Time Future
by
Maxine McArthur


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Acknowledgments

A totally inadequate thank you to my editors: Viki Wright, whose
patience and encouragement over two years kept me going through every
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Time past and time future What might have been and what has been Point
to one end, which is always present.  "Burnt Norton," T.S. Eliot,
1944

Dream the center far for me When it burns then we may see Paths
outflung in fixity Deceive us

Cry the center close to me Let the burning rivers flee Tears we shed
together will Redeem us

Sing the center into me Fill the light and set me free Now and then
forever be Within us

"Invidi chant," from A Child's Book of Alien Verses, 2098

Before

Uhen I was a little girl my great-grandmother would tell me stories of
the days before the Invidi came to Earth.

She would sit in her room under the frangipani and I'd bring tobacco
for her to smoke in secret in return for the stories.  She'd suck and
puff until the thin pipe drew properly, then lean back in the creaky
cane chair.  I can't remember her face--only the long arms and heavy
voice, both of which are now my own.  That and the flowery-smoky-musty
smell of her room.

Always the same beginning to the stories.

"Listen now, child.  This was a town of women.  When Marlena Alvarez
became mayor, she asked me to be chief of police because she knew I
could do the job.

"The old mayor and judges were dead.  They'd been murdered by the very
thugs who put them in office.  The old police chief and his deputies
had disappeared, either dead or in hiding.  Or they'd joined one of the
gangs.

"The able-bodied men?  Mostly dead, drafted by the militia or arrested
by them--it came to the same thing in the long run.  Everyone who could
afford to go to the cities did so.  Many of them couldn't afford
transport but they

went anyway.  Better to brave the dangers of disease, famine, guns
than stay.  The only ones left were the old, the sick, the very young,
and the women who looked after them.

"God, those politicians hated her.  They tried to scare us out of town,
they tried to force us to do what they wanted.  They tried ridicule and
starvation... death threats all the time.  Tried everything to wear us
down.

"Marlena never said anything, but I watched her grow old before my
eyes."

Her tone would become softer, reminiscent.  The pipe would go out.

"We did a good job though.  Rebuilt the town.  She never turned away
refugees.  They needed shelter, we needed the labor.  Marlena pestered
the state and central governments for funds.  We got media contacts,
too, and told everyone what was happening.  After years of bargaining
and compromise she filially placed the town off-limits to all armed
groups."  Demora would roll her eyes.  "Mad, we all said she was
mad."

Sometimes I would sneak away at this point, before she reached the end
of the story.  It didn't matter whether anyone was listening or not.
She had to say it, had to relive it and forgive herself again.

"Marlena died on January 3rd, 2017.  I should have watched the roof. We
never caught the sniper.  I remember it was about dusk because I
couldn't see the color of her eyes when I held her."

The town of Las Mujeres had no public money and no resources beyond its
people, and their lives changed little during the twelve years Alvarez
was in office.  But by the

time she was assassinated in 2017 the groundswell she had created was
unstoppable.  I grew up hearing the name Mar-lena Alvarez as though she
were an eccentric and beloved aunt.  It was years later that I realized
her actions in the town of Las Mujeres sparked the original Earth South
movement, and that she was a legend to freedom fighters everywhere.

The Earth South movement demanded social justice and economic reform
and provided the precedent that persuaded the aliens to sign the
Mars-Invidi Agreement on Species Rights in 2080, and to admit Earth as
a member of the Confederacy of Allied Worlds in 2085.  Marlena Alvarez
played her part in bringing us out here and history says that her death
was not in vain.  But my great-grandmother knew better.

I am not blind to the parallels between Las Mujeres and ourselves.  We
are isolated, surrounded by enemies and in-differ eat friends.  We have
no resources and cannot decide our own fate, which is what they used to
say about women in those times.  We are divided among ourselves and
cannot conquer our own weaknesses, which is how the galaxy sees humans
now.  The big difference, though, is that we have no Marlena
Alvarez--only me.

PART ONE

THE

SPINNING

WORLD

First Day

You'd think on a space station this size there'd be an all-night food
dispenser open.

I thumped the ring lift controls in a useless attempt to make the door
close faster.  If I hadn't had to search vainly for a meal after the
Engineering briefing I would have had more time to catch up on the
backlog of urgent administrative tasks.  And now I was going to be late
for the comet presentation.  Not a good example from the head of
station.

The doors wheezed shut with maddening slowness, and a faint, transitory
lightness in my feet told me the ring lift had begun its descent from
Alpha to Gamma levels.  The throughways had been deserted earlier.
Perhaps the stall owners who usually wander the lower level at night
were preparing for the coming festival.  There certainly wasn't much
business anymore from shift workers--the Seouras blockade has destroyed
most of our production capability and there is no longer any need for a
twenty-four-hour workforce.  The majority of residents now follow the
same diurnal schedule.  Earth's, for convenience, although our

orbit around the planet below is completed in about half that time.

I'm hungry, having forgotten to eat anything since lunch" yesterday.
I'm overdrawn in space rations, too, or I might have resorted to
ingesting my quota of those.

The ring lift jarred to a halt.  I left it and threaded my way through
the morning crowd, fastening my jacket as I walked and trying vainly to
tidy my hair.  I hope my face doesn't look as tired as I feel.

Fifteen pairs of eyes turned to watch me as the meeting room door
opened.  I get this sort of intense regard much more as head of station
than I ever did as head of Engineering, and it still stops me
momentarily in my tracks.

"Commander Halley."  Lieutenant Garnet, a trim woman with hair pulled
back tightly from her face, nodded to me from the far side of a round
table.  I took my place next to Bill Murdoch, the burly head of
Security, and smiled a greeting to the others.  Of the department heads
only Murdoch, my friend Eleanor Jago, the head of Medicine, and Veatch,
the station manager, had accepted the invitation to the briefing.
Eleanor, cool and tidy in her hospital whites, half-smiled back at me
but her glance was more professional than personal.  Veatch stared back
impassively through alien eyes.  The other participants were a mixture
of Earth Fleet scientific research, and Engineering staff.

Murdoch caught my eye as I looked around the table.

"You should have made it an order to come," he rumbled, leaning
sideways so no one else could hear.  "You need to give people more
incentive."

I frowned.  Surely a rare interstellar phenomenon was incentive enough?
And.  I'd hinted at the prospects it offered us to break the siege.
Either the other department

heads hadn't understood, or they were becoming jaded by our frequent
failures.

The room darkened and in place of the panel lighting a starfield
blossomed brightly above the center of the table as Garnet activated a
holomap.

We could see an asteroid belt, one planet close enough to be warm and
hospitable, and two more far-off frozen ones orbited an unassuming
orange star.  The Abelar system seemed to grow as the holomap's
magnification increased.  A tiny disk representing Jocasta orbited the
inner planet.  Nobody commented on the lack of correct scale-it felt
good to confirm our presence, and it was a while since most of the
officers here had seen such a good show.  Engineering is the only place
on the station that still has functioning holovids.

"Comets were regarded as omens of evil in many ancient Earth cultures.
For us here on Jocasta, it may be the opposite."  Garnet pushed a slim
forefinger into the map on top of the space station and swirled it
around the planet in simulated orbit.

The officers seated around the holomap table in the dark room leaned
forward to see better.

"The comet has passed its perihelion and is now on the second day of
its four-day trip out of the system."  She added the last element to
the holomap with a flourish, and there was a murmur of appreciation as
the comet winked into existence and its bright tail streamed away from
the star.

Garnet was always a stimulating presenter, which was why I'd chosen her
for this one.

"Have you given it a name?"  an Earth Fleet ensign asked slyly.

Murdoch jabbed me in the ribs with his elbow.  I started out of my
half-doze.  The double-nighter was starting to tell.

"A number will be sufficient," I said coldly.  The ancestors on my
maternal grandfather's side may well have been distant relatives of the
astronomer who bequeathed his name to Earth's most famous comet.  Then
again, it might be mere coincidence.  In any case, one Comet Halley in
the astronomy database is plenty.

"The orbit of Comet 002," continued Garnet, with a regretful glance in
my direction, "passes between our planet and the sun on its way out of
the system.  Which means that particles from the tail will saturate
this area of space."  She activated a simulation and we all watched as
the comet sped outward again and the dust, gases, and long released by
the star's warmth sprayed the darkness in a glittering stream.

"We believe this comet is releasing a type of particle particularly
disruptive to communications."  She paused to give them time to
consider the implications.

"Which means?"  Jago's impatient voice added an uneasy note to the
general atmosphere of interest, and Garnet hastened to explain.

"I beg your pardon, ma'am.  It means that our sensors will be unable to
function adequately"--someone laughed shortly but she ignored
them--"and there will be some interference with communications outside
the station."

The same person muttered, "What's new?"

"By the same token," Garnet said loudly, "the Seouras ships' sensors
will not work either."

There was complete silence.  The Seouras ships surround our station and
block communication with the outside

 galaxy.  One remains in a close companion orbit with the station and
at least three more cover the approaches to the system with efficient
menace.

"The only window of opportunity for this exercise will be..."  Garnet
waited until the comet was just past the pale planet in the map,
"here."  She halted the simulation to give everyone a view of the tail
streaming past Jocasta.  "If we set a probe to follow the tail out of
the system, it might be able to avoid interception by the Seouras ships
before the tail itself dissipates.  The probe will then send a message
to the Confederacy as it continues along a course set to intercept a
major trade route."

Assuming, of course, the Confederacy of Allied Worlds is still there to
listen to us.  The invasion might have happened there, too.

She touched the last known positions of the gray Seouras ships, which
appeared as tiny triangles, greatly out of scale on the map, but much
too small for the weight they occupied in our minds.

"Any questions?"  She moved quickly to this last segment because we'd
agreed that people wouldn't absorb information unless it was directly
related to their own jobs.

"Why not send a crewed ship?"  the Earth Fleet ensign asked.

Our main defenses, two squadrons of Earth Fleet fighters, had been
decimated in the initial Seouras attack.  The remaining personnel now
worked in other areas, but many, like this ensign, itched to do
something more.

"We're not that certain it'll work," I said, and a couple of people
chuckled half-heartedly.  It wasn't a laughing matter.  Six months ago
when the Seouras attacked, most of the residents with the means to do
so had attempted to leave.  All of them died when the gray ships fired
on them.  Since then we've tried to sneak a couple of small ships out
at various intervals, but so far we've lost them all.

"Do you require any particular cooperation from my department?"  asked
Veatch, the station manager, in his aggrieved drawl.  His department
was Administrative Affairs.

Garnet returned normal lighting to the room as she answered.  "Only the
requisition details for the shuttle, sir."

"Then I fail to see why I was encouraged to attend this meeting."  He
probably didn't mean to sound quite so petulant.

"We thought you might be interested, seeing that the plan involves the
entire station."  Garnet's normally placid face was taut.  "Like
everyone else."

"Perhaps I am not like everyone else."

"You can say that again," the Earth Fleet ensign commented under his
breath.

"It was only twenty minutes.  Surely you can spare that," said Eleanor
Jago.  "We're all busy."

"Twenty-two minutes."  Veatch couldn't resist the pedantic correction.
It was one of the reasons the Melot were such brilliant bureaucrats.

Murdoch nudged me again and I stood up.

"Engineering will contact each department if they require any
assistance," I said.  "If you have any suggestions or other input, I'm
sure they'd be delighted to receive it"

Jocasta is Earth's first out space station, established five years ago
in 2116.  Three rings like a corrugated discus spin around a central
core, where the modified alien engines nudge us back into correct orbit
every twenty-two

days and provide backup for essential systems in case the solar
reflectors fail in an emergency.  Such as a blockade.

The station had only been in Confederacy hands for two standard years
when it was handed over to Earth.  It had been under construction when
the Tor abandoned the system after losing their decades-long war with
the Invidi and the Confederacy.  Abelar was a former Tor colony system,
but after the Tor withdrew, the Confederacy of Allied Worlds, of which
Earth is a minor member, was busy with economic problems in the inner
sectors.  The Confederacy was slow to begin taking an active part in
the administration and protection of this obscure system on the edge of
a barren outer sector.  Con Fleet patrolled only occasionally.
Opportunists moved in quickly and by the time the Confederacy finally
asserted its rights over the system, the area had become a haunt of
pirates and unaligned, unregistered traders.

Then someone had the bright idea of finishing the space station that
the Tor had begun.  Not only was this cheaper in the long term than
maintaining a mobile force in the area, but it was also less of a
threat to the balance of power here.  That balance consisted of a
tentative standoff between two or three huge trading conglomerates that
maintained mercenary fleets and acted in the interests of different
factions on the Confederacy Council, and the Danadan, a spacefaring
race who have traditionally pirated this area of space after their
homework!  was destroyed by the Tor centuries ago.  As well as these
major players, there were a number of small, unaligned trading
companies, and pirate gangs, all of whom jealously guarded their right
to plunder what they could of this isolated and resource-poor
cluster.

Then the Confederacy decided to "give" the station to Earth.  It was a
generous gesture for the Council to approve administration of a sector
facility by one of its minor members, and none of the eight other
non-jump species had ever been accorded a similar honor.  A gesture it
remained, however.  The four founding member species--the Invidi, the
Q'Chn, Melot, and the Bendarl, the "Four Worlds"--have always refused
to allow the lesser members independent use of faster-than-light space
drive so Earth was forced to bow to the schedules of Sector vessels or
rent private shipping to transport its personnel and sublight ships to
the station.  Without this cooperation we are completely isolated.

I arrived here as one of the engineering crew in the second year of the
reconstruction and the year before Jocasta officially became an
Earthstation.  It wasn't my first job as overseer but the others had
never been as chaotic as this.  Work was constantly disrupted by the
non-arrival of supplies and personnel, booby traps left by the Tor, and
occasionally by attacks on the station itself.  We only ever finished
because the Danadan became embroiled in territorial squabbles with the
Seouras and the other two largest pirate fleets engaged in a bloody
feud for nearly a year.  Even then, the outermost ring was still
incomplete at the inauguration ceremony.  Relations with Sector Central
were further soured by difficulties in getting the station running
smoothly.  There were four station heads in that first year: one quit,
two committed suicide and one was poisoned.  By the time I found myself
the unwilling and ostensibly temporary holder of that office, as head
of Engineering and the most senior Con Fleet officer, most of the
construction crews

and Con Fleet forces had pulled out.  No respectable trader would come
anywhere near the station--many didn't know we existed--and to cap it
all, it seemed that Jocasta's charter stated that the head of station
was also obliged to act as governor of the Abelar system.  This meant I
had to worry about two battered and almost completely useless planets
with tiny mining colonies and the usual one light-year territorial
boundary as well as the station itself.

It took nearly three years of hard work to achieve a precarious
stability both in the running of the station and between the species
who visited and lived here.  The Danadan threatened to upset it all
when they declared this had always been then' space and demanded
special trading privileges.  At about the same time the Seouras
presence along the Confederacy border grew stronger and the two species
clashed frequently.

The Seouras were an unknown factor.  It was rumored that they had
returned to claim the area for their own, but in fact their ships made
no aggressive moves against the system or Confederacy traffic.  There
was no indication that the Seouras had aggressive intentions or that
they possessed the level of technology necessary to effect a seizure.
Their ships then weren't half as big as the ones watching the station
now, and the design was different.

The Danadan and mercenary fleets ruined trade and filled the station
with refugees, which we could ill afford; because of the lack of
support from either Sector Central or Earth, the only way for us to
become self-sufficient was by trade.  Even then, we were always low on
essential stocks--medical supplies, delicate equipment replacements. 
To provide a counterweight, I suggested a treaty between Jocasta, the
Danadan, and the Seouras as we then

knew them.  The captain of the Danadan ship that was disturbing trade
around the system at the time agreed to consider a compromise.  Murdoch
was appalled by the idea and said so.

It took several weeks of intensive diplomatic effort to hammer out an
agreement basically satisfactory to all.  Both the Seouras and Danadan
were to suspend hostilities in the Abelar system and a surrounding
twenty-light-year radius.  No force was to be used against Confederacy
ships or installations in said area.  Both species were allowed full
access to and trade privileges on Jocasta.  If one party broke the
treaty, the others were to come to the aid of the injured party.

The Danadan were not happy at the prospect of losing a profitable area
of pillage, but perhaps they considered the benefits of having a
powerful ally such as the Confederacy worth conceding a demilitarized
buffer zone in and around the Abelar system.  The Seouras seemed
pleased to be rid of the Danadan and expressed an interest in both
trading and communicating with other species in the Confederacy.

Unfortunately the trading conglomerates and their employees at all
levels of Confederacy government were not pleased, and neither were the
Q'Chn trade barons who manipulated them.  Nor were Earth administration
(because Sector was upset), crooked traders and agents on the station
(because station Security now found time to deal with them), or
elements within?  the Danadan hierarchy who thought the loss of their
piracy income too high a price to pay for a peace they'd never wanted.
As they say, you can't please everyone all the time.

The Abelar Treaty seemed a good idea at the time, and

 it worked for a while.  It kept our space free from large-scale
fighting between Seouras and Danadan and let us concentrate on removing
smugglers and pirates, and on attracting genuine traders.  We had
nearly a year of peace and prosperity afterwards.  The Seouras kept
their distance, the Danadan visited only to trade.

A few refugees took advantage of the peace to seek safety with the
Confederacy, it is true, but one hundred years ago Marlena Alvarez
never turned refugees away and I was damned if I would now.  Some trade
from the main jump routes began to spill over to us and representatives
of the sector's largest mercantile financier and the K'Cher trading
fleet opened offices on the station.  Sector Central even sent a team
from the Audit Ministry to complain about our management structure.

All that changed in a few hours when the gray ships came.

"You really think it'll work?"  Bill Murdoch leaned his elbows on the
table between us and kept his voice low.  He is a big man, broad and
heavy-muscled, and his uniform always seems a little tight over the
shoulders.

"It's the best chance we've had for a while to send a message."  I
stifled another yawn.  I'd been working all night with the engineering
team to prepare the probe.  The trouble was, I'd also been kept up the
night before that when the Seouras called.  They send a certain signal
to the station when they want me over on the ship.  As soon as the
signal comes, I go.  The last session had been a long one, almost
twelve hours, leaving me feeling completely ragged.

Murdoch pushed his chair back and looked at me with

an expression that could have been either exasperation or concern.
"Hard night?"

"Two of them.  I'm going back to my quarters."  I stretched stiffly.
Joint pain is one of the side effects of the Seouras interaction.
Murdoch watched without comment as I flinched and rubbed.  The
intensity of his round, dark gaze made me stop, embarrassed to be
revealing a weakness here.

The other officers got to their feet also, murmuring to each other.
They filled the room, which looked smaller in the light--the sky blue
of Earth Fleet the navy of Con Fleet Murdoch's olive-green Security
jacket, the brown suit of a civilian researcher in Astro, and Veatch's
slim, gray form.  Jago's white-jacketed figure disappeared quickly--she
was on call at the hospital.

The other colors left space around Veatch's gray.  It was a deliberate
snub.  Veatch was a Melot, a "humanoid" species--how they hated that
phrase.  They had essentially the same form as humans: bipedal,
forward-facing eyes, a respiratory system, etc."  but they were one of
the four founding species of the Confederacy.  There were nine other
member worlds/systems/species in the Confederacy, making a total of
thirteen, as well as dozens of affiliated worlds that were not formal
members but had economic or cultural ties with Confederacy worlds.  The
Four Worlds made it quite clear who the senior members of the
partnership were, and the Nine Worlds, as the rest of us were called,
put up with it because .  ?. it was true.  If it had not been for the
technology and knowledge of the Four, most of the Nine would have still
been clawing our way out of our respective atomic ages.  Or have
destroyed ourselves first, as the case may be.  But it was not pleasant
to be reminded of one's own inferiority, and Veatch's insensitivity
fanned the embers of resentment onstation against the Four, and against
the Confederacy in general.  The Confederacy that had not saved us from
the Seouras.

In their first attack the gray ships approached the station, ignored
greetings and then warnings, and blocked our communications with anyone
beyond the system.  At the time, I hadn't wanted to make any aggressive
moves-they were obviously better armed than we were--but they got
closer and closer.  They sent no communications and we had no idea who
we were facing.

The Earth Fleet officers, whose fighter squadrons formed our first and
only line of defense, wanted to give a warning followed by some
aggressive posturing by the squadrons.  I resisted this, because the
ships had made no attack on us, although the squadron leaders pointed
out that to isolate us from the Confederacy could be interpreted as a
hostile act.  This initial tension continued for hours, while we tried
desperately to find some method of communication, and ended tragically
when a couple of the traders docked at Jocasta tried to make a run for
it and were swiftly, effortlessly shot down by the nearest gray ship.

So began the blockade.  I gave in to recommendations from Earth Fleet
and Con Fleet officers to retaliate.  The fighter squadrons were
destroyed--shot away as they attacked, picked off as they retreated.
The station's residents panicked.  Many of the traders and those
residents with access to transport tried to leave, against our direct
orders.  The gray ships destroyed them too.  The station was in an
uproar.  Already overtaxed environmental systems started

to fail and damage to reflectors plunged whole sections into
darkness.

We kept sending a message of surrender but there was no sign the ships
received it, until they sent us a message that bore the signature we'd
used for the Seouras in the treaty negotiations.  We couldn't
understand why they were doing this when they already had access to the
station.  We still don't understand.

They called me over to the ship in the same way we'd negotiated for the
treaty.  Like those other Seouras they did not seem able to communicate
either verbally or electronically in a way we could recognize, and they
used the implant their predecessors gave me, by which their "thoughts"
or "moods"--neither, really, but there is no word in our vocabulary to
describe it--are directly communicated to my mind.  I couldn't do it
back, but they seemed to understand me when I spoke.

All they said this time, though, was "Wait."

So we waited.

They returned force with force and then: defenses were far more
sophisticated than any weapon we possessed, as we found to our cost. It
might have been easier if we had known what they wanted.  Why they were
cutting us off from the rest of the galaxy and then leaving us to our
own devices on the station.  Why they would not talk except to one
representative.  Why they attack shuttles or small ships.  Why they
take nothing from the station, but hold it hostage for my good behavior
and, vice versa, send for me arbitrarily on an average of once a
fortnight, wring me sometimes to the point of insensibility for
whatever they get from our "conversations"... and then let me return. 
Why, if they needed nothing, they were here.  And so on and so

on.  It nearly drove me mad at first.  Then I finally realized that it
was a waste of time trying to understand why they were doing this to
us.  Now I think about what we do know--six months' worth of sensor
readings on their ships--and leave motive to the gods.  There has to be
an answer somewhere in the data.

All we can do is wait, while the station falls apart around us.

The wall comm link beeped through the low hum of conversation.

"Commander Halley?"

I reached past Murdoch and tapped open the screen.  "Halley here.  What
is it, Baudin?"

Lieutenant Baudin, Earth Fleet and proud of it, calling from the
Bubble. He didn't have to lean into the visual pickup so far.  The tip
of his considerable nose was quite blurred.

"We've detected a jump mine explosion.  On the edge of the asteroid
field."

All conversation in the room ceased.  Every head turned to listen.

It took a second for his words to penetrate and the adrenaline to kick
in.

"Have you picked up any sign of a ship?"  I said.  Jump mines can only
be set off by ships.

"We can't tell at this distance.  Backburn from the mine is disrupting
sensors."

"The Seouras?  Are they doing anything?"  Perhaps they knew that any
ship caught in a jump mine would no longer be a threat.  Perhaps their
sensors had been disrupted by the comet sooner than we'd expected.

"There's nothing from them."

"Keep monitoring it.  I'll be right up."  The screen darkened.

There was a short moment of frozen disbelief, then the others scrambled
for the door.

I glared my way through first--rank has its privileges-and walked
quickly to the nearest ring lift Murdoch close behind me.  The
throughway outside the building was crowded and his bulk came in
handy.

Veatch, who had left before Baudin's message, was waiting in front of
the ring lift and he looked around with a surprised tilt of his
antennae as we rushed up.  The door opened.

"Going up?"  Murdoch reached past Veatch and tapped in the code for the
command center.

"Yes."  Veatch was unsure of the protocol for rhetorical questions,
although he often gave what I felt were rhetorical answers to my
sensible questions.

The doors wheezed shut and the floor pressed briefly against our feet
as the ring lift rose to Alpha level.

"How could it possibly have been set off?"  said Murdoch.

I shook my head.  "I've never heard of one blowing by itself.  Has to
be a ship."

Jump mines, weapons left over from the war between the Confederacy and
the Tor, were seeded indiscriminately across the sector by the T,or and
activate when a ship leaves a jump to return to normal space.  Most of
the mines have been collected or destroyed, but the number of places
possible for a jump in or out of hyperspace were limited and
occasionally these points drifted into a forgotten mine.  Big

traders and Con Fleet ships had all developed defense grids, so the
main casualties were small or obsolete craft.

"Commander?"  Veatch conveyed censure without frowning.

"We detected a jump mine that activated within the system," I
explained, fidgeting against the slowness of the lift.  "On the edge of
the asteroids."

"I see."

"Aren't you excited?  This could be our first contact with the outside
galaxy in six months.  It could be a ship from the Confederacy."

"Most Con Fleet vessels are equipped with mine detection devices.  And
I do not see how contact with a radioactive wreck will prove of any use
to us."

"Cheerful, aren't you?"  Murdoch grunted.  "Does the word 'morale' mean
anything to you?"

I tapped the status screen on the lift wall that showed the position of
the closest Seouras ship.  I like to know where it is, to be able to
"see" them, even if only on our inefficient sensors.  The ship was in
the same place as it had been for weeks, on the far side of the
station, facing the Confederacy and the bright swathe of the inner
galaxy.

"It might not be of any immediate use."  I turned back to Veatch.  "But
if we can analyze the wreckage we may find out why the ship jumped into
this system, whether it's from the Confederacy or not."

The jump in itself was unusual.  Normally the drive was not activated
inside a populated system even if a jump point were available, a matter
of both safety and courtesy.  Nobody wants even a controlled
singularity--at least, that's what we thought it was--opening on their
doorstep.  We didn't know much more about the jump drive.  The Invidi

often pointed out that our greatest mathematical minds have failed to
understand it, but I think they should let an engineer have a go.

"I would've thought you'd be glad of a chance to get news from home,"
said Murdoch to Veatch.  "Must be hard for you, stuck here with all
these lesser species."

I looked more carefully at Murdoch.  Sarcasm was not his usual style.
His blunt, brown features looked tired.

"I do not regard anyone on the station as a lesser species."  Veatch
was making his opinion clear.  Another first.

"Maybe, but you gotta admit the whole administrative process is
designed to humiliate whoever tries to use it."

My heart sank.  If Murdoch came out on the side of the anti-Four lobby,
things could get tougher for me, caught in the middle between them.
Until now, he has been admirably neutral.

"The administrative process is designed for efficiency."  Veatch's
normal whine grew sharper in defense of his territory.

"It wasn't efficient the other day when I tried to file a complaint
about recycling."

"Perhaps you did not utilize the process correctly."

"Nope, I put the stuff in the chute, but it didn't..."

"I refer to the administrative process."

I tried to ignore them and think about the ship but their voices were
like the fizz of loose circuitry, impossible to ignore.  They were a
strange pair--Veatch must have been born knowing every Confederacy
regulation; Murdoch was quite capable of ignoring the rules when it
suited him.  Murdoch had been assigned here because in his former post
he refused to take the usual bribes and tried to arrest

his CO.  Veatch must have trodden on someone's toes at Central,
because there was no other reason a career bureaucrat would be sent
here.  And I'm sure I was given the Jocasta reconstruction project
because someone hoped I'd get blown up by a Tor booby trap.

The door wheezed open at the lower entrance to the main complex.

"See you later," said Murdoch curtly, and pushed his way out ahead of
Veatch, who inclined his antennae and followed.  The lift rose another
half-level and the door opened on the Bubble.

The murmur of voices faltered only momentarily as I stepped onto the
upper platform.  I hadn't felt this much excitement on the top level
for months.  Instead of the usual three or four staff monitoring main
systems there must have been at least twenty people there, and the
narrow, circular space was hot and cramped.  Baudin bent over the
person on duty at the main sensor console and a Con Fleet ensign, Lee,
was seated at Ops.

"Where is it?"  I squeezed past Baudin's salute--he was too excited to
remember I hated that--and looked over Lee's dark blue shoulder.  Her
eyes slanted back at me briefly and her trim fingers tapped the
information onto the screen.

"Drifting past the last asteroids now.  And Commander --there's a
ship."

A ship.  We haven't had a ship dock here since the Seouras blockade
began.  Our last contact with an outside source, and that by sensors
only, was when a tiny prospector blundered through the asteroid belt
three or four months ago.  The prospector must have evaded Seouras
sensors somehow to get that far, but as soon as it left the belt they

destroyed it while we watched.  Stupid, sad waste.  Something that
small could be no threat to the huge, gray ships.

It gave us ideas, though.  Of sending a ship to sneak out of the system
via the asteroids.  So we sent two volunteers and never heard from them
again.  We tried again a little while afterwards, using the tail of a
comet similar to the present one.  That ship was damaged and we had to
watch it drift away from us, the pilot condemned to wait until his air
ran out.  We wished the Seouras had fired.

The Seouras might not let us intervene.  The trouble is, we won't know
until we try, and it means risking one of our two shuttles and several
lives for a radioactive wreck.

I didn't like the idea.  We'd lost the Earth Fleet squadrons in five
minutes when the Seouras first attacked and I didn't want to lose
anyone else.

No movement from the gray ship.  So far, so good.  I peered at the
readings.  "Have we got an ID?"

Lee frowned at the console as though it had insulted her personally.
"No, ma'am.  Radiation from the mine's interfering.  And the ship
itself is hot."

We had to know where the ship came from.  It could carry a message from
the Confederacy, from Earth.  It could mean the end of our isolation.
It could also, I rubbed the implant in my neck, just be another lost
prospector.

"It'll take a bit longer, but we'll send the probe," I decided.  The
probe is a battered robot with basic sensor arrays and limited
propulsion, designed to investigate the geological composition of
asteroids and the only one left out of our original complement of five.
After the Seouras came we modified the robot's sensors so they could be
used to repair the reflectors.  The fewer live targets we provided, the
better.

Lee nodded and sent a message to Engineering, but Baudin's face fell
in disappointment.

"The probe can't bring the ship in," he ventured.  "What if there are
survivors?"

"We'll retrieve it, then.  After we make sure."  I could see why he
chafed at the enforced patience of our dealings with the Seouras--our
only way of resistance is to do nothing.  But the likelihood of
survivors is small, and there's no way he'll persuade me to risk more
lives without good reason.

The question was, why had the Seouras let the ship past?  Perhaps it
surprised them, and when the mine blew, they felt it wasn't worth
finishing the job.

Unless ... I tried to think back to my most recent session with them.
Were they any different this time?  If they were letting down their
guard, becoming careless, we might try slipping a shuttle "out the back
door" again as well as the comet probe.  We don't have any jump-capable
ships here, but we still do have a couple of shuttles, two old fighters
and an assortment of motley freighters like the Queen.

Perhaps there had been a change in the Seouras lately, the way they
felt inside my head.  But not a slackening.  Rather, an intensification
of purpose, a sharpening of will, of voice.  As though more and more of
the voices had decided to agree.

I needed to think.  "I'll be in my office.  Call me as soon as you have
anything."

Even now, weeks since the blast, the mess in my office still comes as
a surprise.  Murdoch's investigation still hasn't found the culprit,
but the bomb itself was a small, homemade device.  Designed, Security
thought, to frighten rather than kill.  It certainly succeeded.  I was
sick with apprehension for days afterwards, even though I was not in
the office at the time of the explosion.  Lately, though, my habitual
fog of fatigue has cushioned fear, and the mess has become merely an
inconvenience.

A chaos of file pads data crystals, and console components littered the
desk, and the lower half of the office door and the bank of interface
consoles beside the desk were covered in blackened dents and cracks.
The main interface bank was dead, and its dark monitor gave the small
room an air of abandonment.  The single live interface stood on the
desk, swamped in clutter.  On the wall next to the door a
two-dimensional print hung askew, although the blast had not been able
to damage its clear container.  That print has survived two global
wars, three major depressions, and an Amazonian flood.  An ancestor of
mine who assisted the Meiji government in building its first iron

and steel mill brought it to Germany from Japan.  Engineering runs in
the family.

The print shows a village marketplace in Japan with a curving bridge in
the foreground and figures bustling around it.  Behind the town towers
an immense, cone-shaped mountain with a far-off traveller scurrying for
shelter from a squall.  Looking at it now, I sympathize with that
traveller.  I had the feeling we were in for a storm too.

Before I'd even sat down Veatch entered through the connecting door
from his office.  As station manager, officially Veatch oversees all
the major departments of the station and then brings any problems that
involve station-wide decision-making to me.  In practice, however, the
department heads have more autonomy.  Bill Murdoch runs Security, the
chief magistrate, Lorna deVries, never consults anyone about Judiciary,
Mac has his own little dictatorship in Engineering, and Eleanor Jago
takes care of the medical staff and systems.  The rest of the station
comes under Administration and its many divisions, except for Earth
Fleet and Customs, which are nearly irrelevant now.

Veatch always seems happy to immerse himself in the convoluted world of
Confederacy bureaucracy that regulates the official minutiae of station
life.  This is not surprising, for the Melot clerical caste dominate
the huge, unwieldy bureaucracy of the Confederacy for a reason.  Veatch
runs our administration with comparable efficiency, unfazed by military
defeat and alien occupation.  I find it difficult, though, to decipher
how he feels about being sent to a post so obscure and isolated, let
alone his feelings about the blockade.  Does he see his posting as
punishment?  Perhaps it is merely another job to be performed as best
he can in spite of the amateurish assistance of human

administrators, many of whom resent his presence as proof of
Confederacy interference.

A slight shabbiness is the only sign he shows of the past six months'
turmoil.  The collar and cuffs of his suits droop and recently he has
taken to wearing the same pair of shoes two shifts in a row.  But his
coppery skin of tiny overlapping scales is as iridescent as ever and
the great gold eyes stare at me with the same deceptive innocence.

"What is it?"  I thudded into my desk chair.

"Commander."  Veatch inclined his head.  "Is there to be no rescue
operation?"  Presumably he'd called the upper level for an update.

"Not unless we confirm the presence of survivors.  Do you think
everyone's heard about it?"

"The Station Times broadcast the story on the 0900 news."  His finely
scaled face was expressionless, but I caught a distinct impression of
distaste.  "They scooped, I believe the word is, the official
announcement."

I groaned inwardly.  Dan Florida, one of the station's more
enterprising civilian residents, recently decided we needed an
independent news service to supplement what he called the "paucity of
official information systems."  He pays to use part of the station comm
net and then charges his viewers a small fee.  Granted, the service
broadcasts in a variety of minority languages, which the official net
does not, and therefore employs more refugees, but it seems strange to
make people pay for information that should be public.

Veatch seemed a little brisker than usual, perhaps the Melot equivalent
of being excited.  "You did not meet Mr.  Florida?"

"No, thank goodness."

"He contacted me to arrange an interview with you.  I told him he
would have to make an appointment and he said he would check the time
with you."

"Well, he hasn't," I snapped.

He tapped his com file with a steady, soporific rhythm.  "You have not
forgotten the Smoke residents meeting at 1800 hours?"

I shook my head and choked back a yawn.  Staying awake was proving
impossible.

Veatch's voice is a leaden whine.  Both irritating and mesmerizing, it
engenders a desire on the part of the listener to disagree with
whatever he's saying.  At the same time his manner is lofty and
disdainful.  At first I thought he was just like that with me,
regarding me as a sort of mechanic, incapable of understanding
administrative issues.  But as the months have passed, I notice that
he's the same with everyone.

"The efficiency reports from last week are cause for concern.  Three
departments are down more than two points.  It would be appropriate to
bring the matter up at the senior staff meeting tomorrow," he droned
on.

"I'll look at the data first."

Eventually Veatch folded his three-jointed fingers in a complex
pattern, a movement that indicated a desire to change the subject
Before I could suggest we talk later the door chimed and opened to
admit Ellis Walsh, our Earth Fleet liaison-cum-personnel officer.

She walked quickly, a little behind the momentum of her own pace, a
stack of file pads nestled in the crook of one arm.

"Commander... Oh, Mr.  Veatch.  I didn't know you

were here."  She flicked a long, blond fringe away from her eyes.

Veatch inclined his antennae diffidently.

Walsh pulled over the other chair and sat She had the air of someone
settling in for a siege and I rattled a data crystal irritably on the
desk.  All I wanted was a quick nap.

"I've been trying to reach you for days, Commander."

Veatch took his own file pad off the desk.  "Interview requests are
considered according to station priorities."

"I've been with the Seouras," I interjected hastily.  "What is it you
wanted to see me about?"

She glanced at Veatch, who showed no sign of moving.  "It concerns him
directly."

I felt a little more alert.  Dissension in the ranks.  Walsh is a
member of the Earth Fleet administration that is supposed to run
Jocasta.  To keep staff numbers up, though, over half the positions are
filled by Con Fleet people, like myself, and those seconded from Sector
Central administration, like Veatch.  Politically it's no accident that
even though we are an Earth base, the head of station, station manager,
and head of security all come from the mixed Confederacy forces.

Not that it matters anymore.  We're all stuck here together.

"He keeps blocking me on the development plan."  Walsh tapped her file
pad

"Development?"

"The Alpha redistribution project."  She frowned at my slowness.  "The
RRC--Residential Reform Committee-met and discussed the matter last
month."

I took the proffered data chip and called up the information on my own
interface.  It's a wonder the thing still works.  I've removed visual
cueing, retina scans, voice cues, and direct cranial enhancement, which
I don't use anymore, and any other modifications in the hope of
increasing efficiency in its main functions, but the bomb blast left
problems.

"It was agreed to negotiate with the owners of dwellings in sections
three through twenty-four regarding the conversion of that space into
either agricultural extension or high-density residencies," Walsh
continued.

"Ye-es."  As far as I could remember "agree" has never been something
the committee has done very well, but this wasn't the time to mention
it.  "I'm familiar with the proposal.  How is it being blocked?"  I was
interested to hear what she had to say about Veatch.  Ordinarily, he
kept a claustrophobically well controlled department, and for one of
his staff to approach me directly argued great frustration boiling away
below the surface.

Veatch recrossed his legs, unworried.

"Commander, I must protest the expression 'block,"" he said.  "It
implies a hidden agenda and/or deliberate malice.  I have merely ..."

"Oh no.  This is my complaint."  Walsh leaned forward and stared across
at Veatch then back at me.  "Let me tell it my way."

"Fine."  I glanced at Veatch.  He shrugged without moving his body and
settled back in his chair.

"Things aren't moving ahead at all,", she continued.  "I try to process
drafts of, say, preference surveys for current residents or
environmental impact assessments, but they just disappear after they
leave my terminal."

"Disappear?"

"Yes.  When I chase things up, they're stuck at the got torn of
someone's In file.  Or in the wrong directory.  Or the hardcopy's been
mislaid.  It's more than inefficiency-this is deliberate
obfuscation."

I couldn't stop the yawn escaping.  "Any comments, Mr.  Veatch?"

"It needs to be investigated according to protocol," he said.  "Without
undue haste."

Walsh snorted.  "Haste?  Have you noticed our situation lately?  We're
not exactly on the main supply routes anymore.  We need to use space as
efficiently as possible, as soon as possible, and Alpha has too many
Class Four areas."

Class Four areas were set aside as recreation or "open cultural" space
in the station's original plan.  Places like parks, stages, concert
venues.  In practice, the well-off Alpha ring residents kept and
expanded these areas while people in the crowded lower rings have had
to use the space mainly for accommodation.  It feeds the anti-Four
Worlds sentiment on the station because the majority of Alpha residents
are either K'Cher or those who've profited by their association with
the K'Cher.  The K'Cher aristocracy controlled the economy of the
Confederacy in the same way the Melot controlled its administration and
the Bendarl its defense.  Not overtly, but with great efficiency.
Except, perhaps, for the Bendarl, who wouldn't recognize subtlety if
they died of it.

Despite Veatch's unpopularity as a member of one of the four "major"
species, it was unlike him to oppose anything that improved the
efficiency of station administration, provided it did not mean a flow
of power out of his hands.  Which this project did not.  There would be
plenty of opportunities for him to assert control.

Veatch inclined his head a little too much.  "All properly formatted
material is processed through due channels."

"Are you suggesting my drafts were not formatted correctly?"  Walsh
snapped.

"Perhaps we should continue at a more appropriate ; time."  Veatch
added insult to injury by looking at me.  He was definitely protesting
too much.  Surely he must realize, first, that Walsh was right, and
second, that we couldn't afford to exacerbate the dissatisfaction on
the station.

"Now is appropriate," she said.  "We'd like to present an interim
report to the committee next week."

"That is hardly enough time to make sure all departments"

"Ahem."  I didn't like interrupting Veatch, but he can spout excuses
for hours on end.  Walsh should know that confronting a Melot brought
no solutions--they just retreat into ambiguities until you feel as
though you are I wrestling smoke on a high-gravity planet.

"Veatch, we really have no choice about this.  The crowding in Delta
and even Gamma is putting unacceptable strains on environmental
systems, particularly waste recycling and water supply.  You've read
the reports."

Walsh nodded.  Veatch listened impassively.

"We can reallocate Alpha areas arbitrarily or we can do it with
consideration of the residents' wishes.  But it's going to get done,
and soon."

He snuffled, the Melot noise equivalent to clearing his ; throat.  "And
the matter of compensation?"

So that was it.  The K'Cher and their affiliates must be pressuring
Veatch to make the best deal for them.

Walsh laughed.  "You're kidding.  We lease them the property, remember?
Jocasta is an Earth station."

"The administration must honor the terms of the lease or offer due
compensation for not doing so."

"They don't decide what is due compensation."

"I do not need to remind you that Jocasta is in fact leased to
Earth."

"Yes, and we haven't got any compensation for the invasion, have we?
Occupation by hostile aliens isn't in the terms of our lease,
either."

I winced.  This is the real issue.  None of us understand why the
Confederacy did not retaliate when the Seouras took Jocasta.  The gray
ships are powerful, true, but the warships of Con Fleet are crewed
largely by the Bendarl, one of the most warlike and ruthless species in
the known galaxy, and Invidi technology had been able to defeat an
enemy as strong as the Tor.  None of us doubted Con Fleet ability to
defeat the Seouras ships.  But we had begun to doubt the sincerity of
Confederacy intentions.

Unable to voice their protest directly to the Confederacy, people
expressed their feelings of betrayal and the uncertainty and fear of
the future in resentment against the administration's cooperation with
the Seouras--against me.  They also resented the station's one Invidi
resident whom they felt could have stopped the invasion or called for
help, or something.  An Barik, the Invidi "observer" from the
Confederacy Council, was never sociable, but these days he stayed in
his quarters all the time.

I sighed.  I'd had enough of the Nine versus Four conflict when I
worked in the "Inner worlds.  It had been the catalyst that destroyed
my marriage.  Now it was dividing Jocasta.

Veatch and Walch were still waiting for my response.

; "You can work out some kind of compensation package," I said.

Veatch flicked his antennae in a satisfied way.  I "But they must
understand that it will have to go through a judicial screening process
before being approved.  And ; whatever is eventually agreed upon, we
can't actually give I any sort of compensation until the blockade is
ended and we have sufficient resources.  And," I added, "they'll have
to agree to something within the week."

Walsh smiled and was about to make a comment when the comm link beeped
and Baudin mercifully interrupted.  "The telemetry's coming through
now, ma'am."  "I'll be right out."  I turned to the two administrative
officials.  "If you'll excuse me?"

They both opened their mouths to have the last word, caught my eye, and
decided against it.

I There was a living face in the coffin.  A human face.  Young, female,
asleep.

Whatever I'd expected to see through the probe's telemetry, this wasn't
it.  The visual pickups moved down to show the owner of the face
floating peacefully in her narrow world of aquamarine gel, oblivious to
the chaos outside.

Harsh white light streamed in through a jagged rip in the spacecraft
hull, so bright that vision filters flashed a warning when the probe
turned that way.  It checkered the

, mess of floating, twisted metal and left the far corners of the cabin
impenetrable.  Tendrils of coolant sifted across the floor, dispersed
like smoke on wind by the touch of the probe's passage.  A curlicue of
shining metal danced end over end.

The initial blast fused ceiling and entry at the nose end in a tangle
of metal.  Coffin-like berths were overturned or pulled loose from
their supports.  Some of the containment locks had failed, the pods had
opened, and bodies floated within an untidy cloud of stasis fluid.  The
pods would have been arranged in even rows along opposing walls.  The
other wall carried the remains of a magnetic tread--that must have been
their "floor."  At right angles to this were banks of controls and
monitoring devices, some apparently unscathed, others blackened and
melted.

The coffin shuddered as a floor panel shifted.  The ship itself was
creaking apart.  Outside it trailed a cloud of debris and water vapor
as momentum from the explosion pushed it closer to the station.

"Can we remove the coff--... the pod without disconnecting the
cryosystem?"  My voice fell flat into the scene inside my eyes, echoing
in a way that should have been impossible in vacuum.  There was a
curious sense of dislocation to this conversation with someone who my
senses told me wasn't really there.  I pulled my head out of the
virtual hood with a grimace of distaste and returned to the physical
present--an engineering console in the Bubble.  The probe continued
sending information.

"There are humans in there.  In cryostasis.  Where did they come from?
Someone froze them and sent them here?"  Lee bent over the screen as
though it would yield more information that way.

A present?  I dismissed fee ridiculous image with regret.  It would be
nice to think that someone out there liked us.

"It's an old ship, so possibly they're from a human

[ colony we don't know much about.  It would have to be from close by,
given how slow that ship is."

"Three of the pods are still functioning, and that's a miracle."
MacGuire, the chief engineer, had grumbled at the necessity to come up
to the Bubble from his office in the lower ring, but the excitement of
the occasion seemed | to have affected even nun now.  He tapped a
monitor screen and both Lee and I peered over his shoulder to see three
highlighted rectangles overlaid on thin blue lines showing the ship's
layout, all put together from the probe's information.  Figures
continued to appear as more information from the robot's telemetry was
processed.

"We can assume the pods have backup circuits, or they wouldn't still be
alive now," he said.  "But whether the backups will keep working long
enough to get them back here alive ..."

"We'll have to hope their backups have backup.  And that the pods have
good radiation shields."  I thought of the gel and the lid of the
coffin and the waiting dark.  You would have to be very sure the op sys
knew how to maintain and then reverse the cryogenic process before
willingly being frozen in there.

"We could nudge it over to one of the docks," Lee ventured.

Mac snorted wetly in my ear.  "Not on your life!  I'm not having that
Christmas tree disrupting every sensitive comm facility on the station.
And it'll contaminate the entire dock area."  He tapped me pointedly on
the shoulder.  "You do know some of the rad shields in the docking bays
aren't working?"

Lee mouthed "Christmas tree?"  to herself.

"I know."  I drew away from his thick, freckled finger.

He waved a hand in a circle to indicate the whole station.  "We risk
disrupting the main field, too.  After all that trouble getting it
online again."  Mac straightened with an an of finality.  "Pop it out
in close orbit for a couple of days.  Then at least the really nasty
stuff from the mine will have dissipated."

"You can't leave them out there for days!"  Lee's round face glowed
with indignation.  "Their cryosystems might fail.  We could find
corpses if we wait too long."

"We won't leave them."  I wanted to look at the ship sooner than that.
"You sent the probe's information to Medical?"  I asked Mac.

"They're looking it over now."  Mac glowered.  Our relationship of
mutual professional trust and personal distaste had not changed since
he arrived from Titan to take over my post of chief engineer three
years ago.

We were going to have to send out a crewed ship to remove the survivors
and maneuver the wreck into place.  Most of our large-scale dock
equipment had been damaged in Seouras attacks, otherwise it might have
done the job for us.  If we used the little tug-shuttle we'd have to be
quick, because its shields weren't designed to cope with the kind of
radiation it would encounter from the mine.

"We haven't got anything that will grapple the wreck properly.  And
you'll want a medic."  Mac read my mind easily--he'd been doing this
work for about forty years longer than the rest of us, after all.

"Yes.  To keep an eye on the cryosystems."

Baudin was speaking info a monitor on the other side of the Bubble.  He
caught my eye, spoke again, and came over.

"Commander, the K'Cher trader Keveth is offering to

assist in towing the wreck.  In return for the usual consideration of
second option on salvage rights."

"Keveth?"  Why should Keveth volunteer to risk its life for some
unknown humans?  Normally the K'Cher was particularly careful of its
own safety.  When the Seouras attacked Keveth had not even attempted to
flee.  Then again, Keveth was the black sheep of the remaining K'Cher
traders on Jocasta and fraternized with lesser species, such | as
humans, even when not doing business, something the '< others never do.
It was probably also desperate to get work, especially something that
would give it an edge over the other K'Cher.

I noted Baudin's carefully neutral expression.  One of the other Earth
Fleet staff was frowning in our direction and another was flipping open
a section of her console with unnecessary strength.  There was
considerable resentment on their part that while Earth Fleet pilots had
sacrificed their lives to defend the station, aliens from the Four
Worlds such as the K'Cher had kept themselves safe and were now
enjoying the rewards of cowardice, however meager those rewards might
be at the moment.  "Has the Rillian Queen got the equipment?"  I asked
Mac.  Keveth's old ship hasn't even got a K'Cher name.  "Aye.  If
Keveth hasn't sold too many important bits."  I The Queen could grapple
the wreck and place it in a safe orbit.  We could then send a doctor
and a couple of the engineering staff in a shuttle and the Queen could
bring the survivors back in her cargo bay.  The Seouras had never '
attacked anything so close to the station, not since that first day.

"All right."  No reason we shouldn't use what few re-I sources we have.
"Inform Keveth that we appreciate its

help.  But it'll have to apply for salvage using the proper
protocols."  Last time the Rillian Queen picked up some refugees, in
pre-occupation days, not only had all the victims signed five-year
contracts with its captain to work for a pittance, but we had had to
buy pieces of wreckage for analysis from the conniving alien under some
little-invoked rule of salvage.

"We won't be able to see what it's doing," ventured Baudin, referring
to Keveth.  "Not with the radiation as well as the Seouras jamming.  It
doesn't let humans on the ship."

I didn't trust Keveth either, but there was little choice.  "The probe
will show us a bit.  We'll need someone to pilot the shuttle," I added.
That should make Earth Fleet feel wanted.

"Aye, ma'am."  Baudin wasn't happy but he said no more.

It was almost comical how fast the rumors had spread.  Keveth had known
about the shipwreck less than an hour after we'd sent the probe.

Mac spoke to his people on another link, sorting out a strategy for
removing the pods.  I'd have dearly liked to go in the shuttle too, but
Security would have a fit.

"Here's the breakdown."  Lee tapped a neighboring monitor then moved
aside for me to sit before it.  The probe's information was regimented
into neat ranks of pale blue figures on deeper, blue.

"Why should "the mine blow?"  she pondered over my shoulder.  "This
ship doesn't have a jump drive to set it off."

A glance at the figures confirmed it.  This was an ancient ship, nearly
a century old.  More to the point, how

could it have travelled this far without a jump drive?  Jocasta is way
out on the back fence of Confederacy space, more than five jumps from
the closest inhabited system.  It takes from three days to three weeks
of real-time travel to reach here and close to a week of our time for a
high-priority message to reach Sector Central.

The wreck itself looked like one of the old runabouts used around the
inner worlds of the Confederacy.  Outdated enough to be used
independently by the Nine Worlds because the ships don't have a jump
drive, but still functional.  I scrolled down the columns.  This one
had a lot of unusual modifications, but only normal space drive

"I wonder where it started from," said Baudin.

"I wonder how it got out here," I echoed him unconsciously.

"Could something else have activated the mine?"  asked Lee.

"We haven't picked up any other ship signals.  Those mines are pretty
unstable things.  Might have activated by accident," Mac replied from
the engineering console.  He didn't sound convinced.

"Never heard of that happening before."  I stood up, joints jabbing
with pain.  Now that the initial excitement was wearing off, tiredness
had crept up on me again.

"I guess we'll just have to ask them."  Lee's face was calm but her
voice danced on the words.

"Let's hope they survive that long."  I yawned.  Much as I wanted to
stay and watch the rescue operation, unless I took a nap I wouldn't be
lucid enough to ask the survivors anything.

The illumination failed to come on as I entered my quarters.  I
tripped over something soft on the floor, cursed half-heartedly, and
tapped on the lights manually.  Sensor relay's malfunctioning again.

A pile of dirty clothes lay on the floor near the doorway where I'd put
them to remind myself they needed recycling.  I stepped over the
now-scattered pile and past the table occupied by two interface
monitors and a mess of disks, data crystals, plastic hardcopy, and
dirty cups.

Originally the unit was designed as reasonably spacious quarters for
one, possibly two people.  After the Seouras ships arrived the living
space allowance for everyone in the administration was reduced.
Personnel had offered to let me have my own quarters, but I thought
that smacked of preferential treatment.  Later I regretted agreeing we
should all make sacrifices when it transpired that those sacrifices
included sharing a bathroom with three other partner less females.  The
four sleeping rooms cluster around a central kitchen and the communal
bathroom head designed for one.  We all miss our privacy.

My room had the resentful air of a place unloved.  I only returned here
to sleep, and not every night.  It was a single room with a bunk along
one wall and a square regulation wardrobe at its foot.  The decor was
plain, its saving grace an absence of the pale blue that coated the
rest of the station's interior walls--it boasted varying shades of
recycled gray and non-regulation cream.  My grandmother's quilt was the
only splash of real color, a glorious blaze of kaleidoscopic gaiety
folded untidily against the wall.  A therma sheet trailed from the
narrow bed where I'd dragged it as I got up, midnight the night before
last.

As I bent and tossed the sheet back on the bed, its corner swept a
photograph off its stand.  I picked up the flat frame and wiped it
carefully.  Five familiar faces looked back at me from the monotone 2D
picture.  A real photograph, it is the only tiling my great-grandmother
left me when she died.  She must have known I would have no use for
land or fortune.  Inside the clear casing it is faded and tattered, the
features of the women difficult to discern.  The more I stared, the
more the lines shifted and blurred.  An eye socket became a leaf
shadow, a strand of hair a gust of wind.  But then the light and dark
lock into place and the group look out at me as they stand casually on
dusty ground beside a great tree.  In the background children's shadows
play against a rough concrete wall.

The tall figure of my great-grandmother looks both embarrassed and
defiant, her long arms folded as if to ward off enemies.  Demoura Haase
was pig-headed and hot-tempered even in the last years of her life, but
I loved her with that passion that young children sometimes have for
elderly relatives, and she encouraged all my bad habits, according to
my grandmother.  Next to her is the short woman who headed the district
court, her expression calm and efficient but her hands twisted together
in a nervous ball.  Then Marlena Alvarez, a little self-conscious: a
plump, motherly figure in a cheap cotton dress, her tired eyes look
straight through the camera into the distance beyond.  Slightly behind
Alvarez, in a white coat, stands the Indian representative in the
provincial government, Dr.  Nerise Kauni.  She is the only one smiling,
although whether at a joke or for the camera it was hard to say.  She
became minister of health the year my great-grandmother retired.
Standing apart and side-on to the others, as if to express the
difference between them, is the last of the area's great

landowners, stony-faced and elegant.  After all the other rancheros
were driven away or fell in with the drug barons, she donated her land
to the town and remained to oversee the revival of its economy in the
hands of guilds and collectives.

The town was named Los Lagos Gemelos on maps, named for the twin lakes
that lurked in the lower reaches of the valley and flooded every rainy
season, but everyone knew it as Las Mujeres.  In a curious coincidence,
the constellation closest to Abelar and visible from Earth with the
naked eye is Gemini, the Twins.

Their faces fascinate and console me.  I look at the flat black and
gray image and wonder where they found their strength, how these
ordinary-looking figures managed to accomplish so much.

I put the photo image down with a sigh, thudded onto the bed, and
started to ease one boot off by treading on its heel with the other,
plagued by a nagging feeling that I'd forgotten something.

Food, that's it.  I promised Eleanor I'd try to eat regular meals. With
all the excitement about the sleeper ship, I'd forgotten again. No
wonder I felt a bit woozy and lightheaded.

We receive two days' worth of stored "space rations" per week, which I
always finished in the first few days, and after that we were supposed
to utilize other sources.  I sighed and dragged myself into the
communal kitchen to rummage through the rations cache.  I hate cooking,
but it was that or trek over to a cafe on the other side of Gamma.

The light sensor belatedly picked up my movements and brightened the
small room to reveal rows of gleaming metal drawers topped with a
narrow, waist-high bench.  Ensign Lee, who was one of my unit-mates,
always complained about lack of space in which to work.  She stacked
her esoteric culinary accessories--choppers, mixers, zappers--on the
floor and under the round table.  We were forever tripping over these
machines.

A container on the bench held some tuber-like vegetables.  I took one
and hesitated over the choice of setting on the cooker.  Should it be
"firm," "soft," "puree" or "pulp"?  I selected "soft" and added the
"spice" option, not bothering with settings because we only ever get
one flavor from the blasted thing.  The cooker purred reassuringly when
activated, and I decided it was safe to leave it while I undressed.

God, I'm tired.

Going over to the Seouras ship always leaves me with irresistible,
leaden fatigue.  Eleanor Jago says it's something to do with
neurotransmitters.  During a consultation once she'd described it to me
as backlash, a reaction to the unnatural form of communication with the
Seouras.

I prized off the boots and my jacket joined the pile of clothes on the
floor.  The uniform belongs to the now-defunct Engineering Corps.
Murdoch says I wear it from affectation and Eleanor says from
sentiment, but the truth of the matter is that the glorified maroon
overall with roomy pockets and utilitarian belt is comfortable.  I've
worn it for nearly twenty-five years now and would hate to have to
change it for the stiff navy suit that Con Fleet officers wear now.

The trousers slid off easily.  I haven't regained the weight I lost
during those first negotiations with the

Seouras last year.  The odor of their nutrient slime would take away
anyone's appetite.  Greenish, stinking, opaque gel, it fills their ship
from wall to wall and sticks to every surface, even seeping through the
joins of our environmental suits.  The stench of it clings to my hair
and on my skin, and I can't smell anything else anymore.  The cooker
still purred as I padded barefoot across the kitchen to the bathroom.
It had steamed up completely inside and I couldn't see what it was
doing to the vegetable.  Probably a good thing.

It wasn't worth trying to take a shower bete--we hadn't had any decent
water for weeks.  I would stop off at the senior staff locker room on
my way back to the Bubble, but for now I needed to wake myself up
enough to eat dinner.  Or breakfast, for those who preferred circadian
rhythms.  The air wash still works, so I stuck my face into its
lukewarm gush without enthusiasm, avoiding looking in the mirror at the
new gray hairs.

The gray bothers me.  I can ignore other problems like the uniform
becoming looser, shaky hands, and the dark circles around my eyes. It's
the gray hair that I notice on the rare occasions I do look in the
mirror.  It leaches the contrast between skin and hair so that a pale,
ageing stranger stares back at me.  This is not how I like to see
myself.  I have always looked like my grandmother Elvira, especially
the expression--the same slightly self-conscious defiance, the stubborn
set of the jaw, the quizzical lift of dark brows.  The face that stares
from the photo image in her sitting room at home, the one that leans
carelessly against a row of sun-faded leather spines, its metal frame
clouded with a lifetime of tiny scratches.  Elvira in a black dress at
eighteen, the year she defied Demora and ran away to join the Earth
South movement.  She met Jack Halley there and returned to the town
nearly twenty years later with him and the child that was my mother. 
Elvira--quick to anger and heavy on discipline, with none of Demora's
measured silences.  My mother's reaction to her was to fade out of
reach, but mine was to resist, and we had some hellish fights before I
ran away to join the Engineering Corps.  Elvira is the last person in
the family I want to resemble, but she is better than this pale
stranger in the glass.

The mirror was more fogged than usual.  I rubbed at it with Lee's
flowered hand wipe without visible improvement.  Maybe it was my eyes. 
I really need at least eight hours' sleep after talking with the
Seouras.

When I let myself think about it I am shocked at the ease with which
new routines have been established since the blockade began.  In the
face of death, pain, and oppression I find myself insisting on cobbling
together some kind of schedule, as if I can hold everything together by
doing so.  Not that I really believe in the schedules anymore, or in
the value of order.  I submit to the forms of procedure because their
fragile shell of normalcy is better than no protection at all against
the vacuum.

It was very like grief, I suppose, those first few months.  At first a
numbness, an inability to fully comprehend what was happening.  Periods
of furious activity aided by insomnia, interspersed with black
depression.  We accomplished a lot in the time--engines fixed and orbit
stabilized, minimum necessary reflector arrays replaced and online,
expansion of primary production facilities... But I remembered few of
the day-to-day details.  It remained a distorted image filtered
through the window of guilt and fatigue.

A muted clang and a curse from the kitchen indicated that someone had
stubbed their toe on Lee's cooking tools.  I came back to the present
with a start--I'd been almost dozing over the air wash--and poked my
head cautiously around the door.  It was foggy in the kitchen, too.

"... not all of us are on early shift," muttered Right Officer Tana
Burrows, late of Earth Fleet and at present attached to station
administration.  She caught sight of me and pulled her gown tighter
with an irritable twist.  She is a petite woman, even smaller than me,
but her smoldering scowl makes her appear taller.

"What were you trying to do?"  she demanded.

I realized that the fog in the kitchen was centered on the cooker.
Tendrils drifted from its joins and there was a faint odor.

"I was hungry.  You didn't need to get up."  We'd agreed that there was
no place for rank in the unit, but sometimes I thought Burrows took
unfair advantage of this.  She saw all her fellow pilots die in the
Seouras attack and quite clearly holds me to blame.  She hates the Four
Worlds with equal passion.

"Not get up?"  she said.  "Can't you smell it?  It's a wonder the
alarms didn't activate..."

"What's going on?"  Shuab Goro, plump and imperturbable, appeared in
the far doorway.  She was an assistant in engineering, and I mustA have
woken her up because she'd been at the meeting last night, too.  She
rubbed her eyes and sniffed.  "Somebody forgot to set the burner
again."

"Halley."  Burrows put as much venom as she could into my name and
stomped away.  "Who do you think?"

"Give her a break, Tana," Shuab said to her retreating back.

"Don't worry."  I inspected the cooker with a sinking stomach.  A thin
dribble of yellowish sludge had escaped under the door.  Maybe this was
the "pulp" option.

"She's pissed off because the K'Cher keep returning their surveys about
the planning changes."  Shuab passed a clean wipe along the bench below
the cooker and tried to key open the door.  "Tana gets the fun job of
calling them and asking why."

"Why do they return the surveys?"

"They're not interested, I guess."  She finally opened the door and a
cloud of steam rose and dissipated through the kitchen.  From the look
on her face, it can't have smelled good.  "Do you want this?"

I shook my head.  I spend too much time in the Seouras ship to enjoy
eating something sloppy scraped off cooker walls.  I felt guilty for
recycling the food directly rather than through my digestive system,
but we were both too tired to care.

"I'll get something on the way over later."

"Sure.  G'night."  She yawned all the way back to her room and I did
the same.

Baudin's voice woke me from a strange dream in which the K'Cher Keveth
pursued me through the corridors of the station, clutching a file pad
and flicking back its long, blond hair with its front feeler.

"Halley here."  I sat up stiffly, heart pounding, and tried to focus.
I'd fallen asleep seated on the bed.  My hand reached out automatically
to touch open the screen that I

keep set to show the Seouras ship positions.  They were unchanged and
I relaxed a little.

"We've got them," said Baudin.

"Good work.  What's their ETA?"

"About twenty minutes.  The medics want to get the pods off the Queen
and onstation as quickly as they can."

"The prognosis?"  He paused.  "Pretty good, they think."

"That's great.  I'll come up."  I was pulling on my trousers as I
spoke.

If the survivors managed to get through the transition from cryostasis
to normal time, we'd have a lot of questions for them.  The only human
settlement this far out is Jocasta itself.  They couldn't have
travelled from further inside the Confederacy to here at sublight
speeds--it would have taken centuries.  The ship had no jump drive to
get it here, but the evidence of the jump mine proved hyperspace had
been disturbed in some way.  If we could work out how they got in,
maybe we could get out.

A lot of questions.

First Day

It hadn't taken as long as we'd feared--within a couple of hours the
survivors had been brought back to the station, thanks to Keveth's
help.  Hopefully its intercession will improve K'Cher relations with
the other species here, or at least stop them from deteriorating
further.

Baudin's report noted there were three survivors, two men and a woman,
and at least ten bodies in the wreckage.  The former were in the
hospital, the latter could be brought out when we had the wreck secure.
Eleanor would tell me when I could talk to the survivors.  Meanwhile we
needed to access the wreck's op sys and any data that was readable.
Navigational data particularly.  We had to know how it got here.

I stared at the neat 3D representation of the shattered vessel, now
tethered to one of the maintenance platforms around the station.
Unfortunately the interior was too dangerous yet to allow a hands-on
investigation and we were still dependent upon virtual information.  It
would be several hours, perhaps a day, before the dangerous debris was
cleared away, the bodies removed, and the radiation dampened to an
acceptable level.

The explosion had been quite close to the asteroid belt-possibly the
mine's sensors had allowed it to drift right into the inner system. The
old ship was unlucky--eventually we'd have picked up the mine on our
sensors and disarmed it when it got close enough, for one thing Jocasta
did possess was an elderly minesweeper.  "We're going to take what's
loose and recognizable from the main cabin, so we need somewhere to put
it."

I tapped up a section of the central cargo facility.  We scrolled
through bay after bay, all full.

"You'd think that with no trade for six months the placed be empty."
Lee shook her head.  Over at the center console Baudin frowned at her
familiarity.

The station's population had exceeded our designed maximum of twenty
thousand sentient humanoid-equivalent life forms a year after I took
over this job.  By the time the Seouras ships arrived we were half that
again, not counting the refugees, stowaways, and unannounced passengers
who'd slipped through gaps in the Customs net.  Murdoch thinks we have
about five thousand illegals.  I estimate twice that number.  It places
a terrible strain on all the environmental systems, hence Walsh's
concern about unused space.

The Seouras attack destroyed some of the solar reflectors and
processing platforms, which made certain areas of Jocasta temporarily
uninhabitable.  We also had to increase our food production to
compensate for the loss of trade.  Large quantities of unwanted
building materials had been popped out into orbit & make more room,
while potentially useful materials and personal belongings had been
packed away in the micro-g holding areas in the center.  We never had
enough space in the storage bays.  "Here!"  said Baudin, leaning over
and tapping the screen so enthusiastically that it changed programs.

Lee retrieved the image with a long-suffering sigh.

"That'll do," I agreed.  "It's near an airlock where the Queen can
dock, and far enough from the nearest spoke that nobody's going to
float in by accident."

"What do you want to salvage first?"  Lee's fingers paused on the touch
pad

"The main log, if we can get it," I said.  "We need to check their
route, see if they had some peculiarity that got them past the Seouras
sensors.  And any personal stuff that's more or less in one piece."

"And the bodies," she prompted softly.

I cursed my thoughtlessness.  "Those too.  You'd better contact Dr.
Jago about stasis.  I'll be down at the hospital.  Give me a call when
we bring the logs in."

The ring lifts that form the station's vertical transport system are
relatively well repaired, as nobody likes clambering down the narrow
access chutes between the three rings.  The karrikars that travel along
within each ring, however, are less of a priority, and we all do a lot
more walking within the rings than we used to.  The uplift systems in
the spokes are a problem--no contact with the outside galaxy means the
majority of residents have little need to travel to and from docks in
the center.  Nor does anyone now work on the processing platforms, in
case the Seouras decide to use the facilities for target practice
again.  We now use only two or three working cars out of twenty in each
uplift.  The others came in handy for spare parts.  People worry about
evacuation, but as Murdoch says, unless all thirty thousand of us take
turns to jump out the empty

docking hatches, it's hard to see how the uplifts would help. Besides,
we need storage in the spokes and center because there are five or ten
thousand more bodies to house in the rings than the station's planners
first envisaged, and the capacity of the living quarters is stretched
beyond its limits.

When the ring lift doors opened outside the hospital, I thought for a
moment it was the wrong level.  The sudden commotion of raised voices
and press of bodies was like the Hill.  The level indicator in the lift
was right though, and as I stepped out the clear lighting and wide
throughway confirmed it was Gamma, the middle ring.

The crowd, perhaps fifty or more people, was gathered around the main
hospital entry.  It was a curious mixture of human and alien, most of
them refugees or unemployed dockers in shabby clothes, although with a
sprinkling of Earth Fleet and Con Fleet uniforms.  I pushed my way past
a group of wildly gesticulating Garokians and was pushed aside in turn
by two children chasing a third, yelling a tattoo of simulated weapons
fire.  This was not the usual Gamma crowd.  People must have come from
all over the station.

There was even musical accompaniment, in the person of a thin,
dishevelled man playing a string instrument in the corner.  It gave the
whole scene a holiday atmosphere.  The man strummed the slim oval box
with grimy fingers and tapped his foot in time, seemingly oblivious to
the bustle or to whether any tokens had been tossed into the upturned
helmet at his feet.

The words "ship," "jump mine," and "survivors" were repeated in Earth
Standard and half a dozen other tongues.  It looked like the rumour
mill had been busy while I napped.

"Commander!"

I turned with a sinking feeling towards the hearty voice.  Dan Florida,
self-appointed information crusader and minority advocate, was nearly
upon me.  His dark head reached above most of the crowd and his broad
shoulders cut an easy path through them.

"Commander Halley."  His voice penetrated the babble and three
flamboyant Dir merchants turned to observe us.  Two of the Earth Fleet
heads turned, too.

"Good morning, Mr.  Florida.  Do you mind?  I have business at the
hospital."  I cursed my lack of foresight--I should have taken the
other ring lift then the karrikar that goes past the hospital's back
entrance.

"So we hear," he said, and stood casually in my path.  "When's the
administration going to tell us what's going on?"

"When there's something to tell."

He is about fifteen years younger and fifty kilos heavier than me, and
he should have known better than to try force.  I gave him my best "who
d'you think you are?"  stare and hoped Murdoch had sent someone along
from Security.

"I know nothing at all right now, and unless you get out of my way we
won't learn anything more."

He didn't shift.  The merchants and assorted other onlookers moved
closer.  A couple of comments along the lines of "What's going on?" and
"Where's the ship?"  flew back and forth.

"I have it on good authority that a Confederacy ship tried to set off a
jump mine on top of the Seouras," said Florida.  "Have you got
survivors in there?"

"No comment."  I elbowed past him, feeling the hard

muscle of his chest.  At least he had the grace to yield ground.  Then
a harder grip on my wrist jerked me to a halt.

"Do you intend keeping this secret too?"  The Dir trader thrust his
face into mine.  Not that he meant to be threatening --that's how they
talk.  But in humans it creates a nasty adrenaline surge and
flight-or-fight reaction.  I pulled back without thinking, Florida
stepped forward to put a huge restraining hand on the Dir, the other
traders objected, and two Con Fleet ensigns with engineering badges
appeared beside me to face off the Dir.  Florida was asking me
something, the traders and ensigns were arguing, everyone was talking
at once.  Several Earth Fleet personnel joined in, slanging off Con
Fleet  This was ridiculous.  I wrenched away from the trader and slid
back between the ensigns, treading on toes.  The crowd closed up again
in a noisy knot.

"What about the rumor that they're sleepers?"  Florida called after me,
his head above the edge of the crowd.  A couple of excited children
picked up the word and danced around his feet, chanting "sleepers,
sleepers."

"What?"

"You know, cryostasis.  Deep-freeze sleep.  Sleepers."

I mouthed "no comment" and entered the hospital.

Eleanor Jago was waiting for me in one of the labs.  She was going over
the cryostasis pods we had taken from the mysterious wreck.  The pods,
were inside one of the quarantine operation theaters.  Eleanor and two
med techs were directing the robot sensors to investigate its
mechanism. It looked like a coffin with trailing wires and a coating of
glistening fluid, strangely at home in the blue light of the

theater.  Of course, for most of the passengers in the old ship the
pods had been coffins.

I was still a little shaky after the incident outside.  The crowd had
not been hostile exactly but in that excitable mood that can swing
either way.  I hadn't realized there was so much tension among the
"ordinary" residents.  They rightly wanted to know what was going on.
But it was more than that.  I couldn't help feeling that Jocasta's
isolation had touched off a deeper problem, a problem that stemmed from
the very fact of our existence out here.  Nobody likes being at the
bottom of a hierarchy, but that is where Earth and the other Nine
Worlds had been for the entire sixty years of the Confederacy's
existence.  Unless the Invidi started sharing their technology and the
K'Cher their wealth, something was going to give.  It looked like being
my station.

I leaned against the glass wall and stared at the coffin while Eleanor,
who had seen me come in, finished whatever she was doing on the
interface.  We haven't talked as friends since her partner died.  Leo
was one of fifteen people in a repair team who got stuck out on an
unstable platform, about two months into the Seouras occupation.  An
explosion trapped them inside the platform where they were unable to
access the emergency controls, and they drifted out of our "safe" zone
into the path of the nearest gray ship.  From the station we took over
the controls, as well as sending a shuttle to get them.  I did have
brief access to the platform's thrusters, but not long enough.  I
really had them.  When the Seouras weapon touched the platform with
tendrils of green energy and it broke up, my first emotion was
disbelief.  I thought, this can't be

true.  We were about to bring them in, dammit.  I wanted to go back
again, do it quicker, do it better.  Do something.

After Leo's death Eleanor retreated completely from me--she accepted
condolences politely, was composed at the memorial service, and
returned immediately to work.  Which was good, to tell the truth,
because at the time we couldn't spare any of our medical officers even
for a couple of days.  But when she did finally meet my eyes, it was
with a distant, measuring stare that made it impossible for me to reach
past my own guilt.

We should have talked it over, but I was scared of what Eleanor might
say, and she seemed always to be angry at me about something.  She
looked all right, but then it was difficult to tell what she felt at
the best of times.  And these are certainly not the best of times.

"How are they?"  I nodded at the pods.

"I've been able to keep them off life support equipment," said Eleanor.
She is tall and big-boned, her movements considered but not slow, and
she never raises her voice.  Her accent, earthy and unpretentious,
softens the initial impression of coldness.

"The cryostatic medium protected them from the worst of the rays.  It's
interesting stuff.  We're running an analysis now.  Their pod systems
functioned perfectly and woke them with minimal physical trauma."

"Why didn't the other ten function as well?"  I peered into the coffin.
There was padding under the sticky coating of cryogenic fluid.

"Mostly physical damage to the pods from the explosion."  She nodded in
the direction of the corridor.  "Let's go.  I've told the three
survivors what year it is and that they're among friends!"

"They're able to talk?"

"I'd prefer they didn't."  She nodded to one of the med techs as she
left.  "But one of them is a bit upset.  Considering the circumstances,
I thought it better to answer his questions before he upsets the other
two."

She led the way out into a wide, sunny hallway.  Reflector repairs over
the hospital had been a priority after the Seouras attacks, and in
spite of being in the middle ring, it was one of the lightest areas on
the station.  Every time I drag myself down here to see Jago I feel my
skin bask in the warm, safe radiation.

She placed her palm on a security pad beside the next door, which
opened to let us pass.  Voice and visual interaction is down in this
area, too.

"When can they leave the hospital?"  We walked past more doors, some
open, some shut.  Several patients watched us curiously and one waved
to Eleanor.

Eleanor nodded to the security guard who had straightened to attention
beside the next door, and paused with one hand over the control pad.
Her big frame was angled away from me.  "A couple of days probably. But
I think they should be given quarters here, maybe over in Rehab. We'll
keep their surroundings as consistent as possible while they cope with
everything else."

The survivors--the "Sleepers," as Florida had called them--were in a
room together.  The three beds were in a row against a wall, a wall
that was in fact an opaque light-curtain concealing medical equipment.
The ceiling was high.  The walls stop and the space soars up to meet
banks of reflectors that look like a louvered sky.  Filters keep the
light gentle and golden.  If only we could do this for the rest of the
station.

"I want to talk to the captain!"  Peremptory tones could not conceal
the voice's weakness.

Eleanor remained at the door, her attention on readouts from one of
several monitors, and I walked over to the bed from which the man had
spoken.  Next to him a young woman with tangled dark hair followed my
movements with her eyes.  The face in the coffin.  The numerical
recognition code above the bed had been changed to a name-Rachel
Dourif.  The third patient, a young man, was asleep.

The older man's head turned restlessly on the pillow as he demanded to
see Authority.  His voice was hoarse and the accent unfamiliar.  The
skin on his face and hands was flaking and sore-looking around the chin
and mouth.  One of the faces in the pods had had a long white beard.

He saw me and focused immediately.  "I want to talk to the captain."
His voice was clear and words were comprehensible despite the accent.
One of the base languages for Earth Standard.

"Go on, then.  Talk."

His voice cracked in disbelief.  "You're the captain?"

I caught a glimpse of myself in the wall mirror beside their beds.
Small woman in rumpled uniform overalls with no rank badge, untidy
hair, shoulders bent, and face tight with fatigue.  No wonder he had
doubts.

I pulled my shoulders straighter.  "What's your name?"

"Griffis.  Professor Hannibal Griffis," he said reluctantly.

"Welcome to Jocasta, Professor.  This is not a ship" it's a space
station.  My name is Halley.  I'm the head of station.  Your ship was
involved in an accident.  We brought the survivors here and treated
you."

"What year is this^?"

"It's 2121, Earth time."  Perhaps he hadn't believed Jago.

"Where is this station?"  Griffis's sharp, nasal accent was confusing.
I had to concentrate to distinguish the words.

The woman kept her gaze on us without comment.

"We orbit a K-class star several thousand light years from Earth along
the galactic arm."

His pale blue eyes widened further.  "How did we get here?"

"We were hoping you could tell us that.  Where did you come from?"

His eyes searched my face, puzzled.  "Earth, of course."

"No, I mean, where did you board your ship?"

He sniffed.  "I'm telling you.  We left Earth for Alpha Centauri in May
2026."  Three years after the Invidi arrived.  Nearly a century ago.  I
was confused.  Did we simply not understand what each other was saying?
"That's impossible.  Was your ship able to travel through
hyperspace?"

"No."  It was the young woman next to us.  Wine-dark eyes and skin like
honey.  "I was the assistant engineer.  Calypso's engines were a kind
of hydrogen fusion type I'd never seen before.  It took all our
attention just to follow running procedure."  Her voice would be deep
and pleasant when it grew stronger.  "As far as I know, there was
nothing that could have been used to enter hyperspace.  I'm assuming
you'd need vast amounts of energy."

"Yes."  Probably.  We don't know how the jump drive works, because we
don't have access to one.  The Four Worlds maintain their secret very
well.

"Your ship--Calypso, was it?--couldn't possibly have travelled between
here and Earth at sublight speeds in ninety-five years."

Griffis and Dourif looked at each other.

"Well, excuse me, but I think we know where we started from," said the
young woman.

Either I'm mad or they are.  I glanced at Eleanor but she half shrugged
and turned her eye to a monitor.  I tried a different tack.  "You said
you came from Earth nearly a hundred years ago.  How did you develop
the cryostasis technology?"

"They helped us."

"Who?"

"The aliens."

"The Invidi?"

"That's what they called themselves.  Do you know them?"

"I... we have worked together."

"So we finally got along okay?"  Dourif said.

I glanced over at Eleanor again.  "I'm not sure what you mean by 'got
along."  Earth is part of the United Confederacy of Allied Worlds,
which was founded by the Invidi and three other alien species in
2061."

"Confederacy ..."  He repeated the word slowly.

Jago caught my eye and made a cutoff motion with one hand.  "They can
talk again later."

There was so much we needed to know.  "But you said the Invidi helped
you.  I thought they didn't give humans anything but medical technology
in those first decades?"

"Cryostasis is medical technology," said Griffis.  He frowned.  "Did
you say your name was Halley?"

"Yes."

"I knew a man called Halley.  In the Movement.  He ..."

"You should rest now."  Jago stepped between us.  I chafed at the
interruption but didn't dare object.

"Wait."  Dourif tried to prop herself on one elbow.  "What happened to
the others?"

I glanced at Eleanor.  Surely she'd told them.  She looked back at me
but her face was closed.

"I'm sorry."  My voice wavered on the words.  "None of them made it."

Griffis turned to Dourif, face bleak.  "Rachel..."

"Oh god."  She turned away from us all, hunching into the bed.  Griffis
put out a hand helplessly then let it fall between them.

Eleanor and I walked back along the bright hallway to one of the
labs.

"Sit down."  Eleanor pointed the scanner at a padded bench and turned
to the monitor.

"Why?"  I wanted to get back to investigation of the sensor data on the
wreck.  There was no way that ship could have left Earth nearly one
hundred years ago and ended up here, now.  Either Griffis and Dourif
were lying or they had been deceived, or something had happened while
they were in cold sleep that had brought them here.

"Because you're supposed to come straight here after you go to the
Seouras ship.  That means after your shuttle docks."  She tapped open
the screen and then ran the scanner over my back.  It tickled and I sat
on the bench to get farther away from it.  "Why didn't you?"

"We had to bring this ship in."  I didn't know what to make of Griffis.
"Eleanor, it's incredible.  How could a century-old ship without jump
drive get this far?  Why should it end up here?"

It must have been in a jump or the mine would not have activated. Could
their ship have somehow been caught

in another ship's jump field?  No matter that this was theoretically
impossible--I'd consider anything.  But if so, why didn't we pick up
that ship on our sensors?

"Hmph."  She ran the next scanner around my head.  It tickled too.
"When did you last sleep?"

I scratched my hair where the scanner touched a hardened streak of
slime.  "I got in a couple of hours this morning.  Eleanor, is there
any medical evidence to suggest they mightn't be from the past after
all?"

She put the scanner back and made a note with the stylus.

"No.  Their EMGs show classic cryogenic distortions and there are
substances in their blood that humans haven't had for decades. Charming
carcinogenic compounds, hydrocarbons, things like that."

She sighed and sat next to me.  The bench sagged under our combined
weight and I tensed against slipping against her.  Yet on a different
level I wanted that comforting contact.

"Halley, forget them for a minute," she said.  "Let's talk about you.
You're underweight, anemic, and exhausted.  I don't have a clue what
this implant," she touched my neck lightly, "is doing to you.  You've
got to eat and sleep more."

The problem is, I can't keep food down.  It's not like the slight
queasiness everyone feels in lower gravity-some days I throw up
continually.  It's probably stress-related, although I've, been under
stress before and never experienced anything like this.  Even thinking
about it makes my stomach churn.  "What do you Want me to do?"  Even as
the words snapped out I regretted them.  "Tell the Seouras I'm too

tired to make it over there today, but that's okay, you can take
potshots at the station until I feel better?"

Eleanor stood abruptly.  "I didn't say that.  But you can't make
objective decisions in this state.  You might be able to fool everyone
else, but not me."

I didn't understand why she was trying to undermine my remaining
control.

"Why are you saying this?"

"Don't be so goddamn paranoid."

That was all right for her to say, she hadn't seen the crowd outside. I
swallowed my retort.

"All right.  I'll be more careful.  And in the meantime can you take a
good look at those cryosystems for me?  I want to know why they kept
functioning for nearly a century when it takes less than fifty years to
reach Alpha Centauri.  Did they wake up and then go back to sleep?"

We looked at each other and I could see she was beginning to see how
very strange it was.

Our technicians were gathered around the maintenance access panel in
the last of the hospital corridors.  I had to pass them on the way to
the karrikar and couldn't help stopping to see what was the matter.

"Recycling," said the one in charge, a round-faced human whose
rainbow-stained overalls indicated long maintenance experience.  "Got a
big problem with waste disposal."  He ran his eyes up and down my
uniform then evidently decided I might understand more than the bare
facts.  "Looks like there's been a break in the flow in the
under-level, but we can't do anything about the amounts we're sending
down.  Something's gone wrong with the whole program, don't know
what."

I peered at the figures on the small screen.  It looked more like a
faulty connection than anything else.

"Have you got someone down there?"

"Yup."  We all looked at the deck beneath which labored the machines
that enabled life to continue on the station.  If we couldn't recycle
waste products, we'd run out of raw materials within a month.

"I'll take a look on my way out."  I might as well find "

out how serious a problem it was now rather than later.  It might mean
that we would have to reinitialize this particular part of the system
or even isolate it if the problem turned out to be a virus, which was
doubtful.  The station's systems were built for resistance rather than
speed of operation.  It's not so bad now because there is no input from
outside, but before the Seouras came vast amounts of "dirty" data were
entering and circulating, not to mention illegal hardware modifications
and additions.  The systems had to be able to cope with this sort of
corruptive influence.

Maintenance hatches open onto each ring from the recycling level below
the deck, and allow access to the maintenance tunnels that run behind
the main walls.  This one opened onto a narrow, dark space dropping
straight down for two or three meters before changing direction in a
short diagonal at an intersection and dropping a further one or two
meters.  Two humans might fit at a pinch.  A ladder was set in one side
and the other three were covered with check points for the security
network and the rough side of conduits.

I clambered down, treading on each rung carefully to keep away from
live circuits and "hot" plasma relays.  My body blocked out most of the
light from above, but small emitters in the tunnel itself gave off a
weak glow.  The bend was more difficult to negotiate, but after that
the ladder ended quickly in a narrow space that opened via another
hatch into the maintenance level beneath the ring.  By the time I got
through the hatch I was breathing heavily.  I'm out of condition, need
to start running again.

Recycling is a long, low room that stretches away into gloom and the
upward swing of station distance.  The lights

are set as single units, unlike the ubiquitous glare of the upper
levels.  Shadows gather under conduits or beside stacks of containers
and pool in the mess of catwalks, cables, and control boxes in the
ceiling.  It is a separate world of waste disposal pipes and
processors, power cables and conduits, cleaning 'bots and workrooms,
vats of solvent and great, roaring oxidization chambers.  The huge vats
run above the floor along opposite walls and beside them containers
block all but the main path along the middle of the room.  The noise is
constant: vats rumble, pipes gurgle, pumps hiss and make sudden
explosive swooshes.  Droids whirr and AGVs clatter as they go about
their business.

It was not difficult to see the problem.  A trickle of dark sludge ran
down the side of one of the first-stage vats.  There was a dingy pool
around the base, too, and stains splashed as far as the walkway.
Several inactive cleaning droids were positioned around it, and two of
the maintenance crew were observing the mess in a depressed way.  One
of them wore a standard atmospheric protection mask, the other had a
piece of material tied over her nose and mouth.  I sniffed but could
only detect a faint pungency behind the stink of Seouras slime in my
nose.

"What happened?"

The masked man turned with a start at my shouted question.  "What...
Oh, Commander Halley."  He gestured at the vat.  "We had a pressure
problem here.  It didn't come up in either the regular report or the
diagnostic this morning.  By the time we realized what was wrong the
thing had actually blown."

The woman pushed down her homemade mask to speak.  "They think the
problem might be in the center, in the

main connections."  Her skin had a sickly tinge in the erratic
light.

Meanwhile somebody had to clean up.

A heavy hand descended on my shoulder and it was my turn to jump.
Murdoch stood there, nose wrinkling and face screwed up.  The shadows
gave his olive green Security uniform a brownish tinge and he seemed to
loom over me more than usual.

He looked over my head at the tank and gave one of his rare, subversive
grins.  "Yup, it's really hit the fan, all right."

I let out a deep breath in the hope of calming my jumping pulse.  "Did
you want to see me?"

He nodded and jerked his thumb upwards.  "It's about that lot in the
entry."

I didn't know why he wanted to see me.  "I can't do much about it.  A
ship arrived, people are excited."

"You can say that ag--... Phew."  He pinched his wide nose as if it
would keep out the odor.  "Let's get out of here.  You might not be
able to smell any of this but I can."

The maintenance technician looked up sourly from where she was
programming the cleaning droid but Murdoch's burly shoulders had
already turned away.

"Make sure I get a full report," I said to her and followed him.

His words took me back three years to his first days on the station and
my own disbelief that anyone who worked within the Con Fleet hierarchy
could be so rude.  He was assigned here nearly a year after my
appointment, and arrived at a time when the station itself and the
political situation were particularly chaotic.  He'd made the

mistake in his previous post of being too diligent in pursuing
officials accused of taking bribes, not realizing until too late that
one of them was his commanding officer.  I didn't care what his record
was--I was just glad to have a chief of security to take some weight
off my shoulders.

Which he does well.  He divides his time between the two main Security
offices, one in Gamma and one in the Hill.  Before him, there was no
Security cell in the lower ring and no permanent reminder of their
presence--it was a dangerous place then, and if Security showed at all,
the officers patrolled in fours and fives.  When Murdoch arrived he
made efforts to bring the area under control, but it was the Abelar
Treaty that really made the Hill cleanup possible, mainly because it
freed personnel from fighting an external force--the Danadan and other
pirates--to mount an intensive campaign against the crime networks on
the station.  I like to remind him of this when he grumbles about what
a hare-brained scheme the treaty was.

Our relationship changed after the Seouras blockade.  Until recently we
disagreed about most issues in a relatively civilized manner.  He
thought the Abelar Treaty was a terrible idea, had always been opposed
to taking refugees, and was overly concerned about personal security
issues.  Maybe the tension is getting to him, but lately he seems to
often become argumentative for no reason at all before, the next
moment, being overtaken by a mood of quixotic humor.

We climbed back up to the Gamma throughway, "this time via one of the
larger tunnels, passing a technician on his way down steadying a fully
laden mag lev platform.  I twisted awkwardly to avoid him and Murdoch
put out a hand to steady me without comment

"I've got enough on my plate as it is with the festival preparations,"
he said as we emerged from a side alley onto the main throughway.
"We're going to need some help.  What about using some of the Earth
Fleet reserves?"  At this time of the station year a Garokian festival
coincides with the end of Ramadan, an important observance for a good
proportion of the human residents, and every year the station plunges
into celebration with uncharacteristic gusto.  For the Garokians it is
the Renewal of Souls--an annual preparation for death, which they see
as the ultimate renewal into a wider consciousness.  The anniversary of
Earth's entry into the Confederacy falls on the next day, which means
our official ceremonies are always brief and sparsely attended as we
all cope with hangovers.  It is one of the busiest times of the year
for Security.  "Don't see why not."

He looked surprised at not being offered any argument.  "Can't you
issue an official statement about this ship and tell everyone to go
home?"

"I don't know enough yet to say anything."  I stopped in front of the
nearest karrikar.  "I'll try to think of a way to put it that's not
too... provocative."  Murdoch fidgeted.  "So what'll you say?"  Then it
hit me.  He wanted to know too.  "You saw the status report earlier?"

He nodded.  "Yeah, a ship that couldn't have got here."  "The survivors
say they don't know what happened."  "They wouldn't, not if they were
in deep freeze."  "It's incredible to have people from a century ago
here, now."

"You mean, to have a ship here."  Sometimes Murdoch's

flat, dark stare is too perceptive.  "You're thinking, if one got in,
one could get out."

He's right, of course.  The Seouras situation is always my main
priority.  "That too," I said quietly, and keyed my code for the
karrikar.

He hooked his thumbs into his wide utility belt and drummed his fingers
on it, a particularly annoying habit.  "Don't get your hopes up.  They
probably stumbled onto an old jump site or some natural anomaly, that's
all.  We can't use their ship for anything, that's for sure."

"I know," I snapped, and called up a review of the gray ships'
positions on the wall screen while we waited.

"I just meant, don't get obsessive about it, that's all."  Murdoch let
his own irritation show.

I glared.  "I'm not obsessive about anything."

He looked pointedly at the screen where the Seouras ship data was
displayed.  "So why do you keep checking up on them?"

"That's different.  For goodness' sake, Bill, all I meant was it's
exciting to have a ship from the past here."

"Yeah, right.  Where are you off to now?"

"I want to talk to Quartermaine."  As the lift doors opened I quickly
confirmed the Seouras ships were where they should be and closed the
screen.  "The... Sleepers"-what the hell, it was a handy name--"said an
Invidi helped them.  Brin can tell me more about that."

Murdoch grimaced.  "Sleepers, huh?  Guess it's a label.  While you're
there, get Quartermaine to ask the Invidi if he's remembered how to get
us out of this mess."

"I will not," I began, but the doors had already wheezed shut.  If
anyone else had said that I would have been forced to discipline them
for inciting unrest.  Only the other day,

though, I'd heard Murdoch tell an ensign that she should remember who
paid her wages before she complained about the Four Worlds and the
Confederacy.  I don't know where he stands on the whole complex issue
of the Four Worlds and the Nine, technology such as the jump drive, and
autonomy.  He will keep order on the station impartially, that I do
know.

Brin Quartermaine is our liaison officer with the Invidi representative
of the Confederacy Council.  The Invidi, An Barik, was supposed to
"observe" our progress, or lack of it, in administering the station.
Quartermaine forms a buffer between him and us and, by extension,
between the Four Worlds and the Nine.  It is surely the most
uncomfortable job on the station.

The first time I spoke to Quartermaine with anything other than
official politeness was shortly after the Seouras took the system.  I
had half expected to find that An Barik had fled in his little ship,
undetected in the chaos.  Most of Delta was in total darkness but when
I reached the non-oxygen breathers' section called the Smoke, his
quarters were still dimly lit and Quartermaine was there too,
waiting.

"We thought you'd come soon."  Quartermaine's light voice was steady in
the mask's ear-pieces, eyes calm through the visor.

I was strung tight with tension.  "They destroyed all the fighters.
Then every ship that tried to leave.  I've closed all docking ports.
Nobody is to try to leave until we work out why they're here."

Quartermaine's mask nodded.  "Including him?"  An Barik didn't move.

"We were wondering ... Invidi ships have special capabilities.  Is it
possible he could get through and warn the Confederacy?"

Quartermaine turned his back on me and faced the Invidi.  He spoke, but
must have filtered the channel in my mask because I couldn't hear him.
The Invidi's reply was inaudible too.

I paced in the thick red light until Quartermaine turned around.

"I'm sorry.  He can't do that"

"Can't, or won't?"

Quartermaine's very calmness was a rebuke.  "Both, actually.  We don't
know if his ship can withstand the Seouras weapons, and he won't try.
He is not allowed to interfere, you understand."

"No, I don't understand!"  I pushed past Quartermaine, right up to An
Bank.  He was so tall that the edge of my mask made it impossible to
see the top of his form.  "Surely you have technology that might help
us, if not beat them, then at least contact the Confederacy?  Help us
prevent more deaths."

Quartermaine stood close behind me.  "And you're willing to risk his
death?  That's very noble of you, Commander."

"I... no, I didn't mean that."

"Nobody else can pilot an Invidi vessel.  Do you have any proof it
would be resistant to these alien weapons?"

"No, of course we don't."  We're not allowed to touch his ship, let
alone analyze its capabilities."  I could feel the hope slipping away,
as all other hopes had.  "Dammit, he'll be stuck here with the rest of
us, for however long we can hold out.  Does that worry him?"

Quartermaine hesitated.  "Apparently not."

I clamped my mouth shut over the flow of anger.  If we really are to be
stuck here, we'll have to work together from now on.

"Hope he enjoys it."  I turned and left, conscious that I'd never
behaved this way in an Invidi's presence before.

Quartermaine caught up with me as I left the Smoke.  One blue emergency
light shone beyond the end of the corridor, and a fault murmur of
frightened voices waxed and waned.  The mechanical sounds of the
station were different too--the background noises that we don't notice
until they're gone.  Some systems were silent, some rattled or hummed
louder than they should.  My engineer's ear, attuned to the smooth
harmony of integrated functions, found this more unsettling than the
visual evidence of failure--darkness, flickering conduits, ceramic
shards scrunching underfoot, people crying in fear and confusion.

"He can't help you.  The sooner you learn to live with it, the better."
Quartermaine's face was barely discernible in the glow from the airlock
window.

"If he doesn't help us we may not live much longer," I snarled, and
kept walking.

"What did you expect?"  Persistent man.

The truth was, I didn't know what to expect from An Barik.  There was
just the feeling that, we had some right to their help, the hope that
they would care enough... It was not until much later that I felt any
shame at making my mistakes their responsibility.

"Is he upset?"  I hoped he was.

"I don't think so."

Then the Seouras summoned me and it was weeks before I thought of the
Invidi again.

Quartermaine has never demanded much from our friendship --I am the
one who needs the support of our occasional conversations, although it
took me a while to acknowledge it.  After Eleanor retreated into
silence he was the only person willing to talk to me outside work time.
Not that we ever touched upon personal matters, for he kept his life
carefully locked away and I had none to discuss.  His reminiscences and
advice about aliens were enough, though, to maintain my contact with a
world outside the spiral of guilt and depression.

A quiet, self-effacing man, he is very different from the cynical,
capable Murdoch or the overconfident Florida.  His shyness is genuine,
and not helped by his position between the Confederacy representative
and a large group of people who believe the Confederacy has betrayed
them.  I don't think he has suffered any personal attacks other than
verbal abuse or electronic graffiti, two unpleasant aspects of my own
life also, but he has become almost as much a recluse as the Invidi,
moving between his office in Linguistics and his quarters, with an
occasional visit to An Bank.

He always acknowledged the Invidi's extraordinary faculties but refused
to be awed by them.  I thought now of the analogy he'd given to try to
describe Invidi powers.  "In our understanding of the universe," he'd
said, "humans stand on the page of a book and can only turn forward one
page at a time, never knowing what is ahead or how to go back except in
memory.  But the Invidi have the index--all the page numbers to turn to
at will, all the

cross-references, the network of meaning that most of the time we
forget or can only guess at."

"You're talking about gods."

"Heavens no, love.  When did you ever use a perfect index?  There's
always something missing.  Or half of the entries are irrelevant."

I met him in the senior officers' mess hall in the Bubble complex.  He
needed an outing, and Alpha ring was safe enough.  I was also
starving--I still hadn't eaten anything since yesterday.  I sat down to
wait for Brin at one of the low tables arranged in rough circles in
front of serving and recycle hatches.  No restful wall ho los here,
thank goodness.  The only sound was a murmur of conversation from three
of Veatch's staff sitting at a center table.

I turned my face to the feeble warmth from the window.  Some wit once
dubbed the product of our reflector system "second-hand sunlight," but
it was better than the artificial light in the lower rings.  "You'll
get freckles."

I opened my eyes with a start as Quartermaine placed a tray containing
two cups and a full plate on the table and sat down himself.  He wore
drab civilian clothes and might have been a caricature of a genteel
academic.

"How's the Bubble?"  he said, taking the plate and cups off the tray.

"Fine.  How's An Barik?"

"Still here."  The old joke was starting to sound a little sour.  Even
Quartermaine didn't know why the alien was still here, given the
likelihood that Invidi technology would allow him to leave the station
whenever he felt like it, Seouras or no Seouras.

The plate held two sticky-looking Garokian pastries from the Hill
bakery.  "What's this?"  I asked hopefully.

"You haven't eaten."  It wasn't a question.  "Those are fresh."

"How do you know?"

"That they're fresh?"

"That I haven't eaten."  I started one of the pastries.

"You look terrible.  Washed out."

"Thanks a lot," I said with my mouth full.  "You look a bit tired
yourself."

"It's been noisy the past few nights.  I haven't been able to get a
decent sleep."

"Festival?"

"Mmm."

The pastries tasted much better than they looked.  The bakery was
deservedly popular.  Garokians were refugees-among those both Sector
Central and many voices on the station had cautioned me against
admitting.

"Now tell me about this mystery ship."  He leaned forward.  "Is it true
it came from Alpha Centauri?"

I groaned through a mouthful of tart, chewy flakes.  "We're going to
have to do something about Florida."

"What?"

"We found the wreck of a ship with its crew in cryostais.  Looks like
it hit a jump mine.  The strange thing, though..."  I leaned forward
too, glanced around and dropped my voice to a whisper, knowing he
enjoyed inelo-drama "... is that they're human."

His reaction was gratifying.  He pushed his cup aside and sat on the
edge of his seat.  "From where?"

I made a little heap of purple crumbs with one finger.  "You're not
going to believe this."

"Try me or I'll make you drink another cup of this disgusting
coffee."

"They're from Earth."

He shook his head, puzzled.  "But you said ..."

I told him about Griffis, Dourif, and the other man whose name I
couldn't recall.  About the wreck that seemed to have hit a jump mine,
but without jump capability so it couldn't have set off the mine--yet
without using hyperspace it could never have reached here so quickly.

"Brin, Griffis said that the Invidi helped them to modify the
cryostasis technology."

He seemed shocked.  "That's not possible.  Invidi don't interfere
directly.  And there's no record of any such expedition."

"How do you know?"  His certainty had sparked my curiosity.

"It's my business to know about Invidi-human relations.  I'm liaison
officer, remember?"

"Why should Griffis lie?"

"I don't know.  It makes more sense, though, than supposing the Invidi
did something so totally uncharacteristic as helping a specific group
within an alien society.  Then concealing that fact for a hundred
years."

"But they gave us medical technology, didn't they?"  I wished I was
better versed in First Contact history.  I'd have to read through the
database tonight.  "What's so different about helping with
cryostasis?"

Brin shook his head.  "They didn't help us to get into space.  We had
to develop spaceflight technology ourselves, once we'd cleared up the
mess on Earth.  Which they did help us to do."

He had a point but... "Griffis didn't strike me as unrealized what was
happening.  Or we might never have realized, and blundered our way to
extinction.  Or a trillion other possibilities.  Whatever the outcome,
if the Invidi hadn't visited Earth we wouldn't be here on Jocasta
now.

"All we can do," he continued, as passionate as I'd ever seen him, "is
put ourselves in their hands again.  Have some faith.  They haven't
hurt us yet."

No, but I was shaken.  If we can't count on the Confederacy eventually
saving us from the Seouras, how else can I get rid of them?

"Just ask him, will you?"  I said stubbornly.  There was something
about the Sleepers' arrival that tugged at my intuition.

Brin smiled, this time with affection.  "For you, I will ask.  And I
must admit, for myself as well.  I still think these people are lying."
When I didn't reply he leaned forward and patted my knee.  "Remember
des ada  This could be yours."

I sighed.  Invidi concepts were too slippery for me.  "I still don't
understand what you mean by that.  Is it a pivotal event?"

He seemed dissatisfied with the words.  "Only in simplistic physical
terms.  It's more like 'soul."  It's the defining quality of sentience,
of people-ness.  A time--but they use a word that means place also--a
time to which we return again and again in the course of.  our
lives."

"What, like being born?"

"For some people, yes.  For others, an event in childhood.  For yet
others, an event on the eve of their death, or somewhere in between."

"Do you mean some trauma that leaves scars?"

"Not necessarily unpleasant.  Or major in the sense of changing the
physical course of a life.  But pivotal, yes."

"How do we know what our des ada is?"

"They say," and he sounded less sure, "you know, if not during your
life, then at the moment of death."  the moment of her death.  My
great-grandmother's raspy voice rose clear and unbidden in my memory.

7 was with Marlena at the moment of her death.  We'd gone to the
capital to negotiate with the new government for district autonomy.
They were all shaking hands on the steps of the high court.  It was
raining and the place was crammed with reporters.  A security
nightmare.  Marlena shook hands and turned away from the president. She
looked up, some of the idiots said afterwards to heaven, but I think
she got a glimpse of the gunman--he must have been on top of one of the
surrounding buildings.  I think she got a glimpse because she turned
back to the president and took his arm.  She wanted to get him inside
in case there really was a sniper up there.  Well, there was. And to
this day nobody knows whether the target was Marlena or the president
himself.

First Day 3pm

I went to my office and buried myself in the telemetry records from the
wreck.  Until Eleanor let me talk to the Sleepers again, this was the
only source of information on how and why they had arrived here.  I'd
tried to contact Keveth to ask whether it had noticed anything about
the wreck during the rescue, but the K'Cher trader was either out of
comm range or ignored my calls on the public system.

When I finally pulled away from the hood, hours later, I knew nothing
more about the Earth humans, but I knew their ship well enough to
navigate around it in the dark without gravity.  It was an old Nukeni
freighter--built solely to haul unambitious loads for short distances.
It looked like a planet-hopper, with a. basically conical, streamlined
shape to facilitate atmospheric entry, and was at least six times the
mass of our little shuttle.  Half of that mass was engines.

Top acceleration on boosters about one-third light, cruises about
sublight ten.  The original cramped ops room and crew quarters had been
merged with the main cargo bay to form the cryochamber-cum-control
room.  It was

now littered with twisted metal and debris, but the plan was clear
enough.

The front half was torn open in a dozen places and black with blast
residue.  A faint miasma of water vapor, probably from the last dregs
of atmosphere leaking out when the rescue team withdrew contact with
the hole they'd cut to reach survivors, gave the wreck a soft halo. 
The jump mine had blasted the rear of the ship almost completely away,
leaving shreds of metal trailing behind like streamers after a wild
party.  Emergency containment shields had activated inside the
cryochamber, but they were compromised, and the damage inside the
chamber seemed to indicate that some of the inner systems had exploded
as well.  It was unusual to see the engine section at all in a mine
accident--a typical mine sets off a reaction within the engines
themselves, usually followed by emergency jettison of the engines. This
seemed to indicate either that the mine was unusual, part of the Tor
smorgasbord of destruction that we hadn't sampled yet, or that Calypso
was unusual in some way.  I spent another half-hour sifting through
records of previous jump mine accidents.  None of them involved, or
mentioned, a mine detonating by itself.

Who did all the work, I wondered, while the rest of the crew were
snoozing peacefully in their sub-zero beds?  Engineering maintenance,
environment monitoring, defense.  The ship's op sys would do most of
it, but even in our most advanced carrier-ships there's always an
organic dare-taker.  It reflects less on the state of technology than
on the reluctance of organic species to entirely trust that technology.
Surely a century ago they would have been even less willing to allowf
an op sys to determine their fate?

Would someone volunteer to stay awake the whole time?  They'd be
elderly, to say the least, when the ship finally arrived at its
destination, and a prime candidate for space-sickness well before then.
Maybe the op sys woke them in turn and then they put themselves back
down when each "shift" ended?  That still seemed to leave a lot of
loose ends, but I suppose people on a venture like this must take
chances.

I leaned back in the chair and tried to rub some focus back into my
eyes.  Bent down and poured the last cupful of tea from a large jar
beside the desk.  Think.

If the Calypso had no jump drive, it couldn't have set off the mine.
Therefore, unless the mine had activated itself by chance at the very
time Calypso appeared, something else must have set off the mine.  Our
sensors had not detected any other ship.  But then, our sensors had not
been state of the art when they were installed three years ago.  Since
then they had been damaged in Seouras attacks, jammed by Seouras
interference, and repeatedly reconfigured to try to reach beyond the
gray ships.  It would not surprise me if we hadn't picked up a
tell-tale sign of... what?  Why should anyone visit us?

I tried Keveth again, with no result.  Keveth was the most likely to
have seen something out there.  If it felt like divulging the
information to us.

It wasn't merely details about their voyage.  I had so many questions
to ask the Sleepers.  Griffis had mentioned a man called Halley in the
Earth South movement.  It could have been my great-grandfather, John
Halley, who seemed to have been active in a number of areas at that
time.  I knew only his son Jack, my grandfather, who inherited John's
passion for justice and who eventually settled in

Las Mujeres with my grandmother Elvira.  Griffis was old enough to
have seen the end of the twentieth century, the beginning of the
twenty-first, and most of the great struggles of that era.  No wonder
every historian on the station was clamoring for an interview with him
and his companions.  I'd left the task of organizing a roster to
Veatch.

There were so many questions about that period left unanswered.  Too
many records had disappeared in the great Net Crash of 2055, and many
of the witnesses to the period died in the political unrest that
followed the technological reforms set in motion by the Invidi in the
2030s and 2040s.  We don't know what happened in isolated places when
the Invidi came, don't know the reaction of ordinary people in
different Earth cultures.  Because Marlena Alvarez and that era were so
important to my family, the pre-Contact period seems close to me, but
to the average Jocasta resident it was ancient history, pre-anything
interesting.  We should be more interested, for there are many
parallels with our own situation.

The connecting door chirped.

"Good afternoon, Commander."  Veatch, as fresh and calm as if it were
morning.  He stood with hands clasped behind him, indicating it was a
short visit.  "How do you wish the new residents to be registered?"

"New residents?"

"The Earth humans from the cryogenics ship.  They are not Confederacy
citizens--neither are they refugees, strictly speaking."  ^

I dragged my mind back from the past.  "Earth's a member of the
Confederacy."  At the time they left there was no Confederacy."

"Does it matter?"^ didn't know why we bothered to argue.  However they
were classified, they would be medically treated, clothed, and fed. Six
months ago it would have been a question of which IDs to give them and
who to send them on to, but the Seouras weren't sending anyone
anywhere.

"Matter?"  Veatch's antennae were stiff with shock.  "How can I file a
report if they are not registered correctly?"

"Oh.  Of course, forgive me.  The report."  For posterity, no doubt,
since nobody at Sector Central would read it.  "Isn't there a time
dilation clause somewhere in the Immigration regulations?"

"But that ship does not have jump capability."

"No, but..."  It must have used hyperspace somehow to get here.  Either
that or magic.  "Tourists."

"I beg your pardon?"

"Until we work out the classification problem they can be tourists.
Give them temporary holding visas, like we used to do with the Garokian
refugees until their asylum was processed."

Veatch's antennae twitched as he considered the idea.  It's been a
while since we had any tourists here.  Even before the Seouras Jocasta
was not exactly on the scenic route--a re sourceless burnt-out system
does not pull in crowds.

"That is a possible solution," he conceded.  "I will organize the
applications."  He started to leave, then turned back.  "Commander, you
have not forgotten the Smoke residents' meeting at 1800 hours?"

I've had too much practice to start guiltily but I probably twitched.

"Of course not."  I wasn't looking forward to that one.

Last time it had taken fifteen hours to accomplish any sort of
understanding about what the residents wanted, let alone come up with
solutions.  It made our petty humanoid disputes seem positively
pre-Atomic in their simplicity.

"I don't suppose they have any sort of agenda?"  I asked, not very
hopefully.

"The Nerossi wish to discuss the right of sentient beings to be
consumed as sustenance.  By the Nerossi, of course.  The IGhplpp!  want
three more rooms and another methane pond.  The Tell say nothing.  The
Invidi wishes to discuss the philosophical implications of the hatch on
Level Fifty that was broken last year--or it might be next year, he
wasn't specific.  And ..."

"Right.  I get the picture," I interrupted.  "Maybe it's better if I
come at it cold."

"I have flagged the report in your In file," he reminded me, and
left.

Then Eleanor called to say the Sleepers were able to talk and I forgot
about the residents' meeting.

They were sitting up in their beds now.  Dourif had kicked off her
therma sheet and stretched sturdy, tanned legs on top of it.  Ariel
Kloos was awake.  He leaned his close-cropped dark head against the
wall between the other two beds.  He had a wary young face, not open
like Dourif's, and a lilting accent.

We went through the preliminaries again--who they were, who we were and
had spoken to the doctors and the magistrate earlier about what
information the newcomers should be given.  Legally, they had the same
access rights to public information as any Confederacy member and Earth
citizen.  Their story was that their project, to send a manned vessel
to Alpha Centauri, had been planned for fifteen years by an
ex-government astrophysicist named Tan Nguyen, a grassroots activist
and geochemist, Hannibal Griffis, and a Russian aerospace scientist,
Gregori Ilyanovich.  They gathered a variety of sponsors for this
clandestine experiment, which was presented to the public, when news
leaked out, as being for the purpose of scientific observation and
experiments on zero-g manufacturing techniques at the abandoned skylab
platforms.  The platforms were leased to them by a government
discouraged by a series of dramatic cost overruns in aerospace research
and a construction industry unwilling to invest in building a ship. 
The Invidi explained, said Griffis, mat they could not share their jump
technology.  But they did offer to assist in assembling a cryogenic
system that would preserve the passengers for the fifty-odd years
necessary to approach the nearest star system at sublight speed.  The
humans accepted the offer, at the cost of keeping the trip a secret
from all but those involved.

Rachel explained that the ship wasn't made on Earth and it was possible
to modify it at one of the space platforms.  More or less abandoned in
2020, the platforms weren't even monitored.  Nations had given up space
programs as too expensive.

The head of the project chose the people, and he was careful.  They
came from different backgrounds and while most of them knew him, they
knew none of the other workers before they joined the project.  Even
after that they only talked with members of their particular group.
Many of the support personnel thought they were working on a top-secret
government mission and were sworn to silence.

"I suppose that's why we haven't been able to find any record of your
expedition in either Confederacy or Earth databases," I said, not
really convinced.  It was hard to believe Earth's first interstellar
flight could have been kept a complete secret.  According to the files,
the people lying here did not exist and neither did their ship--the one
that couldn't have got here.

"Perhaps your data is incomplete."  Kloos's suggestion was made
diffidently, but he could be right.  We've suffered any number of
general and specific systems failures over recent months and that
particular data could have been lost.  Except that neighboring files
are untouched and the historical databases are relatively undamaged.

At the time the Invidi came to Earth the project had not progressed
much beyond plans for the ship.  They'd considered modifying an old
World Space ship, but the public profile was too high and the potential
for success-considering the quality of the ships--was too low.  The
Invidi, whose name was An Serat, approached Nguyen first.  Griffis and
Ilyanovich were not keen on accepting help, for the Invidi were still
largely an unknown force then.  Everybody now knows how Earth's very
first contact with aliens happened.  It is something we learn at our
parents' knee, in school, at play.  No human child grows up without
knowing mat the Invidi came in quietly.  One day they weren't there,
the next, twenty little ships Aere grouped in a neat pattern takeover
every centimeter of Earth's airspace.  Way above, the satellites
transmitted a belated image of the mother ship.  By the time the heads
of government of the, most powerful nations had conferred, the Invidi
greeting had arrived on every broadcast system,

every networked screen, every public telecast: Greetings.  We are the
Invidi.  We come in peace.

Anyway, Nguyen and An Serat must have agreed on terms, but Griffis said
he didn't know the details.  They gained access to a ship with
near-light speed-capable engines and cryostasis technology.  Dourif
added that the ship's doctor had done most of the work adapting
cryostasis units for use with human physiology.  None of them knew what
the Invidi gained from helping them--nothing, as far as they could see.
Still, An Serat sounded far more communicative than any Invidi I'd ever
known.

"Are you sure they offered to help you?"

Griffis nodded.  "The head of our project was the only one who ever
dealt directly with them.  I coordinated the scientific operations
side.  As far as I knew, only An Serat had contact with Tan Nguyen."

The other problem was how.

"Did you do any work on the engines?  You didn't notice anything
strange about them?"  I asked Dourif.

She grimaced.  "Everything was strange.  This was an alien ship,
remember?  I could barely carry out a diagnostic properly."  More
soberly.  "It was one of the most humiliating experiences of my
life."

"Commander, what went wrong?"  Kloos hadn't spoken for so long that I
jumped when he leaned across to look at me.  "What happened while we
were asleep?"

"I don't know.  We think your ship hit a gravitational anomaly that
brought you here.  There was nothing you could have done," I added,
trying to be reassuring.

"Why didn't someone find us?"  asked Griffis, and I could see the
suspicion in his eyes.  Perhaps he thought

we'd left them asleep all this time as part of some experiment.

"I don't know that either."  He was right to be suspicious.  For the
first half of their journey there was no spaceflight from
Earth--humanity was busy cleaning up its own backyard --and the Invidi
kept the whole sector relatively clear of interstellar trade.  But the
second half of the twenty-first century saw a blossoming of space
travel both within the solar system and within a short jump of it It
seemed impossible that nobody had noticed the old freighter limping
along its programmed path.  I made a mental note to have another look
at the historical database for that period and area.

"What's to become of us?"  said Dourif in the kind of voice that is
harsh because the owner doesn't want to be tearful.

What could I say?  It must have been a terrible shock to wake up to
their companions' deaths, and then to learn that they had arrived fifty
years later than planned, and countless light-years from where they
wanted to be.

"For the moment--" I glanced at Eleanor, but she merely lifted one
shoulder--"I'm afraid you're stuck here, like the rest of us.  When you
feel up to it you can choose an area that interests you on the station
and train to work there, if you like.  When we've resolved this Seouras
problem, then I'm sure you can go back to Earth if you wish to do so."
.^

There was a shod silence.  Griffis and Kloos looked down at their
sheets, while Dourif pushed herself up with a little grunt and walked
unsteadily to the side of the room where she turned as if at bay.

"What's Earth libMow?"I started with the Confederacy of Allied Worlds
and Earth's role.  This point seemed to worry Griffis in particular.  I
told them how Earth is one of the Nine Worlds that have a kind of
junior partnership with the four founding members, the Invidi, Q'chn,
Melot, and Ben darI  That the Nine have no jump technology but that
they do have a vote in the Confederacy General Council on a
representative basis--a certain number of councillors per head of
population, with minimum and maximum representation.  He didn't like
the idea that the larger worlds have more power.

"Not ethically sound," he said.

"But they do anyway, don't they?  Have more power?  You know, Hannibal,
bigger is stronger."  Dourif didn't sound bitter, merely pragmatic.
Almost amused at Griffis's frustrations.

I felt sorry for Griffis, but he would have problems if he tried to fit
the Confederacy into twenty-first-century Earth categories.  "I
understand what you're saying, Professor, and Earth's assemblies are
still a one-member one-vote system.  But the Confederacy is a union of
alien species.  You think the old United Nations had problems?  Some of
these species don't even agree on what is sentient life, let alone
basic concepts such as law or rights.  Everyone made compromises to get
the present representative system up and running.  We should be glad
it's one familiar to us."

The political situation on Earth was easier for them.  They could
accept that there were two great representative units of government but
had trouble at first understanding that the names Earth North and Earth
South had no geographic significance and were no more than labels

held over from their own time, when the planet was divided between
rich and poor.

"Let me get this straight."  Griffis smoothed his pale blue therma
sheet and drew map lines on it with his finger as he spoke.  "What you
call Earth North is the Pacific?"

I nodded.  "The Pacific Union.  That's former Australasia and the
Pacific states.  And all of Eurasia including the Indian subcontinent
and northern Europe.  The capital is Sydney."  Which was, I recalled,
Bill Murdoch's home town.  "And Earth South is the rest?"  He enlarged
one side of his diagram.

"Yes.  The Americas, Africa, and the Atlantic Alliance.  Oh, and
Antarctica."

"How do people feel about the aliens?"  Kloos asked.  He seemed less at
ease than the other two.

Eleanor Jago smiled at Kloos from where she was slotting some file pads
into the beds' interfaces.  "That's a good question.  Humans like
Commander Halley here have lived with aliens all their adult lives.
They are quite comfortable with the idea, but they tend to forget how
some of the people back home feel."

"Plenty of people live away from Earth," I said, annoyed by her
presumption.  "The big colonies, lo and Triton, have two or three
million inhabitants each.  Mars is semi-independent"

"That doesn't mean everyone loves the aliens," she said.  She was calm,
as always, and I had to control the urge to break that control with
sharp words.  "Not everybody thinks Earth should have joined the
Confederacy."

Griffis nodded.  "Not everyone thought so in our time either.  When we
left there were a lot of people who still

didn't even believe aliens were real.  What convinced them?"

"Time.  And the fact that the Ben darI came a generation later.  It's
difficult to ignore two alien species and concrete proof of the
existence of more," said Eleanor.

"The knowledge that we are not alone in the universe," she continued,
"was the greatest single scientific revolution our world ever
experienced.  Greater than heliocentricity, greater than the theory of
evolution, greater than the computer.  Our whole identity is still
reeling from the shock of finding that we aren't the center of
creation.  We're only among the bit players."

Even so, after three generations it is difficult for me to imagine a
worldview without that underpinning.

"But the Invidi came in 2023," protested Dourif.  "What did they do all
those years, nurse us along?"

"They brought in medical and agricultural technology.  They ..."  I
looked helplessly at Eleanor.  Hard to describe the last ninety-plus
years in a few sentences.  "They made it quite clear that we now had
the means to change the world.  There was no longer any excuse for not
doing so."

"Some of us tried," said Griffis.  "Even before they came."

I had been waiting to ask him about.  this  "Professor, you said you
knew someone in the "Movement' with the same name as me.  Was that the
Earth South movement?"

"It was a precursor.  We were an organized group but we didn't have the
grassroots support that the later movement gained."  He looked at me as
though trying to see someone else's face in my own.  "I didn't know him
personally, but the man's name was John Halley.  He worked

with our agriculture branch.  Last I heard, he was settled in East
Africa."

Jack Halley, my grandfather, had grown up in the grasslands of
Serengeti.

"I think that was my great-grandfather.  My grandfather was part of the
Earth South movement.  He met my grandmother that way."

Griffis leaned forwards, entranced.

"You come from a revolutionary family.  You know something of the
Movement, then?"

Dourif groaned.  "Don't get him started on that.  He can go on for
hours."  "I grew up with stories of that time," I said, with an
apologetic smile at her.  "I'd be very interested in hearing about it
first-hand."  And not merely because of what light it could shed on the
mystery of their arrival.  Lately I couldn't get Marlena Alvarez out of
my head.

"One of my great-grandmothers on the other side of the family worked
with a woman called Marlena Alvarez in the pre-Movement days.  Have you
heard of her?"

"We all have," Rachel recovered quickest.  Even Kloos had looked up at
the name.

Eleanor leaned on the interface at the foot of Dourif's bed.  "I've
heard the name, but..."

I could see she was trying to get them to talk so didn't point out that
she'd probably heard it from me.  Alvarez is my first name, then Maria,
after my mother.

"I heard her speak once, the only time they let her leave the country."
Griffis half closed his eyes, squinting back what was less than ten
years for him, ten times that for us.  "It was at at the meeting
organized by World Free and Amnesty.  At one of those huge outdoor
concert venues that we used before holovid became affordable."

Kloos and Rachel nodded.  I exchanged a glance of bewilderment with
Eleanor but said nothing.

"Alvarez climbed onstage, dragged the microphone off " its stand, and
came right to the edge.  It was daylight but the vid people were waving
at her to get back into position for their lights.  She ignored them.
She wanted to be as close to the audience as she could."

"Was she standing with the audience?"  I didn't want to interrupt him,
but I couldn't get a clear picture of the scene in my head.

"No, on a raised platform, a stage.  I'll never forget it-130,000
people waiting to hear this dumpy little woman speak."

"Well?  What did she say?"  Rachel moved away from the wall and sat on
the foot of Griffis's bed.  He paused and shut his half-closed eyes
completely.

Then opened them and looked at me.

, "She was so angry.  That's what I remember most.  She had a sharp
voice, the sort of voice that acts like a burr under your seat.  She
said..."  He thought for a moment.  "She said, "Who gave them'--meaning
the official international bodies--'who gave them the right to decide
if we live or die and how?  When they sanction or punish governments
that we did not choose, when our governments that we did not choose
punish others under our name, who suffers?  Not you.""

"She meant," Griffis added, "citizens of the wealthy democratic states.
She said that it was the people like her who lost, whom the governments
rule by force."  Eleanor frowned.  "When was this?"

"The middle of the second decade in the twenty-first century," said
Griffis.  "But plenty of people before Alvarez had made these points
over the years.  That's why there was an increasing international
tendency to bully wayward governments back into line, which never
worked.  Just left economies in a shambles and minorities as
scapegoats.

"Alvarez," he continued, "spoke in a mixture of Spanish and English,
mixing it almost like poetry.  She told us we had a choice.  We could
go on just as we were now.  I remember the words that became one of the
Movement's catch phrases--'conscience is not enough."  Or we could act
in support of people who were not as free to act.  She didn't urge us
to pressure our governments--she said we were our governments.  She
told us that her people had discovered they were not powerless, and
that it was about time we did the same.  She was quite specific--said
there were networks in place to convey food and goods, enough groups
willing to donate arms and use them, enough laws to invoke if the will
could be found to speak the words.  Frankly, I was surprised they let
her speak."

"She couldn't have said it in her own country."  I remembered Demora's
stories.

"I heard she was so vocal that her own government first thought she was
a harmless idiot," said Kloos.

I remembered another thing Demora had said: For years we walked a
tightrope between the government's regulations, its police, the revenge
of the opposition, and the scrutiny of foreign eyes.

Griffis cleared his throat.  "What would you say is the greatest
benefit the aliens brought to Earth?"

I gave him the pc answer, no less true for that.  "Their

presence united us, faster than anyone thought possible.  You saw the
very early days.  It must have been obvious by the time you left that
the Invidi hadn't come to invade or conquer."

"Nobody knew what they wanted," said Griffis slowly.

I didn't say that we were still unsure.

"We should think of their coming as a reprieve," he said.

Rachel snorted.  "From what?"

"From the need to balance everything.  Ever since mankind discovered
nuclear fission our history has been one big balancing act."

"You think they 'saved us from ourselves'?"  Eleanor leaned forward. It
is a question that divides humanity still.

"We wouldn't have made it otherwise."

"They took away from us the chance to decide for ourselves," said
Rachel loudly.

I thought of Alvarez.  She started a snowball of far-reaching social
change, true, but how long would it have lasted without the Invidi?
Would the damage to the planet have been too great?  Yet I couldn't see
the Invidi as good Samaritans.  They must have had their reasons for
contacting Earth.

"Are there any Invidi on this station?"  asked Dourif.

I thought of An Bank with a mixture of fondness, incomprehension, and
exasperation.  "At the moment there's only one.  He's the Confederacy
Council observer."

The comm link beeped and we all jumped.  Eleanor was closest. "Jago."

She listened for a moment then looked at me.  "She's here.  Hang on."

It was the Earth Fleet lieutenant on duty in the Bubble.

The Seouras had sent the signal that meant they wanted me to go over
to the gray ship.

I turned to the Sleepers.  "I have to go."

Rachel leaned against the wall, arms folded in a defensive way.  Kloos
looked puzzled and Griffis frowned from his bed.

"Are these the aliens that are blocking your communications?"  he
asked.

I nodded.  "I'm sorry we have to cut this short.  Let's continue
tomorrow."  I left without leaving them time to reply.

I was halfway down the corridor when Eleanor called out.  She had a
tight, almost hostile expression.

"Can it wait?"  I fidgeted to get away.  "I've got to get to the
shuttle and do the prelaunch."

She caught up.  "Halley, don't go."

"What?"

"You just got back from twelve hours over there.  As your physician I
don't know if you can take it again so soon."

I groaned with impatience.  "Eleanor, we've been through this before.
I'm fine.  And I don't have a choice."

"Have you ever asked them to wait?"

"I can't 'ask' them anything.  And yes, remember what happened after
the fire?"  Two months ago, a fire had broken out in the Hill.  It had
taken three days to get it under control and another week before the
state of emergency was lifted.  Murdoch had been incautious enough to^
inhale too many noxious-fumes on the second day and I'd directed the
whole affair pretty much alone.  When the Seouras called after the fire
I was so exhausted I couldn't gelt into a shuttle.  Three of the gray
ships closed in, weapons

primed.  The state of emergency onstation resumed for another twelve
hours until Eleanor managed to stabilize me enough to go.  We'd been
lucky that time--the Seouras didn't fire--but I didn't want to try our
luck again.

She was right, though, in that it was unusual for them to call again so
soon.  Could it have something to do with the change in the tone of
their voices that I'd felt recently?

I was getting worse dreams, too, if that indicated anything other than
my own worries.

"I don't think it'll be very long this time."  I tried to sound
reassuring.  "They probably forgot something."

She gave me the look of scorn this inanity deserved.  I "What about
these dreams?  You said it happens sometimes when you're awake."

"I haven't had any for a week or so."  I shrugged uncomfortably. 
"Maybe the other times were coincidence."  Then I remembered what I'd
asked her that morning.

"Did you look at the cryosystems for me?"

She blinked at the change of subject then recovered.  "They were fine."
| "Fine?"

"They were exactly what they should be.  Basically Invidi medical
expertise was used to build a system using materials from that time and
place--forensics confirms this, by the way.  As far as we can tell, the
settings were for fifty-one years, which would have taken them to
within a couple of months of deceleration for Centauri."

"What did the timer say?"

"If you mean how long had they been in stasis, it was nearly the whole
time."

"Fifty years?"  Which left a gap of forty-five years.

She nodded.  "I know it doesn't make sense.  But our

readings could be mistaken.  The pods could have reset everything for
another fifty years."

I clenched my fists in frustration.  Another dead end.  I had a
premonition of what would happen with the Sleepers: we would pursue
every clue as to how they got here, every possible opening, without
success.  Meanwhile station life would go on as usual and the Sleepers
themselves would begin to be a part of it.  Soon we would forget they
had offered any mystery, any hope for change, and settle back into
routine.  And I'd still be going over to that goddamn ship.

First Day 530pm

The shuttle swung away from Jocasta.  The view is impressive.  A bright
dusting of faraway stars and the closer jewels of Abelar's two outer
planets.  Swathes of translucent color show the remains of two more
planets vaporized by the Tor before leaving for wherever they had gone.
The same view from Jocasta used to be enlivened by ships passing, some
close enough to make out registration details, others like miniature
comets too small to ascertain any feature but movement.  There's no
movement now.  Our planet is a pale ghost left radioactive and useless
by the Tor.

I used an airlock to enter the gray ship.  Even if the space beyond was
not as oxygenated as Earth's, even if it was knee-deep in slippery,
slimy stuff, an airlock was an airlock.  The ship had gravity.  Within
the Confederacy, only the Invidi have invented a gravity field for
stationary vehicles that doesn't rely on momentum or spin.  Either the
Seouras had acquired Invidi technology or they had a similar level of
technology themselves.  Which didn't seem right.  If they had that kind
of ability, they shouldn't have

been interested in Jocasta, with our pitiful technological situation.
The dreamlike gloom was lit by luminescence from the slime that dripped
from the low ceiling and sucked at my feet.  It wasn't a large room.
Tunnel-like passages ran off it at various angles but it was hard to
see where because distance was flattened and distorted in the light, as
if we were underwater.  Once I had pushed my arm into shine up to the
shoulder and felt a hard surface underneath.

Here they were.  Two of them today.

If they have a shape it is impossible to tell exactly what it is,
because their whole form is constantly shifting in tiny movements. From
a short distance they seem to shimmer.  As you look it is like bringing
a microscope to bear on a colony of minute living things that seems a
solid lump but resolves into countless short, slim, squirming shapes. 
These, too, dissolve and shift under scrutiny, as though it is all held
together by some field that can form and re-form.  I imagine it forming
into shapes that we know or maybe a giant nightmare shape, but so far
they have remained roughly cylindrical blobs, about our height and
three times as wide.  Colored slime-green.  Or so coated with it that I
couldn't tell what was underneath.  I was slime-green by the time I got
out of there too.

The walls and ceiling seemed to squeeze me in.  Like being inside a
digestive tract... I had the same thought every time, that I was to be
broken down and absorbed, used to provide energy for .. Calm down.
Don't breathe too fast, sometimes that messes up the implant in your
neck, calm down.  Come go stay "help attack.

I shook my head against the insistence, of the call.  It

hurt when they got "loud."  A sharp pain drilled behind my eyes, and
more spread in short bursts from a point above the breastbone through
shoulders and neck.  I wished I knew what they wanted.  Lately it was
as though they were arguing among themselves.  I rarely got a clear
message.

This way.

No, here.

A cacophony of urgent needs.  I used words to order the impressions in
my mind, but they didn't actually speak.

Go now.

Stay.

Open.

I wasn't sure if they meant my mind or the station.  Neither, I stated
firmly, was available.

Their disappointment hurt.

Rush along a long, dark tunnel faster and faster, nothing but the noise
of passage until at the end there's a point of solidity.  Not visual
but I'd describe it visually if there were anyone to describe it to--a
small, half-naked human slumped barely upright on a slippery surface,
an image only until the downward swoop gets closer and closer and
whump, I'm in me, with the sour-sick stench of slime all around and the
ocean-green light that has no depth.  The voices have retreated.

It hadn't been too long this time.  I stretched out an arm and the
muscles responded immediately but stiffly.  I clenched and unclenched
my fingers, felt the stickiness.  It was possible to swallow--throat
dry and tight but not hopelessly closed.  I gagged on the taste of
slime, but didn't have quite enough saliva for spit, then rolled over
on hands and knees and tried to stand.  Shards of pain scattered from

stomach and joints to gather in my head.  Surely it hadn't been this
painful the first time I "talked" to them?  It was getting worse each
session.

The shuttle was still there.  It was always a surprise and a relief to
glimpse it through the murky windows in the Seouras airlock.

I slipped on unsteady legs and crashed into the airlock entry.  It
opened obligingly and I slid the rest of the way into the shuttle.  My
knee cracked on the side but I didn't feel anything.  They let me leave
because they must have known I'd never survive in the heat and slime.
Since the slime seeped through the joins of our environmental suits, I
gave up on the suit after the first few trips and wore only boots and
trousers.  I'd left those off a couple of times, too, but while I could
struggle into a jacket on the way back in the shuttle, on bad days
pulling on trousers in zero-g was beyond me and I thought it probably
not good for morale if the head of station were caught with her pants
down, so to speak, when the shuttle docked at Jocasta.  I keyed in my
code on the controls, letting each blip be a signal to open my eyes.  I
needed to stay awake until the shuttle was clear or the whole autopilot
sequence became terribly complicated and I might not get back for days.
Blip, blink, blip.  I checked the time--it was nearly midnight.  It was
scary, the way time drained away when I was in there.  Nearly five
hours gone.  At least I had missed the Smoke residents' meeting.

Trouble is ... I gulped a half-liter of water, rubbed off the worst of
the she ne with a dry wrap left here for this purpose and hauled .-on
my jacket, strapped myself in the zero-g net, and tripped the
departure switch before the thought could make its way through my
pounding head. The trouble is, each time I hoped it would be the last. 
Every time I made it back alive with the station unharmed, it was a
spur to try harder to find a way to get free.

I couldn't think of a way to do it.  So far, all our efforts had been
directed towards getting a message to the Confederacy, always presuming
the Confederacy is still out there and not also under Seouras control.
If what Quartermaine suggested today was true, though, maybe we have
been wasting our time.  What if the Confederacy thought the treaty with
the Danadan and Seouras meant we'd allowed them into the Abelar
system's space, or even that we'd formed an alliance with the gray
ships?  Surely they'd have contacted us to confirm or deny such a
conjecture.

It wasn't the first time I'd had these thoughts, but Quartermaine's
words earlier had been such a shock that I found it difficult to
control the panic.  Panic that rose up in my throat like vomit whenever
I contemplated the alternatives before us.  Without the prospect of
Confederacy help, what could we do?  Wait, as the Seouras had said, as
An Bank seemed to be doing?  But the station was falling apart, and I
wasn't far behind.

The sudden tug of the strap on my bruised knee woke me.  The shuttle
had changed direction.  Background buzzing gradually resolved itself
into a voice.

"Jocasta to Eliot.  Commander Halley, we have put the shuttle on auto
for landing."

How long had they been calling?  The gray ships put out a jamming
signal that prevents long-range communications, but short-range is
possible in a narrow radius

around the station.  I might have slept through five minutes of
voices.

Open your eyes, idiot.  I could have taken a pilot with me every time
the Seouras summoned, as Murdoch has urged me, but I prefer not to put
another life at risk when the shuttle can be easily handled by one.

The station loomed close in the forward viewer.  Lovely.  I said it
again, aloud.  A great, untidy white top spinning against the black.  I
stared at a point on the outer ring and began to count as it moved
around, one, two, three ... hoping to see the same point come round
again in sixty-two seconds, but I must have dropped off again briefly
then opened my eyes as the shuttle hugged the long, pale curves of the
habitat rings and snicked between two angular reflectors.  It flew
along one of the connecting struts towards the center.  An uplift moved
inside the strut almost in time with the shuttle and I waved stupidly
at the tiny window.  As if anyone could see me from there.

Above the center and farther away from the station, was the wreck of
Calypso, a white shape blurred by debris and vapor.  It was tethered to
the flat, open slab of a maintenance platform, and I could just make
out two spidery probes on its pale surface.  They were de radiating the
wreck so we could access it directly, and the sooner they finished, the
better.

I undid the net straps, gave myself a quick push over to the flight
panel and pulled down into the pilot's seat, hooked my feet under the
console and belted in.

"Eliot to Jocasta.  It's all right, I've got her.  Switching over."  I
wished my voice didn't sound as thick as my head felt.  "Jocasta to
E/i0 Confirmed.  Nice to, see you back so

soon, Commander."  Whoever owned that slightly sarcastic voice on
traffic control knew my habit of bringing the shuttle in unaided.  Not
flying manually, because nobody in their right mind flies a
high-performance space vehicle manually, but I needed to keep control
of the shuttle's systems.  Be able to act if anything went wrong.
Eleanor calls it compensatory behavior.  Murdoch calls it being
pigheaded.  It keeps me awake.

Second Day5:30 am

Swish, thud.  It took a second before I registered that the karrikar
door was open.  A long, long day--days.  Seouras, Sleeper ship,
unsolved mysteries.

The sticky heat of the Hill rolled into the lift.  Sweat prickled
immediately in the slime under my jacket and on my upper lip.  This is
the outer ring, the lowest circle, and the slightly higher gravity
causes a fullness of hands and feet and momentary shortness of breath.
I walked slowly along the rows of covered stalls and booths that lined
the marketplace.  It was simply from habit, because my old quarters had
been down here before the Seouras came.  I liked living here.  It was
good to know how the other half of the station lived--the stowaways,
refugees, contract workers.  Many of them stayed because they couldn't
afford passage off and then were caught here when the Seouras came.

y&c-Blue night light, not as many as there should be.  Down here,
people often put extra demands on the system or diverted the power to
illicit uses.  The grime and cheapness was hidden by the kindly
darkness.  A few people still staggered to and from bars and gathered
in little knots around

portable lighting units, their yellow glow comforting against the blue
of the main illumination.  There were smells, although my
slime-deadened nose couldn't catch many--like hearing only the loudest
notes of a symphony but knowing that the rest of it is playing.  One of
those notes was a fishy, charcoal smell.  Someone had been using a true
flame grill again, in defiance of all safety regulations.

This place is full of such anachronisms.  It has an infrastructure of
high technology--from the Tor engines, of which we understand little,
and the Invidi gravity wells, which we do not understand at all.  Side
by side with this we have shoemakers and corner shrines, tiny
food-bearing plants raised in a spot of sunlight on a bed of shredded
spaceship cushions, and endless modifications to official building
codes that have made a dark maze of the lower level.

Basic technologies exist in pockets--Garokian refugees who live by
selling sandals made from scraps left over after glass filament
recycling, for our stocks of footwear from Earth are nearly exhausted
and recycling has its Urn-its.  Their shoe repair business does well
too.  I've had my old running shoes resoled twice now.

The Q'Chn regard ability to improvise as the defining quality of
sentience.  Jocasta seems to prove them right

Tiny alien food stalls spring up every night down here, as suddenly as
rust appears on iron in space station humidity.  The owners use
unwanted material from the black market to produce meals far more
appetizing than official rations.  The Office of Public Health raids
the Hill regularly but the stalls never disappear.  I'd been unlucky
last night but hoped one would still be open tonight, because

after this morning's fiasco in the kitchen I had no intention of
trying to cook something for myself.  The only booth with a dim, orange
light still showing was obviously finished for the night.  Three folded
stools leaned against the cooking box, and a cloth sign-curtain was
furled beside them.  I poked my head over the box, which formed a low,
U-shaped counter, and tapped it twice.

"Nothing left for an old customer?"

A broad face turned upwards and the light glinted gold on scales as the
Garokian owner of the stall stood up, a blackened pan in each webbed
hand.  I repeated the question in case she hadn't caught my lips and
she shook her head, well versed in human body language.  She shifted
from one foot to the other, clacked the gills on her neck and upper
shoulders, and turned her head to look at me with a sideways, bird-like
glance.  A head that was more like a chinless continuation of the thick
neck, which in turn flowed smoothly into shoulders.

Her eyes were large, silvery clouded irises filling the whole eye,
which was surrounded by a fine filigree of triangular scales.  Her
clothes, designed for a human, hung loosely on her hips and stretched
tight across her back and shoulders.  She was about my height but
solid.  Garokians acquire a weight problem when they live here.  Their
stocky, cylindrical bodies pout sideways in protest at a lack of
exercise and a diet that Confederacy nutritionists insist is adequate.
It obviously isn't satisfactory, because the Garokians gather together
at close of day in clan or neighborhood groups, clumps of silent,
gesticulating trolls hunched over pots of bubbling delicacies.  They
make pastries out of the residue that Achelian restaurants scorn and

boil up unlikely brews with plants bartered for homemade sandals from
creatures in the Smoke who have many feet

This Garokian was wider than most.  Like all large "people" she had a
presence that demanded to be noticed.  Her body created a wash ahead of
itself, a cushion of loaded air, and she occupied even more space in my
mind man in reality.  So solid, so grounded, soft heavy flesh and
triangular scales with an oily sheen.  My own body felt insubstantial
as a drift of gas in comparison.  I hitched up my trousers, suddenly
self-conscious.  The belt has no more notches left to tighten.

She slapped the pan down behind the counter with a bang, then held up
one digit for me to wait and rummaged around below.  The reward for my
patience was a small, wilted dumpling, which I knew would contain a
curry-like puree.  It must have been her own supper.  Perhaps she would
be up all night preparing for the imminent Renewal of Souls.

She pushed the dumpling into my protesting hands, the whole
conversation (this is yours--no, take it--it's all right, I'll try
somewhere else--forget it, I said take it) conducted in silence.  In
the end I took the dumpling and chewed it gratefully on my way to the
ring lift leaving the careless, unheard clatter behind.

The Garokians and the mess in the Hill are part of the other world of
the station--the rich, suspicious chaos that Veatch and Walsh would
like to dilute to their own image.  A whole world that I couldn't begin
to describe to the Sleepers because I'm too far removed from it.  But
it was a world I would like them to see.

"Commander Halley?"  A vaguely familiar voice.

I turned quickly and peered at the owner in the gloom.  It was Rachel
Dourif.  "What are you doing here?"  I swallowed the last mouthful of
dumpling hurriedly and stepped closer to her.  She was wearing a
generic gray overall and, from what I could see in the half-light, an
expression of determination.

"I'm going for a walk," she said, as if it were the most natural thing
in the world.  "What are you doing?"

"I'm getting supper."  I wasn't sure if I should stay with her or not.
The Hill may be dirty and overcrowded, but it is seldom dangerous.  On
the other hand, she had few survival skills for this century.  I didn't
think she'd wander out an airlock but... "Dr.  Dourif, maybe you should
go back to the hospital and come again in the morning."

"Call me Rachel, please."  She glanced around and sat on an upturned
container beside one of the silent, shrouded stalls.  After an awkward
moment, I sat beside her.  The throughway was quiet except for a hum of
voices farther along and the occasional clatter from one of the open
stalls.  I leaned back against the corrugated side of the stall and
felt the incredible busyness of the day begin to recede, draining away
into the stained deck through the soles of my battered boots.  Rachel's
voice startled me back to wakefulness.  "When I was a student I used to
walk a lot at night.  We'd spend all day in labs, sitting in front of a
computer.  By evening I was stir-crajy.  I'd get outside into the
street and walk and walk for hours.  I'd finish up at the other end of
town, the harbor end.  The place was full of street people then.  Do
you know about the 'clean-ups' of the early twenty-firs^ century?"  ,

"Not much."

She smiled ruefully.  "It was such a big thing when I was a teenager.
The government was going to find homes for everyone, but we ended up
with more ghettos."

"Very little really changed until after the Invidi came," I said.
"Socially, I mean.  That's why a lot of people say that if the Invidi
hadn't come, we would have eventually destroyed ourselves."

"What do you think?"

"I don't know.  There were people like Alvarez and Hannibal Griffis,
too.  Maybe they would have done it."

Rachel made an unconvinced noise and we sat in silence.

She turned and peered at me.  Her eyes picked up a reflection from the
night lights and seemed to flash with strong emotion.  "Do you know
what it's like to go from a small town to the big city?  Sort of like
going from Earth to space, it's such an upheaval."

"I know what you mean," I said, "I ran away from a small town to join
the Engineering Corps when I was fifteen."  As I said the words I
thought again how I had more in common with my grandmother Elvira than
bone structure.  We had both run away, she from her mother and I from
her.  At least she'd returned to the town.

Rachel snorted.  "People still run away from home?  Guess children
haven't changed much."  She thought for a moment.  "But I thought you
were from some famous family.  Griffis said..."

"Not my family.  Alvarez was famous."

On the wall of the dwelling opposite someone had scrawled a rude
cartoon of a Q'Chn manipulating several stick forms representing
humanoids.  Even the graffiti was

becoming more primitive.  Feeling was running high against die Four
Worlds down here.  I glanced at Rachel and thought how much simpler it
must have been in her day.

"Why did you do it?"  I blurted out "What was it like?"

"It was ..."  Her whole face glowed with remembered joy.  "It was
wonderful.  I have to say that first.  When Calypso left the orbital
platform on its run out of the solar system I thought, that's it, we're
the first to leave.  This is history.  It doesn't matter what happens
after this.  This is enough.  And it was."  She looked around and shook
her head.  "But now ... Probably on some level I never expected to wake
up at all, and this is confusing me."

"What did it feel like to wake up?"  I imagined the second of panic as
consciousness faded away, the relief when it returned.  No wonder they
were glad to be here.  I would have been glad to wake up anywhere.

She stared past me as she searched for the words.  "I heard a voice.  I
don't know whose--it might even have been yours.  I couldn't understand
the words at first, but the sound was like an anchor that stopped me
drifting any farther.  Then everything slowly came into
focus--sensation, thoughts, a sense of identity."

"Like a landscape emerging slowly with the dawn.  You know, there's no
single moment of clarity, but then by the time you realize what's
happening, everything is clear."  She glanced at me to see if I
understood.

"When I was studying I'd spend a couple of days at home every month^ or
so.  I used to catch an early bus to get from our village back to the
coast where the city shuttle left, and from the bus I'd watch the hills
turn from black to gray to colors.  I was the first girl from our
village to finish a graduate degree.  My grandfather boasts about
it... used to boast about it.  I guess he's ..."  she hesitated over
the word, then sighed, "dead now.  Commander, when can we get things
off our ship?"

"In a couple of days, when the worst radiation has dissipated.  Why?"

"I have some photos--you know what photos are?"

I nodded.

She dug at the deck with her sandal.  "Of my family.  I'd really like
to see if they were okay.  The photos, I mean."

"What about the things we brought over from the wreck?"  I waved my
hand upward to indicate the storage bay in the center.  "There were
some personal belongings in there."

"Can I see them?"  Her tone was so hopeful that I felt guilty
immediately, not wanting to be responsible if she were disappointed.

"Soon."

She shook her head.  "You're all so damned unselfish."

I looked at her, puzzled.  She stared back, flushed, then looked away
again.  "Chief Murdoch's the same.  And the doctor.  They work their
butts off, and for what?"

"We're a bit... fixated on our work here, but that's unavoidable given
the circumstances."  I wondered why it bothered her.  "Your project was
visionary.  You must have worked hard on it too."

"You don't get it," she said.  "You're different, you all are. Hannibal
can't see it.  Ariel can sort of grasp what I mean, but I think he
likes it more than not."

"Likes what?"

"Feeling like a lesser form of The."

I stared at her, dismayed.  "Is that how you feel here?  I didn't know
..."

"A less evolved lifeform," she conceded.  "It's how I felt when the
Invidi came.  One of the reasons I joined the project.  I knew that
they meant us well, but I couldn't forgive them for taking over our
future."  She said the "our" possessively, hungrily.

"So you wanted to get away?"

She nodded.

"What were the other reasons?"

She took a long time to answer.  "I couldn't stand it."

"Couldn't stand what?"

"Everything."  She pulled savagely at her overall hem.  "The... the
world as it was.  Feeling like I felt all the time."

"How did you feel?"  I said softly.

"Like watching a glass fall off a table on the other side of the room."
She shook her head as though the words were wrong but continued anyway.
"You can see it start to fall.  You know it's about to shatter.  And
you can't do a damn thing to stop it."

I shivered and pulled my sodden jacket closer.  I knew exactly how she
felt.

I left Rachel at the hospital entry in Gamma and continued on in the
uplift.  Her words had rekindled my curiosity about their arrival and
what might be different about their ship.  The loose items we'd
collected might contain a clue.

Exhausted though I was, I knew I wouldn't sleep properly until I'd
checked them personally, I could have taken Rachel with me--here was
no reason she shouldn't see -the objects--but it would have been
inappropriate, somehow.  To me, the salvage was a collection of
curiosities that might or might not yield treasure.  I might equally
dismiss it as junk.  To her, they were objects hallowed by familiarity
and their connection with the dead.

There is close to zero gravity in the center.  We do have the option of
using the Invidi gravity field, but no engineer likes using something
they don't understand, even when it works so well.  The field came with
the engines, so to speak, and I think it had something to do with the
way the Confederacy defeated the Tor, but they don't tell us junior
members such details.  It allows us to use the micro-g areas to best
advantage and keep partial gravity for the people who supervise the
work done in the center.  But I still don't like it.

In the uplift the gravity diminished gradually and with it my stomach's
reliability.  I hooked my arms over one rail and toes under another and
stared out of the window.

"Below," the curve of the habitat rings fell away in a gleaming arc,
the shine of the reflector panels marred in dull patches where repairs
were incomplete.  I stared at the blazing stars in an uneasy reverie
until the lift jolted to a halt.  If I shut my eyes I end up not
knowing which direction is which.

I headed across the center to the storage bay, kicking off first then
steadying myself on the.  handrail  The corridors are narrower here,
with low, padded ceilings.  No attempt has been made to create an
environment that would shelter the occupant from claustrophobia or
solipsism-the corridor is no more than a simple channel from A to B, or
in this case from the small freight elevators to the

storage bays.  The walls are impanelled, unlike those of the habitat
corridors.  Different-colored cables and heavy plasma conduits like
ridged hoses snake naked along the walls beside me, interrupted by
irregularly spaced breakers and control panels.  When motion sensors
flick on the light it is bright and harsh on the eyes--no discreet back
lights or second-hand sunshine here.

Something touched the very edge of my vision.  I twirled myself around
with a hand on the wall to look behind me.  Nothing there.  Stop
imagining things.  You're too tired to be up here if you're seeing
things.  Security had cleared the area when the rescue operation docked
this afternoon.  The section was more or less deserted anyway.  Before
the Seouras came there would have been a work shift moving around even
at this hour, but not anymore.

I pulled myself along a bit farther then drifted without touching the
rail.  Someone was here.  This time it was a sound on the edge of
hearing.  I somersaulted gently ninety degrees and looked behind
again--nothing.  Teppits, maybe.  Teppits used to be found only in the
lower levels, but lately they were everywhere.  They probably didn't
mind even micro-gravity.  There are several theories to explain why
these small creatures are found throughout the inhabited galaxy.  Like
most humans, I tend to keep quiet about their resemblance to Terran
cockroaches.  Some contributions to galactic culture are best left
unsung.

I cleared my throat.  "Hello?"

My senses might have been scrambled by fatigue and tension, but the
Sensation of being watched was unmistakable.  There was something else
in this corridor and it wasn't human.  I thought uneasily of smugglers
and substance dealers anclebombs in my office.  Better keep going.

I shouldn't have assumed Murdoch would have someone up here.  The
Sleepers' ship was out at the platform, Keveth's ship and the shuttle
back in their docks.  Why bother to leave a guard on a storage bay full
of radioactive junk?

It's impossible to walk backwards in micro-g, so I proceeded in a
series of slow and clumsy somersaults from floor to ceiling and back
again, and by the time I reached the next corner, I was giggling.  Good
thing Baudin didn't see that.

The light activated obediently as I kicked around the corner.  Storage
bay Sigma 41 should be the one in the middle.  The one with the door
open a crack.

The one with the door open?

I grabbed the railing to stop myself and tapped open my comm link.

"Halley to Security."

"Sasaki here."

"Are you monitoring the Sigma storage bay where we stored the Sleeper
ship equipment?"

"We're having a bit of trouble with that, ma'am.  Sergeant Kwon's on
his way up now."  Sasaki is Murdoch's second-in-command.  She is too
well trained to ask a superior officer what the hell she was doing, but
the query was in her voice.

"Thanks.  I'll wait for him, then."  I closed the link and stared at
the narrow, dark space where the door should have been sealed. Security
personnel could open it, as well as anyone else with a level five or
above clearance, but if the lock had been touched Security should have
been alerted.

Kwon's taking his time.

I drifted cautiously closer to the door.  Paranoid.  Maybe Eleanor was
right.  It was probably simply a malfunction, hardly surprising on this
station.

There was no movement inside.  I did feel stupid, hanging there staring
at a door.  I spun right side up and checked the control panel
visually.  The problem was immediately obvious.  The lock command had
not been input properly.  It was a wonder the last person out hadn't
noticed.

I waved my arm next to the door's movement sensors and it opened with a
swish.

A shock of freezing air.  I kicked off the floor to go in.  Might as
well look.  There didn't seem to be a problem other than someone's
carelessness.  The light activated and I was looking at rain.

Tiny blue drops, some formed into globules, scattered all over the
small room.  Liquid does that, left to itself without gravity.  But
there's no rain on a space station.  Something else floated, mainly in
the middle, what looked like broken pieces of thin shell trailing
glutinous lumps and long strings of... I flailed backwards as my brain
finally processed what it was seeing.  A body, not human, and very
dead.

Something touched me and I bit off a scream.

"Oh my god," said Sergeant Kwon.

Murdoch hung on to the wall-rail, talking to a med tech Two other
white-suited and helmeted figures stood normally in the middle of the
bay, which meant they wore magnetic boots.  The air still had a bluish
tinge, although they'd collected all the droplets.  I kept shivering in
the cold, and wished Murdoch would hurry up and give his report so I
could go and be sick

again.  Hers of containers bobbed against the far wall, kept in place
by soft metal grid lines like greasy, malleable rope.  Normally grid
lines wouldn't be necessary in a null-gravity area, but in our case
there was always a risk of the Invidi gravity field engaging at an
inopportune moment and the lines were there as a safety precaution. 
Against the near wall another container bobbed, this one marked with a
radioactivity warning seal.  The salvage from Calypso.

Murdoch finally swung around and pushed himself over to where I hung by
the door.

"K'Cher.  We're checking who it was.  Must have been in the last hour
or so."  He was furious--the blaze of emotion exposed his usual
off-handedness for the thin veneer it was.

"They say," he jerked his chin at the med techs "that it was
decapitated and cut open with a large, sharp weapon.  A thin, curved
blade, not laser.  There's no sign of cauterization.  They're running a
metals residue analysis now."

There were species in the known galaxy who wore their knives in their
sleeves, so to speak, on the ends of limbs or in toothed tentacles or
even in the lash of telekinetic ability.  As far as I knew, though,
none of these species were on Jocasta, and none of the other
inhabitants of the station seemed likely candidates for such a
flamboyant xenocide.

Apart from the containers the bay-was empty.  Conduit and junction
boxes jutting from the walls offered little concealment and there was
no room between the stacked containers.  It wasn't a large room--none
of our rooms are large.  Surely the victim could have seen an attack
coming?  Unless ... I looked up into the untidy maze of conduits, hook
ways control boxes and mag lines that covered the ceiling of the bay
nearly a meter deep beyond the long illumination rails that hung just
above our heads.  There was a kind of catwalk up there too, useful to
cling to when the lower spaces were busy with loading machinery.

Murdoch followed my gaze.  "Yeah, that was my guess too."

Blood had stuck to the light.  That implied considerable momentum--it
must have sprayed wildly.  I looked away, half gagging again.  A broken
cable waved from one of the catwalks and small pieces of unidentified
metal and plastic, the debris of heavy work, littered the bay.  A
broken lunchbox hung forlornly against the back wall.

Why do this?  There weren't more than half a dozen K'Cher traders
remaining on Jocasta.  Two of them are members of the main "family" of
the K'Cher aristocracy and have remained cloistered in their spacious
quarters since the Seouras arrived.  Two more are middlemen for station
administration's purchase of nearly everything and are probably the
only traders on the station who still make a profit.  There was Keveth,
the lone wolf, and the remaining one was the unfortunate captive of a
debilitating addiction to certain illegal substances.  "Which one of
them do you think it was?"

"I dunno.  We'll know in a tic."

I shivered again.

"D'you want to wait outside?"  Murdoch's gaze returned from wherever
his thoughts had taken him.  "No."

"And there's that" Murdoch pointed at the container that held the
Calypso salvage.

"What about it?"

"Someone's tried to force the opening.  Not very well either."

That made no sense.  "There's nothing valuable in there."  "Souvenir
hunter?"  "Or the murderer."

There was a short silence.  Voices crackled from the I open comm link.
Murdoch's eyes kept moving over the bay.  Security would have scanned
it for life signs before | entering and he wouldn't have let me in if
there were any danger, so it must have been an automatic reaction, a
policeman's reflex to keep observing while the scene was relatively
undisturbed.  His hand weapon was charged and the holster cover open.
"One more thing."

I looked at him warily.  I hate the way he always leaves the worst news
until last.

He detached a flat security scanner from his belt and activated the
little screen.  The scanner can record electronic and visual data and
perform basic chemical analyses.  All

Security personnel carry them.  "When we examined the door lock..."

"It wasn't shut properly, I know.  Why wasn't that picked up by your
surveillance systems?"  "Normally it would be.  But we found this."  He
held

: the scanner out to me.  On the screen was an electronic ; map of the
door's circuitry and something else, a small loop device by the look of
it, that sent the alarm signal back on itself rather than to the
security network.  "What is it?"

"Hard to say."  Murdoch took the scanner out of my hand without asking.
I resisted the temptation to tug it back.  "It's gone now."

"Gone?  Someone took it?"

"Nope.  There's been a guard on the door the whole time."

"So what do you mean, 'gone'?"  I could hear my voice rise in
frustration on the last question.  What does he expect?  It's two
o'clock in the morning, we're floating in a zero-g midden, and I
haven't had a proper sleep in three days.  I should just have gone to
my quarters.  Behind us, scrape, snip, squelch.  One of the medics
laughed.

Murdoch hooked his boot under the lower railing and used both hands to
tap out his information again.  Either he hadn't noticed my bad humor
or didn't think it worth acknowledgment.  "It sort of melted away.  I
think we're looking at some very advanced shit here.  And I ask myself,
who on this station has access to stuff like this?"

"Nobody.  Unless ... someone found a way to bypass the blockade."

Murdoch looked at me with a strange expression, his eyes hooded. "Yeah.
 But look at the energy signature."  He passed me the scanner again.

I stared at the screen, frowning as the image blurred in time with my
shivering.  "Invidi?"

"Looks like it."

This was totally unexpected.  Nobody except the Invidi themselves has
Invidi technology.  They don't share more than a fraction of it with
the rest of the Confederacy.  Humans don't understand it, and
everything they've given us over the years has turned out to be
actually from other species and civilizations closer to our own.  While
I stared, dazed, Murdoch's comm link chirped.  He listened, then turned
to me.  "Looks like it's Keveth.  All the others are in their
quarters."

"Oh, hell."  Unlikable as Keveth had been, it had provided a link
between the K'Cher and the rest of us "minor" species.  And it had
lived on my station, under my protection.

"We'll look into Keveth's movements after it got back from the salvage
operation."  Murdoch reached for his scanner, but I was still looking
at it.  "There's only a couple of hours to fill in, shouldn't take
long."

"Keveth volunteered to help with the rescue.  Perhaps it saw something
then and offered to show someone."

"I thought the Queen going out was suspicious."

"Maybe Keveth tried to open the salvage.  Were there any K'Cher traces
on the container?"

"Haven't found any so far.  Keveth had a lot of dicey contacts and some
of them might be prepared to pay for old Earth curios.  We'll interview
'em all if necessary."  He sighed and stretched.  "I get the feeling
we're going to be doing a lot of footwork on this one."

"Murdoch, why wasn't the bay monitored by Security?"  The whole station
is supposed to be accessible to surveillance, with limits on its use in
the residential quarters.

Murdoch's face darkened at the implied criticism, justified though we
both knew it was.  "I don't know.  We have a record up to about
midnight."

"That's over an hour before I got here."

"I know, but we're bloody shorthanded at the moment, what with the
festival and all.  Sasaki sent Kwon up to have a look--that's why he
got there just after you did."  When I said nothing, "Well, I didn't
think anyone would

be interested in a load of radioactive parts a century out of date."

I sighed.  "Neither did I."  There was another possibility to consider.
"Do you think it's got something to do with the latest anti-Four Worlds
feeling?  There's been a lot of unrest the past few weeks."

His wandering attention fixed on me with almost embarrassing intensity.
"Have you had any more trouble?"

"What, like my other office being blown up?"

He glared, and I regretted the sarcasm.  "Sorry.  Could a human have
done it?"

Murdoch accepted the apology.  "Nah.  The angle of swing is too high
and wide.  They'd have to be three meters tall with arms to match."

"Maybe the murderer wanted the body found like this, which is why they
didn't use an energy weapon."

"Or they didn't care.  And where does this Invidi lock-breaker fit in?"
He reached for his scanner but I shook my head.

"Uh-uh.  I'll need this when I talk to An Bank."

"Sooner you than me," said Murdoch, satisfied.  He can't cope with
Invidi.  "Want to watch while we turn the gravity on?"

"No, thank you."  I managed to wait until I got outside before being
sick again.

%:

Second Day 3 am

The ring lift took me close to the entrance to the Smoke, the section
of Delta ring set aside for non-oxygen breathers, its unofficial title
from a K'Cher epithet for the Invidi.

I'd decided not to call Quartermaine.  It was too late, and the only
thing I wanted from An Bank was for him to confirm that the lock
breaker Murdoch had found was Invidi technology, and whether it was his
or not. I knew the Invidi did not keep the same diurnal rhythm as we
did and could therefore be approached at any hour.  Besides, I was a
little sick of always having Brin as a buffer between the Invidi and
myself. Sometimes it even seemed as if the alien was hiding behind
Quartermaine.

I walked along the darkened passages of the Hill with increasing
unease.  Only a couple to go before the Smoke entrance.  The lights
were off almost completely.  Someone must have bled too much off the
mains..  It was quiet now.  I could hear only the occasional nimble of
conversation from doorways, and a few dark figures passed silently.  A
loud curse nearby was accompanied by a clatter of falling metal.  I was
sweating.  Images of Keveth's scattered body parts rose unbidden and
unwanted in my mind.  The darkness that had concealed the grime
earlier now held more sinister possibilities.

I finally reached the main airlock.  The buzzer sounded and two warning
lights went off.  There is another light that humans cannot
distinguish.  We have seven different species on the station who do not
breathe the same atmospheric mix as humans, so supplying their needs
makes environmental control extremely complicated.  In an emergency we
have to be able to shut off this section separately, for their
protection and our own.

I wore a mask, as regulations demand, though I can pass through without
one, thanks to the breathing device the Seouras implanted in my neck at
our first meeting.  It was not a long operation and involved no pain,
but Jago thinks the organic technology they used allows the device to
"grow" into the recipient's body.  It didn't hurt when the original
Seouras used it to communicate, unlike our present invaders, who may be
creating the pain deliberately, or perhaps they're just not as
proficient at communicating.  Our doctors say they can't remove the
implant while it's active, so it stays in the hollow above my
collarbone, a raised starfish shape under the skin.

It was a strange and frightening sensation to stand in the Smoke
surrounded by poisonous gases and yet remain untouched.  The first
human divers to use portable gills in Earth's oceans must have felt
this way.

The main corridors of the Smoke keep an atmospheric mix that four our
of the seven species find bearable.  There is a thriving subculture in
here, with bazaars, entertainment, and eateries, although most of the
humans find it all too alien to visit regularly.

The corridors beyond the airlock seemed shrouded in

fog until I put on the mask, which filtered out some of the shadows.
Most of the doors were shut, some of them with double and triple
airlocks to contain particular atmospheres.  As I walked to An Bank's
door a Tell rolled around the corner from the opposite direction.  It
stopped immediately and I felt somewhere, somehow, the feather-light
touch of its mind as it confirmed my identity.  I smiled and walked on
past.  I can't help smiling at Tell.  I like them immensely.  They are
per ambulatory balls of blueish fuzz, with no apparent features or
other distinguishing characteristics.  They do nothing to or for anyone
and never, ever complain about anything.  What station commander
wouldn't like such residents?

I paused outside An Barik's room.  I hadn't encountered him (they say
it's the correct pronoun--the only pronoun) in a while.  Invidi are
always willing to talk, but they rarely answer a question in the way
you expect.  They also seem terribly interested in the unsaid.

I often get the feeling with the Invidi that they are filing their
observations away into a great pool of information about humans.
Despite their being the first aliens we encountered, they know a lot
more about us than we do of them.  Perhaps it is due to environmental
barriers--we usually only see them when they wear breathing apparatus
for our atmosphere.  That is one of the reasons I try to meet with An
Barik in his own surroundings.  Certainly it puts me at a physiological
disadvantage, but it does let me do some observing of my own.

The door opened.  The room was large, to match its owner, and the air
seemed clearer than outside.  It was gloomy to human eyes, and I
switched on the infrared filter in the mask.  The tall, hooded figure
of An Barik stood

in the center of the room, silhouetted against weak lime-green light
from a brazier against the far wall.  A line of poetry rose unbidden
from childhood readings: O sages standing in God's holy fire As in the
gold mosaic of a wall... "Good peace."  I didn't worry about greeting
gestures, as I didn't have enough arms to do it properly.  "I trust you
are in health, Master?"

An Barik stood quite still too.  "Governor Halley.  The one is honored
by your concern.  And of the title "Master' unworthy."  His voice
echoed from the translation device concealed somewhere on his person.

I'm never sure how far to extend the greeting stage.  When he switches
to more colloquial language it's usually the sign that we might discuss
specifics, but it can take hours to reach this point, depending on his
mood.

"It is I who am unworthy of speaking to the Master.  But I would be
grateful for the opportunity to do so."

An Barik made a remarkably expressive snorting sound and turned
slowly.

"Humans make problems with time.  You should let it use you more
gently.  Remember, 'time is the bone of the soul."" He glided backwards
as he spoke.  Invidi have a caterpillar-like method of propulsion on
the underside of their tall, knobbly bodies.  It is ironic that the
first sentient alien species to visit Earth and the most benign of our
visitors should have looked like all our fears and nightmares invaders
rolled into one.  They have no distinct head or face and long,
prehensile tentacles, glistening greenish skin, wrinkled and bubbly in
places like a toad.  They must have seemed terrifying at first, even
wearing their body suits, which had snaking cable-like protuberances
and metallic drapes.

I followed An Barik to the lighted area around the ceremonial brazier.
There were a couple of stool-like fittings that he kept in concession
to weaker races' need to sit.

"How may the one be of service?"

Well.  He was coming quickly to the point today.

"Thank you."  I did not sit, disliking the physical and psychological
discomfort of looking up.  "Early this morning there was a murder in
the center storage bays."

An Barik's smaller tentacles twitched rapidly in consternation, and
even the larger ones swayed restlessly.  "Condolences."

He used this expression to honor our customs.  We don't know how the
Invidi feel about death and/or an afterlife.  They are a secretive
people and we know nothing of their customs regarding the dead--how
they treat the body: burial, cremation, abandonment, consumption,
assimilation possibilities as many as there are species.  For that
matter, what were we to do with Keveth's remains?  The K'Cher have
elaborate rituals for those which die before Changing, but I had no
idea what the process involved.  And Murdoch wouldn't want to release
the body until his investigation was complete.

"Accepted with thanks.  It was one of the K'Cher traders--Keveth.  Did
you know the individual?"

"Not known."

"The body was found in a bay that should have been locked.  We don't
know what Keveth was doing there but security scans of the bay revealed
a small device that could have disrupted the door signal.  That device
had an Invidi energy signature."

"May the one observe?"

"I'm afraid not.  It disappeared."

"Unfortunate."

"Very.  But that is a characteristic of certain Invidi technologies, is
it not?"

Two of his smaller tentacles twisted around each other in a gesture
irresistibly reminiscent of hand-wringing, and rows of spots down the
side of his body seemed darker.  I knew enough of Invidi physiognomy to
realize An Barik was upset, but not whether it was distress at the news
or something else.

"Was it yours?"  No human ego to bruise here, although I could have
used more formal language.

"The one cannot answer that question."

"Why not?"

"Does not see device in question and therefore the answer is
unknown."

I pulled out the security scanner and isolated the energy signature
readings for him.  "You may be able to tell from this.  Was it
yours?"

As I held out the scanner one of his smaller, thinner tentacles snaked
over and caressed it.  Close up, the tentacle was a soft green, the
underside covered with a fuzz of tiny hair-like projections.  I
watched, fascinated.  How does he "see"?  Does he absorb energy
directly into his body and distinguish the tiny electromagnetic
fluctuations?  What if he touches me?

I didn't think An Barik was involved.  He has been on the station for
over two years now.  Unlike the previous "observer," a K'Cher which
used to take every possible opportunity to retreat to the civilization
of the inner sector, An Barik has not been off Jocasta since he
arrived.

He appears dutifully at official functions tbut otherwise keeps
quietly to his quarters.  It was possible that someone had stolen
something from here--I'd have to speak to Quartermaine about security.
Strictly speaking, Quartermaine should have been here with me to talk
to An Bank.

The tentacle retreated and the voice box made a sound like an
embarrassed cough.  "The one knows not."  He swayed back slightly from
me.

He was lying.  I knew it as surely as I stood on the hard deck.

I'd asked Quartermaine once how he understood so much non-verbalized
language, both with the Invidi and his fellow humans, and he'd laughed
at me.  "You do it yourself, m'dear."  Then, at my puzzlement.  "Gut,
just gut.  Disengage that analytic brain for a bit and you'll be
surprised what the universe shows you."

That an Invidi could lie to me was inconceivable.  I trust them more
than I trust most humans.  Maybe my gut was wrong, but I could hear the
sound of a paradigm shattering.  We don't know how they think.  We
can't know how they feel.  All we have is a set of case studies, a
collection of examples.  With each addition, the paradigm shifts. 
Without a shared perception of the world we cannot say Invidi will act
in such-and-such a way.  All we can do is admit that, up until now, we
have seen most Invidi do so-and-so.  But if An Barik was capable of
lying, what else might he be capable of?

The silence lengthened as I stood there like an idiot.  What could I
say?  Sorry, but I think you're a liar?  Maybe they don't have the
concept of lying.  An insidious little voice whispered, what does it
matter?  He's given you the

perfect way out.  Murdoch will worry about it for a while but then the
whole thing will be put aside.  It was only some maverick trader
anyway, you've got more important business to worry about... "Are you
sure?  Have you perhaps had anything stolen recently?"  Sometimes I
listen to the little voice, sometimes not.

"Not stolen."

"Do you have any explanation then?"  I persisted.

He swayed again.  "We stand at a... node of extreme flexibility."

"A 'node'?"  The interpretation chip had, unusually, hesitated over the
word.  The effect was like a static blip, immediately distinguishable
from a hiatus in normal conversation.  The tentacles shivered.  "The
expression is unclear?"  he said at last.  "Concept is familiar to your
species."  The simulated voice managed to convey a touch of reproach.

"I understand the word to mean the point at or from which an
unspecified number of paths diverge... Master, please remember that my
temporal perception is linear and limited."

"Yes.  The one attempts to restrict explanation."

The Invidi, as far as we can tell, have the ability to see in time much
as we see in space.  They can walk freely on the road that we call the
future, although their view is limited by the horizons of possibility
and blocked by the obstacles of choice.  How they see what we call the
past and whether it is differentiated from the rest of time, nobody
knows.  Nor is it clear how they relate space and time.  They regard us
as we might regard someone who proceeds through the universe able to
see only the ground one step ahead of her on a single plane--with
pity, concern, and a certain amount of irritation.

"There are a great many possible continuings in this area," he
explained patiently.  "The one cannot quickly discern the brightest
one."

I rubbed at the implant in my neck, fingers unconsciously tracing the
familiar shape.  "Are you saying we're heading for a crisis soon?"

"Soon?"

He didn't need a semantic explanation--he wanted to know the specific
content of the word.  I cursed myself for using a temporal expression,
and a vague one at that.

"I refer to a period extending from this particular moment to and
including an unspecified one along our en tropic line that corresponds
to approximately fifty-five planetary rotations."

"That is acceptable.  Not soon."

So we were all right for a month or so.  He didn't deny the "crisis"
bit.  Not for the first time I wondered why An Bank hadn't warned us
about the Seouras, or at least got himself out of the way before they
came.  He had asked us to shelter him, to keep his existence a secret
from them, in case they proved to have an appetite for Invidi
technology.  I'd suffered for that secret, and others might yet.

"Is this 'node' connected to Keveth's.  death?"  I tried to bring him
back to our present.

He didn't answer, but ran one of his smaller tentacles up and down the
same spot on his torso, like me rubbing my neck.  He'd lied about the
device, true, but there might be other questions involved
here--security, cultural taboos, lack of preparation.  I got the
impression that he genuinely could not understand the urgency of my
questions.  I needed

to talk to the liaison officer about this.  Brin always said, "First
blame the translation program.  Then check your hardware, clarify your
own interpretation, and be positive you both have the same information.
Then, and only then, dare you begin to suspect irreconcilable cultural
differences."

"I'll talk to you again later, perhaps," I said to An Barik.  "If you
have no objection?"

"Later?"

"Unspecified," I amended hastily.  "Period extending from this moment
into unspecified future, probability of within one diurnal unit."

"Acceptable."

There was one more thing.  We could tell this from the sensor logs but
Murdoch would ask and I might as well spare him the trouble.  "Master
Barik, were you in your quarters the past twelve cycles station time?"
Did he realize what I was implying?

"The one remains in same space.  Movement limited."  Yes, I was the one
who had cautioned him to stay within the most heavily shielded parts of
the station to prevent the Seouras picking up his life signs if they
scanned us.

"Thank you.  Your leave."

The tall, irregular silhouette watched me go without further comment.

I hadn't handled that conversation very well.  My head felt as though
it was stuffed with slime.  And dammit, I forgot to ask An Barik about
the Sleepers getting help from the Invidi all those years ago.  I'll
just wait for Brin to tell me tomorrow.

By the time I reached my quarters I was asleep on my feet.  The lights
failed to come on and I knocked some-thing off the table but didn't
care.  Blue light made the bed look deep and inviting.  Marlena
Alvarez's face accused me from the photo image--what are you going to
do?

I grumbled to myself and tipped the frame over so she couldn't see me.
I will get us out of this.  But not tonight.

The quilt smelled of slime as I sank into it and oblivion.

Second Day 7 am

There's a metallic taste on my tongue.  Blood.  My face is ground down
with brutal force as they hold my arms.  I can't move, a hard weight on
my back.  Oh god, help me ... One of them grabs a handful of hair and
shoves my head forward into the slime.  The stuff is in my eyes, nose,
mouth, I can't breathe.  It's going into my lungs, I'm drowning
impossibly sobbing at the same time, screaming, enough enough enough...
I try to twist around to see who it is.  I can almost see his face but
it begins to disintegrate, eaten from within by a twisting, writhing
movement that breaks into countless tiny wriggling shapes.  Shapes that
grow larger into long feelers, tentacles that snake along my bare legs
with a cold smooth touch of horror.

No, this is wrong--they don't touch me, they never touch me.  Leave me
alone... Help us.  Stay away.  Come.  The voices conflict, clash inside
my head until I can't hear anything else.  "Oh shit."  I curled up on
my stomach and cried into the sheets that were ready wet with sweat.
"Only a dream, only a dream."  Too many dreams lately.  What if
Eleanor's right and I am going mad?  Maybe it is the implant.  But
they've never "talked" at this distance before.

I scratched uselessly at my neck.  Wish I could get rid of this
thing.

I loathe it when they're in me, even though I remind myself this is the
only way they can communicate and it's better than having them blow up
the station out of frustration or pique.  They told me I must come when
called and I do.  It isn't telepathy--there's no emotional link at all.
I don't feel an actual presence but I know they are there, more than
one of them.  It's like walking through a familiar room in the dark and
putting your hand on something you know shouldn't be there.  The worst
of it is not the pain, it's the fact that they don't communicate
anything.  Are they learning about us?  If so, they're certainly taking
their time.

I slipped into an exhausted doze back to the flat plain under a sky low
enough to touch.  I reach up and familiar viscosity licks at my
fingers.  Slime underfoot gives off a greenish luminescence that rises
to fill the world with a sweet, sour, acrid smell.  It is so familiar
now, I wear the odor like a second skin.  What do they want from us?

"Halley."

What am I going to do about them?

"Murdoch to Halley."

How could Murdoch be calling me in the Seouras section?  Communications
are jammed.  Unless he's here too.  I moved my arm through viscous air
and hit something with a sharp crack.  Station wall.  Wake up.

"Halley here.  What is it?"  My heart was pounding so loud and fast
that I thought he'd hear it through the link.

To my horror, the visual component of the wall comm unit flickered
into life.  It hasn't worked properly, to my knowledge, since I moved
up here.  Murdoch's face blinked at me.

"We need to ..."  He raised his eyebrows.

"Visual off," I snarled at the interface and pushed the manual cutoff
too.  Blast the man, it's not as if I'm naked or anything.  Merely a
thin singlet and a face full of sleep.

"We need to talk about last night."  His voice was amused.  "Can you
come now?"

"Now?"  The events of the previous day and night came crashing down
into the forefront of my memory in a tangled cacophony.  The jump mine,
cryostasis travellers from Earth in a ship that couldn't have got here,
Seouras, Keveth's blood like rain... "Yeah, I got a couple of minutes
before we start the day down here.  How about you?"

I rolled out of bed, stumbling over the therma sheet Coffee.  I have to
get a coffee subroutine in my kitchen.

"Where?"

"How about breakfast?  Main mess hall."

"Right."

I rummaged through the mess on the floor to find the uniform I'd tossed
away before crawling into bed, pulled at my hair ineffectually with a
comb, fastened the same shirt, closed the jacket and cinched the belt
tighter.  Jago is right--I can't afford to lose any more weight.,

I squeezed into the shower alcove, held my face in the air wash for a
long minute, and groaned at the puffy eyes in the mirror.  Sometimes I
feel I inhabit a strange, stretched state in which each day runs into
the next, in which there is no break between the end of yesterday's
work and the

beginning of today's.  My real self is shut up in a tight little box
somewhere near the top of my head and I've gradually learned to leave
her alone.  In the end I forget about her.  But somewhere, a feeling
that there's a gap--a breach where something ought to exist but
doesn't.  It was going to be a long day.

The main Alpha mess hall below the Bubble was three-quarters empty,
which suited me.  The command crew has four shifts and the other
departments three, both sets staggered to begin at 0900.  At this hour
the mess should have been full of first-and third-shift diners, but it
seems that more and more people are eating elsewhere.  The few here
were all human, mostly in Earth Fleet uniform, some reading tabletop
screens, others chatting or chewing into space as they endured whatever
was on special.

One wall was taken up by serving hatches and the others boasted
holo-pictures designed to give the illusion of space--calming
seascapes, wind-blown meadows, tree-lined streets, that sort of thing.
The pictures were stuck as usual, and one was down completely.
Personally, I thought the gray wall studded with tiny emitter relays
was far more restful.

I weaved between the lines of long tables and stood at one of the
serving hatches.  Three Customs officers seated at a nearby table
whispered obviously and one of them laughed.  I receive more open
hostility-from crew members, surprisingly, than from residents.  Many
residents came to Jocasta from such appalling situations that the
Seouras blockade must seem like a minor inconvenience.  The crew, on
the other hand, are divided clearly on the question of surrender.  I'd
like to think the majority agree

that it was the only way to preserve the station, but at times like
these it seems doubtful.  I used to sit with whoever was in the mess,
but lately it's been too much like a gamble with the odds stacked
against me.

I fished my ration card out of an inner pocket and pushed it into the
machine.  Not many choices lit up.  The mess menu was an orthodox blend
of representative human dishes and a basic selection of alien fare, all
clearly labelled and color-coded for taste, digestibility and so on. 
If you ordered a dish unsuitable for human physiology-nothing on the
menu was poisonous, but some selections could make you quite sick--an
audio warning clicked on automatically, accompanied by flashing lights.
This annoyed Veatch and a couple of other aliens on the staff, but
most of the officers were human so the warning stayed.

I pushed the numbers for fruit salad, coffee, and churos.  We'd tried
voice commands but the hubbub of conversation from the queue--mostly
conversation about food--had been too confusing for the interface.  I
mentally timed the food being brought out of its storage containers,
placed on a tray, and shunted back to the hatch, but the tray lurched
out of the serving hatch sooner than I expected.  I grabbed it as the
movement of the conveyor slopped coffee onto thin slices of batter and
a small, round fruit.  Obviously the morning's supply of fruit salad
was finished.

Farther away in the room a voice rose with an.  edge to it,"... coming
in kere!  What a hide, huh?"  Shushing noises followed.

I turned around, tray in hand, and the noise level dropped suddenly..
One of the Customs officers deliberately shifted her chair as I walked
past.  I sat at a far table

and took a sip of lukewarm coffee, though it might have been tea.

I put aside the question of An Batik's possible lie until I could talk
with Brin Quartermaine.  He would enlighten me about Invidi concepts. I
hoped he had asked An Bank about the Sleepers and Invidi activities
around the time of the First Contact.  I washed down a tasteless,
doughy mouthful with tasteless liquid and hoped my stomach could take
the punishment.  I doubt any of the human staff have reservations about
alien food now--not if this is the alternative.  Officially the fresh
food supplies we produce onstation go to the hospital and shelters, but
a small, significant percentage ends up in the restaurants and markets
in the Hill and lower Gamma.  The mess hall makes do with recycled
concoctions and the ever-dwindling stocks left over from before the
blockade.

Another tray slid onto the table with a crash that made me jump.

"That's all you're having?  No wonder you're so skinny."  Murdoch
squeezed his bulk into the chair.  His tray held a plate of grayish,
greasy mess that smelled so strongly of curry that even my slime-sodden
sinuses could tell.  Also an enormous pile of batter slices and a jug
of reconstituted juice.

I looked away from the tray quickly and let the personal comment pass.
"After last night's little episode I'm doing well to stomach
anything."

"Ach."  He waved a hand in dismissal of such frailties.  "It gets to
you at the time, but you put it out of your mind afterwards."

"It's not my mind that's the problem."  I tried to peel the fruit.  The
tough, purplish skin refused to come away

in one neat piece and had to be scraped off with what I call my
fingernails.

Murdoch drank a deep draught of the juice and shuddered slightly.  It
was probably made from this same under ripe fruit that had been in
stasis for months.

"So," he said, mouth full of dough, "what do you think?"

"Either Keveth opened the door or someone else did.  The idea of Keveth
getting its feelers on Invidi lock picks is so far-fetched I'm assuming
the latter.  An Bank says it wasn't his, by the way."

He made a short exclamation of interest through the mouthful, drew a
file pad from his jacket and laid it on the table.  He made an entry on
it with one hand and poured the rest of his juice with the other.  I
popped a pale green segment of fruit into my mouth.  It was sour and
bitter at the same time.  "Well?"

"We got two distinct DNA traces, both confirmed.  At least, one ID'd as
Keveth.  The other--it's human, by the way--we haven't got a match for
yet."

"Why?"

"Medical says no record."

Which meant someone who entered the station without going through
immigration procedures and who has had no medical treatment, and no
employment or criminal record.  Murdoch would have made sure it wasn't
one of the records we'd lost in the Seouras attack either.

11%

He demolished the last batter slices.  "Nothing from Keveth's contacts'
so far, but we did find someone who saw Keveth coming out of Trillith's
place in Alpha yesterday afternoon at about two o'clock."

A couple of hours after the rescue operation concluded.

"Could it have been working for Trillith?"

Murdoch tapped the table in disgust.  "If it was, we'll have a hell of
a time tracing anything."

He read the information on the screen then pushed it over to me while
he finished the curry.  "Keveth's been here on and off for more than
three years now.  That's longer than the Q'chn usually stay
anywhere."

I skimmed through the information.  Keveth had been charged several
times with minor offenses, all Customs infringements.  Two illegal
substances, four non-declaration of taxable goods, and one late docking
fee.  It had paid all fines up front even though the attached financial
records showed its business to be in debt.  A couple of times it had
been up before the bankruptcy court.  Someone had bailed it out each
time, although the record didn't mention who.

"It doesn't seem likely that Keveth would deal with the other Q'chn."
It had quarreled publicly with them and made its opinion of any sort of
authority quite obvious.  Murdoch grunted.  "The Q'chn have their black
sheep too, eh?"  Even aliens send their misfits to Jocasta.  "All we
can do is wait and see if we get a positive ID from the lab on that
human DNA.  And the weapon.  Then it won't matter who Keveth's
connections are."  Murdoch had recovered his poise, and with good
cause.  He could arrest the Q'chn onstation and their powerful
aristocracy couldn't do a thing about it, thanks to the Seouras
blockade.

"Looks like Trillith was one of the last to see Keveth alive."

"Yup."  Murdoch took the file pad back and frowned at the screen.

"Keveth volunteered to help with the rescue.  Perhaps it saw something
then and offered to show someone."  "I thought the Queen's going out
was suspicious."  "You've got nothing on the weapon?"  He sighed
noisily. "I've got my people doing a quick search while they make their
inquiries.  We found enough weapons to set up a bloody army.  Knives...
well, take your pick, carving knives, ceremonial knives, paring knives,
sharing knives... I tell you, we need to go back to square one with our
dangerous weapons regulations.  It's not even as if they can smuggle
them in.  But none of them is a forensic match."  He clicked the file
pad shut, pushed his tray aside, and absently activated the tabletop
screen--holographies weren't working but we got a reasonably clear flat
image.  An educational program on responsible waste disposal.  "So
what've we got?  Keveth and some human were in the storage bay with a
load of old building materials ..."  In response to my unspoken query.
"We checked.  Nothing of interest, unless Keveth wanted to corner the
shower slab trade.  And the stuff from the Sleeper ship.  The door was
open when we got there.  It had been opened with an Invidi lock breaker
that then conveniently disintegrated or melted or whatever."  He leaned
his elbows on the table and counted the points off on his fingers.  He
has nice hands, strong, long-fingered, well kept.  Unlike my own
bitten, plasma-stained digits.

"Our resident Invidi says the lock breaker wasn't his.  That's about it
for the Invidi connection at the moment."  "I did ask An Barik where he
was last night."

"And?"  % "In his quarters, of course.  I suppose you checked the
Smoke airlock logs?"

"Yeah, but those things aren't infallible.  Where was I?"

"You've got Keveth connected with Calypso through the rescue and
connected with the Q'chn through Tril-lira."  "And the Q'chn mean the
Invidi and the Four Worlds."

"Not necessarily," I protested.  "The Invidi don't have much to do with
Q'chn business."  This seemed like as good a time as any to broach the
next subject.  "Bill, is it my imagination, or is the anti-Confederacy
feeling growing worse?"

He looked at me warily, as if gauging how much he should say. "There've
been no major incidents.  At least, not since that bomb.  And the Gamma
trade hall thing."

He meant a protest that had been staged by the Small Businesses Union
against the monopoly of storage space by big merchants, notably the
Q'chn and then-affiliates, despite the fact that no interstellar trade
was currently being conducted.  They'd wanted the space to establish
small-scale manufacturing facilities for immediately usable consumer
goods.  The protest had turned into a near-riot, thanks to the arrival
of a large, intoxicated group of ex-dock workers from the Hill, who
began by supporting the Union and ended by attempting to trash the
Q'chn warehouses.  Murdoch's job had been complicated by the fact that
most of the Security personnel clearly supported the dockers and small
businesses.

Weeks later we'd finally forced Veatch to complete the new factory
legislation to pass to the magistrate, who pushed it through
immediately.  It had left the few big merchants who remained on
Jocasta extremely dissatisfied with the administration.  "No major
incidents, no.  But plenty of little ones.  Graffiti, trouble with the
Smoke environment als  Recycling to Alpha residencies blocked up, that
sort of thing.  Administration officials being called collaborators."
Murdoch frowned.  "Who called you that?"  "It doesn't matter who.  But
what's your feeling about it?"  Murdoch leaned back and stared at the
tabletop screen.  He passed his hand over it and back again, peering at
the visuals through splayed fingers.  "You can't blame people," he said
finally.  "Earth's been a member for thirty-six years.  They think we
deserve better than this."  "We don't know what's happened out there.
The Confederacy might be under attack too."  He drummed his fingers
irritably on the screen, which changed channels obediently.  "You don't
really believe that with all that Invidi technology they couldn't get a
message through to us?  That Con Fleet couldn't jump a fleet into the
middle of those gray ships and take them out before they knew what hit
them?  I saw Ben darI ships on suicide runs in the border wars.  They'd
eat these Seouras for breakfast."  I was shocked, not by what he'd said
but by the fact that he'd said it.  "Bill, if you feel like this, why
haven't you said something to me?"  "Hey, I only mentioned it because
you asked what I thought."  He gave me one of his rare wry smiles.
"Besides, what can we.  do about it?  You've got enough on your plate
without me whining."  In just two days, two of the people closest to me
on the station had revealed Their disbelief in the Confederacy's good
will.  First Quartermaine, now Murdoch.  It shook my own faith, and it
was also propelling me into panic as I considered what I should do if
they were right.  And why had they, particularly Murdoch, continued to
support my pro-Confederacy stance when they thought we'd been
abandoned?

A familiar voice probed the edge of my hearing and Murdoch reached for
volume control.  At his tap the screen had automatically switched to
Dan Florida's alternative channel.  Florida was interviewing Rachel
Dourif and Hannibal Griffis.

Dressed in hospital gowns and jackets they sat stiffly on the edges of
Their chairs facing Florida.  He sat back with legs crossed casually,
urbane in a dark suit, tidier than I'd ever seen him.  It was probably
about five minutes into the interview, because usually he started by
standing to welcome his guests and spent a few minutes on
introductions.  It must have been conducted yesterday afternoon or last
night, after I'd talked to them and while I was over on the gray
ship.

"... the voyage was illegal?"  Florida sounded as unconvinced as I
felt.

Griffis waved a hand in dismissal.  "Illegal in the sense that it
didn't have government sanction.  But there was no law to prohibit
private citizens from leaving the planet if they chose."

There wouldn't be, not if doing so was impossible.  Interplanetary
travel was fifty-six years away, well after the formation of the
Confederacy.

"We're all interested in how you feel about this incredible
experience."  The camera focused on Florida's

face.  "Remember," he spoke directly to his audience, "these people
were asleep for nearly a hundred years.  This morning we spoke of the
Rip Van Winkle legend in Earth's past and several similar stories in
other cultures.  Professor, if you could turn back the clock now, would
you?"

Murdoch raised his eyebrows at me.  I looked around at the other
diners--most of them were watching their screens, and I didn't think it
was to learn about recycling procedures.

"I don't think we have anything to regret," said Griffis slowly.  "And
I don't think we'll have a lot of trouble fitting in here.  It's not as
if we came from before First Contact."

No, they had already made that conceptual leap of recognizing that we
weren't alone in the universe.  Anything after that was a matter of
degrees.

I still didn't understand why an Invidi had helped Nguyen and his band
of visionaries.  Why become involved in what must have seemed a pitiful
attempt to reach a star so close that most of our ships use "half-jump"
mode?  What profit--now I'm thinking like a Q'chn--could the Invidi
possibly make from such involvement?

Florida asked Rachel and Kloos how they felt.  Both of them answered
diplomatically that they felt a little at sea, but looked forward to
becoming useful members of our society.

"Ah, one last question.  You said that Dr.  Nguyen didn't come with
you.  Why was that?  Surely he wan tse to see Centauri?"

"He died," Griffin said slowly.  "In custody."  ,

"But..."  The shock on Florida's face did much to reveal the falsity of
his Hardened Reporter guise.

I remembered Demora's stories about Las Mujeres-the terror squads, the
disappearances, the desperate resistance.  It was eminently possible
that Nguyen had died in the prison of a repressive government.

The program ended with thank-yous to all.  Murdoch tilted his chair.
"Kind of makes you want to reread the history files, doesn't it?"  He
scratched his close curls.  "I didn't think we'd issued a pass to
Florida."  Security was still keeping away the crowds of curious
residents from the hospital and the Sleepers' room.  It was no wonder
Rachel had sneaked out in the dark last night.

"I specifically told him he'd have to wait for a story."  I thought
Florida would find a way to get to the Sleepers if forbidden to do so.
"It won't satisfy the researchers, but if we get some information on
the news net the thrill-seekers might be satisfied and go home."

Murdoch chuckled.  Then he let the chair fall back with a thud.

"Invidi interfered in Earth's affairs a century ago.  What makes you
think it's any different now?  We don't know what they're thinking, but
we do know they have lots of handy gadgets--like the one that opened
the storage bay.  Why do you think he's being uncooperative?"

"He's always uncooperative.  Or it looks that way."  I leaned forward.
"Bill, you don't seriously suspect him, do you?"  The idea that an
Invidi would deliberately hurt another being was as startling as it
was-repugnant.  I had never seen them even touch anyone.  "Think of the
practical problems.  People are going to notice a two-meter alien in an
atmospheric suit skulking around.  And he knew he could be vulnerable
to Seouras scanners if he left the Smoke."

Murdoch's face settled into its customary stubborn mask.  "The only
hard evidence we have is a record of Invidi technology.  He's the only
Invidi on the station.  I have to follow up the lead."  "I know.  But
consider who you're dealing with."  "Look, I'm not going to speculate
about motive.  That's bad enough when it's only humans involved, let
alone aliens."  I thought of my own struggle with Seouras motives.  How
can we possibly know?  And should we not try to know?  Quartermaine
says we don't need understanding to live together--just guidelines.
Understanding comes later.  The problem was, if Murdoch could watch
Florida's interview and suspect the Invidi, so could the rest of the
station, even if they didn't have our knowledge of the connection with
Keveth's murder.  Maybe I shouldn't have let Florida do the interview
after all.  On the other hand, the murder victim was a Q'chn.  If it
had been a human there might have been trouble, but with any luck
people would see it as a Four Worlds problem ... "Halley?"  Murdoch was
leaning over the table frowning at me.  "You with me?"  His expression
was serious, which made me even more uncomfortable than the thought
that I'd been caught daydreaming.  "I think you should get Dr.  Jago to
look you over.  You never used to brood like this."

"I don't brood."  "Whatever.  You just sort of fade for a minute."  _
"I was thinking" He was starting to annoy me.  "It's been getting worse
these past few weeks."  He really doesn't know when to quit.  "Maybe
you need a rest."

"Leave me alone, Murdoch."  The words emerged sharper than I'd
intended.  A flicker of anger lit his features and he opened his mouth
to retort, then shut it again.

"All right.  It's all right."  His voice was unexpectedly gentle.

The tone surprised me and I had to look down at the remains of
breakfast for a moment before I could return to our immediate problem.
"What's your schedule?"

He stood and flexed his shoulders.  The dull green material stretched
alarmingly over them.  "We'll search for the weapon, go over the bay
again, get onto Keveth's contacts.  Talk to Trillith.  And I'll get
Quartermaine to interview the Invidi with me."

"I'll tell him.  There's something I asked him to do for me
yesterday."

"Whatever you like.  Tell him I want to do it this morning.  And no
rubbish about it being the wrong time."

Murdoch swaggered out.  I sat and stared at the remains of breakfast,
trying to recall whether Rip Van Winkle told the people of his new
village how he got there.

I needed to talk to Quartermaine.  First, about An Barik's reactions
to my questions last night on the evidence of the lock breaker found at
Keveth's murder scene.  Second, regarding the help that the Invidi had
allegedly given the Sleepers so many years ago.  Now I had a name to
give him--An Serat.  Maybe the name had cropped up in Erin's research.
Brin lives in one of the most pleasant areas of the station, the three
Gamma sections directly below the agricultural sections of Alpha ring.
My quarters are on the edge of the residential areas, in the less
desirable corridors near the main trade halls, where offices and
bazaars spread out in noisy confusion.  Brin's residency allowance was
for somewhere near the Invidi, but he likes comfort and doesn't mind
paying extra for it.  I stood in front of his door and waited for the
sensors to tell him I was there, but there was no answer.  Curious.  He
always kept to a strict morning routine: up at five, breakfast, toilet,
prayer, work.  Never varies.  By my calculations he should be at the
peppermint tea stage.  I pushed the manual buzzer but there was no
response " '^ "Computer, activate.  Bioscan these quarters."  No
reaction.  Voice interaction is down again.  I flipped back the control
panel's cover and keyed in my access code.  Slow, slow.  The poor op
sys has a lot on its mind.  I wonder which part of the grid has blown
this time.

So where was Quartermaine?  The interface finally told me there was no
one in his rooms.  I walked back down the hall to a public comm panel,
called his main office, and got a recorded message.  He wasn't in the
Linguistics department either--when I rang, a sleepy voice said she'd
been there all night and hadn't seen him.

There was one other possibility, but I was loath to use knowledge of
his personal life to intrude when it wasn't really an emergency.  It
could wait, particularly as I had an Engineering meeting now and had
promised the Sleepers a tour at 0900.

"Today?"  Griffis repeated Eleanor's words and they all stared at us.

"If possible."  The doctor was sympathetic but unrepentant.  "Tomorrow
at the latest."

Kloos stared at the floor and Rachel jiggled her foot so hard that the
bed she was leaning on rattled against its monitor.

"What does it matter?"  she said.  "It's only a..."  She waved her
hands in a circle.  "A formula for goodbye.  Today or tomorrow, it's
still goodbye."

"Yes, but..."  Griffis sighed and scratched his nose miserably.

Beside him Eleanor clutched her file pads

"I'm sorry you don't have more time to prepare, but

the radiation that the bodies absorbed makes it impossible to keep
them in stasis for very long," I began.  "At all," Eleanor interrupted,
as though it were my fault.  "Anyway, the stasis equipment needs
repairs.  We reserve it for emergency medical cases.  I'm sorry."

"So I need to ask you," I continued, "what arrangements you'd like made
for services and the disposal of the bodies."  The phrases came out
smoothly.  I've used them too many times in the past months.

Rachel gestured again helplessly.  "You tell them, Hannibal."  She rose
and went to stand with Kloos, who had turned his back to us and was
staring at the wall holo.

Griffis seemed to stoop more at the words.  He took a large, square
piece of material like a cleanchif out of his pocket and used it to
blow his nose.

"We all knew how dangerous it could be," he said finally.  "We all
signed an agreement that if anything happened to any of us during the
flight, the service was to be left to the discretion of any survivors.
And our bodies were to be burned either in atmospheric entry or in the
engine boosters."

"Or whatever else possible," said Rachel without turning around.

"We generally do the same thing," I said, relieved.  We'd run out of
cemetery storage space many months ago, and one of the administration's
continuing headaches was the friction this caused with some of the
religious groups on the station.  "The bodies of Con Fleet and Earth
Fleet personnel are sent to burn up in the planet's atmosphere. We have
a program that lets you watch from here, if you want."

Griffis nodded and blew his nose again.  There was a dignified
silence.

"You can fix up the details of the service with your counsellor."  I
knew it sounded as though I was rushing through this, but I couldn't
help it.  The memory of other funerals crowded the silences.

Rachel turned around.  "Will you come?"

"I, er.  If you want me to."

"We do," she said firmly.  Griffis nodded.

Hell.  The last thing I need is another funeral.  And what are we going
to do with Keveth's body?

I'd thought a short tour might divert them, if not cheer them up, but I
was starting to regret the offer.  The Engineering meeting about the
comet probe had not been encouraging, and I wanted to spend some time
looking for mention of Calypso in our historical database.  Somebody
must have seen them during that whole century.

Dan Florida came scrounging for another interview as we left Rehab for
the tour.  Griffis glanced between Florida and me as we argued the
protocol of Florida's accompanying us.

"I find it unusual for a military installation to have a public media,
a free press," he said.

"It's not a military installation, Professor," I said wearily.  "We
have an official news bulletin and... Mr.  Florida's venture.  Whether
he provides a public service or not is a matter of opinion."

Florida pointed the recording sensor down to cut it off.  "We provide a
necessary service."

"For your own profit," I reminded nun.

"If we didn't tell people what was going on, where

would they find out?  I don't think you realize how much distrust of
the administration there is, Commander."

"Why distrust?"  Griffis asked.

Florida started to explain the dissatisfaction members of the Nine
Worlds felt about the Four Worlds' dominance of the Confederacy.

"Some people on some of the Nine," I reminded them.

"But you say the Four don't share their jump technology because the
Nine can't understand it," said Griffis.

I was going to agree but Florida got in ahead of me.

"We have to live in the world of the Confederacy, which means we use
the technology anyway.  To get as far as this station, for example. But
we have no control over it," he said.

I hated this debate, having lost it endless times with my ex-husband. I
could never get around the feeling that if we can't understand the jump
technology, why should they share it with us?

It was the Sleepers' first walk outside the hospital, or, in Rachel's
case, her first daytime walk.  Every curve in the walkway, every alien
scent, had to be exclaimed over and analyzed.  The main throughway is
an open space that continues nearly halfway around the Gamma ring.  Ten
meters across at its widest point, it once contained most of our
better-class shops and the offices of high-profile businesses.  Many of
the shops bear "closed" signs now, and some enterprising stall-owners
from the Hill have taken advantage of the free renfc and grand position
to "tote their own flimsy wares.  To me, its shabbiness is familiar and
unremarkable, but as the three humans turned this way and that, their
mouths, open in amazement, I wondered what they saw.  Was the light
too diffuse for them, too far away?  Here in Gamma the central
throughway was open to reflected light from Abelar, but it was much
gentler than the bright glare of sun through atmosphere.  The internal
reflector panels are nearly three hundred meters away on either side. 
They reach from halfway up the sides of the ring to the opaque top. 
From here, they are simply a bright expanse.  Buildings rise on both
sides of the ring in steep tiers, in some places encrusted on each
other and blocking or diverting the throughway.  There are recognizably
human designs, notably the standard round prefab colony residences like
tall beehives, plus a few that could only have originated on other
planets. Would Rachel find the jumble oppressive?  Had Griffis perhaps
expected a streamlined, gleaming vision of humanity's triumph in
space?

"It reminds me of somewhere..."  Rachel's long features pulled into a V
of concentration as she glanced around.

"Shanghai," said Kloos.

"Barcelona," said Rachel.

"Abidjan," pronounced Griffis, and the other two agreed.

How little we know about the cities of their time.  When I first came
to space, in my early years in the corps after completing training on
Earth, the closeness had been oppressive.  It hadn't occurred to me
that the Sleepers might find the crowds and multicultural bustle of
Jocasta more familiar than I would have.

"This is like the main street.  We call it the Boulevard.  On either
side are residential areas and business offices.  Farther along this
level are trading halls, where you can rent space to conduct business
in private."

"What about the social structure?"  Griffis glanced at my uniform,
then around at the controlled bustle.  "I presume you follow military
hierarchy?"  he continued uncertainly.  Florida took Griffis by the arm
and gestured grandly as they walked.  "It's a bit like a layer cake,
Professor.  Or like the rings on the station, actually."  He smiled
appreciatively and repeated the metaphor to himself.  "At the top of
the ring you've got the original Con Fleet officers-like our gallant
commander here.  Then, still up the top but down a bit you've got the
administrative staff from Sector Central.  Not all of them are human.
Like the station manager, Veatch... You haven't met him yet?"

Rachel had taken Kloos lightly by the arm, too, and murmured to him. He
shook his head and removed his arm from her grip.

"Still in the inner ring but below the Sector Central staff are the
Earth Fleet staff.  Then in the middle ring are us civilians from Earth
and the colonies, who came out here to make a living either on the
station or from the ships that stopped here.  There are some
Confederacy traders caught here too, so I guess they should be above us
in the middle."

"Why?"  Griffis was overly sensitive to the issue of ; Earth's minority
status.

Florida shrugged.  "That's how it goes."  He continued before either
Griffis or I could interrupt.  "In the outer, lower ring live the
small-time traders and family businesses.  And at the.  very bottom are
the refugees and illegal entrants.  After all," with a calculating
glance in my direction, "out there on the bottom the reflectors are
still unrepaired, it's closer to cosmic rays and most vulnerable to
attack..."

I wasn't really listening.  It had struck me that back in the
Confederacy it was humans who lived in the outer ring, so to speak.  In
the gaps and slums of alien society.

I watched Griffis from behind as we walked.  Tall and long-legged, he
shambles, with a forward teeter.  His stoop is not self-effacing but
part of a trademark, an instantly recognizable image, a caricature of
himself by himself.  He seems arrogant and opinionated yet can charm as
well.  I like the way he's already managed to tread down the heels of
his new sandals and bag the seat of his trousers.  The shirt sags
unevenly around his waist, weighted by three different types of
handcoms he insists on carrying and uses at every opportunity.  He
seems determined to come to grips with this century--perhaps a little
too frantic, as if scared we might throw him back if he doesn't.

Kloos's bristle of short hair and smooth skin have blue highlights in
the second-hand sun.  He listens to explanations, turns the data pads
over in his hands, but it is impossible to tell if he has absorbed any
of it.

And Rachel--my first impression of her as reserved and self-assured was
changing each time we spoke.  As she faced me outside the hospital bed,
healthy and upright, it became obvious that she was a person always
physically involved.  A stocky, taut ball of nervous tension.

The sounds of the Boulevard became more insistent as we moved along.
The air was filled with echoes of conversation in a multitude of
tongues, overlaid with translations in Standard.  Or not, as the case
might be.  As this is

an Earth base, the translators are officially set on Earth Standard
speech, but the more complex Confederacy Standard is nevertheless
popular among the big traders.  I've been trying to understand Con
Standard for over two decades and still can't do much more than pass
the time of day.

The Sleepers didn't need to use a translator, but many of their words
were only vaguely familiar, echoes of phrases from my childhood, the
meaning of which I could guess at but not really understand.  They were
probably guessing at the meanings of many of our words too, but at
least they had the things around them to refer to.

I also found their accents, especially that of Griffis, difficult to
catch, and it turned out he felt the same way about mine.

"It's familiar yet unfamiliar."

I nodded.  "I speak Standard to you and you understand because Standard
is close to your old English, but my linguistic background isn't
English."

"What's your mother tongue, then?"  asked Florida curiously.  If he'd
done his background checks properly, he'd have known.

"A mixture of Portuguese, Spanish, German, and native dialects."  I
grinned.  "You wouldn't understand a word."  Besides, I do not have an
accent.  Everybody else does.

There was a moment that amused them for some reason, when Rachel asked
me about the station's "gay community.  " "We're not very happy at the
moment, what with the blockade and everything.  Still, I think
generally people" I began, but stopped as even Griffis snorted with
laughter.  Rachel couldn't choose between a grin and looking
concerned.  I glanced at Florida and he shrugged back.

"I'm sorry."  Rachel forced her mouth straight.  "It's an expression we
use that means homosexual."

"Oh."

She glanced at the others in genuine concern.  "You do understand ...
?"

"Yes.  It's something that's been around for a while," I replied
wryly.

We discussed words that indicate the mores of the society in which they
were used, and the fact that human sexuality became a broader issue
when seen in the context of the variety of alien solutions.  The facts
of alien reproductive habits tend to challenge our assumptions about
our own.  My former husband was H'digh, humanoid but not human, which
was about as far afield sexually as I wanted to go.  But, I reminded
them, I was fairly conservative.

"Was it an important difference in your time?"  asked Florida.  I was
quite happy to let him run with the ball.

Rachel shrugged.  "I guess we were all a bit preoccupied with sex."

"Sex.  You mean the biological differences between human males and
females?"  Florida was obviously making notes in his head.

"Not necessarily.  We often use it to mean the act of copulation.  You
don't use it in that sense?"

"Not in Standard, no."

"You don't have a gay community then?"  Rachel pressured me with the
intensity of her gaze.

"No, I don't think so.  Not in the way you mean."  Prim Humans in
Earth Fleet blue, humans in other clothes.  A sprinkling of Con Fleet
navy.  Two Security guards trying to shift one of the pedlars.  Most of
the scruffier people were human.  The rest were humanoid species like
the Dir, busy cheating their latest customer, and Achelians, furred and
spindly-limbed.  They made an interesting contrast: the Dir are
angular, ascetic-looking humanoids who practice a rigid, cutthroat
code.  Achelians are cuddly, furred creatures like urbane koalas,
equally adept at transferring the wealth of others to their own dark,
long-fingered paws.

There are also a few H'digh, Lykaeat, and more Garokians.  Some of
them, like the H'digh, are almost indistinguishable from humans.
Taller, more slender and better muscled than most humans but still
similar.  With others, like the Garokians, the only thing we have in
common are two legs, two arms, and a head.

I glanced at Kloos beside me.  He stared at everything with a
mesmerized gaze and his movements were a little unsteady, as if his
brain had disconnected links to everything but his eyes.  I hoped he
wasn't in danger of some kind of sensory overload.  Griffis was
listening carefully to Florida's explanation and Rachel's dark hair
bounced as she looked from one side of the throughway to the other.

One of the ICC her traders, not Trillith, came through the doorway as
we' passed, ducked to get under the lintel then stretched to its full
height in a confusion of jointed limbs and feelers before ambling down
the street away from us.  ^ "What was that--the praying mantis-y
thing?"  said Rachel, startled.

"Q'chn," said Florida, and gave her a condensed version of Q'chn
history and culture.

Kloos's pace faltered and I waited for him.

"How do you do it?"  he said.

"Do what?"

"Live with the aliens.  The differences.  Have human beings changed so
much?"

"I don't think so."  I'd expected them to feel uneasy.  "We've just had
a bit longer to get used to the idea, that's all."

"It doesn't bother you?"  His voice shook.

It was difficult to be honest and reassuring at the same time.  "Not
the physical aspect, except in the sense that it's part of what defines
our other differences."  Old memories surfaced unbidden.  "I once went
for three years without seeing another human."

"What was it like?"

"It was very... stressful.  You have to constantly think about how you
relate to others and the environment.  There's no autopilot.  You can't
trust your common sense because you have nothing in common with anyone
else."

"You weren't afraid?"

"Constantly."  I struggled to explain the positive aspect of it.  "But
there is a freedom too.  You can be completely yourself--no point in
pretense.  And you can expand physical borders--it's as if you see with
your nose or smell with your ears.  Everything a couple of degrees
off-balance."

He managed a feeble grin.  "Sounds like a good high."

"A what?"  It was funny to hear the word perfectly, just not know what
he meant.

His grin grew wider.  "Hallucinogenic trip--don't you use recreational
drugs?"

"Some people do."  I didn't add that avoiding reality in that way had
backfired on me once in a big way.  In fact, applying for jobs in alien
space had been how I coped with it.  At the moment I didn't think my
body could handle even a glass of wine.

"We knew there were other aliens out there."  Rachel heard us and
stepped back a pace.  "We just didn't give them much thought.  I mean,
we communicated with the Invidi all right, and they seemed friendly
enough.  We kind of assumed the others would be obliging."

I winced, thinking of the pirates and salvagers who prowl space outside
treaty zones.  It seemed incredible that they had failed to detect
Calypso.  It was unbelievable.

"What about fun?  Don't you have any hobbies?"  asked Rachel.

Fun.  Now there's a concept I haven't used for a while.  "I used to run
quite a bit."

They stared at me.  "Run?  Where?"

Florida rolled his eyes.  "She gets in people's way."

"Nonsense.  It's a good marathon around all three rings.  I used to do
it in a bit more than three hours."  I haven't been for months now." 
"I have a lot of fun writing new entertainment ho los said Florida
unexpectedly.  "It's more difficult to grasp alien humor than you might
think."

"I'm sure it is, said Kloos, his eyes on the passersby.  "Everyone
needs a hobby," said Griffis firmly.  "It helps you keep perspective on
things."

The pale blue panels ran back smoothly.  A collective gasp rose from
three throats behind me.  I think it's pretty impressive too.

We are supposed to preserve long lines of sight all over the station--a
measure to keep space sickness at bay.  Unfortunately, reality often
does not measure up to specs, and much of Gamma and all of Delta rings
have been built over to cope with our excess population.  Here in
Alpha, though, you can see the sky.

Not blue sky, to be sure.  But sunlight bounces off banks of reflectors
to form a vault of tinted alien gold.  Only in the Alpha ring do you
see light right above, for Gamma's sky is Alpha's base, and Delta sits
under Gamma, as far as the spinning top's gravity is concerned.

A single long path hugged the lowest point between beds of grains,
vegetables, fruits, fungi, and gill us that rose in terraces on either
side to meet the edges of the vault.  The lower fields have a base of
artificial soil, the higher ones are hydro-or aeroponic.  The air is
warmer, thicker, wetter, and I wish I could smell the scents.

Griffis gestured at the colored terraces.  "I presume you have a
self-sufficient food supply?"

Florida settled his beltful of equipment comfortably over one shoulder
as he answered.  He looked so at home out in the open.  His movements
were less jerky, his big hands and feet more relaxed.  His slight
squint had seemed calculating inside--now it was merely the result of
looking into the distance.  I could imagine him as a pioneer on

a colony planet, enjoying the struggle to build a new world.  Why had
he come to Jocasta?

"The purpose of all this is self-sufficiency," he said.  "But they
always seem to have problems.  Food rationing is a fact of life."

It certainly was.  Photosynthetic productivity was never constant and
we've had some difficulty with viruses.  The station wasn't designed as
an agricultural settlement and when we modified other systems to
compensate, that threw additional stress on those areas.  The
population is already too large to allocate any more space to food
production.

In the early days the station was a Con Fleet base, and most of our
supplies were imported.  Then supplies dwindled and support from Earth
faded.  While complaining to Central we stepped up research on food
production and expanded trade.  When the Seouras removed the trade
option altogether, we had already started producing staples.  But there
are so many random factors--too many illegal entrants and their
associated bacteria floating around.  The most we can be certain of is
that any strains of foodstuffs that do survive are hardy.

"It's all right for civilians," I reminded Florida.  "Staff still use a
minimum of twenty percent space rations."

Rachel grimaced.  "The gunk in tubes?"

"Uh-huh."  Processed nutrients that taste fine in free fall-anything
tastes okay in free fall, as long as it doesn't go up your nose--lose
their appeal squeezed onto a plate as part of a normal meal.  I'm not
the only person Who has lost weight in the' past few months.

And the refugees, the illegals, what do they eat?  The people who have
slipped through the bureaucratic net, who haven't registered for
medical checks, accommodation benefits, employment lists.  Like the
unknown human who was in the storage bay with Keveth last night. People
who live off the records.  We can calculate approximately how many
extra people are here by using oxygen consumption and waste recycle
figures as a base, but pinning them down physically isn't as easy.

"How about backups for the main computer systems?"  Kloos asked.

I didn't know whether to laugh or cry.  "That's what we're running on
now."

"What do you mean?"  He looked shocked, as any good systems engineer
should.

"Not completely on backups.  Some of the systems are still run on the
centerline, which has its main access nodes in the center.  Some are
run on backups, though, because either we couldn't fix the centerline
functions, or we couldn't afford to keep them running on centerline.
This is one reason we have such patchy performance in various systems.
Some access for these is in the rings, some in the center."

"Sounds like a maintenance team's nightmare," Rachel said.

"It's ironic in a way, isn't it?  That we should come so far, only to
find ourselves back at the starring point."  Griffis spread his arms to
encompass the whole station.  "I mean," at my puzzled look, "you have
so many similar problems to Earth in our time--overpopulation, resource
management, recycling, isolation.  All the problems of a closed
system."

Close curve of sky bright with captured alien light.  The horizon
curves up ahead to meet the sky and disappears

around its immense corner into a gray blur of buildings.  My
engineer's eye notes missing panels in die reflector grid and gives me
a critical appreciation of the balance in shell thickness that can
withstand the greatest stress with least mass.  But lately another eye
has been drawing my attention to the checkered effect of borrowed
sunlight on green growth.  This other eye--has it been with me always,
recording and delighting but unheeded?  I squatted down to see what my
new eye made of damp soil and pale green borders trodden by incautious
boots. Thick, brown clods stuck to the stubbed treads of my boots,
leaving a half-moon indent in the earth.  Earth.  This is not earth,
merely dirt. A mixture of waste sediment, compacted vegetable matter,
and sterilized processing waste.  No more than a thin skin laid over
the metal bones beneath.

The warmth on my neck was intoxicating.  So strong after the diffused
artificial light of the inner corridors.  The sunlight promised more
delight if I let it flow down under my collar.  A great wave of desire
to see Earth broke inside me.  To feel a breeze that had not been
recycled and programmed.  To be immersed in the constant subtle
variations of shadows that only atmosphere can provide.  Leaves
scattering golden light through an afternoon breeze, ozone-pungent
greenish portent of an afternoon storm, great trees with roots that
reach deep into time past.  Rain.

I haven't been back to Earth for over twenty years.

"Wouldn't you agree, Commander?"  Florida sounded smug.  He must have
made, a telling point.  "I beg your pardon?  I was thinking of
something else."

"I was telling our guests," Florida said, weighing his vidcom in one
hand as if deliberating whether to throw it at me or not, "Why we've
been virtually.  under siege all

these months.  The Confederacy must really be in trouble with these
aliens, but the administration gives out no information.  Maybe you
don't know what's going on?  What's the chance they've taken over
Sector Central too?"

"I don't think that's likely."  I wished he hadn't brought it up.

"Why hasn't the Confederacy contacted us, then?"  "They probably don't
want to risk losing the station if the Seouras attack."  My irritation
grew with each question.  This was not the time or place for putting
the administration on the spot.

"What do you get out of it, talking to them?"  "I resent the
implications of that question."  I was about to explode with anger and
frustration when I realized that while Florida's question was
intrusive, his voice and eyes were not.  There was misery in his
expression, and a desire to be reassured.

I sighed.  "I just want to keep everyone safe."  He seemed relieved.
"That's what I thought."  His words had wrenched me back to the present
"If you want to help, you can do some research for me."

I hadn't expected him to show any interest and was surprised when he
accepted the assignment with alacrity.  He was to go through any
records in our database that might shed light on where Calypso had been
all those years.  Ships' logs, travellers' diaries, news
items--anything and everything.  With two of us working on it there
would be a greater chance of success.  "Thank you," I said.

He bowed.  "At your service.  If you want information come to the
professionals."

"And thank you from us," said Griffis.  He'd been listening carefully
as I described Calypso's course to Florida.  "Yes," put in Rachel.
"It'd be good to know what way happening while we were asleep."

"How we got here," added Kloos.

My comm link beeped.  Engineering wanted me to come and look at the
latest update on the comet's position.  The Bubble staff wanted me over
there too.  They were expecting large-scale sensor interference and
burnouts from the dust.  Taken together with the recent op sys problems
in the center, it seemed we were in for a busy few days.

Rachel looked at the link.  "You're going?"

I nodded.  "I'll see you later.  Mr.  Florida?  They're to be back in
Rehab at midday.  Without fail."  It was hard to be strict with the sun
warm on my neck.

Florida sketched a rough salute, a parody of Baudin's crisp movements.
Must admit I like Florida's better.

Second Day 11 am

I finished in Engineering sooner than I'd expected.  The probe was
nearly ready and there wasn't that much else we could do about the dust
and debris from the comet except batten down and keep taking
observations up until the last possible minute.

No one had any new theories about the arrival of Calypso or why the
jump mine had activated.  I'd gone over the data, and the best I could
do was that the Sleepers were caught in an anomaly similar to a
wormhole and ended up here.  It wasn't as far-fetched as it sounded,
because there are recorded jump points from near Centauri to a long way
away, although in a different direction from Jocasta.  The radiation
Calypso dumped when coming out of this anomaly, because similar to that
from a controlled jump, could have set off the mine.

We could try to get a ship back to Centauri the same way, but we had no
time or resources to spend experimenting with hyperspace, and the
theory would have to remain a theory.

^ &

Quartermaine still wasn't in his quarters.  I hesitated before keying
in the number of his sometime partner but we needed Erin's help with An
Bank and... I was starting to worry.

"Ranit here."  The voice on the comm link was sleepy.  Maybe Ranit was
on second or third shift this month.

"I'm sorry to disturb you.  This is Commander Halley.  Have you seen
Brin?  I need to contact him urgently."

A short silence.  I was about to repeat the question when he
answered.

"No, I haven't seen him in weeks."  The voice sounded more alert.  It
was a pleasant, light-brown baritone.  "Isn't he at work?"

"No.  Thanks anyway."

"Is everything all right?"  A definite sharpness now.

"Fine, fine," I lied easily.  "We just need him to do a bit of
interpreting."  I cut the connection and this time used my code to open
a limited call pattern.  "Commander Halley to Mr.  Quartermaine. Please
contact the command center or Security immediately."  The message would
go to all staff offices and public places.  It was one way of
communicating with someone who, like Quartermaine, had turned off a
personal comm device.  Only the command and senior staff are actually
required to carry one at all times and most of the other residents
don't bother or can't afford it.  The public comm system is free and
ubiquitous and they use that.

I decided to give Quartermaine half an hour to check in, then tell
Murdoch.  It wasn't like Brin to go off somewhere, particularly without
telling someone.

I ran a hand through my hair.  It felt stiff and scratchy and a
headache lurkked behind my eyes,.  Brin,was missing, we had a murderer
loose on the station, cometary debris sleeting through the Abelar
system, and a spate of mysterious op sys failures.

Oh for hot running water and twelve hours' uninterrupted sleep... Fat
chance.  I could do something about the hair, though, before I went to
see Murdoch.

The karrikar stopped in the familiar heat and dinginess of the Hill. By
this time of the morning the throughway was crowded with loiterers,
hawkers, legitimate shopkeepers, and their customers, and there were
fewer unlit corners.  Today it was even more packed than usual because
of the festival preparations.

Preparations involved a great deal of cooking and chatting, and also
the job of clearing the main throughways of anything large enough to
interfere with the procession.  The array of dancing, gesticulating
Garokians that formed the backbone of the celebration would wind its
way through Delta, ride an uplift to Gamma and parade through there,
then take another uplift to Alpha, where it would annoy the hell out of
our more genteel residents.  Last year, the third year they'd held the
procession, they had also taken an uplift right to the center, made a
nuisance of themselves in the docks, and come down again to Delta where
the participants dispersed to eat and drink in earnest

If it were only Garokians it would be a quiet affair, but unfortunately
the rest of the station treats the whole thing as an excuse to make up
for the lack of other excitement, and the procession becomes a kind of
inter species conga line that meanders in an increasingly rowdy and
drunken way for most of the night.

I like the idea of the Renewal of Souls.  As far as we

can tell, it is a yearly revision of one's actions and involves
thinking through the consequences of those actions and what to do about
them.  This soul-searching is conducted through a kind of structured
and ritualized group discussion, incorporating all members of the
community regardless of age or status.  Some of the discussions
continue for weeks, but at the end everyone seems able to make a
"clean" start again.  I find it comforting that they recognize firstly
that we must act and secondly that we are responsible for those
actions, but not necessarily alone.

Usually I enjoy the festive atmosphere, but this morning everything
annoyed me and fed my anxiety--voices raised in once-a-year songs, the
sound of sputtering oil, the fierce bustle of spring cleaning that sent
scurries of dust and debris under my feet from open doorways.  Doorways
too close to the throughway to be legal.  Rooms had been added to
existing buildings until the whole edifice leaned outward to meet the
opposite buildings overhead.  Even if the reflectors were not offline,
there wouldn't be much real light down here.  I flattened myself
against the wall to avoid a multi-species group carrying a long table
from one dwelling to another.  Didn't they know we were under siege? 
At any rate, there was no sinister feel to the place this morning, and
I felt ashamed of how I'd hurried on my way home last night after
finding Keveth's body.  The whole incident was probably a
misunderstanding among the Q'chn.  Nothing to do with the rest of us,
certainly no reason for unrest onstation.  I should leave the
investigation to Murdoch and get on with our comet probe project.

"You haven't got an appointment?"  The human hairdresser, Mrs.
Giacommetti, was busy with another customer when I arrived.

"Sorry.  I thought you might fit me in..."

She swung around and looked at me closely.  There was something
bird-like, almost reptilian in her bright gaze.  "Have a cup of tea
while you're waiting."

I filled a cup from the tray on a table by the door.  Mrs.
Giacommetti's tea was legendary.  Her salon was a long room with
multidirectional mirrors down each side and chairs in front of them.
There were tall stands of equipment beside each chair but the
Giacommettis haven't let any of their customers use a machine in years.
They specialize in a personal, hands-on approach.

"Over there."  She indicated the last seat in the row, then turned back
to the customer, a human male with a shock of stiff reddish hair that
fell in quick whisks to the floor as she cut.  I sat in the chair and
sipped my tea until it was finished.  It tasted faintly of oranges.
Concealed ceiling ventilation gave off a steady hum, occasionally
punctuated by a swishing clatter.  Voices were raised beyond the
adjacent door that led to the family residence, but not in anger--they
ebbed and flowed like my breath in the cool, peaceful air... A warm
hand tightened on my neck and squeezed the taut muscle with practiced
strength.  "You're going to have to stay awake while I cut it, you
know."

I inhaled sharply and met Mrs.  Giacommetti's amused eyes in the mirror
as she picked the empty teacup out of my lap and set it on the ledge in
front of me.

Water rationing meant that instead of a real shampoo I sat with the
sonic helmet on my head for two minutes,

but the neck massage was the same as usual.  Mrs.  Giaocometti worked
silently, a frown of concentration pulling her round face into a square
at the mouth.  As the tension knots melted away I felt more alert than
I had in days.

She picked up her scissors and started cutting.  Another eccentricity,
real scissors.  Real blades.  A bother to keep sharp and their use
imposed up to an hour's inaction on the part of the
customer--unthinkable in our automated world.  Yet even before Jocasta
was isolated from the rest of that world Mrs.  Giacommetti had not
lacked customers.  She and her bright scissors held comfort for many
people.

Snick, snick.  Soft brown tufts on the tiled floor.  Voices rose in
altercation outside and there was a rattling crash as a trolley
collided with, I hoped, something inanimate.  Alien curses.  Another
day in the Hill had begun.  I began to relax.  Then Mr.  Giacommetti
bustled into the room, buoyed on the never-failing waves of his own
self-importance.  "Buongiorno, Commander Maria!  Wonderful to see you
again!  You have been avoiding us, no?"  Mr.  Giacommetti is a
born-again Italian and takes my middle name as a personal compliment.
"You need the cut, this is true."  He inserted his pudgy blue face
between mine and the mirror and pretended to inspect my head.  "Shape
around the neck more, my dear."  He straightened up and waved an
admonishing appendage at his wife.  "A nape of such beauty should not
be concealed."  Mrs.  Giacommetti ignored him completely..  The other
custdmer finally heaved himself out of his chair and paid Mr.
Giacommetti at the door.  He glanced quickly at me and muttered
something about staying on the good side of fee administration, which
Mr.  Giacommettideflected with a cheerful farewell.  I met Mrs.
Giacometti's eyes in the mirror.  She half-smiled then went back to
concentrating on the cutting.  Nevertheless, her attention kept
drifting towards the doorway where her husband stood looking out at the
Hill.

"If it's ... inconvenient for you when I come here," I began in a low
voice, "please say so.  I don't want to cause any trouble."

She glanced at the doorway again, then returned to cutting.  "You're
all right," she murmured.  "That lot don't know how lucky they are. 
There are plenty worse places in the galaxy than here."

Which was true, but a qualified compliment if ever I'd heard one.

Mr.  Giacommetti turned his back on the Hill.  "I have just heard the
most amazing rumor."  Mr.  Giacommetti is also a gossip extraordinaire.
I said nothing as he rearranged objects along the mirror ledge.  Later
one of the apprentices would move the things back.

"There has been a terrible murder," he continued when it was clear I
was not going to comment.  The scissors paused almost imperceptibly
then continued on their measured course.  Mrs.  Giacommetti's face in
the mirror showed nothing but a deepened frown.  I could see her
husband, though, waiting eagerly, for her reaction, his eyes fixed on
her almost in supplication.  He gave up after a minute or so and threw
up his six-split fins in exasperation.  "The woman is made of stone.  A
murder, I said!  Don't you want to know who it was?"

Mr.  Giacommetti is Lykaeat, a knobbly-skinned humanoid race of
brilliant imitators and mimics.  Many is the time I've heard the story
of his first visit to Earth, how the great monuments and people of a
Gibraltar Bloc country called Italy had been imprinted upon his young
and impressionable psyche, and of how he vowed he would become one of
them.  One particularly crowded day the whole salon was held hostage
for an hour while he revealed intimate details of his first gelato.  We
never hear how he met his wife, though--a taboo subject.  Genetic
incompatibility has not prevented them from having a family.  They've
adopted five children ranging from six to sixteen, all of whom speak
fluent Italian.

"Remember that rude Q'chn that used to hang around the bar?"

"Keveth."  Mrs.  Giacommetti didn't take her eyes from the scissors.

"How did you know?"  I turned my head to look directly at her.  She
stilled the scissors with a sigh and her other hand turned my head
back.

"Even aliens drink tea," she said.  Snip, snip.  "How did it happen?"
She asked me rather than her husband.

Several of the mirror angles showed Mr.  Giacommetti lean forward,
gills fluttering eagerly.  Oh well, better he should spread an edited
version of the facts man unbridled speculation.

"It was up in Sigma.  We don't know yet who did it" When I met her eyes
in the mirror they were wet with unshed tears.

"Is it true there were syange religious markings on the floor?"  Mr.
Giacommetti slid along the mirror until he was almost in my lap."

"No!  Nothing religious at all."  We have enough problems on the
statical.without creating religious tension.  "You

haven't heard anyone threaten Keveth, have you?  Has it upset anyone
at all lately?"

The Lykaeat shrugged theatrically.  "Not that I've heard.  But the
creature was infuriating most of the time anyway.  Taunting and
ranting."

Then he realized the potential of the situation.  "I, Giuseppe
Giacommetti, will make discreet inquiries for you.  You know, Maria,
that everybody tells me everything eventually."  He could barely
contain his glee, and I didn't have the energy to resist.

"Make sure you tell Mr.  Murdoch anything you might hear, capisceT

He clapped his thighs in delight, not having the right mouth for
smiling.  "Capisce, capisce."  Then suddenly he was serious.  "I should
mention the other Q'chn perhaps."

"What other Q'chn?"

He looked down, fiddled with a brush, then met my eyes again.  "When I
opened the salon this morning, they were talking outside."

"Who was talking?"

"A woman called Gress.  She works for one of the Q'chn, one who lives
in Alpha."

If he was right, Murdoch could trace which of the other Q'chn it was.
"Who was she talking to?"

"Why, Signore Jones.  The musician."

Jones, Jones ... I couldn't place anyone called Jones.

"He plays the mandolin," said Mrs.  Giacommetti.  "You probably saw him
standing on a corner somewhere."

I recalled there had been someone like that in the crowd outside the
hospital the day the Sleepers arrived.  And this morning he had been
talking to one of the many humans who worked in the Alpha residencies
for one of the Q'chn.

These jobs were not popular and would gain the person who did them
much criticism, but they paid well.  There was never a shortage of
applicants for jobs in Alpha.

"Jones, he is also not the sort of man to leave unattended for a
moment, if you know what I mean."  Mr.  Gicommetti leaned over me again
confidentially.

"No, I don't think I do," I said.

"His fingers are very active in pursuit of other people's property, to
put it another way."

So Jones was also a sneak-thief.  Well, the station had a good number
of them.

Mrs.  Giacommetti placed the scissors on her tray, removed the shoulder
cover, and whisked stray hairs off my neck.  "Finished."

My hair looked shorter, neater, and... "It's awfully gray."

Mr.  Giacommetti rut-tutted.  "No problem, bella mia.  What color would
you like instead?  Green?  Purple?"

I looked at his wife in the mirror.  Her round, not-bird eyes watched
me impassively.  "This is fine."

She didn't smile, but when I left several minutes later she joined her
husband in the doorway.

Quartermaine still wasn't anywhere he should be.  I called Main
Security.

"No, ma'am.  The Chief's down in Hill Central.  Do you want me to ask
him to come up to your office?"

"No, I'm down here now."  I was standing at the main intersection in
the Hill, with the burnt-out section in front of me and to one side,
and a jumble of two-level buildings behind and to the other side.  It
was just before the main shift break and there was a steady stream of
traffic, mostly bipedal, along the main throughway.  Occasionally an
AVG or freight trolley would try to wind through the jungle of legs,
stilts, and tentacles, but moving around the Hill usually confused the
automatic sensors so much it was quicker to rely on organic
power-^messengers and deliverers.

The crowds made it seem hotter and I took off my jacket.  The "street"
was like a sauna.  The main Security center for the lower station is
down here, past a sonics repair stand and a pawnshop.  The other
Security office in Alpha Four deals with problems in the center and the
more refined white-collar crimes of Alpha and Gamma levels.

The Hill office gets landed with petty thieving, sordid domestic and
inter species quarrels, and the tracking down of refugees.  In the
months following the Seouras attack much of the petty crime died away
when it became obvious we were not going to let people starve, although
in those horrible weeks after the fire everyone came close.

The Security building was our ops center during the Hill fire.  Its
blackened side was evidence of the heat of the blaze.  There was an
open space beyond the building, gloomy without lights, where the flames
had eaten through into the maintenance levels beneath and it was too
dangerous yet to rebuild there.  It was strange to see so far on the
station--almost to the horizon that curved protectively until blocked
by buildings.  That tight curve was a reminder of how easily we forget
where we are--inside a narrow torus of life that spins around a still
center.

The main doors swished open and I almost ran into the tall figure of
Helen Sasaki.

"Oof!  Sorry ... Commander Halley.  I beg your pardon."  She grabbed my
arm to prevent me from staggering back into a passer-by.  Sasaki was
promoted to Murdoch's deputy weeks before the Seouras came.  She is
shy, brusque, tenacious, and inventive, and we have relied on her
strength in the past months.

"Good morning, Lieutenant.  In a hurry?"

"We might have a couple more witnesses for Keveth's movements yesterday
afternoon."  She pitched her voice low and her face was impassive as
usual, but her eyes shone.  "I'm going to see them now."

"Good luck.  Is the Chief inside?"

"Yes.  In my office."

"Thanks."  I watched her smooth, dark head and wide shoulders
disappear into the crowd.  She looks well.  The strain shows in her
face but serves only to etch lines of character into its smoothness.

The station inside was a microcosm of the passage outside, the crowds
compressed into a smaller area and heated further, in a sort of
Brownian frustration.  The desk sergeant argued in sign language with
three Garokians, oblivious to the verbal assaults of several humans.
Benches lined the wall, their occupants representative of the mixed
population down here: humans, Garokian refugees, Dir shopkeepers, a
couple of furry Achelians, and one mound of sticks and fluff that would
unfold itself into a Hoffa.  The light was brassy and artificial
compared to the "day" outside.  It looked to me as if the whole
lighting system in the building could do with a refit.

Murdoch's office was little better, although he does have a panel
positioned to direct light at his desk.  The desk was nearly as untidy
as my own.  Banks of monitors lined the walls behind it, many of them
running visual links to security points all over the station.  I could
make out the main Customs gate in Alpha Three, now the coordination
center for agricultural research.  Also one of entries to the Hill, and
a stretch of corridor that looked like Sigma Twelve.  Pity they hadn't
been watching Sigma last night.

"Put it on the desk," he growled, then looked up and saw who it was.
"Ah, I was just about to call you."  He leaned back and looked at me
with insolent intensity.  "Nice haircut."

He only does it to make me nervous.  I chose not to answer.  "I can't
believe they're going ahead with the festival."  He slapped a file pad
irritably on the desk.

"It's a religious thing."  There were two extra chairs, and I chose
the one that looked the most sympathetic to human physiology.

"Yeah, I know that.  But dammit, we're being held prisoner by hostile
aliens.  There's a killer still loose on the station.  Nobody knows
what'll happen tomorrow."

"That's probably the point."

"What is?"

"That we don't know what the future holds."  I thought of An Barik.
"Most of us."

"You'd think they'd hold off a bit," he grunted.  Festivals are never
much fun for those who have to keep the peace.

I shrugged.  "I can issue a curfew if your investigation is going to be
compromised."

"Oh yeah, and who gets to enforce the curfew?  My people have plenty to
do already.  We'll leave the drunks to kill each other."

"Come on, Bill.  It's not that bad.  Mostly clan reunions and people
stuffing their bellies."

"Don't know what they'll stuff 'em with," he grumbled, tilting his
chair back at an acute angle.

I saw how fatigue had drawn the lines tight around his mouth and felt
my own face soften in sympathy.  "I'm not staying.  I just wanted to
get your update and give you one from Engineering."

"We talked to some people who knew Keveth".  he said before I could
start.  "They couldn't understand why Keveth volunteered to help with
the Sleeper rescue.  Especially as there was no guarantee of
payment."

"Keveth might have gone to Sigma to check on what he might get in
payment.  "Murdoch didn't look convinced.  "We're still looking for
someone who could open the door with forbidden technology."  He slammed
his chair down.  "Did you tell Quartermaine I want to talk to the
Invidi?"

"Wait a minute.  I just spoke to someone in the Hill.  He saw a human,
a woman called Gress, who works at one of the Alpha Q'chn places.  She
was speaking to a man named Jones in the Hill this morning."

Murdoch sat up a bit straighter.  "If the person works in Alpha, their
medical data will be online.  But Jones is a possibility."

He'd lost me for a minute until I realized he was thinking of the
unregistered DNA traces we'd found in the bay with Keveth's.

"Murdoch, about Quartermaine--that's what I wanted to tell you.  I
can't find him.  He's not in his quarters, his office, the hospital...
I'm worried.  It's not like him not to leave a message."

Murdoch's chin rasped as he drew his fingers over the grayish stubble.
He dropped his chin and raised his eyebrows at me.  "No, it's not like
him.  He has access to the Invidi quarters, hasn't he?"

"Yes, but he can't help us with An Barik if he isn't here ..."  At last
I caught on.  "Oh no, Murdoch, that's preposterous.  Brin could no more
attack and kill a Q'chn than I can breathe in vacuum.  Don't even
contemplate it."

He shook his head.  "I've got to contemplate it.  We found traces of
his DNA in the storage bay, over by the wall in the overhead conduits.
He probably hid up there."

"What about on the door and around the container?"

"Nothing, but that doesn't mean he wasn't there.  Face it, Halley,
unless it was the Invidi himself, Quartermaine is the only one who
could have got that lock breaker  And if he got that, he could have got
something else to wipe personal traces."  '

"Why didn't he wipe overhead too?"  '

Murdoch shrugged.  "Too much of a hurry.  Maybe forgot."  "Why would he
go there?  If it was to look at the Sleeper salvage, he had Invidi
equipment, so why the clumsy attempt to open it?"

"If he's innocent, why is he hiding?"  It was a predictable question
but Murdoch seemed somehow preoccupied.

"Have you considered Quartermaine might be in danger?  He saw what
happened to Keveth and he's in fear for his own life.  Maybe he knows
the identity of this other human.  Or of the killer."

Murdoch drummed his knuckles on a corner of the desk.  "Until we find
him we don't know.  And if he was lying hurt somewhere we'd have found
him by now.  We've gone over the upper levels and haven't picked up
anything.  He's hiding down in the Hill or somewhere with background
interference that makes it impossible to pick him out on sensors."

Would Quartermaine hide from us?  From me?  I thought he was my friend,
inasmuch as either of us had any friends, and felt hurt that he hadn't
come to me.

I didn't like the idea of him being Murdoch's prime suspect, but at
least they'd find him quickly.  I wanted to see Quartermaine safe,
wanted to hear his explanation for this business.-He could never be
involved with a brutal murder, that was certain.  He has spent so long
with the Invidi that he displays many of their characteristics--he was
quiet, enigmatic, elliptic in conversation, and solitary.  He spends
most of his free time reading obscure historical texts and working on
improving translation algorithms between Earth Standard and the Invidi
languages.

"What about Engineering status?"  Murdoch seemed jittery.  He pushed
his chair away from the desk and began to pace up and down in front of
the monitors as he listened.  This was strange--usually I'm the one who
paces.

It was hard to drag my thoughts away from Quartermaine.  "Did you get
my report about the disruptions in the center op sys  Engineering had
sent me a message that environmental controls in the center had shut
down early this morning, and when they investigated they'd found a
series of severed conduits.  This was what had caused the malfunctions
in the hospital recycling system yesterday.  A repair team had been
dispatched.

He nodded.  There was something almost furtive in the way he ran his
thumbs along the inner edge of his belt and back again, taking comfort
in its shiny solidity.

"We've been monitoring the comet's projected course," I continued.
"Tomorrow morning at 0800 we'll launch the probe."  Even though Brin
had thought there was no point, in absence of evidence to the contrary
we must assume the Confederacy is out there and waiting to help us.

"The Seouras have been a little more... confused lately.  If they've
got to the stage of letting something like Calypso through, we might
have a chance."

Murdoch didn't respond to the enthusiasm in my voice.  "Great."  He
paused, silhouetted against the screens.  "Halley, we got some more
forensic evidence from the storage bay."

"Yes?"  I wished he'd let me finish one topic first.

"The good news is, we won't have to search for a weapon.  The bad news
is we know who killed Keveth."

"Why is it... ?"

"We just got the lab results back.  There's Q'chn all over the room.
And DNA from the unknown human.  Trouble is, there's another trace we
didn't notice at first because it was so close to the Q'chn."  He
finally looked at me.  "It's Q'Chn."

The old Q'chn military caste.  My first reaction was relief at such an
obvious mistake.  "Can't be."  I even tried some heavy-handed humor.
"There aren't any Q'Chn on the station.  I'm sure we would have
noticed.  Must be a mistake.  They're extinct."

He didn't laugh.  "Look for yourself."  He swivelled one of the
monitors to face us and called up a report.  "The lab has been told to
keep this quiet, by the way."

I glanced at the screen.  The results were clear.  "The analysis
program must have a bug.  Either that or the scan results themselves
are screwed.  Did you take another reading?  Run a diagnostic on the
equipment?"

He nodded wearily.  "All the hardware checks out.  Forensic says there
are no metal residues in Keveth's wounds.  But there is a bio compound
that's consistent with an organic weapon.  Like a Slasher."  The
colloquialism penetrated my disbelief where his rational explanation
had not.  Q'Chn, also known as Slashers.

They said the Slashers were bigger than other Q'chn .  They said you
never saw them coming.  They said the Slashers never spoke so all you
could hear was the sound of your own screams ... I could see the same
fear in Murdoch's eyes.  We are not equipped to handle monsters on the
station, and we can't call for help.

"Nobody's seen anything?"  If it really was Q'Chn nobody ever saw
anything, not until it was too late.

He rubbed the skin around his eyes as though it was too tight.  "We
don't have enough information about the things.  All we know is that
they were genetically engineered and that the Q'chn agreed not to make
more when the Confederacy was formed.  The damn database tells you the
history but not how to beat them."

All we had was forty or so years of hearsay.  The Q'chn had always
taken the attitude that keeping something out of sight kept it out of
mind.  When they did speak of Q'Chn it was in a way that implied they
had been created for the sole purpose of defending the Q'chn from a
hostile galaxy, but in fact a millennium ago the Q'chn had possessed a
vast empire and at one stage the Q'Chn warrior class came close to
outnumbering the others.  At a time humanity struggled against
feudalism and plagues, the Slashers patrolled trading lanes and system
borders in their big ships, giving no warning before they attacked and
no quarter when they did.  Their squabbles with the Bendarl and other
species who preferred to remain independent and who could hold off the
Q'Chn had gradually reduced Q'chn territory to its present abbreviated
space.

Two centuries ago the Invidi had made a stand against that empire.  I
still didn't understand the reasons for the Invidi-Q'chn war or how it
could have been fought--the Invidi today use only one-pilot ships and
usually don't venture out of their own system.  Thirty or so years
after they contacted us the war was over anyway, and shortly after that
the Confederacy of Allied Worlds was formed.

All this is history.  But nowhere can one find details of the Q'Chn
appearance, their fighting methods, or, more importantly, how to stop
them.

"I want to talk to the Invidi," said Murdoch.  "Maybe he's got
information about them.  And we should talk to one of the Q'chn .  We
may need to sound a general alert once we have some idea of what it's
likely to do."  "How the hell did it get here?"  He stared at me.  "Who
the hell cares?  It's here and we gotta do something about it before
someone else gets hurt."

"We haven't had any ships enter the system since the Seouras came,
except mat prospector and Calypso.  There's no docking records except
for the shuttles.  And the Q'Chn certainly hasn't been lurking around
up there for the past six months.  Firstly, the environment als have
been off for most of that time and secondly, we would have noticed
something.  So it must have arrived recently."  I felt quite queasy
with fear and excitement.  This station was supposed to be isolated,
but since the jump mine exploded we'd had one, now two visitors from
outside.  Maybe the Seouras were losing their hold.  "Can we find out
where it is?"  I thought out loud.  "Locate it with the internal
sensors?"

"You know what our sensors were like even before the Seouras jamming."
The internal sensors were designed to cope with only half the volume of
living things that we have now, and not even a quarter of the variety.
We keep reconfiguring the system but it never keeps up.  "I can track
you if you have a comm link or a specific em.  signature device, and I
can track movements in a specific area, but as for picking out a single
string of DNA from all the others" He drummed his fingers, irritably on
the active monitor, which skimmed rapidly through several directories
in response.  "Bugger.  I hate this new interface."

I leaned over and restored the previous screen, a diagram of the Sigma
bays.

"I suppose we don't even know if it's still in Sigma."

He gave me a "thanks, I needed that" look.  "Sigma's the most likely
place for it to hide."  He paused.  "If it wants to hide.  There's very
little chance of anyone seeing it there.  Who goes up to view empty
docks?"

"Can you secure the storage bays without locking out Engineering or the
docking ports?"

"I already did.  But now I want to do a full isolation routine.  Then
we can eliminate areas as we go."

I considered the idea.  A full isolation alert meant that the
center--docks, main engineering section, storage bays, processing
facilities--would be completely evacuated and all access spokes sealed
both at the center and at then-entry points to the rings.  Murdoch
could make a sweep of each spoke in turn and perhaps catch the Q'Chn
there or in the center.  It could work, and there would be less danger
to the rest of the station.  Time enough to decide what to do with the
thing when we did catch up with it.

"Did the repair team report in?"  I was suddenly afraid for all the
people in the center--Engineering staff, dock maintenance workers,
businesses in the spokes ... "Not yet.  I mean," he amended, "we heard
from them earlier but they haven't filed a proper report yet."

We should get everyone out of there.  "I read somewhere the Q'Chn can
go through forcefields."

Murdoch grunted.  "Overrated things, forcefields.  Give me a good
duranium airlock any day."

The chair was suddenly constricting.  I pushed it away and paced up,
down.

Murdoch scowled.  "Somebody's making Q'Chn again."  He gave the
observation the moment of awed silence it deserved.  "They were bloody
indestructible, y'know?  Says here," he jerked his chin at the
interface, "they could breathe pretty well any atmosphere, even exist
in a vacuum for a short time, withstand different gravities.  Their
'skin' was perfect armor, it adapted against the harmonics of almost
any energy weapon ..."

"Murdoch, if we can talk to it..."

"What?"

"We must find out how it got here.  Don't you see?  It got past the
Seouras somehow to get onto the station.  Maybe we can find out how and
send a ship out ourselves."

His reaction surprised me with its vehemence.  "You're mad."  He stared
at me in disbelief.  "You don't talk to Slashers."  He spoke each word
slowly and clearly.  "They ... kill... you."

"Why is it here?  To pay a visit to an isolated station and give us a
bit of a scare?  Someone sent it."

Murdoch folded his arms stubbornly.  "I'm not sending my people in
after it.  Too great a risk.  I don't give a fuck how it got here.
We've got to find a way to get rid of it quickly.  Think of the
casualties if it ran wild in the residential levels."

"I'm not suggesting you put your people in danger.  I'm asking you to
think of the larger issue here.  We have to pursue every chance to get
out of this stalemate.  How do you know it won't talk to us?"

"You're asking me not to try to.  kill it?"

"If necessary, yes."

Both hands banged flat on the table as Murdoch pushed himself to his
feet.  "You ask me to think of the larger issue, but you know what?  I
think you're so obsessed with this larger issue that you can't see
straight anymore.  Listen to yourself!  You're saying, let's put the
station in danger for the sake of a possible chance of getting it out
of danger."

I flinched.

"What if we have massive casualties in the short term and then the
Q'Chn can't or won't talk to us?"  He leaned over the table.  "One
Q'Chn could practically take this station if it wanted to, you know?
That's what they were bred for.  To go in and destroy Q'chn enemies.
Not capture or ask them to surrender.  Not talk to them.  Just kill and
go on killing until ordered to stop.  Do you want to be responsible for
that?"

"You say you can't possibly defeat it.  So what choice do we have but
to talk to it?"

"Jesus.  They don't talk!"

"Murdoch, we need to know how it got on the station."

We glared at each other across the chaos on his desk, then at the same
moment we both stepped back.  This was no time for competitive
pigheadedness.

I still found it difficult to believe we were arguing about a Q'Chn.
The stuff of legend, of horror stories come to life.  As if Murdoch had
come to me and said, By the way, we've got a little vampire problem.

"There shouldn't be any Q'Chn still alive.  The Q'chn said they'd stop
making them when the Confederacy was formed.  The Change comes in about
fifty Earth years, so they should all have Changed."

"Looks like they didn't keep their word, doesn't it?"  Murdoch
growled. "We need more information."  His expression became sly.  "One
of the other Q'chn ."

I saw where this was leading.  "Oh no, Murdoch.  Trillith and I do not
get along."

"It won't talk to me," he protested, and this was too plausible for me
to question.  The most senior Q'chn trader, Trillith regards natives of
the Nine Worlds as barely necessary irritants in a galaxy arranged for
its own convenience and well-being.  It considers we are well below the
Q'chn on any scale, evolutionary or otherwise.  "It insists on talking
only to the highest authority.  Which is you," he added with relief.

"Trillith detests me.  The treaty got rid of half its revenue from this
sector.  And it blames me for our getting stuck here."  I searched for
another excuse.  "Anyway, this station operates under Earth law.
Trillith has to comply with your request."

Murdoch looked as if he'd swallowed something prickly.  "I'm telling
you--Trillith quotes Confederacy law at me.  It insists that members of
the Four Worlds don't have to conform to our system."  He sighed and
drank his now-cold tea in one gulp.  "I know I've got the right to go
up there and drag Trillith down to Security for questioning.  But it
looks bad, you know?  And someone could get hurt."

"So you want me to persuade it to come down?"

"Yeah."  He rubbed his nose and added with studied casualness, "Or get
the information while you're there.  And don't forget to ask about
Keveth being there yesterday afternoon.  I'll follow up this lead of
yours in the Hill."

"All right, all right."  I tried not to sigh.  "You take care of the
isolation procedure, I'll see if Trillith will talk."

He had the easier job and his expression said he knew it.

Second Day 12:30 pm

Veatch caught up with me at the Alpha ring karrikar.  He wore a dull
cerulean suit that I had never seen before.  New clothes?  We don't
have resources to spend on fashion.

"That color suits you," I ventured.

"Good morning, Commander.  Thank you."  He paused, then added almost
reluctantly, "I had a gray suit redyed.  I'm gratified that the effect
is satisfactory."

"Oh, very."

Veatch watched me expectantly.  "You require my presence here?"

I started walking along the Alpha south throughway.  "Not here exactly.
We're going to see Trillith."

"The Q'chn trader?"  He didn't move.

I glanced behind and caught his expression--body stiff and antennae
curled over in tension.  He roused himself and stepped after me, but
the reaction was unexpected.

Does he know Trillith?  The trouble with reading too much into
unexpected alien reactions is that sometimes your expectations are
unreasonable, not the reaction.  Why shouldn't Veatch now Trillith,
either professionally or socially?  They are both members of the Four
Worlds, two of the few left on Jocasta, and Trillith is notorious for
its contempt of "lesser" species.  It might well want to spend time
with Veatch.

"Yes.  Mr.  Murdoch wants us to ask if it knew Keveth.  There's
evidence that links them."

"That is hardly likely, given the differences in their social status.
Does Chief Murdoch believe Trillith is involved?"  His tone was as
indifferent as ever.  As station manager he'd have received a report
from Murdoch.

I probed his facade.  "I don't think he had any particular suspicions.
You heard about the Q'Chn?"

"I received a report from Security only minutes before you called."

"It seems logical to assume one of the Q'chn would know about the Q'Chn
first.  It is a Q'chn construct Part of their culture, their genome."

Veatch said nothing.  Even his antennae were expressionless.

Trillith lives in the station's so-called luxury quarter.  The greatest
luxury is access to unlimited sunlight on the same cycle as the
agricultural section, and the lesser gravity of the innermost ring. Not
that much less in absolute terms, but enough that in the levels below
there was always, by contrast, a drag on body and spirit.

The section lies between the main administrative blocks that house the
Bubble and part of the hospital and research labs on one side, and the
agricultural section that has expanded to cover over one-third of the
ring surface on the other.  It retains some of that idealistic quality
you can see in early representations of "Cities in Space"--a central
throughway open to the "sky" and leafy shrubs scattered around
aesthetically arranged terrace housing.  Open, light, and clean.  And
totally unaffordable by most of the station's residents, including
myself.  But it was an unpleasant fact of life that to maintain our
stocks of essential goods without assistance from Central, we had had
to levy as much duty and taxes as possible.  The Alpha residencies were
part of the "package" to attract those who could afford it.  Like
Trillith.  I don't like such inequity, which is why I was supporting
the Residential Reform Committee's drive to redistribute some of the
space.

"Can I ask you something?"

Veatch started slightly.  "Yes?"

"Why are you opposed to the RRC proposals?"

He was silent for a moment, huge eyes fixed on the pinkish ceramics of
the walkway, antennae bobbing gently with each step.

"I am simply opposed to precipitating action that may be irreversible.
A redistribution of the population on this scale involves an immense
amount of preparation.  We must be sure we do not waste time and
resources."

"We're considering it to save resources," I pointed out.  Could Veatch
be receiving some kind of payback from the present residents to
preserve the status quo?  Surely not.

"Are the results of the DNA scan beyond question?"

he asked suddenly.  "I find it incredible that a "Veatch used a
non-Standard word, presumably meaning the Q'Chn--"should be alive
today.  There is no record of thefts, experiments, or disaster that
could be connected with such an abomination."  He made a curling
movement with one hand on the last word, like a gesture to ward off
evil.  "As far as wwpan tell, yes.  The forensic evidence supports the
theory.  But the pattern of behavior is not as clear."

"That is my point.  Surely if it were a Q'Chn we..."

"We should be dead," I supplied glumly.

"Yes."

"I don't know, Veatch.  All we can do is build on the evidence we have
now.  Which tells us there's a Q'Chn on the station, lying low.  We're
going over the observation records from the center in the hope that one
of them might have picked up something last night before the
surveillance system crashed."  The security pickups work on a simple
time lapse circuit and the records are sent to Main Security, where
they are retained for twenty days.  A long shot, but you never knew.

"If you have any suggestions, don't wait to let us know," I added.

"I would not presume to tell you or Mr.  Murdoch how to do your job."
Melot society is arranged around castes, or sub-species, each of which
has a distinct role.  Evidently Murdoch and I fit into a different
caste from Veatch himself.

There was no sign of upheaval caused by the Q'Chn in Alpha, that much
was certain.  People walked or rode-bicycles mainly--along the walkways
and between the residential blocks.  An Achelian flitter glided
silently overhead, the only form of artificial flight permitted in the
rings.  The few humans that could be seen were mshing on work errands.
Security kept the less desirable elements away from the neat gardens
here.  But there were few voices, no children calling or shopkeepers
hawking then-wares, and I never wondered what drama lies behind the
tightly shut doors and upward-facing windows.  It is the most alien

place on the station, in spite of all the Terran vegetation and
human-designed architecture.

Trillith's block rose straight from the throughway, plain, staggered
gray tiers that managed to be opulent.  We walked through a high arch
into a courtyard then into a carrier, also high-ceilinged.  The
sensation of feeling small was familiar from when I'd worked on alien
ships.  Voice commands in the carrier were working normally here and it
took us to the appropriate floor in smooth silence.  None of the
karrikars in the Bubble work this well, and I made a mental note to
discuss priorities with Maintenance.

We stepped into an immense room filled with glowing pale light and
silence.  You could almost reach up and touch the curve of the sky.
Closed doors faced us on the other three walls.

I put my hands in my pockets and casually surveyed the room, for the
benefit of whoever was watching.  "Very nice, mm?  Color scheme's a bit
dull but we can't have everything."  Veatch was silent, outwardly calm,
but he started visibly at the sound of one of the doors opening.  The
one we hadn't noticed, behind us and next to the carrier.

"Can I help you?"  Human, male.  A polished neutral voice to go with
the polished bald head, wearing a streamlined beige body suit
Expressionless brown eyes moved from me to Veatch and back again.

"Er, I don't know.  We're looking for the kuvai Trillith."  I used the
same term of respect that emerges from every Q'chn voice box The man
ignored the attempt to curry favor and bowed slightly from the waist.
"Who shall I say is calling?"

"The head , station and the station, manager."

"Why all the secrecy about Calypso!  Surely if you had Invidi help,
nobody would have tried to stop you."

"I told you, we only ever dealt with one of the Invidi.  He suggested
the secrecy."

"An Serat?

"Yes."  She fiddled with the corners of the monitor for a moment or so
before continuing.  "We weren't privy to the details of Invidi
politics, but I got the impression that he wasn't sure of himself.  As
far as the other Invidi went, I mean."

"Wasn't sure, how?"  It hadn't occurred to me that all Invidi might not
think alike.  I suppose they must allow differences of opinion.

"I don't know.  I don't think any of the other Invidi knew about our
trip, either."  She tried to concentrate once more on the screen, then
looked away with a sigh.

"Look, I realize you need to know everything about us.  But if we don't
know, we don't know.  I want to start getting on with my life here, not
keep thinking about the past."  She paused.  "It hurts, okay?"

Before I had a chance to apologize, the comm link beeped.

Murdoch sounded satisfied.  "Come on over to Hill Security.  I'm
talking to Trillith now."

"I'll be a few minutes."

"You'll miss the fun."  He cut the connection.

I turned to Rachel.  "Will you be all right here alone?  Or shall we
continue another time?"

She stared, at the relics.  "I'll finish it.  Ariel isn't up to it and
Griffis is busy."

I left her staring at pieces of the past.

Murdoch met me outside the interview room.  There were fewer people
sitting on the benches in the Security corridor.  Perhaps everyone was
too busy with the festival.

"We've got a bit of information, but not much," he grumbled.  "It
admits Keveth came to it that afternoon and said that Jones had given
Keveth a job bringing back a passenger."

"How could Jones afford to give anyone a job?"

Murdoch shrugged.  "Dunno.  He must've given Keveth some pretty big
incentives.  Trillith says Keveth didn't say anything about a Q'Chn,
and Trillith doesn't know who Jones was working for.  It isn't working
with the Invidi and doesn't know anything about a lock breaker  He
paused for breath.

"Does it say why its servant was talking to Jones?"

"Only that it has no control over who its staff talk to in their off
hours."

"It hasn't given us much," I said.  "What about the salvage?  Does it
know why Keveth and Jones were up there?"

Murdoch glowered.  " "There must be something there,"" he mimicked.
"Anyway, I'm about to ask it for some background info on the Q'Chn.  If
it wants protection it'll have to earn it."

"But we can't protect it from the Q'Chn," I protested as we turned to
the interview room.  "We can't even protect ourselves."

"Shh."  Murdoch put a finger to his lips.  "Trillith doesn't know
that."

"I'm sure you are, what with all the trade around here lately."  I
coughed down the rest of the sarcasm as Veatch's antennae dipped
disapprovingly.  "We are here on a security matter.  Last night a Q'chn
named Keveth was killed.  Did you know it?"

"Yes, yes.  I am familiar with the issue.  Your Security chief called
and I told him I have nothing to say about the matter."

"We need to fill in a few details, that's all.  I would appreciate your
cooperation."

"There are no more details.  I supplied all the information at my
disposal.  You have wasted your time."  Trillith snapped down all its
legs decisively.

"There have been new developments since Mr.  Murdoch spoke with you
yesterday.  A couple of answers is all we require."  I couldn't tell if
this was the usual Q'chn obstructionism or if Trillith really had
something to hide, but I was getting thoroughly annoyed.

"Under section five, sub-section Thirty-two, fourth clause of the
Sovereignty and Immigration Appendix, natives of the Four Worlds are
not obliged to follow laws of the minor worlds if doing so would clash
with the laws of their own."  Trillith sounded bored.

I glared at Veatch.  He was studying the ceiling and made an elaborate
show of finally noticing me in surprise.  What was wrong with him?

"Veatch?"

"Commander?"

"Are you familiar with the regulation in question?"

"No... yes.  Not in detail, however."

"And it reads as Trillith says?"

He hesitated yet again before continuing.  "As a matter of fact,
kuvai, precedent supports the use of this particular clause strictly in
cases of religious significance.  It would be difficult to get an
exemption from testifying in a court unless you could prove that doing
so violated a religious precept or taboo.  This proof would have to
include witnesses not related to the complainant."

That seemed to dispose of the legal angle.

The Q'chn stalked across the room to where the human stood beside the
door.  It said something to him in a whisper, then stalked back.  The
man left.  Trillith stopped, much closer this time.  I could see the
ridged exoskeleton down its thorax quite clearly--greenish gray,
faintly shiny and brittle-looking.  A smooth, even color, unlike
Keveth's mottled and knotted body.  I had to crick my neck backwards to
see its face.

"Surely, kuvai, it would not inconvenience you simply to answer a few
questions?"  I'd given up the idea of getting Trillith to come with us.
Whatever we asked had to be asked here.

Trillith tilted its face down deliberately close to mine.  It was an
effort not to step back.  "Commander Halley, I am still not without
influence, both here and in that larger world which you seem to think
has conveniently disappeared.  I assure you it has not.  Don't do
anything that you may regret later."  Veatch intervened mildly as I
tried to find words to retort.  "Threatening an official in the course
of their duties is considered illegal influence."

The Q'chn swivelled its head 180 degrees to regard Veatch.  Did some
unseen message pass between them?  At any rate, Trillith became more
civil.  "Keveth was here from early yesterday afternoon until evening.
My servants will confirm this."

"Did nobody else see it?  Not that we doubt your employees' veracity,
but..."  I hoped the pause sounded as insolent as I'd intended.

"No.  Nobody came."

"Did Keveth often visit?"

"That, Commander," Trillith rocked backwards a little, "is none of your
business."

The door opened and a different human, young, female, and wearing the
same beige uniform, carried in a large tray containing plates of fat
green and white dumplings.  A silvery urn dribbled steam from its
spout. The maid walked past us as though we weren't there and lowered
the tray to a small bench that ran along one wall of the room at waist
height.  She kept her eyes lowered on her way out too.  I wondered if
she was the woman Mr.  Giaommetti had seen talking to Jones.

"Refreshments, Commander?"

I shook my head without regret.  My stomach hadn't coped well with
breakfast.

"This is not a social call.  Someone has been murdered.  Under Earth
law, if you are found to be involved you can be tried as an accessory
after the fact.  Is that clear?"

"Tell me, Commander, what do you suspect me of?"

"Nothing, kuvai.  We would merely like to know if Keveth told you
anything about his plans for the evening."  I hesitated over the next
step, but it seemed necessary.  "Do you remember anything about that
night--did Keveth return at any time?  Did any of your staff notice
anything unusual?  We may be able to negotiate some kind of agreement
about responsibility."

"Negotiate?"  Trillith's real voice crackled audibly for the first
time.  A dangerous rustle, like a snake through dry grass.

I cleared a suddenly dry throat.  Veatch was looking at me with the
kind of expression he reserved for files out of order.  You never use
words like "deal" or "bargain" or "negotiate" around Q'chn .  Not if
you wanted to preserve property and livelihood.

"I mean that people who assist us to uncover the truth usually, um,
have less trouble refuting ... are given consideration"

Trillith turned away from me and resumed its position.  I was sweating
despite the cool, dry air.  Dammit, Veatch, give me some backup.  I
wish Quartermaine was here.  Not that he would have said much more
than, perhaps, "Don't give them a challenge.  They love a challenge.
Pretend you're a pushover."  That shouldn't be too difficult.  Trillith
straightened its forelegs.  "I regret, Commander, that we are not in a
position to conduct business about this matter.  At this time."  The
last words were not a promise for next time.  Murdoch hadn't said
anything about the Jones angle, so I would leave that one.  But, "There
is still the matter of the Q'Chn."

Trillith became perfectly still.  It might have been an insectoid
statue.  I held my breath too, and beside me Veatch's antennae were
flat sideways.  QChn?"  Trillith finely said the word, and the sound
that underlay it was like a wave sifting onto sand.  "What Q'Chn?"

"We think-there is one here, on the station.  That it killed
Keveth."Trillith swung upright.  Two meters plus on four multi-jointed
legs--legend said the Q'chn were bigger.  Trillith had two thick
manipulating feelers as well as the slim joints on its forward pair of
legs.  The Q'chn were called Slashers for a reason, and I had an
unpleasant feeling that it involved that pair of legs.

"There are no Q'Chn," said Trillith.

"The evidence," I began, but it was suddenly close to us, nearly
physically pushing us out the door.

"There are no Q'Chn," its artificial voice was a shout.  "Leave.  Leave
now."  All I managed in return was, "We'll get back to you."

I ran my finger under the spotless lip of the control box set into the
wall beside the courtyard entrance.  Every cleaning 'got ever invented
left a film of dust under there, especially in these units.  It was
impossible to program out of them.  Trillith must employ living
cleaners, and I could guess what species.

We walked away.

"Why would Trillith keep something from us?"

Veatch looked ahead, eyes narrowed in concentration.  "The foremost
reason would be that it can use the information for its own benefit."

I waited until we were out of audio pickup range of Trillith's block.

"What's going on, Veatch?"

"What do you mean?"

"You're supposed to back me up, not side with the Q'chn ."

"I do not 'side' with anyone.  I merely administrate for the benefit of
all."

I could have slapped him.  "Don't give me that neutrality crap.  I'm
the part of the administration that you're supposed to report to,
remember?"

He met my eyes with an impassive, limpid stare.

"Is Trillith pushing you somehow?  Feeding you the Four Worlds Unity
line?"

"I have received no information from Trillith on issues concerning the
Four Worlds."

"That's not what I mean."

We walked on in silence.  Politics.  It follows us thousands of
light-years from home and influences what we do even in the middle of a
hostile alien blockade.

Veatch's antennae were flat, and he did look miserable --perhaps I'd
been too harsh.  Although there was definitely something going on
between the two of them.

"Look," I tried as we reached the karrikar.  "If Trillith's pressuring
you--if there's something you don't want me to know--we can work it
out.  Somehow.  Don't feel you have no alternatives."

He inclined his head solemnly.  "I shall bear it in mind."

"Veatch, would you do something for me?"

"If I can."

"Would you check our latest records to see if there's any mention of
the Q'Chn--see if anyone has seen any recently or heard of any revival
rumors?  You're so familiar with Confederacy records."

He didn't.respond to the flattery but agreed.  "If you will excuse me."
"You're not coming back to the Bubble?"

Still the, same limpid stare.  "I have an appointment."  He walked
Spay.

Appointment with whom?  Maybe I am paranoid, but it's unpleasant
always to feel so isolated.  Not merely geographically --the feeling
that Q'chn and Melot and Invidi are making all the moves and we're
stuck here in the middle, powerless.  Feeling small.  As governor under
Confederacy colony laws, theoretically I can veto any administrative
decision Veatch might make.  Trouble is, either I find out he's made
the decisions well after they come into force or somehow they end up
being my decisions.  As I stood there, vaguely watching Veatch's figure
disappear up the curve of the horizon, another small figure caught my
eye.  A human in sloppy civilian clothes.  She dawdled along, staring
up at the reflectors and buildings.

Rachel waved as I stepped out of the karrikar alcove.  "You're supposed
to be back at the hospital," I said.

She shrugged and pulled back the dark waves of her hair.  "Not when
it's such a nice day."

"It's always a nice day."  I squinted up at the reflectors too. Always.
 For once I'd like it to drizzle.

There was something I'd been meaning to ask her.  "Tell me what you
find strangest here."

She shoved her jaw forward in concentration and thought for a moment.

"Tea," she said at last.

"Tea?"

Her somber face crinkled into a smile at my expression.  "I'm sorry.
That doesn't explain much, does it?  What

I meant was that I didn't expect tea.  Some kind of high

; nutrition, dietary supplement drink, manufactured to suit individual
needs, that sort of thing.  But people here drink tea.  All the time.
They come to talk to us--I don't mind,"

she added hastily--"and what do we drink?"

I'd never thought about tea.  It was just there.  Relatively efficient
to grow, easy to synthesize.  Provides trace elements and comfort.
Everyone likes it.

"Humans have been drinking tea for thousands of years.  Why should we
stop now?"  was all I could think of.

Rachel nodded.  "Exactly.  And that, to me, is the most amazing thing
here.  That so much is familiar.  After sleeping for nearly one hundred
years, we didn't expect the familiar."  She glanced up at the plain
boxes again.  "Not as familiar here, I must admit.  Why is it so
different from down there?"  This time she looked at our feet.

"The lower rings?"  I kept my eyes up, deliberately obtuse.  Hoping
she'd take the hint and talk about something else.

"Uh-huh."  She shot me a speculative glance that suggested she would
not easily change topics for anybody "This is more like I imagined a
space station would be.  A planned, controlled environment.  Light."

"This is how they'd like it to be."  I started walking and after a
second she followed.  For a moment the only sound was the dull tap of
my boots and slap of her sandals on the neat, planned tiles.

"And you?"

"We can't keep it like this for everyone."  The angry words spilled out
before I had a chance to stop them "We're so limited in resources.  It
was all right before the Seouras came.  We could get out to the
asteroids and mine the ore.  We processed some of it on the platforms,
then we at least had something to trade.  Do you know, Secto hardly
sent us anything?  Then we ended up with all these refugees.  What was
I supposed to do?  Turn the ships away to die out there?  For the
pirates to plunder?  At least they're alive ..."  I broke off.  Rachel
was looking at me, more shocked than anything.  We'd reached a dead
end--the throughway was blocked by the uplift entrance that marked the
end of the section.

"I'm sorry."  I tried a careless laugh that didn't come off.  "Was I
ranting?"

Rachel's gaze didn't slacken.  "You were, a little.  So you're one of
the people against humans being part of this Confederacy?"

"No, don't get me wrong.  I think we were right to let the Invidi in
and right to join the Confederacy.  But..."  I sighed.  I'm not good at
detailing emotions on my best days, and this was not one of those.

"I used to think," I tried again, "that the alliance was not only
ideal--living in peace with alien races, how immense and
incredible--but also practical, because it provided protection in a
hostile galaxy.  But now I'm not so sure.  It hasn't provided us with
protection here."

How my ex-husband would laugh if he heard me.  He swore that someday I
would come round to his way of thinking.  He'd be wrong though.  I'm
not in favor of secession, or changing the Confederacy.  I just
wondered about the way it was set up, if there wasn't an alternative.

"The Invidi have been our bridge to the galaxy for so long.  It's as
though we're so sensitive to what the Invidi say and do that we're not
looking at it straight.  Maybe we should be asking what we get from the
relationship."

"Maybe we should have asked that in the first place," she said, then
examined the interface panel.  "Can I get this back to the hospital?"

"Yes.  Get out at Gamma and then walk.  No, on second

thought, you'd better take the karrikar around to Gamma Four."  It
would save her running into the groups being evacuated from the east
spoke.

"Why isn't there a Beta ring?"  She craned her head back to see the
spire of the uplift that seemed to vanish flatly into the sky.

"There was, at first."  I didn't want to explain.  I was tired and
confused and bad-tempered.  There were too many problems waiting for me
in the rings below.

Rachel shrugged and looked away, obviously hurt.  I sighed.

"The upper part of Gamma was called Beta when we started construction."
I drew an invisible diagram on the uplift wall with my finger.  She
turned back and watched me.

"But then everything went wrong.  We kept running into Tor booby traps,
important material got lost or mislaid, systems failed for no apparent
reason--a real mess.  Rumors of a saboteur started, which caused a lot
of tension onsite.  Some people thought the project should be scrapped
completely."

"But not you?"  It was ridiculously gratifying, the way Rachel hung on
my words, like a child hearing a fairytale for the first time.

"No-o.  I try not to leave things half finished.  But I couldn't find
an explanation.  Anyway, finally one of the Cronites came to me with a
suggestion, adding that if we didn't implement it, they'd all leave,
which would have halved our labor force."  I could still see the small,
intense dark face floating to attention in the tangle of conduits and
consoles" that I'd called my office.

"What was the suggestion?"  Rachels impatient voice.

"It said that the name was wrong.  The name of the ring," I added,
seeing her take breath to ask.  "They didn't know why, but probably
we'd done something inauspicious at the beginning."

"A jinx?"

The word was unfamiliar.  "Like a bad coincidence.  You can imagine
what Con Fleet thought about that."

"What did you think?"  She leaned comfortably against the wall, one
foot braced on it and her knee sticking out.  I leaned beside her and
told my muscles to relax.

"If it meant we could continue construction, I was willing to try
anything, bar live sacrifices.  Of course admin refused to change the
name.  But someone on the site itself must have given the go-ahead,
because unofficially Beta ring changed overnight to Gamma ring."

Rachel grinned.  "I wonder who gave the go-ahead?"

"I wonder.  After that we had fewer and fewer hitches until the final
stages went ahead.  We had no more unexplained problems with Gamma or
the rest of the operation."

She shook her head.  "Do you believe... ?"

"Does it matter?"  Tight shoulder muscles twinged as I shrugged.

"It would make me uncomfortable.  Not knowing."

I laughed and turned to open the uplift lobby door.  "You're going to
be uncomfortable in this century then."

Like me.  What a hypocrite, to pretend that not understanding Invidi
science doesn't make me so angry sometimes I could explode.  Or to
pretend that I don't hate being forbidden the chance to learn it.  I
didn't tell Rachel of the years of frustration at being relegated to
secondary systems, of trying to study the jump drive and gravity
fields

from a distance.  My record is dotted with disciplinary actions for
trying to circumvent security measures designed to keep members of the
Nine Worlds away from such technology.  Once, on a Q'chn ship, they
almost spaced me.  Uncomfortable, indeed.

Second Day 2pm

Murdoch and I argued all the way to the Smoke.  About whether he should
come with me in the first place, then when I lost that one, about what
we should say to An Bank.

"You can't ask him straight."

"Why not?"

"Because it's impolite and because you won't get a straight answer
anyway."  We stopped for the umpteenth time as the crowded throughway
jammed.  Evacuation of the spokes had not dampened everyone's
enthusiasm for the festivals, merely increased the density of the
revellers.  Rumor of the Q'chn skimmed over the surface of
conversations in every tongue, hissing in awkward pauses before people
turned back to their tasks, but it was not said in fear.

"I thought you asked him straight if that lock breaker was his?"
Murdoch pushed a little ahead of me and the waves of people broke
before him.

"Ye-es, but we'd gone through a bit first."  "There's a Q'chn loose on
the station.  We haven't got time to waste on chitchat."

He was right, but I don't think An Barik sees it as chitchat.

"If you go too fast I won't have time to think.  Sometimes I need time
to decipher his answers."

Murdoch drew his brows together and a Garokian child scuttled out of
his way.  "Never a bloody liaison officer around when you need one."

On that, at least, we agreed.  Where had Quartermaine got to?

If the Smoke made Murdoch nervous he concealed it well.  His only sign
of tension was a start as An Batik's door opened before we'd announced
ourselves.

"He wasn't interested in seeing Security earlier."  Murdoch's voice was
muffled by the mask.  "I didn't know you'd tried."

Murdoch had the grace to look embarrassed.  "Yeah, well.  Just wanted
to confirm the time he was in his quarters.  Nothing major."

It didn't bother me that Murdoch had wanted to confirm what the Invidi
told me, but it must have been the first time he'd called on the alien
alone.

The Invidi slid backwards as we stood inside the doorway.

"Governor Halley, Chief Murdoch," his vocoder intoned.  To my secret
amusement, Murdoch bowed shortly.

"Master Batik, you're in health?"  I stepped farther into the room. The
way he swung his tentacles seemed to argue a leisurely mood.  "The one
is satisfactory.  Considering the season."

I let that one go.  "We have a problem and were wondering if you might
help us."

"Please specify."

"I'll explain."  I plowed on, unwilling to let Murdoch take over.
"Evidence suggests there is a Q'chn on the station."

The tentacles stilled.  An expanse of puckered skin shivered, but he
said nothing.  Murdoch and I exchanged a glance.  "Master?"  I
prompted. "You know what a Q'chn is, don't you?"

"Invidi know."  Did that mean all Invidi or just him?

"Do Invidi have any way to fight it, then?"  Murdoch elbowed me out of
the way verbally, his harsh tones echoing in the murky air.

"The one is an observer."

"Yeah, well tell that to the Q'chn if it comes looking for you."  His
reaction reminded me of my own on the day the Seouras attacked, and it
softened my annoyance with his abruptness.

"Murdoch ... Master Barik, if you have any information about these
creatures, anything at all, I urge you to allow us access to it.  We
have few resources here and many lives to protect."

For a moment I thought he would help us.  Something in the way the
rounded body turned slightly.  But it passed, and he trundled backwards
farther.

"The one must retire."

"Master, please ..."

"The one must rest."

In other words, dismissed.  Beside me Murdoch fumed,

but the room had already darkened so that we could not see the Invidi.
Nothing else to do but leave.

Murdoch was livid.

"You're just going to walk out of there?"

I kept going.  "Looks like it."

He groaned and walked after me.  "He knows something."

"Yes."

"Is it a matter of asking the right questions or what?  How do you get
through to them?"

I reached the ring lift door and tapped in my code.  "I don't think
he'll tell us if he doesn't want to.  And what do you want me to do?" I
was irritated with Murdoch for assuming it was within my power to
influence the Invidi.  "Threaten to put him up in the center with the
Q'Chn?"

Murdoch sighed and, arms folded, leaned against the wall.  His large
presence was both oppressive and comforting.  "Nan.  He's probably got
a defense against it.  That's what makes me spare.  Why can't he share
it with us?"

I shrugged.  The whole debate about whether the Confederacy had
abandoned us only sent me into a panic when I thought about the
Seouras.  The elevator arrived and we got in.  Fortunately it was
empty.  "Where to?"  He paused, hand raised over the control pad.  It
took me a minute to think.  There were so many things in my head
clamoring for attention.  The foremost were Erin's continued absence,
the Q'Chn's continued presence, and the comet dust cloud, which must
already be affecting the station's sensors.., "We need to debrief and
work out a strategy," I said slowly.  "Your office?"

"Yeah, why not?"  He entered the code.  "Yours is such a mess."

I glared at him and reached past to call up the Seouras position on the
comm screen.  As I expected, the external sensors were nearly useless.
We could "see" in a narrow band around the station and in the direction
parallel to the comet's course, but otherwise, nothing.  Not even the
Seouras interference had done this.

I got an empty feeling at the back of my neck when it was obvious we
couldn't see where they were.  I closed the screen, Murdoch's uniform
rough under my sleeve as I brushed his chest.

"How long will that last?"  He nodded at the now-blank screen.

"It's moving quicker than we calculated.  It's the weirdest orbit I've
ever seen.  We'll be caught in the tail as it swings around on its way
out of the system.  It will be worst tonight and gradually clear
tomorrow."

"How badly will it affect the system?"

"Radiation shields are fine, but it depends on the problems in the
center how badly the rest of the station is affected."

He was silent.  I felt the whole situation closing in on me with an
almost physical weight.  The Seouras implant seemed to itch and I tried
to wriggle my neck away from it.  Murdoch looked down at me in surprise
but said nothing.

We waited in his office until the desk sergeant brought in a jar of
tea.

"Do you want something to eat?"  Murdoch suggested, but I shook my
head.

"Let's get on with it."

"Right.  What do we know?"  He sat behind his desk with a thud and
activated the interface.  "First, we now have a link between Trillith
and this bloke Jones."

"Don't tell me--it was Trillith's maid talking to Jones."

"You got it.  We'll question Trader Trillith next.  But meanwhile," he
scrolled down the figures on the screen.  I wished we had more
up-to-date holoviewers for our interfaces, then I could have looked
from this side without craning my neck.  "If we hypothesize that Jones
is the mystery human who was in the storage bay with Keveth when it was
killed ..."

If Jones was indeed the busker I'd seen outside the hospital on the day
the Sleepers arrived--can it really have been only yesterday?--then it
was possible he'd avoided being registered by the system in any way.
He'd had the look of someone to whom authority of any sort was worse
than whatever might happen to him outside its reach.

"Then we have both Keveth and Trillith involved in some way with a
Q'chn on the station."

"The Seouras must have let it through too."  I thought aloud.  "You
know, the Q'Chn's ship, wherever it is and however it sneaked in, might
have set off that jump mine."

Murdoch nodded with barely concealed impatience.  "Yeah, well, it's
here now.  So we have one Q'chn killed by the Q'Chn-idiinno phy--and
the other knows a human who was probably with Keveth when it was
killed."

"We have to find Jones."

"We're lob ding he grumbled.  "Half the lights are off, that bloody
festival starts today, and I'm trying to finish evacuating the spokes
and keep a guard on them.  Give us a break."

"No sign of Quartermaine either?"

"No," he said shortly.  "So we've got two Q'chn and a Q'Chn.  Minus one
Q'chn now.  Keveth also left the station shortly before its death to
help rescue a ship that appears inexplicably just before the Q'chn
kills Keveth.  And the door to the storage bay where Keveth was killed
was opened by an Invidi lock breaker  He reached for the tea jar and
poured two cups that were perched unsteadily among the detritus on his
desk.  "That's a bloody great lot of coincidences."

"Keveth's ship was squeaky clean, wasn't it?"  I said.  "That indicates
there was something there it didn't want us to find."

"Q'chn DNA traces maybe?"  Murdoch nodded.  "But where's the Q'chn
ship?"

"If it did set off that jump mine, maybe it's in small pieces in orbit
by now."

He passed me a full cup of tea.  "I reckon Keveth and Trillith got the
Q'chn onstation in the Rillian Queen.  Jones was probably paid to run
errands.  Then they had a disagreement, the Q'chn kills Keveth."

"Why kill Keveth if they were in it together?"

"I dunno.  I told you, alien motives are nothing but a headache.  Let's
just look for the means."

"Why the storage bay?"

"It was handy.  The Q'chn must have been waiting inside Keveth's ship.
Normally, people'd be less likely to visit radioactive wreckage than a
public dock area."

"Except me."

He gave me a look that said I'd just proved his point.

"Why the Invidi lock breaker

"The Invidi's in on it too.  He gets Quartermaine to come and open the
door for the others."

"Wait a minute.  Brin wouldn't be involved in any plot to hurt the
station."

"Look, he was there.  I can't believe it was another coincidence."

I rubbed my eyes.  We were going around in circles.  "Why would they
bring a Q'chn onstation?"

Murdoch drained his cup and poured another.  "I said leave motive." But
then he added, "Why do the Q'chn do anything?  Because they want
something.  Have you had a really good look at that salvage?"

I sighed.  "I'll go over it again.  And you'd better find
Quartermaine."

"We're on it.  The next thing I do is interview Trillith."  Murdoch
spoke with wary anticipation.  "We'll see who's untouchable under
Confederacy law.  Conspiracy to restore the Q'chn or acquisition of
Q'chn DNA is a full trial offense."

"What are we going to do about the Q'Chn?"  We looked at each other.  I
saw what he did--an overtired, overstressed human, sitting in an untidy
room on a rickety space station, no special powers or abilities and
with old, badly maintained equipment, talking about how to overcome one
of the galaxy's most feared killers.

"What are you laughing about?"  Murdoch was annoyed, although I'd only
smiled.

"I was just thinking how unlikely we are to succeed in getting rid of
it:"

He rolled his eyes and shoved his chair back.  "Oh, that's helpful.  I
suppose we should ask to leave?"

It was one option I hadn't considered.  "How's the evacuation
going?"

He groaned and gestured at the screens.  Now that he mentioned it,
every screen showed people--humans and aliens--moving along the
corridors, milling in front of uplift doors, and forming long lines in
the hallways.

"The center was relatively easy," he said.  "We don't have many
personnel up there anyway.  I had to send Kwon with a squad to look for
the repair team.  They haven't reported in."

"And the spokes?"

He gestured again at the screens.  The lower spokes, especially, housed
a variety of shops, low-gravity residences, and laboratories.  To clear
them completely would take more than a couple of hours.

"Do you suppose it would take a runabout and leave, if we gave it the
chance?  Have a shuttle in the docking bay, ready, and lure it up there
somehow."  I was thinking aloud, then another problem hit me.  If the
center was closed off, it meant we would not be ready to launch any
sort of ship or even a probe to take advantage of the comet's
interference of the Seouras sensors.  Damn.  I began to feel personal
antipathy towards the Q'Chn.

"We don't know what lure it will follow."  Murdoch considered the
idea.

"Still, it would be worth the loss of one shuttle to get rid of it,
wouldn't you say?"

"We only have two."

They aren't much use now anyway.  One of them carries me over to the
Seouras ship.  "What about some sort of disabling gas?"

"We don't know what will affect it.  We could always

experiment on the Q'chn , I suppose."  Murdoch sounded as if he
approved.  "And who goes in to see if it's been affected?"

"Why?"  I put my cup down on his desk with unnecessary force.  "Why is
it here?"

The desk sergeant stuck her head around the door.

"The Lieutenant says you might want to listen to the alt channel,
Chief."

Murdoch grunted acknowledgment and changed the topmost screen behind
him to show Dan Florida against a plain blue background.  Murdoch swung
his chair around and tilted it back to stare upwards.

"... asked the Confederacy Council observer on Jocasta for an interview
so we could hear what his people have to say about this interesting
matter, but unfortunately he felt unable to meet me.  This is a great
pity, I'm sure you'll all agree, especially as it involves the past of
both our species.  I did manage to talk to a different member of the
Four Worlds, though, to get its opinion on the matter."

I groaned as the angular form of Trillith filled the screen.  Rachel
had described the Q'chn as "those praying mantis-y things," and from
the front it was an apt description.  Trillith looked like it was going
to pounce, and I hoped Florida could handle it.

"Kuvai Trillith, do you have any comment on what we heard this morning
from our guests?"

Trillith waved one of its upper forearms delicately.  "I should not be
surprised if these tales of Invidi interference were true.  The fact
that they engaged the Q'chn Empire in, war for over five of your
centuries shows that they are-capable of interference on a grand
scale."

"But I taught their non-interference was limited to the,

er, so-called lesser species."  He didn't like the phrase but managed
it with a lot more grace than I would have.

Trillith, of course, had no such scruples.  "The lesser species, such
as your own, are more susceptible, naturally.  Considered culturally or
technologically--any way at all-you are so far beneath the rest of us
that it is a wonder you have survived as a group at all.

"In Earth's case, the Invidi behavior was 'passive interference."  The
mere fact of their appearance was enough to change your planet's
history.  More so when you chose to accept their technology."

"We didn't have much choice."  Florida's jaw set.  He needs more
practice staying objective.

"Even on this station, which is supposed to be under your government's
rule, the Invidi are actively interfering."

"What do you mean?"

"Come now, Mr.... ?"

"Florida."

"Florida."  Trillith's voice box buzzed the word smoothly.  "Don't tell
me you are unaware of the recent murder of a Q'chn citizen?"

"Yes, but how does that ...T

"The murderer possessed Invidi technology, did it not?  And I see the
establishment has not allowed you to tell us that the Invidi liaison
officer is also missing."

Florida was silent I could almost see him weighing the profit from this
unexpected revelation with the official reaction if it turned out the
information was classified.  He apparently decided discretion was the
wiser course and let the comment go, aided by his ill-concealed dislike
of the

Q'chn trader.  The dislike made him indiscreet enough to ask the next
question.

"Regarding that murder, Trader.  There is also a rumor, substantiated
by several official sources, that the murders were committed by a Q'chn
that has somehow entered the station.  Do you have any comment?"

Trillith made a hissing, scrunching sound.  The voice box might have
been briefly turned off.  It also flushed an unattractive mauve
color.

"There are no Q'Chn.  This is a stupid rumor.  I have no further
comment."

Florida grimaced.  "Well, folks, that concludes the program for
today."

Murdoch and I looked at each other.

"Who knew about the Invidi lock breaker besides you and me?"

He drummed his fingers on the desk at each name.  "Sasaki.  Barassi in
Comtec--he's been working at it on an encrypted screen, so nobody else
there has had anything to do with it.  I sent a coded report to Veatch.
That's it.  Did you tell anyone?"

"It wasn't in the senior staff memo and you know we never mentioned it
at the security briefing.  Murdoch, none of them could be involved."

"If Trillith is deeper in it than we suspected ..."

"It'd be pretty stupid to give us such an obvious clue.  No, I think
Trillith is just trying to stir things up."

"What about An Baric?"

I sighed.  "How are you going to place him in Sigma?  He can't sneak
around, you know.  Too conspicuous."

Murdoch threw up his hands, exasperated.  "He might have told
Trillith.""Who uses the information to stir up anti-Invidi
sentiment?"

"Trillith is the most likely person to know the Q'Chn.  You don't think
he protested a bit too much?"

No denying that a Q'chn was the most logical contact for the Q'Chn.

Murdoch stood up abruptly.  "What a bloody mess.  Let's just try to get
rid of the thing."

"I wish we could ask it why it's here."  We walked towards the door.

Murdoch snorted.  "The only thing we know for sure about a Q'chn is
that by the time you realize it's there, you're dead."

He stomped out into the corridor.  I followed and stepped into... slime
that shifts and slithers underfoot.  Clothes and skin coated with it,
hair stiff with it, mouth raw from spitting away the stench.  No
gradual connection today--wham, they're here.  Inside my head.  A
slime-filled tunnel overlapped the Security corridor.  I staggered.

Go on.  Who said that?  Go on, further.

Slide, slip, crawl like an animal in a maze--is that what I am?
Farther, farther.  I try to stop, out of sheer obstinacy, but the
voices propel me on.  The slope is downhill now and gravity allows no
dissent.  A speck of light in the distance.  Light at the end of a
close, green tunnel.

"Halley."  How do they know my name?  Go on, go on.  Less variation
within the cacophony now.  More like one voice.  And a note of
desperation.  Help us.

The light is closer.  Shapes in it.  Not amorphous Seouras

shapes--hard, metallic.  White light so sharp it cuts the eyes.  A
door.  I'm looking through a doorway.

"Halley."  Murdoch's voice, hoarse, with a catch in it.  He's here.
He's shaking me.

He's shaking me, yes.  But not in a slime-filled cavern.  We're in the
Security corridor.  Two constables glanced at us curiously as they
passed.  Nobody else here, fortunately.  I could still faintly hear the
voices and it scared me.

I stood still, hardly daring to breathe lest it all come tumbling out,
the last thing I wanted to do was scream over Murdoch in the corridor.
Bad for discipline... Murdoch's hands were painfully tight around my
upper arms and he held me stiffly at arm's length as though afraid I'd
explode in his face.

"What's going on, Halley?  You're giving me the creeps."

I took a deep, shuddering breath.

"Sometimes I can hear them."

"Who?"

"The Seouras."  No use pretending, even to myself, that I didn't know
whose voice it was.  His grip slackened in surprise.

"How?  How can you ... ?"

"I don't know.  It's something to do with this."  I touched the implant
at my throat.  The impulse to pull, gouge, slice it away was strong and
I had to make a fist before my hand would lower.

"I thought You used that when you were over there?"  He gestured
outward.

I nodded, feeling as tired as if I had been over in the gray ship." but
lately there's been a sort of... overflow.  I can hear them sometimes,
too  There was something like panic in Murdoch's eyes and it scared me.
"Don't look so worried.  My dreams aren't going to endanger the
station."

"How do you know?  They might have invasive telepathic abilities."  He
frowned and drummed on his belt.  "You should have told me."

"It's not your problem."

"The safety of the head of station is my problem," he growled.  "What
if something happens to you and they won't deal with one of us?  Have
you thought what they might do?"

I hadn't.  Without the implant, could the Seouras communicate with us?
I'd often wondered why they didn't fit more of us with the things--it
was possible I had the only one.  What might they do to Murdoch, or the
chief magistrate, instead?

"Tell me if it happens again," he continued.  "I'll talk to Jago and
see if she has any suggestions."

Eleanor would have plenty, I was sure.  I felt trapped between them and
the Seouras, trapped in an inescapable and ever-tightening noose.

One of Murdoch's hands was still cupped around my arm.  I shrugged it
off.

"All right, all right.  But it won't give me any more options."

He sighed.  "It's not only the station I'm worried about."

I stared at him and he shifted uncomfortably.

"Let's do something about the Q'Chn," was all I said, but the slimy
echoes had been banished by his concern.

Outside Jocasta, solar winds pushed the comet's tail ahead of the tiny
nucleus and we were caught in the drifting strands of its long "hair."
Particles streamed past the Seouras ships and the station, playing
havoc with our sensors.  The particles would also affect the
unprotected wreck of Calypso and the station's adjacent platforms. 
With luck, damage to the solar reflectors and radiator discs would be
minimal.

Inside, more and more peripheral systems were experiencing shutdowns.
There was something wrong in the center, and I hoped it was due to the
dust and not the Q'Chn.  One of the reasons I didn't like the idea of
evacuating and isolating the center was that the potential for sabotage
was so great there.  Some of our environmental and operational systems
ran on backup, as I'd told Kloos, but many of them were accessible only
through the center core, which runs down the middle of the center for
twelve levels': Engineering had sent a repair crew and there wasn't
much I could do until they reported in.  Thanks to the Q'chn we had
given up the idea of sending out even a probe to contact the
Confederacy.  To tell

the truth, it had been a pretty long shot.  Recent opinion on the
station seemed to be that we were wasting our time--the Confederacy
wasn't coming.

I didn't believe that.  We've known the Invidi for nearly a hundred
years and have been part of the Confederacy for thirty-six of those
years.  They're not going to abandon us now.  At the moment it was
important to find out why the Q'Chn--if it really is a Q'Chn--is here
and what to do about it.  To that end, we need to know what Keveth was
doing in the storage bay.  We need to know whether there was anything
about Calypso and the salvage that could have brought Keveth there.

I sat in my office and read about Marlena Alvarez.

My main interface continued to fly messages like "Specify Search
Pattern Further" or "Results Inconclusive" before I even entered the
search sets, and refused pointblank to search the historical or
operational databases.  Instead I had one hand com doing a search for
navigational data on possible courses between Earth and Alpha Centauri
while another looked for historical references to ships on those
courses during the century in which Calypso was making its mysterious
journey.

While I waited, I looked up the official history of Alvarez and Las
Mujeres.  It was a curious feeling, as though something I had thought
private turned out to be public knowledge.  Like seeing family problems
aired on the internet.  My great-grandmother had always described
Alvarez in exalted terms and with little attention to political detail,
but the official version had been written with an eye to both sides of
the equation, and was less generous.  The

story that Alvarez was at a local government conference in the city
and had met my great-grandmother in a bar was true, according to the
database.  On the other hand, it also described Demora as a "mercenary
looking for somewhere to settle away from the European justice system."
The other details were basically what I'd been told ever since I was
old enough to sit and listen:

The government of the province in which Las Mujeres was located wanted
to relocate the town, and several others, to make way for a dam on the
lakes.  They spoke vaguely of accommodation in the city, but in essence
the message was "get out."  The townspeople didn't want to go.  The
police, the mayor, and most of the other councillors had been bought
off.  Several of the major landowners in the district, the ones with
political clout, had shares in the construction and electric
companies.

Marlena Alvarez had no qualifications other than a correspondence
diploma in small business management.  The database said this
deprecatingly but I remember it as one of Demora's greatest sources of
pride.  "Marlena wasn't one of those educated city people, come to tell
the hicks how to do things."  She had allies.  The judge of the
district court, Carole Benacion, was part of the old-style legal
network, judges and magistrates who were often targets for extremists
in and out of government.  Indeed, Benacion was machine-gunned down in
front of her family only weeks before Marlena died.  The doctor who ran
a small hospital that supported the native title movement in the area,
Nerise Kauni, also had contacts within international aid and human
rights organizations, and this was how news of Las Mujeres reached the
outside world.  The other central member of-the group was Natalie
Sanchez-Verlen, the

'

landowner the government couldn't buy off.  For years she sat in her
mountain fortress in the middle of the land they wanted for the dam,
protected by an army of thugs who scared even the secret police.  When
she was finally persuaded to join Marlena and the others the government
began to get worried.  Sanchez-Verlen worried my great-grandmother as
well.  She hated having to integrate the aristocrat's militia into her
own police force and never really trusted them.

Once it became obvious that the villagers were not moving, the
government stepped up its campaign of intimidation.  There was little
on this subject in the database, but Demora had more than made up for
that.  I could have written files and files about the fear and violence
that dogged their lives, for the opposition parties, which specialized
in organized terrorism, also targeted the village when it became clear
that the women were not interested in ideological paths to glory.

The database glossed over the next few years, saying merely that
"Alvarez and her group survived a number of attempts on their lives."
Demora had emphasized, though, that things got worse when no goods
flowed into the town and they all nearly starved.  Medical supplies,
too, were a problem--the guerillas and the militias were too much for
foreign and local aid workers.  The foreign connection came in handy,
however, when the government moved in with demolition equipment and
troops to guard it.  There was an international outcry and the rebels
took the chance to attack government troops and press their claims, so
nothing came of it in the end.  The stalemate continued while Marlena's
international notoriety increased--the more the

government prevented her from travelling, the more interested the
media became--up until her death.

I checked the two handcoms, but the searches were not yet complete.  It
was slow doing it this way, but trying to repair the main interface
would have been more time-consuming still.  Needless to say, in a
properly equipped station with a properly functioning interface net,
the search would have taken no more than five minutes.  I stretched and
walked around the room, inspected the print and pulled it straight.
Each time I look I find a detail in it that I missed last time.  To one
side of the market scene a man squatted beside a basket of crabs, his
face split in a grin as a customer peered into the basket.  I had
always thought it was crabs but today it struck me that they might be
eels.  I wondered how Alvarez had felt.  In the database she seemed so
controled, so focused and inspired.  That isn't quite the image I have
of her though, and I sifted through my memories of Demora's ramblings
to find out why.  It would be ironic if the key to our situation here
had lain inside my memories all this time.  According to Demora,
Alvarez was a bad sleeper, and Demora had to assign two shifts of
bodyguards to her to keep up with her night-time perambulations. 
Alvarez disliked travel and would always be worried about what was
happening at Las Mujeres in her absence.  She was particularly
sensitive to criticism of her refusing access to the so-called freedom
fighterj, the extremist guerillas.  All this added up, it seemed to me,
to a picture of a woman who tried hard to overcome not only
geographical isolation, opposition from Her enemies, and the skepticism
of the international community; she also fought Against doubt of the
rightness of her actions, guilt over their consequences, and fear both
for others and for herself.  But maybe I'm imposing my own experience
on hers.  It's hard not to identify with her situation--I only wish I
could learn something useful from it.

A transcript of her speech at the venue described by Hannibal Griffis
was also enclosed in the database.  I was impressed at the accuracy of
his memory, although he had left out the closing words.  As I read them
I could see Alvarez as Griffis described her; not the fearless
visionary of Demora's memory but an articulate, clever politician who
used the international media to further her cause for unity.  Demora
had been right when she said, "Marlena knew that the meek of the Earth
weren't going to inherit anything unless they took it."  Your
governments see me as nothing more than a ranting woman from a poor
country with no political or economic power.  They think I am no danger
to them, or I would not be allowed to talk to you here today.  But they
are wrong.  I pose a danger to them that is radical and more
fundamental than money or politics, or the question of who has the more
destructive toys.  I pose a real danger to them because, in spite of
all I have seen, I am an optimist.

I believe that all of us have the power to took inside ourselves and
see what we must do.  I said that conscience is not enough, but without
conscience there is no beginning.  You must start with yourselves, as
we have.  Just because you have never acted before is no reason not to
act now.

One of the handcoms bleeped minutely to signal the search was done.  I
scrubbed fiercely at my face to bring myself back to the present, sat
down and began to sift through the results.  Most of it, as I expected,
was useless.

I tried to vary the pace of the screen, in the hope that I'd pick up
anything significant more quickly.  The room seemed stuffy, and a
couple of times I caught myself taking little dives into the screen as
my eyelids drooped.

The only potentially useful piece of information was in the logs of a
freighter that had been carrying an illegal load through the space
around Earth that the Invidi had declared a kind of alien-free zone.
The master had gone on to better things and eventually opened the logs
to public scrutiny as part of his memoirs.

The freighter had come across the trail of a Nukeni ship.  It was
unusual to see Nukeni that far from Central, and also strange to see
one that kept a straight course past a number of potentially useful
mineral-bearing asteroids.  The freighter followed the Nukeni for a
while then veered off.

I considered the report.  The year on Earth would have been 2073 or
'74, forty-eight or so years after the Sleepers launched.  That was
still before Earth began interstellar flight with entry to the
Confederacy in 2085.  The evidence showed that the Sleepers, assuming
the "Nukeni trader" was indeed Calypso, were still on course up until
the projected end of their voyage and well within tracking distance of
Alpha Centauri.  Why hadn't anyone else seen them?  I would have to ask
Jago to look further at the cryosystems.-If they had kicked in for
another fifty years, there should be some evidence of this, even in the
wreckage..

More interesting, of course, was the information that the database did
not contain.  That is, any record over the next fifty years of a Nukeni
freighter or any other ship on that particular course.  Either they'd
been hiding or someone had hidden them.  It was possible that the
Invidi had helped them with systems other than the cryostasis.  A
sensor-deflecting device maybe?

If I could find this information, so could anyone else.

Rachel and I went through the salvage.

We did not go through it by hand, of course--the center was off-limits
and the salvage itself still mildly radioactive.  We sat, instead, in a
booth in one of the Intatec labs before a 3D screen that showed an
image of every item taken off the ship.  The scanners had recorded the
data before the things themselves had been stored in the container up
in Sigma.  Rachel confirmed the identity of some of the equipment and
helped us label the personal possessions.

"I'm surprised that you haven't progressed beyond this," she said.

Perhaps the comment was provoked by the screen having frozen for the
third time in as many minutes.  The round-faced technician on lab duty
shot me a look of apology.

"Unfortunately this is not one of our essential subsystems."  I kept my
tone matter-of-fact.  She was going to have to learn to live with
inefficiency.  "Security is pulling in a lot of power at the moment."

Rachel leaned back in her chair.  She averted her eye from the still
image on the screen--a piece of console casing.

"I understand that the station is low on supplies and power is
rationed.  It seems strange, that's all.  I expected ... differences.
I mean, we had avatar interfaces in the late twentieth century."

"Yes," I replied.  "And how many starving children did you also have?"
Shocked, I realized I had used one of my grandmother's favorite
phrases.  Don't tell me I'm starting to resemble the revolutionary
Elvira in temper as well as features.

It was one of the things I couldn't understand about our history.  How
could situations have existed side by side at the same time that seem
to me to belong to different planets?  I wanted to ask her, how could
the people of your time live that way?

Rachel seemed to search for words, but then just shook her head without
replying and turned back to the monitor.  The screen flickered back to
life again and the uneven, fire-beaten fragment turned slowly for our
perusal.

"That's fine."  Rachel confirmed our ID scan and we moved on to the
next piece.

I sipped a cup of tea and tapped a file pad on the desk next to the
larger screen.  The file pad showed navigational data from the
Calypso's arrival in the system.  There was an outside chance it might
tie in with something in the salvaged equipment.  Or we might find what
it was that brought Quartermaine to the storage bay in time to witness
Keveth's death.  Or what brought the Q'Chn and Keveth there.  And, by
extension, a clue to where the Q'Chn was now.

Rachel hummed a couple of bars.  Slow, monotonous beat with a lilt a?
the end.  When I realized what the time was I almost dropped the cup.

"What's the matter?"  Rachel stopped humming and stared as I blotted
tea stains with my sleeve.

"Sorry.  You startled me.  With the song."

"You know it?"

"It was family history."

"Was your family involved in the Earth South movement after Alvarez
died?"

I thought of Demora Haase in her ancient, creaky house.  "My
great-grandmother stayed in the town.  She was never very concerned
with politics or globalization.  Never talked about anything but the
town's affairs."

Rachel turned her chair to face me, but there was still something wary
in her expression.  I shouldn't have made that insensitive crack about
the children.

"Did she teach you the song?"

"No, I think Demora believed people should mind their own business."
Like me, stuck out here.  We simply want to keep our own house in
order.  "It was my grandmother Elvira.  She caught me singing that song
one day while I was playing and scolded me."  Although "scold" was too
mild for the tongue-lashing Elvira dished out.  "Said it was not a song
for play, that people had died with it on their lips and if she ever
caught me again she'd thrash me."

Rachel blinked.  "Bit of a fireball."

I thought of Elvira without fondness.  She used to make all our lives
hell.  "She was a... committed activist."  Her own words.

Rachel turned back to the screen.  "From what you say, I wouldn't have
thought there'd be much to overcome by then.  All the children fed,
right?"

Touche.

"So do I have your permission to hum?"

"Be my guest.  Rachel?"

She stopped humming.

"Why all the secrecy about Calypso!  Surely if you had Invidi help,
nobody would have tried to stop you."

"I told you, we only ever dealt with one of the Invidi.  He suggested
the secrecy."

"An Serat!

"Yes."  She fiddled with the corners of the monitor for a moment or so
before continuing.  "We weren't privy to the details of Invidi
politics, but I got the impression that he wasn't sure of himself.  As
far as the other Invidi went, I mean."

"Wasn't sure, how?"  It hadn't occurred to me that all Invidi might not
think alike.  I suppose they must allow differences of opinion.

"I don't know.  I don't think any of the other Invidi knew about our
trip, either."  She tried to concentrate once more on the screen, then
looked away with a sigh.

"Look, I realize you need to know everything about us.  But if we don't
know, we don't know.  I want to start getting on with my life here, not
keep thinking about the past."  She paused.  "It hurts, okay?"

Before I had a chance to apologize, the comm link beeped.  Murdoch
sounded satisfied.  "Come on over to Hill Security.  I'm talking to
Trillith now."

"I'll be a few minutes."

"You'll miss the fun."  He cut the connection.

I turned to Rachel.  "Will you be all right here alone?  Or shall we
continue another time?"

She starred at the relics.  "I'll finish it.  Ariel isn't up to it and
Griffis is busy."

I left her.  staring at pieces of the past.

Murdoch met me outside the interview room.  There were fewer people
sitting on the benches in the Security corridor.  Perhaps everyone was
too busy with the festival.

"We've got a bit of information, but not much," he grumbled.  "It
admits Keveth came to it that afternoon and said that Jones had given
Keveth a job bringing back a passenger."

"How could Jones afford to give anyone a job?"  Murdoch shrugged.
"Dunno.  He must've given Keveth some pretty big incentives.  Trillith
says Keveth didn't say anything about a Q'Chn, and Trillith doesn't
know who Jones was working for.  It isn't working with the Invidi and
doesn't know anything about a lawbreaker."  He paused for breath.

"Does it say why its servant was talking to Jones?"

"Only that it has no control over who its staff talk to in their off
hours."

"It hasn't given us much," I said.  "What about the salvage?  Does it
know why Keveth and Jones were up there?"

Murdoch glowered.  ""There must be something there,""

he mimicked.  "Anyway, I'm about to ask it for some background info on
the Q'Chn.  If it wants protection it'll have to earn it."

"But we can't protect it from the Q'Chn," I protested as we turned to
the interview room.  "We can't even protect ourselves."

"Shh."  Murdoch put a finger to his lips.  "Trillith doesn't know
that."

Trillith filled most of the room.  The chairs and table across which
Murdoch would have glared at a human interviewee had been removed and
his stocky form looked curiously vulnerable before the big alien.

"What can you tell us about the Q'Chn?"  he asked, then added quickly,
"In general."

Trillith hesitated before speaking.  "It is not a thing we are proud
of.  But at the time it was a necessary evil.  Without the Q'Chn our
people would no longer exist.  For centuries they kept our world safe
from the Bendari and other species you do not even know."

A necessary evil?  The Q'chn empire had not been acquired by defensive
action.

"Were they always under control?"  I asked.  "They never got out of
hand?"

Trillith shook a feeler at me as it replied.  "They were genetically
programmed to obey.  How could they not?  In times of peace we let them
Change without maintaining their numbers, and that was that.  In other
times we produced more of them from our first-stage young."  "The
Change comes in about fifty Earth years, right?"  Murdoch said slowly.
Trillith's head bobbed in acknowledgment as its legs giggled
impatiently.  "Yes, yes."  "Then how come there are still Slash--...
Q'Chn alive now?  It's sixty years since the Confederacy was formed.

Most of 'em should have gone already."  "Exactly."  "So you're saying
what we have here is one of the last of his kind out under pressure? 
sure  "If, human, you are not mistaken, then it may be one of the last
great warriors.  It's not some zoo specimen."  I shot Murdoch a warning
glance.  "Sorry," he muttered.

The Q'chn raised itself on four jointed legs.  They dislike talking
about the Change---they feel we could never understand, which is
probably correct.  Our nature is so founded on the concept of two
biological sexes that it is hard to imagine being born in batches,
having one active life followed by another entirely sedentary one in
which they do... what?  We see it as a static state of preparation, the
way they exude a new being---the first stage of their young.  Yet,
according to the Q'chn , this is where all their great philosophy and
poetry is produced, and it provides the metaphysical underpinning of
their society.

"When our people agreed to end the Q'Chn there was naturally some
opposition.  The more conservative elements felt that we had made
ourselves vulnerable for a doubtful return.  In the first decade of the
Confederacy there were still some Q'Chm born.  We admit this."

"So some of them have twenty years or so to go?"  said Murdoch.

"At the most, twenty of your years.  But as the years passed we
realized that union with other worlds brought us much that we could not
have achieved otherwise.  We would not now endanger that union by
reviving old problems."  It delivered this speech with satisfaction.

"But there is a stockpile of engineered DNA?"  Murdoch pressed.

"There is such a thing, yes."

"It's maintained by a multi-species task force," I said gloomily.
"Impossible to tamper with."

"You never heard rumors of anyone making more?"  said Murdoch.  "No." 
A greenish flush crept up Trillith's ridged thorax and moved along its
smooth lower body.

Murdoch paced in front of the Q'chn once, twice.  "We found Q'Chn DNA
here."

"Will it talk?  What if we offered it passage off the station,
providing it harmed no one else?"  I stepped forward.

Trillith swivelled one eye to Murdoch first as if gauging his reaction.
"It might agree.  But there is no guarantee it would keep its word. It
will merely seek the path of greatest benefit at the time.  If it came
here for a specific purpose then it will not leave until that purpose
is achieved, no matter what anyone says."

Oh, wonderful.  So it could get partway off the station and suddenly
decide on slaughter.  We couldn't take that risk.  "So it can talk.
Would it listen to you?""

Trillith snapped its limbs again and made a noise that the translator
ignored.

"Why do you think I came down here?"  Its voice snapped too.  "Keveth
was killed, and it is obvious that the Q'Chn is responsible."

"I thought you said there couldn't be a Q'Chm onstation," said Murdoch
smugly.  "Anyway you didn't see Keveth after yesterday afternoon.  It's
not as if you were involved with anything.  Is it?"

"I want protection," said Trillith.  "I have a reasonable fear that my
life is'm danger.  You must give me protection."

Murdoch was loving this.  "I don'thave that many personnel.  until
it's finished.  Of course," he spread his hands generously, "if you
helped us to stop it..."

Trillith hissed something that the translator left un-processed.
Murdoch shrugged.

"You said you saw Keveth on the afternoon of the day it died.  We also
know one of your employees spoke to Jones the next morning.  Do you
still maintain you don't know what Keveth's connection was with
Jones?"

"This is harassment."  Its voice grated.  "I think Jones and Keveth
have together made it look as though I am at fault.  There are terrible
things said against the Four Worlds on this station, Commander, which
might surprise you."

"But Keveth was a Q'chn ," I said, confused.  "Why would it frame
you?"

"Keveth was not a true Q'chn .  It associated with lesser beings and
paid the penalty."

Murdoch snorted.  "A Q'Chn isn't exactly what you'd call a lesser
being."  "I meant humans!"  Trillith's abdomen flushed a deep, dirty
brown.

"Would it surprise you," Murdoch turned away, paced to the nearest
wall, then turned around, "if traces of Q'Chn DNA were to be found in
Keveth's ship?"

I noticed the way he framed the question and hoped that Sasaki or
somebody was not monitoring the conversation.  Murdoch's line of
questioning was legally dubious.

"I do not know what foolish things Keveth might have done," said
Trillith.  "Merely because we are both Q'chn does not make us
partners."  "Kuvai Trillith."  I stepped forward until I was closer to
the Q'chn than Murdoch.  "If there is a Q'Chn on this station, none of
us is safe.  Can you give us any idea how we might defeat it?"

Trillith bobbed its head slowly.  'he Q'Chn were undefeated.  Except
for the smoke-eaters."

"How did the Invidi defeat you?"  asked Murdoch bluntly.  Now it was
Trillith's turn to twitch.

"Read the history tri-des," it crackled sullenly.  "You will never
defeat it with what you have on this station."

Trillith suddenly swung its head down in front of me and I jumped back
a little.  Murdoch put a hand on his holster.  "Commander," it said,
and the voice was as earnest as I've ever heard from a Q'chn .  'the
Q'chn are terrible.  Glorious and terrible.  Do not hesitate to kill it
if you get the chance.  It will not hesitate to kill you."

PART TWO

THE

STIll CENTER

"It doesn't want to go back it's scared of the Q'Chn.  Let it stew a
while."

He grinned without humor.  "You're in a nice mood."  "I'm worried about
the Q'Chn, Bill."

We had to assume it would be ready for our first, second, and probably
third moves.  I thought of the maintenance tunnels that connected the
entire station, of the ways in which even a mediocre hacker could get
into our op sys of all the defensive weapons we did not have.

I felt Murdoch's eyes on me and straightened upIt doesn't want to go
back--it's scared of the Q'Chn.  Let it stew a while."

He grinned without humor.  "You're in a nice mood."  "I'm worried about
the Q'Chn, Bill."

We had to assume it would be ready for our first, second, and probably
third moves.  I thought of the maintenance tunnels that connected the
entire station, of the ways in which even a mediocre hacker could get
into our op sys of all the defensive weapons we did not-have.

I felt Murdoch's eyes on me and straightened up.  "I got no protocols
for this.  I don't know what the thing can do.  For all we know, it's
finding a way through the containment doors right now."

Murdoch panicking scared me almost as much as the thought of the
Slashers.

He drummed his fingers on his belt.  "So you don't want to leave the
center and spokes isolated?"

"No.  But I don't see we have any choice.  We can't chance it getting
into the habitat rings."

He shot me a look.  "Glad to know you've got your priorities straight
now."  He jerked his chin at the door at the end of the corridor.
"Let's get out of here."

We found ourselves in the building's lobby.  The benches had filled up
since I came in.  Looked like the evening rush hour.  I thought we
would go into Murdoch's office to talk but instead he headed for the
main doorway.  "Where are you going?"  I caught up outside.

He half turned in surprise.  "Dinner.  You haven't eaten."  it wasn't a
question.

"I am not hungry."

"I am."  He plowed off through the crowd, and after briefly wondering
if the satisfaction of slipping away and leaving him to it would be
worth having to come back again later, I followed.

The night lights down here formed a crazy kaleidoscope of colors that
spilled and floated from different sources.  The lights dyed the
thronging figures and concealed the sticky grime and cap building
materials.  Musictrickled or blared from evbry doorway, music that was
recognizable as such and some that was not.  Voices provided a.
counterpoint in derent languages and tones.  The air was probably thick
exotic scents, too.  entertainment

industry seems to be the only sector that prospers under the Seouras
occupation--I don't know how people can still have credits to spend or
how the proprietors have stockpiled enough supplies to see them
through, and perhaps it is best not to ask.

The main entertainment area is in the least damaged section of the
Hill.  After the fire the mess of bars, gambling houses, holo-parlors,
and stim-joints crept over from their previous location and brought
sleaze to a previously quiet district.  Respectable residents migrated
to Gamma.

The Q'Chn rumor certainly hadn't affected business.  If anything, the
evacuation had probably increased the numbers of customers here.  The
coming festival added an air of expectation.

The clamor and bustle made my head throb.  The throughway in most of
the Hill is narrow, just wide enough for two or three humanoids or one
larger alien.  Most of the "establishments" jut out into it in defiance
of building regulations and fall back into more extensions.  Some
squeeze two stories into space meant for one and the space above is
built right over.  Very few places in Delta get reflected light anyway
because of damage to the reflector grids.  Warrens of new corridors and
unlicensed entries have opened up all over the level.  Security hates
the place.  Many of the buildings were rebuilt after the fire, cobbled
together with old metal sheets and unusable ship parts.

I looked up and saw strips of red cloth tossed through a window as
banners lying limply against the gray walls in gashes of ominous color.
It was said that the only color the Q'Chn could see was red, or at
least the color that humans perceive as red.  Legend has it that when
the Dir world was taken over, the inhabitants deflected the wrath

of the Slashers by covering their cities in scarlet to honor the
invaders.  These pieces of cloth seemed to have become confused with
the festive atmosphere.  Were they propitiating the Q'Chn, warning off
curses, or welcoming the soul's rebirth?

As we walked, I told Murdoch about Veatch's report on the Q'Chn
background, which essentially supported what Trillith had said.  He had
added that the Q'Chn were only defeated once in recorded history, and
that was in what the Q'chn called the War To End Wars.  The Q'chn were
the aggressors and pushed the Invidi back further and further until
they were trapped in their home system.  The Q'chn thought they had
won, but the Invidi turned at bay and within a few days the Q'chn
forces, including the Q'Chn, were defeated.  Legend has it that the
Invidi used a virus, a disease engineered specifically to fit the
Q'Chn's engineered genes.

"Is that still possible?"  Murdoch sounded doubtful.

"I doubt it.  But we can talk to An Barik and see if he'll help us."

Murdoch groaned.  "He hasn't helped us so far.  If he could sit and
watch us go through the Seouras invasion, why should this be
different?"

"At least we can ask," I said.

During the festival, the throughways at this end of the Hill were not
wide enough for the processions to pasts, but that did not deter
mobile--stall holders or the roaming vendors, both those who were lucky
enough to possess an antigrav unit and those who pushed their carts the
hard way.

We sat on nc hairs in front of one of the carts.  While Murdoch
ordered, I thought about the Q'Chn.

One of the worst aspects of the situation was not knowing where the
damn thing was.  Like the Souras ships behind the comet's dust tail.
They could be doing anything and we wouldn't know.  I suggested to
Murdoch that if the confusion resulted from a proximity device that the
Q'Chn was carrying, we might get a rough idea of its whereabouts by
monitoring which sections were out of use.  He wasn't impressed, and
said it might have two devices or the area affected might be too large.
I retorted by asking where he intended to start and he just glared. The
options seemed to be either major physical restructuring of every
sensor relay on the station or fine-tuning the sensors in a particular
area, and neither remedy was possible at the moment because we couldn't
send anyone into that area.  The reason we couldn't send anyone, of
course, was because the sensors weren't showing us the Q'Chn's
whereabouts.  I hated the idea of it loose in the center.  What if it
tried to hold the station to ransom by threatening the engines?  It
seemed now certain that the earlier disruptions had been the Q'Chn's
work, and I had an unpleasant feeling that more would follow.  "It's
all very well to keep it in the center but what are we going to do with
it?"  I said, more accusingly than I'd intended, when he returned with
two bowls of something noodle-like and savory.  "We can't just sit and
wait for it to do something.  We need to go on the offensive," he said
firmly.  "Why?"  I drummed the tabletop in frustration.  "Why is it
here?"  "The good thing about keeping it in the center is that we have
space to move without worrying about civilian casualties.  And no
danger of breaching the habitat shells."  A faint alarm bell rang in my
mind.  "What are you planning, Murdoch?"  "A projectile weapon."  I
stared at him.  "This is the most sophisticated killing machine---bio
machine---ever bred.  And it's going to let you blow a hole in it?"  He
set his jaw.  "It's about the only thing that might work.  So long as
it isn't carrying physical shields.  Its natural defenses work against
energy weapons, not cannonballs, and there's no reason it would be
expecting anything so primitive."  "Don't they have extremely fast
regenerative processes?  A backup nervous system?  How can you be sure
of hitting something vital?"  He smiled in a predatory way.  "We're
talking about a very big hole."  I pushed the bowl to one side and
rubbed my head.  "I don't want a very big hole in my station." "It's
all I can come up with."  "Stop looking for ways to kill it then."
"Well, what are we going to do?  Ask the slime-eaters to get rid of it
for us?"  He looked at me anxiously.  "That was a joke, Halley.  A
joke, for chrissakes.  Don't even think about it."  "It wasn't a funny
joke.  "Do you think it would take a shuttle and go?"  "What's to stop
it doing that now?  It's got free run of the docks."  : I recalled his
previous comment.  "How long can they survive vacuum?"  "Dunno.  An
hour or so, I think.  Why?"

"All we need to do is lure it into an airlock blow the door, and wait
for a couple of hours."

He looked at me then put his utensils down deliberately.  "I don't
suppose you've given much thought to who lures it in and how?"

"I'm working on it."  It all depended on what it wanted here on the
station in the first place.

Murdoch's comm link beeped.  He turned away from the street noise and
pushed it right up against his ear.  When he turned around I could see
something was wrong.  His face was dusty pale.

I put my cup down in alarm.  "What is it?"

"They found the repair team near the core."  His expression said the
rest.

"Oh god.  Were they all... ?"

"Three.  The other three were injured.  Managed to stay inside one of
the smaller tunnels."  He thudded his clenched fist down on the table
and everything crashed together.  "Shit, shit, shit!"

I stared at the slowly widening pool of tea on the tabletop.  I knew he
was right, we had to do something.  What had Trillith said?  The Q'Chn
would only "seek the path of greatest benefit at the time."  And that
it would not leave until it had finished whatever it had come to do. We
had no idea what that was, but perhaps we could manufacture a "path of
greatest benefit" that would outweigh the demands of that imperative.

"It'll go after human beings," he said.

"What are you thinking!"

"I'll take a team up.  We'll lure it into an airlock with live bait."

"It's not an animal, you know.  It will know what you're doing."

"I know, I know.  All we can bet on is that it doesn't know the station
as well as we do."  "How will you blow the airlock without taking
yourselves too?"

"We need an escape route for the bait," he said slowly.  One finger
traced a pattern in the spilt tea.  "The best way'll be the recycle
tubes.  They're everywhere."

"You'll be recycled," I pointed out.

"Not if we turn them off and make sure the outlets into the vats are
stopped up."

I considered it.  The tubes all feed into the center's single large
recycling area under Level Six.  Waste was sorted there and all
inorganic material sent to the lower center or the platforms for
processing, the organic waste treated there then sent to the rings. The
center was virtually unused these days so the recycling tubes should be
empty.  Murdoch's idea was possible but... "You won't fall in
zero-g."

"We'll have to keep the suction going but at a reduced strength."

It sounded revolting.  "Either hold your breath or take air tanks."

He shook his head.  "Even gills get in the way.  We shouldn't be in the
tube long enough for it to be a problem.  We'll be practicing our
decompression routine."

"There's another thing.  I didn't want to give up on a feasible plan,
but I didn't want to see Murdoch kill himself trying one that was not.
"You said they can survive in vacuum.  What if it can survive long
enough to crawl around and cut its way into one of the spokes, say?"

"Not if we're right up top in Level One."  The docking sections were
heavily protected, designed to resist accidental collision during
docking.  He stood up, face somber.  "See if you can come up with a way
to trace it."

Up in Gamma, Eleanor was not in a hospitable mood.  "Go away."  Her
office had not changed since I was last here, around the time the
Seouras invaded.  A Native American weaving mounted as a wall-hanging,
holo-pies arranged on the desk, impressively healthy plants looming in
big pots.  If you looked closely, though, it was all a bit dilapidated,
the holo-pics slightly askew, a film of dust on the leaves.  Eleanor
sat at the desk in an unofficial pose---feet up and glass in hand.  A
bottle of real whiskey beside the interface screen.  "Go away," she
repeated.  "I'm not in the mood for a lecture."  I opened my mouth,
shut it again.  I'd come to ask her if she was ready to go to the
funeral, but it seemed like a waste of breath.  "Unless you'd like one
too?"  She raised the glass expectantly in my direction, shrugged when
I shook my head.  Took an appreciative sip.  "Then just go."  "No."  I
sat down with a thud in a chair beside the desk.  She looked as if she
needed someone to talk to, or at least to abuse.  "Please yourself." 
We looked at each other for a moment.  Two tired, middle-aged women in
an unimaginable situation.

"Sure you don't want a nip?  Leo left me a caseful.  I've been working
my way through it."

"No, thanks."  I swallowed my thirst.  I don't drink--it is too easy to
take the path Eleanor is following.  But tonight I was tempted.

"I was thinking," she continued, tracing her fingernails up and down
the bottle's label as she spoke.  "You think I blame you for Leo's
death."

I cringed inside.  "Well?"

She frowned at me.  "People aren't as simple as your machines.
Sometimes we blame the obvious person.  Sometimes we even blame
ourselves because something happens to us."

"What do you mean?"  "I mean that really there's nobody to blame at
all. And that's pretty hard to live with."

She looked at me then poured herself another glass.

"So don't assume I blame you, okay?  Sure, I couldn't stand die sight
of you for a while, but all I wanted was some time alone.  It's
presumptuous to assume that's blame."  She pushed herself clumsily
upright and walked over to the wall-hanging, stroked the patterns with
one finger before turning.  Her voice was steadier.  "It's a control
thing, you realize?"

"Control?"  My voice wasn't too steady either.

"Yes.  Taking blame, feeling responsible--it's one way of trying to
control an uncontrollable situation.  Refusing to be a victim if you
want to look at it that way."

"Spare me me console psychology."

She startled me by taking two unwavering strides to my chair, swivelled
it around and grasped both its arms, penning me in.  "I'm not sitting
at a console, in case you didn't notice.  And you need the psychology
just as much as I do.  You need something.  I'm not having any patient
or friend of mine come apart before my eyes."

"I'm not coming apart," I snapped.

She took her hands off the chair and straightened up.  "The longer you
deny it, the harder it is to treat it."  She stayed there looking down
at me for a moment then returned to her desk and drained the glass in
one swift movement.

"I think it's that thing in your neck.  It must be having an effect we
can't measure."

"I don't think so."  It would explain the occasional voices though, the
strange dreams.

"Must be some effect," said Eleanor stubbornly.

I rubbed my eyes tiredly.  "Eleanor, I just came to ask if you're going
to the Sleepers' funeral."

"No.  I'm not going."  She sat again.

"Well, at least go home and get some rest."  I grabbed the bottle and
tossed it into a side drawer.  The drawer clinked.

"Halley, I don't want to go home."  She was crying now, tears trickling
down both cheeks.  It too.."  full Of old things."

I hugged her awkwardly, her white coat cool and smooth beneath my
cheek..,

We've had our share of funerals here.  The first lonely requiems for
those who died during the station's construction, cold stars around and
alien pipes echoing in my helmet.  Accidents, assassinations, pirate
attacks and refugee ships that ran out of fuel too soon, Tense, hurried
services performed in moments between one crisis and the next after
the Seouras attacked---dark, confused scenes of emotional exhaustion.
After the fire, the mixed smell of smoke and slime in my nose and the
names of the dead ringing in my ears.  I haven't attended them all,
especially the alien ceremonies, but the authorizations all pass
through my hands.  The bodies of Earth Fleet and Con Fleet personnel
have always, unless leaving instructions to the contrary, been cremated
in the atmosphere of the planet below.  Lately I've sent too many
little pods to eternity in a brief flare of turgid gases or, perhaps
worse, read eulogies for those whose bodies we did not recover.  Like
the Earth Fleet squadrons destroyed by the Seouras, Or after the
platform accident when we lost the fifteen dock workers, including
Eleanor's lover.  And tomorrow there would be three more.  I hadn't had
time to organize services for the three Engineering staff who died in
the center earlier today.  Security was retrieving the bodies now.  The
fact of their deaths had only just begun to hit home, and fear of the
Q'Chn and what it could do to us was growing in my stomach like an icy
hole.  I tried to push that fear away for the time being.  My voice
needed to be steady tonight.  We were in one of the few remaining
observation halls on Alpha.  A small room, the roof and one wall of
which were shielded from reflected light and angled to give an
uninterrupted view of the stars outside.  Griffis, Rachel, and Kloos
made an untidy-half-circle with me on one end.  Behind us stood if: few
of the people who'd met the Sleepers after they arrive.  It seemed much
longer ago than yesterday.  Two nurses."  from the hospital and one of
the counsellors, aqory scholar, Lieutenant Sasaki representing
Security, and Dan Florida.  Florida had caught me visually checking
his suit for signs of recording equipment and gave me an injured look.
I wondered if he had discovered anything in his research on Calypso and
made a mental note to ask him after the service.

The dark-clothed human at the door compared his file pad list with our
faces and nodded to me that we were ready to begin.  I took a deep
breath and stepped in front of the small group, hands clasped behind my
back, hating every second of it

"Good evening.  We are gathered here to pay our last respects to the
recently departed shipmates of our friends."  I'd had to make some
hasty amendments to the official service, and if I didn't concentrate,
my tongue was likely to follow the other well-remembered words
automatically.

"At Professor Griffis's request, the bodies will be cremated together,
with the same honors as Earth Fleet officers."  One tiny flare instead
of ten.  "Owing to unforeseen circumstances we cannot use the center
ports, and the coffin will be launched by remote control from an
emergency evacuation port in the Delta ring.  We will be able to watch
from here."  If the holo-emitters still worked.  I hoped so, because
Griffis, Rachel, and Kloos deserve to farewell their comrades with
dignity.  "Professor Griffis,has agreed to say a few words."

I met Griffis's eyes and he stepped forward, composed, while I moved
back to stand next to Rachel.  She smiled briefly at me, twisting one
of Eleanor's thin scarves around her fingers.

"Ladies and gentlemen..."  Griffis paused.  Perhaps he was remembering
that some of our residents are neither.

"I shall not speak for very long.  For the three of us this is an
occasion both for sorrow and rejoicing.  "Sorrow, because so many of
those who left Earth with us are not here today.  Rejoicing, because we
three can tell their story.  They will not be forgotten.  Because we
did make it.  Our great endeavor did not fail."  Beyond the other side
of the station Calypso floated, 8 mute witness.  I wish we knew how
they got here.

"We left Earth during a difficult period.  Humanity had just set foot
upon a road never travelled.  We, too, with help from alien friends,
were a part of that period.  Even though it might seem we were leaving
it for the future."  Kloos shifted slightly and Rachel leaned over to
murmur something to him.  He shook his head.  Griffis continued slowly,
emphasizing the words.  "That future is now our present, and we must
try to be a part of it too.  We all believed in what we were doing, and
we all knew the risks involved."  He stopped, his pointy throat bobbed
as he swallowed.  "So we will mourn them as they would have mourned us,
had our situations been reversed.  They went to sleep in hope, never
knew they died.  Never knew the second chance we have been given.  We
will remember them with pride and keep their memory alive in the way we
use that chance."  Rachel pressed her trembling lips together and stat
down.  I thought he had finished but then Griffis looked directly at
me. "I would like to thank the staff of this station for res cueing our
ship and ourselves, at great risk to themselves."  I thought with shame
of the selfishness of my own motives.  Both Rachel and Kloos, and
probably Florida, were looking at me too, which made it worse.  "I hope
that in the future," Griffis continued, "we will be able to repay the
debt we owe through our contribution to the life of this station."  He
inclined his head towards us and as he stepped back the lights dimmed.
I crossed my fingers for the holoemitters.  The star field jumped
closer, a more even spattering than Earth's River of Heaven, but not as
bright.  How strange the patterns must seem to the Sleepers.  An image
flickered into life overlaid on the stars--a small, bright ovoid
gradually diminishing in size.  The coffin had launched safely.  I
uncrossed one set of fingers.  The music began.  They'd chosen the old
Earth Anthem.  Nearly every year somebody would suggest it was outdated
but any change was always voted down.  The Afro-Caribbean beat and epic
symphonic sweeps of melody, the delicate Asian wind instruments that
rose impossibly into quiet ecstasies of emotion.  To these people it
would be fresh and new.  To us it is hallowed by nearly a century of
usage.  The pod became another piece of bright dust and disappeared
over our heads.  Then a ghostly pale half-circle appeared across the
lower half of the window.  Our little planet, which the Tor had laid
waste and left to tempt us with images of what might have been.  Its
thin halo of unreadable atmosphere distorted the stars beyond.  The
holo-emitters did work.  I uncrossed the other set of fingers.  We have
not had an active satellite relay from the planet since the Seouras
came, but sensors monitor the coffin's actual position and align it
with recorded images to make a good representation of what is really
happening.

The bright ovoid travelled slowly over our heads and began its dive
into oblivion.  The Earth Anthem chorus ripped away the shields of
non-feeling and we faced the reality of loss.

I was taken back to a similar rhythm, to the smells of childhood when
alien slime was not even a dream.  Demora's funeral--a crush of people
all over the house, unknown cousins playing under the verandah and
sticky, sweet spilled wine in the hot afternoon sun.  And the empty
memory of my father's funeral.  Elvira said my mother should have taken
me, that I deserved a last goodbye.  My mother said she didn't want to
upset me, but now, looking back, I think it was her way of defying
Elvira.  So she buried him alone and I wasn't there.

The planet's misty veil embraced me coffin.  The tiny spot grew larger
and brighter for a second before fading completely, leaving only the
planet and the stars blurred by tears.

V.

The melody of the Earth Anthem stayed in my mind through the rest of
the evening.  Through awkward condolences when the service ended.
Through a flood of protest calls from owners of businesses in the
spokes who had been evacuated and staff who could not get to research
labs because of the isolation procedures.  The calls that reached me
were only a small fraction of the whole-the complaints department was
working overtime, as were Security and Personnel.  The evacuees had
been told it was an emergency drill.  Nobody believed it.  I just hoped
the Q'Chn was still in the center.  The evacuation should be over by
now and Murdoch could move on to planning his airlock operation.  And
Quartermaine?  Security had been looking for him all day and still no
sign.  As countless illegal residents have proved, on a station this
size there are-plenty of hiding places if you truly do not want to be
found.  Myself, I would go down into the under-levels if it were
necessary to avoid detection.  The labyrinth of conduits and crawl-ways
beneath each ring's throughways and buildings carry recycling pipes,
heat waste conductors, clumps of cables and maintenance cells.  I
hadn't even asked Murdoch if he'd got his staff squirming around down
there.  It would take months to cover it all and anyone in there would
have to emerge eventually.  If the trace radiation didn't get to them,
starvation and pests would.  But Quartermaine was unlikely to take that
route.

So where was he?  And why hadn't he contacted us?  I cursed the
malfunctioning shower in our quarters, pushed aside a meal of space
rations, and sat drumming my fingers on the side of my desk, the only
clear space on which to do so.  He'd been in the storage bay at or
around the time Keveth was killed.  Unlike Murdoch, I still did not
believe he was involved in something illegal with the Q'chn , much less
the Q'Chn, so his hiding was all the more difficult to understand.  Who
was he afraid of?  It hurt to think that Quartermaine did not trust me
enough to come forward.

I stood, squeezed past the foot of the bed, and tried to see up through
the window that provided reflected light during the day.  But mere were
no stars, only a blank panel.

I felt unreasonably deprived.  Here I was, stuck out in space in the
middle of nowhere and I couldn't even look out at the stars as I went
to sleep.  The stars that had seemed so familiar from the observation
room earlier.  They were as familiar to me as the constellations of
Earth.  Until the Sleepers came I hadn't thought of Earth for months.
They were so close to Earth, practically smelled of it, if I'd been
able to smell anything.  They carried with them a whole society, a
whole age, which, while not my own, was still familiar enough to tug at
the heart.

My own images of Earth are from childhood, since I have spent most of
my adult life away from the planet The memories are disconnected and
localized but vivid, unchanging.  Like short poems... I spent a futile
ten minutes searching the room for a book of poems called Sitting in
the River.  My father must have written most of them when I was quite
small, for he died when I was ten and the "scrap of child with
cloudy-sky eyes" who appears in some of the poems is probably me.
Simple, narrative monologues or brief word plays, the poems were a
dependable doorway back to the landscapes and personalities of a planet
past.  They gave me fine red dust of the dry season, voluptuously soft
to bare feet; village aunts in ancient acrylic dresses, attention
unevenly divided between the net racing screen, burning dinner, and
squabbling children.  Warnings--"Don't go near the river," and
inevitable shivering moonlight forays to the creek with friends whose
voices are now no more than faint flavors on the tongue of memory.

My father was a congenial but shadowy figure.  Eugene --he was a
novelist--used to leave at regular intervals on extended trips to
"clear things up," as he put it.  When he was at home he would read to
me extensively from whatever author had seized his fancy at the time,
and I enjoyed the attention, if not always the works themselves.  One
day he simply did not return.  I learned later that it was a traffic
accident, witnessed by the group of gypsies with whom he had been
travelling.  I was mainly angry at him for leaving my mother, who
seemed to find the loss tragic.  Which is why I said nothing when she
went to bury him without me.  Five years later I left to join the
Engineering Corps.

I couldn't find the poems.  It was a thin, battered paper hardcopy and
I hated to think it might be lost.  It would

probably be available on the literature database, but there are some
comforts only a real book can provide.  I did find another of his
books, though, behind the clothes locker next to my neglected running
shoes, but I didn't want to read Moths.  It is the story, presented in
diary form, of a minor official in one of the corrupt and violent
regimes of the late twentieth century.  Interspersed with actual
newspaper clippings and interviews of the period, it tells how this
ordinary man was involved in the abduction, incarceration, and torture
of thousands of innocent people.  He is not evil, and not particularly
weak or corrupt.  One cannot even say that he is twisted in some way or
rendered numb to suffering, because he does reflect on and repent his
actions-he is a practicing Christian.  Yet he is a party to these
terrible things.  There are parallels in Moths to our own situation
that chill me more than the story itself.  I put the book back into the
closet with a shudder.  Where the hell was Quartermaine?  I was overdue
at the Bubble.  Murdoch must be nearly ready to begin the operation to
get the Q'Chn to the docks, I shouldn't have let Murdoch go ahead with
his plan.  They didn't have enough firepower, not even after he'd taken
most of his best people off other work.  It was too dangerous for the
squad that would attempt to lure the Q'Chn up and into an airlock.  I
knew Murdoch would lead that squad himself, though he hadn't said so. I
remembered the warmth of his "big hand as he steadied me in corridors,
in the lift, going up a maintenance shaft.  I remembered his eventual
unfailing support in anything I had ever done on the station, and the
wave of panic that followed made me retch.  What would I do if he were
killed or badly injured?  I found I was crouched beside the bed biting
my nails.  This is ridiculous.  I have to get to the Bubble and at
least monitor what is happening.

The corridor outside my room was dark and deserted.  It looked like our
lighting had fallen victim to the system failures.  It happened as I
turned to check that the lock wasn't also malfunctioning.  A feeling
like a surge of physical energy that dissolved fear and depression in a
wash of well-being.  My face was suddenly flushed, hands and feet
suddenly warm.  There was nobody visible in the blue shadows.  But the
feeling was familiar--it was the effect of H'digh pheromones.  "Come
out, whoever you are.  I know you're there."  A H'digh warrior stepped
out from behind the next corner.  Even ten paces away, his pheromones
had worked their usual magic.  When I worked on Rhuarl, we'd taken
inhibitors daily.  I peered at the stranger's face, indeterminate in
the gloom.  They all look much alike.  "What do you want?"  I knew we
had only a few H'digh left on the station.  "You can make an
appointment..."  He padded one, two paces closer and I gasped.  It was
Henoit.  His voice was light as a breath, with nothing of a human's
timbre.  "Must I make an appointment to see my own wife?"

For a moment I couldn't move, couldn't speak.  It was like one of
those dreams where you freeze, unable to do anything to save
yourself.

"How ... what are you doing here?"  My voice rose on the words.

"Greetings, Halley," he said calmly.  He hadn't changed, not at all.

I needed to sit down.

"Come in here."  I reopened the door to my quarters and backed in ahead
of him, I flicked on the inside lock to stop anyone intruding and
continued until we were inside the common hallway.  Then I stopped to
try to get my breath.  It kept catching in my throat.

Henoit watched me carefully.  He stood quite still, long arms slack but
ready at his sides.  His short, skirted garment was in the bright
colors only a prince may wear, and the tattoos that curled down his
neck and along his back moved faintly with his pulse.

He was tall.  I didn't remember him being so tall.  He reached out--I
knew that knotted red hand, every sharp joint, every line.  He looked
exactly as he had the first day we met, at a marathon on Mars.  The
H'digh are a superlatively beautiful species; tall, slim, iron-muscled
hunters with smooth, red-brown skin.  Henoit showed no signs of the
ageing that comes on them suddenly after about fifty years of vigorous
youth.

I ignored the hand and folded my arms defensively.  "I'm not your wife.
Either by Earth or by Confederacy law.  Three complete solar rotations
with no interaction.  Finished."

They do not show much facial expression, but he seemed disconcerted.
"H'digh law does not recognize annulment of a marriage contract, even
with the death of one party."  He stepped closer.  I could feel the
warmth of him and sense the pheromones that take humans unaware.  I
felt heat flushing through my checks.

"Too bad."  My heart thudded in an irregular rhythm.  "We're not on
Rhuarl now.  This is my station and you are an intruder."

"I had hoped to be admitted as a guest."  He took one step closer and I
held up a shaking hand.

"How did you get here?"  I should call Security but I still couldn't
believe this was happening.

He said nothing, just watched me with that calculating stare.  "How did
you get here, Henoit?"  I couldn't take my eyes off his face.  Seven
years ago those high, flat cheekbones and long eyes had been important
enough to marry.  A long time ago.  I hadn't said his name aloud for
seven years.

"I approached this station using the dust tail of the comet as cover,
an old stalking trick."

I didn't know whether to laugh or cry at the irony.  We had been so
preoccupied with exploiting the dust tail to sneak out of the system we
hadn't even considered that someone might use it to sneak in.  At least
his arrival confirmed that the Seouras sensors as well as our own were
blocked by the phenomenon.  We could either wait for another comet or
try to duplicate its effects ourselves.

"Where's your ship now?  You just parked it in the docks?"

"It is concealed under a vessel already docked.  You will only detect
the signature of the larger ship."  He knew all

the tricks--most H'digh warriors do.  But there are few of them in Con
Fleet Despite their reputation as warriors, the H'digh maintain no
formal military institutions.  The major clans are held together by
loyalty to the clan lords, and the clans gave up fighting among
themselves nearly a millennium ago when they discovered how much more
interesting it was to battle a variety of aliens.  The H'digh are not
sun-ply warriors--they are canny traders and astounding artists as
well--but their culture does refute the old human adage that any
species advanced enough to achieve space flight must also be
intelligent enough to give up aggression.  "Halley ..."  How strange to
hear my name in his voice and how familiar it sounded.  "I bring you a
proposal."  I got the impression they were not the words he had first
intended to say.  God, he's really here.  My ex-spouse, one-time
ambassadorial assistant to Earth, successor to one of the H'digh ruling
clans.  "What's your proposal?"  He stepped closer and I stepped back,
nose and ears tingling.  Those pheromones can be tricky.  "You have a
problem with these Seouras."  "Did the Confederacy send you?  Why
didn't you tell us you were here until now?  What's happening in the
Confederacy?"  He watched me with topaz eyes, vertical pupils like a
cat.  He never quite looked at me straight; to do so was an aggressive
act for the H'digh.  "The Confederacy was unprepared when this station
was taken.  They did not, I am told, intend to uphold your treaty but
used the breathing space to gather information about the Seouras.  The
Seouras, we presume, did the same."

"The treaty seemed the right thing to do at the time."  It's going to
haunt me for the rest of my life.

"Perhaps if there had been more time to get used to the idea more
people would agree with you.  Many think you engineered the whole
thing."

"What!  Why should I... ?"

"It is unlikely, considering that you are trapped here also.  Besides,
none of those people know you personally.  The point is that the treaty
muddies the issue."

"What do you mean?"  I felt a slow anger begin to burn.  While we have
been desperately trying to survive out here, they have had time to play
with rumors at Central.

"Normally, if you can call this state of affairs normal, the invasion
of Confederacy space and blockade of one of its facilities by an alien
power would demand instant reprisals.  But because you granted them
access to the system"

"Peaceful access.  They broke the terms of the treaty as soon as they
initiated hostilities."

"It took a while for the news to reach Con Central  Much of it was
garbled, rumors only.  Until an official investigation was sent and
repulsed by Seouras ships nobody knew what had really happened.  Only
that they were here."  He made an elegant gesture encompassing the
station.

"Because we couldn't communicate with Central it was assumed we'd set
up the whole thing?"  I didn't know whether to be more hurt or angry.
"Didn't anyone trust us?"

"As I said, there were some.  On Earth, voices are raised to demand Con
Fleet do something to get the station back."

"So what happens to us?"  I had the sick, sinking feeling that the
pawn gets before being sacrificed to make a good game.  Henoit has
confirmed everyone's worst nightmare --we are expendable.  There was
silence, his breathing disciplined and inaudible, mine harsh and uneven
as though I'd just finished our marathon again.  I could recall every
detail of that run as if it were yesterday.  He had been a superb
runner, intelligent and tireless.  The red dust on Mars had settled on
his smooth red skin like the fuzz on a peach.  He drew his hand across
his chest in an elegant negative.  "You misunderstand.  I did not come
from the Confederacy."  "Where ... ?"  "I am a member of the New
Council of Free Worlds."  I'd heard of this group, in pre-Seouras days.
It was large, well organized, and not above using violence to achieve
its ends.  "So you finally found a group who agree with your aims." 
"We want equality for each member of the Confederacy.  Otherwise it is
a confederacy in name only.  Surely you agree the present system is
unjust?"  "How is it unjust?"  I needed time to think.  "The Four
Worlds control the flow of resources and the diffusion of
technology--such things as the hyperspace jump technology--so important
to us all.  The Inner Council has members only from the Four Worlds and
they have the right to veto any decision by the Outer Council.  Yet the
Outer Council has members from all thirteen worlds."  He made a
graceful gesture of persuasion.  "You don't find this strange?"  "Jump
technology and most of its spinoffs came from the Four Worlds in the
first place," I said slowly.  "Didn't your planet ask to be admitted to
the Confederacy?" "Yes.  And I do not regret that, neither do I wish to
take us back to the old days."  He sounded as sincere as he ever did. 
"What do you want to do?"  "We want the Inner Council to realize that
they cannot continue to do this to us.  We have the right to be treated
as equals."  That sounded good, and in principle I agreed.  But if in
practice it meant allowing free use of jump technology to aggressors
like the H'digh and the Ohedrhim, to offer the far reaches of space to
the Dir to bargain for, to give my own quarrelsome species further
territory on other planets before we had evolved a method of ensuring
unity on our own planet... I'd never been able to muster enthusiasm for
the idea.  "Did you come all this way to continue our debates?"  I said
sourly.  He inclined his head slightly downwards, a sign of annoyance. 
"Join us."  I stared at him.  "In return we will drive away the
Seouras."  The enormity of what he was saying overwhelmed me.  "What do
you want with Jocasta?" "We want it as a base.  It is far enough from
Sector Central to keep our movements secret, and large enough to be
useful.  Once the Seouras are pushed back, we have a trade network
already in place."

"We're not a military base.  We don't have the defense
capabilities."

"We don't need them."

"But with your people here it would be a Con Fleet target."  I was
arguing on autopilot, unable to register his replies properly.

He had that puzzled look again.  "There are always sacrifices."

"How do I know you can do what you claim?"

"I will show you strategic proofs as soon as you agree."

"I can't even consider it without some proof."  I stalled.

He tapped the counter slowly.  Not impatient--hunters are never
impatient.  "What do you have to lose?  Halley, the Confederacy left
you to make whatever defense you could against these aliens.  They're
waiting to see what happens.  You don't owe them anything."

"I don't owe you anything either."

"You don't have to do it for me.  Do it for the station."

Dammit, he could always argue rings around me.  Always knew which
buttons to push.  "Think about it."  With unerring tactical instinct,
he withdrew, and was at the door before I surfaced.

"Hey!"  I couldn't get between him and the door without getting a lot
closer than I wanted to.  "You can't go now."

"I will not leave the station until you give me your reply."

"You bet you won't.  You'll have to stay in custody."  If he had been a
human, he would have smiled condescendingly."That might prove
difficult."  The door opened obediently.  "I will talk to you again
soon."

"I can't let you walk around here."

"Why not?"

"You're an illegal entrant, for a start."

"Spoken like a Melot."

I jiggled one foot in frustration.  "I need to be able to contact
you."

"I'll contact you."

"Listen."  I rounded on him, angry and frustrated.  "If you want me to
trust your stories, you've got to give me some trust too."

"I trust you, Halley."  His cat's eyes flicked to mine and away again.
"Or I wouldn't be here.  But not the Confederacy."

"What are you worried about?  The Confederacy is thousands of
light-years away."

"It's here too.  It's everything this station is--the Q'chn with its
slaves, the Invidi who never do their own dirty work, the Melot who run
your life ... Con Fleet as a threat of violence, the poverty and
helplessness of the other species.  It's all here.  And you still
believe in it, don't you?"

I nodded.  Yes, I do.  I'd always believed in the ideal.

"Well, I've lost my faith, wife.  So wait for me to contact you."  The
door shut.  I reached out to the comm link to call Security, but it
would be a waste of time.  By the time they got here, Henoit would have
disappeared into the mass of bio signals in the lower station. 
Besides, the best of the Security personnel were in Sigma right now
trying to trap the Q'Chn.  They didn't need distractions..

Quartermaine

I had to get up to the Bubble, find out how Murdoch and his team were
going.  Henoit would have to wait.  He said he would wait.

I wasted time at the ring lift which was slower than usual.  I hoped
this system wouldn't go down too.  It shouldn't-the access nodes were
in Delta and it was well maintained.

What did Henoit really want?  He wouldn't come all this way without a
good reason, and gaining a base in the sector might qualify as one.  I
needed to know how strong this New Council had become, whether Jocasta
was isolated enough to protect us from Con Fleet reprisals if we did
join them, how Earth would react, and, most importantly, whether Henoit
could deliver on his promise to drive away the Seouras.  The gray ships
had easily overcome our feeble defenses when they first attacked.

Once here, he was unlikely to return without results.  Which meant that
if I refused to join them, he would get the same result, the hard
way--by taking the station by some other means.  I had no illusions
about Henoit's ruthlessness, although if I were perfectly honest with
myself I might have hoped he'd volunteered for the mission so he could
see me.

Seven years ago I fell for him completely, and no wonder --a sexy alien
prince telling me I was his soul mate.  I'd had a couple of
unsuccessful human relationships and wanted to put them behind me. 
Henoit had trouble gaining the acceptance of the first official
human-H'digh union from his family, but it didn't really matter as his
political views estranged him from them anyway.  During the first year
we only met once every month or two because of my Con Fleet job.  Then
I was appointed overseer on a big project in the H'digh home system and
we started to live together.

Memories came rolling back--he was tidy and particular, I was messy and
clumsy.  He was dependent on routine, I would blitz on a problem until
it was solved then laze for days.  God knows how we'd ever lived
together.  I once asked him what happened when H'digh couples had
habits that drove each other mad.  Absolute monogamy would appear to be
a constricting philosophy.  But Henoit had answered that often such
couples lived apart.  It made no difference to the fact of being a
mate.

Forever and always.  I never really understood it.  How can there be
only one person who is the other half of your soul?  It works for the
H'digh but goes against human practices and inclinations.  Nobody, it
seems, makes a mistake in choosing their mate.  An entire planet full
of hopeless romantics.  Ridiculous.

After a few months living together, though, Henoit's politics began to
get him into trouble.  He was leader of the most radical,
anti-Confederacy faction on Rhuarl, one that was associated with the
revival of the old armed resistance movement that had opposed the
Q'chn when they arrived in the H'digh system a century ago.  I came
under pressure from my superiors and Con Fleet Security began watching
me.  We disagreed in private too.  He assumed I was as discontented as
he, and I could never really see the point of what he was doing.

Our differences came to a head with an incident in which a Q'chn trader
was murdered by the armed resistance group and Henoit's party didn't
disown the connection between them and the group.  Henoit privately
admitted to me mat he was part of the conspiracy.  He seemed to think
I'd leave Con Fleet and join them.  It didn't help either that I knew
the murdered trader, who was the owner of a fleet, and I'd worked for
it in the inner systems when I was on contract.  I began to live on the
project site rather than return to Rhuarl and when the job finished, I
left.

The ring lift reached the Bubble at last.  The late-night faces on the
upper level were not as familiar as those from Alpha shift.  A Con
Fleet lieutenant on the center console nodded formally to me as I came
in.

I asked her how the Security operation was going and she checked a
screen before replying that it was running smoothly so far.  I was so
distracted by thoughts of Henoit and worry about Murdoch's team that I
sat down at the console and called up data before realizing she needed
the screen.  I apologized and went into my office to settle down.

Veatch was sitting at my desk, the 2D screen of my desk interface
active in front of him,

I was so shocked that my first emotion was simply embarrassment--at
walking in on him and also embarrassment for him.  How undignified to
be caught spying on your boss's interface.

"What are you doing?"  I tried to keep my voice calm.  There was
probably a perfectly reasonable explanation.

"Commander Halley."  He had already begun to turn at the sound of the
door and was standing now, smoothing his trousers automatically,
seemingly more distracted than anything.  I took three steps into the
room, which brought me nearly to the desk.  "Well?"  He'd been looking
at an access file--the password module's distinctive string was still
flashing.

"I... I wished to access a document in your files."  "Why can't you do
it from your office?"

"The damage to your interface has caused difficulties in connections
..."  His eyes were so carefully averted from the screen that I looked
more closely.

"This isn't an administrative file.  It's personal mail."

Short silence while I waited for a better excuse.  Then he shook his
head slightly, as if waking from a momentary nap, antennae bobbing.

"I wish to speak to you about this issue."  He looked at the chair. "It
may take some time."

"Speak away."  I was still unable to believe he was doing anything
wrong.  Although Walsh, for one, had obviously had suspicions.  I
should have listened to her.

He regained a little of his usual poise and placed a hand on the chair.
"May I?"

I circled behind the desk, keeping an eye on the screen, but he made no
move towards it We both sat.

"In a way, I am relieved mat you are here," he began.

"Why?"

"May I tell you die whole story?"  When I nodded, he continued.  "It
started when Sector Central was not pleased with the establishment of
Jocasta as an Earth base.  This was seen as a purely political move,
liable to prove costly in terms of personnel, maintenance, and
protection."  "They were right Except that they never spent more than a
fraction of what they promised here..."  "No," he interrupted.  "Which
made the prophecy self-fulfilling.  To continue, when the post of
station manager was created, it was felt that the appointment should be
filled by an official sympathetic to Central's concerns."  "You spied
on us--me--for them."  He hesitated only a moment.  "Yes."  I couldn't
say I was surprised, but the fact left a bitter taste on the tongue. 
"Did you send them everything, or did they ask you for specifics?" 
"There was no information here to interest the Security division of
Central. I merely provided regular reports.  I presume they were passed
on when necessary."  "They were waiting for us to screw up."  Which
would prove, once and for all, that the Nine Worlds were unable to
operate as full members of the Confederacy.  "But you did not."  I was
glad he thought so.  It all looked pretty screwed from where I stood. 
"The trader Trillith somehow acquired knowledge of my semi-official
reports to Central and began to demand information in return for not
informing station Security."  "It blackmailed you?"J "Essentially, yes.
This did not seriously affect the quality or frequency of my reports
at first, but gradually Trilith's demands became excessive.  My
superiors and I had decided to end the arrangement when the Seouras
invaded and cut off communications.  In this new situation I would have
been in an untenable position if Trillith brought evidence of our
collusion to your attention."  His deadpan delivery and strange
emphases made it sound like a status report rather than a confession.

I rubbed my neck in dismay.  He did not sound particularly guilty.  I'd
heard that every senior member of the bureaucracy played politics as
well.  It indicated they were serious about their jobs.

"Sector, I can understand," I said.  "Just.  But dealing with Trillith
might have compromised the safety of the station.  You should have cut
your losses and stopped."

"With hindsight, you may be right," he agreed, as though we'd merely
decided to order an extra set of plascopy for hard files  His reaction
was infuriating.

"This is all we need.  How often have you mucked about in my
interface?"

His antennae were stiff.  "Never.  You would know, of course.  Your
ability in the AI field is at least equal to my own."

"So what's different this time?"  Had he wanted to be caught?  He'd
certainly been very careless.

He hesitated, hands clasped in an unfamiliar pattern, antennae
twitching.

"I came here early this morning.  The scan in your quarters informed me
that you had risen and I assumed you were here."

Early this morning.  I'd been talking to Murdoch about Keveth's
murder.

"Didn't you check the comm link indicator?"

"It was offline."  Too likely to dispute and easily provable with a
glance at the tech logs "Go on."  "I needed to access a file that had
been sent to you most inappropriately by a junior member of the
Employment Bureau."  Unprovable, but what did it matter now?  I looked
at him but couldn't see any change in his face.  "And you couldn't
wait?"  "I did not wait.  The interface was on standby and I attempted
to find the file."  I'd come back to the office the night before to
save a brief report on the Seouras meeting.  It was quite possible I'd
failed to log out afterwards, considering how tired I'd been. Obviously
I haven't been in administration long enough to develop the right kind
of paranoia.  "A particular screen came up as I searched," Veatch
continued.  "It must have been programmed to appear immediately after
the interface was activated."  He probably had hell's own trouble
finding anything in my de-modified interface.  "It was a letter from
Mr. Quartermaine."  The temperature of the room seemed to drop.  "You
had obviously not seen it," his voice continued through the buzzing in
my ears.  "What letter?"  I swung the monitor around and began to scan
my personal files.  "You still have not seen it?"  Veatch's level tones
made the question a statement.  "I suspected as much from your
behavior.  I did want to inform you but to do so would have put me in
disadvantageous position, so I was attempting to bring the letter to
your attention when you walked in."  Once a letter had been read, it
saved itself automatically to the Pending files, not an area to which I
devote a lot of attention.  I barely cope with Urgent.  "Here."  Veatch
peered over my shoulder and dipped his antennae.  "That is the letter."
I shot him a dirty look and opened it, heart thudding and stomach in
throat.

Halley dearest.  I'm sending this to you because, frankly, I don't have
the courage to come and tell you in person.  I'm not sure how safe that
would be for either of us anyway.  Brin was sitting at the desk in his
quarters, sideways on the edge of the chair as though he'd recorded the
message as an afterthought on his way somewhere.  He was dressed,
strangely, in a plain black jumpsuit and his hair was mussed.  It's ten
o'clock in the evening and I'm sitting here stewing.  I've decided to
wait until midnight--it seems an appropriate hour for possibly
nefarious activities.  I know you won't see this until morning so I'll
send it off before I go.  Only I didn't see it this morning, being too
preoccupied with Keveth's murder, the Q'Chn, and the Sleepers.  I
looked at Veatch.  He was listening to-Quartermaine intently.  The
Master sent me... no, asked me to do something for him.  He said the
next few sentences quickly, looking down.  He needs something from an
area of the station he can't easily enter.  It's a storage bay in
Sigma.  He's given me tools to get in.  Then stared straight at the
screen.  There was a long, deep furrow of concern between his neatly
clipped brows. I'm sorry about this, Halley.  He says it's for all of
us, for you in particular.  He says I don't need to know the details. 
I'm not certain that this is the right thing to do.  The famous
intuition isn't working at the moment.  But he's never lied to me
before and why should he now? Maybe I'll find the answer in whatever it
is he wants--I don't think he's sure himself.  He says it's
nlitri--"information" is the closest translation, although it covers
everything from a memo to prophecy--/ presume it's on a chip or other
data storage device.  I've got another gizmo to locate it, in any case.
His body language was stiff and uncomfortable, and there was a little
pause between each sentence as though he had to force himself to
continue.  He didn't want to oblige An Bank, but he had.  He spread his
palms in a charming gesture of contrition.  Don't be too cross with me.
I have to do what he says, and as you've spent some time with Invidi
you won't need to ask why. Besides, he's promised to tell me what it's
all about once I get the nlitri, and you know what a sucker I am for
information, He shrugged. I thought this was the best way to let you
know what was going on and to give you time to think.  I won't leave
any traces and otherwise you mightn't know what has happened.  It's up
to you whether you confront him with it or not.  I don't recommend it
but I know you will.  He looked down for a long moment then smiled at
the screen.  I'd rather not be present when you do because this isn't
easy.  I'm caught between two people of whom I'm very fond, and I hate
to betray you by doing this, and him by telling you about it.  Let's
just get together when things have settled down and laugh about it, si?
 Bye for now.

I sat back with a sigh and drummed both hands on the desk.  If I'd seen
this earlier I could have confronted the Invidi with it.  An Barik had
lied to me about the lock breaker being his.  Murdoch was
right--Quartermaine had opened the doors to the storage bay using an
Invidi device, not stolen but received from the owner with orders to
steal something from the wreck of a hundred-year-old ship.  What
"information" could be so important?  How could information on a
hundred-year-old ship benefit the Invidi?  Would Quartermaine go back
to An Barik from wherever he was now?  Maybe he had finished the task
and was waiting to give this nlitri to An Barik.  Maybe he'd already
done so.

I turned to Veatch, who had retreated to the other side of the desk
again.  "Why didn't you tell me?"

He leaned back slightly.  "One, I did not wish my past indiscretions
brought to your attention'.  Two, I believed that we could use the
information to put pressure on the Invidi."

"We?"

"Trillith and myself."

This sounded bad.  "You told Trillith?"

"Yes.  As Q'chn representative, it is the obvious choice to confront
the Invidi.  As well as myself."

"I don't suppose you considered the head of station an obvious choice?"
I said, exasperated.  "Veatch, the way you've made these decisions is
totally unacceptable ..."  I gritted my teeth against the anger.  Now
we knew who'd leaked information to Trillith.  And so much for Trillith
being the victim of a frame-up.  He was in this as deep as anyone.

"Why did you want to put pressure on the Invidi?"  I said.

He shifted back a little more.  Was he afraid I'd take a swing at him?
"We felt that the Invidi might have a way to break our stalemate with
the Seouras."

That stopped me for a moment.  I've often thought the same.  "Did you
go to nun?"  "No."  Veatch made the same evil-eye gesture I'd seen him
make before.  "News of the Q'Chn precluded contact"

"How did you intend to 'pressure' the Invidi?"  I couldn't help
asking.

Veatch shifted in his seat almost furtively.  "I, er, believe Trillith
intended to borrow any means of communication with the Confederacy."

So they were thieves as well as traitors.  What a mess.  Intrigue and
betrayal even before the Q'Chn arrived... Wait a moment.  We knew
Trillith had seen Keveth that afternoon.

"Did Trillith say anything about Keveth?"

"Keveth?"  Veach's fingers twitched and he put his hands in his lap.
"Yes.  In fact, after the scans revealed Q'Chn residue it once more
suggested to Trillith that we go to the Invidi immediately."  He
stopped.

"But?"

"But Trillith refused.  It said there was a greater prize at stake.  It
said that it knew who asked Keveth to go to the storage bay."

"Does Trillith know where the Q'Chn is?"

"I doubt it."  He sounded definite.  "But it knows who asked Keveth to
get the Q'Chn."

"That still doesn't tell us where Quartermaine is now."  I could have
yelled with frustration.  "What if you've endangered him by telling
Trillith?"

His antennae drooped.  "I acted in the way that was mine at the time.
Quartermaine, too, acted in a less than dutiful manner.  It was his
way.  I am not responsible for his actions, nor those of Trillith."

I closed my eyes briefly.  Sometimes it is all too difficult to even
try to understand.

"You can give a statement to Chief Murdoch.  I'm going to talk to An
Barik.  And then we're all going to talk to Trillith."

He seemed satisfied.  Protocols were being followed.

"What's Quartermaine been doing all day?"  I continued.  "Why didn't he
come forward?"

The interface blipped and the polite message You have incoming mail lit
up the screen briefly.  The coincidence was eerie enough to straighten
my spine with a shiver.

"Open ..."  I began, then remembered the lack of oral interaction.  I
touched the Accept pad.

Halley, I hope to god you're there.  I dar en risk the comm channels.

Quartermaine was dressed in the same dark clothes but he was
dishevelled and hollow-eyed.  He peered into the

screen, probably a public booth, continuously glancing back over his
shoulder as he spoke.  I've been hanging around all day as per orders.
Whose orders?  Meet me near the entrance to the Smoke, and come
quickly.  I'll wait until you come, because I'd rather you have it.  I
think I know why he wants the nlitri and I don't agree.  He touched a
side pocket and glanced around.  He told me to bring it back, but I
said I'd lost it.  Please hurry.  He kissed his fingers and touched
them to the screen, all the while watching over his shoulders.  Bye.

End of message.

Second Day: midnight

I looked at Veatch.

"What's the time?"

He looked at his file pad--he knows the station timer in my interface
is out.

"Eleven fifty-nine."

I made a quick copy of Quartermaine's transmissions, saved and sent
them to Murdoch's interface, slapping on the strictest security rating
I could think of in the circumstances.  Then I pushed away from the
desk and rushed to the door in a clatter of plascopy files, crystals,
and empty coffee cups.

"You too," I yelled over my shoulder.  I didn't want Veatch left in my
office alone.  Dammit, I should have been more conscious of security.

The Bubble staff stared at us as we ran out.

The karrikar was too slow.  I fidgeted, checked the controls, glared at
Veatch.  Once I'd talked to Quartermaine, Veatch could explain his role
in this to Murdoch.  An Bank had some explaining to do too.  What was
this nlitri he wanted Quartermaine to retrieve for him?  He should
have

asked me for access to the salvage instead of going through this whole
charade.  I thought of calling Murdoch but he was up in the center
playing tag with the Slasher and could do nothing.  There were bound to
be some Security personnel in the Hill if we needed backup.  Backup
against whom?  Brin hadn't sounded scared of An Barik in
particular--more a generalized fear.  Unless we'd all been wrong and
the Invidi was behind everything after all.  Perhaps someone else had
found out Quartermaine had been in the storage bay that
night--Trillith's interview would have told anyone-and was on his
trail.  What did he have in his pocket?  In his second message Brin had
said, "He told me to bring it back."  Presumably "he" was An Barik and
"it" was either the "other gizmo" of the first message or the nlitri
itself.  My heart pounded faster with excitement--this was what linked,
for whatever reason, the Sleeper ship and An Barik and Keveth's murder
by the Q'Chn.  It was about time we found out what all the fuss was
about.  The only recent arrival, I remembered with a small shock, who
was unconnected to the contents of Brin's pocket was Henoit.

We got out near the entrance to the Smoke.  The festival was in full
swing.  The press of people, the blare of conflicting music, and the
cacophony of voices were all twice as bad as when I'd been down here
earlier.  The noise and movement coupled with the erratic blue night
lights, flashes, and fl&es in other colors all served to make dark
corners even darker.  Glancing back over my shoulder occasionally to
make sure Veatch followed I rushed on, panting in the heat.

Quartermaine had said "near the entrance to the Smoke."  That could
mean the main airlock, which had two corridors feeding into the lobby
in front of it, or either of the two side entries, one of which was
blocked off from normal use while the other was barely used.  Both of
these side entries opened onto narrow corridors and alleys in the back
lanes of the Hill.

On our left rose the great curved box of the spoke base, where we'd
left the karrikar, and behind us spread the dark warren of the Hill.
The throughways were too crowded to navigate quickly.  I kept bumping
into people gathered in groups to drink or talk, and they didn't
appreciate it.  The erratic lights hid tables and chairs until I
crashed into them and children kept running in front of me.  The noise
was too loud for anyone to hear my muttered apologies.

"Drunk in uniform," someone said.  Other people at the table laughed
hilariously.

About fifty meters from the Smoke entrance I glimpsed the olive backs
of four Security guards.  They were in the middle of the throughway
talking to a woman.  I looked around and after a moment located
Veatch's antennae flat with misery about twenty meters behind me.  With
a wave for him to catch up, I reached the guards.  Sergeant Kwon looked
up in surprise.

"Commander Halley?"

I had to gulp tepid air before I could answer.

"I'm looking for Quartermaine.  Have you seen him?  He left me a
message saying he'd wait for me near here."

Kwon looked at the other three, two sturdy young women and a tall man,
and they all shook their heads.

"Sorry, we've only just got over here.  Somebody said they'd seen
Jones and we came to check it out."

An alarm rang in my mind.  That sounded like another coincidence.

"I'm going over to the Smoke entrance anyway.  When you've finished,
send one of your people to join me.  And take Mr.  Veatch back to Main
Security, would you?  He's got something urgent to tell the Chief."  I
spared a quick prayer that Murdoch would survive up in the center to
talk to Veatch, then started shoving my way through the crowd again.

Seconds later I felt a touch on my elbow.

"I'll come with you now, ma'am."  The tall guard indicated politely
that I should move aside.  "I'll take point."  He moved ahead of me and
began to clear a path along the throughway far more efficiently than I
had.  Jeers of annoyance and shouted abuse followed us but I didn't
care.

It happened when we were within ten meters of the end.  Where the row
of dwellings fronting onto the throughay finished was a cross way and
beyond, the outside wall of the Smoke and the space in front of the
airlock entry.  The airlock itself was invisible around the corner.

There was a flash of color from above.  I looked up to see if someone
was flying illegally and the Q'Chn was there in front of us.

Almost in slow motion it reached the deck.  Huge.  Poised.
Beautiful-piece of reaching, flexing, living architecture.  It had
wings.  Nobody told us it had wings.

In the same Instant blood was arcing from the headless neck of a human
"Who had been standing there.  The body began to topple and the stream
of blood spattered the surrounding tables and people at the same
moment.  The scene broke up.

Screams.  Tables toppled, chairs and food went flying.  People ran
towards us away from the monster, yelling and falling over each other.
But the panic had not yet spread back along the throughway and the
crowd became a seething mass of shrieking, yelling arms and legs as
they could retreat no further.

The Security whistle blew behind us.

"Get down!"

"Look out!"  They'd never get a clear shot past the crowd.

Doors grated as people forced their way into dwellings, anything to get
out of the range of the spindly rainbow killer as it stalked one, two
rhythmic paces this way.  "It's coming!"  "Oh god, oh god, oh god."  A
woman crouched behind my knees and made herself into a ball to escape
the blows of the crowd.  I nearly fell over her myself, then pulled her
roughly beside me as the security guard pushed me to the side of the
throughway where a heavy metal flange offered the possibility of
cover.

"Call Main Security!"  I yelled at the guard over the screams, my eyes
fined helplessly on the Slasher.

"Kwon will.  We're too close."  He shoved me against the wall and
peered around the flange.  I left the woman and looked too.

The Q'Chn lowered its head and the great wings--like single links of
soft chain--spread once, closed again.  The head tipped sideways, then
it turned with unbelievable swiftness and was gone around the corner to
the Smoke.

The panic had spread like a flame in oxygen and the crowds behind us
were falling back into the Hill.  The red alert siren rose in shrill
whoops, compounding the noise.

"Commander!  Are you all right?"  Kwon forced his way against the
faster flow of the crowd, his body sideways.

"Yes.  Clear the area!"  I yelled above the noise of that damned siren.
I thought of Quartermaine and hoped he'd heard the screams and run the
other way.

"Where are you going?"  Kwon grabbed my arm as I started half running
towards the corner.  Quartermaine said he'd wait for me around that
corner.

"I have to see..."  I shook him off and kept going.  Past the upturned
tables and blood-spattered remains of meals.  Past a couple of people
sitting or lying groaning where the crowd had left them.  Slipping in
the seeping red that surrounded that first mutilated body.

Two of the guards were covering me from close behind.  The young woman
muttered to herself as she walked.  We reached the corner and looked
around.

We saw blood and bodies and the Q'Chn at the main airlock entry turning
towards us.

The lights went out.

"Scatter!"  yelled Kwon and I felt someone brush me as they dived away.
I did the same, jumping backwards towards where I hoped the closest
doorway was.  Before I'd even half completed the motion, a violent gust
knocked me a different way and something hit me in the small of the
back with enough force to wind me completely.  I slid down the wall,
unable to move.

The siren whoop led

"Lights!  Emergency lights!"  It was the other security guard, the tall
one.  "Medics over here!"

Footsteps pounded faintly below the siren.  Great timing for the
lights to go.  I sucked in a couple of breaths that hurt below the
stomach and stood shakily with one hand on the wall, dizzy in the dark.
There had been bodies on the deck in front of the airlock, human
bodies.  Blue night lights fluttered on in a few places, but not enough
to illuminate properly.  I was facing the throughay we'd come along
earlier.  Wrong way, turn around.  Small, bright weaving points of
light suggested the right way was in the opposite direction.  Somebody
turn off that bloody alarm.  The moving points of light were attached
to people, crouched or standing over things on the deck.

I crouched, too, beside the nearest body.  The medic shone his light
briefly on my face then shook his head and mouthed something against
the siren.

"What?"  I yelled back, and he drew a hand briefly across his throat,
then went over to a different body.

The alarm stopped.

Into the vast silence broke a woman's cry, a wail of lost hope.  Back
in the throughway.  Someone stood beside me and shone a light on what
remained of the corpse's face.

"That's Mr.  Quartermaine, isn't it?"  said Sergeant Kwon.  "We've got
Jones back there too."

The waiting kept on.  Or it might have just been inside my head.

"Halley?"

I swung around at Murdoch's call.  The lights were still half
functional in the Hill so it was difficult to see his expression, but
his voice was shocked.  "Is this where it got in?"

I nodded.  We stood in front of one of the maintenance hatches.  Here,
the main entry hatch for this tunnel area had been forced half off its
attachment and hung at an acute angle to the deck.  A team of
white-suited med techs were packing up their equipment in front of it
and beside them another group, this time of engineers, waited
impatiently with their own equipment.

"It can fit into the main tunnels.  I don't know how."  I saw again the
height of the Q'Chn--it must have been at least three meters tall.  And
those wings spread twice, three times that.  It must be able to fold
its limbs and body flat That would make sense in a creature designed to
take over enemy spaceships, the only access to which is often through
tunnels like these.  _ "We're closing all emergency containment doors
over recycling entrances," I continued, eyes on the engineering team,
which had begun to sever the damaged hatch.  "It's only a stopgap
measure, and a lot of them need to be done manually because of the
system failures, so we're looking at a couple of hours before it's all
done."  Murdoch was looking at me rather than the hatch.  "Let's go
back to Security," he suggested, raising his voice above the whirr of
the engineering equipment.  He turned and walked away.  I followed,
reluctantly.  I'd have preferred to stay there and stare at the hatch
in hope of inspiration.  Murdoch's team had pulled out of the center as
soon as they heard of the Q'Chn's appearance in Delta.  By the time
they got here, though, the Q'Chn had disappeared, presumably back the
way it had come.  Its sensor jamming continued, and we still had not
been able to get the main internal sensor grid up and running to
counteract this.  I blamed Q'Chn sabotage for the grid malfunction, but
it could have been part of our usual op sys problems.  It was still
dark throughout most of the section around the Smoke.  The mess of
furniture and belongings in the throughway had been partially cleared,
shoved aside against the walls and doorways as Engineering and Security
personnel arrived.  Blue night lights were on in patches, and some of
them were flickering.  The loiterers and vendors were nowhere to be
seen.  Shopfronts lining the main throughway were battened down, and a
few people gathered in front of them in excited little groups that
dispersed as quickly as they formed.  Some rushed to and fro carrying
pieces of luggage, furniture, children.  Fragments of conversation
flickered between them.  "... right below us ..."  "They're coming in
ships ..."  "... only if you can get in ..."

"Security's less than useless."  The man who made the last comment saw
Murdoch at the last minute and backed away sheepishly.  Murdoch scowled
after him.

The number of people in the throughways grew as we left the immediate
area of the Q'Chn's appearance.  At least three cannoned into me and
rushed away again without apology.  It was unbearably stuffy and seemed
hotter than usual.  When I loosened my collar, my trembling fingers
touched stiff, faintly sticky patches on die material.  Blood,
someone's blood.  Erin's blood.  I was glad the gloom hid my face from
Murdoch.  I didn't want him to see me struggle for control.

Something moved above head height and I started violently and bumped
back into Murdoch before realizing what it was--another piece of red
material had been flung from a second-story window to join the first
long banner of supplication stuck flat against the wall.

The day lights had come on in places here and more people milled in
groups.

"Where are they?"  A squat woman with head covered in a patterned scarf
blocked my path.  She thrust her face urgently into mine.  Her skin was
greasy with sweat and worry carved two sharp lines between her eyes.
"When are they coming?"

I knew her.  She owned one of the food stalls near the marketplace.
"Nothing's coming," I said.  "We've got everything under control.  You
mustn't panic."

"What do you expect?"  she snapped back, hands on hips.  "Nobody tells
us anything!  People are saying you're too busy protecting the upper
levels to worry about us down here."

"That's not true!  Security ..."  "Security do something for us?"  she
interrupted.  "Don't make me laugh!  We reckon they'll let the SI--...
them do the dirty work and clean up the Hill scum.  Then they can all
live happily ever after with their own kind."  Several other people
muttered agreement.  We were suddenly the center of a growing crowd.

"That's ridiculous."  I couldn't find the right words.  "If the
situation were that bad we'd evacuate everyone in danger, no matter
what level."

The lines between the woman's eyes stayed.  "You could at least tell us
what's going on."

"We can't make an announcement because the Delta comm grid is down,"
said Murdoch beside me.  His deep voice and large presence calmed the
crowd.  "Go back to your block reps and ask them--they'll be getting
messages to pass on to you.  And settle down.  There's no need for
alarm."

They backed away grudgingly and we continued.

"It's a mess," growled Murdoch.  "Tank everywhere.  People are moving
away from the Hill.  You'd think they'd realize there's nowhere to go.
All we can do is make sure nobody gets hurt in the crush.  Most of the
transport is down."

We reached the Hill Security building and went inside.  Past the crowds
at the entrance who all tried to talk to Murdoch, past the people
thronging the lobby who were all trying to talk to the desk sergeant at
once, into the blessed peace of Murdoch's office.  It was such a relief
to be in a familiar place away from the crowds that I had to fight a
ridiculous desire to burst into tears.

Murdoch was already behind his desk, trying various

surveillance and comm systems.  I reached for one of the other chairs
and sat, knees suddenly trembling.  Murdoch looked up and muttered
something, then rummaged beside the desk and lifted up a heat jar out
of which he poured a cup of what looked like tea.  He shoved it across
the desk, careless of spills.

"Go on, drink it."  he urged.  "Best thing for shock."

My hands shook more tea onto the floor than went into my stomach, but
it did have a calming effect.  I could force myself to think
straight.

"Any sign of the Q'Chn?"

He shook his head.  "Nope.  No reliable reports.  Looks like it's gone
back to wherever it's been waiting."

The best thing to do would have been to immediately shut off the Hill
section above decks as we'd already done with the under-deck section,
but by the time everyone was evacuated, the Q'Chn would have had ample
time to go elsewhere.  Besides, where would we put everyone?

What were we going to do?  All I could think of was, wave a red flag
and surrender.

"D'you want to keep the center sealed off?"  Murdoch was skimming
through data.  I stood unsteadily and walked around the desk so I could
read it from behind him.

"The Slasher obviously isn't bothered by our confinement measures," I
said.  "On the other hand, if we've got to worry about the maintenance
tunnels, the entrances from the spokes are easier to monitor."

He nodded, then swivelled his chair so he was facing me.  It was
strange to look down on him from my standing position.  "I'm beginning
to think you may be right about trying unorthodox methods,"; he said.
, "What, like talking to it?"  I meant it as sarcasm--my mind was
still full of darkness and blood flying and screaming.  I could not
consider talk right now.

He wasn't trying to be funny.  "Maybe.  Think about it.  This Q'Chn
isn't behaving like it's supposed to.  I'm not sure how far we can
depend on Trillith's idea of what it might do."

"Isn't behaving how?"

"All the records say the Slashers were programmed-they were trained as
well but basically they just followed very strong instincts.  They were
supposed to attack, kill, and leave, all in a group.  Even when the
Q'chn brought them in as a threat they had to be physically confined to
stop them attacking.  Does that sound like our friend here?"

It did not.  "Our" Q'Chn snuck in quietly on a hired ship, worked
alone, efficiently killed every person associated with it, and kept
hiding.  "Maybe it's learned to control some of its instincts?  Been
given different training ?"

"Or whoever is controlling it is on the station."

"Here?"  I'd assumed the brain behind all this was par-sees away and
had sent the Q'Chn to do its dirty work.

"Yeah."  He dropped his eyes and took a deep breath, one hand resting
on the table and the other fiddling with the clip on his holster.  "I
think we should go talk to the Invidi again."  Murdoch obviously
suspected An Barik.

"We're looking for someone with the resources and backing to secretly
bring a Q'Chn a quarter way across the galaxy and pay Keveth enough to
risk its life," he continued.  "That's way out of the league of your
average operator here."

"Wait."  I rubbed my head, which had started to ache.

"Before we start accusing anyone, what are we going to do about the
Q'Chn?"  "At the moment I don't see what more we can do."  He said the
words as though he wanted to disown them but couldn't.  "We'll finish
activating all the emergency containment doors over main maintenance
tunnels.  Keep the spokes and center isolated.  Put extra guards,
forcefields, and activation alarms on all key points."  "There are
going to be more system failures, you know," I said.  The Engineering
repair team hadn't had a chance to do anything before the Q'Chn
surprised them.  "Can't we keep things patched together from the
rings?"  "You don't understand.  We always keep things patched together
from the rings.  But there are certain systems that must be coordinated
from the center.  If too many links are taken away, the whole chain
collapses. What we're seeing now is the early stages."  He spread his
hands helplessly.  "How long before we get too far to link things
together again?"  "God, I don't know."  I half closed my eyes, trying
to visualize the station's op sys as a whole.  All the variables-the
Invidi bits, the Tor elements, the "extra" adjustments that half the
population illegally makes.  What would it take to crash the lot?  "I'd
have to ask Mac what he thinks, but if it goes on at this rate we have
to find a way to get to the core within forty-eight hours.  If there's
any more sabotage, make it twenty-four."  "Hell."  I "Did you get
Brin's messages?"  I was surprised that my voice was so steady.  "I got
them," he said gruffly.  "I'm sorry about Quartermaine."

"Yes."  "I'm going to talk to his Mend Rank, see if Quartermaine
wasn't hiding there yesterday.  Yeah, I know," he forestalled my
objection. "He told you Quartermaine wasn't there, but people can he. 
Or Quartermaine might have gone there later."  Why would the Q'Chn kill
Brin?  I felt sick again at the stupid waste of lives.  "Was anything
found on him?"  Murdoch called up what looked like a hurried status
report.  "Nothing.  Not even a personal info-wafer."  "Nothing nearby?"
I felt terrible asking about objects when Brin had lost his life, but
he had clearly said that he'd brought "it" to give me.  I explained
that from Erin's message I didn't know whether, by "it" he meant an
Invidi device An Barik had given him to locate the nlitri or the nlitri
itself.  "And we don't know what this information is about?"  "No.  But
An Barik is going to tell me now."  The thought of getting down to the
Smoke and sustaining my anger with An Barik throughout an entire
interview seemed suddenly too much.  I leaned against Murdoch's desk
and put my hands over my face so he wouldn't see the tears.  After a
moment I heard him get up and then I felt his large, warm hand on my
shoulder.  Then he squeezed the tense muscles at the back of my neck
before withdrawing his hand.  "Why don't you wait here?"  he suggested.
"I'll go see Ranit then later we can recap and work out a plan of
action."  I lowered my hands.  Everything looked fuzzy.  "Thanks.  I...
I think it's all catching up with me."

"Yeah, probably."  He waited a moment without saying anything, then
left.  I stared after him.  It was the first time Murdoch had breached
the physical distance between us in anything but a strictly
professional manner.  Why he'd done so was unclear --the stress of the
moment, or maybe he'd always wanted to.  I wondered if he was
interested in exploring the new space he'd created between us and if
so, how I would react.  With a flush of dismay I remembered Henoit--I
hadn't told Murdoch of his appearance.

I sagged into the desk chair and blinked until my eyes focused again.
Goodness knows where Henoit was.  At any rate, I would put off
questioning An Barik until Murdoch came back.  Brin might have told
Rank something about the Invidi that would affect how I talked to An
Barik.  In the meantime I wanted to map the pattern of environmental
systems failure, in case we were missing something that might allow us
to fix more of it down here in the rings, rather than going into the
center.

After a few minutes, though, I found myself staring at the screen
without taking in anything but the pale blue Earth Fleet background and
black characters ... Black characters merge to form a black sky.  I'm
in a spaceship with Rachel.  We sit, knees bent, facing each other in
one of the life-pods.  There aren't any tubes or goo, for which I am
grateful--grate full that the crew of Calypso had lain in was too much
like slime.  Stars stream by the window, very close.  Some patter
against the glass, seeds of light blown by the interstellar winds.

"This is a nice dream," I say to Rachel.  "I'm in it, that's why." She
laughs and leans forward to pat one of my knees.  "Do you know why we
came?"

Change to a flat plain under a sky low enough to touch.  I've been here
before.  Familiar viscosity licks my fingers and slime slides
underfoot.  It gives off a greenish luminescence that rises to fill the
world with a sweet, sour, acrid smell I wear like a second skin.

Halley.

Who's calling me?  The air is too thick to see, too thick to hear.  The
sound must be coming straight to my brain, which means it's them.  Why
are they calling me?

"Halley."  It was Murdoch, leaning over the desk to peer into my face.
I was leaning forward on top of a stack of plascopy.  "You should go to
your quarters."

I sat up and my neck cricked painfully.  "Ow."

"I'll get someone to walk back with you."  He turned to the office comm
link.

"No."  My voice sounded weak and unconvincing.  "We have to talk.  What
happened with Ranit?"

Murdoch shrugged off his jacket and sat slowly in the other chair.  He
stretched out his legs and exhaled noisily.  "Ranit was pretty upset.
He told us as much as he knew."

Upset.  Of course he was.  Glad I hadn't been there for the
interview.

"Did Brin go to him?  Was he there when I called the morning after
Keveth's murder?"

"Must have been right after that.  Quartermaine met Ranit in the Hill
and said he'd seen a man killed up in Sigma.  He told Ranit he needed
time to recover away from everybody.  And yes."  There was sympathy in
Murdoch's

eyes.  "Yes, he was there when you called.  Ranit lied for him."  "Did
Brin tell Ranit what he was doing in Sigma?"  Murdoch shook his head in
disgust.  "Nope.  Just said 'don't ask," and Ranit didn't.  Or so he
says.  But he does say that Quartermaine was preoccupied as well as
upset, as though he had a problem on his mind as well as a shock."  "So
we're really no closer to finding out what happened in the storage
bay," I said disgustedly.  Murdoch pushed his chair back again and
jumped to his feet with a sudden spurt of energy.  "Maybe there's
someone who can help us."

"As I told Commander Halley," said Veatch, "I desired only to be of
assistance in resolving our present untenable position with regard to
the Seouras ships."  He shifted uncomfortably on the hard chair.  His
blue suit was crumpled and dusty, his antennae curled almost double in
despair.  Murdoch shouldn't have kept him in a holding cell with the
rest of that day's arrests.  After all, he had come down voluntarily
after the Q'Chn appeared in Delta.  Sasaki had joked, when we saw her
on the way in to interview Veatch, that the Security building had
probably seemed the safest place to him with the Q'Chn on the loose.  I
thought that uncharitable but likely.  "Let's get this straight"
Murdoch leaned his elbows on the desk between them.  "In your eagerness
to 'resolve our position," you accessed a private message to Commander
Halley from Brin Quartermaine, failed to inform her of the message,
then passed on the contents of this message to a person outside the
administration.  The Q'chn trader

Trillith.  Am I right so far?"

"You are correct.  However, I should like to point out that..."

"Oh, I forgot."  Murdoch interrupted.  "This was the Q'chn trader you'd
been passing classified information to for months."

"Murdoch, Trillith was blackmailing him," I murmured.

"He says."  Murdoch wasn't giving up his Bad Cop role.

"Then you both decided you might as well find what the

Invidi thought was so important.  Trillith must have sent his maid down
to find Jones.  You knew about Jones and

Keveth, didn't you?  Yes, and you thought you'd get the entire thing
from Quartermaine.  Did you and Trillith send the Q'Chn to kill
Quartermaine and Jones?"

Veatch started.  "No, don't be absurd.  Neither Trillith i nor I... we
never... we have nothing to do with the Q'Chn, nothing at all."  He
half rose in agitation.  "You, Chief Murdoch, should know better than
to suggest it.  Trillith went to you for protection, did it not?  And
you sent it away.  You spend all your time and effort protecting the
members of your own species, and when one of the Four Worlds actually
needs your help, you refuse."  He looked at me.  "This is blatant
prejudice, Commander.  I wish to file a complaint with the
judiciary."

"You can't do that if you're under arrest," said Murdoch.

"I beg your pardon," said Veatch.  "Under subsection 33 of the Security
Code modification of..."  "Veatch," I interrupted gently.  He looked at
me and sat down again.  "We don't know how, but Trillith is connected
to the Q'Chn.  Because if it's not you, then it must be Trillith."  I
didn't say we suspected whoever controlled the Q'Chn was onstation.  If
so, it meant they might have contacted Jones far more easily than we
originally thought.  No need to send signals off the station.

"Do you have any idea what the nlitri might be and who has it now?"  I
asked.

His antennae perked up a bit.  "I was under the impression that Mr.
Quartermaine had it.  After all, he was in the storage bay first.  At
least, the forensic evidence indicated so, did it not?"

Murdoch grunted noncommittally  The area in the bay wiped "clean" was
underneath the other forensic evidence the DNA traces.  It must have
been done by Brin, therefore, to conceal his own traces before he hid.
He'd said something like that in his message, too.  We had assumed Brin
arrived first and after opening the door, hid himself from the Q'Chn.

I still didn't understand why Veatch had spied on us for so long, why
he'd betrayed us to Trillith with so few apparent scruples.

"Didn't it bother you that information you sent back could have been
used against us?"

"I have never knowingly damaged this facility or its inhabitants."

"Who's your real master?"  asked Murdoch.  "Who do you serve in the
end?"

Veatch paused.  His voice when he spoke was less sure, less pedantic.
"I do not sympathize with any cause, or individual, only with order.
Order is served by a balance of power.  At this time, power in the
Confederacy is held by

the Four Worlds.  Only time will tell if this is balance or not."
"That's why you can work for both me and them at the same time," I
said, beginning to understand a little.  Not that it made me any more
sympathetic.  "Commander, I support you because you have always shown a
preference for..."  he paused, and seemed to be consulting a mental
file, "if not order, then at least balance.  You have handled the
Seouras situation admirably, although not always in a way that I
appreciated at the time."  "But you..."  I began, then gave up.  "Tell
me," I moved my chair around the table so we at least were not on
opposite sides.  "You said that you wanted to resolve our problem with
the Seouras by placing pressure on the Invidi.  You must also think,
then, that the Invidi can get us out of this mess but hasn't."  "You
are correct."  "Why do you think this?"  "Because it is highly unlikely
to be unable to help."  I seem to have been the only person who
believed the Invidi.  "There's really no reason this station should
remain part of the Confederacy, is there?  What do you see as the
future?  If," I added gloomily, "we ever do shake off the Seouras." 
"It is possible to be neither Earth nor Confederacy affiliated."  "What
do you mean?"  "I refer to the status of planned neutrality.  This
incorporates a period after the declaration of neutrality in which the
applicant's legal status is accepted as unaligned but in fact the
details of whatever the final agreement will be are still being
processed.  In the case of a colony, for which Jocasta would qualify,
although with certain modifiers, independence, neutral or otherwise,
must be ratified independently by three Council members other than the
member from whom the colony is ceding."

A pretty academic problem unless we get rid of the Seouras.  "Would you
recommend that for Jocasta?"

He seemed almost surprised.  "I had not considered it, but it is
certainly one option.  It would not, however, be practical
immediately."

Murdoch had been waiting to get a word in.  "I'm going to talk to
Trillith."  He glanced down at Veatch without a shadow of trust.  "See
what it says that contradicts his story.  I'll see you in my office in,
oh, about fifteen minutes."

"What about Veatch?"  I did feel sorry for him in that cell.  Besides,
the thought of my having to do the station manager's work as well as my
own was too appalling to contemplate.

Murdoch stopped halfway to the door.  "Confined to quarters for the
time being.  All interface access privileges denied, mind you."

While I waited for Murdoch I checked the engineering updates.  No
change in the op sys status--that is, no change in the way it was
deteriorating.  The Q'Chn had neither reappeared nor given any sign of
where it might be.

Murdoch burst into the office.  "Got it."  He grinned triumphantly. 
"At least, as much as we ever get from these bastards."  " "Well?"  I
got out of his chair and circled the desk.

"Taking it from the top," he reclaimed his chair and ticked the points
off on his fingers as he spoke.  "Keveth visited Trillith on the
afternoon of the day the Sleepers arrived, and told Trillith that Jones
had asked it to pick up someone under cover of the jump mine explosion
and the rescue operation, which it did."  "Did Jones approach Keveth
after the explosion or before?"  "Trillith thinks before, but without
specifying a time or place.  When the mine exploded, apparently Jones
gave the signal for Keveth to go."  "That means they didn't actually
know the mine would explode."  "Possibly."  Murdoch was cautious.
"Anyway, Jones apparently didn't know Keveth told Trillith about this.
We can assume it was the Q'Chn that Keveth picked up because its ship
was so clean.  If it had been a different species' traces, our
equipment would have picked up something."  "Keveth met Jones and the
Q'Chn later that night in the storage bay where salvage from Calypso
had been put.  We don't know why they met there.  But it was the same
storage bay that Brin Quartermaine had just used an Invidi device to
open and search for something for An Bank.  We don't know if he found
what he was looking for, but we think he hid and saw the Q'Chn kill
Keveth.  Jones ran off, or the Q'Chn let him leave, or he knew that it
would kill Keveth, I dunno.  But both the Q'Chn and Jones went to
ground."  I wished I'd had a chance to talk to Brin about what happened
that night.  Was it a sudden falling-out among thieves or, as Murdoch
suggested, deliberate reduction of people who knew what was
happening?

"By the way."  I interrupted him.  "Did we check the salvage contents
after the murder against the contents when they were first put away?
There was nothing missing?"  "Nothing.  The next morning," he
continued, getting into stride, "Veatch came to Trillith with news
about the nlitri and the suggestion they conduct some genteel blackmail
to get An Barik to hurry up and do something about the Seouras. 
Trillith, with an eye to more profitable ventures, intended to take the
nlitri for itself.  Trillith knew Jones was Keveth's contact, so
Trillith contacted Jones in the hope of buying information about
Jones's bosses and also about the nlitri, in case Jones had seen Brin
take it."  "We think Brin contacted An Barik later and was told to lie
low," I added. "Right.  Now, Jones didn't get back to Trillith, which
pissed it off and it gave that interview with Florida, remember?"  "The
one that virtually advertised Brin was on the run with Invidi
technology, yes. So anyone might have known."  "Anyone might have
known, but it was the Q'Chn that appeared and killed them."  "Why loll
Jones, if he's part of the Q'Chn's group?"  I was confused.  "Which
brings us," Murdoch sounded gloomier.  "To the things we still don't
know.  We don't know who gave Jones his orders and who controls the
Q'Chn.  It'd be handy if they were the same person.  We don't know what
this blasted information is that everyone's so keen about and why An
Barik wants it so badly.  Why did the Q'Chn kill Keveth, Quartermaine,
and Jones--were they all part of its group?"  "If the Q'Chn killed
Brin, surely that exonerates An Barik?"  "Unless he wanted to get rid
of Quartermaine," Murdoch said. "Maybe, like Keveth, Brin had outlived
his usefulness."  "Usefulness for what?  You're heading for a grand
conspiracy theory here, Bill, but the scale just doesn't fit.  This is
a minor station on the outskirts of nowhere.  What could possibly
interest galactic-scale plotters here?" "Yeah, well there's a link to
the Invidi.  That's pretty close to galactic scale."  I sighed.  "I'll
go and talk to An Barik.  And don't forget," I didn't enjoy remembering
something he hadn't, "that we still don't know how Calypso got here.  I
found some evidence that indicates their voyage was routine for nearly
fifty years, but we don't know what happened after that."  Murdoch
groaned.  He'd run out of fingers to tick off the things we didn't
know.

He needs something from an area of the station he can't easily enter.
It's a storage bay in Sigma.  He's given me tools to get in.  He says I
don't need to know the details.  He says it's nlitri--"information" is
the closest translation, although it covers everything from a memo to
prophecy--/ presume it's on a chip or other data storage device.  I've
got another gizmo to locate it, in any case.  He's promised to tell me
what it's all about once I get the nlitri, and you know what a sucker I
am for information.  Did Quartermaine find it?  His second message
seemed to indicate this.  I'll wait until you come, because I'd rather
you have it.  I think I know why he wants the nlitri and I don't agree.
He told me to bring it back, but I said I'd lost it.  Perhaps telling
An Barik that he'd lost it had got him killed.  Maybe the Q'Chn had
taken the information and An Barik had what he wanted already.  But
that assumed the Q'Chn was controlled by An Barik.  This did not really
fit the puzzle, no Matter what Murdoch said about conspiracies.  If An
Batik knew the Q'Chn was involved, why would he have asked Quartermaine
to look for the nlitri in the first place?  Unless he didn't trust the
Q'Chn, which was a most atypical member of its species.  Again, why
should An Barik kill Quartermaine?  He merely had to wait until the
nlitri was brought back.  Unless, a small voice reminded me, An Barik
had intercepted Brin's message saying he wanted to give it to me rather
than to the Invidi.  And why did Brin not agree with An Bank's reason
for wanting it?  Certainly An Barik's non-interference in the station's
affairs had turned out to be a joke, like Invidi noninterference in
Earth's affairs.  Even Veatch believed An Barik could contact the
Confederacy if he wanted to.  Instead of doing so, instead of merely
asking for access to the Calypso salvage so that he could get whatever
it was he wanted, he had to go and put us all through this mess.  I was
terribly angry with Brin.  Instead of coming to me immediately with the
whole story, he had to get all mystical about loyalty to the Invidi and
then float around the storage bays in his ridiculous costume, playing
burglar.  If I had him here, I'd ... I leaned my head against the wall
of the access shaft and tried to control the sickening onslaught of
grief.  Later, you can give in to it later.  The person behind me
cleared her throat meaningfully.  With most of the ring lift system
out, we were forced to use manual access between rings, unless it was
an area handy to an uplift that was still working.  Typical of this
station, I thought, and started climbing down again.  We cut off the
center so nobody needs to go there and the only lifts that stay working
are the ones up to there.  Sometimes I think the spirit of the Tor
booby traps remains to confound us.

The access shafts are quite separate from the maintenance tunnels, but
even so it wasn't pleasant to be in that enclosed place and wonder what
would happen if the Q'Chn came after me inside it.

I reached the Smoke airlock.  The one on the side away from the Hill,
thank goodness, so I didn't have to avert my eyes from the scene where
Quartermaine, Jones, and four other people met their deaths.

The airlock door shut with a hollow thud behind me.  I fitted on the
mask.  Faint hiss of changing air, more imagined than heard;
interminable wait.  Tap, tap of boot toe on floor.  What could the
Invidi possibly want from Calypso that he couldn't ask for openly?
Historical data?

Would the Invidi have any use for personal data from the crew?  I
couldn't imagine anything important and dangerous enough to risk
Quartermaine's rife.  But why not tell me he needed some information?
Because he didn't want me to see whatever this nlitri was, came the
answer.  It had to be something Quartermaine wouldn't recognize but I
would.

The "enable" light clicked on and I ducked under the inner door as it
inched open.  The corridor was full of the same milky fog as always,
but there was no sign of life.  Nobody wanted to meet a Q'Chn and they
were all battened down in their quarters.

I stopped bef oren Barik's door and pressed the buzzer.  There was no
answer.  I pressed it again.  I could override the privacy cover and
check if he was really there, but where else would "he be?  We'd had no
reports from Security about an Varik outside the Smoke, so he must be
here.  I pressed the buzzer again, this time resting my palm there
long enough to confirm the ID.  The person inside knew who I was.

I leaned into the audio pickup.  "Master Bank, you know it's me.  I
need to speak to you.  It's urgent.  I shan't leave until we have
talked, so you may as well let me in."  Nothing.  I'll look pretty
silly if he isn't in there after all.

It was quiet in the corridor, the hum of atmospherics punctuated by
subdued clicks and beeps from other systems.  The environment als all
seemed to be functioning here.  Which is as it should be.  Because of
the dangers of containment failure with the Smoke's atmosphere, it had
the most sophisticated backups on the station.  On the other hand, if
the Smoke's atmospheric containment failed, we'd know we were in big
trouble.

I pressed my palm on the buzzer again and the door opened.  I walked
through to the inner chamber.  An Barik stood motionless in the same
place he'd been last time I was here.  Had he moved at all?  I skirted
the brazier cautiously in the dim red light and approached a little
closer than custom allowed.

"Quartermaine's dead."

"The one knows."

"Did you know he left me a message?"

"Message?"  The flat baritone sounded puzzled.

"Yes, message."  Something made my voice shake.  Not anger, exactly.
How do you sustain anger at someone who can't return the emotion?  "You
didn't think he might try to contact me?  It didn't occur to you that
he might feel some loyalty to his own people?"  This was wishful
thinking --Quartermaine's actions had shown where his loyalties lay.

The big knobbly shape rocked slightly.  "The one does not wish to
speak to others at this time."

"That's not possible.  A murder has been committed and you are
involved.  I want to know what's going on."

Two of his long tentacles curled up and around.  I managed not to step
back.

"The one ... regrets the acts of violence."  The comment came slowly,
after a long silence.

" "Regret' ..."  Yes, we all regret it.  "Master, why didn't you just
ask me to give you access to the salvage?"

The Invidi swayed towards me and this time I did jump backwards.  I had
initiated closer contact, but not this close.  The long strips of
bubbly skin down his sides seemed to shiver.

"The turning is mistaken.  The one attempts reappraisal."

"What about the Q'Chn?  Was it a mistake too?"

He went perfectly still.  Every shift, every twitch ceased with
startling completeness.  He might have been a rather bizarre stone
statue.  I held my breath in unconscious mimicry.

"The one errs.  It is necessary to reaffirm the right path.  Please
leave."

"Errs how?  I'm not leaving without some answers.  Did you directly
cause the Q'Chn to come here?"

An Barik was silent.  His small tentacles wrung around each other.

"Please answer me."

"The one is net ware of this being.  Invidi knows them."

"Yes, yes, we went through this last time.  You won't help us defeat
it."  I don't know what I hoped he would do--activate an
all-encompassing force field produce an invincible weapon from the
folds of his body like a rabbit from a hat?  Invidi technology is
sufficiently like magic that I wouldn't have been all that surprised.
"This ... Q'Chn is not seen clearly at the right path."  "What does
that mean?  You didn't know it was coming?  How far can you see into
what we call the future?"  "The question has little meaning.  All
points have existence therefore all are visible."  "But you said that
certain nodes are important."  "Some nodes proliferate more paths than
others."  "What about individuals?  Can you see our futures?"  And do
they see all our pasts, as well as who we are now--not in glimpses as
we do but each entire life?  Does An Barik perceive in me the jungle
and Demora, Henoit, the construction of Jocasta, the slime?  Could he
have seen the end of Quartermaine's?  "Individuals ..."  A tremor ran
through the mass beside me.  "Individuals initiate paths according to
their nature."  "So you can't predict a certain action?  Is that why
you didn't know the Q'Chn would come?"  "The one erred.  Invidi are
individuals also."  "Why did your people come to Earth?"  The question
popped out to startle both of us.  Silence.  Stock answers--expansion
of galactic influence, benevolent conquest, to prevent one of the other
races acquiring Earth's dwindling resources--are never enough.  "The
one is not in that continuing.  There is an issue of... reciprocity." 
Who owes whom? "You have the potential for des ada Ah yes, the
sentience indicator. The point at everyone's center.  "Recognizing your
right to be considered authenticates our relationship."  He almost
sounded as if he wanted me to understand.  "You're observing us?  To
check if we're sentient or not?"  " "Observe'... the connotations of
this word are incorrect" I took a deep breath, let it out again. 
"Master, listen. We've had too many casualties, including a man who
worked with you for years.  Unless we do something about the Q'Chn, the
station is going to start falling down around our ears.  If you know
why the Q'Chn is here, tell me now."  "The one does not know."  It was
as clear an answer as I'd ever had from him, "What is the nlitri and
why did you ask Quartermaine to get it?"  "The one attempts to correct
an error."  "What sort of error?"  "Invidi learn... not to intervene in
the affairs of others.  What you call the coming-to-view."  "The
future?"  "Yes.  By the seeing, the thing seen changes.  In the
continium to which your Sleepers belong, an Invidi intervenes."  "You
mean An Serat?"  "Correct. The one asks Mr.  Quartermaine to
retrieve... evidence, your Mr. Murdoch would say.  Evidence of this
intervention."  "The niitri is this evidence?"  "Correct."  "Why is it
important?"

He said nothing.  Perhaps I should have asked to whom it was
important.  "What does this have to do with the Q'Chn?"  "The one does
not perceive a direct connection."  "Then why did it kill Quartermaine?
Did he bring you this 'evidence' the night he died?"  "The one does not
talk to him."  He might be telling the truth.  "So you don't know it he
got it or not?"  That bore out what Quartermaine had said, that An Bank
"wasn't sure himself."  "How did you know this information was on the
Calypso?"  A long silence.  "It is Invidi only to understand."  And I
got no more out of him.

Brin had made me his executor, damn him.  In the stiff holo-testament
format he calmly asked me to distribute his property in various ways.
It was devastating, but finally I managed to go through his personal
files.  I sat in his office and recorded a message to his parents. They
were frail, and lived on Earth, in a community hospice in Auckland. 
The message was encrypted and posted to the top of the URGENT list of
missives to Earth and Confederacy that sat in the files and waited for
the day Jocasta would be free.  One of Veatch's staff regularly
reviewed and weeded out the unwanted or outdated messages.  It made me
think about my friend, how little I had really known him.  I looked
around the little office--neat, impersonal.  Con Fleet standard issue
furniture.  His real life can't have been here.

If I'd thought about it, his firm stand on the Nine versus Four
problem should have given me a clue that he might side with the Invidi.
He had been so convinced of their essential benevolence towards us. And
who was I to disagree?  He had spent most of his tiMe trying to
understand the Invidi.  We have no proof to dispute their benevolence,
only a great deal of circumstantial evidence that could be read many
ways.

Although if you were to take the opposite position on the Nine/ Four
issue, the whole structure of the Confederacy was proof that the
Invidi, Q'chn , Melot, and Ben-dari wanted nothing more than to keep
the rest of the member worlds in subservient status.  In fact, I
followed the unfamiliar thought reluctantly, the superiority of Invidi
technology and its application in a jump drive is the keystone of that
structure.  If in some way you could remove it, allow the Nine Worlds
to comprehend and use mat technology, then the whole structure would
come tumbling down.  But then a century of peace might be buried in the
rubble.

firm's second thoughts were all the more shocking for his faith in the
Invidi.  What could possibly have caused him to disagree?  He'd decided
I needed to have the nlitri, because presumably I would use it in a
different way from An Bank.

I accessed the files he'd been working on the day he died.  Three of
them were routine Linguistics department business, but the fourth was
his research on An Serat.  That name kept appearing as we got deeper
into the case, and Brin's research indicated why.

An Serat had been the head or facilitator of the Invidi's first
expedition to Earth.  Apparently he was still alive, under a sort of
house arrest on the Invidi home planet for his "unethical"
activities--including acting beyond his brief in revealing technology
to humans.  He was "asked to leave" the expedition by consensus.  I
suppose helping Calypso would qualify as acting beyond his brief,
especially as Rachel's words indicated their whole expedition had been
kept a secret from the other Invidi, if only for a while.  An Bank must
know about it now, which is why he was trying to retrieve evidence of
An Serai's tampering from the wreck.  The whole incident was looking
more and more like an Invidi internal affair.  An Bank must be
gathering information to use against An Serat in some Four Worlds
squabble. Brin's research also mentioned that An Serat still had
support from some of the younger and more radical Invidi--obviously An
Bank was neither.  But that didn't answer the question why An Serat
helped the Sleepers.  I didn't believe in the good Samaritan theory
anymore.  He must have seen some advantage in sending them off the
planet--was it to keep something secret for nearly a hundred years? 
Revealing technology to humans.  That must mean technology that should
not have been revealed to humans-the Invidi brought us plenty of
technological advances, but only in the areas they chose.  We took what
we could and were grateful for it What else could An Serat have given
humans?  The first thing that sprung to mind was the
cryotechnology--Griffis had indicated the Invidi offered it to Nguyen. 
I should ask Eleanor what else she'd found out about that technology. 
She'd have had time to go over the probe's records by now.  I tried the
comm link but it was blocked.  Great, all we need is internal
communications to go down.  I left Brin's office.  Fortunately the
hospital was on the same level, so I wouldn't have to clamber up or
down access shafts.

Eleanor came from her quarters but she wasn't happy about it.  "Halley,
it's half-past five in the morning."  "I know, but we're running
against time.  We have to do something about the Q'Chn so we can get up
to the center."  Eleanor moved past me into her office and activated
the interface.  She sighed, slid a storage drawer out from the wall,
and poured herself a cup of liquid from the heat-jar inside.  "Coffee?"
I shook my head.  Even the idea made me feel sick.  "I know about the
Q'Chn attack," she said.  "We finished the autopsies about an hour
ago."  "Oh.  Sorry to wake you."  She leaned back in her chair, hair
mussed, face pale and tight, eyes swollen from lack of sleep.  She wore
an ancient woven fabric cardigan over the hospital whites and it made
her calmness seem more human.  "Why did you wake me?  And sit down,
will you?"  She pointed at the guest chair.  "No, thanks.  Think I'd
better not" I had the feeling that if I sat down, I wouldn't have the
energy to get up again.  "It's about the cryosystems on Calypso.  Can
you give me a more complete report on them?"  "I already gave you a
report."

"You said they were what you'd have expected.  Did you mean they use
the kind of technology that the Invidi gave us in that period?"  She
frowned and put the cup down.  "I'm no historian but... no, I wouldn't
have said so.  The Calypso's systems used nanotechnology and integrated
functionality that we didn't achieve until the beginning of space
flight.  We didn't need it before then, of course, whereas the Sleepers
did.  I assume that's why the Invidi supplied it."  That might have
been what An Serat was being criticized for.  The trouble was, if he
wanted to get rid of evidence of his tampering, why send the Sleepers
into space and why in such a haphazard way?  If he wanted to conceal
something, sending it to wander through a highly travelled area of
space while its guardians slept was hardly the ideal method.  No, I
think we're off-track here.  "Are you sure the wakeup mechanism was set
for fifty years?"  Eleanor grimaced and drummed her fingers on the desk
"I wish you wouldn't call it a mechanism, as though it's an alarm
clock.  The cryosystems are partly organic themselves.  It's an
incredibly sophisticated method of controlling the autonomic nervous
system."  "Fine.  But when were they supposed to wake up?"  "They said
they were going to Alpha Centauri.  That's about fifty years."  "That's
what they said.  Only we're left with the problem of forty-five years
unaccounted for.  What about the systems?"  She looked at me for a long
moment then blinked up files on the interface, presumably of the
cryosystems.  I found I was starting to sway a bit and shifted my
feet.  Maybe I should sit down.

"You could be right.  There's evidence... of a sort," she said
finally.

"What do you mean?"  I walked around beside her and peered at the
screen, which let me lean on the desk.  She pointed at some figures
that meant nothing to me other than that they recorded some kind of
neural degradation.

"It could mean the cryosystems reinitialized and continued after that
fifty years.  Which is logical, considering, as you say, we're a
hundred years after they left.  Which means the systems were programmed
from the beginning for ninety-five years.  On the other hand..."  She
blinked through more data, using the retinal interface connection. 
I've never had enough ocular control to use one efficiently.

"On the other hand, I could be wrong.  This attrition could be a
function of the nanotechnology, which tends to destroy itself after a
program is complete."

"So it might have been only fifty years after all?  I think that
qualifies as an impossible probable."  Fifty years is fifty years and
ninety-five is a lot longer than that.  I'm starting to sound like the
Invidi.  Profound and totally meaningless.

"Some advice from your doctor."  Eleanor had stood up and was looking
at me nose to nose.  Chin to nose rather, as she's nearly a head
taller.  "Go back to your quarters, take a shower."  She fingered the
stains on my uniform with distaste.  "Get changed.  Have something to
eat and a couple of hours of sleep.  You'll be surprised how easy
things get after that."

The wonders of contemporary medicine.  Prescription-hot water, clean
clothes, food, and sleep.  Amazing.

"You should probably have a good cry, too," she added.  "For Brin's
sake."

I swallowed.  "Eleanor, did he suffer?"

"No.  It was very quick.  He probably didn't even notice."

She shouldn't have patted me on the shoulder.  The gesture released all
the tension and grief of the past twenty-four hours into a flood of
tears onto her faded cardigan.

"Shh," said Eleanor, and this time it was she who rocked me gently.

Third Day-6:30 Am

I got about three minutes' worth of hot water out of the shower in our
quarters, but it was enough to make a difference.  I actually felt my
body belonged to me again, not some stranger who wasn't listening to it
saying, I'm tired, I hurt, and I'm hungry.  The final spurt of cold
water woke me up enough to buzz my teeth clean and wonder what to have
for breakfast

I stopped off in the kitchen on the way to my room from the shower, a
dry wrap tied gingerly under one armpit in case the visual interface
activated unexpectedly.  I was developing scattered bruises where the
Q'Chn had knocked me against the wall in the Hill, and the dry wrap
knot caught painfully.  The rooms were all quiet Lee was pulling a
double shift helping Engineering and the other two weren't up yet

There didn't seem to be anything immediately edible.  Maybe I'd sleep
first then get something at the mess hall.

The door chimed.  I looked in the visual scan and saw Henoit standing
outside.

"You can't come in here!"  I hissed.

He cocked his haul at the dry wrap which had slipped with the ferocity
of my reaction.  I grabbed it and hesitated.  If I sent him away,
goodness knows when we'd get a chance to talk again.  And I had to know
more about his offer.  The night's events had kept me preoccupied with
the immediate danger of the Q'Chn, but Henoit was a danger too.  Of a
different kind.

"All right then.  But come into this room."  I led the way back to my
private portion of the unit.

Con Fleet not doing much for its officers these days," he commented as
the door whooshed shut behind him.  In a human it would have been a
joke, but Henoit was quite serious.  \

"We're conserving space," I said, and wished I'd got him to wait while
I changed first.  One flimsy layer of material between us wasn't
enough.  I could feel my body responding to the pheromones as we spoke.
It wasn't an unpleasant sensation, just unnerving to be aroused without
having thought about anything in that context at all.

I sat behind the desk and motioned Henoit to sit in the other chair, a
safe distance away.  He removed a stack of crystals and some underwear
from the chair and sat.  He said nothing, but every fastidious gesture
was a criticism of my sloppiness.  I drummed fingertips on the desk and
vowed not to get annoyed.

"First of all, where have you been?  What if I'd wanted to contact you
to say I agreed with your offer?"

"Do you?"  he asked quickly.

"I didn't say that.  But where were you?"

"In an abandoned dwelling.  In a section that seems to have been burned
recently," he said grudgingly.

The damaged sector in the Hill.  "You shouldn't stay there.  It's not
safe."

"That is irrelevant.  Have you considered my offer?"

"I think you'd better tell me more about this alliance."

He dipped his chin in assent.  "We are not a simple conspiracy.  You
must understand that we represent, directly or indirectly, billions of
beings on the Nine Worlds who are dissatisfied with the present system.
We offer an alternative."

"If you want change, why can't you work within the Confederacy?  We
have a representative system."

His mouth twisted in distaste.  "You know how it works.  We have to
work through duly elected representatives of the government or whatever
system the planet works with.  The H'digh government is controlled by
senior officials who have everything to lose if the status quo is
upset."  Henoit's family is one of the pillars of the status quo on his
world.  He had chosen a road that defied his own traditions.

"So what does this movement intend to do?"  He raised his eyebrows in a
negative.  "I can't tell you too much."

"How can I decide without knowing?"  I almost laughed at the absurdity
of it.  "I don't need your strategic secrets but at least tell me your
long-term objectives."

He was silent for a moment, his cat's-eyes, never still, stroked over
me, the desk, the bed visible at the back of the room.  I hoped it was
my imagination that his gaze lingered on the bed.

"We want them to combine the Outer and Inner Councils and give us a
seat on the new one.  As representatives of a significant-number of
Confederacy members."

"So you don't actually want to dissolve the existing alliances?"

"No.  There is too much for us to gain by keeping them.  But we want
to be included.  Your joining us would be a tremendous example in
itself. This is the only space station administered by one of the Nine
Worlds. It is Earth's single extra-system base.  Think how many it
would persuade to join our movement if you did so."  "Not so fast.  You
want Jocasta as a base.  Will you bring your fleet in here?"  "I told
you I can't tell you too much until we know where you stand."  "What
means do you intend using to achieve your goals, if not the official
ones?"  "I can't tell you."  "I will not be a party to terrorism.  Too
many innocent lives are lost."  We glared at each other and he did not
withdraw his eyes this time.  Stare only at mortal enemies and mate-was
I both or neither?  "Don't you want to get rid of those ships?"  He
sounded frustrated.  "Of course I do!"  So much that I can taste it.
"But I have to think ahead too."  "It's hard to see that it could get
any worse for you here."  Maybe not, but at least the Seouras leave us
more or less alone.  Con Fleet might not be so laissez-faire if they
found we'd betrayed them.  "Besides, it isn't only me you have to
convince.  I don't run the place single-handed.  I need something
concrete to take to my senior officers and the administration."  "You
underestimate yourself.  Our sources think your staff is almost
undividedly loyal."  I had a sinking feeling and wondered who else
besides Veatch had betrayed us.  "Sources?  What sources?  Have you
been spying on us?"

"No spies," he said hurriedly.  "I give you my word we have no spies
here now."

"But you did have?"

He sniffed and didn't answer.  I wondered why he'd said "almost"
undividedly loyal.  I pushed aside the paranoid thought, pulled my dry
wrap tighter around me and shivered.

We were getting nowhere with this conversation.  Nowhere with the whole
situation.  He couldn't give me information until I committed and I
couldn't commit without more information.  The Confederacy has
abandoned us and the New Council only wants to use us for their own
ends.

He cleared his throat.  "Why did you leave?"  he said, half turned
away, his voice tense.

"Why?"

"Yes, I want to know.  I have wanted to know for many years.  How could
you disappear without a word?"

"I left you a holovid explaining why ..."

"You left less than nothing!"  His vehemence was startling.  He got out
of the chair and prowled up and down the room as he spoke, his long
strides covering the space quickly.

"You insulted me by not talking to my face, then further by not
answering my calls."

The accusation stung, because it was true.

"I was ... afraid."  "Afraid?"  He said it in the way of one to whom it
had never and would never happen.

"Yes, dammit.  A&aid of what you'd become.  A terrorist.  "And afraid,
too, that if I spoke to him face to face I would not be able to resist
the lure to physical union.  As I found it difficult to resist now.
"You are my wife.  You should tell me what is in your mind."  "You
really believe this?  That there's only one person for you in the whole
universe?"  "Usually one person on our whole world."  I wanted him to
show me a foolproof way to understand.  I couldn't accept that there
could be harmony without understanding.  At least, there might have
been, in the days when we had harmony.  "Aren't you confusing physical
attraction with ... with some sort of mystical union?"  He looked at me
and then away in total incomprehension that I took as prevarication,
until I remembered that the H'digh do not admit a dichotomy between
mind and body.  Then: philosophies contain little celebration of the
dualities beloved by human thought--spirit and flesh, form and content,
heaven and earth.  Life and death.  He leaned over the desk close
enough for me to feel the soft, warm touch of his breath on my face.  "
"By time not asundered, nor by distance rendered, World cannot defeat
us, nor death shall us part."" For a second I almost gave in and
touched him, gave in to the desire for his breath to be mine again. 
"Let me guess--from the Khual'anathT' The extraordinarily long and
complex epic poem that seems to provide half the sayings and precedents
in H'digh society.  "I didn't know it contained love poetry."  I leaned
back and swivelled the chair away from him, deliberately breaking the
spell.

"It is from the Marriage Ode of Queen Scr," he admonished.  "Why do
you think we mate for life?  Neither of us will ever achieve such a
bond with anyone else.  I don't know what you mean by 'mystical."  This
is a fact."

I could feel the "fact" as I prickled and throbbed under the dry wrap
in response to his presence.  But I was older now, if not wiser, and
there were a lot of things hanging over me to balance the pheromones. 
The Q'Chn, Calypso, An Barik, the Seouras.  Maybe we were bonded
forever. That didn't mean I had to live with him, or agree with his
politics.

"Why did you come here?"  I asked straight.  "Why you, and not some
other persuasive bastard?"  Were he and his group so foolish as to
think I'd be more susceptible to his suggestions?  I would have thought
the fact that I'd left him would have alerted them to the likelihood of
the opposite being true.

"I..."  For an extraordinary moment he seemed to be lost for words.
Normally he would never leave a gap in conversation, any more than he
would leave a gap for an opponent in a duel.  "I wished to ask you the
question that you have not yet answered.  Why did you leave?"

"Because I couldn't live with a murderer."

He considered the words.  Moved his long, powerful hands in a rolling
gesture as if to turn the words over and look underneath.

"Yet you would have lived with a warrior."

"Don't insult me by saying you don't know the difference.  Even your
father didn't condone those killings."  The older H'digh lived by a
rigid code.  Which was one of the reasons they were exposing their
young to other creeds.

"I do not understand your thoughts.  But however far you run, you will
always be my wife."

I shrugged.  Legally we were divorced, and as far as I was concerned
that was it.  He could think what he liked.

"But I still offer you a chance to be together in our political
activities.  Join us in our fight against the hegemony of the Four
Worlds."

-Say yes and we ally ourselves against our own world and its
protectors.  Say no and they take the station anyway.  Do nothing and
if the Q'Chn doesn't destroy us the Seouras probably will.  What would
Marlena Alvarez have done?

I shook away the thought.  It was absurd to be looking for guidance to
a world so much simpler than our own.

"Give me some time," I began.

He turned in annoyance and strode to the door.

"No, really," I said, standing to call him back.  "I have to do
something about the Q'Chn, or you won't have a functioning station even
if you do manage to beat the Seouras.  Give me twenty-four hours."

"Make it twelve," he said, and left.  I stood there wondering what
Murdoch was going to say.

Third Day 10 am

Murdoch said a lot, most of it unworthy of an officer.

I caught up with him in Gamma where he was arguing with property owners
who didn't want to lend us space for residents evacuated from the Hill,
even at interest.  I suppose they were aware of our solvency status.
Murdoch asked them to wait while we adjourned to a nearby overhang and
I told him about Henoit.

I think it was the Seouras that annoyed him most.  "We've been sitting
here like we're in quarantine for a communicable disease for six
months.  They couldn't let supply ships through, could they?  Oh no.
Just some ancient junk heap with frozen passengers, a bloody alien
killing machine, and now a terrorist."

Certainly the Seouras' behavior was inexplicable.  But it was not our
greatest worry at the moment.

Murdoch knew Henoit's name instantly.  "Your ex, isn't he?"  He looked
at me slyly.  "Bit of a coincidence, that."

"It's no coincidence," I said wearily.  "They must think it'll be
easier for him to work through me."

When I was on Rhuarl an officious Security sergeant once explained to
me that Henoit had a record for political activity.  There was no
evidence that he had ever put a foot wrong but unspoken acknowledgment
that he was one of the leaders of the anti-Central movement.  The
sergeant pointed out that if I had any information to add to the
record, it was my duty to come forward with it.  That was the sort of
position Henoit had continually put me in.  "Work through you to do
what?"  I concealed a yawn and rubbed tension knots in my shoulders.
"He says he's a member of the New Council of Free Worlds."  Murdoch
started, but said nothing.  "And that if I agree to join them and put
the station at their disposal, they'll get rid of the Seouras for us."
Murdoch looked up, around, men passed one hand across his head.  He
opened his mouth, shut it, then finally ended up saying merely, "Shit.
You said he came onstation before Quartermaine was killed?"  "That's
what he says.  Using the comet tail as cover."  Murdoch snorted,
amused. He saw the irony in that too.  "I wish you'd told me earlier." 
"I'm sorry.  It really wasn't at the front of my mind last night." 
Murdoch folded his arms and made an exasperated "phew" sound.  He was
angry, but not at me.  "Is he telling the truth?  You know him better
than anyone else here."  "I haven't seen him for seven years."  "No
kidding?" Studiously indifferent.  "That's a long time."  He muttered
something to the uncaring Boulevard.  "What?"  "Nothing."

"It was not nothing."  I stepped back a pace so I could eyeball him
properly.  "Say it again, if it's worth saying."

"Jeez, what a fuss."  His eyes were everywhere but on mine.  "I said
that it must have been some reunion, that's all.  You'll have to adjust
the record.  You're down as divorced."

I could have kicked him.  "That's no business of yours."  He must have
been ogling the Security files.  Everything is on those files once you
get a high-level clearance.

"This bloke enters the station in secret, doesn't let anyone except you
know he's here ... everything about him is Security business.  His past
especially.  Because it might give us a handle on his present motives."
Murdoch met my eyes at last.  His own showed anger, and something else.
I wasn't the only person to feel betrayed.  "So get off your high
horse and tell me what's going on."

I do hate it when he's right.  "Keep out of my personal life."

He snorted.  "You take a command position with Con Fleet you don't have
a personal life.  Do you think he's telling the truth?"

"If he says he'll help us, he will try.  But I don't know whether they
can do what they promise.  The Seouras weapons ..."  We had both seen
those weapons.

"What sort of a base do they want to make Jocasta?"

"He won't say.  But it's not just our freedom at stake here."

"You don't want to provide the possible catalyst for a movement that
might start the downfall of the Confederacy."  He stated one of my
fears matter-of factly

"No.  Nor do I wish to provide an excuse for the Confederacy to crush
that movement."

That shook him.  I was grateful he had not taken the easy way and
merely pointed out that my duty was to jail Henoit and get as much
information as possible about the New Council.

"What do you think, Bill?  Personally."  I was unsure if he'd reply at
all, especially after his unexpected outburst yesterday about the
Confederacy not helping us against the Seouras.

He scowled irresolutely at the dusty deck.  On the Boulevard voices
were raised in altercation, and there was a cracking sound as a
construction AVG unloaded building materials.  As I watched him Murdoch
came to some decision.

"I'm glad to be alive now, y'know?"  The expression he turned to me had
none of his usual smirk.  "My people were treated as second-class
citizens for hundreds of years.  On their own land.  It's taken us a
long time to get over that."  A beat.  His eyes stayed on my face but
for once I didn't feet self-conscious.  "I don't want to be treated
like that simply because I'm human."

"I didn't know you were a separatist."

"I'm not.  I was talking to Griffis yesterday.  He told me a bit about
the Earth South movement in our place.  Seems my people were more
involved than I thought."

"You didn't know that before?"

"Nah, I never saw us as revolutionary types.  Too lazy, I always
thought.  But it looks like I was wrong."

"Has it changed your mind?  You think we should throw in our lot with
the New Council?"

He grimaced.  "I don't like their methods."

I thought of Henoit and the dead Q'chn trader on Rhuarl.  "Neither do

I."

"What do you think he'll do if you refuse?"

That was the other problem.  "I know what he'll do-try to take the
station anyway."  "Shit."  Murdoch stared rudely at the store-owner
who'd appeared in the doorway next to us.  The small Achelian twitched
her nose and slammed the door again.

"How will he do that?  Bring in his fleet?  Whichever way it goes, if
they want Jocasta they'll have to get rid of the Seouras."

"Exactly.  We might as well make sure it happens on our terms, don't
you think?"

"So you're going to agree?"

"Unless you can come up with a way to get rid of the Seouras first."

He rubbed his chin thoughtfully.  "Why don't you ask him to prove he's
sincere?"

"What do you mean?"

"He's a H'digh warrior, isn't he?  Ask him to help us get rid of the
Q'Chn."

I considered the idea.  If it worked, we would lose the Q'Chn menace,
get rid of the Seouras, and become part of an alliance more immediate
than the Confederacy.  If it failed, the New Council would gain a base
that had no operative systems and one resident monster.

"I don't know if he'd do it."

"Depends how much he wants the station."

I looked out on the Boulevard, a noisy, messy, volatile mixture of
worlds.  The lights flickered and the clamor increased as voice?  were
raised in protest.  I turned to Murdoch and broached the subject I'd
been trying to avoid ever since I'd spent the hours since breakfast
poring over holomaps of the engineering core.

"Bill, we're going to have to send another team up to the center."

"You're sure?"  He looked as if he'd swallowed something bitter.

"Yes.  We're running out of time.  I've worked out the best route for
us to take.  With any luck, we won't be in any tunnels wide enough for
the Q'Chn even if it's there."

"Whoa.  Who's 'we'?"

"I know the core better than anyone else on the station."

"No way."

We glared at each other with ridiculous intensity.  I broke it.

"I don't want to send anyone into a danger that I'm not prepared to
risk myself."

"Yeah, very noble.  But we need the head of station here and alive."

"I'm the best person for the job, dammitf"

"Then we'll send second-best."  He folded his arms with finality and I
knew he had regulations and probably every other senior officer's
opinion on his side.  But he was wrong.

"Send them to me to be briefed then."  I turned away from him but he
called after me.

"Wait a minute.  Nearly forgot about this."  He reached into his belt
pocket, glanced around to make sure nobody was watching, and held
something out to me.  A flat piece of round-ended metal about two
fingers wide and short enough to be concealed in the human palm. Metal?
 It had a soft sheen, almost like clean fur.

"What is it?"  I'd never seen anything like it, either tool or
artifact.

"We found it on Jones's body but it was put in with his other effects.
Forensic only checked it this morning.  It had other human residue on
it--Quartermaine's."

I looked at him, shocked.  "This is what Brin was carrying?"

He nodded.  "We think Jones picked Quartermaine's pocket.  Sasaki found
a couple of people who said they saw Jones following someone the night
before the Q'Chn attacked in Delta.  And this morning I confirmed that
Trillith offered to pay Jones to get it off Quartermaine."  I took
another step closer.  "Give it to me."

Murdoch dropped the thing into my outstretched hand as if he wanted as
little contact with it as possible.  "You're going to give it back to
the Invidi."  It wasn't a question.

The thing nestled in my palm, faintly warm and furry.  Was this the
nlitri everyone was so excited about?  Or simply the aid given to
Quartermaine to find the information?  As my fingers closed around it
the decision was made.

"No.  I'm not going to give it back."

"No?"  His voice rose a tone.  "What are you going to do with it
then?"

"I'm going to find what Quartermaine was looking for."  I uncurled my
fingers and looked at it.  Strange little morsel of a forbidden alien
feast.  I might have smiled.  When I looked up Murdoch was watching me,
perplexed.  Maybe I shouldn't have told him.  Officially any Invidi
technology is strictly off-limits to us and it was clearly our duty to
return it.  Unexpectedly, he grinned.

"Good.  It's about time we had some answers."

Nothing, dammit.

"Nothing," I said out loud to the empty room.  "There's nothing
here."

The space was too cramped even to echo back.  After Security moved the
contents of the Calypso salvage down from the Sigma storage bay where
Keveth was killed, they'd erected a modular containment area here in
one of the Gamma warehouses.  The flimsy partitions kept any stray
radiation away from other equipment but also meant that I had very
little room to maneuver around or over the piles.  I kept banging sore
parts of myself on the corners of boxes and slipping on debris.  My
temper, already stretched, twanged and broke several times.  But this
was something that couldn't be done on a virtual screen.

The thing Murdoch had given me was an enigmatic flat oval, much heavier
than it should be.  I itched to find a join to pry apart and had run
every test I could think of, but it remained as smooth and seamless as
... as an egg.  A mechanical egg.  It was unlike any data storage
device I'd ever seen, so I'd decided to try doing what Brin had
presumably gone to the storage bay to do: use it to find An Bank's
nlitri.  I just hoped it was not set to respond only to Quartermaine's
bio signs or to a particular password.

I'd spent an infuriating hour or so moving it over every charred
circuit, every pathetic piece of personal property-photographs of
people long dead, an antique digital clock, unrecognizable blackened
clothing that might have been knitted wool.  Shards and lumps of
console with threads

of circuitry visible behind the pitted surfaces.  These seemed the
most likely candidates to contain An Barik's nlitri, and I passed the
device over every millimeter.  Without response.

What was I doing wrong?  The device couldn't be that difficult to use
or Quartermaine couldn't have managed-Brin had fought an ever-losing
battle with all things mechanical.  It probably gave off a signal when
the object of the search was found.  Sound?  Light?  Some sort of
tactile response?  I kept itinm my hand, every sense spread in a net of
anticipation.

Still nothing.  Either I was using it the wrong way or there was
nothing here for it to find.  I squeezed down with a grunt until I was
sitting on the deck beside the largest hunk of metal.  From their mam
data processor.  I went over this again, with the same lack of results.
My next step would have to be to check the interior of Calypso in the
same way.  This meant suiting up and going over to the wreck.  I
couldn't get to the shuttle docks so it would have to be on a
"scooter," the tiny one-person engines we used to go quickly from the
rings to one of Jocasta's surrounding platforms, or to make repairs to
reflector grids-or just to joyride, in simpler times.  Which meant
telling the whole station I wanted something from the wreck.  Although
the station would probably be too busy to notice.

Why does An Bank need evidence of An Serat's interference in Earth's
past?  To get rid of it?  But the facts surface eventually.  Griffis
and the others are not going to be silent about what they know.  And
the Calypso's presence is itself enough to prove the Invidi were
actively involved in humanity's first interstellar foray.

It all depends on the nature of this "evidence."  Perhaps it is in
some way threatening to the Invidi in the present?

That seems to rule out the cryostasis technology then.

I transferred the device--in my mind it was the egg' from one hand to
the other to scan a different area, fumbled, and dropped it.  Looks
like it doesn't break.  I leaned back against the barrier, tired of
getting nowhere.  Tired of everything.

Have I really done all I could?  When history looks back on these days
and my actions, will someone say, but why didn't she... ?

It's not that I disagree with Henoit.  Our isolation has made me
question the assumptions I had always held about the Confederacy,
Invidi technology, and the position of the Four Worlds as opposed to
the Nine.  Henoit is right about that--if we're not important enough
for them to protect, then we owe them nothing.  It's his means I can't
stomach.  I wish there were a middle ground.  Veatch's neutrality
option sounds attractive, but we can't do anything until we get rid of
the Seouras.  And as a neutral system with few defenses, we would be at
the mercy of whichever warlord or local pirate boss decided to move in.
On the other hand, if I were to ask any one of the residents of Delta
and perhaps Gamma too, they would surely say, "Do it.  If it means
getting rid of the Seouras, what are you waiting for?"  I can accept
the New Council's offer or not--only there's little "not" about it,
because I can't see Henoit getting back in a shuttle and politely
vacating the station if we say we're not interested.  Murdoch is right
to be worried.  The gamble was to accept the offer, and hope they can
actually beat the Seouras.  Hope, too, that they will

not betray us.  There might be time after for Veatch's neutrality
option.

What would Marlena Alvarez have done?  I'd laughed at myself for asking
that when I talked to Henoit earlier, but it didn't seem such a strange
question now.  Alvarez had refused to join the armed opposition to the
government, not because she supported the government, but because she
did not agree with their methods of opposition.  That sounded like our
present situation, except that those women did not face the prospect of
the very fabric of their homes unravelling beneath them.  Our situation
in space carries a new element of insecurity.

Alvarez also played one side against the other--often she used the
media to advertise excesses on one side or the other.  In the case of
the government's attempt to physically remove Las Mujeres from the map,
for example, she saved the village by making sure the opposition knew
and would act against the government.

But I wasn't a politician.  I had no idea how to play off two or more
sides against each other and not get caught in the crossfire.

The damned implant itched and crawled.  I sighed and rubbed my neck. It
occurred to me that I did have the representatives of both parties
here--the Confederacy and the New Council.  I'd assumed Henoit would
make no direct attack on An Bank because the Invidi would have
protection of some sort.  But I could confront An Barik with the
prospect of our collaboration with the New Council and gauge his
reaction.  The trouble with that was that he might react by calling in
Con Fleet .  Isn't that what you want?  I asked myself.  To have the
Confederacy come to rescue the station from the Seouras?

Haven't you been trying to ask them to do that for the past six
months?  Yes, I have.  And if that happens, presumably Con Fleet would
destroy the gray ships.  Murdoch thinks they can, and he should know.
Then the status quo would be restored.  The station--if they allow
Earth to keep it-will return to its orderly, stacked structure.  The
Four in the top ring, the Nine under them, and the refugees and
illegals under the rings themselves, right down in Recycling, down in
the shit.

Yes, the trouble with asking An Barik to rescue us from the Seouras was
that he might agree.

Third Day 12:30 pm

"You'll carry a portable sensor," I said to the Engineering team, "that
we modified from one of the outer arrays.  It won't detect life
signs--we can't break the jamming field enough--but it will tell you
when that jamming field is operating.  In other words, when the Q'Chn
is approaching."  They nodded solemnly and my heart sank as I looked at
them.  Three men and three women, all young, all experienced and
nimble.  They'd have a lot of crawling to do in this one.  "Tell me." 
I sat down and Garnet, their team leader, took my place standing.  "We
go up in one of the uplifts," she said, her voice sounding light after
my deep accents.  Her slim, dark fingers traced the route on the
holomap in the middle of the table.  "At the same time, Security starts
their diversion by taking the uplift on the opposite side.  They go up
and we go across two sections on Level Six via bisecting corridors to
the core-and access it from a side door.  We then drop three levels
within the access shafts of the core to the op sys controls.  In a
contingency plan, if we detect the Q'Chn from the uplift we can access
the maintenance tunnels from the hatch in the uplift and follow the
wall tunnels into the core.  It will take a lot longer than going down
the corridors and means going around Level Six rather than across, but
it will be safer because the tunnels are narrower."

The weak point of this plan was when they got to the core.  We knew the
Slasher must have been there because it couldn't have caused some of
the systems failures without doing so.  But we had no idea which access
network it had used.  The ordinary maintenance shaft should be too
narrow for it, but a freight shaft that rose from Level Twelve right at
the bottom of the center complex was a possibility.

"Your brief once you get there?"

"Is to be as quick as possible," said Garnet.  She caught my eye. "This
is important.  We're not to try to repair everything, merely to reroute
as many key environmental systems as possible to ring control and shut
off core access to as many security systems as possible."

"Thirty minutes," I couldn't help adding from my chair.  "I don't want
you in there any longer than that."  If they wore interface
enhancements, the few we had left on the station, it shouldn't take
them any longer.  That was another reason all of them were young--the
older humans get, the more our bodies reject enhancement, especially
those of us who have used it extensively in our youth.  Ten years
maximum is all we get.  I can't plug myself into an interface now
without getting a migraine headache and an interface that needs
initialization surgery.

"If the Q'Chn does appear, we're to retreat immediately to the nearest
maintenance tunnel and get back to the uplift as quickly as possible.
Security will try to keep the uplift shaft clear."  We all knew what a
hollow promise that was.

Garnet smiled at her team.  "Gravity will be off for the duration of
this exercise so the body armor shouldn't be too much of a burden."

"Just don't put it on till we're in the uplift," suggested a
curly-headed boy, leaning back comfortably with his ankles crossed.

They all grinned, Garnet included.  "You put it on before we leave,
Stuart.  You ain't dressed right, you don't go."  She looked at me and
I nodded.  Nothing more to say.

"We start at 1400.  Dismissed."

"Good luck," I said.

"Thanks."

I sat at the table after she left, magnifying and reducing the holomap
with one finger.  What a lousy job I had.  Telling young people to go
and risk their long futures when there were those of us with less
future to risk.

All this worry about alliances--New Council, neutrality,
Confederacy--all that was bullshit.  I was responsible for the lives on
the station and my first priority must be to minimize casualties among
them.  First from the Q'Chn, then from the Seouras.  An Barik and the
Confederacy have demonstrated that they're not interested in helping. I
should go to someone who will help, and if that is Henoit and the New
Council, so be it.  I had to forget the personal angle.  After all, I'd
forgotten it for seven years, I should have had enough practice.

Dan Florida found me as I emerged from the access hatch into the Hill.
"Commander!"

I whirled, adrenaline pumping.

"Sorry.  Didn't mean to startle you.  Guess we're all a bit jumpy with
a Slasher on the loose."  His grin robbed the words of any sense of
danger.

I waited a moment until my voice was steady.  "What is it?  I'm on my
way to a meeting."  I had come to find Henoit, to settle once and for
all exactly what he wanted from the station and what he would do for
us.

He looked hurt.  "You wanted me to do some research, didn't you?"

I'd forgotten.  What had I asked him to do?

"In the historical database.  On evidence of the Sleeper ship's
journey?"  he prompted.

"Of course."  I looked around.  The Hill throughways were almost
deserted.  The stalls were battened down and doors on most of the
dwellings shut.  A couple of people talked to a security guard at the
end of this corridor.  It was gloomy, most of the lights offline.
Although the area had not been officially evacuated, most of the
residents had moved by themselves.

"Can you tell me here?"

He looked around, then back at me with a pained expression.  "I suppose
so."

I folded my arms and waited.  I didn't expect him to have found much
more than I had.

He walked over to a bench by one of the abandoned food stalls and sat.
I followed slowly as he pulled a hand-com out of his jacket and
activated it.

"I found some early records of Nguyen," he began, calling up an image.
I peered at an unclear 2D representation of a thin man with round,
dark-rimmed visual aids.

"Sorry about the magnification.  That's as far as it will go.  It
doesn't say much," he said apologetically.  "Just that he quit
NASA--that was one of the official aerospace organizations --and was
starting his own company.  That was 2001.  The next bits are scattered
here and there," he glanced at my impatient face, "but to summarize,
the company, Sunline, completed a number of jobs, programming
satellites for communications companies and foreign governments,
developing small-scale space communication devices, and so on.  This is
over a period of ten or twelve years."  "What about the flight itself?"
"Very little on it.  There's an article in one of their specialist
aerospace journals that Sunline was involved in a cooperative venture
to repair one of the old skylab platforms and conduct manufacturing
experiments there.  It wasn't very clear on who the other collaborators
were."  "Rachel said they used one of the old sky labs to modify the
ship."  He shook his head.  "You'd think the government agencies would
have detected them from the ground, or from one of their other
satellites.  Space technology must have really hit a low."  "Either
that or the Invidi provided some protection against surveillance."  It
was one possible reason the Calypso had remained anonymous after it
left Earth too.  "What about Confederacy records?"  He shook his head. 
"Not so much as a whisper.  Although the Invidi one kept a pretty tight
hold on that sector until after Earth began space flight."  "You didn't
find a log entry by a freighter?  Saying that they followed the trail
of a Nukeni ship?"

"No, why?"

"I did.  Do you mind?"  I took his hand com and looked myself.  Same
database, same period, same search parameters --nothing.

"Where did you see it?"  said Florida, when it became obvious that what
I was looking for wasn't there.

"In the Confederacy historical database," I said crossly, "same as
you."

"On your office interface?"  he persisted.

"On my hand com

"And when did you update your hand com

I felt my face flush with embarrassment.  That hand com was one of my
oldest.  I'd left it inactive in the drawer in my quarters for...
months.

Florida grinned.  "I thought so.  Now mine, on the other hand, was
updated from the latest Confederacy records just days before the
Seouras invaded.  Along with the rest of the databases on the station.
The databases that people bothered to activate," he added.

I'd speculated that if I could find the log entries, anyone could.  It
looked as though this had happened.  And that someone, who had the
means to alter the official database, had decided to keep it to
themselves or make sure no one else found it.  Someone had wanted the
Sleepers to stay hidden.  Was it the Invidi?  For the same reason
they'd concealed Calypso all along?  Whatever that reason might
be-concealing evidence about An Serat's interference didn't seem motive
enough.  Or someone else might have altered the record, someone who
also wanted to keep the knowledge of Calypso's course a secret.

Florida looked shaken.  I could understand why.  How much of our other
information, historical or otherwise, had

been manipulated in this way?  It's only the official database, I
wanted to reassure him.  It's always happened.  Look at how differently
they talk about Alvarez.  We still have private and alien databases,
and our memories.  "It's nothing to do with the Sleepers," said
Florida, recovering, "but I found this incredible 2D vid fragment."  He
tapped it onto the small screen.  "I thought with your family
background you'd be interested."  The screen showed an overhead angle
on a large, square building with people gathered on a long flight of
steps in front of it. The camera zoomed in to show a smaller group at
the top of the steps. They were all human, mainly men but some women. 
The pale-suited man in the center of the group was shaking the hands of
the others in turn. With a start I recognized one of the women.  It was
Marlena Alvarez. "Recognize it?"  Florida's voice belonged to another
world.  I nodded, unable to speak.  I've known about this moment all my
life, but never seen it.  I'd never even thought to look in the
database.  The new president shook the hands of the person next to
Alvarez.  Then hers. She leaned forward and said something to him, at
which he laughed.  An incautious, genuine laugh, not politics.  "This
was broadcast worldwide, you know," went on Florida, glad to have
caught my interest.  "No wonder it had such an impact."  All hands were
shaken, all speeches made.  The new president stepped forward and waved
to the cameras. Marlena Alvarez stepped away from him to one side and
looked up.  She stood quite still for a second, then deliberately
turned back, deliberately reached across the president so that the
jerk of impact, the red blossoming of blood, was on her back and not
his chest.  The vid ended abruptly with people running and the security
forces' belated attempts at control.  It happened just as Demora had
said, except that it wasn't raining.

I found Henoit without any trouble.  He was looking for me.  We saw
each other from opposite ends of the throughay and waved as if in some
holovid drama.  "Come in here."  I dragged him into one of the communal
halls on the boundary of Hill West.  Although these places were never
locked on principle, I clicked the magnetizer as we shut the door
behind us.  It was a low-ceilinged, dusty space with benches folded
against both walls.  There was a table at the far end with an ancient
interface monitor and a vase full of flowers.  "Well?"  He stood in his
hunter's pose, hands loosely by his side, not quite facing me.  "Have
you decided?"  "I told you, before I decide anything we have to get up
to the center and repair our main systems.  Or there won't be any
station to protect from the Seouras."  I walked up quite close to him
and folded my arms.  No more keeping discreet distances.  "To this end,
I want you to help us."  "Help you do what?"  "Help us get rid of the
Q'Chn."  He moved his head sideways, the equivalent of our laugh.  "How
could there be a Q'Chn on this station!"  "I've seen it.  So have a
number of other people.  As we speak it could be attacking more of my
people."  "It's nothing to do with me."

I stared at him.  "It could attack you.  Or your people if they ever
get here.  So are you going to help us or not?"

"I asked you first.  Will you decide to join us or not?"

If I don't join them, went the unspoken corollary, he won't help us
with the Q'Chn.  I groaned inwardly.  If I hadn't known what a
difference a single H'digh warrior could make in a situation like this
I'd have thrown the entire argument in his face.

"Ah, but I have an alternative.  The Confederacy Council observer on
Jocasta is an Invidi--but no doubt your sources have told you this.  He
will be very interested to learn that the New Council wishes to acquire
a base within Confederacy territory.  The general opinion seems to be
that he could call for Con Fleet any time, just hasn't felt like it
yet. Perhaps this is what we need to motivate him."

Henoit examined me carefully, from mussed hair to scuffed boots.  Then
he threw back his head and laughed aloud, a habit he had picked up
around humans and used only when he was acutely uncomfortable.

"You have changed!  You want me to risk my life to keep your own people
out of danger and instead of guarantees you give threats."  He stopped
laughing as quickly as he'd started.  "What is it you want me to do?"

I felt a small tremor of relief and unfolded my arms stiffly. "Murdoch,
the Security chief, is going to conduct a diversion at 1400 hours while
the repair team go into the core.  You'll have to hurry. We need you to
go with the repair team."

"I am no mechanic."  No, you wouldn't know how to do an honest job with
your hands, I thought, but kept it to myself.

"We don't have the personnel to spare.  By putting you on guard, we
free at least ten security people to work elsewhere."

He nodded, mollified.  I'd put the ratio fairly high to flatter, but he
probably thought one H'digh equaled closer to twenty Con Fleet security
guards.

"Where will you be?  Coordinating?"

"No.  I'm going to leave the station for a short while."

"Leave?"  He stepped closer.  "Where?"

"I'm certainly not going to take a stroll back to Sector Central, am I?
I'm going to have a look in the wreck of the Sleeper ship."

"Have a look for what?"  He was close now, and intense --more so than
when we'd discussed the Q'Chn or talked about the New Council.
"Nothing."  "Halley, what do you know about that ship?"

I looked at him astonished.  "What do you know about it?"

"We know that it was last seen between Alpha Centauri and Earth.  One
of our sources in the innermost circles of the Confederacy Council
informed us that it might arrive somewhere on the outskirts of
Confederacy space."

I didn't say they seemed to know considerably more than we did.

"Wait a minute.  You're saying you came here because Calypso came, not
because you want Jocasta as a base?"

"No, we do want you to join us.  But.we are also interested in why
Calypso was sent from Earth so long ago.  Or how."

My head was spinning.  I wasn't sure how much he knew about the Invidi
side of it, about An Barik trying to rectify a mistake made by An
Serat.  "Let me guess.  Your

source on the Confederacy Council is a supporter of An Serat?"

"I believe so."

So the Invidi power straggle is definitely related to a ship that one
of them sent from Earth a century ago.

"We think this An Serat may be sympathetic to our cause," he continued.
"We hope to find something on the ship to confirm this."

"But how did you know it would come here?"

"We did not.  Other ambassadors were sent to other stations.  But the
likelihood of its being here was greatest.  This is Earth's only far
base."

I needed to sit down but there were no chairs and the benches looked
difficult to unfold.

"What do you think you'll find on the ship?"  I felt the small, heavy
shape of the Invidi device in my pocket.  Surely this wasn't it.

"Think for yourself," said Henoit.  "This ship disappears from the
record before their flight is done, probably hiding behind Invidi
shields until the rest of the galaxy is ready.  Then it arrives here,
thousands of light-years away."

Thousands of light-years away.  What technology could An Serat have
given humans that would upset the other Invidi so much they'd abandon a
valuable space station and risk other alliances?  What was it that they
want us kept away from most of all?

"A jump drive?"  I said softly.  It made sense.  It would get the
Sleepers here.  If some of the Nine Worlds found it, they would have a
foundation for changing the Confederacy.  It would: also solve the
problem of which ship set off the jump mine  I wondered if An Serat had
foreseen the mine or the Seouras.  "But why didn't An Barik just call
in Con Fleet and wait to seize Calypso.  Henoit shrugged.  "We think it
may be something to do with changing the elements of the ship's
arrival.  The tim escape

So we've had to cope single-handedly with the Seouras for six months
because An Barik was waiting to intercept a present from the past.  I
choked down the anger.

"Why hasn't he called Con Fleet yet?"  I said aloud.  "Calypso's been
here three days."

Henoit made a negative gesture with his head.  "I don't know, although
it is fortunate for us.  Perhaps he is waiting to confirm this is the
ship."

That was a good idea, come to think of it.  If there was nothing on
that ship after all, we were going to look like a bunch of idiots.

"I'll go and confirm whether it is or not.  You protect our repair
team.  Deal?"

He hesitated.  "How do I know I can trust you?"

I put my hands on my hips.  "You don't."  It felt good to be getting
somewhere with the mystery, to at last be close to understanding
something.  "I can't fight Q'Chn.  Can you recognize an alien jump
drive?"  He wouldn't know a jump drive until he saw the stars begin to
sink beyond the window.  He knew I could find it more efficiently.

Pleasure in resolving the mystery spilled over into the physical
pleasure his presence still aroused in me.  It was an incredible relief
to be on the same side again.

"If we find it, will you join us?"  He broke the spell.  "Let's deal
with that later," I said.  I stepped away, giving myself a mental
shake.  I'd almost initiated something we both would probably have
regretted.

If I found a jump drive on Calypso, we might be able to bargain on more
equal terms.  After all, this is my station.  Salvage found here
belongs here, and I wasn't about to hand it over without getting
something worthwhile in return.

$

Third Day 2 pm

I found Rachel in the Rehab center, morosely flicking through some
plans of the station on their library monitor.  "Are you free?"  She
glared.  "Do I took like I'm much in demand?"

"Honestly, it's so depressing.  I know I'll never catch up with a
century of science and it hardly seems worth trying.  Hannibal's quite
content to go back to first grade and Ariel's too busy having fun with
that journalist."  We walked along the quiet back ways of Gamma.  The
words poured out of Rachel as though my presence had tripped a release
switch.  "With Florida?"  "I don't mean 'fun' as in playing around.
Florida's given him a job as researcher at the channel."  It seemed
that one of the Sleepers was managing to fit in.  The one I'd have
thought least likely to.  "I know the position is pretty bad here, and
it makes me feel so powerless.  I haven't felt like this since... since
the Invidi came."  "They made you feel powerless?"

"It's how I felt after the first few moments," she said.  "Everyone
remembers what they were doing when the Invidi came.  It was how you
identified that First Contact generation--whether you were old enough
to remember it.  "I'd just joined Sunline and I was in Brussels getting
some equipment we'd ordered from the Europeans.  I was in a cafe on the
rue Hoffman--I even remember the name of the street.  Black coffee and
nectarines for breakfast.  Everyone was talking at once and shushing
each other around the tele screen  I looked outside and you could see
the sun glinting on one of the Invidi ships, far, far up.  I remember
fear, joy, disbelief--emotions large enough to express what had
happened.  But it was also the beginning of a feeling of being trapped.
That feeling has never gone away."  "Why do you think they made you
feel trapped?"  She shrugged.  "I don't know.  Maybe it wasn't them
exactly.  Their coming made it impossible for us to go any other way
but theirs."  We'd reached the doorway to an emergency airlock.  Rachel
paused, one foot on the sill.  "Maybe that's why I joined the flight,"
she said.  "To get away from that feeling."  We stepped into the
airlock and I gestured at the wrinkled pressure suits that hung there. 
The Earth Fleet crew member in charge of them smiled as charmingly as
an Achelian boutique-owner.  "Care for a walk outside?"  I said.

"Are you sure it's safe?"  Rachel's voice was scratchy in my ear
pieces.  Residual particles from the comet's tail were playing hell
with the inter suit comm systems.  Our suits were old, reliable,
unwieldy things with portable ai racks "Perfectly," I assured her. "The
Seouras have never shot at anyone on a scooter.  We use them all the
time for repairs."

She gripped me so tightly around the waist that I glanced down to check
all my lines remained un severed

"Ready?"

"Yes."

I pushed open the thrusters and the scooter left the airlock with an
explosion felt, not heard.  We skimmed along the surface of the ring,
close enough to see darkened lines where the surface had been repaired,
bobbing over protruding hatches and reflector lines.  Rachel's grip
slackened a little.

"This is fun."

"Uh-huh."  I hoped it was not also a waste of precious fuel.

"How could they have put a drive on Calypso without our knowing?"  She
sounded properly resentful.

"The same way they kept the information from us-probably some sort of
concealment field."

We angled away from the ring and floated towards the maintenance
platform.  It loomed flat above us and the tethered form of Calypso
seemed much more formidable than it had on a virtual screen.  There's
nothing like "real" reality.

Our head-lights made the shadows dance in the debris.  Calypso's main
cabin was familiar--I'd stared at the plan and our scans so much over
the past few days that I could have drawn it all by heart.  Our salvage
droids had removed most of the loose stuff that could puncture a suit,
so involuntary depressurization was less of a problem than
radiation--the warning patch on my sleeve had already begun slowly to
stain from green to orange.  When it began to glow red we would have to
leave.  We couldn't expect de-rad therapy back on Jocasta, for our few
remaining radiation soak ups were kept strictly for emergency use. 
They were another re-supply that never arrived from Central.  The main
cabin was cold with ghosts of silent sleeping forms.  I looked at
Rachel with new respect.  How must it feel to willingly give up all you
know, everyone you cared about, for that cold and the uncertain
interstellar dark?  Rachel's head turned inside her helmet.  "God, what
a mess.  I can't believe we lived here ..."  "Where's the engine room?"
The blackened surfaces, the debris, and the confusing light--from our
helmets, the planet, the sun itself--all made it difficult to take
bearings.  Rachel spun slowly, then pushed off from the "floor" to a
point close to a tangled mass of metal that must have been engine
controls.  Her gloved hand patted each piece of debris as she drifted
past.  "My poor baby.  I'd like to get my hands on those bastards who
designed those mines."  "They're long gone.  From this space, at any
rate."  I controlled my excitement with difficulty.  Breathing too hard
mucks up the air intake mix.  Rather like my implant.  "One of the
Confederacy's more impressive victories.  I told you about the booby
traps when we took over the station."  I took the little Invidi device
from my pocket and moved it over the wreckage in hope of some response.
Nothing.  "What's that?"  "I hope it's going to help me find the drive.
Are you sure it was around here?"  She paused in front of a singed but
unbroken panel in the back wall of the chamber.  "I know where the
engine room was.  But as for the other thing..."  Her voice crackled
with tension and static in my helmet.  "Would you know an Invidi drive
if you saw one?"  Touche".  I placed the egg close to the panel but
there was no response.  I was beginning to think I'd have to take the
ship apart module by module.  "I want Calypso," she said.  "It's ours
to claim, isn't it?"  "I suppose so.  Wait a minute--you want to claim
the drive, too?"  Theoretically it was possible.  "God, no.  I just
want the ship."  "Why?  It'll take a lot of work to repair."  "What
else have I got?"  she snapped.  "At the very least, I can sell the
parts for scrap.  Or maybe we could put it on show and charge people to
come and see.  You know, see the fantastic hundred-year-old freaks and
their ship.  I could do a routine in a fake cryochamber and Ariel could
sell the show through Florida's network."  Her bitterness confused me. 
"I'm sorry if you're unhappy here.  When we get rid of the Seouras..." 
She laughed outright.  "You remind me of my grandfather.  He had one
phrase for the future: 'when the Jews leave."  When the Jews leave,
we'll build our homes on the mountain.  When the Jews leave, we'll beat
our guns into something useful.  When the Jews leave, we'll have enough
money to send our daughters to college instead of sending our sons to
training camps.  Well, Grandpa, we had news for you--they didn't
leave."

She revolved a couple of times in silence.  I couldn't see her face
through the reflections on the helmet.  When she spoke again her voice
was less certain.

"I'm sorry.  I just meant that I tend to want to do things now, not put
them off.  And if it makes any difference, I'm not unhappy here.  I was
more unhappy everywhere else."

The egg jumped in my hand.

For a second I didn't understand.  Then, barely breathing, I passed it
again over the same area.  A small, square section of the fused
circuitry took on a different hue.  I floated the egg carefully beside
me, reached out, and prized the section away.  It peeled off, like a
strip of sealant three centimeters thick.

Underneath it was ... an area in flux.  Perhaps circuitry, perhaps
contained plasma.  It seemed to have depth--could be the whole of the
auxiliary chamber, which was the size of a small room.  Shifting colors
from all over the spectrum.

Rachel peered over my shoulder, her gasp an echo of my own.

I caught the device and brought it up to the same level as the flux. It
quivered again and there was an answering shift in the colors.  The egg
pulled at my fingers and I let it lead me to the edge of the "window." 
I let go and it stuck there, magnet-like.

The pattern changed.  It became ordered, mathematical, temporal in
progression.  Repeated itself.  And again.

This is how they got here.  Nothing complicated, nothing mysterious.

"Is that it?"  Rachel's voice held awe.

"Must be.  A Nukeni freighter wouldn't have anything like this."  My
voice sounded faint, even in my own helmet.  The pattern repeated
itself, and this time I could see the subtle differences.  I thought I
could see it.  Please, let me see it... Not information about a drive
but the thing itself.  That's what the nlitri was.  An Bank hadn't
known exactly and Brin had given me a misguided translation.

I've got them.  This is what An Barik wants--evidence of the Invidi
helping humans, evidence that An Serat sent forbidden technology to the
Nine Worlds.  For whatever reason, he is helping us against the Four.
No wonder the other Invidi are out to get him.

I threw my arms back, bounced off the floor and laughed aloud.  I must
have looked like an idiot.

"What's so funny?"

"What's funny is that now we have proof of Invidi interference.  Now I
have a bargaining chip to use against the New Council.  Now we don't
need to depend on the Four Worlds' ships for every bloody thing ..."

It wasn't funny anymore.  This meant the potential to change
everything.  I remembered what Henoit had said.  It was the
breakthrough his group dreamed of.  At the moment, the Four Worlds
controlled the flow of resources and the diffusion of technology, but
if everyone had the jump drive the New Council would be well on the way
to achieving their objectives of fairer representation and greater
autonomy for the Nine.

"That's nice," said Rachel, in a tone that was anything but.

""Nice'?  This is the greatest breakthrough in human technological
history since we began to use alien science."

"A breakthrough.  Funny, in my time a breakthrough was something you
did yourself."

I didn't say anything.  She was right but I couldn't agree with her.
Not in my present position.

"I don't know if you remember, but the vehicle An Serat shamelessly
used to get this wonderful drive to you was also carrying passengers.
We didn't think we were passengers, we thought we were explorers, but
that's beside the point, isn't it?"

She paused for breath.  Her air intake tube was probably recalibrating
the mix.

I took advantage of the pause.  "What is your point?  I don't see why
you feel so betrayed.  An Serat is obviously trying to help the Nine
Worlds, for whatever reasons.  Or at least, helping us aligns with his
own plans, whatever they are.  In any case, we reap the benefit."

"There wasn't much benefit to the other people in our ship, was there?"
she retorted.  "My friends and colleagues who didn't make it.  Do you
think An Serat didn't see the jump mine?  Can you honestly say you
think he would have cared either way?"

I shook my head in the helmet.  I was almost certain it would have made
no difference to the Invidi whatsoever.

"No, I don't think so either," she said.  "So just don't expect me to
go all oogly over another piece of someone else's technology that we
were sacrificed to get to you."  "I'll take some scans," I said, after
an awkward pause.

We only had a few minutes before radiation levels

reached critical.  Enough to capture two of the flux sequences on an
observation scanner.  Not enough to work out anything important.  The
egg came off without resistance, and the window darkened immediately.
When I looked back it was no more than another strip of burnt panel. 
We returned to the station in silence.

We peeled off our suits with sighs of relief and I replaced my dirty
uniform over sweaty inner clothes with a grimace of distaste.

Rachel was subdued, her face closed as she struggled with the
unfamiliar suit fastenings.  I was trying to consider all the
ramifications of what we had found.  When the airlock door opened,
neither of us was prepared.

An Barik himself stood there, in full environmental suit.  The suit's
shimmering folds swayed as he stopped before us.  The tiny lobby seemed
full of alien.

"Governor Halley."  The volume of An Bank's voicer was louder than
normal and his words made us both jump.

"Is something wrong?"  My own voice sounded thin and unsteady.  But I
gave him no polite "Master."

"Yes."  The suit continued to shiver.  I could imagine how the
tentacles beneath writhed in distress.

"Halley?"  Murdoch poked his head around the door.  "They said you
were..."  He looked unhurt and good-humored.  "Colonel Henoit here said
you were going over to the wreck.  Find anything interesting?"

Rachel snorted.  Murdoch stepped into the room, followed by Henoit.
Murdoch had spoken of Henoit in an easy tone, but there was a tension
between them.  The lobby was now so full we could barely move.

"You have that which belongs to the one," An Barik boomed.  Presumably
he meant the little device he'd been generous enough to lend
Quartermaine, the "egg" weighing down my inner trouser pocket.  "How
did you know?"  "It tells the one.  Where is it?"  He must mean it had
given off a signal when I used it on Calypso.  I hadn't thought of that
possibility.  "I left it on the ship."  "You lie to the one."  Murdoch
glanced from me to the Invidi in puzzlement.  "Halley, what..."  I
hadn't expected An Barik to believe me.  "Yes, I lied."  An Bank glided
forward so that he was as close to me as he could get.  Next to me,
Rachel edged away.  "Give the nlitri" He said nlitri, not jump drive. 
"You don't know what it is, do you?  Anyway, I'm not giving it to you."
The suit rippled.  "You must.  You do not understand the consequences.
But you must give before it is too late."  It stopped me for a
moment--the thought that he might "see" a consequence of my actions
that could worsen the situation, difficult as that was to imagine.  The
temptation to bow to second sight was strong.  But then again, An Barik
had said himself that "individuals initiate paths according to their
nature." "Give it."  His tentacle shot out with surprising speed but
Henoit was quicker.  He reached past Murdoch, grabbed my arm, and
yanked me with painful strength to stumble between them.  An, Barik
made no further move.  "It's not hers to give," said Rachel.  She
folded her arms and raised her chin in defiance.  "It's ours.  It was
given to us and it's on our ship.  You have no right to it."

Theoretically she was right.  But the time for theory had passed.

"You cannot resist."  An Barik's simulated voice held frustration but
no fear.  "Confederacy forces come.  The one calls."

He'd been waiting all this time to get his tentacles on the jump drive.
Or rather, prevent us getting hold of it.  Now that he'd got the
signal, he had called his ships.

"My forces are waiting too," said Henoit.  He turned to me, his hand
still gripping my upper arm tightly.  "Give me the drive, Halley.  I
can get away before Con Fleet gets here.  We can still save it."

"Oh sure.  And you'll leave us to the Seouras and the Confederacy. This
is what you've been after the whole time, isn't it?"  I wrenched my arm
from his grip and stepped back almost on Murdoch's toes.  I've seldom
felt such a fool.  I'd thought we were working on the same side this
time.

"No.  We wished for an alliance if it was worth the price.  But we will
not risk a direct confrontation with the Confederacy.  Not yet."  His
voice grew colder.  "Give it to me now or I'll take it myself."

"You can't have it," I said, furious at his presumption.  "It's
installed in Calypso.  And don't try to take it.  I left an explosive
device set right in the drive window."  I didn't look at Rachel, and
hoped she had the sense to keep a straight face.

"You lie again."  There was a shadow of anxiety in An Barik's voice.
"You do not risk harming the station.  It is not your character."

"Yes, well we're all acting a little out of character today,

aren't we?  I thought the Invidi were our friends."  I heard the
vicious anger in my own voice and let it stay.  "The station will not
be badly damaged in the blast.  I do know how to set a charge, you
know."

Murdoch shifted beside me and I turned my head to him.  Our eyes met
for a long second, and I hoped he understood about the bluff.

I turned to An Barik.  "We need to sit down and talk about this.
Whatever you do with the drive, part of the bargain is that this
station is neutral.  We'll declare separation from the Confederacy."

"That is unacceptable."  It was probably the strongest statement I'd
ever heard from him.

"What are you going to do about it?"

"If you didn't want humans to have this drive," Rachel interrupted,
"why did an Invidi install and set it so that our ship ended up
here?"

We all waited, but only the silver folds moved.

"Serat is misguided.  He has little support."  An Barik finally
answered.

"An Serat is still alive?"  said Rachel.

The comm link on my wrist beeped.  "Halley here."  I half turned away
from the aliens, trusting Murdoch to keep an eye on them.

It was Lieutenant Baudin's voice against unusually loud background
chatter.  "The Seouras ship's moved closer and is maintaining that
position.  They want you to go over."

Everyone was silent.

"Jeez, talk about timing, Murdoch's mutter pulled me around slowly.

"Nobody leaves the station," I told Murdoch, not that it mattered much,
not where powerful aliens were

concerned.  "Post guards around all the airlocks for platform linkups
and keep the spokes evacuated.  I don't want anyone to touch that
wreck."

"You can't go," he said.

I blinked at the flat statement.  If I didn't, they were capable of
destroying us.  "Do I have a choice?"

"You said they read your thoughts."

"No.  I get images from them and speak out loud... Oh hell."  I covered
my mouth with shaking hands.  "The jump drive."

"Are you sure they can't read your mind?"  Murdoch sounded as desperate
as I felt.

"I don't know."  How hard would they try?

"What's the matter?"  Rachel frowned from one to the other.

"They mightn't need it if they already have some form of hyperspace
drive..."  His voice trailed off.  We both knew mat wasn't the point.
It was one thing to contemplate freeing the Four Worlds' secret within
the Confederacy --although I was far from happy about this, either--but
another thing entirely to let proven enemies take Invidi technology.
Especially if they were advanced enough to understand and use it Derive
a defense against it

We could ask An Bank for help, but by the time Con Fleet got here the
station could be destroyed.  We'd lose the drive and they'd get hold of
the New Council.  We could make a deal with the New Council, use the
drive as the price to get rid of the Seouras, but not in time.

Murdoch clenched and unclenched his fists.  "Destroy it.  Use the
charge.  Boom, no more problem."

He knows I wouldn't have thought of that.  It makes me sick to think
of losing the technology we've waited so long for.  "If we don't
destroy it and I go over, the Seouras might force me to tell them or
see the drive in my mind.  But it's not certain."  "Can you take that
risk?"  "If we do destroy it they may still take the image from my mind
and attack the station in retaliation."  "I'll put a tug field around
the wreck, take it away."  Henoit was insistent.  "I'm to provide the
diversion? No, thank you."  A dull boom reverberated far off and the
walls and floor shuddered.  We looked at each other.  "What the..." 
Another, worse shaking sent Murdoch staggering against me and Rachel
into the Invidi, from whom she recoiled frantically.  "Halley to
Command.  What's going on?"  Baudin's voice coughed.  This time in the
background we heard emergency sirens.  "The Seouras ... hit the outer
reflector and the old processing platform."  "Did you confirm their
message when we got it? Say I'm on my way?"  "Aye."  "They're getting
impatient," grumbled Murdoch.  "Confirm it again... Baudin?"  "Yes,
ma'am."  The pickup went dead.  Why were they so impatient?  Normally
they'd wait while I readied the shuttle and left the station.  They'd
wait anything up to an hour before sending a second request.  Today,
there would have barely been enough time to get to the shuttle dock  A
reminder?  I didn't need reminding that I'm at their beck and call and
that the station is a hostage for a purpose unknown.

"Halley!"  Henoit pulled me around with painful quickness.  "You must
let me take it.  Give me the Invidi device, it will help us decipher
the drive."

I pulled back in turn.  "Leave me... What will your people do with it?
Let everyone know about it?  Not likely."

"Better some of us have the knowledge than leaving it with them."  He
indicated the Invidi with his chin.  One of his hands snaked down into
my trouser pocket.  How did he know it was in there?

"Leave me..."  I tried to wriggle away, then his grip on my arms
slackened.

"Take him to the brig," said Murdoch to the two constables who had
entered from the corridor.  One of them stood next to Henoit, the other
pointed a weapon at him from several meters away.

Henoit looked at them, then at me.  "You have one last chance to join
us.  Give me the drive."

I stepped back.  "You wouldn't get it away, anyway."

He looked at me for a long moment then turned on his heel and walked
away.  It looked like he was escorting the guards, not the other way.
From Murdoch's frown, he was thinking the same thing.

I was already out the door when An Barik spoke.  "You must not give
them the nlitri."

"I have no intention of giving it to anyone," I said angrily and tried
to keep going, but he squeezed Murdoch aside and followed me.

"The moving ones have left their own turning," he said.  "It must not
be allowed to begin again."

I groaned.  "Master, I have to go or they'll damage the station.  I
don't understand what you're saying."  "They wait also.  That which
belongs to Invidi must not belong to them.  The shadow comes again."  I
shook my head and walked faster.  If I couldn't understand him, I
couldn't help him.  Murdoch caught up with me.  "You can probably take
one of the shuttles.  We didn't run into the Q'Chn at all before.  The
repair team was in and out within half an hour.  They said environment
als will hold for the moment."  At least there's some good news.  We
reached the lift up and Murdoch opened the controls.  What am I going
to do about the Seouras?  I mustn't tell them about the drive. The
answer came as the lift moved and our feet rose from what was no longer
the floor.  "You'll have to come with me."  The glow lit Murdoch's face
from above, flattened his deep eye-sockets and drained the color from
his dark skin.  His mouth opened once, shut.  "Me?"  "Yes.  We must
prevent them gaining information about the drive.  You'll have to stop
me if that looks like happening."  He let go the rail to wipe his hand
over his head, and the movement started him bobbing against the wall.
"How the fuck do I do that?"  "That's your problem.  Shoot me." 
"Bloody hell," said Murdoch faintly.

Third Day 3:30 PM

Will I be able to hear what you're saying?"  "Uh-huh.  Sound carries.
But you'll have to leave the helmet and use a mask if you want to
hear."  I caught Murdoch's expression.  "The slime won't hurt you. It's
just messy."  This time the gray ship was too close to permit
stargazing.  It was visible already, a small dot of menace against its
indifferent backdrop.  If I looked behind I would see the untidy world
of the station.  Murdoch pulled himself back from the aft locker with
his half-mask.  We both wore the soft, crinkly, "veined" suits that
could be activated in seconds in case of sudden depressurization.
Helmets at the ready, as per regulation.  "Tell me more."  He strapped
himself in the copilot's seat.  I'd briefed him how we would dock, how
the airlock took a while to open, how the slime was everywhere.  How a
couple of them would usually escort me to a different part of the ship,
not far.  I didn't ask how Murdoch planned to keep me quiet if I
couldn't keep my mind off the jump drive and my mouth shut.  He'd
disappeared for ten minutes while I went through the shuttle's
pre-flight routine, presumably to arrange something.  It was better I
didn't know.

"What do you want to know?"  I was not thinking very clearly.  I wasn't
thinking at all because the tide of apprehension threatened to drown me
even before we reached the ship.  I kept running the same series of
diagnostics on the shuttle's sensors.  Engines, navigational interface,
atmosphere How about an outside sweep?  We need as much information
about inner system conditions as we can get, considering the station's
sensors are largely blocked by Seouras interference, not to mention
residual blurring from comet dust... I can't do this, it's too much.
Eleanor's right, I'm too tired, my hands are shaking on the controls.
It's supposed to feel good to reach a stage where there are no
alternatives, no more decisions to be made, just action but please
somebody else do the action.  "Why are they here?  What do they want?"
Murdoch stared at the gray ship as it grew in the forward screen.  From
being a speck it was now a flat wedge, no external features yet
visible.  The ships have unusually few external arrays, perhaps a
function of their drive.  Or aesthetics.

"I don't know."

"Y'know, I had the feeling that An Barik was trying to tell us
something."

"Yes, but he's impossible to understand."  I snapped my mouth shut over
the way my voice rose on those last words and tried to take deep
breaths.

Murdoch drummed his fingers on the console and stared at the gray ship.
"You've been closer to the Seouras than anyone.  When you're in this
link, haven't you picked up any of their motives?  ""No I haven't," I
muttered, and my hands shook so badly on the controls that I had to
ball them in my lap.

His next question was one I keep asking myself.

"It's been quite a while.  You've done this a lot.  Is there some way
you could use the link to harm them, give us an advantage?"

What to say--I haven't tried?  It's not that sort of link?  Even
thinking of it makes my heart thud in my throat.  "I don't know."  I
didn't want to look at him.  For a moment I hated him for touching a
possibility that I wanted to ignore-had I left an avenue of escape
unexploited?  A path of resistance untrodden?  I hated him because it
might be the truth.

"We should have birds," he said.

He'd certainly caught my attention.  "What?"

"Birds.  On the station.  In the ag section, maybe even in the
residentials."

I stared at him.  I wasn't the one who had lost it.

"I was in the ag section the other day," he continued, seemingly
unaware of my response.  "The reflectors had just come on, and I
thought, y'know, if this were plane tide there'd be a dawn chorus.
Couldn't we introduce a few species?  It might help with fertilizing
the plants."

I opened and shut my mouth a couple of times.

"They'd have to be seed-eaters."  I could see the appeal of birdsong.
Logistically though ... "Unless you want insects as well, and we've had
enough problems with unwanted pests not to want to risk it again.  And
where can we get the breeding stock?"

"I'm sure the Q'chn have a catalog."

I smiled in spite of the tension.  There's a sector myth that the
Q'chn have catalogs for everything.

"When I was a kid," he began, then shot me a quick sideways look to
check if I was laughing at him, "we used to go up the country for
holidays.  It was always more 'home' than Sydney.  The first few
mornings in the bush I'd have to get up with the dawn because the birds
were so bloody noisy.  After a couple of days I'd get used to them.
Then we'd go back to town and I'd wake up at six or whatever and it'd
be quiet.  Too quiet, like nothing was alive at all."

He looked at me.  "That's how it was the other day.  Too quiet."

Too quiet.  I wished it was quiet inside my head.  I'd told Murdoch
that the Seouras had grown preoccupied, but the strange feeling of
foreboding about them had grown to a hard ball of sick certainty.  It
was like a conversation in another room, or on the edges of sleep--I
couldn't discern actual words, but the tone and direction was
discernible.  The tone was panic and the direction was an urgent
imperative to do something.  What, I didn't know.

"What were you doing before we left?"  I'd assumed he was getting a
report from Sasaki.

"Making good your bluff."  He sounded pleased with himself.

"What do you mean?"

"I asked Kwon to slip over in a scooter and put a bomb on Calypso for
you' He paused.  "It was a bluff, wasn't it?"  v. J I couldn't believe
he'd acted so quickly.  "Where..."

"It's in the reactor chamber.  Your security access code on frequency
zeta will set it off.  At that frequency it should sneak through the
interference even from inside the Seouras ship."  He grinned.  "It was
a great idea but I knew you'd never do it."

Murdoch coughed and gagged.  The smell must be penetrating the mask's
filter.  His suit was already coated with a dark, greeny-gray layer,
the silver reduced to dull gleams as he turned around and back,
disoriented.  The mask was a round, clear plane clamped to the outline
of his face.  The raised box over nose and mouth, muzzle-like, gave his
face a predatory quality.

I'd taken my suit, jacket, and shirt off in the shuttle as usual.  This
time I kept a comm link in one pocket and the Invidi egg was in the
other.

"This is it?"  His voice echoed flatly through the mask's filter. There
was an almost imperceptible time lag, or perhaps a trick of the murky
light--his lips seemed to move out of sync with the words. "Where are
they?"

"They'll be here."

He shook his head and shuffled closer.  I shouted the words this time
and he nodded.

Why had they called me now?  Timing too unfortunate to be accidental.
The apprehension that had been building in the back of my mind for days
squeezed like the slimy walls.  Squeezed out rational thoughts until I
had to grind my teeth to hold in a scream.

Murdoch took a standard all-frequency scanner from his belt and held it
close to his mask to peer at the readings.  I could recite them by
heart.  In addition to this ship's shielding that prevented us
contacting Jocasta and the dampening qualities of the atmosphere
itself, there was another, unidentified bio magnetic field that had
defied all

our attempts at analysis since I took my first sensor readings back to
the station.  All we knew was that it had not been present on the
original Seouras ships that were part of the Abelar Treaty.

Then two of them were there, filling the tunnel entrance --I've
wondered if they scrape out the tunnels with their bodies as they move.
Murdoch jumped and I heard his muffled oath.  He stumbled backwards
until his arm brushed my side.  The glance he gave me was fearful,
quizzical, amazed, and I saw them for a moment through his eyes.

I'd expected some reaction to Murdoch's presence but they did nothing,
just moved around us a couple of times in their usual smooth
inspection.  Then the familiar tug at my mental sleeve.

Come.

They slid back towards one of the tunnels.  I tapped Murdoch's arm and
yelled, "We follow."

He nodded, but behind the mask his eyes were wide with shock.  He'd
read my reports back on the station of course, but that was nothing
like confronting the real thing.  He lurched and slipped behind me. 
The tunnel was claustrophobic, dripping, oozing, and seemed to go on
forever.  Slime coated my bare skin in layers of itchy fluid.

I reached back for Murdoch's hand and eased off his glove.  He grabbed
it with his other hand before it could fall.

"What... ?"  I grasped his hate hand with a sigh of relief.  I wanted
to hold warm flesh.  To feel a connection other than the alien one that
nestled in my brain.

Murdoch pulled on his turn so I spun around to face him.  For a moment
he stared, one hand gripping mine, the other cool on my shoulder in its
insulated glove.  What I could see of his expression through the mask
was unexpected and, unexpectedly, set my pulse thudding with something
other than fear.  I smiled at him with the discovery and got a tense
grin back.

Come.

I shook my head against the pain of the call, tugged Murdoch's hand and
kept going.

We were in another chamber before it was clear the tunnel had ended.
The edges of the space blurred back into layers of shimmering bodies,
almost the composite shape of my nightmares.  There were more of them
here, more than I'd ever seen before.  The mass seemed to move within
itself without actually shifting position.  Murdoch squeezed my hand.

"I didn't think... so many."  The slime sucked away his words.

I looked around.  Seouras lined the whole chamber.  The voices in my
head had echoed, but surely not this many.

Come.  The impact of the thought was so strong and the resulting pain
so intense that I whimpered and staggered back into Murdoch.

"You okay?"

I shook my head, unable to concentrate on what he was saying.  Pushed
myself away from him.

The first two stood close.  Awaiting an answer?  It was close enough to
see even through half-closed eyes that their body surfaces moved in a
kind of pattern.  For the first time it occurred to me that it might be
their language.

"Where?"  I choked out.

You will assist.

I was shocked at the clarity of the thought as much as its
unexpectedness.

"Help you--how?"

"What?"  Murdoch was trying to follow a one-sided conversation.

"They want me to... Ow."  I grabbed at him with one hand and my head
with the other.  He steadied me with a grunt.  One of the two closer
Seouras edged my way, then back again.  Repeated the movement, an easy
hint.

Come.

"No.  Leave me alone."

Come.  The voice was stronger, and carried with it the sense of urgency
I'd felt here earlier and before that on the station.  Urgency, almost
desperation.  A sudden image, bright and precise, filled my vision with
such completeness that I let go of Murdoch and fell back in the slime.
The station.  Around the white rings were the platforms and reflectors
and all the attached paraphernalia that I knew and loved.  I could feel
their concentration as they showed it to me.  Showed me a green,
coruscating energy field reach out to devour it.  Showed me its
destruction, driving me to panic.  Was that the image of what they were
going to do if I didn't cooperate?  Or, horrible thought, had it
already happened?

"Why are you showing me this?"  The spell broke and the un age
disappeared.  I don't understand.  The emotion I feel from them is not
satisfaction.  Hopeless, everything lost.  All gone.  Gone lost past
still.  We thought we could defeat them.  We tried for so long.  The
last chance gone.  All gone, still... I don't know if it's my thoughts
or theirs.

Something touched me on the shoulder, and my eyes

snapped open.  It was Murdoch.  He gestured at the Seouras and pulled
me to my feet.

"They want us to follow," he mouthed.

Come.

It nudged us along.  This had never happened before and I wondered if
Murdoch's presence had changed something.

The light in this tunnel is strange, the wrong color.  White light cold
light no food no love light turn it off.  Get out of my head.  The
tunnel in the dream with a room beyond.

Go.  You can go.

Go where?

Unlike in my dreams, it was a short tunnel and stopped abruptly.  The
line of slime reached up and around and back down to the floor, and on
the other side white metal walls continued into a white metal room.  A
portal go on go in you can go see help.

The light was too bright after the gentle green and I stood blinking
until my eyes readjusted.  Even then the light was uncomfortably strong
and I squinted into a large space, nearly the size of Alpha mess hall.
The near wall on one side and the far wall were lined with
interfaces-control panels.  On the other side benches jutted out into
the room interspersed with large, solid objects.

A dozen steps into the room and I stopped, hands to mouth, as I
realized that the objects were bodies.  Seouras bodies.  They "stood"
upright as when alive, but a live Seouras was such a continuously
moving, shimmering, crawling thing that I hadn't made a connection
between the two.  Three, four, seven... at least twenty bodies here.

I sucked in a deep breath to try to get rid of the sick

feeling.  Enemy or no, death is death.  And why leave the bodies here?
It seems an unlikely graveyard.  I'm breathing properly.  Air whistles
down nasal passages, fills up lungs.  Lungs happy to filter and return
unwanted bits, breathe out.  The room has an oxygen atmosphere.  It
probably killed the Seouras.  "What the hell's this?"  Murdoch's voice
was comfortably loud.  I turned around to see him holding his mask. 
Our guide still waited in the doorway.  "You can't come in here, can
you?" I asked.  Murdoch looked at me quizzically then realized I wasn't
talking to him.  Affirmative.  "What happened?"  The resulting jumble
of images was too confused and far off, like someone shouting gibberish
three rooms away.  "Wait."  I retraced my steps, keeping one eye on the
still forms until I stood in the entry.  If I stretched my arm I could
touch the slime.  I could close my eyes and feel the touch of their
thoughts.  Stop fighting it I told myself as firmly as I could.  You've
been fighting for... forever, and where has it got you?  Nowhere.  You
might as well try letting them in.  Try going to them.  Go on, try it.
I slipped into a long, gloomy tunnel but it's all right, it's talking
voices, lots of voices.  The Moving Ones, that's what their own name
means, "Seouras" is a Danadan word, in itself a still thing.  They
don't like to leave others here in the bright light and the cold still.
Cold white hate hates us can't break five.  We resist you resist help
us.  Too fast, too A?.  I'm being carried along out of control.  You
must let me take it at my own pace.  A pause, then fewer, clearer
images, not just chaotic loaded colors.  There was a planet, torn with
warfare.  After that, gray ships lifeless and waiting to be used, to be
taken, and the Seouras did.  They crossed the void in the gray ships.
But their own strife followed them and they began to divide into
factions.  And the ship learned that they were there.  A lever was
triggered in its programming and they were trapped.  Death powerless
rage hopeless... The ships.  It was the ships all along.  I slid down
the wall, shocked beyond sound.  "What is it?"  Murdoch knelt beside
me. "They're trapped in these ships."  "What?"  He looked skeptical. 
We have thought of the Seouras as "the enemy" for so long, they have
been our jailers for so long, that it takes an immense effort to
imagine that they could be prisoners too.  It was easier to talk to
something, so I leaned on the wall and stared at the single Seouras in
the passage as the representative of the voices.  "Why did you come
here?"  We want to leave.  A painful yearning.  A picture of the
Seouras outside the ships against an indeterminate background. 
"Haven't you tried to leave before?"  What followed was
extraordinary--a whole history of resistance.  Of despair and attack,
counterattack, defeat repeated until it collapsed from exhaustion. 
They tried everything, and the ships grew stronger as the programming
grew more knowing.  I shook my head, stunned.  Our jailers are
actually prisoners and it's not enough to hate and try to destroy
them-they must be rescued?  "You didn't need to kill my people."  Hate
remained.  Surprisingly, the voices agreed. Then I got a clear picture
of a stick-like creature moving in exaggerated slow motion.  That's me.
You must cause it to be still.  We cannot.  "They want me to help
them," I said to Murdoch.  "You're kidding."  "I know, but what if it
means they go away?  I should at least look at what they're talking
about."  He threw up his hands in confusion.  I felt the same.  I
forced my legs to walk back into the room, past the Seouras bodies like
huge fossils to the system interfaces mat lined the wall.  This must be
what they wanted me to look at.  It seemed more menacing, more
dangerous, the closer I got. And more familiar.  Familiar?  Why the
hell should it have seemed familiar?  I put out a hand cautiously, but
there was no force-field between my dirty fingers and the smooth, cool
metal.  No bolt of energy to strike me down.  The interface panel had
to be that sunken portion with scattered triangular patterns.  Then I
knew why it was familiar --I had worked on a pattern like this before. 
In the first days on Jocasta, when it was merely Abelar Four
Workstation.  The Seouras had said they found the ships.  A likely
story, part of me had scoffed. Now it was more credible though, because
these ships were built with Tor technology.  The Tor had destroyed the
ecology of Abelar's inner planets rather than allow them to fall into
Confederacy hands. It was unlikely that they would leave perfectly
usable ships floating around for anyone to salvage.  Unless it had been
deliberate--they might have left ships with their malevolent
programming to catch someone.  An elaborate booby trap.

"What are you going to do?"  Murdoch stood behind me.

"Bill, this is Tor technology."

"How ... ?  Do you flunk that's what An Barik meant?"

"I don't know."  I turned back to the interface.  My mind was full of
Seouras voices and I found it hard to concentrate on what Murdoch was
saying.

I had to find a way for the Seouras to get away from the ship. Quietly,
so the ships don't notice.  Just a quiet nudge to open the door.  It
all depends on how much I can remember of the Tor systems.

The interface is heat-and time-lag operated, like they were on the
station.  Be careful not to fall asleep with your hand on it, the joke
ran.  I would try the method we used to circumvent the jump mine
programs, but it took time.

I could feel pressure from somewhere beyond the Seouras voices.  It
threatened to flood my mind.  Hurry up.

I jerked back my shaking hands from mistakes, unsure of the pathways to
follow.  I couldn't think, couldn't find the right links.  It had been
a long time since I'd worked on Tor technology.  The systems were like
labyrinths, full of traps and dead ends.

I'd started to find a path when it happened.  The chamber seemed to
ripple as though a strong wind rattled the bulkheads.  The pressure in
my mind increased.  I took my hands off the interface and held my head,
trying to keep the pressure out

"What is it?"  Murdoch tried to peer into my face.

"Something..."

Then the voices were back in my head.  But the coherence of the
previous multiple thought was lost.  Or rather, now that the single
voice was scattered I could see what it had been.  The new voice was
strident, cold, inorganic.  Where is the new signal?  I'd never "heard"
such a specific question from them before.  There was no mistaking its
meaning though.  An Barik's signal from the device I used in Calypso
must have had a long range.

"What do you mean?"  I caught Murdoch's eye.  It's time.  He nodded.
Where is the new signal?  The force of it squeezed the breath from my
lungs.

"I don't know."  There was an ominous silence that I hastened to fill.
"Really.  Is that what you wanted me to... ?  Ahh."  I reached blindly
for Murdoch's hand.  Pressure--inside--worse--pain spurts all over.
Greenish light spins behind my eyes crawling forms shapeless shaped.
Murdoch's hand not here.

"In the... I don't... Bill."  Scream his name he's not here.  One alien
in front of me one behind I'm on my knees.  Pressure unbearable a whole
galaxy compacted within my skull not enough breath to sob help us help
me don't.  Where is the neyt signal?  "Find it yourself."  God,
Murdoch, do something.  Stand try to stand get out of the way it's so
slippery. Murdoch a silvery blur.  Where is the signal?  The word
rises like bile in my throat can't keep it back can't stop. 
"Calypso."

Murdoch's there at last.  He holds something in front of him.  A
weapon.  My last thought as he shoots me is that I didn't mean it
literally.

Third Day-5

PM

I'm choking.  Coughing, retching, hawking.  Breathe.  A dream.  It's a
dream.  Slime.  A Seouras dream.  "Steady."  Murdoch's muffled voice.
That's right--Murdoch shot me.  How long have I been out?  Must have
been some kind of tranquilizer and it's making me sick.  Clever of him
to remember he couldn't trust an energy weapon in here... His warm grip
levered me upright like a crane.  "It'll wear off in a minute.  I gave
you the antidote."  He let go my arms cautiously and watched as I
swayed.  There was a strange sensation in my head.  Empty.  "They're
gone," I said in astonishment My lips felt numb and slurred the words.
"No, they're waiting..."  He turned to wave his hand at the entry and
his voice died away.  There were no shimmering Seouras forms in the
tunnel.  He strode over to the entry and peered dtot, mask at the ready
in case the containment failed.  "You're right Can't see any of them." 
I tottered over to him.  "I can't feel them in my head."  He drew the
mask over his head.  "Come on.  We gotta get back."

I put a hand on his arm.  "I told them, didn't I?  They know about the
drive."

He nodded.  "That's why we have to get back."

He started to leave, then turned back when he realized I wasn't
following.  I couldn't move--the weight of failure seemed to drag me
through the deck.

Murdoch removed his mask again.  "What's up?"

I stared at the slime-stained whiteness and couldn't move.

His free hand reached out and tentatively cupped my chin until I looked
at nun.

"It doesn't matter," he said gruffly.  "They would have found it
eventually.  At least this way they didn't take the station to pieces
looking for it."

After a moment I nodded, but I didn't tell him of that earlier vision
the Seouras showed me.  I hoped they had not done just that.

Without our guide I wasn't sure if it was the right tunnel.  The slick,
uneven walls and invisible exits all looked the same.  I kept slipping
and lurching into the walls because I couldn't tell how close they
were.  No sooner would Murdoch set me upright than he would slip
himself.  Finally we emerged into the "hall."

"Airlock is ... this way."  I had to clear my throat carefully to get
the words out.  Didn't seem to have enough breath to accommodate them.
And something here smelled disgusting.

Murdoch pulled me along.  My head was spinning and my chest ached
horribly.

The air.  Either the Seouras atmosphere itself was disappearing, or my
implant was malfunctioning, which would explain ... why I can't... I
lost the thought and crashed into Murdoch's back, gasping.  Not... a
good way ... to die ... the world lurched as Murdoch lifted me ...
Thunk.  Swoosh of humid, stale air.  Filters malfunctioning by the
smell of it.  I gulped in lungfuls of wonderful oxygen, coughing and
spluttering.  Murdoch leaned over me as the shuttle whined in
pre-launch.  "Shit, you gave me a fright."  He straightened up and went
to the controls.

I sat up slowly.  My throat felt like a piece of frayed string.  "They
cut off the implant.  I couldn't breathe."

"Yeah, I guessed that.  Strap in."

"Do you think the ship will let us go?"  I peered at the readouts,
ambiguous with the interference.

"Dunno," said Murdoch.  "But I'm not going to sit around waiting for it
to tell us."  The shuttle veered away from the gray ship in its
programmed flight back to Jocasta.  The aft sensors showed no fire from
the ship.  Two minutes.  Five.

We looked at each other in disbelief.  "It's our lucky day," said
Murdoch.  Then we realized how close to the station the gray ship had
come.  There were no Confederacy ships within view or as far as we
could track on sensors, nor anything resembling a New Council fleet.
They were all taking their time.  And meanwhile the gray ship had come
to take.  die prize from under all our noses.

"I reckon it's dome to get the drive, it can't be bothered with us."
Murdoch echoed my thought.  He kept one eye on the ship amd one eye on
the station, his hand ready to alter course if the ship opened fire.
"But if it wanted the drive, why not get it when we first picked up
Calypso!  Hell, why not pick up Calypso when it first arrived?"  I
thought of the strident, inorganic voice that had echoed in my head. "I
think it was waiting for the signal, the same one as An Bank.  He had
to have that confirmation before he could send for help."  I let myself
float in the net.  There was something I should be doing but I couldn't
remember what.  Then I realized.  "It fits, if that really is a Tor
ship.  They always wanted Invidi technology, that's one of the reasons
they fought.  I can see how the Seouras could get trapped.  I'd guess
that they never really understood the programming.  The Tor were
cunning bastards.  It's quite conceivable that they put together
programs specific to these conditions."  "You mean, to Jocasta?"  I
nodded.  "If the Invidi can sort of see the future, why not their worst
enemies?  They might have been waiting for the drive too."
"Speculation."

"I know, but we'll never know the truth.  Can you get ; a comm link to
the station?"  He tried, then shook his head.  "Too much interference.
No wonder, with that thing so close."

Minutes later he brought the shuttle in to dock.  We pushed ourselves
out into the airlock, shocked at the gloom and stale air.  The
modifications to the environmental systems couldn't have lasted very
long.  Either that, or they'd cut off the center systems altogether.
This might make the Q'Chn uncomfortable, but I hoped it wouldn't decide
to come down into the habitat rings in search of fresh air.

I kicked off around the corridor in the direction of the nearest
uplift.  Murdoch drew his hand weapon and followed.  He placed a finger
over his lips and I nodded.  Not that I didn't think the Q'Chn could
find us by a variety of means other than sound.  The lights failed
completely.

Murdoch cursed once in the sudden, directionless dark.

I hooked one foot over the handrail and peered at the peeling
fluorescent paint of the direction indicator strip.  Lift, this way.

The faint rustle of Murdoch's uniform followed me down the corridor.
That faint sound and the pale line were our only reference points in a
weightless, featureless universe.  At least we wouldn't see the Q'Chn
if it attacked now.

We reached the lift, tumbled in, and slammed the Emergency Close pad.
The door closed with its usual maddening slowness.

Murdoch sagged back into the air, arms spread.  "I'm getting too old
for this.  I think I'm gonna retire."

I retrieved my comm link from a slime-sodden pocket.  "Halley to
Bubble. Status report."

Baudin's voice.  "The closest gray ship is stationary off the
platforms.  From what we can tell, the others seem to be backing off.
We picked up some small craft leaving the ship just before you did.
Looked like life-pods."

I glanced at Murdoch.  The Seouras might have taken their chance to
flee.

"Our systems?"  "At least fifty percent of environmental is down.  We
think the Q'Chn is in the center core."

"See what you can reroute from other systems."

"We're on it.  Most of Security is on crowd control and patrol to stop
panic."  Murdoch twisted parallel to the door.  "Halley," he said
quietly, and his tone immediately brought me away from the link.  "The
lift's not moving."

The direction indicator on the control screen was still.  The location
indicator said Level Five.  We wanted Level Six, where the uplift
entries were.  The door began to open.  I tried to override the command
but there was no time.

The Slasher hung there looking in on us.

Murdoch hooked one elbow over the rail and fumbled to bring his weapon
to bear.

I stared at the Q'Chn with my mouth open.  It really was beautiful.
Colors from an alien spectrum ran through the chain-mail-like surface
of its thorax and the curve of its long forearms was clean and sharp.

The Slasher lowered a head the size of a human chest and focused upon
me a multifaceted eye disturbingly like Keveth's.  The eye was
mesmerizing, an immense orb with opaque, fiery depths.  In one corner
of every glittering surface, a tiny bipedal figure.  The eyes were set
in a foreshortened triangle, the small mouth hidden, like the Q'chn ,
on the lower side of the jaw.

"I've come to say goodbye, Halley."  Henoit's light voice broke the
silence.

The Q'Chn swayed backwards a little to allow Henoit to brace himself in
the lift doorway, graceful even in zero-gravity.  "And to say that I'll
be taking the Calypso with me, so I'd like that Invidi toy you have
with you.  Please don't

say you haven't got it because I don't like searching blood-soaked
bodies."

I took the egg out of my pocket and flicked it to him.  He put out a
hand to intercept it.

"You brought that thing onto my station."  I was so angry at him, I
couldn't think of anything but the bare words to say.  No expletive
would have been adequate.  If it had been me with the gun, I would have
shot him.

"I did.  My apologies for the mess it's left.  We agreed to revive the
Q'Chn but only if they agreed to modifications.  It's supposed to
follow orders more closely."

"How could you?"

"Getting the drive is worth it."  His hand closed on the floating egg.
"You know that.  You want it yourself.  Don't deceive yourself, Halley.
I know how much you want it."

"Not enough to endanger the station," I retorted.

"You betrayed me," he said.  His hand closed on the floating egg.  "You
betrayed me many years ago and now I'm returning the favor."

"Why did it kill all those people?"  Murdoch asked.

I tried not to imagine what Henoit would order it to do now.

He made a short sound of impatience.  "It's not good at following
orders.  It came onto the station before it was supposed to, then
killed the Q'chn that helped it."  Behind him, the Q'Chn moved its
wings slightly.  "It doesn't like the Q'chn , as you may imagine.  The
Q'chn wanted its kind extinct."

"What about Quartermaine?"  Murdoch rasped beside me.  "That was after
you got here."

"My source said that Quartermaine had found the drive information and
was taking it to the Invidi, I did not want the Invidi to call his
forces until I had had a chance to confirm the existence of the drive
myself."

"Jones was your informant," said Murdoch.  "Jones was in the storage
bay and Jones asked Keveth to pick up the Q'Chn."

"Yes," said Henoit.  "But the human Jones was also betraying me to a
member of the Four."

Jones had dealt with Trillith.  Jones had relayed all Trillith's
information to Henoit but must have tried to play one off against the
other.  So the Q'Chn killed him, too.  What a terrible mess.

"I'm going now."  Henoit pushed back from the doorway.  He looked at
me. "You will regret not joining us."

"I agree with you, but I still won't do it."

He looked at me again for a long moment, then the lift door shut.

"What the..."  Murdoch peered over my shoulder at the controls.  "He
sent us down.  I thought we were mincemeat for sure."

Funny how legs tremble with release of tension even when you're not
standing on them.

"We've got no way of stopping him.  Why should he bother killing us?"

"Maybe.  But I'm glad I was with you and not alone."  His comm link
beeped.  "Murdoch here."

"Chief, the H'digh warrior has escaped from the brig.  He knocked out
the duty constable and rerouted our surveillance monitor.  Must have
been twenty minutes ago."  Kwon's voice was breathless and
apologetic.

Murdoch held his breath for ten.  I could imagine Kwon doing the same
on the other end of the link.

"That's all right, Sergeant.  We're on it."

When we got down to Alpha the uplift lobby and the corridors were dark
and deserted, the air still and beginning to heat up.  If the heat
dispersal system was out, we were in big trouble.  I could hear raised
voices in other areas.  The sounds seemed to carry farther than
usual--the background hum from recycling and maintenance that we never
normally noticed was mute.  Our footsteps echoed.

To see the station like this hit me harder than Henoit's betrayal, hurt
more than the danger we still faced from the gray ships, made me feel
worse than the thought of An Bank calling the Confederacy to come now
that he had what he'd been waiting for.

They'd both been waiting for it.  The Invidi and the Tor ships.  An
Barik had said that the Tor were dangerous, and he'd been trying to
warn me in his obscure way before we went over to the gray ship. Veatch
had said that the Tor had similar powers to the Invidi but in a
different way.  Perhaps it was not only the Nine Worlds to whom An
Barik wished to deny the drive but the Tor as well.  More likely, the
Tor were the main reason he'd waited and the fate of the Nine was
merely coincidental.

Henoit had been waiting for it too, curse him.  The New Council
calculated the station where Calypso would arrive and sent their best
team.  The team most likely to succeed, given who was he$id of the
station.  I wondered how much An Serat had been directly involved this
time.  Did Invidi "retire"?  At least An Barik's faction do their own
dirty work.  They don't use proxies like the New Council.

We found a waiting karrikar.  It shuddered as it moved and I felt a
distinct sideways drag.  Inertia compensators are damaged.  Hope the
stabilizers are okay.  "Halley to Bubble."  The comm link still worked.
"Baudin here."  "A small ship will try to leave the station soon. 
It'll probably head for Calypso.  Monitor it."  Murdoch was speaking to
Sasaki on his own link.  He cut it and turned to me.  "We've got
problems. People can see the gray ship coming and they're panicking. 
If we're not careful, some are going to try to evacuate.  And that's
likely to start a real panic."  "Put out a message by all available
means--use hand-speakers if you have to--that the gray ship is not
going to attack the station.  But if anyone attempts to leave, that's
when they'll be attacked."  He talked to Sasaki again.  We couldn't let
the gray ship take the Invidi drive.  I didn't want Henoit to have it
either.  But we bad no means to stop it happening.  An Bank claimed
he'd called Confederacy forces--we'd have to sit here and wait until
they came to the rescue.  Was that all we could do?  Wait until the big
players fought it out and then line up politely for our piece of the
spoils? God dammit to hell.  They had proper lights in the Bubble, the
emergency system.  It was only two-thirds as bright as normal, and the
blue or green glow of interface consoles lit faces from below.  Every
console was occupied, and I had to squeeze past two Con Fleet ensigns
to get to the upper level.  Baudin turned to greet me, relief on his
face.  He even forgot to salute.  Behind me, Murdoch strode to the
Security console.

"Lieutenant.  Status of environmental systems?"  Keep it calm.

"Functions have stabilized at forty-nine percent," he began.

Murdoch cursed loudly.  I nodded at Baudin to wait and peered over
Lee's shoulder.

Henoit was leaving.  At that moment all I could think was, I hope he's
got the Q'Chn with him.

"Lock the docking mechanism.  Don't let him go."

Murdoch groaned.  "Can't.  We've lost access to the entire docking
system."

"Deactivate the grid."  I could see as Lee tried it that we had no
control.  No control over what the gray ship did, or over what the
Confederacy would do when it came.  We'd almost had more control over
our own fate when the Seouras were in charge.

"The ship is leaving," said Lee.  She connected the image to Baudin's
big viewer in front of the central console and we watched the tiny
speck break away from Jocasta's curved bulk.

"Tell him to pull back."

Lee sent the message, then turned to me anxiously.  "No response."

"How many life signs are there on that ship?"

Another agonizing minute while she struggled with the sensors.  "We
can't tell.  It's a deflecting field."

"The airlock records?"  Murdoch looked over our shoulders,
-"Non-operational.  And we couldn't access them anyway at the
moment."

I glanced at Murdoch.  No way to know if Henoit had taken the Q'Chn
with him.

"Have we any contact with Confederacy ships yet?"  If An Bank had
really called them.

"No, ma'am.  The Seouras ship is still blocking our sensors."

"Where's the gray ship now?"  It was like watch-playing a game on
holovid.  Nothing to do but lie back and enjoy the fun.

"At the pace it's moving, in two minutes it'll reach the outer
platforms."  Lee sounded as worried as I'd ever heard.  They didn't
know about the drive, and must think the ship was moving in to attack. 
Of course, it might attack after it got the drive.

"He's not going to be in time," growled Murdoch, eyes narrowed at the
screen.  Henoit's little ship was nearly at the platform where Calypso
waited.

"We'll be fine," I said loudly.  "Keep an eye on environmental.  Do we
have repair teams organized?"

Baudin nodded.  "Chief McGuire is on it."

I felt a momentary pang of envy for the chief engineer.  I'd swap jobs
with him any day, if I thought he could do mine as well as I know I
could do his.

"Commander?"  Lee's voice pulled me over.  "The small ship is
activating a traction field.  It's attaching it to Calypso."

I squeezed in beside her to look at the figures, more precise than an
image.  Henoit was mad.  How could he expect to steal the drive from
under the Tor ship's nose?  He didn't have time.

The gray ship fired before the smaller ship had properly attached the
field.  Henoit's defenses lasted a few long seconds before the engines
exploded and it came apart.  A small flare, little bigger than the
funeral pods.  Momentum

from the explosion snapped Calypso's tether and sent her spinning
outwards, away from the station and the gray ship towards the stars.  A
confused exclamation from Lee, Murdoch's startled expletive, a sharp
cry from someone else.  I needed to sit down.  There was a cold, empty
spot in my stomach that threatened to rise and fill the space behind my
eyes.  Murdoch dragged a chair from the console beside Lee and pushed
it behind my knees as they gave out.  He muttered something about
putting my head down.  Henoit was dead.  It couldn't have been anyone
else on that ship.  "The gray ship's closing on Calypso" Lee tried to
increase the amount of information the overtaxed sensors were sending
us, but definition on the screen grew progressively worse.  The gaze
Murdoch turned to me was bleak.  We'd failed to keep the Invidi drive
out of enemy hands.  It was hard to see how things could get worse. 
But they did.  The gray ship turned around and fired on the station.

The ship moved in, annihilating our options with each kilometer
forward.  The bolts it fired were familiar from mat first attack six
months ago.  They had little destructive power but disrupted every
electrical and plasma-based function on the station, causing total
havoc.  The second bolt hit Alpha.  The Bubble's lights dimmed and the
room filled with greenish crooked lines of energy that danced over the
interfaces and touched us briefly with sharp pain.  Amidst the groans
and cries, the smell of smoke and crackle of severed connections, Lee's
calm voice spoke.  "Ship has stopped moving."  Her interface was the
best shielded and most heavily backed-up in the Bubble, but it was
barely working.  It gave her a trickle of data from our furthermost
external sensor, the only one not affected by the gray ship's attack.
Everyone was looking at me.  They'd done this when the Seouras first
attacked too.  As if they expected me to come up with a solution to the
insoluble.  As if I could pull a magic rabbit out of a hat, like an
Invidi.

I leaned over Lee's console.  "Can we still send a short-range radio
signal?"

"A radio signal?"  Lee's training wavered for a second, then she
quickly adjusted the screen.  "Yes."

I made sure the frequency was zeta and tapped in my security code.  I
hoped Kwon had done his job properly, that somewhere inside the gray
ship, the bomb in Calypso was activated.  That the gray ship had not
deactivated it already.

Nothing happened.  Murdoch and Baudin staggered over to Lee's console,
coughing in the sour smoke, and peered over our shoulders at the
screen.  I felt sick.  So much for magic rabbits.

Then the gray ship began to list.  It turned away from the station but
wasn't making much, speed.

"Their power output just dropped," Lee's voice rose excitedly.  Then
her screen flared with glaring whiteness, which faded abruptly as
radiation fried the sensor.  A few seconds later we heard low booms as
debris from the explosion began to impact on the station.  Lee
muttered, moved over to another console, and tapped frantically.

I turned to Murdoch.  "Get down to Delta.  They'll have the most
damage."

He nodded and left.  I stood over Lee.

"I need a damage report, Ensign."

"Yes, ma'am," she replied, but it took minutes.  I paced, stopping only
to help one of the other ensigns make emergency repairs on his
console.

"The gray ship's been heavily damaged," said Lee finally.  "It's on-a
course that might take it into the planet's atmosphere."  "What about
E&..."  "Environmentals critical.  We've got"-she ran through them
slowly--"a Smoke ventilation failure."  That meant trouble for the
residents and methane leaks into our atmosphere.  "In some of the outer
areas damaged by the explosion we've got containment failure.  The
doors aren't coming down."  "Shit," someone said.  The possibility of a
runaway containment failure was everyone's worst nightmare.  Normally
decompression in one part of the station could be contained, but not if
the containment system itself was non-functional.  Everything could
blow open to space.  There was no time to evacuate and no way to do so
anyhow.  The containment system was up in the center core.  I could
reinitialize it using the original program, the way we first began
after modifying the Tor systems.

"Tell Lieutenant Garnet to meet me in the west spoke," I said, and left
Baudin in charge of the Bubble.

"We don't know if it's still there," I said to Garnet, as the uplift
jerked its way to the end of the spoke.  "We couldn't tell how many
life signs were on Henoit's ship."

Henoit would have had no reason to leave the Q'Chn, which was a
valuable asset to the New Council.  That's what I told myself.  Then
again, he hadn't seemed satisfied with the Q'Chn's "modifications" and
it was conceivable he'd left the alien here in a final act of
vindictiveness.  Besides, and I hadn't thought of this until now, would
the Q'Chn have fitted into that little ship?

"You go through the tunnels, I'll try the corridors."  We'd decided to
stick to the plan the repair team had followed before.  "Whoever gets
there first starts the procedure."

She nodded.  We bobbed off the wall of the uplift as it bumped to a
halt.  Garnet removed the access hatch in the wall and gave me a
thumbs-up before wriggling inside.  I took a deep breath and opened the
door, a sick feeling in my throat as I remembered the last time the
uplift door had opened to reveal the Q'Chn and Henoit.  Nothing.  I let
out the breath and pushed out into the corridor.  It was still dark,
but the pale direction strip on the wall was clear.  I pulled myself
along quickly, heart pounding out of all proportion to the severity of
the exertion.  The air was stale, but not that stale.  The strip was
cut off at regular intervals where doors opened into the corridor from
each side.  When the gravity field was on, this corridor was a
stairwell.  Most of the doors were shut, their round Confederacy logos
glowing in the dark.  Once I felt cooler air and an echoing space at
one of the entries, and it took me a moment to gather enough courage to
go past.

Main intersection, along into second corridor.  The second corridor was
the same, the light strip green.  Only the dark and the handrail cold
under my palms, roughened where paint had flaked, pitted where the
original smooth metal had been replaced.  The sense of dream, of other
worldliness, was so strong I had to remind myself a couple of times
what I was doing.  Silently.  It was tempting to fill the immense
silence all around with words.

The end of the corridor came almost as a shock--I bumped my head on the
wall and nearly missed the handrail on the rebound.  I didn't want to
flail around the middle of the corridor trying to get my bearings.
There should be doors on right and left and an access hatch above my
head.  One hand on the rail, my other hand patted the smooth wall
surface in vain.  They've moved the hatch!  Don't be ridiculous.  Try
upside down.  The hatch was there and I gripped the round pipe handle
with relief.  The interface controls glowed faintly but, as I'd
suspected, offered no response.  It would have to be opened manually.
My palms kept slipping with sweat and I had to wipe them twice on my
trousers before the handle would move.  Into the narrow space.  I swung
the door shut and reached up with relief to activate the light strap on
my head.  The warm glow banished the surreal sensation of the corridor
and resurrected the urgency of my mission.  Get to the core, quickly.
Rungs in a tunnel.  The air smelled differently here, metallic, more
alive.  My sense of smell had returned, now that the Seouras implant
had stopped functioning.  The rungs were for when the Invidi gravity
field was operational and the core center was "down."  I didn't need
them now and pulled myself along the rails with slippery hands.  At my
back was the cold, rough wall, on the other side of which lay the
corridors and storage bays.  There was a gentle hum in the air, but not
as loud as it should have been.  Underneath the rungs of the ladder
now, the delicate operational systems that ran the station for us
covered the surface of the core in a filigree of metal.  I looked
around-it seemed inconceivable that the Q'Chn would fit in here,
although perhaps it could fit farther along where the relays were
larger and the space for parts renewal and retrieval also larger.  I
had started on Level Six, where all the spoke connections were, and
needed to go across two levels, to Eight.

I followed the spiraling rungs of the ladder.  Inside the narrow circle
of light the op sys conduits and data boards flickered and shone.
Outside the circle, the dark where the Q'Chn might be waiting.  What
did it think of all this?  Was it simply glad of the excuse to begin
its work of slaughter again?  I imagined it must have found Henoit's
orders very tame--a murder here, a murder there.  Nothing like the
glorious Q'chn wars of the past.

Level Eight.  No sign of Garnet, but I'd sent her on the safer and
longer route intentionally.  I hooked my feet over the rungs, snapped
my kit's lead onto my arm to prevent it drifting away, and began to
work on the containment systems.

They showed no sign of outward damage--it hadn't been sabotage, then,
but damage from the Tor bolts.  You'd think that as the basic systems
utilized elements of the original Tor technology, they would be less
vulnerable to attack by the same technology.  This didn't seem to be
the case, although the op sys had always shown a certain hybrid vigor
in day-to-day operations.

Something clattered farther along the ladder and I started, watching a
micro-tool float away.  I'd been so immersed in the repairs that I
hadn't kept one eye on the surroundings.  Then a yellowish light
illuminated the curve of the core and I slumped in relief.

"Garnet?"

"Is that you, ma'am?"  " "Over here."

She pulled her way over to me with neat, smooth strokes.  "This is I
nodded and indicated where she could attach her enhancement connection.
"I've nearly finished modifying the baseboard for you.  I didn't want
you to use the connection otherwise.  This system's very close to the
original and I don't trust it."  She smiled.  "No, I wouldn't want to
let a Tor op sys into my head."  That's what I'd been doing for the
past six months through the Seouras, I thought, and touched the implant
in my neck briefly.  The sooner Eleanor gets rid of it, the better.  It
wouldn't take her more than ten minutes to get around the containment
system and reknit the program.  Unfortunately it was five minutes later
that I heard the Q'Chn.  It was the sound of a maintenance hatch
opening.  The slight squeal and creak was unmistakable--I'd made the
same sound when I entered the core.  It was impossible to judge
distance in the echoing dark.  Which level?  Garnet sat perfectly still
with her eyes open, seeing nothing.  The two connector leads ran from
the lumps in the skin below her hairline to the baseboard where I'd
made a safe initiator space.  If I moved her now the connection would
be broken and the system left in a worse state than when we started
because it would be confused.  If I forced her to go through the
shutdown sequence, it would take five minutes, nearly as long as it
would to finish the job.  Then I saw that Garnet had brought the
portable sensor that the repair team used in their previous mission. My
ears pricked for more sounds, I ran a scan of the core.  Everywhere
but Level Six was clear.  It showed an interference pattern that had
become almost as familiar to us as that of the gray ships.  Level Six
is too close.  Don't panic, think, I told myself firmly.  It will not
fit through the same hatch you did.  I don't care how fearsome it is,
it can't bend the laws of mass conservation.  Therefore it will try
another way, probably the freight access in Level Twelve.  We should be
all right.  What if it just sits and waits until you come out?  a nasty
inner voice questioned.  If you ask for backup, it'll mean more
casualties.  Are you going to sit here until Con Fleet arrives?  If
they ever do.  I heard a new noise, one that sent cold waves of horror
up my legs.  It was the sound of ripping circuitry and snapping
conduits. Crackles, hisses, and pops of small explosions.  Ripples of
light played over the op sys surface in front of me and Garnet blinked,
frowned, and shivered once.  There was a screech of metal being pulled
beyond molecular limits and a resounding clang after that.  I had a
mental image of the hatch door being tossed into the corridor.  It
sounded like the Q'Chn was having a tantrum.  As I listened the cold
fear turned to a flush of rage.  Before my brain registered what I was
doing, I had grabbed the sensor, hooked it onto my belt, and started
pulling myself along the levels as fast as I could go.  Nothing makes
me angrier than wanton destruction of something that has been made with
love and skill. Murdoch seemed to think we could lure the Q'Chn with
human bait.  I hoped to bed he knew his job as well as I thought he
did.

Nearly at Level Six.  Ahead I could see the dark gashes across the
surface of the op sys like open wounds with light flickering on their
lips.  Loose energy discharges popped here and there, leaving a green
afterimage on my eye.  Slivers of metal and glass dust floated slowly
towards me and I waved the debris away.  The hatch was a dark oval,
doorless as I'd suspected.  I stopped several meters away, for I had no
intention of getting within grabbing distance.  "Hey!  My voice sounded
so loud after the long silence that I made myself jump.  "You with the
wings!"  If I was going to indulge in bravado, I might as well do it
properly.

There was no response, but the silence beyond the hatch was heavy with
the Slasher's presence.

"It's about time you left my station alone.  I'm not unreasonable
though.  I suppose Henoit left you because you were indiscreet enough
to kill a Q'chn ."  I emphasized the last word.

There was a movement behind the oval darkness, a soft touch of wing on
wall.

"That doesn't bother me.  There's a ship waiting in a dock on Level
One.  If you want to leave, go there."

It probably knew there was no ship docked at Level One.  But I hoped it
would be curious enough to come and see what I was plotting.  I also
hoped it wouldn't kill Garnet first.

I turned and followed the opposite sweep of the rungs.  Pulled myself
along in a steady rhythm.  Now that the thing was done, I felt sick.
What have I let myself in for?  I ran through Murdoch's scenario in my
mind again and again-get to the airlock, lure the Slasher in, initiate
depressurization, and if you're trapped inside too, jump into the
recycling tube.  Don't forget to hold your breath.

I felt sicker.  And getting to the airlock from the core hatch
presented a problem too.  I didn't want to pass through the corridors
on Level One as I'd done earlier on Six.  Not with the Q'Chn waiting
for me.  I'd have to crawl along the wall tunnels, which were too small
for the Q'Chn.  If Garnet could get to the core using those tunnels, no
reason I can't do the same to get to the airlock.

I seemed to have been pulling myself along for hours.  The surface
under the rungs had changed, it was darker and rougher and had larger
flat areas with no surface circuitry.  The functions here had been
routed to the rings' backup systems soon after the Seouras invaded and
it had an abandoned look.

It occurred to me that I didn't have to worry about keeping comm
silence now.  "Halley to Bubble."

Murdoch answered.  The link wasn't clear but I could make out his
words.  "What's your position?"  "I'm in the core.  At about Level
Three."  "I thought you'd be finished by now.  Is something wrong?"

"Urn ... The Slasher didn't go with Henoit, Bill."  He didn't even
waste time cursing.  "What can we do?"  "Some light would be useful. 
In the corridors."  "I'm on it.  Where do you want us to meet you?"  "I
don't. You're to wait umt il I'm finished."  Not a good choice of
phrase.

"What d'you mean?"

"I'm going to jtry your airlock idea.  Got any afterthoughts that mid
fe help?"

There was silence at the other end and a muted roar in the background
that might have been voices or machinery.  Finally Murdoch spoke,
slowly.

"No, I think we covered everything.  Don't forget your decompression
routine.  But, Halley ..."

"Right."  I cut the link and tried to keep the sound of Murdoch's deep,
reassuring voice in my mind.

Must be nearly at the farthest level.  I was breathing heavily now,
haven't kept up my zero-g drills.  I found a maintenance access hatch.
It was much smaller than the entry from the corridor proper and I felt
reassured by the closeness.  It was confusing, though, with passages
stretching in four directions.  I took the tunnel that must run along
the bisecting corridor like the one I'd walked along in Level Six.

The thought of the corridor made me nervous.  Could it track me through
the wall?  It might decide to cut through the wall to reach me.  Would
it be waiting for me when I came out?

The rungs here were much smaller and were set farther into the
wall--not much maintenance would be done unless the gravity field was
turned off.  It was a long time since I'd been in one of these.  Being
small helped.  Someone as large as Murdoch would have been in danger of
brushing the sides of the tunnel.  The conduits on one side emitted a
faint luminescence and an occasional zzt of energy crackled across the
walls.  I was mere than halfway to the end of the tunnel and fear
increased with every pull.

Without warning the world turned around.

What had been "ahead" suddenly became "up."  Something yanked viciously
at my feet--I was failing.  The gravity field had activated.

I tried to grab the rungs but the momentum was too strong and carried
me straight down.  I tried to turn, braced my knees and elbows and
succeeded in partially reducing speed.  A crackling noise, sparks, and
the hiss of plasma escaping under pressure then pain shot through my
legs and shoulders.  An acrid smell of coolant.  Rail, rung, grab
anything.  Can't stop ... Dizzy with shock and pain I hit the hatch at
the bottom of the tunnel, back where I'd started.

Shit, shit, shit.  I lay still and looked up at the faint glow of the
hatch, now a good fifteen meters' climb away.  Who the hell activated
the gravity field?  The alarm that normally precedes its activation
hadn't sounded.  Maybe the Q'Chn.  Or maybe the system was glitching by
itself.  Whatever.  I lay still for another minute or two.  It was
dark. I'd lost the light band on my head.  There were numb places all
over me and I had the feeling that if I moved they'd hurt.  On the
other hand, eventually I'd have to make that climb.  If I did climb, it
would probably be one of the last things I did.  I'd thought quite a
lot about death in the past few years, and been close to it more than
once.  I had come to the conclusion that it wasn't something I should
worry about too much.  When the time came, I wouldn't try to sneak away
from it.  But it was definitely something to postpone as long as
possible.  I could lie here until Con Fleet came, but I was sick of
waiting for Con Fleet I sat up cautiously.  I had trouble moving my
right arm above shoulder level but nothing seemed to be broken.

Everything hurt, though, and my nose was bleeding.  I hate nosebleeds.
I wiped it on my sleeve and started crying weakly.  My body seemed so
heavy after microgravity, which made everything worse.

"Murdoch to Halley."  The scratchy voice came from somewhere above my
head.  After a moment I located the comm link, wedged between a rung
and a conduit edge.

"Halley here."  My voice was scratchier than the link sound.

"We monitored your gravity field coming on.  Are you okay?"

"Had a bit of a fall."  I leaned against the rungs.  "Did Garnet finish
the repairs?"

"Yeah, we just heard from her.  She's in the spoke and wants to know if
she should wait for you."

"Tell her to get out, now."  I didn't want the Q'Chn distracted.  I
looked up.  Fifteen meters.  "Are the containment systems
functioning?"

"Absolutely.  We stood down the alarm."

"Good."  I sighed.  "I'll be down soon."

"For god's sake, Halley, stay where you are.  You don't need to do any
more."

He was right, and for a moment I hesitated.  Then I thought of Henoit
and how easily he'd taken me in, how for a short while I'd been so
phenomenally stupid that I thought we might patch things up.  Somehow
the Q'Chn was part of Henoit's deception and getting rid of it meant
getting rid of him too.

Not that I could say that to Murdoch, so I hedged.  "What would you
do?"

He hesitated too long before replying.  "I'd get out of there."

Of course he wouldn't.  "Sorry, Bill.  Wrong answer."  I shut the link
and put it in my pocket.  Climbing was surprisingly easy, once the
first shock of pain wore off.  I tried to keep an even pace.  I counted
about one meter per three rungs.  Sixty.  Don't think, just count.  It
was easy in the dark to keep track only of the next rung and not to
worry about anything else.  Would the Q'Chn be waiting?  There was no
noise from above, only the mechanical background murmurs and the rasp
of my own throat.  Once I swept my arm out in an incautious arc and hit
a smooth surface.  An instant jolt of electricity pulled the breath
from my lungs and jerked me almost off the ladder.  I dropped a couple
of rungs then managed to cling tight.  I asked myself if I was really
doing this to get back at Henoit and the answer was, not entirely for
that reason but basically yes.  I had the feeling it was one of those
actions that, if we're lucky enough to survive, we look back on later
and shudder.  Sixty.  This time the opening was above me.  Don't think,
just do it.  My fingers brushed the surface beside the hatch carefully.
Remember the sequences--of course I remember the sequences, how many
years do you think I've been using maintenance tunnels?  The hatch slid
back with a slight creak and I ducked back inside the tunnel.  Nothing.
-$ I hooked my good arm around a rung and peered out.  The lights were
on and their glare almost blinded me after the darkness.  The corridor
curved around until it disappeared over its file hill to continue
around the other side of the center.  Before that, about ten meters
away on the other side, was the airlock door.  Round and solid, it
looked able to withstand the assault of an army of Q'Chn.  I hoped we
wouldn't have to try.  If all went according to plan, when the airlock
opened, the rash of atmosphere sucked out into vacuum should take the
Q'Chn with it and it would be unable to assault anything.

There was only one way to do this.  I reached up for the rung above the
hatch and used it as leverage to swing both legs over the hatch sill
and slide out.  Wishing my legs were steadier, I tiptoed to the airlock
and examined the controls.  Like all airlocks, its programming included
a built-in safety mechanism that made it impossible to open the outer
doors to a ship until the inner door had closed completely.  There
would be an easily accessible override control inside the lock too. I'd
always found this comforting, but now it was a worry--if the Q'Chn knew
about this it might be able to stop the outer door opening.  I keyed in
my code to deactivate the override.  Hope it will accept the code.

There was a soft sound behind me.  Dear god, if I ever survive this I'm
going to have nightmares for years... The Q'Chn's head and wingtips
brushed the ceiling and its wings were like leaves.

The great head shifted and one of the forearms twitched in a flexing
movement.  Would it give me any warning?

The ceiling was too low for it to spread its wings either for flight or
momentum.  Two legs take off faster than four and a quick sprint might
get me away from it and around the next corner.  But I didn't want to
run away, not this time.

It was so big, nearly three meters away and it could

reach out and cut my legs from under me.  You wanted to talk to this?
The stupidity and arrogance of the idea rang faintly in the background
of my fear.  Murdoch's voice echoed there.  "They.  Kill.  You."

I reached out two fingers very slowly and touched the controls.  The
airlock's inner door drew back with a ponderous clunk.

The Q'Chn was still.  The next second it tensed inwards upon itself,
almost shrinking.  I shrank back too.  Dammit, I got this far ... It
did nothing more fearsome than stalk one, two paces closer to the
airlock.  It inspected the small space within and turned its triangular
face 180 degrees to stare at mine.  I stared up, grasped the airlock
controls firmly in one hand, and gestured slowly with the other.

"After you."

For a moment it stayed in the same position, with that same statue-like
stillness.  Then, with a movement more awkward than any I'd yet seen it
make, lifted one leg over the airlock sill.  It crouched to allow its
whole body to follow, and the wings were curled tightly almost straight
out behind.  The other legs followed in turn.

I didn't believe it could be this easy.  I held my breath as the last
link of wing disappeared inside and hit the close pad.  As the airlock
began to hiss shut a feeler shot out and grabbed my leg.

I yelled in fright and grabbed the control box.  It came away in my
hand.  Then I hit the floor and was sliding towards the half-open door.
The feeler was like a band of steel around my thigh.  I pushed
frantically at it with one hand and flailed with the other but there
was nothing to grab on to on the smooth deck.

I braced my heels on the airlock sill, hoping the door would shut in
time and crush its feeler, but it was actually holding the door open
with two vise-like limbs.  My boots slid, I scrabbled for a foothold,
got partly to my feet then crashed over the sill and into the airlock
with the Slasher.

The hold on my leg released immediately and I slid to the other side of
the room.  It stretched a long killing-leg and snicked the blade at me.
I crouched instinctively.  The leg withdrew.  I forced my trembling
legs to stand again.  It repeated the action and I crouched down,
whimpering in terror.  It's playing with me.

Think, damn you, think.  Murdoch had said there was a recycling tube in
the airlock.  I couldn't see it All the walls were bare, except for the
override panel set next to the door, halfway between us.  And the outer
door activation panel, which was next to the round port, opposite the
Q'Chn and close to my left

The Q'Chn had tired of the game and drew both front legs up.  I slid
along the wall a little farmer away, but a part of me said, why prolong
the inevitable?  Open the airlock and finish it Getting all the air
sucked out of your lungs is a better alternative than having your
throat cut... The recycling hatch was on the floor between me and the
Q'Chn.  Of course it's on the floor, idiot With the gravity field on,
the wall becomes the floor, right?

With hope came fear.  The hatch had.a simple pullout opening for
inserting material.  It also had a magnetic seal that activated
automatically when the outer doors opened.  I'd have about twenty
seconds after the door opened to yank it back and squirm inside.

Do it now.

As the Slasher snicked back its leg for the kill, I reached back to
the outer door controls and tapped the short code to initiate emergency
opening.

The bolts groaned.  With a crack of release and a growing hiss of
escaping air, the door opened.

I lunged for the recycling hatch at the same time the Q'Chn's feeler
lashed for the override controls.  I hoped I'd managed to deactivate
them in the corridor.

The hatch cover came away so easily that I fell over backwards and had
to grab the edge of the tube to stop being dragged out into vacuum. The
hiss of air had become a roar out into cold nothing.  My ears were
popping and nose bleeding again.

I took two deep breaths, held the second, and pulled myself head first
into the dank opening.

Hold the breath, wriggle, shoulders through, hips through ... God, I'm
not moving, it's got my foot.

The Q'Chn's grip was reinforced by the tug of out-rushing air and
slowly my leg was pulled back.  Lungs burning and dark patches bursting
behind my eyes, I braced the other foot against the lip of the hatch.
Somewhere in the recesses of my mind I wondered why I was being so
damned stubborn.

My boot slipped off.

The ancient synthetic suddenly gave out, its bonds unable to withstand
such pressure.

I shot into stinking darkness and passed out.

After

Murdoch was in recycling to meet me with two constables when I slid out
of the tube in a smelly heap.

They'd monitored airlock activity and worked out which vat top to
hastily cushion.  They laid me out on the deck and gave me something
for respiratory distress and to pull my scattered senses together.

The first thing I knew about it was Murdoch's voice giving the Bubble a
status report.  I sat up with a groan and the constable draped a therma
sheet over my battered shoulders.  The room spun around gaily.

Murdoch didn't say much.  I could vaguely feel his anger, and how he
was trying to control it because I was hurt and exhausted and, after
all, the Q'Chn was dead.  No doubt he'd have plenty to say tomorrow.

"Is it..."  My voice didn't emerge as directed and I had to try again.
"Is it gone?"

"As far as we can tell."  Murdoch seemed to deliberately leave distance
between us.  He motioned to the constable, who bent down to lift me,
but I waved the man back indignantly.

"M'allright."  The room spun further as I lurched to my

feet, but I didn't care.  We'd finally got rid of the Q'Chn.  The gray
ships were gone.  Containment must be secure, or we'd all be floating
around outside too.  I felt lighthearted, as well as lightheaded.
"Whoops."  I half-fell onto Murdoch and he grabbed me.  Then, looking
down, he caught sight of my bare foot and torn trouser-leg.  It didn't
look funny to me, but for some reason Murdoch started chuckling.  I
giggled too.  We all stood there in the stink of recycling and roared
with laughter.  An hour or so later, Murdoch sent a team to the center
to confirm the Q'Chn's death.  It took them a while to find the corpse.
Eventually they scanned it on die junction of one of the spokes, quite
dead but clinging fast to the station's skin.  We left it mere for the
time being--it was too much of an expenditure in time and personnel to
go and get it.  I think, too, we were all a little scared it might
suddenly come back to life and start terrorizing us again.  There had
been no casualties from the gray ship's attack earlier, but many minor
ones from the breakdowns all over the station.  I was in the hospital
when An Bank's reinforcements finally arrived much later.

At first the Confederacy warship seemed to think our request for it to
stand off was a joke.  They ignored our warning and approached Jocasta.
When we repeated the request an irate voice--visuals were still
down--asked what the hell we meant and did we know who they were.  I
said that we knew who they were, but we wanted to talk about how many
riws they now had here, and I repeated

the formal declaration required by law.  This stopped the Confederacy
general--as he turned out to be--for a few minutes while he "conferred"
with his colleagues.  The general sounded more restrained the next time
he called.  He suggested that while they contacted Con General for
instructions, officials would board the station to appraise our
situation.  "It means they want to make sure we're acting of our own
free will, not taken over by aliens or terrorist groups," whispered
Murdoch.  I snorted.  If they'd come yesterday, I could have given them
both.

We agreed to talk, and the general also wanted to speak to the
Confederacy observer, so I told Lee to link him to An Barik's quarters.
My eyes met Murdoch's and he nodded slightly then went back to his
Security console.  I didn't think he'd be able to access the Invidi's
conversation, but there was no harm in trying.  As it turned out, we
couldn't break whatever code they were using.  Later that day An Bank
went over to the warship.  In one of their shuttles, not in his own
ship, which remained docked at the station.  We assumed that he was not
leaving us permanently.  The warship's captain wanted to dock for
repairs and crew R&R, and she didn't understand why the request made us
all laugh so much.  We finally persuaded her that we had no equipment
or materials to effect repairs and that if she wanted her crew to enjoy
the station's hospitality, they'd have to, first, help us repair the
facilities, and second, provide suitable supplies.  The captain, who
was a Bendari , had no patience with the slow give-and-take of the
neutrality negotiations, so by the time the official outline of the
agreement had been drafted, she'd already sent three large teams of
engineers who worked with great efficiency to restore normal functions
to environmental systems.  I suspect there was some conflict with the
general over this, but Bendari can take care of themselves and we never
heard anything more on the matter.  The Fleet engineers had been less
than complimentary about some of our many modifications.  They laughed
outright, for example, at the circuitry on the public recycle unit
boards and the ring lift transport cars.  In return for this help, a
trickle of visitors, mainly crew from the warship, appeared in the
throughways of the station for the first time in more than half a year.
They received such a delighted and riotous welcome that their reports
when they returned to Con Central were the start of Jocasta's
undeserved reputation as a quaint stopover port.  I call our talks
"negotiations," but in fact what happened was a series of interminable,
probing questions from the general, who was a military-turned-political
officer.  He was assisted by two officials from Central administration
who wanted to examine our records in minute detail, an Earth government
official who was nervous of everybody else, and the warship's first
officer who had obviously been told to keep an eye on all of us, and
did so.  On the receiving end of the questions were myself, Lorna
deVries, Veatch and his two senior department heads, and, to a lesser
extent, Murdoch.  It seemed strange to be under the familiar heavy hand
of authority again, and I probably didn't answer all the questions as
tactfully as I could have.  Murdoch and I gave them an overview of what
had happened since the Seouras came.  I didn't mention the New Council
until the Con Fleet first officer said they'd received information
that several large ships known to be affiliated with the New Council
were in the area.  Had we seen them?  I answered truthfully that no, we
had not, as the Seouras hadn't let any large ships through.  We gave
them what information we had on the Q'Chn, but I did not mention
Henoit, and Murdoch, bless nun, took his cue from me.  They were happy
to clean up the Q'Chn's corpse and bear it away.  I could only imagine
the stir it would cause and the problems that might arise.  By leaving
it behind, Henoit had failed in his mission.  Unless, and I believed
this to be the case, he thought a New Council ship was close and left
the Q'Chn to be picked up.  This would explain why the Q'Chn was ready
to believe my story of a ship waiting.  But the New Council ship never
came, and the facts of the Q'Chn revival, in the form of a corpse of a
young Q'Chn, became known to the galaxy.

They wanted to move the Sleepers to the warship so they could be
examined.  I said no, they'd been examined already and they were Earth
citizens.  The Central officials said yes, the Sleepers were Earth
citizens, therefore it was an Earth Outplanet Department matter, not
ours.  Lorna deVries said that under a certain article of the
Cryogenics Revival Law, we could represent the Sleepers if necessary.
The Earth official said we should ask the Sleepers themselves.  I
agreed, on the condition that Dan Florida was allowed to be present
with recording and net casting equipment.  I didn't want Griffis,
Rachel, and Kloos to be persuaded into anything against then' judgment.
As Griffis had explained to me, the idea of being seen and heard live
by large numbers of people has a restraining effect on officials.  The
general didn't like this, however, and the discussion was getting
unpleasant when a message came from the warship, followed by their
immediate withdrawal of the request.  The Sleepers were free to come
and go as they pleased.  We all assumed the Invidi had something to do
with this.

I found it difficult to have no debriefing.  In all my previous
experience, once an assignment had finished, I would present a report
to my superiors, and they would accept it after going over every detail
or perhaps order me to amend it.  I missed that sympathetic acceptance,
so unlike the scarcely concealed hostility of the officials'
questions.

Late on... I think it was the second day, I found time to stagger out
of the main conference hall in the Bubble admin area, where the talks
were held, and take the now-functioning karrikar over to the senior
mess hall.  As I expected, the place was empty.  Most of the Con Fleet
and Earth Fleet officers were either doing double shifts, sleeping off
their double shifts, or catching up on news from their counterparts on
the orbiting warship.

There was a five-liter jar in front of the serving hatch labeled "Real
Coffee Compliments of the Boulevard Hoteliers' Association."  This must
be the result of our initiating repairs on recycling first of all in
Gamma.  I could not imagine how the association had procured coffee so
quickly or from whose contacts on the warship, but I poured myself a
cupful gratefully and carried it over to the darkened corner of the
room Darkened in deference to the late hour, not because the lights
were malfunctioning.  Perhaps it was having lived for wars with
eccentric lighting, or the fact that I hadn't shut Jay eyes for far too
long and the white light made them sore, but I felt drawn to the
security of that dim corner.  I put the cup on the low table and sank
into the worn chair.  After sitting in the conference room chairs all
day I was stiff, and all the bruises that Eleanor hadn't found were
screaming for attention.  I touched the side of my neck and had turned
to check the wallscreen for the gray ships' position before I realized
what I was doing.  No need to check either now.  Nor the Seouras--their
escape pods from the gray ship had gathered and disappeared from our
sensors somewhere in the asteroid belt.  I don't know why the other
gray ships dispersed, unless it was part of their programming, but we
were glad that they had.  Presumably Con Fleet pursued them.  The
disappearance of the gray ships seemed to have left an empty space,
both out there and within me.  I hadn't yet examined that space.  It
was adjacent to other, painful spaces that held images of death,
monsters, and being trapped.  I didn't have the energy to look at those
images now and sat blankly, knowing that the Con Central officials
would return from the warship in an hour and that if I tried to sleep
it would mean releasing a flood of reaction we could ill afford.  It
was an effort to lift the cup.  The coffee was wonderful.  Its strength
and mellow bitterness took me by surprise.  It brought back memories of
Earth and home with a directness that talking to the people on the
warship had not.  I gulped down the first mouthful and coughed as the
heat brought tears to my eyes.  "That good, huh?"  Murdoch put his own
cup on the table and slouched backwards into a chair with such force
that it creaked.  He said nothing more, rubbed his chin tiredly and
sipped the coffee.  He then gave a satisfied grunt and stayed We must
have sat there like two cryo-frozen mummies for ten minutes.  "Bill?"
"Mmm?"  He focused on me slowly.  He looked terrible --eyes bloodshot,
skin tight and dry, the bones of his cheeks and temples too prominent.
His jacket was unfastened completely and flapped over his belt.  "Have
they finished the Hill recycling repairs yet?"  "This morning.  McGuire
said he told you."  He drank down the rest of his coffee and looked at
me, cup still in hand.  "Did you get that?  Jeez, Halley, you look
terrible.  Haven't you had any sleep?"  I couldn't help grinning.
"What's so funny?"  He was too tired to sound properly annoyed.  "I was
thinking the same about you."  He humphed and leaned back again.  It
took me a moment to restart the conversation.  "Did we ever charge
Trillith?"  He thought for a moment.  "Yeah.  But it can afford the
fine.  I heard it's negotiating the franchise for tourism in this
sector."  "Tourism?"  We were like a couple of drunks, throwing an idea
back and forth.  "Yeah, people coming here for fun."  He yawned hugely
and rubbed the back of his neck, then looked at me.  "That reminds me,
Veatch reapplied for his position here."  , 3., "What?"  A "I reckon
they offered him a choice--go back to a reprimand and a demotion, or
stay on Jocasta."

"We still need a station manager."  At first the idea of working with
Veatch was repugnant.  Then I thought, what the hell, he's efficient
and we know to keep an eye on him.  Better the devil you know ... "Are
you okay?"

"Yes."  I remembered the minutes preceding Henoit's death--the
certainty we'd lost the jump drive, the crawling frustration of being
trapped.  And the relief of being able to act afterwards, over in the
center with the Q'Chn.  I don't know what had come over me--as I'd
suspected, it was one of those episodes where later you stand back and
think, how could I have been so stupid?

I hadn't yet faced how I felt about Henoit's death.  So far it was
mainly shock at the suddenness.  Regret at things left unsaid, there's
always regret.  And, if I'm honest with myself and at the moment I'm
too tired not to be, relief as well.  He'll never deceive me again.

Murdoch tapped the table to get my attention.  "Are you sure you're
okay?"

"I'm still sore."  And my uniform still smelled faintly of recycling. I
may have to get a new, navy one.

"What are you going to do now?"  he asked over his shoulder as I
refilled my cup at the hatch.

"Now?"

"After all the shouting's died down."

I sat down again, uncertain.  I hadn't thought about anything beyond
the next step in the negotiations.

"Think I'd like my old job back."

He stared, bemused.  "You want to go back to being an

engineer?"  He waved his arm around.  "Who's going to be head of
this?"

It had been an unconsidered comment about my old job, but the more I
thought about it, the more attractive it sounded.  "I'm no politician,
Bill.  If this independence idea succeeds, they're going to need an
elected or otherwise chosen leader.  Someone who can deal with both the
Confederacy and the other factors."

"And that's not you?"

"I don't think so.  Dan Florida would be good.  What will you do?"

He shrugged too.

"I'm not going to retire yet, if that's what you mean.  I'll take
whatever assignment comes."

"You deserve an easy one after this."  I tried to lighten the mood but
his face was serious.

He leaned forward and put his hands on my knees.  They felt very large
and heavy.

"Whatever you do, take care, huh?"  And he kissed me.  I was so
surprised that I let my lips kiss him back.  Short, reasonably chaste.
The kind of kiss old-time lovers give to confirm each other's
existence.

He removed his hands, stood up.  Unembarrassed, but he didn't seem
quite steady on his feet.

"See you later."

"Yes."  There were a lot of other things I could have said.  But not
yet.

2 J

The general and his officials said they were bringing us some visitors.
The Shuttle was a large one, and when Murdoch, Veatch, an met them in
the docking lobby, we found out why.

"An Barik you already know," said the general.  "This is An Serat."

"Call Griffis and Rachel," I whispered to Sasaki, who was commanding
the escort squad.

The general, after insisting that only his three guards be armed, which
caused near-mutiny from Murdoch, made his speeches.  The Confederacy
acknowledged our declaration and promised to bring it before the next
Confederacy Council.  They also waived the courts-martial of the Con
Fleet officers involved.  Which was hardly magnanimous, seeing that
we'd saved their station for them.

Rachel and Griffis arrived.  They looked at the Invidi, shocked, and
Sasaki murmured a brief explanation for them.  The two Invidi stood
tall and silent in the cramped room.  They looked different, although
the suits' features were exactly the same.  An Barik was ... neater
somehow, taller, and more slender.  The other was thicker and his suit
had lost a lot of its bright shine.  He must have used it for a century
at least.  There was a tension pushing between them, as though the
opposing poles of two magnets were being forced together.  If our
suspicions about Invidi politics were correct, that was indeed the
problem.

"I'd like to ask An Serat some questions, if he doesn't mind," I said
politely.  I reminded myself that we were back in their world, the
world where the Invidi wrote the programs mat moved the rest of us
around the board.

I was standing close to the two of them, Veatch beside us.  Murdoch and
Sasaki were a little to one side, and the general was talking to his
officials, bored, behind the Invidi.  One guard was with the general,
one by the airlock door, and the third stood beside Rachel and Griffis,
next

to Murdoch.  The guards looked bored too.  They'd made their scorn for
station Security clear.  An Serat glided forwards a half-meter.  His
movement was slow and he listed a little to one side.  As I stepped
forward, one of his tentacles skated out without asking permission and
touched my chest.  I stopped myself from yelling in surprise.  It
tickled a little, "You wish some answers, do you not?"  His mechanical
voice was lighter and warmer than An Bank's, with a completely
different timbre.  I felt Rachel's eyes on me.  "You sent the drive
with Calypso.  You set it to arrive here."  "That's right."  "How could
you be sure it would arrive here?"  "There is no surety.  But the lines
were relatively clear."  There was no hesitancy in his speech as in An
Barik's, no confusion of tenses or subject.  "Do you remember us?"
Griffis seemed shocked at meeting the Invidi again.  His voice was
small.  An Serat swayed.  "I do."  "You used both us and this station
to further some political end of your own."  Rachel was unforgiving. 
"It may seem that way to you."  "It does.  Did you know about the
mine?" How long she must have wanted to ask that.  He trailed another
tentacle in the direction of her face.  "Not all things show
themselves.  It was far away."  "Why here?"  I had wanted to ask this
for a long time too. "What's so special about this place?"  "It is not
the place."  His voice even carried an inflection of amusement "I don't
understand.  Is it this particular time?"

"Barik spoke to you of nodes?"

"Ye-es."  We all looked at An Barik, who made no movement.

"In his usual lucid way, I see."  An Serat rocked once.  "Pity him, if
you can.  He had to let the station be overrun and isolated because he
dared not change anything that might interfere with the arrival of
Calypso.  Yet by doing nothing, he set you on a course that virtually
guaranteed you would keep the drive and join the rebels, perhaps
leading to the dissolution of the Confederacy."

I could see what An Barik had faced, but pity was a long way off.  I
pitied Keveth and Quartermaine, and all the others who had died because
An Barik wouldn't act.

"What are nodes?"  asked Griffis.

"Nodes are a concentration of... causes, which produce distinct
effects," said An Serat.  "They change the direction of the lines
sufficiently to be visible to us."

"Certain events have significant repercussions?"  said Griffis.

"That is the result, as you see it.  Actually, it is not so linear. And
events, in your understanding, are set in motion by the actions of
living beings."

"Like your decision to help Nguyen?"  I suggested.

"And yours to change the balance of power here.  Some nodes are living
beings."  He touched my chest again.  "Like yourself."

"Me?"  I didn't like the idea of being a concentration of causes.

"I sent you the drive, although I did not know who you were."

I stepped closer and spoke to An Barik.  "Why did you

wait?  I would have taken the drive if I could.  You'd have lost your
hyperspace monopoly."  But it was An Serat who answered.  "Perhaps that
would not be the terrible thing some of my compatriots believe."  The
voice held humor also.  I groaned.  "I don't understand.  Why not just
give us the damn technology?"  "Because, as I have suggested, many of
my compatriots do still believe it would be a terrible thing."  An Bank
shifted beneath his suit.  So they did disagree.  Henoit's information
was correct.  I was glad to think there might be an ally for the Nine
Worlds among the Four, but as disturbed at his methods as I'd been at
Henoit's.  "It doesn't matter.  The drive was destroyed," I said.  "You
destroyed it."  An Serat made the comment without accusation.  This
time I didn't answer.  "And everyone goes back to what they were
before?"  Rachel's anger startled us all.  "We have disposed of the
menace of the shadow.  What you called the gray ships, another legacy
of the Tor.  It would have been unfortunate if they had acquired our
technology."  "And where did the Seouras fit in this scheme?"  I said,
nearly as angry as Rachel now.  If I'd felt manipulated by Henoit, it
was nothing compared to this.  "They were an unanticipated factor."
"They're probably dead.  I bet they didn't anticipate that either."
"You feel regret?"  "I feel... used."  I looked at Rachel, Murdoch,
even Veatch.  "We all "We all do what we must," he said.  "One of your
elders once told me, "Our regrets are what define us.""

I phrased it as strongly as I could.  "I do regret losing the drive.  I
think you should give it to everyone."

"There is no need of regret.  You will find your de-soda."  There's
that word again.  I remembered Quartermaine's words and knew mat he'd
got it wrong.

"Desada... mere is no 'special time," is there?  It's now.  It's always
now.  This moment."

An Serat's whole body sighed, a leisurely shiver that anchored him more
firmly to the floor.  "Your species has promise."  He moved his
tentacle up slowly, preface to yet another quotation.  I suspected he
was just as irritating a conversationalist as An Bank, in a different
way.  " "If all time is eternally present all time is un redeemable

"I think all this far sight stuff is just a con."  Rachel pushed past
me to stand close to An Serat, looking up.  "You want people to do
things that you're too scared to do yourself.  Non-interference my ass.
You just can't bring yourself to be responsible for anything!"

She raised clenched fists almost as though to strike the alien. Griffis
put out a hand to calm her down.

"Rachel."  She shook him off.  I nodded to Murdoch over their heads and
he whispered to Sasaki.  Behind us the general and die others were
watching.  The guards stared into nothing, still bored.

Sasaki nodded kindly to Rachel and took her arm.  They started to walk
away, passing in front of the aliens.  Rachel shoved Sasaki hard in
mid-stride, and she stumbled back onto the guard's toes.  As he threw
out an arm in surprise,

Rachel grabbed the weapon he held in it.  He looked at his empty hand
with astonishment.

She pointed the gun at An Serat.

For a second we stared at her, uncomprehending.  Then Murdoch's eyes
flicked from side to side and the muscles of his face tightened.
Neither the two guards nor the general standing behind us could get a
clear shot at Rachel, for which I was glad.  We all needed to remain
calm.  Griffis had stepped back in horror.  Sasaki inched forward but
Rachel jumped away.

"Uh-uh," she admonished, and fixed her gaze on the Invidi again.

Murdoch might have reached her, but not before her hand closed on the
firing pad.  I cursed myself for letting the general remove Murdoch's
weapon.

"What are you doing?"  I let astonishment raise my voice.

She laughed, the freest sound I'd ever heard from her.  "What does it
look like?  Old biblical remedy, Halley.  Eye for an eye."

"I don't understand."  I hoped she didn't know how to use the thing.

"Don't try to buy time."  She chuckled and waved the flat end of the
gun towards the Invidi.  "That's what these guys do.  Use our time, use
our lives.  Now I'm going to take his."  The point stopped in front of
An Serat.

"It won't work," said Murdoch.  "They're wearing protective suits."  My
back was to the guards, but I could hear faint rustles of clothing and
the.  squeak of boots as they maneuvered for a better shot.  "This is
ridiculous.."  the general began.

I interrupted him.  "Rachel, put the gun down."

Murdoch and Sasaki were silent.  They knew the rules-don't crowd
someone with a weapon, don't pressure them.  One on one, gently.

"Are you sure their suits will protect them from this?"  She twitched
the gun.

Murdoch's poker face said he wasn't sure.  I hadn't a clue.  The weapon
was small and discreet, one used by high-level bodyguards.  I hoped
they'd had the sense to keep it on the safe setting.

"The suits are sufficient," rumbled An Barik's vocoder.

"Sufficient?  What are you all looking so worried about then?"  She was
excited and bitter.  "Let's try it and see.  A couple of people tried
to assassinate an Invidi when they first came to Earth, you know.
Remember what happened, Hannibal?"

Griffis shot me a look of dismay.  He was as conscious of the guards as
I was.

"Yes, Rachel.  We protected them.  They were guests on our world."

She didn't like that.  "It was an invasion.  Benign, but an
invasion."

"Rachel."  I took a deep breath and stepped forward.  The guard behind
us cursed under his breath.  I'd deliberately ruined his shot on
Rachel.

"No!"  She raised the weapon in a firing stance.  "No further!"

I spread my hands wide.  "All right.  Rachel, what's past is past.
Leave it."

"It's not past to me."  She looked at me properly then and the gun
mouth focused on my chest.  "You're the worst," she said.  "You know
what they're doing but you

go along with it.  You betray all of us.  You betray our history.  Is
it so hard to say to them," she jerked her head at the Invidi, "we
don't need you, we don't want you?"

"It's a bit late now to blame us for your mistakes.  We're trying to
make the best of what you did to our world.  If it was so easy, why
didn't your generation say the words?"  I snapped back at her in spite
of myself.  Her words stung more than I cared to admit

Her hand wavered.  "Because we couldn't"

Griffis spoke softly from behind her.  "Because we were in such a mess
that we had no choice."  "Rachel, if you kill me, are you going to feel
better?"  I let my tiredness show in my voice.

"No."

"If you kill them, will it change anything?"

"No."

"Then put it down."

Her face crumpled and her hands holding the gun drooped.  Murdoch leapt
forward with an oath and grabbed her hands, pointing them down and away
from anyone.

Then Rachel was crying, Murdoch snapped orders.  The general
countermanded them and issued different ones.  Griffis comforted Rachel
ineffectually and the red-faced guard stood stiffly to attention
against the wall.  The Invidi stayed motionless, like a pair of
statues.

I walked away from them all, sick and shaky inside at Rachel's words
more man her actions.  I wondered if I'd have been able to do what
Marietta Alvarez had done and step in front of the Invidi, to take the
shot fat them as she'd taken it for her president

Rachel was wrong, though.  This neutrality agreement is the beginning
of something more.  The Nine Worlds will not remain as they are within
the Confederacy for much longer.  It's only a matter of time.

Because I remember the Invidi drive.  Not in detail, but the patterns
move in my memory in the way the Seouras voices spoke in my mind;
elusive, ambiguous, but nonetheless present.  Given time, I will work
it out.  Everyone needs a hobby.

Maxine McArthur was born in Brisbane in 1962.  As a child she also
lived in New Guinea, Darwin, and Mittagong.  In 1980 she went to study
in Japan, where she lived for sixteen years.  She now lives in Canberra
with her family and works at the Australian National University.  Time
Future is her first novel.  A sequel, Time Past, will appear from
Warner Aspect in 2002.

COMMANDER HALLEY RETURNS IN

TIME PAST

by Maxine McArthur coming in may 2002 from warner aspect

An unexpected ride in an Invidi ship throws Halley back to 21st-century
Australia, where her only hope of returning to her own time is to await
first contact with the Invidi themselves.  Meanwhile, back on Jocasta
station, politics among the nine races continue apace.  With Halley
presumed dead, her position is reassigned the killer Q'Chn begin to
carve a bloody hold on a nearby planet, Halley's ex-husband doesn't
behave nearly as dead as he ought to and the alien races who control
the galaxy are becoming extremely impatient with all the activity on
one remote space station..  ..