden vertigo overwhelmed her. "Did you see it?" she whispered, her eyes still on the mountains, the sky. "The Lady ..." "What?" Jerusha squinted, following her gaze. But the cloudforms had flowed on, mutating, hiding the ragged scatter of stars, and she saw nothing. "Nothing," she murmured. "The clouds ... the clouds were beautiful. It made me think of ... other skies." She shook her head, avoiding the look on Jerusha's face as she began to turn away. But she turned back, suddenly. "Jerusha--I heard from BZ." "What?" Jerusha said again, more in disbelief than incomprehension. "Gundhalinu?" He had been one of her inspectors; she had seen him turn renegade out of love, defying her and breaking the Hegemony's laws for Moon's sake. But she had let him go, torn by his divided loyalties, and her own. . . . "That's impossible," she murmured, her eyes asking Moon to prove it was not. "How?" she said finally. "In sibyl Transfer. He's become a sibyl--" She explained, describing for Jerusha all that she could remember of what she had seen and heard. m "Why was he in World's End?" Jerusha asked, shaking her head. "Was it a lice case? He was assigned to Four--" "He didn't tell me." "When did this happen?" "Months ago." Moon looked away. "And you didn't tell anyone?" "No." She shook her head, brushing pale strands of hair back from her face. "I couldn't." She turned, looking toward the beach again, where Sparks and the children were slowly making their way back along the shore. "I couldn't tell him. ..." "Oh," Jerusha said softly. Moon watched Sparks stop on the sand, waving up at her, his red hair catching fire in the sunlight. She felt the heavy pressure inside her chest as she raised her own hand. "I can't stop thinking about it. I gave him all I could, Jerusha, all it would let me give him--" This time seeing not her husband's face but a stranger's, as she had on that night as he took her in his arms. . . . "But I don't know if it was enough. I don't even know if he was able to save himself. There isn't a day since then that I haven't thought about him." She felt her face redden. And night after night the memory of his final words had haunted her, kept her from sleep, when she needed sleep so desperately. . . . "Then you haven't heard anything more?" "Nothing." She shook her head. "I don't know how to reach him . . . I don't even know how he found me. It isn't supposed to be possible." "I know." Jerusha glanced at her feet, half frowning. "Damn. I wish I had an answer." She sighed. "But I'm glad you told me." She met Moon's eyes again, and 4 128 Joan D. Vmge smiled, ruefully. "If anyone will survive, he will. You gave him the gift of survival, before he ever left Tiamat." Moon looked away uncertainly. "He was a good man, one of my best. But he was rigid. His pride made him bottle. What happened to him when the nomads had him would have killed him--it nearly did--if you hadn't shown him something stronger in himself. I gave him back his career. But you gave him back his life. You made him human." Her smile widened. "Gods, you should have heard how that man talked about you. I couldn't believe my ears." Moon turned back, opening her mouth. "Moon!" Sparks was beside her, suddenly, pulling her close against him as he kissed her. She felt his arms surround her, the warmth and chill of his skin, the tang of sun and sweat. She looked up into his eyes, as green as the new grass, his red hair moving like flame in the wind; his handsome, peaceful face, as familiar to her as her own. She pressed against him, into the solid reality of his embrace, seeing Jerusha's expression turn thoughtfully noncommittal as she watched them together. Moon looked out at the wide water, letting it fill her eyes until it was all she could see; trying to imagine that they had never left the islands, that there had been no lost time, no separation, no bitter secrets between them. "Mama! Mama!" The twins joined them, and little Merovy--not so little, she reminded herself, looking down at the girl's fair, freckled face and windblown brown hair. None of them were so small anymore. The twins' heads butted her chest as they wrestled for hugging space. She put her arms around them, anchored by their warmth and unquestioning love . . . shaking off the unknowable, the impossible, the past, that was no longer an option. "Mama, look, I found a carbuncle--!" Tammis held up one of the shining, blood-red stones that washed up along Tiamat's shores: the semiprecious gems that the Winters said had been named for the city, or the city for them. "And look at our shells--!" "I have one like Da's, he's going to make me a flute!" Ariele waved a slender, pearly corkscrew shell in front of Moon's face. "No, that's mine!" Tammis cried. "It'll be my flute! I found it!" "I promised Ariele--" Sparks protested, with faint exasperation. "You wait." "If he found it, it's his," Moon said, separating small, struggling hands. "You'll find another, and that will be yours, Ariele. You'll have to wait." "No!" Ariele shook her head fiercely. "I want mine now!" "I'll let you use mine," Sparks murmured, lifting her chin. "You can use mine." She gazed up at him, her smile coming out like the sun, as Tammis's smile fell away suddenly. Moon touched his shoulder, soothing and distracting him. "Show me what you found." "Here, for you--" She laughed and made expected ohhs of wonder, holding hands and shells with sudden heartfelt pleasure; refusing to listen to the voice of the past still calling her name, somewhere inside the joyful clamor of the present. "Well now, well now, what is all this--?" Moon looked over her shoulder, hearing her grandmother's voice reaching cheerfully ahead up the hillside from the bay. Gran and Borah Clearwater made their way slowly but resolutely toward the gathering on the slope; Miroe paced beside THE SUMMER QUEEN 129 \ them as host and guide. She saw their small boat, its slack sail flapping, down at the dock, surprised that she had not noticed them coming in. Miroe clearly had, from the house tarther up the hill. The children left her side in an abrupt flock and rushed to greet the new arrivals with more gleeful clamor. Moon smiled, watching them, for a moment imagining that she watched herself, and Sparks. She saw the children's pleasure reflected in her grandmother's eyes; saw in Borah Clearwater, standing beside Gran, the grandfather she could not clearly remember now, who had died of a fever when she was only three. It still amazed her to see Gran beaming like a young girl, as far in spirit from the drawn, aged woman who had come to Carbuncle as the grandmother of Moon's memory had been. Capella Goodventure had done them both a kindness they could never have imagined, on that day when her grandmother had arrived in the city--a fact which Moon silently hoped had caused the Goodventure elder disappointment equal to the pain she had inflicted on them. It was hard for her to believe that it had taken a Winter to rekindle life's fire in Gran. But over the years she had found that many of the outback Winters had more in common with Summers than they did with the inhabitants of Carbuncle. "Well, damn it!" Borah Clearwater said, peering with good-natured impatience over the swarming heads of the children. "I see you've added even more of those 'windflowers' to this crackbrained plantation of yours, Miroe Ngenet." He gestured at the windscrews at the top of the hill behind them. "Damn shame it is too, when it was a perfectly fine example before--" "It ran on hard human labor--and one very expensive offworlder power unit--before, Clearwater, just like yours, and you know it," Miroe grunted, his mouth curving upward under the thick bush of his mustache. "We get twice as much productivity at half the expense with windscrews and generators and fuel made in our distillery, and it frees up my workers to learn trades at the processing plant--" "Hmph. Sounds like a steaming pile of--" "Borah!" Gran said sharply. "Watch your tongue. There are children." "Yes, heart," he murmured, deflating abruptly, without further objection. "But rot me if I want to hear more about processing plants and new trades, new towns, new noise and stink and that miserable pissant Kirard Set ... Now he's after me again, wanting me to sell him the plantation to develop. It was an unlucky tumble that tossed his genetic code. I can live with the right of way, as long as he pays me well--" He looked at Moon, and she smiled. "But don't expect me to thank you for it. And believe it'll be a hot day in hell before he touches another inch of my lands with 'progress.' Over my dead body! Right, love--?" Gran nodded, her face mirroring his resolution. He put his arm around her, chuckled as she slapped his hand for getting familiar. "Act your age, you old bull-klee," she said, smiling-eyed; somehow still managing to slide back into his grasp while pushing him away. She accepted more hugs and treasured shells from a half-dozen small hands. "Ah, but I am, you know I am," he breathed in her ear, and she giggled like a girl. "Where's that nephew of mine, and your mother?" He looked down at Merovy swinging back and forth, pulling on his arm. "They couldn't come," she said, losing her own smile as she remembered. "Why not?" He looked up, concerned. "Is his back plaguing him so much, then?" 130 Joan D. Vinge Moon nodded, pressing her mouth together. Danaquil Lu's back trouble had grown so bad that he could no longer walk upright. The voyage down the coast, even in a motorized craft, was too long and painful; and so they stayed in the city. "But we're getting close to where 1 can help him," Miroe said. "The workmanship of our second-generation tool-making is getting finer all the time. Soon we'll be able to produce the surgical equipment I have to have; when I have it, there's a correctional procedure which is relatively simple--" Borah snorted in disgust. "False hope! Why give him false hope? We can't recreate something it took the offworlders centuries to produce in the first place, m only one century! Let things be, and accept it." He waved his hand, turning away, dismissing them. Jerusha stiffened beside Moon; Moon remembered her childlessness, and how the new technology had not come in time to change that. "My da will so get better!" Merovy cried indignantly. "Don't say that." "Of course he will," Miroe snapped, his good humor vanishing like smoke. "If the Lady wills it," Gran finished, patting Merovy's head with stern resolution. Moon looked away from them, rubbing her arms inside the loose sleeves of her sweater. Sparks rolled his eyes beside her, and pushed his fists into the pockets of his canvas trousers. "Goddess! He's worse than the Summers," he muttered, so softly that only she heard it. "Mama, come with us to get more shells!" Ariele pulled at Moon's hand, gazing up at her with bright eagerness. Moon hugged her, smiling. "Well, I--" "Moon, I need to talk with you about the newest studies we've been doing on the mersong. I'm running short on inspiration, and I need input." Miroe caught at her with his eyes, nodding toward the house, where they had already spent half the day discussing new ways to encourage Summers to accept the technology that was changing their lives almost daily. "Come on, Mama." Tammis clung to her other hand. Moon felt her mouth tighten, seeing the silver stretch of beach waiting, feeling her children's need pulling at her, and Miroe's. "I can't right now. ..." "Mama! You promised--" Moon frowned, caught in a tightening vise of frustration. "You've played with me half the morning," Sparks said. "You can run on the beach by yourselves a while. Build a city in the sand, like Carbuncle--" "But Mama promised--" "You come with us now, children," Gran said, moving forward to pry them loose from Moon's arms. "You haven't been with us, either, and your mother has work that must be done," regardless of what I think of it, her eyes said, "like her mother before her, and even I myself, in my day. But now I have time to walk barefoot in the sand! Come on, Borah . . ." She enlisted his support with a jerk of her head. He took Merovy by the hand as Gran pulled Tammis and Ariele half reluctantly away down the hill. "Mama--!" Tammis called plaintively, one last time. "Nobody's stimng the paddies! Your seahair crop is going to rot, Miroe Ngenet!" Borah waved a hand at the empty fields. "What good will all your technology do when you all starve to death?" "I've automated," Miroe shouted back. "Wind-powered wavemakers. Worry about your own crops!" THE SUMMER QUEEN 131 H "Automated, you say--?" Borah called, but Miroe was already turning away, waving his hand in disgust. "Go south around the bay!" Jerusha called. "There was a storm the day before yesterday. There will be wonderful shells along the bay. Maybe you'll even find fog-agates." "Will we see mers?" "Not so soon after the storm--" Moon shook her head, waving, a halfhearted, reluctant gesture of farewell. She turned away from the sight of them, her eyes suddenly stinging. "All right, Miroe," she said, to the unspoken apology in his glance, "let's talk about the mers." Sparks fell into step beside her as they began to walk back up the hill. Miroe glanced at him. "I don't think this is your area of expertise, Dawntreader." Sparks frowned slightly. "I've been studying the mersong, and I think I may have found a clue to the--" "Jerusha, why don't you take him down to the factory?" Miroe gestured across the bay. "I've seen the factory. I want to talk about the mers." Miroe turned abruptly to face him. "After what you did to them, you have no right." Sparks stopped in his tracks, and Moon saw the desolation that emptied his eyes like death. She looked back at Miroe, his stare as black and hard as flint, and said nothing, did nothing, as the past breathed on them all with the cold breath of Winter. She followed Miroe on up the hill, gazing at the cloud-hung, distant peaks. Sparks did not follow. Sparks watched them until they were out of range of his voice. Jerusha PalaThion was still standing beside him; he wondered why he was not completely alone. He took a deep breath at last, and turned to face her. "Why don't you make it unanimous?" he said. "Because I don't think you deserved that," she answered, meeting his gaze. "Why not?" He looked away again, feeling something gnawing like worms inside him. "I butchered mers for Arienrhod, so she could sell the water of life, so we could stay young together by committing genocide. You know what I did; you saw what I did--just like him. He's right; I'm guilty." She looked at him for a long moment without speaking. "That wasn't you . . ." she said finally, "that was Arienrhod. You were only a boy. You were no match for a woman like her. She'd been committing soul cannibalism for a hundred and fifty years. She nearly destroyed us all." His hands tightened. "Give me more credit than that. I knew what I was doing. You used to believe that, when you hated my guts as Commander of Police." "I hated Starbuck, the Queen's butcher, just like I hated the Queen. I didn't know Sparks Dawntreader, then, any more than I knew Moon Dawntreader. I thought I did, but I was wrong." She shook her head. "I was a Blue, and I thought I was a good judge of character ... I still think so. Moon told me you'd never been what you were for Arienrhod, before; she said you'd never be like that again. She made me believe in her because she wore a trefoil. I wasn't so sure about you. But she was right. I've known you for nearly ten years now. You're a good man." He looked after Moon's retreating back, at Miroe's tall, broad-shouldered 132 /oan D. Vinge silhouette towering over her, making her look small and fragile. He looked back at Jerusha, and suddenly he was not afraid to meet her eyes, for the first time since he could remember. "Thank you," he said finally, softly. She nodded. "My pleasure." He looked toward Miroe's retreating back again. "But ten years hasn't changed his mind." "That's another thing I've learned," she murmured. "He's not an easy man to reach." Sparks heard the bitter disappointment in the words, and wanted suddenly to reach out to her. He did not, because there was something of her husband's intangible armor about her too. "How can I make him listen to me, at least? Is there any way''" She shifted from foot to foot, her eyes thoughtful. "He's a determined man; he's self-righteous, and won't be easily shaken out of what he believes. . . . But he respects determination in other people." She looked back at him. "If you want to tell him your ideas about the mers, go and do it. Don't let him shut you out. Stand your ground." A slow smile came out on her face. "It's worth a try. It's how I got him to admit he loved me." Sparks laughed; he nodded, his smile fading again. "All right. I will." He glanced toward the house. "Are you coming?" She shook her head, looking toward the beach, where the small group of young and old were gathered in the ageless pursuit of digging miracles out of the sand "Not me. This is your fight, I'd just be in the way " She stretched her arms. "For once I'm going to the beach " She glanced back at him. "Good luck," she said, and strode away down the slope of rippling salt grass. Sparks watched her for a moment, until he realized that he was not really envious, and then he began to climb the hill. A dozen windscrews whirled almost silently above him, scattered across the land like surreal flowers, turning the wind's restless energy into energy for humans to use, to keep the water in constant motion in the beds of cultivated sea hair, to provide electricity for light and power in the growing sprawl of the manufacturing plant Ngenet had been constructing on the far side of his small harbor. There was a village growing up around it, where Winter workers had come to live and raise their families; old-style dwellings built in old-style ways to mark a new-style life. He reached the plantation house that lay at the hill's crest like an immense cairn, its solid, century-old stone and wood construction reminding him of the houses of his youth; reminding him again that the people of this world, Winter and Summer, shared a common heritage because they faced common problems of survival. He wondered why it was so easy for them to forget that. It was the perversity of all human beings, that they forgot their humanity so easily, and nursed their bitter memories for so long. . . . Sparks went in through the heavy iron-hinged door, found Miroe and Moon sitting at a low table spread with handwritten documents among the uneasy mix of offworld heirlooms and stolid native furniture that gave this house its unique personality. They looked up at him, Moon in surprise, and Ngenet in something closer to anger. "What do you want?" he demanded. "I want you to listen to my ideas, Ngenet." Sparks held himself straighter, THE SUMMER QUEEN 133 settling his hands on his hips. "Shut your eyes if you have to, if having to look me in the face makes you sick. But hear me out." Ngenet stiffened, glancing at Moon. But Moon's eyes were on his own, with a mixture of pnde and urgency, telling him he had done the right thing, strengthening his resolve. He sat down with them as if he had been invited, making them a triad--Lady's luck, he told himself, feeling irony pinch him. Ngenet studied Moon's face a moment longer, looked away again with what seemed to be resignation. His glance flicked back to Sparks; he closed his eyes, deliberately. "All right," he said. "I'm listening." Sparks took a deep breath, finding himself unexpectedly at the center of attention. He glanced away, gazing into the fire that burned in the stone hearth beyond Ngenet's back. "Even when I was a boy in the islands, I used to play the flute. . . ." He touched the pouch at his belt, where he kept his shell flute. "I knew all the old songs everyone sang; but when I played them on the flute they sounded different . . . They reminded me of the mer songs; the way they were constructed, the timbre, the intervals between notes and the tonal slides. I didn't know the terms or understand the relationships then. . . ."He smiled, at Moon's face as she watched him; at the memory of that other time, their lost world. "But my ears knew. After I came to the city, and--" and Arienrhodfound me, "and I had access to what tech data the offworlders gave us, I began to learn the mathematics of music. How what I'd thought was just . . . instinct, beautiful noise, was actually a matrix, a network of relationships, each note with its own exact resonating wavelength, in a precise location relative to all the others. ..." "So?" Ngenet said, impatiently. "So, I've kept on studying the relationships between the mersong and our songs, even the notes of the tone boxes we used to cross the Hall of Winds, which are actually surprisingly similar." He saw Moon straighten up in surprise. She looked at him strangely, and he could not guess what it was that she was thinking. He forced himself to look away without asking, to go on speaking while he had the chance. "What's the point?" Ngenet snapped. "Don't waste my time." His weather beaten face was furrowed with frown lines; his dark, hooded eyes were still pitiless and cold like the wind. Ngenet was the last of a family of offworlders who had gone native in the Tiamatan outback, and he loved this world and all its parts obsessively. He had tried to protect the mere on his plantation from the Hunt. But Arienrhod had sent her Starbuck to his shores at Winter's end for one final, illegal harvesting. All their scattered fates had been brought into collision on that bitter day, on that hideous stretch of beach, by the tightening of the Snow Queen's fist. And none of them had escaped unscarred. Sparks glanced at Moon, saw his own sudden pain mirrored in her eyes. Their shifting colors were like memories, shimmering reflections on the surface of water. He swallowed the hard knot of his unexpected grief. "I . . . The point ... the point is that I believe there may be segments missing from the mersong. Parts of it fall into patterns, meaningful enough to be fragments of something greater. But there are gaps. . . ." He had begun to talk with Moon about Ngenet's work years ago, at first out of what must have been a kind of masochistic guilt. But from his need to atone there had come a cleaner, purer interest in the mersong, as it fed his curiosity about the nature of their music, and music in general. He had studied the recorded data until he was certain the songs the mers sang 134 Joan D. Vinge were something separate from the simple tonal language they used to communicate with one another. The tapes were filled with complex, almost indecipherable polyphonic strands of alien sound, lasting sometimes for hours. But they were songs in the true sense, as distinct and unchanging for each mer colony as they were varied among those separate groups. Each extended family within the colony seemed to possess a different musical strand, passed on by the adults to their small number of young, over countless generations as humans counted time. Blended together the strands comprised something greater, the pattern of which he had only begun to sense in the past few weeks. "I've been studying the recordings you've made, charting the melodies, and it seems to me that with the--slaughter decimating their numbers over and over, maybe they've lost the purpose of the songs themselves, along with specific passages of them. Even when the offworlders are gone, the mers reproduce slowly; it takes at least the century they have to rebuild their population. It wouldn't be surprising if parts of their songs were lost forever. But if we could somehow reconstruct what's missing, we actually might understand them, maybe even give back to them some of what they've lost." Ngenet sat forward slowly. Sparks realized suddenly that the older man's eyes were open and looking at him . . . waiting to meet his gaze. "That makes sense," Ngenet said slowly, as if it pained him to admit it. Sparks bit his tongue, and smiled. He glanced at Moon's face, at the fascination and respect and, suddenly, the unquestioning love he saw there. Her smile widened. Ngenet leaned forward on the heavy-framed couch, his hands locked together, his knuckles like burls on wood. "Take a look at what we have here. And tell me more about your methods--how did you come to this idea? Do you have your data with you?" "I can get it." Sparks pushed to his feet, still hardly believing he had heard the other man speak those words, that his own words had been listened to, when he had lived so long with Ngenet's unspoken censure. He had done his solitary research for what seemed like an eternity, seeking the key that would grant him free access to the work Moon shared with Ngenet--grant him the hope, however small, that one day he would not see hatred and loathing, pity or pain, in the eyes of everyone who knew the truth . . . including his own eyes . . . including the eyes of his wife. He hesitated, as he heard the sound of dogs barking and the excited voices of children coming toward the house. Ngenet pushed to his feet, with annoyance showing on his face again; but this time his gaze was directed toward the windows, the threatened interruption. "Mama! Mama!" Ariele burst through the front door, flushed and breathless, barely skidding to a stop in time to avoid a collision with the table below the window "Da!" she added, seeing her father standing distractedly with the others. "We found mere!" Mild surprise filled Ngenet's face, momentarily replacing his annoyance at the interruption. "It's a good sign that you saw mers, Ari," Moon said, getting up, "but we're--" "On the beach! On the beach!" Ariele cried, as more figures entered the house Sparks turned as Jerusha entered, her heavy boots clumping on the wooden floor, something heavy and child-sized held in her arms. He froze, until he realized that the other two children were flanking her. "Dead!" Ariele went on. "But look, we found THE SUMMER QUEEN 135 a baby--" She darted back to Jerusha's side, hovering protectively by the bundle held face-high in front of her, her eyes wide as she touched it, stroking it gently. Sparks stood where he was, suddenly as strengthless as if it had been a child of his in Jerusha's arms, while Moon and Ngenet rose from their seats and moved past him. He watched them go to Jerusha, the conversation they had all just been having forgotten as utterly as he was himself. Ngenet shooed the children aside; they stood back obediently, impressed by his sudden intentness. "Still alive--?" he asked, answering the question for himself as he ran experienced hands over the merling, and studied its small, unresponsive face. It made a tiny whimpering as he opened its eye; the fragile thread of sound turned Sparks cold inside. He looked away, his hands remembering the velvet soft texture of their thick fur; wanting to move forward, to stand with the rest, but unable to, unnoticed, unwanted-- "We found an adult female too," Jerusha said, "but she was already dead." "What killed her?" Ngenet asked. Sparks looked back at them, found Moon's gaze on his face; she looked away again abruptly. "I don't know." Jerusha shook her head. "There was nothing wrong that I could see. Maybe the storm--" The mers had no natural enemies, except their creators. Sparks let his breath out. Jerusha glanced at him as if she had sensed his response; only then did he realize that he had been expecting to hear her speak his name, blaming him. Ngenet shrugged, glancing up as Borah Clearwater and Gran came into the house "Or parasites, or bad food . . . but usually the colony keeps watch when one of their own is in trouble. To find them all alone like that is damned rare. And so is finding a young one, at this time in the High Year. . . ." He reached out to take the merling from Jerusha's arms, but she resisted, rocking slowly, almost unthinkingly, from foot to foot, like a mother rocking her child. Ngenet's expression changed, and he let his hands drop. "Maybe they were separated from the rest by the storm Or maybe . . ." He shook his head again. "I don't understand it. But this one will starve before the day is out, let alone before we locate the colony, if we don't take care of it right now." He started out of the room, already calling to someone in the kitchen. "Will a colony take in an orphan?" Moon asked, her own eyes on the small head resting listlessly against Jerusha's shoulder. "I've never encountered a solitary merling before," Ngenet said. "We'll find out." Mers separated forcibly from their own kind invariably died, but he did not mention that. He paused, giving directions to the startled cook who had appeared in the doorway, sending her off again in search of something suitable to feed a young mer. "What if the mers don't want their baby back, Uncle Miroe?" Tammis asked, his eyes dark with concern as he gazed at the merling. "Will it be all alone? Who will take care of it?" Ngenet glanced over at the boy, a smile cracking the shell of his preoccupation. He had studied the mers for a lifetime, but even he knew little concrete about their society, the relationships they formed or did not form, how they raised their young. "Then we'll keep the baby here. But we'll worry about that later. First we'll make the baby strong and healthy " I 136 /oan D. Vinge "Is the baby going to get well?" Merovy asked, pressing forward hesitantly against Gran's gentle restraint. "We'll do our best to help her," Ngenet said gently, not really answering the question. Sparks saw the doubt in his eyes, and knew the concern that ran like a dark river below it. Ngenet touched the motionless merhng again. He had always fought for the mers' survival, with a determination that would have earned him deportation if it had not earned him the love and tolerance of the Hegemonic Police Commander "Miroe," Moon said almost hesitantly, her own eyes never leaving the merhng, "if you can save her, if you can actually raise her ... it could be a way of reaching the others. It could help us learn--" Ngenet looked from Moon's face to Jerusha rocking the merhng in her arms "I'm way ahead of you," he said, with an unexpected smile. "Come on--" He nodded, starting for the doorway, and the others followed. Sparks watched them go, still rooted where he stood, unable to go after them Anele came back through the doorway alone, looking curiously at him. "Come on, Da!" She came across the room to his side. He put his arms around her, holding her close for a moment. She squirmed free, tugged at his hand. "Come on, Da, come help the mer--" "I can't, Anele," he whispered, barely audible even to himself. "I don't know how." He freed his hand from her gnp, and started back across the room to the door He went out without another word, slamming the door behind him. TIAMAT: Carbuncle "Wasn't it wonderful, Mama?" Anele returned her mother's good-night hug, hanging on her in an ecstasy of excitement. "We had so much fun! Now we can have our own mer to be our pet. I want to call her Silky, because she's so soft!" She squirmed as Moon tried to cover her with blankets. Moon started in surprise, as the name reflected unexpectedly in her memory "Our friend," she corrected softly, stroking Ariele's hair. "We don't own them, any more than they own us. Our people, the Summers, call them the Goddess's other children, and say the Sea is the Mother of both our peoples. . . . But I think Silky is a perfect name," she added. "I had a ... friend once, from offworld, named Silky. He was more like the mers than anyone I knew. I think he would be glad to be remembered this way. And maybe Silky will help us understand the mers better as she grows." She kissed her daughter gently on the forehead. "Lie down and go to sleep." THE SUMMER QUEEN 137 "It's so early--" "And you're so tired." "I want to help learn about them--" "I know. Shh." She turned away, going to Tammis's bed across the darkened \tfKX of the room they shared. There were enough unused rooms in the palace for them each to have one of their own. But the rooms were vast and sterile, and seemed to her always so cold, that she had chosen to keep the twins together in the nursery, close by her own room, until they were old enough to complain, or at least old enough never to wake from a nightmare, terrified to find themselves alone. But maybe no one ever outgrew those dreams. . . . She still woke at night, feeling lost, terrified, alone; even though she slept next to a man who loved her, a | man she had known all her life. "I want to help too!" Tammis said, propped on one elbow, listening. "I know." She hugged him, kissed him on the forehead, smelling the scent of sea and wind in his hair. "We'll all do it, together." "When can we see the mer baby again? Tomorrow?" "Silky--!" Ariele whispered loudly. "I want to name her Silky, don't you?" "We just came back." Moon smiled. "We'll go again soon. Not tomorrow. You have lessons to study." Tammis made a face. "Where's Da? Isn't he going to play his flute for us?" Moon glanced toward the empty doorway of the room, feeling her face tighten. "Not tonight. He's very tired." He had been impatient and moody through the long, weary trip back up the coast. The only words he had spoken to any of them had stung like nettles; until all that she could do was try to keep herself, and the children, out of his sight. He had not said anything about the reason for his smoldering anger, but she knew. It was the merling. "I'll sing you a song." She closed her eyes, letting go of her frustration; letting her mind carry her back until she was a child in Summer again. She remembered being rocked in the arms of her strong, sandy-haired mother, who came home with the fishing fleet smelling of the wind and the sea; who had sung them songs about the mers like the one she began to sing for her children now. She let herself imagine that they all sat before the fire in a tiny, stone-walled cottage on a tiny windswept island, in a room that had always seemed warmer, safer, more real than any room she ever found herself in these days. She wished, with a sudden soul-deep longing, that she could take herself and her family back to that dreaming island, away from this haunted city. But that past, of the song and of her memories, no longer existed. The mother who had sung to her was dead . . . and this was where she belonged, whether she wanted it or not, because otherwise what she must do here would never be finished. She felt with particular heaviness tonight the burden the sibyl mind had laid upon her--knowing that its will would not be done in her lifetime, or ever allow her any peace. She felt her eyes fill with tears as she ended the song, and barely held her voice together to finish it. Tammis looked up at her, his own eyes filling with concern. She smiled quickly, swallowing the hard lump of sorrow in her throat, stroking his hair. "Will Da make my flute for me tonight?" he asked, as she got up from his bedside. "I don't know, lovey," she murmured. Sparks had already begun to let Ariele 138 /oan D. Vmge play his own flute, to Moon's annoyance. "I'll remind him about it. Sweet dreams, she said to them both, and went out of the darkened room into the glowlit hall. Sparks met her at the doorway, glanced at her startled face with an expression that was both apologetic and uncertain, before he went past her into the children's room. She listened for a moment, hearing murmured voices, and then the high, pure notes of flutesong, before she started on. She walked slowly through the echoing halls, past rooms filled with fragments of the past, or prototypes and plans for the future; heading for her study, where far too many requests and pieces of information waited for her, all of them needing to be considered and answered and dealt with, all of them desperately important to someone. There was no escape from them, no respite. Her work never stopped, even when she tried to ... had to. When she slept or made love or played with her children, when she fled the city to spend time under the open sky, to see with her own eyes the world she was working to change or the mers whose existence she was struggling to save, still the duties, the demands and expectations followed her, waited for her, relentlessly. And when she returned here, from an hour stolen, or a week, she found the pitiless burden of her work had become even heavier as she took it back on her shoulders . . . until everything she did became a burden, a responsibility; even the things that should have given her joy, that had once brought her pleasure. She climbed the spiraling stairs to her study at the pinnacle of the palace; stood gazing out at the city's carapace falling away in smooth undulation, gleaming and shadowed. It struck her how precisely the city rested on the terminus between constant sea and ever-changing land, belonging wholly to neither one. She studied what had once been snow-covered wilderness, seeing bare ground, new growth, a scatter of factories and labs, all tapping the city's supply of tidal-run energy She could see construction going forward on a new manufactory to the south. She turned gazing inland, seeing the dark, shielded domes of the unoccupied starport complex the rising hills beyond it, no longer white with snow but green with life. Farther inland the higher peaks were still icebound, shining like metal among the clouds. Even at the height of Summer most of those mountains were inaccessible to everyone but a few nomadic pfalla herders. They were uninhabitable now, at their present level of technology, and probably would still be uninhabited when the offworlders returned. She thought of her time lost in those mountains, a prisoner among the nomads--her time alone with one solitary man. . . . She looked up into the sky, remembering again how they had watched together from the last ridge of those mountains as stars fell over Carbuncle . . . artificial stars made of hologramic fire, lighting the arrival of the Hegemonic Assembly, marking the time of the final Change, the death of Winter, the rebirth of Summer, and an endless circle of futility and hypocrisy. She watched the Twins setting now in the west; gazed up into the inverted sea of the sky, with its islands of cloud, its deep blue further deepening. Already she was beginning to see the luminous multitudes of the stars, knowing that somewhere beyond that burning sky the Hegemony waited to return; and that somewhere out there the one other man she had loved in her life had reached out to her and touched her across the light-years, impossibly. . . . She looked down, away from the sky, as she remembered the dream she had had two nights ago, that she had not revealed even to Jerusha: a dream in which she had been drawn out of her body by the Transfer, and into a blackness like the Nothing THE SUMMER QUEEN 139 place, the heart of the sibyl computer's lifeless mind. But there had been no question, no questioner. Instead there had been only a voice--his voice, his words becoming a symphony of light as he called her name. He had shown her that he was safe, that he was sane, because of her. He had sworn that he would never forget her; sworn to her that if she ever needed him, somehow he would be there. . . . She had wakened to the familiar sensations and silences of nighttime at Ngenet plantation--to Sparks, lying peacefully asleep beside her. She had felt dizzy, breathless, as if she had been in Transfer. Except that it never happened that way. What had happened had been impossible; and so it had to have been a dream, even though it was like no other dream about him she had ever had. . . . Helpless longing seized her, as it had seized her then, while she remembered being held captive in the body of another woman on another world, feeling his hungry mouth on hers. As she remembered now, with sudden, exquisite clarity, the fever that had consumed her on a night long years ago--a desire so hot and helpless that it had turned her soul molten. A need as incandescent as the need of the stranger whose burning body had turned her vows to ashes. . . . She opened her eyes, focusing on the room around her--the oppressive layers of documents and deeds, the stormwrack of her life. She held herself tightly to stop her trembling; stood motionless with gooseflesh standing up on her arms. Someone entered the room behind her. She turned to find Sparks standing in the doorway, his own gaze taking in the deceptively passive chaos of her surroundings. "Moon," he said softly; hesitated, as if he saw something in her eyes that he was afraid to confront. He looked down, and when he looked up again, she knew that it was gone. "Are you all right?" she asked. The impatience she had felt earlier was gone now; she saw weariness and need reflected in his own eyes. She crossed the room to him, let him put his arms around her, resting strengthless against him for a moment. "Better now," he murmured, and she knew he meant this moment only, holding her close, and not their return to the city, to these empty, echoing halls. "The twins are wonderful, you know that? They're getting so big, they amaze me, all the time. Sometimes I can't believe they're ours--" He broke off; pressed on again. "Ariele, on the beach ... she looked so much like you. She's going to be a natural musician. Did you hear her?" "Tammis is afraid you'll forget to make him a flute," Moon said, managing to keep the words neutral, taking care not to let them cut him. "It isn't fair that you let Ariele use yours, and don't give him one." "I'm sorry. I will do it." He released her, taking a deep breath as he glanced away out the door. "I couldn't ... I tried, I know I've been a motherlorn bastard these past couple of days. . . . None of you deserve it. I guess you know why." He looked back at her again. "The merling?" Not really a question. He rubbed his face with a hand. "Whenever Ngenet looked at me, I saw Starbuck in his eyes. He didn't want me near her--he acted like my presence in the same room was poison! He'll never stop hating me for what I did as Starbuck, to the tners, to him . . . he'll never let it go." She put her hand on his arm, feeling her chest ache with misery--his, her own. Feeling the cold breath of Winter again at their backs. "He wouldn't let anyone near 140 Joan D. Vinge the merling until he knew what was wrong, and he was sure that she would live. He wanted to know what you discovered about the mersong--" "So that he could tell me it was garbage." "It could be," she said softly, "that he felt envious because you had a new insight into the data, after he had worked on it without any success for so long. But you never really gave him a chance." She let go of his hand, her fingers stretching wide with sudden frustration. "After he told you to leave the room, you didn't say three words to him all the rest of the time we spent there." "I was afraid, damn it! All right? Is that what you want to hear--?" His own hand made a fist. It loosened, he shook his head. "And I couldn't stand it, to be near one of them; even to think about the mers. I see it in their eyes, too ... fear, never forgiveness!" He looked away, his own eyes haunted. "Sparks ..." she whispered. "Arienrhod is dead! The past is dead. Starbuck is dead. Remember the Change, that last night? The Mask Night . . . and the morning, when ..." When we sent Arienrhod into the sea. "When all of Winter, and all of Summer put off their masks and their sins and their sorrows. We swore that we would begin a new life, we'd renew our life's-pledge again, because everything had changed." "But the problem is that everything has changed. . . ." He glanced away from her at the room, the sky beyond the windows. He turned back, looking into her eyes He put his arms around her suddenly and kissed her, holding her with desperate tenderness. "Moon . . . let's go to bed. I haven't loved you in the daylight for so long. ... We haven't made love at all, for so long." She felt her own desire waken to the pressure of his mouth, the pressure of his body against her. But she pushed away from him, shaking her head. "I can't. I have so much work to do before I can even think about . . . think about . . . anything else--I'm so tired. I can't." He held on to her. "Moon, please. I need you. I need you now, I need to know you--we--still feel something, still mean something to each other, in the middle of all this--" He jerked his head at what lay around them. "You need?" she said, breaking free of his hold, as the emotion inside her curdled into resentment. "What about my needs? You need me, the children need me, everyone in this city, everyone on this damned world, needs me, even the sibyl net--it's always now, it can never wait. Everyone needs needs needs--! No one ever asks me what I need! I need to be left alone for once! Leave me alone, damn it, leave me alone!" Sparks backed away from her, his face stunned as he reached the doorway again. He turned and went out, granting her wish without looking back, without a word. Sparks went back down the spiraling stairs, through the halls and the chambers and the chill, empty throne room; not seeing the superficial overlay of the present that still failed to transform them. He saw only the past, memories, Winter. . . . Her: Arienrhod, all in white, on her throne of glass in the white-carpeted hall, with her pitiless purity of beauty, of strength, of control. He had not understood why they were so alike, then, Arienrhod and Moon; why they both wanted him, needed him, loved him . . . any more than he understood now the things that had come between Moon and himself like a curse, after she had THE SUMMER QUEEN 141 wanted him so badly, come so far and suffered so much to find him, challenged Anenrhod herself for the right to his soul. . . . He went on, down, out; crossing the bridge over the silent Pit, going on through the Summer-frescoed entry hall and through the massive doors into the city beyond them. He walked, although there were electrified trams now that shuttled people up and down the Street; working off the frustration that clogged his chest until he found it hard to breathe. He murmured desultory answers to the occasional greetings of passersby, mostly Winters. The Winters clung to their traditional upper sector of the city, where the once-exclusive townhouses still held fragments of the better days they had known when Winter ruled. Most of them were hard at work now, working for the Summer Queen, working toward a day when their useless offworlder luxuries would miraculously function again; when they would be the leaders of the new Tiamat, not by chance or whim, but because they had built its economy themselves, and earned the right to control it ... for better or worse. Glancing at faces, looking in through windows as he passed, he saw no one among them to whom he could talk about what he was feeling now--what he had done, and been, and could not ever seem to stop remembering. He went on walking, needing some destination, some human contact . . . drawn by memory into the Maze. The Maze separated the Winters from the Summers who still inhabited Carbuncle's lowest levels, the spiral of alleys nearest the sea. The Maze had been the heart of Carbuncle, a vibrant neutral zone between those two halves of the world, while the Hegemony had ruled Tiamat. It was the place where most offworlders had lived, plied their businesses, bought and sold their pleasures and vices. It was still mostly given over to the few local-run stores and businesses that existed now. He glanced down one alley after another: spokes branching off from the Street's lazy downward uncoiling, each of then} named for a color, it was said--more colors than he would ever have dreamed existed, even on this water world, whose sky was filled with rainbows every day. He still didn't know what color half of the names actually were, any more than he knew what language they had been in originally, or how the alleys had gotten those names in the first place. Perhaps even the Old Empire builders of this city had been moved by the sight of the sky, with its days of rainbows endlessly forming and fading, its burning nights. . . . He stopped at the entrance to Citron Alley. It had been some shade of yellow-green; the paint on shutters and doors and occasional building fronts still told his eyes that much. It had been his first home in the city, as a seventeen-year-old boy fresh from the Windwards. Fate Ravenglass, the maskmaker, had lived here then . . . still lived here, as Fate Ravenglass the sibyl. She had heard his music, and taught him how to survive as a street musician; had taken him in and given him shelter, until Arienrhod found him, and claimed him for her own. Even after he became the Snow Queen's favorite . . . after he became her consort, and then her henchman, her Starbuck, he had returned here. Even after he butchered the sacred mers and drank the water of life, he had returned to this alley seeking sanctuary, when what he had become was too much for him to bear. He had come back to see Fate, whose eyes saw almost nothing; whose soul saw everything, but seemed never to pass judgment on it. He had never known why she continued to welcome him on her doorstep, any 142 Joan D. Vinse more than he had known that she was a sibyl, the only one in Carbuncle, hiding her secret from Winters and offworlders alike--the way Starbuck had hidden his identify behind a mask and gone all in black. But she had hidden her secret identity to serve a greater good, while he had hidden his reality behind a faceless lie, his only reasons for existence to commit treachery and murder. . . . He shook his head, driving out the shadows as he started into Citron Alley. He had not visited Fate in a long time--not for the reasons he had visited her in the old days, or for the reason he was about to visit her now. The buildings nearest the Street were occupied by a mix of new Winter-run businesses and a few Summer shops, although farther down the alley the ancient buildings were shuttered and abandoned, waiting with inhuman patience for someone to return. The transparent storm walls let in the garish colors of the sunset; twilight came late in the northern latitudes, as the lengthening days of the annual spring moved on toward annual summer, adding their warmth to the High Summer of the system's approach to the Black Gate. Fewer and fewer people passed him as he made his way down the alley. By the time he reached Fate's doorstep he was entirely alone, and glad that he was. He knocked on her closed double-door, lightly at first, and then harder, when there was no answer. Still he got no response, except for the faint yowling of her aged cat telling him impatiently that she was not at home. He swore under his breath, wondering where in hell a blind woman could be at this time of night. Probably she had gone to a tavern somewhere with Tor Starhiker, to listen to music. He knew she did that sometimes. He even thought he knew where. But he did not want to see her with Tor Starhiker, not tonight, with his head too full of the memories of all their former lives, and how they had spent them at Winter's end. He went back along the alley toward the Street; stopped at the corner looking uphill along its spiral, facing the prospect of his return to the palace. He took a deep breath and made himself start walking. He had nowhere else to go, no one else to talk to, nowhere else to turn. . . . As he walked he thought of spending the night there, lying alone in the darkness, sharing his bed with Arienrhod's specter, with the chill touch of her ghost arms turning his flesh to carrion, the memories of what they had done together in that place leaving him sleepless. ... He thought of lying beside Moon, Arienrhod's ghost made flesh--how she would turn her back to him in anger when she joined him, far later, her body cold and tense with exhaustion and resentment. She was held captive not just by her obsessions, but by something even more profoundly inescapable, something he could not begin to comprehend. He thought about its pitiless hold on her ... the bitter spines of the trefoil she wore, the same symbol tattooed at her throat, inescapable. He felt a brief surge of compassion, knowing that she deserved more than she had gotten from him tonight, of kindness, of understanding, of love--that she had always deserved more from him than he seemed able to give since they had been reunited. But he also knew that he needed more of her than she could give him ever again. The space around them, the space within their lives, was too small, they had nowhere left to turn; the future had filled it all in with inescapable truths. . . . His steps slowed as he reached the corner of another familiar alley: OH vine Alley, which held the Sibyl College. His office was there, where he spent his days working with his wife: asking questions that would send her into Transfer, and THE SUMMER QUEEN 143 recording the answers; trying to make sense of what the Transfer told them, as the sibyl net answered queries in its own strange and elliptical fashion. He realized suddenly that he enjoyed what he did there, was proud of it . . that when he worked and did research for Tiamat, it was as if he united his two heritages, Summer and offworlder, in a way he had longed to do when he first came to Carbuncle. Discovering the perfect beauty of the mathematics which underlay so many forms and functions, both of human progress and natural order, filled him with a pleasure and satisfaction he rarely found in the randomness and pain of human relationships. On an impulse he turned into the alley, turning his back on the uphill climb toward home and family. He walked until he came to the entrance to the College; let himself in, moving through its familiar, twilit halls until he reached his office. He turned on a light and sat down at the regulation Police-issue desk, abandoned there by its former owners at the Change. Its useless terminal stared back at him like a sightless eye. Shuffling through the disorder of typewritten papers, handwritten notes, and riches, he picked up an aging text on fugue theory he had found in an abandoned data shop. He leaned back into the embrace of the shapeshifting chair and put his feet up on the desk. He opened the book and began to read, losing himself in thought NUMBER FOUR: World's End Reede Kullervo rested moodily on a freeform couch in the Port Authority hotel suite, gnawing a hangnail and staring out across the artificial stars of the landing field, into the black heart of the jungle beyond it. He watched another shuttle rise without seeming effort and disappear into the greater blackness of the night. His fist tightened around the bottle of ouvung he had been drinking straight; the cheap plass crumpled under his grip, and viscous ruby liquor oozed out and down over his fingers like blood. He could hear muted voices and unintelligible noise coming from the next room, where Niburu and Ananke were lost in some time-wasting interactive on the entertainment unit. He sighed, and took another drink from the ruined bottle, staring out at the night. This room stank of newness, like everything here did--of restless molecules still escaping from wall surfaces, fabrics, furniture. Somewhere behind him, if he could have seen through walls, was the sea of light that was the Stardrive Research Project and the prefabricated instant city that had sprung up around it, here in the middle of nowhere, on the edge of World's End. 144 foan D. Vinge "By the Render--" He swore and sat up abruptly, felt the couch re-form around him. He took another handful of iestas from the dish on the table and stuffed them into his mouth, chewing them up pods and all. The pods tasted like shit, but they were supposed to have more natural tranquilizer than the seeds themselves. Not that it would do him any good. He washed them down with another gulp of ouvung. No matter how much garbage he put into his system, the water of death annulled the effects. It was virtually impossible for him to get drunk or high, to get even the slightest bit numb, no matter how hard he tried. He kept trying, hoping for a miracle. He could not have come all this way pointlessly! Damn that stupid bastard Tubiri, who was supposed to have provided the verification that Reede Kullervo had been sent here by the Kharemoughis--who had gotten himself wiped off the face of Number Four so damned inconveniently, so short a time ago. "Incinerated in an accident with the stardrive plasma." That was what they had told him. Was it possible that it wasn't an accident . . . ? No. Accidents happened, even to the Brotherhood. If it hadn't been an accident, it would have happened to Reede Kullervo instead. . . . He was still safe and alive, but he was stranded, with no way to get the access he needed to the research that was going on. If he couldn't get inside and show these shitbrained fools how to contain and control the stardrive material--and in the more than two and a half years of their time it had taken him to get here, they had failed to be successful at either--then he would never be able to get a stable sample of it for himself, to carry back to Ondinee. To Mundilfoere. . . . Mundilfoere. If only she was here with him, to tell him he had done the right thing, to tell him what to do next. To hold him in her arms. . . He rubbed his eyes, muttering another curse. The Brotherhood had members on Four, but they were few, and he had to be careful about contacting them. They had no one at all on the inside at the Research Project, now that Tubiri was gone. And he knew the security around this place. Between the ruthlessness of the locals and the obsessive technological innovations of the Kharemoughis, this place made the paranoia of the Tuo Ne'el cartels seem like an open market square. He had tried every argument imaginable to make them let him in today, but nothing had worked. And he needed not just the access, but cooperation. Now he would have to go back at least to Foursgate--that was the most cosmopolitan city center on the planet, the heart of their offworld trade. He would have to start all over. . . . There was a knock at the door. He pushed to his feet, frowning. He was not expecting visitors. He did not want visitors. "Niburu!" he shouted. But the noise and the laughter went on, undiminished in the next room. Swearing under his breath, he crossed to the door; he stopped, reaching inside his overshirt, checking the weapons he had rearmed himself with as soon as he left the Project. He peered through the one-way panel beside the door, and froze. And then, slowly, his hand fell away from his gun and he released the lock. The door slid open silently. He stood looking out at the local woman, a worker from the Research Project who had tried to speak to him as he left there late this afternoon, and at the stranger standing beside her. She had been a sibyl, he suddenly remembered; and in his exasperation, as they had shown him the door after six hours of useless interrogation, he had shouted, "For gods' sakes, I'm a stranger far from home--" She and the man with her were both wearing dark, shapeless rain slickers, the hoods shadowing their faces. And yet he suddenly knew beyond a doubt who it was that she had brought to see him. Reede held out his hand to the woman. "Hello THE SUMMER QUEEN 145 again," he murmured, in the local dialect. "I'm sorry I didn't return your courtesy this afternoon." "I don't blame you." She took his proffered hand somberly, and he felt her answer the subtle movement of his fingers. "I'm Tiras ranKells Hahn," she said; last name first, in the local fashion. "I'm sorry I couldn't be of more help to you then. I'm afraid they don't make strangers welcome easily at the Project. . . . May I present to you the Honorable Researcher Commander BZ Gundhahnu--" "Yes, yes, of course--" Reede held out his hand to the man who accompanied her, feeling his face flush with unexpected emotion. "Gods, you can't imagine what a pleasure this is." You can't. He met the other man's eyes, with a smile that was completely genuine. "Reede Kulleva Kullervo, from the Pandalhi Research Institute. " Gundhalinu offered him a hand, raised paim out in the typical Kharemoughi manner. Reede twisted his own hand quickly, so that their palms met in what he hoped seemed like a natural motion. Careless, you ass. He felt the hidden question the other man's touch asked him in turn, and he answered it with silent satisfaction. Of course Gundhalinu was Survey; at a high level too, he was sure. "I understand you've come all the way from Kharemough to work with us, only to be turned away today by our overeager watchdogs?" Gundhalinu answered his smile with one that looked more reserved. His eyes were so dark they were almost black, and they regarded Reede with frank curiosity. Reede managed a laugh that might have been rueful. "I seem to have disappeared from your data reality--and they told me my contact has been incinerated. . . . Your security sets a new standard for the entire Hegemony." "Our bureaucracy, you mean." Gundhalinu shook his head. "I'm truly sorry This place has always been a godforsaken bottleneck. You should have seen it before there was a research center here, when it was the Company's town. . . . But I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy." Reede felt his smile pull. He shrugged, loosening the muscles in his back. "You were here then?" he asked, surprised. "Our histories have become one, I'm afraid." Gundhalinu's smile turned sour, and he didn't elaborate. Reede realized that Gundhalinu's discovery of the stardrive must have been the catalyst that had precipitated all this change. He had, by his single act, become responsible for the town's transformation. Reede glanced at the woman named Hahn again, sensing her restlessness. "Excuse my manners. Come in, won't you?" he murmured, including them both in the gesture. Hahn shook her head. "I can't stay. I have to get back. My daughter . . ." "How is she?" Gundhalinu asked, turning toward her with sudden solicitude. "Better ..." she murmured. "I think she is a little better." She shrugged, in a gesture Reede read as hopeless. "I'm glad to hear it," Gundhalinu said, with a peculiar sorrow showing in his eyes. "You're kind to remember her, Commander." "Schact!" Gundhalinu said abruptly. "Don't you start treating me like one of your sainted ancestors, Hahn. You know me better than that." She turned to him in surprise; smiled, and it was a real smile, given to a real 146 /oan D. Vmge man. "Yes, of course . . . BZ." She nodded, looking down again as she did, unable to stop herself. He took a deep breath. "Thank you for bringing me here. Hahn, if there's ever anything else I can do ... You know." He shrugged. She smiled at him over his shoulder, and went on down the hall. Gundhalinu looked back, his dark eyes searching Reede's blue noncommittal ones. "Her daughter is a sibyl," he said, his speech slipping from the local dialect into his native Sandhi, as if he took it for granted that Reede would be able to follow "She wasn't suited for it. She . . ."He made a brief, futile motion with his hand, and looked away. "Never mind." He trailed Reede into the suite. Reede closed the door behind them. Gundhalinu glanced toward the next room, his attention caught by the light and noise. "My assistants," Reede murmured in explanation; suddenly, unexpectedly feeling ill at ease. "Have a seat." He spoke in Sandhi now, as Gundhalinu clearly expected him to. He gestured toward the couch. "Thank you." Gundhalinu dropped his ram gear into an empty side chair. He was wearing the full dress uniform of a Commander of Police, the jacket crusted with the hologramic fire of a dozen medals of honor. And lying against his chest, dimmed to insignificance, was the trefoil of a sibyl. Reede froze, gaping at him, through a moment that seemed interminable. Gundhalinu looked at him quizzically, as if he couldn't even begin to guess what was going on inside his host's expression. "Do you sleep with those?" Reede said. Gundhalinu looked down at himself, as if he only then realized what he was wearing. He laughed, suddenly, almost in relief. "Ye gods, no." He took off the jacket and tossed it into the chair on top of the wet slicker. "I just came from an exceedingly long and tiresome banquet at the Project. Some visiting dignitaries . . ." He rubbed his neck, loosening his collar as he crossed the room. Reede felt more than saw fatigue overtake him as he settled onto the couch. "The price of fame," Reede murmured. He ran his hands over his own clothing, glad that he hadn't bothered to take off the neat, conservative overtunic and loose pants he had worn for his interview, or the silver clip that kept his hair reluctantly trapped in a tail at the base of his neck. He sat down on the couch at a comfortable angle from Gundhalinu. He could see the sibyl tattoo on Gundhalinu's throat, now that his uniform collar lay open. Gundhalinu looked away, his gaze fixed on something beyond sight. "Everything has its cost." His glance settled on the nearly empty bottle of ouvung and the half empty bowl of iesta pods on the clear tabletop beside him. "Help yourself," Reede said. "No, thank you. I don't drink." Gundhalinu picked up the dented bottle, turning it around in the light, watching the dead worm swirl past in the ruby liquid. "You must have had an extraordinarily frustrating day, Kullervo-eshkrad," he said, not unsympathetically. Reede recognized the form of address preferred by Kharemough's Technician class; the word meant both respected and scientist. Usually they only used the term with each other; it was a rare honor when they used it to address a foreigner. He guessed that in this case it simply came with his supposed position as a researcher at the Pandalhi Institute. ill THE SUMMER QUEEN 147 "Yes," Reede answered, pricked by annoyance at the implied judgment of his habits. "This stuff will give you a terrible hangover," Gundhalinu said. Reede raised his eyebrows. "That sounds like personal experience. I thought you didn't drink." "That's right. On both counts." Gundhalinu set the bottle down again, and looked back at Reede. "I have to admit, when Hahn told me you had arrived from Kharemough--from the Pandalhi Institute, no less--I expected to meet a fellow Kharemoughi. My people are . . . somewhat resistant to admitting outsiders to their more important institutions. You must be a very intelligent man." Reede smiled faintly. "I am." He watched Gundhalinu, almost disappointed. This was not the man his imagination had shown him. There was nothing remarkable about BZ Gundhalinu. He was a typical Kharemoughi Tech: medium height, dark and slender, probably in his early thirties. His face was fine-boned and salted with pale freckles, like a lot of highboms. A compulsive, self-righteous, inbred weakling. Who the hell would have imagined that he would have one of the greatest insights history had ever recorded? Not even his own Technocrat arrogance, probably. Kharemoughis thought they ran the Hegemony--and worse, they actually believed they deserved to. "And a very influential stranger to be so far from home." Reede nodded again, meeting his gaze with complete confidence this time. "Like yourself." "Are you a sibyl, then?" "Me?" The question startled a laugh out of him. "Not me. I'm not ... suitable material." His hand tried to reach out for the bottle of ouvung; he forced it to lie motionless at his side. "I never imagined that I was, either." Gundhalinu touched the trefoil dangling on its chain, as if he still had trouble believing he wore it. "It must be a relief to you," Reede said. Gundhalinu glanced up at him, curious. "To have proof you can trust yourself." Gundhalinu smiled faintly, looking down at the trefoil again. He let it drop. "Kulleva Kullervo ... is that a Samathan name?" Reede shrugged. "Yes. But* I left there a long time ago. . . ."He looked out the window at the night, as he was impaled on a sudden fragment of memory: In the turgid undersea twilight a small boy was crying, down between looming tanks where his drug-sodden father couldn't hear him; clinging to the mongrel puppy that he loved more than any human being, while it whined and licked at his tears. Feeling the wetness in its matted fur, feeling the wetness soaking through his shirt, crying because his father had beaten his dog, and then beaten him, and he didn't even know why. . . . Gods ... He pressed his hand to his eyes and took a deep breath; held it, reciting an adhani. "Who is head of the Pandalhi Institute these days?" Gundhalinu asked; repeating the question, he realized, because he had not answered. Reede leaned back, feeling the couch enfold him like comforting arms. "Tallifaille. Or she was when I left, at least." "And how is old Darkrad?" Reede smiled. "Pretty much the same." 148 Joan D. Vinge Gundhalinu sat up straighter. "Darkrad has been dead for a dozen years." "That's what I mean. He's still pretty much dead." Reede pushed forward again, letting his grin fade. "If you want to be sure of who I am, Gundhalinu-eshkrad, ask me something important. Ask me why I think I can help you." Gundhalinu stared at him. "You really believe you can solve this thing," he murmured, and it wasn't a question. Reede smiled again, and nodded. "Tell me your ideas," Gundhalinu said, with sudden intensity. "I've been living with this for nearly three years now. In all that time we've barely grasped the smallest part of its complexity. I want answers--" In his eyes Reede saw bottomless depths of disappointment, frustration, failure . . . desperate need. "Convince me you've got the answers, and you can have anything you want." Reede's smile widened. He settled back into the couch's embrace, satisfied; know'ng that Gundhalinu, and the Hegemony, would keep that promise to him whether they liked it or not. "As I understand it, you don't have one problem, you have two. First, the stardrive plasma you discovered suffered some form of integral disruption when the ship containing it crash-landed here. You can't control the function of the plasma. And second, you don't have a way to contain it effectively. They're interrelated, of course. If the plasma was reacting in a predictable, responsive way, you wouldn't need stasis fields to contain it. But unless you can confine enough of it for adequate experimentation, you can't even study it, to learn what's wrong. It becomes a kind of vicious circle for you." Gundhalinu nodded. "My area of expertise is smartmatter." Gundhalinu shook his head slowly. "Is there really such a thing?" he asked. "As smartmatter?" Reede said, in disbelief. "As a living expert in that field. Everybody agrees that the Old Empire created it, used it, existed because of it. The evidence suggests that it even destroyed them. But all that was millennia ago. The technology is lost; only the stardrive and the water of life exist to prove it wasn't just legend--" "And the sibyl virus." Gundhalinu stiffened, and nodded. "Yes. And the sibyl virus. We understand in principle how it functions, but no one has been able to successfully reprogram it, let alone reproduce it--or make it reproduce itself. The sibyl network contains no data at all on the process. It's as if they intentionally suppressed all knowledge of it." He leaned back, and sighed. "Damn them. ..." "They wanted you to make your own mistakes," Reede said. Gundhalinu looked up sharply, his eyes questioning. "Us," Reede murmured. "I meant us, of course." "Dr. Kullervo--" Reede looked away, grateful for the interruption, as Ananke stuck his head through the doorway. The boy wore a reasonable imitation of the clothing a serious student on Kharemough would wear--affectedly baggy and unflattering--and spoke in passable Sandhi. Reede had forced both Ananke and Niburu to learn Sandhi and some of the major Four languages on the way from Ondinee, because for once it would be necessary for them actually to understand what was going on. "What?" "I'm going to sleep now. Do you need anything before I go?" "Where's Niburu?" "He went to bed a while ago." w ^si THE SUMMER QUEEN 149 Reede snorted and shook his head. "Turn off that noise. That's all." Ananke nodded and disappeared; the next room became miraculously dark and silent. Reede glanced at the readouts on the surface of the low table in front of him, surprised by the lateness of the hour. "Was that a baby your assistant was carrying?" Gundhalinu asked. Reede glanced toward the empty doorway, and laughed. "Just an animal. A quoll; but he carries the bloody thing around with him in that sling like it's a baby. On Ondinee they have quolls for pets--and sometimes they have them for dinner. Maybe that's why he doesn't let it out of his sight." "He has a travel permit for it, of course?" Reede looked back at him, and smiled. "Of course, Commander." He reached out, passing his hand over the table surface to activate its terminal. The port came on line, showing the data he had programmed into it while he was preparing the presentation he had not been permitted to give today. "Take a look at that," he said, "Is this an accurate representation of what you've been trying to do?" Gundhalinu leaned forward, studying the datamodels, murmuring queries to the system, watching them transform, go three-dimensional, sink back into the table surface again. He did not ask Reede for any clarification, or seem to need any. "Yes . . ."he said at last. "That's a remarkably coherent model of the work we've been doing. But some of this data we've only recently discovered. If you've been in transit, you couldn't possibly have known--" Reede shrugged. "I made a few educated guesses, to fill in gaps." " 'Educated guesses,' " Gundhalinu repeated softly, and touched the display of symbols on the table surface. "That's impossible. It's taken us years. No one could casually intuit these--" "Like 1 said," Reede murmured, pulling at his ear, "it's what I do, Commander. You made all the classic assumptions about smartmatter. And so I assumed you'd made all the classic mistakes." Gundhalinu's head came up, his mouth thinning. "I've made them all myself, Gundhahnu-eshkrad," Reede said gently. "That's why I know them so well." Gundhalinu's frown eased. The anger left his face empty of all emotion, and drawn with weariness. He shook his head. "All right, Kullervo. Then what next? What--? I've run out of inspiration." Reede waved his hand over the display, enjoying for once (he surreal feeling of being a magician as the constructs changed at his preprogrammed command. "Have you considered this model for the way a technovirus encodes its information?" Gundhalinu peered at the changed image; his frown came back, half doubt, half concentration. "Interesting . . ."He shook his head again. "But the structural codes become too varied if you carry that to its logical end--" He reached out to the display. "No, no--" Reede said impatiently, brushing his hand aside. "You're making it too complicated. This isn't life, it's art--the underlying structure is much simpler than that. There has to be some universality, something beautiful in its simplicity, at the very core. Something like this--" He changed the display again, watching Gundhalinu's face almost hungrily for traces of comprehension. Gundhalinu stared at the image, and slowly became perfectly still. Reede realized after a moment that he had even stopped breathing. "Father of all my 150 /oan D. Vinge grandfathers," Gundhalinu whispered at last. "I don't believe it. Gods--this is true. It is beautiful . . . more than beautiful, it's goddamned brilliant." He laughed, shook his head, looking like a man who was ready to cry as he glanced up again "Kullervo, I told you if you gave me a key that worked, you could name your own reward. Name it." "All I want," Reede said, "is to do what I came here to do--solve this problem, as rapidly as possible. And to work with the man who discovered stardrive plasma in World's End." "That should be no problem." Gundhalinu said softly, with a self-conscious smile touching his mouth. "No problem at all." NUMBER FOUR: World's End "Good news, Reede. We have our clearances. We can go in." Gundhalinu let the words precede him as he strode into the office of Reede Kullervo's private lab. Kullervo raised his head, startled out of what looked like an early nap. "Come the Millennium!" he said, sitting upright in his seat. Relief and pleasure mixed with surprise filled his face. "Yes, gods willing," Gundhalinu murmured, with a smile, "come the Millennium." Kullervo understood the irony of those words as well as he did. He had spoken them for years, like everyone else, meaning the day the Hegemony had a stardrive again--and that he never expected he would live to see that day. Kullervo grinned and cocked his head. "That's the first time I've ever heard you say anything before you said hello." Gundhalinu smiled and stopped moving as he reached Kullervo's side. "Another unique observation . . ."he said, his smile widening. As usual he was both amused and nonplussed by Kullervo's oblique mental processes. "Hello. Good afternoon. I hope you slept well last night, Kullervoeshkrad." Kullervo laughed, pushing up out of his seat. There was an audible smack as he met Gundhalinu's upheld hand with his own; returning the sedate gesture with a greeting that was more like a slap on the back. "I never sleep well, but who cares? Damn . . ."he murmured, "it's coming together. You can feel it too, can't you--?" His hand twitched, as if he wanted to reach out again; but he didn't. Gundhalinu felt Kullervo's unnervingly bright eyes strip his thoughts naked: his eagerness, his aching need to find the answer that would set him free. But then, abruptly, Kullervo was looking through him again. Kullervo swung back to the desk terminal, to the three-dimensional data model that floated in its THE SUMMER QUEEN 151 surface like an hallucination, a portrait of the information storage within a single microcomputer cell of the technovirus. "You're mine," he whispered to it, as if there were no one else in the room, "and you know it." He murmured a few more words, unintelligible orders to the terminal, and the image altered subtly. Before Gundhalinu could begin to analyze what had changed, the whole image vanished and the desktop was only an empty surface of impervious graygreen. "No," Kullervo said, turning back to Gundhalinu as if he were responding to some unspoken question, "I was not taking a nap." Gundhalinu blinked, and forced his brain to take another blind leap of faith as he tried to follow Kullervo's quicksilver chain of thought. He had grown used to the plodding, narrow-focus, too-literal analysis of the scientists who had worked on this project with him before Kullervo arrived. They were the best minds that Four could provide ... but all the really superior minds tended to emigrate to Kharemough, or to have been born there in the first place. Once he had believed, like most Kharemoughi Techs, that Kharemough produced citizens superior in every significant way--moral, intellectual, social--to any world in Hegemony. He had learned a painful humility over the years, and he was grateful for it. But his experience here had given him back the belief that he was in fact as worthy of his ancestral name as his instructors at the Rislanne had insisted he was; that he had been given the best education money could buy, and been born with the skill to use it well. But he had been trapped for nearly three years among uninspired and uninspiring pedants, in a bureaucratic maze of obsessive security and militaristic paranoia. There were only a handful of Kharemoughis onworld, all a part of the Hegemonic judiciate, none of them trained researchers. Once he had transmitted the news of his discovery to Kharemough, he had been promised through the hidden channels of Survey that he would be sent the help he needed to unravel the maddening microcosmic riddle of the stardrive. And for nearly three years he had waited, learning humility once again as he tried to solve the seemingly insoluble, virtually alone. And then at last his promised aid had arrived. He had expected a dozen top Kharemoughi researchers, two dozen They had sent him one man, not even Kharemoughi--a total stranger who looked barely old enough to have finished school. Once he had recovered from the shock, he had acknowledged that if Kullervo was their chosen offering, he must be extremely qualified. Many important researchers did their best work when they were in their early twenties. But all that had hardly prepared him for his head-on collision with the brilliance of Reede Kullervo. Kullervo's grasp of how smartmatter functioned verged on mystical, and Gundhalinu was not a believer in mysterious powers. It was as if Kullervo understood the technovirus with his gut, instead of his brain; he didn't so much analyze data as invent it ... and yet, his undisciplined flights of fantasy were almost invariably, terrifyingly on target. Gundhalinu had felt his own mind come alive again, felt himself stimulated almost unbearably by his contact with Kullervo. He was pushed to the limits of his Perception and past them every day, stimulated into blinding flashes of insight all his own. He had realized almost from the first that his own mind would never be more than a dim reflection of Kullervo's blazing brilliance; and yet, at the same time, he had realized almost gratefully that he had something to offer Kullervo that Kullervo actually needed: pragmatism and discipline. He was not so much a drone, or even a 152 Joan D. Vtnge mirror, as he was a stabilizer, a ground, a focus for Kullervo's wild energy. He saw the proof of it sometimes in Kullervo's sudden appreciative glance ... he saw it in results. These past few months while they had worked together had been like nothing he had ever experienced in his life--a kind of ecstasy that was purely intellectual, but made him wake up every morning glad to be alive, and hungry to be in Kullervo's presence. And yet in all this time he had learned almost nothing about Reede Kullervo the human being, as opposed to the scientist. When Kullervo had arrived, Gundhalinu had found himself drawn to the other man with an unexpected intensity. His reaction had surprised him, until he thought about it. He realized then that his life had come to resemble the hermetically sealed world of the Project in which he spent all his time. Kullervo was someone to whom he could actually talk as an equal, after so long in this place where he had little in common with anyone. On top of that, Kullervo was unique, with a mind full of brilliant fireworks. He had wanted almost painfully to become friends with the man. But Kullervo had rebuffed all his attempts at friendship, or even at personal conversation. Finally Gundhalinu had accepted the obvious, and let it drop. He had never been inclined to force intimacy on strangers; and he had realized eventually that Reede's reluctance to meet him halfway was not personal, but instead somehow oddly defensive. Observing Kullervo, witnessing his unpredictable moods and dysfunctional manners, Gundhalinu had realized that the man had problems, which he probably preferred to keep to himself. He had pushed aside his disappointment, told himself that it didn't matter, they didn't need to be friends to be colleagues. As long as their relationship was focused strictly on research, they communicated flawlessly; they had worked for weeks now in near perfect harmony. But after all this time Kullervo was still an enigma, a cipher, a bizarre mass of contradictions that reminded Gundhalinu every day of the fine line between genius and insanity. Standing here in Kullervo's office, Gundhalinu remembered with sudden vividness the day of their first triumph as a team, over a fortnight ago. Adrift in the null-gravity chamber, side by side, they had tried yet another recombinant of their key, the encoder that would unlock the molecular structure of the damaged technovirus in the minuscule sample lying somewhere at the heart of the incredibly massive, complex, and expensive array of equipment and processors below them-- that would make the stardrive plasma controllable, biddable, sane. . . . They had waited, as they had waited before, side by side but solitary, while the subtle, probing fingers of their fields performed analyses of surpassing delicacy. Waiting for the words that would change history--or send them out of the chamber again, defeated, back to their programs and imagers . . . We have confirmation. The words had echoed the readouts flashing across his vision inside his helmet. Kullervo's cry of triumph had cut through the monotonal message; the figure beside him, semi-human inside its protective suit and stabilizer fields, jigged in a footloose, impossible dance. "--did it this time, BZ! We fucking did it!" The words became intelligible as Kullervo reached through Gundhalinu's field to catch him in an awkward embrace. "I told you--! Laugh, yell, you overcivilized son of a bitch--we did it!" He laughed, as belief caught him up at last; he shouted, inarticulate with elation. And then he lunged after Kullervo, who had started down into the depths as if he THE SUMMER QUEEN 153 intended to fetch the sample out of the core with his bare hands. "Reede--!" He had come up under the other man, slammed him to a halt. "Wait for the servos, damn it. They'll bring it up as fast as you could. . . . You may be bloody brilliant, but the fields will still fry your brilliant brain like an egg." He put his hands on Kullervo's shoulders, holding him in place, their merged stabilizer fields glowing golden around them like a misbegotten halo. Kullervo stared at him, the dazed astonishment on his face slowly replaced by something more recognizable, and yet equally strange. "Ilmarinen--" he murmured. "No," Gundhalinu said, shaking Kullervo slightly, unnerved. "It's me. . . . Reede?" Reede blinked at him, shaking his head independently now. "I know," he snapped, brushing off the contact of Gundhalinu's hand. "Why did you call me Ilmarinen?" Gundhalinu asked softly, curiosity forcing the question out of him against his better judgment. Kullervo shrugged, "Some of my . . . associates have been known to call me 'the new Vanamoinen.' I guess that makes you Ilmarinen. . . . Bad joke." His gaze broke, and he shook his head, still looking away as the cylindrical servo appeared out of the depths, bringing the now-obedient, quiescent milligram of stardrive with it. Gundhalinu watched it come, breathless with anticipation. Kullervo hung motionless beside him. And then, with slow, almost deliberate grace, Kullervo turned a somersault in the air. . . . "Ananke!" Kullervo's voice in realtime pulled Gundhalinu back into the present. "Yes, Dr. Kullervo." The voice of the Ondinean student who was his lab assistant materialized out of the air. "Find Niburu for me. Tell him I want to see him. We have our clearance." "That's great, Doctor! Right away--" Kullervo turned back to face Gundhalinu. "When can we leave for Fire Lake?" "Tomorrow," Gundhalinu said, hardly believing the answer himself. "I requisitioned everything we'll need weeks ago." They had perfected the viral program that effectively stabilized the stardrive plasma; they had tested it successfully. The obvious next step was to make the journey to Fire Lake itself, where a vast semisentient sea of stardrive material waited for them to answer its need, to make order out of its chaos. . . . Gundhalinu looked toward the doorway, remembering the touch of its tormented mind, remembering the hot breath of madness, and the chill of winter snow. "About goddamn time," Kullervo muttered, oblivious. "You'd think somebody around here besides us would want to see this thing work!" Gundhalinu glanced back at him. "There are plenty who have been aching for this moment as long as I have, believe me," he said. But not aching like I have. . . . "You met some of them back in Foursgate, at the Survey Hall." He had taken Kullervo to a special meeting of his local cabal a few weeks back, when he had known that the breakthrough in their research was imminent. Kullervo had been quiet, oddly subdued, during the meeting; even though it had been clear from his responses that he must be at a fairly high level within the inner circles of Survey. "Unfortunately the ones with any vision are all still back in Foursgate. And we are here--out where the bureaucracy is its own reason for existence. The greatest scientific breakthrough in a thousand years becomes nothing but a glitch in the 154 Joan D. Vinge program, to them. They're expecting us in the departure screening area this afternoon for the final certification of our itinerary and proposed goals." Reede made a rude noise. "Pearls before swine," he muttered. He shut down his terminal with an abrupt gesture, turning back to face Gundhalinu. "Let's get it over with, then." He peered through the doorway into the larger lab space. "Where's Niburu?" he snapped. Looking past him, Gundhalinu saw Ananke glance up from whatever he had been studying. "Coming up, Doctor." He nodded. "He'll meet you at the usual place out front." "You're coming too," Kullervo said. "We all have to go." The boy stood up, looking vaguely surprised, or maybe apprehensive. He was not wearing his pet slung at his chest, for once. Gundhalinu glanced around the room, until he found the quoll sitting placidly in a box underneath the desk. He shook his head, imagining the kind of stares that pair must have attracted on Kharemough. He looked back at Kullervo again. Kullervo swung around, almost as if he could feel himself being stared at Gundhalinu glanced down, turning away toward the door as Kullervo came back across the room, followed by Ananke. They went out together through the muted hive of research cubicles and labs, through the symmetrical green-lit levels of security, like swimmers rising through the water. They arrived at last in the sudden brightness and noise, the heat and humidity and rank vegetation smell of World's End, which were always there waiting, just outside the Project's doors. Kedalion Niburu, Kullervo's other assistant, was waiting for them as promised outside the compound, in the noise and heat. He was comfortably insulated from the environment, sitting behind the controls of the triphibian rover Kullervo had requisitioned as soon as he had learned that it was what they used for travel into the wilderness. Since then, Niburu had been learning to handle one in preparation, Kullervo insisted that Niburu could pilot anything, and was the only one he would trust to take them in. Gundhalinu had acquiesced, knowing that he himself was not capable of piloting a rover, and that at least Kullervo trusted this man with his life It reduced one factor of randomness to have a pilot he at least knew somewhat, and not a stranger assigned by Security. His own gut feeling about Kullervo's other assistant, once he had gotten past the startling visual interference of meeting a man so much shorter than himself, was that Niburu was competent and dependable, and a good deal more stable than Kullervo. And stability was something he valued over anything else, when he went into World's End. Gundhalinu climbed into the rover, grateful for its shelter after walking even a few meters through the steaming heat of the day. Kullervo and Ananke got in behind him and the door hissed shut, sealing them into its climate-controlled womb. Gundhalinu wiped sweat from his face. The uniform he was expected to appear in during most of his waking hours had been designed for wear in climatized offices, not for practical use in a place like this . . . something he would have to take up with the Hegemony's establishment when he got back to Kharemough. He glanced at Kullervo, who had settled into the copilot's seat next to Niburu. Kullervo's face was flushed; Gundhalinu had never seen him wear anything but a long-sleeved tunic or shirt, even though there was nothing that required him to dress formally. Gundhalinu wondered absently why he didn't use sunblock for protection instead. Niburu took them up with what seemed to be effortless skill, rising above the THE SUMMER QUEEN 155 nervous dance of ground traffic even though the distance they had to travel was short. Niburu seemed to know his employer's temperament well; Gundhalinu supposed that it was an occupational requirement when working with Kullervo. Gundhalinu stared out at the crazy-quilt of old and new structures down below. It reminded him of a three-dimensional data model, showing the town's uncontrolled spread like some aberrant lifeform, a runaway virus, the stardrive plasma itself ... He forced his mind away from the image, focusing on the concrete fact of the town's explosive growth, for which he was largely responsible. When he had first arrived here to search for his missing brothers, this town had barely existed. It had been the only legitimate access to World's End for prospectors and other riffraff foolhardy enough to dare the wilderness. At that time it was run by Universal Processing Consolidated, the multinational that had controlled World's End mineral rights, and it was more a surreal bureaucratic nightmare than a genuine geographic place existing on real-world maps. It had not even had a name, then. Out here they called Universal Processing Consolidated "the Company," and this was the Company's town. But he had gone into World's End, and come out of it with news that was still sending shockwaves through the Hegemony. The shock had been felt, the changes had begun first, here, at the epicenter on Number Four. He watched the town pass below, the sullen core of squat, heavyset colonial structures overwhelmed by the gleam of the prefabricated highnse hives the government of Four had dropped here to house the influx of technicians, researchers, and workers who were responsible for the Project and its physical plant. Down in the warren of its streets, it seemed to be a place completely transformed, reborn, like the future itself. But from up here he could see beyond its perimeter, see the rank frenzy of the jungle that surrounded it on all sides, stretching to the horizon. The jungle was constantly trying to reclaim the earth from this infestation of alien sentience, giving ground slowly, but never willingly. . . . Chaos against order. A microcosm of life, of progress, of the human soul. He shut his eyes for a moment, against the vision, against the resonance it started in his memory. Tomorrow he would be going to Fire Lake with knowledge that, gods willing, would begin to bring the Lake back from the heart of madness, as he had barely brought his brothers back . . . as he had barely brought himself back to sanity* to civilization, the first time. He shifted in his seat, relieved to see that they were already descending again, falling back into the illusion that progress and order were winning. Not that order and progress had any claim to moral superiority, he thought wearily, as Niburu set them down on the designated spot in the security area of the departure center. Ugliness and banality were all that he could see, rising up on every side, as they got out of the hovercraft and stood on the cercreted landing field. Looking down, he saw the fleshy excrescence of some nameless fungal growth oozing up out of a crack in the inadequately laid ceramic pavement beside his boot, chaos seeping in through civilization's pores. Nothing here had been built to last. It's frightening, the sibyl Hahn had said to him once, how precariously we float on the surface of life. He tugged habitually at the hem of his uniform jacket, as the uniformed guard came toward them across the field, bristling with an array of weapons: more a symbol 156 Joan D. Vinge than a threat, a reminder that was easy for the average human mind to grasp of the far more subtle and effective forms of weaponry that now defended the Perimeter, barring the uninvited from access to World's End. When the Company alone had controlled access to World's End, getting m uninvited had been difficult enough. Now Gundhalinu was certain that it was all but impossible. After word of his discovery had become public, Four's powerful World Enclave had forcibly nationalized them, with the backing of the Hegemonic Police. Universal Processing Consolidated had been one of the major economic forces on the planet; for the world government to take them over under any other circumstances would have been unthinkable. Without the full support of the Hegemony, it would probably have been impossible. But Universal Processing Consolidated owned World's End, where Fire Lake lay. He had found the impossible there, and so the unthinkable had suddenly become the inevitable. . . . As the security guard approached them, Gundhalinu saw how big the other man really was; not simply tall but massive, moving toward them with the inexorability of a landslide. Something about the guard's broad, bronze face seemed familiar; Gundhalinu wondered if they had crossed paths before. Nothing in the man's sullen expression--or lack of it--suggested anything more than a general resentment of foreigners, which they all plainly were. He wore the uniform of the Enclave's military, but Gundhalinu was sure he had worn the Company's uniform before, like most of the workers here. Their masters had changed, but nothing else had--except that now the totalitarian bureaucracy that had run the lives of virtually everyone on this particular continent for a century had even better tools of oppression, and even less fear of government intervention controlling their excesses; because now they were the government. Gundhalinu watched the guard raise a callused hand to make him a grudging salute. He returned it, keeping his equal reluctance to himself. Waves of heat reflected up from the pitiless, glassy pavement beneath his feet. He remembered how once he had watched hands like those casually break all the fingers of a would-be prospector, in a bar called C'uarr's. "Commander Gundhalinu," he said, too brusquely, "to see Agent Ahron " "And them?" the guard asked, intentionally insulting, as his black, hooded eyes darted at the three other men. Gundhalinu felt Kullervo frown beside him. "Them too," he said gently. He took a step forward, forcing the guard to take one step back; the guard turned and started away without another word. Kullervo glanced over at him, a brief, measuring glance; but he said nothing as the guard led them toward the administrative complex where Agent Ahron waited. Inside they were loaded into a secured tram and sent like human baggage through the characterless repetitions of the complex to their destination. The distance was short, but Gundhalinu was still grateful that they did not have to walk, under guard, like criminals. Ananke sat beside him, staring at the identical doorways as if they were a revelation. Gundhalinu looked across at Kullervo, who sat frowning and pulling at his ear, at the crystal-beaded ear cuff that was one of the more obvious manifestations of his unpredictable personal style. Nibum sat beside Kullervo; his short legs jutted from the seat like a child's. Gundhalinu imagined that Niburu felt more relieved even than he did not to have to walk this distance, since Niburu was always pressed to keep pace, in a body that was THE SUMMER QUEEN 157 ,,g>nstantly inconvenienced by the conventions of others. He had dared to mention the natter to Niburu one day, as he had watched him standing on a chair to access a simple data run that Kullervo had left for him to confirm. Niburu had only shrugged in apparent resignation, and murmured that on board his ship the proportions were to his specs, and not anyone else's. Gundhahnu stole another glance at Niburu and Ananke. They watched the color-washed walls pass, sitting in an unlikely symmetry of pose. He had wondered to himself whether Kullervo had chosen his staff simply for their shock value. He suspected it was possible. And yet he was almost certain that it was not because of their appearance, but rather in spite of it, that Reede had hired them. The tram spat them out directly into the mouth of a doorway that was more like an airlock leading into an isolation chamber. The security was hardly this elaborate at the Project itself. "Overkill," he heard Kullervo mutter to Niburu, behind him. "What do these shitheads think this is saving them from?" Gundhahnu glanced back at them, his mouth curving slightly. "Spontaneity," he murmured. Kullervo said something unintelligible, as the inner doorscreen demate rialized before them. A thickset middle-aged woman with golden skin and iron-colored hair looked up at them from across the barren expanse of room. Gundhalinu recognized her as Agent Ahron, who had approved his departure permits and itinerary on several previous journeys to Fire Lake. She wore a variant of the same uniform they had seen on almost everyone they passed, and an expression that was as familiar to him as her face: alert without being at all interested in what she saw. There were three men with her; he knew without having to be told why they were here. "Commander Gundhalinu," Ahron said, managing to give his name a slight querulous lilt, as if she wasn't certain she remembered his face. "Yes," he said, as ingratiatingly as he could, "back for one more try. For the last time, I hope, thanks to my colleague here." He gestured at Kullervo, who stood stiffly beside him, eyeing the room and its inhabitants. She said nothing, still gazing at him without the slightest trace of curiosity. The three men stood silently behind her, like afterthoughts. "We believe we've found a way to control the stardrive. I'm sure I don't have to tell you what that means--" "Yes, Commander, I've reviewed your documents. Also your permits and supply lists," she said, glancing away at the display surface of the dust-colored desk/terminal beside her. "Everything seems to be in order here, for once. There's no reason that I can see why you shouldn't be able to depart as planned." He realized with a prick of irritation that the "for once" referred to his input and not Security's response to it. "I'm very glad to hear it," he said, with excruciating politeness. He felt Kullervo begin to relax, infinitesimally, beside him. "How much time do you expect this expedition to take?" "It's hard to say. If the tests are successful--" "I need a precise length of stay." She tapped impatiently at the display. "Yes, of course. One week." They should know whether Reede's restructuring Program worked or not almost immediately. Even with the question of systems setup ^d the vagaries of time around Fire Lake, that should give them enough slack. *| *i *1 158 Joan D. Vuige "That's all? You realize that you will have to return in one week, whether your work is finished or not--" "Two weeks, then," he said, with faint impatience, "make it two weeks." "All right. But in that case, should you finish your study in less time, you will have to notify us that you are returning ahead of schedule." "Yes, of course." "Would you please input your security clearance code, then, to indicate your personal testimony that the data is accurate to the best of your knowledge." He nodded, touching the remote on his belt, silently transferring the code numbers to the waiting document. After a moment he heard the piercing tone that indicated the security databank had accepted his verification. "These will be your crew," Ahron said, gesturing toward the three men waiting like stones behind her--her first acknowledgment that there was anyone else in the room. Gundhalinu nodded, stepping forward as the three government troopers came reluctantly to life. But Kullervo's hand closed over his arm, pulling him back. "What is this--?" Kullervo whispered, suddenly angry. "You didn't say anything about anyone else coming with us!" Gundhalinu looked at him, surprised by his vehemence. "It's all right," he murmured, trying to find the right words to make Kullervo ease off. "It's government policy. They always provide the pilot and two troopers for security." "We've already got a pilot," Kullervo snapped, nodding at Niburu. "And we have all the assistance we need. This is a risk-filled project. We don't need bumbling total strangers getting in the way. You said yourself that the more people we have with us, the more dangerous the Lake is." "It's a regulation," the agent said flatly. Gundhalinu watched the expressions harden on the faces of Ahron and the three troopers. If Kullervo lost his temper, they could very quickly lose the clearance he had so painstakingly put together too. "Agent Ahron," he said, sending a sharp glance of warning at Kullervo. "Dr. Kullervo is right when he points out that a larger group would be potentially dangerous, given the unstable nature of the Lake. We've lost several teams out there in the past two years, as you know. We have a full team this time already--" "It's a regulation," she repeated. She folded her arms. "A certified pilot and two troopers for security." "It's bullshit," Kullervo muttered. This time it was Niburu who caught at his sleeve and murmured something. "Security from what," he added sourly, "ourselves--?" Gundhalinu turned back to face him, said softly and swiftly, "This is the way it's done here. I have no problem with this." He put a hand on Kullervo's arm, made Kullervo meet his gaze, and keep it. "What is your problem--?" Kullervo went rigid under his hand. "I'll tell you very bluntly what your problem will be," Gundhalinu whispered, cutting Kullervo off before he could speak. "If you push these people any more, Reede Kullervo will be permanently banned from entering World's End; or else this entire expedition will end up a beached klabbah, and I don't know if even your gods or mine--" he touched the trefoil hanging at his chest pointedly, "will be able to get it back afloat. A viable stardrive THE SUMMER QUEEN 159 now means nothing to those people over there. It means everything to me. How much does it mean to you--?" Kullervo stared at him, and Gundhalinu watched the wild light fade from the other man's eyes. Kullervo said nothing more; he shrugged off the contact of Gundhalinu's restraining hand with an abrupt motion. Gundhalinu turned back to face Ahron, glancing at the three troopers again. He knew the designated pilot from a previous trip inside--a corporal named Ngong, a capable man, but no more enthusiastic about making the journey to Fire Lake than anyone in his right mind would be. "Agent Ahron," he said, "let me propose this. We use our own certified pilot, who is also one of Dr. Kullervo's assistants, but we take the two others. That way our team will be slightly smaller, which somewhat reduces our risk from the Lake; but we will still have adequate security. I don't expect Corporal Ngong will be too disappointed to take some other duty. Will you, Corporal?" Ngong stole a slightly nervous glance at the sergeant standing beside him, before he answered. "No, sir!" "I am a Police Commander after all." Ahron eyed him suspiciously for a long moment, as if she was trying to fathom whatever conceivable plot he was devising against her. "It isn't in the regulations--" "I know your only thought is for our safety, Agent Ahron, and the success of the project we've all been working on for so long together. . . ." He took a deep breath. "Of all the agents I've had to deal with, you've been the most dedicated and diligent--qualities I value highly." Gods, he thought, lay it on with a shovel, you hypocritical bastard; hating the taste of his own words. "World's End is a terrifyingly treacherous environment. I know you, of all people, would not want us to risk our lives, or the success of the stardrive project, needlessly--" "All right," she said abruptly, spitting out her decision like a clot of phlegm. "You may use your own pilot, Commander Gundhalinu. If it was anyone else--" she glanced at Kullervo, "I wouldn't allow it. But you will take Sergeant Hundet and Trooper Saroon with you." "Thank you," Gundhalinu said, with heartfelt sincerity. He dared to look at Kullervo. "I hope that's a more acceptable risk to you, Doctor?" Kullervo looked at the two troopers with narrowed eyes. Gundhalinu followed his gaze. He had never seen either of the two men before. The sergeant was short and whip-thin, but all muscle, with a narrow, mean face and impenetrable eyes. Gundhalinu disliked him on sight. The private was hardly more than a boy, probably a conscript; he looked right now like the prospect of being sent to Fire Lake was about as appealing to him as his own castration. Gundhalinu sighed. Kullervo glanced away, down at Niburu. "I guess I can handle that," he murmured. Niburu looked more uncomfortable than relieved; Ananke looked back and forth between them as though they were speaking some language he didn't know. Kullervo looked up at Gundhalinu again. "Thank you, Gundhalinu-esMrad." He smiled, unexpectedly. Something fluttered and dropped in the pit of Gundhalinu's stomach, as if he were some form of small vermin that was being considered by a cat. He shook off the feeling, annoyed at himself. It was not the first time Kullervo's unpredictable responses had set off alarms in his brain. He had been a Police officer for too long; he read other people's body language almost instinctively. Kullervo's body language 160 Joan D. Vinge was eloquent, and it read all wrong: His volatility and, when he wasn't thinking, his manners and his speech, were better suited to a hotheaded young street thug than to a respected scientist. But he was, undeniably, a brilliant researcher. Gundhalinu nodded, looking away. He reminded himself that he had grown up with Kharemoughi researchers, the men and women who had been his father's friends and colleagues--scientists whose refined behavior reflected their position at the top of a highly structured, classist society. Kullervo was not a Kharemoughi. Gundhalinu had learned nothing more about his background, perhaps because Kullervo was ashamed of it. That was not an unreasonable response for a man with a mind so superior that it had lifted him out of the gods-knew-what kind of life and dropped him into a nest of elitists. But no one ever left their past behind completely; he knew that, if anyone did. He looked back at Agent Ahron, at the troopers waiting beside her. "We'll leave from the yard tomorrow at first quarter. I'll expect you to be waiting when I arrive I believe everything we'll need has already been assembled there--?" "Everything is in order, Commander," Agent Ahron said. The troopers returned his salute perfunctorily, and he started for the door. Kullervo and the others followed him out without a word. He did not speak again, and neither did they, until they were safely back in the rover, and rising over the town. "That was impressive," Kullervo said finally. "You're one slick manipulator, Gundhalinueshkrad." Gundhalinu looked up, frowning, as imtation and resentment took root in his festering self-disgust. But to his surprise, Kullervo's face showed him no mockery, no emotion that he could name except perhaps curiosity. "It's not something for which I hope to be venerated by my descendants." He looked away again, out the window. "You should," Kullervo said. "You should be proud of it. It means you've got a real talent for reading a bad situation. You knew just how hard you could push them . . . and me. It's not something I'm good at, obviously. I'm sorry. Bureaucrats make me nervous . . . World's End makes me nervous." He grimaced, shrugged. "I didn't think you were that perceptive, frankly. It's not a trait Kharemoughis seem to value highly." Gundhalinu fingered the trefoil hanging at his chest, and said nothing. "That was a compliment," Kullervo said at last. "Thank you," Gundhalinu murmured, automatically. He looked down at his hands, at the insides of his wrists, the smooth brown skin that had once been covered with the livid marks of his suicide attempt. His mouth pulled down. "I suppose I've come to deserve some sort of credit, these past few years." He looked out at the jungle, thinking about what lay beyond sight, beyond the distant mountains . . . what lay beyond spacetime, waiting for him. NUMBER FOUR: World's End "What are you doing here, at this time of night?" Gundhalinu stopped in the prism of light outside the open door of Kullervo's office, looking in. Kullervo jerked around in his seat, blinking as if reality made no sense to his eyes. "Gods . . ."he muttered, "you startled the hell out of me." He shook his head, stretching, as Gundhalinu came into the room. "I often work at night, when I can't sleep." He ran a hand through his disheveled hair. "But what are you doing here? I thought you always retired early, and slept the sleep of the just." Gundhalinu matched his ironic smile unwillingly, and shook his own head. "I can never sleep, the night before I go into World's End." Kullervo laughed. "So you do have nerve endings, after all, Commander Gundhalinu-eshkrad-sibyl-Hero of the Hegemony." "Father of all my grandfathers!" Gundhalinu said, exasperated and suddenly angry. He began to turn away. "Wait." Kullervo pushed up out of his seat. "By the Render, you are on edge. Are you leaving?" "Yes," he answered, frowning, without turning back. "So am I. Leaving," Kullervo said. And when Gundhalinu did not respond, "On edge ..." Gundhalinu turned back. Kullervo was gazing moodily at the display on the desk behind him. "What are you working on?" "Nothing," Kullervo said, with sudden bitterness. "A dead end." He ordered the display into oblivion before Gundhalinu could get more than a glimpse of the constructs drifting through its screen. Gundhalinu stared at the suddenly empty desktop; he glanced up at Kullervo's face, expecting to find the same impenetrable surface. But stark, unexpected hopelessness filled Kullervo's eyes. Gundhalinu hesitated as Kullervo abruptly looked away; knowing that he had seen that look before . . . seen it in the mirror. "Reede, do you want to talk about it?" he said quietly. "Can I help--?" "No," Kullervo snapped. He looked up again, as if he realized how it had sounded, and muttered, "But I appreciate the offer." Something that could have been gratitude, or even longing, showed fleetingly in his eyes. But he shook his head. Don't waste your time; it's too valuable. I've wasted enough of my own. There are some mistakes that can't be erased. You just have to live with them. . . ." He turned aw*y, striding toward the door; stopped, looking back at Gundhalinu. Waiting. 162 loan D. Vinge Gundhalinu accepted the invitation uncertainly, and followed him out of the room. They went up through the security levels and out into the fetid embrace of the night. Kullervo hesitated, as Gundhalinu stopped just beyond the dimly glowing screen of the Project's entrance to say a perfunctory good-night. "Share a ride?" Kullervo asked. Gundhalinu shook his head. "I feel like walking tonight." "That's a hell of a walk," Kullervo said, looking surprised. "Or aren't you going home?" "I'm not going home." Gundhalinu glanced away, mildly annoyed by Kullervo's uncharacteristic impulse to camaraderie. He gazed out across the starkly ht artificial landscape, the deceptively open grounds that separated the Project's semi-subterranean fortress from the old Company town. "There's someone I have to see." "A woman?" Kullervo raised his eyebrows. "Personal?" "Yes," Gundhalinu said, growing more annoyed by the second. "Not what you're thinking." Kullervo stared at him, his eyes shadowed by the night. "Then would you mind if I walked with you awhile?" Gundhalinu hesitated; realized that he was trying to think of a way to refuse. His mind remained stubbornly blank, and so he nodded. "If you like," he said, resigned They crossed the gentle vagaries of the parklands together. Gundhalinu looked up at the sky, able to see it for once; seeing an unremarkable scattering of stars on the utterly black face of the moonless night. He remembered Tiamat, where the stars were like glowing coals, where once he had seen his own shadow at midnight. ... He looked down again, watching his steps as he felt himself stumble. Kullervo walked beside him, looking down intently, with his hands pushed deep into the side pockets of his loose-fitting blue overshirt. Gundhalinu thought of a boy searching for lost coins; not an image he would have associated with Kullervo before tonight. It occurred to him again, as it had occurred to him before, how young Kullervo was. But then, most geniuses burned their brightest when they were young "So it's not a tryst we're going toward. ..." Kullervo looked up at him, watching him back. "Are you married?" Gundhalinu shook his head, watching his steps, suddenly uncomfortable again "Ever?" "No," he said softly. He glanced up at the sky. "How about you? Are you married?" "Yes." Kullervo looked straight ahead now, as if he were remembering someone's face. "Gods," he said fiercely, "I want to finish this, and get back to her!" His hands made fists inside his pockets. "She's my life--" "How long have you been married?" Gundhalinu asked, trying to keep the incredulity out of his voice. "Not long . . . forever," Kullervo murmured. Gundhalinu realized that he had never seen Kullervo look twice at a woman in all the time he had been here. He tried to imagine what son of woman could hold Kullervo's quicksilver temperament in that kind of thrall, when he knew that years would have passed for her before they saw each other again. What kind of woman ... He looked up again, at the stars. "Is she Kharemoughi?" THE SUMMER QUEEN 163 H Kullervo laughed once. "What? No! She's on--from Ondinee. No offense, but jQiaremoughi women aren't my type." Gundhalinu glanced back at him. "No, I suppose not," he said, a little shortly. "But we're not all of us dead from the neck down, Kullervo." Kullervo bent his head, meeting Gundhalinu's half frown with a mocking smile. "But you're mamed to your work. There's really nobody waiting for you out there, somewhere? No lovers--no regrets?" Gundhalinu felt his throat tighten; he swallowed, and the ache slid down into his chest. "Yes," he said at last. "There is a woman. There was. There is. And a lot of regret . . . Maybe I'll see her again. After all this is finished." "Where is she?" "On Tiamat." "Tiamat!" Kullervo said, incredulous. "Ye gods . . . Tell me that you did all of this just to find a way to get back to her--" He grinned suddenly, waving a hand at the Research Project behind them. "Go on, surprise me." "I did it all to get back to her," Gundhalinu said, feeling a faint smile turn up the corners of his mouth. "Liar," Kullervo said, and his grin widened. Gundhalinu shrugged. "Have it your way." The warm night breeze kissed his face. They entered the maze of streets that led into the old part of the town, the part that had been there as long as the Company, maybe longer. Cracked, time-eaten walls showed the scars of battle with the inhospitable climate. Here, beyond the protected parklands, mottled graygreen creepers and fleshy, spined shrubs left the jungle's spoor everywhere; its living fingers, working with infernal patience to undo what humans had made. Gundhalinu had found the town and everything about it depressing the first time he had seen it; he still found it depressing. The streets were better-lit at night now, and the nighttime diversions more varied, although they held no more appeal for him than they had three years ago. The streets were noisier and more alive, too, because the credit flowed more freely. More outsiders passed them as they walked than the residents of this place had probably ever dreamed existed, before the Project had come into their lives. "Who are we going to see?" Kullervo asked, looking from side to side with mild interest. "Hahn--the sibyl who brought me to meet you." Kullervo glanced back at him. "Why now? It's late for a social call." "There's something I need to give her before we leave." Gundhalinu indicated the heavy container he carried in one hand. "What's in it?" Kullervo asked, when he did not elaborate. "Something that belongs to her daughter." Kullervo frowned slightly, either annoyed or trying to remember something. "You said her daughter was a sibyl too ... but she wasn't meant to be? Does that "lean she's--" He gestured, his hand fluttering, touching his head. Crazy. "Yes," Gundhalinu said abruptly, looking down. The sibyl virus caused wearable mental breakdowns in people who were not emotionally stable enough to become sibyls. "How did it happen? I thought the choosing places rejected anyone who wasn't suitable material to become a sibyl." 164 /oan D. Vinge "She was rejected; but she wouldn't accept it. Her mother infected her." "Gods," Kullervo muttered, shaking his head. He looked at Gundhalinu again glancing briefly, wordlessly, at the trefoil he wore. Gundhalinu slowed his pace as they reached the corner of a cross street. "This is her street. ..." "I'd like to come with you," Kullervo said. Gundhalinu hesitated. "All right." He shrugged, and entered the side street, it became quiet and residential as they left the main thoroughfare; one- and two-story buildings, some with new, intrusively ornate balconies, rubbed shoulders along the dim-lit, empty sidewalks. Gundhalinu turned in under the arched entryway to a familiar apartment houst He stopped before the glowing ident plate, touched the proper name, let it register their faces. Hahn's voice answered from the air, sounding surprised, asking him to come inside. The security screen at the building entrance faded. They went in. Gundhalinu followed the hallway back, found Hahn waiting at the open door of her flat, dressed in a long, loose tunic that might have been sleep wear Her curiosity was plain, but she gestured them inside without question; her eyes darted at Kullervo's face, and away again. Gundhalinu had not been inside her home in nearly two years. It looked much as he remembered it, neat and modest, like its owner. The soft, modular furniture she had purchased after he had gotten her a job at the Project still looked almost new He set the container he had carried from the research center down on a low table in the middle of a scattering of uncollected dishes. He turned back, answering Hahn s still-unspoken question. "I've brought you something. For Song." He looked again at the box, away from her eyes. He unsealed its cover and took out a globe filled with coruscating fire. He held it out to her, seeing the small frown of consternation return, furrowing between her brows. "What is it--?" she asked, her voice barely more than a whisper "That's stardrive plasma." The answer did not come from him, but from Kullervo. Kullervo stared, his mouth hanging open with utter disbelief. "What the hell are you doing with that?" "Returning it to its rightful owner," Gundhalinu answered, sounding calmer than he felt. "You mean you just walked out of the Research Project with that; we just walked out of there with it, together?" Gundhalinu nodded. "How is that possible?" Gundhalinu smiled faintly. "I am the Director of the entire Project. I gave myself permission." "And the security systems listened to you?" Kullervo murmured. "Just like that?" "Of course. I programmed them. No one else here was experienced enough with the new system." Kullervo shook his head. "I need to sit down." He sat. "Song--" Hahn said suddenly, looking past Gundhalinu; not calling a name, but acknowledging a presence. Gundhalinu turned, following her gaze, as Kullervo looked up from where he sat. Song stood in the doorway to another room, motionless, with darkness behind THE SUMMER QUEEN 165 her. A long, shapeless sleeprobe covered the painful thinness of her body; her heavy, midnight-black hair hung about her like a shroud. She stared at Kullervo, her mouth open. Slowly she put one hand up to her mouth, pressing it; pointing at him with the other as if she saw a ghost. Or maybe she really was seeing a ghost, Gundhalinu thought. He had seen enough of them himself, at Fire Lake. But her dark eyes moved away again, distractedly, until they met his own. They filled with something that might have been recognition, rejection, hatred ... or nothing at all, before her gaze fell to the globe in his hands. Her expression slowly changed until he was sure that he was seeing wonder. She came toward him, holding out her hands uncertainly, as if she was afraid of him, or of his refusal. He put the globe into her hands. She stroked it, held it close to her body; looked up at him, her eyes suddenly gleaming with tears. She half frowned, her quizzical expression making her look momentarily like her mother. " Yes." He nodded, making no move to touch her or the globe. She looked down at it again, almost as if she were listening with her eyes. He remembered that look; remembered that feeling. "Do you feel it? At peace ..." He thought that perhaps she nodded, a tiny spasm of her neck; but she did not look at him again. She turned away slowly, holding the globe close, and drifted like a spirit back through the doorway. The globe's light filled the darkness beyond it with an eerie, momentary radiance. Gundhalinu turned back to Hahn, ignoring Kullervo's eloquent silence. "I'm leaving for World's End tomorrow." "I know," she said. "To test Dr. Kullervo's viral reprogramming." "Yes, we--" He broke off. Of course; everyone knows. "I thought . . . whatever happens, whether we succeed or fail ... in case something should happen to me, I wanted to give you this now. That's stardrive plasma, in the globe." She nodded again. "The transformation process was successful on every sample we tested here, including this one. I thought it might help, somehow." He looked down. "Thank you," she murmured. "It's the least I can do." He looked up at her again, seeing her lined, weary face, the trefoil tattoo visible on her throat like the one at his own: the reminder that a sibyl was a sibyl even when the pendant on a chain was not there; day and night, waking and sleeping, eating, drinking, making love . . . every moment of one's life. "I wish I knew how to do something more." She smiled in gratitude, but he saw a world of sorrow in it. "I'd better be going." She hesitated, and he wasn't sure whether the hesitation was because she wanted him to stay, or simply didn't know how to talk to him anymore. She turned and led them to the door. "Good night," she said, "and thank you again." He said, "Good night," in turn, and Kullervo followed him out of the building into the street. "Explain," Kullervo said, catching him by the sleeve as they began to walk. "You just gave away one third of all the stardrive plasma you've been able to collect in over two years--on a whim?" "No. . . ." Gundhalinu shook his head. "Hardly a whim." He started back toward the center of town, taking Kullervo with him. "The amount of stardrive we've been able to contain and collect is far less than we need to make even one 166 Joan D. Vmge faster-than-light drive function. We can't even get it to replicate. If what we do at Fire Lake is unsuccessful, that won't change. If we are successful, it won't matter." "But what's stardrive plasma got to do with Hahn's daughter?" Gundhalinu was silent for a few steps more. They were nearing the corner of the street, and he gestured Kullervo into a seat at one of the tables of an outdoor tavern. Sitting outside at night had become a favorite pastime for workers from the Project, since sitting outside during the daytime was unbearable. The almost subliminal hum of the sonics employed everywhere to keep insects at bay made a soothing, white-noise counterpoint to conversation. The tavernkeeper brought them a bowl of heavily salted carrod rinds and two beakers of water. Gundhalinu sipped at the lukewarm liquid, and thought that the tavernkeeper looked annoyed; thinking that he had no right to, since not even a beaker of water was free here--a tradition that still held from his first visit to this dismal town. It surprised him that Kullervo drank nothing stronger; but he had not seen anything that resembled a drug pass Kullervo's lips since the night they met. "But what's that got to do with Hahn's daughter?" Kullervo repeated, this time holding Gundhalinu's gaze stubbornly. "What have they got on you?" Gundhalinu laughed. "A hand around my heart, I suppose." He shook his head, glancing away from the look on Kullervo's face. "Nothing more. But the globe that contained the stardrive plasma--that's an original, a relic. A stasis field capable of containing the stardrive harmlessly, without altering its properties, and yet it looks and feels like nothing so much as a ball of plass. I have all the specs on it--we understand it perfectly, in principle--but we have no way to manufacture anything like it ... yet. Which is why we have to have the plasma's willing cooperation. ..." "Damn it, I know all that. What's that got to do with Hahn?" Kullervo insisted. "What's it got to do with her crazy daughter?" "It belongs to Song. It was the original sample of the stardrive plasma that 1 brought out of World's End with me. She had it. I brought her out too, along with my brothers. . . . I went in to find them. That's why I was there, in the first place." It sounded like an excuse. He glanced at Kullervo, to see if he had noticed. "I met Hahn here in the town; she asked me if I would look for her daughter." "And you found all of them, out in that . . . ?" Kullervo jerked his head in the vague direction of World's End, as words failed him. "That's harder to believe than that you found stardrive out there." "I suppose so," Gundhalinu said, half smiling. "Although at the time I imagined that it would be simple." " "The gods take care of fools' ..." Kullervo murmured. Gundhalinu grimaced. "Maybe so. As it turned out, by blind luck or otherwise we all ended up in the same place--a place called Sanctuary, by the Lake itself." "There's a town out there?" Kullervo said in disbelief. "There was. On an island of red rock in the middle of the Lake. It was built by the survivors of the ship that crashed there at the end of the Old Empire--the one the stardrive plasma escaped from. The gods only know what became of the original inhabitants. It was full of murderers and lunatics when I got there. ..." His voice faded; he drank water, aware that Kullervo was looking at him strangely. "My brothers were prisoners there--slaves. Song was its queen." Kullervo laughed, a strangled sound that was more incredulous than amused. "She was in communion with Fire Lake. She kept the people there protected, THE SUMMER QUEEN 167 more or less, from its randomness." Gundhalinu looked up, facing him directly again Kullervo only nodded, showing no surprise now. "It was able to communicate with her, after a fashion, because she was a sibyl. I have a theory--" "That all the forms of Old Empire technovirus still in existence have a single common denominator," Kullervo said. "Their differences are simply a reflection of how they were programmed." Gundhalinu stared at him. "Exactly," he said. Kullervo laughed and nodded, his eyes shining. "You're dead right, Gundhalinueshkrad." "You sound like you know that for certain." Kullervo shrugged and ate a rind. "What we've done here proves it ... at least to me. I've been working on analyzing and charting the differences to a degree where we can predictably reprogram the basic substance for our own uses. What we've done, and are about to do, with the stardrive is a first step. The options are almost infinite. If only we could recreate the kind of precision they must have had . . ." "If we're successful at Fire Lake, we'll have proof that more funding and more effort should go into your work when you return to Kharemough." Kullervo looked back at him blankly, as if the comment were a complete non sequitur; as if his own thoughts had drifted into alien country again. "Yes, I suppose so," he murmured. He rubbed his arms, pushing his sleeves up toward his elbows. Gundhalinu froze, staring at the profusion of colors and patterns that started at Kullervo's wrists and went spiraling up his forearms. Tattooing. The only place he had ever seen tattooing like that was on the arms of criminals. He looked up again, found Kullervo staring back at him. Kullervo's long-fingered hands twitched, as if they wanted to pull his sleeves down; but he did not. "I got the tattoos on Samathe," he said, "when I was . . . young." He shrugged. "It's not what you think." He held out an arm so that Gundhalinu could see it clearly; see that the intricate geometric designs flowing one into another like music made visible were not the crude pictorials he had seen on underworld thugs. "I liked to look at them. ..." "They're very beautiful," Gundhalinu said softly. He was reminded of the fluid patterns of adhani. "I've never seen anything like this. Why do you keep them covered up?" Kullervo studied the tattoos as if he were hypnotized; but Gundhalinu thought he saw the younger man flush. "So that everybody at the Project won't look at me the way you just did." Kullervo pulled his sleeves down again. Gundhalinu watched the designs disappear, his embarrassment oddly mingled with regret. He said nothing more, waiting. Kullervo's attention returned to him abruptly; Gundhalinu read non sequitur again in Kullervo's half frown. "If the Lake communicated in some fashion with Song, what about you?" Kullervo gestured at the trefoil he wore, as if there had been no discussion at all about tattooing a moment earlier. Gundhalinu forced his mind to retune to Kullervo's sudden change of frequency. He touched the trefoil absently, wonderingly; as he still did often, every day. "Yes. It communicated with me too. It forced me to think about it until I ... understood." 168 Joan D. Vinge "What's it really like out there--World's End?" Kullervo twisted the ring he wore on his thumb; a ring of silver metal set with two soliis, that Gundhalinu realized suddenly was probably a wedding ring. Gundhalinu shook his head. "I can't tell you. I can't explain it. ... Maybe it's different for everyone who goes out there." He lifted his hands. "Anyway, you'll see for yourself, soon enough. Gods, look at the time. We'd better get some sleep before the night's gone ... if we can." He smiled and lifted his beaker to Kullervo, for once feeling the kind of comfortable companionship with him that had been almost perversely missing from their relationship these past months. Kullervo raised his own mug, smiling wryly in return, and drained it. "I'll share that ride home with you now," Gundhalinu said. Kullervo nodded, and used his remote to call a cab. He stood up, stretching, rubbing his neck. "Tell me," he said, "do you still hear the Lake when you go out there?" Gundhalinu hesitated, nodded. "I still hear it. And I still have some effect on it. Expeditions I head are ... safer. But the Lake is--insane, for want of a better word. It flows in and out of our particular continuum at will, there's no hard-and-fast reality around it. That's why it's been so damned difficult even to collect a sample." He glanced up, as the cab they had ordered drifted down onto the street beside them. "Reede. ..." Kullervo looked back at him. "When I'm around the Lake I--get a little disoriented sometimes. It's hard to concentrate, there's so much static in my head." He took a deep breath, feeling himself flush as he went on, "I'm glad you'll be with me on this trip. I'm glad I'll have someone I can count on." Kullervo "s smile came back. "We need each other, on this trip. . . ."He looked down at his wedding ring; his smile quirked oddly. "You can count on that." NUMBER FOUR World's End Reede settled back in his bed in the predawn blackness and sighed. He felt the water of death renewing him, relieving the loneliness and the fear, the countless almost subliminal sensations of discomfort that had been plucking at his nerve endings. It was the closest thing to a drug rush that he could experience anymore. He savored the monstrously deceptive sense of well-being it gave him, the sense that he could do anything, that World's End itself was no match for his intelligence, and the human beings who so trustingly traveled into it with him were no match for his cunning. He closed his eyes, letting go as he felt sleep settle over him like a warm blanket. . . The call signal on his remote buzzed loudly in the soft, perfect silence, jarring THE SUMMER QUEEN 169 him out of almost-oblivion. He swore and sat up, dazed, still half dreaming that he had rolled over on some gigantic insect in his sleep. He swore again as he realized where he was, and what the sound meant. By the time he had pushed himself off the bed he was wide awake, seeing dim light through the imperfections of the flimsy window opaquers. He ordered the lights on and groped for the remote lying on his bedside table. "I'll be right down," he said, and shut it off before Niburu could reply. He pulled on the sturdy, lightweight tunic and pants, the heavy boots, that Gundhalinu had recommended he wear; locked his remote onto his utility belt, and put on the sun helmet he had become accustomed to wearing all the time. He picked up the bag which held everything personal that he owned--because one way or another he did not expect to return to this room--and went out the door without looking back. Niburu and Ananke were waiting for him in the hired hovercraft. He checked their clothing with a cursory glance; gave their faces a longer look as he got in. They looked tired and nervous, as if they hadn't slept much either, and that worrying about today--or tomorrow, or the next day--was what had kept them awake. "What's bothering you?" he snapped, knowing he ought to feel the same way, but incapable of it when the drug had hold of him. "Everything," Niburu said glumly. Ananke said nothing, holding the quoll close, stroking its protuberant nose while it burbled mindlessly. "Lighten up, for gods' sakes," Reede said, frowning. "You mean, 'it's not the end of the world'?" Niburu asked sarcastically. "Yes it is." Reede grunted, watching the Project and the town drift by below; wondering whether it was actually the prospect of going into the unpredictable wilderness that was bothering them, or the fear of what they might be forced to do in order to get out again. He did not ask, because he would not be able to give them an answer that would make them feel any better. He looked away from them, shifting restlessly in his seat. Gundhalinu was, predictably, waiting for them when they arrived at the departure point. Beside him was the insectoid triphibian rover that would carry them all to their fate, and the floating sledge they would tow behind them, which would carry the bulk of their equipment. Reede shook his head and smiled; the smile he saw reflected in the window was not a pleasant one. Niburu dropped them precisely onto the departure field. Reede climbed out, glancing toward the rover, where the two government troopers were still loading the last of their supplies aboard. Or one of them was, anyway--the kid, Trooper Saroon, or whatever his name was. The sergeant, Hundet, stood hands locked behind his back, watching the kid struggle with loads he probably could have moved one-handed; exerting effort only once, to curse and kick the kid's butt when he dropped a crate. 'Reede turned as Gundhalinu came up beside him. "Sergeant!" Gundhalinu said sharply, in Fourspeech. "Give Saroon a hand, not your foot, if you want things to go faster!" Hundet looked back at him, and Reede saw the black resentment that filled the man's eyes as he slowly and sullenly moved to pick up a piece of equipment. Hundet was the kind who wouldn't forget a rebuke like that, ever. Reede didn't bother to say the obvious, now that it was too late. 170 /oan D. Vinge "Thank the gods we're making this trip by air," Oundhalinu murmured. Reede raised his eyebrows. "Why in seven hells would you even consider doing it any other way?" Gundhalinu shrugged, smiling faintly. "The first time I went into World's End, we did it the hard way, in a broken-down junker with a defective repeller grid. We had to travel overland the whole godforsaken, hellish ..." His voice faded; something came into his eyes that could never be put into words. Reede glanced away at Niburu and Ananke, slightly unnerved. "How long did it take you?" Gundhalinu shook his head. "I really don't know. After a while, even time didn't make sense anymore." Reede said nothing, unable to think of a response. "How can we be sure of how long we stay, then?" Niburu asked, half frowning. "What if we stay too long, and your security people . . . give us a hard time?" Reede suspected that was the least of the fears behind the question. Gundhalinu shook his head. "It won't be a problem this time," he said. "Because you can talk to the Lake?" Reede said. Gundhalinu looked back at him steadily. "Yes," he said. "Because I can talk to the Lake." Reede felt the sudden joint stares of Niburu and Ananke pulling at him, asking him anxious questions, dunning him with silent protest. "You're saying we'll be perfectly safe, then?" he asked, for them. "No." Gundhalinu smiled ruefully. "No one is perfectly safe, Kullervoeshkrad. At least, not in this universe." Reede looked at him sharply; grinned, as suddenly. "I wouldn't have it any other way," he said. He ignored the mixed expressions that were his response. The last of their equipment was loaded on board, and they chose their seats in the rover's womblike interior. Gundhalinu took the copilot's seat beside Niburu, up front where he would have the fullest view possible of the terrain they were about to pass over. Reede sat diagonally behind him, next to Ananke, relegating the two troopers to the windowless cargo area. Gundhalinu had said the trip should take onl) a few hours. If everything went all right. Reede couldn't keep his own mind from adding that unspoken caveat. He looked out the side port, leaned forward impatiently, peering ahead between the seats for a view through the windshield as he listened with an earbug to Perimeter Control's field clearance sequence. At last he felt them begin to rise; freed from the suffocating confinement of civilized authority, heading into the wilderness, the unknown, the uncontrollable- chaos made visible. He felt a weight fall away from him, felt as if he were rising himself, uncoiling, being reborn. . . . Ananke glanced at him sidelong, his eyes full of doubt. Reede took a deep breath, and withdrew into his thoughts. He looked out and down, seeing the bloated gray-green flora of the jungle that lay below like an unwholesome carpet. They followed the sullen yellow ribbon of a river he did not know the name of, like hunters tracking the glistening slime spoor of a whillp. ... He realized that the only images which came to mind to describe what he saw were vaguely repulsive ones; tried to think of images that were not morbid, and failed. He wondered whether there was something about the physical appearance of this place that a human brain instinctively found repulsive, or whether he was just letting himself be sucked into the mood of the others around him THE SUMMER QUEEN 171 ti "How many trips have you made into World's End, Commander Gundhalinu?" Niburu asked, probably trying to keep his own mind off the view. "This is my sixth," Gundhalinu murmured, his words barely audible. Something that looked like a refinery flashed by below them, in a sudden, unexpected clearing Reede felt his shoulders tighten; he relaxed as the obscene overabundance of plant life filled his view again. "That's the last sign of human habitation we'll see," Gundhalinu said, almost sounding as if he was glad himself to put it behind him. Reede looked ahead, past Gundhalinu's shoulder, seeing something new in the distance. Up ahead the forest ended, like the shore of the sea, on the lower reaches of a mountain range. The mountains seemed almost dreamlike, silvered by the humid haze of the rainforests. He kept watching them, sure that the image he thought he saw would dissipate at the next eyeblink into cloudforms, mirage. But it did not. The sun rose higher in the sky, burning away the mists, illuminating the interior of the rover and the silent, pensive faces around him; and moment by moment the shimmering unreality in the distance became more real, became a forbidding barrier, a warning. As they rose to meet them, the mountains resolved into gigantic piles of rubble, as if some deranged giant had heaped up boulders the size of houses in a futile effort to turn back invaders. "You actually went overland through this terrain?" Reede asked at last, leaning forward again to get Gundhalinu's attention; driven to ask the question by the strength of his disbelief. "Yes," Gundhalinu said. "Every bloody millimeter of it." "It must have been a hell of a trip," Reede murmured with grudging admiration. "Yes," Gundhalinu said softly. "That's exactly what it was." He fell silent again, gazing down at the gray, jumbled ruins of the mountains. "I was the mechanic. I kept the rover running, through that, through everything." He laughed once. "I began to feel like a miracle worker. But World's End teaches you humility--" Reede sat back, trying to imagine Gundhalinu flat on his back under the guts of a broken-down rover, trying to make it function under conditions like those. He looked out the window again, feeling a sudden eagerness that was almost hunger as he wondered what he would see next, watching the tortured land slip by below. Beyond the mountains he found the real heart of World's End: an oblate wilderness of stone and sand; mudflats baked by ceaseless heat into pavements of tile; gleaming beds of unexploited mineral deposits. He would not have believed that anything could live here, but he saw clumps of grotesque, stunted plant life scattered across the surface of the ground like excrement. More mountain peaks rose in the seemingly unreachable distance, wreathed in artificial clouds of volcanic smoke. There was no flight plan in the rover's memory bank. Gundhalinu spoke to Niburu in occasional monotones, altering their course; navigating by sight, or maybe by some arcane sixth sense. He had claimed that any instruments were suspect here, and besides World's End never even looked the same way twice. The warping of the electromagnetic spectrum and the fabric of spacetime caused by the stardrive plasma's compulsive malfunctioning spread out from Fire Lake for hundreds of kilometers on every side. The rational part of Reede's mind accepted the parameters controlling such phenomena in the abstract; another, more primitive part of his brain trembled with terror and awe before the prospect of witnessing its reality. What really made you come out here?" he asked, still finding it difficult even 172 foan D, Vinge to imagine a Kharemoughi highborn doing anything by choice that would require hardship, sacrifice, or manual labor. He knew Gundhalinu had been a Blue before he had discovered the secret of Fire Lake; but becoming a career officer in the Hegemonic Police was hardly an impulsive act. It was considered an honorable profession, even by Techs; it appealed to their sense of order. Being an independent prospector in a broken-down wreck of a rover was about as far from rational as you could get. "Did you already have an idea about what the Lake was?" "No," Gundhalinu said, not meeting Reede's gaze. "I had no idea what I'd find. I only wanted to find my brothers. I felt it was ... my duty to my family to find them, if you understand. A matter of honor." Reede listened in surprise to the stilted reserve of the words, and wondered what Gundhalinu wasn't telling him; what he wouldn't let himself say. He recognized that sudden closing off of communication, that invisible, unbreachable wall of silence. He had used it himself every time Gundhalinu had tried to get close to him. He hadn't cared whether colliding with it had bruised Gundhalinu's ego. The less they felt about each other the better, under the circumstances. He was surprised--and surprised at his anger--at being on the receiving end of a rebuff. "What about the people you traveled with?" he asked, pressing the conversation because he was annoyed. "Who were they? What did they want out of World's End?" "There were two other men." Gundhalinu glanced at him, and away again, resigned. "Ang was an ex-Company man, a geologist. He'd quit to go out on his own. He thought he knew where a strike was. He thought World's End would give him what he wanted. . . . Spadrin was an offworlder, a criminal; probably in trouble with his own kind, looking for a stake. He thought World's End would give him what he wanted, too. . . . That's what we all thought." "Did they get what they wanted?" Reede pushed. "They both died." Niburu looked at Gundhalinu, and out at World's End again, his face white. Reede sat back, inside a silence that was suddenly as bitter as the taste of alkali. He watched endless flats of alkali and gypsum pass beneath them like fields of snow. He forced himself to imagine traversing that terrain day after day, in the blistering heat and the nightmarish uncertainty. ... He glanced at Niburu, couldn't see his expression now, hidden by the seat back; glanced at Ananke, who sat gazing into space, into some private reverie that could have been either bright or dark. Trooper Saroon dozed on the floor with his back against the wall, oblivious with exhaustion. The sergeant met Reede's glance with a sullen stare that didn't have the imagination to look worried. Reede looked away again, and watched the wasteland pass. Time passed too; how much, he wasn't sure. It didn't seem to matter, here when time as he knew it was a meaningless concept. Dreomtime, he thought, feeling oddly as if he were dreaming. No one spoke again, as the dream took hold of them all. At last Gundhalinu roused himself, his muscles tensing as he peered ahead. "There," he said. Reede looked out through the hazed windshield, his own body tightening. He sucked in his breath as he saw it, suddenly: the unnatural glow on the horizon, the first fingernail of light, the promise. So soon. His hands closed, holding on to an emotion that was not elation, or fear, or wonder, but contained parts of them all. The Lake seemed to come to them, more than they came to the Lake, expanding below them like the surface of the sun: a blinding, shimmering vision of light, THE SUMMER QUEEN 173 "Shall I set us down along the shoreline there, Commander Gundhalinu?" Niburu asked, his voice sounding dry and uncertain. Reede wondered if it was the hours gone without speaking, or simply awe that made him sound like that. "Yes," Gundhalinu said, pointing to his left. "There's a canyon mouth over there; I see some green. If there's water, it will make a good campsite." Reede wondered about the consequences of drinking the water in a place like this; realized with something that was almost disappointment that if Gundhalinu would drink it, it must be perfectly safe. Niburu brought them down, down, with infinite care into the steep-walled crack in the scarp that bordered the Lake. He followed it inward until he found a stretch of even ground wide enough for their camp, just beyond sight of the Lake's hellshine. The rover settled onto the desiccated earth with a dim crunching sound. Niburu unsealed the hatch, and a wave of heat rolled into the rover's cab: the wasteland's hot, alien breath touching their faces, their flesh. For a long moment no one moved, as if none of them had the guts to be the first to step outside. Reede looked at Gundhalinu, saw him staring out at the parched canyon walls with his head bent slightly, as if he were . . . listening. There was nothing at all to hear, as far as Reede could tell. Just as he was about to say something, Gundhalinu pushed up out of his seat and left the vehicle. Reede followed him, the others trailing them one by one. Reede squinted in the glare, flipping down the visor of his helmet. It was hotter here than back in the jungle; but at least it was dry. He turned in the direction of Fire Lake, but it was hidden from his view by a curve of the canyon. He looked down at his feet, felt heat seeping in through his insulated boot-soles from the pale, inert gravel of the canyon's floor; looked up the walls of rock-hard, lithified clay to its rim. Rising like incongruous umbrellas against the glaring ceramic sky he found a stand of giant tree-ferns, their trunks the color of iron, the startling green of their feathery leaves softened by a coat of dust. He wondered at their perversity, growing up there on the plateau when down here in the dying wash was the last of the water, a scattering of shallow, green-rimmed pools set in protected pockets like footprints along the canyon bottom ... as though Time had come striding down this wash, on its way to somewhere else, leaving everything here frozen in limbo until their arrival had violated an ancient peace. Someone swore loudly behind him. Reede swung around, abruptly aware of time again, and that he was not standing here alone; that the others were already in more or less efficient motion around him, following Gundhalinu's orders. He watched them setting up camp, in the act of protecting themselves and their equipment from the brutal heat--the only thing they could reliably protect themselves from, here. He turned back, irritated, mostly at himself; gave sharp orders to Niburu and Ananke. He reminded himself that Gundhalinu had seen this landscape, or ones just as strange, half a dozen times; and even if he hadn't, he was compulsive enough not to let the alienness of it distract him from getting the job done. Reeds wiped a hand across his sweating face, trying to ignore the song of his own blood inside his ears. "Gundhalinu," he called. Gundhalinu turned to look at him, and came back to his side. "Is this place safe? What about flash floods--" He gestured at the stagnant, standing pools, the high, narrow walls of the wash, their image overlain by a memory that wouldn't take form but scraped the back of his eyes with a razor's edge. 174 Joan D. Vinge Gundhalinu shook his head. "It won't happen while we're here." "You mean it's the dry season . . . ?" Reede's voice faded before he finished the sentence, as he saw the expression on Gundhalinu's face. "Yes, of course," Gundhalinu murmured, "it's the dry season." He looked away, calling out directions to Hundet. Reede started back to the rover and went to work, suddenly wanting it all to be over, to be finished with his real work here as rapidly as possible. By the time they had fully set up camp the setting sun had all but disappeared behind the canyon wall, giving them some respite from the pitiless heat. Reede found himself still stunned by it, each time he left the access to one of the bubble domes, even though he was no stranger to hot weather. At least the shielded microenvironments they had set up inside the domes would protect their equipment--and incidentally themselves--from as much of Fire Lake's disruptive electromagnetic fluctuation as possible. Reede exited the dome that held his personal living quarters, certain at last that his own equipment was reasonably functional, and his personal belongings were completely secure. He had spent the entire afternoon checking and rechecking them, running experiments. He wanted to rest; but he could not keep his thoughts off Mundilfoere. Her mystery, her heat, her power over him were as all-consuming, as inescapable as World's End . . . and he was exiled in this bizarre wilderness, unable to return to her until he had fulfilled the quest she had set for him. And he realized now that the quest was going to be harder to complete than he had ever imagined ... for all the wrong reasons. The knowledge fed his need for her, fed his doubt and sense of isolation, until he could not close his eyes. "Niburu!" he shouted. Niburu appeared in the arched doorway of the tent that he shared with Ananke, facing Reede's. Reede stared at him, realizing that he needed to have a reason for calling the other man out here, besides simply to prove that he still existed. "What's for dinner?" If anyone could make the rudimentary rations he had seen unstowed from the rover palatable, Niburu could. And at least this was one ungracious request Niburu actually wouldn't resent. Niburu shrugged. "Shit surprise, probably." He grinned. "I'll see what I can do." He started away toward the supply dome. "Niburu." Niburu hesitated, looking back at him with sudden wariness. "Good job today." Reede nodded toward the rover, fingering his ear cuff self-consciously. Niburu smiled uncertainly, and went on again. Reede watched as Hundet intercepted his course, imagined the conversation he read into their gestures, as Niburu justified his right to freely access their communal food supply. The two government troopers had taken the rover as their sleeping quarters--for security reasons, he supposed, so that they controlled the communications equipment and the only way of escaping from this hellhole. It amused him to realize that their institutionalized paranoia was perfectly justified. It was also damned inconvenient to his plans; but he told himself that it was only an inconvenience, no more. . . . Hundet let Niburu pass, finally; momentarily satisfied by another round of petty humiliation. Reede had watched him all afternoon, bullying Saroon, harassing Niburu and Ananke. He did his own work with a sullen disinterest, glaring at Gundhalinu and at Reede. THE SUMMER QUEEN 175 Reede looked away, wondering where Gundhalinu was. Ananke came around the back of the dome with the quoll draped across his shoulders like a fur piece; started violently as he almost walked headlong into Reede. "Where were you?" Reede said, more abruptly than he meant to. "Just . . . looking." Ananke shrugged, looking guilty now. "I wanted to see Fire Lake. . . ." His eyes broke away from Reede's gaze and focused on his feet, which were scuffing gravel. "Did you need me for something, bo--Dr. Kullervo?" "No." Reede tried to make his own expression more pleasant; every time he looked hard at Ananke, the kid wilted like a plant. Dressed in a loose shirt and baggy shorts, with his hair tied back in a ponytail, he looked almost fragile, in spite of the athlete's muscles that showed along his bare arms and legs. Ananke couldn't be more than three or four years younger than he was himself; but sometimes Reede felt as if the difference between their ages was measured in centuries. "Gundhalinu said not to get too far from camp. It's . . . dangerous." He hadn't tried to explain; World's End's reputation was enough. "Yes, Doctor, I know." Ananke nodded earnestly, patting the quoll. The quoll burbled contentment, apparently undisturbed by anything as long as it was attached to its owner "Commander Gundhalinu went with me; he said it was all right." "Where is he?" "He's still looking at the Lake." Reede glanced away down the canyon, and back. "Doesn't that thing ever walk?" he said, gesturing at the quoll, wondering why they didn't both have heat prostration. Ananke shrugged again, the quoll riding the motion easily. "They like to sit," he said. Reede smiled in spite of himself, as Niburu returned with an armload of supplies. He left them standing together and walked off between the domes." He followed the curving canyon in the direction he knew led toward Fire Lake. As he rounded the first bend, shutting away the sight and sound of the camp behind him, he had the sudden, unnerving feeling that if he turned back he would find it was no longer there, and he was all alone. ... He pushed on resolutely, frowning, listening to the substantial crunch of sand and gravel under his boots, feeling the heat, touching the crumbling mud of the canyon wall as he walked. Up ahead a flicker of movement caught his eye on the stark, stony ground. He caught up with the thing that floundered there; stared down at it in silent fascination. It was brown, or green, or red, or all of those, and it resembled a fish more than anything else he could imagine, but it was crawling, after a fashion, on things that were more than fins but less than legs. He watched the fish-out-of-water struggle on up the canyon, oblivious to his presence in its grotesque, single-minded urge toward something that was probably forever incomprehensible even to it. Reede stood wondering what in the name of a thousand gods it was searching for, tortuously dragging itself millimeter by millimeter over the heated stones. He followed its trajectory with his eyes; saw up ahead in the protected curve of the wash another of the moss-green, ephemeral pools that dotted the canyon bottom. A scattering of ferns waved like feathers at its edge, beckoning with their motion in the hot, faint wind. Reede glanced back the way the thing had come, and saw in the distance another pool, reduced now to barely more than a mudhole. Escape. He looked again at the fish-thing, in agonizing, floundering progress toward something 176 /oan D. Vtnge better. It didn't know that the pool it was struggling toward would be a mudhole too in a few more days; that all its struggles were in vain. He could see that, but the fish-thing couldn't. When that pool dried up, it would struggle on again, until it found another pool, a little deeper, or the floods came, or it died. . . . Survival. Maybe it was all meaningless, but that thing would go on futilely struggling to survive. . . . He watched it, feeling wonder, and grudging admiration, and disgust. And then he kicked it, hard. It went skidding over the gravel for nearly a meter and a half in the direction of the pool. It flopped silently, desperately on its side, its fins waving like flags; righted itself at last and began to crawl forward again toward the pool, as though nothing had happened. Reede turned away from it and strode on down the wash, clenching and unclenching his hands. He rounded another bend in the canyon, and stopped dead, staring. Fire Lake lay before him, although he had been certain that he could not have come this far already. Its presence was a physical blow against his senses; not simply heat and light, but sensations that his brain could not even begin to quantify. Its presence poured into his mind through every available receptor, eyes, ears, nose, skin-- "You feel it." It took him a moment to realize that the words, the voice, were not a manifestation of the Lake, or an hallucination; that the shadow-figure suddenly standing before him on the congealed-stone surface of the beach was really Gundhalinu. Reede blinked, filling in the detail of Gundhalinu's face with dazzled eyes. "Yes . . ." he said, his own voice coagulating in his throat. He was not tempted to ask whether the Lake affected everyone like this; somehow he knew that it did not. "What do you see?" Gundhalinu asked eagerly. "What do you hear?" Surprised at the question, and at Gundhalinu's impatience, Reede said thickly, "Light. Noise ... a kind of white noise. I can't describe it." He shook his head. "As if . . . as if, if I only had something, it could tell me, and I'd know . . ."He wanted to spit out whatever was wrong with his mouth, shake something loose that had hold of his brain. "Gods, that sounds like a lot of shit--" he said angrily. "I don't know what I'm trying to say. What do you see?" "Ghosts," Gundhalinu said, sounding vaguely disappointed, looking out across the Lake again. "The past and the future, flowing in and out of existence; metaspace conduits opening and closing." Reede laughed uncertainly. "You have a better imagination than I do." "It isn't my imagination . . . it's the sibyl virus." Gundhalinu focused on Reede's face again with what seemed to be an effort. "It lets the Lake in ... it's like having a thousand madmen screaming inside my skull, constantly. It makes it very . . . difficult, to be here, and function normally. The adhani disciplines help me; I've learned more biofeedback control techniques since I entered the higher levels of Survey." He ran his hands down the rumpled cloth of his loose pantslegs in a futile neatening gesture. Reede grimaced. "I don't think I could take that," he muttered. Not on top of the rest . . . dreams, broken mirrors, the emptiness, the void . . . Gundhalinu was still watching him with a strange intentness. "You sense the phenomena more than anyone I've met, except another sibyl. But only with a part of your mind. Another part of you hears nothing; that's what protects you--" Reede shoved him hard in the chest, knocking him down. "Goddammit!" The THE SUMMER QUEEN 177 pocked, convoluted surface of the shore around Gundhalinu suddenly seemed to be made up of the screaming mouths and mindless eyes of a million faces, souls trapped in an unimaginable hell-on-earth. Gundhalinu got slowly to his feet. He shook his head like someone who was just waking up, and looked at Reede blankly. "What the hell was that about?" he asked. Reede forced himself to stop staring at the ground, and met Gundhalinu's querulous gaze. "Don't talk to me like that!" "Like what?" "Like you think you know how I feel." Gundhalinu looked away toward the Lake, and back at him. "Gods, I hate this--!" His voice shook. He rubbed his face, murmuring something inaudible. He said aloud, more evenly, "I'm sorry. It seemed to make sense when I said it. ... This will get better, as I adjust to it. It's always worst at the start." Reede made a face, as an unexpected emotion struggled inside him like a fish-thing stranded on burning rock. "I'm not used to being around somebody who seems to be crazier than I am." He began to turn away, wanting to put distance between himself and the Lake, himself and Gundhalinu, himself and the silent, screaming faces of the shore. "Reede." Gundhalinu gave him a bleak, painful smile as he grudgingly turned back. "Before you go, would you help me find out just how crazy I really am? Do you see an island out there?" He pointed toward the Lake; turned with the motion, as if a kind of yearning drew him. Reede followed the line of his gesture, squinting into the glare that obliterated everything at first, even the sky. He shielded his eyes, blinking until he could begin to see clearly--see the stark, solid form that rose like the back of some primordial beast from the middle of the molten sea. "Yes," he said at last, his voice as husky as if it had dried up in his throat, as if he had been standing here, listening with his nerve endings, for days. "Yes, something's out there. Looks like an island, I guess." Gundhalinu made a sound that was a choked-off cry of triumph. "It's come back--! It knows, the Lake knows that this time we've got the answer." He looked at Reede again, his eyes shining; caught Reede's arm as he tried to pull away. "Have you heard of Sanctuary?" Reede started. "You said it was a place in the middle of the Lake, full of lunatics and 'jacks. ... Is that where it is?" He looked into the shimmering brightness. "Where it used to be," Gundhalinu murmured, his own gaze drifting toward the Lake again. "Where I found my brothers, and Song. They came after us when we tried to escape--and the Lake swallowed them all, the town, the entire island. No one's seen it since . . . until now." Reede half frowned in disbelief. "Gods! You're telling me it just disappeared? And now it's just come back again? Everything?" Gundhalinu nodded. His fists tightened and he grinned, a grin of desperate hope. "The island has. I don't think we'll find the inhabitants." His voice hardened. "They'd have been swarming on us like deathwatch beetles by now. . . . The question is, what else came back?" "What do you mean?" Reede asked, caught by Gundhalinu's sudden eagerness. "I mean the ship the stardrive plasma came from, that created Fire Lake. If the Lake actually knows we have an answer, then it could . . . could ..." His gaze drifted down to the ground beneath his feet, the screaming faces of the damned. "It 178 Joan D. Vinge must have driven off or killed the people who built Sanctuary. But it's never forgotten them. It dreams about them constantly. It needs human contact, human help . . . it's been waiting for us to come again and end its madness, its randomness--" "Yeah, right," Reede said, jerking free from Gundhalinu's hold. "Well, we're here to give it what it wants. Then you'll both feel better. Let's go back to camp " "We have to go out to the island tomorrow," Gundhalinu said, as if he wasn't listening. But his gaze was clear and rational again. "Why?" Reede asked, still leery. "That's where the starship is." Reede's eyes widened. "You mean the actual Old Empire ship, intact?" "Parts of it, at least." Gundhalinu nodded, and his grin came back. "Imagine, if the drive unit is still there! Having an actual model to work from would give us a tremendous leg up in creating new ones of our own." Reede felt a surge of excitement that was like some perverse desire. He shrugged uncomfortably, uncertain if the feeling even belonged to him. "We'd better find out if the vaccine works on the real Lake, first," he said roughly. "Let's get out of here." He pulled at Gundhalinu's arm. "Come on--" Gundhalinu nodded, turning away from the Lake at last in a motion that seemed to take all his strength. They crossed the beach and entered the canyon mouth, hiking back along the sandy wash. Reede saw no sign of the fish-thing. He wondered whether he had ever really seen it at all. NUMBER FOUR: World's End With the light of a new day they rose into the sky like the sun, and Niburu took the rover on a long, languid arc out across Fire Lake. Reede watched the displays as their passage spread his fine-tuned nets behind them like the nets of fishermen. The fields of focused energy would selectively excite molecules of stardrive plasma in the matrix of inanimate material with which it had unnaturally mated. Then the secondary fields would draw it in, irresistibly, holding it captive in stasis inside the walls of a containment unit. The methods Gundhalinu had used before had been so hopelessly out of phase with the plasma's molecular structure that it was a miracle the research teams had managed to capture even a milligram of it. But this time they would have a meaningful test sample to vaccinate; he had seen to that. A sample large enough to breed independently, but small enough to carry away, when the time came . . . But first the vaccination had to work. The plasma they were collecting would stay in stasis forever, frozen in the exact picosecond of time in which it had been THE SUMMER QUEEN 179 captured--until they attempted to manipulate it. Once it had its freedom, if the vaccine did not work almost instantaneously to bring it under control, they would lose it . . and maybe lose their lives as well. Reede watched the displays silently registering the amount of plasma they had captured and contained, as it slowly rose; ignoring everything and everyone around him in his elation at proving himself right. For a brief space of time he could ignore the question mark of his own existence, the precariousness of all their lives, the sensations of restless, expectant heat he seemed to feel sucking at him through the rover's heavily insulated hull. "We're full up!" he called at last. He looked up, jarred by the abrupt presence of the real world around him. "Good work!" Gundhalinu grinned at him, and raised his fist in triumph. "Come up here and take a look at this, Reede. . . . Take us up over the island, will you, Niburu?" Reede got up and left his equipment reluctantly, edging past Trooper Saroon, who sat hugging his stun rifle like a religious charm against his chest. Saroon looked up as he passed; the expression in the trooper's upslanting eyes was grim and terrified. His thin, tense face was the face of someone who was hopelessly lost and surrounded by enemies; Reede realized that from Saroon's point of view, that was probably exactly what was happening to him. Hundet had ordered him to go with them on this flight; Reede suspected that it was because Hundet didn't have the balls to fly over Fire Lake himself. Reede enjoyed the brief fantasy that when they got back to the campsite, Hundet would have mysteriously disappeared from their plane of existence, swallowed up by the malign vagaries of World's End. He joined Gundhalinu and Niburu in the front of the rover, looking out at the hallucinogenic hellshine of the Lake ... at the monolith of red stone rising up like a dream from its molten sea: the island he had glimpsed from shore. It was larger than he had imagined, easily large enough to hold a small town, although he could see no evidence of a settlement. "There!" Gundhalinu said, his voice rising. "Sanctuary--" "Where?" Reede squinted. "I don't see anything." "Take us lower, Niburu," Gundhalinu said. Niburu nosed the rover down obediently, circling back to cross the island again. "The town is built from the stone," Gundhalinu said. "A lot of it is in ruins. It's hard to make it out from a height, unless you know it's there." Reede wondered how Gundhalinu could be sure he wasn't really imagining the whole thing. He managed not to ask, as they arced in toward the sheer cliffs of red rock and his eyes filled with the astonishing vision of a waterfall dropping from the heights of the island into the sea of fire. Clouds of steam shrouded the impact-point of the two elemental forces, filling the air with ephemeral rainbows. They flew on over the plateau, until Gundhalinu said again, "There," and pointed. This time Reede saw it: the remains of what had once been a town, constructed from the red stone of the island, and then abandoned to decay. But as they closed with it, their altitude dropping farther, he sucked in his breath. The formal grace of its architectural forms had not simply been softened by time, or even ruined by an earthquake--it had been deliberately jumbled, by some wilder, more unimaginable agent of change. Slabs of raw rock lay sandwiched impossibly between building stones, order and chaos, the natural and the unnatural violently re-merged into one. T 180 /oan D. Vinge The city itself was segmented into quadrants, split by two canyons crossing at its center. The deep clefts cut in the rock made waterflow trails that shone into the distance. Reede realized that there must be three more waterfalls like the one he had seen, fed by some impossible wellspnng here in the heart of the island, spilling impossibly into the molten Lake from the four corners of this dreamworld. "Edhu, look at that. ..." Niburu murmured. "Land us." Somehow he was not really surprised to recognize his own voice, not Gundhalinu's, speaking the command. Gundhalinu glanced up with something darker than concern in his stare, but he only nodded. Niburu set them down gently in a more or less open square near the center of the town, and released the hatch. Trooper Saroon leaped to his feet, his eyes showing white as reality yawned behind him. Gundhalinu put a hand on Saroon's shoulder, pushing him back into his seat with gentle pressure. "Watch the rover, with Niburu. We'll be safe enough--there's no one out there anymore." Saroon nodded in wordless relief as Gundhalinu turned away, starting for the hatch, the glaring brightness beyond it. "You sure--?" Niburu asked, looking at Reede, looking at Gundhalinu's retreating back. Reede nodded, realizing that Gundhalinu needed solitude far more than he needed the rover secured or Saroon at ease. "Stay here," he said. He settled his sun helmet on his head and climbed down, following Gundhalinu. The rover sealed shut again behind them as he started out across the plaza to the place where Gundhalinu stood staring up into the city. As Reede reached Gundhalinu's side, he heard Gundhalinu mutter something; recognized the barely audible singsong of an adhani. Gundhalinu pressed his hands to his face, ground them into his eyes almost brutally, before he let them fall away again. "Gods, yes," he murmured, "I hear you. I see you. I remember you. . . ." Reede realized abruptly that Gundhalinu was not speaking to him. He gazed up at the rising mass of the ruins, seeing no one, hearing nothing but the whisper of the wind. The stark purity of this place made him think of bleached bones, of a broken vessel, of the ultimate peace of things from which the imperfect soul had flown. He looked back at Gundhalinu, and knew with chilling certainty that they were not having the same vision. And if he listened with the part of his mind that could not even ask to hear, he knew the nameless presence would have spoken to him; if only he could have asked. . . . "Ghosts?" he murmured, his own voice sounding like a stranger's. Gundhalinu gave an odd, strangled laugh. "Thousands of them . . ."He shook his head. "Everyone I've ever known, or will ever know, among them . . . Do you want to know the future, Reede? If I stand here long enough, I'll be able to tell it to you." Reede stared at him, stricken with sudden paranoia, until he realized that Gundhalinu was speaking in generalities. "How could you stand to get near this place, the first time, if it was like that for you?" He still found it almost unbelievable that someone as obsessively controlled as Gundhalinu would ever have committed the near-insane act of entering World's End. "I wasn't a sibyl when I first got here." THE SUMMER QUEEN 181 "What happened out here?" Reede whispered, not able to keep himself from asking. And, when Gundhalinu didn't answer, "To you. To the others with you?" "Spadrin murdered Ang," Gundhalinu said hoarsely. "I murdered Spadrin. Multiple stab wounds ..." Reede stopped breathing. "When I reached the Lake, after I'd finally killed Spadrin, I was picked up by 'jacks from Sanctuary. They brought me to her. . . . Song infected me." A frown narrowed Reede's eyes. "Against your will--?" he asked. "Yes." Gundhalinu's hand tightened painfully over the sibyl medallion. He turned away and began to walk, picking a careful path over the broken ground. They went on through the abandoned streets, skirting rubble, descending broken steps and corroding metal ladders. "Why?" Reede said, finally. Gundhalinu stopped, swung around in his tracks. "Why what--?" he demanded. "Why did I come here? Because I had nothing left to live for. Why did she infect me? Because we were both gone to World's End ..." His voice cracked. Gone to World's End meant gone crazy on Number Four. "She wanted a consort. . . ."He looked away, staring at a single tower rising from the city's heights, its middle section replaced by a slab of solid rock. "Maybe she thought if she fed me to the lake, it would give her peace. ..." Both hands rose now, in a jerky motion that was almost a shrug. "After that, I heard the Lake too, just like she did. It took me ... it took me a long time to understand what it was trying to tell me. I really believed I had gone mad. And yet somehow, instead, being a sibyl drove me sane." He started on, not looking back to see whether Reede would follow. Reede followed, moving deeper into another man's fever dream. "I almost killed myself, right up there, before I understood." He pointed ahead, toward the canyon rim they were making their way toward. "I couldn't be sure of anything." "I know that feeling," Reede murmured, feeling his lips drying, cracking. "Gods, yes ... I know that." Gundhalinu hesitated, looking back at him. "As if you can't . . . you don't even know what questions to ask. If you could just think of the question, men at least you'd know what was . . . missing." He felt his eyes bum, suddenly full of tears, as if some bewildered part of him still fought to mourn--even to remember--some unspeakable, forgotten wrong that could never be avenged. He kept his head down, his eyes on the rubble-strewn ground under his feet. "When I work, I always know what questions to ask. But ..." "Exactly," Gundhalinu murmured. Looking back as he walked, he stumbled suddenly. Without thinking, Reede reached out to steady him. Gundhalinu nodded; touched Reede's shoulder briefly, gratefully. They began to walk again, side by side. "It's the first thing they teach you, as a Survey initiate: that all the answers are out there already, free for the taking. You only have to ask the right questions." Gundhalinu laughed; the sound was harsh and bitter. "It sounds so simple. You don't learn the price of asking the questions, until it's too late." He kicked a stone; sent it scuttling ahead of them, over the cliff-edge, into the abyss. He began to walk faster, as if he was irresistibly drawn to follow it. Reede caught Gundhalinu's arm in a sudden restraining hold as they reached the canyon's rim. Gundhalinu smiled, shaking his head, and Reede let him go. Reede followed his gaze; looking down, he felt a rush of fear and exhilaration as his vision 182 Joan D. Vinge fell away, down and down along the sheer wall of rock to the green-veined river running fifty meters below. Gundhalinu let out his breath in something close to a sigh. "There it is." Reede let his eyes travel upriver to the place where the two canyons met. He found something there, saw it shimmer, saw it flash as the relentless flow of water rising around it diffracted the sunlight. Something big, something metallic, with a fragmented form that was somehow strangely familiar. . . . "The ship," he said, not making it a question. "Yes," Gundhalinu whispered, wonder filling his face. "Just the way I remembered it." He crouched down, balancing easily, lucid again as his mind found a focus-point. "We have to get down there as soon as possible." "It's underwater," Reede said, as the reality of what he was seeing caught up with the vision. "I know," Gundhalinu said, as if Reede had pointed out something singular!) insignificant. Reede felt the air around him suddenly become viscous, unbreathable "But ... it must be twenty or thirty meters deep. You didn't say it was down there like that. We don't have specs on an Old Empire ship. We can't even check it out, to know it there's anything worth salvaging in that wreckage!" Gundhalinu looked up at him, half frowning in surprise; half smiling as he thought he understood. "We have helmets in the rover, emergency equipment. We can dive down and explore it ourselves. I can use the Transfer to tell us whether we have what we want" Reede moved away from the cliff-edge, shutting his eyes, pulling at his ear "Yes, we have to do it. We can't not do it. The opportunity is too incredible. . . " "You're shaking your head," Gundhalinu said. He stood up. "Reede--are you afraid of water?" Reede laughed sharply. "No. Why would I be afraid of water?" Of water, freezing cold, black cold, water closing over my head, blinding my eyes, stopping my ears-- "Did you have a bad experience?" "No!" Water filling my mouth, my nose. ... He was staring wildly, trying to find Gundhalinu's face, rising, rising into the light-- "There is no problem," his voice was insisting with inhuman calm, as if someone else controlled his responses now, controlled him like a puppet. Oh gods, what's wrong with me? But that had never been the right question; and it would never have any answer. "Let's get out of here," he muttered. "I want to get back to camp, get on with the experiment." Gundhalinu nodded. Exhaustion and doubt shadowed his face now; if he had more questions of his own, he did not ask them. His body was rigid with tension as he turned away. He headed for the rover, moving quickly and surely, not looking back. The sight that greeted them when they reentered the rover was so absurdly banal that it startled a laugh out of Reede. Niburu and Saroon sat cross-legged on the floor, playing 3-D chama as intently as two schoolboys, as if they had forgotten that they were squatting in the heart of a ghost city in the middle of a lake of molten stone where spacetime tied itself into knots. That it might disappear from under them at any minute, taking them with it. Niburu looked up, not looking surprised, but faintly querulous at the sound of THE SUMMER QUEEN 183 r* Reede's laughter. Saroon twisted around guiltily where he sat, as if he was afraid to be caught enjoying himself. He scrambled to his feet, picking up his gun. Reede's laughter stopped as second thoughts hit him, and he realized that what he'd seen did not amuse him at all. He glared at Niburu. "Let's go." Niburu shut off the game and slipped it into his pocket. He took his place behind the controls without comment; the expression on his face said one look at their own haunted expressions as they reentered the rover was all the explanation he needed. They left the island and returned to the campsite, without incident or distractions. Ananke met them as they landed, with obvious relief. Hundet watched, unmoved and unmoving, as Saroon helped them maneuver the containment unit on its floating grid into the confines of their makeshift laboratory. Reede watched Gundhalinu surreptitiously but carefully, relieved to see that the other man's attention seemed to be perfectly focused on the experiment they were about to conduct. It was almost as if the Lake was letting him breathe, letting him think Reede had no objection. The unnerving reaction he had had to his own close encounter with the Lake yesterday no longer plagued him much. He wondered if it was extending him the same courtesy, or if they had both simply begun to get used to it, as Gundhalinu had predicted. "All right," Gundhalinu said, when the containment unit was secure. "Niburu, I want you to take everyone else up in the rover. Circle and wait until we contact you ... or we don't. You understand?" Niburu nodded, all the expression going out of his face as the implications of the words registered. "Is it that dangerous?" he asked, with an incredulity that struck Reede as absurdly childlike. "I ... wanted to watch." He glanced at Reede, habitually checking for his reaction. "I thought the vaccine worked perfectly, when you tried it before." Reede controlled his impulse co frown, and nodded. "It did. But we only had a fraction of this amount, and a lot more control over the situation. There shouldn't be any problem. But Gundhalinu's seen what happens if there is one." He turned, meeting Gundhalinu's steady gaze. "You know," he said suddenly, "it only takes one of us to do this. Why don't you go with them? You shouldn't risk your neck." He felt Niburu look at him with something like surprise. He felt an odd surprise of his own, as he realized that to some part of him the survival of his work was actually more important than his mission here, or even his own survival. . . . Gundhalinu raised an eyebrow. "I have complete faith in this process," he said. Reede did frown, this time. "That's stupid. Don't be an ass. If we were both killed, there'd be nobody who could re-create it." Gundhalinu smiled. "It's completely documented." His eyes were full of a strange light. "Reede, I've been waiting years for this moment . . . maybe a lifetime." Reede shrugged, and smiled grudgingly. He had made certain that the documentation of his own work was critically incomplete; no one but Gundhalinu, who had worked so closely with him, would have even a chance of recreating everything they had done. "All right. I guess I understand that. . . . Niburu, clear the area." He gestured, catching a glimpse of something that might have been admiration, or even envy, in the final look Niburu gave the two of them. Niburu led Ananke and Saroon out of the lab. When they were gone Reede began preparations. Gundhalinu matched him 184 Joan D. Vwge move for move with calm efficiency, as if they had always worked together. Step by step they sealed the dome inside a field of protective energy, woke the monitors, brought on line the processors that would introduce the vaccine into the containment unit, and double-checked their peripheral equipment. Reede removed a vial of vaccinated plasma from its insulated case and inserted it into the access on the outer shield of the unit. The all-clear notification came over the comm link from the rover as the last systems check finished running. Reede spoke the commands to the processor, pressed his thumb against the glowing spot on its panel that set the procedure in motion. Gundhalinu stood beside him, and Reede watched as he put a knuckle in his mouth and bit down. Reede pulled at his ear, waiting instinctively for a feedback that did not come--that never came. He was suddenly aware of the unbearable sensation of not-hearing that had tormented him ever since he could remember; that was not deafness, that was . . . that was-- Angrily he wrenched his attention back to the displays in front of him, watching as the screen showed him a primitive three-dimensional visual of what was happening inside the unit. They watched as the vaccine was funneled into place; as the unit followed their precise orders step by step, releasing constraints, dropping shields . . . opening the cage of stasis that held the stardrive plasma precariously captive. Reede's hands opened with a spasm as the vaccine was delivered. The static mass of light that was the image of what lay inside the containment unit came alive m simulation as the stardrive plasma was set free. He saw it boiling, mutating, diffracting, until the simulation before him became a vision of chaos, utterly incomprehensible to his eyes. Gundhalinu swore, holding his head with his hands. Reede forced his eyes to stay open when they would have closed, and saw the seething chaos take on a new form--a form that slowly began to alter, until he realized that it was making sense to his eyes, the patterns coalescing into the random forms of flames, of frost, of alien coastlines . . . the rate of change slowing, their mutation slowly, as what lay inside the container surrendered to rationality and order, and came to rest at last firmly connected to the reality stream in which it had been created. Waiting. Waiting for their command. Reede sucked in a breath, let it out in a hoarse cry of triumph. He turned, catching Gundhalinu by the shoulders, embracing him. "It worked . . ." Gundhalinu whispered, dazed. "It worked! Didn't it--?" His own hands closed over Reede's, still clutching his arms. "Yes." Reede looked back at the displays. "It's under control. We did it! We got it--we got all of it!" He looked at Gundhalinu again; found his hands somehow touching the other man, Gundhalinu's hands covering his own. He pulled free, stumbling back. Gundhalinu nodded, oblivious. "Yes, I feel it . . . I felt it happen." His voice was choked with emotion. He rubbed his face, almost as if he were wiping away tears. Reede wondered if it was relief, or pain, or joy that had hold of him now--what a man would feel who had gone through all the hell that Gundhalinu had gone through, for the sake of the Lake, for the sake of his own sanity. Reede felt happy--pleased with himself, in a clean, matter-of-fact way that he did not feel very often. But the rush of triumph that had filled him as the plasma had THE SUMMER QUEEN 185 conn- ui -ler control had dissipated as suddenly, when he looked into Gundhalinu's eyes, .'- emotions had gone flat, as if it were all an anticlimax, and he had no idea why He shook his head, telling himself that this was only the first stage of his real victory, that he would feel the real pleasure when he had taken what he had come here to get. and returned with it to Mundilfoere. Mundilfoere, whose love was all the human contact he desired. Mundilfoere, whose touch could make him forget ever\th:ng, anything . . . even this moment. He stared at the displays, still telling him just what he wanted them to say. He looked back at Gundhalinu finally, almost reluctantly. He had what he had come here to get. He should be ready to carry out the next part of the plan immediately, while Gundhalinu and the others were completely off guard . . . But now there was the ship, the Old Empire wreckage that Gundhalinu had shown him today. If it had anything like an intact drive unit in it . . .He couldn't afford to pass that up. He had to keep things the way they were a little longer; maintain this precarious balance until he found out for certain. He could only study the ship if he had Gundhalinu down there with him, to tell him what he needed to know. He couldn't kill anybody now. He didn't have to kill anybody now. Nobody had to die, today. . . . He turned away from the sight of Gundhalinu's face; spoke brusquely into the communicator, calling Niburu and the others back to camp. "Kullervo, what are the odds," Gundhalinu murmured, his voice still strained, "of our vaccinating the entire Lake? We could do it now. The reprogrammed virus should just keep spreading indefinitely. ..." "No." Reede looked back, hearing a hope and a hunger in Gundhalinu's voice that might or might not be Gundhalinu's own. "I mean, let's take it one step at a time, all right?" he said uneasily. "Let's make sure this is completely stable, first." He was almost certain that it was completely stable--and that Gundhalinu was almost certainly right. That would be all he needed--to give the Golden Mean and the Kharemoughis a limitless supply of stardrive. He intended to leave them with exactly what they'd had when he arrived--which was nothing. Less than nothing, if he did the rational thing ... He glanced at Gundhalinu again, down again, his hands tightening. "Niburu!" Reede gestured with his chin, summoning Niburu away from the cluster of bodies gathered around the dully glowing solar cooker. "Try the stew, boss?" Niburu said, shoveling another mouthful into his face as he stopped and looked up at Reede. "It's not bad, if I do say so. I thought we all deserved something spe--" "What the hell are they doing eating with us?" Reede cut him off irritably, pulling him farther around the side of the lab dome into the shadows. Niburu glanced over his shoulder at the figures he could still just see. "Gundhalinu eats with us--" "You know what I mean," Reede snapped. "Those troopers." Niburu looked back at him, both uneasy and defiant. He shrugged. "I wanted to invite Saroon, so I had to ask Hundet. It's kind of a party to celebrate. . . ."Reede 186 foan D. Vinge realized that Niburu smelled like beer, that they must all have been drinking the local brew. "What the fuck do you think this is?" Reede caught him by the front of his shirt and shook him once, hard, spilling stew. "Some goddamn social club? A fucking primitive tour? That is the enemy!" That was all he needed, for Niburu and Ananke to start seeing those expendable pieces of meat as individuals, as friends. Niburu flushed. "They're not my enemies--" "Don't playact that naive bullshit with me." Reede let him go, seeing the incomprehension on his face, wanting to strangle him. "If they knew why we were really here, what do you think would have happened to us all by now?" "We'd all be dead. And who could blame them?" Niburu said bitterly. "But they're still human beings." The look on his face got dangerously self-righteous. "And it's too late to uninvite them. You want to eat, or not?" Reede glared at him. The words that would shatter Niburu's fantasy world filled his mouth, but his tongue refused to spit them out. Niburu turned and stalked away. Reede sighed, and followed, realizing that it was already too late for Niburu. But that didn't matter, as long as it wasn't too late for him; as long as his own resolve held. He followed Niburu out into the open space between the domes. He sat on a sling-stool and ate, smiling an utterly empty smile. The stew was good; full of enough hot spices to burn away any aftertaste of stale freeze-dry. He focused on its texture, the pungent flavors rising up inside his head; relieved that Gundhalinu, who sat next to him, seemed too preoccupied with his own thoughts, or the Lake's, to make conversation. Reede tried not to watch Ananke letting Saroon take the quoll in his lap, not to watch as it crawled up the sweat-damp front of Saroon's uniform shirt to huddle, murmuring congenially, under his chin; tried not to see the first smile he'd ever seen form on Saroon's thin, drawn face, or to feel Niburu's eyes measuring his own reaction. Only Hundet's mood seemed to match his own, and so he watched Hundet. Hundet's eyes flicked over them one by one, and Reede saw his own alienation mirrored there. Hundet downed the dregs of what was probably not his first bottle of ouvung that day. Hundet hated this surreal wasteland, the strange-looking foreigners, the offworlders controlling his world and his life--anything he didn't understand, and that covered a lot of ground. He hated what he feared; and so he drank until everyone was as much of an animal in his mind as he was himself. If the law didn't give him an enemy, he took it out on grunts like Saroon; on his woman if he had one and on his children, with his foot, with a gunbutt, with his fists. The kind of man whose hand would hold you under in the black cold water . . . Reede swore and spat as an unexpected mouthful of spice made his eyes tear. He took a long, meaningless drink from the bottle of cold, piss-colored beer sitting by his boot. Hundet looked up and caught him staring, read the expression on his face before he had time to make it noncommittal again. Hundet's face darkened; his eyes touched on everyone sitting around him again with obvious disgust. He got slowly to his feet, muttering some insult in his own tongue, and started to leave the circle. He turned back as Saroon laughed out loud, oblivious, reacting to something the quoll had done or Ananke had said to him. Reede watched with a peculiar feeling of deja vu as Hundet's booted foot swung out to kick Saroon hard in the buttock. The quoll flew out of Saroon's grasp as he sprawled forward, crashing into the cooker. Ananke caught the quoll in midair with THE SUMMER QUEEN 187 an acrobat's reflexive lunge. Saroon scrambled to his feet, slapping at his smoking shirtsleeve, his face stupefied with pain and surprise. Hundet snarled an order. Reede went on watching, with unwilling fascination, as the pleasure that had animated Saroon's face faded until he had no expression at all. His eyes were like holes in his face, black and empty, as he left the circle of silent, staring strangers without a word, and followed Hundet away. Niburu swore softly. Gundhalinu began to rise from his seat, his mouth opening to call out an angry protest. Reede caught Gundhalinu's arm, pulling him back down. "Don't say anything." Gundhalinu's frown turned to him. "He's going to stop mistreating his man like that or I'll--" "He's not going to stop," Reede said flatly. "If you call him on it, he'll only wait until your back is turned. And then he'll treat the kid worse because you gave him trouble about it. Leave it alone." Gundhalinu stared at him, then settled slowly back onto the stool, all his resistance gone. He nodded, tight-lipped with resignation. Reede glanced at the others, saw the resentment fade from their faces, and the helpless anger it left behind. They watched Hundet enter the rover, going inside to sleep it off, leaving Saroon on guard outside, able to see what went on where they all sat, just across the camp from him, but not able to join it. After an endless moment of silence, Gundhalinu pushed to his feet again. "It's been a long day." He disappeared into his sleeping quarters. "Saroon is in the army," Niburu said, "because one day a squad came into the village where his family lived and took away all the young men they could find, at gunpoint. He's been in the army three years. He's eighteen." Reede stared at him. "How the hell do you know things like that?" "I ask," Niburu answered, meeting his stare. "There are some things you can't change, Niburu." Reede looked away from him. "Unless, of course, you're willing to kill somebody." He stood up and went toward his own quarters without looking back. NUMBER FOUR Fire Lake Gundhalinu stood in the heart of Sanctuary, on the cliff-edge above the shining river, looking down. Even from this height the water's motion seemed indefinably alien. He stared at the wreckage that lay waiting in the depths like a fallen star. A fallen starship. The heat licked at his sweating body with sensual desire; the voice of the Lake was a lunatic choir screaming inside his head. He stood listening to its voice a moment longer, before he turned to look at Kullervo. Kullervo stood beside him in nothing but a pair of shorts; a delirious profusion of stunning color and vibrant design covered his naked arms to the shoulders. His face showed a stubble of beard; the pale unprotected skin of his back was already burning in the fierce heat. Gundhalinu watched a ghost hazed in red drift heedlessly through Kullervo's slim, well-muscled body and wander back toward town--the energy echo of some former resident of Sanctuary, indelibly trapped in the random memory of Fire Lake. It struck him that Kullervo looked surprisingly strong and fit, for a researcher. He looked away again. The town behind them was filled with insubstantial forms, to his haunted eyes. They were redshifted into the past, blueshifted into the future, because the Lake existed not only in the here and now but, as far as he knew, in all times. The Lake had even shown him unnerving glimpses of his own future and past. He knew that no one else here saw them. It was no wonder he had thought he was crazy. ... He envied Kullervo his relative ignorance, even though Reede was not blissfully immune like most people. Kullervo reacted to the Lake in a way he had never seen anyone else react, and he had no idea why. But he was in no position to figure it out, when the Lake was like a parasite living in his own mind, feeding off him, every single moment day and night while he was within range of its power. Its voice murmured like the sea behind his eyes, louder now as he stood here, preparing to do this thing. Its emotions bled into his own, making him moody and distracted. It took all his self-discipline even to keep a thought in focus. All his life he had been taught that less than perfect self-control was unacceptable. The Lake had taught him the absurdity of that unachievable ideal. It had made him a better human being ... but everything had its price. He hated being here; he wished it would end. He wiped sweat from his face, not all of it caused by the heat. Kullervo glanced up at the glaring blue sky. It seemed never to rain here; just as THE SUMMER QUEEN 189 it seemed always to be raining in Foursgate. As Gundhalinu glanced at him, Kullervo looked down again, staring grimly at the river waiting for them far below, and the narrow path cut into the rockface leading down to it. His entire body was clenched like a fist, and his disturbing blue eyes touched the path, the water, the red rock walls, the water again, with the restlessness of a trapped animal. Kullervo had barely spoken three words since they had left camp this morning. Something about the water had obviously triggered his paranoia, though he would not admit it. And yet Gundhalinu was aware that on a certain level, Kullervo always felt the way he felt right now, barely holding it together while something inside him tried to eat him alive. He wondered whether it was Kullervo's genius that was also his personal gutworm. . . . And as he thought it, suddenly the voice of the Lake in his own head did not seem so loud. "Let's get it over with," Kullervo said. His voice sounded strangely distant; Gundhalinu wasn't sure whether the effect was in Kullervo's voice or his own ears. He nodded, picking up the backpack that held his equipment. He slung it over his shoulder, the way Kullervo already wore his, and started down the steep, narrow trail that had been chiseled into the side of the gorge gods-only-knew how long ago. It had been done by human hands, by human design; he was sure of that much. He had seen the redshifted ghosts of memory at work on it. He watched his own footing compulsively, because his eyes kept wandering from the track, toward that gleaming silver mystery far below that he was about to explore at last. They reached the bottom of the canyon and stood on the red rock of the shore Gundhalinu watched the river flow past, able to see clearly once again what it was that was so alien about its motion: It did not obey the laws of gravity or atmospheric pressure, like any normal liquid. It flowed in ripples and braids, undulating like a snake; its surface was not perfectly smooth but mimicked the deeper pattern of the stone bed through which it moved. His memories seemed to roll and flow like the motion of the river. "Ye gods," Kullervo muttered, "what the hell is this stuff--?" "It's water," Gundhalinu answered. "Water doesn't do that!" Kullervo's hands jerked. Gundhalinu crouched down, putting his cupped hands into the flow, lifting up a transparent pool that lay obediently in his palms. He drank it down deliberately. "It's water. I don't know why it looks like that. Some effect of the energy fields, I suppose. Nothing makes sense here. You just have to accept it." Kullervo said nothing for a long moment, while both of them looked at the water. Then, finally, he asked, "Is it cold?" Gundhalinu glanced at him. "No. It's quite warm, actually." Kullervo shrugged the equipment pack off his shoulders. Setting it on the beach, he pulled out the oxygen helmet and lifted it up. "All right, then," he said, as if he were speaking to the river. "You don't have to do this," Gundhalinu said suddenly, remembering Kullervo's offer to him as they prepared to treat the plasma. "I can get Niburu--" "No." Kullervo shook his head, frowning. "He's not--qualified. I have to . . I have to." He settled the helmet over his head, shutting Gundhalinu out. Gundhalinu stood watching him seal it in place, left effectively alone to wonder whether it was compulsion or only some misguided sense of personal honor that ;ye Kullervo. Well, what did it matter . . . ? He had lived through both those 190 foan D. Vinge emotions, too. He checked his own helmet quickly and methodically--the small hard nodule at the back of the transparent bubble where the oxygen pellet and the recycler were located. He took off his shirt and put on the helmet, pressing its seal against his bare skin. The sensation was like something putting its mouth over him. vaguely sensual, vaguely unnerving. He took a deep breath, and was given air. The shadow readouts drifted across his vision like translucent fish, meaningless here, where nothing read true for long. "Can you hear me?" he asked. "I hear you. . . . You hear me?" Kullervo answered tonelessly. "Yes. When we get down to the wreckage, you can put me into Transfer and we'll look it over." "Do a survey ..." Kullervo said. Gundhalinu looked at him, laughed mostly in surprise as he realized that Kullervo had intentionally made a joke. "Two strangers, and very far from home," he murmured, staring at the serpentine flow of water while the Lake gnawed at his brain, breathing and muttering inside his head. He started forward, wading into the tepid flow--cool enough to soothe his sweating skin, warm enough to relax his tension-knotted muscles. He thought he felt a tingling in its touch against his skin. wasn't certain if it was some energy force he was sensing or only his overactive nerves. He glanced back to make sure Kullervo was following, and saw him enter the river with stiff, uncertain movements. Gundhalinu slowed as the water reached his chest; he felt the warm massaging strength of the current, but no sense that it was about to drag him off his feet. It*, motion was as random as everything else had become. He took a deep, unnecessary breath as he went under the surface. He kicked his way down into the clear, warm depths, trusting Kullervo to follow now. He saw the red rock falling away below him as he looked down and down through the crystal clarity of the river. He could net gauge how deep the wreckage lay. Its vaguely flower-like, organic form was perfectly visible among the deep-green traceries of plant life embroidering a sinuous pattern across the stone of the river bottom. Like a dream . . . That was what he had thought, the first time he saw it; what he still felt, every time he returned. It seemed to him that he was damned, destined to return to this dreamworld again and again, until either the Lake destroyed him, or they set each other free. He stopped his downward motion in midstroke to look up and back, saw Kullervo above him, haloed in filtered light, like the answer to a prayer. He felt himself beginning to drift upward and turned back, kicking his way down again toward the river's wellspring. The wreckage loomed below him now, reflecting light upward into his eyes, the pieces of the starship as perfectly preserved as if they had fallen there only weeks, and not millennia, ago. He was sure they had not looked that new the first time he had seen them; that before he could solve the Lake's riddle about its identity, it had sent a ripple through time and somehow made the ship young again. He remembered the agonizing ecstasy of the Lake's joy inside him at the moment he had finalh recognized the broken form of the ship for what it was. ... He realized suddenly that right now, as he descended into these depths, his mind was clearer and freer than it had been since he had arrived, as if the Lake had given him space in which to function normally. They reached the wreckage at last, just as he began to feel that they were THE SUMMER QUEEN 191 suspended m time as well as in liquid. He put out his hand, felt an electric surge of triumph as it closed over the smooth coldness of metal, anchoring him against the water welling up out of some unimaginable depths all around him. He heard Kullervo's grunt of relief as his hand found a grip on the metal. "It's real after all," Kullervo said faintly. Gundhahnu nodded, grinning. "Ask me the question. Input-" He clung tighter to the metal as he felt himself begin the long fall that would end in utter darkness, or in the mind of a stranger unimaginably far away; as Kullervo's question filled his mind and Transferred him . . . He was in a place that defied description. . , . Floating, gravityless, in the night-black void of space, he was surrounded by brilliant flashes of light; blinded as the seeming nothingness around him was disrupted by the energy fields of some unseen force. Monstrous skeletal structures lay in space around him, for as far as his eyes could see. They swarmed with clouds of glittering dust in seemingly purposeful motion. A war, an alien life-form--? His mind struggled to reintegrate without panicking, to make sense of what it saw, as he realized that the sudden stealing away of this body's mind might have left it, and him, in danger. Something closed over his arms; he would have jerked with surprise, but he had no control over his borrowed body. Forms swam into his view--human forms, human faces; speaking to him reassuringly from the sound of their voices, although he could not understand the language they spoke. He could hear them, although they did not appear to be wearing spacesuits, and neither did he. . . . He noticed that a hand did not quite touch his arm as he was pulled back under a looming grid, to what he hoped was a safe refuge, and held there. Up above--or down below him--he glimpsed the curve of a planet's arc. A shipyard. Suddenly the disparate things he had seen fused into a pattern that he recognized: an orbital shipyard, but one that was using far more sophisticated construction techniques than Kharemough used, and building ships with forms like none he had ever seen. Ships that used a faster-than-light stardrive. For a moment he wondered if he had been sent back in time to the Old Empire, remembering what had happened to him during his Survey initiation. But no--he was a prisoner in a borrowed body, not an actor in a play; this was a normal Transfer. He must be in some part of the former Empire where they still had the stardrive and knew how to build ships that used it. Some engineer was in his own vacant body now, compulsively explaining to Kullervo how the stardrive unit he was certain must be waiting there functioned, how it could be salvaged, how it could be repaired; borrowing even his brain function, his language, his voice. And he could do nothing but wait, here at the other end. He struggled in useless frustration against the unresponding flesh that held him prisoner, unable to ask even one of the countless questions that filled his head, unable to see anything more of all there was to see. But it's all right. Now, one day soon, this will be me, Kharemoughi shipyards, Hegemonic ships ready to cross the endless reaches of night again to any world they choose . . . to Tiamat. To Moon. He stored in his memory as much of his vision of the future as he was permitted to see. . . . Until dizzying vertigo began to suck him down once again, and the blackness of space became real, utter blackness . . . And swimming out the other side, rising into the light . . . "No further ""alysis!" He heard the echo of his spoken words, still rattling inside his head. He 192 foan D. Vinge shook his head as his own present unfolded around him, as he was free to gape at the cavern of baroque light and shadow that had somehow come to enfold him like tattered wings while he had been out of his body. Kullervo materialized in front of him, trying to stabilize his motion. Kullervo's fingers brushed the seal of his helmet; Gundhalinu pushed him away reflexively. Kullervo backed off, his hands drifting to his sides. One look at Kullervo's face gave Gundhalinu the answer he needed before he could ask the question: Yes. Yes, the drive unit was there, accessible, salvageable. . . . Yes, it was almost over; yes, they could get the hell out of here now at last finally-- There was something else in Kullervo's expression, the kind of amazement-that-was-almost-awe he had grown used to seeing in the eyes of others, but had never seen before in Kullervo's eyes. And there was something that might have been doubt. "... everything. It's good, come on, let's get Niburu and do it--" Kullervo turned away abruptly, as Gundhalinu became aware that he had actually been speaking, telling him in words what he already knew. "Let's get out of here--" Gundhalinu looked around him again, his confusion becoming genuine now, as he realized they must be somewhere deep in the heart of the wreckage. Suddenly he ached to explore the ship with his own eyes, for the sheer joy of seeing, touching, learning. . . . But he sensed Kullervo's desperate need to be gone from here, and he nodded. "Which way? How did we get here--?" The oddly refracted light, the reflections and shadows that painted the walls of buckled metal, twisted his vision into knots as he searched for an exit. Kullervo's face tightened visibly. "You brought us in here. I thought--" He broke off, realizing that it had been someone else guiding them in, that Gundhalinu knew nothing at all of the route they had taken into this place. "Well, we went . . . we came in over there . . . I think. . . ." He kicked off, into a rising arc through the luminous liquid atmosphere. Gundhalinu followed, watched Kullervo disappear through a vaguely doorlike opening, and reappear almost immediately. "No. That's wrong." Gundhalinu could see a trickle of sweat crawling down Kullervo's cheek inside his helmet. "I thought I was sure ... but the light changed, or something. It must be over there--" Gundhalinu caught his arm, holding him back. "Wait. Give me a minute. ..." Gleaming pinholes and fist-sized windows punched through the broken walls let illumination in from somewhere, meaning they were probably close to the outer hull of the ship; but there was no exit that way. He searched the claustrophobic space, trying to collect his wits enough to superimpose the schematics of Old Empire ship design that he held in his memory over what he could actually see; trying to judge where inside the ship's skeleton they were lost. The guts of an Old Empire freighter bore little resemblance to the insides of a Hegemonic ship. All the ships built since the Empire's fall were small and compact, with the compressed disc shape of a coin, the only form that allowed them to survive a passage through the Black Gates. It took an entire fleet of them to carry the goods that one of these freighters could transport. This ship, like most of the Old Empire's starships, had never been intended to pass through a Black Gate--or even to land on the surface of a world, most likely. It had been a huge angular sprawl of storage, environments, drives. . . . "Where's the drive unit?" Kullervo pointed downward at the unidentifiable excrescence of equipment below him and to the right. As that identification locked into place, Gundhalinu THE SUMMER QUEEN 193 began to recognize the opaque surfaces that had once held data displays, once been alive with the languages of dead worlds ... to spot repair accesses and broken fragments of equipment. He looked to his left, saw an opening where he needed to find one. "This way." He gestured and kicked off, swimming toward the way out. Kullervo followed him, so close on his heels that they were almost one person, making physical contact with him every few meters as they threaded their way back through the shifting liquid tunnels, the vast darknesses and pied convolutions of what had once been Fire Lake's reason for existence. "How much farther?" Kullervo's impatient voice and hand tugged at him, as he squeezed past a buckled section of wall. Gundhalinu blinked, as a shaft of pure, sea-green light struck him in the eye. "We're there." He pointed toward the gaping rent in the hull wall waiting ahead. Kullervo's head and arms squeezed past his hip, as if Kullervo couldn't wait long enough for him to move aside, desperate to see the light. He laughed, or something like it. "Gundhalinu--" Gundhalinu looked down and back as Reede's hand clamped over his arm like a vise. He froze as he saw metal flash in Kullervo's other, rising hand-- Kullervo jerked suddenly, convulsively, releasing Gundhalinu as his hands flew to his own throat, to the clear wall of his helmet. Gundhalinu saw the fine mist of blood from the gash on Reede's shoulder, where a piece of twisted wreckage had ripped his flesh, and ripped loose the helmet's seal. He saw Kullervo's face, stricken with terror, drowning in bubbles as water forced its way in at the broken seal, forcing the air out. Kullervo floundered, fighting to get past him, knocking him aside as he reached out to staunch the flow of escaping air. Reede's own panicked struggles wrenched the helmet free, sent it tumbling away, carried by the capricious current down into the dark heart of the wreck. Reede lunged after it, following it down to certain death. Gundhalinu caught him around the waist, dragging him back up toward the light, the opening, survival. Kullervo thrashed wildly; but the water slowed his motions as Gundhalinu got behind him, got an armlock around his neck and dragged him, struggling like a hooked fish, out through the gap and into the open. Gundhalinu swam up and up through the river's brightening depths, feeling Kullervo's struggles grow weaker. He felt as though he had been swimming forever through the green light that seemed to fill his head like music, like an hallucination, like a dream. His lungs ached; he realized that he had been holding his breath, counting his heartbeats. He sucked in a lungful of air, only half believing that he could. Locked in his grip, Reede had stopped struggling. But somewhere up above him, inside that tunnel of light glowing brighter and brighter, was the open air-- His head broke the surface of the water, and all around him were the canyon walls, the color of the blood rushing behind his eyes. He swam to shore, towing Kullervo's unresisting body after him. He dragged Reede onto the beach and fell to his knees, pulling off his own helmet. Beside him Reede took a shuddering breath, and his stark blue eyes opened, staring m disbelief. Gundhalinu sat back as Kullervo struggled to roll over, coughing, and retched water onto the warm red stone. He collapsed again, his eyes empty, mirroring the sky. "Reede . . ." Gundhalinu touched his shoulder tentatively. Kullervo looked toward the sound and opened his mouth, but no words came 194 /oanD. Vinse out. He pushed himself up onto his elbows, looked down along his body at his feet, still trailing in the water. "He tried to drown me," he mumbled. "Who did?" Gundhalinu asked blankly. "I'm going to kill him, that bastard!" Kullervo's hands tightened into fists; he struggled to sit upright. Gundhalinu put a hand on his shoulder again, holding him back. "Take it easy_ You lost your helmet. Your helmet caught on the wreckage." He showed Kullervo the raw scrape on his shoulder, still oozing a thin film of blood. Kullervo rubbed his eyes, looked up again. "You saved my life," he murmured "It was nothing--" "Don't say that!" Kullervo said furiously. "My life isn't worth shit, and I don't care if I die tomorrow--but not like that. I have dreams about dying like that. ..." His eyes darkened. "I owe you." "It was nothing you wouldn't have done for me," Gundhalinu finished. Kullervo stared at him for a long moment, frozen, and then finally he looked down. He got unsteadily to his feet. He started away along the shore toward the trail that led up, stumbling, supporting himself with one hand against the rock; not looking back or waiting for help. Gundhalinu stood up and followed, with the Lake's voice inside him like a madman's laughter. NUMBER FOUR: World's End "What do you think?" Gundhalinu asked, with eager impatience Reede stared at the displays, nodding slowly. "Looks good ..." They had done minor structural repairs on the salvaged drive unit, under Gundhalinu'i. guidance but at Reede's urging, and now he had introduced their sample of the stardrive into it. Gundhalinu had wanted to wait until they returned to civilization. But he had pushed, insisted--aware that Gundhalinu's need to know had to be as great as his own; that he could break down Gundhalinu's knee-jerk sense of responsibility if he made the temptation irresistible enough. He had tried, and he had been right. And now he had fed the stardrive plasma into its intended matrix. They were watching the process imaged on the displays as the plasma settled into its new home--and from what he could see, it was doing fine The piece of equipment had been in an incredible state of preservation for something buried underwater in a wreck that was gods-only-knew how ancient. But nothing obeyed the rules of the known universe in World's End, because of the stardrive. And "fr THE SUMMER QUEEN 195 . "I the stardrive had wanted this unit saved, as it had wanted itself to be saved. . think it's happy," he said at last. Gundhalinu moved closer, staring at the images on the screens. "Then so am I--" He let out a whoop of sheer elation. "Gods, I've never been this happy! Thank you, gods!" "Neither have I." Reede forced the words out, almost choking on them as elation died stillborn in his throat. He picked up a calibrator. It felt hard and heavy inside his clenched fist, like a stone. He looked back at Gundhalinu. "Because now I don't need you anymore--" He swung, aiming for Gundhalinu's head. Gundhalinu was already reacting, as if a sixth sense from his years as a Blue had told him something he couldn't have known. He shouted for the troopers loitering outside, lunged backward before Reede's own momentum could catch up to him. He collided with a table in the crowded space behind him. Reede's fist with the calibrator caught him in the side of the face, slamming him back into a pile of equipment. Gundhalinu fell, crashing down in a rain of electronics gear. He lay still; Reede saw blood. Reede spun back again as Hundet burst into the tent. Hundet took it all in in one glance; the stun rifle he already held in his hands rose to his shoulder. Reede reached frantically for the knife at his belt. He flung it without even time to aim, trusting blind instinct and his perfect reflexes. The blade caught Hundet in the chest, stopping his forward motion with the shock of the counterblow. He seemed to hang, agonizingly suspended in midair, through an endless moment before his legs gave way and he sprawled facedown on the floor. Reede crossed the lab in less than a heartbeat to the place where Hundet lay in a spreading pool of red. He rolled Hundet with his foot. Dead. Hundet's eyes stared up at him in unblinking hatred as he leaned down and jerked his knife from the dead man's body. He wiped the blade on Hundet's tunic impassively, and put it back into his belt sheath. He picked up the rifle, checking its charge. He adjusted the setting to maximum; on that setting it would stop a man cold from a considerable distance, and kill him easily at short range. Holding the gun, he went outside. Trooper Saroon stood in the open space between domes, clutching his rifle indecisively. His face was tense and worried as he watched Niburu and Ananke, who stood looking toward the lab. The expressions on all their faces changed abruptly as Reede came out of the dome, carrying Hundet's gun. "Freeze!" Reede said, but he could have saved his breath. Saroon stood frozen already, with the look on his face turning to pathetic betrayal as he grasped what must be happening. He stared at Niburu and Ananke again, in disbelief; his gun wavered. "Drop it," Reede said, gesturing with his own weapon. Saroon tossed the rifle away and raised his hands. He kept stealing glances at the tent, hoping against hope that someone else would come out of it. "Niburu," Reede said, "Ananke. This is it. We've got everything we came for, and more. Get inside and get started--I want that stardrive unit in the rover now. We're leaving, as soon as I take care of details." He moved a few steps toward Saroon, getting within fatal range, and raised the rifle again. Saroon sat down abruptly in the sand as his knees buckled. Reede adjusted his 81111 downward. "No, Reede--!" 196 JoanD. Vinge Reede lowered the rifle, furiously, as he found Niburu squarely in his line of sight. "Goddammit! Get out of the way, you stupid bastard." But Niburu stood motionless, placing his body like a shield between the trembling boy and the gun. "You don't have to do this. What's the point--?" "Yes, I do. Get out of the way." Reede gestured with the gun, feeling his face harden over. "Get out of here if you don't want to watch. But get the fuck out of my way. Now!" "No. I won't let you kill him." Niburu stood straighter, white-faced and tight-lipped. He barely topped the kneeling trooper's height, but Reede found nothing absurd about his position. Slowly, as if he were hypnotized, Ananke moved forward, ready to add his body to the human shield. Reede's hands tightened over the gun. But as he began to raise it again, Ananke glanced away, distracted by some unexpected motion. Reede followed his glance, swore as his eyes caught sight of something--someone, disappearing around the bend of the canyon. Someone running like hell toward Fire Lake. Reede ran back to the tent. A glance inside told him all he needed to know. The far wall of the dome gaped, letting in daylight. Gundhalinu was gone. Reede went after him down the canyon, leaving Saroon behind, forgotten. Gundhalinu was the one who mattered, the one he had to stop. Because Gundhalinu was heading for the Lake, and he didn't know why. The canyon seemed to go on forever, shimmering with heat, until he began to wonder desperately whether the Lake was shifting reality around him, stretching out spacetime so that he would never reach his quarry. He had almost drowned because the Lake protected Gundhalinu; the Lake loved Gundhalinu. . . . But he burst out of the canyon mouth onto the open shore at last, and Gundhalinu was there, standing silhouetted by the Lake's hellshine on the barren, tortured stone. Facing the Lake he raised his hand, to throw something-- "Gundhalinu!" Reede raised his rifle even as he shouted the name. He fired. Gundhalinu staggered as the shock hit him; the impact carried his arm forward. His hand released whatever it had held, as his nervous system went dead and he collapsed on the beach. Reede saw something too small to identify disappear into the shimmering haze. Reede ran forward, crouched down, rolling Gundhalinu's helpless body onto its back. Gundhalinu stared up at him, bloody and bruised but completely aware. "What was it?" Reede said fiercely. "What did you throw into the Lake?" Gundhalinu didn't answer; silent whether he liked it or not, because his voluntary responses had been put on hold. He breathed in ragged gasps. He'd taken a bad hit, enough to affect his autonomic nervous system. But Reede saw triumph slowly replace the fury and the betrayal in the other man's eyes. Reede kicked him anyway for not answering, out of spite or something darker. Gundhalinu's face spasmed with pain. Reede straightened up, looking toward the Lake; watching, half-blind, for some clue. And then he saw it--a glitch, a ripple, a shimmering transfiguration in the distortion all around him. He could almost feel it ... the vision of his worst fear coming true. And yet something inside him was filled with wonder. "You did it, didn't you--?" he said, looking back at Gundhalinu. "That was the virus! You've infected the whole fucking Lake with it!" He kneeled down, catching Gundhalinu by the front of his sweat-soaked shirt, and dragged him up to sitting. He THE SUMMER QUEEN 197 held Gundhalinu's bruised face clamped in his free hand so that they were eye to eye. Gundhalinu met his gaze unflinchingly, and blinked once, slowly, like a nod. Reede slapped Gundhalinu, hard; feeling the other man's pain with the same dizzy sense of terror and pleasure that he felt when the pain was his own. "I was going to kill you because I had to, because you knew too much. . . . But now it's too late for that. Now I'll just have to kill you for revenge." He let Gundhalinu go, letting him fall back onto the mottled surface of the stone. He pushed to his feet. Picking up the stun rifle, he leveled it at Gundhalinu's head. Gundhalinu's face did not change, could not. But in his eyes Reede saw desperation and fear . . grief, betrayal, loss. The muzzle of the gun sank slowly as Reede's hands lowered, suddenly strengthless; as his mind's eye replayed his waking to a vision of red rock and glaring sky, to Gundhalinu's face hovering above him and the knowledge that the man he had just been trying to kill had saved him from death by drowning. His rage and resolve drowned in the clear, sweet river of his memories. He remembered all that they had accomplished together, the uncanny way their minds meshed, the knowledge that he had never worked with anyone before who had ... who had ... He turned his back on Gundhalinu's naked vulnerability, stared out at the seething, blinding Lake, the face of Chaos. He listened to it screaming, inside his head. But because of what they had created together, already it was transforming into something new, into Order. . . . He hurled the gun, watched it tumble end over end, arcing out and down until it disappeared into the eye-warping haze, the way Gundhalinu's flung vial had disappeared. He turned back, his eyes burning with the vision, his hands trembling. "Ilmarinen . . ."he whispered. He fell to his knees, lifting Gundhalinu's hand, pressing it against his face, his lips. He looked down, saw Gundhalinu staring up at him in anguish and incomprehension through the shadow-bars of his nerveless fingers. Ilmarinen-- And his mind imploded, as the black hole at its heart tore coherent thought limb from limb. He staggered to his feet, looking toward the Lake and back again with sudden fury. "Why did you make me do that? I have to kill you--!" His hand jerked the knife from his belt as if it had a will of its own; his body kneeled down again beside Gundhalinu's. He pressed the blade to Gundhalinu's throat. His entire body was trembling now. He held himself that way, unable to finish the act, paralyzed as completely as his victim by the anguish of unbearable loss. He fell back, the knife dropping from his hand to clatter on the hot surface of pitted stone. Beneath his hands he felt the pressure of countless screaming mouths and mindless eyes. "Get up!" he shouted, shouting at himself now. "Get up and do it! Do it! Do it!" He picked up the knife again. "Reede!" Reede looked up, feeling something that was almost disbelief as he saw Ananke appear at the mouth of the canyon; as he remembered that he and Gundhalinu were not alone in the universe, the last two men alive. "Reede! Come on!" Ananke waved his arm, his voice almost shrill as he gestured toward camp. "What?" Reede shouted furiously, climbing to his feet with the knife in his fist "Kedalion says we have to get out of here now!" 198 Joan D. Vinge "Why?" "Because he called in the army!" Reede swore in disbelief. He forced himself to look down at Gundhalinu one last time . . . seeing the trefoil that shone like a star on Gundhalinu's chest, hearing the harsh sound of his labored breathing. Reede touched the solii pendant hidden beneath his own shirt. "Live, then, damn you--" he said, his voice shaking. "It won't matter anyway. We have what we need." He brought his heavy boot back, kicked Gundhalinu in the side with all his strength; felt dizzy with relief as he made Gundhalinu cry out, feebly, involuntarily. Reede began to run, only stopping when he reached the place where Ananke waited. He struck Ananke's shoulder, jarring the boy out of his slack-faced staring. "Is he dead?" Ananke asked weakly, still gaping at Gundhalinu's motionless body. Reede did not answer, forcing him back down the canyon, driving him ahead toward the camp. "Niburu!" Niburu stood waiting beside the rover as they reached the campsite, his arms folded, as if this were only another visit to town. He had the second stun rifle slung over his shoulder. Reede didn't believe the expression of calm control on his face for a second. Saroon was nowhere in sight; Niburu must have sent him away somewhere. Reede was beyond caring, now. Trooper Saroon was no more than a nuisance, a detail, a loose end in a net that had suddenly sprung vast, gaping holes. . . . Reede strode across the camp to Niburu, the knife still clutched in his fist, not caring that Niburu had a stun rifle and he did not. Niburu watched him come without making a move to unsling his weapon. "Did you call in troops?" Reede snapped, looking down into Niburu's upturned face. Niburu's body shrank in on itself as Reede loomed over him, as if he suddenly faced an avenging demon made flesh. "Yes," he said, faintly but evenly. "Why?" Reede shouted, and saw him flinch. "Because if I didn't, you'd hunt him down and kill him." Saroon. Reede sucked in a breath of burning air. "What makes you so sure I won't kill you--?" he whispered, letting Niburu face his own reflection in the blade of the knife. Niburu looked away from it, with an effort. "Because I'm your pilot," he said, his eyes clear, his voice calm. "Because you need me." Reede glared at him, not speaking, not moving. "Boss, it's time we got out of here." Niburu jerked his head at the rover. "Everything important's on board, except us." "So you really are willing to die to save that pathetic, puling bastard," Reede murmured. "In fact, you're actually going to kill all of us, just so he can live, and the Four government can go on giving it to him up the ass for the rest of his miserable life." Niburu stared at him blankly. Reede smacked him with an open hand, knocking him to the ground. "Did it ever occur to you," he shouted, "in your eagerness for justice, that the Fours are going to track this vehicle and shoot it down?" THE SUMMER QUEEN 199 Niburu looked up at him, glassy-eyed. "They can't track us here--" He shook his head. "You don't know that." Reede rubbed his sweating face. "You can't be sure of anything here, you know that--! Gundhalinu vaccinated the Lake with the microviral, you shitbrain! The gods only know what's going to happen here now." Niburu blanched. "1--" "How did you propose we survive outside World's End, until we reach Foursgate, anyway--not to mention reaching orbit and our ship, now that you've so effectively drawn their attention to us? Why do you think I wanted no witnesses!" "I thought--" "No, you didn't think," Reede snarled. "You miserable cretin, you didn't think, you didn't think at all!" "But we can still get away. We have the stardrive." "It's not enough--" Reede broke off, half frowning. They had the actual unit; Gundhalinu had shown him the programming. There was barely enough sane smartmatter plasma suffused through the unit to replicate itself, let alone make the drive function . . . not nearly enough to transport a ship across interstellar space. But if he could get it to respond, then maybe it was enough to get them halfway around one world in a spacetime eyeblink, to a specific track in planetary orbit. . He felt the jangling filaments of his mind begin to find harmony as he focused on the possibilities; letting him think with blinding clarity, in the way that only confronting a problem whose answer lay in pure logic ever did. He dragged Niburu up, shoved him roughly toward the rover's doorway. "You'd better hope you're smarter than I think you are, pilot. Because if you're wrong, you're dead. We're all dead." TIAMAT: Carbuncle "Gods, what a relief to eat something ordinary again!" Tor Starhiker sighed as she stepped out of the small Summer eatery only two street levels above the docks. "I never thought I'd get hungry for fish stew again, but after eating Shotwyn's cooking for three years, sometimes I even get a taste for seahair. . . . One step down, Fate." "That was delicious." Fate Ravenglass found the step with her cane, and then her foot She took Tor's arm for guidance as they started out into the teeming foot traffic of the alley, most of it fisherfolk and deckhands in drab, heavy clothes, with 200 /oan D. Vinge a few brightly colored Winter merchants among them, picking over produce and goods just in from plantations along the coast. Tor guided Fate through the milling bodies with a skill born of long practice Anyone they encountered who noticed the trefoil hanging against Fate's tunic of faded periwinkle-blue gave way of their own accord. Fate clung to her wardrobe of exotic, aging offworlder clothes, most of them made of satin or velvet or other fabrics that were pleasant to touch. She didn't care what they looked like, she said, because she couldn't see them. She only cared how they felt; like old friends. "But I thought you loved Shotwyn's cooking," Fate said, sounding mildly astonished. "Isn't that why you went into business with him?" Tor shrugged. "Actually, I think I went into business with him because I thought he was so creative in bed." She laughed. Shotwyn Crestrider belonged to one of the Winter clans that had gotten rich from the offworlder trade, probably from the hunting of mers along their plantation coastline. Like all the rest, he'd been scrambling for a way to hold on to the past in the upside-down world after the Change. Her own restlessness had collided with his when she met him one day at the Sibyl College. He had been intrigued by her history as front-woman for an offworlder gaming hell; she had been intrigued by the seemingly endless variations on the theme of a man and a woman that he had picked up at the Snow Queen's court. She had also been impressed by his other hobby--imitating the styles of various offworld cuisines, using available native foods. Together they had opened a restaurant catering to nostalgic Winters whose sophisticated tastes had few available outlets left. He had provided the money and the artistry; she had provided the business sense--managing the restaurant, arranging with growers to raise whatever exotic herbs and spices they could reconstitute. She had even gotten Fate to let her use the Transfer to find new ways of creating certain dishes, as Shotwyn's own lifetime supplies of favorite seasonings were depleted. The result had been a perfect marriage of skills, if not personalities. "Now I know what they mean by 'cookin' lasts, kissin' don't.' " She sighed. "I still like his cooking--and so does everybody else; the place is doing great business He's got more ways to make fish taste and feel like something else than I ever thought possible, I'll give him that. But I was a deckhand for too long before I ran Persipone's, I guess; I never realized how much of the food I ate was 'native cuisine.' . . . I just thought it was food, plain and simple, and that's how I liked it That's still how I like it best. Shotwyn says I'm mired in the mentality of the underclass. Mired! How do you like that one? . . . Tram stop." She pulled Fate to a stop, raising her hand as the tram moved slowly toward them up the street. Fate chuckled. "I wouldn't have it any other way, myself," The tram pulled in and they got on board. "Damn right." Tor settled Fate and then herself on a length of wooden seat vacated respectfully by a pair of Summers. "But what the hell, the restaurant gives me something to do with my nights, now that Shotwyn doesn't. I mean, not that we never . . . sometimes we still get an itch, you know--" Fate smiled. "I think I have some idea, yes." Tor looked away from the Lower City's warehouses and stalls as they began to fade into the shops of the lower Maze. She looked back at Fate again. "Fate . . . you mind if I ask you a personal question?" "No--ask me anything." THE SUMMER QUEEN 201 "Why is it that you never . . . well, you know, with anybody? All these years I've known you, and there's never been anybody in your life that seemed to be special, even for a while." "Ah. That. Well, I was a sibyl long before I met you. And because the offworlders made everyone in the city believe sibyls were diseased lunatics, I couldn't tell anyone, or I would have been cast out--and half-blind as I was, even with my vision enhancer, 1 was terrified of that. And I was terrified of accidentally infecting someone, if we were that intimate , . . even though 1 was never sure how much truth there was in all the lies." "How did you ever even become a sibyl?" Fate had existed, under her nose and everyone else's, for decades--the only sibyl in Carbuncle. Fate sighed, folding her hands in the lap of her velvet skirt. "I was not quite twenty-two years old. It was the first Festival after the one when I was conceived, and my family being maskmakers, we had been working on masks for this Festival's Mask Night since I was a child. One day someone came to my shop. He wasn't a Summer, although he claimed that he was, that he had just come to the city for the Festival. ... He said that he was interested in my masks, and how I made them. He began to come by my shop every day. He'd sit and visit, and help me sort beads. I remember how I began to look forward to his visits, how I began to feel like a bird in flight whenever I heard his voice, or he touched me. . . . We spent the entire Festival-time together. And by the Mask Night, I was his chosen. In the darkness, I couldn't see his tattoo. I let him make love to me . . . and he infected me." Tor shuddered involuntarily, with a Winter's conditioned horror of contamination by a sibyl. She kept her hand steady on Fate's arm, somehow; hoping Fate would not sense her response. "He begged me to forgive him, afterwards . . . he claimed it was an accident. But he didn't speak or act like a true Summer. I think now that he was something else--from somewhere else. That he knew the truth about the sibyl network, that they needed someone, a fixed data port here in the city. That he knew exactly what he was going to do to me . . ." She turned her face away, as though she could see the expression on Tor's face, or could not be sure what showed on her own. "He stayed with me awhile; he taught me how to control the Transfer, just enough so that I could get by. Not the whole truth. And then he left me. He said the! he had to go back to Summer before someone discovered what he was. He left me there alone, with my terrible secret, and my masks. And I created a kind of mask for myself, from that day on, pretending that I was not infected. But I was always afraid after that, of . . . physical contact. Of betraying someone else, or being betrayed." Tor shook her head. "That bastard--" Her fists knotted; she took a deep breath, letting go of her useless anger. "But what about now?" She looked back at Fate, with the ache still deep in her chest. "You know the truth about what you are, and Winters don't hate sibyls anymore. You know how to protect yourself . . . or a lover. You could--" "No." Fate shook her head. "I've lived alone for so long, too long by now. I've grown to cherish my solitude. I'm not lonely, I'm not sad, my days are full of useful work and good friendships." She smiled in Tor's direction. "I'm content as I am." Tor grunted. "Maybe you've got a point. I can't say the same about myself. ..." They had reached the middle of the Maze, near the Sibyl College. "Do you want to stop off and see ... uh, visit the Shop?" she asked, suddenly 202 Joan D Vmge regretting the thought of their pleasant lunch ending so soon. Fate was far too punctual for her own good. "Oh ... All right." Fate nodded, looking pleased at the thought. "I haven't been there for quite a while." She didn't have to ask which Shop; there was only one that they spoke of that way. It had been one of Jerusha PalaThion's ideas for making their new technological creations more accessible: a block of former warehouses where there were displays and demonstrations and free samples available for whoever was willing to try something new. They left the tram at the entrance to Azure Alley, where the Shop was located, and made their way through the curiosity seekers to its open-fronted sprawl of stores filled with new or recently salvaged equipment. "Tor, is that juice seller still across the street?" Fate asked, lifting her head "I think I smell their fruit--" "Yeah. Do you want me to get you something?" "A large cup of the roseberry juice would be wonderful. Suddenly I'm dying of thirst." "Too much salt in the stew," Tor said, guiding her to a pillar where she could stand comfortably and wait. "I'll be right back." Tor crossed the alley, noticing with satisfaction that there appeared to be a reasonable mix of Winters and Summers in the crowd Once they'd gotten past the new idea of a Change that really meant something, the Summers--especially the younger ones--had slowly come around to other new ways of doing things Not even Summers really liked to go on stirring the seahair paddies by wading through freezing water on stilts, when a simple ng of wind-powered paddles would do it for them, and leave them free to go out in their fishing boats with lightweight, ultra-strong nets that would let them bring in twice their usual catch. She paid for the drink, went back across the alley and handed it to Fate. They started on, wandering in and out of displays, while she described them as well as she could, guiding the older woman's hands to objects she wanted to experience for herself. "Well, good day to you, Fate Ravenglass Winter," someone said behind them They turned together, recognizing the voice of Capella Goodventure, and the unmistakable coldness in it as she spoke the word "Winter." The truth about sibyls--that they were not strictly the province of Summer's Goddess--had not grown noticeably easier for the Goodventures' elder to bear, even after so many years. "Hello, Capella Goodventure," Fate said, with wry resignation, echoing the Summer woman's formal address but leaving off her clan surname. "Come to pick up a few handy appliances for your townhouse, Capella?" Tor said, pinched by irritation as she was left entirely unacknowledged. She immediately had all of Capella Goodventure's attention, and with it her hostility. "No, Winter. I've come to see what new perversions of our tradition are being insinuated into our world in the name of 'the Change' and 'the Lady's Will.'" Tor matched her frown. "If you love your summer traditions so much, why don't you go live on a plantation--or move back to the Lower City, with the rest of the Summers? You like your townhouse next to the palace well enough." Capella Goodventure stiffened. "I live where I do because it is tradition that I be near the Lady ... in case she ever has need of me. And she chooses to live in THE SUMMER QUEEN 203 H: the Snow Queen's palace." There was bitterness, and something that could have been regret, in her voice. "So you can keep on interfering in her life, you mean," Tor said sourly. "Why don't you face it--not even Summers want to live worse than they have to. There wouldn't be so many of them here looking, if they did. Even your holy sibyls know that, or they wouldn't all be working for the Queen." "Tor." Fate reached out to put a restraining hand on her arm. The abrupt gesture knocked over the roseberry juice sitting on the display table. Tor swore as the pink-red liquid splattered onto her pants. "They work for the Lady because she speaks for our Goddess as Her Chosen . . and as a sibyl," Capella Good venture said, "and they owe her their service, whatever they may think of the uses she puts it to." "Believe that if you want to." Tor turned away, wiping at her clothing, using the accident as an excuse to go in search of a sponge, or better company. She went back through the tables and displays toward the main entrance, where she knew she would find Danaquil Lu or Clavally. One or the other of them was always here, overseeing the operation--getting the Winters to think of sibyls as symbols of technological enlightenment, and at the same time reassuring the Summers in the crowd with their presence. They answered technical and personal questions for anyone who asked, with a patience that astounded her. But that, she supposed, was why they were sibyls, and she was not. She saw Danaquil Lu now, standing with his kinsman Borah Clearwater just inside the entrance. "Well, rot me, boy, I don't believe my eyes!" Clearwater was roaring like a klee in rut, as usual. Tor moved closer, wondering what the cantankerous old bastard was complaining about now. Clearwater put his hands on Danaquil Lu's shoulders, shaking his head "You're standing straight! It's a miracle--" Danaquil Lu shook his own head, smiling with his usual reticence. "No, Uncle, it was surgery. I finally had that operation." "Gods," Clearwater said. "And you survived? They must have gutted you like a fish--" "No," Danaquil Lu said, in good-natured exasperation. "That's why I waited so long, until-- Damn it, Uncle, I wish you'd listen when I try to explain these things to you." He lifted his shoulders in a shrug that would have been impossible three months before; a motion that said he knew further explanation was futile. "Look around you--" He waved a hand at the piled goods and workshops behind him. Tor saw Danaquil Lu's daughter Merovy, who had been stacking boxes with Tammis Dawntreader, put down her load and step between them. "You see, Uncle Borah," she said. "I told you it would happen." Clearwater looked at her, and at Danaquil Lu. His grizzled beard worked as if he were chewing tough meat. "Well, by all the gods, you look like a miracle to me, Dana ... I'm just glad to see you able to look me in the eyes again." He glanced at Merovy. "I'll even grant you that someone's made a difference that matters to me, Was time." Danaquil Lu smiled and nodded, putting an arm around his daughter, holding tar close before she slipped away. "It's all the difference in the world," he said softly. Where's Gran Selen? Didn't she come with you?" Merovy asked. "If she wants 204 loan D. Vinge to see Tammis and Ariele, she'd better come here!" She glanced at Tammis, who stood waiting, smiling at her, a half-forgotten box in his grip. Her face brightened, becoming beautiful under his gaze, as she saw his expression. "Well, you know that woman, she has a mind of her own." Clearwater made a face, his mustache bristling. "Says she doesn't want to see so much change in one place. Couldn't convince her to come. Let her spend time with Moon, if she can get it; she gets little enough of that. ..." "So, how are the wind-driven paddles doing for your seahair crop, Uncle?" Danaquil Lu said, pointedly changing the subject. "Good, good . . ." Clearwater raised his head, peering into the interior. "You know, Jakard Homestead was telling me something about a new sort of jury-rig that might get my pumps working again. Not that I believed him, but since I'm here, I suppose I might as well take a look at it ... just so I can tell him he's wrong." Danaquil Lu led him away, past a laughing cluster of Winter youths. Tor saw Ariele Dawntreader in the middle of them, the unmistakable fog of her milk-white hair drifting around her. She was, as usual, the supremely confident center of their attention, and not simply because she was the heir-apparent of the Summer Queen. At the moment she was letting Elco Teel Graymount wrap himself around her like a squin, her head falling back in melodramatic rapture. Tor looked away, unimpressed, back to where Ancle's brother Tammis was helping Merovy with her work. Merovy spent most of her time here, because her parents expected it; Tammis spent most of his time here because of her. But Ariele and her friends were here simply because it was the most stimulating spot in their limited world--just as it was for the other gawking kids who made up nearly half the crowd in the Shop. Tor smiled. "Merovy--" she called. Merovy glanced up. "I need something to mop up a spill." Merovy disappeared into the back of the store. Tammis nodded in Tor's direction, and went back to his work. He was the quiet twin, the thoughtful one, nothing like his sister. He seemed much happier here with Merovy, who was even quieter, than he ever seemed to be when he was surrounded by a crowd, as Ariele was just now. Tammis looked up again, at the sound of someone's laughter, and Ariele's voice called out something to him, unintelligible but rude. He frowned briefly as his sister and her friends moved toward him, and past him. Elco Teel looked back as they passed, and blew him a kiss. "Pass that along to Merovy!" he called and rolled his eyes. Tammis stared after them as they went out into the alley. Tor realized that he was still watching Elco Teel, and not his sister, and the expression on his face was not anger; was not one she would have expected to see at all. She looked away again, pushing curiosity out of her mind as Merovy came back with an armful of clean rags. "Where is it?" Merovy asked, looking away into the forest of equipment displays. Tor took the rags from her. "I'll take care of it." She carried them back through the store to the place where Fate waited, still talking to Capella Goodventure. Tor grimaced, feeling vaguely guilty for having left her trapped there so long. The spilled juice had spread in a lurid stain across the floor. She sighed, wishing she had asked for a bucket too. She opened her mouth to call out to Fate, to let her know rescue was at hand. THE SUMMER QUEEN 205 just then Capella Goodventure picked up an electric drill lying in a puddle on the table, gesturing animatedly, her face filled with disgust. ". . . another example of something that no one needs--" She reached for the power switch. "Don't--!" Tor shouted. Capella Goodventure turned, frowning, her hand still moving. Tor leaped forward, reaching Fate first, dragging her aside. They collapsed in an awkward heap, as the Goodventure elder pressed the drill's switch. Capella Goodventure's scream was high and shrill as the current from the drill grounded itself through her body into the pool of juice. The drill flew from her spasming hands, and she collapsed on the floor. "Tor!" Fate gasped, as Tor rolled off her. "What happened, what is it--?" "It's Capella." Tor crawled forward, squatted down beside the Summer woman's motionless body. Capella Goodventure's gray-blue eyes were wide open, staring up at her in unblinking accusation; her face was empty, her lips were rapidly turning blue. "Oh, gods." Tor swore, feeling for a heartbeat, for a sign of breaming; not finding them. She pushed her fingers into Capella's mouth, pulling her slack tongue forward; lifted her chin to clear the air passage. She took a deep breath, put her own mouth over the other woman's, forcing air down into her lungs, counting; sat up, leaning on Capella's chest, pressing, pressing, over her heart. Another breath into the other woman's lungs, more heartbeats, another breath. Dimly she was aware of Fate behind her, still calling, "Tor--? Tor--?" She was aware of the crowd gathering, of Danaquil Lu keeping them back from her. Another breath, more heartbeats, repeating it again and again, but still no response, still the empty eyes stared at her, unforgiving. "Come on--" she whispered. Another breath, more heartbeats. She shook Capella Goodventure's unresponding body, leaned on its heart again, again, forced air in through her open lips. "Come on, you self-righteous old bitch, you can't be this easy to kill! Come on, damn you, ruin my day!" She forced another breath into the other woman's lungs. A tremor ran through the body under her; it took a sudden, shuddering breath on its own, and the eyelids flickered. Someone was back, behind the staring eyes, looking up at her in amazement, and then in sudden outrage. Capella Goodventure took in another hoarse, painful breath. "What . . . what are you doing? Get away from me--!" Her hands rose, flailing. Tor sat back, away from her. Other hands were around the Goodventure elder now: Danaquil Lu, some of her own kin. "I ... touched that thing--" Capella Goodventure's eyes focused more clearly, filling with horror, as someone lifted her head. "She saved you," someone, a Summer, said. "The Winter saved you. You stopped breathing." The man who had spoken turned to Tor incredulously. "I think she was dead. How did you do that--?" She shrugged. "It's just rescue training. I learned it a long time ago. The offworlders taught it to people who worked on the docks. In case somebody had an accident like that ..." She saw the Summers look at each other with sudden speculation. She looked back at Capella Goodventure, seeing no gratitude in the other woman's eyes. "It doesn't always work, though." Capella Goodventure frowned, meeting her stare. "Do you think . . . could someone show us this?" another Summer murmured, avoiding Capella's eyes. 206 foan D. Vinge "It was one of the Winters' 'improvements' that nearly killed me," Capel|a snapped, gesturing at the fallen tool. "It was ignorance that nearly killed you," Tor said flatly. "There was nothing wrong with the drill. You turned the thing on when it was wet. If you knew anything at all about electricity you never would have done that. And you wouldn't owe your life to a Winter." Capella pulled free of the hands that held her, sitting upright on her own. "I am grateful to you, for that," she said, with obvious difficulty. "It would not be fair to deny you the thanks you deserve. But if we used the tools we have always made, ourselves, and kept the ways that have always been our salvation, such a thing would never have to happen. And there would have been no need for your 'offworlder training' to save me." She looked away again, her cold gaze glancing off the faces of her kin. Tor looked back at the cluster of Summers, seeing their guilt and embarrassment. "I've seen heart-and-breathing work on drowning victims, too." The Summers looked back at her, then. Every one of them. TIAMAT: Carbuncle "Oh-oh-oh! Oh no! You win!" Ariele Dawntreader pressed one hand over her mouth, smothering her ecstatic giggles as she watched the sapphire stone clatter and sing down through the labyrinth of the gaming sculpture and out one of its random openings into her brother's lap. "You have to give Elco heart-and-breathing!" She looked around the circle of their laughing, pointing friends at Elco Teel Graymount, as he flopped back onto the carpet with a bloodcurdling scream and began to twitch. He lay still, eyes staring, arms spread, while the young Winters around him snickered and poked each other, making noises in Tammis's direction. Ariele could see her brother blushing, Merovy's eyes on him as she sat beside him, clutching his hand. Even though she was some kind of cousin of Elco Teel's, Merovy always looked like a fish out of water when Tammis brought her to one of these parties. Ariele couldn't wait to see how she reacted when the red stone landed in her lap, or the blue one. "Come on, Tammis," Ariele called, unable to resist goading him. "Capella Goodventure's dying. You saw Tor Starhiker give her heart-and-breathing. Show us how it's done!" He pushed up from his place beside Merovy with a peculiar grimace and stepped over legs and bodies until he reached Elco's side. He kneeled down, looking into THE SUMMER QUEEN 207 Elco Teel's wide-eyed stare and expectant grin. He hesitated fora long moment, with reluctance showing in his own eyes. Ariele wondered what he was afraid of--or if it was only the memory of seeing the real thing that stopped him. He leaned over, lowering his face toward Elco Teel's. "No, no!" voices sang out. "Not like that--!" "Do it--!" He sat back, looking at them over his shoulder. "That was how she did it!" he said, annoyed, but knowing that wasn't what they wanted. Finally he swung a leg over Elco Teel and sat down on top of his stomach. The act of leaning forward forced his own hips back until their bodies seemed to be joined like two lovers. Whistles and clapping crescendoed around them as he put his hands against the sides of Elco Teel's face, and his mouth over Elco's mouth. He tried to end it quickly, raising his head; the cheering and laughter turned to mockery and protest. Ariele pushed to her feet. "Get off, Tammis, I'll show you how it's done!" She started around the circle; stopped as Elco Teel's arms abruptly trapped Tammis in an embrace and dragged him back down for a deep, wet kiss. She watched Tammis's body quiver, but to her surprise he didn't fight it the way she'd thought he would. She glanced at Merovy, saw the other girl staring at the two boys, her face confused and half-frowning. "Well, Tirady, look at this--I believe Elco Teel's found true love." Ariele glanced up, startled, to see Kirard Set Wayaways and his wife Tirady Graymount standing together in the wide entrance to the room, staring at them. Elco Teel let go of Tammis, who half fell off of him in his desperate attempt to get away. But Elco Teel's father only laughed, shaking his head as he came down the three steps into the room, casually unsealing his shining evening jacket. "Don't stop on my account, children. You know I find it delightful and amusing, when you play with my game set behind my back. And I'm sure it was all quite innocent really. ..." "We were just practicing heart-and-breathing, Da." Elco Teel rolled onto his side, propping his chin on his hand with a smirk that attempted to imitate his father's languid smile. "Like at the Shop today ... I was being the victim." Kirard Set raised his eyebrows. "You were being Capella Goodventure? Ye gods--or should I say, Lady's Tits--now that's depraved. Can you imagine, Tirady--having our child turn into a sanctimonious religious fanatic?" Tirady Graymount murmured something Ariele couldn't make out, that sounded bored and annoyed. She moved past him without looking at any of them, toward the angular cabinet that Ariele knew held their substantial supply of alcoholic drinks. Elco Teel said they also had a dwindling hoard of more exotic drugs left from before the Change; but even he didn't know where those were hidden. Tirady's movements were not too steady, and Ariele suspected she had had a lot to drink already. Maybe they'd argued, and that was why they'd come back so unexpectedly early. Ariele looked back at Kirard Set, glanced at Elco Teel, trying to guess whether the father was really angry or only amused; whether the son was actually as unconcerned about being caught in the act as he seemed to be. Their family fascinated her. They were so different from her own that they sometimes seemed more alien than the mers. But Kirard Set's attention was on his wife. He moved toward her as she pulled a bottle of local wine out of the cabinet, and tried to take it from her. She looked at "ini, with eyes as cold and pale as glacier ice, and he let his hand drop, shrugging. She moved away from him again, heading toward a doorway at the far end of the 208 Joan D. Vinge room. She stopped as she passed a mirror, and peered into it as if she were seeing into another dimension. She put a pale, slender hand up to her face, pressing her cheek, pulling the skin taut until the deepening line along her mouth disappeared. She took her hand away, frowned, and left the room without a backward glance, as if they had all ceased to exist. "Your mother is feeling old, tonight," Kirard Set murmured. He took out another bottle, and removed the stopper. He drank deeply, straight from its mouth, and came back across the room toward the now-silent circle of friends. He held the bottle out. Several of the wide-eyed witnesses shook their heads, picking themselves up from where they sat in various stages of embarrassment and awkwardness, saying that they had to go home. One by one the others followed. He made no move to stop them, and neither did Elco Teel. Merovy began to get up, and Tammis followed her. Ariele put out her hand, still standing where she had stopped when Elco Teel's parents arrived. Kirard Set handed her the bottle with a measuring smile; his glance traveled down her body and back up it again in a way that made her tingle with an odd pleasure--knowing that for once he had not looked at her as if he saw a child. He was a very handsome man, and he still looked young, even though she knew that he was actually very old, and like his wife, was beginning to show signs of it. She took a drink of the wine, careful not to take too much, knowing the burn of it would make her cough. She swallowed it with passable grace, and handed the bottle back to him. "Well done." Kirard Set smiled again, approvingly. "Ah," he said, "you look lovely in those colors, Anele. It takes me back to the old days, to see you standing there like that ... I even remember that outfit, how she looked when she wore it You look so very much like her, you know . . . more so every day. More even than your mother, because you have more of Anenrhod's spirit." "Arienrhod?" Anele said, uncertainly. She glanced down at her outfit. Among the endless possessions in the Snow Queen's closets, she had found things that she had made over to fit her. Her mother had never touched any of those clothes, had never even looked at anything there, as far as she knew. Her mother seemed to hate the thought of it, and frowned when Anele put them on, even though she never forbade her to wear them. Sometimes, perversely, Anele wished that they were forbidden, so that she could wear them anyway, and defy her mother's anger instead of her peculiar, distracted sorrow. All her Winter friends wore offworlder clothes, handed down, saved from Before . . . and she had fallen in love with the blazing beauty of their colors, the wonderful fineness and the exotic vaneties of the materials. She had wanted clothes like that--and she had found them. But did they actually make her look like a queen? She smiled, looking up again. "Of course," Kirard Set said softly. "As you should, since she was your grandmother." "What?" Ariele said. "No, my grandmother was a Summer. She died, I never met her ..." Kirard Set's eyes widened. "Gods," he murmured. "You don't know? Is it possible you really don't know?" He looked toward Tammis, who had stopped moving and was staring at him in equal curiosity. "Have you ever seen a picture of Arienrhod?" Ariele shook her head; Tammis shook his. "There was one in the bedroom on the third floor ... a painting of her." THE SUMMER QUEEN 209 "I remember that. I used to look at it when I was little. But that was a picture of my mother," Anele said. "She didn't like it, she had the servants put it away." Kirard Set laughed. "It wasn't your mother. It was her mother. Her real mother. It was Arienrhod . . . That's why she didn't like it." "That's not true," Tammis said, frowning. "Our mother's a Summer. And Gran is a Summer too." Anele waved him quiet. She sat down on the long, narrow reclining couch, pulling her feet up. "Are you making this up--?" she asked, meeting Kirard Set's inscrutable gaze, her eyes begging him to tell her that he was not. "Oh, no," he said, smiling again as he moved to take a seat beside her on the couch. "It's quite true, Ariele. Would you like to hear the whole, true story?" She nodded eagerly, looked back at her brother. Tammis hesitated, glancing toward the door. He still wore half a frown, as if he were afraid to hear this. But he sat down again, cross-legged on the carpet beside Elco Teel, who was stretched out with his chin on his palms. Merovy, who had been pulling surreptitiously at Tammis's hand, gave up and sat down beside him. Her habitual look of unease deepened. Kirard Set leaned back into the sloping corner of the couch, taking another drink from the decanter. "Well, all of this began long ago, long before either of you were even a gleam in your father's eye. ..." His smile twitched. "Arienrhod had been the Snow Queen ever since the Hegemony arrived at the last Change, and the Goodventures' Summer reign ended with a splash. She'd been Queen for nearly a century and a half, and she knew how the offworlders exploited us, manipulated us, kept us from our rightful equality in the Hegemony. She knew that when the offworlders left she'd be thrown into the sea, and Summer would drag us all back down into the darkness for a century again. So she decided to do something about it." Anele nodded, almost hypnotized by the lanquid flow of his words. "What did she do?" "She used the offworlders' own technology to have herself cloned--to have a perfect copy made of her, only her, with no one else's genes in the mix to weaken her resolve . . . several copies, actually. She had them secretly implanted in the bodies of Summer women who had come to the next to last Festival, who would go home to the islands none the wiser, thinking the child they bore was a merrybegot, the result of a Mask Night fling with a man they would never see again. Out of all the clones she had implanted, only your mother was perfect . . . and grew up raised by Summers, as Arienrhod intended, so that she would understand her people's ways when she came to rule in Arienrhod's place. Arienrhod was willing to die--she told me many times that she didn't want to live on in this miserable, half-dead world--as long as she knew that she would be reborn in the body of your mother." Ariele stared, her mouth open, unable to name the feelings inside her, since disbelief was not permitted to be one of them. "But how could she know my mother would become the new Summer Queen?" He shrugged. "She had become Queen. How could your mother not?" "How do you know about this?" Ariele said. "Does everyone know--?" Except me. "Of course not, dear child. Most of the Summers don't really know what Arienrhod looked like. Capella Goodventure saw her up close before she died, of course--saw them both together. It's one small reason why she and your mother don't 210 JoanD. Vinge get along. . . . Most of the Winters still think your mother actually is Arienrhod-- in the flesh, that is--that somehow she cheated death and the offworlders, and lived on and is still Queen. But a few--a very few--people know the real truth. Arienrhod and I were old, old friends. I was ... an intimate in all her most personal affairs." He raised his eyebrows, and Elco Teel sniggered, lying on the floor. "Does . . . does Da know about this?" Tammis asked, his voice sounding odd. Kirard Set chuckled and took another sip of wine. "Oh, he certainly does. Most of it never would have come to pass without him. He and your mother were childhood sweethearts, you know. When she became a sibyl he thought she had rejected him, and he ran away to Carbuncle." "What's that got to do with Arienrhod?" Tammis said. Kirard Set waved his impatience aside. "When Arienrhod learned Sparks was in the City, she had him brought to her, thinking she could use him to lure your mother to her, to get her to leave the islands and come to the city. . . . She sent a message to your mother, supposedly from him, saying he was in trouble. Your mother did come after him, because of course she still loved him very much. But she had the misfortune to be abducted offworld by technmners on her way here--or perhaps the good fortune, depending on your point of view; since she learned the power of her sibylhood, which even Arienrhod never dreamed of. But it took five years for her to get back, and in the meantime Arienrhod thought she was lost forever." "My mother has been offworld? With pirates--?" Ariele murmured, astonished by the secret lives her parents had led when they were hardly older than she was herself. She had scarcely even wondered what their lives had been like before she was born, imagining they had always been the way they were in her earliest memories: old, weary, obsessed with work and not each other. To picture her mother young, passionate, daring anything for her father's sake . . . and not even her own mother's child. Arienrhod's. Ariele blinked and shook her head, feeling giddy, tantalized, excited . . . frightened. "What about Da?" Tammis said again. "Did he think our mother was dead too?" "Yes, I'm afraid so." Kirard Set smiled again, with a rueful sympathy in his voice that was not reflected in his eyes. "Arienrhod made certain he did. He was almost inconsolable. ..." Ariele half frowned, not sure what he was saying, but only that something lay between the words that she did not understand. Elco Teel laughed. "But Arienrhod consoled him, for five years, right, Da--?" Ariele saw Tammis and Merovy turn to stare at him; realized she was staring at him too, with sudden comprehension. She looked back at Kirard Set. "You mean, my father . . . and the Snow Queen . . . were lovers?" Kirard Set's smile widened with what she almost thought was approval, as he saw that she understood. "Oh yes, Ariele ... it was inevitable. That they would both be Queen--that they would both fall in love with the same man. Arienrhod had fallen in love with him, just as your mother had--he was her favorite for five years She gave him everything he wanted . . . even the water of life." "Da . . . drank the water of life?" Ariele whispered. "But I thought . . ' thought ... he was a Summer." She remembered how the sight of mers always seemed to trouble her father, wondering suddenly if that was why. "And he was pledged . . . with my mother, for life." THE SUMMER QUEEN 211 "But he thought she was gone." Kirard Set shrugged. "And Arienrhod was there, and so much like her ... and Arienrhod was very good at getting what she wanted, just as your mother is. Come now, children--" he glanced away from the look on her face, to Tammis's, "surely you can understand, and forgive him, under the circumstances. Even in Summer a marriage--pledging--rarely lasts a lifetime. Everyone has the right to choose. Many Summers never pledge themselves to a single mate at all; they like variety. So do Winters. Arienrhod liked considerable variety, and your father learned to share her tastes. He developed quite a sophisticated palate, for a Summer. You have to understand, it was very difficult not to become intimately acquainted--not only with Arienrhod, but with her other favorites as well, when you were one of them. We were all so close--she encouraged it ... But of course she was always his first love, and he was hers. Perhaps it would even have been 'only,' under other circumstances." Ariele took a deep breath, realizing that her mouth had fallen open. She shut it, trying to hide the foolish, gaping incredulity of her expression before Kirard Set, or even Elco Teel, began to laugh at her. "What happened when Mama came back--?" Her voice was almost inaudible; she almost wished that she had never asked the first question, never heard any of this, at all, ever. Almost. "When she found out? What did they say?" "Only she and your father, and perhaps Arienrhod, know that." He took another drink, and held the decanter out to her. She took it from him, and took a large swallow, almost choking. The hot burn of the wine going down her throat felt punishingly good. "But of course your mother was not really in a position to pass judgment on your father. She had only just learned herself that Arienrhod was her real mother . . . and her exact double. How could she blame Sparks for falling in love with her, all over again, when he'd lost her once . . . And besides, they say there was a Kharemoughi Police inspector who turned renegade to help your mother here in the city. You have to wonder what there was between him and her, what kind of hold she had over him, to make an offworlder turn against his own people. Don't you--?" Ariele nodded, although she did not want to, biting her lip. She looked down, unable to meet anyone's eyes. "But you haven't asked me what happened between your mother and Arienrhod, when they finally met. That's the best part." Ariele looked up at him again. "What happened?" she asked faintly. "Arienrhod had made her new plans while Moon was away; she decided she would live on herself, after all. She'd planned to spread a plague that would kill all the Summers who'd come to Carbuncle for the last Festival--throw the world into chaos, so the offworlders would flee and she could keep her power." Ariele grimaced, but he only smiled and went on. "She didn't need your mother anymore . . . but of course she wanted her. How could she not--? She asked Moon to reign with her, share everything with her . . . even Sparks." "And my mother said no," Ariele murmured. "Obviously." Kirard Set nodded. "And then Arienrhod ordered her thrown into the Pit." Ariele gasped, in spite of herself. "That was when your mother performed her first 'miracle.' She stopped the winds in the Hall of Winds. I was there, I saw it myself . . . though to this day I still don't know how she managed it. I don't suppose she's ever told you how. . . . But no, of course not ... Anyway, then i ^1 212 Joan D. Vinge the renegade Blue came into the hall and rescued her from the mob. . . . And the rest, as they say, is history. Your mother won the mask of the Summer Queen. Arienrhod went into the sea as planned. Your parents were reunited, you were born . . . and you know all the rest." He lifted his hands in a graceful shrug of denouement. "What happened . . . what happened to the Blue?" Tammis asked uncertainly. "The gods only know." Kirard Set shook his head. "He left with the rest of the offworlders, I suppose. Jerusha PalaThion might be able to tell you; he must have been one of her officers. . . . I wouldn't pay any mind to the rumors, though." "What rumors?" Tammis said. "Oh, well. More complications ..." Kirard Set waved a dismissing hand. "Almost no one repeats that scurrilous garbage anymore, anyway. But some people used to point out that . . . well, that Sparks had been taking the water of life at the time of your conception during the last Festival--and of course it does make the user temporarily sterile." They both looked at him, stricken, through a silence that seemed endless. He laughed gently, at last. "Ye gods, it's only idle gossip. After all, the water of life was getting hard to come by, by the end of Anenrhod's reign. She'd begun cutting back on how much she allowed us to have--sometimes once a week, not once a day anymore, even for old friends like myself and Tirady. That's how we were blessed with our only son, over there." He gestured at Elco Teel. "He was a complete surprise, unexpected ... not unwelcome, don't misunderstand me ... but still an accident. It's quite reasonable to think that your father had become unexpectedly fertile again too." Ariele nodded dumbly. Kirard Set raised his eyebrows, and offered her the decanter once more. She shook her head this time, and got up from the couch. "I have to go now." "Us, too," Tammis said, getting up from the floor, holding Merovy's hand with painful tightness. Elco Teel rolled onto his back, his hands folded on his chest, gazing at them with a pale, inscrutable stare as they passed by him. "Safe home, children," Kirard Set called after them, and Ariele thought she heard laughter as she reached the front door. She frowned, in the darkened hallway ahead of Tammis and Merovy, where no one could see her. The three of them went out together, gathering in the street as the door of the Wayaways townhouse closed with finality behind them. "Why do you think he told us that?" Ariele said, her voice sounding thinner and more miserable than she wanted it to. "Because you asked him to," Tammis said, his own voice heavy with accusation. "Well, he was the one who said I looked like Arienrhod!" Ariele snapped. "He said she was my real grandmother!" "Mine too," Tammis said irritably. "Like it or not." "My father ..." Merovy broke in, her voice barely more than an insistent whisper, "says that Kirard Set would cut off his own ear, if he thought it would make someone else feel worse than he did." Ariele stared at her, looked away again. "Are you coming home? Are you going with me now?" she asked her brother, looking uphill toward the palace; trying not to THE SUMMER QUEEN 213 make it a demand, trying not to acknowledge that suddenly she didn't want to go back there, like this, alone. But Tammis shook his head, his mahogany-colored curls moving against his neck. "I want to make sure Merovy gets home all right." He glanced away, over his shoulder, as if Carbuncle's still-busy Street, with its unchanging artificial day, was suddenly empty and shadow-haunted. He looked back at her. "You can come with us . She frowned, tossing her head. "No, thanks. Don't let me get in your way--" she said sullenly, even though she had heard nothing but awkward concern in her brother's voice. She turned her back on them, and started on up the street. She didn't look back until she had reached the alabaster-white courtyard before the palace. Safe home . . . Kirard Set's farewell echoed in her memory like his mocking laughter She stopped, standing at the Street's beginning--or was it the end?-- looking toward the palace entrance that had let pass so much of her world's history; that had opened on the Snow Queen's domain, long before she was born. She imagined her mother passing through those doors for the first time, in search of her father . . . imagined her father going through those doors for the first time, into the arms of the Snow Queen. Arienrhod's home. Her mind tried to imagine her father in Anenrhod's arms, in Arienrhod's bed . . . the two of them doing things to each other she barely understood . . . doing things to each other she couldn't even imagine. Why had her mother wanted to live here, after Arienrhod had died? Suddenly she didn't want to live here anymore. Suddenly she wished that she had somewhere else to go, that she didn't have to go in through those doors, ever again. But if she went somewhere else there would be questions and explanations to face, and she couldn't bear that, even the thought of it. She looked down at the shimmering red-golds and blue-greens of her soft overshirt and pants, that had once been Anenrhod's own . . . her grandmother's, her other/mother's. "You have her spirit," Kirard Set had said. She lifted her head, straightening her back. She crossed the courtyard to the palace doors. The two constables who were always there on duty smiled at her and let her pass inside, her own face empty and unresponsive. She went on into the Hall of the Winds; stopped midway across the bridge that spanned the deep, green-glowing access shaft. They tried to throw her into the Pit . . . and she stopped the winds. She looked over the edge, cautious but unafraid, into the green depths that smelled of the sea; looked up again at the curtains hanging high overhead. / don't suppose she ever told you how--? Ariele looked back the way she had come. The renegade Blue came in and saved her. . . . Who knows what there was between them--? She hurried on, her face pinched with doubt. She made her way through the palace, oblivious to the servants' greetings; climbed the wide, curving stairs to the upper levels, searched the echoing halls until she found her father, in his study. She stood a moment looking in at him as he worked, stretched out on the segmented couch, humming faintly--an old folk song, she realized--and making notes on a noteboard. "Da--?" she said softly, at last, from the doorway. Sparks looked up, startled, and sucked in his breath. He stared at her for a long moment with an expression on his face that she had never seen before. "Da--?" she said again, uncertainly. I " 214 Joan D. Vinge "Ariele," he murmured, "what are you . . . doing here?" He shook his head slightly, as if he were shaking something loose, and sat up on the couch. She shrugged, looking down, suddenly not knowing what to say. "Are you all right?" He leaned forward, with concern on his face, putting aside the note board. She shrugged again, and came into the room. She sat down beside him on the sofa with her hands twined between her knees. "What is it?" he asked, touching her shoulder gently. She felt tears start suddenly in her eyes; fought them back. "Da ..." She looked up at him, finally. "Is Mama really Arienrhod . . . Arienrhod's clone?" He stiffened; his hand dropped away, giving her all the answer she needed. But he took a deep breath, and nodded. "Yes." "Why didn't she ever tell me?" The words burst out with more force than she had intended. "Why did she lie to me, why did she pretend that she had a different mother, and Gran, and--" "She didn't lie," Sparks answered, with quiet insistence. "Everything she s always told you was true. She just didn't tell you all of it, the whole truth." He sighed, his eyes growing distant. "She didn't even know it herself, all those years She couldn't have explained it to you, when you were little. But you shouldn't have had to hear it from someone else." He lifted her chin gently with his fingertips "What else do you need to know, An? I'll tell you anything I can." "Were you Arienrhod's lover?" She flung the question at him, before she lost her nerve. He flinched, and forced himself to keep looking at her. "Yes," he whispered His hands clenched silently on the silver leather surface of the couch. Ariele stared at his whitened knuckles, feeling her own hands tighten like two creatures locked in a death struggle. "And you drank the water of life with her." "Yes." The word was barely audible. "Is that why . . . why seeing the mers always makes you unhappy?" He nodded; but he looked away, as if there was something in his eyes that he didn't want her to see. "Who's been telling you all this--" His voice was rough "Elco's father." "Kirard Set?" His head came up again; his gray-green eyes were suddenly as bright as emeralds, and as hard. "What . . . what else did he say?" "That--" Ariele nearly broke off, seeing the stark pain in her father's face "That Mama loved another man too. An offworlder. And maybe . . . maybe you're not really even our Da." He put his arms out and pulled her to him, held her close, cradling her head against his chest, so that she could no longer see his expression, and he couldn't see hers. She felt a tremor of anger run through him. But this time he did not answer her Tammis stopped in the quiet alley in front of Merovy's townhouse, glancing toward the alley-end, where the smoldering night waited beyond the storm wall' forever held at bay. Merovy followed his gaze; looked back at him uncertainly. "P° you want to come in and . . . and talk?" He had not spoken more than two words to her on the way to her door. He kissed her suddenly instead of answering her, pulling her against him with THE SUMMER QUEEN 215 gentle insistence. She kissed him back, with no uncertainty now, wanning him with her warmth. They had kissed before, often enough, experimenting. But it had never made him feel the way it suddenly did now, her closeness somehow caught in the treacherous tangle of his emotions--the feel of her mouth on his, willing but uncertain, her body against him, the memory of the feel of Elco Teel's mouth and body, all too knowing; the images of his father and his mother, naked with strangers. He had always imagined that the way he was with Merovy, loving her almost since he could remember, had been the way it was for them; but now he wasn't sure, wasn't even sure . . . He broke off his kiss, letting go of Merovy almost roughly, pushing her back against the wall in the shadow of an overhanging balcony. She blinked her eyes, looking startled and then almost relieved. "Good night, Tammis . . ."she whispered, groping for the door handle behind her. She opened the door, and went inside. Tammis stood staring at the closed door for a long moment. Then he turned and headed back down the alley, pressing his fingers to his mouth. He walked the whole distance home, needing time to gather his thoughts, needing to walk off the emotions that filled him with a dark heat, like poison. He had tried once to ask his father about the new feelings stirring so urgently inside him; about his confusion, when they were stirred as easily by the sight of a boy's body as by a girl's But when he had tried to talk about his sexual feelings openly and honestly, his father had lectured him on the ways of the Summer islands, giving him definitions of what was acceptable that he knew from watching his city friends were impossibly rigid. When he had tried to ask if there couldn't be something more, his father had become furious, and ended the conversation. He had brooded over it, sure that he had failed to understand something his parents had always found obvious. He had told himself that the casual, indiscriminate sex he saw occurring more and more among his Winter acquaintances only mirrored the emptiness of their minds and the aimlessness of their spoiled existence. He still believed that, in his heart. And yet, tonight Kirard Set Wayaways had told him that everything he knew was wrong. . . . He reached the palace at last, and went directly to his father's study. He looked in at the door and saw his father alone, sitting on the edge of the silver-gray couch, with his head in his hands, his face buried--sitting as still as stone. Tammis watched him silently for a long moment; and then he turned away and went on down the hall. He found his mother at work with Jerusha PalaThion in another room. They looked up together as he hesitated in the doorway. "Tammis--" she said, with surprise plain on her face. He saw her glance away at the time, and back at him; saw Jerusha's gaze measure his expression. Jerusha finished the mug of whatever she had been drinking, and got to her feet. "Ididn't realize it was so late. We can try this again tomorrow. Maybe something will come to me in my dreams. ..." She smiled, weary and wry. His mother nodded, and looked back at him. Tammis could see the dark fatigue-circles under her eyes, as vivid as bruises against her pale skin. Jerusha went past him, still smiling as she looked at him and said, "Good night." But he knew why she was leaving so abruptly--giving him privacy, for whatever he had to say. "Tammis--?" Moon said again, her own face growing concerned. She held out her hands to him. He crossed the room and took them, felt her warm fingers squeeze his, the feel 216 oan D. Vinge of her touch, somehow still as calm and soothing as her kiss on his forehead when he was a child. He sat on the table-edge beside her, careful not to dislodge a pile of anything. "What have you been doing tonight?" she asked him, her voice mild; but he thought he saw a glimmer of doubt in her eyes. He had not disturbed her while she was working in years. He shrugged. "We were at Elco Teel's after the Shop closed. ..." "Did you see what happened to Capella Goodventure today?" Moon asked, half curious, half as though she wondered whether that was what was bothering him. Tammis nodded. "Elco Teel said it couldn't have happened to a better choice of victims." He smiled, a little guiltily; saw his mother's smile mirror his, equally guilty. "I'll never hear the end of it. But thank the Lady Tor saved her, or I'd never hear the end of that." She shook her head and rubbed her eyes. "I want to learn how to do that," he said, "what Tor did, I mean Everyone thought it was like doing magic." His mother's smile widened, and she nodded. He pushed up off the edge of the table again, feeling his resolution falter. "I just wanted to say good night. . . ." He glanced away as he said it, not able to face her as he spoke the words. "Nothing else?" His mother's voice caught at him like an outstretched hand, making him turn back. He looked at her, seeing her doubled in his mind: his mother ... the Snow Queen. "We were at Elco Teel's, and ..." And he told her, all of it, even about the offworlder Police inspector; unable to make himself meet her eyes when he repeated it ... afraid of what he might find there. She listened, holding herself as tightly as if she held something that wanted to run away; scarcely interrupting. He saw her whitening with anger, but knew, from her hand on his and the cold distance in her eyes, that her anger was not directed at him. "Why do you think Kirard Set told you all this?" she asked at last, her voice strained. Tammis looked away, shrugged. "I don't know. . . . Merovy said he'd cut off his own ear to hurt somebody else." "Yes," Moon murmured. "I think he would. He did it to hurt you, Tammis, and to hurt us all. I can't tell you why, exactly ..." although something in her voice told him that she could have. "But I can tell you, keep away from people like that It doesn't matter why they do what they do; it only matters that you know they will." She took her hand away from his; looked down at both her hands together on the tabletop. Her one hand touched the other, almost questioningly. "I am Arienrhod's clone, Tammis. But I'm not Arienrhod. . . . The woman who gave birth to me was Lelark Dawntreader Summer. Sparks--your father--" she said insistently, "and I grew up together on Neith, in the Windward Islands. Gran and my mother were our family. Maybe I was Arienrhod's clone ... but Arienrhod didn't raise me or feed me or sew my clothes or teach me right from wrong. Arienrhod didn't love me. . . . That's what makes someone your mother, or your father. That's what family is." She looked up at him, blinking too much. "And as for the rest of it ... the Change took care of that, at the last Festival. We all cast our sins into the sea, and the sea washed them away. That's what forgiveness is." He nodded, glancing down. "Do you think you can forgive me?" she asked softly. "And your father?" THE SUMMER QUEEN 217 He lifted his head, blinking hard himself; but he did not answer. He hugged her, feeling safe and certain for the brief moment that she held him, before he said, "Good night" again, and meant it this time. ONDINEE: Tuo Ne'el "Boss, I think we've got trouble." Kedalion Niburu called the words over his shoulder without looking back, not able to take his eyes off the screen in front of him. It showed him the unmistakable expanding diamond of a pursuit pattern forming in their wake--at least half a dozen craft, still beyond sight but closing rapidly with their own. "Who is it?" Reede dropped into the seat next to him, peering out with bloodshot eyes across the living-death landscape. Tuo Ne'el had been sliding past below them for several hours now; gradually lightening into the visible as they caught up second by second with the day. Kedalion had never thought he would be glad to see that view again; but, until he had done this last scan, it had almost seemed like he was coming home. They had been in flight for nearly twelve hours straight, coming directly off their landing at an obscure shipping field halfway around the planet, flightlagged and exhausted to begin with. But Reede had ordered it, Reede had not explained why, Reede had simply wanted it done, that way, in secrecy with faked codes and no rest at all. . . . And Reede was swearing now, as Kedalion pointed at the displays, letting him see trouble for himself. "Whose are they?" His own hand moved over the control boards, querying, reconfirming, as if he thought he could somehow find a better answer But it was an impossible question. "I don't know," Kedalion said, "except they're not Humbaba's welcoming committee. They don't respond to any of the codes, and they aren't talking. I've tried all the usual frequencies." "Shit. Shit!" Reede hit the panel with his fist, making some system bleat in protest "We covered our tracks coming in. How could the Blues have figured it--?" He shook his head. "It can't be the Blues. They'd just nail us from upstairs." He frowned, rubbing his face. "How far are we from Humbaba's?" "About ten minutes." "Can we get there first?" "Don't think so." "Are we transmitting a distress code?" Kedalion looked up again, facing Reede's expression with an effort of will. His 218 Joan D. Vinge own face felt paralyzed. "No one's answering it, boss," he said. "Seems like nobody's home." "That's insane," Reede snapped, reaching for the comm. He stuffed a remote into his ear, sent out the same call, without even looking down. He got the same results: No answer. Nothing at all. Dead silence. His hand fisted on the panel, Kedalion felt his own hands beginning to sweat. "You think they're jamming us?" Reede touched the images on the screen. "No. We'd get a reading off their beam." "By the Render--" Reede tugged at his ear, his eyes searching the featureless horizon for a sign of their pursuit, a sign of salvation. "Get me remote visual on the citadel, as soon as you can." "Boss . . ." Kedalion hesitated, remembering the mysterious meeting he had stumbled on before their departure for Number Four; remembering that Reede had told him to forget it. "Is there anybody else who can help us?" Reede looked sharply at him; but then he sat back in his seat, actually seeming to consider the question. "Not close enough. Not that I trust. Not with what we're carrying. Try the citadel again." Kedalion tried it. No results. "Try our tail again." He ran a call all up and down the open frequencies. No answer. "You think they want our cargo?" He glanced into the rear of the hovercraft, where Ananke lay slumped across a seat in blissful ignorance, sound asleep. Concealed beneath the seat there was a heavy, unlabeled container--with the key to the universe locked inside it. "That's my bet." Reede nodded. "But why--? The only ones who could possibly know I'm here and what we've got know I'm bringing it home for them." He shook his hair back from his eyes; a muscle in his cheek was twitching. "I thought Humbaba sent us--" "No." Reede looked at him suddenly, with cold disgust. "Humbaba did not send us. Humbaba doesn't know shit. ... I don't like this, gods, I don't. . . . Get the citadel on visual." He pointed straight ahead. Kedalion could see nothing. Wondering whether Reede actually could, he upped the resolution factor on the forward visual. A segment of their view appeared in abrupt magnification, showing him the distant spire of Humbaba's fortress, rising like a beacon from the gray sea of impenetrable scrub. He heard Reede suck in a long harsh breath of relief, let it out again as he saw the citadel still intact. "Why don't the) answer?" he murmured. "Unless someone'scut their entire power system . . . and that means no protection." His knuckles showed white on the panel. "Try them again!" he said. Kedalion repeated the callcode automatically. As he input the final digit a gout of flame rose from the image on the screen. ^ ball of white light expanded outward, filling the magnification segment, spilling over into their realtime view, blinding them even through the protected shield of the dome Kedalion swore, shutting his eyes. Reede cried out, a sound that was more like despair than pain, as his hands flew up to his face. An explosion. As his own vision cleared, it let him see that the white light *& fading ... let him see what it had done. Where there had been an impregnable, shining tower on the sullen plain, there was now twisted wreckage, a splinter of rum glowing cherry-red, flickering with the starpoint flares of secondary explosions. THE SUMMER QUEEN 219 I. "What . . . what . . . ?" Ananke groaned, stumbling forward from the back seat. "What happened-- Hallowed Calavre!" He stopped, clinging to the seatbacks, gaping in disbelief at what showed ahead. A black shroud of smoke had begun to conceal the ruin, as the thorn forest ignited like a funeral pyre. Kedalion could see the forest blazing up now in explosions of its own as petrochemicals caught fire in bark and leaves, setting off a holocaust that would torch the plain for thousands of hectares in all directions. Beside him Reede stared, motionless, his face devoid of any expression, as if his mind had gone completely somewhere else. He twisted the ring he wore on his thumb. Kedalion looked away from the emptiness of his eyes. The shockwave of the explosion hit them, the hovercraft shuddered and bucked, dumping Ananke on his butt. Kedalion used voice and hands to reintegrate their stabilizers and speed with desperate efficiency. He looked up and out again--saw one of their pursuers glide forward into visual range, pacing them easily as he pushed the hovercraft's speed to its limit, racing fate toward a destination that had suddenly ceased to have any meaning. He looked down at the specs reading out now on the screen in front of him. Each of the pursuit craft around them was a flying armory. "Reede Kullervo!" The voice burst out of the comm, through the linkage of Kedalion's headset, making him wince. Reede jerked as if he had been shocked. Kedalion saw expression come back into his face. "I'm here," Reede said, his voice toneless with barely controlled rage. "Who did this, you shit-eating cowards?" "We are talcing control of your craft's operating systems," the voice said, as if it hadn't heard him. "Tell your pilot to activate override sequence." Kedalion glanced at Reede. Reede said nothing. "We are armed. Activate override or we will shoot you down." "Copy. Activating override sequence," Kedalion said, when Reede still did not answer. Maybe Reede figured this was as good a day to die as any ... he ususally did. But Kedalion Niburu at least wanted to know who wanted him dead before he took a direct hit. Reede's expression was like the edge of a blade; but he made no move to stop anything as Kedalion let their escort take over the ship's controls. Kedalion lifted his hands from the board in a shrug of resignation, watching data shift as they changed direction and speed. Ananke was on his feet again, peering over Kedalion's shoulder in stricken silence as they flew on over the thorn forests, the blasted citadel and the raging wildfire falling away behind them like the past. There was no more radio contact from their escort; they flew on in helpless silence. Ananke didn't ask again what had happened. Kedalion decided that either he'd figured it out for himself, or he didn't want to know. He sat down again in the back, stroking the quoll, staring out at the rearward view until there was nothing left to see. Kedalion tried a few queries of the boards, the databanks. Nothing at all had been left under his control. He couldn't even change the time on the clock. He drummed his fingers impatiently on the panel; shoved his hand into his pocket. His fingers closed over the huskball. He pulled it out, rolling it from hand to hand, comforted by the motion and its shabby familiarity. "Can you get a fix on where we're going?" Reede asked. Kedalion looked up, and shook his head. "Can't get a damn thing out of the banks. And it doesn't look like we're flying a straight course. Reede--" L 220 Joan D. Vinge "Shut up," Reede said. "Shut up, Niburu." Kedalion shut up. After about two hour's flight time he began to see the spine of another tower gleaming like a needle in the late morning sun. He wanted to ask whose citadel it was, but he didn't. If Reede knew, he didn't bother to share the information. A port blossomed in the fortress wall as they approached. Kedalion felt the invisible hand of a docking beam close over their craft, sucking them unerringly, inescapably into its waiting mouth. Guards were waiting too, as they settled into a dock with a stomach-dropping lurch. Kedalion saw them peering in warily through the dome. The doors popped without his asking: an invitation. "Let's not keep them waiting ..." Reede said. His voice was full of broken glass. He got to his feet, flexing his fingers like a man with a cramp; Kedalion was relieved to see that he made no move toward any of the weapons he carried. "What about--?" Kedalion jerked his head at the rear of the craft, where the container of stardrive plasma lay concealed under the seats. Reede shook his head, with a leave it gesture. He stepped outside. Kedalion followed, reluctantly, glancing back at Ananke. Ananke was looking at the quoll, looking around, as if he was trying to decide whether his pet would be safer with him, or without him. "Bring it," Kedalion said softly. "The gods only know if we'll ever even see this again--" He gestured at the hovercraft. Ananke nodded, tight-lipped, and went ahead of him out the door. Guards moved in on them, searching them by hand and with detectors, with rough efficiency. They had already relieved Reede of an assortment of weapons Kedalion noticed that Reede's solii pendant--the one he always wore, the one Kedalion had seen once on half a dozen ill-met strangers in a bizarre back-alley meeting--was dangling free. The solii's shimmering, hypnotic light looked strikingly out of place against Reede's nondescript gray coveralls. For once he made no effort to conceal it, wearing it with an almost defiant insouciance. The guards watched him the way they would watch a wild beast, as if his reputation had preceded him Kedalion felt surprise, and then a wary relief, as he realized they were making no move to put binders on anyone. Someone entered the docking bay, coming toward them, moving with a ruthless confidence that said he carried some power. The guards looked up at him, and moved out of his path. They were the usual mix of on- and offworlders, wearing the same pragmatic assortment of clothing that Kedalion saw all the time in the streets of Humbaba's headquarters. The man coming toward them now was no more formally dressed. There was no way to guess who any of them worked for, nothing but the new arrival's manner told Kedalion that he was in charge. He was close to two meters tall, and heavily muscled. Dark curly hair, dark upslanting eyes . . . Kedalion figured he was Newhavenese. He stopped in front of them, looking Reede over while a smile pulled up the bum-scarred corner of his mouth. "Well, Reede Kullervo. Glad you made it." He held out a hand. Reede wiped his own hands on his pantslegs in response, his eyes glittering "You're not the Man," he said. "And you're not glad to see me." Kedalion couldn't tell whether Reede actually knew the Newhavener or not. "I heard you were smart," the big man said, with the same sour smile. He Id THE SUMMER QUEEN 221 his hand drop. "Fucking brilliant, in fact. I guess that's why the Man wants to see you about a job." Reede gave a bark of sardonic laughter. "He wants to work for me?" Head shake. "He heard you lost your patron. Dangerous, being who you are, and without a patron." "He maybe have something to do with that?" Reede said. "Yeah. Maybe." The Newhavener's grin widened maliciously. "You've been offworld a long time, Kullervo. That's dangerous too. Things change." Kedalion sensed more than saw Reede's breathing become quick and shallow. "Whose cartel is this? Where am I?" he asked, and Kedalion knew it had cost him to ask that. The big man's expression got uglier. "You'll see," he said. "You're gonna love it here, Kullervo." "Okay," Reede murmured, his voice rasping. "The Man wants to see me, where is he--?" "Follow me." The Newhavener turned and started back the way he had come, his boot heels ringing on the catwalk. They followed him, six guards moving with them like their own shadow. Kedalion resisted the urge to look back, at the hovercraft, at the priceless cargo still hidden beneath the back seat, lying in a bucket like yesterday's lunch; at his last glimpse of the open air, and freedom, maybe forever. The Newhavener took them for the three-credit tour, transporting them deep into the citadel's city-size entrails by ways and means that were guaranteed to ensure they'd never find their way back out again alone. They stepped out of a final dizzying lift ride, into an airy, open space that made Kedalion blink with surprise. One wall let in actual daylight ... or maybe it was a holo, he couldn't be sure. If it was genuine, they were high up in the air, though he'd been sure they were working their way downward. "The Man--" their guide said, gesturing across the wide expanse of shining floor toward a sealed door. A small garden spilled out into the open space beneath the windows; he heard the sound of dripping water. Surrounding it was what looked like the waiting room of some successful merchant co-op, filled with incongruously normal seats and tables. "After you, Kullervo." Reede took a deep breath, and started across the room toward the featureless door. Kedalion followed, with Ananke close on his heels. Midway across the room the Newhavener cut effortlessly between Reede and his men, forcing Kedalion to stop. "Have a seat--" he suggested, looking down at Kedalion. Kedalion stood where he was and looked toward Reede. Reede turned back, and Kedalion was glad that what showed in Reede's eyes was not directed at him. Reede looked up at the Newhavener, down at Kedalion and Ananke. "Wait here," he said, his voice coolly arrogant, as if the other man had not even spoken. "This shouldn't take long." Kedalion nodded, trying to match the confidence of Reede's manner as he moved toward the seats, knowing he was not succeeding. He knew Reede was nervous, even afraid, but Reede was burning now with the murderous intensity that made anyone with a shred of sanity get out of his way. Reede Kullervo might be a madman, but for once Kedalion was glad to be working for him. Maybe they'd even Set out of this alive. He almost felt sorry for whoever was waiting beyond that door, 222 foan D. Vinge planning to make Reede an offer he couldn't refuse. He managed to pull himself onto the couch with something like dignity, managed an encouraging smile to answer the unspoken question in Ananke's glance. Ananke looked away again, through the ring of guards toward Reede. They watched the door go transparent, watched Reede disappear through it. And then they waited. Reede stepped through the doorway into a featureless box. The security door rematerialized behind him, sealing him in before he had time to realize that there were no other exits. He spun around, getting a mild shock through his hands as they hit the screen, making it spark. Inside of a heartbeat it was as solid and featureless as the other three walls, the ceiling, the floor. A trap. Reede turned back, searching the room with his eyes. A perfect, featureless cube. He clenched his teeth over the sudden urge to cry out, to throw himself against the walls like a panic-stricken animal. But the part of his brain that always seemed to be under someone else's control held him motionless, pointing out to him that there was light here, which meant that there was probably full life support and fresh air; there had been a way in, which meant that there was a way out. It could even be some kind of lift, although he couldn't detect any motion. They didn't want him dead, at least not yet, and probably not at all. They just wanted him softened up a little. He leaned against the wall, fingering the jangling piece of jewelry hanging from his ear, and forced himself to relax, in case he was being monitored, which he probably was. He should be grateful: They were giving him time to think. He still had no idea who held him. All they'd said to him was, You've lost your patron, and that meant Humbaba. They'd talked like he was going to be working here, a simple survivor-claiming, a change of employers, but not careers. They hadn't even asked him about the stardrive. Maybe they didn't know. . . . Except whoever it was claimed that they'd dropped the lightning on Humbaba's tower, right in front of his eyes, perfectly timed to his arrival. That meant they had somehow been able to shut down all its support systems first, leaving it without even communications, and utterly defenseless against the attack. And they had known exactly when he was arriving, how, from what direction. All of that screamed power, more power than any single cartel involved in a takeover struggle with Humbaba should have access to. It was only the existence of that higher power that let the cartels coexist here as successfully as they did. There were skirmishes, hijackings, ambushes. But when an entire citadel went out, it was something bigger. ... It meant somebody had tried to cross the Brotherhood. But he was the Brotherhood-- He touched the solii pendant that Mundilfoere had given him. He knew its significance, knew why she had told him to wear it always. Mundilfoere . . . Not letting himself think about what he would do if she had been in the fortress when it went up, caught inside that blinding ball of light, incinerated . . . Gods, a man could go crazy trying to figure it out! Go crazy '" here ... He wasn't going to work for whoever was doing this to him ... he was going to kill the son of a bitch, with his bare hands. He was sweating; was it realK warmer in here, was the air really getting thicker, heavier, harder to breathe, l&e being underwater-- "Come on, motherfucker--" he muttered, beginning to twitch He forced himself to stop it, to curb the insane energy singing inside him. Save " Save it, damn you. . . . I THE SUMMER QUEEN 223 The lights went out. No--! He almost screamed it, but the still-sane fragment of his mind that had kept him calm until now closed its hand around his throat, forced him to stand perfectly still in the middle of the utter blackness, his head up, his hands motionless at his sides. Wait. Wait. ... He became aware of his own breathing, the way his heart was pounding, the blood rushing inside his ears. All his senses began to run wild, overreacting to the absence of stimuli. Did he really hear the sound of two people breathing? Gods, what was that smell in the air--not stateness, not his own sweat, it smelled like something rotting. . . . He was beginning to see things, to believe that he actually saw a glow like almost-dead embers on the wall ahead of him. He reached out, stretching his hand toward it--lurched forward as he discovered that the wall was no longer there. Groping around him, he realized that there were no walls at all anymore; that the room he had been trapped in had disappeared. He was suddenly lost in a much larger room, a formless blackness like the space between the stars. But the glow he had seen was real. It had become barely bright enough to let him believe in it, even though it was too dim to give him any real information. He started toward it, having no better guide . . . took three steps, and stumbled as his feet caught on something. He sprawled headlong onto a hard, slick surface that felt like ceramic tiles. He pushed himself up on his hands and knees, his body and the remains of his confidence bruised and shaken. Something was still caught under his feet--whatever he had fallen over. He reached around, fumbling blindly until he could touch it. Cloth. An odd-shaped, rumpled mound of it, like somebody had kicked aside a rug . . . Like somebody had left a corpse lying there. That smell. Gods, was this--? Shit--.' He jerked his hand away, scrambled to his feet, before any part of his body could accidentally discover too much about the mound. And froze, suddenly certain that he had heard faint laughter. "Who's there--?" His voice shook, telling whoever it was too much about how well their plan was working. "Turn on the lights, damn you. Talk to me!" Echoes of his own voice came back at him, were all that he could hear, distorted by surfaces he could not imagine the forms of. "I prefer the darkness," a voice said, a voice which sounded like something that had been torn physically out of its owner's throat, the words striking him like gobbets of flesh "It's so much more revealing. . . . Everyone is naked, in the dark." Reede froze, not even breathing; staring into the blackness with every nerve ending of his body. "You . . . ?" he whispered. Trying to make out a form against the dull red ember-glow ahead of him, trying to make himself recognize a human shape in the silhouette he could now barely detect against the light. But he didn't need to, knew already that it would be impossible. He felt his guts turn to jelly. The Source. That was what Thanm Jaakola called himself, that was whose citadel he had come to be held prisoner in. Jaakola's cartel was one of the strongest, their drug production and distribution network had outlets on every world in the Hegemony. But Jaakola was more than simply a bigtime narco. He was one of the Brotherhood, and even Reede had no idea how far, how deep, his real power extended. Reede peered into the darkness again, blinking compulsively. Rumor claimed Jaakola needed the darkness because there was something wrong with him, that light hurt his eyes, that he had some hideous, disfiguring disease. Reede had never believed it, had always figured it was a lie, a disguise, so that the Source could be anybody he wanted to be, and nobody would know. But now, lost here in the 224 Joan D. Vinge darkness, with only that misshapen mound of blackness ahead of him . . . now suddenly, he wasn't so sure. What was that smell--was it whatever was lying on the floor, was it his imagination, or was it . . . was it--Stop it! Don't even think about it. "Come closer, Reede. There is a seat here by me. No need for you to stand." It was a challenge: Jaakola sensing his fear, daring him to get closer. Anger and old resentment goaded him forward. He moved with painful caution this time, testing the space ahead of him with each step; afraid of finding another trap, a corpse, a gaping pit. He found an unexpected step up, navigated it without falling on his face, and abruptly encountered the padded outline of what seemed to be a chair. He groped his way around it and sat down, after first exploring the seat and back thoroughly with his hands. "You must be exhausted after your long, arduous journey," Jaakola's disintegrating voice said. "Congratulations." For a moment Reede actually wondered whether Jaakola meant his journey back from Four, or the journey here to his seat. "You have been completely successful on behalf of the Brotherhood, I see." "You see?" Reede repeated, picking his words as carefully as he had picked a path across the room. "We have the container of stardrive plasma that was hidden in your craft. A brilliant coup, how you stole it right out of the Kharemoughis' hands--and you even brought us a stardrive unit! The name of the Smith will soon be legendary among the agents of Chaos. Perhaps you really do deserve to be called the new Vanamomen. . . . Taking the plasma home to your beloved Mundilfoere, were you?" Reede felt the hatred inside the words close around his throat and squeeze. "Any reason 1 shouldn't?" Focusing his own white-hot rage, he managed, somehow, to ask the question without his voice betraying him again. "You know I'm a member in good standing--I wasn't trying to hide anything from anybody but the Blues. I sent Mundilfoere word, I said call a Meeting first thing. Why the fuck am I here with just you? And why shouldn't I want to go home?" "Perhaps the fact that you no longer have a home to go to . . . ?" The shadow against the darkness moved insinuatingly. Reede's fingers dug into the chair arms as the fireball went off again inside his memory, incinerating the citadel before his eyes. He let go, abruptly, as something about the consistency of the chair itself made his flesh crawl. "Goddamn you--" He broke off. "If Mundilfoere was--" "She was not present when we took out the citadel," the ruined voice murmured gently. "Rest assured." Reede sank back into the chair's suffocating softness, as his rigid muscles let go. "Then, why--?" "To prove a point, shall we say? To dispose of the middleman. To demonstrate my eagerness to have you as a member of my personal operation. To let you and every little operator out there in the thorn scrub see what real power is ... and to give the outer world a reason for my claiming you, a tragically patronless biochemist, to do service with me." "That's crazy," Reede muttered. Nothing he had heard so far made any sense--it only got progressively more maddening. He wondered suddenly if Jaakola was actually insane, or was simply playing with him. "You know Humbaba's was my THE SUMMER QUEEN 225 safehouse, the place where I ran my labs. We had an agreement--I kept him well-supplied and he didn't ask me any questions about my real work. He wasn't even Survey--" "He was Mundilfoere's pet horror." Jaakola sniggered with sardonic amusement. "We both know who made him as successful as he was . . . who was the real Man at Humbaba citadel. But now that the Brotherhood has the stardrive plasma, our precocious Smith needs facilities appropriate to the task of developing the new technology. What better place than here? The Source and the Smith, in perfect symbiosis. You don't have to play any loyalty games with me. ... I exist on both planes, just as you do. I have the contacts, the tech base, the resources--everything you'll need. . . . You can call me 'Master.' Everyone does." "Kiss my ass," Reede said. "You don't tell me what to do. I don't see any Survey meeting here, I don't see any voting quorum. It's just you and me, Jaakola, equal votes." "There is no need to call a Meeting. This matter was settled among the Brotherhood well before you returned." "What are you talking about?" Reede snapped. "Mundilfoere would never--" "You were gone a long time, Reede. Things change--alliances, fortunes, balances of power. And you do not have an equal say in Brotherhood matters. You never did. You weren't Humbaba's possession . . . you were Mundilfoere's." Reede shook his head, feeling as if he had been expelled into sudden vacuum "That's a lie." "Do you actually believe you ever really functioned at the same levels I did? Or even Mundilfoere? Did she actually let you think that? Yes, you were elevated to the inner circles; you were even raised to the tenth level, at Mundilfoere's urging. But you have no idea how many levels there are still above you--or even the slightest idea of what goes on there, far, far over your head. Humbaba was Mundilfoere's tool, she used him well . . . just as she used you." "Fuck you." Reede tried to push up out of his seat--and could not. He tried again, throwing all his strength against whatever invisible bonds held him there; felt his muscles wrench with the effort, getting nowhere. He fell back again. The pressure eased as he stopped resisting. "You were always her favorite tool, Reede," Jaakola went on, as if he had noticed nothing. "Her other pet: the clever one, the pretty one . . . She made you herself, Reede--out of stolen pieces. There is no Reede Kullervo. Once there was. But he's gone now. You're not a man, you're a brainwipe: nothing but the biological receptacle for the embers of a great flame. And even that heat is unbearable, it's burning away what's left of your mind. ..." "You bastard, damn you--" Reede jerked forward again, into a wall of self-inflicted pain; unable to reach Jaakola, unable even to cover his own ears. Every time he struggled, the invisible bonds tightened. "You don't believe me--?" the voice said, wounded. "Tell me about yourself. . . . What did you enjoy doing, as a child? What was your family like? Where were you educated? After all, when you came to Humbaba you had knowledge a brilliant master biochemist couldn't have discovered in a lifetime ... but you were barely seventeen years old. How? How did you do it? Don't you ever even wonder about that?" "I know who I am!" Reede said hoarsely. 226 Joan D Vinge "Then answer the questions. ..." Jaakola waited, and the silence stretched Reede's mind echoed with whispers and cnes, the stray fragments of a puzzle that had long since been jumbled and thrown away. "Or can't you?" He chuckled, water going down a dram. "Mundilfoere!" Reede shouted, crying out for her to bridge the pit of bottomless terror that had suddenly opened below him. "I want Mundilfoere here!" "Of course you do," the Source murmured, "to stroke you and make love to you until you forget, to tell you it doesn't matter, to try to keep you sane until you've served our purpose. You love her more than your own soul, don't you? You should . . . she took your soul away from you." "She loves me--" "Yes ..." Jaakola murmured, "I believe she did. But then, she was a woman--weak, flawed, for all her brilliance. A foolish mistake, to fall in love with her victim . . . an inevitable mistake . . . a fatal mistake. She wouldn't give you to me, even to save herself." Reede felt his heart stop. "No. You said she wasn't at the citadel--" "She wasn't." The Source's shapeless bulk shifted. "I said she wasn't there . . . but I didn't say she was still alive." "I don't believe you." Reede pushed the words out between bloodless lips. Sweat crawled down his cheek, but he couldn't wipe it away. "Things changed, while you were away--as I said. Power shifted ... to me. Destiny delivered her into my hands . . . and with her, you. I had waited a long time, for her, for you. She took a very long time to die ... I saw to it personally." "I don't believe you," Reede whispered again, shutting his eyes. "It isn't true. Mundilfoere will come for me, she won't let you hold me here. ..." "You want Mundilfoere? More than your soul? More than life itself?" "Yes. Yes--" Reede said, grasping at futile hope like a drowning man; not caring what Jaakola wanted in return, willing to give him anything he asked for to make the unbearable untrue. "Anything you want. Anything--" "Then have her . . ."the Source whispered. "What's left of her." Reede felt something drop into his lap; something very small. He looked down, blind in the darkness, unable even to move his hands to touch it. He began to tremble helplessly. A thin beam of brilliant white light lanced out of the darkness in front of him, striking the crotch of his pants, illuminating what lay there. Reede blinked, dazzled by the brightness; forced himself to look down at it, dizzy and sick. A human thumb. The dried blood crusting it was almost the same darkness as the desiccated skin. And still circling the meaningless stub of flesh and bone was a ring of heavy silver, set with two soliis. The ring he had given to Mundilfoere before he left, a marriage troth. Reede screamed, a raw soul-deep cry of agony and loss, that went on and on, until at last he had no voice at all left to scream with. And that was when the single beam of light went out. When there was nothing left in the black silence but the sound of his sobbing, the Source's laughter began. And when that was finished, the Source said, "I waited a long time for this, too, Reede. To hear you scream like that. You arrogant, strutting piece of garbage, calling yourself the Smith, wearing the genius of the ages in your brain and thinking it was THE SUMMER QUEEN 227 your own. Acting as if you were our equal--believing it, when you were nothing but her creature. I only wish that she could have heard you scream . . . that you could have watched me take her apart." Reede groaned, a mindless, animal noise of grief that echoed in the blackness. The Source made a low sound of satisfaction. "I knew there was nothing 1 could do to your body that would hurt you this much, and let you go on living. And you will go °n livmg. Reede. You're my creature now. ... I have great plans for our symbiosis. You'll breed the stardrive, I'll control its spread, causing the Kharemoughis the most inconvenience possible and bringing the Brotherhood the most influence possible. And when the time is right, you will return with me to Tiamat, and give us the water of life--" "I'll die first," Reede whispered, his throat, his eyes as dry as dust. "I'll kill myself." "No ... I don't think so," the Source murmured. "And you won't break down and go insane either. Do you want to know why? Because already some part of your mind is telling you that if you go on living, you'll find some way to pay me back." He chuckled again, as if he could see every thought in his prisoner's mind. "You'll live a long time trying, Reede. . . . But cheer up. I'll keep you in comfort. You will have everything you need, the best equipment, the best researchers money can buy, plenty of credit to spend as you like--as long as you produce. There's only one thing you had from her that you won't be getting from me ... unless, of course, you really want to share my bed." Reede's head jerked up, as the Source's obscene laughter ran its fingers over him. He spat, the only form of defiance left to him. The Source made a wet kissing sound, and laughed again. "I even know the one thing you needed more than her. I even have it waiting for you. I believe you call it the 'water of death' . . . ?" Reede stared, his burning eyes filled with darkness. Something that was not--could not be--relief caught in his chest. "Oh, yes, Reede ... I know everything about you now. All your most intimate secrets. You miserable, self-destructive lunatic. You finally found something to do to yourself that frightened even you. . . . And I don't blame you for being afraid. I had the water of death tested on one of my own people. The results were truly unspeakable, simply to witness. I cannot imagine what they must have been like to endure. And incurable--? Oh, you are brilliant. ..." His voice dripped acid. "You forged your own chains--and now you've handed them to me. You'll have the water of death, Reede; and as long as you are cooperative, you'll have it on time. In fact--" the Source paused, and Reede could feel his smile, feel it like a blade slowly slitting his throat, "I expect you'll be needing a fix soon. That is the real reason you were in such a hurry to get back to Humbaba's, isn't it? Because you'd run short, poor planning, and you were getting desperate. Not even Mundilfoere had that kind of hold on you. . . . You'll find a maintenance dose waiting for you in your new lab. You'll be permitted to make more, as long as you do your work." Reede said nothing. He swallowed the hard lump of loathing in his throat and took a deep breath, inhaling until his lungs ached. "Any questions about your new existence?" Reede said nothing. 228 Joan D. Vinse "Any last requests?" "Go to hell," Reede said, his voice breaking. "Didn't you know--?" the Source murmured gently. "I'm already there, my pet. And so are you." The dull-red glow that revealed nothing, worse than a lie, dropped suddenly, completely, out of Reede's visible spectrum. The darkness around him was utter again, as it had been at the beginning. Kedalion sighed and shifted position on the couch, glancing at his watch. The couch was not as comfortable as it had looked. He wondered if the perversity was intentional. Or maybe it was just him. This shouldn't take long, Reede had said. Reede had been wrong. Ananke had actually fallen asleep again, curled up with the quoll against his belly. Kedalion envied him his exhaustion. He was tired enough to sleep anywhere, himself . . . except in the middle of an enemy citadel, surrounded by guards. The fact that nobody had been harmed--yet--filled him with relief, but not reassurance. He listened to water dripping like a dirge, somewhere in the garden below the window that might or might not be real: to the distant noises, both strange and familiar, that drifted down the corridors and into the space around him. The door that had swallowed Reede dematerialized again, abruptly, and someone came through it. The guards turned alert; Kedalion straightened, stanng. At first his eyes refused to believe that it was actually Reede Kullervo they saw. The man who came back through that door wore Reede's face; but the face was ashen-gray, with red-rimmed eyes that registered nothing at all. He moved like a stranger, crippled, broken. "Reede--?" Kedalion said, keeping his eyes on Kullervo as he reached out to shake Ananke awake. Ananke jerked upright, startled, as Reede stopped moving and turned to look at them. Nothing showed in his eyes except a kind of vacant disbelief. Kedalion was not entirely sure he even recognized them. One fist was clenched tight, as if he held something in it; Kedalion couldn't see what. He had never believed before this moment how young Reede actually was; stripped of his manic arrogance Reede looked like a boy, temfied, terrifying in his vulnerability. Kedalion felt sick to his stomach, wondering who or what had reduced a man like Reede to that, in so little time. The Newhavener who had brought them all here crossed the room to Reede's side, showing his teeth in a grin as he assessed the obvious damage. "Give me your hand," he said. An order, not a request. Reede obeyed it. The Newhavener's hand closed around Reede's wrist, spread his palm open like a flower. His other hand pressed something down on it, and Kedalion saw a sudden flash of light. A tremor ran through Reede's body, but he made no other response. "Welcome aboard, Kullervo," the Newhavener said, still grinning in cold satisfaction. He turned away from Reede, heading toward the place where Kedalion and Ananke sat waiting. He reached them at the same moment as the smell of burned flesh did. He put out his hand. Kedalion held up his own hand silently, his jaw clenched; knowing what came next. Most of Humbaba's vassals had worn a brand--although Reede had not, and he had never marked either of his crew as property. Kedalion kept his eyes fixed on Reede, who stood staring at his own branded palm. He told himself fiercely that adoption by the enemy was the best thing that could have happened to them, when THE SUMMER QUEEN 229 he considered the alternatives; kept telling himself that until the iron came down on his own exposed flesh. White-hot pain seared through his hand, went screaming up the nerves of his arm. He cried out, although he had sworn he would not; tried to jerk his hand free, but the Newhavener held it in a grip as inescapable as a vise until he was finished. He released it, and Kedalion pulled it back, cursing under his breath, dizzy with pain. He forced himself to look at the brand. There was an eye burned into his flesh, staring back at him. He swore again as he recognized the mark. He knew at last whose prisoners they were; and he knew the Source's reputation. He looked away from the livid burn, at Reede again. He looked back as the Newhavener reached Ananke. Ananke held up his hand, held it steady in the air. His free hand knotted into a fist as the Newhavener spread his palm. He shut his eyes, and bit his lip. The brander came down on him; Kedalion grimaced as he saw the flash of light, saw Ananke shudder and the trickle of bright red that leaked down his lip and chin as the Newhavener let him go again. With his good hand, Kedalion fished a handkerchief out of his pocket, and passed it silently to Ananke. Ananke pressed it to his mouth, covering a crooked grin of desperate pride. The Newhavener watched them noncommittally, then stepped back, and jerked his head toward the lift. "Come on. I'll show you your quarters." Kedalion hesitated, looked toward Reede; suddenly more afraid for Reede than for himself or Ananke, if they were separated. But the Newhavener moved back to Reede, tried to take him by the arm as if he thought Kullervo was incapable of obeying on his own. "Come on, Reede." Reede came alive as the Newhavener put a hand on him; caught the man's wrist with his branded hand and pulled it free. The Newhavener stiffened; the anger drained out of his face as he looked into Reede's stare and found no pain registering there. "Stay away from me," Reede whispered, and for a moment Kedalion saw something he recognized in Reede's expression; something deadly. The Newhavener backed off with a shrug. "No problem," he muttered, and started toward the lift. They took another labyrinthine journey through the hive of the citadel. This time the Newhavener took some pains to point out what they were seeing. Kedalion tried to ignore his throbbing hand and concentrate on the view, to get a feel for what he was going to be calling home from now on, whether he liked it or not. But his attention kept flickering back to Reede's vacant face, and every time it did he got queasy again. At last they reached their destination, deep in the heart of the laboratory complex. The complex covered fifteen stories, the entire south quadrant of the fortress, according to the Newhavener--who had finally told them his name, TerFauw--and it employed close to a thousand workers. By Kedalion's estimate, that made it ten times the size of Humbaba's labs. TerFauw took them up through the general living quarters, pointing out shops and eateries, but they didn't stop until they got to an apartment which seemed to occupy an entire separate level of the complex. He took them through its rooms, pointing out things with a disinterest Kedalion round remarkable, considering the luxurious elegance of the surroundings. He supposed, a little enviously, that these were Reede's new personal quarters. He tried 230 Joan D. Vinge again to make the relative gentleness of their treatment jibe with whatever had been done to Reede in the three hours that he had been missing. Reede regarded his surroundings with bleak indifference. "You've got access to your personal laboratories through that door, Kullervo--" TerFauw pointed. "Somebody'11 take you the rounds of the whole complex tomorrow. Master's real eager for you to get to work." Reede turned to look, showing real interest in something for the first time. The door was secured; Kedalion saw the familiar red outline glow of a Kharemoughi stasis lock. "Open it," Reede said. TerFauw shook his head. "Can't." Reede turned back to him. "Cancel the fucking lock--" "Only the Master can do that," TerFauw said. "I can't. You can't. He'll open it when he decides he wants you to have what's in there. . . . It's not up to you, anymore, Kullervo, you understand me?" Reede glared at him; and then the sudden fury in his eyes turned to ashes, as if TerFauw had said something more than Kedalion had actually heard him say. TerFauw smiled; his twisted lip made a sneer of it. Reede turned his back on them, and went into the next room. TerFauw turned back to Kedalion and Ananke. Kedalion held his breath, wondering what kind of hellhole TerFauw had in mind to drop them down; sure that they were not going to rate the kind of consideration someone like Reede did. "You two are staying here with him, until we figure out what to do with you." Kedalion nodded wordlessly, surprised and relieved. "I'm putting it on you both to watch him till he settles in. He's still a little out of phase right now." The sneer pulled TerFauw's lips up again. Kedalion glanced at the doorway to the next room, thinking the man had a gift for understatement. "See that he doesn't do anything to himself." TerFauw met Kedalion's questioning stare. "Anything that happens to him, happens to you. Both of you." He bent his head at Ananke. "I make myself clear?" "Perfectly," Kedalion muttered. He was suddenly, painfully aware of the throbbing burn on his palm. TerFauw went out, leaving them alone. Ananke put the quoll on the floor, one-handed, and headed for the bathroom. The quoll snuffled the deep green carpet, decided that it wasn't edible, and began to wander across the floor. It scuttled under a table as Reede came silently back into the room. Reede's gaze went straight to the locked laboratory door. The seals were still red. He raked the room with his eyes, as if he was reassuring himself that they were finally alone. He sat down on a couch covered with brilliant, flame-patterned cloth, looking like a refugee, saying nothing. Staring at the door. One fist was still clenched over something. Ananke came back into the room, carrying a can of skingraft in his good hand. "I found this, Kedalion--" he said, and tossed it out. Kedalion caught it, awkwardly, shook his head as he looked at it. "You put some on already?" "Yeah." "Wash it off, or you won't have a scar. The whole point of it is that they want you marked. Unless you want to go through that again--" THE SUMMER QUEEN 231 Ananke looked sick, and shook his head. He started away down the hall toward the bathroom. "You did good," Kedalion said. Ananke glanced back, and smiled feebly. Kedalion followed him; he took a leak while Ananke gingerly rubbed the bandage off his hand, keeping his eyes averted. Kedalion checked through the supplies in the well-stocked medical cabinet, wondering morbidly if someone had put them there as a precautionary measure, in case Reede tried something drastic. He pushed the thought out of his mind, and took out a tube of ointment. "Here," he said to Ananke. "This'll kill the pain." Ananke smeared some of it across his palm, wincing; handed the tube back to Kedalion. Kedalion took it with him into the other room, where Reede still sat staring at the door. Kedalion spread ointment on his own palm in full view of Reede, sighed as the pain went out like a smothered fire. Then he approached Reede, offering him the ointment at arm's length. "Boss--?" Reede looked up at him, down again at his own blistered palm. He closed his fingers over the burn deliberately, and tightened them into a fist. "No," he whispered. Kedalion moved away from him, swallowing. "Come on," he said quietly to Ananke. "Let's eat." He went into the kitchen, where they could be private enough to talk and still see Reede. Ananke sat on the counter, looking out the doorway, while Kedalion queried the food systems and put in an order. "What happened, Kedalion?" Ananke said at last. "Gods, I've never seen him like that. What do you think they did to him--?" He touched his own bitten lip, and flinched. Kedalion shook his head. "I don't know," he murmured, feeling fear knot up his stomach again. "I don't think I want to. But TerFauw's right . . . we've got to watch him like cats." "He needs more than that," Ananke said, meeting his eyes. Kedalion nodded, feeling a frown settle between his brows. "I know," he muttered. "I know that. But, damn it, I don't know what to do--" He grimaced, filled with a sense of helplessness as he admitted the truth . . . admitted to himself how much he wanted to help the human shadow huddled on the couch in the next room. The sight of Reede's suffering and vulnerability had gotten to him, in a way Reede's anger and moods never had. It made him feel responsible. He hated the feeling. But he realized, suddenly, that he didn't hate the man. He rubbed his aching eyes, remembering again just how tired he was, how long it had been since he'd had any sleep. He turned back as platters of food appeared on the shelf above him. Ananke moved them across to the counter and gave Kedalion a hand up onto a stool, before he whistled for the quoll. The quoll came scurrying into the kitchen, greeting Ananke with enthusiastic whistles of its own as he put down its plate of fruit and vegetables. He crouched beside it, stroking its back while it chortled contentedly. Kedalion saw a smile come out on his face. "Is that thing a male or a female?" Kedalion asked, wondering why it had never occurred to him to ask before. Ananke straightened up again. He shrugged, stuffing a fishball into his mouth and swallowing it whole. None of them had had a meal in nearly a full day. "Female, I think. It's hard to tell with quolls. They don't look that different." He gulped cold kaff. "I'm glad I can't say the same thing about humans," Kedalion murmured, (I 232 Joan D. Vinge thinking with sudden bittersweet yearning how long it had been since he had had an opportunity to really enjoy the difference; wondering when he ever would, now. Ananke gave him a brief stare, folded his arms across the front of his coveralls and looked away as Kedalion raised his eyebrows. "Well," Kedalion said, letting his own gaze drop, watching the quoll eat, "I guess they know the difference." He finished his food, drank down a glass of bitter, double-strength Ondmean tea, hoping it would help keep him awake. "We'd better take turns sleeping. One of us should watch him all the time." He gestured toward Reede. Ananke nodded. "I'll take the first watch." "You sure--?" Kedalion asked. "Can you stay awake?" "Yeah." Ananke shrugged, looked down at his palm. "I don't think I want to go to sleep for a while, you know?" His voice trailed off. He looked at Reede, sitting alone, and his mouth pinched as he picked up the third tray of food. "Right," Kedalion said. "Wake me up in four hours, then. Sooner, if you get tired." He found his way to one of the bedrooms, dragged himself up onto a bed, and let go. The tea he had drunk was no problem at all. It felt like he had been asleep for only minutes when he woke up again. Ananke's hand was on his shoulder, shaking him insistently. He looked at his watch, saw that it had been over six hours, and sat up, yawning. "Thanks," he murmured, rubbing his face. "How's he doing?" Ananke glanced toward the door, his own face tense. "I don't know," he said. "I think something's wrong with him, Kedalion--I mean really wrong. He looks sick." He spread his hands helplessly. Kedalion slid down off the bed, shook his head to clear it out. "I'll see what I can do. Get some sleep if you can. I'll call you if I need you." Ananke nodded, holding the quoll under one arm. He stared at the bed with mixed emotions. Kedalion went out of the room. Reede was still on the couch; lying down now, with his knees drawn up and his arms folded tight against his chest. The tray of food sat on the table beside him, untouched. He glanced up, dull-eyed, as Kedalion entered the room; looked back at the laboratory access door again without comment. The locks were still red. Kedalion looked toward the far wall of the room--transparent ceralloy from ceiling to floor, opening on an uninterrupted expanse of blue sky. A garden with a small waterfall hid the bitter endless gray of the thorn forests from sight. On the other side of the room was a shielded balcony with a spectacular view down the greenery-wall well of a labsec airshaft, onto more greenery in a park space far below. There was a threedy screen and interactive equipment occupying part of a remaining wall, books and tapes. Kedalion wondered why, with all that to occupy his senses, Reede chose to stare at a locked door. He was only sure of one thing--that it wasn't because Reede was eager to get to work. Reede cursed, so softly that Kedalion barely heard the sound. He turned back, saw a faint spasm run through Reede's body, and his jaw clench. Reede's white face was shining with sweat, even though the room was not warm. Kedalion crossed the space between them, until he reached Reede's side. Reede ignored him. "Reede," he said. "Tell me what to do. ..." Reede's bruised, haunted eyes fixed on him suddenly. "Leave me alone," Reede said, between clenched teeth. THE SUMMER QUEEN 233 Kedalion nodded mutely, trying to make himself obey and move away. He r eached out, touched Reede's shoulder with an uncertain hand. Reede gasped in startled agony, as if Kedalion had struck him. Kedalion jerked j,js hand away, backed off as Reede pushed abruptly to his feet. Reede stood swaying, and Kedalion retreated across the room. But Reede only stumbled past him and down the hall. Kedalion heard water running in the bathroom; wasn't certain he heard the sound of someone vomiting. Knowing he should follow Reede and keep watch, he stayed where he was--half afraid of what would happen if he didn't do it, more afraid of what would happen if he did. After a long time Reede came back into the room, his eyes red and swollen and his nose running, and Kedalion began to breathe again. Reede lowered himself onto the couch, moving as if every cell in his body hurt, and stared at the locked door. Kedalion studied the bookshelves with eyes that refused to read a title; he picked one at random and climbed up into a seat with it. He opened it, and found endless pages of hieroglyphic Sandhi characters, as completely incomprehensible to him as everything else had suddenly become. He looked up, startled, as a chime sounded somewhere in the room. Reede gave a small, raw cry; staggered up from the couch and crossed the room to the laboratory door. The lock seals were green. He hit the access-plate, swearing with the pain of it, and it let him through into the next room. Kedalion leaped out of the chair and followed him, as he realized what Reede could find, and do, in a well-stocked lab. Reede was already at the nearest terminal, voice-querying desperately in some unintelligible language or code. His hands called up displays as if it were something he did in his sleep, moving almost by instinct. Locks unsealed on a series of stasis cubicles; the fields blinked off. He stumbled across the lab, began to peer frantically into one cubicle after another, oblivious to Kedalion's presence. He laughed once, almost hysterically, as he pulled out a container no bigger than his hand. He clawed it open, lifting it to his mouth. Kedalion swore under his breath. He lunged forward, jerking Reede's arm down. Heavy, gunmetal-colored liquid spilled onto his hand. Reede spun around, faster than he could think, and caught him; Reede's knee slammed into the side of his head, sent him reeling halfway across the room to crash into the metal-drawered base of a work table. Kedalion lay where he had fallen, tasting blood, seeing stars as the astrogation implants in the back of his skull struggled to reintegrate. Paralyzed by pain, he watched Reede gulp down the rest of the silver-gray liquid. Reede flung the bottle away with trembling hands. Kedalion closed his eyes as Reede looked in his direction suddenly, and started toward him. He felt Reede's hands take hold of his coveralls, jerking him forward through a haze of red, shaking him. "Look at me, you bastard!" Kedalion opened his eyes to Reede's hate-filled stare. "If you ever try to do that to me again, I'll kill you, you motherfucker. I'll break your fucking neck." He caught Kedalion's jaw, jerked it sharply, painfully to one side. "You hear me--? I'll kill you!" He let go. Kedalion fell back against the metal drawers. Reede turned away from him, swaying suddenly, and staggered back across the open space to the storage shelves. He caught hold of the counter edge, sagged against |(. sank to his knees; hanging on, as if his life depended on it. He murmured words