TWO
MEN IN ONE BODY-TWO EPOCHS IN CONFLICT
He
woke up to find himself in weird surroundings, guarded by two strangers, one an
old, old man, the other a slim sexless figure hidden completely under long blue
veils.
These
two called him Adric, a name he instinctively responded to, even though he knew
he was Mike Kenscott, radio engineer in a government laboratory. His rich
crimson clothing was unfamiliar and he was shocked by the landscape he saw through
the window—mountains bathed in a pinkish light whose source was not one but
two brilliant suns.
Panic
seized him then. Who were these people? What world was he in? And, most
important, whom had he become?
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FOREWORD
When I was about eight years old, in the attic of
the somewhat Lovecraftian old farmhouse where I was brought up, I discovered a
cardboard carton chock full and overflowing with old pulp magazines —Argosy, Blue Book, Weird Tales, and the like. I read them for hours, lying flat on my stomach in the
dusty sunlight on the landing, tin: smell of plaster in my nostrils, a screechy
old Victrola playing Caruso records above me; sometimes I'd get so absorbed in my story that the Victrola would run down, emitting weird
noises until I scrambled up to wind it absent-mindedly with one arm.
In
my late teens, I discovered the science-fiction pulps, and the way they mingled
my beloved fantasies with science and adventure—the great names of Kuttner,
Hamilton, Brackett. All too soon, spurred on by an era
of scientific strides, adventure-fantasy vanished, to be superseded by the era of drab realism: the
"sand-in-my-Npiuesuit"
M'imol. I have nothing
against meticulously constructed, realistic science-fiction. I even like to
write it, sometimes. But 1 got nostalgic for the old days, the glint of strange
suns on worlds that never were and never would be.
And it seems that I'm not the only one.
Adventure fantasy, sword-and-sorcery—by whatever name, it's catching on all
over again; perhaps in a slightly more sophisticated form, but it has
basically the same appeal; the gleam and glow of a dark world, the flash of the
wing of a falcon—like, perhaps, the falcons of Narabedla. . . .
—M. Z. B.
Falcons of
Narabedla
Marion Zimmer Bradley
ACE BOOKS, INC.
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falcons of narabedla
Copyright ©, 1964, by Ace Books, Inc. All Rights Reserved
the dark intruder and other stories
Copyright ©, 1964, by Ace Books, Inc.
Printed in U.S.A.
CHAPTER ONE
Somewhere on the crags above us, I heard a big bird scream.
I turned to Andy, knee-deep in the icy stream
beside me. There's your eagle. Probably smells that cougar I shot yesterday." I started to reel in my line, knowing what my
brother's next move would be. "Get the camera, and we'll try for a
picture."
We
crouched together in the underbrush, watching, as the big bird of prey wheeled
down in a slow spiral toward the dead cougar. Andy was trembling with
excitement, the camera poised against his chest. "Golly," he
whispered, almost prayerfully, "six foot wing spread at least, maybe
more—"
The
bird screamed again, warily, head cocked into the wind. We were to leeward; the
scent of the carrion masked
our enemy smell from him. The eagle failed to
scent or to see us, swooping down and dropping on the cougar's head. Andy's
camera clicked twice. The eagle thrust in its beak.
A
red-hot wire flared in my brain. The bird—the bird— I leaped out of cover,
running swiftly across the ten-foot clearing that separated us from the
attacking eagle, my hand tugging automatically at the hunting knife in my belt.
Andy's shout of surprise and dismay was a far-away noise in my ears as the
eagle started away with flapping, angry wings-then, in fury, swept down at me,
pinions beating around my head. I heard and felt the wicked beak dart in, and
thrust blindly upward with the knife: ripped, slashing, hearing
the bird's scream of pain and the flapping of wide wings.
A red-hot haze spun around
me—
This
had happened before. I had fought like this before, for my life, for my life—
Then
the screaming eagle was gone, a lifting cry down-wing
and a vanishing shadow, and Andy's rough grip was on my shoulder, shaking me,
hard. His voice, furious and frightened, was barely recognizable. "Mikel
Mike, you damned idiot, are you all right? You must be crazy!"
I
blinked, rubbing my hand across my eyes. The hand came away red. I was standing
in the clearing, the knife in my hand red with blood. Bird
blood. I heard myself ask, stupidly, "What happened?"
My
brother's face came clear through the red haze, scowling wrathfully. "You
tell me thatl Mike, what in the devil were you thinking of? You told me yourself that an eagle
will attack a man ifs bothered. I had him square in the camera when you jumped
out of there like a bat out of a belfry, and went for the eagle with your
knife. You must be clean crazy I"
I let the knife drop out of my hand.
"Yeah," I said heavily, "I guess I spoiled your picture, Andy.
I'm sorry. I didn't . . ." My voice trailed off, helpless. I felt like a
prize fool. The kid's hand was still on my shoulder. He let it fall away and
knelt in the grass, groping for his camera. "That's all right, Mike,"
he said in a dead voice. "You scared the daylights out of me, that's all."
He
stood up swiftly, looking straight into my face. "Only-damn it, Mike,
you've been acting crazy for a week. I don't mind the blasted camera, but when
you start going for eagles with your bare hands—" abruptly he flung the
camera away, turned, and began to run down the slope in the direction of the
cabin.
I took one step to follow, then
stopped, bending to retrieve the broken pieces of Andy's cherished camera. He
must have hit the eagle with it. Lucky thing for me.
Even a hawk can be a mean bird, and an eagle—Why, why
in the hell had I done a thing like that? I'd warned Andy, time
and time again, to stay clear of the big birds.
Now
that the urgency of action had deserted me, I felt stupid and a little
light-headed. I didn't wonder that Andy thought I was crazy. I thought so
myself, more than half the time. I stowed the broken camera in my tackle box,
mentally promising Andy a better one, hunted up the abandoned lines and poles,
cleaned our day's catch. It was dark before I started for the cabin; I could
hear the hum of the electric dynamo I'd rigged, and see the electric light
across the dusk of the Sierras. A smell of bacon greeted me as I crossed into
the glare of the unshielded bulb. Andy hadn't waited for the fish. He was
standing at the cookstove, his back stubbornly turned to me. He did not turn.
"Andy—" I said.
"It's okay, Mike. Sit down and eat your supper."
"Andy—I'll get you another camera." "I said,
it's okay. Now, damn it, eat."
He didn't speak again for some time; but as I stretched back for a second mug of coffee, he got up and began to walk
restlessly around the room.
"Mike, you came here for a rest,"
he said at last. "Why can't you lay off your everlasting work for a while,
and relax?" He looked disgustedly over his shoulder at the work table
where the light spilled over a confused litter of wires and magnets and coils.
"You're turning this place into a branch office of General Electric?"
"I
can't stop now," I said violently, "I'm on the track of something,
maybe something big, and if I stop now, I'll never find itl"
"Must
be real important," Andy said sourly, "if it makes you act like
bughouse bait."
I
shrugged, not answering. We'd been over that before. I'd known it when they
threw me out of the government lab, just before the big blowup. I thought angrily,
Maybe I'm heading for
another one. But
I didn't care.
"Sit
down, Andy," I told him. "You don't know what happened down there.
No, it's not any military secret, or anything. It was all declassified a long
time before I finished my service hitch." I paused, swallowing down the
coffee, not caring that it scalded my mouth. I said, with the old bitterness,
"Except for me."
I'd
been working in a government radio lab, on some new communications equipment.
Since I'd never finished it, there's no point in going into details. It's
enough to say that it would have made radar as obsolete as the stagecoach.
I'd built a special supersonic condenser, and
had had trouble with a set of magnetic coils that wouldn't wind properly. When
the thing blew up I hadn't had any sleep for three nights, but that wasn't the
reason. That was normal around there. 1 was
normal then, just another communications man, a little bug-eyed about the kind
of research tinkering I liked, but without any of the crazy impractical
notions that had lost me my job afterward. They called it overwork. Only I know
they thought the explosion had disturbed my brain. I didn't blame them.
Sometimes I thought so myself. Or at least I'd have liked to think so.
It started one day in the lab with a shadow on the sun and^ an elusive short-circuit somewhere that kept
giving me shock after shock until I was dizzy. By the time I got it fixed—and I
never could figure out why that circuit
should have shorted—the oscillator had gone out of control, or so I thought. I
kept getting a series of low-frequency waves that were like nothing I'd ever
seen before. Then there was something like a voice, speaking out of a very old,
jerry-built crystal set—only there wasn't a radio receiver, or a speaker, anywhere in the lab, and nobody else
heard it. I wasn't sure myself, because right then, every instrument in the
place went haywire; and forty seconds later, part of the ceiling hit the floor,
and the floor went up through the roof. They found me, they say, half-crushed
under a beam. Anyway, I woke up in a hospital, with four cracked ribs, and
feeling as if I'd had a lot of voltage poured into me.
It
went down in the report that I'd been struck by lightning. They had to say
something.
It
took me a long time to get well. The ribs, and the other things, healed
fast—faster than the doctors liked. I didn't mind the hospital part, except
that I couldn't walk without shaking, or light a' cigarette without burning
myself, for weeks. The thing I minded was what I remembered from before I woke up.
Delirium.
That was what they told me. But the land and type of marks all over my body
didn't ring true. Electricity—even freak
lightning—doesn't make those kinds of burns. And this corner of the world doesn't
make a habit of branding people.
Only before I could show the marks to anyone
outside the hospital, they were gone. Not healed, just gone. I remember the
look on the intern's face when I showed him the spots where the burns had been.
He didn't think I was crazy. He thought he was.
There
was a psychiatrist sniffing around, too, putting forth slow, soothing
suggestions about psychosomatic medicine and hysterical stigmata, but that was
just for the record, too.
I
knew the lab hadn't been struck by lightning. The Major knew it, too. I found
that out the day I reported back to work. All the time we talked, his big pen
moved in stubby circles across the pages of his log-book,
and he talked without raising his head to look at me.
"I
know all that, Kenscott. No electrical storms reported in the vicinity, no radio disturbances within a thousand miles. But,"
his jaw was stubborn, "the lab was wrecked and you were hurt. We've got to
have something for the record."
I
could understand all that. What I resented was the way they treated me when I
went back to work. They transferred me to another division and another
project. They turned down my request to follow up research on those
low-frequency waves. My private notes were ripped out of my notebook while I
was at lunch, and I never saw them again. And as soon as they could, they
shipped me to Fairbanks, Alaska, and that was the end of that.
The
Major told me all I needed to know, the day before I took the plane to Alaska.
His scowl said more than his words, and they said plenty.
"I'd
let it alone, Kenscott. No sense stirring up more trouble. We can't monkey with
side alleys, anyhow. Next time, you might get your head blown off, not just a
dose of stray voltage out of the blue. We've done everything but stand on our
heads, trying to find out where that spare energy came from and where it
went."
"Then
you admit there was something!" That was more than I'd been
able to get from anyone else on the project.
"Unofficially, yes." The Major scowled, not looking at me. Then
it all came out in a single fast string of words. "What it boils down to
is that it shows up when you're around, and it doesn't show up when you're not around, and we don't know if it's fakery or poltergeists or ESP but we
don't want any more of it, whatever it is. We've marked that whole line of
research closed,
Kenscott. And if I were you
I'd call myself lucky and keep my mouth shut about it."
"It
wasn't a message from Mars," I suggested without smiling, and he didn't
think it was funny either. But there was relief on his face when I left the
office and went to clean out my drawer.
I
got along all right in Alaska, for a while. They put me on paperwork, routine
supervisory jobs, and ignored me when I tried to get back to the practical end
of it. And then they shipped me back to the States, with a discharge, and a
recommendation of a long rest. I tried to explain it to Andy:
"They
called it overwork. They said I needed rest. Maybe so.
The shock did something funny to me—tore me open-like the electric shock treatments
they give catatonic patients. I seem to know a lot of things I never learned.
Ordinary radio work doesn't seem to mean much to me any more. It doesn't make
sense. And every now and then something will start to make sense, and then doesn't. When people out West were talking about
Flying Saucers, whatever they were, and when there was all that talk about
atomic fallout changing the weather, and the cloud-seeding experiments, all
this sort of halfway made sense for a while. Only I kept expecting it to happen
without"—I moved my hand, helplessly, trying to put words to a random
impression—"without people having to go up there in planes and do anything about it. And when we came up here—" I paused, trying to
fit more confused impressions together. He wasn't going to believe me anyhow,
but I wanted him to. A tree slapped against the cabin window, and I jumped.
"It
started the day we came into the mountains. Energy out of nowhere, following me
around. It can't knock me out. Have you noticed that I let you turn the lights on and off? The day we came up hčre, I shorted my electric razor, "I rubbed my hand over a stubbled
face, "and I blew out five fuses trying to change one. Remember?"
"Yeah,
I remember: we had to drive in town for some more." My brother's eyes
rested uneasily on my face. "Mike, listen—you are kidding, aren't you?"
"I
wish I were," I said. "That energy just drains into me and nothing
happens. I'm immune." I shrugged, rose and walked to the Hallicrafter,
picked up the disconnected plug and thrust it into the socket. I snapped the
dial on. "Watch."
The
panel flashed and darkened; confused static came
crackling from the speaker. I took
my hand away.
"Turn it up,"
said Andy uneasily.
"It's already
up." My hand twiddled the dial.
"Try
another station," the kid insisted. I pushed each button in succession;
the static crackled and buzzed; the panel light flashed on and off in little
cryptic flashes. I said "And reception was fine at noon; you were
listening to the President's press conference." I took my hand away again.
"Okay, you try it."
Andy frowned, but he came over and switched
the button back on. The little panel light glowed steadily, and the mellow
voice of Milton Cross filled the room:
". . . orchestra in the Fifth, or Fate
Sympthony of Beethoven . . ."
And then the majestic chords of the
sympahony, thundering through the cabin:
"Ta-da-da-dwmm. . . . ta-da-da-DOOMI"
My brother stared at me as
racing woodwinds caught up with the brasses. There was nothing wrong with the
radio. I stood listening to the sound of fate. "Mike. What did you do to
it?"
"I
wish I knew." I reached out; touched the volume button briefly.
Beethoven died in a
muttering static of insane drums.
I
swore, and Andy sucked in his breath between his teeth, edging warily backward.
He stared at the radio and then at me, and then reached out and touched the
dial. Once more the smoothness of the "Fate" symphony rolled out into
the room and swallowed us. I shivered.
Andy said, shakily,
"Maybe you'd better let it alone."
The
kid turned in early, but I stayed in the main room, smoking, restless, wishing
I could get a drink without driving eighty miles over bad mountain roads.
Neither of us had thought to turn the radio off, and it was moaning out some
interminable, throbbing jazz. I turned my notes over restlessly, not really
seeing them.
Lightning
that wasn't lightning. Scars on my body—curious festering marks that the
psychiatrist had tried to tell me were psychosomatic. The cry of an eagle
wheeling above me—striking
savagely at my eyes, set to kill—and I deserved that death.
What
had I remembered, just then, when I went for the eagle with a hunting knife?
I
let my head sink in my hands, closing my eyes, trying to clear my mind of
surface things and remember . . . remember. . . .
Fantasy? Was
it fantasy that made me see a strange, cloaked form, and between the cloaked
form and me, a woman? A golden woman. . . .
Golden
hair, tiger-tawny, fell like silk around her shoulders; her eyes were golden,
wide open and fixed on me like the eyes of a great cat. She held something in
her hands.
Vision, dream, fantasy—abruptly
she was gone as Andy's voice came sleepily from the alcove: "Going to read
all night, Mike?"
"If
I feel like it," I said tersely, and began walking up and down again.
"Michael!
For the luwagod quit
that and let me get some
sleep," Andy exploded, and I sank into the armchair again. "Sorry, Andy."
Where
had the intangible part of me been, those hours and days while I lay crushed
under a fallen beam in the lab, then under morphine in the hospital? Where had
those scars come from—and where had they gone?
More
important—what had made a radio lab, of all places, explode like that?
Electricity can set fires, and radio waves, too intense, will inflict bums. Men
can be shocked into insensibility, or even killed, by electricity. But
electricity just doesn't explode.
And
what freak of lightning was I carrying in my body, that
made me immune to ordinary current? I hadn't told Andy about the time I'd
deliberately shorted the dynamo in the cellar and taken the whole current
through my body. I was still alive. It would have been a hell of a way to
commit suicide, but I hadn't.
I
swore, slamming down the window. I was going to bed. Andy was right; either I
was crazy, or else there was something wrong that ordinary doctors didn't know
about. Sitting here stewing about it wouldn't help. If it didn't let up, I'd
take the first train home and see another psychiatrist—and if that didn't help,
well, maybe I'd see a good electrician! But right now, I was going to hit the
sack.
My
hand went out automatically and switched off the light.
"Damn!"
I thought incredulously; I'd shorted the dynamo again. The radio stopped as if
the whole orchestra had dropped dead; every light in the cabin winked swiftly
out, but my hand on the switch crackled with a phosphorescent glow as the
entire house current poured through my body. I tingled with weird shock, heard
my own teeth chattering.
And
something snapped open in my brain. I heard, suddenly, an excited voice,
shouting.
"Rhys! Rhys! That is the man!"
CHAPTER TWO
"You
are mad," said the man with the tired voice.
I
was drifting. I was swaying, bodiless, over a vast abyss of caverned space;
chasmed, immense, limitless. Vaguely, through that humming distance, I could
hear two voices. This one was old, and very tired.
"You are mad. They
will know. Narayan will know."
"Narayan
is a fool," said the second voice. There was something hauntingly familiar
about that voice. I had heard it before. Where?
"Narayan
is the Dreamer," the tired voice said, "he is the Dreamer, and where
the Dreamer walks they will know. But have it your way. I am old, and it does
not matter. I give you this freely to spare you, and to spare Gamine what must
come."
"Gamine—"
the second voice stopped. After a long silence, "Yok are old and also a fool, Rhys. What is Gamine
to me?"
Bodiless,
blind, I drifted and swayed and swung in the sound of the voices. The humming,
like a million high-tension wires, sang around me, and I felt myself cradled in
the pull of something like a giant
magnet, that held me suspended securely on nothingness, and drew me down into
the field of some force below—above—elsewhere. Far
below me the voices faded, and as if their sound had removed some invisible and
intangible support, I swung free—fell-plunged downward in sickening motion,
head-over-heels into the abyss. . . .
And
yet, through all this, 1 was conscious of standing motionless, my hand on the
light-switch in the cabin—and yet I was falling through nowhere space. . . .
My
feet struck hard flooring with a kind of snap. I wrenched back to full consciousness with a
jolt. Winds blew cold in my face: the cabin walls had been flung back to the
high-lying stars. I was standing at a barred window at the very pinnacle of a
tall tower, in the lap of a weird blueness that arched flickeringly in the
night. I caught a glimpse of a startled face, a lean tired old face beneath a high, peaked hood, in the moment before my
knees gave way and I fell, striking my head against the bars of the window.
I was lying somewhere in the dark. I had no awareness of myself as Mike
Kenscott; instead my mind was filled with a nightmarish fear and urgency. There was something I had to do, a warning
I had to give. . . . and I was horribly afraid.
I stirred and around me the darkness thinned
and grew paler; I could see, dimly, shapes and forms. I rose, with the fluid
motion of movement in a dream, passed through a strangely arched door and into a dim-lighted
corridor, burning with blue fluorescence. My own breath was loud in the
silence, but I heard no footsteps. I knew I must be very still and keep to the
edges of the corridors, and at the same time something angry and proud in me
told me to walk fearless and unafraid.
The corridor was long, but I felt no fatigue. Twice I passed strange forms, feeling no curiosity about their strange cloaked
and muffled shapes; I knew somehow that they could not see me. I paused before
a bolted door, and the frightened part of myself
stopped, feeling dreamish panic. Then I felt myself raise my hands, making
curious gestures. The door slid noiselessly back and I passed through.
The
room was dark and empty, with a great window opening on starred night. Here and there around the walls hung strange limp winged forms.
Without hesitation I went to the wall and lifted down one of the things. . . .
A cloak? A dead bird? I felt
feathers, pinions, limp and lifeless; a curious fear sucked under my
breastbone. Some tiny packed-away part of me screamed, What am I doing? But without hesitating, I drew the dark feathered thing over my head. . . .
There
was a strange, suspended, timeless moment when I floated, bodiless, a mere
point of consciousness in space. Then, fumbling, I found my body again, moving
the feet carefully to a low couch; supporting myself with my hands, I lowered
myself and lay down. There was a strange pull to my body, an awful tugging as
if the essential me was struggling to get out, to free myself from tangled
heavy clothes. I knew somehow that I dared not yield yet to this struggle for
freedom. Carefully, painfully, I lowered myself to the couch, straightened my
body into a careful line, drew a deep breath . . .
And
suddenly I was out and away, rising up with a great flapping of wings, soaring
on the rhythmic beat of pinions. My arms—my arms were great wings,
and all around me was empty sky and cold fresh winds.
Flying!
The oldest dream of mankind—but this was no dream! I could feel the cold sting
of the wind, laden with sprinkles of dampness. Dark as it was, my eyes swept
down from the dizzy height and saw below me a vast tract of wooded country.
Colors were filtered out in the moonlight, but far, far below me I saw a tower
rising and the great black yawning window from which I had come.
Nightmarish
haste beat at me; I felt my bird-body stretch itself into an arrow-straight
line, felt the pinions extend themselves into regular beating. I was flying
Eastward, over the woodland, seeing below me little roads and pathways, isolated
dwellings and farmland, feeling the wind in my face.
It
seemed hours that I flew, but I felt no fatigue, and the time seemed strangely
telescoped, so that it might have been minutes or days. I passed the woodland,
flying over hills and valleys, until at last, far below me, a cluster of tents
and dwellings showed like dark shadows in the fading moonlight.
I
banked against the breeze, began to fly downward in slow spirals. The
freshening breeze in my eyes, the strengthening light, told me that dawn was
near; the birdbody seemed tireless, the heart beating as strongly as an
insensate machine, but I—the intangible me—felt fear and exhaustion and dread.
I knew that the dawn brought danger for me; but I was not sure why.
Down,
and down. A red line of light against the horizon crept and strengthened,
giving color to the green meadow-land below. Now I could see the tents clearly,
and the men who were moving around them, coming out into the dawn.
Too lato! I cried out and heard my voice a high, eerie
fnlcon-scroiiin; I had been seen. Below me the forms of the men clustered,
broke into groups, cried out and pointed upward.
"One
of their accursed spies!"
I
saw a big man, formless in the dawn and featureless,
kneel down, something like a crossbow athwart his chest. Suddenly fear gave way
to rage. He dared! Wheeling, darting with a speed that amazed me, that made the
ground below me into a blur, I plunged downward. The men scattered, crying out,
and I heard my soundless laughter explode into another eerie bird-cry. ...
An arrow sang shrilly by me; another.
Swiftly, automatically, I eluded them, but fear and wonder were rising in me.
What was I doing here? Why had I come? Why were they shooting at me when I had
come to warn . . . to warn. . . .
To
warn—whom?
I saw the crossbow bolt speeding toward me,
desperately beat wings to one side—too latel I braced myself for the shock.
The
arrow went into my breast. Strangely, I felt no pain, only a curious sense of
pressure; a tingling snap and a painful shock. I felt my wings go limp,
collapse, heard a great outcry from the men below, joy and triumph and
exaltation. I was falling. . ..
With no sense of elapsed time, I was lying on
a narrow high bed, in a room filled with doors and bars. I could see the edge
of a carved mirror set in a frame, and the top of a chest of some sort. It was
not the room where I had found—or dreamed?—the limp feather-forms. It was
lighted with bright sunlight, and on a bench at the edge of my field of vision,
two figures were seated.
One
was an old man, an old, old, gray man in a high peaked hood, hunched wearily
beneath the cowl of a robe like a Tibetan lama's. Briefly I
had seen the face beneath the cowl, heard the old, tired voice, in the moment
before plunging into that strange dream?—of flight.
The other was a slimmer, younger figure,
swathed in silken, silvery-blue veiling, with a thin opacity where the face
should have been, and a sort of pale shining of flesh through the silken
sapphire of the veils. The figure was that of a slim boy or an immature girl;
it sat erect, motionless, and for a long time I watched it, curious, between
half-opened lids. But when at last I blinked, it rose, and passed through one
of the multitudinous doors; almost at once, a soft sibilance of draperies
announced its return.
I
sat up, getting my feet to the floor or almost there; the bed on which I was
lying was higher than a hospital bed. The blue-robed creature gave me a handled
mug, like a baby's drinking-cup; I took it hesitantly between my fingers.
"Neither
drug nor poison," said the blue-robe mockingly, and the voice was as
noncommittal as the veiled body; a sexless voice, soft alto, a woman's or a
boy's. "Drink, and be glad it is none of Karamy's brewing."
I
tasted the liquid in the mug. It had an indeterminate greenish look, and a
faint pungent taste I could not identify, though it reminded me variously of
anis and garlic. It seemed to remove the last traces of shock. I handed it back
empty and looked sharply at the old man in lama costume, who had not moved at
all, or even raised his eyes to look at me.
"You're—Rhys?"
I said. "Where in hell have I gotten to now?" At least, that's what I
meant to say. Imagine my surprise when I heard myself asking in a language I'd
never heard before, but understood perfectly, "To which of the nine hells
of Zandru have I now been consigned?"
At
the same time I became conscious of what I was wearing. I wouldn't have been
surprised to see feathers—if I was still dreaming—but there weren't any. I was
wearing what seemed to be an old-fashioned nightshirt, chopped off an inch or
so below the loins, and deep crimson in color. "Red flannels, yet!" I
thought with a gulp of dismay, and checked my impulse to get out of bed. I
didn't know how I'd come here, or who had put me into the thing, but I wasn't
going to stand around in a red nightshirt!
"You
might have the decency to explain where I am," I said, "and how I got
here."
The
tiredness seemed part of Rhys' voice. "Adric," he said wearily,
"try to remember. You are in your own Tower. And you have been under
restraint again. I am sorry." His voice sounded futile. I felt prickling
shivers run down my backbone. In spite of the weird surroundings, the phrase
"Under restraint" had struck home. I was a lunatic and locked up
somewhere!
The blue-robe cut in, in that smooth,
sexless, faintly-sarcastic voice, "While Karamy holds the keys to his
memory, Rhys, you will be explaining it to him a dozen times in a cycle. He
will never be of any use to us again. This time, Karamy won. Adric try to
remember. You are at home, in Narabedla."
It
sounded like Bedlam; and it looked like it. I shook my head. Nightshirt or no
nightshirt, I'd face this on my feet.
I
felt better standing up. I walked to Rhys; put my clenched hands on his
shoulders. "Explain this! Who am I supposed to be? Where am I? You called
me Adric. I'm no more Adric than you are!"
"Adric,
you are not amusing!" The blue-robe's voice was edged with anger.
"Use what intelligence Karamy has left you! You have had enough sharig antidote to cure a tharV Now,- who are you?"
The
words were all but meaningless. I stared, trapped, and let my hands fall away
from the old man. "Adric," I said, bewildered. No. I was Mike
Kenscott. Hang on to that. Michael Warren Kenscott. Cabin in
the Sierras. Fishing holiday with my brother Andy.
Andy! Two times two are four. The circumference
equals pi times the diameter. Four rulls is the chemming—stop that! Mike Kenscott. Army serial
number 13-48746. I cradled my bursting head in my hands.
"I'm
crazy. Or you are. Or we're both sane and this monkey business is all
real."
"It
is real," Rhys said, compassion in his tired
voice. "He has been very far on the Time Ellipse, Gamine; never have I
searched so far. Adric, you must try to understand. This was Karamy's work. She
sent you out on a time-line, very far, very far into the past. Into a time when the world was different. She hoped you
would come back changed, or mad. Or perhaps she simply wanted to punish
you." "Punish me for what? Who is—"
The weary, hunched
shoulders went up and then down.
"How
can I say what is between you and Karamy? Must I concern myself with that,
too?" His eyes were dim, withdrawn. "I have
done what I can. Now I must return to my own tower—or die. I have long
outstayed my leave. Gamine will you explain?"
"I
will." A hint of emotion flickered in the neutral voice of the
blue-robe—Gamine? "Go, Ancient."
Rhys
left the room, silently, without turning back, or a word of farewell. Gamine turned impatiently
to me again. "We waste time this way. Fool, look at yourself."
I
strode to a mirror that lined one of the doors. Above the crimson nightshirt I
sought for my own familiar face and the sight rocked my reason. Out of the
mirror a man's face looked anxiously but the face of a stranger.
I
clutched at the frame of the mirror with one hand. The man in the mirror did
the same, as if in panicky striving to climb out of there. The face that was
not mine was eagle-thin, darkly moustached, with sharp green eyes; and the body
belonging to the face was lean and long and strongly muscled and not quite
human. I squeezed my eyes shut. This couldn't bel
I opened my eyes. The man in the red
nightshirt I was wearing was still reflected in the mirror, and he looked
scared as hell. He was.
I
turned my back on the mirror, walking to one of the barred windows to look down
on the familiar outline of the Sierra Madre, a hundred miles away. I couldn't
be mistaken. I knew
those mountains.
But between me and the mountains lay a thickly forested expanse of land, which was like no scenery I had ever
seen in my life. Or
had I seen it in that dream of flying? Dream?
The bars, I saw now, were not bars, but
ornamental grilles; they opened, at a touch, onto a high balcony floored with
blue slate. I was standing near the pinnacle of a high tower; I dimly saw the curve of another, just out of my line of vision, hardly
more than a shadow. The whole landscape below me was bathed in a curiously
pinkish light; through a heavy, overcast sky I could just make out, dimly, the
shadowy disc of a watery red sun. Then—no, I wasn't dreaming, I really did see
it—beyond it, higher in the sky and pale through the clouds, a second sun, so
blindingly blue-white brilliant that even through the thick cloud-cover I had to squeeze my eyes shut and look away.
It
was proof enough for me. I turned desperately to Gamine behind me. "Where
have I gotten to? Where—when
am I? Two suns—but I know those mountains."
The
veiled face turned up to mine, question in the tilt of the shrouded head. What
I had thought a veil was not that; it was more like a shimmering screen wrapped
around the features, so that Gamine was faceless; an invisible person with
substance but no recognizable characteristics. Yes, it was like that; as if an
invisible person were wearing the curious silken drapery. But the invisible
flesh was solid enough; fingers like warm steel gripped my shoulder:
"You
have been back—back to the days before the second sun? Adric tell me, was there
truly only one sun, before the Cataclysm?"
"Wait," I begged,
"You mean I've traveled in time?"
The exaltation slowly faded
from Gamine's voice.
"Never mind. It is improbable in any case that you would remember enough—no, Adric,
not really traveling. You were sent out on the Time Ellipse; you must have contacted
someone in that Other Time. Perhaps the contact lasted so long that you feel
yourself someone else."
"But
I'm not Adric!" I raged. Suddenly the words I had heard, in that sudden
opening of my mind, came back to me: That is the man. The
voice I now knew for Rhys had called him Adric.
"Adric
sent me here, somehow! Maybe this is his body, but-"
I
saw the blurring around Gamine's invisible features twitch. "It's never
been proven that two minds can be interchanged that way. Adric's
body—Adric's brain. The brain convolutions, the memory centers, the
habit patterns—all those are part of the physical brain. You'd still be Adric.
The idea that you are someone else is only an illusion of the conscious mind.
It will wear off. You stayed too long, Adric."
I
shook my head, puzzled. I was Mike Kenscott. I hung on to that, desperately.
"I still don't believe it. Where am I?"
Gamine
moved impatiently. "Oh, very well. You aré Adric of Narabedla,- and—if you are yourself
again—Lord of the Crimson Tower."
"And who are
you?"
"You don't remember
me?"
"I don't."
"I am Gamine. I am a spell-singer—and
other things."
I
jerked my elbow toward the window. "Those are my own mountains out
there," I said roughly, "but I'm not Adric, whoever he is. My name is
Mike Kenscott, and all your hanky-panky doesn't impress me. Take off that veil,
and let me see your face."
"I
wish you meant that," a mournfulness breathed in
Gamine's soft contralto. "If I dared believe—"
A
sudden fury blazed up in me from nowhere; without volition I took one step
forward, and heard my own voice, shouting.
"What is it to you what I mean? What right have you to pry for that old fool Rhys? Get back to
your own place, Spell-singer, before you find that ■ Karamy has not all
the magic in Narabedlal"
I
broke off, appalled. What was I saying? Worse, what did I mean by it? Gamine
turned; the sexless voice was merely amused. "Adric spoke then. Whoever
sits in the seat of your soul, Adric, you are the same and past
redemption!" The iridescent draperies whispered on the flooring as Gamine
moved toward the doorway. "Karamy is welcome to her slave!"
The door slammed.
Left
alone, I flung myself down on the high bed, stubbornly concentrating on Mike
Kenscott, shutting out the vague and blurring mystery that was Adric impinging
on my consciousness. I had spoken Adric's words. At least, they were not my
words. But I was not Adric! I would not be! I dared not go to the window, and
look out at the terrifying two suns, not even to see again the familiar,
reassuring outline of the mountains, lest seeing them I should begin to believe
. . .
But
persistently the Adric memories came, a guilty feeling of a shirked duty, a
frightened face—a real face, not a blurred nothingness—beneath Gamine's blue
veil. Memory of strange hunts and a big bird borne on the
pommel of a high saddle. A bird hooded like a falcon, in
crimson. . . .
Consciousness
of dress made me aware of the—nightshirt?—I still wore. Moving swiftly,
without deliberate thought, I found myself going to a door and sliding it open.
I pulled out some garments and quickly dressed in them. They went on easily,
strange though they were—tights, high gaiters, a laced tunic and
overblouse—when I did not stop to think about what I was doing. Every garment
in the closet was the same color, a deep-toned crimson, although some were
edged with dark fur and a few were embroidered with gold or silver threads. A
phrase Gamine had used broke the surface of my mind, like a leaping fish; Lord
of the Crimson Tower. Well, I looked it.
There
were knives and swords in the closet; I took down one to look at it, and before
I realized what I was about, I had
belted it across my hip. I stared, decided to let it remain. It looked just
about right with the rest of the costume. It felt right, too. I was stepping
back to get a better look when another door folded noiselessly back and a man
stood looking at me.
He
was young, and he would have been handsome in an effeminate sort of way, had
his face been less arrogant. Lean, somehow catlike, it was easy to determine
that he was akin to Adric, and to me, even before habit and memory fitted a
name to him, and an identity.
"Evarin," I said.
He came forward, moving so softly that for an
uneasy moment I wondered if he had pads like a cat's on his feet. He wore deep
green from head to foot, similar in cut and material to the garments that
clothed me. His face had a flickering, as if he could, at a moment's notice, raise about himself a barrier of invisibility like that
which surrounded Gamine. He didn't look as human as I—as Adric.
"I
have seen Gamine," he said. "I'm told you are awake, and as sane as
you ever were. And we of Narabedla are not so strong that we can afford to
waste even a broken tool like yourself. So welcome
home, brother!"
Wrath—Adric's
wrath—boiled up in me; it was an unnerving experience to feel myself boiling
with rage against a man I'd never consciously seen before. I felt myself step
forward, felt my hand grip around the hilt of my sword. Evarin moved lithely
backward.
"I
am not Gamine," he warned, "nor to be served as
Gamine was served. Be careful!" He made no move to touch the knife
in his belt.
"Be careful yourself," I muttered, not knowing what else
I
could have said. Evarin drew back his thin lips into a smile. "Why? You have been sent out on
the Time Ellipse until you are only a shadow of yourself. But I did not come
here for a quarrel, and all this is beside the point. Karamy says you are to be
freed, so the seals are off all the doors, and the Crimson Tower is no longer a
prison to you. Come and go as you please—at Karamy's bidding." His lips
formed a sneer. "If you call that freedom."
I said slowly, "You
don't think I'm crazy?"
"Except
where Karamy is concerned, you never were," Evarin said. "What is
that to me? I have all I could desire. The Dreamer gives me good hunting,
slaves enough to do my bidding, and as for the rest—I am the Toymaker. I need
little else. But you—" his voice leaped with sudden contempt, "you
who were so powerful—now you ride Time at Karamy's bidding, and your Dreamer
walks waiting the coming of his power that he may destroy us all one day!"
I
stared somberly at Evarin; the words meant little to me, a jumble about Karamy
again and Dreamers, and yet they seemed to wake an almost personal shame in me.
Were emotions, then, only a habit of the mechanical synapses of the brain? Had
they no connection with the person I was, Mike Kenscott? Or was I mad—feeling
the emotions of a person called Adric, shame and regret and fear over things I'd never
done, or dreamed of doing?
Evarin
watched me, and his face lost some of its bitterness. He seemed little more
than a boy. He said quietly; "The falcon flown cannot be recalled. I came
only to tell you that you are free." He turned, shrugging his thin
shoulders that seemed somehow misshapen, and walked to
the high grilled window. "As I say, if you call that
freedom."
I
followed him to the window. The mists were clearing; the two suns shone with
blinding brilliance, and I had to turn my eyes away from the sky. By looking
far to the left, I could see a line of rainbow-tinted towers rising, tall and
delicate, yet massive, capped with slender spires. The nearest seemed to be
made of jeweled blue, some stone that gleamed in the light like lapis lazuli;
one, clear emerald green; others were golden, flame-orange, violet. They formed
a semicircle about a wooded park, and beyond them the familiar skyline of the
mountains tugged other memories. The blinding sky held no hint of blue, but was
colorless as sunlight on ice. Abruptly I turned my back on it all.
Evarin
murmured "Narabedla. Last of the Rainbow Cities. Adric how long now?"
I was trying to make sense of the names he had
spoken. "Karamy—" I said hesitatingly, but Evarin took it for a question.
"Karamy
can wait. Better for you if she waited forever," he said with that
soundless laughter. "Come along with me, or Gamine will be back. You don't
want to see Gamine, do you?" He sounded anxious, and I shook my head. No.
Emphatically, I did not want to see that insidious spook again.
He
looked relieved. "Come along, then. If I know Gamine, you're pretty well
muddled—amnesiac. I'll explain. After all," his voice mocked, "could
I do less, for my only brother?"
He thrust open the door, gesturing for me to lead the way.
Instinctively I drew back, telling myself it was only because I did not know which way to go. He laughed soundlessly and preceded me,
and I followed, letting the door slide shut.
We
went down stairs and more stairs, and I walked along at Evarin's side,
wondering with some surface part of my thoughts why I was not more panicky. I
was a stranger in an incredible world, wearing another man's clothes, called by
his name, led around by his friends, or his enemies—how could I tell which? And
yet I had the fantastic calmness with which men do incredible things in a
dream. I was simply taking one step after another, surrendering myself
to-Gamine had called them habits, memory patterns embedded in the convolutions
of the brain. Patterns? I had Adric's body and
presumably his brain. It seemed to know what to do. Only a superficial me, an
outer ego, was still a strange, muddled Mike Kenscott.
The
subconscious Adrie was guiding me. I let him ride. I felt it would be wise to
be very much Adric around Evarin, though he seemed friendly enough.
We
stepped into an elevator shaft which went down, curved around corners with a speed
that threw me against the wall, then, slowly, began to rise. I had long since
lost all sense of direction. Abruptly the door of the shaft opened, and we
began to walk along a long, dimly-lighted corridor.
The corridor of my dream?
From somewhere we heard singing; a voice
somewhere in the range of a trained boy's voice or a woman's mature contralto. Gamine's voice. I could make no sense of the words, but
Evarin halted, swearing.
I
thought the faraway voice sang my name, but I could not tell. "What is it,
Evarin?"
He
gave a short exclamation, the sense of which was lost on me. "Come along.
It is only the spell-singer singing old Rhys back to sleep. You waked him this
time, did you not? I wonder Gamine permitted it. He is very near his last sleep old Rhys. I think you will send him there soon."
Without
giving me a chance to answer—and indeed I had no answer ready—Evarin pulled me
into another shaft which began immediately to rise with us. Eventually we
stepped out into a room at the top of another tower, a room lavishly, even
garishly furnished. Evarin flung himself down on a divan, gesturing me to
follow his example.
"Now tell me, where in Time has Karamy
sent you now?"
"Karamy?" I asked tentatively.
Evarin's
raucous laugh rang out again. "Can you really be as confused as you sound?
Ai, what a joke it would be on Karamy, if it were sol The Witch of the Golden
Tower destroys your memory—even your memories of her!" He flung back his head, shaking with that
eerie laughter.
Then,
suddenly quieting, he said with an odd air of confiding, "My one demand
of the Dreamer is freedom from that witch's spells. We in the Rainbow City
should at least leave one another free. Some day—some day I shall fashion a Toy
for her, and she will discover that the Toymaker of Narabedla is to be reckoned
with. I demand little of the Dreamers, Zandru knows, I do not care to pay their
price. But Karamy does not care what price she pays, so—" a spreading
movement of his hands, "she has power over everyone, except me. She had
power to send you out on the Time Ellipse. I wonder who brought you back?"
It
was beginning to make an eerie sort of sense. Somehow, Adric had incurred the
wrath of Karamy, who was a "witch of the Golden Tower," whatever that was, and she had sent him out of his body. Someone, in trying to bring
him back, had snared—me.
But
I wasn't going to tell Evarin that. Something deep inside me knew that a
confession of weakness or fear would be a catastrophe. I only shook my head.
"Anyhow,
I'm back," I said. "Though I don't remember
much."
"You
remember me," Evarin said. "I wonder why she left you that? Karamy never trusted me."
And
she was right not to trust him. The thought came out of that reservoir of knowledge that I could not tap
at will, but nevertheless welled up in me. I said "Only your name. Nothing more."
Because
Evarin, I knew, was never ten minutes the same. He
would profess friendship at one minute, and mean it; ten minutes later, still
in friendship and with no malice in him, he would flay the skin from my body
and count it only an exquisite joke. He seemed to follow my thoughts, laughing.
"Still, you know my name, and that is
something—bare
is brotherless back, and
that goes for me as much as for you, Adricl Tell me what you have
forgotten."
Could
I trust him with my terrible puzzlement? How much could I, as Adric—and I must be Adric to him, for that was my only safety, his wary respect for Adric
and what Adric might do—how much could I, as Adric, get along without knowing?
And how many questions could I dare to ask without betraying my own
helplessness?
"I've
been out of my body too long," I said at last. "I can't remember." One thing, at least, I
had to know, "What are the Dreamers?"
That
had been the wrong question. I knew it as soon as it escaped my lips. His eyes
altered; he felt safer with me, now.
"Zandru,
Adric, you have been far indeed," he said, "You must have been back
before the Cataclysm."
I had, whatever the Cataclysm was. But I only nodded.
"Well,
our forefathers, after the Cataclysm, built the Rainbow Cities, and made the
Compact that killed the machines. In the Rainbow Cities, we who could be
trusted with power, lived and ruled as we had always lived and ruled; but the
Compact made it certain that lesser men would never again be able to defy us.
Oh, there were a few idealists who said that we were reducing them to
barbarism. They didn't understand!" Evarin sounded passionately excited.
"It was only that we kept them safe—safe from powers they only abusedl They live simply, as common men are meant to live, and they
cannot meddle with arts and powers beyond their understanding!"
He looked at me as if in challenge, but I
said nothing, and Evarin got up and began to pace the floor restlessly.
"What are the Dreamers? No one knows;
they do not know, themselves. They were men once. At
least, they are bom from men and women. Mendel knows what caused them. But one
in every ten thousand men is born such a freak—a Dreamer."
"Mutations?" I said the word only to myself; Evarin did not hear. He went on:
"Some
say that they were caused by the Cataclysm itself; others, that they are the
souls of the dead machines. They are human and not human. They are telepaths.
They have power; they can control everything: things, minds, people.
They can throw illusions around men and things—they contested our rule."
He
sat down again, brooding, quiet. "A dozen generations ago, here in
Rainbow City, one of our people managed to bind the Dreamers. We could not kill
them—they can protect themselves, I do not know how—for the weapon aimed at
them must fall; the blow turned upon them recoils upon the striker. But he
learned how to bind them, in sleep, make them harmless to us. That in itself might have been enough. But then we discovered that
as they slept— and dreamed—they could be forced to give up their powers. To us. So that we controlled their powers, could wield their
magic." There was a glimpse of horror behind his eyes as he said,
"For a price. The price you know."
I kept silent. I did not know the price. I wanted Evarin to go on.
He
shivered a little, shook his head, and the horror
vanished.
"So each of us in Rainbow City has a
Dreamer who gives up his powers—for the price appointed—so that his master can
do as he wills. And
after years and years, as the Dreamer grows old and feeble, his powers wane,
and then they can be killed. As they grow older and weaker, it is even safe to
let them wake but never too strongly, or too long."
He
laughed, bitterly. A fury came from nowhere into his face.
"And you loosed a
Dreamer!" he cried. "A Dreamer with all his powers hardly come upon
himl He is harmless as yet, but he waked, and he walksl And
one day the power will come upon him and he will destroy us all!"
Evarin's
thin features were drawn with despair, not arrogant now, but filled with fear
and pain. "A Dreamer," he sighed, "and you had been made one
with him already! Can you see now why we do not trust you, brother?"
Without
answering, I rose and went to the window. This tower room did not look down
into the neat little park, but on a vast tract of wild country. Far away,
curious trails of smoke spiraled up into the abnormally bright sunshine, but a
thick, cottony fog lay over the bottomland. There was a shine of lakes, patches
of forest, bare hills. Against the sky I saw a bird wheeling, silent, hovering against the wind.
"Down
there," said Evarin in a low voice, following me to the window, "down
there the Dreamer walks and waits to destroy us all. Down there—"
But I did not hear the
rest, for my mind completed it.
Down
there is my lost memory. Down there is my life.
Somewhere
down there I had left my soul.
CHAPTER THREE
I turned from the window. "Rhys is a Dreamer," I said, with slow certainty. "What is Gamine?"
Evarin
nodded, ignoring the question. "Rhys is a Dreamer, yes," he said.
"He is old now, so old he is near to mortal. So he wakes, and he walks.
But once he was one of us, the only Dreamer ever born within Rainbow City. He
will not harm his kindred; he is of our blood." Evarin cleared his throat.
"So that Gamine takes what knowledge can be had from his old, old mind. And does not pay." "But Gamine?"
Evarin
still hestiated. "Karamy hates Gamine," he said at last, "and so
no one sees Gamine's face. I ask no questions and I would not advise you to
ask, unless you ask Karamy." A smile flickered on his mobile mouth.
"Ask Karamy," he said gleefully. "She will tell!"
Karamy. She
had been mentioned many times now, this Witch of the Golden Tower. Perhaps her
memory lay in the same deep well that had fitted name and identity to Evarin
when he stood before me. But it seemed safe to ask, "Why does Karamy hate
Gamine?"
"My
brother, if you cannot answer that, who can? Gamine
and I have little love for one another, but on one thing we agree that Karamy's
procession of slaves is monstrous, and that you are a fool, and worse, to pay
for her desires. Karamy is far too fond of power in her own hands to pay to put
it into yours. She has won every struggle between you so far— or why were you
sealed within your own tower?"
"But I'm free
now," I said.
He
surveyed me, curiously. "Yes. It's possible you might be stronger than I
think. If so, we might join forces, you and I, if you think Karamy is too
strong for our good. I can help you recover your memory." Evarin's
prowling footsteps made no noise as he came to my side. "See, I have made
you a Toy."
He
put something small and hard into my hand, a thing wrapped in silvery silks. I
raised my hand curiously, untwisting the wrappings. They were smooth and
colorless with a bluish cast, like Gamine's veiling, like no other fabric I had seen before.
Evarin
backed slowly away from me. For an instant all I could see was a sort of
blurred invisibility, like Gamine's face through the veil; then a sort of
mirror surface became visible. It did not seem to reflect anything; rather, it
was a coldly shining surface, cloudy, glittering from within. I bent to examine
the pattern of the shadows that moved on the surface. There was a curious pull
from the mirror, a cold that crept sluggishly through my hand, a familiar, soothing cold. My eyes bent closer—
A
faint movement distracted me; Evarin was watching me, avid, eager, intent.
Recognition crashed suddenly in my mind. Evarin's deadly Toysl I dashed the
thing to the floor, giving it a savage kick. The blurred invisibility wavered;
I caught sight of a tiny jeweled mechanism before the thing sprang back to
blurring gray ice again. Evarin had backed halfway across the room; I leaped at
him and collared him.
"My memory's not that bad," I grated. "Damn you,
111 tie the thing to your throatl"
Evarin's
mouth twisted; suddenly his whole face writhed Into a blur and I felt his whole
substance evaporate from between my hands; I backed away just in time as he
materialized, whole and deadly, too close.
"I
go guarded," he jerked out. "My Dreamer does not wake I"
He
stooped for the fallen Toy; I kicked it out of his reach, bent to retrieve it.
"I'll keep this," I said, and wadded the insulating silks around it,
thrusting it into a pocket. Ev-nrin glared at me, helplessly. Suddenly the rage
in his face gave way to malicious laughter and he stood rubbing his bruised
shoulder, laughing and laughing. "Well, it was a good tryl"
"Yes,"
I said, not laughing, "but this will stay in my
pocket, and you'll stay solid for a while now, anyway! Toy-maker! Damned freak!" I stormed out of the room, slamming the
door behind me.
Now that Adric was back in control, I had no
trouble discovering where I wanted to go. Some blind instinct led me through
the maze of elevators, corridors, staircases. I passed servants quarters,
kitchens, rooms full of things which I dismissed with a bare glance of
disinterested familiarity. I would have been hopelessly lost if I had stopped
to think where I was going, but finally I found myself in the open, the
semicircle of rainbow towers rising around me.
Overhead
the suns, red and white, sent a curious double-shadowed fight through the
neatly-trimmed trees. A little day-moon, smaller than any moon I had ever seen,
peered over the shoulder' of the violet tower. The grass under my feet was just
grass, but the brightly-tinted flowers in mathematically regular beds were
strange to me; huge, fleshy, too bright. Paths, bordered by narrow ditches to
keep the pedestrians off the flowers, wandered in and out of this strange
lawn. I accepted all this without conscious thought, but some scrap of memory
made me avoid the ditches most carefully. As I remembered, there was an
extremely practical reason for them.
Faint,
shrill music tugged siren-like at my ears, wordless, like Gamine's crooning.
Staring, I realized that the flowers sang. The singing flowers of Karamy's
garden—Adric remembered their lotus song. A song of welcome?
Or of danger?
I
was not alone in the garden. Men, kilted and belted
in. the same gaudy red and gold as the flowers, passed and repassed restlessly,
unquiet as chained flames. For a moment the old vanity turned uppermost in my
mind. For all her slaves, Karainy paid homage to the Lord of the Crimson Towerl
Paid—would continue to payl
The
men passed me, silent. They wore swords, but their swords were blunt, like
children's toys. They were a regiment of zombies, of corpses. Their very
salutes as I passed were jerky, mechanical.
A
high note sang suddenly in the flowers; I felt, not heard,
the empty parading cease. In a weird ballet they ranged themselves into blind
lines that filed away nowhere. They were toy-soldiers, all alike.
And
between the backs of the toy-soldiers and the patterned flowers I saw a man
running. Another me, from another world, thought briefly of the card-soldiers,
flat on their faces in the Alice-in-Wonderland garden of the Queen. Wonderland. I heard myself say, with half-conscious
amusement, They all look so much alike until you turn
them over."
The
man running between the ditched flower-beds was no dummy from a pack of cards.
He wore dark breeches and a dark shirt, and he moved quickly and lightly. I
heard the high shrilling note again from the flowers—the flowers? Staring, I
realized that the man held a whistle between his teeth, and it was this,
blended into the flower-song, which gave the shrill note. He beckoned, still
running, leaped over a ditch
and came to rest near me.
"Adric!"
he called softly, "Karamy walks here. Just listen to the flowers! I was
afraid I'd have to get all the way into the Tower to find you and Narayan couldn't
guard me that far!"
He
raised his hand, the whistle in it, and blew a soft, liquid trill, which blended into the purring flower-tones. Then,
drawing a deep breath, he said matter-of-factly, "Aldones! Am I glad to
see you! Narayan said he knew you
were free, but none of us quite believed it. He's outside the gates. He sent me
to help. Come on!"
The
sight of the man touched another of those live-wires in my brain. Narayan. The name hit another, a dull chord of fear, of dread and danger.
But
I had come straight from Evarin. I knew the man. I knew the response he
expected, but that brief glance into the Toymaker's mirror?—had" set up a
chain of actions I could not control. I tried to put out my hand in friendly
greeting, and felt instead, with horror, my fingers at my sword-belt. I tried,
without success, to halt the sword that flew, without volition, from its
sheath.
The
man backed away, eyes full of terror. "Adric—no— the Sign—" he held
up one hand, deprecatingly, then shrieked with agony,
bent double, clutching at the severed fingers. I heard my own voice, savage,
inhuman, the thin laughter of Evarin snarling through it:
"Sign? There's a
sign for you!"
The
man flung himself out of range, but his face, convulsed with anguish, held
more stunned bewilderment than anything else. "Adric—Narayan swore to us
that you were— you were yourself again."
I
forced my sword back into its sheath. It didn't seem to want to go; I had to
struggle as if it were a live thing, writhing out like a serpent. I stared
without comprehension at the wound I had not wanted to inflict, at the darting
heads of the flowers behind the man. I could not kill this man who had the name
of Narayan on his tongue.
The
flowers twitched, stirred, threw long, ropy tendrils out toward the man's bleeding
hand. A quick nausea tightened my throat.
"Run!"
I said urgently, "Run, or I can't—" The flowers shrilled. The man
threw back his head, eyes wide with panic, and screamed.
"Karamy! Aieee!" He staggered back wildly,
teetering on the edge of the little ditch; I cried another warning, incoherent,
too late. He trod on the flowers, stumbled across the little ditch. The
writhing flower-heads shot up shoulder-high. They screamed, a wild paean of
flower-music, and he fell among them, floundering, sprawling. I heard him
scream once, harshly, hopelessly. I turned my eyes away. There was a wild
thrashing, a flailing, a horrible yell that died and
echoed against the walls of the enclosing towers. There was a sort of purring
murmur from the flowers.
Then the flowers stilled and were quiet,
waving innocently behind their ditches.
Karamy,
gold and fire, walked along the winding path between the trees. And in the
space of a second I forgot the man who lay in the bed of the terrible flowers.
She
was all gold. From the glowing crown of her hair to the tips of her sandaled
feet, she was a burnished shimmer; there was amber on her brows and a rod of
amber twisted in her hand, and her smile was a dream. . ..
A
vision, a fantasy I had seen in my other world....
Great
beauty has a stunning effect. It paralyzes other emotions. So I stared at the
golden witch, at the shining amber rod which seemed to outline my face. But old
habit made me turn my eyes away.
Karamy
smiled, turning her cat's eyes to the lifeless sprawl in the flowers. "So?
I thought I heard something. I wonder how he came so far?"
Still watching me, she spun the shining rod; the flower-song rose
again, a soft keening wail, and two of the zombie guards moved noiselessly
through the garden. At the silent movement of the amber rod, they lifted the
corpse and bore it away. The music died. Karamy's eyes were bent on the ground;
following the direction of her glance, I saw something lying there. A whistle.
Karamy
touched it with one sandaled toe. "Clever," she said scornfully,
"but not quite clever enough."
Then,
eagerly, she raised her face to mine and held out her delicate hands.
"Adricl
Adricl As soon as you are free, they pursue you again! That is not what you
want is it?"
I
didn't answer. One of Adric's memories scuttled rabbit-fashion across my mind,
giving a name to the man I had betrayed to the flowers.
Karamy
slid in front of me so that I had to look at her. The lovely lazy voice
murmured the name I was beginning to know.
"Adric, you are angry," the soft
voice caressed me. "I knew it was cruel to let Evarin near you, but what
else would have roused your anger enough to bring you back to yourself? Adric,
we need you, Narabedla needs you. -We felt betrayed when you left us, to shut
yourself up alone with old Rhys and the stars! But now you have returned."
Her hands gripped my shoulders and she clung to me. "Have you forgotten
me, too? Or are you still my lover?"
It
rang phony! Phony, was the way I put it to myselfl Part of me felt like ripping
her loose, calling her a lying, murdering she-devil, and getting that much, at
least, on the record. But I was fast acquiring a double cunning. The animal
cunning of Adric's old habit—and a desperate, trapped cunning of my own, born
of fear—fear of this unfamiliar world with terrible dangers at every corner,
and magic lurking in mirrors and flowers. And how could I tell what I, myself,
would do next? There was blood on my hands already. And if Adric was a pawn
between warring forces in this world, how could I know what to do? There was
nothing to do except ride along on the surface, play my hunches,
and see where they took me.
I said, "Who could
forget you, Karamy?"
She
was very soft and sweet and something more than lovely in my arms, and I held
her crushingly close while I struggled with a memory that would not quite come.
Karamy
dropped her arms. The mantle of lazy seductiveness dropped with them.
"You are still angry because I sent you out on the Time Ellipse! You do
not yet know it was for your own good! You have not yet learned your
lesson!"
I
retorted, "If I were a tame cat, would you have any use for me?" and
pulled her back again. That talk meant danger for me; I could think of only one
way to silence it. She seemed to like it, but even with her lips acquiescent under
mine, I was wary. Was I fooling her, or was she just playing my own game, and
playing it a little better?
And my mind was not completely on what I was doing. I was still aware of the fleshy, deadly, waving
flowers. . . .
"Now
we can make plans," she said, a little later. "First, Gamine."
She looked sharply at me, but I kept my face expressionless, and she went
on, "Gamine is always' with the old Dreamer; she lets him wake far too
long. He is old; he is akin to us, but even so he will grow too strong. We must
send Rhys away from Narabedla. Gamine may stay, or follow him to exile, but
Rhys must go."
"Rhys must go," I
conceded.
"He
should be slain, but Gamine will never do it," said Karamy, with a shrug
that disposed of Rhys, "and at least, while Gamine is bound to Rhys,
Gamine seeks no bond with a stronger Dreamer. Evarin—" she snapped her
jeweled fingers. "His Dreamer sleeps sound! Evarin fears even his own
powers! As for his Toys, well, they can serve us too. My Dreamer grows strong
but he serves me!" The beautiful face looked ruthless and savage.
"Your
Dreamer walks free in the forest! Only you can rebind him! You
with my help, Adric of the Crimson Tower!" Her eyes smoldered.
"Yes, and my Dreamer shall serve you, too, until then!
I will pay to put power into your hands!"
The
very phrase Evarin had used! Briefly, a shudder stung me. But Karamy's glowing
face burned through the sting of fear.
"You have come back to us, Adric and we
need you! Tonight, tonight I go to the Dreamer's Keep, and you go with me. And
after that, you will go to the forest where the Dreamer walks and end this
danger to Rainbow City forever! And then," her lambent eyes burned, a
flame, a coal, "then there will be no challenge to our power, in all Narabedla,
in all the world!"
Against
my will, I felt the slow kindling of the flame she roused. Power,
power unlimited, and a beautiful woman with sorcery at her fingertips.
Adric's ambition was like a fire
in me, and I was swept away on it.
Witch—golden
witch! I knew now, how the Dreamers must be paid—the price for which they would
give up their magical powers into the hands of the Lords of the Rainbow. The
small part of me that was still Mike Kenscott shuddered away in fear and
disgust; the rest of me accepted the memory with a shrug, and it was this Adric part of me that spoke,
"I'll go. I need power badly enough to
take it even from your hands, Karamy. And afterward I'll go into the forest
where the Dreamer walks, and bring him back to you."
But
even as I swept Karamy into my arms and bent her head back roughly under my
mouth, a warning prickle iced my spine, and my eyes narrowed over her golden
head.
I
said, insinuatingly, "And then, Karamy—" but only in my mind did I
complete the sentence:
And
then, Golden witch—I will find a way to deal with you,
tool
CHAPTER FOUR
Afterward, when I had found my way back to the Crimson Tower, I
searched for hours for something that might give a clue to Adric's mysterious
past. I was puzzled about this Adric, this strange cotenant who came and went
as he pleased in the chambers of my memory.
What
was identity anyhow? Was it just an awareness of self? I felt like myself—like Mike Kenscott. I could remember living a whole life as
Mike Kenscott, childhood, school, army, work, girls.
And yet, and yet, with Evarin, with Karamy, with the strange man I had laetrayed
to the flowers, I had found myself acting, speaking, thinking in ways that Mike
Kenscott could never have accepted.
I
didn't want to think about that. If I stopped to think nbout it, I'd start to
panic again. Grimly, I rummaged the rooms for clues. I found many strange
things, but nothing of importance. Whoever had taken Adric's memory (Karamy?
Why?) had made sure that nothing in his surroundings
should clear up the puzzle in his mind.
I
knew only one thing; Adric was feared, disliked, distrusted by all the
Narabedlans, except, perhaps, Evarin in some moods. And all the Narabedlans
except Gamine had something to gain by feigning friendship for Adric. I could
not quite make out whether Karamy's attitude
was love that pretended scorn to mold Adric to her will, or contempt that
pretended love for the same reason. I didn't trust her, and I was just as glad that Adric didn't.
The
name Narayan stuck burrlike in my mind. Friend
or enemy?
The
white sun had set, and the red sun was beginning to dip downward, when a servant knocked softly at the door, bringing food.
He was not one of the zombies of Karamy's garden, but he spoke with respect verging on terror. Briefly, I
considered questioning the man; then decided that I didn't dare. It would be
foolhardy to let anyone in this rabbit-warren of enemies guess how weak, how
confused and unsure I was. They thought that the Lord Adric was himself again,
and if they were afraid enough of Adric, it might
keep them off me for a whilel
The
man hesitated before backing out. The Lady Cynara wishes to come to you, Lord
Adric," he muttered at last. "May I bring her here?"
And who the devil was the Lady Cynara? Adric's
wife?
His concubine? Another of the Narabedlans, friend or foe, inhabitant
of one of these Rainbow Towers? Whoever she was, I had enough trouble now. I said curtly "No," and the man
mumbled something and went away.
I
sat at the barred window of Adric's high tower, trying to force memory from the
alien mind in which I was prisoner. And whether it was sheer effort of will, or
the result of that fragmentary look in Evarin's mirror, or whether, as Gamine
insisted, I was really Adric, and Mike Kenscott only an illusion of Karamy's
magic, memory did begin to pulse back.
In
the early days . . .
In
the early days, before the vagueness that came on my mind, Adric of the Crimson
Tower had been a powerful lord of Rainbow City. The memories of that time were
not memories which I, as Mike Kenscott, would have cared to own, but I, as
Adric, found them vastly pleasing.
We
were an ancient race, we lords of the Rainbow City. Our kin had wielded power
over all this land, but we were a shrinking race, too, and a dying race. Fewer
and fewer of the Children of the Rainbow were born to Narabedla's power. And of
those, some were weaklings, unfit to share in the tremendous power of the
captive Dreamers, and Adric, in his overpowering ambition, had struck against
them, gathering all rule into his own hands. As kings in all lands have done
from time out of mind, slowly, methodically, he eliminated all those who would
contest his power. And now all Narabedla looked to the Lord of the Crimson
Tower for rule; and in Rainbow City there dwelt only Evarin, who toyed with
pleasure and mischief, and Gamine—had Adric ever known the truth about
Gamine?—who loved only wisdom, and a scant handful of others who acknowledged
Adric as unquestioned lord.
And
Karamyl Karamy who had come to challenge my power—and remained to share itl
I had wanted power and I
had had it, unlimited, from a
Dreamer newly bound, who stirred but vaguely
in his sleep. Past Narabedla, half the known portions of this world sent
tribute to the Lord of the Crimson Tower.
Some
memories were triumphant. Some seemed funny to Adric's cynical mind. Some were
terrible beyond guessing, for Adric had not counted the cost of his triumphs,
and even he shuddered at the price the Dreamers had exacted.
Then,
to this willful and wild man, something had happened. I had no idea what.
Fleeting images came through grayness—a blonde, boyish face lifted in
incredulous terror, or joy: a fleeing form, veiled, that retreated down the
corridors of my memory, averting its face as I followed.
Whatever
had happened, it had come when Adric was surfeited, even if momentarily, with
conquest, when he was sickened with blood and horror at the price of his power.
For this magical power—forced through the mind of the Dreamers, the mutants,
kept in enforced sleep or suspended animation—called for energy, kinetic
energy, available from one source and from one source only. Adric had fed the
Dreamer liberally with that source. For a time.
One
day, as a whim, I had redeemed a young woman marked for that fate. Then the
vagueness came and choked memory. I might think, I might burst my brain, but so
far and no further could I remember. I could
not force memory of that chain of events.
But
after that, Adric's reign had collapsed like an arch with the keystone removed.
His armies scattered; he had shut himself up or been imprisoned in the Crimson
Tower, his memories had been stolen, and he had gone, or been sent, spinning
along a time line, forward or perhaps back, whether in Time or Space I could
not imagine, until somewhere in the abyss of the other worlds he had touched
the man who knew himself as Mike Kenscott.
And
then, perhaps, Adric had escaped. He had reached out, drawn Mike Kenscott into
his web and exchanged the two. It was a perfect escape, perhaps, for a life
Adric had come to hate; a life filled with too many conflicts to be endured.
But I was Adric. .. .
There
was an explanation for that, too. The physical body could not make the
transition. I had Adric's body, the convolutions of his brain, the synaptic links of habit. His memory
banks. Only the ego, the superimposed pattern of conscious identity—the
soul, if you will—was that of Mike Kenscott. In Adric's body and brain, the old
patterns and habits ruled and, to all intents and purposes, I was Adric.
And
back in my own time, I supposed, Adric was living in my body, living Mike
Kenscott's life, going through the motions, with only the same queer lapses I
was making here. And after a while, even these would fade. I was wholly
trapped. Living Adric's life, would Adric grow stronger and stronger in me,
until—he?—wholly unseated the other identity? And he, with my body, somewhere
in the other world, would he become
me?
Andy,
I thought with a wild swift
fear, what will he to to Andy?
Nothing. He
could not harm Andy, not in my pattern, any more than I could hate Evarin. Or
could he? I had drawn my sword, today, on a man who called me friend, given him
to Karamy's terrible flowers.
I
had to get backl God, I had to get back! But how?
How
had I come here?
Once
before, for a little while, Adric and I had touched lives on—what had Gamine
called it? The Time Ellipse. That day they thought the
lab was struck by lightning. For eighteen hours, while I lay crushed under a
laboratory beam, and later under drugs in the hospital, he and I had shared a
fragment of life somehow. But the escape had not been complete. Something had
driven him, or drawn him, back to his own world.
And he had tried again, or had been sent
back. And this time he seemed to have succeeded. Was he in my hunting cabin in
the mountains, cleaning fish for supper, curiously rummaging through my
electrical equipment? Viciously I hoped he'd give himself some damned good
shocks on it.
Something
of Adric had stayed with me after our first contact. The strange lapses, the
day I had flown at an eagle with my knife.
When
the red sun glowed like a darkening ember across the Sierras, one of Karamy's
toy-soldier guards came with a summons. Flat, mechanical, the words were a
simple request for my presence, but they made me shudder. Somehow I had thought
that these—zombies?—could not speak. I stared at the man. He was a tall sturdy
looking fellow, with a round simple freckled face, bronzed with health; arms
and chest were bulging with muscle. But the eyes were random, unfocused, the
mouth was drooping-slack, and when I questioned him about where I was to go he
stared and shifted his eyes and repeated in the same flat tone:
"The presence of the
Lord Adric is requested."
He
stood without moving, immobile except for the slow rise and fall of his breath,
and finally it dawned on me that if this creature had no volition, he—or it—was
simply waiting for my command. I wanted to tell it to go away, but I wasn't
sure whether I could find my way without a guide.
I
went automatically to the cupboard, drew out a crimson cloak lined thickly with
fur, and shrugged it around my shoulders with a careless gestures; then—waved
my hand at the silent sentry and he turned, his slow even tread ringing on the
stairs. I followed him down through a labyrinth of stairs and elevator-shafts,
finally emerging into a long corridor.
I strode down it, hearing my own steps echo;
a second rhythm joined my steps, almost imperceptibly, and Gamine stole out of
the darkness, still luminously veiled, a noiseless ghost behind me. Later I
became conscious of Evarin's padding cat-steps trailing us. And others came
from darkened recesses to stretch the silent parade; a girl
in a slim-winged cloak the color of flame, a dwarfed man who walked in a
huddle of purple cloak and dark fur.
The
corridor began to angle upward, climbing toward a gleam of light at the end.
Without realizing it, I had swung into an arrogant, loping stride; now I
brushed away the slave-soldier who headed the column, and took the lead myself.
Behind me the others fell into file as if I had bidden them; the flame-clothed
girl in the winged cloak, Evarin in leaf-green, the dwarf bent in his jester's
cap, shrouded Gamine. Without warning we came into a vast courtyard, an
enclosed plaza of imposing grandeur.
The
red sun glowed above us like a gas fire. There were tall pillars on three sides
of the court, and at the far end a vaulted archway, leading into a tree-lined
drive that stretched away, shadowy, into the forest. Between two pillars Karamy
waited, slim, shimmering, golden; a hungry impatience sparked her cat's eyes,
"You're late!"
"I'm ready now," I said. For what,
I wasn't sure.
Karamy
waved an impatient signal to the Narabedlans who were coming up. "Adric is
with us again! Your allegiance to Adric, Children of the
Rainbow!"
I stood at her side, mute, waiting, the guard
of silent men behind us.
"Lord Idris!" Karamy summoned. The
dwarf came to bow jerkily before me. "Welcome home Lord!"
Evarin's
face was sly and malicious, but his voice was a purr of silk. "It is
pleasure to follow you again, my brother."
The
girl in flame-color said nothing, but her dipping curtsy was like the waver of
a moth toward a flame. "Adric—" she murmured. She was a shy thing;
the wings of her cloak lifted and fluttered as if they would fly of themselves,
and her dark hai^ waved softly as if it too were winged. I touched her fingers
lightly, but under the smolder of Karamy's eyes let her go.
"You
ride with us, Cynara?" Karamy sounded displeased. The girl in the winged
cloak raised her face, but she did not speak. Gamine's voice, a soft singing
croon, hummed for a moment, almost wordless, in the twilight. Then, gliding forward, Gamine
murmured "It is my will, Karamy. Do you dispute my right?"
For
a moment the tension was like visible force, like a shimmer in the air; then Karamy made a
careless gesture.
"What
do I care for you or your spells, Gamine? Come or go at your own will, bring
whoever you like. There is no talk of rights at this moment."
I
had wondered, seeing the Narabedlans assembled, if old Rhys would join us as
well, but apparently he was not expected. From somewhere the silent men brought
horses. Horses here in this nightmare world? They looked like any other horses
anywhere. I had never been on a horse in my life. I found myself vaulting, with
a nice co-ordination of movement, into the high, peculiarly horned saddle.
The
courtyard, in spite of the stamping horses, the bustle of departure, somehow
held the silence of the grave. Karamy kept me close to her; when we were all
mounted, she flung the amber rod upward. The last rays of the sun caught its
prism, and threw a beam of pure light down the darkened alleyway of trees. At
the sight • of that gleam, a curious emotion stole through me, at once familiar
and strange. I flung up my arm over my head.
"Ride!" I cried. "Ride to the Dreamer's
Keep!"
The
alleyway under the arch of trees led for miles under the thick boughs. Behind
us drummed the hooves of Karamy's guard; through the noise I could still hear
the sweet floating sound of Gamine's singing, rising and falling with the rise
and fall of the rolling road. The wind whipped Karamy's golden hair into a pale
halo around her head.
I
glanced back over my shoulder to where the rainbow towers stood,
just black silhouettes now against the greater darkness of the mountains behind
them. Overhead in the pink sky the crescent of the tiny moon was brightening;
lower, near the horizon, I saw a wider disc, almost at full, just coming clear
of the trees. Cold air was stinging my cheeks and nipping my bones with frost.
I felt the sparks struck from the hooves beating on the frozen ground.
Frostl
Yet in Karamy's garden, the flowers, had glowed in tropical gloryl
And
for a moment it was Mike Kenscott, entirely Mike Kenscott, sick, bewildered and
panicky, who glanced about him with horror, feeling the swirling cold and a
colder chill from the golden sorceress at my side. It was Mike Kenscott's will
that jerked the reins of the big gelding, to end this farce now.
"What is it?"
Karamy cried, above the hoofbeats.
And
I heard my own voice, raised above the galloping rhythm, cry back
"Nothing," and call out a command to the horse.
Good
God! I was Mike Kenscott, but prisoner in a body that would not obey me, a mind
that persisted in thoughts and habits I could not share, a soul that would
carry me to destruction! I was Mike Kenscott and I was trapped on a nightmare
ride through hell!
CHAPTER FIVE
I had been scared before. Now I was panicked, wild with a nerve-destroying fright. I'm no
coward. I set up a radar transmitter on Okinawa within ninety feet of a nest of
Japs. That was something real. I could face it. But under
two suns and a pair of strange moons, surrounded by weird people that I knew
were not human as I understood it—all right I was a coward. I steadied myself
in the saddle, trying with every scrap of my will to calm myself. If this was a nightmare well, I'd had some beauties.
But
it wasn't, I knew that. The frost hurting my face, the sound of shod steel on
stone, the vivid colors all around me—dreams are not in color. All these things
told me that I was awake, wide awake. And through all this I was riding
hell-for-leather, knees gripped on the saddle, guiding the horse with the grip
of my thighs, and I'd never been on a horse in my life. Riding, riding—
We
had ridden several miles, and stopped twice to breathe the horses, but we were
still beneath the great archway of trees. The sky's pink sunset had faded; the
land was flooded with blue, fluorescent moonlight. I looked up through the black
foliage; I suppose I had some confused idea that I might find out, when I was
by the stars. But the view to the north was hidden by mountains, and except for
the Big Dipper, I don't know one constellation from another.
I
had dropped back from Karamy's side until I rode between Gamine and the girl
in flame-color. The spell-singer saluted me with a vague nod, but the girl in
the winged
cloak threw back her hood, and I saw dark eyes,
watching me from a pure, sweet young face. Before the luminous innocence of
those eyes, I wanted to cry out that I was not Adric, warlock of Narabedla, I
was just a poor guy called Mike, I was just—mel
But
it was Gamine who spoke; the musical voice was1 not raised, but carried easily to my ears. "You seem to be
wholly yourself again."
I didn't know what to say.
I shook my head.
Strangely,
there seemed to be sympathy in the neutral voice. "If your memory halts,
at least you will remember-perhaps too much—at the Dreamer's Keep."
"Gamine," I
asked, "who is Narayan?"
I
saw the blue robes quiver a little, and a curious flickering glint crossed the
face of the girl in the winged cloak. But Gamine's voice was perfectly even.
"I have never seen anyone of that name.
Perhaps Cynara could answer you, if you asked her."
I
glanced at the girl—Cynara? But I did not put the question, for the name Cynara had suddenly touched another of those live-wires in my brain—or Adric's
Cynara. Narayan. Narayan and
Cynara. If I
could only remember!
What
would Cynara have said, if I had let the servant bring her to me, in the
Crimson Tower? Was it too late to find out?
I looked up at the girl again, and something
in me said No! Damn it, I didn't want any more of Adric's
memories!
Cynara
had drawn her dark pony level with mine. She rode side-saddle, easily, straight
and slender, as if she had been born to it; beneath the flame-colored cloak she
was small and slim, and endearingly human, the only normal, human thing I had
seen in this world! I felt like bursting out, telling her—
"Don't
be frightened," Cynara said, and her voice was low and sweet, muted so
that I could barely make out the words, and her lips hardly moved. "You
won't have to go. It's all arranged."
"What—"
I burst out, but she shook her head quickly, with a warning glance at Evarin,
who was swiftly overtaking us.
Karamy
turned in her saddle; beckoned to me, imperiously. For a moment I rebelled;
then I touched my heels to the horse's flank and rode forward to rejoin Karamy.
For
several minutes the road had been climbing, and now we topped the summit of a
little rise and abruptly the trees came to a halt. We drew our horses to a
walk.
We
stood atop the lip of a broad bowl of land, perhaps thirty miles across, filled
to the brim with thick dark forest. Far out, at the bottom of this valley, lay
a cleared space, and in that space rose a great tower.
Not a slender, fairylike spire, not one of the towers of Rainbow City. This was
a massive donjon, thrusting heavy shoulders upward into the moonflooded sky,
ancient, terrible.
The Keep of the Dreamers!
Something
in me murmured "This is the forest where the Dreamer walks" or had
the murmured words come from Karamy, at my side? She rode eagerly, her face
taut, her slender hands clenched on the reins. Part of me knew the reason for
her eagerness, and part of me wondered at it. For all this time I was Mike
Kenscott, but a helpless Mike Kens-cott, who watched himself without knowing
what he would say or do next! Like those puzzling nightmares where a man is both
actor and audience to some mummery being played, I watched myself say and do
things as if I were twins. In effect, I suppose I was—
Karamy turned in her saddle
to face me.
"You
don't trust me!" she said vehemently. "I can feel it! What is
it?"
"Have
I reason to trust you?" I was not sure whether I spoke or Adric, cautious,
watching myself.
I had expected her to flare into anger again;
instead, a bewitching
cat-smile spread over her features, and her gold eyes seemed to gleam in the
light. She murmured "Perhaps not," and her laughter was like a golden
bell.
Then her face grew intent
and eager. '
"Adric,
if you would stop to think, you would realize that I need you, that Narabedla
needs your strength. Listen, Adric, everything has changed. The people are
rebellious, even defiant. I can't
lead armies against them! I ask you, have we ever had to ride with guards
before, here in our own forest?"
I
heard Evarin's harsh laugh behind me. "So, you would strip Adric of all
his powers, then complain because you have no strong
hand?"
"And
little enough punishment," said the harsh voice of the dwarf Idris,
drawing his horse level with ours. He glowered at - me. "I hate you for a traitor, Adric, you, who freed a Dreamer and loosed all this upon us! I
said you should die!"
"But
you can see it was not needful that he should die," Karamy said, and
looked at me as if seeking my support. "Surely you can see now, Adric,
that what I did was only to bring you back to your senses—to save what I
could."
"She's
right," Evarin said, "We can settle our private quarrels later,
Adric; just now we have a rebellion on our hands, and a Dreamer at large. If
Rainbow City is to survive at all, we've got to forget the past. What Adric may
have done in a moment of madness, he can un-do now. If you can't make peace, at least make a truce!"
"Adric,"
Karamy murmured, "Take me where the Dreamer walks."
I
knew, with sudden surety, that because of some bond between the freed Dreamer
and myself, I could do this. But something cautioned me to say only "That
bond is broken, Karamy. Did you not break it yourself? I have not forgotten
that much," and for my reward I saw unsureness leap in her cat's eyes. So
that shot had told; Karamy had tried
to break the bond, and had succeeded, or thought she had. Now, when she thought
Adric was enough her dupe to use that bond only for her private purposes, and
not against her, she was guessing.
But
this woman was past mistress of subtlety. She murmured, "The bond can be
reforged, that I swear."
Ah,
but I knew how far to trust even Karamy's oaths! "Forge it, then," I
said bluntly, "but don't count on me to un-do what you did."
We
had dipped down into the bowl of forest, and were riding through thick woods,
along a road that struggled windingly, with many curves and sharp corners.
Adric knew this country; his knowledge made Mike Kenscott shiver. He had hunted
here, and for no four-legged game. As if Karamy read my thoughts, I heard her
low laughter.
"So. My
wrist aches for the feel of a falcon! Well hunt here again, you and I!"
The words gave me a quivering excitement, an insidious thrill.
Behind
me I heard Gamine's chanting take on a new note. The words were still
indistinguishable, but the very tone held warning. A pulse began to twitch
jerkily in my neck.
Without
warning, the road twisted and redoubled in an S-curve. Karamy and I spurred our
horses and rounded the first bend in one racing burst of speed, swung round the
second, and were fairly in the trap before we knew it.
It
was the agonized whinny of my horse, and the jolt of my body automatically
righting itself from the plunging of the animal beneath me, that made me realize
we had ridden straight on a chevaux-de-frise. I
yelled, cursing, shouting to Karamy to get back, get back, but her own momentum
carried her on; I saw her fight body fly out of the saddle and disappear. The
others, rounding the curve, were fairly on the barrier already, and the place
was a scramble, with riderless horses milling in a melee of curses and the
screaming of women and the thrashing of feet. I was out of my saddle in a
moment, thrusting Gamine's mount back from the stabbing points fixed invisibly
against the dark barrier in the road, shouting to Evarin and Idris. Evarin
leaped to my side, and I tore madly at the barricade. Idris bore down on me,
mounted. "Go round," he shouted. I plunged through the underbrush at
the side of the road, with hasty feet twice snaked by long creepers. Past the
barrier, the road lay open and deserted and Karamy lay there in a shimmer of
crumpled silk, motionless.
"Gamine,
Evarin," I shouted, "no one's here! Karamy is hurt."
The
head and shoulders of Idris' horse thrust through the thick brushwood at the
edges of the path. "Is she dead?"
I
bent, thrusting my hand against her breast. "Only
stunned. Her heart's beating. Get down," I ordered, and Idris
scrambled, monkey-fashion, from the saddle. I lifted the woman in my arms, but
she did not move or open her eyes. Idris touched my arm.
"Put her across my
saddle."
She
was a limp dead weight in my arms, and as I laid her on the saddle she stirred
and moaned. Suddenly, behind me, Idris cried out.
"What?" I asked
sharply.
"I heard—"
I
never knew what Idris heard. His head vanished as if snatched away by a giant's
hand; a rough grip collared me, choking fingers clawed at my throat, a thousand
rockets went off in my head, and I lay sprawling in the brushwood, eating dust,
with an elephant sitting on my chest and threatening hands gouging at my
throat. My last coherent thought, before the breath went out of me, was—
"I'm waking upl"
CHAPTER SIX
But I wasn't. When I came to—it can only have been a few seconds that I was unconscious—it was to hear Evarin snarling
curses, and Idris barking incoherently with rage. I heard Karamy shriek my
name, and tried to answer, but the steely fingers were at my throat, and with
that weight on top of me I hadn't a chance. The fall, or something, had knocked
Adric clean out of me, I was fuzzy-brained, but I was me; I was an innocent bystander again.
I
could just see Evarin and Idris in the road, casting wary glances into the
thick brushwood. Above me, I could barely make out the face of the man who was
holding me pinned to the earth with his body. He had the general build of a
hippopotamus, and a face to match. I squirmed, but the threatening face came
closer, and I subsided. The man could have broken me in two like a matchstick.
Around
me in the thicket were dozens of crouching forms, fantastic snipers with
weapons at their shoulders, weapons that could have been crossbows or
disintegrators—or both. "Enter Buck Rogers," I thought wearily. I was
beginning to feel faint again, and old welter-weight on my stomach didn't help
any.
Just
as I thought I'd burst, he moved, stubby fingers knotting a gag in my gasping
mouth; then the intolerable weight on my chest was gone, and I sucked in air
with relief. The fat man eased himself cautiously away, but I felt a steel
point caress my ribs. The threat didn't need words.
I could see the Narabedlans gathered in a tight little knot in the road.
The snipers around me were still holding their weapons drawn, but the fat man
commanded in a whisper "Don't fire. They're sure to have guards riding
behind them."
The
voices died away to a rasping mutter, and I lay motionless, trying to dig up
some of Adric's memories that would help. But the only thing I got was a memory
of my own football days, and a flying tackle from a Penn State halfback that
had knocked me ten feet. Adric was gone, clean gone.
The
Narabedlans were talking in low tones, Gamine the rallying-point around which
they clustered. I wondered why that surprised me; then the surprise, too,
faded. Evarin had his sword out, but even he did not step toward the mantling
thicket. Cynara was holding Idris by the arm, and I heard her crying out,
wildly, "No, no! If you make a move, they'll kill him!"
Between
two breaths, the road was alive with mounted men. I never knew who they were; I
was quickly jerked to my feet and dragged away. Behind me I heard shouting, and
steel clashing, and saw flashes of colored flame; spots of black danced before
my eyes as I stumbled along between two of my captors. I felt my sword dragged
out of the scabbard. Oh
well, I thought wryly, I don't know how to use it, anyhow, now that
Adric's run out on the party!
Under
the impetus of a knife in my ribs I found myself clambering into a saddle,
awkwardly, hands tied, felt the horse running beneath me. There wasn't much
chance of getting away, and anyhow, the fire couldn't be much worse than the
frying pan!
Behind
us the sounds and scufflings died away. The horse I was riding raced sure-footed in the darkness. I hung on with my two
hands; only Adric's habitual muscle reflexes kept me from tumbling
ignominiously to the ground. I don't think I had any more coherent thoughts
until the jolting rhythm broke and we came out of the forest into full moonlight
and the glare of open fires.
I
raised my head, still clinging to the saddlehom with one hand, and looked
round. We were in a grove, tree-ringed like a Druid temple, lighted with
watch-fires and torches stuck up on long poles. Tents sprouted in the clearing,
giving the place an untidy, gypsy appearance. At the back was a white frame
house with a flat roof and wide doors.
I
swallowed hard, swaying in the saddle. It was the place of my dream, where I had flown as a strange bird, where
an arrow had struck me. I
felt a strange darting pain in my chest, and grabbed at the hom of the saddle.
Men
and women were coming out of the tents everywhere. The talk was a Pentecost of
tongues, but I heard the name "Adric!" run in a blaze around the
circle, and over and over again, another name, repeated:
"Narayan! NarayanI"
A
slim young man, blonde, dressed in rough brown, came out of one of the larger
tents and walked deliberately to me. The crowd drew back, widening to let him
approach; before he came within twenty yards he signaled to one of the men, who
immediately unknotted the gag from my mouth and untied my hands, helping me
slide down from the saddle. I stood clinging to the stirrup, exhausted.
"Any trouble,
Raif?" the young man asked.
My
gigantic captor shook his head. "Seems we caught 'em
without any magic! They were bound for the Keep, but we've kept 'em away
a good while now. The Witch had a few dozen of her guards, though."
The
blonde young man shook his head soberly. "At least you got safely away?
You didn't try to fight."
"Orders
are orders," said the big man glumly. "You said, get Adric and get
away again. Well, here he is and here we are, and those—" he swore,
shockingly, and the blonde young man laughed.
"You'll have your chance for fighting,
soon enough!"
He
came forward until he could almost have touched me, and studied my face
dispassionately. At last he raised his head, turning to the fat man, Raif.
"This isn't
Adric," he said, "I don't know this man at all."
I
should have been relieved. I don't know why I wasn't. Here was somebody, at
last, who could tell the difference. Instead, my first reaction was
bewilderment and angry annoyance. How could he tell that? I was as furiously
embarrassed as if I'd been caught wearing stolen clothing. My beefy captor was
as angry as I was.
"What
do you mean, this isn't Adric?" he demanded, "Are you wearing your
eyes inside your pockets? We took him right out of their accursed cavalcade! If
it isn't Adric, who is it?"
"I
wish I knew," Narayan said under his breath. His eyes were still fixed on
my face, with a stillness that was disconcerting. He was tall and straightly
built, with pale blonde hair, square-cut around his shoulders like a troubadour
in a Provencal ballad, and gray eyes that looked grave, but friendly. I liked
his looks, but he had a trace of the uncanny stillness I'd noticed in old Rhys.
For a moment I had half decided to tell my story to this man with the grave
eyes. He would surely believe it.
But
as he looked at me, doubt came into his face, and then he sighed and looked at,
the men around him before turning back to me.
"Adric?"
he said, "do you still remember me? Or did Karamy take that, too?"
I
sighed. I didn't dare tell the truth, and I felt too chilled and exhausted and
disoriented to lie convincingly. Yet he I must, and do it well, without even
knowing why this man— Narayan?—had twice risked an attack on the powers of
Rainbow City to get Adric away.
Well, I had an excuse in Adric's supposed
loss of memory.
Anything
I didn't remember, any mistakes I made—"You are Narayan?" I asked.
The
fat man, still holding me by the elbow, scowled at Narayan. "Don't let him
get by with that," he growled. "Look you,
did Brennan come back this afternoon? He knows his way around' Rainbow City, he
went guarded! Ask Adric what happened to Brennan and make him tell you!"
The
clamoring broke out around us again, but Narayan never took his eyes from my
face as he answered gently, "There is always danger, Raif. Blame no man
unjustly. And even Adric is not to blame, if Karamy has him under her
spells."
"Traitor!" Raif snarled at me, and spat. I had an eerie memory of Idris—same
words, same gestures. Around us the crowding men muttered to one another,
casting uneasy glances at me, and I felt my body tensing, my fists clench with
the first traces of the now-familiar, murderous rage of Adric. Oh, God, no! Not again! I thought of Brennan, his face raised
trustfully to me in friendship, felt again the whiplash stroke of my sword,
heard his dying yell. . . .
Shaking,
I clutched at the saddle-horn, trying desperately to hold on to myself. Of all the people I might have been in this
madhouse world, this Adric takes the prize, I found myself
thinking with a weird detachment, neither side trusts him as far as they can kick him and I don't blame
them.
I
let go of the saddle-horn and stepped dizzily forward. "You might try
asking me," I said, with a weary anger.
"Then,
if you're not Adric, who the hell are you?" fat Raif snapped, "and
what did you do with Brennan?"
I
shook my head, exhaustion sliding over me. I don't know what I would have said,
but Narayan stepped toward me, saying quickly "Not here, Raif." He
seized my arm in a firm grip. "Stand back, you people there. Come
along."
The
men murmured to themselves, but they cleared a path for us, stepping back
warily as Narayan led me toward the frame house at the edge of the grove; Raif
and one other man trailed after us, and the men began to disperse into their
tents and around their fires. A few, still grumbling, clustered hive-fashion
round the door as we went up the steps.
Inside,
in a great timbered room, a fire was burning; flames leaped up from a great
crimson bed of logs, creating warmth and light in the shadows. I went toward
the fire gratefully; I was stiff with riding, and chilled and empty and
stupefied with the cold.
From
a wooden settle near the fireplace, a slim figure rose, the figure of a slight
dark girl in a cloak that caught the firelight like escaped flames.
"Cynara!"
"Adric," she said
half-aloud, holding out both hands to me.
I took them, partly because she seemed to
expect it, partly
because the
girl seemed the only real thing in this whole
incredible nightmare. Something real, something to hold on
to-Then she flung her arms around my neck and held herself
close to
me, not passionately, not sensuously, but, in a curious
way, as if she were protecting me.
So she had known about
this. But what was she doing
here?
Narayan took the girl by the shoulder and
gently pulled her away from me; she shrank a little before the annoyance in his eyes.
"Cynara," he
said, "what are you doing here?"
"I—I
slipped away from them in the dark. I suppose
Gamine knows, but they'll never find me here."
He
looked down at her, shaking his head. At last he said, "Little sister, you
must go back to Narabedla. I would not make you go if there was any other way,
but there is not. We have all risked too much to keep you there." He
beckoned to the third man who had come inside with us.
"Kerrel, take Cynara back to the
roadway, but don't get caught yourself. Cynara, you can tell them that you were
lost in the woods, or that you were caught and escaped."
"I
won't go back," she said, with her mouth trembling. "Now that Adric's
here again, what's the use of it? Surely there can be an end to it, now."
She
clung to my hand, but I only shook my head, helplessly. I didn't understand,
but her fear communicated itself to me. I put my arm round her, feeling her
tremble. Narayan looked from Cynara's face to mine, and finally sighed.
"Maybe
you're right. Now's the time when we have to risk everything, win all, or lose
all." He turned to the men. "I'll talk to Adric. Alone."
Raif's
thick lips set, stubbornly. He looked as if he'd be a very nasty customer in a fight.
"If
he's Adric, and if he's under Karamy's devilments,
then—"
"I
have faced Adric, and Karamy too," said Narayan with a friendly grin. "Get out, Raif, you're not my bodyguard, nor yet my
nurse."
The
fat man accepted dismissal, reluctantly, and Narayan came to my side. Cynara
let go my hand and withdrew to the settle near the fire. I was sorry to lose
her support.
She,
at least, trusted Adric. . . .
There
was real friendliness in Narayan's smile. "Well," he said, "now
we will talk, you and I. You cannot kill me, any more
than I could kill you, so we may as well be truthful with one another. Why did
you leave us again, Adric? And what has Karamy done to you this time?"
The
room reeled around me. I put out a hand to steady myself; when the dizziness
cleared, Narayan's arm was around my shoulders, and he was holding me up with a strength surprising in his slight frame. He eased me
into a
seat. "You've been
pretty roughly handled," he said. "The men, well, they had orders.
But perhaps they carried them out with too much zeal. And if I know Karamy's
ways, you've been heavily drugged for a long, long time." His eyes studied
me, intently. "You don't look very glad to be here, but at least you
didn't come in fighting. Maybe we can talk. Better come and have a drink. And
when did you eat last?"
I
rubbed my forehead. "I can't remember," I told him honestly. Adric's
servants had brought food, but I hadn't touched it.
"I
thought so. You look half starved," Narayan said. "That's what sharig does to you, as I have reason to know." He went into the next room,
assuming that I would follow and that I knew
my way around.
After
the insanely furnished rooms in Rainbow City^ I was a little surprised when the
next room turned out to be a fairly ordinary and functional kitchen, equipped
with items not too unlike those in my own world. Well, after all, how many ways are there to design a stove? Or a table?
Out
of a relatively unsurprising icebox, (although it had an oval door) he
assembled various cold foods, and poured liquid into an oddly-shaped handled
cup, motioned me into a chair and set the things on the table. "Here, eat
this," he said. "I know those damned drugs of theirs; you'll make
more sense after you've eaten, and we've plenty of time to talk, all night if
we choose." He saw me glance at the mug, laughed sketchily and poured
himself a drink from the same bottle; he sat down opposite me, sipping it
slowly. "Go ahead. Even if I felt like poisoning you, I wouldn't until I
knew what Karamy was up to," he chuckled.
I
laughed, too. Poison? When any of them could have
shoved a knife into me, at any time during the last three hours? I started^
eating. I hadn't felt hungry, but with the first bite, I realized that I was
famished. I had last tasted food some forty-eight hours ago (and that had been
in another world); Adric, judging from the hunger I felt, had evidently fasted
longer than that. I ate everything on the plate; Narayan sipped his drink and
watched me, and when I finally pushed the empty plate aside, he put back his
mug and said, "Now, what's happened? You're Adric—and you're not."
I
felt better and stronger than I'd felt since Adric, with help from Rhys (but
why? Why?) had catapulted me into this world. Narayan
seemed friendly, but so had Evarin. Now I must talk fast and convincingly,
before those searching gray eyes.
"I'm
not sure," I said at last. "I don't remember much, just coming to
myself, this morning, in the Crimson Tower. I think it was this morning. I was
freed. Karamy wanted to take me to the Dreamer's Keep, and then your men came
along. I didn't know whether I was being captured or rescued. I still
don't."
I
stared with purposeful blankness at Narayan, and he stared back; I could feel
his debate with himself, what to do or say. Obviously an Adric sane and glib
and possibly untruthful was a different thing than a man too bewildered and
drugged and shaken to tell anything but the truth.
Finally
Narayan said, "I'm not sure what I ought to do or say, Adric. There was a
time when I could read your thoughts. Not now. The bond between us isn't as
strong as it was. You know that."
I
nodded. Adric's thoughts seemed to be surging back, insidiously, as if Narayan
held the key to unlock them. Fool, not to question me when he had me in his power! Soft fool!
I
clung with both hands to my awareness of Mike Kenscott. What crazy drama was
going to be unfolded in the battlefield of my mind now?
"What did Karamy
do?" Narayan asked.
My
voice was as quiet as his own. "Karamy sent me
out on the Time Ellipse." This much I knew from Rhys and Gamine. "She
hoped I'd come back changed, or mad, or maybe not at all. I think—I think she wanted me to betray you
again."
"Adric!" Narayan reached out and gripped my arm, above the elbow, until I cried out with the pain of that steely grip
and wrenched away, rubbing bruised flesh.
"Sorry," Narayan muttered, looking
at his hands, "I forgot I was—"
he swallowed, staring at me. "But why do you say—to betray me again? What
betrayal? Adric, it was your hand that freed me! Zandru's hells, Adric,"
he begged, "Adric, how-much
have you forgotten? Who and what do you think I am?"
CHAPTER SEVEN
The fire in the other room had burned to an ember. Without a glance my way, Narayan
mended the fire, sat down, his legs stretched to the little blaze, his chin in
his hands, waiting. I could not stand still; I walked, restless, around the room, speaking
in little jerks and half-sentences, not knowing how much was memory and how
much was what I could piece together from the jigsaw puzzle
of this strange, nightmare world.
"You
are—you were the Dreamer," I said. "I remember— being bound to you, and later I—I
remember when I freed you. Not knowing what it might mean,
not knowing whether you might have slain me on the ground of sacrifice."
"No."
Narayan was as motionless as Gamine's veils. "No, Adric,
never that. We cannot kill one another, you and I. I could order you killed, I suppose, but I—I would never do that unless
there was no other way. I always hoped there would be another way, for me, for
you."
I
tried to trim my words carefully between the two personalities that were
battling in my brain. At least I was beginning to reconstruct Adric's story
with some coherence and logic, not the isolated scraps I had deduced before.
"Adric
freed you," I said. "I am
not sure whether it was for your sake, or whether he
wished to—to work for his own power against the others in Rainbow City."
Yes,- that was the burning incongruity; that Adric,
this harsh and cruel man, should have freed a Dreamer, should have worked
against his own people and his own power. Why, why? If I knew that, I would
have the key to everything.
But I did not know. I
sighed and went on.
"Karamy
took Adric from you, by treachery," I said. "She sent him, half-mad,
back to the Crimson Tower. Karamy's magic stripped him of his memories, broke
the bond between you and Adric."
"Not
entirely," Narayan said, staring into the fire. "I knew when you
woke. But I could not come, myself, into Rainbow City and rescue you. You know
what is kept there."
I didn't, but it hardly
seemed important now.
"Karamy
stripped Adric of memory and power, sent him back to stargazing in Narabedla;
she hoped, when at last she let him return, that he would be the old Adric.
Karamy needed his power, more than she feared it. But it was not Karamy—"
the voice that was not quite mine shook, suddenly, with my own weariness and
the blank terror I'd been keeping at bay, "it wasn't Karamy who sent me here! I'm not Adric, you were perfectly right,
I'm no more Adric than you are! I'm in Adric's body, yes, I have—I have some of
his memories, his. thoughts, he sometimes moves me
like a puppet, but he—" my voice cracked suddenly; I knew I sounded like a
hysterical kid, but I couldn't stop once it had broken loose. "I'm not
Adric! I'm not, I don't belong here at all."
Narayan
jumped up and I heard his hurrying steps behind me; then his steely hands were
on my shoulders hard, swinging me around to face him. "All right," he
said, "steady. It's all right now."
I
drew a long breath and let it out again, shamed. Narayan looked at me, his eyes
still skeptical, but he sighed. I could guess his thoughts; had he broken me down into honesty, or was
this more of Adric's treachery?
I
felt a light hand, a leaf-touch, on my arm; then Cynara was holding my hand,
looking intently up into my face. "I knew," she whispered. "I
couldn't be sure, but once I saw your eyes looking out at me from Adric's
face."
I
saw the "doubt dissolve in Narayan's face. Slowly, he nodded. "I
sensed you weren't the Adric I knew," he said. "But I couldn't
believe that Adric, when it came to the test, would do that to me. I suppose,
for him, it was the easy way out. A perfect way of
escape."
He
sank down on the bench again, dropping his head into his hands. "A perfect
way out," he repeated, and his voice sounded suddenly old and tired.
"Let his memories disintegrate, or step into another world, and leave
another man in his place. Another personality. And
just not care what happened."
I
shook my head, still feeling the trembling inside. "But what would Adric
want with my life?" He was a lord, a powerful
warlock; could
he step into the world of
Mike Kenscott, radioman, ordinary citizen of an ordinary world?
"It
was a way to escape the trouble he caused," said Cynara, bitterly.
"So it was all for nothing! We haven't got Adric, and we've involved an
innocent outsider!"
After
a long time, Narayan looked up. "That's right; you're an outsider,"
he said slowly. "You owe us nothing. But my men think you are Adric, and
they think you've been rescued from Karamy, and brought back to us. I'd never
be able to convince them otherwise. Do you think you could, in Adric's body?"
Cynara answered, clutching my hand in that
close, protective way, "They'd think it was more of Karamy's magic.
Like—like her zombies. They'd—they'd tear him to pieces, Narayan!"
Narayn said, troubled, "You don't owe us
anything. But would you mind pretending to be Adric for a little while longer?
Otherwise—" he stopped. I realized that he was not a man who would enjoy
making threats, but I could understand his situation. I was just an outsider
who messed things up by being, at the same time, Adric.
Well,
I seemed to be stuck with it. I certainly didn't feel any loyalty to the
Narabedlans of Rainbow City, or give a hang what happened to them. Narayan, by
comparison, looked pretty decent. Even if he was making a pretty desperate
effort to overthrow the government by force and violence, I couldn't blame him.
In
fact, I wouldn't mind helping! I had a few scores to settle with Rainbow City,
myself. . . .
And,
all these principles aside, it looked like the only way to save my skin—even if
it was Adric's skin.
"All
right," I said, "I'll try, but what's this all about, anyhow?"
"That's right, you wouldn't know. You
have some of Adric's memories, but not all. Do you remember who I am?"
"Not
entirely," I said. I remembered—in that strange Adric-way—some things.
Narayan had been born, about thirty years before, into a respectable country
family who were appalled to realize that they had given birth to one of the
mutant Dreamers, and were only too glad to hand him over to those in power at
Rainbow City. Still a child, he had been bound into the enforced stasis in the
Dreamer's Keep, and there he had slept. . . .
Cynara said "You remember the old
Dreamer who served the Crimson Tower?"
I remembered that, too—or Adric did. He had
grown old and weak, mortal. He could no longer give, to Adric's vaulting
ambition, the full measure of power that Adric had come to desire. And at last
he had been eliminated. I bowed my head.
"I slept in the Dreamer's Keep,"
Narayan said, quietly. "I was awakened and bound to you, and given
sacrifice. I learned to use my power, and to give it up to Adric." A
brooding horror dwelt in the gray eyes; I realized that Narayan lived in his
own personal, private hell with the memory of what he had done under the spell
of Narabedla. "Adric was strong."
Yes. Adric had called upon the young
Dreamer's developing powers, without counting the cost. What wonder if the
memory maddened Narayan? The young Dreamer finally seemed to win his silent
struggle for self-control, and went on quietly;
"Well, one day you—or rather,
Adric—freed me. I was1 never sure why. I suppose it was in a moment of remorse." Cynara stirred, but Narayan
went on, not seeming to see her.
"I found my sister again, Cynara." And now
he raised his eyes to the girl, laying his hand on her shoulder; she smiled,
and again I saw the strange protectiveness in that smile,
as Narayan said quietly, "I was like a child. I had to learn to live
again, all the simplest things. Just being alive took all my strength for
months. I was wholly powerless, because I had been trained to use my powers
only through the Sacrifice. And I had to learn to—to live without that. It
wasn't easy."
"Why?" I asked thoughtlessly.
Narayan's
eyes froze me, but his answer dropped the last link into the chain of memory.
"To use that power," he said, in a tense, controlled voice,
"took human life."
Outside the door I could hear the noises of
the camp; the light of their watch-fires crept in through the cracks. The fire
had burned low again, and Narayan's face was in shadow; he moved restlessly in
the dim firelight.
"I
have harnessed the power, somewhat," he said. "I can use it myself, a little. For simple things, and to protect myself."
I was beginning, vaguely, to understand. In
my own world I had heard of psi powers, of extra-sensory perception, of seance
mediums who could do things called magical to those
who did not understand them. I had also heard that these wild talents were
physically exhausting, draining the physical energy; the collapse of a medium
after a seance—I had thought it was fakery. Evidently the Narabedlans had found
out a way to harness that psi power, to control it, to provide the energy for
increasing it vastly, by feeding the Dreamers on the life energy of living men.
. . .
I
shuddered, a bone-deep, racking thing that left me weak and white, and dropped
nerveless on the seat. Cynara held me tight.
"No,"
said Narayan grimly, watching my face, "it's not pretty. But if I had any
doubts of your not being Adric that would have
finished them. You really didn't know, did you?"
I shook my head, still sick with the horror
of it.
"Well,
I learned to live without it," said Narayan, his face quiet and controlled
again. "Then Cynara was taken for sacrifice." His eyes on the girl
were tender. "Adric freed her, redeemed her, gave
her the freedom of Rainbow City. He could do that because Evarin was weak and
Gamine did not care. Even the Lords of the Rainbow have many commoners in
their retinue. Not a spy there, never that. But someone to
act as a link between us, Adric and me. Then there was Rhys, the old
Dreamer."
Rhys. The only Dreamer-mutant
ever born within Rainbow City.
"Yes.
Gamine is bound to Rhys, but is careless and lets him wake for long periods of
time, and Rhys and I have been in contact. I hardly know how to explain this to
anyone else, our minds can speak."
"Telepathy
too?" I
murmured.
"Only to another Dreamer. He helped me to learn to use my powers. But
he will not raise a hand against Narabedla. They are his kindred too."
I
was hearing scraps of conversation from a vast abyss of time and space, whence
I had been drawn in electrical coma across the Time Ellipse. They will know, Narayan will know. And
Adric; What have I to do with Narayan? Adric
had been playing a fancy double game with Narayan, and I opened my mouth to say
so, but the young Dreamer was still talking, and I lost track of the words,
thinking of Bhys.
Perhaps
this was why Rhys had helped Adric find a way out of his world, because it had
helped Rhys, too, find an escape from an unbearable
conflict. With Adric gone, Rhys need not face a choice between his kindred in
Narabedla, and his wish to see the Dreamers freed. With Adric gone, perhaps the
old, old man could live out his last few years in a world precariously at
peace.
"I had forgotten, we had all forgotten,
that Adric was
Narabedlan too. Until he vanished, until Karamy stretched
out her hand and took him back." Narayan's voice brooded.
These men had been friends. 1
"Adric
was gone, and the hand of Narabedla lay heavy on us. Without Adric to lead them
we felt there was a chance for rebellion. I have been working, planning—you
saw." He bit his lip. "Then I knew that Adric was free, and I sent
Brennan to see why he did not return to us. Brennan. didn't
come back."
I lowered my head and miserably told him what
had happened to Brennan.
Narayan's
face looked haggard in the firelight. "He was a brave man," Narayan
said at last. "He knew what he faced, and dared it. I don't blame you.
After the change, there was a time when you went on living Adric's life, almost
by reflex, thinking his thoughts, carrying out his habits. But now he will
grow weaker in you, I think. I hope. Who
are you in your own world?"
He
thought Adric would grow weaker in me. I had feared that Adric would grow
stronger and stronger, until he crowded me out entirely. Was Narayan right? Was
Adric gone for good? "My name is Mike Kenscott," I said at last.
"Michael."
"Michael."
Cynara turned the strange word on her tongue, curiously. Her hand, forgotten,
still lay in mine. "And what are you? A great lord of
magic?"
I
laughed, wearily; cut off the laughter as I looked into the lovely face. "No, girl,"" I said softly, "there's no magic
in my world." Magic? I'd have to think about that.
"It
must be very strange," she murmured, "strange and a little
frightening, to change worlds. I can remember Narayan when he came from the
Dreamer's Keep, with a life to learn."
Was
it only compassion in her dark eyes, compassion for a man suffering the same
disorientation as the brother she had cherished and protected? Or was it
something more? "Michael," she repeated softly.
Narayan
broke into our mutual absorption, gently. "The men will have to call you
Adric; they will believe you are Adric come back to us. Later, perhaps—"
he shrugged. I didn't say anything. I was still afraid I hadn't seen the last
of Adric; but I liked this man. And Cynara, clinging to my
hand, the one person in this world who had known and accepted me for myself, not as a shadow of Adric.
Narayan moved to turn on lights. "It's
very late," he said,
"and you must be worn out. We've taught even the Narabed-lans
to stay out of the forests by night, lately, so we're safe enough here, even if
they had some idea of getting Adric back. And in any case, they can't do much
until they've been to the Dreamer's Keep. If we can cut them off from the
source of their magic—" he smiled, and with a sudden, boyish friendliness
he held out his hand. "Well tomorrow we'll see what comes! Michael—"
he hesitated, then said, almost reluctant to speak the
words, "I'm glad you're not Adric. He might be hard to handle, now."
As
if the lights had been a signal—for all I knew, they were—Raif came back
without knocking into the room. Narayan crossed his hostile stare at me.
"It's all right, Raif," he said. "Adric has come back to
us."
The
elephantine face creased up in a sudden grin. "I'm sorry I handled you so
roughly, Lord Adric. But I had orders, and I wasn't sure."
"I'd
have done the same thing myself," I said, and took the hand he offered.
"Find
him a place to sleep," Narayan suggested, and, with a backward glance at
Cynara, I followed Raif up a low flight of the farmhouse stairs into an empty
room. There was a bed there, clean but rumpled; Raif said "Kerrel went on
watch at the roadway; he won't be back much before noon. You can sleep
here."
I
kicked off my boots and crawled between the blankets, suddenly too weary to
speak. I had been two days without sleep, and most of that time I had been
under exhausting physical and mental strain, in two worlds. I saw Raif cautiously
finger his weapon, and sensed that whatever Narayan said, he wasn't taking too
many chances with Adric. I didn't blame him. He had brains, this outsize
lieutenant of Nar-ayan's.
Sleepily
I said "You can put that away, friend elephant. I'm not even going to move
until I've had a good, long—"
I didn't
even finish the sentence. I went
to sleep.
I had slept for hours. I came out of confused
dreams—a great wheeling bird, a knife, Andy's face, the blue blur of Gamine's
veiling, the pitiful cry of a woman in anguish-when I heard a softer voice, and
felt small hands pulling me upright. I opened
my eyes to see Cynara's dark lovely eyes gazing down at me.
"Michael,
wake up! Karamy and Evarin are riding today, hunting Adric! Hunting
you!"
I sat up, dizzy-brained, far from alert, still stupid with sleep; I could not understand her agitation, or the way she had spoken to me. But
I put a careless, reassuring arm around her shoulders for a moment. Then,
hearing the swift noise of steps on the stairs,
released her, bent and began to pull on my boots.
Narayan
shoved open the door, dragging a brown tunic over his head as he came. "I see Cynara's told you the news," he said. "I was right. We'll
have to move quickly now. If they have too good hunting—"
He
fumbled with the laces of his shirt. A dead weariness was in his eyes; they
looked flat, almost glazed. He met my questioning stare and smiled tiredly.
"The
Dreamers stir," he told me.. "I am not yet
free of that need, not wholly. So I must be careful."
Cynara
shuddered and threw her arms around her brother's neck, clutching him in a
fiercely sheltering clasp. But he was already deep in thought again; he freed
her arms without impatience. "Well meet that when the time comes, little
sister. So Karamy and Evarin ride hunting, Idris too, most like." His
brows contracted. "All but Gamine," he mused. "If
I could only get through to Rhys." Then, with an impatient gesture,
he put the thought aside. "I don't dare. Not with that stirring."
I understood. Narayan was still attuned to
the terrible hungers of the sleeping Dreamers in the Keep. Well, that was to be
expected.
As
for me, I felt fresh and strong, and my mind was working again, though with
some strange blurs. How had I come here to the house of the freed Dreamer? Just
what had happened last night? I had thought Narayan would never trust me again,
but now, when I needed it most, here I was in his complete confidence again.
Soft fool'
Yes,
this was better than any of Karamy's plans! Damn Karamy anyhow, meddling with
my memory, but at least it had served my turn last night, to step aside into
another identity, win Narayan's confidence!
And
Karamy had the audacity to fly Evarin's devilbirds after me? After
me, Adric of the Crimson Tower? Well, she
should have a lesson she would never forget—and so should the damned Toymaker
himself—and so should this walking zombie here, staring stupidly at me with a
foolish smile of friendship. Gods of the Rainbow, what preposterous things had
I done and said last night?
"Let
them come, birds and all," I said. "There's been no Sacrifice for
some time. They have no other resources." I laughed soundlessly at the
thought; are
you short on magic today, Karamy? Forced to use the foolish gimcracks of the
Toymaker? "We'll
take them tonight at the Dreamer's Keep."
But
what you do not know, Narayan, I added to myself with secret satisfaction, is that you will join them there! When I have
used your powers in my revenge against those who were leagued against me, then
you will go back to your place,~ Dreamer! Till then,
plan to crush me and mine! Dream on—dream your waking dreams, till I scatter
them. . . .
It
never occurred to the soft fool to question if the Adric of last night were the
Adric of this morning. We went downstairs and snatched a quick breakfast.
Cynara saw the winged, flame-colored cloak she had worn in Rainbow City, lying
on the settle, snatched it up wrathfully and stuffed it into the fireplace. In
her plain gray dress, her shy prettiness was more striking than ever. Cynara
was not Karamy, but she was a pretty thing, and after all, it helped Narayan to
trust me when Cynara perched on the arm of my chair and ran her dainty fingers
over the bruises on my face.
"Your roughnecks
nearly killed him, Narayan!"
"Oh,
I'm not hurt." I made my voice gentle for her ears alone. But I scowled
darkly into my plate, pushed the food away and strode out into the camp.
Narayan shouted quickly, jumping up, sending his chair crashing backward, as he
ran after me and we went down the steps together. "Wait, wait! Don't
forget, to them, you're still a traitor," he commanded.
I kept my voice foolish and
humble. "I had forgotten."
"I
know the truth, and they'll take my word," Narayan said with his friendly
smile. He took my arm, and we walked like that through the tents, Narayan's
.expression almost belligerent. I saw the faces of the men as they came out of
their rude shelters, saw suspicion and mistrust giving way to tolerance and
then to acceptance and relaxation as they watched us walking arm in arm.
Finally Narayan called to Raif, "Watch him, will you? Some of the men may
not know yet."
"There's
not much time for this nonsense," I said. "If
they're out hunting. Raif, find me twelve men who aren't afraid to come
close to Rainbow City."
Raif
glanced at Narayan, who looked surprised. Then Narayan said, "I give what
orders you want, Adric," and I had to hide a smile. Before long I would
win back the place my foolishness had lost! The idiot whose body I had shared
briefly had almost put it beyond redemption, but in a way he had helped, too;
he had won Narayan's trust as I could never have done. Well, that futile booby
should not share in my coming triumph! Nor should Narayan.
Fumbling in my pocket, I touched something
hard and smooth. Evarin's magic mirror, not true magic but
the product of his childish tinkering. Still, it might serve. Narayan
looked over my shoulder curiously as I pulled it out. "What is thatr
"One of Evarin's Toys. I may find a use for it," I said, and
tossed it idly to him. "Look at it, if you like." I held my breath;
Narayan took it in his hand for a moment, curiously, but did not untwist the
silk. "Go ahead," I urged, "unwrap it."
I
might have sounded too eager; abruptly, Narayan handed it back. "Here.
You'd better keep it. I don't know anything about Evarin."
I
should have known it would not be that easy. Feigning indifference, I thrust it
back into my pocket. It didn't matter one way or another, Narayan would lose.
For Evarin and Karamy rode a-hunting today, and I knew what their game would
be.
CHAPTER EIGHT
I pulled my cloak closer about me, prickling with excitement, as I knelt between
Raif and Kerrel in the tree-platform. Just beneath me, Narayan clung to a lower
branch. My ears picked up the ring of distant hoofbeats on the frozen gound,
and I smiled.
I knew every nuance of this hunt. Evarin
might not find his birds so obedient to his call today! A scrap of me remembered
another world, where a dazed and bewildered other self had flown at a living
bird with his pocketknife, and I spared a moment to laugh at the memory.
Boldly,
I plotted possibilities. There must be a snare. But who?
Narayan himself? No, he was my only protection until I
could get free of this riffraff. Besides, he said he
had been learning to use his power—unaided. If he unleased it, at close range
like this, he could drain me lifeless, as a spider sucks a trapped fly.
Kerrel
then, or Raif. I had a grudge against the fat man, anyhow.
I
plucked at Raif's sleeve. "Wait here for me," I said, cunningly, and
made as if to leave the platform. Raif walked smiling into the trap.
"Here, Adric! Narayan gave orders you weren't to run into any dangerl After alll it's you they want!"
Good,
good! I didn't even have to order the man to his death; he volunteered.
"Well, we want a scout out," I demurred, "to carry word when
they come." As
if we wouldn't know!
"I'll
go." Raif leaned past me, touching Narayan's shoulder. He explained in a
whisper—we were all whispering, though there was no need for it—and Narayan
nodded. "But don't show yourself."
I held back laughter. As if that would matter!
The
man swung down into the road. I heard his heavy tread strike rock; heard
footsteps diminish, die in the distance; felt it, like a tangible prickling of
the nerves, when he passed the limit of Narayan's perceptions. Yes, we were still bound, like an invisible
net! If I could
only read his thoughts . . . but no. Then he'd be able to read mine!
A clamoring, bestial cry ripped the air, a cry
that seemed to ring and echo up out of hell, a cry no human throat could compass.
But I knew what had screamed. That settled the fat man! Narayan jerked all
over, his blonde face white as death. "Raif!"
The word was almost a prayer.
We have-scrambled, half-leaped into the road. Side by side, we ran down the roadway
together.
The
screaming of a bird warned me. I looked up and dodged quickly. Over my head a
great scarlet falcon, wide-winged, wheeled and darted in at me. Narayan's yell
cut the air; I ducked, flinging up a fold of my cloak over my head. I ripped
the knife from my belt and slashed upward, ducking my head, keeping one arm
over my eyes. The bird wavered, hung in the air, watching me with live green
eyes that shifted with every movement. The falcon's trappings were green,
bright against the scarlet feathers.
I knew who had flown this
bird!
The
falcon wheeled, banking like a plane, and rushed in again. Falcon?
But no egg had hatched these birds, and I knew who had shaped these scarlet
pinions!
From
behind my cloak-wrapped arm I saw Narayan pull the pistol-like electro-rod, and
screamed warning:
"Drop it. Quick!"
The
bird, holding Evarin's powers at this moment, could turn gunfire as easily as
Evarin himself; could absorb the energy and in turn be re-charged by it. And if
the falcon drew a drop of my blood, then I was slave to whoever had flown it*
I
thrust upward with the knife, dodging between the bird's wings. Men leaped
toward us, knives out and ready. The bird screamed wildly, flew upward a little
way, and hovered, watching us with those curiously intelligent green eyes.
Another falcon, and another, winged across the road, and a thin uncanny
screeching echoed in the icy air. I heard a tinny jingle of little bells. The
three birds—golden- and green-trapped and harnessed in royal purple—swung above
us; three pairs of unwinking jewel eyes hung motionless in a row. And far
behind us, against the darkening sky at the horizon, the dropping red sun
silhouetted three figures, on horses, motionless there; Evarin, Idris and
Karamy, intent on the falcon-play, three traitors baiting the one who had escaped
their hands.
For
a moment, briefly, I wished I were on the other side of this hunt. Slaves we
had in plenty, but the taking of passive victims is dull stuff, and ai, the
falcon-game was good sport! Body left behind, all senses poured into the stuff
of the bird, soaring and darting down upon the terrified victim, playing with
him as an eagle plays with her helpless prey! Darting at the eyes, the tender
parts, thrusting, drawing the blood which gave power over him, watching the helpless terror of the victim. Or, at times—but
how rarely!—a spirited fight against some victim made bold by despair. A dangerous game, for if he killed the bird, it was a painful and
nasty shock. But what is a game without danger? There were always more
birds. And the victim who escaped your hands once could be taken and tormented
at leisure.
And
I had faced the falcons before this, too; flown, myself, against another for a
wager, or pitted myself, armed only with a knife, against another's bird. But
this was no rough game with my kindred for careless sport or light stakes. This
was deadly in earnest; they had all massed themselves against me, and I'd need
every scrap of skill.
The
falcons hung, poised, swept inward in massed attack. They darted between my
knife and Narayan's; behind me a fearful scream rang out, and I knew one of the
falcons, at least, had drawn blood; that one of the men behind us was not ours!
Turning and stumbling, the stricken man ran blindly through the clearing, down
the road; tripped, reeled, stumbled over the body of a man who lay across the
roadway under his feet. Narayan gave a gasping, retching sound, and I whirled
in time to see him jerk out his electro-rod and fire shot after wild shot at
the stumbling figure that had been our man. "Fire!" he panted to me. "Larno
wouldn't want to—to get to them. He'd rather be dead."
I struck down the weapon, savagely.
"Fool! Some hunting they must have!" Narayan began protesting, and I
wrenched the rod from him. The man was far beyond firing range now. At
Narayan's convulsed face I swore, savagely. This weak fool would ruin
everything! What was one man more or less?
I
glanced round, orienting myself quickly. The birds hung away again, and I
motioned Narayan's men in close. "Don't fire on the birds," I
cautioned them. "It only energizes them. They soak up the power from your
weapons. Use knives. Cut their wings and try to immobilize them. Look
out!" The falcons, like chain-lightning, traced thin orbits down in a
flash of color, then darted in, in a slapping confusion of beaks and beating
wings. I backed away, flicking up my cloak, beating at the birds with the
weighted edge; our men, standing in a close circle, back to back fought them
off with knives and the ends of their cloaks, swatting them away. Three times I
heard the inhuman scream, three times I heard the lurching footsteps as a
man—not human any more—broke away from us and ran blindly, stumbling, toward
the distant ridge.
I heard Narayan cry out, whirled to him. He
ran toward me, beating back the purple-trapped bird that darted in and out on
swift, agile wings. The screeching of the falcons, the flapping of cloaks, the
hoarse breathing of men hard-pressed, gave the whole scene a nightmarish
unreality in which the only real thing was Narayan fighting at my side. His gasp
made me whirl by instinct, flinging up my cloak to protect my back; my knife
thrust out to cover his throat. He raked a long gash across the falcon's head
above the beak, was rewarded with a scream of unbirdlike agony and the spasmodic
open-and-shut convulsing of the talons. They razored
outclawing. They furrowed a slash in the Dreamer's arm. The deadly beak
darted in to cut, but I threw myself forward, unprotected, off balance, ready
to strike.
At the last moment, talons and beak drew back
from
Narayan, turned aside straight for me, with more than
birdlike intelligence! And my knife was turned aside guarding Narayan!
But
Narayan jerked aside. His knifefell unheeded in the road as his arms shot out
and grabbed the bird behind the head, twisting his whole body convulsively to
be out of range of the stabbing needle of beak. The bird lunged, pecking at the
cloak that wrapped his forearm. Thrown off balance, I stumbled against Narayan
and we fell together in a tangle of cloaks and knives and thrashing, slapping
wings, asprawl in the road. The wings beat like a cyclone, the cruel talons,
thrust with the power of steel, raked my face and Narayan's, but Narayan hung
on grimly, holding the deadly beak away. I fumbled, blinded by the wings slapping
against my face, for the knife; thrust again and again. Thin yellow blood
spouted in great gouts, splattering us both with burning venom.
I snatched the struggling bird from the
Dreamer's weakening hands and twisted until I heard the neck snap in my fingers. The bird's
wild struggles suddenly stopped; it went limp between my hands. Whatever had
given it life had withdrawn.
And
high on the ridge above us the dwarfed figure of Id-ris threw up his hands and
collapsed like an empty sack across the pommel of his saddle.
Narayan's
breath went out in a long, limp sigh as we untangled our twisted bodies from
one another and the dead falcon. Our eyes met briefly as we mopped away the
blood, and he smiled, shakily, spontaneously. Damn it, what a waste! I liked this
man! Almost I wished I need not send him back to tranced and
horrible dreams.
He said quietly "There
is a life between us now."
I twisted my face into a smile matching his.
"That's one of them," I said savagely, turned to watch the other two
falcons tearing into the ring of men. "Come on," Narayan shouted, and
we flung ourselves into the breach. I threw down my knife, snatched a sword
from somebody, and waded in, swinging the sword in great arcs which seemed
somehow right and natural. The men scattered before the sword, like scared
chickens. The falcons dipped down; I went berserk with hate, sweeping it in
vicious semicircles against the lashing birds.
The
sword cut empty air and I realized, blankly, that both birds lay cut to ribbons
at my feet. Their yellow blood washed the dead leaves. Narayan's eyes swam
through a red haze into my field of vision. They were watching me, trouble and
fright in their gray depths. I forced myself to sanity and dropped the sword on
the dead birds.
"That's that," I said briefly.
We
took toll of our losses. Three, four men, lost to the slavery of the birds.
Most of the rest had razor-slashes from the talons, and Narayan, gasping with
pain, rubbed a spot of the yellow blood from his face, "That stuff
burns!" he grimaced. I laughed,
tightly. He didn't have to tell me. We'd both have festered burns, deep as the
brand of red-hot iron, to deal with tomorrow; the stuff Evarin used for the
"blood" of his birds was deadly.
"You
saved my life." Narayan's voice was quiet, and I bit my lip against
murderous rage. Fool that I was, why hadn't I stood back? The Dreamers are invulnerable to ordinary human attacks, but
they can be put out of action—
And
yet I had acted without thinking, to save Narayan. Was there such a bond
between us? I found myself shaking with doubt.
"Are
you hurt?" Narayan asked. "Let me see your arm," but I shoved
him away. Savagely, I told myself not to be a fool. Of course I had protected Narayan. I needed him still, and I wanted him strong and
unharmed; nothing as quick and simple as an easy death. He'd rather die than go
back to the Dreamer's Keep; I felt sure of that. Well, he wasn't going to be
given a choice.
"Look!"
One of the men stared, pointed upward, his face tense with fright. Another
great bird of prey hung balanced on the wind above us; but as we watched, it
wheeled and swiftly winged toward the Rainbow City. One of the men was quickly
nocking an arrow to -the bow, but the bird was too far and too high; I could
barely see the azure shimmer of the bells and harness. A thin sweet tinkling
came from them, like a mocking echo of the spell-singer's voice.
Gaminel
CHAPTER NINE
Back in the windowless house, we snatched a hurried meal, cared for our slashes and
burns, and tried to plan further. The others had not been idle while I led a
picked party against the falcons. All day Narayan's vaunted army had been
accumulating—I could hardly say assembling— in the great bowl of land between
Rainbow City and the Dreamer's Keep.
There
were, perhaps, four thousand men, armed with clumsy powder weapons, not more
than half a hundred of the electro-rods like Narayan's, with worn swords that
looked as if they had been long buried, with pitchforks, with scythes, even
with knobbed wooden clubs. I was put to it to conceal my contempt for this
ragtag and bobtail of an army. And Narayan proposed to storm the might of
Nara-bedla, the magical powers of Rainbow City with this?
Yet everywhere I saw looks, heard scraps of
conversation, cries and salutes, showing me the confidence that these
desperate men had in their leader. Were they all mad, or deluded? So much the better, I thought grimly. Take him from them, and they'll scatter to
their rat-holes again!
I
felt my lips twisting in a bitter smile. They trusted Adric, too—Adric, who had
freed the Dreamer. When I had shown myself to them, their shouts had
made the very trees echo. Well—again the ironic smile came, unbidden— that was
just as well too. When Narayan was properly re-prisoned, I could use the power
of their lost leader to tear down what he himself had built. The thought was
deli-ciously funny.
"What are you laughing about?"
Narayan asked me. We were lounging on the steps of the house, watching the men
thronging around the camp. His slumberous gray eyes held deep sparks of fire,
and without waiting for my answer, he went on, "Think of it! The curse of
the Dreamers' magic lifted from this land. The tyranny of the
Rainbow Cities gone forever. Think what it means! It means life and hope
for any number of people, with no more fear, no more slavery, no sacrifices and
raids, no evil birds—" he broke off, spreading his hands in a helpless
gesture. "But you can't know. Even with all of Adric's memories, you
couldn't know!"
I
remembered that he thought I was still Michael Kenscott. Dimly, like something
in a dream, I could remember Michael's loyalty for Narayan. They were two of a kind, fools, soft
weaklings. . . .
And
even more dimly I could remember when I had shared that dream, when it had
seemed more worthy than the lust for power. Cynara came down the steps and bent
to me, laying her soft arm around my shoulder, and I drew her down, but a
volcano of hate, so great that I had to hide my face, burned up in me. This man
Narayan was my equal—no, I admitted it grudgingly, my superior—and I hated him
for it. I hated him because he could not be killed save by mischance, and
because he risked that invulnerable state in a way I would never have dared, even in the days when I had been guarded by all
his magic. I hated him because I knew that in his dream of power no one would
suffer, and I hated him because I knew what I would do with his powers, once I had him safely bound in the
Dreamer's Keep again, fed with the energy that would force him to give them up
piecemeal to me. And above all, I hated him because once I had been weak
enough to share his dream.
"You
said once there was no magic in your world, Michael," Narayan broke into
my thoughts, and I started. Well, let him deceive himself! I shrugged. "I suppose you'd call the forces of my world magical
enough, until you understood them," I temporized.
"The
falcon-hunt—Adric told me once that if the falcon was destroyed, the one who was inhabiting it went into shock," Narayan said
musingly. "That means Idris, Evarin, Karamy, all three of them out of
action for a time. If we could strike right away—"
I
said abruptly, "Your plans are good, Narayan. There's just one thing wrong
with them; they won't work. Storming Rainbow City won't get you anywhere. It
won't even make a beginning. You could kill Karamy's slaves by the hundreds, or
the thousands, or the millions, but you couldn't kill Karamy. And the more
slaves you kill, the more she'll search out and enslave to replace them. You've
got to strike at them in the Dreamer's Keep. It's the only place they're
vulnerable."
He
did not question my knowledge, or Adric's memories. It was Cynara who reminded
me, "Narayan's freedom is limited, remember. He cannot go into Rainbow
City, or to the Dreamer's Keep, because Adric, freeing him, could not locate
his talisman."
Narayan nodded. "So I've no choice. I'll
have to attack them on the road to the Keep, and take my chances."
"What's your army for?" I asked,
rudely, "to knock down haycocks? The army can deal with the guards, and
the slaves, but the Narabedlans have to be taken in the Dreamer's Keep; it's
the only way. I'll go to Rainbow City for you, and get the thing!"
"You?" Narayan and Cynara turned on me, simultaneously, and I reminded myself
not to seem too confident; it was Kenscott's display of weakness that had made
Adric trust him. But Cynara's eyes were glowing. "Yes, and I'll go too, in
case your memories fail."
Good,
good and better! That suited me perfectly! Rainbow City was empty except for
old Rhys, and perhaps Gamine, who had not flown falcon with the others, and was
presumably indifferent to the internal struggles of the other Narabedlans. But
Narayan looked doubtful. "Adric tried that once," he said sombrely,
"and all that happened was Karamy recaptured him, and sent him out on the
Time Ellipse."
"But
Karamy won't be here this time; she and the others will be busy with your
army," I reminded him. It was settled that way, and I listened to their
plans and suggestions, half contemptuously. Yes, the Narabedlans were
vulnerable in the Dreamer's Keep, but if I were there, with Narayan, and
Narayan's talisman in my hands, I could stop worrying about Evarin, Idris and
the rest.
Cynara
bent lightly to touch the ripped talon-mark across my face. "You're hurt
again, and you never told me," she accused. "Come this minute and let
me take care of it!"
I
almost laughed. Me, Adric of the Crimson Tower, being ordered around by a
little country girl! I snorted, but spoke pleasantly,
"I'll live, I expect. Come and sit here
with us." I pulled her down at my side, but she leaned her head against
her brother's knee, and her face was troubled.
She
was a pretty thing, and I thought, watching her, that I could forgive her,
almost, for being the cause of all my troubles. When I took the girl, for a whim, from among Karamy's slaves, I had not known she was Narayan's
sister. And then—and then—like a live
wire jolting in my brain, the flash and the blankness. What lay hidden there? What had I forgotten? I put my two fists to my temples, as if to
tear out the memory by main force, but nothing came except the blur of a
face—blonde like Narayan's, white with terror—and a voice speaking words I
could not understand, the silvery-sweet voice of Gamine. Who, what was Gamine?
"Michael—"
Cynara looked frightened, and I brought myself back, by main force, to the
present. I made myself smile.
"You—looked
so fierce, so far away," she said, faltering, "like—like Adric, not
like you."
I
reached out to draw her to me, but she pulled away, rising lightly to her feet,
like a dove poised for flight. I raised her slim fingers to my lips for a
moment before I freed her. The gesture pleased her, so much that I watched with
contempt as she tripped away^ Silly, simple girl! It would please her!
The
white sun, incandescent on the horizon, was still bright enough to blur the red
sun to a pale spot, when we set out for Rainbow City. Cynara rode at my side;
Narayan was to come a part of the way. Kerrel had taken the army, in sections,
to set an ambush for Karamy's guard near the Dreamer's Keep; I listened to
Narayan giving him instructions, to the sound of grief in his voice when he
spoke Raif's name.
But
at last we took the opposite road, a winding, twisting road that led through
the forested country to Rainbow City. Cynara rode beside me, her dark eyes
brilliant, her cheeks red with the cold, lovely in her gray dress, but it did
not suit her as the winged, flame-colored cloak of Narabedla had suited her.
There was dainty witchery in Cynara, and a pretty
trust that made me smile and promise, recklessly, "We will win." It
pleased me to think that I could comfort Cynara for her brother's downfall.
Once conditioned anew to Rainbow City, she would forget all this, and be a
fair and beautiful companion. If she continued to please me.
Well, it might be amusing to see this unformed country girl wield all the power
of Karamy the Goldenl
But would she ever look at me with so much trust again?
I cursed
my fancies, savagely, and dug my heels into my horse's flank. What did that
matter? Was I morbid or mad again to care for that?
It
took us an hour of hard riding to reach the lip of the great cup of land, where
we paused, looking down the dark, almost-straight
alleyway of trees that led to the walls of Rainbow City. I whistled tunelessly
between my teeth.
"Whatever
we do, it's going to be wrong," I said. "We'd be taking quite a
chance to ride up to the main gate this way. At the same time, they'd be expecting
us—if we came at all—to sneak in the back way; they'd never expect us to ride
straight up the front avenue."
"The
deer walks safest at the hunter's door," quoted Nar-ayan, laughing, "but won't they be expecting us to use that kind of
logic?"
Cynara giggled but stopped at my frown.
"At that rate," I said, "we could go on all night."
Narayan
reached overhead, snatching down a crackling sheaf of frost-berries, selected
one narrow pod. He held it between finger and thumb. "Chance.
Two seeds, we go around; three, we ride straight up to the main gate.
Agreed?" I nodded, and he crushed the dry husk. One, two, three seeds
rolled into my outstretched palm.
"Fate," said
Narayan. "Ready?"
I jounced the seeds in my palm. "One for
Evarin, and one for Idris, and one for Karamy," I said contemptuously, and
flung the little black balls into the road. "We'll scatter them like
that."
We were lucky. The drive was deserted; if
there were guards out, they had been posted on the secret paths that Adric
knew. Straight toward the towers we rode, and just before dusk we checked our
horses and tethered them within half a mile of the Rainbow City, going forward
cautiously on foot. I objected to this arrangement. "I'll get in
alone," I told them. "If anything happens to me, they mustn't lose
you as well."
"I can't go inside," Narayan said,
"but I'll come as close as I can. If anything goes wrong, well, I'll be
here to help."
Silently,
I damned the man's loyalty, but there was nothing I could say without spoiling
the illusion I had worked so hard to create. I took his hand for a moment.
"Thank you."
His voice was equally
abrupt. "Good luck."
Cynara
moved forward with me; I stopped, glanced at her with a frown.
"I'm coming," she said fiercely,
and clung to my hand. "I'm coming, and there's no way you can stop
me!" So much loyalty? For me?
Still,
she might be useful, if only as hostage later. "Come on, then," I
said, "but keep your wits about you. They'll probably have all the
bolt-holes guarded, and I'm not even sure yet how we're going to get in."
"Narayan," she
asked, "can you help?"
The
young Dreamer's face was in shadow, where we stood under the great dark loom of
the outwalls, but I could tell that he was very pale.
"Perhaps," he muttered, seeming to force the words out through some
strange sluggishness. "I
will try. Brennan came this
way," he shook his head, as if dizzied.
"Maybe
you'd better try," I said cautiously, "I have no magic,
remember."
We
moved slowly along, keeping; in the lee of the rampart; Narayan moved
unsteadily, on faltering feet. Then he stumbled; quickly, my hand was on his
arm.
"You'd better go back," I said
quickly. "We'll find a way in somehow."
I needed Nárayan whole and strong, later! Afterward, when he
had served my turn—
Cynara
was looking at him, trouble in her eyes. He tried to smile reassuringly, but
the effort only contracted the muscles of his face. "I don't know—exactly
why it is," he said thickly, "I don't know what was done, but as I
come closer to the walls I can feel my strength—leaving—me—"
I
supported him upright, guiding his steps back away from the outwalk On the surface, I was all solicitude; inwardly I rejoiced.
Now I knew what I wanted to know. Not in my lifetime had a freed Dreamer walked
in Narabedla, except for old Rhys who was one of us, and my knowledge was hazy;
I had not known how close Narayan could comei to the forbidden
areas.
Long
years ago, generations ago, when the Dreamers first threatened the might of
Rainbow City, there had been another Toymaker in Narabedla, and he had found
the way to bind the Dreamers. They could not be killed. But he had made, and
set up in Rainbow City, a device—blurred, vague memories of Mike Kenscott's world
flickered across my consciousness, with words like vibrations, and subsonics— which,
harmless to everyone else, worked selectively on the Dreamers who had been
bound to Narabedla. A similar device, in the Dreamer's Keep, held them bound
in their tranced sleep. Still a child, each of the mutant Dreamers was brought
into contact with this device, and bound into rapport with one of the
Narabedlans, as Narayan to me.
The
effects of this device could be nullified, for brief periods of time, by the
talismans. The Narabedlan kept the talisman (magic? vibrations?) which would
wake his Dreamer and at the time of the sacrifice, the Dreamer was waked; fed
with the life-energy that increased his powers tenfold, and these powers
transferred to the giver of the sacrifice.
Magic?
Narayan
brushed a hand across his eyes. "I'm all right here," he told me.
"But until you get my talisman, this is about as close as I can
come."
Did
he really think I would turn it over to him? Yes, I supposed he was that
foolish, to think that Adric, having given him his freedom, would also make him
free of Rainbow City and the Dreamer's Keep—to destroy us all!
Cynara
looked back at Narayan, uneasily, as we approached the
outwalls again. But my attention was turned to the problem of getting in.
I looked up at the ramparts of the outwall,
surrounding the great semicircle of towers that was Rainbow City, their
iridescent shine blurred to a dark glow in the dying sunlight. Rainbow City, a city no longer. Old, half-blurred memories
nagged at me; there had been a day
when this great castle had been alive with men and women, filled to the brim
with joyous bustle, sport, and happiness—not the eerie, half-deserted haunt of
half a dozen surviving warlocks of my caste, with their zombie retinue of the
living dead! Cynara's hand felt warm in mine, and I felt that for a moment she almost shared my thoughts.
"It could be so
beautiful."
"It
will be beautiful again," I promised,
"but just now we have to get in."
Around
an angle of the ramparts there was a gate, little known, perhaps unguarded. We
approached it fearfully, expecting every moment to hear a challenge or feel a
bolt out of darkness; stole closer, keeping in the lee of the rampart.
The gate was open.
It
swung, ajar, on hinges that creaked softly, rhythmically back and forth. Beyond
it was darkness. I swept Cynara back with one arm, staring with hard eyes at
that inviting darkness. "Careful," I muttered, "it. could be a trap."
And
I had no magic! Carefully,
on tiptoe, I stole closer to the gate.
Still nothing but the silent creaking. I beckoned with one arm, stepping through.
Cynara followed me, her light footsteps sounding loud in the echoing
stillness.
We were inside Rainbow
City.
We
stood in a pillared court, long and narrow, alabaster flagstones under foot, a
long dark passageway opening before us, a dim patch of sunset sky high
overhead. At one end of the court was a curved high-rising wall, shimmering
greenly, the Emerald Tower, and at the other end, the pale loom of the Azure
Tower rose blue and high over us. The colors were dimmed with dusk, and our
very breathing seemed to give back echoes. I stood, looking around, trying to
orient myself. The walls of the court cut off any view of the other towers, and
as always, when I tried to concentrate on any one detail it grew vague in my
mind.
Cynara
flinched and cried out as a shadow crossed us; I whirled, my breath coming loud, my hand already dragging my sword from
the sheath. High above us a falcon wheeled, spiraled
down; I heard the thin-sweet tinkling of bells. Gamine! I thrust Cynara behind me, but the falcon
made no move to attack; it hovered, eyes bright with mechanical glitter,
pinions moving faintly to sustain it on the high air above us. I clenched my
fingers nervously on sword-hilt, itching to strike, but it hung out of reach,
just watching, and somehow the poise of the wings made me think of the calm,
malicious detachment of Gamine. But I kept my hand on my sword, guiding Cynara
with one hand into the passageway.
It
was wide and high, but seemed cramped after the open court, and I walked
warily, glancing over my shoulder to see if the falcon would follow, but it did
not. I saw it dart down and veer away again; heard the high screeching and the
jingle of bells as it swept upward and vanished from our sight.
I went quickly now, finding my way through
the labyrinth toward the Crimson Tower, Cynara hurrying at my side. We crossed
open courts with pools and gardens and fountains quickly, keeping in the lee
of the buildings, wary of being seen. I knew where I was, now. One more court, and one more passageway . . .
Before
us, the walls of the Crimson Tower rose at last, shining like a still-burning
coal. Low lurid light burned in the courtyard before us; I breathed more
freely. Now, at least,
I was on familiar ground.
Cynara
screamed, and I whirled, sword out and ready. Behind me, advancing in an
unbroken line that spanned the court from one side to another, a round dozen of
Karamy's guards in their gold and crimson advanced on slow feet; the lurid
light sparked red on the steel tips of eight-foot pikes, leveled in a
spear-wall toward my breast. In the burning twilight their faces were stolid,
expressionless; they called no challenge, seemed to show neither battle-lust
nor excitement. They simply advanced, step by mechanical step, pikes extended.
Cynara shrank away; I took a step backward, daring my eyes along the line. Hopeless. There was no break in that solid phalanx, that advanced foot by slow foot, relentlessly.
"Quick," I cried, "Cynara! Into the tower!" and gripped my sword,
not that I could reach any of them against those long pikes! My eyes darted
from side to side, seeking escape. The steel points came closer, closer. . . .
Then
one of the zombie guards leaped into the -air, still horribly silent, clawed at
his breast, collapsed and lay still, with a clattering of his pike. I flung the
useless sword away, snatched at the fallen guard's pike. Behind me Cynara
stood shaking, Narayan's long black electro-rod in her small hands; she was
steadying the weapon with both hands, twisting it frantically for another shot.
The
zombie guards had neither halted nor hesitated, advancing step by mechanical
step, closing the rank of their dead comrade. Gripping the pike, I swung it,
knocked two of the oncoming pikes aside, while the guards tottered and fell
back. I ran the pike into one man's breast; he writhed horribly, half jerking
the weapon from my hands, in that terrible voiceless silence; then died without
a groan. I pulled the pike clear, leaped up the steps of the Crimson Tower.
Past me, a white bolt crackled and another of the guards leaped, silently
clawed his breast, and fell lifeless.
Still
in that ghastly silence, the remaining pikesmen milled m confusion. I snatched
the electro-rod from Cynara, my fingers manipulating the controls with swift
skill; swept it into the ranks. The guards, half their number lying dead, ran
aimlessly back and forth, pikes thrusting mindlessly into the air, as if at
some silent signal, then turned and silently fled, the sound of their booted
feet dying away on the stones.
I
wiped my brow and looked round at Cynara, pale and shaking at my back. I had
not known she had the weapon or that she knew how to use itl
"They're
gone," she said, and I heard the effort she was making to keep her voice
steady, "but they may be back. I'll keep watch here, while you're in the
Tower."
I
nodded, my breath coming in great gasps, and went into the tower. There might
not be much time. If Karamy had set this trap for me, there might be others. I
went up the stairs, slowly, rounding every bend with caution, but the Tower was
silent and deserted.
Quickly,
I ransacked room after room, to no avail. When she took my memories, Karamy had
also been careful to take anything that would give me power over any of the
Dreamers, even old Rhys. As for the thing that would force Narayan to my will
again, I could find it nowhere.
I
went up more stairs until I stood at the very pinnacle of the Tower; Adric's
star-room; into which I had been catapulted—was it less than three days ago? I
stood at the high window, vaguely thinking of a younger self, an Adric who had
watched the stars here, not alone. I traced back through the years, diving down
into the seas of sudden memory, and brought up the knowledge of—
"Kenscott!"
said a voice behind me, and I whirled to look into the face of a man I had
never seen before.
He
had the primitive look of a man out of the forgotten past. I had seen such
creatures as I swam in the nowhere of the Time Ellipse. He was tall,
clean-shaven; he looked athletic; his eyes and hair were a ridiculous color,
pale brown. He looked angry, if he could be said to have any expression at all.
But he spoke clearly and
with deliberate calm.
"Well,
Michael Kenscott," he said, "you have taken my place very nicely. I
suppose I should thank you. You've fooled Karamy into giving me my freedom, and
Narayan into giving me his trust, and the rest, I think I can manage for
myself!" He laughed. "In fact, you're so much me that you don't seem to know who you are! What weak creatures you people
are! But I can force you back into your own body, such as it
is."
The
man was mad! At any rate, he'd insulted the Lord Adric in his own Tower, and by
Zandru's eyelashes, he'd pay for it! I flung myself at him with a yell of rage;
my fingers dug into his throat.
And
I cried out in the strangling clutch of long lean fingers grabbing at me,
clutching my shoulders, biting into my neck.
An agonizing wrench shuddered over my body, a painful and somehow familiar jolt. I faced— Adric!
CHAPTER TEN
Of course I understood, even while I fought, dizzy and reeling, to loosen the
death-grip I'd put on my own throat. I was back, I was me, I
was Mike Kenscott again.
Adric
loosened his hands of his own free will, and stepped away, breathing hard.
"Thank you," he said, in the harsh voice that had been mine for so
long. "I myself could hardly have done better. No, I won't strangle
you."
With
one swift movement, he snatched something from a little recess in the
wall—pointed, twisted—and fired point-blank at me. A white bolt zipped at me.
To
my amazement, only a pleasant, tingling heat warmed me. I had enough
split-second reasoning reflex left to claw at my breast and fall in a slumped
huddle to the ground. Adric fumbled in his pockets, half-drew his sword as if
to reassure himself it was there; pulled out the little mirror I had taken from
Evarin, still wrapped in its protective silks. I watched, breathless, between
narrowed eyelids. If he would only look into it.
Instead,
with a shudder of disgust, he flung it at me. With a braced, agonizing effort,
I made myself lie perfectly still, not flinching to avoid the blow. The thing
struck my forehead; I felt blood break to the surface and trickle wetly down
my face. I heard Adric's firm receding steps and the risp of a closing door. He
was gone.
I
moved. To this day I am not sure how I escaped death from Adric's weapon, but I
believe it was because I was in my
own body—and his world. After I had touched Adric the first time, my reaction to earth's
electricity had changed. In this world I was not immune to their forces, but I
could absorb them without damage. I wiped the blood from my temple, glancing
with brief, startled recognition at my own hands again.
Cynaral
Cynara, waiting at the foot of the Crimson Tower, waiting for me, in Adric's bodyl I forgot that, overshadowed by Adric's memories, I had
plotted against Narayan and Cynara; remembered, with anguish, the trust in
Cynara's eyes. What
would Adric do to her and to Narayan?
I
grabbed up the mirror, crammed it into my pocket. Against the nightmare haste
that drove me, I ran to the closet I remembered from that first day; quickly,
from the racks of weapons, chose a short, ugly knife. I wouldn't need swordsman's
training to use that!
Thank
God, I knew my way around the place; I could remember everything I had done
when I was Adric! But I could also "remember" what he had done when
he was me! (A vague, shocking memory of a scene with Andy half-stopped my
heart, but I had no time f r that now.) That meant that Adric could also
"remember" everything which I had done and planned with Narayan!
This
crazy, mixed-up business of identity! Would I ever again be sure, again, which
of us was which?
I
dashed out of the tower room, ran down the endless stairs three at a time,
heart pounding. The fallen zombie-guards still lay dead in the courtyard, but
there was no sign of Cynara, nor of Adric.
"Cynara!" I shouted her name.
An
eerie screaming answered me, and a dangerous whirring of wings suddenly beat
around my head. I staggered, almost fell backward as one of the murderous
falcons, the one in blue, darted at me. I backed
against the wall, but the bird darted in again; I drew my knife, but the bird
hung off. Suddenly it made another dart; I edged along the wall, knife poised.
Again it veered away and hung there, regarding me with those live eyes. The
damned bird was herding
me toward the blue tower!
And
Gamine had not flown falcon with the others! Cautiously, I moved toward the
blue tower walls; the falcon followed me at a careful distance, out of
knife-reach, hovering. Experimentally I took a step back toward the crimson
tower, and the bird darted in again, the strong pinions beating in the enclosed
space, the vicious little beak thrusting at me.
Cynara!
What had happened to her? I tried to dodge past the bird; was enveloped in the
flapping darkness of wings, beating hard against my face. Spent, breathless, I
let myself be driven back and back, toward the blue walls of Gamine's tower;
retreated slowly up the stairs, step after step.
The
bird darted past me, poised in the stair-well. Blindly I slashed upward with
the knife, was rewarded with a splatter of thin burning blood, but the bird,
still not disabled, darted and pecked at me, driving me up and up.
"All
right, damn it," I grated, ducked beneath the threshing wings and ran, up
the stairs toward the pinnacle of the blue tower. Behind me, abruptly, the
falcon flapped, threshed, went limp and rolled down the stairs, a tangle of
wings, landing far below with a flailing thump, the life withdrawn from it.
I paused on the stairs, breathing hard. What
now? Gamine was no friend to Adric, I knew that. My memories of Adric did not
help me here; Adric had had a blankness in his memory
around Gamine, a blurring and invisibility, a place where sight and memory
stopped short. Had he ever seen Gamine?
Could Gamine help me against Adric?
What
was Adric doing now? I had served him well; won Narayan's trust, then turned
him loose again in his own body, to betray and destroy Narayan again—the one
hope against
Rainbow
City, delivered into the hands of the man who had first freed, then turned
against him!
And
even yet I could not wholly hate Adric. I had lived three days and three nights
in Adric's body and brain; I knew his strengths, his weaknesses, his dreams and
his torments, his desires and his fears. I could not wholly condemn him.
He
had done good once. He had freed the Dreamer, he had
shared Narayan's dream of freeing Narabedla from the slavery of the Rainbow
City, but why had he changed? Karamy's devilments? Few
men would be to blame for yielding to Karamy's spells, the Golden Witch of
Narabedla.
A
shadow flitted across my sight; the robed and veiled Gamine stood above me in
the stair-well, an air of cold amusement in the Spell-singer's mocking voice.
"How like you this body, Adric? You are beaten now for sure! The stranger
works with Narayan in your body, Adric!" The cold, neutral laughter
chilled my blood. "Watch and see what you will do!"
"I'm
not Adric," I shouted. "Adric's in his own body again, he got back,
he's going to betray Narayan and Cynara."
"I
expect you would like me to believe that," Gamine murmured, contempt in
the clear, sexless voice.
I
clenched my fists, shaking with rage at the delay. Cynara at
Adric's mercy, and Narayan. Suddenly I thought of the one person who
would know. Rhys!
"Let me by to Rhys," I begged.
"He'll know that I'm telling the truth!" How did I know that? Gamine laughed, and, infuriated by the
mocking laughter, I shouted "Damn you, let me by," and thrust out my
arms to move Gamine forcibly out of my way.
Whatever Gamine was—woman, man, imp, witch or
robot—it was not human. Steel wires seemed to writhe between my hands. I
struggled impotently with that bone-breaking grip; then, on swift impulse,
thrust my hands swiftly at the blurred invisibility where Gamine's face should
have been.
Gamine
screamed, a thin cry of horror and despair. Suddenly
I knew where I had been during those two weeks in the
hospital when Adric lay lifeless in my body, in the hospital, in my place,
crushed and shocked with unfamiliar force. An instinct I had grown to trust
warned me to pull away, sharply, from Gamine's relaxed grip. I shouldered by
and ran like hell.
Halfway
up the last flight of stairs, I heard the Spell-singer's running feet behind
me; I quickened my stride and sprinted for the heavy door at the top of the
steps. I could feel
Rhys' presence behind that
door! I threw my weight against the door, twisted the handle frantically.
The door was locked.
Behind
me I heard the soft, silk-shod feet of Gamine, and hopelessly I put my back to
the door, my hand on Adric's knife. If there was no other way—
The
door opened suddenly and I was flung backward, sprawling, into the room.
"Well, Michael Kenscott," said the old, tired voice of Rhys,
"you are a fool, but Gamine is no better. I knew you were not strong
enough to crowd out Adric, but I had to try. Yes, I knew you were coming. I know where Adric has gone. I know
where Narayan is, and what they plan to do."
I
picked myself up angrily from the floor. The old Dreamer's calm voice, his
serene wrinkled face beneath the peaked cowl, stirred me to sudden blind rage.
I clenched my fists and advanced on him. "You know all that? Is there
anything you don't know?"
Gamine had come into the room behind me; the
old Dreamer stared over my shoulder at Gamine and said wearily, "I don't
know whether you can stop them now. I let it go too far because I wanted peace,
because I still hoped—" he spread his hands in a curious, hopeless
gesture.
The dreamy look of the very old, or the very
young, was on his face. "I hoped—but no matter. It is time, Gamine. You
must go with Narayan to the Dreamer's Keep."
"No,"
Gamine whispered in protest. "Narayan cannot go there! His talisman was
destroyed! When Adric freed him, still fearing him, Adric kept the talisman and
Karamy took it from him, and destroyed it!"
So
that was what Adric had been seeking, without my knowing why. If I had found
the talisman, and put it into Narayan's hands, then indeed the Dreamer would be
free; free of the device—my training interpreted it as electronic waves,
attuned somehow to the brain of the Dreamers—which would cast him into tranced sleep
if he came within the magnetic field. Bearing this talisman to damp out the
special electronic vibrations, Narayan could go where he would, even into
Rainbow City, or the Dreamer's Keep.
But
the talisman had been destroyed. Adric, his memories blurred by Karamy's magic,
did not know that. A part of Adric's power over Narayan was gone. At least,
Adric could not take and keep the talisman as he had planned, but Narayan was
forever barred from freedom and from the full use of his power.
The talisman—magic? A special vibration device which held and concentrated the powers of
the mind? I did not know. Maybe "magic" was only another word for a
force which I could not understand. But the talisman was the bond between the
sleeping Dreamer and the Narabedlan bound to him, through which
the Dreamer's mind drew on the energy of the sacrifice, transferred that power
to his master.
Old
Rhys had lowered his head into his hands. Now he slowly raised his eyes.
"There is still mine.
Give it to him, Gamine."
At
Gamine's cry of dismay, Rhys' voice was suddenly a whiplash. "Give it to
him! I still have power to—to compel that, even from you! What does it matter
what happens to me? I am old, Gamine—old, and it is Narayan's turn, and
yours!"
Gamine
sobbed, harshly. From the silken veils the Spell-singer drew forth a small
jeweled thing. Like Evarin's mirror, it was wrapped in insulating silks. She
untwisted the silk.
It
was fashioned like a small sword, not a dagger, but a perfectly proportioned sword, a Toy. The hilt was an intricate pattern
of blue crystals. It was about eight inches long. Briefly, another memory not
mine touched me.
They
were always made in the shape of a weapon, these talismans, symbols of the most
powerful weapon known to Rainbow City, the power over the Dreamers.
Evarin's
make, this Toy; Adric had seen its fashioning, when Gamine had been bound to
the old Dreamer—so old that he could safely be freed from the Dreamer's Keep,
bound by ties of blood to Narabedla. Gamine had not cared for power. Gamine had
chosen only this: to sit at the feet of old Rhys and learn his wisdom. And this
had given Rhys the freedom of Rainbow City.
"Michael
must take it from your hands," Rhys' voice was gentler. "While you
hold it, I am still bound to you, Gamine. The power must be transferred by an
act of will. Then, with this in his own hands, Narayan will be free to go where
he will, even to the Dreamer's Keep. Give it to
Michael, Gamine." Rhys sat down, wearily, as if the effort of talking had
tired him past bearing. I stood and listened, with a rebellious patience, but
my eyes were on the little Toy in Gamine's hands. It winked blue. It shimmered.
It pulsed with a curious heartbeat, half-hypnotic. Rhys watched too, his tired
face intent, almost eager.
"Gamine. If Adric had seen you, had remembered—"
"I
want him to remember!" Gamine's low wail was a weird keening in the silent
room, and Rhys sighed.
"I
cannot tell where this will end," he said at last. "I am Narabedlan.
I could not destroy my own people. Gamine is not bound, nor you, Michael
Kenscott. I suppose I am a traitor, but when I was bom, Narabedla was a fair
city, without so many crimes on its head. I have lived to see power grown to a
vast evil, and I have let it grow. Now there must be an end. Go and warn
Narayan."
Gamine
hovered near me, intent, jealous, the shrouded gaze fixed on Rhvs. The old man
said in a fading voice, "Give it to him, Gamine, and let me rest. Stand
away from me, Michael. I have made an end. I do not want to be bound again to
you."
I
did not understand and stood stupidly still; Gamine gave me an angry shove.
"Over there, you fool!"
I
reeled, recovered my balance; stood where Gamine di-. rected,
about twelve feet from the couch where old Rhys leaned back against the
cushions, half-reclining. The old man laid one hand on the hilt of the Toy
talisman sword in Gamine's fingers.
"My
poor city," he whispered. "Alas, for the Children
of the Rainbow! Yet once, their towers were fair beneath the double
sun."
He
took his hand away. He lay back on the cushions. Abruptly Gamine thrust the toy
sword into my hands. I felt a sudden stinging shock, like electric current,
jolt my whole body; saw Gamine's robed form quiver with the same jolt. The Toy
in my hand was suddenly heavy, heavy as if made of lead, and the tiny winking
in the hilt was dulled, dim, dead. The peaked hood of
Rhys drc oped lower; lay un-stirring over his face.
Gamine
caught my arm roughly, and the steel of those inhuman fingers bit to the bone
as thev hauled me almost bodilv from the room. I heard the echo of a sob in the
Spell-singer's whispering croon.
Rhys
farewell!
The
next t^ine I knew, we were racing side bv side down
flight after flight of stairs. Together, we fled through the subterranean passages
of Rainbow City. We came out into the pillared court where, two nights before,
the Children of the Rainbow had assembled to ride to the Dreamer's Keep.
And
across the courtyard I saw the form of a man. His brown tunic was ripped and
torn, his pale face smeared with dirt or blood; he moved slowly, struggling,
forcing himself as if he moved through quicksand, falling to his knees,
sprawling, then painfully dragging himself upright
again in a weary crawl. He braced himself with his two hands and stared at me,
almost without comprehension, then his dragging hands
moved—for a weapon, a spell?
There
was no time for explanations. I threw myself at his knees in a tackle no
football coach would be proud of, but it did the trick. Narayan went down,
sprawling weakly on the flagstones, struggling with the last remnants of
strength.
Good
God! What sheer will-power, what iron strength, had let him force himself so
far into the Rainbow City, into the power of the terrible vibrations which were
spell-binding to a Dreamer? His gray eyes, glazed with pain, looked at me with
suspicion and helpless hate, and he forced his slow, painful movements upright,
to his knees.
"Narayan,
listen," I said urgently, seizing his shoulders, feeling the man tense
himself against me, "I'm not one of Karamy's men!"
"Cynara,
he's got Cynara," the Dreamer muttered dizzily. "Cynara—who in
Zandru's hells are you?" He was almost unconscious, holding onto awareness
with iron will.
"Michael
Kenscott." Suddenly, knowing it was the best way to establish my good
faith, I pulled out the Toy Gamine had put into my hand. "I've seen Rhys.
He sent you this."
The
gray eyes were blurred, half-conscious, but he held out his hand to take the
thing from me.'
In
his hand it came alive. The small jeweled Toy flared suddenly brilliant,
dazzled with a wild sunburst of faceted light: blue, golden, crimson,
flame-orange, opal. Narayan's pale struggling face eased; the glazed eyes
cleared, and he pulled himself up to his feet, erect and strong, alert, drawing
a deep breath of relief and release, and letting it go again.
"In
my own hands," he murmured, almost disbelieving. "Free! I'm
free!" Then, shaking his head and coming out of his half-ecstatic
contemplation, he started, and thrust the talis-an inside his shirt.
"Michael
Kenscott," he said, looking keenly at me. "Yes, I can sense that. I
knew, when Adric came, that he had—changed."
"He's got
Cynara?" I demanded.
Narayan
nodded, grimly, speaking with hard restraint. "Yes. He surprised me,
knocked me out. I fought, but he dragged me inside the court, where I was
powerless. I felt my strength going. Cynara heard me cry out, and came and he
dragged her away."
He
looked past me. The robed, cowled figure of Gamine came noiselessly forward; stopped, a pace or two away from Narayan. I tensed, but
Narayan's gray eyes only widened, grew grave.
Then:
"Gamine,"
he said, very softly. "At last, face to face. Gamine."
"Rhys is gone. But I am here, Narayan
and the time has come." Gamine's soft, sweet voice was barely audible.
"The time has come."
CHAPTER ELEVEN
I broke in rudely, thrusting between the Dreamer and the robed form. "You can
stand here like that," I accused, "but Adric's got Cynara! What will
he do with her?" Cynara, the one real, human thing in this world, the one
who had trusted me, who had even pitied and trusted Adric, and Adric had played
on her trust, carried her away, God knows where!
Narayan
said tensely, "He'll take her to the Dreamer's Keep. It's just the sort of
revenge he'd want to try—" his voice strangled.
"How much start had
he? Narayan?"
"I
don't know. I'm not sure how long I was unconscious. No matter how we ride,
well be too late." He clenched his fists in helpless rage and pain.
"We'd need wings to stop him!"
Gamine cried out, low, "Wings! But we
have wings! The falcons, Narayan! Evarin left the birds here!"
Narayan's
face was convulsed, but he shook his head, resolutely. "No, Gamine. I
can't. If I save Cynara, I lose the only,chance to—to
destroy the power of Narabedla. I can't take that chance. She—" he choked.
"She wouldn't want me to; we've all risked too much to let one life stand
in our way." He turned, grimly. "Come on! Well ride to the Dreamer's
Keep."
But
Gamine caught at me, with that strange strength. "You, Michael," she
said. "You can stop Adric, or delay him! You can go on the wings of a
falcon!"
"What?"
And abruptly the memory rushed over me. The
weird half-memory I had thought a dream. Adric, half-dazed, not knowing whether
he was himself or some other, come back from the Time Ellipse, Mike Kenscott
only a dazed atom in his mind; Adric, his memory gone but knowing by instinct
that he had to warn Narayan, and knowing no other way. He had stolen into the
room of the falcons, he had taken over the bird, he
had flown—
Narayan was blinking at me, wide-eyed.
"We saw a falcon," he said, low. "We thought it was one of
Evarin's spies, and Raif shot it. So Adric really did try to
warn me, once, before Karamy got him into her power again." He
looked grieved, unhappy, but he turned to me. "Michael, Gamine is right.
We are needed in the Dreamer's Keep, Gamine and I, but you—you can overtake
Adric, and delay him, at least. Go as a falcon!"
A
flood of ice-water seemed to drench my being. That was crazy, impossible, a
weird dream! And I'd just gotten back into my own body, after all this time,
and I damned well wasn't going to get out of it /again! I tried to explain all
this to Narayan, but he only repeated, his face drawn and troubled, "It's
Cynara's only chance. Michael, I've no right to ask you, you don't owe us anything.
But for Cynara—"
For Cynara. Cynara, who had trusted me, who had known I wasn't Adric, who had,
perhaps, saved me in Narayan's camp. The thought turned my blood cold, but I
held myself together with both hands, and said thickly, "All right. I'll
try. What—what do I have to do?"
Narayan gripped my hand, painfully hard.
"Good," he muttered. "Show him, Gamine!" -
"Quick! This way!"
I
followed the robed form along a passageway, hauntingly familiar, dreamishly
strange. A curious, sick, almost exhilarating fear braced every muscle in my
body with tingling force, as a dark door opened and I saw the limp shapes of my
dream.
Moving
slowly, hesitantly, searching with every move for the right feel (to match the
vague and elusive memory of a dream?) I reached up and pulled down one of the
limp feather-shapes. It was a fluffy crimson mass, and felt curiously warm to
the touch, not the cool neutral feel of cloth or feathers. Gamine stood by, not
interfering. But when I held it between my hands I turned to the robed and
enigmatic form, suddenly not sure.
"What
do I do now? Adric had some sort of way to transfer his mind, his
consciousness." I stood staring down at the feather-thing, like a limp
pillow, in my hands. "I don't."
Gamine
said, very low, "Pull it over your head. Like a cloak."
I started to unfold the thing; stopped,
shaking, at a razor-touch that left a thin line of blood on my hands. Talonsl I
stared at the fine-steel claws, so exquisitely shaped, but Gamine made an
impatient sound and I pulled it carelessly about my shoulders.
Almost
immediately I felt the strange, not unpleasant sensation I remembered, as if
my head were expanding like a great gaseous balloon, as if I were soaring up
into the ceiling. I felt the falcon-wings expanding, beating—
Dimly
I heard Gamine's warning cry, but the exhilaration of flight was already on
me; with a great extending of wings, I fluttered, was flying. My eyesight was
suddenly sharper, from a new perspective, the room forming strange new
prisoning outlines around me. Not caring, I saw a clumsy two-legged body slump
nerveless to the floor, saw an indistinct form fling the window wide, and I was
out and-gone on the buffeting winds, mounting higher and higher in a sort of
ecstasy of soaring flight. . . .
The sky was colorless pale, but not empty
space. With strange new perceptions I could see, like layered ribbon, the
currents of the wind and air. I rode them upward, dipped one wing and
transferred to a shimmering downdraft, playing, intoxicated with the sense of
space and freedom.
All
my life I had been earthbound! Now for the first time I had the freedom of a
dream, to lift and soar, float motionless on a scrap of wind, then with a mere
touch of motion, drift and hover like a skimming cloud. . . .
Far,
far below me, the rainbow towers were sharp-edged and bright, toylike. Thick,
dark carpet of forest dimmed the curve of the land below me, and far away, low
on the horizon, a dark-rising shape—
The
Dreamer's Keep! The sight recalled me to myself, brought me back from the intoxicating
forgetfulness; Adric bore Cynara into danger, while I played here on the wings
of the wind, carefree as a bird. . . .
Quickly,
I took stock and oriented myself. I was hovering at a great height above the
Rainbow City; far, far below I saw
the court and the gate, and three tiny figures that might have been mounted
men, racing along the roadway. That was not what I wanted. I spread my wings,
riding a swift pale perceptible current of air, and sped eastward.
Tonight
the forest was deserted, though I made out, with the supematurally-keen eyes of
the falcon, the small moving shapes of pale deer and other strange animals. But
nothing human moved in the forests tonight. Narayan's men had all been drawn
away on a grave errand.
I
soared up and up to a still greater height. The land was still clear and
sharp-edged beneath me, every outline distinct—the sort of vision you get from
a tremendously good pair of night glasses. Far away on the horizon I saw a
great moving mass of men; Narayan's army on the march? Further still, serried
ranks moving grimly, I caught a glimmer of red and gold and knew that Karamy's
army of the living dead were prepared to meet the attack. But what of Karamy,
Evarin,
Idris? Was their deadly cavalcade already at the Dreamer's Keep,
was the awful sacrifice already on its way to doom? I didn't know what
Narayan's powers might be, now that he was freed, but could he alone, whatever
his psi force, dare to face three Narabedlans newly charged with force from
that deadly sacrifice? Karamy, Idris, Evarin would be filled to the brim with
power from their Dreamers—in their tranced sleep, glutted with fife-energy,
giving it up to the Narabedlans.
And
Adric was racing to join them—and he had Cynara! But where,
where?
Grateful
for the telescope sight of the falcon, I quartered the country inch by inch,
tracing the roads that wound like white ribbons through the forest. Adric would
take the shortest and straightest road.
There,
there! Far below me, a solitary horseman raced,
crouched over the neck of his steed, a limp, dark burden across his saddle.
Adricl
I
heard my own curses like a high
shrill falcon-cry, and forced it back to silence. That cry might have warned
him! Wheeling, soaring, I rode the downdraft in a long spiral, centering in on
that solitary horseman. Silent, tipping my wings, I soared in, and strange,
nonhuman calculations flickered curiously through my mind; I was aware of his
body as juicy warmth, conscious of the motion of his horse as a tensile interplay of muscle against air, and the bare back of his neck
was like a white glimmering magnet. Strike there, strike there! I hung motionless on the wind above him, beating my pinions just enough
to match the speed of his horse, centering in on that vulnerable patch of skin
where I could thrust, take purchase on his broad shoulders, strike at the root
of the brain.
But
I waited too long. Perhaps some small rustle of wings, perhaps the bird-shadow
crossed his sight, but Adric jerked his body upright in the saddle, arching his
back, crying out curses. He was warned! Cautiously I hung off, watching; then
darted in, going for his eyes.
But
his reflexes were lightning-fast, and he was an old hand at this game. The
slapping edge of a weighted cloak struck one wing, knocking me off balance; I
had to beat both wings to keep from falling like a stone, and when I balanced
again on the air, he had his sword out and was sweeping it in those great arcs
I remembered.
I
flapped my wings in fury, beating back on the air. I could not reach him
without being cut to ribbons! I circled him, grimly, seeking an opening.
Across
the saddle Cynara stirred and moaned. Adric cursed, his glance going swiftly
from the girl to my hovering beak above him, and I exulted; now if Cynara can use her head, she can
divide his attention just enough . . .
Adric's
sword-room was lessened with the girl stirring; he could not move freely, and I
dived in, hearing Cynara's scream of terror. I struck between Adric and the girl,
clawing, darting in my beak, wings beating. Adric toppled backward,
overbalanced; the horse reared, and Cynara slid to the ground, struck heavily
and lay still. I darted in, ready to strike, but Adric recovered, and had his
sword out, making a steel ring between himself and me.
I
cursed and heard again the eerie falcon-scream of rage and frustration, hanging
away again. I circled behind him, but he turned, warily, keeping guarded. I
darted into a sudden opening; slashed, was rewarded with an
explosion of curses from Adric, and saw a long
gash slowly open in his forearm; but he recovered swiftly, swung his sword up
and I overbalanced, tipped, feeling the flight-feather gone from one wing.
Strangely, I felt no pain, but a spasm
of panic fear. I had to struggle for balance.
I
saw Cynara raise herself, slowly, to a sitting
position. Her eyes were wide with terror. I circled in again, feeling the
crippling weight in my wounded wing. Now I must risk all! I dived in like an
airplane, zooming straight at Ad-ric's face. I took him off guard and he overbalanced, fell backward; my claws slashed blood from
his cheek as I dug my talons into him, wings beating, gripping for balance. I bent my beak for the kill.
His
left arm sliced upward; with an eerie scream of fury I saw—too late!—the
sharp-pointed dagger in his hand. I felt
it slice through one wing; plunge into my heart. I saw a splatter of burning
yellow venom, heard Cynara's scream, and I was. . . .
.... I was clinging, sick and shaking, to the
saddle of a galloping horse. Rising wind beat in my face;
above me the moons swung in an indigo sky, and sparks beat from the horse's
hoofs on frosty stone. I gasped, for a moment disoriented, wobbling
dangerously, not knowing what had happened.
Then awareness came. I had lost. Adric had
killed the falcon, and I was back in my own body. . . .
Riding!
Narayan's blonde hair was frosty pale in the moonlight; he rode at my side,
straight in the saddle, his face drawn and intent. At my other side, the robed
Gamine was a nightmare ghost, a phantom.
"Narayan!" I gasped.
He turned in his saddle; drew his horse up
for a moment.
"You're back! What
happened? Adric—"
"I failed," I said bitterly, and
told them. Narayan looked grim, but his hand gripped my shoulder. "Easy!
You did the best you could, and at least you may have delayed him enough."
"But how did I get here?"
"We brought you with us," Gamine
said sharply. "Enough talking! Ride!"
It took all my concentration to stick on the animal's back, but I was acquiring balance and a feel for riding. The ill wind was blowing some good, I thought inanely.
Far
away we heard the sudden spatter of gunfire, the screams of dying men, the ring
of swords and spears, the shrill cry of a falcon. Narayan's face looked
haunted.
"Kerrel
and his men have met the guards! They're attacking!"
The
scream of falcons rang swiftly over Gamine's head. The too-familiar beat of
wings slapped over my back; I flung up one arm to knock away one serpentine
neck. My terrified horse plunged and bucked, and I rocked in the saddle, nearly falling. Another
bird swooped down on Narayan, and another, and then there were swarms of them,
gold and purple and green, crimson, blue, flame-color; the air was thick with
their wings. Gamine screamed. I saw Narayan beating the air with his sword;
the veiled Spell-singer, crouching in the saddle, was lashing them with a whip.
The lash kept the birds at bay, but the razor claws caught at the blue
shroudings.
Narayan,
whip in one hand, sword in the other, beat round him in great arcs, and I heard
one bird's death-cry send ringing echoes through the forest. I got my knife
out, slashed upward.
"The
mirror," screamed Gamine, "Evarin's mirror! Quick, they're coming by
millions!"
They
were, indeed, coming in scores, darkening the sky; whirling and screeching, an
army of ghastly death. These were not the soul-falcons such as I had flown,
elaborately endowed with the intelligence of their launcher and all his human
cunning; these were machines. Alive, yes, and deadly, but not with the life we
knew. Only the nightmare freak of a science gone mad could control, or produce,
these hateful things that were filling the clean air, groping for us with
needle beaks and talons, wild wings beating. Only Evarin—
I fumbled blindly for the mirror-thing,
clumsily stripping away the silks around it. A needle-talon raked my wrist, and
by sheer instinct I struck upward, turning the face of the mirror toward the
bird.
The
falcon reeled in mid-air, flapped, went limp and fell. A tingling shock rattled
through my arm. I dropped the mirror and leaped to catch it. The thing was a
perfect conductor. It drained energy! Now I knew why Evarin had been so anxious
to have me—or Adric—gazing into its depths!
The
birds were brainless, all pure energy, unless controlled by the personality of
the owner, and the Narabedlans had no time for that today, no leisure to play
the falcon-game! But Evarin had loosed them against us, in a last desperate play.
I
grabbed the mirror, and held it upright; I caught a half-glimpse, from the tail of my eye, of the weird lightnings that
coiled inside it, but even that glimpse twisted my stomach in nervous knots.
Shielding my face, I held the thing upward. The birds flew toward it like moths
streaming around a candle; shock after shock flowed along my arm. Three more
of the horrible falcons fell limp, lifeless, drained!
A
strange exhilaration began to buoy me up. The force from the birds was not
electricity, but some kindred energy which my nerves drank greedily. I thrust the
mirror out; was rewarded again with the surge of power, and again the birds, by
dozens this time, flapped and fell.
Then,
as if whatever had loosed the army of falcons had realized their uselessness,
the whole remaining force of the birds wheeled and fled, winging swiftly
overland to the distant donjon that rose high on the horizon.
Recalled to the Dreamer's
Keep!
CHAPTER TWELVE
The flow of strength had renewed me; I felt I could face whatever came. I thrust Evarin's mirror into a pocket; flung a
word to Narayan and we were riding again, Gamine racing behind us. The blue,
shroud-like veils had been slashed to ribbons; I could see the pale gleam of naked flesh
through the torn veiling.
The
noise of battle behind us grew more distinct; I could make out separate explosions, flashes
of colored flame. I shuddered; even now that frightful army of
falcons might be winging to join Evarin.. The rebels
could kill some of them, but for every falcon dead there would be twenty more
slaves for Narabedla. What could Narayan's men, with their scythes and
pitchforks, do against the incredible science of a Toymaker?
Narayan's
strained face was ghastly in the moonlight. I needed no telepathy to read his thoughts. Slaughter for his men. What
for his sister? Our horses seemed to lag, to drag through a mire of
motionlessness, though they were at the full gallop of endurance.
The
sounds of battle drew nearer. Everything in me cried out that I was a fool, riding full tilt into a battle in which I had no personal stake, in a world that was
not my own. Yet something else told me, coldly and with a grim truth, that all I possessed was what I might win today, for this was the only world I would ever know, that I would never see my own world again.
Never!
And Adric should rot in a hell of his own choosing, for that!
But we were passing the sounds of battle! If
we had raced before, now our horses seemed to fly. Behind us the fight raged,
men screamed in the agony of death, wounded horses neighed and I heard the
muffled sound of earth flying upward, exploding in fire. But the sounds grew
dimmer; faded away.
We
had left the forest, and were riding across a dark and hummocky plain. Moss
padded our hoof-noises; now and then some small furry thing skittered across
the track, and twice my horse shied at swooping night-birds and my heart
stopped until I saw they were not the falcons of Evarin.
Stark and black now against a treeless
horizon I could see the Dreamer's Keep. I rode hunched
in the saddle, my eyes on the vast cairn only a few miles away now.
Suddenly
a vast arch of lightning spanned the sky above the Dreamer's Keep. Blue lightning. I heard Narayan groan like a man in his
death-agony; twisting in my saddle, I saw brooding horror on his face, mingled
with pain, and a terrified satisfaction.
"The
sacrifice, I still feel it," he breathed, in labored gasps, "I
still—take strength from it—Michael!" His voice held unbearable torture,
and the veins in the fair face stood out, black and congested with effort.
"If I start to—to work for them—promise
to—promise to shoot me."
"Oh, God—" I
gasped.
"Michael,
promise! Gamine!"
Gamine
spurred her horse to his side; I heard the low, neutral voice, sweet, almost
crooning. Again the vast arc of blueness spanned the sky; Narayan dug his spurs
into his horse's flank and raced ahead of us.
On
the plain, limned starkly in silhouette against the sky, a horseman appeared.
He rode low in the saddle, his horse limping, a
darkness across his saddle. I cursed; I knew that the lean crouched figure,
knew it as well as my own! I had
delayed Adric, but now he rode to the sacrifice, and before him, limp across
his saddle, he bore Cynaral
The
rest of that nightmare ride is a blank in my memory. The next thing I remember
clearly is reining up beneath the lee of the gaunt pile of rocks-on-rocks that
was the Dreamer's Keep. There was no sign of Adric, or of Cynara, no sign of
any living person, nothing but the incandescent lightning that rayed out every
four seconds or so. Narayan's face was a white death-mask, and Gamine's
breathing came in short sobs. I alone was free of the effect; my body throbbed
and tingled with the weird energy set free in the night.
We
flung ourselves from our horses. Gamine tugged futilely at the torn veils, and
for the first time the blurred invisibility wavered and I caught a glimpse of
one blue eye, blue as the sky-lightnings that rose and flamed and died.
The
tower dwarfed us with its massive bulk, rising sheer for hundreds of feet.
Gamine clutched my arm. "Listen!"
All
I could hear was a low, not unpleasant humming, like the singing drone of great
bees, or high-tension wires, but the sound struck them with horror. Narayan
fumbled in his shirt; drew forth the little talisman Rhys had given me, and at
the sight of it his haggard face relaxed. He gripped it tightly in his hands;
drew a long moaning sigh, closed his eyes for a moment.
Somewhere
above us a shivering scream rang out. It broke the static immobility that held
us; Narayan, slipping the Toy inside his shirt again, began to run around the
Keep, Gamine and I panting at his heels. We came around the corner beneath an
arching outcrop of stonework. No one needed to give orders; as one, we
scrambled up on the ledge, crowding close together. I gripped my hand on the
knife in my belt; it had a comforting solid feel. I needed that.
A
framed archway let us look down into the interior of the Keep. Below us a voice
cried out in despair and unbelief. "Adric, Adric! No,
oh no!"
The voice was Cynara's.
Under
our combined weight the glass shattered; we hurled inward. We found ourselves
standing on a great shelf, about ten feet above the floor of the Keep, looking
down at a scene framed in stark horror. Golden Karamy, dwarfed Idris, Ev-arin,
stood in a close circle about a ring of coffins which glowed pale crystal, gleamed
with scintillant radiance. In the hand of each of the Narabedlans was a tiny,
jewelled sword, a Toy, and in the coffins-Gamine screamed. "The
Dreamers!"
Not
till then did we see what Adric was doing. At the center of
the ring of coffins, a dais rose upright, horribly altar-like, and a line of
the mindless slaves, nude, vacant-eyed, moved in single file before that dais.
As each one stepped forward, there was a shuddering moan, the tiny swords
glared with light, and the slave—was not!
And
Adric, Cynara captive between his hands, was thrusting her forward, into the
space between the coffins, toward the nexus of blue light, toward the
Sacrifice-stone of the Dreamers!
The
sight put' me beyond caution. We threw ourselves from the ledge, and went down
into a writhing, sprawling mass of living flesh. A barked command from Idris,
and the slaves swarmed on us, drowning us in smothering bodies. I kicked and
sprawled and thrashed and scratched and bit my way to the top of the heap, and
somehow, for a second, I rolled free.
That
instant was enough. I was on my feet, the knife in my hand. Dragging bodies
clung at my heels; I kicked out savagely, felt my boot strike naked flesh, felt
and heard the pulpy sound of a skull crushing under the impact of my heel. The
sound rocked my stomach, but I was not in a position to be fastidious. My eyes
were swimming in trickling blood. Gamine clawed free, and together we elbowed
out of the press.
Evarin sprang at me. I thrust blindly with
the knife in my hand, ripped into his shoulder, missing the throat by inches. I
caught the talisman Toy from his hand as it fell free. A moment of the
clinging, tearing melee; then Gamine and Narayan and I were standing back to
back in the center of the ring of coffins. There was a long howl of pain and
terror from Evarin and the four Narabedlans flung themselves backward in
terror.
For
within the coffins there was a stirring. . . . But Adric was no coward. He
threw himself backward, grasped Cynara again and with all the force in his lean
arms he flung the girl straight toward the nexus of blue light! Narayan and
Gamine stood frozen, but I broke free, dashed forward, I passed straight across
the cone of blue lightning-Unharmed!
The
blasting energy only tingled pleasantly in my body as I caught Cynara in
mid-air and reeled away from the force that would have meant utter annihilation
for her. Narayan caught Cynara's staggering body from my arms, drew her back
to safety. Then I felt the impact as Adric's tall, heavy body crashed against
me, felt the shock as my fist smashed into his jaw, and heard him grunt as we
locked into a clinch that carried us nearer, and nearer to that center of blue
energy! A moment we swayed there, at the very edge of the lightnings.
Then
Evarin's tensed cat-body lit into the center of my back.
Again
the heat thrust needles through me. Adric was flung clear, but there was an
arch of blue that spanned the vault, a wild scream like the death-cry of a
panther—
The Toymaker was gone!
Within
the coffins the blue lights flared, as if the last shock of energy had freed
them. Quickly Idris and Karamy ran forward, thrusting the talisman Toys against
the very lids of the coffins, but too late. The Toys in the hands of Narayan
and Gamine spat glaring blue fire, and step by step the Narabedlans retreated,
farther, farther, farther. . . .
The
coffins were suddenly empty. As if by magic, three men and a woman clustered
around Narayan and Gamine. In their faces I could distinguish a curious
likeness to Narayan, and to old Rhys; and Narayan, within the circle of
Dreamers, reached out and flung the tattered veils from Gamine. A triumphant
chant rushed sweetly from the lips of the Spell-singer as the veils came away
and at the center of the mutants stood Gamine the Dreamer, dwarfing them all
with her majesty, a Dreamer who had never slept, never been bound. She was a
woman, as I had begun to guess, slender and fair and very beautiful, and I
thought of Isis and the young Osiris as her blue eyes blazed and the lovely
body arched upward in tall freedom from the shrouding veils. The blue
lightnings swirled and faded, and the Dreamer's Keep was bathed with
trembling, glimmering rainbows.
Karamy
"and Idris retreated, step by slow step, slinking backward into the
shadows. Only Adric stood his ground. He looked dazed, his eyes'fixed on
Gamine, but he did not falter.
The rainbows died. The air was void and empty
of energy. The Dreamers stood looking on the crouching Karamy with her hidden
face; on the bent, gnarled dwarf, on Cynara kneeling white and radiant with
joy, on Adric who stood staring at Gamine like a man released from a spell.
Gamine
spoke at last. "Rhys was right; the time had come. The time is here, now.
What next?"
The
circle of Dreamers turned one to another, but Gamine shook her head, her long
pale hair lifting electrically around her face. "No. Why should they die?
They are only an old dwarf, a silly fool who could not make up his mind."
Her eyes dwelt first on Idris, then on Adric. "And
Karamy. They have no power, now we are freed. They had not even power to
see me as I was, not entirely. Pity them in their weakness. Now we are
freed."
Adric
drew himself upright. His slackly-parted lips set firmly, and he looked at
Narayan with a dispassionate, stubborn shrug. Then he turned back to Gamine.
"Kill me, if you
like."
But
it was Narayan who answered, stepping toward the man in crimson with a strange,
choking excitement. "No, Adric. I want you to see what you saw before, to
see what sent you away, to see the thing that drove you mad. Gamine, Gamine,
show him what he saw then."
Gamine came slowly forward
to where Karamy knelt.
"Stand up,
witch."
Slowly,
Karamy rose to her feet. There was no hope in her eyes, no mercy in Gamine's.
The two pairs of eyes, cat-yellow and blue, fought for a moment.
"And
was I wrong?" Karamy demanded at last, raising her head, her beautiful
face set and cold with pride. "I knew you would destroy us, Gamine and
destroy our world. For that I was willing to fight you to the death, and if it
is my death, still. What I have done was what had to be done!"
Gamine
smiled, faintly. "And by that you stand or fall or die, Karamy?" She
turned to the others. "Karamy is beautiful, is she not?"
I
suppose no woman on Earth has ever been, or ever will be, as beautiful as Karamy
the golden. She stood there, proud and straight, amber and golden and
tiger-tawny, and turned her eyes on Adric, and I saw longing and love break
forth in the man's eyes. He gazed and gazed, and Karamy held out her arms, and
Adric, bemused, went toward her. . . .
"Hold him,"
Narayan commanded tersely.
One of the Dreamers made a curious sign with
his left hand, and Adric, arrested, stood gripped in a vice of invisible
force.
"This
was Karamy's power," said Gamine in her clear ringing voice, "but now
see Karamy shorn of the Illusion her Dreamer threw to guard herl See the form
of Karamy that she made me wear! Thisl"
She
reached out and touched Karamy lightly with the little talisman Toy she held.
There
was a gasp of horror from many throats. Karamy— Karamy the
golden, the exquisite. There are no words for the kind and type
of change that took place
before our eyes. I was sick and retching with horror before the metamorphosis
was half complete; Cynara was sobbing softly and piteously; but Adric, frozen,
could not look away.
Gamine's
laugh—low and sweet, and doubly deadly for its sweetness—reached our ears.
"Yet I should be grateful," she murmured, mockingly, "for
Karamy's magic kept my true shape hidden. So I am free, Karamy, free and a
Dreamer, and you, shall I lend you my veils, sister?" Again,
the horrible laugh. "No? Go forth!" Her
voice was a lashing whip, and with a broken wail, the thing that had been
Karamy threw up an arm across the staring sockets and fled away into the night.
And we never saw it again. . . .
So that was the end of
Karamy the Golden, the end.
A
little later I found that Adric and I were staring stupidly at one another,
puzzled, but without animosity. Cynara came and slipped a protecting arm around
Adric and I turned away, embarrassed, for the man was sobbing like a child.
I was amazed and sick with the enormity of
all I had seen and done; I shook and shivered with deadly chill. I suppose it
was reaction.
"Steady!"
Narayan's steely hand on my shoulder kept me once again from making a fool of
myself.
"You've done a great deal for us,"
he said. "I wish we had some way of thanking you, not for myself, for millions of people. Perhaps some day we'll find
a way of sending you back to/your own world, but with Rhys and Karamy
gone—"
Adric,
looking- subdued and speaking with a curious humility, looked at me over
Narayan's shoulder. "There will be a way, some day. It will take time to
find it, but some day—"
I
knew what they meant. The magic of the Dreamers could not be used again in the
old ways, and now their power was an unknown quantity. Adric said, "In the
meantime—"
"In
the meantime, you seem to be stuck with me," I said, and spontaneously we
grinned at each other. I could not hate this man. We had known one another too
well. Freed of his enchantments . . .
He chuckled. "Rainbow
City's big enough for us both."
Narayan
looked from Adric to me; then Gamine's intent face was at his elbow. "I'll
see to these men," she said. "Narayan, they need you." She
motioned to the wakened Dreamers, standing in a dazed circle. "They must
be told why they were wakened, and how. There are slaves to be freed,
armies—"
Narayan glanced guiltily over his shoulder.
"That's so," he acknowledged, gravely; squared his shoulders and went
to his people. I watched him go, feeling as if my one
friend here had deserted me. But it had to be that way. Narayan was not our
kind. He was the sort of man who could remodel a world, but the look he gave
Adric and me told us that we should have a share, if we liked, in the rebuilding.
Gamine
took my hand, and I left Adric and Cynara with a wistful glance. Cynara was
lovely, and very human, and I suppose I had hoped that in some way she would
compensate for my enforced stay in this world. But if Adric was himself again,
could I hope that?
Gamine
and I stood on the steps of the Dreamer's Keep and her voice, soft and wistful,
mourned in the darkness. "Old Rhys knew I had been born with Dreamer
powers, even before I was bound to him. He knew and kept me close to him, hid
me and helped me. One day Adric found out. It changed him; he—we freed Narayan,
together. Then Karamy made me what I was, what you saw. It hurt Adric—hurt
something deep in him. I could have cured him, in time, but Karamy had him
bewitched. She stripped him of power, of memory. Perhaps some day he will remember
that I was whatl was."
"Gamine! Gamine!" Adric's voice cried from within,
and the next moment he rushed forth, caught the Dreamer woman in his arms and
his mouth met hers, and she stood swaying in his arms, laughing and crying
together. Cynara, following slowly, smiled with gentle satisfaction. Over
Adric's shoulder, Gamine's blue eyes met mine. Adric knew.
Cynara's
voice was tenderly humorous as we left them together, in the glory of the
rising red sun. "Poor Gamine," she said, "and
poor Adric. I kept an eye on him, for her sake and Narayan's. I was
sorry for them both. Michael, I knew—I
knew you were not Adric—"
She was very lovely and very human, Cynara,
and I remembered how I had looked into her eyes on our first ride together,
and hated being the person Adric was then.
"I,
a stranger and afraid, in a
world I never made—"
"But
you did," Cynara said softly, and I realized I had spoken the words aloud.
I looked at Adric, clasped in Gamine's arms, standing in the glow of a new day
that was dawning for them. He had found his world.
"But
it is your world too," Cynara said, and taking my hand in hers, led me
down the steps of the Dreamer's Keep, into the strange sunrise. A shout went up
from the men assembled around the tower, waiting; I heard it, drew a deep
breath and then put my arm around Cynara, calling to Adric to come and share it
with me.
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