DALE BAILEY THE MALL ELLIS WATCHED THROUGH the rearview mirror as the city shrank to a jumble of angular boxes, lit up against the midnight horizon. Ahead, the highway ran straight through a seemingly endless expanse of shopping malls and reticulated lawns. At last, however, the suburbs began to give way to rolling pasture and woodland; a long-suppressed nostalgia for the curve of tree and slope welled up in Ellis. He felt like a snake, sloughing layers of stress and grime like husks of faded skin. "We're off," he whispered. "Vacation at last." Katie shifted restlessly in the passenger seat, draped her slim hand across his knee, and muttered in her sleep. The kids did not move. Jason, ten, slumped in the back seat with his fingers resting lightly on his Gameboy. Donna, fifteen, clad in cut-off jeans and that damned Guns 'n' Roses T-shirt, pillowed her head against her arm. Ellis turned his attention back to the road. Despite the long drive ahead, he could barely dampen his excitement. God knows, they deserved the holiday. Katie had been working long hours at the catering company and he was exhausted after months as supervising architect for the new mall going up at city center. This year, despite the voluble protest of the kids, Ellis had insisted on something more relaxing than people-chokedbeaches and amusement parks. The camping trip had been his idea. After all, he hadn't spent a night beneath the sky since he was Jason's age, when he had spent a summer at his grandfather's farm in Ohio. During that memorable summer, Ellis had passed his days swimming and fishing, his nights supine in manure-scented fields, searching out the constellations he had discovered in an old book on his grandfather's shelves. Ever since, he supposed, he had taken solace in the heavens. He had missed them during the long years in the city. How many times during those years had he peered into a night sky hidden behind a canopy of nacreous city light? Ellis was startled out of his thoughts when he topped a hill and discovered a galaxy of blinking lights sprinkled across the valley below. GAS! blazed a sign from the near end of a vast building. SHOPPING! glared another from the opposite end, almost lost in the distance. Atop the building, three stories high, ten-foot-tall letters flashed alternately red and yellow against the night sky: REST STOP! OPEN 24 HOURS! Ellis glanced at the fuel gauge; the needle stood at half a tank. He guided the car down the curved exit ramp and parked beneath the pavilion overhanging the fuel islands. Across the moonlit parking lot lay the vast building he had seen from the highway. His headlights glared back at him from a towering glass vestibule. Beside a battery of revolving doors a sign proclaimed in flashing orange neon: The American Mall! Amusement Park Inside! The building seemed to shimmer momentarily in the clear air, wavering like a mirage behind ascending ripples of heat. Ellis yawned and turned off the headlights. Maybe some coffee was in order, too. Katie stirred beside him. "What's wrong, honey?" she asked. Ellis opened his door and stepped onto the pavement. "Rest stop," he said. "Better wake the kids. I don't want to stop again." Ellis set a pump to fill the car and walked to the edge of the pavilion. He peered up into a hazy wash of gray. The light from the huge complex behind him blotted out the stars. Shaking his head, disgusted, Ellis returned to the gas pump. On the far side of the car, Jason yawned and robbed his eyes with his fists. "Wow!" he said. "Dad, it says amusement park inside. Can we go in?" "No way, stupidhead," said Donna, closing the door beside Ellis. "We're in a hurry." And then, as she caught sight of the enormous building at the other end of the parking lot, "Holy shit!" "None of that," Ellis said. His eyes met Katie's across the car in the unspoken communication natural to them. Raw-boned and dark as her mother, Donna had for years been reserved and studious. In recent months, however, she had started dating seventeen-year-old Eric -- her first real boyfriend -- and though she had remained studious she had become . . . well, less reserved. Leave her alone as long as she keeps her grades up, Katie had said, and her eyes flashed the same warning now. "Dad," said Donna, her voice dreamy. "Can we go in?" Ellis studied her for a moment. Her eyes had a glassy faraway look. If he hadn't known better, he would have sworn she was stoned. "Dad!" Donna said. Ellis shook his head. It was just the lights reflecting in her eyes, he told himself. He glanced at his watch. "Not tonight," he said. "It's after one." "It says open twenty-four hours," Jason said. The gas pump clicked off. "Come on," Ellis said. "You can come with me to find the attendant." The four of them crossed the parking lot. Ellis and Katie dropped back to clasp hands, but the kids ran ahead. "You know," Katie said. "I know it's late, but you could give them an hour or so inside." "Honey, we still have a long drive." "Well, I know, Ellis, but we're on vacation. Your vacation, remember. No one's particularly excited about it but you." "I thought you wanted to go camping," he said. "Well, I don't mind. But the kids aren't too happy. Come on, Ellis, it's an easy compromise." Ellis shrugged. "We'll see. It probably won't even be open." They followed Jason and Donna through the revolving doors and Ellis stopped abruptly, staring in astonishment at the enormous central gallery that extended before him to the limits of his vision. For a single moment he was so overwhelmed by the sheer magnitude of the place that he could not absorb particulars. Then slowly, details began to seep into his awareness. They stood at the edge of a broad walkway high above a sunken atrium. Far overhead, the ceiling disappeared in a sheen of subdued lighting. Six levels of deserted walkways, connected by escalators, encircled the vast central area. Calliope music reached Ellis, and he realized that below lay the amusement park the sign had promised. Stunned, he stared down at a slowly revolving Ferris wheel. "Holy shit!" he heard Donna say again, but he couldn't bring himself to reprimand her. That was more or less what he was thinking. Polished railings gleamed at him. Stores beckoned from the surrounding walkways. "Daddy, please!" Jason said. It took a conscious effort for Ellis to wrench his attention from the vista and focus on his son. The ten-year-old stood before him, holding his Gameboy loosely in one hand. Ellis stared at the boy as if he didn't quite recognize him: Nikes and Levis, the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle T-shirt he had become shy about wearing to school. And in his eyes, the same glassy faraway look Ellis had previously noticed in Donna's eyes. He was still pondering that when Donna spoke. "Come on, Dad! Can we please spend an hour or so in civilization since we have to spend the next two weeks out in the woods?" "Now, listen--" Ellis began, but Katie clamped down hard on his hand. He tried again. "Guys, it's one-thirty in the morning." "Well, you still have to pay for the gas," Katie said. "No kidding. Where do you suppose the attendant is? Outside?" "I didn't see anyone," Katie said. Donna shifted on her feet impatiently. "Come on, Dad." Katie squeezed his hand again and Ellis looked down into her clear eyes. "Listen," she said. "It is late and we do have to get on the road. But since it's obviously going to take a while for you to find that attendant, why don't we look around?" She glanced at her watch. "It's one-forty now. Let's say we meet back here at three. Okay?" Always the peacemaker, Ellis thought. But what the hell, they were on vacation. And it was going to take a while to find the attendant, he supposed. "Fine," he said. "Great!" Jason said. Katie apportioned money to the kids and they disappeared down an escalator, moving toward the amusement park. Ellis turned to his wife. Katie grinned up at him. "Always have to have your way, don't you?" he said, smiling. "I suppose you want to check out the mall, too?" "You bet." "Okay, then. I'll see you at three." Katie pecked him on the cheek and then stepped on the escalator to the lower levels. In moments, the vast mall had swallowed her. "Well," Ellis said. Turning around, he peered out into the night. The car sat alone at the fuel pumps. Ellis couldn't see anywhere to pay for the gas out there. Nothing for it but to look in the mall. Ellis turned to his right and moved along the railing that lined the walkway. Carnival sounds-- calliope music and the seductive cry of barkers, their pitches unintelligible in the distance -- rose to his ears. He caught a faint whiff of cotton candy. As he walked, trailing one hand along the smooth railing, he studied the stores on his right. They were typical of those he had seen in countless malls -- an assortment of shoe stores and clothing stores, interspersed with occasional specialty shops. Ellis had been walking for a while and was on the verge of trying his luck in the other direction when something caught his eye. He wasn't really sure what, but it was simultaneously familiar and strange, like the face of a high school acquaintance when encountered years and years later. He paused, searching, glanced out at the walkway opposite, a thin line that blended into the mosaic of stores and signs behind it. Below, and far to his left, the Ferris wheel turned and turned. The scream of a thrill-seeker rose out of the pit, and he caught another saccharine hint of cotton candy in the still air. Cotton candy and something else, something pleasant and long-forgotten. Ellis glanced at his watch and saw that he had been walking for half an hour. A wave of uneasiness began to build within him. Surely the gas attendant would be located closer to the door. That thought served as the catalyst for another, even more enigmatically disturbing. Surely, the gas station attendant would be located outside the damn door, else what was to keep people from filling up and driving away without paying? People did it all the time, he knew, having worked at a gas station one semester when he was in school. And that thought led to yet a third, like a tiny chain reaction of explosions in his brain: how could a facility this large afford to operate twenty-four hours when almost no one was using it? The wave of anxiety crested and crashed over him. He turned abruptly to walk back in the direction of the revolving doors and that something familiar caught his eye again. What was it? Ellis surveyed the nearby shops. He stood before the window of a used bookstore; a single word in gilt letters had been pasted high against the inner surface of the glass: STARS! A number of books and magazines were stacked below, astronomy texts and journals mostly, which struck him as a curious choice for a window display. That thought barely registered, however, before it was gone, displaced by a well of nostalgia. Ellis crouched, his elbows on his knees, and stared in disbelief through the glass. He didn't know how long he had been there when the voice spoke: "Can I help you, sir?" Ellis looked up into the slim pleasant face of a young woman, barely more than a teenager. She was dressed neatly in dark jeans and a lacy white blouse. Staring at her, Ellis could not help but think of Donna in her ragged shorts and black T-shirt. She was every bit as pretty as this young lady. If only she dressed better "Sir?" "I'm sorry," Ellis said. "It's just that . . ." "What ?" Ellis stood up. "That book," he said, indicating a thin book with a faded dustjacket, half-hidden beneath a stack of Sky & Telescopes. "Can I see that book?" "Certainly." Ellis followed the girl inside and watched as she fished the book from beneath the stack of magazines. "There you go," she said. She placed it in his hands and moved away to stand behind the counter. Ellis barely noticed. A warm flood of nostalgia suffused him. The Boy's Book of Constellations, read the title; below it was a dusty watercolor of a boy and a man looking into the night sky. The man held a book in one hand and pointed at the stars with the other. The stars themselves had been connected with chalky lines to form constellations: the Dippers, Virgo and Aquarius, others. Ellis thumbed through the crumbling pages, stopping at last to study the central illustration: a map of the night sky, with the constellations traced in glowing lines against the darkness. Blackness rose like inky vapor from the pages, encircled his wrists and flowed away to fill the air around him. The bookstore receded slowly, becoming ghostly and faint. Finally, it disappeared altogether, and he found himself in a rolling pasture. A full moon drenched the scene in pale light. The rich heavy scent of cow manure, borne on a summer breeze, washed over him. Inhaling deeply, Ellis sat in the long grass. He plucked a single blade, and chewed it idly as he stared up into the night sky. Stars stood out, bright and unblinking against the darkness. He lay back and it seemed to him that he fell into the sky, as if the earth had been inverted, gravity reversed. He drifted without thought into blackness, into a night place where the constellations stood out with clarity and order. He might have stayed there forever, had not some importunate worry begun to tug at the base of his consciousness. For a while, Ellis tried to ignore it, as he had sometimes tried to disregard the sound of a television in the next room when he was reading a particularly engrossing book. Concentrating with all his might on the stars that stood out against the darkness above him, he almost succeeded. It was that knowledge, that awareness of success which doomed him however, for with awareness returned the persistent tug of worry. What? he thought. What was it? And then: Katie. The kids. Suddenly, the stars drew away to glimmering points. The field tore apart, shredding into dark rags that blew to the corners of his vision and disappeared. He stood in the bookstore, a grassy taste lingering on his tongue. For a single moment, Ellis thought he detected the scent of cow manure, half-familiar and weighted with all his memories of that long-ago summer. And then it too was gone, supplanted by the cloying odor of cotton candy. Ellis looked down at his hands, clenched white about The Boy's Book of Constellations. "Sir?" the girl said. "Are you all right sir?" "I -- I have to meet my family," Ellis said. He forced his fingers to relax and shoved the book under his right arm. He glanced at his watch. Two forty-five. "I'd like this book, please," Ellis said. He placed it on the counter and reached for his wallet. "Oh no, sir. Take it. It's yours. Your money's no good here." "I'm sorry?" "Your money,"she said. "It's no good here. The book is yours. The night manager has seen to that." "The night manager?" "Yes, sir." "I see," Ellis said, but he didn't, not at all. He picked up the book and hesitated briefly. "You don't happen to know where I pay for gas in this place, do you?" The girl gave him a puzzled smile. "Your money's no good here, sir," she repeated. Ellis nodded. "I see. Well, I need to go. My family's waiting." The girl didn't reply. Ellis left the store and walked rapidly in the direction of the revolving doors. Katie and the kids, he knew, would be waiting-- Katie smiling because he hadn't made it back by three, the kids tired and grumpy. But when he reached the doors at ten minutes after three, no one was there. Puzzled, Ellis went to the edge of the walkway and stared into the depths. From this angle, looking down beyond a lattice of walkways and escalators, with the Ferris wheel spinning below him, the mall seemed as void of stable perspective as an Escher print. Ellis felt as if he was staring into a kaleidoscope. Impossible angles converged in an endlessly replicating network of images that was somehow hideous. Sour bile rose in his mouth. With one hand, he clutched The Boy's Book of Constellations -- -- Open it!-- -- and shut his eyes. The music of the calliope built to a frenzy and swept him up in its jaunty rhythm. Against the dark screens of his eyelids, Ellis saw projected that whirling paradox of images, a crazy melange of escalators and walkways that slowly resolved into the ugly and familiar vista of the city as he had seen it through the rearview mirror: a hodgepodge of garish boxes, drowning out the stars. Once, when Ellis had been in school, a professor had commented, "Nature hates a straight line." That statement returned to him now, in company with an arresting vision: a world with nothing but straight lines, a grid of streets that went on forever. Nostalgia for the curve of tree and slope surprised him again. A fleeting image of his grandfather's rolling pasture, the stars above, passed before him, and unbidden the thought came to him: the book. Open it. He turned his back to the pit and opened his eyes. He held The Boy's Book of Constellations in trembling hands. Open it! part of him cried. Open it and be done with this! No, Ellis thought. That was too easy. What the hell was happening here? Where were Katie and the kids? Steeling himself, he turned and peered into the depths. Empty escalators and walkways intersected at wholly prosaic angles. The Ferris wheel revolved lethargically. "Katie!" he screamed. "Jason! Donna!" The mocking strains of the calliope drifted up to enfold him -- that and his own voice, crying ghostly out of the distance. They're late, he thought, that's all. They're probably on their way right now. But even so, a hundred tenuous filaments of panic began to work through his body. What if they weren't? "Katie!" he yelled, and a rational core at the center of his mind wondered at the hysterical edge to his voice. What's wrong, Ellis? it asked. Something bothering you? And something sure as hell was, he knew. Something about this mall and this long strange night. Something about The Boy's Book of Constellations. "Donna! Jason!" From behind Ellis, a mellifluous voice said, "It really is no use to shout, you know. They won't hear you," and panic -- fear -- came on like a light within him. Each one of those tiny filaments glared suddenly incandescent with hysteria. Out of the distance, his own cry returned to him, dissolving in the frenetic cadence of the calliope. "Ellis," that voice said. "Why don't you turn around?" Ellis opened his mouth to speak, but his throat had gone dry. Blood roared in his ears. Finally, his voice a sandpapery rasp, he said, "Who are you?" The voice said, "I'm the night manager, Ellis. I think you knew that. Really, I don't see any point in talking to your back. Why don't you turn around?" Ellis did. The night manager stood quietly before the revolving doors. He was angular and tall -- too tall, some part of Ellis's mind insisted -- dressed impeccably in a gray double-breasted suit with a pink vanity handkerchief. Ellis said, "What in the hews going on?" He clutched the book -- -- Open it! -- -- against his chest and began to back away, skating his hand along the rail. "Ellis!" said the night manager. "Stop!" Ellis stopped. Moving with the predatory grace and strength of a shark, the night manager glided across the space between them. He stooped and peered into Ellis's face, his black vertiginous eyes dissolving first into a wheeling panorama of constellations, and then into the kaleidoscope of images Ellis had seen before: escalators and walkways that met at impossible angles; the city, tawdry against the midnight sky. The night manager raised his bony finger and leaned even closer. His breath stank of cotton candy. "Look," he hissed, and jabbed his long finger out over the rail. When he spoke again, his tone was reverent -- the tone of voice a man uses when he encounters some awe-inspiring natural wonder. "Look at it. Isn't it beautiful?" Ellis turned and looked out over the pit, following the line of the bony finger. The great mall lay spread out all before him, a vast well of light and sound and whirling movement that stretched to the distant horizon. "Five-point-two-million square feet of retail space," said the night manager. "A seven-acre amusement park. I thought it might appeal to a man of your talents, a man of your profession." He moved closer, his long arm encircling Ellis's shoulders. His pale thin fingers enclosed Ellis's upper arm. In his left hand, pressed close against him by the night manager's wiry body, Ellis held The Boy's Book of Constellations. When he spoke, his voice was tight with panic. "Where are my wife and children?" "In the mall, Ellis," the night manager said. "Where else?" Ellis struggled against the other man's grip, but the fingers about his upper arm merely tightened. The night manager swept him around and thrust him out across the railing. Ellis felt his back arch painfully, his feet come away from the floor, and then he was dangling out into space, the noise of the calliope rising around him. "Listen, my friend," the night manager said. "Let's have some cooperation." Ellis swallowed, and struggled to squeeze words past the huge lump that had formed in his throat. "Okay," he gasped. Ellis felt himself pulled back across the rail. His feet touched the floor and he found himself staring into the night manager's fury-contorted face. His eyes were black pits. His lips pulled back in a savage grimace. "Your family is quite content, I assure you. Jason is infatuated with the amusement park. And Donna. Well, she lives for the mail. She hardly took any convincing at all." "And Katie?"Ellis asked. His voice dwindled to a hoarse whisper. The night manager chuckled. "Ahh, Katie. She was a bit more challenging. At last, she has a restaurant of her very own. There's always room for another merchant at the American Mall, Ellis. You, my friend, you're the only problem that remains." Ellis's fingers tightened reflexively about the book and that interior voice piped up again: Open it! It's -- "-- the only way," said the night manager. Grinning, he released Ellis's arms and stepped back. "In there, I won't disturb you. Nothing will. Just open it up, and I'll go away." And then Ellis had the book open in his hands. Its pages seemed to whip by of their own accord, settling at last on the dark map at its center. Black coils rose up to embrace him, encircled his wrists like manacles, and flooded the mall with darkness. Ellis concentrated on the night manager's vulpine grin, but finally it disappeared, occluded by the encroaching blackness. He stood alone in his grandfather's pasture, beneath a spangled canopy of stars. Ellis reclined on the hillside. His fingers twined in long grass, plucked a single blade, and brought it to his lips. Above him, the stars wheeled by. For a long moment, he fought to remember: a gaunt figure that moved with predatory grace; a vast enclosed space, where escalators and walkways converged at impossible angles; Katie and the children, somehow lost. But it was too much, too much for him to hold. He had fallen into the night sky, with only the grassy pasture beneath him, and it was all too distant. A breeze washed across his flesh, bearing the pleasant scent of cow-manure, baked dry beneath a summer sun. That scent and something else, something sweet and not altogether pleasant. What was it? The stars grew distant as Ellis concentrated, filtering out the heavy odor of manure to focus on the scent which lay beneath. Finally he had it: the midway smell of cotton candy. And with that scent it all came crashing back. A series of images exploded through his mind: the city, upright against the dark sky; the vast rest stop spread out across the valley; the night manager's fury-twisted features as he said, "Your family is quite content, I assure you." This? He was to give up everything for this, a boyhood night on his grandfather's farm ? The pasture came apart around him, black rags blowing to the edge of his vision and disappearing. He stood in the mall, the night manager before him. "What is t his place ?" Ellis asked. His voice was the barest panic-stricken croak. "Don't you know?" said the night manager. "Haven't you the least idea? And you've done so much to create it, you with your designs for fancy malls and fine new shopping centers. It's good work if you can get it, isn't it, Ellis?" "No," said Ellis. "This isn't mine. I've done nothing to create this." "But you have!" The night manager threw back his head, threw out his arms as if to encompass everything. When he spoke again, his voice was filled with an almost religious wonder. "Feel it, Ellis," he whispered, "feel it." And Ellis did. A vast aching hunger seemed to sweep across the continent, to sweep him up in the currents of some voiceless all-consuming desire. "What is it?" he said. "What is it?" "Their hunger." The night manager leaned close into Ellis's face, his maniacal eyes seeming almost to glow. "Out of their ceaseless desire, this --" he gestured wildly at the surrounding mall, "this was born. I roam the night highways, Ellis. I feed on your desires." "No," Ellis said. His voice was calm now, and very cold. He looked away, looked down at the book in his trembling hands, and all those summer nights on his grandfather's farm suddenly returned to him. "You can't have my dream," he said. "It belongs to me." Ellis turned and cast The Boy's Book of Constellations far out into the pit. It tumbled as it fell, its dustjacket blowing loose and away, its pages riffling in the still air. It disappeared into the smear of light and color that was the amusement park. The music of the calliope shrieked to a climax and fell still. Ellis spun to face the night manager, but the other figure, tall and elongated as a praying mantis, had begun to shimmer and grow insubstantial. "No!" Ellis screamed. "My family!" The mall wavered like the image on a television with bad reception, breaking up, colors bleeding into long streaks. Even as Ellis watched, it began to fragment into long wisps and coils, so much fog before a heavy wind. "My family!" Ellis screamed at the fading image of the night manager. As if in answer to his cry, Ellis saw them, one by one, framed by the night manager's translucent form: Jason, alone atop the furiously spinning Ferris wheel, his eyes wide with hysterical joy; Donna, turning and turning in some private dance, with a partner only she could perceive; Katie last of all. She stood in a vast gleaming kitchen that seemed to go on forever. It was empty. Empty as far as Ellis could see. "Katie!" he cried. "Katie!" She looked up, horrific awareness dawning in her eyes. Then she was obscured by a veil of shifting colors. The night manager's thin face split into a mocking grin. In the moment before he was tom into a hundred wispy fragments and blown away, he reached out and caressed Ellis's cheek with his long bony fingers. Finally only his voice lingered, distant and tiny, as over a bad telephone connection in the dead of night. "Too late, Ellis," it whispered, "too late." And then he was gone entirely. Everything was gone. Ellis stood alone by the car, with the rusty gas pumps beside him. Nothing else remained. All about him, the lone and level parking lot stretched away. A stiff wind came up, chasing litter across the moonlit pavement, and a rectangle of heavy paper flattened itself against the side of the car. It rustled when Ellis peeled it away. The Boy's Book of Constellations, he read. "Goddamn you!" he cried into the night. And then, "Donna! Jason! Katie!" He fell silent, and in the silence he heard' Katie's faraway voice, fraught with the promise of tears, saying "Ellis? Ellis?" Agreat knot seemed to form in Ellis's throat. He scanned the parking lot, hardly daring to hope, and at last he saw her. A small pale figure, distant in the moonlight, she came out of the vast emptiness that had been the mall. She must have seen him simultaneously, for suddenly they were both running They came together and Ellis swung her into his embrace. At last, Katie said, "Oh, Ellis, I heard you. At the last minute, I heard you, and I understood." "I know," he said. They walked across the abandoned lot, back to the car. "What about the kids?" Katie asked. "What about Donna and Jason?" "I don't know," Ellis said. But those images remained: Jason, joyous atop the whirling Ferris wheel; Donna, turning in her private dance. Lost. Forever lost. I roam the night highways, the night manager had said, and now Ellis repeated those words to himself like a mantra, forcing himself to believe. Maybe it wasn't too late, he thought. Maybe, somehow, along some lonely midnight interstate, they would find this place again. They would look until they did, no matter how long it took.