EVEN IN the Mageworlds, Jessan reflected, a spaceport remained a spaceport. There was something about building a city on the widest, flattest piece of ground available that made places as different as Embrig and Namport unmistakably members of the same family. Galcen Prime was different, of course—Galcen Prime was always different—but Prime had ruled a world long before it went on to rule most of the civilized galaxy, and in any case Galcen South Polar had more than enough wideness and flatness to make up for the lack.
Gefalon on Raamet was another example of the breed. The sun beat down on a city built out of rock, in the same bleached-out brown color as the arid landscape. A range of blue-green mountains in the far distance, with clouds wreathing their snowcapped peaks, suggested that Raamet might elsewhere have better, and cooler, scenery to offer, but no starpilot would risk traveling away from the port to find out. Not on this side of the Net, anyway.
The spaceport itself was mostly landing field, with none of the Republic’s high-tech docking facilities. Ships here didn’t even set down on tarmac. The lines marking off the vast area into sections had been etched directly into the packed and hardened earth. Jessan wondered how often it rained in Gefalon, if it ever did—and how many Mageworlds warships over how many years of conflict it had taken to bake the desert ground into a surface as hard as rock.
Gefalon had been one of the Magelords’ staging bases in the old days, and the landing field looked big enough to hold an entire fleet. Those days were gone, though; the Mageworlders had been stripped of their starflight capability at the end of the war. The few ships currently in port were all registered in the Republic, and had passed through the customs inspection at one Net Station or another.
Jessan and Beka—No, he reminded himself, Doc and Tarnekep Portree—sat at table in an open-air diner just outside the spaceport landing field. A roof of corrugated metal provided shade, and at the brick grill in the center of the diner a bored cook tended small bits of anonymous meat threaded onto sticks.
The local beer was unspeakable. But the local wine—or so the interpreter sharing Doc and Tarnekep’s table had advised them—was even worse. As for the water, Jessan’s medical training made him chary of drinking anything remotely resembling that liquid in an unfamiliar and primitive port.
But we have to drink something in this climate, he thought with resignation, unless we want to add dehydration to the rest of our problems. So beer it is.
Jessan refilled his glass from the pitcher in the center of the table. Tilting back his chair, he watched with half-closed eyes as Captain Portree negotiated for a cargo with a Raametan from somewhere on the other side of the mountains.
According to the interpreter, the small, dusty-looking man claimed to be Raamet’s foremost dealer in medicinal herbs, barks, and minerals. His claim, Jessan reflected, might even be true. If so, the Mageworlds had come down a long way from the height of their power, when their medical and biochemical technology had been preeminent in the galaxy.
“Take it or leave it,” Tarnekep was saying, while the interpreter murmured his running translation a sentence or so behind. “But I can’t guarantee a delivery date for your material. The quantities you’re talking about aren’t enough to fill a quarter of my cargo space. I’m not going to go straight on to—what’s its name?—straight on to Ninglin with most of the hold empty; I’m going to hit a couple of closer systems first. Anything that’s perishable, if it’s not too bulky, I’ve got stasis boxes for—or I can carry it frozen, which is a lot cheaper because it doesn’t eat up power like the box does. You still interested?”
The herb merchant replied in a rapid patter of sentences that the interpreter relayed in accented Galcenian. “I am interested. But it is not me you will be collecting payment from. My associates on Ninglin may not wish to give you the full fee if shipment is delayed.”
“What delay?” Tarnekep demanded. “You didn’t have a carrier lined up before I got here. If I walk away, you may have to wait another month or so before you find another. I’ll settle up with your buddies, don’t worry. Is it a deal or not?”
The merchant shrugged and said something brief and final-sounding. “A deal,” relayed the interpreter.
“Good,” said Tarnekep, and held out his hand. “Done?”
The merchant met the captain’s grip and uttered what might have been his only word of Galcenian. “Done.”
Tarnekep nodded. “Have the stuff here before dark so we can get it loaded,” he said as he drew his hand away. “I’m lifting ship first thing in the morning.”
After the Raametans had left, Tarnekep picked up his untouched glass of beer and drained it, grimacing a little at the taste. He set the glass down on the table and regarded the two empty chairs.
“I wonder,” he said thoughtfully, “which one of our friends is the spy.”
“You have a nasty suspicious mind, Tarnekep Portree,” Jessan said. “Slandering a couple of honest businessmen like that. They’re probably wondering the same thing about us.” He took a sip of his beer and added, “My bet’s on the interpreter.”
“Too easy,” said Portree. “I think the interpreter’s just for show. That little worm of a dealer, now—he understands more Galcenian than he lets on.”
“You could be right,” Jessan said.
“I know I’m right,” Portree told him. “Did you see his eyes? He was listening to me, not to the interpreter. But it doesn’t matter—as long as he’s got a legitimate cargo bound for Ninglin, I don’t care who he tells about how much I charge to carry it. Think of it as free advertising.”
“Out of what we’re charging him for that run, we could put up a holosign over every bar in Gefalon.”
Tarnekep shook his head. “You’re too soft, Doc. I was earning my living at this job while you were still giving physical examinations to lonesome recruits. Traders like us are all the intersystem carriers the Mageworlds have these days.”
“The only game in town.” Jessan took another sip of beer, and his dubious expression was not entirely for the taste of the pale yellow liquid. “That’s not going to make us particularly loved by any of our customers, mind you.”
“I’m not asking them to love me,” Tarnekep said. “Just to pay up when I hand them the bill.”
Jessan considered the statement for a moment. “Prompt payment is usually a good idea,” he conceded.
“Damned right it is.” Tarnekep scowled at the pitcher of beer. “And it looks like our friend and his interpreter have gone off and left us with the tab for the bar.”
“Oh, dear,” Jessan said. “Do we have any local cash at all?”
“Zero point zip. We’re going to have to turn one of our Ophelan bank drafts into something negotiable before we can settle up and get out.”
Jessan finished his beer and stood up. “I can handle the money changing,” he said. “You hold down the table so the manager won’t think we’re trying to skip town without paying.”
“That’s right,” said Tarnekep. “Stick me with having to drink some more of this stuff.”
Jessan nodded toward the grill. “Order some of the lizard-on-a-stick instead. It can’t be any worse.”
“You really think it’s lizard?”
“Who knows? You can tell me when I get back.”
“Hah.” Tarnekep looked up at Jessan. As always, the red plastic eye patch made it hard to read the expression on the captain’s face. “You take care, Doc, wandering around dirtside with all that money on you. I’d hate to lose a perfectly good copilot.”
The sun was coming up over Namport, and Klea Santreny was tired. She picked her way along the dirty streets in her uncomfortable shoes—her working shoes, cheap and flimsy and overdecorated, with open toes and with heels too high and narrow for the sticky black Namport mud. Even though she stayed on the duckboards as much as possible, she would have to clean the shoes when she got home, no matter how tired she felt.
One more chore to do before I can sleep, she thought wearily. If I can get to sleep at all.
She hadn’t slept much yesterday or the day before: the nightmares were back again. She’d had bad dreams for as long as she could remember, dark and confusing stories with no beginning and no end, but never as often or as dark as lately.
I don’t even remember what I dreamed yesterday. But it was bad, I know that much.
Tonight, though, had been even worse. Sometime around the third trick of the evening, she’d starting seeing things again. The pictures weren’t real—she’d figured out that much by now, but the knowledge didn’t help. The pictures were thoughts, other people’s thoughts, come loose somehow and crawling into her head: images of faces that weren’t in front of her, drifting patches of color, a stab of pain in someone else’s leg, the occasional word . . . Bitch. Slut. Whore.
Klea hadn’t thought anything could be worse than the pictures. She’d actually begun getting used to those, or at least she’d started learning how to sort them out from her own thoughts. But the images kept getting sharper, and the words kept getting louder, and now the feelings weren’t just the ones on the surface anymore. She’d wondered sometimes what the customers at Freling’s Bar really wanted when they bought themselves a few minutes’ use of her body in one of the rooms upstairs; lately she was finding out. A stiff drink—a real drink, not one of the fakes she had while she was working—helped blur the thoughts a little, but not enough.
If it’s like this again tomorrow, night I don’t know how I’m going to stand it.
She laughed unsteadily. “If today’s as bad as yesterday, kid,” she said aloud, “you may not last until tomorrow night.”
One of the neighborhood’s early risers was passing by in the other direction, on his way to whatever crack-of-dawn job forced him awake and out onto the streets. He caught what she was saying—she hadn’t made any effort to lower her voice—and increased his pace.
Emotions touched her as he went past: a suffocating wave of disapproval . . . electric blue tickles of fear . . . a dark image of the warehouses by the spaceport.
“No,” she muttered—under her breath, this time. “No, damn you. I’m not coming from the port. And I’m not going there either.”
She’d worked in Namport for five years now, long enough to know that for a hooker, the bars and the narrow streets around the edges of the spaceport were the last stop. She shivered.
If I don’t quit acting crazy I will be working there. Freling isn’t going to want a crazy woman hanging around his bar, and if he knows I’m cracking up he’s going to spread the word.
I’ve got to get some sleep.
She was approaching the street of old, close-packed houses where she had her apartment. On the corner of the block, a bit closer to her, was one of the few places open at this hour: the little hole-in-the-wall grocery where she did most of her shopping. She quickened her stride, stumbling a little as the high heels of her shoes slid in a patch of mud that some earlier pedestrian had left on the sidewalk.
Outside the shop, she paused for a second on the woven grain-straw mat, steadying herself with a hand on the doorframe as she wiped the clots of mud off her shoes. She caught a brief glimpse of herself in the shopwindow as she did so: hollow cheeks, shadowed eyes, and a bright red dress that only made it all worse.
I look like a hag.
She ran her fingers through her brown hair in a futile attempt to improve the sweaty, tangled curls. The colored lights in the shop window bounced off the mass of bangle bracelets on her arm. The sudden painful glare made her head spin; she clutched the doorframe even tighter until the dizziness faded and her head came back to something like normal. Still shaking, she pushed the door open and went in.
At this hour, the shop was empty except for the owner at his usual place behind the front counter and a tawny-haired young man in a worn beige coverall. The young man was one she’d seen a few times around the neighborhood, usually in the late evening or the very early morning; he was looking at the shelves in back, and she supposed he must be another person who worked nights and slept—or tried to—during the day.
The shopkeeper smiled and nodded at her as she entered. But the gesture was an empty one: just beneath the surface of his mind the small ugly thoughts twisted and squirmed, while his pleasant expression never changed.
Liar, she thought, biting her tongue to keep from saying the word aloud, and forced herself to nod back. Her money was as good as anyone’s, no matter what she had to do to earn it, and Ulle would keep his opinions to himself as long as she had something to spend.
Nobody’s hurt by what he doesn’t say, she told herself. Nobody except you, anyhow, and that doesn’t count.
She picked up a basket from the stack by the counter and began to fill it. A box of water-grain cereal for porridge—a bundle of fresh greens for stewing—a brick of frozen marsh-eels that probably wouldn’t taste too bad when she added them to the greens—and then she was at the racks of bottles in the back of the store.
“Can’t have marsh-eel soup without beer,” she said. She was talking to herself out loud too much these days, she knew that; but it helped her keep track of which thoughts were hers. “Beer for the soup, and aqua vitae for the cook.”
She put a couple of bottles of Tree Frog beer into the basket. The square purple bottles of aqua vitae were on the top shelf; she was going to have to stretch to get one. The thought of doing so made her aware that her legs weren’t as steady as she had thought. Better not to try at all than to reach for a bottle and fall down while Ulle was watching.
She could feel the shopkeeper’s gaze like hands on her back, following the movements of her hips under the tight red skirt. Vertigo struck again without warning; her head reeled, and the bottles of beer and instant-heat cha’a in front of her wavered and blurred, overlaid with a grotesque, distorted image of her own body seen from behind. Reality and hallucination ran together like water, and she watched the dress peel away from her flesh, showing Ulle her naked back and buttocks.
Klea’s gorge rose. She gripped the edge of the shelf in front of her and swallowed hard. The image faded and the nausea went with it, leaving her soaked in cold sweat.
“Damn,” she whispered hoarsely. “Damn, damn, damn . . . kid, you have got to get some sleep.”
She drew a long, shaky breath and reached again for the aqua vitae. It was no good—her knees started to buckle under her and she knew she was going to fall.
A hand caught her under the elbow, supporting and steadying her. “Let me,” said a strange voice—ordinary, except for a faint trace of some accent she didn’t recognize. “No point in confirming Gentlesir Ulle’s worst suspicions, is there?”
It was the man in the beige coverall. As soon as she was solidly on her feet again, his hand fell away from her arm and he reached up to take the bottle of aqua vitae.
“Here,” he said, putting it into her shopping basket. “It’s not going to help you any, though.”
The comment washed away any impulse toward gratitude she might have had. “I don’t need a sermon, thank you very much.”
He smiled briefly, but his eyes—hazel under dark lashes—remained serious. “Good. I’m not in the sermon business.”
“You couldn’t prove it by me.”
“Look,” he said. “Drinking purple rotgut until your skull pops isn’t going to keep you from seeing things and hearing voices. I know.”
How does he know . . . ? The shock of hearing her madness spoken out loud by a stranger made her sway and grab the shelf again. “Who the hell are you, anyway?”
“A neighbor of yours,” he said. “And somebody who can show you how to take care of your problem.”
She laughed roughly. “Right,” she said. “Tell me another one. That line’s so old it has moss on it.”
She turned her back on him and strode to the front counter, angry now at having the unexpected kindness spoiled by one more ploy like the ones she heard every night at Freling’s Bar. The anger buoyed her up, pushing her out of reach of Ulle’s nasty little thoughts and keeping her going all the way down the street and up the stairs to her third floor walk-up apartment.
Klea had already locked and bolted the apartment door behind her before she realized the most truly odd thing about the stranger: for the first time in days she’d gotten no assault of unwanted feelings and images, in spite of the fact that he’d stood closer to her than anybody ever got who hadn’t paid in advance for the privilege.
But he could hear my thoughts, oh yes he could, even when I wasn’t talking to myself like a crazy lady. Maybe he wasn’t just trying to get a freebie from the local hooker . . . maybe he does know how to stop what’s going on with my head . . . maybe . . . maybe . . . damn.
“Kid,” she said, “I think you’ve screwed it up again. One more for the list.”
There wasn’t anything she could do about it now. Moving slowly and carefully, she put the water-grain on the shelf by the stove, the bundle of greens in the cool-box, the marsh-eels in the freezer, and the bottle of aqua vitae on the table beside her bed. Then she stripped off her working clothes, stuffed them into the bag with the rest of her dirty laundry, and pulled on a plain white nightgown.
She took a clean glass out of the cabinet and carried it over to her bed, where she filled it as full of purple liquor as her unsteady hands would allow.
“And here’s to you, Klea Santreny . . . if the first one doesn’t do it, we’ll keep on trying until we get it right.”
In spite of Tarnekep’s worries, Jessan was able to convert the bank draft into Raametan cash without any trouble. A sign at the gate of the landing field advertised a nearby establishment specializing in currency exchange; the street directions, in ungrammatical Galcenian plus three alphabets Jessan didn’t recognize, suggested that it handled a wide range of customers.
The establishment itself, when Jessan located it, turned out to be a kiosk on a street corner. The shabby, wrinkled man on the other side of the counter appeared to be running the operation without the aid of any comps or comm links. The only specialized equipment that Jessan could see was a metal cash box. Without much optimism, the Khesatan unfolded his bank draft and spread it out for the money changer to look at.
“Can you change this?”
The shabby man squinted at the seal on the bank draft, then held it up to the sunlight to check the watermark. “Ophelan,” he said. He spoke Galcenian with an accent even worse than the interpreter’s. “Is real thing.”
“I know it’s real. Can you change it?”
The man nodded. “Cost you twenty percent.”
“That’s ridiculous.”
“Is best rate in town. No find better.”
“I’ve got half a mind to try,” said Jessan. “But I haven’t got the time. Twenty percent it is.”
The shabby man opened the cash box and tucked the bank draft under a clip with a sheaf of similar papers. He peeled off several dozen greyish blue chits marked on both sides with what Jessan supposed were Raametan characters and slipped them into an envelope.
“Here,” he said, holding out the envelope to Jessan. “Don’t spend all in same place.”
“I’ll try my best to spread the money around properly,” Jessan assured him. Tucking the envelope of Raametan money inside his shirt, he made his way back to the open-air diner.
Tarnekep was still there, an untouched glass of beer at his right hand and an empty skewer on a plate in front of him.
“It’s not lizard,” he said as Jessan sat down. “Lizard tastes better. Have you got the cash?”
“Right here with me,” Jessan said. “Now, if we can just figure out which are the large bills and which are the small ones . . . ”
“Most of the worlds this close to the Net use Ninglin notation,” Tarnekep said. “The Prof had a bunch of comp files on the Mageworlds back at the base, and I transferred them to ship’s memory before we started this run. I haven’t had time to look at any of the language stuff, but I think I can count from one to twelve well enough to handle the local money.”
“Fine,” said Jessan. He took out the envelope and gave it to Tarnekep. “You figure out the bill.”
“No problem,” Tarnekep said. He riffled through the contents of the envelope and pulled out a chit, and then two more chits with a different set of symbols on them. He kept on talking as he did so. “This should do it . . . by the way, we’ve got a passenger for the first leg of the run to Ninglin. Fellow wants to ride along and get off at Cracanth.”
“Is that legal?”
Tarnekep raised an eyebrow. “Do we care?”
“I don’t want to give our conscientious friends back at the Net an excuse to lock us up and forget the code.”
“Don’t worry. What our friends don’t know won’t hurt them—and besides, nobody cares if we haul passengers between planets, just as long as we don’t try to sneak them back across the Net. It’s part of the local trade, and the pay is good.”
“I’m sure it is,” Jessan said. “But is it safe?”
“Maybe.” Tarnekep smiled. Jessan recognized the sharp, challenging expression that meant the captain had already weighed the risks and decided to ignore them. “And maybe not. But I didn’t come here because I wanted to play things safe.”