THIS IMMORTAL Copyright • 1966 by Roger Zelazny A shorter version of this novel appeared in The Magazine Fantasy and Science Fiction under the title ".. .And Call Me Conrad" and is copyright ®1965 by Mercury Press, Inc. ; All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced any form or by any means, except for the inclusion of brief quot tions in a review, without permission in writing from the pu lisher. All characters in this book are fictitious. Any resemblance actual persons, living or dead, is purely coinciderital. An ACE Book This Ace printing; September 1900 Published Simultaneously in Canada 0 9 Manufactured in the United States of America "YOU ARE A KALLIKANZAROS," SHE ANNOUNCED SUD- DENLY. I turned onto my left side and smiled through the darkness. "I left my hooves and my horns at the Office." "You've heard the story!" "The name is ^omikos.*" I reached for her, found her. "Are you going to destroy the world this time around?" I laughed and drew her to me. "Ill think about it. If that's the way the Earth crumbles—" "You know that children born here on Christmas are of the kallikanzaroi blood," she said, "and you once told me that your birthday—" "All right!" It had struck me that she was only half-joking. Knowing some of the things one occasionally meets in the Old Places, the Hot Places, you can almost believe in myths without extra effort—such as the story of those Pan-like sprites who gather together every spring to spend ten days sawing at the Tree of the World, only to be dispersed at the last moment by the ringing of the Easter bells. {Ring-a-ding, the 1 2 ROGER ZELAZNY .;;, bells, gnash, gnash, the teeth, clackety-clack, the;,; hooves, et cetera.) Cassandra and I were not in thfl^ habit of discussing religion, politics, or Aegean foife-^ lore in bed—but, me having been born in thcs^ parts, the memories are still somehow alive. ,^ "I am hurt," I said, only half-joking. ^ "You're hurting me, too. ..." ^ "Sorry." f I relaxed again. 3 After a time I explained, "Back when I was a' brat, the other brats used to push me around, call- ing me "Konstantin Kallikanzaros.' When I got big- ger and uglier they stopped doing it. At least, they didn't say it to my face—-" "'Konstantin'? That was your name? I've wondered. ..." "It's 'Conrad' now, so forget it." "But I like it. I'd rather call you 'Konstantin' than 'Conrad'" "If it makes you happy ..." The moon pushed her ravaged face up over the windowsill to mock me. I couldn't reach the moon, or even the window, so I looked away. The night was cold, was damp, was misty as it always is here- "The Commissioner of Arts, Monuments and Archives for the planet Earth is hardly out to chop down the Tree of the World," I rasped. "My kallikanzaros," she said too quickly, "I did not say that. But there are fewer bells every year, and it is not always desire that matters. I have this feeling that you will change things, somehow. Per- haps—" "You are wrong, Cassandra." "And I am afraid, and cold—" And she was lovely in the darkness, so I held her THIS IMMORTAL 3 in my arms to sort of keep her from the foggy foggy dew. In attempting to reconstruct the affairs of these past six months, I realize now that as we willed walls of passion around our October and the isle of Kos, the Earth had already fallen into the hands of those powers which smash all Octobers. Marshaled from within and without, the forces of final disrup- tion were even then goose-stepping amidst the ruins —faceless, ineluctable, arms upraised. Cort Mysh- tigo had landed at Port-au-Prince in the antique Sol-Bus Nine, which had borne him in from Titan along with a load of shirts and shoes, underwear, socks, assorted wines, medical supplies, and the latest tapes from civilization. A wealthy and in- fluential galactojournalist, he. Just how wealthy, we were not to learn for many weeks; just how influen- tial, I found out only five days ago. As we wandered among the olive groves gone wild, picked our way through the ruins of the Prankish castle, or mixed our tracks with the hieroglyph-prints of the herring-gulls, there on the wet sands of the beaches of Kos, we were burning time while waiting for a ransom which could not come, which should never, really, have been ex- pected. Cassandra's hair is the color of Katamara olives, and shiny. Her hands are soft, the fingers short, del- icately webbed. Her eyes are very dark. She is only about four inches shorter than me, which makes her gracefulness something of an achievement, me being well over six feet. Of course, any woman looks graceful, precise and handsome when walking at my side, because I am none of.these things: my left 4 ROGER ZELAZNY cheek was then a map of Africa done up in varying purples, because of that mutant fungus I'd picked up from a moldy canvas back when I'd been disin- terring the Guggenheim for the New York Tour; my hairline peaks to within a fingerbreadth of my brow; my eyes are mismatched. (I glare at people through the cold blue one on the right side when I want to intimidate them; the brown one is for Glances Sincere and Honest.) I wear a reinforced boot because of my short right leg. Cassandra doesn't require contrasting, though. She's beautiful. I met her by accident, pursued her with desper- ation, married her against my will. (The last part was her idea). I wasn't really thinking about it, my- self—even on that day when I brought my caique into the harbor and saw her there, sunning herself like a mermaid beside the plane tree of Hip- pocrates, and decided that~I wanted her- Kalli- kanzaroi have never been much the family sort. I just sort of slipped up, again. It was a clean morning. It was starting our third month together. It was my last day on Kos—be- cause of a call I'd received the evening before, Everything was still moist from the night's rain, and we sat out on the patio drinking Turkish coffee and eating oranges. Day was starting to lever its way into the world. The breeze was intermittent, was damp, goosepimpled us beneath the black hulk of our sweaters, skimmed the steam off the top of the coffee. "Rodos dactylos Aurora. ..." she said, point- ing. "Yeah," I said, nodding, "real rosy-fingered and nice." ., THIS IMMORTAL 5 ; "Let's enjoy it." ,. "Yeah Sorry." ^ We finished our coffee, sat smoking. "I feet crummy," I said. ^ "I know," she said. "Don't." . "Can't help it. Got to go away and leave you, and that's crummy." "It may only be a few weeks. You said so your- ?*elf. Then you'll be back." -, "Hope so," I said. "If it takes any longer, though, HI send for you. Dunno where alt I'll be, yet." "Who is Cort Myshtigo?" "Vegan actor, journalist. Important one. Wants to write about what's left of Earth. So I've got to show it to him. Me. Personally. Damn!" "Anybody who takes ten-month vacations to go sailing can't complain about being overworked." "/can complain—and I will. My job is supposed to be a sinecure." "Why?" "Mainly because I made it that way. I worked hard for twenty years to make Arts, Monuments and Archives what it is, and ten years ago I got it to the point where my staff could handle just about everything. So I got me turned out to pasture, I got me told to come back occasionally to sign papers and to do whatever I damn pleased in the mean- time. Now this—this bootlicking gesture!—having a Commissioner take a Vegan scribbler on a tour any staff guide could conduct! Vegans aren't gods!" "Wait a minute, please," she said. "Twenty years? Ten years?" Sinking feeling. "You're not even thirty years old." 6 ROGER ZELAZNY I sank further. I waited. I rose again. "Uh—there's something I, well, in my own reti- cent way, sort of never quite got around to mention- ing to you. . . . How old are you anyway, Cassan- dra?" "Twenty." "Uh-huh. Well . .. I*m around four times your age." "I don't understand." "Neither do I. Or the doctors. I just sort of stopped, somewhere between twenty and thirty, and I stayed that way. I guess that's a sort of, well —a part of my particular mutation, I guess. Does it make any difference?" "I don't know. . .. Yes." "You don't mind my limp, or my excessive shag- giness, or even my face. Why should my age bother you? I am young, for all necessary purposes." "It's just that it's not the same," she said with an unarguable finality. "What if you never grow old?" I bit my lip. "I'm bound to, sooner or later." "And if it's later? I love you. I don't want to out- age you." "You'll live to be a hundred and fifty. There are the S-S treatments. You'll have them," "But they won't keep me young—like you." "I'm not really young. I was born old." That one didn't work either. She started to cry. "That's years and years away," I told her. "Who knows what will happen in the meantime?" That only made her cry more- I've always been impulsive. My thinking is usual- ly pretty good, but I always seem to do it after I do my talking—by which time I've generally destroyed all basis for further conversation. THIS IMMORTAL 7 Which is one of the reasons I have a competent staff, a good radio, and am out to pasture most of the time, There, are some things you just can't delegate, though. So I said, "Look, you have a touch of the Hot Stuff in you, too. It took me forty years to realize I .wasn't forty years old. Maybe you're the same way. I'm just a neighborhood kid .. ." "Do you know of any other cases like your own?" "Well . . ." "No, you don't." "No. I don't." I remember wishing then that I was back aboard my ship. Not the big blazeboat- Just my old hulk, the Golden Vanitie, out there in the harbor. I re- member wishing that I was putting it into port all over again, and seeing her there for the first shiny time, and being able to start everything all over again from the beginning—and either telling her all about it right there, or else working my way back up to the going-away time and keeping my mouth shut about my age. It was a nice dream, but hell, the honeymoon was over. I waited until she had stopped crying and I could feel her eyes on me again. Then I waited some more. "Well?" I asked, finally. "Pretty well, thanks." I found and held her passive hand, raised it to my lips. "Rodos dactylos," I breathed, and she said, "Maybe it's a good idea—your going away—for awhile anyhow. ..." and the breeze that skimmed the steam came again, was damp, goosepimpled us, 8 ROGER ZELAZNY and made either her hand or my hand shake—I'm not sure which. It shook the leaves too, and they emptied over our heads. "Did you exaggerate your age to me?" she asked. "Even a little bit?" Her tone of voice suggested that agreement would be the wisest reply. So, "Yes, "I said, truthfully. She smiled back then, somewhat reassured of my humanity. Ha! So we sat there, holding hands and watching the morning. After awhile she began humming. It was a sad song, centuries old. A ballad. It told the story of a young wrestler named Themocles, a wrestler who had never been beaten. He eventually came to consider himself the greatest wrestler alive. Finally he called out his challenge from a mountaintop, and, that being too near home, the gods acted fast: the following day a crippled boy rode into the town, on the plated back of a huge wild dog. They wrestled for three days and three nights. Themocles and the boy, and on the fourth day the boy broke his back, and left him there in the field. Wherever his blood fell, there sprang up the stngeflcur, as Em- met calls it, the blood-drinking flower that creeps rootless at night, seeking the lost spirit of the fallen champion in the blood of its victims. But Themocles* spirit is gone from the Earth, so they must creep, seeking, forever. Simpler than Aeschylus, but then we're a simpler people than we once were, especially the Mainlanders. Besides, that's not the way it really happened. "Why are you weeping?" she asked me suddenly. THIS IMMORTAL 9 "I am thinking of the picture on Achilleus' shield," I said, "and of what a terrible thing it is to be an educated beast—and I am not weeping. The leaves are dripping on me." "I'll make some more coffee." I washed out the cups while she was doing that, and I told her to take care of the Vanitie while I was gone, and to have it hauled up into drydock if I sent for her. She said that she would. The sun wandered up higher into the sky, and after a time there came a sound of hammering from the yard of old Aldones, the coffin-maker. The cyclamen had come awake, and the breezes carried their fragrance to us from across the fields. High overhead, like a dark omen, a spiderbat glided across the sky toward the mainland. I ached to wrap my fingers around the stock of a thirty-oh-six, make loud noises, and watch it fall. The only fire- arms I knew of were aboard the Vamtze, though, so I just watched it vanish from sight. "They say that they're not really native to Earth," she told me, watching it go, "and that they were brought here from Titan, for zoos and things like that." "That's right." "... And that they got loose during the Three Days and went wild, and that they grow bigger here than they ever did on their own world." "One time I saw one with a thirty-two foot wingspread." "My great-uncle once told me a story he had heard in Athens," she recalled, "about a man kill- ing one without any weapons. It snatched him up from the dock he was standing on—at Piraeus— 10 ROGER ZELAZNY and the man broke its neck with his hands. They fell about a hundred feet into the bay. The man lived." "That was a long time ago," 1 remembered, "back before the Office started its campaign to ex- terminate the things. They were a lot more around, and they were bolder in those days. They shy away from cities now." "The man's name was Konstantin, as I recall the story. Could it have been you?" "His last name was Karaghiosis." "Are you Karaghiosis?" "If you want me to be. Why?" "Because he later helped to found the Returnist Radpol in Athens, and you have very strong hands." "Are you a Returnist?" "Yes. Are you?" "I work for the Office. I don't have any political opinions." "Karaghiosis bombed resorts." "So he did." "Are you sorry he bombed them?" "No." "I don't really know much about you, do I?" "You know anything about me. Just ask. I'm re- ally quite simple. —My air taxi is coming now." "I don't hear anything." "You will.'* After a moment it came sliding down the sky to- ward Kos, homing in on the beacon I had set up at the end of the patio. I stood and drew her to her feet as it buzzed in low—a Radson Skimmer: a twenty- foot cockleshell of reflection and transparency; Hat- bottomed, blunt-nosed. THIS IMMORTAL 11 "Anything you want to take with you?" she asked. "You know it, but I can't." The Skimmer settled and its side slid open. The goggled pilot turned his head. "I have a feeling," she said, "that you are head- ing into some sort of danger." "I doubt it, Cassandra." Nor pressure, nor osmosis will restore Adam's lost rib, thank God. "Goodbye, Cassandra." "Goodbye, my kallikanzaros." And I got into the Skimmer and jumped into tl?e sky, breathing a prayer to Aphrodite. Below me, Cassandra waved. Behind me, the sun tightened its net of light. We sped westward, and this is the place for a smooth transition, but there isn't any. From Kos to Port-au-Prince was four hours, gray water, pale stars, and me mad. Watch the colored lights. . . . The hall was lousy with people, a big tropical moon was shining fit to bust, and the reason I could see both was that Fd finally managed to lure Ellen Emmet out onto the balcony and the doors were mag-pegged open. "Back from the dead again," she had greeted me, smiling slightly. "Gone almost a year, and not so much as a Get Well card from Ceylon." "Were you ill?" "I could have been." She was small and, like all day-haters, creamy somewhere under her simicolor. She reminded me of an elaborate actiondoll with a faulty mechanism —cold grace, and a propensity to kick people in the shins when they least expected it; and she had lots 12 ROGER ZELAZNY and lots of orangebrown hair, woven into a Gordian knot of a coiff that frustrated me as I worked at un- tying it, mentally; her eyes were of whatever color it pleased the god of her choice on that particular day —I forget now, but they're always blue somewhere deep deep down inside. Whatever she was wearing was browngreen, and there was enough of it to go around a couple of times and make her look'like a shapeless weed, which was a dressmaker's lie if there ever was one, unless she was pregnant again, which I doubted. "Well, get well," I said, "if you need to. I didn't make Ceylon. I was in the Mediterranean most of the time." There was applause within. I was glad I was without. The players had just finished Graber's Masque of Demeter, which he had written in pen- tameter and honor of our Vegan guest; and the thing had been two hours long, and bad. Phil was all educated and sparsehaired, and he looked the part all right, but we had been pretty hard up for a laureate on the day we'd picked him. He was given to fits of Rabindranath Tagore and Chris Isher- wood, the writing of fearfully long metaphysical epics, talking a lot about Enlightenment, and per- forming his daily breathing exercises on the beach. Otherwise, he was a fairly decent human being. The applause died down, and I heard the glassy tinkle of thelinstra music and the sound of resuming voices. Ellen leaned back on the railing. "I hear you're somewhat married these days.'* "True," I agreed; "also somewhat harried. Why did they call me back?" "Ask your boss." THIS IMMORTAL 13 "I did. He said I'm going to be a guide. What I want to know, though, is why? —The real reason. Pve been thinking about it and it's grown more puzzling," "So how should I know?" "You know everything." "You overestimate me, dear. What's she like?" I shrugged. "A mermaid, maybe. Why?" She shrugged. "Just curious. What do you tell people I'm like?" "I don\ tell people you're like anything." "I'm insulted- I must be like something, unless I'm unique." "That's it, you're unique." "Then why didn't you take me away with you last year?" "Because you're a People person and you require a city around you. You could only be happy here at the Port." "But I'm not happy here at the Port." "You are less unhappy here at the Port than you'd be anywhere else on this planet." "We could have tried," she said, and she turned her back on me to look down the slope toward the lights of the harbor section. "You know," she said after a time, "You're so damned ugly you're attractive. That must be it." I stopped in mid-reach, a couple inches from her shoulder. "You know," she continued, her voice flat, emp- tied of emotion, "you're a nightmare that walks like a man.*' I dropped my hand, chuckled inside a tight chest. "I know," I said. "Pleasant dreams," 14 ROGER ZELAZNY I started to turn away and she caught my sleeve. "Wait!" I looked down at her hand, up at her eyes, then back down at her hand. She let go. "You know I never tell the truth," she said. Then she laughed her little brittle laugh. '*. , . And I have thought of something you ought to know about this trip. Donald DOS Santos is here, and I think he's going along." "DOS Santos? That's ridiculous." "He's up in the library now, with George and some big Arab." I looked past her and down into the harbor sec- tion, watching the shadows, like my thoughts, move along dim streets, dark and slow. "Big Arab?" I said, after a time. "Scarred hands? Yellow Eyes?—Name ofHasan?" "Yes, that's right. Have you met him?" "He's done some work for me in the past," I ac- knowledged. So I smiled, even though my blood was refrig- erating, because I don't like people to know what I'm thinking. "You're smiling," she said. "What are you think- ing?" She's like that. "I'm thinking you take things more seriously than I thought you took things." "Nonsense, I've often told you I'm a fearful liar. Just a second ago, in fact—and I was only referring to a minor encounter in a great war. And you're right about my being less unhappy here than any- where else on Earth, So maybe you could talk to George—get him to take a job on Taler, or Bakab. Maybe? Huh?" THIS IMMORTAL 15 "Yeah," I said- "Sure. You bet. Just like that. After you've tried it for ten years. —How is his bug collection these days?" She sort of smiled- "Growing," she replied, "by leaps and bounds. Buzzes and crawls too—and some of those crawlies are radioactive. I say to him, "George, why don't you run around with other women instead of spend- ing all your time with those bugs?* But he just shakes his head and looks dedicated. Then I say, *George, one day one of those uglies is going to bite you and make you impotent. What'11 you do then?' Then he explains that that can't happen, and he lectures me on insect toxins. Maybe he's really a big bug himself, in disguise. I think he gets some kind of sexual pleasure out of watching them swarm around in those tanks. I don't know what else—" I turned away and looked inside the hall then, because her face was no longer her face. When I heard her laugh a moment later I turned back and squeezed her shoulder. "Okay, I know more than I knew before. Thanks. Ill see you sometime soon," "Should I wait?" "No. Goodnight." "Good night, Conrad." And I was away. Crossing a room can be a ticklish and time-con- suming business: if it's full of people, if the people all know you, if the people are all holding glasses, if you have even a slight tendency to limp. It was, they did and they were, and I do. So ... Thinking inconspicuous thoughts, I edged my way along the wall just at the periphery of human- 16 ROGER ZELAZNY ity for about twenty feet, until I reached the enclave of young ladies the old celibate always has hovering about him. He was chinless, nearly lipless, and going hairless; and the expression that had once lived in that flesh covering his skull had long ago retreated into the darkness of his eyes, and the eyes had it as they caught me—the smile of imminent outrage. "Phil," I said, nodding, "not everybody can write a masque like that. I've heard it said that it's a dying art, but now I know better." "You're still alive," he said, in a voice seventy years younger than the rest of him, "and late again, as usual." "I abase myself in my contrition," I told him, "but I was detained at a birthday party for a lady aged seven, at the home of an old friend." (Which was true, but it has nothing to do with this story.) "All your friends are old friends, aren't they?" he asked, and that was hitting below the belt, just be- cause I had once known his barely-remembered parents, and had taken them around to the south side of the Erechtheum in order to show them the Porch of the Maidens and point out what Lord Elgin had done with the rest, all the while carrying their bright-eyed youngsters on my shoulders and telling him tales that were old when the place was built. "... And I need your help," I added, ignoring the jibe and gently pushing my way through the soft, pungent circle of feminity. "It*ll take me all night to cross this hall to where Sands is holding court with the Vegan—pardon me, Miss—and I don't have all night. —Excuse me, ma'am.—So I want you to run interference for me." THIS IMMORTAL 17 , "You're Nomikos!" breathed one little lovely, staring at my cheek. "I've always wanted to—" I seized her hand, pressed it to my lips, noted that her Camille-ring was glowing pink, said, "—And negative Kismet, eh?" and dropped it, "So how about it?" I-asked Graber. "Get me from here to there in a minimum of time in your typical courtier-like fashion, with a running con- versation that no one would dare interrupt. Okay? Let's run." He nodded brusquely. "Excuse me, ladies. I'll be back." We started across the room, negotiating alleys of people. High overhead, the chandeliers drifted and turned like faceted satellites of ice. The thelinstra was an intelligent Aeolian harp, tossing its shards of song into the air—pieces of colored glass. The peo- ple buzzed and drifted like certain of George Emmet's insects, and we avoided their swarms by putting one foot in front of another without pause and making noises of our own. We didn't step on anybody who squashed. The night was warm. Most of the men wore the featherweight, black dress-uniform which protocol dictates the Staff suffer at these functions. Those who didn't weren't Staff. Uncomfortable despite their lightness, the Dress Blacks mag-bind down the sides, leaving a smooth front whereon is displayed a green-blue-gray-white Earth insignia, about three inches in diameter, high up on the left breast; below, the symbol of one's department is worn, followed by the rank-sigil; on the right side goes every blessed bit of chicken ma- nure that can be dreamt up to fake dignity—this, by the highly imaginative Office of Awards, Fur- 18 ROGER ZELAZNY bishments, Insignia, Symbols and Heraldry (OAFISH, for short—its first Director appreciated his position). The collar has a tendency to become a garrot after the first ten minutes; at least mine does. The ladies wore, or didn't, whatever they pleased, usually bright or accompanied by pastel simicoloring (unless they were Staff, in which case they were neatly packed into short-skirted Dress Blacks, but with bearable collars), which makes it somewhat easier to tell some of the keepers from the kept. "I hear DOS Santos is here," I said. "So he is." "Why?" "I don't really know, or care." "Tsk and tsk. What happened to your wonderful political consciousness? The Department of Liter- ary Criticism used to praise you for it." "At any age, the smell of death becomes more and more unsettling each time it's encountered." "And DOS Santos smells?" "He tends to reek." "I've heard that he's employed a former associate of ours—from the days of the Madagascar Affair." Phil cocked his head to one side and shot me a quizzical look. "You hear things quite quickly. But then, you're a friend of Ellen's. Yes, Hasan is here. He's upstairs with Don." "Whose karmic burden is he likely to help light- en?" "As I said before, I don't really know or care about any of this." "Want to venture a guess?" THIS IMMORTAL 19 ^<" Not especially." \ We entered a thinly-wooded section of the forest, ^sid I paused to grab a rum-and-other from the dip- tray which had followed overhead until I could bear fts anguish no longer, and had finally pressed the acorn which hung at the end of its tail. At this, it fead dipped obligingly, smiled open, and revealed Ac treasures of its frosty interior. **Ah, joy! Buy you a drink, Phil?" "I thought you were in a hurry." "I am, but I want to survey the situation some." "Very well. I'll have a simicoke." I squinted at him, passed him the thing. Then, as he turned away, I followed the direction of his gaze towards the easy chairs set in the alcove formed by the northeast corner of the room on two sides and the bulk of the thelinstra on the third. The thelinstra-player was an old lady with dreamy eyes. Earthdirector Lorel Sands was smoking his pipe. ... Now, the pipe is one of the more interesting facets of Lorel's personality. It's a real Meerschaum, and there aren't too many of them left in the world. As for the rest of him, his function is rather like that of an anticomputer: you feed him all kinds of carefully garnered facts, figures, and statistics and he trans- lates them into garbage. Keen dark eyes, and a slow, rumbly way of speaking while he holds you with them; rarely given to gestures, but then very deliberate as he saws the air with a wide right hand or pokes imaginary ladies with his pipe; white at the temples and dark above; he is high of cheekbone, has a complexion that matches his tweeds (he assiduously avoids Dress Blacks), and he constantly strives to push his jaw an inch higher 20 ROGER ZELAZNY and further forward than seems comfortable. He is a political appointee, by the Earthgov on Taler, and he takes his work quite seriously, even to the extent of demonstrating his dedication with periodic at- tacks of ulcers. He is not the most intelligent man on Earth. He is my boss. He is also one of the best friends I have. Beside him sat Cort Myshtigo. I could almost feel Phil hating him—from the pale blue soles of his six- toed feet to the pink upper-caste dye of his temple- to-temple hairstrip. Not hating him so much be- cause he was him, but hating him, I was sure, be- cause he was the closest available relative—grand- son—of Tatram Yshtigo, who forty years before had commenced to demonstrate that the greatest living writer in the English language was a Vegan. The old gent is still at it, and I don't believe Phil has ever forgiven him. Out of the comer of my eye (the blue one) I saw Ellen ascending the big, ornate stairway on the oth- er side of the hall. Out of the other comer of my other eye I saw Lorel looking in my direction. "I," said I, "have been spotted, and I must go now to pay my respects to the William Seabrook of Taler. Come along?" "Well . . . Very well," said Phil; "suffering is good for the soul." We moved on to the alcove and stood before the two chairs, between the music and the noise, there in the place of power. Lorel stood slowly and shook hands. Myshtigo stood more slowly, and did not shake hands; he stared, amber-eyed, his face ex- pressionless as we were introduced. His loose-hang- ing orange shirt fluttered constantly as his cham- THIS IMMORTAL 21 ;red lungs forced their perpetual exhalation out anterior nostrils at the base of his wide ribcage. nodded briefly, repeated my name. Then he ned to Phil with something like a smile. ^^•^"Would you care to have me translate your ^jBiasque into English?" he asked, his voice sounding 4||&£ a dying-down tuning fork. ^ Phil turned on his heel and walked away. ^ Then I thought the Vegan was ill for a second, '.ijSfttil I recollected that a Vegan's laugh sounds -^wnething like a billy goat choking. I try to stay ^away from Vegans by avoiding the resorts. "Sit down," said Lorel, looking uncomfortable behind his pipe. I drew up a chair and set it across from them. Wfcay." "Cort is going to write a book," said Lorel. "So you've said." "About the Earth." I nodded. "He expressed a desire that you be his guide on A tour of certain of the Old Places. ..." "I am honored," I said rather stiffly. "Also, I am curious what determined his selection of me as guide." , "And even more curious as to what he may know about you, eh?" said the Vegan. "Yes, I am," I agreed, "by a couple hundred percent." "I asked a machine." /, "Fine. Now I know." I leaned back and finished my drink. fr "I started by checking the Vite-Stats Register for Earth when I first conceived of this project—just for 22 ROGER ZELAZNY general human data—then, after I'd turned up an interesting item, I tried the Earthoffice Personnel Banks—" "Mm-hm/'Isaid. *'—and I was more impressed by what they did not say of you than by what they said." I shrugged. "There are many gaps in your career. Even now, no one really knows what you do most of the time." "—And by the way, when were you born?" "I don't know. It was in a tiny Greek village and they were all out of calendars that year. Christmas Day, though, I'm told." "According to your personnel record, you're seventy-seven years old. According to Vite-Stats, you're either a hundred eleven or a hundred thir- ty" "I fibbed about my age to get the job. There was a Depression going on." "—So I made up a Nomikos-profile, which is a kind of distinctive thing, and I set Vite-Stats to hunting down .001 physical analogues in all of its banks, including the closed ones." "Some people collect old coins, other people build model rockets." "I found that you could have been three or four or five other persons, all of them Greeks, and one of them truly amazing. But, of course, Konstantin Korones, one of the older ones, was born two hun- dred thirty-four years ago. On Christmas. Blue eye, brown eye. Game right leg. Same hairline, at age twenty-three. Same height, and same Bertillion scales." "Same fingerprints? Same retinal patterns?" "These were not included in many of the older THIS IMMORTAL 23 Egistry files. Maybe they were sloppier in those fcys? I don't know. More careless, perhaps, as to fho had access to public records. ..." 1^'You are aware that there are over four million sons on this planet right now. By searching back nigh the past three or four centuries I daresay i could find doubles, or even triples, for quite a of them. So what?" '"It serves to make you somewhat intriguing, , ttt's all, almost like a spirit of place—and you are a» curiously ruined as this place is. Doubtless I shall ttcver achieve your age, whatever it may be, and I Wil® curious as to the sort of sensibilities a human might cultivate, given so much time—especially in vfew of your position as a master of your world's hittory and art. "So that is why I asked for your services," he con- cluded. "Now that you've met me, ruined and all, can I go home?" "Conrad!" The pipe attacked me. "No, Mister Nomikos, there are practical con- siderations also. This is a tough world, and you have a high survival potential. I want you with me because I want to survive." I shrugged again. , "Well, that's settled. What now?" He chuckled. "I perceive that you dislike me." "Whatever gave you that idea? Just because you insulted a friend of mine, asked me impertinent -h questions, impressed me into your service on a f- whim—" i "—exploited your countrymen, turned your world into a brothel, and demonstrated the utter 24 ROGER ZELAZNY provinciality of the human race, as compared to a galactic culture eons older. ..." "I'm not talking your race-my race, I'm talking personal talk. And I repeat, you insulted my friend, asked me impertinent questions, impressed me into your service on a whim." '' {Billy goat snuffle) I to all three! —It is an insult to the shades of Homer and Dante to have that man sing for the human race." "At the moment he's the best we've got." "In which case you should do without." "That's no reason to treat him the way you did." "I think it is, or I wouldn't have done it.—Sec- ond, I asked whatever questions I feel like asking, and it is your privilege to answer or not to answer as you see fit—just as you did.—Finally, nobody im- pressed you into anything. You are a civil servant. You have been given an assignment. Argue with your Office, not me. "And, as an afterthought, I doubt that you possess sufficient data to use the word 'whim' as freely as you do," he finished. From his expression, it appear that Lord's ulcer was making silent commentary as I observed: "Then call your rudeness plain dealing, if you will—or the product of another culture—and justify your influence with sophistries, and afterthink all you like—and by all means, deliver me all manner of spurious judgments, that I may judge you in re- turn. You behave like a Royal Representative in a Crown Colony," I decided, pronouncing the capi- tals, "and I don't like it- I've read all your books. I've also read your granddad's—like his Earth- whore's Lament—and you'll never be the man he is. He has a thing called compassion. You don't. Any- THIS IMMORTAL 25 ing you feel about old Phil goes double for you, in my book." ^ That part about grandpa must have touched on a yore spot, because he flinched when my blue gaze jglit him. y, "So kiss my elbow," I said, or something like Jphat, in Vegan. Me, Sands doesn't speak enough Veggy to have "^caught it, but he made conciliatory noises im- ,' mediately, looking about the while to be sure we . were not being overhead. "Conrad, please find your professional attitude and put it back on.—Srin Shtgio, why don't we get on with the planning?" Myshtigo smiled his bluegreen smile. **And minimize our differences?" he asked. "All . right." "Then let's adjourn to the library—where it's quieter—and we can use the map-screen." "Fine." I felt a bit reinforced as we rose to go, because Don DOS Santos was up there and he hates Vegans, and wherever DOS Santos is, there is always Diane, Ac girl with the red wig, and she hates everybody; , and I knew George Emmet was upstairs, and Ellen, too—and George is a real cold fish around strangers (friends, too, for that matter); and perhaps Phil would wander in later and fire on Fort Sumter; and then there was Hasan—he doesn't say much, he . just sits there and smokes his weeds and looks ,' opaque—and if you stood too near him and took a .; .couple deep breaths you wouldn't care what the iy. hell you said to Vegans, or people either. .yr |j^ I had hoped that Hasan's memory would be on 26 ROGER ZELAZNY the rocks, or else up there somewhere among the clouds. Hope died as we entered the library. He was sit- ting straight and sipping lemonade. Eighty or ninety or more, looking about forty, he could still act thirty. The Sprung-Samser treat- ments had found highly responsive material. It's not often that way. Almost never, in fact. They put some people into accelerated anaphylactic shock for no apparent reason, and even an intracardial blast of adrenalin won't haul them back; others, most others, they freeze at five or six decades. But some rare ones actually grow younger when they take the series—about one in a hundred thousand. It struck me as odd that in destiny's big shooting gallery this one should make it, in such a way. It had been over fifty years since the Madagascar Affair, in which Hasan had been employed by the Radpol in their vendetta against the Talerites. He had been in the pay of (Rest in Peace) the big K. in Athens, who had sent him to polish off the Earthgov Realty Company. Hc*d done it, too. And well. With one tiny fission device. Pow. Instant ur- ban renewal. Called Hasan the Assassin by the Few, he is the last mercenary on Earth. Also, besides Phil (who had not always been the wielder of the bladeless sword without a hilt), Hasan was one of the Very Few who could re- member old Karaghios. So, chin up and fungus forward, I tried to cloud his mind with my first glance. Either there were an- cient and mysterious powers afoot, which I doubted, or he was higher than I'd thought, which was possible, or he had forgotten my face—which could have been possible, though not real likely—or THIS IMMORTAL 27 he was exercising a professional ethic or a low animal cunning. (He possessed both of the latter, in varying degrees, but the accent was on the animal cunning.) He made no sign as we were introduced. "My bodyguard, Hasan," said DOS Santos, flashing his magnesium-flare smile as I shook the hand that once had shaken the world, so to speak. It was still a very strong hand. "Conrad Nomikos," said Hasan, squinting as though he were reading it from off a scroll. I knew everyone else in the room, so I hastened to the chair farthest from Hasan, and I kept my sec- ond drink in front of my face most of the time, just to be safe. EHane of the Red Wig stood near. She spoke. She said, "Good morning, Mister Nomikos." I nodded my drink. "Good evening, Diane." Tall, slim, wearing mostly white, she stood beside DOS Santos like a candle. I know it's a wig she wears, because I've seen it slip upwards on oc- casion, revealing part of an interesting and ugly scar which is usually hidden by the low hairline she keeps. I've often wondered about that scar, some- times as I lay at anchor staring up at parts of con- stellations through clouds, or when I unearthed damaged statues. Purple lips—tattooed, I think— and I've never seen them smile; her jaw muscles are always raised cords because her teeth are always clenched; and there's a little upside-down "v" be- tween her eyes, from all that frowning; and her chin is slight, held high—defiant? She barely moves her mouth when she speaks in that tight, choppy way of hers. I couldn't really guess at her age. Over thirty, that's all. 28 ROGER ZELAZNY She and Don make an interesting pair. He is dark, loquacious, always smoking, unable to sit still for more than two minutes. She is taller by about Five inches, burns without flickering. I still don't know all of her story. I guess I never will. She came over and stood beside my chair while Lorel was introducing Cort to DOS Santos. "You," she said. "Me," I said. "—will conduct the tour." "Everybody knows all about it but me," said I. "I don't suppose you could spare me a little of your knowledge on the matter?" "No knowledge, no matter," said she. "You sound like Phil," said I. "Didn't mean to." "You did, though. So why?" "Why what?" "Why you? Don? Here? Tonight?" She touched her tongue to her upper lip, then pressed it hard, as though to squeeze out the grape- juice or keep in the words. Then she looked over at Don, but he was too far away to have heard, and he was looking in another direction anyhow. He was busy pouring Myshtigo a real Coke from the pitcher in the exec dip-tray. The Coke formula had been the archaeological find of the century, according to the Vegans. It was lost during the Three Days and recovered only a decade or so ago. There had been lots of simicokes around, but none of them have the same effect on Vegan metabolism as the real thing. "Earth's second contribution to galactic culture," one of their contemporary historians had called it. The first contribution of course, being a very fine new social problem oTthe sort that weary Vegan THIS IMMORTAL 29 philosophers had been waiting around for gener- ations to have happen. Diane looked back. "Don't know yet," she said. "Ask Don." "I will." I did, too. Later, though. And I wasn't disap- pointed, inasmuch as I expected nothing- But, as I sat trying as hard as I could to eavesdrop, there was suddenly a sight-vision overlay, of the sort a shrink had once classified for me as a pseudotelepathic wish-fulfillment. It works like this: I want to know what's going on somewhere. I have almost-sufficient information to guess. There- fore, I do. Only it comes on as though I am seeing it and hearing it through the eyes and ears of one of the parties involved. It's not real telepathy, though, I don't think, because it can sometimes be wrong. It sure seems real, though. The shrink could tell me everything about it but why. Which is how I was standing in the middle of the room, was staring at Myshtigo, was DOS Santos, was saying: "... will be going along, for your protection. Not as Radpol Secretary, just a private citizen." f "I did not solicit your protection," the Vegan was | saying, "however, I thank you. I will accept your 3 offer to circumvent my death at the hands of your comrades"—and he smiled as he said it—"if they should seek it during my travels. I doubt that they will, but I should be a fool to refuse the shield of DOS Santos." 30 ROGER ZELAZNY "You are wise," we said, bowing slightly. "Quite," said Cort. "Now tell me"—he nodded toward Ellen, who had just finished arguing with George about anything and was stamping away from him—"who is that?" "•Ellen Emmet, the wife of George Emmet, the Director of the Wildlife Conservation Department." "What is her price?" "I don't know that she's quoted one recently." "Well, what did it used to be?" "There never was one." "Everything on Earth has a price." "In that case, I suppose you'll have to find out for yourself." "I will," he said. Earth femmes have always held an odd attraction for Vegans. A Veggy once told me that they make him feel rather like a zoophilist. Which is interest- ing, because a pleasure girl at the Cote d'Or Resort once told me, with a giggle, that Vegans made her feel rather like we 2.oophiliste. I guess those jets of air must tickle or something and arouse both beasts. "By the way," we said, "have you stopped beat- ing your wife lately?" "Which one?" asked Myshtigo. Fadeout, and me back in my chair. "... What," George Emmet was asking, "do you think of that?" I stared at him. He hadn't been there a second ago. He had come up suddenly and perched himself on the wide wing of my chair. "Come again, please. I was dozing." "I said we've beaten the spiderbat. What do you think of that?" THIS IMMORTAL 31 "It rhymes," I observed. "So tell me how we've beaten the spiderbat." But he was laughing. He's one of those guys with whom laughter is an unpredictable thing. He'll go around looking sour for days, and then some little thing will set him /off giggling. He sort of gasps when he laughs, like a baby, and that impression is reinforced by his pink flaccidity and thinning hair. So I waited. Ellen was off insulting Lorel now, and Diane had turned to read the titles on the book- shelves. Finally, "I've developed a new strain ofslishi/'he panted confidentially. "Say, that's really great!" Then, "What are slishi?" I asked softly. "The slish is a Bakabian parasite," he explained, "rather like a large tick. Mine are about three- cithths of an inch long," he said proudly, "and they burrow deep into the flesh and give off a highly poisonous waste product." "Fatal?" "Mine are." "Could you lend me one?" I asked him. "Why?" "I want to drop it down someone's back. On sec- ond thought, make it a couple dozen. I have lots of friends." "Mine won't bother people, just spiderbats. They discriminate against people. People would poison my slishi.^ (He said "My slishi" very possessively.) "Their host has to have a copper" rather than an iron-based metabolism," he ex- I plained, "and spiderbats fall into that category. That's why I want to go with you on this trip." 32 ROGER ZELAZNY "You want me to find a spiderbat and hold it for you while you dump slishi on it? Is that what you're trying to say?" "Well, I would like a couple spiderbats to keep— I used all mine up last month—but I'm already sure the slishi will work. I want to go along to start the plague." "Which plague?" "Among the 'bats.—The slishi multiply quite rapidly under Earth conditions, if they're given the proper host, and they should be extremely con- tagious if we could get them started at the right time of year. What I had in mind was the late southwestern spiderbat mating season. It will begin in six to eight weeks in the territory of California, in an Old Place—not real hot anymore, though— called Capistrano. I understand that your tour will take you out that way at about that time. When the spiderbats return to Capistrano I want to be wait* ing for them with the slishi. Also, I could use a vaca- tion." "Mm-hm. Have you talked this over with Lorel?" "Yes, and he thinks it's a fine idea. In fact, he wants to meet us out there and take pictures. There may not be too many more opportunities to see them—darkening the sky with their flight, nesting about the ruins the way they do, eating the wild pigs, leaving their green droppings in the streets- it's rather beautiful, you know." "Uh-huh, sort of like HaUoween. Whatll happen to all those wild pigs if we kill off the spiderbats?" "Oh, there'll be more of them around. But I fig- ure the pumas will keep them from getting like Aus- tralian rabbits. Anyway, you'd rather have pigs THIS IMMORTAL 33 than spiderbats, wouldn't you?" "I'm not particularly fond of either, but now that I think of it I suppose I would rather have pigs than spiderbats. All right, sure, you can come along." "Thank you," he said. "I was sure you'd help." "Don't mention it." Lorel made apologetic sounds deep in his throat about then. He stood beside the big desk in the middle of the room, before which the broad viewscreen was slowly lowering itself. It was a thick depth-transparer, so nobody had to move around after a better seat. He pressed a button on the side of the desk and the lights dimmed somewhat. "Uh, I'm about to project a series of maps," he said, "if I can get this synchro-thing . . . There. There it is." The upper part of Africa and most of the Medi- terranean countries appeared in pastels. "Is that the one you wanted first," he asked Myshtigo. "It was—eventually," said the big Vegan, turning away from a muffled conversation with Ellen, whom he had cornered in the French History alcove beneath a bust of Voltaire. The lights dimmed some more and Myshtigo moved to the desk. He looked at the map, and then at nobody in particular. "I want to visit certain key sites which, for one reason or another, are important in the history of your world," he said. "I'd like to start with Egypt, Greece and Rome. Then I'd like to move on quickly through Madrid, Paris and London." The maps shifted as he talked, not fast enough, though, to keep up with him. "Then I want to backtrack to Berlin, hit Brussels, visit St. Petersburg and Mos- 34 ROGER ZELAZNY cow, skip back over the Atlantic and stop at Boston, New York, Dee-Cee, Chicago," (Lorel was working up a sweat by then) "drop down to Yucatan, and jump back up to the California territory." "In that order?" I asked. "Pretty much so," he said. "What's wrong with India and the middle East— or the Far East, for that matter?" asked a voice which I recognized as Phil's. He had come in after the lights had gone down low. "Nothing," said Myshtigo, "except that it's mainly mud and sand and hot, and has nothing whatsoever to do with what I'm after." "What are you after?" "A story." "What kind of story?" "I'll send you an autographed copy." "Thanks." "Your pleasure." "When do you wish to leave?" I asked him. "Day after tomorrow," he said. "Okay." "I've had detailed maps of the specific sites made up for you. Lorel tells me they were delivered to your office this afternoon." "Okay again. But there is something of which you may not be fully cognizant. It involves the fact that everything you've named so far is mainlandish. We're pretty much an island culture these days, and for very good reasons. During the Three Days the Mainland got a good juicing, and most of the places you've named are still inclined to be some- what hot. This, though, is not the only reason they are considered unsafe ..." "I am not unfamiliar with your history and I am THIS IMMORTAL aware of the radiation precautions," he interrupted. "Also, I am aware of the variety of mutated life forms which inhabit Old Places. I am concerned, but not worried." I shrugged in the artificial twilight. "It's okay by me . . ." "Good." He took another sip'of Coke. "Let me have a little light then, Lorel." "Right, Srin." It was light again. As the screen was sucked upward behind him, Myshtigo asked me, "Is it true that you are ac- quainted with several mambos and houngans here at the Port?" "Why, yes," I said. "Why?" He approached my chair. "I understand," he said conversationally, "that voodoo, or voudoun, has survived pretty much un- changed over the centuries." "Perhaps," I said. "1 wasn't around here when it got started, so I wouldn't know for sure." "I understand that the participants do not much appreciate the presence of outsiders—" "That too, is correct. But they'll put on a good show for you, if you pick the right hounfor and drop in on them with a few gifts." "But I should like very much to witness a real ceremony. If I were to attend one with someone who was not a stranger to the participants, perhaps then I could obtain the genuine thing." < "Why should you want to? Morbid curiosity con- ; cerning barbaric customs?" / "No. I am a student of comparative religions." f I studied his face, but couldn't tell anything from it. 36 f ROGER ZELAZNY j^tt had been awhile since I'd visited with Mama ^Julie and Papa Joe or any of the others, and the hounfor wasn't that far away, but I didn't know how they'd take to me bringing a Vegan around. They'd never objected when I'd brought people, of course. "Well.. ."I began. "I just want to watch," he said. "I'll stay out of the way. They'll hardly know I'm there." I mumbled a bit and finally gave in. I knew Mama Julie pretty well and I didn't see any real harm being done, no matter what. So, "Okay," said I, "I'll take you to one. To- night, if you like." He agreed, thanked me, and went off after anoth- er Coke. George, who had not strayed from the arm of my chair, leaned toward me and observed that it would be very interesting to dissect a Vegan. I agreed with him. When Myshtigo returned, DOS Santos was at his side. "What is this about you taking Mister Myshtigo to a pagan ceremony?" he asked, nostrils flared and quivering. "That's right," I said, "I am." "Not without a bodyguard you are not." I turned both palms upward. "I am capable of handling anything which might arise." "Hasan and I will accompany you." I was about to protest when Ellen insinuated herself between them. "I want to go, too," she said. "I've never been to one." I shrugged. If DOS Santos went, then Diane would go, too, which made for quite a few of us. THIS IMMORTAL 37 So one more wouldn't matter, shouldn't matter. It was ruined before it got started. "Why not?" I said. The hounfor was located down in the harbor sec- tion, possibly because it was dedicated to Ague Woyo, god of the sea. More likely, though, it was because Mama Julie's people had always been har- bor people. Agu6 Woyo is not a jealous god, so lots of other deities are commemorated upon the walls in brilliant colors. There are more elaborate hounfors further inland, but they tend to be somewhat com- mercial. Ague's big blazeboat was blue and orange and green and yellow and black, and it looked to be somewhat unseaworthy. Damballa Wedo, crimson, writhed and coiled his length across most of the op- posite wall. Several big rada drums were being stroked rhythmically by Papa Joe, forward and to the right of the door through which we entered— the only door. Various Christian saints peered from behind unfathomable expressions at the bright hearts and cocks and graveyard crosses, Hags, machetes and crossroads that clung to almost every inch of the walls about them—frozen into an after- the-hurricane surrealism by the ampoteric paints of Titan—and whether or not the saints approved one could never tell: they stared down through their cheap picture-frames as though they were windows onto an alien world. The small altar bore numerous bottles of alcohol- ic beverages, gourds, sacred vessels for the spirits of the loa, charms, pipes, flags, depth photos of un- known persons and, among other things, a pack of cigarettes for Papa Legba. 38 ROGER ZELAZNY A service was in progress when we were led in by a young hounst named Luis, The room was about eight meters long and five wide, had a high ceiling, a dirt floor. Dancers moved about the central pole with slow, strutting steps. Their flesh was dark and it glistened in the dim light of the antique kerosene lamps. With our entry the room became crowded. Mama Julie took my hand and smiled. She led me back to a place beside the altar and said, "Erzulie was kind." I nodded. "She likes you, Nomiko. You live long, you travel much, and you come back." "Always," I said. "Those people . . . ?" She indicated my companions with a flick of her dark eyes. "Friends. They would be no bother ..." She laughed as I said it. So did I. "I will keep them out of your way if you let us remain. We will stay in the shadows at the sides of the room. If you tell me to take them away, I will. I see that you have already danced much, emptied many bottles ..." "Stay," she said. "Come talk with me during daylight sometime," "I will." She moved away then and they made room for her in the circle of dancers. She was quite large, though her voice was a small thing. She moved like a huge rubber doll, not without grace, stepping to the monotonous thunder of Papa Joe's drumming. After a time this sound filled everything—my head, the earth, the air—like maybe the whale's heartbeat had seemed to half-digested Jonah. I watched the THIS IMMORTAL 39 dancers. And I watched those who watched the dancers. I drank a pint of rum in an effort to catch up, but I couldn't. Myshtigo kept taking sips of Coke from a bottle he had brought along with him. No one noticed that he was blue, but then we had gotten there rather late and things were pretty well along the way to wherever they were going. Red Wig stood in a corner looking supercilious and frightened. She was holding a bottle at her side, but that's where it stayed. Myshtigo was holding Ellen at his side, and that's where she stayed. DOS Santos stood beside the door and watched ev- erybody—even me. Hasan, crouched against the righthand wall, was smoking a long-stemmed pipe with a small bowl- He appeared to be at peace. Mama Julie, I guess it was, began to sing. Other voices picked it up: Papa Legba, ouvn baye! Papa Legba, Attibon Legba, ouvn bayS pou pou posse! Papa Legba . . . This went on, and on and on. I began to feel drowsy. I drank more rum and felt thirstier and drank more rum. I 'm not sure how long we had been there when it happened. The dancers had been kissing the pole and singing and rattling gourds and pouring out waters, and a couple of the hounst were acting possessed and talking incoherently, and the meal- design on the floor was all blurred, and there was lots of smoke in the air, and I was leaning back against the wall and I guess my eyes had been closed for a minute or two- 40 ROGER ZELAZNY The ^ound came from an unexpected quarter. Hasan screamed. It was a long, wailing thing that brought me for- ward, then dizzily off balance, then back to the wall again, with a thump. The drumming continued, not missing a single beat. Some of the dancers stopped, though, staring. Hasan had gotten to his feet. His teeth were bared and his eyes were slits, and his face bore the ridges and valleys of exertion beneath its sheen of sweat. His beard was a fireshot spearhead. His cloak, caught high against some wall decora- tion, was black wings. His hands, in a hypnosis of slow motion, were strangling a non-existent man. Animal sounds came from his throat. He continued to choke nobody. Finally, he chuckled and his hands sprang open. DOS Santos was at his side almost immediately, talking to him, but they inhabited two different worlds- One of the dancers began to moan softly. Anoth- er joined him—and others. Mama Julie detached herself from the circle and came toward me—just as Hasan started the whole thing over again, this time with more elaborate his- trionics. The drum continued its steady, earthdance pro- nouncement- Papa Joe did not even look up. "A bad sign," said Mama Julie. "What do you know of this man?" "Plenty," I said, forcing my head to clear by an act of will. THIS IMMORTAL 41 "Angelsou," she said. "What?" "Angelsou," she repeated. "He is a dark god— one to be feared. Your friend is possessed by Angelsou-" "Explain, please." "He comes seldom to our hounfor. He is not wanted here. Those he possesses become murderers." "I think Hasan was trying a new pipe mixture— mutant ragweed or something." "Angelsou," she said again. "Your friend will be- come a killer, for Angelsou is a deathgod, and he only visits with his own." "Mama Julie," said I, "Hasan is a killer. If you had a piece of gum for every man he's killed and you tried to chew it all, you'd look like a chipmunk, He is a professional killer—within the limits of the law, usually. Since the Code Duello prevails on the Mainland, he does most of his work there. It has been rumored that he does an illegal killing on oc- casion, but this thing has never been proved. "So tell me," I finished, "is Angelsou the god of killers or the god of murderers? There should be a difference between the two, shouldn't there?" "Not to Angelsou," she said. DOS Santos then, trying to stop the show, seized both of Hasan *s wrists. He tried to pull his hands apart, but—well, try bending the bars of your cage sometime and you 11 get the picture. I crossed the room, as did several of the others. This proved fortunate, because Hasan had finally noticed that someone was standing in front of him, and dropped his hands, freeing them. Then he pro- duced a long-bladed stiletto from under his cloak. 42 ROGER ZELAZNY Whether or not he would actually have used it on Don or anybody else is a moot point, because at that moment Myshtigo stoppered his Coke bottle with his thumb and hit him behind the ear with it. Hasan fell forward and Don caught him, and I pried the blade from between his fingers, and Myshtigo finished his Coke, "Interesting ceremony," observed the Vegan; "I would never have suspected that big fellow of har- boring such strong religious feelings." "It just goes to show you that you can never be too sure, doesn't it?" "Yes." He gestured to indicate the onlookers. "They are all pantheists, aren't they?" I shook my head. "Primitive animists." "What is the difference?" "Well, that Coke bottle you just emptied is going to occupy the altar, or pe, as it is called, as a vessel for Angelsou, since it has enjoyed an intimate mys- tical relationship with the god. That's the way an animist would see it. Now, a pantheist just might get a little upset at somebody's coming in to his cer- emonies uninvited and creating a disturbance such as we just did. A pantheist might be moved to sacri- fice the intruders to Ague Woyo, god of the sea, by hitting them all over the head in a similar ceremo- nial manner and tossing them off the end of the dock. Therefore, I am not going to have to explain to Mama Julie that all these people standing around glaring at us are really animists. Excuse me a minute." It wasn't really that bad, but I wanted to shake him up a bit. I think I did. After I'd apologized and said good-night, I picked up Hasan. He was out cold and I was the THIS IMMORTAL 43 only one big enough to carry him. The street was deserted except for us, and Agu^ Woyo's big blazeboat was cutting the waves some- where just under the eastern edge of the world and splashing the sky with all his favorite colors. DOS Santos, at my side, said, "Perhaps you were correct. Maybe we should not have come along." I didn't bother to answer him, but Ellen, who was walking up ahead with Myshtigo, stopped, turned, and said, "Nonsense. If you hadn't, we would have missed the tentmaker's wonderful dra- matic monologue." By then, I was within range and both her hands shot out and wrapped around my throat. She applied no pressure, but she grimaced horribly and observed, "Ur! Mm! Ugh! I'm possessed of Angelsou and you've had it." Then she laughed. "Let go my throat or I'll throw this Arab at you," I said, comparing the orangebrown color other hair with the orangepink color of the sky behind her, and smiled. "He's a heavy one, too," I added. Then, a second before she let go, she applied some pressure—a little bit too much to be playful— and then she was back on Myshtigo's arm and we were walking again. Well, women never slap me be- cause I always turn the other cheek first and they're afraid of the fungus, so I guess a quick choke is about the only alternative. "Frightfully interesting," said Red Wig. "Felt strange. As if something inside me was dancing along with them. Odd feeling, it was. I don't really like dancing—any kind." "What kind of accent do you have?" I inter- rupted her. "I've been trying to place it." 44 ROGER ZELAZNY "Don't know," she said. "I'm sort of Irish- French. Lived in the Hebrides—also Australia, Japan—till I was nineteen ..." Hasan moaned just then and flexed his muscles and I felt a sharp pain in my shoulder. I set him down on a doorstep and shook him down. I found two throwing knives, another stiletto, a very neat gravity knife, a saw-edged Bowie, strangling wires, and a small metal case containing various powders and vials of liquids which I did not care to inspect too closely. I liked the gravity knife, so I kept it for myself. It was a Coricama, and very neat. Late the next day—call it evening—I shanghaied old Phil, determined to use him as the price of ad- mission to DOS Santos' suite at the Royal. The Rad- pol still reveres Phil as a sort of Returnist Tom Paine, even though he began pleading innocent to that about half a century ago, back when he began getting mysticism and respectability. While his Call of Earth probably is the best thing he ever wrote, he also drafted the Articles of Return, which helped to start the trouble I'd wanted started. He may do much disavowing these days, but he was a trouble- maker then, and I'm sure he still files away all the fawning gazes and bright words it continues to bring him, takes them out every now and then, dusts them off, and regards them with something like pleasure. Besides Phil, I took along a pretext—that I wanted to see how Hasan was feeling after the lamentable bash he'd received at the hounfor. Ac- tually, what I wanted was a chance to talk to Hasan and find out how much, if anything, he'd be willing to tell me about his latest employment. THIS IMMORTAL 45 So Phil and I walked it. It wasn't far from the Office compound to the Royal. About seven minutes, ambling- "Have you finished writing my elegy yet?" I asked. "I'm still working on it." "You've been saying that for the past twenty years. I wish you'd hurry up so I could read it." "I could show you some very fine ones . . . Lord's, George's, even one for DOS Santos. And I have all sorts of blank ones in my files—the fill-in kind—for lesser notables. Yours is a problem, though." "How so?" "I have to keep updating it. You go right on, quite blithely—living, doing things." "You disapprove?" "Most people have the decency to do things for half a century and then stay put. Their elegies present no problems. I have cabinets full. But I'm afraid yours is going to be a last-minute thing with a discord ending. I don't like to work that way. I prefer to deliberate over a span of many years, to evaluate a person's life carefully, and without pres- sure. You people who live your lives like folksongs trouble me. I think you're trying to force me to write you an epic, and I'm getting too old for that. I sometimes nod." "I think you're being unfair," I told him. "Other people get to read their elegies, and I'd even settle for a couple of good limericks." "Well, I have a feeling yours will be finished before too long," he noted. "Ill try to get a copy to you in time." "Oh? From whence springs this feeling?" 46 ROGER ZELAZNY "Who can isolate the source of an inspiration?" "You tell me." "It came upon me as I meditated. I was in the process of composing one for the Vegan—purely as an exercise, of course—and I found myself thinking: 'Soon I will finish the Greek's."" After a moment, he continued, "Conceptualize this thing: yourself as two men, each taller than the other." "It could be done if I stood in front of a mirror and kept shifting my weight. I have this short leg.— So, I'm conceptualizing it. What now?'* "Nothing. You don't go at these things proper- ly." "It's a cultural tradition against which I have never been successfully immunized. Like knots, horses—Gordia, Troy. You know. We're sneaky." He was silent for the next ten paces, "So feathers or lead?" I asked him. "Pardon?" "It is the riddle of the kallikanzaros. Pick one." "Feathers?" "You're wrong." "If I had said 'lead'.. . ?" "Uh-uh. You only have one chance. The correct answer is whatever the kallikanzaros wants it to be. You lose." "That sounds a bit arbitrary." "Kallikanzaroi are that way. It's Greek, rather than Oriental subtlety. Less inscrutable, too. Be- cause your life often depends on the answer, and the kallikanzaros generally wants you to lose." "Why is that?" "Ask the next kallikanzaros you meet, if you get the chance- They're mean spirits." We struck the proper avenue and turned up it. THIS IMMORTAL 47 "Why are you suddenly concerned with the Rad- pol again?" he asked. "It's been a long time since you left." "I left at the proper time, and all I'm concerned with is whether it's coming alive again—like in the old days. Hasan comes high because he always de- livers, and I want to know what's in the package." "Are you worried they've found you out?" "No. It might be uncomfortable, but I doubt it would be incapacitating." The Royal loomed before us and we entered. We went directly to the suite. As we walked up the padded hallway, Phil, in a fit of perception, ob- served, "I'm running interference again." "That about says it." "Okay. One'11 get you ten you find out nothing." "I won't take you up on that. You're probably right." I knocked on the darkwood door. "Hi there," I said as it opened. "Come in, come in." And we were off. It took me ten minutes to turn the conversation to the lamentable bashing of the Bedouin, as Red Wig was there distracting me by being there and being distracting. "Good morning," she said. "Good evening," I said. "Anything new happening in Arts?" "No." "Monuments?" "No." "Archives?" "No." "What interesting work you must do!" 48 ROGER ZELAZNY "Oh, it's been overpublicized and glamorized all out of shape by a few romanticists in the Informa- tion Office. Actually, all we do is locate, restore, and preserve the records and artifacts mankind has left lying about the Earth." "Sort of like cultural garbage collectors?" "Mm, yes. I think that's properly put." "Well, why?" "Why what?" "Why do you do it?" "Someone has to, because it's cultural garbage. That makes it worth collecting. I know my garbage better than anyone else on Earth." "You're dedicated, as well as being modest. That's good, too." "Also, there weren't too many people to choose from when I applied for the job—and I knew where a lot of the garbage was stashed." She handed me a drink, took a sip and a half of her own, and asked, "Are they actually still around?" "Who?" I inquired. "Divinity Incorporated. The old gods. Like Angelsou. I thought all the gods had left the Earth." "No, they didn't. Just because most of them re- semble us doesn't mean they act the same way. When man left he didn't offer to take them along, and gods have some pride, too. But then, maybe they had to stay, anyhow—that thing called ananke, death-destiny. Nobody prevails against it." "Like progress?" "Yeah. Speaking of progress, how is Hasan progressing? The last time I saw him he had stopped entirely." "Up, around. Big lump. Thick skull. No harm." THIS IMMORTAL 49 "Where is he?" "Up the hall, left. Games Room." "I believe I'll go render him my sympathy. Ex- cuse me?" "Excused," she said, nodding, and she went away to listen to DOS Santos talk at Phil. Phil, of course, welcomed the addition. Neither looked up as I left. The Games Room was at the other end of the long hallway. As I approached, I heard a thunk fol- lowed by a silence, followed by another thunk. I opened the door and looked inside. He was the only one there. His back was to me, but he heard the door open and turned quickly. He was wearing a long purple dressing gown and was balancing a knife in his right hand. There was a big wad of plastage on the back of his head. "Good evening, Hasan." A tray of knives stood at his side, and he had set a target upon the opposite wall. Two blades were sticking into the target—one in the center and one about six inches off, at nine o'clock. "Good evening," he said slowly. Then, after thinking it over, he added, "How are you?" "Oh, fine. I came to ask you that same question. How is your head?" "The pain is great, but it shall pass." I closed the door behind me. "You must have been having quite a daydream last night." "Yes. Mister DOS Santos tells me I fought with ghosts. I do not remember." "You weren't smoking what the fat Doctor Em- met would call Cannabis sativa, that's for sure." "No, Karagee. I smoked a stirge-fleur which had 50 ROGER ZELAZNY drunk human blood. I found it near the Old Place of Constantinople and dried its blossoms carefully. An old woman told me it would give me sight into the future. She lied." "... And the vampire-blood incites to violence? Well, that's a new one to write down. By the way, you just called me Karagee. I wish you wouldn't. My name is Nomikos, Conrad Nomikos." "Yes, Karagee. I was surprised to see you. I had thought you died long ago, when your blazeboat broke up in the bay." "Karagee did die then. You have not mentioned to anyone that I resemble him, have you?" "No; I do not make idle talk." "That's a good habit." I crossed the room, selected a knife, weighed it, threw it, and laid it about ten inches to the right of center. "Have you been working for Mister DOS Santos very long?" I asked him. "For about the period of a month," he replied. He threw his knife. It struck five inches below the center. "You are his bodyguard, eh?" "That is right. I also guard the blue one." "Don says he fears an attempt on Myshtigo's life. Is there an actual threat, or is he just being safe?" "It is possible either way, Karagee. I do not know. He pays me only to guard." "If I paid you more, would you tell me whom you've been hired to kill?" "I have only been hired to guard, but I would not tell you even if it were otherwise." "I didn't think so. Let's go get the knives." We crossed and drew the blades from the target. THIS IMMORTAL 51 "Now, if it happens to be me—which is pos- sible," I offered, "why don't we settle it right now? We are each holding two blades. The man who leaves this room will say that the other attacked him and that it was a matter of self-defense. There are no witnesses. We were both seen drunk or disorder- ly last night." "No, Karagee." "No, what? No, it isn't me? Or no, you don't want to do it that way?" "I could say no, it is not you. But you would not know whether I spoke the truth or not." "That is true." "I could say I do not want to do it that way." "Is that true?" "I do not say. But to give you the satisfaction of an answer, what I will say is this: If I wished to kill you, I would not attempt it with a knife in my hand, nor would I box nor wrestle with you." "Why is that?" "Because many years ago when I was a boy I worked at the Resort of Kerch, attending at the tables of the wealthy Vegans. You did not know me then- I had just come up from the places of Pamir. You and your friend the poet came to Kerch." "I remember now. Yes . . . Phil's parents had died that year—they were good friends of mine— and I was going to take Phil to the university. But there was a Vegan who had taken his first woman from him, taken her to Kerch. Yes, the entertainer —I forget his name." "He was Thrilpai Ligo, the shajadpa-boxer, and he looked like a mountain at the end of a great plain —high, immovable. He boxed with the Vegan cesti —the leather strips with the ten sharpened studs 52 ROGER ZELAZNY that go all the way around the hand—open- handed." "Yes, I remember. ..." "You had never boxed shajadpa before, but you fought with him for the girl, A great crowd came, of the Vegans and the Earth girls, and I stood on a table to watch. After a minute your head was all blood. He tried to make it run into your eyes, and you kept shaking your head. I was fifteen then and had only killed three men myself, and I thought that you were going to die because you had not even touched him. And then your right hand crossed to him like a thrown hammer, so fast! You struck him in the center of that double bone the blue ones have in their chests—and they are tougher there than we —and you crushed him like an egg. I could never have done that, I am sure—and that is why I fear your hands and your arms- Later, I learned that you had also broken a spiderbat.—No, Karagce, I would kill you from a distance." "That was so long ago.... I did not think any- one remembered." "You won the girl." "Yes. I forget her name." "But you did not give her back to the poet. You kept her for yourself. That is why he probably hates you." "Phil? That girl? I've even forgotten what she looked like." "He has never forgotten. That is why I think he hates you. I can smell hate, sniff out its sources. You took away his first woman. I was there." "It was her idea." ". . . And he grows old and you stay young. It is THIS IMMORTAL 53 sad, Karagee, when a friend has reason to hate a friend." "Yes." "And I do not answer your questions." "It is possible that you were hired to kill the Vegan." "It is possible." "Why?" "I said only that it is possible, not that it is fact." "Then I will ask you one more question only, and be done with it. What good would come of the Vegan's death? His book could be a very good thing in the way of Vegan-human relations." "1 do not know what good or bad would come of it, Karagee. Let us throw more knives." We did. I picked up ,thc range and the balance and put two right in the center of the target. Then Hasan squeezed two in beside them, the last one giving out the sharp paincry of metal as it vibrated against one of mine. "I will tell you a thing," I said, as we drew them again. "I am head of the tour and responsible for the safety of its members. I, too, will guard the Vegan." "That will be a very good thing, Karagee. He needs protecting." I placed the knives back in the tray and moved to the door. "We will be leaving at nine tomorrow morning, you know. I'll have a convoy of Skimmers at the first field in the Office compound." "Yes. Good night, Karagee." ". . .And call me Conrad." "Yes." 54 ROGER ZELAZNY He had a knife ready to throw at the target. I closed the door and moved back up the corridor. As I went, I heard another thunk, and it sounded much closer than the first ones had. It echoed all around me, there in the hallway. As the six big Skimmers fled across the oceans toward Egypt I turned my thoughts first to Kos and Cassandra and then dragged them back with some difficulty and sent them on ahead to the land of sand, the Nile, mutated crocs, and some dead Pharoahs whom one of my most current projects was then disturbing. ("Death comes on swift wings to he who defiles ..." etc.), and I thought then of humanity, roughly ensconced on the Titan way-sta- tion, working in the Earth-office, abasing itself on Taler and Bakab, getting by on Mars, and doing so- so on Rylpah, Divbah, Litan and a couple dozen other worlds in the Vegan Combine. Then I thought about the Vegans. The blueskinned folk with the funny names and the dimples like pock-marks had taken us in when we were cold, fed us when we were hungry. Yeah- They appreciated the fact that our Martian and Titanian colonies had suffered from nearly a cen- tury of sudden self-sufficiency—after the Three Days incident—before a workable interstellar vehi- cle had been developed. Like the boll weevil (Em- met tells me) we were just looking for a home, be- cause we'd used up the one we had. Did the Vegans reach for the insecticide? No. Wise elder race that they are, they permitted us to settle among their worlds, to live and work in their landcities, their seacities. For even a culture as advanced as the Vegans' has some need for hand labor of the oppos- THIS IMMORTAL 55 ing thumb variety. Good domestic servants cannot be replaced by machines, nor can machine monitors, good gardeners, salt sea fisherfolk, sub- terranean and subsquean hazard workers, and ethnic entertainers of the alien variety. Admittedly, the presence of human dwelling places lowers the value of adjacent Vegan properties, but then, hu- mans themselves compensate for it by contributing to the greater welfare. Which thought brought me back to Earth. The Vegans had never seen a completely devastated civ- ilization before, so they were fascinated by our home planet. Fascinated enough to tolerate our absentee government on Taler. Enough to buy Earthtour tickets to view the ruins. Even enough to buy property here and set up resorts. There is a cer- tain kind of fascination to a planet that is run like a museum. (What was it James Joyce said about Rome?) Anyhow, dead Earth still brings its living grandchildren a small but appreciable revenue ev- ery Vegan fiscal year. That is why—the Office, Lorel, George, Phil, and all that, Sort of why me, even. Far below, the ocean was a bluegray rug being pulled out from beneath us. The dark continent re- placed it. We raced on toward New Cairo. We set down outside the city. There's no real air- strip. We just dropped all six Skimmers down in an empty field we used as one, and we posted George as a guard. Old Cairo is still hot, but the people with whom one can do business live mainly in New Cairo, so things were pretty much okay for the tour. Mysh- tigo did want to see the mosque of Kait Bey in the City of the Dead, which had survived the Three 56 ROGER ZELAZNY Days; he settled, though, for me taking him up in my Skimmer and flying in low, slow circles about it while he took photographs and did some peering. In the way of monuments, it was really the pyramids and Luxur, Karnak, and the Valley of Kings and the Valley of Queens that he wanted to see. It was well that we viewed the mosque from the air. Dark shapes scurried below us, stopping only to hurl rocks up toward the ship. "What are they?" asked Myshtigo. "Hot Ones," said I. "Sort of human. They vary in size, shape, and meanness." After circling for a time he was satisfied, and we returned to the field. So, landing again beneath a glaring sun, we se- cured the final Skimmer and disembarked, moving across equal proportions of sand and broken pave- ment—two temporary tour assistants, me, Mysh- tigo, DOS Santos and Red Wig, Ellen, Hasan. El- len had decided at the last minute to accompany her husband on the journey. There were fields of high, shiny sugar cane on both sides of the road. In a moment we had left them behind and were pass- ing the low outbuildings of the city. The road widened. Here and there a palm tree cast some shade. Two great-eyed, brown-eyed children looked up as we passed. They had been watching a weary, six-legged cow turn a great sakieh wheel, in much the same way as cows have always turned great sakieh wheels hereabouts, only this one left more hoofprints. My area supervisor, Rameses Smith, met us at the inn. He was big, his golden face tightly con- tained within a fine net^of wrinkles; and he had the THIS IMMORTAL 57 typical sad eyes, but his constant chuckle quickly offset them. We sat sipping beer in the main hall of the inn while we waited for George. Local guards had been sent to relieve him. ' "The work is progressing well," Rameses told me. "Good," I said, somewhat pleased that no one had asked me what "the work" was. I wanted to surprise them. "How is your wife, and the children?" "They are fine," he stated. "The new