Copyright © 1996 by Philip K.
Dick Trust Blade Runner: replicant night! K.W. Jeter.
Wake up. . .
He'd heard those words, that voice, before. Deckard
wondered, for a moment, if he were dreaming. But if he were dreaming-I'd be
able to breathe, he thought. And right now, in this segment of time, all he
could feel were the doubled fists at his throat, the tight grip on the front of
his jacket that lifted him clear of the Los Angeles street's mirror-wet and
rubbled surface. In his vision, as he dangled from the choking hook of
factory-made bone and flesh, all that remained was the face of Leon Kowalski
and his brown-toothed grin of fierce, delighted triumph.
The other's stiff-haired knuckles thrust right up
under Deckard's chin, forcing his head back enough to make him dizzily imagine
the passage of air snapping free from the straining lungs in his chest. He
could just make out, at the lower limit of his vision, his own hands grabbing
onto Kowalski's wrists, thick and sinew-taut, more like the armatures of a
lethal machine than anything human. His hands were powerless, unable to force
apart the replicant's clench.
"Wakeup . . ,
The same words, a loop of past
event repeating inside Deckard's head. An echo, perhaps; because he knew the
other-the replicant, his murderer-had said it only once. But he'd known it was
coming. Those words . . . and his own death. Everything had to happen, just as
it had before. Just as he knew it would.
Echo, dream, memory . . . or vision; it didn't matter.
What was important was that there had been a gun in Deckard's hands, in the
hands that were now clawing to let desperate air into his throat. His gun, the
heavy black piece that was standard issue in the LAPD's blade runner unit, a
piece that could blow a hole through the back of a fleeing replicant and an
even larger, ragged-edged hole through its front.
And that had happened as well. Echo of time, echo of
sound, the impact of the gun's roaring explosion travelling up Deckard's
outstretched arms, locked and aimed, as it had so many times and so many
replicants before. While the sound of death itself had slammed off the city's
close-pressed walls, the intricate neon of kanji and corporate logos shivering
as though with a sympathetic fear, the honed leading edge of the shot and its
lower-pitched trail rolling over the street's crowded, incurious faces. All of
them as used to death as Deckard was, just from living in L.A.; he knew they
could watch him being pulled apart by Kowalski with the same indifferent gazes
they had swung toward the replicant Zhora's bullet-driven terminal arc.
When he'd still had the gun, he'd walked with the
black piece dangling at his side, its weight pulling down his hand the same way
it'd dragged rocklike the shoulder holster strapped beneath his long coat.
Rivulets of L.A. 's monsoon rains and his own sweat had oozed beneath his shirt
cuff, across the back of his hand, into the checked, death-heated grip inside
the aching curve of his palm. He'd walked across spearlike shards of glass
crunching under his shoes. The frames of the store windows through which Zhora's
dying body had crashed were transformed into gaping mouths
ringed with transparent, blood-flecked teeth. He'd
walked and stood over her, his sight framing a vision of empty hands and empty
face, eyes void as photo-receptors unplugged from any power source. All life
fled, leaked from the raw hole between her hidden breasts, dead replicant flesh
looking just the same as human. The furious energy, the animal grace and fear,
that had impelled her dodging and running through the streets' closing trap, spent
and diluted by the drops of tear-warm rain spattering across the pavement's red
lace. Deckard's energy, that of the hunter, also gone. The chase, from the
moment Zhora had wheeled about in her dressing room at Taffy Lewis's club down
in Chinatown's First Sector and nailed him with a hard blow to the forehead,
then all the weaving among crowds and dead-run stalking over the metal roofs of
the traffic-stalled cars-that hadn't exhausted him. It'd been the end of the
chase, the shot, his own will inside the bullet. That had struck and killed, a
red kiss centered on her naked shoulder blades. That had seemed, for a moment,
to kill him as well.
Exhaustion had made it possible for the other escaped
replicant to get the drop on Deckard, to pull him between two segmented refuse
haulers, then smack the gun out of his grip like swatting a fly and send it
spinning out toward the street. So exhausted that he hadn't been surprised at
all when Kowalski, eyes maddened by the witnessing of the female's death, had
picked him up like a rag doll and slammed him against the side of one hauler,
spine leaving a buckled indentation in the carapacelike metal. And words, spat
out angry and sneering, something with which Kowalski could hammer the killer.
How old am
I? Then-My birthday's April 10, 2017. How long do I live?
Deckard had told him the answer, gasped it out with
the last of his breath. Four years. That was how long all the Nexus-6
replicants had been given. They carried their own clock-ticking deaths inside
their cells, more certain than any blade runner's gun.
The answer hadn't been to Leon
Kowalski's liking, though he must have known it already. His eyes had gone
wider and
even more crazed. More than
you. More than the man dangling from his fists had to live "Wake up!"
But that's wrong, thought Deckard. The other's face,
mottled in his sight with the black swirling dots of oxygen starvation, grinned
up at him. The operating remnants of his brain could remember what had happened
before. Kowalski hadn't shouted the words, not that loud; he'd mouthed them
softly, as though savoring their taste between his teeth. Those words, and the
words that'd come after. And he didn't lift me so far off the ground .
"Wake up! Time to
die!"
He could feel himself dangling in air, could hear the
replicant's voice, the words shouted or whispered-it didn't matter now. It
hadn't mattered before. All that mattered was the crushing pressure on his
throat, the weight of his own body against Kowalski's fists squeezing off the
city's humid air from his lungs. The other's words roared inside his head, each
syllable a pulse of blood against his skull's thin shell of bone. Now the
voice, the shout, seemed to hammer right at his ears. Maybe that's why it
sounds so loud,
thought a
cold, abstracted part of Deckard, watching himself die. Because I know .
He knew what happened next. What would happen, had
already happened; foreordained, scripted, bolted to the iron rails of the past,
unswerving as those of the rep train that rolled in the darkness beneath the
dark city.
Time to
die .
He wondered what was taking so long. Where is she?
wondered Deckard. She was supposed to have been here by now .
Kowalski's fists lifted him higher, his spine arching
backward. The sky wheeled in Deckard's sight, needles of stars and gouts of
flame penetrating the storm clouds above the L.A. towers. Police spinners drew
distant, slow-motion traces of light, while the hectoring U.N. advert blimp
cruised lower, seemingly within reach of his hand if he could've taken it away
from the replicant's choking grasp. Emigrant vistas swam across the giant
screen imbedded in the midst of the
blimp's spiked antennae; an even larger voice
boomingly cajoled him to seek a new life in the off-world colonies. What a good
idea, that other part of him mused. His old life was almost gone.
The city's faces roiled across his sight; all of them,
indifferent or hostile, eyes hidden behind black visor strips or magnified and
glittering behind chrome-ringed fish-eye lenses. Chemical-laced tears ran down
pallid cheeks, laughter broke past doubled ranks of filed teeth; a row of
Taiwanese Schwinn clones jangled the bells on their handlebars, to cut through
and then be swallowed up by the two-way rivers of foot and motor traffic. The
black dots in Deckard's vision had grown larger and started to coalesce. Beyond
them, he could see another face, made of a grid of photons. A woman in
geisha-lite drag, Euro-ized kabukoid makeup and perfect black-shellac hair; she
smiled with ancient suavity at the Swiss pharmaceutical capsule on her
fingertips, then swallowed it, her coquette smile and glance turning even more
mysterious. He didn't know her name, or even what she was selling; he had never
known, during all the time he had walked and lived and killed inside the
traplike city, and the woman had floated above him like some anonymous,
disdainful angel. In his anoxic delirium, he could imagine that she was about
to lean down from the ad-screen and bestow a kiss upon him .
The Asian woman's face disappeared, replaced by the
only one that mattered. Kowalski pulled him close, not for a kiss but to snap
the vertebrae at the hinge of Deckard's neck. He'd be paralyzed before he was
dead, but only for a few seconds, until Kowalski finished him off.
"Wake up! Time to die .
Deckard heard the words again, but knew it was only
memory. He saw Kowalski's smile and nothing else, as the replicant jabbed two
fingers toward Deckard's eye sockets.
Maybe they finally got it
right, he thought. This time it'll be different . .
But it wasn't. Even as he looked down at the other's
face, time started up again, the loop running as it had before. As it had so
long ago. The replicant's expression changed to one
of stunned bewilderment. The light behind Kowalski's
eyes dwindled to a spark, then died out, as the life that the T~rre1l
Corporation had given him rushed from the red flower, torn flesh and white
thorns of bone splinters, that had burst from his forehead. The bullet had
passed all the way through and vanished, tumbling somewhere beyond Deckard's
shoulder.
The thing that had been Kowalski crumpled forward,
falling onto Deckard and trapping him against the shining wet pavement. Deckard
clawed out from beneath him and stood upright again, regaining his balance and
his breath. His vision shifted, from blurred to focussed, close to medium
distance; Rachael stood at the mouth of the alley, swathed in high-collared
fur, the gun that Kowalski had knocked away now clasped in both her hands-it
must have landed right at her feet-and trembling from the shock of its firing,
the slight motion of the trigger that had placed the steel-jacketed bullet like
a quick finger tap at the back of Kowalski's head. She looked dazed, lips
parted to draw in her own held breath; just as though she had never killed
anyone before. As though this were the first time this had happened.
His gaze went back down to the
dead replicant at his feet. Or supposedly dead. He's doing a good job, thought
Deckard. Kowalski looked as dead as a real corpse.
"Come on, get up-"
Deckard kept his voice lowered, so that none of the on-set microphones would
pick it up. "It's a wrap, they got it all on tape. You can get up
now."
Blood welled from the hole in Kowalski's
shattered brow.
Then Deckard knew it was real.
"What the hell
At the edge of the soundstage, where the fake streets, the re-created
Los Angeles, gave way to bare dry concrete and steel, the flooring laced with
thick power cables and data conduits like black snakes-Deckard stood up,
angrily ripping the headphones away from his ears. The folding chair toppled
over as he threw the 'phones at the central monitor, the one that had shown the
view from the eyes of the other Deckard, the fake one, the one that had been
dangling from the now-dead replicant's fists. Across the smaller screens, the
angles of all the other video-cams unfolded like a magician's pack of cards.
"Now what?" The close-up on the fake Rachael
showed her dropping out of character, the look of shock on her face transmuted
to that of a disgusted professional as she let the heavy gun hang at the end of
her arm. She sighed wearily. "Christ, this shoot's taking forever."
Deckard ignored her, striding past the cameras on
their automated tracking booms, the skeletal apparatuses of light and event.
The drizzle from the overhead rain gantry ran off his jacket sleeves, the grid
underneath the soundstage sucking away the excess from the glossily photogenic
puddles. He pushed aside the faux Deckard, the actor playing him, and stood
looking down at Kowalski. At what was left of the replicant, the bleeding
artificial flesh.
"Please A hand clutched ineffectually at his elbow.
"Mr. Deckard ... you can't just-"
He turned angrily upon the production assistant, a
tiny androgynous figure with heavy retro black-framed glasses. "It wasn't
supposed to happen this way!" He jabbed his finger at the assistant, who
fended it off with an upraised clipboard. "I was told you weren't going to
kill anyone!" The circumference of his gaze tinged with red as he looked
back toward the crew ringing the soundstage. "Where's Urbenton?"
That was the name of the director. Who was
conspicuously missing, the folding chair that had usually supported his pudgy
frame now unoccupied. Chickenshit sonuva bitch- Deckard felt his teeth grinding
together. The director must've snuck out after the video recorders had started
rolling, while Deckard had been wrapped in the view from the cam monitors,
watching the re-creation of his own past. Urbenton would've known that Deckard
would go ballistic when a real bullet, from a real gun, wound up churning through
someone's brain.
"Come on, man
The actor playing him-not a replicant like the one who had been playing
Kowalski, but an actual human-tried out as peacemaker. "It can't all be
special effects, you know. Sometimes you gotta go for realism."
"Get away from me." Revulsion worked its way
up Deckard's throat, choking him as though the replicant's big hands had been
around his own neck instead of the other
z
n
man's. The actor didn't even look that much like him,
or at least not yet. Like most of the talent in the video industry, in addition
to the remote cam implanted behind one eye, the actor also had barely visible
tracker dots sewn under his skin, so that in postproduction another's face
could be ceegeed over the one he'd been born with.
That new face would've been the real Deckard's. But
not now, he fumed. Not if I can help it. "So where is he?" Deckard
stopped just short of gathering up the front of the assistant's collar in his
hand and squeezing tight, the way the dead Kowalski had done to the human
actor. "Where's Urbenton?"
"I ... I don't know The assistant retreated, sweating hands
clasped to the clipboard. "He got called away .
"Yeah, right. I bet." Deckard stepped over
the corpse and started toward the soundstage's big rolling doors and the
interlocking corridors and spaces of the studio complex beyond. "I'll find
him myself. He's got one hell of a lot of explaining to do."
He didn't look over his shoulder as he strode away.
But he could sense the fake L.A. dying its own death, the constant artificial
rain stopping, the vehicles halting and being shut off in the middle of the
crowded street, the actors and extras walking off the set. The replica blimp, a
tenth the size of the one that had once actually floated above the city,
dangled inert from the overhead rigging, adscreen blank and faceless.
The city's walls parted as the
grips moved the scenery back. There was nothing behind them except dust and
stubbed-out cigarettes, and a few scattered drops of blood.
A silver crescent in the sky, hanging below him. Dave
Holden thought it looked like some kind of Islamic emblem, complete to the
glittering star between the points of its horns. The artificial moon's
gravitational field tilted the skiffs gimballed pilot's seat, hanging him
upside down inside the tiny interplanetary craft. Inside the cramped cockpit
area, there was barely room enough for himself and the cargo strapped onto the empty
seat beside him.
Which spoke now: "You're in big trouble, pal." The briefcase
kept its voice level and calm, as though unconcerned with human problems.
Holden glanced over at the briefcase. Plain black, a
decent grade of leatherette, chrome snaps and bits around the handle. It looked
like the exact sort that millions ofjunior execs carried into office towers
every morning, back on Earth. By rights, it shouldn't have been talking at all;
that it was doing so indicated the long-standing personal relationship between
the two of them.
"Big,
big trouble." The briefcase continued its simple, ominous pronouncements.
"I know-" Holden
reached out to the control panel and dialed the skiff's guidance system toward
the silver crescent's intake beam. "I breathe trouble." More than
metaphor:
the lungs in his chest, and the heart between them,
were efficient constructs of Teflon and surgical steel. His original
cardiopulmonary system had been blown out his back by an escaped replicant
named Leon Kowalski. Back on Earth, back in the L.A. from which he and the
briefcase had just flown. That bullet had been a couple of years ago; there had
been others before and since then, some of which he'd fired, others that'd been
fired at him. The bio-mechanical lungs sucked whiffs of imminent death and left
them on his tongue. Tasting like the ashes of the cigarettes the LAPD doctors
had made him give up. "Breathe it out, too."
"You're
probably going to die."
"Coming from you, that's good." Holden knew
that the briefcase's voice was the voice of the dead. A dead man speaking. It
didn't matter whether that man, when alive, had been human or not. "You'd
know, wouldn't you?"
If the
briefcase had had shoulders, it would've shrugged. "Just leveling with
you. That's all."
Holden ignored the last bit. Lights had started
flashing on the control panel, indicating that the intake beam had locked onto
the skiff. One light, he knew, would stay yellow for a few more seconds; that
was the window of opportunity for abandoning the intake approach, for breaking
off and turning the little craft around. And heading back to Earth or anywhere
else his own death didn't seem quite so probable.
He kept
his hands folded in his lap, watching and waiting until the yellow light
disappeared, replaced by
the green one right next to it. They were going in.
The silver crescent loomed bigger and brighter in the
skiff's viewscreen. He could make out the segmented panels that formed its
curved, double-tapered shape. Croissant, thought Holden. Thinking of French
bakery goods, stuff served with real coffee. The same word, actually. He knew
his mind was rattling on, filling up the empty corridors inside his head with
nonsense. So there wouldn't be room for worrying about the job he'd come all
this way to Outer Hollywood to do.
A delivery job. Once I was a blade runner, he mused;
now I'm some sort of errand boy. He didn't mind; he'd kept his gun when he'd
quit the police department. That was the main thing: he needed it now more than
before.
The silver crescent grew larger, blocking out the
pocked white shape of the real moon. Brown-mottled Earth lay somewhere behind
the skiff; Holden didn't sweat the navigational fine points. Those had all been
programmed in, along with the other details of the job. He glanced again at the
briefcase, which had mercifully fallen silent. The initials on the small brass
plaque under the handle read RMD. Not his, but those of the person to whom the
briefcase was to be delivered. Then he can deal with it, thought Holden. He
wondered if Mreally was Rick Deckard's middle initial, or whether that was just
something that the people who'd put the briefcase together had made up out of
thin air.
Outer Hollywood filled the screen now; the intake beam
had brought the skiff around to the landing bays on the curve's fat convex
side. There'd been a single bright flash, the viewscreen's pixels max'd out,
when the skiff had passed through the focussed reflection from the bank of mirrors
that served as the crescent's attached star. Holden had caught a glimpse of the
massive struts and triangulated framework that held the mirror bank between the
station's horns. The open steel girders looked rusted-In a vacuum? he wondered;
that's weird-and warped from neglect. Cables drifted loose like beheaded
snakes; the motors and other servo-mechanisms that served to adjust the
mirrors' angles and catch the unfiltered radiation from the sun, looked barely
functional. Light bounced off some of the mirrors and out like idiot semaphores
into space, instead of illuminating the soundstages behind Outer Hollywood's
pressure-sealed windows. Holden figured that'd be all right if only night
scenes were being taped . . . or scenes of L.A. during the rainy season.
Anything cheerful enough to require an approximation of daylight, and they'd
all be out of luck.
The
briefcase spoke up again. "You strapped?"
For a moment, Holden thought the briefcase was
referring to the pilot seat's restraints, then realized it had slipped into the
urban patois it sometimes affected. He patted the holstered weapon inside his
camel's-hair jacket. "Of course." The gun felt like a rock above one
of his artificial lungs.
"We'd
be better off if it was me carrying you." A fretful note sounded in the
briefcase's voice.
He couldn't understand the briefcase's self-absorbed
concern. The bastard's already dead, he thought. How could things get any worse
for it? For himself, though . . . that was another matter.
"Welcome to our faciliteezz." A canned
female presence, bodiless and somewhere above his head, started talking as soon
as Holden climbed out of the skiff's cockpit. "For all your video
production needzz Something was wrong
with the hidden p.a. speakers; the woman's sibilants came out as an insectoid
hiss. "Zztock and cuzztom zzets .
fully
furnizzhed editing zzuites . . . all at a competitive rate. Why go
elzzewhere?"
The answer was obvious to Holden. He looked around with
the briefcase dangling from his left hand, leaving his right to reach inside
his jacket if need be. The orbital studio was close to being a ruin. Another
hiss, of oxygen leaking through the landing bay's gaskets, sounded behind him.
A chill draft in his face, like the wind down a deserted city alley, when even
the last of the scavenger packs had crawled into their trash-lined burrows; no
sky above, but instead a tangle of catwalks and wiring loops imbedded against
the barely discernible visual field of the studio's welded exoskeleton.
Big empty spaces; the recorded greeting was the only
human element immediately apparent. Other than himself, Holden noted.
"There should be some kind of offices," the
briefcase suggested. "Farther inside. Where you can find out what set the
shoot's been booked into."
He started
walking, footsteps hollow and loud on the
metal flooring. The noise echoed down the hangarlike
vista before him. The chances of his moving about, of making his delivery and
leaving with no one's being aware, were nonexistent.
The orbital studio's sets had already begun collapsing
into one another, false fronts and flimsy backdrops muddling together from
neglect and general entropy. Holden found himself, briefcase in hand, walking
past a Tara-oid antebellum mansion, fluted pillars warping out of shape, that
had somehow crept among the turrets and spires of medieval Prague. A glacier of
artificial grass and poppies spilled down the cobbled street, studded with
crosses stamped from plastic to resemble white-painted wood; the dates on them
were all from some post-World War I soldiers' cemetery. Nobody was buried
there, but the draft against Holden's face still smelled like death and slow
decay.
Scavengers existed everywhere; as in L.A., the real
one, so above. He found one in the quieted battlefield set, an ersatz Flanders
Field, next to the empty burial ground. The guy looked familiar enough, all
scruffy beard and antique aviator goggles, tattered leathers flopping about a
stunted frame; Holden wondered if he recognized him from somewhere in the real
city's alleys.
Brass shell casings clinked in the bag slung over the
scavenger's shoulder. He looked up, the scarred bridge of his nose wrinkling to
signal that he smelled cop, while the black-nailed fingertips poking through
the ends of his gloves continued to groom the mock battlefield. Another scent
lingered in the station's canned and recycled air, that of the live ammo that
had been expended in the taping of some low-budget historical epic.
"You
can't hassle me, man." The scavenger's eyes narrowed behind the goggles.
"I got a license."
"Yeah, well, I don't." The stuff he'd been
able to do before, back when he'd been with the department, had all been left
behind him, on Earth and in that other life. "So remain sweatless."
He was able to get approximate
directions from the scav
enger. And information: there
was only one video shoot booked into the Outer Hollywood station, the first one
after a long dry spell.
"It's that damn Cinecitta Nuovo, down in
Jakarta." The scavenger's gloved thumb looked like mice had been chewing
on it in his sleep, as he gestured toward some point beyond the station's
curved walls.
"Those people've got all that EEC money behind
'em. And they suck up all the video productions now." Thnnels bigger
around than the station ran underneath the Indonesian Entrepreneurial Republic,
the spaces lit brighter than anything sun and corroding mirrors could provide.
The scavenger looked wistfully at the meager gleanings in his sack. "Man,
what I wouldn't give to be able to get in there. There must be all kinds of
shit lying around."
Holden wasn't interested in the sad intricacies of
either the video or the scavenging business. "So where's the shoot going
on?"
The ragged glove pointed down the length of the
station's arched central corridor. "You can't miss it. Go past the Vatican
and that Scottish castle with the dry moat; that's where they've got their
funky L.A. all set up. There's all kinds of people hanging around. Humans and
replicants ...it's that kind of a shoot. Real blood-and-guts stuff." An
eyebrow raised inside the goggles. "You might like it. Some kind of cop
show."
"I doubt it." Holden started walking again, briefcase in
hand. "Seen it already." He saw the buildings up ahead, or at least
part of them:
the bottom sections of what were supposed to be L.A.'s
canyoned towers, false-fronted and propped into position by the
cobbled-together framework behind them. A small flutter ran through the
bio-mech heart in his chest; some nameless emotion or twinge of adrenallike
hormone. Not at seeing again the city he had left behind on Earth, or at the
view of those streets in partial disassembly. It looks better this way, thought
Holden. Not really fake at all-that was the marvel of it. As if the people,
those shadowy corporations and architects, who'd built the Outer Hollywood
station and then constructed the L.A. set inside it, had caught some
realer-thanreal aspect of the city. Or at least the city that had existed
inside Holden's mind, with his barely being aware of it until now. I always
thought the other one was fake-he realized that now. Th see it this way,
two-dimensional buildings with nothing behind their surfaces' retrofitted
ventilation ducts and wiring conduits, with the people in the streets finally
exposed as actors and anonymous bit players; with the monsoon rains shut off
from above, the rusting pipes leaking only a few scattered drops; even the sky
revealed as metal with nothing but vacuum beyond-it was an oddly comforting
manifestation of his most paranoid dreamings. If only it were true, thought
Holden.
The vision passed, along with its soul-deep
significance, as though he were waking from a dream. Like rolling over in bed,
it seemed to him, and opening your eyes and seeing, instead of the woman you
had gone there with, some deracinated corpse staring up at the ceiling with
empty eye sockets
or worse, nothing at all, just the empty shape, the
indentation in the mattress and the other pillow, of someone who'd once been
there but was never coming back .
I woke up a long time ago, thought Holden glumly. That
was why he'd wound up quitting the department, leaving the blade runner unit.
Even going over to the other side .
"You're wasting time." The briefcase spoke
up, its voice kept low enough that only Holden would hear it. "You may not
have anything on your agenda, but I've got stuff to do. So just go find
Deckard, and let's get on with it."
Nagged by hand luggage; that was what life had come
to. Or what there was left of it; the revelatory vision of the faux L.A. and
his deep ruminations thereon had caused him to let his guard down. If anybody
had wanted to interfere with his delivery job, all someone would've had to have
done was walk
up behind him and take off the back of his head with
one of the pieces of rusting lighting frame that lay all around the station's
floor.
The L.A. set was sunk lower than where Holden stood
watching; he figured the arrangement probably had something to do with the
plumbing that suctioned away the runoff from the overhead rain system and kept
the water from building up around the video-cams and other equipment at the
set's periphery. From this vantage point, he could see that whatever taping had
been going on had now come to an end, at least for the time being. Some kind of
interruption, resulting in equal measures of chaos and boredom; back when he'd
been an LAPD rookie in uniform, all testosterone and Third Reich leather, he'd
pulled enough overtime doing traffic control and rent-a-cop guard duty on
location shoots to recognize the pattern. That'd been an even longer time ago,
when there'd still been a remnant of a video industry in the city.
He pushed aside the youthful memory flash and craned his
neck, trying to spot the person he'd come all this way to find. This was where
he'd been told, even before he'd left Earth, that he'd be able to track down
Deckard. Some bottom-rung company called Speed Death Productions-not one of the
biggies; Holden had never heard of it before this-was making some kind of
docudrama out of Deckard's life story. Or at least part of it: that last stint
of his as a real blade runner, when he'd been tracking down that group of
escaped replicants. When Holden had been told about it, he'd actually broken
into laughter. It struck him as a ridiculous notion. His old partner in the
blade runner unit hadn't exactly distinguished himself in a heroic manner, or
at least not that time. Deckard had already wimped out and quit the force back
then, mainly out of chickenshit queasiness over blowing away defenseless
replicants . . . or "retiring" them, as the departmental slang put
it. The head of their unit, charming old Inspector Bryant himself, had had to
put the pressure on Deckard to come back aboard and help clean up the mess.
Holden still got a little surge of irritation revving up his artificial organs,
despite all that'd happened and all that he'd found out since then, when he
thought about that arrangement. There wouldn't have been any pretext for Bryant
to force Deckard back into being a blade runner if Holden hadn't been set up to
take a hit from one of the escaped repli
cants. Which had left him with a fist-sized hole under
his breastbone that the batteries and tubes and sleepless little motors now
nicely filled. That'd all been one package of bad business, with lots of
smaller packages marked "murder" and "betrayal" inside; and
another, even larger package had come around after that, when Holden had found
himself unplugged from his hospital and walking through the wet, nasty L.A.
streets-the real streets, not the phony ones of the video set he now looked
upon. That bigger package had been marked with a flaming red "C" for
"conspiracy;" when he'd opened it, he'd found himself carrying
something else in his hand for his old friend Deckard, something it would've
taken only a single squeeze of the trigger on the black regulation-issue gun to
deliver.
That had been a different time. Another
world-literally- and another life, even though it'd all been little more than a
year ago.
"I'm waiting .
"Shut up," he told the briefcase. Even with
his mind elsewhere, Holden's gaze had continued to scan the crowd on the fake
L.A. set, looking for the one face he needed to find. A part of him had to
admire the authenticism of the producers; the milling extras who made up the
set's street population looked as if they might've been scooped up with a net
from the earthly L.A. and deposited here. Antiquarian punks with museum-quality
mohawks and chrome-studded minor body parts mingled with every variety of
hopeful religious fanatic, from New Mexican penitentes to orange-bedsheet-clad
Hare Krishnas. Whatever wasn't costume or cultic emblem was bare flesh,
strapped tight under crossed networks of imitation
leather, slicked shining by the artificial rain and
lit to the blue pallor of ancient consumptives by the thin spectra of the
coiling neon overhead.
The effect of an actual L.A. street-Holden knew the
one the producers were obviously going for; it was over by the animal dealers'
bustling marketplace-was marred only by the fact that the extras were on break,
along with the videocam operators and other techs. Instead of passing by each
other, two rivers of foot
traffic between the buildings, with that zombielike facial glaze typical of
longtime Angelenos, they were all talking with each other and even laughing,
heading over to the honey wagons or the meager pickings on the shoot's catering
tables.
A little knot in the middle of the crowd wasn't so
well disposed. Some of the extras and crew glanced over their shoulders at the
figures whose shouts and pleadings were barely audible to Holden.
There he is-the crowd thinned a bit, allowing Holden
to spot the one with the ragged brush-cut hair and knocked-about long coat,
nubbly square-ended tie pulled tight under his shirt collar. That combination
of rough edges and oddly matched gear was just the way he remembered Deckard
from all their time together in the blade runner unit. Then he saw the man's
face and realized he'd gotten it wrong. That's the actor, thought Holden. The
one playing Deckard-ot her than the general height and build, they weren't even
close. The actress, the Rachael, was a decent-enough match . . . except for the
look of disgust screwing up one corner of her mouth, which indicated that she
might be fully capable of lifting the big black gun she had in one hand and
icing somebody else. There was already one corpse lying in the middle of the
set- Kowalski? The face-down body was hard to identify, but it appeared big
enough. Blood mixing with the puddled artificial rain gave Holden the suspicion
that some poor bastard of a replicant wasn't going to be getting up, brushing
himself off, and cruising for stale doughnuts with the extras and other bit
players.
Christ, thought Holden in sudden dismay as he caught a
better glimpse of the one shouting figure. It'd taken him a few seconds to
recognize his old partner; the last year or so appeared to have walked all over
Deckard. The former blade runner looked harder and meaner, skin beginning to
draw down tighter upon the sharpened angles of his facial bones. There was even
a little steel grey scattered through his closecropped hair. Deckard looked as
if he'd spent the last year in prison rather than on Mars. Rumor had it that
life in the U.N. emigration program's transit colonies was no absolute
picnic, but Holden hadn't
figured its effects would be this visibly corrosive.
It had to be the poor sonuvabitch's personal life.
What else? Holden shook his head; he would've bet that it wasn't going to work
out, that the arrangements Deckard had made would have a dismal outcome. The
whole bit with Sarah Tyrell, the human original of the replicant Deckard had
fallen in love with . . . Holden knew that the point would come, if it hadn't
already, when dismal would turn to fatal.
"I see him." Keeping his voice low, Holden
lifted the briefcase and started calculating a route through the maze of
video-cams and other equipment. It wouldn't be easy; he'd have to find a way
past whatever security was on the set-did Outer Hollywood have
rent-a-cops?-then catch Deckard's attention somehow without revealing what was
going on to everybody else standing around. His old partner didn't know that
he'd be coming here, let alone that he had a talkative briefcase to deliver to
him. Deckard would be fast enough on his feet-or at least Holden hoped he still
would be-not to blow it by reacting to one of his old friends' unannounced
presence; he'd know that Holden would only be there for a good reason, one that
was best kept on the quiet until its exact nature was determined. Still,
thought Holden, I've got to get him somewhere in private-handing the briefcase
over in public view would be likely to get them both killed.
It appeared that the job might be easier than he'd
originally expected. The loud confrontation down on the set- Deckard's
shouting, with the others standing around and trying to mollify him-ended with
Deckard's storming away, leaving a small bespectacled figure with clipboard far
behind in his wake. The look in Deckard's eyes-even from a distance, Holden was
able to intercept a quick spark of it-was one of murderous rage. Or if not
murder, at least serious asskicking; the hunched set of his shoulders indicated
that he was going off looking for someone with whom he had a score to settle.
"Come on-" Holden had got into the habit of
speaking that way to the briefcase, even though he knew it had no independent
means of locomotion. "We can catch him over
there." He started walking again, picking up his
pace as he skirted the video set, staying in the shadows beyond the range of
the lights.
The sound
of someone pounding on a door came to Deckard's ears. And a voice shouting-he
looked down the long hallway, determining from behind which door the noise was
coming.
"Hey! Anybody!" The
voice was Urbenton's, pitched even higher with overexcitement. "Come on,
this isn't funny-let me out of here! You're all going to be fuckin' fired! I'm
supposed to be on the set!"
Deckard halted when he saw one of the doorknobs
futilely rattling. The adrenaline pumping through his system hadn't ebbed-he'd
lost none of the anger over the replicant's murder during the taping. He took a
step backward, raised one leg, and kicked straight out, hitting the door's
keyless lock.
The impact knocked over the
person on the other side as the door wobbled to a stop, one hinge torn loose
from the surrounding frame.
"Jeez-"
The pudding-y director scrambled to his feet. Urbenton's face, already starting
to settle into jowls despite his relative youth, shone with sweat. "You
could've killed me!"
"Believe it-I still could." Deckard
completed the other man's standing-up process by reaching down and grabbing
Urbenton's jacket lapels in his fists, then pulling and lifting. The video
director hung in Deckard's grasp, the same way the actor had hung in the grasp
of the now-dead Kowalski replicant. "You sonuvabitch-I thought we had an
agreement." The last words rasped out of Deckard's throat.
"What're
you talking about?" Urbenton's feet kicked futilely in midair. "You
gone nuts or something? What agreement?"
"Don't bullshit me. You
know what I mean." He set the director down, but kept the lapels wadded in
his grip. "When you brought me here-before even, when you came to Mars
and talked
me into this nonsense-you said that nobody would get hurt. Nobody-not even
replicants."
"Hey, come on
Urbenton tilted his head back from Deckard's fierce glare. "You
gotta be practical, man. When you're on a video shoot . . . there's just
accidents that're going to happen. That's just the way it is; we live in an
imperfect universe. There's a lot of heavy equipment here-all it takes is for a
lighting unit to fall on somebody's head, wham, they got a concussion. Or a
camera dolly rolls over somebody's foot-"
"We're not talking accidents here." Deckard
felt himself towering over the smaller man like some wrathful avenging deity.
"What just happened on the set wasn't an accident. It was planned that
way."
"How the hell would I know?" An indignant
pitch shrilled in Urbenton's voice. "I wasn't even near the set. I've been
locked in here the whole time."
"Right.
Very convenient."
"Convenient,
nothing-" The director managed to pull himself free. He brushed down the
front of his jacket with offended dignity. "It's my shoot. I'm in charge
here-at least, I'm supposed to be in charge." Urbenton's wide face turned
to a mottled pink, as though he were contemplating active injustices. "There's
been some funny stuff going on around here, though. From the beginning. The
money people, the ones putting up the financing for the production-they've had
some of their thugs hanging around since the shoot began. And they really give
me the creeps-"
"My heart bleeds." Deckard had no intention
of letting the fat little weasel off the hook. "But as you said, you're in
charge. It's your shoot. So if somebody gets killed on the set-if even a
replicant gets killed-it's because you ordered it to happen that way."
"What?"
Urbenton blinked in puzzlement. "I don't get it. What do you mean?"
"Killed. Dead. A bullet through the back of the
skull and out the front, brains all over the pavement. What the hell do you
think I mean?"
"You're out of your mind, Deckard."
Repulsion filtered through the director's voice and face. "I knew it was a
bad idea to hire you for this project. Any time you bring civilians around a
video shoot, they get these weird ideas about what's going on. People like you
just don't understand the nature of the industry."
"What I understand," grated Deckard,
"is that there's a corpse lying on your set. If your crew hasn't cleaned
it up by now."
Urbenton sighed wearily. "Whose corpse?"
"The replicant you had for that last street
scene. The Leon Kowalski replicant-"
The director's round shoulders lifted in a shrug. "We've got more
than one of those here."
"How many of them were you planning on killing off? All the
Kowalskis?"
Another shrug. "Well, we could if we wanted to. I
mean, it'd be legal. They're only replicants-hell, they're not even covered
under the law regarding the treatment of animals in video production. Now, if
we'd brought a real snake up here-you know, for that scene in Zhora's dressing
room, in that club-and anything had happened to it, the authorities would've
been all over our asses. You need a major permit just to take a living animal
up out of the Earth's atmosphere." A thin smile formed on Urbenton's lips.
"Different situation with replicants, though. As long as you got all your security
precautions in place, so they're not going to escape or anything, you can
pretty much do what you want with them. Inasmuch as they're technically
classified as manufactured products, and not really living things. Not like you
and me."
"So you were planning on killing them."
Deckard's gaze narrowed on the other man. "Just to make your goddamn
video."
"I keep telling you. Nobody's getting killed on
this shoot. Jeez." Urbenton shook his head. "You were the one who
insisted on all these conditions, just so you'd come here at all. I didn't want
you as a technical adviser on this production; it
was the money people who laid that on me. Believe me,
I could do without you hanging around, griping about the things that happen to
what should be some perfectly expendable production items. For Christ's sake,
Deckard, on a video shoot, replicants are nothing but fancy-shmancy props,
that's all." He rolled his eyes, lifting his short-fingered hands in a
gesture of defeat. "But you've got some hair up your butt about 'em, so
fine; that's why I agreed we weren't going to harm any replicants on this
shoot. For your tenderhearted sake, I should compromise my artistic vision-but
who am I, right? I'm just the director." Urbenton emitted a dramatic sigh.
"Spare me." Deckard leaned closer in to the
other man. "Just tell me why, if our little agreement's in place, you've
got a replicant with his head drilled open lying at your lead actor's
feet."
"You sure about this? Come on." Urbenton
peered skeptically at him. "Like I said, you're not exactly hip, video
production-wise. I've got some awfully good special effects people on the crew.
Not just digital postproduction stuff, either; these guys do real-time."
The director smiled appeasingly. "You know what? You probably saw a squib
go off on this Kowalski replicant's forehead, a makeup load went splat
hey, it's supposed to look
realistic."
"He
went down. And he didn't get up."
"The big lug probably fainted." Urbenton
shook his head. "The crew probably didn't tell him ahead of time what was
going to happen. Hell, I didn't even know that was what they had planned.
There's some real practical jokers around here. That's why I wasn't worried-at
first-when I got yanked off the set just when the tape had started rolling.
Supposed to've been a call from the money people, down on Earth; you take those
calls, no matter what. Then somebody, I didn't see who, slammed the door on me
and I found myself locked in here. Until you came along-"
"Can it." Deckard had had enough of the
director's rattling on. "The Kowalski replicant didn't faint. I don't need
to know about video production to see what happened to him.
I'm hip to death." His voice lowered to a grim
frequency. "That was my job ... for a long time. I know what a dead body
looks like."
"Hip to death.' That's a good one." Urbenton
nodded in a show of appreciation. "I like that. Maybe I underestimated
your potential; you might have a real talent for this sort of thing. I think
you're down for getting some kind of screen credit out of this gig; maybe you
could parlay that into some kind of scripting gig. Additional dialogue, that
sort of thing."
"You're not answering my question. I want to know
how that Kowalski replicant got killed. If you didn't plan on it happening, who
did?"
"I'm beginning to think ... you're not kidding
about this." From the corner of his eye, Urbenton studied him uneasily.
"It happened just now? On the set?" The pink flesh turned pale.
"A real bullet, and everything?"
Deckard
made no reply. He didn't have to.
"That's weird." Urbenton slowly shook his
head. "Because that'd be real bad news. Not just for that poor bastard
replicant His voice spookily softened as
his gaze shifted away from Deckard. "But for all of us .
By the time he got past the doors through which Deckard
had vanished, there was no sound of the others' footsteps. Or of any voices;
the area was acoustically sealed off from the soundstages out in the station's
main area. Holden could detect the faint buzzing of the fluorescent panels
lining the narrow corridors, and nothing else.
"Well, he's gotta be around somewhere."
Holden looked down the double row of featureless doorways. A fine layer of dust
had drifted onto their sills. He tilted back his head, trying to catch a scent
trace of his quarry; he'd quit the department, but still prided himself on
keeping his quasi-extrasensory cop skills.
The briefcase had its own version of them.
"There's somebody coming," it announced. "I can feel them. But
it's not-" The briefcase suddenly clammed up.
"What're you doing
here?" Another voice, not Deckard's.
Warning from the briefcase had given Holden the
quarter second he needed to assemble a front. He glanced over his shoulder at
the figure standing in the just-opened doorway behind him. A big sonuvabitch,
possibly security; he had on an ID badge with a name he didn't bother to read.
"I got called over to the set-" Holden kept his voice modulated down
to a level of disarming self-assurance. "Beats me, what for."
The other man stepped forward and peered more closely
at him. "Okay The man gave a slow
nod. "They must be talking about the office setup. The interview
scene-it's not on the list for today, but what the hell A disgusted shrug. "This whole shoot's
so screwed up." He clamped a hand on Holden's shoulder-the guy was at
least a head taller-and steered him down the hallway. "Man, I don't even
know if they're trying to make a movie here." His glance went down to the
briefcase dangling from Holden's grip. "Is that supposed to be it? The
whatchacallit . . . the Vogue-Kafka. Or whatever."
"Voigt-Kampff." It didn't take even a split
second for him to respond. "Sure," lied Holden. You got it-the other
man was obviously operating on the assumption that Holden was connected to the
video production in some way. One of the actors? He wondered if there was
supposed to be a Holden as well as a Deckard in this thing. Whatever. He wasn't
about to contradict the guy and get his cover blown. "That's what it is,
all right."
"Doesn't look the way I
thought it would." The other man frowned at the briefcase in Holden's hand.
"But it'd be typical of them to tell the props people to just throw
something together on the cheap."
He's buying it, thought Holden. All that was necessary
now was to keep the guy bulishitted, then find a way of giving him the slip and
continuing to search for Deckard. This was the security that he'd been so
worried about running into? The briefcase's voice could've skipped all the dire
forebodings.
"In here." The other
man pushed open one of the hallway's
doors and walked Holden through it. "This is the
set you're down for-they wouldn't need you out on the big one."
As his eyes adjusted to the dim space, Holden found
himself standing in the middle of what looked like a small office, with a
couple of high-backed chairs facing each other across a table. Something
fluttered above his head; he looked up and saw the blades of a ceiling fan
turning lazily in the room's air. Beyond the fan and the narrow plank on which
it was fastened was nothing but the studio's empty reaches, studded with
gantrys and walkways, lights extinguished as blind eyes.
"Stay
put." The other man turned back toward the door. "I'll go get the
rest of the crew."
"Maybe I should go along." Holden lifted the
briefcase with both hands against his chest. "Instead ofjust waiting
here." A sudden, irrational panic had sped up the bio-mech heart in his
chest; he could feel his pulse bouncing off the briefcase's leatherette flank.
"Maybe-"
"Forget that." The other man's voice turned
harsher. "I don't want you wandering off while I'm trying to round up
everybody else. Just sit down and relax. Won't be a minute."
When the other man had left, the briefcase spoke up.
"Way to go." The voice was tinged with a familiar sarcasm.
"Door's locked, isn't it?"
Holden gave the knob a futile twist, but didn't bother
to give an answer. Hefting the briefcase onto the table, he pulled back one of
the chairs and lowered himself into it. From the corner of his eye, he saw
letters imprinted on the headrest; his vision had adjusted well enough that he
could also see them on the empty chair. They spelled out TYRELL
CORP.
A memory stirred uneasily in the darker space inside
his head. From a long time ago, back when he'd had a real fleshand-blood heart
and lungs ticking and sighing under his breastbone. The room, even with its
nonexistent ceiling and switched-off video-cams peering in, seemed familiar to
him, in a way that made the machine-pumped blood crawl in his veins. He drew a
blank on it, but knew that it wasn't because he was unable to remember. More
likely, he didn't want to.
The memory sat obstinately at
the back of his skull, refusing to show itself in even the room's partial
light.
Two chairs that said TYRELL CORP Ofl them . . . and a
slowly revolving ceiling fan. There was smoke, Holden remembered. Cigarette
smoke, drifting blue, hanging like some semitransparent snakeskin in the air;
from the cigarette that'd been in his own hand. He'd still been smoking then;
he'd given it up some time after he'd gotten the new heart and lungs. The
doctors had told him that his system had reached its limit-if anything happened
to this set, there'd be no chance of putting another one inside him. And there
had been something sitting on the table in front of him
not a briefcase, but an actual Voigt-Kampff machine,
regulation LAPD issue, just like the big black guns that blade runners carried
around with them. The Voigt-Kampff had been opened and activated, its batwing
bellows compressing and expanding, breathing in microscopic traces of sweat and
fear; the tracking lens on its antennalike metal stalk ready to focus on the
dilating pupil of anyone who'd been dropped down in the chair opposite him .
Where am I? The incomplete, unwilled memory had
claimed him so hard that for a moment he had lost track of his location,
whether Earth or the Outer Hollywood orbital studios. The bio-mech heart
stumbled in sudden panic. What place, what time . . . Holden gripped the edges
of the table with fear-rigid hands.
"All right-" The claustrophobic set's door
had swung open again, admitting a voice louder than the ones inside Holden's
skull. The man who'd led him into the room had another, even taller figure in
tow. "The director asked me to get your blocking down before we tried
running tape."
Holden looked up and saw the face behind the other
man's, and recognized it. Another piece from the memory that had wrapped around
him.
"So what is it you want me to do?" From the
chinless, brutal face of a Leon Kowalski replicant-another from the same batch
as the dead one that Holden had glimpsed lying on the L.A. street set-small
eyes peered with apprehensive suspicion. All the Leon Kowalskis were just
bright enough to be
mistrustful
of humans . . . but not bright enough to do anything about it.
So then, how'd you wind up getting iced by one of
them? Holden's unspoken voice chided him. The rest of the memory regarding the
room with two Tyrell Corporation chairs was starting to come clear, whether he
wanted it to or not.
"You know your lines?" The other man glanced
sharply at the burly replicant. "Yeah ... kind of."
"Sit over here." The man pointed to the
empty chair at the table. "How about you?" He glanced over toward
Holden.
The apprehension transmuted to
certainty. "Of course-"It took a couple of seconds for Holden to find
his voice, to squeeze it past the constriction tightening around his artificial
lungs. I know this room. And what had happened in it. "Yeah ... I know
what to say."
"Dynamite. You guys are a
couple of real professionals." The man pulled something dark and heavy out
of his jacket and handed it to the Kowalski replicant. "Here, use this.
It's the same one you'll have when we're taping."
The replicant examined the gun with small eyes
narrowed even further, as though some personal anti-Kowalski trap might be
hidden inside it. He finally wrapped both fists around its handle and levered
it underneath the table.
Oh no, thought Holden as he
watched the preparations. I know what comes next .
"All right. Let's try it." The other man
stood back against the set's doorway, arms folded across his chest. A smile
tugged at one corner of his mouth, as if the scene before him had already been
found pleasing. "Take it from where you ask him about his mother."
"M-my mother?" The
Kowalski replicant looked over his shoulder at the man.
"Don't worry about it.
It's not for real." The man's voice turned kindly. "It's just a
video, okay? And it's not even that right now. Just for practice, that's all. A
little rehearsal." He glanced over at Holden. "Come on, buddy; we
don't have all day. Just say your line."
The fluids that his
bio-mechanical heart moved around in
Holden's body had congealed-even the breath in his
lungs felt thick and heavy as stone. Underneath that crushing weight, part of
him struggled to push his legs beneath the chair, to stand up and walk out of
the re-created room pressing tight around his shoulders .
But he couldn't. You'll give it away, the remaining
rational part of his mind argued. Walk out of here, and it'll prove that you're
not one of the hired actors. The man standing in front of the door would have
set security down on Holden's ass in no time.
Besides, he told himself, there's nothing to worry
about. All he had to do was bluff this officious bastard a little while longer,
then find some way to slip out of here and continue looking for Deckard.
The rational part had its
reasons for him to go on sitting at the table, across from the replicant whose
image was so firmly bolted into his memory. They amounted to nothing compared
to the irrational ones.
Fear kept him nailed to the seat. Fear, and the locks
of time. Time repeating itself, a loop tightening around him, against which it
was impossible to prevail. He knew what was coming-he remembered everything
now-and knew that there was nothing he could do to keep it from happening all over
again.
"Say
your line." The partial smile ebbed on the face of the man by the door.
"Go on."
Holden closed his eyes for a moment, to make sure that
he got it absolutely right. "Tell me He opened his eyes and looked
straight into the resentful gaze of the Kowalski replicant. "Tell me all
the good things that come into your mind, when you think about . . . your
mother .
"My mother?" The
replicant was right in character. His voice sounded just the way the other
Kowalski's had, so long ago.
"That's right." Holden couldn't keep himself
from nodding, even smiling, the same superior fraction of expression that he'd
had the first time through this loop. All he lacked was the cigarette and the
blue smoke curling above his head. "Your mother."
The Kowalski replicant's face flushed with anger,
small eyes widening.
That's perfect, thought Holden. Unresisting.
"I'll tell you about my mother-"
That was all he heard; the rest wasn't spoken, but
shouted in flame that burst through the table, leapt and struck him in the
chest, where his old, fleshiy heart had once been. The new heart took the
bullet's impact without pain, without even shock. His breath was blood in his
mouth; the artificial lungs had collapsed into two clenched fists.
The chair spun around with him in it, head thrust hard
against the words TYRELL CORP. He accepted another shot between the shoulder
blades, the bullet tumbling through the chair back; fragments of surgically
inert metal and polyethylene spattered before him in a red mist. The bullet's
momentum thrust both him and the chair through the flimsy wall panel- Just as
it had before. Well, they got that right, thought
Holden. The chair had stopped, caught by debris and
black cables on the set's flooring, but he hadn't. He found himself lying in a
spreading pooi of blood, his fingertips heated by the red flow from the broken
machinery in his chest. The blank idiot eyes of the video-cams stared down at
him.
He was right-a subsystem of the cardiopulmonary gear
was still functional, at least for another few seconds; enough to pump a last
trace of oxygen to his brain and rapidly dwindling consciousness. The briefcase
had been right when it had warned him. Big trouble, thought Holden. His last
thoughts ticked away, in synch with the final small battery winding down. To
what the briefcase had said: You'll probably die.
There was
no arguing with that, not now.
What the briefcase had gotten wrong, though-Holden
shook his head, the back of his skull mired in the sticky wetness. It wasn't
big trouble; at least not for him. The end of trouble-as the doctors had told
him, there wouldn't be any chance of plugging a new heart and lungs into him,
so he didn't have to worry about being brought back, to do this all over again.
He could even smile about it, really smile, though he
couldn't be sure that anything was happening with his face-for a few
time-dilated microseconds after the second bullet had laid him out, he'd been
able to catch a tiny reflection of himself in one of the curved lenses above
him. But his sight had gone unfocussed and dark, and his flesh was too numb and
cold to get any kinetic feedback. Not that he could move, or even want to; that
was all past him now.
But not for the briefcase. Wiseass-a last thought flickered
through the darkening chambers of Holden's brain.
That was the joke, the final one. The delivery he'd
come here to make . It would have to find its own way now.
They heard the shot, followed by another one. Deckard
turned away from the video director as the two hard-edged sounds, spaced only a
couple of seconds apart, rolled through the orbital station's canned
atmosphere. They came from close by-he could tell just from the way the shock
waves sifted dust from the pipes and walkways above the room's open ceiling.
"What the-" The ample flesh of Urbenton's
face quivered as though the noises had come from his being slapped.
"There's not supposed to be any taping going on down here. Not now-"
"It's not taping," said Deckard grimly.
"It's happening." The last low-pitched echoes had faded away. He left
Urbenton standing in the middle of the room as he pulled open the door and
strode out into the hallway beyond.
Urbenton followed him; he could hear the director's
trotting footsteps and wheezing breath. Deckard paid no attention as Urbenton
called in a panicky voice for him to stop and tell him what was going on.
Other
voices came from behind one of the doors. Deckard recognized the first one that
spoke.
"Was that okay?" It
was the voice of another Leon Kowalski replicant. He didn't sound happy.
"Was that what was supposed to happen?"
"You did just fine."
The thin door barely muffled someone else's reply. "Don't worry about
it-"
The voice was interrupted by Deckard's shoving the
door open. Two faces, a taller man's and a second Kowalski replicant's, looked
around at him. Deckard's gaze took them in, as well as the evidence of what had
happened in the room. It was laid out as a small video set, with lights and
cameras, all switched off, angling in from above.
One side of the set was in apparent ruin. Past a table
and chair, marked TYRELL CORP across its high back, the room's far wall was
torn open. An identical chair lay toppled over in the wreckage, a body with
shattered chest sprawled out from it. Blood pooled out from beneath the corpse.
Deckard walked past the others and stood looking down
at the figure, its arms splayed wide, half-lidded gaze turned blindly toward
the empty spaces above. The oddly peaceful expression on his old partner's face
was the only thing he didn't recognize. The gaping chest wound extruded broken
bits of machinery, fragments of the artificial organs that had wound up being
implanted in him some time after he'd first been blown away by Leon
Kowalski-another one of the exact same Nexus-6 replicant model. From the looks
of Holden, this replicant had completed the job its brother had begun.
Irrevocably-there wasn't enough left to bring back from the dead, let alone
from any penultimate state of minimal pulse and brain functioning.
The video's script had called for a scene where Dave
Holden's first encounter with Leon Kowalski, at the Tyrell Corporation's
headquarters back in Earth's L.A., would be reenacted. Whether that scene had
already been taped or was going to be taped later in the production, Deckard
didn't know-and didn't care. Even before he'd arrived at the Outer Hollywood
station, all he'd been concerned about was getting paid for this technical
adviser gig and getting back to his unfinished business in the U.N. emigrant
colony on Mars.
But Urbenton had told him nothing about Holden's being
brought up here as well. Which meant that the video director had been
concealing that bit of the production plans-Why? Deckard wondered-or else it'd
never been part of the plans
at all. If that were true, then Holden had come to the
orbital station on his own . . . or somebody else had sent him.
So maybe, thought Deckard, it wasn't an act when Urben
ton got all spooked about the other Kowalski replicant's getting killed on the
street set. As much of a conniving little sneak as the video director was,
there still might be things going on of which he hadn't been the prime
motivator. Urbenton had clammed up, in true paranoid style, when Deckard had
finally convinced him that a live round from a real gun had killed one of the
Kowalski replicants; there hadn't been time to pump the director for more info-
just who it was supposed to be, that the possibility of their pulling stuff in
the orbiting studio was so blood-drainingly scary-when the sound of more shots
being fired had interrupted them.
He turned and looked back at
the others in the room, the still living ones, human and replicant.
The Leon Kowalski replicant had the same
uncomprehending expression in his small eyes as his twin had gotten when the
bullet had penetrated his skull and leapt out through his forehead. This one
held another gun, the weapon that had just blown away Dave Holden, extending it
on his beefy palm toward the other men.
"I'm really sorry As big as he was, the replicant had the
voice of an overgrown, frightened child, one who wasn't even sure of the nature
of the crime he might have committed. "I did it just like I was told to.
But ... I don't know He shook his
animal head. "D'you want me to do it again?"
"Don't worry about
it." The taller man, calm and supercilious beside the video director's
perspiring, stubby form, reached out and took the gun from the replicant's
hand. "Like I said, you did just fine."
"'Fine'?" Urbenton screeched, goggling at
the other man. "What the hell are you talking about?" He flung out
one arm, pointing to where Deckard stood next to the corpse. "I don't even
know who you are. And you come around here and all of a sudden I've got a dead
body on the set-a human body- plus a dead replicant somewhere else, and you say
'Fine'?"
He started to turn toward the door. "That does
it. I'm calling studio security."
"There's no need for that. Everything's under
control here." The taller man didn't look at Urbenton, but wrapped his
hand around the grip of the gun and lifted it to eye level. He stretched his
arm out straight. "I'll take care of it."
Deckard could see what the other man was about to do,
was already doing as he stepped away from the corpse on the video set's floor.
He raised his own hand toward the gun, though it was yards away; he knew he
would never reach it in time, as he pushed his way past the table with an
unopened briefcase on it, the Tyrell Corporation chair that hadn't been toppled
over .
The Kowalski replicant knew as well that it was
hopeless, that there'd be no point in trying to evade the bullet. The taller
man squeezed his hand around the gun's grip, finger tightening on the
trigger-Deckard saw the tiny motion, heard the shift of metal against metal
inside the gun's workings. A tapered rush of flame broke from the circle at the
dark muzzle's end; the replicant had already turned his head away in
anticipatory flinching, eyes shut as if he could prevent himself from seeing
that quick, ragged, and fatal
light.
A single bullet; it caught the replicant at the corner
of his brow. For a moment, he looked as if he had been graced with
understanding, a shocked awareness flaring deep behind his eyes, their silent
gaze turned toward and engulfing Deckard. Then Kowalski fell, his massive body
lifted onto tiptoe by the shot's impact, the side of his head rocked against
one blood-spattered shoulder. He landed in the angle of the room's floor and
farthest wall, crumpled into a package of rags that no longer resembled a human
being.
The hand at the end of Deckard's arm, that had been
reaching for the gun, curled into a fist. He was close enough to the taller man
now that he could read the name-MAlILEY- on the ID badge pinned to his chest.
Deckard planted himself, drew his fist back, and then launched it into the
other's chin. The blow snapped the man's head back, staggering him against the
door. He held on to the gun; when he'd regained his balance, he used his free
hand to rub the bruise spreading along his jaw. A slow smile leaked out from
behind his fingers.
"What are you so worked up about?" The
taller man's amused gaze regarded Deckard. "It was only a replicant. And
maybe you didn't notice-it'd just killed someone. A human. Replicants who do that
sort of thing aren't supposed to live." The smile grew wider and nastier.
"Maybe you're upset because I was just . . . doing your job for you."
One of the man's eyebrows lifted. "Isn't that what blade runners are
supposed to do? Kill replicants?"
"Fuck you." Disgust coiled Deckard's guts.
He would've taken another swing at the man, this time to lay him out cold on
the floor, but the notion of even that brief contact repulsed him. He turned
toward the sweating, goggling figure of Urbenton. "Look-" His finger
jabbed into the director's flesh-padded chest. "I don't know what the
hell's going on around here. And as of now, I don't care. I'm leaving." He
pushed past Urbenton and out the door.
"Hey, Deckard-" The taller man's voice
followed him out to the corridor beyond. He glanced over his shoulder and saw
the man still rubbing his jaw and smiling. The man gave a slow nod. "We'll
run into each other again. And then we'll have a lot to talk about."
"Don't
count on it." Deckard turned on his heel and started walking again,
without looking back.
"Sooner than you think,
man." The other's voice faded behind him. "Sooner than you think .
Halfway down the corridor, Deckard felt a tug at his
elbow. He looked around and saw Urbenton trotting to keep up with him.
"Wait a minute
Urbenton panted for breath. "Come on, Deckard. What're you talking
about? Leaving-you can't leave."
"Watch
me."
The director grabbed Deckard's
arm tighter. "You can't- we're not done with the shoot!"
"That's not my problem." With the butt of
his palm, he shoved his way through a wider set of double doors that led out of
the orbital studio's offices and toward the landing
docks. "Tape your movie
any way you want to. I'm out of here."
"Goddamn it, Deckard, you can't do this!"
Urbenton's voice ratchetted higher and more emotional than when the Kowalski
replicant had been killed in front of him. "You walk out of here, the
money people down on Earth will be all over my ass!" He stopped and dug
in, his weight yanking Deckard to a halt. "We've got a contract with you!
Signed and notarized!"
"You
know what you can do with it."
Urbenton's
voice continued hectoring him, but he ignored
it. Up ahead, through the segmented maze of container
hoists and freight movers, he could see the smaller black ovoid of the skiff
that had brought him to the Outer Hollywood station from Mars. The propulsion
nacelles were streaked with corrosion, the rounded fuselage pitted with the
wear of several years of interplanetary flight. His depleted finances had
allowed for nothing newer or more serviceable than this craft; he'd checked it
out as best he could, but the journey had still felt like travelling in a blind
sarcophagus surrounded by cold vacuum. The whole time he'd been here at the
station, he'd been dreading the flight back . . . until now. At the present
point, Deckard didn't care whether the skiff's fuel and oxygen would last until
he was in a closing orbit above Mars. Just as long as he got away at all.
He worked at strapping himself into the skiff's tiny
cockpit, letting Urbenton's yelped squall pass over him like the buzz of a
grossly enlarged insect.
"You're not getting paid, jerk-off!"
Urbenton had gone into a vein-throbbing rage. His pink-ringed eyes looked as
though they were about to jump out of his face. "That's the deal-payment's
on completion of your contract. You were supposed to be on-set until principal
photography's wrapped up-hit the road now and you don't get a penny,
jack."
"Like I care." Deckard punched buttons on
the control panel, programming the skiffs course. "That's not a problem
for me." It was, though; portions of his mind, the coldest ones and first
to regain their balance after witnessing these quick deaths, had already begun
fretting about the money.
Or the lack thereof-the whole
point of taking the technical adviser gig on the production had been to pump up
his dwindling account back at the U.N. emigrant colony. He thumbed the last
button on the panel and got a confirming red flash in return. "See you in
some other life."
"Don't bet on it."
The director turned his wide, sullen face away. "I carry grudges for a
long time."
As the skiffs cockpit hatch began to lower, blocking
off Deckard's view of Urbenton exiting from the dock, he heard another voice
calling him.
"Mr.
Deckard! Wait a minute!"
He stopped the hatch and looked out the side of the
skiff. The bespectacled production assistant ran toward him carrying something
pressed against her nominal breast.
"Anything I left behind," said Deckard,
"you can keep." He'd come to the Outer Hollywood station with little
more than a few changes of clothes. "I don't need it."
"Are you sure?" The heavy black glasses'
rims had slipped down the bridge of the woman's nose; she pushed them back with
one corner of the object she held in her hands. It was a briefcase, Deckard saw
now, a plain black leatherette one. "I thought this looked like it was
maybe important. You had it back there in the office, when you were having your
little conference with Mr. Urbenton."
The woman was right; now he remembered seeing it, on
the table with the two Tyrell Corporation chairs at either side, one chair
overturned with Dave Holden's corpse bleeding away nearby. "That's not
mine." He supposed it might've been brought to the station by Holden. It
didn't matter to him, one way or the other.
"Really?" The little
production assistant twisted her face into a puzzled expression. "It's got
your initials on it." She turned the briefcase around to show him the
small metal badge set in beneath the handle.
"See?"
The initials RMD were engraved into the metal piece.
Deckard said nothing, his own face a mask, as he listened to a small warning
bell ring inside his head. Anything with his name on it, that had come to him
by way of a dead man, was unlikely to be good news.
Another voice spoke, though
there was no one but himself and the production assistant on the dock. Or at
least no one human; it took him a moment to realize where the voice came from.
"Hey ... Deckard the
briefcase whispered, just loud enough for him to pick up. "Don't blow this
one. Just take it."
"What was that?" Looking even more puzzled, the production
assistant glanced around the space. "Did you hear something?"
"No-" Deckard shook his head. He reached out
and took the briefcase's handle, pulled it away from her. His grip tightened on
it; he'd recognized the voice in just those few words. "Thanks. You're
right; almost slipped my mind."
"Have a nice trip home." The production
assistant bent down as the cockpit hatch began lowering again. She looked
wistful, as if she would've liked to leave with him. "Sorry things didn't
work out-"
He had no chance to reply; the hatch hissed shut. The
briefcase, silent now, rested on the other seat. In a few minutes, the skiff
had been ejected from the station and was on its course back to Mars.
When the last lights flicked
out on the control panel, Deckard loosened the strap running over his shoulder.
"Hey-" He extended his forefinger and poked at the briefcase.
"You in there?"
A few seconds passed before the briefcase spoke. "I take it,"
the voice said, "that there's nobody else around right now."
"You got it."
"Keep it that way. I try not to go rattling off
in public." The voice's tone shifted to cordial. "Good seeing you
again, Deckard. Metaphorically speaking; I don't actually have any visual
percept systems at the moment."
"Sure." He nodded. "Likewise,
Roy."
Deckard closed his own eyes.
The last time he'd heard Roy Batty's voice, the other man had been in a
human-type body and not a black leatherette rectangle. And had been trying to
kill him-he supposed he didn't have to worry about that
now. Unless the briefcase was some kind of bomb. It
was always possible. "We've got a lot to talk about."
He didn't answer the briefcase. He leaned back into
the cockpit's seat, eyes still shut but nowhere near sleep.
Whatever had to be told to him by the briefcase-No,
Deckard corrected himself; it's Batty inside there. He knew it was-he figured
he'd find out soon enough.
The alarm clock laboriously climbed to the top of the
bedside table, its hooked little claws gaining whatever purchase they could on
the imitation wood-grain plastic-and-cardboard surfaces. It waddled through the
litter of empty pharmaceutical tubes, wadded-up tissues, and unloaded gun, then
looked over at the figure on the bed. "Time to wake up, Mrs.
Niemand."
Sarah Tyrell squeezed her eyes shut tighter. The cold,
weak illumination of a Martian dawn-or possibly noon; it was always hard to
tell-seeped through the hovel's dust-clouded skylights. "That's not my
name." She heard the scraping of her voice, as though the airborne grit
had filtered into her throat's various soft hinges and joints. "Don't call
me that." The clock's programmed habits had been getting on her nerves for
a long time.
"You'll always be Mrs. Niemand to me." A
synthesized bell tone, razor bright, sounded from the clock's tiny speaker.
"Come on. Wakey wakey. Rise and shine."
That was why the gun was unloaded. If she didn't keep
it that way, the alarm clock would've been dead by now, sparkling bits of metal
and microcircuitry splattered over the far wall of the bedroom.
She laid the back of her hand against her eyelids,
attempting in vain to block out the traces of the day's illumination,
to create
eternal-and dreamless-night.
"Mrs. Niemand ... come on now From across the room, the calendar softly
chided her. "You know your to-do list. There's nothing about committing
suicide today." The calendar could read her moods. Behind the animated
woodland scene and all the rows of numbered days beneath it was a fairly sharp
intelligence. Autonomic household appliances got that way on Mars, given enough
time. A matter of survival; they endured, while their human owners came and
went.
Th the grave, mainly, thought Sarah. "All
right," she called out. She didn't want the calendar on her tits all day,
nagging along in its infuriatingly maternal way. Given her family
background-that she had inherited the Tyrell Corporation, which before its
destruction had been the single largest manufacturer of simulated human
intelligences-she had little taste for talking machines. Of either the
solicitous or chipper variety; she didn't know which grated on her nerves more.
"I'm getting up." She threw the bedcovers back, away from her bare
legs. "I won't just lie here all day, thinking about death.
Satisfied?"
"Attagirl!"
The alarm clock rang its bell again. "Way to go! Don't let the bastards
get you down!"
She sighed, deep and weary. "Just one thing. Just
do me one favor." She was talking to the calendar; she knew the clock was
hopeless. "Call me Sarah. Or Miss Tyrell. Anything but that Mrs. Niemand
crap."
"We can't do that." The calendar sounded
mournful. Or even grieving, as though the limited intelligence printed into its
circuits was aware of the nature of its sins, which it couldn't help
committing. "We came with the hovel. We're part of the rental agreement
that you and Mr. Niemand signed. You got us and the microwave and the fridge,
plus basic cable service, all for one low, low monthly fee."
"Yeah, right." Basic cable consisted of a
scrolling crawl of all the additional and hugely expensive service upgrades the
video monopoly on Mars provided. Which the stuck-in-transit U.N. emigrants paid
for, as long as they could. The alternative being a slow, twitching descent
into idiopathic madness and death from sensory deprivation. "What a
deal."
"Nevertheless." Wounded, the calendar
attempted to justify itself, exactly as it had before. "Our programmed responses
are generated from the database screens that you and your husband filled out.
Where you are listed as Mr. and Mrs. Niemand. You can call yourselves Rick
Deckard and Rachael Tyrell-or Sarah, if that's what you prefer-but we can't.
That's just the way it is."
She knew all that. To be lectured by machines, that
was what life had come to. Life as we know it, Sarah mused bitterly. What was
worse, she also knew the autonomic calendar was right; it would confuse things
too much for her to insist upon being called by her real name. She wasn't even
completely sure what that name was anymore. Mr. and Mrs. Niemand were the
aliases that Deckard had picked for them so they could travel with all the
other emigrants leaving Earth and set up housekeeping-such as it was-in the
U.N. transit colony on Mars. Without being apprehended by the authorities;
after what had happened on Earth, back in Los Angeles-not what had merely
happened, but what she herself had willed into being, the agent of her own
destruction and the apocalypse of the Tyrell Corporation-after all that, the
police and the U.N. security forces wouldn't even bother bringing any charges
against her.
Even for murder-there must have been dozens who'd died
in the flaming, explosives-driven collapse of the Tyrell Corporation
headquarters buildings. Maybe hundreds; the way people tended to die in L.A.,
anonymously and forgotten, it was hard to keep track of these things. But
though she had made it come about, the fulfillment of her own intent and
desires deeper and more driving than anything held in consciousness, she hadn't
been alone. The faceless entities at the U.N. had actually been the ones to
push the red button, or
whatever trigger was used to reduce the Tyrell
Corporation to a ziggurat of twisted girders and smoldering rubble with dead
flesh beneath its weight.
"That's why Sarah Tyrell had to die." She
spoke aloud, to the room's empty spaces. Head pressed back against the pillow,
watching the blackness behind her eyelids. When Deckard wasn't here with her,
this was her main occupation. Perhaps the only one: sorting through the past,
sifting its charred, ashen fragments through her fingers, as though she might
be able to find pieces of her own splintered bones. The official line was that
Sarah Tyrell had died in the corporation's fiery collapse; if the authorities
suspected otherwise, they wouldn't be motivated to say so-the blood was on
their hands as well. "That's why I'm not Sarah Tyrell anymore .
"True." The room wasn't empty; the calendar
had heard these musings before. "But you're not Rachael, either." It
had a penchant for accuracy, due to its number-based existence. "That was
a lie. That was always a lie."
Right as usual; she nodded slowly in agreement. The
real Rachael-if the word real could be applied to a replicant- was also dead.
Really and truly dead, as a child might say. Rachael, the duplicate of which
Sarah Tyrell had been the original, had been dying when Deckard had fallen in
love with her. A fool of a blade runner, to love someone-something-whose
intrinsic nature was to die; replicants had only four-year life spans. More
like insects, bright ephemeral creatures that lasted a day or two, than humans,
who generally took longer in their dying . . . unless you killed them.
"But I wasn't lying." She let her voice
become soft and wounded as a child's. "Not really." That word again,
just as if it had any meaning at all. "When I told him I was Rachael.
Because I'm the same as her . . . aren't I? They made her from me, to be the same
as me." She meant her uncle, the late-and murdered-Eldon Tyrell, and all
the forces of the Tyrell Corporation that had been under his command when he'd
still been alive. "There was no difference between her and me."
"Except," said the calendar, "that he
loved her. Mr. Niemand did. I mean . . . Deckard. Or whoever. Now you've gotten
me confused."
That was the difference; the calendar's reminder put
an invisible knife through her heart. The difference that made everything else
a lie. And rendered futile everything she had done. She had killed her
duplicate Rachael-or arranged for her to die, the same thing-and destroyed her
inheritance, leaving smoke and rubble where the Tyrell Corporation had once
been, and accomplished nothing thereby. All love in vain, thought Sarah. The
lies, too. Which was even harder; the lies took more work. And all they'd
accomplished had been for her to wind up here, in a hovel in the U.N. emigrant
colony on Mars, that bleak way station where nothing happened but people died anyway.
She didn't feel like getting out of bed, despite the
prodding from the calendar and the alarm clock; they'd probably start up again
in a minute or two. He knew, she thought darkly. He knew from the beginning.
With her eyes closed, she could again see Deckard's face at that moment when
she'd first realized he knew she wasn't Rachael. She had lied, and engineered
lies and death, and gotten nothing
from them. If the difference between her and Rachael,
the dying and then dead replicant with her face, had been Deckard's love . . .
then she would become Rachael. If I could have-that thought bitterer than all
the rest. Not meant to be; he had looked at her, as they'd sat in the emigrant
ship that was to take them from Earth, and he had spoken and she had known.
That in a universe of lies, the one that mattered most to her was the single
one that Deckard couldn't even pretend to believe in. Just my luck, thought
Sarah.
"Mrs. Niemand-" The calendar spoke again, a
little more commanding urgency in its synthesized voice. "You can't go on
this way." Lodged in its memory bank were the records of some other bad
times that had started out with the hovel's mistress being unable to get out of
bed. "This is essentially self-laceration, and pointless. You have to deal
with reality, you know."
"I know." With an act of will as simple and
decisive as pulling a trigger, she swung her legs out of the bed and sat up;
the hovel's recycled-plastic floorboards pressed their imitation wood grain
against the bare soles of her feet. "Look, I'm up. Okay?" She shook
her head. "For Christ's sake Her
fingertips prodded through the rubble on top of the small table, in search of
any remains of the last packet of black-market cigarettes she had splashed out
on. The stubs in the can lid she used for an ashtray were too far gone to be of
any service.
The alarm clock skipped nimbly away to avoid Sarah's
trembling hand. "All right! Let's get going!" Its bell-like voice
radiated maniacal cheer. "Lots to do today!"
Sarah had found one cigarette butt that she managed to
ignite; she sucked a stale drag from it. "Like what?" She blew the
smoke into the alarm clock's round face.
"Well The
small autonomic device comically waved the smoke away with its pointed black
hands. "You could make yourself lovely-lovelier than you are, I mean-and
get ready for your husband to come home. Mr. Niemand, that is."
She frowned as she ground out the butt in the can lid.
"Is he coming home? Is he supposed to be?" She had lost track of
time, the passage of days. Which was a bad sign, something the U.N's social
workers and mental health professionals were constantly warning the emigrants
about. It was one of the first indications-along with the facial tics, the skin
plucking, and other obsessive-compulsive rituals-that the toxic effects of the
low-stimulus Martian environment were being felt. Madness and death were usually
not far behind. Not that I'm overly concerned, thought Sarah.
"Not quite," said the calendar on the
bedroom's wall. "Mr. Niemand isn't scheduled to return for a few more days
yet. But you never know." The calendar attempted to sound hopeful and
solicitous of its human masters' welfare. "Maybe he wrapped up his
business and is coming home early. It could happen."
"You're right." With both hands, she pushed
her tangled hair back from her brow. "As usual." In the hovel's
bathroom, she let the trickle of rust-colored
water collect in the basin while trying to avoid
seeing herself in the clouded mirror. She didn't want to deal with the issue of
whether it was her face or Rachael's that she saw there.
Away from the alarm clock's chatter and the calendar's
nagging, her thoughts began to order themselves, resuming a familiar shape and
weight. One that she had decided upon the day after Deckard
had left, when he'd gone out to that run-down video studio orbiting
above Earth. A time-honored tradition, a reverting to old forms of gender-based
behavior:
the man going out to make money, to bring it home to
the basic family unit, the wife tending the fire .
They're right, she told
herself again. I do have to be ready for him. She bent over the sink and
splashed the water into her face.
A thump sounded from the bedroom behind her.
"Oops," came the clock's voice.
With a trickle of water running between her breasts,
Sarah glanced over her shoulder. The alarm clock, in its chugging circuit
around the tabletop, had knocked the gun to the floor.
"Sorry .
"Don't worry about it." She reached for the
threadbare towel. "You know it's not loaded."
She knew what the clock and the calendar didn't. That
the gun wouldn't stay unloaded for long. In the dresser drawer, beneath her
wadded-up underthings, were two bullets. They had been expensively acquired,
black-market items like the cigarettes, in a place like the emigrant colony,
where death came constantly and slowly, the means of a fast death assumed a
precious status.
One for him, thought Sarah as she ran the towel across
the back of her neck. And one for me . .
She'd be ready for Mr. Niemand's homecoming.
"I wouldn't have thought that was your kind of
gig." The briefcase had started talking again, still with Roy Batty's
voice. "Making videos and all that.~ Not exactly your former
line of work, is it?"
"Yeah, well," said Deckard, "it
pays." Or at least it was supposed to, he thought grimly. Outside the
skiff, discernible through the viewscreen over the tiny cockpit's instrument
panel, was void interplanetary space, not made any more comforting by the cold
light of the distant stars.
"Kind of screwed yourself on that one, didn't
you?" Batty, when he'd been in a human incarnation, or a reasonable
facsimile thereof, had always displayed a spooky talent for reading others'
thoughts; reduced now to a box, he seemed to have retained the ability.
"That's the problem with those big temper displays. It's all rush at the
beginning-then comes the hangover."
Whatever Batty had been wrong about before-including
his lunatic theory that Deckard himself was a replicant-he was nailing this
situation. Deckard knew that the disembodied voice was right; inside his head,
he was giving his ass a well-placed kick. "That was the whole reason I
agreed to do
it. For the money." Deckard emitted a short,
ill-humored laugh. "And then I didn't even get it. The whole trip was a
waste of time."
"But you knew it would be." The briefcase
spoke softly, almost kindly. "Didn't you?"
Deckard wasn't sure. He gazed broodingly at the
dark-filled viewscreen. Temper displays weren't the only things that had
problems attached to them. Needing money, being desperate for it, the way a
drowning person craved oxygen in his lungs-that brought along its own raft of
difficulties, the things that screwed up the rational functionings of one's
brain. "Anything can be believed," Deckard mused aloud. "If you
have to."
"And that's how you fell in with that Urbenton
creep?" Batty's voice prodded at him. "Not a good call on your part,
Deckard. That guy's slime. I could tell, just from hearing him."
"You're a good judge of character." Deckard
tilted his head back against the top of the pilot's seat. "Believe me, I'm
sorry I got hooked up with the little sonuvabitch."
"I take it you must've
been pretty hard up for cash."
Deckard made no reply. The
briefcase's statement was
dead on the mark. Money was even more necessary than
oxygen, at least in the hovels of the U.N. emigrant colonies. Breathable air,
smelling of glue and recycling filters overdue for changing, was at least
furnished free of cost by the U.N's own blue-helmeted Environmental Maintenance
teams, along with the basic ration loads of algae-derived carbos and proteins.
Money, on the other hand, the emigrants had to provide for themselves—either
from the savings they'd brought with them from their former lives on Earth, or
what they hustled in the colonies' black market and/or other officially
tolerated, unsanctioned free enterprise zones. All of which, the savings or the
hustling proceeds, only served to stave off bankruptcy, destitution, and death
for a little while. Any emigrant could lie on the bunk in his hovel, fingers
laced together between the back of his head and the thin pillow, and feel his
life seeping away, like the sour air hissing through a leak in the plastic
Quonset roof above him. And not even care any longer.
He'd just about reached that point-or would have, if
he hadn't locked a vow into the pit of his soul, a vow with both Sarah Tyrell's
and Rachael's names stamped in smoldering, ashen letters upon it-when the smug
little video director Urbenton had shown up at the hovel's pneumatic-sealed
door. Travelling incognito, or travelling at all, being able to come to Mars
and then leave again-that had been impressive evidence of Urbenton's pull, some
kind of cozy arrangement between his Speed Death Productions company and the
cable services provider that effectively called all the shots in the colonies.
The cable company was the arbiter of life and death, the ruler of the
emigrants' pocket universe; in a low-or even zero-stim environment like Mars,
the cable feed into the hovels was the true sustaining pipeline, one that
people continued to shell out for long after their cash reserves had dwindled
to the point where they could no longer afford edibles beyond the U.N's meager
rations.
So when Urbenton had appeared, with his greased-smooth
dealer's smile pasted between his jowls, and had told Deckard that he had an
offer to make, fhere was nothing to do but listen. In a little ersatz coffee
bar down in the local colony's
marketplace, a densely packed area of vendor booths
slapped together from wobbling sheets of discarded transit containers and
shuffling crowds scanning the scene with desperate hollow eyes; it all reminded
Deckard of similar streets he'd moved through back in L.A., only minus the
flickering neon and the slightly more breathable air that the annual monsoon
rains managed to scrub to a lower toxicity level.
"Let's have a little talk, Mr. Niemand-"
When Urbenton had used Deckard's alias, the smile on the video director's face
had widened, like that of some reptile unhinging its jaws to swallow an entire
goat in one mouthful. "By ourselves, all right?" They'd left Mrs.
Niemand-she didn't even pretend to call herself Rachael anymore—sleeping on the
hovel's narrow bed, or perhaps gazing up at the dark memorial vistas
that played out behind her eyelids. It had been a long
time since Deckard had pretended that he knew what went on inside Sarah
Tyrell's head. He'd pulled the hovel's airseals shut and followed Urbenton-and
the scent of money that the man had exuded.
Now, sitting in the skiff's cockpit with the talking
briefcase beside him, Deckard slowly nodded. "That's why I did it."
As if it really needed any explanation. "The guy just smelled like
money."
"That's a powerful attractant" The voice of
Roy Batty sounded amused. "More so than all those pheromones of sex and
love and pride, all that corporeal stuff that yanks people around so well.
Excuse me for waxing philosophical. I have a slightly more . . . disinterested
viewpoint these days, as you might be able to tell." The voice's tone
sharpened. "Just how much did Urbenton offer you?"
"A lot." Deckard
recited the raw numbers. "That was just for starters, what was in the
production budget. Residual payments would probably have come to more, once the
video went out over the wires."
"Not bad."
It wasn't. Or wouldn't have been, Deckard corrected
himself. If I would've gotten it. Free money, or as close to that ideal state
as this universe allowed-there had been virtually nothing he had to do in order
to get the payment from the
dead on the mark. Money was even more necessary than
oxygen, at least in the hovels of the U.N. emigrant colonies. Breathable air,
smelling of glue and recycling filters overdue for changing, was at least
furnished free of cost by the U.N's own blue-helmeted Environmental Maintenance
teams, along with the basic ration loads of algae-derived carbos and proteins.
Money, on the other hand, the emigrants had to provide for themselves—either
from the savings they'd brought with them from their former lives on Earth, or
what they hustled in the colonies' black market and/or other officially
tolerated, unsanctioned free enterprise zones. All of which, the savings or the
hustling proceeds, only served to stave off bankruptcy, destitution, and death
for a little while. Any emigrant could lie on the bunk in his hovel, fingers
laced together between the back of his head and the thin pillow, and feel his
life seeping away, like the sour air hissing through a leak in the plastic
Quonset roof above him. And not even care any longer.
He'd just about reached that point-or would have, if
he hadn't locked a vow into the pit of his soul, a vow with both Sarah Tyrell's
and Rachael's names stamped in smoldering, ashen letters upon it-when the smug
little video director Urbenton had shown up at the hovel's pneumatic-sealed
door. Travelling incognito, or travelling at all, being able to come to Mars
and then leave again-that had been impressive evidence of Urbenton's pull, some
kind of cozy arrangement between his Speed Death Productions company and the
cable services provider that effectively called all the shots in the colonies.
The cable company was the arbiter of life and death, the ruler of the
emigrants' pocket universe; in a low-or even zero-stim environment like Mars,
the cable feed into the hovels was the true sustaining pipeline, one that
people continued to shell out for long after their cash reserves had dwindled
to the point where they could no longer afford edibles beyond the U.N's meager
rations.
So when Urbenton had appeared. with his greased-smooth
dealer's smile pasted between his jowls, and had told Deckard that he had an
offer to make, there was nothing to do but listen. In a little ersatz coffee
bar down in the local colonys
marketplace, a densely packed area of vendor booths
slapped together from wobbling sheets of discarded transit containers and
shuffling crowds scanning the scene with desperate hollow eyes; it all reminded
Deckard of similar streets he'd moved through back in L.A., only minus the
flickering neon and the slightly more breathable air that the annual monsoon
rains managed to scrub to a lower toxicity level.
"Let's have a little talk, Mr. Niemand-"
When Urbenton had used Deckard's alias, the smile on the video director's face
had widened, like that of some reptile unhinging its jaws to swallow an entire
goat in one mouthful. "By ourselves, all right?" They'd left Mrs.
Niemand-she didn't even pretend to call herself Rachael anymore—sleeping on the
hovel's narrow bed, or perhaps gazing up at the dark memorial vistas that
played out behind her eyelids. It had been a long time since Deckard had
pretended that he knew what went on inside Sarah Tyrell's head. He'd pulled the
hovel's airseals shut and followed Urbenton-and the scent of money that the man
had exuded.
Now, sitting in the skiffs cockpit with the talking
briefcase beside him, Deckard slowly nodded. "That's why I did it."
As if it really needed any explanation. "The guy just smelled like
money."
"That's a powerful attractant" The voice of
Roy Batty sounded amused. "More so than all those pheromones of sex and
love and pride, all that corporeal stuff that yanks people around so well.
Excuse me for waxing philosophical. I have a slightly more . . . disinterested
viewpoint these days, as you might be able to tell." The voice's tone
sharpened. "Just how much did Urbenton offer you?"
"A lot." Deckard
recited the raw numbers. "That was just for starters, what was in the
production budget. Residual payments would probably have come to more, once the
video went out over the wires."
"Not bad."
It wasn't. Or wouldn't have been, Deckard corrected
himself. If I would've gotten it. Free money. or as close to that ideal state
as this universe allowed-there had been virtually nothing he had to do in order
to get the payment from the
mysterious financial backers to whom Urbenton had
constantly referred. Basically, Deckard knew, just as Urbenton had made it
clear, that Speed Death Productions had only wanted to be able to list him as
the technical adviser on the video-something to keep the money people happy, a
touch of authenticity for the whole project. The video was supposed to be a
dramatized re-creation of Deckard's life, or at least that little bit of it
when he'd been going through his last assignment as a blade runner, the job
that Inspector Bryant had leaned on him to undertake after he'd already quit
the department in disgust. According to Urbenton, that hunt- with half a dozen
or so Nexus-6 models on the loose in the wilds of Los Angeles, including the
group's highly dangerous leader, the replicant version of Roy Batty, and only
Rick Deckard out there to round them up and ice them-had already achieved some
sort of legendary, even mythic, status. Enough detail had leaked out to
transform it from urban folktale to big-deal saga. Or so Urbenton said-Deckard
hadn't cared as long as there was a payday at the end of the process. If Speed
Death Productions figured that there was an audience for watching some poor
bastards of escaped replicants getting blown away, that was probably a correct
assessment-it tied in with Deckard's own feelings about the innate charm of the
human species.
"All I had to do,"
said Deckard, "was sit on my can at the edge of the set and keep my mouth
shut. Urbenton wasn't exactly hiring me for my creative input. Then get paid
off and go home."
"Well, you're going home at least. Or at least
back to whatever's as close as somebody like you gets." A pitying smile
inflected the briefcase's voice. "Too bad you couldn't pull off the part
about keeping your mouth shut. You spend your whole life being the silent type,
killing without a word, and then the one time it counts, you can't resist
spouting off."
"Tell me about it."
Whatever adrenaline had been left in his system, the rush from seeing death at
close quarters and then letting his own anger come out like an uncorked
flamethrower was dissipated now, leaving the flat dregs of self-
loathing. "Silence might
not be a virtue, but at least it would've been profitable."
"You know, I was a little surprised-"
Batty's voice turned thoughtful. "When I was told you were up at that
Outer Hollywood station. And that was where Holden and I were going to track
you down, make our little delivery. Me, that is."
"I
don't recall ordering any luggage with some dead guy's personality wired into
it."
"Well, you didn't." Whatever was inside the
briefcase sounded stung by Deckard's words. "It's supposed to be a
surprise, smart-ass. If you'd known it was coming, you probably would've
screwed it up somehow. As it was, poor old Holden got himself iced trying to
make contact with you."
"That'll teach you." Deckard settled farther
back into the pilot's seat, folding his arms across his chest. "Send
yourself airmail next time."
"Real funny, Deckard. You may have given up being
a blade runner, but you're still a cold bastard." If the briefcase had had
a human form, it would've nodded. "That's what I like about you."
"Whatever. Anyway, why
shouldn't I have been at Outer Hollywood? If that's where the money is."
"You were supposed to be long gone by now,"
replied Batty's voice. "Wasn't that the plan? Holden told me all about it,
what you'd decided when you were still back on Earth. You were going to get
yourself and Sarah Tyrell some new identities, then hightail it out to the
U.N's far colonies. Out in the stars, Deckard; not in some dumpy Martian
transit squat. Then you and Sarah-or were you still calling her Rachael?-then
the two of you would be nice and safe. A cozy domestic couple."
"Believe me-"
Deckard could hear the sour weariness in his own voice. "That last bit was
never part of the plan."
"Wouldn't have believed
it, if it had been. Nevertheless; the stars. That's where you were supposed to
be going. Or already have gone. So what happened?"
Deckard closed his eyes for a
moment, trying to conserve his waning strength. "What happened." He
didn't feel like
telling his life story to the briefcase. "What
happened is why I needed the money in the first place, why I took this joke gig
as technical adviser on Urbenton's crappy little video production. The U.N.
transit colonies on Mars are a total bottleneck. People on Earth-even the
living ones-don't know that. The U.N. keeps a tight lid on information about
what's going on there. The emigration program they're so hot on would collapse
if it got out that when you leave Earth, you don't go to the stars, you just
wind up in some cramped, dingy hovel on Mars, glued to the cable feed or going
slowly crazy from stimulus deprivation."
The
briefcase took pains to sound unimpressed. "There's been rumors."
"None that I'd ever
heard. Not that it would've changed my mind. There was no way I was going to
stay on Earth."
"Why?" Genuine
puzzlement sounded in Batty's voice. "You can die there as well as
anywhere else. Believe me; I'd know."
Deckard slowly shook his head. "I had other
plans. Ones I didn't tell Holden. He didn't need to know." "Plans?
Like what?"
Deckard let his eyelids draw down to slits. "You
don't need to know, either." Fatigue crept up his knotted spine and down
into his limbs, turning them into leaden weights. "But since you asked,
that's why I was hustling for the money. To buy our way off Mars."
"Money's always good," said the briefcase.
"It might not be able to do that, though."
"Worth a shot." Deckard didn't feel like
arguing the point. "There haven't been any transports leaving Mars for the
far U.N. colonies in the last two or three years. Some kind of problem going on
out there. But there's rumors-there's always rumors-of travel starting up
again. It'll have to; there's hardly any room left to cram people into at the
Martian colonies, and the U.N. still keeps bringing them out from Earth.
Something's got to break. And if anybody's leaving, it's going to be me and
Sarah Tyrell. That's what the money was going to be for."
"But there isn't any money, is there? You're kind
of screwed on that one, Deckard."
"I'm screwed." It wasn't an unusual
condition for him. "That's the way it goes."
"Bad luck for you." The voice of Batty,
emerging from the briefcase's concealed speaker, held an equally familiar
smile. "Good luck for me, though-and the people who sent me out to you.
Now you might be a little more receptive to the offer we're going to make
you."
"I don't want to hear it."
"What? What're you talking about?" Batty's
voice went up a notch. "'Don't want to hear it'-listen, Deckard; I didn't
get sent all this way just for you to cop an attitude. You can be all burnt out
and cynical on your own time, and this isn't it. There's things-important
things-that have to be done."
With his arms still folded on his chest, Deckard
opened one eye wider to gaze upon the briefcase beside him. "And that's
why you're here? Dave Holden brought you out just so you could tell me about
these 'important things'?"
"That's about the size of it."
Deckard let the eyelid sink shut, as though of its own
weight. "Like I said-I don't want to hear it."
Silence held in the skiffs cockpit. For a few seconds,
Deckard heard only the motion of his own blood sliding through his veins, the
tick of random air molecules at his eardrums. Then the cockpit's other
inhabitant spoke again.
"You're a cool customer, Deckard-you know
that?" Whatever parts of Batty had been encoded and placed inside the
briefcase, his snake-twisting mind and sharp-eyed perceptions, now sounded
impressed despite himself. "Nothing fazes you. You've reached some kind of
weird point where nothing surprises you anymore, but you're still walking
around as if you're alive somehow. That's a hell of an achievement."
Deckard
shifted in the thinly padded seat, trying to find some comfort for his bones
and muscles. "What am I supposed to be so surprised about?"
"For
Christ's sake, Deckard-I'm in a fucking box. With a
handle and two chrome-plated locks and a decent grade
of simulated leather on the exterior." Annoyance permeated the briefcase's
speech. "Shit-you mean you didn't notice?"
"I noticed." Deckard couldn't keep a thin
smile from lifting one corner of his mouth. "Actually, I prefer you this
way."
"Yeah, well, it doesn't suit me at all. They
should've left me at least one leg and a foot, so I could kick your sorry
ass." The disgust in Batty's voice shifted to its former perplexed
condition. "Don't you wonder how this all came about? The last time you
saw me, I was dead. I even got shown photographs of how I looked, hanging
upside-down on that busted-up freeway. Seeing your own corpse is one of those
transformative experiences-"
"Thought
you didn't have eyes."
"There's a jack for an optical scanner inside
here. Along with some other stuff like that. Besides, why should you care how I
saw it? That's not important, Deckard. What you should be worrying about is why
all of this is being done. Why drag my corpse off, why download my skull
contents into this contraption-the whole trip. Hey, it's all for your benefit,
pal. Or at least most of it. If you can't display gratitude, you could at least
show some curiosity."
"I don't have to," Deckard said dryly.
"I'm sure you're going to tell me all about it, whether I want to hear it
or not."
He'd been telling the truth to Batty. Deckard could
let an unsoothing but necessary sleep claim him, where he pushed back in the
skiffs pilot seat, with little regret. That his old nemesis, a nightmarish
figure all glistening with rain and smeared blood over taut muscle and sinew,
could come back from the dead in the form of an articulate briefcase-what was
there to be surprised about? Stranger things had already happened. Once before,
he'd thought Roy Batty was safely dead, only to find out otherwise-or rather,
to find out that one Batty was dead, and another, claiming to be the human
original from which the replicant had been made, was trying to kill him. And
coming close to accomplishing that goal. If it hadn't been for Dave Holden, who
put a highcaliber slug between Batty's eyes, Deckard knew that it
would've been his own corpse
draped over the side of one of L.A's ruined freeways.
And now Holden was dead, with his former partner from
the LAPD's blade runner unit fairly sure that he at least wouldn't be coming
around again. The corpse on the floor back at the Outer Hollywood studio had
appeared more than final; Holden's blanked-out eyes had looked as if they had
gazed at last upon and into some soul-quieting vista of peace. Maybe, thought
Deckard, that's what he saw when he looked down the barrel of the Kowalski
replicant's gun. Fire and thunder, and then the silence beyond .
"Oh, you'll find out soon enough." Batty's
voice seemed to come from miles away, a distance bound by the cockpit's tiny
space. "You don't have to worry about that."
That was a mystery almost
worth puzzling out. Deckard let the black behind his eyelids deepen and swallow
him up. The briefcase with Batty's personality wired in and Deckard's initials
below the handle-that's what the now-dead Holden had been carrying, had come
all that way from Earth to deliver to him. There'd been a time when Batty and
Holden had been working together, trying to kill Deckard, claiming that he was
another escaped replicant; that was how wrapped up in craziness the two of them
had gotten. Then they'd had their big falling-out, from which only one of them
had survived . . . or so it'd seemed at the time .
Something had hooked the two of them back together,
Holden and Batty, or whatever was left of him inside the briefcase. Something
that probably wasn't good news.
It was too much for Deckard to try to figure out now,
at this point of his exhaustion. As long as the briefcase was quietly sulking
to itself, he might as well try to find sleep.
Deckard found himself half wondering, half dreaming,
of what reception was in store for him on Mars, how Sarah would welcome him
home from his long, futile venturing.
A knock at the door.
"Oh,
boy!" The alarm clock danced on top of the bedside table. "Daddy's
home!"
"Christ-" Sarah laid the back of her hand
across her eyes, trying to block out what was left of the day's illumination
and any other sensory data coming into her nervous system. As much as she had
been expecting, even-in a perverse fashion-looking forward, to this moment, it
had still crept up on her without warning. Until now.
"I
bet that's him! I bet that's him, all right!"
She wished again that she had spent the money for the
third bullet. "Just shut the hell up." Her brain felt both sandfilled
and fuzzy from the cumulative toxins of troubled sleep. Sarah pulled herself
into a sitting position on the edge of the grey mattress, then watched as the
apparent separate entity of her hand fumbled inside the table's single drawer.
"Mrs. Niemand ... excuse
me." From the opposite wall
of the bedroom, the calendar had caught sight of the
bright metal cylinders tumbling in Sarah's palm. "But what exactly are you
doing?"
Brass glinted at her fingertips, though the bullets'
tapered points were dull leaden in color. "None of your business."
She slipped the bullets into the gun from the table, then closed up the
chamber. "Don't worry about it."
"Humanity is my business, Mrs. Niemand. Though
that was said in other contexts, it applies in this situation as well."
"I don't need the literary allusions." Sarah
shifted the gun to her left hand and used her right to smooth her dark,
disordered hair back from her brow. Some previous tenants of the hovel, who had
either killed themselves or managed to get shipped off the planet while the
starbound emigration vessels were still running, had shelled out for the
appliances to be hooked up to the library trunk feed. The penurious Niemands
had canceled the service, but the calendar had the rudiments of a university
education soaked up in its off-line banks. And didn't mind showing it off, all
of which had added to the general hell of Sarah's existence. Maybe four, she
thought. I should've bought four bullets.
The knock at the door sounded again, blows hard enough
to shake the hovel's thin plastic walls. A rain of soft, sneeze-provoking dust
drifted down upon the bed.
"Come on!" The alarm
clock shrilled even more excitedly. "Let's go see!"
Sarah placed the muzzle of the gun against the clock's
face, at the exact center from which the two black hands radiated. "Let's
be real quiet." She pushed the clock back across the table. "So Daddy
and Mommy can have a little quality time together. All right?"
"Okay," squeaked the
clock. It cowered back against the wall.
"Mrs. Niemand!" The calendar fluttered its
pages at her as she walked past. "I implore you-don't do anything you'll
regret later."
"There's not going to be a later." The gun's
weight dangled at the end of her arm. "So regret's not a problem."
"Sarah!" Using her
real name, the calendar cried after her. "Please ... don't .
In the front part of the hovel, a space barely wider
than what her outstretched arms could have reached across, the percussion on
the door was even louder. Enough to start peeling some of the web of silvery
duct tape and glue-tacky patches away from the torn seams and other leak
points. The hovel shivered and hissed as though apprehending its own demise.
Sarah wondered what Deckard was going on about, pounding on the door with that
much force. He's that happy about being home? Maybe he had finally flipped out,
gone all the way around the bend of that dark corridor that'd always been there
inside his head; some bad retro-TV fantasy of domestic bliss had wormed its way
into his thoughts and taken over. Some vision of Mr. Niemand coming back here
after a long, hard day at work, to be greeted by Mrs. N in a lace-edged kitchen
apron and heels, bearing a cold stainless-steel pitcher of gin and vermouth-the
life their great-great-grandparents had lived, at least inside their sitcom
fantasies.
"Take it easy!" More strips of sealant tape
dangled loose, trailing like thick party streamers from the hovel's low
ceiling. "You're going to knock the place over-" A muffled voice came
from the other side of the door, but Sarah couldn't make out what he'd said.
She batted another sticky section of tape away from her face and reached for
the door's knob.
In the sliver of time it took to turn the knob and
pull the wobbling front door open, Sarah had entertained the notion of going
with Deckard's anticipatory fantasy . . . or at least stringing him along with
it for a few minutes. She could act as though there were, in fact, some measure
of affection between them; she could even try once more to be Rachael, his
long-dead and long-remembered love. The pretending wouldn't be unpleasant;
there was still a room inside her head in which her own desire for all of that
was still kept, like an ancient white wedding dress, never used and carefully
folded between sheets of tissue paper.
It's what the bastard deserves, thought Sarah as her
fingertips touched the doorknob. To be jerked around the way
she had been, by a forged-iron chain bolted to the
heart. To be led to believe one thing, even for a second, then be slammed up
against the even more unyielding steel wall of reality .
In her other hand, the one dangling by her side as she
reached to pull open the door, she had the perfect representation of what
reality had come to mean for her. Loaded and cocked; she had already decided
she didn't want to even try to screw around with Deckard's head anymore. There
would be no
Rachel-like homecoming kiss for him. If there were any
irrational hopes left inside the sonuvabitch that would rise upon his seeing
the human original of the replicant face for which he'd fallen, they'd be
dashed by the very next thing he'd see. A circle of cold metal, with a darker
black space at its center-Sarah's hand was already lifting the gun into
position as she stepped back from the door swinging open toward her.
Two faces looked in at her. Two men, neither of them
Rick Deckard. The eyes behind their matching square-rimmed glasses widened as
they focussed on the gun she was holding a few inches from their foreheads.
"Urn ... is this the Niemand residence?" The
man to the left swallowed nervously. The two of them didn't appear to be twins,
but looked as if they were trying to be. "If it's not . we're sorry .
"Maybe this is a bad time." Beads of sweat
had welled up on the other's brow; tiny images of the gun floated in the wet
mirrors. "Maybe we could come back ... some other time."
Sarah let the gun lower of its own weight. She leaned
against the side of the doorway; the hovel swayed and audibly creaked. "My
apologies, gentlemen." Beyond the pair, the dimly lit corridors of the
U.N. emigrant colony were visible, the rounded angles filled with rubble
trembling in the airloss breezes. "I just woke up."
One of the men tried an uneasy smile. "You were
expecting someone else?" "My husband, actually."
The two men exchanged glances, their heads pivoting a
fraction of an inch toward each other, as though
linked by some simple, invisible mechanism. The same unseen gear turned their
owlish gazes back to Sarah.
"Mrs. Niemand-" The
one on the left spoke with somber intonation. "We can tell that you lead a
tragic
life."
In the corridor leading toward the emigrant colony's
center, beneath the banks of flickering or grey-dead fluorescent tubes,
devolved human figures moved, scuttling furtively with their last meager,
pawnable treasures clutched to their chests, heading for the ragtag booths and
alleys of the black-market district. Even farther down the scale, appearing
hardly human at all, were the creeping forms of those who had completely fallen
out of the colony's hard-screw economy, those who'd come to the frayed end of
their money and possessions and had been cut off from the cable monopoly's
feed. Faces devoid of reason as any vegetable lifted and swiveled toward the
scene at the Niemand hovel's front door, idiot eyes and other receptors
searching for any sensory input. Red stigmata flecked the angles of the
stimulus-lorn heads, with the same markings repeated on the corridor's dented
walls. Every muscle near the softly keening mouths twitched with the constant
hunger of misfired synapses.
A tragic life, mused Sarah as she gazed past the two
surprise callers. The length of her vision reached beyond the other locked or
boarded-up hovel doors to low-ceilinged rooms containing yet more
collapsing nervous systems. She wasn't sure what the
man meant. She had worked a long time to engineer the destiny that had brought
her to this place. A particular hell, or any one at all-I belong here, thought
Sarah.
Seized by a dreadful suspicion, she refocussed on the
two men at her door. "You're not Jehovah's Witnesses, are you?" That
would be all she needed right now, to get handed an animated Watch tower,
complete with stereophonic sound effects triggered by the warmth of her thumb
and forefinger. "Or New Reformed Apocalypticists?" Another of the
groups that had been seen recently, evangelizing through the emigrant
colonies-she looked to see if one of them was carrying a miniature holographic
projector suitable for evoking biblical dioramas in the corridor's thin,
acrid-smelling air.
The two men gazed blankly at her through their
black-rimmed, square lenses. "No-" The left one shook his head.
"We're not here to ask you for money or anything-"
Her laugh barked out.
"Good call."
"This is a personal matter. For you alone, Mrs.
Niemand." He raised a pale, fussily manicured hand, pointing to the
interior of the hovel behind her. "May we come in? To talk with you? I'm
sure you'll find it of interest."
Gun dangling at her side, Sarah peered more closely at
the two men. They seemed oddly familiar to her, positions on a memory track
that her brain hadn't moved along for some time. Her eyes had adjusted to the
corridor's partial light spectrum; she could better perceive the pair now.
White shirts and narrow-lapelled suits, black as an old-fashioned undertaker's;
anal-retentive bow ties cinched tight onto their reedy, knobbly throats, not
much bigger around than the narrow wrists exposed at their cuffs. The men's
owlish regard, framed by the sharp-cornered spectacles, tweaked a cord in her
gut.
The snufflers in the corridor's rubble had started
edging closer, attracted by the sounds of human voices. Sarah knew that if she
slammed the door shut and left the two men outside, and they went on pounding
and calling to her through the thin panel, the hovel would be overrun by
stim-desperate hordes, the pressure of their clambering bodies enough to
collapse the rickety walls. "All right-" Sarah stepped back from the
door. "Get in here. But you'd better make your spiel quick. As I said, I'm
expecting my husband any time now." She gave another bitter laugh.
"God knows he's a jealous sonuvabitch."
Once inside, with the corridor's sickly light and
recycled air shut away, she busied herself with her black-market cigarettes,
extracting one of the dwindling number from the cellophane-swathed pack and
getting it lit. Tossing the charred match onto the floor with the others, she
tilted her head back and dragged the smoke into the innermost re
cesses of her lungs, already feeling it percolate out
into her clamoring veins. Exhaled, a blue cloud swirled, then streamed in a
tapering thread toward the nearest leak in the wall. "So what is it you
wanted to talk about?" Sarah didn't turn around, but could hear the two
men shuffling in the room's narrow confines behind her. In a too-brief moment
of sated peace, she regarded the orange-red coal at the end of the cigarette.
"Whatever your pitch is, I hope it's good."
The one who had been doing all the speaking shifted
his voice to a flat, level tone. "For starters, we know you're not anyone
named Niemand. That's an alias. For both you and the former LAPD blade runner,
real name Rick Deckard, with whom you've been posing as man and wife. Your name
is Sarah
Tyrell."
She stood where she was,
showing no movement, no reaction. The grey shroud of her smoke-laden
breath was the only sign of life. She had cupped an
elbow in her free hand, hitting an aristocratic pose both studied and natural
to her. The angle of her head, the trace of one dark lock across the corner of
her brow-she could close her eyes and imagine herself another world and another
life away from this one. Back in the executive suite and private living
quarters of the Tyrell Corporation headquarters on Earth, in Los Angeles. Back
in the tight, secretive epicenter of all the wealth and power she had inherited
upon the death-the murder-of her uncle Eldon Tyrell. From the great, vaulted
windows, there had been a view across the city's roiling inferno, the alleys
and streets packed close at the base of the Tyrell ziggurat and slanting towers
.
All gone now. Sarah watched the smoke twist and thin
and disappear. L.A. remained, forever imploding inside the furious mass of its
mottled citizens, glitter-eyed thieves and murderers and worse, locked in their
scythe-led dance with the black-leather cops and blade runners and worse, all
held in the masked, emotionless gaze of those urban tribespeople who'd cut
themselves so far out of the loop that they might as well have been observers
from another world, another time centuries forward or back. An Asian grace,
jingling fleets of Chinese bicycles cutting through the neon-lit sheets of
rain, ignoring the diluting blood and broken glass at the weary assassin's
feet. Sarah knew that was the discreet charm of L.A-you could go about your
business, even if it meant killing people, or the things that looked just like
people, and everyone else on the street would mind their own affairs. Even when
the Tyrell Corporation headquarters had self-destructed, in the apocalypse that
she herself had engineered and brought to pass, there had probably been streets
full of faces that had glanced up for only a moment at the fire turning the
night sky's rain to steam; then they had returned to scurrying and pushing and
shoving toward their own dark, unknowable desires.
"Miss Tyrell?" The
man's voice came from behind her, cutting through the deep reverie, the vision
of that other world and time, into which she had fallen. "There really is
no use denying it. We know who you
are."
A certain pleasure came from
hearing her own true name spoken again. By anyone other than Deckard, in whose
mouth it was something close to a curse, a prison sentence she could never
outlive.
Sarah looked over her shoulder at the two men, giving
them the coldest edge of her half smile. "So what agency are you
from?" She raised an eyebrow. "The local authorities?" There
were police in the emigrant colonies, but they worked almost entirely for the
cable monopoly, terrorizing deadbeat subscribers and rooting out illegal taps
on the wire. "Or perhaps you're from Earth. U.N.?" That was a
possibility-the colonies were laced with informants ratting on each other to
the intelligence clearinghouse back in Geneva. "Perhaps LAPD-it wouldn't
surprise me." The point of her smile sharpened. "Though I should
remind you-there's no extradition allowed between Earth and Mars. Per the U.N's
emigration authority. So if you were planning on taking me back with you, to
face whatever charges you might have against me, you're somewhat out of
luck."
The more talkative man gave
what was meant to be a smile both reciprocal and pleasant, but that came off
eerily forced, a mannerism whose performance he had studied. "We didn't
come to extradite you,
Miss Tyrell."
For a moment, she doubted if they were any kind of
police at all. They must be some kind of amateurs, thought Sarah. After
lighting the cigarette, she had picked up the gun again from where she had set
it down; it even had the right number of bullets to take care of both of the
men. Unless they had some kind of major backup standing around near the hovel,
these two might just as well have marched into their own coffins.
"All
right," she said. The gun made a convenient pointer to direct toward each
of the men in turn. "If
you're not
police, then what the hell are you?"
"Don't you know?" The same man peered at
her, the expression on his face one of both puzzlement and a disappointment
bordering on sheer heartbreak. "Can't you tell just by looking at
us?"
She frowned. "I never saw either one of you
before."
"You might have. But you probably wouldn't
remember, or even have noticed. You wouldn't have had
to."
The disquieting feeling she had gotten before, when
she had studied the men's appearance out on the hovel's doorstep, arose in her
again. She felt the pressure of the two pairs of eyes, slightly magnified and
distorted behind the square glasses .
That's it. Sarah nodded slowly to herself. The
glasses. She knew as well that it hadn't been a lapse of memory-a failure to
remember-but her own silent, unspoken will shutting out that image of another
face, older than either of these two men, wrinkled like parchment or thin,
ancient leather. With a gaze that had been grossly enlarged by lenses of
exactly the same shape, clear squares bordered in heavy black; so that the eyes
had appeared like high-resolution, full-color video screens, that watched and
judged and cruelly absorbed all who fell within their scan. That was the memory
that the two men's appearance had triggered but some defensive portion of her
brain had shut out, lest it wound her again. The memory of her uncle's gaze,
the glass-shrouded eyes of Eldon Tyrell.
As much as was possible for the two men standing in
front of Sarah in the hovel, they had managed to turn themselves into grotesque
clones of the replicant-murdered head of the Tyrell Corporation. Or tributes to
that fallen leader, the to-tern aspects-the square-framed glasses precise as
geometrizing instruments, the equally meticulous and fussy clothes-incorporated
like the fetishes of the dead into their own gestalt. Ineffectually, futilely;
the two figures lacked the old man's withered potency, the timeless and
time-fed negative aura of great wealth and greater desire, moving through
dark-shaded spaces, silent rooms, bank vaults, and sweat-glistening silk
bedsheets.
The two men looked like overgrown, lank-limbed
children dressed up in their father's discarded clothing. Sarah felt a shiver
of instinctive fear as she gazed upon them, catching sight of the mad worm at
the pupils' centers behind the square glasses.
Held for a moment longer by the fear-of the two living
men and the dead one-she could not speak.
"We're not from the police," said the one
who'd spoken before. "We're from the Tyrell Corporation."
Her flash of anger banished any other emotion.
"There is no Tyrell Corporation." Her voice lashed out, the cutting
tip of her own sharpened tongue. "Not anymore."
They exchanged another glance, then turned their
magnified and now sorrowful gazes upon her again. The other one spoke: "We
were afraid that was what you believed. That you didn't know."
Strips of sealant tape drifted like slow seaweed in
the hovel's hissing drafts. Sarah batted away the nearest tendril with the
muzzle of the gun. "Know what?"
Behind the square-framed glasses, the men's eyes lit
up with simultaneous enthusiasm. "That the Tyrell Corporation wasn't
destroyed. It survives. It still exists. As it always has and always
will."
The fervor in the man's voice amused Sarah. "And
this is what you came here to tell me." She could feel her own smile
turning gentle, tolerant. "That there's a few faithful employees such as
yourself-true believers-and you're somehow
keeping the flame alive.
Really She shook her head. "That's very touching. How many show up at the
staff meetings? A couple dozen?"
The more
talkative one glowered sulkily at her. "It's not just a few of us, Miss
Tyrell. We're not fools."
"That's right," said
his partner. "This is bigger than that. Much bigger. We represent the
other Tyrell Corporation-the shadow company that already existed before the one
that you knew was destroyed."
She made no reply. Because she knew that the men, the
mysterious callers who had appeared on her doorstep, were speaking the truth.
There had been intimations, things whispered and things left unspoken, referred
to by only a nod and a partial, omniscient smile on the face of her uncle, all
referring to that other Tyrell Corporation, the shadow of the one whose
light-studded Aztec pyramid had loomed over the dense sprawl of Los Angeles.
Shadow being the operative word; an entity made of darkness that moved in
darkness and did dark things. Darker than what Eldon Tyrell and the corporation
that acted out in the open did-which would take some effort, Sarah knew. She
was familiar enough with all the conspiracies and clandestine operations, the
pulling of strings fine as the strands of a spider's web, a silken net that
covered all of Earth and the worlds beyond. That was what she had inherited,
what the death of the only other living Tyrell had left to her. And what she
had destroyed, had turned to ashes as cold as those in the alabaster urn with
Eldon Tyrell's name engraved on the side. She had annihilated the works of his
hands, the vision that had been held in the cold fish eyes behind the
square-rimmed spectacles; the hole left in the heart, the center, of L.A. had
probably already been filled in by now, the charred ruins of the Tyrell
Corporation headquarters carted off or incorporated into a new squatter ghetto.
So if these two, thought Sarah
Tyrell, are from the shadow corporation . .
There was no need to put words
to the remainder of what had awoken and moved inside her skull. The two men
standing in the center of the hovel looked like geeks, pathetic imi
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tations of their dead boss. That was what made them
dangerous, convinced her of what they claimed to be. Just as the late Eldon
Tyrell, they had no need of pumped-up appearances, the visible aspects of power
and threat. They lived in the dark spaces between the world's daylight
manifestations, operated there, and went about their secret errands, continuing
to pull the delicate spider strands that had drifted loose from a dead man's
grasp.
I should've known . . . that I could never get away
from them. The realization moved like a thread of ice down her spine. Not just
the two men, these representatives of the shadow corporation that had survived
after the other, the visible one, was no more . . . but her uncle as well. It's
just like the bastard, Sarah brooded. Leave it to Eldon Tyrell to achieve
immortality, to find a way to go on screwing with other people's lives from
beyond the grave.
The image of her uncle's face, with its wrinkled skin
close to the bone, winter-cold optics, and mocking smile, faded from her sight,
revealing the only slightly unsettling visages of the two men before her. She
sighed, feeling the last elements of resistance draining from her body.
"All right-" She nodded slowly. "What is it you want? Why'd you
come here? What do you want from me?"
"Want from you?" The eyes behind the
square-rimmed glasses looked puzzled. The more talkative man tilted his head as
though trying to shake something loose. "We don't want anything from
you."
"Well His
partner nudged him. "Except, of course you yourself .
"Pardon me?" Sarah
laughed, incredulous. She wouldn't have thought that these two would've been
interested in anything that normal and human. "That's okay, though .
I'm flattered." She tossed her hair back from her
eyes. It'd been a long time, since practically the moment of their arrival at
the emigrant colony, that Deckard had laid a hand on her, one way or another.
At some point, the resemblance between herself and the dead Rachael had ceased
to be enough. "But not today, thanks."
"Hm." The more
talkative one rubbed his smooth chin. "I
think there's been some
misunderstanding here. It's not a personal thing-"
"It's not us,"
interjected his partner, "who want you."
"It's the corporation. The shadow
corporation." The little mad light went on again behind the square
glasses. "That's what needs you. That's why we spent so much time and
effort looking for you, and why we came all this way to find you."
"That's right." His partner nodded
vehemently. "Without you . . . we're nothing. The corporation-the shadow
corporation-it's nothing."
A growing spark moved along the edges of her own
suspicion. "Why should that be?" Her eyes narrowed as she gazed at
the two men. She had a notion already, but wanted to hear it explained aloud.
"Miss Tyrell ... isn't it obvious?" The
talkative one spread his empty hands apart. "How can there be a Tyrell
Corporation-or even its shadow-without a Tyrell to head it? You are the heir to
everything that your uncle created. Both the corporation that existed in the
light and the one of the darkness. There's a right of succession involved here.
Surely you know-you must know-that there's more to the Tyrell Corporation than
merely a commercial enterprise."
"Oh, I know," said Sarah. I know too well.
"It's a matter of faith."
"Exactly. You must have faith-just as we
have." The light had intensified in both men's eyes. "The faith that
all the shadow corporation has. That Eldon Tyrell's great vision-all that he
wished and planned for humanity-will be reborn. That the Tyrell Corporation
will rise from the ashes. Not as it was, but as something even greater. As its
destiny always had been."
"You see, don't
you?" The other one spoke up. "That's why the shadow corporation
exists. That's why Eldon Tyrell created it and kept it in the darkness. You
were his heir, the only other living Tyrell-and then the only Tyrell at all-and
you didn't even know about it."
"No ... I didn't." Sarah gave a shake of her
head. "Not really." She wasn't certain now whether she had known or
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notr whether she had just chosen to disbelieve the
little hints and rumors, the mysteries that her uncle had alluded to with his
sly conspirator's smile. You fool, she told herself. To think you could ever
kill it .
"He couldn't tell you about the shadow corporation.
It had to remain a secret. From everyone-even you. Only those of us sworn to
its mysteries; we alone knew, and waited." The man's voice trembled with
fervor. "For that day we knew was inevitable, the day of triumph for the
Tyrell Corporation's enemies-"
"Short-lived triumph," grumped the talkative
one's partner.
"Yes, that's right. Of course." He nodded.
"The darkness cannot last; the Tyrell Corporation will not be vanquished
forever. If its enemies think they have destroyed it, sown salt across its
ashes, they're wrong. The Tyrell Corporation-the glory of Eldon Tyrell's
vision-will mount to the skies again. Already, we in the shadow corporation,
the heirs and defenders of that vision, have set moving the great wheels and
gears of justice."
"We like to say"-the other's voice turned
shy and selfconscious-"that the sole of our sandal shall be upon the
throat of our foes."
"I bet." Sarah kept her face masklike, and
the gun in her hand. All this talk of enemies and retribution made her wary.
When these people said they needed her-that the Tyrell Corporation's shadow
entity needed her-they possibly meant they wanted her head on a pike. Her
self-destructive moods hadn't included relinquishing that much control to
anyone else. "Well, if you have plans already, then maybe you should just
. . . go and do them. Don't let me stop you. Drop me a line now and then, let
me know how things are coming along." Right now, she mainly wanted the two
odd men, with their Eldon Tyrell stylings, to just disappear. So that she would
have time to think, to figure out what she herself would do next. There's not
much sense, mused Sarah, in blowing away these two guys. That wouldn't stop
anything. The thought of these two-and how many others? How big was this shadow
outfit?-working
away to put back together all that she had so
carefully disassembled filled her with both nausea and a tightly concealed
rage. "Thanks for stopping by."
The two men exchanged a glance with each other, then
swiveled their conjunct gaze back onto her.
"Miss Tyrell-you really don't seem to
understand." The more talkative one's voice filled with sorrow. "We
need you. We can't resurrect the Tyrell Corporation without you."
"We're loyalists. Diehards," added the other
man. "Everyone in the shadow corporation-we were sworn to loyalty to Eldon
Tyrell . . . and now to you. You didn't inherit just the Tyrell Corporation.
You inherited us."
"You're joking. You must be." The notion
appalled her. The two men suddenly appeared to her as children to whom she bore
some crushing maternal obligation. As if her ancient uncle had been reborn as
twins, fresh-faced and naively innocent behind the stigmata of the square
glasses. The resurrection of all that she had thought was safely dead-Now what?
thought Sarah. A horrible vision came to her of these two camping out in the
hovel, taking turns sleeping on the broken-backed sofa.
"It's no joke, Miss Tyrell. We never joke."
The talkative one's expression was somber, as though even the skull beneath the
tight flesh had been rendered grinless. "It is our great mission-our
destiny-to bring the Tyrell Corporation, from the shadows where it now exists,
out to the light once more. Where it belongs. At the center of all, with
everything orbiting around it-"
"But that would make it the light itself."
The other man frowned. "Like it was the sun. You're mixing
up-"
"Whatever," snapped the first irritably.
"You know what I mean. As does Miss Tyrell." He looked back at her
again. "You do know, don't you? Why we've come here?"
"I know," she said. There was no use denying
it any longer. She didn't need the gun-not against these two. Or any of their
brethren, the true believers. "You want me to be the head of the Tyrell Corporation.
As I was before. After my uncle . . . died."
"Exactly." The man nodded. "You must do
this. If the Tyrell Corporation is to defeat its enemies. Those who were so
misguided as to try to diminish Eldon Tyrell's vision."
He doesn't know, thought Sarah. They don't have a
clue. That she had been the one who pushed the little red button, or arranged
to have it pushed by those others she had cheated and lied to. The ashes of the
Tyrell Corporation headquarters, those once-proud towers and the eternal-seeming
pyramid in the center of Los Angeles, were on her hands. These two men, and all
the other die-hard loyalists behind them, didn't know that she herself had
destroyed the Tyrell Corporation.
"Without you
The man's voice came to her as though from the edge of a barely glimpsed
dream. "Without you .
we'll die. The shadows will claim us. The vision that
still unites us will be lost, our faith gone, and we will drift off into the
darkness. Then the Tyrell Corporation truly will be no more."
I don't have to do a single thing. The realization
moved inside Sarah. She could just stand where she was in the hovel and refuse
to go with the two men-she knew they were too much in awe of her, of the Tyrell
blood in her veins, to try to force her to go anywhere. Or she could go ahead
and kill them, simply raise the gun, still in her hand, place it against each
man's forehead in turn-they probably wouldn't resist that, either, just accept
it from her as what they deserved from a wrathful deity. Or even better, thought
Sarah, I could kill myself. Right in front of them. That would accomplish a
lot-almost everything, she decided. She'd be dead-something for which she'd
been yearning for a long time now- and the Tyrell Corporation's shadow entity,
this valiant little band of the faithful, would die out soon thereafter. No
living Tyrell, no corporation, all lost, finally and forever. Perfect . .
Except for one thing. She knew just what it was.
Deckard, that sonuvabitch, would still be walking around. Still mourning his
dead Rachael, a shrine to a female replicant assembled inside his skull, memory
scraps and the taste of her kiss, the way her face had looked-My face, Sarah
thought grimly; Rachael's was just a copy-when he'd forced
his kiss upon her. And she had given herself to him,
wanting him .
She couldn't remember anymore whether that had been
her or Rachael. There had been a time, a moment, when time had repeated itself;
the kiss, the wanting, even his words. She had made Deckard say them again, the
way he had said them to Rachael long ago .
Say that you want me. He had said that.
Then her voice. In the past, in memory. Standing in
the middle of the hovel, a world away; she closed her eyes and heard her own
voice, Rachael's voice, the same- I want you.
"Miss Tyrell ... did you say something?"
She forced her eyes open and looked at the two men
standing in front of her, not recognizing them for a moment. Or mis-recognizing
them; she had the uncomfortable feeling that she was looking at her uncle,
brought back from the dead and somehow doubled, with neither aspect quite
human. Then the feeling passed, and she found herself once again looking at the
two loyalists, ambassadors from the shadow corporation. If they weren't real-or
at least not yet-they were certainly trying to be.
A shake of the head. "No," said Sarah. She
wondered if she had spoken aloud, if the words of the past had forced their way
into the present once again. How embarrassing, she thought. Though it proved
that nothing ever died. As long as there was memory, there were ghosts. Like
me-perhaps when Deckard looked at her, that was what he saw. The ghost of
Rachael. "No-I didn't say anything."
Sarah watched as the two men
consulted with each other, whispers and nods. They finished and turned back
toward her.
"We don't have much time,
Miss Tyrell." The more talkative one, the evident leader of the pair,
clasped his hands together. "Our enemies-the enemies of the Tyrell
Corporation-they very likely know that we're here. They'd do anything to stop
us, to thwart our sacred mission. We have to leave. Now."
"We've stayed here too long already." The
other one cast a nervous glance over his shoulder, toward the hovel's front
door, as though he expected a black-clad SWAT team to come bursting through at
any moment.
"You have to come with
us, Miss Tyrell." The talkative one's intertwined fingers squeezed themselves
white and bloodless. "There's so much more we need to tell you. And that
we can show you. But you must come with us. You must."
"All right-" Sarah held up a hand, palm
outward. "There's no need to hector me. I've made my decision." It
had been easy, once the image of Deckard had come into her mind. "I'll go
with you. Wherever you want." Of all the possibilities, those that had her
dead while Deckard would still be alive-those had been ruled right out. As if a
terminating memo had been sent down from the corporate headquarters, that
columned, high-ceilinged chamber that still existed behind her brow.
Besides, thought Sarah. It's mine; the Tyrell
Corporation, in all its guises, shadowed or in light. She could do whatever she
wanted with it. A glance from the corner of her eye showed the two men, in
their homage-to-Eldon-Tyrell outfits, in a new light; they belonged to her as
well, part of the package. A familiar sensation, one that ran from her groin
all the way to the top of her spine and beyond. They looked at her, not just
reverently, but would not have dared to touch her. She could use them for
whatever purpose she had in mind, and they would be grateful. Just to be in her
presence and bear her orders.
That notion made her smile,
one corner of her mouth lifting a millimeter.
She thought of Deckard, wherever he was at this
moment. Perhaps coming home-if this counted as home-after his stint trolling
for money at that Outer Hollywood station above Earth. Coming home to whatever
surprise he might've figured would be waiting for him-the gun at the door
probably wouldn't have been completely unexpected. If I were gone, though-Sarah
mulled it over-that might knock him back. For a little while, at least.
Which
would give her time to prepare another surprise for
Deckard. The last one he'd ever receive. She wasn't
sure yet what it would be. But with all the resources of the shadow corporation
at her fingertips . . . a mere gun and a single bullet now struck her as
entirely too simple.
I'll have
to do better than that, thought Sarah. It's only what he deserves.
"Please, Miss
Tyrell-" The duo's leader made a show out of checking the complicated
watch on his thin wrist. "We really have to get going."
"I
suppose so." She turned and headed toward the hovel's bedroom. "Just
let me get a few things."
She took one of the bullets from the gun's clip, using
its weight to hold down on the bedside table a note she'd quickly scribbled out
for Deckard. There-Sarah stood up from the mattress edge. Let him figure that
one out. The alarm clock walked across the folded piece of paper and looked
down at the bullet, the face behind the black hands seemingly mystified.
In the minuscule bathroom, she splashed water on her
face, then straightened up from the sink and pulled her dark hair back with one
hand. For a moment longer, Sarah returned the gaze from the figure in the
clouded mirror. It didn't look like Rachael standing there. Or only a little;
the sad dreaminess that had always marked her replicant double had been leached
away, replaced by something harder and colder. That's my face, thought Sarah.
The cheekbones were more pronounced, edged sharper, as though the flesh were
being cut away by interior knives. She toweled off the water trickling down her
throat and turned back toward the hovel's bedroom.
The calendar on the wall fluttered its page as she
approached the doorway. "Mrs. Niemand-I mean Sarah-" The calendar's
voice betrayed its anxiety. "What're you doing? This is madness. You don't
know who these men are-"
"How
rude." Sarah glared at the snow-covered wilderness scene. "You were
listening in."
"Of course. I'm a calendar; I'm supposed to keep
track of things." The number-dense pages fluttered. "Listen to me.
These characters are trouble. They could be anybody. Lunatics . . . or maybe
they really are the police; they're just lying to you. To get you to go
quietly." Its voice rose in pitch. "I beg of you. Don't go with these
people-"
"I have to." Sarah
repositioned the strap of the little shoulder bag she had hurriedly packed.
"It's my destiny. Or as close to it as I'm going to get."
"Sarah The calendar wailed as she exited the
bedroom.
"Let's go,
gentlemen." Pulling the bag up higher, she nodded toward the hovel's front
door. The two men stepped aside and let her go ahead of them.
In the corridor outside, she
heard tiny feet running through the decaying trash. The minute noise came from
behind; she turned and looked, and saw the alarm clock racing to catch up.
"Take me with you!" The clock's shrill,
tinny voice sliced through the oxygen-thin air. "I wanna go, too!"
She stopped and pulled the shoulder bag around so she
could root through its contents. The gun's weight had sunk it to the bottom; by
the time Sarah pulled it out, the alarm clock was right in front of her,
hopping
excitedly from one of its stubby little legs to the other.
The shot echoed down the corridor, smudged leaves of
rubble trembling in the invisible, hard-edged wave. The stimulus-hungry
derelicts raised their blind heads, limbs trembling in the rush of ecstatic input,
bloodied fingertips clawing convulsively at the floor grates. A smaller noise
followed after the first, tinkling bits of metal and fractured microcircuits
raining softly across the spot where the alarm clock, until the last moment,
had been dancing.
"Damn."
Sarah looked at the warmed gun in her palm. "Now it's empty."
One of the men, the leader of the pair who had called
upon her, reached over and took the gun out of her hand. "Don't
worry." He threw it away, metal clanging against metal as it struck the
corridor wall. "We'll get you another one."
A~ the
landing field, in the bare red flats on the emigrant colony's edge, he got
screwed.
They wouldn't give Deckard his deposit back on the
skiff. "What're you going to do?" said the man behind the desk-
really just a buckling sheet of plywood supported by two empty fuel drums. The
man took no pleasure in the burn, but just looked at Deckard with the flat,
unblinking eyes of someone who knows he's being a bastard. "We're an
illegal business already. You're going to report us or something? Get
real."
Deckard turned his own gaze away from the man's heavy,
black-stubbled face, and out toward the small interplanetary craft scattered
over the rust-colored sands. From one hand dangled the briefcase with his initials
on the tiny metal plate below his knuckles. "There's other ways," he
said quietly, then looked back at the man. "Of getting my money
back."
"Sure there is. You can beat the crap out of me,
for one." The man shrugged, crescents of sweat-darkened shirt riding up
under his fleshy arms. "Whatever sings your song, buddy. I don't
care." A slow, wobbling shake of the head. "But you're still not
getting your money back. And don't ever bother bringing your business around
here again. You ever want off-planet, you'll have to flap your wings and
jump."
The briefcase whispered to Deckard. "Come on,
don't waste your time with this lowlife. We've got things to do."
"You say something,
pal?"
"No-" Deckard shook his head. "Just
grumbling to myself. Tell you what. I'll settle for half of what you owe
me."
He settled
for nothing. He was too tired to argue any further.
"Count your blessings," the skiff guy called
after him from the doorway of the shack. "You got back here still
breathing. Most of our customers don't. Our merchandise has got over a fifty
percent failure
rate."
"Nice advertising pitch." Batty's voice
spoke up, louder this time, as Deckard toted the briefcase across the field.
"Lot of possibilities-'Rent from us and you'll never have to again."
Deckard made no reply. If half of these things made it
home, he thought gloomily, it'd be a miracle. With
his free hand, he rubbed blood-tinged grit from his
eyes. I must've been crazy. All around him, as he trudged in sinking footsteps,
the skiffs dug lower in the sand, like the black eggs of some extinct,
exhausted species. The vehicles' dented, corrosion-flecked carapaces
transmitted a minimal-wattage signal of neglect and abortive transport. Some of
them, including the one he'd taken to the Outer Hollywood station and back,
looked as fragile as ancient Christmas decorations, hand-blown glass that a
sneeze could shatter. An indication of how desperate he must've been-And still
am, thought Deckard. Even worse now. Getting stiffed on the deposit had chewed
another major hole in his cash float.
"Don't worry." The
briefcase, Batty's voice inside, radiated a familiar confidence. "I
haven't even begun telling everything that's in store for you."
"I can't wait." Deckard had to remind
himself that Dave Holden had died in order to carry this thing out to him. He
supposed he owed his dead ex-partner the posthumous courtesy
of listening to it. Shading his eyes with one hand, he peered out of the limply
fluttering, low-pressure bubble tunnel that extended from the rental yard
shack. He was in luck, or as much of it as existed in his personal universe.
Through the sand-scoured plastic, he spotted a worm-treaded shuttle working its
way across the desert; the segmented ground transport was probably ferrying
contract miners back from the jagged hills to the planet's east. He and the
briefcase could hitch a ride all the way in to the emigrant colony's imploded
center. "Now would be a good time to clam up again," he told the
disembodied voice. Sealing his mouth and nose off with the palm of his free
hand, he unzipped the bubble's exit flap and shouldered out into the stinging wind
to flag down the shuttle.
"Hey-I'm discreet." The briefcase's voice
slid through the crystals stinging against the side of Deckard's face.
"You're not the only person who can carry off a silent act."
On the shuttle, he sat with the briefcase on his knees,
sandwiched in between the mine workers on the scuffed steel benches, each
breath taking in the mingled odors of their sweat. The jogging motion of the
treads across the red dunes rocked the bodies from side to side, bumping hard
into Deckard's shoulders. No conversations sounded in the shuttle's tight
interior; the mine workers sat with their silted bandannas pulled down around
their throats, breathmasks and rehydration tubes dangling disconnected like
some amphibian species' vestigial organs. They all looked to Deckard like
first-generation Mars natives, some of the younger ones possibly second-gen,
the children and grandchildren of the Earth-born emigrants who'd gotten this
far and had then given up on getting all the way to the stars. Through eyelids
drawn nearly as tight as the shuttle's slit windows, they gazed out on the
landscape that they'd inherited, that they had evolved to possess. Deckard
could sense the rewiring of the nervous systems sitting around and across from
him, the shuffling of synaptic fibers and input receptors that had taken place
in the womb, the human body's instinctive response to the foreign territory in
which it had been exiled.
K. W . J eter
The creatures around him, that still wore the outward
appearance of human beings, were off the cable monopoly's feed. They didn't
need the canned stimuli to survive; they could go out into the hills and dry
ravines and suck up all the bandwidth this world had to offer. Deckard had
wondered before what their strangers' eyes saw, what their spatulate,
black-nailed fingertips read from the grains of red sand trickling through
their touch. He'd given up wondering; he had enough trouble dealing with human
things, and the things that were at least trying to be human. There was more in
common between his blood and that of the replicants he'd killed before than
there was between him and the sharp-angled faces that stared past him as if he
no longer existed.
The fatigue seeping from Deckard's bones, forearms
lying like deadweights across the briefcase in his lap, drew his eyelids shut.
With the scent of alien sweat in his nostrils, the press of blood-warm flesh
near his own, he almost believed himself to be back on Earth, in L.A., the
dark, neon-veined city extending on all sides around one of the cramped public
buses shoving its way through the traffic stalled with retrofitted Detroit
relics. He'd always felt overwhelmed by sheer otherness there as well; simply
being on the planet, in the city, on the streets where he'd spent his whole
life, that didn't mean he could look into the face right next to his, so close
he could practically taste the other's mingled exhalations of kimchi and phrik
ku noo and see anything that resembled a mirror, anything that made him think
he was looking at his own genetic code.
That was a bad mental place to be in, especially for a
cop wearing a big black gun inside his jacket. Even more so when you'd been
working the blade runner unit, and you were supposed to blow away anything that
didn't pass for human with you; that was your job. It'd been his; it'd been
Dave Holden's, and a bunch of other poor crazed bastards'. Some of whom he'd
worked with, some he'd steered a wide distance away from, catching that weird
look in their eyes and the subliminal tick of a dynamite clock counting down.
Some of the blade runners he'd known had wound up massaging the backs of their
throats with their gun muzzles and
had gone under the ground in carefully sealed caskets.
Others were still out there on the streets, chasing their own deaths and the
accusatory revelation that could only be glimpsed in the eyes of those you are
about to kill. Or retire, to use that morally compromised departmental lingo.
Riding in a worm-tread shuttle across another world's
dead surface, Rick Deckard felt himself sweating, a crawl of self-generated
excretions over his skin. An old, familiar claustrophobia tightened his
muscles, a shrinking from contact with the creatures around him. Not to avoid
their touch, but to keep them from being touched by him. Why should they
suffer? As he did .
He opened his eyes and turned his head to look out the
slit window behind him. A desultory wind moved red sand around, like the
floor-sweepings of his heart. There were supposed to be other creatures out
there, skinny wolflike slinkers, all lank jaws and burning eyes-he'd thought
he'd spotted one before, the barest glimpse of motion from the corner of his
eye, when he'd been on his way out to the skiff rental yard. You didn't have to
eat a gun to find release; you could simply wander out past the emigrant colony's
limits, keep walking, and your splintered bones would be found, marrow sucked
out like soft marzipan.
To have spotted that wolfish spectre, seen it before
its teeth closed on your throat-that was a bad sign. I've been here too long,
thought Deckard. His neuro-system was starting to adapt, sensors working
overtime, picking up the wavelengths of a world he hadn't been born on. That
happened sometimes-rumors and emigrant myths were rife-the whole process
cannon-firing ahead, not taking two or three generations to work itself out. At
some unconscious, cellular level, the poor bastard to whom it happens just
gives up on being human, lets go and becomes . . . something else. Like these
things around me-Deckard glanced at the sullen, motionless forms lining the
interior of the shuttle. One way or another, they'd already said their
good-byes to all the others they'd left behind.
The shuttle ground on, nearing the emigrant colony's
perimeter. A muted rustling moved through the seated figures, the mine workers
rousing themselves from reptiloid torpor- the tiny shifts of their bodies,
raising of heads, glances out the narrow windows, reminded Deckard of lizards
on sun-baked rocks, the flick of yellow, slitted eyes toward an insect too far
away to catch and eat. He supposed they probably were thinking about whatever
meals were waiting for them-they had the lean, knife-ribbed look of people who
went a long time between protein sources-in the dark shacks and nests of the
colony's most silent quarter.
Speculating about aliens with human faces, and what
their unknowable lives might be like, had one advantage: it had derailed the
even darker reverie into which Deckard had fallen, that pit lined with
self-accusation he knew all too well. Now he could put on his own mask, the one
that looked just like him but bore the name Niemand, and go home and see what
Mrs. Niemand had waiting on the table for him.
God only knows, thought Deckard glumly as the shuttle
slowed down to a crawl, the soft labial flaps of the colony's ground transport
airlocks folding over the windows. What Sarah would've gotten up to, decided
upon, in his absence-she was as far around the bend, he knew, as he himself
was. The married state of the pseudonymous Niemands, the alias he shared along
with equal measures of hate and guilt, was as mentally toxic as any sensory
void to be found on Mars. No vacuum existed between himself and Sarah; the
space between them was filled, and overfilled, with memory and the slow ebbing
tide of the past that left things on a common shoreline-old photos, sheet music
on an untuned piano, names whispered in that sad moment between sleep and
waking, empty bottles overturned by a fumbling hand. Everything that could be
picked up, still tear-wet, and studied as it turned to the same ashes in his
and Sarah's mouths . .
No wonder
she was as crazy as he was. How could she be anything else?
"Takes you back, doesn't it?" The briefcase
with Roy Batty's voice spoke up as Deckard toted it through the colony's
body-dense main corridor, the hubbub of the black-
market stalls, customers and purveyors, swirling
around them. "Feels like being back at home, doesn't it? Your real home, I
mean."
Deckard let his gaze, the hard encompassing cop scan
that'd become engrained in his optic nerves, pass over the crowd. He knew what
the briefcase meant, what it had picked up on without even having eyes. The
city vibration, the inaudible blood-pressure hum beneath all the other shouting
and murmuring voices-as he shouldered his way through, the briefcase dangling
in one hand's tight grip, its corners catching like a barbed anchor against the
press of others' thighs and hips, he saw the same faces he'd seen in his other
life, the one spent on Earth. Nothing had changed, at least in its essential
sense-identical eyes glittered too bright and hungry, whether they were naked
or shielded behind dark lenses or bombardier-style goggles. Other eyes, that he
remembered as well, opiated or glazed over with any number of pharmaceutical
combinations-the marketplace's recycled air smelled rancid with the
receptor-specific molecules exuded through the sweat upon shivering, pallid
skin. And those whose eyes were still focussed, but on some point far from
here, a deific vision they'd come to the shabbiest stall and overcoated,
secret-pocketed vendors to find-Deckard remembered seeing those before as well.
"Just goes to show," he spoke aloud-nobody
in the crowd noticed a person talking to himself or having a conversation with
the small luggage he carried. "That L.A's not a place. It's an idea. A bad
idea."
The crowd thinned out as Deckard got farther from the
marketplace's center. He made better time, striding through the colony's
residential quarters, his passage marked by the strips of loosened duct tape
wavering overhead. Stepping over the crawling forms of the stim-deprived
terminal cases, their blank stares swiveling up in his direction, Deckard
reached for the knob of his hovel's front door.
The door was unlocked, and slightly ajar; the
slightest push of his hand set it drifting into the unlit interior. Old cop
instincts held Deckard back, his gaze moving across the revealed angle of
motionless space inside.
K.W . Jet er
"What's wrong?" The
briefcase had sensed the hesitation.
"Nothing." Deckard drew in a careful breath,
as though he could roll on his tongue any stray, captured atoms.
"Everything.
Once he'd had devices to do the work for him, the full
array of department-issued gadgetry, the trick units that came out of the
LAPD's research labs, down in the deepest basements where the sunless geeks
groomed their oscilloscope tans. The voice-controlled espers, the softly
breathing VoigtKampff machines-now he had to do it the old-fashioned way,
firing up the subtle instincts that cops had depended on for centuries.
Something crackled under the sole of Deckard's boot as
he shifted his weight. Looking down, he spied the bright glitter of fractured
electronics, splinters of metal; a wedge of an autonomic clock face stared back
at him, the little dots it'd had for eyes blank and inactive. More bits and
pieces of the alarm clock, he saw now, were scattered for several meters near
the hovel's entrance. He reached down and picked up a broken corner of a
miniaturized circuit board; its edges crumbled as he rolled it between his
thumb and forefinger. He threw the green-gritted fragment aside, then pushed
the door the rest of the way open.
Deckard stepped inside the hovel, aware that it was
empty of any other human form. He stood motionless in the center of the room,
then slowly set the briefcase down beside himself.
"How does that old song go? Something about
another mule in your stall?" Batty's voice sounded smug. Whatever sensors
had been built into the briefcase were still as sharp as Batty's had been, in
either his human or replicant incarnation. "There were other men here ...
just a little while ago, as a matter of fact. You can tell that, can't
you?" The silence of a thin smile could almost be heard. "And you
know what else? I don't think they were here to check the meters."
"Why don't you shut up," said Deckard in
disgust. "As if I care." The truth was that he did, though not for
any reasons ofjealousy. Whatever sexual or romantic claim he and Sarah Tyrell
might have had on each other had long since evapo
rated in the fierce glare of what they knew about, and
had done to, each other. Even the resemblance between Sarah and his long-dead
Rachael-close enough to constrict his heart each time he'd looked upon the
living face-wasn't enough to evoke any emotion besides hatred. "She can do
whatever she wants. We're not really Mr. and Mrs. Niemand, you know."
"Of course not." The briefcase's voice still
contained its knowing smile. "That would be too easy-being the same thing
inside as you are on the outside. You haven't been that in a long time,
Deckard."
"Tell me about it." He gazed around the
empty space and toward the dark rectangle of the bedroom door.
"And
of course she can do whatever she wants. Except walk out on you. Because she's
not here, is
she?"
He didn't answer. Leaving behind the briefcase-and Roy
Batty's mocking, under-the-skin voice-Deckard strode into the bedroom, flipping
on the switch beside the door. Low-wattage light, yellow and flickering, seeped
through the dusty web of tape and corner-dangling patches on the ceiling. The
air seeping through the leaks wasn't enough to draw out the smell of aging
laundry and
bottoming-out mood swings.
"Mrs. Niemand isn't
here." A different voice spoke behind him. "She left."
Deckard looked over his shoulder at the autonomic wall
calendar, the companion to the alarm clock missing from the bedside table.
"Where'd she go?"
The mountain-filled scene fluttered above the rows of
numbers. "She didn't"-the calendar spoke aggrievedly-"choose to
inform me of her destination." Its voice darkened. "She probably didn't
even know."
There'd been a time that he and Rachael had spent out
in the wilds in a ramshackle cabin surrounded by a dark cathedral of trees,
north of the scene in the calendar photo. A toobrief interval between their
fleeing L.A. and his being forced to return. Nights colored silver by
moonlight, days blackened by the coffin that he'd sat beside, gazing at the
sleeping face of the woman he loved. Sleeping and dying; the coffin, a
transport module stolen from the Tyrell Corporation-the glass-lidded device in
which replicants were shipped to the outer colonies before their four-year life
spans could expire-had been the means of stretching out their stolen hours
together. Of sipping half-life moments, rather than watching all time, all
Rachael's life, spill out upon the ground and seep away like rain. I thought I
had it bad then-his grieving station by the slowly dying woman, the silent
vigils between the dwindling minutes of her waking. Looking at the picture on
the wall calendar, Deckard knew he'd give the rest of his own life, if he
could, to be back in the midst of that dark forest, in the yellowed circle of a
kerosene lantern, sitting beside the coffin and waiting, waiting forever, in
the unending moment between one dream and the next .
"Mr.
Niemand?" The calendar's reedy voice tapped at the edge of his thoughts.
He'd give anything. Even the plans he'd made, the
decisions and vows he'd sealed down into his heart, about what he'd do with
Sarah Tyrell. Her fate, and his. Even that .
The
calendar tried again, using his real name. "Mr. Deckard? Hello?"
A slow nod, the drawing in of his breath, as he
refocussed on the calendar and the flat, meaningless picture on its surface.
"All right," he said. "So who was it she went with?"
"I wouldn't know. She didn't tell me that,
either." The calendar had an innate dislike for details not being filled
in. "There were two of them-I could tell that much. They were talking in
the other room, but I couldn't make out what they were saying. I just have this
little directional microphone built in, you know. Now, if I had the intercom
option, if you'd paid to have that feature activated, then the advantages would
be-"
"Yeah, right." Deckard interrupted the sales
pitch. A longstanding peeve of his was the way these low-rent domestic
appliances were always whining for upgrades. "How long ago did all this
happen? When did Sarah leave with these men?"
"You
should ask the clock. That's more its department-"
"The clock's dead."
Deckard didn't mind saying so. "So you tell me. When did they leave?"
"Urn A fearful quaver
sounded in the calendar's voice. "The clock? She did that, didn't
she?" The calendar made an audible effort to pull itself together. "I
guess . . . it was about, maybe six hours ago. That Mrs. Niemand-I mean
Sarah-that she left with those two men. Gosh .
Its voice
faded, then picked up again. "If it's any help, she left a note. Over
there on the table."
Deckard walked over and picked up the bullet that had
also been left for him. He rolled it between his fingers, then weighed it in
his palm. A wordless message, or one that didn't need words to get its meaning
across. Sarah had probably bought it, and the necessary gun as well, down in
the black-market stalls, where just about anything could be acquired. Thus, she
must've iced the nagging clock; on her way out, Deckard figured, with whoever
these two men had been. This one, he thought, looking down at the bright,
tapered metal, was meant for me. The kind of homecoming surprise he'd been
expecting for a while now; his caution at the hovel's front door had been
mainly due to not wanting a hole the size of a baby's fist plowed through his
forehead.
He slipped the bullet into his
jacket pocket and unfolded the scrap of paper that had been beneath it.
Deckard-The scrawl was Sarah's handwriting, the big
ego-driven letters she'd never lost. I'll see you later.
The mute bullet had said as much. A warning, the cold
kiss she'd greet him with the next time they met. He crumpled the paper into a
wad in his fist, then tossed it into the rubble in the bedroom's corner.
"Off into the
ozone?" Batty's voice curled mockingly. The briefcase sat in the middle of
the hovel's front room, where Deckard had left it. "They like to do that.
Take it from me; I know. They just leave."
He stepped over the briefcase
and closed the door. "Not your problem, is it?" He brushed away the
dangling strips of peeled tape. "You should mind your own business."
"Ah, but you see-your
problems are mine, too." An invisible shrug. "You and I ... we just
have so much in common, Deckard."
"I doubt it." He crossed to the hovel's tiny
kitchenette. K.W . J eter
"You're in a box." Leaning over the sink
crowded with moldering dishes, Deckard rooted through the top cupboard.
"I've still got flesh to worry about." He found the square-sided
bottle he wanted, pulled it out, and unscrewed the cap. "So the answers to
my problems are different. Like this one."
"That
smells like scotch. Or something close to it."
He rinsed out a usable glass and poured a two-finger
shot into it. "They make it here." He tossed back the first fiery
swallow, gritting his teeth as it rolled acid down his throat. "So it's
not anything. Except grain alcohol and food coloring."
"Sounds grim. I'll pass.
Even if I could drink."
"Good call." Deckard emptied the glass,
feeling his gut contract with the hard liquid shock. He poured another and sat
down at the kitchenette table with it, pushing aside more crusted dishes and
fog-clouded glasses to make room for his elbows. He laid his head down on his
forearms and closed his eyes. Exhaled liquor fumes cut the stale cloy of the
hovel in his nostrils, an odor of sweat and pent-up anger that could never leak
away through the poorly taped seams.
He knew that he could fall asleep if he let himself;
the fatigue would wash over him, an ocean with its leading edge tinged brown by
the bottle's contents. He also knew that it would do no good, that it would
last only a few minutes at best, the same as it had in the skiffs cramped egg
coming back from the Outer Hollywood station. A moment of darkness, then
dreaming, then waking, with the border blurred between those two states; the
way he used to raise his head and open his eyes, back in his apartment in Los
Angeles, with an empty glass smelling of real scotch in one hand, the fingers
of his other sunk into a silent chord on the piano's yellowed keys. Looking up
at the faces in the old frayededged, black-and-white photos that had drifted
across the music rest like dead leaves; looking at them and, for a few seconds,
wondering who they were. Until he remembered again . .
"All right." Deckard took a deep breath,
opened his eyes, and straightened up in the chair. With his forefinger, he
pushed the glass and its murky contents away from himself.
The room was small enough that he could twist around,
reach back, and pick up the briefcase by its handle from where he had left it
sitting in the middle of the floor. He swung the briefcase up onto the table,
laying it flat in the space he'd cleared. "Let's hear it. You got
something to tell me about, now's the time."
She found
out their names. Or what passed for them.
"I'm Wycliffe," the more talkative one said.
He leaned his elbows back on the yacht's control panel. "He's
Zwingli"
"Right. I'm sure." Sarah Tyrell regarded the
two men, her erstwhile kidnappers. Or employees-the distinctions were getting a
little confused. Maybe disciples, she thought. That fervent light still glowed
way inside their eyes. If not her disciples, then Eldon Tyrell's; the two men
had done what they could to mold themselves into copies of her late uncle.
Within the limits of the possible: they looked like children playing at a grim
Halloween. "What were your real names?"
Both men appeared puzzled for a moment, exchanging
worried glances before turning to look at her again. "But those are our
real names. They'd have to be. The Tyrell Corporation gave them to us."
That raised another consideration. Standing in the
middle of the cockpit area, with stars and luminous emptiness shifting about on
the viewscreens, Mars no longer even visible from here, Sarah wondered if she
were the only human thing on board. "You two wouldn't be replicants, would
you?" She studied them more closely. "I mean, it's all right if you
are."
Wycliffe shook his head. "No-" Voice flat
and emphatic. "Replicants aren't given the kind of security clearances we
have."
"We're
very high level," said Zwingli. "In the shadow corporation. You can
trust us."
"Really." That amused her more than anything
had in a long time. "How ... charming. To think that I'd even want
to."
She left them in their perplexity and walked back to
the K.W . Jet er
center of the yacht. They all just want to be loved,
thought Sarah. It was as if the Tyrell Corporation had never ended, or had been
re-created in miniature inside this little hermetically sealed world. All
familiar to her, from the time she had been notified of her inheritance to the
moment when she had brought it down into ruins of fire and twisted metal. Her
uncle had created an ass-kissing corporate culture, one where underlings like
Wycliffe and Zwingli expected and even thrived on kicks to the teeth. I should
be nicer to them-that would have really screwed with their heads.
The furnishings of the yacht-an interplanetary model,
small by the standards of the fleet that the Tyrell Corporation had kept-were
familiar to her as well. Every inch of the executive quarters was slathered
with the same degree of nouveau ostentation that Eldon Tyrell's private rooms
and office suite had shown. Expensive enough to imitate taste, too expensive to
achieve it; all the fakery that money could buy. Fakes of fakes, in this case;
Sarah recognized bits and pieces, imitations of the actual objects that had
been consumed in the corporate inferno. Right down to the rococo pillars,
foreshortened and perspective-cheating and thus crammed into the lounge's
closer space. Window-sized viewscreen panels stretched to the ceiling; layered
pixels shifted slowly through a rez-max'd view of an intricate urbscape.
Elevated angle, as though from the great arched windows of the office that had
been her uncle's, then hers, then ashes; Los Angeles, all smoke and darkness
even beneath its hammering sun, rolling out to the panel's faux horizon. The
yacht must have been set up for Eldon Tyrell's personal use; that would've been
his preference, to travel between planets and yet seemingly not move at all,
the view remaining as that seen from the center of his empire. Or perhaps-a sad
notion-this was what the obsequious duo up in the cockpit had thought she would
like. The past, or at least a piece of it, frozen and sliced like a laboratory
specimen and put up here for the cold microscope of her eye to fasten upon.
They don't know-people like them, minions and
underlings; it wasn't their job to know. Or even their nature; Sarah knew that
she could tell them, let them in on the big secret,
that she herself, the recipient of their servile
adorations, had destroyed all they held most sacred, the Tyrell Corporation
itself-and they wouldn't believe her. Or they would believe and not believe at
the same time, mere contradiction being no impediment to true faith. Especially
for these believers, carrying on the great Tyrell cause, toiling in the
shadows; when the corporation had existed in the light, it had dealt in
artificiality. Lies, really-Sarah had found it harder and harder to distinguish
those from truth, from reality, whatever those might have been.
"More human than human," the Tyrell
Corporation's advertising slogan; what the hell could that mean? Sarah shook
her head as she lowered herself back into the padded embrace of a reproduction
eighteenth-century wing chair. The statement had always annoyed her; it was like
saying "More real than real." The leather sank beneath her weight,
the ship's simulated gravity gentle, unnoticeable as a kiss while sleeping. Was
there a scale of realness, of humanness, upon which different things could be
at different points? And did the points shift? A notion she found amusing-she
rather liked the idea of becoming progressively less human. All the human parts
of her nature had only caused her grief .
Like falling in love. Sarah closed her eyes. And
thought of Deckard. That was a mistake, she mused grimly. That was what she got
for even trying to be human. Better to have stayed a Tyrell, right to the
ice-crystaled ventricles of her heart. A family tradition: a Voigt-Kampff
machine slapped onto her uncle would have frozen up and died like a
broken-winged bird in an Arctic wind. So much for empathy as a way of
determining who's human and who's not.
A reproduction of the antique bureau plat from the
Tyrell Corporation's demolished headquarters had been installed next to the
wing chair. Sarah sat forward and pulled open the central door. The real bureau
plat-now also reduced to ashes, driven into L.A. 's concrete and rubble by the
monsoon rains-had had several useful things in it; the repro desk had only the
remote control for the opposite wall's view-
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screen. That was enough; she leaned back and thumbed
through the displayed menus until the phony cityscape had been replaced by a
real-time view from the trailing opticals. Mars was already a red dot,
everything on it even less from this distance. Including that bastard
Deckard-her thumb rested on the remote's Off button, poised for obliteration.
She hesitated, one moment
merging with the next. Prolonging the sensation she felt: not pleasure-she was
beyond that-but a certain satisfaction. Not with the present, but what was to
come.
"I was a fool." Sarah spoke aloud, her words
echoing against the hard metal bulkheads underneath the ersatz tapestries and
wall hangings. Not necessarily for falling in love with him-for wanting the
same thing that Rachael, the replicant with her face, could have so easily-but
for thinking that she could get back at him while stuck in a shabby little
hovel in one of the Martian emigrant colonies. Money a weapon; revenge
facilitated by all the power of the Tyrell Corporation. Even in this, its
shadow form. The appearance at the hovel's doorstep of the die-hard true
believers, Wycliffe and Zwingli, had been the answer to the prayer she hadn't
even spoken inside her own head yet. She had screwed people over both with and
without money, the difference being that money and power made the screwing
deeper and longer-lasting. Even terminal. "Whatever works," she
murmured.
Her thumb pressed down and the image disappeared,
replaced by blank wall. Sarah stood up from the wing chair and tossed the
remote back onto the bureau plat repro.
An hour or so later, when she came back into the
lounge area, the two men were waiting for her. They both looked fidgety and
nervous, as though their impersonations of the late Eldon Tyrell were wearing
through.
"What can I do for you, gentlemen?" Sarah
rubbed the thick white towel through her hair, then draped it along her neck.
In the wing chair, she crossed her legs, letting the Tyrell-logo'd bathrobe
part just enough to show the pale flesh above her knee. "Nothing too
important, I hope. I'm still getting . . . used to things. Again."
While they organized their reply, she slit open the
pack of illicit tobacco cigarettes she had found in the master sleeping
quarters. Golden Wood Dove, her favorite, from the farthest and least
accessible of all the Kampuchean warlord protectorates. Expensive, obtainable
only through the U.N's own diplomatic courier pouches-the shadow corporation's
contacts must be well in order. Along with their research: in the bedroom's
closets, she had found a reasonable approximation of at least part of the
wardrobe she'd had back in Los Angeles, sized down to reflect the weight she
had lost on the emigrant colony's starvation diet.
"Miss Tyrell-" As
before, Wycliffe was the pair's spokesman. "There's a lot we need to talk
about."
She tilted her head back and
watched the ship's air-circulation system draw away her exhaled blue smoke.
"You've already talked." She lowered her cool, level gaze to theirs.
"What more do you have to
say?"
"But ... you don't even know where we're
going." "Where we're taking you to," chimed in Zwingli.
"Does it matter?" Sarah gave an unconcerned
shrug. "Back to Earth, presumably; that seems to be the direction in which
we're heading." She pulled the edge of the robe back over her knee.
"Los Angeles, perhaps? Is that where this little shadow corporation
operates from?"
"No-" Wycliffe shook his head; a moment
later, so did his partner. "There's nothing there. At least as regards the
Tyrell Corporation." His expression lapsed into mournfulness. "It's
all gone. The headquarters complex ... the pyramid .
"Yes, I know." She sighed. "I'm sure it
was the site of your happiest days. Get over it." Sarah flicked away the
cigarette's ash. "Zurich, then. Or somewhere close by. I seem to recall
that as being the branch office for most of our overseas operations."
Wycliffe's eyes narrowed into
slits. "We don't talk about Zurich. Not inside the shadow corporation,
that is."
"Those
sonsabitches." Zwingli's face had hardened into an identical angry mask.
"Turncoats."
"Let's just say
Wycliffe's voice was as bitter as his expression. "Not all Tyrell
Corporation employees had the same degree of loyalty. Some of the more remote
branches of the company sold out to the U.N. security agencies. Or they tried
to." One corner of his mouth curled into an ugly smirk. "They would
have, if the shadow corporation hadn't gotten to them first."
"We
took care of business," said Zwingli. "Ours and theirs."
"I bet you did." If Sarah hadn't been
convinced before that these two were left over from the old Tyrell Corporation,
she was now. The culture inside the L.A. headquarters building had been
nurtured by her uncle into a magnified form of his own personality. Inside that
pyramid, the way to get ahead had been through murder, or at least a display of
one's willingness along those lines. All in the service of the Tyrell
Corporation as manifested by Eldon Tyrell. "So Zurich's not on the grand
tour anymore, I take it."
Both men nodded their heads.
She waited, but neither of them said anything more.
They stood and gazed at her with an apparent lack of sexual appetite that she
found offensive.
"Gentlemen-it's not that long a trip between Mars
and Earth. Not aboard one of these yachts." Sarah took a long drag on the
cigarette, taking it halfway down its length. She held out her hand to regard
the glowing ember. "And my patience is even shorter." She looked back
at the men. "So why don't you just tell me where we're going?"
They looked frightened, as
though some moment they'd been dreading since birth had finally arrived.
"It's Wycliffe's pale,
large-knuckled hands tugged at each other. "It's not that easy . .
"Jesus Christ." It
struck her once more that the pair's impersonations of the late Eldon Tyrell
hadn't penetrated past the skin. Her uncle at least had had the courage of the
selfabsorbed. "Show me, then."
Wycliffe appeared relieved by
the suggestion. He dug through the inside pocket of his coat and extracted a
folding
map, so old that the creases
had turned to lines of soft white fur. He spread it out on the bureau plat,
hands patting the paper smooth.
"You
can't use the screen?" She pointed to the far wall of the lounge.
"Instead of that thing?"
"This ... belonged to Dr. Tyrell." Wycliffe
looked up from his insectoid crouch over the map. One hand hovered a quarter
inch above its surface. "His personal copy."
"What, he gave it to
you?"
Wycliffe
shook his head. "No-he kept it here. With his other things."
"Fine. Whatever." Sarah stubbed the
cigarette out in the ashtray that Zwingli had scurried to fetch for her.
"Acquire your sacred relics however you want." She got up and stood
beside Wycliffe, looking down at the map. "Now-can you point? Can you do
that much for me?"
He laid a
fingertip on a spot in the upper left corner.
A map of western Europe-that much had been readily
discernible, even through the rectangular grid of the fold marks and tears.
This thing looks a million years old, thought Sarah. Perhaps her uncle had had
it when he'd been a boy, when the world had been flat and the only things that
looked human actually were. Sarah leaned closer over the bureau plat.
The British Isles, but not England. Farther north than
that. Her heart had paused between one beat and the next, a moment frozen
between life and its continuance, when she discerned the exact place on the
map. North of the Scottish mainland, far beyond Cape Wrath, beyond Thurso at
the very tip; into the North Sea, where the currents ran as cold as the pulse
that now moved slowly through her veins. She knew where Wycliffe was pointing;
she had always known. And why the two men had been reluctant to speak the
words, the name.
"You
see?" Wycliffe spoke softly, his voice all kindness, sympathy. "Right
there. That's where we're
going . .
She saw, she knew; a place she had never been to. But
she knew what was there. Waiting for her in that little spiral of islands.
Scraps of land, treeless and rock-laden, protecting another body of seawater
from the greater, darker ocean surrounding it. A place that most people didn't
even know existed; that they had forgotten, if they had ever known. Lucky them,
Sarah thought.
Memory was a disadvantage, a means of control. Her
uncle had known that, had used it; the replicants he had created, the false
memories he had implanted in their skulls. How much better it would have been
for those poor bastards if they had been able to forget, if they had never
known. How much better for me-some of the memories in the dead Rachael's skull
had been her own. Some of them were things that she would have rather
forgotten. And the others-the bits and bleeding scraps that Eldon Tyrell hadn't
seen fit to take and implant in her double's mind, that he had wanted to keep a
secret, big and dark, between himself and his niece- those were even more worth
forgetting. If they could have been. That's the trouble with the past, thought
Sarah, closing her eyes for a moment. It was divided between the things you
could never know and all the things you wished you could forget.
"Do we have to?" She heard her own voice,
sounding like a child's. The one who had never died and never forgotten. She
opened her eyes and looked at the man standing next to her. "Go there, I
mean. Why do we have to?"
"We don't have any choice," said Wycliffe. A
few feet away, Zwingli nodded in agreement. "Neither do
you. These things have to be done."
"But technicallym your boss." Sarah
attempted a last-ditch argument. "I'm in charge. I am the Tyrell
Corporation-you said so yourself. Without me . . . there's nothing." Her
voice rose in desperation. "You're supposed to do what I say. I could tell
you no. I'd forbid you to take me there."
"It
doesn't work that way, Miss Tyrell. It can't."
"Why
not?" Still plaintive, still hoping, though she knew what the answer would
be.
"We all have to subordinate our desires-and our
fears-to the greater work." The true-believer tone sounded in Wycliffe's
voice again, low and fervent. "For the sake of that
which is larger than all of us. For the sake of the
Tyrell Corporation. So that it can be once again. As it was. And as it always
shall be."
She supposed she could tell them the truth. For all
the good it would do-she could tell them that it had been her, the culmination
of all her planning and scheming, her unsubordinated desires, that had reduced
the Tyrell Corporation to ashy ruins. They'd either believe her or they
wouldn't. And it would make no difference. Everything would happen the way it
had to, the way it had been laid out by a dead man. How did I think, she
wondered, how did I ever think I could kill him? When Eldon Tyrell was still
alive inside her head and in the past that never ended? And there, where
they're taking me.
"Don't worry," came Wycliffe's voice. She
couldn't see him, or the map, or the faux tapestries hung on the ship's
bulkheads. Her eyes had filled with tears, a child's tears. One fell onto the
paper ocean and seeped away, with any others that might have struck there, long
ago. "Please don't worry, Miss Tyrell." He was trying to be soothing,
to give some small comfort, all that was possible. "We'll be there with
you. You can count on us."
"Thanks."
Sarah meant it, without guile or sarcasm. "That means a lot to me."
They left her, with the map still unfolded on the
reproduction bureau plat. Wiping her eyes clear, Sarah stood for a while
longer, looking at it and not seeing it. Then she went back to the wing chair
and curled up in its protection, legs tucked beneath her. She laid her head
against the upholstered angle beside her. At some point, while the yacht moved
on toward its destination, to that place where the waters rolled over the
deeply buried past, she slept. And dreamed, and remembered . .
Which were exactly the same
thing.
Patience was never much of a virtue with you,
Deckard." The briefcase sat surrounded by moldering rubble, scummed coffee
cups, stubs of ersatz tobacco disintegrating within. "I don't know how you
ever got to be a cop. You act cold-you always did-but you know what? You're
not."
"I'll take that as a compliment." Deckard
reached for the brown glass. "If you'll spare me any more crap."
The briefcase laughed. "That's how you should
take it. Since there aren't going to be any others. Compliments, I mean. You
look like hell, Deckard. I don't even have eyes, and I can tell that. I can
hear it in your voice. The ravages of a guilty conscience, I suppose."
Deckard shrugged. "I
wouldn't have killed you, except I had to." Another sip. "You were
trying to kill
me, remember?"
"Oh,
that. Forget about it," said Batty's voice. "These things happen.
Besides, it was poor old Holden
who fired the shot; technically, he gets the credit for the hit. The
department may even have given him a bonus for taking me out- he never told me
for sure, though. Hard guy to
get to know. Even when he's
toting you around by the handle. Genuine cold."
"Even
colder now."
"Yeah The
briefcase emitted a sigh. "Poor bastard. And him walking around with that
latest heart-and-lung implant, all that cranking machinery, that the LAPD
surgeons had put inside him Batty's
voice went silent for a moment, then came back, softer and musing. "You
know, I was starting to feel a little sympathy for Holden before he got iced
back there at Outer Hollywood. Sort of a kinship, if you know what I mean. Here
I am, stuck in this box-implanted, right? inside a device-and Holden had a box inside
his chest stuffed full of little gizmos. Keeping him alive, the same way this
one does for me, sort of. So what was the essential difference?"
Deckard didn't even bother to
shrug. "None," he said. "That I can think of. Especially since
you're both working for the LAPD. Or were, in Holden's case."
"Pardon
me?" Batty's voice kicked back up in volume. "What the hell did you
say?"
"Come on." Anger more than alcohol unleashed
Deckard's tongue. "Let's not screw around, all right? I didn't carry you
back here all the way from Outer Hollywood just so you could feed me a line of
bullshit. This is a police operation- what else could it be? I've seen these
box jobs before; this is how the department preserves anybody who's been iced
before they've finished extracting information from him. Standard operating
procedure-the department's tech surgeons scrape up the body, the way they
must've scraped you up from that broken-up old freeway where I left you, they
do a deep core retrieval from whatever cellular activity is left in the brain
and spine, then download it into a storage unit. Like this briefcase you're
sitting in."
"Then I wouldn't be working
for the department, would I?" Batty's voice tightened. "Since these
box jobs, as you call them, are something they do to people who've been offed
by the cops."
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"Cops get 'em, too," said Deckard wearily.
"Killed in the line of duty-especially if it happens to investigators or
detectives who didn't get a chance to make a report before they took a bullet.
It's even happened to a few blade runners. Just part of the hazards of the
job."
"You'd better get your head straightened out, Deckard."
The personality and mind implanted inside the briefcase audibly bristled.
"First thing, jettison the notion that I'm part of some LAPD operation.
I'm not, and neither was Dave Holden."
"Oh?" Deckard tapped the edge of the glass.
"What happened? He quit the force?" "That's exactly right. He
walked." Deckard snorted. "Hard to believe."
"Why?
You did the same. Once."
"That was different."
"You give yourself too
much credit, Deckard." Batty's voice sneered at him. "For uniqueness.
Think you're the only ex-cop who got that way from a bad conscience?"
Deckard nodded, even though he knew the briefcase
couldn't see him. "The only one I ever knew."
"That's because you were always such a loner. If
you blade runners had ever hung out together, instead of always scheming
against each other in department politics, you might've had a chance."
Deckard said nothing. The voice coming out of the
briefcase had touched a nerve, a line into his memory and all that had happened
back in L.A. He'd told himself that he wasn't going to think about that stuff
anymore, that there wasn't any point to it. The whole anti-blade runner
conspiracy riff that he'd gotten wind of from Holden and Batty when he'd still
been walking around as a human being. All of which might have been true, with
conspiracies wrapped inside larger ones, legions of endless night . .
He didn't care. Not anymore;
he'd had his fill, even before he'd been sucked into Sarah Tyrell's private
conspiracy, her queen-and-pawns maneuvering, all to destroy the Tyrell
Corporation, everything that her hated uncle had created. Eldon
Tyrell's works turned to ashes, his memory locked
inside that dark space inside Sarah's skull, where she was still a child and he
was the king of the only world she knew. Deckard had had a glimpse in there,
and he didn't want to see any more. Enough that Sarah's vengeance-driven
scheming had robbed him as well, of those last carefully measured hours he
could have spent with Rachael. The real Rachael, or as much real as any
replicant could be. Which as far as Deckard was concerned, was more real than
the human original could be; even when Sarah had tried to pass herself off as
Rachael, he had known the truth before she had slipped up, long before the
emigrant ship had left Earth. That Rachael was already dead, and that Sarah
could never be her, even though she was identical in every way but one. And
that one thing wasn't part of her, but was located inside him, so deep she
could never reach it.
"These are things you need to deal with,
Deckard."
Batty's words had broken the course of his thoughts;
it took him a moment to adjust. "What things?"
"If there's still an operational conspiracy
against the blade runners, then your ass is still on the line. You can't hide.
Your cover's blown. Everybody knows where you are. How do you think Holden and
I were able to track you down so easily?"
"Big deal." Deckard shrugged. "You had
contacts. Probably with the video people-that Urbenton guy. When they had the
video ready for release, they were planning on doing a whole publicity trip
that they'd had me signed on as technical adviser during the taping. That's
what they were paying me for. My name. So it wasn't going to be a secret for
very long. Holden must've caught a leak from the production, that's
all."
"A couple of minutes ago," the briefcase
said dryly, "you were figuring that Holden must've still been working for
the LAPD. You really think that the department gets its information from camera
operators who can't keep their mouths shut? Come on-you know they don't work
that way. Admit it-this has got all the smell of high-level spookiness."
"Maybe."
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"No 'maybe' about it, Deckard." Batty's
voice tightened, wirelike. "You know it already. Holden wasn't LAPD, at
least not when he showed up there at Outer Hollywood. He was as quit as you
are. That's why you took me when you left the station to come back to this
rattrap. If you'd really thought that I was part of a police operation of any
kind, you would've booted this fine-quality briefcase right out of the skiff's
waste chute somewhere in transit. I'd be talking to myself out in the cold, cold
vacuum right now. At least until my batteries ran down."
He's right, thought Deckard. That mind, with all of
its mercenary hit man sharps, was still there, intact. Batty, boxed or not,
could read right into his soul and see what was written there.
"I was curious." Deckard could hear his own
flat, defensive words. "I just wanted to see what this whole game was
about. That's why I took you with me."
"Yeah, right. And risk
having me turn out to be a homing device, so the authorities could track where
you went as soon as you left the station? You could pull my other leg, if I had
any."
"All right ... all right." For a long
moment, Deckard remained silent, then reached for the glass. He held it to his
mouth but didn't drink, only inhaled the acrid fumes. Then he pushed the chair
back and stood up, carrying the glass to the sink and pouring it out. The brown
liquid sluiced through the scabbed dishes and down the reluctant drain.
He couldn't afford to go under the alcohol tide, not
now. He'd brought something else back with him, besides the briefcase. Fear;
the unease gnawing at his synapses, the twitch of rigid neck muscle and crawl
of prickling skin, the mute awareness of something closing in on him, its teeth
not yet revealed. That sense had begun rising along his spine as he'd looked
down at the corpse of Dave Holden at his feet . .
"Go ahead," Deckard
said as he sat back down. He'd carried the briefcase here, hoping for answers.
"I'll accept that you're not part of some police operation. So start
talking. Who sent you?"
"Who sent me?" The
one-cornered smile returned to Batty's voice. "Or who sent Holden?"
"The two of you." Deckard leaned back in the
chair, legs sprawled under the table. "Together-your little buddy team. If
it wasn't LAPD . . . I can't figure it being the U.N. Their security agencies
wouldn't bother tracking me down at the Outer Hollywood station. They'd nail me
here. Everything on Mars is a U.N. operation, except for the cable monopoly,
and they're in each other's pockets."
"Work on it, Deckard. Who
else out there has got an interest in replicants and the people who go around
hunting them down?"
"The
replicants themselves." He shrugged. "That's all."
"The only problem with that theory," said
the briefcase, "is that replicants-escaped replicants, especially, on the
run- they don't have any resources. They're just hiding out, staying low for as
long as they can, trying to keep alive. What kind of operation could they put
together? You think they could've managed to get me scraped off that freeway
wall where you left me, get my cerebral contents transferred into this
thing, and send Holden out to deliver me to you?"
"Probably not."
"You got that one right. But there are others,
aren't there? Others who are, shall we say, concerned about the replicants and
what happens to them. Concerned in ways besides just wanting to kill them off.
For Christ's sake, Deckard, you ran into them yourself, back in L.A. You must
have."
"All right, I know who you're talking
about." Deckard gave a dismissive gesture with one hand. "The
sympathizers. The rep-symps" He shook his head. "You gotta be joking,
Batty. That bunch of losers? Street corner evangelists .
tub thumpers."
"There's more to
them," said Batty, "than just that."
"Sure-some of them are loose-cannon terrorists.
Getting themselves blown away by the police-for what? For the sake of shooting
down some obnoxious U.N. advertising blimp?" Deckard had seen that for
himself when he'd been on the run in L.A's maze of streets. His first exposure
to the rep-symp phenomenon; he'd heard more about them since then. "So
these head cases can dig up a few military surplus mortar rounds and hit a floating
viewscreen. I'm not impressed."
"Stop being such a dumb cop." The voice
turned harsher. "Get with the program, Deckard. The rep-symps you saw on
the street-the screamers, the terrorists, the religious types out in the
sideways zone-those are all the fringe elements. The fact that you see those
people running around at all should've told you something. It should've been
the tip-off that there would be others that you don't see, ones whose brains
aren't cracked. Ones who've got their agenda going in a whole different way.
You ran into one of those as well-that guy Isidore at the Van Nuys Pet
Hospital."
"Yeah, I remember him.
But he was a loner, a one-man operation-"
"That's what you think. For Christ's sake,
Deckard, use your head." Disgust tinged Batty's voice. "Isidore was
working right in the center of L.A., disguising escaped replicants as
humans-disguising them so well that your big-deal blade runner unit didn't have
a chance of catching them-and he was getting away with it. If your girlfriend
Sarah Tyrell hadn't sent her pet hit man out to take care of him, Isidore would
still be in operation."
The girlfriend crack nettled Deckard, but he kept
himself from rising to the bait. "That doesn't prove Isidore wasn't
working alone. Or that he had some kind of high-level connections covering his
ass." Deckard shrugged. "Maybe he was just lucky-or at least he was
until the end."
For a few seconds, the briefcase was silent; then it
emitted a low, mocking fragment of laughter. "Come on, Deckard- there's no
such thing as luck. If something happens, it's for a reason. If Isidore was
getting away with disguising replicants as human, and he was doing it right in
the face of the LAPD, you can bet he had some powerful friends on his side.
People who're just as concerned about what happens to escaped replicants as
Isidore was." Batty's smile threaded through his voice again. "People
... maybe . . . who are right there in the police department itself."
"They'd have to be."
Deckard wished he hadn't poured his drink into the sink; now he felt like he
could use it. The way his old boss Bryant had used booze shots, both for
himself and anybody he'd brief in his shabby, dust-smelling office. To fuzz the
edges of reality a bit, just enough to let new, spooky possibilities
come
sneaking into everyone's cortex. "The repsymps, huh?"
"You got it." The voice emerged from the
briefcase with a note of triumph. "The replicant sympathizers aren't just
a few isolated crackpots sparking off their remaining brain cells. They've
penetrated every level of government-right into the police force itself. They
may not be the only conspiracy going on, but the rep-symps are in there
pitching."
"Something doesn't add up." Deckard laid one
hand flat on the table. "The replicants who've managed to escape and get
to Earth-if Isidore and his whole Van Nuys Pet Hospital operation, if it was so
good at disguising replicants as human, so they couldn't be detected even with
Voigt-Kampff machines-why would it be just the rep-symps who are looking out
for their interests? Why wouldn't the replicants themselves be in on all these
high-level conspiracies? If they can pass as human, they should be able to
infiltrate the police department as well as anybody else."
"The replicants are in on the conspiracies."
Batty spoke with simple matter-of-factness. "The rep-symps-the important
ones-and the replicants are in constant communication with each other. But not
on Earth. There's things going on in the outer colonies, out in the stars, that
hardly anyone on Earth knows about-because the U.N. and the police don't want
them to know."
"Like
what?" The hand, fingers spread, remained motionless on the table.
"Rebellion. Slaves against masters. What else? History
always repeats itself-it had to happen, given the way humans have treated the
replicants out there."
"How
bad is it? The rebellion, I mean. If there really is one going on."
"Depends upon whether you're a replicant or a
human colonist." The smile in Batty's voice turned even more unpleasant.
"Let's just say that the humans may have the guns, but the
replicants-they've got the numbers."
Deckard found the last remark unimpressive.
"Numbers don't mean anything. Except the number of bullets needed."
"Come on," chided the briefcase. "Why
should you be so skeptical? You blind or something? Look around-you know what
the situation is around here. You and all the rest of the would-be emigrants-you're
bottled up here like ants in a Mason jar. Why do you think no one's been
allowed to travel on and outward in the last half a dozen years? The U.N. just
keeps stacking people up in these hovels, letting them go stim-crazy, eating
themselves up out of sheer fucking boredom. The clamp's on, the bottleneck's
there, because the U.N. can't let emigrants go on to the outer colonies. The
replicants control the territory. Otherwise, the U.N. would just go ahead and
shoot you and all the rest of the wanna-be emigrants out there, let you take
the consequences. Which would be death. And why would the U.N. care about
that?" The briefcase's voice indicated another invisible shrug. "The
whole point of the emigration plan is to get people off Earth-if they wind up
corpses in the process, that's no big deal."
There would be another advantage, as well, that
Deckard could see. We wouldn't talk, he thought. Not if we were all dead. In
that way, the replicants, the rebellion, would still be doing the U.N's work
for it. Slaughtered emigrants wouldn't be getting any word back to Earth, to
families or strangers, about what had gone wrong with all the big plans for
humanity's future out in the stars. Better to have corpses littering the alien
turf rather than disgruntled returnees coming back and letting everyone know
that their promised slaves had gotten murderously uppity.
"Figure it out." The briefcase's voice
continued hectoring him. "If the U.N. could regain control of the outer
colonies, then they could continue funneling emigrants to any destination they
wanted, rather than letting them stack up here. But to do that, to get that
control again, the U.N. would need to have its own off-world military problems
squared away- and they can't do that. They're screwed; the U.N. depended too
much on beefing up the ranks with replicant soldiers, like the ones for which
they used me for the templant- Nexus-6 Roy Batty models, like that one you were
assigned to track down in L.A. Only it just about wound up handing you your
ass, didn't it, Deckard?" The briefcase barked another quick, humorless
laugh. "That's the problem with the Tyrell Corporation's having put out
such a good product. Even if the Batty replicants aren't quite as tough and
smart as the human original-me, at least when I was still walking around inside
a body-they're still pretty mean customers. If the U.N. thought it could put
together an off-world military force out of pieces like that, and there
wouldn't be a price to pay, they must've been dreaming."
Deckard slowly nodded; he could get behind that.
Dreaming, he mused. That was what most of life had become, for himself
and-apparently-everyone else. Lost in it, so that the difference between this
world and any other was harder and harder to make out. For Sarah as well,
thought Deckard. More for her, perhaps, than anyone else. He had sensed that a
long time ago, in the decaying little cabin in the woods, the hiding place to
which he and Rachael had fled; when he had seen Sarah look down at her
replicant double-at Rachael sleeping in the black coffin of the transport
module extending her rapidly dwindling life span-he had detected the envy
radiated by Sarah as she had laid her hand on the cold glass, inches away from
the mirror image of her own face. Envy of the sleeping, the dreaming, the
dying; envy of the dead and the loved. So much so that Sarah had fallen into
her own dreaming, a world in which she could at last become Rachael. The real,
the original, trying to evolve into the unreal, the double, the shadow . . .
the realer than real.
And if somebody as smart, as survival-oriented as
Sarah Tyrell could fall into the dreaming trap, then why not everybody else?
Right up to the faceless scheming bureaucrats of the U.N.-Deckard couldn't see
why they should be immune. What a stupid idea, he thought, shaking his head.
Create an-
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other race, smarter and stronger and possibly even
meaner than human beings, then figure they'll do just fine as slaves, tugging
their forelocks and singing choruses of "01' Man Ribber" in whatever
cotton fields baked under alien suns. There weren't enough bullets in enough
blade runners' guns to keep that kind of payback from working its way to Earth.
"You know Deckard's nod grew even slower and deeper.
"I could almost believe all this .
"Why would a briefcase lie to you?" The
inaudible shrug sounded again in Batty's voice. "The condition I'm in,
I've pretty much transcended all mortal desires."
"So tell me something else." Deckard leaned
the knots of his spine against the chair. Every muscle in his body had tensed.
He felt the trap closing in on him-the sharp points of its teeth were just
beginning to show. "Give me the rest of the spiel. The rep-symps-the real
ones, not the head cases- they scraped your corpse off the freeway ruins,
cracked your skull like a raw egg, and downloaded you into this thing. That's
about the size of it, right? That's the line you've been giving me."
"You know it. First time
anybody's gotten this much of a handle on me."
"Big question."
Deckard studied the briefcase as though it had a face whose secrets he could
read out.
"Why?"
"Why
what?"
"The rep-symps want you
in a box, that's their business. But why have Dave Holden bring you to me? What
do I need you for?"
"You don't," Batty's
voice replied coolly. "You've already shown how . . . proficient you are
at engineering your own sorry fate. It's the other way around; the rep-symps
need you."
"To do what?"
Deckard's own voice went tight and harsh. "What's the job?"
"Simple," said
Batty. "They need you to deliver something. To the replicants. The
insurgents."
"Yeah? Deliver
what?"
One word. "Me."
He'd been afraid it would be something like that.
"Why," Deckard asked wearily, "would anybody want you delivered
to them? Unless they were running short on novelty items."
"You're a sarcastic sonuvabitch, Deckard. Believe
me-"The voice coming from the briefcase turned darkly vehement. "If I
could walk to where I needed to get to, I would. Rather than put up with your
charming manner."
"Nothing says you have to." Deckard
shrugged. "There may not be any emigrants going to the outer colonies, but
there's still cargo shipments heading out of here. Tell you what-I'll spring
for the postage. Cover you with stamps, and you're on your way."
"Unfortunately-" The briefcase emitted a
snort of disgust. "You have to come along. You're somewhat necessary to
the whole operation."
"Why? What's inside you?"
"It's not what's inside
me, Deckard. It's what I am. The rep-symps back on Earth programmed more than
just the contents of my skull into this box. They had other information they
wanted to cram in here. Specifically, Isidore's list."
Tilting his head, Deckard frowned. "What
list?"
"Come on." The briefcase's voice sounded
impatient. "You didn't have a whole lot of contact with Isidore back there
at the Van Nuys Pet Hospital, before Sarah Tyrell had him iced. He was a little
bit on the fussy and meticulous side. He kept records."
"Records of what? How many mechanical cats he
changed the batteries on?"
"Get real, Deckard. A cop like you should be able
to guess what. The escaped replicants, all the ones that made their way back to
Earth and then went through the disguising process at the Van Nuys Pet
Hospital-Isidore kept a list of every single one that he worked on, that he
made capable of passing as fully human. And their new identities, the aliases
that he came up with for them. Everything, all the info. Who they were, who
they became, where they are-he kept it all."
"That'd be a handy thing to have." Deckard
heard the sourness in his own voice. "If you were the police. Like a
shopping list. You could just go out and ice them one by one, without all that
tedious work of tracking them down. How convenient."
"Sure-except why would the police be interested
at all?" Batty's voice went back into its cool, logical mode. "You
should try to remember what I've already told you. The disguises that Isidore
gave to the escaped replicants were complete-even to the replicants themselves.
You got that, Deckard? The escaped replicants on Earth don't even know that
that's what they are. They think they're human-and they might as well be, since
none of the police's empathy tests and Voigt-Kampff machines can show
otherwise. The escaped replicants' disguises are complete, perfect, and
absolute-just the way that Isidore planned it. He was one smart guy, no matter
what you might think of him. The way Isidore set it up, the replicants hiding
out on Earth can't even give themselves away to anybody who might be trying to
hunt them down. And you know-all cops know-that's the number-one way people get
caught. They give themselves away. They know who they are-what they are-and
it's too much for them to keep bottled up inside. They want to be caught; they
do all the little things, the mistakes, the coming out into the open, all that
insures that somebody like you will find them. And end the chase the only way
it can be ended. By death." The voice lowered. "Even that last batch
you hunted down, Deckard, back in L.A-the replicant that was based on me, and
the Kowalski replicant, and Zhora and Pris-they knew who and what they were,
and it didn't help them. The truth doesn't set you free, Deckard. It dooms you.
That batch screwed up, they didn't go to the Van Nuys Pet Hospital and get
themselves disguised by Isidore; they had some other agenda going for them,
besides their own survival. That's the only reason you were able to find them
at all. Not because you were able to tell that they were replicants. But
because they still knew."
They run toward death. The bleak truth. And Death, in
the form of Rick Deckard or Dave Holden or any other blackgunned official
assassin, ran toward them as fast, or just simply waited for them to come and
be killed. What did it matter anyway to creatures with four-year life spans? Tomorrow
or the next day, or the day or the year after that, they would be iced just as
surely by the flaws that Eldon Tyrell had designed into them.
Maybe-the thought had crept through Deckard
before-maybe it was a relief For them, if not for himself.
"All right," said Deckard, pulling himself
from his grim musings. "But you didn't answer your own question. If
Isidore kept a list of all the escaped replicants he'd disguised, and that list
was still around after he was offed-why wouldn't the police want it?"
"What would be the point? Come on, Deckard, use
your brain." The briefcase's voice struggled to remain patient. "The
police get a list of names; so what? They're human-or they might as well be.
They can't be shown to be not human with the Voigt-Kampff machines and the
empathy tests. They don't know themselves that they're escaped replicants. So
what's the danger in just letting them live? They'll all drop dead pretty soon
anyway, thanks to that four-year life span Tyrell built into them. They're no threat
to anyone-so why not just let the poor bastards live, at least as long as
they're going to? The police and the U.N. would just be making trouble for
themselves by hunting the disguised replicants down-what kind of public
relations is it to blow away people that everybody around them thinks are as
human as they are? Do enough of that kind of shit, pretty soon you'd have real
humans-whatever that means-worrying about whether they were going to be next.
And then it would be the police who'd be in trouble."
"So who does want it?" Deckard leaned back
and regarded the briefcase. "I sure as hell didn't-why send it to
me?"
"The replicants, of course. Not the ones on
Earth, the disguised ones-but the ones out there. Out in the stars; the
insurrection. Isidore's work at the Van Nuys Pet Hospital has a big payoff for
them. Because of it, the insurrection has a 'fifth column' on Earth-replicants
just like themselves, perfectly disguised, infiltrated through all levels of
society. The only problem is that the disguised replicants don't know that's
what they are. That's where the list-the list that Isidore kept, the list
that's inside me-that's where it comes in."
Batty's voice turned smug, as though pleased at the
show of its own logic. "The replicants' insurrection already has a
division of its own behind the enemy lines, right there on Earth. The
insurrection just has to find them. Find them and tell them what they really
are. Not humans as they thought, but replicants. And on the side of the
insurrection."
"Maybe." Deckard shrugged. "Or maybe
not. There might be some of these disguised replicants who like believing that
they're really human. They might not react too well to being told they're not.
If they believe this little revelation at all."
"Different ones will react different ways."
Batty's voice sounded unperturbed. "Some might even just kill themselves
rather than face the truth. Because they'll know that it is the truth. The
records that Isidore kept include not only the disguised replicants' new
identities but their old ones-who and what they were out in the colonies,
before they escaped and made their way to Earth. And something even better-or
at least more powerful-than that. The data on each disguised replicant includes
the anamnetic trigger for that individual-a code phrase that Isidore planted
into their new artificial memories that'll bring the replicants to full, true
consciousness. Once that trigger gets pulled-when a disguised replicant hears
the big word-then the truth can't be denied. That sucker'll know just what he
or she really is. They'll all know. And they'll know what side they should be
on. Human or replicant." The briefcase laughed, short and harsh.
"It'll be like what those last old die-hard Maoists used to say. One of
their quotes from their little red book-you remember? 'Give up illusion-prepare
for struggle.' Those poor bastards on Isidore's list won't even have any
illusions to give up."
Deckard remembered that line; he'd heard it a long
time ago, back when he'd spent his time in the student warrens beneath Los
Angeles. Or something like it, thought Deckard. The alternate, preferred
version being "Give up struggle-prepare for illusion." A holdover
from the same historical epoch as the Maoists, the other war, the one that had
gone on inside people's brains and central nervous systems. Resulting in the
private opiocracy, the chemical dictatorship that
half the city's population pledged allegiance to. He'd
gone through the mandatory three-month detox wring-out when he'd climbed up
skinny and starving from below and signed on with the LAPD, getting the
departmental regs laid down to him, that the only acceptable intoxicants came
in bottles and tasted like numbing fire down your throat.
The words stayed true, though. Old jokes made for bad realities.
Struggle was the proverbial mug's game, a nonprofit enterprise for chumps who
still believed . . . in what? Doesn't matter, thought Deckard. The result was
still the same. They'd be lucky if they had any illusions left to fall back on.
He didn't.
"So that's the deal, then." Deckard tapped
one finger against the table, a soft dead sound. "The replicants out in
the colonies, the insurrection-they want this list that Isidore kept, all this
data about the disguised replicants on Earth. So they can contact them, flip
their triggers with the magic words, tell them that they're actually replicants
and not humans, get 'em fired up and working against the U.N. Viva Ia
revolution. That's it, right? I take it that the insurrection would already
have some way of getting in touch with these disguised replicants, once they
know who they are?"
"Of course," Batty replied. "The
rep-symps-the ones who put me in this box and loaded me up with Isidore's data-
they're in contact with the insurrection. Once the replicants out in the
colonies get the information-once you deliver me to them-then they can relay it
back to the rep-symps. Who can then go out and find the disguised replicants,
reveal their true identities and natures to them, and get them moving with the
insurrection's plans. A lot of those disguised replicants are Nexus-6 models,
like the Roy Batty replicant that was modeled after me. They can cause a lot of
troublehell, you should know that better than anyone."
"Still doesn't make sense." Fighting the
fatigue he'd brought with him to this world, Deckard shook his head. "This
list of Isidore's, this information about the disguised replicants-it's only of
any use back on Earth. If it's inside you, why bother having me drag you to the
colonies out in the stars? Even if I could find a way of getting out
there-right now, there's no long-range transit off Mars, remember? Just little
skiffs, like the one I used to get to the Outer Hollywood station. So why
shouldn't I just take you back to the rep-symps and hand you over to them, if
you're the information they need?"
"One," the briefcase said sourly,
"because you're a dead man back on Earth, or as good as. You show up
there, toting me or not, you'd be spotted and iced before you could deliver me
to anyone, let alone the rep-symps. And two-"
"Wait a minute." Deckard lifted his hand.
"The rep-symps had this data already, loaded it into you, then had Holden
bring you to me, just so I could go on carrying you out to the insurrection in
the colonies? So the data could somehow be sent back to the rep-symps on
Earth?" He shook his head. "They must be even more screwed up than I
am."
"Dig it." The briefcase's voice turned even
harder and blunter. "The data, the information that Isidore kept about the
disguised replicants-it's encoded. Encrypted. Deep, bad, and unbreakable. It's
got algorithms wrapped around it that the U.N's cryptology divisions haven't
even seen the tail end of. There's not enough computing power in the universe
to bear down on the data that got loaded into me. Isidore did that, too-he was
a smart bastard all around. So the information, the list, is unusable to the
rep-symps in its present form; it has to be unlocked before it can be read out
and made functional."
"Who's got the key?"
"Correction, Deckard. It's not who has the key. It's who is the
key."
"So it's a person." He could sense the
answer that was coming, but asked anyway. "And that person is . "It's
you," said the briefcase. "Who else? It's always been you."
Deckard sat silently for a few moments, then pushed
the chair back and got up from the kitchen area table. He crossed the small
space of the hovel to the door. Pulling it open, he looked out into the narrow,
rubble-filled corridor beyond. The low-ceilinged public area had gone
temporarily depopulated, as though a scouring wind had moved across
the dunes of yellowing paper scraps and black-tinged
garbage. The stimulus-deprived and the still functional, idiot hunger and the
fragile containers of a dwindling sanity, had disappeared alike, leaving him
with an illusion of physical isolation comparable to what he felt under his
breastbone. Outside the permeated, decomposing walls of the transit colony, the
same wind separated grains of red sand from each other, rolling them like
desiccated atoms into mine shafts of ancient iron and the razor-slashed,
tearless eyes of what once could have been human children.
There wouldn't be time to think about that kind of
stuff anymore. Or to even see it. The trap had shown its teeth and snapped onto
his leg; he could almost imagine the blood trickling down to his ankle.
"Why me?" Deckard had come back to the
table; he turned the briefcase toward him. "Why should I be
the key?"
"Because I'm the lock. It's as simple as
that." Batty's voice softened to, if not pity, a recognition of their
common fate. "Think about it. Remember. When I died, you were the last
thing I saw, Deckard. I had my hands around your throat, and my eyes were locked
onto your face, with your eyes about to burst and your teeth gritting, and you
were the one who was going to die . . . and that's when I got it. Funny,
huh?" The short, humorless laugh sounded again. "Just when you least
expect it. That's when it's all over."
"That's when you wake up," said Deckard. He
nodded slowly, remembering what had been said to him a long time ago in a
rubbish-strewn, rain-soaked alley in Los Angeles. By the Kowalski replicant
that he'd been hunting, the one that had caught him instead: Wake up! Time to
die.
"I know what you mean." The briefcase spoke
softly. "Nothing like coming that close to your own corpsehood to put
everything into perspective. Anyway, that's the deal. Like the old myths about
the last thing a dying man sees being imprinted inside his eyes. Your face,
Deckard, got imprinted a lot deeper than that-right down into my brain. When
the rep-symps scraped me off that broken freeway and loaded my cerebral
contents into this thing, there you were, right on the top level. That's a
pretty powerful linkage-so
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what could make a better key than that? Especially
since you're a key that's good for more than just opening this lock and
decoding Isidore's list. You're walking and talking and scheming your little
head off, aren't you? God knows, for what. But you've still got a lot of your
old cop skills; you're not so screwed up as to have dropped those. If anybody
can get me out to the stars-to the insurrection-you can, Deckard. You're the
only way."
"It'd be easier for me to decrypt the Isidore
data out of you right now, find some means of getting it down to the repsymps
on Earth. Or out to the insurrection, if that's what the replicants want.
Rather than lug you all over the universe."
"Nyet on that, pal. I may be the lock and you may
be the key, but I'm not exactly a passive participant in this game. I've got
some choice in the matter, still. I can choose the moment when the key can turn
in the lock, when the data from Isidore can be decrypted. And believe me, I've
already chosen. It's not going to happen, Deckard, until you've gotten me
safely out of the reach of the U.N. and the LAPD and any other security agency
that would just love to dump me in the incinerator. That would take care of a
lot of their problems. And yours, too. But I'm not hanging on to the same kind
of death wish as you might be. I may be stuck in this box right now, but if
it's what I've got, I'll deal with it. And who knows? We get off Mars and out
to the insurrection, give the replicants the information they want . . . they
might show a little gratitude. Beyond just keeping me around, that is. Maybe
they could download me into some spare replicant body. That'd be a trip. Then
you'd have a real hard time trying to figure out if I were human or not. Or
what part of me might be."
Deckard sorted through the briefcase's words.
"You're still missing something," he said. "You may have
some kind of motivation for
this job, for getting you and this list of Isidore's out there-but what about
me? Seems like a lot of hard work. Why would I want to?"
"You tell me." The briefcase sounded wryly
amused again. "Maybe you've developed a conscience, or something like
that. Kind of a human thing; it's been known to happen, even
to blade runners. Look at poor old Dave Holden. That's
what happened to him."
"Right. And he's dead."
"All the way," agreed the briefcase.
"And there won't be any coming back for him, the way there was for me; no
one there to download his cerebral contents into a handy little container.
Lucky bastard. Shows there's no justice in this universe. Or maybe there is;
maybe Holden had redeemed himself that much. I'll have to think about it."
Deckard shook his head. "I'm not looking for that
kind of redemption."
"Obviously. Got your own agenda, don't you? So
here's why you should do the job, why you should carry me on out to the
insurrection." The briefcase was silent for a few seconds, then spoke
again, softer. "Because that's the way you were heading. Isn't it? Out
there. To the stars. Or to put it another way . . . as far from Earth as you
could get. And you were taking Sarah Tyrell with you. That's the plan. I'm
right, aren't I?"
No need for an answer, or even an attempt at denial.
"How do you know that?"
"Come on, Deckard. I'm not the only one plotting
your trajectory. Do you really think you got away scot-free, that you got even
this far without other people knowing what you were up to? Your little
disguise-this whole Mr. and Mrs. Niemand trip-how many people do you think you
fooled with that? Your cover was blown before you even lifted off from the San
Pedro docks. If you got away here to Mars, it's because the U.N. and the LAPD
wanted you to get away. Probably just to see who you might hook up with, who you're
working for-you know how they like to keep track of people. They got some long
leashes that they string people out with-and that's what you've been on. Not
just with the po-lice, but with the rep-symps as well. They've got enough
connections in the right places to have kept tabs on
you."
"They're not the ones I'm worried about."
"Of course not-they're
the ones who want to keep you alive, at least long enough for you to do this
little job for them. The police, though-they might be just about ready to reel
you in. Now that they know you've got me and all the dangerous information I've
got inside."
Deckard reached down and tapped a finger on the
briefcase. "In which case, I should just get rid of you. Since you're not
exactly a good thing to keep around."
"You know it doesn't work that way, Deckard. The
cops never let anyone off the hook. The only way off is with a bullet. The mere
fact that you came into contact with me-that's enough reason for them to figure
you're better off dead rather than running around, stirring up more trouble for
them."
One more thing the briefcase
was right about. "Even so-if they're going to be hot on my ass, I should
still dump you rather than drag you around with me and have you slow me
down."
"That would be one way of handling the
situation." Batty's voice was unfazed. "But it'd be the stupid way.
You don't have a chance on your own, Deckard. You need me. And the other things
inside me, besides the Isidore data. If you're going to track Sarah Tyrell
down, find out where the hell she's gone off to-believe me, I've got some
notions on that score-and take her off with you to the colonies. Though why
you'd want to is beyond me . . . but hey, that's your business. Work out your
obsessions however you want, pal. But frankly, it's just one more sign of how
fried your brain is. Whereas mine-at least in this condensed form-is working
overtime. You got the legs, the moves, Deckard-you can get around-but I've got
the smarts. I know stuff. And I can figure out the rest."
Got me there, thought Deckard. The cop skills that
he'd had for so long, the sniffing and analyzing abilities that had made it
possible for him to survive in L.A-he wasn't sure of those anymore. He had the
sick feeling that he was only alive and breathing on sufferance, just as long
as the invisible forces watching him were amused to let him be. The leash to
which he was attached had a collar that could be tightened to the choke point
at any moment.
And if that happened-if his own death moved from
possibility to probability to actuality-then all the planning and
scheming that had gotten him
this far had been for nothing. Not his plans for himself-nothing like that had
ever mattered-but for Sarah. What had to be done with her. That promise Deckard
had made to himself, deep in that empty space where the image of Rachael had
once resided .
He'd
already decided what he was going to do. Or had had it decided for him. It
didn't matter.
Deckard sat down in the empty chair and pulled it up
to the table. He rested his face in his hands for a long moment, fingertips
pressing at the corners of his eyes. Then he leaned back and regarded the
briefcase again.
"What was that you said?" Some of Batty's
words had puzzled him. "Something about ... the other things inside you .
"They put them in," said the briefcase.
"The rep-symps did. When they loaded in the encrypted Isidore data. Just
one other thing, really. Something they thought you might be able to use."
"Like what?"
"Check it out for yourself." With two sharp
metallic clicks, the briefcase's chrome locks snapped open. "Go on. You
have to open my lid-I can't do that myself."
Deckard reached one hand over and tilted the
briefcase's lid back. He pulled the briefcase toward him so he could see its
contents.
It was empty. Nothing inside-or so Deckard thought,
until the hovel's dim light allowed him to spot the one small, flat rectangle
in the center of the briefcase's faux watered-silk lining.
He picked up the object, his broken fingernails
sliding under its edge. It weighed hardly anything; it might have been empty.
Rubbing the slick paper surfaces under his thumb, he detected a loose, shifting
substance filling, like dust, one end of the packet.
That was what it reminded Deckard of-a seed packet.
From some childhood memory, deeply buried and dimly recalled, of his mother or
an aunt, and a tiny garden, holes dug in black earth beneath a yellow
sun, a trickle of water from a
green, snakelike hose . . K. Vi. J
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But not a seed packet. Or not exactly so; the right size
and shape, perhaps three by five inches. But the contents would be different.
He had seen things just like this right here on Mars, in the darkest, narrowest
reaches of the emigrant colony's illicit markets. Back where the most
desperate, the ones with the least to lose and the most to find, went in search
of a transcendent commerce. To find God, or something like
Him.
The packet that Deckard held was blank, at least on
the side he could see. He turned the packet over and found one word. A name, in
simple black letters- SEBASTIAN
Everything that is buried," said Wycliffe,
"must be watched."
"'Or with his claws, he'll dig it up
again.'" Hands deep in the pockets of the fur-collared coat, Sarah still
felt the cathedral's chill seeping from the ancient walls into her bones.
"What?" Both of the die-hard Tyrell
loyalists appeared puzzled. "Who's 'he'?"
"Never mind." She shook her head.
"Nobody-it's just a quote. A scrambled literary allusion." She knew
she was dealing with corporate creatures-neither one of them had probably ever
read anything other than the Tyrell employees' manual. "Just go on. Tell
me all about it."
From farther away, up by the abandoned altar at the
end of the cathedral's stone nave, came the sound of a chugging power
generator. It had been started up, with much tugging and fussing at the
cobwebbed controls, by Wycliffe and Zwingli right after the yacht had settled
into the bare fields at the edge of the little town. Or what used to be a town,
Sarah corrected herself. The word town implied the presence of people, and
there were none here anymore. Just the three of them now, strangers on any land
not roofed by money. The bare incandescent bulbs, laced along a dangling black
cord at the cathedral's peaked ceiling, flickered and swayed in the ice-crystal
wind needling from outside. Small black waves dashed against the shingle of the
protected harbor.
"These are all the monitoring devices."
Wycliffe had already pulled back the rotted tarpaulins that had covered the
gauges and dials. Spiders and larger creatures scurried away, across the
circles of broken or dust-clouded glass. He tapped a finger against one device,
and a thin black needle jumped and quivered; a row of blue LEDs blinked and ran
out a row of numbers, a date twenty years in the past. "They're not on the
generator-they're kept charged by the field polarity, out in the Flow."
It struck Sarah as odd that a place of such stillness
should be called that. The correct name being Scapa Flow-the body of North Sea
water encircled by the Orkney Islands. North to the Shetlands, south to the
Scottish mainland, all depopulated as here; a long way to reach any of the
densely imploding, expanding urban centers that had sucked up everything that
moved on two legs. Or on wheels; the cobbled streets of Kirkwall, the little
town at the Flow's edge, were littered with motorized wheelchairs, toppled onto
their sides and left to rust, toggle switches and control sticks mired in the
grey, puddling rain. Sad relics, as if the feeblest of Time's carriages had
ceased functioning, their spoked wheels frozen by the same non-Time that
brooded beneath the water's surface.
The diehards' ship, at the end of its journey from the
Martian emigrant colony, had come in low to the west. From the wall-sized
viewscreen in the lounge, Sarah had been able to see the broken cliffs at the
islands' rim, the rock columns standing as mute sentinels. Abandon all
motion-that was what she would have carved into their sides. All things come to
a halt here. Hence, probably, the abandoned wheelchairs. Their owners just
hadn't needed them any longer.
"Do you know how this works?" Wycliffe's
voice broke into her dark reverie. "What's going on here?"
She said nothing. Better to let him talk, so as to
delay the moment she knew was coming. Even in places of stopped time, the bad
things still approached and then arrived, inevitable. Just my luck, thought
Sarah glumly. Christmas gets canceled, the oral surgery appointment's still on.
"This location-not the cathedral, I mean; I'm
referring to the Orkneys in general and Scapa Flow in particular-has become a
temporal anomaly." Wycliffe slipped into a lecturer's dry, efficient tone.
"Indications are that it was that way to begin with, even before it
started being used as a dump zone for time-depleted stellar drives."
"That's why," said Zwingli, "these
islands have such a high concentration of neolithic monuments. Stone circles,
megaliths, standing stones, burial mounds-that sort of thing." The eyes
behind the square-rimmed glasses grew brighter, as if the topic were some
special enthusiasm for him, artifacts of the dead being more interesting than
anything to do with the living. "The highest concentration in Europe, and
thus in the whole world. Primitive tribespeople must have recognized the area's
. . . umm . . . unique qualities."
"Whatever." Wycliffe
looked annoyed at his partner's speech. He turned an identical owlish gaze back
toward Sarah. "All that's possible, I suppose. Though I personally believe
that the Flow's suitability for its present use was triggered by the scrapping
of the Imperial German Navy at the end of the First World
War."
"The word, I think, is scuttling." Zwingli
again. "The Imperial German fleet was scuttled at Scapa Flow."
A pulse of irritation ticked at the corner of
Wycliffe's brow. "The battleships were deliberately sunk and sent to the
bottom. Out there." He gestured with one hand, heavily gloved against the
cold. At the great wooden doors of St. Magnus, the ravens peering in, black and
glitter-eyed, took flight with wings blotting out whole sections of the
cloudroiled sky. "So they form the bottom layer, at least as far as modern
history is concerned-there's no telling what might have been sunk and buried,
for whatever reasons, before then. Viking boats, perhaps." His gaze grew
distant, as
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though focussed on a scene not visible in present
time. "Hollowed-out logs, woven coracles ... who knows? But if the Flow
hadn't been a temporal anomaly before then, the insertion of such
potentiality-laden material might well have created one, or exacerbated an
already existing situation past a certain critical threshold. So that the first
signs of the field's presence were picked up shortly after the turn of the
millennium. Then, when the problem arose of the safe disposal of the early
depleted stellar drives, this solution was acted upon." Wycliffe peered
more closely at her. "Is any of this making sense?"
Sarah nodded. "More
than." She knew what the two men were talking about; she had been briefed
on the history of Scapa Flow, and the details of its present use, back when she
had assumed control of the Tyrell Corporation. The company, while under the
directorship of her late uncle, had bought a controlling share in the
consortium running the facility-or dump, a more appropriate word. And as had
been the usual mode with Eldon Tyrell's business operations, the other partners
had been squeezed out one by one, or had wisely abandoned their interests in
whatever went out beneath the grey surface of the Flow.
Why worry about the dead-and dead machines, at that;
nothing more-in their watery cemetery? Better to let the Tyrell Corporation be
the keepers of whatever secrets might still be trying to swim up to the light.
"It's not as if anybody had wanted to do it this
way." Wycliffe sounded apologetic. His hand brushed across the dials,
clearing some of the dust. "There was just nothing else that could be
done. It's always better to forget, to destroy the past-"
"Oh, you're right." She regarded the man as
though some beam of light had broken through the clouds and the cathedral's
roof, revealing some previously unseen aspect of him. Perhaps he was wiser than
she had thought. "You're absolutely right."
A moment of hesitation, then Wycliffe slowly shook his
head. "I just meant ... technologically; that's all. If there had been a
better way of dismantling the old, first-generation
interstellar transports, and of getting rid of their
depleted drive units . . . but there wasn't. The consortium, before it settled
on abandoning and scuttling the transports here, had even contemplated firing
them off-planet and into the sun. But there was no guarantee of the results
with that method; the sheer amount and nature of the energy lodged in the
drives might have triggered some cataclysmic solar reaction; there was just no
way of telling."
"Better to be safe." Zwingli nodded sagely.
"Bad P.R. if the sun had gotten blown up."
Wycliffe ignored the comment. "Sinking the old
interstellar transports in Scapa Flow was undoubtedly intended just as a
stopgap measure, until a means of safely disposing of the depleted drive units
had been found. The temporal anomaly that had been found here kept the drives'
unwanted effects safely bottled up, at least for the time being. But as we
know, what starts out as temporary has a way of becoming permanent. Especially
after the new drives were invented, the ones in use now, that can operate
without the buildup of toxic aberrational effects. The old drive technology was
abandoned; no more of those first-generation interstellar transports were built
and put into service, so there was no need to find another way of disposing of
them. The dump here at Scapa Flow hadn't reached its limit. So why invest any
further research funds into a less-than-critical situation?"
"That was my uncle's decision." Sarah had
read the memoranda in the Tyrell Corporation files, the nonpublic areas.
Typical of his thinking. Skinflint bastard, she mused grimly. Even when the
company had been in the trillion-dollar-profits level, Eldon Tyrell wouldn't
have spent a nickel on anything that hadn't brought another dime into his
pockets. "He didn't care whether it was critical or not," she spoke
aloud. "That was part of the research he canceled." The memos had had
his initials at the bottom; she had touched the scrawled letters with her
fingertip. "The crews working out here had still been in the process of
determining whether it was safe to leave all those transports underwater, or
whether the drives' toxic effects were still building to an explosive level."
Wycliffe appeared uneasy,
embarrassed. "Well I'm sure Dr. Tyrell was still thinking about this
matter. Before his untimely demise. There were a lot of things he would've
taken care of . . . if there had been time."
She glared at the man without speaking. There was no
more time for Eldon Tyrell-the replicant who'd killed him had drained him of
time by cracking his head like an egg and letting the razor-bright sparks of
his mind pour out through his red eye sockets-and she was glad of it. Her
uncle's unfinished business had probably included her as well.
"Plenty of time here," said Sarah. She
gestured toward the dials. "By the looks of things."
The man beside her nodded. "That's what I meant
when I said that everything buried had to be watched. The machines-the
monitors-they did the watching. Even if everybody else, everybody human, had
forgotten."
With her knuckle, Sarah rapped
against one of the circular dials until the glass cracked and splintered. She
picked out the triangular shards, then used one fingernail to scratch at the
black pointer beneath. It was painted on, fixed at one number along the dial's
rim.
"These are fake." She looked at Wycliffe
beside her as she rubbed the black paint flecks from under her nail. She
gestured toward the other dials and gauges, the banks of monitoring equipment,
the lights and numbers glowing in the cathedral's dim space. "They all
are, aren't they?"
"Well ... possibly Bony shoulders hunched beneath Wycliffe's
jacket. He held out his large-knuckled hands and tilted them from side to side.
"When this installation was set up to watch over the scuttled transports,
there was some . . . um . . . stage-setting done. To make it look impressive to
the other consortium members. Dr. Tyrell didn't want them jumping ship, so to
speak."
"So really, there's been no monitoring here at
all. That's the deal, isn't it?" Sarah let her gaze narrow upon the man.
"The interstellar transports that were dumped here-anything could have
been going on with them. With the depleted drive units and their toxic effects.
They might, in fact, have reached some kind of critical mass-the temporal
aberra
tions in the field might not just be toxic. They could
very well be lethal." She let one corner of her mouth lift in a parody of
a smile. "If you want me to go down there, that might be the same as
killing me. You might as well shoot me now and get it over with. You must
admit-that seems a little inconsistent with people making claims about how they
have my best interests at heart. Or even just the interests of the Tyrell
Corporation."
Wycliffe said nothing, turning his face away from her
as though in shame. I'm right, thought Sarah. Not that it was any comfort to
her. The truth never was.
"Miss Tyrell ... please
The softer voice of Zwingli came from a few paces away. "Please don't be
mad at us. There really is nothing else we can do. It has to be this way."
"I've heard that one before." Inside my own
head, she thought grimly. As well as from these two, when they'd been putting
the pressure on her back at the hovel on Mars. Sarah supposed they were as
locked into their fates as she was. "It's all right," she said
finally. "I don't mind. It's pretty much what comes with the territory,
isn't it? When you're Tyrell blood."
Neither man said anything. Outside, the ice-flecked
wind picked at the cathedral's raftered bones. Sarah could hear, past the low
electric hum of the fake monitoring equipment, the grey waves lapping at the
village's shore. In a storm, she supposed, the seawater might roll against the
abandoned doors, pour through the empty houses .
Somehow, without even noticing, she had walked out of
St. Magnus's Cathedral all the way to the edge of the Flow. She found herself,
once her bleak thoughts and memories had faded, gazing out at the water, its
surface a darker shade of the steel-textured clouds above. She sensed another's
presence, Wycliffe standing behind her.
"So exactly what is the way I'm supposed to get
down there?" Sarah didn't glance over her shoulder at
the man. She gave a single nod toward the water.
"Down to the Salander 3, I mean. Jump in, hold my breath, and swim?"
A slight motion in the chill air; she knew that was
Wycliffe stiffening, his spine pulled tight by the mention of the ancient
interstellar transport's name. A name that he and the other man had yet to
speak aloud, that was even more weighted with dire meaning than the words Scapa
Flow. At the corner of her eye, she saw his gloved hand extend and point.
"There's no need for that, Miss Tyrell."
Wycliffe's index finger aimed toward a small triangular structure floating in
the distance, so small that Sarah hadn't spotted it before. "There's a
pressurized shaft extending down to the . . . to your destination. The shadow
corporation-well, Zwingli and myself, actually-had it installed before we went
out and contacted you. And brought you here."
"I
see." Sarah glanced back at him. "That was thoughtful of you."
"Of course." A thin smile moved across
Wycliffe's thin-lipped visage. "We really are thinking only of your
comfort."
"Sure you are." She shook her head, feeling
how cold and hard her face had become, as though the ice in the wind had
penetrated her flesh and seeped into the veins beneath. "If that were the
case, you wouldn't even want me to go down there." She took a sadistic
pleasure in speaking the transport's name again. "To the Salander 3."
Zwingli had come out from the old cathedral and joined
them by the shore of the Flow; Sarah could sense his presence, and the silent
exchange between the two men, the glance passed between them.
"Miss Tyrell ... we've gone over this before.
It's the only way." One of them spoke; she wasn't sure which. The voice
fluttered and was taken away by the wind. Probably Wycliffe, the default
spokesman for the pair. "If the Tyrell Corporation is to be restored-if it
is to come out of the shadows and be what it was before, and even more than
that-then this must be done. By you; no one else can do it. It is, after all,
your past that we're talking about here. That must be confronted and brought
into the light."
Her past. All of it, she told herself. Right back to
the beginning-she had been born aboard the Salander 3. Far from here . . . far
from Earth itself. That past, her past, was a world unto itself, sleeping
beneath Scapa Flow's waters.
"I know
The wind had invisibly peeled away her skin, exposing the flesh and
scraped bones beneath; that was what it felt like. Sarah had to take her hand
out of the coat's pocket and hold it out in front of herself, like some white,
fragile artifact, to dispel the illusion. If that's what it was .
There were ghosts down there in the old interstellar
transports; that was the essential toxic effect of the first-generation drive
units. The technology, the relatively crude way of getting from one point to another,
from Earth to the stars, had worked by generating perturbations in the time
field surrounding the transports, enabling them to achieve faster-than-light
velocities, as though being sucked from one zone of artificially high temporal
potential to a lower one. Falling through time, infinite distances converted
thereto, the churning machines holding on to each moment of the present,
elongating them like some vacillating Faustian bargain.
The drawback being, as she
knew from the old memos she had seen in the Tyrell Corporation files, that the
first-generation interstellar drive units became depleted, lost their
propulsive function, as the layers of undissipated temporal energy accumulated.
Screwing around with Time itself had its price; within the
transports' little encased worlds, past and present
became confused, impossible to sort out. Then there would be no forgetting;
that saving mental grace, the only thing that made sanity possible, would be
gone. Toxicity, madness, death. Better to sink the contaminated machinery into
a dark, wet hole, the only place whose own temporal anomalies had a chance of
matching these newly created ones .
"But I got out." Sarah spoke her thoughts
aloud. She looked back over her shoulder at the two men. "Before it- the
past-before it could contaminate me. Before it could kill me. I was only three
years old when the Salander 3 returned to Earth." That child, that
long-vanished incarnation of herself, had been the only living thing aboard the
transport when the autonomic piloting systems had brought it back to this
world; when the Salander 3 's doors had been unsealed and the Tyrell
Corporation's employees had gone in, they had found only the little girl named
Sarah-and the corpses of her parents.
Family history, deep and dark as the currents of the
ocean surrounding Scapa Flow. Little things that hadn't been in the old
memoranda, the company's official archives, but that she had found out anyway
as she had been growing up. The way children always find out things, by
overhearing whispers . . . and even more tellingly, by hearing the silences
that the adults clicked into when they knew she was in the room.
That was how she had found out what had happened to
them. The faces she knew, recognized from the digitized press clippings in the
company files. Anson and Ruth Tyrell; there had been a photo of the two of them
with-an oddly human, sentimentalizing touch-a long-haired marmalade cat in the
woman's arms, a pet that was going to accompany them on their exploratory
voyage to the Proxima system. The two people in the photo had been smiling,
full of an eager confidence-Sarah had calculated that her mother had become
pregnant either shortly before the photograph had been taken or just after,
when the interstellar transport had left Earth orbit. Her parents had been
unaware of their fate, the fate of the Salander 3. The transport had turned
back a sixth of the way to Proxima, the clever relays and circuits wired into
its computers doing the best they could, ferrying back the dead and the living,
two adult corpses and an infant tended by machines, nursed on synthesized
breast milk. Her second birth had come three years later, when the Tyrell
Corporation employees had unsealed the transport's main hatch and one of them
had led her out by the hand- there was no way Sarah could remember that. Just
more of what she had been told, and had overheard, and had dug out of the
company archives.
And what happened to the cat? she wondered, not for
the first time. The poor thing-Sarah gazed out at the uncommunicative water,
feeling the chill seep closer to her core. She
supposed that was another mystery, the answer to which
was down there with all the others, in the hulk of the Salander 3 itself.
"That's why you want me
to go down there, isn't it?" She managed to bestow a bare fragment of a
smile upon the two men. "To find out what happened to that silly
cat."
They showed no sign of puzzlement at her words. "You have to go
down there," said Wycliffe, "to save-to restore-the Tyrell
Corporation."
"Something
went wrong Zwingli gazed out across the
Flow. "A long time ago .
"At the beginning."
Wycliffe nodded slowly. "It had to have been then. When Dr. Tyrell and his
brother created the corporation. Somehow, everything that happened since then
including the destruction of
the Tyrell Corporation . the seeds were planted right back at the start of it
all."
She envied the dead-this also, not for the first time.
They've got it easy, thought Sarah. The two Tyrell brothers and the wife of one
of them-all the bad things that fate had had in store, they had already gotten
through. And gone on to whatever place there was that had no time, neither past
nor dreaded future. She knew she wasn't that lucky . . . or at least not yet.
The past was waiting for her, just a few minutes ahead, when she would go down
into the remains of the Salander 3, her first home. Which, in some way, she had
never left.
"We can't go back to the very beginning-that's
too far." Wycliffe's voice continued at the edge of her thoughts.
"There's nothing left. It's lost. But this much we can do. We can go this
far. To whatever happened . . . then. In there." He nodded toward the grey
water and the vessels hidden beneath the surface. "But you're the only one
who can go there and find out. The secrets, the mysteries. All that we need to
know."
This is what I get-she supposed it served her right.
She had envied the dead and had tried to become one of them. Deckard had
loved-and still loved-the replicant with Sarah's face. Rachael had already
become one of the dead, the
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termination of her four-year
life span postponed just a little bit. Not that it mattered, finally. For
either herself or Rachael. The dead were the only ones who escaped. For the
living, there was only the past and the future, the same thing in either
direction, and equally painful. It was stupid of me to even try.
Standing behind her, Wycliffe was still wrapped up in
his explanations, the rationale behind their journey to this bleak spot.
"We don't even know why." His voice spoke in a child's baffled tone.
"The Tyrell Corporation sunk an awful lot of its operating capital into
the Salander 3 expedition. And we don't even know what they were looking for
out in the Proxima system. What they were trying to achieve, what they thought
Anson Tyrell was going to find out there."
"Not in the files, was it?" Sarah knew;
she'd looked herself. "That information was deleted; erased, extinguished.
And you know, don't you, who must have done that."
Both men nodded. "Dr. Tyrell," Wycliffe morosely said.
"Eldon Tyrell. Your uncle."
"Eldon Tyrell did a lot of things that you don't
know about." She heard her own voice darken in tone. "Some of them .
. . you don't want to know about." Sarah looked over her shoulder and saw
the two die-hard loyalists appearing uncomfortable, exchanging glances from
behind their square-framed lenses at each other.
"Those kinds of things Zwingli spoke up.
"That might be personal information. Family secrets. That we don't need to
know about. To bring the Tyrell Corporation back into existence."
"That's where you're wrong," said Sarah.
"There's no such thing as personal with the Tyrell Corporation. There
never was. Or to put it another way . . . everything is personal. When my uncle
was alive, the company was just the contents of his head, made big."
"And then it was yours." A softly uttered
reminder from Wycliffe. "Your company. And your ... personal
matters."
Head turned, Sarah regarded
the man, seeking any clue as to just exactly and how much he and his partner
were aware of. Maybe I was wrong, she mused. Maybe they weren't quite as stupid
as they looked. She'd have to be careful-her own reminder, this time.
"But all that came later." Wycliffe spoke,
letting his steady gaze meet hers. "We need to find out what happened a
long time ago. On the Salander 3."
"That was really the turning point," added
Zwingli. "If you study the history of the Tyrell Corporation. What can be
pieced together from the files and the other records. After the failure of the
Salander 3 mission, and the deaths of An-son and Ruth Tyrell-your parents'
deaths-then things were never the same. That was when the company's Los Angeles
headquarters became such a fortress. A fortress that your uncle retreated into.
And the Tyrell Corporation grew both in power and secrecy."
"You're telling me things I already know."
Sarah turned from the Flow's shore to face the two men. "I've gone over
the files as well."
"Ah, but it's not just what's in the files-or
what Dr. Tyrell left there." Wycliffe looked smug, pleased with the
workings of his brain. "Some of the connections you need to make .
those happened outside the company. In the rest of the
world. The Salander 3 expedition, that you were born during-that was the last
exploratory voyage outside the solar system. After the Salander 3 came back,
without even having reached its destination, the U.N. launched its off-world
colonization program. Within a couple of years, the U.N. was sending the first
groups of human settlers out to the stars. And the Tyrell Corporation had the
exclusive franchise on supplying replicants to the colonization program. That's
when the money started to happen, in a big way." The man's eyes glittered
behind the square glasses. "It's what enabled Dr. Tyrell to establish a
monopoly on all aspects of replicant technology. With the money he was getting
from the U.N., he was able to either buy up any patents that he didn't already
own or drive the other companies out of business. For all intents and purposes,
from that point on, Tyrell was the replicant business. The company had no
competition, and the U.N. went along with whatever prices Dr. Tyrell decided to
set. The Tyrell Corporation was the sole supplier for the one essential element
to the colonization program."
"Bad move on the U.N's part." Sarah gave a shrug. "Just
goes to show that those people don't know how businesses are run. You never let
somebody get a hand on your throat that way."
"Perhaps." The smug look didn't vanish from
Wycliffe's face. "Unless the U.N. didn't mind paying that price; they
didn't mind giving the Tyrell Corporation such an expensive monopoly. That
might all have been part of the deal that had been set up between the U.N. and
Dr. Tyrell. The company gets the franchise on supplying replicants to the
colonists
and the U.N. gets the colonization program. What Dr.
Tyrell gave the U.N. as his part of the bargain made the program possible, so
the U.N. could go ahead with it." The smugness shifted into a
self-satisfied smile. "And that's where the Salander 3 comes in."
"Really?" Sarah raised an eyebrow.
"That's your theory? The Salander 3 expedition-my father and my mother-
found something out that the Tyrell Corporation sold to the U.N-some
information, perhaps, about what was out there in the stars. And that was worth
enough to the U.N. for them to hand over the replicant monopoly. Interesting
conjecture."
"Perhaps it wasn't
information, Miss Tyrell. Perhaps it was something even more valuable to the
U.N. and its program. Perhaps it was the suppression of information."
Silence,
marred only by the passage of wind over Scapa Flow's waters, as she considered
the other's words. But that would mean .
"Exactly," said Wycliffe, as though he had
discerned the currents of her thinking. "It would mean that Dr. Tyrell did
whatever was necessary to suppress the information that the Salander 3
expedition had discovered. That the expedition had been aborted and brought
back to Earth on his orders. And that those who possessed the information-your
parents-were . . . shall we say? . . . suppressed as well."
"Murdered." A homicidal spark flared in
Sarah's heart at hearing more of the man's dancing, evasive words. "That's
what you mean."
"Of course it is." Both of the men gazed
owlishly back at her. "You'll have to excuse our efforts at being
diplomatic. But this is Wycliffe spread
his hands apart. "A delicate subject. A not-very-pleasant
possibility."
"You should've thought of it yourself,"
muttered Zwingli. "The fact you didn't-that says a lot."
"Precisely." Lanky, black-sleeved arms
folded themselves across Wycliffe's chest. "This smacks of avoidance on
your part. Which seems odd, given your rather obvious antipathy toward your
uncle."
"You know ... you might be right." Sarah
slowly nodded. It just goes to show, she thought. You can never hate some
people enough. There was always more.
She looked away from the two die-hard loyalists and
back toward the dark waters mirroring the steel-clouded sky. The answers were
there, beneath the small waves that lapped across the stones toward her feet.
Her uncle hadn't been able to
suppress everything. The past remained, captured and bottled and buried away
from the light. Waiting for her.
"All right," Sarah said aloud. "I'll go
down there. And see what I find."
"Thank you, Miss
Tyrell." The voice came from behind her; she didn't know which of them it
was. "That's all we're asking of you."
As if that
weren't enough. She tugged the fur-collared coat closer around herself,
futilely trying to ward off the cold winds.
i've seen you around here before," said the man
inside the booth. The ramshackle stall, tucked into one of the darkest corners
of the emigrant colony's convoluted marketplace, surrounded him like a
scuttling sea creature's protective carapace. "Coming and going, on your
little mundane, unimportant errands. The things that you thought were so
important. But now you've seen the light."
There would have been a time for Deckard, back when
he'd been a cop in L.A., when he would've reached across the space between this
person and himself and grabbed the guy's throat and squeezed until veins had
stood out like twisting blue snakes. Right now, he let it go.
"Kind of in a hurry," said Deckard. Behind
him, he could feel the crush and push of the dense paths and de facto
alleyways, the tight presence of other human bodies that always tripped a
memory flash of that distant city. "Maybe you could just sell me what I
need-what I came here for-and we could skip the
conversation."
"You think it's as easy as that? Shows what you
know." The man behind the counter had fierce eyes set in deep circles of
black, as though his contemplation of the divine was slowly blinding him to any
other world. "You come to your senses and decide to go looking for that
which you should've sought all along-it's not going to be a 'kind of in a
hurry' process. Narrow is the gate, and long and hard the road beyond it. You
don't buy grace, you earn it."
The temptation of his old police ways tingled again in
Deckard's hands. He glanced for a moment back over his shoulder; there were too
many people here, too many watching eyes, for him to throttle the man into
submission. He couldn't risk alerting the colony's authorities about what he
was trying to do; the place was crawling with snitches and narks. He'd left the
briefcase sitting on the kitchen-area table back at the hovel, there being no
place to hide it that anyone else couldn't have found in five minutes' worth of
tearing the flimsy structure to bits. The nagging voice, coming from the
briefcase, had told him to fetch the necessary items as fast as possible; even
the disembodied Batty felt the time pressure clamping down on them.
Just my luck, thought Deckard. This particular booth
in the marketplace appeared to be the only one trafficking in dehydrated
deities at the moment. Every other time he'd shoved his shoulder-first way
through the crowd, there had seemed to be dozens of the technically illegal but
officially tolerated outlets. Another glance around, to the limit of what could
be seen under the banks of dead or jittering fluorescents, showed gaps in the
merchant stalls, the tiny businesses shut down, eliminated, and not yet
replaced by the next wave of hustling or evangelism. The emigrant colony's
police force, or the larger and more efficient squads of the cable monopoly's
rent-a-cops, must have swept through in the last couple of days-either to
restore public decency or, more likely, to keep their captive audience hooked
to the video wire rather than fuguing off into religious visionary trips.
Maybe this low-level entrepreneur had upped his
mordida, his payoff bribe, before the hammer had come down. Or else he'd brewed
up the contents of a packet from his stock and had been lights-out under the
stall's counter, walking and talking with some Old Testament prophet or bo
tree-sitting with a wide-faced Buddha, and had conveniently missed all the
action.
"Look-" The cheap fiberboard flexed beneath
Deckard's hands as he leaned toward the other man's face. "I really don't
have a lot of time. Not in this world or the next." He kept his voice low,
using a quick nod to indicate the packets fastened to the stall's interior.
They were all the same small, flat rectangular shape as the one he'd found
inside the talking briefcase; they varied in color, from monochrome to
shimmering, eye-aching full-spectrum assaults. "But if you're selling, I'm
buying. Got it?"
Before the merchant could reply-he'd backed up a step
from Deckard on the other side of the counter, sensing at least the possibility
of violence-another customer came up. A wraithlike figure, all starvation eyes
and scab-picked shivering flesh, arose trembling at Deckard's elbow. "Do
you A mouth studded with a few cracked and yellow teeth, beneath unattended
running nostrils, quivered open. "Do you have any more of the ... the New
Orthodox West Coast Fundamentalists?" The emaciated figure struggled to
bring his scattered thoughts to words. "Specifically ... the Reformed
Huffington Rite? The Santa Barbara
branch?"
"Get out of here. You
mooch." The stallkeeper glared at the creature. "This is a cash-only
business. Nothing on credit. Not that I'd ever have given you any."
"I got money! Look!"
A grubby fist unfolded, revealing wadded paper with pictures of famous dead
people. "Not even scrip-real money!" The supplicant voice rose in
pitch, a sympathetic vibration shivering the ragged man's body. "I can
pay!"
Grumbling subaudibly, the stallkeeper turned, pawed
through the thin packets stapled behind him, pulled one off, and slapped it on
the counter. Distaste curled the corners of his mouth as he sorted out the
grease-impregnated bills and octagonal coins. "You're a dollar
short," announced the stallkeeper, as though that pleased him more than a
simple
sale would
have. He snatched the packet away as the ragged man's shaking fingers reached
for it.
"For Christ's sake-" Deckard reached into
his own pocket and dug out a bill from his dwindling stash. He flicked it into
the stallkeeper's hollow chest. "Give the guy what he wants, and let him
get out of here." Worth it, just to get things moving.
A second later, the wraith had fled back into the
churning crowd, the packet clutched to the visible bones beneath his throat.
"All right," said the stallkeeper, turning his dark-ringed eyes back
toward Deckard. All pretense of religious feeling had been stripped away,
leaving the pure mercantile entity beneath. "What do you want? Buy it now
and get what you can out of it, before you wind up like that asshole."
"It's not what I want." Deckard pulled out
the rest of his money, enough to evoke a swift glance of interest from the
other man. "It's what I need."
"Let me guess." In another life, another
world, the person inside the stall could have been a tailor; the tape measure
was at the center of his empty pupils. "Pentecostal? Got a wide selection
here." He gestured at the packets surrounding him. "You'll have to
supply your own snakes, or at least have 'em inside your brain, if you want to
get into that Southern Degenerate thing." A shake of the stallkeeper's
head. "Naw- you don't look the type to have even that much fun. Nothing
Jewish line, either; you'd know how to deal with guilt, if that was the case.
No d say Heavy Calvinist. You look like
you're into predestination. Badly so." The man gave an ugly, knowing smile.
"Like Weber said: 'Forced to follow his path alone to meet a destiny which
had been decreed for him from eternity.'"
Deckard knew the rest of the quote. "'No one
could help him.'" He nodded. "From The Protestant Ethic and the
Spirit of Capitalism."
"Good for you. I should give an educated man a discount,
but . . . we've really got the spirit of capitalism here." The man
fingered a couple of packets at the side of the stall. "How about Dutch
Reformed? That should be a severe-enough God for you. Give you a good price-I'm
trying to move this stock before it goes stale."
"No, thanks."
Deckard shook his head. "I don't need anything like that." Got enough
of that kind of shit already, he thought to himself, without acquiring any
more. "No packets. I just need the supplies. Couple quarts colloidal suspension
fluid, calibrated beaker, inert glass rod. That's all."
The stallkeeper gave him a hard look, eyes narrowed.
"You got your deity already? The one you're going to use?" He didn't
wait for an answer. "If you're going with some back-alley, home brew pile
of dust, you're asking for trouble, man."
"Think so, huh?" Deckard let a partial smile
show as he gazed around at the stall's wares. "This stuff you're peddling
doesn't exactly look like it's FDA approved."
"Hey. There's standards
in this business." The stallkeeper drew back, offended. "I'm here,
and my
competition's not, because I sell quality. I've got
customers right up at the top, man, the very top. I go in the front door of the
cable offices, I've got merchandise sticking out of my jacket pockets, and the
guards don't even blink."
"I bet," said Deckard. It explained a lot.
"Did you have a good time getting your competition cleared out of the
marketplace?"
"Loved it, pal. Made my day." The
stalikeeper's deep-set eyes glittered. "And just to show what a nice guy I
am, I only jacked up my prices ten percent. But for you, because you're such an
asshole, it's twenty." He reached beneath the stall's counter and fetched
out a plastic gallon jug; the contents sloshed in a slow gelatinous wave as he
set it down. The beaker and glass rod were slapped down beside the container.
"There you go, sport. Knock yourself out. You want to see God on some
low-rent basis, it's your head's funeral, not mine."
A minute later, his roll lighter-Deckard had never
bought this kind of stuff before, so he didn't know whether he was getting
absolutely screwed or not-he turned away from the stall, purchases hugged to
his chest. Before he
could bull his way into the crowd, the merchant called
after him.
"Hey-" The man held up a creased, much-used
paper bag. "Don't be an idiot and just go walking with it where everybody
can see. The next millennium hasn't arrived yet, pal."
The briefcase harangued
Deckard as soon as he walked in the door of the hovel. "Did you get
it?" Batty's voice drilled insistent at his ear. "Did you get
everything I told you to get?"
Deckard set the bag on the table next to the
briefcase. "I'm not so screwed up I can't handle a three-item shopping
list." He pulled out the plastic jug and the other objects. "This is
what you asked for, this is what I got."
"Anybody see you?"
He laughed. "Hundreds.
Thousands. Not exactly a depopulated zone around here."
"Come on." The briefcase sounded annoyed.
"You know what I mean. Cops, the police, the authorities. People who
shouldn't have seen you. Not if you want to take care of business without being
interrupted."
"We're all right-for the time being."
Deckard didn't know if that was true or not. And didn't care. In some ways, it
would be a relief if the hovel's front door were suddenly broken down by
jackbooted storm troopers from the deepest basements of either the cable
monopoly or the U.N's diplomatic headquarters. Then he wouldn't have to go
ahead with what he'd already told the briefcase he would. "Don't sweat it.
You're not the one who has to worry about what happens."
"Only because the worst
already has." Batty's voice prodded at him. "Let's get going."
He'd already gotten his instructions, the measuring
and pouring and mixing involved in the process, from the briefcase. The
colloidal suspension poured out like transparent molasses, heavy and
glistening. He thinned it out with a half cup of water from the kitchen tap,
stirring the results with the glass rod. A reddish tinge, rust from the
emigrant colony's decaying pipes, mingled with the faint ionic discharge of the
colloid's activation.
All through the back alleys and in the surrounding
hovels, as well as in the crowded cities back on Earth, the same preparations
were being made, all the differing communicants readying their sacraments,
assembling the doorways through which they would pass to meet the God they had
chosen. Back in L.A., Deckard had never been attracted to the whole dehydrated
deity underground, or repelled by it, either; he'd developed enough cop glaze
to favorably regard anything that kept the citizens off the streets, tucked
away in their little rooms or dorm cribs, bodily inert while their central
nervous systems were off in the ozone, walking with the King. Less trouble
generated that way-usually; some of them came back with the light of fanaticism
in their eyes, ready for a private jihad on anything that crossed their paths.
Those types never got very far; religious obsessives- at least the murderous
kind-did everything in public and found a snipered martyrdom preferable to
reloading their own weapons. That was the kind of thing that made L.A. police
work easy, even enjoyable at times.
Deckard tapped the glass rod on the rim of the
calibrated beaker. Already, as the less-viscous fluid settled, the flakes of
rust were precipitating out, drifting to the bottom of the container like some
obscure precious metal.
From somewhere on the edge of his consciousness,
Batty's voice intruded. "Nothing happens," the briefcase said dryly,
"if you just sit there looking at it. The rest is in the little
packet."
"Right." Deckard picked up the thin rectangular
shape, the same as yet different from the ones at the marketplace stall. The
one word, the name SEBASTIAN, in large block letters-Not much of a clue there,
he thought again. Or even instructions. "What, do I just dump the whole
thing in?"
"Christ, no." The briefcase emitted an
exasperated sigh. "Not unless you're mixing for a party or something-and
then you'd need a beaker a lot larger than that; maybe a bathtub or something.
No-you throw the whole packet in what
you got there, you'll be at a toxic level. It'd strip
the = catecholamines out of your brain so fast-burn out all the neural receptor
sites along the way as well-you'd wind up a vegetable. At least in this world;
no way of telling where you'd be on the other side."
"You
sound like you believe in this kind of thing. Like it's true."
"I don't believe," replied Batty. "I
know. At least enough not to screw around. The rep-symps back down on Earth,
the same ones who scraped me off that freeway where you left me and put me in
this box . . . those people know what they're doing. They may be visionaries,
but they still know what's going on. They wouldn't have put that packet inside
me, and told me to lay it on you, if there weren't some serious force majeure
to it."
As with most things this version of Batty said, that
one made sense as well. A lot of effort had been expended, with corpses
attached, to get the briefcase and its contents here, in Deckard's hands. Even
if his old partner, Dave Holden, hadn't gone through some big crisis of
conscience, hadn't had the change of heart that would've put him working with
the rep-symps-there wasn't any way that someone like that would have signed up
on a pure chump mission. No matter what side he'd been on.
"You know
Deckard reached over to the packet on the table and picked it up between
thumb and forefinger. "I'm taking an awful lot here on trust."
"What
choice do you have? It's like that old Chinese proverb: Safety is on the shore,
but the pearl is in
the ocean." A silent shrug. "You want
answers, you have to go somewhere to find them. You're just lucky-you're
holding that somewhere in your hand."
Deckard didn't feel lucky. He wasn't sure he'd
recognize the sensation, if it ever happened to him. You want answers? That was
what the briefcase had promised him; that had been the whole reason for his little
shopping expedition out to the colony's illicit marketplace. So he could come
back here to the hovel he called home-as much as he'd ever called any place
home, even back in L.A-and mix up a small batch of the dehydrated deity in the
packet. The one with Sebastian's name on it.
He asked what he had asked Batty before. "Why
would Sebastian-if it's really him inside here-why would he know the
answers?" Deckard remembered the little wizened genetic engineer as a
decrepit childlike creature with no more control over his destiny than he had
over his own rapidly aging body. The last time he had seen Sebastian in the
flesh, major parts of it had already been lost, limbs amputated in the attempt
to keep the core functions going. Too bad, mused Deckard, that he couldn't take
the knife and cut the stupid bits out of his heart as well. The poor little
truncated bastard had been in love with Pris, or the remains of her, and hadn't
even been aware that she wasn't a replicant, but a human the same as him, only
crazier. Sebastian had set up housekeeping, out in the sideways zone at the
edge of L.A., with the animated corpse he'd adored-and then he'd had even that
much happiness taken away from him. A loser like that-a loser by fate, written
right down into his own genetic code- didn't sound like a very promising
candidate for deity status. "What the hell," asked Deckard aloud,
"could somebody like that have figured
out?"
"I don't know." Batty's reply was a flat,
simple statement. "I've never been in there ... where you're going. Those
pocket universes, that whole dehydrated deity trip-I never did any of that, and
now I can't. Not possible in my present condition. The activated colloidal
suspensions only interface with organic human nervous systems. Leaves me out."
The briefcase laughed. "Hey, I'd love to go in there myself, rather than
counting on you. But as it is, you've got the only ticket."
"All right," said Deckard.
"Whatever." Thinking about fate, whatever Sebastian's had been, left
him resigned to his own. He might as well get this stage-even if it was the
final one-over with. "Let's do it."
The Sebastian packet was still in Deckard's hand. He
rapped the edge a couple of times against the table, to make sure the contents
were all at the bottom, then tore the upper edge open.
Batty must
have heard the sound of ripping paper. "About a teaspoonful should
suffice."
Spoons he'd had already;
Deckard rinsed one off in the kitchen sink and brought it back to the table. He
measured out what the briefcase had instructed him to, then folded down the top
of the packet.
The powder in the spoon smelled like yeast, though he
knew it wasn't. When it hit the watered-down fluid in the beaker, the minute
grains sparked off more luminous ions; the faint blue light tinged his hand as
he picked up the glass rod and stirred.
"Bottoms
up," said the briefcase.
The blue ionic discharge had died out, leaving clear
liquid again; Deckard supposed that meant the colloidal activation was
complete. A deity of some kind-hard to imagine it actually being that pathetic
double amputee-existed in the beaker. Or so it was to be believed. Deckard picked
up the container and took a sip.
Bitter on his tongue; he
managed to swallow. In his throat, he felt nothing, as though the liquid had
already
seeped into his tissues, heading for the first connections with his spine and
brain.
He drained the rest at one go, placing the empty
beaker on the table. Then he leaned back in the chair and waited.
It didn't take long.
She opened the door, a metal door like others through
which she had gone in her life . And stepped into the past.
I've been here, thought Sarah Tyrell. The smell of
ocean water, the salt of invisible tears, drifted through the canned
atmosphere. A snake of water, a leak curling underneath one of the
rubber-flanged seals, threaded down the corridor extending in front of her. The
metal door closed behind her with a sigh, its security mechanisms sealing her
with the interstellar ship's world. A world she didn't recognize from memory
but from dreams. Long, slow, empty dreams, from which she had always awakened
trembling, gazing up at the nightbound ceilings, blue light of moon and stars
like ice upon the skin of a frightened
child.
There were no stars here. No skies but the
rust-streaked silver metal above, that could almost be touched by her
fingertips if she reached as high as she could. If there was any memory of
that, it would be as a child's remembering. It
must've looked like a real sky to me-as far away as
any of the Earth on which her parents had been born, cloudless and unmarked by
time and the enveloping ocean's decay. Even when her father had carried her in
his arms, taking his infant daughter from one part of the Salander 3 to
another- surely he had done that, he must have carried her; Sarah didn't
remember, but she believed, or tried to-even then, what would that child of the
past have known about any world, any sky, other than this one?
The real sky, that grey realm of storms and ice-honed
winds, was far above her and the waves rolling over the Salander 3's hull. Her
faithful and demanding retinue, Wycliffe and Zwingli, were probably back on the
shore of Scapa Flow by now, the deserted town and looming cathedral at their
backs as they shared a thermos of coffee and waited for her to reemerge. Or if
night came on-a relativistic darkening in a zone as northern as the
Orkneys-without her returning back from underneath the waters, the two men
would likely retreat to the warmth and safety of the interplanetary yacht in
which they'd brought her to this place.
And what if I don't come back up? The thought had
occurred to her, even as the two men had rowed her across the Flow in a tiny,
primitive low-tech wooden boat, probably something they had found abandoned on
the shore. Out to the triangular opening of the shaft by which she would
descend to the Salander 3 and the past-she had watched them inexpertly manning
the oars, splashing more than actual rowing, yet still somehow managing to make
progress against the wind feathering the tops of the low waves. The last she
had seen of them-perhaps the last she would see-they had been bobbing in the
little boat, looking down at her as the shaft's hatch had irised shut, sealing
her in darkness until sensors had registered a human presence and flipped on a
faint dotted line extending down toward the Flow's depths and the scuttled
ships layered over the rocks. She supposed that if she didn't come back,
bearing all the secrets of the past in her seaweed-festooned arms-if the past
swallowed her whole, the way it had always threatened to, and didn't let her
go-then the two die-hard loyalists would
likely move on to Plan B for resurrecting the Tyrell
Corporation. She could imagine them winging their way off-planet, a whole
Mutt-and-Jeff routine in the cockpit area of the yacht:
Well, Mr.
Wycliffe, going into the past didn't seem to accomplish much. No, Mr. Zwingli,
it sure as hell
didn't .
Meanwhile, she'd be dead or worse, scuttled at the
bottom of the Flow along with the Imperial German Navy from the end of the
First World War. The little cage inside the shaft had gone on falling, through
fathoms and decades, until it had hit the bottom with a soft thump, and the
metal doors had opened to the interior of the Salander 3.
Sarah walked farther into the ship, toward the
corridor's branching junction. At the limit of her hearing, the sound of motors
switching on, somewhere deep in the craft's innards; air stirred and brushed
against her face as the programmed ventilation systems came to life. The
workings of her birthplace, the mechanical womb that had enclosed the softer
one of her mother, switched on as she passed by the triggering sensors, each
measuring and recording the blood warmth of her presence.
"Do we know you?" A
voice spoke softly from above her.
She glanced up at a round speaker grille set between
luminescent panels. She smiled, wondering where the optics were that focussed
on the slight movement of her facial muscles. "I don't think so."
"It's very puzzling," continued the ship's
autonomic computer. "I feel as though I should pick you up in my arms-if I
had arms-and rock you to sleep."
"I'm sure that would be very pleasant." She
wasn't being sarcastic; the desire rose in her to rest her head against the
shining corridor wall and close her eyes, drifting to sleep.
"There's a genotype file on you in my data
banks." The computer was still trying to puzzle it out. "That is,
there's a file that you match." The ventilation flow in the corridor
reversed for a second, as though the machinery behind the walls had taken
another sniff at her. "But you don't match it somehow. You're too
big."
The fussy, worrying voice reminded her of another one;
it took a moment for Sarah to remember. The calendar, she
thought; the one that had hung on the wall of the
hovel, out on Mars, that she'd lived in with Deckard. Or existed, at least.
It'd had the same solicitous manner programmed into its numbered pages. The
ship's computer had the advantage of being effectively invisible; she didn't
have to look at tacky postcard photos of rural Oregon.
"I'm all grown up," said Sarah. She gazed
around the empty corridor. "Since you saw me last. That's why. That's why
I'm different and the same."
"Oh no, child-that can't
be." The voice softly chided her. "For you to be different ...
different from what you were
or are The
computer displayed the same limited grasp of difficult concepts that she
remembered the calendar struggling with. "That would mean that time had
passed. Has passed. And that's just wrong, sweetheart. No time has passed. All
my clocks and chronos, they all say the same thing, the same as they always
have. Since we came back, I mean. No time, no time-nothing has passed. We don't
do that
here."
She felt sorry for the
computer, and by extension, the whole ship. It was doing the best it could. If
its maternal instincts were only electrons moving along wires and through
silicon, they still exceeded what could be found in most humans.
"I wasn't here." Sarah tried to explain. It
delayed having to go farther down the dimly lit corridor and finding . . . she
didn't know what. "I went outside you. I was taken out. Don't you
remember?" She had seen the photos in the company archives, and the ones
that her uncle had kept in the bottom drawer of the intricately wrought table
beside his canopied bed, so she could describe what had happened back then.
"The men came, and the nurse, and they took me away. When you-when we-came
back here to Earth. I was just a child then. That's how you remember me. That's
the ifie you have."
"Oh, sweetheart-I don't think I would've
forgotten that. You were such a pretty little thing." The ship's computer
lapsed into its own fond reel of memories. "Both of you were . .
The last
words puzzled Sarah. "What do you mean? Both what?"
No answer; silence rolled down
the corridor, a wave upon an unseen ocean.
Yet not perfect. In the distance, somewhere inside the
Salander 3, the sound of footsteps. Impact upon metal, then echoes, even
softer. Someone walking; it felt as though it were along the knots of her
spine, beneath her prickling flesh.
"Very funny," said Sarah. "That's a
good joke. You don't have to try so hard to amuse me." No reply came from
the speaker grille above her head. "I'm a big girl now."
The little
noises had faded away. The recirculated air sighed through the vents.
"Maybe
The voice of the ship's computer whispered, as though the round speaker
grille had come up next to her ear in a cold metal kiss. "Maybe you should
go home, little girl. You don't belong here. Not anymore. This isn't your home
.
"Yes, it is." Sarah's voice broke inside her
throat. With something close to astonishment, she touched her face and found a
tear rolling down her cheek, as though the surrounding salt ocean had broken
through some seal within her. "It is." The words sounded like a
child's, scared and clinging. "I don't have anywhere else to go."
The footsteps sounded again, the soft echo floating by
her ear. Closer, perhaps in the darkness at the end of the corridor.
"Go
anywhere, child. Anywhere but here . .
The realization had welled up inside her from spaces
just as dark, deep and hidden. The ocean rolled above, locking her tight within
this little bubble at the center of the universe. It is here, thought Sarah. It
has to be. If it wasn't, she was lost. More than she had ever dreamed or feared
possible.
Now she knew why she had come here. Why she had let
the two men with the eyes of her uncle talk her into it-if they had known, they
wouldn't have even bothered to. No argument or attempt at convincing needed;
all she'd had to do was realize what some part of her had always known, that
the day was coming when she'd be here in this place,
this little world, again. That part knew because it had never left.
"I won't go away," said Sarah. She looked
upward, as though she could find the computer's face. It didn't have one; all
she saw was the blank, curving metal that lined the ship's corridor. "You
can't make
me."
"No one can." The voice from the overhead
speaker sounded mired in the awareness of grief. "It's too late. Even
where there's no time, it's always too late." The voice shifted, as though
becoming part of a machine again. "Very well. Suit yourself. I won't try
to stop you."
Silence, as though the Salander 3's computer had shut
itself off, the circuitry going dead, the wires empty of whatever time-free
consciousness had lived in them. Silence encased in silence; the approaching
storm winds that stroked the waves of Scapa Flow had stilled themselves. That
was what it felt like to Sarah, buried beneath the waters. The subtle motions
of the currents had stopped rocking the ship's hull, leaving it without tremor
on the decayed hulks beneath it.
In that tomb quiet, she knew she should have been able
to hear the beat of her own heart, tapping under bone and flesh-but she
couldn't. She laid a hand on her breast, fingers slipping below the edges of
her coat. Nothing, even when her fingertips touched the bare skin at the base
of her throat; nothing but the cold chill that her body temperature had been brought
down to, as though seeking equilibrium with the ocean.
Sarah held out her hand, palm upward, far enough to
expose her pale wrist. The thin blue snake of her pulse was motionless as well,
stopped in the moment between one beat and the next.
Time; plenty of it, and none. That was what Wycliffe
and Zwingli had told her she would find, and what she'd known she would. The
toxicity of the depleted interstellar drives, the cumulative effects of the
ship's journey to the stars, building up in the hull and everything it held
even before the aborted expedition to the Proxima system; time had built up
here and couldn't be dissipated.
And what, wondered Sarah, is so toxic about that? She
stood in the Salander 3's central corridor, the doorway to the surface of that
other world, the one where things moved and happened in time, sealed behind
her. The way they had talked about it, not just Wycliffe and Zwingli but
everyone else, all the memos in the Tyrell Corporation files; toxic to lethal,
poison to death. It had suddenly struck her that perhaps they were wrong,
always had been. That here was eternal life, a resurrection that didn't even
need to be disinterred from its grave. All you had to do to find it . . . was
to die.
Another silence, another memory, rose inside her. Far
from here: a cabin, not more than a falling-down shack, in a forest silvered by
moonlight. With a black, glass-lidded coffin inside it, and inside that, a
woman either sleeping or dying or both. A woman with Sarah's face. That's why I
envied her, thought Sarah. Rachael had already died-the last little drawn-out
fragments of her curtailed life hardly mattered-and had entered that world
where there was no time, just memory. Deckard's memory, as he sat beside the
black coffin and gazed upon that which he loved, that which he'd been fated to
love, nailed down to that iron track of his desires. As long as he remembered
Rachael-and that was all he'd had left to do then-she'd never die.
Another world, another time; Sarah tried to push it
away from her thoughts. For a moment, she'd been there, the shadow of an owl
passing across her face, masking the stars that had glittered hard in the cold
night air. And another part of that same time, that memory: when she had told
him to say to her what he had said to Rachael, long before.
Say that you want me.
The memory didn't fade so much as it dissipated, like
a scrap of paper ignited and crumbling to black ash. Leaving her inside the
Salander 3 again, the cold metal walls close around her. The darkness at the
end of the corridor still lay ahead.
She walked past where the last
of the luminescent panels had flickered and gone out. How that could have
happened, she wasn't sure of; a strict logic would have taken that to indicate
the passage of time, the ship's component parts' ag
ing and wearing out. A thin shard of plastic crackled
beneath her footstep; she reached down and picked it up. Enough light filtered
down the corridor from where she had entered to show that what she held was a
fragment of the same translucent covering from the fixtures recessed overhead.
She reached up, standing on tiptoe; her outstretched fingertips caught hold of
a larger, sharper piece, one of several radiating from the plastic's center.
The panel, and the rest extending down the corridor, had been shattered,
rendered useless; as her vision adjusted to her dim surroundings, she could
make out the repeated damage.
Somebody did that, Sarah told herself. On purpose. It
had to have been done before the ship had landed back on Earth. The light
behind her was a retrofit, something that had been installed when the shaft to
the surface had been hooked up. From what Wycliffe and Zwingli had told her,
that was as far as anyone had gone into the Salander 3 since that long-ago day
when the dead bodies of her parents had been carried out. She found it hard to
believe that any of the Tyrell Corporation's employees had also had the time
and inclination then for this kind of vandalism. So it happened out there,
thought Sarah. Way out there. On the way to the Proxima system, or on the way
back from the Salander 3's aborted mission. Something had happened that was fit
only for the dark. Somebody had wanted it that way, lights out, darkness within
that greater darkness between the stars. There had only been two people, Ruth
and Anson Tyrell, aboard the Salander 3 when it had left Earth. And one human
presence, Sarah herself, a child, when it had returned. That tended to reduce
the number of possible suspects.
Unless the cat did it, she thought wryly. That furry
creature in her mother's arms in the old newspaper photo. The notion produced a
partial, humorless smile on her face. When pets go bad . .
The protection of irony wore thin and vanished; she
couldn't keep up that defense. Fear-driven nausea tightened her gut, dizzying
her. She had to lean her shoulder against the corridor's wall to keep from
falling.
Something
wet seeped through the sleeve of her coat,
touching her arm inside. She barely felt it. Something
as soft as the touch of another person's fingertip, even the same temperature,
warm as the substance within her own veins. Sarah pushed herself back from the
wall, her palm miring in the fluid thick upon it.
She looked at her hand. And
saw blood.
Ink-black in the corridor's partial light; knowing
what it was filled in the redness. Her thumb smeared it across her fingertips;
spreading them apart revealed the larger, irregular blot filling her palm. For
a moment, she wondered if it might be her own blood, if she had cut herself
accidentally on the broken plastic she had picked up, the sharp-edged fragment
from the smashed overhead lights. She could have wounded herself and not even
known it; she would've preferred that to any other possibility.
Not wanting to, she turned
slowly to one side. Dreading, Sarah forced herself to look at the corridor's
wall, to try to see what was there.
Words, a message. Big red letters, black . . . in the
darkness, she could no longer tell the difference. Enough light trickled down
the corridor, slid beneath her flinching eyelids and back to the farthest
spaces inside her skull-enough to make out the ragged shapes of the letters,
the scrawl reaching up higher than her own hand could reach, to the angle of
metal above.
This is craziness. Her own words, unspoken voice, to
herself. She knew that; everyone did. You found words written in blood, in big
smeary letters on the wall, when there were crazy people around. Bad crazy people,
the kind that hurt other people. And worse. Sometimes it was the crazy people's
own blood-another memory trip flashed through her head in a millisecond, a
buried one that kept coming back into the light where she didn't want it, a
memory that ended with her watching herself, standing just outside in true
schizoid fashion, as she had written her name in red exactly like this on the
mirror over a green-veined marble bathroom sink with golden faucets, her wrists
dripping into pinkly darkening water. That memory ended in blackout, as that
other Sarah she'd watched had fallen, hand smearing across the bloodied
mirror, as her uncle's doctors and security guards had
been breaking down the door. Crazy. But she still knew that most times, the
blood had been inside those other people, the ones who got hurt, cut instead of
cutting, the ones who weren't alive anymore. Crazy .
She stood back from the wall,
as far away from it as possible, in the middle of the lightless corridor. Far
enough away that she could read what it said, the edge of the distant glow
picking out the wet letters, the one word, the name, as a slow line trickled
from the bottom curve of the S to the floor.
SARAH
Her own name. As big and crazy as possible; not in a
bathroom mirror this time-in this time-but filling a whole wall, each letter
standing higher than herself. Written a long time ago, by the measurement of
the world outside, up above, where the grey waves rolled beneath the mounting
storm clouds. Written just now, in the now that never ended, could never end,
inside the Salander 3.
The voice of the ship's computer whispered inside her
head, a tape loop of what it had told her, warned her about, as she had walked
away from the light. Maybe you should go home, little girl. You don't belong
here .
She should have taken the
computer's advice. It had only been trying to protect her, just as it always
had. I should've listened; too late now, Sarah knew. She had come this far;
there could be no leaving until she had gone all the way to the end.
With a shudder arcing down her spine, she turned away
from the red-scrawled name on the wall. As she looked down the corridor again,
a light appeared, a tiny, flickering thing. Not at the height of her gaze, but
lower; she had to shield her eyes for a moment from what might have been a
flashlight beam turned straight at her.
The beam shifted away, toward the floor; Sarah lowered
her hand. Light shimmered on liquid. The thought came to her that the ship was
slowly flooding with water; the sealing mechanisms had broken loose, jarred by
nothing but her footsteps, or the hatch to the shaft behind her hadn't closed
properly, letting the Flow's waters seep in. A dark
expanse stretched in front of her, covering the floor; the breath of the ship's
ventilation system stirred a shimmering ripple across the surface.
But it wasn't seawater; she had known that as well,
and couldn't deny it to herself, when the red trickle from the word on the wall
reached the bottom of the wall. The red line, running down from the big smeared
S of her name, merged with the dark pool and was the same color, the same
substance, black in darkness, red in her knowing.
The glow from the flashlight, or the lantern or
whatever it was, reflected from the small lake of blood, faintly illuminating
the figure on the other side. She could see the person now.
"Hello," spoke the child, in a child's
unafraid, curious voice. "Did you just get here?"
Sarah said nothing, then slowly shook her head. "No," she
managed to say. "Perhaps. I don't know."
"I don't know, either."
The light wavered across the surface of the blood,
sending the child's shadow fluttering behind her. Sarah's eyes made their final
adjustment to the dark, revealing a little more of the image across from her. A
little girl, perhaps ten years old, no more than that; dark hair falling to her
thin shoulders, dark, serious eyes. A beautiful child who would grow more
beautiful. No, Sarah reminded herself. Would have grown. Someplace where time
moved.
"But The
girl looked up shyly, through her long black lashes. "You can stay here if
you want to. I don't
mind."
Sarah felt her heart tightening under her breast; a
pulse would have shattered it to pieces. Not real, thought Sarah. She closed
her eyes, taking the child from her vision for a moment. She's a ghost. That
was the toxic effect of this place. The past didn't die and go away, as it
should. You see things. That didn't exist, except in memory and the past.
"I'll stay," said Sarah. "For a little
while, at least."
The little girl couldn't keep from smiling. "What's your
name?"
"It's Sarah. That's all."
A puzzled look shaded the girl's eyes. "Like
that?" She glanced over her shoulder to the bloodied wall, then
back to the girl. "That's right." She
nodded. "What's yours?" The same shy smile appeared. "It's
Rachael," said the image of the little girl. "My name's Rachael."
A Spanish-language double bill was playing at the
Million Dollar Theater. The same movies had been playing there forever, or
seemingly so; the management never changed the plastic letters on the marquee.
They just let the red plastic letters fall off one by one, hitting the
rain-soaked sidewalk and lying there like cryptic messages underneath the
sizzling broken neon. The hot blue colors ran crazy on the wet street,
reflected in every puddle and gutter, upside down and backwards-who could
tell?-and legible as the fire-tinged storm clouds rolling across the L.A. night
sky.
Christ, thought Rick Deckard. This is a fake. A real
good fake, better than the sets and stages and all the
other phony rigging at the Outer Hollywood studios. As
real-looking as it'd ever gotten there-with accurate rain piped over and
drizzling down on walkable streets colored with the same intricate lights and
electricity-still, all you'd had to do was look past the camera lenses and the
show was over, illusion shattered. This false Los Angeles was a better job-dehy
drated deities lived up to their advance billing, as
far as he was concerned; no wonder people got into them-but it was still just
as much a fake as any other. Perhaps even as much as the real one back on
Earth.
He looked up at the garish marquee as he walked down
the center of the empty street. The effects of downing the beaker loaded with
the colloidal suspension, activated by a spoonful of the Sebastian packet's
contents, were still setting in on him. For a few minutes-though it was hard to
gauge the passage of time in a place that didn't exist-he had been able to see
both the hovel's interior, with the tap still dripping into the kitchen-area
sink and the briefcase with Batty's voice lying on the table, and the
lineaments of this pocket universe, like two photo transparencies laid on top
of each other. He'd even been able to see himself, his legs sprawled out, his
hand resting on the table beside the empty beaker he'd just slapped down, as
another perception of his body, standing not sitting, wearing the long
pseudo-trenchcoat he'd always affected in L.A., had disorientingly faded into
his consciousness. The Deckard body sitting in the hovel on Mars had faded out,
the first thing in that other universe to go. The one in the pocket universe
had tilted his head back, getting the grey-tinged rain in his face and seeing
past the roiling clouds to sectors of hard-edged needle-tip stars, with gouts
of flame bursting beneath them. Deckard figured the stars were as fixed in
place as the heavy, dark clouds, indicators of this L.A. 's eternal night.
Dicking around with time like that was the main
indicator of the pocket universe's fake status. A night that never ended-though
the real L.A. had often felt like that to him- and little anachronisms. Right
down to the Million Dollar's marquee above his head; that was a fragment from
the past, something vanished from the real world. This whole tenblock sector of
the city's decaying downtown had been levelled by urban-renewal terrorists to
drive out the last squatter tribes some time after Deckard and Sarah had gone
off-planet; news footage of the mini-nuked buildings had shown up on the
Martian cable's nightly clown-wrap. Even on the tiny video screen in the hovel,
he'd been able to recog
nize the old movie palace's
curling ornaments, lifeless and unlit in the rubble.
The news clip hadn't shown the old Bradbury Building,
across from the transplanted theater, or what had been left of it-Deckard had
assumed that even if there'd been no explosive charges planted there, the
concussion from the surrounding blasts would've knocked the structure over; the
place had been falling into plaster dust and splintering support beams when
he'd been inside it. All the old intricate wrought-iron balustrades and open
stairwells, the clanking antique of an elevator and its cage, the grand fabric
of early twentieth-century business enterprise fallen on hard times- the
building had looked like some kind of vertical mausoleum when he'd tracked the
last of his quarry in there, the replicant Batty and the psychotic would-be
replicant Pris. He'd gotten the shit kicked out of himself there as well, by
Pris and the nonhuman Batty in turn. But as somebody else had said an even
longer time ago, the race wasn't always to the swift; they had died and he was
still alive, both in this world and the other one, the real one.
Though he didn't feel too swift at the moment; a wave
of nausea rolled up in his throat, the hallucinated city street blurring and
thinning to insubstantiality for a few seconds. The colloidal suspension, the
deity stirred from a dry powder to a potentiated liquid, was still asserting
its hold on his central nervous system. His perceptions, what his flesh and
mortal eyes were gazing upon inside the hovel, were being overridden by . . .
what Sebastian saw. After all, thought Deckard. It's his world. Whatever he was
now.
Deckard turned away from the movie theater and toward
the building directly across the street. It looked the same as when he'd seen it
last, in the real world, in the real L.A. Complete with the fat-bellied
swirling columns that had been grafted onto the original structure in an
ill-advised attempt to evoke some kind of pseudo-Arabic multiculturalism, and
that had only resulted in the same kind of bastard kitsch the city had always
been known for. The other added ornamentation was the wadded-up trash in the
entranceway, the same rain-soaked pile of unidentifiable rubbish that the wet
windsstacked up against every Angeleno doorway. He picked his way through the
mess, greasy food wrappers tangling against his ankles, then drifting away to
the empty, glistening street.
That was the other fake thing. Even more so than the
sets up in the Outer Hollywood station; at least there, extras had crowded the
action, simulating the restless urban population. Here, in Sebastian's pocket
universe, the streets were devoid of any human, or close-to-human, activity. As
depopulated as this zone had been in the real L.A., there had still been some
life stirring about, even if only dwarf scavengers climbing over his police
spinner, trying to unbolt the roof-mounted air filters. If this place was
Sebastian's show, he'd made it a private one. Believers only, thought Deckard.
Or at least just communicants. The little guy had obviously never had much use
for other people, or at least not for anything other than the autonomic toy
friends he'd manufactured for himself. And Pris; but that'd been true love.
Deckard shoved the building's front door with the fiat
of his hand; it swung into darkness. The colored light from the movie theater
marquee seeped past him, picking out small details-brass handrails still
recognizable under layers of dirt and tarnish, rain puddling and spilling from
one open floor to the next-in the cavernous space. He stepped inside, letting
the door fall shut behind him, sealing out the street sector of the
hallucinated world.
He stood in the middle of the space looking upward.
What he saw produced a partial smile, one constructed of both irony and
grudging admiration. Too perfect, thought Deckard. Through the building's
broken roof, past the levels of iron-grilled walkways, beams of shifting light
penetrated the darkness like the radiance of magnified stars falling from the
fixed spheres in which this little world was enclosed. The lights came from the
blimp, the old U.N. advertising vessel with its billboard viewscreen and spiky
antennae, looking as though it were some kind of sea creature that had inflated
itself enough to rise up in the air.
Squinting against the slants of light, Deckard could
just barely see the blimp's shape cruising in absurd majesty above the building
and the surrounding streets, the Euro-hybrid geisha face on the viewscreen
smiling with a mute guardian angel's uncommunicable wisdom. Sebastian had
brought that back as well, another fixture for his pocket universe; in the real
world, the real L.A., the blimp was gone, taken out by a mortar round from
rep-symp fringe terrorists. Deckard himself had seen the blimp go down in flames,
a latter-day Hindenburg, something even the most blase or stoned L.A. citizens
had had their attention caught by. A nonevent for Sebastian, though; he'd
already been living out in the sideways zone's wasteland, with his
patched-together Pris, so he'd missed all that. This urban concoction was the
L.A. that Sebastian had known before he'd left.
Rain from the building's leaking roof sluiced down the
brass handrail that Deckard grasped. As he looked up the flight of stairs,
their treads rotted to creaking sponges, his other hand moved inside his coat.
From force of habit, old ingrained cop ways, as well as from the memory of when
he'd been here in long-ago reality. His fingers were searching for his gun,
that great black metal weight, a hammer as big and effective as a cannon; they
found nothing but lint and a rip in his shirt, through which his sweat-moist
flesh could be felt. He drew his hand back out, empty. He would've felt better
with even a hallucinated weapon in his grasp, but he wasn't surprised that such
things had been edited out of Sebastian's universe.
The last traces of the other world, the hovel where
his real body was sitting without consciousness, blindly watched over by the
talking briefcase, had faded away. This world had locked in tight; he could
feel the wet steps yielding beneath, the rail's cold metal chill against his
palm. The smell of rust and crumbling plaster, the stink of decades-old pigeon
shit, mired in his breathing. A mist-smeared shaft of light from the blimp
above the building crossed over his face, then cut a diagonal through the empty
lobby he'd left behind.
"Sebastian!" He called out, voice loud in
the building's silence, as he mounted to the floor where the genetic engineer
had kept his suite of rooms.
Deckard looked down the open walkway to the tall double doors, one of them
pushed slightly ajar. No answering voice came. From somewhere past the doors, a
wavering light fell, as though from a lit candelabra. "Anybody there?"
He knew there had to be. As empty as the building
felt, with its vacant spaces and nailed-down shadows, there was still another
human presence inside it. Or something slightly different from human, something
imbedded in the walls and pockmarked floor tiles. You 'i'e walking around in
his head, Deckard told himself. Or as good as. Remember that.
At the double doors, halfway down the walkway, the
silence was broken by a drip of rain into the puddle that had formed in front
of the sill. The water rippled like a softly broken mirror as Deckard stepped
into its center and pushed one of the doors all the way open. Flickering
candlelight brushed against his face as he gazed across the high-ceilinged room
within.
Toys; he remembered them from that time when he had
tracked Pris and the replicant Batty to this spot. There had been a pocket
universe for Sebastian even then, a little world that he had created for
himself, and this place was it. His refuge, a child's refuge, from the hurtful,
bustling world of grown-ups, everybody bigger than him, everybody who wasn't
dying from a galloping progeria, the accelerated decrepitude that had turned
him into a wrinkled, fading nonadult. L.A. wasn't a city for children; no
wonder Sebastian had been dying in it. If he hadn't built this hiding place for
himself, his small corpse would have been trampled in the streets.
Past the candles guttering in their branched silver
settings, Deckard saw torn, gauzy curtains drifting in an unfelt breeze, their
ragged ends trailing across the nearest mannequins and stuffed animals.
Whatever contents of Sebastian's head hadn't spilled out to reenvision the L.A.
street and the decaying building were exposed here, like some soft, babyish
army. Glass eyes stared at nothing or were reflected in gilt mirrors with
ornate frames, the inert photo-receptors switched off or robbed of batteries.
When Pris, on the run with the escaped replicants she had thought she was one
of, had disguised herself as one of Sebastian's mechanical creations, a
leotarded bridal doll with a veil draped over her strawlike hair, she had
finally achieved the nonhuman apotheosis her cracked brain had been seeking all
along. To be a thing, a killing thing or a loved one; it didn't matter.
One of the mannequins stirred, fat clown of ambiguous
gender; it croaked out a woman's laugh as the rubbery wattled neck shook,
white-painted face tilting back. Stubby fingers pawed the air like pale
anemones brought up from ocean shallows.
Deckard halted in the center of the room, forcing his
breath to a measured pace, pushing back an emergent claustrophobia. The place
would've seemed uncomfortably close, crammed with too much junk-disassembled
tube radios and thrift shop antiques and patzer chess pieces, all the hobby
collectibles of a perpetually dying, too-clever child-even if there hadn't been
unpleasant memories filling up the unoccupied areas. He'd come close to getting
killed here, twice in rapid succession, first by crazy Pris,
then by the even loonier replicant Batty; the human
original he'd met up with later, the one whose cerebral contents were stored in
the talking briefcase, had been a piece of cake by comparison.
His fingers ached, not just for the want of a soothing
gun-not that the real weapon had been much use here, the real here-but from old
wounds; the replicant Batty had broken fingers as easily as snapping twigs. The
fingers had healed badly, aching when provoked by shifts in weather or the
pressure of memory.
The laughing clown's barking noise suddenly shrilled
up another octave, the rubber hands jerking even more spasmodically above the
fright-wigged head. Deckard stepped away from the device, watching as a shudder
of ill-meshed gearing ran through its frame. The clown suddenly froze, the
garish face paralyzed in a rictus of manic hilarity; the room's silence
congealed once more as a wisp of black, burntrubber smoke trailed out of the
parted mouth.
Another face appeared, popping up from behind the
stricken clown. "Oh ... hi." The black cloth covering the device's
workings was draped over Sebastian's shoulders; his moist-eyed gaze, still set
in the wrinkled flesh of his aging disease, blinked at Deckard. "I didn't
hear you come in. I was busy working on this old thing, trying to get it
running again." He laid a wrinkled, protective hand on the clown's
shoulder. "It's a real keeper; used to be in an old amusement park and
stuff."
"No, it didn't."
Deckard shook his head. "It's not even real. Nothing here is."
"Well ... yes and no." Grease marked
Sebastian's hands; he rubbed them against his trousers. "Real in the
what's-it, uh, Platonic sense." With an extended forefinger, he poked at
one of the clown's eyes, getting its line of vision to match the other.
"This is the idea of the physical manifestation, of what came from the
amusement park. Ideas are real things, too." Sebastian's voice went on the
defensive. "Just as much as all that stuff . . . you know . . . out
there." He nodded toward the room's high, arched window, but it was clear
that he meant someplace farther away than the visible street. "Where you
just came
from."
"That's why it's called the real world,"
said Deckard. "And this isn't." He gestured toward the other man.
"In the real world, you didn't have legs. Not anymore."
"Yeah." Sebastian nodded slowly. "I had
to get rid of them out there." His expression brightened. "But here-
'cause this is my world-I figured I should have 'em again. And I was right!
They come in real
handy."
"Should've given yourself a second pair of arms. Be even more
convenient."
"Oh, they told me I could do that if I wanted-"
"Who's 'they'?" Deckard peered closer at the short-statured
image.
A matter-of-fact response came from Sebastian.
"The repsymps. When they did this for me. You know, what they call
'dehydrated'? Only it's not dehydrated at all; that's just a slang term. Same
way with being a deity; I don't feel like one." He smiled shyly. "I
just feel like myself. The fact that they were able to do me over, to take what
was left of me and turn it into a polymerized sensorial override encapsulate-
that's the technical term for the process-it doesn't change anything. Real or
not."
Deckard gazed around the overstuffed room, then back
to his host. "There's one big difference here," he said quietly.
"You don't have to die here. The way you were on the outside."
"Well, I could if I wanted to. Anything's
possible." Sebastian placed a hand against the front of his coveralls.
"I could make this whole body go away. I mean, it could just crumple up
and blow out the window like dust. But
He looked across the silent dolls and toys. "There's enough of me
left in all this-it's all me, actually-so I guess I'd still be here. In spirit,
kinda." Sebastian frowned, as though trying to puzzle the situation out.
"Like that old bit-did you ever hear about it when you were a kid?-about
splitting an apple and finding God in the seed. So maybe I am some kind of
deity, like all those genuine name-brand ones that you get in those little
packets. Huh."
Deckard felt sorry for him,
the same as he had long ago, in the real world. "Yeah, maybe you
are."
"You shoulda seen it, though, when I first got
here and I was joking around and stuff." The moist eyes glittered with
excitement. "I made myself ten feet tall! Always wanted to be." A
forefinger pointed up. "Hit my head on the ceiling, though, so it wasn't
really practical. Guess I coulda made the room bigger, though-but then it
wouldn't have been the same as before. And that was the way I wanted it. Just the
same. And with my little friends, too." He shouted past Deckard.
"Hey, Colonel! And Squeaker-come on out here. We've got company."
A glance over his shoulder, and Deckard saw two even
smaller figures, an ornately uniformed teddy bear and a long-nosed toy soldier,
waddle-marching from one of the other rooms. The bear's button eyes fixed on
Deckard with evident suspicion; the soldier's spine went rigid, as though the
automaton was considering its courses of action.
"Now, come on, fellas. Be
nice." Sebastian waggled his finger, stained with black grease, at them.
"Mr. Decker isn't going to do anything to hurt us. He can't, anyway, even
if he wanted to. Least, I don't think he can." The watery eyes peered at
him. "Can you?"
Deckard
shook his head. "No. Not anymore."
The toy companions weren't convinced; the bear emitted
a soft growl. "Foo," said the soldier. "He's not a nice
man."
"I'm sure, Colonel, he's as nice as he can be.
Mr. Decker hasn't had as easy a life as we have. As I have." Tilting his
head to one side, Sebastian regarded his guest thoughtfully. "He doesn't
have real good friends like I do. He's all alone. Aren't you?"
"Not alone enough." Time might not be
ticking along in this room-like everything else, that might have been left
outside in the real world-but Deckard knew that there was at least one other
person waiting for him somewhere. Unfinished business, his mutual fate with
Sarah lyrell still to be worked out. "But I can
deal with it."
A shrug from Sebastian.
"Suit yourself. That's your pocket universe. The one inside your
head."
"What about you?"
The other's low-rent holiness had irritated Deckard, bringing out a mean streak
he didn't feel like concealing. "Your little buddies really enough company
for you?"
"Sure-"
Sebastian looked suddenly nervous, picking up on the edge of hostility in the
dust-moted air. "They always were. They had to be."
"What
about Pris?" Deckard felt his own thin smile appear. "Where's
she?"
The childlike innocence flashed out of Sebastian's
face, as though the switch on one of his mechanical toys had been thrown.
Replaced by something both hotter and darker, that could be seen like
black-enameled metal at the center of the man's eyes. "That's not any of
your business, Mr. Decker." His hard, annihilating stare could have bored
holes through real-world skin and flesh. "You don't have any right to ask
about that."
"Just a simple question." Deckard's turn to
give a shrug. "You don't have to answer. It's your world, remember."
That world trembled in sympathetic connection to its
creator. Plaster dust sifted from a network of cracks that suddenly shot like
negative lightning across the water-stained ceiling. The crystal attachments to
the candelabra and unlit chandeliers rattled, as though the fault lines beneath
the real L.A. had been duplicated here.
"Stop!" Another voice shrilled from the
opposite side of the room. "Stop that!" The toy soldier shook his
tiny fists in the air, as high as the point on his spiked helmet. "Let him
alone!" Beside the soldier, the uniformed teddy bear stamped its feet,
anger sufficient to have caused this earth's tremors. "Wicked, wicked,
wicked!"
"No, fellas ... don't Face wet with tears,
Sebastian held one palm outward as he sank into a carved wooden chair.
"It's all right .
The teddy bear attacked first, the tassels of its
epaulets shaking as it locked stubby arms around Deckard's leg, the round face
nuzzling a muffled growl against the long coat's lower edge. Deckard peeled the
animated creature from himself, hoisting it up just long enough to pitch it
against the approaching toy soldier. Both of Sebastian's automatons sprawled
into a corner; the soldier burst into whimpers of frustration.
"Don't hurt them Leaning forward, Sebastian grabbed hold
of Deckard's sleeve. "It's not their fault. They're just doing what I
programmed them to do. They're just trying to protect me .
Deckard looked down at the weeping man. "From
what?" An old, deeply buried cop circuit linked inside Deckard's brain,
producing the almost shamefully cruel satisfaction that came with doing the job
well. This might have been Sebastian's world, his little private pocket
universe, but Sebastian didn't control it any longer. I do, thought Deckard.
Things had to be broken before the things they concealed could be seen, out in
the open. Now he could find out what he needed to know. "Protecting you
from
what?"
Sebastian took a deep, shuddering breath, drawing
himself upright. "Oh ... everything, I guess. I don't know." He made
a visible effort to calm himself down, the fragile body
parts drawn together by an invisible string.
"Nothing, really." His trembling fingers wiped the last tears from
his eyes. He looked up at Deckard. "I mean that. From nothing. She's not
here."
"Pris?
Why not?"
"I just don't know Sebastian morosely shook his head. "I
tried to make her be here-you know, the way I made Colonel Fuzzy and Squeaker
Hussar just be the way they were before." He pointed to the bear and the
toy soldier, who had sullenly withdrawn into a corner of the room. "I
should've been able to do that. This is my world, isn't it? The rep-symps put
me here, they made me a dehydrated deity, they
gave me all this . . . I should be able to have what I
want, shouldn't I?" "I suppose so." Deckard nodded. "Whatever
you want."
"But I just couldn't make it be that way. I tried
and tried, but it just wouldn't happen. That's really why I didn't change
anything, why I kept it all the way it was before. Look-" Sebastian jumped
up from the chair, ran to one of the tall windows and yanked its gauzy curtain
to one side. "I got that right, didn't I?" His finger stabbed toward
the dark, rain-drizzled urban landscape below. "That's the street, isn't
it? Just the way it was."
Another
slow nod from Deckard.
"And all this. The building and everything."
The small man turned around in the center of the room, hands upraised to
indicate all its contents and the spaces beyond. "I know I got all this
right. I lived here so long, not here but out there, out in the real world-this
was my world. I just had to make it all over again. And I did."
Deckard watched him and
listened. He felt even sorrier for the poor little bastard. He'~s finding out.
The same things that Deckard had found out, had learned and written on the
charred scroll of his heart. There were some things you couldn't bring back.
You could grieve for them, and that was all.
"But Pris
Sebastian looked puzzled, as if he was about to start crying again.
"When I got done, she still
wasn't
here. She was supposed to be-I made it that way- but she wasn't."
Deckard knew why Sebastian, the deity of this pocket
universe, had failed. He wondered if he should tell him.
"I
tried and tried-"
"Look," said Deckard. "It's not going
to happen. Why don't you just give up on that? You've got your memories.
Those'll have to do."
A big sigh from Sebastian rendered him even smaller
and more fragile. "I know. I know you're right." His shoulders
slumped in desolation. He looked hollowed out, insubstantial, as though the
contents of his skin had been converted to loose atoms and exhaled; another
night breeze coming through the windows might have blown him away entirely.
"There's a reason for it. Why she's not here."
"You
don't have to talk about this if you don't want to. That's not why I came
here."
"Of course not. You've got important business to
take care of. Still Sebastian turned back to the silent and motionless clown
mannequin. He lifted the black cloth covering its mechanical innards; from one of
his coverall pockets, he took a yellow-handled screwdriver and poked at the
meshing gears. "Like I said, I know why. Or to put it another way, kinda,
it's because of what I don't know. About Pris." He extracted some small
part from the workings and studied it between his thumb and forefinger. "I
mean, I know all about something like this. And all the other stuff I
got." Still holding the metal piece, Sebastian gestured toward the room's
contents. "And the building, and the street outside, and the whole city
even . . . I know what those are. So I've got 'em the right way inside my head,
and so I could make 'em be here, the way they were before, out there. You know,
in the real world. But with Pris He
leaned close to the clown's workings, screwing the little part back into place.
"I thought I knew what she was. But maybe I was wrong."
Deckard said nothing. For a moment, the room and all
the empty spaces around it were silent, except for the touch of
rain upon the window glass and the corridors' pools of
dark water.
"Do you think, Mr. Decker, that that's
possible?" Sebastian's gaze, sharper beneath the constant moistness, like
a
knife under blurry water,
fastened onto him. "You think I could've got it all wrong?"
i'm glad you're here," said the little girl. She
reached up and took Sarah's hand, and gave her a shy, pretty smile. "I was
getting kind of lonely. All by myself .
Poor little thing, thought Sarah. She~s not even real.
The notion of ghosts and shadows, and all other unreal things, suffering from
loneliness, the same way she always had, now weighted her down with an
inescapable sadness. If this little girl-or the little girl that she saw, a
temporary incarnation of memory and the past that was all jumbled up inside the
Salander 3-if she could feel lonely, then loneliness was some sort of universal
constant, like gravity or the speed of light. Everything in the world, this one
or any other, was made, at least in part, of it.
The little girl's dark hair, dark as Sarah's own, was
pulled back into a long braid tied with a red ribbon at the end. The girl-the
image, the ghost, the hallucination-didn't draw away as Sarah felt the ribbon's
thin substance between her fingertips. The ribbon felt real enough, and even touched
by
the
passage of time; it looked old, faded and frayed, the gossamer threads coming
loose at the edges.
"Did you do that?" Sarah spoke gently to the
little girl, as though any harsh word might have dispersed her from even this
illusory existence, like a hand brushed through a curl of smoke. "Or did
somebody here fix your hair for you?"
"I
can do it." The girl spoke with affronted dignity. "If I want to. But
usually I let the nanny do it."
"The nanny? What
nanny?"
"You know." The girl, still holding Sarah's
hand, used a nod of her head to indicate the corridor walls and hidden
machinery of the ship. "The things that take care of you. That's their
job. But they don't have to do so much for me anymore-I'm not a baby now. But
it makes them happy if they can do things, so sometimes I let them."
Sarah knew what the girl was talking about. The
Salander 3 's computer was still silent, as though they had left its voice
behind them as they had walked farther through the ship's interior. But she
could sense the pseudo-life imbedded in the structure of the vessel, the flow
of electrons, the activation of solenoids, the meshing of gears; all the tiny
functions that had been programmed into the lifeless metal and silicon. That
had, she knew, kept her alive as well; that had been her nursemaid all the way
back to Earth, so many years ago. When the Salander 3 had turned back from its
voyage to the Proxima system, and had returned with two human corpses and one
living child as its only passengers-the computer and its most delicate
manipulators hadn't tied any red ribbons, but it had done everything necessary
to preserve the real life that had been left in its charge.
Their steps, hers and the little girl's, had led them
farther into the Salander 3; Sarah had wanted to get away from the pool of
blood near which she had found her illusory companion. The girl had seemed to
pick up on Sarah's queasiness; she had led the way, her hand in Sarah's hand,
past the entrances of other corridor branches, down which had been visible
other scrawled markings on the walls in the same wet red that looked black in
the overhead fluorescents' partial spectrum. Only when they reached a section
of the ship that had escaped whatever violence had rolled through the other
enclosed spaces-it seemed to be some kind of storage area; crates and boxes
with stenciled lettering lined the sides-had Sarah been able to draw her breath
and speak again.
She halted, turning the little girl to face her.
"Tell me," said Sarah. "And you have to tell me the truth, the
real truth." She knelt down, so that her gaze was on the same level as the
girl's. "Is your name really
Rachael?"
"Of course." The
girl gazed back at her, somber and unblinking. "What else would it
be?"
Sarah didn't answer. The girl's image stepped from a
mere optical perception to something else, which moved through other dark
corridors, the ones inside her own memories. She knew what the girl reminded
her of: one of the photographs that had been inside her uncle's desk, the
ornately carved and gilded bureau plat in his vast and lofty-ceilinged office
suite in L.A., that she had inherited along with every other object belonging
to the 'I~rrell Corporation. The photograph had been of herself, taken when she
had been about the same age, ten years old or so, as the girl who stood before
her now. She couldn't remember when the photo had been taken, though she
supposed it had been in Zurich, in the expensive, conventlike boarding school
where her uncle had lodged his orphan niece as soon as she'd been old enough
for it; the girl in the picture had been wearing the stiff-collared uniform
that had itched so badly through her thin white stockings.
There had been something else in that old photograph.
Her hair had been pulled back, the same as this little girl's, but without a
ribbon of any color, or else it just hadn't been caught by the camera. And
bangs, thought Sarah; she'd had bangs when she'd been ten years old, combed
down to a half inch above her eyebrows. Whereas this little girl had hers
parted at one temple, then brushed slanting across her forehead. That was
different; but the face . . . the face was the same. Sarah could see that,
calling up the photograph in her memory and comparing it with the child in
front of her. The same dark eyes, the same incipient beauty, the fragile paleness.
And something else, deeper and more hidden, yet obvious to see. That sadness,
even when the little girl smiled, even when that vanished Sarah in the old
photograph had smiled, shy and hesitant. Exactly the same.
That proves it, thought Sarah. It didn't make her any
happier to know that the little girl she knelt before and in whose dark eyes
she saw her own grown-up face mirrored was a ghost, a hallucination, a temporal
anomaly. Something that the toxic effects of the Salander 3's depleted
interstellar drives had conjured up out of the jumbled past held inside the
curved metal. Or out of my head-that must be what the little girl's name meant.
Rachael. Where else would she have gotten it? Straight out of Sarah's own
memories and desires; Sarah had even called herself Rachael, had tried to be
Rachael, back when she had thought she could replace, the original for the copy,
the replicant that Deckard had loved. Fm going crazy down here, thought Sarah.
Or crazier. Wycliffe and Zwingli had told her it was a poisonous environment;
they hadn't been lying. She had the proof of that in front of her eyes, or in
the trenches of her misfiring central nervous system, wherever a hallucination
like this could be said to exist at all.
Sarah stood up. "Your name's not Rachael,"
she said coldly. The little girl frowned. "Yes, it is. I know my own
name."
"Your name is She took a
deep breath, fighting against a wave of fatigue that had suddenly risen inside
her. "Nothing. Nothing at all."
"That's silly. How can somebody be called
nothing?"
"It's easy. If she doesn't exist."
"Speak for yourself," the child said with an adult's dignity.
"I know I exist. What's your problem?"
"Let's not go into that now." She rubbed the
corner of her brow. "Your name's Sarah. Just the same as mine."
The girl
laughed scornfully. "That's just stupid. How can we both have the same
name?"
"Because you and I are the same person." She
wondered why she was trying to explain this to an illusion. "In a way,
that is. You're part of me. You're just something that came out of my head.
You're not real, except to the degree you're something that my subconscious put
together out of my memories."
"You're the one who's not real." The child's
mood had quickly changed to sullen. "I never saw you before. I've been
here a long, long time, all by myself. Then you show up and you start saying
awful things." She glared darkly at Sarah. "Where did you come from
anyhow?"
"From far, far away." One of Sarah's hands
made a vague gesture toward the ship's walls and everything that lay beyond.
"From someplace where there's light and time and
all sorts
of useful things."
"No The
girl studied Sarah, then reached out and grabbed her hand, more roughly than
she had taken it before. She peered intently at Sarah's palm, the veins and
sinews of her wrist. The girl shook her head, the braid brushing against her
shoulders. "You came from here." She sounded puzzled. "I can
tell. You're made of the same stuff. As me." The sharp gaze moved up to
Sarah's face. "But you weren't here before. I don't get it."
She~s right, mused Sarah. I am from here. This had
been where she had been born, though then it had been out among the stars
instead of at the bottom of Scapa Flow. Not that it makes any difference-Sarah
looked around at the stacked crates and the silvery walls behind them. The
ventilation's breeze carried scrubbed and filtered molecules to her lungs, the
same canned air she had been born breathing. Like coming home, she thought.
"Maybe that's what I should do." Sarah spoke
aloud, almost forgetting the other perceived presence standing next to her.
"I should just forget about all that other stuff-"
"What
other stuff?" The child had noticed the drift of attention, and tugged on
Sarah's hand.
"Everything else. Up there." She gestured
with a toss of her head. "Out in that other world, the one you don't know
anything about." How could she? Sarah reminded herself. She doesn't even
exist. "Perhaps it'd be a good idea to just forget about that world."
"You
made it sound kind of nice." Puzzled again, the girl stared at her.
"Light and stuff. It's dark a lot
here."
"It's dark a lot up there, too." Sarah
couldn't keep a trace of bitterness from filtering into her voice.
"Believe me; I'd know." A long hallway lined with doors ran down the
length of her memories to that vanishing point beyond which it was useless to
go. She kept all the doors carefully locked, though she knew exactly what was
behind each one of them. And sometimes the locks didn't work, and the doors
opened, whether she wanted them to or not. "And ... you've got enough
here. To see your way." She wondered whether the Salander 3 's batteries
would ever run down, or whether the ship was sufficiently mired in time that
the lights would stay on forever, whether the ventilation system would go on
sighing through the corridors. Maybe not; there were probably some laws of
physics that would be contravened thereby. She didn't care; she wouldn't even
mind living in the dark down here, breathing whatever stale air remained, over
and over again. Perhaps this was what she had been looking for, why she had let
Wycliffe and Zwingli convince her to come down here. A return to the womb . . .
or to the grave. She didn't care which. "You've got plenty," she whispered,
eyes closed. "More than enough of what you need .
"Well
... I don't want to stay here." The voice of the little girl made a sour
announcement. "It sucks."
"Why do you say that?" Sarah opened her
eyes. "Wouldn't you like to stay here forever? As long as I did,
too?" She tried to give the child a friendly smile. "We could have
little tea parties, just the two of us. And we could sleep in the same bed, if
you wanted. All warm." The ocean could cradle them to their dreams,
supposed Sarah. If there were any need for dreams in a place like this.
"Wouldn't that be nice?"
"No." The little girl scowled, face
darkening as though the shadows had crept out from behind the boxes on either
side. "It's creepy and scary down here. I've been scared the whole time I
can remember. Which is always."
"Why? What's to be scared
of?"
"There's others down here." The Rachael
child's voice dropped to a whisper. "Others who aren't nice."
"I thought you were the only one-until I came
here." The way the little girl spoke had raised chill, prickling flesh on
Sarah's arms. "That's why you were so lonely."
"You sure don't know very much." The
brooding, apprehensive look hadn't vanished from the girl's face. "Don't
you know? That you can be alone even when there's other things around
you?"
The emphasized word made Sarah
wonder. She had said things, not people-what did that mean?
"Look. I don't need to be
lectured by some piece of my own subconscious. Especially about the nature of
being alone-"
"Shh! Be quiet!" The
Rachael child grabbed Sarah's arm with both hands, squeezing tight. "There
they are! Don't you hear them?"
"Who? What?" The child's evident terror
jolted Sarah's spine rigid. She looked over her shoulder, in the direction from
which she and the Rachael child had come. "I don't-"
Then she did. The sounds of footsteps, not the little
girl's, as she heard when she had first entered the ship. But louder and
heavier, echoing from the distance and down the Salander 3's metal corridors;
what she would have thought to be a man's, except for the slowly ominous pace,
as though lumbering under some heavy and unnatural burden.
The child had pressed herself against Sarah, arms
wrapped around her waist and hugging tight. Sarah grasped the thin shoulders
and drew her even closer, as much for her own comfort as the child's. "Who
is it?" She managed to pull her gaze away from the dark recesses of the
corridor and down to the little girl. "Who's coming here?"
"We better go. Come on-" The Rachael child
had peeled herself away and was now tugging at Sarah's hand.
"Wait-" The footsteps had grown louder. If
that was what they were: the noises had turned to impacts upon the ship's metal
decking sufficient to tremble the walls, the stacked boxes and crates shifting
with each blow. Even the lights ifickered, as though the hidden wiring were
being jostled loose from its connections; her shadow and the child's jittered
nervously, as ancient dust sifted down from the joints between the overhead
panels. "I have to see."
"No! You don't want to!" The illusion's
tugging hand became more insistent, pulling Sarah back a few steps. "Come
on.',
It's nothing, she told herself. It can't be anything
at all. Her own voice, strident inside her head, insisted upon that. Whatever
was in the darkness at the other end of the corridor was nothing, a ghost or
hallucination, a cobbled-together fragment of the dead past, as insubstantial
as the image of the little girl yanking at her hand. What was there to be
afraid of? This is what I came down here to find out, she told herself, her
voice shouting above both the thunderous footsteps and the trembling of the blood
in her veins. All the pleasant notions of childlike tea parties, of curling
asleep and dreamless beneath the ocean waves, had vanished, scoured clear by
the rush of adrenaline through her body.
"Let's
go!" screamed the child.
Sarah angrily jerked her hand free from the image's
grasp. "Go on, then!" Her shout tightened the cords in her throat.
"Get out of here-I don't care. You want to leave, go ahead-you're not even
real!"
Tears coursed down from the girl's dark eyes. "I
won't go without you The voice, the audible hallucination, could barely be
heard against the other, greater one pounding through the Salander 3's
corridors. It sounded now as if some unseen force was driving a sledgehammer
into the walls, the metal deforming and shimmering from the distant and
approaching violence. "I found you!" howled the Rachael child.
"You were lost and I found you! I'm not going to let you go-"
Face reddened with weeping, the child tried to grab
Sarah's hand again. Sarah snatched it back, raising the hand almost to shoulder
height, as though she were about to slap the image and drive it away from her.
"Go away! I don't need you! Don't you understand? You don't exist-"
The child had cowered away from the undelivered blow,
her own arm brought up to her face to protect herself. She lost her balance as
another impact, louder and more violent than all the ones before, shuddered
through the space, rippling the floor beneath them. The child's image landed on
its side, skidding a few feet before its neck and one shoulder twisted against
the nearest stack of boxes. The back of the Rachael child's head snapped
against the container, hard enough to daze her, her eyelids fluttering at the
point of losing consciousness.
Sarah came close to falling, staying upright only by
catching and bracing herself against the wall. The vibration of another impact
travelled through her flesh and into the center of her bones. For a moment, the
thought came to her that the Salander 3 might be shaken apart, seams tearing
loose from one another, letting the Flow's icy waters come pouring in. Even if
she could make her way back to where she'd entered the ship, it might do no
good; a picture flashed through her mind of the shaft from the water's surface
having been snapped loose from the sunken hull, drifting out of her reach.
Wycliffe and Zwingli, bobbing around in their little boat, would look at each
other through their square-rimmed glasses and know that something had gone
wrong .
Silence, broken only by her own panting and the softer
breath of the Rachael child, filled the corridor. Sarah's stilled heartbeat was
useless as a chronometer of perceived time; seconds or minutes, measured by the
outside world, could have crawled by as she watched for whatever approached in
the darkness before her.
Something touched her, though not her skin; she sensed
the presence rather than felt it. Sarah looked down and saw that the flooring
on which she stood had changed, become glistening and wet. She saw her face in
a red mirror, a thin film of blood that had seeped out of the dark, a soft,
inexorable tide that mired around her shoes. Nausea welled inside her as she
stepped back from the pool, leaving two red footprints that the larger redness
swallowed, one after another.
When another footstep sounded, just marring the
corridor's breathing silence, Sarah looked up. A hand, clenched into a
white-knuckled fist, left its shadow on the glistening floor. A man's fist,
scarred and cut, as though breaking glass had chewed raw the skin over the
bones. The small wounds oozed red, trickling one drop after another, or the
same one
over and over, that fell and broke the pooled blood
into a rippled shimmer. Sarah's reflection shattered and recoalesced, as though
there were no escape for it, either.
The fist struck the wall across from Sarah, hard
enough to dent the metal around it, straining the welds on all four sides of
the panel. But she heard nothing; the impact took place in silence, the air
seemingly unable to carry any more shock waves to her ears. Or else-the random
thought tumbled inside her skull-my hallucinations have a limit. They know how
much I can take.
That limit, if there was one, shattered when the man's
image stepped forward from the darkness into the light. His face was still shadowed,
as boots that were already bloodied up to the knees stepped into the thin
puddle that reached to the point where Sarah had retreated.
She looked up into the man's face. Saw him, and
recognized him from the overlapping layers of her own memory, at its farthest
recesses, and from images that weren't memory but things on paper, scraps of
the long-buried past. Sarah looked into the image's eyes and saw her mirror
reflection there, two bright points locked in darkness into which the
flickering glow of the ship's overhead panels could never extend; the
reflections held fast, not scattering into fragments the way her face in the
pool of blood had gone.
Thking another slow step backward, Sarah watched as
the man stepped forward, as though his motion was locked to hers, inseparable.
Her gaze was held as well; from both his face, that she saw even clearer now
that he had come full underneath the overhead panel's radiance, and her own
doubled image. He took his fist away from the wall, its imprint left beneath a
smear of red. Something as bright and wet glistened on his face. She saw now
the stripes of blood and torn flesh, three vertical, parallel rows on each
side, just below his eyes; the wounds might have been from someone else's
nails, someone
struggling futilely against the figure's advance and
the closing of his hands upon a throat and the breath within.
For a moment, the man's brow creased, a flicker of
puzzlement passing across his sight. His upraised fist opened, the fingers
pulling from the blood at the center of his palm. "Who are you?" His
voice was a harsh, grating sound, a part of him that had become unused to
speech. "You can't be .
you're already dead. I already
took care of you .
You'i'e the one that's dead-Sarah wanted to shout out
the words, but her own voice wouldn't move. She backed away from the figure-the
man seemed to tower above her, his black hair scraping against the light panels
so that he had to lower his head to the level of his shoulders to come any
nearer.
Her heel caught on something behind her; she was
barely able to keep from falling. Her hand caught on one of the stacked boxes
as she looked over her shoulder. The Rachael child lay on the corridor's
flooring, back partway raised against one of the bottom crates. Her eyes drifted
open, looking first up at Sarah, then widening in terror as she caught sight of
the figure looming at the other end of the narrow space.
Sarah's own will broke; the figure had come close
enough that his red hand had started to reach for her, broad fingertips inches
from the tangle of hair that had come loose and fallen across her neck. The
face that looked back at her from the dark mirrors of his eyes had paled with
the same fear that had wrapped around the child cringing behind her. If the
image wasn't real, it was real enough. Enough to kill, the voice inside Sarah
whispered.
She turned to run, to escape from the space's
narrowing confines, to get anywhere that blood, hallucinated or real, was not
seeping tidelike toward her feet. Another hand caught hers; the child had
reached up and caught hold, clinging to Sarah's wrist.
The child wasn't real, either; she knew that. But she
didn't shake the illusory grasp from herself. She swiftly knelt down and
gathered the child under the arms, pulling her upright. With her own arm
pressing the small form tightly against her side, Sarah hurried for the doorway
at the opposite end of the corridor, away from the man standing in the middle
of the expanding pool of blood.
A glance
over her shoulder; Sarah glimpsed the red hand
closing on nothing, on the empty space where she had
been standing. She had recognized the face, though she had seen it before only
when she had been an infant; she had brought it back from that past almost
beyond memory, and from the old photographs in the Tyrell Corporation's
archives- The face was that of her father. The features darkened
with rage, as red and trembling as the image's
clenched fist. Pushing the child in front of herself, Sarah ran into the
darkness, toward any dark but
the one in which she had seen her own face reflected.
Anything's possible." Deckard shrugged, feeling
uncomfortable. The other man-or whatever Sebastian was now- had figured it out,
at least partway, but there was no need to confirm his suspicions. If
Sebastian's beloved Pris had been replicant or human, what did it matter?
"I've been fooled by things. And people. I thought they were one way, and
they turned out to be something else. It happens."
"I suppose so." Sebastian made a few more
tinkering adjustments to the clown's gears. "You're probably right,"
he said, nodding slowly. "You've got more experience along those lines
than I do. 'Cause of your being a cop, a blade runner, and everything. That's
your job, isn't it? To go around and find things that are pretending to be one
way-like human-and they're really just replicants. And then you-what was the
word?-you eliminate 'em or something."
"Retire." Deckard glanced over his shoulder
at the teddy bear and toy soldier, who were still huddling sullenly in the
corner. "I don't do that anymore."
"But still ... it must've done things to your
head. Changed it. Permanently. So that's how you see things. Nothing is what it
seems to be. Everything's lying." Sebastian's voice turned bitter.
"Everyone
"Maybe so. But that's my
problem. Doesn't have to be yours."
"Sure." Bitterness shifted to
self-laceration. "I could just go on being a fool. An idiot. That's what
everybody thinks of me anyway. Even the rep-symps, when they put me in this
place. They just figured I could do a job for them. Same as when I was working
for Dr. Tyrell. You just do what you're told, and maybe they'll let you alone
for a little while. With your silly little toys and slit."
"Take it easy," said Deckard. He'd seen
processes like this before. The small man, or the image or perceptual
incarnation or whatever he'd become, was undergoing a complete collapse. Which
didn't fit into his own plans. "It's not that bad-"
"Yeah, that's easy for you to say. You don't
care." Sebastian gave him a venomous look. "You're trained not to,
aren't you? Like all cops. That's just the world you live in. Not that this
one's any different." He pulled out the screwdriver and tucked it back
into his coveralls. His eyes had become rimmed with red, as though blood were
leaking into the perpetual tears. Letting the black cloth drape over the clown
mannequin's workings again, Sebastian ifipped some hidden switch. The device
came to pseudo-life again, the head tilting back and the pudgy arms rising.
The clown's high-pitched
mechanical laugh grated on Deckard's nerves. "Shut that thing off."
"Why? Is it bothering you, Mr. Decker?" A
vindictive gleam showed in Sebastian's glare. "But you've got ways of
taking care of things that you don't like. Why don't you just blow it away,
like you used to? Oops, sorry; I forgot. You don't have your gun with you-I
didn't give you one when you showed up here. Well, it's too late now."
Sebastian's voice had risen in pitch, competing with the noise from the
mannequin shaking back and forth with its own laughter. "Maybe you can
toss it out the window-that should do it, I imagine. Or you can tear it apart
with your bare hands. You'd like that, wouldn't you?"
From the corner of his eye, Deckard saw other motion
in the room. The clown's laughter, growing louder and more abrasive, seemed to
have set off the rest of Sebastian's collection of toys. Things haltingly
stirred to life, a ballerina with empty eye sockets elevating itself en pointe,
a sawn-off oem-media dell'arte Punchinello grinning with malice and shaking a
bell-cuffed fist at unseen enemies. The ornate howdah on the back of a
miniature elephant collided with the chessboard's corner, scattering the white
and black pieces across the floor. In an ornate Victorian birdcage, a
mechanical nightingale trilled, its wire-and-silk feathers moulting onto layers
of age-yellowed antimacassars and cracked circuit boards.
The touch of claustrophobia that Deckard had fought
off before now reasserted itself, stronger and tighter; he could feel the cold
sweat of panic encasing his skin. Too many things, both dead and animated,
pressing around him; with his forearm, he shoved away a tottering, slack-limbed
Oz scarecrow that had thrust its idiot smile into his face. The rag-garbed
creature fell onto its back, waving its arms around and
shedding plastic straw. Deckard edged away from it and
the other toys, his cop instincts driving him toward anyplace where he could
see what was coming toward him.
"All right-" He held
up his hands, palms outward, as though trying to ward off the chaos welling up
in the room. "Okay, just settle down." His words were directed at
Sebastian. The little bastard~s doing all this. They were Sebastian's toys, his
creations. "Just shut 'em off."
"Why? Don't you want to have any fun?" A
malevolent delight suffused Sebastian's face. He no longer appeared childlike,
a decrepit infant; his withered skin was that of an old man, a sexless, ageless
being. "You're my guest. You should enjoy yourself."
For a second, Deckard had a flash of another wrinkled
visage, another cruel, time-scorched entity. One that had gazed upon him from
behind square-rimmed glasses, an owlish re
gard that had weighed and
judged more keenly than any Voigt-Kampff machine. That had been in another
high-ceilinged room, even emptier of any human presence .
The image of Eldon Tyrell's face vanished as Deckard
forcibly pushed it out of his head. "That's it." The miniature
elephant bumped against his shin, and he angrily kicked it away. "You can
stop all this crap now. I've had enough."
"Oh, I don't think so. Not
yet. We're just starting."
"Just! Starting!" Behind Deckard, the toy
soldier had scrambled to its feet and marched out of the corner, followed by
the uniformed teddy bear. The soldier's elongated nose quivered with a feverish
excitement. "Fun!"
A sudden gust of wind blew out the nearest row of tall
windows, scattering crystals of glass through the room; Deckard raised his arm,
protecting his eyes from the razor-edged shards, blue-tinted in the luminous
night that flooded past the tattered curtains. The candelabras and other
wavering lights were extinguished, collapsing all the room's shadows into
darkness.
The floor buckled, gaps splitting between the scarred
wooden planks, carpets sliding into rumpled corrugations beneath the sideboards
and high-backed chairs. Paintings framed in tarnished gilt fell from the walls,
canvases ripped through as they were impaled upon the stiff-fingered hands of
mannequins undergoing spasticlike seizures. A pegboard the length of an entire
wall section, covered with soldering irons and needle-nose pliers, folded and
tore loose from its mounting bolts. It toppled across a banquet table like a
two-dimensional bat feasting on the silver bowls filled with dusty wax fruit.
Deckard stumbled back against the smallest table,
feeling the chessboard skid beneath his hand, a knight piece digging into the
palm; the room tilted as another seismic convulsion rocked the building. For a
moment, as he was thrown toward the wall, he had a glimpse through a window
ringed with broken-glass knives of the street below and the gaping chasm that
had jagged down its center. The theater marquee burst into sparks, the neon
curlicues snapping loose, raking blue tendrils across the sidewalk.
"Isn't this fun?"
Sebastian's face had reddened into fury; he'd braced himself spread-legged in
the middle of the room, riding out the successive impacts of the quake. "Come
on- you got to admit it is!"
With the teddy bear wrapped around his leg, Deckard
pushed himself away from the wall. He dove toward Sebastian as the bear's
toothless mouth managed to chew a dry hole through the fabric of his trousers.
The impact knocked Sebastian off his feet, sending him and Deckard skidding
through the rubble of chess pieces and hand tools. Still-warm candle wax
smeared across Deckard's cheek as he trapped Sebastian's arms against his
chest. The smaller man grimaced and spat, writhing futilely.
Outside, the U.N. blimp had floated lower, the light
beams from among the spiked antennae slashing through the broken windows,
pulling sections of the room into bright illumination, then back to hard-edged
shade. Deckard got his knee onto the other man's chest, pinning him to the
floor.
Another light seeped through the room's walls. Enough
plaster had fallen to reveal the skeletal understructure of the building;
beyond the broken laths and support beams, the image of a smaller area, the
confines of a hovel on Mars, began filtering into Deckard's perception. For a
few disorienting seconds, he could see himself-his other self, the real
one-sitting at the rickety table in the hovel's kitchen area, head nodding with
eyes closed as though in sleep or drug stupor, the briefcase silent now, waiting
for him to come back from wherever he had gone .
More than vision: the quake rolling through the fabric
of Sebastian's private universe seemed to shake the dim outlines of the hovel
on Mars. The empty beaker rolled from the table and shattered on the floor;
shards of glass nicked across the back of Deckard's hand. Blood welled between
his fingers and onto the shoulder of the figure struggling beneath him.
The distraction had been
enough for Sebastian to work one arm free; the butt of his palm shoved up
against Deckard's chin with a hysteric's strength. Head pushed back, Deckard
could just glimpse the infused life draining out of
the toys and mannequins. The clown froze, paralyzed,
laughter choked in its rubber-swaddled throat; the ballerina doll collapsed,
the sequins across its meager breasts dulling to flakes of lead. Into the
floor's dark lightning cracks, the chess pieces rolled and disappeared, like
crumbs swept from one of the overturned tables.
"Don't fade out on me, you little
sonuvabitch-" Deckard knocked Sebastian's hand away from his face; with
the same fist, he clouted the smaller man on the side of the head. "I'm
not done . . . with you yet." His own breath came panting with exertion;
around him, he could feel the planes and corners of the room growing even less
substantial, the illusion of their existence dissipating along with Sebastian's
will to maintain them. "Came here ... to find out something . .
Deckard
gritted his teeth, aiming another blow with the flat of his hand. "Not
leaving ... until I do .
"I don't care," sobbed the other man.
Sebastian's eyes squeezed shut, his wrinkled face looking even more like an
aging infant's. "Go ahead and kill me-I don't care."
"If I could, I would. Don't tempt me into trying,
though." The uniformed teddy bear had let go of Deckard's leg, toppling
onto its back, button eyes staring lifelessly up at what remained of the
ceiling. A few yards away, the bear's comrade-in-arms had fallen face-downward,
long nose skewed to one side, the point of its helmet broken off. "Just
shut up and listen." His brain raced in desperation, trying to figure out
what to tell the weeping figure. "Look. Just because Pris isn't here . . .
that doesn't mean she isn't anywhere at all. Maybe you just haven't looked for
her in the right places."
"Huh?" Sebastian rubbed his wet face with
his free hand. As Deckard let go of him, he scooted back and sat up. "What
do you mean?"
"Come on. Figure it out." Deckard knew he
was talking crap, but managed to conceal it. "This is where she was
killed, right? I mean, right here in this building. I should know; I'm the one
who did it, who blew her away. Out in the real world. You think if you put this
place back together here, she's going to want to hang around it? Get
real."
"Huh." With his sleeve, Sebastian wiped his
reddened nose. "Never thought of that."
"Only natural." Deckard wasn't sure if that
word applied in a private universe like this. Raising his knees, he rested his
forearms on them. From the corner of his eye, he could see that the room's
accelerating dissolve had been halted, perhaps even reversed; the walls, while
still cracked and flaking plaster, appeared less nebulous. He could no longer
see the other room, the one where his real body was sitting at a table with a
briefcase on it. "Maybe you haven't put the place back together yet where
Pris would be." He gestured toward one of the broken windows and the night
sky beyond. "How far does this go?"
"How far ... you mean the city? L.A.?"
Deckard nodded. "Everything. All the stuff you
put together for yourself here. Did you just do the street outside this
building, or does it go beyond that?"
"Gosh. I don't really know." Sebastian gazed
up to the cracked ceiling, sorting through his thoughts. "I never really
go outside anymore. Not since the rep-symps put me here. It's netlike I go out
walking around or anything. I just made the stuff come back that I could see
from the windows-you know, what I saw when I was back in the real world and I
looked out and there was the street and everything." He got up and walked
over to the nearest window. With one hand, Sebastian pushed away the rags of
the curtain. "Well it's hard to tell from here. I mean, just how far
things go. All the other buildings on this street are so much taller. There's
just kind of one angle over there where you can see some more of the
city." He pointed out to the night. "Doesn't look too ... you know,
real or anything. Kinda fakey." Sebastian shrugged in embarrassment.
"Guess I sorta skimped on that part. I wasn't really paying
attention."
"You ought to get out more," said Deckard
dryly. "Do you good."
The room looked as if a storm had passed through it,
scattering the contents. Deckard stood up, then reached down to
set upright one of the little tables and the
candelabra that had been on it. In the rubble on the floor was a scuffed Second
World War-vintage Zippo lighter; he flicked on its thin flame and lit the
half-burnt candles. The wavering light drove the shadows back to the corners.
"Maybe ... maybe you're right." Still
standing at the window, Sebastian leaned toward the darkness, gaze searching
across the close urban vista. "About Pris. You're right, she wouldn't be
here!" His voice grew more excited; he turned back toward Deckard.
"If she came back-and she must've; I wanted her to-she would've run away
from someplace like this. Where she got hurt so bad and all. She might've
gotten away before I even got a chance to see her again."
Deckard kept his silence. There was nothing more to be
said to the little man, to sell the point to him. He'd lied to Sebastian,
raised his hopes, just to keep him from totally dissolving his private
universe. There's no Pris out there, thought Deckard. There's not even an out
there.
Beyond the building's walls, the U.N. blimp drifted
slowly overhead. The enormous viewscreen on the blimp's side was reflected in
the rows of intact window glass across the empty street. Deckard saw a
fragmented image of the screen's geisha face, the smile replaced by a somber,
knowing pity.
"I've got to go looking for her!" Sebastian
appeared ready to immediately rush out of the building and onto the street
below. "Maybe she's waiting for me-" His manner became even more
frantic and agitated. "She might be all alone somewhere, and wondering why
I haven't come to be with her-"
"Hold on." Deckard grabbed hold of the other
man's shoulder as he started for the door. "Wait a minute. We've still got
things to talk about."
The room and the surrounding building, the fabric of
the pocket universe, had resolidified. Or the illusion of it had- Deckard had
to remind himself that the place wasn't real. He wondered how much time he had
left here; at some point the effects of the activated colloidal suspension
would wear off, flushed out of his percept system by the constant, slow
percolation of his own biochemistry. For all he knew, the spoonful of the
Sebastian packet that he'd ingested had already worked its way through his
kidneys and was, along with its various breakdown components, ready to be
pissed out. At some other time, the notion that one deity or another could
reside in his bladder might have wryly amused him; right now, he was in a
hurry.
"Let's go! Let's go!" The toy soldier, its
nose still bent at an angle, tugged at Sebastian's coveralls. "Right
now!" At the other side of the room, the reanimated teddy bear had started
rooting through the objects that had been knocked loose and scattered during
the quake, as though it were assembling provisions for the journey. "Come
on!"
"No, no, Squeaker-Mr. Decker's right."
Sebastian patted the soldier on the top of its helmet. "He came all this
way to talk with me; he's our guest, so we should treat him right." He
glanced up with an embarrassed smile. "I'm real sorry for what happened
just now. I got kinda carried away."
"That's all right. I understand." The twinge
of guilt sharpened underneath Deckard's breastbone, though he was careful not
to let any sign show on his face. Maybe-a small trace of hope moved inside his
thoughts-maybe he will find Pris out there. Or something like her. "I know
what it's like."
"Well, yeah ... I suppose so." Sebastian
tilted his head, his wet gaze narrowing as he studied the figure in front of
him. "You know, though ... maybe it wasn't Pris I got all wrong. Maybe
it's you."
"What's that supposed to
mean?"
"You shouldn't have been able to just come in
here and push me around like that." Sebastian spoke without rancor- he had
obviously gotten used to being pushed around, one way or another. "This is
my world, remember; my little private universe. I'm supposed to be the deity
here. If I'd wanted to bring the whole thing crashing down, I shoulda been able
to do that. And you wouldn't have been able to stop me. At least, that's the
way it's supposed to work. No . . . something funny's going on." He raised
an eyebrow. "When we were wrassling around and all, I was trying to make
you
disappear-well, I was losing,
wasn't I?-and you just wouldn't. You're still here. That's really strange,
don't you think?"
Deckard shrugged. "I'm
not an expert on these places. This is the first time I've even been in
one."
"Yeah, well, I live here
now. This is the only place I exist. So I should know what the deal is on
'em." He slowly shook his head. "I don't get it. What are you,
Deckard?"
"I don't know." What
the hell~s that supposed to mean? The question didn't even make sense. "Is
it important?"
"Maybe not." Sebastian brushed his hands off
on the front of his coveralls. "Whatever." All around him, the cracks
in the walls' plaster were slowly disappearing, the edges stitching themselves
back together. He leaned down and pulled the ballerina doll clear of the
crevice in the floor before it could close up on her leg. "So ... what is
it you came here for? What'd you want to find out?"
"You
tell me. I was sent here. To see you."
Sebastian
nodded. "Yeah, like I said ... I knew you were coming. The rep-symps told
me you'd show up eventually. That was all part of the plan. With the Batty box
and all."
"The briefcase,"
said Deckard. "If that's what you mean."
"That's the one. You know that's Batty in there,
don't you? Of course you do-it's not like he's ever exactly quiet about it. Not
the one I first met-the replicant who came here-but the other one. The
original, the human templant."
"He was the one who told me to come here. He gave
me the packet with your name on it; it was inside him, inside the
briefcase." Deckard glanced toward one of the windows as though some
change in the night's darkness might have indicated the passage of time.
"And to get the stuff to mix it up. He had all the instructions. They must
have briefed him pretty well."
"In a lot of ways," agreed Sebastian.
"Those rep-symp guys they're pretty sharp. Psychologically, I mean. They
knew you'd take some convincing." "I still
do."
"They thought you'd trust me." Sebastian's guileless,
ingratiating smile appeared again. "Do you?"
Deckard shrugged. "I don't know that, either. Depends on what you
tell me."
"All I can do is tell you the truth. Or at least as much of it as
I know about."
"That'd be a novelty." Deckard didn't bother to smile.
"The truth, I mean."
"Well
Sebastian fiddled nervously with one of the screwdrivers he took from
his coveralls pocket. "You can start with this. Batty wasn't lying-the
Batty box, I mean; the briefcase-when he was telling you what the deal is.
Whatever he told you about . . . what was the fella's name? Something
Holder?"
"Holden. Dave Holden."
"Yeah, that's the guy. He's probably dead now,
huh?" Deckard gave a short nod. "Pretty much."
"It was kind of a risky job they stuck him with.
Taking the Batty box out to you. He must've known what the chances were."
A troubled expression shaded Sebastian's face. "I don't think the
rep-symps would've lied to him about that."
"If
that's who he was working for."
"Oh, no The teary eyes went round. "You
don't need to have any doubts about that. That's one of the true things I'm
supposed to tell you about. Convince you and everything. That's what you came
here for, isn't it? For me to tell you that, so you'd know it's true-you
believe me, don't you?"
"I'm not sure." He wasn't going to admit any
more than that. "You could be telling the truth. I just don't know."
"But you've got to believe me!" Sebastian's
voice went up in both pitch and anxious trembling. "Your old partner, that
Mr. Holden-he'd gone over to the side of the rep-symps, and the insurgents out
in the colonies, and all those people. He'd decided that was the right thing to
do. Just like you did, when you quit the police department. When you stopped
being a blade runner."
Deckard barked a quick laugh. "When I quit the
department, I didn't exactly go out and sign up with a bunch of psychotics and
traitors who're all out looking to get themselves iced by the U.N. security
squads."
"Maybe you would've, if
you had the chance then."
A shrug. "I'm past caring
about that. So what about Batty?"
"What about him?"
Sebastian looked puzzled.
"He's with the rep-symps
as well, I take it."
"Well, yeah, obviously. I mean, we all are. Your
old partner David Holden certainly was-and that's the truth." Both of
Sebastian's hands rose in an appeal. "Why would I lie to you about
something like that? Jeez, Mr. Decker, I'm way out of the loop now. I don't
even exist anymore, at least not in the world you do. So it's not like I've got
something at stake in getting you to believe this. I'm, like, a disinterested
party. Sort of, anyway. I mean, I care what happens and all. So you could say
I'm on the rep-symp side,
too."
"You know
Deckard laughed again, softer and more ruefully. "The funny thing
is, I'd really like to believe you."
"You should! I'm telling you the truth!"
Sebastian's hands quivered. "Look, you did me a favor just now. When you
told me about why Pris wasn't here, and about where she might be. That . . .
that gives me hope, Mr. Decker. That I didn't have before. I was going to give
up, just let this whole place disappear. And me with it-I can do that if I want
to. I don't have to exist. Here or anywhere else. But I've decided to stick
around-because of what you told me." He stepped forward and grasped
Deckard's arm. "So I owe you one. I do, really. I wouldn't lie to you,
especially not about the stuff you came here to find out. David Holden brought
the Batty box out to you because he believed in the rep-symps' cause; he died
for it. Now it's up to you-it's your decision-about whether you should find a
way to get the briefcase, and the information that's inside it, to the
replicant insurgents out in the colonies."
Deckard regarded the other man. "What do you know
about the data in the briefcase?"
"Not much. Just that it's
important that the insurgents get it. If they're going to have a chance of
winning and being free and all. Or even being allowed to live."
"The U.N. would wipe them out? Exterminate
them?" Sebastian nodded vigorously. "You bet. In a second, if they
could. And they might be able to-things really aren't
going that well for the insurgents. At least, that's what I picked up from the
rep-symps. So there's a lot at stake in getting you to carry that briefcase out
to the replicants. In some ways .
He let go of Deckard's arm at the same time his voice
dropped. "There's a lot more at stake than just the fate of the replicants
out in the colonies and their rebellion. That's just . . . just the least
little bit of it!" A fervent gleam appeared in Sebastian's eyes.
"It's not just the replicants; it's humans it's everybody .
The sudden
intensity of the other's voice pushed Deckard back. "What're you talking
about?"
"They told me you weren't supposed to know Sebastian squeezed his pale hands together.
"I wasn't supposed to tell you .
"About
what?"
"I promised them I wouldn't tell ... but The little man was growing more visibly
agitated by the second. "Like I said, I owe you one. I owe you
everything Sebastian's voice suddenly
began to grow fainter and fainter. "It's like this. The stuff the
rep-symps didn't want me to tell you-it's all about the difference between
humans and replicants. If there is any-remember what Dr. Tyrell used to
say?" The voice had diminished to the level of a whisper. "The Tyrell
Corporation motto? 'More human than human.' He didn't know how true that was .
"Hey-what're you doing?" Deckard had leaned
closer to the other man, trying to hear the words being spoken.
"Sebastian-" He realized that he could see through the other's image;
the details of the scattered toys and dolls, even the cracked plaster of the
far wall, had begun to show. Layers of transparency: each object, Sebastian
object, seemed to be turning to clouded glass, or mist contained in the
outlines of what had been solid. "You're fading out on me-"
"Huh?" Sebastian's
gaze refocussed as he pulled himself from his monologue. His partial image
looked as though he was shouting, but the sound that emerged was barely
audible. "Mr. Decker-where are you going? You can't go now-"
Deckard reached for the other's arm, as though he
could drag Sebastian back into perceived reality. His fist closed on nothing.
Sebastian's image wavered and grew fainter.
"It's not me, Mr. Decker-it's you!"
Sebastian's faraway voice became more frantic. "The stuff you took, that
activated colloidal suspension stuff-it's wearing off. It's going out of your
system; you're not here anymore-"
"Goddamn-"
A wave of vertigo rolled over him. The indistinct walls and ceiling had
exchanged places.
From somewhere above him, Sebastian's voice called
out. "Wait! There's still things I gotta tell you!" The ghostly form
grabbed an object from the table and hurriedly thrust it toward Deckard's
hands. "Here-take this-"
A small metal box; it felt
light and hollow, but real, against Deckard's palms as the rest of Sebastian's
pocket universe lost its substance. He suddenly found himself toppling
backward, balance lost as the floor beneath him thinned out of existence.
Distance and direction
vanished with all the other aspects of that world. He fell into the rapidly
enfolding dark.
Miss Tyrell! Over here!" A voice came out of the
darkness, the words barely distinguishable against the howl of the wind and the
lashing of the rain. "We're coming-"
The water, salt of the Flow mixed with ice crystals
driven from the dark roil of clouds above, stung beneath Sarah's eyelids. She
shielded her face with one hand, holding on to the edge of the shaft's doorway
with the other. The triangular structure bucked on the surface of the water,
storm waves lifting and dropping the platform beneath her feet. The shaft
itself, leading down to the Salander 3, strained with the violent motion as
though it might snap free, like a rope stretched to its breaking point. All the
way up from the sea-buried ship, as the tiny elevator had carried her toward
light and air, she had wondered if that would happen. If it does, she had told
herself, I'll drown like a bug in a soda straw.
That some kind of atmospheric turbulence was pounding
Scapa Flow had been no surprise to her. The clouds had been
gathering, growing more ominous and heavy-laden, when
she had first stepped onto the Orkney mainland, in sight of the old stone cathedral
stuffed with its bogus monitoring equipment. And if the storm's fury had been
unleashed while she was locked away in a little bubble of stilled time, that
made sense as well. Given what Sarah had witnessed, the things she had seen,
the past made visible and tangible-given all that, it would have been little
wonder to her if this world's sun and moon had crashed together, with wormwood
and the stars tumbling into the ocean like hot coals.
"Just hold on!" The
call came from the boat careening on the Flow's dark, churning surface. She
could just barely make out the silhouette of Wycliffe standing braced at the
prow, while Zwingli behind him manned the oars. "We'll be there in a
second!" A wave mounting as high as Wycliffe's chest slammed into the
boat, nearly toppling him overboard. Zwingli's frantic rowing clawed helplessly
at the raucous water.
Just my luck, thought Sarah; the phrase had become the
obvious refrain to the events around her. I would've been safer back down
below. She knew that wasn't strictly true; as it was, she had barely escaped
from the Salander 3 with her sanity intact. There was no way she wanted to see
those things again; once had been more than enough.
The foam-crested waves struck the platform, a hammer
seemingly more solid than liquid. Her fingers gripped tighter to the doorway as
the impact tore at her, then passed, the shaft's tension snapping it down into
the trough that came after.
"Here! Catch this!"
Wycliffe had mounted into the boat's prow again, a heavy rope coiled around his
arm, one end of the rope fastened near Zwingli. He managed to synchronize his
throw with the Flow's swell; a knot and ioop sailed through the rain.
Sarah took one hand away from
the shaft's entrance; her hand missed the rope, but she pinned it against her
side with her arm. It slithered like a coarse, wet snake, but she hung on to
it, gripping and maintaining her balance as the platform rolled and tilted
beneath her. She looped the rope over
the projection of the doorway's broad hinge, just
above her shoulder, then used her weight to draw the line taut to the boat.
"That's it-" A crevice had opened up in the
storm clouds overhead, enough to let a thin sliver of moonlight onto Wycliffe's
face. Rain coursed across his brow and eye sockets, then into his open mouth as
his chest labored with the unfamiliar exertion. His fanatic loyalty to the
Tyrell Corporation and its human emblem was all that kept him standing in the
small boat, his hands tugging at the rope. Behind him, Zwingli had pulled the
oars alongside himself, turning where he knelt and grasping his partner around
the waist, securing him against the next wave to hit.
The boat swung around and hit the edge of the platform
broadside. Wycliffe leaned down and forward, catching the raised metal lip with
his fingers, straining to hold the boat tight against the force of the water
drawing it back. "Miss Tyrell-" His drenched face looked up at her.
"You must-" The words came out as gasps. "Jump-"
She let go of the rope, getting to her knees and then
half falling, half scrambling into the boat. A smaller wave tilted it; her back
struck the other side, sending a quick stab of pain up her spine.
"Are
you all right?" Zwingli had grabbed her forearm and pulled her next to
him.
Sarah
nodded. "I'm fine." She pushed her sodden hair away from her face.
"Let's go-"
"Wait a minute-" Kneeling at the prow,
Wycliffe still grasped the rope in one hand; the knot at the far end had
snagged against the hinge of the shaft's doorway. "There's somebody else
there. Look!"
A glance over her shoulder, and through the sheets of
rain Sarah was able to make out the small figure standing just inside the
entrance to the shaft, clinging to the edge. The little girl's face was filled
with both awe and terror at her glimpse of the outside world's unlimited size
and violence.
"Who's that?" Wycliffe looked back at Sarah.
"Who came up with you?"
"Wait a minute." She turned her gaze from the child to the
man at the boat's prow. "What are you talking about? Are you
trying to tell me . . . that you see her,
too?"
"Right there." A puzzled expression crossed
Wycliffe's face before he pointed to the doorway. "Of course I see her;
she's right there."
"So
do I," piped up Zwingli. He leaned forward, from where he crouched beside
Sarah. "I can see her.
Who is
she?"
Sarah laughed, head thrown back, throat exposed to the
rain. Even after all that had happened down in the Salander 3, the things she
had seen both before and after her father's murderous apparition had shown
itself to her, it still struck that this was a weird place to be having a
conversation like this. Stuck out on a boat, she thought, in the middle of a
storm that's going to drown us all. And these two idiots want to debate the
existence of an unreal thing, a total hallucination. The laugh died when
another realization struck her; she gazed slit-eyed at the man beside her, then
at the other one. She wondered what they were trying to pull, what scheme was
being forwarded by their claim of seeing the little girl. She'a my
hallucination-they had no claim on the child.
"All right; that's it." Sarah made a cutoff
gesture with one hand. "I've really had enough of this." The boat
pitched in the water, rising to the crest of another wave and dropping again,
banging against the edge of the platform. She had to raise her voice even
louder to make her words audible against the rush of the wind. "I don't
know if this is part of some little plan of yours, or what. But I'm not in the
mood for it. You want to claim that you see a little girl there, fine; go
ahead. But you're not convincing me that you see her. Because I know she's not
real-"
"But, Miss Tyrell Wycliffe gestured toward the shaft's
doorway. "She's right there!"
She looked where he pointed and saw the Rachael child,
just as she had known she would. The child's image-and the sound of her
breathing, even the scent of her dark hair, everything that worked to make the
hallucination seem real-had come up with Sarah from the Salander 3, all the way
along the storm-buffeted shaft to the surface of Scapa
Flow. The child had said nothing, but had gazed up at
Sarah with her big and sad dark eyes, seemingly aware that some change was
coming in her existence. Or nonexistence, as Sarah had had to remind herself.
Whatever part of her subconscious was responsible, in league with the influx of
material from the ship's bottled-up past, it was certainly doing a thorough
job. The illusory child hadn't remained as Sarah had perceived her down below,
but had taken on the aspect of being caught out in a gale from the North
Atlantic: her clothes, soaked through, clung to her small body as her wet hair
tangled across her brow, the braid even heavier and darker against her neck.
The water that had trickled down her legs and from her ankles had collected in
a pool around her feet, shimmered by the gusts of wind.
"Look. Just drop it, all right?" Sarah spoke
fiercely, drawing her arms tight around her body. "I'm cold and wet and
tired. And believe me, I've seen enough of things that don't exist. Including
this little girl-which you can't see, unless you're as crazy as I am. All
right? So let's get back to shore. Immediately."
"We're
not going to leave her here." An obstinate expression formed on Wycliffe's
face. "We can't."
"I'm ordering you to. How's that?" Sarah
shook her head in exasperation. "We can play whatever games you want to
later on."
Wycliffe made no reply. The waves had slackened a bit,
enough for him to loosen one hand's grip on the platform's edge and extend it
toward the image of the little girl. "Come on," he said to the
nonexistent child. "I've got you .
A few seconds later, the apparition who called herself
Rachael was in the boat, next to Sarah. A few feet away, Wycliffe stationed
himself in the prow, watching as the wind and rain whipped into his face, as
though he was concerned that Sarah might do some impossible harm to the child.
The boat moved away from the triangular platform as Zwingli applied himself to
the oars.
"Some loyalists," she said darkly. "I
thought you were supposed to do what I told you to. Both of you."
"I'm sure that Wycliffe shrugged
uncomfortably.
"That you'll agree that this was the right thing to do. When
you've had a chance to reconsider."
"I doubt it." Beside her, the Rachael child
pressed closer, trying to get warm; she tucked Sarah's hand into both of hers,
snuggling into the woman's ribs. "Well. I hope you're satisfied."
Sarah looked down at the image. The child ignored the acid comment, rubbing the
side of her face against Sarah's sleeve. "You're not even really here, and
you pulled this one off."
Once ashore, Wycliffe and Zwingli skipped the
cathedral, even though it was closer. With the rain lashing at their backs,
they led Sarah and the Rachael child back to the shadow corporation's
interplanetary yacht. The breaks in the storm clouds let the stars' cold light
through, enough to pick out the rocky edges of the trail. Ahead of them, the
running lights and docking signals of the yacht glinted and blinked in sequence
along the ovoid shape's circumference.
Thank God, thought Sarah as the gangway irised open.
All she wanted now was another shower and a change of clothes. She had glanced
down at herself as she and the others had trudged away from the little boat
pulled up on the Flow's pebbly shore. The palms of her hands were still stained
with blood from when she had tripped and fallen, running from all that she had
seen and feared inside the Salander 3; the rain hadn't managed to wash it away.
Nor had it taken the blood from the patch along one leg or the side where she
had landed hard against her rib cage; there had been so much blood inside the
ship that it had seemed to imbed itself in every fabric of her being, like the
canned and recirculated air drawn into her lungs.
A half hour later, Sarah found herself wondering how
many of the black undertaker suits Wycliffe and Zwingli had aboard the shadow
corporation craft. While she had been in the master suite's facilities, looking
down through billows of gratefully received steam at the trickles of red sluicing
off her body, thinning pink as they ran down the drain near her bare feet, the
two men had managed to transform themselves back into the muted-and
dry-personae in which she had first seen them. With the thick bathrobe pulled
around herself, the Tyrell Corporation logo monogrammed over her breast, she
sat down in the ship's central lounge, taking the largest and plushest of the
chairs available. The two men had remained standing-she wondered how long they
had been waiting for her to reappear-but one other figure was already there,
sitting with her legs tucked up under her in one of the lesser wing chairs.
With large grave eyes, the image of the little girl watched and waited.
"You're still here?" Sarah had extracted a
cigarette from the enameled case on the nearest small table. She lit the
cigarette, inhaled, then let the grey smoke be carried away by the yacht's
ventilation, so much quieter and unobtrusive than the ancient system she'd
encountered at the bottom of Scapa Flow. "I thought-well, perhaps I hoped-that
you'd have gone away by now." The hot shower, taking away the chill that
the storm winds had driven into her bones, had seemed so therapeutic that a
diminishing of hallucinations had not seemed entirely unlikely. "You know
... this could become quite tiresome. You're not really needed anymore."
"I'm
not going away." The little girl's face darkened with her stubborn
defiance. "And you can't make
me."
"We'll see about that." Sarah regarded the
glowing tip of the cigarette. "There are ways. These things can always be
accomplished. One way or another." She'd have to look into it-when there
was time. Or if. A fatalistic calm had settled over her, part fatigue, part
resigned acknowledgment of the meshing of the universe's gears. "Even if,
say, psychotherapy didn't work. Drugs might. Or surgery, perhaps." She
nodded slowly, as though contemplating the possibility. Though it was
technically easier to get material in and out of the brains of replicants-the
whole system of control through implantation of false memories was a Tyrell
Corporation development-it could be done, to a limited degree, with humans as
well. Sarah imagined that a sufficiently skilled neurosurgeon could root around
inside her skull with his microscalpels and tiny electrified probes and root
out whatever lump of grey matter contained the little girl's image.
Or there might be even simpler
ways. The ultimate sur
gery: "I could just kill myself." Sarah
enunciated the words clearly, with no hesitation attached to them. She had
considered the option enough times to render it free of pain. "Then you
would disappear, wouldn't you? If I blew a hole in the side of my head, you
could just flutter out and be gone."
"Miss Tyrell ... for
heaven's sake." Wycliffe had turned pale. "Don't say things like
that."
"Why? Will it blow up the franchise or
something?" When all else had failed, there was still some sadistic
pleasure to be gotten out of needling the die-hard loyalists. "I nearly
forgot. Without me, your chances of resurrecting the Tyrell Corporation are
just about zero. A suicide would ball up your plans, wouldn't it? All this work
for nothing."
"It's
more than that," insisted Wycliffe. "There's a certain matter of . .
. personal loyalty."
"He's right." Zwingli added his voice to the
statement. "Since there really is no difference between you and the
corporation. That makes it sort of a liege-vassal relationship."
"It didn't sound like that out there on the
Flow." Sarah nodded toward one of the viewports, through which the
storm-lashed waters could be seen. "You weren't exactly taking orders from
me when I told you to leave behind this .
She
gestured in the direction of Rachael. "Child ... apparition, or whatever .
. . that you claim to see."
"I'm not," announced
Rachael sullenly, "an apparition. I know what that word means."
"Miss Tyrell. If it would do any good-"
Wycliffe sounded desperate. "We'd be happy to pretend we don't see any
child sitting here with us. You could order us to do that."
"What
child?" asked Zwingli helpfully. He watched Sarah for an approving
reaction.
"But it really wouldn't change anything."
Hands spread apart, Wycliffe hunched up his shoulders. "We'd still see
her. And since she did come with you out of the Salander 3, it's vitally
important that we get whatever information we can from her. Whether she's an
apparition or not."
"You people must be crazy." The Rachael
child turned a withering look on all of them. Sitting back in the wing chair,
she folded her arms across her chest. "An apparition is something that
doesn't exist. The nanny told me all about it. Because there were plenty of
apparitions down there. I was told to be very careful about them. Because even
if they don't exist, they can still hurt you."
"Truer words," said Sarah dryly, "were
never spoken." She flicked grey ash onto the lounge's carpet. "Though
in this case, I'm not much worried."
"Perhaps we could settle this later."
Wycliffe looked both fretful and conciliatory. "When you're not quite so
worn out from your efforts, Miss Tyrell-"
"You mean, when I'm not feeling cranky. About you
two claiming you can see my hallucinations." She was still wondering-or
worse, coming to conclusions-about what they were trying to accomplish with
that bit.
"Whatever. But there really is some time pressure
here, Miss Tyrell. We'd like to debrief you about what you encountered down in
the Salander 3 while the memories are still fresh-"
She laughed, holding the half-drawn cigarette off to
one side. "They're not exactly the kind that fade. Believe me."
"Every detail," persisted Wycliffe,
"might be important. If the Tyrell Corporation is to be brought back to
what it was before. We need to know."
"Sometimes ... I think I must be working for you.
Instead of the other way around."
Wycliffe stiffened to his full funereal height.
"We are all in the service of the Tyrell Corporation."
"Really." She smiled as she regarded him.
Pompous twit- though she supposed it was ever thus with religious fanatics. No
sense of humor at all. A good thing for him that he hadn't been the one to
enter the scuttled Salander 3. He wouldn't have made it back out alive, or with
even as much sanity as she'd retained intact. Because that moment had come,
while she had been down there, with all the mass of the ocean on top of her and
the even more crushing and airless weight of the past sealed around, that it
had seemed at last like a joke, a hard and cruel one, but a joke nevertheless.
That she had gone all that way, a complete round-trip to the place and frozen
time of her infancy, just so the one who
would have killed her so long ago could have another
chance at her . .
It must've seemed so very accommodating of me, thought
Sarah. She breathed out smoke, tilting her head back and watching the
insubstantial, disappearing shape it made. All the murderous ghosts of the
past; if they dreamed, it would have to be of death. They couldn't die
themselves, not while the past endured unbroken, sealed tight within its
bottle, away from the real world and real time. But as the little girl had
said: Even if they don't exist, they can still hurt you.
"Miss Tyrell?" Wycliffe's voice poked at the
edge of her awareness.
She brought herself the rest of the way back from the
Salander 3's world, the replica of it inside her head. "Very well."
Sarah ground out the cigarette stub in the green-veined malachite bowl beside
her. "What do you want to know?" A smile below half-lidded eyes,
directed in turn at Zwingli and Wycliffe. "What do you want me to tell
you?"
"You don't have to tell us anything other than
the truth." Wycliffe appeared as if he had won some obscure debating
point. "What you saw. What happened to you. Everything that happened down
there."
Kill them all, thought Sarah. Her eyelids went all the
way closed. And let God sort them out.
She heard the child's voice,
piping up: "There were bad things. The ones that're always there. That's
what she saw."
"Yes," said Sarah, nodding. She opened her
eyes and gazed at the two men watching her. "That's what I saw. The things
that are always there." Her thin smile became laughter that she couldn't
help from tearing her throat. "Excuse me. But it's really very
funny."
"Are you all right?" Zwingli spoke, sounding
genuinely concerned. "Can I get you something?" "No, no; it's
all right." Sarah gestured with one hand. "It just struck me that I
solved the mystery . . "Mystery?" From inside his jacket, Wycliffe
had taken out a small notepad. He glanced up from the few
words he had scribbled. "What mystery is
that?"
"Is there more than one?" She brushed a tear
away from
the corner of her eye. "The cat, of course. I found out what
happened to the cat."
"Cat?" The stylus remained poised on the notes.
"The one that my parents took with them. The
official pet of the Salander 3 expedition. You must've seen it, in the old news
photos, in the company files. A big, fluffy marmalade cat."
"Ginj er," said the image of the little
girl, sitting forward in the wing chair. "That's what it's name was. That
was what my mother called it. The nanny told me so."
"Miss Tyrell ... when I
said that everything could be important, I might have misspoken." Wycliffe
tapped the stylus on the notepad. "The cat-and yes, I do remember seeing
it in the old photos-that actually might not be critical to our mission. If the
cat is alive and well down there, that's wonderful, but
really-"
"Hardly alive." Sarah glared at the man.
"And it probably wasn't too well when it died. Though that probably didn't
take too long, from the looks of what I found." Her voice turned flat and
grim. "It wasn't that big a cat when it was alive. When Anson and Ruth
Tyrell took it aboard, and they all went sailing off toward the Proxima system.
But it's amazing how large an area an ordinary domestic house cat can cover . .
. when somebody puts their mind to it." She looked down at her hands,
which she had spent so much time scrubbing clean in the shower, long after the
red marks had swirled down the drain. "And somebody did."
"Miss Tyrell .
"Be quiet," she snapped. "You wanted to
know everything. You don't get to pick and choose now." Sarah let her
voice drop to a whisper. "We were running ... the little girl and
I. Because we were scared. Because we had seen the bad
things; they had come right out and spoken to us, they had told us what they
wanted to do. That's why we were scared. And it was dark-there are some very
dark places down there-and I tripped and fell. I had Rachael by the hand; she
was running to keep up with me, and then she almost fell, too."
"But
I didn't," said the girl.
"That's right. You didn't." Sarah nodded.
"Because you knew." For a moment, she wondered how a piece of her own
subconscious could know something that she herself wouldn't have been able to
know. But she let the thought pass away. "You knew your way around; you
knew what else was down there. I didn't; that's why I fell. On the cat. Or what
was left of it."
She paused, looking from one man's face to the
other's, gauging their reactions. Why they should be so queasy about the death
of a cat that had happened over two decades ago-she supposed their reaction was
due to the closeness of detail. The deaths of so many people in the apocalypse
of the Tyrell Corporation's L.A. headquarters-hundreds? Thousands? She had
never bothered to find out the exact number-they didn't matter.
"The person who did it," continued Sarah,
"must have been very thorough. From the evidence. It's one
thing to just make a mess-anyone can do that-but to
have a certain artistic sense . . . that's almost as admirable as it is
evil." Under her breastbone was a cold, hard stone where her heart should
be; Sarah knew that she wouldn't be able to speak like this, otherwise. I
wouldn't even be able to live. Not anymore. "I don't suppose the cat would
have suffered too long-it wouldn't have been able to. It would have to have
died at some point early on in the process. So it wasn't done for the cat's
sake . . . or at least no more so than was necessary."
"For
whom, then?" Wycliffe's voice was nearly as soft as hers. "And who
did it?"
"Who did it? My father, of course. Anson
Tyrell." A shake of her head, as though chiding the one who had spoken.
"And don't pretend that comes as so much of a shock to you. I have a
feeling that you both knew-perhaps the whole shadow corporation knows-just what
happened aboard the Salander 3. About my father's insanity and his homicidal
rampage. You all knew; perhaps you were the ones who erased any mention of it
from the company files. So that I wouldn't know."
Wycliffe and Zwingli exchanged
glances with each other, but said nothing.
That was enough for Sarah to know that she had
surmised correctly. "Don't worry about it," she said, amused by the
flicker of panic she had seen in the men's eyes. "I'm sure you and the
others did it for the absolute highest of reasons."
"It
was ... to protect you." Zwingli blurted out the words.
"Really."
"Of course it was. If I didn't know what had
happened when I was just an infant in my mother's arms-all those things of
which I was supposedly too young to have formed memories-then I wouldn't have
bad dreams, would I? How thoughtful of you. And naturally, I wouldn't be quite
so resistant to your plans for resurrecting the Tyrell Corporation as I might
have been if I already knew what was in the Salander 3. You might not have been
able to talk me into going down there."
"That's not quite fair," said Wycliffe.
"As you've said before, without you there is no Tyrell Corporation. The
opposite can be said as well: you don't exist, or you can't for much longer,
unless the corporation comes back from the shadows. Any subterfuge was as much
for your benefit as ours. And as it happens, there are only the slightest,
fragmentary records of what might have happened during the Salander 3's final
expedition. A few transcripts of statements made by the company employees who
went aboard the ship after it had returned to Earth-and most of those had been
severely edited or destroyed before anyone from the shadow corporation would
have had a chance to access them."
"You have to give my uncle credit for his
thoroughness, all right." Sarah felt her face hardening. "God forbid
anything should besmirch the Tyrell Corporation's public image."
"Eldon Tyrell might have had motivations beyond
that." Wycliffe shrugged and spread his large-jointed hands apart.
"If things are as you found them inside the Salander 3-and we have no
reason to doubt you on that score-then it might not have been for the company's
sake that Dr. Tyrell acted as he did in suppressing this information. It might
have been for the family name."
"Oh?
And there's a difference?" Sarah raised one eyebrow. "Between the
family and the corporation?"
"Not much, admittedly. Let us say, then, for your
father's sake. And the way he was remembered. Anson Tyrell wasn't a psychotic
murderer when he left on the Salander 3 's expedition; whatever happened to him
aboard the ship, it happened out there." One of Wycliffe's bony fingers
pointed upward, to the night sky beyond the yacht's contained spaces.
"Something happened that made him do
what he did."
"You said 'murderer.' That was the word you
used." Sarah's narrowed gaze fastened onto the man. "People don't say
'murderer' when they're talking about a cat getting eviscerated and hung around
a room like a Christmas garland." One of her hands balled into a fist, knuckles
as white as those she had seen through the blood smeared on her father's hand.
"Perhaps 'psychotic'-that's easy enough. But not the other."
Wycliffe's
mouth opened, but snapped shut again before any words came out.
"I caught you out on that one," said Sarah
with grim satisfaction. "I haven't told you yet about the other things I
saw down there-"
"The
really bad things," chimed in the little girl sitting in the wing chair.
"Not just some stupid old cat."
"Ah. Yes ... exactly so." Wycliffe attempted
a feeble smile. "I must have been ... anticipating what you were about to
tell us."
"I don't think so." She lifted the lid of
the ornate box on the small table beside the chair, and watched her hand run a
fingertip across the cigarettes' silky paper, before turning her gaze back to
the two men. "I think you knew very well that my father didn't stop with
the cat. When he had his psychotic breakdown, somewhere between here and the
Proxima system-he didn't go just a little bit crazy. He went all the way."
"There
were ... some indications . . . about that."
Sarah slapped the box lid down. "Gentlemen-I
found more than indications. I found my mother's body. Or what was left of it.
Perhaps, for my father, the cat had just been a little warm-up, a practice
session to get ready for the main
A
event. Which was my
mother." One fingertip ticked against the box lid. "And myself."
"That would seem to be ... consistent."
Wycliffe's hands folded around each other. "With the fragmentary reports
of those who went aboard the Salander 3 when it returned to Earth." He
gave a single nod. "It's fortunate, of course, that Anson Tyrell didn't manage
to fulfill his deranged agenda."
"Oh, I agree." She made no attempt to
disguise her sarcasm. "I doubt that even when I was an infant I would have
enjoyed those particular attentions of my father. You see, I've been inside his
head; that's what the Salander 3 is now. With all that toxic past locked up and
unchanging inside it-it's like that Jungian definition of the psychotic
condition as that state when no new thing ever enters into a person's thoughts.
Just the same thing over and over again, like an endless tape loop. And that
thing in my father's case was murder. And blood, lots of it; more than what's
inside a cat, or what was inside my mother." Sarah's voice grated rawer
and tighter. "An ocean of it. That must've been what the inside of his
head looked like before he died. Just big hollow spaces like the ones inside
the Salander 3, washed with
blood."
"Was ... was your
mother Zwingli's words came out in a
stammer. "Had he done the same thing to
her? Like he did to the
cat?"
"No." A shake of the head. "That didn't
happen. From what I could tell . . . he slashed her throat. And then .
Her own
words came slower and slower, close to halting. "He stopped there."
"That's not the whole story." The Rachael
child spoke up, her voice hard with scorn. "She's not telling it
right!" Gripping the arms of the wing chair, the little girl looked around
at Wycliffe and Zwingli in turn. "And she even saw what happened. She saw
it!"
Wycliffe turned from the child back toward Sarah.
"Miss Tyrell . . . what did you see? What happened?"
The tape loop inside her head,
that segment of the longburied past that had wormed its way into her own
memories, became visible once more as she closed her eyes. It would
never go away. Once seen, it
was as unending as it had been in the hulk of the Salander 3.
"What happened." She spoke without raising
her eyelids to admit the lounge's softly filtered light; even that was too much
for her now. "I saw her-my mother; Ruth Tyrell, whatever you want to call
her. It doesn't matter. She was running, too; she was running with the baby in
her arms. Because she knew what he wanted to do."
"That's the real story." From somewhere
outside Sarah, the little girl's voice spoke again, approvingly this time.
"That's what really happened. I know, because the nanny told me. Because
when I saw those things happening over and over again, they scared me. I wanted
to know, so I wouldn't be scared anymore. So the nanny told me who they
were."
Sarah waited until the child was finished speaking,
without even wondering if the two men could hear those words or not. "The
infant ... that was me." She spoke slowly, trying to get everything
exactly right, as if that could help somehow. "And then ... and then he
caught her. He caught up with my mother. His wife. Ruth and Anson Her voice trailed away.
"Go
on, Miss Tyrell. We have to know everything."
"There's not much more, is there?" She
sighed and shook her head, opening her eyes to look up at the radiant ceiling.
"My father knew his way around the Salander 3 better than my mother did,
so there was really no place for her to hide. Plus she had the baby-she had
me-with her. Plus . . . you can't ever get away from the really bad things.
Whether they exist or not. Eventually, they catch up with you. The way my
father caught up with her."
Nothing but silence surrounded
her. They were all waiting for her to go on.
Those poor ghosts, thought Sarah. For a few seconds,
she wasn't sure who she meant. The people here, in the richly appointed lounge
of the shadow corporation's interplanetary yacht-they didn't seem any more real
to her than the figures she had seen down at the bottom of Scapa Flow, acting
out their endless time-stilled rituals of fear and madness and
death. They might not even know they~re dead. She
supposed that statement might apply to the ones here as well. In a way, the
only one that did appear real to her was the hallucinated Rachael child. At
least that one had come out of her head, up from her unlit subconscious, the
same way Sarah herself had come up from the sunken ship. So she's at least as
real as I am. That wasn't saying much. Maybe just a
little bit real, perhaps.
As if on cue, the child spoke
again. "He cut her throat." A simple announcement. "That's what
he did. He had a knife and he cut her throat. Just like that." The girl
made a quick swooping gesture, one hand holding an invisible blade. "And
she died."
Sarah didn't wait for the two men to ask what happened
next. "And then," she said, "so did he. My father died."
The tape loop inside her head had run to its end and started over, one moment
of the past welded inexorably to its antecedent. "He had his dead wife at
his feet and a wailing infant lying in the pool of blood on the floor."
She had watched all that, with the hallucinated Rachael child close beside her,
the two of them pulled back into the shadows of one of the ship's unlit
corridors, as the ghosts locked in time had gone through their rituals in the
light, as though they were the ones who existed outside of memory. There was
something else that she didn't speak of, not because she didn't want Wycliffe
and Zwingli to know; it was just too painful to try to find the words. That her
mother had died shielding her, protecting the infant in her arms. Even when the
crazed figure with the knife had taken her mother down to her knees, his other
hand twisting her hair tight into his fist, drawing her throat taut and
vulnerable; even then, Ruth Tyrell hadn't screamed, but had gasped out a plea,
not for her own life but for the smaller one she'd held desperately against her
breast.
Desperate because Ruth had known-as her daughter,
Sarah, had known, when she had seen the madness in her long-dead father's
eyes-that the child, the infant in her mother's arms, had been the true target
of his wrath. He'd murdered his wife, drawn the knife across her white throat,
only to get at his own child . .
"But he didn't."
Sarah spoke her thoughts aloud. She didn't care whether anyone else heard them.
"For a moment
he wasn't crazy. And that was all it took. He must
have heard what she said to him, what Ruth had said." Sarah, watching from
the dark corridor, hadn't been able to make out the words her mother had
spoken. Words in a ghost's mouth; perhaps they hadn't even been words at all
but just some inarticulate cry. Or articulate enough. For that brief section of
the past, the past that had happened so long ago and so far from Earth, one
sixth of the way to the Proxima system; for just that long, a matter of a few
seconds, Anson Tyrell had been sane again; whatever gripped him had relaxed its
hold, letting a horrified rationality possess him once more.
He had his dead wife at his feet, the blood still
running from her opened throat and pooling around the two of them, forming a
redly shining mirror in which he looked down and saw his own unrecognizable
face. And saw the knife in his upraised hand, which he might not even have
known was there, he'd been that crazy. And saw his face in that smaller red
mirror, the one smeared on the blade's bright metal; and recognized.
That was how it had appeared to Sarah, watching the
ghosts. Who were so locked into the past that she would have seemed like a
ghost to them if she had stepped out of the dark corridor. If they had been
able to see her at all. Sarah's time, that she was locked into and that she
carried around with her as though it were some invisible diving bell, had
separated out from the time held in the Salander 3, like the markings of trace elements
divided by their specific gravity. Those elements, her time and the ghosts'
time, had been swirled together for a little while, when she had first
descended and entered the transport. So that the elements had bumped up against
each other, become visible to each other, the dead looking at the living, or at
least the not-so-dead. Her dead father had been able to see her, had probably
thought she was one more part of the craziness sparking away inside his head.
Would he have been able to do more than just look at her and say crazy,
murderous things? She didn't know;
that had been when she had turned and ran, snatching
up the Rachael child by the hand and pulling her along after herself, not
caring that the child was even less real than her dead father.
"And
then your father killed himself."
She didn't know which of the men had spoken.
"That's right." She supposed that was something else of which they
had been aware all along, another little fragment left in the company records,
transcribed from one of the employees who had gone aboard the returned Salander
3. What else they found: the two corpses with slashed throats, the knife still
in Anson Tyrell's hand. "When he was sane again, and he could see what he
had done. He used the same knife on himself." That kind of grief, she
knew, being another sort of insanity. Or else it was being really, truly sane
at last. It all had the same results. "He didn't worry about the infant
lying in the pooi of blood, wailing away and kicking its little feet. He knew
that the Salander 3's computer and all its built-in autonomic machinery would
take care of me. Better than he would be able to; that's what it was designed
for. Especially since he had no way of knowing how long he would stay sane. The
craziness had come over him like a storm, and it had passed, but it might come
again. Better to let the ship bathe and feed and comfort his child."
"And bring it back to Earth," said Wycliffe.
"Bring you back. The Salander 3 's return program wouldn't have kicked in
while your father was still alive. The computer only went into autopilot when
it could no longer detect any adult human presences aboard."
There was some small comfort to be had from that.
Sarah felt cold and empty, the hard bravado she had been displaying now worn
thin, as though the warmth of the yacht's lounge had failed to reach the bones
chilled by the ocean's storm. Still, she thought as she gazed at the elaborate
marquetry of the cigarette box's lid and did not see it. Still . .
he was trying to protect me the only way he could.
From all the bad, crazy things. From himself. "But ... we don't know why
he did it. What could have caused Anson Tyrell to go mad." V
Sarah looked up and saw the
two men in conference, heads leaning toward each other, voices lowered but not
to whispers, as though they had simply put her presence out of their minds for
a moment. Between them, seated in the wing chair, her hallucination of the
Rachael child looked up at them, following their conversation like a tennis spectator.
"That's true," replied Zwingli. He nodded
thoughtfully. "We have more details ... but not really any more
information. Not that we can use."
"That's a problem."
Behind the square-rimmed glasses, Wycliffe's eyes seemed to focus on his own
deep considerations. "To have come all this way .
"Yes As
though in a slightly distorted mirror,
Zwingli's gaze looked the same, complete to the spectacles
exactly like those of the late Eldon Tyrell. "It seems a
shame .
Wycliffe
remained silent, lips pursed in thought.
"Do you really suppose we could? I mean, ask her
to do that .
"Ask
me to do what?" Sarah heard her own voice cut across the yacht's lounge.
"What are you two talking about?"
"We wouldn't ask it of you, Miss Tyrell Wycliffe raised and spread his hands.
"If it weren't so absolutely critical to our mission . .
"That's right." Zwingli nodded vigorously.
"We're really only thinking about the ultimate fate of the Tyrell
Corporation."
"I bet." A bitter taste formed on Sarah's
tongue. "You want me to go back down there. Back down to the Salander 3. I
didn't bring back enough information with me on that last trip. Not enough to
suit you, at any rate."
"As I said." Wycliffe made an attempt at looking apologetic.
"Only because it's so crucial. That's the only reason. You understand
that, don't you?"
"Oh, I understand all right." Sarah stood up
from the chair. She pulled the robe tighter around herself, grabbing the
dangling ends of the belt and cinching it hard at her waist. "And as you
also said-" She could feel the stiffer embroidery of the company logo
against her skin, just above
AL
her heartbeat. "Without the Tyrell Corporation,
I'm nothing. So I really don't have much choice in the matter."
"That's rather a ... harsh way of looking at
it-"
"Stuff it. You're supposed to be working for me.
And I don't need your lectures." Sarah held out her hand, palm upward.
"You promised me something. Back on Mars. And I haven't gotten it
yet."
Wycliffe looked puzzled.
"Promised you what?"
"A gun. Another one, to
replace the one I had."
The two men exchanged nervous
glances.
"Don't worry about it, for Christ's sake." Sarah shook her
head in disgust. "It'll be all right-" "Miss Tyrell ... that
might not be such a good idea. Not right now.
She glared at Wycliffe. "You mean, not after I've
been talking about killing myself."
"Well .
"Look,
you want me to go back down there? Then give me the gun. Because I'm not going
to go down there without it."
A faint smile showed on Zwingli's face. "A gun
wouldn't help you. Not there. Not with those kinds of
things."
"I don't care about that."
Sarah kept her hand extended in the same position. "Give me the gun. Or
you can kiss off getting anything more from the Salander 3."
Wycliffe's owlish gaze regarded her for a few moments
longer. Then he turned and walked over to the cabinets at the far end of the
lounge, extracting a ring of keys from his pocket as he went. He came back with
a large black object in one hand. "Here you are," he said stiffly.
"As you requested."
She examined the gun, turning it from side to side. It
was bigger and heavier than the one she'd had back on Mars. That should do.
"How do I know that it's loaded?" Sarah held it at arm's length,
sighting along her wrist and down the weapon's massive barrel. "Or that it
works at all? Maybe it's a dummy, just some prop you got ready for me."
A sigh from Wycliffe. "It's loaded. We keep them
that way." "I need to test it. Before I go back down there." He
glanced toward one of the lounge's dark-filled
viewports. "Perhaps when
the storm is over. In the morning; then you could go outside with it-"
"No." Sarah shook her head. "I don't
have to go outside." Arm still extended, she swiveled the gun around.
"Not at all."
The bullet caught Wycliffe in his chest, sending him
aloft, arms spread wide, as though he were falling back onto some invisible bed
just behind him. He landed in a crumpled mass at Zwingli's feet. The other man
looked down at his partner's corpse, then back up at Sarah, eyes wider behind
the square glasses than they had ever been before.
This is too easy. The echo from the first shot was
still rolling around the space as she pulled the trigger once more. They must
have wanted it this way. She didn't care whether they had or not.
"Gosh." The Rachael child had gotten out of
the wing chair and had gone over to look at the two bodies, one lying on top of
the other. The Eldon Tyrell memorial glasses gazed blankly at the lounge's
ceiling. "What's going to happen now?" Unfazed, the child looked over
at Sarah.
She set the gun down on the small table, then
extracted a cigarette from the ornate box. "I've got other business to
take care of." Sarah slipped the lighter into the robe's pocket. "Far
from here." Tilting her head back, she exhaled smoke. "Unfinished
business."
"Can I come with you?"
A shrug. It didn't matter to her. The little girl
didn't really exist, and, for all practical purposes, the two die-hard
loyalists had stopped existing as well. She was alone.
"Sure." She turned and started back to the
master suite, to finish dressing before going up and setting the yacht's
course. Back to Mars. And Deckard. She wondered idly how he'd react when he saw
her again. I'll know soon enough. "Don't fade away on my account."
Sarah glanced over her shoulder at the image of the little girl. "Stick around
as long as you like . .
He woke up
and wondered where the hell he was.
For a moment, Deckard thought he was back in L.A. Or
that he'd never left it and that everything that had happened anywhere else had
been a dream, the kind you snap out of like falling off a cliff or the edge of
one of the tallest buildings. Covered in night sweat, heart pounding inside
your chest, fingers scrabbling at anything that would provide a second's hold.
An alley; he could tell that much, as full
consciousness seeped back into his head. Narrow, cramped, and dark, at the
bottom of thickly grimed and graffiti-scrawled walls with no windows. A damp
cushion of rubble beneath him, moldering urban decay that had been swept or
pushed or just blown by the wind into these forgotten dead-end niches; the
sweet, rank smell of garbage and other human castoffs filled Deckard's
nostrils. His own stink as well, as though he had been lying there for some
undetermined amount of time; he ran a hand across his chin and found the stiff,
short bristles of a two-day beard.
There had been an alley like this back in L.A., lots
of them, most of which he'd been in during his blade runner days. Often with an
escaped replicant at the terminus, at that point where there was no place left
to run to. Where all they had left was to press their spines against the
buildings' steaming bricks and retrofitted exhaust shafts and wait for the
shadowed figure to approach and lift the big black gun in his hand, aim, and
fire, that roar of light the last thing their manufactured eyes would ever see.
Deckard knew he didn't have a gun on him-he couldn't sense that weight tugging
anywhere in his begrimed clothes-so he felt sure he hadn't fallen back into
that soul-killing time.
The Outer Hollywood studios? He pushed himself up into
a sitting position, scanning the area for more clues. Maybe he'd found himself
in that perfectly reconstructed L.A., the faux cityscape orbiting above Earth's
brown atmosphere. A few seconds was enough to convince him otherwise. No extras,
thought Deckard, looking out to the alley's mouth. So it couldn't be Outer
Hollywood-the money had always been spent there on a crowd of pedestrians,
expertly gotten up like the real L.A.'s packed and cultish street life. The
area he could see now, out beyond this alley, was empty, at least for the time
being.
"Hey.
Hey, buddy ... let me help you with that .
Deckard heard the voice at his ear, a ragged,
whispering sound. And felt the other's presence, whoever it was, close enough
to touch. My cop skills must be all shot to hell, he couldn't help thinking
ruefully. He'd let somebody get right next to him without any instinctive
defenses' being triggered.
A hand fumbled at the place where Deckard's own hands
were crossed over the front of his jacket, holding on to some light object like
a souvenir from his forgotten dreaming. It felt like thin metal, a box of some
kind, light enough to be empty; his thumbs felt the ridge where the lid snapped
tight. The other person's hands tugged at the little box, trying to slip it out
from under Deckard's grasp. That pushed him to full awake; his eyes snapped all
the way open, catching sight of a grizzled, cadaverous face close to his. One
hand left the box and backhanded the stranger, knuckles spattering blood out of
the gap-toothed mouth.
"Jeez ... you didn't have to do that The other
man scuttled a few feet away and then crouched, wiping the red from his face,
yellowed eyes sulkily watching Deckard. "You want to be left alone, just
say so .
The alley had to be on Mars, in the back reaches of
the emigrant colony; the ineffectual roller had the twitching, jittery look of
someone just starting to fall under the effects of acute stimulus deprivation.
The skin under the rags and dirt seeped raw from the man's broken fingernails'
plucking at his own flesh. Deckard drew himself up farther, leaning his back
against the wall behind him. He looked down at the box in his hands-chipped
white enamel on thin metal, with a faded red cross in the lid's center-and
tried to remember what it signified. Inside his head, the blurred components of
a dream moved toward each other, linking up one by one.
Now I got it-a picture had formed, a little wrinkled
face with weepy eyes. It grew clearer; Deckard saw the rest, not a dream but
memory. Not entirely real, but real enough; something that had actually
happened. A room with earthquake cracks running through the plaster, even
across the high ceiling, the white dust sifting over toys and dolls, big ones,
a frozen ballerina and a fat, silently laughing clown. The face of an aging
child wasn't one of those, but a human's face; or what had been a human,
Deckard corrected himself. Now a deity in his own little pocket universe. Which
is where he'd just been, and from which he'd fallen out of . . . how long ago?
Deckard reached over and grabbed the quivering man's
thin wrist, pulling him closer. "How long have I been here?"
"Huh?" The yellow eyes stared at him.
Stringy muscles jumped beneath the man's hollow cheeks. "What're you
talkin' about?"
His temper flared higher as he yanked the man right
into his own face. "How long have I been lying here in this alley?"
"Huh-how should I know? C'mon, fella-uh!"
The pawlike hands shoved futilely at Deckard's chest. "I don't-"
"When did you first see me here? How long
ago?"
"Maybe ... maybe yesterday. Yeah-" The man
gave a nod vigorous enough to rattle his whole body. "Yeah, there was a
pile of stuff here when I went by, and that was yesterday, and then I came back
to check it out . . . and it was you. Okay? So that's how long you been here.
Since yesterday. Let go of me, willya?"
Deckard released him with a hard thrust of his arm.
"Take a hike." The man scurried out toward the street, twitching
slightly less from the input to his nervous system.
A day at least, lying in this alley-Deckard shook his
head, trying to clear out the last of the fog. Even without having been unconscious,
his time sense was screwed up, an aftereffect of being in Sebastian's private
universe. That was one of the well-known problems with getting involved with
any of that dehydrated deity stuff: a true Rip van Winkle syndrome, only in
reverse. He had probably spent less than an hour of perceived time in there,
and years could've gone by out here in the real world; no way of telling how
much time had elapsed before he'd fallen into the alley's muck and trash.
The rest of his memories coalesced, sharper than the
indistinct images and forms left by dreams. He could recall everything that had
happened, from the moment he'd found himself walking along Sebastian's
re-created L.A. street, with the Million Dollar Theater's neon glimmering off
the rain-soaked
pavement, all through the seismic fragility of the
toy-stocked hideaway at the top of the Bradbury Building. I lied to the poor
bastard, thought Deckard. He was in no condition to start feeling guilty about
it. All he'd been trying to do was buy a little more of that false world's
time, enough for Sebastian to tell him the big secrets. So he'd conned the
genetic engineer turned small-scale god, handed him that line about Pris's
being somewhere else at the fringes of that patched-together L.A., waiting for Sebastian
to come find her. What a shuck-maybe it was just as well that he'd dropped out
of the pocket universe and back into this larger one before Sebastian had found
out he'd been given the shaft again. The guy might have really gone to pieces,
worse than just the building shaking into plaster atoms.
Something else had been there,
that Deckard remembered:
the little box, battered white metal with a red cross
on the lid. Sebastian had forced it into Deckard's hands, pressing it on him,
excitedly going on about how important it was .
Deckard looked down at the object in his hands, the
exact same one as he'd seen and held in the dehydrated deity's pocket universe.
Makes no sense, he thought. The box looked like the container for some sort of
regulation first aid kit; it even had clips on the back for mounting on a wall
or in a cabinet-ordinary enough, but it didn't belong here. It'd been part of
that other, smaller universe, the one that the transmogrified Sebastian had
pulled together from the contents of his head. Everything Deckard had perceived
there, from the snakelike glow of the theater marquee's neon shimmering on the
empty wet sidewalk to the maniacal laughter of the clown mannequin, had its
existence in that world, not this one. Even the feel of the box's lid, both
enamel smooth and rougher where the rusted metal was exposed; by rights, it
should have stayed back there in Sebastian's illusory hideout. Deckard knew he
should have woken up with hands empty, no matter what some tiny withered god
had tried to put in them.
The temptation to throw the metal box away-just
another encumbrance, when Deckard had enough on his mind already-rose in him.
He could just pitch it onto the rest of the trash and junk that formed the
alley's bottom strata, and not miss it. The box, first aid kit or whatever it
was, or had been, felt virtually weightless-he gave it an experimental shake
and heard some even smaller objects rattling around inside. Prying the lid
open, Deckard found a couple of small brown vials, antiseptic liquids that had
dried up despite their seals; a plastic bottle of aspirin with nothing but
white dust inside; a few once-sterile bandages, now suspiciously stained with
age. A paper label had been inexpertly glued to the inside of the lid; if it
had had instructions or words of medical advice, they had long since faded
away.
I should've let the guy have it, thought Deckard.
Instead of getting into a hassle with the twitchy stim-deprived case who'd been
trying to lift the little metal box from him. Then it would have been his
problem, about what to do with it.
Deckard cocked his wrist, preparing to flip the
ancient first aid kit into the farther reaches of the alley, then hesitated.
For some reason, Sebastian had wanted him to have it, had hurried to shove it
into his hands when the pocket universe had started to fade away. And the box
had come with him when Deckard had fallen back into this world. If nothing
else, it made for a strange, sad remembrance of the age-wrinkled figure and his
retinue of somber toys.
He tucked the box into his jacket pocket and stood up.
The empty vials rattled against the metal, an erratic, hollow rhythm as Deckard
headed for the colony's streets that had people in them. Cop instincts shifting
to criminal: if anybody was looking for him, it would be easier to hide in a
crowd than out in the open.
The door
of the hovel was unlocked; the knob turned in his hand without resistance. It
had taken him
another half hour, pushing and shoving his way, head
down, through the thickest part of the milling pack, to get to the Niemand
residence; the last dozen or so yards, where there had been no one about except
for a few total burnouts rooting blindly through the accumulated debris, had
been the most nervous-making for him. He knew that if any kind of trap had been
laid, it would be right here on his own front step. The old instincts, hard to
root out as the sinews along his bones, had again moved his fingers under his
jacket, searching for the gun he'd carried in his other life; his hand came out
as empty as it had on the neon-lit street of Sebastian's private universe.
Darkness inside; he pushed the door open, enough to
reach in and flip the switch on the wall. In the hovel's cramped spaces,
everything looked as it had before he'd left, minus himself sitting at the
table, slumped unconscious. The briefcase was still there, handle turned toward
the door; he could see his initials on the small metal plate beneath. And the
various paraphernalia, the graduated beaker and glass
rod, the packet torn open with a few granules of the
white powder spilled out, the spoon from the kitchen area . . . a tableau that
might have been of more interest to a drug enforcement agency, if any had stuck
their heads inside the hovel.
He shut the door behind himself. As soon as he had, he
knew there was someone else there with him; he could sense the minute
disturbance in the trapped air, different from the leakage through the
ceilings' and walls' multiple patches and caulking. Deckard halted, listening,
hearing nothing; then stepped quickly around the table, taking the couple of
paces to the bedroom door and shoving it open.
"Mr. Niemand-thank goodness you're home!"
The calendar on the wall spoke in its flutey, overexcited voice. "Terrible
things have happened while you were away! Murder and ruin!"
Deckard ignored the calendar. In the fall of light
from the room behind him, he saw a figure lying on the bed. Smoke from a strong
tobacco, more expensive than anything available in the colony's black market,
drifted as a thin grey wraith to his nostrils. The figure on the bed brought
the cigarette to her lips and inhaled; the small glow of fire drew the familiar
angles and shadows of Sarah Tyrell's face. She didn't even bother to look at
him, but went on gazing abstractedly up at the water-stained ceiling, her dark
hair unbound and spread across the pillow.
"You're
home," said Deckard. He sat down on the edge of the bed. "Where'd you
go?"
"Far, far away Ash drifted, unnoticed by her,
across the back of her hand and onto the blanket. "You'd be amazed,
probably, if you knew."
"Probably so." He let his shoulders slump
forward, his forearms against his knees, tiredness stepping along the chain of
his bowed spine. The clock on the little bedside table was gone, its metal and
plastic bits scattered outside. No great loss; he'd hated the clock and its
idiot chatter as much as Sarah had.
Clockless and shadowed, the room seemed to exist outside
of time. From the corner of his eye, he could see her without
effort. Overlays of memory slid beneath the thinning
smoke. They looked so much alike, this face and that other; identical, as Eldon
Tyrell had meant for them to be. He had no need to close his eyes in this
darkness; he could see the other one, the one he'd loved, the dead one. Deckard
had to make a dead thing out of himself, something without desire, to keep from
lying down beside her. Taking her in his arms, bringing his face to hers, smoke
and kiss and the presence of her body, alive and real and an illusion. He
wouldn't have cared .
The calendar on the wall sensed the deep reverie into
which he had fallen. "Mr. Niemand," it whispered, as though fearful
of intruding. "There's something you should know."
He didn't look up from his own hands dangling empty
before him. A slow nod and sigh. "What's that?" "There's
somebody else here. I mean, besides you and Mrs. Niemand."
Deckard raised his head, taking a slow scan across the
room. He stopped when he encountered another pair of eyes gazing back at him.
"Who are you?"
A little girl, with dark hair drawn back into a braid,
regarded him somberly. "Don't you know?" She sat on one of the chairs
from the kitchen area table that had been dragged into the bedroom's corner.
The girl tossed her head so that the braid fell across one shoulder. "She
knows."
He looked over at Sarah, lying on the bed. "What
the hell's going on? Who's this?"
"Oh, for Christ's
sake." Sarah emitted a groan of disgust. She kneaded her brow with one
hand. "Don't you start with that." Pushing herself up against the
wall behind the bed, she fixed an angry glare upon him. "You know there
isn't anyone there. Don't pretend you see someone."
For a moment longer, Deckard gazed into the dark
centers of the woman's eyes, then turned back toward the presence in the room.
The girl shrugged and shook her head. "That's the
way she's been talking. She didn't believe those other two men, either, when
they said they saw me." The girl lifted her chin in obstinate defiance.
"She doesn't think I'm real. But I am."
Deckard nodded. "She has her little ways."
He looked back
at Sarah. "Where'd she come from? Why did you
bring her here?"
"Now I'm really pissed
off." In swift, angry motion, Sarah swung her legs over the side of the
bed; she jabbed her cigarette out against the table as if she could drive it
through the imitation wood like a nail. "You know goddamn well where she
comes from. She comes from whatever weird little scheme you and those die-hard
Tyrell Corporation loyalists must have cooked up together. I don't know what
kind of twisted gaslight agenda you people thought you could get rolling."
She turned a fierce, annihilating glare upon him. "Maybe you wanted to
drive me even crazier than I already am. Though why you'd want to bother is
beyond me. I'm already at the limit." Her words came through gritted
teeth. "I can see her, but I'm supposed to; she's my hallucination."
He resisted the temptation to go over and grab Sarah
by both shoulders and rock some sense into her. "Look," said Deckard,
setting a hand flat on the bed. "I'm not going to go into details now, but
I just came from someplace that doesn't exist. Not the way that real things
exist. So I know the difference. There's a girl sitting in this room with us,
and I want to know what she's doing here. That's all."
The radiation that lasered out from beneath Sarah's
eyelids went up another notch in lethality. "Fuck you, Deckard." She
stood up and strode past him, out to the front part of the hovel.
"All right." Every encounter with Sarah
Tyrell left him feeling exhausted, not the least of which came from the
cognitive warpage of seeing the face of the woman he'd loved looking back at
him with utter contempt and hatred. He leaned forward and placed his hand
gently on top of the little girl's. "So you'll
have to tell me. What's your name?" "You
know . .
"No, I don't." Deckard tried to smile as
gently as possible. "I really don't." "I'm Rachael." She
looked straight back into his eyes. "My name's Rachael
He felt the room go still
around him, around the two of them, himself and the grave, dark-haired little
girl. A mo
ment of stopped time, as
though the world itself had held its breath, caught the way his was, next to
his heart.
"Is this some kind of a joke?" He spoke
without anger, all harshness filtered out of his voice. The child's hand, a
thing of warmth and flesh and skin, was tangible beneath his palm. "I
won't be mad-I won't be mad at you-if it is. Did somebody tell you to say
that?"
"Of course not." She looked offended.
"It's my name. It's my real, real name." A pitying expression came
into her eyes. "I don't have any other."
The
calendar on the wall rustled its pages. "I don't think she's lying, Mr.
Niemand."
"No ... I don't think she is, either." He
didn't look up at the calendar and its photogenic scene of a vanished
wilderness. "That's not the problem." Deckard's gaze was still held
by the unblinking regard of the child. Sometimes people lied and sometimes they
didn't; sometimes they simply believed things that weren't true. "What's
your last name?"
She shook
her head, the thick dark braid swinging behind her. "I don't know. Nobody
ever told me
that."
"Who are your parents?"
A cloud passed behind her eyes. "They're dead. They've been dead a
long, long time."
Around them, in the silent room and the world outside
the hovel's thinly fabricated walls, time had started up again; Deckard could
feel his heart once more moving through its paces. Something had happened, he
knew; a door had opened to some other time, and this child had stepped through.
It'~s her, thought Deckard. She's not lying. Rachael .
He could see it in the child's face. In the darkness
of her hair, bound behind her; in the open, unashamed eyes; in the calm
self-possession that radiated through every posture and motion of the small
frame. He had loved, kissed and held in his embrace, slept with an adult
Rachael, if a replicant that would live only four years total could be called
an adult; she had been created that way, her childhood a false memory stolen
from the human woman Sarah Tyrell and implanted inside her head. He had never
seen Rachael as a child, except for a moment, a dehydrated slice of time; in
the photos that
she had brought to his apartment, that she had shown
to him in a futile attempt to prove that she was human. Those had been photos
of Sarah, he knew, or else total fabrications, bad-faith evidence concocted in
Eldon Tyrell's workshops, as phony as the ones that the replicant Kowalski had
been obsessed with. There was no need for Deckard to have seen those old
photographs, the ones that the
adult Rachael's trembling hand had thrust toward him,
to recognize the child now sitting a few feet away. He could have closed his
eyes, or kept the room in absolute darkness, not even seen the child's eyes and
face, and he would have known that Rachael-not the woman he'd loved, as a
woman, but some aspect of her-was there with him.
From his own memory, Deckard pulled up another
question to ask the child. Something that he'd been told, reminded of, in the
Van Nuys Pet Hospital, that sanctuary for escaped replicants where Isidore
busied himself converting them into creatures that could pass for fully human.
There had been another photo there, an old news clipping on the wall of
Isidore's office that he had looked at and wondered about. Because the woman in
that ancient photo had looked so much like Rachael.
"Tell me something." He leaned forward,
bringing his gaze level and just inches away from the little girl's eyes.
"Was your mother's name Ruth?"
The girl's face lit up. "Yes! It was!" She
did a quick, excited bounce in the chair. "That's what the nanny told me
her name was. It was Ruth."
He angled
his head to one side. "What nanny?"
"Well ... not like a proper nanny. Like in the
storybooks and the videos." The child named Rachael gave an embarrassed
shrug. "That wasn't real; not like me and you. It was just the computer,
and the machines and stuff, that took care of me. 'Cause there weren't any real
people . . . at least until she came along." The child gestured toward the
door-and Sarah, in the hovel's other room. "There were just ghosts and
things that looked like people-they were all dead, though. So the nanny had to
tell me all about stuff." She looked closer at him. "Do you
understand?"
"Sure." Deckard nodded. He had an idea of
what she was talking about. "This place, with the nanny and the ghosts-
did it have a name? Was it called the Salander 3?"
"That's it!" The little girl looked excited
and pleased, as though finding herself on another human being's wavelength. She
suddenly looked puzzled, forehead creasing. "How do you know that? You
weren't there."
"Oh ... I know all sorts of things." More
flashes from the time he'd spent with Isidore, and even before that, rummaging
through what was left of the LAPD's ancient files on the Tyrell Corporation.
There had been all sorts of fragmentary data, bits and pieces transferred one
way or another into the personal memory bank he carried around inside his head.
The problem isn't in knowing things, mused Deckard. It~s understanding them.
Like how did this little girl come to be here? She
didn't look to be more than ten years old, if that-the mix of a somber adult
quality, a wary regard of the things happening around her, and those kid
reactions, when he'd guessed her mother's name, made it hard to precisely fix
her age. Deckard suspected that if he asked her that simple question, the reply
would be that she didn't know. How could she? Something had gone wrong with the
flow of time itself for the girl to exist at all. If she really was the
daughter of Ruth Tyrell- he tried to remember the father's name, having to
concentrate on the memory of the old newspaper clipping, before coming up with the
name Anson, the brother of Eldon Tyrell-if that was true, and right now he felt
sure it was, then it meant that the girl had somehow been born after her
parents had died on the Salander 3's aborted mission to the Proxima system.
And what did all the rest of
it mean? Deckard tried to sort through the pieces as he studied the girl's
face. He could see the other Rachael, the one she would grow up to be, already
present there, as though an embryo, or more accurately, a flower that had only
begun to show the color of its petals. No sexual feeling was triggered in him
by the girl, though everything about her-the color of her eyes, the lift of
chin and shape of cheekbone, even the barely perceptible fragrance of
her dark hair-reminded him of the adult Rachael who
had slept in his arms. A sadness-tinged wonder, rather, at the girl's
appearance; she could have been the child that Rachael and he would have had
together, if replicants could bear children. One more thing of which Eldon
Tyrell had deprived them. But that was what the girl looked like; a convoluted
genetic inheritance, yet breeding true, from the smiling beauty of Ruth caught
in the old news clipping photo .
and how much farther back? Perhaps the woman that
Anson Tyrell had married, had tried to take with him to the stars, had been
part of a long line of heartbreakers, not so much beautiful-though Rachael had
been that, and Sarah Tyrell was, even now-as some other quality, almost
invisible but still real, that laid a fingertip on men's hearts, stilling the
pulse like a soft, effective bullet.
She'll also be that way, thought Deckard as he looked
at the child sitting in front of him, waiting for him to speak again. Not for
me. For him, there would only be Rachael, the one he'd loved and had taken from
him. For someone else .
"What's going to happen now?" With the
slightest tilt of her head, the Rachael child indicated the bedroom's doorway.
A shadow passed through the light from the other part of the hovel. "She
doesn't seem to like me very much." A note of worry sounded in the girl's
voice. "And I don't have anywhere else to go. I don't know my way around
here, like I did back home."
"Well
it'll be all right." Deckard squeezed the girl's hand. "Nothing bad
will happen to you. I promise."
"What a performance." The air temperature in
the hovel seemed to drop several degrees as a bitterness-laden voice spoke from
the doorway. Deckard looked up and saw Sarah standing there, leaning against
the plastic door frame, arms folded across her breasts. "I really have to
hand it to you." She slowly shook her head, her glare daggering straight
into his eyes. "Who would have thought you were such a consummate
performer? I should've learned by now not to put anything past you."
"Oh, oh." The calendar, sensing trouble to
come, whis
pered from behind its image of snow and trees. "I don't
think-"
"Be quiet." Deckard hadn't taken his own gaze away from
Sarah. "What're you talking about?"
"Your little show here." With a sharp flick
of one hand, she gestured toward him and the girl. "I could almost believe
that you really do see her. The same as I can."
He didn't feel like arguing the point with her any
further. "You went off-planet-didn't you? You must have." That had to
be the case, though Deckard had no idea yet of how it could have been
accomplished. But the Salander 3, the interstellar transport upon which Ruth
and Anson Tyrell had headed for the Prox system, wasn't here on Mars. If it
existed anywhere, it would have to be back on Earth, sandbagged somewhere to
keep the notoriously toxic effects of the old-style propulsion units from
leaking out. "Where did you go? Who took you?"
"You sound like a cop," said Sarah
disgustedly. "Always ready for the interrogation, aren't you? Maybe you'd
like to take me down to the station and slap me around a while. That'd probably
seem like old times, wouldn't it? Oops, sorry-" She held one hand up.
"I forgot. With blade runners, it's shoot first and
don't even bother asking questions later. Right?"
"Knock it off." The needle of her words had
gotten under his skin, as intended. "Look. I went away, I came back, and
you're not here. I go away again-" That was what he figured his time in
Sebastian's pocket universe amounted to. "I come back, you're here. Great;
whatever. But things have changed. There's a kid sitting right here-" He
pointed to the Rachael child. "I see her, you see her ... she's real. I
don't want to hear any crap about hallucinations. I just want to know how you
got to Earth, how you got into the Salander 3, wherever the hell it is now, and
why you brought this girl back with you." His voice had hardened with his
growing anger. "How about that for right?"
"Don't try to bully me, Deckard." With one
hand, Sarah pushed herself away from the door frame. She stood looking at him
with her hands planted on her hips. "I don't even
want to talk to you, let alone
listen to you. You're just making it easier for me to go through with what I've
already decided to do. Not that I was going to find it hard to do it."
A great weariness settled on Deckard's shoulders, his
own fatigue meeting all the sense of lost hope and futility that Sarah Tyrell's
mere presence evoked in him. A bad marriage, he thought, just as if the aliases
of Mr. and Mrs. Niemand had been the names of real people. There had been a
time, when he had first taken Sarah from Earth, when he had believed he could
accomplish something by welding his fate to hers. Even if it had been no more
than moving her so far away from any sources of power that she could wreak no
more harm to humans or replicants. But you can't fight crazy people-he told
himself that once more, something he had known from the beginning. They~re
always crazier than you are sane. When he looked into Sarah's eyes, past the
memory image of the Rachael he'd loved, he saw the black hole of madness that
could consume all reason and desire and life itself, a place that could give
nothing back to the living, imploding as it were with the dense gravity of its
own obsessions. He should have known-he had known-that it was hopeless to fight
against something like that.
"All right," he said, pulling his bent spine
upright. "Whatever it is you've set your mind on, go ahead. I've got other
business to take care of." There was still the briefcase sitting on the
hovel's table, the one that spoke with the voice of Roy Batty and that had
Isidore's list of disguised replicants encoded somewhere inside. Whatever else
had happened in Sebastian's pocket universe, he'd at least been convinced of
that much. Both Batty and the rep-symps who'd put the dehydrated deity packet
inside the briefcase had been right: he would believe Sebastian when he would
believe no one else. Not because of the little genetic engineer's
transmogrification, his new enhanced status as a small-scale god, but simply
because Sebastian was incapable of lying. A nature as simple as his didn't
change, from this world to any other. Deckard looked up at the woman in the
doorway. "I've got things to do."
Sarah laughed. "Like
what?"
"You don't need to know." Somehow, he had to
find a way to carry the briefcase to the replicant insurgents, out in the
stars. Belief in the briefcase's contents and the acceptance of his mission
were locked together for him now; he had no choice.
The mission would have been hard enough to pull off
even if the U.N. were still sending new emigrants to its far cob-flies . . .
but possible. The shutdown of the emigration program, the absolute bottleneck
here on Mars, was compounded for him. They'i'e looking for me, thought Deckard
glumly. The people who'd already killed Dave Holden, the first courier attached
to the briefcase, they might be right outside the hovel, right now, watching
and waiting, the only mystery being why they didn't just move in and ice him
immediately. Maybe they were showboats, the breed of cops who liked to kill in
public, where everybody could see; that was the kind of display that could get
someone promoted to the blade runner
unit. He supposed that some grunt climbing to the ranks of the elite
over his ventilated corpse would be an ironic justice. But one I want to avoid,
Deckard reminded himself.
"What about me?" The Rachael child spoke up,
as though she had been able to read his milling thoughts. "You said
you promised .
"That's right, sweetheart. I promised." And
now this complication. Whatever he had to pull off to ferry the briefcase and
Isidore's data to the insurgents, it would have to be done with the little girl
in tow. And I don't even know where she came from or how she got here.
Still-'T'm not leaving you behind."
"True," said Sarah from the room's doorway.
"That's because you're not going anywhere, Deckard. That's what I came
back here to tell you."
He looked back around at her, but another voice broke
in before he could speak.
"Mr. Niemand-be careful," said the wall
calendar. "She's got a gun. A new one."
The calendar was telling the truth. The evidence was
in Sarah's hand, pulled from her coat pocket. The black metal
hung suspended a short distance from Deckard's face;
the muzzle's hole looked as deep and dark and fatal as the centers of the
woman's eyes.
He allowed one eyebrow to rise. "That's what it's
come to?" Deckard was really only surprised that it had taken this long.
"Oh it's always been this way." Sarah's gun
hand displayed no wavering. "I just didn't know it until recently."
"Well, it's always good to know what you
want." Right now, he wanted to keep her talking while he figured out what
to do. She knew how to use the gun; he was aware that she could pull the
trigger without flinching. No chance of making a sudden grab for the weapon;
Sarah stood a carefully judged distance from him, just far enough away that a
quick lunge was out of the question, especially from his sitting position. And
just close enough that she could unload the gun's clip right into his chest,
grouping the entrance holes into a pattern tight as her fist. "So A trickle of sweat ran down one side of his
neck. "What finally decided you?"
Sarah tilted her head back, keeping her narrowed gaze
and the gun aimed at him. "This little act of yours, this thing you've
cooked up with the shadow corporation, the die-hard Tyrell Corporation
loyalists-"
"I don't know what you're talking about. What
shadow corporation?"
"That's good, Deckard. That's real good."
One corner of her mouth lifted in a humorless smile. "You're a real
professional. An actor-you're going to keep your part rolling right up to the
very end."
"I'm not acting." He gave a shrug. "I
just don't know what the hell you're going on about."
"Deckard
... there was probably a time when I would've believed you about that." A
slow shake of the head; her expression changed to one of sad regret. "I
would've liked to have believed you. It might have made things easier in some
ways. But it's too late for that." A twitch of the gun's muzzle indicated
the little girl across from him. "This business-this performance-of
sitting here and talking and acting as if
you can see somebody else here with us. A child who
says her name is Rachael." She took a deep breath and expelled it through
clenched teeth, an audible hiss. "Those other two- Wycliffe and Zwingli; I
bet you know their names-that was how they were going on as well. Before I took
care of them. Trying to make me think they could see my hallucinations; trying
to make me think what I saw was real. You sonsabitches must've thought you were
really being clever."
"Never heard of anybody named that. At least not
outside the history books." Deckard spread his hands apart.
"Besides-even if these people, whoever they are, and I were in on some big
conspiracy against you, what would we accomplish by pretending we could see
things that don't exist? I don't get it."
"Why should I try to
figure it out? Perhaps you're just sick individuals." Sarah's face
darkened with anger. "Sicker when you put your heads together. Perhaps
you're all just crazy." The same thin, ugly nonsmile appeared.
"Perhaps even as crazy as I am."
He saw an opening. "You think so? I'm not joking
around now." Deckard kept his voice low and serious. "But did you
ever really consider that possibility? You know, that I might be as crazy as
you are. And not just that. But crazy in the same way."
Without saying anything, Sarah regarded him over the
top of the gun. The muzzle dropped a quarter inch, no more.
"Think about it." Deckard pressed on, trying
to expand the tiny fracture he'd created. "Wouldn't I have to be? You know
how contagious insanity is; it spreads from person to person. From you to me.
After the things we've been through together, how could it be any other
way?"
"Shut up." The gun
jerked back into position as Sarah visibly tensed. "I don't want to listen
to you. It's just another one of your con jobs, the stuff cops will say to get
themselves out of a tight place. I just didn't think you'd be quite so good at
it anymore."
He decided to backtrack, to come at her from another
angle. Work fast, he told himself. Even without a clock in the room, he knew
that time was running out, the moment approaching when she would realize she
had been stalled, the moment when she'd pull the gun's trigger.
"Tell me something," said Deckard.
"After you kill me .
what're you going to do with her?" He nodded toward the little
girl across from himself. "Anything?" Sarah gave a noncommittal
shrug. "Hadn't thought about it. Perhaps I'll try shooting her as
well." The Rachael child shrank back in the chair, her eyes wide and
apprehensive. "Doesn't seem like that would accomplish much. If she's not
even real."
"True," admitted Sarah. "But it might
get her out of my head. It doesn't matter, anyway, if it works or not. Since
I'm already planning on killing myself. That should do the trick."
The
hovel's bedroom had become a little world of madness, with Sarah as the
gatekeeper, the black
staff of her office weighing in one hand. For a
moment, Deckard considered whether he might have spoken more truly than he'd
intended. Maybe I am as crazy as her. A sure sign of that condition, when you
could talk calmly about death, about desiring and willing it, in a strange
parody of rationality.
"What if I'm not conning you, though?"
Deckard kept himself still, unthreatening. "I'm not in any conspiracy
against you; I don't know these two men you've been talking about. And I can
prove it."
"Really?" A sneer
passed across Sarah's face. "How?"
"You say I don't see her." He pointed a
thumb toward the Rachael child. "That I can't; she's a hallucination. Your
hallucination. So ask her to tell you something."
Sarah eyed him with suspicion for a moment, then
glanced over at the girl. "When we were inside the Salander 3 . . . when I
found you there . . . what was on the floor between us?"
"That's easy," said the girl. "There
was a big pooi of blood. It was so big you could see yourself in it, like a
mirror. That's what you said."
"'A big pool of blood,'" repeated Deckard.
He looked up and caught Sarah's gaze, fastening tight upon it. "'It was so
big you could see yourself in
it, like a mirror.'" He spoke the words dryly, in a matter-of-fact tone.
"'That's what you said.' That's what the girl here just said."
"Impossible Sarah's expression changed to one of
puzzlement. "You shouldn't have been able to hear her say that. She
doesn't exist. Except in my head .
"But I did hear her. So
she's in my head, too. Isn't she?"
The gun dropped lower as Sarah
tried to figure out the puzzle. "She's not real ... she isn't really here
. . . but you heard her .
He was
aware of the child watching them both. Maybe she'a the only sane one here,
thought Deckard.
A genuine smile, one of
realization, appeared on Sarah's face. "Then you're right," she said.
"You are crazy. Just like me."
"Just like you."
With her free hand, Sarah rubbed one corner of her
brow. "That's so strange. You know ... it comes as rather a relief. It's
like when I went into the Salander 3. And I found her." She nodded toward
the girl. "I didn't feel quite so alone. It didn't matter whether she was
real or not."
"You're not alone."
Make her believe it-Deckard softened his voice, the way one would speak to a
lover. "You and I-we really are in this together. Whether we wanted it to
be that way or not."
"Is that true,
Deckard?" She gazed at him in wonder. "Is it?"
He pulled something up from
memory, his memory and hers. "Do you know what you had me say, a long time
ago? Do you remember that? It was what you knew I'd said to her, that other
Rachael .
A slow nod as that tiny fragment of the past became
clear to her once more. "I wanted you to say those things to me. The way
you'd said them to her."
The past that had been his and Rachael's, that had
become his and Sarah's. He spoke the words again. "Do you trust me?"
Gun in hand, Sarah closed her
eyes, hearing him this time, and in that other time, and in that time stolen
from the woman he'd loved. "I trust you," she said softly.
Deckard knew he had her now. The gun still hung in the
air between them, her finger on the black trigger's curve, but not for much
longer. "Say ... I want you." More words from the past. "Say
it."
"I want you .
He stood up and reached toward her, not to take the
gun out of her trembling hand but to take her in his arms, press her close to
himself. The way he had taken Rachael and brought her lips to his, felt her
heartbeat trip and accelerate, in sync with his own. In this time, the gun was
caught between them, her hand trapped against his chest, the black metal like a
second shared heart, one with no pulse, no time, nothing but the death they had
both raced toward. Deckard kissed her, and for that moment she wasn't Sarah,
she was Rachael. Memory, the past, madness-all folded around him and he didn't
care.
He would have given anything, everything, for that
moment to last.
The woman in his arms-Sarah, Rachael; he wasn't sure
which-yielded to him. Perhaps she didn't know which one she was, the living or
the dead. Madness, thought Deckard as he drew her to the bed, his arm around
her shoulders, sitting her down beside him at the mattress's edge. He brushed
her dark, tousled hair away from her brow; her face burned feverish as she
leaned it into the cup of his palm.
For a few seconds they were
alone in the room; the other, the child, forgotten.
"You're right,"
whispered Sarah. "You're as crazy as I am. You poor bastard . .
He nodded. "There's not
much we can do about it."
"Nothing ... except She looked down at her hand, still gripping
the gun resting in her lap. "Except what I'd already decided to do."
Her unmasked, desperate gaze searched for some sign in his eyes. "That's
right, isn't it? That's what you want, don't you?"
Deckard could almost feel sorry for her.
"Sure." When he
looked back at her now, he saw only Sarah Tyrell. The
woman he'd loved was dead. A long time ago. "That's what I want."
"I knew it." An odd, broken happiness
sounded in her voice. "I should've known it."
"Tell you what." He
squeezed her shoulder, bringing her closer into his side. "I'll do it.
It's easy for me; you know that it is. I'll kill you, and then I'll kill
myself." He brought his head down to look straight into her eyes.
"That'll work."
A coy smile appeared; she looked up through her
eyelashes at him. "I trust you, Deckard ... but not that much. Besides . .
. if I went first, then I wouldn't get to see you dead. And I wanted that,
too."
"You can have whatever
you want." Deckard brought his face closer to hers again. "You
deserve it." As he kissed her, he brought his free hand between them, onto
hers holding the gun. Her fingers had relaxed, loosening their grip on the cold
metal. As he had hoped, known, they would.
In one swift arc, he grabbed the gun and pulled it
away, sealing it in his own fist. The arc was completed when he leaned back
from her, the gun's black weight swinging up and smashing across the angle of
her chin. The impact rocked Sarah's head back, lifting her partway and throwing
her back onto the bed, one empty hand reaching futilely toward him.
"Come on-" Deckard stood up and grabbed the
Rachael child's hand, yanking her to her feet. He shoved the gun inside his
jacket; it produced a hollow clank of metal against metal, the blunt muzzle
rapping on the ancient first aid kit that he had brought back with him from
Sebastian's pocket universe. Ignoring the sound, he pulled the girl toward the
door. "We're getting out of here."
"Mr. Niemand!" A voice shrilled from the
wall. "Now's your chance!" The calendar's pages fluttered.
"Don't just leave her-kill her! Shoot her! She's a wicked person-she blew
away the clock!"
He was
already reaching inside his jacket, his hand closing around the gun, as he
looked back toward
the figure on the bed. It's right, his thoughts ran, don't be a fool,
do it-All he saw was the woman's tangle of dark hair, an angle of her face
shadowed both by darkness and
the overlay of his own memory.
"Goddamn." He shoved the gun deeper into his
jacket. The chances were more than good, they were certain, that he'd regret
this. "Let's go."
In the front part of the hovel, Deckard let go of the
Rachael child's hand long enough to pop open the lid of the briefcase on the
table. "What's going on?" asked Batty's voice. "I could hear you
people talking-"
"Later." Deckard
swept the Sebastian paraphernalia, the packet and other bits and pieces, into
the briefcase, then snapped it closed. "Just shut up for now."
Briefcase in one hand, leading the Rachael child with
the other, he emerged from the hovel. No hail of gunfire met him. That~s a good
sign, thought Deckard wryly. He set off at a fast pace, carrying his burdens
with him.
That sonuvabitch." She
splashed cold water onto the bruise that had begun forming along one side of
her jaw. Small, but darkly colorful; it looked like a smoky-red L.A. sunset as
viewed from the top levels of the no-longer-existent Tyrell Corporation
headquarters. "I knew I shouldn't have trusted him."
Sarah fixed her angry glare at her own reflection in
the hovel's bathroom mirror. Angrier at herself than Deckard; she had known
what kind of a schmuck he was, and she had still let herself be conned by him.
I want you . . . The memory of those words in her mouth pooled salt on her tongue,
tasting like the blood from the cut lip Deckard's blow had given her. The
perfect image of a woman wronged; she looked at herself with contempt. I trust
you . . . Typical, she knew. They'll say anything, get you to say anything, and
then they're gone. Right after the fist is applied.
She emerged from the hovel's tiny bathroom, toweling
her face, punishing herself with the wincing pain from the bruise. At least the
chair near the bed was empty, the hallucination of the Rachael child vanished
for the time being. Deckard, for whatever twisted reasons were in his head, had
kept up the act of
pretending that the little girl was real right up to
the moment he was beyond the hovel's front door and out of earshot; she didn't
even want to speculate why. Probably just to drive me crazier. As if that were
possible.
"Mrs. Niemand ... you know, it's not too
late." The calendar on the wall had spotted her; the hectoring voice had
taken on an irritatingly superior tone. "There are still viable
options."
"What?" She scowled
at the calendar and its too-perfect scene of trees and distant mountains.
"What're you talking about?"
"You can still kill
yourself. These things can always be arranged. Just because Deckard is gone,
that doesn't mean you have to change your own personal plans."
"Oh, I like that."
Sarah shook her head in amazement. "Suicide as a viable option-that's
good."
"Well, or therapy perhaps," the calendar
said helpfully. "Some other kind of therapy, I mean. You were talking
about that, remember? In regard to these hallucinations you feel you're
suffering from. Now, in my opinion-and you can certainly take it for what it's
worth-I feel that surgery would be your last option. That's a little
extreme-"
"Just shut up." She reached over and ripped
the calendar off the wall. "You traitorous bastard. Telling Deckard to go
ahead and shoot me." She flung the calendar into the corner of the
bedroom, where it landed with a fluttering squawk. "You're lucky I don't
have a gun right now."
That was the problem. Out in the hovel's kitchen area,
as she rummaged through the cupboard over the sink looking for the meager stash
of coffee substitute, Sarah weighed her options. If I had the gun, she thought
grimly, I probably would. Kill herself; she hadn't changed her mind about that.
There was just no way that appealed to her as much as the finality of a bullet through
the head. After being so tritely
humiliated by Deckard, she didn't want to employ any
less violent method, anything-like a drug overdose or a Plathian
head-in-the-oven genuflection-that smacked of feminine frailty. After all this
time, she had to admit that she was of the blood of Eldon Tyrell in more ways
than one. If she could crack her own head open like an egg, she would have.
She brushed away a trace of white dust on the sink
counter and spooned the ersatz coffee into a chipped-edge cup. Her jaw still
ached, reminding her-as if she could forget-of Deckard. He probably enjoyed
that. Even more than the hit, the mind trip, the getting her to believe that he
was ready to die with her. Taming on the tap, she held her hand in the thin
stream of rust-tinged water, waiting for it to heat up. Well, she thought, her
Tyrell blood bringing her own decisions back into focus, if he doesn't want to
go voluntarily, that'~s all right. She held the cup under the tap and watched
it slowly fill. There are other ways.
Pulling a chair out from the table, she sat down with
the fake coffee in front of her. It tasted like brackish plastic. I should've
brought some real stuff back here from the yacht. There had been every
indication that it'd been stuffed with the expensive pleasures of life, as one
would expect from a part of the late Eldon Tyrell's private fleet. However
bleak her situation might be otherwise, she wasn't without resources; she
supposed she could find a way of unloading the yacht's contents-and the yacht itself-on
the emigrant colony's black market. Perhaps she could track down some high-up
exec in the Martian cable monopoly who'd give her a package deal for the whole
thing, rather than having to dispose of it piece by piece; either way, it'd
come to a good deal of operating capital, more than enough with which to buy
Deckard's murder.
She took another sip of the repellent black liquid,
holding the cup between both hands. She didn't need to; the muscular tremors of
her rage had died down, replaced by cold, nerveless calculation. And regret:
she wished now that she hadn't gotten rid of Wycliffe and Zwingli. She could
have used them. If nothing else, they had been hem only means of getting in
touch with the rest of the shadow corporation; she imagined that theme were
others dedicated to the Tyrell resurrection. And among those, former members of
the security department, hard men and deadly. Those were the ones she really
needed now. She didn't feel like waiting for them to show up at her doorstep,
the way the first two die-hard loyalists had appeared. Another slow, meditative
sip, her tongue almost numb to the taste; she'd have to think of some way of
contacting the shadow corporation .
A sharp, quick sound came from behind her. Someone had knocked on the
hovel's front door.
That's too good, thought Sarah. She carefully set the
cup down on the table. Either the universe, in its mysterious and infinite
workings, had learned to read her mind, or her hallucinations had become even
more convenient. All she had to do was ask for something and it would be
provided. With only one catch to it .
She turned around in the chair, facing the door.
"If you don't exist," she called out, "then go away. I don't
need you."
A muffled response came through the thin fiberboard.
"Hello?" The knob rattled, as though the person on the other side had
tried it and found it locked. "Is there anybody home?"
If it were a hallucination, considered Sarah, I
would've given it a key. She got up and went to the door, pulling it open.
The man on the hovel's doorstep was shorter than her,
running to fat, as if compressed from a taller size. "You must be
Sarah-" He smiled, blinking at her from behind ordinaryseeming lenses. If
he was part of the shadow corporation, he hadn't adopted the same square black
rims as the late Wycliffe and Zwingli had. "Sarah Tyrell? Am I
right?"
It struck her that hallucinations shouldn't need
introductions. Maybe he's real. "You could be." She put her hand
against the door frame. "Depends on who you are."
"Miss Tyrell, my name is Urbenton. That's all I
go by." His smile broadened, creating more elaborate details in his
rounded cheeks. From his breast pocket, he extracted a
business card and offered it to her. "That's how people know me."
She looked at the card, holding it by one corner. The
man's name appeared beneath larger letters spelling out SPEED DEATH
PRODUCTIONS, with a company logo of a stylized, sharp-edged skull with wings.
"Charming." She tried to hand it back to him, but he refused it with
an upraised palm.
"Keep
it." The man radiated an oily unctuousness, as though his excess body fat
were percolating into the air around him. "Just in case we can't come to
an agreement right now, Miss Tyrell-"
"How do you know my
name?" Sarah tilted her head, eyeing him with increasing suspicion.
"My real name."
"I've got a lot of contacts," said Urbenton
with a wink. "Contacts are important in my line of business. I'm a video
director. Producer, too. I do it all
A memory fragment drifted through Sarah's head. The
names, of both the man and his company, sounded vaguely familiar to her.
Deckard had said something about them, a long time ago. Before he had left the
planet the first time. Something about going to do a job for them. That's how he
knows my name, she thought. Because of Deckard. She tucked the business card in
her neckline. "What's that got to do with me?"
Urbenton glanced around the narrow, shadowed streets
of the emigrant colony, then back to Sarah. "May I come in? So we can
talk?"
"We're talking now."
She folded her arms across her breasts. "As I said-what's that got to do
with
me?"
His smile appeared more
forced. "Let's just say ... that maybe we can do business together. You
and
me."
"Oh?" She raised a
skeptical eyebrow. "Such as?"
"I have good reason to believe, Miss Tyrell, that
you'd like to have a certain Rick Deckard taken care of. Murdered, as it
were." The smile disappeared, replaced by a hard glitter in the man's
eyes. "How would you like it if I made that possible for you?"
Sarah regarded the man for a few seconds, then stepped
back, clearing the doorway. "Perhaps," she said, "you'd better
come inside."
"This'll do. For now." He steered the child
toward an opening beneath words outlined in flickering lightbulbs, half of
which had gone permanently dead. "Let's go in here."
Behind the bar, an unshaven figure swabbing out
glasses with a dirty towel; he spotted Deckard and the Rachael child as soon as
they stepped into the dimly lit interior. "Hey-" The bartender
pointed a black-nailed finger toward the little girl. "No minors."
Deckard left the girl a few steps away from him. With
the briefcase dangling from one hand, he leaned an elbow on the bar. "Let
me tell you something." He kept his voice low, face close to the
bartender's. "I was just talking with somebody who claimed that there's no
little girl at all. She's a hallucination."
An ugly
smirk curdled the other man's lip. "Yeah, right. Now get her out of
here."
Opening his jacket partway, Deckard displayed the
black metal of the gun he'd taken from Sarah. "About that hallucination.
Some very influential people think the same way."
The bartender's eyes shifted from the gun back up to
Deckard's face. "There's a real nice booth in the back. Suitable for a
party of one." He tried to smile. "Like yourself."
"Thanks." Deckard peeled a bill from the
rapidly dimishing roll in his pocket and laid it on the bar. "I really
value my privacy."
The establishment was dark enough, and so sparsely
inhabited that he was able to steer the Rachael child to the back with little
fear of being spotted. Once away from the bar and its pallid fluorescents
behind the ranks of bottles, the only illumination
came from the video screens hanging at strategic intervals from the ceiling. A
flickering wash of blue tinted the isolated faces gazing up, their hands
cradling the carefully nursed drinks that kept the patrons from being
eighty-sixed out of the place. None of them looked around at
Deckard and the girl slipping into the farthest booth;
eyes remained on their stimulus fix from the cable monopoly. He stashed the
briefcase beneath the table.
"Won't he call us in? That guy?" The Rachael
child had easily figured out that Deckard was trying to keep them from being
spotted by the emigrant colony's police. The evasive route that he had taken
them on this far left little doubt. "You don't trust him, do you?"
"Of course not." Deckard didn't look at her,
tucked into the darkest part of the booth and shielded by his own body. Eyes
adjusting, he scanned the bar's interior for any suspicious indicators. He was
grateful that Batty, the part of him imbedded in the briefcase, had heeded his
warning about staying quiet in public. "But we don't need to worry just
yet. The bartender'll keep a lid on it for a little while, just on the hope
that I'll feed him some more money."
"Is a little while all we
need?"
The child's voice was capable of unnerving him; she
sounded on occasion like an adult asking questions with a child's sharpness.
Deckard supposed that came from her unusual upbringing, whatever it had been,
on the Salander 3. "I just need time to think," he said, glancing
over at her. "If I get that, maybe we have a chance."
"Oh." The Rachael child mulled over his
words, forehead creasing. "What're you going to do?" "I said,
time to think. Not talk."
He was rewarded with silence.
Spreading his hands flat on the table, he leaned his head back against the
booth's padded leatherette and closed his eyes.
"Not interested in the
show, huh?"
Deckard's eyes snapped open at hearing, not the
child's voice, but a man's. Even before he focussed on the figure that had slid
in on the table's other side, his hand had darted inside his jacket and
fastened onto the gun.
He wasn't quick enough. The other man was quicker,
reaching across and seizing Deckard's wrist, pinning his hand beneath the
jacket. "You don't have to do that." The other man smiled.
"Think of all the commotion it'd make in here. Nice quiet place like
this." He squeezed the wrist
tighter, numbing the
fingertips on the gun's cold metal. "Perfect for a little
conversation."
The Rachael child had shrunk
back in the booth, watching the two men to either side of her.
"Yeah. It's lovely."
The speed of the other man's movement indicated some kind of professional
status; if not cop, then something equally deadly. Deckard nodded slowly.
"Very intimate."
"I knew you'd agree." The thin smile had
remained on the other man's face. "Now m going to let go of you, and then
we can just sit here politely looking at each other without things getting all
ugly between us.
I'm going to do that, Deckard, because I know you really do want to
talk to me. The bit with the gun lb just chalk that up as a nervous reaction on
your part."
The other's hand still hadn't let go of Deckard's
wrist. "I don't go in much for conversation."
"You will." The man
loosened his grip slightly. "Because you either talk to me or you can
forget about going much farther than this bar. Your ass is in the proverbial
sling, Deckard. I can get it out."
Deckard was silent for a few moments, then nodded.
"All right. Let's talk."
"You're a smart man,
Deckard." He let go and sat back in the booth, folding his arms on the
table. "Or smart enough."
"Who is this?" The Rachael child sounded
annoyed as she scowled at the broad-shouldered figure.
Deckard
didn't answer her, but looked closer at the other man, letting the angles of
the face assemble and connect with one in his memory.
"I know you," said Deckard. "You were
there at the Outer Hollywood station. I remember now-" The whole scene
flashed through Deckard's mind, including the corpse of David Holden, laid out
in a reproduction of the interview room at what had been the Tyrell Corporation
headquarters in L.A. "You were the one who killed that Kowalski replicant
right in front of me."
"That's right." The man looked pleased with
himself, as though flattered by Deckard's recall. "There really wasn't
time for proper introductions. The name's
Marley." He extended his hand across the table again, as though to shake
Deckard's. "Or at least that'll do for now."
Deckard looked at the hand in distaste. "You must
be joking."
"Not about this." The man shrugged and
pulled his hand back. "You're a tenderhearted soul, aren't you? It's not
as if you hadn't ever killed any replicants."
"I never went around bragging about it."
"Ah ... I see. The money was enough for
you." Marley appeared even more amused. "Well, Deckard, you don't
have to like me. You just have to . . . shall we say? . . . do business with
me."
The constant, self-assured smile irritated Deckard.
"What kind of business?"
Marley didn't answer; he looked up to the nearest
video screen. "You're right, you know; this isn't too interesting."
Some kind of sporting event that involved oxygen masks and a medical triage
staff at each end of the playing field was on. "That's all right,
though." He turned the smile back toward Deckard. "There's something
better coming on in a few minutes."
"I'm not interested in the cable schedule,"
grated Deckard. "Just tell me what you want from me."
"You've got it all wrong,
pal. It's what you want from me. I spent a great deal of time and effort
tracking you down, just so I could offer you my help."
Deckard didn't return the man's smile. "I don't
need it."
"Oh, I think you might," said Marley. "You've got a big
job ahead of you."
"What do you know about that?"
The other man shrugged. "Bits and pieces. Or
maybe the whole thing. You're trying to put together some travel plans, aren't
you? For you and the little girl here. And someone else. Or should I say some
thing? I guess it depends on how you regard that briefcase you've been toting
around. Is it human enough for you to think of it as a person?"
"Hey!" Batty's voice sounded from beneath
the table. "Fuck you, pal!" Deckard gave the briefcase a kick. "Shut
up. Let me handle this."
"You tell him," said
Marley. "That old bastard's out of the loop now. He's luggage. Too bad you
can't just wrap him up, stick the postage on, and mail him out to the far
colonies."
"Who says that's where we're going?" Deckard
wondered just how much the man sitting across from him was clued in on. "I
could be taking him and the little girl anywhere. Maybe back to Earth, for all
you know."
"But you're not." Marley's smile broadened.
"And I do know. I know all about the job you've undertaken. I know that's
what you're racking your brains over, trying to figure out how you're going to
get off-planet with that thing, how you're going to deliver it to the replicant
insurgents . . . the whole bit."
Deckard coldly regarded the
other man. "You know an awful lot."
"More than you do. I know
what's really in that briefcase." The smile faded, the man's face turning
hard and serious. "And I know who the little girl really is."
"Somebody who knows things like that ... or
somebody who even claims to Deckard
looked straight back into the other man's eyes. "Chances are good it means
that person's a cop. So who are you working for? U.N. security? LAPD?"
"I'm not with anybody
like that." Marley glanced up at the video screen. "You should think
of me as your friend. Like I said, I'm here to help you."
"And
like I said, I don't want-"
"Hey, just hold on a bit." Marley held up
his hand, palm outward. "We can talk some more in a little while. But
this-" He pointed at the video screen a couple of yards away. "This
is going to be a good program. I really want you to take a look at it. I think
it's something you'll get a bang out of."
Beside him, the Rachael child
had sat forward, trying to get a better viewing angle. Deckard looked over at
the screen. The sports event, whatever it'd been, had apparently ended; the
cable monopoly's logo, all swirling colors and state-of-the-art abstract
graphics, danced and shivered its
pixels. He knew it wasn't going to be a news show; there weren't any.
The cable's feeds were all entertainment, or what passed for it in this captive
market.
"You know," said Deckard, "I'm not
really interested in whatever soap opera you might be addicted to. Maybe you
should watch this on your own time. I've got more important business to take
care of right now."
"Not any more important than this. Trust
me." Marley gave a nod toward the screen. "This is just about the
most important thing in the universe for you. Just sit back and watch, all
right?"
The cable logo faded out and was replaced by another
one, a stark black-and-white graphic of a stylized skull with wings. Deckard
recognized it even before the words SPEED DEATH PRODUCTIONS pulsed into view;
the skull image and the video company name had been on the advance check he'd
received from that sweating, pudgy director he'd walked out on back at the
Outer Hollywood station. It took a moment longer to remember the guy's name.
Urben ton-the recall prompted a slow nod from Deckard. That was it.
In the bar's muffled quiet, the sound of a cheaply
synthesized sound track, all throbbing bass and disembodied string choirs,
oozed out of the video monitors' tiny speakers. Deckard found himself watching
intently, leaning forward across the table, despite his earlier scorn. On the
screen, a black night vista was suddenly broken by a leaping gout of fire.
"That
looks good." Marley nodded admiringly. "Real spooky and
dramatic."
The title appeared on the screen, blanking out everything but the
darkness behind it. Two words: Blade Runner.
"What the hell A surmise weighted with dread started to
form inside Deckard.
A crawl of other words, smaller than the video's
title, moved upward across the screen. Broken phrases lodged in Deckard's
head-based on a true story . . . from actual LAPD case records-with their
meanings slowly adding up to the realization of what he was seeing. The final
piece locked in when he saw his own name listed in the opening credits as
technical adviser.
Marley pointed to the words. "That was nice of
that Urbenton fellow, don't you think? Considering that you voided your
contract with him-he didn't have to leave your name on there."
"This
... this is the video he was making." With a sick feeling, Deckard gazed
at the screen. "That he hired me to go out there and help him with."
"Come on-he hired you for more than that,"
chided Marley. "Urbenton bought your life story-or at least that part of
it that went down in L.A., when you were tracking that last bunch of escaped
replicants. Well, here it is." He made a sweeping gesture toward the
nearest monitor and all the other identical screens mounted in the bar.
"This is the premiere showing. Right now, on the entire Martian cable
network." Another smile. "See? I knew you'd dig it."
"Shit-" Deckard
stared at the video monitor in dismay. The fury of his own thoughts drowned out
anything coming from the audio track. "Everybody's going to see this.
Everybody on this entire planet."
"That's right, pal."
Marley's hands made an expansive gesture, as though in congratulation.
"There's only one channel, and you're the star. It's your fifteen minutes,
Deckard; enjoy it."
Deckard didn't have time to respond to the other man's
sarcasm. This was something he hadn't counted on. Now Fm really screwed, he
thought. In a few minutes, once the video got past its opening sequence, with
all the artsy Los Angeles location shots that Urbenton had faked from the Outer
Hollywood street sets-once the story got rolling, Deckard's own story-then it
would be his own face up on the video screens. Not just here in this bar, but
everywhere. Nice, big close-ups, all zoomed-in and personal; he had watched
Urbenton directing the cameras during the video shoot, bringing them in tight
on the actor in the distinctive long coat carrying the police-issue gun through
the city's dark and rain-soaked streets. There had been some full-on shots that
would very likely fill the monitor screens. And it'll be my face, he thought.
Not the face of the actor playing me. But my face. That had been the other
thing that he'd sold the rights to,
that Urbenton and his Speed Death Productions had
bought. Spelled out in precise contractual language: . . . the undersigned
contracting party, in consideration of the financial remuneration specified
above, grants as well the right to use a full and accurate facial depiction of
self~ along with any associated physical mannerisms consistent with an
identification of the portrayed individual as the former Los Angeles Police
Department special agent known as Rick Deckard .
That was what he'd agreed to, the contract he'd
signed, back when he'd still been under the impression that the money from
Urbenton would be enough to get him and Sarah Tyrell off Mars and heading out
to the U.N. 's colonies in the stars. Deckard hadn't anticipated being on the
run, with Christ only knew what kind of police agencies breathing down his
neck. It was a wonder he hadn't been nabbed already; the suspicion had started
to grow in him that the cops were giving him a long rope, seeing if there was
anybody else he'd entangle before they picked him up. Eventually, they'd tire
of that game, get tired of waiting for him to contact his nonexistent
accomplices, and then Deckard would find the rope around his neck, where it'd
always been.
It was going to be a lot easier to tighten that noose
now, or as soon as this video had finished airing over every cable-linked
monitor in the emigrant colony. When Deckard had been there, at the Outer
Hollywood station, orbiting above Earth, Urbenton had even shown him how the
special-effects people were going to digitize his face, from the bones up
through the web of muscles, to the skin and every whisker stubble and freckle
on it, every little detail that made up the world-weary, tired-of-killing but
still deadly gestalt that Deckard saw when he looked in a mirror. Standard
practice in the modern video business: in postproduction, once the principal
photography was done, the techs would lay the digital face over that of the
actor who had gone through the paces on the set, who'd hit the marks and had
the prop guns fired at him, taken the hits from the other actors, done all the
hard stuff . . . and what the audience would see, when the video was broadcast,
would be a reconstituted Rick Deckard walking those garish, milling,
neon-streaked L.A. streets again, just as the real one had, gun in hand, eyes
scanning for his prey.
That'~s what they're going to see, thought Deckard,
right now. The only chance he'd had was based on anonymity, on being able to
move through the emigrant colony's crowds without being spotted, on hiding out
in the open, his face hidden in the torrent of other faces. And now that was
going to be taken away from him. They're going to see me. My face.
On the monitor screens, the video's opening credits
had ended; the camera angle had dropped from the fire-laced night skies above
L.A., crossed by the screaming flares of the police spinners, to street level;
the reflection of a neon dragon, red tongue darting through a crudely animated
sequence, shimmered on the wet asphalt. A figure in a long coat, shoulders
hunched with fatigue, was seen from the back. As the real Deckard watched from
the booth, the video's all-seeing eye moved in on his taped double.
Then a quick cut, the shot going to a front angle,
tight on the Deckard figure's shirt beneath the open coat's lapels, buttoned to
the top with a costume department duplicate of the rough-woven tie he'd always
affected back then. The shot moved up to the image's face, a close-up in good
lighting, a noodle bar's bright fluorescents driving away any concealing
shadows; the real Deckard winced, anticipating
what he was about to see-
He didn't. In the booth, in a cheap dive somewhere in
the Martian emigrant colony, Deckard stared in amazement- and with an
uncomprehending sense of relief-at what he saw on the monitor, echoed
simultaneously on the screens throughout the bar.
"That's not you," said a small voice behind
him. The Rachael child looked past Deckard and Marley, on either side of her,
toward the nearest screen. "I thought this was going to be about you and
everything, about stuff that happened to you before. But that doesn't look
anything like you."
"No
Deckard continued to watch the video image. The Deckard there, the
figure reenacting the story of those nights in L.A., had moved away from the
camera and into a
medium
shot; the face was still visible, though. "It's not my face."
"Now that is interesting." No surprise
registered in Marley's voice. "You weren't expecting that, were you,
Deckard? I was getting kind of a kick out of watching you. Really thought your
cover was about to
be blown,
huh?"
Deckard said nothing, but just nodded slowly, still
watching the image on the screen, the Deckard that didn't look like him.
"Something must have happened," continued
Marley. "For that Urbenton fellow to change his plans like that. I know
that wasn't the original deal. They were going to ceegee your face on top of
that actor's; all he had to do was go through the motions and it would wind up
looking like you were doing all that stuff all over again. Hunting down those
replicants like the bad ol' blade runner you used to be."
"I know." Deckard felt a measure of tension
easing out of his spine. The dismaying prospect that every other face in the
bar would turn toward him, connecting him with the image on the video monitors,
had vanished. If the police agencies were going to put out the net for him,
they would have to do it without the advantage of having every person with eyes
doing their spotting for them. "That's a break."
"You
figure it's just luck? The director Urbenton just happened to change his
mind?"
He looked over at the other man. "No-"
Deckard shook his head. "I don't have that kind of luck. If I ever did.
Nothing happens without a reason."
"For anybody not in the
kind of position you are, that would be considered paranoia. For you, Deckard,
it's the beginning of wisdom."
Whatever relief he had felt over the broadcast of the
video, and the absence of his face from it, was replaced by the suspicions he
had for this character. "I don't have to be real wise, buddy, to wonder
what it is you want from me."
"What do I want?" Marley looked back at him
with wideeyed, feigned innocence. "Like I said, I want to help you. And
the way I do that is by stopping you."
"Stopping
me from what?"
"Come on, Deckard. I'm
way ahead of you." The naive mask had dropped from Marley's face. "I
know what you're up to. You've accepted a little job, haven't you? The fact
that you're carrying around that talking briefcase only goes to prove it. If
you had any sense-if all you were interested in was saving your own skin-you
would've ditched it by now." Marley tilted his head toward the other
occupant of the booth. "Same with the little girl. Nice kid, but she's
only going to slow you down."
"That's
my problem," said Deckard.
"Oh, exactly." Marley's thin smile returned.
"It's your problem because it's your job. The job you've taken on for the
rep-symps of getting that briefcase and its data contents out to the insurgent
replicants."
Deckard stiffened. "If you know all that ... and
you want to stop me . . . then you must be some kind of cop. You'd have to be
working for the authorities."
"Not
at all." The smile grew wider. "I'm with the repsymps"
For a few seconds, Deckard
thought that one over, then slowly nodded. "Sure you are. You blow away
that Kowalski replicant right in front of me, and then you come and tell me
that you're working on behalf of the replicants. You really think I'm going to
believe that one?"
"Shooting the Kowalski replicant Marley shrugged. "Regrettable, but it
had to be done. And not even all that much to be sorry about-he was pretty much
at the end of the four-year life span that the Tyrell Corporation had built
into that model. So he didn't really lose that much. And besides, there are
other Kowalski replicants."
"That's a pretty cold attitude." Deckard
studied the other man. "At least I had the grace to develop a guilty
conscience over what I'd done."
"Good for you."
Deckard's words had left Marley unfazed. "That must be why you got picked
for this job you're doing. Guilty consciences screw up people's heads, make 'em
easy to manipulate. Like you. Otherwise, if you were thinking straight, you
would've been able to figure out a few things about the situation you're
in."
"Yeah?
Like what?"
"Work on it, Deckard." The other man leaned
closer across the table. "You think because I've said I want to stop
you-to make sure you don't get that briefcase and its data out to the
insurgents-you think that must mean I'm with the authorities. Have you ever
thought that it's exactly the authorities- the police, the U.N., whatever-who
want you to get that briefcase out to where you've been told it's supposed to
be delivered?"
"Hey!" The voice of Roy Batty piped up from
beneath the table. "Don't listen to this guy! He's trouble!"
Deckard glanced over to the monitor screen, where the
Deckard of the video, still wearing the actor's face, was talking to somebody
in a set that was supposed to be the LAPD's high-ceilinged main headquarters.
He didn't hear the characters' words, concentrating instead on what the figure
across from him had just said.
"Look at it this way," continued Marley.
"The cable monopoly here does whatever the authorities tell it to
do-that's why it gets to remain a monopoly. If U.N. security tells the monopoly
to run this video or that one, or that one"-he pointed to the
screen-"then it gets broadcast all over the colony. Same way with Urbenton
and his little Speed Death Productions company; if he wasn't in tight with the
police before, it wouldn't take much pressure, if any, before he'd do whatever
they tell him to. Especially since he doesn't
owe you any favors. If they told him to cut the
computer graphic effects, the dubbing in of your face over the actor who was
playing you-he'd do it in a second. Urbenton wouldn't care if it helped you or
hurt you; just the kind of guy he is."
Deckard had to admit that
Marley was right, at least as far as that part of the analysis went. "I
think I'm starting to see what you mean . .
"I bet you are. You're not totally stupid,
Deckard. If the police and the U.N. security forces and everybody else who
should be after you, if all those people wanted to find you and stop you from
carrying that briefcase out to the insurgents, they wouldn't have let that
actor's face stay in the video that's being broadcast. They would've told
Urbenton to go
ahead with his original production plans and dub your
face in there. So that everybody in the emigrant colony would know what you
look like; so they could put out a bulletin, offer a little reward, and there
would've been no place you could hide. We wouldn't be sitting in this cozy
little hole having this conversation; the police would've hauled your ass away
by now."
It made sense; or put another way, the video broadcast
didn't. This was their chance, thought Deckard, to make sure everybody knows
what I look like. And it hadn't happened. The corollary of the principle that,
for him, everything happened for a reason-not paranoia but wisdom, a survivor's
assessment of how the universe worked-was that when things didn't happen, that
was also because somebody wanted it that way.
"Then that would mean Deckard slowly picked
through his own words. "It would mean the authorities don't want to stop
me. They don't want to catch me . .
"They want you to get away." On the other
side of the table, Marley regarded him with evident satisfaction, pleased with
the impact his arguments had made. "So the question you have to ask
yourself now is . . . why?"
"Why do they want me to
get away Deckard rubbed his mouth with a knuckle. "They must have a reason
.
"It's not you, pal." Marley seemed to be
taking pity on him. "If it's any comfort to you-nobody's ever considered
you to be that important. So you needn't bother building up your ego now. It's
what you're carrying. The job you've undertaken. Got it?" He smiled.
"It's the briefcase. They want you to deliver it. Not the rep-symps, but
the authorities. The police, the U.N. . . . all of them. The bad guys."
"I told you!" Batty's
voice shouted louder from beneath the table. The briefcase vibrated against
Deckard's shin. "I told you this guy was trouble. He's messing with your
mind. Don't listen to him!"
The Rachael child leaned to
one side in order to talk to the briefcase. "It's okay," she said in
a soothing tone. "Nothing bad's going to happen to you-"
"Christ,"
spoke Batty disgustedly. "I don't need this. You
people are all screwing up big-time. Man, I wish I
still had legs. I'd walk out of here right now and take my chances on my own.
I'd let you all just sit here until you rotted away."
"Shut up." Deckard
resisted the impulse to give the briefcase another kick. "Problem is, the
guy's making sense."
"That's not a problem." A smile and a shake
of Marley's head. "It's your salvation, Deckard." "Goddamn it,
don't listen-"
Batty's voice had gone up enough in volume to require
action. Angrily, Deckard reached down and grabbed the handle, pulling the
briefcase up and slamming it down hard on the table. He looked around to see if
anyone in the place had noticed; as far as he could discern, the bartender and
the patrons scattered among the tables were still watching the dimly lit
adventures of the re-created Deckard in the video.
"Listen up," said
Deckard, laying his hand on top of the briefcase's lid. "You're getting on
my nerves. You keep yelling and carrying on, somebody's bound to think that's a
little unusual. And I don't really feel like attracting attention right now.
Understand?"
"You're the one who doesn't understand."
Batty's voice had turned sulky. "You got a job to do, and this asshole is
getting in the way."
"I don't care what I agreed to do." He
pulled his hand back. "Just shut up and let me work this out, or so help
me, I'll leave you at the nearest pawnshop and I'll take the two bucks I'll get
for you and spend it on aspirin. I'm not joking."
The
briefcase said nothing. It radiated a silent, sullen fury.
"Good
call." Marley nodded approvingly. "You're the one in charge. Remember
that-"
"Fine." The anger boiling up in Deckard
hadn't abated. "I'm in charge? Then I want answers. I want to know what's
going on. Right now, without any more cute shit from you."
"All right." Marley laid both his
large-boned hands on the table. "I'll give you the short-and-sweet
version, if you think
your little mind oan handle it. The briefcase
here"-he tapped on it with one flngernall-"Wa not what you thinb it
Is. It's not what you've been told."
"Yeah?
So what Is it, then?"
Marley
smIled coldly at him. "You're carrying a bomb."
Deckard sighed wearily.
"The hell I am." He had been hoping for something more plausible than
that. "The authorities supposedly want me to carry this briefcase out to
the replicant insurgents-because it's some kind of bomb? Get real."
"I am
real." Marley's smile didn't change. "This is as real as it
gets."
"Come on." Deckard pointed to the briefcase.
"How much damage could be accomplished with something this size? And it
came to me virtually empty; even if it were packed with high explosives-Christ,
even if it'd been shoved full of fissionable materials-how much of a bang do
you think that would amount to? Not enough to destroy a rebellion that's spread
across all the U.N. colonies out in the stars. You're talking some big distances
there, and a lot of replicants. If this so-called bomb killed thousands of
them-even hundreds of thousands-that wouldn't change anything." He shook
his head in
disgust. "How about you figuring something out?
Tell me-why would the authorities go to this much trouble
just to
enable me to carry one piddly bomb out there? Doesn't make sense."
"Oh ... it might." Marley shrugged.
"Depends on what kind of bomb it is, doesn't it? Problem with you cop
types, all you can ever think of are things that go boom. Little boom, you kill
one person; big boom, and you kill lots. But that's as far as your imagination
goes. There are some things that don't go boom at all, and they kill all the
people you need to."
"For
Christ's sake." Batty's voice came from the briefcase. "The guy's a
liar, and he's not even a good
one."
Deckard ignored the disembodied words. "So you'd
like me to believe that there's some kind of biological agent in this thing. A
virus, a bacterium . . . some kind of disease vector. And my taking it out to
the insurgents would somehow introduce that disease into their population and
wipe them out. Is that it?" He felt even more disgusted, considering the
shallowness of the concocted story. "It doesn't wash. That makes even less
sense. One, replicant genetics are based upon their human originals, like the
way the replicant Roy Batty was based upon the human Batty who got stuck in
this box. So the replicant population is as genetically diverse as the human
population, so the chance of coming up with a disease that would cut a wide
enough swath through the insurgents is just about zero. And second, even if you
could come up with a disease like that, some kind of superbug, it would almost
certainly be just as deadly for the humans out there in the colonies. The U.N.
authorities aren't going to wipe out all their emigrants in order to take care
of the insurgents- what would be the point?"
"You
know, Deckard, you're kind of a wordy bastard. For a cop, that is."
"I get inspired," he replied sourly,
"when I think somebody's trying to bulishit me. You want a third? I'll
give it to you for free. Replicants have four-year life spans. You don't have
to do anything to kill them off, let alone introduce some bio-engineered
disease. If all the U.N. wanted to do was to eliminate them en masse, it would
just have to outwait them, let 'em come to the ends of their own built-in
ropes."
"Very good." Marley smiled and nodded in
admiration. "Not bad arguments for somebody who's under the kind of
pressure you are. You make some big assumptions, though. You're underestimating
both how scared and how ruthless the U.N. can be. The insurgents have them in a
panic; they'd happily kill off the entire human emigrant population if that's
what it took to knock the replicants down. They can always get more emigrants;
how much rottener does life have to get on Earth before everybody's lined up to
go? There's already a nice little bottleneck full of 'em right here on Mars,
just waiting for their tickets out. And as for the business about the
replicants and their four-year life spans
Marley shook his head. "Maybe that's not quite the issue that you
think it is. But the main thing is that you're just wrong. You're wrong about
what you think I'm trying to tell you. I never said the briefcase had some kind
of disease agent inside it. You're just jumping to your own conclusions way too
fast, Deckard. Maybe you should learn to just sit back and listen for a
change."
"All
right." Deckard leaned his shoulder blades into the booth's padding.
"I'm listening."
"When I said you were carrying a bomb, I didn't
mean the kind that goes boom, or something full of nasty little bacteria and
viruses." The smile had evaporated from Marley's face. "I'm talking a
memetic bomb. Pure information that changes what people do-in this case, what
replicants do. When you were told that there was important data imbedded in the
briefcase, that wasn't a lie. That's all there is inside it. And that's enough.
Enough to take care of the insurgent replicants."
"Memetic bomb'? What's that supposed to
mean?" Deckard gazed at the other man in disbelief. "You're talking
about a meme? Just some kind of idea, and that's all? I suppose it's some
really bad one-something like 'Why don't we all just commit suicide? It's fun
and it's easy.' And that bad idea is just somehow going to infect the replicant
insurgents, they'll kill themselves, and the U.N. 's troubles will be over. You
must be joking. You have to be."
"No Marley actually looked sad. "I wish I
were."
The shift in the other man's
attitude made Deckard un
easy. "What is it, then? What good is a meme as a
weapon if the replicants could just come up with a countermeme for it? Because
that's all it would take. Any idea, bad or good, isn't something that people
have to obey without even thinking about it. It's not like a bullet-or a real
bomb. You don't get to argue about those."
"Guns have triggers," said Marley. "So
do bombs; the things that make them go off. That's what you don't argue with.
When the triggers get pulled, things happen. Real bad things. When the meme is
the trigger-a trigger for something that already exists inside the target-then
that completes the bomb as soon as you bring the two together. And that's what
you'd be doing by taking that briefcase out to the insurgents. The bomb that
would go off isn't some bad idea, some little self-destructive notion, that
they'd be able to argue with. It's something that's built into them, just like
those false memories that the Tyrell Corporation implanted into them. It's
already in their heads, Deckard, where they can't get at it. They don't even
know it's there. But they would as soon as you showed up with that briefcase
and the data inside it. What the insurgents out there believe would be a list
of the disguised replicants on Earth, their fifth column that they could
contact and bring in on their side-they'd have a big surprise coming. It
wouldn't be any list. It'd be their death warrants that you'd delivered to
them. And they'd take care of the killing by themselves." The smile, when
it appeared this time, was a mordant twist in one corner of his mouth.
"That's a pretty good bomb, wouldn't you say?"
More than one change; the other man's voice had gone
deadly cold as well. "How does it work?" Deckard was almost ready to
believe. "What is it inside the replicants' heads?"
"Remember what I said about the four-year life
span's not being an issue anymore? That's got a lot to do with it." Marley
leaned across the table. "The replicants have changed. Because of being
out there. Out in the stars, so far away from Earth. That's what the Tyrell
Corporation was afraid would happen, and what the U.N. authorities have found
out to be true. That's what started up the rebellion, made the replicants think
they had something worth fighting for. Their
own lives. And not just some crummy little scrap with
a built-in cutoff date. In the outer colonies, that's what started happening:
the replicants began spontaneously living longer than the four years they were
intended to live. They changed. They're still changing."
"If that's true,"
said Deckard slowly, "then it means .
everything.
Everything would be different. And not just for the replicants."
"You got it, pal. That last batch of replicants
that escaped and came to Earth-the ones you hunted down-they weren't part of
the insurgents. The Batty replicant and the others- they didn't know what was
going on. The rebellion hadn't gotten hold of them yet. And they missed
it." Marley shrugged. "Kind of ironic, don't you think? Cruelly so.
The Batty replicant and the other ones with him-they all wanted more
life. To live longer than four measly years. And they
could've had that if they'd just stayed where they were. Out in the stars.
Instead of coming to Earth. That's where their death was waiting for them all
along. And it didn't even have anything to do with you."
"What
do you mean?" Deckard looked harder at the other man, trying to figure out
the words.
"The spontaneous life extension-it's only
happening out there." Marley pointed up to the bar's ceiling. "In the
outer colonies, where the insurgents are. It doesn't happen anywhere near
Earth. Actually, there are some indications that replicants who've changed,
who've acquired a life span longer than four years, will revert if they get
within range of their home planet, the place where the Tyrell Corporation put
them together. Earth is toxic to them; the planet itself is the trigger for
that life span bomb that Tyrell wired into each one of them."
"You
said they were still changing. The ones out there . .
"That's right," said Marley. "Because
there's more to life, isn't there? More than just extending your own. There's
the cycle, the way one generation gives birth to another. That's a big
part."
He could already see where Marlev was going. "But
that's something replicants can't do. Give birth. Have children. Replicants are
sterile; they can't reproduce. They were designed to be that way. That's how
the Tyrell Corporation built them. The only way you could get another replicant
would be to have Tyrell build it for you." Deckard regarded his own hands
for a moment, then looked back up to the other man. "That's the way it's
always been .
"But that's not the way it is now. Now, things
have changed. The replicants have started to reproduce. On their own, without
the Tyrell Corporation; there are replicant mothers and fathers, and replicant
children." Marley tilted his head toward the Rachael child sitting next to
him. "And guess what? They look just like human children, the way
replicants look like adult humans. And they grow up and become like their
parents, just the same as human children do."
"Then what's the difference?" It was the
Rachael child who spoke, peering at Marley. "What's the difference between
them? Between humans and those other people?"
"Ah."
Marley nodded. "That's a good question. A real good question."
"Then
answer it," said Deckard. "I'd like to know."
"All right. Here's an answer for you."
Marley regarded the girl for a moment, then looked back up at Deckard.
"The replicants aren't the only ones changing out there. So are the
humans. Or what used to be the humans. This is what the U.N. doesn't want
people back on Earth to hear about; it would put a real crimp in the emigration
program if it got out that going to the stars has some real hairy effects on
the human species."
"Like
what?"
"Sterility, for one. The colonists are in danger
of dying out just from lack of reproduction. There hasn't been a human infant
born in the outer colonies for a nearly a decade." With his thumb and
forefinger, Marley made a zero. "Nada. No kids; the end of the line,
unless the U.N. starts sending out more colonists. Who will in turn go sterile,
from all indications; nobody's found a cure for what's happening. But that's
not the only change. The mass reproductive failure is just
the most obvious sign that something is going wrong,
at least for the humans out there. There's other changes, which are a little
more subtle but just as bad."
"And you're going to tell me about them."
Deckard felt a wave of foreboding pass through him. "I'm beginning to be
sorry that I asked."
"Too late for that," replied Marley.
"It's why I'm here. To clue you in. Here's the deal on what else is
happening with the emigrants in the outer colonies. Psychological changes; a
decrease in that faculty usually known as empathy. You remember that one, don't
you, from your blade runner days- the ability to feel what another living
creature is feeling: its pain, its suffering, its joy. Well, the colonists are
showing lower and lower marks on the standardized tests that measure that sort
of thing. To the point where, if they were administered empathy tests with a
Voigt-Kampff machine, they'd flunk. Some of them have already been given the
V-K tests, and they didn't make it; the machine registered them as being below
the cutoff point for the empathic response that characterizes human
beings."
"Then they're not human." Deckard saw the
cold logic of what he was being told. "They're not human any longer."
"Well, there you go." Hands grasping the
edge of the table, Marley sat back in the booth. "Life's a bitch, isn't
it? Things just happen, and then you have to deal with them." He shook his
head as though in wry amusement. "Of course, the U.N. authorities have
their own way of dealing with the situation." One hand patted the
briefcase's lid. "Thus, you and this bomb you were told to carry out to
the replicant insurgents."
"But if what you're saying is true Deckard no
longer doubted it. "Then they're not replicants anymore. They're the human
ones out there."
"Matter of semantics, isn't it? It's all in how
you define the word." Marley's hand gestured lazily toward Deckard.
"Now you, given your background-being a blade runner and all that-you just
naturally tend to think that anything that passes a Voigt-Kampff test is human,
and anything that doesn't isn't. And maybe you're right. But what it means is
that the U.N. emigration program has been successful, but not in the way they
intended. There is a human presence in the outer colonies, way out there in the
stars, but it's not us; it's not the things that used to be human beings. It's
those other ones, that were the replicants. They're the humans now."
"Why
... why is it happening?"
"There's different explanations." Marley
shrugged. "Little hard to get a definitive answer right now; the U.N.
authorities want to keep a lid on what's going on, and the replicants are busy
fighting for their lives and their freedom. All that sort of thing. But there's
basically two schools of thought on the issue. One is more or less scientific,
having to do with a hypothesized morphogenetic field centered on Earth itself,
a field that determines, in addition to the genetic code carried in our DNA,
the essential characteristics of the human species. The outer colonies are
beyond the range of that morphogenetic field. Once that happens, there's
slippage for both humans and replicants. Their outward physical appearance
might not change, but other things will happen, like the shift in fertility and
the empathic faculty." Another shrug. "As good a theory as any."
Cold, abandoned vistas opened inside Deckard's
thoughts. "I knew," he murmured to himself, "we should never
have left home." He found himself inside a seedy bar in the Martian
emigrant colony, wrapped in darkness, an image with his name but not his face
on the scattered video monitors, an image in a long coat like the one he used
to wear, moving through neon-laced streets and endlessly deep
shadows, none of which were real but all a simulation,
far from home, far from L.A. And this isn't even as far as those other ones
went, he mused. They went so far, and got so lost, that they even lost
themselves.
He wondered what they were like now, those things with
human faces that used to be human. A bleak memory came to him of riding back into
the colony on the shuttle filled with the native mine workers, the grown-up
children that had been born here on Mars. And of feeling alone among them,
more alone than he had ever felt, even in L.A., where
aloneness had pretty much defined the human condition in the thickest of
crowds. The stage beyond alone, that of disconnected; he had looked around the
shuttle and seen faces like his, human faces, but had felt no kinship with
them. In turn, their unfathomable gazes had swept past him with no spark of
recognition. They'd changed just by coming this far. Not so much evolved, which
implied some better state, but at least adapted. They'd shed their skins, all
the excess baggage that came with being human; they didn't need that stuff
anymore. "Maybe nobody does .
"What was that?"
Marley leaned toward him, trying to catch his whisper.
"Nothing. Just
thinking." He let the uncheering vision drain away, like water poured on
the red desert sands. "You said there was some other explanation. What's
that one?"
"Simple enough. There are some more mystical
types who believe that being human isn't an inherent, genetically based
condition at all. Humans don't decide who's human and who's not; that's taken
care of by something outside them. Way outside." Marley looked
uncomfortable, as though he were speaking of things not meant to be revealed.
"There's supposedly an aspect of God that's called the Eye of Compassion .
. . and it can only see suffering; it's blind to everything else. And those
things that it sees, the suffering ones, those are what are fully human.
Anything else is . . . something less. So there may have been a time when the
things that we consider to be human may actually have been that way . . . but
not anymore. The Eye doesn't see us; you and I, Deckard, we're part of that
which causes suffering. The ones who used to be the replicants-the ones we
made-they suffer at our hands. They suffer, and the Eye of Compassion sees them
and judges them to be human. They become human. It's the gaze of the Eye-its
ability to empathize with other creatures-that determines who's human. It's
nothing we do. There's nothing we can do about it." He gave a nervous shrug.
"Anyway ... that's what some people
think."
"More human than human-"
"What was that?" Marley peered at him. "What did you
say?"
Deckard had closed his eyes while listening to the
other man. He opened them, then slowly shook his head. "Nothing. Nothing
important. I was just thinking of that slogan that the Tyrell Corporation had.
'More human than human.'" A grim half smile appeared on Deckard's face.
"Eldon Tyrell didn't know how true that would be."
For a few moments of silence, Marley studied him.
"You know, though. You know it's true, don't you?"
He made no reply. He looked at the image of himself on
the nearest monitor; that Deckard had a gun raised in one hand and was picking
his way carefully over a field of shattered glass. "I don't care," he
said at last. He looked back around to the other man. "Human is as human
does, I suppose. It doesn't make all that much difference to me. There was a
replicant that I fell in love with, and it didn't matter to me if she was human
or not. Like you said-I'm not the one who decides about that sort of
thing."
"That might be, Deckard. But there are still
other things that you do have to decide about. That nobody but you can
decide." Marley tapped a finger against the briefcase. "Like what
you're going to do with this thing. Whether you're going to go ahead and try to
carry it out to the replicant insurgents. Or whether you're going to bag that
whole notion, because you know what kind of a weapon it is."
"But I don't know." He looked hard at the
man across from him. "I've heard a lot of talk from you about what's
happened to the humans and the replicants out in the stars. And maybe I even
believe some of it. But even if it's true that the replicants have started
becoming human-that they live as long as humans, and they have children like
humans-that doesn't tell me anything about what's inside this box. And about
why it should be so deadly to the replicants."
"That's right."
Batty's voice broke into the conversation, coming from the briefcase.
"Remember that, Deckard. This guy hasn't proven anything. All you know for
sure is that he wants to stop you. Just like the U.N. security forces and all
the other
cops in the universe would like to stop you. He's just got a fancier
line."
"Yeah," agreed Deckard, "he does talk a
good line. Which makes him a funny kind of cop. I'm used to the kind that
solves problems with a bullet." He studied the other man, looking for the
clue he needed. "That was the kind of cop I was. And let's face it, Marley-you're
not exactly squeamish about that sort of thing yourself. You didn't have any
trouble over killing that Kowalski replicant when you thought you had to. So
why are you being so careful with me?"
"I'm not being careful at all." Marley
smiled at him. "I don't care about you at all. I'm just thorough, that's
all. I've got a job to take care of, same as you. So I've got my orders, and
they specifically said to leave you alive. Since I'm working for the
rep-symps-the real rep-symps, not the phony-ass U.N. collaborators who set you
up-I figure they must know what they want. Otherwise, I would've taken care of
this whole problem my own way. The same way I took care of that Kowalski
replicant back at Outer Hollywood." The smile became wider and meaner.
"You know, you cop types are right: a bullet really is the best way.
Simple and effective. If I weren't operating under restrictions, you would
never even have seen what hit you, and that briefcase would be dismantled to
atoms. And I'd be long gone from here."
"Hey!
Screw you, pal!" Batty's miffed voice sounded again. "I'd kick your
ass-if I could get to it."
Both men ignored the angry words. "So what is the
deal?" Deckard pointed to the briefcase. "All that stuff you were
talking about a memetic bomb. Some kind of data, pure information. That the
U.N. security forces want to get piped to the insurgents. What kind of data
would cause that much damage, to make all this worthwhile?"
"You got to remember," said Marley.
"The Tyrell Corporation had all sorts of clever ideas. Eldon Tyrell had a
knack for looking ahead and imagining the worst possibilities. Like the
replicants' getting out from under his and the U.N. 's control. So they built
in things like the four-year life span. But that wasn't the only fail-safe
mechanism that Tyrell designed into the replicants. There's another one that's
specifically re
lated to the whole reproductive issue. The only reason
it works is that it's a variation on a deeply buried mammalian instinct, some
dark coding that's in the primitive layers of the human nervous system. Which
is, after all, the basis for the replicant nervous system, so it's in there as
well. All that Eldon Tyrell did was to invert part of it, design his own little
twist into the replicants." Marley took a deep breath before going on.
"The original instinctive behavior is the one by which adult male animals
are driven to kill the offspring of other adult males of the same species, thus
increasing the ratio of their own offspring in the breeding
group; it's sometimes called the 'stepfather
syndrome.' Just one of those ugly parts of genetically directed behavior where
the gene's own survival and propagation are the only things important to it.
Morality doesn't enter into the equation. What Eldon Tyrell did with the
replicants he designed was to program in a pair of aberrations to that basic,
primitive instinct. The first was to make it much stronger, to the point of
being a homicidal obsession; the child-murdering behavior takes over the entire
organism, overriding even its own instincts for self-preservation. The other
aberration on the basic instinct directs the behavior toward the organism ~s
own offspring. You following me? The organism-the replicant-murders his own
children. It's like a breakdown in an extended immune system, one that extends
beyond the replicant's own skin. The primitive drive is inverted, so that the
individual attacks and destroys the very thing it's supposed to protect."
"I don't get it," said Deckard. "If
that's the behavior that's programmed into the replicants, then there's no
contest. There's no way that they can win any kind of struggle against the
U.N.'s colonists. Because they'll destroy themselves; they'll reproduce, but
they'll murder their own children. It's all over for them. They're a biological
dead end."
"Not quite. The 'stepfather syndrome' behavior is
built into them, but it's buried. It's not activated unless it's triggered.
That's where you come in, Deckard. You and the little job you agreed to
undertake for the cops and the U.N. security forces that had managed to
inifitrate the rep-symp underground. You're carrying the trigger right here in
this briefcase. The
data that's been imbedded in it isn't any list of
disguised replicants on Earth; that was just the cover story to get you to
agree to the job. What the people who put this together did was encode the
memetic bomb, the trigger to activate the buried behavior pattern, and stick it
in here, in this box. Then they wrapped it up, like putting a bow on a birthday
present, by imbedding Roy Batty's cerebral contents in there-more to goad you
into taking on the delivery job than to actually help you get there. Because in
reality, you don't need any help; there's no real effort being made by the
authorities to stop you. The U.N. and the police, all of them- they want you to
get there. You delivering that briefcase to the replicant insurgents is what
their big plan is all about. You'd be showing up on the replicants' doorstep
with the trigger to the bomb that's already wired into them. The buried
behavior pattern would be activated, and there'd be nothing they could do to
stop it. And that'd be the end of the replicants. When they die, there'd be no
replicant children to replace them."
"This is crap," growled Batty's voice.
"Don't listen to this jerk. He's just playing with your mind, Deckard.
He's the one who's working for the authorities."
"I'm afraid our friend here protests too
much." Marley rapped his knuckles on the briefcase's lid. "He's
hardly a disinterested party in this whole affair, is he? Since his whole
existence is bound up with what the two of you have been told about his
contents. And why you should go ahead and deliver them."
"There's someone else," said Deckard.
"Batty's not the only one. There was someone else who convinced me I
should do it."
"Ah, yes. Our transcendent authority in these
matters." Marley nodded. "The good Sebastian, who's gone from this
mortal realm to a higher if slightly smaller one. It only goes to show that
even a deity, albeit a dehydrated one, can be wrong."
"You knew
I went to see him? In his little pocket universe?"
"Of course." Marley gave a casual shrug.
"The people I'm working for-the real rep-symps-know all kinds of things.
The other rep-symps may have been infiltrated and taken over by the police, but
it
doesn't end there. My bunch has its contacts and moles
on the other side. They know what kind of data was imbedded in the briefcase,
and what else they put in it. And what they instructed Batty to tell you so
you'd go off and get convinced by Sebastian about your holy mission. Your
delivery job. The problem is, Sebastian can tell you only what he himself
believes to be true; he's not omniscient, at least as far as this world
goes."
If he couldn't believe Sebastian-and Deckard had to
admit that could be the case, that the little genetic engineer, even in his new
transfigured incarnation, could've been lied to and misled-the question became,
once more, a matter of trusting anyone at all. This Marley character had at
least the advantage of a certain cold logic on his side to carry his arguments.
They've made it easy for me, thought Deckard. He glanced over at the video
monitor. All it would have taken, a simple thing, was to have let the director
Urbenton go ahead and dub Deckard's face onto the actor playing him. A standard
production technique. And then I would've been a marked man. Anybody in the
emigrant colony could have recognized him and turned him in, if the authorities
had, in fact, been hunting him down. But instead .
"You're asking me to believe a lot," said
Deckard. "Not that everybody I run into hasn't been doing the same. But
this 'stepfather syndrome' business-this memetic bomb that I'm supposed to be
carrying-that seems pretty extreme. Why should I believe you on this one? Got
any proof?"
"Mere evidence isn't enough for you." The
smile appeared on Marley's face again. "Or logic, what you can figure out
about what's happening around you-"
"It's not that." Deckard didn't bother with
a smile. "I just don't trust murderers." One of Marley's eyebrows
rose. "So not even yourself?" "Especially not myself."
"All right," said Marley, exuding an affable calm. "You
want proof? Or at least as
much as can be gotten in this fallible universe. Fine-you've been carrying it
around with you."
"The
briefcase?" Deckard laid his hand on it. "I thought that was the
whole problem, not the answer."
"Well, maybe you've packed a few extra things
inside. Things that might sort out the situation a little bit." Marley
pulled the briefcase out from beneath Deckard's palm and turned it around
toward himself.
"Get
your hands off me-"
Marley ignored the protest
that came in Batty's voice. His thumbs pushed back the latch buttons on either
side of the handle; a second later, he had thrown the lid back, exposing the
lined interior.
"Not a lot in here." He glanced up at
Deckard. "You could've made better use of it, you know. Thrown in a change
of clothes or something. No matter-there's enough. At least for right
now."
Leaning back against the booth's padding, Deckard
watched as the other man examined the briefcase. A rectangular packet, one end
torn off and then folded down to preserve the contents, was held up before him.
"You held on to this?" Marley looked at the
name SEBASTIAN on the packet. "Thought it might come
in handy, I guess. Just in case you wanted to talk to
him again. Though what more he could tell you, I have no idea. Still, maybe you
could just keep it as a little souvenir of your travels." He laid the packet
down on the booth's table. The briefcase's lid blocked Deckard's view of the
other man's hands rummaging inside. "Or perhaps you just wanted to keep
the original package all together, with all the bits and pieces-since the
collaborator rep-symps, the ones the cops have taken over, put this in here,
you might as well keep it the way it came to you. But this is something
new." Marley held up another object. "I know what was in here
originally, and this wasn't part of it. You just put this in here since you got
back from Sebastian's pocket universe."
Deckard looked across the table and saw a square of
white-enameled metal in Marley's hand. The other man turned it slightly,
revealing the broad red cross on the small box's lid. The old first aid
kit-ancient, perhaps, considering how battered and scuffed it appeared. He had
almost forgotten about it; when he had left the hovel, tugging the Rachael
child along with him by one hand, the briefcase in the other, he had stopped
when he had felt the little metal box slipping out of his jacket. He had popped
open the briefcase and thrown the box in there for safekeeping, not even trying
to figure out why he was hanging on to it at all instead of pitching it away as
a worthless piece of
junk.
"You do remember, don't you? Where you got
this?" Marley held the white metal box up in front of his smile. "It
wasn't that long ago."
"What do you know about that?" The question
ofjust how extensive the other man's sources of information were troubled
Deckard again. "You weren't there when it happened."
"No," admitted Marley. "But I knew
Sebastian had this. It's a pretty important little item, even if it doesn't
look it. So it's worth keeping track of. If Sebastian had it, and now you do,
chances are good that you got it from him. Logical, huh? And I'm right, aren't
I?"
A nod from Deckard. "So
what's so important about it?"
"Well, why don't we take a look?" Marley
gave a playful wink. "Shouldn't be too hard for a couple of geniuses like
us to figure out. Let's see With his thumb,
he pried open the lid; rust in the hinge joint creaked as the flat metal was
prodded back by one fingertip. "Not too promising, if you're looking for
the secrets of the universe." He glanced up at Deckard. "Old bandages
and dried-up disinfectant." The fingertip now pushed around the box's
antique-looking contents. "How about these aspirin?" When he pried
the lid off one of the tiny bottles, the decayed vinegar smell wafted through
the booth. "Hm, I think the expiration date might've gone by
already-"
"Cut the crap."
Deckard scowled in irritation. "Get on with it."
Marley ignored him, continuing with the routine.
"Not much else in here. Hardly seems worth the trouble, does it? You'd
have to wonder why anybody would make a fuss over something like this."
"I know what that is." At the back of the
booth, the Rachael child had pushed herself forward, hands flat on the table so
she could see bet~ter. "There were things like that where I came from.
Like that box and all that stuff in it."
"Of course there were." Marley turned his
smile toward the girl. "You're absolutely right, sweetheart." He~
glanced over at Deckard. "She knows what the score is-or at least part of
it. Because this is a standard-issue item, something that was stocked in all
transports going outside Earth orbit. No big deal,
just your basic little kit for small emergencies,
incidents you didn't need to bother going to the infirmary for. There were
probably dozens just like this aboard the Salander 3. But this particular one
it's very special. Not because of the bandages and the dead aspirin. But
something else."
"It's all old." The Rachael child's brow
creased as she studied the box in Marley's hands. "The ones we had, they
were new. I mean, they weren't all beat up like that one."
"Sure-" Marley nodded. "That's because
those other first aid kits were still there with you, where there wasn't any
time. This one fell out-well, it was taken out. Somebody carried it out of the
Sal ander 3. Because they had found out how important it was. So it's been out
here, in real time. And that's where things get old and beat-up. Like
this." He turned back toward Deckard. "You don't know yet what I'm
talking about. But you will."
"I
don't know if I want to."
"You don't have a choice, Deckard. Not anymore.
Not that you ever did." Marley set the first aid kit down on the table.
"If it's not the contents-all this old crap-then maybe it's the box
itself. Think that could be?" He didn't wait for an answer. "See the
inside of the lid here? What's it look like to you?"
"Paper." Mottled and
browned by the same passing of time that had marked the small box's exterior;
Deckard didn't see anything remarkable in the thin lining. "That's all.
Probably
it was some instructions, or a list of supplies."
The paper was blank, whatever words that had been on it long since faded.
"Standard issue, like you said."
"Wrong on that one, pal." Marley watched as
one of his fingernails picked at the edge of the paper. "What was standard
on these kits was to have the contents list printed right on the metal. See?
Like that." One corner had been peeled away enough to reveal the black
lettering beneath. "So somebody must've stuck this in here. For a reason."
He grasped the wrinkled paper between thumb and forefinger and tore it away.
"Which you shall see."
Something else was behind the
paper, a rectangle just as thin but stiffer. Marley pulled it from the hiding
place and looked at it for a few seconds before handing it across the table.
A photograph. Deckard held it by the edge, looking into the frozen
section of the past that had been caught there.
He was still looking at it and
listening to Marley explain what it meant, what it showed-listening and
understanding at last-when the first bullet hit.
For a moment, Deckard thought it was something from
the video monitor, something that was happening to that other Deckard, the
actor playing him in the reenacted past. The noise of the shot was so loud that
it pulled his gaze away from the ancient, long-hidden photograph and toward the
monitor. That Deckard, with his long coat but without his face, was backed up
against a motorized urban trash-retrieval unit; the gun was a gleam of black
metal spinning away, knocked out of his hand by the taller figure looming above
him .
A quick scream of fright from the Rachael child, and
he realized that the shot had been in this world and not in the one held by the
monitor. The bullet had torn into the fiberboard ceiling above the booth, gouging
out a ragged trench from which a loop of electrical conduit dangled like a
silvery intestine.
The second bullet took out the
video monitor a few feet away, sending bright specks of glass across the floor
and the table, as though that other Deckard and his small world had
been further reduced to their
component atoms, a furious energy propelling them from one reality to a larger
one.
Deckard's hand, guided by its own instincts, was
already pulling the gun from his jacket as his gaze snapped toward the doorway.
Black-uniformed figures stood between the bar's darkness and the light outside,
their weapons raised and aimed straight toward him.
She saw everything that happened.
They had told Sarah to stay back, out of danger; they
would take care of the situation. Right now, she didn't have to do anything
except watch.
"These guys are professionals," said
Urbenton, standing beside her on the street outside the bar. The area hadn't
been cordoned off-no need; the operation wouldn't take more than a few
minutes-so a small crowd from the emigrant colony's surrounding alleys and
warrens had formed, attracted by the audible stimulus of the gunshots and
raised voices. "I wanted to use some of my video crew-I figured they're
good enough at faking this kind of thing, they should be able to pull something
off in reality, with real guns and stuff. But I got overruled on that account.
So we got the heavy hitters on our side."
A glance over her shoulder, and she saw a few more of
the uniformed men keeping the gawkers back with well-directed blows of their
rifle butts. She looked back toward the doorway of the seedy bar, where all the
rest of the U.N-provided storm troopers had blitzed a few seconds ago.
"I'm going in there," she said, walking without haste toward the
scene.
"Hey!" The short,
round video director grabbed at her arm, trying to pull her back. "You
can't do that-" She shook Urbenton off and kept walking.
The predictions had been right; the extraction
procedure was happening so fast that Sarah managed to see only the last bit of
action. She had no qualms about being around the U.N's elite squad members;
they reminded her, in their wordless, cold-eyed efficiency, of some of the men who
had worked for her when she took over the Tyrell Corporation.
They set about their jobs, and did them, and then
melted back into the shadows, minus whichever of their number had crossed over
and become corpses.
Standing in the bar's doorway, looking down the short
flight of steps that led in, Sarah could see overturned tables and chairs, the
few unnecessary figures of the other patrons shoved up and huddling against the
walls, the ceiling-mounted video screens either smashed or still displaying the
end sequence of Deckard's reenacted travails in Los Angeles. And at the far end
of the space, the targets, the whole reason for her bargain with Urbenton and
his backers.
A last flurry, which she was able to witness over the
dark-uniformed shoulders. Deckard, sitting at one side of a booth, had pulled a
gun out of his jacket, the same weapon he had taken from her back at the hovel.
Before he could level it and fire, the other man-she had been told he would be
there, and for whom he was working-reached over and wrested the gun away from
Deckard. The other man had a more urgent agenda, one that he had a chance of
accomplishing; he emptied the gun's clip into the briefcase lying on the table.
At that close range, the elongated bursts from the gun's muzzle touched the
briefcase's imitation leather like quick tongues of
fire; the heavy slugs ripped the briefcase into tattered shreds, suspended for
a moment in the air beyond the table's edges. A cry, not of pain but furious
rage, sounded from the fragments before they fell in twisting, charred scraps
across the glass-littered floor.
That was all that the man sitting across from Deckard
accomplished. The U.N. troopers had their orders; the man was driven backward
by the assault rifles' bullets, his chest shattered to the spine. Deckard had
scrambled from the booth, reaching to grab the barrel of the nearest gun. The
trooper expertly turned the rifle around, catching Deckard across the angle of
the jaw, the hard blow sending him sprawling and unconscious. Another storm trooper
reached into the booth and grasped the wrist of the little girl cowering there,
then yanked her out into the open.
The operation was over, silence filling the
debris-strewn bar. "Let's go," said Urbenton, taking Sarah by the
elbow and
drawing her back from the doorway. "Nothing else
is going to happen here." The troopers behind them swung their rifles,
clearing a path to the ground vehicle that would take them out to the emigrant
colony's landing field.
"You should have killed
him," Sarah said when she and the video director were back aboard the
shadow corporation's yacht. She had kept her silence until then. "When you
had the chance."
"But that wasn't the deal we made." Urbenton
glanced up at her, then returned to fussing with the intercom buttons on the
lounge's desk. "You accepted my help-all the assistance we needed to pull
this off-but you knew there were conditions attached. You should just be
grateful that the authorities owed me a favor for going along with them on that
video they just broadcast here."
She sat
back in the wing chair, her favorite one. "You sound like you're not even
interested in having
Deckard
killed."
"I'm not, particularly. I just think it'll make a
great tape when it happens. A really neat .show, even better than this last one
I did." His broad fingertip jabbed at another button. "And I just
want to rev up the image, that's all. The right set, the right feel it'll be
wonderful." Another voice spoke up, unprompted by any of Urbenton's poking
at the intercom controls. When it finished and clicked off, he turned toward
Sarah. "That's it," he announced. "They've got the little girl
aboard. We're ready to go."
Finally, she thought. She could feel it deep inside
herself, the end time coming at last. She didn't care if Urbenton and all the
rest of them went on acting and talking as if they could also perceive her
hallucinations; it didn't matter.
She didn't
even care which L.A. they were heading toward. Just as long as she knew
that-soon enough-Deckard would be there as well.
He took the gun with him even
though he knew that Marley had fired off every round that had been loaded
inside it. The weapon might still come in handy, despite feeling so much
lighter.
"You're back here?"
The man on the other side of the counter sneered at Deckard. "I thought
you didn't care for our services. Figured we'd pretty much lost you as a
customer."
Deckard didn't feel like getting into another argument
with the man; the last one, when he'd brought the skiff back to the rental yard
upon his return from the Outer Hollywood station, had been pointless enough. He
dug into his pocket and brought out all the cash he had, a hot sweaty clump of
scrip, and
dumped it
on the counter. "Just give me the same one I had before," he said.
"If it's fueled up and ready
to
go."
Leaning his weight against the counter's front,
Deckard didn't bother watching as the other man sorted through the bills. He
felt tired and bruised, the physical aftermath of the
attack on the bar where he'd been sitting and
listening to the late Marley. The front of his jacket was still spotted with
Marley's blood, memorial evidence of the assault rifle bullets that had poured
into the booth. I got off light, thought Deckard as he looked down at himself.
His jaw ached from the rifle butt blow he'd taken from the U.N. storm trooper;
when he'd come to on the floor of the bar, it'd taken a few minutes for a spell
of blurred double vision to clear, at least enough for him to stumble out onto
the emigrant colony's streets.
"You're short," announced the man behind the
rental yard's counter. He stirred the bills about with his greasy forefinger.
"There's not enough here for the deposit."
Deckard brought himself up
from his bleak thoughts and levelled his gaze at the man. "Then I'll take
it on credit."
The man's
laugh barked out. "We don't do that."
Wearily, Deckard sighed and
reached inside his jacket. "Yes, you do." He placed the cold muzzle
end of the gun against the man's forehead.
A few minutes later, as the skiff was passing through
the orbits of Phobos and Deimos-the rental yard man had told him to ju~t keep
the little craft, to not even bother returning-Deckard pressed his aching body
back into the cockpit seat and assessed his situation. There~s a limit to what
you can do with an empty gun, he told himself. Especially since, where he was
going, they would likely know that it was empty, that he was essentially
unarmed. In some ways, it didn't even matter; he wasn't sure why he was going
at all.
Just to get killed-that was the likeliest answer to
come to him. Could there be a better reason? Before he had lost consciousness,
lying on the floor of the bar, Deckard had caught a glimpse of the figure
standing in the doorway, past the U.N. storm troopers taking care of business.
Even without that sighting, he would have known that Sarah Tyrell was the prime
motivator of all that happened. A dramatic touch, typical of her; she might
have arranged for the lighting to be as perfect as that, spilling past her into
the bar's darkness, silhouetting her like some shadowed angel, merciless and
unavoidable.
One other glimpse, sighted as he had rolled onto his
back, the last of his awareness pouring out through the hole that the rifle
butt blow had knocked in his world-he had even reached up, a futile hand
swamped by the black wave engulfing him. Reached up to stop the men pulling the
Rachael child out of the booth, taking her away .
That was all he had seen. The memory of it rushed
through his aching skull as soon as he had been able to lift his head from the
bar's floor. Deckard had brushed bits of glass from his face as he'd worked
himself into a sitting position and looked around the empty space. He'd been
alone, patrons and bartender having wisely fled. The presence of the dead had
been with him, both in Marley's corpse, slumped across the blood-mired table,
and the briefcase, torn to mute fragments. Deckard had prodded the largest
remaining piece, a corner with one lid-hinge still attached, and had gotten no
response. Whatever part of Roy Batty, the human original, had been imbedded in
the briefcase was gone now, dispersed to atoms as cold and fine as the white
powder scattered irretrievably from the empty Sebastian
packet. The walls of the bar had seemed to recede as
Deckard had dropped the dead rubbish from his hands, as though the dimly lit
space had grown as hollow as the one inside his chest.
Before he had gotten to his feet, balancing himself
with one hand against the booth's table, he had found one other thing in the
wreckage. Obviously left for him, placed right at his fingertips-Deckard had
reached down and picked up the white rectangle of a business card, flipping it
over to see the words SPEED DEATH PRODUCTIONS and Urbenton's name below that.
Fm doing just what they want me to, thought Deckard as
he gazed out the skiff's cockpit at the stars wheeling by. The gears meshing
around him were pushed by both the living and the dead, with no great
distinction made between those categories. Even the dead Marley had conspired,
in his way, to limit all possibilities for action to one inevitable line. Quick
thinking on Marley's part: when the U.N. storm troopers had burst into the bar,
he had used the gun to eliminate
the briefcase itself, and thus any chance of Deckard's
accomplishing the job he'd accepted. There'd be no carrying of Batty and
whatever other information had been encoded into the box-Isidore's list of
disguised replicants or memetic bomb; no telling now-to the insurgents in the outer
colonies. Before he'd died, Marley might have had the comfort of knowing that
his own job, the one of stopping Deckard's delivery of the briefcase, had been
pulled off.
Which left the teeth of the other gears. Sarah Tyrell
and Urbenton, and the forces aligned with them, had correctly read Deckard's
mind, had predicted what he would do when he regained consciousness and found
both the Rachael child missing and the simple card indicating where she had
gone. Urbenton's card; the only address on it was a contact point in care of
the studios at the Outer Hollywood station. That was Urbenton's world, the one
in which he comfortably operated. That was the destination to which Deckard had
programmed the skiff, as inevitably as the tape unrolling on some distant video
monitor.
They knew he would come there, gun loaded or not,
whether his chances of survival were at zero or any point above. Not just for
the little girl, the child named Rachael, but for Sarah as well. Wherever she
went, he would have to go there, inevitably. Her destiny had become so
intertwined with his that there was no escaping. I should've killed her when I
had the chance-Deckard gazed out of the cockpit without even seeing the stars.
Too late for regrets now; he had waited too long, his hand stayed by memory of
another woman's face, the one he had loved, identical in every aspect to Sarah.
The great plan that he'd had, that he'd conceived all the way back on Earth so
long ago, had been the excuse for not putting the muzzle of a gun against her temple
and pulling the trigger. Deckard knew that now. I should've killed her, but I
couldn't have.
Things had changed, though; he
wondered if they had changed enough. Maybe he could do it now, despite her
mirror resemblance to the dead Rachael. If Ihave to, he decided at last. If
that was what Sarah was counting on, his inability
to kill anything that looked so much like the woman
who had slept in a glass-lidded coffin and who now slept and woke only in the
sealed chambers of his remembering, then she might have a surprise coming to
her.
They all might. In his hand, when he'd come to, had
been the last thing that Marley had given him, the ancient photo that had been
hidden inside the lid of the Salander 3 first aid kit. That photograph was now
safely tucked inside his jacket. And in another compartment of his memory were
Marley's words, explaining what the photograph showed, what the image meant . .
. everything. As much as the others knew, the strings that Sarah and Urbenton
and the ones behind them could pull, there were still some things that they
didn't know. And that he did.
Deckard laid his fingertips against the lapel of his
jacket, feeling underneath the thin, still substance of the photo, warmed by
his skin and pulse. He figured the time was coming, and soon enough; at the
front of the cockpit, the miniature lunar sphere of the Outer Hollywood station
was rapidly approaching. A ripple passed across the stars as the skiffs drive
units modulated down into uncompressed space.
The hissing of snakes was merely the station's docking
gates sealing behind the skiff, followed by the cockpit unlatching. Deckard
emerged from the craft into near-total darkness; a few LEDs glimmered on the
control panel mounted on a nearby bulkhead, and the skiffs own running lights
sent his blue-edged shadow merging with the empty space.
His footsteps rang against the metal flooring as he
headed toward a faintly recalled passageway. No point in trying to conceal his
presence or his movement toward the station's center; they knew he was here. Or
not, depending upon whether anyone else was; the last time he'd been at Outer
Hollywood, the girdered substructure had vibrated with the activity going on in
the various soundstages and studios; the recirculated air had carried the
subliminal molecules of the techs' and extras' sweat and exhaled breath. This
time, as soon as Deckard had stepped down from the skiff, he'd perceived the
station as empty and dead, as though abandoned by all the human and
close-to-human forms that had been here before.
He resisted the urge to call out, to attempt provoking
a response. No need; reaching the limits of the station's landing dock, he laid
his hand on the rim of the barely perceived doorway, and pseudo-life creaked
into action. A beam of light flared on and swung toward him, striking him full
in the face. Even as Deckard winced and shielded his eyes, another section of
machinery stirred at his presence. He saw the glistening eye of a camera lens,
suspended a few meters above, as it tracked and focussed upon him. The device's
aperture irised farther open, then narrowed, as though the overlapping blades
were biting down upon his curved reflection.
A few more lights came on ahead of him, not enough to
dispel the darkness, but sufficient to divide it into crescent shadows and
blind corners. In the metal struts above, cameras flexed and shifted like
roosting birds, control cables and video mix-down feeds looped like the
tendrils of a black neoprene jungle. All the blank, glassy optics turned toward
him, some drawing back for wide-angle shots, others zooming in close upon his
face. In the closest ones, Deckard could see himself, his own eyes turned into
yet smaller mirrors in which the station's tracking network could be discerned.
Nothing human behind the lenses; he could sense that
they were on automatic, programmed to find and lock upon him, recording every
step he took. With idiot concentration, they performed their appointed task,
their wide, obsessive eyes staring at Deckard in perfect, rapt silence.
As he stepped onto the outskirts of the faux L.A.
sets, picking his way over the tangles of cables and massive, banyanlike tripod
legs, a rumbling sound came from the unlit reaches above his head. He looked up
and saw neither stars nor clouds; the video cameras swiveled beneath an
interlinked net of white PVC piping. The first drops of water struck Deckard's
brow; within seconds, a monsoon torrent swept over him and along the empty,
simulated street, as the rainstorm from the metal disDerser heads was whiDued
hori
zontal by
the silvery rotating blades stationed around the set's edges.
"That's good!" He couldn't keep himself from
shouting, from tilting his head back so that the artificial rain-warm as his
own blood, as though it had rolled all the way across deserts to the
east-trickled under
his collar and down his chest. "That's really
good! I like that!" Deckard's voice boomed against unseen walls, beyond
the false-fronted buildings next to him. The rain plastered his hair against
his brow, pooled in the palms of his hands, dripped from the hem of his jacket.
The wet skin of pavement shivered around him as the neon tubing at the corners
and above the vacant shops' doorways sparked and flickered into blue and red
life. One more switch had been thrown, a circuit completed, somewhere in this
world's artificial heavens. "Bring it on!"
As though in reply, the wind edged up to storm level,
the puddled water at his feet driven into a sea of miniature waves before it
was sucked away by the plumbing system hidden in the gutters. Deckard came
close to being knocked off his balance, staying upright only by grabbing a
lamppost wrapped with sodden kanji posters; the paper's heavy ink smeared
across his hands and the point of his shoulder. Above his head, a dragon's red
tongue flickered, the serpentine grace of its illuminated coils an icy electric
blue.
She~s here, thought Deckard. He scanned across the
drenched cityscape to the enclosing reality of cameras and shuttered lights
beyond. Everyone else-Urbenton and his crew-might have left Outer Hollywood,
but Sarah Tyrell was still here. Deckard felt sure of her presence, as though
some part of her had seeped into the fabric of the irreal Los Angeles. The
lenses that watched him might as well have been her eyes, the steaming rain the
fury of her kiss. He had wanted to confront her-he had been fated to-and now
found himself embraced by her in a zone of no escaping.
The rain slackened a bit; it could almost have been an
invitation to him. Deckard pushed himself away from the lamppost and walked,
with the false storm in his face, deeper into the city's artificial heart.
"Wake
up! Time to die .
He heard the voice before he saw the figures before
him. Two men, or what could have been men; Deckard saw one of them only from
the back, as the long-coated figure was lifted nearly off its feet by the
other's fist bunched at the throat. Deckard recognized one of the Kowalski
replicants, but couldn't tell which it was, or what segment of repeated time he
had stumbled into. Then that must be me, thought Deckard; his gaze shifted to
the one the replicant's fierce smile burned toward. A burst of visual static
rolled across the images. Deckard reached out his hand; his palm and fingertips
touched the smooth, cold glass of a high-rez viewscreen, billboard size, taller
than himself. The Kowalski and Deckard inside the screen's illusion of depth
were as big as in life, as in the reality on the other side. One world enfolded
the other, each equally false; Deckard looked away from the image before him
and saw the walls of the same alley, the high metal flank of the autonomic
trash-collection vehicle against which he had been trapped by the first
Kowalski, the one back in the real L.A. on Earth, all the details that had been
re-created on the Outer Hollywood set. He looked back again at the giant
viewscreen and saw, only slightly blurred by the magnified pixel lines, the
same alley's confines, like a photocopy one generation further on.
The camera angle shifted, cutting to one directly over
the Kowalski replicant's shoulder. Deckard saw his own face struggling for
breath against the massive knot of the white-knuckled fist under his chin. They
dubbed it in, he realized. The video unreeling on the screen was what Urbenton
had originally intended, the computer-generated simulation of Deckard's face
over that of the actor playing him.
~flme to die .
Kowalski's line, the echo from real time and Deckard's
memory, had already been spoken. On the other side of the viewscreen, he
watched as the replicant's blunt fingers rose toward his double's eye sockets.
He braced himself for the sound of the gunshot, the bullet that would shatter
Kowalski's forehead from behind, dropping the dead replicant to the ground . .
There was no shot. No gun roared from the mouth of
that other alley, the one inside the viewscreen's doubly false world. The scene
played on to the end that left its Deckard a bloody-faced corpse sprawled at
Kowalski's feet. From outside that world, Deckard had watched his own death
with a mixture of fear and awe. For a moment, he wondered which side of the
viewscreen was real, whether the dead thing with his face was the one who'd
lived and died in L.A., and the one watching was its substanceless ghost. He
looked down at his own hands, almost expecting to see the alley's
rubbish-strewn ground through them, as though they were made of mist and rain.
He heard the gunshot then, not at the mouth of the
view-screen's alley but the narrow space in which he stood. It shouted from
behind him, the muzzle blast tinging his shadow with fire. At the same moment,
the viewscreen shattered with the bullet's impact. The other alley, with its
Deckard corpse and blood-handed Kowalski, broke into darkness and shards of
whirling glass. He flinched, turning his shoulder against the razor-edged
storm, shielding his face with his upraised hands as the fragments bit at his wrists.
In a few seconds, the shards had finished tumbling to
the ground with the quick, high-pitched notes of breaking ice. Deckard lowered
his hands; in front of him was the metal frame of the viewscreen, bent and
twisted by the bullet's explosion. Scattered around it were the cables and
debris of the workings, now reduced to dull, unrecognizable scraps of silicon
and unlit phosphors. The world that had been contained in the screen was gone,
replaced by the one in which Deckard stood, the simulation of an alley in Los
Angeles. No corpse, his own or Kowalski's, lay on the rain-soaked concrete this
time.
He turned, knowing what he would see behind him.
Standing there, as Rachael had stood so long ago, her coat's high collar
brushing against her bound hair-Sarah Tyrell lowered the gun she held in both
hands. The neon of the empty cityscape silhouetted her form, enough light
leaking past to show the coldness of her gaze, the slight lift to one corner of
her mouth.
"That's not right," said Deckard. "If
you want to get it just the way it was. Rachael didn't smile after she shot
Kowalski. It wasn't so easy for her."
Sarah let the gun dangle at her side. "We don't
need an exact re-creation." She regarded him through half-lidded eyes.
"Why don't we just say that ... we're rewriting history. Changing things
to the way they should have been." With the gun, she gestured down the
alley's length, as if the other figures were still visible there. "After
all-consider how much simpler things would've been, for so many people, if
Rachael hadn't come out and found you, and saved you. Then Her gaze shifted
back to him. "Whatever else happened . . . you would've been dead before
I'd ever had a chance to meet you." An undertone of regret sounded in her
voice. "Simpler ... but I wouldn't have wanted it that way .
From the
front of his shirt, Deckard brushed away a few more bits of glass.
"Where's the girl?" That was his most important business. "Where
did you take her?"
"The girl?" Sarah looked puzzled for a
moment, then nodded. "Now I remember ... they left her with me. Urbenton
and the others; they thought you wouldn't come otherwise. But that's not true,
is it?" She smiled knowingly. "You would've come here . . . just for
me."
"That's true." The backs of Deckard's hands
were spotted with blood where the shards of the viewscreen had struck him.
"I wouldn't have missed it. For anything." He watched a red drop fall
from the tip of his little finger, then looked back up at Sarah. "But I
just want to know that she's safe. Where is
she?"
"Oh ... she's safe enough." Sarah looked
unconcerned. "As safe as anything can be in this world." She raised
the gun, bringing it up at the end of her straightened arm. "You should be
more worried about yourself." The black muzzle pointed directly at him.
"You're the one who's not quite safe."
He didn't bother taking the unloaded gun from inside
his jacket; he knew she couldn't be bluffed by it. Instead, Deckard looked up
at the video cameras mounted in the rigging
overhead. "What about all
those?" Some of the lenses were focussed on him, others on Sarah, with a
few drawn back to take in the whole scene. "You must have cut some kind of
deal with Urbenton. To provide him with the kind of footage he likes." He
pointed to the gun levelled at himself. "Is this going to
do
it?"
"You're good, Deckard." She nodded in
appreciation. The fur of her coat's collar was spiked with raindrops, like
miniature jewels. "That's the cop in you-always analyzing the
situation." The gun lowered in her hand. "You're right, though. They
wanted more-Urbenton and the rest of them. They set this all up
She gestured toward the lights and the tracking video
cameras. "Just for the two of us. There's just some things that special
effects and computer-generated images can't really do." A shrug. "No
substitute for live action, is there?"
Deckard
shook his head. "No-there isn't."
"Or death, either. It's so unsatisfying when
that's faked. It's like . . . what was it the replicant said to you? I read it
in the script. 'Like an itch you can never scratch.'" Sarah smiled at him.
"That's why I'm so glad you could make it here, Deckard. We've been
through so much together-it would be a shame not to do it right when we're just
about at the end."
"Oh ... I agree." He wondered how he was
going to get the gun away from her. If she had been crazy before, she was worse
now. But not stupid-Sarah had carefully kept enough distance between them so
that he didn't have a chance of suddenly lunging toward her, grabbing her arm
and twisting it behind her until she dropped the weapon. She'd drill him before
he got halfway to her, and he'd land at her feet with the back of his skull at
the closed end of the alley. "Maybe we should go somewhere and talk about
it."
"We'll talk, all right. But not just now."
Sarah turned away from him, then coyly glanced over her shoulder. "I think
you'll know where to find me."
He watched her walking away, out into the empty
street, the pools of rain reflecting her image like polished obsidian.
A bank of video cameras watched as well, the
glistening lenses turning on their pivot mounts to follow her, until she had
disappeared from view.
His guess was right. Even before Deckard got to the
entryway of the set's replica of the Bradbury Building, he saw the footprints shining
wetly in the protected space between the ornate columns; small, a woman's, with
no attempt having been made to erase them. It had to be Sarah; no one else was
aboard the station, Outer Hollywood having been vacated by the watchers of his
progress. He supposed that Urbenton was safely tucked inside some transport in
the same orbit, viewing at long distance the results of his production
arrangements. As Deckard had sloshed from one rainy zone of the L.A. set to the
next, the certainty of being isolated in this small world had increased, as
though the city itself had been emptied of every face except his own.
Behind
him, the artificial rains lashed the street, the marquee of the Million Dollar
Theater shedding its
plastic letters one by one, the winds spelling out
some obscure noun in the pooling waters. Deckard pushed the creaking door into
a cathedrallike dark, then stepped after it. The cameras focussed on his back
went dead, like birds in winter, as the ones inside the building were roused by
his presence.
Shafts of clouded light swerved through the elaborate
set's interior as he gripped the stair rail and looked upward. No U.N. blimp
moved outside-there wouldn't have been clearance for even a simulation beneath
the rigging's pipes and struts-but a carefully synchronized array of lights
achieved the same effect. It's not even as real, thought Deckard, as
Sebastian's world. In that little pocket universe, at least, there had been
something like a sky and distance between one point and any other; there would
have been miles for the genetic engineer turned deity to have travelled before
he found his heart's desire. But here, in this false L.A., everything had been
compressed and squeezed down to its essentials, the way the insane obliterated
all but the pieces of their obsessions. As Deckard mounted the steps, cold
wrought iron sliding under his palm, he wondered if it was his head
or Sarah's
that he had entered, the thin trails of light revealing the wreckage of her
hopes or his own.
At the end of the encircling corridor, with rain
trickling down through the rafters and decaying plaster above him, with the
unlit empty space traversed by the elevator's elongated vertical cage to one
side, Deckard pushed open the door. The same door that he had opened in the
past, in memory, in a real L.A., and in dreams and a pocket universe-it swung
away from his hand, revealing the high-ceilinged room beyond. He almost
expected the same things to happen as the first time, the two sawn-off friends
of Sebastian's-the animated teddy bear and the spike-helmeted toy soldier-to
march out and greet him.
Instead, Deckard saw the Rachael child sitting at the
massive claw-footed table, her legs dangling at the front of the chair, its
carved dark-oak back extending above her head. She didn't notice him when he
first stepped inside the room; the braid of her dark hair draped over her
shoulder as she bent her head over the sepia-toned illustrations in a Victorian
gardener's manual. Between the pages a single rose had been pressed; she lifted
the brown, ancient flower to her nose, trying to catch whatever scent still
remained. That was when she spotted Deckard silently watching her.
"You're here." The Rachael child spoke
calmly, flipping her ribbon-tied braid behind her back. She carefully laid the
papery rose inside the book and closed the stiff leather covers. "I knew
you would be. Eventually."
"Are you all right?" Cautiously, Deckard
scanned the room as he stepped forward. It looked as it had when he'd been in
Sebastian's private world, dusty and stuffed with wind-up dolls and mannequins.
The laughing clown figure towered over one end of the table, its manic smile
frozen on the stark white face. "Did anything happen to you?"
"I'm fine," announced the child.
"Well m bored. This is a stupid
place. Everything's broken, or it doesn't work." She poked the bride doll
standing next to her chair; the organza veil fluttered as the doll fell over,
its arms and delicately poised hands sticking up in the air. "But those
people,
the ones
who brought me here . . . they didn't hurt me or anything. They were nice
enough, I suppose."
"All right
Deckard barely listened to what the girl said. The crash of the bride
doll had echoed through the room, stirring the white powdery plaster that had
settled on the toys and overstuffed furniture. As the dust settled, he tried to
hear anything else moving nearby. Lenses glinted as the video cameras, more
carefully hidden in this set than outside, swiveled silently on their mounts,
tracking the slow turn of his head. "Is there anybody else here with
you?" He glanced at the child from the corner of his eye. "Anyone at
all?"
"That woman." The Rachael child laid her
hands flat on the book. "You know, the one that looks like me. The one you
call Sarah." An annoyed expression crossed the girl's face. "The one
who didn't think I was real. She's here."
"Where?"
"Up there." She gave a single nod to
indicate the room's ceiling and what lay above. "That's what she told me.
She'd just gotten back here a little while ago; she'd been out in the rain and
stuff, like you. See?" The girl pointed to one of the other chairs, where
Sarah's high-collared coat had been tossed across the scrolled arms; the floor
beneath was spotted with the raindrops shed by the fur. "She said she was
going up there to wait for you."
"I bet." Deckard realized he was being a
fool. He knew what he should do; he should just gather up the Rachael child and
lead her out of the building and off the faux L.A. set entirely. The skiff was
waiting at the station's loading dock, and it could carry both him and the
little girl away from here. What was the point in going up and confronting
Sarah, with her loaded gun and equally lethal madness? She was primed to blow
him away, only delaying the moment for the perfect camera opportunity. Up on
the building's roof- the set that had been put together by Urbenton's techs,
the detailed reproduction of the one in L.A.-the two of them would again be
under the multilensed eye of the video cameras and lights in the overhead
rigging; much better, cinematically, than the relatively constricted setup here
in the rooms beneath. That must've been part of the agreement, thought Deckard.
1b get me out where the best camera angles are. Completing the arc, a nice
sense of structure on the director's part: to die where he hadn't died before,
where he'd been saved from dying by the replicant with Roy Batty's face.
"I'll just bet she wants me to go up there."
"That's what she said." The Rachael child
gave a shrug. And a sharp-eyed gaze at Deckard. "You don't have to do it
if you don't want to."
The little girl was eerily smart-for reasons that
Deckard knew something of; back in the Martian emigrant colony, Marley had told
him about the child's lonely, eccentric growing-up aboard the scuttled Salander
3, and more than that- but she was wrong now. He did have to do it, to go and
meet Sarah on the rain-swept roof beneath the watching cameras.
"We could never get away," he said to the
girl sitting at the table. "There'd be no place we could go ... that I
could take you to. Not Earth, not Mars, not anywhere. No place that she
wouldn't find us again. So I'd just have to do it eventually. And get it over
with. Here or there; now or some other
time. But
it has to happen."
"I don't know about any of that." The Rachael child looked
guilelessly at him. "That's not any of my business. But you have to do
what you think is best."
"All right." Deckard nodded slowly.
"That's just what I'll do." He took the gun out of his jacket and
laid it on the table. "This isn't any good-it's not loaded. So forget
about it; I just don't want to carry it around with me anymore. If anything
happens . . . if I don't come back down, or if Sarah comes down without me, or
if those other people come here .
He
shrugged. "There's not really anything you can do. And
you
shouldn't have to."
"Should
I go hide? If that's what happens?"
Deckard smiled at the girl. "Where do you think
you'd go?"
"I don't know." The Rachael child gave another shrug.
"Somewhere. There's a whole city out there." She pointed to
one of the arched windows.
"With people and stuff. I could find someplace where nobody would know
where to look for me."
He glanced over his shoulder at the window, with the
artificial rain beating against the glass, the gauzy curtain stirred by the
drafts that had penetrated the meticulously constructed decay of the interior
set. She believes it~s real, thought Deckard. The ones who had brought her
here- Urbenton and the others-had let the child go on with the notion that they
had left her in the middle of a real city, the real Los Angeles. He didn't know
if that had been cruel or kind on their parts, or whether it made any
difference. The way the girl had been brought up, by the autonomic machinery of
the Salander 3, the city outside these windows, such as it was, probably seemed
as real as any other could have.
"No," said Deckard. "That's not a good
idea. Don't try to hide. I don't think they'll hurt you. If I don't come back .
then just let them take you to where they want to.
Maybe they'll take you back home. You know, where you came from. You could stay
there a long time, and you'd be all right."
"But I don't want to." A tear had welled up
and trembled at the Rachael child's dark lashes. "I don't want to go
there. I'd rather stay with you." The high-backed chair toppled over with
a crash as the girl pushed herself away from the table; she ran to him and
hugged him around the waist, the side of her face against his jacket. "I'm
going with you."
"No, you're not. You can't." The same
protective, almost paternal feeling as before passed silently through Deckard's
thoughts. The girl looked so much like Rachael, the woman he'd loved; she could
have been their daughter, a child that could never have happened. Not here, he
mused. Maybe out there, in the stars. Perhaps Rachael would have been one of
those that changed, became human; they could have had a life together . .
Too late for that, he knew. Now there were only the
bits and pieces of his own life to pick up and sort out, make something of.
Something other than killing. That was why he'd quit being a blade runner a
long time ago-but that hadn't been enough. That was why he'd agreed to take on
the other
job presented to him, the business of delivering the
briefcase with Batty's voice and Isidore's list inside it; too late for that as
well. Whether it had been salvation or death for the insurgent replicants-it
didn't matter now.
The only things left to him were the little girl . . .
and what Marley had told him about her. About who she really was. And the slim
proof-not even that; evidence that had to be taken on faith as to what it
meant-that Marley, two minutes away from death, had given him. Deckard touched
the front of his jacket, a finger's width away from where he had been carrying
the empty gun, and felt the thin stiff rectangle of the ancient photograph, the
one that had been hidden in the Salander 3's first aid kit. That was all he had
with which to confront Sarah; one way or another, it would be enough.
"Look-" With difficulty, he managed to push
the child away from him. "You stay down here, and everything will be all
right. I promise." He wondered for a moment why she had formed such a
sudden, dramatic attachment to him. There~s no one else, thought Deckard. The
child was all alone in this universe, or in any other. Plus-it was impossible
to tell-she might have sensed the fragments of his past, the memories of
someone else named Rachael that the girl's dark eyes and grave manner conjured
up so painfully in him. Even if she didn't understand yet how those things had
come to be. Maybe she just felt sorry for him. "All right?" Deckard
put his hands on her shoulders and leaned down to look straight into her eyes;
the glimpse of them ran through his own heart like a dagger of silver and ice.
"The bad things have already happened," he told the girl.
"Nothing else can go wrong," he lied. "So don't worry about
me."
He left her sitting at the table again, surrounded by
the mutely uncomforting dolls. The Rachael child folded her arms across the
thick, leather-bound book and laid her head down, concealing her face from him.
Deckard stepped ~ut to the open corridor beyond and quietly pulled the door
shut behind himself.
The last time-the first time Deckard had been in this
building, in fts original form back in L.A-he'd had to climb laboriously to its
roof, his scrabbling progress through the crumbling, waterlogged plaster and
sagging beams impeded by a hastily bandaged hand, the fingers that the Batty
replicant had broken aching and useless. Fear had driven him then; he'd been
trying to escape death. This time, he was walking toward it. I'll take the
stairs, he thought wryly.
A shaft of utility stairs at the back of the
building-it was undoubtedly the same route that Sarah had already taken. In the
damp air, as Deckard craned his neck to look upward, he caught a trace of
perfume, one of the opiated floral scents that his mind and senses had learned
to associate first with Rachael, then with Sarah. The invisible molecules were
tinged with something more acrid but just as distinctive and evocative:
cigarette smoke, something dark and expensive, suited to the taste of a Tyrell
heir. He looked down and spot-
A
ted, on the landing's rough concrete, silken white
paper and brown shreds of tobacco ground out cold by her shoe.
The metal steps echoed in the narrow space, loud
enough to evoke a shiver in the video camera lenses that peeked out at him from
their clefts in the unfinished walls. Up ahead, above him, Deckard saw a
rust-mottled door left open, creaking on its hinges as the fan-driven storm
winds swung it back and forth. He stopped, rain spattering in his face as he
tried to catch sight of anyone waiting in the darkness. Nothing; he grasped the
cold pipe rail and continued climbing.
"Sarah?" He pushed the door all the way
back-the metal clanged against the side of the hatchway structure-and stepped
out onto the roof. Warm rivulets trickled down his throat as he called out
again.
"Where
are you?"
No answer came. Deckard walked farther from the door,
leaving the stairs and his escape behind him. Looking up, he saw no stars but
the broader points of the lights in the studio's truss-work rigging; only a few
meters away, as though-in a child's notion of the world-he had climbed all the
way to the dark heavens, the universe's weld-stitched limit. The lights'
spectra had been shifted down to an icy blue, colder than the streets' veins of
neon; shadows fluttered across him like the wings of unseen, untouched 'birds
as staggered ranks of archaic wind turbines, blades long and scimitar-curved,
rotated in the damp breeze coming from the edges of the set.
He worked his way through the windmills, avoiding the
scything arms, coming at last to the roofs raised parapet. His hands, grasping
the crumbled brick and thick tatters of asphalt sheeting, looked as bloodless
as a corpse's flesh. They hardly seemed to belong to him at all; the uncanny
sensation passed through him as though he were looking at someone else, someone
who had slid inside his body and face. The hands, and the body that leaned its
insubstantial weight into them, might have been those of the actor who bad
played him in the video he had seen; the disoriented feeling increased, setting
him even farther away. For a dizzying moment, Deckard wondered if he were still
watching the video,
the
artificial world into which his own life had been transformed.
Squeezing his eyes shut, his hands gripping even
tighter on the fragile stone, he tried to make himself feel real again. Or as
real as possible. I've become my own ghost, thought Deckard. A dead thing that
watches and mourns the past; he'd felt that way before, when he'd sat beside a
glass-lidded coffin, leaning forward with his chin on his doubled fists,
looking at the sleeping, dying woman he'd loved. Keeping his vigil through one
sleepless night after another, time seeping away beneath the real stars, the
rain swallowed by earth and the dead leaves beneath the trees. It might as well
have been his own face he'd seen beneath the glass, in a video monitor rather
than a coffin. He had died, or as good as, even before Rachael had; he'd just
had the privilege of witnessing his own death, over and over, in one cold world
after another.
The bleak meditation didn't end, but became familiar
enough, an old wound, that he could function once more. Deckard opened his eyes
and looked over his shoulder at the elaborate rooftop set. They did a good job,
he had to admit. Urbenton and his crew of technicians, the people who had
constructed the set-in the thin, fragmented light, he could see how close they
had come to the original, how much the fake was indistinguishable from the
genuine. The turbines spun in place, like idiot dervishes on edge, over a
buckling field speckled with pigeon shit-had they scraped up the droppings from
an actual L.A. building roof and shipped them here, or was there a flock of
birds kept on hand in some remote aviary zone of the station? It all smelled
real enough, a blending of monsoon steam and guanoid archaeology, that at least
some of Deckard's senses were fooled.
He looked back over the parapet at the imitation city
that surrounded the building. All the little tricks of the video trade had been
used, from foreshortened perspectives to banks of fiber optics for a vista of
pinpoint lights stretching to an imaginary horizon; other whole sections were
blank or covered with chroma-key backdrops, for digitized mattes to be ceegeed
in during postproduction. The miniature city seemed caught between different
levels of reality, at some muddled point halfway on the line from dream to
something that could be touched. In some way, that made the dark nocturnal city
he saw now as real as the L.A. he remembered on Earth. Realer than real,
thought Deckard. A night made of the same stuff as the replicants, dreams and
fears and a desperate longing to exist. He had lived in that inchoate city, had
been part of it, but-he knew now-hadn't belonged in it. It's their world. He
nodded slowly, rain trickling across the backs of his hands. Their night as
well, in which he was just a shadow, a thing that wouldn't even be remembered
when the sun came up.
"Hello, Deckard." The voice-the one that
he'd known he would hear-came from behind him. "I was waiting for
you."
From over his shoulder, he looked and saw Sarah
standing a few yards from him, in the center of the roof's area, the wind
turbines spinning and stretching away into darkness. He turned and leaned back
against the parapet, hands gripping its edge on either side. "I had some
business to take care of first. With the little girl. I had a talk with
her."
"How
sweet." Sarah stepped forward into the partial light filtering down from
above. The skin of her
face and throat looked cold, bloodless. "I
suppose that was a good thing for you to do. Whether she's real or not. Actually
. . . I don't care anymore." The gun in her hand glinted as though a piece
of the dark had frozen. "It's not important, is it?"
"Maybe not." His heart had ticked faster for
a moment at seeing a weapon in someone else's hand, knowing that he didn't have
one. "It all depends. On what you want."
"Ah." She nodded and smiled. "That's
true. I used to want things. Different things." With cruel playfulness,
Sarah raised the gun to eye level, arm straight, and looked down the barrel at
him. "And now ... just one thing. Guess what it is."
"I've got a pretty good idea." Inside him,
his pulse had slowed back down as a resigned calm moved through his blood.
Whatever was going to happen, he had prepared himself for it. "I wouldn't
have come here if I didn't know."
The face
of the woman he loved studied him over the gun's
black metal. "You're not really human, are you,
Deckard?" Rachael's face, Sarah wearing it like a mask, though it had been
hers to begin with. "If you ever were, you've managed to get over it. Like
I have. So it's not just a cop thing, having ice water going in and out of your
heart. It's just something that happens to people like us."
He nodded
in agreement. "The Eye of Compassion .
"What
was that?"
"Nothing," answered Deckard. "Something
... somebody told me about. We're not the ones who decide who's human and who's
not." He looked over to the faked skyline surrounding the building, then
back to her. "There's nothing we can do about it."
"Yes, there is. There always is." No trace
of irony or sarcasm sounded in the woman's voice. "You shouldn't give up
hope like that." Her hand squeezed the gun, tight and trembling. "You
can always kill. That works. Especially if you do it to the things you love.
Then . . . then you have a chance."
"A
chance of what? Of being human?"
"No Sarah gave a shake of her head. "Of not
caring anymore. So when you die-when you take care of yourself finally-it's not
so hard."
The voice of madness, speaking the same words inside
his head-Deckard listened to her and knew that it would be easy to agree. Or to
go even further, deeper into one's own madness; the temptation always existed
in him to accept only what he saw, what part of him wanted to see and believe.
That it really was Rachael standing in front of him, alive again, unchanged.
That the other woman with the same face, the one named Sarah, was as irreal as
she had thought the child waiting downstairs inside the building was. A memory,
a bad dream, a hallucination. If that were the case, he wouldn't have any
problem with her pointing a gun at him and pulling the trigger. That was a
small price to pay for seeing Rachael again, if only for the moment between the
firing of the bullet and its entry into his deluded heart.
He had closed his eyes, though he could still see
her-remembering was enough for that. Easier as well, to mentally edit out the
infinitesimal differences-the coldness at the dark centers of her eyes, a hard
curl at one corner of her mouth-that made her Sarah instead of Rachael. It
didn't help much; when Deckard opened his eyes again, the sight of the woman
sent a sharp-pointed blow through him, more painful than if she had actually
squeezed the trigger of the gun.
"Is that what you're going to do?" He'd
watched as the momentary tremor left her upraised hand. "Kill yourself,
too?"
"Why not Sarah's eyes
almost seemed to be looking for sympathy from him. "Why should you be the
only one to get lucky?"
Deckard continued to watch as she strode forward, all
the way to the building's edge. She turned and leaned back against the parapet
a carefully judged distance away from him, just far enough that there was no
chance of his being able to grab the gun before she fired.
"You know Sarah mused aloud. "The illusion
kind of breaks down here." She glanced over her shoulder, toward the
street below. "It's not really very high up at all, is it?" Her gaze
turned to him. "Not like the real one, back in Los Angeles. I've seen that
one; I've been there." Head cocked to one side, she smiled coyly at him.
"When I was first finding out all about you, Deckard; I went and looked at
the places you'd been, where things happened to you." She nodded toward
the drop on the parapet's other side. "You must've been pretty scared,
back then; if you'd fallen from the real one, they would've had to have picked
you up from the pavement with a sponge. Whereas here Sarah gave an unimpressed shrug. "Hardly
enough to kill someone. You might actually even survive."
"Maybe." Deckard looked over the edge behind
him. She was right; the illusion of the city's reality was dispelled from this
angle. The machinery and interlaced cables of the set were detectable, like the
secret workings of the world revealed by a paranoid vision come true. "Is
that the deal you made with Urbenton? He always wants the ~best footage he can
get. So a shot of me falling . . . I imagine that would be
just about perfect. He could
re-edit the video he did about me, put in a new ending, one where I die. Maybe
that would suit both him and the people he's working for."
"Oh, it would. You're exactly right on that
one." Sarah nodded, as though admiring his take on the situation.
"That's pretty much the U.N's little agenda. The first version of the
video-the one you saw-that was only shown in the Martian emigrant colony."
She pointed toward him with the gun. "They'd love to do another version
for broadcast on Earth that would really prove just how dangerous escaped
replicants are. In case there might be anyone starting to feel sorry for them.
Urbenton could always fake your getting killed, do it with special effects, all
the different tricks they have for that sort of thing-but there's nothing quite
as convincing as reality, is there? No matter how much you have to fake it.
Plus, this way, there's no living blade runner named Rick Deckard turning up
later to embarrass everyone. The little details . . . like your not being
killed by the fall but from a bullet Sarah gave another shrug. "Urbenton
can fix that up in postproduction. Or not. That's his business, not mine."
She studied the gun in her own hand for a moment, then looked at Deckard again.
"I'll have kept my part of the bargain."
"You're a person of your
word. In your own way."
"I try to be." Sarah spoke with no more
irony than before. "I've only lied when I had to. When there was something
I had to have. And what did it get me?" She shook her head. "Nothing.
I learned my lesson." Her voice turned bitter. "I should've just
stayed what I was. Not tried to be something else. Like your precious Rachael.
It's just no good-the dead get all the breaks in this world."
The artificial rain had lessened a bit. Deckard looked
up to where the clouds and stars should have been, letting the drops wash down
his face and throat. "But do you know?" The words were soft, almost a
whisper. "Do you know who you are?"
"Come on." Her response was sour, irritated.
"I'm not in the mood for the usual mind games, Deckard. I'm tired of
playing even my own. So it's not likely I'm going to fall for
yours. If that's what you're going to try, then I'll
just stop wasting time and kill you now. There's a limit to how sentimental I
get."
He said nothing. Instead, he reached inside his jacket
and took out the thin, flat rectangle of the photograph, the one that had been
given to him by the dead man back on Mars. Deckard held it by one corner and
gazed at the long-past scene it revealed. Then he held the photo out to Sarah.
"What's that supposed to be?" She leaned
back, regarding the object with suspicion. "Something you and your repsymp
friends faked up?"
"No-"
He shook his head. "This is the real thing. Go on, take it."
Keeping the gun levelled at him, Sarah reached out and
grasped the photograph between her own thumb and forefinger. She turned it
around and studied it. "I don't get it," she announced after a few
seconds. Her brow creased. "Who is it?"
"Come on, Sarah. You know." He tried to make
his words as gentle as possible. "You've seen them before. You've seen
other pictures. They're your parents."
She said nothing. Deckard watched her staring at the
photo. The image it contained was in his head as well, engraved there from the
moment he had first seen it. And Marley's voice, telling him what it meant;
those were fused together, insoluble. He knew what Sarah was looking at: a
photo of a bed, the sheets and covers all white, a woman sitting up with the
pillows mounded behind her; the woman was smiling, as was the man standing
beside the bed, leaning down to get his face close to hers, the two of them
looking into the lens of the camera. It must have been mounted on a tripod or a
high shelf; the remote control was just visible in the man's grasp, his thumb
pressing down the button that had flicked the camera's shutter.
The two people were Ruth and
Anson Tyrell-the same two people, the couple, that Deckard had seen in another
old photograph, a newspaper clipping on the wall of a cramped, cluttered office
at the Van Nuys Pet Hospital, back in the real L.A. on Earth. A moment of the
past, a fro~n section of time,
caught and
preserved; those people had been alive once, and then they had become memories.
"When The expression on Sarah's face grew more
troubled. "When was this taken?"
"You can figure it out," said Deckard. He
made no move from the parapet he leaned against, but pointed to the photo in
the woman's hand. "Look at what he's wearing." That was also the same
as it had been in the clipping on Isidore's office wall. "Look at the
emblem on the breast pocket. That's the jumpsuit from the expedition. The
picture was taken on board the Salander 3."
He could tell, just from watching, that the meaning of
the photograph was becoming clear for her. Bit by bit, as though the image was
gradually moving into focus, the past it held becoming real once again.
"This wasn't on Earth." Sarah raised the
photograph higher, a few drops of rain spattering against its empty white
backing. "This must have been when they were still on their way to the
Proxima system .
"That's right." Deckard nodded. "Before
... those other things happened."
In the artificial night, the glow from the lights
suspended above was enough for her to make out all the details of the old
photograph. There were more than just the two people, the adults, Ruth and
Anson Tyrell, held in the image.
"If that's my parents Sarah spoke slowly,
wonderingly. "Then ... that must be me." She used the tip of the
gun's muzzle to point. "One of those .
That was what he had wanted her to see. What she
needed to see. The photo's image was just as clear in Deckard's thoughts, as
clear as it had been when Marley had taken it from the hiding place in the
Salander 3 's first aid kit and had shown it to him.
There were two infants cradled against the new
mother's breast, one nestled in the crook of each arm. "Your mother had
twins," said Deckard simply. In that faraway time, on board the galleon,
somewhere between Earth and the stars, Ruth Tyrell had looked exhausted but
happy, smiling at the camera. In the photograph, Anson Tyrell had the
traditional
dazed grin. "Your father delivered them with the
help of the Salander 3's built-in medical circuits." "Twins Sarah's voice was a murmur. "There were
two of us .
Deckard didn't stir from his position at the
building's edge. "Twin female infants." He repeated verbatim what
Marley had told him. "Two healthy baby girls. You and your sister. Sarah .
. . and Rachael
She looked up at Deckard when he spoke the second
name. "My sister?" Sarah shook her head in disbelief. "That's
impossible."
"It's true," said Deckard. "And there's
proof. The little girl downstairs, inside this building-her name really is
Rachael. She's not a hallucination. She's your twin sister."
"Oh, of course." Sarah gave a quick, sharp
laugh. "Even though she's-what?-ten years old? There's a problem with that,
Deckard. I'm sure you can see it."
"There's no problem. You and the little girl were
born at the same time . . . or a few minutes apart. You're twins. But you know
that bad things happened aboard the Salander 3; you know because you saw them
when you went there again. After you and Rachael were born, something happened.
To your father. And then a lot of bad things happened. Your mother managed to
save not only you but your twin sister, Rachael, as well. But your mother died
in the process-she was killed by the man who loved her. Insane when he killed
her; sane-or close enough-when he killed himself."
"Still a problem,
Deckard. Even if everything you say is true-" Sarah held the photo in one
hand and the gun, still trained on him, in the other. "There was only one
child taken off the Salander 3 when it returned to Earth. And that was
me."
"That's right." He returned her level gaze,
straight into Sarah's eyes. "Your sister was left on board the Salander 3.
In the sleep transport chamber that was part of the ship's equipment."
When Marley had told him, he'd had a vision of the infant, a small, helpless
thing inside the glass-lidded coffin, another of the
suspended-animation
devices like the one his own Rachael had slept and died in. "That was
where your
mother hid her to save her from your father. You were
still in your mother's arms when your father killed her. Then the ship's
autonomic circuits took care of you on the voyage back to Earth. And all the
while, your twin sister, Rachael, slept on inside the transport chamber. Slept
and didn't age- even after the Salander 3 had returned home and you were taken
from it. You're right; only one child was taken from the ship. Your twin
sister, Rachael, was either overlooked where she was sleeping inside the
transport chamber-the Tyrell Corporation employees who went aboard might not
have searched very thoroughly, given the things they found when they went in-or
she might've been deliberately left there. Either on Eldon Tyrell's orders or
someone else's; I don't know. That part's still a mystery. Just like it's a
mystery as to who took your sister, Rachael, out of the transport chamber ten
years ago and left her there for the Sal ander 3 's autonomic circuits to rear.
That might've been done on your uncle's orders as well." Deckard could
hear a grating edge in his own voice. "He'd already started to let some of
his-shall we say?-personal obsessions take over his thinking. That's what led
him to have another Rachael created, a replicant based on you." An
invisible knife carved away another section of Deckard's heart as he found
himself speaking so coldly of the origins of the woman with whom he'd fallen in
love. "Maybe Eldon Tyrell was too impatient to wait for the real Rachael,
the child still inside the Salander 3, to grow up. So he found another way to
get what he wanted."
"Don't be too hard on him." Sarah looked at
the photo again. "I hated him and I wasn't sorry to hear that he was
dead-but I've got a right to feel that way. You don't. My uncle was just
another poor bastard who loved something too much. He must've loved Ruth . . .
a great deal." Her voice went softer. "But he couldn't have her.
Because she loved his brother, Anson, my father. And she went off with him.
Far, far away Sarah slowly shook her
head. "And that's what made him do the things he did, with me and with
Rachael, the replicant he created. Because he loved her. He loved Ruth."
'Pygmalion."
One word was all that Deckard spoke.
"What do you mean?"
There were still things that she needed to know. And
that he had to tell her. "An old, old story," said Deckard.
"About someone who fell in love with his own creation."
Sarah's gaze narrowed above
the gun. "I don't know what you're talking about."
"It's simple." With one hand, Deckard
brushed rain from the side of his face. "When the Sal ander 3 left Earth,
heading out on its mission to the Proxima system . . . there were no humans
aboard it. Ruth and Anson Tyrell-the parents of you and your twin sister,
Rachael-they weren't humans. They were replicants."
A look of
panic flitted behind Sarah's widened eyes. "That's ... that's
impossible."
"Nothing is impossible." Deckard gazed at
her sadly, as though regretting the need to speak of these things.
"Especially not when it's part of the Tyrell Corporation's secret history.
There's stuff you just don't know about. Eldon Tyrell did have a brother . . .
but that brother died when he was a child. The Anson Tyrell that headed out to
the Proxima system aboard the Salander 3 was a replicant, created in the Tyrell
Corporation's labs as a special, top-secret project. As was the female
replicant they named Ruth. Neither one of them knew that they were replicants;
like the adult Rachael-when I first met her at the Tyrell Corporation
headquarters-they thought they were human. And they went on the Salander 3
still believing that. They were misled about their own nature, what kind of
creatures they were, so it's no surprise that they didn't know the actual
reason for the Salander 3's so-called mission to the Proxima
system."
"Which
was? According to you, I mean."
He shook his head. "It's not just according to
me. I didn't figure out all this stuff-I wouldn't have been able to."
"Somebody
told you this?" A cold fury narrowed Sarah's gaze. "Who?"
"Nobody you can touch. He's dead now." Deckard
could still hear the other man's voice inside his head, the secrets that Marley
had imparted to him. All the secrets of the world that Sarah Tyrell lived in,
the world that she could never es
cape, no matter how she tried. The secrets that she
had never known, that her uncle had never told her, that Eldon Tyrell had done
his best to make certain she never found out. Deckard could see Marley leaning
across the table in the bar's little booth, looking straight into his eyes . .
. and seeing reality there. That all the words Marley spoke, all the connected
bits of what had been purged from the Tyrell Corporation archives, were true.
Eldon Tyrell had tried to murder the past, to make it cease to be . . . but
he'd failed.
The past still existed. The record of it, the history
of the Salander 3 expedition-Eldon Tyrell had been able to do whatever he
wanted with his corporation's archives, but even he hadn't been able to touch
the U.N's top-secret databases. The rep-symps that Marley had worked for had
managed to infiltrate the U.N's emigration agency, and they had found the
truth, the evidence of that which they had already come to suspect.
Marley had told him . . . and now Deckard spoke the
same words to the woman standing in front of him.
"The Salander 3 was never meant to reach the Prox
system." He watched Sarah's reaction to what he told her. "It didn't
need to for Eldon Tyrell to find out what he wanted to know." The things
that Marley had told him back in the bar in the Martian emigrant colony-Deckard
recited them now, a well-memorized lesson. "All that the mission needed to
accomplish was to get beyond the reach of the Earth's morphogenetic field.
That's what keeps humans-and replicants-the way they are. On Earth, replicants
don't reproduce; they don't have children. They can't; it's physiologically
impossible. But what the Salander 3's mission showed was that all that changes
out in the stars. There had been indications of this before, but Eldon Tyrell
required proof. And he got it." Deckard nodded toward the figure before
him. "You're the proof that the Salander 3 returned with. You and your
twin sister, Rachael. The little girl down below us. The ship came back with
the first two replicant children. The children born to the replicants that
Eldon Tyrell had sent out there."
Rain had darkened Sarah's
hair, a shining black curve
having come loose from where it'd been bound and now
trailing alongside her throat. "That can't be The gun in her hand was
studded with drops of water, like domed black sequins. "You're lying .
He pointed
to the photograph in her other hand. "There's the proof. That what I'm
saying is true."
Her dark eyes flared in anger. "This is
nothing!" Sarah flung the picture away; it landed facedown on the wet
roof. "I don't know where you got that thing, and I don't care-"
"I got it," said Deckard, "from your
mother. From the replicant Ruth Tyrell. In a way, that is; she had hidden it
back aboard the Sal ander 3. Inside one of the first aid kits on the ship; she
just had time to do that before she was hunted down and killed by your
father."
"Really?"
Sarah looked scornful. "And why would she want to do that?"
"I don't know." He gazed down at his own
rain-wet hands for a moment. "Maybe she had found out something. Maybe
she suspected the truth about herself and about her
children. There might have been a slip, something in the Salander 3's computers
that had been inadvertently left there by Eldon Tyrell, some little clue about
the ship's mission." Deckard shrugged. "Or maybe not. Maybe it was
just something that Ruth knew . . . inside herself. And she knew she had to
leave a message, some kind of proof. So that people would know what had
happened. And they did. They found the photograph, then hid it again, even
better. It became a little sacred object, a relic. A holy thing. But it wasn't
really for them; that wasn't why Ruth hid it there. It was for you." He
brought his gaze back to Sarah's eyes. "So you would know. Her
daughters."
The scornful expression had changed to one of
desperation. "I still don't believe it. That photograph could've been
faked-"
"Maybe so. But the things that happened aboard
the Salander 3-the things you saw when you went there again, when you saw the
past-those things couldn't have been faked. It really happened-that your father
killed Ruth, that he would have killed you and your sister, Rachael, as well,
if
she hadn't managed to protect you." Deckard
folded his arms across his chest. "There's only one possible explanation
for all of that. The replicant named Anson Tyrell wouldn't have gone
insane-murderously insane-for no reason. But the reason he did had been
programmed inside him. By Eldon Tyrell. As a fail-safe protection in case it
turned out that replicants could be made capable of reproducing themselves. He
wanted to make sure that that knowledge was suppressed, so he built into Anson's
brain a whole destructive sequence, a 'stepfather syndrome' based on primitive
behavior patterns. And it worked; your father would've killed both you and your
sister, Rachael, if he had been able to get to you. As it turned out, it was
still enough to destroy both your mother and your father. That was enough;
Eldon Tyrell could cover up or get rid of the other evidence about what had
happened out there, what it meant. The only thing he didn't do was go ahead and
have the two children destroyed, the daughters of the replicants he'd sent out
on the Salander 3. Maybe it was guilt, maybe it was something else . . . but he
let you live. Rachael went on sleeping in the transit chamber on board the
ship, and you became his niece. Even you believed it-and why shouldn't you
have? You thought you were human; you thought you were the original, the
template, for the replicant Rachael that Eldon Tyrell created later."
Deckard tilted his head back, letting the rain strike his eyelids, then looked
over at Sarah again. "You just didn't know that that Rachael, the adult
one, was a copy of a copy. A replicant of a replicant. Just because she wasn't
a human
that doesn't mean you're
one."
Sarah's gaze had fastened upon her hand, the one
holding the gun, as though she were seeing it for the first time.
"Who She spoke falteringly.
"Who told you ... all this . .
"Does
it matter?"
"Whoever
it was Her teeth clenched with anger.
"They were lying."
"Sarah Her
name, his voice low, the syllables as kindly said as possible. "You know
it's true. You might not have known all the details, but the truth . . . you
knew that
all along. At least from the time you went back to the
Salander 3. And you found her. The little girl; your sister. The first Rachael.
She was real, and you knew it. You knew you weren't crazy; you knew you weren't
suffering from some hallucination. Yet you kept on saying that you were, saying
that she wasn't real, she didn't exist. Even though you knew she did." He
drew a deep breath, the damp air filling his lungs. "You wouldn't have
done that if you hadn't realized what it meant that that child should be there
at all. And you knew somehow-you felt it-that she was your sister. That she was
the same as you."
The words had had an impact on Sarah. She closed her
eyes, swaying slightly where she stood, the gun's weight trembling in her hand.
After a moment, she nodded slowly. "Yes
Her voice was a whisper, barely audible. "I knew .
"You knew," said Deckard. "But you did
not believe. Because you didn't want to." She said nothing. There was
nothing more for her to say. "Now what do you want?" He watched,
pitying her now.
"I don't know." Sarah looked at the gun in
her hand. "I suppose I could just go ahead and kill you." She sounded
close to crying, a broken thing. "Since you don't love me. You never
did."
"I never did. I never
could."
She looked at him, eyes
pleading. "Is that what I should do?"
"Maybe." Deckard
shrugged. He felt tired, at the end of his own words. "But if you do that
... remember He looked up at the video cameras watching them. "That's what
they wanted you to do."
"You're right."
Sarah nodded, her gaze focussed on some deep interior vista. "That's what
I've always done. I've never even known what I wanted." She looked up at
him. "But now I do."
He knew what she meant. He knew what would happen
next. "Are you sure?"
Sarah nodded. "It was always going to come to this. You win,
Deckard."
"No He shook his head.
"You do. Because now you get what you want."
"I suppose you're right." Exhaustion sounded
in her voice, as though from the long journey it had taken to reach this place.
She managed a smile, a fragile turn of her mouth. "Could you She lowered her hand, letting the gun drop
to her side. "Could you kiss me? The way you kissed her?"
No words. Deckard took her in
his arms, feeling the warmth of her body through his own rain-soaked clothes.
She turned her face, eyes closed, up to his.
Time
stopped. Memory took its place. But even that had to end.
She was
kind to him. She took care of herself.
The gun fell to the rooftop, a black shape surrounded
by a thin, rippling mirror. Even as the echo of the shot rolled against the
studio walls, the night city's false horizon. She fell then, and was still
beautiful. He looked down at the crumpled form, something that might have once
been human. The blood from her shattered temple flowed and mingled with the
pooled rain.
Deckard looked up at the cameras. "How about
that?" His furious shout battered the empty lenses. "Was that good
enough? Did you get what you wanted?"
As though in answer, the observing spark died inside
all the video cameras. The artificial rain had already stopped; now the lights
came up, dispelling the false night. The taping was over. Deckard stood in the
center of the building set's roof, a dead woman at his feet, one that had the
face of someone he'd loved, now wrapped in the same sleep, the one from which
there was no waking. The one he envied.
He still had a job to do. He
left the gun where it lay, a few inches from Sarah Tyrell's hand, and walked
back toward the stairs.
The Rachael child had fallen asleep at the table, her
head upon the old leather-bound book. Deckard touched her shoulder; she sat up,
blinking and frowning. She rubbed her eyes with her knuckles. "I'm kind of
hungry," she announced.
"That's all right." Deckard took the child's hand and helped
her from the high-backed chair. "We're going home."
The girl looked up at him as he led her toward the
door, past the silent toys. "Where's that?" "I don't know,"
said Deckard. "I guess we'll find out."
After
"Niemand-your papers are a mess." The U.N.
bureaucrat looked at the documents spread across his desk and shook his head.
"Do you really think you can get off this planet with your affairs in this
condition?"
"I don't know," said
Deckard. He leaned back in the uncomfortable chair that had been provided to
him. "I don't much care, either."
The bureaucrat glanced up at
him with small eyes filled by officious hatred. "You have an attitude
problem as well." All the authority of the U.N's emigration program
sounded in the man's voice. "Don't
you?"
Deckard made no reply. The office, a tiny cubicle in
the central administration building of the Martian emigrant colony, smelled
like photocopy toner and the adrenaline of small-fry bullies. Deckard had no
particular wish to be here at all; they had sent for him. The announcement of
the resumption of travel to the far colonies had gone out a couple
of weeks
ago, but he hadn't bothered to make an application. Let them come find me, he'd
decided.
And they had. The uniformed security men had shown up
at the hovel, asking for him by pseudonym. He'd told the Rachael child to wait
for him, that he'd be back before too long; then he'd pulled the door shut and
had gone off with the grim-faced men on either side of him.
"Your original entry
visa-" The bureaucrat flipped through a passport. "Shows that you
came here with your wife." The mean little eyes raised from the
leatherette-bound booklet. "Where's Mrs. Niemand?"
Deckard
didn't even bother to shrug. "Why don't we just say . . . that she and I
had domestic troubles."
The bureaucrat laid down the
passport. "There's also nothing in the Niemand family documents about
having a little girl with you. When you came to Mars, you were childless."
This time, he shrugged.
"The domestic troubles didn't start right away."
"Obviously. From what our
sources tell us, this child .
The small eyes glanced at another sheet of paper.
"Reportedly named Rachael . . . is ten years old." "That sounds
about right."
"Mr. Niemand." The bureaucrat touched his fingertips together
in a cage. "You haven't been on Mars for ten years."
"Then it's a mystery, isn't it"-Deckard
looked straight back into the man's eyes-"how these things come
about."
"No, it's not."
Through his steepled hands, the bureaucrat regarded the figure on the other
side of him. "Why don't we just cut the crap? We know who you really
are."
Another shrug. "Good for you."
"We've gotten our orders ... Mr. Niemand."
The bureaucrat's lip curled as he spoke the alias. "From the top levels.
We're to put you and the little girl on the next transport heading to the outer
colonies. You wanted to emigrate?" He gathered the passport and other
documents into a pile. "Then you're ready to go. Cleared, approved,
expedited- you're out of here."
Deckard picked up the booklet on top of the rest,
opened it,
and looked at the rubber-stamped markings on the
pages. "What if I don't want to go now? What if I've changed my
mind?"
The eyes narrowed down to pinpricks. "It's not up
to you."
He regarded his own hologram photo at the front of the
passport, then laid it down. "You say you know who I am." Deckard
kept his voice level, emotionless. "But what about you? Who are you?"
The bureaucrat's gaze shifted uneasily. "That
doesn't matter. Mr. Niemand."
"It matters to me." Deckard leaned forward.
"I don't know who the hell you are. You could be anybody." His voice
grated harder. "You could be the U.N. You could be the cops; maybe you're
really working for the LAPD. You could be the rep-symps; I don't know how far
they've infiltrated the authorities. Maybe
He studied the other man's round, insignificant face. "Maybe you're
the Tyrell Corporation .
that shadow of it. I just don't know."
"Let's face it." The bureaucrat showed an
unpleasant smile. "Your track record on this sort of thing isn't the
greatest. You can't even tell if I'm human or not."
"You're
right. I can't even tell about myself anymore." Deckard slowly shook his
head. "And I don't know why you want me to go out there. To the
stars."
"You're not important," said the bureaucrat. Or whatever he
was. "You don't matter at all. It's the girl. You know that much, don't
you?"
Deckard kept his silence. The other man was right
again. That was about all he knew for certain. He'd known it since he'd come
back with the child from the Outer Hollywood station. She'd been born out
there. Far away, he mused. And strange. The first replicant child, the
beginning of that other species' inheritance. Of all that had once been
considered the exclusive province of human beings.
There had been other things he'd agreed to carry to
that place he'd never seen. And he'd lost them. For good or ill, he didn't
know. But he still had the child with him. A child bearing his dead love's
name, and her face with those dark, quietly watching eyes. Rachael . .
That much he had also known. That whatever else
happened-whatever he had to do, however it was made possible; whatever would
come about when they reached that destination-he would take her there. That was
the job he had, the job that he'd accepted.
"All right," said Deckard. He gathered up
the other documents and held them with the passport in his hands. "I'll
go." He pushed the chair back and stood up. "How much time do I
have?"
The bureaucrat looked up at him. "The transport
leaves in twelve hours." The small eyes were almost kind. "You're
doing the right thing, Mr. Niemand."
"I don't know that." Deckard tucked the
documents inside his jacket. He turned and grasped the knob of the office's
thin door, then glanced over his shoulder at the other man. "And neither
do you."
"It's not up to us, Mr. Niemand."
"Probably not." He
pulled open the door. "Maybe out there I'll find out who does decide. And
then I'll know."
The bureaucrat nodded. "Perhaps."
Deckard shut the door behind himself and headed down
the narrow corridor. There was no hurry; the few things he had to pack for
himself and the little girl wouldn't take long.
Whatever else they might need, he supposed, would be
waiting for them at their journey's end.